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On today's podcast episode, we discuss the three biggest questions surrounding Spotify right now: Why is there a disconnect between Spotify's ad-supported revenue and its ad-supported users? Will podcast advertising provide another wave of growth? Can Spotify generate meaningful supplementary revenue from its new “Reserved” ticketing service in partnership with Live Nation? And more.   Join Senior Director of Podcasts and host Marcus Johnson, along with Senior Editor Daniel Konstantinovic. Listen wherever you get your podcasts, or watch on YouTube, Apple Podcasts, or Spotify.   Get more insights like these with our free, industry-leading newsletters covering advertising, marketing, and commerce. Sign up at emarketer.com/newsletters   Purchase tickets and register for EMARKETER's The Future of Digital 2026 Summit here: https://www.emarketer.com/events/summit/2026-future-of-digital/?utm_source=events_page Follow us on Instagram at: https://www.instagram.com/emarketer/ For sponsorship opportunities contact us: advertising@emarketer.com For more information visit: https://www.emarketer.com/advertise/ Have questions or just want to say hi? Drop us a line at podcast@emarketer.com For a transcript of this episode click here: https://www.emarketer.com/content/podcast-advertising-disconnect-ai-covers-remixes-3-big-questions-spotify-behind-numbers © 2026 EMARKETER   Awin is the all-in-one platform for smarter partner marketing. With award-winning technology, expert support and a global network of 1 million partners, Awin helps brands discover, manage and scale high-performing partnerships that drive measurable growth. Learn more.

I greet you in Jesus' precious name! It is Friday morning, the 14th of August, 2026, and this is your friend, Angus Buchan, with a thought for today. We start in 1 Kings 19:18: “Yet I reserve seven thousand in Israel – all whose knees have not bowed down to Baal and whose mouths have not kissed him.'” Then we go to Romans 11:4. The Lord again says: “I have reserved for Myself seven thousand men who have not bowed the knee to Baal.” I have got a very special son in the Lord, who has been called by God to go to some of the most dangerous places on earth to encourage the church. He has just returned from Ukraine, and he told me that he went to a church that meets every Sunday regardless of what happens, on the border between Russia and Ukraine. He says this to me in the message he sent me: “Ukraine has really opened my eyes to the devastation of the war. People are living in so much fear, but the church is standing strong.” He says: “I am sending you a message. These are all old retired people having church in the city on the Russian border. Almost everybody has lost a family member in the war. They can only meet for one hour maximum. The reason for this is that if the Russians find out there is a gathering, it takes them one hour to find the location and send a missile from Russia to kill them. They have been meeting since the war started.These are the words of one of the songs that they sing:Thank You Lord, for another day Thank You Lord for making a wayThank You Lord that our eyes can see Prepare us for the bride to be.He says he has not sensed the power and the sincerity of worship like that before. I want to say to you, God has got His people all over the world. He says He has reserved them. Do not lose heart. Keep up the faith wherever you might be receiving this message. Jesus bless you and have a wonderful day.Goodbye.

Join the First Responder Leadership Mastermind: firstresponderwellness.co/mastermind   146 - From Felonies to the Front Lines: One Woman's Journey Through Addiction and Recovery Work What does it really take to go from a stolen car, a drug addiction, and a revolving-door relationship with jail — to 14 years of sobriety and a career saving other people's lives?

 In this episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver sits down with Casey Burley, a recovery advocate and Narcan trainer who has been in recovery since September 14, 2011. Casey's story is not a tidy redemption arc. It is raw, honest, and deeply relevant to every first responder who has ever wondered whether the people they keep encountering on their worst calls are capable of change.

 Casey takes us through her journey from early drug use at age 16 — starting with meth — through years of incarceration, to a treatment program where one counselor's relentless belief in her became the turning point that changed everything. She talks about what recovery housing actually looks like, why isolation is one of the most dangerous forces in addiction, and what it feels like to respond to overdoses and deaths in the same community you once nearly left permanently.

 In this conversation, you'll hear:
 Why Casey says people in recovery are not a lost cause — and what first responders need to see to believe it
 The reality of fentanyl and carfentanil in every drug on the street today, and why everyone needs to know how to use Narcan
 What happens inside a recovery home after someone dies — and the quiet, careful work Casey does for the family left behind
 How self-labeling as an addict is just as destructive as being labeled by others, and how that changes in recovery
 A direct challenge to first responders: come to a recovery event and see the people who are making it

 This episode is for first responders, law enforcement officers, counselors, recovery workers, families of people struggling with addiction, and anyone who has ever wondered whether it is worth fighting for someone who keeps falling down.

The answer Casey gives is yes. Every time. Because somebody fought for her — and she never forgot it.

 Connect with Casey: waqrr.org (Washington Alliance for Quality Recovery Residences) Subscribe to the First Responder Wellness Podcast and share this episode with someone on the frontlines who needs to hear it.   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

Send us Fan MailThis week we are looking at an important policy development that sits at the intersection of competence, regulation, accountability, and the future structure of the built environment professions in the UK. This episode content meets PC1 - Professionalism of the Part 3 Criteria.Resources from today's episode:Websites:https://www.riba.org/work/insights-and-resources/professional-features/legislation-for-reserved-activities-and-the-built-environment-council/https://www.gov.uk/government/calls-for-evidence/strategy-for-the-built-environment-professions-trades-and-occupationsThank you for listening! Please follow me on Instagram @part3withme for weekly content and updates or contact me via email me at part3withme@outlook.com or on LinkedIn. Website: www.part3withme.comJoin me next week for more Part3 With Me time.If you liked this episode please give it a rating to help reach more fellow Part3er's!Support the show

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Ready to become the leader your people deserve? Applications for Cohort #2 of the First Responder Leadership Mastermind are now open. Space is limited. Learn more: https://firstresponderwellness.co/mastermind 145 - From Skeptic to Believer - with Chief Rob Reardon Episode Description What happens when a fire chief faces the kind of call no department ever wants to receive? In this episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, Conrad Weaver sits down with Fire Chief Rob Reardon, a former TV journalist turned firefighter and chief, to discuss the pediatric critical incident that changed his department—and changed him. Rob shares how his crew navigated the aftermath of multiple pediatric cardiac arrests, why their first critical incident stress debrief failed, and how peer support, EMDR therapy, and strong leadership helped them begin to heal. Once skeptical of mental health resources, Rob explains why he now believes seeking help is one of the strongest decisions a first responder can make. In This Episode Firefighter mental health after a pediatric trauma Critical incident stress management and peer support How EMDR therapy helped a skeptical fire chief heal Building trust and wellness in the fire service Leadership lessons from one of the toughest calls of Rob's career Whether you're a firefighter, fire chief, EMS provider, law enforcement officer, or public safety leader, this conversation offers practical insight into first responder wellness, resilience, and leading through trauma. Subscribe to the First Responder Wellness Podcast, leave a review, and share this episode with someone who needs to hear it. Learn more at PTSD911.com.   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

General Blaine Holt and Gordon Chang: Concerns are rising regarding the flow of Chinese and Russian aid to Iran, which includes potential shipments of anti-aircraft missiles. While some interpret President Trump's reserved stance as weakness, General Holt suggests it may be a strategic gambit to exploit internal CCP factional infighting. Within the Party, a reformer named Hu Chunhua is reportedly rising as a potential rival to Xi Jinping. However, experts warn that provocative Chinese actions in the South China Sea and Taiwan Strait require a steel-with-steel confrontation. Critics argue that the US must eventually humiliate the Chinese leadership through economic and espionage crackdowns to project true force. (4)1690

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If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out to the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by calling or texting 988. You are not alone, and help is available. You can also find first responder-specific resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources   "I had to save myself because if I stayed where I was, I literally was going to die. It wouldn't have been a proverbial die. It would be a true death."
— Tracey Wilkinson   144 - PTSD and Institutional Betrayal with Tracey Wilkinson   What happens when the people we trust to save others cannot get help saving themselves? In this powerful and deeply personal episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver sits down with Tracey Wilkinson — a retired Fort Wayne, Indiana firefighter with 23 years of service — to talk about one of the most important conversations in the first responder world: what happens when you fall apart, and the institution you gave your life to looks the other way. Tracey's story begins with a line-of-duty death at a training exercise she was responsible for as a training officer. The guilt of that incident, layered on top of two decades of accumulated trauma, eventually led to a PTSD diagnosis, severe physical symptoms, and a period of suicidal ideation so dark that she describes standing on the edge multiple times. What kept her here — and her answer is both heartbreaking and profound — was her fierce protectiveness of the people who would have had to respond to her if she hadn't been. This conversation is for the firefighter who is white-knuckling it through every shift, for the officer who doesn't know why small incidents are suddenly setting them off, and for the administrators and union leaders who want to do better but don't know where to start. Tracey brings both her lived experience and her academic training to offer one of the most grounded, compassionate, and clinically informed conversations on this podcast.   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Click here for a Coaching Strategy Call with Conrad Weaver: https://firstresponderwellness.co/schedule/   143 - Ego Kills Careers, and How to Lead Differently with Dr. Ron Camacho   "There is a pre-therapy Camacho and a post-therapy Camacho. They are two totally different people."
— Chief Ron Camacho What does it take to go from being the most feared officer in the building to the most trusted chief in the department? For Dr. Ron Camacho, it took therapy — and the courage to look honestly at who he had become. In this episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, Conrad Weaver sits down with Chief Ron Camacho of the North Charleston, South Carolina Police Department — a 30-year law enforcement veteran who built his career in York, Pennsylvania, advised police forces in Afghanistan, managed a State Department contract in Mexico, and eventually led two police departments: a 40-person agency in Chambersburg, Pennsylvania, and now a 400-officer department in one of South Carolina's most complex cities. But his title is not the most interesting thing about him. What makes this conversation different is his honesty. Chief Camacho describes his early leadership style as 'a cross between Patton and Genghis Khan.' He admits to intentionally trying to break officers in disciplinary meetings — and celebrating when he made them cry. He was, as he puts it, angry every day. On the path to a stroke, a use-of-force incident, or worse. In this episode, you will hear: Why ego in law enforcement is a symptom of insecurity — not toughness How unresolved childhood trauma drove his early leadership failures The specific moment therapy changed everything How he scaled from a 40-person to a 400-person department and what he had to unlearn The real story behind his department cutting use-of-force by 50% in year one Why he teaches 'Ego Kills Careers' classes to every rank in his department How cross-industry learning from business leaders made him a better cop The coaching program he brought into his department to develop officers at every level How to start building self-awareness — even if you have never been to therapy This episode is for every first responder who has ever suspected that the culture around them — or inside them — might be part of the problem. It is for supervisors and chiefs who want to know what servant leadership actually looks like in practice. And it is for anyone who has been told that going to therapy means you are weak. Chief Camacho proves, with data and with his own life, that it means the opposite. Subscribe to the First Responder Wellness Podcast wherever you listen to podcasts. Share this episode with a leader in your department who needs to hear it.   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.    

142 - Beautifully Broken: How One Officer's Suicide Sparked a Movement of Hope | Jared Buchanan & Daniel Herzog What happens when unimaginable loss becomes a mission to save lives? When police officer Paul Buchanan died by suicide, he left behind a heartbreaking note explaining that he wanted help—but feared asking for it would cost him his badge, his gun, and his career. That fear cost him everything. His son, Jared Buchanan, refused to let his father's story end there. In this powerful episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver sits down with Jared Buchanan—Marine Corps veteran, licensed psychotherapist, suicide prevention advocate, and ultramarathon runner—and filmmaker Daniel Herzog, director of the documentary Beautifully Broken. Together they explore how grief can become purpose, why movement can be a powerful tool for healing trauma, and how one family's tragedy is helping first responders across the country begin conversations that save lives. If you are a police officer, firefighter, EMT, dispatcher, corrections officer, veteran, family member, or leader responsible for first responder wellness, this is an episode you won't forget. In This Episode You'll Learn Why Officer Paul Buchanan believed asking for help would end his career How Jared transformed grief into purpose by running ultramarathons—including a 304-mile race across Arizona Why physical movement can play an important role in processing trauma The connection between endurance sports, resilience, and post-traumatic growth How filmmaker Daniel Herzog spent three years documenting this remarkable journey The healing power of vulnerability, forgiveness, and honest conversations The story behind Believe 208, the nonprofit honoring Officer Paul Buchanan's legacy Why changing the culture around mental health in first responder organizations starts with leadership Key Takeaways ✔ Mental health stigma continues to prevent many first responders from seeking help. ✔ Healing doesn't come from ignoring pain—it comes from moving through it with purpose. ✔ Physical activity can become a healthy outlet for processing grief and trauma. ✔ Storytelling has the power to save lives by opening conversations that otherwise never happen. ✔ Connection—not isolation—is one of the greatest protective factors against suicide. About Our Guests Jared Buchanan Jared Buchanan is a Marine Corps veteran, licensed psychotherapist, suicide prevention advocate, motivational speaker, and ultramarathon runner. After losing his father, Officer Paul Buchanan, to suicide in 2013, Jared dedicated his life to helping first responders and others find healing through purpose, resilience, and meaningful connection. Daniel Herzog Daniel Herzog is an award-winning filmmaker, creative director, and journalist whose work focuses on the first responder and veteran communities. He directed the feature documentary Beautifully Broken, chronicling Jared's extraordinary journey from tragedy to hope. Resources Mentioned Beautifully Broken Documentary Believe 208 EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) Viktor Frankl and Logotherapy Carl Jung Alfred Adler PTSD911 First Responder Wellness Solutions Who Should Listen? This episode is valuable for: Police officers Sheriff's deputies Firefighters EMS professionals Dispatchers Corrections officers Military veterans Chaplains Mental health professionals Agency leaders First responder families Anyone grieving the loss of a loved one Help Start the Wellness Conversation One conversation can change—or even save—a life. If this episode encouraged you, please: Subscribe to the First Responder Wellness Podcast Leave a 5-star review Share this episode with someone in your department Start a conversation about mental health and resilience If your agency, organization, college, or community would benefit from hosting a screening of Beautifully Broken or PTSD911, we'd love to help you begin the wellness conversation. Connect with Our Guests Beautifully Broken Documentary https://www.beautifullybrokendocumentary.com Facebook: Beautifully Broken Documentary   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

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The Capitalism Model and Monetization of the Space Sector. Bob Zimmerman. Wall Street has embraced commercial space, with private companies like Catalyst performing satellite servicing missions once reserved for government agencies. The U.S. Space Force now buys rapid-launch capabilities from the private sector for orbital reconnaissance. India is also transitioning its space program toward this capitalist model to increase efficiency. (11)

141 - Shot in the line of Duty - with Hali Bradford   She arrived at the hospital with 30 seconds of life and a 99.99% chance of not surviving. Her surgeon was moments from calling her time of death. And then — without medical explanation — the bleeding stopped.

 This week on the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver sits down with Hali Bradford, a Louisiana National Guard MP veteran and police officer who was shot and nearly killed in the line of duty on August 5, 2023. What followed was not only a fight for physical survival — it became a fight for her identity, her career, her mental health, and her will to live.

In this powerful and deeply personal conversation, Hali recounts the moment she found herself looking down the barrel of a rifle during a domestic disturbance call — and how her CrossFit-built physical strength allowed her to drag herself out of the house, paralyzed from the waist down, to reach the partner who helped save her life. She was shot with a .223 round that entered her side and exploded into her abdomen, leaving bullet fragments across her pelvis, a fractured hip, nerve damage, and a permanently paralyzed left foot.

But the physical injuries were only part of the story.

 In this episode, Hali opens up about:
- The profound lack of support she received from her department after the shooting
- Being terminated and stripped of her badge — a badge she nearly died for
- Living with no medical insurance, no benefits, and no workers' comp settlement while legally barred from working
- Navigating PTSD, anxiety, depression, and dark intrusive thoughts in the aftermath
- The trial of the man who shot her, which forced her to relive every detail
- How faith, discovered one year after the shooting, gave her a foundation to stand on
- The healing power of first responder wellness retreats and the sisterhood she found there
- Mission trips to Costa Rica and Africa that have reconnected her to her lifelong calling to serve

. This episode is for every first responder, veteran, and family member who has ever been left to navigate trauma alone. It is for anyone who has wondered whether help is really worth reaching for. And it is for anyone who needs to be reminded that survival — real survival — looks like choosing to get up one more time.

 Hali Bradford chose to get up. And she is still getting up.

 Connect with Hali on Instagram: @paralyzed_to_purpose   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

140 - How is Filing a Complaint a Mental Health Tool - with Bridget Truxillo Most first responders think of complaints as paperwork, politics, or career-ending decisions—not something connected to wellness. But what if staying silent is actually what does the most damage? In this episode, Conrad Weaver sits down with attorney and former law enforcement officer Bridget Truxillo to explore the hidden psychological cost of toxic leadership, workplace discrimination, and the fear of speaking up. Early in her career, Bridget became the only female member of her agency's SWAT team and served in undercover narcotics. But years of discrimination and a hostile work environment eventually drove her from the profession she loved. She never filed a complaint. She simply resigned—and the agency lost a dedicated officer it had invested years training. Today, Bridget is the founder of Lady Law Shield, a law firm dedicated exclusively to protecting first responders. Drawing from both her experience behind the badge and in the courtroom, she explains why unresolved workplace conflict doesn't just affect careers—it affects mental health, families, and entire agency cultures. Conrad and Bridget discuss: Why toxic leadership can be as damaging as traumatic calls The mental health consequences of remaining silent When filing a complaint is appropriate—and why it can be an act of self-preservation Fear of retaliation and how to navigate it Workers' compensation, Brady/Giglio concerns, and other legal realities every first responder should understand How leaders can create cultures where accountability strengthens trust instead of destroying it Whether you're a police officer, firefighter, dispatcher, corrections officer, EMS professional, or agency leader, this conversation offers practical legal insight while challenging the belief that speaking up is a sign of weakness. Sometimes protecting your mental health isn't about walking away. Sometimes it's about finding the courage to make your voice heard.   https://ladylawshield.com/   +++++   Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a PTSD911 screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

139 - What Happens After the Diagnosis? With Suzanne Stone Executive Episode Summary For many people, cancer is something that happens to someone else. Until suddenly it doesn't. In this powerful conversation, Conrad sits down with Suzanne Stone, CEO of the Livestrong Foundation, to explore what happens after a cancer diagnosis turns life upside down. While most conversations focus on treatment, Suzanne shines a light on the challenges few people talk about: strained marriages, overwhelmed caregivers, financial uncertainty, fertility decisions, and the emotional toll carried by entire families. Suzanne shares how Livestrong has spent nearly three decades helping people navigate not just cancer treatment, but survivorship. From helping young adults preserve their ability to have children someday to supporting caregivers who are quietly struggling in isolation, her work reveals the hidden realities many families face. The conversation takes a critical turn toward first responders, who face significantly higher rates of cancer due to occupational exposure. Suzanne discusses the unique barriers firefighters, law enforcement officers, EMS professionals, and their families face when navigating a diagnosis while continuing to serve their communities. Listeners will also hear about Livestrong's ambitious effort to honor the 25th anniversary of 9/11 through a 343-mile cycling event connecting Boston and New York City, bringing awareness to the thousands of first responders who have developed cancer and other illnesses since that tragic day. This episode is about more than cancer. It's about resilience, caregiving, advocacy, family, and what it means to support people when life changes overnight.   Learn more about Livestrong   +++++ Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Have you ever wondered what is actually available to you because of your faith in Jesus Christ? In this powerful Sunday message, Pastor James Wilson opens Romans 5:1-5 to reveal what is exclusively reserved for those who have been justified by faith. From the peace that holds in the middle of chaos, to the grace that empowers in the middle of weakness, to the hope that refuses to be put to shame, this message draws a clear and powerful picture of what it means to walk in the fullness of what Christ has secured. Pastor Wilson reminds believers that justification is not just about being forgiven. It is about being given access to something that the world cannot offer and the enemy cannot take. Grace, peace, and hope are not distant promises. They are active realities for everyone who has surrendered to Jesus Christ. The message builds to a powerful declaration rooted in the story of Abraham and the resurrection of Christ. No matter how far behind things may look, the justified have a comeback reserved for them. This is a word for anyone who needs to be reminded that what God has sealed, He will not lose, and what He has promised, He is able to perform. Sermon Scripture: Romans 5:1-5; Colossians 1:19-22; Romans 4:16-25   We stream live every Sunday at 11 am and every Wednesday at 8 pm. Visit our website: https://perfectingfaithchurch.com  Connect with us on social media!  Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/PerfectingFaithChurch/  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/perfectingfaithchurch/ Threads: https://www.threads.com/@perfectingfaithchurch  X: https://x.com/PFCNY   Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@perfectingfaithchurch  

You can find Daily Music Headlines here.Netflix is bringing KPop Demon Hunters to Major League Baseball stadiums across the U.S. with special “KPop Demon Hunters Nights” scheduled for August and September, featuring themed giveaways, merchandise, jerseys, bobbleheads, in-game entertainment, and postgame drone shows at select ballparks.netflix.comLong-lost footage of The Beatles performing “Can't Buy Me Love” on the BBC music show Top of the Pops in 1964 has been discovered on a 35mm film negative, offering significantly better quality than previously known off-air recordings.nme.comA new documentary celebrating the legacy of British band Pulp, titled Pulp: What Do You Do for an Encore?, is set to premiere later this year on MUBI, combining footage from the band's biggest-ever arena show with four decades of previously unseen archival material.music-news.comTaylor Swift has been named Wembley Stadium's most-photographed artist, according to new research from photo-book company Popsa, with Harry Styles, Ed Sheeran, The Weeknd, and Bruce Springsteen rounding out the top five.music-news.comGrammy-nominated producer Tay Keith, born Brytavious Chambers, has died at age 29 after being found in his Nashville apartment during a police welfare check, with authorities saying no foul play is suspected and an official cause of death still pending.pitchfork.comSpotify is kicking off its new “Reserved” ticketing program with Role Model, giving select Spotify Premium subscribers early access to purchase tickets before the general public based on fan engagement such as streams, saves, shares, and location.digitalmusicnews.comSouth Korea has launched a new $2.2 million government-backed fund to help smaller and independent K-pop agencies expand internationally, with 10 selected agencies eligible for up to about $218,000 per year for as many as three years.digitalmusicnews.comAnd it's Friday, so let's take a listen to some of the fresh songs out this week:“Is It Love” by Tyla“Heaven” by Myles Smith“On Your Mind” by FKA Twigs and Lil Yachty“Talking Dirty” by Chlöe and Timbaland“New America” by KennyHoopla Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Guardrails positions itself as a populist political movement that runs on small donations from people in the trenches of the AI boom. Also, Spotify is launching "Reserved," a new system that will hold two concert tickets for an artist's superfans before they're on sale to the public. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

138 - Mental Warefare is Part of the Path - Doc Springer Episode Description What if some of the things we've been taught about trauma, resilience, and suicide prevention are actually making the problem worse? In this powerful conversation, Conrad Weaver sits down with Dr. Shauna "Doc" Springer—psychologist, author, speaker, and one of the leading voices in military and first responder mental health—to explore the realities of what she calls "mental warfare." Drawing from decades of experience working alongside military operators, veterans, law enforcement officers, firefighters, dispatchers, and peer support teams, Doc Springer challenges some of the most common assumptions surrounding trauma, healing, and wellness. Together, Conrad and Doc discuss why peer support programs succeed or fail, what qualities make an effective peer supporter, and why command staff often carry invisible burdens with few safe places to turn. They also examine the growing need for innovative approaches to wellness and why leaders must move beyond simply checking boxes when it comes to supporting their people. Doc shares insights from her new book, Fallout: 10 Common Beliefs That Are Killing Our Bravest and the Truth That Can Save Them, including why awareness alone isn't enough to reduce suicide risk and why post-traumatic stress should not automatically be viewed as a lifelong sentence. The conversation also explores the role of treatments like the Stellate Ganglion Block (SGB), the importance of combining biological and psychological healing, and why recovery always requires more than a quick fix. Perhaps most importantly, Doc introduces a concept that may reshape how first responders think about wellness: elasticity. Rather than simply "bouncing back," elasticity is the ability to adapt, recover, and move between life's challenges without losing yourself in the process. If you're a first responder, leader, peer supporter, clinician, or family member, this episode offers practical wisdom, hope, and a fresh perspective on what it takes to thrive in a profession where the pressures are real and the stakes are high. Because mental warfare isn't a sign of weakness. It's part of the path.     Connect with Doc Springer: https://thinlineadvisory.com/     +++++ Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

In another topic-focused GGACP mini-episode, Gilbert and Frank share their love of unheralded films, underrated TV shows, underappreciated pop songs and often unknown performers, discussing, dissecting and (occasionally) defending their handpicked guilty pleasures and buried treasures. This week: Bad biopics! Neil Simon reboots “Bogart”! Lee Marvin bests Rod Steiger! And Mike Myers borrows from Quincy Jones! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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137 - Hiding in Plain Sight: When the Helper Needs Help with Paramedic Brad Lawson For nearly 27 years, Brad Lawson served his community as a paramedic, responding to tragedies, accidents, overdoses, and some of life's darkest moments. Like many first responders, Brad learned to suppress emotions, push through pain, and wear the mask of strength. To everyone around him, he appeared to have it all together. But beneath the surface, years of unresolved trauma, addiction, emotional exhaustion, and a lack of support were taking their toll. In this powerful episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, Brad shares his personal journey from darkness to healing. He opens up about the cultural pressures that keep first responders silent, the challenges of seeking help, and the lessons he learned through therapy, recovery, and rebuilding his support system. Brad also discusses his book, Dancing With Darkness: A First Responder's Fight for Light, and the work he's doing through the Pierce Foundation to bring mental wellness resources, education, and hope to first responders across the country. You'll hear an honest discussion about leadership, organizational culture, burnout, resilience, and what it truly means to prioritize wellness in high-stress professions. Whether you're a first responder, leader, spouse, healthcare worker, or someone supporting those who serve others, this conversation offers practical insights and powerful encouragement. If you've ever wondered whether you're carrying too much alone, this episode is for you. Listen in and discover why healing begins when we stop pretending we're okay.   Connect with Brad:  piercefoundation.org Book: Dancing with Darkness https://a.co/d/0eJKQyTb +++++ Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

136 - The Full Bucket: Hidden Trauma, Childhood Wounds and Healing for First Responders with Dr. Stacy Raymond   EPISODE SUMMARY What if the trauma first responders carry didn't start on the job? In this powerful conversation, psychologist and trauma specialist Dr. Stacy Raymond explores the hidden roots of trauma in policing and public safety — and why some first responders struggle to seek help, even when their bucket is overflowing. Drawing from her new book Dump the Bucket: Healing Trauma in Police with EMDR, Dr. Raymond shares groundbreaking insights into adverse childhood experiences (ACEs), attachment wounds, organizational stress, and the accumulated weight of bad calls, betrayal, and moral injury. She explains why some officers become masters of compartmentalization… why “handling it alone” can become a survival strategy… and why those same adaptations can later fuel isolation, burnout, excessive force, addiction, or suicide risk. You'll also learn about EMDR therapy, how it helps traumatic memories finally get “filed away,” and why coping and healing are not the same thing. This episode is honest, challenging, and deeply hopeful for first responders, leaders, clinicians, and anyone carrying more than they realize.   Connect with Dr. Raymond: https://www.drstacyraymond.com/   +++++ Need Help? We have a list of resources at www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Book a screening event: contact GaryMiller@ptsd911movie.com Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need Help?  Check out our resource page at https://firstresponderwellness.co/resources/   Great Leaders Empower the Team - with Steve Vincent What does real leadership look like when lives, missions, and impossible decisions are on the line? In this episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, Conrad Weaver sits down with former U.S. Navy commanding officer Steve Vincent for a powerful conversation about leadership, trust, culture, and command in high-risk environments. Steve shares lessons learned leading sailors aboard Navy ships during deployments, crisis operations, and high-pressure missions — including a dramatic nighttime recovery operation in the Persian Gulf that tested everything he believed about leadership. This conversation challenges the idea that leaders must always be the smartest person in the room. Instead, Steve explores the power of teamwork, humility, psychological safety, and creating cultures where people at every level are empowered to speak up. Whether you're leading in law enforcement, fire, EMS, dispatch, the military, or business, this episode offers practical and hard-earned leadership wisdom that can strengthen your team and your culture. In This Episode, You'll Learn: ✓ Why great leaders don't need to know everything ✓ The difference between command and true leadership ✓ How trust and psychological safety impact team performance ✓ What first responders can learn from military leadership culture ✓ Why empowering junior team members can prevent catastrophe ✓ The power of debriefing — even when things go well ✓ How humility and accountability build stronger organizations Key Takeaways “You don't have to know how to fix the pump. Your job is to make sure your people have what they need to fix it.” “When everything goes right, it's WE. When things go wrong, it's ME.” “Leadership isn't about controlling everything. It's about creating a culture where people can speak up before mistakes become disasters.” About Steve Vincent Steve Vincent is a former U.S. Navy commanding officer with decades of leadership experience in military operations, organizational leadership, wellness, and high-performance team environments. Drawing from years of command at sea, Steve brings practical insight into trust, culture, leadership development, and human performance in high-stakes professions. Connect / Learn More +++++ Join the First Responder Leadership Mastermind - Sessions begin June 3.  Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

Season 6, Episode 749: Adult Performer Pixxxie LaRue on Extreme Fetish Work, Industry Standards, and why she loves anal. This is a replay episode to get the video version onto podcast apps. What happens when a 4'10" performer becomes one of the industry's most sought-after extreme fetish specialists? In this candid interview, adult performer Pixxxie LaRue opens up about her blossoming career, releasing nine DVDs in just one year and specializing in controversial scenes like waterboarding. LaRue discusses the dual mindset required for extreme performances - maintaining professional awareness while sometimes becoming genuinely immersed in the experience. She emphasizes that **safety measures and consent are always paramount**, crediting Red Bottom Productions Studio for creating secure working environments. The conversation explores LaRue's journey of sexual exploration and how her work helps others discover new interests safely. She shares insights about her business-minded approach to the industry, leveraging her marketing background to create a unique niche rather than working through traditional agencies. LaRue also touches on important topics like women's sexual health, the role of self-exploration, and defending adult entertainment as both entertainment and educational content that promotes consent education. She discusses her recent AVN nomination and various platforms where fans can find her content, particularly recommending MintStars, a new sex worker-owned platform. Ready to hear more about navigating extreme fetish work safely and professionally? Listen to the full episode for LaRue's unfiltered insights into the adult entertainment industry. Timeline: 00:00:00 - Introducing Pixxxie LaRue Adult Star 00:02:08 - Exploring Extreme Kinks and Boundaries 00:06:12 - Finding Pixie Larue Online 00:25:03 - Consent and Communication in Adult Films 00:27:15 - Extreme Adult Film Scene Discussion 00:30:46 - Performing with Creativity and Authenticity 00:35:58 - Choosing Authenticity Over Masking 00:45:38 - Consent Makes Everything Better 00:48:10 - Family Support in Adult Entertainment 00:51:05 - Online Trolls Boost My Views 01:03:15 - Positive Fan Impact and Representation Key takeaways: • LaRue maintains a complex dual mindset during extreme scenes, balancing professional awareness with genuine psychological immersion while filming • The adult industry has developed sophisticated safety protocols for extreme content, with studios like Red Bottom Productions prioritizing secure working environments • Sex workers are pioneering cryptocurrency-based platforms like MintStars to circumvent traditional financial restrictions and maintain greater control over their businesses Connect with Pixxxie: Spicy https://allmylinks.com/pixxxielarue Social Media Twitter/X - @wee_pixxxie Social Media Tiktok - @wee.pixxxie.larue Podcast info: Support the show Newsletters for podcast and books: https://subscribepage.io/ruanwillow Connect with Podcast Host Ruan Willow: https://linktr.ee/RuanWillow   Affiliate Discounts Firm Tech 15% OFF with code ruan15 https://myfirmtech.com/ruanwillow Books Mentioned in the Episode: Award wining novel that won first place  in the 2026 Golden Pigtail Awards: John Gives His Wife Hot Adventures https://books.ruanwillowauthor.com/johngiveshiswifehotadventures Fancy Gets Spanked on the Beach https://books.ruanwillowauthor.com/fancygetsspannkedonthebeach Copyright 2025 Pink Infinity Publishing LLC, All rights Reserved.  

God's timing can turn years of waiting into a testimony of honor

It's T. Kyle's birthday! He and Brad discuss plans for the big day, Shakira's response to her tax victory, Spotify's new “Reserved” idea and AI podcasts and AI remix features, Harry Styles needing to change his stage because no one can see him, High Fashion Editorial! featuring RuPaul's ‘Stop! That! Train!' premiere, Christina Aguilera and Melanie C meeting at The Abbey along with the drag Spice Girls, new music from Loreen, HUGEL, Charli xcx's “SS26,” Madonna's weeks-late response to “Rock Song,” a Madonna Minute with the deluxe tracks of ‘Confessions II,' a possible ‘Confessions Tour' Part 2, Ariana Grande's ‘Dangerous Woman' 10 year anniversary, Trisha Paytas' K-pop debut, Kylie Minogue's reissues and “Light Up.” Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Sometimes delay is not rejection, but preparation for something greater

SpaceX filed publicly for its IPO on Nasdaq, revealing $18.7B in 2025 revenue, billions in losses, and Musk's 85.1% voting control. Anthropic pays SpaceX $1.25B per month for compute. Nvidia beat estimates again, Spotify launches Reserved ticketing, and Waymo suspends service over flooding. SpaceX files publicly for its IPO, choosing Nasdaq to make its debut under the symbol SPCX; Elon Musk's shares give him 85.1% of the voting power in the company (Bloomberg) SpaceX's S-1 reveals Anthropic is paying $1.25B per month through May 2029 under their Colossus compute deal, with a 90-day termination clause (The Verge) Spotify partners with Live Nation to launch Reserved, a new feature that sets aside tickets for the most dedicated fans, starting with Premium users in the US (Hollywood Reporter) Spotify debuts a desktop app for creating personal podcasts, competing with Google's NotebookLM, with support for daily briefings based on email and calendar (TechCrunch) Nvidia reports Q1 revenue up 85% YoY to $81.62B, above $78.86B est., Data Center revenue up 92% YoY to $75.2B, and announces an $80B share repurchase program (Nvidia) Waymo suspends operations in Atlanta and San Antonio as its robotaxis struggle with flooded roads and says it has yet to develop a "final remedy" for flooding (TechCrunch) Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week, the President announced a proposed expansion of the America's refugee program - from 7,500 admissions to 17,500. But there's a caveat: those extra 10,000 spots are reserved for white South Africans. Last May, when the first round of Afrikaners arrived in the States, OTM host Micah Loewinger spoke to Carolyn Holmes, professor of political science at the University of Tennessee, Knoxville, about why Afrikaner white rights groups objected to the refugee policy, and the long-standing exchange of ideas between white nationalist elites in the US and South Africa. On the Media is supported by listeners like you. Support OTM by donating today (https://pledge.wnyc.org/support/otm). Follow our show on Instagram, Bluesky, TikTok and Facebook @onthemedia, and share your thoughts with us by emailing onthemedia@wnyc.org. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

Need Help?  Check out our resource page at https://firstresponderwellness.co/resources/   The Ripple Effect of Saving a Life | Brad Newbury What does it really mean to save a life? In this powerful episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, Conrad Weaver sits down with veteran firefighter-paramedic, EMS educator, entrepreneur, and author Brad Newbury for a deeply human conversation about mental health, resilience, leadership, and the long-lasting impact of first responder work. With more than 40 years in fire and EMS, Brad has seen the best and worst days imaginable. He shares stories from the street, lessons from decades of leadership, and honest reflections on the emotional realities of being the helper when everyone else is falling apart. Together, Conrad and Brad unpack the old “suck it up” culture of first response, how mental health support has evolved, the challenges leaders face when trying to get their people help, and why staying connected to your “why” matters more than ever. Brad also shares the inspiring story behind his upcoming book, The Saved Effect, exploring how one call, one intervention, and one act of care can change generations. This episode is a reminder that first responders don't just answer calls — they become part of people's stories forever. Connect with Brad: https://bradnewbury.com/ +++++ Join the First Responder Leadership Mastermind - Sessions begin June 3.    FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.    

Donate to Marchelle's Fundraiser for Copline https://www.facebook.com/donate/847531208377644/1299883602026213/   https://www.copline.org/   Walking Through Grief: Healing After First Responder Suicide. In this deeply emotional episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver sits down with Marchelle Farmer, widow of retired police sergeant Scott Farmer, to talk about love, trauma, loss, and healing after first responder suicide. Scott was a highly respected law enforcement officer — a SWAT operator, K9 handler, field training officer, and mentor to many younger officers. But behind the badge, he quietly carried the cumulative weight of trauma, sleeplessness, alcohol struggles, and emotional pain that eventually led to tragedy. Marchelle courageously shares the story of the night she lost Scott, the challenges of navigating grief in the public eye, and the difficult questions that follow suicide loss. She also opens up about her own darkest moments — including a life-changing call to CopLine, a confidential peer-support hotline staffed by retired officers that became a lifeline when she felt completely alone. Now, nearly one year after Scott's death, Marchelle is walking nearly 500 miles across Spain on the Camino de Santiago to honor his memory, raise awareness about first responder mental health, and support CopLine through a special fundraiser. This conversation is raw, honest, heartbreaking, and hopeful — a reminder that healing is possible and no one has to suffer in silence.   +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.  Join our Mastermind Series: https://firstresponderwellness.co/mastermind/ +++++   132 - Lead Anyway, Even When Leadership is Broken - Lt. Col. Dave Grossman Everyone talks about bad leadership. But very few people take responsibility for becoming better leaders themselves. In Part 2 of this conversation, Conrad continues with Dave Grossman to explore what leadership really looks like inside first responder culture—and why so many organizations struggle with it. Grossman makes it clear: leadership is not about rank. It's about self-control, service, and consistency. They unpack the reality of toxic leadership, why it's not a new problem, and how pressure, poor selection, and lack of development contribute to it. But more importantly, they focus on what individuals can do—right now—to lead, regardless of their position. This episode is a direct challenge to anyone waiting for someone else to fix the culture. Because leadership doesn't start when you get promoted. It starts the moment you decide to show up differently. If you've ever felt stuck under poor leadership, this conversation will give you a new lens—and a new level of responsibility. Key Topics Covered Why toxic leadership is so common Leadership vs positional authority Leading up, down, and across The role of self-control in leadership effectiveness Servant leadership in high-stress environments How to influence culture without rank Encouragement, recognition, and building trust Key Takeaways Leadership is a daily practice, not a position You don't need rank to influence culture The best leaders serve, not command Recognition and encouragement are powerful leadership tools You can lead—even in a broken system Notable Quotes “Nobody respects your temper tantrum. They respect your calm.” “To be a better leader, you have to be a better person.” “Your job as a leader is to help them do their job better.” “Be the leader you wish you had.” Resources Mentioned Grossman's leadership and training materials Leadership development principles rooted in behavioral science Mastermind CTA If this episode challenged you to step up in your leadership, this is exactly what we're building inside the First Responder Leadership Mastermind, launching June 3. This is where we take these concepts and actually apply them—together, in a group of leaders committed to raising the standard.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.  Level up your leadership:  https://firstresponderwellness.co/mastermind/   131 - You're Not Broken, You're Leveling Up - Lt. Col. Dave Grossman What if the very thing you've been told is breaking you… is actually making you stronger? In this conversation, Conrad sits down with Dave Grossman to unpack what really happens inside the mind and body under stress. From the physiological effects of high-pressure situations to the misunderstood nature of PTSD, this episode challenges one of the most common narratives in first responder culture. Grossman introduces the concept of post-traumatic growth—the idea that adversity, when processed correctly, doesn't weaken us… it strengthens us. He explains why elevated heart rate, anxiety, and mental replay aren't necessarily signs of damage, but signals that the body is adapting and preparing. You'll walk away with practical tools to manage stress in real time—simple, actionable techniques like controlled breathing and even something as basic as drinking water to regulate the nervous system. More importantly, this episode reframes how leaders should guide their teams through trauma—not by dismissing it, but by helping them understand it. This is not just about surviving stress. It's about learning how to grow through it. Key Topics Covered The difference between PTSD and post-traumatic growth What's actually happening in your body under stress Why perception determines performance Tools to regulate the nervous system in real time How leaders should guide others through high-stress experiences EMDR and separating memory from emotion Why most people are more resilient than they think Key Takeaways Stress responses are not always signs of damage—they can be signs of adaptation Leaders play a critical role in how trauma is processed Calm is trained, not automatic The body can be brought under control with simple, repeatable techniques Growth is possible—even after intense experiences Notable Quotes “This is not PTSD… this is what it feels like to level up.” “Two people can feel the same thing—one thinks they're broken, the other wants to do it forever.” “Breathing is a leash on the nervous system.” “The worse it gets, the calmer the leader needs to become.” Resources Mentioned EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) Grossman's books and training materials Call to Action If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone on your team. And make sure you're subscribed—because in Part 2, we shift from managing stress… to what leadership actually looks like inside real organizations.   +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.    

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.  CODE RED Fundraiser: https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/lightningdigital/code-red-a-cardiac-wake-up-call Join our Mastermind Series: https://firstresponderwellness.co/mastermind/ +++++ 130 - Mental Warfare is Part of the Path - with Rob Magao This conversation begins with a hard truth: most people will experience a handful of high-stress emergencies in their lifetime… but first responders live inside that stress—day after day. In this conversation, Rob Magao pulls back the curtain on what repeated exposure to use-of-force situations actually does to an officer's mind. It's not just the moment—it's the aftermath. The second-guessing. The weight. The accumulation of stress that quietly builds until something breaks. But the deeper insight isn't just about trauma—it's about preparation. Rob makes a compelling case that the real issue isn't just the danger officers face… it's the lack of consistent, realistic training to meet that danger. When training is sporadic, scripted, or insufficient, officers are forced to rely on instinct in moments where instinct isn't enough. And that's where everything changes. Because confidence—real confidence—is built through repetition, pressure, and consistency. It's what allows an officer to stay calm, act decisively, and ultimately de-escalate situations that could otherwise spiral. This episode challenges leaders and officers alike to rethink responsibility: What are you doing daily to prepare for someone else's worst day?   Connect with Rob: https://officersurvivalseries.com   +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

Today's callers: Christina from California wonders how to build trust with her fragrance brand formulated without allergens. Then, James, also from California, assesses how he can create more brand awareness for his kids' flip flop company. And Ben from Florida evaluates whether he should raise outside capital for his light-up jewelry products. Plus, Eric's philosophy on identifying strong founders and the brands now that he's moved from being an entrepreneur to being an investor. Thank you to the founders of Havyn, Pidgin Toes, and Reserved for Humans for being a part of our show.If you'd like to be featured on a future Advice Line episode—where Guy and former show guests take questions from early-stage founders—leave us a one-minute message that tells us about your business and a specific question you'd like answered. Send a voice memo to hibt@id.wondery.com or call 1-800-433-1298.And be sure to listen to Method's founding story as told by Eric Ryan and Adam Lowry on the show in 2018. This episode was produced by Noor Gill with music by Ramtin Arablouei. It was edited by Casey Herman. Our audio engineer was Cena Loffredo.You can follow HIBT on X & Instagram and sign up for Guy's free newsletter at guyraz.com and on Substack.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.  CODE RED Fundraiser: https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/lightningdigital/code-red-a-cardiac-wake-up-call 129 - The Emotional Toll of Life in the Trauma Unit with Dr. Alicia Mangram What happens when the people trusted to save lives have nowhere safe to process their own pain? In this episode, Conrad Weaver talks with trauma surgeon Dr. Alicia Mangram about burnout inside hospital systems, the emotional toll of caring for the sick and dying, and why wellness in medicine has to become more than a buzzword. Together, they explore leadership, culture, work-life balance, COVID's lasting impact, and Dr. Mangram's vision for changing healthcare from the inside out. This episode will resonate with healthcare workers, first responders, leaders, and anyone who has ever carried the weight of caring for others while quietly neglecting themselves. ABOUT DR. MANGRAM Dr. Alicia Mangram is an accomplished trauma surgeon and critical care physician with more than 25 years of experience serving in high-stress hospital environments. Her work has placed her at the center of life-and-death care, where she has witnessed firsthand the emotional burden carried not only by physicians, but also by nurses, pharmacists, environmental staff, trainees, and every member of the clinical team. That experience has shaped her growing commitment to wellness, leadership, and long-term sustainability in medicine. Driven by a desire to change the culture of healthcare, Dr. Mangram created Compassionate Gift, a program designed to support surgeons, physicians, residents, advanced practice providers, and medical students in building what she calls “lifelong durability.” Through her GET Theory—God, Emotions, and Trust—she is working to create safe spaces where healthcare professionals can process hardship, reject stigma, and learn to stay whole while continuing to serve others. Her message is simple but profound: healthcare workers are gifted healers, but they also need healing communities of their own.   +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

In this episode, Prof Chapman explains ovarian reserve, how AMH testing works, and why low levels don't always mean poor fertility. He highlights that egg quality depends on age—not AMH—and cautions against rushing into IVF based on misunderstood results. Explore the 'Prof. Michael Chapman - The IVF Journey' Facebook Page, your reliable destination for cutting-edge insights and guidance within the realm of In Vitro Fertilization (IVF). Don't miss out on the IVF Journey podcast; stay informed with the latest episode updates. Tune in for expert discussions and valuable information on navigating the intricate path of IVF.

"Better sleep often starts with a better environment." - Taylor Montey Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.  SLEEP! Stop Counting Hours, Count Cycles with Taylor Montey In part two of this conversation, Conrad Weaver and Taylor Montey get practical about sleep in the first responder world. They talk about how to create a better sleep environment in bunk rooms and at home, how alarms and abrupt wake-ups affect the body, whether sleep trackers help or hurt, how alcohol impacts recovery, when naps can be useful, and why even late-night phone scrolling can disrupt rest. This episode is full of realistic, actionable insight for first responders, leaders, spouses, and anyone trying to build healthier rhythms in a career that constantly disrupts them.     CONNECT WITH TAYLOR: Instagram: mindset.reps Facebook: mindsetreps   +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

To Support the Code Red Documentary, Click Here Special Edition - Code Red: A Cardiac Wake Up Call with Dr. Jonathan Sheinberg In this episode, Conrad Weaver sits down with Dr. Jon Sheinberg for a powerful conversation about one of the most overlooked threats to first responders: heart disease. What makes this discussion especially compelling is Dr. Sheinberg's rare perspective. He has spent decades both as a physician and as a sworn law enforcement officer, giving him firsthand insight into the physical and physiological toll the job takes. Together, Conrad and Dr. Sheinberg unpack why heart disease affects first responders at disproportionately high rates, why police officers often suffer heart attacks younger than the general population, and how chronic stress, adrenaline spikes, poor sleep, shift work, and diet all combine into a dangerous pattern. They also discuss why traditional cardiac screening often misses the problem and what more proactive screening can look like. The conversation also introduces Code Red, the upcoming documentary project designed to shine a light on this crisis and help save lives through awareness, education, and early intervention.   Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.    +++++ CODE RED: a Cardiac Wake Up Call is now funding on Kickstarter. Please show your support.    FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help.  127 - SLEEP! Stop Counting Hours, Count Cycles (Part 1 of 2) In part one of this two-part conversation, Conrad Weaver sits down with firefighter, lieutenant, counselor, and sleep specialist Taylor Montey to talk about one of the most overlooked issues in first responder wellness: sleep. But this episode goes far beyond bedtime habits. Together, they unpack the connection between sleep, trauma, mental health, shift work, stress, and recovery — and why broken sleep may be quietly shaping everything from memory and emotional regulation to long-term health. This conversation is especially important for first responders, leaders, spouses, and anyone who wants to better understand the hidden toll of chronic exhaustion in the people who serve.   CONNECT WITH TAYLOR: Instagram: mindset.reps Facebook: mindsetreps   +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site:  https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.  

We've been told our whole lives that more choice equals more freedom, and therefore, more happiness. But that equation breaks down sooner than we think. In this episode, Michael and Megan sit down with psychologist and bestselling author Barry Schwartz to unpack the hidden costs of abundance—in our shopping carts, our workplaces, and our sense of identity. If you've ever felt paralyzed by too many options or trapped in an endless loop of comparison and upgrade, this conversation will help you understand why—and what to do about it.Memorable Quotes“You don't need to look at all the options. You look until you find one that meets your standards, and then pick it and stop looking. You're not looking over your shoulder in case somehow you missed an opportunity for something even better.”“Most important, I think, is to discipline yourself to believe—and act as if you believe—that good enough is pretty much always good enough.”“When there are 20,000 options, whether you like it or not, your choice says something about who you are—not just to the world, but also to yourself. 'I'm the kind of person who goes to this restaurant, buys this clothing,' and so on. What that does is make even trivial decisions into high-stakes decisions.”“Most people see the options we have not as a problem, but as an opportunity. And of course it is an opportunity, but it's an opportunity that has problems attached. So if you become self-aware about this, that's the first step toward making decisions about which parts of your life are worth devoting this kind of time and effort to—and which parts are just details.”“One thing that's clear now is that [AI] does not replace judgment. It assists judgment… So you need to be judicious and knowledgeable in asking the right questions of AI and in interpreting the answers that you get to extract the kernels and discard the husks.”“The way you become wise, the way you develop judgment, is by making decisions, watching some of them fail, and learning how to make better and better decisions—more and more context-sensitive decisions—as a result of correcting your previous errors. People need practice to become wise, and the more people rely on AI, the less practice they're gonna get.”Key TakeawaysChoice Excess Creates Problems. Having many options attracts our attention but undermines our decisiveness. That paralysis then reduces our satisfaction even with the decisions we do make.Maximizers Pay a Hidden Tax. People who consistently seek the very best option spend more time deciding, feel less satisfied with their choices, and are more prone to regret and depression. People who stop when they find something “good enough” consistently report greater wellbeing.Abundance Raises the Stakes of Every Decision. When there are only two jean brands, your choice says nothing about you. When there are thousands, every purchase becomes an identity statement. That's what turns trivial decisions into exhausting ones.A Calling Isn't Reserved for the Corner Office. Barry's research on hospital janitors shows that meaning at work has nothing to do with prestige. It comes from seeing how your work serves others and being given the freedom to act on that view.AI Can Erode Wisdom. The way we develop judgment is by making decisions, watching some fail, and learning from the correction. The more we outsource decisions to AI, the less opportunity we have to build that wisdom. Knowledge and wisdom are not the same thing.ResourcesThe Paradox of Choice by Barry SchwartzChoose Wisely by Barry Schwartz and Richard SchuldenreiWhy We Work by Barry Schwartz“Every Life Has a Story” (Chick fil A video referenced)“AI Doesn't Reduce Work—It Intensifies It” (HBR article referenced)The Fix by Ian Cron (referenced)Watch on YouTube at:  https://youtu.be/w_FOZXsxMgMThis episode was produced by Sarah Vorhees Wendel of VW Sound

In the previous episode, a catastrophic fall high on Siula Grande forced an impossible decision. With Joe badly injured and hanging in space, Simon cut the rope, believing his climbing partner was lost. Now, high in the Cordillera Huayhuash Reserve, both men must attempt to get off the mountain alive. Joe is alone with a shattered leg and no supplies. Simon is stranded high on the face with night closing in and no clear way down. Survival is no longer about the climb, but about whether either of them can endure what comes next.Sources:Simpson, Joe. Touching the Void, The 25th Anniversary Edition. Kindle. 2012Joe Simpson recounts one of mountaineering's greatest survival stories“HOW WE MET JOE SIMPSON AND SIMON YATES” The Independent. 22 Feb 1997.For a full list of our sources, visit http://npadpodcast.com/episodesFor the latest NPAD updates, group travel details, merch and more, follow us on npadpodcast.com and our socials at:Instagram: @‌nationalparkafterdarkTikTok: @‌nationalparkafterdarkSupport the show by becoming an Outsider and receive ad free listening, bonus content and more on Patreon or Apple Podcasts. Want to see our faces? Catch full episodes on our YouTube Page!Thank you to the week's partners!Liquid IV: Use our code NPAD at checkout to get 20% off your first order.Avocado Green Mattress: Get 15% off mattresses at AvocadoGreenMattress.com/NPADHello Fresh: Use our link to get get 10 free meals + a FREE Zwilling Knife (a$144.99 value) on your third box.SelectQuote: Life insurance is never cheaper than it is today. Get the right life insurance for YOU, for LESS, and save more than fifty percent at selectquote.com/npad

High in the Cordillera Huayhuash Reserve of the Peruvian Andes, two British climbers attempt the first ascent of the West Face of Siula Grande. The mountain is remote, unforgiving, and lethal to mistakes. After reaching the summit, a catastrophic accident during the descent forces a decision that places survival and death on opposite ends of a single rope. For a full list of our sources, visit http://npadpodcast.com/episodes For the latest NPAD updates, group travel details, merch and more, follow us on npadpodcast.com and our socials at: Instagram: @‌nationalparkafterdark TikTok: @‌nationalparkafterdark Support the show by becoming an Outsider and receive ad free listening, bonus content and more on Patreon or Apple Podcasts. Want to see our faces? Catch full episodes on our YouTube Page! Thank you to the week's partners! Quince: Use our link to get free shipping and 365-day returns. IQBAR: Text PARK to 64000 to get 20% off all IQBAR products and free shipping. Smalls: Smalls New Year's Special - get 60% off your first order, plus free shipping, when you head to Smalls.com/NPAD. BetterHelp: National Park After Dark is sponsored by BetterHelp. Get 10% off.

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