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Greg looks at the affordability issues for housing in Manawatu/Whanganui and the dangers of having large mortgages if the interest rates increase, including some scary numbers and figures. After listening to 'Dude (looks a lady)' by Aerosmith he talks about Healthy Home deadlines and what might happen next. Published: 7/6/2021 1:00:00 PM Property Matters is the property show for you.  The audience includes buyers, sellers, landlords, tenants and people interested in general housing advice.  Greg Watson presents the very latest Manawatu market news and commentary.  He analyses, comments on and makes light of real estate news from Manawatu, around New Zealand and overseas.  Every show calls on years of experience and has a section of tips and advice around housing with anything from renovations, to achieving higher sales prices, buyer tips, landlord help and guides for tenants.  To listen to this show on 999am: Tune in on Tuesdays at 1pm (or OnDemand below from 1:15pm.)

Chris Williamson invested about $20 in a cryptocurrency called Rocket Bunny https://rocketbunny.io/ and it did what bunnies do - it multiplied. I talked to him a bout his investments, music and what he will do if he cashes out a billion dollars. via Fox 5: He woke up one morning and looked at his phone to check his investment and found he was a trillionaire. "I look at it again and I'm like … at that point I fall out of my bed literally, and I run to my desk and I'm logging into the Coinbase app and stuff and I'm talking to my friends, got him on the phone and I'm like, 'Dude, you need to help me figure out how to sell this now!." he told FOX 5 of Atlanta. Williamson said he attempted to move the cryptocurrency to another wallet, but it wasn't showing the same price. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/worldmusicviews/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/worldmusicviews/support

Listen To This Special Solocast as Josh Trent Uncovers: Psychoneuroimmunology: How our thoughts become things. What makes a thought true instead of being static and noise? How all of us, especially men, can be grateful for our feelings. The healing power of singing. How Josh healed his Father Wound and forgave his father. What happens when we don't allow ourselves to embrace and love all of our emotions; good or bad. Steps you can take to heal your porn or sex addiction. How Josh healed after a horrible Ayahuasca ceremony with the help of his friend and mentor, Paul Chek. A powerful prayer to help you if and when intrusive thoughts and emotions want to enter your inner sanctum. 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In this special (limited time) offer, you will receive: - Lifetime access to BREATHE - Free upgrades to all future training modules - Free additional training modules - Special VIP coupons for safe vape, essential oils, CBD, nootropics and more - Private WF group access   Transcript From Vision Quest Part 2: Touching Death Josh Trent (00:11): Welcome back to Part Two of this very special Solocast. If you heard us on Part One, we honored our ancestors. If you haven't heard Part One, make sure you go back and listen to Part One. It'll give you perfect context for Part Two of this Solocast. This is where we talk about a concept of touching death. Touching death. When I was on the mountain, I had a direct message and the direct message was about our thoughts. You know, psychoneuroimmunology is how thoughts become things, but yet thoughts are like waves in the ocean. Thoughts come and go. They are unlimited and sometimes like unfathomable in size and texture and in message. So then what exactly is the thought? You know, when I did this four day water fast up on the mountain for the 10 day Native American Vision Quest, the bridge between reality, the bridge between the underworld, the creepy crawlies, the bugs, the animals, and here, the 3D reality becomes so very thin.   Josh Trent (01:15): So very thin. So I took in this message: What makes a thought true instead of a thought being static and noise? And how do I make truth about a signal instead of the noise? How do I disconnect from the quantum, the collective field of thoughts and how those thoughts becomes things? Well, I believe that the only thing that makes a thought true is my soul's attention poured into it. And on top of that, the emotions that I experience after I attach to that thought. Now this is huge: The only thing that makes any of our thoughts true is the attention that I pour into the thought. And then also the emotion that I experience after I attached to that thought. So that is for all of us, the understanding of what makes a thought true. And how do those thoughts completely control subconsciously how I show up in the world with my heart open or with my heart closed?   Josh Trent (02:15): So I can be thankful. And this is, this is the lesson that I want to share with you. I, we, all of us can be thankful, truly grateful for my feelings. Especially as men, we have been shamed into beliefs, like, "Suck it up, Pussy. Big boys don't cry." Which is honestly the abuse of the male psyche in this world. This connection to a belief that emotions should not be felt. Emotions need to be pushed down. Emotions are not to be shown, especially by men. It is actually the bane of our existence. It's the very thing that the feminine, if you identify as a heterosexual partner or however you identify, it is the very thing that the feminine wants from the masculine and that is to emote, to show emotions. So it's a beautiful gift, love and acceptance. Can I accept the thought? Can I love the thought?   Josh Trent (03:08): Can I ask the thought maybe if it's painful, maybe if it's pleasurable, whatever it is, can I turn to my thought and can I ask my thought, what are you here to teach me? What are you here to teach me? And that is the most potent medicine that any of us can ever receive in any ceremony. For me, it just happened to be in nature and nature always holds the keys. I'll never forget. I was laying on my back and I was chasing the sun around the mountain side in Northern Idaho. There was deep forest cover. The canopy is very thick and I was laying on my back on the second night and into the third morning. And I had this awareness. If I'm experiencing an emotion that I do not want to feel that my soul understands is not the path or not my life's choice, then that emotion, that feeling that energy in motion, which creates a feeling - that is actually the power of choice.   Josh Trent (04:06): That is the bridge between me being thankful and loving the thought or me trying to kick the thought's ass and get out of my head. You know, you can connect with this. How many times have you thought a thought and realized that your resistance to the thought, your hatred towards the thought, your lack of love, essentially towards the thought is the very thing that perpetuates that thought from hanging around and keeps that thought around. So this is the gift. If my soul, Josh Trent's soul decides which thoughts are real and which thoughts are not. And by real, I mean, whatever thoughts apply to my soul's purpose and my heart - well, that's the way that I can share my love with the world. And there was this song, this beautiful song, which brings out so much emotion in me, and it was, "Peace Like A River."   Josh Trent (04:55): And the song goes something like this that gave me so much soulless. We have forgotten how to sing in this lifetime. We have been disconnected from our singing voice and this song was my ultimate medicine. And the song goes, "I've got peace like a river. I've got peace like a river. I've got peace like a river in my soul." And I went on and I kept saying things like strength like a mountain, joy like fountain, love from Great Spirit over and over and over again. And out of nowhere, I picture the face of my father. I pictured the face of my father and I don't ever really think I've fully healed from the wounding. My Father Wound until I received this medicine from Mother Nature. Because in that moment with tears streaming down my face, I got to honor the deep sacrifices my father has made for myself and my brother. Growing up, all the money he made to take care of us and the energy that my father spent to provide for my brother.   Josh Trent (05:58): And I. So, to my father, I forgive you. And please forgive me for all the ways that I have not honored you and not being grateful for what you did. Really my projections, my anger for you came from the hurting the relationship I had been trying so hard with white knuckles to make you understand me, to make you love me in the way that I wanted you to love me the whole time. Just not loving and accepting you for who you are in the exact way you are. And this was the greatest gift that I want to share with you. Forgiving my father so that I can be empowered with the father inside myself. Daniel Trent, I forgive you. I forgive all the ways that you did the very best you could. And maybe sometimes they weren't enough and I send you love for your journey and let this be enough for all of us.   Josh Trent (06:50): with the Father Wound. All the ways that our fathers have wounded us, maybe abandoned us because they themselves felt wounded and abandoned. And this is the all retch and no vomit that Alan Watts talks about. We pass on this lineage, this wounding in our lineage as men by regurgitating the exact behaviors that hurt us. This is why hurt people, hurt people. So consider this to be a flag of peace. I put down my weapons. I forgive, forgive my own father. I forgive the father inside myself. We have peace you and I. No longer do I need my father to open his heart and listen, because we are both fathers now. And of course I want my father to be a part of my life and my son's life if he chooses. But the only path of true love is sharing the heart's wisdom without any expectation.   Josh Trent (07:49): So you are loved. And please forgive me for the way that I have acted towards you as a wounded child. And I love you. And this was profound because later that afternoon, as I watched all the bees and the trees and the bugs and how nature has this beautiful synergy, I just became so grateful for the peace in my heart. Because this broken lineage, this projection of wounding, this unawareness of self, it stops with me. It stops with the awareness that I have for what is true, the objective truth that we all do our best, including that time zone, where my father came from, where many of our fathers came from, where sharing your emotions was an act of weakness. And really what that does is it brings us closer to death. And on that night, on that third night in my dream, I felt the washing of my nervous system with peace.   Josh Trent (08:54): Now I can speak to the truth of this present moment to truly honor the truth of the past. I have to forgive. When I choose to forgive, and this is the lightness and the peace you hear in my voice. Thank you, Mother Nature. Thank you Mother Nature for your wisdom, this gift of awareness and the peace and power you have given me washing my blood and my nervous system with the truth. A ho Great Spirit. Now, so I have a wellness podcast and hatred, resentment, bitterness is the poison that makes me feel unwell. And currently in my life at this Vision Quest, I came to this radical cul de sac of awareness, where I am experiencing unwellness. I had to get sick from the system itself. I had to get sick from society itself so that I know what it truly feels like to be a human in our world.   Josh Trent (09:45): And I definitely became sick, pushing the throttle down all the way to the floor. Looking back if I could have trusted Great Spirit and been in dialogue with our Mother Earth. I wonder, I just wonder, could I have achieved a level of success without sacrificing my health? This is how I choose to move forward. I finally know now what the discovery of loving awareness truly is. It's not some social media meme or something Ram Dass or Rumi once said. Loving awareness truly is observing all that is. The joy, the hate, the fear, the ecstasy, shame, guilt, sadness, - all of it. All the colors in the palette of emotions and experiences that we as human beings witness. And I feel that I have unlocked one of these secret keys that I want to share with you and this is to truly capital T to truly observe, to observe in truth.   Josh Trent (10:35): Knowing that all emotions, feelings, thoughts, and beliefs, they are rising to the surface to be loved. And I know it sounds reductionist. But all there is is love. And the truth is God is love. Even the word evil, which is love, right? Evil is love because evil is live spelled backwards, which Paul Chek and Dr. Vernon Woolf have shared. So even the evil in my life that I have experienced within myself and others is love because evil backwards is to live. I experienced so much sadness that day in this washing and this letting go of forgiveness, because when you rip a tree out of the ground, whether it's emotional, physical, or spiritual, some of the roots are going to break. I had to go through all the porn scenes that I had watched, all the women that I had sex with that I didn't love and sit down young Josh at 13, the one that was screaming at me to stop and next to him, next to him was my son, Novah.   Josh Trent (11:37): And I turned to him and I said, when you're angry, let yourself be angry. When you hold onto your anger or your resentment, it's like heating up water on the stove. When you boil water on the stove, it will bubble, but the bubbles have to rise and pop and come out. Now you may not know young Josh and young Novah -when these bubbles are coming out, you may be with friends or family or even playing. So it's very important that you allow yourself to feel your anger and you know what, your anger is always safe with me. Your anger is always welcome here, because what happens with unchecked anger, that you will be angry with people. And you don't know why, because that anger is really subconsciously wanting to express itself. But if you don't allow yourself to feel it, and this is the key, this is the lesson.   Josh Trent (12:24): When we do not experience the permission to feel our anger, that anger comes out sideways towards others, that we care about, that we really don't want to hurt, but we do because of unchecked anger, because it's so uncomfortable to feel. And on this third night, I see life through a new lens with forgiveness, for self, with the letting go of resentment. With the understanding that we are all victims of intellectualization, which is another Solocast that I actually recorded up on the mountain. After the quest, feeling into this prayer for really disempowerment. For many years, I had been curious and even neurotic at times, if I had been like sexually abused as a child, and I asked Great Spirit, you know, with all this forgiveness and all the pain that I 'd gone through with an open heart, you know, has it ever happened? Have I ever been sexually abused?   Josh Trent (13:19): And in the stillness, this was the gift. I was able to see that my question actually came from me trying to hide from the responsibility of my life choices. In other words, shame and blame. As a reason for my pain and misfortune, I went through a full inventory of everything I'd done and Great Spirit said to me, "It is yours, no others." And I flashed to my early porn memories connecting the dots when pornography first entered my life via VHS and DVDs and internet starting at about 13 years old. And I turned to my young self and my son in the forest as the sun was setting. And I said, your sex energy is your fire. Never let anyone steal your fire only ever choose to give your fire to people that you love and that you want to share your life with because when it comes to sex energy, if you're using pornography, if you're using your sex energy to divide and conquer, then you are disassociated from self.   Josh Trent (14:22): That is where addiction truly comes from. And this is for all of us a lesson when it comes to sex energy. Here's how, you know, if you're using pornography too much, or if it's become a tool of disassociation and addiction, if the real thing, if, if a man having sex with a woman, if it scares you and you find comfort in the fake in the screen, well you know that you are now in a path of disassociation and potential addiction? So the wisdom of the heart is really what is all calling us forward. Life in the 3D world seems to be this consistent reminder for all of us to slow down in order to hear the wisdom of the heart. And sometimes the wisdom of the heart points to the masks that wear and the biggest mask that I wear, the biggest mask that I wear is having to have everything all together, having to have the perfect thing to say at the right time and have all my shit together.   Josh Trent (15:20): And it's just all. bullshit It's not reality. We never have to be perfect. We never have to have the perfect thing to say. And that is a massive gift for all of us to look at the masks that we wear and really being ourselves, unlocking, being ourselves in a current moment. Can we just let that be enough? That is the path to be yourself in every current moment and not feel that you have to be perfect; have it all together. There is forgiveness there. There is peace there. And when there is peace, power can be trusted. That is the ultimate lesson when it comes to peace, because we are all searching for peace inside self. Yet people try to find peace by first getting power, but you cannot have power as the precursor to peace. It works the other way around. So where do these thoughts come from?   Josh Trent (16:13): All these thoughts that I've been sharing with you and all these thoughts that we experienced? Well, if I had to make an intelligent observation, I believe that thoughts come from a culminated library of my own experiences, things that I've seen, things that I've thought before, and also the collective field, the quantum, where there might just be thoughts, emanating around vibrationally electronically, literally. And then I also think in some experiences when there's the piercing of the 3D world by the four and sometimes extraterrestrial five. I do believe different beings come in and implant thoughts into people. So how do we make sense of this? How do we make sense of why thoughts are there and how do we learn how to love the thought? I want to share this that was given to me by a mentor and a friend, Paul Chek. When I received an entity after a terrible Ayahuasca session, that took me almost 18 months to clear the beginning of my healing came with this prayer:   Josh Trent (17:04): So for any of us, if you ever have a thought that is intrusive, say this prayer. By the power of God invested in me. If you are not here to teach me something, to teach me how to get closer to love, then I ask you to leave right now. And I send you love for the journey. You are not allowed in my inner sanctum. And if you try to force yourself in my inner sanctum, you will be stuck in purgatory forever. I do not fear you. And I ask you to leave. And this is the key I send you love for the journey. Now be gone. Feel the peace in that, feel the peace in not fighting or being angry at your thought, turning to your thought. Or as Dr. Vernon Woolf says your holodome, and giving it the permission to let go. These thoughts that come just like high, low pressure...sodium, potassium...chaos and order. Chaos is always seeking   Josh Trent (17:55): order. Fear is always seeking love, thoughts that cause constriction, they are guideposts. They are guideposts to what is needed. And what is being called for attention in our psych. And two years ago, Paul said to me in his home that came so viscerally when I was on the mountain. And it really wells up a knot in my throat right now with my son on the way, he said, "Once I learned how to parent the child inside of me, the universe will put one in my arms." And I'm just so grateful. I'm so grateful because the ego is not the enemy. The ego is the amigo. With inside of the ego, There is deep wounding calling to be healed from both my life and maybe the lives and sins of my father and grandfather that came before me. And so as I touch death, I can have acceptance and really joy for the pain.   Josh Trent (18:51): Now, this sounds crazy, but just level with me for a moment. Pain, without a teacher yields a lack of patience, but pain with a teacher yields resilience. And that is the kind of resilience that can be trusted because it is earned wisdom. And I flashed, and I had this deep understanding of why the body carries extra weight, why my body has been carrying extra weight. And that is because of shame, guilt, anger, and trauma. And this is big. Anger - Only anger sure can be washed away by the healing of nature in Great Spirit, a reconnection to nature and the power of God, where there is no anger in this spaciousness, but unprocessed and dealt with anger is the biggest cause a fat storage in the body in the entire universe. And this became radically clear to me, what am I really talking about here?   Josh Trent (19:43): What am I angry about? I was angry about life in this world that we live in, why we die, having anger that we die, but here's the reality. We are all going to die. And there is so much peace in that. There is peace in the understanding that life is finite. We are infinite beings, but the life we chose to live here is finite. And so if you have a 24/7, 365 unprocessed trauma that lingers in the background of your subconscious mind, maybe you have a lifetime of guilt about a person you heard, or what could have been, or what should have been, or maybe you have trauma. That's very deep, maybe it's sexual or physical or emotional trauma, and you're working on it. This is also the time that the body can put on extra weight because trauma is coming up and it is fueled to be burned and away.   Josh Trent (20:36): And so these are all pain teachers. Anger, shame, guilt, and trauma, all of these things, which I unpack very in-depth on the victim of intellectualization Solocast. Pain without a teacher yields a lack of patience, but pain with a teacher yields resilience. And that is resilience. That can be trusted. So when the pain arrives, turn to the pain, ask the pain, what are you here to teach me? What are you here to teach me and then go right to it. Because in that situation, you can really understand and embody the resilience that life is calling you to bring. And that is the lesson that is the ultimate lesson of this Vision Quest, to understand the anger, shame, guilt, and trauma, they all feed the fire of not being loved. Fear of being broke, fear of being hurt, fear of being wrong. Fear of fill in the blank, but what does fear want?   Josh Trent (21:30): Fear wants love. Fear always wants love. Look at the laws of science and the laws of nature and gravity and high, low pressure, and understand that shame and guilt and trauma and anger they simply want love. And so, as we close, which there'll be many more Solocasts, maybe, maybe a few more honestly, because the wisdom is still going to come. As we close, let's feel the anger about what maybe the collective is feeling; the mask, wearing the COVID because below that anger it's sadness, the sadness of how could you, why did you, how could this be? Why God, why? Below the anger and sadness, sometimes sadness has to be woken up by anger. And so we do here, our work on planet earth and these physical bodies in these 3D realms. And we do our loving best to share our true experiences for one another and have the courage, to be honest with one another. Aho Great Spirit.   Josh Trent (22:30): Thank you for my reconnection to our Great Mother and for welcoming me back home. Great Spirit, please forge me in all of us like a tool so that we may do your bidding in this world and that we may have peace. I am weld with emotion after the quest. And if this resonates with you, you can DM me on Instagram. You can reach out to me in many ways. There's a contact form on the website. I am in service to love, present in self-evident truth and at home grounded in nature with space for myself, family, community, and the world to take part in my trustworthy guidance. Let this be enough, let this be enough today that we can all take solace in the words of Rumi, "Beyond right and wrong, there is a field and I will meet you there."   Josh Trent (23:25): If you enjoyed this Solocast, this is a recording. One week when I returned home from the quest with my group of seven and our four guides, Alia, Hayden, Mark, and Tim enjoy this as a reflection of truth that is current the first, second, third, and fourth week on my return home, please enjoy this recording with my group. A ho. Wow! Welcome back to the matrix. That's been my integration. How has it been going? How has my integration process been going? I would say overall from many of the different, I guess you could describe them as ego stripping experiences. This one by far had the most realness when I came home and it's a testament to when I crossed the threshold, as the, I guess, showed up in the monkey in Tim's dream. Uh, there was a part of my young boy inside of me that really needed this medicine.   Josh Trent (24:31): And as I've come home, I've been talking slower. I haven't been in a hurry to wow people. I've really seen like the layers of my psychological onion be fucking peeled when I came back home. And a big part of that was just really feeling safe and secure and loved and whole in my body. And I know that my physical health isn't perfect right now, but it feels damn good to come from a place where I'm being healthy, not from scarcity, not from like, oh my God, it's an emergency blah, blah, blah, but just really loving myself and being healthy from that place. And it, and it really rocked my world, you guys, cause I didn't think about this. I didn't feel this until I got home and I'm sure it'll unfold for a long time, but there was this point a couple of days, I was...We have a trail here and I was walking in nature and I had this little sit spot on a rock and it overlooks the stream and I was sitting there and I was like, it flashed me back to a fucking moment   Josh Trent (25:33): I had, when I was a personal trainer. When I went into personal training, I wanted to make my body look good so that I could like be with the feminine and look cool. And like all these things that I think a young undeveloped 25 year old man does, and I was sitting on a rock and I was like, "Oh my God, this is what I've been wanting the whole time to actually be well and be healthy and love myself from a place of calmness instead of using health and my outward appearance as a way to look cool and be accepted and receive love from other people." Like coming home to the fucking realness is really what it felt like. And it felt really good. And so I'm excited about that. And then wouldn't, you know, it, when I came home, you know, I had shared with y'all that, that I had quote, "hypothyroid," well, I'm doing a podcast and I'm meeting with this functional medicine doctor and he's like, "Josh, you don't have hypothyroid.   Josh Trent (26:27): "That was a misdiagnosis. That was actually somebody trying to sell you a bunch of bullshit." And I'm like, "Oh my God, this is exactly what Hayden said where he was like, 'Dude, in your share, you had to get sick. You had to go on this quest for wellness to feel unwellness in your body. And you had to go into the matrix into the system, into the belly of the beast,' so that I would feel what it's like to be sick from the system itself and be masqueraded and have, and have things presented to me as truth when they're really not true because the truth is that health comes from self love. Wellness comes from me, loving myself. Like period. End of story. And there's no esoteric babble that needs to go along with that. It's just, it is what it is.   Josh Trent (27:13): Like wellness comes from loving myself and from being a loving human being to other people and to the degree that I'm, uh, angry or judging or projecting my bullshit onto other people, well that creates an unwellness and dis-ease in myself and I've heard this shit a thousand times, but something clicked from this quest where I was able to sit with myself and really feel what the hell that even means and what the reality of that even means, because it's so easy for me to get caught up. I have all these books and I have all these interviews and I was feeling this on the quest. I became a victim of intellectualization, a victim of my own intellectual mind, where I had heard Hawkins in 'Power vs Force' and in 'Letting Go' talk about the space between the head and the heart. But something really clicked when I came home and I was like, oh my God, like this, this is everything. And so my work, my path and my integration of this, this quest is to bring the quest home, to be in nature, to pray to our Mother and to connect with her and to honor her, I've been picking up trash when I go on walks with my lady and she was so stoked yesterday, she was like, "I love you coming back from this quest,' she's like, "I love the Mountain Man."   Josh Trent (28:28): I love the mountain man. And so she, she was like, I'm really proud of you. And it's, it's been beautiful in our relationship. You know, it's been really, it's been really beautiful because she's noticing the difference in me where before, when I went out there, like, you know, I'm not going to lie. Like when I came back, there was the culture shock. I mean, holy shit, there was a massive culture shock because I came from like deep nature and just laying with bugs and being in the dirt and like feeling the joy of sunrise. And then I am wearing a mask in the airport and I had this moment, you guys like it really like, it's quite emotional. This woman was playing with her child and she had a mask on and I just, I, in the airports, I take my mask off, you know, it's not a 'Fuck you,' it's not an anger thing.   Josh Trent (29:17): It's just like, come tell me to wear it and I'll put it on. So that's how I roll. And I had my mask off and I had my mask off the entire time and I'm sitting there and I'm talking to this woman about her baby. And I told her my son's coming. And she was like, "Oh, it's so beautiful." She's like, "I wish I could take my mask off and play with my child." And I just calmly took a breath. And I looked right at her and I said, "You can take it off right now. You don't have to wear this." And it was almost like she double clutched emotionally. She was like, is he right? Can I take it off or? And I realized, oh my God, like this, this is what the world needs. And this is what I shared to everyone.   Josh Trent (29:54): And this is what the gift of, of reality that spirit gave me. And that is when it comes to creating change in the world and in, in creating loving change, less anger, more truth. And it's exactly what I shared in our circle. Less anger, more truth. That was the message that spirit gave me when it comes to mask wearing and psychological control and COVID and manipulation, less anger, more truth in the same thing, mirrored in a conversation with my brother yesterday, where he was going off and off and off about all the crazy stuff that's happening in the world. And I was like, well, what if we held them both at the same time? What if we held the dark and the light at the same time? And we said, okay, we're not going to bypass this. We're going to feel into it, but we're also going to present solutions based on love.   Josh Trent (30:38): And instead of focusing on, "DON'T WEAR A MASK!" It's like, "Hey, here's how you can trust your immune system. Here's how you can build your immune system. Here's how you can be healthy in your own body, in your own psyche." That's the direction I want to go in. And I realized I became to go full circle. My integration, my culture shock is just the reality that I had become a victim of my own intellectualization, where I would intellectualize everything to death. I just intellectualize everything to death. So, um, I've been feeling it all. I've been feeling. I've been feeling the deep sadness, feeling the pain. And when I looked into that mother's eyes in the airport, just how controlled she is. And she's just a mirror of the millions of people in our country that are being controlled. And it makes me, honestly, you guys, it makes me want to go out with a spear like our ancestors did and just start stabbing people.   Josh Trent (31:27): It makes me want to go to war and that's not gonna, that's not gonna do anything. It's not going to do anything. You know, if it comes down to that in the future, I'm sure we'll all be on the front lines together, but, but it's not, I think we're in a different kind of war. I think we're in a war of consciousness where, you know, my grandfather went to World War II and he actually had to kill people. You know,...Can you guys imagine what that would feel like? I mean, I just, can you imagine what it would feel like to have to kill people to be free? How crazy that would be? So just feeling into that and we don't have to do that. Like we can choose something we can, we can fight or what we believe in from love, not from violence and not from anger.   Josh Trent (32:15): and just feeling into all that you guys, you know, just feeling into the, the real nobility and the real power in being at peace is one of the things I wrote to Tim and Mark before we started as like, "Hey," he was like, "I, you know, I'm going out here for my birthday. Like may peace and power would be the result." That was my quick mantra, my prayer, I just want, I want peace and I want power because cause that can be trusted. And so, um, that's the meaning of the making, um, mystery has been talking to me in dreams profoundly. So, and I guess there's, there's a part of my heart. That's honestly missing, sounds crazy missing the darkness and missing being out there. And just knowing that every year I will be doing this from now on, because talk about the ultimate spiritual check-in, we'll talk about the ultimate check-in for who you are.   Josh Trent (33:07): I think as far as support, I could use support in sharing the podcast, you know. If these messages align and when one of the things is having shorter episodes, like five, 10, 15 minute episodes that are easier for people to listen to that don't take an hour of people's time and still delivering potent medicine in that short time. So I can request support on that. My experience of the Vision Quest woven has woven its way into my day-to-day life. Um, it's been really strong in my connection to nature and just loving where I live. It could definitely be stronger in the fact where I had this vision of like taking my son out, you know, those baby carriers, I think they're called like baby bjorn or something. So taking my son out and I had this vision of having a guide, teach us how to live from the land, like, you know, which plants are safe and which plants are not. And here's how you do the fire like Jesse did, and just really want wanting that here. So trying to find someone here in Austin, where we can learn about how to live off the land, you know, how to survive basically.   Josh Trent (34:18): So that's it, I'm feeling all the things you guys I'm feeling all the emotions that are in the dark bucket and I'm feeling all the emotions that are in the delight bucket too. And just kind of like, whoa, it's been, it's been intense. Um, I've been living to my commitments and I haven't, I haven't felt the call to have the conversation of healing with my father yet because the father in me is like, it's not time. It's not time. So what's beautiful is that I did the healing with him up there on the hill. And so I don't, I don't need to run to go here with my father cause I've already healed that. Like there's a part of me. That's already touched the compassion and the forgiveness that I have in him. So if that's meant to be in the future, it will be. A ho.         Build Immunity. Breathe Deeply. ​ ​ A simple, powerful 21 minute morning system designed to give you more energy to let go of old weight and live life well. 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"I do some of my best thinking when I'm on my long runs. Today, we've talked a lot about my recovery and my sobriety. Running is one of the greatest tools I've been given because any time I can go reset the mind. People in my life know that. They'll say, 'Dude, go for a run. Let's talk after.' Because it's such a release for me." Some of you might be familiar with Zac Clark since he won the most recent season of The Bachelorette and is currently engaged to Tayshia Adams. In this episode, you’ll learn a lot about Zac’s come-up in New Jersey and the many struggles along the way in his life that really spiraled after he underwent surgery to remove a brain tumor and got addicted to pain medication shortly thereafter. Drinking, drugs and partying took a toll on him and his relationship at the time. There’s a lot in his life story, which was shared a bit on national TV last fall. Zac went to rehab and got his life together and now serves as the co-founder of Release Recovery, which is a 501c3 non-profit dedicated to ensuring all who are ready and willing to seek professional treatment are able to. Release Recovery’s Foundation offers scholarships to bridge the gap between what people can afford and what they need to get the resources and help that they need. Trust me. Running comes into the picture and it’s one of Zac’s biggest passions. He’s run the New York City Marathon four times. He plans on running London and New York this fall. He’s been joining me and some friends for workouts the past couple of months. We’re working on getting him faster. In response, he says we need to commit to doing one hard effort with him a year so that’s how I got roped into attempting the David Goggins Challenge with him next week. That’s four miles every four hours for 48 hours for 48 miles total. A bunch of people did it at the beginning of March. We recorded this conversation at the beginning of the month and now we’re doing it April 9-11. Keep your eyes peeled on Zac’s social media pages as well as my own for updates on how we’re doing. I know it’s not gonna be easy but I’m ready to push my limits and hopefully raise some good money along the way. If you feel inspired by Zac’s story, we’re calling on you to see if you can find 48 bucks for the 48 miles we’re gonna run or maybe 4 dollars and 80 cents. Donate here: https://releaserecoveryfoundation.org/goggins-challenge/

Jay Samit in his early 20s had just got out of college. There were no jobs and he had to take care of his two sons born at that young age.   He started his first business and was running on credit cards. A guy came to re-posses his car, and Jay's response was, 'Dude! Do I look like a flight risk? Have some compassion.’   Having learned to think skillfully, Jay went on to become a dynamic entrepreneur widely recognized as one of the world’s leading experts on disruption and innovation. He raised hundreds of millions of dollars for startups, advises Fortune 500 firms, transformed entire industries, revamped government institutions, and for three decades continues to be at the forefront of global trends.   Jay is now working not to make money, but He is on a mission to help and serve people. He is helping entrepreneurs create jobs.   About Jay Samit   Jay is a leading Hollywood digital media technology titan. Jay built the first million-member social network for Universal, and has led the creation of over 300 consumer software titles while developing technology for Microsoft, Apple, Intel and IBM. Jay led the White House’s initiative for Education and Technology, and has created global charitable projects aired on NBC and MTV.   He has proved to be a forecaster in financial analysis, project management, and strategic planning and helped global companies like: McDonald's, Coca Cola, Liberty Global, BBC, United Airlines, Microsoft, Ford, GM, and Best Buy just to name a few.   Guest Links:   http://jaysamit.com https://twitter.com/jaysamit https://www.facebook.com/jay.samit/ https://www.linkedin.com/in/jaysamit/   Insights from the Episode   The purpose of life is to live a life of purpose   With a growth mindset, you realize that obstacles are just opportunities in disguise and you move from there   You only need two things to be successful in life: insight and perseverance   There are opportunities-- the nuggets that are out there, that no one's bothering to pick up   If you can take perseverance and transform it into passion, that passion will cover you through the rough spots, it'll move you forward   Don't fly solo, you will need a series of mentors, no one got there on their own   There is no such thing as a self-made man or woman   You have to discover what your superpower is: we all have something that makes us unique and if we can lean into that, we'll get further in business   Most of the successful people that you know, their first businesses were failures   When you fail, you don't end up where you start. You either earn or you learn but either way you're further along the path   Entrepreneurs don't sell things, they solve problems   Disruption isn't about what happens to you, it's about how you respond   If you're broke it's not your fault, but if you stay broke it's your fault   When you don't have money, you learn how to do things without money   You got to stress yourself beyond belief   Whenever you're thinking of giving up and you think like the dream is too far away, you pause and look over your shoulder how far you've climbed and you amaze yourself   The harder you work the luckier you'll get   I like to go where there's no competition; it's the same amount of work and you got nobody working against you; and when it gets crowded there's always something new, the world is constantly changing   In business, the first person you will educate is not the customer, it's your competition   Go and start a business with who's going to acquire it in mind   Even if you just have a job, even if you're just doing gig work; there's a better way to structure it than you pay me this and I'll do that   Today's customers want to buy from companies that share their values   The competition is spending hundreds of millions of dollars; you got to find every which way you can to get noticed   It's amazing that, you can come up with that half idea and watch people take it further than your imagination and refine it and make it grow into something   The fun is to do something nobody's done before, anybody else would have done it better, but you will be lucky enough to do it first

Join the Episode after party on Discord! Link: https://discord.gg/ZzJSrGP UFO sighting: Shiny metallic 'alien craft' filmed over German city - ‘I was STUNNED' Link: https://www.express.co.uk/news/weird/1334208/ufo-sighting-shiny-metal-alien-craft-video-Rukersdorf-germany UFO enthusiasts are excitedly analysing what they consider evidence of an alien craft flying above Germany. Amateur video purportedly shot this week has emerged, which supposedly shows a UFO. The poor-quality footage shows a suspicious speck apparently flying in the far distance. But UFO conspiracy theorists quickly took to the internet to suggest the anomaly is, in fact, alien in origin. UFO hunter Scott Waring believes the unidentified flying object has all the hallmarks of having a classic disk-shape. He wrote on his blog UFO Sightings Daily: “This amazing catch was made in the city of Rukersdorf, Germany yesterday [September 9]. “The person caught sight of a metallic object in the sky and captured a pretty good video of the object. “The UFO is rotating slowly and we see it from different angles because it's slightly tilted and reflecting light off its shiny surface. “It almost looks like a disk, but the bottom of the craft is not round but more like a four-sided pyramid on its bottom. “Wow, to see a craft this close and in broad daylight is very bold of any alien craft.” Then, somewhat bizarrely, Mr Waring expounds on his theory, with a highly controversial explanation for the alleged UFO sighting. He said: “Maybe it came so close due to lockdowns caused by COVID-19. Japan defense chief instructs SDF what to do on UFO sightings Link: https://english.kyodonews.net/news/2020/09/f15a6d3ede73-japan-defense-chief-instructs-sdf-what-to-do-on-ufo-sightings.html Japanese Defense Minister Taro Kono on Monday instructed the Self-Defense Forces what to do if they sight unidentified aerial objects that could potentially pose a threat to national security. Kono asked SDF members, who are in charge of protecting Japan's airspace, to record on camera any such phenomenon they may detect and to analyze it as much as possible. Kono has said in the past, "Frankly speaking, I don't believe in UFOs." His instruction, which also calls for analyses on receiving such information from the public, came after his meeting with U.S. Defense Secretary Mark Esper in Guam late last month, during which the issue was brought up as a potential new area of Japan-U.S. security cooperation. So far, there have been no known cases of SDF members encountering UFOs, according to the Defense Ministry. In early August, the U.S. Department of Defense announced the establishment of an Unidentified Aerial Phenomena Task Force. The creation of the unit came after the Pentagon authorized in April the release of three videos capturing "unidentified aerial phenomena" that had already been circulating among the public. Following the release of the clips, Kono suggested he would also come up with procedures for the SDF when detecting such aerial objects. The procedures were formulated also in consideration that the SDF may encounter unconventional aircraft on the back of advancing drone technology, according to the ministry. Fighter pilot says UFO he chased in 2004 committed 'act of war' Link: https://www.fox5ny.com/news/fighter-pilot-says-ufo-he-chased-in-2004-committed-act-of-war A former U.S. Navy fighter pilot spoke this month about what he says was an encounter with a “Tic Tac”-shaped UFO and believes the flying object committed an “act of war.” Retired Cmdr. David Fravor recalled the strange encounter off San Diego 16 years ago in a Sept. 8 podcast with MIT research scientist Lex Fridman. Fravor says he was dispatched to investigate radar anomalies and later described what he saw as "like nothing I've ever seen" – a Tic Tac-shaped object able to turn on a dime and make itself invisible to radar, New Zealand's TV Channel 3 reported. He was followed by other pilots who managed to catch it on video. Clips were leaked in 2017 by a UFO research group founded by punk singer Tom DeLonge of Blink 182, and formally declassified in 2020 by the Pentagon, according to the station. "This is not like, 'we saw it and it was gone', or 'I saw lights in the sky and it's gone' – we watched this thing on a crystal clear day with four trained observers," Fravor said. He said he tried to get close to it, but as he did so it accelerated so quickly, it was gone in half a second, according to Channel 3. "I remember telling the guy in my back seat, 'Dude, I dunno about you but I'm pretty weirded out,'" Fravor said, according to the station. Once he landed, Fravor mentioned the object to another pilot, Chad Underwood, the station reported. Underwood found the UFO, aimed his radar at it – and got jammed. “He's telling the radar, 'Stare down the line of sight, whatever is there I want you to grab it and build a trace file on it,' which will tell you where it is, how fast it is and the direction that it's going," Fravor told Fridman, according to the station. "When you actively jam another platform, that's technically an act of war," Fravor told Fridman. Fridman called Fravor "one of the most credible witnesses" in the history of UFO research. Show Stuff Join the episode after party on Discord! Link: https://discord.gg/ZzJSrGP The Dark Horde Podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/show/the-dark-horde The Dark Horde, LLC – http://www.thedarkhorde.com Twitter @DarkHorde or https://twitter.com/HordeDark Support the podcast and shop @ http://shopthedarkhorde.com UBR Truth Seekers Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/216706068856746 UFO Buster Radio: https://www.facebook.com/UFOBusterRadio YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCggl8-aPBDo7wXJQ43TiluA To contact Manny: manny@ufobusterradio.com, or on Twitter @ufobusterradio Call the show anytime at (972) 290-1329 and leave us a message with your point of view, UFO sighting, and ghostly experiences or join the discussion on www.ufobusterradio.com Mail can be sent to: UFO Buster Radio Network PO BOX 769905 San Antonio TX 78245 For Skype Users: bosscrawler

Join the Episode after party on Discord! Link: https://discord.gg/ZzJSrGP UFO sighting: Shiny metallic 'alien craft' filmed over German city - ‘I was STUNNED' Link: https://www.express.co.uk/news/weird/1334208/ufo-sighting-shiny-metal-alien-craft-video-Rukersdorf-germany UFO enthusiasts are excitedly analysing what they consider evidence of an alien craft flying above Germany. Amateur video purportedly shot this week has emerged, which supposedly shows a UFO. The poor-quality footage shows a suspicious speck apparently flying in the far distance. But UFO conspiracy theorists quickly took to the internet to suggest the anomaly is, in fact, alien in origin. UFO hunter Scott Waring believes the unidentified flying object has all the hallmarks of having a classic disk-shape. He wrote on his blog UFO Sightings Daily: “This amazing catch was made in the city of Rukersdorf, Germany yesterday [September 9]. “The person caught sight of a metallic object in the sky and captured a pretty good video of the object. “The UFO is rotating slowly and we see it from different angles because it's slightly tilted and reflecting light off its shiny surface. “It almost looks like a disk, but the bottom of the craft is not round but more like a four-sided pyramid on its bottom. “Wow, to see a craft this close and in broad daylight is very bold of any alien craft.” Then, somewhat bizarrely, Mr Waring expounds on his theory, with a highly controversial explanation for the alleged UFO sighting. He said: “Maybe it came so close due to lockdowns caused by COVID-19. Japan defense chief instructs SDF what to do on UFO sightings Link: https://english.kyodonews.net/news/2020/09/f15a6d3ede73-japan-defense-chief-instructs-sdf-what-to-do-on-ufo-sightings.html Japanese Defense Minister Taro Kono on Monday instructed the Self-Defense Forces what to do if they sight unidentified aerial objects that could potentially pose a threat to national security. Kono asked SDF members, who are in charge of protecting Japan's airspace, to record on camera any such phenomenon they may detect and to analyze it as much as possible. Kono has said in the past, "Frankly speaking, I don't believe in UFOs." His instruction, which also calls for analyses on receiving such information from the public, came after his meeting with U.S. Defense Secretary Mark Esper in Guam late last month, during which the issue was brought up as a potential new area of Japan-U.S. security cooperation. So far, there have been no known cases of SDF members encountering UFOs, according to the Defense Ministry. In early August, the U.S. Department of Defense announced the establishment of an Unidentified Aerial Phenomena Task Force. The creation of the unit came after the Pentagon authorized in April the release of three videos capturing "unidentified aerial phenomena" that had already been circulating among the public. Following the release of the clips, Kono suggested he would also come up with procedures for the SDF when detecting such aerial objects. The procedures were formulated also in consideration that the SDF may encounter unconventional aircraft on the back of advancing drone technology, according to the ministry. Fighter pilot says UFO he chased in 2004 committed 'act of war' Link: https://www.fox5ny.com/news/fighter-pilot-says-ufo-he-chased-in-2004-committed-act-of-war A former U.S. Navy fighter pilot spoke this month about what he says was an encounter with a “Tic Tac”-shaped UFO and believes the flying object committed an “act of war.” Retired Cmdr. David Fravor recalled the strange encounter off San Diego 16 years ago in a Sept. 8 podcast with MIT research scientist Lex Fridman. Fravor says he was dispatched to investigate radar anomalies and later described what he saw as "like nothing I've ever seen" – a Tic Tac-shaped object able to turn on a dime and make itself invisible to radar, New Zealand's TV Channel 3 reported. He was followed by other pilots who managed to catch it on video. Clips were leaked in 2017 by a UFO research group founded by punk singer Tom DeLonge of Blink 182, and formally declassified in 2020 by the Pentagon, according to the station. "This is not like, 'we saw it and it was gone', or 'I saw lights in the sky and it's gone' – we watched this thing on a crystal clear day with four trained observers," Fravor said. He said he tried to get close to it, but as he did so it accelerated so quickly, it was gone in half a second, according to Channel 3. "I remember telling the guy in my back seat, 'Dude, I dunno about you but I'm pretty weirded out,'" Fravor said, according to the station. Once he landed, Fravor mentioned the object to another pilot, Chad Underwood, the station reported. Underwood found the UFO, aimed his radar at it – and got jammed. “He's telling the radar, 'Stare down the line of sight, whatever is there I want you to grab it and build a trace file on it,' which will tell you where it is, how fast it is and the direction that it's going," Fravor told Fridman, according to the station. "When you actively jam another platform, that's technically an act of war," Fravor told Fridman. Fridman called Fravor "one of the most credible witnesses" in the history of UFO research. Show Stuff Join the episode after party on Discord! Link: https://discord.gg/ZzJSrGP The Dark Horde Podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/show/the-dark-horde The Dark Horde, LLC – http://www.thedarkhorde.com Twitter @DarkHorde or https://twitter.com/HordeDark Support the podcast and shop @ http://shopthedarkhorde.com UBR Truth Seekers Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/216706068856746 UFO Buster Radio: https://www.facebook.com/UFOBusterRadio YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCggl8-aPBDo7wXJQ43TiluA To contact Manny: manny@ufobusterradio.com, or on Twitter @ufobusterradio Call the show anytime at (972) 290-1329 and leave us a message with your point of view, UFO sighting, and ghostly experiences or join the discussion on www.ufobusterradio.com Mail can be sent to: UFO Buster Radio Network PO BOX 769905 San Antonio TX 78245 For Skype Users: bosscrawler

Back in December 2019, we set #WriterGoals for 2020.We had no idea. This week, we go back in and revisit—which goals still stand? Which do we have to let go, and which just don’t feel right any more? Was there any point in setting these goals in the first place?In the end, we decide (not very cheerfully, it has to be admitted) that while our goals are necessarily changing, they’re always worth setting and revisiting. We’ll all be settling down to think differently about what we hope for in what’s left of 2020. Are you revising your 2020 goals, or sticking to plan A? Head over to the #AmWriting Facebook group and tell us about it.#AmReadingKJ: Undercover Bromance by Lyssa Kay AdamsThe Body in the Garden by Katharine SchellmanSarina: The Southern Book Club’s Guide to Slaying Vampires by Grady HendrixJess: Audible Original: David Sedaris, Themes and VariationsRat by Stephen King (found in the If It Bleeds novella collection)Hey—now is a great time to check out our sponsor, Author Accelerator, where you can launch a career as a book coach or get paired with the right coach to get your project moving. And if you’d like to support the creation of #AmWriting, we’d appreciate your help! Supporters get weekly Minisodes or Writer Top Fives—and our undying gratitude. Want in? Click the button. KJ (00:01):Hey everyone. KJ. Here we are talking writer goals again this week. It's our midyear review - pandemic style. If you're setting your own goals for the rest of 2020 our sponsor Author Accelerator can help you start a new side gig as a book coach or match you with a coach who can help you work through challenges both on the page and in the calendar for getting your current project done. Find out more at authoraccelerator.com/amwriting. Is It recording?Jess (00:33):Now it's recording. Go ahead.KJ (00:35):This is the part where I stare blankly at the microphone like I don't remember what I was supposed to be doing.Jess (00:39):Alright, let's start over.KJ (00:40):Awkward pause. I'm going to rustle some papers. Okay. Now one, two, three. Hey, I'm KJ Dell'Antonia and this is #AmWriting. #AmWriting is the podcast about writing all the things, short things, long things, fiction, nonfiction, essays, pitches, proposals, and as we say every week, this is the podcast about sitting down and getting your work done.Jess (01:11):I'm Jess Lahey. I'm the author of The Gift of Failure and a forthcoming book about preventing substance abuse in kids called The Addiction Inoculation. And you can find my writing at places like the Atlantic and the New York Times and the Washington Post.Sarina (01:25):And I'm Sarina Bowen, the author of some romance novels. My most recent USA Today bestseller was Heartland, which came out in early 2020.KJ (01:35):And I am KJ Dell'Antonia, the author of the novel, The Chicken Sisters, which is coming out in June of this year as well as How To Be a Happier Parent already long out in hardback, but coming out in paperback this summer. And actually that's still happening, which I'm pretty pleased about. And the former editor of the Motherlode blog at the New York Times where I am still a reasonably regular contributor. And that's who we are. And where we are is in our houses, which is actually where we all are. But you know, it bears mentioning on this the 9th of May, 2020. Yeah.Jess (02:15):Which contributes to our topic today. You want to tell everybody what we want to talk about today?KJ (02:22):Oh sure. So we're gonna revisit our goals. Every year around this time we like to take a little mid-year review. We usually do it in June, so I guess we're doing it a touch early, but it has occurred to us that perhaps some of our goals are not going to be the same for the rest of the year. So it seemed like it was a good time to sit down and take a look at what we thought we were going to achieve, what we have achieved and what we're still hoping to achieve. So we've all got them lined up right here in front of us and away we go.Jess (02:56):Who wants to go first?Sarina (02:57):I would love to open.Jess (03:00):Oh, please do.Sarina (03:02):Well, you know, we all are fans of Dan Blank who has been a guest on this podcast and also has his own terrific podcast as well. And Dan Blank's podcast is called The Creative Shift. So he sends out a weekly newsletter that is pure gold and you should subscribe.KJ (03:26):It really is, it's one of the best ones I know of.Sarina (03:29):So, two Fridays ago, he sent one out that began with sharing a New Yorker cartoon that really speaks to what it's like to be a writer right now. And it's a picture of a guy in a rowboat in the middle of a choppy body of water. And you can see there's a shark, and there's a ship sinking behind him, and there's lightning, and it's raining. And the caption says, 'This is it - the time to finish your novel.' And I love it desperately because, you know, remember back in March when we were all like, Hey, what are we going to accomplish while we're stuck at home? Or how about when the three of us (and I'm so happy we did this, I wouldn't change a thing), but we sat and recorded an episode in December right before our office party where we go out together for lunch and we very cheerfully made a list of goals for 2020. Not having any clue that 2020 would shape up to be quite unlike most of the other years that we've sat around planning things together. So I think we should revisit those goals and see what is capable on here. And what have we learned about goal making from our lists.Jess (04:54):I was going to say the first thing I've learned is to be flexible, and to shift, and to adjust to your surroundings. Cause clearly that's the theme of the day. Alright. So what'd you have on there, Ms. Sarina?Sarina (05:10):Well, you know, many of my goals could really stand up in terms of getting the same things done. Especially where I had goals about helping other people, and helping other authors, and helping other women. And those things are all still true and I've been trying to do more of that. But of course I had some goals about like how much I was going to accomplish in terms of writing. And, you know, I'm not teaching anybody to read right now because my kids are old enough to handle this stuff by themselves. But, I didn't count account for my own potential anxiety and the difficulties of making career decisions when the whole world seems to be shifting. So goal I'm having the most trouble with is the one where I was writing an entire book to give to my agent to sell in a new genre for me and that suddenly feels insurmountable even though my work day could look the same because I don't know if that part of publishing is going to be there for me when I'm done. And that's like a mental obstacle to doing that.Jess (06:19):You mean the YA genre?Sarina (06:21):Yeah. Well, you know, unfortunately I have a lot of knowledge of economics and I'm watching businesses fail around me. And I have like a mental block about writing into a publishing world that might not exist when I'm done.Jess (06:42):Yeah, I hear that. Absolutely.KJ (06:47):I am still plowing through, my top number one goal was to finish a book that has now got a different title than it had in my list of goals, but that is fine. Who knows what the title is going to be, but that was my top number one goal was to finish it, and then hopefully get it out, and pitch it to editors. And that is still my top goal despite the obvious changes in the publishing market. I'm not struggling with that as much, but it's probably because I don't have the alternative that you have. Like you could put your time into stuff that you can independently publish and you know you will be there, and readers will be there, and digital book sales will be there. So, it's different, you've got a different choice there.Sarina (07:42):I was just going to say that the fact that most of my publishing is digital is such a blessing and I just don't discount it at all. And also my fear about that other project is not entirely rational, but part of me is in that rowboat with the guy in the thunder storm. And I'm not sure what to do about that. Like how to disembark.Jess (08:09):Well, it was interesting, someone asked a question in the #AmWriting Facebook group this week about this question and said, 'You know, what's everyone doing? Like are we pitching? Are we querying? Are agents picking up new clients? And are people buying books?' And so I went ahead and asked our agent and I said, 'I don't have to quote you or anything.' And she said, 'Hell yes, people are buying.' She said, she's had a couple of auctions. She said, you can totally quote me that people are buying, people are looking, that things are still chugging along in book sale world. I think a lot of people are scared about releasing right now, which is a really scary, new world sort of situation. But people are still buying books. People are still picking up new writers. So there was that sort of gut check of, Oh, there is some normalcy happening out there and our agent is not the kind of person to be you know, to be blindly optimistic. She's the kind of person to give it to you like it is.KJ (09:18):Yeah. Or even worse than it is. My fiction agent says the same thing and my editor says she's acquiring. So people are acquiring of course, whether they're like whistling Dixie and a thunderstorm is another question. But, they're trying, everybody wants to keep going. And I would like to have a book to sell them. I would very much like to have a book to sell them. What I am finding is that the speed at which I can complete this is totally different than it used to be. Even when I'm sitting down to work, I can't work as fast. Both because I think my focus is off and because my house is full of people. People everywhere, everywhere I look, there's another person and they eat. They just won't stop eating.Jess (10:25):Yeah. I'm the place of, Oh my gosh, dinner really does happen every single day. Like everyone's on their own for breakfast and lunch. But that dinner thing, that's our sort of reconnect with each other. We're still doing dinner. Dinner is important to us. And because I have big eaters, they tend to start asking at like 4:45. I'll get these texts. So what's the thought for dinner? So dinner happens every day, shockingly. And that's actually been, if anything, a positive for our family. So having something, you know, to eat evening and sit down and even if it's just like last night I threw together a soup. It's been a good thing, but it is shocking to me how much they can eat. But on the other hand, like our grocery bills are freaking me out. But on the other hand we are not eating out at all. So we don't even do takeout. But KJ, did you finish? Can I start talking about mine? Because mine go in a weird direction.KJ (11:26):Well I didn't. I mean, the goal of finishing that book is the only one that stays the same. I have essay goals on here and I am just not feeling the essays right now cause it feels like the only essays I can write would be about this. And I don't want to write about this. I really don't. I know a lot of people do, but I really, really, really, really, really don't. So you know, I had humor on here. I wanted to do some of that. Does it have to be covid humor? I don't know. So there's that. My promotion goals around The Chicken Sisters, the ones that are on here are still the same because... Podcast goals. Yeah. Well the shift is in how, but I didn't really write how into my goals.Jess (12:20):No, I mean the real fact for you is that some of the things that you were counting on, some of them in there are not happening.KJ (12:28):So, no, but it's not like everybody else is out there hawking their books face to face and I'm not, so I am not as bothered by that as as I might be. You know, the advantage to it (as an introvert who's not super into travel) I really wanted to do these things, but not doing them is okay too. In some ways.Jess (12:57):Can I just offer another silver lining to this though, is that it's unbelievable to me how generous other writers are being with each other right now. I know you and I have both bought a bunch of books that we may or may not ever read just because we're supporting our fellow authors out there. And I think it's a fantastic thing. And I mentioned in another podcast that I'm a new devotee of this long form podcast and on that they're talking to a lot of writers right now who are trying to release books during this and they're talking about the generosity of other authors. So that's been really lovely to see. So hopefully some of that will kick in for you too, KJ.KJ (13:37):I think it will. I feel pretty good and I'm having a really good time. One thing I'm having a good time with is that when this all started someone mentioned to me that the warehouse might not be able to send out advanced copies anymore. And I went, 'Oh, so wait, they're just sitting there? So would they just put them in a box and send them to me?' So they did. I basically have all the remaining advanced reader copies. And so I'm sending the Good Reads giveaway winner copies and I'm sending all the bookstagrammers and I ultimately spent a lot of time sort of going, which would be the very best bookstagrammers. And last week I was just like, you know, I'm just going to send these to the bookstagrammers that I follow and that follow me and that are sort of in my universe and that'll be happy and excited to get it. And I've been doing that and it feels really fun. So that's entertaining.Jess (14:40):That's a very cool thing. Plus, you know, there's the whole decorating of them. But Sarina, you had something you wanted to mention to KJ.Sarina (14:46):I did because when she was talking about essays, it made me realize that how much of the news I'm reading is all focused on the same thing. So that means that relevancy is suddenly like a little bit of a wrench in our goals because you could still write essays, you still have the time, and you still have the voice, but the relevancy of the things that you were probably going to work on is just gone. And I'm struggling with some relevancy, too. It takes a whole lot of optimism to write romance and you know, I'm a little bit stuck on that. And even just literally, I looked at the epilogue of one of my hockey books and I had my team winning the cup in June of 2020 and guess what? There isn't even going to be a cup in June of 2020 and it never occurred to me. Like I try not to paint myself into a corner. I do it all the time anyway, but it never in my wildest dreams occurred to me that there would not be a champion.Jess (15:53):It takes an extra layer of imagination, too. I mean, you're already constructing new worlds for your books and now suddenly you're having to like construct a whole world for your own world so that you can construct those. I mean, you have to have a certain level of optimism. You have to have a certain level of ability to envision a world in which your characters are not going through this, not touching each other thing. And I mean, look at that. You are trying to write about people who are so much touching each other in a world where no one's allowed to touch each other. I mean, it's a really weird thing.Sarina (16:25):It is. And I saw a really funny tweet from a narrator who was doing a book and he, without naming the book said, 'You know, this book really confused me. I was telling my friend because it not a lot happens. There's not a lot of conflict. They go to Ikea and buy some furniture and I was just waiting for the conflict.' And the friend said to this narrator, 'Dude, what you just described is like science fiction at this point.'Jess (16:56):That's true. That's absolutely true. Yeah. Alright, well I wanted to talk about the fact that so I actually did finish the edits on my manuscript. That was my number one goal, finish the edits on the manuscript and you know, it wasn't anything like Gift of Failure but there was still some heavy lifting to do. And I got them done. I'm looking at the date actually I got them done well before the date that I was hoping to get them done by. And the reason I wanted to get them done by that date was that I wanted to have a new proposal or at least the shortened version to show my agent cause she has no idea still what I'm thinking about. And I wanted to have that to her by April 15th and of course that was smack in the middle of just trying to wrap my head around all of this stuff. And you know, for me also personally, it's been anxiety provoking. Like I can sit here in my house, in the woods. I was telling my husband, this is a really weird paradoxical thing. I don't go out very often, obviously, but when I do go out, I get pretty depressed because here in my home I can ignore it and I can kind of forget about it for short periods of time. But going out in the world has been just scary and weird and anyway, so the worst of this stuff has come right at a time when I was hoping to get a new proposal done. And so what I've decided to do is give myself a break and I'm doing a lot of my research through audio. And while I'm listening, I keep a notebook near me, but I am outside. Because for the first time since I started a speaking career that runs on an academic schedule, I've never been home in time to get really good gardens ready for the growing season. And I definitely never got gardens in my new house. And I've always felt a little adrift without my gardens. So I've been giving myself a big fat break. And I leave the house as soon as I'm done with my stuff in the morning and I go outside and I don't come in until I have to get that infernal daily dinner thing going again. I walk in at the end of the day and I look at my husband and I say, 'I am just so happy outside.' And the other thing was because of all this anxiety, I wasn't sleeping very well and just exhausting myself during the day outside, and just being sore, and tired, and drained has been much better for my sleep. So I'm giving myself a big fat break right now, in terms of the writing part. Definitely still researching, loving listening to all the audio, but giving myself a big fat break, thinking of it as a little vacation has been really important to me. And I have gardens now. I have the bare bones gardens down and it makes me so happy and I finally feel like this house is mine again. You know, it finally is a place where I live. And and that's been fantastic. So yeah. And then the rest of my goals were things like, so finish the edits, got those done on time, finish the new proposal, totally didn't happen on time. But that was my own internal schedule and that's okay. And then back with you on the essay thing, cause I had complete five essays for collection by the end of the year. I've definitely thought about them. And for me that's a big thing cause I do a lot of the thinking, the writing internally first, and then I just of get it down. But yeah, I'm not writing about covid and these essays are about things that are so unrelated to that. And so it's just been close to impossible to get that essay writing done. But I'm feeling better now and I feel like that's going to come back online really soon. Our friend Mary Laura Philpott has sold a new essay collection and I happen to know that she's trying to get down to work on that. And so, I'm sort of mentally trying to partner with Mary Laura and be thinking about those essays. Spanish was a big one and I haven't done that. I just absolutely 100% failed at that. We had some goals around Spanish that were going to culminate with some big Spanish speaking for a trip that got canceled. Well and now my thoughts have shifted also to things like I'm starting to freak out about some of the spring speaking events. You know, a big source of my anxiety around an inability to stay focused for a few minutes at a time has to do with money stuff because my non-writing income went poof. And that's the majority of my income. So that's been challenging. And my husband works for a hospital that just announced that all of the top level people will all take pay cuts. And so my husband's taking a pay cut in the midst of this as well. And then if anyone's been following my social media, they know we just spent the equivalent of a small used car on our dog who almost died. So that's a stressful thing, too. And yet we're so fortunate, I'm not scared about paying our rent, but I am just anxious. If I had to rewrite my goals now, it would be do more of what's making me feel really good right now. And that's making me feel really good right now.KJ (22:42):Well that's a good question. Are we going to rewrite our goals? I think it might be worth sitting down and doing. Because one of the other reason that some of this stuff happened - I've got some goals here around the podcast, and the email list, and marketing with other podcasts. There's no reason I can't do those things other than that I've got about three hours of brain power in me every day and I use it up on writing the book and then I just have so much less steam than I used to have. I don't know. I guess it's the anxiety, I guess it's that. But you know, I used to be able to sort of write in the morning and then go back to do all the other stuff in the afternoon. And it's also all the household stuff. It's all this stuff, all this stuff. And some of these are just like we were saying, I just don't necessarily want to focus on that as much anymore.Jess (23:37):Okay, well then put a line through it. I'm putting a line through the Spanish one. I'm letting myself off the hook for that. You know what, I was just looking at number five, which was one email a month for my email list. And my email list has gone up a lot this year because of some high visibility podcasting I've done. But I'm really glad we're doing this today because that is a good kick in the pants for me. But you know what I've done that's been also really wonderful. I think I'm just missing teaching so much that I've been doing this thing on Twitter where I teach about rhetorical devices and I do a long thread and you could see the smile on my face while I'm doing them. It makes me so happy. I'm like pulling all these books off the shelves and it's teaching and I'm having so much fun. So I'm going to keep doing that. And you know, doing more of that I think would be really super fun for me. So I may even stick that in instead.KJ (24:37):That is so funny because I said one of the things we could talk about today is changing our approach to social media. And you said, 'Oh, I didn't change anything.' I was like, 'Yes, you did.' That's what I was thinking of. You know, we're filling in some gaps of things that we used to do in real life with social media. And I feel like that is one for you. And if you could or wanted a new teaching job, you certainly couldn't get it now. So you have found that. I've been connecting a lot more on Instagram. I've been going back into Twitter, which I had been out of for literally years. Trying to find ways to use Facebook that don't involve getting sucked in. And actually I'm on Instagram way too much. I need to stop. But also feeling like it really is providing a connection and a place to talk about books and things that are important to me. Like these are the conversations I might normally be having, like at a hockey game or in line at the grocery store or at the bookstore over coffee or whatever. And now they're taking place online in different ways. So that was what I was thinking of, but I was also thinking about you. How about you, Sarina, have you changed your social media at all?Sarina (25:54):Well yeah, but it's not all sunny around here. I've had to take some breaks, some like multi-day breaks from social media just because it feeds my anxiety when I can see people sort of emoting about the same things that I'm worried about. I have to walk away because sometimes it just amplifies all the things I'm worried about. So I think taking some steps back has really helped me. And plus I don't want to amplify my own...I feel very brittle right now and I don't really want to be brittle on social media, so I've just had to sort of back away.Jess (26:37):It's funny you say that because now thinking back, just about every time you text that you're freaking out about something, it's because you saw something on social media that just triggered you. So I think that's fantastic.Sarina (26:47):I mean, I'm more caught up on news right now than I've ever been in my entire life, but it's not such a great thing because the reason I can't walk away from Washington Post and the New York Times is that I'm looking for someone to tell me what's going to happen. And of course they can't really do that, but that's why I keep going back. So I've had to kind of step away from that, too. Not because news is bad, but because it can't serve what I'm really searching for.Jess (27:22):Didn't you say that you were on Google for something and you realize that there was a commonly searched for question on Google, which was what's going to happen? I don't think Google can even do that.Sarina (27:42):I love to see what other people are searching on Google. And I will stop and screenshot them if they're particularly wonderful.Jess (27:52):Oh, can I tell you something really cool? At Google headquarters in California I got to speak there after Gift of Failure came out and they took me through and I got a really cool tour and one of the things they have as a staircase and on the riser for each step of the staircase are the most Googled things so you can watch in real time on the staircase as all the things that people are Googling changes. And it was really cool while I was there looking at other stuff. They also have this room you can stand in and it screens all around you like floor to ceiling screens all around you and you can enter any search term you want. It could be you, for example. So I entered Jessica Lahey to see sort of what the world sees when they look at me across all platforms. And it allows you to see like does your website match up? You know, do you have a brand that has unifying themes, blah blah blah. And it was just really interesting to see how does my website match up with what's going on on Twitter and what's going on on all these different platforms. It was really kind of cool. That was kind of fun. But I'm sorry I totally took things off the rails because you were talking about what's going to happen and no one being able to tell you that.Sarina (29:07):Yep. And they still can't so it doesn't really matter.Jess (29:09):Well what has been interesting is from, and I know you're looking a lot at a lot of this through an economic lens, cause that's who you are. But my son is studying economics and can you imagine - this is when my kid is getting his introduction to the world of economics, like this is such a weird and bizarre time and he has a summer job that is (and I don't think I'm allowed to say where it is yet because I don't think anything's been signed) but it's at the epicenter of what's going on economically. And so we've been talking about it a lot, but from a very academic perspective, which has been interesting. I guess it allows me to sort of set it over there and have a bit of a reserve around it. But I mean it's not like it's good news. It's just academic instead of about like our personal economic situation. Can I interject one tiny thing? Can you all look at your word? I have them all in front of me right now. How are you feeling about your words?Sarina (30:18):I still like my word.KJ (30:18):I hate my words.Jess (30:23):Okay. Well my word was practice and I'm actually still feeling good about that because it's a good reminder to me that it's not about having these huge breakthroughs. It's about the daily practice of either thinking about structuring, blah, blah, blah. So I'm still happy with that. Sarina, your word was, do you remember?Sarina (30:39):Abundance.Jess (30:40):How are you feeling about that?Sarina (30:41):Well, honestly, I should still tape it up into every room I walk through because the truth is it's pretty abundant around here. Ebooks are still performing. My life is fine. It's just a little more anxious than it used to be.KJ (30:59):And my word was magic and I'm not feeling very magical right now. Although honestly, I am up and down every day. I don't want to be Pollyanna about this. Nobody is happy about what is happening, but I suppose it is a little magical that my family has not killed each other in the 67 days that we have been largely cooped up together. That is kind of magical. And I was thinking that I might put some magic in a next book draft, after this one. I don't know, maybe that will happen. Yeah, magic did not turn out to be a super helpful for this time.Jess (32:11):Speaking of magical thinking and inhabiting fantasy lands that don't exist. Should we talk a little bit about what we've been reading? Alright. Sarina you want to lead off again since you went first last time?Sarina (32:24):Well, I'm reading something that KJ gave me. The Southern Book Club's Guide to Slaying Vampires by Grady Hendrix. This was a book that spotted before KJ bought it and I thought, I'm just happy that book exists. The writing is terrific. His writing game is super strong from the first paragraph of the prologue and I am intrigued.Jess (32:58):Oh, good. Cool. What about you KJ?KJ (33:01):Well, I'm reading a book, Sarina gave me. I am reading Undercover Bromance by Alyssa Kay Adams. We need to book club on this one, Sarina. We need to have a discussion, but like her previous book in this series, The Bromance Book Club. It is fun, satisfying, fast paced, and distracting. And that's about everything I ask of a book right now. And I also am reading The Body in the Garden by Catherine Schellman. This is a historical mystery and I have not read very much in the mystery genre for many, many years. And it's kind of fun to see that in a same way that historical romances have taken a real turn for having a modern way of thinking within the historical romance as opposed to trying to keep people thinking as they might have in the time. This mystery also sort of falls into that category. It has a modern attitude within a historical time and space and that makes it fun. And that's by Catherine Schellman. So again, fun, distracting, light. Just what we need.Jess (34:16):Yeah, I I have a book I want to talk about today cause there's something really interesting in it and it's not something that you guys normally read is two things. Number one for the audio listeners out there David Sedaris released an Audible original. It's not a huge deal. Don't get too excited. It's only 30 minutes long. It's called Themes and Variations, but it's essentially him just riffing about the people he talks to on book tour and the things they talk about. I think it was like $1.89 or something like that. But I got so excited when I saw it and I've already listened to it three times just because I needed a little David Sedaris back in my life. But the thing I went and listened to is I saw that there was a new Stephen King coming out and a former guest on our podcast, Ruth Franklin, wrote the review of Stephen King's new book in the New York Times and it's a wonderful review. She's such a great writer. I was like, 'Okay, well if she has a nice things to say, I'll get it.' And it's a collection of novellas and short stories and I'm not going to talk about all of them. I want to talk about just one and there's one called The Rat and I'm not going to do any spoilers here, but if you are a writer who has ever felt blocked in your writing, this story is a truly delightful, dark, dastardly view into the writer's head when they're trying to wrestle with their demons and why they can't get the words on the page.Speaker 3 (36:26):And I was working out in the woods while I was listening to it and there was a giant smile on my face. I was cackling. I'm like, this is so mean. And it's similar to when he channels the writer in Misery, when anytime he's ever talked about sort of what it's like for him to write and to go through that trap door into his basement. And all of that good stuff is in there. All of that stuff from On Writing that we love so much about his reading, about his process that's all in there, channeled through this writer in this story called The Rat. And it's delightful. It really truly is. It would be worth getting the book if you can afford to do it. It would be worth getting the book just to listen to this story really quick. I mean, I've also been comfort listening and I was scrolling through my Audible books that I've been listening to and they've all been books about sort of overcoming hardship. I realized I relistened to Jenny Finney Boylan's She's Not There. And I relistened to Diana Niad's Find a Way, which is about swimming from Florida to Cuba.KJ (37:40):I think you're the only person who's still listening. Audio has just dropped cause nobody's in their cars, nobody is commuting.Jess (39:02):I'm glad we did this cause I actually feel refocused in a couple of different ways and I'm feel good about drawing a line through one of my goals and just saying nope. By the way, go check out the #AmWriting Facebook group if you want some interesting reading about how other writers are handling this time, because that's what really most of the conversation is about right now. Like, how do you handle stuff? Are people still pitching here? What do you think about this? It's a really reassuring and supportive place to be, but until next time, everyone keep your button, the chair and your head in the game. This episode of #AmWriting with Jess and KJ was produced by Andrew Parilla. Our music, aptly titled unemployed Monday was written and performed by Max Cohen. Andrew and Max were paid for their services because everyone, even creatives should be paid. This is a public episode. 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Hi everyone! One of the commitments for One Movie Punch in Year Three is to feature more microbudget and independent features. We’ve started to receive screeners from a variety of small independent distributors, featuring a wide variety of films. Every Wednesday, we hope to feature an independent and/or microbudget feature, with up to two interviews per month with the filmmakers when schedules allow. Today’s review will cover Irish filmmaker Robbie Walsh’s EDEN, a microbudget drama looking at homelessness in Dublin after a recent economic crash. And it doesn’t get more microbudget than this film, made for just around 600 Euro in 2012, although not completed until 2016. I was lucky enough to sit down and speak with Robbie about the film, along with his film career and his brief MMA career. The full interview will be available at our Patreon page this Sunday, but you’ll hear snippets of the interview throughout today’s review. We’ll also be playing the full trailer audio for EDEN beforehand. Subscribe to stay current with the latest releases. Contribute at Patreon for exclusive content. Connect with us over social media to continue the conversation. Here we go! ///// > ///// Today’s movie is EDEN, the Irish microbudget drama written and directed by Robbie Walsh. Set against the dire homelessness crisis in Dublin, Ireland, EDEN follows a day in the life of Adam (Johnny Elliott), a homeless man living his life to the best of his ability. Throughout the day, he encounters a variety of Dubliners, struggling with their own problems, and a few willing to help him with his. No spoilers. I always get a little nervous when filmmakers tackle homelessness. I think the first film I saw that tackled homelessness was John Hughes’ last film, 1991’s CURLY SUE, where Bill Dancer (Jim Belushi) and his companion Curly Sue (Alisan Porter) pull scams to make enough to eat and conning a divorce lawyer into a heartwarming conclusion. The second instance was seeing another Hughes screenplay, 1991’s DUTCH, when Dutch (Ed O’Neill) must transport his girlfriend’s son Doyle (a very young Ethan Embry), and after losing their car, spend a night in a homeless shelter. The overall messaging in both films was positive, but making a comedy out of child homelessness and including a scene of a rich kid slumming it in a shelter cannot help but feel privileged. The same privilege sparked a more complex debate over 2014’s TIME OUT OF MIND, where Richard Gere played a homeless man on the streets of New York, including some method preparation by hanging out on the street. While this kind of effort also feels privileged, because Gere knows at any time he can just catch a cab home, it was also for a drama, which at least gets us moving in the right direction. I’ve seen a new wave of films about homelessness that have gotten better at capturing the real plight, at least in the United States. 2016’s CARDBOARD BOXER saw Thomas Haden Church play a homeless man exploited by rich kids to participate in the atrocious phenomenon known as bum fights. It is a very difficult watch, and has its rough moments, but tackles way more than the tantalizing subject matter. 2018’s LEAVE NO TRACE saw the return of Debra Granik, the genius behind WINTER’S BONE, adapting a book based on the rumored lives of a father/daughter pair living completely off the grid in Oregon. The film not only showed a different side to homelessness, with a special focus on PTSD, but also the very real strains on families living off the grid. And now, as I’ve recently seen in Robbie Walsh’s EDEN, the situation isn’t just limited to the United States. ROBBIE: "The inspiration itself came from a few different areas. At the time, I had recently just left the military and found myself in between jobs and in between homes, essentially. And at the time, I was lucky in that I still had a lot of my military equipment, like sleeping bags and what not, and I had my car, so I had a couple of weeks, and I was too embarrassed to tell my family I didn't have a job at the time, and eventually I did and I had to come back home, which was a huge thing you find with Irish people, especially if they travel overseas. And as we were making the film, our lead actor, Johnny Elliott, fantastic actor, as we were filming, he was literally the same thing, he was between homes and a couple of the actors who would guest, small roles, and a couple of two and unders, two lines and under, you know, one of the guys was my housemate, and he moved into the house with my producer, who we were all living together. We found out he was living in a doorway in the city center in town, in Dublin, and we were like, 'Dude, what are you doing?' And he was a dear friend of my friend Philip's, and he said, 'Yo, come on, come live in the house with us.' We helped get him back on his feet. Our cameraman was in between homes. He'd just been told his rent would be going up in his apartment, and he couldn't afford it, and he was trying to find somewhere else to live. Very, very rampant. One of the girls who was living with us was struggling to pay rent to the point where she didn't have a tv or anything. There was an actress, one of the finest actresses in the country, you know, and nothing. She could barely feed her kids, like, you know? We didn't know this until we were filming, and as we were filming, they were telling, sharing the stories, and telling the stories, you know? And I was just like, 'This is going to get worse before it gets better'." If anyone is going to talk about homelessness in cinema, it should be those folks who have actually experienced homelessness. I’ve been lucky enough to have always had a roof over my head, but I’ve known a few people who’ve spent some time without a home, and the experience affects each person in similar and unique ways. EDEN’s cast and crew all have experienced some form of homelessness, and the authenticity shows in the storytelling and in the character’s portrayals. The hardest part about portraying the homeless is to not fall back on stereotypes, even if sometimes homelessness expresses itself in similar ways. ROBBIE: “and that's where I tried to do as much as possible was to show slow descent into Adam's situation with each interaction, and each person will reflect a stage of life where Adam has probably found himself, and he's chosen to go left or right. Literally through no fault of his own, it's just because work dried up and he couldn't afford to pay the rent.” Every character along Adam’s journey feels authentic, and each serves a unique purpose. Sarah Carroll plays Claire, a mother turning to sex work to make ends meet. Kelly Blaise plays a woman jumping to conclusions about Adam. Robbie Walsh himself gets in front of the camera as a taxi driver who had previously been homeless. And in Robbie’s favorite scene, Kevin O’Brien plays someone who just lost their job. ROBBIE: “My favorite scene is the one where he sits on the park bench, and the guy sits beside him. At times, because of how Kev O'Brien plays this spoiled guy, he gets sympathy, you feel sympathy one second, then he's a sleazebag the next. And the next minute, I can see where people have done that. And then you're like, 'You know what, do you deserve it or don't you?'” One of my favorite parts of speaking with the filmmakers for these special review episodes is that I get a chance to learn more about the process of how the film was made. I think films should be judged similar to how diving is judged at the Olympics; difficulty definitely plays into overall rating. I’m particularly interested in the constraints independent filmmakers are working under, and in the case of EDEN, just how much can be done with very little. ROBBIE: “I filmed it in four days, because I didn't have the money, I had like 600 Euro, which works out at the time about $800, you know. When we finished filming after three days, my editor came to me, he's like, 'Robbie, you know, we need a bit more footage. We need another scene or otherwise we don't get the feature.' I was like, 'You know what, I have this great scene wrote for something else, but I think it might work. Let me see if these two guys are available.' And they were. We went down and shot the last day with just the two of them and a skeleton crew. I say a skeleton crew, it was my crew, my entire crew of four. And we got this wonderful, lovely scene that I really, really love, you know, and that... I don't know if it resonates with me but certainly my favorite scene in the film.” I can’t think of many films that can be made for $800, at least not without a lot of sweat equity and team passion. Knowing this fact made my only concern about the film seem moot, a bit of shaky camera work in some scenes, particularly when Adam is playing with the producer’s dog, Lily. In fact, most of EDEN was shot in 2012, but finished up later on closer to 2016, when it first debuted. It has since been screened around the world, at a few festivals, and in support of the Simon Community in Dublin, which work to fight homelessness. Back to the diving analogy for a bit, this has to be one of the highest difficulties, and as such, EDEN excels well beyond its means. The flipside of talking with the filmmakers is that sometimes you learn things you weren’t quite expecting. One of my favorite aspects of EDEN was the incredible scoring and soundtrack, mostly in the form of instrumental post-rock from an Irish musician named Andrew Mann. I was really excited to find out more about it, but wasn’t quite ready for the story that followed. ROBBIE: “So I went along, and we got talking to this American girl at it, who was going out with an Irish musician, and I'd happen to mention to him that I was looking for music for a film, and his name was Andrew Mann. ROBBIE: “And he went and sent me all of these pieces on, and then when I gave them to the editor, my editor rang me and he was like, 'Look, we can use this piece here, this piece...' He was literally reading my mind. And the closing song is from a friend of mine, a really great band called Keywest. If you guys check them, if you want to check them out, they are a fantastic Irish band, and there's a little bit of music from Richard Geraghty, but Andrew Mann scored mostly the entire film.” ROBBIE: “Unfortunately, Andrew Mann passed away earlier this year. It was a very complicated situation, and it was by his own hands. It was literally two weeks or three weeks after the film had gotten its theatrical release. There was a lot of, a lot of personal... very public, very personal stuff that was really out in the world, and himself and the girl he was with a very long time, had kind of taken their own lives. I can't really talk much more about it because I don't know the intricacies of what happened, you know. Really nice guy. Fantastic musician." Suicide sucks, and that’s coming from someone who suffers from anxiety and depression and has had more than one bout of suicidal thoughts. It also happens at a higher rate among those in poverty and dealing with homelessness. Mental illness isn’t necessarily something someone has but is a situation that can be brought about by the right circumstances. In these tough economic times, it’s easy to slip into that downward spiral. For anyone out there that might be having similar thoughts, please reach out to anyone and seek professional help. On a side note before we wrap up, Robbie Walsh was also an MMA fighter, Ireland’s first MMA title holder by luck of the card. You can hear more about it in the full interview on Sunday, but what’s truly inspiring is how he leveraged that experience for filmmaking. ROBBIE: “Actually, that's how I got my money to make ACES, my short film. I had no money to make it, so I fought in a cage and got some money together and made my short film ACES. I went then to get it into Cannes, and after that, it was pretty stoked about that. It was the first short I had directed, then I went on to do some coaching in boxing. A decent MMA career but I had to hang up the gloves because I was too old, too tired, and too blind." If “filmmaker does cage fighting to fund his craft” isn’t an inspiring story, I don’t know what is. EDEN is a marvelous microbudget drama dealing with homelessness in Dublin, as seen through a day in the life of one man. Constrained by a $800 budget and a quick four day shoot, the cast and crew of EDEN manage to leverage an incredible amount of a value from a very low cost, authentically held together by great acting and an excellent score. Coming in at a tight 76 minutes, EDEN is a quick, but powerful watch recommended for anyone who advocates for the homeless, or to see how great the microbudget scene can be. Rotten Tomatoes: NR Metacritic: NR One Movie Punch: 7.5/10 EDEN (2016) is not rated and is currently playing on Amazon Prime, OPPrime TV, UK Film Channel, and on VOD.

Dan sits down with Mark Brown and Rob Tait of Hambone Relay for a conversation about DIY touring, playing 2+ hour shows, how to "jams", and the things they don't teach you in music school. They have a Philly music-centric podcast, too, called 'Dude, Check This Out!'. Hambone Relay are a Philly based instrumental organ-led combo, with strong influences from bands like Soulive and Medeski, Martin, and Wood. They have a new LP out called 'Say Hi To Earl', available on their website and anywhere you get digital music.

You're gonna love this episode, lots of relaxed chat with IM Canada Champion Heather Wurtele. Some very different topics discussed including, botany, bear watching, nomad lifestyle, Canadian history and how to react when you're referred to as 'DUDE!' Oh and we discuss a little bit of triathlon too...........

You're gonna love this episode, lots of relaxed chat with IM Canada Champion Heather Wurtele. Some very different topics discussed including, botany, bear watching, nomad lifestyle, Canadian history and how to react when you're referred to as 'DUDE!' Oh and we discuss a little bit of triathlon too...........

You've seen my Air Raid Offensive Series involving the Push Motion + the Air Raid Quick Game. You've watched my Air Raid Offensive Series detailing the Push Motion + the Air Raid Drop back Game. You marveled at how simple the Air Raid Offensive Series spelled out the Push Motion + the QB Run Game. And now you are going to be AMAZED at how we use Push Motion + the Air Raid Screen game. So sit back, grab a pencil and paper, and take in this episode of Talking Football with Coach McKie You'll learn from this episode: Why you need to use the Push Motion What's the BEST Air Raid Screen for getting your 'Dude' the ball What to look for when calling screens Why this SECOND screen is the 'Then' to the Crack Screen's 'If' Thanks for Listening! To share your thoughts: Leave a note in the comment section below. Buy My Simplified Air Raid Book Buy my Pin and Pull eBook Buy my Simplifying the Air Raid Quick Game video Get a free eBook on Air Raid Drills. Get a free eBook on The One-Back Power RPO. Follow me on Instagram. Follow me on Twitter. Subscribe to my YouTube Channel. Grab a free audiobook from Amazon. [Affilate Link]. Football Coaching Podcast Become a Ron McKie Football Member To help out the show: Leave an honest review on iTunes and Sticher. Your ratings and reviews really help and I read every single one. Subscribe to the podcast on iTunes and Sticher. Show Notes: Air Raid Push Motion Quick Game Air Raid Push Motion Drop Back Air Raid Push Motion QB Run Game

In this episode, I sit down with the owner of my “happy place,” Ruby Jean’s Juicery.  Chris Goode was a freshman in high school on the football team when his grandmother Ruby Jean passed away from complications related to Type II diabetes, an illness he attributes largely to her growing up on a diet focused on ‘soul food’. The experience of watching his grandmother, great grandmother, and other members of his family suffer from preventable disease was the spark for a passionate run toward health food later in life. For years, Chris was a Traveling Catastrophe Adjuster—a fancy term for someone who travels to disaster sites to assess damages for insurance claims, traveling constantly for work and seeking juicing to stay healthy on the road. One day, he woke up in a hotel room and couldn’t even remember what city he was in. He decided he was going to get out of the rat race somehow and started saving up every penny he could. Reflecting on his love of juicing and his grandma, it hit him what he would do:  "It was like God reached through the clouds and was like: 'Dude, open a juice bar and dedicate it to your grandma!'" Now Goode dedicates his passion for bringing healthy, nutritious, whole foods to communities in the Midwest with Ruby Jean’s Juicery. His vision for providing healthy nutrition continues to expand, with 6 new locations, including a juice truck, on his plate right now.   For more information about Ruby Jean’s menu, locations, and more, visit https://www.rubyjeansjuicery.com. For more information about Radiate Wellness, our practitioners, services, classes, and events, visit us at radiatewellnesscommunity.com, “Like” us on Facebook as Radiate Wellness, LLC; and follow us on Twitter @RadiateKC.

Jeff Dowd is here to say he's not "Mr. Lebowski", you're Mr. Lebowski. Jeff - the real life 'Dude' that inspired The Big Lebowski - gives us an inside look into his life, his waking & baking, and his similarities with the legendary character. -- Andrew Pitsicalis is the CEO of Purple Haze Properties. With celebrities like Jimi Hendrix, Peter Tosh, and Ol' Dirty Bastard, he's been spreading good vibes in the cannabis industry for over 20 years. And now, with The Wake and Bake Show, he's here to share some of that love with you.

A personal solo episode about losing the joy for my writing and a breakthrough I recently experienced healing issues around creativity, self-esteem, and perfectionism. MENTIONED ON THE SHOW Akimbo Seth Godin's Podcast Leaders' Call to Adventure Lori Ference podcast Silent All These Years Tori Amos HOST LINKS - SLADE ROBERSON Slade's Books & Courses Get an intuitive reading with Slade Automatic Intuition BECOME A PATRON https://www.patreon.com/shiftyourspirits Edit your pledge on Patreon TRANSCRIPT There are a lot of you listening to this who I personally really wanted to tell this story to. Like, not as an episode but just in my life. It's actually easier just to make it a podcast episode and tell the story at once. I've texted a few people. I've called a few people over the last week. I've called Seth and made him listen to me talk about it for an hour and a half. And then I went to text my friend Jeff last night to catch him up on what had been going on with me and I thought, 'Oh god, this is just all too much for texting.' For some reason, it feels more self-indulgent to keep calling people individually and gushing about my creative breakthroughs and my angst and all that kind of stuff. It just seems to be more appropriate to actually do a personal podcast episode which you can fast forward or choose not to listen to. For those of you who are choosing to listen to this, you're my friends too and you have expressed interest in my personal episodes and me sharing things from my personal life. Actual issues that I'm dealing with. It humanizes the whole thing, right? And it reminds you that I am not a guru sitting up here with a bunch of wisdom about this stuff. I am someone who is playing with all these tools and all this language, and observing, and trying to share a part of my process as a way of motivating you and bringing you along with me. So this all goes back to all that solar eclipse madness we had in 2017. At the time that I'm recording this, it is towards the end of August 2018, if you're listening from the future and you need some time context there. But back to the big eclipse in 2017, at the end of the summer. It was about a year ago, and the bookends for all the eclipse stuff that was going on last year was about the sign of Leo, and the opposite sign of Leo, which is Aquarius. There was this thematic dynamic and there were sort of two questions that the eclipses were bringing up for you. And the fact that I am a Leo and Jeff, incidentally, who I wanted to tell this story to, is Leo as well. And so, one of the reasons why I felt so exhausted in trying to catch him up on this in text messages, we've been having this conversation for well over a year about both of us, and how we've been going through this. Not to mention all the clients and people I do readings for, where we've had conversations about this. So this is just my personal experience with all this stuff. But for all of us, there was a theme. There IS a theme with the solar eclipses that we've been through and all this retrograde stuff with an eclipse is kind of like, 'Oh, by the way, here's a bonus lesson for you. Just to make sure you got that all worked out. The Leo is really asking us: How are you a star? What's your light? What do you have to give the world? The Aquarius is about: Who's receiving that light? Who's observing it? Who can see it? Who is impacted by it? I didn't make this up, by the way. I heard something Seth Godin talking about it on his podcast Akimbo. I'll try to find the exact episode and link to it. But if you want to check out Akimbo, I think it was one of the first three episodes that he did for that whole podcast. But he had an episode about Making Things for the Weirdos. So this is the thing I didn't make up. For the edge, not the middle. The idea of what makes something super popular, what makes something mainstream. Things were not created for the mainstream. They aren't created for the middle. If you create something that's gonna appeal to everyone, you're going to re-invent the colour beige. You're going to reconstitute oatmeal. The way in which things become popular and mainstream is that they are picked up by the weirdos. By the fringes. By the tastemakers and the hipsters and the people who are on the edge. The Lantern-bearers who are out in the woods guiding the lost back to the light. Back to civilization. It's found on the edge in the margins. And so, people who are early adopter of things that end up being very popular and cool are very proud of themselves for discovering something, and appreciate something that is new and difficult and hard to categorize and that not everyone gets. If you've ever had those friends who always want to be the one who finds the new band before anyone else and who always wants to listen to something that everyone else finds off-putting or reads something that's really difficult. It's part of their ego-pride that they are able to go places the rest of us can't go. Or go there FIRST. They discover things and then they pass it to us. The way that that life cycle works for things that become popular, that are loved by a lot of people, they start with the weirdos. So if you're trying to make something cool, according to Seth Godin's concept or theory, you start out by making things for the weirdos. Go for the fringe! Be weird, because that's where it gets picked up and that's where you're going to create something original. With that in mind, it's been on my mind and it's a theme that plays into this episode and this personal story. So I have two author friends, Kim and Brandon. Brandon and I talk about a lot more than on the show because he's a science-fiction author. He does a lot of research on the topics that we're interested in. You know, the ascension of humanity, psychic information from the collective, ancient civilizations. He works a lot of this stuff into his books, and so he ends up coming up on the show sometimes because our conversations overlap. Kim is someone who also listens to this show. Incidentally, it's really kind of cool because I went to this writer's conference. It was called the Best-Seller Summit, I think, two years ago, in Nashville. I first gravitated, the very first night, to Brandon and before I left there, I had met Kim and discovered that she was another one of these people that I'd gone on to college with, but didn't know while I was AT college. Susan Hyatt's one of those people as well. I feel like they're special because we were just destined to find each other at some point. It's interesting that those are the two people that I brought away from that experience. Usually when I go to any conference, I pick up one major soul family member at least. And that's one of the things that I look forward to whenever I travel. Especially if it's work-related or has a project at its centre. Kim and Brandon, incidentally, I was telling people about my idea for this podcast as a content marketing strategy at that conference. And I was talking about this basic concept for it. And it's interesting that the two people that I connected with and became friends with there, are also very much listeners of this show. Like, they genuinely listen to this show the way all of you do, who are fans of this content, this topic. So that's how we met. And I have an ongoing relationship with both of them. Brandon is very much a sort-of coach to me and someone that I look up to and admire for his productivity and his work ethic. Kim is my, I call her my Author Therapist. She's the person who talks me off the ledge and who I call when I really need to be vulnerable about being a fiction author. Listen, guys. Fiction authors - we are a neurotic bunch of cats, okay? We are tortured. And I know that sounds really ridiculous to say, but you just have to assume that I'm telling you about some part of my life that you don't see as much as this part. There's this other place where I'm this angsty artist and I'm not the only one. We're all that way for some reason. Anyway. We do require a lot of emotional support and it's a little bit crazy because we get really, really worked up and really sometimes depressed and neurotic and all kinds of negative energy that we have to work through. And dealing with things that are entirely imaginary. So if you were to be a fly on the wall listening to us talk, and you weren't an author, I always think, 'Gawd, people would think we are NUTS!' But anyway. There you have it. It's a little bit of a curse and a calling. We do not feel that it's necessarily something that we chose. We feel that it's something that we have to do. It was ordained by the creative life force and intelligence in the Universe. So it's a struggle. Something that really happened for me this year that came to a head was, you may have seen me before posting word counts on my projects as I'm working on them. I do NaNoWriMo sometimes in November every year - National Novel Writing Month. That's something that we do is we post our word counts daily to motivate each other or to hold ourselves accountable. It's something that author friends, especially on social media, do in a lot of groups and communities. My friend Brandon was posting about how he was raising his word counts. Brandon has been on a trajectory for a couple of years of producing a lot of work really quickly. He's writing serialized science fiction and releasing a lot of books per year. There's an entire community of authors who work this way, and he's trying to learn some of those skills and apply them to increase his own productivity. So he's posting about how he's getting higher and higher in his daily word counts. I remember a point at which he posted something about being up to 5,000 words a day. And I was comparing myself to that on a day when I literally had a word count on my novel of like, 400 words. It took me like an hour and a half to produce those 400 words. And just to give you an idea, I usually write for a two hour session, and I like to get somewhere between 1,500 and 2,000 words. So my fiction goal per day really is a lowball 1,000 words a day. So here's Brandon, writing about 5,000 words a day, which of course he's comparing himself to people who are writing 10, and 12,000. But I compared myself to that and I just really got down in the dumps about it. And felt like I was just crawling towards my goals and got really in my head about it. First red flag here is comparing yourself to others, right? I love the quote, 'Comparison is the thief of joy.' I think that is mostly attributed to Theodore Roosevelt. It's one of my mantras. At this time, unfortunately, wasn't enough to get me out of this ditch that I got into with my writing over the course of the last year or so. So I was telling my other author friend, Kim, about this. I was talking about, 'Ohmygod, Brandon's doing so great. I'm so happy for him. But I am comparing myself to him and feeling like, just such a loser.' I was telling her, 'I'm just slowing down more and more. I'm barely getting 500 words of fiction written per day...' Kim's listening to me and she's such a wonderful, sweet soul. She holds space so well for these hair-pulling sessions of mine. And she just asked me a really simple question. She said, 'Well, what about your non-fiction?' I was stumped for a moment. And I thought, 'Ohmygod, I don't even COUNT non-fiction anymore.' I've been writing non-fiction professionally every day for over a decade. For like, 13 years or something like that, if we get really technical. I do email-readings, notes for phone readings, channelling, automatic writing sessions for the readings that I do, I do posts in my Automatic Intuition community. I answer email questions. I answer questions on Quora and Facebook. I write scripts for guided meditations. I write scripts for these podcasts. I write show notes before the shows as an outline, and then I write show notes after the shows to create the blog posts and the metadata for this podcast. I write the introductions segments pretty much word for word, the way that I perform them. The outros and the channelled messages, the Oracle segment. I write blog posts. I've written thousands of blog posts at this point. I don't even really know exactly how big my archive is. I write email newsletters. I've been doing that for, you know, 15 years. I write transcripts sometimes. Tutorials. I write classes on the various topics that I speak about. Intuition, connecting with your guides, the Money Shift, all that kinds of stuff. I wrote a workbook for my mentoring clients, for the Automatic Intuition professional community and that's basically like a textbook. Every day I write morning pages. And then sometimes I write afternoon morning pages. But they're not morning pages anymore. They're associative writing exercises. They're brainstorming. So as I'm going, all of that stuff flashed through my head when she asked, 'What about your non-fiction? What's your word count for that?' And I thought, 'Ohmygod, I can't even put a number on that.' But as we were conversing, I just sort of grabbing handfuls of those things in my mind and I was thinking, 'Wow. Yeah. I write 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10,000 words a day sometimes. There's probably very few days of the week where I don't at least write 1,000 or 2. Whether I'm working on my novels or not. So it was so crazy. I was like, 'Hold on a minute! THAT’S ALL THE WRITING I’M NOT COUNTING. I'm not counting it! I'm not giving myself credit for it. I don't write it down. I don't log it. I don't track it. I don't beat myself up about it. I also don't lift myself up with it. Or give myself any credit for it whatsoever. That's really messed up, y'all! That's crazy that I'm doing that. I'm sitting here almost in tears because I wrote a piddly 400 words on my novel, and completely discounting the other 5, 6, 7,000 words that I wrote that day. And I'm walking around telling myself, 'I'm not prolific. I'm not productive. I'm such a loser. I'm crawling. I produce hardly any work. I'm only working 2 hours a day.' NONE of that is accurate. It's such a loud ego-programmed radio station and I've got it on full blast. And I've become so accustomed to it that I'm not even aware that it's playing. And it was like, when Kim asked me that question, 'Well, what's the word count for all your non-fiction?' It was like somebody just pulled the plug on the radio and it was completely quiet. I realized, 'Holy shit. How is it that I'm doing that to myself?' Maybe we all need to write down everything we do in a day and post it so that other people can give us feedback about it. Because here's the truth you guys - we are terrible judges of our own worth! We're terrible at valuing ourselves and what we accomplish and what we do and what we contribute to other people. What we put out there and what we're good at. Awful. Take us off the panel. We are not allowed to judge ourselves. We're just completely incapable of doing it. We really do need feedback. Constructive compassionate feedback from other people, to even get anywhere close to accurate. And all Kim did was ask me a really good question. You know? Just a really compassionate, logical, obvious question from where she was standing. That's all it took. So I'm kind of thinking, 'If this is ringing any bells for you, maybe you need to do an exercise where you literally just make a huge list of everything that you do in a day. Everything you do. Oprah also got in my head during this whole scenario. It was back when A Wrinkle in Time came out. She was on Van Jones with the creator and director of that movie, and they were being interviewed. She said something about how she believes that there is the purpose that you choose for yourself in life, and then there is the purpose that life chooses for you. I started thinking about that and contemplating that. And I thought, Okay, well maybe my Life Purpose that life has chosen FOR me is what I do for you guys. What you're listening to right now. All the stuff that I do on my 'non-fiction' side. That's kind of the purpose that was given to me. I feel DRAFTED into being a professional intuitive and talking about all this stuff. It was just supposed to be a writing project and it's turned into being a teacher and a speaker, and a counsellor and all the stuff that you know me for, right? And so I thought, Well maybe the purpose that I choose for myself is being a fiction author, being a novelist. That's something that I've wanted to do since I was a really little kid, right? I mean, I never ever ever have strayed from that compass point, from that North Star. And then I flashed back on an interview that I did with Lori Ference last year. And I believe it was on Lori Ference's show, not on my show. I was being interviewed for a Leaders' Call to Adventure and she referred to me as 'Prolific'. She used that word. And I was like, 'What??' I was really embarrassed. I was like, you know, in my mind making cutting motions to her. Like, 'No! Don't say that. I'm not prolific. Don't say that to me.' So when all that stuff came tumbling out with Kim's question, 'What's your word count for your non-fiction?' I thought, 'Oh! Okay. That's what Lori was talking about! That's what she was looking at. That's what made her thinking of the word 'Prolific'. And I was like, 'No. You can't... Please don't put that word on me. I don't deserve that word. Stephen King is prolific.' I thought of the word 'prolific' as being what you produce on the finish end of things that everyone can see and buy on Amazon and that you're super famous for. And that's the only thing I would count as prolific. Again, the only thing that I'd give you credit for if you use that word. Another thing that comes up for me, especially last year, right after the eclipse was What Would Tori Do? So Tori Amos exists for me as a kind of creative archetype. Like she's like a patron saint to me of creativity and how she got there is, one of the things those of us who are obsessed with Tori and love her, one of the things we love about her is that she invites us into this private interior creative landscape with an entire cosmology and a language of her own archetypes and symbols, to the point where it's super, amazingly immersed in her kind of crazy in a way. And we love it. It has absolutely no relationship whatsoever to anything that's going on in popular music, necessarily. Sometimes some of her songs stray over and become... You know, there have been a few, but that's not her audience. Her audience is the super passionate group of people who feel really personally connected to her and invited into her diaries. This is someone who also knew what she wanted to be and who she wanted to be from childhood. She was a prodigy pianist at the age of two or something insane like that. Went to a music conservatory and was playing professionally and recording by the time she was 11 years old. Everyone knew that Tori would always be a musician in a major big way. She spent a lot of her early life, her teen years and her early 20s trying to figure out what that looked like for her. Her story, her trajectory as an artist is the reason why she operates as an archetype in my kind of worldview and why I compare myself to her as a source of inspiration is because, you know, she got kicked out of classical musical school pretty much and rejected from that classical world because she was too much of a freak and an artist. And then when she tried to kind of do the LA music scene, get a record deal, get a big label behind you, and make you a star, kind of thing, she got really chewed up by that part of the industry. They put her in this ridiculous sort of styling and tried to sort of give her a sound that was heavy metalish, because that was like what was going on in the late 80s and she ended up looking like a ridiculous extra in a white snake video. And she did this album under the name, 'Y Kant Tori Read' and it was a joke. It was an absolute flop and it was just a huge disaster. She experienced a personal trauma in her life. She was raped around that time and she just dropped everything and just fled and went away. As the story goes, she rented a piano, and just quietly on your own, in her own headspace, wrote the song 'Silent All These Years'. That was a moment of just claiming like... And if you listen to the song, it IS that message of just sort of letting everything go and tuning everything out and realizing that you have been suppressing your own voice. And just allowing your own voice to come through, right? It's just a basic throat chakra anthem of self-expression and claiming your voice. For women in particular and women in music, it represented a game changer. Because like Seth Godin said, when Tori just went and created her weird little music that was straight from her heart, we all devoured it and loved it and attached to it. There wasn't a place for her in the music industry, so she created a new one. We, the fans, created a new space for these sort of 90s era women singer/songwriters. And there's so many artists that came after her that had that kind of intimacy, especially in their lyrics and their personal themes and all that, and would owe a debt of gratitude for her and would own it in a second that she was an influence. That's how I got into thinking last year when the solar eclipse thing was going on. Long story short, I was writing a book last year that was a sequel to a book that I've already written. And I'd gotten so in my head with everyone telling me: 'You have to write a sequel.' 'You have to write in serials.' 'You can't mark it, writing a whole bunch of individual books.' 'You've got to write one thing and then write book two and three and four and five before you move on to something else or you're never gonna make any money. You'll never build and audience.' 'People won't be interested in standalone books if you keep writing them.' 'People won't be interested in books that have children as main characters.' Of course, along came Stranger Things and reminded us that that's bullshit. Some of the other things that I was putting on myself was this idea that I had to write in a certain voice that was a little bit more palatable, that I tried to make myself fit into a genre more neatly so it would be easier to market. And I really just backed myself into a corner, yet I felt like I didn't have anywhere else to go. And so I was working on this book ALL last year, asking myself the question, 'Okay, this is my light. Who am I shining it for?' And thinking, 'Well, I'm shining it for these people who bought that other book so I've got to be beholden to them somehow and write a sequel.' And I got to the point where I worked for 11 months on this book and I was nowhere near finished with it. And it wasn't even a long book. I mean, I was like, 150 pages into this book that I felt was going to take me another two years to write. And I was slowing down in my word counts. They were dropping from 1,000 words a day down to 500 and 400 and 300. And then I was losing my seven days a week momentum and dropping down to five days a week. And then finding reasons for it to only maybe three. And then at the time I called Kim in a panic, I was writing twice a week and that two hour session was getting eaten up and turned into an hour. And I was writing 300 words and OH SHIT, I'm never going to finish this book and I hate it. And the reason why I can't write it is because it's not connected to my heart. So I just, you know... Prolific? That's not prolific. So all of that really made me start to wonder - Where else am I not giving myself credit? In my Automatic Intuition mentoring program, and in that community, one pattern that I notice in all of us, is that we focus on the one technique we can’t do, at the expense of owning the techniques that produce tons of information for us. We all do this! I can't see auras! I can't see auras! Meanwhile, you can do mediumship and bring through someone's relative that's crossed over. Who cares if you can't read auras! You're a medium. That's amazing. But we all do this! To make this episode about YOU as well as me, I want you to ask, where in your life are you doing this? Where are you discounting your own success? Your own productivity? Your own creativity? Where are you suppressing it and just sweeping it under the rug and acting like you suck when you don't! I do a fitness class that's very similar to cross-fit. It's called circuit breaker. We do it on Saturday mornings and recently, we were doing this workout in honour of what we call the Fallen Five in Chattanooga. A few years ago, we had a domestic terrorism event in Chattanooga where a young guy went and shot up a naval recruiting centre and killed five people here in Chattanooga Tennessee where I live. Which is really surreal if you've lived in one of the cities that's been the focus on the news of one of these terrorism events. One of these school shootings. All that kind of madness. It's almost like it's taking place somewhere else because you're watching it on tv and it doesn't even feel like it could be here. That's a whole other story for another time. But anyway, we do a workout to honour those guys every year on the anniversary of when they were killed. If you know anything about cross-fit and the cross-fit community, a lot of the workouts of the day for cross-fit are made and named after and in honour of people who have been killed in the line of duty, like active service people in the military, fire fighters, police officers. They often have these workouts created for them. So my trainer, Lisa Blevins, wanted to make this workout for the Fallen Five the official circuit... Not, well, it is the official circuit breaker, but she wanted to get it accepted or adopted as the workout of the day for the cross-fit community at large to honour these people. So we're outside. We're doing this workout. It's really rough. It's grueling, and of course, one of the reasons why you associate these things with those who aren't there anymore is because we CAN do these workouts. We're here and alive and physically able to do them. So that's... what you're thinking as you're suffering through the process and thinking, Ohmygod. What have I gotten myself into? But you do it because you can. And because you're alive and you have a body that works. So there's a group of us that, we're outside. We're trying to huddle up under a little bit of shade that's out there where we work out. And we're complaining. Huffing and puffing through the whole thing. I think there were 5 rounds in the workout and I got halfway through the 4th going into the 5th. Somewhere. I don't know. It was like, 4 out of 5. But I didn't finish. I knew I wasn't remotely going to finish. There were a bunch of us that didn't. We literally couldn't complete it. We were kind of complaining and bitching and moaning. To my credit, I always tell people, is part of the way that I process my pain when I'm working out, and it depends on who I'm hanging out with. So me and a couple of my friends who do tend to complain a little bit more. We happen to all be in our 40s by the way. We're out there. We're doing this workout talking about how much we suck because we didn't finish. It was like an hour and a half of tire-flipping in the sun and running 500 metres every time the whistle blows and all this kind of stuff. And it hit me as we were talking, I said, 'You know, look around. What's crazy is there are literally only 24 people here today. Out of all the thousands of people within driving distance of this class, in our city, in our surrounding community … We are the ones here doing it. Us. Just us. No one else.' So you know what? Even 80% of a kick ass work out like that is pretty amazing. We’re in a ridiculously small percentile. I don't even know how many 0.0s you have to go to to get to us. But there we were, in that moment, talking about how much we sucked, when we were just a tiny handful of people who had accomplished something that no one else had. So it's a Shift in Perspective, right? Shift your spirits. The skew, the thing we get wrong, it's always about Self-worth. You look at all the little things and the things you take for granted. You may do something that feels mundane to you, that looks like a super power from the outside to someone who can't do it, or doesn't know how, or doesn't have the aptitude for it. I always think about people who cook. I think people who can cook are creative geniuses. And they're like, 'Dude, calm down. It's a bowl of pasta.' So I want you to go over your day. Maybe it was yesterday. Pull back to 30,000 feet, and then start to zoom back in slowly, and really jot everything down. And track everything down from the moment you got up until you went to bed. Really notice - What are you really accomplishing every day? What are you not giving yourself credit for? The thief of joy - Comparison. Comparisonitis, you might hear this called. When I started jotting down notes, actually a few months ago, for this episode, because I had a series of interviews I wanted to do and I knew at some point I wanted to do this solo episode about all this stuff. We're doing all this astrological madness this summer and thought, 'Oh yeah, this'll be a good time to talk about all the eclipses, and how they were all hitting me and what I was suffering through and angsting about.' So a couple of months ago, I'm writing notes for the show, pretty much everything that I've just talked to you about. I still didn't feel particularly prolific. I had the title of the show, Prolific AF, because that was the word Lori awarded me, and it represented something that I felt I didn't deserve. And honestly, as I was preparing to do this episode, I still didn't remotely feel like I earned that word, or could own it. Last week I had an energy clearing. It was a really good session. There were a lot of breakthroughs for me about the self-worth issue that I was experiencing around my writing. And it was like the block in my writing was this glue that was holding me to something that wasn't working. And it was making it really impossible for me to put it down. Maybe I just needed to give myself some kind of permission through someone else. But like with Kim asking me, 'How many words are you not counting that you deserve credit for?' Amanda asked me, 'If you had three months to live, is this the book that you would keep writing for those three months?' I immediately thought, 'Oh HELL NO. Absolutely not.' She said, 'Well, do you know what the book that you would write is?' And I immediately knew what it was. I immediately knew. It's something that I've had on my radar, in my creative pot simmering away in the background, in the moment she asked me that. And I thought, Okay, I've got three months to leave behind something that really matters. Something that I really want to write. And I knew exactly what it was. It was weird. It's a weird story. And there are so many reasons why I kept it on the back-burner. Because everything in marketing and publishing said: Don't write this book. But I gotta tell you about the numbers on the project. So the book I was struggling to write all last year, I worked on for 11 months and I got about 50,000 words done on that book. 11 months to do 50,000. Last week, in five days, I wrote 25,000 words. So if you break that down, the project that wasn't working probably took me six months to do 25,000 words. And I just did that in five days. FIVE DAYS. That's like 90, 100 pages if it's easier for you to conceptualize. More significantly, you know what it is? It's that 5,000 word goal that Brandon was posting about that I compared myself to and felt like I was so completely incapable of accomplishing. I was recently reunited with my best friend from the last 30 years. Alex. Alex is one of my greatest creative mentors, truly. I collaborated with him so much and I learned so much about the way he works that I've applied to the way that I work. And the way I identify myself as a creative person come from a lot of the strengths that I borrowed from him and gleaned over the course of our friendship. And I was texting him about this whole phenomenon last week, after I'd written all these words. After they were just spilling out of me. Like I can't write them fast enough. I said, 'I think I’m having my Silent All These Years Moment.' I think that book that I was writing this past year was my awful 'Y Kant Tori Read'. It was me in a bad bustier with heavy metal hair, trying to be something that I'm not. So to re-answer those questions: What’s my light? For whom am I shining it? I don't know. You guys are going to have to tell me if I'm shining it for you. Because I'm just going to shine it. And it's going to be a little weird. And it's unlike anything else that I've ever written, and I'm SO freaking excited about it. And I can see how the feelings and the application of what's different for me now could allow me to produce a whole lot of weird little books. And maybe we'll just say, 'Eff it. Let's make a new genre just for me.' Maybe it'll never fit and I'll stop trying to make them fit. And it'll just be another book by Slade. In the same way that people love Tori Amos. You know, download her album the minute it drops. We don't even have to hear it. It's more Tori - we want another dose. Making things for the weirdos. So I'm writing a book for the weirdos! Because I AM a weirdo. And I feel very passionately connected to this project and I just finally gave myself permission to work on it. And it's crazy how much easier it is to do the thing you've been telling yourself you're not supposed to do. What am I doing differently? You know what? I’m not counting words for fiction anymore — I don’t count them for non-fiction. There's too many of them. It's too much work. It’s too hard to do. It’s too time-consuming. It takes too long to check that spreadsheet and evaluate that. I'm just not doing that anymore. Why would I do it for this one writing project when I don't do it for any of my other writing projects, which are all very relaxed and very successful and you guys experience them every week. You experience at least one little bit of my writing ability and maybe you get it in three or four different formats. If you follow me online, you get some more. So I'm spouting it out over here. So I'm just folding the fiction in along with that and not treating it as something different. Why would I make it different? It only makes it not work. All I was doing was breaking it. The whole point of the word count thing is to be motivating. And it was DE-motivating me. So why would I do that to myself? I’m just writing the project. I'm just getting it done. Same as I do with ALL the others. Yesterday, I wrote for 5 hours straight and I was actually bummed that I had to stop. Today, it’s killing me that I had to really stop to record this episode. I had to make myself. I had to set a timer - not to make myself write. To make myself STOP writing. So today, you know what? But today, I really do FEEL prolific as fuck.

How to Act Like an Engineer and Think Like a Creative The first time I sat down with Mark Heaps, he mentioned to me that "People tell me all the time, 'Dude, your story is insane." He wasn't lying. From opulent wealth as a young child, to living with family on a small English island from graduating college at the age of 18, to essentially hitchhiking his way to Silicon Valley. Mark's story is one of patience, persistence, and most importantly, self-awareness. In this episode of Voices of Impact, Mark and I dive into the deep connection that comes by way of sharing your authentic story, what I would call the importance of "standing in your brand." And Mark shares with us why, despite decades of accolades and personal achievement, he actually derives more satisfaction and fulfillment by renting out his little photo studio in Southeast Austin, to up-and-coming creatives. Get access to full show notes by visiting: http://www.voicesofimpact.com/mark-heaps/

It's all very 'Dude' in Dan's prenuptial show. "Laid Back" Johnny Mc (Donnell) returns to bring his own brand of Sam Elliot knowledge to the relegation battle, the future of the International team, reverse defections from the USA to ex eastern bloc countries and his own brand of human trafficking. There's Johnny Ward's full on Lebowski impression and the usual analysis, previews and shameless plugging of mens outfitters. This is not 'nam, it's episode 29, there are rules....

Episode 151: "The 'Dude, Where's My Healthcare?' Episode" Guests: Former Speaker of the House Newt Gingrich, and from MASH, The Aviator and Bridge of Spies Actor Alan Alda along with musical guest highlights from past shows. Spud needs to see the doctor, and he's not as all pleased with the prospects for paying for the visit. Visit Spud's website at: spudgoodman.com

Episodes 127-248 of On the Mic contain original music. In order to comply with copyright law, these episodes are not available to download. You can stream this episode at Mixcloud: https://www.mixcloud.com/OntheMic/ or skip to Episode 249. On the Mic: South African stand up comic, Loyiso Gola, talks to On the Mic about his brand new comedy hour, 'Dude, Where's My Lion'. Apologies for the poor sound quality. First broadcast on Broadway Baby Radio in 2016. © 2016 On the Mic. For more info visit: http://onthemic.co.uk Produced by Voice Republic For more podcasts visit http://voicerepublic.com

On this episode of the "Sponsored" podcast, presented by Powder Radio, host Mike Powell interviews Cody Townsend, who was fresh off a "jungle skiing" shoot as the stunt double for Vin Diesel. Townsend talks about how, as a kid, he followed the stars of Squaw, like Shane McConkey, JT Holmes, and Kent Kreitler, until they let them ski with him. "I literally would tail them, two or three chairs behind them, and follow them around," says Townsend. "I remember I had a pair of GS skis, and I bent up the tails with irons so that i had my first pair of twin-tips, and those guys are on fat skis on a pow day, ripping turns, and skiing lines and I would just straightline everything because I had such skinny skis on, to try to keep up with them. Eventually, that day, JT came up to me and was like, 'Dude, you got to get some fat skis.' The rest is history. JT and Kreitler took me under their wing." Townsend is also candid about his setbacks and doubt of fulfilling his dream. "I remember going to Shane McConkey's house... putting the VHS in... watching it and just wanting to cry because [my footage] was so bad," he says. "I definitely remember, man, maybe I'm not going to be a pro skier, because I suck. I was really down at that moment. This has been my dream since I was 6 years old, since I watched Scot Schmidt movies and was like, oh my God, I want to be a skier."

Why do some people find success while other people — people who actually did better in school or had more opportunities — struggle to get by? Nate and Jason talk about honesty, calculated risks, betting on yourself, and showing up to the right places — and how that's led to their success in business and in life. 0:00 — Nate explains why this episode starts at a weird point. 1:35 — The conversation begins and Jason wants to avoid being masturbatory. 3:45 — The guys start to break down the keys to their post-high school success. 8:30 — "I was working in the most soul-sucking job I've ever had, which was as tech support for a major satellite TV company. And that — oh my god — that is like looking into the maw of hell." - Jason 10:19 — "Having you come and basically look around and go 'Dude, are you serious about this?' — that was a good wake-up call and it was definitely something that was very helpful in pulling my shit back on track." - Jason 12:28 — "I took a lot of risks that other people saw as risks that I didn't." - Nate 13:23 — "I was just ambitious and just annoying enough to get on their radar but not enough to piss them off to where they didn't wanna talk to me anymore, and those became my first couple of mentors." 13:50 — Nate's quick story about turning down cute girls, rejecting Alwyn Cosgrove's advice, running sprints, and vomiting in a 12-hour span. 15:40 — Lou Schuler: http://amzn.to/1Kg37MI 16:40 — Nate's book Built for Show: http://amzn.to/1MPjoKl 17:40 — "Successful entrepreneurs, I think they do take a lot of risks, but they never feel as risky to somebody who's an entrepreneur as they would to somebody who is looking at the situation from the outside." - Jason 19:25 — T-Nation: http://bit.ly/1MPk7vc 20:10 — Jason talks about quitting his full-time job, turning down another, and betting on himself. 22:10 — "Oh, I ate so much ramen for the first couple of months." - Jason 24:10 — Jason explains the importance of physically showing up to the right places. 29:15 — Recession Proof Graduate by Charlie Hoehn: http://bit.ly/1Jh2ArC 31:00 — Nate talks about what he would do if his salary disappeared. 37:09 — "The idea is success is fluid so I think it's just a matter of defining it for yourself and then, I don't know, being ok with whatever happens after." - Nate 38:50 — "The goal of a project isn't to launch the project. The goal of a project is to enjoy working on the project." - Jason 40:09 — "The most successful person in the world is still looking toward their next thing." - Jason 40:40 — "I found out that we're technically millennials, which at first kinda made me sad, but now I don't care." - Jason 41:17 — "As many Ws as you can control." – Jason, referring to a quote from Tim Ferriss's *4-Hour Workweek*: "Money is multiplied in practical value depending on the number of W's you control in your life: what you do, when you do it, where you do it, and with whom you do it." http://bit.ly/1NyMsWE 42:22 — "I have to take a piss." - Nate 42:45 — Rate the podcast or leave a review on iTunes: http://apple.co/1Jsj6C3 and be sure to check out the website: http://www.2ftat.com/

Beenie Man and Ms. Thing - Dude (Grant Phabao Remix) (Exclusive MP3 download on ParisDjs.com) 2009-04-03 Grant Phabao reworks 'Dude', Beenie Man and Ms. Thing's dancehall hit from 2003, into uptempo reggae with deep skanks. Erik Rug's been playing this one for more than a year at the WaxGroove party - "Typically the kind of music I play over and over in the beginning of my sets" says Erik visiting us today. Don't miss the show tomorrow where you'll be able to hear some new exclusive remixes for the first time ever. Burned CD just got out of the oven and into Erik's hands... Tracklisting : 01. Beenie Man and Ms. Thing - Dude (Grant Phabao Remix) Note : DJs may want to contact us for a 256k MP3 version Links : beenieman.net myspace.com/beenieman en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beenie_Man myspace.com/msthingstash grantphabao.com myspace.com/grantphabao parisdjs.com