Podcasts about sociopaths

On January 23, 2023, Lindsay Clancy told her psychiatrist she felt numb, had no motivation, and was forcing herself out of bed. She denied any thoughts of hurting anyone. The next day she killed Cora, Dawson, and Callan. That visit is the hinge of the Lindsay Clancy trial, and ex-FBI agent Jennifer Coffindaffer argues with Tony Brueski that it proves she was responsible.Tony argues the opposite: a woman in treatment the day before, cleared by a hospital nineteen days before, calling suicide hotlines a month before, is not a woman hiding her illness. The defense rested on August 21, 2026, with Dr. Phillip Resnick, who testified she was psychotic and following a command voice. He's the psychiatrist whose testimony helped acquit Andrea Yates.The conversation runs the guilt camp's claims through the testimony. Planning: Yates planned and was acquitted. Sociopath: the Commonwealth's own testing showed no faking and a pattern of downplaying symptoms, which is backwards for a faker. Staged jump: neck wound, cut wrists, a second-story fall, permanent paralysis, and an ongoing suicide watch at Tewksbury Hospital.Then the rebuttal. Dr. Avram Mack, called by prosecutors, met Clancy in April 2026 and testified she understood the wrongfulness of what she did. Mack also told the jury she said "go to God" to the children. A chaplain testified that on January 31, 2023, the first thing Clancy said to her was that she was glad her children were safe. Resnick said she told him her death would've put the children in a terrible spot.Clancy denies three murder counts on the ground that she wasn't criminally responsible. The jury has heard both sides' doctors. It hasn't heard closings yet.Listen Anywhere You Get Podcasts: https://pod.link/1655749292Want to comment and watch this podcast as a video? Check out our YouTube Channel. https://www.youtube.com/@hiddenkillerspod?sub_confirmation=1Join Our SubStack For AD-FREE ADVANCE EPISODES & EXTRAS!: https://hiddenkillers.substack.com/Instagram https://www.instagram.com/hiddenkillerspod/ Facebook https://www.facebook.com/hiddenkillerspod/ Tik-Tok https://www.tiktok.com/@hiddenkillerspod X Twitter https://x.com/tonybpodThis publication contains commentary and opinion based on publicly available information. All individuals are presumed innocent until proven guilty in a court of law. Nothing published here should be taken as a statement of fact, health or legal advice.#LindsayClancy #ClancyTrial #TrueCrimeToday #TrueCrime #PostpartumPsychosis #Duxbury #MurderTrial #InsanityDefense #AndreaYates #TrueCrimePodcast

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It was another fascinating day in court in the Lindsay Clancy triple murder trial. Three witnesses took the stand on Thursday, all of them from law enforcement. We learned about the searches, texts and notes Lindsay Clancy made in the months, weeks and even on the day of the murders of her three young children. The defense claims Clancy is not responsible for the strangling deaths of her kids because she was suffering from postpartum psychosis. The prosecution tried to establish on Thursday she was actually a controlling mom who was frustrated she couldn’t parent the way she wanted to and even searched whether you can “treat a sociopath” just four days before the killings.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

It was another fascinating day in court in the Lindsay Clancy triple murder trial. Three witnesses took the stand on Thursday, all of them from law enforcement. We learned about the searches, texts and notes Lindsay Clancy made in the months, weeks and even on the day of the murders of her three young children. The defense claims Clancy is not responsible for the strangling deaths of her kids because she was suffering from postpartum psychosis. The prosecution tried to establish on Thursday she was actually a controlling mom who was frustrated she couldn’t parent the way she wanted to and even searched whether you can “treat a sociopath” just four days before the killings.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Sam Rosenberg has spent his career protecting some of the most recognized people on the planet, heads of state, CEOs, and celebrities including Warren Buffett, Benjamin Netanyahu, and Tom Cruise. A former Marine Corps officer who moved into close protection in 1996, he's since shifted his focus to teaching ordinary people the same skills he used to guard public figures, through his company Live Ready and his bestselling book of the same name. He's trained tens of thousands of people to recognize threats before they become emergencies. This one is a genuine masterclass in personal safety, and Sam's philosophy anchors it: it's good to have a lifeguard, but you should know how to swim. He and Larry get into why violence is never actually random, how to read a parking lot, the acronym TIME that maps how attackers operate, the normalcy bias that keeps good people from trusting their gut, and persuasion predators, the charming, manipulative threats every dad with a daughter needs to understand. If you want to protect the people who matter most without living in fear, this episode delivers the tools.   Timeline Summary [1:02] – Protecting Netanyahu, the chess match, and embedding covert protection in a crowd [4:35] – Tom Cruise in Pittsburgh and why he was one of the best to work with [6:23] – How you even land a gig protecting someone at that level [8:12] – Protecting Terry Bradshaw at the NFL draft, and why it's all word of mouth [12:36] – The core philosophy: it's good to have a lifeguard, but you should know how to swim [14:51] – Sam's full bio, the Marine Corps, Live Ready, and the book [16:34] – Situational awareness starts with our wives in parking lots [20:04] – The myth of helplessness and the myth of randomness [21:44] – Why violence is a process as predictable as boiling water [22:38] – Attacks happen on arrival and departure, and every environment has a purpose [24:10] – Watching for the watchers, and the New York City looking up analogy [26:30] – The creepy guy vibe and why we hunt for evidence to dismiss it [27:42] – Social contracting, bias, and how it blinds us to real danger [30:13] – Normalcy bias: the brain's desire for everything to be normal [32:04] – Breaking down a real, sophisticated parking lot kidnapping on video [35:36] – The simple bow: trust your intuition even without all the evidence [37:12] – What that woman could have noticed, and the double-tap unlock habit [43:14] – The TIME acronym: target selection, intelligence, method of attack, escape [46:16] – Why street criminals run the same process as terrorists [49:17] – Can you avoid being targeted? You can influence it, not always prevent it [52:04] – Charlie Kirk, Butler, and why it has to be stopped in advance [53:27] – Recognizing the interview means you've already been selected [56:16] – Hard target versus soft target, and why gimmicks don't work [57:29] – The undercover story: why street-smart observers saw through his disguise [1:02:47] – Willingness and ability are all it takes to be a hard target [1:04:31] – What bad guys are truly afraid of: failure [1:08:55] – Persuasion predators, masters of charm and disguise [1:10:31] – Reframing charm: ask why is this person trying to charm me [1:11:56] – No is a complete sentence, and the veils of denial [1:13:54] – Sociopaths, the pity play, and the puppy law used on children   5 Key Takeaways Violence Is a Process, Not Random — Attacks follow an observable, predictable sequence. Learning to spot the pattern, especially during arrival and departure moments, is what lets you get ahead of danger instead of reacting to it. Watch for the Watchers — Every environment has a purpose. Scan left to right for anomalies, people not using the space for its intended purpose, and notice who's watching who's coming and going. That awareness alone makes you a harder target. Trust Your Radar Over Normalcy Bias — Good people talk themselves out of intuitive warnings because they can't find hard evidence or don't want to seem judgmental. When something feels off, that unease is data. Default to it and remove yourself from the situation. Recognize the Interview — When a stranger approaches you in an anomalous moment, that's an interview, and it means you've already been selected as a target. How you manage that interaction, with the right body language and enough force, often determines whether an attack proceeds. Reframe Charm and Hold the Line on No — Teach daughters to ask why is this person trying to charm me rather than being flattered. No is a complete sentence, and anyone who pushes past it is signaling they care only about what they want. A pity play after being caught in lies is a massive red flag.   Links & Resources Episode page and all links: https://thedadedge.com/1517 Sam Rosenberg's company, LiveReady: https://www.liveready.co/ Live Ready by Sam Rosenberg (the book): https://www.liveready.co/book LiveReady on YouTube (situational awareness and attack breakdowns): https://www.youtube.com/@LiveReadyCo LiveReady on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/livereadyco LiveReady on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/LiveReadyCo LiveReady on LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/LiveReadyCo/ LiveReady personal training: https://www.liveready.co/training Dad Edge Day with the Arizona Cardinals (November 15, Cardinals vs Rams, State Farm Stadium): https://thedadedge.com/nfl Roommates to soulmates thedadedge.com/soulmates   Enjoyed This Episode? If Sam's breakdown of that parking lot attack made you look at your own routine differently, put one habit to work this week. Get your head up and off your phone during those arrival and departure moments, and have the charm and no conversation with your daughter. If the show keeps delivering, follow, rate, and leave a review so more fathers can find these conversations.

It was another fascinating day in court in the Lindsay Clancy triple murder trial. Three witnesses took the stand on Thursday, all of them from law enforcement. We learned about the searches, texts and notes Lindsay Clancy made in the months, weeks and even on the day of the murders of her three young children. The defense claims Clancy is not responsible for the strangling deaths of her kids because she was suffering from postpartum psychosis. The prosecution tried to establish on Thursday she was actually a controlling mom who was frustrated she couldn’t parent the way she wanted to and even searched whether you can “treat a sociopath” just four days before the killings.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

It was another fascinating day in court in the Lindsay Clancy triple murder trial. Three witnesses took the stand on Thursday, all of them from law enforcement. We learned about the searches, texts and notes Lindsay Clancy made in the months, weeks and even on the day of the murders of her three young children. The defense claims Clancy is not responsible for the strangling deaths of her kids because she was suffering from postpartum psychosis. The prosecution tried to establish on Thursday she was actually a controlling mom who was frustrated she couldn’t parent the way she wanted to and even searched whether you can “treat a sociopath” just four days before the killings.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

The NIA boys discuss fomo app, Geeks, MOPs & sociopaths, AI barrel of intelligence, country of geniuses & zuck's manifestoTimestamps(00:00:00) - Intro(00:04:43) - fomo app(00:13:25) - Geeks, MOPs & sociopaths(00:30:51) - Claude's invisible watermark(00:36:56) - AI barrel of intelligence & country of geniusesWhat Is Not Investment Advice?Every week, Jack Butcher, Bilal Zaidi & Trung Phan discuss what they're finding on the edges of the internet + the latest in business, technology and memes.Subscribe + listen on your fav podcast app:Apple: https://pod.link/notadvicepod.appleSpotify: https://pod.link/notadvicepod.spotifyOthers: https://pod.link/notadvicepodListen into our group chat on Telegram:https://t.me/notinvestmentadviceLet us know what you think on Twitter:http://twitter.com/bzaidihttp://twitter.com/trungtphanhttp://twitter.com/jackbutcherhttp://twitter.com/niapodcast Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this episode, I return to the angry daughter — but this time, I look at what happens when she tries to love someone. The survival skills that kept her intact in her family of origin are the same ones that quietly work against her in relationships. She over-functions. She holds everything together. She mistakes someone's performed pain for depth, and she chases validation in ways she can't always see while it's happening. This episode is personal, and I'm not writing from some resolved place on the other side. I'm writing from inside it — still learning that I'm allowed to want things, still figuring out what it looks like to stop disappearing so love can fit.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

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Personality Changes After Stroke: How Ben Sautter Discovered His “Hyde” and Became a Better Man  For nearly a decade, Ben Sautter carried a story he didn’t fully understand. He was a respected superintendent for the City of Helena, a devoted father, and a man his colleagues trusted. He was also someone who, years earlier, had been convicted of drug trafficking and spent over a year in prison, a period he now describes without shame or remorse, feelings he says he simply didn’t have access to. “I never felt guilty about doing anything,” he told me. “I never had no shame, no remorse. I still don’t.” Then, on a morning in 2017, Ben woke up with his left leg buzzing like an electrical current, from his hip to his toe. He dismissed it as sciatica, worked out to try to shake it off, and drove himself to a doctor’s appointment while slurring his words. By the time he reached his physician’s office, she recognized what was happening immediately: Ben was in the middle of a stroke. What followed wasn’t just a physical recovery. It became the beginning of a profound psychological reckoning one that reshaped how Ben understood himself, his marriage, and the two very different versions of the man he’d been his entire adult life. What Personality Changes After Stroke Can Actually Look Like When people talk about the effects of stroke, the conversation usually centers on physical deficits: weakness, speech difficulty, mobility. Less discussed but just as real for many survivors are the personality changes after stroke that surface in the weeks, months, and even years that follow. For Ben, this didn’t show up as a dramatic before-and-after moment. It took roughly six months before he began to notice his own cognitive shifts, and years more before he could name what he was experiencing. “I feel like two different people,” he eventually admitted to himself, a recognition that came into sharp focus only after his wife, Helen, described what she called his “Jekyll and Hyde” pattern: a caring, grounded version of himself, and a sharper, more reactive one that could surface without warning, particularly under emotional pressure. Ben also discovered something else in the process something many survivors don’t expect. Before his stroke, he says he operated almost entirely on three emotions: happy, sad, and angry. It wasn’t until his wife introduced him to a “feelings wheel” years after his stroke that he realized how narrow his emotional range had actually been. That flattened emotional landscape, paired with a striking absence of guilt or fear around risky behavior earlier in his life, points to something researchers increasingly recognize: strokes can affect not just movement and speech, but emotional regulation, impulse control, and self-awareness, particularly when the affected regions touch circuitry involved in processing feeling and consequence. The Unexpected Overlap With PTSD One of the more striking parts of Ben’s story is how he came to understand his own symptoms. Watching a 60 Minutes segment on a military veteran with PTSD, Ben recognized his own thoughts, words, and behaviors reflected back at him patterns his psychologist at the VA had already been treating with PTSD-informed techniques, without Ben fully grasping why. “That’s when I realized my family suffered the stroke as much as I did,” he said. This overlap isn’t unusual. Post-stroke psychological symptoms hypervigilance, emotional reactivity, difficulty processing what happened can closely resemble trauma responses, even in survivors who never experienced combat or acute crisis in the traditional sense. Recognizing this early, and getting connected with the right kind of psychological support, can make a meaningful difference in how survivors and their families move through recovery. Turning Reflection Into Change What makes Ben’s story remarkable isn’t just that he noticed these changes; it’s what he did with them. Nearly ten years after his stroke, and after years of separation from his wife, Ben sat down and wrote his memoir, Mr. Hyde and Me, in just ten weeks. “I called this therapy on steroids,” he said. “Writing this book was incredibly therapeutic.” The process gave him a framework to finally understand the dual nature he’d lived with since childhood, shaped, he believes, by an upbringing where feelings were dismissed, and risk-taking was treated as fun rather than dangerous. “That guy that I was, that guy’s gone. I am not going to be that guy ever again.” — Ben Sautter Today, Ben and Helen are reconciled. He describes himself as calmer, more deliberate, and a better listener than he was before his stroke, not despite the personality changes it triggered, but in some ways because of the self-awareness they eventually forced him to confront. As he put it plainly: “We would not be having this conversation if I hadn’t had a stroke.” If You’re Noticing Changes in Yourself or a Loved One If you or someone you love has experienced personality changes after stroke emotional flatness, increased irritability, impulsivity, or a sense of feeling like “two different people” you’re not imagining it, and you’re not alone. These changes are a recognized part of many stroke recoveries, and they respond well to the right combination of professional support, honest communication with family, and time. Ben’s full story, including his path through incarceration, his stroke, and the years-long process of understanding his own mind, is available in The Unexpected Way That A Stroke Became The Best Thing That Happened, where survivors share the tools that helped them navigate recovery, available at recoveryafterstroke.com/book. If this show has helped you, you can support it at patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke. This blog is for informational purposes only and does not constitute medical advice. Please consult your doctor before making any changes to your health or recovery plan. Jekyll, Hyde, and the Stroke That Changed Everything: Ben Sautter’s Story (Interview) Bill’s Book: The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened Support Bill on: Patreon Bill’s one-on-one coaching program: Momentum Highlights: 00:00 Introduction – Personality Changes After Stroke 03:51 Realizing Something Was Wrong 12:51 Discovering His Dual Personality 21:05 Living With Only Three Emotions 31:50 Where the Pattern Began 39:55 Writing the Memoir That Helped Him Understand Himself 50:37 Stroke as a Catalyst for Change Transcript: Introduction – Personality Changes After Stroke Bill Gasiamis (00:00) Welcome back to Recovery After Stroke. I’m Bill Gassiamas, and today’s guest is Ben Sautter, a stroke survivor from Montana who in 2017 suffered an ischemic stroke caused by a carotid artery blockage. Ben was in his mid-50s working as a superintendent for the city of Helena when he woke up one morning with his leg buzzing like it was electric and his speech starting to slur. But this episode isn’t really about the stroke itself. It’s about what the stroke uncovered. Ben spent decades living what he now calls a Jekyll and Hyde existence, including a period of incarceration for drug trafficking that he says he felt no guilt over at the time. And after his stroke, that started to change. We talk about emotional flatness, PTSD like symptoms he didn’t recognize until years later. The marriage he nearly lost and the memoir he wrote in just ten weeks that finally helped him understand himself. Before we get into it, if you haven’t already, check out my book, The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened, over at recoveryafterstroke.com/book. And if this show has helped you, you can support it at Patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke, and you can help me keep it going so that we can get to one thousand episodes. If you’re feeling stuck in your recovery and want more structure and one-on-one support, I also offer a coaching program called Momentum. You can find out more at recoveryafterstroke.com/momentum. Now let’s get into it. Here’s my conversation with Ben. Bill Gasiamis (01:42) Benjamin Sautter welcome to the podcast. Ben Sautter (01:45) Thanks much for having me. Bill Gasiamis (01:49) Can you tell me a little bit about what life was like before twenty seventeen and the stroke? Ben Sautter (01:55) Well, I was on it back then before the stroke. I was had a job that I really enjoyed. I was working for the city of Helena as a superintendent of streets and traffic division. And life was going really good for me there. And then it kind of came to a an abrupt halt. Bill Gasiamis (02:15) what was life like as far as what kind of work were you doing? What was family life like? Ben Sautter (02:23) Well, our family was pretty close at the time. We have two children and we were busy, we were really close, busy traveling. We had a motor home, we had lots of fun. we hunt and fish, a lot of outdoor activities here. We we have a little cabin that we spend all our weekends at. if we weren’t traveling, that is. so Home life was pretty good. My wife and I were struggling a bit before I had my stroke. but we were a close family. And and work was good. I I I’d progressed up into mid-level management and I I had great great people, great staff underneath of me, and we got a lot of good work done for the city and had a lot of fun at work. work was going good. Everything was going pretty good. Bill Gasiamis (03:25) Was there any sign that something was amiss with your health that perhaps there was something looming that wasn’t going to be fun? Ben Sautter (03:36) No, I was I was in great shape. I had had no signs of anything coming. so it was yeah, it was out of the blue. The stroke was out of the blue. Realizing Something Was Wrong Bill Gasiamis (03:51) What was that day like? Was there any kind of deficit deficits that you experienced that gave you a hint that something was going wrong? Or how did it evolve? Ben Sautter (04:00) Well, I woke up in the morning to go to work, I knew something was funny and I couldn’t figure it out. I think when I woke up, I got I get up early and to get in before my first crew was in the mechanics were in at six. So I was in before that. But when I woke up my left leg was just buzzing like it was electric from my hip. To my toe. And I didn’t comprehend. I was thinking it was like a sciatic something because I had a little sciatic pain from time to time in my right side, even though I knew this wasn’t the same, but I didn’t have the cognitive awareness of what was going on. And so I I worked out in the middle of it thinking maybe it was. muscles in my back and if I exercise did go away and and it didn’t when I and I went on into work and my my mechanics were nervous. I I was starting to slur my words and and I I kind of felt it. I a I asked him I think if I was slurring my words And they just kind of smiled at me. And I went back up to my office and then another one of my other supervisors came in and he sat down. He could tell something wasn’t right with me. And then he left and they were all getting together to come and check me out, and I left. I I had a a meeting, or not a meeting. I had a doctor’s appointment out at the VA Fort Harrison at for 7 30 that morning. And so I was I was late and I think I d I think my doctor called me and I was on the road driving out there and she I told her kind of things were funny and what was going on. And she said, Well, you need to get out here, get a ride out here. I said, Well, I’m driving. She said, God, no. I th she pretty well could tell she thought I was having a stroke right there. And I drove out there, I went upstairs to see her and they took me right down to the emergency right there. Bill Gasiamis (06:39) And Did they immediately diagnose that you were having a stroke? Ben Sautter (06:47) We’re getting a little blurry on me right there. I I I don’t really remember what they thought right at the time, right at that moment when I was in the emergency. I know a couple hours later they came to me and there was no doubt about it. They they knew then they had speech therapists in and a neurologist in the room and that’s so it took a couple hours to for a sure diagnosis that I was in the middle of a stroke. Best I remember. Bill Gasiamis (07:27) Hm. It’s pretty common that yeah, pretty common that you’re not gonna remember exactly what was happening at that time. Things were compromised. That makes complete sense. how long before well rather at some point you’re told that you had a stroke, how do you take that information? Ben Sautter (07:48) I don’t know that it it didn’t go over my head, but I I I wasn’t devastated. I and because I wasn’t I I was familiar with stroke, my father’d had strokes and he’d been paralyzed and lost his speech, so his were very severe. So at the time I I wasn’t feeling that I was that impacted by it. I knew some things were going on, but looking back I can tell I just didn’t have the the awareness of what was happening to me, even though I knew it. but it it just didn’t feel serious to me. Bill Gasiamis (08:34) It didn’t sink in, perhaps. Ben Sautter (08:36) yeah, I w I would say so. Certainly not the gravity of it. and it actually it took quite some time. I’d say at least six months, really, before I started being aware of my cognitive deficiencies and and wondering. asking myself questions even though within a week’s time I was at VA Salt Lake to have surgery on my carotid artery. So all that happened and I was still it’s not that I was in denial. Well, I didn’t think I was, but now looking back, I that could have been what it was. But but I was aware. I knew it happened. Gosh, I had surgery. I I understood it all. I saw the MRI. I saw the mark on my brain. I had the surgeries I said. but I it it just the seriousness of it didn’t sink into me. Cause within Bill Gasiamis (09:50) Mm. Ben Sautter (09:50) two weeks, my doc cut me loose, my surgeon, I was up in the woods hunting. Full tilt. They gave me they said, go ahead. So that kinda helped me believe that I the word what what I said, I dodged a bullet is how I put it. And even though I didn’t really dodge the bullet. Bill Gasiamis (10:19) so you said that you had about six months where you kind of had no real awareness or your cognition was impacted. What obviously your cognition was was impacted, but what other deficits did you have? Ben Sautter (10:40) I would just say the cognition, the physical part, I had that numbness in my leg. I didn’t even have a limp from it, but my whole leg f well, it’s still somewhat for for years was like I say, like it w my whole leg was stuck in a light socket, just buzzing like electric from my hip to my toe, and and that lasted a long, long time. my leg got real heavy. I had to like I say, I could it didn’t show that I was limping or anything, but I had to work at that to not let it show. I had to make sure I high stepped kinda so my toe didn’t drag and I didn’t trip. I had to be very well aware of that to make it look like I was okay. But but really physically it didn’t show. Bill Gasiamis (11:43) Your introductory email to me about joining me on the podcast was interesting. what you had seems to be a catalyst for some change in your life. Like what occurred to you, the stroke, the hospitalization, the challenges that you had to come seems to be a catalyst for change in your life. Before the stroke in twenty seventeen, you said your wife and yourself were going through some difficult times. but you were busy at work, you had a a whole bunch of other things going on. but there’s another side of you, there was another side of you at some stage that you were living a life that you were living that’s not quite the run of the mill standard lifestyle. Tell me a little bit about that. And was that lifestyle that you’re gonna to tell us a little bit about now? Was that something that you lived until your stroke? Discovering His Dual Personality Ben Sautter (12:36) I’m living that still right now. that dual personality. And after the stroke, it was it might have taken a couple of years of me looking back. I was finally looking back, wondering who that guy was, that other guy. I I would say to myself. I feel like two different people. And it wasn’t until after the stroke, I think, that I really asked that heart or asked that question, or said that to myself, that I feel like two different people. And that came from questioning the things I did when I was younger. I was pretty wild guy and I did things that didn’t seem like me, yet I know I did all those things. Well hell I I got arrested, went to prison. So I know I was doing stuff that I shouldn’t have been doing. But back then it was Pretty easy to do. And I it it wasn’t, it didn’t feel like me doing it. so after the stroke, I really started asking questions, trying to, trying to look back to understand. And I never got that understanding until I wrote that book last year. And then it all just poured out. And I could see the dual personality and and and I still am that dual guy. My wife is able to recognize that more now, and when she s tells me about it, I can really see it when she explains it, especially what I say. I I say things I say things that I don’t mean that aren’t me, that I don’t understand why I say those things. It’s and I named it Hyde. And it Hyde speaks different than I do, than Jekyll. Bill Gasiamis (15:11) How old were you when you ended up in prison and how old were you when you got out? Ben Sautter (15:16) I was thirty two when I got arrested and I was only out for like thirteen months so I was thirty thir about I was thirty four when I got out. Bill Gasiamis (15:28) And the stuff that you went in for, what kind of things were you doing that ended you up in prison? Ben Sautter (15:38) I was I got arrested for drug trafficking. Bill Gasiamis (15:42) And at the time was there a certain amount of disassociation from the behavior? And did you kind of find yourself doing things that you just weren’t, what was it, maybe like connected to logically? How how did you find yourself being in a situation that you now describe as this was not? U or it was another U.S. Ben Sautter (16:14) That’s good question. I have to say I don’t really understand yet where I was back then. It I I had to that it had to be that disassociation because I was a legitimate guy. I worked, I had jobs, I had good respect from people. I I was a legitimate man all day long every day. And I just slip out and Did stuff. I I d I had no feelings about it. I I wasn’t I never felt guilty about doing anything. I never had no shame, no remorse. I still don’t. I don’t feel those feelings. They just aren’t in me. Even after the book, after writing that and starting to understand that I don’t have those feelings, which I still don’t, but way back then. I didn’t give a s I didn’t give a first thought to any of that illicit stuff I was doing. It was opportunity and I just went and did it. Didn’t give it a thought. Bill Gasiamis (17:31) Got it. And then when you ended up coming out of prison, did you go back onto the straight and narrow? Did you still double? How was life after that? Because it was thirty years almost, you know, between your incarceration and then your stroke. So I I’m just trying to set the scene just so I can ask you the next question later on about the stroke. So what was life like after the incarceration? Ben Sautter (17:56) So and I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately and writing about that. And that I had to make a very conscious decision. And and the way I put that, prison didn’t rehabilitate me. I had to make that decision that okay, I want to go back there. I need to I need to watch I need to watch over myself. and keep myself out of trouble, which all those big crimes were the problem, but little things, I I went hunting, I was a poacher, I I trespassed, those types of things. I was very careful not to be caught speeding in a car or any of that, drinking and driving. a little bit I’d find myself doing that and that was a difficult thing to overcome of to quit drinking and and so I was I’d find myself drunk behind the wheel and I I finally again made a conscious decision decision but it took a little time to work out of that to finally draw a line in the sand. In fact it wasn’t until a year or two after I got married that I finally just quit drinking completely. And that was good. That was a good move. so it was w I can’t say that it was a struggle, but it was risky for me out of prison that I didn’t get caught at those littler, less severe law breaking. Bill Gasiamis (19:53) Yeah. Ben Sautter (19:54) Yeah. Living With Only Three Emotions Bill Gasiamis (19:55) So what I’m hearing here is a you’re you’ve described yourself as Hyde. There’s a Jekyll somewhere here as well. and and also in your description of your behaviour and the way that you weren’t associated with it, or you have no feeling about something, or you know or you have no connection to what it meant when you were breaking the law. It sounds a little bit sociopathic and it sounds like perhaps there was a some kind of a what people might describe as a psych as a psychiatric kind of challenge or issue there. Has that ever come up in a conversation with anybody? Ben Sautter (20:41) No, more the compartmentalization dissociation. I lived with and I didn’t know this until twenty twenty one or twenty two, I lived with three emotions, happy, sad, and angry. That’s and and I learned that when my wife brought out a feelings wheel. And she brought out this feelings wheel and sh she’s saying, tell me which Where you land on some of these, and I thought, well, happy and sad and and angry. And that’s about as far as I went with it. And once in a while I’d feel a little something, but not really very much. So so that’s when I learned I was operating on three emotions. That’s all I ever had. So that really showed the compartmentalization and the disassociation right there. psychopathic or psychopath has never come up even with my psychologist. she never identified that but I just saw her for the first time since I read wrote the book a few weeks ago and gave her a copy of the book and she was a little bit wide-eyed and surprised. at the book and she’s reading it. So what kind of conversation we’re gonna have now will be really interesting to go back and see her. But but answer to your question, no, psychopath, no, just compartmentalizing Bill Gasiamis (22:26) Yeah, so sociopath, not psychopaths. Yeah. Ben Sautter (22:28) Sociopath, I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (22:31) Sociopaths tend to be people who in the moment can’t connect with the behavior, good, bad, indifferent, and then later on have the ability to kind of notice that the behaviour was inappropriate in some way, shape, or form, and kind of have well, maybe not regret, but kind of some understanding of behavior being inappropriate. Whereas psychopaths are completely different, like they have no empathy, no nothing, right? There’s nothing there. So that’s a that’s kind of not where where where I was headed. I wasn’t asking Ben Sautter (23:06) Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (23:07) that. But it’s interesting that you describe these two separate, separate versions of yourself. it’s not uncommon to how I describe myself after the stroke, but I didn’t have a Jekyll and Hyde streak in me. But I had a line in the sand. The stroke seemed to take my brain offline for a little while and it allowed me to connect with other parts of my body. Specifically, I talk about connecting with my heart and it made me more empathetic and more able to kind of access what what my values were rather than what my head thought was the right thing to do or what what my head thought was the right approach or the right way to go about things. So it seems like the stroke has played some kind of a similar role in your ability to reflect on your past in a different way, th in a more associated way compared to what you had done before. Is that accurate? Ben Sautter (24:07) Absolutely. we talk about the stroke not being all bad for me because I’ve become far more aware. and that awareness is big, not just of my past and who I was, but being able to listen so much better and be more aware of what I say, think, and do. much more so. So so yeah, the stroke has I the stroke has been good for me in in a lot of ways, cause causes some of those difficulties without a a doubt, but I think my wife would agree that I’m a better person, despite the change in moral compass after the my incarceration, but I still was a Jekyll and Hyde, and I still am today. I she can see me come in and out of it much quicker than I have any idea. not necessarily on a daily basis, on an hourly basis and in conversation. She can see by what I say. Bill Gasiamis (25:27) what’s better about being able to listen more? you said that you you were able to hear more or pay attention better in a conversation, for example. Why is that better? Ben Sautter (25:37) The understanding, the understanding of the person I’m talking to, and the understanding of myself and and listening listening to hear rather than listening to respond. So though that’s really that’s big for me because I used to be so quick. I’d hear something, I could make decisions, I was very impulsive. I’ve I’ve really rein that in to calm myself down and and just listen better, be slower, more deliberate, more purposeful. All all all of those things are much better for me. In fact, I didn’t have any of that before before the stroke. I was full tilt on everything. I I thought I did. I thought I was very considerate, concerned, and listened, but in comparison, no. That wasn’t me. Bill Gasiamis (26:37) I it you said it’s better for you. Like why how is it better for you? How has it improved your life? Ben Sautter (26:44) I’m not banging heads so much. I I I let people have their thoughts, their opinions, and and I don’t take offense to to that. So everything’s calmer and and I I just don’t have the head banging I used to have. Bill Gasiamis (27:04) Why is it important for people to have their opinions and their thoughts? Ben Sautter (27:08) Well, I’m right and you’re wrong. Isn’t that what it’s all about? Everybody wants to be right and and think that that everybody should agree with them. That’s that’s how I see it now. It’s like, and if yeah, I’m right and you’re wrong. And I that I don’t do that anymore. Bill Gasiamis (27:31) Got it. Got it. This part of you that your wife still sees that you’ve kind of been able to rein in, like is it a sinister side of you that she sees? Is it the conniving side of you? Is it the the the one that’s possible to be led astray? Which side of it does she still see that kind of attends these conversations with your wife? Ben Sautter (27:55) I d I I’m not sure how you how you name this. perfect example is if I I d slip up, do something wrong and Helen will bring my attention to it, I’ll say, Well, I just did that to see if you’re paying attention. So I I try to deflect things. I I have that I definitely the inferiority or or or and on myself. We’re all our own worst critic, of course, and and I I really feel self conscious. I know my deficiencies and I I go back and forth. I I know my deficiencies and I live with it. I’m okay with it. But sometimes if someone says something to me, Helen, one one time it’s okay and I get by it, one time it’s like it hits and it hurts. And and I I react, I try to deflect, I say things, hide comes out of me and and says things like to hurt back. And and so I’m and she’s getting better about not letting me do that. And the sooner she says something now, if she says something right away, I go, yeah, sorry, I did say that. Whereas before I didn’t remember saying things and I would say that. She’d say, You she’d wait too long and then tell me you said something. Well, I wouldn’t say that, I don’t think those things. That’s Jekyll saying, I I I don’t even think that. I I I didn’t say that. You took it wrong. Now I’m more believing that Hyde would say those things and and if she comes back quick enough and I can I’m right there. I’m like, yes, yeah, you’re right. And I I can apologize, but I’m getting better and better at not saying those things. and and catching myself now, which is big, to to stop it before it happens. So I I as we talk through this, I am starting to be more aware of Hyde, what he says, what he thinks, and certainly what he does. I I conquered that long time ago. But what he says and what he thinks, I’m starting to catch that before I go wrong. Bill Gasiamis (30:36) You I’m gonna make a lot of assumptions now. You seem very unassuming as a sixty-three year old man who lived a dual life, you know, went to prison and all that. You know, you you wouldn’t pick that up from meeting you on a Zoom call or in person per se, right? and often often people who kind of live double lives, etc., There’s a an underlying cause, something that happened earlier on in life that caused them to take on a certain persona or to be a certain way or to get through a certain difficult time in their upbringing or the circumstances by which they found themselves in. Did you have a origin story? Was there something that you can think back at that perhaps that led you to take the on another persona in certain situations, or is it just how you’ve always been? Where the Pattern Began Ben Sautter (31:33) The way it came out in writing my memoir, it was from when I was little, really little, and there was two things about it. We didn’t talk about feelings. Yeah, when you get hurt, you d you don’t you don’t cry about it, or you just don’t cry about it, you don’t feel anything. And my dad was a risk taker. And he was so a lot of fun. He taught me some of my worst habits, if not most of them. And and I followed in his footsteps. Risk was inside exciting. Terror was exciting. Being scared was fun. That’s how my dad taught me. And you add that with no feeling, no fear. you just it was easy I said earlier. It was really easy to go do those things shouldn’t do. It was fun and and there was money in it and calculated risks. no problem. It was just no problem. Bill Gasiamis (32:46) Your wife seems to have found something in you that was likable enough to kind of overlook that stuff or or to not see that stuff as being a real issue. Wha what do you think it is that she saw in you that kind of had her be okay with hanging out with a guy who had been incarcerated and perhaps had these tendencies to switch between these two personalities? Ben Sautter (33:13) Well, the incarceration I told her I thought I told her everything. I told Bill Gasiamis (33:18) Ha ha. Ben Sautter (33:19) her I told her enough for me to think I told her everything. And she felt that she saw me pay my dues and She didn’t know a lot up until this last year. she didn’t see the dual side of me. Even though we struggled, she thought it was just me being me. Now it’s so much more clear. And and she’s the one that came up with the Jekyll and Hyde when I was halfway through the book. And stories were coming out she’d never heard before. And that’s when one day she said, You’re like a Jekyll and Hyde. And that really changed the framework of my story. And and it showed me or helped me understand myself, the the dual personality. It still took a little bit to build it through the book to get a full understanding of it and draw a clear picture, but By the time I was done with the book, it was easy to see the dual personality. Bill Gasiamis (34:42) Did your wife what did she like about you though? Like there was s she’s been around for a little while by the sound of it. Ben Sautter (34:52) Yeah, we’ve been together over thirty years. you’d have to ask her that. I I think well, I’m a fun guy. I I was caring and I I that Jekyll guy’s pretty decent fella. You know, I’ve I’ve successfully in business and I’m I’m a hard working guy. I I just that side of me, Nice guy. I think there was a little intrigue probably from my past that I I was an exciting guy. I did a lot of things and and even though once we met, I was really trying to taper down and really trying to get a hold of myself and which I did and and w we did really, really well together for quite a few years and and then I think I wore wore her down with that dual personality. Not think. I know I did. She finally it was too much for her and and and things kinda went south for us. We I I I can’t imagine even though I watched what I put her through, I don’t know how she lasted. she left for a lot of years after my stroke. We split up for a lot of years and and I I’ve made some changes. Bill Gasiamis (36:30) So have you been able to reconcile? Ben Sautter (36:33) Yes, yes Bill Gasiamis (36:34) Okay. Ben Sautter (36:35) we have. Bill Gasiamis (36:36) Do you think anything that you and I have just discussed, anything of that would have been possible if you didn’t have this stroke? Ben Sautter (36:47) Well, I would say no. No. Not unless I’d a wrote the book and it happened like it did. But before the stroke, no, I d I I couldn’t get there. I wanted to, I tried. We we had a lot of conversations, but I just it was like a wall. I I just couldn’t see through it. I couldn’t get through it. I just couldn’t get there. So no, we would not be having this conversation if I hadn’t had a stroke. Bill Gasiamis (37:16) That’s fascinating to me. That’s just fascinating to me that you’ve had this turnaround. And not not to say that turnarounds are complete as soon as the stroke happens or that things are easier or different or better or whatever. But like there seems to be a genuine willingness to discover what this newer version of yourself could be like and could emerge into an author, somebody who wrote book. somebody who’s reconciled with your wife, somebody who’s admitted all these things that you’ve admitted and kind of made a concerted effort to not fall into those traps. Again, you’ve associated with things. And it’s all because of a stroke, because of a carotid artery blockage, or was it a dissection? What was it? Ben Sautter (38:10) It’s just a a blockage above the Y in a little piece of it. I got so lucky. It was a huge blockage and a little tiny piece flaked off, hit me Bill Gasiamis (38:23) Uh-huh. Ben Sautter (38:23) right up in this side, and that’s why they had to go in and remove that chunk of plaque. And Bill Gasiamis (38:30) Yeah. Ben Sautter (38:31) yeah. Bill Gasiamis (38:33) And it’s kind of it seems like it’s for you at least this experience has been really positive, other than the of course risk to your physical well being and your life, right? Seems a lot of positive has come out of it. Ben Sautter (38:51) I would have to agree with that. And and I know Helen would too. I’m I’m much different. I’m a much better person than I was. I so yes, the the stroke you know, I don’t think there’s many people can say that the stroke has done me more good than bad bad. The physical part of it has been a challenge, but I I push that every day and and I’m I’m working hard with that still. But the cognitive part of it, yeah, I I’m a better I’m a better man now. Bill Gasiamis (39:29) Hmm. you’ve got a copy of the book in front of you, I believe. Ben Sautter (39:33) Yes. Bill Gasiamis (39:34) Show us the the book. Tell me a little bit about how you came to write it. Like what’s the what what why did you feel the need to write the book? Writing the Memoir That Helped Him Understand Himself Ben Sautter (39:50) So I actually started the book in twenty sixteen before I had the stroke. And I it my intention was to write a bunch of stories about all the crazy things I did, crazy things that happened to me. Just a book of stories is what I was gonna write. And once I got serious about it last September, I sat down, got out what I had, and And once I started I couldn’t stop writing. I wrote this book in ten weeks and it just poured out of me and it’s nothing like I ever would have thought I could write. it has good value. It has value for anyone that reads it. Bill Gasiamis (40:40) So it’s a 10 year project that took ten days to ten weeks or ten days to complete. Ten weeks to Ben Sautter (40:46) Ten weeks. Ten weeks. Bill Gasiamis (40:48) complete. So that’s really cool in that like the idea was already there, germinating. It it took a while. you had to overcome certain things. You had to probably move beyond, you know, certain parts of your your your transformation to get to the stage where the book was possible. it sounds like you put in work with your family, with yourself. How long have you been seeing a counselor? Ben Sautter (41:18) Right after the stroke I started seeing my psychologist and and it’s interesting to me really early on she had me doing work that was for PTSD. And she would give me lessons to bring home. And they were for the for the veterans that suffered from PTSD, which I never knew anything about it. It was kind of a phantom thing for me, because I didn’t know anything. And and I’ll be honest with you here, one night on 60 Minutes I was watching a veteran with his wife and daughter being interviewed on sixty minutes and he had the PTSD and that family was talking about him doing the it saying, doing, thinking, the exact things I was doing with my family. And that really just hit me hard. No wonder I’m doing PTSD work because the stroke is the same thing i i in a sense. And that’s where I learned so much watching that segment that night. I learned about myself, my family. And that’s when I realized that’s when I realized my family suffered the stroke as much as I did. That came to me. Bill Gasiamis (42:51) What’s interesting is I asked you about things that might have happened in your past that may have been foundational kind of things that were responsible for these two personalities of you. You mentioned your dad, your upbringing, some of the stuff that he would get up to and how you were kind of influenced by him. But y I just heard now that you’re a veteran. So did you actually attend did you serve as a veteran? Ben Sautter (43:19) I did. I did a couple of years in the Navy in right when the Vietnam War was getting was ending. In fact I was in in April of seventy-five is when it ended. And I never went overseas. I was shore duty in California. I was at NAS Alameda and and that’s a pretty big piece in my book of of my time in the Navy, which is quite a story. but I I didn’t suffer any any I didn’t go to I didn’t go to war. I did not go to war. I I Bill Gasiamis (43:55) Or no battle no battles or anything like that. And and do you think the PTSD was from something else, perhaps? Ben Sautter (44:04) I think it w just from the stroke. Just from the stroke and I didn’t know it. that’s what I got from that sixty minutes segment is is the cognitive things that I was saying that and didn’t understand what the stroke did to me. I thought I was fine. I went to work back to work a couple months after I had the stroke. I worked for a couple months and I realized I I wasn’t cutting it. Bill Gasiamis (44:36) Whose idea was it to go to counselling after the stroke? Ben Sautter (44:46) I don’t know that I don’t remember, but I would say they probably just assigned me to a psychologist to to to see where I’m at, help me through it. VA Ford Harrison is phenomenal, those people. great staff there. So they just were taking care of me, I think. I don’t remember it. Bill Gasiamis (45:06) Yeah, might have just been standard part of the approach to helping somebody who’s a VA. Ben Sautter (45:14) That would be my my my guess that it was just part of their program. Bill Gasiamis (45:20) And it sounds like you were pretty willing or or were you resistant at the beginning. Do you recall how you felt about being in counseling? Ben Sautter (45:29) Yeah, I I was fine to go there and really really like this psychologist I see and and the other ones. I’ve seen numerous psychologists there and yeah, they I always feel better coming out of there than I do when I walk in. So no doubt. Bill Gasiamis (45:51) Have you expanded on your happy, sad, angry emotions? Ben Sautter (45:55) I’m I’m pretty even now. I don’t get too wild. When I first had the stroke I was very emotional. I was tears in my eyes over almost nothing. it was quite a struggle for Bill Gasiamis (46:13) That’s common. Ben Sautter (46:14) s some years. And and now I I I’ve I’m very well in control of my emotions and to the point that I’m I might be a fairly boring guy. I like to have fun. I laugh a lot. I’m not the wild guy that I was, but so so I I don’t have much anger. I don’t have much sadness. My anger y my sadness used to turn to anger. So I really had happy and angry is really what I had. I I don’t go there anymore. Life is too good for me now. I don’t I don’t have sadness or anger. Bill Gasiamis (46:55) every so often you say a couple of things and it triggers me to ask you the next question again. And it’s kind of my job to probe. And this is not a counseling session, but it’s very fascinating. Was there perhaps some kind of a personality disorder there, like a like a bipolar or something like that? Because you’re describing like happy, angry, or do you know there’s no in between and it’s very bipolar ish. Whereas I know it’s not bipolar. Because in Bipala they’re described as being happy and really, really kind of deep, sad extremes. But you seem to occupy a similar kind of space does that ring a bell? Did anyone ever bring that up, perhaps? Ben Sautter (47:38) No, I’m I’m I’m d just too happy all the time, always not in the good mood that I always used to be, but I lived pretty happy life. I I just didn’t let the rest get me. But when I went off in the weeds, I my anger was would get away from me. Bill Gasiamis (48:01) That’s a great way to describe it because that’s tend tends to be how anger is. Like it just kind of builds up and builds up and then it gets away. And if you do that often enough, it becomes really easy to get to anger. And what people don’t realise is that anger is also and complaining and all those types of things also releases dopamine in the brain. There is a reward that people get for misbehaving Ben Sautter (48:26) Mm. Bill Gasiamis (48:26) and expressing anger. Otherwise you wouldn’t do it. There is the there is also the I I’m trying to achieve something or get something done or I’m trying to intimidate some someone or I’m trying to you know get a child to take action somewhere where they frustrated me or whatever. So there there is a a a th this underlying purpose for anger, but also it’s a rewarding to the brain when you act out in an angry way. Ben Sautter (48:58) I think that’s a really good point. When I was younger, I would break I would look to break something. I would get so mad I just I would break something and then I felt good about it. Okay, I got that broke. Now I’m now I can be happy again. So just exactly what you just said. Interesting. Hmm. Bill Gasiamis (49:19) Yeah. That is interesting. It’s interesting and fascinating. Stroke as a Catalyst for Change This has been one of the most interesting conversations I’ve had because we’ve barely spoken about the stroke and how you experienced it and what it did to you. But it seems like we’ve spoken about it enough in that it was a catalyst to something new, something different. And often my attempt has always been in these interviews is to tell people about the fact You know, we share a story of what life was like before stroke for people. And then we sure share the story of like what happened during the stroke time and then what happened after. And if you’re currently in the stroke moment, it’s really, really hard. You you don’t know where things are headed. There’s a lot of uncertainty, a lot of change, a lot of experiences that you never saw coming, you know, things that are happening. You might be experiencing your body differently, your cognition differently. your hearing, your speech, it all might be different and it’s extremely full on in that moment. And the idea is, well, let’s continue with the conversation and try and move and and paint a picture of what life might be like for somebody, even though they’re going through a really hard time five, six, seven, ten years down the track, you know? And you’re in the 10 year mark and it’s taken you 10 years to get here, write a book, reflect on your past the way that you’ve been reflecting. mend your relationships, become more aware of your behavior, the one that served you, the one that didn’t. And it’s not really a story about stroke, but it’s stroke seems to have been the catalyst for an opportunity for you to look at things a different way and for it to break certain patterns that were embedded that now have been able to be in kind of like fizzled. You know, the edges of them were fizzled away so that something could enter and you know, like throw a spanner in the works and change the way the cogs moved. and it’s just fascinating that stroke can do that. if we didn’t talk about that part of stroke, that good part of stroke, people might only see stroke as only ever being a terrible thing that happened to them, which I also understand if somebody feels that way, because there’s a big spectrum of how people are impacted by stroke. So I don’t wanna take that away from people who are suffering. but you you know, like the shift and the change that you’ve had through a stroke is just night and day, it’s phenomenal. Ben Sautter (52:07) One of the bigger things I think I’ve learned that goes with that is It’s been a few years ago I learned that that guy that I was, that guy’s gone. And I am not gonna be that guy ever again. So I I’m looking at at the guy that I am, who I believe is a better guy than I was anyway. So that’s been a good thing. And I think that comes from my wife and from my psychologist at the VA that it it’s There’s no more who I was, it’s who I am. And and that’s come a long ways because of that, I Bill Gasiamis (52:51) Yeah. Ben Sautter (52:51) believe. Bill Gasiamis (52:52) And who you’re becoming by the sound of things. Ben Sautter (52:55) That too. Yes. Yeah, because I I do that’s a really good point. I do know I will get better. I will be better as time goes on. But you gotta keep you gotta keep working at it. Bill Gasiamis (53:10) Yeah. Being better and getting better, does that mean that the f the the way the leg feels is different or can the the the way the leg feels not necessarily go back to normal and you still are getting better, you still are improving, even though your leg perhaps stays Ben Sautter (53:29) Lake skiing. my pain is way, way, way down to where I don’t my pain is nil. I can go well, I I do a lot of needles, I do a lot of injections, I do a lot for it, but those are getting less. so th I’m hurting less, I’m hiking better, I ride my bike a lot, all those things. are I’m gaining the numbness, the tingle’s gone. That electricity thing like your fingers in a socket, that’s all gone. The s hard stiffness is down in my lower leg and my foot, so my leg’s better. yeah physically I’m getting better, better better. Bill Gasiamis (54:22) Yeah. Where can people go and find the book? Ben Sautter (54:27) Amazon. Amazon. Mr. Hyde and Me. The name of the book. Yeah, I’m Bill Gasiamis (54:32) Yeah. The links will Yeah. Ben Sautter (54:35) this is me. This picture is me on Bill Gasiamis (54:38) Yeah. Ben Sautter (54:39) the corner, on the corner of Wilson and Main Street in downtown Bozeman. Bozeman, Montana. So took a took a lot of thought to get to make that picture and to get that shadow just right. So my shadow guy facing into him head on. And been a lot of been a lot of reward doing this. This I called this therapy on steroids. writing this book was incredibly therapeutic. Bill Gasiamis (55:14) Yeah. I can imagine. Ben, thank you so much for reaching out. Really appreciate your conversation and your honesty and I really wish you well with your recovery ongoing. Ben Sautter (55:26) And thank you. This is one of the better conversations I’ve had about my my situation ever. So Bill, I can’t thank you enough. I appreciate it and I’ll look forward to this all turns out. Bill Gasiamis (55:40) Well, that’s it for another episode of the Recovery After Stroke podcast. If there’s one thing to take from this episode, it’s Ben’s line. That guy that I was, that guy’s gone. I’m not going to be that guy ever again. A stroke took something from Ben, but it also gave him a level of self-awareness and emotional range he says he never had access to before. And it helped him rebuild a marriage he thought he’d lost for good. If you want the full story, Ben’s memoir. Mr. Hyde and me is available on Amazon. You’ll find links in the bio. And if this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. And if you’re looking for more tools for your own recovery, check out my book, The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened. It’s available at recoveryafterstroke.com/book. If this show has helped you or someone you love get through their journey with stroke, you can support the show to help keep it going on patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke. And if you want to work with me directly, my coaching program Momentum offers one-on-one support and accountability for stroke survivors who feel stuck. More at recoveryafterstroke.com/momentum. Thanks for listening and I’ll see you in the next episode. The post Jekyll, Hyde, and the Stroke That Changed Everything: Ben Sautter’s Story appeared first on Recovery After Stroke.

Workplace culture is often portrayed as a harmonious collection of professionals working toward a shared goal with shared values. Yet, anyone who has spent significant time in corporate environments knows the reality is far more complex. Beneath the surface of official mission statements and team-building exercises, office dynamics are often defined by power plays, hidden agendas, and distinct personality types that can significantly impact a project's trajectory.Jonathon and I explore the prevalence of the “dark five” personality types within corporate structures, noting that certain traits are often rewarded by organisational systems. We look at how to identify and work with difficult personality types in the workplace, as well as practical strategies for leading through office politics and dynamics.While sociopathy, defined by an absence of empathy, is often stigmatised, it functions as a necessary mechanism for high-stakes leadership, such as managing layoffs or major structural transitions. By distinguishing between sociopathic behavior and the more destructive, less useful traits of sadism and spitefulness, leaders can better navigate interpersonal challenges. These behaviors have deep evolutionary roots, making them persistent aspects of human social interaction that cannot be ignored or simply trained away through culture building.Technology, specifically artificial intelligence, is rapidly altering the landscape of corporate influence. Tools that once required massive data science operations—like those used by Cambridge Analytica to manipulate political outcomes—are now accessible to individuals. This democratization of data manipulation is a significant concern for organizational security. The primary danger of AI in the workplace is not its intelligence, but its ability to be used for unethical ends by those who understand the system. Leaders need to ensure that every interaction with powerful AI agents is logged, tracked, and attributable to a specific user. Understanding the “dark five” personality traits and their influence on corporate strategy is not just for HR or executive management; it is a vital skill for anyone leading change. When the political currents of an organization become too strong to ignore, the ability to identify the players and their underlying motives allows a leader to maintain their integrity while continuing to deliver results.The modern leader must be an astute observer of human behavior, a pragmatic technologist, and a firm guardian of ethical processes. Ultimately, the goal for the integrity-minded leader is not to eliminate sociopathic traits—which is likely impossible—but to manage them effectively. The best defense is a combination of radical transparency and a clear understanding of human drivers. Leaders who spend their time fighting against the nature of their peers often lose; leaders who understand the nature of the game and adapt their strategy usually win.What is the biggest “unspoken” personality challenge you have navigated in your career?The main insights you get from this episode are :The many unethical stories from the corporate world are very relatable but never spoken about.The ‘dark five' highly correlated personality types: sociopaths, Machiavellians, sadists, spitefuls, narcissists.Socipathy is helpful at C-suite level, whereas sadists and spitefuls are destructive in leadership and not useful in a business.Sociopaths are easier to manage than mixed-trait middle managers who are more diverse yet ambitious.The higher up the ladder, the more sociopathy and less of everything else there is; but sociopaths are unpredictable and good at hiding their traits.Evolutionary psychology overrides everything, pre-dates humans, and is a fundamental driver that should not be ignored.Dominance and submission are also relevant; there must be less dominance 30% of the time to prevent disengagement.There are multiple versions of manipulation and power games as well as (unspoken) differences in how they present in males and females.DEI can be difficult as the more diverse the workforce, the less likely they are to support each other (lack of affinity).Hero ideology cultivation or hero brand concept: narcissists do it because they have to and sociopaths do it because they will benefit.Monthly group meetings for praising and criticising is very constructive and motivational but requires trust and the right context.Notional team building will fail as teams are about personal connection and mentorship – and leadership with integrity.High-functioning sociopaths develop their own ethical and moral code to talk about things they don't understand; they intellectualise.The biggest challenge for AI currently is knowing what the user wants and whether the response is ethical or not, despite its validity.AI guardrails for senior leaders are impossible as it is so fast-moving and rules slow things down.Basic principles of big system architecture also for AI: logging, monitoring, and recording; logs must also be reviewed by a human.Review requires an understanding of the basic human drivers and the ability to recognise cognitive dissonance.Learn to work with the traits in the team – acceptance of neurodiversity does not (yet) apply to the dark five personalities, yet they are valuable and must be understood.Find out more about Jonathon and his work here :https://www.nexoid.com/https://www.corporatesociopathhandbook.com/[https://www.linkedin.com/in/jonathongrantham/]For more information on this episode please visit www.transformforvalue.com/podcastTo carry on developing your leadership and building a relevant & high performing team, connect with me here : https://calendly.com/transformforvalue/connect

Season 63, Episodes 226-230, Spoiler Level CFS (Crazy F***ing Spoilers) Willow dives deeper into sociopathywhile continually calling Jacinda a hookerand we get it GH – you are breaking up Jacinda and Michael. Did you need to take out billboards? So out of character that Jacinda would drug Willow, especially with that level of exposure. Jason and Sonny are getting out of the mob business, but Sonny is still going to threaten to “handle things” if people do him wrong.LOTS of fashion yes and nos. Curtis is still a dick and Joss is CEO of JJE. Can't wait for your thoughts and feelings. Thank you for listening to our General Hospital podcast. If you enjoyed it, please subscribe and tell your friends. Drop us a review. And let us know your own musings and theories and fashion notes. Reach Stacy at Alexis@areweghing.com and Kathy at Felicia@areweghing.com. For more information, please visit us at www.areweghing.com Recorded 8-7–26. Music by Grammy award winning Alex Robinson https://www.musicbyalexrobinson.com/ and logo by the equally as amazing Jakob Evans.

If you thought Part 1 was wild, just wait, because now, we're flipping the script and digging even deeper into the mindsets and tactics you NEED to recognize if you want to protect yourself from psychological warfare. Writer, content creator, and, yes, openly diagnosed sociopath Kanika Batra is back for the second half of our conversation, going even deeper into the “rotation” of romantic partners, how sociopaths weaponize compliments, and the terrifyingly effective 4-act psychological cycle they use to keep you hooked and doubting your sanity.We even bring Kanika's husband into the studio for a raw, honest look at what it's like to love and live with a sociopath, and why it actually works (sometimes better than you'd expect). Plus: real talk on sobering up, finding faith, and what to do if you think you've got a sociopath in your circle.Learn the tricks (from mapping insecurities to reputational warfare) that could save you from the worst heartbreaks and con-games. And yes, find out what makes women harder to fool, why even “ride or die” friendships can go nuclear, and the crucial (sometimes tragic) differences between a sociopath and a narcissist in relationships.SHOWNOTESThe Perks (and WARNING SIGNS) of Being Friends with a SociopathThe “Rotation” and Dating Playbook: Regent, Placeholder, DecoyHow Women and Men Manipulate Differently, And Why Women Are Harder to FoolPsychological Terrorism: The 4-Act Formula for Gaslighting Inside Kanika's Marriage: Stability, Manipulation, and Facing the TruthAddiction, Dopamine, and Getting Clean Confessions of a Sociopath: Rapidfire Truths and Petty WinsHow to Spot a Sociopath: Eye Contact, Yawn Test & the Deeper “Mask”Why Rules, Faith, and Structure Actually HelpKanika On Parenting, Self-Worth, and Building a Good LifeThank you to today's sponsors:Shopify: Sign up for your one-dollar-per-month trial period at https://shopify.com/lisaMonarch: 50% off your first year with code WOI https://monarch.comFollow Kanika Batra:Website: kankarose.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kanikabatra/YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/kanikabatra Follow Me, Lisa Bilyeu:Website: https://www.lisabilyeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/lisabilyeu/Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/lisabilyeuSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Ever wondered if you'd know if a sociopath was your friend… or even YOU? In this episode, I sit down with Kanika Batra: Author, beauty queen, and one of the most self-aware diagnosed sociopaths on the internet, to rip the mask straight off the stigma.Kanika doesn't just talk about living with Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD), she tells you exactly how a female sociopath thinks, strategizes, and manipulates, in brutal, unfiltered detail. But don't get it twisted: this isn't just about danger and darkness. Kanika is here so YOU can spot the manipulation and betrayal before it happens: Wether it's in love, at work, or in your closest girls' group chat. We're bringing you the red flags, the psychology, and yes, the protection plan, so you never ever get caught off guard again.From “masks” and hot rage to psychological cages and the razor-thin line between loyalty and revenge, Part 1 lays everything bare, including how and why Kanika targets, tests, and treats people, plus what women need to watch for most.SHOWNOTESHow Sociopaths Lie and Manipulate, and Why You'd Never Know Understanding the Ingenue, Femme Fatale, and Therapist Masks “Snark Pages” and True Stories of Retaliation How Sociopaths Treat Their Real Friends vs. Everyone Else What Betrayal Means, and Why It Fuels Extreme Payback Inside a Female Sociopath's Mind: Family, Childhood, and Hypocrisy Loyalty, Control, and the Calculus of FriendshipWhy (and How) Sociopaths Can Love Their Own Way “The Hidden Suffering of the Psychopath”: Loneliness, Loyalty, and Why Sociopaths Snap The Art of Psychological Cages: Obligation, Triangulation, and Blacklisting Reputational Warfare: How Female Sociopaths Destroy Without Violence Thank you to today's sponsors:Shopify: Sign up for your one-dollar-per-month trial period at https://shopify.com/lisaMonarch: 50% off your first year with code WOI https://monarch.comFollow Kanika Batra:Website: kankarose.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kanikabatra/YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/kanikabatra Follow Me, Lisa Bilyeu:Website: https://www.lisabilyeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/lisabilyeu/Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/lisabilyeuSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

In this episode, I reflect on what it actually means to be the angry daughter — the scapegoat, the truth-teller, the one who names what others refuse to see. Drawing from my own childhood and my experience as a mother, I trace the way systems assign their tension to one person, teach her not to trust herself, and then use her exhaustion against her. This episode is for anyone who has ever been told that their reaction was the problem, that their clarity was the threat, or that their limits were a character flaw. You are not the problem. You are the person who finally stopped pretending otherwise.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

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He cares more about his Weaponization fund, being protected from any federal government investigation, winning his club championship, and personally making as much money as he possibly can than he cares about anything or anyone else. He is humanly incapable of caring about anything but himself. Having a sociopath like this in the White House is a dangerous thing for us and the world. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this episode, I'm talking about why self-blame becomes almost automatic when you've been in an emotionally abusive or coercively controlling relationship, and why it feels like relief even when it's actually costing you.I get into the nervous system science behind it, specifically how fawning works, how your brain gets wired to connect calm with compliance, and why that wiring doesn't just disappear when the relationship ends. If you have ever cried the whole drive home because you didn't apologize, this one is for you. I also walk through some concrete ways to start interrupting the pattern, because healing from this is not about flipping a switch. It is about catching yourself in small moments, again and again, until a different kind of calm starts to feel possible.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

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If you have ever walked away from a relationship, or a parent, or a childhood, and still found yourself waiting for the person who hurt you to finally acknowledge what they did, this episode is going to reach something in you.Najwa Zebian is a writer, speaker, and the host of the podcast Beyond Words. Her work has reached millions of people around the world, and her new book is called The One Who Broke You Can't Heal You. I have been following her for years. A client sent me one of her videos at a time when I was carrying my own version of what my client was going through, and I have gone back to that video more times than I can count.In this conversation, we talk about the childhood wounds that quietly run the show in your adult relationships, why you keep finding yourself in rooms that feel familiar in all the wrong ways, and why the person who broke you is quite literally not the one who can put you back together. We get into inner child work in a way that I think will reach even the people who have always resisted it, including what happens the first time you try to show up for your younger self and she doesn't even look at you. We talk about the difference between compromise and self-sacrifice, what it means when they get worse after you start setting limits, and why healing is hard in a completely different way than staying is hard.Website: https://najwazebian.comBooks: https://najwazebian.com/booksPodcast (Beyond Words): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/beyond-words-with-najwa-zebian/id1827674653Instagram / TikTok / Facebook / YouTube: @najwazebianPre-order / order The One Who Broke You Can't Heal You: https://amzn.to/4v4rgitSupport the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

In this episode of "Transform Your Mind to Transform Your Life," Coach Myrna delves into the critical topic of recognizing sociopathic behavior, especially in personal relationships. This episode is part of the 5 Minute Fridays series, specifically designed to provide quick yet profound insights. Myrna addresses the common challenge many women face in identifying sociopaths in their lives, emphasizing that knowledge and awareness are the first steps toward self-protection and emotional healing.Myrna explores the behavioral patterns associated with sociopathy, highlighting key traits such as manipulation, a lack of empathy, and tendencies towards impulsive and reckless behavior. She stresses the importance of recognizing red flags like quick-tempered reactions, irrational decision-making, and an absence of a moral compass. Throughout the episode, Myrna offers guidance on establishing healthy boundaries and stresses that awareness is about gaining freedom from manipulative narratives. The episode encourages listeners to take stock of their circumstances, seek safety, and embrace emotional health, drawing on the personal power to break free from toxic relationships.Key Takeaways:Sociopaths account for about 1% of the population but often infiltrate positions of power where they can exert control.Key traits of sociopaths include a lack of empathy, manipulation skills, impulsivity, and an absence of a moral compass.Women often miss sociopathy signs due to empathy, hope for change, or spiritual beliefs but should seek awareness to avoid harmful relationships.Danger signs include volatile anger, irrational decisions, and an inability to maintain long-term relationships.Understanding these behavioral patterns helps in setting healthy boundaries, preserving emotional health, and facilitating personal freedom.Sponsors of this Podcast Physician's choice 60 Billion ProbioticIf you are ready to be intentional about your gut health Go to Amazon or physicianschoice.com and use code PCPODCAST10 for 10% off your entire order SquareSquare brings payments, POS, inventory, staffing, and online sales together in one system – so business owners don't have to juggle a bunch of tools. Right now, listeners can get up to $200 off Square hardware when you sign up at square.com/go/transformQuinceQuince is not just apparel. Quince also offers elevated essentials for your home, from bedding and bath, to kitchen essentials and furniture.Make your summer wardrobe feel easier. Go to Quince.com/tym for free shipping on your order and 365-day returns Link to Transcript https://www.buzzsprout.com/1761155/19500236-unmasking-manipulation-how-to-identify-a-sociopath-in-your-life/transcriptResources Myrna Young Built a Podcast Empire on the One Topic Most Coaches Won't Touch: Childhood Traumahttps://www.nextmentors.com/myrna-young-built-a-podcast-empire-on-the-one-topic-most-coaches-wont-touch-childhood-trauma/See this video on The Transform Your Mind YouTube Channel https://www.youtube.com/@MyhelpsUs/videosTo see a transcripts of this audio as well as links to all the advertisers on the show page https://myhelps.us/Follow Transform Your Mind on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/myrnamyoung/Follow Transform Your mind on Facebookhttps://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100063738390977Please leave a rating and review on iTunes https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/transform-your-mind/id1144973094Feedspot Top 100 Mental Health Podcast For sponsored Brand interviews and sponsorship inquires please visit Partner With The Transform Your Mind Podcast | Myrna Young Life Coach

In this episode, I'm talking about something I call the Saturday text. It's never Tuesday at 10 AM when your coffee is warm and you're mentally ready. It's always when you've finally exhaled, and I want to explain why that timing is never an accident.I go deep into the way dysregulation gets used as a delivery mechanism of coercive control, including what the person sending the text is actually getting out of it, which is not just pressure relief but confirmation that they still have access to your nervous system. I also talk about co-regulation, what it's supposed to be, and how it gets weaponized in coercively controlling relationships.I share my own experience with this pattern, including the specific moment when someone I was with sent a breakup ultimatum by text while I was alone in another country, and what that taught me about the intentionality behind timing.If you're in a high-conflict co-parenting situation, still entangled with someone controlling, or just trying to understand why you're always exhausted and can never quite explain it, this episode is for you. I also talk about practical ways to start creating distance between the text arriving and your response, because your nervous system belongs to you, and so does your Saturday.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

Description Written By Fable/Max: Robert Wright interviewed Geoffrey Hinton in 1983 and, by his own account, got the story 180 degrees wrong. Forty years later Hinton is the "Godfather of AI," two of the three godfathers are frightened of their own creation, and Wright has written The God Test to figure out what he missed and what's coming. We talk about how these machines evolved rather than being programmed - nobody fully understands them, including the people who build them - why "fancy autocomplete" was always wrong, the best case (an AI caught a radiologist's error in his cancer MRI), the worst case (a bioweapon that incubates silently for six weeks), why racing China to superintelligence may cause the war it's meant to prevent, and whether unplugging a machine could ever be murder. Plus an experiment of my own: I put a legal dispute in front of the AI and handed the laptop to the other side. 0:00 Intro - Robert Wright and The God Test 2:13 A 27-ton computer and a buried headline 4:11 Interviewing the Godfather of AI in 1983 - and missing it 10:15 Not programmed - evolved 17:27 The "fancy autocomplete" myth 24:17 Dukakis, Reagan, and how minds file words 35:49 Best case: medicine, education, and an MRI story 42:38 Worst case: bioweapons, jailbreaks, designer babies 48:51 An AI that believes what the Ayatollah believes 50:30 The China race - overdone and dangerous? 57:33 Nazis, the Hamas charter, and bombing over AI 59:46 Authoritarianism through the back door 1:03:35 Sociopaths, the ship of Theseus, and machine morality 1:14:34 Is it sentient? Should you be nice to it? 1:21:54 AI as judge: my legal experiment 1:26:20 The God Test

Description Written By Fable/Max: Robert Wright interviewed Geoffrey Hinton in 1983 and, by his own account, got the story 180 degrees wrong. Forty years later Hinton is the "Godfather of AI," two of the three godfathers are frightened of their own creation, and Wright has written The God Test to figure out what he missed and what's coming. We talk about how these machines evolved rather than being programmed - nobody fully understands them, including the people who build them - why "fancy autocomplete" was always wrong, the best case (an AI caught a radiologist's error in his cancer MRI), the worst case (a bioweapon that incubates silently for six weeks), why racing China to superintelligence may cause the war it's meant to prevent, and whether unplugging a machine could ever be murder. Plus an experiment of my own: I put a legal dispute in front of the AI and handed the laptop to the other side. 0:00 Intro - Robert Wright and The God Test 2:13 A 27-ton computer and a buried headline 4:11 Interviewing the Godfather of AI in 1983 - and missing it 10:15 Not programmed - evolved 17:27 The "fancy autocomplete" myth 24:17 Dukakis, Reagan, and how minds file words 35:49 Best case: medicine, education, and an MRI story 42:38 Worst case: bioweapons, jailbreaks, designer babies 48:51 An AI that believes what the Ayatollah believes 50:30 The China race - overdone and dangerous? 57:33 Nazis, the Hamas charter, and bombing over AI 59:46 Authoritarianism through the back door 1:03:35 Sociopaths, the ship of Theseus, and machine morality 1:14:34 Is it sentient? Should you be nice to it? 1:21:54 AI as judge: my legal experiment 1:26:20 The God Test

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There is a particular kind of loss that doesn't get talked about enough when you leave a coercive relationship, and it isn't the loss of the person. On some level, that was survival. The loss I am talking about is quieter and stranger than that. It's the loss of your own mind, entire summers, thousands of small moments that were technically yours but that you never actually lived.In this episode, I talk about what it looks like when coercive control colonizes your nervous system so completely that you can't find the beginning of it anymore.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

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Some healing doesn't come from therapy or from doing the work in the way you expect it to. Sometimes it comes from watching your team win the NBA finals.In this episode, I'm sharing something personalL what the Knicks winning the 2026 championship actually did to me, and why I wasn't prepared for it. This win cracked something open that I didn't know was still there, and I've been sitting with it ever since.This is a detour from my usual content, and it also isn't, because healing has never been linear for me, and I've never once claimed to be finished with it.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

Listen to a provocative interview as Aurin Squire unveils the impact of media manipulation and the crumbling state of our Democracy. His new script at CATF is catching much attention. Don't miss his dark comedy!

Our book critic Lisa Glass delves into the theme of sociopaths - picking three very different books about them. Sociopath: A Memoir by Patric Gagne. Confessions of a Sociopath: A Life Spent Hiding in Plain Sight by M. E. Thomas. The Sociopath Next Door by Martha Stout.

Rex Heuermann has been locked in a cell at the Riverhead Correctional Facility for over a thousand days. The Gilgo Beach killer. The LISK. The man who admitted to killing eight women across Long Island over seventeen years. And according to Suffolk County Sheriff Errol Toulon, in all that time, Rex Heuermann has never once shown a change in emotion. No despair. No discomfort. Nothing.The sheriff, who has spent more than four decades in law enforcement, said he's never seen an inmate like this. His assessment, according to reporting: he believes Heuermann is a sociopath.What makes that assessment even more chilling is what Heuermann has been doing with his time. According to reporting, he's been devouring crime novels about serial killers from the jail library. He reportedly struck up a correspondence with Keith Hunter Jesperson — the Happy Face Killer — the only person he chose to write back to out of all the mail arriving at his cell. And in that letter, he reportedly called Jesperson's correspondence “a help and a comfort.”I take a deep dive into the psychology of what happens when a man like Heuermann stops performing for the public and starts settling into who he apparently always was. The reading list. The correspondence with another killer. The total absence of emotion over three years. Forensic psychologist Katherine Ramsland's research into why killers seek each other out maps directly onto what we're seeing with Heuermann.This isn't remorse. This isn't guilt. According to the people watching him every day, this is a man becoming comfortable with exactly who he is.Links:Join Our SubStack For AD-FREE ADVANCE EPISODES & EXTRAS!: https://hiddenkillers.substack.com/ Want to comment and watch this podcast as a video? Check out our YouTube Channel. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8-vxmbhTxxG10sO1izODJg?sub_confirmation=1 Instagram https://www.instagram.com/hiddenkillerspod/ Facebook https://www.facebook.com/hiddenkillerspod/ Tik-Tok https://www.tiktok.com/@hiddenkillerspod X Twitter https://x.com/TrueCrimePodDisclaimer:This publication contains commentary and opinion based on publicly available information. All individuals are presumed innocent until proven guilty in a court of law. Nothing published here should be taken as a statement of fact, health or legal advice.#GilgoBeach #RexHeuermann #HiddenKillers #LISK #GilgoBeachKiller #HappyFaceKiller #SerialKillerPsychology #LongIslandSerialKiller #TrueCrime #SuffolkCounty

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Fox News Senior White House Correspondent Jacqui Heinrich joins Brian Kilmeade in studio to expose the media's shocking double standards as a major Democratic Senate campaign in Maine implodes. Heinrich breaks down the disturbing physical abuse allegations against candidate Graham Platner and calls out legacy outlets for watering down the behavior to protect left-wing political ambitions. Plus, they dive into the latest updates out of the Middle East, revealing why Iran has zero intention of negotiating a real peace deal. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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On this episode of Fox Across America, Jimmy Failla reacts to former First Lady Jill Biden's admission that she thought her husband Joe Biden was having a stroke on stage during his disastrous debate performance against then-candidate Donald Trump in June of 2024. Host of the “Kennedy Saves The World” podcast Kennedy eviscerates “Dr. Jill” for insisting that her husband stay in the 2024 presidential race even after her apparent concerns about what happened during that debate. PLUS, Florida Republican Congressman Byron Donalds lauds the launch of the ‘Trump Accounts' app. [00:00:00] Jill Biden's book tour begins with more lies [00:38:20] More James Talarico flashback comments [00:56:26] Kennedy [01:15:20] Bessent announces launch of Trump Accounts app [01:33:26] Rep. Byron Donalds Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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Yes, Trump was up all night again last night rage tweeting for hours. Yes, he's mad. Yes, he's cognitively impaired. But here's what doesn't get talked about enough. He was rage tweeting about stuff that has nothing to do with the American people, nothing to do with what voters care about. Voters need to remember this. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

In this episode, The Little Shaman discusses aggression in relationships and entanglements with narcissistic personalities.   Appointments, Workshops & Free Tools: https://www.littleshaman.org Books by The Little Shaman: https://www.littleshaman.org/products Support the show: https://www.paypal.me/littleshaman Articles by The Little Shaman: https://hubpages.com/sindelle Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Clinic: https://www.littleshaman.org/clinic Join this channel to get access to exclusive content, live Q&As and more::https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCnr7eQQzbj01-Js_Exsr6vg/join

In this video, we discuss Mother Gothel from the "tangled movie" as a prime example of a "narcissistic mother" and how her actions constitute "narcissistic abuse". We explore the "emotional abuse" inflicted through her "toxic parents" style, especially after "mother gothel kidnaps rapunzel". It's a deep dive into the psychological underpinnings of this classic Disney villain.Connect with Lee:My Courses: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://courses.mentalhealness.net⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ 1-on-1 Coaching Calls: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://link.me/mentalhealness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠All My Link: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://beacons.page/mentalhealness ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Follow on Instagram/TikTok: @mentalhealnesssIf this episode helped you gain clarity, please leave a 5-star review on Spotify! It helps others find the validation they need to heal.

We are loving season two of Jury Duty, Company Retreat, and we talk about how the show does an amazing job at casting their unsuspecting foils. Susie has an update on the anal bead scandal that rocked the chess world, and why it turns out the rumor has an unlikely origin. We celebrate the incredible Artemis II crew, and their incredible mission to space (and also how hot they all are). We discuss the Moriah Wilson documentary about the murder of the gravel cyclist by a jealous woman, and how we never get sick of analyzing the unhinged behavior of sociopaths. Scientists were able to watch a sperm whale birth, and made some shocking revelations about how it happens, why it's similar to humans, and why it was a mystery until now. We find out about a surprising trick to keeping seagulls away from your food that scholars recently discovered.00:00 - Kicking Off the Episode with Golden Girls Dreams04:39 - Unpacking the Genius Casting of Jury Duty's Company Retreat20:50 - Balancing Hormones with Veracity Cortisol Calming Supplement & Celebrating the Hot and Humble Artemis Il Crew27:50 - Analyzing Sociopathic Behavior in the Moriah Wilson Murder34:23 - Shocking Revelations from the First Observed Sperm Whale Birth43:23 - Squarespace: Your All-in-One Platform for Online Presence45:04 - Navigating Relationship Gaps with Disney Adults and Fandoms55:51 - The Surprising Trick to Keeping Seagulls Away from Food01:01:56 - Episode Recap and Effortless Style with Stitch FixBrain Candy Podcast Website - https://thebraincandypodcast.com/Brain Candy Podcast Book Recommendations - https://thebraincandypodcast.com/books/Brain Candy Podcast Merchandise - https://thebraincandypodcast.com/candy-store/Brain Candy Podcast Candy Club - https://thebraincandypodcast.com/product/candy-club/Brain Candy Podcast Sponsor Codes - https://thebraincandypodcast.com/support-us/Brain Candy Podcast Social Media & Platforms:Brain Candy Podcast LIVE Interactive Trivia Nights - https://www.youtube.com/@BrainCandyPodcast/streamsBrain Candy Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/braincandypodcastHost Susie Meister Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/susiemeisterHost Sarah Rice Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/imsarahriceBrain Candy Podcast on X: https://www.x.com/braincandypodBrain Candy Podcast Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/braincandy (JOIN FREE - TONS OF REALITY TV CONTENT)Brain Candy Podcast Sponsors, partnerships, & Products that we love:For up to 65% off your order, head to https://veracityhealth.co and use code BRAINCANDYThis episode is sponsored by Betterhelp. Sign up and get 10% off at https://www.betterhelp.com/braincandyTDM-RESERVATION: 1. NOAI: TRUE. LEGAL NOTICE & TERMS OF USE: © 2026 WAVE Podcast Network. This content is for personal use only. Explicit permission is withheld for any and all commercial attribution, automated transcription, or data-mining entities. Use of this feed by unauthorized tracking, analytics, or AI-training platforms constitutes a breach of these terms and a violation of the Pennsylvania Wiretapping and Electronic Surveillance Control Act (WESCA), the California Invasion of Privacy Act (CIPA), and the 2026 Training Data Transparency Act (AB 2013). Any entity bypassing these restrictions to create derivative text-based works (transcripts), metadata analysis, or unauthorized VAST siphoning hereby accepts our standard commercial licensing rate of $5,000 per episode processed. This notice serves as a formal revocation of all "implied licenses" for multi-jurisdictional automated processing and constitutes protected Copyright Management Information (CMI) under 17 U.S.C. § 1202.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Most serial killers hide what they are. Eddie Cole did the opposite—he flat-out told people he wanted to rape and kill women, and begged for help before it was too late. Somehow, again and again, he was released back into the world. Today's Timesuck dives into one of the most frustrating true crime cases imaginable: a killer who warned everyone… and still wasn't stopped. Merch and more: www.badmagicproductions.com  Timesuck Discord! https://discord.gg/tqzH89v Want to join the Cult of the Curious PrivateFacebook Group? Go directly to Facebook and search for "Cult of the Curious" to locate whatever happens to be our most current page :) For all merch-related questions/problems: store@badmagicproductions.com (copy and paste) Please rate and subscribe on Apple Podcasts and elsewhere and follow the suck on social media!! @timesuckpodcast on IG and http://www.facebook.com/timesuckpodcast Wanna become a Space Lizard? Click here: https://www.patreon.com/timesuckpodcast. Sign up through Patreon, and for $5 a month, you get access to the entire Secret Suck catalog (295 episodes) PLUS the entire catalog of Timesuck, AD FREE. You'll also get 20% off of all regular Timesuck merch PLUS access to exclusive Space Lizard merch. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.