Podcasts about Spanish Fork

Why does an emotionally shut down man struggle to change—even when he genuinely wants to?In this follow-up episode, Luke and Alana respond to listener questions about emotional shutdown, nervous system healing, and what recovery actually looks like for men who have spent years disconnecting from their emotions.***Listen to Part 1 HERE.***Together they explore:Why insight alone doesn't create changeWhat emotional shutdown is really protectingHow attachment wounds shape adult relationshipsWhy some men become more emotional after starting recoveryWhat somatic work actually isHow nervous system healing creates lasting transformationWhat emotional reconnection looks like in real lifeChapters01:23 Why Insight Isn't Enough07:40 What Shutdown Protects11:50 Control and Safety16:20 Predictability Over Vulnerability20:10 Reconnecting Emotionally28:53 Somatic Work Explained30:14 Healing Takes TimeRegister Now!***Use code PODCAST150 to get $150 off any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***Courage to Thrive - Join us for this healing retreat for women who have experienced betrayal trauma. It offers a safe, supportive space to process pain, reconnect with yourself, and begin moving forward with strength and hope. Through guided workshops, therapeutic support, and restorative experiences, women leave feeling seen, empowered, and less alone. August 25-28, 2026 in Spanish Fork, Utah. Reclaimed: A Men's Parts-Work Intensive - A transformative 4-day intensive for men in recovery from problematic sexual behaviors, using the Internal Family Systems model to help participants deepen emotional healing, reduce shame, understand their inner world, and live with greater authenticity and wholeness. August 18-21 in Spanish Fork, UT.

When a marriage is in crisis, the conversation almost always centers on the couple. But what about the children sitting in the middle of it?In this episode, certified family law specialist and founder of Bloom Family Law, Katie Padilla, joins us for an honest conversation about what kids actually experience when families fracture — and what parents can do to minimize the damage, whether they choose to stay or leave.If you are a parent in the middle of a family crisis, this episode is for you.About Katie Padiilla: Katie Padilla is a Certified Family Law Specialist, founder of Bloom Family Law. She is a collaboratively trained attorney, a certified coach, and a meditation teacher who approaches every client as a whole person navigating one of the most profound transitions of their life. At Bloom Family Law, Katie has built a practice that blends rigorous legal expertise with trauma-informed coaching, emotional intelligence, and a deep commitment to keeping families out of unnecessary conflict. Her work extends to foster youth and parents, and her clients consistently describe leaving her not just with resolved cases, but with a renewed sense of who they are and what they are capable of.Connect with Katie Padilla: bloomlegalcoach.comhello@bloomlegalcoach.comIG: BloomfamilylawEnjoyed This Episode?Here are three ways you can support the show:⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Leave a Review

What does an emotionally shut down man actually look like?Spoiler:Usually not what people think.In this powerful conversation, Luke and Alana explore the hidden reality of emotional shutdown in men—especially the high-performing, successful men who appear “fine” on the outside but are deeply disconnected on the inside.From avoidant attachment to compulsive behavior, emotional numbness, and relational loneliness, this episode helps both men and betrayed partners understand what's really happening beneath the surface.Healing is possible. Deeper connection is possible.But first—you have to feel.Chapters01:48 What Being Emotionally Shut Down Looks Like04:01 High Performing Shut down09:13 Inside the Shutdown12:39 Signs and Logic16:54 Learning Emotional Safety19:35 Tears and the Body22:27 Busy vs Stillness24:14 Chasing Intensity30:00 Numbness and Dissociation38:35 Individuation and ReconnectionRegister Now!***Use code PODCAST150 to get $150 off any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***Courage to Thrive - Join us for this healing retreat for women who have experienced betrayal trauma. It offers a safe, supportive space to process pain, reconnect with yourself, and begin moving forward with strength and hope. Through guided workshops, therapeutic support, and restorative experiences, women leave feeling seen, empowered, and less alone. August 25-28, 2026 in Spanish Fork, Utah. Reclaimed: A Men's Parts-Work Intensive - A transformative 4-day intensive for men in recovery from problematic sexual behaviors, using the Internal Family Systems model to help participants deepen emotional healing, reduce shame, understand their inner world, and live with greater authenticity and wholeness. August 18-21 in Spanish Fork, UT.

If you've been checking your partner's location for the fifth time in an hour - or waiting for your spouse to hand you a roadmap to your own recovery - this episode is for you.The parent-child dynamic is one of the most common and least talked about patterns that forms after betrayal. It makes complete sense that it develops. And staying in it will cost you both.Enjoyed This Episode?If this conversation resonated with you, here are three ways you can support the show:⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Leave a Review — Reviews help other people in the betrayal trauma community find this podcast when they need it most. It only takes a minute and means the world.

What if you're not healing wrong?After betrayal, many people compare their recovery journey to others and wonder if they're making the right decisions. Whether it's disclosure, separation, therapy, support groups, or boundaries, it's easy to get caught in "should" thinking.In this episode, Alana discusses why healing isn't one-size-fits-all and how learning to trust your own intuition can become one of the most important parts of recovery.You'll learn:Why "should" often signals shameHow comparison sabotages healingThe difference between guidance and personal truthWhy you don't need permission to trust yourselfHow to strengthen self-trust after betrayal traumaChapters01:10 The Shame Behind Should04:53 You're the Expert on You10:48 Choosing Your Own Path13:38 Building Self-Trust18:57 Takeaways on ShouldsRegister Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***

Recovering from the events at Spanish Fork (depicted in the short story Route 666) Jazzbeaux sets off to take revenge against Elder Seth

What happens when ADHD and betrayal trauma collide in the same family? This episode is one of the most important conversations we've had on the podcast — and it's one that doesn't get talked about enough in the recovery space.Hali Roderick, CPC, ACC, sits down with two incredible therapists to unpack how ADHD shows up across every part of the betrayal trauma family system — from the person with problematic sexual behaviors, to the betrayed partner, to the children caught in the middle.Monifa Ellis-Addie, LMFT, CSAT, CCSP Monifa is a licensed marriage and family therapist specializing in anxiety and intimacy issues that spawn from incongruences in sexuality. Her work supports individuals navigating the complex process of healing after sexual betrayal. Website: Banyon Therapy Group Instagram:  @intimateanswers Podcast: Hope & Healing ChatsMorgan Ellsworth, LAMFT, CCSP Morgan is a therapist who specializes in supporting individuals navigating the impact of betrayal trauma within family systems. She is especially passionate about helping teen and adult children process the complexities of betrayal in the family system, while also supporting parents as they learn how to best care for and support their children through the healing process.  Website:  Ellsworth Family Therapy  Instagram: @healing.betrayed.families Podcast: Healing Betrayed FamiliesEnjoyed This Episode?If this conversation resonated with you, here are three ways you can support the show:⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Leave a Review

Notas sobre el programa:Este texto breve en espanol presentamos una exploración sobre el coyote de Baja California, describiéndolo como uno de los sobrevivientes más inteligentes y malentendidos del ecosistema desértico. El autor destaca la asombrosa capacidad de adaptación de esta especie, la cual puede cazar en el desierto o buscar alimento en las costas del Mar de Cortés con la misma eficacia. A diferencia de las percepciones negativas comunes, se revela que estos caninos poseen una estructura familiar monógama y vínculos emocionales sorprendentemente fuertes entre las parejas. La narrativa también explica cómo los intentos humanos por erradicarlos han fracasado, provocando en cambio una respuesta reproductiva compensatoria que ha expandido su presencia por todo el continente. En última instancia, se invita al lector a ver al coyote no como una amenaza, sino como un vecino resiliente que ha habitado la península desde mucho antes del desarrollo humano.

You've done therapy. Communication is improving. The triggers aren't as constant anymore. So why does emotional connection still feel difficult?This week, Alana explores the hidden layers of betrayal trauma that continue impacting intimacy long after recovery begins. From nervous system hypervigilance to protector parts, grief, shame, and emotional exhaustion, this conversation explains why closeness can still feel unsafe — even when both partners are trying.This episode offers compassionate insight for betrayed partners and couples working toward deeper relational healing after betrayal.Chapters01:53 Betrayal and the Nervous System06:32 Functional vs Emotional Intimacy12:14 Protector Parts18:38 Shared Grief21:41 Common Blocks To Going Deep28:30 Tools That Build Connection34:39 Slow Steps Toward SafetyIf you want to connect deeper with your partner, consider joining us for our Rise and Renew couples retreat in Costa Rica this summer. If you are in a stable place in your relationship and want to reconnect, regulate, and rediscover each other, we invite you to our couples breathwork retreat. Register Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***

One of the most confusing parts of healing after betrayal is that couples can do “all the right things” and still feel emotionally disconnected.In this episode of Choosing to Stay After Infidelity and Betrayal, we explore why emotional connection after betrayal trauma can feel so complicated—even when healing is happening.We also share about our upcoming Rise & Renew Couples Retreat in Costa Rica - a healing and connection-focused experience designed for couples who want to step away from the stress, noise, and survival mode of everyday life to intentionally reconnect emotionally, relationally, and spiritually.This conversation offers compassionate insight for couples navigating betrayal recovery, emotional disconnection, trust rebuilding, intimacy struggles, and relationship healing after infidelity.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingHere are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join the Help Her Heal weekly support group for men working to rebuild trust and create safety.Sign up for my Rooted and Rising Healing mailing list to stay informed of all upcoming resources and events where we can connect. Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners.The Rise and Renew Couples Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 30 - August 3, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. If you're ready for a deeper connection with your daughter(s), ⁠complete this interest list⁠ for more information about my upcoming retreat - Becoming Together: A Mother Daughter Retreat - hosted by myself and my two daughters in Sedona, Arizona on September 8 - 12th.The⁠ ⁠⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠⁠⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust.Email Hali⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Even after trust is rebuilt, many couples still struggle to feel deeply connected.In this episode, Alana and Hali, Choose Recovery Services coach, explore the hidden barriers to intimacy after betrayal trauma — including nervous system dysregulation, vulnerability fears, protector parts, and power dynamics in recovery.You'll learn:What true emotional safety looks likeWhy conflict isn't always the problemHow co-regulation strengthens intimacyThe next stage of healing after stabilizationIf you want to connect deeper with your partner, consider joining us for our Rise and Renew couples retreat in Costa Rica this summer. If you are in a stable place in your relationship and want to reconnect, regulate, and rediscover each other, we invite you to our couples breathwork retreat. Register by May 31st to get our early-bird pricing - $600 OFF!Register Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***

What does it look like when a mother and daughter do the healing work together? In this special episode, I'm joined by my daughters to pull back the curtain on the Becoming Together Mother-Daughter Retreat, an intimate gathering just outside Sedona, Arizona, designed for moms and daughters who are both actively doing their personal growth work and ready to bring it into their relationship.We talk about the heart behind this retreat, who it's truly for (and who it isn't), what makes it different from a conference or a girls' trip, and why the stunning off-the-grid location near Sedona, AZ is part of the healing itself. Plus, my girls weigh in on all of it. If you're a mother or daughter who feels the pull to go deeper in your relationship while honoring your own becoming — this episode is for you.If you're ready for a deeper connection with your daughter(s),⁠ ⁠complete this interest list⁠⁠ for more information about my upcoming retreat - Becoming Together: A Mother Daughter Retreat - hosted by myself and my two daughters near Sedona, Arizona on September 8 - 12th.Check out Mataia's Podcast: Good Day with TayCheck out Morgan's Podcast: Healing Betrayed FamiliesConnect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join the Help Her Heal weekly support group for men working to rebuild trust and create safety.Sign up for my Rooted and Rising Healing mailing list to stay informed of all upcoming resources and events where we can connect. Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveThe Rise and Renew Couples Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 30 - August 3, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your spouse, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. The Reclaimed Intensive for Men is a transformative 4-day men's intensive designed for those healing from problematic sexual behaviors who are ready to go beyond sobriety and into deeper emotional healing. Through Internal Family Systems (IFS), somatic work, experiential exercises, and authentic group connection, participants gain tools to better understand their inner world, release shame, strengthen emotional regulation, and reconnect with their most authentic self.The Revive and Thrive Somatic Intensive for women takes place October 6-9 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust.Awakening the Man Within Somatic Healing Intensive for men is a powerful, immersive experience designed for men who have already begun their recovery and self-awareness journey and are ready to go deeper. This intensive is for men who no longer want to simply talk the talk of recovery, but are ready to embody it — men who are willing to step into the somatic and energetic work that creates real, lasting change.Listen to My Other PodcastIf you are a betrayed partner, I also host a second podcast called Rooted & Rising Healing After Betrayal, created specifically for women healing from betrayal trauma.Join My NewsletterStay connected through my newsletter, where I share reflections, trauma-informed insights, and updates on upcoming courses, workshops, retreats, and live experiences.

After infidelity or betrayal, even simple conversations can feel loaded, tense, or unsafe.You may feel like:You're trying to connect… but it keeps going wrongYour partner misunderstands youEvery conversation turns into conflictIn this episode, we explore the concept of mistranslation after betrayal—how both partners can be reaching for connection but experiencing each other as a threat due to nervous system activation.This episode takes a trauma-informed approach, emphasizing that emotional safety and recovery must come first before relational repair can begin.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join the Help Her Heal weekly support group for men working to rebuild trust and create safety.Sign up for my Rooted and Rising Healing mailing list to stay informed of all upcoming resources and events where we can connect. Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners.If you're ready for a deeper connection with your daughter(s), ⁠complete this interest list⁠ for more information about my upcoming retreat - Becoming Together: A Mother Daughter Retreat - hosted by myself and my two daughters in Sedona, Arizona on September 8 - 12th.Email Hali⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. The Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 30 - August 3, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. The⁠ ⁠⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠⁠⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust.Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Current UGA Senior Player of the Year Darrin Overson wins the Senior Stroke Play Championship at The Oaks at Spanish Fork with a playoff victory over Utah Tech Head Coach Brad Sutterfield. Randy Hicken wins the Super Senior divisions after a couple recent close calls. Overson and Hicken joins the pod. Sponsored by Goldenwest Credit Union. 

After betrayal, boundaries become one of the most talked about — and most misunderstood — parts of healing. Many couples find themselves stuck in painful cycles where boundaries meant to create safety instead lead to more conflict, defensiveness, and distance.In this episode, we explore the difference between boundaries that heal and boundaries that punish, and why that distinction matters for couples trying to rebuild trust after betrayal.When boundaries become punitive, relationships often shift into an unhealthy parent/child dynamic — where one partner becomes the enforcer and the other becomes the one trying not to get in trouble. This dynamic can increase resentment, defensiveness, and emotional distance, making healing more difficult.Instead, we'll talk about how healthy boundaries create safety, predictability, and nervous system regulation, helping couples move from power struggles into partnership.This episode is designed for both partners — whether you were betrayed or you're working to rebuild trust — and offers a compassionate, trauma-informed approach to boundaries that support real healing.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. ⁠Register for my 90-minute Zoom workshop⁠ called Boundaries That Build Safety: Reclaiming Your Power After Betrayal. Happening Thursday, April 30th at 6 PM Pacific Time.⁠Email Hali⁠⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. The ⁠⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Why does joy feel dangerous after betrayal?If you find yourself bracing for something bad—even in your happiest moments—this episode will help you understand why.We're diving into:Hypervigilance and trauma survival patternsThe fear of being blindsided againWhy your brain clings to predictabilityThe hidden cost of “waiting for the shoe to drop”How to slowly rebuild safety and emotional freedomChapters00:37 Hypervigilance After Betrayal03:20 Survival Mode Explained06:41 Choosing Joy Again11:45 Wiggle Out Slowly17:07 Brain Versus Soul18:52 The Cost of VigilanceRegister Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***

Anger is one of the most misunderstood emotions in betrayal trauma — but still shapes every interaction, every conversation, and every attempt at repair.In this powerful conversation, I'm joined by Matt Wenger, LPC, CSAT, CCSP to unpack what anger actually is, what it's protecting, and why nervous system regulation is the key to responding rather than reacting.Because anger isn't the problem. It's the nervous system underneath it that determines what happens next.Matt is the Executive Clinical Director of Begin Again Institute, a treatment center that offers Trauma Based Intensives for Men seeking recovery from porn and sex addiction. He has served more than 1,500 families since 2019. Matt's expertise is in men's addiction, betrayal trauma, childhood trauma, couple's recovery and the spiritual aspects of recovery. Matt holds a Master's degree in Couples and Family Counseling and is credentialed as Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC), Certified Sex Addiction Therapist (CSAT), and Certified Clinical Partner Specialist (CCPS). If you would like to connect with Matt: beginagaininstitute.com matt.wenger@bai.care https://www.linkedin.com/in/matthew-wenger-19b883294/Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners.⁠⁠⁠Register for my 90-minute Zoom workshop⁠⁠⁠ called Boundaries That Build Safety: Reclaiming Your Power After Betrayal. Happening Thursday, April 30th at 6 PM Pacific Time.⁠Email Hali⁠⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. The⁠ ⁠⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠⁠⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust.Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

4/21/26 - For the ParentWhen betrayal enters a family, children often carry invisible pain. This week Luke Gordon joins Amie and Alana to talk about his personal experience with how to repair after betrayal.Listen in as he shares what his experience was like trying to reconnect with his children and rebuild trust.In this episode, we break down:Why kids react strongly (and sometimes unexpectedly)How betrayal trauma affects attachment and trustWhat parents can do to rebuild safety and connectionThe difference between supporting vs. overwhelming your childIf you want to learn more about helping children and teens heal after betrayal, listen to Part 1,  Part 2, and Part 3. Tune in to Morgan Ellsworth's podcast: Healing Betrayed FamiliesChapters01:28 Hannah's Anger and Boundaries05:10 Teens and Ongoing Impact08:25 Attunement and Vulnerability17:44 Make It About the Kids23:18 Radical Transparency30:02 Validate Their Reality39:19 Grace for ParentsRegister Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***

In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Nima Rahmany to unpack the push-pull dynamic that so many couples experience after betrayal or relational trauma.He explains how our nervous system shifts between states like fight-or-flight, shutdown, and connection—and how real healing requires learning to regulate those states rather than just understanding the dynamics intellectually.Dr. Nima Rahmany is a nervous system and trauma specialist helping individuals heal attachment wounds and become trigger-proof in love and leadership. Formerly a chiropractor, he now guides clients through somatic and shadow integration to break free from toxic patterns and self-abandonment. Dr. Nima offers several programs designed to support this process, including his ⁠Attachment Style Quiz and the Trigger Proof Experience, a monthly program focused on emotional regulation and relationship transformation.If this episode resonated with you, please consider subscribing, leaving a review, or sharing it with someone who might need this conversation.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. ⁠Register for my 90-minute Zoom workshop⁠ called Boundaries That Build Safety: Reclaiming Your Power After Betrayal. Happening Thursday, April 30th at 6 PM Pacific Time.Email Hali⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. Later this year, the Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place August 25 - 28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Betrayal trauma doesn't just affect couples—it impacts children in ways many families don't fully understand. This week we welcome Morgan Ellsworth, a fellow Choose Recovery Services coach and expert in helping children, teens, and families find clarity and hope after betrayal.In Part 3 of this series, we explore:The emotional world of teens navigating betrayalWhy kids create their own narratives (and often blame themselves)How to give your children clarity without overwhelming themWhat healthy emotional support actually looks likeIf you're a parent trying to protect your kids while healing yourself, this episode offers clarity, compassion, and practical tools.Listen to Part 1 and Part 2.Connect with Morgan Ellsworth: Healing Betrayed Families podcastChapters1:12 Meet Morgan Ellsworth10:12 Kids Mirror Trauma Responses12:31 Giving Teens Language16:05 Communication26:19 Validating Kids' Emotions31:35 Kids Process Reality DifferentlyRegister Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***

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There is a tulip festival in Spanish Fork where you can wander through rainbow rows of tulips and pick your own to take home! The Utah tulip festival just kicked off this week in Spanish Fork. Kara Lewis, the owner of the Utah Tulip Festival, joins the show to explain what to expect at the Festival.

After betrayal, many couples expect the hardest part to be the initial crisis. But what often comes next is something quieter—and just as real: healing fatigue.In this episode, we talk about what happens when the adrenaline wears off, the urgency fades, and both partners begin to feel emotionally and relationally exhausted. This episode offers validation, relational clarity, and practical ways for couples to stay engaged in healing without burning out or quietly disconnecting.You don't heal betrayal trauma by trying harder—you heal it by creating enough safety to rest.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. Email Hali⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. Help Her Heal Intensive — a powerful 4-day men's intensive — is designed for men who are ready to move beyond surface apologies and truly learn how to support their partner's healing after betrayal. Held in a safe, confidential environment in Spanish Fork, Utah, this experiential program blends trauma-informed workshops, real-life practice, and expert coaching to help participants cultivate empathy, emotional capacity, and integrity in their relationships. This intensive offers experiential learning, feedback, and concrete strategies to grow personally and relationally. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. The ⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

“I thought it was my fault.”In this powerful episode, Hannah Gordon, Alana's daughter, shares what it's like to grow up in a home impacted by betrayal trauma—and how that experience shaped her identity, relationships, and healing journey.From silent shame to emotional clarity, this conversation highlights:The reality of how kids internalize family painThe importance of giving children space to feelWhy healing doesn't mean “feeling better” right away—but feeling lighterThis is a must-listen for parents, partners, and anyone navigating the long-term impact of relational trauma.Chapters04:22 Hannah Finding Her Voice06:25 Kids Internalize the Pain13:39 Necessary Hard and Growth19:33 Healing Was Not Linear22:32 Building Self Trust23:40 Therapy and Self Awareness28:44 Advice for Betrayed Partners32:07 Message to Hurting DadsRegister Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***NEW Help Her Heal Support Group for Men starting in April! - Register now to experience the deep healing that can come from learning about empathy, communication, and relational repair.

After betrayal, one of the most painful questions couples face is: Do we stay… or do we leave?In this episode, we explore why that question feels so urgent after betrayal—and why clarity rarely comes through forcing a decision. This episode is for couples navigating the messy middle—where nothing is fully resolved yet, but healing is still possible.Staying is not a lifetime contract. Leaving is not always immediate clarity. Discernment is a process, not a deadline.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. Email Hali⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. Help Her Heal Intensive — a powerful, immersive 4-day men's intensive — is designed for men who are ready to move beyond and truly learn how to support their partner's healing after betrayal. Held in a confidential environment in Spanish Fork, Utah, this experiential program blends trauma-informed workshops, real-life practice, and expert coaching to help participants cultivate empathy, emotional capacity, and integrity in their relationships. This intensive offers experiential learning, feedback, and concrete strategies to grow personally and relationally. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. The ⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

When betrayal hits a relationship, children often feel the ripple effects—sometimes in ways parents don't immediately recognize. This week we welcome Ellia Marcum (CPC, BSP, CYPFC, CMHC) to help us understand the impact betrayal can have on the whole family system.In this episode, we talk about:The hidden impact of betrayal trauma on kidsWarning signs your teen may need extra supportWhy teens often hide their painHow community and mentorship help children healBuilding emotional safety and resilience in teensConnect with Ellia: Mood Well Coaching Turning to Peace magazine - Use the discount code HEALING10 to get 10% offFree resource: How to Talk to Your Children About Family InfidelityChapters03:48 Teens and Mental Health Shift05:16 Hidden Hurt and Stress Signs09:16 Real Family Examples12:47 What to Watch For16:51 Sibling and Peer Support25:25 Mentors and Asking for Help31:06 Safety in the Body35:58 Boundaries and What's MineRegister Now!***Use promo code PODCAST150 to get $150 off when you register for any Choose intensive or retreat in 2026!***NEW Help Her Heal Support Group for Men starting in April! - Register now to experience the deep healing that can come from learning about empathy, communication, and relational repair.

Tucker Boyle has spent over 25 years teaching Seminary and Institute for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, where he has worked closely with youth and young adults to help them deepen their relationship with Jesus Christ and navigate real-life challenges with faith and awareness. He has served as a Young Single Adult bishop and in other leadership callings, giving him a front-line perspective on the complexities individuals face in their spiritual journeys. Tucker is the founder of Harmony Road Retreats, a nonprofit organization that creates compassionate, supportive spaces for individuals wanting to find inner harmony while experiencing shifts in their faith. Through retreats, teaching, and his podcast Call to Harmony, he helps people develop practical tools for navigating spiritual dissonance, regulating the nervous system, and cultivating a more grounded, personal connection with God. He lives in Spanish Fork, Utah, with his wife Katie and their five children. Links https://www.harmonyroadretreats.com/ What I Learned About Leadership When My 2nd Counselor Left the Church ChurchofJesusChrist.org Topics and Questions Watch the video and share your thoughts in the Zion Lab community Transcript available with the video in the Zion Lab community Highlights Tucker talks about navigating faith crises and transitions. The discussion explores the intellectual and physiological aspects of questioning faith, moving beyond “black and white” thinking to find spiritual peace through connection and the heart. 00:02:21 – Tucker’s Faith Crisis Journey 00:03:24 – Understanding Faith Crisis Beyond Doubt 00:04:05 – Importance of Community in Faith Transitions 00:04:32 – Tucker’s Experience in Teaching 00:05:43 – Observations on Youth and Young Adults 00:06:31 – Trusting the Goodness of the Younger Generation 00:07:11 – Defining Faith Crisis and Faith Journey 00:08:28 – Tucker’s Personal Faith Crisis Experience 00:09:01 – The Impact of Seeking Other Perspectives 00:10:37 – The Challenge of Balancing Beliefs 00:11:54 – The Role of the Dissertation Chair 00:12:38 – Navigating Fear and Doubt in Research 00:14:03 – The Dissolution of Testimony Pillars 00:15:17 – The Moment of Psychological Free Fall 00:16:21 – The Question of Wasting Time in Faith 00:17:03 – The Complexity of Belief and Doubt 00:18:03 – The Nature of Testimony Pillars 00:19:21 – The Challenge of Seeing Humanity in Divinity 00:20:58 – The Shift from Certainty to Complexity 00:22:46 – The Experience of Testimony in Church 00:23:40 – The Impact of Testimony on Personal Faith 00:24:53 – The Role of Nervous System in Faith Experiences 00:26:54 – The Importance of Self-Regulation 00:28:24 – The Journey of Healing and Understanding 00:30:31 – The Non-Linear Nature of Faith Journeys 00:31:13 – The Moment of Clarity and Love 00:33:08 – The Temporary Nature of Spiritual Experiences 00:34:24 – The Shift Back to Struggle 00:36:08 – Understanding the Faith Crisis Experience 00:37:41 – The Journey Towards Harmony 00:39:44 – The Role of Heart vs. Mind in Faith 00:41:06 – The Transformation Through Faith Crisis 00:43:22 – Embracing Complexity in Belief 00:45:01 – Gratitude for the Faith Crisis Experience 00:45:34 – Moving Forward with New Perspectives Key Insights The Nature of Faith Crisis: A faith crisis is often experienced as a physical response in the nervous system, where the world feels like it is falling apart, rather than just an intellectual disagreement. The Trap of Certainty: Boyle describes his own journey from a “black and white” mindset of having every answer to encountering complexity that dissolved his traditional “pillars” of testimony. Leading with the Heart: While the mind seeks to label, divide, and categorize, the heart can hold nuance, questions, and imperfections in church history or leadership that the analytical mind cannot. Spiritual Regulation: Finding peace often requires “stepping back” from a stressed mind through practices like meditation, allowing for an openness to God even when specific questions remain unanswered. Trusting in God's Reach: A central theme is the belief that individuals cannot “get out of God’s reach,” and that His love is not dependent on common organizational membership. Leadership Applications Creating Safe Spaces: Leaders can support those in transition by listening without an agenda to “fix” or judge them, ensuring the individual feels safe and “not othered” within the community. Managing Parental and Leader Panic: Tucker advises leaders to trust in the “deep goodness” of the youth and recognize that God’s plan is large enough to encompass their questions and journeys. Focusing on Connection Over Advice: Instead of providing a “five-point plan” or intellectual rebuttals, leaders should focus on maintaining a loving relationship, mirroring the “eternal bond” offered by God and Christ. The award-winning Leading Saints Podcast is one of the top independent Latter-day Saints podcasts as part of nonprofit Leading Saints’ mission to help Latter-day Saints be better prepared to lead. Find Leadership Tools, Courses, and Community for Latter-day Saint leaders in the Zion Lab community. Learn more and listen to any of the past episodes for free at LeadingSaints.org. Past guests include Emily Belle Freeman, David Butler, Hank Smith, John Bytheway, Reyna and Elena Aburto, Liz Wiseman, Stephen M. R. Covey, Benjamin Hardy, Elder Alvin F. 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Today we're talking about something that can feel counterintuitive when a relationship is in crisis: slowing down and focusing on individual healing first. So many couples rush to fix the relationship, but sometimes the path forward starts with healing me before healing us.I'm honored to be joined by Chance and Crystal, a couple who share their honest and powerful journey of how individual healing became the foundation for rebuilding trust, connection, and safety in their marriage. Together, we explore why couples work too early didn't help, what each partner had to face on their own, how trauma responses shaped their relationship, and how nervous system regulation transformed the way they communicate.Whether you're a betrayed partner, a betraying partner, or a clinician supporting couples, this episode offers hope, wisdom, and a roadmap for what healing can look like when each person does their own work first.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. Email Hali⁠ to join the⁠⁠⁠ Interest list for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. The ⁠Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat⁠ in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Later this year, the Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Healing after betrayal is one of the hardest journeys a couple can face — especially when both partners want the relationship to work but feel stuck in the same painful patterns.This week Luke and Alana dive into one of the biggest challenges in betrayal recovery: Why progress in personal recovery doesn't always translate into relational healing.You'll learn:Why many men struggle to show empathy after betrayalThe difference between individual recovery and relational repairWhat betrayed partners truly need to feel safe againHow emotional regulation impacts healingWhy healing after betrayal is often “Olympic-level emotional work”If you're trying to rebuild trust, understand your partner's pain, or move forward after betrayal, this conversation will help you see the process more clearly — and remind you that healing is possible.Don't Miss Out!If you connected with this conversation, we invite you to learn more about our Help Her Heal men's intensive and support groups. Reach out to find out which option may be right for you! (702) 277-9145 | info@chooserecoveryservices.comChapters03:39 Men and Empathy07:15 Betrayed Partner Needs08:57 Regulation And Shame12:44 Rescue Versus Coregulate16:16 Window Of Tolerance23:38 Individual Safety Work30:46 Validation and Safety Skills38:22 Learning Repair SkillsRegister Now!

Why doesn't an apology fix betrayal trauma? If you've experienced infidelity, pornography addiction, or relational betrayal, you may have heard the words “I'm sorry” over and over… and yet still feel unsafe, unsettled, or unable to move forward.In this episode, we explore a powerful truth:Apologies matter—but they don't heal betrayal trauma on their own.Betrayal trauma isn't just an emotional wound. It impacts the nervous system, the body, and your ability to trust what's real. Healing requires more than words—it requires consistency, accountability, emotional presence, and time.Whether you're the betrayed partner wondering why you still hurt… or the partner who caused harm feeling confused about what else is needed… this episode will bring clarity, relief, and a grounded path forward.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveJoin the ⁠⁠⁠Interest List⁠⁠⁠ for an upcoming course for parents called Intentional Parenting After Betrayal, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth.Help Her Heal Intensive — a powerful, immersive 4-day men's intensive — is designed for men who are ready to move beyond surface apologies and truly learn how to support their partner's healing after betrayal. Held in a safe, confidential environment in Spanish Fork, Utah, this experiential program blends trauma-informed workshops, real-life practice, and expert coaching to help participants cultivate empathy, emotional capacity, and integrity in their relationships, equipping them with tools to respond with presence and repair rather than defensiveness. The Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. The ⁠Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive⁠ takes place August 25-28 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

When betrayal trauma enters a relationship, it often changes how women see themselves.Suddenly the body becomes a project. A problem to fix. Something to evaluate through the imagined eyes of others.This episode explores self-objectification, a trauma response many women develop after betrayal, pornography exposure, body shaming, or cultural conditioning.Listen to learn:Why betrayal makes other women feel threateningHow hypersexualized culture shapes body shameThe difference between living in your body vs. observing itWhy self-objectification disconnects women from their intuitionPractical ways to rebuild safety in your bodyChapters02:03 Betrayal and Seeing Humanity07:28 Body Awareness Micropractice08:34 Sexual Shame11:25 Personal Stories of Body Shaming17:51 Signs and Costs of Self-Objectification22:10 Porn Culture28:22 Reclaiming Your Body Again32:25 Three Steps to Heal39:50 Somatic Grounding Practice*NEW* Help Her Heal men's group is starting in April. If you are a man looking to rebuild trust, cultivate empathy, create intimacy, and develop healthy communication skills, this group is for you! Register today! Register Now!

Accountability is one of the most talked-about — and most misunderstood — parts of betrayal recovery.For many couples healing after infidelity or sexual betrayal, the word accountability can feel loaded with fear: punishment, humiliation, endless judgment, or never being able to move forward.But true accountability isn't about being shamed.It's about becoming trustworthy again.In this episode of Choosing to Stay, Hali Roderick breaks down what accountability actually means after betrayal trauma, what it doesn't mean, and why accountability is one of the most essential ingredients in rebuilding safety, trust, and long-term repair.This conversation is especially powerful for partners who want to do better but don't know how to stay present with the impact of what they've done — and for betrayed partners who are tired of carrying the emotional labor of recovery alone.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. The Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Join the ⁠⁠Interest List⁠⁠ for an upcoming course for parents called ⁠⁠Intentional Parenting After Betrayal⁠⁠, hosted by Hali and her daughter, Morgan Ellsworth. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Betrayal trauma doesn't just hurt — it destabilizes your nervous system, your identity, and your ability to function.In this powerful episode, Alana and guest Kim Brown (Choose Recovery Services coach) talk openly about:Not wanting to existTrauma and PTSD symptoms after betrayalGrounding tools that reduce long-term harmChoosing yourself moment by momentBorrowing hope when you can't feel itHealing isn't glamorous and doesn't always feel brave, but you can heal. And you don't have to do it alone.Chapters02:34 Betrayal as Trauma06:23 When Functioning Collapses08:53 Shame and Self-Compassion13:37 Not Wanting to Exist16:29 Healing Is Messy25:12 Grounding the Nervous System29:18 Practical Tools32:58 Borrowing Hope and SupportRegister Now!✨Courage to Thrive - This intensive brings together expert trauma specialists in the serene Utah mountains for a transformative experience that goes beyond healing—it's about getting your power back. Join other courageous women March 17th-20th, and leave with proven strategies, unshakeable boundaries, and renewed hope…because your story doesn't end with betrayal—it transforms into something powerful. 

In this episode, I'm joined by Dr. Eddie Capparucci, a licensed professional counselor and creator of the Inner Child Model™, to explore how emotional regulation, childhood wounds, and nervous system healing play a powerful role in both addiction recovery and betrayal trauma.Dr. Capparucci has spent decades helping individuals and couples understand how unresolved emotional pain from childhood shapes adult coping patterns. Together, we talk about why slowing down, learning to feel, and building emotional regulation skills are foundational to real healing.We also discuss how the Inner Child Model™ has been adapted to support betrayed partners, offering a framework for working with the vulnerable parts that emerge after trust has been broken.Learn More from Dr. Eddie CapparucciDr. Capparucci is the author of six books, including:Going Deeper: How the Inner Child Impacts Your Sexual AddictionWhy Men Struggle to Love: Overcoming Relational Blind SpotsGoing Deeper for Betrayed Partners

Are you waiting for your partner to “get it” before you can finally move forward?In this powerful episode, Amie and Alana unpack the metaphor of “the waiting room” — where betrayed partners often pause their own healing while hoping their partner will eventually change.You'll learn:Why conditional healing keeps you stuckHow resentment builds when effort doesn't equal safetyThe role of attachment injuriesWhy nervous system healing must be internalHow to anchor in reality and reclaim agencyChapters01:37 The Waiting Room Concept03:14 Getting Hit By a Truck Analogy07:13 The Cost of Waiting09:30 Building Resentment11:34 Nervous System and Attachment Patterns14:51 Creating Internal Safety17:46 Fear of Healing Alone20:16 Leaving the Waiting Room23:22 Anchoring in RealityRegister Now!✨Courage to Thrive - This intensive brings together expert trauma specialists in the serene Utah mountains for a transformative experience that goes beyond healing—it's about getting your power back. Join other courageous women March 17th-20th, and leave with proven strategies, unshakeable boundaries, and renewed hope…because your story doesn't end with betrayal—it transforms into something powerful. 

Tonight we have mysterious green lights, a weird winged creature, shadow entities and much more. Keep it spooky and enjoy!Season 20 Episode 36 of Monsters Among Us Podcast, true paranormal stories of ghosts, cryptids, UFOs and more, told by the witnesses themselves.SHOW NOTES: Support the show! Get ad-free, extended & bonus episodes (and more) on Patreon - https://www.patreon.com/monstersamonguspodcastTonight's Sponsor - Lumi Gummies THC & CBD gummies - Feel good, not stoned. Get 30% off your order with code MAU at LumiGummies.comMAU Merch Shop - https://www.monstersamonguspodcast.com/shopMAU Discord - https://discord.gg/2EaBq7f9JQWatch FREE - Shadows in the Desert: High Strangeness in the Borrego Triangle  - https://www.borregotriangle.com/Monsters Among Us Junior on Apple Podcasts  - https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/monsters-among-us-junior/id1764989478Monsters Among Us Junior on Spotify -https://open.spotify.com/show/1bh5mWa4lDSqeMMX1mYxDZ?si=9ec6f4f74d61498bLidar project in SoCal - https://rock1053.iheart.com/featured/san-diego/content/2021-10-28-video-green-laser-from-sky-scans-california-cities-heres-what-it-did/Camp Creek wreck site tour - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PLS_56Nkwd0Camp Creek wreck list of victims - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hdou1a9k9YcBirds in Spanish Fork, UT - https://ebird.org/hotspot/L6652015/bird-listPink Floyd the flamingo - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjLeL2tphdkSalina, UT Mothman - https://web.archive.org/web/20250113195014/https://www.phantomsandmonsters.com/2025/01/three-toed-winged-humanoid-observed-in.htmlUtah Rock Art - https://www.facebook.com/groups/944882583208282/posts/1270626837300520/Sam's EVP - https://www.monstersamonguspodcast.com/s/Sam-EVP.mp3Music from tonight's episode:Music by Iron Cthulhu Apocalypse - https://www.youtube.com/c/IronCthulhuApocalypseCO.AG Music - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcavSftXHgxLBWwLDm_bNvAMusic By Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio - https://www.youtube.com/@WhiteBatAudioWhite Bat Audio Songs:Channel 4VHS VisionLurkingThe ResistanceDeparture

Betrayal trauma is often talked about as a couple's crisis, but betrayal is never contained to the marriage alone.In this episode, Hali Roderick and her daughter Morgan Ellsworth explore the often-overlooked impact of parental betrayal on children and the entire family system.As professionals in the betrayal trauma field, and as a mother and daughter who have firsthand experience, they invite listeners into an essential conversation on generational healing, witnessing, and family recovery. They discuss how children often feel the impact of betrayal in the family, without the truth to give language to their experience. Without support, they often carry confusion, self-blame, and unprocessed grief into adulthood.Together, they discuss how children often sit in an unaware and disempowered place and why compassionate witnessing, emotional validation, and developmentally appropriate disclosure are essential for restoring agency and safety.Healing is messy. It is courageous. And it is possible across generations. View the Typology of Witness Grid mentioned in this episode HERE.Join the Interest List for our upcoming course for parents: Intentional Parenting After Betrayal.Read ⁠Witnessing Wonder and Hope⁠  (⁠Full Study⁠)Connect with Morgan on Instagram and listen to her podcast, Healing Betrayed Families.You can email her directly at morgan.ellsworth98@gmail.com.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. The Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. The Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

In this episode, Amie and Alana explore one of the most painful and persistent questions betrayed partners ask: Will he ever get it?They unpack:Why your nervous system wants him to shake and tremble like you didHow trying to “make him get it” can backfireThe hidden cost of waiting for him to gain insightWhy trauma is not transferable—even with remorseYou are not wrong for wanting him to understand - but your healing cannot depend on whether he does.Chapters04:04 What Your Brain Is Really Seeking10:00 The Brutal Truth10:46 Pushing for Empathy17:04 Forcing Empathy Can Backfire20:50 How to Spot If You're Stuck23:53 Self-Validation Register Now!✨Courage to Thrive - This intensive brings together expert trauma specialists in the serene Utah mountains for a transformative experience that goes beyond healing—it's about getting your power back. Join other courageous women March 17th-20th, and leave with proven strategies, unshakeable boundaries, and renewed hope…because your story doesn't end with betrayal—it transforms into something powerful. 

Grief is one of the most misunderstood parts of betrayal recovery — especially for couples who are choosing to stay.In this episode, Hali Roderick explores how grief shows up differently for betrayed partners and betraying partners, why couples often feel out of sync in the healing process, and how the APSATS Multidimensional Partner Trauma Model (MPTM) helps couples navigate grief in the post-traumatic growth phase.You'll learn why “parallel grief” is normal, how grief becomes a relational stressor, and what healthy shared grieving can actually look like after infidelity and betrayal trauma.This episode offers practical conversation prompts, trauma-sensitive insight, and hope for couples learning how to stay human together in the aftermath of betrayal.Listen to my other episodes on grief that I mention in the episode:#146 Grief After Betrayal: What Men Lose—and Why It Matters for Healing#21 The Grief Nobody Talks About After Betrayal (Coming 2/23/26)#22 Part 1: The Early Grief Phases You Didn't Expect After Betrayal (Coming 3/2/26)#23 Part 2: From Grief to Growth Part 2 (Coming 3/9/26)Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. The Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Resentment isn't bitterness or weakness, and it doesn't mean you're failing at healing. In this conversation, we unpack how resentment develops after betrayal trauma, how it protects you from further harm, and why suppressing it can lead to emotional shutdown, hypervigilance, and loss of joy.Chapters01:35 Understanding Anger vs. Resentment02:37 The Roots of Resentment04:54 Manifestations of Resentment07:49 Instinctive Defenses and Resentment09:32 The Traps of Resentment13:58 Healing from ResentmentRegister Now!✨Courage to Thrive - This intensive brings together expert trauma specialists in the serene Utah mountains for a transformative experience that goes beyond healing—it's about getting your power back. Join other courageous women March 17th-20th, and leave with proven strategies, unshakeable boundaries, and renewed hope.

Grief after betrayal is rarely talked about—especially when it comes to men.In this episode, we explore grief after betrayal for men, including men in recovery, men who have caused harm, and men who have betrayed themselves. While grief is often associated with sadness or loss through death, betrayal creates layers of invisible loss that many men carry without language—or permission—to acknowledge.I'm joined by Joseph McKinley who is a Pastor and Recovery Coach at Greenway Recovery as well as a coaching colleague of mine at Choose Recovery Services, where he supports individuals and families navigating sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma. His work focuses on helping men face truth with compassion, integrity, and responsibility—without bypassing the grief that healing requires.You don't have to navigate grief, recovery, or betrayal alone. Healing doesn't start with having the right answers—it starts with naming what's been lost.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. The Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Resentment doesn't always look like anger. In addiction recovery and betrayal healing, it often shows up quietly—through defensiveness, withdrawal, or feeling controlled.In Part 3 of our Resentment series, we explore:Why sharing resentment too early can emotionally burden your partnerHow resentment forms underneath shame, fear, and loss of controlThe role of emotional containment in creating real safetyWhy empathy without boundaries is harmfulHow deeper emotional work reduces defensiveness and prevents relapseChapters00:24 Understanding Resentment in Recovery02:05 Timing and Responsibility in Sharing Resentment04:13 Containment and Emotional Regulation06:14 Common Triggers of Resentment06:54 Parts Work and Internal Conflicts11:25 Empathy, Boundaries, and Emotional Maturity22:15 Grieving and Letting Go of the Past27:13 Benefits of Deep Emotional WorkRegister Now!

Today's conversation sits at the intersection of trauma, recovery, and compassion for the body.Many listeners of Choosing to Stay are navigating betrayal trauma, addiction recovery—either their own or their partner's—and ongoing nervous system overwhelm. In those seasons, nutrition can either feel like a powerful support… or like one more place we're falling short.In this episode, I'm joined by Dr. David Wiss, a pioneering mental health nutritionist and Institute for Functional Medicine Certified Practitioner who bridges nutritional science with psychiatric and addiction care. Dr. Wiss is the founder of Nutrition in Recovery and the Wise Mind Nutrition app, and his work focuses on root-cause healing at the intersection of trauma, substance use, and food-related struggles.What I appreciate most about Dr. Wiss's approach is his emphasis on compassion over control, and his understanding of behaviors—not as failures—but as adaptations shaped by stress, trauma, and survival.Together, we explore how nutrition can gently support healing from trauma and addiction without becoming another source of shame, pressure, or perfectionism.Connect with Dr. David Wiss: drdavidwiss.comInstagram: @drdavidwissFree Download: 5 Ways You Can Use Nutrition to Improve Your Mental HealthDr. David Wiss is a leading voice in integrative mental health and nutrition. Founder of Nutrition in Recovery and the Wise Mind Nutrition app, he blends over 13 years of clinical experience with groundbreaking research on food addiction, eating disorders, and psychiatric care. With over 30 peer-reviewed publications and features in The New York Times, National Geographic, and more, Dr. Wiss is transforming how we approach healing—by addressing the root, not just the symptom.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveThe Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening in July , offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Resentment doesn't always look like anger. Sometimes it hides behind effort, silence, or “doing everything right.”In Part 2 of our Resentment series, Alana sits down with Luke Gordon to explore how powerlessness and entitlement quietly fuel resentment, especially in recovery after betrayal or compulsive sexual behavior.They unpack:Why resentment often goes unnoticed until it causes damageHow silent scorekeeping creates emotional distanceThe link between resentment, entitlement, and relapse riskWhy awareness alone isn't enough–and what actually leads to healingChapters02:23 Personal Experiences with Resentment05:32 Silent Scorekeeping07:57 Entitlement and Passive Aggressiveness10:47 Processing Resentment and Finding Power15:33 Practical Steps to Address Resentment22:09 The Journey of HealingRegister Now!

After betrayal, many couples believe they're struggling with communication—but what's really happening is much deeper. Betrayal doesn't just break trust; it rewires the nervous system, changing how safety is experienced inside the relationship. In this episode, we explore why conversations feel loaded after betrayal, why small behaviors can feel overwhelming, and how nervous system responses—like defensiveness, shutdown, or hypervigilance—keep couples stuck in painful cycles. You'll learn why this isn't about being “too sensitive” or “never enough,” but about how the body responds when relational safety has been compromised.Whether you are a betrayed partner, the one rebuilding trust, or a couple navigating healing together, this episode offers compassionate insight, practical nervous system tools, and a powerful reframe that helps interrupt the trauma loop—without blame or shame.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingIf today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. The Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 20–25, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

Healing after betrayal can feel confusing — especially when your partner is “doing everything right,” yet something still feels off.In this episode, Amie and Alana explore unspoken resentment in betrayal recovery: how resentment can exist without awareness, why it often gets denied, and how betrayed partners sense it before it's ever named.We discuss:Why resentment doesn't have to be felt to be acted outHow shame and “good guy” identity keep resentment hiddenWhy partners should trust their body instead of dismissing itThe difference between awareness and weaponizing emotionsThis is part 1 of a four-part series focused on understanding resentment without excusing harm — and without asking betrayed partners to carry what isn't theirs.Chapters01:55 Categories of Resentment05:46 Importance of Awareness08:02 Deeper Layers of Resentment10:58 Resentment as a Protector13:02 Managing Resentment in RelationshipsRegister Now!

Kiplyn Davis was a 15-year-old sophomore when she was last seen at her high school in Spanish Fork, Utah. She arrived early that morning, attended her classes, and was seen laughing with friends at lunch. Then, she vanished. Her books, purse, and personal belongings were left behind in her locker, and she never made it home. As stories shifted and rumors spread, investigators began to question whether this was really a runaway case at all. Decades later, Kiplyn's disappearance remains one of Utah's most haunting unsolved mysteries….If you're new here, don't forget to follow the show for weekly deep dives into the darkest true crime cases! To watch the video version of this episode, head over to youtube.com/@annieelise. .

Episode Summary: In this conversation, Kimberly and Josh Redd delve into the critical topic of inflammation, exploring its prevalence, symptoms, and the various health conditions it can exacerbate, including autoimmune diseases and fertility issues. They discuss the impact of diet, gut health, and environmental toxins on inflammation, as well as the promising role of stem cell therapy in managing chronic inflammatory conditions. The conversation emphasizes the importance of education and proactive health management, encouraging listeners to take control of their health through informed lifestyle choices.Chapters00:00 The Rise of Inflammation Awareness03:04 Understanding Inflammation Symptoms05:59 Inflammation's Impact on Children09:00 Autoimmunity and Inflammation12:02 Dietary Influences on Inflammation14:51 The Role of Gut Health17:59 Environmental Toxins and Inflammation21:30 Big Picture Health Strategies23:53 Cooking and Nutrition Control25:25 Understanding Stem Cell Therapy28:56 Stem Cells and Inflammation31:55 Innovations in Stem Cell Treatments34:19 Insurance and Accessibility of TreatmentsSponsors: FATTY15 OFFER: Fatty15 is on a mission to replenish your C15 levels and restore your long-term health. You can get an additional 15% off their 90-day subscription Starter Kit by going to fatty15.com/KIMBERLY and using code KIMBERLY at checkout.USE LINK: fatty15.com/KIMBERLYDr. Josh Redd Resources: Book: THE 30-DAY INFLAMMATORY RESET: A Complete Guide to Healing Your Immune System Website: DrJoshRedd.com Tik Tok: drjoshred Instagram: @drjoshredd Bio: Dr. Josh Redd, NMD, MS, MPHb, is an industry leader in functional and personalized medicine. With over 12 years of post-graduate education—including two master's degrees and two doctorate degrees—he brings an unmatched depth of training and experience to his patients. His expertise in regenerative medicine includes over 1,000 precision-guided injections for spinal, joint, and soft tissue treatment, helping athletes and active individuals optimize performance and accelerate recovery. He holds an MS in Human Nutrition and Functional Medicine, an MPHb from Johns Hopkins (with an emphasis on molecular biology and immunology), and a Doctor of Chiropractic from Parker University. Most recently, he graduated from naturopathic medical school and completed his residency in regenerative medicine and stem cell injections through Bastyr University.Dr. Redd is the founder of RedRiver Health & Wellness, one of the largest functional medicine clinics in the U.S., with eight locations across Utah, New Mexico, Nevada, and Idaho, and PalmaVita Clinic, a regenerative medicine and athletic performance center in Spanish Fork, Utah.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

What does it really mean to stay grounded in yourself when you're the one doing the emotional work in the relationship?In this episode, I'm joined by Tammy Gustafson, MA, LPC—trauma-informed licensed professional counselor, coach, speaker, founder of Betrayal Healing and LiveFree Counseling, host of the annual Betrayal Healing Conference, and author of Broken to Brave: Your Courageous Act of Healing from Intimate Betrayal.Together, we explore one of the most painful and confusing realities many betrayed partners face: being committed to healing while your partner is slow, avoidant, or inconsistent in their growth.This conversation is not about abusive dynamics. It's for the woman who is trying to stay anchored in herself while navigating a relationship that still feels uneven—and who is wondering how to do that without resentment, self-abandonment, or losing herself in the process.Connect With Me + Continue Your HealingJoin me at one of the Upcoming Betrayal Trauma Conferences: The Betrayal Healing Conference on January 26-30, 2026. (Virtual)Together We Rise: Collaboration, Care, and Community in Recovery in person in Dallas, TX on Feb. 4-6, 2026If today's episode resonated with you, you don't have to walk the healing journey after betrayal alone. I create trauma-informed resources, conversations, and learning experiences to support individuals and couples navigating infidelity, betrayal trauma, and relational repair.Here are a few ways to stay connected and continue your healing:Join me at a Retreat or IntensiveIf you're craving deeper, in-person support and embodied healing, I'm helping facilitate two upcoming experiences created specifically for betrayed partners. The Courage to Thrive Betrayal Trauma Intensive takes place March 17–20 in Spanish Fork, Utah and offers a structured, trauma-informed space to understand betrayal trauma, regulate your nervous system, and rebuild self-trust. Later this year, the Rise, Renew, Restore Retreat in Costa Rica, happening July 13–18, offers a more spacious, restorative experience focused on slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and healing in the presence of nature and supportive community. Free Resources & DownloadsAccess free tools, guided practices, and educational resources designed to support nervous system regulation, self-trust, boundaries, and clarity after betrayal.

After betrayal, safety feels impossible—especially when your partner is the one who broke it. In this episode, Alana Gordon is joined by betrayal trauma coach, Laura Fisher, to explore a powerful reframe: what if safety doesn't start with your partner at all?Together, they unpack:Why betrayal trauma lives in the body, not just the mindHow your nervous system tried to protect you long before discoveryWhy knowing “everything” doesn't actually create safetyHow internal safety restores boundaries, trust, and decision-makingPractical ways to begin feeling safer inside yourself—todayPast episode with Laura: Finding Freedom in Boundaries Attend our Courage to Thrive intensive and meet Laura! - This intensive brings together expert trauma specialists in the serene Utah mountains for a transformative experience that goes beyond healing—it's about getting your power back. Join other courageous women March 17th-20th, and leave with proven strategies, unshakeable boundaries, and renewed hope…because your story doesn't end with betrayal—it transforms into something powerful. Chapters04:08 Understanding Trauma Responses08:45 The Role of the Body in Healing14:26 Defining Safety 21:01 Voice and Choice in Healing27:00 Boundaries, Trust, Decisions36:39 Rewiring the Nervous System After Betrayal44:40 Practical Steps to Create Internal Safety52:03 The Power of Self-TalkRegister Now!