Podcasts about Shahan

⭐️ Want support with real-world strategies that actually work on your campus? We're doing that every day in the School for School Counselors Mastermind. Come join us! ⭐️**********************************You've been looped into a student's behavior.The teacher wants it fixed.Admin wants a behavior plan.And now everyone's looking at you.If you've ever found yourself thinking, “I don't even know where to start,” this episode is for you.We're walking through the full behavior intervention process, from collecting ABC data to building a real Behavior Intervention Plan (BIP), so you know exactly what's involved, what your role should be, and how to stop being the person everyone hands it off to.You'll learn:What actually makes a behavior plan effectiveWhere school counselors fit into the process (and where we don't)How to avoid the “throw spaghetti at the wall” method of interventionWhy consistency- not quick fixes- is what really moves the needleThis episode won't give you a one-size-fits-all template.But it will help you understand the full picture, speak the language of your behavior teams, and start showing up like the professional you already are.Resources:American School Counselor Association. (2022). ASCA ethical standards for school counselors. https://schoolcounselor.org/ethicsChandler, L. K., & Dahlquist, C. M. (2015). Functional assessment: Strategies to prevent and remediate challenging behavior in school settings (4th ed.). Pearson.Shahan, T. A. (2022). A theory of the extinction burst. Perspectives on Behavior Science, 45(3), 495–519. https://doi.org/10.1007/s40614-021-00297-zU.S. Department of Education, Institute of Education Sciences, National Center for Education Evaluation and Regional Assistance. (n.d.). What Works Clearinghouse. https://ies.ed.gov/ncee/wwc/**********************************Our goal at School for School Counselors is to help school counselors stay on fire, make huge impacts for students, and catalyze change for our roles through grassroots advocacy and collaboration. Listen to get to know more about us and our mission, feel empowered and inspired, and set yourself up for success in the wonderful world of school counseling.Hang out in our Facebook groupJump in, ask questions, share your ideas and become a part of the most empowering school counseling group on the planet! (Join us to see if we're right.)Join the School for School Counselors MastermindThe Mastermind is packed with all the things your grad program never taught you IN ADDITION TO unparalleled support and consultation. No more feeling alone, invisible, unappreciated, or like you just don't know what to do next. We've got you!Did someone share this podcast with you? Be sure to subscribe for all the new episodes!!

Why is there no user manual to run your house? Are the critical thinking skills you learn as an English literature major valuable in your work and personal life? How did Katie never study in college and become an auditory learner? What about the auditory learning skill set that Katie picked up in college lead to a career in tech? How did a summer job in Manhattan between high school and college lead to an interest in business? Why was developing a streamlined implementation process for a hospital back office software company so critical for sales success? How did promotions from customer sales lead to company executive leadership with golden handcuffs? Why are key man life insurance policies so essential for businesses to have in place for CEOs? How did a home ownership maintenance nightmare on her first property lead Katie to found and build Yarlow? Why is digital storage for home-related items and expenses so important for homeowners? What classic first-time entrepreneur mistake did Katie make when building the initial MVP for Yarlow? How is the trend of PE firms buying up home service profession businesses impacting the service upsell of unneeded services? Where is Yarlow integrating AI into the platform? How is regional customization important for homeowner maintenance and recommendations? Why was it important for Katie that Yarlow be a free app for homeowners?Katie Shahan - CEO and founder of Yarlow, joins Proptech Espresso to answer these questions and discuss how a group of college classmates who she did not know convinced her she needed to become an English Lit major.

First! The link to all our Patreon material is HEREThe Link to our Youtube work is HEREAnd we are excited to kick off a new series on the Around the Circle Podcast called 20 Questions! In this series, we bring on some of our favorite guests to dive deep into fascinating conversations about life, growth, and the Enneagram.In this first episode, we welcome our friend Michael Shahan, a licensed marriage and family therapist based in Kansas City, Missouri, with a special focus on integrating the Enneagram into therapy. Michael shares his story of mistyping, the challenges of self-discovery, and the growth he experienced through this journey of identifying as a Type Six after years of thinking he was a Type Nine.

We are excited to kick off a new series on the Around the Circle Podcast called 20 Questions! In this series, we bring on some of our favorite guests to dive deep into fascinating conversations about life, growth, and the Enneagram.In this first episode, we welcome our friend Michael Shahan, a licensed marriage and family therapist based in Kansas City, Missouri, with a special focus on integrating the Enneagram into therapy. Michael shares his story of mistyping, the challenges of self-discovery, and the growth he experienced through this journey of identifying as a Type Six after years of thinking he was a Type Nine.Link to Part II on Youtube : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HoGUkJDAIR4Link to Part II on Patreon : https://www.patreon.com/aroundthecircle

This hour, we get the scoop on some of the state's best ice cream shops from two people devoted to local ice cream. We talk with Craig Behun, the ice cream lover behind the Instagram @cticecreamtour and Shahan Kukreja of Micro Creamery. Since 2015, Craig's been posting about his adventures trying ice cream shops all over the state. And Shahan takes the micro brewery concept and applies it to ice cream. You'll find more than 70 local ice cream flavors in the shop. Plus, Sweet Claude's in Cheshire is an ice cream shop we love; get to know its owner Kelly Anne Pearce. And finally, Dr. Steve Zinn, UConn professor in the Department of Animal Science, talks about the cows we have to thank for the milk used in the excellent ice cream served at the UConn Dairy Bar (@uconndairybar). GUESTS: Craig Behun: Ice cream lover, creator of @cticecreamtour Shahan Kukreja: Co-owner of Micro Creamery in Woodbridge and Milford, Conn. (@microcreameryofct) Kelly Anne Pearce: Owner and ice cream maker, Sweet Claude's in Cheshire, Conn. (@sweet_claudes) Dr. Steve Zinn: UConn professor in the Department of Animal Science in the College of Agriculture, Health, and Natural Resources (CAHNR); previously department head of Dept of Animal Science Your Picks: Thank you to everyone who shared ice cream shop recommendations with us! We compiled all your shout outs here, including every shop that was mentioned during our round table discussion with Craig and Shahan. This show was produced by Robyn Doyon-Aitken, Catie Talarski, Meg Dalton, Tagan Engel, Stephanie Stender, Katrice Claudio, and Meg Fitzgerald, with help from Sabrina Herrera on Social. It originally aired September 21, 2023. Join the conversation on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and email: seasoned@ctpublic.org. Seasoned is available as a podcast on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Amazon Music, TuneIn, Listen Notes, or wherever you get your podcasts. Subscribe and never miss an episode.Support the show: https://www.wnpr.org/donateSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Welcome to your weekly therapy session - no co-pay required! This is a can't-miss conversation with Enneagram-Informed Marriage and Family Therapist Michael Shahan.We discuss:The meaning behind one of Michael's guiding principles: You're Not What's Wrong With YouWhat growth looks like for Nines while in therapyWhat holds Nines back from growing while in therapyPractical tips to help you through your next "shame spiral"Why paying attention to your body is so important for NinesThe different manifestations of staying small and the ugly truth about how this impacts otherspersonal wins and challenges that Michael and I have experienced as Nines...and so much more!Tickets for Nines Rising (a virtual retreat for Type 9s) are available at www.Enneagram9.com. Use code "podcast25" at checkout for 25% off!Michael Shahan:www.MichaelShahan.com@MichaelShahan_TherapyKimberly Eclipse:www.KimberlyEclipse.comwww.Enneagram9.com@the_Enneagram9_show

City lose at home (again!) This is getting frustrating... Despite the great atmosphere, despite 6,000 home supporters cheering our team on, City fell at the most cruel of hurdles against a match-smart West Ham, who lapped up the expansive Ashton Gate pitch, their win orchestrated by a majestic performance from the midfield dynamo, Katrina Gorry. Gutted. Two huge matches in January, two relegation six pointers, absolutely nil points to show for it. Where do we go from here? D-M and Nat explore our options as we stare down the barrel of another stern WSL test: Aston Villa, at the Poundland Bescot Stadium in Walsall, this coming Saturday. Oh, and happy birthday Shahan for Sunday! COYR! Vixens ‘Til We Die! COYR! Follow on X @BCVixenCast and on Instagram @bcvixencast --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcvixencast/message

We are back with another episode of Shahan & Friends (Family Edition). My editor threatened to quit 3 times before completing this haha. My guests are my brothers, cousins, and cousin-in-laws. This should give you a bit of a snapshot of the chaos I grew up in! Do not take anything we say seriously. ADD ME ON: INSTAGRAM: @thedonshahan TWITTER: @thedonshahan TikTok: @thedonshahan #familycomedy #funnyfamily #familypodcast #dysfunctionalfamily #badromance #dating #datingfails

Toot toot! All aboard the away day train! D-M and Nat are joined by a bumper crew (Shahan, Dan, Magda, Dave and Mike) on a victorious journey to Dagenham East to watch City Women convincingly beat West Ham to claim our first W of the WSL season. Our hearty travellers were treated to an entertaining 3-2 victory with goals from Amalie Thestrup, Ella Powell and Brooke Aspin. We talk about the season so far and reflect on the talking points from a very satisfying win on the road, a game which saw the return of the one and only Abi Harrison. Bring on Arsenal (Thursday) and Villa (Sunday). Vixens ‘Til We Die! COYR! Follow on X @BCVixenCast and on Instagram @bcvixencast Coach tickets for our away fixture against Everton on Sunday 19 November are now on sale. Visit here for more information. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bcvixencast/message

In many places around the world the message of Jesus is not welcome. This weekend we launch our Missions theme for the next year “Whispers of Faith”. We will discover how Bible Translation and The Persecuted Church are woven together in the hardest to reach areas of the world.

A board-certified family physician who heads up Tailored Health, a concierge medicine practice in Texas Dr. Shahan Chowdhury joins JT to discuss Stressful work environments do more long-term harm than meets the eye. They may increase men's risk for heart disease—the leading cause of death in the U.S. 

Interview: Eric Shahan - Shinobu BooksEric Shahan, an American translator based in Japan for the last 20 years, has been independently publishing translations of Japanese texts, many of which are esoteric or obscure with a current focus on martial arts manuals, the esoteric, irezumi or tattoo culture, 18th century manga and other works. In this conversation we discuss his approach to translation, his wide range of interests and his encouragement and tips for others try independent translation research and publishing. Shahan's translations are available on Amazon.Shinobu BooksTwitter: @ShinobuBooksInstagram: @Shinobu BooksFull Transcript @ Leafbox.com This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit leafbox.substack.com

As the world becomes increasingly reliant on AI, robotics, and technology, retail has been left in the past. One startup, VenHub, is building the fully autonomous, 24/7 store of the future designed to address these challenges and revolutionize the retail landscape. Listen in to hear the current story of Venhub and Shahan's journey to get here!

Elizabeth Houck and Joseph Dracobly join us to talk about their paper, A Practitioner's Guide for Selecting Functional Communication Responses   Show Notes   Remember to join us on Facebook to suggest articles to review and questions for authors. https://www.facebook.com/BApractice Acknowledgments Host and Executive Producer: Cody Morris, Ph.D., BCBA-D, LBA https://salve.edu/users/dr-cody-morris Assistant Producers Jesse Perrin Jacob Oliveira Sarah Sudhoff Biancé Ferrucci Organizational Support ABAI https://www.abainternational.org/welcome.aspx Behavior Analysis in Practice Editor, Stephanie Peterson, Ph.D., BCBA-D, LBA https://www.abainternational.org/journals/bap.aspx Music Cruising Altitude by Jim Carr and his band New Latitude http://www.newlatitudemusic.com Link to Article A Practitioner's Guide for Selecting Functional Communication Responses | SpringerLink References   Carr, E. G., & Durand, V. (1985). Reducing behavior problems through functional communication training. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 18, 111-126. https://doi.org/10.1901/jaba.1985.18-111 Falcomata, T. S., Roane, H. S., Feeney, B. J., & Stephenson, K. M. (2010). Assessment and treatment of elopement maintained by access to stereotypy. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 43(3), 513–517. https://doi.org/10.1901/jaba.2010.43-513 Fritz, J. N., Iwata, B. A., Hammond, J. L., & Bloom, S. E. (2013). Experimental analysis of precursors to severe problem behavior. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 46(1), 101–129. https://doi.org/10.1002/jaba.27 Greer, B. D., & Shahan, T. A. (2019). Resurgence as choice: Implications for promoting durable behavior change. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 52(3), 816–846. https://doi.org/10.1002/jaba.573  Grow, L. L., Kelley, M. E., Roane, H. S., & Shillingsburg, M. A. (2008). Utility of extinction‐induced response variability for the selection of mands. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 41(1), 15-24.https://doi.org/10.1901/jaba.2008.41-15  Harding, J. W., Wacker, D. P., Berg, W. K., Winborn-Kemmerer, L., Lee, J. F., & Ibrahimovic, M. (2009). Analysis of multiple manding topographies during functional communication training. Education & Treatment of Children, 32(1), 21. https://doi.org/10.1353/etc.0.0045 Houck, E. J., Dracobly, J. D., & Baak, S. A. (2022). A practitioner's guide for selecting functional communication responses. Behavior Analysis in Practice, 16(1), 65–75. https://doi.org/10.1007/s40617-022-00705-9 Najdowski, A. C., Wallace, M. D., Ellsworth, C. L., MacAleese, A. N.,& Cleveland, J. M. (2008). Functional analyses and treatment of precursor behavior. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 41(1),97–105.https://doi.org/10.1901/jaba.2008.41-97    Randall, K. R., Greer, B. D., Smith, S. W., & Kimball, R. T. (2021). Sustaining behavior reduction by transitioning the topography of the functional communication response. Journal of Applied Behavior Analysis, 54(3): 1013–1031. https://doi.org/10.1002/jaba.824 Ringdahl, J. E., Falcomata, T. S., Christensen, T. J., Bass-Ringdahl, S. M., Lentz, A., Dutt, A., & Schuh-Claus, J. (2009). Evaluation of a pre-treatment assessment to select mand topographies for functional communication training. Research in Developmental Disabilities, 30(2), 330–341. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.ridd.2008.06.002

Our guest is Shahan Mufti's, who's new book, American Caliph, recounts an event that's been lost to history-- the March 9th, 1977 Hanafi Muslim siege in Washington, D.C. That day, three buildings in Washington, D.C. were seized by 12 Hanafi Movement gunmen and were held for two days. The group took 149 hostages, killed a young radio reporter named Maurice Williams, and shot then-councilman and future Washington D.C. mayor Marion Barry. Mr. Mufti describes the background of the group's leader, Hamas Abdul Khaalis, the blood feud between him and the Nation of Islam, a movie about the prophet Muhammed that fueled the hostage-taking, and the tense negotiations that ultimately ended the siege. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Our guest is Shahan Mufti's, who's new book, American Caliph, recounts an event that's been lost to history-- the March 9th, 1977 Hanafi Muslim siege in Washington, D.C. That day, three buildings in Washington, D.C. were seized by 12 Hanafi Movement gunmen and were held for two days. The group took 149 hostages, killed a young radio reporter named Maurice Williams, and shot then-councilman and future Washington D.C. mayor Marion Barry. Mr. Mufti describes the background of the group's leader, Hamas Abdul Khaalis, the blood feud between him and the Nation of Islam, a movie about the prophet Muhammed that fueled the hostage-taking, and the tense negotiations that ultimately ended the siege. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Our guest is Shahan Mufti's, who's new book, American Caliph, recounts an event that's been lost to history-- the March 9th, 1977 Hanafi Muslim siege in Washington, D.C. That day, three buildings in Washington, D.C. were seized by 12 Hanafi Movement gunmen and were held for two days. The group took 149 hostages, killed a young radio reporter named Maurice Williams, and shot then-councilman and future Washington D.C. mayor Marion Barry. Mr. Mufti describes the background of the group's leader, Hamas Abdul Khaalis, the blood feud between him and the Nation of Islam, a movie about the prophet Muhammed that fueled the hostage-taking, and the tense negotiations that ultimately ended the siege. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Board-certified family physician Dr. Shahan Chowdhury joins us to discuss the dangers of getting medical advice off of social media. Next, men's rights advocate Karen Straughan provides her opinion on the New Jersey Education Board dropping male and female from its vocabulary. Then Jerry Dunleavy, an investigator for the House Foreign Affairs Committee reveals untold details about the disastrous Afghanistan withdraw. Finally we take your calls in open phones across America Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Sponsored by www.betterhelp.com/TheBarn, Reynolds Landscaping & Lawncare, Everest Counseling (Farmington, Mo)Red Shahan w/ Steven Bankey & Flatland BandSAT, AUG 12 @ 8:00PM HELLBENDER'S ON THE CURRENT, 611 CHICOPEE RD, VAN BUREN, MO 63965DOORS 7 SHOW 8$20 GA// $30 VIPRed Shahan is a captivating and authentic country artist whose music resonates with the soul of the American heartland. With his raw vocals, evocative storytelling, and distinctive sound, Shahan has carved a unique niche for himself in the contemporary country music scene. Hailing from West Texas, his songs are imbued with the rugged spirit of the region, reflecting the vast landscapes, hardworking people, and timeless struggles that define his musical roots.Shahan's journey in the world of music began at a young age, influenced by his family's musical heritage and the rich tapestry of sounds that surrounded him. Drawing inspiration from classic country legends like Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, and Townes Van Zandt, he developed a deep appreciation for the storytelling aspect of the genre. This influence is evident in his songwriting, where he weaves vivid narratives with a poetic touch.One of Red Shahan's defining characteristics is his ability to convey complex emotions through his music. His songs often explore themes of love, heartache, longing, and redemption, resonating with listeners on a profound level. Whether he's crooning about lost love in "Men & Coyotes" or painting a vivid picture of small-town life in "Culberson County," Shahan's lyrics have an uncanny ability to transport audiences into the heart of his stories.Shahan's music also stands out for its sonic diversity, blending traditional country elements with modern influences. His sound incorporates twangy guitars, rootsy arrangements, and a touch of rock 'n' roll energy. This fusion of styles gives his music a fresh and contemporary edge, appealing to a broad spectrum of listeners beyond just traditional country enthusiasts. Tracks like "Revolution" and "Long Way to Fall" showcase his willingness to experiment with different sonic textures while maintaining a strong connection to his country roots.Beyond his captivating studio recordings, Red Shahan is renowned for his electrifying live performances. His stage presence is magnetic, drawing audiences in with his emotive delivery and genuine connection to the music. Whether performing in an intimate acoustic setting or commanding a larger stage, Shahan's charisma and authenticity shine through, creating an unforgettable experience for concertgoers.Red Shahan's musical journey has been marked by both triumphs and challenges, which have further shaped his artistry. His debut album, "Men & Coyotes," garnered critical acclaim and introduced him to a wider audience, while subsequent releases like "Culberson County" and "Someone Somewhere" solidified his reputation as a compelling and consistent songwriter. However, the road hasn't always been smooth, as he navigated personal struggles and the ever-changing landscape of the music industry.In an era where the definition of country music continues to evolve, Red Shahan remains a steadfast and authentic voice. His commitment to storytelling, his willingness to push musical boundaries, and his ability to connect with listeners on a deep emotional level all contribute to his enduring appeal. As he continues to evolve as an artist, one thing remains clear: Red Shahan's music is a timeless reflection of the human experience, aThis episode is sponsored by www.betterhelp.com/TheBarn and presented to you by The Barn Media Group.

I've been a big fan of concierge medicine for about a decade now when we started to use a local physician in Dallas/Fort Worth. It saves us a lot of time and money because when employees are feeling sick, they don't necessarily have to take a full day off and sit in some germy waiting room some place to be seen by a doctor. To talk about that today, one of my favorite concierge physicians, Dr. Shahan Chowdhury with Tailored Health.

Often we wonder what we've carried forth from childhood in our Enneagram and relationship work, as well as wonder what we may have incidentally left behind in our quest for pleasing our family of origin. Today on this special episode with marriage and family therapist (and likely one of your fave Instagram therapy accounts) Michael Shahan, we take a tour around the Enneagram to walk through the Enneagram inner child theory derived from Sandra Maitri and others, also called the Soul Child theory. We do this to make sure you're running on all healthy cylinders as much as possible with your relationship growth, and we talk through ways you can do this work with your spouse or partner, too. No matter your type, join us for this deep dive into growth for every personality!   Watch on YouTube!   Michael's website   Michael's poyvagal courses    Michael's heart-mind-body Costa Rica trip   Follow Michael's Instagram here!   Head on over to enneagramandmarriage.com to check out all of our Enneagram & Marriage freebies and resources! Instagram: @enneagramandmarriage | @enneagrammarriagepod Facebook @enneagramandmarriage   Love what you're learning on E + M? We would be honored if you'd leave a review so others can find us too right here at Apple or on Spotify here!

In this super-sized episode Kyle Shahan returns to tell us all about his near-death experience and being detained by the police. We then discuss his experience at an improv show produced by friend of the pod, Brandon Koss, before diving into the local comedy scene and our progress at the open mics. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/attempted-delivery/support

On this episode, Antariksh is joined by hilarious standup comedians Masoom Rajwani and Shahan Karanjia, and it immediately gets personal. In one of the funniest episodes, they discuss the release order of the various Khiladi movies starting Akshay Kumar and of various Bollywood road-trip movies. They also sing songs of Deepika Padukone (or try to), recognise songs from their 2nd verses, and try to guess a 'movie in which at least one Khan fights'!Come play and laugh along with the gang!  Follow Antariksh on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/antariksht/ follow IVM Pop on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ivmpop/ Follow Masoom on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/masoom_rajwani/ Follow Shahan on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/karanjiashahan/ This Show is Available across audio Platforms:  Spotify | Gaana | Apple Podcasts | Google Podcasts See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

On this episode of the Japan Station podcast, independent researcher and translator Eric Shahan joins us to talk about his work translating forgotten Japanese books on topics like martial arts, tattoos, ropes, ninja and more. About Eric Shahan Eric Shahan is an independent translator of Japanese books on a variety of topics mainly Jujutsu, sword techniques, police manuals, Karate, Ninja related, travel guides, Edo Era Manga, rope binding, tattooing in all areas of Japan and Seppuku. Topics Discussed About how Eric learning Japanese Tips for people studying Japanese How Eric got started in translation The first book he translated About the history of tattoos in Okinawa About tattoos as punishment in Japan What it's like translating old Japanese books About Japanese rope techniques And much more! Support on Patreon & Ko-fi If you enjoy Japan Station and want to ensure that we're able to produce more episodes, then please consider becoming a patron on Patreon.com. For a minimum pledge of $1 a month you'll get early access to all JapanKyo podcasts, bonus content, and more. And for $3 a month, you'll get access to Japanese Plus Alpha, a podcast produced by me (Tony Vega) that focuses on the Japanese language and all of its fascinating quirks. Also, all pledges get a shout-out on the show and my undying gratitude. Thank you in advance! Support Japan Station on Patreon You can also do a one time donation via Ko-fi. Support us on Ko-fi Links, Videos, Etc. If you are interested in Eric Shahan's work and would like to pick up any of the books mentioned in the episode today, please check out the link below. Eric Shahan on Amazon Follow Japankyo on Social Media Facebook (@JapankyoNews) Twitter (@JapankyoNews) Instagram (@JapanKyoNews) Full Show Notes Get the full version of show notes at https://www.japankyo.com/category/podcasts/japanstation/

Michael Shahan is the real deal. His vulnerability, combined with his vast insight into the world of psychology, including the Enneagram, allowed for a fun and informative conversation. Join Kim and Michael as they nerd out on Polyvagal Theory with the Enneagram, couples therapy, and how to be an approachable psychotherapist. Basically, this is free therapy! Enjoy!About Michael:Michael Shahan is a licensed Marriage and Family therapist best known for utilizing the Enneagram in his practice and training other therapists and mental health professionals to do the same. His courses, “Enneagram for Therapists” and “Polyvagal Theory and the Enneagram,” are certified by the National Board for Certified Counselors for continuing education. He will also be presenting this year at the 2023 International Enneagram Association Global Conference. Michael is the father of two, lives in Kansas City, and has a semi-secret watercolor hobby that he practices regularly. Michael's Enneagram For Therapists Course is a 6-week training that begins April 25th.You can use code FLIPYOURLID for $50 off at michaelshahan.com (direct link with code- https://michaelshahan.com/discount/FLIPYOURLID?redirect=%2Fproducts%2Fenneagram-for-therapists-an-enneagram-course-for-therapists-and-mental-health-professionals)And here's a link to his retreat in Costa Rica: https://trovatrip.com/trip//central-america/costa-rica/costa-rica-with-michael--shahan--oct-2023

Parvez and Omar are joined by Shahan Mufti, author of American Caliph, The True Story of a Muslim Mystic, a Hollywood Epic, and the 1977 Siege of Washington, DC.  The new book is the first full account of the largest ever hostage taking on American soil and of the tormented man who masterminded it. Informed by extensive archival research and access to hundreds of declassified FBI files, American Caliph is a riveting true-crime story that sheds new light on the disarray of the 1970s and its ongoing reverberations. About Shahan Mufti Shahan Mufti is the chair of the Department of Journalism at the University of Richmond and a former daily news reporter for the Christian Science Monitor. His work has been published in Harper's, Wired, The New York Times Magazine, Bloomberg Businessweek, The Wall Street Journal, The Atlantic, and many others. He is the author of The Faithful Scribe: A Story of Islam, Pakistan, Family, and War. His second book, American Caliph: The True Story of a Muslim Mystic, a Hollywood Epic, and the 1977 Siege of Washington, DC won the J. Anthony Lukas Work-in-Progress Award in 2020. Shahan holds a master's degree in Journalism and Near Eastern Studies from New York University and an undergraduate degree from Middlebury College. He was awarded a Fulbright scholarship to India in 2004. He lives with his wife and children in Richmond, Virginia.

Our guest is Shahan Mufti's, who's new book, American Caliph, recounts an event that's been lost to history-- the March 9th, 1977 Hanafi Muslim siege in Washington, D.C. That day, three buildings in Washington, D.C. were seized by 12 Hanafi Movement gunmen and were held for two days. The group took 149 hostages, killed a young radio reporter named Maurice Williams, and shot then-councilman and future Washington D.C. mayor Marion Barry. Mr. Mufti describes the background of the group's leader, Hamas Abdul Khaalis, the blood feud between him and the Nation of Islam, a movie about the prophet Muhammed that fueled the hostage-taking, and the tense negotiations that ultimately ended the siege. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Author Shahan Mufti speaks to Hudson Mohawk Magazine correspondent Steve Pierce about the new book, "American Caliph" on the subject of the 1977 Hanafi Muslim siege of Washingon DC. www.shahanmufti.com

Journalist Shahan Mufti talks about his new book, "American Caliph," on the 1977 Hanafi Muslim seige of Washington D.C., with Hudson Mohawk Magazine correspondent Steve Pierce. Shahan Mufti will be speaking at The Sanctuary for Independent Media in Troy NY at 7 PM on Thursday, December 1, 2022. www.shahanmufti.com

Hosted by Andrew Keen, Keen On features conversations with some of the world's leading thinkers and writers about the economic, political, and technological issues being discussed in the news, right now. In this episode, Andrew is joined by Shahan Mufti, co-author of American Caliph: The True Story of a Muslim Mystic, a Hollywood Epic, and the 1977 Siege of Washington, DC. Shahan Mufti is the chair of the Department of Journalism at the University of Richmond and a former daily news reporter for The Christian Science Monitor. He is the author of The Faithful Scribe: A Story of Islam, Pakistan, Family, and War, and his writing has appeared in Harper's Magazine, The New York Times Magazine, The Atlantic, and The Nation, among other publications. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Today on Boston Public Radio: We began the show by asking listeners whether the results of the 2022 midterm elections are a sign of the Republican Party's split from former President Donald Trump. Lindsay Andon, Dave Shanahan, and Scott Cousland joined us to talk about Project ComeBack, a local nonprofit that pairs veterans with rescue horses in order to mutually heal. Andon is the founder of Project ComeBack. Shahan is a veteran who spent 9 years in the National Guard and was deployed in Afghanistan. Cousland is a veteran with nearly a decade of serving. Callie Crossley discussed Stacey Abrahams' recent election loss, and shared her thoughts on ongoing legal troubles for both Harvey Weinstein and Alex Jones. Crossley is the host of GBH's Under the Radar. Shirley Leung talked about layoffs at major tech companies, such as Meta and Twitter. Leung is a business columnist for the Boston Globe. Sue O'Connell weighed in on the so-called “Rainbow Wave” in the 2022 midterm elections, with numerous LGBTQ+ candidates winning elections. O'Connell is the co-publisher of Bay Windows and South End News, and contributor to Current on NBC LX and NECN. Tiny Habits joined us for a Live Music Friday at our studios in Brighton. Tiny Habits is Judah Mayowa, Maya Rae, and Cinya Khan. We ended the show by talking with listeners about ditching social media and smartphones for good.

This week we welcome our very first guest! It's our turn to host comedian Kyle Shahan, who has hosted many of the open mics we've covered on the podcast. Together we discuss Shawn's recent skateboarding injury and ponder our comedy experience thus far. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/attempted-delivery/support

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INTRODUCTION: Cheyenne Mihko Kihêw (they/them) is a Two-Spirit Indigi-queer, born and raised in amiskwacîwâskahikan (Edmonton). Inspired by their own lived experiences with meth addiction and street involvement in their teen years, Cheyenne has dedicated their life to community-based work. They were the first in their family to attend university, holding a BA in Sociology from MacEwan. Currently, they are the Community Liaison for Edmonton 2 Spirit Society, a role that affords them the privilege of incorporating many of their passions into their work and is supporting their own journey of cultural reclamation. Cheyenne is the current Two Spirit Warrior regional titleholder 2021/2022, alongside Rob Gurney. They are also the current Chair of the Board of Directors for Boyle Street Education Centre, their former high school to which they accredit much of their achievements. Cheyenne is unapologetic in their identity as a nêhiyaw, fat, and queer femme and lives loud and proud. ***PHOTO CREDIT*** All My Relations Photography:  https://www.facebook.com/allmyrelationsphoto  INCLUDED IN THIS EPISODE (But not limited to):  ·      Cheyenne's Story·      Being Born Into Trauma·      Using Crystal Meth As A Teenager·      Are Your Drugs For Pleasure Or Pain?·      Surviving Abusive Adoptive Parents·      The Benefits Of Forgiveness ·      The Benefits Of Chosen Family·      The Toils Of Being A Homeless Youth·      The Triflingness Of The Department Of Veteran's Affairs·      Freedom In Becoming An Emancipated Teen   CONNECT WITH CHEYENNE: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tugs.cuchina/  CONNECT WITH DE'VANNON: Website: https://www.SexDrugsAndJesus.comWebsite: https://www.DownUnderApparel.comYouTube: https://bit.ly/3daTqCMFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/SexDrugsAndJesus/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sexdrugsandjesuspodcast/Twitter: https://twitter.com/TabooTopixLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/devannonPinterest: https://www.pinterest.es/SexDrugsAndJesus/_saved/Email: DeVannon@SexDrugsAndJesus.com  DE'VANNON'S RECOMMENDATIONS: ·      Pray Away Documentary (NETFLIX)o  https://www.netflix.com/title/81040370o  TRAILER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk_CqGVfxEs ·      OverviewBible (Jeffrey Kranz)o  https://overviewbible.como  https://www.youtube.com/c/OverviewBible ·      Hillsong: A Megachurch Exposed (Documentary)o  https://press.discoveryplus.com/lifestyle/discovery-announces-key-participants-featured-in-upcoming-expose-of-the-hillsong-church-controversy-hillsong-a-megachurch-exposed/ ·      Leaving Hillsong Podcast With Tanya Levino  https://leavinghillsong.podbean.com  ·      Upwork: https://www.upwork.com·      FreeUp: https://freeup.net VETERAN'S SERVICE ORGANIZATIONS ·      Disabled American Veterans (DAV): https://www.dav.org·      American Legion: https://www.legion.org ·      What The World Needs Now (Dionne Warwick): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfHAs9cdTqg  INTERESTED IN PODCASTING OR BEING A GUEST?: ·      PodMatch is awesome! This application streamlines the process of finding guests for your show and also helps you find shows to be a guest on. The PodMatch Community is a part of this and that is where you can ask questions and get help from an entire network of people so that you save both money and time on your podcasting journey.https://podmatch.com/signup/devannon  TRANSCRIPT: [00:00:00]You're listening to the sex drugs and Jesus podcast, where we discuss whatever the fuck we want to! And yes, we can put sex and drugs and Jesus all in the same bed and still be all right at the end of the day. My name is De'Vannon and I'll be interviewing guests from every corner of this world as we dig into topics that are too risqué for the morning show, as we strive to help you understand what's really going on in your life.There is nothing off the table and we've got a lot to talk about. So let's dive right into this episode.De'Vannon: Hello? Hello. Hello. Are you beautiful souls out there? I love you so much. Thanks for joining me another week. For another episode, I'm super excited to have back with me again, the wonderful Cheyenne Miho. And today we're gonna be talking about their personal life story. Their history entails a lot of early life trauma and extreme abuse. They've been through everything from early life, meth addiction to abuse of adoptive parents who would do things like with whole food and lock them in their bedroom. [00:01:00] Cheyenne's situation was so terrible that the legal system allowed them. To emancipate themselves at the age of 16. Look, y'all healing can be a super long journey and Shahan is definitely on their way.Please listen to their share. Hello? Hello. Hello. All my lovely little fuckers out there and welcome back to the sex drugs in Jesus podcast. To see how I did that. I said, fuck in Jesus in the same sentence. And I know he is most pleased with me standing up on his throne at the right hand of God, applauding me as I give a fuck about Jesus on today.Cheyenne, do darling, how are you doing today? Cheyenne: hello? I'm great. How video1970169709: are De'Vannon: you? I'm fan fucking, you know, I love the cuss. Cussing is very cathartic and healing. Even people out there have not seen the history of swear words on Netflix [00:02:00] narrated by Nicholas cage. I need you to check it out that way you can understand why the fuck I cus so fucking much.So I have back with me today. Cheyenne, be Hoku. And he's coming to us from up there in Canada, Edmonton two spirit society. We did a show with her before and she really gave us a good breakdown on the indigenous history, you know, of Canada. And she gave us some good definitions and everything like that told us what two spirit meant and all these different things.She ed us. And so today we have her back on to talk more about her, her personal struggles and everything like that. And I'm so proud of her for being so transparent to go over the topics that we are going to talk about today. Cheyenne, is there anything you'd like to say right now? Cheyenne: It's just great to be back.Just a gentle reminder that my pronouns are they them that I don't usually her pronouns. De'Vannon: Okay. Sorry if I [00:03:00] messed that up or Cheyenne: something, but no, that's okay. Yeah. It's just it's yeah, it's kind of important. Also. You might hear my cat, he's still adjusting to our move. We just moved into a new place last week.And so he is a little anxious. He's an anxious baby. So he might hear him meowing or he might jump up at some point. De'Vannon: I love cats. I wish I could own every cat in the world. I have two, they go out into their special Playhouse whenever I do meetings because my cats are hell needy. And there's no way they let me get through a one hour conversation without causing a scene.so Cheyenne: I just have a door that I could close but I don't have that anymore in my new office space. So we're just rolling with it. . De'Vannon: Give us a little brief, very quick rundown on the, the society that you work for and kind of what y'all do. Cheyenne: Yeah. So I work for the Edmonton two-spirit society. I'm the community liaison, and we're a really small nonprofit organization in Edmonton, Alberta.We're traditionally known as a [00:04:00] Misu west Gein. And we primarily serve any indigenous person who identifies as two-spirit or queer trans gender diverse, sexually diverse as well as their kinship circles. So supporting family members, their networks and understanding their loved one, a little better.So we provide access to like things like ceremonies, culture and other social events. And as well as a wide range of like mental health and social support. So we're still a bit of a baby organization, but we have a lot of big plans for the next few years. De'Vannon: See there, they do all the things. And so.And again, the first episode I shot with her, we have a lot more info on all of that and a lot of information in the showy notes. So today we're, we're gonna talk about your history, very chaotic history. And but you know, we plant seeds and dirt and mud and all this crazy shit, you know, and out of that dirt and feel comes up [00:05:00] the most beautiful things that we all use to sustain ourselves off of.And so there's nothing wrong with having issues because, you know, they make us who we are. So when we wrapped up our last conversation several weeks ago, we. You know, got onto the, the happy trail about you and stuff like that. And I learned some things about you that I didn't know. So you have a history of meth addiction as do I, I don't know what they call her in your neck of the woods, but down here they call her Tina, you know, miss tea T Cheyenne: I mean, it's been a while since I was in that circle back in my day, we used to call it jib or pin are kind of like two of the, the common terms here, but I've also heard like ice or, you know, the usual ones, but yeah.Jib or pin are like the ones that I De'Vannon: always used. Mm-hmm are these, they call her that [00:06:00] fucking bitch, you know? Cause she, she ruins things. And so so what would age range was, was the meth addiction? What age range was this? Yeah. Cheyenne: So like you said, my, my background is messy and complicated, but I started using math at age 14.And it took me about three years. So I was into my 17th year when I finally was able to stop using. De'Vannon: Okay. Do you remember who got you into it for the first time or how that oh yeah, Cheyenne: I remember the exact moment. Oh yeah. 100%. I, so I grew up in a really violent household, just a trigger warning for anyone listening that my story does come with, like child abuse and trauma and all those hard things.As well as like indigenous trauma and [00:07:00] residential schools, all of that's a part of my story. So I left home at 14. I was adopted by my aunt and uncle and we can talk a little bit more about that. But I was adopted by my biological aunt and her husband and brought into their family. And after like a sustained well of like physical abuse in the home, I decided to leave at age 14.And so I was kind of living on the streets for a little while there prior to getting placed into a group home. And it was during that initial time that I had on the streets. And so I had met some person like on, I think like Nextopia, which was like a popular social media. It was like Facebook, but way before Facebook.And it was like made here in Edmonton. So it was like our own little social media that we had. And so I had met this guy and we like started dating or whatever. I was 14, he was like 16. But we were both unhoused at the time. And so we were like hanging out on the streets and he had this gay man that he was friends with.And in Edmonton, I don't know where you live, but in Edmonton, it's common. And particularly in the inner [00:08:00] city for there to be what we call rooming hoses. So it's just like a building full of like isolated suites that have enough room for like a bed. It's a small little kitchenette and usually the bathroom is down the hall.And so they're quite small. You can't really fit a lot of people in there, but my boyfriend at the time, and I moved in with this gay guy and he had about like four other queer men living there with him. And my boyfriend would like go and try and find work during the day. And so I was often like hanging out with these queer guys and one of them one day was like, Hey, you wanna come for a hoot?And I was like, I smoked cannabis at the time and was like, and I thought I knew about drugs. Like I had heard a lot about the acids and the, the ketamines, but I hadn't really tried anything to that point, other than weed, I smoked a lot of weed and he is like, Hey, you wanna come for a hoot? And then like, he's like taking me to the bathroom.And I was like, yeah, I figured it was just gonna be cannabis. And he pulled out a light bulb and like had like his whole little setup and started pouring the crystals in. And I was like the. Fuck is that and I was just fascinated by the [00:09:00] whole process and it was just like extra sketchy, cuz we were in this bathhouse like bathroom in this rooming house.Not a bathhouse. We were not in a bathhouse. I, I was underage at this time. So that was my first time using it. I didn't really know what I was getting myself into. And it was like harmless enough, but I can trace the following three years back to that moment and not really understanding what it was.And like I said, just being so fascinated by the whole process and being like instantly brought into it.De'Vannon: I dunno how it was for you, but it wasn't until after, you know, I went through traumatic experiences that I became open, you know, to drugs and stuff like that. Cuz people had been offering them to me all my life and I always said no. Do you feel like had you. You know, you're basically homeless at the time.Do you think that if you were at home in a more [00:10:00] supportive situation that you would've accepted that, or, you know, from him. Yeah, Cheyenne: I think about that a lot, because I was born into trauma. Right. I was born into grief and that's not even just an indigenous thing. It's just like, my family is so broken. And like, we're doing a lot better now.I just wanna preface that I have a fairly decent relationship with my aunt and uncle now. We haven't quite worked through a lot of this stuff yet. I'm hoping that will come. And if they listen to this, I love you. But you know, growing up in a home where the people that were supposed to care for me, because they had adopted me, they instead of like providing a safe space for me, they further traumatized me.Right. And so I also have ADHD. And I think it's really important to note that I was already on Ritalin at a really young age. I, I think they had me on Ritalin at. Grade one. So I was already on subs like stimulants. I had already been using stimulants for a number of years prior to actually having that first encounter with [00:11:00] meth.So like, I think my likelihood of getting into it probably would've been a lot more dis decreased, but just by understanding my family's history with addiction, my own history with substances that were prescribed to me, I likely probably still would've engaged in that, but maybe not as early or not as aggressively than I had, but I mean, it's all speculation, right?De'Vannon: I'm here from some, I'm here for some speculation this morning. I'm here from some specul. I am, I really am this ING. Cuz what I'm thinking is like, you know, drugs, you know, release so much dopamine in different chemicals. Yes. Chemicals in us that make us feel all yummy. You know, when we're walking around feeling bad and miserable, it creates like an emotional deficit and drugs feel that void it's, you know, it's a complete opposite direction.And, you know, and there seems to me to be like a [00:12:00] pattern and a trend to people who are generally unhappy or who wrestle a lot in life and struggle who like tend to find drugs and cl to them. Now, when I was going through it, I didn't realize that that's what I was getting out of the drugs. I thought that I was just partying and having to get time.I didn't realize that I was actually trying to make myself feel better and numb pain. And so I wanna point that out. Cause I'd like people to be aware, you know, sometimes you're just partying for the sake of part and there's nothing more than a fucking party, but sometimes you're actually trying to to patch over trauma, but you're not really addressing the issue.And then as soon as you sober up, you're gonna want more because then the pain comes back. Cheyenne: Yeah. Yeah. It's like such a temporary fix to that heavier stuff that we carry around, you know, and I think for a long time, that's actually what it was for me, you know? And when I was unhoused and using meth, a lot of times it was also to stay awake, cuz I was walking around all night and didn't have anywhere to sleep.And so [00:13:00] you're trying to wait it out until like the, the local drop in opens, you know, so you need to be up and alert all night. And so it was helpful for that. But you know, when I did quit smoking meth, I didn't stop using drugs. Like I wanna be super clear about that. Like I stopped using meth at 17, but I still used other substances for a number of years.And even to this day, I'm not totally sober and very open that I, I use cocaine a couple times a year. I use mushrooms a couple times a year, but it's not at all where I'd start on a Friday and finish on a Monday, you know in my twenties, like when I was raving a lot and really partying hard. And I think at that time I was masking the trauma and I was masking that pain and not really conscious of it and aware of it.So as much as I'm like, oh yeah, I'm just partying. No, I'm actually just needing to start dealing with my stuff and I'm not quite there yet, you know? I'm there now, but it's, it's taken me a little while to get there. De'Vannon: so then it require, I'm thankful that you're there. It requires like, you know, a gut check moment or several of them, [00:14:00] because, you know, as a drug dealer, when I was a drug dealer, I I'd say probably 95% of my clientele, you know, was probably going way too hard on the meth and all the other drugs that I was selling them.And I only had very few who were like, they only did meth or G or whatever I was selling on their birthdays or when they travel, you know, most people didn't have that sort of discipline, but that discipline does exist. But the thing is, if you're already doing drugs and you're actually doing it in a balanced, fun way, if a traumatic experience happens, you could slip into this.Into this, what we're talking about, where you're now, what was once just fun. You're actually now using it to deal with the trauma and you may not be consciously aware of it. And so if something really bad happens, I would say probably stop the drugs for a moment until you get your shit sorted out so [00:15:00] that you don't overlap that pleasure of the drugs and get it mixed in with whatever bad thing has befallen you.Yeah. Cheyenne: If I find that I'm having a tough time in life, or if I'm struggling, stressed out, mental health is bad. I know that that's not a time to reach for substances or alcohol. Right. It's really in a moment of recreation, I'm at a music festival. It's like a celebrate. I don't even really wanna say celebratory, but it's, you know, a more intentional kind of move as opposed to, I'm just trying to like deal with my stress in a, in a, in a trauma response kind of way that I'm used to.So I'm pretty good now at, at understanding the difference there. And like I say, I don't I try to avoid substances if I'm not doing well in my head. cause I know it's a slippery slope. De'Vannon: And so I wanna walk down the path that you're talking about. You know, it sounds like you basically harm reduced yourself to a point where you can manage the different narcotics and substances.I don't think drugs are bad. [00:16:00] I think they can become bad for certain people. And it's for us to understand when the shit's gone too far, when you need, you need to dial it back or stop. Now, what you've done goes against a lot of conventional. I won't call it wisdom because I don't find it to be very wise, a lot of conventional advice, like the anonymous movements and shit like that.Try to give out and where, and they say once an addict, always an addict you know, and I just don't believe in that. And so. So I, I love that you're being transparent and telling the world that yeah, I used to be strung out on meth and you know what, now I'm able to just do me a couple of bumps of cocaine a year and be good with that or whatever may come along.But what do you think about how, you know, oh, here's the kitty let's Cheyenne: Steve don't show De'Vannon: them your bubble please. Hey Steve. Yeah, it's happy Friday. He's like, look at his ass[00:17:00]Cheyenne: ass, a small, he in a house. So he is really curious about everything right now. De'Vannon: Yeah. So what are your thoughts about he has stripes like my, like my eldest cat, Felix. What are your thoughts about how the anonymous movement like crystal meth anonymous? Alcoholics anonymous tries to keep people under that thumb of always being an addict forever and saying, if you ever use anything ever again, and RA a rock will happen in your life.Cheyenne: Yeah. I mean, I have, I have friends and family that are in the program. And it, it, if it works for them, it works for them. But in my personal experience, in trying to use those programs, it was very shameful. I was like taught to feel shameful of my decisions, taught to feel shameful of my trauma responses.And I just, I, I also don't resonate with religion as we spoke about before. And so a lot of those programs are centered around go. And even though it's like good orderly direction, it still has like a religious undertone to me. Which [00:18:00] makes me feel uncomfortable just in general. But the whole idea of like, you know, a relapse is like the end of the world, or, you know, you have to like repent, anytime you'd make a mistake.There's just like a lack of humanity there, or like an imposition of shame that we don't need to hold. Right. Like I Tru I do believe in harm reduction because I've seen the benefits in my own life and how it's. Like been a benefit to the community that I serve. And I don't feel that those programs honor that space of harm reduction or that space of like meeting people where they're at and, and, and understanding their traumas.You're standing up in these rooms and you're talking about your pain, but. It's not therapy. Do you know what I mean? Like it's not a substitute for actually sitting down and working through your traumas because the people in that room are not equipped to support you through that process because they also need someone else supporting them.So peer based education, peer based support is definitely beneficial, but at some point we also need to realize that like those rooms, you know, there's not a lot of success rate that [00:19:00] come out of them. You need to actually be like attending them. And there's like a lot of research around the productivity of these, of these spaces.And they're not super. Great. Like they, they tend to lead to relapse a lot more actually. And I think that's really worth noting. Like you're going into these rooms thinking that you're gonna get better. And at some point you might just be retraumatizing yourself by listening to these stories and putting yourself back on that path, which then is then shamed if you use again.So I don't really resonate with those rooms, but again, I, I honor and respect that it does work for some people. Some people really need that rigidity in the routine to be able to say on their path. I'm not one of those people. So it didn't really work for me. I found that what got me to where I'm at today was.My, my mom, like my biological mom, she was an addict for many years. Had a pretty severe addiction to alcohol and you know, injection drug use contracted Hep C at one point during the poor, the process of her drug use. And that's why she didn't raise me. Right. But so [00:20:00] she tried the rooms when she was getting sober, but it was really having support from her family that got her there.And that's what got me to where I'm at. So if I'm having a rough time or if I need support, I call my biological mom and we talk about it. And it's just a really open Frank conversation. And I really appreciate that she can hold that space for me because, you know, she had to take accountability to the harms that she also caused me that got me to the point where I need to talk about this stuff.Right. So she's able to like actually come to terms with what she's done, her choices, how it's impacted me, and then now my choices, if all of that makes sense. Welcome to my long winded responses. Again. De'Vannon: Hey, use all the fucking winds you want. Cheyenne: Blow through mm-hmm De'Vannon: so let me, let me, let me think, let me think.Let me think. So I'm gonna throw a little bit of shade at the anonymous movements. You know, I found them to be very negative and I'm saying this because there's probably somebody out there listening. [00:21:00] Who's new with this whole fighting addiction and everything. And the anonymous movements might be one of the first things that someone throws at them or something like that.And it just reminded me so much of being in church, you know, where they think that their way is better than any other way. And they're not willing to be open minded and take a second look at things. And it's just so Just so bad, you know, and like you said, when I would, I would go to the meetings feeling happy by the time the shit was over, I would feel heavy and depressed.Like I wanted to go get high, you know, from listening to the, a bunch of grown ass men, bitch and moan, you know, and everything like that. And it just, it never worked for me. I did not like re you know, calling yourself an addict every time. The whole point is to get over being an addict where they don't believe you can ever be healed, but at the same time, what sentences are gonna say, what sense is gonna do for me to sit here and say, I'm an addict every damn day.You know? Cause sometimes they want you go to meetings three times a [00:22:00] day. It's like you're reaffirming the negatives thing that you're trying to get away from. But if it, if, if it's a program trying to keep you under their foot and under their thumb, then it works great for their agenda, which is the same thing.The church does a lot of times as they have the, the members in a certain way, that you can never really be free of them. It's like, you always are gonna need them for some reason. And I also found them to be hypocritical because all the, all the shit they talk about drugs, the pots of coffee that they would go through, you know, at every meeting and how they chain smoke cigarettes and shit outside.I said, okay, let me get this straight. I'm not supposed to do cocaine or meth or anything, never again for the rest of my life, but you can smoke five packs of cigarettes and drink 10 gallons of coffee a day. Okay.Cheyenne: yeah, it is. It is quite hypocritical. Yeah. And, and like, [00:23:00] even to the, the amount of like donuts or sugar that they provide, you know, and I'm not saying don't feed people, like, obviously we should feed people in these faces, but like, it is ironic that they then, you know, encourage other basically you're just substituting your one addiction for something else.Right. And I think that's too, is the rooms also become an addiction of it's. So I think that's kind of my other issue with them is that because we're not really teaching people how to build their toolkits up, to respond to traumatic moments or stressful moments, we're actually just creating further dependency onto the rooms.And so then you're not actually helping them be able to maintain it when there's no access to a room or when that's not a, an option, because then, then what's the next option to them. It's the room, drugs, the room or alcohol. Right. And it doesn't have to be like that. There's a whole other spectrum of supports that exist between the room and the drugs.De'Vannon: Mm. And so help me understand, how was it like [00:24:00] growing up, like in an adopted home? Did you know that your mother was out there somewhere? Did she reappear randomly out of nowhere? One day? Cheyenne: Yeah, she was in and outta my life. So I can like start from the beginning. So yeah, like my grandparents were both on my mother's side, I don't know my biological father, so I've never met him.I don't know anything about his family. When him and my mother were together they, she, he was quite abusive to her. And so he was actually it got to the point where she was too scared to tell him that she was pregnant with me because she thought that he would basically just. Forced her to abort or beat her up to miss Carrie.And so he actually went to jail and so she fled Vancouver and came back to Edmonton and had me here without the knowledge of my father. So whether or not my father knows I'm alive, I have, I have no idea. But so my mother on my mother's side is all indigenous say for like one or two family [00:25:00] members through the line that were, were settler.And so we come from drift Powell, CRE nation in Northern Alberta. I was not born and raised there because my grandmother's only experiences with the residential schools and abuse. From her partner, my grandfather she left the reserve at a young age when my mom was really young and raised all her children in Edmonton.And it was very like an intentional thing where she didn't want us to grow up on the reserve. She wanted us to have better access, to supports and grow up in a healthier way without the violence, which didn't necessarily work cuz some of that trauma. So deep-rooted right. We just carry it between family members, between generations.And so my mother struggled with substances, as I mentioned and tried really hard to take care of me for the first couple of years, brought me back to British Columbia and there's like this weird timeline in my story where I actually. Don't know what happened to me. So there was some sort of incident in Parksville where my mother was living at the time and social services got involved and, and I don't know the true story, but I've heard that [00:26:00] I was found like in a pile of pills in a hotel room, I've heard that my mother was like passed out on a couch in an apartment and social workers found me.So I don't really know the actual story. No, one's really kind of given me clarity, but my grandmother came to BC and brought me back to Edmonton. And then I was raised by my aunt and uncle. And so I knew that I was adopted. Like they didn't try to hide that from me. And my mom was really struggling with alcohol at the time, particularly.And so my household that I was growing up in was alcohol free. So that was one good thing about my home. There was a lot of cannabis in my house, but I had three siblings that were my biological aunts children. And they had it slightly better than I did, I would say. But my mom would like come in and out.So she took me back again in grade three. I can't remember how old I was in grade three. Like, I don't know, eight maybe. And she took me back and brought me back into her care. And then one day she just never picked me up from [00:27:00] school. And I was waiting and waiting and waiting and she had relapsed and was back out on the streets partying.And so I ended up back in social services and I was actually at a foster home for a few months before my aunt and uncle took me back in. So my mom was, was in and out of the picture. She would come to like the odd family events and stuff, but it was mainly my aunt and uncle that were, were raising me and, and doing so in violence at that De'Vannon: time.Okay. I'm on that violence from the aunt in just a second. So having never met your father. How, how do you feel about that? Do you have peace about that? I ask because so many times I come across people who really, really, really have a big problem with not knowing one or both of their parents. Where are you on that?Cheyenne: Yeah, it does bother me. Not so much because I wanna know him, like if he was treating my mom poorly and was like, my mom was [00:28:00] terrified of him. I don't necessarily wanna know that person. But he has a family. I have grandparents on that side. I know I have two half brothers I don't know their names, so my dad's name was Walter Adams and he was born in Scarborough, Ontario, and that's like the only information that I have about him.And then he had two sons. I haven't been able to find any other information out. And I refuse to do like one of those DNA things, cuz I don't want them having my DNA on the that's like a colonizer tactic, not giving them my DNA. But it's been a thing of like what medical. Things are in my, in my family's history that I should know about what culture am I from?Right. There could be a whole beautiful thing that I could be immersing myself in. Maybe my family's Scottish or Irish, or I have no idea. So it would be lovely to be able to connect with what other parts of my heritage exist. And also too, like who do I look like? Like I know, I look like my mom, I can see my mom and myself, but I'd love to know what my dad looked like, because it would just give clarity about who am I as a [00:29:00] person.And like, how did I get this beautiful brain of mine? And where does my personality come from? Cuz it doesn't always match my mom and right. So like there's stuff like that where I'm like, I would love to know who is Cheyenne, but there's a half of me that I'll never know. So there's a half of me that I'll never understand where it came from and it doesn't work quite like that genetics and stuff.It's not half and half, but you know, I'm, I'm just always curious about how I got to be the person I am and I can see a lot of my mom and myself, but I also see a lot of what's probably my dad. De'Vannon: I heard you say you felt like the the DNA test was, is a colonizer tactic. Tell me about that. Well, it's just, they keep Cheyenne: your day in DNA on file.And they're using it. I mean, it is pretty cool that they're using DNA now to like solve cold cases and like that kind of thing, but like, they keep your DNA on file and they can use that for however they wish. Like that just makes me feel UN uneasy. I just, yeah, I don't know. like, like, it feels like a colonizer, like just like gaining in control by containing [00:30:00] DNA.Like it's like my ultimate that's as intimate a part of me as you can get. De'Vannon: I can understand that. And you, you know what, there's no reason why you're not right. Cuz what you're saying is once it's out there, it's out there and you really don't know who the fuck has it. Cheyenne: yeah. That's my issue with it is where does it go?And like I say, like I don't have issues with law enforcement using it to, to solve murders and get justice for people. But at the same time I feel like if my consent should be given for that and I guess when they take your DNA, they probably have some sort of consent form and that's on the release form.I'm guessing. I'm not sure I've never tried. Cause I'm just, it, it makes me nervous. De'Vannon: so when you say like, so your aunt and uncle were the people who adopted you, who were abusive to you, you know, I'm getting like you know, do you mind telling us like how was, were they like withholding food from you, locking you in a closet or hit, you know, hitting you.[00:31:00]Yeah, Cheyenne: it was never like, I wanted to be super clear. Like I love my aunt and uncle, and I wanna acknowledge that my aunt came from the same like violent background that my mother did. Right. So she carried a lot of that stuff forward. My uncle has some stuff that was never really revealed to me, but he was going through some stuff out of him.I'm not trying to excuse their behavior. It's just a way of me trying to understand and process what happened to me. And I still hold a lot of love for them. And again, if they're listening, I love you. But I, I, I talk openly about what happened to me because that's who Cheyenne is. And if you didn't want me to talk about it, then you shouldn't have done it.Okay. And that's my that's my bottom line is like, if you didn't want me to talk about my hurt, then why did you hurt me? Because I was a child. And so yeah, it, it, it, I, because I have ADHD, I have a lot of behavioral problems and no one really sat down with us and explained what ADHD meant. Right. And they never really [00:32:00] explained rejection, sensitivity, dysphoria, or explained executive dysfunction or all like the complexities of ADHD.Usually people think like, oh, they can't sit still. And like, you see me, I'm fidgeting with something all the time. I'm never really sitting still, but ADHD is actually really. Impactful on so many parts of my life. And now as an adult, I understand that. But as a kid, my behavioral issues that came from ADHD, but also from a place of trauma and me trying to like fit into this world that I didn't, as I mentioned last time, I feel like I'm the in between person, right.I'm always in between kind of everything. And that was even in my childhood. And so whenever I would do something or if I, I, and I'm trying to, like, when I look back at my childhood, I'm, I'm trying to pinpoint exact moments of things that I did. And I can never remember what I did. I just remember the abuse after.And that's like really telling, because it was probably something super mild that I did. So some of the punishments that I would receive were yep. Having fooled food with help from me. So a big tactic was taking away my [00:33:00] mattress and just leaving me on a two, like a plank, like a plywood, my bed frame and locking me in my room and I wasn't allowed to play with anything or talk to anybody or, or anything.So it was isolation by myself in my room, like like you're in the hole or something in jail, you know? And they wouldn't feed me. They wouldn't nothing. And one time I remember I was playing with a pencil crayon and my uncle came in to check on me and saw me with a pencil crayon and beat me with a pencil crayon.And so I had like bruises and, and everything. And I had to go to camp that, that week. And so I went to camp with all these bruises and had to lie and say that I like fell off my bike and it was like a whole thing. But, so that was a big one was lots of like physical violence. Lots of like manipulation of like, you know, calling me a slot or like using really like, like aggressive language or towards me, weird like psychological stuff where they would one time they pretend to abandon me.We were going on a camping trip and they drove away without me and left me [00:34:00] standing in the yard. And I was abandoned as a child by my mother. Right. So not growing up with my mom, I have abandoned in trauma. And so when they left me, it's like something that I'm processing in therapy right now.Going back to that, that moment of like, they was a joke to them. But to me it was traumatizing because I still carry that now, like 30 years later, you know, of like, they just drove away, but they came back like 10 minutes later, you know? Yeah, lots of like, or if I didn't wanna eat something, we weren't allowed to leave the table until we ate it.So I fucking hate zucchini. I will not eat zucchini. I hate fish because it's a trauma around that. Right. Like being forced to sit there and. You're not allowed to eat anything else. And if you didn't finish eating it, then you'd go to bed without any other food. You'd come back in the morning and you'd go back to the table and have to finish eating that.And so step zucchini is my fucking nemesis. I hate it. Just because of that. So yeah, lots of like physical violence, lots of like mental, emotional stuff. Like psychological stuff. [00:35:00] Yeah. And from a young age, like it started as, as early as I can remember. I don't even remember when it started, but yeah, young and it carried right through until I would say I was in grade six.And that's because my, my sister, my cousin, she got social services involved. She had run away to my grandmother's house and social services were contact and they did an investigation. And so the physical violence stopped at that point, but the, the emotional violence was still continuing. And so I was 14.I was in grade seven or grade nine. Sorry. When I, when I made the decision to leave the house. So the physical violence had stopped at like 12. But yeah, the mental, emotional stuff carried through throughout junior high. De'Vannon: I, so, you know, I, I, I have so much respect for you. You're able to have such a positive attitude and everything like that about, you know, towards these people, kudos to you.So what was it like having a mother who was on and off of [00:36:00] drugs like that? Do you remember how that affected you or I just Cheyenne: remember being like, why doesn't she want me. Like, why doesn't she love me? Right? Like that's, that's I think the biggest thing that I took away of like, nobody wants me, my mom doesn't want me, my dad doesn't want me.And then now these people who are supposed to care for me, who made the choice, they chose to bring me into their house instead of loving me and protecting me, they further traumatized me. And so I think that was the thing that I struggled with the most as a kid of like, not understanding why everything was happening to me and not understanding why choices were being made for me.And where was my mom? Like, and then when she did come in, she would be drunk or she'd have a new boyfriend and like, it would just be uncomfortable, you know? So like, yeah. I just remember just always wondering, like, what's next like, why, why is this happening? Like, and I just block out a lot of my childhood.There's a lot of like memories that I just don't have. And a part of that is an ADHD thing. Just cuz I have a terrible time forming [00:37:00] memories. But I think I've just shut down a lot of my childhood. And I remember some of the heavier traumatic moments, but some of the good times are gone too.You know, like I try. I'm figuring it out. But yeah, it's just, you know, it was a lot of confusion for my childhood of like, why doesn't she wanna get better? Why doesn't she want me, why doesn't anybody want me, you know?And that's like a hard thing to carry as an adult. Like even still being chronically single for three years. You're like even still, nobody wants me, you know, but I know that's not at the end of the day, that's not true. It's just, you know, things you carry forward from your De'Vannon: past. I have every belief that you are going gain the strength you need to totally overcome at all.And so I'm curious. So we have all of this fuckery that, that didn't happen. Would you have the experience once you broke away [00:38:00] from your aunt, uncle and you were now homeless, you know, a homeless youth, did you find like a community in a sense of family out there in the streets that you felt like you had found for the first time?Yeah. Cheyenne: I would say in particular, like we had our straight family, you know, we would like, like ride around on our BMXs and hang out in the square and play ack and smoke meth and stairwells, you know, I had that crew, but it was when I started raving that I really found myself and I really felt like I found a community.So I started going to the after hours when I was like 14, but I would like always get kicked out. Cause I was, they had passed a bylaw that it was 16 plus. So I had a couple years to wait, so I would go in, they'd kick me out. And so everybody knew me in the parking lot to hang out in the parking lot a lot.But that was where I really started to find a community for the first time where I felt like I was like loved and welcomed. And for all of my. Weirdness all my flaws, all my eccentric nest that I bring to the table that was like [00:39:00] welcomed in the rave community, because a lot of the people that we shared space with were also coming from background similar to mine, or coming from spaces where they were the, the black sheep, the ostracized one, the, you know, and so I think that was the space where I was like, oh, I, I actually belong in this world.And, and then that's okay that I exist.De'Vannon: Honey, the, the tears you're shedding right now are not in vain. You know, I feel like, I feel like they're healing you, you know, I see those tears and I appreciate appreciate them because I believe they're healing you. And also, I believe you're shedding tears for other people too. Who've gone through the similar things.And so, and I love how you're just letting 'em flow. You're like, you know what? This is me. They call me cry Cheyenne: in for a reason. always crying. De'Vannon: let it go, honey, let it go. Let it go. Let it go. Cheyenne: Well, and I think it's important [00:40:00] that people hear my story because, and that's why I don't shy away from talking about the harder stuff.Even though I know it's like other people's story too. It's, it's very much my story. And I think that if someone can hear my story and know that like you're gonna be okay, like it's gonna be okay, you don't have to be what other people tell you that you are or who you've been made out to think that you are like, you're just so beautiful and perfect the way you are.And like, no matter how much other people beat you, like that's never, they're never gonna beat that out of you. Like that's yours to own. And I think I've had to really accept that. None of those things were my fault, everything that happened to me, some of the decisions I made when I started using meth and like living on the streets and being more violent, those were my choices that I have to own, but I didn't ask my aunt and uncle to beat me.I didn't ask to be adopted. I didn't ask to be born. Right. And so a lot of that staff I had to really just separate mm-hmm my. My choices from their choices. And so that's why I say, if you don't want me to talk about my story, then don't hurt me. [00:41:00] Like, if, if you don't want that to be part of my story, then don't make it part of my story.And I think that goes like with any person that comes into my life now, it's not just about my aunt and uncle it's about anybody, you know, like, and I've had really good conversations with my biological mom. Like I said about everything that she's done about the abandonment and about how it's impacted me now as adult.But I haven't quite had that conversation with my aunt and uncle yet. And so I know it's coming. And I don't know if it's gonna go in a positive direction or Renee. I don't know if it's like gonna be a make or break for our relationship, but I'm ready to have the conversation. I still have a few more therapy sessions before I, I get to that point, but I'm, I'm almost there to have the conversation of like, this is what you did and this is how it's affected me.And I just need to hear you be accountable for it. Right. And like, I love you. I forgive you, but I, I need you to hold space for my pain.De'Vannon: I commend you on your bravery. You you gotta. You you gotta walk ahead of you, but [00:42:00] but you know, but you're doing everything that you can do because you can't really control it, what anyone else does, but at least, you know, you have a strong sense of peace knowing you exhausted every possible means to sort it all out.And then you haven't acccess to anger. You haven't become bitter, you know, or anything like that. And that's something that I'm noticing, and that can happen to people by it'll just get angry and stuff like that, and not really do anything except for stay angry. But what, one thing, one good thing I did learn from my sponsor and crystal meth anonymous is that bitterness and resentment it's like me drinking poison and expecting someone else to die.so, so, so however it is that you do it. Y'all let that bitterness go. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. I like stay on this, the, the, the, the, the homeless, like, youth experience, because I'm, I'm thinking about like, say [00:43:00] chosen family and things like that. So like, so like when the biological family doesn't quite work out in.Sometimes I see people who just cannot get over their biological family. Be it sisters, brothers, cousins, moms, dads, whatever. I dare say. I think some people have an addiction to family. Okay. I, I, I do believe that. What do you think about chosen family? Because there's a lot of people. There's a lot of us, black sheepy ones.Okay. It's never gonna work out with us in our biological family. And I just think it's time we come to terms with that. Cheyenne: yeah. It's, it's the dependency thing. We're like we're indoctrinated to believe that our family is like, we need to be right or die with our family. No matter how much they hurt us. And I just can't get on board with that.Like it's like being in a toxic relationship, being with an abusive partner, we wouldn't say, oh no, you need to stay with them because you love them. Right. We would say, no, that person is hurting. You, you need to separate yourself [00:44:00] from them. That person does not bring you joy, separate yourself from them.And I think that's the same with the family. You know, like I say, it it'll be a make or break conversation with my family because like, it's, it, it, it, it just has gotta happen. But I think that's why I love my chosen family so much, you know like particularly the rave community helped me for so many years, and now I have a drag family and like The drag community has been so much just so loving and caring and comforting for me.And I've only been doing drag since August. And so I found a chosen family, even within that small group of people and it was instant. It was like, they were just like, yeah, I see you. And I love you for who, who you are. And so I'm, I'm a firm believer in chosen family as well. I think we need to make spaces for ourselves that bring us joy, Marie condo, that shit.If, if, if your family does not spark joy, fucking, just move on and, and find someone who does carry you. Someone who is willing to love you in your messy times, someone who is willing to say, Hey, you're fucking up. How do we fix that? [00:45:00] Someone who can call you in and, and, and cry with you and love with you and celebrate with you.And if your family's not willing to do that and accept you for who you are, then it's okay to step away. Like, and I, and I firmly believe that. De'Vannon: And we're not saying it won't take some counseling and some talking through because it, oh, no Cheyenne: therapy, like, please get, get a therapist, please. De'Vannon: Cause it's like, when you leave biological family, it's almost like they've died in a way.And, and I, and I found, I had to like mourn the loss, you know, of a certain sibling of mine when, when there was just no path forward for us because of bitterness that they hold towards me and they refused to talk through it. You know, it felt like it was like, it was like attending a funeral for them.And it was, and I had to, you know, you know, I talked to my counselor and everything about that and, you know, we were able to find peace and resolution. I was curious like your aunt and uncle are they like, [00:46:00] do they say they're like religious people. Not at all. Cheyenne: No, no, no, no, no, not at all. No, we, we did not grow up with religion.My grandmother was the religious one. And so I spent much of my youth, like I said, in going to church and choir and like doing all the things. But my family was never really there at church. They would go like once a year, but in the last couple of years, a lot of my family has been really embracing our indigenous side, which has been beautiful to see.So not quite going to ceremonies and stuff yet, but you know, rejecting Canada day, rejecting religion you know, even starting to reject the religious holidays, which has been really great for me because I'm like, I feel bad that I'm not coming to Christmas dinner, but like I'm not celebrating Christmas anymore.It's just not my thing. It's not for me. I don't believe in it. But yes, it's been really great to see them embrace the indigenous kind of side of things. And, and thankfully religion. Wasn't a big part of my story outside of like the earlier part of my years.[00:47:00]De'Vannon: So, so then you get into a group home, so you're no longer homeless. So when you were homeless, like you said that you were like smoking meth to walk, you know, to stay up all night. It reminded me when I was, when I was homeless in Houston, I would constantly have meth in my system. And so I would just walk and walk and walk and walk and walk, you know, that's when I walked myself down to 127 pounds, you know, everything like that.And it was whew. I was barely here. This, this, this girl was barely here. And sohow often did you eat? Because for me it was about like maybe every five, seven days or so. I might come across food. Do you remember. Cheyenne: Well, see, I had a unique experience because I was in high school at the time. So I was still attending classes and I, I love my high school there. It was the boil street education center.And they have a meal program, [00:48:00] so they feed their students breakfast and lunch, and that was a big way of getting me into school. So I was like living in like the river valley. I would hike up the stairs in the morning, come out of the, come out of the ravine and go to class and, and be able to get a hot breakfast and a hot lunch.And so school, as much as I wasn't so engaged in the material. It could keep me there because they would feed me. And they're smart. It was a very intentional thing for them. And even to this day, the school still feeds their students. Two meals a day. They have hamper programs, they have supports for their students.And so when I was, when I was homeless, it was like a really big thing for me, was to be able to go and eat Monday to Friday. And then Saturdays, it would depend if I would make it to the soup kitchen or not. There would be days when I wouldn't make it to school or wouldn't make it to soup kitchen and I'd go without food.Or when school was off during the summer, so they have more of a year round program. So they're really only off for part of July and August. And so there would be that short brief of time where I wouldn't have two [00:49:00] meals a day. And. From 14 to 16. So when I was 16, even though I was still using meth, my biological mom was sober by that point.And so she got a new home. She got like an apartment and I moved in with her for a while. So I lived with her for a year while I was still using meth. And I was still very street involved. I had a space to go home and sleep in, but I was still like very much out and about on the street all hours of the night and day.But I was getting food at that point. So, De'Vannon: and you said in the was it a hamburger program you said? I couldn't quite hear. Yeah. They call it a ham, a hamper program. Cheyenne: Yeah. We have hamper programs yeah. At the school as well. I'm actually the board of directors for the high school. I'm still involved with the school.I just really believe in the work that they're doing because they saved my life. Like it was boil street being like, yeah, you're tweaked out. You're, you're a sketchy wild child, but we're gonna just love you and accept you as you are. And again, that's where my earliest [00:50:00] introductions to harm reduction came from, was through the school of like, yeah, you're clearly sketching, but you're still allowed to be here.It wasn't like, oh, you're high on meth. You need to leave. It was like, oh, you're high on meth. Let's sit you down here and support you and give you extra attention so that, you know, you are going to be okay. Like, we make sure that you're okay. And I just really appreciated that approach. So they, I would say they saved my life and they fed me, which I really appreciated.De'Vannon: yeah, my God. I had too many doors closed in my face when I. High on meth and everything like that. I'm so glad you had a different experience and I didn't have enough sense to go and find, like, I didn't know that there was one stops and places you can go and shower and stuff like that. I tried to eat at the shower was Cheyenne: harder De'Vannon: for me.Yeah. I tried to eat at the veteran's affair. It's like a soup kitchen that my cousin had told me about. I eat there like once and the next time I went back, they told me I was dressed too good. And so they turned me away. So they, so they [00:51:00] wouldn't let me eat because I looked too good at the, at the veteran's affairs.And so. They were I Cheyenne: didn't forbid I, how people look De'Vannon: nice. yeah. Like, and I think what it was is from where the drug rate had happened. I think, you know, when you're homeless, you show from house to house, sometimes you might pick up a shirt here, pair of jeans there, that sort of thing. And I think some of my clothes may have been recycled back to me from when the drug rate happened.My shit got scattered all over Houston. And so I was able to piecemeal a decent outfit together. I just, you know, and I just felt really good about myself for that one day at that one time. And you know, so I'm thinking I'm looking good. I'm gonna get me something to eat. You know, I haven't shot up meth yet.Otherwise I wouldn't have an appetite and they're like, Leave. And so I had to sit there and watch everybody eat, not once, but twice. And then I was denied food. And so I was like, you know what? Back to the streets I go then . And so Cheyenne: And I'm guessing that was run by some sort of, you said ministry. Oh, no veterans.[00:52:00] So not religion based? No. Okay. A lot of RSU kitchens here are religion based. Two in part, part, two of the main ones are run by like churches. De'Vannon: You have them, they might be like under like a Catholic archdiocese or something like that. But the ones that are like that here are not very religious. Like they might say a prayer when all the homeless people get in there, otherwise disadvantaged people get there to eat, but nobody's like coming around, handing you out little Bibles or anything like that.No, this was a government facility. I'm a veteran of the United States air force at a veteran's affairs. Kitchen. And I was denied food there even as a veteran. Yeah. That's all that was, there was veterans. It was a place just for veterans. And so, but they told me that's so frustrating. I wasn't looking trashy enough for their, for their liking and Cheyenne: so gross.[00:53:00]De'Vannon: Okay. So then. So then you got emancipated at the age of 17. Talk to me about that process. I think it's abundantly clear why you probably wanted to be emancipated, but there's something you'd like to say about the why I'd also like to know the, how. Cheyenne: Yeah. So when I left home at 14 and by the time I then began living with my mom at 16.So in those years I was like in and out of group homes. I had some charges that I received as well for some stuff. So I was like in and out of the young offender center as well, never more than like a couple days or a week. I had 2, 2, 2 instances where I was in jail. But it was like going through group homes and going through like just constantly in and outta group homes.And like, I always just felt like I'd just rather be on the streets. I would much rather be like, and I, I think part of that was like I had what's that disorder. Oh, I can't remember what it's called anywheres, like pressed. What is I [00:54:00] can't remember the name anyways. I just didn't take to authority very well.And I think it's because when you grow up in violence and you grow up, like constantly being told how to think or act, or, you know, being punished for trying to be yourself you know, authority just is there's conflicting there. Right. And so I just didn't really like being in group homes. And so I was talking to my social worker at the time.And I had a lot of bad social workers over the time as well. Like they just didn't really want to actually like sit with me or support me. They would just throw a food voucher my way, or throw a clothing voucher my way and then, or throw me in a group home. And that would be it, there was not really a lot of like dignity coming from conversations with social workers.And so when I talked to my social worker about it and I said, I think I'm ready to like, not be a part of the system anymore because I had been my whole life. Right. My mom. Adopted me out to my aunt and uncle. So I already had child welfare involvement from like a young age. And so for me, it just [00:55:00] made more sense to separate myself from the state, so to speak.So I did have to go through a court process. I remember it being fairly easy. Because at that point I was living with my biological mom. And I was, I think I was actually 16 when I emancipated cuz I was still using at that time. But I just remember the court process being really easy. And I remember just being really like, that's it like, there's like, okay.You're and, but I mean, it, it cost me some support, so I didn't get like any sort of food or clothing vouchers anymore. I didn't have any financial assistance from, from child welfare or anything like that. So there was like a whole side of supports that I, I could have probably accessed. I think now it's up until 23 is when you can access those supports.At that time it was probably like 18 or 19. So I still had a few more years of support, but for me it just made more sense to be independent. And I was so fiercely independent because my whole [00:56:00]life, everybody that was supposed to care for me, let me down. And so at that point I also felt like the system had also let me down.And so I just rather do the things on my own. And I've been doing things on my own ever since I've been, I left home at 14 and I'm still living alone and I'm, I'm very independent. I don't ask for a lot of help. It's hard for me to ask for help. So that's a, a thing I'm, I'm learning to work through now of like being comfortable asking for help.But for many years it was like, I just wanted do my own thing and getting out of the system was the best way to do that. So I'm glad I emancipated, but it's not the great move for everybody. Right? Like some people might need additional supports moving forward. And I don't know what it's like in the states.And I, and again, this was a number of years goes, I don't even know what the emancipation process would be like now, if it would still be as easy for somebody, but I think they just saw a traumatized child who was willing to do it on their own. And it was easier to wipe themselves clean of it, not having to deal with it anymore.Right. De'Vannon: Well, [00:57:00] you know what, here's the freedom. I am so glad that you feel free. And so it's so quintessential to our mental health and our emotional wellbeing. And I think I'm like you in terms of bucking against authority, you know, because I grew up in an abusive home too, that I went to the military, not to mention all the influence of the church and this every day I'm, I'm particular about whose authority I come under.Like, and I, it is a miracle. I even made it out of the military. It was an honorable discharge because it's not that I don't like being told what to do, but I'm very particular because a lot of people wanna control others and they're not really qualified or all that competent. And so that I agree like for, but you know, for a long time, I.Well shit. That's why I'm in business for myself because I really, I really don't like being told what to do, just fuck it. I don't. What, so you, you, you did say that you lived in group homes. What, what would you say to anybody currently? Who's like a youth living in a group home because I know that came with this own set of [00:58:00] struggles and everything like that.Just what advice would you give. Cheyenne: I think looking back there were some group homes that I probably could've actually thrived in if I would've just given it a little bit of more of a chance. And so I think it like really comes down to your own intuition. If a space doesn't feel safe, like talk to your workers, talk to your support systems about that.And I, I, I just like the streets seem like a better option, but it might not be right. Like a lot of stuff happened to me on the streets as well. That was violent and abusive. And I did a lot of violent and abusive things when I lived on the street as well. Like you're in survival mode all the time.Right. So I don't know if I have like, necessarily like advice. I would just say like, Just do what feels what's going to keep you safe. And just like, remember that you're loved, like somebody out there loves you who like, and it may not seem that way when you're in a group home, everything feels really isolating and scary.And like I have social anxiety. And so it was already [00:59:00] awkward enough to be in these spaces with new people every few weeks. And like other youth who are just as angry as you are, you know? Yeah. I just like, it's just about finding ways to keep yourself safe and recognizing that it's okay to sometimes ask for that help.And that not all authority or not all group homes are out to get. Yeah. Even though it fucking seems that way when you're a kid I really wish I would've had more of an understanding of the disabilities I have and how I respond to authority. You know, and even my attachments, my attachment disorders and stuff like, yeah.I, I, I think it's really important that we start to understand who we are. And I think if you're in a group home that can feel really overwhelming. And so I don'

The podcast opens up with Shahan and Joseph talking about TensorIoT and the use cases of their work before getting into how and when TensorIoT joins a company's IoT journey. They then discuss picking the right tech for your solution and how it can fit into a business without overhauling company processes. Ryan, Shahan, and Joseph wrap up the podcast with a conversation about the importance of the cloud in IoT applications and when edge computing or hybrid solutions may be more applicable.Shahan Krakirian helps the Product Team to develop and refine TensorIoT products. His favorite part of the job: "Many jobs are repetitive – mine is not. We're constantly challenged (and growing) in an ever-changing environment, but always given the support to excel." Outside of work, Shahan enjoys rock climbing.Joseph Melendez is a software engineer leading the IoT team. He's dedicated to addressing customer needs, working in multiple programming languages, having expertise in Amazon Web Services, and hands-on experience with the hardware needed to bring their vision to life. Driven to learn from new experiences continuously and eager to address questions and concerns in the ever-changing tech landscape. He graduated from the California State Polytechnic University, Pomona, with a major in Computer Engineering and a minor in Mathematics.

Courtney & Alyssa are back for the first full episode of Shahan & Friends, after last week's pilot episode. In this episode we discuss pokt, dad bods, entrepreneurship, Shahan's weight loss challenge, hex, pet peeves, and much more!

In this episode we discuss Elon Musk buying twitter, Shahan saves Courtney from the Titanic, Alyssa eats her twin, and so much more! Shahan & Friends is comedy & entertainment series on the On with Shahan podcast.

Shahan & Friends is a weekly comedy & entertainment show. This is a clip from our pilot episode. Guests: Courtney Khoshafian & Alyssa Reardon

D-M, Nat & Shahan discuss City Women's final hurrah of the season, a 2-2 thriller away at Sunderland. We also talk in depth about the season past, and the season to come. We wonder who will come and who will stay; whether we will truly go for promotion to the WSL, knowing that our star players - Abi Harrison & Aimee Palmer - are sure to leave at the end of 22/23 season if we don't. We chat best and worse away days (thank you Craig Hadley) and salivate at the return of the greatest rivalry in women's football - Bristol City Women vs Birmingham City Women, a.k.a., the BCWFC derby. And, of course, we look forward mostly to the new kit reveal. Our big news is the Vixencast is taking a sabbatical for the 22/23 season. So that means no (regular) episodes over the next year. We've been going at this podcast lark hammer and tong since 2019, now it's time for a rest. Thank you to everyone who has listened, enjoyed and contributed to the podcast - we really appreciate all the input and support. You can still follow us, rate us, subscribe to us: Twitter @BCVixenCast Instagram @bcvixencast Facebook @bcv1xencast More links: linktr.ee/bcvixencast Vixens ‘Til We Die! COYR! --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/bcvixencast/message

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In this episode we welcome Michael Shahan, a marriage and family therapist who works with the enneagram in his practice. We discuss the value of therapy, and how the enneagram can be a useful tool for anyone looking to do some inner work.Michael's websiteFind us on Twitter (@enneagramcircle)Help fund future deep dives (Patreon)Our website

In this episode we welcome Michael Shahan, a marriage and family therapist who works with the enneagram in his practice. We discuss the value of therapy, and how the enneagram can be a useful tool for anyone looking to do some inner work.Michael's websiteFind us on Twitter (@enneagramcircle)Help fund future deep dives (Patreon)Our website

In this episode we welcome Michael Shahan, a marriage and family therapist who works with the enneagram in his practice. We discuss the value of therapy, and how the enneagram can be a useful tool for anyone looking to do some inner work.Michael's websiteFind us on Twitter (@enneagramcircle)Help fund future deep dives (Patreon)Our website

In this episode we welcome Michael Shahan, a marriage and family therapist who works with the enneagram in his practice. We discuss the value of therapy, and how the enneagram can be a useful tool for anyone looking to do some inner work.Michael's websiteFind us on Twitter (@enneagramcircle)Help fund future deep dives (Patreon)Our website

CEO Shahan Lilja joins to explain how Mavenoid is able to deploy custom chat bots in a matter of minutes, the processes by which these tools get better over time, and how the ability to automatically turn technical expertise into an algorithm that can be utilized at scale is amplifying human intelligence. 

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Lindsey is joined by Marriage and Family Therapist, Michael Shahan (IG @michaelshahan_therapy) who practices in Kansas City, MO. He is passionate about helping people get unstuck and become the best version of themselves. He specializes in trauma work, and uses the Enneagram with all of his clients. Visit www.michaelshahan.com to learn more about Michael! In this episode: Childhood patterns and the roles we play. Love & Suffering can tear down our ego Growth is a choice Richard Rohr - Great love and great suffering change us the most. "Change happens when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change" - Tony Robbins Jim Finley, mentioned in the episode Stay up to date with Lindsey and more resources for Peacemakers. Sign-up for email updates here! Join the FB Community for Peacemakers! Lindsey on IG @lindseyhaeger.co

Welcome back to FIO the podcast where we open up conversations and figure it all out together. This week we have an awesome guest, Michael Shahan, a licensed therapist who has a focus in trauma and incorporates the enneagram in his practice. In this episode we talk through misconceptions of therapy, how to have your first therapy session, how to introduce family to therapy and more. Listen, learn, and grow with us. Check out Michael's instagram @michaelshahan_therapy