Becoming Me

Episode 152  In this deeply personal episode, I explore the impact of Pope Francis' recent passing, especially how he became a bridge of trust during my period of intense interior deconstruction. Over the past decade, I've grappled with my Catholic faith, my relationship with the church, and undergone a profound journey of inner healing. I share how Pope Francis' actions and witness offered me a path through complex trauma and relational betrayals, both familial and institutional. This episode is dedicated to my fellow trauma survivors who struggle with their faith, relationships, and especially with the institutional Church. RELATED LINKS:Pope says he is 'deeply sorry' to Indigenous Peoples in CanadaPope Francis did the right thing when others would not, says residential school survivorWhy Pope Francis may be hesitant to rescind the Doctrine of DiscoveryPope Francis' Address to the Indigenous Peoples: First Nations, Métis and IntuitJoint Statement of the Dicasteries for Culture and Education and for Promoting Integral Human Development on the “Doctrine of Discovery”, 30.03.2023Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00] Introduction[00:48] Personal Struggles and Deconstruction[02:28] Pope Francis' Impact[05:30] Journey of Healing and Integration[07:50] Struggles with the Church[09:58] Uncomfortable with Pope Francis 2013-2015[13:38] Not In Touch with My Exiled Parts[18:45] Awakening to Dysfunction and Abuse[29:16] Trauma and Betrayal in the Church[36:05] Father Wound Re-triggered[38:06] Compassion in Secular Spaces[40:41] Pandemic Retreat Experience with Gabor Maté[42:09] Indigenous Trauma and Residential Schools[44:58] Seeking Apology from the Pope[48:57] Personal Reflections on Fatherhood and Healing[58:38] Pope Francis' Apology to the Indigenous People of Canada[01:03:55] Repudiating the "Doctrine of Discovery"[01:09:16] A Church That Doesn't Repair[01:13:37] Hope for the Church[01:18:28] ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTHave you ever found yourself reevaluating something you once felt certain about? What helped you feel safe enough to explore those thoughts?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 151 (Bonus)  In this special bonus episode for Holy Week, I share a deeply personal and vulnerable story about my journey through spiritual trauma and healing. Last year, I wrote an open letter on my personal blog, disclosing the challenges I've faced and continue to face as a complex trauma survivor within the Catholic faith. From experiencing physical symptoms of distress during Mass to grappling with deeply ingrained religious guilt, I invite you to witness my journey towards understanding, acceptance, and integration. I hope my story resonates with others who struggle with similar feelings during Holy Week, providing language, comfort, and a sense of solidarity. Additionally, I offer practical suggestions for seeking support, emphasizing the importance of trauma-informed care within spiritual and therapeutic frameworks. God meets us exactly where we are, and this episode is an invitation to take that first step towards healing.Read My Blogposts:To My Fellow Complex Trauma Survivors Who Struggle with Holy WeekA Good Friday Confession (I Don't Feel Anything)Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Introduction02:21 A Vulnerable Self-Disclosure07:41 The Letter Begins13:55 Waking Up to Anger and My Body Saying "No"16:49 Trauma Mingled with Faith19:42 Dying (To Ego) Into Authentic Love21:27 Entering Christ's Wounds Through My Wounds23:12 Why Holy Week Can Be Re-traumatising for Trauma Surviors26:00 Letting God Love Me Through Self-Love28:30 New Trauma-Informed Wine Skins Needed29:54 What Can Trauma Survivors Do To Support Ourselves?33:13 Final Thoughts36:02 ConclusionSupport the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 150  In this heartfelt conversation, I sit down with Paul Fahey, a limited licensed professional counselor, retreat leader, and catechist from Michigan, USA. Paul shares insights from his work in pastoral counseling for Catholics who have been spiritually abused and his efforts to educate ministers to be more equipped in their ministry. We delve into the complex nature of spiritual and religious trauma, the importance of language in healing from trauma, and the profound teachings of the Catholic Church on human dignity. Through personal stories and shared experiences, we explore the critical theme of dignity, how trauma affects our understanding of love and self-worth, and the necessity of creating safe spaces within or away from the Church for healing and authentic connection. This episode offers a rich and thought-provoking discussion on how we can reclaim our dignity and experience God's chaste, non-controlling love in the midst of a fallen world.Visit Paul Fahey's website here.Documents quoted by Paul:Dignitatis HumanaePatris CordeFratelli TuttiRead my newsletter post Lament, Hope & Healing: Resources on Spiritual Abuse.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Introduction to Paul Fahey01:12 Discussing Trauma and Spiritual Abuse05:53 Exploring Human Dignity in Church Teachings10:32 Understanding Spiritual Authority and Coercion35:51 Chastity and Non-Possessive Love47:33 Healing from Spiritual Coercion53:45 Struggling with Faith and Depression56:14 Journey Out of Depression58:29 Role of a Catechist and Therapist59:50 The Importance of Experiencing Non-controlling Love01:01:40 Experiencing God's Reverence01:04:00 The Concept of Theosis01:11:51 Challenges in the Church01:15:44 Accompanying Ourselves in Healing01:32:03 Forgiveness Demands Justice for the Victim01:37:22 Wrestling with the Lack of Safety in Church01:42:24 Reality is Greater than Ideas01:44:35 Final Thoughts and GratitudeREFLECTION PROMPTHow have I experienced coerciSupport the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 149  In this episode, I delve into the unique challenges that Catholic and Christian trauma survivors face in their healing journeys. Drawing from my own experiences and observations, I outline five specific reasons why faith can often complicate trauma recovery for believers. From the difficulty of accepting abuse within 'good' religious families, to the guilt around naming harm and the complexities of forgiveness, I discuss the psychological and spiritual hurdles that can impede healing. Join me as I explore how religious convictions, while deeply meaningful, sometimes inadvertently obstruct the path to recovery.LINKS MENTIONED IN THIS EPISODE:Ex-Missionaries of Charity allege culture of abuse and neglect"The Turning" : The dark side of Mother Teresa's order, according to nuns who leftReport: Jean Vanier's L'Arche Hid ‘Mystical-Sexual' Sect for Decades'Confusion, control and abuse': Report offers new details about Jean Vanier's secret sect and sexual exploitationWatch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00] Introduction to the Podcast[00:04] Challenges for Catholic and Christian Trauma Survivors[02:15] Reason 1: Difficulty Admitting Abuse in Religious Contexts[11:36] Reason 2: Unrecognised Abusive Dynamics[17:12] Reason 3: The Pressure to Forgive[22:37] Reason 4: Guilt in Naming Harm[27:09] Reason 5: Distrust of Secular Resources[34:43] The Impact of Religious Convictions on Healing[35:58] Conclusion and Invitation to ReflectREFLECTION PROMPTDo you resonate with any of these reasons outlined in this episode? If yes: Which reason(s) do you resonate with? What do you observe about its impact in your healing journey? If no: How did you feel listening to this episode? Are there other reasons you can identify from your own experience?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 148   In this episode, I address a profound question from a long-time podcast listener and religious sister in Southeast Asia regarding her healing journey. We explore the intricacies of feeling productive and empowered at times, facing moments of deep uncertainty and doubt at others, and when questions of authenticity, accountability, and integrity become overwhelming. I break down the layers of her experience from a coaching perspective, discussing the sensation of overwhelm, life scripts centered around productivity, internal family systems (IFS) theory, and the stages of faith development from the Critical Journey model. This episode is rich with insights into the interior journey of healing and integration, emphasising the importance of giving oneself permission to feel, pause, and go at the pace we need in the interior journey.RESOURCESBook on AmazonThe Critical Journey, Stages in the Life of FaithYouTube / Podcast Stages of Maturing Faith: Insights From "The Critical Journey”Personal Vocation Discernment through the Stages of Faith Watch this episode's recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00] Introduction and Listener's Question[00:38] Context and Background[01:04] Reading the Listener's Question[02:25] Breaking Down the Question[03:53] Observations and Insights[05:43] Understanding Overwhelm and Productivity Scripts[11:30] Internal Family Systems (IFS) Explanation[20:03] Stages of Faith Development[31:08] Final Thoughts and EncouragementTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHow would you describe your relationship with (i) Productivity and (ii) Uncertainty? What are some scripts that you might have in moments of overwhelm and uncertainty? Which stage of the Critical Journey is currently the most prominent for you in your journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 147   In this episode, I discuss a common challenge faced by complex trauma survivors: the notion that those who harmed us did the best they could. I emphasise why it's crucial not to accept this idea too early in the healing process. We need to focus on acknowledging the harm and injustice inflicted upon us before considering the limitations and reasons why our abusers acted the way they did. This is a journey of radical honesty and acceptance, facing uncomfortable truths without bypassing our emotions. Join me as I explore why truth is essential for healing from trauma and how to reframe our understanding of love and compassion.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00] Introduction[02:00] Internalising Dissonance and Self-Blame[03:13] Scripts and Roles for Survival[04:37] The Capacity for Love and Attunement[08:07] Holding Opposing Truths[10:06] The Importance of Radical Honesty[18:21] Navigating the Healing Journey[24:36] Radical Acceptance vs. Resignation[27:52] Concluding Thoughts and EncouragementTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTNotice if there were any particular sensations in your body as you listened to this episode. Which segments might they have been in response to?What relationships in your life might you have noticed difficulty in holding opposing truths, or may have been told or thought that those who had harmed you “did their best”?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 146   In this episode, I delve into the challenging and often misunderstood topic of deconstruction, especially for those of us healing from complex trauma as persons of faith. I share my own journey and how deconstruction has been an essential part of my healing process. We'll define what deconstruction means in this context and explore the three zones where I experienced it: Self-Identity, Family and Cultural Values, and Faith. Despite its inherent risk, deconstruction is a necessary and important part of the journey towards wholeness and a more secure faith in God.  I hope my sharing reassures those of you on the healing journey that your experience of deconstruction or “undoing” is an integral and hopeful part of the healing process even if very few people in your life can understand you.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00] Introduction[01:44] Defining Deconstruction[06:03] 3 Zones of Deconstruction[07:59] 1. Self-Identity Deconstruction[14:34] 2. Familial and Cultural Values Deconstruction[19:58] 3. Faith and Religious Deconstruction[34:53] Existential Faith vs Religious or Doctrinal Assent[42:26] Questions for Pondering and ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhich ‘zones' have you begun to experience deconstruction in? What are the fundamental questions you are asking right now which you had never asked before?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 145   In this episode, I open up about the challenges of experiencing setbacks in the healing journey. I share a recent personal experience that triggered a significant emotional response and discuss the importance of recognizing and managing these setbacks. By acknowledging the dynamics of our internal responses, such as through the lens of Internal Family Systems and complex trauma, I hope to offer support and validation for those feeling disheartened by setbacks. I seek to share a reminder that setbacks are a normal part of healing. Join me as I share honest reflections from my ongoing journey with you.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00] Introduction and Context[02:55] Patterns in the Interior Integration Journey[04:46] Personal Sharing of Dysregulation Experience[08:41] Setbacks Happen and It's Normal[09:53] Navigating Recovery from Setbacks and Seeking Support[16:45] God's Presence and Grace in the Healing Journey[20:31] Conclusion and EncouragementTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave there been times where you experienced setbacks in your healing journey? What cues did you notice about your internal responses, and in your body? What resources did you have, or wish(ed) to have, to help you recover from setbacks?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 144   In this episode, I share a deeply personal story about the painful moment when I realized that having faith and spiritual practices alone couldn't save me from the dysfunctional patterns in my life. I discuss the inadvertent impact of unconscious complex trauma, the harm of spiritual abuse, and the significance of human integration in the healing journey. This reflection highlights the importance of seeking broader resources beyond faith practices in the journey toward wholeness in healing. This may include developing insight on psychological and family dynamics. I hope this sharing makes you feel less alone and provides hope on your path to becoming more integrated and whole.In the previous episode, I introduced an invaluable workshop presented by Paul Fahey, focusing on recognising, preventing, and responding to spiritual abuse in the Catholic context. Join me in exploring this significant resource—check the show notes for more information and a link to the workshop. Link to Register for Spiritual Abuse Workshop.  Read Paul Fahey's article on Spiritual Abuse in the Catholic Church. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS[00:00:36] Lack of Awareness and Spiritually Abusive Behaviours[00:01:23] Personal Story on Spiritual Abuse[00:02:27] Gaps in Human Formation and Integration[00:06:07] Impact of Gaps in Integration: Poor Boundaries[00:07:38] Impact of Gaps in Integration: Insecurities and Burnout[00:10:15] Impact of Gaps in Integration: Performing and Pushing for Perfection[00:12:13] The Wake-Up Call that I Had Harmed Others[00:14:12] On Realizing that I Had Been Spiritually Abusive[00:15:45] Trauma and Toxic Shame[00:17:44] 'Waking Up' to the Integration Journey[00:19:17] Acknowledging Our Context with Compassion[00:24:52] Embodied Faith[00:28:56] Encouragement for Listeners[00:31:14] Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you had an encounter or experience where you realised that you were harming someone when you were only intending to love them to the best of your ability? How did you respond to that realisation?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 143   In this episode, I briefly discuss the importance of understanding spiritual abuse, particularly if you're on a healing journey from trauma and its effects on your relationship with God. I outline three major reasons why learning about spiritual abuse is crucial: it helps identify and heal from obstacles in our relationship with God, prevents the inadvertent perpetuation of abuse, and enhances accountability and responsibility, especially for those in leadership positions within the Catholic Church. I also introduce an invaluable workshop presented by Paul Fahey, focusing on recognising, preventing, and responding to spiritual abuse in the Catholic context. Join me in exploring this significant resource—check the show notes for more information and a link to the workshop. Link to Register for Spiritual Abuse Workshop: https://www.catholicthirdspace.com/p/spiritual-abuse-workshop-7b6 Read Paul Fahey's article on Spiritual Abuse in the Catholic Church: https://wherepeteris.com/resources/the-place-where-you-stand-is-holy-ground/Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:31 The Impact of Trauma on Faith02:14 Reasons to Learn About Spiritual Abuse03:58 The Systemic Nature of Spiritual Abuse05:25 Introducing a Valuable Resource06:56 Personal Reflections and Endorsements08:14 How to Join the Workshop08:40 Final Thoughts and FarewellTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat do you know about spiritual abuse in your own life? Can you think of any spiritual experiences where you had felt like an important boundary was violated but you could not name what it was?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 142   In this episode, I delve into an intriguing question posed by one of my listeners: Can healing of complex trauma happen through a personal encounter with God where He reveals His true nature to us? Building on a previous video that discussed how healing complex trauma transforms our image of God, I explore the multidimensional aspects of such healing. I share insights from my personal faith journey, emphasising that while direct, mystical experiences with God can indeed be a significant part of healing, they are only one facet. I discuss the importance of healing through safe relationships with other creatures, including pets, and the crucial process of repairing our relationship with ourselves. This episode highlights the interconnectedness of our relationships with God, ourselves, and others in the journey towards holistic healing from complex trauma.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Introduction 01:04 Context03:28 Viewer's Question05:33 Pre-Response Notes on Interdisciplinary Perspective and Complex Trauma09:12 Short Response: One Dimension of Healing10:40 Extended Response: Other Dimensions of Healing14:31 What Healing Is17:33 Healing Through Direct Encounters with God18:35 Healing Through Safe Relationships with Creation22:24 Healing the Relationship with Oneself24:02 Impact of Complex Trauma on the Relationship with Self, Prayer, and Trust29:16 How A Broken Relationship with Self Impacts Relationship with God35:25 God's Presence, and Interconnectedness in the Dimensions of Healing38:52 Response Summary 39:24 Concluding Thoughts40:40 Podcast Plans and UpdatesTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced God revealing his loving nature to you in a direct, unmediated encounter before? Have you experienced God loving you through a safe and loving relationship with another person or creature? Have you experienced how healing your relationship with yourself has deepened your ability to connect with others?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 141   In this episode, I delve into how our healing from complex trauma also heals our image of God. Drawing from my own experiences since 2008, I discuss three types of trauma—emotional neglect, emotional/spiritual abuse, and enmeshment trauma—and their impact on our relationship with God. I explain how authentic love and healing can reshape these distorted images, drawing on personal stories and insights to illustrate this transformative process. I also address the challenges and fears that come with such profound changes in our understanding and experience of God. Join me as I share this deeply personal and challenging journey towards healing and a more authentic relationship with God.Watch this recording on YouTube.Read my post: What does Trauma have to do with the Interior Journey?Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Introduction03:04 Healing the Image of God13:47 Understanding Emotional Neglect20:36 The Effects of Emotional and Spiritual Abuse25:11 Enmeshment Trauma and Its Consequences27:17 The Impact of Spiritual Abuse30:01 Healing Through Authentic Love31:33 Rewriting Our Story with God36:48 Embracing Emotional Freedom47:16 The Role of the Holy Spirit in Healing52:09 Concluding Thoughts on Healing and GrowthTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhich parts of this episode resonated with you? Can you recognise your own experiences in any of the examples of complex trauma or distorted images of God? How do you feel after listening to this episode? Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 140  In this episode, I explore how complex trauma affects our ability to make spiritual discernment by making it difficult for us to have "holy indifference". Often times we know we struggle to have that detachment we need to make a good discernment, but we don't realise that our difficulties may not be due to spiritual failings but because of the wounds in our embodied emotional capacity for authentic, secure love.I discuss the importance of a secure attachment with God, the impact of trauma on our nervous system, how that affects our interior freedom, and how healing and integration can restore interior freedom in the discernment process. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Trauma and Spiritual Discernment04:43 What Discernment Isn't14:28 How Trauma Impacts Discernment18:26 How Healing Transforms DiscernmentTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTIs your experience of spiritual discernment one of deep security and detachment or are you often anxious about "making the correct discernment"? Can you identify one way in which complex trauma has affected the way you approach spiritual discernment?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 139  In this episode, I address a thought-provoking question from one of my subscribers who asked how can we experience the unconditional love of God. I delve into the concept of embodied spirituality, underscoring the indispensability of involving our entire being—body, senses, and soul—in our spiritual journey to connect with God's love more authentically. I share practical methods to engage with God in daily life which serve as pathways to recognise and feel His presence more tangibly. Moreover, I distinguish between feeling loved by God and truly soaking in His unconditional love. I discuss the significant role of psychological healing in experiencing God's love, highlighting techniques like inner child reparenting and the Internal Family Systems theory for deeper self-acceptance and love. I conclude by inviting viewers to embrace living the questions of their spiritual journey, focusing less on the unhealed parts of themselves and more on remaining attentive and responsive to God's ongoing presence and invitations to healing in our lives.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you asked God to let you experience his unconditional love? Do you do so regularly? (It is perhaps the simplest and most important prayer for our healing and integration journey!)Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 138  In this personal narrative, I discuss my journey as a recovering complex trauma survivor, grappling with a deep-seated fear of criticism, judgment, and rejection, and how these fears intersect with my faith and my walk with Christ. I explore the concept of interior integration and the realisation that my fear of criticism was not just about a lack of faith, but a signal of deeper issues stemming from complex trauma and a lack of secure attachment with both myself and God. This sharing highlights my shift from viewing my fears through a purely spiritual lens to embracing a more integrated approach that incorporates psychological insight. I reflect on the importance of establishing boundaries, cultivating self-compassion, and adopting an embodied spirituality that brings healing to our relationship with God and ourselves.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Introduction02:10 Spiritual vs. Integrated Approaches06:57 Healing Through Integration and Boundaries19:51 Overcoming Fear of Criticism22:52 The Power of Love and Secure AttachmentTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAre you very easily affected by praise or criticism too? What new perspective from this episode did you find helpful in your struggles with fearing criticism?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 137  In this episode, I delve into the journey of personal vocation discernment across different stages of faith, inspired by the book 'The Critical Journey: Stages in the Life of Faith'. I share my insights on how our inner journey and the process of discerning our personal calling evolves from the initial stages of discovering God, moving through discipleship and productivity, to questioning, doubt and interior wrestling, and finally towards a deeper integration and living out our vocation. Watch this recording on YouTube.Book: The Critical Journey: Stages in the Life of FaithFollow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my newsletter Begin Again for written reflections about the interior journey.TRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHow have you been approaching the discernment of your personal vocation? How has this episode given you new insight to your own journey and experience of discernment?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Bonus Episode 136In this episode, I share some updates as my subscriber count has grown across various platforms. Whether you're new to my content or a long-time follower, I introduce myself, my journey, and my mission behind creating content to support the interior integration journey of deepening intimacy with God and psychological and emotional healing. I discuss the integration of intellectual and relational dimensions of faith, my personal experiences, and how they shape my content. I'll also provide updates on future content consolidation, my evolving journey, and why there might be a slower pace of new content in the near future. Your support and prayers during this time mean a lot to me. Let's continue this journey together! Watch this recording on YouTube.Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 135 In this episode, I delve into the transition many of us experience from spiritual fervour to spiritual maturity, especially during deep healing and integration. I discuss the differences between these stages, focusing on their characteristics and how we respond to suffering. By sharing my personal experiences and insights into the stages of faith development, I aim to reassure you that losing initial spiritual passion is a natural part of maturing in faith. Join me as I offer a  look at how this journey helps us love more like God does. I hope this gives you hope and a new perspective on your spiritual path.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.TRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced the difference between spiritual fervour and spiritual maturity in other people's attitude towards and treatment of you? How did you feel God's presence in their spiritual fervour? How differently did you feel God's presence in someone's spiritual maturity? Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 134 Join me in this candid episode as I engage in a heartfelt conversation with trauma-informed and somatic-trained Catholic spiritual guide Edwina Yeow, founder of Anam Cara Ministries (Singapore). We delve into the deep connection between trauma, spirituality, and our relationship with God. Edwina, a seasoned Catholic spiritual director with 30 years of experience, shares invaluable insights on integrating spiritual direction, psychology, and somatic awareness to address trauma's impact on our relationship with God. We discuss the importance of involving the body in spiritual healing and the role trauma plays in shaping our religious scripts. This episode encourages a spirit of curiosity towards healing, self-love, and deeper intimacy with God through a trauma-informed perspective.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.RESOURCESEdwina Yeow's website.Other episodes with Edwina YeowTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhich part of this conversation resonated with you the most? What could God be inviting you to ponder with him in your heart about the fears you have of losing his love for you?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 133 In this episode, I share my personal experience with spiritual midlife crisis.I share about the difficult and transformative phases of my journey, including moments of doubt, deep introspection, and the deconstruction of my previously held beliefs and practices. Through this challenging journey, I discovered crucial resources that guided me to understand the stages of faith development and the significance of the 'Wall', a pivotal point in one's spiritual midlife. I emphasise the importance of integrating one's emotional and spiritual aspects and the crucial role of seeking support through spiritual direction and psychotherapy. Resource:The Critical Journey, Stages in the Life of Faith by Janet O. Hagberg and Robert A. GuelichFalling Upward: A Spirituality for the Two Halves of Life by Richard RohrWhen the Heart Waits: Spiritual Direction for Life's Sacred Questions by Sue Monk KiddWatch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERSSee episode page for more details.TRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHow have you experienced God's grace in moments of difficulty? In what ways do you need to trust that His grace is sufficient for your current challenges? Are there moments when you feel like you can't keep going? How can you show yourself compassion during these times, knowing that it's normal to feel this way? Remind yourself of God's compassion when you're feeling discouraged and trust in God, even when others don't fully grasp what you're going through.Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 132 In this episode, I introduce and share reflections from “The Critical Journey: Stages in the Life of Faith," by Janet O. Hagberg and Robert A. Guelich. This remarkable resource opened my eyes to the stages of faith development, reinforcing the crucial role of experiential learning and integrating emotional healing with spiritual growth. I share insights from each of the six stages described in the book, weaving in reflections on my own progression and the introspective challenges encountered, especially the profound impact of confronting 'The Wall' in Stage 4. My aim is to offer solace by sharing my story and insights on navigating the complex landscapes of faith, hoping it will resonate with others on their own spiritual journeys, encouraging them towards embracing their path with understanding and compassion.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:22) - Introduction(00:00:59) - Resource Introduction(00:02:05) - Discovering "The Critical Journey"(00:05:05) - Stages of Faith Development(00:13:50) - Stage 1: Recogition of God(00:15:09) - Stage 2: Life of Discpleship(00:17:34) - Stage 3: The Productive Life(00:22:13) - Stage 4: The Journey Inward(00:35:06) - Stage 5: The Journey Outward(00:38:30) - Stage 6: Life of Love(00:48:13) - Final Thoughts(00:49:24) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTReflect on your own journey towards healing and integration. How has your awareness evolved over time? Consider how your ability to serve others has changed. Who are you best able to support now compared to the past? Recall moments when you felt truly seen and understood in your struggles. What made those moments significant?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 131In this episode, I share my personal journey from having a disembodied faith, which was largely intellectual and disconnected from my emotional and physical experiences, to developing an embodied faith that integrates my beliefs with all aspects of my life. I delve into what disembodied faith means, why many of us experience faith this way, and the transformative process towards embodying our faith. Through my own story of interior healing and integration, I highlight three key signs that indicate a shift towards a more incarnate, lived faith, emphasising the importance of embracing the messiness and challenges of this journey. The goal is to offer hope and understanding for those on the path to a more holistic and authentic experience of faith.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00:25) - Introduction(00:03:52) - What is "Disembodied Faith"?(00:10:47) - Why is our Faith Disembodied?(00:15:27) - Three Signs of Disembodied Faith(00:15:36) - Preoccupation with Understanding the Content of our Faith(00:17:13) - Discrepancies Start to Bother Us(00:19:39) - We are more Drawn to People in Touch with their Humanity(00:21:06) - You can't Force on Yourself the "Right Thing"(00:24:09) - Befriending our Emotions(00:27:31) - Not being Afraid of Criticism(00:30:42) - Secure in Love(00:40:00) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you struggle to make an authentic self-gift of yourself without abandoning yourself? Where might you have learned that abandoning yourself is a good thing? Are you open to changing your mind and believing that it is authentic self-gift that Christ is inviting you to make?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 130In this episode, I share my deep personal reflections on what it means to lay down my life in alignment with Christ, but without feeling lesser for it. Growing up in an enmeshed family system with rigid expectations of selflessness, ingrained through my Catholic upbringing, I faced challenges in understanding genuine self-sacrifice. I discuss the subtle yet critical difference between self-abandonment—a state that breeds resentment and diminishes self-worth—and genuine self-gift which is free and joyful, enriching both myself and others. My aim is to guide listeners on a path towards emotional health and authentic self-giving, highlighting the impact on family, faith, and self-perception of our ability to love authentically.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:00 Introduction: Reflecting on Self-Sacrifice and Authentic Living00:37 Exploring the Roots: Family, Faith, and Self-Perception01:35 The Struggle with Self-Abandonment and Seeking Approval04:45 Discovering the Difference: Self-Abandonment vs. Self-Gift07:38 The Journey Towards Emotional Health and Authentic Self-Gift11:15 Understanding Self-Abandonment: Signs and Consequences19:36 Embracing Self-Gift: The Path to Freedom and Joy28:44 Conclusion: The Power of Authentic Self-Gift and HealingTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you struggle to make an authentic self-gift of yourself without abandoning yourself? Where might you have learned that abandoning yourself is a good thing? Are you open to changing your mind and believing that it is authentic self-gift that Christ is inviting you to make?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 129In this episode, I engage in a deep and meaningful conversation with Catholic author and trauma therapist Brya Hanan. We delve into the complexities of trauma, particularly how it intersects with our faith journey. We explore how experiencing a resistance to going to church and attending mass can be a trauma response, and the importance of compassion and understanding in addressing these issues. This conversation aims to open up a space for greater empathy and curiosity about the unseen struggles of others, offering hope and guidance for those grappling with trauma in their spiritual lives.GUEST PROFILE: BRYA HANAN LMFTWatch this recording on YouTube.RESOURCES ON SPIRITUAL TRAUMATrauma in the Pews: The Impact on Faith and Spiritual Practices by Janyne McConnaughey, PhD.The Lord Is My Shepherd: Stepping Through the Shadows of Fear Toward the Voice of Love by KJ RamseyThe Holy/Hurt Podcast by Dr. Hillary L McBrideFollow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:22) - Introduction(00:00:51) - Special Guest: Brya Hanan, Catholic Trauma Therapist(00:01:46) - Personal Journey of Faith and Trauma(00:03:24) - Understanding Trauma Responses(00:05:31) - Reconnecting with Faith(00:06:18) - The Impact of Trauma in a Church Setting(00:08:26) - What Inner Child Healing Can Do(00:11:43) - Integrating Therapy and Faith(00:15:39) - Being Trauma-Informed(00:24:20) - Trauma and Religious Practices(00:33:45) - Understanding Our Bodies(00:34:09) - Can I Will Myself? Is it all in my Mind?(00:36:00) - The Impact of Trauma Responses(00:43:49) - What goes on Behind the Scenes with Trauma(00:47:22) - Integrating Faith and Holistic Healing(00:51:47) - Useful Resources(00:54:38) - Final ThoughtsTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you been struggling witSupport the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 128    In this final episode of the season, I share how my understanding of faithfulness has evolved as I healed. Initially, my understanding of faithfulness was deeply rooted in a binary, performance-based perspective, influenced by my cultural and religious upbringing. I viewed it as a straightforward measure of adherence to a set of religious practices and moral standards, essentially a checklist that delineated a clear boundary between being faithful and unfaithful. This perspective was challenged and eventually transformed through a journey of interior healing and unlearning, prompted by encounters with others who shared their struggles and a pivotal personal retreat that revealed the inadequacy of my foundational beliefs about faithfulness. I came to realise that faithfulness is not about meeting a predefined set of criteria perfectly but about authentic engagement with God's love and grace amidst our imperfections. This new understanding of faithfulness as dynamic, multi-layered, and diverse in expression, deeply influenced by personal context and inner disposition, has significantly altered how I perceive myself and others, fostering a more compassionate and nuanced view of our collective striving towards faithfulness. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey(00:43:20) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 127    In this podcast episode, I open up about a deeply personal and often stigmatised issue - my struggle with compulsions and addictions. I discuss how these issues are not only challenging to confront but are also shrouded in shame and secrecy, particularly when they deal with substance abuse or sex. Drawing from my experiences, I reflect on the societal pressure to maintain an image of responsibility and control, and how even socially acceptable compulsions, like binge-watching TV or overworking, can trigger feelings of shame. I share the profound impact that self-criticism and a lack of compassion have had on my journey, emphasising the pivotal role of interior integration in my healing process. Through exploring concepts like Internal Family Systems (IFS) and the importance of understanding the underlying trauma behind compulsive behaviors, I advocate for a compassionate approach to oneself. The episode highlights my transformation towards self-love, emphasising that divine love and self-compassion are crucial for overcoming compulsions and addictions and finding wholeness.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:21) - Introduction(00:01:36) - The Shame of Compulsions and Addictions(00:02:49) - Personal Struggles and Shame(00:06:05) - The Cycle of Addiction and Repentance(00:11:34) - Experiencing God's Unconditional Love(00:15:41) - The Role of Self-Compassion(00:28:16) - Internal Family Systems (IFS)(00:29:07) - 1. Managers(00:29:50) - 2. Exiles(00:30:48) - 3. Firefighters(00:37:15) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you ever found yourself in similar patterns of compulsion? Are you able to recognise the root of these addictions and compulsions? Think about some of the ways you have been using certain compulsions and habits to escape unpleasantness in your life. Is there a better way?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 126    In this episode, I delve into a poignant question raised during a webinar Q&A session about whether connecting with oneself inevitably enhances our connections with others, especially when expressing our true selves might not be warmly accepted by everyone. I unravel the complexities surrounding authentic connections, emphasising the significance of embracing our true selves for genuine interactions and personal growth. I reflect on personal experiences and the challenges of maintaining authenticity in relationships. I explore the indicators of growth on this journey, highlighting the fruits of the Holy Spirit as markers of deep, authentic self-connection and its profound impact on our relationships. This episode aims to broaden our understanding of how true self-connection can foster more meaningful and authentic relationships, despite the challenges that may arise.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:00) - Embracing Your True Self & Making Authentic Connections(00:00:21) - Introduction(00:00:58) - Unveiling the True Self(00:02:33) - Addressing a Vital Question: Authenticity and Connection(00:05:25) - Exploring the Nuances of Authentic Connections(00:09:17) - The Challenge of Being True to Oneself(00:16:17) - Authenticity in Relationships(00:23:37) - Indicators of Growth in the Interior Journey(00:23:59) - Fruits of the Holy Spirit(00:33:25) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHow has this episode resonated with you? Do you struggle with authenticity and living out your true self? What are some factors that make it challenging? Think about the relationships and connections in your life. Do you think they are authentic?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 125    In this episode of our current series, I delve into the topic of whether choosing a therapist or spiritual director of the same faith, specifically Christian or Catholic, is crucial for one's journey towards interior integration. How important is a therapist's faith in their effectiveness for our interior journey and how much difference would having a Christian/Catholic therapist make vs one who doesn't share our faith?In this video I unpack the subconscious assumptions we have about Christian/Catholic therapists and systematically explain why a therapist's professional competence and ability to offer a safe, judgment-free space for healing is much more important than their professed faith in helping us in our interior integration journey. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:00) - Introduction(00:00:48) - The Importance of Choosing the Right Therapist(00:02:03) - Choosing a Catholic / Christian Therapist(00:03:38) - The Significance of a Therapist's Faith(00:13:33) - Why Professional Competence Outweighs Faith in Therapy(00:19:23) - Understanding What 'Catholic Therapist' Really Means(00:26:36) - The Impact of Professional Competence and Integrity(00:29:43) - Navigating Therapy with Faith and Emotional Healing(00:31:44) - The Importance of Choosing the Right Therapist(00:32:26) - Personal Responsibility in Therapy and Integration(00:43:56) - The Role of a Therapist's Faith(00:57:06) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAfter listening to my sharing, how do you feel? Do you still think that a counsellor or therapist of the same faith is important? Why do you feel this way? If you have been for counselling or therapy, what was your experience like? Was it a safe space for you? If you're looking to start your counselling journey, what do you look for in a counsellor or therapist?Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 124    In this episode, I delve into the continuation of my exploration on seeking guidance, pivoting from the quest for a spiritual director to the intricate process of choosing a therapist. I reveal key considerations that have shaped my approach, highlighting the vital step of discerning which 'layer of life' demands healing - be it surface-level challenges or the deeper, foundational issues of one's core self. Drawing from my own experiences with counseling and psychotherapy, I elucidate the differences between the two, emphasising how they cater to distinct needs, from coping with immediate external stressors to addressing profound and complex traumas. Additionally, I address pragmatic aspects like budgeting for therapy sessions and the importance of a therapist's qualifications, their understanding of trauma, and their commitment to professional growth. This is a highly practical episode for listeners new to discerning whether a therapist is a good match for them.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:18) - Introduction(00:00:55) - Continuing My Sharing: From Spiritual Directors to Therapists(00:03:48) - Understanding the Layers of Life for Healing(00:08:42) - Choosing Between Counseling and Psychotherapy(00:16:59) - Starting Your Therapeutic Journey: Tips and Considerations(00:26:52) - Navigating Budget and Professional Expertise in Therapy(00:37:34) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHas anything from my sharing resonated with you? Do you feel like you have plateaued in this season of your journey? Could you be in a space of needing something different, something more? Consider this for a moment, and be open to where God may lead you. What might your next step be?  Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 123    In this in-depth episode, I share my personal experiences and insights on the importance and process of selecting a spiritual director to guide one's spiritual journey.  I outline five key considerations that have proved pivotal in my journey: assessing the spiritual director's emotional and spiritual maturity, understanding my current spiritual needs and season, recognising the stage of my interior journey, considering my budget and the different types of spiritual directors available, and finally, the critical role of discernment in action, emphasizing the reliance on synchronicity and God's guidance. Alongside these considerations, I share my reflections, personal anecdotes and recommend several books that have greatly aided me in navigating my own spiritual path.Books mentioned:The Friend of the Bridegroom by Thomas H. Green SJExperiencing God: The Three Stages of Prayer by Thomas H. Green SJOpening to God: A Guide to Prayer by Thomas H. Green SJArmchair Mystic: How Contemplative Prayer Can Lead You Closer to God by Mark Thibodeaux SJWatch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:14) - Introduction(00:00:51) - The Importance of Choosing the Right Spiritual Director(00:04:53) - Five Key Considerations for Selecting a Spiritual Director(00:14:56) - Understanding Your Needs and Where You are on Your Journey(00:26:20) - Practical Aspects: Budget and Types of Spiritual Directors(00:35:32) - Taking Action in Your Discernment Process(00:37:49) - The Grace of Synchronicity in Spiritual Guidance(00:42:19) - Transitioning Between Spiritual Directors: Embracing Change(00:49:25) - Navigating Seasons Without a Spiritual Director(00:51:23) - Leveraging Books for Spiritual Direction and Growth(01:01:34) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable Support the Show.SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 122    This episode covers practical advice for individuals deeply invested in their integrated spiritual and emotional healing journeys. I particularly emphasise the importance of recognising when it might be time to change one's spiritual director or therapist and provide listeners with THREE signs that may indicate that it is time for a change.There is often a natural evolution in such guidance relationships because progress in one's spiritual journey may necessitate change due to the different stages of personal development and the inherent limitations of any single guide. Three main signs indicating the need for a new spiritual direction or therapeutic relationship are elaborated upon: the feeling of plateauing in one's growth, a change in the dynamics of the relationship that may challenge its professional boundaries, and a reduction in the feeling of safety with the current spiritual director or therapist. The discussion also stresses the importance of being trauma-informed and recognising when deeper therapeutic work is needed beyond spiritual direction. This episode will help listeners discern their needs more effectively and make changes that support their ongoing spiritual and emotional growth.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:26) - Introduction(00:01:04) - The Importance of Choosing the Right Spiritual Director or Counselor(00:04:39) - Understanding the Need for Change in Spiritual Guidance(00:10:11) - Sign #1: You're No Longer Growing(00:16:26) - Sign #2: The Relationship Has Changed(00:21:29) - Sign #3: You No Longer Feel Safe(00:30:43) - Navigating the Transition: Moving On(00:36:11) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDid anything resonate with you in my Live sharing? Have you experienced any of the three signs that I've shared? Perhaps you have experienced more that one of the signs. What is stopping you from moving on to other resources?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 121    In this episode of Becoming Me, I delve into the contemplative heart of interior integration. I talk about the integration of spirituality, psychology, neuroscience, and other fields as essential in the journey of self-discovery. Using metaphors and reflecting on my own experiences, I emphasise the role of contemplation in managing life's paradoxes and challenges. I explain how contemplation, or being with God, serves as a foundational point, helping us embrace our complexities and live out our faith deeply. I offer assurance that, despite the complexities of the interior integration journey, finding stability in contemplation can bring peace and grace into our lives. I also suggest ways to cultivate awareness to recognise contemplative moments daily, guiding listeners towards profound self-understanding and a closer relationship with the divine.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:26) - Introduction(00:01:04) - The Heart of Interior Integration(00:09:42) - Exploring the Contemplative Heart(00:12:40) - The Power of Contemplation in Healing(00:15:41) - Embracing Paradoxes and Tensions(00:21:10) - Contemplation: Beyond "Saying Prayers"(00:23:01) - Real-Life Examples of Contemplation(00:37:58) - Cultivating Awareness and Stillness(00:40:11) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat is contemplation? Do you find yourself being constantly busy? Have you experienced the stillness of God's love? Perhaps there has been an instance of this experience of stillness, even during a crisis. How can you live a life of contemplation?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 120    In this episode I highlight three common spiritual blocks: the inability to develop a close and intimate relationship with God, the struggle with being still and silent, and the challenges of discernment and decision-making.We often think of these as spiritual blocks, but in my experience, they have a lot to do with attachment trauma. Spirituality rests on the bedrock of our humanity, it is part of our humanity not apart from it. Our nervous system, body, our emotions, our rational mind - they all form an organic WHOLE that is much more than the sum of each part.This sharing will be particularly beneficial for spiritual directors and formators who may have more learning on spiritual development but less knowledge on how attachment wounds affect people's ability to mature spiritually.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:18) - Introduction(00:00:55) - The Journey of Integration: A Personal Story(00:01:23) - Exploring the Intersection of Spirituality and Personal Growth(00:04:17) - The Role of Emotional Healing in Spiritual Direction(00:07:27) - Unveiling Three Spiritual Blocks Linked to Attachment Trauma(00:08:04) - The Impact of Religion and Spirituality on Mental Health(00:10:05) - Navigating Spiritual Blocks: Personal Reflections and Insights(00:25:40) - Understanding Attachment Styles and Their Influence on Spirituality(00:40:33) - Different Perspectives of Perfection and Wholeness(00:50:00) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced any of the three common spiritual blocks I've spoken about? Do you perhaps recognise these blocks in people close to you, in your communities? Think about an instance where you had to discern. How did it make you feel? Did you feel safe? Did you feel unconditionally loved by God?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 119    In this episode, I discuss the concept of spiritualising forgiveness and its implications in faith and daily life. I talk about how the struggles many people often face in integrating love and forgiveness in their lives are due to an insecure attachment with God and a fear of not doing the right thing. I talk about the pitfalls of spiritualising forgiveness and how true forgiveness should lead to human flourishing rather than spiritual subjugation. I discuss the necessity of healing ourselves instead of just focusing on forgiving others, arguing that forgiveness is both a journey and God's work, not ours alone. I conclude this episode by offering practical advice on working towards forgiveness within a secure relationship with God.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:13) - Introduction(00:00:50) - Exploring the Struggless with Forgiveness(00:03:34) - Three Signs Indicating you may be Spiritualising Forgiveness(00:09:32) - Understanding the True Essesnce of Forgiveness(00:23:09) - Real-Life Complexities of Forgiveness in our Relationships(00:29:48) - Exploring the Process of Forgiveness(00:30:40) - Why do we Spiritualise Forgiveness(00:38:41) - Embracing the Vastness of God's Love(00:47:24) - How to Navigate our Emotions and Forgiveness(00:55:04) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you recognise any of the three signs of spiritualization in your life? Is your attachement with God secure? Perhaps, there is a more concrete step which you can take towards recognising spiritualising forgiveness in your life and relationships. What might that be?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 118    In this episode, I dive deep into the topic of self-care, self-love, and how they relate to spirituality from a Christian perspective. I challenge the common misconception within some Christian circles that self-care may be seen as a sign of weakness or indulgence. I emphasise the importance of recognising our individual, personal needs for care and suggest that neglect of self-care might stem from past trauma. I encourage listeners to understand self-care as an expression of accepting God's love and affirm our worthiness for care, taking time to meet our physical needs without feeling guilty or indulgent. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS00:21 - Introduction00:50 - Exploring the Complexities of Self-Care in our Faith01:50 - The Misconceptions of Self-Care06:04 - Self-Care: Indulgence vs. Discipline13:33 - The Importance of Understanding Personal Needs17:42 - Personalism vs. Individualism: A Deeper Dive26:45 - Embracing Self-Care Without Shame32:05 - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat is your relationship with self-care and self-love? Does it bring up negative feelings or experiences for you? Perhaps you have judged yourself harshing for indulging in self-care, or recognise this in others. How can we be free to care for ourselves?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 117    In this in-depth discussion, I provide a Christian perspective on the journey of healing from complex trauma within a dysfunctional family setting. Six gentle reminders are shared for those trying to manage relationships within such dynamics: acknowledging the enmity; having a trustworthy third party; remembering self-abandonment is not love; not measuring up to an imagined ideal; grounding oneself in God's infinite love; and understanding that God sees the hidden suffering. I emphasise the need for truth, self-protection, understanding the nature of abuse, the necessity of setting boundaries, and the importance of grounding oneself in God's unconditional love.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:23) - Introduction(00:01:16) - The Challenges of Integration and Discipleship(00:03:08) - Navigating Love and Enmity within Our Families(00:04:10) - The Complexities of Healing and Relationships(00:07:36) - Recognising and Addressing Toxic Family Dynamics(00:11:05) - Six Gentle Reminders for Navigating Toxic Relathionships(00:32:48) - Dealing with the Impacts of Setting Boundaries(00:45:02) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDid anything in my sharing resonate with you strongly? Think about the six reminders that I've shared about in this episode. Which of these are the hardest to live out? Which of these reminders give you the most comfort on this journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 116  In this episode I examine the connection between past emotional trauma and present conflicts in relationships. Aided by three personal stories, I illustrate how past familial conflicts have influenced my own internal emotional regulation triggering conflicts in my current relationships, especially within my marriage.I also share how greater self-awareness can lessen the severity of conflicts, promote reconciliation, and foster greater empathy in relationships. I encourage listeners to explore their emotional patterns noticing how certain behaviours might be influenced by past experiences and unresolved issues. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:16) - Introduction(00:00:53) - Understanding the Importance of Interior Integration and Interior Healing(00:03:04) - My Journey of Conflict and Self-Discovery(00:05:57) - The Role of Past Experiences in Current Conflicts(00:13:07) - Example: The Impact of Financial Sress on my Relationships(00:19:55) - Recognising and Addressing Emotional Triggers(00:28:42) - The Journey of Self-Awareness and Healing(00:35:23) - The Importance of Repairing Relationships(00:38:40) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you found yourself uncontrollably upset at someone or at a situation? Are the triggers in your life forming a pattern? Sometimes, we don't realised the effect our wounds have on our body. Certain incidents may trigger something in us, without us cognitively knowing first. Have you experienced something similar? What are your triggers? What are your patterns?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 115  In this episode I explore the concept of 'enmeshment', a term used in psychology to describe dysfunctional family systems marked by poor boundaries between family members and thus over-dependence (and co-dependence). I reflect on how growing up in an enmeshed family has affected my own mental health, relationships, and understanding of faith, leading me to develop a 'Messiah Complex' - or feeling compelled to constantly help others to my own detriment.I highlight the important role of understanding personal emotional health and trauma while practicing faith, and encourage listeners to be more compassionate with themselves, to become more whole, and grow in capacity to love well and healthily.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:21) - Introduction(00:00:58) - Understanding Enmeshment and Attachment Styles(00:06:44) - The Messiah Complex and its Consequences(00:09:06) - My Personal Experiences with the Messiah Complex(00:37:04) - The Impact of Enmeshment on Faith and Relationships(00:43:33) - The Journey Towards Healing and Wholeness(00:45:51) - The Importance of Alignment and Self-Understanding(00:54:59) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced having the Messiah Complex in your life? Perhaps you identify and have felt moments of enmeshment in some of your relationships. How have these experiences hindered your relationship with God? Has it hindered others' relationship with you or with God?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 114  If you're a people-pleaser, chances are good that you also have an insecure attachment with God and that your understanding of "pleasing God" comes from a place of anxiety rather than confidence.This episode discusses the struggles of recovering people pleasers within the context of spiritual life. I  share some insights on a passage from 'Time for God' by Jacques Philippe, addressing the concept of pleasing God and how we can mis-interpret it when we lack healthy self-esteem and self-worth.This is a particularly relevant episode to those struggling with people-pleasing and who often feel concerned that they are not "good enough" at pleasing God.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:33) - Introduction(00:01:21) - The Connection between People-Pleasing and Pleasing God(00:03:28) - The Root Cause of People-Pleasing(00:06:24) - The Importance of Secure Attachement(00:08:40) - The Journey towards Secure Attachment with God(00:11:09) - The Grace of Humility(00:16:07) - The Importance of Interior Integration(00:19:03) - Embracing the Journey(00:21:12) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you identify as a people-pleaser? Perhaps you recognise this in someone else. How does people-pleasing affect your relationship with God and with yourself? We need to have a secure attachment with ourselves and with God. Do you have this? How can you achieve this?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 113  When those of us who never had boundaries start learning to exercise them, it can feel really "wrong" to us and this may keep us second guessing if drawing boundaries is the right thing to do.In this episode I reflect upon the struggle of exercising personal boundaries in the context of faith, familial expectations, and societal norms. I delve into my journey of establishing an authentic relationship with God and how insecurities, trauma, and distorted perceptions can impact this process. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:16) - Introduction(00:08:56) - The Struggle of Exercising Boundaries(00:12:52) - The Impact of Dysfunctional Family Systems(00:21:13) - The Role of Faith in Setting Boundaries(00:38:17) - The Journey Towards Secure Attachment with God(00:39:33) - My Personal Journey Towards Secure Attachment(00:40:35) - The Fear and Anxiety of Making Mistakes(00:43:34) - Embracing Freedom and Trust in God(00:45:19) - The Impact of Secure Attachment on Our Identities(00:46:54) - How to Exercise Boundaries(00:47:15) - Overcoming Fear and Embracing God's Love(00:53:42) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you struggle with boundaries? Think about a particular instance of where and when you were unable to feel safe enough to exercise your boundaries? Do you feel this way with God as well? We are meant to feel safe with ourselves and God. Do you feel this secure attachment yet?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 112   In this episode's deep dive, I explain the vital connection between our senses of identity and security in faith, sharing insights drawn from Catholic tradition, modern psychology, and personal experience. I share about my journey towards developing a secure attachment with God, and how the prayer of the Examen, which originated with St. Ignatius of Loyola, helped me in this journey.   Through integrating perspectives from the study of trauma, I share how focusing on the concept of God's constant and loving presence rather than on self-evaluation helped me to deepen my felt sense of security in God's love for me.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey(00:43:20) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 111   Have you experienced feeling overwhelmed while making the interior journey? In this episode I propose three coping strategies for these difficult periods: the understanding that nothing real changes, realising that we are not the saviours of ourselves or the world, and being extra gentle and mindful towards ourselves. I also highlight the significance of recognising seasons and rhythms in our lives and the importance of self-care during challenging times. This episode is relevant for anyone seeking comfort and guidance when confronting overwhelming emotions during their personal journeys towards authenticity and openness.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey(00:43:20) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 110   Conviction alone can't get you where you want or need to go. When we don't do the work of interior integration we often end up hiding behind our convictions to feel safe instead of flourishing because we are rooted in a secure relationship with God and our Self.In this episode, I explore how personal integration is a crucial factor for living an authentic and balanced life. I share from my personal experience how having strong convictions doesn't necessarily lead to fruitful actions. Instead, it is the work of facing and accepting one's truths without fear, healing, and evolving through different stages of growth that helps us to become more open to divine grace and bear good fruit.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:01) - The Importance of Conviction and Integration(00:07:20) - The Role of Trauma in Personal Growth(00:10:21) - Virtue and Emotion Regulation(00:11:51) - The Struggle of Living Out Convictions(00:13:58) - God's Love in Personal Transformation(00:25:58) - The Challenge of Living Out Conovictions in Relationships(00:26:59) - The Journey of Healing and Integration(00:29:52) - The Role of Discernment in the Interior Journey(00:43:20) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced being full of passion and conviction about the kind of life you want to live while realising that you don't have the power to make that conviction a reality in your life? Can you identify how a lack of integration may be the reason for that?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.CLARITY INTERIOR INTEGRATION JOURNEYApplications Open Now (till 29 Feb 2024)

Episode 109   What's the difference that healing and integration makes we  get triggered back into old insecurities and anxieties? We often expect that healing will result in the absence of struggles but in reality, the journey involves self-awareness and fostering a sense of internal freedom with which we learn to manage our anxieties and insecurities. In this episode I recount a personal experience in which I was able to regain composure and freedom after encountering a stressful situation which had triggered me into being fearful and anxious. The integration journey slowly increases our ability to find the interior freedom to respond rather than just react, allowing us to be more wholly human even in our struggles.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:42) - Introduction(00:01:21) - The Healing Journey(00:02:58) - Experiencing Healing(00:04:04) - The Role of God in the Healing Journey(00:05:31) - The Struggle with Insecurities and Fears(00:08:53) - The Power of Self-Awareness in Healing(00:10:33) - Regaining Freedom through Healing(00:14:18) - The Role of Prayer and Discernment in Healing(00:17:22) - The Impact of Healing and Integration(00:19:30) - The Complexity & Courage of the Healing Journey(00:22:44) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTCan you identity with any part of the experience I shared in this episode about getting triggered and re-centering myself? What, in your experience, is an early sign you can pick up on that you are being triggered? What have you found useful as a first step to halt the slide into further anxiety or panic?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 108   In this episode, I delve into how understanding complex trauma has helped me in my spiritual life. I share how certain challenges I face, such as emotional regulation in stressful environments, couldn't be solved merely through deepening my spiritual life and prayer routine. By learning more about trauma, I discovered how coping mechanisms and defense mechanisms have shaped my personality and reactions. I share how learning about trauma has led me to see myself more wholly and helped me to be more compassionately curious and courageous in my interior integration journey.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:03:24 ) - New Season Updates(00:14:47) - Introduction(00:16:05) - The Connection Between Spiritual Journey and Trauma(00:18:54) - The Struggle With Spiritual Growth(00:20:37) - The Revelation Of A Shaky Foundation(00:23:56) - Understanding Complex Trauma(00:27:26) - The Impact of Trauma On The Nervous System(00:28:30) - The Integration of Body, Mind and Spirit(00:29:51) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTWhat emotional response do you have to this episode? Are you open to exploring how trauma affects your own spiritual journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 107   Do you feel overwhelmed in Advent and more tense than usual? Does that make you feel guilty all the more because it makes you feel like you're not "doing" Advent well?In this bonus episode, I share my personal experiences about the overwhelming feelings often associated with the Advent season, particularly for those on a trauma recovery journey. I talk about my struggles with complex trauma and how my wounds show up specifically during the Christian Advent season. This episode highlights the difficult balance between religious traditions, family scripts, and self-care. I emphasise the importance of pace, space, and grace especially if we are in a season of healing and share personal strategies for managing anxiety during this Advent season.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00 ) Introduction and Context(02:13) The Impact of Trauma on Advent Experience(03:58) Recognising Overwhelm and Trauma Responses(06:08) The Role of Family and Faith Traditions(07:48) The Challenge of Trauma Recovery During Advent(10:50) The Importance of Agency and Choice(13:12) Managing Overwhelm: Pace, Space and Grace(21:27) Personal Experiences and Choices(32:24) Conclusion and Final ThoughtsREFLECTION PROMPTDo you recognise any signs of overwhelm in your body during this Advent season? What scripts (societal / familial / religious) may be activated for you during this lead up to Christmas? Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 106     Have you ever felt that gut-wrenching feeling that something just isn't right in your life, but couldn't quite pinpoint the cause? That sense of dissonance might actually be the key to unlocking a more authentic and fulfilling life. In this heartfelt conversation, I examine the importance of authenticity and attunement, and how these two conflicting needs can cause us to lose touch with our inner compass. I share my own struggles with finding and maintaining integrity, and discuss how the discomfort of dissonance can be seen as a blessing rather than a burden. By recognizing and acknowledging this feeling in our lives, we can use it as an invitation to move towards greater self-awareness and self-love.This episode will leave you with a newfound appreciation for the value of dissonance in your life and the journey towards authenticity.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:06:08) Introduction(00:06:45) What is Dissonance?(00:11:47) Filling the Emptiness(00:15:14) Authenticity & Attachment Needs(00:17:00) Dissonance is a Blessing(00:18:34) My Experiences of Dissonance(00:30:10) Moving Towards Authenticity and Integrity(00:34:56) Are you Experiencing Dissonance?(00:36:37) ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTAre you currently experiencing dissonance in your life? Sit with it, bring it to God. What is one way you can live more authentically?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 105           “What's an interior integration coach and why are you one?”I often get asked how what I do is different from spiritual direction, counselling/therapy and life coaching.In this last episode from the 30 day challenge series I explain what interior integration specifically addresses and how the kind of coaching I do draws upon, differs from, complements and integrates other approaches to inner work.You may wish to check out A Leader's Spirituality, an online course I teach that provides an experiential introduction to interior integration, and Clarity: Interior Integration Journey, an 8-month long small group coaching journey that facilitates pilgrims into clearer self-knowledge and deeper acceptance.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:44) - Introduction(00:03:33) - Interior Integration(00:11:47) - Why I Do What I Do(00:27:22) - Integration Coach VS Counselling & Spiritual Direction(00:32:10) - Making Sense of the Data(00:33:25) - Praxis (00:38:48) - Stringing the Clues Together(00:49:58) - Sharing my Story(01:11:06) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTHas anything from today's Live resonated with you? Do you feel like you are tapping on the right resources for yourself, at this particular point in your journey? Remeber that each journey is unique and each call and mission is unrepeatable. Sit with this. Ponder this.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 104           Why is it that even when we KNOW what we need to do and when we even try to do “the right things” so few of us truly thrive and flourish?In this episode I share how getting things done (even when they are good things) without attunement to ourselves, to God and others will lead to us showing up more and more as “empty shells” and using one another as objects instead of loving one another into flourishing.I also talk about why slowing down, cherishing stillness, and taking care of ourselves are all essential for our thriving and for us to bring others into flourishing as well.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:20) - Introduction(00:02:14) - Attunement for Interior Integration(00:06:31) - Truth without Attunement(00:14:51) - Flourishing(00:19:27) - Presence and Attunement(00:24:20) - Spiritual Fruit(00:26:13) - Slowing Down(00:28:18) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTHow well do you think you are attuned to yourself on a scale of 1 to 10? Do you have this same level of attunement with God and with those around you? Have you ever felt unseen or unheard? Perhaps you were were unable to attune or be present to someone in your life. Ponder this, write it down when you're ready.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 103           There is a secret shame and hidden pain for those of us whose community (family/church) value marriage and children when our marriage situation does not match that “ideal”.In this episode I responded to someone who asked how she could be authentic to herself, God and others in her struggle to make sense of her infertility. How can she still believe in the goodness of God and his love for her?I share my own journey in this area - a story I have only shared privately thus far because of my own fear of judgment in the past. But I am grateful now to be able to share my story of being married and childless as an offering. May this story find you if you needed to hear it.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:27) - Introduction(00:05:45) - Fertility and Childlessness(00:08:02) - Shame(00:16:47) - My Retreat Experience(00:26:28) - Freedom to Accept the Answer(00:31:54) - Ready in Acceptance(00:37:11) - Childlessness and our Interior Journey(00:41:29) - Authenticity(00:48:21) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTAre you struggling with your life or family state? Do you perhaps know someone who is struggling? If we are not struggling, have we been gentle and kind to those around us, who may be struggling?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 102           "What real life difference does interior healing make in our day to day living?""What difference does healing make to the way we see, approach and experience the interior journey?""What does one need to do to begin healing?""And how does the soul feel when we move from a season of healing/deepening to a season of equipping and then sending?"The interior journey happens deep below the surface of what we do in our daily life but our interior state - how integrated or fragmented we are - has a huge impact on our emotional resilience, interior freedom and integrity. In this latest episode of my podcast I answer some listener questions about how making the interior journey of integration has impacted my life.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:31) - Introduction(00:02:08) - How has Healing Changed Me and My Interior Journey?(00:04:45) - More Authentic(00:08:35) - More Safe(00:09:47) - Hope(00:13:02) - Understanding the Multi-Dimensional Aspects of the Interior Journey(00:16:03) - More Patience in my Journey(00:18:35) - How to Start Healing(00:19:10) - Awareness(00:20:31) - Support(00:27:54) - Seasons of the Interior Journey(00:29:38) - Silence and Solitude(00:35:54) - Sending and Deepening(00:45:04) - ConclusionREFLECTION PROMPTAfter listening to my sharing on how inner healing has changed me and my interior journey, which part of my sharing resonates with you? Which season of the interior journey do you think you are in? What steps can you take to deepen your healing on this journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Becoming Me Podcast on Facebook & InstagramFollow Ann Yeong on Facebook & InstagramWebsite:Visit www.becomingmepodcast.com to leave me a message and sign up for my newsletter! To see where else you can connect with me or my content, click HERE.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.