Imperfectly Pollyanna

Welcome to the Imperfectly Pollyanna Podcast. I am your host, Courtney. A faith-filled homeschool mom of 2, licensed medical professional, certified health coach, AND eternal optimist. Here at the podcast, we talk about real life, always imperfect but always finding the good. I'm so glad you're here!Talk about a long break, right? Having not aired a new episode in almost 2 years, I'm sure many assumed I had stepped away permanently. The truth is that I always intended to return to this space but had to focus on different priorities. Like you, many things have happened in between today and my last chat with you. I hope to not only fill you in on some of those things but also share a very exciting adventure happening in our homeschool community. The word “exciting” isn't even the best description for it.Catching up on:Asking to be a special speakerBecoming a regional representative for our state homeschool organizationHomeschooling my own kidsStill working full-timeExciting news related to:Family legaciesMoses and Joshua doing the big thingsHomeschooling against the current that is societyA new step of faith in building up our homeschool community for years to come. Find me on FacebookFind me on InstagramEmail me: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

Today I have the honor to speak with holistic health coach, Melissa Rohlfs. She is passionate about helping busy moms identify the way they were made - how God made them -  with their own uniqueness, and then learn how to honor their body, finding what works for them. It is her desire to offer help and hope to the mama who feels overwhelmed, stuck and wants freedom to enjoy life AND motherhood Happy.  Healthy.  Free.  Ready to get unstuck and find freedom so you can be calm, confident and at peace? Here's how you can do that with Melissa :1. Check out Melissaa's free resources here.2. Impact Coaching with Melissa - Get the coaching and clarity you need to get unstuck and see results.  Schedule a coffee chat today. Links for Melissa:www.free2bcoaching.comwww.facebook.com/MelissaRohlfsCoachhttps://www.instagram.com/free2b_coaching/Podcast ~ https://anchor.fm/melissa-rohlfsConnect with Courtney:FacebookInstagramEmail: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com  

This week I had an extremely frustrating moment with one of my children while helping with the math lesson. It didn't make sense why they couldn't understand the concept of the question. I was even making it to the point where the answer was SO OBVIOUS that I could feel myself becoming angry when it wasn't quickly figured out. That's just real life, folks. And as I sat there, with my blood pressure rising and biting my tongue from saying cruel things, I felt anger toward myself for even being angry. Do you know why I'm sharing this? Because at the end of the day, we can all put on a good show for social media or in front of our friends, but when no one is watching…when no one is there to impress…when you are in the harder moments of homeschooling, THAT'S when it is REAL. I share this so that you can understand homeschool moms are not some angelic beings from another world. We are still human beings with experiences that have shaped who we are today and how we respond to difficult situations. When we ask God for something like guidance, wisdom, patience, discernment, HELP…whatever it may be…He's not going to just plop it into our laps, as nice and easy as that may sound. Instead, He will hear our prayers and answer them, but it may be in a way we didn't see coming. He sees you as a whole person…not part homeschool mom, part wife, part co-worker, daughter, sister, aunt, friend. He sees YOU and loves YOU, with all your imperfections and dirty cobwebs yet to be cleaned out or broken hinges to fix. And He HAS still called you for this time. When you ask God to help you, it's not going to always be a simple fix. As we grow in Him, the challenges will come and go, but when we struggle it doesn't mean we are failing. It is much bigger than that, but in an amazing way!IF you can see things as a bigger picture, you may begin to see some connections. Connect with me on Facebook, Instagram, or email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

Imagine for a moment, if you will, having a child that looks forward to learning. Imagine being able to see what their passions are and build a learning environment around it! It is said that “education is more than checking off boxes or getting a grade on a test.” That would've made me a nervous wreck at the beginning of our journey but now? Now it is FREEING! It can be difficult to break out of the thinking that education needs to look a certain way or that there needs to be a specific amount of information sharing within a specific amount of time. But that's just not true! Sure, children need to learn the basics and be able to function in life. However, education…LEARNING is about so much more. Find Me on Facebook, Instagram, or email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

Last week, I put up a poll on my Instagram stories to see what people would like to hear more about on the podcast. I had a GREAT response, and it really got my wheels to turning. The options I threw out were homeschool how-to, homeschool encouragement, faith, and current hot topics. The top voted was the homeschool encouragement and if you've listened to me for ANY amount of time, or if you know me in real life, you know I am a HUGE fan of cheering others on so you could say that's my jam. I'm working on a few different episodes coming up and wanted to take some time to talk a bit about homeschool how-to with some encouragement sprinkled in there. So you want to homeschool, now what?HSLDA.orgImperfectly Pollyanna on FacebookImperfectly Pollyanna on InstagramYou can also email me your questions to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I don't really know where to begin today. I would say it's kinda funny but it's not really. Crazy, maybe? Scary? I don't know. The irony of when you pray for certain things…like praying for the ability to trust God more…or to be more patient…have more courage…and especially with me lately…to have wisdom. Even this morning I prayed for wisdom even though I wasn't sure exactly what I needed wisdom for. Like I couldn't pinpoint one instance, but I just knew, and still know, I long for wisdom. Then, in true form, when you pray for something, God doesn't just give it to you, does He? You aren't automatically patient. It never fails, you pray for patience and suddenly your kids are fighting, your house is a mess, work is stressful, dinner isn't planned or ready, schedules get switched, something falls apart…and so do you. My devotional today had a little takeaway that said: “Strength grows through struggles, Courage develops in challenges, and Wisdom matures from wounds.”Can you be sad and still trust God?

I wanted to talk to you about something I find to quickly be gaining traction and it's becoming a pandemic…in my opinion. Now, I'm NOT talking about covid. A pandemic is usually in reference to a disease that is prevalent over a whole country OR the world. And when we think of diseases, there's SO many, right? From something as simple as the flu to the vast variants of cancer. But, the pandemic I am speaking on today is not something you can see…actually, that's not true because I see it…and maybe you do, too. It's the pandemic that is becoming systemic and circulating throughout our communities. It is an attack on you, me, our children, and our families as a whole. We are talking about:The education systemThe world's standardsHow we become accepting of blatant sinThe Church attacking within itselfAND we are discussing what the REAL Pandemic is: The Loss of Spiritual CommonsenseYou can find me on Facebook, Instagram, or email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

The last few weeks have been one hot mess between a broken wrist, covid, van issues and returning to work. Phew, what a time to be alive! Today, we are talking about what happens when you fall back? Whether in homeschooling, your health, or spiritual life. What do you fall back on?

Here we are at the end of the year! How are you feeling about it? Are you still trying to recover from the last couple of years? Working through holiday remnants? Are you looking forward to a new year with hope or dread? After all, we all celebrated when 2020 ended and then 2021 did the thing of “hold my beer.” If there's one thing I've learned about the past is that everyone deals with it differently. There are those who just live there. There are others who walk away and claim to never look back. I'm not sure how that happens but I think I'm more in between the two. I looked up definitions of "resolution," "revolution," and many more only to find that really, we get a release for radical restoration and change! Doesn't that get you excited??I want this next year to be a REVOLUTION OF RESOLUTION! A year where we make a conscious decision to release the past to enable us to find FREEDOM in change! What is it that you want this next year to look like? Are you living in a state of just trying to survive day after day, struggling to see through the fog of society and life? What if…what if there was something more? What if you could make a radical change…in your life…with your family…at your job…What if there was a way you could break free from the depression…the stress…the burdens that way you down, physically and mentally, and from there you found what release, peace, and purpose truly means?What if you understood how you are completely and utterly chosen for such a time as THIS? Does it mean an easy path? No, this is real life. Every day life is what tempts us with giving up on hope. The world and culture is what tempts us with thinking all is lost and there is nothing beyond where we are right now.But I am telling you, friend to friend, that is a lie! Change for the better is not always easy, but the TRUTH is that it is SO worth it!For the first time, I am going to be hosting an online interactive BIBLE STUDY beginning Jan 19th. It is called “What does it mean to be chosen” and last 8 weeks. We will be meeting online once a week, having in depth discussions that are around this question. The book is by Amanda and Dallas Jenkins, the creator of the tv series, The Chosen. It is the most beautiful show that I have seen in a really long time and has completely changed my desire, drive, and focus for how I am living life. If you would like to join me, you can send an email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com or send a private message to me on Facebook or Instagram.All the things you tell yourself…the reasons why life is how it is…the reasons why it won't work out…the reasons you may think keep you from living a more joyful and fulfilling life…Those reasons don't measure up to the truth of who you have been called to be. They don't change the fact that you have been chosen and you can make your own choice to sit back and ride the rollercoaster of life, not knowing what's coming next and holding your breath for the next foot to drop.OR! You can decide today that enough is enough. You can decide it is time for a radical change…a release…a stretching that propels you into the person you have been called to be.What do you say, are you in for a REVOLUTION OF RESOLUTION?

Find me, Imperfectly Pollyanna, over on Facebook, Instagram, or send an email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com (say hi, share any prayer requests, ask questions, I would love to hear from you!)When I was growing up, our church choir always put on some sort of Christmas play, musical, presentation, what-have-you. There was one we did multiple times and I don't remember the name of the whole thing but I DO remember a specific song that was in it and it inevitably runs through my mind every single time this time of the year. It says something to the affect of “there's only 3 days left til Christmas, and while the family's havin' fun buying present galore at their favorite store, I'm home wrapping every one.” It talks about she's cleaning, and shopping, and wrapping, baking, doing everything for everyone, completely stressed out, all while her husband and kids are enjoying the season. By the end, she's screaming and losing her mind. It was always a hit performance that received belly laughs from everyone.Of course, I was a kid then, so I thought it was funny just because the song lyrics were silly and the lady who sang it was SO great at it. As an adult, especially a parent, I now realize that song speaks to a lot of us this time of year! Sure, there are parents out there who are relaxed, enjoying every moment with their family, follow the rules of 4 with giving gifts – you know, something to read, something to wear, something wanted, and something needed. I love that. I really do. And I applaud those who do it without hesitation. I DO sometimes think those parents are unicorns, but I probably would find them judging me and my messy house, piles of laundry, and dog hair loving the furniture. Then again, that's me pre-judging them, isn't it?I'm saying all of this because I could easily give you a typical Christmas-related episode that includes those phrases of remembering the reason for the season…and it's not about giving your kids everything they want…or it's not the things but the moments they'll remember. I COULD say all of those things and I wouldn't be wrong in doing so because they are all the truth. They all matter. But honestly, I still struggle with not buying my kids all the things! Not because I think they NEED them, but because I genuinely LOVE to gift them things I know they need or want or would really enjoy. They know that when making their wish list it is simply that, a WISH list. We have emphasized it's fun to look through catalogs, find things that look fun, even think up ideas of items that would be cool to have – not knowing if they actually exist, and then putting it all on their list, all the while knowing they may not get those things. My kids make me so happy just having them in my life. There was a time when I didn't think I would ever have that ability. The ability to be a mom and raise my children. I enjoy finding little things throughout the year that make me think of them that I think they'd like. Sometimes these are toys but other times it is crafts or something like that that we can do together for fun. When it comes to Christmas, I think about the things that stick out to me that I enjoy. Either now or as a kid. Most of those things are one in the same. Driving around looking at lights, drinking hot cocoa, watching White Christmas and It's a Wonderful Life, going to our church's Christmas Eve Candlelight service. Then there's the tradition of new Christmas pajamas – something I totally failed at this year because my son now has so much muscle that the size was too small for him, haha. Oh well, he still appreciated them. There's the trimming of the tree while we play Christmas music, putting out the nativity set, hanging the stockings…so much fun. They're still happily writing letters to Santa – even if just to entertain me. I love seeing their faces light up Christmas morning as they open up each gift with thankfulness. Their excitement over watching their sibling open a gift from them. And yet, it's always the last few days before Christmas when I begin to second guess myself. “Did I get the right things? Should I have gotten something different? Will they be disappointed? I never baked the cookies. We never watched all the hallmark shows. We haven't done this or that yet.” All the pressure put on myself FROM myself to make sure it's all perfect.Do I know that it will be perfect? Yes. Do I know my kids will be grateful and happy no matter what? Yes. Do I know that when it all comes down to it, the important thing is for my children to know WHY we celebrate? 100% yes.But I wanted to be transparent with you. Because I think it is EASY to tell people what they should do yet not always easy to follow those suggestions for ourselves.Speaking of being transparent…I wanted to share something that happened to me a few nights ago with my daughter. We were working on our lesson for Christmas Around the World and one of the projects was for the kids to create their own play. My daughter was supposed to color and cut out nativity characters to use for hers and my son had to make his up on his own. Once she got it all cut out and glued onto straws, she asked what she was supposed to do for the play. I told her it was the nativity and she looked confused. So I rephrased, knowing she doesn't always understand words that I assume she knows, and said it's the story of Jesus being born and Mary and Joseph traveling to Bethlehem. She got teary and told me “but I don't know that story.” Now…let me tell you, there was some heavy internal battling going on in my head in that moment. HOW did she not know the Christmas story?!HOW did I miss the mark after all the deliberate learning choices we had made?!HOW did she not remember the ONE story this all circles around?!Had I failed her?! Was she just never paying attention?? Here we are, less than a week before Christmas and she doesn't know the story of Christmas????I have a history of fighting with old demons when it comes to feeling not good enough, not smart enough, not a good enough parent, etc etc. The thing about old demons is that you recognize them quicker each time and learn how to overcome them. You learn how to put that armor on and fight back.So, what did I do in that moment? Did I belittle her for not knowing or remembering? – because let me tell you, she has heard the Christmas story from her own beginning. She has heard it in Sunday School, church, at home, in lessons, at her grandparents, in movies. She just has some unique qualities when it comes to focusing and remembering. Something that isn't just unique in this moment but something we have been struggling and working through all year.So no, I didn't belittle her or get angry. Instead, I chose to take it as a blessing to have a moment with her. We got up, grabbed a bible and a bible story book, and went into her room together. Her brother ended up following us as well. We sat down together and she followed along as I read the story of Mary and Joseph, the shepherds, the birth of Jesus, and the Wise Men. We laughed at the idea of a mom having to give birth around smelly animals and talked about the lack of comfort the baby must have had when placed in a stone manger. We talked about the swaddling clothes and what those were used for. It was a moment that I COULD have freaked out, got angry with myself and her, and lost the chance of helping her remember the reason we celebrate.Do I always do things right? Absolutely not. But when I get a chance to do the right thing and take it? I'm going to be glad about that!We didn't bake cookies this year – though my son did while they stayed with grandparents last weekend. Because I work this week, except for Christmas Day, we have 1 day left to do our last lesson, go see lights, watch movies, drink cocoa, grab a few last-minute gifts, and wrap everything. I am sure we will get it all done and enjoy most of it…because we are doing it together. I am praying for grace for the moments when stress tries to creep in.Thinking about the baby that was born so long ago…I'm sure things were NOT peaceful then either. I mean, I've had 2 babies and delivering – even when in a hospital – is not all rainbows and unicorns. I even ended up having csections! I imagine Mary, while feeling the joy of knowing who she was carrying, may have had some stress going on as well. Where would they sleep?Would the birth go smoothly?Did she bring enough blankets to keep him warm? Not to mention the smell of animals. Concern of cleanliness.How would she raise the SON of GOD?So many thoughts, worries, concerns…Wanting it all to be perfect, go perfectly, end up being the best day ever.And it WAS one of the best days ever! Even if it wasn't what she had in her own mind of what it would look like.Every year there are reminders that many are hurting, depressed, missing someone…we hear of loved ones dying…arguments over political things or opinions…reminders of what could have or should have been…But the thing is, it doesn't stop after Christmas. There will ALWAYS be things we do as parents that will leave us second guessing our decisions or feeling inadequate. We will make so many mistakes along the way and we pray for grace that our kids will survive them. There will also always be opportunities for us to show our kids how to not take things for granted…to offer a helping hand to someone…to learn the lessons of it is better to give than to receive.In the end, I think it's ok to want to get your kids things that you know will bring them happiness. I think it's ok to want to do all the traditions and follow through with every idea.I think it's ok to want to do better for them.With that, remember that you ARE a good parent by simply being there for your kid.You don't have to do all the things. They will be ok.They are allowed to forget significant things just like you are able to remind them in a loving way.And when it comes down to it, you are in this together. This thing called life. As a family. No one really knows what they're doing, some are just better at pretending. As you enjoy this Christmas holiday, I pray you find peace…love…and true joy in your heart. 

One of my biggest pet peeves is laziness. Don't get me wrong, I have my fair share of lazy moments. But it's things like not throwing away trash, someone leaving trash next to the trashcan in the bathroom, my kids doing their work halfway, a coworker not taking a few extra minutes to put something away…well, these things just annoy me. Which also means I sometimes annoy myself because I can have 20 things to get done in a day and choose to sit and binge watch a show for way longer than I care to admit right now. It's my own fault, of course, when I'm then panicking at something needing to be done at the last minute.This past weekend, I was a guest on a show called The C.R.O.S.S. You can watch the replay HERE.Part of that conversation, we brought up the point of how our kids are going to learn things, whether we want them to or not, and there are some topics that are not appropriate – no matter who tells you otherwise – that should not be learned at school. The problem is we have become a generation that has this idea that our kids are going to be exposed to and learn about things that are just a part of growing up in the world today. We have accepted the lie that it is normal for our children to figure things out on their own.But that, in my opinion, is lazy parenting. Are there some things we can't control? Yes. Are there things our kids will learn from someone other than us? Also yes. But does that mean we sit back on the couch with our feet propped up, throwing our hands in the air like “well, I learned that way and I turned out just fine.” But did you really? When you look at your past, all the experiences and lessons learned, then when you look at where you are in your life right now…are there things you hope differently for your kids than what turned out to be true for you? I'm not talking about just one thing…I'm talking about your education, your job, your health, your spiritual walk, your relationships…if you turned out perfectly, then congratulations. However, for the vast majority of people, we all have things that we are reaping the consequences of based on how we were raised and the exposures we had.Now, hold with me. I don't want you to get the idea that you are in a place now that was not meant for you to be. Because that goes against everything else I've ever said here on the podcast, right? The idea that we are here for a reason, we have been chosen for this time, and there is nothing that has been a surprise to God. This is all true. Yet at the same time, it is also true that we are not called to say “oh, well, I did the things, learned the habits, experienced the consequences, and turned out to be in a place where I was supposed to be so my kids can do the same.”We are not called to be passive parents. Brains are not fully developed until we are in our 20's. For all you science lovers, that's a scientific fact. So, why would we hold an underdeveloped brain to the same standard of making decisions and learning things as we do as adults? We've been discussing the topic of Raising Warriors and I want to make something clear. Raising Warriors doesn't mean raising children to learn how to fight. In Exodus 14:14, the Lord is speaking to the Israelites and says “The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.” We don't have to worry or fret over how the battle against evil will be won. See, Jesus already took care of that for us. Do we still have daily battles we have to face? Absolutely. But are we supposed to be fighting them on our own or expecting our children? Of course not. When it comes to fighting the evil in this world, it is so much more than knowing right from wrong. It is more than being taught that love is love or love your neighbor by doing what you're told. It is more than being dragged to church on Sunday and forced to say prayer at the dinner table. The armor of God includes a shield of faith, to withstand the evil that is thrown at us. How will our children know how to protect themselves from evil if we don't tell them as well as show them? Do you really want the world telling your kid how to stand up against the devil? Because when we know and have faith, it doesn't matter what is thrown at us, we can push back in confidence that the Lord is fighting for us and our faith in Him will not be in vain. Teaching our children to have faith in God can sometimes feel like an impossible thing. Especially when we struggle, ourselves, to have faith in all circumstances.We all struggle. Our faith struggles. But you know what? We can go back to things we DO know…faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. We are told that we need only have faith the size of mustard seed. Do you know how small that is? A mustard seed is about 1 to 2 millimeters in diameter. If you aren't sure of the comparison, look it up compared to a penny. It's not but a blip. If our faith can move mountains and need only be the size of a mustard seed, and if faith is our shield…even when we stumble in our faith, if it is STILL THERE, no matter how small, we can stand against evil.We want our children to be protected, right? We want them protected against getting hurt, viruses, illness, bullies, people that want to harm them. We can do a lot of that for them when they are little. However, as they grow, it becomes more apparent that as they become more independent that they need to know how to protect themselves.How many times have we let our own children down? I don't know about you, but I feel like I fail a LOT. But if I…if we…can raise a child to learn how to walk, eat, climb, ride a bike, drive a car, do laundry, mow the grass, apologize, be kind…then we can also have faith that God is working for us…He is fighting for us…He is teaching us…so that our faith can grow and we can take that shield up in confidence to protect from attacks.Not only that, but we are then able to lead our children to do the same. To take up their shields of faith. They may start out tiny, but IF we are active in our parenting, deliberate in our decisions, and strong in the middle of adversity…they will see what it means to be a warrior. You may be saying, “this is all great, Courtney, but HOW do I do that? HOW do I teach them to have faith, to take up their shields, to trust in God?”And I would be lying if I said I had all the answers. I would be lying if I said I was doing it all right. But I can tell you some things we are doing that I hope and pray will have a positive impact for my children's future.Every thing we do. The choices we make. The words we say. The things we allow our children to be exposed to. It all affects their faith just like it affects ours. And if you think your child is past the point of being influenced by you, I ask you, do you think the world is still influencing them? If so, then keep going. Keep fighting for them. If you think you've already totally screwed up on your parenting, that is NOT the Lord giving you those thoughts. I am 100% sure.Our children are put in our care not just to say “thanks God” before tossing them into the world to be eaten. They are put in our care to teach them, show them, guide them in raising their shields of faith to push back against the devil. To believe and know WHO is ultimately in control, no matter what doubts come their way. Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. Those words are found in Joshua, chapter 1, verse 9. You are raising warriors…don't be a passive parent. Be an active parent. Be strong and have courage. Take up your shield of faith and teach your children to do the same.Find me on FacebookFind me on Instagram (I am currently doing a giveaway through Dec 20th over on my Instagram)

Find me on Facebook, Instagram, or email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.comBefore we get going today, I wanted to share a very special happening coming this Sunday, December 12th at 7pm CST. I'll be going live on YouTube with The C.R.O.S.S., which stands for “Christian Reactions on Sociable Saints.” We will be talking about our children, taking them and their education back, as well as much more. I am really excited about this opportunity and would love if you came and said hi, participated in the discussion, and offered support. Here's the link: Ok, so I feel like my head has been so busy lately. Or rather my mind. When I'm driving in the car, lying in bed, reading, watching tv, talking to my kids or husband, at work, no matter where I am or what I'm doing, there are so many thoughts constantly whirling around that I find it next to impossible to focus on the thing at hand. In fact, I have told my family that unless you make it a point to grab my attention, then I will likely not remember anything they've said. This isn't some new concept to me. I have become accustomed to always be moving. There's always something that needs to be done, a child that needs to be taken to an appt or activity, worship service needs planned, all the things for all the people, and making sure everyone is cared for and happy. And yes, I could stop and drop it all. But you know what that would look like? It would look like my kids not homeschooling anymore and being put into public school. It would look like them not participating in a sport they love. It would look like appointments not being attended, absence from functions, and me just sitting on the couch with nothing to do.Here's the thing, even if that were the case? I am willing to guarantee my mind would still not be silent. I am an overthinker by nature. Not only that, but I have this weird balance between thinking about worst case scenarios AND finding the good in everything. And in all actuality, it's not really a balance at all. It just depends on the day and the moment.Sometimes, I feel like despite my best intentions, I fail at the little things. In the middle of juggling it all, I still snap at my kids, get annoyed with my husband, cry about my body, drop the ball on showing support for friends, and am left feeling the weight of disappointment and imperfections.Even for this podcast episode…I took 2 weeks between episodes in order to give myself some breathing room, and yet here I sit at the last minute with so many thoughts in my head that I can't really formulate one cohesive thought that makes sense. It is broken sentences, broken thoughts, broken pieces of me that I'm scooping together to try my best and get a point across. Not because I don't have anything to say, but because there is always SO much to say that I can't get one thing out at a time. Which just means it leaves me feeling frustrated with myself and my seemingly lack of capabilities. I sure sound like I'm having a pity party right now, huh? When we take our eyes off of Him, it becomes all about us. “Who's offending me?”“Who hurt me?”“What am I supposed to do?”“How are others perceiving me?”“Who am I letting down?”“How can I make myself happy?”We all struggle to not be selfish. Is it something to be proud of? No. But is it something we all encounter at some point in life? Yes.See, in the moments when we begin to take all of life's problems, whether ours, our children's, our friends, our country's, our world's…whomever, when we take those problems and make it about us, we lose sight of the end goal.When we focus on the “me” part more than the “Him” then we find ourselves facing a black hole of silence more than leaning into “I AM.”This is a season seen by many in different ways…There are those who view it as an opportunity for big box companies to make more than their share of money and feed off of people's emotions.There are those who make it their goal to point out that Christmas was not started because that's when Jesus was born and it was a pagan holiday.There are also those who find sorrow and sadness as they are reminded of the loved ones, or livelihood, they have lost.Then there are those who see this season as one filled with hope, faith, joy, peace…Peace. That's what I long for. Peace not only in the world, but in my mind, heart, and soul. But in order to achieve that, I have to realize that it's not about me. While yes, this holiday season was not started because of the exact time of Jesus' birth…it IS when we celebrate it. It's about a time in history when, after over 400 years of waiting, after years of destruction, pain, confusion…there was this moment that had been foretold hundreds of years before, on more than one occasion, when a King gave up His thrown of honor to come as a humble baby, lying in a feed trough. He didn't do it because everyone was behaving themselves. He didn't do it because people were worshipping Him. Or because the world was at peace. He also didn't do it for Himself. He did it for lost souls. He did it for the mom who struggles every day to keep it together for her family. He did it for the dad who worries over providing for those he loves. He did it for the woman who has been searching for love and only finding heartbreak after heartbreak, rejection after rejection. He did it for the man who drags himself to bed after a night of binging only to start the next day making decisions that leave him feeling empty.He grew in His mother's womb…was born in a stable…raised by imperfect humans…knowing what the end result would be…Not because of anything else except He was the only answer we needed. He already loved us and we weren't even a blip on the radar yet.He knew how broken the world would be today. How broken WE would be today. He saw our mistakes, our flaws, our fears.And came for us. Me and You.In my loneliest moments. In the times when I have felt at my lowest. Those nights as a young adult when I made decisions that could've left me in a state that is completely different from where I am now.Those times I have been broken, bitter, and betrayed.He saw past all of my faults and saw my needs.My need for HIM.And while yes, I have been saying how it's not about me, which is true…this can all be said about you, too! And how it still circles back to HIM. It's always HIM.I think about when my children were first born. As exhausted as I was during those sleepless nights, whenever they cried out, I was there. As they have grown, each time they have fallen, I've been there to pick them up. When they've woken from a bad dream or cried over disappointment, I've been there to comfort them.And as a parent, both you and I, we didn't take any classes to learn how to have that instinct. It's called instinct for a reason. The definition of instinct is: “a natural or intuitive way of acting or thinking.” Do you know what this says to me? It says that the instinct we have to run to our children in their time of need is something that was given to us from God, Himself. We were created in His image so it seems pretty obvious that we got that instinct from our Father. He hears our cries, sees when we fall, knows when we need His comfort.His peace.Whenever I picked up my babies, even for a simple cuddle, the peace that fell over us both was unexplainable. It was more than service level. My heart was at peace, taking in the sweet moment in time when nothing else mattered or took priority.That same peace is how I feel when I am struck by feelings of anxiety or overwhelming stress and the Lord breathes to calm the storm. It's like the peace that covered the earth when the Christ was born. Do we know how peaceful it was? Of course not, but I can imagine that the world, that was created by His Father, felt the impact, quite literally, as a tiny baby, born to bring salvation, took His first earthly breath. I recently watched a video from a speaker who had looked into scientific sounds that stars, galaxies, and even sea animals make. It was fascinating! Here's the link: The bible tells us in Psalm 19:1, that “the heavens declare the glory of God.” Can you imagine joining together with all of God's creation to declare the glory of God?? In those times when I am struck with fear, anger, paralyzing thoughts, maybe you've felt that way as well? If we can force ourselves to be aware of how we are feeling and take a second to step back, shut our mouths, and focus then we can find a moment to breath in the peace that passes all understanding.As a homeschooling mom, I sometimes feel the need to teach my kids all the things. I see fun things online that others are doing, have my own ideas, see suggestions for extension activities in our curriculum, and add that to the expectations I have for their education, and it can quickly come to a point when I shut down mentally because it is all SO much. It comes from a good place, I recognize that. I want them to enjoy learning and have a different experience than I did. However, it's so much more than an education when we homeschool. It comes from a spiritual direction and desire to make God the focus of it all. When they were little, we dedicated them back to the Lord and made a promise to raise them to know Him. I want them to know Him in a personal way. Not this idea of a guy in the sky who judges with a heavy hand and is so out of reach that we can never do anything to make Him proud of us. That's a heavy burden that I willingly pick up and carry. With the understanding that it is not really a burden at all but a gift. A gift to be an example to them. To draw closer to God every day, trudging through the chaos in my head, to focus on the One who brings peace, wisdom, and joy. Whenever I start to spiral, I have learned over the last few years that it's typically when I've taken my eyes off the One who is walking on the water of my life to take my hand. It could even be for a split second. When I am looking at Him, it doesn't mean that my mind completely empties, and I do one thing at a time. But it DOES mean I can sit next to the manger and breathe a bit of peace. It means I can redirect my thoughts to be focused on Him. From the God who created me in my mother's womb to the baby born in a stable, to the man who loved US enough to give His life, to the One who will come back for us. Because when it comes right down to it. It's all about HIM. I can't change all the things going on in the world…well, maybe there are things here and there that I can do my part, of course…but I can't stop the world from being evil. I can't drop all my responsibilities. I can't let down my guard of protecting my children.But one thing we can all do, in the chaos of the season…of this year…is worship Him. How do we do that? Talk to Him regularly. Trust Him. Love Him by loving others. Bask in His blessings. Lift up the lost and broken. It is my hope that you are able to find peace this season. TRUE peace that comes in the middle of a chaotic day, that doesn't fix problems, but gives you strength for the situations you walk through. You are loved, friend. Even when you are a hot mess express, even when you yell at the kids, whine about your husband, stress over life. You are loved, you are chosen, you have a purpose, and it is my prayer that the God who parted the Red Sea and raised the dead, brings you the biggest gift this year. The gift is HIS peace so that you can turn and share it with others.

Recently, we've been talking about priorities, putting on armor, and both being and raising warriors. Today is no different. However, at times it may seem questionable as to where I am going with it. As always, hang in there, I'll connect the dots eventually.At the time I am recording this episode, the verdict in the Kyle Rittenhouse case has been given and found him not guilty. No, I am not going to talk about that case specifically, but it did get me to thinking. Well, actually, my thoughts had already been going in a certain direction and this just sorta pushed it even further. If you pay attention, even just a smidge, to current events and how they have impacted our society over the last several years, it seems that about the time one incident starts to simmer and people quiet their rage, something else happens and the waves of turmoil begin again. Sure, some may say that's a bit tinfoily or conspiracy junk but I trust that if you are listening to me right now, there's a part of you that is at least OPEN to what I have to say. I'm not saying there's some group of people who force every little thing to happen and cause descent among the people, though that wouldn't be out of the question in some instances, but what I AM saying is that there are people who will take advantage of a situation in order to cause chaos in order to gain power. Gasp. So shocking, right?It is a part of human nature to be selfish and throughout time we have seen people fight for power and control, from the playground to the politician. It also seems pretty obvious that the quickest way to control a certain group of people is to feed their fears, their insecurities, or do the whole conquer and divide thing. If people can be at odds with each other, then unity will never occur. If unity never occurs, then naturally people will look for someone to take the lead. So many times, I am reading comments about how Christians are quick to judge and are hypocrites because they shouldn't be judging. But have you ever paid attention to WHO is saying those things?? Have you ever given that any thought at all??While there are some exceptions…I would be willing to say that there are mainly 2 types of people who quickly and proudly spout those phrases.They. Are. Not. Serving. The. God. You. Serve.So…Why are you allowing people who don't even believe or serve the Lord tell you what is and isn't the “Christian way” or “right way” to do things? Why are you permitting the world to slither into your head and tempt you to doubt what you know is right?Evil is on the pursuit to control. Control our children. Our families. Our community. And if we simply sit back and stay silent, that will happen. We have been chosen to do more than that. Don't allow the world to have you doubting your abilities to make a difference. Even if your children seem like they are so far away, don't give up on them. Don't give up on yourself. Don't give up on God. Because He sure hasn't given up on you.Find me on Facebook. Instagram, or email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

This week, I wanted to bring back an interview I did with my friend, Lyndz Marie, as it fits perfectly into what I've been talking about in regards to raising our children. If you are someone who has a desire to homeschool, or needs some encouragement, this will be such a good episode for you to tune into! When we first began homeschooling, I had this image in my head of what it should look like. It was very similar in how I experienced school in both a private and public setting. It wasn't until I let go of that expectation and realized homeschooling is NOT school at home when we could began to embrace the possibilities.In my chat with Lyndz, she shares her own personal journey - though very rocky at times - to homeschooling her son, including the struggles she had due to some trauma from pubic school. When it comes down to it, whether you are homeschooling or simply raising your children the best way you think you can, what is it that you are comparing your family to? By whose standards have you decided to hold it up against? You can find Lyndz over on Instagram at Gardening Geek (she is doing some fun stuff with her house AND her homeschool adventures these days!).You can connect with me, Courtney, on Facebook, Instagram, or send an email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I want to ask you something. Something that I want to truly challenge you to think about before answering…When you think about your kids, what is the line that you won't allow anyone to cross in order to protect them? Do you have an obvious blanket answer like “I won't allow anyone to physically hurt my kid.” Or maybe “I won't allow harm to come to my child.” Those are some pretty simple and obvious answers, right? Not that you would be wrong to say them because I completely agree with you. Someone comes at my kid with a weapon or tries to attack one of them? I'm stepping in before they get a chance. I make sure they wear their seatbelts when in a car, helmets when on bikes, and yes, because of my line of work I always have worst case scenarios going on in my head so it's a balance to not worry too much. When we look at the “end results” of our parenting, how do we hope our kids turn out? We can't guarantee they will end up being the person we dreamt for them, and we will have to accept facts that they will likely make decisions that we felt wasn't best. Throughout history, we read about leaders, world changers, or even local heroes that were in the right place at the right time. So, us being here, parenting the children we are parenting…living in the culture and world around us…this is not a surprise. It wasn't an accident. YOU are not an accident. You were chosen for this moment in time. You were chosen to parent your children. AND your children were chosen to be here, right now. This is not just a luck of the draw.If we look at it that way, keeping in mind that there is a reason for our family to be here, we can begin looking at the bigger picture and the end result.Do we throw the kids out and let them figure life out on their own? Of course not. And I'm going to share something with you that may or may not come as a surprise to you…No matter what anyone tells you…and I mean anyone…no one else on earth loves your children as much as you do and no one else has their best interest at heart more than you do so therefore no one else has the right to overstep a line that you feel should not be crossed. No amount of education, experience, or opinion can overrule that fact that you know your children and what is best for them more than anyone else. So you have the right, the permission, the ability to stand up, speak out, and say enough is enough. Have you seen the phrase “raising arrows” before? I've seen it on shirts, mugs, and other items. I know that it is a great phrase to address raising our kids. The idea behind it, if I understand it correctly, is that we, as parents, are raising children that when we send them out into the world, they are prepped and ready and steadfast.And I agree. That being said, I am going to take it just a bit further than that.I believe, at least for me, I am RAISING WARRIORS. I looked up a bit about warriors and found that a warrior stands against darkness. It doesn't succumb to darkness by losing faith or love. A spiritual warrior is one who lives a life with God and stands through life's battles with their head held high. Believes and knows God is leading them in every aspect of their lives.We are  discussing what that looks like in more detail today.Something special is coming this week over on Instagram, so make sure to go follow me and keep watching!If you anything in today's episode speaks to you, will you please share it? Make sure to tag me if you share on social media so I can  thank you!We need to be preparing ourselves and our children for the battle ahead. The battle against the evil that will go through every little space possible to worm its way into our families. With the intentional listening of instructions…putting on the full armor of God and TEACHING our CHILDREN to do the same…we can be confident that the Lord will not desert us. He will be our protector and our leader. We are called to be strong and courageous.We need to lead our children to stand against darkness and not succumbing. To hold tight to faith and love. To live a life with God and stand through life's battles with their heads held high. Believing and knowing God is leading them in every aspect of their lives.Because WE are RAISING WARRIORS.

We are officially in the holiday season and I have to just say…this is one of my favorite times of the year. Yes, I am THAT person. Christmas more specifically. And crazy enough, I now have a child who is JUST as pumped about it as I am! He was actually asking about watching Christmas movies and decorating a few weeks ago! Now, don't judge me if you're one of those who would rather wait until after Thanksgiving or even closer to Christmas to begin that time of the year. It's not even the typically stuff that society now equates to the “holidays.” You know the stuff, commercials, ads, mail inserts all about what you or your child MUST HAVE this year. Or the panic buying. The cars honking as they sit in traffic. The stress of having the perfect house décor and let's not forget the family drama of how all the time will be evenly split between families and parties and all the things.No. I am not here for that. And don't you worry, this episode isn't about Christmas. At least, not as a whole topic…for now, haha.The reason I brought this up is because sometimes the things we see as unimportant or insignificant are really the things we were called to do.Several months ago, I was talking to someone who is an influence in my children's lives. They were telling me about an overall view of one of my kids and mentioned that homeschool kids seems to be more sensitive or tender. Now, while that person wasn't trying to be malicious or demeaning, it was said in a way that basically came across as homeschool kids are weak. The reason being is because this individual realized my child wasn't like your typical public school kid attitude when it came to being taught, reprimanded, or even joking around. What that person didn't realize, is that I saw it as a HUGE compliment to my child and my decision to homeschool.See, when I hear about middle school kids getting in daily fights in the classroom…when I hear about certain conversations that are WAY inappropriate for kids of ANY age – and that is not me being a prude…and I look at my kids interacting with people of all ages, all walks of life, and genuinely enjoying life, I am thankful. PRIORITIES….What is your goal as a parent for your children? Do you want them to go to college, be kind humans, fight for injustices, own their own business, whatever that looks like.Remember when the lockdown first happened and life sort of froze in time for a bit? All the things we took for granted were stopped. From extracurricular activities to going and visiting with family any time we wanted. There were even more extreme things being done at some places like not even being allowed outside. I'd like to think it was a wakeup call for a lot of people, because it was for me. It gave me time to stop being busy and look at what mattered the most. Not that I didn't think my family mattered but I had allowed the NEED to “go go go” with them take over having a clear head.Over the years, my reasons for homeschooling have sort of ebbed and flowed as we have changed up curriculum, styles of learning, and activities we join in. The one thing that has continued to grow is what I prioritize. When it comes to prioritizing in homeschool, my beliefs and reasonings are going to be different than someone else's. Even different than friends who homeschool as well. Homeschooling is all about freedom to choose. Choose how your kid's are influenced. Who they are surrounded by. How they learn how to treat others. It's the ability to adapt to the needs of each of your children instead of pushing them to fit this molded box of expectations that an archaic system has put in place. And it really is an archaic system if you think about it. Expecting all children of a certain age to be learning the same thing, at the same pace, in the same way and if they don't comply to that mold, they are left behind or looked at differently. Yet, when children are allowed to blossom into a love of learning at the pace that works for THEM, it can be a beautiful thing for not only them but us, as parents, as well.It doesn't mean that you put them in a bubble, protecting them from the reality of life.I heard on a recent podcast by a fellow homeschool mom, that our home is like a greenhouse. Our kids are the baby plants.I have a vertical garden at home. Two actually. They are aeroponic, so no dirt, and I can grow things 3 times as fast, in less space, with higher yield than conventional gardening. Not only that, but I can grow it indoors and out, so year-round.It really is a glorious design. If you want the details on that, you can send me an email or dm on Instagram and I'll totally share it.Anywho, when I first plant my seeds or seedlings, they are tender, easily affected by every little thing. Too much light, not enough, too much water, not enough, etc etc. So I do my due diligence and see what I need to do to give them the very best care I can until they are strong enough. Am I doing them a disservice by protecting them from elements that may harm them? Am I stunting their growth by giving them what they need or don't need to flourish?Of course not. This is a simple answer to a rhetorical question.So, why would someone think that homeschooling is doing a disservice to a child? When we are raising our children, they are influenced by everything we say and do. We know that. From the time they are born, they are listening, watching, learning. They have their own personalities, likes, dislikes, but they are influenced by us.What we allow to permeate their little greenhouse is up to us. Yes, the world will still come in through the cracks like a wind, but it is up to us to decide how big of a draft that becomes.Over the course of the last 2 years, the desire to both protect my children and also prepare them for the world has grown stronger and stronger. In a time when innocence is being taken and opinions are as loud as a marching band, my priority is raising them to not only KNOW the Lord, but to be a WARRIOR for Him.Recently, I did a 7 days of truth challenge over on social media. If you find me on Instagram, you'll see it in my highlights. It was all about finding out the TRUTH of who God is. Now, why did I do that? It was spurred by me discussing the armor of God. How we should put it on every day. If we don't have a strong belt of truth, just like the belt used with the Romans, everything else – including weapons – fall away.It's important to me that my children know truth. And not what culture calls “your own truth.” Because, while yes, how someone feels is how they feel. But just because someone feels the sky is purple, doesn't make it so.This year, with our homeschool curriculum, we are using something called Gather Round. I absolutely LOVE it. The idea is that you sit together, as a family, read the lesson aloud and then each child, or student, has their own notebook that is made to their level and covers all the subjects necessary. My son and I are finishing up a unit called Farming and Food. We have learned about all sorts of farms. Sheep, Goat, Chickens, Fruit, Veggies, even COFFEE! We have learned about cultures, why things are grown in certain places, we've done experiments, grown our own mushrooms, and had the bible seamlessly woven throughout it all. We've had challenging topics and debated both sides of differing thoughts. I'm telling you, it is just so good.We will be starting a new unit called Living off the Land after this one and my daughter will be joining in. I cannot wait. It gives me Little House on the Prairie vibes, and yes, we are even going to be doing some fun activities that will be similar skills learned during those times!In December, we will be pausing and doing a BRAND NEW unit called Christmas Around the World. We will be making recipes, ornaments, and learning about 12 different countries as far as their traditions and cultures around Christmas. I'm telling you all of this because of one word: PRIORITIES.I don't care if my kids fit in to the “expected attitudes” of kids their age. I would rather my child be tender hearted and have genuine care for people than focus on what they want and what puts them first.My son loving Christmas has nothing to do with gifts he will receive. Though I am sure he is excited for that as well. But he is looking at the traditions, putting up lights, watching movies, making and baking food, spending time together. Learning, in our house, is about love, passion, and finding the joy in life.Is reading, writing, math, history, all of that important? Of course. But when I think back on my own childhood, I didn't enjoy school. Well, outside of music class and talking to the boy I was in love with at the time. I memorized things in order to pass tests and survive that year. I didn't find it fun to learn and research and all of that. Though once I was in highschool, I realized I had a huge desire to write and express my thoughts through putting words onto paper. Outside of that, I had no desire to be in school.Today, I am learning the JOY of learning! I am walking beside my children, guiding their paths to the best of my ability, and finding adventure in our lessons TOGETHER! Yall, I am actually enjoying MIDDLE SCHOOL, whaaaaaat??!!Whether you are currently homeschooling, considering it, or just listening to listen….I hope you hear me right now saying to find what your priorities are. Where do they lie? It's ok if your kids don't fit into society. Can they function in it? Can they communicate? Can they stand up for what they believe in? Can they be kind? Do they know who they are and whose they are? THAT should be a priority. And when something is a priority, it doesn't mean only on days you feel like it. It means, every day, you get up and know what mission you are on.I am Raising Warriors. I hope you are too. What does that mean or look like? Well, I'm going to be sharing more about that next week. As we head into the holidays. Be encouraged. It is not about doing all the things, buying all the things, BEING all the things. We are not meant to juggle it all by multi-tasking. Learn from the past….learn from the lockdown. Prioritize your life and the top 3 things are what you focus on. Everything else will work itself out. I promise you.You are here for a reason. You have your children for a reason. They were given to you to raise. Don't take that lightly. No matter how young or old they are. Impact their lives for the better. God chose YOU for them and vice versa. It's never too late to get your priorities straight.Loving God first will bring the rest in line. He's got you.I am hoping this podcast finds those needing encouragement, support, and community. If that's you, you've found a friend! I'd love to hear from you and what you thought about today's episode or where you are struggling today. Please send me a dm over on Instagram or Facebook and say hello! You can find me at Imperfectly Pollyanna. Of course, you can always send me an email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.comRemember, you are loved and I am so glad you're here. See you next time!

If you were with me last week, you heard Part 1 of my interview with author and speaker, Elizabeth Verver, as she shared just the beginning of her story navigating addiction, depression, and so much more. Today is part 2! If anything that you hear in the next few minutes touches your heart, and I am positive it will, then I want to encourage you to share it with someone else. Today, we are going to find out who Mama K is, the biggest struggle Elizabeth faced, and how she is now turning her mess into a message. Elizabeth is a passionate pursuer of the heart and presence of God, a loving wife to Frankie Verver, and a devoted homeschool Mom of four beautiful children. Her story is one from darkness to light, depression to joy, and hopelessness to beyond hope in Him. She desires to see people from all walks of life reach their highest potential in Christ, be completely set free, and discover the God ordained dream He designed for them. Elizabeth speaks at conferences and Bible studies, preaching the word of God in power and boldness. She is the author of “No More Darkness” a memoir of her journey. You can find her blogging monthly on Spirit fuel or at ElizabethVerver.comWithout further ado, get ready friend, part 2 will NOT disappoint!Connect with Elizabeth at ElizabethVerver.comConnect with Courtney at Facebook, Instagram, or email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I hope that this moment finds you in a good place. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally as well. However, if by chance you are struggling. If you have had thoughts of depression, anxiety, anger, confusion, and even doubting that anyone is in your corner. If you have even found yourself questioning your purpose in life. If you are a believer and you have felt like you must be doing something wrong if you still struggle with things from your past. Today, this moment, this episode is for you. I had the absolute honor of meeting and interviewing my now new friend Elizabeth Verver a few months ago. If anything that you hear in the next few minutes touches your heart, and I am positive it will, then I want to encourage you to share it with someone else. Elizabeth and I had such a great conversation that I didn't want to edit anything out. Because of that, I decided to make this a two part episode. Today is part one and I promise not to make you wait too long for Part 2! I do want to give you a heads up that while this interview will leave you blessed, inspired, and encouraged, it does hold some heavy topics that may be – dare I say – triggering. There won't be tons of details on that end, but I felt like it was my job to take care of you in any way I can.Elizabeth is a passionate pursuer of the heart and presence of God, a loving wife to Frankie Verver, and a devoted homeschool Mom of four beautiful children from ages 11-15. Her story is one from darkness to light, depression to joy, and hopelessness to beyond hope in Him. She desires to see people from all walks of life reach their highest potential in Christ, be completely set free, and discover the God ordained dream He designed for them. Elizabeth speaks at conferences and Bible studies, preaching the word of God in power and boldness. She is the author of “No More Darkness” a memoir of her journey. You can find her blogging monthly on Spirit fuel.Without further ado, get ready friend, you are in for some powerful talk today!Connect with Elizabeth at: elizabethverver.comConnect with Courtney on Facebook, Instagram, or email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com 

Find Imperfectly Pollyanna via Facebook, Instagram, or email at Courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.comToday's topic is NOT for the weak or closed minded. I will always, ALWAYS be open with my thoughts and do my very best to offer them in love. I will also always come back around and find the good in some way. That being said, I am flabbergasted by what I read this past week. I cannot believe anyone would say the things or think the things that I read. I happened to be on twitter and was reading about a political debate. Now, it wasn't about my own state's governor, but I admit the quote totally click baited me. One of the participants stated that “I don't think parents should be telling schools what they should teach.” I was floored. I thought, “surely this is not the full picture of how this man thinks?” So I clicked over to read and have since seen several articles that addressed it. I've never claimed to be the sharpest tool in the shed, so I went ahead and started scrolling the comments. I'm just going to read a few to you, ok? One said “Parents aren't in the classroom, so why should they decide what their kids learn? Why should they decide what goes into their kids' curricula?”Another said “Parents are not trained educators…don't censor education.”And I'll stop with one more that said “Parents should not be in charge of the curriculum any more than they should decide how to treat their children's illnesses.” Now…I know that we have some really wonderful teachers out there. I have even had some of those really wonderful teachers. In fact, at our home school Co-op we do not call those who lead classes teachers, we call them mentors. But they are technically teaching the class. They are absolutely fantastic at what they do. Some of them are formally educated on the topic that they are teaching and others have educated themselves in a topic and sharing with others. That being said, they do not in fact decide what my children learn. I choose to put them in the classes that I feel they should be in. Granted, they as in the kids do pick out the ones that they would like to take based on interest and then we decide from there. And yes, the mentors leading those classes decide what they're going to share as far as information. It is up to me as the parent to decide if I am comfortable with my child being in the class. When I started home schooling my oldest, I really doubted my own ability to teach him past a certain point. I oftentimes wondered if I would be able to teach him once he got to certain levels of math or science. It wasn't until I really looked into the resources that are available for homeschooling families that I realized I could do it. In fact, the spelling curriculum that I used for him at a young age was one that I tried to word it in my own way to him in order for him to learn. When he started crying and getting frustrated because he wasn't grasping what I was trying to say, I turned and read exactly, word for word, what the curriculum said to say. At that point it was like a lightbulb went off and he got it! From then on, I strictly read off the page. Our current math curriculum is in a story form, and we read it together followed by each child doing the questions at the end. Those questions are called your turn to play because math should be fun right? I always thought math was absolutely awful. There was never a time in my life in which I thought math was exciting period that is, until I started doing this specific math curriculum with my son and now my daughter. The way that the author tells the story, shares other information outside of math, and then creates fun in learning just draws us all in. I have learned how to do math alongside my kids and it makes sense!I tell you this because there are so many parents, whether home schooling or just simply raising their children, in which we feel incapable. We feel lost. And about the time we feel we've gotten a handle on raising these humans, there's a sharp turn in the road and we have to figure out how to pivot, right?I get those feelings. I do. But I'm gonna let you in on a little secret…just because you FEEL you are not capable doesn't mean you actually aren't. I'd like to ask you something…Who was it that told you you were not capable or worth to parent your children? Who was it that make you feel you were unable to make decisions for them when it came to their health, education, social life, or what-have-you?Don't you find it funny…ironic…that the same system you were educated in now tells parents they aren't educated enough to have a say in their children's education??The system…the WORLD'S system…would want you to doubt yourself and your worth. As much as society spouts off about love is love and how we need to be kind above all else…they sure don't take kindly when parents begin to question how things are run, do they?I was a daycare teacher for over 10 years. I loved it. My primary class was 3-4 year olds and they were SO much fun. I enjoyed teaching them things like letters, numbers, days of the week, months of the year, shapes, how to spell their names, etc etc. I always made sure the parents knew how their child did that day, what they learned about, and did my best to have a good relationship with them.Right now, I am mentoring 2 classes for our homeschool co-op. It is primarily about nutrition. Each parent has my contact info and I make sure to have good communication with each one because they have entrusted me with their whole world that is packed into this tiny body in my class. So, when I read that parents aren't in the classroom so why should they have a say in what their children learn…I truly felt like I was reading satire. Why WOULDN'T parents have a say?? Now, do they need to be the ones to sit down and create the curriculum we use in our classes? No, of course not. But should they be aware of what is being taught? Absolutely. When someone says parents aren't trained educators so shouldn't have a say? Wrong. Sorry. That is INCORRECT. Just because a parent did not go through hours of sitting in a classroom, reading books, taking tests, and learning the latest learning tool for kids doesn't mean they are not capable of educating their children NOR does it mean they are too ignorant to know what is appropriate or not for their children to be taught.And when someone says parents shouldn't have a say in curriculum any more than they should have a say in how to treat their child's illnesses??? Are you KIDDING ME?! If you're going to bring that into the conversation, then I'll just say that just because I am not trained in how to perform cardiac surgery on my kid doesn't mean I wouldn't have the right to have a say so in which surgeon does the procedure, refusing to allow any type of off the wall treatment that I haven't approved, or allow a surgeon to perform surgery if I didn't feel he met the standards. Let me tell you: A parent is a parent is a parent. Period. The End. Are there parents out there who are abusive or neglectful? Yes, unfortunately. I am not talking about them today. I am talking about the fact that there are people in this world who have the audacity to think it is the right of the government, the school system, “trained educators,” and the like to make decisions as if they were the one who conceived, bore, and raised these children! And that is NOT ok!Just because a parent is not the trained educator doesn't mean they don't have a right to an opinion about what should or should not be taught to their child.And when systems get defensive and try to say the opposite, or try to HIDE what they are teaching, it really makes you wonder WHY, yes?While I'm at it, I did see a few comments on that twitter thread about how if parents want a say then they can just homeschool.Telling someone to “just homeschool” feels so icky. Almost as icky as when people tell infertile couples they should “just adopt.” It isn't that easy to just snap your fingers and make it happen.Do I think anyone can homeschool? Yes, if given the right resources. But is everyone able to do that? No. And many do not feel the conviction to do so. For those parents, it is still 100% their right to have a say in something being taught to their children that they feel is inappropriate.I'm just wondering when things changed that schools went from teaching things like math, science, history to forcing agendas down young minds? Yes, children need to know how the world works and how to survive in it. They need to learn about topics that aren't always comfortable or easy. But when grown adults begin taking their own skewed beliefs, opinions, and non-trained educated thoughts and share them in a classroom setting without the knowledge or consent of parents, then they are in the wrong. You won't change my mind on that.The belief that parents can't educate their own children is sad, frankly. So again, who is it that has made you feel you are not capable of leading, guiding, teaching, educating, and training your children?Homeschooling is not always easy. There are many days when I want to throw in the towel and send them off to regular school. But I am positive there are days in which teachers wish they could throw in the towel, too. The difference is that I am my child's BIGGEST advocate as most parents are.Life isn't made to be easy. That option was tossed out the window back in the Garden of Eden. It doesn't mean we just lay down and take it, either. It doesn't mean we don't stand up and take back control of our family. Did you know that the attorney general is initiating strategies to combat “violent threats against school officials and teachers”? I admit I have not seen anything reported lately by the news media in which violent threats were happening, but I do hope and pray it is not. Unless, they are including parents standing up to what is being taught to their children without consent or maybe they are including student recording teachers blatantly bashing their parents or anyone else, including THEM, if they disagree with the mainstream opinion.Because if THAT is considered violence…well…may the Lord have mercy on us all.Do you ever wonder where we all went wrong? Because, after all, this can't be pinned on just one political party or person. This is generation upon generation of wrong decisions. Over the years I have seen, read, heard people make comments about fighting for their rights, their freedoms, and not backing down. I've seen, read, and heard comments about when the time comes they would stand up. So…when EXACTLY is that time? And what does standing up actually mean? I believe that until someone is personally affected by something – be it a disease, a mandate, whatever – they won't typically do anything about it. After all, it's easier to take the easy road, isn't it? When we face diversity, isn't it a nicer outcome when we can all play pretend and spout about loving each other no matter what. Afterall, I hate confrontation, I really do. If I am in a situation that appears to be going down that road, then I will do everything I can to avoid it. I also believe it is important to pick your battles. We've all been told that at one point in our lives, right? Asking ourselves if an argument is worth it in the end. Aaaand typically it isn't. Typically, it is better to walk away. But I AM wondering, what is YOUR line that you won't cross? What is YOUR line that will bring you to your knees and say enough is enough? When a baby is born…how much do you think he or she is worth? Can you put a price tag on that? I would be willing to bet that you may say a newborn baby is priceless. At what point does that baby lose it's worth? Toddlerhood? School-age? Teenage? Young adulthood? At what point do we think, or rather get told, that WE are no longer priceless, and neither are our children?At what point do we stop loving our children enough to let someone else decide what is in their best interest?I'm just going to pause there for a second and let that sink in…No matter what you've been told…no matter what your own childhood was like or the decisions you have made…there is no moment in which you are not allowed to change your mind and speak up for yourself, your kids, and your family as a whole. Give yourself permission to face diversity head on, knowing you ARE strong enough to do it. The path of least resistance is not the one where warriors are made. If you've been convicted about homeschooling, DO IT. I am telling you RIGHT NOW, you ARE in fact smart enough to do it. Your children are worth that and so is your peace of mind. Does that mean the decision to homeschool will come without consequences or frustrations or doubters and haters? Nope, I will guarantee there will be all of that.However, no matter how stable things seem to be by simply leaving someone else to educate your child seems…you are not beyond being affected by what is currently happening in our world. If you feel your kids need to be educated on certain subjects, guess what? You don't have to be a trained educator to find resources to make that happen. If you feel you cannot tackle certain subjects or grade levels, guess what? You don't have to be a trained educator to find resources to make that happen.If you are afraid to speak out and stand up for your family because of the fears that the devil has placed in your mind – because that IS where fear comes from, by the way – guess what? You are not alone.You. Are. Not. Alone.No matter the age of your child, no matter the job that you have or don't have, if you are determined enough to fight for your family, you will find what you need. I've been doing this for over 7 years now, and there is so much beauty in taking the less beaten path.Don't let society and the world eat away at your thoughts. Don't let them frighten you with threats or making you feel less than.Yes, society is who has made you feel less than, even though they speak about love. That same society will not fight for your rights to parent as you see fit, I will tell you that right now.And at the end of the day, they will not be there when you need someone in your corner.Find your resources, find your people, find your family.If you are someone who still thinks there is absolutely NO way to homeschool your kids…you've done the research…you've spoken to other homeschool families that are similar to your lifestyle…you've done the details…please hear me when I say you can ALWAYS change your mind.Also? You are smart enough, worthy enough, educated enough to stand up and be your child's advocate. Don't let any amount of bullying knock you off your feet. And if you do get knocked down, get back up. Your family depends on you and you are so much more of a fighter than you may realize. Why is that? Because a TRUE warrior…a TRUE advocate…fights for someone or something out of LOVE. Love DOES win, friend. Not in the way that society thinks. But in the TRUE way. Love has already won.I am hoping this podcast finds those needing support or encouragement. If you know someone who needs to hear today's episode, or if it has spoken to you in some way, would you please share it? This world can be a dark, dark place and I truly believe we can come together and be a light in that darkness.I hope you'll keep showing up as we find the good together. Remember, you are loved and I am GLAD you're here! See you next time!

Stink bugs. Seriously, did you happen to see my recent Instagram story about them? If you did, and you saw my reaction to one coming after me…well, you're welcome for the free entertainment. I usually have a few pop up here and there every year but it's no big deal. However this year? I know I'm not the only one but…WHERE ARE THEY ALL COMING FROM?! I thought we had just a few on our back door until I went outside this morning for a fun homeschool activity and the side of my house was COVERED in them! Probably several hundred. You heard me right, HUNDREDS. And while I love nature and have dreams of living on my own farmland one day…I just…I just can't with stink bugs. They give zero craps about who you are or where you are. Who knew they enjoy flying so much?! And they give me all the feels of them having full conversations amongst themselves on which one will attempt to break rfree into the house and take over. I had no idea we were living in a modern name Egypt with the plague of stink bugs instead of locusts! But really, do you have suggestions for quick and easy ways to get rid of them? Are they attracted by something specific? Will they go away once fall sets in with cooler weather? I suppose this is something I could have my kids research for a homeschool project but if you have a suggestion, please, PLEASE send me a message on facebook or Instagram OR send me an email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com. I will love you forever if it works and will even send you a thank you gift. I'm not even joking. But really? REALLY? It is time for us to stop turning to the world for answers, seeking their approval, trying to not rock the boat to much for fear of being cancelled. Why are we so quick to back down when conflict occurs…or there are some who refuse to back down but their feet are not planted on solid ground. We need to not only wake up but to put on the FULL armor and stand up. You cannot fight a battle without armor, it's just plain dumb if you do and leads inevitably to death. What are we supposed to stand up to? Well, I think it's important to address both what we stand up to as well as why the FULL armor matters. After all, my children learn best when they know the WHY behind their learning. I know I hated certain things in school as a kid because I thought “I will NEVER need to know this.” So what are we told to put on? First is the belt of truth. I think about how it's so mainstream to say “well, I'm telling my truth.” But shouldn't the truth be the truth be the truth?? What am I missing there? I mean, I get that someone may share how they are feeling in a situation so others can understand a different view. Like riding a roller coaster. One person may feel exhilarated by the speed and someone else may feel sheer terror. Both people are not wrong because it is the truth with how they feel. BUT! There is another truth…truth that is fact. Like the fact that a roller coaster is fast, it has hills or turns, sudden stops, what color it is, that sort of thing, That's truth and even if someone says “well, I don't agree with you” doesn't change that the roller coaster is all of those things.When we put on the belt of truth, is that our personal truth? Is that what we've been told all of our lives? Is that what society or the media tells us to believe? I wondered if there was a reason why the belt of truth was listed first in the description of armor. Soooo, I did a little searching. Roman soldiers stored their weapon in their belt. Without a belt, they couldn't carry the weapon. Not only that, but the belt also helped to secure other pieces of armor. I suppose it was essential in that if you didn't have the belt, your armor might fall off or you may not be able to protect yourself with your weapons being closely at hand. In order to know that answer, we have to know what the source of truth is. WHO the source of truth is. Back in the day, the news would site their sources in order to back up what they were saying. Nowadays, it appears the news just shares what they want, based on their own viewpoints, and then expect us to just believe it and move on. Sigh, the good ol' days. But, I happen to know of a verse that gives us the answer to what or who our source of truth is! John 14:6 says “Jesus said I am the way the TRUTH and the life.” Well, what do ya know?! We found that the SOURCE of truth…the REAL TRUTH…is Jesus. We can't put on the belt of truth if we aren't constantly seeking the truth and that truth lies in knowing who God is. When we know who He is, the rest of our armor will hold in place because we will know who is leading this battle. When you know your commander, you can proceed into battle with confidence, knowing He will stand with you and for you.Just like a stink bug, the devil can creep into areas of our lives and cause discomfort, doubt, pain, conflict. The little things begin to take over every space of our lives, our thoughts, our actions…and before long we are ready to burn the house down…or run away and hide from reality. We get drawn in and focused on the confusion that's going on and before long we are drowning in a sea of doubt.I'm going to challenge you to do something. We are almost in the last 90 days of the year. Can you believe it? We thought 2020 was bad and then 2021 felt like a younger sibling trying to show off and show up a big brother or sister. Can you commit doing 7 days of truth with me? No matter what day you are listening, you can start today. 7 days of truth.What does this mean? We are going to find out who God is by diving into the truth of His word. I am going to post a passage of scripture every day on my social media accounts for 7 days – that is Facebook and Instagram – and I would like you to read them on your own and check in to say you read it along with any type of take-away you have. I'll be doing it alongside of you. Now if you DON'T have Facebook or Instagram, you can still participate. You can simply email me with the topic of 7 Day Truth Challenge and I will personally send you an email with the scripture of the day for 7 days. Don't worry, I won't bombard you with emails outside of that. If you are in, I will post the links to Facebook and Instagram in my show notes or you can search Imperfectly Pollyanna. If you want to email me instead, you can send it to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com.I will start posting the scriptures on Friday, October 1st so if you are listening after that date, that's ok! Just hop in or read and catch up. I'm not going anywhere! I'm really looking forward to this challenge and doing it with you. If you know of anyone who would like to participate with us, feel free to send them this episode or tag them in the social media posts. 

I have ultimately kept my mouth shut because I was afraid of saying the wrong thing. I was afraid of not speaking in love and letting my emotions get the best of me. I didn't want to be the talking point of someone else's passive aggressive post. So instead of saying the WRONG thing, I chose to not say anything at all! FEAR IS NOT A COMMAND. Nor is it mandated! In fact, I am 100% positive that the phrase is: FEAR NOT. Yep, that's the one. Now, does that mean I just let my mouth run willy-nilly and lead with emotions? Absolutely not. I pray to always lead with love in my words and actions.We have become a society that is both easily offended and afraid of offending. But when we can honestly come from a TRUE place of love…the love that never fails…never gives up…we may still mess up but we won't truly fail. But the thing is, love doesn't mean laying down and taking whatever someone throws at you. Love is a FORCE. And because of that love, the love that He has for YOU, I HAVE to stand and love with force. Because our lives, our children's lives, depend on it!Today I am talking about what IS mandated, how we handle it, what the world is becoming and so, so much more.Come find me on Facebook, Instagram, or send me your thoughts at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I don't know about you, but there have been times in my life when I've been doing SO great with my health that I almost feel like a peacock walking around, showing off those beautiful feathers. Okay, I've never had some Victoria Secret body – nor do I want one, by the way – but I've had seasons of life when I felt SO great, so pumped, so full of feeling GOOD that when I have had the stumbling blocks…you know, “life happened,”…I struggled to keep my hands out in front of me and not fall. Does that make sense?A few months ago, I met someone by the name of Kate Muesing. She's a Christian Health Coach, wife, and mother of 3 boys. The interesting thing about Kate is she helps women create a Biblical foundation for their health habits so that healthy is a lifestyle, not a program or season!Today, I am sharing a conversation we had together that I believe will put a brand-new spin on how you see your health, your successes, your failures, and even have a lightbulb or two go off about something you may be missing, but totally attainable, to truly bring a whole life of wellness. Not only that, but she shares 5 simple habits you can start TODAY in order to live a healthier life - I think you'll be intrigued by the 5th one!Connect with Kate at:InstagramWebsiteConnect with Courtney at:FacebookInstagramEmail: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I know we've talked several times about current events. We've talked about the confusion. We've talked about finding little bursts of joy. Today, I'm going to be super open and real with how I'm feeling. I want to preface this by saying these are MY thoughts based on what I've been through. Each of us have experienced life a bit differently and that has formed our views on countless topics. But frankly, I'm tired of being silent about today's topic. I was teetering on whether to make a social media post about it, just stay quiet, or turn it into a podcast. And after lots of thought, prayer, and even sharing with a friend, I've decided to bring it here to the show. After all, the great thing about this space is that is it only governed by ME. I can't be shoved down an algorithm, given a “fact – check” opinion warning, or have this taken down for differing of opinion. while we all have the right to our own beliefs, as I tell my kids – you can feel however you want to feel – but it's never okay to treat someone badly, whether in words or actions. Psalm 127:3 says “children are a gift from the Lord.”When you love someone, you protect them. You are willing to move heaven and earth to make sure they are taken care of. You put them first. Love is an action. As DC Talk used to say “love is a verb.” (1 Cor 13)When we were trying to have kids, and were going through fertility treatments, I experienced the gut-wrenching pain as I watched my first pregnancy wash down the toilet. I knew bitterness and anger and yelled out at how unfair life was while others took their own children for granted. From years of injections and unhealthy habits, I continue to reap the consequences of my choices despite doing better. Do I regret going through treatment? Absolutely not because it gave me my babies. But I do acknowledge that the abuse my body took, both from medications and mentally beating myself up has had life-long results. Some that I may never know are connected to issues I have. It's the same with habits I had for years. Eating gas station hot dogs at 3am while at work because that's all that was open and I was desperate for something to quiet the rumbles in my stomach as we hurried off to another call. Being in EMS, I've seen the worst-case scenarios. I've treated them. Helped them. Lost them. Heard the fear. Heard the hate. Heard the joy. The relief. That's not just with 2020 and 2021, that's over the course of 19 plus years in this career. When we finally had the joy of holding a real live child in our arms, the fear of being on the other side of an EMS call creeped out of every dark corner. People rolled their eyes and took offense because they didn't understand the uncontrollable thought process of worry that something wasn't done right, from a proper car seat to a pool to a new food being fed. The comments of me overthinking and over worrying ran in my head before anyone could say a word.Whether in EMS or infertility….I've seen worst case scenarios and met them head on. I have learned that you MUST be your own advocate when it comes to your health. Common sense tells you that what we put in our bodies, whether food or medicine (or things portraying one of them), either helps or harms – either today or years down the road.Am I selfish for loving my children enough to put their health and well-being as a priority? Am I selfish for not being willing to take a chance on something hurting them in order to protect someone else? What about what am I teaching them if they don't know how to advocate for themselves?How are we treating others not just with our actions but with our words? Why are we attacking each other?Come and find me on Facebook, Instagram, or email me at Courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com 

Lisa Dimino White is known as The Joy Seeker. She helps people accomplish goals, laugh more, and be happier than they ever thought possible. Lisa is all about encouraging people to find joy despite our own - and life's - imperfections. While not everyone shares her exact struggles with OCD and anxiety, we all have something that we don't like about ourselves. Lisa has created a model to help people determine which of our shortcomings need to be changed in order to be as happy as we know we can be and which ones we should just accept as part of who we are! Often all it takes is a simple mindset shift to be happier than we ever thought possible! As a best-selling author with her book “Bursting with Happiness,” hosting her very own podcast, and working as a Certified Professional Coach, you are in for a treat today! Take advantage of Lisa's complementary JOY session by clicking here: https://calendly.com/lisadiminowhite/free-60-minute-coaching-imperfectlypollyannaConnect with Lisa: www.thejoyseeker.com/freebieConnect with Courtney on Facebook, Instagram, or send an email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

It's the start to SEASON THREE!! Woohoo! Fun things are ahead this season so get comfy and let's grow together, okay?I wanted to talk about something today that I think everyone can relate to. Where is God in the confusion?I don't know about you, but with current events happening, I have found myself more anxious than not. Frankly, I know WHY and that's because I've gotten in the awful habit of getting sucked into the posts on social media. You know the kind…Covid posts.Delta Variant.New Variants.To vaccinate or not.To mask or not. Mandate it all or not.Then there's the arguments over if we can trust the CDC. Trust Science. Who's science do we trust? I got into a heated discussion this week with someone who insisted I was NOT a "frontline worker" because I don't work in the ER and that I have the audacity to put my family before anyone else. gaspI believe that we, as a nation, are just exhausted. Being able to find the balance of making the best choice, standing up for things that are against the constitution, leading our children, protecting our loved ones, fighting injustices, navigating a constant changing environment and in the middle of all that….finding the good in it all? Now that's almost laughable.And yes, I said ALMOST.So where is God is all this MESS?! Where is God in the confusion? Would He want us to get a vaccination, refuse one, mask up, refuse to, be part of a certain political party, or another one, believe science or not? What would He want us to do? What DOES He want us to do?Talking about Peter, drowning in waves, crying out in fear, and yet knowing what to do in the end...makes the answer for us so very simple. And I like simplicity in life, don't you?What if…WHAT. IF. The things we are experiencing today. The storms we are going through. What if they are happening not because God is not in control but in order to show His power? In the middle of the current storm we are in, anxiety flares when we succumb to the waves of social media, news outlets, and feed into other's fears. We lose our sight on the One who holds the ultimate power.The thing is, He's not gonna calm the world just because He can. I am hoping this podcast finds those needing encouragement or community. The way a show gets found is by word of mouth. If you know of someone who may find help in this episode, I would love if you shared it with them. You can also help spread the word by heading to my Facebook or Instagram pages and interacting there with comments or sharing. I hope you'll continue to show up as we “find the good” together. Remember, you are loved and I am SO glad you are here. See you next time!

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Find Imperfectly Pollyanna on:FacebookInstagramOr send me an email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.comToday I want to talk about some common myths and misconceptions around homeschooling. However, I wanted to address something first. I just saw an article last week about how the American Academy of Pediatrics is recommending that schools require all students and staff members to wear masks when they return to in-person learning this fall. The reasoning was because many students are not eligible to receive a the covid vaccine due to being under age 12. The FDA is not expected to make a decision on whether young children can be vaccinated until after the school year starts.Sara Bode, who is the chairperson elect of the AAP Council on School Health Executive Committee stated how it is important to use every tool in their toolbox to keep children and others safe from covid. She said that by requiring masks, it is the most effective strategy to create consistent messages and expectations among students without the added burden of needing to monitor everyone's vaccination status. Now, as of today when I am recording this episode, the CDC is expected to announce the recommendation of requiring all students, regardless of vaccination status, to wear masks in grades K-12 for this school year. I have an opinion about fear, covid, lies and truth and so much more surrounding these statements, but my heart goes out to those who may feel exhausted and just plain over it all. I don't even send my kids to public school and when I heard the news, I felt my stomach drop thinking about how frustrating that will be for both parents and children wanting to attend in-person this fall. It's now been well past a year of dealing with the upheaval over covid and I cannot even imagine the sheer emotional trauma so many have endured.Sure, I get wanting to protect others. I get wanting to protect ourselves. I get needing to do things to stay healthy and free of diseases. The idea of wearing masks, vaccinating, and social distancing makes sense in the general idea of it…well, when it doesn't include money, power, and control.But the idea that by requiring everyone to wear a mask is how to create CONSISTENT MESSAGES AND EXPECTACTIONS????? Expectations about what? Y'all, I just can't. It gets me all kinds of riled up and it's not even my kids who would be required to do this!Except for the fact that stuff roles downhill. It's a snowball effect we've seen before and we will inevitably see it again. So while it won't change how we homeschool, it will eventually effect our extra activities.And THAT? That is enough to make my blood boil.I am not only frustrated and fired up for my OWN kids, but for yours as well! As if childhood and young adulthood was not difficult enough with learning, growing, and hormones, now let's just keep them in a state of confusion, worry, fear, and teach them to judge their peers based on whether they are forced to wear a mask or not.Geez-o-pete. Before I worked in the medical field, I worked at a daycare for over 10 years. This was before I was a parent or even married. I remember that every time we got a new kiddo or teacher, they seemed to go through this phase of getting every single cold, cough, or weird and gross infection. The reason was because when you are around people in a closed environment, and you've not been exposed to those diseases before, your body has to figure out how to fight it off. Your immune system has to adjust. It was always so frustrating for those who came in to daycare and got sick the first few months.Same happens when kids go to school. They are more likely to get sick because of the same situations. Does that mean we willingly put them in harms way? Of course not. But that is the same for anything else in life. We do what we can to protect them knowing that there's only so much we can do.But it doesn't stop with just physical harm. It includes mental, emotional, and spiritual harm.So what happens when you get to the point when your child is at a crossroads and you have to decide what is best for them?That's the thing, YOU should get to decide, as the parent…the one who has their best interest at heart…the one who saw them come into this world, taught them to eat, walk, brush their teeth, dress themselves, and ride their bike. The one who is with them throughout their lives, even when others come and go. The decision should be up to YOU as to what is best for them until they are of age to decide. And don't even get me started on those who think 11-year-olds should get to decide what is best for them and not their parent. Whew. So now we ask…what do you do…as a parent…when others are trying to make the decision for you when it comes to what is best? Easy. You don't let them. You stand up and say enough is enough. Does that mean your child is going to be excited about it? Nope. Sure, they might feel relieved because after all, they are not tiny adults. They are not meant to make adult size decisions. Some may feel relieved, and others may feel angry or embarrassed. They don't understand. Even when you include them in facts, information, all the things. Their brains are not developed enough to understand every single thing. Shoot, I'm 42 years old and I STILL don't understand it all. It's supposed to be a life of learning, right? When it comes down to it, it's about the FREEDOM to do what we feel is best. For us, that means we homeschool. It works for us, even on the not-so-great-wanna-pull-my-hair-out days. It means starting over when something isn't working. It means adjusting expectations and finding a way to persevere. Both of my kids are in competitive gymnastics. Sports are such a great way to emphasize other areas of life. The kids learn about self-discipline, focus, teamwork, perseverance. That can be said for homeschooling as well. Life lessons happen while doing life. There are so many misconceptions about homeschooling. From needing to be a certain level of knowledge, to having to stay home full time, to the age-old question of “but how ever will they socialize?!”I thought I would address some of those myths and misconceptions. Maybe you've heard them, maybe you've thought them, maybe you've not even thought about them. But here we are, talking about them regardless!Misconception #1: Homeschool is the same as school at home. (All kids learn differently, and we have the freedom to take our time in finding out what that is, what works, switch it up and go at a pace that works for each child – it is not sitting at a desk for 8 hours – it is not tests)Misconception #2: Homeschoolers are weird and unable to socialize Misconception #3: You need to have an educational degree or certain level of education to properly teach your childMisconception #4: You must be a stay-at-home parent, be patient, organized perfectly (planner included), and appear to “have it all together.”There are so many things that I thought prior to choosing to homeschool. And to be perfectly honest, I still worry about some of the ones I've mentioned. Being homeschoolers doesn't mean all is well and perfect and ideal. There are still times when I question what we are doing. There are moments when comparison happens: “Is my child learning the right things? Do they measure up to their peers? Should I be doing the same curriculum as someone else because it seems to be working so well for them?”Comparison. Worry. Fear. All things that happen when you first start looking at homeschooling. But I have never heard someone say they REGRET their choice. There are so many wonderful things that come with the choice to homeschool that when those moments of doubt and worry start to creep in, you have to make the decision to find the good and hang on to it. See, the reality of misconception #1 was homeschool is not the same as school at home. The good from that is that I don't WANT homeschool to look like school. I love that I can experience life right alongside my kids and watch them IN.THE.MOMENT when something clicks for them. To laugh with the stories we read together. To squeal with them as we see how an experiment works. And to celebrate as we learn things together. Things I never knew, or had forgotten, or get to learn in a new way. The reality of misconception #2 is that kids are weird no matter where they are educated…so are adults. The good is that…who wants to really fit in anyway? I know, that sounds so cliché. But it's the truth! Everyone is weird. It just depends on who's saying who is weird in the moment that makes a difference. The good is we get to embrace and celebrate our differences. Plus, when the kids are in an environment that normalizes their abilities, characteristics, personalities, and preferences then they know that the way they are is anything less than perfect. Plus, there is SO much to do as far as activities do, you will find yourself saying you may be socializing too much, lol.The reality of misconception #3 is that there is nothing that you cannot figure out when it comes to having the knowledge to teach your kid. The good is that in those moments when you struggle, when you aren't sure you can teach a subject because it's not your strong suit…the good is that your kids get to see you struggle and work through it. They see you as someone who is still learning, even as an adult, and it helps them to realize they don't have to know everything all at the same time. They can grow a lifetime of loving to learn.And the reality of misconception #4 is that you can work full time, part time, work from home, or have home life be your only full-time job and still be able to have a successful homeschool family. You can homeschool no matter what your life looks like. Does it mean you may have to make some sacrifices? Yes. Does it mean you may have to go looking for help to figure it out? Also, yes. The best things in life truly are worth fighting for and figuring out. The good thing about working so hard to figure it out when the answer isn't obvious? You get the result of knowing you did the best thing for your family, despite the roadblocks. You can hold onto the pride of working hard at something you believe in.There will always be haters, doubters, nay-sayers. No matter what you do in life. No matter what your KIDS do in life. People judge things they don't understand. Sometimes those people who are judging us are ourselves.When making a decision or following through with one, we need to weigh the risk versus benefit. I've heard that a lot in the medical field but it can be said with life overall. Is the risk of deciding to follow your conviction worth the benefit? I can tell you that if we were talking face to face right now, my answer would be a resounding YES! I truly believe anyone can homeschool if given the right resources and support. That's why you've got ME!

Friends, I have something that may shock you……the world will and does hate us because of Him. That is something that will not change. If anything, it will get worse. We are not called to Him in order to have an easier life. We are not called to follow Him in order to be blessed beyond measure. A life following Jesus does not guarantee anything other than eternity with Him in Heaven. Until then, we have the opportunity, and responsibility, to walk a path that is full of blessings AND heartache.What if we are not eloquent speakers, we don't know every single verse of the scripture along with all the ins and outs of history? Can't He just send someone else?It is not about us but about who HE is. It's not about us being eloquent, but doing our part to trust Him, trust is plan, and step out in faith to reach the lost in love. He is who He says He is and He is doing great things. When it comes down it, He knows the big picture and will see it to completion whether we are brave enough to take part in it or not. Look back at Moses. God told Moses, “Go.” And Moses said “but what about….” And had excuses as to why He couldn't do what He was called to do. God had a plan. God was coming for His children to redeem them. He was going to follow through with that whether Moses said yes or not, so He gave Moses the words, the tools, the help He needed. It is easy to get wrapped up into the world and what's going on. We can find ourselves wrapped into social media and scrolling for hours, getting our heart rates up reading posts and comments with arguments of strangers.What if we spent that same amount of time reading the words that have and will change lives?! As a pastor's kid, I grew up in the church, heard the bible stories, knew the “answers,” and loved Jesus. I have always loved Jesus. I've seen the miracles. I've encountered the demon-possessed. I've also questioned God. I've questioned His love for me. I've been angry because it seemed as though He had forgotten me. As though He had abandoned me. I failed Him. Time and again. I've cried out and asked God to just take it all away. Take away the pain. The discouragement. The confusion.When we find ourselves at the crossroads…and sometimes there are several - because life is not just one straight path – we have choices. We can depend on ourselves…after all, isn't that one of the trending thing now-a-days? Not needing anyone and only depending on yourself to get to the top and get things done. There's this moment, though, when God allows opportunities for us to make the decision to turn one way or turn towards Him. And oh how He wants us to choose Him. He has the answers. He has the desire to pull us out of slavery. To pull us into His arms and provide, guide, protect, and more than anything, love us. This world is full of people in love with the dark. Because that's all they've ever known and don't know any other way to be. Yet, God created them. He knew where they would be in this moment. He has always known we would be in this place, at this time. We are all HOT MESSES just like the Israelites. This world is full of those who make the wrong decisions, do horrific things, and it may seem that evil is prevailing.BUT GOD.Just as he called Moses to go and be a witness to Pharoah so that His people may be set free.Just as he called the Israelites out of slavery so they may be witness to His power.Just as he called the disciples to follow Him, despite their back story.He still calls us today. He calls us to be witnesses. To spread the message of hope. The message of forgiveness. Redemption. Healing.He is not asking us to just go do it. Like I said earlier, it is not about us, but about who He is. It is not for His sake, but for ours, that He sent His son to show God's power and love on earth.Does this mean we go out on social media and argue with every single person who says anything against Christianity or God? Does it mean we shout it out that the world is sinning and they need to turn from their wicked ways while pointing out all the ways they are in the wrong?I'm not sure shouting has ever done anything for getting a point across unless you're at a music concert and need to talk to someone or are cheering on the performance.What I am sure about is this:Now is NOT the time for us to be weak or silent.Now is NOT the time for us to waver in our trust in Him.The same God who sent Moses, provided for Him, plagued the Egyptians, delivered the Israelites… The same God who called each disciple to follow Him and spread the good news.That same God calls us today to step out in faith, trust Him, be His witnesses, and reach the lost. We need to be strong, take courage, and dig deep into Him.We won't know how to do that if we are going off what we learned about God as a child. We NEED to spend time with Him in order to know Him on a deeper level. You wouldn't call someone a best friend that you only spoke to on holidays and weekends. You wouldn't be able to have a strong marriage if you only talked about yourself or chatted when you felt like it.God has called us by name. He is the same yesterday – as in the Old Testament, the New Testament, when we were young, and even last year. He is the same today. He is the same forever. His love never falters. His desire for all to know Him is still happening today.What are we doing to help that come to fruition? Are we talking to him on a daily basis? More than a prayer before bed or before we lose it on our kids? Are we wringing our hands in worry about the evils of the world? Focusing on the latest news stories? Drowning ourselves in fear?OR!Are we stepping out in faith and speaking up, loving people enough to bring them to know the Lord and have a relationship with Him? Inviting them to follow Him? Leading our children in a way that allows them to truly know God, gain their own relationship with Him, and not allow the world to determine the path they walk on?Are we being His witnesses? Make sure to check out The Chosen on their free app!Come find me on Facebook, Instagram, or email me at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

This past week, I was having a chat with my son about where he was academically. He quietly asked if there were things he hadn't learned yet that he should. My heart sank as I wondered if HE felt he was behind. Have you ever had that moment when your head said a quick, but needed, prayer for the right words? That moment held me in a place where that doubt creeped in. The inner voice of “see, you've failed him.” It lasted a split second until I told it to shut up and began having a conversation with him about the difference in school and homeschooling. The question you may be asking is, “I want to homeschool, now what?” or maybe it's “I can't homeschool because…” insert your reason.I'm going to tell you the same thing I told him. In the public school setting, students are kept in a box. They are expected to learn the same way, at the same pace, with the same subjects and if you falter in any way, you are left behind or seen as less than. I know not all teachers feel that way, but I WAS a student in the school setting. I began falling behind even as early as 1st grade because I had issues memorizing multiplication facts. In 4th grade, I struggled taking tests and failed them even after studying at home. In Jr. high, I hated homework so much that I stopped doing it. I ended up in lunch detention several times. I had parent- teacher meetings. I found that lying was easier than feeling overwhelmed at what all I had to do for class to keep up. Highschool was a land of its own as I went to public school at that point. I shared with my son how there are homeschool families that try to have it look like school in their own way. They do specific curriculum, sit at a desk, start right after breakfast, all the things. And that works for them, I guess. And if it does, then that's great! That's what freedom means in homeschooling. But for us, it has been year after year of changing things, trying new things, tossing things out that weren't working or we got bored with. Is that the best way to do it? I don't know, honestly. I would love to have a set curriculum that both of my kids do well with, and I love, and we stick with it for all the rest of the time we have. I've tried the boxed curriculums and they have been wonderful, until they're not. I've tried the unstructured and it's been fantastic for them but leaves me feeling worried that I'm not doing enough. As I sat with my son, I finally told him, “I have 2 goals for the both of you with homeschooling. The first, is to know the Lord. I want you to know Him, who He is, and how to live for and serve Him. The second, is to be able to function in the world by the time you are 18.” I admitted to him my worries over the years of whether we were meeting standards, learning the right subjects at the right time, and that my goals have changed since we first started. I told him “if I can accomplish those 2 goals then the rest will work itself out and I have to remind myself of that on a daily basis.”There is NO “doing it wrong” in homeschool. There is only freedom.With freedom brings sacrifices. It does not bring the easy life. It does not mean no rain at all. But what it does mean is still finding rainbows along the way. It does mean personal growth for YOU, as the parent, teacher, bus driver, principal, janitor, and all the other roles.Seriously, if homeschool were described in 2 words as a parent. I would choose: personal growth. It tests every single part of you. It challenges what you have always thought and how you have always seen the world. It stretches your patience and belief in yourself and your own capabilities.Kind of like what parenting in general does, right?If I could tell you one thing about homeschooling, it is possible to start at any time. In any way that works. And even when the world…or family…or even you doubt your ability to teach your kids, YOU CAN DO IT.Maybe you aren't sure where to start. I want to help you with that. It can be so overwhelming with resources. I have 3 things today.HSLDA.orgCathy DuffyEmail me at: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.comFind my private FB groupCome follow me on Facebook or InstagramDownload the free app to watch The Chosen or search "The Chosen" in your Apple or Android app storeWe started our journey from the beginning. It's had so many bumps along the way that I've now decided homeschooling feels a lot like how the Beverly hillbillies looked riding in their old beat up truck, rumbling down the road, carrying their belongings to greener living. Actually, now that I think about it, homeschooling is a lot like that for many reasons! It's bumpy, it doesn't always look pretty and perfect, but when you're with family, it is well worth it in the end.I stand by the fact that the school system should not be in control of when and how our kids learn about certain topics. They are not there to teach our kids about the latest trending things on social media and influence them based on their opinions. The school system's job is to educate. To assist parents. To help students learn about things like reading, writing, arithmetic. To leave it up to the parents to lead them in ways of religious beliefs (outside of history, of course), sexual orientation, and yes, even when it comes to making their kids feel like they need to apologize for how they were created!You've got a decision to make. People may not agree with you. It may look like the Clampets. But you have been called. Your children are called. Life is not meant for you to just sit and binge Netflix – though I HIGHLY suggest binging The Chosen on their free app. But yes, life is meant to be lived. Taking chances. Changing the world for the better. And it begins in our own hearts. Our own homes. 

Back in September, I was removed from Facebook without warning. Mind you, I am NOT a controversial person on social media. I enjoy posting about my kids, homeschooling, faith, and just encouraging people. Obviously, someone reported me somewhere or I talked about something that offended the powers that be. There's this line from season 1 of The Chosen that says “I was one way, and now I am completely different, and the thing that happened in between was Him.” I can't really explain it, nor do I feel the need to because frankly, it's between me and God, but I am so, so grateful for answered prayers and a change in my heart that I hope continues.What this is about is the fact that at any moment, your life, your situation, can change. For better or worse. In first grade, I met Brandon and just fell head over heals for him. He was the cutest boy in the class, always fun to be around, made me laugh, and you just couldn't help but like him! He became my very first “boyfriend” – for whatever that means when you are 6 or 7 years old, haha. We even got “married” – which meant we held hands, a friend spoke some words to us as a ceremony, and we jumped in a big ol' pile of leaves together as a sign of our “honeymoon.” SO cute, right? Each special holiday or birthday, he never failed to get me a gift. When we got to middle school, he broke up with me and in turn, broke my little pre-teen heart. Over the phone, none the less. What happened after that, was a friendship that continued to grow and he was my best friend all the way to high school. I never stopped loving him. We went to a private school through 8th grade and then continued to a public high school together. He would pass me notes, calling me his ongoing nickname, always just chatting about random things, telling me he hoped I was having a good day, picking on me…just being Brandon. I always thought I would end up marrying him. Come to find out, years later, he had always thought the same. Even in the dating of other people. It always came back to our friendship. We went to youth group together, church camp, I went to see him play soccer and listened to his latest story of randomness.I remember many times he would talk me down over the phone when my teenage self was spiraling over drama with my parents or friends. He would even come pick me up and drive around or give me a ride in his car to youth group. We laughed and joked, ALL.THE.TIME. On July 8th, 1995, I was in my kitchen at home when I felt this awful pressure in my chest, and a heaviness come over my body. I had this awful feeling in my gut and Brandon came to mind. About that time, my dad came home and my mom met him in the garage. All I remember hearing was something about a phone call and I ran to my room. Somehow, I knew it was bad. And I knew it had to do with Brandon.As I laid on my bed, my sisters were sitting with me as my parents came in to sit. I had my face buried in my bed. My dad said there was an accident and it was in that moment that time stopped. All that I could hear was ringing in my ears. I don't know how long it lasted but I never heard my dad say the words I already knew in my heart.Brandon was dead.When I asked God for a sign that my friend was ok, a little black bird flew past our car. I saw it but thought surely that wasn't a sign, so I asked again. And another bird flew by. I told God that I didn't want to assume and read into anything. I told him that I wasn't sure if that was from him. I asked if it was then to please send another.What happened after that is something that has stuck with me even 26 years later. And in that moment, even though I had NO idea how I would navigate life without my friend, I knew he was ok. I knew that God understood my need and He showed up in a way I would never forget. My life was changing and, don't get me wrong, there was a ripple effect of things after that in which I struggled to understand and get through.I don't know exactly why I had to endure the loss of Brandon all those years ago. Sure, I can come up with reasons like it's what brought to helping others through my EMS career. I can say it's because I learned what it meant to truly love someone and not let a day go by without people knowing you care. Yes, there are little things that can be found along the way to try and make sense of the pain.But what it comes down to, is that life will continue to happen. It will continue to change. In an instant our world can be turned upside down. Sometimes change can be fun. Sometimes it can be scary. But it is inevitable either way.“For we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose.”If you are doubting God right now. Doubting that He is real. That He cares. That He's listening. He can handle that. He loves you enough to stand with his hands stretched out, waiting for you to take a chance at change. He sees your pain. He sees your fear. There is nothing you can do to change His love for you and your family. Find me over on :FacebookInstagramOr send me an email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

When reading over social media posts, I've noted a common thing…parents being unhappy with the things their children are having to travel through…whether it be in the current school system or exposures to current events or hot topics. The fact is, our children are confused because the world is confused! They respond based on natural instinct as well as how we have taught them by example and what they are exposed to.We cannot send our children to Caesar and be surprised when they return as romans! If you are convicted, bothered, upset, stressed, or whatever over what is going on with your children, then stop complaining and bemoaning about it and take action! We can pray all day, and God hears us. However, sometimes I think when we pray, we already know the answer yet think God is silent. We pray for our children's protection when it comes to helping them learn new skills like riding a bike, swimming, or even as they head off to college. We would never intentionally put them in harms way yet we cry out to God for help when it comes to other challenges. Why do we, as parents or even as individuals, feel powerless when it comes to making decisions for our kids? Are we afraid of messing them up? Are we afraid they will hate us, need therapy as adults, or lose them forever? While you can learn all the things you may want, or even not want, to know on the internet, there still hasn't been a rock solid, fool-proof parenting book. I don't care how great the author is, if they are human, they are imperfect.So are we. We are imperfect parents, wading our way through each season of life with kids and – do I dare say I'm not the only one who feels both terrified and excited as another one approaches? It's normal to feel like you're failing as a parent. Shoot, I've felt I've failed as a mom, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a woman, and especially as a Christian.There is a balance in sheltering your child and controlling what they are exposed to or what they're involved in. We can't get away from the world progressing and evolving. The world isn't going to just suddenly get better. We won't be able to go back to the “good ol' days.” But we also cannot….at least I cannot…just lay down and let the world raise our children. They were put in our care for a reason. We were gifted them to raise. We make mistakes and we need to own them when that happens.The world would like you to believe that you have no idea what you're doing. The world tells our kids that we don't understand them, we will hate them if they are confused about who they are. It wants to cause division, fear, all the things that are NOT from God but then it paints this beautiful picture to show “look at us, we are the ones who love you.” It offers immediate satisfaction of our sinful nature. We can royally screw up as parents. Our kids can (and will) royally screw up as well. Yet we are all still loved and can be forgiven.Just because we make mistakes as parents doesn't excuse us for not doing what we have been called to do. It doesn't change the fact that we don't get to just lie down and take it as the world rips our children out of our arms, devouring them like hungry lions. Don't be afraid to step out of your comfort zone and stand up to the world. Don't be afraid to have your kid hate you for yanking them out of school and choosing to homeschool. Don't be afraid to have the difficult talks. Love your children enough to go down fighting for their souls. I'm not telling you to yell and speak truth in anger. That, my friend, will get you nowhere. Love. Real love. Is the answer. Be brave. Do the uncomfortable. Challenge yourself to grow as a parent. There is nothing surprising to God and He has led you to this point and will not abandon you now. When you dive deeper into your relationship with Him, peace and wisdom will come. You can do this. Come over and find me on:FacebookInstagramOr send an email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com, I'd love to hear from you!

Chrissie Kenaston is a military spouse, mom of 3, and author of "What if I Name Her Grace." Life has not been perfect and her marriage has seen more than it's share of difficult moments. Addiction, lack of faith, different paths than her spouse, moving, being alone....Time after time, when there have been moments of desperation, Chrissie found herself in front of the answer she had needed all along. Today I am speaking about the story behind the book, navigating imperfections as a wife and mother, and what it all comes down to. Grace. Find Chrissie and Pre-Order her book today!WebsiteInstagramFacebook Find Imperfectly Pollyanna:FacebookInstagramOr send a quick email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

Ever struggled with yo-yo dieting, bingeing, or emotional eating? What about struggled to really know who you were or how to stop beating yourself up all the time for every mistake you make?My guest today is Cat Sharp, Life Coach for Christian Women, and she is sharing her own personal story of losing over 100 pounds, battling the fight with sugar, and even sharing simple strategies for working through it all no matter where you are - no special equipment needed!Find Cat online:Website    (Don't forget that freebie!)FacebookInstagramPinterestBlogAND Find her in person, August 2021 at the Hope, Health, and Healing  Conference in Branson, MOFind Courtney on:FacebookInstagramOr send a quick email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.comFind the Good and See ya Next Time!

This week, my family and I are on a much needed vacation. However, I couldn't leave you hanging for the next episode! Without further ado, I am doing an encore presentation of not only one of my favorites but also one of the top  episodes downloaded.I'll see you next week!Find me on:FacebookInstagramOr email me with questions, thoughts, feedback at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I've been thinking about learning as a child vs learning as an adult. Are the things I'm hearing and learning about now things I actually learned as a kid and forgotten OR did I never learn them? I was guilty of memorizing things to pass a test or a class. Now I'm walking with my children and questioning things I was taught, never heard of, and relearning all at the same time! The question is...are you living in a state of "this is how I'm destined to live" or "this is my life now because I've reached pentacles and now I'm done"? Today I'm talking real and raw, without any type of script to go by...reflecting on things I've been using as far as apps, resources, and such. It doesn't sound exciting when I say it that way, but I sure hope you'll check in with me and see what the fuss is all about. Oh, and I have a little critter join me unexpectedly which means an entertaining distraction for a quick minute.Remember you can find me at:FacebookInstagramor via email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

Have you ever experienced anxiety or other mental health concerns and felt ashamed, guilty, or as if it was destined to control your life? Perhaps you've struggled with the idea of talking about those "weaknessess" in the fear others would judge you? Have you wondered if God could ever use someone like you? Today I am talking with Megan Carter, a Digital Engagement Pastor at Church Anywhere. She works with the Church Anywhere team to help people find and follow Jesus on digital platforms. She desires to walk alongside others dealing with anxiety and help them live a fuller life by sharing her own personal experiences. Let me tell you, this interview will leave you with the realization that you are NOT your struggles and those imperfections you see don't have to be what holds you back. You can actually use them to stand on and make a difference.Find Megan at:Real Talk with Megan (Blog)Real Talk with Megan (Facebook)Real Talk with Megan (TikTok)Real Talk with Megan (Instagram)Come find Courtney at:FacebookInstagramOr send me an email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

I will NEVER be the Pinterest mom. I just won't. I can save all the things to all the boards. I can listen to podcasts. I can make lists. I can talk with friends about all the ideas we have. But when it comes down to it, that just isn't me!Does this mean it's ok to not try and be better every day? NO. We should not compare ourselves but we should also always strive to live the life we have been called to live. It doesn't mean our life will look like the girl next door. Or the family on Instagram with all the perfect filters. But it also doesn't mean we should just let it all go. I'm talking today about stories from the past week - Tik Tok, Facebook, Instagram, and even YouTube. Are we adults or children and how are we raising the next generation?Who do you think you are? Are you living up to the hype of parenthood? Let's discuss...As mentioned,here's the link to the KiwiCo boxes for $10 offYou can find me on Facebook, Instagram, or I would absolutely LOVE to get an email from you simply saying hi and hear what you'd like to hear on the podcast (or if you'd just like to spill your anxious thoughts, have a cup of coffee with me, or somewhere in between). 

Today I am interviewing my good friend, Lyndz Marie, as she shares her journey to the decision of homeschooling. It didn't come without second-guessing, bumps, fighting against her own expections as well as undoing damage to her son that was caused by the school system. This episode will challenge how you approach raising your family, following convictions, and rising above the standard that is set by either you or the world. Warning, you will  likely have your toes stepped on a bit but we address if you feel offended by our words - is it an offense that needs to be sat in for a bit or ignored? We discuss if it's actually possible to work full time and homeschool as well as address those questions such as "what about my child learning at the same level as public school students?" and "isn't a private school a better choice than public?" So. many. conversations within this interview that you may have to listen a few times to take it all in.Find Lyndz Marie at her InstagramWatch the Children of Caesar (Part 1) mentioned todayJoin our little facebook community group here.I am also on Facebook, Instagram, and would love to hear from you via private message or email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna

To the child-less woman on Mother's Day:I see you.When the world around you is smiling and full of flowers, hugs, celebration, gifts.I see you.When the church service speaks of something that brings others joy and only brings sadness and pain for you.I see you.I have sat in the pew, forcing an exhausted smile having other's say, “don't worry, one day it'll be your turn.” Only for them to not know I was carrying life already that I unknowingly would soon lose.I have held the pain inside as the bitterness from my failing body engulfs me to the point of barely being able to catch my breath. I have felt the empty arms year after year that only gets brought to the forefront, reminding me of how much I am missing, on a day when some find an overabundance of life.I have heard the comments about needing to “relax,” saying “it'll happen,” whispers of judgement when emotions are so high, they control every action or lack thereof, making it seem as though you are crazy or just being “hormonal.” I see you.When you get up every day, feeling the loss of never having held your child in your arms before they were ripped away from your womb. I see you.When you finally find the joy of bringing a rainbow baby into this world yet will always feel the losses of the past.I see you.I have been to the doctor appointments.Had the weekly blood draws.Endured the surgeries and ultrasounds.Watched as a twin faded in the womb.Spent sleepless nights in the bathroom as I watched life slip from me.Stressed over affording it all.Prayed over not understanding.Yelled at God for not feeling loved enough.Cried in the dark, in the car, at work, to friends, to family.Felt alone. Felt worthless. Felt unseen.I see you.Every day you battle the emotions. Today just amplifies them to a decibel level that is difficult to explain to anyone who has not endured it themselves.Maybe you are someone who holds guilt because you have had the losses but also have had the joy of life that you see every day in your children. Don't feel guilty. Remember your losses. Acknowledge them. Those losses are your babies, too.I see you.Maybe you are someone who has had the losses or perhaps you've not experienced the ability to grow another life despite your best efforts and determination. Your pain seems to creep in at the most inconvenient of times and you want to yell at the world for the unfairness of it all.I see you.When your body feels like it's failed you.I see you.When you dread the get togethers and avoid the conversations.I see you.I won't tell you the things so many say in hopes to make it all better.I won't tell you that miracles happen, or your time will come.I won't tell you that you could just adopt – even though I have no idea if that's something you have already tried to do and it didn't work out.What I will tell you is this…You are allowed to feel angry.You are allowed to feel sad.You are allowed to feel bitter.You are allowed to feel lost.You are allowed to feel anything that you feel and there is no judgement in this place.What I want to tell you is…Despite your feelings,Despite your thoughts,Despite the words you hear others say,You matter. Your life matters. Your words matter. Your thoughts matter.You are seen. You are loved. You are whole. You are enough.Your life is important. You are needed. You have a purpose.Today may suck. This week may be hard. This year may be full of difficult moments.But you can get through this. You are resilient. You are brave. You are worth the time it takes to be healthy and happy.To the child-less woman on Mother's Day, you are not forgotten. One day does not determine your worth. When other's find joy, it does not diminish your pain. Take a breath. You have a place in this world that no one else can fill.I see you.

And how many doors have to close?This week I am sharing about several things that have happened in a short amount of time. Some good, some not-so-great. But out of the mouth of babes, my children keep bringing me back to a place of realization in one way or another.World Homeschooler's Day is June 4th, 2021. Make sure to share far and wide!Join our private Facebook group: Finding the GoodFind me at Imperfectly Pollyanna  on Facebook and Instagram as well as feel free to send me a quick hello via email to courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com (I'm always up for hearing how you're doing and/or what you'd like to hear more of on the pod!) 

Today I have the privilege of interviewing someone who I just happened to have met on the interwebs. You may find this becoming a pattern because believe it or not there ARE still cool people that grace the internet with their goodness and I seem to keep finding them! With spring finally arriving, I always feel so inspired by the outdoors. I remember my grandmother always sitting out in her garden, pulling weeds, planting new bulbs, and simply looking so elegant even in the dirt. While I've not totally learned how to have a green thumb, I am determined to keep trying – even if it means I kill weeds on accident. I've lucked out with a few plants that somehow continue to come back every year DESPITE my inability to do anything other than see if they'll grow again each spring. That's why I am really excited for you to join me for this interview episode in which we will learn together on gardening. Things like WHEN to plant, WHAT to plant – especially for newbies or black thumbs, and HOW to get your kids involved.Stephanie Leaf is a mother, wife, entrepreneur, freelance writer, and simple living strategist/coach. She helps busy, modern moms create a simpler, healthier, more homegrown, and cozier life for their families. With her husband Brian, they have been working to transform their family's lives to be more self-sufficient, healthy, and intentional. Stephanie is the founder of the blog, "Wingin' it on the Homestead" where she shares recipes, tips, tricks, and their family's journey to simple living. Website:https://wingingitonthehomestead.com/Facebook:https://www.facebook.com/wingingitonthehomesteadPodcast: Simple Living Made Simple (available on Apple, Spotify, Stitcher, IHeart Radio, and her website)Free Garden Guide: https://www.yourdreamgardenguide.comCome over to our private Facebook community: Imperfectly Pollyanna - Finding the Good and grab your free e-recipe book for all things fresh produce related as well as join in on discussions around health, faith, homeschooling and always positivity.You can also find me on:Imperfectly PollyannaFacebookInstagram 

If you look for the bad, you'll find it. If you look for the good, you'll find that. This season, I invite you to come along with me as we explore ways to homeschool with simplicity, develop ideas and habits that improve our family's health, address struggles and build our faith. One thing that will be new this season will be one-on-one interviews with people who will share valuable information surrounding the reasons we are here. It is my hope that throughout our time together, you find a place where you belong. A place where you know there will be real and honest talk while also embracing the imperfections. A place where every week, we explore ideas, stories, and tips that leave you feeling encouraged. Come find an extension of our community at my private Facebook group: Imperfectly Pollyanna - Finding the Good. We will have giveaways, recipes, homeschool tips, wellness ideas, all things positive. Hope to see you there!  

I recently posted a video on Instagram that stated 3 things I believe.Kids learn in different waysParents should get a say in educationYou can homeschool if given resourcesI got a comment on it that said “a lot of people have jobs and that's why they can't” to which I let them know I understood since I work 24 hour shifts myself. It takes maneuvering and learning but it can work!Today is Episode 12 and I am so very grateful that you have taken time out of your life to listen to this small town girl who just had a dream of chatting and being an encouragement to others. In this episode, I'm going to be talking about conviction, homeschool, and life itself. If you know of a homeschool family, or someone considering homeschooling, would you mind sharing this with them, please? If you're not a homeschooler and are considering this may be where you stop listening, I'm going to ask you to hold off on pressing the stop button. I'm a big believer that people are where they need to be at the appointed time. Even if they don't think so. Nothing is a surprise to God, He knew you'd be here today, so why not listen and see if there's a reason? OK, so back to the topic at hand. Excuses over convictions.How many times have you written off the desire or calling to do something because it didn't seem possible? Humans are creatures of habit.What happened when the pandemic hit and life as we knew it, froze? No leaving the house except for essentials. Sports cancelled. Schools and co-ops shut down. Events paused. Churches taken online. Our routines were taken and rolled up into a ball like a discarded piece of paper. Even when we could unfold that paper, there were so many wrinkles in it, it was barely useable. Our family found ways to entertain ourselves including my talent for drawing  sidewalk chalk bunnies. I know you're jealous!We found the joy of funschooling and mom-schooling and it really is a thing!IF you feel convicted about something…whether it is centered around something you should be doing or maybe should not be doing, are you someone who makes that change? Sometimes the change is easy like you feel convicted about watching a certain show or movie. Maybe it's about who you're allowing as friends on your social media accounts. Some convictions are simple as far as thinking “sure, I can give that up.” But what about the things that really challenge your routine? The convictions that mean having to take a chance at being rejected by people? Questioned by those who love you? Redoing things that would mean being uncomfortable for a time? It is natural to make sure your child is taken care of, right? As they begin growing, learning new skills, we make sure outlets are covered, corners are cushioned, food is age appropriate. We pick them up if they fall, take them to the doctor if they are sick. So, why is it that when they get to school age, we think it's natural to have someone else take over their care? Why is it seen as normal for them to learn about life from someone other than you? When I tell people that I have been reminded of why we homeschool this past year, I would not be surprised if I had people judging me behind my back. I am sure I have had people think we are keeping our kids in a bubble from the world and they will end up being awkward and/or ignorant about how the world works. But ya know what? When I see what children are learning in a traditional school setting, when I hear what they are exposed to, when I read experiences and conversations that are happening with CHILDREN?!  They are not made to experience adult decisions or topics when they are simply kids!Sometimes being brave means doing the uncomfortable. It means stopping the busyness and just standing still to listen. It means taking chances that may mean you end up being judged by the world. You may struggle to feel included. There may be times when you question it all.But you must step out in faith. The opinions of the world don't matter in the long run. What is popular or hot topics today will change next week, next month, next year. But you will still be you. Your children will still be your children. Your life will still be your life.My kids and I recently did an Easter unity study and had SO much fun, which opened up doors for really good discussions. Seeing the repercussions of following my convictions within my kids has been a huge encouragement. Knowing they won't always make the right decisions  but having faith that I am doing what I should be doing for them having a good solid foundation. Life has it's own share of disappointments, unforeseen trials, and uncontrollable circumstances. Why add upon those things we cannot control by not following the route we feel convicted about? You may be currently homeschooling, considering homeschooling, or feeling led to do or not do something. You may be worried or fearful – or you've become good at the excuses of why something won't work. You don't have to know exactly how to do it perfectly. You don't have to have it all together. You just have to be ready and open to learning. To taking the chance. To follow the conviction. God will work it all out. He's not having us figure it all out on our own. This is the last episode of season 1 and it has been a wonderful ride. I have loved and appreciated the reviews and messages I have received. Season 2 is only a couple weeks away. I'll be taking the time between to get the incredible interviews I've already done all set up and ready. Come find me and keep up to date on upcoming happenings, episodes, all the things over on:FacebookInstagramOr send me a quick email to say hi over at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com 

The definition of a “Pollyanna” is: a person characterized by irrepressible optimism and a tendency to find good in everything. It doesn't mean never being sad, angry, or anything other less-than-sweet emotion. It means acknowledging the negative while having the ability to still see something positive. So, how do you become a Pollyanna? Is it something that is naturally within some people or can it be taught? I have 10 steps to keep you in tip top shape, as good ol' Mary Poppins would probably say. GratitudePositive Affirmations Kindred SpiritsPursue GoalsLess JudgmentDon't Over AnalyzeLet Go the Need to ControlRead (Ted Dekker Circle Series)PrayChoose to Be GladCome find me on:FacebookInstagramOr I'd love to hear from you via email: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com**Side Note: We have 1 more episode left to go of Season 1! It's the perfect time to binge the season before Season 2 begins in just a couple of weeks. More sneak peaks to come!

Food affects the brain the most, for better or worse. Choosing foods that support optimal brain health is key to overall wellness. It will help your brain grow healthy cells, make healthy connections and operate calmly and efficiently. As a mom, I truly want the best for my kids. I want them to be able to focus on schoolwork, grow a healthy brain, and feel good overall. However, we all know it's not always that simple, right? Healthy connections are how the brain makes sense of information, creates memory and signals muscles to react and move. Four factors influence brain health. Today we are keeping it stricktly to nutrtion chat.Your brain needs:OmegasAntioxidantsFolate"Right Carbs"5 Brain-Boosting Foods:FishBerriesGreensCarbs (fruits/veggies)Nuts and SeedsStarting the day with a good breakfast was actually true just like mom said!  It jumpstarts the gut, jumpstarts the brain, and keeps you lean! Eating a "brainy breakfast" includes both green and yellow light foods with the right balance of complex carbohydrates and proteins to both stimulate and relax the brain for optimal performance. As a health coach, I really love using traffic light eating concepts for not only teaching my clients but my own family in order to help us pay more attention to how we are fueling our body. Green light foods are you “go” foods. Your fruits and veggies. You need them every day. Yellow Light foods are ones that you may need every day but not as much and you want to use caution. Protein perks up the brain and, because the body takes longer to digest protein than carbs, it helps you stay comfortably full for a longer period. A high-fiber breakfast of slow-release carbs prevents midmorning crashes and sugar cravings. When reading a label for breakfast cereals, look for:Cereal made from whole grains, not just “wheat”At least 3 grams of protein per servingLess than 6 grams of sugar per servingAt least 3 grams of fiber per servingNo hydrogenated oils, artificial preservatives, artificial colors, or high fructose corn syrupDining out with kids? Noticed that the "kids menu" tends to be the same stuff across the board and is very bland in color? 3 tricks:Skip the kids menu. Share a meal, take home half, etc.Start with a salad or veggie-rich broth soup so they are full of goodness before they partake in the "not-so-great" food choice they insist on having.Offer them choices. Look at the menu together and pick out 3-4 options healthier choices and allow your child to choose from them. Being a parent is hard enough as it is that worrying about doing everything right seems insurmountable and overwhelming at times. Here's the thing, I'm not asking you to be perfect. I've learned to not expect my own self to be perfect. If we were, we sure wouldn't be living here on earth anymore. There are things we will undoubtably get wrong. Our kids will grow up and likely learn how to do some things better than what we did. As the saying goes, we don't know what we don't know. But once we DO know better, it means nothing if we never actually DO better. Choosing to care for our family the best way possible doesn't mean you have it all together and do it all right the first time. It doesn't have to mean you have to go broke trying to force your kid to eat his vegetables. I don't think healthy living should be difficult, complicated, or expensive. I do think we have to decide what is a priority.You don't go into church and leave trash laying about, tracking in mud, sitting on the podium, and destroying it, right? We treat it with respect. How much more should we treat our bodies?  Maybe today you aren't sure where to start. I hope you'll take the suggestions I've mentioned here and bring a few to your table. Connect with me on:Link to our private facebook group  where we will be continuing discussions, sharing tangible tips, and finding community with like-minded people.FacebookInstagramEmail: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com 

Fear breeds anxiety. Anxiety and fear go hand in hand with traumas and not always just one but years of various types. Who knows when it began for me, but after a tornado, a car accident, miscarriages, and homeschooling stress...suffice it to say, I have had my share of overwhelming anxiety! While the panic attacks are no longer a part of my life, anxiety didn't just disappear. It just found new ways of showing itself. It came in broken sleep, heart flutters, waking in a sweat or short of breath, racing thoughts, difficulty concentrating, uncontrollable over-thinking…..ohhhh the over-thinking. So I began my journey of figuring out what that looked like. I had a lot of healing to do and that meant looking at some not-so-pretty sides of my thoughts and habits. Have you ever had a time when you were sick and tired of feeling sick and tired but you just weren't sure where to go or what to do? Have you ever lied awake at night in worry about life, worry over your kids, worry over finances, jobs, friends, loved ones, health….just worrying over anything and everything?I finally began learning how to combat that sick feeling. Not only from address nutritional issues but also...anxiety itself. Who knew a lot of it was all connected?!Don't get me wrong, it's not been a simple fix. And there are days when my anxiety begins to rear it's ugly head. Now, I have the resources to be able to do a self check…My devotional time is my one constant. I have felt closer to the Lord and seeing His incredible power through His Word has brought me comfort in the middle of chaos.As a homeschooling mom, I have often times felt anxious and overcome with worry over whether or not I was doing the best I could, doing all the right things, being the best I could for my children. I have lied in bed at night in fear I was screwing them up. Even when you aren't homeschooling, I am sure every parent has felt that way more than once. Even when your children are grown, I imagine that worry continues.That being said, if you're in a time of life when your anxiety seems to take over your thoughts, I hope you can hear me now and know that you are not alone. It's not something I've suddenly gotten a grasp on and gotten over. Not only that, but as I said earlier, when you deal with it for so many years and due to so many contributing factors it becomes a way of life. You sort of learn that it's a part of you. The thing is, it's something that does NOT have to run your life.I love the words. “Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand. But I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hand.” We can spend our days in worry. We can simply not understand why life is how it is. We can fret and live in a state of anxiety. But are we anxious out of the NEED to be in control? When we find rest in the One who holds tomorrow…when we let go of our pride because really, that has SO much to do with it…when we learn to release it, doing our part by taking care of our health, delving into His Word, building a personal relationship with Him…it is THEN we will find rest. Trust. Serenity. In hoping to connect more through conversations, live chats, giveaways, all the things...I've started this gem: Imperfectly Pollyanna - Finding the Good Private FB Group Link (questions must be answered to be accepted)If you're not on "the book" never fear I have additional things in the works! If you've not already come and visited with me, you can find me on:FacebookInstagramEmail: courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com

This past week, we havebeen to a gymnastics competitiontaken both dogs (at the same time) to the vet - which was, entertaininglooked at a few houses and landand officially completed an almost year-long task (our special announcement)I've also been told I am old. Not in those exact words, but that was the bottom line. I still have dreams of living in the country, expanding our family, and in the mean time I'm trying not to compare myself to other people in the podcasting industry. It's just an ongoing struggle of life - but it's fiiiiine.Life is a funny place. If you're willing to take the time to pay attention, there are little blessings and God nudges – sometimes in a big way and sometimes in a way you may not even see if you're not looking – to let you know you're where you're supposed to be. Doing what you should be doing. It doesn't mean you know EXACTLY what to do every single step of the way. It may just be what my mom has called a “God wink.” That moment when you're reminded of His love for you.Have you checked out or considered lately the ages of people in the bible compared to when their "story arc" happens? Talk about making you think again as to what is possible in our lifespan. Though I am totally fine to not live to 400. Are you allowing negative Nelly in your head? Is she shutting down any thoughts of worthiness? Are you letting her decide how you live your life? Or are you going to step out in faith and pursue those things in which you have been set apart to do? Are you going to allow your mistakes, scars, age, whatever it is, are you going to allow it to determine the road you should be on? We talk about the Greatest Showman...because what better way to discuss living your best life despite all odds, am I right?!You can't let fear or what the world sees as impossible hold you back from living in freedom and fulfillment. Come find me and hang out at Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, my website, or even drop me an email (courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com) to tell me how you're doing  and what you'd like to hear about on the show. See you next time!

When I was young, I remember coming home from school every day and sitting down with a lemon and salt in front of the tv. I could eat one right after the other if allowed. I had a whole process to eating them and it was delicious. I mean, what could be better than lemons and Saved by the Bell?! My dad would tell me not to eat too many or it would ruin the enamel on my teeth. I would roll my eyes because surely it wasn't that dramatic and who cared about enamel anyway?In recent news, there has been talk about allowing 11-year-old children to have the legal right to decide if they want a certain hot-topic vaccination. Not only that, but in the article I was reading, it stated they would also be able to keep the information from their parents! Excuse me?! There are many things wrong with this type of scenario but I wanted to address a few concerns.A human brain is not fully developed until around age 25 yet the world expects a child to take on decisions, thoughts, and actions as if they are 40. While we cannot shield our children from everything the world throws at them, we also cannot allow the world to completely define how they are raised.Our decision to homeschool was originally a combination of both not being able to afford the school we desired and not wanting our son to attend a public school. Looking back on that time, almost 7 years ago, I see that as a moment when a life-altering decision was made. And we didn't even grasp the importance at the time. In the desire and conviction to raise our kids a specific way, we aren't perfect. Gracious, the mistakes I have made as a parent. My own apologies I've had to give to my parents after experiencing things as a parent myself. Phew. I love sharing funny stories and precious pictures on social media, but if we are being honest here, there are days when it is ugly at our house. Sometimes we get so caught up in the desire to make it all perfect, when all we really need it to let go of the control. Let go of the ideas of perfection. Let go of the anxiety….yes, the ANXIETY….of raising our children in this moment. I know I'm not the only one who's woken up in the night with a racing heart and overwhelming thoughts of “how in the world am I going to get through this?” Yet. We have been given charge over these children. How dare we take such an enormous responsibility and not be willing to fight to the death to protect, provide, educate, and lead them? How dare we allow the world to tell us what is best? I don't mean just with medical decisions. I don't mean with just one thing or another. I mean with it ALL. Are you willing to stand up and fight for them?  Are you willing to make hard decisions, sometimes ones that just don't make sense or may take a lot of work, in order to protect and lead them? Don't doubt your abilities. You've got people in your corner!New Segment alert!! "Puzzle Pollyanna" - unsure if we will keep the name if this is something that continues - and y'all gave me 19 submissions! The picker wheel randomly chose CRAYON and so I share, on the fly, what type of object, or life, lesson can come from that. What do you think? Good idea? Good lesson? Should we continue?I'd love to connect and hear from you - send me an email at courtney@imperfectlypollyanna.com to share any feedback you may have, questions, topics you'd like to hear about, or even just to vent to someone who will listen without judgment.Have you found value in this podcast? I'd love for you to share it with someone as word of mouth is how podcasts get found. Of course, you can always find and engage with me on my Facebook and Instagram. See you next time!imperfectlypollyanna.com

This past week, the world lost an amazing man. His name was Carman. Yes, the Carman that ministered through music that told a story. After a weird year of 2020, imagine the surprise of our tiny church when we were asked to host this legend in our sanctuary! We questioned our ability to make it happen, even had questions on it being wise during the current events. Yet, there we were. Our church has seen the congregation dwindle over the years but my dad's sermons continue to be exactly what we need to hear. We go live on Facebook every Sunday morning. Come be encouraged: Metro Christian CenterThe Carman event happened. To see our sanctuary full again. To watch my parents clap and smile as they listened. To look around and watch as hands were raised, lives were saved, hope was poured out like an ocean of refreshing water on everyone there. It's a time I hope I can always hold onto. Even as someone who wasn't close to him, it was such a heartbreaking moment to hear about his passing. I hurt for his crew. They were his family. I hurt for the small churches who were like us and preparing to welcome him. I hurt for the people who had already been inviting their loved ones to upcoming shows in hopes of bringing them closer to the Lord. I hurt for the ripple effect.Yet, you know what I'm glad about? I'm glad the Lord saw our family and church worthy to host him back in October. I'm glad for the friendships we made and wouldn't have otherwise had. I'm glad for the friends that attended and we hadn't seen in years. I'm glad my children were able to meet him. I'm glad that because of that moment, we were able to sponsor 2 children from the Child Fund . If you are looking for a sign to do the same: Child FundI find it so interesting to see when God is gonna show up. He sure never does it on our time, does he?When I was a teenager, I loved – and still do – a gospel singer named Michael English. Sigh. I thought he was so handsome but the way his vocals just glided along in a song is something I am convinced the angels sound like! As everyone else on this earth, though, he made some mistakes. One was significant enough that he left the gospel music world for several years. I remember reading such hate from Christians. Harsh judgements. And these weren't judgments out of caring about a fellow brother in Christ. Through the story of redemption, I had an answer to a long-time prayer that happened at the National Quartet Convention. It wasn't the place or time I thought it would be, and at the time I was doubting my prayers were even being heard, much less answered. I was wrong. I find that I can get so caught up in life. What's going on with so-and-so, which current event is causing mass chaos, fear, and division, engulfed in the worries of not just myself but even people I don't know! I cry out asking God to listen to my heart. I still struggle with questioning my abilities to be a good mom, a good wife, a good friend. I feel like such a failure in many areas of life.Is there something you're going through right now that you're not sure how it's going to turn out? Maybe you're a parent and you are worried about your kids. You're worried about their school situation. Something they seem to be having a difficult time with. Maybe you are afraid for them growing up in the world that you are raising them in.Are you concerned about a health issue? Have you been praying for what seems like eternity about a situation? Are you looking at your life and just at the point of feeling exhausted with it all? He knows your name. He knows your heart. And I am sure He has a plan that is better than anything you could imagine. Take a breath.Keep praying.This WILL be okay.I am needing your help to reach more people. If this podcast has touched you in any way, would you mind going ahead and sharing it with someone? If you'd like to leave a ratiing or review, that would be great, too! Podcasts get traffic by word of mouth. I'd appreciate the ability to connect with you as well as those you love and care about.Find me on Facebook, Instagram, or send me a quick hello at imperfectlypollyanna.com.

Time after time after time, while growing up, it seemed like my family gave so much to others only to be stabbed in the back or used and then tossed to the side once needs were met. I've had people in my life that said all the right things. You know, things like “I care. You can trust me. I'm here for you.”I became a girl who both trusted easily yet put up walls quickly. I don't even know if that makes sense. I WANTED to trust people. I WANTED to be accepted and loved and have loyal friendships. Yet, I have seen so many times when that trust is stepped on, ripped up, and thrown without a second thought. Is it asking too much to be able to trust someone? Why should we take chances? Why even make an effort?This week in my devotional time, it was about the time leading up to and including the crucifixion of Christ. He had spent his WHOLE life giving to others. Healing them. Listening to them. Encouraging them. Providing. Leading. Speaking. He never faltered in his mission of ministering, despite knowing in the end so many would turn against him. He knew this would be the end result, yet he continued his mission. He continued to offer friendship and trust. He didn't give up or walk away when it got hard. As humans, we are selfish. Even in our desires to help others, we have all had times of selfishness and being ignorant in our actions or lack thereof. Do you know the story of the Exodus? Sometimes we don't understand the “why” because we don't see the big picture. We only see the way that makes sense to us but we don't know what's ahead.In the wilderness, unbeknownst to them as to WHY they had to take the long way, the Israelites marched boldly. They had a cloud to guide them in the day and fire to guide by night. Both stayed in front of them. I mean, this story is SO GREAT! It keeps getting better! The Lord tells them EXACTLY what to do. He told them to turn back and go camp by the sea. He knew it would make Pharaoh think he was winning but He also knew the end of the story. Pharaoh and his army were closing in. The Israelites see them and begin worrying. Imagine if you'd been waiting for the promise of freedom to happen and just about the time you can practically TASTE it, the other foot starts to drop. How many times have you had that happen? A prayer of some sort, a dream, a desire starts to come true and BAM the story line pivots.The Israelites saw the mighty hand of the Lord displayed against the Egyptians. They put their trust in him. There's more to the story after this, but I want talk about how our lack of faith doesn't change who God is! We can choose not to trust him, we can try to think we know how something should go or turn out, but it won't change who He is. I don't know about you, but there have been times I have prayed for answers to my questions. Prayed for help. Prayed for healing. Prayed for direction. Prayed for wisdom. Prayed for grace. Only, while sometimes I got those things answered, it hasn't been every single time. I am preaching to the choir, here. But we can't say we trust God in the good times and then question his authority and power when we don't see the outcome we want in the time frame we expect.The thing is, when you say you trust that doesn't mean you trust in the outcome. You don't trust for what you want. You trust EVEN IF. EVEN WHEN. EVEN THOUGH. Trusting doesn't guarantee to have the ending you want. Trusting means that you follow where you are lead, you follow the pillar of cloud or fire, you follow in the wilderness, on dry ground, and without knowledge of always knowing what is coming. God didn't need the Israelites to show his power and glory. But he DID use them for it. He didn't HAVE to provide but he made a promise. He held true to his word. He was trustworthy. He is always trustworthy. He never breaks a promise.Friend, we don't have to know it all. And that's a GOOD THING! As a parent, I want the best for my children. I know my children trust me. That is a HUGE responsibility that I will likely mess up at some point, though unintentionally. We may not see the pillar of cloud or fire. We may not see the jamming of the chariots. But we can trust that He will not let us down. He never has. He never will. As Moses said “we need not be afraid. The Lord will fight for us; we need only be still.” What is it that you're struggling with today? When you are afraid. When you are crying out in pain. You can rest in the knowledge that EVEN THEN, He loves you. He is with you. He is a faithful friend. You're not perfect. But He is. This will be an episode that I, myself, will likely have to listen to many times. If you're struggling in your homeschool, be still. If you're struggling in your health, be still.If you're struggling with anger, bitterness, confusion, doubt, faith, be still.The Israelites weren't perfect. They whined, complained, doubted. They felt all the things we have felt. But EVEN THEN. God was there in the middle of it all and He's in the middle of it all with you. I'd love to connect so make sure to subscribe so you can get alerts for new episodes. You can also find me and say hello on:Facebook Instagramimperfectlypollyanna.com

Lou Holtz said: “It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it.” Why is it that we tend to make stress and everything that falls under it as a prize worth bragging about? How many times have you, or someone you know, said something like “I got 3 hours of sleep last night!” or “I'll sleep when I'm dead” or “you would not believe the amount of stress I am under!” I've been guilty of a few of those myself. I am convinced that there are people who just don't know what to do with themselves if they aren't unhappy, stressed, and having interrupted sleep. I am equally convinced that life is better when we learn how to properly deal with the negative and focus on doing better.The question today is: Can you find good in stress? Stress – we've all felt it. Stress impacts how your body responds to the aging process. Stress also ages the heart and can lead to high blood pressure, high cholesterol and high blood sugar. It also elevates your heart rate, which can wear the heart out over time. Stress has also been shown to weaken the bones, make you sick and even make you fat! Let's focus on what you can do to prevent suffering any of these stress-related issues! I'm going to cover five ways you can mitigate the effects of stress and then share tips on relaxation.  Let it go. Shift your focus.Practice redirection. Breathe deeply. Get moving! There ARE ways that we can find relaxation. This week over on my Facebook page, I asked for tips on reducing stress. There were some great discussions from music to oils to exercise and things called a happy light! I'd like to chat about a few ideas:Daily Meditation/Prayer/Journaling - Thanksgiving Journal: The Thinking Tree; Devotion: Bible in One Year AppRelaxation ExercisesImageryMusic - Study music:  Einstein Study Music; Current Fav. Gospel Group: Maverick City MusicStress is inevitable. It is how we deal with it that determines whether we come out on top or succumb to it. I'm not telling you that you can never feel stressed or negative. Gracious, our Creator gave us emotions.  The question is can there be good in stress? While stress itself is not a good thing, necessarily, there can be good when we choose to be proactive. Taking time to let it go, refocus, redirect, remembering to breathe, move our bodies, and practicing gratitude will begin to change your outlook. Like Lou Holtz said, “it's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it.” How are you carrying your load today? Are you wearing it like a badge, putting it on every day like a jacket to keep you warm? Or will you give that burden to the Lord and let Him carry it? Will you make decisions today to lessen the load so you can focus on the good, the blessings, the gift of life itself? I'd love to know what you'd like to hear on the podcast! Send me a quick message either on Facebook, Instagram, or ImperfectlyPollyanna.com. If you know someone who may appreciate this podcast, please share with them!