My Life in Show Business

John Allen is back to face what is. What am I? Suffering is not a glitch. It’s a call to pay  attention to what you are having an argument with in reality.With what is.  With God. And guess what?  You will lose every fuckin' time if you go toe to toe with God. LOL Just saying

John Allen makes a deal with "what is". Once again 'what is"  pulls the football away. Dare to be pretentious Ash Wednesday. 6:10 Falling out with the therapist 6:30 Always willing to give it a shot. 8:00 Sin in original Aramaic means to miss the point. 10:00 Lots of cool shit is going on when you pay attention 12:45 I was going to talk about loving 13:30 It's so...That made me laugh. For real...good joke 15:25 Glory holes 15:45 I do crack myself up 16:00 Giving Irving a blast... 16:47 Gapped out.. What did I say? I am back now..oh exposure therapy...or denial... 19:50 I laughed at the mean dog joke. I did laugh listening to it again... 23:40 So two narcissists walk into a bar... 33 old guy sport joke...decided to leave it in..even though it makes me sound line an old guy...        

John Allen loses yet again to what is. This time he doesn't even make it to the end of the round. Shakespeare starts Hamlet AFTER the king is dead. That’s drama. The reaction. 1:50 Because I have nothing to lose I am free to talk but it’s shocking that most people don’t have that freedom. 2:30 Freedom of speech is in serious danger. Danger! Danger! Will Robinson 4:50 It’s not that they will lose their jobs for speaking; now it’s even standing next to someone who says something can get you fired. 9:37 Joe Biden Am I still alive? 11:00 Don’t take away my words. 12:00 A safe space in my day was being able to say what you wanted without consequence. 13:00 A push pull relationship with success  15:05 Mark iv panther tank pulls up in front of house. 16:05 I’ve grown up to be a weird troll. 17:50 Did I say the quiet thing? 18:00 I mean Joe is ahead 8 points not Donald. 18:30 I crack myself up. 20:00 Holding on by Chief Justice Robert’s fingernails and Justice Ginsburg’s pancreas 23:00 Monitor yourself. 26:00 What can I tell ya? LOL 34:00 It’s a metaphor ladies and gentlemen 33:30 I aint no Guru I only play one on TV 36:30 Ask yourself what the fuck is happening and then investigate 38:04 Take two minutes and just shut the fuck up. 40:00 These people have really let us down 41:45 How are you spinning this? 42:00 What I never tell in that story. 45:00 You have everything you need in this moment or you would be dead 46:00 The Dogs Bark and the Caravan moves on

John Allen losing to what is...again. I thought I was the guy making the joke; but it turned out, that I am actually the joke. A dark place Giving up Sir Galahad Guys turning their girlfriends into Mommy We want them around making us a sandwich but not actually... I got a prostate like an Idaho potato but I am still a good stick man- Marlon Brando Last Tango in Paris. The teeter totter Should I bother talking about the cancel culture and how stupid it is? Am I brothers and sisters  in the left wing really going to tank this? Defund the police? Really? What do you got in there? Sawdust?" Cassandra part 2- Dudes! There are Greek soldiers in that horse. I kid you not. The Film Festival and the Day Care No More Process Getting the shit kicked out of me Come on man- Joe Biden about everything The Supreme court turned into a bunch of pussies. Big Surprise It was 8 zip in the Nixon Tape case not 9 zip.

John Allen survives yet another battle with "what is". meditation, questioning,critical thinking, what the fuck is happening now? who am i? who cares? Fuck it LOL

Prospero and what is. All suffering is an argument with what is. Suffering is not a glitch. Allow suffering to be. Investigate. Space. Party down. Repeat. Let your indulgence set me free  

John Allen and what is. 00:09 Deconstruction of musical mirror. Brown Sugar cultural time capsule. 01:45 Don't want that in the mirror. Don't want that in the mirror 02:33 Groundlings demanding a different ending for Hamlet. 4:00 Cinema Verite: Taking a sip of coffee. 06:36 So much for Cinema Verite 07:47 People think Trump is the epitome of an American businessman because he played one on TV. 09:00 A little aside about ex girlfriends. Yuuch. Cinema Verite 10:15 We've been really good friends but I had to have a heart attack. 11:00 Walking the walk and talking the talk. 11:45 Feeling better is taking a pill 13:16 Maybe this is the one. One what? 14:05 I get these little periods of bliss and then they just kinda run out of gas. 15:44 Every once in a while one of them will come off the ground that I haven't seen before. !5:45 I really am a horrible lying hypocritical asshole. 15:46 Oh and a leech. 17:08 Wait for thunderbolt. No thunderbolt. 19:40 It's like being a parent again. Ooops. Again. Still. Right. I am a parent still. 20:20 I have to be responsible. Is it true? 21:27 Amateur Lesbian Porn 24:15 The worst for a guy. It's okay. 24:40 Viagra. The boys on the bench. 26:00 I knew a guy who blew a guy's head off with a shotgun. 26:05 Wrote a play about it. 27:00 Upper Canada boys. 29:15 Engagement theory 30:41 Boys run them like dogs 32:00 Homework. Worthless. 33:00 1971. I thought that was what the world would always be like. 34:33 The Stones. 37:00 We the people couldn't handle it.So we gave it back 39:35 Sounding tired. Sorry 40:24 OJ Simpson trial. The Usurping of public power. Monarchy is back. 42:00 Going into hope and I dont want to go into hope but... 43:00 Trump as a trip wire waking up the people; The beauty of the American system 46:00 I always wanted to be a cop when I played as a kid so I could be in charge. 47:00 Friendships are tough. 48:00 Slipping into senility. 48:23 Bad reading of the Hollow Men. Indulgence.

John Allen and what is. 00:30 You say you want a revolution 1:55 I like the battle of Stalingrad as much as the next guy 2:22 True confessions. 3:08 My friend Dave 4:00 Another Cassandra moment 4:35 Terrific bang...Yuuch...I didn't like the way I said that. At all 5:05 No no no we are just friends. 5:50 Lets face it Old Guys are not great. 6:30 I'll just dance by myself and look at the floor. 7:00 Snitch culture 7:45 High falutin' 9:03 I just don't talk to anybody. It's easier. 9:45 When they take over they aren't going to be very nice to the people they take over from...Just guessin' 10:50 Okay not cheering about somebody being shot. Making a point about the media acting like a squirrel on speed. 14:00 Lets rat each other out. 15:30 They are showing you who they are... 17:20 Purity test 18:15 You are the one who is high and mighty 19:00 We come in wholes not parts 20:00 PTSD dating flash back 21:50 Jazz baby jazz 23:00 The Soon Come 25:02 Those gals they brought it down 26:15 Sex clubs and dancing. 29:25 I don't want to know anymore. 30:20 This is actually funny 31:00 Dick farm 32:00 The dream: Commenting about myself commenting about myself. 32:30 Snitch culture 33:15 Ooops...raised my voice... 34:00 If I say chick and it just makes you fucking crazy... 39:00 Don't die for your country let the other poor dumb fucker die for his. 41:00 Twinkly lights. My origin story 42:00 I had to find out. What happened? Where did those people go? Where will I go? 45:25 There is nothing as horny as a married guy. 47:00 That Soon Come feeling. 48:07 I didn't get to talk about how I feel like I am going to die all the time. Too bad. 49:00 Speaking about dying... 49:30 Quick Dad story. 51:00 Where was I?        

John Allen takes on what is. Its a draw. Nah. What is always wins. And of course Amateur Lesbian Porn. 0:50 https://www.amazon.com/Self-Illusion-Social-Creates-Identity/dp/0199988781 2:17 Requiem for the Pandemic 05:58 Amateur Lesbian Porn Revisited 6:50 If ya gotta rub one out for sleep I get it. 8:30 I'm going to be living in a maytag box 9:10 I am not who I think I am. I am not who you think I am. I am who I think you think I am. 10:30 The looking glass self 11:30 The past is created from here 12:45 Breaking News: We are all going to die. We are always in the present. 13:30 It seems so fucking obvious. 13:45 After a certain age you got no fucking excuse. 15:15 We are going to defund the police force. Bad marketing idea. 15:45 Mr and Mrs. Anywhere: What the fuck? You want to get rid of the police force? 16:25 Have any of you met anybody who is a really bad guy? 17:30 Freaking out about saying "you know" while I talk about my Dad going to jail. 18:30 I don't want your blood money. Just let me get in my Jaguar. 19:40 The Fugue. Do the fugue. 20:00 Most people want to talk about how to feel better. I want to talk about getting in their pants.Bummer. 20:45 Repeating myself. Triggered memory of old girl friend hating me for repeating myself. That's three times you told me that. 23:30 Shocked out of your thoughts. Shocked out of your yourself. 24:40 Am I having a heart attack? 24:50 How would I do these notes? 24:30 I'll show you. I'll give it to you for free. Fuck you Return on Investment culture. 26:00 Defence Mechanism Alert: I was a good parent because I didn't want kids. 27:30 You know what I mean Jelly bean. 28:04 Investigations. Yoga. Ex girlfriends. 29:00 If you feel bad about the protest. 29:10 I am Cassandra. I dont look good in a dress. 29:00 Best sex Apollo ever had. 31:00 Awful confession. Among many. 31:30 Hard time on the blower. 32:00 The thing that you see in the protests you can see in yourself. 33:00 Democracy is the worst form of government, except for all the others. Churchill. 36:00 Nice sweet story about a stoned cold killer. 37:30 Should I tell that story? The Mr. Peanut story. No. But then I did. Figures. 38:45 A red neck tie 39:30 Memory...a compost heap of a poetic image. 43:00 Memory are episodes and are constructed from here. 44:50 John says hi.            

John Allen and what is. Tie goes to the runner. 1:45 Hassle 2:23 We gots no balls... no offence to eunuchs 3:20 Eclectic guy 3:45 Rioting is kind of a gas 4:20 Putting porn in all the titles. 4:50 lesbian porn 5:24 I've gotten awful Zen. I hit a three wood off the carpet. 6:30 Elephant in the room 9:23 Empathy is an act of imagination 10:30 The don't know place 11:45 Wooo hoo  the call...wake the fuck up 12:40 Man that's work 14:00 Go to the worst place right away 17:30 If I did that today they would take me out to the ditch and shoot me like a dog 19:00 If you reward people for greed. Big surprise when they act greedy. 21:00 Not a war...not when you can get take out 22:30 How can I go dancing? 23:15 Boring myself here...who the fuck cares what I eat...fuck off...I hate this guy 24:00 How do we deal with racism? Look inside. There is a place inside you that despises you. 26:15 Shut the fuck up man...I was just thinking that... 27:02 I was addicted to a woman and I guess I always have been. 28:45 Why is this guy laughing? 29:50 Let's start with being battered. 32:30 Terrible job. Keeping the status quo static. 32:45 Bad singing

John Allen and what is. 0:50 Mothers day spike. 1:40 Making jokes as a defence mechanism. Whew LOL 2:25 Lets start with something right off the bat: I don’t know shit 3:32 Everything I have done is for a little bit of time. 4:20 I hate who I am when I am with other people 5:30 Viewer mail: Love me love please love me. 6:01 GPS locating in brain produces lots of good shit. 6:35 The buddhists...LOL 7:26 Gapped out like an old guy or doing a Joe Biden 8:00 Embarrassing moment for me listening to this part...more embarrassing than usual that is. 8:50 The Buddhists again. 9:30 What the fuck is this? 10:15 True confession: I was a rich kid and I didn’t like to suffer. 11:40 The whole point of parenting is that you are going to get it wrong. Whew LOL 11:50 Every action produces good and bad consequences and whether it is good or bad depends on where you are judging it from. 14:00 Viewer mail: Falling off the wagon 15:00 I'm interested in suffering. 16:18 I was an angry guy what can I say? 16:40 I didn’t have to fix the traffic jam. 17:50 You can't die before your time. 18:30 Why all of you are juicing... 20:00 When I get a grab in the stomach I know something is coming. 20:20 Juicing again 21:20 Attention is love 23:00 The sound of mind. 24:31 Drink a bottle of scotch and your mind will slow down and then shut right down when your head hits the table 24:35 Satori. Bliss. Until you wake up in the empty pizza box. 27:30 The fifth of vodka my mother used to hide in the dishwasher 28:15 In this moment we have everything we need or we would be dead. 30:00 Watch 31:13 The one story in the universe. The hurricane that never ends. 31:30 I want to have a drink 34:10 Where do you feel that anxiety? 35:00 Am I proselytizing? Ya think? Asshole LOL 36:00 Labels 36:30 Looking past the image of your foot. 37:03 Don't think about a Pink Elephant 38:15 Oh oh...Why is he doing this? Is this pretentious? Yikes...What do you think this is? Headspace? 41:28 Be with the tree man...Sheesh 42:00 Joe Biden gaffed. I thought it was a good joke. You ain't black. Come on Man...LOL 44:20 Don’t misunderestimate the Trumpster.  Remember Steve Atwater. 45:20 "I just lost the south for a generation." LBJ on signing Civil rights Act legislation. He was wrong. Its been three generations. 47:35 You survived so many things that you didn't think you had a shot at... 48:27 Boo hoo 48:30 Some advice and a  segue. 50:00 Have I fucked this up? Fifty minutes that's long enough for anybody. 50:19 Didn’t seem to be. Bonus part 2. Really? You have more to say? Lordy 50:35 On the porch after doing some yard work. 52:00 99 percent of people make the dumplings 53:00 The mind is constantly trying to figure shit out. 54:00 The bird singing is technical and adaptive. It had to learn to sing then had to forget what it learned. 55:16 Fuckin' heaven. Maybe I am a hippie. 57:00 Finger waggin' 58:00 Viral cloud of death 59:07 Not here. Not now. No thing

John Allen and what is. 0:30   I’ve been walking and talking. Everything is a groove 1:20 What the fuck is going on right now? 2:00 Not Suffering when you are falling off a cliff. 3:12 If we all believe the same story we can all get together and kill things 6:00 What are you going to do? 7;00 Fairy tales, fairy tales 8:40 If you are feeling bad then it’s because you think this moment should be different 9:15 Case study…Blah blah 10:50 Wanting can be fun and desire creates suffering. We’re fucked 11:45 this moment is exactly as it should be 13:02 Your mind makes up a lot of bullshit. That’s it job. 15:00 things appear and dissolve in us 15:45 I’ve been running from the cops for years but now glass cases 16:00 Did he just have a stroke? 17:30 All you can be sure of in this moment is I am and I am  right fucking now 21:00 It just doesn’t work out the way you thought it was going to 23:00 The creative space is a not knowing place and we don’t like it. 25:00 2 out of 15 is about right in terms of the covid 26:30 Viewer mail 28:00 let go of the anchor 30:00 God willing. Its just this 31:00 Mom Dad meet the folks 31:22 Dad stop blinking 32:00 This is fucking heaven and its all gone.

John Allen and "what is" fight it out again. Same result. 0:30 Ahhh fuck it…clouds of viral load 2:15 Fire through dry grass- What does it all mean? 6:00 What’s the word I am looking for- Stupid. That’s the word. Stupid. 7:35 In twenty five years who is going to spike the ball 8:15 Trying to remember where to pee 10:40 CNN Headline- Caesar conquers Gaul and tweets rant about Pompey 11:45 Roosevelt, Goebbels, Trump… 13:00 What’s it all mean Alfie? 14:00 It’s not the fact that the guy is an asshole…It’s that you think he shouldn’t be an asshole 17:00 It’s difficult to have sex without emotion…Oh God…What does  that make me? 18:00 When the cuff goes around the wrist…they always test it and then relax 19:45 An encyclopedia of hassles… 20:45 The Pandemic agrees with me. Will I get in trouble? 22:00 The Rickster quit his job before it started. Isn’t that fantastic? 25:00 Peter Pan going through the window. “Fuck. My back. Wendy? I hurt my back.” 27:45 Farmers. That’s what they are like (See 14:00 above) 29:30 Can you imagine what the United States would be today if Lincoln had let the South leave? 31:30 Its going to be amazing ladies and gentlemen how much privacy you are going to lose? 32:20 Old guy moment googling. What’s that guy’s name again? 35:00  Fridge door open spooning down the ice cream 38:00 The mask thing is a tell. 40:00  I didn’t want to have children. Somebody needier than me. 42:45 I’m a lousy therapist. I don’t have a lot of time. 43:45 Buddha’s first noble truth. A hassle. 44:30 Buddhist Bells. 45:00 Why the fuck am I doing the dishes? 45:20 Why isn’t someone else doing the dishes? 46:00 The most intimate relationship you are going to have in your life is with your own thoughts. 48:09 I’m not invested. I got other things to hang myself for.

John Allen argues with what is all by himself. So what else is new? 1: Don’t fucking lose your job 12: Book of job 14: What the fuck is going on? 17:01 Argument with what is? 17:44 Everything should turn into a should 23:09  I Gots nothing to lose 25: Copyright 25:50 How can you say the Emperor has no clothes when the Emperor  is paying you? 29:40 Joe Biden six  points up in florida 30 They aint going to war. You are. 31:35 You look like you are in a cesspool of hell 32:30 I’ve tried to be a good boy and I am sick of it. 35:40 In the basement now 38:09 I am pretty sure I am going down 42:00 getting you through the pandemic  

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 Vertigo   4:00 Losing teeth.   12:00 Pointing to the future.   22:00 The opposite is true.   31:00 Mutation.   40:00 Michael Jordan.   46:00 An Imperfect Union.   57:00 I’ll do it when I do it.   1:03:00 Going all in.   1:05 The end is here all of the time.

John Allen returns with what is:   1:00 Cleaning stuff up.   3:00 Paternalism and taking away the picnic tables.   13:00 Doctors.   22:00 A good handyman.   40:00 Submissive fantasies raise the ante of illicitness.   51:00 Michael Lewis.   59:00 Unknowingly caught in a loop.   1:03:00 Out of control growth is cancer.   1:09:00 Moral issues are now front and centre.   1:14:00 Decision Trees: Football Manager vs Proust.

John Allen returns with what is:   3:00 Eating big steaks and fucking some girls.   11:00 Epidemiologists breaking out in smiles.   12:00 Letting the fastball go into the old folks home.   14:00 Jailed in our houses on a beautiful spring day.   16:00 Working on the pyramids.   21:00 The future is always now.   25:00 Belief - another fucking mythology you can grab on to and drown with.   29:00 The computer game where something random doesn’t happen is not much fun - Allan Watts.   35:00 Bob Dylan and projecting through Kennedy.   41:00 The things we thought weren’t going to change are changing.   50:00 When I’m at my best I’m a passenger.   55:00 Eisenhower’s warning.   1:07:00 A future full of minefields, betrayal and self-interest.   1:10:00 Mornings are for crying.   1:13:00 Death - Guaranteed.   1:19:00 Chief Seattle.

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 Low flying ducks.   2:00 Don't need airplanes anymore.   3:00 People are the problem.   8:00 Trump walks away.   11:00 Yahoo protesters.    19:00 No issues.   26:00 Henry Ford and the birth of the consumer economy.   32:00 Discovering the little moments in life.   38:00 Volleyball beach takeover.   45:00 Going inside.   51:00 Zoom ruins the day.

0:00 With Mum and Dad at Google Home.   8:00 The Inner Guru will take you where you need to go.   18:00 The peak is a good sign.   24:00 Eastern people are the nicest.   33:00 We are a product of the things that rub up against us.   34:00 All men are misogynists at heart.

0:00 Our kids are going to grow up in hell.   3:00 Trump’s "Liberate" tweets are Machiavellian genius.   4:00 Like Trump - getting away with everything.   10:00 The numbers keep going up in Canada.   14:00 Pandemic haves and have-nots.   21:00 We live in a monarchy: private business runs things and we don’t have a say about it.   34:00 Hitler’s Birthday. Gotta know your enemy.   37:00 Why Shakespeare? He’s the best.   39:00 Immediacy.

0:00 The American election truly begins.   3:00 Elites can work from their computers.   6:00 The worst time to be alive is the time between empires.   8:00 Mask fashion.   11:00 Kicking in the TV.   21:00 Obama in the backroom.   27:00 The Federales.   32:00 Trump has had no obstacles in life and so can’t handle them now.   35:00 The Chinese know how to govern.   38:00 Going to live like sheep.   39:00 Eat your plants kids and the coronavirus will spare you.

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 The life we’ve created for ourselves as a species.   11:00 The Psychopathology of Everyday Life.   18:00 Validation - there is no you except in reflection from someone else.   28:00 One more kick at the can with the babes - all I ever wanted.   34:00 This is a pandemic, not a war.   40:00 Words and consequences.   45:00 Instead of unravelling during the pandemic people are doubling down.   49:00 We are in our loops.   52:00 Gatsby > Prospero.   54:00 Act 4 Scene 1

John Allen returns with what is:   10:00 Being happy with the pandemic.   33:00 You have to say goodbye to everything - including yourself.   44:00 A terrified population that’s never had anything bad happen to them in their lives.   48:00 The things we feel out there are always about us.   53:00 I should not be in a pandemic.   56:00 One more blow job.   1:04:00 We grew up on ice.   1:07:00 Proust’s prose gun.   1:11:00 Pretty damn liberal.

John Allen returns with what is. 1:00 Becoming more and more of a commie.   4:00 The guy who goes to work every day.   7:00 Virus has been out a long time.   9:00 Does the virus have a mind?   14:00 Everything is a transaction.   20:00 No wonder you’re tired.   23:00 Right now there is no virus here.   24:00 Moving toward authoritarianism.   26:00 Real problem is the Depression that is going to come after.   28:00 Trump is tactical not strategic.   34:00 Amateur Lesbian Porn.   36:00 The point of case in point teaching.   42:00 Not having Covid is going to make you a second class citizen.   44:00 We don’t want to live just by numbers.   46:00 Happiness isn’t a commodity.   47:00 Interesting times.

John Allen returns with what is.

John Allen returns with what is.

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 Not releasing pods.   1:00 Practice.   2:00 Good conversation is what people like to listen to on podcasts.   4:00 Each play took 7 years to write: a perfectionist.   8:00 10 second gap - NOT AN EDIT ! WE NEVER EDIT !   10:00 I know when I hear it whether it works.   13:00 I don’t mind not putting them up because I know I’m getting better.   15:00 That’s Canada: apologizing in the sex clubs.   16:00 I like getting up in the morning.   19:00 The brain is a predicting machine.   23:00 Pay attention.   26:00 Is anyone checking on you?   29:00 Killing your parents.   30:00 I called my mother from all over the world.   33:00 Isn’t it better just to build the ramp for the wheelchair guy and not give a shit what you call him?   34:00 We have to worry whether we are connected or it’s not going to work.   37:00 1929? We don’t know. We’re making up stories.   38:00 My data is listening to it.   40:00 I’m unsophisticated. I don’t have emotional granularity.   41:00 Proust so dense. Wants to give you an entire life. A mommy’s boy.   46:00 These days there’s only one guy for me - Bill.   48:00 It’s not like I’m in the middle of a pandemic.   50:00 Shakespeare’s thing: the pulling out of rugs: Lear.   53:00 Bad things never happen the way you think they’re going to happen. It always comes in the side door. It’s your brain thinking this is the best thing for survival.

John Allen returns with what is:   1:00 Sitting two metres apart.   4:00 Vitamin C.   6:00 You don’t want to discuss it because we might have to do it.   8:00 Judging the toilet paper and hand sanitizer hoarders.   13:00 In America everyboy’s got a gun.   16:00 Esselstyn Diet: off of diabetes medication in five days.   20:00 Tom Hanks has Corona Virus and Diabetes 2 (underlying condition).   21:00 Virus is an excuse for practice.   22:00 If I was President of the USA.   23:00 No sports: Guys are just going to drink and punch out their wives.   26:00 Culling the tribe.   29:00 It needs a host.   32:00 Counselling: Checking in.   34:00 Transparency and telling the babes I just want to bang them.   36:00 Just wake yourself up once a day.   37:00 Wake up and just realize you’re here.   …   My Life In Show Business .com  

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 Canada is one of the first countries to test CoVid19 early and aggressively.   5:00 This beautiful thing we’ve created: Government.   11:00 Thieves Oil.   14:00 Coffee Break: Batman mug.   15:00 Talking about your day.   18:00 What Would John Allen Say?   21:00 Vitamin C.   24:00 One Look Over the Coffee Table in the Morning.   29:00 Joe’s going to be presidential on CoVid.   33:00 We didn’t take the guys at the railroads and shoot ‘em.   35:00 The Model and the Snake.   40:00 Aristotle, Chekov & Art.   41:00 The People in the Funny Jackets.   45:00 To dream and fill in the blanks.   47:00  I can finally be me. My whole life has been a waste.   50:00 Can you be funny without telling jokes?   51:00 How to reduce suffering.   55:00 Battle of Britain: Make peace with this God Moment.   59:00 Right now is a perfect moment.   1:00:00 The reason I counsel is that I’d rather not work on myself.   1:04:00 When I broke down doing the dishes. How wonderful it was to be alive.   1:11:00 Ozymandias.   1:12:00 Dying is happening all of the time.

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 People over 60 should not go out.   3:00 Millions of people will die. Get used to it.   6:00 Dancing at the Apocolypse.   8:30 How we reacted to 911.   10:00 At any moment it’s bye-bye.   13:00 Trump is making people uncomfortable.   14:00 There is no living forever. You might as well pay attention as opposed to trying to fix the chess pieces.   15:00 Don’t try to be happy. Try to find joy.   16:00 I have a lot of gratitude these days. I’ve done a lot of work and had a lot of suffering.   18:00 Krishnamurti - Truth is a pathless land.   19:00 The cough.   24:00 911 was a bubble of humanism - a system that is off.   25:00 The concept of privacy is now over.   27:00 We will tolerate anything. Any draconian measure will be just fine.   29:00 On International Women’s Day John says his only reason to live is girls.   30:00 When the world ends - we won’t have to pay copyright. Nisgardatta - You are not in the world, the world is in you.   32:00 Loving having the car back.   35:00 Biden   37:00 Amazon’s Hunters series is bizarre. A comic. Batman.   41:00 Battle of Midway.   45:00 Intervention is worse than letting things happen.   48:00 John is Trump - a spoiled brat.   51:00 Coveting the mic - a Blue Yeti.   54:00 The problem with this work is that it works: ROI.   55:00 Before a game you feel a certain way just like an actor feels before they go on stage.   The first thing you have to do is check in and be with who you are.   Jumping the joke.   57:00 Be with how you’re playing. What is happening right now?   59:00: Paying attention to your breath: “Ball, ball, ball… in, out, in, out…”   1:01:00 Tired and not feeling like dancing. Closing the eyes. Shut up and listen.   1:02:00 Here is a really wonderful, wonderful place because that’s who we really are.   1:04:00 I’ve got to get my suit pressed because I think I’m going to be going to a lot of funerals and I think I might be in a funeral - the corpse, waving.   1:05:00 Virus is an existential threat to Trump.   1:07:00 A Very Stable Genius: Trump is unhinged.   1:09:00 A bunch of babies: The Silent Majority.   1:11:00 There’s so much noise that nobody gets heard.   …   Recommended:   A Lazy Man’s Guide To Happiness   Krishnamurti: 100 Years   Purell   The Essential Nisgardatta   Hunters   Blue Yeti microphone   A Very Stable Genius  

John Allen returns with What Is:   0:00 Being censored. Where is freedom of speech?   3:00 Telling women they look hot. Angry birds.   6:00 Government waste.   7:30 Beautiful cat enters pod zone and upstages John.   12:00 Entertainment vs journalism.   17:00 Big John gets distracted by text from daughter.   21:00 Victim culture.   27:00 Gretzky and what’s going on.   29:00 Authortity, leadership, order and chaos.   32:00 FINALLY: SUPER TUESDAY.   35:00 As a player I just want attention.   37:00 American politics is the Greatest Show On Earth.   39:00 Getting dominated.   42:00 Biden: Everybody loves a comeback story.   45:00 Existential threat to African Americans: the Clyburn Speech.   48:00 Politics is about the future.   54:00 Bernie is going to get killed.   59:00 Problem with Harvard/Obama leadership model is the vacuum it can create.   1:01:00 Justin’s leadering solved the First Nations rail blockade problem.   1:09:00 Wanting to get other people’s approval.   1:11:00 Without the car - no gym, no dancing.   1:13:00 Waking up once a day is everything. Wake the fuck up. What’s happening now?   …   References   Clyburn Speech

John Allen returns with what is - even though it feels a bit off. 0:00 Nespresso machines. 2:00 Getting out of the house. 3:30 Getting pole-axed by the Ex. 5:00 There is no woman you don’t want to have sex with. 6:00 Always something attractive about a woman. 7:30 Women who disappear withinside themselves. 10:00 Unrequited love. 11:30 Wanting to f*** the woman in the parking ticket line. The elephant in the room. 13:00 The guy who won’t shut the f*** up. 18:30 If you’re going to be present you have to be present with all of it. 22:00 Shaking hands with Iranian dancers. 28:00 Cynical United Nations 30:00 Soft Power 32:00 Supply chains: McDonalds vs McDonalds 36:00 Korean cadavers: advance cardio disease from NA diet. Diseases of Affluence. 41:00 Confrontation is exhausting like going to war. 44:00 Can’t improve this moment 49:00 Shocking Meditation 57:00 Independent White Women 1:09:00 One more Zen story from there 1:17:00 Accept how you’re feeling before you go on. Uta: go with what is actually happening. 1:19:00 What’s important to ask right now is what is happening now… … References Uta Hagen

John Allen returns with what is: 0:00 John has a big voice because growing up in his family they fought all of the time. 3:00 First Nations blockades are an “inconvenience”. 6:00 Cultural appropriation in the arts. 10:00 Deconstructing the apparent flatness in the previous pod. 13:00 Needing to get stoned in order to play board games with your kids. 15:00 Stopping drinking because you feel bad. 17:00 There isn’t a national camp fire anymore. Stove-piping everything we hear. 20:00 Poor Brian Williams of MSNBC who lost his job because he exaggerated. We liked him because he was good on TV. 23:00 The first web cams. 28:00 Misogynistic songs at dance clubs. 29:00 Getting back on track: How can First Nations block commerce? 33:00 1491 book - where the scholarship has progressed to on what was happening before we were here in the Americas: the Plains, the Amazon, the huge ancient city on Mississippi. 39:00 The car is back. It gives so much joy. 41:00 The debate. Bernie has got the mo. 44:00 The simulated one-shot in 1917 movie. The Big Question: if something calls atttention to the artist or the technique is there an issue? 48:00 Ramy Malek in the Pacific is like watching Michael Jackson do the moon dance. 51:00 Trust your impulse. If you feel like saying something, say something. There’s nothing that’s going to happen that’s wrong. Allow what’s happening in the moment to happen in the moment. 57:00 I would do that work for nothing. 59:00 Podcasts are a bit like selfies. 1:03:00 People are terrified of losing their jobs on the pyramid. 1:06:00 The Great T-Shirt Story. 1:10:00 Suffering is not a glitch. 1:12:00 Hating and loving bike lanes. Positions are so mutable. 1:17:00 If you think of your life as practice, as a computer game, it becomes kind of a gas. Living as that dance, that game: Lila: the dance. 1:19:00 Not giving a fuck about listeners. … Clicks: 1492 John Lennon Revolution The Who Same boss as the old boss 1491 Dennis Hopper in Apocalypse Now 1917 Ramy Malek in the Pacific Saving Private Ryan Chekov Uncle Vanya Lila And... Stairway to Heaven

John Allen returns with what is. He talks about: 0:00 The car. 4:00 Conversations can be tiring. 8:00 Acting out of awareness not conditioning. 11:00 Living in a world of labels. 14:00 Proselytizing. 15:30 Childhood forced him to question a lot of stuff. 22:00 When he first got married it felt like one of the low points in his existence. 26:00 Preferring to spend my time in the basement. 32:00 His Dad's romance about the movies. The Allen theatres were the only theatres in North America. Huge distributors. 36:00 Why dentists commit suicide. 40:00 How Freud and Jung were horny guys. 43:00 How we never have a serious cultural conversation about sex 45:00 How not knowing is the only creative place. 47:00 The car getting towed away makes him want it more. 49:00 Selling his mother's ring and sobbing in front of the jewelery store. 51:00 Guy pals always come through. 54:00 Suburban women will dictate US election. 1:04:00 Democratic race is almost done. 1:19:00 The pharmaceutical industry tries to co-opt you first before they come after you 1:21:00 Taking the subway to dancing. 1:23:00 Looking around for the pills. For an exit. 1:27:00 Interchanging driving the kids with driving the girlfriend. 1:32:00 Looking forward to the car returning from the shop. 1:39:00 This is virtual reality. 1:42:00 Big John’s anger at the Leafs losing to a Zamboni driver. 1:46:00 The Harvard notion of “leadering”. Mourinho getting lost in technical solutions - coaching like he did five years ago. 1:48:00 Deconstruction for everything is how we see. 1:56:00 Depression - writing it down and pulling on the thread. — References: The Tao Aldous Huxley's Perennial Philosophy Krishnamurti Joseph Campbell The Last Waltz Jordan Petersen Jung's Princeton Letters Kahneman's Thinking Fast and Slow Freud Saving Private Ryan Camus' L’Etranger Samuel Coleridge

John Allen returns with what is.

John Allen returns with what is. Time Stamps: 0:00 This is a new form. 2:00 Big John’s Mini explodes. 5:00 Difference between authority and leadership. 5:30 Case in point teaching. 6:30 90% of what is going on is thinking. To be great is to stop thinking. 7:30 A dreamscape that is exhausting. 10:00 Darkness, the Void, No Thing. The sound of the bell is the thing that becomes no thing. 11:00 There is always this moment and there is always space. 12:00 Turning off screens. 13:30 The rug is constantly being pulled out. 14:00 There is no winning. 17:30 The Great Undoing. What is going on? 22:30 The Mind isn’t you. It’s a tool. It’s not us. Us - is no thing and now. 26:30 The Mind has characteristics. We’re always not knowing. 28:00 Assumptions or Fairy Tales? Better to not question, to suffer. 28:30 There’s only one thing to do - dance. My body is always present. To connect. My body is never not here. 32:00 Kobe and flying in the fog. The weak pilot? A metaphor for your life. It’s all about me. Always. Look at your life. The life situation is always bad. 35:00 Lear - you don’t get pats on the back for your good decisions. The famous CIA thing - you never know about the ones we stopped. 36:30 Caught in the fog. If you pull the threads you will always get to space, freedom. It’s about you not about Kobe. The edifice falls. You don’t have that costume. Once that noise goes away you’re not nearly as tired. 39:00 Those moments when you’re happily dancing - Isn’t that winning too? When I’m happily dancing. I’m just there. That’s why I love conversations - because I’m just there. 42:00 Meaning according to Viktor Frankl - is given. 45:00 Me - everything I’m experiencing in this moment. 47:00 - Dancing at the bottom of the mountain with graven images and having a great time in the Charlton Heston movie. The rules are always about us. 49:00 Kobe’s life was probably identical to yours. He had to get his kids to practice. He had a thing he wanted to do and he had an obstacle to doing it. And that’s our day. 51:00 The experience of living in this moment is the same. There’s no winning. Even Kobe is not going to win. 53:00 Leaving the phone at home. In Jamaica on my bike I noticed stuff. 54:00 There is no hassle when there is no possession. 55:30 Everything is doing this dance all of the time and we’ve just go to dance with it. 56:00 Get used to uncomfortableness of not knowing. Joy as opposed to happiness. References: Eckhart Tolle King Lear Heidegger Viktor Frankl Thou is That - Joseph Campbell

John Allen returns with what is. He talks about: writing in cafes, the Greek classics, who the host of the pod is, his prediction of Bloomberg's rise, of not wanting to go dancing, and more.

0:00 John has to go out tonight | 2:30 The car thing. Everything has good or bad consequences | 3:30 The two-seater Triumph TR7 | 4:30 A Confession (Tolstoy?): For his 16th Birthday present John received a brand new white Jaguar | 5:30 Only difference between John and Trump is that John’s Dad went to jail | 7:00 It doesn’t matter what the country is. One man one vote would have made US a city-centric country | 10:00 Bloomberg is a data guy. It’s The What Bloomberg is interested in | 13:30 Agony of The Car disappearing. Loss. The Other Side | 18:00 Obama in 2008 | Obama caused the Tea Party | 22:00 Working all day | 3 performances a day every day | 24:00 CBT: Writing shit down | 26:00 John is very practical | 32:00 Constantly fighting against What Is | 34:00 My mind is constantly yapping away | 35:30 The Reason You Write Stuff Down: Freeze the Thought: I Shouldn’t Be Here | You’ve got to write them down to TAKE THEM OUT | 37:00 The culture of labels | 38:00 Hitting the tape and joining The Team | Religion and Nationalism are not very big | 39:30 The map is not the territory | Tree label | Living through labels instead of what is happening | What you’re doing is what you’re doing | 42:00 Labels forced on you | Can’t say this can’t say that | 44:00 Lenny Bruce: violence is ok but sex is not | 45:00 ANGER 247 | The World of Should | Everything burns you | Truth is a pathless land | 47:00 Luckily my dad went to jail | Car-less and free | Loss teaches the most | 51:00 John Allen Guarantee (tm) | 53:00 Why can’t they just leave me alone? | 54:00 The Beautiful Cat In The Room | 56:00 Laundry List | New Hampshire | Bernie | Amy gets on my nerves | Biden is gone | 1:02:00 How serious it is to be black in the US under Trump | African Americans going to Bloomberg | Turn out is everything | Rachel Bitecofer predicts 2020 Dem win based on demographics - bonus link: https://www.politico.com/news/magazine/2020/02/06/rachel-bitecofer-profile-election-forecasting-new-theory-108944 | Anything makes sense | The mind is like a dog | 1:10:00 Analytics and data has been honed | 1:14:00 Bloomberg has figured it out | 1:19:00 Can you tell me what this is about in one or two phrases | A compulsion to talk | John’s last opportunity to talk | The same stuff | 1:23:00 The argument with what is - is so simple | 1:28:00 pressence & ROI | 1:31:00 Those who know are silent and those who aren’t speak | Daddy: Rolls Royce to jail cell | 1:34 Presence through migraine (pain) | There is no I when in intense pain | 1:37:00 Say no and you’re fucked | Tired | Relief: John will be dead | Embrace the suffering…

0:00 The Introduction | Tinsel/Tinder | Doing the Dishes | 3:45 Why is anyone going to listen to this? To be entertained | A relationship with one person | Because of the gatherings after the show | The Boys on the Bus | 9:00 Fighting over labels | Jealous of the Ex | 13:00 I shouldn’t be choking | Vulnerability brings people in | 15:00 Czech mate | 18:00 Dad | 10 Year Old Scotch | 26:00 Why I’m doing this - entertaining people | 27:00 The Car | 29:00 The Hard Drive | 31:00 Losing it on the Coach | 36:00 What trips you go on | 37:00 The underclass on the subway bone tired | 39:00 Charging for counselling | My ex-girlfriend who charges for everything | the years I’ve been asleep | the Gym | 48:00 Ending it - workers crisis | 50:00 Out of control growth is called cancer | 51:00 Angry at people who want to do better | 52:00 Good Ending Part 1 | 59:00 Jamaica and dancing | Jagger and how white people dance | 1:06:00 We don’t belong here | 1:09:00 Much Ado About Nothing - my life completely fucked up | 1:10:00 Shmarmy ending | 1:11:00 Married guys doing the wife’s agenda | 1:15:00 Not a good ending | Desperate Sports Insert: Mourinho, offense, and the Baltimore Ravens | If you’re thinking about what the coach wants you’re not playing the game | 1:25:00 Learning how to manipulate people: Engagement Theory | The Good Soldier | My own transaction