Angus Eye Tea

Hey, Heifer! This ol' podcast has been around for four years. FOUR. I can't really wrap my mind around it. In this episode, I wanted to have an honest talk about where Angus Eye Tea is currently. I'm not uploading consistently and my spark kinda disappeared this past year. But! There is news in the episode that I think is very important to for you to hear :). Here's to the next chapter. Moo, Elaine If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! I tend to take on a lot. Like, a lot. And usually all at once. Upon reflection, I realized that I do this to somehow “make up” for my bipolar disorder. It's a battle against it, in a way. “See? I can do it all still and even MORE on top of it! You can't stop me!” Unfortunately, this means that I take on too much, I burn out, and get frustrated. Maybe it's a form of denial, or maybe it's me trying to prove myself to others (others who, for clarification, don't exist). I look forward to our lovely chat today, Heifers!  Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! It's advice we've all received at some point or another. “It gets better.” And while I do believe things usually get better with time–situations change, people grow, opportunities come and go–I know that it's a phrase that can feel useless when you're going through it in the moment. I wanted to mull this over with y'all and try to find a way we can use “it gets better” that doesn't feel like an impossible pipe dream.  As a reminder, y'all are truly the best. Thanks for coming on this journey with me

Hey Heifers! I was featured in an article recently as one of the Top 10 Mental Health Podcasts for Women in 2022! And I feel pod-validated enough that, yes, I have published two consecutive episodes. But don't get it twisted–I am still a firm believer in allowing laziness into your life, which is today's topic! Maybe we don't always need to be go, go, go.  Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

I know, I know. I am the goal-setting queen. I had a whole goal-setting series at one point. I've had planners–sometimes multiple ones at the same time. I've made dream boards. I've downloaded apps. I did yearly, quarterly, and monthly tarot spreads. I was that goal-setting heifer. But I'm not trying anything for 2022. It's (hopefully!) less depressing than it seems, which I talk about in this episode. Let's be lazy and have a lovely chat, Heifers!  Moo, Elaine *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! Life can be busy, and when things pick up, it's easy to let hobbies or things that don't keep a roof over your head fall to the wayside. It's no secret that I've had a rough go of it, and then a good go of it, and then just . . . a LOT of IT. (The “it” mostly being a mega to-do list that keeps refreshing). Doing this podcast is sometimes like therapy in that it's good for me to reflect on my life. But, like therapy, sometimes I don't want to think about my life lol. I've come back and I'm going to do things differently from here on out! Thank you for listening, dear Heifers

Hey, Heifers! MERRY CHRISTMAS. If you get stressed about getting gifts or giving gifts then you are not alone, my friend! I tend to get VERY stressed about this, soooo I did a whole episode on it beeboobop it's 1:38 a.m. and I edited this in my childhood bedroom so it's a weird vibe mmk HOLLY JOLLY HEIFER MOOS. Moo, Elaine  you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! So much has happened omg y'all. This episode was originally recorded at the end of November, so it's a tad outdated. The good news is that I have a lot of ideas for upcoming episodes, so this creative break has been WONDERFUL. Enjoy these life updates and I'll talk to you soon! Moo, Elaine If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey Heifers! How many things have you wanted to do in your life that you never did because you knew you'd be awful at it? For me it's theater. I've always thought it'd be fun to be part of a musical but in my head I've decided I would be awful at acting and therefore there's no point in trying. But today I'm telling you to ditch that mindset! Obviously there are limitations on what we can do based on our situations. We also sometimes assign these wants to a version of ourselves we'd love to be that we have decided is perfect but may not actually be so fun and great in the end. Today, however, I ask that you let at least one of these things happen and let it be bad. Awful. Crappy. Just do it and allow it to SUCK. This is kind of the motto for National Novel Writing Month, a challenge that happens every November asking people to write 50k words in the month of November. Since you have to write so much you can't get bogged down in making all your words sound pretty. Some of them are cringey and in my case make me question if I've ever even written an email, let alone a novel. Enjoy the episode and GO BE SHITTY AT YOUR DREAMS! Moo, Elaine If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey Heifers! Meet my third podcast, Wonka Watch! Today, I gift you the very first episode of my new podcast ft. my cohost Felicia. Timestamps 1:32 Welcome to our countdown to the Wonka Rapture! 2:16 Meet your cohosts, Felicia and Elaine! 3:58 Our Wonka origin stories: How did we end up dedicating an entire podcast to Willy Wonka? Who does that? What's wrong with us? 12:22 This is Elaine's third podcast. She's tired. Felicia's friends casually accepted this Wonka podcast, stating “It fits.” 15:43 Wonka Watch: For each episode, we'll review any news or updates we have regarding the Wonka prequel. 20:22 Prior to the Wonka prequel, what was our experience/exposure to Wonka? 20:23 Elaine saw the 1970s movie, 2005 version (hated it). Never obsessed with Wonka but loved the idea of an edible room. Had a dream she would swim in a room of tuna salad. Never read the book. Overall feelings on Wonka were medium to mild dislike. 22:31 Felicia doesn't really care about Wonka. When thinking about Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, it reminds her of a middle school musical version…that may have never existed. 23:20 Uh, wait a sec . . . who is Roald Dahl?? 25:21 To make this podcast as successful as possible, we filled out the John Lee Dumas notebook The Podcast Journal: Idea to Launch in 50 Days. As we all know, John Lee Dumas is the Willy Wonka of podcasting (we have no idea who he is). Here are the questions we completed from his book: 27:49 “Who is the one perfect listener for this podcast?” 33:14 “Why do you want to create a podcast?” 32:48 “What is your commitment to podcasting?” 34:06 “Contact people who would listen to your podcast and interview them.” We both had our friends respond as our interview pool. The results were not promising. 34:26 “How do you feel about the topic Wonka in your life?” 36:29 “Ideally, where would you like to be when it comes to Willy Wonka?” 38:34 “What's your biggest struggle when it comes to Wonka?” 39:09 “What would be most helpful for you about approaching, learning more, or even mastering Wonka?” 41:12 Prequel Predictions: For each episode, Felicia and Elaine will provide their own predictions for anything regarding the Wonka prequel, be it about the film, marketing, merch, the actors, etc. 44:27 Remember: it's really not that important.

Hey, Heifers! I AM SO SORRY MY UPLOADING SCHEDULE HAS BEEN INCONSISTENT FOR MONTHS NOW. I have no intention of stopping Angus Eye Tea. In reality, my life keeps getting busy or to be honest, I have some rough mental health days and just need to take a step back. However, I feel so rejuvenated after getting to go to my FAVORITE conference She Podcasts Live! I forgot how awesome it is to be around your kind of creative weirdos lol. I, uh, also left the conference with a third podcast?? More on that to come, but do go follow @wonkawatch on Instagram thx. Again, I appreciate your patience during these past few months! Your support means the world to me. I hope y'all are doing alright and are enjoying spooky season!  Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I'mmmmmmm baaaaack! Again! Ha ha ha! 02:01 I went to She Podcasts Live (SPL) in Arizona and the journey there was a hoot and a half lol. 10:42 The much needed vacation element to this entire trek, and also werkin' it at a conference. 12:42 I chat about this 4:00 a.m. voice memo I made detailing everything that happened during SPL. Leaving home gave me some much needed space and relief from my car accident shit and other life shit. 18:30ish  A life-changing train museum and the birth of Harvey the Cow. 21:57 I have a THIRD PODCAST: Wonka Watch! Lololol someone pls stop me. 26:26 Final takeaways from She Podcasts Live! 2021. Also, yeah, I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year while having three podcasts lmao. 29:67 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! I will be attending She Podcasts Live next week, an awesome, women-led podcast conference, so I wanted to make this episode part life update, part Angus Eye Tea intro in case I don't have time to do a real one before I head out. I talk about the rough patch I'm in and how October is sort of my make or break month for EVERYTHING. NO PRESSURE HA HA HA.  I'm so excited to see my friends and hopefully find my spark again at this conference. It helped me so much last time. Can't wait to tell you all about it! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 This episode is a lead up to She Podcast Live! 2021, my hopes and dreams for the conference, and trying to figure out what my next step in life is. 3:00 A quick recap on who I am and what this podcast is about! Specifically 2021: quit my job,  9:15 My tarot has been really spooky lately. 12:00 I'm stressed about not having my episode of Sloshbucklers ready in time. I've been sitting on it for about six months. Eek. 14:00 My writing senses are back on! NaNoWriMo is around the corner!  17:30 The continued fatigue of the pandemic. Thanks, Delta and anti-vaxxers. 20:00ish I am having good days, though! 21:15 I don't want you to get the impression that my life is all rainbows and candy just because I come on here and giggle. 24:00 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! Being “left on read” can feel awful. You text someone, they read the response, and then...nothing. You wait and wait and wait, yet hear no reply, even though they've 110% read your message. Anxiety levels INCREASED. However, today I'm going to share with you my philosophies on being left on read, as well as if you're the person leaving people on read. Mental health can get in the way of things like responding to our friends and family, so there are a lot of layers to look at here! Thanks for listening and have a lovely day! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:27 Tech companies want us to be constantly engaging with our phones/their apps because it means they make more money. I think that has trickled down to us feeling we have to respond to texts and messages immediately because of the idea of falling behind or not keeping up.  [I'm tired, I'll add in the rest of these later lololol

Hey, Heifers! Phone calls are not my favorite thing in the world. I tend to feel put on the spot and usually think I'm going to sound like an idiot. But, over the years I've built up some phone call skillz and thought I'd share some of my tips with you! Mostly, just know that it's okay if you hate phone calls. But hey, if you're reading this, go ahead and make that phone call you've been putting off! I believe in you! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Calling all phone-call-phobes! 1:22 Texting has helped reduce the amount of phone calls we've had to escape. But that also means we're a little more rusty at dealing with phone calls. Most likely the phone calls we're having to deal with are business or appointment wise (doctor stuff, prescriptions, insurance, etc.).  6:04 Make a script for your call! 11:16 Don't sweat what customer service thinks of you. They're most likely working from a script as well and have been asked everything under the sun. Kindness goes a long way! 14:15 Make your phone call in a cozy/safe environment (in bed, your torture chamber, McDonald's bathroom, etc.). 15:17 Also, you can come up with contingency plans. The final escape. 16:21 The phone call anxiety gets better the more you do it. I've personally become more comfortable asking questions and that's really helped me feel more confident going into more phone calls.  17:42 What's the worst that could happen? They either don't know the answer to your question or the person is blunt. If anyone is rude to you, you have a choice to not return to those establishments, hang up, or compartmentalize the call and remember that they do not define your worth or character!  20:37 Also, it's okay if you never feel comfortable making a phone call! There are things in this life that we just find yucky no matter what. But it can get better and manageable with work (def recommend therapy--again, I'm not a professional). 18:43 Don't sit on a call. The longer you wait, the worse your anxiety becomes. 21:51 Outro! Stay safe, Heifers! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

Hey, Heifers! Today, I chat about the unexpected twists that happen in our lives and how we handle them. I reflect on what I said last episode, and what I've been saying over the summer, and how it all hits a little different now. I hope you enjoy the episode! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I had a WONDERFUL surprise happen to me last week! 5:51 I've had a lot of unexpected pivots recently. I was already wheeling from my recent life changes (moving, new job). And now, something that was completely out of my control has happened to me. I'm working on accepting that I can't always control the situation but it's hard to digest that idea. 8:45 My coping mechanism as of now is trying to be present.  10:36 I've been trying new things in my life, one of them being ice skating! In South Carolina! During the summer!  14:08 I swear, the Universe is thwarting this podcast with all these life changes lol. I'm excited because I now have things in my life that require a planner which means I CAN BUY 10 PLANNERS NOW HA HA HA HA THAT'S A SANE THING TO DO. 15:33 Back to being in the present and battling freak-out mode with everything-is-obviously-fine-hahaha. 16:45 I'm really grateful, especially for sweatpants. 22:42 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! ANGUS EYE TEA IS THREE YEARS OLD. HOLY COW. MOO. I'm blown away. Hitting year one was cool. Year two was like, wowowowowow wild. But three years? So much has happened! I skimmed through my episodes and it's wild to think that I used to eat blocks of cheese for dinner. Now I accompany them with a slice of bread! I figured I'd talk about how I managed to keep this podcast running for three years, especially since my mental health took some dips here and there. Thanks for listening and being the best Heifer around

Hey, Heifers! Yeah, remember how two weeks ago I was all like, “I'm back, better than ever! Yay! Ready for a regular schedule!” And then I just didn't post at all last week? Well, that is because every undecided thing in my life suddenly made a decision. At the same time. In the span of two weeks, I've moved and started a new job. This episode is incredibly rambly, even by my standards, so hang in there! I *will* be back next week as promised. Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:30 I moved and I have a new job! 2:34 I thought I would be a lot more emotional considering the big life changes I've undergone, but so far I'm doing a-okay. 7:00ish Having a roommate for the first time in four years. 10:15 While everything has been a lot, it's also all felt right. Clicking into place. 12:20 I'm still incredibly confused about my life. We're on a path now that I never considered. It's like I'm experiencing a new color. 17:05 Hoping that having a job will force a routine, keep my brain awake, and let me get back to creating for Sloshbucklers and adding more to my Patreon. 18:53 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifer! I'VE RETURNED! Two months flew by and so much happened. I originally recorded this on July 24th and already I've had two major life changes I can't wait to tell you about. In this episode, I regale you with  my pod break and what I've come to learn during the Life Sabbatical (and if you're new, I basically quit my corporate job in January to figure out my life and it's been a hoot and a half lol). Everything is chaotic right now for me so I'm glad to have Angus Eye Tea back in my schedule to ground me! Have a lovely week, Heifer! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 1:37 What happened during my two month break? 2:11 For starters, I got older and entered my *gasp* late twenties. 9:19 Remember how I said I was going to write a book? 13:00ish Remember how we need money to survive in this capitalistic society? Here's an update on my job hunt emotions. 18:50 I feel like I've finally woken up since January. 20:37 I missed podcasting! Also, the fear of taking a break and never coming back.  22:45 (I, uh, broke my no-caffeine streak and it's been catastrophic.). 25:11 In conclusion… 27:18 Outro! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifer! Today, I’m going to tell you how my May went, talk a bit about June, but overall I’m going to casually mention that I’m, um, taking a break from Angus Eye Tea until August :). You know me, so good at taking breaks. Letting go of that perfectionist tendency ha ha ha. Seriously though, I’m excited to rest and come back better than ever! I’ll be active on my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea where you can hop in for $2! Until then, have a lovely Gemini season and best of luck with that Mercury in retrograde crap. Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 2:27 May - I learned what I want to do and it sent me into a dark depression. YAY. 11:57 Reviewing my May goals lmao. 15:47 Let’s talk about June! 17:31 I’m taking a hiatus from Angus Eye Tea until August. Here’s why. 27:00 Me being dramatic to tide you over for the next few months. SEE YA IN AUGUST! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Heyyyyy Heifer! Quarantine seems to be slowly ending and it’s been weirder than I thought it would be. Like, I knew I’d be socially rusty and would have to remember how to order food, etc. But I wasn’t expecting to have weird depression, or that my brain would short circuit and make it feel like things had always stayed open and that the last 1.5 years didn’t happen. So I figured I’d talk about that whiplash today! Enjoy this episode and get vaccinated! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 No masks, no problems? LOL. 01:23 The transition from 1.5 years of quarantine to pre-COVID routines is so weird to me. It feels like quarantine has gone by in the wink of an eye, like I want to forget all this ever happened. 06:10 For so long we’ve had external stressors affecting us that we may have never acknowledged or processed.  08:09 With things opening again, and us getting to return to our old habits/routines/haunts, there’s this fear that it will get taken away again. 12:01 Some people are going to adjust faster than others (or that’s how it may seem!).  13:15 I’ve had another wave of depression and I think part of it is the overwhelming idea of getting to “come back” to life even though I’ve continued to live life? Like, quarantine wasn’t a pause. We kept going. How do I merge the two? 17:36 TLDR: It’s really okay if your feelings about quarantine ending are: scared, happy, worried, depressed, anxious, elated, overwhelmed, etc. 19:11 My weird outro where today’s scenario is that you get a kickass MEET CUTE OMG HEART EYES. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifer. It’s 1:00 a.m oops. I’m hanging out with my friends and I’m tired which is ironic because this episode is about striving for a healthier sleep routine. But here we are. Mmm. I can’t tell you how hard it is to write this little paragraph that no one reads after midnight. What’s the point? Who am I? Why don’t I call pancakes flap jacks? Flap jacks sounds way cooler. I’m hungry and I want pancakes. Shit, FLAP JACKS. Okay, I’m off to bed lolol jk I’m still listening to the episode and doing timestamps. This hell will never end.  Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Zzzzzzz I’m not a health professional zzzzz feel free to take a nap during this episode zzzzzzzz. 1:13 I have a negative thought pattern that nighttime is my only chance to be happy and the daytime is EVIL. Thus, I stay up late, ruin my sleep cycle, and end up being even more depressed/anxious during the day. 2:40 Notification Fatigue. The fear of being left “on read.” 5:24 Sleep is one of the biggest influences on my mental health. That knowledge stressed me out so much that I suddenly had alarm anxiety. (“Will my alarm go off?” Jerking awake throughout the night thinking I’ve missed my alarm, etc.). 8:58 I’m a night owl and I adjust way too quickly to staying up until 4 a.m. I’m energized by the idea that no one can interrupt me, flashbacks to secret staying up past my bedtime as a kid to read books by a flashlight, etc. 10:38 Recently, my depression has thrown a wrench in my sleep schedule. Obviously the physical symptoms, but I’ve been ignoring tasks and the stress builds up the longer I put them off (and then I do them and it takes me, like, 15 minutes lol).   12:40 Losing sleep over the idea that I will immediately ruin my morning which will then ruin my day :). 15:30 All of this to say, what happens during my day and my thought patterns greatly affect how I go about my sleep. 18:00 Depression makes me want to do less so my body and brain aren’t getting worked out which means there’s nothing tiring me out. 20:00 Dumb thoughts while staring at the ceiling, like fake arguments and disaster scenarios that aren’t real. 24:00 So now I’ve annoyed myself enough about not sleeping and trying to be healthier that I'm finally taking action lol. Reframing the why helped--I want to wake up to be more productive vs. this is actually more about me not wanting to accept that I have a mental health disorder that will be with me for life. 27:30 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor!

Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  Hey, Heifer! I recently cut caffeine out of my life so I could manage my anxiety and I realized it can be a little daunting to embark on such a journey. What drinks secretly have caffeine? What can I use as replacements? Do I gain superpowers now or something? I’ve gathered some of my favorite caffeine alternatives that I enjoy (I’m not a nutritionist though so beware). Also, you can be anxious and enjoy your three cups of coffee a day. You can enjoy whatever level of caffeine works for you! We’re all built differently so at the end of the day, live your best life. Right now for me that means not adding something that heightens my gross ass symptoms :). Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Feel free to fall asleep while listening. I start off by listing my vices. 6:10 Water. Yes, H2O. I’m a genius, I know. 7:25 The drink that makes me think of Beyonce and misleading decaf labels. 14:25 What’s the tea? 17:53 Seltzer vs. soda (RIP Diet Coke). 19:46 Options that don’t require drinking or eating! 25:27 At the end of the day, just check in with yourself. Why are you having caffeine? When? How does it make you feel? 27:08 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor!

Want additional content including a secret blog? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  Hey, Heifer! New month, new goals! I genuinely had no idea May had started. I think I've been living in a perpetual March. Sigh. This month's goals focus a lot on my art. I feel like I'm turning everything into a chore these days so I want to make sure I keep my cReAtIvE sPiRiT alive. And then, of course, I have a car related goal. Are we surprised? My April wasn't great but also every month has its ups and downs. I hope your May is looking bright and beautiful! We can dooooo this, Heifers! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I start the episode off by singing a not Dolly Parton song not called Silver and Gold. Ahem. 1:06 Welcome to the monthly goals series!  2:21 How did April go? Check your nearest drain.  6:40 April Goal 1: Do my taxes 7:58 April Goal 2: Earn money lol 14:50 April Goal 3: Go on three nature outings 16:37 Onward to May! 17:44 May Goal 1: Start The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron 21:24 May Goal 2: Write every day 23:57 May Goal 3: Give my 14 year-old car its first car wash lolololol 27:30 Let’s put out some good vibes for May! (she said in desperation). 29:47 A snazzy outro! Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor!

Hey, Heifer! I’ve been struggling lately. I’m in a depressive episode and on top of that I’ve been agonizing over my future. Like, truly agonizing. I’m pretty sure I’m losing sleep over it. And the main reason why is that I have put so much pressure on myself to figure it all out right now. Or soon. Or really ever. And it feels like I’ll never figure it out, which means I’m afraid to move forward, which means I’m beating myself up for not moving forward, I get paralyzed, etc. etc. etc. Today is a think-out-loud episode about why I do this to myself and ways I can try to navigate these negative thought patterns. Enjoy! Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Somehow, I recorded this episode without making a single Queen joke. 2:25 I put too much pressure on myself and it’s the main source of my anxiety/depression these days. 4:58 Almost five months into my Life Sabbatical and the pressure is rising (mostly from me). Other things have piled onto this crap heap as time has progressed. Yayy. 11:15 How can I fight those nagging questions my brain asks that put me down? What’s next? Why don’t I have a plan? What am I doing with my life? 15:33 Trying to work backwards on my racing thoughts. If I want to live my life with x, y, and z, then how much do I need to earn? Where do I need to live? 21:46 Riding the waves where I feel EMPOWERED and MIGHTY. Do things with intention. Help my brain realize that, yes, I am doing things! I know I can’t just flip a switch and make my depression disappear, but I’m no longer going to feed into excessive wallowing on top of my depression (or do my best!). 27:55 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor!

Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  Hey, Heifer! Once upon a time, I was a Girl Scout. As such, it was my duty to sell Girl Scout cookies. Selling did not come naturally to me yet every year I would drag my dad with me around the neighborhood trying to sell enough cookies to win whatever prize the head organization was offering. Later, I wrote a personal essay about the experience and today I am doing a dramatic reading of it! If you want to read the piece as well as see exclusive Brownie Elaine photos, head over to my Patreon. Enjoy! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 My journey with the Girl Scouts of America and what led me to writing a series of essays about that part of my life lol. 7:57 The dramatic reading of Do-Si-Dos and Do-Si-Dont’s 13:05 The power of capitalism begins to change me. 15:03 One perk: snooping on my neighbors. 17:54 The demonic cookie costumes.  20:15 The glorious beach towel victory. 20:37 Story debrief and overall thoughts on reviewing our past (very meta here since I’m looking at my childhood and myself from a few years ago when I wrote this story). 23:05 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor!

Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea!  Hey, Heifer! I’m depressed! I know, such a shocker. Me? Depressed? I never talk about mental health. Ha. Ha ha. Ha ha ha. Anyway, over the years I’ve come to learn that I’m not very nice to myself when I’m depressed. If I accomplish anything less than 100 percent, I consider myself a failure. Can’t vacuum the entire house? May as well not bother. Can’t clean the kitchen? No point in trying. But that is where my life hacks come in! Procrastination really helped me discover these depression loopholes that I’ve found work for me. I’m not a medical professional so please don’t take this as official advice! We all work differently and what may work for me may not for you and vice versa! Mostly, I wanted to share my experience so you can see that yes, you can slowly walk through the murk of depression. Have a lovely day, Heifer! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 I talk about a Depression Goose a lot in this episode and I’d like to go ahead and apologize. I have never compared my depression to a goose. I don’t know what came over me. 02:40 What my depression symptoms look like and how I can hack them.   06:41 My depression hacks focus on the domino effect theory: If I can make myself do a portion of a task, then that helps me get more and more done. Give yourself some grace. 10:47 Write down things you’ve accomplished to fight the “not enough” thought pattern. 11:49 Cleaning hacks. 14:14 Grocery runs and eating meals other than chips. 17:47 I haven’t been sleeping. End up on a strange tangent. 20:39 Caffeine makes my depression worse, but when I feel tired from my depression I want it. When I have it, it affects my sleep. A vicious cycle is born! 21:37 Okay, I finally get to some sleep hacks. 24:15 Movement! Not necessarily exercise, but ways to still find movement in your day. 27:09 Find a routine that works for your depression! 28:49 Rapid-fire life hacks: Look at your credit cards; take the path of least resistance; don’t overcomplicate it; water, food, clothes, shower, etc. 31:30 Thanks for listening! Lovies to my Patrons: KT & Oti, Vanessa, Rachel, Laura, and Taylor!

Hey, Heifer! Do you ever have one of those weekends where you can’t tell if you’re embarking on some healthy self-reflection or if you’re falling into a pit of depression? I had a weekend like that recently. It feels like everything is up in the air right now and it’s both exhilarating and burdensome. I came across a YouTube channel called Yes Theory and they do all these exciting adventures. I couldn’t help looking at my own life and thinking, “Wow. I’m boring.” In this episode, I think out loud about what “adventure” truly means, what I have or am lacking in that department, and the beautifully tragedy of nostalgia. Yeah, it’s one of those episodes lol. Grab your pinot grigio and enjoy! Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea! Tiers start as low as $1. TIMESTAMPS 00:00 This is my third time trying to record this damn episode because my brain is so scattered so this is it, this is the audio we’re sticking with hell or high water.  00:58 The art of sluggish behavior. 2:43 I had a weird, introspective weekend that inspired this episode. The kind where you’re either really enlightened or depressed lol. 5:03 The sudden stab of nostalgia consumed me due to an obsessive binge of the YouTube channel Yes Theory.  5:51 I’m crushed with the burden of knowing I can change my life however I want (within means).   7:43 This has brought up many questions: Where do I want to live? Do I want to sell everything and live in a van for a year? 8:09 The difference between an adventure for yourself and an adventure to be seen by others/proving your worth/for likes. 11:18 Realizing I set standards for myself to live a “fascinating life” and to prove to myself that bipolar doesn’t hold me back. This way of thinking has...consequences :). I’m losing my travel muscle and it scares me.  13:57 I think nostalgia is a bitch

Hey Heifer! I’m back with my monthly goal series and the first thing I want to do is throw March in the recycling bin and try again next year. You’ll get to hear about my mega car saga and all the self-doubt I battled this month. I am so excited for April, though! Sloshbucklers will go live, I have great content ideas, AND I get my second dose of the vaccine. WE’RE SO CLOSE, GUYS! I hope you have a wonderful month! Moo, Elaine Want additional content including a secret blog and videos? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea! Tiers start as low as $1. TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Intro that includes me exposing how little I know about soccer despite playing it for 10 years. Welcome to monthly goals! 1:46 How my March went. Spoiler alert: It was a 2 out of 5 stars. 2:08 March Goal 1: Launch Patreon. Success! 4:41 March Goal 2: Get a new back windshield for my car. Technical foul had by car, but I def get a Participation Trophy. Enjoy my saga. 19:32 Final goal of March: Steady stream of income. Meh? 22:19 April Goals. Goal 1: Do my taxes oops. 23:57 Goal 2: Earn $500 $1000 this month. 25:32 Goal 3: Go on three nature outings. 28:50 Outro and Patreon Lovies. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

I HAVE A SECOND PODCAST! Sloshbucklers is my evil, inner child and I’m so excited about this project. Sloshbucklers is the uncanny podcast that reviews canned booze and season one focuses on hard seltzer. AHH! This has been my second Secret Project that I’ve been working on and it has been a JOURNEY. In this episode, I walk you through how I created Sloshbucklers from the first idea to the panic to the self-doubt to the first recording. The first three episodes will be live on 4/1/21! Yeehaw! Moo, Elaine Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea with tiers starting as low as $1! TIMESTAMPS 00:00  I HAVE A SECOND PODCAST CALLED SLOSHBUCKLERS! 1:23 How a cool idea I never had time for became a reality, even in the face of depression. 10:14 The honeymoon phase ends and now I’m facing my self-doubt, depression, and anxiety head on while I’m unemployed. 12:51 I realized I was having a hard time making moves on Sloshbucklers because I had a paralyzing fear that people expected a LOT from me since I already had a podcast. 17:55 How did I push through the imposter syndrome/paralyzing anxiety?  22:15 What I’ve learned from this experience: always give it a shot! 26:07 GO DO IT! Patreon lovies, socials, fun times. Talk to you next week! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Have you been putting off your to-do list? Use this episode to get something done! Even if you don’t finish the entire task, you’ll at least have made a dent. In the meantime, I’ll share some of my FAVORITE things (cue Julie Andrews twirl). Enjoy! Moo, Elaine Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea with tiers starting as low as $1! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Select a task or chore to complete while you listen! 03:06 My favorite relaxing video with ambient music: 3 Hours of Amazing Nature Scenery & Relaxing Music for Stress Relief. 05:39 My fav pharmacy is CVS and Walgreens can go away. 12:39 Library apps for audiobooks and ebooks, Libby and Hoopla. 15:15 A book series I regrettably enjoy. 18:00 PRETTY BOXES ARE AMAZING. 21:07 The Taco Bell spicy potato taco. 23:11 Liquid IV is my favorite hangover item lol. 24:49 Music: fever dream by mxmtoon; right where you left me by Taylor Swift 27:19 My last favorite thing is my dog, even if she refuses to learn how to roll over. 28:21 How did your chores go? Did you make a dent? Yay! 28:50 A fabulous outro. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Bipolar has its ups and downs, and today we’re going to talk about the up: manic. I used to cherish my manic episodes. I wasn’t sure what happened, but it was a miracle that my severe depression had broken and I finally was able to get things done AND do them really well. I had energy! I could clean the whole house. I could get ahead on my projects and hell, start some new ones while I was at it. I was social, witty, funny. My brain was back in action. I drank coffee and it made everything feel even better, so I drank more and more. At some point, the fun ran out and all that was left was anxiety. The same level of go-go-go energy was there, the same sleepless nights, the same brain jumping to a new thought every few seconds.  In this episode, I go through my symptoms of manic and all the confusion that comes with it. Below, I’ve linked previous episodes that either indirectly talked about my bipolar or were recorded when I was or was about to be manic. What fun! Have a lovely week, Heifers. Moo, Elaine Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea with tiers starting as low as $1! TIMESTAMPS 00:00 The hype begins. 1:17 Explaining the basics of manic/hypomanic episodes. I’ll be using “manic” as the main term for the remainder of the episode. 3:22 Examples of times I panicked on the podcast, as well as episodes that were directly about me being bipolar but I talked around it because I hadn’t unleashed that revelation yet! Episodes that were secretly bipolar related: Why I Didn’t Settle On My Medication How to “Come Out” with a Mental Health Disorder The surge of guests in April/Spring of last year My ShePodcasts Live 2019 Experience (Anxious Traveler): I stay up late folding laundry, talking about how 2019 is “not my year,” feeling very anxious One I didn’t mention in the pod, How to Manage Multiple Creative Projects | this is a cry for help lol 9:21 What are my manic symptoms? First up: talking fast. 12:51 Racing thoughts are fun, aren’t they? SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK. 15:27 Caffeine abuse and cleaning up my act so I didn’t have to go through another medication change. 19:32 Brain is only on one setting: GO, GO, GO. Which means that once the happy drains away, anxiety picks up and moves at the same speed. Everything becomes explosive. 22:35 Those are my main symptoms, and as a reminder, this would go on for a few days, not just for an hour. I used to wake up and wait for a beat to see what kind of day I would have: happy and joyous? Extremely anxious? Super depressed? 23:33 Why it’s easy to love my manic episodes and how it’s hard to try to quell it. 26:23 Overall feelings of my manic. A question I have to ask myself a lot these days, am I happy and excited? Or am I manic? I don’t always know the answer. 30:13 SHOUT OUT TO MY PATRONS: KT and Oti from For Your Reference pod, Laura, Taylor from Who Knows? pod, Rachel, and Vanessa from Fabled pod!  *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey Heifers! I stopped doing my monthly goals series because my life kinda fell apart and I was barely functioning, let alone setting goals and trying to complete them. But now that I’m in the Life Sabbatical and am seeking structure in my routine, I’m bringing them back! The biggest news is that AET has a Patreon now! Tiers start as low as $1 so if you feel inclined, go ahead and check out the below link to see what additional content you can enjoy!  Have a lovely March! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Why I’m reinstating the monthly goal episodes, and why it’s helpful to set those intentions. 06:00 Goal #1: Launch and maintain my Patreon!! (www.patreon.com/anguseyetea). 16:26 I’m launching my secret project on April 1st. 19:02 Goal #2: Fix my warped, dysfunctional back windshield on my car lolol. 22:29 Goal #3: Figure out a source of income. 26:12 Outro! *** Want to support Angus Eye Tea? Check out my Patreon at www.patreon.com/anguseyetea with tiers starting as low as $1! If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

Hello, Heifer! For the past few weeks, I’ve really beaten myself up. I felt paralyzed trying to work on anything and it just recently dawned on me that I’m suffering from crippling imposter syndrome. Every move I made I doubted. I thought of all the ways it could go wrong and how stupid I would look. I’m also having a weird identity crisis since I quit my job. My job used to define me - back when I used to meet new people, usually the second question they’d ask would be, “and what do you do?” And now I don’t have that easy answer of “project manager.” So that added more shame on my Shame Shit Pile. But, it looks like I’m coming out on the other side of this funk, so I wanted to share my experience with you while it was fresh! Enjoy the episode! Moo, Elaine TIMESTAMPS 00:00 A weird, Western intro about how imposter syndrome has been on my mind. 01:50 Thank you so much for the wonderful responses to my bipolar episode

Hey there, Heifer, and welcome to Angus Eye Tea - the podcast all about anxiety, depression, and now, BIPOLAR DISORDER! WEEEEEEE! Yes, you’ve been punk’d for over a year now, SUCKER. All jokes aside, a little over a year ago, I saw a psychiatrist for the first time and when she put the sorting hat on me, it yelled out “bipolar.” There’s been a lot of changes in my life, as you can imagine, and just when everything was leveling out for me, the pandemic hit. This is kind of a scary episode for me to post because I don’t know how people will react. I don’t know if this will affect any opportunities for me in the future, like if future friends/coworkers learn I’m bipolar and decide to stay away from me. I wouldn’t want to hang out with those people anyway but you get the picture. I don’t want to become a terrifying demon because I’m bipolar - I’d like to earn that right fair and square! I’m excited to talk to you more about my experiences with bipolar disorder. Thank you for all of your support. It means the world to me.

Sup, my beautiful bovines? DJ Luminous Buckshot Love is here to break down some sweet, sweet listener submissions in this episode. The timestamps below will guide you through this podra sutra. From catfishing to forbidden love, you’ll be so enrapt that you’ll forget you need to finish binging Bridgerton.* *I’ve made this sound very raunchy but in reality, this is an incredibly goofy episode. Moo-ch love, DJ Luminous Buckshot Love TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Welcome to Slow Jams night. I’m your host, DJ Luminous Buckshot Love, the winner of the DJ name poll.  01:30 Listener EARRLLL Grey wants to talk about CATFISHING.  07:03 ClaudeHasClaws asks, “What is your ideal Valentine’s Day gift?” 08:40 UnbotheredQueen has never had a Valentine and she, along with us, don’t give a f*ck about societal standards.  09:55 Overall, the Heifers have *feelings* about Valentine’s Day. 11:30 Poll Dancing time! 19:32 InJailSendBail asks how to find love during this quarantine time...and I guess in prison, as well? 21:24 NoNudesNoNoodles shares a horror story from her Galentine’s party.  25:20 Creative Writing Professor crush theory. 26:30 DJ Luminous Buckshot Love’s Love Resume. 28:15 DJ Luminous Buckshot Love signs-off. 28:40 I sign-off and hint that next week’s episode will be a doozy... *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/ . Music Credit Rendezvous-  https://www.purple-planet.com Sneaky Snooper by Audionautix is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 license. https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ Artist: http://audionautix.com/ YouTube’s Audio Library

Hey Heifers! First of all, I edited this episode in ONE HOUR. Fern kept DEMANDING attention today (Tuesday), like, more than usual, so I almost didn’t have this episode ready for y’all. But I pulled all my mighty editor muscles together and voila! Apologies if I overlooked any oddities (the singing does not count though, that’s gold). The “pandemic wall” was trending on Twitter and I thought it was about time we did a group chat about how we’re all doing. I think it’s helpful to remind ourselves that we’re not going through this alone and that yeah, feeling exhaustion, fatigue, brain fog, and other fun is something that is happening to a LOT of people right now, including me. I know my scrappy lil’ Heifers will pull through, and I hope you find some peace this week.

Hey, Heifers! Do you ever stop yourself from pursuing a job, activity, or a trip because “that’s just not something you do?” Have you ever seen people wear hats and thought “wow, I wish I could be a hat person” but never questioned why not? It’s really easy to create rules for ourselves that prevent us from going after the things we want in life. A few of mine, for example, include being the person who bikes everywhere, rocking a freelance/contract gig, or becoming a solid dAnCeR. All of these things are in my “I wish I could” category, the “but I could never for really no reason" list. In this episode, I go through some personal examples of when I broke my toxic life rules I burdened myself with and how I built up the courage to do so! TIME STAMPS 00:00 Yeeeeehawwwww  01:36 What are these self-made life rules? 02:08 The Life Sabbatical Update Segment! Now that I’m on my rumspringa, I’m going to update you each week with what I’m doing as an unemployed diva. This is mostly so I keep myself accountable but I want to document my journey so you can learn from my mistakes (or my wins. Yes. Positivity.).  06:55 Your Life Rule Book - what rules have you made up for yourself that may not be true?  11:18  How trying to wear lipstick changed my LIFE (dramatized for effect). 14:41 How adopting my dog sooner than I thought I should be allowed to changed my LIFE (again, continuing to add flair). 15:16 The obvious one - how quitting my job CHANGED MY LI- (we get it, plz stop). 16:40 Things that still seem wrong, like moving out of state or to a different coast. I could never do that, right? Mmmmmright? 18:06 You can always try something out and if you don’t like it, you can go back to what you were doing before! Trial and error. 19:15 Pros and cons lists are helpful but sometimes you just gotta go with your gut instinct. Here’s how I developed my intuition. 22:05 Fear of the unknown can inhibit you. Do research! 23:20 But don’t get too caught up in the details! There will always be “more” to dive into, and until you do the damn thing, you can’t really know what it will be like for you. Alas, you can’t always Google your life. 24:06 For some reason, I gave you homework: Make a list of things you’ve always wanted to do but ruled out because it just “wasn’t something you do.” Research for 10-15 minutes what you would need to do to make it happen. See if this is something plausible you could start to work toward. 25:18 Outro! You did it! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey, Heifers! Welcome to my Life Sabbatical. I have officially left my corporate job of three years without having another job lined up. Some of you guessed that this was my Secret Life Project so extra points to you! I can’t begin to tell you what a wild ride it’s been leading up to my last day. Today’s episode breaks down why I made this decision and what my plans are moving forward! Also, hi Potential Future Employer! Consider this a *snazzy* and *swell* audio cover letter.* *Of course, if you’d like more background music or some dinosaurs screeching in the background, just let me know. I didn’t see any audio guidelines on your website. Thx. TIME STAMPS 00:00 Time to reveal MY SECRET LIFE PROJECT. 00:56 Why I kept it a secret. 02:15 Okay, the OFFICIAL reveal. 04:12 WHAT? The background on what led to this decision. 09:45 WHY? Why did I decide this was the best choice for me? 14:12 HOW? How am I going to handle this big change? How did I make this happen? (The answer always involves a blood sacrifice btw). 19:38 WHAT’S NEXT? “The Plan.” 28:05 Final Thoughts 30:26 Outro! It’s 1:35 am on Wednesday as I edit this so you can just tell I’m really on top of my life rn. Good night! *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hey Heifers! Since I am clearly v enlightened and one with the Universe, I took it upon myself to provide you with 30 minutes of relaxation that doesn't focus AT ALL on the current state of affairs. There are a few times where it pops up due to my stress but on the whole? A totally solid meditation. Well, aside from when my intern interrupts me worried about my mental state. So it's mostly a government coup-free meditation. Um. Enjoy? Moo, Elaine TIME STAMPS 00:00 Since everything has been so stressful lately, I figured we should do a super real, professional, totes legit meditation! 01:23 Welcome to your guided meditation for coups. We're going to try to not think about them! 03:35 First diversion: You are now a bear in a forest. A sassy, extended story begins involving your salmon and an evil canoe of rats. Namaste. 07:30 The rats abandon ship, leaving behind the Rat King they supported for oh so long. 11:11 Your guide has a breakdown. 11:50 Mmk, let’s try this again. Onto Numerology! 14:25 Your guide has a psychic vision! 15:45 Um, okay, this still isn’t working, is it? Let’s try another visual: a farmer’s market with peaches! 19:30 A dog from the farmer’s market follows you and demands you give hIM a PEACH. 22:09 This...isn’t going well. Let’s visualize scrolling through Twitter to calm us down. 26:22 Congratulations on reaching the end of your meditation. You should feel SO serene now and not have that pesky coup on your mind. Nope, not at all. Ha ha!  *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

HAPPY NEW YEAR, HEIFERS! I’m BACK. Today, I’m going to go through 2020, what I learned, etc. etc., and then just list some loose hopes for 2021 (I’m not foolish enough to expect anything ha ha ha hasdkfjasfd). I also mention THE SECRET LIFE PROJECT. I should be back on my regular schedule now so I PROMISE I’ll talk to you next Wednesday! Moo, Elaine TIME STAMPS 00:00 Let’s exorcise 2020, Heifers. 03:35 Personal shit from 2020, starting with my new meds leveling out and then the world shut down lol. 08:15 With my new meds, I finally had head space to look at my life and I came to the realization that I didn’t like what I’d set up for myself. So I felt stuck and then entered a LOVELY depression from May-November. :) (Also, Secret Life Project en route!). 10:16 2020 was the year I made a LOT of bold moves. Some of my anxiety muscles weakened but I started flexin’ a little and I promise I’ll never make a workout analogy ever again. 12:47 Creativity SUCKED this year. Re: September-December for this podcast whereee I kinda disappeared here and there. Sigh. 16:47 2021. I’m not setting goals per se. Maybe loose expectations. Suggestions. Gentle whispers to the moon. 18:31 Act sooner, not later. 22:04 I want to read MORE. MWHAHAHA. I almost didn’t hit my 2020 reading goal but then at 11:30 pm on NYE my friends were like, “fuck no”  and pulled up a bunch of royalty-free stories and just WENT and read them out loud to me. I also want to be more active in the podcast community. (I recommend Who Knows? and Dungeons and Daddies). 26:37 I’d like to keep a life schedule with this pod and, idk, laundry? Grocery shopping? Hobbies? The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild? 29:05 In 2021, let’s all get weird with our creativity.  30:31 This year’s mantra: Go for it. And a sizzling outro. *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

GASP! Could it be? I uploaded on a WEDNESDAY?? It's a Christmas miracle! Now that the special is over, I wanted to gift you with some of the bloopers we had while slapping this cursed thing together. I hope you enjoy it! Stay safe and be well this holiday season, Heifers! Moo, Elaine *** Due to the global pandemic, Elaine finds herself spending Christmas alone with her dog, Fern. Suddenly, Father Time of 2020 swoops down and kidnaps Fern so he can continue his nefarious plans to make 2020 not only the worst year, but to make it last forever! After a miscalculation, Elaine finds herself trapped in Frost Port, the town of exiled dark Christmas stories. With the help of these banished tales, Elaine devises a scheme to not only save Fern, but time itself! Can she do it before time runs out? Will she get eaten by a spirit reindeer? And how many organs will she lose along the way? *** Cast: Elaine Best: Elaine, Yule Cat, Baby New Year Kameron Union: Herbert/Father Time, Snegurochka Terri, Mixing Up Midlife: Frau Perchta https://mixingupmidlife.libsyn.com/website Kathy, Women Who Sarcast: Krampus, Match Girl/Sofia https://womenwhosarcast.libsyn.com/ Michelle Rubin, Highly Recommended ft. Steve: Karen and Kevin https://www.recopod.com/ Fern: Director *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Due to the global pandemic, Elaine finds herself spending Christmas alone with her dog, Fern. Suddenly, Father Time of 2020 swoops down and kidnaps Fern so he can continue his nefarious plans to make 2020 not only the worst year but to make it last forever! After a miscalculation, Elaine finds herself trapped in Frost Port, the town of exiled dark Christmas stories. With the help of these banished tales, Elaine devises a scheme to not only save Fern but time itself! Can she do it before time runs out? Will she get eaten by a spirit reindeer? And how many organs will she lose along the way? *** Cast: Elaine Best: Elaine, Yule Cat, Baby New Year Kameron Union: Herbert/Father Time, Snegurochka Terri, Mixing Up Midlife: Frau Perchta https://mixingupmidlife.libsyn.com/website Kathy, Women Who Sarcast: Krampus, Match Girl/Sofia https://womenwhosarcast.libsyn.com/ Michelle Rubin, Highly Recommended ft. Steve: Karen and Kevin https://www.recopod.com/ Fern: Director *** If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/ *** Music Attributions   Epidemic Sound The Angels Weep by Audionautix is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 license. https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ Artist: http://audionautix.com/ Carol Of The Bells by Audionautix is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 license. https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ Artist: http://audionautix.com/

Happy Thanksgiving! I truly believe in the power of positive thinking and gratitude. But I also truly believe in the JOY and DELIGHT in a fun bitch session. Thus, I give you this episode: a list of my most pressing complaints. Shoutout to Ariana Grande for the iconic phrase "thank u, next." Feel free to skip around your fav hot takes below: TIME STAMPS 00:00 Starting off with some major sass. This bodes well. 01:19 I explain the joys of complaining lol. 03:18 We now enter the first thank u, next! Low-fat hot chocolate. 05:40 My parents are canceling their Netflix subscription that I mooch off of HOW DARE THEY. 09:53 People who claim to be obsessed with Dolly Parton but really are just jumping on the bandwagon. Yes, this is a very petty complaint. Yes, I am V PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS. 11:53 Maskne is fkin rude. 12:51 Side quest about the Zoom beauty filter and the compliments you get when you use a filter. Like, does it count?  14:05: Kk, back to maskne talk. 14:26 Hallmark-type movies that get sequels. No. You don’t...why. Why did you do this? 18:01 Elf on a Shelf. I dislike puppets and dolls. I think this tradition is horrifying and it sounds like a lot of work ew. 20:45 Plz don’t come for me, but I think turkey is overrated at Thanksgiving. It’s all about the sides, my Heifers! Mashed potatoes, cornbread, green beans, green beans shoved into a casserole, an ambiguous dish your aunt brings where the main ingredient is mayonnaise...THEY are the real stars of the show. 25:17 EARLY Black Friday. Because Black Friday wasn’t enough. Stop enticing me! 28:23 Closing thoughts where I attempt to make some positivity for you.  29:03 My outro which includes angry rock music OOO WAH AH AH. If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Get your Hipster Witch on at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea! Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order. I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Hello, Heifers! I’m cranking away on some life things and the Christmas special, so to save my brain (and soul) I decided to rerelease one of your favorite episodes, “What I Wish I’d Known as an Anxious, Depressed Teen.” When this episode first dropped, I had so many of you reach out and talk about your own struggles going through high school with a mental health disorder. Current high schoolers, college students, and post-grad peeps shared similar stories of wtf and sighs, and it was this lovely thing to know that we weren’t alone in that awkwardness! But what probably shocked me the most was the amount of parents I had reach out to me. It’s hard to share stuff with parents, right? So apparently, I became this weird in between where some ‘rents were like O H , wait, I think that’s going on with my kid! I didn’t even know I had parents listening to my podcast (aside from my pod friends, lol, hi guys!). So, since we’re approaching finals and I’m sure this school year has been extra sPeCiAl, I wanted to share this episode with you once again. Cheers! If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Get your Hipster Witch on at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea! Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order. I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Time Stamps 00:00 Welcome! Election week was stressful and I’m glad it’s over. I will miss the rando texts from supporters for campaigns asking me multiple times a day about who I’m voting. It made me feel loved.

Hello, Heifers! I’m really worn down these days. I’m very stressed and it’s drained me both emotionally and physically. I recorded this episode at the last minute and decided to give myself some grace and not make it as long as my usual episodes. Today, I talk about how I’m doing, my thought patterns, and how even though I feel down, it’s gonna be okay. I also share COOL and FUN updates about my air filter and donating blood lololol. If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Get your Hipster Witch on at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea! Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order. I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome to the episode! I’m going to talk about juggling creative projects so naturally, I start off by lecturing about the harms of bath bombs. 01:48 Mmk, now I’m describing my current issue: my brain is not functioning. I’m tired, uninspired, and have excelled at becoming a sloth in all aspects of my life. This has made it hard for me to be creative and get anything done. I’m also v stressed lol. :) 04:43 To remedy this, I have (accidentally) set up a creatively packed November for myself. It will be a lot, starting with National Novel Writing Month where I will write 50k words in 30 days.. 08:29 ...and working on Angus Eye Tea’s Christmas special…while doing weekly podcast episodes. 10:30 ...and finally, a Mystery Life Project. I can’t talk about it (I know, sorry!) but just know that a) it’s boring, b) it’s frustrating but, c) it will make me happy in the end. 12:36 Here’s how I’m going to survive this month: First, streamline the basics of my life (laundry, trash, working out, showering, etc.). 18:27 Next step: Break out these projects step-by-step and make timelines. I use BestSelf’s Project Action Pad (and you can get 15% off with code HEIFERS), but you can just use a spreadsheet or a piece of paper! This helps the project feel less overwhelming and gives me a better idea of what tasks to prioritize. (I’m a project manager by day, can you tell? 23:13 On my original list, I titled the third step “maintain sanity” which I think meant not beating myself up as I go through this next month, changing my work environment, asking for help, giving my perfectionism a break, etc. But who knows what I truly meant. I’m a sloth, remember? 27:18 Sleep. Sleep is something humans should do. I need to sleep this November. Heh. Heh heh. Heh heh heh heh heh heh. 28:21 My last step to not combusting is remembering that I made these projects because I LOVE doing this and IT’S FUN!  29:47 Final thoughts, the Mystery Life Project, and a pathetic attempt at a self-pep talk with an idiotic metaphor. 31:29 The outro in which I FORGET THE NAME OF MY PODCAST. I’VE DONE THIS FOR TWO YEARS. I’VE SAID IT THOUSANDS OF TIMES. GOOD GOD WOMAN. For some reason, I’ve decided to take on three, big creative projects in November: NaNoWriMo, the Christmas Special for Angus Eye Tea, and continuing my weekly episodes. As someone who has dedicated three hours a day to watching Frasier these past few weeks, that’s a lot to take on. I needed to create a survival guide for this coming month and I figured I would share it with you all in case you’re in a similar boat, creatively or not! If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode at  www.anguseyetea.com.  Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Get your Hipster Witch on at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea! Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order. I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

Get your Hipster Witch on at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea! Time Stamps: 00:00 G’day, mate. I have some weird anecdotes to share with you today. 01:23 HAPPY SNAKE-MATING SEASON!! I’m about to share some recent encounters I had with our tube-sock-reptilian friends. 06:31 I’m acquaintances with an alligator named Gucci. Gucci was recently part of a crime. Teens were involved. A mystery adult was their ring leader. This is his story. *dun dun* 07:46 I read the facts of the crime from an official email I received from my apartment complex. 11:11 Now that Gucci is free, I’m worried that I’m going to step on him in the middle of the night since he now has a vendetta. Fern finds Gucci fascinating and while Fern could totes pull off the adorable three-legged-dog lewk, it’s not a vibe I’m going for. 13:01 I’ve begun a Casual Human Interaction obstacle course to keep my minor socializing skills intact. It’s awkward. 15:30 My latest obstacle course is a horribly laid out grocery store that has cheap peanut butter and fancy beer. I never shop there but I needed the peanut butter and fancy beer. An awkward moment with sliced cheese, respecting private aisle moments, and lots of scurrying. 19:48 Another anxiety of mine is hosting people in my home. Now that I can go to the cheap peanut butter store with the fancy beer, I’m going to start inviting my bitches over. 22:24 Prime Day. The glorious Amazon Prime sale that makes you brag to your friends that you got a toaster for $3 off. My white whale? Shadow boxes for my travel memorabilia.  24:46 Creative update--I’M WORKING ON THE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL! And it’s going (not so) GREAT! I went to work on it and oops, plotted out my novel for National Novel Writing Month. 28:10 Overall, I’m okay, I’m just stuck in this gross inbetween phase of my life. But it was nice to focus on these weird anecdotes! 29:14 A snake-free outro. Not gonna lie, Heifers, I had no idea what to talk about today! I realized I had all these weird, short stories of things that have happened to me recently so I figured why not talk about them ALL! I encounter a lot of wildlife in my day-to-day life and I forget that it’s not normal to see otters crossing the street for most folks. Enjoy this fun ferris wheel of life updates and tidbits! If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!). Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order. I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/  

Get your Hipster Witch on at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea! Time Stamps: 00:00 This is a great time to check your mail so you can clip coupons while listening to this episode. 00:50 Explaining emotional spending and how depression can make it worse. Yay! 01:48 An ironic plug for my new line of Hipster Witch shirts! I’ve had my own Hipster Witch t-shirt for ages and people kept asking me where I got it, so I decided to just make it public and let the masses have at it. You can find that #swag at www.teespring.com/stores/angus-eye-tea. 04:04 Money has always felt like a quick fix, especially when it comes to eating out. Depression can cloud my memory and warp time so I tend to forget that I’ve already made smaller purchases earlier in the week. Thus creates a parade of surprise packages showing up on my stoop every two to three days. 07:01 I was quite depressed in 2017-2018 and once, in the span of about two months, I spent $2,000. This does not include rent, bills, necessities, etc. I thought new items would change my day-to-day life and thus change how I felt (which at the time was shitty). 10:22 The tale of my spontaneous trip to Japan in 2017. At the time, I was at peak Depressed Elaine: My apartment had no water, I had a dog who wasn’t potty trained, and I frequently ate blocks of cheese for dinner. 15:08 That trip didn’t set me up well for future travel spending. The Japan trip helped my depression so much (despite the hit on my savings) that I sought trips every time I was depressed, regardless of my money sitch. This turned into escaping my depression rather than working through it. 16:26 After I’ve spent a lot of money, I get so stressed that I enter this “fuck it” attitude about spending. Like, I’m already in the red, might as well just buy EVERYTHING. 17:41 I’ve recently entered a retail therapy phase and it’s not cute. 2020 fatigue, life crossroads, and stuck at home probably prompted the latest wave. Hoping that items will bring me relief. I bought sherry glasses, I’m planning on buying a car, gettin’ bougie from my Taco Bell and upgrading to Chipotle, etc. 19:41 How I curb my retail therapy: 19:55 Let myself add EVERYTHING to the cart but not buying it. It’s easier for me to make a quick purchase if there’s only one or two items in the cart, but if it’s HUGE, then I tend to pause, overthink all the purchases, and then close out the window after overwhelming myself. (And yes, that’s some self-manipulation lol). 20:55 I don’t make purchases on the same day that I find them. I wait three days (if possible). 21:56 Wait and save up to buy a big ticket item so you don’t feel guilty about getting it. I like to use the Digit app. 22:50 If all else fails and I end up pulling out my credit card, then I’m only allowed to retail therapy on items that have purpose. I have a list of items on my phone that I’d like to get that I need but haven’t felt the urge to get just yet. Not the best, but at least the things I’m buying aren’t as much of a waste of money. 26:49 If you’re buying a program or class, make sure you’ll actually follow through with it. If you haven’t made time in your schedule to use it, or your heart isn’t really in it, then buying it won’t just make that new, fun thing happen. Also, I’ve tried pushing through my motivation by putting down a lot of money on things I wanted to make myself do and it’s backfired. Sometimes it’s worked, other times I’ve been too depressed to care, said “fuck it,” and just lost all that moola. 28:36 2020/COVID/Quarantine causing retail therapy spikes. 31:35 #BudgetSavvyBitches. A lovely outro as always. “Fiscal Feelies” was another title option I decided to forgo for this episode (though I do have minor regrets about that choice). We’ve all gone through retail therapy, but when you have depression and a credit card, things can get pretty dicey. I’ve struggled with emotional spending for a very long time. Most of my purchases didn’t bring me the joy I sought out, but that didn’t stop me from constantly adding to my cart. I talk about some methods that have helped me curb this incessant shopping and include personal examples of comfort buys/depression purchases along the way! If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).* Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order. I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome to a long episode. Just know that this was a three-day editing process for me and all I do is talk. I’ve cranked out multi-track episodes with background music in less time than this episode took. I don’t know why. It’s brought on an existential crisis. Anywho, ENJOY. 03:00 We enter the goals portion of today’s episode! I chit chat about my September and why I find making my goals public helpful. 04:13 First Goal Reflection: Creative Sundays 09:05 Second Goal Reflection: Get my shit together and bring back the habits I’ve been working on ever since I started this goals series. (Less Taco Bell, less caffeine, sleep, etc.). 12:01 Kk, time to RAVE ABOUT OCTOBER AHHHH IT’S TIME, IT’S SPOOKY WITCH TIME. We also are in the final quarter of 2020 like bless get me tf out. 13:19 October Goal #1: Purge EVERYTHING. Clean out my apartment, my bad thoughts, and maybe take a shower every now and then. 15:18 October Goal #2: Bring back that glorious routine I used to have with this podcast where it didn’t consume my every waking moment. 17:05 October Goal #3: I make a mantra even though I’m not a fan of mantras. Like, I feel like a big poser when I try to make mantras but I pushed through the fEaR and made one for this month: move. As in, get my ass off of my couch. Not focus on the same thoughts/memories over and over and over again.  21:07 How I made it to my 100th episode with Angus Eye Tea (huzzah!). 23:24 What I’ve learned about podcasting, and podcasting with a mental health disorder (pesky bastard). 23:32 Sharing your story can be cathartic but you need to know your boundaries. 26:51 It’s okay to not fit in with what a podcast is “supposed” to be. I used to feel like I was too extra and I needed to reign it in to be more successful and now I cackle about that idea while I guzzle wine and edit my episode eight hours before it’s supposed to be released. 28:31 Perfectionism needs to die. The joy of podcasting will slowly dwindle if you keep pushing your limits, such as NEVER missing an episode, cutting out every time you breathe because, yes, you are a robot and people can’t POSSIBLY know you breathe my GOD. 30:37 The stats or number of likes on an episode don’t matter if I enjoyed the episode I made, good or bad. 32:08 Having a podcast provides my week with structure which is great for my mental health! Making an episode is enough motivation for my depressed self to focus on something and accomplish a task, even if at the time it feels like I’m making a crap episode. 34:41 What I’ve learned on podcasting about mental health. 34:53  Never try to be what you aren’t. (For me, mental health professional, perfect person, Holier Than Thou, etc.). 36:59 Make sure you’re okay bringing up certain topics or stories from your personal life.  37:46 Batch recording is the Depressed Podcaster’s elixir. 38:53 You will not run out of ideas! Your emotions will change, your reactions will change, and your perspective on anxiety/depression/mental health will change as you grow so don’t be afraid to bring up old topics. Life is ever changing and will provide you with the prompts you need, and that goes for any creator. 39:42 Why do I podcast about my mental health? 41:51 Just another amazing outro. Congrats--you made it to the end! Yeehaw! Howdy, Heifers! IT’S MY 100TH EPISODE. I love that for such an important milestone, I was three days late on uploading this episode. Oops, my b. But, regardless, I combined the goals episode with a chat about podcasting and sharing your mental health with THE WORLD.  If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).* *This is a bold face lie. **But also, can we acknowledge that it’s running again, even as ugly as it is right now? Wow, I’m slaying. Slay. Honestly, I don’t think anyone reads these notes but if you do on my insta post promoting this episode, leave an  . I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/

Time Stamps: 00:00 Congrats, you found the beginning of the episode. Yeehaw. 01:55 Describing ‘Rona Rut: The Sequel and how it’s different than the first bout I had. 02:50 My anxiety is up because I don’t have as many opportunities to practice dealing with it. 06:40 Now that I’m cruising on my new meds, I have more time and clarity to evaluate the way I’m living my life and boo, I ain’t feelin’ it. I’m struggling to merge New Elaine with Old Elaine. 08:20 Setting better boundaries while working from home. Taking PTO for mental health 10:30 Self-care waves: dance, making MY OWN TACOS, cleaning up my shit. 12:56 Realizing I have a hard time letting go of items and THOUGHTS WOW. 13:57 Update about if I’m moving or not and also how I’m making big life decisions and not beating them to death like I normally do. 16:43 Existential crisis. What do I want to do with my life once the world opens up again? 18:04 Before I was on the right meds, a lot of my time was spent trying to stay afloat. Now that I’m better, I can’t help but feel like I “wasted” so much time and have to somehow make up for it. 20:32 I’ve become really good at procrastinating on my creative projects and I’m both proud and sad. 24:02 We all get into ruts, even when it isn’t 2020. 25:53 My sick af outro mofos. Howdy, Heifers! I talked about the ‘Rona Rut, (when you feel stuck and there happens to be a global pandemic and all hell has broken loose), when we were five weeks into quarantine so I wanted to do an update after having been quarantined for six months. I’m out of the practice of using my anxiety muscles--the tools you use to battle the mini anxieties like opening a door to a new place--which started a spiral of “I’M DECAYING MY GOD EVERYTHING I’VE LEARNED IN THE PAST 6 YEARS HAS BEEN WASTED.” This thought was a tad outrageous but it did lead me to make this episode so we can commiserate together! I hope if you're in a rut, you smoothly journey through it, Heifer. Moo, Elaine. If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me! Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea. Email: anguseyetea@gmail.com www.anguseyetea.com Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below! BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order You can find the show notes for this episode  at  www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).* *This is a bold face lie. * I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/