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Get Fitness Lab, the #1 coaching app that adapts to YOUR recovery, YOUR schedule, and YOUR body. Build muscle, lose fat, and get stronger with daily personalized guidance. Special link for podcast listeners (20% off):https://bit.ly/fitness-lab-pod20—Why does body recomp stall even when you lift weights, track macros, and eat for nutrition and fitness? What if your thyroid is slowing metabolism, limiting muscle building, and making it harder to lose fat? Dr. Eric Osansky breaks down the real markers lifters should watch, why lifters may see unique symptoms, and how autoimmune issues like Hashimoto's and Graves develop. We talk hormone health, stress, overtraining, environmental toxins, and what actually supports strength training, longevity, and nutrition and fitness goals. Eric also shares natural strategies that align with evidence-based training so you can make smarter decisions for your metabolism and body composition.If you want to optimize your thyroid and unlock better body recomp results, tune in to learn more.Today, you'll learn all about:0:00 – Hidden thyroid factors in weight loss2:43 – Why Eric pursued thyroid health3:36 – Thyroid basics for lifters8:01 – Eric's Graves diagnosis story14:02 – Lifestyle stress vs true dysfunction20:42 – What labs actually matter24:17 – Autoimmune triggers explained29:33 – Top environmental toxins to avoid39:25 – Treatment options and natural supportEpisode resources:Save My Thyroid PodcastBook: Natural Treatment Solutions for Hyperthyroidism and Graves' DiseaseHealing Graves' Naturally Community: savemythyroid.com/healgravesdisease Healthy Gut Healthy Thyroid Newsletter: savemythyroid.com/newsletter YouTube:  @NaturalThyroidDoctor Instagram: @drericosanskySupport the show

On this episode we were joined by special guest physical therapist Olivia Abdoo! Microglial activation persists beyond clinical recovery following sport concussion in collegiate athletes Neumann KD, Seshadri V, Thompson XD, et al. Front Neurol. 2023;14:1127708. doi:10.3389/fneur.2023 Due to copyright laws, unless the article is open source we cannot legally post the PDF on the website for the world to download at will. Brought to you by our sponsors at: CSMi – https://www.humacnorm.com/ptinquest VALD MoveHealth - https://movehealth.me/ Learn more about/Buy Erik/Jason/Chris's courses – The Science PT Support us on the Patreons! Music for PT Inquest: "The Science of Selling Yourself Short" by Less Than Jake Used by Permission Other Music by Kevin MacLeod – incompetech.com: MidRoll Promo – Mining by Moonlight Koal Challenge – Sam Roux  

Feeling stuck and longing for clarity? I invite you to take a moment to pause, pray, and discern where God is calling you. Today's guest, Lisa Kelly, leadership coach, author of The Spiritual Path, and expert in Ignatian spirituality, shares an Ignatian-inspired process that helps you slow down, notice what's stirring in your heart, and make choices with clarity and peace. If you've ever wondered, “Where is God leading me?” this conversation will give you hope and courage for the road ahead. [02:29] Lisa's Faith Journey and Education [06:54] Discovering the Ignatian Associates [09:43] Living in the Dominican Republic [13:42] Writing 'The Spiritual Path' [18:52] The Cycle of Growth: A Tool for Discernment [30:08] Understanding Consolation and Desolation [33:42] Markers of Desolation [35:33] Discerning Priority Relationships [37:51] The Importance of Environmental Relationships [39:52] Practical Goal Setting and Relationships [46:56] Personal Testimonies and Reflections [51:20] Leadership and Communal Discernment [57:06] Final Thoughts and Resources Check out LaStorta (https://www.lastorta.org/) or contact Lisa (mailto:lisa.kelly@lastorta.org). Also, register for the Spiritual Path Retreat (https://christthekingpriory.com/retreats-schedule/the-spiritual-path-embarking-upon-the-journey-of-a-lifetime-lisa-kelly-ma-steve-titus-jd-phd). For more practical advice and experiences from real people sharing their mission with the world, go to https://equip.archomaha.org/podcast/. A Production of the Archdiocese of Omaha Editor: Taylor Schroll (ForteCatholic.com)

This content has been developed for healthcare professionals only. Patients who seek health information should consult with their physician or relevant patient advocacy groups.For the full presentation, downloadable Practice Aids, slides, and complete CME/MOC/AAPA information, and to apply for credit, please visit us at PeerView.com/QKQ865. CME/MOC/AAPA credit will be available until December 7, 2026.Toward Functional Cure in Chronic HBV: Monitoring, Serological Markers, and Evolving Therapy In support of improving patient care, PVI, PeerView Institute for Medical Education, is jointly accredited by the Accreditation Council for Continuing Medical Education (ACCME), the Accreditation Council for Pharmacy Education (ACPE), and the American Nurses Credentialing Center (ANCC), to provide continuing education for the healthcare team.SupportThis educational activity is supported by an independent medical education grant from GSK.Disclosure information is available at the beginning of the video presentation.

This content has been developed for healthcare professionals only. Patients who seek health information should consult with their physician or relevant patient advocacy groups.For the full presentation, downloadable Practice Aids, slides, and complete CME/MOC/AAPA information, and to apply for credit, please visit us at PeerView.com/QKQ865. CME/MOC/AAPA credit will be available until December 7, 2026.Toward Functional Cure in Chronic HBV: Monitoring, Serological Markers, and Evolving Therapy In support of improving patient care, PVI, PeerView Institute for Medical Education, is jointly accredited by the Accreditation Council for Continuing Medical Education (ACCME), the Accreditation Council for Pharmacy Education (ACPE), and the American Nurses Credentialing Center (ANCC), to provide continuing education for the healthcare team.SupportThis educational activity is supported by an independent medical education grant from GSK.Disclosure information is available at the beginning of the video presentation.

This content has been developed for healthcare professionals only. Patients who seek health information should consult with their physician or relevant patient advocacy groups.For the full presentation, downloadable Practice Aids, slides, and complete CME/MOC/AAPA information, and to apply for credit, please visit us at PeerView.com/QKQ865. CME/MOC/AAPA credit will be available until December 7, 2026.Toward Functional Cure in Chronic HBV: Monitoring, Serological Markers, and Evolving Therapy In support of improving patient care, PVI, PeerView Institute for Medical Education, is jointly accredited by the Accreditation Council for Continuing Medical Education (ACCME), the Accreditation Council for Pharmacy Education (ACPE), and the American Nurses Credentialing Center (ANCC), to provide continuing education for the healthcare team.SupportThis educational activity is supported by an independent medical education grant from GSK.Disclosure information is available at the beginning of the video presentation.

This content has been developed for healthcare professionals only. Patients who seek health information should consult with their physician or relevant patient advocacy groups.For the full presentation, downloadable Practice Aids, slides, and complete CME/MOC/AAPA information, and to apply for credit, please visit us at PeerView.com/QKQ865. CME/MOC/AAPA credit will be available until December 7, 2026.Toward Functional Cure in Chronic HBV: Monitoring, Serological Markers, and Evolving Therapy In support of improving patient care, PVI, PeerView Institute for Medical Education, is jointly accredited by the Accreditation Council for Continuing Medical Education (ACCME), the Accreditation Council for Pharmacy Education (ACPE), and the American Nurses Credentialing Center (ANCC), to provide continuing education for the healthcare team.SupportThis educational activity is supported by an independent medical education grant from GSK.Disclosure information is available at the beginning of the video presentation.

On today's episode we discuss Afghan communism and the consequences of the 1978 Saur Revolution in the context of a longer story of Afghan anti-imperial modernity and Soviet-Afghan relations.How and why was the 1979 Soviet invasion of Afghanistan different from interventions by other powers in the country? How do analyses of the 1979 Soviet invasion that center the “empire” framework limit our understanding of the history of Afghan anti-imperial modernity, Soviet-Afghan relations and Afghanistan's place in the world?Our guest is Adam Alimi and we use his article ”Beyond Empire: Why the Soviet invasion (and withdrawal) of Afghanistan was different” as the basis for the conversation.Article summary and link:The Taliban's return to power in August 2021 set off the usual literatures of failure in studies on Afghanistan. These accounts – graveyard of empires, tribalism, Islam – helped temper the hubris of US foreign policy in its so-called ‘longest war'. Naturally, unforgiving Afghanistan was doomed to remain in the Stone Age, as the British and Soviets had discovered before. Still, the Soviet comparison as an account of the broader failure in Afghanistan is wanting. By drawing on newer global histories of Afghanistan, the periodization of modernity-failure is recast in more interesting ways. Specifically, this article advances the argument that the Soviet connection in Afghanistan, understood here in the long term and not just as the invasion in 1979, cohered with the winds of modernity and anti-imperialism animating the region in the twentieth century. Markers of Afghan modernity, such as late modernization (state-building), political economy (rural social property relations), and revolution (communism), are explored. The US occupation after 2001 is also used as a point of comparison to refocus the history of Afghanistan beyond empire.https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/19436149.2025.2499294Adam Alimi is a PhD candidate in the Department of Politics at York University, Toronto Canada. His research focuses on Marxist theories of development in the Global South.

Now, and??? Okay! Just another dime, And just enough to find Before I count them up to dollars— But you're turning into wine. What did you ever want? This is my other world. Go shatter you tantric catwalk elsewhere! Don't you know there is a show to put on? A wool to pull over the eyes of the unknown? Why do you have to groan at the quantifiable harm known but justice undone. No harm, no foul No food, no valid excuse for betraying my sacred dopamine, but hopefully you know only no good But words can come from it, And words that fall on blind eyes have no context at all. {Enter The Multiverse} Uncorrected transcript. [excuse my neighbors in the background they're determined to make my life miserable more than likely in exchange for dollar signs.] Okay, my Wi-Fi is off, my Bluetooth is off. Oh, my laptop is open, my Wi-Fi is on. I can give me a second to remedy that. Hello. Hello. I'm Atticus's tail says hello. What's going on? Oh, I wasn't planning on oh, my WiFi on my computers off. That is good. Uh, I keep all my devices uh, at minimum on off the grid as often as possible. Um, there there actually it's crazy how much of a difference this makes. I gotta pour myself some coffee. it is almost midnight, o'clock. Hello, um, what's up, we're missing talking episodes. Um, we're missing talking episodes from season 12. I can't find anything like past October, and I know it's on one of my hard drives, but all of my hard drives are full, um, I have like something like 10 terabytes altogether of stuff that needs to be like moved around and not all of it. Some of it's like really personal, like not personal, but like sensitive information that I can't necessarily utilize a cloud for. So I am it's taking me some time to organize some stuff. I I try to do between like eight and 12 hours of just organizing on any typical night after my uh exercise or whatever, or between I would say that exercise is definitely like the primary function of like my life. And that's like the priority right now, especially with the things that I've been going through. I think it's really important to keep my physical and mental health as um in in it's not gonna be at its peak, um, because of the noise pollution that I've been dealing with, and it's actually made me really sick over this extended period of two times. um, and I'm trying to um seek treatment for that, but it's a uh it's a long road, I have a long road ahead of me. We could just say that. Um, which is why I am giving you guys, um, some stuff that I've been working on that's not necessarily finished, and I'm actually really like, I'm embarrassed because I don't necessarily um I I actually have a hard rule of not releasing any music until it's absolutely finished. like even if it is a first draft, like it still has to be finished. um, but I actually and I gave you, I think, I think two tracks, which is actually four. um because this upcoming project, it's a concept album called a symposia. um and the concept for it is um a lot. I don't necessarily have to explain right now. Um, but all of the tracks so far on it are double tracks, and so it is typically I've always really loved albums that have that are like gapless. I don't think through my distributor, like I can never technically um, like put out an album that has no um technical stop or start between songs, like they would have to be cut a certain type of way that, like my distributor does it. There's always gonna be a gap between my music, but um all of the tracks are um double tracks, so they're all two tracks in one, um that are kind of along the same theme or idea and um like lead into the next track. I've always loved albums like that. uh, one of my favorite compilation albums, um like just to give you an example, just to throw it out there, is like, the Beatles love album, which is not actually a Beatles album. It's just a, um, it's a compilation of their um songs made for the Cirus Sole show that I think is still playing in Vegas. I don't know if it is it's been playing for like 10 years, and I still haven't seen it. um I really I really want to take mushrooms and go uh see that show. I've wanted to do that since it came out, but my favorite one of my favorite albums in the world is the love album, which is is basically a mash up of like their greatest hits, crafted by, um engineers and people who used to work with the Beatles and stuff for this uh Cir dis soet show um in Vegas that I hope I get to see I hope it's just one of those like long standing like like Siegfried and Roy. I just realized that they were in Vegas for like 40 years, like they were just there, they were just a stable, so hopefully that show is um kind of like that and one day I'll get the, uh one day I'll get the opportunity to see it. Like my my bucket list, like destination, like vacation at one point was to go see the Beatles love on like an EDC week. um that's still something that I want to do. I promise myself I wouldn't go to EDC unless I like ever got booked there. Um, and I think this year is like 30 years or something of EDC, and so they um they sold out in like five minutes. um so it's it's not it's not something I'd consider doing by myself anyway, unless I was gonna go with my best friend, and um and I was like I was talking to my best friend and I was like, oh, maybe I should check on, like the early bird tickets for ADC, and they were like, they was sold out, and was this celebrating 30 years, and I'm like, okay, well, I guess I should uh work on getting a booking agent, but my music is not my music is kind of turned into like a passion project. um, since everything that I've been going through over the last couple of years kind of just like took me off my path in that sort of way and DJing, I kind of wanna preserve it as like, I really love being a DJ. I really love producing music and because it's so consumer, there's a bunch of people in the industry that are not necessarily like music oriented or love oriented, and it's just like a whole different vibration from like the peace and the love and the unity respect of that. Like I like the scene for. I really want to check out, like as far as a festival goer is concerned, I really wanna check out some of these new festivals that are popping up that are doing like no cell phones. I kind of wanna check those out, cause I feel like the quality of of the experience has been preserved or will have been preserved in in certain spaces like that, um, but anyway, I'm uh I have been physically ill for like a few months now. um, and so the best that I can do for you guys my audience just because I'm not sure if I will get symposium out this year in which case it will come out next year. um, and then I think this track, I'm not sure, this track is definitely like a track that was in my mind. um implementing all of the like sound design stuff that I'm doing for symposium and is also a double track. um it's called Forget me nots. uh and then the second track is followed through. uh,get me nots/follow through. I think it's like an eight or nine. um minute track or whatever. It's not finished. Um, actually, the only finished track that you guys have heard, and even this even bitter butter and southwest of your scars is like a double track that is finished, that is on symposium, but it's still the version one, like it's not um I haven't done like any of the final mastering or any of the things that I do in the process of getting ready for a a release. I do have like a a like an implemented ritual structure of doing things like that, even for projects that seem like mindless, or, you know, things that are seem seemingly just like thrown together, like chasing dragons, was kind of like not necessarily even a concept until the three tracks were like sandwiched together, and I was like, oh, okay, like, this does tell a story and and they were all created in a certain way so that they'd go together. I think I fixed that. um, because, um, chasing dragons, the EP was for some reason, when chasing dragons got released to, like all the major platforms, it had chasing dragons was the first and the last track, and then dishes and the sink was just in the middle, which was weird. um so the third track on chasing dragons is actually immortalist and I got that all fixed. and I also got the regular like the normal version of the songightfall is out on the platforms now. Those were two er errors um that I needed to fix that I finally did. um but I'm slower to do music things now because like I said, my health is the priority. So it's like, yo, if it comes down to like getting a good meal in or like some good exercise or like right now I'm doing active recovery because I'm dumb. I went from like not really running anymore and only walking for an hour every day on the treadmill and doing like an hour between one and two hours on the pelotone, a day which is technically still three hours of work, um, but then I went back into heavy training the way that I preferred to do like I prefer to be at the gym between two and three hours every day. That is my ideal. That is where my body feels comfortable, um and flexible and like happy. Um, and if I can do that in the very beginning, like to start my day, cause I don't necessarily have 24 hour, like days anymore. um like what's technically the end of my day is oftentimes the very beginning of other people's days, and so I'm kind of just on on night, like, routine because it is like, I'm I'm basically just like protecting myself from the uh, you know, like my my nervous system can't take any further damage. Like, I do have really pronounced synesthesia and, um, I wasn't necessarily like planning to be exposed to extreme like noise pollution for an extended period of time without having the financial security or stability to escape from it, cause honestly, if I could have moved, I would have moved or if I could have just left, I would have just left, um, but I obviously wasn't in a situation that I could, and so I became very vulnerable um, to this type of attack, which I learned was actually very common. It's not something that is just like, oh, you know, um, this is just something that I'm going through. It's actually a very common for people of color to be, um vulnerable to this kind of disease that comes from um an implementation of using sound as a weapon. And I mean, like the irony is is that I was already kind of studying synesthetics and the way that, you know, as a culture or the way that in as as far as like mass consumerism is concerned, that's why people pay so much for a, you know, festiv for the festival experiences because sound can be a very much uh manipulated to be a physical thing. It's not, you know, it's not invisible. And so the fact that those same kind of um those that same kind of engineering can be implemented also in a negative way to have a negative effect. Like, you don't have to punch somebody in the face, like, you can just back up your exhaust, your engine exhaust, and, you know, fire at point blank to somebody that is, you know, caught off guard. and in that way, um sound can be used as a weapon, it uses the same dynamics, the same kind of dynamics as, you know, the reason why we go in the th you know, in flocks by the thousands and the millions to these festivals to feel the vibrations that that are on the opposite end of the same spectrum, the healing vibrations of, you know, certain things. and so I've been doing my best to try and, you know, maintain a certain level of health through, you know, using, um, you know, certain frequencies to block out. But when it's your physical person is in a space that's being manipulated to be on a certain frequency, um, uh, the exposure to this negative frequency that is unnatural to your body over a period of time. um, you begin to get very, very sick and that's what's happened to me. And so I'm trying my best to like keep my head above water and, you know, stay afloat. Um, but I didn't expect it especially after, you know, a period of like two or three years before that, where I was just like on the go all the time. Um, and, you know, not necessarily having like a a suitable foundational stability or a place to call home and then going straight into something else that was like more traumatic and more violent than, um then I expected, and so I've been trying to remedy that. um, the best that I can and because I'm putting my mental health and my physical health first, I'm not necessarily like, I it was weird. I was kind of in like a meditative space and I had, you know, like this this kind of spirit come over me that was like music, you know, music is gonna be there forever. like, as long as you're as long as you exist, you know, whether it's in like a physical realm or like an infinite realm or whatever, like as long as you exist, there's always gonna be music. and that was kind of like the sign that like, K, as much as I do like having a streak of, you know, like being an Ableton every day for several hours a day. um, the way that I am using these techniques that I'm applying in symposium and as seen on TV, which reminded up being a double album, because I actually have, um, like several, um, tracks that are like honestly on TV, I've been working on since, like, 2023., like, early 2023. Um, and so, the things that I've like collected, it's kind of interesting because my evolution as an artist or like my technique as a producer will be, um represented here in this project, which I hope comes out next year, but I can't say for sure, cause it's probably the it's definitely the biggest, most um important album I've ever worked on and I I put a lot of care and thought into those as seen on TV tracks because it does um like creatively, I guess, run alongside this series into the multiverse and all the series within the festival project, uh Ascension Death Wish, legends, um the legend of uh, the secret life and the sweet life of sunny Blue, just to name a few, there are I keep trying to make like a list of all of the shows within the festival project, but then I'm like, oh, like there are so many that it would it just falls apart. And so I mean like I'm getting a little bit more organized with the with the actual structure of, like, the television and movie, like, script part of the project. um, while I'm cleaning out my hard drives, but having to organize everything so that it's, you know, so that I can go to a certain hard drive and be like, okay, well, this is um, you know, this is this season to this season. I'm still archiving episodes from, you know, 2021 and and because a lot of those statistics can't be like once I delete an episode from the podcast, it goes away and all the all the statistical information about the number of downloads,, like all of its information, all of its metadata goes away. and that's very important for what I'm going through in my personal life right now in order to protect myself for those things to be taken down, but also for it to be archived in a way that I can reference as a creator like, okay, this is this day that this was published with this, that like, because it's it's a time travel concept that is multifaceted, and it is like based in this multiperceptory m multiperceptory multiimensional concept of technically technically infinite time and space, like it has to be organized in such a way that, like, all of the series and all of their all of the ways that they're connected to any particular parallels have to be, you know, they have to be organized and documented so that because I'm the more that I'm looking at it, the more it makes sense. I'll be like, oh, like, I thought this was just like nonsense or whatever, but when I'm putting it into like an organized space, um, and to me, that's like the god part about it is that like, oh, like, um like, I' I'll be looking at the writing and noticing how it takes like particular shapes or how the shapes will cut is sometimes like make pictures, like sometimes when you're looking at the clouds and you see, you know, shapes and the clouds. sometimes the riding for this project is like that, which is kind of incredible to me.c it's not something that I'm doing um, intentionally, it's kind of just something that's happening. I'm writing in a stream of consciousness that's also, you know, like artistic, creative in a way, that kind of has this, like, sense of divinity to it that I'm not necessarily, like, consciously doing. Um, so everything has to be organized in such a way that like it is gonna take time, um, and because it takes time and a lot of the other things that I did not foresee happening or also taking a lot of my time, like a lot of my my time and energy to document like how sick I've been getting a lot of time and energy has been focused on just like, doing the research on, you know, like crazy crazy shit that I never really took interest in, um, but could be applied here. um, could be applied to this situation and and kind of just finally being able to have a piece of mind to give myself the benefit of the doubt that, like, it wasn't in my head. like, I just had to be uh, I just had to be pushed to the point that I could understand, you know, that this um, sometimes very silent type of, um, you know, warfare is is like a documented not even necessarily historically, but like presently and present day. um, they're just I don't think haven't been enough survivors of this kind of thing, um, that it could be, um that it could be notably researched, like the amount of reports, but, you know, it's it's not it's not by choice, like it is taking up a lot of my time and I wish I was the kind of person that could just ignore it. Um, but I'm getting very physically ill. Um, so I can't, like, I can't ignore the fact that, like, you know, I'm running on zero pretty much all the time, and that my my patterns of speech have changed in my, you know, my thoughts have been intercepted and my, you know, like, because physical and mental health is such a priority to me, the fact that those things have been the primary uh, source of degradation has has affected me in such a way that it's not, I mean, like, it's less emotional than it is the logical answer to, you know, like if you have a cold, you take cold medicine or if you have the flu, you take, you know, it's it's like, well, remedying something that is a fi physical illness, you know. um, removing the cancer from the body, uh, you know, in such a way that it doesn't come back is kind of my main primary concern in this way. Um, so I am am especially because I can't but the talking episodes are actually more popular this season than any other season. and I can't find like six or seven of them, because I I don't know, I was just switching out all my, you know, uh my stuff so quickly and pulling things out of the cloud that it, you know, got saved under drive zip eight, seven six nine, you know, like. It's it's just a mess of of terabytes and tabyrites of creative work, um, and, you know, other things that I've had to dedicate my time to, which is not necessarily fair, but, you know what they say is life is not fair. Um, so, you know, life hasn't been fair, but I have, you know, been blessed in such a way that, like I I I've at least been able to um creatively channel some of the some of the energy and some of the time that I have left over that is technically mine. while in the sense that I've had a lot of my time and energy just stolen in siphoned, um, you know, I have been able to kind of forge a medium through fighting this that allowed me to, you know, start doing art along the lines of, um more more the way that I want my music to to think and feel. And so I'm I'm still just working from a little tiny MacBook air. um, so my, you know, um, my projects get like overwhelmed really quickly. I can't necessarily implement all of my um my plugins or all of the tools that I like to use at once, and so everything is kind of segment segmented in the way that I'm working. um and like, yeah, my projects get overloaded very quickly. um so the tracks that I'm giving you are not finished, but they're more um I would say like they're more, like colored, they're more like filled out. It's not necessarily abstract in the way that some of my stuff is like very like, you know, like drag and drop and cut and go, well, I do a lot of like, even in my even in my like my cut and dry stuff, I do a lot of sample manipulation. I very rarely will keep a sample in the way that it is without doing something to it, you know, like, I don't do dragon drop, um, unless I'm planning on just, like, you know, giving a beat to a rapper a artist for free. like, sometimes I'll just be like, okay, for the next 15 minutes, just do, like, something, you know, like a two or three minute, like dragon drop or whatever. But those those are not necessarily tracks that I A share here or B like plan on doing anything with because the world of sampling has gotten to the point where it's like, yo, you gotta have some creativity, like you can't just open up a sample pack and drag it and drop it into place, because then you have eight or nine songs that sound exactly the same. Eight or nine songs that are the same because basically you're just putting together a, you know, you're putting together stems from a track that was already created, you know, by somebody that's trying to sell you something, so um, you know, I I take a little bit more creative uh integrity in the stuff that I do mean seriously. Um, a lot of it lately hasn't been serious, but I I actually did want to take an hour to talk about this not this track in particular, just talk about why I'm doing this because it was something that it was like, oh, I feel like this project is a little bit more special or is a little bit more like technical than some of the other work that I've shared here on this podcast or work that I've put out before and so I kind of wanted to keep it to myself um, but then I've kind of had a couple, like, you know, like heart shattering experiences that make me realize, like, you don't know. like, you don't really know what's gonna happen and life is, um, sometimes very cruel and sometimes life is, you know, it just takes turns that are not necessarily. um you know, like you don't you don't ever know. And my mindset has not necessarily been that negative. It's like, oh, everything, you know, there's a there's a reason for everything, and blah, blah, blah, and I still do believe that, but like, you know, two years of constant, like, torture and stress to the point where I don't necessarily have a medium for support or, you know, um, like, I don't necessarily have the foundation of community. um, being in a place that is not my home and coming from a family that's very, very small and doesn't necessarily have, you know, well, like, I don't have what some people have, I don't have a large network of family and friends and the kind of family and friends that you create for yourself in the business are not necessarily, um, you know, like people can't necessarily be trusted to have your best interests. Um, especially especially if you are coming from like a a margin for success that, you know, is documented, like you've done well, you can't necessarily still believe that, like, everyone in your immediate circle has the best interest for you, because it is in human nature that everybody has, you know, themselves as the primary interest, and so um, me being like a a solidly um you know, like self sufficient. I won't say independent person. um, driving towards independence or whatever. um, but being a person that spends a lot of time in solitude and with enough respect, like enough self-respect to understand what my when my spiritual and my personal boundaries are being pushed even even in a person you know, professional setting. um like I took today for active recovery because I'm dumb and I went straight back into training as if I'd never really stopped. like it okay, like I'm on the Peloton seven days a week and I have a treadmill that I walk on in for an hour a day, you know, five to six days a week, but it's not the same as like being in the gym and lifting in stri strength training and and um active recovery um but I was like, okay, if I was running like a Madonna or whatever, you know, for this amount of time, then I should be able to do that. I should be able to do that. No, I didn't run a Madonna, but I ran like a 3K and then a little bit. and I like, my body was like, yeah, this is good, but then I had, like the rest of the day and I did not properly hydrate, and I got, like even more sick. and so I'm like, oh, fuck. Like, I really got like I really got a prioritize, like, my physical health, because if I keep letting myself get pushed, you know, like over the summer, before requisite when I was just like, oh, you know, like, I'm just gonna record. I'm gonna go to Manhattan 20 fucking days in a row and not take a day off and I'm also gonna train, you know, and I'm also gonna do this, like the like, I'm maximized my potential for burnout, which also left me per like, personally vulnerable. to the, like, professional sabotage and, like, weird, underhanded, like, underbelly shit that, like people in the DJ circuit are doing because it's so hard to actually break through., from the level of like consumer professionalism right now. So people are doing like a lot of nasty things to try to get that main stage spot and I wasn't like in my head, I'm still very much like a Disney kid, like, I'm still like, I don't necessarily well, I mean, like Disney to teach us like, there's always gonna be a villain, but like, a society kind of undoes that teaching and is like, but that's just in movies and that's just in your head, but there's no like to me, I there is just this weird misst up between real life and what is told that like, okay, like anything that exists that is like in a certain field of negativity is just in your head. but, like, evil is it like a documented source of the opposite of good. since the beginning of time, and I just don't understand in how in a society we can philosophically and psychologically embrace therapy, however, when it when it comes to, like, real lived experiences, when you're dealing with something that is not necessarily, uh, like a normal part of societal living, like that stuff only happens in movies. I'm like, but it does happen. Sometimes you just have to, you know, like being having I've I've never really been such a socially dependent creature. like, a lot of people have to have some kind of validation. That's why social media is like ruling our society right now. is because people have to have the validation or the likes of whatever they're doing is like cool with the rest of the group. and to me, that this is dangerous group think. like, if you're all thinking the same way, then there's something being missed. There's always something being missed, you know, if you're all on the same frequency or the same form of thought, you know. And so, I've always been like a big, you know, maybe it's just because I don't have any siblings. I've been like a big believer in embracing, um, independent thought, like, okay, if everybody else is thinking one way, then what is the opposite of what everybody else is thinking and not necessarily alluding to the fact that the opposite might be the right thing, but anything between whatever the group think and the opposite is, is also like valid, could be valid, you know, it's not necessarily the opposite of what everybody's thinking, but it's somewhere along the spectrum of maybe that or maybe the opposite, like it could be anything else in between. And so I think I'm the kind of person or the kind of thinker that's motivated by the the spectrum, you know, the spectrum, uh process, anything in between, like not necessarily that, not necessarily the opposite of that, but like what other possibilities, you know? um, could be validated or verified through thinking outside of the box or outside of a you know, being forced to the point of conformity that, like, everything sounds the same and everything looks the same and everything has like a way. That's not necessarily wrong. um, but also not necessarily the only way or right. um, so that I' of been uh what what did I get on that round about? I don't know. I've just been playing with like a lot of different concepts, like not necessarily trying to sound like anything. or anyone, and also not necessarily having the opportunity or environmental expression, like the space to be able to sound like myself. Like I still don't artistically or musically think that I sound like myself. um, and that they are elements of myself there, but it's something that's kind of, um, in its, you know, convex form of being this thing that is potential, but not necessarily fully realized or realizable yet. Like, I haven't had I haven't had peace and I haven't had like full p I haven't had peak health in a long time, or a safe environment in a very long time. and I think that the disallowance of comfort, not necessarily the safity of um of complatancy, you know, or or being comfortable to a point that it's it becomes dangerous, um, but just being able to kind of be in a life that is not necessarily like violent or terrible all the time. I think removing these barriers has not necessarily been a foreseeable reality for nearly a decade and while some artists technically thrive in what is, you know, what is this, you know, tragedy and darkness? It's there's only so much of a certain space that my creative ingenuity can take up and not void. And so, understanding that this time is kind of transitional in the sense that eventually it has to in no matter what direction break free from its current state of, you know, entrapment and its current state of imprisonment. um and so in my artistry and not will change, but I don't think I don't think it's necessarily going to be like fully realized until I have a a a point that I'm in an environment that I can breathe and be and think clearly without the force of control or being subjugated to, you know, a certain level of violence that's not necessarily always physical, but is certainly not, um, you know, without it's notable, um, impact on my physical health, my physical and mental health. So that being said, um, this track, um, this track is somewhere between symposium and, um, as seen on TV, I think I began writing it before the concept for symposium was fully formed. and, um, I think it was like the first of its little group of double tracks and I didn't necessarily mean, like, for the story, cause it, you know, ideally, like a song is like five minutes or less or whatever. um five minutes or less or whatever, but I've again, not been, uh, trying to conform to what is supposed to be this, or what is supposed to be that, and, um I don't know. I I began writing it in with the mindset and the technicality of symposium, but also as I listen back to it, um, I'm also using elements that have been implementing for the last few years into as seen on TV. And so there's some like to me, it's very beautiful. Again, what what is more important or more, you know, like wh what is more palatable for my audience is always differed like my favorite tr tracks are not your guys's favorite tracks from what I'm looking at for for the numbers, you know, my favorite episodes of me talking are not your favorite episodes for me talking. So, I mean, like they're exists here, this obvious, like, it's weird because a lot of artists can be applied to their fans and to their listeners. It's like the the listeners are being projective of like they see themselves in their favorite artists, or they see themselves reflected back through an artist that they, you know, like Taylor Swift, like, all her fans are Taylor Swift and like, most artists are that way that, you know, they're reflective of the people that they look like and have the same experience of and that's how, you know, um, that's how mass that's how mass media works. It's reflected, you know, through the medium of sorts, you know, um it as a as a concept that is shared amongst all all of those, you know, people. um, but I'm looking at my numbers and I'm realizing that, like, oh, there there's like a distinctly different flavor from the way that, like, my perception of what is my best work is and what my audience thinks is the best or, you know, the like I look a lot at the numbers not as they happen, but like over time, whereas I'll be in hiatus for a certain amount of months and then I'll come back. and see what the numbers are reflecting in in what is more, you know, palatable for my audience, like what my audience is is actually agreeing with more is like my better work and it's always not it's not necessarily again, it's not necessarily opposite. but it's not um, you know, it's not always what I expect to be. So this to me, I like um, but it doesn't necessarily like that you, whoever you are as an audience is gonna agree. Um This is actually the least completed track. um I feel like I'm showing you yeah, like I'm showing you my my uh it just it's naked cause it's very much not done. This is probably the most incomplete thing that I've ever, like, put out for anybody else to listen to. Um, but just being audit honest as like a person, not like as a entertainer, cause I don't necessarily see myself as that anymore after these couple years. Um, but being honest, like as a human being, as like a person, um, I've had some times that feel as though are, you know, an indication of not having a very prolonged experience in this sort of way. And I don't, like, I don't wanna put a trigger warning on anything. And I don't wanna, you know, like I I also don't want to insinuate things that are not there. Um, but a lot of the time, that is just to say that I don't feel safe, um, that I don't feel, um safe or secure, um, and that there's not necessarily a like sh it's just New York City. There's no level of like autho like a there is no necessary authority complex that has any sort of like, ability to protect you, you know, from uh certain experiences that are not necessarily um, you know, there's there's no level of protection from from, you know, there there are more heavily funded organizations that are like banks and investments or are more funded than the police. So when you're telling the police, like, hey, I'm being, you know, stalked or harassed and like, there's a pattern and like, here's the evidence and they won't even look at your evidence. Um, even though technically by the law, like it is, you know, documented uh, verifiable, like verifiable, like, no, there's none in my head. Like, I have like the videos, I have pictures, I have audio recordings of like this is happening to me, and they won't even look at it, um, not necessarily because they don't want to, but maybe because they've been trained to look in the other way. Um, and then, you know, just the cultural disadvantage of like, youre snitch. I'm like, I'm also within inches of my life sometimes. and nobody's helping me. Um, and it's not necessarily a mental condition. I think that more now than ever, I would be like readily willing to admit like, oh yeah, like, I should just take the meds, but I'm like, this is I'm not hallucinating this. I'm not gonna take some kind of fucking pill for some kind of medication for something that's like, I'm experiencing this, and not only am I experiencing this with like my eyes, my nose, my ears, like, I'm now videotaping 100% of my life everywhere I go. If I walk out the door, I'm recording, like, that's how many times I've been stalked or followed. Like, if I walk outside of my apartment, like I'm I'm videotaping it, because if I don't, if something happens, then it's literally their word against mine. and the police is, like, literal their whole thing is like, if we didn't see it, it didn't happen. Like, you can get you can get, like beaten within an inch of your life and the police can show up and you can tell them and they can see you like bleeding from the face or whatever, and be like, that guy did it, but the police will straight up tell you. the police will straight up tell you like if we didn't see it, it didn't happen, like we can write the report, but like we like they will not investigate. Period. They will not investigate. And so understanding that, like that opens the, you know, the possibility of like way, way more heinous crimes, you know, being able to be, um, played out without, you know, without any possibility of you having help for that, as, you know, is like dangerous to me, and a lot of the time I feel like I'm in danger, um, to me, and so, my priority is not sitting down in Ableton and and you know, getting these cues just right, like, especially with this this track. um, like it's so, so far from complete, but when I hear it, it still sounds it sounds decent enough that, like, I'll give it to you guys just in case, like like the least sometimes that I feel is gonna happen is that I just get hit by a bus. uh, which does happen almost any time I go outside. It's like, I will not get a bicycle. I won't because I'm like, that's like the easiest way to ensure that I will get hit by something. I'll get hit by something. um I will get hit by something, so I don't um I don't, you know. I'm just trying to, uh, get along and protect myself and away that, you know, maybe possibly enables me to, like, disappear. I don't necessarily need to be anybody. I stopped fighting for that main stage spot a long time ago, cause I I see that it's not about like it can't necessarily be about the love when it's about the money. and I have so, so much love. like for the music, um, and for what used to be the scene. I mean, the scene's always been kind of dirty. You pick up any book about DJ culture, about festival culture, you know, about music in the in the sense that it's been meant in the rave world has always had like a CD side to it. um because it was previously a counterculture, you know, that became mainstream and it still definitely has its like flavor, it definitely has its like, you know it's flavors to it, which, you know, is is a magnetism or like a draw, that's like, oh, there is this darkness that exists, but like, at the core of it is the frequency, you know? And I think that if there was ever going to be like a place for like a placeholder for success for me and the industry, it would be somewhere in the future when it can be a more decisive. No, what am I trying to say? Oh, I don't know. I think that money really fucks things up sometimes, and because of the amount of inequality in the world and the fact that the the world has become such a competitive space, um, that there're actually less places for opportunity for artists, even though it seems like there should be more. um I think until it's like about wellness, yeah, I think in until music can be until we can create like spaces where wellness is like at the center of these, you know, gatherings, then I don't think it's necessarily going to be like a safe place. Um for anybody, but let alone for me, because I'm very much like a fragile person when it comes down to, um, like per like the protection of my spirit and the protection of my aura, I don't necessarily want to be in a place of uh tragedy or a place of defense all the time. I I wanna go outside and and be in defense mode 100% of the time. I am right now, so um, like anything I I I kind of take it with a grain of salt in the way that like anything I say can and will be used against me. And so I don't say so much. I I don't say so much, and I want to be sure to take care of my art in a way that it doesn't is not, um, you know, so that it doesn't necessarily exist in a place of toxicity or that it's not coming from. Like, I won't sit down and Ableton if I feel a certain way. It's not just me being lazy. Like it's if I have like a certain vibration that's incurable, like it's not uh it doesn't make sense for me to, like, you know, sit down and work on a track. So this this track, uh, forget me nots and follow through. um, I think it is the first track and symposium. I don't know, because when I listen back to it, I also hear um when I listen back to it, I also hear as seen on TV, like a lot. um like a lot. And so it's kind of interesting to see those two kind of elements of my artistic personality combined, because I think the tracks that I've shared with you that are from symposium or different in the way that they're um made only one way, but this one is definitely implementing um techniques from two projects. Um, so the what are the two other ones? I think it's like talked to me about it. Is that oneosium? I think so. and bitter butter and southwest of your scars. Ah, those are all from this project, but then I I look at this one, which is technically the first of the bunch and it's so not done. that I'm like, don't put it out until it's done. and I'm like, well, and might not ever be done with the shit that's happening is kind of scary. Like, it's I might I may not ever be able to get back to a place where this is possible because of the things that are continually happening uh, to me. Um, I I don't know what the source of evil is. Like, I really don't, like I am very much a spiritual person and I do have like the tendency to believe that like no matter what God has my back so if I'm removed from one situation or existence into another, it is for the protection of that aura, for the protection of that frequency, for the protection of, you know, keeping my, you know, um my source intact, like there's, you know, certain elements or certain frequencies that can't exist in in other realms. I think that, uh, a toxic environment. Like my energ is not going to sustain an intoxic environment. It's just not. It's just not. It's not necessarily even a personal or emotional preference. It's more of like a oh, this doesn't go in there. Like this doesn't go there or I don't exist over there. Like, I don't, you know, it's not. I think I wish that I could be applied to like every space and time, but I think that there are certain drawbacks to being in energy that is applicable to anything and everything. I think that, you know, in the very rare circumstances that an energy like that exists, um it's very magnetizing, it's very, uh enigmatic and it's very charismatic in the way that, like, everybody wants it, everybody wants a piece, everybody wants to be around it, but also for that person, you know, where that energy exists, you know, for that vehicle, I think that it becomes like exhausting to the point that, you know, um, the human of of that, um, you know, the human of that energy is entirely vulnerable all the time. And so those people that are, um designated to do those kinds of jobs, having that high level of power and energy are also, uh, you know, in every sense of the word, um, like exhausted to some effect, um, and I'm exhausted, um, but I think that this last two years has been a case study for all of the like I mean, like she's just horrible things people are doing to each other to try to get ahead, you know, like to try to get a little bit of the pie just to get the tiniest crumbs or to get you know, people are stepping on heads out here. Like people are doing what it takes and they're justifying things that are technically morally, you know. so very morally, uh, corrupt and so so so bad to other people with the justification of like, that's just the way it is. Or you you gotta do what you gotta do and I'm like, yo, dude, but like again, my energy just does not exist in that space for that mindset you know where it's like you know, um because I also believe that like a certain level of justifying, you know, morally uh, you know, morally corrupt behavior eventually just makes it so that you can't get ahead. I I honestly chronically believe that, like if you're constantly fucking other people over just to get to the top, like your top is not going to be consistent with what is actually success and what is actually um freedom, you know, like, you are gonna owe back energy to a certain extent, you know, um, because you stole it in the first place, like, you can't you can't sustain on stolen energy. Like you cannot do it. Like you cannot exist in a place that that was taken from somebody else without something else in turn being taken from you. I honestly truly believed that with every like with every last breath, with every last word, I honestly believe that like that that good overpowers evil. Like, you can't sustain on something that you robbed from somebody, you can't sustain on something that you you know, that that you took, eventually, you know, karmically, um, it comes back too, and so, I don't think energy is any different. I think if you suck the life out of somebody, eventually something' gonna get sucked out of you and, uh, it's one of those things where it's like one step forward, two steps back for people who uh subsist on energy that way. I just I don't know. um, I try more and more to be conscious of my self to point where I realized that um the effect that I have on people could be, you know, long lasting. It's it's something that could be like a ripple effect, and so I'm very careful with my energy in the way that, you know, I if I dole it out, I expect I expect 39%. I don't know why that's the number. 39% to get it back. um, you know, on a certain way. And uh understanding my limits and my like just understanding my ability and my placement. understanding the, you know, the the love you make. yeah, all that. and the love that you make is equal to the love that you take. And so um also, I think that love in itself is probably the most valuable heat source and that it overpowers what is um technically needed in the society of, you know, for survival. I think that love overpowers, you know, whatever material, you know, the material sense of existence is. I think that love overpowers, whatever is morally corrupt, whatever is systematically corrupt. I think that love at the end of the day, like, really does put in its place. um what is supposed to be and what is not supposed to be. And so in because I think like living in this spirit with the understanding that like it took me a really long time. I think I having a a a victim's mentality of like, I must deserve this in some sort of way, but then understanding also like I didn't do anything wrong. Um Sometimes these things just happen and the understanding of why that is is not always attainable. Um, and so to wallow in it and to be like, why, why? You know, like, why? I mean, I think in a from a philosophical standpoint, I do a lot of this because it's like this doesn't necessarily make sense, but it has to it has to be an art artistic way for me to be like, well, it doesn't make sense, but like, you know, now I have ten pages about trying to figure, like, instead of actually just wallowing it and being like, what? Well, now I have ten pages of like this, you know, something that can be considered beautiful. you know, something that can be considered, uh, useful to somebody, maybe not now, but at some point in time, you know, because all of my work is is stored in like this digital time space, kind of like encrypted into history in itself being like a digital marker for, you know, something that very much did exist or did happen. I still believe I still live in the belief that like this, well, it's just like the overall knowing that this part, this faction of history is a very, you know, uh verifiable part of ancient history, you know, to a culture that exists like beyond our time. And so with that understanding that, like it's so crazy, because I do have this overriding kind of factor of, you know, God that's just kind of like, oh, these are ancient times. this is an ancient world and it's hard to like wrap your mind around it because youth, you know, you think of yourself in the present time of like being a, you know, a being of existence in the future. Oh, I watched the jet the Jetsons. Oh, that was so good. I watched uh the Jetsons. which I didn't know is also the Simpsons. and like every animated show that came out on it like a lot, actually. It's a good show. I got I think I gotta watch it again because I was like, oh, this is like ten different shows. It was like ten different shows. um but I watched like the pilot, I think episode of the Jetsons and I was tripping. I I was tripping. um it was just really good. Anyway, um I think what what was I saying? Oh, like this time being like a marker for actual actually being a primitive civilization. Whereas like not necessarily compared to what we know as the primitive civilizations, you know, of human time, like, you think of primitive civilizations of being like the ancient Egyptians or, you know, the Mayans or, uh, you know, the Greeks, uh loved them. I really I I almost even favored them over the Romans. almost, almost, almost, I don't know, I could talk about history and culture forever. cause I'm like, but the other Romans really, like their architecture, but the Greeks more culturally, like artistically, I think where what is the word for them? Uh, the Greeks? What is the word for them? I think there were definitely more, uh yeah, yeah, definitely more artistic philosophical than the Romans, but the Romans had like a lot, like a lot to do with modern society to the point where that's also uh admirable. I do like the Romans. They're just like shitty and violent. They're just shitty and violent anyway. um what was I saying? I don't know. I'm wrapping this up. cause I'm hungry. I don't know about a taco, though. This is technically the start of my day. at midnight o'clock. Um, at midnight o'clock. oh, that's what I was talking about. Markers for ancient civilizations. Oh, yeah, this this time is so so far beyond. But I think the the incredible thing about this time that we're living in now presently, um, is that it is so, like there's so much record of it that it does exist beyond our time for, you know, potentially millions of years and into hire and further civilizations. So I kind of live with that, like, understanding of like this this also and itself being like, a part of the ancient world as far as time is concerned, you know? like, in as much a stipulation of like any apocalyptic or societal, you know, destruction is made, like nothing really sees past, like nothing really sees past the fact that, like, they're so much historical information about our present time in the future that it is consistently creating to an adding to like the what am I trying to say? Oh, something about the multiviverse. Something about the cosmos or something. constantly expanding, because it is, but whatever, I actually just kind of made this as a real time episode to so that I could share this song and then um not really like I don't necessarily have anything for you, anything else for you in this season. um it's there. like, there are six or seven other episodes. There might even be some music. oh, all the freaky Fridays or whatever, mix tapes. Did I even post what up Wednesday? I did I did a freaky Friday on a Wednesday and it was arguably the best. of all the freaky Fridays. I don't know if I posted that already. um I don't know if I posted that already. but it's not. Also, like my podcasting distributor is kind of archaic. So it takes a lot of work just to go check on what's been posted or whatever. um So I'm I'm not going to make any promises and be like, oh, go check if that was posted. And if it is posted, I'll just maybe post it again, cause it's worth it. Um, what up Wednesdays? I did it twice, actually. um because it got difficult to do freaky Fridays. It's still kind of fucking difficult to do it. And, uh, I it pains me to realize, like, how physically affected. I've I have been. um cause it sucks, cause it's not just something that's in my head, it's like ow, like, my body hurts. like, I cannot, you know. I can't withstand a certain frequency or electronic exposure that is negative over this much time. Like, I'm just like broken down right now. Um at least I'm still capable, cause I didn't ever think. I was like, I don't think I'll ever run more than a mile again. Um, I probably should um take the proper steps to make sure that, though, uh, now that I'm running again, I take the proper steps, like, I forgot to stretch, and I forgot to drink water. Stupid. Well, I I just felt so good to run. I love those woodway treadmills so much, so much, it just felt so good that I didn't that I couldn't stop and then when I did, like my body is like, okay, like you're stupid. Like it felt really good, so I'm like, all right, like active recovery. I'm gonna do like two hours on the pelotone and then a walk. um, before I run again. and that's what I'm about to do right now. I love getting to the reunion parts of the bad girls club because as the most fighting and I burn the most calories during the reunions, I just finished to season. I just watched the season for the second time. and uh I have a reunion episode coming up, so I'm a I'm— I don't know. I'm pretty boring person to be quite honest, but here's the song. okay, I'm at an hour yet. Here's the song forgetmenot// and follow through. It's not finished. Like if I could give you a percentage on the— what are you doing? Yo, this dudes are weird all day. I'm sorry. Um. He's so funny. He's so funny. Earlier he like earlier he like sneezed. Earlier he sneezed. But like also farted and this scared himself so bad that I could not contain myself. Because he was like embarrassed. but like, also he sneezed and farted and probably could not. He was like, oh, my God. Like, oh my God. And then, uh, I laughed for like a good five minutes after that. He seemed genuinely embarrassed. I was like, yeah. yeah, that that is shocking that you can manage to do something like that. like being a cat, but, you know, oh, he did. It was good. That's why we have emotional support animals, because I needed that laugh. I don't think I' laughed so hard at anything in a very, very long time, so I'm glad I have my little kitty. my satterat, my Mr. Cat, mush matters anyway. uh, was I wrapping something up? I was.ive meods to follow through. this song that's about to come up, and then I'm maybe I'll maybe I'll if it's not out already. Well, if it is, here it is again, what up Wednesday? I'll go dig it out of the fucking archives. you guys couldn't have that. decent. Um, keep in mind that the CDJs at the radio station, where do Freaky Fridays are also very archaic? Um, I'm not complaining, though. I don't know. I don't know if I got to the episode where I was talking about that. Uh, or maybe I got I got fi I gotta figure it out. um I gotta figure out where these episodes are. There's like six or seven. Should I uh honorable mentions or dishonorable mensions? I feel like it borders on both. because I just figured out what apparently the six seven phenomenon is. And I'm actually worried about suburban children, like, having act like, why are they saying this? Because I looked up I looked up where it came from, it came from this rapper called scrilla dude. not gonna lie. One of my personal favorites, cause I love rap, that is terrible to a certain extent. um and it is, like it's not only it's not only like it's not lyrically terrible. He's actually really good um He's actually really good whatever he's saying. I know what he's saying, which is what's terrifying that, like, apparently suburban upper middle class and upper class children are saying this. six seven thing, because it came from this video by this rapper called Skrilla do doot. Yup. and well, it's culture music, like it's it's trap culture music, it's not necessarily drill, but it's done in the style of drill. um, talking about like the culture the culture the culture um that is not necessarily like great. cause he was talking I was like yo. what the fuck are children saying this for? Um, what the fuck are children exposed to this for? Because there was no, like parental block on it or anything like that. And the dude was talking about like, straight up murderer. He was like, yeah, m, like this though. And I was like, oh no, like I I actually kind of dig his music because it's it's like it's the music that was born of like the Young Thug and the low Wayne and themehesine and it's bad. It's really bad. Like it's really bad. like if your kids are saying six seven, like, the origin of that is not, I'm like,o, shout out sc a d do, because that is facts, but also like, like like kids should not necessarily like, everything he was saying and all of his songs, I was like, that's bad. That's bad that you said that. not that you shouldn't, actually. I feel like there, like art exists as a medium to be able to have this level of freedom of speech, and that's why it exists. But also like, if you understand which I think kids obviously don't if they're just like, oh, six, seven, I'm like, okay, like, but obviously, like, this is where that came from. Like, and this is where that came from, and the dude is talking about some stuff that I'm like what? Like, I'm not confused. I know what he's talking about. But like, children should not necessarily like, even if they don't know what he's talking about, this is not like, this is different from like, when I was like, 10 and it's getting hot in here. So take off all your clothes, like that came out or like to the window to the wall, like this is mild, those things are mild, compared to like, the shit that scrill a do dude. talks about. I'm like, oh, what? What? And apparently we little kids are seeing this and exposed to it, like, they don't necessarily know what it means, but he's like, yo, these are the lyrics to my songs. Listen. I'm like, oh, like. That's troubling. That that exists. That's troubling. truly troubling. I'm I'm not talking shit. I actually really like it, but like parental controls, like, my kids should not be exposed to this, like via the Internet. Like, you should not like, this should be something especially if you live in the subrooms like if you live in a house that has rooms, like if you live in a house that has rooms in an all. like the culture that this is referencing and you know what? The only thing that actually made me look it up was like so many people were saying it in the circuit of television that I watched that I was like, it was bothering me. It was bothering me like Labubu was, but Labubu was far less disturbing, far less. I was like, oh, no. this is not cool. This is not cool, David Letterman. This is not cool, because he was like,Yo, what's up six seven? I'm like, you're 106. I don't know why you're saying this. So I looked it up. So I looked it up, and I was like, oh no, like, okay, like we know it's a cultural fucking phenomenon, but like, do you know why? Do you know why? Like, do you know why? And do you know what this man is talking about? Do you know what this man is saying? Anyway. I'm not I'm actually not gonna say it. Like I'm not gonna say it because I think it it exempt exemplifies that's what I'm trying to say right yeah. I think it exemplifies and represents a part of the culture that is deeply, deeply, deeply, deeply wrong. um in the history of the United States of America. I think it's just bad news. It's just bad news. And it's bad news, like it exists, but the reason why it exists is terrible, like it shouldn't exist is it's terrible. It's bad. It's bad and it's bad that kids are saying this. It's bad anyway. it's really bad. Anyway, I got Peloton time, bad girls' club reunion, some coffee to reheat. Here's this song, um there's no anything else for a while. I gotta make sure that like my uh I got to make sure if I get taken out, it's by like a city bus. And, you know, not just because my insides are uh imploding. um and yeah, my insides are imploding. Uh, gotta take care of number one, which is me. So, that self serving thing I get, but, you know, I'm just not the kind to to step on heads or like, I'm not gonna make it, like, purposely harder for you to do something. Like, I do believe in free will to the point where if you're not hurting anybody else, it's not affecting anybody else's, like vibe, like, do what you want, like, as long as you're not objectively or subjectively hurting anybody. Like, just don't hurt anybody, but besides this, you know, take care of yourself, but it's not, you know. I mean, you're not causing any quantifiable harm. Go ahead and, you know? I, um, but that's it. That's that's it for me. Thank you for listening. Is that it? Yeah, forget me nots. It's not finished. I've got a lot to do. Like, I actually had this is a song that actually has like a list, like a handwritten list on a piece of paper of like do this and do that and do this and do that. But like here's what I have so far just in case, you know, the city buses be getting awful close to the curb sometimes. where I stand, I am yep, they do. anyway. um I said more stories to tell and stuff, but now it's not the time or the place. did I say my thing? Yeah, I say my. Dave you were listening. something, you're listening, see you next time. That's it, yeah. Yeah, I don't have anything else. Thank you for listening. See you next time, bye.

Now, and??? Okay! Just another dime, And just enough to find Before I count them up to dollars— But you're turning into wine. What did you ever want? This is my other world. Go shatter you tantric catwalk elsewhere! Don't you know there is a show to put on? A wool to pull over the eyes of the unknown? Why do you have to groan at the quantifiable harm known but justice undone. No harm, no foul No food, no valid excuse for betraying my sacred dopamine, but hopefully you know only no good But words can come from it, And words that fall on blind eyes have no context at all. {Enter The Multiverse} Uncorrected transcript. [excuse my neighbors in the background they're determined to make my life miserable more than likely in exchange for dollar signs.] Okay, my Wi-Fi is off, my Bluetooth is off. Oh, my laptop is open, my Wi-Fi is on. I can give me a second to remedy that. Hello. Hello. I'm Atticus's tail says hello. What's going on? Oh, I wasn't planning on oh, my WiFi on my computers off. That is good. Uh, I keep all my devices uh, at minimum on off the grid as often as possible. Um, there there actually it's crazy how much of a difference this makes. I gotta pour myself some coffee. it is almost midnight, o'clock. Hello, um, what's up, we're missing talking episodes. Um, we're missing talking episodes from season 12. I can't find anything like past October, and I know it's on one of my hard drives, but all of my hard drives are full, um, I have like something like 10 terabytes altogether of stuff that needs to be like moved around and not all of it. Some of it's like really personal, like not personal, but like sensitive information that I can't necessarily utilize a cloud for. So I am it's taking me some time to organize some stuff. I I try to do between like eight and 12 hours of just organizing on any typical night after my uh exercise or whatever, or between I would say that exercise is definitely like the primary function of like my life. And that's like the priority right now, especially with the things that I've been going through. I think it's really important to keep my physical and mental health as um in in it's not gonna be at its peak, um, because of the noise pollution that I've been dealing with, and it's actually made me really sick over this extended period of two times. um, and I'm trying to um seek treatment for that, but it's a uh it's a long road, I have a long road ahead of me. We could just say that. Um, which is why I am giving you guys, um, some stuff that I've been working on that's not necessarily finished, and I'm actually really like, I'm embarrassed because I don't necessarily um I I actually have a hard rule of not releasing any music until it's absolutely finished. like even if it is a first draft, like it still has to be finished. um, but I actually and I gave you, I think, I think two tracks, which is actually four. um because this upcoming project, it's a concept album called a symposia. um and the concept for it is um a lot. I don't necessarily have to explain right now. Um, but all of the tracks so far on it are double tracks, and so it is typically I've always really loved albums that have that are like gapless. I don't think through my distributor, like I can never technically um, like put out an album that has no um technical stop or start between songs, like they would have to be cut a certain type of way that, like my distributor does it. There's always gonna be a gap between my music, but um all of the tracks are um double tracks, so they're all two tracks in one, um that are kind of along the same theme or idea and um like lead into the next track. I've always loved albums like that. uh, one of my favorite compilation albums, um like just to give you an example, just to throw it out there, is like, the Beatles love album, which is not actually a Beatles album. It's just a, um, it's a compilation of their um songs made for the Cirus Sole show that I think is still playing in Vegas. I don't know if it is it's been playing for like 10 years, and I still haven't seen it. um I really I really want to take mushrooms and go uh see that show. I've wanted to do that since it came out, but my favorite one of my favorite albums in the world is the love album, which is is basically a mash up of like their greatest hits, crafted by, um engineers and people who used to work with the Beatles and stuff for this uh Cir dis soet show um in Vegas that I hope I get to see I hope it's just one of those like long standing like like Siegfried and Roy. I just realized that they were in Vegas for like 40 years, like they were just there, they were just a stable, so hopefully that show is um kind of like that and one day I'll get the, uh one day I'll get the opportunity to see it. Like my my bucket list, like destination, like vacation at one point was to go see the Beatles love on like an EDC week. um that's still something that I want to do. I promise myself I wouldn't go to EDC unless I like ever got booked there. Um, and I think this year is like 30 years or something of EDC, and so they um they sold out in like five minutes. um so it's it's not it's not something I'd consider doing by myself anyway, unless I was gonna go with my best friend, and um and I was like I was talking to my best friend and I was like, oh, maybe I should check on, like the early bird tickets for ADC, and they were like, they was sold out, and was this celebrating 30 years, and I'm like, okay, well, I guess I should uh work on getting a booking agent, but my music is not my music is kind of turned into like a passion project. um, since everything that I've been going through over the last couple of years kind of just like took me off my path in that sort of way and DJing, I kind of wanna preserve it as like, I really love being a DJ. I really love producing music and because it's so consumer, there's a bunch of people in the industry that are not necessarily like music oriented or love oriented, and it's just like a whole different vibration from like the peace and the love and the unity respect of that. Like I like the scene for. I really want to check out, like as far as a festival goer is concerned, I really wanna check out some of these new festivals that are popping up that are doing like no cell phones. I kind of wanna check those out, cause I feel like the quality of of the experience has been preserved or will have been preserved in in certain spaces like that, um, but anyway, I'm uh I have been physically ill for like a few months now. um, and so the best that I can do for you guys my audience just because I'm not sure if I will get symposium out this year in which case it will come out next year. um, and then I think this track, I'm not sure, this track is definitely like a track that was in my mind. um implementing all of the like sound design stuff that I'm doing for symposium and is also a double track. um it's called Forget me nots. uh and then the second track is followed through. uh,get me nots/follow through. I think it's like an eight or nine. um minute track or whatever. It's not finished. Um, actually, the only finished track that you guys have heard, and even this even bitter butter and southwest of your scars is like a double track that is finished, that is on symposium, but it's still the version one, like it's not um I haven't done like any of the final mastering or any of the things that I do in the process of getting ready for a a release. I do have like a a like an implemented ritual structure of doing things like that, even for projects that seem like mindless, or, you know, things that are seem seemingly just like thrown together, like chasing dragons, was kind of like not necessarily even a concept until the three tracks were like sandwiched together, and I was like, oh, okay, like, this does tell a story and and they were all created in a certain way so that they'd go together. I think I fixed that. um, because, um, chasing dragons, the EP was for some reason, when chasing dragons got released to, like all the major platforms, it had chasing dragons was the first and the last track, and then dishes and the sink was just in the middle, which was weird. um so the third track on chasing dragons is actually immortalist and I got that all fixed. and I also got the regular like the normal version of the songightfall is out on the platforms now. Those were two er errors um that I needed to fix that I finally did. um but I'm slower to do music things now because like I said, my health is the priority. So it's like, yo, if it comes down to like getting a good meal in or like some good exercise or like right now I'm doing active recovery because I'm dumb. I went from like not really running anymore and only walking for an hour every day on the treadmill and doing like an hour between one and two hours on the pelotone, a day which is technically still three hours of work, um, but then I went back into heavy training the way that I preferred to do like I prefer to be at the gym between two and three hours every day. That is my ideal. That is where my body feels comfortable, um and flexible and like happy. Um, and if I can do that in the very beginning, like to start my day, cause I don't necessarily have 24 hour, like days anymore. um like what's technically the end of my day is oftentimes the very beginning of other people's days, and so I'm kind of just on on night, like, routine because it is like, I'm I'm basically just like protecting myself from the uh, you know, like my my nervous system can't take any further damage. Like, I do have really pronounced synesthesia and, um, I wasn't necessarily like planning to be exposed to extreme like noise pollution for an extended period of time without having the financial security or stability to escape from it, cause honestly, if I could have moved, I would have moved or if I could have just left, I would have just left, um, but I obviously wasn't in a situation that I could, and so I became very vulnerable um, to this type of attack, which I learned was actually very common. It's not something that is just like, oh, you know, um, this is just something that I'm going through. It's actually a very common for people of color to be, um vulnerable to this kind of disease that comes from um an implementation of using sound as a weapon. And I mean, like the irony is is that I was already kind of studying synesthetics and the way that, you know, as a culture or the way that in as as far as like mass consumerism is concerned, that's why people pay so much for a, you know, festiv for the festival experiences because sound can be a very much uh manipulated to be a physical thing. It's not, you know, it's not invisible. And so the fact that those same kind of um those that same kind of engineering can be implemented also in a negative way to have a negative effect. Like, you don't have to punch somebody in the face, like, you can just back up your exhaust, your engine exhaust, and, you know, fire at point blank to somebody that is, you know, caught off guard. and in that way, um sound can be used as a weapon, it uses the same dynamics, the same kind of dynamics as, you know, the reason why we go in the th you know, in flocks by the thousands and the millions to these festivals to feel the vibrations that that are on the opposite end of the same spectrum, the healing vibrations of, you know, certain things. and so I've been doing my best to try and, you know, maintain a certain level of health through, you know, using, um, you know, certain frequencies to block out. But when it's your physical person is in a space that's being manipulated to be on a certain frequency, um, uh, the exposure to this negative frequency that is unnatural to your body over a period of time. um, you begin to get very, very sick and that's what's happened to me. And so I'm trying my best to like keep my head above water and, you know, stay afloat. Um, but I didn't expect it especially after, you know, a period of like two or three years before that, where I was just like on the go all the time. Um, and, you know, not necessarily having like a a suitable foundational stability or a place to call home and then going straight into something else that was like more traumatic and more violent than, um then I expected, and so I've been trying to remedy that. um, the best that I can and because I'm putting my mental health and my physical health first, I'm not necessarily like, I it was weird. I was kind of in like a meditative space and I had, you know, like this this kind of spirit come over me that was like music, you know, music is gonna be there forever. like, as long as you're as long as you exist, you know, whether it's in like a physical realm or like an infinite realm or whatever, like as long as you exist, there's always gonna be music. and that was kind of like the sign that like, K, as much as I do like having a streak of, you know, like being an Ableton every day for several hours a day. um, the way that I am using these techniques that I'm applying in symposium and as seen on TV, which reminded up being a double album, because I actually have, um, like several, um, tracks that are like honestly on TV, I've been working on since, like, 2023., like, early 2023. Um, and so, the things that I've like collected, it's kind of interesting because my evolution as an artist or like my technique as a producer will be, um represented here in this project, which I hope comes out next year, but I can't say for sure, cause it's probably the it's definitely the biggest, most um important album I've ever worked on and I I put a lot of care and thought into those as seen on TV tracks because it does um like creatively, I guess, run alongside this series into the multiverse and all the series within the festival project, uh Ascension Death Wish, legends, um the legend of uh, the secret life and the sweet life of sunny Blue, just to name a few, there are I keep trying to make like a list of all of the shows within the festival project, but then I'm like, oh, like there are so many that it would it just falls apart. And so I mean like I'm getting a little bit more organized with the with the actual structure of, like, the television and movie, like, script part of the project. um, while I'm cleaning out my hard drives, but having to organize everything so that it's, you know, so that I can go to a certain hard drive and be like, okay, well, this is um, you know, this is this season to this season. I'm still archiving episodes from, you know, 2021 and and because a lot of those statistics can't be like once I delete an episode from the podcast, it goes away and all the all the statistical information about the number of downloads,, like all of its information, all of its metadata goes away. and that's very important for what I'm going through in my personal life right now in order to protect myself for those things to be taken down, but also for it to be archived in a way that I can reference as a creator like, okay, this is this day that this was published with this, that like, because it's it's a time travel concept that is multifaceted, and it is like based in this multiperceptory m multiperceptory multiimensional concept of technically technically infinite time and space, like it has to be organized in such a way that, like, all of the series and all of their all of the ways that they're connected to any particular parallels have to be, you know, they have to be organized and documented so that because I'm the more that I'm looking at it, the more it makes sense. I'll be like, oh, like, I thought this was just like nonsense or whatever, but when I'm putting it into like an organized space, um, and to me, that's like the god part about it is that like, oh, like, um like, I' I'll be looking at the writing and noticing how it takes like particular shapes or how the shapes will cut is sometimes like make pictures, like sometimes when you're looking at the clouds and you see, you know, shapes and the clouds. sometimes the riding for this project is like that, which is kind of incredible to me.c it's not something that I'm doing um, intentionally, it's kind of just something that's happening. I'm writing in a stream of consciousness that's also, you know, like artistic, creative in a way, that kind of has this, like, sense of divinity to it that I'm not necessarily, like, consciously doing. Um, so everything has to be organized in such a way that like it is gonna take time, um, and because it takes time and a lot of the other things that I did not foresee happening or also taking a lot of my time, like a lot of my my time and energy to document like how sick I've been getting a lot of time and energy has been focused on just like, doing the research on, you know, like crazy crazy shit that I never really took interest in, um, but could be applied here. um, could be applied to this situation and and kind of just finally being able to have a piece of mind to give myself the benefit of the doubt that, like, it wasn't in my head. like, I just had to be uh, I just had to be pushed to the point that I could understand, you know, that this um, sometimes very silent type of, um, you know, warfare is is like a documented not even necessarily historically, but like presently and present day. um, they're just I don't think haven't been enough survivors of this kind of thing, um, that it could be, um that it could be notably researched, like the amount of reports, but, you know, it's it's not it's not by choice, like it is taking up a lot of my time and I wish I was the kind of person that could just ignore it. Um, but I'm getting very physically ill. Um, so I can't, like, I can't ignore the fact that, like, you know, I'm running on zero pretty much all the time, and that my my patterns of speech have changed in my, you know, my thoughts have been intercepted and my, you know, like, because physical and mental health is such a priority to me, the fact that those things have been the primary uh, source of degradation has has affected me in such a way that it's not, I mean, like, it's less emotional than it is the logical answer to, you know, like if you have a cold, you take cold medicine or if you have the flu, you take, you know, it's it's like, well, remedying something that is a fi physical illness, you know. um, removing the cancer from the body, uh, you know, in such a way that it doesn't come back is kind of my main primary concern in this way. Um, so I am am especially because I can't but the talking episodes are actually more popular this season than any other season. and I can't find like six or seven of them, because I I don't know, I was just switching out all my, you know, uh my stuff so quickly and pulling things out of the cloud that it, you know, got saved under drive zip eight, seven six nine, you know, like. It's it's just a mess of of terabytes and tabyrites of creative work, um, and, you know, other things that I've had to dedicate my time to, which is not necessarily fair, but, you know what they say is life is not fair. Um, so, you know, life hasn't been fair, but I have, you know, been blessed in such a way that, like I I I've at least been able to um creatively channel some of the some of the energy and some of the time that I have left over that is technically mine. while in the sense that I've had a lot of my time and energy just stolen in siphoned, um, you know, I have been able to kind of forge a medium through fighting this that allowed me to, you know, start doing art along the lines of, um more more the way that I want my music to to think and feel. And so I'm I'm still just working from a little tiny MacBook air. um, so my, you know, um, my projects get like overwhelmed really quickly. I can't necessarily implement all of my um my plugins or all of the tools that I like to use at once, and so everything is kind of segment segmented in the way that I'm working. um and like, yeah, my projects get overloaded very quickly. um so the tracks that I'm giving you are not finished, but they're more um I would say like they're more, like colored, they're more like filled out. It's not necessarily abstract in the way that some of my stuff is like very like, you know, like drag and drop and cut and go, well, I do a lot of like, even in my even in my like my cut and dry stuff, I do a lot of sample manipulation. I very rarely will keep a sample in the way that it is without doing something to it, you know, like, I don't do dragon drop, um, unless I'm planning on just, like, you know, giving a beat to a rapper a artist for free. like, sometimes I'll just be like, okay, for the next 15 minutes, just do, like, something, you know, like a two or three minute, like dragon drop or whatever. But those those are not necessarily tracks that I A share here or B like plan on doing anything with because the world of sampling has gotten to the point where it's like, yo, you gotta have some creativity, like you can't just open up a sample pack and drag it and drop it into place, because then you have eight or nine songs that sound exactly the same. Eight or nine songs that are the same because basically you're just putting together a, you know, you're putting together stems from a track that was already created, you know, by somebody that's trying to sell you something, so um, you know, I I take a little bit more creative uh integrity in the stuff that I do mean seriously. Um, a lot of it lately hasn't been serious, but I I actually did want to take an hour to talk about this not this track in particular, just talk about why I'm doing this because it was something that it was like, oh, I feel like this project is a little bit more special or is a little bit more like technical than some of the other work that I've shared here on this podcast or work that I've put out before and so I kind of wanted to keep it to myself um, but then I've kind of had a couple, like, you know, like heart shattering experiences that make me realize, like, you don't know. like, you don't really know what's gonna happen and life is, um, sometimes very cruel and sometimes life is, you know, it just takes turns that are not necessarily. um you know, like you don't you don't ever know. And my mindset has not necessarily been that negative. It's like, oh, everything, you know, there's a there's a reason for everything, and blah, blah, blah, and I still do believe that, but like, you know, two years of constant, like, torture and stress to the point where I don't necessarily have a medium for support or, you know, um, like, I don't necessarily have the foundation of community. um, being in a place that is not my home and coming from a family that's very, very small and doesn't necessarily have, you know, well, like, I don't have what some people have, I don't have a large network of family and friends and the kind of family and friends that you create for yourself in the business are not necessarily, um, you know, like people can't necessarily be trusted to have your best interests. Um, especially especially if you are coming from like a a margin for success that, you know, is documented, like you've done well, you can't necessarily still believe that, like, everyone in your immediate circle has the best interest for you, because it is in human nature that everybody has, you know, themselves as the primary interest, and so um, me being like a a solidly um you know, like self sufficient. I won't say independent person. um, driving towards independence or whatever. um, but being a person that spends a lot of time in solitude and with enough respect, like enough self-respect to understand what my when my spiritual and my personal boundaries are being pushed even even in a person you know, professional setting. um like I took today for active recovery because I'm dumb and I went straight back into training as if I'd never really stopped. like it okay, like I'm on the Peloton seven days a week and I have a treadmill that I walk on in for an hour a day, you know, five to six days a week, but it's not the same as like being in the gym and lifting in stri strength training and and um active recovery um but I was like, okay, if I was running like a Madonna or whatever, you know, for this amount of time, then I should be able to do that. I should be able to do that. No, I didn't run a Madonna, but I ran like a 3K and then a little bit. and I like, my body was like, yeah, this is good, but then I had, like the rest of the day and I did not properly hydrate, and I got, like even more sick. and so I'm like, oh, fuck. Like, I really got like I really got a prioritize, like, my physical health, because if I keep letting myself get pushed, you know, like over the summer, before requisite when I was just like, oh, you know, like, I'm just gonna record. I'm gonna go to Manhattan 20 fucking days in a row and not take a day off and I'm also gonna train, you know, and I'm also gonna do this, like the like, I'm maximized my potential for burnout, which also left me per like, personally vulnerable. to the, like, professional sabotage and, like, weird, underhanded, like, underbelly shit that, like people in the DJ circuit are doing because it's so hard to actually break through., from the level of like consumer professionalism right now. So people are doing like a lot of nasty things to try to get that main stage spot and I wasn't like in my head, I'm still very much like a Disney kid, like, I'm still like, I don't necessarily well, I mean, like Disney to teach us like, there's always gonna be a villain, but like, a society kind of undoes that teaching and is like, but that's just in movies and that's just in your head, but there's no like to me, I there is just this weird misst up between real life and what is told that like, okay, like anything that exists that is like in a certain field of negativity is just in your head. but, like, evil is it like a documented source of the opposite of good. since the beginning of time, and I just don't understand in how in a society we can philosophically and psychologically embrace therapy, however, when it when it comes to, like, real lived experiences, when you're dealing with something that is not necessarily, uh, like a normal part of societal living, like that stuff only happens in movies. I'm like, but it does happen. Sometimes you just have to, you know, like being having I've I've never really been such a socially dependent creature. like, a lot of people have to have some kind of validation. That's why social media is like ruling our society right now. is because people have to have the validation or the likes of whatever they're doing is like cool with the rest of the group. and to me, that this is dangerous group think. like, if you're all thinking the same way, then there's something being missed. There's always something being missed, you know, if you're all on the same frequency or the same form of thought, you know. And so, I've always been like a big, you know, maybe it's just because I don't have any siblings. I've been like a big believer in embracing, um, independent thought, like, okay, if everybody else is thinking one way, then what is the opposite of what everybody else is thinking and not necessarily alluding to the fact that the opposite might be the right thing, but anything between whatever the group think and the opposite is, is also like valid, could be valid, you know, it's not necessarily the opposite of what everybody's thinking, but it's somewhere along the spectrum of maybe that or maybe the opposite, like it could be anything else in between. And so I think I'm the kind of person or the kind of thinker that's motivated by the the spectrum, you know, the spectrum, uh process, anything in between, like not necessarily that, not necessarily the opposite of that, but like what other possibilities, you know? um, could be validated or verified through thinking outside of the box or outside of a you know, being forced to the point of conformity that, like, everything sounds the same and everything looks the same and everything has like a way. That's not necessarily wrong. um, but also not necessarily the only way or right. um, so that I' of been uh what what did I get on that round about? I don't know. I've just been playing with like a lot of different concepts, like not necessarily trying to sound like anything. or anyone, and also not necessarily having the opportunity or environmental expression, like the space to be able to sound like myself. Like I still don't artistically or musically think that I sound like myself. um, and that they are elements of myself there, but it's something that's kind of, um, in its, you know, convex form of being this thing that is potential, but not necessarily fully realized or realizable yet. Like, I haven't had I haven't had peace and I haven't had like full p I haven't had peak health in a long time, or a safe environment in a very long time. and I think that the disallowance of comfort, not necessarily the safity of um of complatancy, you know, or or being comfortable to a point that it's it becomes dangerous, um, but just being able to kind of be in a life that is not necessarily like violent or terrible all the time. I think removing these barriers has not necessarily been a foreseeable reality for nearly a decade and while some artists technically thrive in what is, you know, what is this, you know, tragedy and darkness? It's there's only so much of a certain space that my creative ingenuity can take up and not void. And so, understanding that this time is kind of transitional in the sense that eventually it has to in no matter what direction break free from its current state of, you know, entrapment and its current state of imprisonment. um and so in my artistry and not will change, but I don't think I don't think it's necessarily going to be like fully realized until I have a a a point that I'm in an environment that I can breathe and be and think clearly without the force of control or being subjugated to, you know, a certain level of violence that's not necessarily always physical, but is certainly not, um, you know, without it's notable, um, impact on my physical health, my physical and mental health. So that being said, um, this track, um, this track is somewhere between symposium and, um, as seen on TV, I think I began writing it before the concept for symposium was fully formed. and, um, I think it was like the first of its little group of double tracks and I didn't necessarily mean, like, for the story, cause it, you know, ideally, like a song is like five minutes or less or whatever. um five minutes or less or whatever, but I've again, not been, uh, trying to conform to what is supposed to be this, or what is supposed to be that, and, um I don't know. I I began writing it in with the mindset and the technicality of symposium, but also as I listen back to it, um, I'm also using elements that have been implementing for the last few years into as seen on TV. And so there's some like to me, it's very beautiful. Again, what what is more important or more, you know, like wh what is more palatable for my audience is always differed like my favorite tr tracks are not your guys's favorite tracks from what I'm looking at for for the numbers, you know, my favorite episodes of me talking are not your favorite episodes for me talking. So, I mean, like they're exists here, this obvious, like, it's weird because a lot of artists can be applied to their fans and to their listeners. It's like the the listeners are being projective of like they see themselves in their favorite artists, or they see themselves reflected back through an artist that they, you know, like Taylor Swift, like, all her fans are Taylor Swift and like, most artists are that way that, you know, they're reflective of the people that they look like and have the same experience of and that's how, you know, um, that's how mass that's how mass media works. It's reflected, you know, through the medium of sorts, you know, um it as a as a concept that is shared amongst all all of those, you know, people. um, but I'm looking at my numbers and I'm realizing that, like, oh, there there's like a distinctly different flavor from the way that, like, my perception of what is my best work is and what my audience thinks is the best or, you know, the like I look a lot at the numbers not as they happen, but like over time, whereas I'll be in hiatus for a certain amount of months and then I'll come back. and see what the numbers are reflecting in in what is more, you know, palatable for my audience, like what my audience is is actually agreeing with more is like my better work and it's always not it's not necessarily again, it's not necessarily opposite. but it's not um, you know, it's not always what I expect to be. So this to me, I like um, but it doesn't necessarily like that you, whoever you are as an audience is gonna agree. Um This is actually the least completed track. um I feel like I'm showing you yeah, like I'm showing you my my uh it just it's naked cause it's very much not done. This is probably the most incomplete thing that I've ever, like, put out for anybody else to listen to. Um, but just being audit honest as like a person, not like as a entertainer, cause I don't necessarily see myself as that anymore after these couple years. Um, but being honest, like as a human being, as like a person, um, I've had some times that feel as though are, you know, an indication of not having a very prolonged experience in this sort of way. And I don't, like, I don't wanna put a trigger warning on anything. And I don't wanna, you know, like I I also don't want to insinuate things that are not there. Um, but a lot of the time, that is just to say that I don't feel safe, um, that I don't feel, um safe or secure, um, and that there's not necessarily a like sh it's just New York City. There's no level of like autho like a there is no necessary authority complex that has any sort of like, ability to protect you, you know, from uh certain experiences that are not necessarily um, you know, there's there's no level of protection from from, you know, there there are more heavily funded organizations that are like banks and investments or are more funded than the police. So when you're telling the police, like, hey, I'm being, you know, stalked or harassed and like, there's a pattern and like, here's the evidence and they won't even look at your evidence. Um, even though technically by the law, like it is, you know, documented uh, verifiable, like verifiable, like, no, there's none in my head. Like, I have like the videos, I have pictures, I have audio recordings of like this is happening to me, and they won't even look at it, um, not necessarily because they don't want to, but maybe because they've been trained to look in the other way. Um, and then, you know, just the cultural disadvantage of like, youre snitch. I'm like, I'm also within inches of my life sometimes. and nobody's helping me. Um, and it's not necessarily a mental condition. I think that more now than ever, I would be like readily willing to admit like, oh yeah, like, I should just take the meds, but I'm like, this is I'm not hallucinating this. I'm not gonna take some kind of fucking pill for some kind of medication for something that's like, I'm experiencing this, and not only am I experiencing this with like my eyes, my nose, my ears, like, I'm now videotaping 100% of my life everywhere I go. If I walk out the door, I'm recording, like, that's how many times I've been stalked or followed. Like, if I walk outside of my apartment, like I'm I'm videotaping it, because if I don't, if something happens, then it's literally their word against mine. and the police is, like, literal their whole thing is like, if we didn't see it, it didn't happen. Like, you can get you can get, like beaten within an inch of your life and the police can show up and you can tell them and they can see you like bleeding from the face or whatever, and be like, that guy did it, but the police will straight up tell you. the police will straight up tell you like if we didn't see it, it didn't happen, like we can write the report, but like we like they will not investigate. Period. They will not investigate. And so understanding that, like that opens the, you know, the possibility of like way, way more heinous crimes, you know, being able to be, um, played out without, you know, without any possibility of you having help for that, as, you know, is like dangerous to me, and a lot of the time I feel like I'm in danger, um, to me, and so, my priority is not sitting down in Ableton and and you know, getting these cues just right, like, especially with this this track. um, like it's so, so far from complete, but when I hear it, it still sounds it sounds decent enough that, like, I'll give it to you guys just in case, like like the least sometimes that I feel is gonna happen is that I just get hit by a bus. uh, which does happen almost any time I go outside. It's like, I will not get a bicycle. I won't because I'm like, that's like the easiest way to ensure that I will get hit by something. I'll get hit by something. um I will get hit by something, so I don't um I don't, you know. I'm just trying to, uh, get along and protect myself and away that, you know, maybe possibly enables me to, like, disappear. I don't necessarily need to be anybody. I stopped fighting for that main stage spot a long time ago, cause I I see that it's not about like it can't necessarily be about the love when it's about the money. and I have so, so much love. like for the music, um, and for what used to be the scene. I mean, the scene's always been kind of dirty. You pick up any book about DJ culture, about festival culture, you know, about music in the in the sense that it's been meant in the rave world has always had like a CD side to it. um because it was previously a counterculture, you know, that became mainstream and it still definitely has its like flavor, it definitely has its like, you know it's flavors to it, which, you know, is is a magnetism or like a draw, that's like, oh, there is this darkness that exists, but like, at the core of it is the frequency, you know? And I think that if there was ever going to be like a place for like a placeholder for success for me and the industry, it would be somewhere in the future when it can be a more decisive. No, what am I trying to say? Oh, I don't know. I think that money really fucks things up sometimes, and because of the amount of inequality in the world and the fact that the the world has become such a competitive space, um, that there're actually less places for opportunity for artists, even though it seems like there should be more. um I think until it's like about wellness, yeah, I think in until music can be until we can create like spaces where wellness is like at the center of these, you know, gatherings, then I don't think it's necessarily going to be like a safe place. Um for anybody, but let alone for me, because I'm very much like a fragile person when it comes down to, um, like per like the protection of my spirit and the protection of my aura, I don't necessarily want to be in a place of uh tragedy or a place of defense all the time. I I wanna go outside and and be in defense mode 100% of the time. I am right now, so um, like anything I I I kind of take it with a grain of salt in the way that like anything I say can and will be used against me. And so I don't say so much. I I don't say so much, and I want to be sure to take care of my art in a way that it doesn't is not, um, you know, so that it doesn't necessarily exist in a place of toxicity or that it's not coming from. Like, I won't sit down and Ableton if I feel a certain way. It's not just me being lazy. Like it's if I have like a certain vibration that's incurable, like it's not uh it doesn't make sense for me to, like, you know, sit down and work on a track. So this this track, uh, forget me nots and follow through. um, I think it is the first track and symposium. I don't know, because when I listen back to it, I also hear um when I listen back to it, I also hear as seen on TV, like a lot. um like a lot. And so it's kind of interesting to see those two kind of elements of my artistic personality combined, because I think the tracks that I've shared with you that are from symposium or different in the way that they're um made only one way, but this one is definitely implementing um techniques from two projects. Um, so the what are the two other ones? I think it's like talked to me about it. Is that oneosium? I think so. and bitter butter and southwest of your scars. Ah, those are all from this project, but then I I look at this one, which is technically the first of the bunch and it's so not done. that I'm like, don't put it out until it's done. and I'm like, well, and might not ever be done with the shit that's happening is kind of scary. Like, it's I might I may not ever be able to get back to a place where this is possible because of the things that are continually happening uh, to me. Um, I I don't know what the source of evil is. Like, I really don't, like I am very much a spiritual person and I do have like the tendency to believe that like no matter what God has my back so if I'm removed from one situation or existence into another, it is for the protection of that aura, for the protection of that frequency, for the protection of, you know, keeping my, you know, um my source intact, like there's, you know, certain elements or certain frequencies that can't exist in in other realms. I think that, uh, a toxic environment. Like my energ is not going to sustain an intoxic environment. It's just not. It's just not. It's not necessarily even a personal or emotional preference. It's more of like a oh, this doesn't go in there. Like this doesn't go there or I don't exist over there. Like, I don't, you know, it's not. I think I wish that I could be applied to like every space and time, but I think that there are certain drawbacks to being in energy that is applicable to anything and everything. I think that, you know, in the very rare circumstances that an energy like that exists, um it's very magnetizing, it's very, uh enigmatic and it's very charismatic in the way that, like, everybody wants it, everybody wants a piece, everybody wants to be around it, but also for that person, you know, where that energy exists, you know, for that vehicle, I think that it becomes like exhausting to the point that, you know, um, the human of of that, um, you know, the human of that energy is entirely vulnerable all the time. And so those people that are, um designated to do those kinds of jobs, having that high level of power and energy are also, uh, you know, in every sense of the word, um, like exhausted to some effect, um, and I'm exhausted, um, but I think that this last two years has been a case study for all of the like I mean, like she's just horrible things people are doing to each other to try to get ahead, you know, like to try to get a little bit of the pie just to get the tiniest crumbs or to get you know, people are stepping on heads out here. Like people are doing what it takes and they're justifying things that are technically morally, you know. so very morally, uh, corrupt and so so so bad to other people with the justification of like, that's just the way it is. Or you you gotta do what you gotta do and I'm like, yo, dude, but like again, my energy just does not exist in that space for that mindset you know where it's like you know, um because I also believe that like a certain level of justifying, you know, morally uh, you know, morally corrupt behavior eventually just makes it so that you can't get ahead. I I honestly chronically believe that, like if you're constantly fucking other people over just to get to the top, like your top is not going to be consistent with what is actually success and what is actually um freedom, you know, like, you are gonna owe back energy to a certain extent, you know, um, because you stole it in the first place, like, you can't you can't sustain on stolen energy. Like you cannot do it. Like you cannot exist in a place that that was taken from somebody else without something else in turn being taken from you. I honestly truly believed that with every like with every last breath, with every last word, I honestly believe that like that that good overpowers evil. Like, you can't sustain on something that you robbed from somebody, you can't sustain on something that you you know, that that you took, eventually, you know, karmically, um, it comes back too, and so, I don't think energy is any different. I think if you suck the life out of somebody, eventually something' gonna get sucked out of you and, uh, it's one of those things where it's like one step forward, two steps back for people who uh subsist on energy that way. I just I don't know. um, I try more and more to be conscious of my self to point where I realized that um the effect that I have on people could be, you know, long lasting. It's it's something that could be like a ripple effect, and so I'm very careful with my energy in the way that, you know, I if I dole it out, I expect I expect 39%. I don't know why that's the number. 39% to get it back. um, you know, on a certain way. And uh understanding my limits and my like just understanding my ability and my placement. understanding the, you know, the the love you make. yeah, all that. and the love that you make is equal to the love that you take. And so um also, I think that love in itself is probably the most valuable heat source and that it overpowers what is um technically needed in the society of, you know, for survival. I think that love overpowers, you know, whatever material, you know, the material sense of existence is. I think that love overpowers, whatever is morally corrupt, whatever is systematically corrupt. I think that love at the end of the day, like, really does put in its place. um what is supposed to be and what is not supposed to be. And so in because I think like living in this spirit with the understanding that like it took me a really long time. I think I having a a a victim's mentality of like, I must deserve this in some sort of way, but then understanding also like I didn't do anything wrong. Um Sometimes these things just happen and the understanding of why that is is not always attainable. Um, and so to wallow in it and to be like, why, why? You know, like, why? I mean, I think in a from a philosophical standpoint, I do a lot of this because it's like this doesn't necessarily make sense, but it has to it has to be an art artistic way for me to be like, well, it doesn't make sense, but like, you know, now I have ten pages about trying to figure, like, instead of actually just wallowing it and being like, what? Well, now I have ten pages of like this, you know, something that can be considered beautiful. you know, something that can be considered, uh, useful to somebody, maybe not now, but at some point in time, you know, because all of my work is is stored in like this digital time space, kind of like encrypted into history in itself being like a digital marker for, you know, something that very much did exist or did happen. I still believe I still live in the belief that like this, well, it's just like the overall knowing that this part, this faction of history is a very, you know, uh verifiable part of ancient history, you know, to a culture that exists like beyond our time. And so with that understanding that, like it's so crazy, because I do have this overriding kind of factor of, you know, God that's just kind of like, oh, these are ancient times. this is an ancient world and it's hard to like wrap your mind around it because youth, you know, you think of yourself in the present time of like being a, you know, a being of existence in the future. Oh, I watched the jet the Jetsons. Oh, that was so good. I watched uh the Jetsons. which I didn't know is also the Simpsons. and like every animated show that came out on it like a lot, actually. It's a good show. I got I think I gotta watch it again because I was like, oh, this is like ten different shows. It was like ten different shows. um but I watched like the pilot, I think episode of the Jetsons and I was tripping. I I was tripping. um it was just really good. Anyway, um I think what what was I saying? Oh, like this time being like a marker for actual actually being a primitive civilization. Whereas like not necessarily compared to what we know as the primitive civilizations, you know, of human time, like, you think of primitive civilizations of being like the ancient Egyptians or, you know, the Mayans or, uh, you know, the Greeks, uh loved them. I really I I almost even favored them over the Romans. almost, almost, almost, I don't know, I could talk about history and culture forever. cause I'm like, but the other Romans really, like their architecture, but the Greeks more culturally, like artistically, I think where what is the word for them? Uh, the Greeks? What is the word for them? I think there were definitely more, uh yeah, yeah, definitely more artistic philosophical than the Romans, but the Romans had like a lot, like a lot to do with modern society to the point where that's also uh admirable. I do like the Romans. They're just like shitty and violent. They're just shitty and violent anyway. um what was I saying? I don't know. I'm wrapping this up. cause I'm hungry. I don't know about a taco, though. This is technically the start of my day. at midnight o'clock. Um, at midnight o'clock. oh, that's what I was talking about. Markers for ancient civilizations. Oh, yeah, this this time is so so far beyond. But I think the the incredible thing about this time that we're living in now presently, um, is that it is so, like there's so much record of it that it does exist beyond our time for, you know, potentially millions of years and into hire and further civilizations. So I kind of live with that, like, understanding of like this this also and itself being like, a part of the ancient world as far as time is concerned, you know? like, in as much a stipulation of like any apocalyptic or societal, you know, destruction is made, like nothing really sees past, like nothing really sees past the fact that, like, they're so much historical information about our present time in the future that it is consistently creating to an adding to like the what am I trying to say? Oh, something about the multiviverse. Something about the cosmos or something. constantly expanding, because it is, but whatever, I actually just kind of made this as a real time episode to so that I could share this song and then um not really like I don't necessarily have anything for you, anything else for you in this season. um it's there. like, there are six or seven other episodes. There might even be some music. oh, all the freaky Fridays or whatever, mix tapes. Did I even post what up Wednesday? I did I did a freaky Friday on a Wednesday and it was arguably the best. of all the freaky Fridays. I don't know if I posted that already. um I don't know if I posted that already. but it's not. Also, like my podcasting distributor is kind of archaic. So it takes a lot of work just to go check on what's been posted or whatever. um So I'm I'm not going to make any promises and be like, oh, go check if that was posted. And if it is posted, I'll just maybe post it again, cause it's worth it. Um, what up Wednesdays? I did it twice, actually. um because it got difficult to do freaky Fridays. It's still kind of fucking difficult to do it. And, uh, I it pains me to realize, like, how physically affected. I've I have been. um cause it sucks, cause it's not just something that's in my head, it's like ow, like, my body hurts. like, I cannot, you know. I can't withstand a certain frequency or electronic exposure that is negative over this much time. Like, I'm just like broken down right now. Um at least I'm still capable, cause I didn't ever think. I was like, I don't think I'll ever run more than a mile again. Um, I probably should um take the proper steps to make sure that, though, uh, now that I'm running again, I take the proper steps, like, I forgot to stretch, and I forgot to drink water. Stupid. Well, I I just felt so good to run. I love those woodway treadmills so much, so much, it just felt so good that I didn't that I couldn't stop and then when I did, like my body is like, okay, like you're stupid. Like it felt really good, so I'm like, all right, like active recovery. I'm gonna do like two hours on the pelotone and then a walk. um, before I run again. and that's what I'm about to do right now. I love getting to the reunion parts of the bad girls club because as the most fighting and I burn the most calories during the reunions, I just finished to season. I just watched the season for the second time. and uh I have a reunion episode coming up, so I'm a I'm— I don't know. I'm pretty boring person to be quite honest, but here's the song. okay, I'm at an hour yet. Here's the song forgetmenot// and follow through. It's not finished. Like if I could give you a percentage on the— what are you doing? Yo, this dudes are weird all day. I'm sorry. Um. He's so funny. He's so funny. Earlier he like earlier he like sneezed. Earlier he sneezed. But like also farted and this scared himself so bad that I could not contain myself. Because he was like embarrassed. but like, also he sneezed and farted and probably could not. He was like, oh, my God. Like, oh my God. And then, uh, I laughed for like a good five minutes after that. He seemed genuinely embarrassed. I was like, yeah. yeah, that that is shocking that you can manage to do something like that. like being a cat, but, you know, oh, he did. It was good. That's why we have emotional support animals, because I needed that laugh. I don't think I' laughed so hard at anything in a very, very long time, so I'm glad I have my little kitty. my satterat, my Mr. Cat, mush matters anyway. uh, was I wrapping something up? I was.ive meods to follow through. this song that's about to come up, and then I'm maybe I'll maybe I'll if it's not out already. Well, if it is, here it is again, what up Wednesday? I'll go dig it out of the fucking archives. you guys couldn't have that. decent. Um, keep in mind that the CDJs at the radio station, where do Freaky Fridays are also very archaic? Um, I'm not complaining, though. I don't know. I don't know if I got to the episode where I was talking about that. Uh, or maybe I got I got fi I gotta figure it out. um I gotta figure out where these episodes are. There's like six or seven. Should I uh honorable mentions or dishonorable mensions? I feel like it borders on both. because I just figured out what apparently the six seven phenomenon is. And I'm actually worried about suburban children, like, having act like, why are they saying this? Because I looked up I looked up where it came from, it came from this rapper called scrilla dude. not gonna lie. One of my personal favorites, cause I love rap, that is terrible to a certain extent. um and it is, like it's not only it's not only like it's not lyrically terrible. He's actually really good um He's actually really good whatever he's saying. I know what he's saying, which is what's terrifying that, like, apparently suburban upper middle class and upper class children are saying this. six seven thing, because it came from this video by this rapper called Skrilla do doot. Yup. and well, it's culture music, like it's it's trap culture music, it's not necessarily drill, but it's done in the style of drill. um, talking about like the culture the culture the culture um that is not necessarily like great. cause he was talking I was like yo. what the fuck are children saying this for? Um, what the fuck are children exposed to this for? Because there was no, like parental block on it or anything like that. And the dude was talking about like, straight up murderer. He was like, yeah, m, like this though. And I was like, oh no, like I I actually kind of dig his music because it's it's like it's the music that was born of like the Young Thug and the low Wayne and themehesine and it's bad. It's really bad. Like it's really bad. like if your kids are saying six seven, like, the origin of that is not, I'm like,o, shout out sc a d do, because that is facts, but also like, like like kids should not necessarily like, everything he was saying and all of his songs, I was like, that's bad. That's bad that you said that. not that you shouldn't, actually. I feel like there, like art exists as a medium to be able to have this level of freedom of speech, and that's why it exists. But also like, if you understand which I think kids obviously don't if they're just like, oh, six, seven, I'm like, okay, like, but obviously, like, this is where that came from. Like, and this is where that came from, and the dude is talking about some stuff that I'm like what? Like, I'm not confused. I know what he's talking about. But like, children should not necessarily like, even if they don't know what he's talking about, this is not like, this is different from like, when I was like, 10 and it's getting hot in here. So take off all your clothes, like that came out or like to the window to the wall, like this is mild, those things are mild, compared to like, the shit that scrill a do dude. talks about. I'm like, oh, what? What? And apparently we little kids are seeing this and exposed to it, like, they don't necessarily know what it means, but he's like, yo, these are the lyrics to my songs. Listen. I'm like, oh, like. That's troubling. That that exists. That's troubling. truly troubling. I'm I'm not talking shit. I actually really like it, but like parental controls, like, my kids should not be exposed to this, like via the Internet. Like, you should not like, this should be something especially if you live in the subrooms like if you live in a house that has rooms, like if you live in a house that has rooms in an all. like the culture that this is referencing and you know what? The only thing that actually made me look it up was like so many people were saying it in the circuit of television that I watched that I was like, it was bothering me. It was bothering me like Labubu was, but Labubu was far less disturbing, far less. I was like, oh, no. this is not cool. This is not cool, David Letterman. This is not cool, because he was like,Yo, what's up six seven? I'm like, you're 106. I don't know why you're saying this. So I looked it up. So I looked it up, and I was like, oh no, like, okay, like we know it's a cultural fucking phenomenon, but like, do you know why? Do you know why? Like, do you know why? And do you know what this man is talking about? Do you know what this man is saying? Anyway. I'm not I'm actually not gonna say it. Like I'm not gonna say it because I think it it exempt exemplifies that's what I'm trying to say right yeah. I think it exemplifies and represents a part of the culture that is deeply, deeply, deeply, deeply wrong. um in the history of the United States of America. I think it's just bad news. It's just bad news. And it's bad news, like it exists, but the reason why it exists is terrible, like it shouldn't exist is it's terrible. It's bad. It's bad and it's bad that kids are saying this. It's bad anyway. it's really bad. Anyway, I got Peloton time, bad girls' club reunion, some coffee to reheat. Here's this song, um there's no anything else for a while. I gotta make sure that like my uh I got to make sure if I get taken out, it's by like a city bus. And, you know, not just because my insides are uh imploding. um and yeah, my insides are imploding. Uh, gotta take care of number one, which is me. So, that self serving thing I get, but, you know, I'm just not the kind to to step on heads or like, I'm not gonna make it, like, purposely harder for you to do something. Like, I do believe in free will to the point where if you're not hurting anybody else, it's not affecting anybody else's, like vibe, like, do what you want, like, as long as you're not objectively or subjectively hurting anybody. Like, just don't hurt anybody, but besides this, you know, take care of yourself, but it's not, you know. I mean, you're not causing any quantifiable harm. Go ahead and, you know? I, um, but that's it. That's that's it for me. Thank you for listening. Is that it? Yeah, forget me nots. It's not finished. I've got a lot to do. Like, I actually had this is a song that actually has like a list, like a handwritten list on a piece of paper of like do this and do that and do this and do that. But like here's what I have so far just in case, you know, the city buses be getting awful close to the curb sometimes. where I stand, I am yep, they do. anyway. um I said more stories to tell and stuff, but now it's not the time or the place. did I say my thing? Yeah, I say my. Dave you were listening. something, you're listening, see you next time. That's it, yeah. Yeah, I don't have anything else. Thank you for listening. See you next time, bye.

Now, and??? Okay! Just another dime, And just enough to find Before I count them up to dollars— But you're turning into wine. What did you ever want? This is my other world. Go shatter you tantric catwalk elsewhere! Don't you know there is a show to put on? A wool to pull over the eyes of the unknown? Why do you have to groan at the quantifiable harm known but justice undone. No harm, no foul No food, no valid excuse for betraying my sacred dopamine, but hopefully you know only no good But words can come from it, And words that fall on blind eyes have no context at all. {Enter The Multiverse} Uncorrected transcript. [excuse my neighbors in the background they're determined to make my life miserable more than likely in exchange for dollar signs.] Okay, my Wi-Fi is off, my Bluetooth is off. Oh, my laptop is open, my Wi-Fi is on. I can give me a second to remedy that. Hello. Hello. I'm Atticus's tail says hello. What's going on? Oh, I wasn't planning on oh, my WiFi on my computers off. That is good. Uh, I keep all my devices uh, at minimum on off the grid as often as possible. Um, there there actually it's crazy how much of a difference this makes. I gotta pour myself some coffee. it is almost midnight, o'clock. Hello, um, what's up, we're missing talking episodes. Um, we're missing talking episodes from season 12. I can't find anything like past October, and I know it's on one of my hard drives, but all of my hard drives are full, um, I have like something like 10 terabytes altogether of stuff that needs to be like moved around and not all of it. Some of it's like really personal, like not personal, but like sensitive information that I can't necessarily utilize a cloud for. So I am it's taking me some time to organize some stuff. I I try to do between like eight and 12 hours of just organizing on any typical night after my uh exercise or whatever, or between I would say that exercise is definitely like the primary function of like my life. And that's like the priority right now, especially with the things that I've been going through. I think it's really important to keep my physical and mental health as um in in it's not gonna be at its peak, um, because of the noise pollution that I've been dealing with, and it's actually made me really sick over this extended period of two times. um, and I'm trying to um seek treatment for that, but it's a uh it's a long road, I have a long road ahead of me. We could just say that. Um, which is why I am giving you guys, um, some stuff that I've been working on that's not necessarily finished, and I'm actually really like, I'm embarrassed because I don't necessarily um I I actually have a hard rule of not releasing any music until it's absolutely finished. like even if it is a first draft, like it still has to be finished. um, but I actually and I gave you, I think, I think two tracks, which is actually four. um because this upcoming project, it's a concept album called a symposia. um and the concept for it is um a lot. I don't necessarily have to explain right now. Um, but all of the tracks so far on it are double tracks, and so it is typically I've always really loved albums that have that are like gapless. I don't think through my distributor, like I can never technically um, like put out an album that has no um technical stop or start between songs, like they would have to be cut a certain type of way that, like my distributor does it. There's always gonna be a gap between my music, but um all of the tracks are um double tracks, so they're all two tracks in one, um that are kind of along the same theme or idea and um like lead into the next track. I've always loved albums like that. uh, one of my favorite compilation albums, um like just to give you an example, just to throw it out there, is like, the Beatles love album, which is not actually a Beatles album. It's just a, um, it's a compilation of their um songs made for the Cirus Sole show that I think is still playing in Vegas. I don't know if it is it's been playing for like 10 years, and I still haven't seen it. um I really I really want to take mushrooms and go uh see that show. I've wanted to do that since it came out, but my favorite one of my favorite albums in the world is the love album, which is is basically a mash up of like their greatest hits, crafted by, um engineers and people who used to work with the Beatles and stuff for this uh Cir dis soet show um in Vegas that I hope I get to see I hope it's just one of those like long standing like like Siegfried and Roy. I just realized that they were in Vegas for like 40 years, like they were just there, they were just a stable, so hopefully that show is um kind of like that and one day I'll get the, uh one day I'll get the opportunity to see it. Like my my bucket list, like destination, like vacation at one point was to go see the Beatles love on like an EDC week. um that's still something that I want to do. I promise myself I wouldn't go to EDC unless I like ever got booked there. Um, and I think this year is like 30 years or something of EDC, and so they um they sold out in like five minutes. um so it's it's not it's not something I'd consider doing by myself anyway, unless I was gonna go with my best friend, and um and I was like I was talking to my best friend and I was like, oh, maybe I should check on, like the early bird tickets for ADC, and they were like, they was sold out, and was this celebrating 30 years, and I'm like, okay, well, I guess I should uh work on getting a booking agent, but my music is not my music is kind of turned into like a passion project. um, since everything that I've been going through over the last couple of years kind of just like took me off my path in that sort of way and DJing, I kind of wanna preserve it as like, I really love being a DJ. I really love producing music and because it's so consumer, there's a bunch of people in the industry that are not necessarily like music oriented or love oriented, and it's just like a whole different vibration from like the peace and the love and the unity respect of that. Like I like the scene for. I really want to check out, like as far as a festival goer is concerned, I really wanna check out some of these new festivals that are popping up that are doing like no cell phones. I kind of wanna check those out, cause I feel like the quality of of the experience has been preserved or will have been preserved in in certain spaces like that, um, but anyway, I'm uh I have been physically ill for like a few months now. um, and so the best that I can do for you guys my audience just because I'm not sure if I will get symposium out this year in which case it will come out next year. um, and then I think this track, I'm not sure, this track is definitely like a track that was in my mind. um implementing all of the like sound design stuff that I'm doing for symposium and is also a double track. um it's called Forget me nots. uh and then the second track is followed through. uh,get me nots/follow through. I think it's like an eight or nine. um minute track or whatever. It's not finished. Um, actually, the only finished track that you guys have heard, and even this even bitter butter and southwest of your scars is like a double track that is finished, that is on symposium, but it's still the version one, like it's not um I haven't done like any of the final mastering or any of the things that I do in the process of getting ready for a a release. I do have like a a like an implemented ritual structure of doing things like that, even for projects that seem like mindless, or, you know, things that are seem seemingly just like thrown together, like chasing dragons, was kind of like not necessarily even a concept until the three tracks were like sandwiched together, and I was like, oh, okay, like, this does tell a story and and they were all created in a certain way so that they'd go together. I think I fixed that. um, because, um, chasing dragons, the EP was for some reason, when chasing dragons got released to, like all the major platforms, it had chasing dragons was the first and the last track, and then dishes and the sink was just in the middle, which was weird. um so the third track on chasing dragons is actually immortalist and I got that all fixed. and I also got the regular like the normal version of the songightfall is out on the platforms now. Those were two er errors um that I needed to fix that I finally did. um but I'm slower to do music things now because like I said, my health is the priority. So it's like, yo, if it comes down to like getting a good meal in or like some good exercise or like right now I'm doing active recovery because I'm dumb. I went from like not really running anymore and only walking for an hour every day on the treadmill and doing like an hour between one and two hours on the pelotone, a day which is technically still three hours of work, um, but then I went back into heavy training the way that I preferred to do like I prefer to be at the gym between two and three hours every day. That is my ideal. That is where my body feels comfortable, um and flexible and like happy. Um, and if I can do that in the very beginning, like to start my day, cause I don't necessarily have 24 hour, like days anymore. um like what's technically the end of my day is oftentimes the very beginning of other people's days, and so I'm kind of just on on night, like, routine because it is like, I'm I'm basically just like protecting myself from the uh, you know, like my my nervous system can't take any further damage. Like, I do have really pronounced synesthesia and, um, I wasn't necessarily like planning to be exposed to extreme like noise pollution for an extended period of time without having the financial security or stability to escape from it, cause honestly, if I could have moved, I would have moved or if I could have just left, I would have just left, um, but I obviously wasn't in a situation that I could, and so I became very vulnerable um, to this type of attack, which I learned was actually very common. It's not something that is just like, oh, you know, um, this is just something that I'm going through. It's actually a very common for people of color to be, um vulnerable to this kind of disease that comes from um an implementation of using sound as a weapon. And I mean, like the irony is is that I was already kind of studying synesthetics and the way that, you know, as a culture or the way that in as as far as like mass consumerism is concerned, that's why people pay so much for a, you know, festiv for the festival experiences because sound can be a very much uh manipulated to be a physical thing. It's not, you know, it's not invisible. And so the fact that those same kind of um those that same kind of engineering can be implemented also in a negative way to have a negative effect. Like, you don't have to punch somebody in the face, like, you can just back up your exhaust, your engine exhaust, and, you know, fire at point blank to somebody that is, you know, caught off guard. and in that way, um sound can be used as a weapon, it uses the same dynamics, the same kind of dynamics as, you know, the reason why we go in the th you know, in flocks by the thousands and the millions to these festivals to feel the vibrations that that are on the opposite end of the same spectrum, the healing vibrations of, you know, certain things. and so I've been doing my best to try and, you know, maintain a certain level of health through, you know, using, um, you know, certain frequencies to block out. But when it's your physical person is in a space that's being manipulated to be on a certain frequency, um, uh, the exposure to this negative frequency that is unnatural to your body over a period of time. um, you begin to get very, very sick and that's what's happened to me. And so I'm trying my best to like keep my head above water and, you know, stay afloat. Um, but I didn't expect it especially after, you know, a period of like two or three years before that, where I was just like on the go all the time. Um, and, you know, not necessarily having like a a suitable foundational stability or a place to call home and then going straight into something else that was like more traumatic and more violent than, um then I expected, and so I've been trying to remedy that. um, the best that I can and because I'm putting my mental health and my physical health first, I'm not necessarily like, I it was weird. I was kind of in like a meditative space and I had, you know, like this this kind of spirit come over me that was like music, you know, music is gonna be there forever. like, as long as you're as long as you exist, you know, whether it's in like a physical realm or like an infinite realm or whatever, like as long as you exist, there's always gonna be music. and that was kind of like the sign that like, K, as much as I do like having a streak of, you know, like being an Ableton every day for several hours a day. um, the way that I am using these techniques that I'm applying in symposium and as seen on TV, which reminded up being a double album, because I actually have, um, like several, um, tracks that are like honestly on TV, I've been working on since, like, 2023., like, early 2023. Um, and so, the things that I've like collected, it's kind of interesting because my evolution as an artist or like my technique as a producer will be, um represented here in this project, which I hope comes out next year, but I can't say for sure, cause it's probably the it's definitely the biggest, most um important album I've ever worked on and I I put a lot of care and thought into those as seen on TV tracks because it does um like creatively, I guess, run alongside this series into the multiverse and all the series within the festival project, uh Ascension Death Wish, legends, um the legend of uh, the secret life and the sweet life of sunny Blue, just to name a few, there are I keep trying to make like a list of all of the shows within the festival project, but then I'm like, oh, like there are so many that it would it just falls apart. And so I mean like I'm getting a little bit more organized with the with the actual structure of, like, the television and movie, like, script part of the project. um, while I'm cleaning out my hard drives, but having to organize everything so that it's, you know, so that I can go to a certain hard drive and be like, okay, well, this is um, you know, this is this season to this season. I'm still archiving episodes from, you know, 2021 and and because a lot of those statistics can't be like once I delete an episode from the podcast, it goes away and all the all the statistical information about the number of downloads,, like all of its information, all of its metadata goes away. and that's very important for what I'm going through in my personal life right now in order to protect myself for those things to be taken down, but also for it to be archived in a way that I can reference as a creator like, okay, this is this day that this was published with this, that like, because it's it's a time travel concept that is multifaceted, and it is like based in this multiperceptory m multiperceptory multiimensional concept of technically technically infinite time and space, like it has to be organized in such a way that, like, all of the series and all of their all of the ways that they're connected to any particular parallels have to be, you know, they have to be organized and documented so that because I'm the more that I'm looking at it, the more it makes sense. I'll be like, oh, like, I thought this was just like nonsense or whatever, but when I'm putting it into like an organized space, um, and to me, that's like the god part about it is that like, oh, like, um like, I' I'll be looking at the writing and noticing how it takes like particular shapes or how the shapes will cut is sometimes like make pictures, like sometimes when you're looking at the clouds and you see, you know, shapes and the clouds. sometimes the riding for this project is like that, which is kind of incredible to me.c it's not something that I'm doing um, intentionally, it's kind of just something that's happening. I'm writing in a stream of consciousness that's also, you know, like artistic, creative in a way, that kind of has this, like, sense of divinity to it that I'm not necessarily, like, consciously doing. Um, so everything has to be organized in such a way that like it is gonna take time, um, and because it takes time and a lot of the other things that I did not foresee happening or also taking a lot of my time, like a lot of my my time and energy to document like how sick I've been getting a lot of time and energy has been focused on just like, doing the research on, you know, like crazy crazy shit that I never really took interest in, um, but could be applied here. um, could be applied to this situation and and kind of just finally being able to have a piece of mind to give myself the benefit of the doubt that, like, it wasn't in my head. like, I just had to be uh, I just had to be pushed to the point that I could understand, you know, that this um, sometimes very silent type of, um, you know, warfare is is like a documented not even necessarily historically, but like presently and present day. um, they're just I don't think haven't been enough survivors of this kind of thing, um, that it could be, um that it could be notably researched, like the amount of reports, but, you know, it's it's not it's not by choice, like it is taking up a lot of my time and I wish I was the kind of person that could just ignore it. Um, but I'm getting very physically ill. Um, so I can't, like, I can't ignore the fact that, like, you know, I'm running on zero pretty much all the time, and that my my patterns of speech have changed in my, you know, my thoughts have been intercepted and my, you know, like, because physical and mental health is such a priority to me, the fact that those things have been the primary uh, source of degradation has has affected me in such a way that it's not, I mean, like, it's less emotional than it is the logical answer to, you know, like if you have a cold, you take cold medicine or if you have the flu, you take, you know, it's it's like, well, remedying something that is a fi physical illness, you know. um, removing the cancer from the body, uh, you know, in such a way that it doesn't come back is kind of my main primary concern in this way. Um, so I am am especially because I can't but the talking episodes are actually more popular this season than any other season. and I can't find like six or seven of them, because I I don't know, I was just switching out all my, you know, uh my stuff so quickly and pulling things out of the cloud that it, you know, got saved under drive zip eight, seven six nine, you know, like. It's it's just a mess of of terabytes and tabyrites of creative work, um, and, you know, other things that I've had to dedicate my time to, which is not necessarily fair, but, you know what they say is life is not fair. Um, so, you know, life hasn't been fair, but I have, you know, been blessed in such a way that, like I I I've at least been able to um creatively channel some of the some of the energy and some of the time that I have left over that is technically mine. while in the sense that I've had a lot of my time and energy just stolen in siphoned, um, you know, I have been able to kind of forge a medium through fighting this that allowed me to, you know, start doing art along the lines of, um more more the way that I want my music to to think and feel. And so I'm I'm still just working from a little tiny MacBook air. um, so my, you know, um, my projects get like overwhelmed really quickly. I can't necessarily implement all of my um my plugins or all of the tools that I like to use at once, and so everything is kind of segment segmented in the way that I'm working. um and like, yeah, my projects get overloaded very quickly. um so the tracks that I'm giving you are not finished, but they're more um I would say like they're more, like colored, they're more like filled out. It's not necessarily abstract in the way that some of my stuff is like very like, you know, like drag and drop and cut and go, well, I do a lot of like, even in my even in my like my cut and dry stuff, I do a lot of sample manipulation. I very rarely will keep a sample in the way that it is without doing something to it, you know, like, I don't do dragon drop, um, unless I'm planning on just, like, you know, giving a beat to a rapper a artist for free. like, sometimes I'll just be like, okay, for the next 15 minutes, just do, like, something, you know, like a two or three minute, like dragon drop or whatever. But those those are not necessarily tracks that I A share here or B like plan on doing anything with because the world of sampling has gotten to the point where it's like, yo, you gotta have some creativity, like you can't just open up a sample pack and drag it and drop it into place, because then you have eight or nine songs that sound exactly the same. Eight or nine songs that are the same because basically you're just putting together a, you know, you're putting together stems from a track that was already created, you know, by somebody that's trying to sell you something, so um, you know, I I take a little bit more creative uh integrity in the stuff that I do mean seriously. Um, a lot of it lately hasn't been serious, but I I actually did want to take an hour to talk about this not this track in particular, just talk about why I'm doing this because it was something that it was like, oh, I feel like this project is a little bit more special or is a little bit more like technical than some of the other work that I've shared here on this podcast or work that I've put out before and so I kind of wanted to keep it to myself um, but then I've kind of had a couple, like, you know, like heart shattering experiences that make me realize, like, you don't know. like, you don't really know what's gonna happen and life is, um, sometimes very cruel and sometimes life is, you know, it just takes turns that are not necessarily. um you know, like you don't you don't ever know. And my mindset has not necessarily been that negative. It's like, oh, everything, you know, there's a there's a reason for everything, and blah, blah, blah, and I still do believe that, but like, you know, two years of constant, like, torture and stress to the point where I don't necessarily have a medium for support or, you know, um, like, I don't necessarily have the foundation of community. um, being in a place that is not my home and coming from a family that's very, very small and doesn't necessarily have, you know, well, like, I don't have what some people have, I don't have a large network of family and friends and the kind of family and friends that you create for yourself in the business are not necessarily, um, you know, like people can't necessarily be trusted to have your best interests. Um, especially especially if you are coming from like a a margin for success that, you know, is documented, like you've done well, you can't necessarily still believe that, like, everyone in your immediate circle has the best interest for you, because it is in human nature that everybody has, you know, themselves as the primary interest, and so um, me being like a a solidly um you know, like self sufficient. I won't say independent person. um, driving towards independence or whatever. um, but being a person that spends a lot of time in solitude and with enough respect, like enough self-respect to understand what my when my spiritual and my personal boundaries are being pushed even even in a person you know, professional setting. um like I took today for active recovery because I'm dumb and I went straight back into training as if I'd never really stopped. like it okay, like I'm on the Peloton seven days a week and I have a treadmill that I walk on in for an hour a day, you know, five to six days a week, but it's not the same as like being in the gym and lifting in stri strength training and and um active recovery um but I was like, okay, if I was running like a Madonna or whatever, you know, for this amount of time, then I should be able to do that. I should be able to do that. No, I didn't run a Madonna, but I ran like a 3K and then a little bit. and I like, my body was like, yeah, this is good, but then I had, like the rest of the day and I did not properly hydrate, and I got, like even more sick. and so I'm like, oh, fuck. Like, I really got like I really got a prioritize, like, my physical health, because if I keep letting myself get pushed, you know, like over the summer, before requisite when I was just like, oh, you know, like, I'm just gonna record. I'm gonna go to Manhattan 20 fucking days in a row and not take a day off and I'm also gonna train, you know, and I'm also gonna do this, like the like, I'm maximized my potential for burnout, which also left me per like, personally vulnerable. to the, like, professional sabotage and, like, weird, underhanded, like, underbelly shit that, like people in the DJ circuit are doing because it's so hard to actually break through., from the level of like consumer professionalism right now. So people are doing like a lot of nasty things to try to get that main stage spot and I wasn't like in my head, I'm still very much like a Disney kid, like, I'm still like, I don't necessarily well, I mean, like Disney to teach us like, there's always gonna be a villain, but like, a society kind of undoes that teaching and is like, but that's just in movies and that's just in your head, but there's no like to me, I there is just this weird misst up between real life and what is told that like, okay, like anything that exists that is like in a certain field of negativity is just in your head. but, like, evil is it like a documented source of the opposite of good. since the beginning of time, and I just don't understand in how in a society we can philosophically and psychologically embrace therapy, however, when it when it comes to, like, real lived experiences, when you're dealing with something that is not necessarily, uh, like a normal part of societal living, like that stuff only happens in movies. I'm like, but it does happen. Sometimes you just have to, you know, like being having I've I've never really been such a socially dependent creature. like, a lot of people have to have some kind of validation. That's why social media is like ruling our society right now. is because people have to have the validation or the likes of whatever they're doing is like cool with the rest of the group. and to me, that this is dangerous group think. like, if you're all thinking the same way, then there's something being missed. There's always something being missed, you know, if you're all on the same frequency or the same form of thought, you know. And so, I've always been like a big, you know, maybe it's just because I don't have any siblings. I've been like a big believer in embracing, um, independent thought, like, okay, if everybody else is thinking one way, then what is the opposite of what everybody else is thinking and not necessarily alluding to the fact that the opposite might be the right thing, but anything between whatever the group think and the opposite is, is also like valid, could be valid, you know, it's not necessarily the opposite of what everybody's thinking, but it's somewhere along the spectrum of maybe that or maybe the opposite, like it could be anything else in between. And so I think I'm the kind of person or the kind of thinker that's motivated by the the spectrum, you know, the spectrum, uh process, anything in between, like not necessarily that, not necessarily the opposite of that, but like what other possibilities, you know? um, could be validated or verified through thinking outside of the box or outside of a you know, being forced to the point of conformity that, like, everything sounds the same and everything looks the same and everything has like a way. That's not necessarily wrong. um, but also not necessarily the only way or right. um, so that I' of been uh what what did I get on that round about? I don't know. I've just been playing with like a lot of different concepts, like not necessarily trying to sound like anything. or anyone, and also not necessarily having the opportunity or environmental expression, like the space to be able to sound like myself. Like I still don't artistically or musically think that I sound like myself. um, and that they are elements of myself there, but it's something that's kind of, um, in its, you know, convex form of being this thing that is potential, but not necessarily fully realized or realizable yet. Like, I haven't had I haven't had peace and I haven't had like full p I haven't had peak health in a long time, or a safe environment in a very long time. and I think that the disallowance of comfort, not necessarily the safity of um of complatancy, you know, or or being comfortable to a point that it's it becomes dangerous, um, but just being able to kind of be in a life that is not necessarily like violent or terrible all the time. I think removing these barriers has not necessarily been a foreseeable reality for nearly a decade and while some artists technically thrive in what is, you know, what is this, you know, tragedy and darkness? It's there's only so much of a certain space that my creative ingenuity can take up and not void. And so, understanding that this time is kind of transitional in the sense that eventually it has to in no matter what direction break free from its current state of, you know, entrapment and its current state of imprisonment. um and so in my artistry and not will change, but I don't think I don't think it's necessarily going to be like fully realized until I have a a a point that I'm in an environment that I can breathe and be and think clearly without the force of control or being subjugated to, you know, a certain level of violence that's not necessarily always physical, but is certainly not, um, you know, without it's notable, um, impact on my physical health, my physical and mental health. So that being said, um, this track, um, this track is somewhere between symposium and, um, as seen on TV, I think I began writing it before the concept for symposium was fully formed. and, um, I think it was like the first of its little group of double tracks and I didn't necessarily mean, like, for the story, cause it, you know, ideally, like a song is like five minutes or less or whatever. um five minutes or less or whatever, but I've again, not been, uh, trying to conform to what is supposed to be this, or what is supposed to be that, and, um I don't know. I I began writing it in with the mindset and the technicality of symposium, but also as I listen back to it, um, I'm also using elements that have been implementing for the last few years into as seen on TV. And so there's some like to me, it's very beautiful. Again, what what is more important or more, you know, like wh what is more palatable for my audience is always differed like my favorite tr tracks are not your guys's favorite tracks from what I'm looking at for for the numbers, you know, my favorite episodes of me talking are not your favorite episodes for me talking. So, I mean, like they're exists here, this obvious, like, it's weird because a lot of artists can be applied to their fans and to their listeners. It's like the the listeners are being projective of like they see themselves in their favorite artists, or they see themselves reflected back through an artist that they, you know, like Taylor Swift, like, all her fans are Taylor Swift and like, most artists are that way that, you know, they're reflective of the people that they look like and have the same experience of and that's how, you know, um, that's how mass that's how mass media works. It's reflected, you know, through the medium of sorts, you know, um it as a as a concept that is shared amongst all all of those, you know, people. um, but I'm looking at my numbers and I'm realizing that, like, oh, there there's like a distinctly different flavor from the way that, like, my perception of what is my best work is and what my audience thinks is the best or, you know, the like I look a lot at the numbers not as they happen, but like over time, whereas I'll be in hiatus for a certain amount of months and then I'll come back. and see what the numbers are reflecting in in what is more, you know, palatable for my audience, like what my audience is is actually agreeing with more is like my better work and it's always not it's not necessarily again, it's not necessarily opposite. but it's not um, you know, it's not always what I expect to be. So this to me, I like um, but it doesn't necessarily like that you, whoever you are as an audience is gonna agree. Um This is actually the least completed track. um I feel like I'm showing you yeah, like I'm showing you my my uh it just it's naked cause it's very much not done. This is probably the most incomplete thing that I've ever, like, put out for anybody else to listen to. Um, but just being audit honest as like a person, not like as a entertainer, cause I don't necessarily see myself as that anymore after these couple years. Um, but being honest, like as a human being, as like a person, um, I've had some times that feel as though are, you know, an indication of not having a very prolonged experience in this sort of way. And I don't, like, I don't wanna put a trigger warning on anything. And I don't wanna, you know, like I I also don't want to insinuate things that are not there. Um, but a lot of the time, that is just to say that I don't feel safe, um, that I don't feel, um safe or secure, um, and that there's not necessarily a like sh it's just New York City. There's no level of like autho like a there is no necessary authority complex that has any sort of like, ability to protect you, you know, from uh certain experiences that are not necessarily um, you know, there's there's no level of protection from from, you know, there there are more heavily funded organizations that are like banks and investments or are more funded than the police. So when you're telling the police, like, hey, I'm being, you know, stalked or harassed and like, there's a pattern and like, here's the evidence and they won't even look at your evidence. Um, even though technically by the law, like it is, you know, documented uh, verifiable, like verifiable, like, no, there's none in my head. Like, I have like the videos, I have pictures, I have audio recordings of like this is happening to me, and they won't even look at it, um, not necessarily because they don't want to, but maybe because they've been trained to look in the other way. Um, and then, you know, just the cultural disadvantage of like, youre snitch. I'm like, I'm also within inches of my life sometimes. and nobody's helping me. Um, and it's not necessarily a mental condition. I think that more now than ever, I would be like readily willing to admit like, oh yeah, like, I should just take the meds, but I'm like, this is I'm not hallucinating this. I'm not gonna take some kind of fucking pill for some kind of medication for something that's like, I'm experiencing this, and not only am I experiencing this with like my eyes, my nose, my ears, like, I'm now videotaping 100% of my life everywhere I go. If I walk out the door, I'm recording, like, that's how many times I've been stalked or followed. Like, if I walk outside of my apartment, like I'm I'm videotaping it, because if I don't, if something happens, then it's literally their word against mine. and the police is, like, literal their whole thing is like, if we didn't see it, it didn't happen. Like, you can get you can get, like beaten within an inch of your life and the police can show up and you can tell them and they can see you like bleeding from the face or whatever, and be like, that guy did it, but the police will straight up tell you. the police will straight up tell you like if we didn't see it, it didn't happen, like we can write the report, but like we like they will not investigate. Period. They will not investigate. And so understanding that, like that opens the, you know, the possibility of like way, way more heinous crimes, you know, being able to be, um, played out without, you know, without any possibility of you having help for that, as, you know, is like dangerous to me, and a lot of the time I feel like I'm in danger, um, to me, and so, my priority is not sitting down in Ableton and and you know, getting these cues just right, like, especially with this this track. um, like it's so, so far from complete, but when I hear it, it still sounds it sounds decent enough that, like, I'll give it to you guys just in case, like like the least sometimes that I feel is gonna happen is that I just get hit by a bus. uh, which does happen almost any time I go outside. It's like, I will not get a bicycle. I won't because I'm like, that's like the easiest way to ensure that I will get hit by something. I'll get hit by something. um I will get hit by something, so I don't um I don't, you know. I'm just trying to, uh, get along and protect myself and away that, you know, maybe possibly enables me to, like, disappear. I don't necessarily need to be anybody. I stopped fighting for that main stage spot a long time ago, cause I I see that it's not about like it can't necessarily be about the love when it's about the money. and I have so, so much love. like for the music, um, and for what used to be the scene. I mean, the scene's always been kind of dirty. You pick up any book about DJ culture, about festival culture, you know, about music in the in the sense that it's been meant in the rave world has always had like a CD side to it. um because it was previously a counterculture, you know, that became mainstream and it still definitely has its like flavor, it definitely has its like, you know it's flavors to it, which, you know, is is a magnetism or like a draw, that's like, oh, there is this darkness that exists, but like, at the core of it is the frequency, you know? And I think that if there was ever going to be like a place for like a placeholder for success for me and the industry, it would be somewhere in the future when it can be a more decisive. No, what am I trying to say? Oh, I don't know. I think that money really fucks things up sometimes, and because of the amount of inequality in the world and the fact that the the world has become such a competitive space, um, that there're actually less places for opportunity for artists, even though it seems like there should be more. um I think until it's like about wellness, yeah, I think in until music can be until we can create like spaces where wellness is like at the center of these, you know, gatherings, then I don't think it's necessarily going to be like a safe place. Um for anybody, but let alone for me, because I'm very much like a fragile person when it comes down to, um, like per like the protection of my spirit and the protection of my aura, I don't necessarily want to be in a place of uh tragedy or a place of defense all the time. I I wanna go outside and and be in defense mode 100% of the time. I am right now, so um, like anything I I I kind of take it with a grain of salt in the way that like anything I say can and will be used against me. And so I don't say so much. I I don't say so much, and I want to be sure to take care of my art in a way that it doesn't is not, um, you know, so that it doesn't necessarily exist in a place of toxicity or that it's not coming from. Like, I won't sit down and Ableton if I feel a certain way. It's not just me being lazy. Like it's if I have like a certain vibration that's incurable, like it's not uh it doesn't make sense for me to, like, you know, sit down and work on a track. So this this track, uh, forget me nots and follow through. um, I think it is the first track and symposium. I don't know, because when I listen back to it, I also hear um when I listen back to it, I also hear as seen on TV, like a lot. um like a lot. And so it's kind of interesting to see those two kind of elements of my artistic personality combined, because I think the tracks that I've shared with you that are from symposium or different in the way that they're um made only one way, but this one is definitely implementing um techniques from two projects. Um, so the what are the two other ones? I think it's like talked to me about it. Is that oneosium? I think so. and bitter butter and southwest of your scars. Ah, those are all from this project, but then I I look at this one, which is technically the first of the bunch and it's so not done. that I'm like, don't put it out until it's done. and I'm like, well, and might not ever be done with the shit that's happening is kind of scary. Like, it's I might I may not ever be able to get back to a place where this is possible because of the things that are continually happening uh, to me. Um, I I don't know what the source of evil is. Like, I really don't, like I am very much a spiritual person and I do have like the tendency to believe that like no matter what God has my back so if I'm removed from one situation or existence into another, it is for the protection of that aura, for the protection of that frequency, for the protection of, you know, keeping my, you know, um my source intact, like there's, you know, certain elements or certain frequencies that can't exist in in other realms. I think that, uh, a toxic environment. Like my energ is not going to sustain an intoxic environment. It's just not. It's just not. It's not necessarily even a personal or emotional preference. It's more of like a oh, this doesn't go in there. Like this doesn't go there or I don't exist over there. Like, I don't, you know, it's not. I think I wish that I could be applied to like every space and time, but I think that there are certain drawbacks to being in energy that is applicable to anything and everything. I think that, you know, in the very rare circumstances that an energy like that exists, um it's very magnetizing, it's very, uh enigmatic and it's very charismatic in the way that, like, everybody wants it, everybody wants a piece, everybody wants to be around it, but also for that person, you know, where that energy exists, you know, for that vehicle, I think that it becomes like exhausting to the point that, you know, um, the human of of that, um, you know, the human of that energy is entirely vulnerable all the time. And so those people that are, um designated to do those kinds of jobs, having that high level of power and energy are also, uh, you know, in every sense of the word, um, like exhausted to some effect, um, and I'm exhausted, um, but I think that this last two years has been a case study for all of the like I mean, like she's just horrible things people are doing to each other to try to get ahead, you know, like to try to get a little bit of the pie just to get the tiniest crumbs or to get you know, people are stepping on heads out here. Like people are doing what it takes and they're justifying things that are technically morally, you know. so very morally, uh, corrupt and so so so bad to other people with the justification of like, that's just the way it is. Or you you gotta do what you gotta do and I'm like, yo, dude, but like again, my energy just does not exist in that space for that mindset you know where it's like you know, um because I also believe that like a certain level of justifying, you know, morally uh, you know, morally corrupt behavior eventually just makes it so that you can't get ahead. I I honestly chronically believe that, like if you're constantly fucking other people over just to get to the top, like your top is not going to be consistent with what is actually success and what is actually um freedom, you know, like, you are gonna owe back energy to a certain extent, you know, um, because you stole it in the first place, like, you can't you can't sustain on stolen energy. Like you cannot do it. Like you cannot exist in a place that that was taken from somebody else without something else in turn being taken from you. I honestly truly believed that with every like with every last breath, with every last word, I honestly believe that like that that good overpowers evil. Like, you can't sustain on something that you robbed from somebody, you can't sustain on something that you you know, that that you took, eventually, you know, karmically, um, it comes back too, and so, I don't think energy is any different. I think if you suck the life out of somebody, eventually something' gonna get sucked out of you and, uh, it's one of those things where it's like one step forward, two steps back for people who uh subsist on energy that way. I just I don't know. um, I try more and more to be conscious of my self to point where I realized that um the effect that I have on people could be, you know, long lasting. It's it's something that could be like a ripple effect, and so I'm very careful with my energy in the way that, you know, I if I dole it out, I expect I expect 39%. I don't know why that's the number. 39% to get it back. um, you know, on a certain way. And uh understanding my limits and my like just understanding my ability and my placement. understanding the, you know, the the love you make. yeah, all that. and the love that you make is equal to the love that you take. And so um also, I think that love in itself is probably the most valuable heat source and that it overpowers what is um technically needed in the society of, you know, for survival. I think that love overpowers, you know, whatever material, you know, the material sense of existence is. I think that love overpowers, whatever is morally corrupt, whatever is systematically corrupt. I think that love at the end of the day, like, really does put in its place. um what is supposed to be and what is not supposed to be. And so in because I think like living in this spirit with the understanding that like it took me a really long time. I think I having a a a victim's mentality of like, I must deserve this in some sort of way, but then understanding also like I didn't do anything wrong. Um Sometimes these things just happen and the understanding of why that is is not always attainable. Um, and so to wallow in it and to be like, why, why? You know, like, why? I mean, I think in a from a philosophical standpoint, I do a lot of this because it's like this doesn't necessarily make sense, but it has to it has to be an art artistic way for me to be like, well, it doesn't make sense, but like, you know, now I have ten pages about trying to figure, like, instead of actually just wallowing it and being like, what? Well, now I have ten pages of like this, you know, something that can be considered beautiful. you know, something that can be considered, uh, useful to somebody, maybe not now, but at some point in time, you know, because all of my work is is stored in like this digital time space, kind of like encrypted into history in itself being like a digital marker for, you know, something that very much did exist or did happen. I still believe I still live in the belief that like this, well, it's just like the overall knowing that this part, this faction of history is a very, you know, uh verifiable part of ancient history, you know, to a culture that exists like beyond our time. And so with that understanding that, like it's so crazy, because I do have this overriding kind of factor of, you know, God that's just kind of like, oh, these are ancient times. this is an ancient world and it's hard to like wrap your mind around it because youth, you know, you think of yourself in the present time of like being a, you know, a being of existence in the future. Oh, I watched the jet the Jetsons. Oh, that was so good. I watched uh the Jetsons. which I didn't know is also the Simpsons. and like every animated show that came out on it like a lot, actually. It's a good show. I got I think I gotta watch it again because I was like, oh, this is like ten different shows. It was like ten different shows. um but I watched like the pilot, I think episode of the Jetsons and I was tripping. I I was tripping. um it was just really good. Anyway, um I think what what was I saying? Oh, like this time being like a marker for actual actually being a primitive civilization. Whereas like not necessarily compared to what we know as the primitive civilizations, you know, of human time, like, you think of primitive civilizations of being like the ancient Egyptians or, you know, the Mayans or, uh, you know, the Greeks, uh loved them. I really I I almost even favored them over the Romans. almost, almost, almost, I don't know, I could talk about history and culture forever. cause I'm like, but the other Romans really, like their architecture, but the Greeks more culturally, like artistically, I think where what is the word for them? Uh, the Greeks? What is the word for them? I think there were definitely more, uh yeah, yeah, definitely more artistic philosophical than the Romans, but the Romans had like a lot, like a lot to do with modern society to the point where that's also uh admirable. I do like the Romans. They're just like shitty and violent. They're just shitty and violent anyway. um what was I saying? I don't know. I'm wrapping this up. cause I'm hungry. I don't know about a taco, though. This is technically the start of my day. at midnight o'clock. Um, at midnight o'clock. oh, that's what I was talking about. Markers for ancient civilizations. Oh, yeah, this this time is so so far beyond. But I think the the incredible thing about this time that we're living in now presently, um, is that it is so, like there's so much record of it that it does exist beyond our time for, you know, potentially millions of years and into hire and further civilizations. So I kind of live with that, like, understanding of like this this also and itself being like, a part of the ancient world as far as time is concerned, you know? like, in as much a stipulation of like any apocalyptic or societal, you know, destruction is made, like nothing really sees past, like nothing really sees past the fact that, like, they're so much historical information about our present time in the future that it is consistently creating to an adding to like the what am I trying to say? Oh, something about the multiviverse. Something about the cosmos or something. constantly expanding, because it is, but whatever, I actually just kind of made this as a real time episode to so that I could share this song and then um not really like I don't necessarily have anything for you, anything else for you in this season. um it's there. like, there are six or seven other episodes. There might even be some music. oh, all the freaky Fridays or whatever, mix tapes. Did I even post what up Wednesday? I did I did a freaky Friday on a Wednesday and it was arguably the best. of all the freaky Fridays. I don't know if I posted that already. um I don't know if I posted that already. but it's not. Also, like my podcasting distributor is kind of archaic. So it takes a lot of work just to go check on what's been posted or whatever. um So I'm I'm not going to make any promises and be like, oh, go check if that was posted. And if it is posted, I'll just maybe post it again, cause it's worth it. Um, what up Wednesdays? I did it twice, actually. um because it got difficult to do freaky Fridays. It's still kind of fucking difficult to do it. And, uh, I it pains me to realize, like, how physically affected. I've I have been. um cause it sucks, cause it's not just something that's in my head, it's like ow, like, my body hurts. like, I cannot, you know. I can't withstand a certain frequency or electronic exposure that is negative over this much time. Like, I'm just like broken down right now. Um at least I'm still capable, cause I didn't ever think. I was like, I don't think I'll ever run more than a mile again. Um, I probably should um take the proper steps to make sure that, though, uh, now that I'm running again, I take the proper steps, like, I forgot to stretch, and I forgot to drink water. Stupid. Well, I I just felt so good to run. I love those woodway treadmills so much, so much, it just felt so good that I didn't that I couldn't stop and then when I did, like my body is like, okay, like you're stupid. Like it felt really good, so I'm like, all right, like active recovery. I'm gonna do like two hours on the pelotone and then a walk. um, before I run again. and that's what I'm about to do right now. I love getting to the reunion parts of the bad girls club because as the most fighting and I burn the most calories during the reunions, I just finished to season. I just watched the season for the second time. and uh I have a reunion episode coming up, so I'm a I'm— I don't know. I'm pretty boring person to be quite honest, but here's the song. okay, I'm at an hour yet. Here's the song forgetmenot// and follow through. It's not finished. Like if I could give you a percentage on the— what are you doing? Yo, this dudes are weird all day. I'm sorry. Um. He's so funny. He's so funny. Earlier he like earlier he like sneezed. Earlier he sneezed. But like also farted and this scared himself so bad that I could not contain myself. Because he was like embarrassed. but like, also he sneezed and farted and probably could not. He was like, oh, my God. Like, oh my God. And then, uh, I laughed for like a good five minutes after that. He seemed genuinely embarrassed. I was like, yeah. yeah, that that is shocking that you can manage to do something like that. like being a cat, but, you know, oh, he did. It was good. That's why we have emotional support animals, because I needed that laugh. I don't think I' laughed so hard at anything in a very, very long time, so I'm glad I have my little kitty. my satterat, my Mr. Cat, mush matters anyway. uh, was I wrapping something up? I was.ive meods to follow through. this song that's about to come up, and then I'm maybe I'll maybe I'll if it's not out already. Well, if it is, here it is again, what up Wednesday? I'll go dig it out of the fucking archives. you guys couldn't have that. decent. Um, keep in mind that the CDJs at the radio station, where do Freaky Fridays are also very archaic? Um, I'm not complaining, though. I don't know. I don't know if I got to the episode where I was talking about that. Uh, or maybe I got I got fi I gotta figure it out. um I gotta figure out where these episodes are. There's like six or seven. Should I uh honorable mentions or dishonorable mensions? I feel like it borders on both. because I just figured out what apparently the six seven phenomenon is. And I'm actually worried about suburban children, like, having act like, why are they saying this? Because I looked up I looked up where it came from, it came from this rapper called scrilla dude. not gonna lie. One of my personal favorites, cause I love rap, that is terrible to a certain extent. um and it is, like it's not only it's not only like it's not lyrically terrible. He's actually really good um He's actually really good whatever he's saying. I know what he's saying, which is what's terrifying that, like, apparently suburban upper middle class and upper class children are saying this. six seven thing, because it came from this video by this rapper called Skrilla do doot. Yup. and well, it's culture music, like it's it's trap culture music, it's not necessarily drill, but it's done in the style of drill. um, talking about like the culture the culture the culture um that is not necessarily like great. cause he was talking I was like yo. what the fuck are children saying this for? Um, what the fuck are children exposed to this for? Because there was no, like parental block on it or anything like that. And the dude was talking about like, straight up murderer. He was like, yeah, m, like this though. And I was like, oh no, like I I actually kind of dig his music because it's it's like it's the music that was born of like the Young Thug and the low Wayne and themehesine and it's bad. It's really bad. Like it's really bad. like if your kids are saying six seven, like, the origin of that is not, I'm like,o, shout out sc a d do, because that is facts, but also like, like like kids should not necessarily like, everything he was saying and all of his songs, I was like, that's bad. That's bad that you said that. not that you shouldn't, actually. I feel like there, like art exists as a medium to be able to have this level of freedom of speech, and that's why it exists. But also like, if you understand which I think kids obviously don't if they're just like, oh, six, seven, I'm like, okay, like, but obviously, like, this is where that came from. Like, and this is where that came from, and the dude is talking about some stuff that I'm like what? Like, I'm not confused. I know what he's talking about. But like, children should not necessarily like, even if they don't know what he's talking about, this is not like, this is different from like, when I was like, 10 and it's getting hot in here. So take off all your clothes, like that came out or like to the window to the wall, like this is mild, those things are mild, compared to like, the shit that scrill a do dude. talks about. I'm like, oh, what? What? And apparently we little kids are seeing this and exposed to it, like, they don't necessarily know what it means, but he's like, yo, these are the lyrics to my songs. Listen. I'm like, oh, like. That's troubling. That that exists. That's troubling. truly troubling. I'm I'm not talking shit. I actually really like it, but like parental controls, like, my kids should not be exposed to this, like via the Internet. Like, you should not like, this should be something especially if you live in the subrooms like if you live in a house that has rooms, like if you live in a house that has rooms in an all. like the culture that this is referencing and you know what? The only thing that actually made me look it up was like so many people were saying it in the circuit of television that I watched that I was like, it was bothering me. It was bothering me like Labubu was, but Labubu was far less disturbing, far less. I was like, oh, no. this is not cool. This is not cool, David Letterman. This is not cool, because he was like,Yo, what's up six seven? I'm like, you're 106. I don't know why you're saying this. So I looked it up. So I looked it up, and I was like, oh no, like, okay, like we know it's a cultural fucking phenomenon, but like, do you know why? Do you know why? Like, do you know why? And do you know what this man is talking about? Do you know what this man is saying? Anyway. I'm not I'm actually not gonna say it. Like I'm not gonna say it because I think it it exempt exemplifies that's what I'm trying to say right yeah. I think it exemplifies and represents a part of the culture that is deeply, deeply, deeply, deeply wrong. um in the history of the United States of America. I think it's just bad news. It's just bad news. And it's bad news, like it exists, but the reason why it exists is terrible, like it shouldn't exist is it's terrible. It's bad. It's bad and it's bad that kids are saying this. It's bad anyway. it's really bad. Anyway, I got Peloton time, bad girls' club reunion, some coffee to reheat. Here's this song, um there's no anything else for a while. I gotta make sure that like my uh I got to make sure if I get taken out, it's by like a city bus. And, you know, not just because my insides are uh imploding. um and yeah, my insides are imploding. Uh, gotta take care of number one, which is me. So, that self serving thing I get, but, you know, I'm just not the kind to to step on heads or like, I'm not gonna make it, like, purposely harder for you to do something. Like, I do believe in free will to the point where if you're not hurting anybody else, it's not affecting anybody else's, like vibe, like, do what you want, like, as long as you're not objectively or subjectively hurting anybody. Like, just don't hurt anybody, but besides this, you know, take care of yourself, but it's not, you know. I mean, you're not causing any quantifiable harm. Go ahead and, you know? I, um, but that's it. That's that's it for me. Thank you for listening. Is that it? Yeah, forget me nots. It's not finished. I've got a lot to do. Like, I actually had this is a song that actually has like a list, like a handwritten list on a piece of paper of like do this and do that and do this and do that. But like here's what I have so far just in case, you know, the city buses be getting awful close to the curb sometimes. where I stand, I am yep, they do. anyway. um I said more stories to tell and stuff, but now it's not the time or the place. did I say my thing? Yeah, I say my. Dave you were listening. something, you're listening, see you next time. That's it, yeah. Yeah, I don't have anything else. Thank you for listening. See you next time, bye.

Patrick Y. Wen, MD, Dana-Farber Cancer Institute, Boston, MA, discusses current standards of care for low- and high-grade gliomas, including the importance of comprehensive molecular testing, the World Health Organization classification of tumors of the central nervous system, and newly available therapies. 

Welcome back to this week's Friday Review where I can't wait to share with you the best of the week!     I'm looking forward to reviewing:     Beacon40 (product review) Artificial Sweeteners & AFib Risk (research) Blood Markers & Depression Link     For all the details tune into this week's Cabral Concept 3584 – Enjoy the show and let me know what you thought!   - - - For Everything Mentioned In Today's Show: StephenCabral.com/3584 - - - Get a FREE Copy of Dr. Cabral's Book: The Rain Barrel Effect - - - Join the Community & Get Your Questions Answered: CabralSupportGroup.com - - - Dr. Cabral's Most Popular At-Home Lab Tests: > Complete Minerals & Metals Test (Test for mineral imbalances & heavy metal toxicity) - - - > Complete Candida, Metabolic & Vitamins Test (Test for 75 biomarkers including yeast & bacterial gut overgrowth, as well as vitamin levels) - - - > Complete Stress, Mood & Metabolism Test (Discover your complete thyroid, adrenal, hormone, vitamin D & insulin levels) - - - > Complete Food Sensitivity Test (Find out your hidden food sensitivities) - - - > Complete Omega-3 & Inflammation Test (Discover your levels of inflammation related to your omega-6 to omega-3 levels) - - - Get Your Question Answered On An Upcoming HouseCall: StephenCabral.com/askcabral - - - Would You Take 30 Seconds To Rate & Review The Cabral Concept? The best way to help me spread our mission of true natural health is to pass on the good word, and I read and appreciate every review!  

I am excited to reconnect with Dr. Tom Dayspring today. He joined me before for an extremely popular seven-part podcast series where we tackled topics related to lipids and the physiological shifts that occur as we transition from perimenopause into menopause. Dr. Dayspring graciously agreed to return today for an Ask Me Anything episode, where we explore how lipids change as we navigate the perimenopause-to-menopause transition and discuss the significance of bioindividuality, inflammation, vascular health, and endothelial function in the context of changing estrogen levels. Dr. Dayspring also clarifies how visceral fat affects lipid levels, and we discuss testing for cardiovascular disease, the relevance of particle size, LPIR scores, and physical markers of insulin resistance.  Stay tuned for today's valuable and fascinating conversation. I will share the second AMA with Dr. Dayspring later this fall. IN THIS EPISODE, YOU WILL LEARN: How estrogen loss impacts lipid metabolism in midlife Shifts in vascular health that occur during the menopause transition What makes endothelial function central to long-term health? Why triglycerides matter more than you think How variations in LDL particle size influence cardiovascular risk What standard cholesterol tests could miss about your cardiovascular health How inflammation can alter your lipid profile How your genes and lifestyle shape your lipid profile Markers women need to track over and above standard cholesterol tests How menopause reshapes women's cardiovascular risk profile Connect with Cynthia Thurlow   Follow on X, Instagram & LinkedIn Check out Cynthia's website Submit your questions to support@cynthiathurlow.com Connect with Dr. Thomas Dayspring On X (@DrLipid) On LinkedIn

In this special episode, I dive into the world of bloodwork and the crucial markers that can reveal a lot about your vagus nerve health. By focusing on inflammation and metabolic stress, I break down the top three markers you should pay attention to: high sensitivity CRP, hemoglobin A1C, and the triglyceride to HDL ratio. I explain how these markers impact vagal tone, metabolic function, and overall wellbeing, using simple analogies and practical advice.Throughout the episode, I offer actionable steps you can implement, from optimizing sleep and nutrition to incorporating movement and breath practices. I also highlight the importance of tracking other valuable indicators like fasting insulin and heart rate variability to get a fuller picture of your health journey.If you're ready to take control of your health, use this episode as your guide. Check your bloodwork, apply the suggested strategies, and make your vagus nerve function work for you—not against you. Don't forget to get your labs done and start validating, not guessing, when it comes to your wellbeing. Tune in, learn, and take action!Dr. Navaz HabibEmail: podcast@healthupgraded.comFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/DrNavazHabib/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/drnavazhabib/LinkedIn: https://ca.linkedin.com/in/drnavazhabib

Indiana Senators will not be convening in December to address calls for redistricting. President Donald Trump is taking aim at Republican Governor Mike Braun after state Senate leaders said they won't support Trump's push to redraw Indiana's congressional map. Hours after President Trump blasted Senator Goode on social media, the Terre Haute Republican says he and his family were victims of a hoax domestic violence emergency call. Indiana may remove the ability for people to change gender on state-issued IDs. Want to go deeper on the stories you hear on WFYI News Now? Visit wfyi.org/news and follow us on social media to get comprehensive analysis and local news daily. Subscribe to WFYI News Now wherever you get your podcasts. WFYI News Now is produced by Zach Bundy and Abriana Herron, with support from News Director Sarah Neal-Estes.

In this week's message, Timothy Ateek taught through the book of Acts and highlighted ten characteristics that defined the early Christian church.

In this week's message, Timothy Ateek taught through the book of Acts and highlighted ten characteristics that defined the early Christian church.

Program notes:0:37 An oral med for obesity1:37 Five to 10% stopped medication2:35 Need head-to-head trials with injectable3:00 Stem cell infusion after MI and heart failure4:01 Reduced heart failure in recipients5:01 Twice as many in the control arm6:01 Moving past BMI in predicting atherosclerosis7:01 Especially in overweight but not obese8:01 Almost 3000 participants in Brazil8:25 Blood samples precede MS9:04 Seen seven years beforehand10:02 Twin studies and relatives11:03 Way to intervene earlier11:15 Applaud OpenAI13:00 End

Welcome to the Mind Muscle Connection Podcast!In this solo episode, I talk about 7 Biofeedback Markers I Use With Clients To Lose Fat and Build Muscle. You'll hear why “how you feel” matters more than what the scale says, and how to start paying closer attention to your internal markers instead of just chasing numbers.I cover the most important feedback markers I track with clients every week and why these markers give us better insight into what's actually working and where things may be going off-track. Don't miss out on this insightful episode!Let's talk about:IntroductionWhy most programs overlook how you feelWhat Biofeedback Markers to TrackSubjective vs Objective DataFollow me on Instagram for more information and education: @jeffhoehn_FREE 30 Min Strategy Call: HEREBody Recomp Checklist 2.0 HERENutrition Periodization Masterclass: HEREHow You Can Work With Me?: HERECoaching application: HERE

In this foundational video, Ed Frawley shares his comprehensive dog training philosophy developed over a remarkable journey that began in the 1950s and spans more than 50 years of hands-on experience. Ed explains that effective training is common sense combined with a clear understanding of how dogs think as pack animals who genetically seek ranking order and view their human family as their pack. He emphasizes that establishing sound family pack structure accounts for 75% of solving behavioral problems, while obedience training represents only 25%—dogs must respect their handlers as pack leaders through fair, firm, and consistent control, as love alone cannot earn respect. | Links mentioned: The Power of Training Dogs with Markers: https://leerburg.com/marker-dvd.php | Training Dogs with Food Rewards: https://leerburg.com/food-dvd.php | Basic Dog Obedience: https://leerburg.com/302.htm 

In this essential training breakdown, Ed Frawley explains the five progressive Rules of Play that transform tug from chaotic wrestling into a powerful obedience and engagement tool. These rules must be taught in order: first, building genuine desire for the toy by sparking prey and play drive; second, teaching the retrieve so the dog learns that bringing the toy back continues the game rather than ending it; third, adding the "out" command at the right developmental stage to avoid suppressing drive; fourth, introducing impulse control so the dog waits for permission before grabbing; and fifth, finding the perfect balance based on the dog's individual temperament—dominant dogs need stricter structure while sensitive dogs require more freedom to build confidence. Ed emphasizes that intensity of play must be adjusted to each dog's personality: possessive dogs get shorter wins to prevent over-possession, while less intense dogs benefit from longer, more active sessions to build drive. When all five rules work in harmony, tug becomes far more than just play—it creates a dog who is motivated, responsive, and sees the handler as the ultimate source of reward and fun. | Links mentioned: The Power of Playing with Your Dog: https://leerburg.com/221.htm | The Power of Training Dog with Markers: https://leerburg.com/marker-dvd.php

Message From Susan Hey everyone, it's Susan, and you're about to hear one of my training tips and tidbits. These are quick, actionable strategies to help you and your dog in everyday life or for dog sport. Often our short videos with tips are created from your most popular segments of podcast episodes. So, let's dive in!   Shaping Q&A: Non-Reward Markers, Reinforcement Strategies, And Making Training Work For Every Dog In this mini Shaping Q&A, I'm diving into your top questions about non-reward markers, reinforcement strategies, how to make training work for every dog, and more! You'll discover how to set your sessions up for success, keep motivation high, and make shaping easier and more enjoyable for both you and your dog.   Watch the full video at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOT8z4B81eg

In this solo podcast episode, Dr. Mike Hart delves into the intricacies of insulin resistance, a prevalent yet misunderstood condition. The episode covers the fundamental role of insulin, what happens during insulin resistance, and its linkage to various diseases like diabetes and heart disease. It includes a detailed discussion on how to measure insulin resistance using markers like triglyceride to HDL ratio, fasting insulin, fasting glucose, and hemoglobin A1c. Dr. Hart also explains the significance of advanced glycation end products (AGEs) and how they contribute to aging and diabetes. Practical tips on improving insulin sensitivity through diet, exercise, and supplements such as fiber, mulberry leaf extract, and berberine are provided. Additional considerations for managing blood sugar levels and preventing insulin resistance are also discussed. Links: Fasting Insulin Test: https://medlineplus.gov/lab-tests/insulin-in-blood/ Fructosamine Test: https://medlineplus.gov/lab-tests/insulin-in-blood/ Carnosine: https://examine.com/supplements/carnosine/?show_conditions=true P5P (Pyridoxal-5-Phosphate): https://examine.com/supplements/vitamin-b6/?show_conditions=true Show Notes: 00:00 Welcome back to the Hart2Heart Podcast with Dr. Mike Hart 00:56 Understanding Insulin and Insulin Resistance 03:02 Markers and Tests for Insulin Resistance 11:30 Advanced Glycation End Products (AGEs) 14:16 Exercise and Insulin Sensitivity 14:53 "Exercise keeps your body insulin sensitive for up to 48 hours — not just two." 16:21 Nutritional Strategies for Blood Sugar Control 20:59 Supplements and Medications for Blood Sugar Management — The Hart2Heart podcast is hosted by family physician Dr. Michael Hart, who is dedicated to cutting through the noise and uncovering the most effective strategies for optimizing health, longevity, and peak performance. This podcast dives deep into evidence-based approaches to hormone balance, peptides, sleep optimization, nutrition, psychedelics, supplements, exercise protocols, leveraging sunlight light, and de-prescribing pharmaceuticals—using medications only when absolutely necessary. Beyond health science, we tackle the intersection of public health and politics, exposing how policy decisions shape our health landscape and what actionable steps people can take to reclaim control over their well-being. Guests range from out-of-the-box thinking physicians such as Dr. Casey Means (author of "Good Energy") and Dr. Roger Sehult (Medcram lectures) to public health experts such as Dr. Jay Bhattacharya (Director of the National Institutes of Health (NIH) and Dr. Marty Mckary (Commissioner of the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) and high-profile names such as Zuby and Mark Sisson (Primal Blueprint and Primal Kitchen). If you're ready to take control of your health and performance, this is the podcast for you. We cut through the jargon and deliver practical, no-BS advice that you can implement in your daily life, empowering you to make positive changes for your well-being. Connect on social with Dr. Mike Hart: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/drmikehart/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/drmikehart Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/MikeHartEPS/

After 60 years in the weight room, Dan John has distilled fitness down to its essence: Move well. Lift often. Walk every day. Recover deeply.In this conversation, Dan joins host Kush Khandelwal to share the universal rules for staying strong and mobile through every decade — especially for climbers, runners, and outdoor athletes looking to balance performance and longevity.They unpack how fit literally means “to knit” — body, mind, and life woven together — and how that philosophy can guide everything from how you train and eat to how you recover and show up for others.Topics include:How to train for decades without breaking down or burning outThe six fundamental movement patterns for lifelong mobilityHow to integrate mobility into your strength sessions — without extra timeWalking as a cornerstone of strength and recoveryHow to structure strength training alongside endurance sportsThe art of recovery and “everyday strength”Why ritual matters more than motivationThe difference between hurt, injury, and agony — and how to manage eachDan's blunt but liberating three rules: Don't get fat. Don't get debt. Don't stop walking.This is a conversation about strength, yes — but also about meaning, consistency, and how to build a body and life that last.

Can a neurodiverse relationship thrive long-term—even when the work feels messy, nonlinear, and hard? In Part 3, the final episode of this roundtable series, Jodi and the panel of neurodiversity experts explore the skills that make progress possible: forgiveness, repair after conflict, and practical tools that help partners bridge intent and impact. This conversation digs into what progress actually looks like (hint: it's not linear), why discomfort is part of the process, and how couples build something that works for them—not just what's “supposed to” work.

In this episode we are talking about Intentional Events again and we brought in the president of Lead222 Bo Boshers to share why this ended up in the 9 Markers of a Healthy Student Ministry that we coach through. Take a listen as we discuss successes, how we have failed at planning events and how the Colts are going to win the Super Bowl. Bo Challenge: Sign up for the Summit Nov 11-13! If you're already signed up, invite someone to the Summit!FOLLOW US ON INSTAGRAM: @lead.222-------Did this conversation resonate with you? Do you have a suggestion for a future episode? We want to hear from you! Write us at info@lead222.com Help us grow the community!Subscribe, share, and leave a review.For more information about Lead222 or find a community of leaders in your area: ⁠⁠⁠www.lead222.com ⁠⁠⁠Lead222 Youth Ministry Staffingwww.Lead222/⁠⁠⁠staffing.com⁠⁠⁠

In this episode, Peter Von Panda explores the game-changing convenience of clickable dry erase markers that eliminate the hassle of caps and ink stains. Discover how these innovative markers can make using your whiteboard as easy as grabbing a pen, saving you time, boosting your productivity, and cutting down on Post-it notes. Whether you're at your desk, in a meeting, or teaching a class, these markers might just become your new favorite tool. Tune in to learn more! Get it here... https://geni.us/ggXf0Ji ---------- LET'S TALK ABOUT LIVING BETTER: ▶ Podcast: https://geni.us/FtGAT4 ▶ My Amazon Store: https://www.amazon.com/shop/petervonp... ---------- IF YOU'D LIKE TO SHOW SOME LOVE: ▶ Buy My Book: https://geni.us/qwbZAE ▶ Become A Channel Member: https://geni.us/AA3Jk ▶ Patreon:   / petervonpanda   ▶ Merch: https://petervonpanda.storenvy.com/ ▶ Free Panda Group: https://panda-research-institute.mn.co FOLLOW MY OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS: ▶ Instagram:   / petervonpanda   ▶ Facebook:   / petervonpanda  

BUFFALO, NY — October 17, 2025 — A new #research paper was #published in Volume 17, Issue 9 of Aging-US on September 8, 2025, titled, “Runx1 overexpression induces early onset of intervertebral disc degeneration.” In this study, led by first author Takanori Fukunaga from Emory University School of Medicine and corresponding author Hicham Drissi from Emory and the Atlanta VA Medical Center, researchers found that the Runx1 gene, when overactive in spinal disc cells, can accelerate age-related degeneration of the intervertebral discs. The findings offer new insight into the genetic factors that drive disc aging and suggest possible directions for treating chronic back pain. Intervertebral discs cushion the spine and support movement. Their deterioration is a major cause of lower back pain, especially with aging. At the center of each disc is the nucleus pulposus (NP), a gel-like core that contains proteins such as collagen and aggrecan, which help retain water and maintain structure. As people age, NP cells often lose their function, contributing to disc breakdown. Using a genetically modified mouse model, the researchers activated Runx1 specifically in NP cells. These mice developed signs of disc degeneration by five months of age, which is much earlier than normal. The overexpression of Runx1 led to the loss of healthy NP cells, an increase in abnormal cell types, and damage to disc structure. Levels of essential proteins like aggrecan and type II collagen decreased, while type X collagen increased, signaling unhealthy tissue changes. “To achieve NP-specific postnatal overexpression of Runx1, we crossed Krt19CreERT mice with Rosa26-Runx1 transgenic mice previously generated in our laboratory.” A key finding was that Runx1 overactivity did not kill cells directly. Instead, it caused premature cellular aging, known as senescence. Senescent cells lose the ability to repair tissue, creating an environment that accelerates degeneration. Markers of senescence were significantly elevated in the affected discs. The researchers also observed a dose-dependent response. The more Runx1 was activated, the more severe the degeneration was. This suggests that targeting Runx1 may be a promising strategy to prevent or slow disc aging. Overall, this study highlights the genetic and cellular processes that contribute to intervertebral disc degeneration, a leading cause of disability. By identifying Runx1 as a potential driver of early disc aging, the research opens new opportunities for intervention and treatment of degenerative spine conditions. DOI - https://doi.org/10.18632/aging.206316 Corresponding author - Hicham Drissi - hicham.drissi@emory.edu Abstract video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPwWbVBPIUM Sign up for free Altmetric alerts about this article - https://aging.altmetric.com/details/email_updates?id=10.18632%2Faging.206316 Subscribe for free publication alerts from Aging - https://www.aging-us.com/subscribe-to-toc-alerts Keywords - cell senescence, aging, Runx1, nucleus pulposus, intervertebral disc degeneration To learn more about the journal, please visit our website at https://www.Aging-US.com​​ and connect with us on social media at: Facebook - https://www.facebook.com/AgingUS/ X - https://twitter.com/AgingJrnl Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/agingjrnl/ YouTube - https://www.youtube.com/@Aging-US LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/company/aging/ Bluesky - https://bsky.app/profile/aging-us.bsky.social Pinterest - https://www.pinterest.com/AgingUS/ Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/show/1X4HQQgegjReaf6Mozn6Mc MEDIA@IMPACTJOURNALS.COM

Send us a text! We love hearing from listeners. If you'd like a response, please include your email. On this episode of the Ordinary Extraordinary Cemetery Podcast, Jennie and Dianne are joined by Miles McCallum and Nick Brown, researchers and enthusiasts passionate about uncovering the stories behind Vermont's historic cast-iron grave markers.Miles, an M.A. in history student at the University of Vermont, and his colleague Nick, share their fascinating findings on two models of cast-iron grave markers that swept through Vermont (and beyond) in the 1840s and 1850s. From the manufacturers to the symbolism, they'll dive into the history and significance of these Ordinary Extraordinary markers. Tune in to hear about their discoveries, the stories behind these iron sentinels, and what they reveal about Vermont's burial practices and cultural heritage. Need an Ordinary Extraordinary Cemetery Podcast tee, hoodie or mug? Find all our taphophile-fun much here: https://oecemetery.etsy.com

Ever dreamed of marking your golf ball with something uniquely yours? In this episode, Pete explores how you can design and order custom ball markers from GolfBalls.com for a fraction of what you'd expect. Whether it's for personal flair, a charity event, or corporate branding, Pete shares the ins and outs of creating your personalized markers, along with the pros, cons, and design tips to make yours stand out on the green. Perfect for golfers looking to add a personal touch! Get them here... https://www.golfballs.com/Consumer/Ac... Get golf ball markers on Amazon here... https://geni.us/GgdCXqh ---------- LET'S TALK ABOUT LIVING BETTER: ▶ Podcast: https://geni.us/FtGAT4 ▶ My Amazon Store: https://www.amazon.com/shop/petervonp... ---------- IF YOU'D LIKE TO SHOW SOME LOVE: ▶ Buy My Book: https://geni.us/qwbZAE ▶ Become A Channel Member: https://geni.us/AA3Jk ▶ Patreon:   / petervonpanda   ▶ Merch: https://petervonpanda.storenvy.com/ ▶ Free Panda Group: https://panda-research-institute.mn.co FOLLOW MY OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS: ▶ Instagram:   / petervonpanda   ▶ Facebook:   / petervonpanda  

Republican leaders of the Kansas Legislature are working to cobble together the necessary two-thirds majority of the House and Senate to call a special session in November. The original purpose was to redraw the four Kansas congressional districts to make it easy to defeat U.S. Rep. Sharice Davids, a Democrat. But there are maybe a dozen or so House GOP members not thrilled about redistricting in 2025 when it wasn't scheduled to be done again until 2032. Republican leaders want to appeal to dissenters by trying to pass a bill during the special session to prevent individuals from changing their gender marker on Kansas driver's licenses. With this proposed special session about three weeks away, Kansas Reflector senior reporter Tim Carpenter and editor Sherman Smith take stock of the drama.

Are you tired of chasing your acid reflux symptoms with PPI's, annoying food restrictions like the GERD diet, or hyper-vigilance about when and how much food you eat? When you ask your doctor if there's ANYTHING else you can do to help your acid reflux, do they tell you that you just need to pop another antacid, avoid trigger foods, or sleep on a wedge pillow? Do you wish there was a solution to acid reflux that was permanent, so you could eat late at night without worrying about a reflux flare, or that you could eat your favorite foods again without feeling punished for it later? If you said yes to any of these questions, then this episode is for you. On today's episode, my goal is to lay out acid reflux in one MASTER episode so that, by the end of it, you can have a map for exactly how to find, and deal with, the root cause(s) of your acid reflux. In this episode, I'm talking about: The real causes of acid reflux and GERD symptoms (and why it's not “too much acid”)The difference between acid reflux, GERD, LPR, and silent reflux — and why this episode can help ALL of these diagnosesWhy standard acid reflux drugs (PPIs, acid reducers) give quick relief but cause long-term problemsHow the acid reflux diet and GERD diet miss the root causeAnd, most importantly, 2 steps to reversing your acid reflux (for good!) If you're tired of relying on medication to manage your acid reflux and want freedom from your stomach terror - then this episode is for you. TIMESTAMPS:00:00 - Introduction to Acid Reflux Struggles 00:56 - Understanding Acid Reflux and GERD 01:44 - Welcome to the Better Belly Podcast 04:27 - The Anatomy and Symptoms of Acid Reflux 08:16 - Diagnosing Acid Reflux 10:24 - Causes of Acid Reflux 13:00 - Pressure Systems and Acid Reflux 25:49 - Conventional Treatments for Acid Reflux 28:25 - The Impact of Low Stomach Acid on Nutrient Absorption 29:32 - The Vicious Cycle of PPIs and Acid Reflux 31:29 - Steps to Reverse Acid Reflux 33:37 - Identifying Pathogens and Their Effects 40:09 - The Role of Histamine in Acid Reflux 40:49 - Fascial Restrictions and Their Impact 44:53 - Testing for Low Stomach Acid 48:05 - Comprehensive Testing and Treatment Plan 51:22 - Client Success Stories and Testimonials 53:08 - Conclusion and Next Steps EPISODES MENTIONED:47// The Gut-Sinus Connection233// H. Pylori: Symptoms of H. Pylori, How to Interpret H. Pylori Test Results, and Why H. Pylori Treatments Fail40// Reduce Acid Reflux with the Magic Power of Zinc68// 10 Markers on Your Bloodwork Linked to Acid Reflux

Is Cholesterol Really the Enemy? Here's What You're Not Being Told If your cholesterol is “too high,” “unavoidable,” or “just a part of getting older”… this episode is for you. Because here's the truth: cholesterol isn't the villain you've been led to believe. Your brain, hormones, and cells depend on cholesterol to function properly. And when we suppress it without understanding why it's high, we can actually interfere with our body's natural healing processes. In this episode of The Health Made Simple Show, Dr. Bart unpacks: ✅ The misunderstood role of cholesterol in the body ✅ Why low cholesterol can be just as dangerous as high cholesterol ✅ What markers actually matter on your lab work ✅ The problems with overprescribing statins ✅ How to personalize your approach based on your lifestyle, labs, and goals This is essential listening if: – You've been told to “watch your diet” – You're feeling confused by your lab results – You want to support your health without blindly cutting out fats

We're back talking about our 9 Markers of a Healthy Youth Ministry! This episode we are talking about Intentional Events and what some key elements of an event that makes it intentionally planned. Take a listen as we discuss successes, how we have failed at planning events and how the weather is really getting to Jake. Bo Challenge: Capture photo or video at your next event so that your students can share them on social media!Bonus Bo Challenge - Have a student take the photo or video! Bonus Bonus Bo Challenge - Have a student make the social media post for your social media account! FOLLOW US ON INSTAGRAM: @lead.222-------Did this conversation resonate with you? Do you have a suggestion for a future episode? We want to hear from you! Write us at info@lead222.com Help us grow the community!Subscribe, share, and leave a review.For more information about Lead222 or find a community of leaders in your area: ⁠⁠⁠www.lead222.com ⁠⁠⁠

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If you've been told your AMH is “too low” for your age, or that it means your only chance is IVF with high doses of medication, this episode is for you. AMH is not the final word on your fertility it's a marker that should spark deeper investigation. You'll learn: How IVF clinics use AMH to predict drug response and egg retrieval What the research actually says about high vs. mild stimulation for women with low AMH Why no stimulation protocol can improve egg quality The four functional fertility pillars that truly impact outcomes: mitochondria, inflammation, nutrients, and hormones A client story of moving beyond repeated IVF cycles to conceive naturally I'm Sarah Clark, founder of Fab Fertile. For over a decade, my team and I have helped hundreds of couples improve their chances of pregnancy success, whether naturally or through IVF. We specialize in supporting those with low AMH, high FSH, diminished ovarian reserve (DOR), premature ovarian insufficiency (POI), and recurrent pregnancy loss through functional testing and personalized fertility strategies. This episode is especially for you if: You've been told your AMH is too low and that aggressive IVF protocols are your only option You feel stuck in repeated IVF cycles with only minor protocol changes You want to understand how functional fertility strategies can change the environment where eggs are developing Not sure where to start? Download our most popular resource: The Ultimate Guide to Getting Pregnant This Year If You Have Low AMH/High FSH. It breaks everything down step by step to help you understand your options and take action. For personalized support to improve pregnancy success, book a call here. --- TIMESTAMPS [00:00:00] Does low AMH really mean IVF is your only option? Most women are told IVF or donor eggs are the only path forward, but AMH is more than a fertility “score.” Here's why it's misunderstood [00:02:00] What IVF protocols are used for low AMH? High-dose meds, mild stimulation, dual stim, and add-ons like DHEA are common. But do they actually improve outcomes? [00:04:30] Why do repeated IVF cycles often fail with low AMH? Many women get stuck in the loop of “protocol tweaks” while underlying health issues go unaddressed [00:05:00] Can IVF improve egg quality? Research shows protocols change egg quantity, not quality, here's why mitochondrial and cellular health matter most [00:07:00] What functional strategies support mitochondria for egg quality? From CoQ10 and omega-3s to sleep and stress balance, these are the foundations of better egg competence [00:09:30] How does stress and nervous system dysregulation affect AMH? Graduate school, 50-hour work weeks, and perfectionism can suppress ovarian function, here's how to spot the signs [00:12:00] Which labs uncover hidden inflammation affecting fertility? Markers like hsCRP and homocysteine reveal systemic inflammation IVF clinics rarely check [00:14:00] Which nutrient deficiencies impact ovarian reserve and embryo health? Vitamin D, ferritin, folate, B12, zinc, magnesium, selenium, subtle gaps can change outcomes [00:17:00] How do thyroid, prolactin, and cortisol influence egg development? Hormonal imbalances upstream are often missed, yet they shape ovulation, luteal support, and implantation [00:21:00] Can you conceive naturally with low AMH? A client with one ovary, endometriosis, and high FSH conceived naturally after addressing digestion, adrenal health, and nutrient absorption --- RESOURCES

It's the Friday News Roundup! We're talking about why our schools are losing millions due to a lack of a state budget – and why Stacy Garrity, Pennsylvania treasurer (and gubernatorial candidate), is offering low-interest loans due to the budget impasse. Plus, we chat about the end of AIDS Walk Philly, new historical markers, and a bike lane coming smack in the center of town. Host Trenae Nuri and executive producer Matt Katz break down these stories and more.  Our Friday news roundups are powered by great local journalism:  Josh Shapiro's GOP opponent Stacy Garrity steps in to offer counties $500 million in loans as Pa. budget remains at an impasse Pennsylvania Historical & Museum Commission Approves 45 New Historical Markers to Celebrate State History Action Wellness Announces End Of AIDS Walk Philly, Plans Legacy Tribute Event To Honor Walk's 38 Years Of Service Temple marching band celebrates 100 years of legacy, life lessons and fun Philly schools will borrow up to $1.5 billion to pay for a new teacher contract and other costs Pennsylvania's state budget is nearly 3 months late. Leaders still can't agree on the basics. Construction begins on new bike lane around City Hall Philly to get 14 new state historical markers, including for Bellevue hotel, Kensington riots Get Philly news & events in your inbox with our newsletter: Hey Philly Call or text us: 215-259-8170 We're also on Instagram: @citycastphilly And don't forget—you can support this show and get great perks by becoming a City Cast Philly Neighbor at membership.citycast.fm. Learn more about the sponsors of this episode: Babbel - Get up to 55% off at Babbel.com/CITYCAST  Advertise on the podcast or in the newsletter: citycast.fm/advertise

In a special guest episode of the Haaretz Podcast, German ambassador Steffen Seibert sits down with Guy Rolnik and Anat Georgy, co-hosts of “The Markers” – the Hebrew-language podcast of Haaretz’s sister publication, The Marker. In the interview, Seibert addressed the increasingly complicated relationship between the two countries since the Gaza war and said he was “not optimistic” about Israel’s future if its government continues in its current direction. “My country is very clearly against the extension and escalation of the war," Seibert said. At the same time, he expressed both affection and sympathy for the “exhausted” citizens of the Jewish state and concerns about growing antisemitism across Europe. “It's a difficult time to be an Israeli. The idea that when you go abroad as a tourist, you have to worry about your personal safety, and you have to worry if it's okay to speak Hebrew in the street – this is horrible, and it is a challenge to all of us Europeans to make sure that that doesn't become the new reality forever.” Rolnik and Georgy also engaged in an in-depth exchange with Seibert on the nature of German democracy and what Israel might learn from it as it wrestles with the judicial reform crisis and when free speech crosses the line and becomes incitement. Ultimately, he said, despite Germany’s “serious disagreements” regarding both Gaza and the occupation of the West Bank, “the fact remains that we consider ourselves forever friends of Israel and supporters of the right of Israel to be here, to be safe and to have this Jewish and democratic state. This is not a fashion in German politics. This is one of the pillars of our political identity.” Read more: EU Proposes Sanctions on Israel: Suspending Trade Benefits, Targeting Far-right Ministers Germany Will Not Join Western Allies in Recognizing Palestine, Chancellor Merz Says 'Some Artists Blur Their Identity,' as the World Turns a Deaf Ear to Israeli MusiciansSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Have you ever felt like your body's playing tricks on you with endless fatigue, bloating, or hormone chaos? Candida overgrowth may be the sneaky culprit behind it all. Today's expert is here to fill you in on how candida links your gut health, thyroid function, and even hormones like estrogens and cortisol and his four-phase Candida protocol. In this episode of Salad with a Side of Fries, Jenn Trepeck is joined by Dr. Michael Biamonte to discuss his naturopathic journey and the development of BioCybernetics for diagnosing imbalances. They debunk myths about candida overgrowth being protective, discuss symptoms such as cognitive issues and chemical sensitivity, and detail his four-phase Candida protocol. Additionally, discover the benefits of organic acid tests, stool tests, and calprotectin for accurate diagnosis and treatment. Don't miss this eye-opening chat.The Salad With a Side of Fries podcast, hosted by Jenn Trepeck, explores real-life wellness and weight loss, debunking myths, misinformation, and flawed science surrounding our understanding of nutrition and the food industry. Let's dive into wellness and weight loss for real life, including drinking, eating out, and skipping the grocery store.IN THIS EPISODE: (00:00) Dr. Biamonte explains how candida overgrowth feeds on B complex vitamins, converting carbohydrates into sugars(04:57) Dr. Biamonte's journey into naturopathy, driven by curiosity about nutrition when his father was ill(07:23) Dr. Biamonte develops a computer program called BioCybernetics(11:31) Candida is a cause of unusual reactions to vitamins linked to gut health imbalance(13:06) Reverse-engineering Candida treatment and the importance of rotating antifungals(17:29) Dr. Biamonte debunks the myth that Candida is protective, explaining that it suppresses immune system function(19:09) Symptoms of candida overgrowth, including fatigue, cognitive issues, gastrointestinal discomfort, eczema, and chemical sensitivity(25:43) Dr. Biamonte connects Candida to hormones, impacting thyroid function and Hashimoto's(28:03) Dr. Biamonte recommends organic acid tests and specific stool tests over blood tests to diagnose candida overgrowth accurately(31:52) Dr. Biamonte outlines the protocol to remove Candida(36:00) Dr. Biamonte explains that resolving candida overgrowth and leaky gut facilitates thyroid and adrenal recovery, but toxic metals must be addressed first(39:40) Why is there resistance to the protocolKEY TAKEAWAYS:Candida overgrowth significantly impacts gut health and hormones, particularly estrogens and cortisol, which can exacerbate conditions like Hashimoto's and thyroid function imbalances, requiring a targeted approach to address underlying dysbiosis. Dr. Michael Biamonte's four-phase Candida protocol involves a bowel cleanse, rotating antifungals, biofilm busters, and probiotics to restore gut flora, emphasizing the need to address leaky gut for effective treatment.Accurate testing, such as organic acid tests and stool tests (as opposed to unreliable blood tests), is crucial for identifying Candida overgrowth. Markers like stool pH, fecal IgA, and calprotectin indicate its presence.QUOTES: (15:48) "You were so ahead of your time in creating a program that is now essentially what people hope AI will do in medicine." Jenn Trepeck(20:00) “Candida, just like many other things of this nature, stresses out whatever your genetic weaknesses are to the point where that's how the symptoms manifest.” Dr. Michael Biamonte(22:07) “A lot of those things we associate with the B vitamin deficiency. So, the irony is that a B complex would also create a reaction in these same

Why do conditions like MCAS, hEDS, POTS, autoimmunity, and chronic stress so often appear together? And more importantly...can they be reversed? In this episode, I sit down with Adrian Davidson, a writer and researcher exploring the intersections of health, wellness, politics, and pop culture. Adrian has a lifelong passion for storytelling and brings a perspective that is both critical and compassionate. She dives into everything from health theories to cultural phenomena, blending broader commentary with her own lived experiences on her socials.Adrian has reversed multiple complex conditions in her own life, including: Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS)Multiple Autoimmune conditionsAnemiaInfertilityHypothyroidismNarcolepsyAnxiety, OCD, ADHD, hallucinationsAutism and Gender DysphoriaIBSShe opens up about what it was like to live with these challenges, how they interconnected, and the steps she took to truly heal. We dive into:What the RCCX cluster is and how it links MCAS, POTS, hEDS, and moreThe connection between genes, trauma, and nervous system stressHow Adrian turned her own health around—moving from illness and infertility to resilience, thriving, and having her 3rd baby at 40.What you can do if you suspect these patterns are at play in your life✨ This episode blends science, lived experience, and hope. If you've ever felt “wired differently” or stuck in cycles of reactivity and illness, Adrian's story will show you that reversal and healing are possible. You can find her curating visual storytelling on Instagram @capitalism.and.glitter and sharing longer-form writing on her Substack. Substack:https://adriandavidson.substack.com/welcomeInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/capitalism.and.glitter/Copywrite @AmandaPanacea Lets work together!· https://thehealerrevolution.com/ · Learn about my testing and coaching services: https://youtu.be/U7o17WErb84si=aaDZyp7txO6txtzm · Free 15 mins clarity call https://l.bttr.to/cih5BMy Most popular Courses, Guides, and Product Referrals· Product Links https://shopmy.us/amandapanacea· Feel to Heal: Transform Triggers into Calm (My signature course): https://feeltoheal.co/ · MCAS and histamine intolerance guide https://www.feeltoheal.co/webinar-registration· How to Heal MCAS and Histamine Intolerance Webinar: https://l.bttr.to/3Qnmv · HolyHydrogen Molecular Hydrogen: https://holyhydrogen.com/Panacea · King Coffee (Reishi spore infused organic coffee): https://thehealerrevolution.myorganogold.com/en/premium-gourmet-king-of-coffee/ Are you a practitioner, coach, or want to be? · Get certified in Bioenergetic testing: https://bioenergetics.learnworlds.com...· Learn HTMA and sign up for the HTMA app: https://hairanalysis.report/ref/165/ · Learn how to use and source Peptides (for non practitioners also!): https://amandapanacea--designergenes.thrivecart.com/pepsquad/ · Functional Genomics and Epigenetics: https://thedesignergenesco.com/bbd?affiliate=amandapanacea · Learn to read Mold labs and OAT: https://amandapanacea.krtra.com/t/4yQ7W1qjLT9cBuy my 365 day Somatic Manifestation Journal: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CQNSKXWD#AdrenalFatigue #anxietyrelief #bioenergetics #neuroscience #brainretraining #somatichealing #ChronicStress #hrv #functionalfreeze #AdrenalSupport #fightflightfreeze #nervoussytemregulation #nervoussystem #bloodsugar #anxiety #burnout #functionalmedicine #htma #bioenergetictesting #mcas #eczema #lyme #moldillness #gutbrainconnection #lymedisease #mastcellactivationsyndrome #tsw #topicalsteroidwithdrawal #guthealth #mineralbalancing #circadianrhythms #mastcellactivation #frequencyhealing #allergyrelief #weightloss #peptides #stressrelief #traumahealing #peptidesforweightloss #Bioenergetictesting

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Nothing is more frustrating and disheartening than going to your doctor feeling like something isn't right only to be told your bloodwork is "normal". At the SF Coaching Method, we want you to be your optimal self. In this episode, we are going to breakdown key blood tests and markers we test and analyze for our clients and how we change the game compared to other coaching programs in the space.   Time Stamps:   (1:04) Normal vs Optimal and Your Doctor's Visit (3:00) “You're Not Sick Enough To Trigger An Alert” (6:45) What Makes Us Different In Lab Testing and Interpretation (7:25) Oxygen and Recovery Reports (11:15) Lipid Panel (12:27) Thyroid Mastery (17:15) Influence of Vitamin D (19:23) Hormones and Cortisol Patterns (23:40) How We Change The Game ---------- Apply for SF Coaching Method  https://sarahfechter.ac-page.com/sfhq-cc Complimentary Health Content  https://sarahfechter.ac-page.com/Health_Wellness_Community ----------  Follow Me On Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/sarahfechter.ifbbpro/   Check Out My Website - https://www.sarahfechter.com ----------  This Podcast is for general informational purposes only and does not constitute the practice of medicine, nursing, other professional health care services, or any professional practice of any kind. Any reliance on the information provided in this Podcast is done at your own risk and Sarah Fechter Fitness LLC expressly disclaims any and all liability or responsibility for any direct, indirect, incidental, special, consequential or other damages arising out of any individual use of, reference to, reliance on, or inability to use, this Podcast or the information presented in this Podcast. All contents and design for this Podcast are owned by Sarah Fechter Fitness LLC. Always consult your professional team before beginning any exercise or nutrition program.

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Dr. Erin Michaud, SLP and BCBA-D with over 20 years of experience in communication development and ABA, joins the podcast to share the groundbreaking work of The Early Markers of Autism Project—a program changing the landscape of early autism identification and intervention.This hands-on, in-person research and treatment study works with infants from both high-risk populations (siblings of children with autism, with a 20% recurrence rate) and low-risk populations. By tracking social interaction, shifting attention, joint attention, and social behaviors from infancy through age five, the project identifies and responds to early markers far earlier than the current AAP screening recommendation of 18 months.The impact? Earlier diagnoses, earlier interventions, and fewer families waiting for services. Dr. Michaud shares how this project is creating validated assessment tools, expanding parent training, and building strong research to push for insurance coverage—bringing meaningful change for high-risk infants and their families.#autism #speechtherapyWhat's Inside:What are the early markers of autism?What is the Autism Sibling Project?Supporting parents and our littlest learners.Mentioned In This Episode:Talking First Words — Coming Soon ​​Early Markers of Autism Project | The New England Center for Children7 Investigates: Autism Intervention - Boston News, Weather, Sports | WHDH 7NewsNECC Infant Sibling Research Project 2023 Speech Membership - ABA Speech  ABA Speech: HomeThe BriefAll your family's pressing concerns and questions, answered in one place. Mike...Listen on: Apple Podcasts Spotify

Last episode, we talked about the history of historical markers, and what they indicate about the present. Today, a tour through some of our favorite examples of strange and controversial markers from around the country. Be sure to share your favorite historical marker in our newsletter chat!https://thisdaypod.substack.com/Find out more at thisdaypod.comThis Day In Esoteric Political History is a proud member of Radiotopia from PRX.Your support helps foster independent, artist-owned podcasts and award-winning stories.If you want to support the show directly, you can do so on our website: ThisDayPod.comGet in touch if you have any ideas for future topics, or just want to say hello. Follow us on social @thisdaypodOur team: Jacob Feldman, Researcher/Producer; Brittani Brown, Producer; Khawla Nakua, Transcripts; music by Teen Daze and Blue Dot Sessions; Audrey Mardavich is our Executive Producer at Radiotopia Learn about your ad choices: dovetail.prx.org/ad-choices

It's July 29th. This day in 1913, Pennsylvania passed a law that would establish a system for adding historical markers and plaques around their state. Over the coming decades, other states would follow suit, and into the first half of the 20th century, the United States saw a flourishing of those road-side historical markers.Jody, NIki, and Kellie discuss why there was such an appetite for historical commemoration in the early 20th century, and how something ends up getting a marker in the first place. Next episode, we'll look at some of our favorite examples from around the country.Got a favorite historical marker? Get in touch through our newsletter - sign up now!https://thisdaypod.substack.com/Find out more at thisdaypod.comThis Day In Esoteric Political History is a proud member of Radiotopia from PRX.Your support helps foster independent, artist-owned podcasts and award-winning stories.If you want to support the show directly, you can do so on our website: ThisDayPod.comGet in touch if you have any ideas for future topics, or just want to say hello. Follow us on social @thisdaypodOur team: Jacob Feldman, Researcher/Producer; Brittani Brown, Producer; Khawla Nakua, Transcripts; music by Teen Daze and Blue Dot Sessions; Audrey Mardavich is our Executive Producer at Radiotopia Learn about your ad choices: dovetail.prx.org/ad-choices