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This week, stories about people's connection to their homeland. Chasing an 8pm Bedtime by Rosealee Pearson In our first story, Rosealee shares her exciting life as a dancer touring internationally and the events that lead to her return home. A warning that this story contains some swears and references to struggling with mental health. Story by Rosealee Pearson Bosnia and the Blue Light Disco by Lari Gadza Lari talks about growing up in Darwin and travelling the world, somehow always skirting the one place that had broken her father's heart. This story contains brief references to sex and teenage pregnancy. Story by Lari Gadza These stories were originally performed at SPUN, a live storytelling night held in Darwin. To hear more pieces from SPUN head to spunstories.net   Hometowns across the globe // Hometowns across Australia We head into the All the Best archives to hear sounds and stories from various contributors and their hometowns.  Sound recording for these pieces were by Ange Glindemann, Lee Yee, Selena Shannon, Zacha Rosen, Bec Fary and Allison Chan.  ALL THE BEST LIVE: STRONG STORIES OF THE WEAK - OCT 3RD FBi Radio's All The Best teams up with Word Travels to present a night of vulnerable storytelling in front of a live audience with Strong Stories of the Weak, part of Story Week 2023 – Be Heard. Be Seen. Featuring performances by Dylin Hardcastle, Madhuraa Prakash, Jared Richards, Ruth Melville and more, with live music from Elizabeth Jigalin. Happening on October 3 at East Sydney Community Centre in Darlinghurst. Tickets available from Humanitix: https://events.humanitix.com/strong-stories-of-the-weak-story-week-2023 Use the discount code SWCOMMUNITY for an All The Best discount. All The Best credits: Production Manager: Phoebe Adler-Ryan Editorial Manager: Mell Chun Host: Madhuraa PrakashSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

This week's stories about birds and beetles. These stories will bring you up close and personal with some critters and creatures. The Retirement You probably think you're too good for beetles. Algernon has lived underground for so long that his body is completely numb. The only part of his body that can sense is the inside of his mouth, through which he experiences all things. His world is texture, flavour, heat, vibration. In confidence, he tells us about his life.  Written and produced by Zoe Le Marinel Sound design by Lana Lusina Voice acting by Peter Lloyd Supervising Producer by Phoebe Adler-Ryan A warning for misophonia as there are sounds like lip smacking in this story, a bit of disturbing imagery and a lot of detailed insect talk. This is an immersive story that comes to life through headphones. So if you have some nearby, we recommend that you plug them in when having a listen. The Nightingale Man When Selena moved from sunny Sydney to the dark depths of Swedish winter, she sometimes asked herself why she decided to migrate, even for only 6 months, to a place where the night never really transitions into day. But her experience and her perspective changed when she followed The Nightingale Man to Berlin... Produced by Selena Shannon Thanks to Zacha Rosen and Bec Fary for their feedback. All The Best credits: Production Manager: Phoebe Adler-Ryan Editorial Manager: Mell Chun Host: Madhuraa PrakashSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Pill Pop hosts Izzie Austin and Silvi Vann-Wall alongside Jane Rosengrave, Lucy Carpenter and Carly Findlay. ‘This book will change history. It's the first of its kind in Australia. And I hope it won't be the last. We deserve better representation in literature.'Edited by writer, speaker and appearance activist Carly Findlay, Growing Up Disabled in Australia captures the complexity and nuance of life with disability, reflected by its diverse range of more than 40 contributors. The landmark anthology offers disabled people of all backgrounds and life experiences a chance to see themselves reflected on the page, in a world that should – but often doesn't – accommodate impairment as an expected aspect of human diversity.In this live Pill Pop event, recorded at the Wheeler Centre, hosts Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin were joined by Growing Up Disabled in Australia editor Carly Findlay and contributors Lucy Carpenter and Jane Rosengrave to discuss the anthology and the experiences explored within. Content warning: this episode includes discussions of physical and mental illness. Further reading Growing Up Disabled in Australia, edited by Carly Findlay. A rich collection of writing from those negotiating disability in their lives – a group whose voices are not heard often enough. Contributors include senator Jordon Steele-John, paralympian Isis Holt, Dion Beasley, Sam Drummond, Astrid Edwards, Sarah Firth, El Gibbs, Eliza Hull, Gayle Kennedy, Carly-Jay Metcalfe, Fiona Murphy, Jessica Walton and many more.  Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your own love stories while chronically ill at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin, this episode celebrates the release of Growing Up Disabled in Australia.This podcast was recorded live at the Wheeler Centre on 15 April 2021. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Jon Tjhia, Beth Atkinson-Quinton and Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Will we see different 'after dark' scenes once the COVID-19 pandemic subsides and how can we need to plan for them? Cities After Dark was created during various states of lockdown due to the pandemic and tonight, with an array of night studies experts, we explore how the COVID-19 crisis has impacted the night-time economies of cities around the world and how Global Nighttime Recovery Plan can help.This is the final episode of Cities After Dark. It is co-hosted by Shelby Bassett and Andreina Seijas with input from Alessio Kolioulis, Chrystel Oloukoi, Diana Reisailis, James Farrer, Michael Fichman, Robert Shaw, Su-Jan Yeo, and Will Straw.The series is produced by Kate Murray with sound design by Bec Fary and brought to you by Connected Cities at the University of Melbourne. Find us on Twitter at @networkedcities and join the conversation using #CitiesAfterDark

What is the city like when you work at night? Who watches the kids without child care, who makes your start-of-shift coffee when all the cafes are closed, how do you commute? Tonight we explore night shift work and how cities can be better at serving a 24-hour economy.This is the third episode of our six-part series, where our co-hosts Shelby Bassett and Michele Acuto talk with Julius-Cezar MacQuarie, Su-Jan Yeo, Emilia Smeds and Jenny McArthur. It is produced by Kate Murray, with sound design by Bec Fary, and includes Little India, Singapore sounds downloaded from Zapsplat.comBrought to you by Connected Cities at the University of Melbourne. Find us on Twitter at @networkedcities and join the conversation using #CitiesAfterDark

Love, sex and gender can be just about the most complicated parts of having a body. Add chronic illness into the mix and you’ve got a potential recipe for awkward dates, bedroom compromises and self-loathing ... OR NOT! As Erin Kyan explains, chronic illness can be a gateway to completely unique, unforgettable experiences, and relationships that go the extra mile in terms of communication and intimacy. Sometimes, knowing the limits of your body also means seeing its possibilities. In the season finale of Pill Pop, hosts Silvi and Izzie receive a mystery tape, plus audio producer and disabled performer Erin Kyan talks love, sex, gender and accessibility. We don’t recall Dolly Doctor ever answering a dilemma about chronically ill love and sex, but if they did, it would probably be something like this! Content warning: this episode includes discussions of physical and mental illness, transphobia, hospitals and medical trauma. Further reading Erin Kyan's website Erin Kyan's Fibromyalgia tweet: ‘just saw a picture that said "fight like a girl; fibromyalgia awareness" and while this isn't the first time I've been misgendered by my condition, it sure is the weirdest. (ffs people "fibro more commanly affects women" is not the same statement as "fibro only affects women")’, published 25 November, 2019 Passer Vulpes Productions Quippings: Disability Unleashed Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your own love stories while chronically ill at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com.  In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Podcast producer at Passer Vulpes Productions and Quippings performer Erin Kyan is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne and Silvi and Izzie's respective home offices. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Jon Tjhia, Beth Atkinson-Quinton and Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from freesound.org Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

If you live with an illness for long enough, you become something of an expert in it – at the very least, in how it affects your body. Sometimes, though, doctors don’t take your expertise seriously. They’re the experts, after all, and they’re used to having the power in these interactions. This is why it's important to learn how to advocate for yourself or find someone to advocate for you. In this episode of Pill Pop, hosts Silvi and Izzie speak with physiotherapist, PhD candidate, and health communication researcher, Louisa Walsh. They speak about her experience advocating for herself and others as a person with Cystic Fibrosis and a double lung transplant recipient.  Content warning: this episode includes discussions of physical and mental illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Further reading Using Social Media to Facilitate Consumer Engagement in Health Service Improvement, Louisa Walsh's PhD research, La Trobe University  Impure Science: AIDS, Activism, and the Politics of Knowledge by Steven Epstein, published 1996, University of California Press Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your own health advocacy stories at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com.  In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. PhD Candidate, physiotherapist, and lecturer Louisa Walsh is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne and Silvi and Izzie's respective home offices. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap and Klankbeeld. Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Photo of Kaitlyn Blythe Did you know that Halle Berry is diabetic? Izzie's dad once told them that and they've never fact-checked it. They think he meant it to be encouraging, like, 'Hey, you’ll be okay, see? Catwoman has diabetes,' but unfortunately that movie was terrible. In this episode of Pill Pop, hosts Silvi and Izzie speak with writer and performer Kaitlyn Blythe about media representation of chronically ill people. They’ll give you the good, the bad, and the Jeremy Renner in what was easily the hardest time they’ve had staying on topic in an interview. Kaitlyn Blythe is a writer and performer living in Naarm (Melbourne) and dealing with encephalomyelitis, also known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. She also has a podcast, Just A Spoonful (currently on hiatus), where she talks to other chronically ill folks, and is working on her first book, a collection of essays about life with a disability. Content warning: this episode includes discussions of physical and mental illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Further reading An Inconvenience by Kaitlyn Plyley, Seizure, published 19 January 2017 The ‘feminist’ advice that is actually holding women back by Kaitlyn Plyley, Sydney Morning Herald, published 3 January 3 2017 A Deep Dive Into The Latest (And Completely Bonkers) Taylor Swift Fan Theories by Kaitlyn Plyley, Junkee, published 28 February 2019 Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your non-compliant body stories at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com.  In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Writer and perfromer Kaitlyn Blythe, formerly Kaitlyn Plyley, is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne and Silvi and Izzie's respective home offices. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap and Klankbeeld. Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Sadly, Lara Irvine passed away before this episode was released. The interview is being released in accordance with her family's wishes and to honour Lara's memory. Lara Irvine and her dog So you’ve got your diagnosis down pat, you’ve found a doctor – or team of doctors – who have helped get your illness under control, and you’ve worked out you’re too sick to work (in the traditional sense). Now’s the time to apply for government assistance, and that’s an easy process that’s not dehumanising, right? Of course not! That would be a much shorter interview! Many disabled and chronically ill people find themselves having to become experts in navigating the bureaucracy of government support just to get the help they need to survive. In this episode of Pill Pop, hosts Silvi and Izzie interview one such person: Lara Irvine. Lara Irvine was a writer from Ballarat who dealt with a number of chronic conditions including scleroderma, which almost completely shut down her digestive system. In this episode, hosts Silvi and Izzie spoke with her about her experience trying to prove to the NDIS that she qualified for the support she needed.Content warning: this episode includes discussions of severe illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Please note: In this episode, the following acronyms are used: NDIS – National Disability Insurance Scheme; DSP – Disability Support Pension. Further reading 'People are worse off': NDIS funding gaps leave many without care in Victoria by Dominic Cansdale and Kirsten Diprose, ABC Ballarat, published on 26 October 2017  Drastic pre-wedding diets. Would you do this? by Lara Irvine, Mamamia, published on 20 April 2012 Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your stories of navigating government support systems at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com.  In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Writer Lara Irvine is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne and Silvi and Izzie's respective home offices. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet', 'Thought Bubbles' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from freesound.org. Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Hayden Moon — Photo: supplied Whether you’re negotiating a medical certificate for time off work, or you're back in the clinic every fortnight because this latest medication works a bit better than the last but you’re wondering if the dry mouth is worth it – you’ve been to a doctor. Maybe it’s been fine, maybe it’s been … less than fine. And if you're not a white, cis-het able-bodied person with no history of mental illness, your experiences of the medical system could range from being excellent to being very bad indeed. In this episode of Pill Pop, hosts Silvi and Izzie interview Hayden Moon about navigating the medical system as a chronically ill Brotherboy – and about the best and the worst they’ve seen in the medical system. 'They've gone to the doctor for a cold, or because they've hurt their wrist – and the doctor asked them, "What's it like … being a lesbian?"' Hayden Moon Hayden Moon (he/they) is a Wiradjuri Brotherboy, PhD candidate, Pinnacle scholar and competitive Irish dancer. He has worked with the Trans and Gender Diverse Community Advisory Group (ACON), TransHub and Trans Action Warrang to ensure young trans and gender diverse people have the tools they need to navigate their transition and beyond. Content warning: this episode includes discussions of transphobia, racism, severe physical and mental illness, hospitals, and medical trauma. Further reading ACON TransHub Trans Action Warrang Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your best and/or worst doctor stories at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. PhD candidate, trans activist and Wiradjuri Brotherboy Hayden Moon is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne and Silvi and Izzie's respective home offices. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet', 'Thought Bubbles' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere; Night In Venice by Kevin MacLeod under the Attribution 4.0 International (CC BY 4.0) license. Sound effects sourced from freesound.org. Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Jacinta Parsons Stop us if you’ve heard this one: a chronically ill person walks into work after an extended flare-up. Their coworker asks, grinning, ‘Where have you been?’, to which they reply: ‘I’ve been at home in bed’. The coworker’s eyes grow wide and the grin gets bigger. ‘Oooh!’ they exclaim, ‘I’d just love some time off!’ Jacinta Parsons is a broadcaster, radio maker, writer and public speaker who currently hosts the Afternoons programme on ABC Local Radio Melbourne. In this episode of Pill Pop, she talks to hosts Izzie and Silvi about what it’s like to be working while chronically ill. Jacinta is an ambassador for the Crohn’s and Colitis Association, and speaks and writes about the impact of living with chronic illness. She has also been an active member of the arts and music community, and is a board member for Melbourne disability theatre company, Rollercoaster. She has written a book, Unseen – on living with invisible chronic illness – that will be published in September 2020. Content warning: this episode includes discussions of severe physical and mental illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Further reading Jacinta Parsons at ABC Radio ‘Illness can morph you without your consent’ by Jacinta Parsons, Sydney Morning Herald, accessed 15 July 2020 Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your stories of working while chronically ill at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Radio maker, writer and Crohn’s ambassador Jacinta Parsons is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from freesound.org. Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Alex McFadden Okay, your life is different now – you’ve accepted that. But the question remains: who do I complain to? Do you take this to Twitter? Talk to your family? Say 'fibromyalgia' really loud in a public place, and see who turns around? Alex McFadden is a writer and performer living with fibromyalgia. We had a chat with them about support networks: where to find them, how to make them, and how to support (and how not to support) your chronically ill friends. Content warning: this episode includes discussions of severe physical and mental illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Further reading Alex McFadden's blog Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners! Tweet us your stories of chronic illness support at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Writer and performer Alex McFadden is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap. Transcript A transcript of this episode will be available soon.

Ferris Knight So, your chronic illness has been (correctly) diagnosed. You’ve memorised your mile-long prescription list. But, you’ve started to notice something – everything around you is exactly the same. There’s no extra seat on the tram for young-people-who-are-sick-but-don’t-actually-look-it. And no amount of smiling is turning the stairs at your job into a ramp. How do you go about asking for the help you need? Ferris Knight is a writer, producer and performer living with chronic illness and disabilities – bipolar 1 and hypertensive peristalsis, to name but two. She’s had more than a few run-ins with frustrating social barriers, and has gone to great – and painful – lengths to show everyone else just what it’s like to live in her body. Even so, she finds herself tempted to deny that anything is wrong. Asking for help can feel weirdly humiliating … but, as we’ll discover, it’s an absolute imperative to living with chronic illness. Content warning: this episode includes discussions of severe physical and mental illness, hospitals and medical trauma. Further reading 'My Bipolar Story' by Ferris Knight, Ramona, published 6 August 2018 Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners. Tweet us your stories of denial at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Writer, producer and performer Ferris Knight is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap. Transcript A PDF transcript of this episode will be available later this week.

Charlie Park Ah, medication – can't live without it, can't … well, that's pretty much the extent of it. In this episode of Pill Pop, blogger and disability advocate Charlie Park talks to Silvi and Izzie about the trials and tribulations of meds. What do you say to people if your medication drawer resembles the backroom of a well-stocked pharmacy? How do you cope if even one slip up with a pill threatens your life? And why can't you eat during yoga class? Content warning: Discussions of severe illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Sensory warning: Screaming sound effects have been used. Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners. Tweet us your medication story at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Blogger and disability advocate Charlie Park is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere. Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap. Transcript A PDF transcript of this episode will be available later this week.

Cristina Spizzica Moses supposes his toeses are roses … but does Moses have endometriosis? Who knowses! In this episode of Pill Pop, we’re talking all about diagnoses with improv comedian Cristina Spizzica. We also take a [literal] deep dive into the endo-affected reproductive system. Wait. What does that mean? For many chronically ill people, the diagnostic process is long, finicky and frustrating. From denying your own pain, to not being believed by doctors, getting diagnosed properly is one of the hardest aspects of chronic illness … then, you have to live with it. Forever. ps. Check out this endometriosis vs attractiveness study (yes, it's real!): https://www.physiciansweekly.com/women-with-endometriosis-more-attractive/ Content warning: discussions of severe physical and mental illness, hospitals and medical trauma. Sensory warning: some scenes (halfway through) contain loud crashing, splashing and droning sounds. Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners. Tweet us your diagnosis story at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Improv comedian and marketer Cristina Spizzica is our guest. Recorded at Studio 757, Melbourne. This series is produced in partnership with the Wheeler Centre's Signal Boost programme. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet' and 'More on That Later' by Lee Rosevere; 'Shades of Spring' by Kevin Macleod (CC-BY-4.0). Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap. Transcript A PDF transcript of this episode is available; download it here.

Ambu-Lance Armstrong Izzie has type 1 diabetes. Silvi has ulcerative colitis. Only one of them can drive. And they’re making a podcast. What business do two chronically ill millennials have in touring the country in a beat-up old ambulance? Subscribe to find out  – and join these fully-sick friends as they go on the road to find other chronic illness-havers just like them. Pill Pop is for anyone with a chronic illness who just wishes they had some mates who understood what it’s like … and for everyone else to dip into a world they potentially never knew existed. Content warning: Discussions of severe illness, hospitals, medical trauma. Sensory warning: Some scenes at the beginning contain loud ambulance sirens. Get in touch We want to hear from our listeners. Tweet us your diagnosis story at @PillPopCast, or send us an email at pillpoppodcast@gmail.com. In this episode Hosted, produced and edited by Silvi Vann-Wall and Izzie Austin. Mentorship and production support from Bec Fary. Additional voices by Bec Fary and Ben Volchok. Music: 'Dip Dop' by Barrie Gledden; 'Sad Marimba Planet', 'Where Was I' and 'Vaping in L.A.' by Lee Rosevere; 'Glitter Blast' by Kevin Macleod (CC-BY-4.0). Sound effects sourced from SoundSnap. Transcript Download a transcript of this episode in PDF format.

Aziz in the snow, in Switzerland — Photo: Michael Green 'Hard to imagine. Start your life again. Have your own house, your own family.' – Abdul Aziz Muhamat Incredibly, Aziz is in Switzerland. And he's just won a major international award for human rights defenders.  He's swamped with attention and adoration, briefings and business cards. But he is only allowed to be in Geneva for three short weeks. Then he has to return to Manus Island – back to the dangerous situation he's being celebrated for campaigning against. In this episode, we follow Aziz as he negotiates meetings with diplomats and speeches to the UN. He struggles with an unexpected, oppressive dilemma – should he board a plane back to his brothers on Manus, or seek yet another uncertain path to safety and freedom? Transcript A transcript of this episode is available here (PDF format). Further reading 'Aziz: A Stranger in Geneva', produced by Michael Green for Earshot, ABC Radio National (first broadcast 28 September 2019) 'Flight from Manus' by Michael Green, ABC Radio National, 1 October 2019 In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Peggy Hicks Michael Khambatta Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode was produced by Hour House (Mark Leacy and Sam Kenna), except for 'I am the Changer', by Cotton Jones. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. This episode was originally commissioned and produced for the ABC Radio National programme, Earshot. It was produced by Michael Green. The supervising producer was Lyn Gallacher. The sound engineer was Melissa May. Narration by Michael Green. Additional editing and mixing by Jon Tjhia. Thank you André Dao, Jon Tjhia, Hannah Reich, Bec Fary and Sophie Black. Also Camilla Chapman, Cecilia Cannon and Sean Cole, and Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

  Aziz, in a hotel room facing onto Genève-Cornavin railway station — Photo: Michael Green 'I just feel like I left my soul back there, you know. Personally I'm here, but my heart is still in Manus.' – Abdul Aziz Muhamat Aziz is shortlisted for a major international prize, the Martin Ennals Award for Human Rights Defenders. The ceremony is in Geneva, Switzerland. Improbably, the prize's organisers secretly arrange permission for him to leave Manus Island to attend the event.  In this episode, Aziz finally – temporarily – escapes Papua New Guinea, five and a half years after the Australian government took him there against his will. But he has no proper passport or visa, and no idea what to expect.   After years of exile and captivity, how will it feel to visit Switzerland – one of the richest countries in the world? And can Aziz make any difference for those who remain stuck on Manus Island and Nauru? Transcript A transcript of this episode is available here (PDF format). Further reading 'Aziz: Flight from Manus' by Michael Green, Earshot, ABC Radio National, first broadcast 21 September 2019 The Martin Ennals Award for Human Rights Defenders In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Michael Khambatta Hans Thoolen Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode is by Hour House (Mark Leacy and Sam Kenna). More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. This episode was originally commissioned and produced for the ABC Radio National programme, Earshot. It was produced by Michael Green. The supervising producer was Lyn Gallacher. The sound engineer was Melissa May. Narration by Michael Green. Additional editing and mixing by Jon Tjhia. Thank you André Dao, Jon Tjhia, Hannah Reich, Bec Fary and Sophie Black. Thanks also to Camilla Chapman, Cecilia Cannon and Sean Cole, and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Michael Green's travel to Papua New Guinea was supported by a grant from the Neilma Sidney Literary Travel Fund.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Welcome to B.S Cryptid, a monster-of-the-week audio drama. In ‘Denizens of a Wayside Diner’’ Bea and Sarina stampede through the sleepy North Dakotan town of Bithirds. Listen in and encounter Soft cats, fluffy cats, slimy cats and cats that slither....  Content warnings can be found at the end of the Shownotes CAST Myffy Hocking as Bea Cassowary Art Hunter as Sarina Morgan Xuan Vinh as Malik  Kendra Rhodes as Val CREW Created by: Rowen Midello and Ollie Krusec Audio editing by: Ollie Krusec, Rowen Midello and Joey Lais Logo art by: Emily Torney @tqosaw on Instagram CREDITS Music and some SFX courtesy of Epidemic Sound  Opening song is  Flloyd (instrumental) by Manwomanchild Ringtone is Halloween 8-bit by batmeal Made in conjunction with SYN Media, Creative Victoria and the Community Broadcasting Foundation. With Special Thanks to Lindsey Green and Bec Fary for keeping this ship a float. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Storytelling is ingrained in this land and so, B.S Cryptid acknowledges and pays respect to the traditional owners and elders, past, present and emerging of the land in which we write, record and produce our podcast. The Wurundjeri, Wadawurrung, Bunurong and Yorta-Yorta people of the Kulin nations. B.S Crytpid also acknowledges and pays respect to the traditional owners and elders, past, present and emerging, on the land which our content reaches as well as the radio stations we broadcast from across the country.  B.S Cryptid wishes to acknowledge that the land on which this story is set, America, is occupied land. BS Cryptid: Episode 3 “Denizens of a Wayside Diner”  takes place in a fictional town placed in North Dakota which is the territory of the First Nations people. CW: Animal Death

In both fiction and non-fiction podcasts, the possibilities of world-building through sound are endless. How can you use sound to evoke a fleshed-out sonic universe that your characters can inhabit and change in? And how can you turn organic sounds and landscape into characters themselves? Four expert world-builders – Bec Fary, Chris Magilton, Joseph Michael and Becky Sui Zhen share how they think about sound and space.You can find a transcript here. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

Welcome to B.S Cryptid, a monster-of-the-week audio drama. In ‘Grey Ghost of the Pines’ Bea and Sarina venture into the Pine Barrens of New Jersey. Listen in and encounter almanac publishers, occult mysteries and the quaintest of tea parties. |  Content warnings Can be found at the end of the show notes. Stewart Moyer as Citizen Cryptid Presenter |  Myffy Hocking as  The Chef / Bea Cassowary |  Art Hunter as Sarina Morgan |  Sophia Reinero as Park Ranger 1  (Valentina) |  Josh “Juice” Jones as Diner Server(Sammy)/ Park Ranger 2 (Carl) |  Ben Marshman as Titan Leeds |  Created by: Rowen Midello and Ollie Krusec | Logo art by: Emily Torney @tqosaw on Instagram | Music and some SFX courtesy of Epidemic Sound | Audio editing by: Ollie Krusec, Rowen Midello and Joey Lai.| Made in conjunction with SYN Media and Creative Victoria and The Community Broadcasting Foundation | With Special Thanks to Lindsey Green and Bec Fary for keeping this ship a float. | Acknowledgements: Storytelling is ingrained in this land and so, B.S Cryptid acknowledges and pays respect to the traditional owners and elders, past, present and emerging of the land in which we write, record and produce our podcast. The Wurundjeri, Wadawurrung, Bunurong and Yorta-Yorta people of the Kulin nations. B.S Crytpid also acknowledges and pays respect to the traditional owners and elders, past, present and emerging, on the land which our content reaches as well as the radio stations we broadcast from across the country. |  B.S Cryptid wishes to acknowledge that the land on which this story is set, America, is occupied land. BS Cryptid: Episode 2: Grey Ghost of the Pines takes place in The Pine Barrens, New Jersey which is the territory of the First Nations people. |  CW: NONE

Welcome to B.S Cryptid, a monster-of-the-week audio drama. In ‘The Uncommon Walkingstick’ Bea and Sarina kick off their adventure on Roanoke Island, North Carolina. Listen in and encounter prickly park rangers, shifting trees and an unfortunate amount of mud. Content Warnings for this episode are at the end of the show notes. Myffy Hocking as Bea Cassowary Art Hunter as Sarina Morgan Eddi Cozens as Aquarium Ranger Emma Stewart as Mary Created by: Rowen Midello and Ollie Krusec Logo art by: Emily Torney @tqosaw on Instagram Opening Song: Roadtrip by Checkie Brown Made in conjunction with SYN Media and Creative Victoria With Special Thanks to Lindsey Green and Bec Fary for keeping this ship afloat. Acknowledgements: Storytelling is ingrained in this land and so, B.S Cryptid acknowledges and pays respect to the traditional owners and elders, past, present and emerging of the land in which we write, record and produce our podcast. The Wurundjeri, Wadawurrung, Bunurong and Yorta-Yorta people of the Kulin nations. B.S Crytpid also acknowledges and pays respect to the traditional owners and elders, past, present and emerging, on the land which our content reaches as well as the radio stations we broadcast from across the country.  B.S Cryptid wishes to acknowledge that the land on which this story is set, America, is occupied land. BS Cryptid: The Uncommon Walking Stick takes place on Roanoke Island North Carolina which is the territory of the First Nations people Music and some SFX courtesy of Epidemic Sound  CW: Animal Death

Featuring stories written and read by Pip Smith, Rachel Ang, Sophia Melika, Victoria Manifold, Zacha Rosen, Pat Grant, and Caramel Sauce Mel.   Links missing in your podcast app? Visit http://fbiradio.com/oritdidnthappen#lovers RED CRAB — PIP SMITH Pip Smith’s latest book is Half Wild. Find more of her work at pipsmith.net Red Crab came out of the sidelines of writing a book about the more serious side of things on Christmas Island. It was read at Cuplet, a regular poetry night in Newcastle. Their next event is on July 11th. Follow them on Facebook for more details. GHOST GIRLFRIEND — RACHEL ANG Rachel Ang is a comics artist from Melbourne, and co-editor of the excellent Comic Sans anthology. Ghost Girlfriend was originally published in parts, as an instagram comic: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, and 11. The radio version ran slightly ahead of the drawn version, follow Rachel on Instagram for the rest. More of Rachel’s work is at drawbyfour.com Ghost Girlfriend was recorded by Bec Fary, whose Sleeptalker is very much worth checking out. Thanks also to Jordan Fennell. Songs from Ghost Girlfriend: Sola Gratia — SQÜRL (Only Lovers Left Alive soundtrack) Shrine and Dash — Michael Giacchino (Coco soundtrack) FISHBOY — SOPHIA MELIKA Sophia Melika is a storyboard artist, illustrator, animator, and a formidable weeder out of the weak. Find more of her work at sophiamelika.com and on Instagram. Fishboy was originally read at Read to Me, a comics reading night in Sydney. The next Read to Me is on July 2nd. Details on Facebook. SPINE — VICTORIA MANIFOLD Victoria Manifold is a Sydney-based author of many things, and you can follow her work via Instagram. Spine was originally published in her zine collection of short stories Tired Bodies. Songs from Spine: In the Cold, Cold Night — The White Stripes 12 PARTIES WITHOUT YOU — ZACHA ROSEN; READ BY PAT GRANT 12 Parties Without You was read by Pat Grant, a writer and cartoonist. His latest book is The Grot, in collaboration with Fionn McCabe, which you can browse, read online, or buy here. Music in this story was by David Goldschmidt. It was written by Zacha Rosen. 12 Parties was originally recorded by Jess O’Callahan, and read by Bethany Atkinson Quinton for All the Best. Her reading is also unbelievably good. You can listen to it here. Thanks also to Heidi Pett. WAITING FOR LOVE — CARAMEL SAUCE MEL Caramel Sauce Mel is a Sydney-based artist with no small hand in one of the local spoken word scenes. Find more via Instagram or, often, at Word in Hand events.  Episode art by Rachel Ang. Show art by Annie Hamilton.    

  The men demonstrate their improvised well — Photo: Michael Green ‘Twenty four days we lived as a nation … The only way I can describe [it] is that we were a nation.' – Abdul Aziz Muhamat The detention centre on Manus Island might be closed, but Aziz – and the vast majority of the men who were held there – remain on the island, living in three different centres. By early 2019, Aziz is well into his sixth year, waiting. In that time, he's felt free for only a few weeks – those few weeks when the immigration detention system disintegrated around him. In this episode, The Messenger returns to late 2017, and the crucial period when Australia shut down the Manus Regional Processing Centre and the men refused to leave. We take you inside the centre as the standoff unfolds. There are no guards, no caseworkers, no immigration officials – and no food, water, medicine or electricity. Aziz and his friends are in charge. How did they survive? And why did they stay? Transcript A transcript of this episode is coming soon. Further reading • 'No Exit: The ongoing abuses of Australia's refugee policy' by Michael Green, Harper's Magazine, July 2018 In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Behrouz Boochani Benham Satah Poli Boas Clarence Parisau Michael Kuweh Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes 'Unrest' by Adrian Klumpes, 'La Mer' by Pivot, 'Southeast of Boston' by June of 44, 'Out with the Cold' by Kaffe Matthews, 'Rhodes Viola Multiple' by Keith Fullerton Whitman, '1.3'by Piano Magic, 'Passages' by Bowery Electric, 'Shine' by Klara Lewis and 'Iberia Eteria' by Biosphere. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Transcription by Claire McGregor, Carolyn Turner, Tiarne Cook, Julia Earley and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Michael Green and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville, Camilla Chapman and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Michael Green's travel to Papua New Guinea was supported by a grant from the Neilma Sidney Literary Travel Fund.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Come with us into the forest for a magical night to search for one of Victoria’s most elusive creatures.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. This is the final episode of this season of Fauna. For past episodes, music credits and more information about the stories we’ve covered, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Come with us into the forest for a magical night to search for one of Victoria’s most elusive creatures.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. This is the final episode of this season of Fauna. For past episodes, music credits and more information about the stories we’ve covered, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

In 2009, Rupert travelled to Christmas Island to help a species teetering on the brink of extinction. Zoos Victoria has never been the same since.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

In 2009, Rupert travelled to Christmas Island to help a species teetering on the brink of extinction. Zoos Victoria has never been the same since.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Find out about the zoo VIPs, including one Very Important Parrot.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Find out about the zoo VIPs, including one Very Important Parrot.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

At first, the Faux family thought they’d found a quail. But they quickly realised they had something far more precious on their hands.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

At first, the Faux family thought they’d found a quail. But they quickly realised they had something far more precious on their hands.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Healesville Sanctuary is home to some of Victoria’s most critically endangered animals. So what happens when catastrophe looms?Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Healesville Sanctuary is home to some of Victoria’s most critically endangered animals. So what happens when catastrophe looms?Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Melbourne Zoo keepers are often the first on the scene when marine wildlife is in trouble. Be it an entangled seal or an injured penguin, their work ends suffering and saves lives. Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

Melbourne Zoo keepers are often the first on the scene when marine wildlife is in trouble. Be it an entangled seal or an injured penguin, their work ends suffering and saves lives. Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

When it comes to intelligence, animals aren’t always given the credit they deserve. But give them a chance, and they might just surprise you.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

When it comes to intelligence, animals aren’t always given the credit they deserve. But give them a chance, and they might just surprise you.Fauna is produced by Bridie Smith and Bec Fary for Zoos Victoria. Hosted by Annie Last. For music credits and more information, visit zoo.org.au/fauna.

In Episode 6, Drew Pettifer speaks to artist William Yang, the Hon Michael Kirby and academic Paul Sendziuk about queer rights, the AIDS pandemic and representation. William Yang is a prolific storyteller. His photographs and monologues with slide projections describe his experience of coming to terms with his identity as a gay Chinese Australian. Yang’s work is a rich visual record of queer histories and struggles, as well as a personal exploration of his Chinese heritage and family relationships. Often inscribed with handwritten commentary, his visual stories offer insightful reflections on cultural identity. FIELD WORK is produced by Channon Goodwin, Drew Pettifer, and supported by Bus Projects with funding from Copyright Agency Cultural Fund. Audio production, editing and mixing by Bec Fary. FIELD WORK theme music is by Martin King and graphic design is by Lachlan Siu.

In Episode 4, Drew Pettifer speaks to artist Eugenia Lim, academic Carolyn D’Cruz and curator Paola Balla about the complexities of intersectional feminism. Eugenia Lim works across video, performance and installation. She is interested in how nationalism and stereotypes are formed, inventing personas to explore the tensions between alienation and belonging in a globalised world. Listen now: bit.ly/fieldwork_eugenialim More info: http://fieldworkpodcast.com.au/ Subscribe via Apple Podcasts and Stitcher. FIELD WORK is produced by Channon Goodwin, Drew Pettifer, and supported by Bus Projects with funding from Copyright Agency Cultural Fund. Audio production, editing and mixing by Bec Fary. FIELD WORK theme music is by Martin King and graphic design is by Lachlan Siu.

It's raining on Michael's last afternoon on Manus Island, and Aziz drops by to catch up. They discuss where things are at with Aziz and the other men, and what he expects will happen next. Then, it's time to say farewell. This episode will be the last of our short updates – but we'll return soon with another full episode, unpacking what Michael found when he visited Manus Island. 'If I can predict, the only thing that's gonna happen is we will be just forgotten in this island.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Abdul Aziz Muhamat in Lorengau, Manus Island — Photo: Michael Green In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes 'Please Gamelan Again' by Colleen, and 'Everybody Wants to Rule the World' by Tomoki Kanda. Further reading 'Second cohort of Nauru and Manus refugees to be resettled in US', by Ben Doherty, Guardian Australia, accessed 16 December 2017 'A Letter from Manus Island', by Behrouz Boochani, Saturday Paper, accessed 10 December 2017 More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

‘I'm safe and I'm alive.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat An eventful week has passed. After PNG immigration officials and police entered the decommissioned detention centre, destroying food, water and belongings, the 421 men remaining there are forced to relocate to the other facilities on Manus Island. After a brief spell of homelessness, Aziz has found a bed in the East Lorengau transit centre. In a chance meeting with Michael, he explains how he's adjusting to the new situation – and trying to regain his energy to continue working. A mess remains after PNG immigration officials raid and ransack the camp — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes 'Shine' by Klara Lewis. Additional audio recordings have been sourced from smartphone videos of the eviction and relocation. Further reading 'Manus Island: PNG authorities say they have cleared detention centre, all men bused out', by Liam Fox and Louise Yaxley, ABC News, accessed 28 November 2017 'Manus police pulled my hair and beat me. "You've damaged our reputation," they said', by Behrouz Boochani, Guardian Australia, accessed 28 November 2017 'Forced Removal', Ten Eyewitness News, accessed 28 November 2017 More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Rain comes. In his voice messages, Aziz sounds unwell – but speaks at length about how, in spite of their living conditions, the men finally feel they have some control over their lives. He tells Michael about how they're cooperating with each other, too – splitting duties like security and the daily cleaning of the compound. 'We don't always want to get the attention of the people about the hardship,' he explains. 'We are just paying the price for our freedom.' 'We are managing our lives. You know, it's been 21 days now, three weeks … it's become normal for us.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Further reading 'The situation is critical': cholera fears on Manus as water and medicine run out', by Ben Doherty, Guardian Australia, accessed 21 November 2017 'Refugees Trapped Far from Home, Farther from Deliverance', by Damien Cave, New York Times, accessed 21 November 2017 More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Seventeen days into the stand-off with authorities, Aziz tells Michael about how men in the detention centre are dealing with the lack of water after tanks and wells were destroyed – as well as the men's medical needs, many arising from the ad hoc water supply. And with New Zealand's resettlement offer in the headlines, he reflects on why Australia has so far refused it. 'The tank is still empty, because it's been like, a few days we haven't had any rain.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Further reading 'NZ refugee offer stands, despite new allegations', by Mei Heron, Radio NZ, accessed 17 November 2017 'Decay, despair, defiance: inside the Manus Island refugee camp', by Ben Doherty, Guardian Australia, accessed 17 November 2017 'What Is Happening on Manus Island? The Detainee Crisis Explained', by Russell Goldman and Damien Cave, New York Times, accessed 17 November 2017 More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Aziz reports that Papua New Guinean immigration officials have been entering the detention centre to destroy tanks and wells. Meanwhile, the men remaining in the camp have tried to avoid provocation and confrontation. Daily protests have moved to a cooler time of day to account for their lack of water and shade. Aziz says things are quiet in the camp, and spirits are generally positive. Michael arrives on Manus Island. 'Food and water, electricity … this is not our main concern. Our main concern is we just want to get out of this island, and to a safe country.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat A water tank damaged by immigration officials leaks water onto the ground. The centre has now been without a mains water supply for two weeks — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Additional audio sourced from video footage recorded inside the centre. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Hundreds of men remain in the decommissioned detention centre – refusing to be relocated to camps which many (including the UN's refugee agency) have said are unfinished or unsafe. Papua New Guinean immigration officers have removed fences, shade and clotheslines from the camp. Rubbish bins storing rain and well water have been tipped out, and makeshift wells destroyed. In this update, comprised of Aziz's weary and infrequent messages, he describes the increasingly strained situation. 'They were trying to push people – and swearing, abusing.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat The men sit in protest beside the denuded fence posts of the (now former) Manus Island Regional Processing Centre — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Further reading 'Horrific footage from within Manus Island Detention Centre shows squalid conditions', by Jennifer Sexton, Daily Telegraph, accessed 10 November 2017 'Smuggled footage shows horrific conditions in Manus detention centre – video', Guardian Australia, accessed 10 November 2017 'Photos cast doubt on new Manus housing', Australian, by Rory Callinan, Australian, accessed 8 November 2017 More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Chrissy was having trouble remembering who she was when she woke up. First she thought it was early-onset dementia, then she thought it was schizophrenia. She had recurring hallucinations about being stalked by a beast that would talk to her while she slept. Content note: language A doctor eventually told her she was waking up frequently throughout the night, some 30+ times per hour. It was this inability to maintain a regular sleep cycle that helped her get a diagnosis of narcolepsy, explaining Chrissy's excessive sleepiness, hallucinations, sleep paralysis, and sometimes episodes of cataplexy (sudden loss of muscle control after having a strong emotional response).Chrissy's diagnoses frightened her. She tried to pretend it wasn't true. This attitude drastically changed one day when she woke up in traffic, driving 100kph with her kids in the back seat. She finally accepted her illness, recognized it as a beast, and looked for ways to feed it that wouldn't affect her children. She says that's the only way it's won—if it gets her kids. This episode was produced by Bec Fary. Bec is a freelance audio producer and creator of the podcast Sleep Talker. Bec's show is about sleep, dreams, and nightmares, and she's covered narcolepsy before. That's how Chrissy got in touch with Bec to share her story. If you have a story you want to share with us, get in touch.This episode was edited by Bethany Denton and Jeff Emtman. Our editor at KCRW is Nick White.Music: Phantom Fauna, The Black Spot

Chrissy was having trouble remembering who she was when she woke up.  First she thought it was early-onset dementia, then she thought it was schizophrenia.  She had recurring hallucinations about being stalked by a beast that would talk to her while she slept.  Content note: language A doctor eventually told her she was waking up frequently throughout the night, some 30+ times per hour.  It was this inability to maintain a regular sleep cycle that helped her get a diagnosis of narcolepsy, explaining Chrissy’s excessive sleepiness, hallucinations, sleep paralysis, and sometimes episodes of cataplexy (sudden loss of muscle control after having a strong emotional response).Chrissy’s diagnoses frightened her. She tried to pretend it wasn’t true. This attitude drastically changed one day when she woke up in traffic, driving 100kph with her kids in the back seat.  She finally accepted her illness, recognized it as a beast, and looked for ways to feed it that wouldn’t affect her children.  She says that’s the only way it’s won—if it gets her kids.  This episode was produced by Bec Fary. Bec is a freelance audio producer and creator of the podcast Sleep Talker. Bec’s show is about sleep, dreams, and nightmares, and she’s covered narcolepsy before. That’s how Chrissy got in touch with Bec to share her story. If you have a story you want to share with us, get in touch.This episode was edited by Bethany Denton and Jeff Emtman. Our editor at KCRW is Nick White.Music: Phantom Fauna, The Black Spot

After Papua New Guinea's Supreme Court rejects an appeal to restore power, water and food to the decommissioned detention centre, Aziz says the men never held much hope for a positive outcome in the first place. When Michael expresses concern about the ever-escalating situation, Aziz vents his mistrust of the courts and politicians, and defends the men's decision to stay. 'I truly believe that each and every of these men … made his own choice to stay.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Aziz, protesting — Photo: Supplied In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

As the detainees' isolation intensifies, Aziz tells Michael about the burden of his responsibilities – and his hope of some negotiation to end the stand-off. Like many of the other men, Aziz has tried to shield his family from knowing about his predicament. But with reports about the centre emerging in international media, he is compelled to lie his brother, who's recognised him in a photo. 'We are just waiting to hear from them.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Barricaded inside the detention centre, men collect firewood — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Three days after the official closure of the detention centre, several hundred detainees remain barricaded inside the gates without water, power or food supplied. Aziz describes the scene, and explains some of the ways the men are getting by. 'It's really hard to get water from outside, so we dug a well.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Without water and power, detainees at Manus Island Regional Processing Centre shower in the rain — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Crafting audio content takes time, and we all have to start somewhere. Learn from Australian audio producers as they put their past tape to the test. Bec Fary reflected on a clip from episode 1 of SleepTalker - When You Talk About Your Dreams. Listen to the rest here: http://sleeptalkerpodcast.com/1-when-you-talk-about-your-dreams/ Bec Fary is the creator of SleepTalker, the podcast about sleep, dreams, nightmares and what happens in your head after dark. She's also a freelance audio producer and is currently doing her Masters in Design. Listen to more of her work from SleepTalker here: http://sleeptalkerpodcast.com/ Evana Ho reflected on a clip from Episode Four - Divorce, of the Love, Canberra podcast. Listen to the rest here: http://www.lovecanberrapodcast.com/podcast/2016/3/28/episode-four-divorce Evana Ho is the host and creator of Love, Canberra: intimate conversations about love, sex and relationships from the heart of the nation. She is also the co-organiser of the Canberra Podcasting group. Listen to more of her work on here: http://www.lovecanberrapodcast.com/ Jon Tjhia reflected on a clip from The Drowning Man, a piece he made for Paper Radio in collaboration with Chris Somerville. Listen to the full piece here: http://www.paperradio.net/fm/the-drowning-man Jon Tjhia produces Paper Radio, a literary fiction and creative non-fiction podcast. He is also the Wheeler Centre's Digital Editor. Listen to more of his work here: http://www.paperradio.net/ Rosa Gollan reflected on a clip from her piece The Discussion, created for ABC RN's PocketDocs. Listen to the rest here: http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/pocketdocs/the-discussion/8103098 Rosa Gollan is a producer for The Music Show on ABC Radio National. She previously worked as part of their Creative Audio Unit. The Discussion recently won an award at the Third Coast/Richard H. Driehaus Competition. Tim Shiel reflected on a clip from Spirit Duel (feat. Luke Howard & Wally de Backer), which he created for the game The Gardens Between. Find out more about the game here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkswxaMg4MU&ab_channel=TheVoxelAgents Tim Shiel is a musician and game composer who has worked on projects like Duet, Induction, and The Gardens Between. He's also a presenter on Double J and Triple J. Kate Montague reflected on a clip from Murder in a small town, a two part documentary series she made for ABC RN's Earshot program. You can listen to the full series here: http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/earshot/murder-in-a-small-town/6849926 Kate Montague makes audio content for podcasts, radio broadcast, online publications and exhibitions. She is also the founder and director of Audiocraft - a community for Australian radiomakers and podcasters. Find out more about Kate's work here: http://katemontague.com/

Mere hours from Australia's deadline to close Manus Island's immigration detention centre, tensions are running high amongst detainees. Why does Aziz seem calm? 'I feel like in 24 hours I will know something exactly, either positive or negative.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Detainees shelter from rain at Manus Island Regional Processing Centre — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

The security guards and other staff are leaving the detention centre. Aziz explains how the detainees are preparing for life without power. Damaged by rough weather, a tree has fallen across the perimeter fencing of Manus Island Regional Processing Centre — Photo: Manus Alert In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Abdul Aziz Muhamat — Photo: Michael Green As the days count down to the end of October – when Australia has promised to close the detention centre on Manus Island – Aziz's short voice messages outline the situation as he understands it, and how he intends to respond. Daily protests continue on Manus Island — Photo: supplied In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

With just ten days left before Australia closes the detention centre on Manus Island, Aziz leaves a few short voice messages, explaining how he is feeling. Abdul Aziz Muhamat — Photo: Michael Green In this update Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. This short update was edited and mixed by Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Aziz — Photo: Michael Green 'This place has become part of me. It runs in my blood.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat After seven long months in Port Moresby recovering from knee surgery, Aziz finally returns to Manus Island. He's overjoyed to be home in the detention centre – seeing his friends and sleeping in his old bed. But just as he returns, the Australian government begins shutting some of the centre's compounds – trying to force refugees to go home, or accept resettlement in Papua New Guinea. Aziz and the other detainees refuse to leave. When the compounds begin to close, hundreds of the men have been assessed for resettlement in America – yet hundreds more, like Aziz, haven't even started the process. This episode brings The Messenger into realtime. The closure of the Manus Island detention centre is expected to be complete by the end of October 2017. What will happen to the men who live there? Transcript A transcript of this episode is coming soon. Further reading • 'Commonwealth agrees to pay Manus Island detainees $70m in class action settlement' by Emma Younger and Loretta Florance, ABC News, accessed 28 September 2017 In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Behrouz Boochani Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes ‘Apt. A (!)' by cLOUDDEAD, ‘Parallelogram' by Electric Birds, ‘First Snow, Last Year' by Andrew Pekler, ‘Map of What is Effortless' by Telefon Tel Aviv, ‘Mdrmx' by Brothomstates, ‘Mascoma' by Trapist, ‘13' by SND, ‘Reeling Then Again' by Lori Scacco, ‘Not Growing Out Of Growing Into' by Rothko, ‘Shine' by Klara Lewis and ‘Up the Box' by Andy Stott. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Carolyn Turner, Eugenia Zoubtchenko and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Abdul Aziz Muhamat and Michael Green on Manus Island — (Photo: Behrouz Boochani) 'Freedom is not free. You have to pay for it. And we pay; now we are paying for our freedoms.' Abdul Aziz Muhamat Just before Christmas of 2016, Aziz is transferred to Port Moresby for knee surgery. With better phone reception, Michael and Aziz share a long phone call in which they reflect on the year that's ending, the holiday season and the months since they met face to face on Manus Island. The change in Aziz's circumstances is only temporary, but it's still a change – and the call feels like a rare break in the clouds. But just two days later – on Christmas Day – Michael hears news that Aziz's friend and fellow Sudanese detainee, Faysal Ishak Ahmed, has died. Transcript Download a transcript of this episode here (Adobe PDF format). In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes ‘Passage' by Oren Ambarchi, ‘We Let the “S” Hang in the Air' by Brokeback, ‘Pulcinella' by Kazumasa Hashimoto, ‘How Now (1968) for Piano' by Philip Glass, ‘Meditation' by Lori Scacco, ‘Waltz for Aidan' by Mogwai, ‘Mandarinerna' by Kim Hiorthøy, ‘Future Light' by Nick Huggins, ‘Non Song' by To Rococo Rot, ‘Momento' by Murcof, ‘Initial Gesture Protraction' by Tortoise, ‘Trace' by Rhythm&Sound, ‘Under the Roof' by Colleen and ‘I Found the End' by Broadcast. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Carolyn Turner, Eugenia Zoubtchenko and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Behrouz and Aziz at Hauwei Island — (Photo: Michael Green) 'I'm excited because … for almost three years I haven't left the centre, and I was just locked inside there … Now, I'm walking on the streets – every two steps I take, I turn and I look behind me, like, "Where is the security guard?"' Abdul Aziz Muhamat It's July 2016. On the morning Michael flies to Manus Island, Aziz leaves the detention centre for the first time in nearly three years. In this episode, Aziz and Michael finally meet in person. Michael also meets some people from Manus Island, who explain how they feel about having the detention centre on their island. Together with Behrouz Boochani, a Kurdish journalist and detainee, Aziz and Michael take a boat to a nearby island to swim, eat together, and escape the shadow of the detention centre. For Aziz, it's an exhilarating time, full of new experiences and unexpected joys – but he knows it will soon come to an end. Featured videos The Messenger, Episode 8: Michael and Aziz discuss their meeting on Manus Island Watch In this short video, Michael and Aziz talk about their meeting in Lorengau – and what comes next for each of them The Messenger, Episode 8: Michael and Aziz on the boat to Hauwei Island.mp4 Watch Michael and Aziz on a boat trip to Hauwei Island, Manus Province, Papua New Guinea Behrouz Boochani's song from Manus prison Watch Behrouz Boochani's song from Manus prison Transcript A transcript of this episode is coming soon. Further reading ‘Welcome to Manus, the island that has been changed forever by Australian asylum-seeker policy' by Jo Chandler, Guardian, 16 December 2014 ‘They Call Me Immigration' by Omar Mohammed Jack, Inside Story, 5 April 2017 (excerpted from They Cannot Take the Sky: Stories from Detention, published by Allen and Unwin) In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Behrouz Boochani Michael Green Benjamin Pokarup Rose Chris Allen Muan Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes ‘Capture the Flag' by Broken Social Scene, ‘Sensuous' by Cornelius, ‘The North Downs Dimension' by Broadcast, ‘Sop' by Monica Brooks, ‘Change' and ‘Humming Song 2' by Aoki Takamasa, Ogurusu Norihide and Takagi Masakatsu, ‘Super Botany' by Stereolab and Marumari, ‘Dust Rising' by Nick Huggins, ‘Kilvo' by Radian, ‘Han Brydde Sig Inte Om Att Stiga Upp, Hela Dagen Lät Han Nya Bilder Och Funderingar Komma Och Gå Som De Ville, Sov Lite Ibland Och Vaknade Igen Och Visste Inte Alls Vem Han Var. Det Var En Fridfull Och Mycket Spännande Dag' by Kim Hiorthøy, ‘Reminds Me of the Sun' by OBX and Sophia, ‘On' by Aphex Twin, ‘Exhale' by Adrian Klumpes and ‘The Last Farewell' by Roger Whittaker. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Carolyn Turner, Tiarne Cook and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Skye Hollingsworth for video editing, and Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

‘I have got energy, so … why can't I just keep in touch with the outside world?' Aziz Photo: Michael Green Even though Aziz is in detention, far away from both his home and from the country whose government is holding him, he's on his phone all day. He's sending messages to Michael, or he's on Facebook with friends and activists, or he's following the latest news in Australia. He's hyperconnected. But his connection to the outside world is complicated and, despite their constant communication, Michael and Aziz never really get to have a regular, real-time conversation. In this episode, Aziz observes his third Ramadan inside detention. Fasting during the day, he sends Michael messages late into the night. And, along with many of the men on Manus, the Australian federal election campaign raises Aziz's hopes. On election night, Aziz and his fellow detainees follow the news forensically to try to make sense of the result and what, if anything, it means for the future of the detention centre. Meanwhile, Michael investigates the possibility of travelling to Manus Island. Could they really meet face to face? Transcript A transcript of this episode is available here (Adobe PDF format). In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes ‘Nook & Cranny' and ‘Grandiflora' by Biosphere, ‘Pilot' by Markus Guentner, ‘Ba Ba' by Sigur Rós, ‘Our' by Actress, ‘Render 4' by Cologne Tape, ‘I Found the End' by Broadcast, ‘Them, Their' by Jan Jelinek, ‘Passage' by Oren Ambarchi and ‘Caroline' by the Babies, with sundry additional music by Jon Tjhia. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Tiarne Cook, Lina Lettau and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

‘I'm just pretending … as if I'm preparing for a space journey, and the space journey, it takes many years.' Aziz After months of interviews, Aziz finally sits facing an immigration officer and an interpreter, about to find out whether he's been granted refugee status. But he's too angry to talk about that. What he'd rather know is why he's just spent weeks locked in a jail cell in Lorengau, before being abruptly released without charge. In this episode, Aziz tells Michael about the hunger strike that lead to his imprisonment, and why he continues to pursue big and small acts of resistance – despite the consequences. Transcript Download a transcript of this episode in Adobe PDF format. In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes ‘02-15-02' by Taylor Deupree and Kenneth Kirschner, ‘Ambient Head' by Atom Heart and Tetsu Inoue, ‘Variation for Oud and Synthesizer 2' and ‘Rhodes Viola Multiple' by Keith Fullerton Whitman, ‘Helix' by Radian, ‘There Are Other Worlds (They Have Not Told You Of)' by Jan Jelinek Avec The Exposures, ‘Plastic Energy Man' by Papa M, ‘People are Friends' by Biosphere, ‘Biokinetics 2' by Porter Ricks, ‘Pilot' by Markus Guentner, ‘Twenty' by Labradford, ‘Miracle to Fill My Life' by Abe Duque, ‘Changeling' by DJ Shadow, ‘Summa Afrique (Oren Ambarchi remix)' by Tape, and ‘We Let the “S” Hang in the Air' by Brokeback. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Tiarne Cook, Eugenia Zoubtchenko and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Hani Abdile, and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Stopping the boats. It's one of the most fraught topics in Australian politics, and most of the time it comes out in two soundbites: saving lives at sea, and securing our borders. Abdul Aziz Muhamat 'I was instructed to … select the children on the basis of how young they looked – because we wanted to send the message to people smuggling networks that even the youngest children were eligible for transfer to the island.' Greg Lake, former Director of Offshore Processing in the Department of Immigration In this episode, Aziz tells Michael what it actually feels like to make that journey, and why he made the decision to get on a boat bound for Australia. What was going through his mind? Did he know what he was getting himself into before he stepped onboard? Michael also speaks to somebody with a unique perspective to offer, because it was his job to stop the boats. Former immigration department official Greg Lake tells Michael about the extraordinary lengths he was asked to go to to carry out official government policy – and why he ultimately walked away from the task. Transcript Download a transcript of this episode in Adobe PDF format. In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Greg Lake, former Director of Offshore Processing, Department of Immigration Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes: ‘Kilvo' and ‘Ontario' by Radian, ‘Rhodes Viola Multiple' by Keith Fullerton Whitman, ‘Four-Day Interval' by Tortoise, ‘Outward' by Rhythm & Sound, ‘Plastic Energy Man' by Papa M, ‘Whitetail' by Low, ‘Mdrmx' by Brothomstates, ‘Malá Strana' by Gui Boratto, ‘Collapse of Materialists' by Forma, ‘Blau' by Ganger, ‘Guitars for Plants' by Mice Parade, ‘There Are Other Words (They Have Not Told You Of)' by Jan Jelinek and ‘On' by Aphex Twin. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Victoria Grey, Eugenia Zoubtchenko, Laura Mitchell and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Cameron Ford, and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

A major ruling by the Papua New Guinea Supreme Court offers hope for Aziz – but, amidst the promise, the men receive devastating news from Nauru. Meanwhile, they're encouraged to accept the option to resettle in PNG. So why doesn't Aziz take it? Aziz, with his smuggled phone 'We don't know what next, but this is really one of the first good news that we ever heard.' Aziz When Aziz learns of Papua New Guinea's Supreme Court ruling that detention on Manus Island is illegal, he sends Michael messages describing his joy and excitement. But his elation soon turns to confusion as he and the other men understand they're anything but free. Meanwhile, news of two separate self-immolations in Nauru's centre reaches Manus – and hits Aziz hard. Aziz and the men are always being reminded of two options to end their detention: go home or resettle in PNG. We've already heard why he can't go home. Aziz describes the sometimes hostile relations with local Manusians – including the violent confrontation resulting in the widely-reported murder of his fellow detainee, Reza Berati – as well as some of the things detainees had been told about PNG in order to dissuade them from escaping. Aziz explains why he firmly believes that starting a new life there is neither safe nor possible … and reveals the other fundamentally important reason why he won't accept the offer to live in Papua New Guinea. Warning: This episode of The Messenger includes graphic content and mentions self-harm. If you or someone you know needs help, you can contact one of Australia's national 24/7 crisis services such as Lifeline on 13 11 14 or at lifeline.org.au, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467. Transcript Download a transcript of this episode in PDF format. In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Ben Lomai, lawyer Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes: ‘There's Hell in Hello But More in Goodbye' by Jim O'Rourke, ‘Floating in the Clearest Night' and ‘The Heart Harmonicon' by Colleen, ‘Blue Milk' by Stereolab, ‘Sensuous' by Cornelius, ‘Cells That Smell Sounds' by Midori Haino, ‘Mala' Strana' by Gui Boratto, ‘The Flat Curving' by Brokeback, ‘Iberia Eterea' by Biosphere, ‘Niobe' by Caribou, ‘Intimate Geometry' by Anthea Caddy and Thembi Soddell, ‘Stars Aligned Webs Spun' by Oren Ambarchi, ‘Gong Meditation' by Cylob and ‘Forskjellige Gode Ting' by Kim Hiorthøy. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Victoria Grey, Camilla Chapman, Lena Lettau and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Cameron Ford, and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Aziz's life has been a story of chance – and choice. As Michael pieces together Aziz's journey from Sudan to Manus, he realises Aziz has been searching for a safe place for about eight years. So what gives him the ability, and the energy, to speak out? How has Aziz fought for so long, and what makes him want to be ‘the messenger'? ‘I'm pretending like I'm really happy, and laugh, and you know, smiling on the phones and doing stuff like that – so they feel like, “Oh, my son is really living in a good environment”. So they think like that, but the opposite is the truth.' Aziz Aziz tells Michael, ‘I have got some people ...waiting for me. They love me, they want me to be with them.' Haltingly, and sometimes with great difficulty, Aziz starts to share stories about his home, the family that he longs to see, and why he fled. Looking to find out more, Michael speaks to Sudan expert Anne Bartlett about the current situation there. As Aziz shares snapshots from his past, Anne talks Michael through the conflict in Sudan, which, despite leaving the headlines long ago, continues to unfold. Michael worries that he's adding to Aziz's trauma by digging up painful memories – ever aware of how hard it is to have these kinds of conversations in short, overlapping messages, without the benefit of reading someone's signals face to face. Meanwhile, Aziz weighs up how much to tell his family about Manus, and explains to Michael why he's sometimes tortured by regret. Warning: This episode of The Messenger includes graphic content and mentions self-harm. If you or someone you know needs help, you can contact one of Australia's national 24/7 crisis services such as Lifeline on 13 11 14 or at lifeline.org.au, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467. Transcript Download a PDF transcript of this episode here. In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Associate Professor Anne Bartlett, University of New South Wales, President of the Sudan Studies Association Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes: 'Blue Milk' by Stereolab, 'Up the Box' by Andy Stott, 'Feld' by To Rococo Rot, 'Firefly' and 'Four-Day Interval' by Tortoise, 'Cutting Branches for a Temporary Shelter' by Penguin Cafe Orchestra, 'Ending' by Kazumasa Hashimoto, 'Remedios the Beauty' by Oren Ambarchi, 'Lazyboat' and 'Vostok' by Triosk, 'Passages' by Bowery Electric, 'Self Seal Mishap' by Tennis and 'Ba Ba' by Sigur Rós. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind the Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. With reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Victoria Grey, Camilla Chapman, Lena Lettau and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Cameron Ford and Heidi Pett, and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

As the world reacts to the Trump administration's new US border policies, Aziz's situation is as uncertain as ever, with no end in sight. Life on Manus grinds on.  ‘When we see someone who is just hurting himself or he is trying to commit suicide, sometimes you just drag yourself away because of not getting the pictures in your head.' Aziz In this episode, Aziz and Michael start to get to know each other – and Aziz begins to paint a picture for Michael of daily life in the detention centre.Where is it, and why is it there? What are the conditions really like, and what's it like to live there with more than 800 other men and no prospect of release?Back in Melbourne, Michael meets Aziz's friend John Zammit, a former Manus Island psychologist who shares his experiences of the detention centre, and his recollections of Aziz. With help from John, and from Aziz's many messages, Michael pieces together a sense of Aziz's daily routine, just as order in the camp gets turned upside down … Warning: This episode of The Messenger mentions suicide and self-harm. If you or someone you know needs help, you can contact one of Australia's national 24/7 crisis services such as Lifeline on 13 11 14 or at lifeline.org.au, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467. Transcript Download a PDF transcript of this episode here. Further reading 'What Trump's Executive Order on Immigration Does – and Doesn't Do' by Krishnadev Calamur, Atlantic, accessed 30 January 2017 ‘US could resettle zero refugees from Manus and Nauru and still 'honour' deal' by Helen Davidson and Ben Doherty, Guardian, accessed 31 January 2017 In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green John Zammit, former Manus Island psychologist Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes: '02-07-02', ‘03-19-02', ‘03-03-02' and ‘03-23-02' by Taylor Deupree and Kenneth Kirschner, ‘Nord' by Radian, ‘Organ in the Attic Sings the Blues' by Deadbeat, ‘Iberia Eteria' by Biosphere, ‘Forskjellige Gode Ting' and ‘Alt Maste Bli Anorlunda' by Kim Hiorthøy, ‘Mario Bava Sleeps In a Little Later Than He Expected To' and ‘What True Self? Feels Bogus, Let's Watch Jason X' by Chris Zabriskie, ‘Northern Maine Junction' by Chessie, ‘Pilot' by Markus Guentner, ‘So Quick, Bright Things Come to Confusion' by Because of Ghosts, ‘Stereo Music For Yamaha Disklavier Prototype, Electric Guitar, And Computer' by Keith Fullerton Whitman, ‘Transmission 2' by DJ Shadow, ‘Lips' by Plurabelle and ‘Burnt Klubgirl Lid Tone' by Nels Cline and Thurston Moore. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind The Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre.Narration by Michael Green. Reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Victoria Grey, Marie-Louise Bethune, Julia Earley, and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Cameron Ford and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

As a journalist, Michael Green had spoken to a lot of people who've been held in detention centres. Some were there for a few weeks, and others for as long as six years. But he'd never spoken to someone who was still inside a detention centre, and that's because Australia's immigration department, and the governments of Nauru and Manus, have traditionally made it very difficult for journalists to communicate with detainees. Visitors aren't allowed to make recordings, and the people who came by boat weren't initially allowed to use their own phones. ‘Same day – or different day – same shit. But still alive.' Aziz Then, early last year, Michael was given the phone number of a man who was still in detention on Manus Island. His name was Aziz. He was from Sudan, and he had a smuggled phone. But that was all Michael knew. So he sent him a text message saying hello, and he asked if we could speak on the phone. Aziz wrote back saying the reception in his room was too weak for calls. Michael thought they'd have to communicate entirely by text. Then he realised that on WhatsApp, you can send little voice messages that get delivered whenever you're in range. And so, in March 2016, Michael and Aziz first made contact. Transcript Download a PDF transcript of this episode here. Further reading ‘Meet the Messenger of Manus, one man trapped in Australia's offshore processing regime' by Ben Doherty, Guardian, accessed 24 January 2017 ‘Broken Men in Paradise' by Roger Cohen, New York Times, accessed 23 January 2017 ‘Not always and only broken: some responses to Roger Cohen's New York Times article' by Janet Galbraith with Behrouz Boochani, The Stringer, accessed 23 January 2017 In this episode Abdul Aziz Muhamat Michael Green Our theme music was composed by Raya Slavin. Music used in this episode includes: ‘Mario Bava Sleeps In a Little Later Than He Expected To' and ‘What True Self? Feels Bogus, Let's Watch Jason X' by Chris Zabriskie, ‘Blau' by Ganger, ‘+' by Kazumasa Hashimoto, ‘Malá Strana' by Gui Boratto, ‘Open Melody' by Lucky Dragons and ‘Headlights' by Triosk. More information The Messenger is a co-production of Behind The Wire and the Wheeler Centre. It's produced by Michael Green, André Dao, Hannah Reich and Bec Fary, with Jon Tjhia and Sophie Black at the Wheeler Centre. Narration by Michael Green. Reporting by Abdul Aziz Muhamat. Additional fact checking by the Guardian's Ben Doherty; transcription by Claire McGregor, Celine Yap, Mia Tinkler, Ruby Wawn, Isobel Egan and many more​. This episode was edited and mixed by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Dana Affleck, Angelica Neville and Sienna Merope. Also to Cameron Ford and Madeleine Egan and to Behind the Wire's many participants and volunteers. Behind the Wire is supported by the Bertha Foundation.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Tom Adams and his wife, Lillian Henley, are collaborating on a “gig-theatre” show about Tom’s sleeptalking and sleepwalking. Tonight on SleepTalker, we hear some of the sleepy mumblings keeping Lillian awake, and Tom talks about the inspiration for the show Elephant & Castle. Elephant & Castle launches next year. Head to www.tom-adams.co.uk for updates (while you’re there, have a read of Tom’s blog and listen to more of his nighttime recordings). I’ll also send an update about Elephant & Castle in my newsletter; from now on, I’ll be sending out an email with links to the best sleepy art, music, writing and podcasts I can find. Head to www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com/newsletter to sign up. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Music credits: ‘Heterotropic (Where We Used to Belong)’ by Bad Bats ‘Blood Petal’ by Blue Dot Sessions ‘The Dream’ by Project 5am ‘Pianofrozebeat’ by Meri Leeworthy

Eleanor Wales says narcolepsy is “the worst of both worlds”; she can’t stay awake, but she doesn’t get enough restful sleep either. Head to www.falling-asleep.com for more about Eleanor, including blog posts, articles and infographics about living with narcolepsy. Music credits: ‘Here Be Dragons With Dreams’ by Studio Noir ‘The Dream’ by Project 5am ‘Shelters’ and ‘Pianofrozebeat’ by Meri Leeworthy SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Visit www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com for more episodes, and email goodnight@sleeptalkerpodcast.com if you’d like to share what happens in your head after dark.

Tonight on SleepTalker, we’ll hear a story from last year. Bec talks to Declan Mulcahy, director of ____day Night’s Dream, about his theatrical exploration of the dreaming mind. Declan recruited seven performers to write their dreams into an immersive play, where the audience followed the cast through the night and into dreamland. ____day Night’s Dream returns at this year’s Melbourne Fringe Festival; from September 22nd, Declan takes over a Melbourne apartment with a new set of dream adaptations. Head to www.daynightsdream.com for tickets, and to find out more about the show. A version of this story (then called ‘Creative Freedom’) first aired on All the Best, in an episode called ‘In Your Dreams’. For that episode, Bec spoke to people whose dreams followed them well into their waking hours. Head to www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com to find a link to the original. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Music credits: ‘South Sea Syndrome’ by Scissors For Sparrow ‘Dream 5’ and ‘Dream 7’ by Tonality Star With thanks to Declan Mulcahy and the original ____day Night’s Dream cast: Liam Bellman-Sharpe Rachael Besselink Scout Boxall Iryna Byelyayeva Rémy Chadwick James Christensen Daniel Holmes

Tonight on SleepTalker, we’re writing in our sleep with Clem Bastow. Clem is a freelance journalist and screenwriter, whose Daily Life article “Why I need to sleep naked, alone, and for as long as possible” inspired this episode. Head to www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com to find a link to the original article. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Music credits: ‘Tiptoe’ by Yeyey ‘Inscencer’ by P C III ‘I Will Come Out of My Den’ by Min-Y-Llan ‘Mother Cavern’ by Bad Bats For a transcript of this episode, head to www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com

Tonight on SleepTalker, we’re saying “goodnight” at the start because we’re listening to a podcast that’s really hard to hear the end of. In this episode, Bec chats to Drew Ackerman, AKA Dearest Scooter, host of Sleep With Me. Sleep With Me is a podcast of “bedtime stories for grown-ups”. Three times a week, Drew records and uploads lulling, meandering tales to try to help his listeners drift. Head to www.sleepwithmepodcast.com to hear more of Drew’s work. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Head to www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com for a transcript of this episode, and to listen to past episodes. Music credits: ‘Drift’ by Charlie Salas-Humara Sleep With Me podcast music by Christopher Postill ‘Pitter Pattern’ and ‘Top of the Hill, Bottom of the Valley’ by Scissors for Sparrow Clips from Sleep With Me were taken from: Episode 3, 363, 384 and 387

This session was recorded at Audiocraft's first conference in March 2016. It features Bec Fary (Sleep Talker) and Jon Thjia (Paper Radio). www.audiocraft.com.au See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

20 years ago, four dying people were able to access the Northern Territory’s world-first law to help them die more mercifully, before the law itself was extinguished. By the end of 2016, over 100 million people on three continents will be able to access such laws – the most recent places to adopt them being America’s most populous state, California, and Canada. Since that Northern Territory law was overturned in 1997, nearly 30 attempts to create a new one here in Australia have failed. But as the tide of history turns in favour of assisted dying, how much longer can our politicians continue to ignore the call for change? Bob Hawke, left, and Heather Bell — Photo credits: Bob Hawke by Eva Rinaldi (CC-BY-SA); Heather Bell, supplied The old arguments that have held such sway – about the elderly and the vulnerable being unsafe under these laws – no longer hold. Over a decade of experience in Europe, and nearly two decades in America, have shown us that the safeguards do work: that good laws can be created to help the few, and protect the many. In this final episode, drawing on what has worked best overseas, I’m going to tell you what I think that law for assisted dying in Australia should look like. Plus, we’ll hear from two significant stakeholders who both support a change in our law. One, a former Prime Minister. The other, the one major medical body that does officially support assisted dying. Tellingly, they’re the ones who see the suffering of patients every day and up close – the nurses.   'I think it is absurd that euthanasia is not legal within this country. It doesn't meet any requirements of morality or good sense.' Former Prime Minister of Australia, Bob Hawke Please note: this podcast is not about suicide. If you are interested in increasing your understanding of suicide and how to support someone experiencing suicidal ideation, visit the Conversations Matter or beyondblue websites.If you (or someone you know) require immediate assistance, contact one of the following 24/7 crisis support services: Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), MensLine (1300 78 99 78), beyondblue (1300 22 4636), Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) or eheadspace (1800 650 890). Hear more Embed player Listen Better Off Dead: Interview with Richard Di Natale In March 2016, Australian Greens leader Richard Di Natale put forward a bill, co-sponsored by representatives from all the major parties, aimed at restoring the right of the Northern Territory, ACT and Norfolk Island to legislate for voluntary euthanasia. Here, he discusses the reasoning behind the bill – and the tactics required to create political change on this issue in Australia. Know more Video: 'Q&A: Facing Death' – Australian Broadcasting Corporation, 9 November 2015 Article: 'Bob Hawke calls for euthanasia to be made legal in Australia', by Calla Wahlquist – Guardian, 12 April 2016 Podcast episode: 'Andrew Denton asks, can Australia legislate for better death?' – Conversations with Richard Fidler, Australian Broadcasting Corporation, 23 February 2016 Research paper: 'How should Australia regulate voluntary euthanasia and assisted suicide?', by Ben White and Lindy Willmott – Australia21, November 2012 Essay: 'The right to die or the right to kill?: The argument against euthanasia', by Karen Hitchcock – The Monthly, December 2015–January 2016 Letter: In response to Karen Hitchcock's article (above), by Ian Maddocks – The Monthly, February 2016 Opinion: 'Assisted dying: the difficult conversation we need to have', by Ian McPhee – Age, 2 February 2016 Video: 'Andrew Denton has a new lease on death' – from Sunrise, Yahoo!7, 22 February 2016 Article: 'Medically assisted death weeks away in Canada', by Susan Delacourt – ABC News, 2 March 2016 Article: 'Push to restore voluntary euthanasia in NT, ACT and Norfolk Island', by Helen Davidson – Guardian, 1 March 2016 Speech: 'Voluntary Euthanasia', by Andrew Leigh MP – as spoken in House of Representatives, Parliament of Australia, 17 August 2015 In this episode Bob Hawke Doctors: Cathy, Vic, Andrew, Sarah and Paul Coral Levett Karen Hitchcock Heather Bell Richard Chye Leigh Dolin Michael Williams Marshall Perron Nancy Elliott Paul Russell Liz Our theme music was composed by Zig Zag Lane for Zapruder's Other Films, and edited by Jon Tjhia. Music used in this episode includes 'Hope There's Someone' (Antony and the Johnsons), 'Death Don't Have No Mercy' (Reverend Gary Davis), 'Further On (Up the Road)' (Johnny Cash), 'Into My Arms' (Nick Cave), 'Underneath the Stars' (Kate Rusby), 'The Parting Glass' (The Wailin' Jennys) and 'Forty-Eight Angels' (Paul Kelly). Your stories If you're suffering, or someone you love has died badly – in a hospital, in palliative care, in a nursing home, or at home – add your voice and tell your story here. Further information Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox and the Wheeler Centre. Executive producers Andrew Denton and Michael Williams. Producer and researcher Bronwen Reid. For Better Off Dead, the Wheeler Centre team includes Director Michael Williams, Head of Programming Emily Sexton, Head of Marketing and Communications Emily Harms, Projects Producer Amita Kirpalani and Digital Manager Jon Tjhia. Editing and mix on this episode is by Martin Peralta. Additional editing by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Thanks to Paul Kelly and Sony ATV for the use of his song ‘Forty Eight Angels’. The series Subscribe in iTunes, or your favourite podcast app. #betteroffdeadpod Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox in partnership with the Wheeler Centre. It is written and created by Andrew Denton for Thought Fox.

Of all the arguments against assisted dying, the most heartless I’ve heard is this: Suicide is legal. Why do you need assistance to do something that you can do yourself? Every time I hear that thought expressed (and I’ve heard it more than once while making this podcast), I’m astonished at the ease with which the people saying it manage to completely overlook the suffering of the people they’re talking about. In this episode, we’re going to meet one of those people: father of two, Lawrie Daniel. At 50, and stricken with MS, what does it mean to Lawrie to be told, ‘suicide is legal – what’s stopping you?’ Lawrie and Rebecca Daniel at home — Photo: Andrew Denton 'Through MS, I've pretty much lost my fear of dying, because sometimes I think there are things that are worse than death.' Lawrie Daniel Please note: this podcast is not about suicide. If you are interested in increasing your understanding of suicide and how to support someone experiencing suicidal ideation, visit the Conversations Matter or beyondblue websites.If you (or someone you know) require immediate assistance, contact one of the following 24/7 crisis support services: Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), MensLine (1300 78 99 78), beyondblue (1300 22 4636), Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) or eheadspace (1800 650 890). Know more Review: 'Book review: Kevin Yuill, "Assisted Suicide: The Liberal, Humanist Case Against Legalization"', by Iain Brassington – Journal of Medical Ethics blog, 3 July 2013 In this episode Kevin Yuill Lawrie Daniel Rebecca Daniel Our theme music was composed by Zig Zag Lane for Zapruder's Other Films, and edited by Jon Tjhia. Music used in this episode includes 'Loneliness #3 (Night Talking)' (Arcade Fire), 'Our Own Roof' (Nils Frahm), 'All Farewells Are Sudden' (A Winged Victory for the Sullen), 'They Move on Tracks of Never-ending Light' (This Will Destroy You) and 'Forty-Eight Angels' (Paul Kelly). Your stories If you're suffering, or someone you love has died badly – in a hospital, in palliative care, in a nursing home, or at home – add your voice and tell your story here. Further information Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox and the Wheeler Centre. Executive producers Andrew Denton and Michael Williams. Producer and researcher Bronwen Reid. For Better Off Dead, the Wheeler Centre team includes Director Michael Williams, Head of Programming Emily Sexton, Head of Marketing and Communications Emily Harms, Projects Producer Amita Kirpalani and Digital Manager Jon Tjhia. Editing, sound design and mix on this episode is by Martin Peralta. Additional editing by Bec Fary. Thank you Thanks to Paul Kelly and Sony ATV for the use of his song ‘Forty Eight Angels’. The series Subscribe in iTunes, or your favourite podcast app. #betteroffdeadpod Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox in partnership with the Wheeler Centre. It is written and created by Andrew Denton for Thought Fox.

The repeated call by opponents of assisted dying is that the elderly and the vulnerable must be protected from coercion. In this, they are right – and there are many safeguards built into existing laws overseas which do exactly that. But what of the elderly described in this episode by two of Australia’s coroners: rational men and women from loving families – who, faced with an irreversible and painful decline into death, are deciding to kill themselves violently instead? Left: Joan Upton (with cake) pictured with her children Greg, Annette and Robert. Right: Philip Nitschke — Photos: Supplied If the law offers them no other way to end their suffering, who could be more coerced than them? And yet, on these vulnerable Australians – including beloved mothers, fathers, partners and grandparents – the opponents are silent. This silence needs to be challenged. It’s time we talked about Australia’s dark little secret. 'They all know it – including doctors. They know that this person is screaming for help but no one is going to answer this call. Not in this society. So they have got to die alone.' Victorian Coroner John Olle, appearing before the Parliament of Victoria's 2015 Inquiry into End Of Life Choices Please note: this podcast is not about suicide. If you are interested in increasing your understanding of suicide and how to support someone experiencing suicidal ideation, visit the Conversations Matter or beyondblue websites.If you (or someone you know) require immediate assistance, contact one of the following 24/7 crisis support services: Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), MensLine (1300 78 99 78), beyondblue (1300 22 4636), Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) or eheadspace (1800 650 890). Hear more Embed player Listen Better Off Dead: Interview with Frances Coombe Robert ‘Brownie’ Brown was a much-loved and prominent figure in South Australia’s environmental conservation movement. Faced with a life of physical decline, where he could no longer do the things that were important to him, Brownie made the decision to end his life. Unusually, the 94-year-old left a note for the coroner – emphasising that he didn’t want depression listed as the cause of his suicide. Andrew spoke with South Australian Voluntary Euthanasia Society president Frances Coombe – a woman to whom Brownie was a close friend and mentor for over six decades – about the grim choice being made by many elderly Australians. Know more Transcript: 'Standing committee on legal and social issues: Inquiry into end-of-life choices' (PDF), including statements by coroner John Olle – Parliament of Victoria, 7 October 2015 (source) Interactive: 'The big sleep', by Julia Medew – Sydney Morning Herald, 12 January 2016 Article: 'Shaw family calls for Victorian Government to consider assisted death laws', by Julia Medew – Age, 16 February 2016 Article: 'Brighton couple found dead in 'suicide pact'', by Lucie Morris-Marr  – Herald Sun, 13 November 2015 (paywall) Opinion: 'Somebody kill my grandmother. Please', by Sian Prior – Age, 13 November 2015 Opinion: 'My mother euthanased herself. Was it empowerment, or despair?', by Nikki Gemmell – Australian, 16 January 2016 Opinion: 'Andrew Denton has fallen for the doctors' spin on the euthanasia debate', by Fiona Stewart – Brisbane Times, 8 November 2015 Article: 'Philip Nitschke: I don't judge people at all if they want to die', by Melissa Davey – Guardian, 27 December 2015 Article: 'SA coroner calls for debate about elderly people who end their lives alone', by Simon Royal – ABC News, 7 February 2015 In this episode Joan Upton Annette Upton Marshall Perron Mark Johns John Olle (re-enacted by Andrew Martin) Philip Nitschke Kevin Yuill Our theme music was composed by Zig Zag Lane for Zapruder's Other Films, and edited by Jon Tjhia. Music used in this episode includes 'I Am Piano' (Peter Broderick), 'Quiet' (This Will Destroy You), 'Says' (Nils Frahm), 'She/Swimming' (Moon Ate the Dark), 'Portrait Gallery' (Luke Howard), 'They Move on Tracks of Never-ending Light' (This Will Destroy You) and 'Forty-Eight Angels' (Paul Kelly). Your stories If you're suffering, or someone you love has died badly – in a hospital, in palliative care, in a nursing home, or at home – add your voice and tell your story here. Further information Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox and the Wheeler Centre. Executive producers Andrew Denton and Michael Williams. Producer and researcher Bronwen Reid. For Better Off Dead, the Wheeler Centre team includes Director Michael Williams, Head of Programming Emily Sexton, Head of Marketing and Communications Emily Harms, Projects Producer Amita Kirpalani and Digital Manager Jon Tjhia. Editing, sound design and mix on this episode is by Martin Peralta. Additional editing by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Thanks to Paul Kelly and Sony ATV for the use of his song ‘Forty Eight Angels’. The series Subscribe in iTunes, or your favourite podcast app. #betteroffdeadpod Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox in partnership with the Wheeler Centre. It is written and created by Andrew Denton for Thought Fox.

Assisted dying has no more committed opponent than the Catholic Church. They have thrown resources, and the full weight of their political influence, against it wherever it has been proposed. That’s why the words of Sydney’s Archbishop Anthony Fisher – one of Australia’s most senior Catholic clerics, and a man who commands the ear of many politicians – are worth listening to. Archbishop Anthony Fisher, debating ethicist Peter Singer at Sydney Town Hall, 13 August 2015 — Source: YouTube Listen closely, and what you’ll hear is a masterclass in FUD: Fear, Uncertainty, and Doubt. The same seeds sown by opponents of assisted dying to great effect down the years. What lies inside those little seeds of FUD? In this episode – for the first time – we’re going to find out. 'I think it's almost unheard of that the elderly feel more as a burden and the opposite is true. They feel empowered by this, it strengthens them.' Joeri Veen, spokesperson for ANBO – a peak body representing the Dutch elderly – discussing the impact of euthanasia laws on ANBO’s members Please note: this podcast is not about suicide. If you are interested in increasing your understanding of suicide and how to support someone experiencing suicidal ideation, visit the Conversations Matter or beyondblue websites.If you (or someone you know) require immediate assistance, contact one of the following 24/7 crisis support services: Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), MensLine (1300 78 99 78), beyondblue (1300 22 4636), Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) or eheadspace (1800 650 890). Hear more Embed player Listen Better Off Dead: interview with Tom Keneally Tom Keneally is one of Australia’s best-loved and most successful authors – and a former Catholic seminarian. Here, he discusses the belief of some Catholics that pain can purify, and that suffering redeems the soul. Know more Video: 'Q&A: Facing Death' – Australian Broadcasting Corporation, 9 November 2015 Article: 'FactCheck Q&A: Were 550 babies killed last year under Dutch euthanasia laws?', by Colleen Cartwright (reviewed by Lorana Bartels and Jan F. Koper) – The Conversation, 16 November 2015 Opinion: 'Assisted dying: Sorting the facts from the half-truths and the misleading statements', by Ross Fitzgerald – Age, 15 December 2015 Video: 'Lord Carey on Assisted Dying – July 2014' – Christina Summers, 19 August 2015 Website: Christians Supporting Choice for Voluntary Euthanasia Video: 'Euthanasia debate: Professor Peter Singer versus Archbishop Anthony Fisher OP' – Sydney University Catholic Society, 13 August 2015 In this episode Anthony Fisher Nancy Elliott Catherine Glenn Foster Nick Cooling Alex Schadenberg John Fleming Henk Reitsema Kevin Yuill Joan Hume Illya Soffer Pierre Gyselinck Bob Joondeph Joeri Veen Mie Moerenhout Cheryll Brounstein Eduard Verhagen Our theme music was composed by Zig Zag Lane for Zapruder's Other Films, and edited by Jon Tjhia. Music used in this episode includes 'Untitled #8 (Popplagith)' (Sigur Rós), 'Hold Me Through' (Luke Howard), 'I Might be Wrong' (Radiohead) and 'Forty-Eight Angels' (Paul Kelly). Your stories If you're suffering, or someone you love has died badly – in a hospital, in palliative care, in a nursing home, or at home – add your voice and tell your story here. Further information Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox and the Wheeler Centre. Executive producers Andrew Denton and Michael Williams. Producer and researcher Bronwen Reid. For Better Off Dead, the Wheeler Centre team includes Director Michael Williams, Head of Programming Emily Sexton, Head of Marketing and Communications Emily Harms, Projects Producer Amita Kirpalani and Digital Manager Jon Tjhia. Editing, sound design and mix on this episode is by Martin Peralta. Additional editing by Bec Fary and Jon Tjhia. Thank you Thanks to field producer Emily Sexton, and to Paul Kelly and Sony ATV for the use of his song ‘Forty Eight Angels’. The series Subscribe in iTunes, or your favourite podcast app. #betteroffdeadpod Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox in partnership with the Wheeler Centre. It is written and created by Andrew Denton for Thought Fox.

Associate Professor Richard Chye is the director of the Sacred Heart palliative care unit at St Vincent’s Hospital in Sydney. A gifted physician and teacher, he is also a hugely influential figure in palliative care in Australia. Apart from being a member of various state and national committees, he’s a board member of Palliative Care Australia – the peak national organisation. Responding to my request, Richard invited me to spend a week with his team to see what they do – and to discuss the subject of assisted dying. Two things stood out as I watched the doctors and nurses of palliative care go about their work: the compassion and care from everyone as they helped people to die in often complex circumstances; and just as apparent, a deep resistance to the thought of assisted dying. Exactly how deep I didn’t realise – until I sat down to speak with Richard. Shayne Higson (second left), pictured with her sisters and their mother Jan (farthest right) who died of brain cancer: 'I thought that [with] terminal sedation … there would be no suffering, but that's not right' — Photo: supplied 'Love has got many ways of operating, I think … and I believe that assisting someone to die can be a loving act.' Professor Ian Maddocks, first Chair of Palliative Care at Flinders University, and first President of the Australian and New Zealand Society for Palliative Medicine Please note: this podcast is not about suicide. If you are interested in increasing your understanding of suicide and how to support someone experiencing suicidal ideation, visit the Conversations Matter or beyondblue websites.If you (or someone you know) require immediate assistance, contact one of the following 24/7 crisis support services: Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), MensLine (1300 78 99 78), beyondblue (1300 22 4636), Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) or eheadspace (1800 650 890). Know more Letter: From Ian Maddocks – The Monthly, February 2016 Article: 'Euthanasia isn’t a substitute for palliative care at the end of life', by Richard Chye – Sydney Morning Herald, 9 November 2015 Article: 'Andrew Denton: Doctors shouldn't look away when dying patients are suffering', by Andrew Denton – Sydney Morning Herald, 10 November 2015 Blog post: 'Denton lacks understanding of dying process – a social worker’s perspective', by Elissa Campbell – Palliverse, 13 November 2015 Video: 'Even the best palliative care can't always help' – Dying For Choice, 19 September 2013 In this episode Richard Chye Ian Maddocks Shayne Higson Our theme music was composed by Zig Zag Lane for Zapruder's Other Films, and edited by Jon Tjhia. Music used in this episode includes '21:05' (Ólafur Arnalds and Nils Frahm), 'You Know Me Well' (Sharon Van Etten), 'The Shooting' (Nils Frahm), 'All of Me Wants All of You' (Sufjan Stevens), 'Videotape' (Radiohead) and 'Forty-Eight Angels' (Paul Kelly). Your stories If you're suffering, or someone you love has died badly – in a hospital, in palliative care, in a nursing home, or at home – add your voice and tell your story here. Further information Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox and the Wheeler Centre. Executive producers Andrew Denton and Michael Williams. Producer and researcher Bronwen Reid. For Better Off Dead, the Wheeler Centre team includes Director Michael Williams, Head of Programming Emily Sexton, Head of Marketing and Communications Emily Harms, Projects Producer Amita Kirpalani and Digital Manager Jon Tjhia. Editing, sound design and mix on this episode is by Martin Peralta. Additional editing by Bec Fary. Thank you Thanks to Stanley Street Gallery, and to Paul Kelly and Sony ATV for the use of his song ‘Forty Eight Angels’. The series Subscribe in iTunes, or your favourite podcast app. #betteroffdeadpod Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox in partnership with the Wheeler Centre. It is written and created by Andrew Denton for Thought Fox.

If there is an epicentre for anti-euthanasia sentiment, it’s Belgium – home to what are often described as the most liberal euthanasia laws in the world. Here, people of any age – even, in some circumstances, children – can be euthanised. Allegations are made of a euthanasia culture that has become so uncaring that the elderly are regularly despatched without their consent. The word ‘murder’ is sometimes used. Arsène Mullie speaks to Andrew Denton — Photo: Emily Sexton Tom Mortier — Photo: alexschadenberg.blogspot.com Yet for all these claims, since Belgium’s euthanasia law was introduced in 2002, public support for it remains phenomenally high (over 80%) – and there has been no procession of Belgians coming forward to complain about what the law has done to their families. Which is why Tom Mortier’s story is so powerful. Alleging the wrongful death of his mother under this law, he has put a human face to the slippery slope. Tom’s story is being used around the world as the ultimate cautionary tale about the fluidity of Belgium’s laws. There’s no doubting the pain that he feels. But is it a true reflection of a law – and a society – gone wrong? 'How can you say that you don't want to help if you're in palliative care? What do you do then with patients who want euthanasia? How can you say to a patient who suffers, "keep suffering, tomorrow it will be better"?' Arsène Mullie, retired senior palliative care physician, Flanders   Please note: this podcast is not about suicide. If you are interested in increasing your understanding of suicide and how to support someone experiencing suicidal ideation, visit the Conversations Matter or beyondblue websites.If you (or someone you know) require immediate assistance, contact one of the following 24/7 crisis support services: Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), MensLine (1300 78 99 78), beyondblue (1300 22 4636), Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) or eheadspace (1800 650 890). Hear more Embed player Listen Better Off Dead: Interview with Marc Desmet No doctor comes to the question of euthanasia lightly. In Belgium – a predominantly Catholic country – questions of faith, morality, and ethics often collide. Here’s palliative care physician, and Jesuit, Marc Desmet discussing his own complex relationship with euthanasia. Know more Article: 'Attitudes towards assisted dying' – Economist, 27 June 2015 Article: 'The death treatment', by Rachel Aviv – The New Yorker, 22 June 2015 In this episode Tom Mortier Yves Desmet Arsène Mullie Alex Schadenberg Jan Bernheim Margaret Otlowski Luc Proot Kevin Yuill Jacqueline Herremans Lieve Thienpont Our theme music was composed by Zig Zag Lane for Zapruder's Other Films, and edited by Jon Tjhia. Music used in this episode includes 'We Disappear' (Jon Hopkins), 'B1' (Ólafur Arnalds and Nils Frahm), 'A2 (Max Cooper remix)' (Nils Frahm), 'Abandon Window' (Jon Hopkins), 'Hunting Bears' (Radiohead), 'I Might be Wrong' (Radiohead), 'Against the Sky' (Harold Budd and Brian Eno), 'Hammers' (Nils Frahm), 'The Mighty Rio Grande' (This Will Destroy You) and 'Forty-Eight Angels' (Paul Kelly). Your stories If you're suffering, or someone you love has died badly – in a hospital, in palliative care, in a nursing home, or at home – add your voice and tell your story here. Further information Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox and the Wheeler Centre. Executive producers Andrew Denton and Michael Williams. Producer and researcher Bronwen Reid. For Better Off Dead, the Wheeler Centre team includes Director Michael Williams, Head of Programming Emily Sexton, Head of Marketing and Communications Emily Harms, Projects Producer Amita Kirpalani and Digital Manager Jon Tjhia. Editing, sound design and mix on this episode is by Martin Peralta. Additional editing by Bec Fary. Thank you Thanks to field producer Emily Sexton, and to Paul Kelly and Sony ATV for the use of his song ‘Forty Eight Angels’. The series Subscribe in iTunes, or your favourite podcast app. #betteroffdeadpod Better Off Dead is produced by Thought Fox in partnership with the Wheeler Centre. It is written and created by Andrew Denton for Thought Fox.

Tonight on SleepTalker, we hear from Heather Joan Day. Heather's story, Tears For Fears of the Dark, was published in the first issue of Alien She Zine. Head to www.twitter.com/emo_flowers to follow Heather. Produced by Bec Fary. Music by Scissors For Sparrow. www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com

Jeff Emtman, host and creator of Here Be Monsters, shares his "eyes open dreams". Here Be Monsters is an unsettling, fascinating and beautiful podcast about the unknown; if you haven't already, take a listen at www.hbmpodcast.com. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary, with thanks to Michael Brydon and Jon Tjhia for your help with #6. If you have any dreams, nightmares or sleep stories you'd like to share on SleepTalker, head to www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com to find out how. More episodes and some exciting announcements coming soon, so stay tuned at www.facebook.com/sleeptalkerpodcast, or subscribe on iTunes https://itunes.apple.com/au/podcast/sleeptalker/id956164246 and while you're there, leave a rating or a review and let me know what you think of the show. Music credits: 'Heterotropic (Where We Used to Belong)' by Bad Bats http://freemusicarchive.org/music/Bad_Bats/Heterotropic_where_we_used_to_belong 'Horizon' by Carlos Ramirez http://freemusicarchive.org/music/Carlos_Ramirez/Refraction_Of_Light/Carlos_Ramirez_Refraction_of_Light_03_Horizon 'Nylon' by This Mess https://soundcloud.com/thismess

Tonight on SleepTalker, we're staying awake with Chloe. Music: 'Shelters' and 'Beach Collage' by Meri Leeworthy. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. If you have any sleep stories, dream recollections, nightmares or thoughts on the dark, let me know at www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com or www.facebook.com/sleeptalkerpodcast

This episode of SleepTalker is the first for 2015, and it's been a long time in the making. Interviewing Zed, and then editing him, required a lot of patience and reworking. But here it is: tonight, Zed tells me how his tattoo was inspired by a dream. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Visit www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com for more. Music credits: 'Adinatisa O Kaymenos' by Daniel Padden 'Black Eyes' by Nettle Both from the compilation 'On a Steady Diet of Hash, Bread and Salt' at the Free Music Archive: freemusicarchive.org

“The deeper you go into your mind, you discover darkness just as much as you discover light…” Tonight, we’re lucid dreaming with Aaron Gazzola. In this interview, Aaron refers to a study in which lucid dreaming was induced by electric scalp stimulation by Ursula Voss et al. Visit www.sleeptalkerpodcast.com to find a link to the study. And visit www.dream-awake.com for more details about Aaron's work. SleepTalker is produced by Bec Fary. Music credits: ‘Sienne’ and ‘Dowl’ by Podington Bear