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In this special time of the Tales of Recovery Podcast, I sit down with my friend and former megachurch pastor Ryan Meeks and Michelle to talk about his painful, public journey out of evangelical certainty — through theological doubt, cancer, and the slow return to embodiment and intimacy. Together we discuss his new book, the gruesome process of awakening, psychedelics, therapy, community, and the couple's work at Nautilus Integration helping people navigate transformation, relational healing, and spiritual integration rooted in love and presence. You can order his book their  https://nautilusintegration.com/  Here are my thoughts on his written story: It is a difficult enough process to get out of, or under the constructions and pressure of cultural upbringing and religion.  The questioning, lifting and removing of belief systems is a gruesome, almost pathological fear process in the journey   of awakening.  This book seemed so personal to me- not just because I know Ryan and Michele, and the fact that they completely opened, supported and held  Julio and myself in our journey. To be right alongside and behind them during this process of awakening, doubts, fear, grief, what seems like betrayal, and a deeper longing and connection to our true nature and most of all Love, is a treasure I dearly hold on to.  Ryan explains himself in this book with such beauty, compassion and simplicity through this absurdly difficult process.   How he walks through it, and then, on the other side writes about the continuous connection to spirit or to the miraculous unknown that is this beautiful mystery that we are and have the opportunity to experience with such compassion and love.  Life is a Gift and Love is the point was not only a phenomenal reliving of my last 10 years of processing, growth and settling into my body- but an encouragement to anybody out there who's still in the middle of deciding whether they need to stay under beliefs or become the compost that rebirths, a new breath of understanding how simple life can really be.    

Send us a textToday's topic is Powerless Not Hopeless: Surrendering to Win.  We welcome our guest co-host Becky to the show today.  

Ryan's story is a powerful journey through early substance use, deep loss, incarceration, and ultimately finding real recovery. From growing up seeking acceptance, to losing his closest friend at 16, to years of cycling between numbness and despair, Ryan opens up about the turning points that shifted his life. He reflects on the moment he almost gave up, how connection inside prison planted the first seeds of recovery, and how service, honesty, and community helped him rebuild his life. Today, with six months in recovery, a thriving small business, and strong family relationships, Ryan talks about healing, purpose, and the simple daily actions that keep him grounded. His message to anyone struggling: you're not alone, and recovery is absolutely possible.00:00 – Intro & Recovery Dates00:52 – How They First Met01:19 – Reuniting Inside AA Meetings02:07 – Ryan's Childhood03:26 – Meeting the Friend Who Shaped Everything04:00 – First Time Trying to “Feel Something”05:00 – Becoming the “Go-To” Guy05:36 – The Night Everything Changed07:27 – Grief He Never Faced08:30 – Homeless at 1809:30 – Crossing Lines & Getting Arrested10:19 – “Recovery Curious”12:43 – Hearing the 15-Year Offer14:17 – The Serenity Prayer Moment16:05 – Tier 4 Program & Real Change17:15 – Coming Home With Purpose18:44 – Finding Community Again19:58 – Being Around Recovery vs. In Recovery21:42 – Substitution & Spiraling22:28 – Losing Himself Again23:08 – New Year's at His Friend's Grave24:21 – Choosing Recovery For Real25:00 – Returning to CCAR25:46 – Life in Recovery Today26:43 – Rebuilding Family Bonds27:27 – Growing His Landscaping Business28:20 – Daily Program & Service28:59 – “If I Can Do It, Anyone Can”29:25 – Advice for the First 24 Hours ----Across the Web----

In this episode of Fishing Without Bait, Jim Ellermeyer guides listeners through one of the most transformative practices in mindfulness and recovery: letting go. Whether it's old fears, expectations, resentments, or the emotional weight we've carried for years, Jim explains how release is not weakness—it's liberation. Through grounded insight, 12-step philosophy, and real-world examples, Jim explores: • Why letting go feels so difficult • How control and fear keep us stuck • The connection between surrender and mindfulness • How to recognize what you're still carrying • Practical ways to soften your grip and reclaim peace This episode invites you to step out of old patterns and into a more open, honest, intentional life. If you're ready to grow, breathe, and move forward—this conversation is for you.

This week Darcy and I get together for a review of the last few weeks and it gets pretty wild. Mostly because I was there, as usual, yammering up a storm and laughing like a hyena. If you can stand the hyper active David, give us a listen. If not, give us a listen anyway. You'll hear Darcy's smooth voice sutbly calming the manic me. So there's that. We talk about protesting and things related. We talk about this city being exactly what activists have been telling us for years. At this point, if you can't see our city as a violent, cop city then you may be dead or under a rock. I talk about supporting legal funds for activists like that for the Calgary People's Assembly, Stop The Stack YYC, etc. We discuss  Freedom's Path Recovery Society and Voices in Recovery Podcast news. We also mention our friend, Taylor McNallie, who is constantly harrased by the Calgary police service. She was arrested by them once again while her child in the car. You may think it happens all the the time. It does to her and others every day. Their goal is to make her react so they can stack more charges. You see the police do not care that she is not breaking the law. Their constant harassment of Taylor is not only unnecessary, it resembles daily torture and one more way for the police to keep her from living a normal life. They are afraid of her, of her relentless efforts to destroy the illusion many of us have of police agencies and our desperate need to abolish such. Know your enemy folkx. It's not an individual. It's the entire system and the police are the henchmen.

www.patreon.con/dopeypodcastThis Week on Dopey! I'm in Philly at the Rise for Recovery Conference! I was on Soft White Underbelly! I read Spotify comments, and one of the single greatest dopey emails ever! And Old School Dopey Kirby sends in a voicemail about what it means to be an addict. Then we welcome the incredible Roddy Bottum, keyboardist for Faith No More and lead singer/guitar of Imperial Teen, and author of his new book, The Royal We. Roddy talks about growing up gay in a hard-rock world, his early San Francisco punk days, and how Courtney Love briefly joined Faith No More before their friendship and drug use turned dark. He remembers touring with the Chili Peppers, getting arrested for weed, experimenting with heroin, and being surrounded by chaos as Faith No More blew up with “Epic.”Roddy opens up about how addiction and grief collided — the deaths of his friend Cliff, Kurt Cobain, and especially his father, who died of cancer soon after Roddy got sober. He and Dave talk about recovery, guilt, and the weirdness of surviving when so many others didn't. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

From shining shoes at the Connecticut State Capitol to surviving gang violence, addiction, and multiple prison sentences—Luis Flores has lived through it all. In this gripping episode of Recovery Matters, Luis opens up about his descent into Hartford's drug trade, the pain of losing friends, and the night five guns were pointed at him—and didn't go off. But his story doesn't end in tragedy. After years trapped in addiction and incarceration, Luis found faith, redemption, and purpose through writing. Today, he's the author of Don't Judge Me, a raw memoir soon to be adapted into a movie. His transformation is proof that no matter how far you've fallen, recovery—and even greatness—is still possible. ----Across the Web----

Corey, Marney, & Cori talk about what's coming up & Corey points out some details we've been overlooking.

Welcome to this episode of the Tales of Recovery Podcast, where we dive deep into a conversation about life's challenges and the beauty of embracing its messiness. Our guest shares their journey through the struggles of winter's harshness, the transformative power of polyamory, and the revelations of self-discovery. Listen as we explore the significance of breaking free from societal conditioning, finding creative outlets, and the importance of self-compassion. Join us as we discuss the transition from a structured life to one filled with creativity and exploration. We reflect on the necessity of integration, understanding personal limits, and the vital role that somatic work plays in healing and growth. This episode offers candid insights into parenting, questioning established norms, and nurturing individuality in ourselves and our children. Tune in to hear about the power of change, resilience, and the journey toward a more authentic life. You can get Sunny's book here: https://www.etsy.com/listing/1864479142/clowns-off-duty-adult-coloring-book-kids?etsrc=sdt   https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0FGWCW1W4?ref=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cso_cp_apin_dp_Y41DM2JF03G5ZP27YAKA&ref_=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cso_cp_apin_dp_Y41DM2JF03G5ZP27YAKA&social_share=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cso_cp_apin_dp_Y41DM2JF03G5ZP27YAKA&bestFormat=true&csmig=1  

Send us a textToday's topic is Becoming Someone's Tribe: How We Show Up for Others with Lauren R

My guest today is Dr. Hector — a psychiatrist who specializes in helping people heal from addiction, PTSD, anxiety, and depression through a trauma-informed approach. He blends neuroscience, medication, and therapy with nutrition and lifestyle tools to support whole-person healing.    What I love about his work is that it's not just clinical — it's deeply compassionate. He helps people understand how their brain and body work together so they can build resilience, recover from addiction, and truly heal from the inside out.   He shares why most people relapse not because of willpower, but because trauma remains unresolved. From the role of GABA in calming the nervous system to how EMDR helps reprocess trauma, this episode is packed with practical tools and compassionate wisdom for anyone on the healing path.   Before we jump in, I have a new segment, called “A question for you!” Today I want to know how you feel about the word “Alcoholic”.    I was interviewed on another podcast today and the host told me he thought it was a shame label. If you know me even a little bit, you'll know that the way I define it - it's a badge of honor, but also, it doesn't matter to me what you call yourself, as long as you get the support you need to heal and break free from addiction. So what do you think? Leave your comment under this episode at odaatchat.com Or leave a comment on my Instagram: @arlinaallen Next week I'll share some of your responses! Be sure to subscribe so you don't miss out. And with that, please enjoy this episode with Dr Hector. Guest Contact Info: doctorhector.com

Dave opens this Tuesday Dopey Patreon teaser by reflecting on feeling burnt out, upcoming dental implant surgery, and the need to slow down. He jokes about “cultivating illness” to get rest and shares his current obsession with the Martin Scorsese documentary series Mr. Scorsese, hoping listeners will “pray and manifest” Scorsese appearing on Dopey. He talks about Scorsese's film legacy, calling Goodfellas untouchable.Dave reads a Spotify comment from Emma about a pork ad and debates if it's anti-Semitic, then begins a new segment reading from Miles Davis's autobiography — a vivid story about Charlie Parker pawning Miles's belongings for heroin.Next, longtime Dopey Nation member Selby calls in with a story about getting through TSA with weed gummies and ends with “stay strong, Dopey Nation, and fucking toodles for Chris.” Dave laughs about TSA searches, harmonicas being mistaken for weapons, and promises either to play harmonica on the road or stop traveling with it.The teaser transitions into the Patreon preview with Ray Brown and Dave's dad, where a discussion about politics erupts — his dad talks about kindness, empathy, immigration, and frustration with leadership. Dave tries to steer it back but ends up apologizing for the tangent. The teaser closes with Dave's song “I Wanna Be Good So Bad,” a raw, humorous original with lyrics about bad desire, frustration, calling his dad, and seeking peace and love.  Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

In this eye-opening episode of Fishing Without Bait, host Jim Ellermeyer is joined once again by producer Mike Sorg to explore how modern media shapes our identities, fuels our purchases, and even distorts our sense of self-worth. From emotional manipulation in advertising to influencer culture and data-driven targeting, Jim and Mike unpack the psychological tactics behind today's media and tech. How does a Power Glove from the '80s connect to the viral influencer culture of today? Are we in control of our choices—or are we reacting without realizing it? In this episode: • Why media makes us feel “less than” • Celebrity endorsements vs. authentic influence • Targeted ads, data mining, and algorithmic persuasion • Unrealistic expectations and identity loss in the digital age • The mental health toll of comparison culture • What it really means to be unmanageable • Mindful practices to resist manipulation “It's much easier to fool someone than to convince them they're being fooled.” Take a breath. Check the facts. And most importantly—remember who you are.

In this eye-opening episode of Fishing Without Bait, host Jim Ellermeyer is joined once again by producer Mike Sorg to explore how modern media shapes our identities, fuels our purchases, and even distorts our sense of self-worth. From emotional manipulation in advertising to influencer culture and data-driven targeting, Jim and Mike unpack the psychological tactics behind today's media and tech. How does a Power Glove from the '80s connect to the viral influencer culture of today? Are we in control of our choices—or are we reacting without realizing it? In this episode: • Why media makes us feel “less than” • Celebrity endorsements vs. authentic influence • Targeted ads, data mining, and algorithmic persuasion • Unrealistic expectations and identity loss in the digital age • The mental health toll of comparison culture • What it really means to be unmanageable • Mindful practices to resist manipulation “It's much easier to fool someone than to convince them they're being fooled.” Take a breath. Check the facts. And most importantly—remember who you are.

Send us a textToday's topic is The Dance of Leadership and Service in Recovery with Lauren R

Sometimes in life, it's hard to handle the tough times. We may try out a lot of things but we might not be able to easily take our head out of the problems we go through. Further, we may also be stuck in a never ending loop of thoughts and overwhelming emotions..!!!

On this week's podcast, we have the privilege of hearing from Paula R. She shared her story and her new book, Hitchhiking into Recovery. 30 Tools to Stay Sober All Year Round! Here is a link to an online version of the Tao Te Ching that we use in every meeting: https://ttc.tasuki.org/display:Year:1972,1988,1996,2004/section:80 You can download a free PDF of the most current version of Powerless But Not Helpless, a Recovery Interpretation of the Tao Te Ching, at www.BuddyC.org. You are welcome to share, post, and distribute this book anywhere that you believe it will be of help. You can also access a free daily Tao Recovery Email, a list of podcasts, and many other recovery resources.   Join our private Facebook group and continue the conversation! Here is the link: https://www.facebook.com/groups/TaoPodcast/ or search Tao of Our understanding Podcast.   A Course in Miracles - Daily lessons from the 365-Day Course in Miracles Calendar. See the notes in each entry for a more detailed description.  Click Here to add the Course in Miracles Calendar to your Google Calendar   Daily Thought is a daily Google Calendar you can add to your  Google Calendar. It provides a daily thought that combines elements of Christian, ACIM, Tao, and AA. Click here to add the Daily Thought Calendar to your Google Calendar    Nightly 9 pm eastern Zoom A.A. Meeting www.ZoomAAMeetings.com   Would you like to receive a free daily topic email with the most popular A.A. resources, accompanied by a secret Facebook group for discussion? Go to www.DailyAAEmails.com for more information!

This week, Merrit reflects on what sobriety has meant to him during different stages of his journey.  Tune in as he celebrates 17 years sober!Purchase a copy of Merrit's book "Lost Innocence" by visiting: amazon.comFor the audiobook version, visit Merrit on Instagram @merrithartblay and click the link in his bio.Hosted by: Merrit HartblayExecutive Producer: Jess Branashttp://www.branasenterprises.com

Send us a textToday's topic is Change is the Only Constant ~ Growing in Recovery with Michael M

Send us a textToday's topic is Borrowing Love in Recovery ❤️ Let Us Love You Until You Can Love Yourself with Michael M

This week, Merrit is joined by Maura who, after the loss of her son and mom, found herself debilitated and alone.  Tune in as they chat about how she turned her loneliness into discovery and connection with herself and others.Purchase a copy of Merrit's book "Lost Innocence" by visiting: amazon.comFor the audiobook version, visit Merrit on Instagram @merrithartblay and click the link in his bio.Hosted by: Merrit HartblayExecutive Producer: Jess Branashttp://www.branasenterprises.com

Host TJ sits down with author Ian Fee, who shares his raw and unfiltered journey through addiction, family struggles, and the path to lasting recovery. From taking his first sip of alcohol at just one year old, to believing booze was his “superpower,” Ian's story is filled with both chaos and redemption.He opens up about how alcohol shaped his childhood, his career, and his relationships—including two failed marriages and painful letters from his children describing life with a “party dad.” Ian also recounts his turning point in rehab, where he realized that true change had to start with himself.Now eight years sober, Ian talks about rebuilding his life through gratitude, community, and daily habits. He shares practical advice for those in early recovery, the importance of your “circle,” and how he transformed his pain into purpose by writing his book Wild Ride to Sobriety. This conversation is a must-listen for anyone seeking hope, resilience, and proof that it's never too late to change.Ian's book Wild Ride To Sobriety: A Transformation from Drunken Oblivion to Profound Clarity can be purchased on Amazon: https://a.co/d/due58IO 00:00 – Welcome & Introduction00:34 – Growing up in an alcohol-centered home02:00 – Childhood party life & first jobs serving drinks03:40 – College years: booze as a “superpower”05:00 – Alcohol and career success in the hotel industry05:43 – Marriage, kids, and the cost of addiction07:14 – Stacking “rock bottoms” and going to rehab08:30 – Turning point: realizing change starts with self09:19 – Emotional impact: letters from his children11:06 – Life after rehab & the power of community13:39 – Learning to feel emotions & forgive himself15:29 – Writing Wild Ride to Sobriety17:11 – Building transformation through daily habits18:26 – The practice of gratitude19:16 – Advice for the first 24 hours of recovery20:44 – The importance of your circle & relationships21:09 – Book launch & where to find it22:26 – Setting small, achievable goals in recovery23:18 – Closing thoughts & inspiration ----Across the Web----

Send us a textToday's topic is Expect the Unexpected.  This episode was recorded live at the Western Roundup Living Sober conference located in San Francisco.  

This week, Merrit is joined by friend and author of "Wild Ride to Sobriety" Ian Fee, as they discuss how he broke his cycle of addiction to alcohol to embrace sobriety through personal growth.Purchase a copy of Merrit's book "Lost Innocence" by visiting: amazon.comFor the audiobook version, visit Merrit on Instagram @merrithartblay and click the link in his bio.Hosted by: Merrit HartblayExecutive Producer: Jess Branashttp://www.branasenterprises.com

Send us a textToday's topic is Clingy, Caring or Codependant?  Relationships in Recovery

Victor Reynolds shares his powerful recovery journey on the Recovery Matters Podcast. Raised in an environment of violence and addiction, he was taught to be heartless from a young age. By nine, he was on the streets, caught up in crime, substances, and chaos. Years of dust, drinking, robberies, and prison time left him broken, but also searching for meaning.His turning point came when he faced federal charges and later battled congestive heart failure while incarcerated. After multiple near-death experiences and what he describes as a divine encounter with an “angel,” Victor embraced faith and recovery. Today, he lives with humility, gratitude, and a mission to help others who are still struggling. His story is one of transformation, hope, and the belief in second chances.00:00 – Introduction: TJ & Victor00:21 – Growing up without emotions00:44 – Father's influence & gangster lifestyle01:18 – Early street life & family struggles02:17 – First substances: dust & drinking02:43 – Crime, stickups, and first arrest03:30 – Denial of addiction problems04:00 – Prison life & getting high inside05:00 – Feeling invincible on substances06:05 – Father's Day with his sons – breaking moment07:21 – Facing federal charges & prison time08:10 – Congestive heart failure diagnosis09:49 – Near-death experiences & survival13:11 – Belief in God's protection & a new heart15:02 – The mysterious Dr. Kennedy encounter18:25 – Faith, recovery, and humility19:00 – Advice for people in their first 24 hours of recovery ----Across the Web----

Send us a textToday's topic is Pills, Not Thrills. Medications in Recovery with Ana R

Where healing truly begins is often not with answers—but with a question. In this episode, we explore what it means to begin your healing journey after sexual trauma. From the importance of safety and nervous system readiness to the power of narrative reclamation, you'll learn why healing isn't about rushing or rehashing, but about choosing how and when your story wants to be heard. This conversation is rooted in compassion, somatic awareness, and the gentle philosophy we live by at The Empowering Story. If you're wondering how to take that first step, this is for you.

In this episode of Recovery Matters, Brian shares his powerful journey from sports and college life to struggling with alcohol, cocaine, and compulsive gambling. He opens up about the chaos of addiction, the turning points that led him into treatment, and how community and recovery gave him a new life. Today, Brian works to support others in recovery, offering hope and connection for anyone struggling with addiction or gambling.00:00 – Introductions & basketball as an outlet01:22 – Childhood, family, and sports identity02:52 – First drink at 14 and finding belonging05:40 – College years, gambling, and substance use09:57 – “Getting away with it” and white privilege11:00 – Gambling wins, cocaine habit, and detox15:00 – Early treatment attempts and relapse18:26 – Darkest days in Brooklyn19:57 – Last bet and last drink22:45 – Surrender and finding real recovery25:20 – Building community through sober housing30:58 – Moving to Connecticut and collegiate recovery work33:44 – Life in recovery today35:02 – Advice for someone in their first 24 hours ----Across the Web----

In this episode of Fishing Without Bait, Jim Ellermeyer and producer Mike Sorg take a transformative dive into a concept often overlooked in recovery, education, parenting, and everyday life: positive chain analysis. Rather than dwelling on mistakes or missteps, Jim challenges us to ask a better question—What worked? When something goes right in your life, your recovery, your work, or your relationships, how often do you pause and examine the people, places, and circumstances that helped make it happen? Through stories from the production world, recovery work, and even the brewing of a perfect glass of iced tea, this episode is packed with practical wisdom and mindful reflection. ✨ Topics include: • Why we need to reinforce success, not just correct failure • How to build confidence in teams and individuals • Ways to encourage children and students through curiosity • The power of journaling to document what did work • A sneak peek into our new 365-day mindfulness activity calendar

This week, Merrit is joined once again by his friend Pedro as they chat about letting your intuition guide you through your journey to sobriety instead of the external factors that create obstacles.Purchase a copy of Merrit's book "Lost Innocence" by visiting: amazon.comFor the audiobook version, visit Merrit on Instagram @merrithartblay and click the link in his bio.Hosted by: Merrit HartblayExecutive Producer: Jess Branashttp://www.branasenterprises.com

Send us a textToday's topic is Queer BIPOC Representation in Recovery Spaces.  With Guests Leo B and Troix B.  

Dr. Chad McDonald is the Chief Medical Officer at InterCommunity (a not-for-profit, addiction and behavioral health leaning FQHC-LA in the Greater Hartford, CT area), where he has the privilege of helping people find hope and healing through recovery. Initially a family physician by training, Dr. McDonald became board-certified in Addiction Medicine after witnessing the impact of substance use disorders on people close to him. Today, he works alongside a dedicated team providing compassionate, whole-person care for individuals and families across Greater Hartford.In addition to his clinical and leadership work, Dr. McDonald serves as Connecticut's Physician Addiction State Champion with the Opioid Response Network and is an appointed member of the Health Information Technology Advisory Committee (HITAC), where he advocates for using health IT to reduce barriers to care and strengthen recovery supports.Dr. McDonald believes that recovery is possible for everyone and that access to care should never be out of reach. For anyone ready to begin their recovery journey—or for loved ones seeking help—InterCommunity offers medical detox, residential rehab, and outpatient programs. Learn more at https://www.intercommunityct.org/ ----Across the Web----

Send us a textToday's topic is Sober But Still Messy

In this episode of Fishing Without Bait, Jim Ellermeyer and producer Mike explore the “Three Big C's” that drain joy and positivity from our lives: comparing, criticizing, and complaining. We discuss how these habits act like emotional vampires, sucking the energy from every room, and why avoiding them leads to a more mindful, fulfilling life. Through stories of sports legends like John Wooden, reflections on culture, and lessons from film, Jim offers practical insights on how to plant flowers instead of weeds in your daily moments. Life isn't measured in years—it's measured in the choices we make right now. Join us as we reflect on how to let go of negativity, embrace kindness, and live each moment well.

Send us a textToday's topic is Love and Tolerance of Others But Also Shut The Fu&k Up!

Join us for a candid conversation with Janice V. Johnson Dowd, a mother, social worker, and author who courageously shares her journey through addiction and recovery. She provides an intimate look at the difficult process of rebuilding relationships and the transformative power of her book, "Rebuilding Relationships in Recovery." Discover how she turned her pain into a purpose to help other families heal.Please comment on the episode and share with a friend. Thank youFollow Janice's Journey with the links below. Book: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/rebuilding-relationships-in-recovery-janice-v-johnson-dowd-lmsw/1146275116Blog:https://www.janicejohnsondowd.com/blogIG: https://www.instagram.com/janicejohnsondowdhttps://www.instagram.com/parenting_in_recoveryPodcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/6Ijw5qV1jbrhiYhzDRQxeq?si=7cq3-RQvSQOa-gKXGMS54Qhttps://linktr.ee/intelligenceontherocksWebsite: https://www.janicejohnsondowd.com/

Send us a textAlcohol was just the symptom. Matt and Steve talk about childhood wounds, confidence, and why lasting sobriety can take more than AA. From therapy to medical care, they share the tools that keep them sober—and why it's okay to build your own recovery path.Love the show? Stay connected between episodes with the Sober Friends Dispatch—our Substack newsletter packed with real stories, honest reflections, and tools to help you live your best sober life.

Sean Hemeon shares his powerful journey from a chaotic childhood in a strict Mormon household, through struggles with identity, addiction, and dangerous high-stakes drug dealing, to long-term recovery and reconciliation with his family. He opens up about feeling “not enough” from an early age, the role alcohol and drugs played in numbing that pain, and how his life spiraled into violence, federal charges, and life-threatening situations. After narrowly escaping prison, Sean entered recovery in 2004 and has since built a life grounded in service, creativity, and healing. He reflects on the emotional turning points that shaped his sobriety, including confronting deep wounds with his mother, finding community in recovery, and pursuing his passion for acting and art. Today, he uses his story, and soon to be released as a memoir, as a testament to the transformative power of connection, forgiveness, and purpose.More on Sean Hemeon: https://www.seanhemeon.com00:00 – Introductions & sobriety dates00:35 – Childhood in a Mormon household, family chaos, and parental conflict02:11 – Early emotional neglect and feelings of not being enough03:42 – Teenage identity crisis and discovering same-sex attraction04:58 – First experiences with alcohol and instant connection to its effects07:31 – High school years: masking identity, increasing substance use, hidden relationship10:13 – Violence and abandonment; deepening shame and isolation11:26 – Core belief of “I'm not enough” and the cycle of addiction13:05 – College years, heartbreak, suicide attempt, and coming out to his mother15:00 – Immersion in DC's gay club scene and early drug experiences16:18 – Meeting a meth dealer boyfriend; thrill of underground life18:57 – Becoming a dealer, escalating risks, and major consequences20:56 – Federal arrest, decision not to inform, and mysterious case dismissal22:34 – Six more weeks using before calling parents for help23:20 – Entering treatment, relapse on inhalants, and final decision to get sober25:00 – Extent of substance use before recovery26:28 – Biggest regret: a friend's overdose and missed chance to help27:00 – Recovery process: embracing 12-step programs and community29:28 – Moving to LA, finding strong recovery support, and focusing on rebuilding30:55 – Powerful meeting story about service and greater purpose in recovery31:43 – Evolving beyond 12-step rigidity and exploring spirituality32:43 – Breaking ties with his mother to protect his recovery34:35 – Slow reconnection and pivotal forgiveness moment during the pandemic36:24 – Emotional apology from his mother and her walking him down the aisle38:52 – Reflection on miracles, higher purpose, and the role of addiction in finding connection39:01 – The memoir The Good Little Drug Lord—origin, writing process, and future release41:53 – Staying connected via Instagram and newsletter42:05 – Advice for someone in their first 24 hours of recovery42:50 – Closing thanks and CCAR's Telephone Recovery Support information ----Across the Web----

Send us a textToday's topic is Financial Insecurity: When Your Credit Score is in Early Recovery

Send us a textToday's topic is Not Everyone Stays, People Leave Recovery 

On the Tales of Recovery Podcast today: Join Gris and Tiffany as they explore the incredible potential of microdo&ing as a tool for healing, creativity, and breaking the shackles of a mundane routine. Tiffany Hurd is a Microdosing Advisor, Business Leadership Mentor, and Speaker with over a decade of experience pioneering the use of psychedelics for healing, growth, and professional development. She has helped more than 500 individuals and teams unlock clarity, creativity, emotional balance, and resilience through intentional microdosing protocols. After 16+ years in corporate healthcare leadership, Tiffany turned to microdosing to overcome burnout, anxiety, and depression — successfully tapering off Adderall and Lexapro and transforming her life. She left corporate to build a microdosing business and has become a trusted voice in psychedelic leadership. Tiffany now supports individuals, executives, and teams in reaching peak performance through neuroscience-backed microdosing strategies and leadership development. She currently serves as the Microdosing Advisor and Head of Partnerships at Golden Rule Mushrooms, where she leads education, partnerships, and community initiatives. Here's the link to the free community workshop link we mention in this conversation, it is free and set for August 7th 11AM PST, I will see you there! You can find her on IG @ On her website  https://tiffanyhurd.com  and here is the link for Golden Rule Mushrooms. You can use the code GRIS10 to get a discount and start (or continue) your microdo&sing journey~ https://goldenrulemushrooms.com/?coupon-code=gris10&sc-page=shop      

Text Me!Episode 234:Your Top Sobriety Questions Answered: Willpower, Dating, Sugar Cravings & More In episode 234 of the Sober Vibes podcast, Courtney Andersen answers your most pressing sobriety questions with honesty, heart, and 12 years of lived experience. Whether you're just starting or have been alcohol-free for a while, this episode is full of relatable, real-life advice to help you stay strong, feel supported, and thrive in your recovery journey.From breaking the myth that sobriety is all about willpower to navigating sober dating and setting boundaries with a partner who still drinks, Courtney offers insight and encouragement to meet you exactly where you are.If you've ever wondered how to get through the evening witching hour, manage post-acute withdrawal fatigue, or stop sugar cravings from taking over, this episode is for you.WHAT YOU'LL LEARN IN THIS EPISODE:Why white-knuckling through sobriety doesn't work—and what to focus on insteadHow movement and physical activity reduce anxiety in early recoveryWhat to do when low energy lingers after quitting alcoholWhere to find women-specific recovery support and safe spacesTips for dating while sober and avoiding the "overshare hangover"How to set boundaries if your partner still drinksSimple ways to break your nightly drinking routineWhat sugar cravings are really telling you and how to handle themWhy you're allowed to focus on sobriety first, before changing everything elseRESOURCES MENTIONED:1:1 Sober Coaching The Sobriety Circle Instagram My Book The After Codependent No MorePODCAST SPONSOR:Get $ 50 off your Soberlink device today! Hope this episode helps you today!Ready to thrive in your alcohol-free life? Sober Vibes: A Guide to Thriving in Your First Three Months Without Alcohol is your step-by-step guide to navigating early sobriety with confidence.Grab your copy today!Thank you for listening! Help the show by Rating, Reviewing, and/or Subscribing to the Sober Vibes Podcast. Connect w/ Courtney:InstagramJoin the Sobriety Circle Apply for 1:1 CoachingOrder the Sober Vibes Book

This week, we are re-releasing one of Redesigning Life's most well-received and downloaded episodes... Holly Whitaker : Quit Like A WomenHave you ever wondered why we reach for a drink during life's highest moments and lowest lows? Why does alcohol seem essential to celebrating a wedding, mourning a loss, or simply getting through a Tuesday?In this illuminating conversation with Holly Whitaker, author of "Quit Like a Woman", we explore the complex relationship many of us have with alcohol and how it might be affecting more than we realize. Holly shares her personal journey from someone who used alcohol, cigarettes, and food to "ruin herself and clean herself up" repeatedly to discovering a path toward genuine fulfillment without substances.What makes this discussion particularly powerful is the science Holly brings to the table. She explains how alcohol hijacks our dopamine system, making it difficult to experience pleasure from everyday activities and creating a false association between drinking and fun. "Alcohol doesn't actually produce fun," Holly reveals. "Fun things produce fun." This insight challenges the cultural narrative that positions alcohol as the essential ingredient for enjoyment.Beyond the science, Holly offers practical wisdom for anyone questioning their relationship with alcohol. Rather than advocating for an all-or-nothing approach, she emphasizes the power of subtle shifts in awareness and intention. By simply allowing yourself to notice alcohol's effects on your mood, sleep, and anxiety levels, you begin creating space for change.Whether you're sober curious, actively changing your relationship with alcohol, or simply interested in understanding its effects better, this episode offers thoughtful perspectives without judgment. As Holly reminds us, when we release what no longer serves us... whether it's alcohol, toxic relationships, or limiting beliefs, we create space for something better to arrive.What might be waiting on the other side of that glass for you? Listen in and consider what consciousness over cocktails could bring to your life.Holly's Website: https://www.hollywhitaker.com/Holly's Podcast: Co-RegulationHolly's book: QUIT LIKE A WOMANHolly's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/hollyConnect with Sabrina:https://www.instagram.com/Sabrina_Soto/www.SabrinaSoto.com

Text Me!Episode 230: Relapse Prevention: Real Talk, Triggers, and What Works In this episode of Sober Vibes, Courtney Andersen breaks down what relapse means and how to prevent it in real life, not just in theory. Whether you're newly sober or several years alcohol-free, this honest and empowering conversation gives you practical tools to protect your peace, stay grounded, and ride out the challenging moments without going back to booze.From emotional triggers to burnout and self-isolation, Courtney dives into the sneaky ways relapse can creep in and how to create a sustainable support system that works. Additionally, she shares her strategies, journal prompts, and mantras to help you stay centered.What's the difference between a lapse and a relapse5 sneaky relapse triggers (and how to spot them early)Daily habits that strengthen your emotional sobrietyHow to build a relapse prevention plan that worksWhat to do if you do slip—and why you don't have to start overA powerful journal prompt + affirmation to stay groundedMentioned in This Episode:1:1 Sober Coaching Join the Sobriety Circle Follow Courtney on InstagramThank you for listening, and hope this episode helps you in your journey.Ready to thrive in your alcohol-free life? Sober Vibes: A Guide to Thriving in Your First Three Months Without Alcohol is your step-by-step guide to navigating early sobriety with confidence.Grab your copy today!Thank you for listening! Help the show by Rating, Reviewing, and/or Subscribing to the Sober Vibes Podcast. Connect w/ Courtney:InstagramJoin the Sobriety Circle Apply for 1:1 CoachingOrder the Sober Vibes Book