Podcasts about Vivica

Ruys⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ y Vivica presentan los estrenos más destacados de la semana: June y John (en cines), El esquema fenicio (en cines), Juan Gabriel: Mis 40 en Bellas Artes (en cines), La mejor hermana (Prime Video), Bono: Stories of Surrender (Apple TV+) y And Just Like That… T3 (HBO Max).--Este podcast puede escucharse y verse sin anuncios en ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Patreon⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠El HYP3 es el podcast de cultura pop y anécdotas gafapasta. Estamos en ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Spotify⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ y ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Apple Podcasts⁠

En este HYP3 venimos con la guardia arriba porque la semana trae testosterona, flow y cosas que prometen

⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ruys⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ y ⁠⁠⁠Vivica⁠⁠⁠ presentan los estrenos más destacados de la semana: Until Dawn: Noche de Terror (en cines), La leyenda de Ochi (en cines), Screamboat: La Masacre del Ratón (en cines), El Contador 2 (en cines), Star Wars: Episodio III. La Venganza de los Sith (reestreno en cines) y Andor T2 (Disney+).--Este podcast puede escucharse y verse sin anuncios en ⁠⁠⁠Patreon⁠⁠⁠El HYP3 es el podcast de cultura pop y anécdotas gafapasta. Estamos en ⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠Spotify⁠⁠⁠⁠ y ⁠⁠⁠⁠Apple Podcasts⁠

Esta semana en HYP3 venimos con estrenos, chisma galáctica y astronautas improbables

At 60, Vivica A. Fox isn't just surviving in Hollywood - she's thriving and redefining what it means to be a veteran in the entertainment industry. A master of reinvention, Vivica continues to prove that age is just a number when you're willing to embrace new challenges.Tonia sits down with the bubbly and vivacious actress to discuss her remarkable journey from model to movie star to media mogul. She opens up about her four-decade career evolution, her mission to uplift the next generation of talent, and why she believes versatility is the key to longevity. Plus, she shares some powerful insights about embracing new chapters in life and staying relevant in an industry that often overlooks women over forty.

El crew regresa con todo en este primer episodio de abril para recordar a un icono, comentar lo que debes ver y prenderle fuego al mic con la chisma más sabrosa de la cultura pop

⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ruys⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ y ⁠⁠Vivica⁠⁠ presentan los estrenos más destacados de la semana: La noche de los hombres lobo (en cines), Una película de Minecraft (en cines), La última gran actuación (en cines), Devil May Cry (Netflix) y Cazador de demonios (Prime Video).Escúchanos en Spotify o Apple Podcasts. Este episodio no tiene anuncios en nuestro feed solo para suscriptores de ⁠⁠⁠⁠Patreon⁠⁠⁠⁠.

El crew se junta en el último episodio de marzo para echar chisme, teorizar y sorprenderse con los anuncios más recientes del mundo del cine y la cultura pop.

⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ruys⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ y ⁠Vivica⁠ presentan los estrenos más destacados de la semana: Vampira humanista busca suicida (en cines), Almas marcadas (en cines), Rescate implacable (en cines), El estudio (Apple TV+).Escúchanos en Spotify o Apple Podcasts. Este episodio no tiene anuncios en nuestro feed solo para suscriptores de ⁠⁠⁠Patreon⁠⁠⁠.

We're back with another episode filled with hot takes! We have Charles running the 6th man again. This week the FUTY Boyz give their expert opinion on Vivica a. Fox getting a BBL at 60, Jess Hilarious visiting Shaq's house, Dr. Umar and all his baby mama drama, and should Keke Palmer watch her mouth? In music , Wiz Khalifa and Ty Dolla Sign collab over a Conductor beat, R. Kelly remixes Chris browns “Residuals” in jail, and Playboi Carti dropped a new project. In sports, the Grizzlies retire Tony Allen's number 9 jersey, Dwight Howard claims he got kicked off the lakers for calling LeBron a b**ch, and what weird case do Leveon Bell got going on? Enjoy !

⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ruys⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ y Vivica (y ⁠Mareoflores⁠) presentan los estrenos más destacados de la semana: Presencia (en cines), Mickey 17 (en cines), Un viaje de sobriedad (en cines), Daredevil: Born Again (Disney+), Par de Ideotas (Prime Video).Escúchanos en Spotify o Apple Podcasts. Este episodio no tiene anuncios en nuestro feed solo para suscriptores de ⁠⁠Patreon⁠⁠.

Man this was a funny episode we talk about a plethora stuff Woo doesn't care about accolades It's Vivica a fox though Nig Babble Think like a man catapult Steve Harvey Diddy hotline is real Onlyfans to Gofundme pipeline Forced celibacy Not talking to women for a long period of time is bad for your mental health That Nig wake-up call Socials Twitter @Deshawn_903/@THDLongviewWoo TikTok @Deshawn__903/@LakeportWoo Email TruthHitDifferent@Gmail.com Outro - Ariel-Symfonia

This was a no outline type of week, so its a bit chaotic & every bit as entertaining. Come listen to us discuss bumping into your bae while he's entertaining another woman (s/o auntie Vivica), dealing with someone while they are having money issues, our mother's contributions, and more ! --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/womens-in2ition/support

In this episode, Ern and Iso dive into the recent viral video featuring the legendary Vivica A. Fox. At 60, the celebrated actress, known for her illustrious career in Hollywood, has openly shared her quest for love, welcoming all applicants. ❤️ The duo also revisit the late Kevin Samuels' insights, where he predicted that if Vivica didn't adjust her attitude, she might end up lonely.

in this episode i'm talking about Scam Kingston Arrested~North West's lion king drama~Caresha says she lied~Cardi Vs Candance+Vivica

A sweeping epic that combines anime, western, kung-fu, and revenge genres, with a score and soundtrack as diverse, are some of the many unique aspects of Kill Bill Vol. 1 (2003) and Vol. 2 (2004). Both movies are similar yet different, and distinctly Quentin Tarantino. Let us know if you think you should've been the Black Mamba.Subscribe, rate, and review:Apple Podcasts: Our Film FathersSpotify: Our Film FathersGoogle Podcasts: Our Film Fathers---------------------------------------------Follow Us:Instagram: @ourfilmfathersTwitter: @ourfilmfathersEmail: ourfilmfathers@gmail.com

Please join us for a very special episode of Celluloid Pudding. We were delighted to bring back our sparkling and winsome guest host Vivica Dunlap. Celine Song's stunning debut film is thought provoking discourse on the cultural concept of In-yun — “providence or fate” —the Korean notion that some people may be tied together over the course of thousands of years and lives. Are some relationships an inevitability? Can we equate different parts of our life to merely a past life, or an era in one lifetime? We honor our guest Vivica with the official title “Bringer of Beautiful Films” and thank her for recommending this Oscar contender. Filming locations NYC https://www.rollingstone.com/tv-movies/tv-movie-features/past-lives-greta-lee-celine-song-new-york-city-tour-1234773016/ Join us! Also, please check out our Linktree! https://linktr.ee/celluloidpuddingpodcast?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=c3876001-712d-4c7a-a41d-a2d25726eca2

Welcome back to another episode of Black Bougie & Bout It!

In this episode Dany and Kils discuss : How they've been staying dedicated to their New Year's Plan, being banned from flying, Taraji and Vivica, Queen Latifah and more!Book Referenced: How to Love A Jamaican https://www.amazon.com/How-to-Love-Jamaican-audiobook/dp/B07FN5DJPP/ref=sr_1_1?crid=18QKTECN40B6C&keywords=how+to+love+a+jamaican+by+alexia+arthurs&qid=1706157534&sprefix=how+to+love+a+jamaia%2Caps%2C186&sr=8-1Black Cake https://www.amazon.com/Audible-Black-Cake-A-Novel/dp/B09B2NNXMG/ref=sr_1_1?crid=15N9OQF47TUC6&keywords=black+cake&qid=1706158016&s=audible&sprefix=black+cake%2Caudible%2C197&sr=1-1Hurricane Summer https://www.amazon.com/Hurricane-Summer-A-Novel/dp/B08LP11TT3/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3VQF9A1EVEQNJ&keywords=hurricane+summer&qid=1706158103&sprefix=hurrincane+s%2Caps%2C111&sr=8-1Songs of Iriehttps://www.amazon.com/Audible-Songs-of-Irie/dp/B0BVL1C6VK/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=Asha+Ashanti+Bromfield&qid=1706158138&s=audible&sr=1-1 Don't forget to LIKE, SHARE & SUBSCRIBEAll inquiries to Hurdyousispodcast@gmail.comFollow us on all socials @Hurdyousis Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Hello WTF Fans! Kristen and Sydney here, excited to bring you another thrilling episode. In this latest installment, we dive into a diverse array of topics. Explore the internet inspired beef between Vivica A Fox and Taraji P Henson. We'll also share a compelling 'Am I the Asshole' story straight from Reddit. Plus, we're shedding light on two fascinating crime stories: the LGBT murders in Atlanta and the Death of Rey Rivera. Join us for this journey through a mix of humor, history, and thought-provoking discussions! --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/whisperstalesfrights/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/whisperstalesfrights/support

in this episode i'm talking about Oprah Winfrey response to Taraji Henson + Vivica Fox saying she can't relate to Taraji's Pay struggles

In this ep, I'll be reviewing a Christmas movie From Canada called Christmas With A View starring Kaitlyn Leeb, Scott Cavalheiro, Vivica. A. Fox, among others. It is directed BY Justin G. Dyck and it very much belongs to the genre of a Hallmark Christmas film. If you like my content, please give this podcast a follow on your preferred podcast platforms & on YouTube to be on top of all the new recos & episodes that come out of this space. Cheers! LinkTree (All Relevant Links) - https://linktr.ee/vocalaboutvisualspodcast?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=1a2e561f-7e29-4f8c-a9a3-c03973d6fd44 You can also directly support through a small tip here. It helps massively

Vivica Keyes was soundly sleeping one night when she was suddenly awakened by the sound of breaking glass at 3:00 a.m. As she was inspecting her broken kitchen window, she came face to face with an intruder. Alone and terrified, Vivica fought off the intruder and called 911. Today's podcast is an intense conversation of what life has been like sense that fateful evening several years ago.Vivica wants everyone to know how to deal with their own personal trauma as well as teaching all of us proven methods to help those who have been through traumatic experiences of their own. True freedom can be experienced even after going through tragic circumstances if you're willing to pursue the right path that lead to healing and wholeness.Show Notes: https://www.95network.org/remove-the-drama-from-your-trauma-w-vivica-keyes-episode-207/Support the show

Chelsea and Samantha Irby (We Are Never Meeting In Real Life) rise and grind on Vivica A. Fox's 2018 memoir/”guide to success”. From her wig business, to mysterious real estate investments, to a male stripper show, Vivica's into more than you ever expected!  To join the community and get access to bonus episodes, click here to become a member of the Celebrity Book Club Patreon  For more book recaps & gentle tea, follow Chelsea on Instagram @chelseadevantez   Where to find our Guest: Samantha Irby Substack - https://bitchesgottaeat.substack.com/ New book! - https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/690138/quietly-hostile-by-samantha-irby/   Thank you to our sponsors: Tanteo Tequila -- @tanteotequila Natalie's Juice Company -- @nataliesoj Pattern Brands - @patternbrands  

In this episode, Gentry Thomas sits down with the incredibly talented and charismatic actress, Vivica A. Fox. With her radiant smile and undeniable star power, Vivica has captivated audiences with her exceptional performances and magnetic presence.   Prepare to be mesmerized as Vivica takes us through her illustrious career, spanning over several decades in film and television. From her breakout role in the iconic film ‘Independence Day’ to her unforgettable performances in ‘Set It Off,’ ‘Kill Bill,’ and many more, Vivica’s filmography is a testament to her versatility as an actress.   Beyond her acting prowess, Vivica A. Fox has become a trailblazer for African-American actresses, consistently breaking barriers and challenging stereotypes in the industry. Her remarkable talent, combined with her striking beauty, confidence, and charisma, has established her as a force to be reckoned with in Hollywood.   In this intimate conversation, Gentry delves deep into Vivica’s life, discussing her passions, challenges, and triumphs. With her infectious energy and down-to-earth demeanor, Vivica shares captivating stories and behind-the-scenes anecdotes, providing listeners with an inside look into the entertainment industry.   Tune in to ‘Backstage Pass with Gentry Thomas’ for an insightful and entertaining encounter with one of Hollywood’s brightest stars, Vivica A. Fox. 

Jeff Greenberg talks with Vivica Rojo about the importance of finding common ground, the effectiveness of cold calls, and building business relationships through networking. Interested in learning from me? Visit https://www.thetribeoftitans.info/coachingJoin our multifamily investing community for FREE for in-depth courses and live networking with like-minded apartment investors at the Tribe of TitansLink to subscribe to YouTube channel: https://tinyurl.com/SubYouTubeDiaryPodcastApple Podcasts: https://tinyurl.com/AppleDiaryPodcast Spotify: https://tinyurl.com/SpotDiaryPodcast Google Podcasts: https://tinyurl.com/GoogleDiaryPodcast Follow us on:Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiaryAptInv/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/Diary_Apt_Inv Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diary_of_an_apartment_investor This episode originally aired on February 24, 2023----Your host, Brian Briscoe, has been a general partner in 1000+ units worth over $100 million and has been lead sponsor, asset manager, capital raiser, and key principal on these properties. He has developed a multifamily education community called the Tribe of Titans that helps aspiring investors learn the game, network with other like-minded professionals, and get their apartment investing business to the next level. He is founder of Streamline Capital Group, which will continue to acquire multifamily assets well into the future. He retired as a Lieutenant Colonel in the United States Marine Corps in 2021.Connect with him on LinkedIn----Jeff GreenbergJeff is the CEO and Managing member of Synergetic Investment Group, LLC (SIG). He has managed all aspects of commercial real estate including acquisitions, operations, value add, dispositions, and investor relations.SIG has been involved in projects worth nearly $50 million consisting of over 1100 units.  SIG currently controls properties in Texas, Georgia, Arizona and Ohio including over 300 student housing beds. SIG has been involved with stabilized and value add properties including Student Housing, short term rental, and Market Rate MF properties.Learn more about him at: https://www.synergeticig.com/----Vivica RojoVivica graduated in 2020 with her BA from UC Santa Cruz, and preceded to work within the community to provide education, employment, and mental health resources for populations facing marginalization, specifically young adults facing homelessness and other systemic challenges. Vivica has taken a pause on this work to focus on Multifamily Real Estate with the goal of starting her own community based project within 5-7 years. She is concentrating her efforts on deal sourcing for Justice Capital, which she co-founded with her father Anthony Rojo. Justice Capital is currently focusing on the Atlanta MSA, and are researching for a second market to dive into.Learn more about her at:  https://rojojusticecapital.com/

Where's the golf video? Is Iggy claiming a set today? Yesterday's Balloon Party talking about St. Louis Football Cardinals. NFL & NBA or NHL & MLB? Vivica calls in and she sounds cute. Sike, it's Hrabe. Iggy has nailed another forecast. Mardi Gras weather is prime for a tribbin'. Literal pee-pee talk. Vianney's hottest mom drops by with a confession and to talk about living in Tim's frat house. Fan page posting etiquette. Plowsy sniping. Will the golf video be out today? Iggy's golf challenges. TMA All-Day. Be careful or you'll get Sinbad all weekend. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Where's the golf video? Is Iggy claiming a set today? Yesterday's Balloon Party talking about St. Louis Football Cardinals. NFL & NBA or NHL & MLB? Vivica calls in and she sounds cute. Sike, it's Hrabe. Iggy has nailed another forecast. Mardi Gras weather is prime for a tribbin'. Literal pee-pee talk. Vianney's hottest mom drops by with a confession and to talk about living in Tim's frat house. Fan page posting etiquette. Plowsy sniping. Will the golf video be out today? Iggy's golf challenges. TMA All-Day. Be careful or you'll get Sinbad all weekend.

Vivica A. Fox was born in South Bend, Indiana, on July 30, 1964, and is the daughter of Everlyena, a pharmaceutical technician, and William Fox, a private school administrator. She is of Native American and African-American descent and is proud of her heritage. She is a graduate of Arlington High School in Indianapolis, Indiana, and, after graduating, moved to California to attend college. Vivica went to Golden West College and graduated with an Associate Art degree in Social Sciences. While in California, she started acting professionally, first on soap operas, such as Generations (1989), Days of Our Lives (1965) and The Young and the Restless (1973). In another early role, she played Patti LaBelle's fashion designer daughter, "Charisse Chamberlain", on the NBC-TV series, Out All Night (1992). Her first big break was in the film, Independence Day (1996), along with Will Smith, and also Set It Off (1996). She has earned critical acclaim for her portrayal of "Maxine" in the 1997 motion picture, Soul Food (1997), which netted her MTV Movie Award and NAACP Image Award nominations. In 2000, she was casted in the medical drama, City of Angels (2000), as "Dr. Lillian Price". She has had roles in many other movies ever since, such as: Teaching Mrs. Tingle (1999), Two Can Play That Game (2001) and Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003). In 2004, Fox was in an episode of Punk'd (2003), where her pregnant friend pretended to go into labor, but they became angry when a paramedic appeared to care more about taking pictures than delivering the baby. Vivica also took another television role, from 2004 to 2006, as she starred in the drama series, 1-800-Missing (2003), on the Lifetime Television Network. In 2007, she was a contender on Dancing with the Stars (2005) and stayed until she was voted off in the fourth week. In 1998, Vivica A. Fox married singer Christopher Harvest (aka Sixx-Nine), whom she later divorced in June 2002. She also dated rapper 50 Cent, however this was a brief relationship. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Vivica Moreno a youth and young adult at Family worship Center shares her testimony.  God saved her from a toxic relationship, and healed her from a traumatic and rough childhood. She suffered with overwhelming anxiety/depression that turned into suicidal thoughts. Thanks to Gods Grace one day someone invited her to church. That one invitation changed her life forever. Watch and share this powerful story !Thank you for listening you can also find us on Youtube and many more.YouTube Episode :https://youtu.be/YsVLORkcrb0Guest Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/vivica_moreno/Guest Facebook:https://www.facebook.com/vivica.moreno7Host Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/ezequiel_aalvarez/Click here: https://linktr.ee/Ezequielalvarez     #Podcast #Ministry #Christian #JesusFor prayer please contact us via email: ezequiel.alvarezcontact@gmail.com#podcast #depression  #anxiety #mentalhealth  #testimony #addition #lonliness  #suicideprevention #christian  #trendingnow #hope  #motivation  #faith #purpose #young #teenager #toxicrelationships TIMESTAMPS:00:00 - INTRO01:05 - Welcome Guest 02:24 - Going through a tough time04:30  - Dealing with anxiety attacks05:51 -  Living with depression 07:28 - Suicidal thoughts 10:59 - Rough Childhood 20:00 - Toxic Abusive Relationship26:25 - God changed my life30:50 -How to be successful in your faith33:00 - Outro

Anna Singer spoke with Vivica Genaux, who sings the role of Dario in Quantum Theater's production of "Idaspe" at the Byham Theater October 7th through the 15th.    

On this edition of The Pulse with Bill Anderson, Bill is joined by actress, host, producer, and entrepreneur Vivica A. Fox.  Vivica talks about how knowing her power and knowing when to say ‘No' helped shape her career.  Vivica also talks about why it is so important to her to be open about all aspects of her life and career and what it means to her to be a successful black woman.  

In the next 36 minutes you're going to learn a little about a lot. Ollie Whitfield (Demand Generation Team Lead @ VanillaSoft) joins Darryl this week, and he's here to magic Autoklose's Growth Month events into the podcast version of a lunchable. In between banter, Darryl and Ollie break down the top takeaways from the 47 sessions across six key topics: prospecting, sales skills, brand, acquisitions, bootstrapping, and leadership.

The guys celebrate Independence Day by discussing the film, "Independence Day".

This is a short clip from a short bonus episode of “No Fun” for Patreon subscribers only at the $5 monthly level. To join Patreon at the $5 level and get this bonus episode (as well as every bonus episode at the $5 level since 2020) go here: https://www.patreon.com/jenkirkmanIn this short bonus episode: Jen talks about personal overwhelm, thoughts on Jada Pinkett Smith's potentially toxic marriage rules, the cult of the Smith family, Vivica A. Fox goes on the Wendy Williams show and calls Jada “self-righteous” - whoaaaa. And a funny story from the Chelsea Lately days about the time someone at work pranked Chelsea over email pretending to be Vivica A. Fox. See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

This week's client is P. Peter Peanut-Brittle (Luke Null), and he's a man on a mission. He's in love with his pen pal, Vivica, and he needs to get to Germany within 19 hours so he can stop her from marrying his rival. Sounds like a job for the best travel agents on Earth (Keith and Damon)!

This week's client is P. Peter Peanut-Brittle (Luke Null), and he's a man on a mission. He's in love with his pen pal, Vivica, and he needs to get to Germany within 19 hours so he can stop her from marrying his rival. Sounds like a job for the best travel agents on Earth (Keith and Damon)!

in this episode i'm talking Mo'nique responds to Corey Holcomb+Dr Umar's snowbunny drama+Sweetie Pie's update+Vivica tears up

Demi returns to America; The Wire turns 20; This Is Us series finale reviewed; Lil Nas X is snubbed; Ray's Sister has a rap beef; Jada addresses The Slap; Vivica addresses Jada addressing the slap, The Aunjanue has an “I Am…” moment.Follow me: IG:  demetriallucas.Twitter: demetriallucas.FB: demetriallucas.YouTube: demetriallucas.More about the Show: Don't forget to subscribe to the podcast for free wherever you're listening or using this link: http://bit.ly/RatchetRespectablePodcast. Thanks to our sponsors: Start your 100-day trial and shop the entire Away lineup of travel essentials, including their best-selling suitcases at awaytravel.com/ratchet.Get started at chime.com/ratchet.Find your inner detective -- Download June's Journey free today on the Apple App Store or Google Play!Go to iwilife.com/ratchet and use code ratchet to save 30% on your first purchase of any iwi product.Listen to CALL ME CURIOUS on Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, or wherever you get your podcasts. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Demi returns to America; The Wire turns 20; This Is Us series finale reviewed; Lil Nas X is snubbed; Ray's Sister has a rap beef; Jada addresses The Slap; Vivica addresses Jada addressing the slap, The Aunjanue has an “I Am…” moment. Follow me:  IG:  demetriallucas. Twitter: demetriallucas. FB: demetriallucas. YouTube: demetriallucas. More about the Show:  Don't forget to subscribe to the podcast for free wherever you're listening or using this link: http://bit.ly/RatchetRespectablePodcast.  Thanks to our sponsors: Start your 100-day trial and shop the entire Away lineup of travel essentials, including their best-selling suitcases at awaytravel.com/ratchet. Get started at chime.com/ratchet. Find your inner detective -- Download June's Journey free today on the Apple App Store or Google Play! Go to iwilife.com/ratchet and use code ratchet to save 30% on your first purchase of any iwi product. Listen to CALL ME CURIOUS on Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, or wherever you get your podcasts. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

A chelsea student arrested for bringing a gun to school, Vivica calls Jada self righteous, reacts to the Red Table Talk

Vivica speaks out on "the slap"...

Mr. No Cap and Willie P are joined by Malik, Ethan and our special guest Trudy from the Sister Sista Podcast. We discuss the polarizing legacy of the recently deceased, Kevin Samuels. Also, DJ returns with an EPIC introduction as he gives his take on the untimely demise of this Black cultural icon. This episode is an Instant Classic! Tune In!    Follow The Sister Sista Podcast on IG @sistersistapodcast   Organization: Blackmennetwork.net   Mailbag: whatblackmenlike@gmail.com    Follow us on Instagram: @whatblackmenlike

Rico charges for YSL on behalf of YFN Lucci,Vivica takes low road regarding Brother Kevin Samuels,Georgia emerging in the wildest state news antics,NBA Playoffs and NFL latest News.Burk goes crazy

INTRODUCTION: Coming from a past of drug abuse, homelessness, and being a formerly incarcerated person, Amanda has broken through and was able to let the good things into her life. Amanda is now on a mission to inspire and motivate people just like you. People who have had a difficult past and haven't yet realized that they are stronger than they think and can have the life they want and deserve. Amanda wants to help you rise above the labels of society and burst through the ceilings that you have put on top of yourself. Amanda's core message is that we are stronger than we think and can have the life we imagine regardless of our past. She is now the host of The Let Good Things In Show, an international speaker, and author. Inspiring lives across the globe, by openly sharing her story and the lessons she learned along the way.  INCLUDED IN THIS EPISODE (But not limited to): ·      Candid Stories of Drug Use·      Teen Pregnancy/Adoption ·      Abusive Relationships/Rape·      A Botched Robbery·      Life After Being Incarcerated ·      Suicide·      Divorce·      Prostitution/Promiscuity ·      Spiritual Smelling·      Witchcraft CONNECT WITH AMANDA: Website: https://amandaacker.comFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/amanda.acker2017LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/amandaackerInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/theletgoodthingsinshow  CONNECT WITH DE'VANNON: Website: https://www.SexDrugsAndJesus.comYouTube: https://bit.ly/3daTqCMFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/SexDrugsAndJesus/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sexdrugsandjesuspodcast/Twitter: https://twitter.com/TabooTopixLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/devannonEmail: DeVannon@SexDrugsAndJesus.com DE'VANNON'S RECOMMENDATIONS: ·      Pray Away Documentary (NETFLIX)o  https://www.netflix.com/title/81040370o  TRAILER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk_CqGVfxEs ·      Upwork: https://www.upwork.com ·      FreeUp: https://freeup.net ·      Disabled American Veterans (DAV): https://www.dav.org ·      American Legion: https://www.legion.org INTERESTED IN PODCASTING OR BEING A GUEST?: ·      PodMatch is awesome! This application streamlines the process of finding guests for your show and also helps you find shows to be a guest on. The PodMatch Community is a part of this and that is where you can ask questions and get help from an entire network of people so that you save both money and time on your podcasting journey.https://podmatch.com/signup/devannon TRANSCRIPT: [00:00:00]You're listening to the sex drugs and Jesus podcast, where we discuss whatever the fuck we want to! And yes, we can put sex and drugs and Jesus all in the same bed and still be all right at the end of the day. My name is De'Vannon and I'll be interviewing guests from every corner of this world as we dig into topics that are too risqué for the morning show, as we strive to help you understand what's really going on in your life.There is nothing off the table and we've got a lot to talk about. So let's dive right into this episode.De'Vannon: Hello. Hello. All my beautiful souls and spirits out there. I'm so thankful to have you with me again, another week. Welcome to the sex drugs and Jesus podcast, baby. Now, today, I'm talking with a woman by the name of Amanda Aker.She's the formerly incarcerated person turned hope dealer. She's also the host of a podcast called the let good things in show and an international speaker as well. Now in this show, we're going to get deep into Amanda's [00:01:00] story of her teen pregnancy and the emotion she had to go through giving up her kids for adoption.We were talking about rape, abusive relationships, the struggles of life after you've been incarcerated. And let me tell you as a total bitch, and we get spiritual, we talk about witchcraft and our spiritual gifts and dreams and things like that. I want you to take a close, listen to this episode, and I want you to take something from it that you can use today. Amanda. Oh my gosh. I've been waiting for this interview. I feel like for so fucking long, because you are the first person who has such such a history. that's so closely mirrors my own, you know, in terms of being homeless and being incarcerated and things like that. And you, you coin yourself as a formerly incarcerated person turned the hope dealer.[00:02:00]Amanda: Yes,De'Vannon: Tell us, tell us about yourself. Amanda: Yeah. So first I just want to thank you so much for having me on the show and you know, my story is. Like where do I even begin? You know I grew up in a normal middle class, suburban life. I was very close with my mom. But at age 15, my parents divorced and my whole world turned upside down. You know, my mom left and craziness and sued, but you know, my life after that was me chasing love and acceptance from someone on the outside, you know, somebody who could make me feel accepted to the point where I was able to have friends and have a social life and do all the things that my shy self prior to that would never have even imagined doing. So it led me to try to find the cool kids so to speak and, you know, I wanted, and it's weird because at my young age and knowing that smoking [00:03:00] weed, smoking cigarettes, drinking, like all of that, probably wasn't a great choice. I was always. I wanted to know, like, what does that feel like? Like, why are people doing it?You know, the curiosity right. Of it all. And I thought, well, I'm sad. So this is going to help me feel better. And I'm around people. And if I drink and I smoke, then I will be cool and accepted. And just all these, like now looking back, it was really stupid. Like I was being really fucking stupid. I was not, you know, seeking help.I was seeking an escape from what I was experiencing. So that led me to just that, you know, smoking cigarettes was first. I remember I was 17 when I first smoked a cigarette. I'll never forget that moment. You know, at my job that I had at the time this guy that I was dating, he was totally against me smoking.He told me I was too innocent. And that I shouldn't, but I did anyways. And you know, that catapulted me into more things. So drinking, smoking weed Which then of course the people I was [00:04:00]surrounded with I thought were awesome and great, but they are very toxic for me. No, I don't feel that they're innately bad people, but they were not the people that I should have been spending my time with. And going to college, I was introduced to pills, which became a quick favorite benzodiazepines to be exact Klonopin was everything to me for awhile. It is the first thing I took that made me forget everything completely. So it was the first time that I felt okay. I was no longer crying. I wasn't, you know, cutting myself when I was high on Klonopin.I was doing whatever the fuck I wanted to with no cares in the world. But the first time I did it, I did so much of it in this story. It's just, I can't believe this happened to me when I tell this story, but I did so much of it. And then we went and hung out with other friends and started doing bike in and all of these different types of pills and [00:05:00] mixing them.And I had no business doing any of that because I had never touched pills prior. So the next morning I wake up, smoked a joint with someone and I overdosed. It was like instantaneous. It was like my body. I don't know. It must've been the reaction of the weed plus whatever. I had swimming in my system from the pills and I just collapsed.And if it wasn't for the guy who I was with, I can't guarantee that I would have survived. And you know, in that moment, I thought when I woke up in the hospital, not knowing where I was and you know, I thought, oh, well, my dad, like he'll see this and he'll care. And he'll, you know, he'll want me and he'll want to help me, but he did.So it was this constant, you know, rejection from my parents that was driving me towards all this. So unfortunately that was not the wake up call that I should have had in those moments. But I just kept using, I failed out of college. [00:06:00] You know, I became pregnant at age 19 experienced sexual abuse around the same time.And if my daughter up for adoption. So now I'm this college dropout essentially who just gave a daughter up for adoption and I'm only barely 20 years old. So the darkness got worse from there and I got into another abusive relationship, a physical abuse of, and mental abusive relationship. And after leaving him finally getting the courage to do that.I was in a domestic violence shelter. So essentially I was homeless. I left with nothing. I did have a son at the time. He was a baby. I was like six months old. He doesn't remember any of this. Thank God. But you know, we go to the shelter and I, instead of embracing it and getting the help, I needed to have a positive, healthy life.I just wanted out, [00:07:00] you know, I was like, I don't want to be here. I felt very like I couldn't just go out and do what I wanted without like telling people where I was like, it was just, I didn't like it. You know, it was still very young and I wanted to be free. So I went back to an ex of mine and eventually realized that I didn't love him anymore.So I made the choice to leave him and got my own place, but I was so lonely that need for acceptance and being around people just wouldn't go away. And so I ended up moving in with my best friend and that's when the cocaine use started and what led me to my incarceration. So I met a man at a strip club and a much older man.And he told me he had a job for me. And I was like, cool. Like I need money. You know, I need to pay my rent and get my cocaine at the time. Those were my priorities. And, but that's not what it was. He ended up sexually assaulting me and my friend and I [00:08:00] stupidly after that went back. But we went together and this guy was ultimately paying me for sex, but I would not have sex with him.So he wasn't giving us the money that he told us he would. So long story short. My friend and I, and a few other people decided that we were gonna Rob him and get all of his money and whatever. So. I remember that day, because I remember feeling like I didn't want to do this. I knew it was wrong, even though he'd hurt me, even though, like, he was a shit person, honestly, a shit person.I still knew deep down that it was wrong, but I didn't want to lose my friend. I could not handle the thought of not having her in my life because she was all I had. She was with me since my parents divorced, you know, she was the one who brought me through a lot of that. Maybe not in the way that I should have been getting through it, but at the same time, [00:09:00] she was my solid. So we go out there and I remember looking at her and saying, we're going to jail tonight. I don't want to do this. And she was like, fuck it. I'll just drive. And here we go, Amanda pulls off the highway. I get out of my car, but I don't run. I don't say, you know, does whatever and not get involved in it. I get back in the car and we continue to drive. And long story short, I, I couldn't go through with it. I remember sitting in this guy's apartment, just sweating bullets. I mean, it was so obvious that something was up. I couldn't hide it. And the guy asked me, he goes, what's wrong with you, Amanda? He goes, something's wrong with you? And I was like, nothing, I'm fine.And this was in the early two thousands. So we only had two cell phones between all of us. So my friend was sitting there texting with the guys and I snatched her phone and I was like, I'm going to go call and check on my son. So I run out and go to my car. I'm laying in the backseat of my car, still sweating, crying, all the things.[00:10:00] And everyone comes out and like, they're ambushing me. Like, what the fuck are you doing in the backseat of the car? Like we need to drive, but we didn't make it out of that parking lot. Like real, like the cops were there, like it was within like 30 seconds of them being in my car to where we are now getting pulled over.I was arrested at gunpoint. Which was horrifying, horrifying on one of the busiest streets for people on the other side, we're like looking down like that. There was like a restaurant across the street. So they're looking down watching this all happen and I'm arrested face down on the pavement. It was horrific.It was the number one, most, probably most, one of the number one most traumatic events I've ever experienced in my life. It's, like I said, prior to that, Amanda didn't get in trouble. Even though I was doing things I probably should have been in trouble for, you know, I never got caught up until that point.And you know, I made this other mistake where, you know, [00:11:00] my friends telling me don't tell the cops anything, which looking back. Oh, maybe I shouldn't have, but they kept telling me that I was going to get released and that I wouldn't see jail if I told them what happened. So I tell them, I told them everything and I even wrote it down on paper thinking, well, I'm going to get out so I can just like leave and go hide somewhere.You know, that was my thought process. And I didn't get released. I had a $10,000 straight bond. I was charged with robbery, criminal, conspiracy, and prostitution. And now I'm in jail with my friend who now knows that I narked, I told the whole truth. Didn't hold anything back. And I watched everyone else get bailed out, but me.So I'm now in holding by myself, filling up to main population in county jail. And I'm scared half to death. Like I didn't know what to expect. It wasn't as bad as I thought not to say it was great, but it wasn't as scary as I thought [00:12:00] it was going to be. I was in there for a week before I got bailed out and I had this whole year of my life where if you've experienced incarceration, like you don't know what the hell is going to happen to you.It's like a whole year where you literally have, I had no clue. Like when am I going to jail? Am I going to prison? Am I like no idea. So that just, I just stayed in that cycle using drinking. I started stripping. I was, you know, dating men from the strip club. I was getting in very bad scenarios with men, women, everything.And then I got sentenced to eight months of incarceration in county jail with option for work release. I only got convicted of the conspiracy, but I did watch my best friend. Which me and her weren't really friends anymore at this point. But she, in my heart, she was still my best friend. I watched her in all the guys that were involved, get carted off to state prison for five years. That was really hard. I felt horrible. Like it was all my fault. [00:13:00] And then when I had to go back to turn myself in to go to jail, I was the for work release. You have to pee and you have to be clean in order to go into the work release program. I was pregnant by the way. And I couldn't be, but not be like what pregnant woman on this planet can't pee on demand.Right. And I just couldn't. And so I had to go to main population for at least 30 days. I did eventually get into the work release program, which was better than being in county, but still incarceration. Still had, you know, I wasn't allowed to just freely go and do what I wanted. And then after that it just kept spiraling.I get out of jail and I don't clean up my act. I keep doing the same things. I keep ending up in toxic abusive relationships. And three years ago is when I had my breaking point and I was going to kill myself because I had lost a job that I thought was great. I was betrayed by someone who I thought was my best friend and I couldn't do it [00:14:00] anymore.I just gave up. But in that moment I had, you know, maybe it's a spiritual awakening, I don't know. But in that same moment of crying and wanting to end my life, I decided that I couldn't, I had to keep living. I had a husband, I have kids, you know, even the kids who I gave up for adoption, like they're still my children and I need to live for them.I need to show them that it's possible. And so I didn't, I didn't in my life. I. Reached out for help from my husband and slowly but surely here I am today, just telling my story and, you know, learning to love and accept myself every single day. And realizing that I take ownership for the things that have happened to me over my life.And I made those choices that made those situations occur and learning to forgive myself. Oh, that's a lot, but that's pretty much it.De'Vannon: Yeah, that is a lot. And we're going to go and work our way back [00:15:00] through it.Now, a part of you helping people is that you're the host of the, let the let good things in show. Amanda: Yes.De'Vannon: You're an international speaker and you, and you've done some writing as an author as well. And so, so let me, let me go back through some of this.I want to capture more detail in like your like live emotions when some of these things were happening. So when your parents got divorced, like my parents almost got divorced when my dad had, I think his second affair or whatever the case may be. I wish they would have gotten divorced, but But tell me what, what did you feel, you know, how did it feel when your opinion has gotten divorced?Because you talk about it as though it was super traumatic. Bring me into what was going on in your head and in your. Amanda: I mean, I was angry was I didn't [00:16:00] understand, like I knew prior that they may be getting divorced, but I always thought in my mind that my mother would stay with me. So I was angry. I was sad. I was confused. I felt like. My heart was broken into a million pieces. Like everything I knew had just shattered within a blink of an eye.You know, you wake up in the morning to go to high school as a freshman, thinking your life's normal, and then you come home. And the, it, it's just not, I remember like my dad sitting on the couch and he looked like he'd been crying and my dad's not an emotional person. So I knew that this was major. This was not something that we were just going to brush under the rug and move on from.But also my anger, I just remember being angry. Like, I didn't understand, like, where's my mom and nobody could tell me, you [00:17:00] know, nobody. Until I discovered where my mom was, I mean, she did go to my grandmother's house, but she was in another relationship and, you know, it was. Extremely hard. Like I D I can't even like put it all into words.It's just, it hurt like hell in all directions.De'Vannon: Fair enough. I can understand where you're coming from, what the unexpected things happening when you're a kid. When we, when we when we, we had a house that my parents had got when I was in grade school, like middle, middle high school. They lost it because they were bad with money and stuff like that.And so the way I found out about the house one day, they just show up to this plot of land with a frame on it, on it. And they're like, well, this is the house that we're building, you know, for us, they had bought it, you know, the right way to do it is to take the kids through the whole home buying process.So they know from beginning to end, you know, and just drive them to, to the house [00:18:00] being a built already. So while, while it's a good thing, it's still a shocking thing. Then when they lost the house, I came home from school one day and all the shit was packed up and they were like, well, we lost the house.You just hop in the car and just go on to the next one. So Amanda: my goodness. De'Vannon: it was a huge downgrade. So we went from the hood to the we were like the Jefferson's we moved on up to the east side. Then we had to go back to the hood, you know, in an instant. So I understand where you're coming from with the shock value.There. And I heard you say that you were chasing love and acceptance. When you got caught up with this crowd. It reminded me of how, when I was in the military, I was a Tinder and young at the age of 17 when I went to the air force and then this one, I became a sled. I was a total calm whore. And so I and I was having sex with all these different men and just totally just running gay.com until the ground.You know, there was no grind. Amanda: Wow.[00:19:00]De'Vannon: No, you had to be, you had to be determined to be a whore in my day. You know, you have to wait for the dial up to come up on the computer, you know, AOL or whoever you were going through Amanda: Yeah,De'Vannon: Then you had to negotiate the transaction and print out the directions for MapQuest.So there were no phones. So you had to have a print area that all of these things, you were going to be a slave Amanda: so true.De'Vannon: and every time. And the whole, while I was going through all of this, I was having sex with two, three different guys at night at times. And I knew that what I wanted was that masculine attention from them that I never got from my dad, but I, I really, really loved being embraced by like a big strong man.Well, you know, he wasn't going to do this shit for free, you know, he had to get something in return and that was the piece of this sweet ass. I get chasing, [00:20:00] loving and acceptance, and we all do it. Amanda: Yeah.De'Vannon: have a certain sense of tribalism that's ingrained into us. Or as one writer said, you know, no, man's an island. We're going to find community because that's how God designed us. Now, this doesn't mean losing your identity within the crowd, but we need to relate with people.The Corona virus comes to town. People can't relate with people and people lose their shit. People who have ever been in jail like you and I have, we understand what it means to not be able to come and go as you please. We know we know what it's like to have privileges taken away. So a pandemic and being able to be in our houses and steal kind of go to work and do some shit is like great.These people lost their damn minds because they couldn't go out to eat at restaurants, couldn't travel and take their vacations because of the cause of the need. We have. To, to, to socialize with people. And sometimes we negotiate, even though they're not the best [00:21:00] people. Sometimes we think that's the best we can find.And rather than being fucking alone, we'll take the problem. People are the people who we probably have a bad feeling about because to us, that's the worst. That's better than being by ourselves. Amanda: Exactly.De'Vannon: You see? And so, you know, so the prayer is that when people are going through this start a phase that the Lord will give them better friends, you know, and that's what I needed because it took me a long time to get to a point where I wasn't trying to hang out with people who are, who were also, who had been homeless or who were into drugs and stuff like that.You know, I had to get used to hanging out with people who were not problematic by, by by advice, you know, about the things they like to get into. You said you were abused sexually. Give me detail. What happened? Like were you raped? Like. Amanda: Well, there's, you know, what the guy that I was living with I wouldn't call it rape necessarily cause we were boyfriend and [00:22:00] girlfriend, but he would do a lot of forcefully. Like he would like hold me down and like have like sex with me, like it was painful. And I would ask him to stop and he wouldn't just very forceful sexually. So maybe that is rape, but it's not like, you know, we were already in a relationship, so I don't know if I could call it that, but De'Vannon: Yeah, that's right. Amanda: yeah. So yeah, I mean, it was, it was bad. And then. You know, it, it made me think that because when I moved in with this guy, so to give it some context, like I that's right after I failed out of college and my father was selling the house that I grew up in, he was living with his then girlfriend.And so I'm li I'm still living in the house and I'm waking up to strangers, like showing my house. I had no idea that they were going to be there. So I had to get out of there and I had no money. I don't even think I was, yeah. I probably was working as a cashier [00:23:00] somewhere. But I had nowhere to go, you know, so I moved in with him because I figured, well, at least this is better than being on the street.You know, I can move in with him. And I, I thought I loved him, you know, at that young age that I was. But as soon as I moved in with him, like things got weird. The force, the forceful sex started, I started noticing like, This weird, like witchcraft type stuff is things that like gave me the heebie-jeebies out for lack of a better explanation. And I did later find out that he, his father had molested his sister and his sister had their four molested him. So I think there was a lot of sexual confusion for him that he probably had never dealt with. Not that it makes it okay, what he did to me or what he's done to other women. But I think it stems from, from that. And which is part of the reason why I gave our daughter up for [00:24:00] adoption. But beyond that, you know, I was raped by the gentleman who we robbed not sex, sex, but oral. He told me that if I did not. Do what he demanded that he was going to fucking kill me. So I kinda just did what he said which was awful.I remember like leaving that scenario and brushing my teeth. Like I had never brushed my teeth before. I just felt so violated and disgusting for doing that. And then having money get handed to me. Right. Like it felt very dirty. All in all I, you know, throughout my life, yes. I've been raped on multiple occasions, but I think the ones that I can actually remember are those two. Because those were, I mean, I was sober when my ex was, you know, forcefully having sex with me. I was sober when I was assaulted by that older [00:25:00] man much older and I don't know it, the feeling afterwards. it's like, it's hard for me to remember fully, like with my ex, but I can say with the older man is that just, why did that happen?Like, was I raped? Like I always questioned it. Like I just did, you know, like I always like, well, was that rape? You know, it's like, I was there, you know, I, you know, I was where I was with this person, you know, so it's not rape. And I would just like shove it away. Like I wouldn't describe it that way to anybody until after the fact of realizing what had actually happened.Oh,De'Vannon: What may be my favorite line from the movie, set it off, which had queen Latifa, Vivica, Fox, Jada Pinkett Smith. And that girl who was like in some of the Tyler Perry movies and shit. The, the when that hardheaded white cop was trying to get the book, his boss, the black cop to do some, some [00:26:00] stupid shit.The black cop looks at him and goes. What part of no. Do you not understand? So the N or the O as a favorite line from that movie and so no, honey, right? Like that's so rapey. We don't like to get rapey when, when somebody says no th th th th this is flat out it, and unless it's an explicit. Yes. Even silence is no.So if a man's trying to fuck, and you say anything short of a yes, it's absolutely. Okay. Then he is not too advanced, plain and damn simple playing and down. Amanda: Yeah, that's true.De'Vannon: tell me about this witchcraft. You mentioned the w word, and I liked it. I liked it. I liked to talk about witchcraft, cause I was, I've been a victim of witchcraft before.Tell me what you saw. Amanda: Oh, wow. There were so like, I don't know if they were taro cards or what they were, but like just like weird shit like that. Just like laying around. He had like, [00:27:00] All these like weird figurines. I never actually saw him like, do anything with it. I think he hid that side of him for me pretty well until I started unearthing some of the things. But with witch craft, another weird story that I experienced still very young. I was probably 20. At this point, I was working at a grocery store and the bakery and my boss, like the lead baker or whatever the fuck he was called asked me if I was into witchcraft. And I was like, at the time I was like, I don't know, like you tell me what's that, you know, and luckily I did not go with him, but he was going to take me to this like house with all these women who like practice witchcraft. And my friend and I were going to go, but I don't remember what transpired that we didn't end up going, which I'm grateful for. Because that kind of stuff. It scares me to the point where I like, I won't go there. [00:28:00] Like if I see it, I'm I'm out. Like, I, I don't, I, it, it really scares me because what if it's real?That's always been like my fear. Like, what if this is real? Like, what if, like they put a spell on me or what if I get murdered or all that? Because you hear these stories is horrifying stories of, you know, these witchcraft type scenarios. So no, there wasn't anything crazy explicit to disclose other than like, just strange things that was finding, laying around the apartment.De'Vannon: I think that's the way witchcraft goes. It can be little stuff like that that causes us to raise an eyebrow. You know, when people don't do things for no reason, you know, he's got the terrible looking cars and the strange figurines. And I think I know what you're talking about. He didn't go and get all that shit just to sit around and collect desks.You know, you know, there, there is a practice happening and you see, God has had his hands on you and he's been guiding you away from these things. I can see that clearly, you know.you [00:29:00] you've been kissed with mercy woman. And so, and so and so you were very, very special to him. And so And so you say witchcraft could be real.Yes, it is real. So the way it happened to me, I was the object of this guy's desire. I was about 15. He was about like 22, the alter Boyd, my church, he was the worship leader. And so what he was doing with me, he decided he wanted to have me all to himself. So he became, it became my kind of an obsession for him.Now he already had me cause I hadn't had any experience with a man before. So I'm all in for all with him. And so any of them would have told me to do, I would have done it. He didn't have to resort to Witchery, but you know, boys will be boys, you know, sometimes, and they are aggressive ways. And so. He was also very, just kind of evil at heart.It was years later that I found out that he also was at eight, he had full blown aids, that he was running around, trying to [00:30:00] intentionally infect as many people as he could in order to kill them. Amanda: Oh, my gosh.De'Vannon: I, and I barely missed that getting infected by him by, by a hair. And so so it started with he, he got a hold of a windbreaker that he asked to borrow from me and he would never give it back.And I later learned, learned that he was using my personal possession to feel close to me in knowing what I know now, probably using it to strengthen his spells. I had gone over to his house only once with someone else because that person wants to drop something off to him. And when he opened his door, I could see like an altar type thing with candles and stuff going and stuff like that.And so. I started having, we started having a conversation that we were like, kind of like dating as best as I could. And me being in high school and him being like a grown ass, a grown ass man.And so I started [00:31:00] having dreams about him every night, Amanda: Hmm.De'Vannon: his son, he, he wore very distinct cologne and it may have been partially that. And then in the disease that I was smelling in him, there are those of us who can I don't know if everybody can, but I can like smell certain things in the spirit. Like I can smell when a foul spirit is around me.It's a very rank odor. There's a way you can smell sickness. My pastor, she could smell like new life in the room and can tell if a woman was pregnant and stuff like that. Amanda: Oh,De'Vannon: there was a way to smell in the spirit. So I would smell his sin. I could be anywhere at school at church, just his. And, you know, when people die, when people have died, some people will, will testify that they'll smell, like say that fragrance, their grandmother used to wear, come around them.So fragrance is something that is unseen. Spirits are unseen and there is some inmeshment there. So he would send his spirit around me [00:32:00] and during the day, and then a while when I was asleep every night, I would dream about him every night period, all the time. This is not like a random thing. This is something that's being done intentionally.And so I later learned through my pastor who was a prophetess who looked through the spirit that told me what was going on when, when he and I had like a big rift when I wouldn't sleep with him, when he wanted me to sleep with him She was telling me he was burning candles, you know, and I think he was using, what's called an in tranquil candle.And if you read the back of that candle, this candle, when the practitioner uses it searches for a wandering spirit, that's able to cross in between our world in their world. And then they, they evoke the employment of this spirit to go and torture the person who is the object of their affection and to Amanda: Holy shit.De'Vannon: right and to take peace from that person until that person comes and B's with them.It's a very twisted thing to do [00:33:00] for someone you claim to care for. But the only time that I would ever be happy is when I was around him. Other than that, I was fucking miserable. And my dreams about him. Weren't good. I would feel shit coming into my room and like shake the bed. They were like dark black.Mysterious fucking nightmares. It took six months from the time that my past and I started working on breaking this spill off of me for it to be broken. And then once it, then one Sunday y'all she looks like she ain't never heard no shit like in it took six months and then one Sunday morning I was sitting at the kitchen table doing like math or some shit with my parents were like, we're rarely going to church during these days.And I felt it lift up off of me so much so that I put my pencil down a kind of like a gas and I had to just like, go take a walk. I just, I had, I had, I had just like all this, all these pounds, I just got lifted off, lifted off of me. [00:34:00] And I just went and walked in. I met my grandmother who was waiting down at the end of the driveway.And from that day forth, I never smell his scent again. And I never had a fucking dream about him again. Amanda: Wow.De'Vannon: I think, I think after he died, I think he might've been dead. I think, I think he may have tried to come back around me again, but I swatted him away and I wouldn't let it happen because I had learned better than because he, he died like about two years later of those aids that he was running around, trying to give every body went from looking like he had no body fat, six pack chills down, gorgeous model looking man shriveled up on a cane.I heard he had some kind of cancer with just these pissy all over his fucking body. The fiance that he didn't tell me that he had, when I was dating him, who had moved to California, who had moved to California to be with him here was the one helping him. So we [00:35:00] buried his ass when he was around 24 years old, but maybe witchcraft is real.And I speak about it because like that guy who wants to take you to I'm, I'm, I'm thinking that that was a coven, that he was like a coven of witches, like a group of witches that he wanted to take you to either to sacrifice your ass or to get you to join. One of the other and you know, people practice it and it's, it's not like you might think, okay.So people like down here and near in new Orleans, like where I live, you know, and shit like nearby where I live, you know, you can go into these voting shops in these spiritual shops and get all of these things, candles, black powder things to break up people's relationships, things that kill people, things to close people's businesses down.You also can get things to shield yourself and protect yourself things to help enhance their luck and success. Magic is used to either draw something to you to dispel something from you to build up or to tear down. [00:36:00] And just as sure as you're looking shock this shit at me Right.now, honey, this is the truth and people practice.All kinds of Witchery and magic everywhere because these stores can ship this shit worldwide. So you don't need to be looking for somebody running around in a black cloak than a witch's hat. They could just eat some bitch wearing a shirt from Walmart and skinny jeans. This is what the girl had on the day when I was in one of these spiritual shops, getting some shit to protect myself because now that I've been through witchcraft, I keep myself guarded 24, 24 8. And I and if anybody needs protection against witchcraft, until you learn deeper things, you can just keep you a white candle burning and you can bathe yourself with whites. And just, or maybe like olive oil soap and just keep it simple to start with. And then you could reach out to me if you need any further help than that.And I'll see what I can do, but I was just having a casual conversation with this girl asking her what she does like for work. And I don't ask people what they do for work [00:37:00] anymore, because it's really a bullshit question. We usually don't give a fuck, but she would. But she was thinking, I was talking about her spiritual work, because that's what it's called.Like I said, if you're trying to kill somebody or you want to break up their relationship where you want to run them out of business or make them leave the job and make them move out of their house, you'll say, Yeah.I'm working on that person. You know? And so, but I, that's not what I meant when I asked her that.But you know, I'm not, I'm not thinking of the place that I'm standing in. And she answered me, she answered me. She was like, oh, you know, just general breakup, spells, like the break up couples and that sort of thing. How are you? You know? So she said Amanda: Oh my goodness.De'Vannon: she said it as casually as the sky is blue. But in the Bible, but in the Bible, it tells us the Hebrew Bible. I always like to give credit to the land where the Bible actually comes from. The Hebrew Bible tells us that there are people who cannot find rest and peace every day until they have found somebody to, to [00:38:00] destroy.You know, there are people who make it their business to cause problems in people's lives. So sometimes when you're in a relationship and suddenly confusion starts coming out of nowhere, or you start seeing this weird shit, like how you did. Let's pay closer attention. It's not because we're crazy. You know, sometimes there might be dark forces at play, so you better get close to God.You better get the holy ghost. You better learn about spiritual protection and stuff like that. And in, in get, get some, get some head knowledge, baby, because all of these things affect us in this life. And so burying our head in the sand and try to act like it's not there. It's not going to help you own it.Learn it. Amanda: Yeah. Yeah. That's a crazy story. But I believe that, you know, I, I am I can't smell things, but I have like this innate sense. So like, it's like, I can tell when something's bad [00:39:00] or I can, I can literally, like, I was just telling my husband this the other day, cause I I'm I'm prescribed medical marijuana.So I had been using it for my anxiety and PTSD for a while now. But I decided just to about a month ago, I was like, you know what, like I'm using it too much. It's just becoming a problem. So I only take a pill so I can sleep at night. I don't smoke throughout the day anymore. And but ever since I gave that up, it's like, it's more intense.It's like, I'm, I'm sensing things more. Like I was thinking the other day, I I had like a zoom call with someone. I was like, oh, I'm really not feeling it. Like maybe they'll cancel. They canceled. There's another instance where like I was thinking about something and I was thinking about my mother-in-law's like, oh, that'd be cool if I saw her.And there, she was like, she didn't see me. She was driving past and someone else's car, but there she was I'm like, what is that? Like, why? Cause I've always had like, [00:40:00] the people will tell me that, that I have some sort of like intuitive abilities or whatever, but I don't, I don't know. It just seems kind of weird to me, but when things like that started happening, you know, and I look back over my life, like I've always ignored myself.So it was like, I always ignored that side of me because I always thought I had to just do what everyone else was doing. I had to keep everyone else happy. So I kind of like forgotten about that part of me. So when it started happening again recently, it's, it's cool, but it's also scary. It's like, I don't want to, I don't want this ability, like, somebody else can have this.Like I it's freaks me out. Like I don't think I should be able to just make things happen like that. I don't know. It's weird. So.De'Vannon: Well, the gifts that we have are not ours to decide, you know? So instead of denying any part of yourself, I encourage you to embrace it. And now, cause you might be getting it conflated and confused in your head, the way [00:41:00] psychics and stuff like that are done in media, you know, and on television and movies and stuff like that.Because other than that, there's no reason. For you to feel, and this could be a subconscious thing. There's no reason. Like if you know nothing about clairvoyance, why would you hate it? Or why would you want to push it off? You must have some sort of negative association to it somewhere, but, but you're not making those things happen.You're just becoming aware of what's about to happen before it happens. Now, then thing about clairvoyance and you do have that in you. I can see that clearly. The thing about it is God is in control of everything. So.when I meet somebody and they're claiming to be an impact or clairvoyant and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, first thing I want to know from them.Okay. Where are you drawing this power from? Are you getting it from the devil? Are you claiming your dead ancestors are telling you, are you claiming as God? Or who, who are you talking to? Where are you getting these messages from? That's what I want to know. So for me, [00:42:00] it's Jesus. It's God that'll do dead.People will come back and tell us shit. Hell yes. They just do, and so. God already knows as a city is the first and the last, the beginning of the ending. So we already knows what's going to happen. So I get that to, you know, down here in the south, they'll say, you know, you can talk somebody up, you know, if you start talking about that cousin, then hear the bitch come, you know, and stuff like that, you know, so that you make it happen.Or perhaps that you receive a message on the inside and you knew they were coming and it manifested as though you were speaking their voice. You see what I'm saying? So, or did you speak it, you know, in that, in that particular case, I believe that that is what happens, what you have experience I've had that happened to you know, in many different ways, but it could be that you're growing in your gift as you get older.Sometimes it happens like a gradual thing. Some people get hit with, you know, the bulk of their gift all at once. But some of us it's a more gradual thing. And I noticed that you said that once you laid the weed down, you started to [00:43:00] become more aware of this. Okay. Isn't that going to stop? So I would encourage you to just get educated about that, which you fear, because fear is never going to serve us and own that power bitch.If you have the fore knowledge of things before they come, you can help people more, you know, you can help people a lot more. And this is a part of who you are. We're still learning and evolving. This is appealing appearing to you. Don't run. Don't do like Joan in the Bible and run, you know, you know, turn around and embrace and start slow just, and be like, God, what is this?Help me to understand this better. And then see what he says, leave it alone. You know? I don't do drugs. I, and I don't allow myself medical weed or anything like that either. And a part of it is for the very reason that you just said, because of the way my gifts work with me, my clairvoyance and stuff like that.I dream a lot. Although I also have things that work with me during the day, [00:44:00] like what we're talking about right now, it's come to a point that the messages and the things like that, that I get can be so, so, so finite and so like sharp that I can't have anything in my system. That's throwing off my balance or my equilibrium at all.And so I don't, if there's anything wrong with drugs, I have a saying for me now I still have my wine. I don't get drunk anymore or anything like that. But wine has never affected me like that. You know, my pastor, the high prophetess, she was a gifted in all things in a highly clairvoyant woman and she didn't need no drugs or drink.She was like, And she would always say, I can't, I got you. I got a two too. Y'all had too many problems. So she would always be counseling and, you know, prophesizing and telling us what's going to happen next. And what, what, what herbs? We need to heal ourselves and stuff like That She was like, I don't know.I can't be drunk. Shit. She didn't cuss. At least not, not around me. I, he was like, I can't, you know, she had to keep a head [00:45:00] cleaner. So it could be that this whole desire to put the weed down came upon you because your gift is trying to come out. So.Amanda: That could be true. Cause I, you know, speaking of dreams dreams. So man, I, I literally, when I, especially when I put it down, like, My nightmares. I have nightmares. I don't have like these beautiful dreams. But like intense, like so vivid it's like, I can't handle it. Like I'll wake up sweating, crying, screaming, or like, I can't let it go.Like, I'll think about all day, like, what did that mean? What did that mean? Like, why did I dream that you know, about spiders and being chased and, you know, people trying to murder me and my family just crazy. And you know, when I researched all that, like I try to figure out what the symbols mean, but at the same time, I don't know.I think every, every symbol I've ever looked at means the same thing. So I'm like, I don't know if this is accurate. So but yeah, I mean, [00:46:00] I dream like crazy. Now if I smoke, I won't dream. It won't happen. So I think that to be true. But I also can't sleep if I'm having nightmares all night, all night long.So it's also a problem, but,De'Vannon: What is the recurring assemble? Amanda: I have two, so it's either spiders or I'm being chased. I have been being chased in my dream since I was a child. So it's just, those are the common two themes.De'Vannon: Okay. Okay. So when I was but I got done being homeless and being a drug dealer and being on and off the street and in and out of jail, what happened with my dreams during that whole time that I was between the time I got kicked out of the church to the time after I was out of jail for the last time, I didn't really dream at all.My dream stopped, which is now, [00:47:00] which is not a good position for me to be in since I'm a dreamer. And that's how God speaks to me. They started again after I got, you know, was starting to transition from the homelessness and the prison. I mean the jail stuff and stuff like that. They didn't necessarily returned to being prosthetic just that quickly though, I started having a bunch of dreams of being chased to for a really, really, really long time in my, my, my pastor was telling me that I was reliving everything that I hadn't gone.You see, when the trauma goes into us, it has to come back out. It has to be dealt with in some type of way. And so if you're still having chasing dreams after all this time, then the only reasonable thing that I could come up with is that it's still tied to some sort of issue that is yet unresolved. You see? And so, because, you know, you know, what are we running from? You know, what are we running from? And it was [00:48:00] just exhausting. Like you said, I would wake up perpendicular my bed sideways, you know, it was like going through it all all over again. It was just that real, the inspire leaders, you know, in the dream world usually have to do with enemies and entanglement and you know, and things like that.Unless we're talking about a beautifully done spider's web, then that has to do with hard work paying off. So then of course, we also have to pay attention to the mood of the dream. So I'm a big fan of hitting therapy. Cause I went to school for that. And then I got certified in that I'm still, I'm seeing him a therapist now to be sure that I don't go back to drugs because some associations get caught up in our subconscious and things like that.So she's, I'm usually hitting the therapy so that we can reframe and replace the positive associations I had with the criminal underworld. And that's not saying they were bad or wrong just saying that you used to be good and serve me and no longer serves me now. So what can we upgrade to? [00:49:00]Amanda: Yeah,De'Vannon: You know? And so I recommend at him, the therapy has been the most effective form of therapy in which I have tried.I've been in front of so many fucking therapists, Amanda: same.De'Vannon: for the last few years, hitting the therapy works the best for me, you know? So everybody's got to find what works for them, but it gets to the point, because so many times when we sit down in front of regular therapists, we're dealing on the conscious level because you, a therapist, a regular therapist can only help you with what you tell them in any of them will tell you that if you lie to them, then they're going to play off of those lies.You know? And they're going to tell you, you hurting yourself and the therapy, if you don't tell the truth, but when you sat down with the hypnotherapists, you can't lie. Like that sort of question is that they add, you know, that we ask, you know, and things like that are not typical. You know, if we really get to the why behind the why behind the why, because when you're put into hypnosis, we're going to tell you what you want us to tell your subconscious, we're going to access your subconscious [00:50:00] and tell it to you.And you're not going to want to tell yourself some bullshit. And then we can tell that we're being lied to. And so like, for instance, In my last hypnotherapy session, I was telling, tell them how about when I was a drug dealer. I love the power I had over people, and that was a high in and of itself. And, but I was telling her how we were doing the hypnotherapy, just for the drugs.I have a tendency to be very critical of myself and to have anxiety and to be very judgmental of myself. And I said, somehow, when we did a session about the drugs, I stopped being hard on myself. And then through the questioning, we were like, well, you know, your dad was abusive. The military was abusive.You didn't have control in those situations as a drug dealer, you had control, you know, and that makes you feel great. I had never tied those two together before and all the therapists that I sat in front of for the last 10 fucking years that never made the connection until I talked to a hypnotherapist, but we fixed [00:51:00] it without even trying to fix it.'cause we cause we got into the subconscious and started dealing with things and so much of our problems. So much of our problems, a lie in our subconscious and our subconscious of at least 80% of our brain. You know, the conscious is very little. So it isn't a throw that out there to you and to everybody who may have maybe wrestling with something and you've been wrestling with it a long time, consider hitting the therapy, consult your doctors and everything like that and do your own research.I went to the hypnosis motivation Institute. They're the first accredited hypnotherapy school in the country. And so that really, really means a lot. Think about it, pray about it and do what God tells you to do ultimately, but the shit has worked for me and bitch whom the son sets free is free. Indeed.And I'm feeling fabulous. Amanda: That's great. I've thought about the hypnotherapy. But it's also one of those things where it's like, Hmm, that, that also scares me. As you can tell, fear is something that has stopped me my whole [00:52:00] life. I think a lot of the things that happen to me over my life or based in fear, you know, that fear of abandonment, the fear of being by myself, like that fear kept me.You know, so now it's about embracing my fears and I've embraced a lot of my fears over the past three years and have done tremendous improvement in my life. And I was talking to someone earlier about getting a part in for my felony record. And that's also something I've toyed with, but fear keeps me stuck.Right. I guess I call what if they say no and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. But I just have to fucking do it, you know? And if I feel that hypnotherapy, if I'm curious about it, fucking knew it, like, what's it going to hurt, you know, to try so.De'Vannon: Right. Yeah.that fear, that fear will never do. That's why I left the anonymous movement because when anonymous movement, everybody, I mean like crystal meth, anonymous, narcotics anonymous, alcoholics anonymous. But once I realized that the anonymous program is [00:53:00] fear-based basically it is cause they go, Hey, you're going to do all your fucked up shit again and lose everything.If you get high that's fear, that's using fear as a motivator, but, but, but the Lord has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and a sound mind. So that is out of agreement with my spiritual beliefs. And so I don't fuck with the anonymous movement anymore. And what you can do though, like I, at the school I went to, like, you can just.Pay to take like a single course and get like online and just to get like a taste for it. I did the whole program for like $3,000, but that's not necessary. You can just take like a course or two and then you can get, and you can watch them hypnotize, hypnotize people. You can see how it medically, how was it done?Because then the therapist often work in tandem with psychotherapists. Amanda: Yeah.De'Vannon: So you can see the process. You can see how it goes. So when you have fear, the thing for you to do girl is to get knowledge, to overrule that fear. And that's how you can get the [00:54:00]victory. So you're afraid of it. Just learn about it.Cause knowledge, you know, knowledge will clear up the fear because fear is just a bunch of unknown. What if. Amanda: Yeah, exactly. Fears. A fear runs us of our lives. You know, what we deserve, you know, because I think, you know, from my experiences and having a felony record, like I was so afraid of people finding out, like I hit it, you know, I would have jobs like good jobs, but they didn't know. Right. Cause they never asked.So now I'm going to work every single day, going home. This will be the day they find out this'll be the day I'm going to get fired. I'm gonna lose everything. And that fear will eat you alive. You know, and I couldn't move forward with my life, no matter how good the fucking job was, I would sabotage it because of my fears.And once I released that fear of people finding out and just telling people, I have a good job, I get to work remotely. I, you know, I have a boss [00:55:00] who knows my story and still gave me a job, you know, because at the end of the day, we're all human and we all have a story, right. We all deserve to be heard.And I think a lot of times that fear keeps us from being heard and getting what we deserve.De'Vannon: What were some of the roadblocks you had to, that you came across as being formerly incarcerated? Cause you're saying you had fear about it. You were able to get work, but where you've labeled. Oh, what were some of the problems that you had trying to stabilize your life? Amanda: Yeah a lot. I convinced myself that I was a lowlife piece of shit with a felony record. So I lived my life accordingly. I, but then there was the fear of, okay, well, if I go to apply for this job and an ass, like, okay, so you're online and you're filling an application. It's like, have you ever been convicted?And it'll be a job. Like, I really want it. And would pay exceptionally well, but I would [00:56:00] just be like, oh, exit application. Like, I can't have it now. I'd keep telling myself I can't have it. I can't do this. I can't, you know I can't go back to school and get my bachelor's degree. I can't, you know, I mean, well, for fuck's sake, I still can't get carry a gun.So I can't protect my self. So if I can't protect myself, my life is meaningless. I why try, you know? And it kind of like solidified in my head that I was less than human and I'm not really free. Everyone else is free, but I'm not. And it could make me cry right now because it's still upsets me because it's still true.You know? I don't feel like I'm a free human. Like if I, if someone walks in right now and has a gun to my head, I can't legally do I can't touch a gun. I can't, I can't affect. It's like, my life is worth less than that person that just busted into my house to ride. So there are a lot of barriers. Like I can't volunteer at my [00:57:00] kids' school because I have a felony.I can't no matter, even though it's been 13 years since it happened, like it's still holds me back. So more recently I have worked through a lot of those fears and have still gone after things to spite it, but I still tend to box myself in sometimes.De'Vannon: Well, you're damn sure on the right path, you know, you're doing what you can and, you know, we all heal in different times. So as long as you don't quit it, you're going to be all right. But that's why you're still having the dreams that you have, like from hearing the things that you just said, you know, that's why you're still being, chasing your dreams when you sleep every night, but it's not gonna last forever.I don't care. How long has it been there? Everything is subject to change. And so, but I heard you use the word, the humanized, or you, you referred to being feeling like you're less than a human. Yeah.It's a [00:58:00] bitch. When you have felonies. I couldn't volunteer at the museum and shit like that because I had felonies.I'm like, what in the fuck? Or like say you and I going to do to go, you know, we're trying to work for free, you know? And you know, you don't want us to come work for free. Cause some shit we did 5, 10, 15 years ago. Okay. That's just like, mean at its core, you know, you know, it, it pisses you off and it makes you not want to do shit.You know, w when, when that happens that way, but we can't do that. We gotta get strong. We gotta, you know, keep trying, but it was very de-motivating. I ended up starting out as a janitor after I got done being in jail, because that's pretty much all I could find. And then that was at the veterans affairs hospital through a special program for people with mental health issues.Not like I applied, it's not like I was hired regularly. And then from there I started delivering food and I made my way into the service industry. And then I had to go to school. Then I went back to school. I chose to go back to [00:59:00] school to be a massage therapist. And I was winning the business for myself because I got tired of pleading with people to please give me a chance because of some shit I did ages ago.And I'm all like, You know, so I encourage entrepreneurship, you know, a lot of most people fuck trying to prove yourself to the man, fuck him. Amanda: no.De'Vannon: While he's probably done worse shit than you have that didn't get caught for it. Amanda: Yeah. Yeah. Very true. Yeah. And like, it, it is de-motivating like, you know, when you think about it, you see like, for me, at least like, you know, you see people making all kinds of money and, you know, drive a nice cars. And like, my brain just automatically goes, I'll never have that because I made a mistake when I was in my early twenties.So I just, I guess I'm not deserving. And those are the narratives that I would continuously tell myself until more recently. You know, now I, yeah, I have those thoughts. I mean, I'm probably always will, but it's knowing [01:00:00] how to, so wait, stop. That's not true. You know, where, where are the facts? You know, and ever since I started doing my podcast and meeting other formerly incarcerated people and seeing what's possible.Holy shit. Like, what was I doing for that whole, like 12 years of my life? Like, where was I? Like under a rock thinking? I was the only person in the world who has a felony conviction. Like I literally thought that, you know, like I knew, obviously there's other felons, but like in my world, you know, like that, I'm the only one, like, I'm a piece of shit.Like I just gotta do these drugs and like basically kill myself because I'm not worthy of anything because I went to jail. Like that's bullshit. And it's just not true because we can do great things. Look, you're doing amazing things. You know, a bunch of people I've interviewed are doing amazing things and we've all spent time locked up all of us.And it's a shitty thing to go through. I don't wish that on anybody to have to [01:01:00] experience losing your freedom in that way, but I'm grateful. I had that experience in a way because it made me appreciate what I have now. Even more like it could always be worse. I could still be in jail. I could have went back.You know, that didn't happen though, is that wasn't my path. And I do believe that my higher power, God may me go through these experiences to be who I am now to be able to shine light on to other people who are feeling what I was feeling for all those years life I had to experience that I had to get knocked on my ass repeatedly to be able to help other people see that there's a better way to live life.De'Vannon: And you'll see that as you continue to do your podcast, you know, it's healing, it's something, it's something that's very singularly thinking about, just focusing on a problem that helps you to come up with solutions. And so the more you tell your story and I experienced, [01:02:00] this was a surprise of my podcast.I did not expect it to be a healing thing, but it has been, the writing is as well. We were talking about you possibly writing your own book before we got on the call today, I encourage you to really, really pray about that. An an a memoir is nothing more than a really bad-ass journal entry, Amanda: Yeah,De'Vannon: you know, and it'll take you a long time to write a memoir or the lengthy process to write since you're doing actual facts and it has to balance out as opposed to making shit up as you go along, nothing wrong with making shit up as you go along.I love me fiction read too. But the memoirs are different. If you ever want to go down that route, let me know. I know how to tell you to get started. Amanda: no, thanks.De'Vannon: Now the thoughts that you have, I heard you say that you'll probably always have them. No, you won't you'll know you don't, you do not have to always have them. You just keep going. You know, but perspective is everything, you know, you perceive that you were alone, even though you weren't alone. When I [01:03:00] got HIV, I perceived I was alone and I was the only one with it. And I was just going to die of aids and eight months, that that was the truth that I choose.That was a lie that I chose to accept as true. It wasn't, I needed more information. It's perspective is everything. People have killed themselves because of having a perspective that made them feel isolated, even though they weren't. And so that's why I love doing shows like this so that we can be super transparent so that someone can hear it and not kill themselves today. Amanda: Yeah, because it's, it's, it's life is worth it. I know that shit sucks. And you're going to go through shit, but you, I believe wholeheartedly and that we are never given more than we can handle. So if you're given something that feels heavy and you feel like, fuck, like I can't handle this, you can, or else it wouldn't be happening.And that's my experience with throughout life, because I look back at all the shit I've been through and like how was off. Did I not [01:04:00] die, but there's a reason.De'Vannon: God, wasn't ready for you to die. I mean, it's as simple as that, and you're not going to be part of this plane of existence and he's ready for you to, and you can close the book on that one. Cause that's just the way that goes. And so, but if, but if someone doesn't believe that, then you can see it right here.She's telling her story. Now she could have gotten delivered from all that she has been delivered from and led a quiet, successful life. Making a choice to do a podcast is not a decision that's made lightly. Some people get into this. Actually many

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Vivica is a functional nutritionist with a holistic approach to healing, helping restore health & vitality through food, lifestyle and detoxification. Originally from Italy, the love and reverence of food runs deep growing up in a family of restaurateurs that led to an early career as a food photographer. Through her own healing journey to overcome pre-diabetes and an autoimmune thyroid disorder, Vivica came upon her true vocation – helping others heal through food and the innate wisdom of the body In her web-based practice, Vivica specializes in endocrine rebalance and hormone-related issues, guiding women through a specialized healing journey using therapeutic diet, empowering lifestyle and detox/supplementation. In The Healing Foods Method, her highly individualized signature course, Vivica works one-on-one with people to help discover and eliminate the root cause of dis-ease. Vivica is also a well-known voice in the holistic nutrition community as a passionate advocate of therapeutic ketogenic and paleo diets through her blog and social channels. Reconnecting with her roots, she found her way back to the kitchen to author three published cookbooks on healing foods with another due this fall. Website: www.thenourishedcaveman.com Instagram: @thenourishedcaveman Facebook: @thenourishedcaveman This episode is hosted by Dr. Shawn Baker MD. Find him at https://shawn-baker.com Donate to the Carnivore Diet Clinical Trial: https://gofundme.com/f/carnivore-research "