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Protecting Dignity in Crisis: A Humanitarian's Moral Stand in HaitiEpisode SummaryDr Lina AbiRafeh shares her harrowing experience from the 2010 Haiti earthquake response, where she led sexual violence prevention efforts. During one particularly challenging day, she made a split-second decision to protect a young rape survivor giving birth from exploitative journalists, ultimately prioritising human dignity over professional expectations. This powerful conversation explores the moral courage required in humanitarian work, the personal costs of standing up for one's values, and how to create meaningful change from wherever you stand.Key PointsThe immediate aftermath of the 2010 Haiti earthquake and its impact on vulnerable populationsThe ethical dilemmas faced by humanitarian workers dealing with media pressureHow journalists sometimes exploit trauma survivors for sensational storiesThe personal and professional consequences of taking moral standsThe evolution from frontline emergency work to systemic change-makingThe importance of exercising judgement and acting on principles in crisis situationsUnderstanding that effective change doesn't always require going to the frontlinesThe complex funding dynamics in humanitarian emergenciesBest Quote"Start where you stand. You don't have to go far to do good. You don't have to go big to do good." Look around your own community and identify where you can make a difference right where you are. What small but meaningful action can you take today to protect someone's dignity or stand up for what's right?ResourcesLina's TEDx 2025: How to build a better world for women https://youtu.be/p-v71cYvkSg?si=UqvRXX-aQEeGRAQl Lina's TEDx 2015: Women's Safety in a Violent World https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krSG-RtiWUA Contact InformationFind Dr Lina AbiRafeh here: Website: www.Better4Women.com LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/lina-abirafeh-28774867/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/linaabirafeh/ Medium: linaabirafeh.medium.com/ Find Leah Brown FRSA here: https://www.linkedin.com/in/leah-brown-frsa-b71b0844/ and @leahtalks_ on Instagram, TikTok and X.Don't forget to subscribe, rate, and share this episode by following The Longest Day Podcast here: LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/company/thelongestdaypodcast/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/15QDqkhjZw/?mibextid=wwXIfr YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheLongestDayPodcast-z1x X: @longestdaypod TikTok: @thelongestdaypodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thelongestdaypodcast Website: www.thelongestdaypodcast.com All previous episodes: https://pod.link/1684217939
In this episode of Screens and Focus, Diana and Sam return to dive into The Walking Dead: Dead City Season 2, Episode 2. They unpack the layered themes of beauty and brutality, symbolized by the tragic death of artist Victor and what it reveals about the world and its characters. The conversation also explores betrayal, parental dynamics, and the strategic choices of Maggie and Negan. The episode closes with reflections on the emotional weight of music in a violent world, reactions to The Last of Us, and a few standout TV and movie picks—including The Stolen Girl, The Studio, Captain America: Brave New World, Babygirl, and Companion. This one is filled with deep emotion, smart insight, and a shared love of storytelling. 00:00 Introduction and Episode Overview 01:04 The Power of Music in a Violent World 01:09 Victor's Death and Its Symbolism 07:28 Negan and Maggie's Leadership Challenges 10:22 Herschel's Suspicious Actions 11:47 Fire Bombs and Strategic Moves 13:45 Parental Roles in an Apocalypse 18:42 Trust and Betrayal 25:34 Excitement for Central Park and Zombie Animals 26:08 Benjamin's Survival and DAMA's Actions 28:15 Art in the Apocalypse 30:52 Classical Music and Emotional Connections 38:02 TV and Movie Recommendations Florence + The Machine - Shake It Out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbN0nX61rIs Ceremonials : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyLqVFSBpxo Bach- Cello Suite No. 1 in G Major, Prélude: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1prweT95Mo0 Barber: Adagio for Strings: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAoLJ8GbA4Y Beethoven: Ode an die Freude/Ode to Joy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kcOpyM9cBg Vivaldi - The Four Seasons: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRxofEmo3HA Website: www.screensinfocus.com Email: screensinfocus@gmail.com X https://x.com/screensinfocus Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/screensinfocuspodcast/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/screensinfocus Feedback and TV/Movie Recommendations: Google voice (669) 223-8542 Free background music from JewelBeat.com: www.jewelbeat.com
God's sovereign expansion of the Gospel is not hindered by kings, public sentiment, or even violence. This passage teaches us some lessons about pride, persecution, and prayer. https://www.ankenyfree.church
What does it take to be humanely happy? Perhaps it's the very journey of the peacemaker that helps us discover the answer to this question, and it might not be the journey you would expect. Theologian, author, and peacemaker Andrew DeCort details this journey in his new abundantly profound and copiously beautiful book, “Blessed Are the Others: Jesus' Way in a Violent World."Through the nine-part movement known as the Beatitudes—the introduction to Jesus' famous Sermon on the Mount—Andrew helps us see that the pathway to "human happiness" is actually the pathway to peacemaking, but it doesn't come without a cost. Through his own experiences of building a massive peacemaking movement to having to flee a country that had become his home as it plunged into civil war, he helps us learn how to walk this path with him—not in fear, but in new purpose and joy. It's a chillingly challenging and beautiful episode you don't want to miss. --Purchase “Blessed Are the Others” by Andrew DeCort Leave a rating and review on Apple Podcasts or SpotifyIf you're enjoying the podcast, become a monthly donor to Telos!Subscribe to the Telos NewsletterRead and share the Principles and Practices of Peacemaking
Book interview with Andrew DeCort - “Blessed Are the Others: Jesus' Way in a Violent World“ Learn more at: andrew-decort.com faithandjusticebookgroup.com
This time i bring my friend and not your Mr. Derrick Carey. What We’ve watched and two of woods films deep in the delinquent films of the late 50’s and early 60’s the violent years and the sinister urge. Voicemail: 732-639-1435
The Promise of Peace: Hope in a Violent World
Mo Schoenfeld's work appears online and in print at Irisi Magazine, Haiku Crush's The Best Haiku 2021-23, Tiny Wren Lit, Pure Haiku's blog, Annick Yerem's Advent Calendar, Fevers of the Mind, the Wombwell Rainbow and The Storms, as well as the Sídhe Press anthologies, Our Own Coordinates: Poems About Dementia, Glisk and Glimmer, and To Light the Trails: Poems by Women in a Violent World.
Recorded before the big drop out, so we spare you that banter. Outrageously rad lix sent in by Inland Empire, CA's Saddam Bin Laden, fresh one we needed to get back to from Vida Muerta, Long Beach's Glassbomb ripping faces off, and an unreleased Noise Itch project debuted from Image of Decay! Hit us up at brothersgrimpunk@gmail.com and download our music on our Bandcamp page.467 Playlist:Vida Punka...Inland Empire SoCal HENRY ROLLINS IS A ZIONIST 1:22 Saddam Bin Laden Self Released Single 2024 Sistema Mortal Italy Vento di morte (wind of death) 1:21 Vida Muerta Il sole che trema (the sun that trembles) Long Beach Play Faster (demo version) 1:09 Glassbomb Bandcamp Single 2024 Noise Itch CS Berlin My Nightmare 1:32 Image of Decay Unreleased Demo CIS... (bkgrd) 5:39 Draft Dodger Draft Dodger TIME TO BE FITTED FOR YOUR TINFOIL HAT 0:36 SHUT THE FUCK UP if you use your arrogance as a sword you may fall upon it Hungary Manipulátorok 0:53 NORMS 100% hazaárulás Hungary Ítéletnap, Pszihoelektronikus Manipuláció 2:16 Kihalás Demo 2024 IL WORLD PEACE 2:04 MECHANIZM DEMO 2024 TN Fake Friends 1:04 Dru The Drifter Six Punk BUZZKILL 1:40 NO IDOLS DMU-015: DEMO 2024 Portland Horseplay 1:56 Carny Cumm Bandcamp Single 2024 My Name Is Filth 1:33 Part Time Filth My Leather_TN Fights (bkgrd) 3:10 Shutdown Shutdown IN Guillotine 2:08 SSYNTAXX A•N•G•E•R Winnipeg BRICK 1:35 Human Target Nuclear Man Split 2024 General Speech Deadly Romance 1:55 Ejaculators Wank Generation Junko Recs Chile Buscandoles Males Al Cuerpo 1:33 Tupa Demo Dirty Slap Recs FR Cage 1:28 Bavure Demo 2024 Finland Jotain tarttis tehdä 1:38 Turhuus - Split w- Harmer Indonesia Anxiety Disorder 1:46 PUCK Demo 2024 WA DC big screen little screen 1:28 flat demo Monarca 1:28 XGRIFOX H.U.G.S / XGRIFOX SPLIT Accept Defeat... (bkgrd) 7:27 Cut Piece Cut Piece [TSOPR-017] Violent World 1:02 World Bastard "Seized By Fear'' D-Beat Noise Attack 1:24 Electric Funeral Total Funeral Philly Bad Style 0:40 Fuck SS Demo Japan Enemy 0:50 Milk Bricks 7" Finland Pakkohoito 1:04 PARASOMNIA DEMO 2017 Stuck In My Ways 1:38 DEAD CITY Trap Tapes, Vol. 1 Brazil Tecidos E Metal 0:56 Ciborgue Neurose Digital My Sister Is A Blister 0:24 DORK B B Q Long Haul/Hell (bkgrd) 4:xx Troy Ounce Singles CT Bad Behavior 2:37 Smirk Bandcamp 2024 Single Other ways to hear BGP:Archive.org#467 on ArchiveApple PodcastsYouTube PodcastsPunk Rock Demonstration - Wednesdays 7 p.m. PSTRipper Radio - Fridays & Saturdays 7 p.m. PSTContact BGP:brothersgrimpunk@gmail.com@Punkbot138 on Instagram@BrosGrimPunk on XMore Music:Bandcamp - Follow us and download our albums: Brothers Grim Punk, Fight Music, and more!YouTube - tons of our punk playlists, from Anarchy to Zombies!
Loving Across Our Differences: The Power of Peace in a Violent World - Rev. Donnell T. Wyche - a2vc.org. Like us on fb.com/vineyardannarbor or watch our livestream Sundays @ 10:45am - vimeo.com/annarborvineyard Summary: In this sermon, Pastor Donnell explores the themes of violence and ethnic tension as presented in Acts 16, where Paul and Silas encounter injustice in Philippi. He begins by detailing the story of a demon-possessed slave girl used by her owners for profit, and how Paul's act of freeing her from possession leads to severe repercussions for him and Silas. The focus then shifts to the reaction of the local populace and authorities, highlighting the underlying ethnic prejudices that exacerbate the violence against them. Pastor Donnell uses this narrative to discuss the broader societal issues of racial and ethnic tensions, pointing out how quickly these can lead to violence and injustice, much like in today's world. Pastor Donnell delves deeper into the systemic nature of these prejudices, examining how they manifest in the charges against Paul and Silas, who are accused not of a specific crime, but of being culturally and ethnically out of place. This leads to a broader discussion on how societies often harbor latent biases that can erupt under certain conditions, underscoring the need for vigilance and awareness in our interactions and judgments. Pastor Donnell challenges the congregation to reflect on how these dynamics play out in their own communities and to consider the Christian response to such injustices. Concluding the sermon, Pastor Donnell draws parallels between the experiences of Paul and Silas and the suffering of Jesus, emphasizing that God is intimately present in situations of injustice and violence. He reassures the congregation that God's response to violence is not retribution but presence and peace. Through the example of Paul and Silas, who sang hymns and prayed even while imprisoned, Pastor Donnell advocates for a radical, peace-driven response to violence—a commitment to non-violence, understanding, and the building of relationships that transcend ethnic and cultural barriers. He calls on the church to embody this peaceful stance, using their influence to foster reconciliation and healing in a divided world.
Chico's revenge. We explain the paradox of discovering Zerox Records HC (a rad little record label in Chico, CA) after all these years and countless hours hunting down bands on Bandcamp. Reached out to Miles, who solely runs the label. He's involved in many of these projects from playing in the bands, to recording the releases, owner of "Get Up & Go!" recording studio (Chico), and of course all the DIY distribution. He remembers our boys, Fight Music and Uncle Logan. Enjoy a bunch from Zerox, some new ones, and mostly NorCal stuff sprinkled in. Hit us up at brothersgrimpunk@gmail.com and download our music on our Bandcamp page.456 Playlist:Paradox punx...Dogs Are More Loyal 1:48 BGP New/Unreleased Watch It Burn 2:00 El Matador & BGP New/Unreleased Work Sucks 0:24 Ripped to Shreds Demo North State Crew 2:06 The Choice Moonstomp Session Rights of Youth (bkgrd) 3:31 D-FY Rights of Youth Dads Love Reagan (bkgrd) 2:26 Dads Love Reagan Dads Love Reagan Chico WHAT'S LEFT 0:42 CULL CULL - Demo Bonehead Attitude 0:40 Scared to Death Oil EP That Flip Bill Bullshit 1:06 Tri-Lateral Dirts Commission Kurmudgeon Ghetto EP Nuclear Degenerates 0:54 SHIT RAG Zerox Records HC Welcome to Jefferson Comp The Age of Excuses 1:34 Dying For It Dying For It Redding Wretched 0:57 Vexed Gorilla X Monsoon // Vexed Split Eugene FALSE WORSHIP 1:53 ICED ICED Sick of Your Shit 1:10 Outside Looking In Living or ExistingLeft Behind 1:08 D-FY Rights of Youth Crucify Me (bkgrd) 2:48 Mr. Bang The Golden Record Reno and Noise Itch CS Berlin No Remorse 2:17 ÜLTRA P.R.O.T.O.T.Y.P.E Sac SSA 1:14 Assbackwards Inebriation Euthanization Sac Kicking and Screaming (Holehog) 0:56 HOLEHOG To Have and to Hold (split with B-Side) US ATTACKED 2:11 OPPRESSED LOGIC Cheap Ass Music Vol. 2 - CAR 08 Oakland Vanishing Point 1:14 Extraction Dead and Buried Demo Oakland Twisted Vision 0:51 Needles Twisted Vision Sunnyvale HEARTS OR LIKES 0:22 GODSTOMPER GODSTOMPER/MORMON MINCERS SPLIT 2023 Brown's Valley Burden 2:54 Arüspex Hawthorne & Henbane SF Play Fast Have Fun 1:25 VVM Demo 2023 Arcata Stop Reproducing 1:59 Something Wicked 2024 Bandcamp SingleNothing More (bkgrd) 3:45 Gorilla x Monsoon Gorilla x Monsoon Gnarly Charlie 1:52 Gyro Spazzers Demo 20's Taboo 1:29 Tri-Lateral Dirts Commission Kurr Jar Classics Rat Race 1:06 Icko Sicko Icko Sicko Miscreant 0:54 Vexed Demo Redding Entrapment 0:14 Violent World Demo Head In A Hole 0:55 Damaged Damaged Skate Park Nark 1:30 Mr. Bang Greatest Hits Pt. II SF Small Town 0:57 NIGHTSTICK JUSTICE NIGHTSTICK JUSTICE - "Complete Discography" (Thrash#11) Surf Nazis Must Die vs. Mother Speed 1:21 Hong Kong Fuck You 2024 SingleDeadman (bkgrd) 4:24 Desperate Hell Living With Faults Demo Jefferson Crew 1:42 Outside Looking In Content With DiscontentOther ways to hear BGP:Archive.org#456 on ArchiveApple PodcastsYouTube PodcastsPunk Rock Demonstration - Wednesdays 7 p.m. PSTRipper Radio - Fridays & Saturdays 7 p.m. PSTContact BGP:brothersgrimpunk@gmail.com@Punkbot138 on Instagram@BrosGrimPunk on XMore Music:Bandcamp - Follow us and download our albums: Brothers Grim Punk, Fight Music, and more!YouTube - tons of our punk playlists, from Anarchy to Zombies!
In this episode of Chasing Leviathan, PJ and Dr. Stanley Hauerwas discuss Living Gently in a Violent World and the inspiration behind it. Hauerwas reflects on the controversy surrounding co-author Jean Vanier and the L'Arche movement. Dr. Hauervass explores the concept of time and the importance of patience in our lives. He also discusses Sabbath, American culture, and Martha Nussbaum's work on disability. For a deep dive into Stanley Hauerwas's work, check out his book: Living Gently in a Violent World: The Prophetic Witness of Weakness
On June 11th 1963 Thich Quang Duc (a Buddhist monk) self immolated in protest of both the corruption of the South Vietnamese government and the violence they imposed.Within the beauty of our world is the inescapable nature of both beast and man. Both darkness and light.A paradox remains that often throughout history there are protests in society, art, cinema and music, against senseless violence - while others celebrate and parody our mysterious duality.Join me (beginning tonight) for the Off To The Witch newsletter as I explore our violent world.New episodes of Off To The Witch premiere every Wednesday night at 8:00pm ET.Off To The Witch can be found on all major podcast platforms as well as my YouTube channel (at offtothewitch)@followers#offtothewitch #christophergaretano #podcast #horror #violence #cinema #history #art #protest
Mat realized what hate really was when he found himself staring at a pistol pointing dead at his chest by a Nazi skinhead... For more than a decade, Matson Browning worked undercover infiltrating the world of white supremacist groups. His wife, Tawni, often working beside him chatting with women involved in those organizations, gathering intel on the members, and sending it over to Mat. BC Sanders and the Brownings also discuss the symbols, phrases, and terminology utilized within these organizations. The couple also discusses their book, THE HATE NEXT DOOR, published in 2023 documenting these investigations.
“Love of God, love of neighbors. Seek the kingdom, the good of the world. And in that good of the whole, your own good. And be attuned to what is around you in joy and also in sorrow.” (Miroslav Volf)We're in a crisis of meaning. It's like our existential compasses are off kilter. Uprooted from faith, social, and civic communities—the very institutions that once supplied narratives, a sense of identity, and belonging.But meaning and purpose are central to our spiritual health and therefore thriving. And theology comes into play because psychologists are more concerned with how meaning is made descriptively—looking at the cognitive and affective processes of our brains and behavior. Whereas theologians are concerned with prescriptive meaning, commenting normatively about how we should live.This episode features renowned theologian Miroslav Volf (Henry B. Wright Professor of Systematic Theology at Yale Divinity School / Founder and Director of the Yale Center for Faith and Culture) and author of the bestselling book, Life Worth Living: A Guide to What Matters Most.We need stories of love and hope to define our lives. And much of Miroslav's life's work has been devoted to understanding what constitutes a life worth living.In our conversation, he shares about a God who is with us, who is loving, and who created us for love, calling us to an active role in the flourishing of this world.In this conversation, we discuss:How to discern what really matters and how to be intentional about a life worth livingThe need to challenge the hyper individualistic assumptions of our day, focusing on thriving life as a life of connections and convictionsSpiritual health as dependent on our relationships with one another, with God, and creationSpiritual practices that quiet, create space, and slow us down—allowing us to attune a broad and secure space for human becoming and unfoldingMiroslav speaks openly and vulnerably about his own experiences of faith, suffering, hope, and flourishingShow NotesLearn more about the Yale Center for Faith and CultureCheck out Miroslav's best-selling book, Life Worth Living: A Guide to What Matters Most (co-authored with Matt Croasmun and Ryan McAnnally-Linz)Reorienting theology around the concept of human flourishingHonor everyone, love God, love neighbor, seek the kingdom, stay attuned in joy and in sorrowCrisis of meaning and the need for deeper reflection on what matters most“We need stories of love and hope to define our lives.”Interdisciplinary research in psychology and theologyMiroslav reflects on his early life in 1970s Croatia (then Yugoslavia)Anthony Kronman's Education's End: Why Our Colleges and Universities Have Given Up on the Meaning of LifeMiroslav's early faith: “Jesus is alive.”“His experience was that people who believe are idiots, that they can't know anything, that they are these parasites that want to undermine whatever the society's trying to do. And so that was my first initiation, so to speak, in the public living of my faith. … but, it was also beautiful.”A way of life that is worth suffering for—holding a treasure.“Another occasion where we were actually beaten and chased out of a village that was completely communist-dominated. And we kind of disrupted it by … We spoke about Jesus … and they chased us out of the city to beat us up … and then we had this kind of sense of joy.”Practices vs ReflectionMoral practices and felt experience“There's always a kind of excess beyond what we can actually say, what we can describe, what we can explain. We stutter often when we try to—especially describe experiences like joy or like suffering. They're beyond the words. That's the beauty of them—giving oneself to them.”Miroslav Volf on thrivingThriving is framed around three elements of human experience: agency, circumstances, and emotions—knit together through the lens of the kingdom of God and Christian imaginationAgency: Love God and Love neighbor.Circumstances: “Thy kingdom come” vs “give us this day our daily bread”Emotions: Attune to the world. “Rejoice with those who rejoice and mourn with those who mourn.”“Love of God, love of neighbors. Seek the kingdom, the good of the world. And in that good of the whole, your own good. And be attuned to what is around you in joy and also in sorrow.”Primordial goodness: Goodness is always prior to evil.Spacious public faith and Christ as the key to flourishing lifeChrist as a moral teacher and exemplarThe “aliveness” and presence of Christ“I often don't experience God.”Martin Luther on faith: Christ as a gem, encased in our faithChurch fathers on the presence of Christ as “heated iron in fire”—the heat doesn't come from the iron but from the fired—similarly, God heats us from within.Exclusion & Embrace: A Theological Exploration of Identity, Otherness, and ReconciliationPorous boundaries and our nature as relational beingsJürgen Moltmann's autobiography A Broad Place“Religion really cramps our style… But in Miroslav's theology, personal wholeness in Christ is spacious and freeing.”Exodus 3: God promising to lead Israel out of bondage and constraint and into freedom and a broad spaceLoveRelational image of God and relationalityGod as ultimate lover—”God loves us while we are still so far away”Life Worth Living: A Guide to What Matters MostChristian faith and pluralismArticulating a coherent answer to what it means to live a life that's worthy of our humanityThe Recipe: “You can't put all the ingredients together as you wish. They have to fit together.”“We make truth claims.”“I think we go wrong when we don't honor people's own search for truth. The whole book is about having truth-seeking conversations about something that has a claim upon your life. And argue with others, but argue in such a way that honors everyone. And so for me, this is a kind of central Christian conviction that comes straight from the Bible, from 1 Peter. Short commandment: Honor everyone. That's what I need to do. Whatever they do, whatever they think, especially honor those who've spent so much time trying to think through some of these issues as many of the figures have that have, that are not necessarily Christian.”“Honor everyone.”Nurturing the ascetic practices of self-reflection and disciplineSpiritual exercise by Pam King: Creating SpaceTeresa of Avila and the Interior CastleRelationality, reciprocity, and mutual flourishingRobin Wall Kimmerer in *Braiding Sweetgrass: “*All flourishing is mutual.”“Human thriving isn't thriving when it's the expense of other people's thriving.”“And it's a kind of strange paradox. At our disposal, but it's all reference to me and to my experiences. … We have a really narrow scope of concerns.”Mary's Magnificat: “God coming and taking the mighty down from their thrones and transforming the entire world.”“What I want is the expansion of the horizon of concerns. Our horizon of concern is the horizon of God's mission in the world. God's mission is our mission.”About Miroslav VolfMiroslav Volf is the Henry B. Wright Professor of Theology at Yale Divinity School and is the Founder and Director of the Yale Center for Faith and Culture.He was educated in his native Croatia, the United States, and Germany, earning doctoral and post-doctoral degrees (with highest honors) from the University of Tübingen, Germany. He has written or edited more than 20 books, over 100 scholarly articles, and his work has been featured in the Washington Post, Christianity Today, Christian Century, Sojourners, and several other outlets, including NPR, On Being with Krista Tippett, and Public Television's Religion and Ethics Newsweekly.His books include Life Worth Living: A Guide to What Matters Most, Exclusion and Embrace: A Theological Exploration of Identity, Otherness, and Reconciliation, Free of Charge: Giving and Forgiving in a Culture Stripped of Grace, Allah: A Christian Response, After Our Likeness: The Church as the Image of the Trinity, A Public Faith: How Followers of Christ Should Serve the Common Good, The End of Memory: Remembering Rightly in a Violent World, Flourishing: Why We Need Religion in a Globalized World, For the Life of the World: Theology that Makes a Difference (with Matthew Croasmun), and The Home of God: A Brief Story of Everything (with Ryan McAnnally-Linz). About the Thrive CenterLearn more at thethrivecenter.org.Follow us on Instagram @thrivecenterFollow us on X @thrivecenterFollow us on LinkedIn @thethrivecenter About Dr. Pam KingDr. Pam King is Executive Director the Thrive Center and is Peter L. Benson Professor of Applied Developmental Science at Fuller School of Psychology & Marriage and Family Therapy. Follow her @drpamking. About With & ForHost: Pam KingSenior Director and Producer: Jill WestbrookOperations Manager: Lauren KimSocial Media Graphic Designer: Wren JuergensenConsulting Producer: Evan RosaSpecial thanks to the team at Fuller Studio and the Fuller School of Psychology & Marriage and Family Therapy.
Your home can be an ark of safety or a prison of isolation. What it is depends on what you want it to be.
We continue our talk from the previous podcast episode (episode #68) about how to keep hope alive in a violent world. If you are saddened about current world events or personal difficulties, join us as we look at the ultimate hope available to us.For relationship help go to this website: MichelleMCastelli.comIf you would like to share your relationship story on this podcast, send an email to:michelle@growingyourrelationships.com
Every time we look at the news on our phones, our computers or other devices, we witness the constant violence going on in our communities and the world. How does this affect us personally? How can we stay hopeful in a violent world?For relationship help go to this website: MichelleMCastelli.comTo share your relationship story on this podcast, send an email request to:michelle@growingyourrelationships.com
10/18/23 6am CT Hour - Ashley Noronha/ Joe Boland John and Glen chat about President Biden's trip to Israel, Speaker vote for the House and baseball playoffs. Ashley reports on the Pope's Weekly General Audience, the Global Day of Prayer or Peace, and more. Joe shares his insights on how we can work and build peace in the violent world that we find ourselves in.
Our Halloween Spooktacular continues on, this week focused on horror punk. We are talking about the Misfits tribute album from 1997 titled, Violent World. Released on the Misfits own record label, this compilation features tons of covers by the likes of Snapcase, Earth Crisis, Goldfinger, Pennywise, Sick of it All, and more.Dylan's Band - majorawards.bandcamp.comJoin our Patreon to get bonus audio, videos, blog posts, and access to our Discord for only $1 at patreon.com/punklottopodPodcast platforms and social media links at linktr.ee/punklottopodCall our voicemail line: 202-688-PUNKLeave us a review and rating on Apple Podcasts and Spotify.Song clips featured on this episode:Big Bee Kornegay - At the House of FrankensteinDeadguy - Horror BusinessSnapcase - SheProng - London Dungeon
Psalm 51:10-19. Today, we look at the rest of Psalm 51, David's Psalm of repentance. As we look to the reading of God's word, if you would join me in prayer. God, indeed, you are a helper. And by your Holy Spirit, we ask that you would open our minds that as your scriptures are read, as your word is proclaimed, that we may be led into your truth and taught your will. Father, that you would help us to
Psalm 51:10-19. Today, we look at the rest of Psalm 51, David's Psalm of repentance. As we look to the reading of God's word, if you would join me in prayer. God, indeed, you are a helper. And by your Holy Spirit, we ask that you would open our minds that as your scriptures are read, as your word is proclaimed, that we may be led into your truth and taught your will. Father, that you would help us to
Before we had 3 hits from Hell, The Misfits had 12 Hits from Hell. Tragically, the Misfits - 12 Hits from Hell would be a project lost to time. Something that was meant to be twice over only to be sent back to the hellish depths from which the Misfits and their creativity had once summoned it. FRUMESS is POWERED by www.riotstickers.com/frumess GET 1000 STICKERS FOR $79 RIGHT HERE - NO PROMO CODE NEED! JOIN THE PATREON FOR LESS THAN A $2 CUP OF COFFEE!! https://www.patreon.com/Frumess
Glenn Danzig has FINALLY reissued his first solo record Who Killed Marilyn? via Cleopatra Records and his own Evilive imprint. He initially recorded and released this 7 inch single while there was a lull in Misfits activity. Glenn plays on all the instruments for the title track as well as the B Side “Spook City USA.” Get it here: https://www.7thhouse.com/wkm-picturedisc https://cleorecs.com/store/product-category/_vinyl-record/ FRUMESS is POWERED by www.riotstickers.com/frumess GET 1000 STICKERS FOR $79 RIGHT HERE - NO PROMO CODE NEED! JOIN THE PATREON FOR LESS THAN A $2 CUP OF COFFEE!! https://www.patreon.com/Frumess
In this riveting episode we delve into the extraordinary life of Lina Abirafeh, an indomitable force on a relentless mission to shield women and girls from the clutches of gender-based violence. From war-torn combat zones to the aftermath of devastating natural disasters, Lina fearlessly ventures into the darkest corners of the world, armed with compassion and an unyielding commitment to protect the most vulnerable among us. Join us as Lina Abirafeh, a beacon of hope and resilience, shares her harrowing and awe-inspiring experiences on the frontlines of humanity's greatest challenges. Unafraid to confront the brutal reality of gender-based violence head-on, Lina has dedicated her life to empowering survivors and dismantling the structures that perpetuate such atrocities. In this poignant conversation, Lina reveals the untold stories of her perilous expeditions, recounting her encounters with unspeakable acts of violence and the overwhelming strength of the survivors she's worked with. With unwavering determination, she has championed their cause, shining a light on their resilience and igniting a global movement for change. Throughout the episode, Lina divulges the profound impact these experiences have had on her own life and the fundamental lessons she's learned from witnessing the indomitable spirit of women and girls in the face of unimaginable adversity. Her insights into the root causes of gender-based violence and the urgent need for comprehensive, systemic change are both enlightening and empowering. This interview is an urgent call to action, a rallying cry for all listeners to join forces and confront the pervasive issue of gender-based violence. Lina's unwavering courage and unshakable resolve will leave you inspired and motivated to become an agent of change in your own community. Tune in to "KOPE Life" and embark on a transformative journey alongside Lina Abirafeh, as she uncovers the hidden truths of our world and champions the rights of those who often go unheard. Let her extraordinary tales of resilience, hope, and empowerment ignite your own passion to create a world free from violence and fear. Keywords: Lina Abirafeh, gender-based violence, combat zones, natural disasters, protect women and girls, rape, torture, resilience, empowerment, untold stories, systemic change, global movement, call to action, transformative journey, untold heroes. --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/charlson-gaines/support
[00:30] Celtic Throne Feedback (11 minutes) The Celtic Throne tour provides a drastic contrast to the perversion celebrated during pride month. While the world celebrates immorality and shattered families, Celtic Throne proclaims hope and showcases God's royal family culture. Celtic Throne performs its last show of the 2023 tour this Sunday in Nashville. For more information visit celticthrone.com. [11:50] Supreme Court Ends Affirmative Action (6 minutes) The Supreme Court voted 6-3 that affirmative action is racist. Backlash from the left was immediate, including prepared responses from Barack and Michelle Obama. [17:45] Present Evil World (18 minutes) The Bible prophesied that marriage and family would be fractured in the end time and that the world would enter a new age of violence. France is facing major riots after the fatal shooting of a 17-year-old during a traffic stop. [35:25] Current News (4 minutes) [39:00] Biden's Disastrous Foreign Policy (16 minutes) Victor Davis Hanson explained in a recent article for American Greatness how Joe Biden's foreign policy decisions and family corruption have been disastrous for the nation.
Previously… at Grace Summit – Last week we had some audio issues – but we looked good! A little recap – since this is part 2 We are going to begin a series next week on the Gospel of Mark. If you'd like to choose a passage and share a 3-7 minute reflection, let me know. I have a list of passages. We have been talking about being peacemakers – last week – peacemaking like Jesus. Matthew 5:21 ...
Can we really comprehend the complexities of female violence and the societal taboos that surround it? Join us as we explore this fascinating topic with our special guest, Anna Motz, a clinical and forensic psychologist and forensic psychotherapist. We dissect the emotional turmoil and internalized shame that can drive women to commit heinous acts, as well as the crucial role therapists play in understanding their triggers and fault lines.
We live in a violent world. From wars to mass shootings to domestic violence, it's easy to see that our world is bent towards violence. But Jesus shows us a better way, an alternative way to respond to the evil and injustice we see in our world. This week, explore Jesus' radical call to nonviolence in a violent world.
What does it take to imagine a world without war? How do we begin to believe that as a possibility? Eddie and Chris begin a series on war with guest Stanley Hauerwas, noted theologian and ethicist. Dr. Hauerwas asks us to contemplate the hard questions of war and nonviolence, but he knows the answers don't come easily.Dr. Hauerwas is a long-time professor at Duke Divinity School and Duke University School of Law. He served as chair of theological ethics at the University of Aberdeen and was named America's best theologian by Time magazine in 2001. Dr. Hauerwas has authored numerous books, including Resident Aliens, co-authored by Will Willimon, Living Gently in a Violent World, and 2011's War and the American Difference. Resources:Find out more about Dr. Hauerwas, his publications, and appearances at stanleyhauerwas.org.Buy War and the American Difference
Cindy and I walk in our neighborhood. Recently I waved to an older neighbor whom I often wave to, but we've never spoken. This time, he asked me if we had seen about the latest mall shooting – “My wife and I are afraid to go anywhere!” – that is really understandable. We live in a violent world. We cannot deny it. I'm going to spend some time over the next couple weeks talking about ...
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Nerina Weiss. Erella Grassiani, and Linda Green's book The Entanglements of Ethnographic Fieldwork in a Violent World (Routledge, 2022) focuses on the emotional hazards of conducting fieldwork about or within contexts of violence and provides a forum for field-based researchers to tell their stories. Increasingly novice and seasoned ethnographers alike, whether by choice or chance, are working in situations where multidimensional forms of violence, conflict and war are facets of everyday life. The volume engages with the methodological and ethical issues involved and features a range of expressive writings that reveal personal consequences and dilemmas. The contributors use their emotions, their scars, outrage and sadness alongside their hopes and resilience to give voice to that which is often silenced, to make visible the entanglements of fieldwork and its lingering vulnerabilities. The book brings to the fore the lived experiences of researchers and their interlocutors alike with the hope of fostering communities of care. It will be valuable reading for anthropologists and those from other disciplines who are embarking on ethnographic fieldwork and conducting qualitative empirical research. Christopher P. Davey is Visiting Assistant Professor at Clark University's Strassler Center for Holocaust and Genocide Studies. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices Support our show by becoming a premium member! https://newbooksnetwork.supportingcast.fm/new-books-network
Nerina Weiss. Erella Grassiani, and Linda Green's book The Entanglements of Ethnographic Fieldwork in a Violent World (Routledge, 2022) focuses on the emotional hazards of conducting fieldwork about or within contexts of violence and provides a forum for field-based researchers to tell their stories. Increasingly novice and seasoned ethnographers alike, whether by choice or chance, are working in situations where multidimensional forms of violence, conflict and war are facets of everyday life. The volume engages with the methodological and ethical issues involved and features a range of expressive writings that reveal personal consequences and dilemmas. The contributors use their emotions, their scars, outrage and sadness alongside their hopes and resilience to give voice to that which is often silenced, to make visible the entanglements of fieldwork and its lingering vulnerabilities. The book brings to the fore the lived experiences of researchers and their interlocutors alike with the hope of fostering communities of care. It will be valuable reading for anthropologists and those from other disciplines who are embarking on ethnographic fieldwork and conducting qualitative empirical research. Christopher P. Davey is Visiting Assistant Professor at Clark University's Strassler Center for Holocaust and Genocide Studies. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices Support our show by becoming a premium member! https://newbooksnetwork.supportingcast.fm/genocide-studies
Nerina Weiss. Erella Grassiani, and Linda Green's book The Entanglements of Ethnographic Fieldwork in a Violent World (Routledge, 2022) focuses on the emotional hazards of conducting fieldwork about or within contexts of violence and provides a forum for field-based researchers to tell their stories. Increasingly novice and seasoned ethnographers alike, whether by choice or chance, are working in situations where multidimensional forms of violence, conflict and war are facets of everyday life. The volume engages with the methodological and ethical issues involved and features a range of expressive writings that reveal personal consequences and dilemmas. The contributors use their emotions, their scars, outrage and sadness alongside their hopes and resilience to give voice to that which is often silenced, to make visible the entanglements of fieldwork and its lingering vulnerabilities. The book brings to the fore the lived experiences of researchers and their interlocutors alike with the hope of fostering communities of care. It will be valuable reading for anthropologists and those from other disciplines who are embarking on ethnographic fieldwork and conducting qualitative empirical research. Christopher P. Davey is Visiting Assistant Professor at Clark University's Strassler Center for Holocaust and Genocide Studies. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices Support our show by becoming a premium member! https://newbooksnetwork.supportingcast.fm/anthropology
Nerina Weiss. Erella Grassiani, and Linda Green's book The Entanglements of Ethnographic Fieldwork in a Violent World (Routledge, 2022) focuses on the emotional hazards of conducting fieldwork about or within contexts of violence and provides a forum for field-based researchers to tell their stories. Increasingly novice and seasoned ethnographers alike, whether by choice or chance, are working in situations where multidimensional forms of violence, conflict and war are facets of everyday life. The volume engages with the methodological and ethical issues involved and features a range of expressive writings that reveal personal consequences and dilemmas. The contributors use their emotions, their scars, outrage and sadness alongside their hopes and resilience to give voice to that which is often silenced, to make visible the entanglements of fieldwork and its lingering vulnerabilities. The book brings to the fore the lived experiences of researchers and their interlocutors alike with the hope of fostering communities of care. It will be valuable reading for anthropologists and those from other disciplines who are embarking on ethnographic fieldwork and conducting qualitative empirical research. Christopher P. Davey is Visiting Assistant Professor at Clark University's Strassler Center for Holocaust and Genocide Studies. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices Support our show by becoming a premium member! https://newbooksnetwork.supportingcast.fm/sociology
We fearlessly dive into the most pressing issues shaping our world today. Join us as we explore a wide range of thought-provoking topics that encompass social, political, and cultural controversies. Our passionate discussions shed light on the complexities surrounding subjects such as, recent headlines linking a 33-year-old suspect to neo-Nazi sympathies allegedly and trust in the media. We also delve into the latest developments, including the noteworthy retreat by federal authorities on a demand for a Catholic hospital to extinguish a chapel candle, as reported by Catholic News Agency. Furthermore, we examine the potential economic ramifications of the writers' strike on Los Angeles, drawing comparisons to the impactful stoppage of 2007. And that's not all—we critically analyze the connection between immigration policies and their influence on society, as well as the ongoing debate surrounding the impact of violent movies like Scream 6, Creed 3, Cocaine Bear and others on our culture. If you're hungry for thoughtful analysis and informed discussions on these compelling topics, subscribe and join us on this intellectual journey of unraveling controversies. Together, let's uncover the truth. Please rate, subscribe, follow and share. God love you. Faith Reason and Geekdom Podcast • A podcast on Spotify for Podcasters https://twitter.com/ThatGenuFlexer faithreasonandgeekdompodcast@gmail.com
What are some areas that need a deeper look when it comes to how we see Christ, ourselves, and others? Weylin Lee stares afresh at the story of Stephen's communal execution, and elicits bravery from us to go beyond deconstructing to decolonizing our faith. [Acts 7:55-60] Reflection How are you invited to decolonize your view of Christ and your faith? How might you offer a unique voice and story in our collective work of advocacy? What does a nonviolent response look like for you in response to someone else's violence? Resources Podcast: Faith for Normal People, Episode 10, Decolonizing Our Faith by Danyelle Thomas Film: Chinatown Rising a Harry Chuck and Josh Chuck film Book: The End of Memory: Remembering Rightly in a Violent World by Miroslav Volf
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Today we have a special CROSSOVER episode of the IFH Podcast. Our guest is Derek Kolstad, the genius behind the extremely successful John Wick franchise. An ex-hitman comes out of retirement to track down the gangsters that took everything from him. With New York City as his bullet-riddled playground, JOHN WICK (Keanu Reeves) is a fresh and stylized take on the "assassin genre”.He is also the screenwriter of One in the Chamber, The Package (starring Steve Austin & Dolph Lundgren). This episode is from the archives of The Make Your Movie Podcast with Dave Bullis available from the IFH Podcast Network. Dave chats with Derek about bad movies, screenwriting, the film business, and working with Keanu Reeves.I wanted to bring this amazing episode to the IFH Tribe. Get ready to dive into the ultra-violent world of Derek Kolstad.
Today we have a special CROSSOVER episode of the BPS Podcast. Our guest is Derek Kolstad, the genius behind the extremely successful John Wick franchise. An ex-hitman comes out of retirement to track down the gangsters that took everything from him. With New York City as his bullet-riddled playground, JOHN WICK (Keanu Reeves) is a fresh and stylized take on the "assassin genre”.He is also the screenwriter of One in the Chamber, The Package (starring Steve Austin & Dolph Lundgren). This episode is from the archives of The Make Your Movie Podcast with Dave Bullis available from the IFH Podcast Network. Dave chats with Derek about bad movies, screenwriting, the film business, and working with Keanu Reeves.I wanted to bring this amazing episode to the BPS Tribe. Get ready to dive into the ultra-violent world of Derek Kolstad.
Riley Bowman and Matthew Maruster talk about the concept of managing risk and living our lives how we want to in a violent world. Whether it's attending concerts, church, crowded public events, or visiting our favorite venue in that less desirable part of town...living life comes with certain risks regardless of what we do. So how can we live our best lives while assessing and managing risk?
In this special episode of Truth's Table, Ekemini sits down at the table with Nelba Marquez-Greene, the mother of Ana Grace Marquez-Greene who was killed in the Sany Hook school massacre. Truth's Table is honored to have Nelba at the table to talk about her beloved daughter, Ana Grace, ongoing grief, and political action needed to keep our children safe. Pull up a chair, grab some tissue, and have a seat at the table with us. Learn more about Nelba Marquez-Greene: Nelba holds a Bachelor of Music from the Hartt School and a Master of Arts in Marriage and Family Therapy from St. Joseph College. Nelba taught and supervised at the Family Therapy program at the University of Winnipeg's Aurora Family Therapy Centre and later worked as the Coordinator for Klingberg Family Therapy Center's outpatient child and adolescent psychiatric clinic. She also served as adjunct faculty at Central Connecticut State University. Nelba founded the CTAMFT (Connecticut Association for Marriage and Family Therapy) Diversity Committee and served on the CTAMFT Board of Directors. For her advocacy, she received the 2004 Minority Fellowship Award by the AAMFT, the 2004 Distinguished Professional Service Award, and the 2013 Service to Families Award by the CTAMFT. In 2018, she was profiled as one of “100 Women of Color” and a YWCA (CT) Women's Leadership Award recipient. She was featured in People Magazine's October 2019 issue as one of Ten Women Changing the World and also recognized by Chelsea Clinton and Hillary Clinton in their Book of Gutsy Women. Nelba has testified and advocated at the state and federal levels on many different mental health initiatives, hosted TEDx talks, and is a nationally sought after speaker. In the many years that have followed, stints in advocacy, public policy, community care, etc. have affirmed her core belief that in order to change the world we must take care of people. First- that grief, trauma and loss must be allowed in the room. Second- that tools, language, skills, resources and acceptance should be available to live a full, grieving life. Purchase our new book! Truth's Table: Black Women's Musings on Life, Love, and Liberation: https://www.amazon.com/Truths-Table-Womens-Musings-Liberation/dp/0593239733/ Truth's Table listeners can save 30% off The Gospel of Peace in a Violent World when they order at https://www.ivpress.com/the-gospel-of-peace-in-a-violent-world using promo code TRUTH22. That's promo code TRUTH22 at ivpress.com for 30% off the book. Support Truth's Table: Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/TruthsTable PayPal: https://www.paypal.me/TruthsTable Merchandise: https://teespring.com/truthstable
In this episode we go back in time to 1980's Kellyville, Oklahoma where April grew up. Then we follow her to the car lot where she met Terry. We will hear the tape that April recorded of a fight between she and Terry after their trip to Italy. On the trip he beat her threatened to and throw her out of their hotel room naked, only to be caught by one of his fellow travelers on the trip. We are trying to categorize the time and place of April and Terry's relationship, and look for patterns of abuse, which escalated as law enforcement continued to turn a blind eye. Resources: For pictures of April as a kid, her wedding, the early years with Hunter, and pictures introduced at trial of April and Terry's international trips, visit okappleseed.org/episode-2-show-notes LA Times article about Don Carlton's bribery scandal: https://web.archive.org/web/20211117194929/https://www.latimes.com/archives/la-xpm-1994-03-16-fi-34784-story.html%C2%A0 TIME Magazine story on Honda scams: http://content.time.com/time/nation/article/0,8599,3976,00.html Instagram post containing the Affidavit of Federal Judge Claire Egan: https://www.instagram.com/p/CQWQJrUDy-m/ Detailed Timeline of Events in April's Case: https://aprilwilkensblog.wordpress.com/2022/02/12/timeline-of-events/ Sign the Change.org petition to support April's release: https://www.change.org/p/oklahoma-pardon-parole-board-commute-the-life-sentence-of-abuse-survivor-april-wilkens?signed=true Donate to keep our work going!: neappleseed.org/okappleseed Learn more about Oklahoma Appleseed: okappleseed.org If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic abuse, use a safe computer and contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline at www.thehotline.org or call 1-800-799-7233. You can also search for a local domestic violence shelter at www.domesticshelters.org/. If you have experienced sexual assault and need support, visit the Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN) at www.rainn.org or call 1-800-656-HOPE. Have questions about consent? Take a look at this guide from RAINN at www.rainn.org/articles/what-is-consent. Learn more about criminalized survival at www.survivedandpunishedny.org/. Learn more about the Domestic Violence Survivors Justice Act at www.nysda.org/page/DVSJA. Follow the #freeaprilwilkens campaign on Instagram at @freeaprilwilkens, on Twitter and on their webpage at https://aprilwilkensblog.wordpress.com/. Colleen McCarty is one of the hosts, executive director of Oklahoma Appleseed, and producer. Leslie Briggs is the other host who is a civil rights and immigration attorney, and producer. Rusty Rowe provides additional production support. We're recorded at Bison and Bean Studios in Tulsa. Additional support from Amanda Ross and Ashlyn Faulkner. Our theme music is Velvet Rope by Gyom. Panic Button is created in partnership with Oklahoma Appleseed Center for Law and Justice and Leslie Briggs. Follow OK Appleseed on Twitter and Instagram at @ok_appleseed. If you want to continue the conversation with other listeners, please join our Panic Button podcast community on Bookclubz at bit.ly/3NRHO8C. TRANSCRIPT Leslie Briggs 00:00 Glenda McCarley had tried to get the badge number of Officer Aaron Tallman just a few months before the shooting of Terry Carlton. She said his response to April Wilkens, her neighbor across the street on Quincy, was, quote, "infuriating." Glenda had seen numerous times Terry stalking around April's house in the late winter of 1997 and early spring of 1998. She said quote, "it was almost a joke, I think, among the neighbors, how he had the timing down so that he could always just leave and two seconds later, they'd round the corner." The he that the neighbors joked about was of course the decedent in this case, Terry Carlton. Regardless, when Officer Tallman arrived to find April sitting on Glenda's porch in the spring of 1998, waiting for help from yet another violent encounter, he walked up to the porch, looked at April and said, "You're beginning to annoy me." This is Panic Button. I'm Leslie Briggs. Colleen McCarty 01:05 And I'm Colleen McCarty. Leslie Briggs 01:06 And this is episode 2: Small Town Girl Living in a Violent World. Colleen McCarty 01:14 Many years before Glenda McCarley asked for Officer Tallman's badge number, April was just a kid from Kellyville, Oklahoma, a small town southwest of Tulsa on the I-44 Turnpike. The town had a population of 960 in 1980 when April was 10. Kellyville is on old route 66. Local landmarks include a cotton gin and oil derricks dotting the town's main street. The cotton gin has since been demolished. Local high schoolers would go out to Cry Baby Bridge, which was ironically rumored to be haunted by the ghosts of a woman who was fleeing her abusive husband and her baby. The two wrecked and the baby's body was never recovered. So the legend goes, you can hear the baby crying from the bridge late at night. April was an average teenager in Kellyville. Her parents worked at a local orthotics and prosthetics clinic. Her father, Rex, was an amputee himself and had learned the business due to necessity. April was a cheerleader. But even though everything looked perfect from the outside, like most Oklahoma homes during this period, there was strong discipline. And like any family, some dysfunction. April Wilkens 02:26 My upbringing made me susceptible. And I know my parents just did what they knew. They grew up in abusive childhoods. So I know, my dad, he had a tough upbringing. You know, his dad - his dad used to beat his family. And, you know, he was a preacher and my dad felt that was very hypocritical. And, you know, my mom, dad leaving the family. And she grew up being abused. That influences children. And I want to honor their memory. Because even though, yes, there was violence and abuse, I know that they did what they knew. That's how it is. And my sister, she's always - she wanted to write a letter talking about the abuse and all of that. And my mom got mad, and then she didn't put it in there. But she's always encouraged me to talk about it. So, I'm really talking about it for the first time. Terry Carlton 03:23 April and Mary are actually half sisters. They share the same mom and Mary spent a little bit of time talking with us about her mother's history of domestic abuse with her biological father. And then of course with Mary stepfather April's biological father, Rex. April and Mary's mother often played out these cycles of abuse that we see repeating themselves in April's relationship with Terry. She would leave and return and leave and return and get hooked in with an abusive partner until it got to be unbearable, and she would flee. Mary gave us a little glimpse into what it was like growing up with both her biological father and then with April and Rex and her mother. Mary 04:07 He grabbed us and my grandmother - I did not know my grandmother called him at work. He worked right down from the house, and she called him. My mother was trying to leave with us. We lived with them. And he threw us in the bathroom. And he had a gun and he said he would shoot us before he'd let her have us. He didn't want us. I know that, you know, as an adult. He just thought she would stay if he did that. Leslie Briggs 04:29 Eventually, Mary's mother left for good leaving her and her little brother behind with their biological father, who was an alcoholic, extremely physically and emotionally abusive. Mary didn't see her mom for about two years. When she did, she learned she had a little sister. April. Mary 04:46 She was two, actually, when I met her. My mother had left my father again. I didn't even know I had a two-year-old sister. Like me having a live doll. Leslie Briggs 04:54 Here's how Mary describes the car ride home after meeting her stepfather, Rex, for the first time. Mary 04:59 He hit my brother in the mouth on the way to their home, in the car. They just showed up to pick us up. We didn't have any warning or anything whatsoever. And it was so cool to see my mom again. You know, I had nothing but good memories of my mother or love for my mother and I was just, like, so excited. Yes, he hit my brother in the mouth. My brother answered my mother. She asked him something and he simply answered her. I don't remember it being snarky or anything when he ?? He said, "Don't talk to your mother that way," turned around and smacked him in the mouth that made his lip - hit his lip up against his teeth, I guess, and because his mouth bled. I never stood up to him. I was too afraid of him. And he made me kind of crazy. And I stood up to him as an adult, but on the way home, I was just like, really, this cannot be happening again. But it was. Colleen McCarty 05:45 Throughout the trial, April was hesitant to reveal her childhood. She didn't want to shame her parents. Even though her childhood had episodes of violence, there was a lot of happy memories too. She remembered both her parents standing by her throughout the entire trial and supporting her in the years afterwards. Even though her sister wanted to write a letter to the parole board much later detailing the family abuse, April refused. Leslie Briggs 06:11 There's even a moment on the stand when the district attorney Tim Harris alleges that April was hospitalized for drug abuse when she was 15. April, in her testimony, does not do a good job of refuting this simply because she was balancing the fact that her parents were in the courtroom listening and she didn't want to make them look bad. The truth was, she had stayed out all night with her friends and her mother had dropped her off at St. John's to get a drug test. Her mother could only conclude that April must have used drugs with her friends. There were of course no drugs in her system. But the doctors asked to keep April overnight due to suspicions of anorexia. Here's how Mary remembers April's eating disorder. Mary 06:49 No, we all knew something was going on. And I think it was something she could control. Forgive me, but I learned in psychology - now, remember I'm gone and I only come back and visit once in a while and why I can back to visit who knows - but she would go to the strangest phases, bless her heart. She would eat - buy a whole loaf of bread and eat the hearts out of the bread and leave the crust. And then the next week she might just eat the crust and not eat the hearts of the bread. It was just so - the things she would do are so strange, honey. But it was something I think that she could have control over. Leslie Briggs 07:20 Now of course, April told us that the anorexia was really a function of her home life. Mary shared with us just a small story about how Rex, her stepfather and April's biological father, would speak to them about their eating habits. Mary 07:36 I never hardly ever brought friends home. But I brought a friend home one time that down the road who was in an abused home just like I was. Some - we attracked each other you know how that is, I'm sure, somehow. But I went in the kitchen and made us some peanut butter and honey was - we were gonna eat it on crackers. And I made enough for two people because I had a friend there with me. And he came into the kitchen, and I was a pig and I was never going to get married. No man was ever going to look at me. How could I eat that much? And I was skinny - I mean, I was so skinny it was ridiculous. Because I could - I could eat whatever I wanted you know what I mean? And not get - Anyway, I stood there and took it. Went into the bedroom, sat down, ate that. She said, "So this is why you don't ever ask me over?" I said "Uhuh." I just didn't. Why would you? I was humiliated. You can only imagine - Leslie Briggs 08:25 Ultimately, they diagnosed April as anorexic at 15 and sent her home with little information or treatment resources. But April was always incredibly intelligent. She graduated high school two years early, went on to Oklahoma State University for undergraduate studies, where she majored in clinical dietetics. She later attended an accelerated program in orthotics and prosthetics at Northwestern University in Chicago. She graduated with her Master's in 1991 when she was just 21 years old. Colleen McCarty 08:55 In 1990, when she was 20, she met Eric Wilkens and got pregnant with Hunter. She was attending her Master's program in Chicago while Eric went to undergrad at the University of Oklahoma. They were married. Eric and April then divorced in 1993 after the long distance relationship had taken a toll. They'd grown apart. And April would later say that she was too young to appreciate a good man like Eric. We talked with Hunter, April's son, recently about the divorce and what he remembers about his mom in those early years. Hunter 09:28 I was five years old. And you know, it was a clean split up. I think they had joint custody at the time. So I was spending a week at my dad's, a week at my mom's. Completely normal. My mom's house was awesome. I had the entire upstairs to myself. I had a TV hooked up to an N64. I had a computer in the mid 90s, which was awesome. I don't even think there was internet to it. It was just a computer that you could do things with. I think there was sometimes you'd get internet to it or not. I had a Batcave and I red racecar bed, which was super cool. The Batcave had a zipline, where Batman could slide through. Living at my mom's house was really nice. Like, it was really cool that she was - she was - she spoiled me rotten. My dad did not like it at all. The only thing I did not like about my mom's house is that she made me eat healthy and soy stuff. Colleen McCarty 10:48 Hunter remembers that April was a good mom. Hunter 10:50 She was a parents. She was good parents. She - she told me to do everything that I needed to do. I did everything she that she told me to do. And she you know she - we had a good time. She she took me out places and I mean we had a good time. It was it was it was great. Colleen McCarty 11:06 During the early 1990s April was a working single mom with not too much drama in her life. As you can see, April is not the typical criminal defendant in a murder case. She's a woman. She's white, and she's highly educated. This demographic is not typically who you would see sitting behind the defendant's table. By the nature of the system, most defendants are impoverished with a high percentage being people of color. Most defendants have not completed any college, most prosecutors would not want to prosecute someone like April. She is what we would call sympathetic to an extreme degree. Leslie Briggs 11:44 Which is a whole separate level of fucked up that we're going to get into throughout this podcast, but it's the truth. Interestingly enough, Terry was also growing up in Tulsa, about 20 miles away from Kellyville. In 1989, the year of his first stint in drug rehab, he was 31. And there's a 12-year age difference between Terry and April that doesn't get discussed much but it's certainly an element to issues of power and control and abuse in this relationship. Terry had gone to the University of Oklahoma, and he was described as a good athlete and a talented musician. Terry's father, Don Carlton gained some notoriety, or infamy depending on how you look at it, for offering a Honda executive and briefcase with $250,000 in cash in 1983 in order to secure the rights to his own dealership. Now ultimately, Don Carlton was not prosecuted in that matter, but the man who took the bribe was. And the scandal was profiled and Time Magazine as well as the LA Times and we're going to drop links to those articles in the show notes. So, from 1991 to 1995, April and Terry are just living their lives separately unaware of each other's existence. Also in the late 80s and early 90s, Terry's ex wife Sherry Blanton and another ex-girlfriend, Melinda Wallace, would go on to make police reports about Terry getting abusive with them toward the end of their relationships. Colleen McCarty 13:01 In September ish of 1995, April goes shopping for a car. She winds up at Don Carlton Acura of Tulsa. This is at about 47th and memorial. She meets with the sales guy and ends up leasing an Acura Integra. On her second or third visit to the dealership, April sees Terry for the first time in passing. We actually spoke to one of the jurors on the case recently who noted it was revealed at trial that Terry actually had a policy in the workplace. Juror 13:29 And that is there was one of the salesmen from the car dealership who testified that the guys on the floor were instructed to bring any pretty girls in to visit him if they were single, pretty, looking for a car. And so she was really like in a flytrap. Colleen McCarty 13:51 He doesn't speak to her. But we can only assume he noticed her because she begins to get phone calls from him on the number she had left with the salesman. Terry calls her, presenting himself as the owner of the dealership. He pretends to be following up about the lease of her vehicle. But April could tell it was more than that, and that he was interested in dating her and she began looking forward to the calls. Quote, "I remember thinking that he was attractive and charming. He seemed real. Beautiful smile, you know? And all it was, was 'This is Terry, this is April. Hello.' And we shook hands. But I remember those were my first impressions of him based on that," end quote. On one of her last visits to the dealership, Terry takes her to lunch to find out if she's interested in him. She was. She wanted to keep seeing him and perhaps go on a date. Later that week, she went over to Terry's house for drinks. Leslie Briggs 14:44 Their first real date was on a private plane to Dallas to visit Terry's friend Robert Martin. They met up with several friends and stayed at Martin's place in Dallas for the weekend. Terry paid for a limo to drive the group around town to go to some nightclubs and some restaurants. April admitted she'd never went on a date like that before, and it made her feel special. April and Terry fell for each other fast. He acted like a total gentleman during those early months. He took her to Jamaica and then on Christmas Eve of 1995, he proposed. He gave April a $25,000 engagement ring and they set the date to marry in April of 1996, just eight months after meeting for the first time. Colleen McCarty 15:22 Here's Hunter on his early memories of Terry. Hunter 15:27 He's the kind of guy that like will buy you whatever you want, you know? But I remember he bought me a little, like, tiny - tiny person guitar, like, for children with an acoustic. It was pretty cool. I didn't know how to play the guitar. But any toy I wanted, he could do that because he had the money. He just would just buy you stuff. Leslie Briggs 15:48 The couple traveled to Dallas frequently after that Christmas and to the Bahamas. However, April remembers after the engagement that things began to change. She saw big areas of incompatibility with Terry and it was ultimately her decision not to go through with the wedding. April said, quote, "I began to see unpredictable fits of anger. I went from being nothing wrong, and being on a pedestal to where he would become very critical of me and everything I did. Not always, not always just times." To April, she could see the charming, affable person that Terry could be, but also saw that he was battling himself a lot of the time. He was unpredictable, angry for no real reason. And he seemed to be looking for things to get onto her about. Colleen McCarty 16:37 During this time, April had majority custody of her son, Hunter. His father, Eric, would take him every other weekend, so April would only see Terry during those weekends when Hunter was with his dad. And, she would sometimes see Terry on weeknights, but not as often. The first time Terry hurt April was on her birthday, April 25, 1996. The month their wedding was supposed to have occurred. April remembers they were fighting verbally, but she can't remember what it was about. Then all of a sudden, Terry became enraged and he flew at her with his hands out reaching for her neck. He grabbed her throat and started squeezing. April ran from the house back home to Brookside. By the time she got there, her house one was already ringing. It was Terry. "I can't believe that happened. I'm not like that. It's your birthday. Let's start over." April accepted the apology and saw him again that night. Leslie Briggs 17:32 The next major incident that April remembers is a harrowing event that happened in Amsterdam. April and Terry were on a two-week vacation, just the two of them, for the first week in Amsterdam, and then the second week in Paris. On the second to last day in Amsterdam, April was sleeping in. Around 10am, Terry began yelling at April to get out of bed. She was not getting up fast enough for Terry. She said she began crying and saying that she couldn't do anything right. Terry had been very critical during the time that they were traveling and he was on edge. He came around to her side of the bed and he hit her with his baseball cap. And she was stunned. He pushed her down on the bed and they began having sex with her very roughly. I think it's important to talk about this incident in terms of how sexual assault was viewed in the 90s. When April testifies at trial, she speaks in terms of "I didn't say yes, but I didn't say no. I was crying the whole time. And it hurt." Terry kept going for almost five minutes until he finished, then he slammed around the hotel room and left. The rest of the trip was uneventful, but April was an emotional wreck. It was the first time anyone had ever done anything like that to her. Colleen McCarty 18:47 April and Terry have gone to an on-again, off-again status during this time. The engagement was on when they went to Rome in November of 1996. But there was no wedding date set. April kept thinking Terry would get better, that he would be the charming man she'd met just a year prior. Terry frequently got invited on trips with Tulsa-area media because of the amount of money the dealerships spent on marketing - both print and TV news. The Rome trip was one of those. They went with what was then called Great Empire broadcasting, or KVOO. Terry asked April to accompany him to Rome, and their hotel overlooked the Vatican. There hadn't been any violent incidents with Terry since the early summer, and April felt that the worst of their relationship was behind them. They traveled to Rome with Terry's parents and a few other community business owners. One of them, a car dealer from Wichita named Steve Hatchet. Once they got there, April realized that Terry had brought cocaine. Up until this period, April did not know that Terry did hard drugs. On one of the first days in Rome, Terry convinced April to try cocaine with him. She tried it and had a bad reaction. That night in the hotel room, Terry was trying to sleep. April could not sleep, due to her reaction to the drugs. They had just gotten back from a day trip to Sorento, and everyone had been drinking heavily. She just couldn't sleep. She wanted to call her son, Hunter. Terry was awoken by April on the phone and he flew into a rage. Terry told April that everyone on the trip saw how she was, that his parents thought she was rude and unbecoming. He made sure she knew everyone noticed that she didn't belong there. Terry hated that April had talked to a college friend who was on the trip about things they had in common. In fact, that friend was Michelle Hardesty. Miss Hardesty now runs the Hardesty Family Foundation in Tulsa, which focuses on efforts to provide addiction treatment. She's a major funder of 12&12, where April would later escape in 1998. Leslie Briggs 20:54 The thing is, Terry had felt excluded. And he was in a rage. Terry attacked April on the bed saying "All right, bitch, this is Italy. They don't look at wife beating the same way they do in America. I can do whatever I want to you over here." He began pouncing on her, putting his elbow in her eye socket and punching her in the sides. He twisted her arms behind her and that's when someone began pounding on the hotel room door. It was Steve Hatchet, one of the other people on the trip. April got up and ran to lock herself in the bathroom. She could hear Steve say "Terry, I know all about you. Come out and fight someone your own size." After this incident, April stayed in their room, and Terry went to stay in his father's room. They didn't see much of each other for the rest of the trip. Steve Hatchet would later testify at trial that quote, "I put my arm in between the door so he couldn't close it. He was very, very emotional. I was mad at him and he was mad at me." Hatchet told the court he could hear the sounds of someone being hit from the room next door. When April got back to the US, she attempted to file a protective order against Terry using the police report she made in Rome. She hired then-attorney Claire Egan. At this time, Claire Egan was an attorney at a major firm here in Tulsa called Hall Estill. But in the early 2000s, Claire Egan would be appointed as a federal magistrate judge. And now today, Judge Egan is a United States District Court judge for the Northern District of Oklahoma. You can see Egan's affidavit of her representation of April in the show notes, as well as what she felt went wrong at trial April calls Terry as soon as they returned from Italy. She records this phone call. Here is that recording. April Wilkens 22:11 But I don't understand what drives you to the point where, like you said, you want to strangle live and shit out of me. Terry Carlton 22:18 Well, if you're intereted I'll tell yah. When you do things that you know will piss me off, you do them on purpose. You know, to me, that's provoking somebody. You know, I took you to Europe, you know? I was in bed. We had an argument and I did the right thing. I got up and I left and I removed myself from it. April Wilkens 23:04 But you hit me as you went - Terry Carlton 23:06 Oh that was an accident I did not mean to - April Wilkens 23:08 You didn't mean to flilp me with your napkin and shove and push me aside Terry Carlton 23:13 Just tryin' to leave... So, you know, then, I'm in bed. So what do you do? Instead of trying to make the situation better by just going to bed, you know? You deliberately aggravate the situation becuase you do something that you know is going to really piss me off. And that is a wake me up call - calling Hunter and talking to Hunter knowing that you're going to keep me up when all I want to do is go to bed, April. April Wilkens 23:47 Do you not see how maybe it's a little drastic to pounce on someone and choke them and throw them out on their ass - threaten to throw them out on their ass naked? You know? I mean, does that not seem a little drastic and - and - Terry Carlton 24:01 Yes, you're right it is drastic and I admitted it. April Wilkens 24:06 I just don't understand the need for physical violence. Terry Carlton 24:09 I see. So it's okay for you to do - to pull out the stops, and do everything that you can do to piss me off but, you know, as soon as I, you know, react in the same way and pull out the stops and do the things that I can do to hurt you, what's the difference, April? You know, what's the difference? You're fucking with me, I'm fucking with you. You understand? You know, that's the big fucking lie that if, you know, it's okay to do whatever the fuck you want to but it's not okay for me to do whatever I feel like doing. I lose my temper - you lose your temper. You're mad at me. So you fuck with me. You bust my balls and you try to egg - egg - egg on the fight aggravate me. And play some good ol' head games. But, then, whenever I, just, you know, I lose my temper and I go to throw you outside the room naked - Oh that's when you started resisting but... Is one any better than the other? I mean, seems like you think it's okay to do those things. I mean, that's what you're telling me, "Oh well I suppose we all fuck with each other every once in a while but - April Wilkens 25:16 and choke me Terry Carlton 25:41 you broke the rule, you went over the - you stepped over the line. You got physical, and you're gonna have to do something" - I'm not, I'm not satified with this. Because what you're gonna do is go to a victim's group, okay, and you're all gonna sit there and tell each other how it's not your fault that this happened to you to pat each other on the back and feel sorry for each other and, you know, it's gonna be what a bastard I am. Okay? You're not gonna be any working on your own problem. If I didn't do the violence - if the violence thing, you know, was not even a factor - you would still do those things because that's your way of controlling. April Wilkens 26:19 I mean, I don't remember hearing "April, I raped you. I know that must have really upset you and I'm sorry." Or "April, I know that I, you know, slammed you against the ground and I know that must have been really dramatic for you and I'm sorry." Terry Carlton 26:35 I've said those things. I've said those things. You just want toto hear them over and over again... I'll apologize once but I'm not going to sit there and just have to apologize every fucking day in my life. You either accept the apology or you don't. Sounds to me like you don't. April Wilkens 26:53 Do you think the alcohol or the drugs or anything like that have anything to do with it? Terry Carlton 27:03 Well I'm sure that, I mean, yeah, it has something to do with it. But I don't remember taking any drugs so I don't know. But the alcohol is an inhibitor so it makes you do things that you normally wouldn't do, without seducing [inaudible]. But mainly the thing is the inhibitors allow myself - I don't know, it's a complicated thing but I think mainly these things build up. They build up, these things build up inside. You know what I'm saying? It just builds and builds till it's explosive. April Wilkens 27:38 Yeah. But when you said, you know, "Hey, this is Europe and I can do what I want to here," I just thought that was kinda scary, like, premeditated or something. Terry Carlton 27:51 Yeah. [Inaudible] It was just meant to scare you...So dramatic, you know, I just get the feeling that all this is on me and that I'm just this horrible fucking mutant that. You don't think about my feelings. Like today and tonight you haven't thought about my feelings. What about - I wasn't ready to talk about this, huh? What about my feelings? My feelings count for nothing with you and until they do all this just bullshit. So, goodbye. Leslie Briggs 28:36 For reasons we still don't understand that tape never made it into the trial. The jury never got to hear it. Colleen McCarty 28:42 During this time after they returned, Terry begins to tell April that he's suffering from severe depression and that he's suicidal. In retrospect, it looks like this was a way to keep April from going through with the protective order. April takes him to her doctor, Dr. Teter, for treatment. April is a helper. She wants to heal people. It was her chosen profession. When Terry begins to seem sick and needy, she is triggered to come take care of him. This occurs during December of 1996. We can see a pattern forming but we can also see some escalation. The pattern is very typical of domestic violence relationships. There's a honeymoon period, then an abuse incident. And then apologies and neediness. The extraordinary thing about April and Terry's relationship is how documented and witnessed it is. In most cases like this. There's no evidence to support the abuse because it was so covert. However, that is not the case with this couple. Terry Carlton 28:42 So let's jump now to Valentine's Day of 1997. Terry calls April to tell her that he has a Valentine's gift for her and at this time, they're still in an on-again, off-again phase. She stops by Terry's house with Hunter, her son, to grab the gift. The couple had been trying to work things out after Terry was getting treatment from Dr. Teter. April goes upstairs and she can tell that Terry is on the phone with his ex girlfriend Melinda Wallace. April had told Terry previously that she thinks it's rude and inconsiderate to have Melinda call him while April's at his house. She's upset about this and she turns to leave. She hears Terry drop the phone and come after her. She turns around and throws the water in her hand in his face. This whole time, they're on the second floor and Hunter is downstairs. He's about six, maybe seven, at the time. Terry charges at April, grabs her, pins her to the bedroom floor by the shoulders. She was twisting to get away and screaming and she could hear Hunter coming up the stairs towards them. April remembers being shocked by Terry's strength because he had recently been diagnosed with Guillain-Barré Syndrome, getting treatment from Dr. Tedder for this condition. Terry is spewing vile threats at April and berating her. However, when Terry hears Hunter coming up the stairs he stops and he gets up. April calls 911 from Terry's house to report the incident. And, as she's about to leave the house, the police arrive. Colleen McCarty 31:04 The summer of 1997 is chaotic. April and Terry are on and off. She learns that Terry is taking IV drugs, mostly methamphetamine. He has his housekeeper bring the drugs and leave them in a bedroom drawer where he would leave the cash. April remembers that he would sometimes spend $2,000 a day on drugs. And that's in 1998 dollars, as Lesley likes to say. Leslie Briggs 31:29 Ddjusted for inflation, that's about $3,500 today. Colleen McCarty 31:32 At this point, April gives Terry an ultimatum. It's the drugs or me. Unequivocally, Terry chooses the drugs. April's devastated, heartbroken. She cannot psychologically understand how someone could choose a drug that hurts them and ruins their life over someone that loves them. No one would believe April that Terry was using again. So several times during the summer, April steals syringes from Terry's house to show his parents or the police. She was trying to get him some help or stage some kind of intervention. These efforts go absolutely nowhere. We haven't talked much about this, but April's been running her business that she inherited from her parents, Schneider orthotics. She's struggling from the trauma and the constant issues with Terry and her business starts to go downhill. She begins to get loans from Terry and ask for his business advice. This is ultimately what pulls her back in to begin spending more time with him. Leslie Briggs 32:34 So now we're in August of 1997. And April is at one of her lowest points yet. Terry had taken a lot of pictures of April and him having sex and April in various compromising positions, pictures of her body. He was threatening her to release them if she ever left him. This was also in 1998 and, not that releasing nudes or revenge porn is in any way acceptable today, but the concept of nudes and the concept of ownership over your body and having naked pictures of yourself, I think that dynamic is, at least I would argue, starting to change a little bit in society. It's really not the case in 1998. I mean, this would absolutely positively ruin her. Perhaps that's still true today, but it's just different in 1998. You don't have the same sense of I can take this photo, delete this photo, share it with whoever I want. After wondering for so long what Terry found in the drug, she agrees to use methamphetamine with him for the first time. After they used, Terry left the house and April was staying with him. When he comes home, he flies into a rage, yelling in April that she had stolen one of his guitar necks. Terry was a guitar collector and he liked to rebuild vintage guitars. This was a very rare guitar neck that he was screaming at April about having stolen. Now April was actually supposed to leave Terry's house to go pick up Hunter for her weekend with him. Instead, Terry held her in his house at gunpoint all weekend. He told her if she produced the guitar neck, she would just get a beating. But if she didn't produce it, he was going to kill her. Throughout the weekend he raped, her beat her, and continued to just spin out about this guitar neck. Colleen McCarty 34:11 He told her he wanted to be compensated. So he forced her to write a $7,000 check. That's money she didn't have. Later in the week, his housekeeper finds the guitar neck. Terry ended up allowing April to stop payment on the check and the check was not introduced at trial. The craziest thing about this altercation is that Terry called the police on April for stealing. When the police arrived, she reported to them that he had been holding her hostage with a Glock pistol and had raped her all weekend. The police told her she wasn't making sense and she needed to go home. She said she didn't feel safe at home. And the officers told her that it's not their job to babysit her. Leslie Briggs 35:12 So this episode has taken us from April's childhood in Kellyville all the way up to August of 1997. To date, Terry had raped and beaten April on several occasions with no formative police action and no consequences. We see Terry's violence escalate and escalate as he's not held accountable again and again. He begins to become obsessed with April. And the thought that he's above the law next week on panic button, we'll talk about the incident that causes Terry to fall over the edge into extreme violence, stalking, compulsive breaking and entering and the incident that precipitates the four months leading up to the shooting. Colleen McCarty 35:50 Panic Button is a co-production of Oklahoma Appleseed Center for Law injustice and Leslie Briggs. We're your hosts Colleen McCarty. Leslie Briggs 36:01 and Leslie Briggs. Colleen McCarty 36:02 Our theme music is velvet rope by GYOM. The production team is Leslie Briggs and Rusty Rowe. We recorded at Bison and Bean Studio in Tulsa. Special thanks to Lynn Worley, Amanda Ross, and Ashlyn Faulkner for their work on this case. If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic abuse, use a safe computer and contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline, at thehotline.org or call 1-800-799-7233. ...