Inner Source - Healing from Toxic Abuse

Understanding Narcissistic and Borderline Personality Disorders with Dr. Anthony Mazzella, PhDIn this episode of 'Healing From Toxic Abuse,' host welcomes Dr. Anthony Mazzella, a psychoanalyst with over 20 years of experience specializing in psychodynamic treatment focusing on narcissistic and borderline presentations. The conversation delves into recognizing the hidden dynamics of narcissistic abuse, the unique insights psychodynamic treatments offer, and the common struggles survivors face in reclaiming their identities and boundaries. Dr. Mazzella shares his journey into psychoanalysis, observations on personality disorders, the nuances between narcissistic traits and malignant forms, the overlap with borderline personality disorder, and effective strategies for both individuals and couples dealing with these complex issues. He also highlights the importance of self-reflection, insight, and compassion in the healing process.00:00 Introduction to Dr. Anthony Mazzella01:56 Dr. Mazzella's Journey into Psychoanalysis04:33 Understanding Narcissistic Characteristics06:03 Misunderstandings and Realities of Narcissism11:38 Narcissism vs. Borderline Personality Disorder22:31 Red Flags and Early Warning Signs28:23 Understanding Gaslighting and Narcissism30:37 Addressing Hurtful Comments in Relationships31:30 Steps to Address Malignant Intent32:56 Validating and Confronting Narcissistic Behavior40:32 Psychodynamic Treatment Approach49:13 Hope and Treatment for Narcissism50:57 Final Thoughts and ResourcesTo learn more about Dr. Mazella, visit:www.Drmazzella.comTo learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, host Deborah interviews Leila Jones, a certified quantum human design specialist and founder of Vela Mira, about the intricacies of personal transformation. Drawing from her memoir, 'Unpacking My Boxes: A Projector's Journey Home,' Leila discusses breaking free from toxic relationships, the role of self-awareness, boundary setting, and emotional intelligence. She explains human design, the concept of projectors, and the importance of understanding one's energetic makeup for better personal and professional relationships. Leila also shares insights on how she helps clients through her consulting practice by leveraging these concepts.00:00 Introduction to Leila Jones and Her Journey01:09 Unpacking the Boxes: Leila's Memoir08:40 Understanding Human Design13:53 Applying Human Design in Leadership and Teams20:17 Challenges and Personal Growth29:30 Exploring Quantum Human Design46:20 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo download the chart from Leila Jones's website:velamira.comTo connect with the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS:InnerSourceTherapy.com

Host Deborah Asway, a licensed clinical mental health therapist and addiction specialist, discusses the often-overlooked phenomenon of forgetting the bad treatment in manipulative and abusive relationships. This episode explores why it's easy to remember moments of kindness and apologies while forgetting the abuse. Deborah discusses the psychology behind this 'amnesia of toxic treatment,' including survival responses, trauma bonding, and gaslighting. Learn how to recognize and protect yourself from these patterns, reclaim your true self, and start your healing journey. Tune in for practical advice and strategies to regain clarity and truth in your life.00:00 Introduction to Inner Source Healing01:23 Understanding the Amnesia of Toxic Treatment04:35 The Psychology Behind Forgetting Abuse09:56 The Role of Gaslighting and Manipulation21:20 Strategies to Stay Grounded in Truth24:44 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo learn more:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this insightful episode, Dr. Richard Grossman, author of *Trust and Forgive*, shares his journey of blending ancient healing practices with modern therapeutic techniques to help individuals overcome trauma. With over 40 years of experience, Dr. Grossman delves into traditional Asian wisdom and its application in addressing mental health challenges. The discussion covers his personal history of trauma and healing, the transformative power of trust and forgiveness, and practical advice for those seeking healing and support. Dr. Grossman's unique approach bridges spiritual and practical insights, providing listeners with a deeper understanding of the interconnected nature of healing and personal transformation.00:00 Introduction to Dr. Richard Grossman01:23 Dr. Grossman's Early Life and Trauma02:58 Exploring Psychedelics and Spirituality04:17 The Ayahuasca Experience05:20 Trust and Forgiveness: A Life-Changing Realization08:46 The Healing Journey Continues14:19 Understanding Trust and Forgiveness19:47 Breaking the Cycle of Trauma28:52 Exploring Regrets and Unpleasant Memories29:19 Waking Up from the Dream30:12 Understanding Trauma and the Present Moment35:14 Cultural Sensitivities in Healing Practices39:57 The Importance of Seeking Help43:52 Daily Practices for Healing and Growth49:14 The Default Mode Network and Trauma52:00 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo learn more about Dr. Richard Grossman:heartfeather.comTo learn more about host, Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, Deb hosts Dr. Aumatma Simmons, a double board-certified naturopathic endocrinologist and founder of the Holistic Fertility Institute. Dr. Aumatma shares her journey from a toxic relationship to finding her true purpose in fertility work. She discusses the importance of intuition in navigating personal and professional challenges, and outlines how stress, toxic environments, and lifestyle choices impact reproductive health. Dr. Aumatma provides insights into how she guides couples toward natural fertility solutions by leveraging both emotional and physical well-being. She emphasizes the importance of a consistent schedule and adapting dietary and lifestyle changes to create a state of safety in the body, ultimately enhancing reproductive health.00:00 Introduction to Dr. Aumatma Simmons00:48 Personal Journey: From Toxic Relationship to Fertility Expert04:08 Listening to Your Body and Intuition07:31 The Turning Point: Researching Fertility15:58 The Role of Intuition in Decision Making21:06 Applying Intuition in Professional and Personal Life25:44 Working with Clients: Encouraging Intuition27:22 Holistic Approach to Body, Mind, and Spirit27:48 Physical Signals of Unsafe Conditions29:47 Mental and Emotional Factors in Fertility32:28 The Importance of Consistency and Routine36:28 Challenges in Following Holistic Approaches43:55 Commitment and Belief in the Process44:15 Case Study: Overcoming Pain and Fear49:54 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo learn more about Aumatma Simmons and Holistic Fertility Institute:https://holisticfertilityinstitute.com/aboutTo learn more about host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS:www.innersourcetherapy.com

In this episode of 'Healing from Toxic Abuse,' host Deb speaks with Andrea Leeb, author of 'Such A Pretty Picture.' Andrea is a survivor of incest and maternal betrayal, and her memoir offers a raw, courageous look at childhood trauma and the long road to healing from complex PTSD. Andrea discusses her journey to writing the book, the impact of the Me Too movement, and the process of breaking her silence to help others. They explore the dynamics of Andrea's family, the challenges of forgiving a mother who didn't protect her, and the importance of therapy and community support. Throughout the conversation, Andrea emphasizes the power of using one's voice to heal and inspire others. Tune in for an inspiring and emotional discussion about resilience, healing, and advocacy.00:00 Introduction to Andrea Leeb and Her Memoir01:02 The Inspiration Behind 'Such A Pretty Picture'02:15 Writing and Publishing the Memoir04:48 Challenges of Sharing Personal Trauma10:13 The Illusion of a Perfect Family13:31 Unspoken Rules and Silence21:58 Lasting Impact of Childhood Trauma25:45 Healing and Support Systems28:03 Navigating Relationships After Trauma31:08 Struggles with Family and Addiction31:44 Finding Stability in a Partner32:46 Reflections on Past Relationships34:16 The Importance of Sharing Your Story37:05 Navigating Setbacks in Healing42:44 Forgiveness and Family Dynamics52:42 Encouragement for Survivors54:20 Conclusion and ResourcesTo learn more about Andrea Leeb:https://www.andrealeebauthor.com/To connect with host, Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, we delve into the lives of Josh and Heidi Case, co-hosts of the 'Sober Buzz' podcast. Josh, a former executive and co-founder of energy companies, and Heidi, a former stay-at-home mom, share their compelling stories of overcoming addiction and trauma. Josh opens up about his battle with alcoholism, the collapse of his first marriage, his career, and how his life turned around after meeting Heidi. Heidi discusses her traumatic experiences, including childhood molestation, sexual assault, and misdiagnosis of bipolar disorder, which led her through years of unnecessary treatment. Together, they talk about their journey to sobriety, their commitment to healing, and how they are using their podcast to support and inspire others in recovery. Tune in to hear their candid conversation about facing the past, finding love, and creating a new life dedicated to helping others in the recovery community.00:00 Introduction to Josh and Heidi Case02:17 Josh's Journey Through Addiction07:00 Heidi's Story of Trauma and Misdiagnosis09:50 The Turning Point and Sobriety16:49 Creating the Sober Buzz Platform27:44 Confronting Past Traumas28:37 Therapeutic Healing and EMDR30:25 Breaking Free from the Past35:08 Family Relationships and Challenges38:07 Spiritual Beliefs and Practices39:41 Vision for Sober Buzz41:51 Encouragement for Recovery51:57 Final Thoughts and ResourcesTo find Josh and Heidi Case, and Sober.buzz:Youtube Josh Case : SoberbuzzInstagram: @soberbuzztokenTiktok - sober.buzzwww.sober.buzz To learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS:InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, we are joined by Mr. Jay, a renowned betrayal trauma practitioner, as he delves into the complexities of healing from emotional abuse and relational trauma. Mr. Jay explains what betrayal trauma is, how it differs from other traumas, and discusses its profound impact on personal identity. He emphasizes the importance of understanding and addressing past wounds alongside current pain to facilitate true healing. The conversation also explores the role of faith in the recovery process and provides practical strategies for managing triggers and rebuilding trust. Mr. Jay's unique combination of professional expertise and a faith-based approach offers invaluable insights for those on their journey to recovery.00:00 Introduction to Mr. Jay and Betrayal Trauma01:10 Defining Betrayal Trauma02:39 Personalization and Secrecy of Betrayal Trauma04:06 Impact of Betrayal Trauma on Past, Present, and Future04:58 Betrayal Trauma from Suicide and Personal Health06:09 Identity Loss and Co-Creation in Relationships08:35 Rebuilding Trust and Individualized Healing Plans11:13 Role of Faith and Spirituality in Healing12:00 Forgiveness and Self-Love15:04 Challenges in Forgiving the Impact18:47 Willingness to Repair and Rebuild23:48 Patterns of Behavior and Trust25:02 Creating Your Soulmate After Betrayal25:40 Personal Story of Trauma and Healing27:09 Discovering Betrayal Trauma28:56 Challenges in Betrayal Trauma Therapy36:53 Signs of Genuine Effort in Healing37:55 Coping Mechanisms for Triggers44:47 Final Messages of Hope and EncouragementTo learn more about today's guest, Mr. Jay, visit:MRJAYRelationshipCoach.comTo learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:InnerSourceTherapy.com

Healing Through Trauma: Veronica Bubenickova with Cancer RecoveryIn this episode, we are joined by Veronica Bubenickova, author of 'Diary of a Soul Reborn' and a leader in cancer recovery transformation. Veronica shares her personal journey of cancer recovery and the essential role of trauma-informed practices in healing. She discusses the importance of integrating energy-based healing techniques such as somatic experiencing, angelic Reiki, and quantum regression therapy in managing post-treatment stress, particularly for those with a history of childhood trauma or toxic abuse. Veronica provides deep insights into the mind-body connection, intergenerational trauma, and the power of self-love and community in fostering resilience and emotional stability during and after cancer treatment. She also offers practical guidance and resources for anyone navigating a similar path.00:00 Introduction and Guest Introduction01:43 Veronica's Personal Journey into Trauma and Healing04:18 Exploring the Mind-Body Connection14:42 Angelic Reiki and Quantum Regression Therapy17:28 Somatic Experiencing and Post-Treatment Challenges25:53 Integrating Conventional and Alternative Treatments28:04 Veronica's Book and Online Course31:51 The Power of Community and Protection Techniques41:30 Final Thoughts and EncouragementTo learn more about Veronika Bubenickova:www.lotus-journey.com/linksTo learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In the Middle: Navigating the Journey of Eating Disorder Recovery with Mallory TarpleyIn this episode, we sit down with author and advocate Mallary Tenore Tarpley to discuss her upcoming book, 'Slip: Life in the Middle of Eating Disorder Recovery.' Mallory shares her deeply personal journey through anorexia, following the early loss of her mother, and how she transformed her struggle into a source of hope and resilience. With insights from extensive interviews with experts and patients, Mallory addresses the often-overlooked 'middle place' in eating disorder recovery, offering practical strategies and shedding light on misconceptions. Tune in to learn about Mallory's reflections on resilience, her investigative work on eating disorders, and valuable lessons for both those struggling and their loved ones.00:00 Introduction to Mallory's Journey01:18 Mallory's Early Life and Struggles02:47 The Onset of the Eating Disorder06:41 Treatment and Recovery09:41 Defining Resilience20:31 Challenges and Relapses27:49 Support Systems and Therapy36:11 Final Thoughts and Book InformationYou can find SLIP, by Mallary Tenore Tarpley on AmazonTo learn more about Mallary Tenore Tarpley:https://www.mallarytenoretarpley.com/To learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode of the Healing From Toxic Abuse Podcast, host Deborah Ashway is joined by Kimberly Johnson, CEO of Arch Collaborative. Arch Collaborative is a social services network in Redding, CA, supporting victims of domestic violence, child abuse, and human trafficking in Shasta County. Since founding the Children's Legacy Center in 2016, she has secured over $15 million in grants to establish the county's first Children's Advocacy Center, aiding prosecutions while reducing trauma for victims. Ms. Johnson is an alum of the Stanford Business School's LEAD Program, and holds certifications from the National Children's Alliance and the National Native Children's Trauma CenterThis episode discusses trauma-informed care and innovative support systems for trauma survivors. Kimberly shares her work in Northern California, detailing the creation of a Children's Advocacy Center, the challenges and successes in providing services to victims of violence, and the crucial role of interdisciplinary collaboration. This discussion highlights hope, healing, and the transformative potential of coordinated care for those affected by trauma.00:00 Introduction to the Podcast and Guest02:11 Kimberly Johnson's Background and Arch Collaborative03:25 The Children's Advocacy Center Model05:28 Expansion and Rebranding to Arch Collaborative06:59 Challenges and Successes in Trauma-Informed Care09:49 Rural Placement Model for Exploited Children15:05 Systemic Solutions and Coordinated Response20:33 Comprehensive Services for Domestic Violence Victims24:13 Charges Filed and Community Impact25:03 Understanding Non-Physical Abuse26:09 Challenges in Victim Support27:38 Financial Control and Training28:08 Post-COVID Staffing and Services31:18 Behavioral Health and Crisis Services33:26 Law Enforcement and Victim Belief39:44 Supporting Local Trauma Care41:56 Future of Trauma-Informed Care46:14 Conclusion and Contact Information Social Links:https://www.facebook.com/OneSafePlaceShasta/, https://www.facebook.com/childrenslegacycenter/https://www.instagram.com/ospshasta/?hl=enhttps://www.instagram.com/childrenslegacycenter/?hl=enhttps://www.instagram.com/kimberlylanelle/?hl=enhttps://www.linkedin.com/in/kimberly-l-johnson-7803a374

In this episode, Deb interviews Andy Campbell, author of 'Overcoming Life's Toughest Setbacks'. Andy shares his inspiring journey of surviving multiple traumatic events, including childhood abuse, family health issues, his own battle with stage four pancreatic cancer, and the loss of his son. He discusses his 15 core beliefs that provide a framework for resilience and positive change. Andy also highlights the importance of courage, honor, and perseverance in facing life's adversities. The conversation explores deep philosophical insights and practical advice for those dealing with their own setbacks, offering hope and motivation to listeners.00:00 Introduction to Andy Campbell01:29 Andy's Early Life Challenges04:35 Developing Core Beliefs07:00 The Six Foundational Words10:18 Applying Core Beliefs in Life16:19 Understanding Honor and Courage31:01 Facing Pain with Honor31:51 Core Beliefs: No One Outruns the Universe32:14 The Still Small Voice vs. The Loud Voice35:30 Hard Decisions and Hard Consequences35:50 The Journey Through Chemotherapy40:21 Listening to the Quiet Voice45:06 Overview of Core Beliefs48:08 The Importance of Perseverance52:32 Finding Meaning in Life's Challenges55:31 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo learn more about today's guest:askandycampbell.comTo learn more about show host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS or to be a guest on this podcast:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode of Healing from Toxic Abuse Podcast, host Deb Ashway welcomes Ingrid Hu Dahl, an accomplished author, leadership coach, musician, and filmmaker. Ingrid discusses her new memoir 'Sun Shining On Morning Snow' and delves into themes of identity, cultural expectations, resilience, and the journey of self-discovery. Sharing deeply personal experiences, Ingrid touches on her late mother's impact, the complexities of mixed-race identities, and how engaging with one's authentic self can foster deeper human connections and empathy. Listen in as Ingrid shares the wisdom she has gleaned from her journey and the powerful transformation she experienced through writing her memoir.00:00 Welcome and Introduction to Ingrid Udal01:21 The Meaning Behind 'Sun Shining On Morning Snow'02:04 Ingrid's Mother's Journey and Cultural Dynamics03:22 Writing the Memoir: A Healing Process05:39 Themes of Identity and Cultural Expectations07:44 Growing Up Mixed-Race in America12:23 Ingrid's Mother's Legacy and Struggles15:42 Healing and Reconciliation22:23 The Magic of Horses24:34 Embracing Authenticity and Cultural Backgrounds26:10 The Power of Family and Matriarchs26:55 Warrior Spirit and Generational Healing31:21 The Courage of Choice and Living Boldly37:31 The Significance of 'Sun Shining on Morning Snow'41:45 Final Thoughts and Key TakeawaysTo find Ingrid's book, Sun Shining on Morning Snow, visit:https://www.sunshiningonmorningsnow.com/ To be a guest on this podcast or learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode of 'Healing from Toxic Abuse,' host Deborah welcomes Lizzie, a listener who bravely shares her journey of overcoming a toxic relationship. Lizzie recounts her experiences moving from Britain to Spain, navigating cultural differences, and ultimately surviving an abusive marriage. Through candid conversation, Lizzie discusses the emotional and psychological manipulation she faced, the pivotal moments that led to her realization, and the steps she took to reclaim her life. This powerful story highlights the importance of external support, self-belief, and the resources available for those in similar situations. Lizzie's narrative is an inspiration to others facing similar challenges with toxic relationships, reminding listeners that it is possible to find a way out and rebuild a life of independence and happiness.00:00 Introduction and Purpose of the Podcast01:45 Lizzie's Journey: From Britain to Spain03:49 Realizing the Toxicity05:44 The Turning Point: Getting a Stable Job11:32 Recognizing and Accepting the Abuse15:14 Seeking Help and Support20:58 Reporting to the Police and Breaking Free24:34 Taking the First Brave Step25:08 Belief System and Dependency26:33 Rebuilding Self-Reliance27:21 Support Network and Shared Experiences28:18 Understanding the Cycle of Toxic Relationships30:46 Overcoming Manipulation and Finding Clarity35:24 Building a New Life and Shared Custody41:24 Resilience and Future Goalswww.InnerSourceTherapy.com

Holding in Your Truth For Way Too LongBreaking the Cycle: Speaking Your Truth in Toxic RelationshipsWhen you hold in your truth, thoughts, feelings, needs, and wants, for so long, they become impacted. And when you finally do speak your truth, it has the potential to come out way too strong and all wrong.  This episode talks about the consequences of holding back your truth in toxic relationships and provides insights into recognizing and overcoming these patterns. Learn about the signs that you're not speaking from your heart, the effects of suppressing emotions, and how to start voicing your truth safely and effectively. Discover the importance of emotional regulation and reappraisal, and find out how to navigate your healing journey. Reclaim your voice and break free from the cycle of manipulation.00:00 Understanding the Impact of Toxic Relationships00:59 Five Signs You're Holding in Your Truth07:30 The Consequences of Suppressing Emotions13:30 How to Speak Up After Holding Things In16:31 Embracing Your Authentic Self25:23 The Journey of Healing and GrowthTo learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

Kate Russell is an accomplished author and memoirist, well-known for her powerful and thought-provoking works such as "Ironing Out My Life." In this episode, we will be discussing her memoir, which explores the long-lasting impact of child abuse on various aspects of life.Throughout her career, Kate has gained a strong following and recognition for her authentic and heartfelt storytelling. Her books, including "Ironing Out My Life" and others in the "Portrait of a Dysfunctional Family" series, address the challenges of overcoming a difficult past and the resilience required to navigate the lasting effects of trauma.As a seasoned writer, Kate shares her personal experiences in a way that resonates with readers who have faced similar struggles. Her work sheds light on the importance of self-reflection, healing, and personal growth in the aftermath of abusive environments.Kate's powerful storytelling and commitment to raising awareness about the impact of abuse make her an influential figure in the realm of memoirs and personal development literature.In this episode, the host, Deborah Ashway, welcomes Kate Russell to discuss her deeply personal journey of growing up in a toxic environment marked by child abuse, addiction, and generational trauma. Kate shares her experiences with alcoholic and drug-addicted parents, the impact of these dynamics on her life, and her path to recovery and resilience. She discusses the raw and honest truth of her memoir, the importance of confronting one's past, breaking cycles of abuse, and the healing potential of sharing personal stories. Kate also talks about her writing process, challenges, and how her belief system and intuition have guided her through recovery. The episode touches upon her career as an actor, her future plans, and the significance of maintaining a connection with her 'God voice' for hope and resilience.00:00 Introduction to Kate Russell and Her Memoir01:35 The Story Behind 'Ironing Out My Life'02:31 Kate's Early Life and Family Background03:25 Impact of Parental Addiction and Abuse07:16 Kate's Journey to Sobriety and Healing18:48 Challenges in Writing the Memoir26:28 Navigating Audition Anxiety27:21 Embracing Authenticity in Acting30:15 The Battle of Internal Voices32:06 Addressing Childhood Trauma38:09 The Journey to Sobriety41:35 Reflecting on Recovery and Belief45:18 Complex Relationship with Mother48:31 Future Plans and Book PromotionTo learn more about today's guest, Kate Russell, visit:KateRussellAuthor.comTo learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.comAmazonkaterussellauthor.com

In this episode, we are joined by Tara Sundem, co-founder of Hushabye Nursery, the nation's first nursery focused on neonatal abstinence syndrome (NAS). Tara shares insights from her three decades of experience as a neonatal nurse practitioner and discusses the groundbreaking work Hushabye Nursery is doing to support pregnant and parenting families struggling with substance use. She details the nursery's holistic approach that involves creating a calm environment for babies and providing comprehensive support for the parents, helping families stay unified and thrive. Tara emphasizes the importance of addressing stigma, building trust, and offering hope to transform lives. Despite challenges, including recent federal funding cuts, Hushabye Nursery remains committed to its mission of giving every baby a healthy start. Tara's compelling narrative and dedication highlight the critical impact of specialized care for NAS and the potential for positive outcomes even in challenging situations.00:00 Introduction to Tara Sundem and HBA Nursery00:46 Mission and Vision of HBA Nursery01:14 Challenges Faced by Families01:40 Support and Hope for Families03:20 Tara's Journey and Inspiration04:37 Creating a Healing Environment09:48 Behavioral Health and Medical Integration12:56 Challenges in Providing Care19:44 Success Rates and Follow-Up25:29 Foster Care Challenges and Creative Solutions25:57 Support Systems for New Mothers27:48 Family Involvement and Tough Love28:55 Success Stories and Continuous Support30:30 Addressing Stigma and Educating on Addiction36:23 Overcoming Family Skepticism 43:22 Future Plans and How to Support Hushabye NurseryTo learn more about today's guest, Tara Sundem, visit:https://hushabyenursery.orgTo learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this insightful episode, Julian Bermudez, a dedicated practitioner specializing in psychedelic integration work, shares his journey and expertise in helping individuals navigate through trauma and rediscover their authentic selves. Julian discusses the historical and spiritual significance of psychedelic experiences, the fundamental aspects of self-inquiry and emotional development, and the integration of these practices within modern therapeutic settings. He emphasizes the importance of re-connecting with oneself and highlights transformative success stories experienced by his clients. Through a blend of direct therapeutic techniques and psychedelic experiences, Julian's work aims to heal deep-rooted pain and promote personal transformation. Listeners gain profound insights into the potential healing power of psychedelic therapy and how it challenges and complements traditional mental health approaches.00:00 Introduction to Julian Bermudez and His Work00:49 Julian's Journey into Psychedelic Integration01:46 Understanding Psychedelic Integration04:17 Traditional Therapy vs. Psychedelic Integration06:14 Navigating Pain and Defense Mechanisms07:50 Building a Practice of Self-Inquiry08:53 The Role of Psychedelics in Therapy12:27 The Science Behind Psychedelic Experiences17:22 Protective Mechanisms and Reprogramming21:12 Case Study: Addressing Toxic Relationships22:09 Understanding Early Life Adaptations23:08 The Conflict Between Attachment and Authenticity24:26 Recognizing and Addressing Unmet Needs25:58 Building Self-Compassion and Self-Care Practices26:50 The Role of Psychedelic Experiences in Healing28:10 Navigating Altered States and Protector Parts33:01 Transformative Breakthroughs and Success Stories38:13 The Future of Psychedelic Integration in Mental Health41:10 Key Takeaways on Healing and Transformation42:46 Closing Remarks and Contact InformationTo learn more about today's guest, Julian Bermudez, visit:psychedelic-integration.netTo learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, host Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, welcomes De'Ann Richter, head coach at Breast Cancer Conqueror, to discuss the interplay between traditional and holistic approaches to health, particularly in the context of breast cancer recovery. De'Ann shares her journey from working in health food stores with her grandmother to becoming a surgical trauma nurse and advocate for integrative medicine. The conversation turns to the 'Seven Essentials System,', which includes guidelines like using food as medicine, reducing toxic exposure, balancing energy, healing emotional wounds, and more. De'Ann emphasizes the importance of personalized care, stress management, and the mind-body connection in cancer treatment. The discussion also covers common misconceptions about holistic medicine and offers advice for those newly diagnosed with breast cancer to empower themselves and take control of their healing journey.00:00 Introduction to Deanne Richter01:23 Deanne's Early Influences and Nursing Career03:33 The Seven Essentials System08:19 The Importance of Emotional Health in Cancer18:11 Advice for Newly Diagnosed Breast Cancer Patients23:39 Effective Stress Management Techniques24:03 Exploring EFT Tapping for Stress Relief25:26 Tailoring Stress Management Approaches26:43 Monitoring Inflammation and Health Markers31:52 Balancing Traditional and Natural Treatments34:29 The Importance of Belief Systems in Healing36:48 Staying Informed and Expanding Knowledge38:03 Future of Integrative Medicine41:06 Empowering Patients in Their Health Journey45:03 Conclusion and Contact InformationTo learn more about today's guest, De'Ann Richter, visit:https://breastcancerconqueror.comcoaching@breastcancerconqueror.comTo learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, we discuss the multifaceted world of music therapy with guest Crystal Luk-Worrall, an HCPC registered music therapist, EMDR therapist, and clinical supervisor based in London, UK. Crystal shares her journey from being a musician to a therapist, emphasizing the importance of combining music and emotional wellbeing. She talks about her work with the adoption community, the role of music in processing trauma, and how music therapy differs from traditional talk therapy. Crystal also talks about the challenges and misconceptions in music therapy, how music can be used to regulate emotions, and how parents can use musical techniques at home to support their children. The conversation wraps up with insights on the importance of love, co-regulation, and the supportive role of music and imagery in EMDR therapy.00:00 Introduction to Crystal Luk-Worrall00:54 Crystal's Journey into Music Therapy03:24 Understanding Music Therapy05:32 Music Therapy Techniques and Benefits17:27 Incorporating EMDR with Music Therapy24:41 Challenges and Insights in Therapy35:34 Advice for Parents and Caregivers38:40 Conclusion and Contact InformationTo learn more about today's guest, Crystal Luk-Worrall, visit:ClapAndToot.comTo learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, Deborah hosts Inaya Oakroot, a spiritual guide and founder of Oakroot Spiritual Academy. Inaya shares her journey of healing and overcoming adversity, emphasizing the importance of aligning with one's authentic purpose. She discusses the significance of planetary sounds, crystals, and creative expression in the healing process. Inaya also explains the role of the Akashic records in healing past traumas and breaking free from toxic relationships. The conversation explores the intricate balance between the physical and spiritual realms and offers practical strategies for those seeking to heal from toxic relationships and personal traumas.00:00 Introduction and Guest Introduction01:30 Anaya's Personal Journey02:42 Healing Through Creativity and Spirituality06:45 The Power of Planetary Sounds and Crystals09:32 Understanding Balance and Duality12:35 Anaya's Work and Services19:03 The Akashic Records and Higher Self24:04 Healing from Toxic Abuse29:44 Escaping the Victim Triangle30:20 Practical Strategies for Breaking Free30:27 The Power of High Frequency Sounds30:53 Understanding Negative Thoughts31:53 The Role of Acceptance32:19 Exploring High Frequency Sounds34:51 Impact of Low Frequency Sounds35:32 Aligning Body and Soul37:25 Healing Through Sound38:45 Akashic Records and Healing51:43 Daily Practices for Self-Care53:50 Final Thoughts and Contact InformationTo learn more about today's guest, Inaya Oakroot:www.oakrootspiritualacademy.comTo learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMCHS, LCAS:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, we are joined by Dr. Emma Jones, a seasoned pediatric hospice and palliative care physician. Dr. Jones discusses her bestselling book, 'The Phoenix Blueprint: Rising Stronger from the Blaze of Healthcare,' which provides practical advice for recovery from burnout based on her personal experiences. She also elaborates on her online group coaching program, Unstuck, which helps clinicians reimagine their roles without compromising their well-being. Dr. Jones shares poignant stories from her palliative care work, illustrates the transformative power of community-minded care, and underscores the importance of recognizing and addressing burnout early. She emphasizes the need for self-care, meaningful work, and the benefits of cultivating a sense of purpose. The episode offers insights into creating sustainable healthcare practices and empowering healthcare professionals to thrive both personally and professionally.00:00 Introduction to Dr. Emma Jones01:20 The Emotional Impact of Pediatric Palliative Care04:08 Remarkable Stories of Siblings in Care07:56 Understanding Children's Grief09:55 Dr. Jones' Personal Journey with Burnout14:29 The Phoenix Blueprint: Steps to Recovery17:30 Recognizing and Addressing Burnout21:04 The Unstuck Program: Realigning Healthcare Careers23:18 Empowering Through Mission Statements23:54 Unstuck Program: A Hybrid Approach24:09 Success Stories from Unstuck24:57 The Importance of Vision and Trade-offs26:28 Widening the Scope of Life27:39 Cultivating Purpose to Overcome Burnout29:09 The Role of Identity in Personal Growth31:36 Reclaiming and Redefining Identities40:22 Living in the Present Moment42:23 Final Words of WisdomTo learn more about today's guest, Dr. Emma Jones:www.Emmajonesmd.com To learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMCHS, LCAS:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, Sydney Curtin shares her inspiring journey of overcoming personal trauma and her dedication to child-centered adoption practices. Growing up with a mother struggling with addiction, mental illness and dealing with significant family challenges, Sydney chose to channel her experiences into actionable advocacy. Through her work, including drafting a powerful adoption reform book, she aims to educate and guide both biological and adoptive parents to ensure ethical adoption practices. Sydney discusses the importance of legislative changes, her advocacy efforts in Idaho, and how her faith sustained her through hardships. With a focus on healing and growth, Sydney's story serves as a beacon of hope and transformation for others navigating similar struggles.00:00 Introduction to Sydney Curtin01:22 Sydney's Early Life and Family Struggles02:48 The Impact of Labels and Misdiagnoses04:21 Turning Pain into Purpose12:36 Challenges with Adoption and Advocacy24:14 Ineffective Communication in Relationships25:19 A Life-Changing Sermon27:16 Struggles and Rebellion28:14 The Adoption Decision32:56 Adoption Reform Advocacy39:11 Challenges in Adoption Reform46:31 Final Words of Wisdom To learn more about today's guest, Sydney Curtin:Sydneycurtin@curtincall.comTo learn more about the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMCHS, LCAS:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, host Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, welcomes De'Ann Richter, head coach at Breast Cancer Conqueror, to discuss the interplay between traditional and holistic approaches to health, particularly in the context of breast cancer recovery. De'Ann shares her journey from working in health food stores with her grandmother to becoming a surgical trauma nurse and advocate for integrative medicine. The conversation turns to the 'Seven Essentials System,', which includes guidelines like using food as medicine, reducing toxic exposure, balancing energy, healing emotional wounds, and more. De'Ann emphasizes the importance of personalized care, stress management, and the mind-body connection in cancer treatment. The discussion also covers common misconceptions about holistic medicine and offers advice for those newly diagnosed with breast cancer to empower themselves and take control of their healing journey.00:00 Introduction to Deanne Richter01:23 Deanne's Early Influences and Nursing Career03:33 The Seven Essentials System08:19 The Importance of Emotional Health in Cancer18:11 Advice for Newly Diagnosed Breast Cancer Patients23:39 Effective Stress Management Techniques24:03 Exploring EFT Tapping for Stress Relief25:26 Tailoring Stress Management Approaches26:43 Monitoring Inflammation and Health Markers31:52 Balancing Traditional and Natural Treatments34:29 The Importance of Belief Systems in Healing36:48 Staying Informed and Expanding Knowledge38:03 Future of Integrative Medicine41:06 Empowering Patients in Their Health Journey45:03 Conclusion and Contact InformationPubMed.gov (https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/)https://breastcancerconqueror.comcoaching@breastcancerconqueror.com

If you've contemplated leaving a toxic relationship but then get confused and question your decision because of the 'good times,' then this episode is for you. This episode explores the fluctuating dynamics of toxic relationships, focusing on the cycle of extremes in good and bad experiences, which leads to abuse and trauma bonding. The host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, discusses the psychological tactics used by abusers, including intermittent reinforcement and love bombing, to maintain control over their victims. The discussion includes insights from the book 'Why Does He Do That?' by Lundy Bancroft and findings from Chuck Derry's research on abusive men. The episode emphasizes the ways to influence the release from the cycle and the importance of recognizing these manipulative behaviors, setting boundaries, and reclaiming one's sense of self. Deborah offers advice on moving forward and the benefits of cutting ties with manipulative individuals.00:00 Introduction to Toxic Relationships00:46 Understanding Trauma Bonding01:49 The Cycle of Abuse03:31 Do Abusers Know What They're Doing?05:29 Benefits Abusers Gain11:49 Motivations to Stop Abuse14:35 Empowerment and Setting Boundaries18:17 Personal Reflections and Moving ForwardTo learn more or connect with the host visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, our special guest Corey Levy, co-founder of We Inspect and a leading expert in indoor environmental health, shares his journey and insights into the profound effects of mold and other hidden environmental toxins on our physical and mental wellbeing. Levy discusses the history of his family's involvement in indoor air quality, the evolution of his company, and the critical connection between environmental health and chronic illnesses. He explains the various ways mold can impact the body, the importance of identifying signs of mold in homes, and effective strategies for remediation. Levy also addresses the challenges of acknowledging environmental factors in health issues and provides advice for those suspecting mold-related health problems. The episode emphasizes the importance of awareness and proactive measures to create healthier living environments.00:00 Introduction to Corey Levy and His Work01:07 Corey's Journey into Indoor Environmental Health05:08 Understanding Mold and Its Health Impacts12:30 Identifying Mold in Your Home14:57 Steps to Address Mold Issues21:35 Challenges in Recognizing Environmental Toxins26:07 Advice for Suspecting Mold in Your Home30:03 Resources and Support for Mold Issues41:24 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo learn more about Corey Levy:YesWeInspect.comTheDustTest .com@moldfindersTo connect with the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, we are joined by Diana Esther, an acclaimed author, poet, speaker, transformational coach, and inspirational teacher. Diana shares her remarkable life story, including her recovery from lymphatic cancer and her extraordinary journey from the dark times in the Soviet Union to becoming a beacon of light and wisdom. She discusses her path to discovering the importance of inner light, her battle with cancer, and how she uses her personal experiences to help others transform their lives. Diana also speaks on the power of self-love, understanding, and the innate potential every individual has to connect with their true self for healing and growth.00:00 Introduction to Diana Esther01:15 Diana's Early Life in the Soviet Union03:18 Struggles and Inner Strength09:34 Journey to Freedom16:31 Discovering the Diamond Within24:52 The Power of Connection and Transformation28:41 Understanding Innate Awareness29:28 Breaking Free from Limiting Beliefs30:38 The Power of Desire and Free Will31:09 Elevating Consciousness32:58 Connecting with Inner Light34:50 Overcoming Adversity: A Personal Journey38:42 Miraculous Recovery from Cancer46:01 The Role of Diet in Healing53:10 Empowerment through Self-Love54:58 Final Thoughts and ResourcesTo contact or learn more about Diana Esther, or her book, The Diamond Within visit:diana.berschader@gmail.com

Breaking Free: Embrace Your True Self and Let Go of These Toxic PeopleIn this empowering episode, we dig into the hard part of the journey of healing, which is letting go. You have to set boundaries in order to reclaim your authentic self. The focus is on letting go of toxic relationships and people who thrive on your submissive and people-pleasing nature. As you start putting yourself first and saying 'no' without guilt, some people will undoubtedly get upset. However, this transformation is key for your mental, emotional, and physical health. Learn to identify the signs that you are being used. Celebrate your growth as you let go and embrace the inevitable changes that come with setting boundaries. The changes are sometimes hard, but always beneficial to you.  This episode encourages you to push past the fear of judgment and criticism to become the most authentic and inspired version of yourself, ultimately attracting genuine support and healthier relationships.00:00 Empowering Yourself Against Naysayers01:35 Recognizing Toxic Relationships02:22 The Cost of People Pleasing03:00 Embracing Your True Self03:53 The Transformation and Its Impact05:39 Facing Resistance and Manipulation07:26 Breaking Free and Setting Boundaries19:01 The Importance of Self-Improvement21:03 Practical Steps for Self-Care23:27 Conclusion: Embrace the ChangeTo learn more or connect with host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS visit:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, Lori Pappas, a humanitarian and entrepreneur, shares her inspiring journey of overcoming personal struggles and transforming them into catalysts for growth and positive change. Lori's life story includes surviving a tumultuous childhood and being forced in to a mental institution in the 1960s by her over-religous parents. Pioneering as one of the first women in computer sales, and founding an international charity in Ethiopia, her insights on inner peace, self-discovery, and resilience are deeply explored. Her book 'The Magic of Yes,' offers pathways for finding inner peace through self-reflection and the 'DREAM' framework. Lori also touches on concepts such as self-compassion, forgiveness, and overcoming negative self-talk. Listeners are encouraged to reflect on their own journeys and leave feedback to help further the discussion on achieving inner peace and happiness.00:00 Introduction to Lori Pappas00:56 Early Life Struggles and Resilience04:27 Breaking Barriers in the Tech Industry07:53 Humanitarian Work in Africa12:23 The Magic of Yes: Lori's Book17:18 The Dream Framework Explained20:36 Cultivating Courage and Setting Boundaries24:50 Reincarnation and Past Lives25:37 The Power of Reflection26:18 Visions of Past Lives28:42 The Difference in This Life29:50 Inner Peace and Self-Reflection30:43 Sticky Thoughts and Self-Love34:11 Overcoming Negative Self-Talk36:27 Fostering Self-Compassion42:14 Final Thoughts and ResourcesTo learn more or contact Lori Pappas:www.LoriPappas.comPlease reach out to Lori Pappas about joining the Wisewomen sisterhoodEmail: lori@loripappas.comTo contact host Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, award-winning and best selling author Kennerly Clay discusses her memoir, 'Letters from East of Nowhere; Daddy's Words to Live, Drink & Die By' offering valuable insights into forgiveness, dealing with family complexities, and the journey of personal growth and healing. If you're a fan of ‘The Glass Castle' and ‘Lit' then you'll love hearing about Kennerly's life. She shares her personal experiences with recovery, the impact of past traumas, and the challenge of navigating toxic relationships. Kennerly highlights the significance of authentic communication and resilience in the face of adversity while recounting the compelling influence of her father and the power of letter writing. Kennerly offers her wisdom on the challenges of healing from toxic abuse. This conversation offers timely advice for anyone facing unresolved familial and emotional issues. 00:00 Introduction and Guest Welcome01:16 Kennerly's Journey to Sobriety02:05 Writing as a Healing Process03:28 Father-Daughter Relationship Dynamics06:19 The Power of Forgiveness11:22 Navigating Complex Family Dynamics20:01 Embracing Sobriety at a Young Age23:03 Exploring Resilience and Overcoming Disappointments25:44 Introducing the Book: Letters from East of Nowhere26:01 The Story Behind the Book's Title and Content29:11 Impact of a Troubled Parent on Family Dynamics33:17 Understanding Forgiveness and Personal Growth36:41 Recognizing and Dealing with Triggers39:16 Final Thoughts and Where to Find More InformationTo learn more about Kennerly Clay:www.LettersFromEastOfNowhere.comTo contact host Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this episode, host Deborah introduces Melanie Weller, a pioneer in mental health and holistic healing. Melanie discusses her approach of integrating intuition into clinical practice and how she has evolved her unique practice over 30 years. By focusing on the vagus nerve, Melanie reveals the profound connection between physical and emotional wellbeing and discusses the significance of time perception and processing in various health diagnoses. The conversation delves into the integration of ancient mythology and astrology with modern science, offering transformative solutions for those struggling with chronic pain, mental health challenges, and the aftermath of toxic abuse. Melanie shares practical exercises like helical breathing and discusses the broader implications of her work, aiming for a deeper understanding and healing of the mind, body, and soul.00:00 Introduction and Guest Welcome01:13 Melanie's Journey into Integrating Intuition04:56 Understanding the Vagus Nerve08:28 The Connection Between Intuition and the Vagus Nerve14:54 Practical Techniques for Vagus Nerve Decompression18:55 Ancient Wisdom and Modern Science25:43 Imaginal Exercises and Metaphors in Healing27:34 Astrology and the Body's Clock27:50 Time Perception and Mental Health28:38 Cerebellum and Emotional Coordination31:54 Finger Tapping Exercise for Healing40:33 Astrology, Mythology, and Healing42:55 Healing from Toxic Abuse46:26 Conclusion and ResourcesTo contact Melanie Weller:www.melanieweller.com You can also listen to Melanie's podcast: Fearless PresenceTo contact Deborah Ashway:www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

In this insightful episode of Healing from Toxic Abuse, host Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS welcomes Thomas LaGrave Jr., LCSW, an expert with over 35 years in the field of adolescent mental health. Thomas, a former Navy SEAL and currently a licensed clinical social worker, shares his compelling journey from addiction to recovery and his dedication to helping young individuals. He discusses his book 'Special Welfare Social Warfare' and the Honor Bound Academy, a nonprofit aimed at providing a rite of passage for adolescents. The episode covers his personal story, insights into the mental health challenges faced by today's youth, and the importance of creating supportive environments to foster youths on the verge of adulthood.TheHonorBoundAcademy.org00:00 Introduction to Thomas J. La Grave Jr.01:24 Thomas's Personal Journey with Addiction01:58 From Navy SEAL to Recovery03:30 Finding Purpose Through Helping Adolescents06:15 Educational Pursuits and Professional Growth08:05 Insights from 'Special Welfare Social Warfare'11:49 Generational Analysis and Youth Challenges19:47 The Honor Bound Academy: Vision and Structure25:16 Mental Health Challenges for Adolescents Today28:53 Struggles with Addiction and Technology29:10 Reeducating Phone Usage30:35 Honor Bound Academy's Approach30:39 Building Self-Esteem and Confidence30:54 Using Nature and Challenges as Tools31:37 Addressing Failures and Learning33:51 The Role of Parents in Child Development34:41 The Power of Love in Recovery36:39 Challenges in Modern Parenting46:56 The Importance of Trust and Accountability49:11 Conclusion and Contact Information

In this episode, the host interviews Dr. Michelle Sherman, a clinical psychologist and author, known for her work on family dynamics related to mental health and trauma. Dr. Sherman talks about her books, 'Loving Someone with a Mental Illness or History of Trauma: Skills, Hope, and Strength for Your Journey' and 'I'm Not Alone: A Teen's Guide to Living with a Parent Who Has a Mental Illness or History of Trauma.' She shares her journey, professional experiences, and personal motivations for focusing on this field. The discussion centers on the importance of understanding mental health symptoms, the impact of parental mental illness on children, and the need for self-care and boundary setting for family members. Dr. Sherman also emphasizes the significance of community support and resources for managing these challenges. The episode concludes with a call to action for better awareness and support systems for families dealing with mental health issues.00:00 Introduction and Guest Background01:04 Dr. Sherman's Career and Contributions01:37 Personal Motivations and Early Work04:02 Book Structure and Purpose06:38 Teen Resilience and Prevention10:00 Understanding Mental Health Symptoms14:58 Impact on Adolescents and Families18:21 Challenges and Support Systems25:28 Identifying Toxic Relationships26:29 Recognizing Behavioral Patterns28:36 Approaching with Kindness and Curiosity31:46 Collaborating with Family35:46 Setting Boundaries and Self-Care41:06 Future Plans and Mission

“What do you mean I'm avoiding? I'm facing everything head on.” I hear this frequently and sometimes catch myself  in a state of avoidance.  It takes a lot of self-reflection and awareness to notice this. Avoidance can be a natural built-in protective tendency in our body's nervous system. We might not even realize when our bodies are keeping us from processing, cleaning out and re-writing the script.  In this episode, we delve into the concept of avoidance and its detrimental effects on us and how it can keep us stuck in toxic or unhealthy relationships. The discussion covers the nature of avoidance, its origins as a protective mechanism, and the ways it perpetuates anxiety and physical tension. By avoiding negative emotions, we hinder our healing process and allow manipulative individuals to undermine our self-confidence and self-worth. The episode explores strategies to overcome avoidance, emphasizing self-awareness, self-compassion, and the importance of rebuilding social networks. Practical steps, such as journaling, setting boundaries, and gradually facing uncomfortable emotions, are highlighted to foster personal growth and emotional resilience.00:00 Understanding Avoidance: The Root of Being Stuck03:19 The Impact of Avoidance on Mental and Physical Health07:25 Manipulation and Self-Confidence: The Vicious Cycle17:57 Breaking the Cycle: Steps to Overcome Avoidance22:40 Rebuilding Social Networks and Facing Emotions28:24 Practical Tips for Pushing Through Avoidance

Exploring Neuroplastic Pain: Insights from Dr. David ClarkeIn this episode, host Deborah interviews Dr. David Clarke, President of the Association for Treatment of Neuroplastic Symptoms (ATNS). They discuss the chronic pain epidemic, neuroplasticity, and its link to stress-related and brain-generated medical conditions. Dr. Clarke highlights various conditions such as fibromyalgia, migraines, and chronic fatigue as examples of neuroplastic pain. He emphasizes the importance of understanding one's life stressors and adverse childhood experiences (ACEs) in diagnosing and treating these conditions. Deborah and Dr. Clarke also delve into the effectiveness of pain relief psychotherapy compared to traditional CBT. They underscore the essential role of self-esteem and the accurate understanding of personal experiences in relieving chronic pain and stress symptoms. The conversation sheds light on the necessity for modern healthcare to incorporate these insights for better patient outcomes.00:00 Introduction to Dr. David Clarke and ATNS00:58 Understanding Neuroplasticity03:04 Chronic Pain and Stress Connection05:52 Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) and Chronic Illness12:56 Pain Relief Psychotherapy and Its Effectiveness18:31 Differences Between CBT and Pain Relief Psychology24:54 The Language of Physical Symptoms28:28 Protective Programs and Boundary Setting29:01 Impact of Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs)29:42 Rebuilding Self-Esteem30:51 Therapeutic Techniques and Exercises31:56 The Role of Affirmations33:42 Understanding False Belief Systems34:10 Brain and Body Connection35:49 Journey into Gastroenterology and Neuroplasticity43:52 Challenges in Modern Healthcare45:26 The Importance of Collaboration in Healthcare46:05 Subtle Forms of Toxicity47:17 Patient Resistance and Acceptance49:27 The Power of Placebo and Effective Treatments51:20 Success Stories and TransformationsTo learn more visit: Symptomatic.Me

In this episode, I have the privilege of talking to Kim Davis, the multifaceted talent behind the true crime podcast, 'Slaycation'. Known for her diverse background in performing arts, social work, and raising awareness on domestic violence, Kim dives deep into her passion for true crime and storytelling. She discusses how her podcast began, the psychological aspects of crime, and the importance of recognizing red flags in relationships. Additionally, she candidly shares personal stories about her battle with cancer and how it has shaped her perspective on life and personal boundaries. The conversation also includes insights into maintaining healthy relationships and overcoming personal trauma.00:00 Introduction to Kim Davis01:26 Kim's Journey into True Crime Podcasting03:26 Exploring Human Behavior and True Crime04:55 Kim's Work in Domestic Violence05:53 Personal Reflections on Abuse and Healing08:27 Balancing Seriousness and Humor in True Crime10:53 Recognizing Red Flags in Relationships20:21 Kim's Personal Journey and Therapy29:44 Navigating Boundaries in Relationships32:10 Parenting Challenges and Insights38:50 Overcoming Cancer: A Personal Journey46:27 The Power of a Supportive Home52:21 Lifelong Learning in Marriage53:32 Final Reflections and Gratitude

In this episode of the 'Healing from Toxic Abuse' podcast, Deborah welcomes Sean Kenny, author of 'Out of Step: A Memoir of a Life Misled.' Sean shares an emotional and introspective account of his personal journey, touching on themes of family, identity, and the long-lasting impact of toxic abuse. His memoir covers the eye-opening realizations that led him to rewrite his understanding of past events, revealing multiple layers of hidden truths about his family dynamics, particularly focusing on the revelations about his father and sister. The conversation delves into Sean's journey of self-discovery, the challenges of sharing deeply personal experiences, and the transformative power of writing.00:00 Introduction to Sean Kenny and His Memoir01:05 Sean's Dual Life: Engineer and Author02:27 A Family Vacation That Changed Everything03:36 Revelations and Family Secrets06:30 Questioning the Past: A New Perspective09:16 The Impact of Writing on Healing16:25 The Role of Memoirs in Healing36:15 Final Thoughts and Resources'Out of Step: A Memoir of a Life Misled' on Amazon.To contact Sean Kenny: seankennyauthor@gmail.com

The Hidden Dangers of People Pleasing: Identifying and Overcoming People Pleasing HabitsIn this episode, we dive into the complex world of people pleasing, a behavior often linked to toxic relationships. We explore the origins, signs, and detrimental impacts of people pleasing, including how it fosters low self-esteem, burnout, and unhealthy relationships. Key points include the importance of identifying personal needs and boundaries, and the necessity of self-compassion in overcoming these habits. The episode also highlights the skills developed by people pleasers and the importance of shifting from external to internal validation to foster genuine connections and personal growth.00:00 Introduction to People Pleasing00:15 Defining People Pleasing02:19 Signs You Might Be a People Pleaser04:51 The Consequences of People Pleasing09:19 Skills and Misconceptions of People Pleasers21:03 Root Causes of People Pleasing24:21 How to Stop Being a People Pleaser26:47 Setting Boundaries and Practicing Self-Compassion30:58 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

In this episode, we meet Mark McNicol, the creator of Anonymous Drama Therapy, an innovative program making profound impacts in prisons and rehab centers by fostering emotional resilience through creative expression. Mark shares his journey from mainstream theater to developing this groundbreaking approach, addressing inherited trauma among individuals with substance use disorders. He delves into the unique processes and therapeutic intent of the program, the role of anonymity, and the integration of AI tools to assist facilitators. This episode offers insights into the powerful intersection of art, psychology, and healing. 00:00 Introduction to Mark McNicol and Anonymous Drama Therapy 01:03 Mark's Journey into Drama Therapy 01:35 First Experience in Prison Theatre 02:48 The Impact and Evolution of the Program 10:24 Therapeutic Intent and Anonymous Drama 11:19 Differences Between Psychodrama, Drama Therapy, and Anonymous Drama 15:30 Challenges and Safeguarding in Sessions 17:12 Participant Feedback and Program Expansion 25:49 Incorporating AI Tools in Drama Therapy 33:46 Personal Inspirations and Spiritual Connections 50:40 Conclusion and Contact Information Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@markmacnicol?app=desktop LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/markmacnicol/ Website: https://www.markmacnicol.com/

What is the most important factor in healing? In this episode, we explore the integral role of accountability in personal growth. We look into how accountability fosters self-awareness, emotional maturity, trust, respect, and healthy relationships. The discussion highlights the contrast between accountable individuals and those within the dark triad, such as narcissists, who struggle with this concept due to their fragile ego and lack of empathy. We explore various tactics these individuals use to avoid responsibility, like gaslighting and denial. Strategies to handle such individuals, from setting boundaries to seeking professional help, are also discussed. Additionally, we touch upon accountability from various spiritual perspectives, emphasizing its universal importance in personal evolution. 00:00 Introduction to Accountability and Personal Growth 00:26 The Role of Accountability in Relationships 00:42 Narcissism and Lack of Accountability 01:13 Building Problem-Solving Skills Through Accountability 01:38 Trust and Self-Respect Through Accountability 03:05 Empowerment and Self-Correction 03:30 The Importance of Self-Reflection 04:00 Challenges in Relationships with Narcissists 04:20 Psychological Factors Behind Lack of Accountability 09:17 Examples of Avoiding Accountability 16:35 Dealing with People Who Avoid Accountability 27:09 Conclusion: The Fundamental Nature of Accountability

In this compelling episode, Gloria Grace Rand, known as the Light Messenger, discusses her path of self-discovery and spiritual awakening. Gloria shares insights from her life, including her journey with her sister's cancer diagnosis, her divorce, and her upbringing in a challenging family environment. She reveals how these experiences influenced her work as an inspirational speaker, author, and spiritual business coach. Gloria talks about the importance of overcoming limiting beliefs, trusting one's higher self, and creating a life of joy, love, and abundance. She also touches on themes from her book 'Live, Love, Engage,' detailing her strategies for healing and personal growth. Tune in for a deep dive into her methods for helping mission-driven entrepreneurs and individuals heal and transform their lives. 00:00 Introduction to Gloria Grace Rand 01:25 Creating a Dream Life 01:42 Navigating Divorce and Personal Growth 07:22 Childhood and Family Dynamics 17:15 Impact of Sister's Cancer Diagnosis 23:13 Writing the Book: Live, Love, Engage 27:02 Finding Inspiration in Music 27:49 Overcoming Writing Obstacles 30:02 The Power of Dedication and Timing 33:25 Helping Others Through Coaching 36:29 The Importance of Asking for Help 42:11 Connecting with Higher Power 45:00 Advice for Those in Manipulative Relationships 48:45 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

In this episode, we go further into the concept of gaslighting, building on the foundation laid in a previous episode. We look at how gaslighting manipulates your internal reality, and how it can cause long term effects, as explored through Anil Seth's theory of consciousness and controlled hallucinations. The question of ‘Who Am I', is examined, because after being in a toxic relationship, your sense of self changes. You begin to loose confidence as your reality gets twisted and manipulated. The episode breaks down Seth's ideas of identity and reality, conceptualized through his explanation of self-continuity, change blindness, and predictive processing. This concept applies to understanding how gaslighting influences our perception of ourselves and reality. Practical advice on recognizing and responding to gaslighting behavior is also provided, empowering you to trust your reality and protect your psychological well-being. When you can trust your reality, you can regain your sense of self, and therefore, your confidence. 00:00 Introduction and Recap 00:33 Understanding Gaslighting and Internal Reality 01:18 Anil Seth's Theory on Consciousness 02:06 Change Blindness and Self-Perception 07:13 Predictive Processing and Sensory Inputs 09:21 Gaslighting in Toxic Relationships 19:05 Recognizing and Responding to Gaslighting 26:12 Protecting Yourself from Gaslighting 28:39 Trusting Yourself and Healing To contact the host or participate on the podcast: www.InnerSourceTherapy.com

Sugar as a toxin: In this episode, the host welcomes Mike Collins, a renowned expert in sugar addiction, to discuss the often overlooked issue of sugar addiction and its impact on overall well-being. If you don't have a goal for 2025, you'll want to consider reducing or eliminating sugar after hearing what Mike has to say. Mike shares his personal journey, which started with his family's history of sugar dependence and how it affected him throughout his life. He also elaborates on the similarities between sugar addiction and other types of addiction, the science behind it, and the importance of recognizing this as a serious issue. The conversation covers practical tips on identifying and overcoming sugar addiction, the role of emotional well-being in recovery, and the importance of peer support. Mike also talks about his book 'The Last Resort Sugar Detox' and his initiatives like the Sugar Addiction and Quit Sugar Summit to help people combat this pervasive issue. This episode provides valuable insights and a deep understanding of why sugar addiction should be taken seriously and how it can be addressed effectively. 00:00 Introduction and Special Guest 00:34 Mike's Personal Journey with Sugar Addiction 02:32 The Impact of Sugar on Health and Wellbeing 05:34 The Pandemic and Sugar Consumption 06:58 Defining and Recognizing Sugar Addiction 09:20 Emotional and Psychological Aspects of Sugar Addiction 13:12 Strategies for Overcoming Sugar Addiction 17:15 The Role of Support and Therapy 42:10 Mike's Personal Motivation and Final Thoughts 47:15 Conclusion and Resources www.SugarAddiction.com

In this episode, our host welcomes Kimberly Grustas, the inspiring founder of Good For You Girls, a natural skincare company for young girls. Kimberly shares her journey from working in the fitness and advertising industries to creating a line of healthy skincare products driven by her daughters' severe allergies and asthma. She discusses the importance of self-care, the psychological transformations during puberty, and how her products are designed to empower girls by promoting healthy habits. The conversation touches on the challenges of entrepreneurship, marketing strategies, and the significance of respecting and supporting the needs of young girls as they navigate puberty. 00:00 Introduction to Kimberly Grustas 01:10 Kimberly's Career Journey 02:35 Challenges and Inspirations 04:39 Founding Good For You Girls 07:06 Product Development and Philosophy 09:17 Empowering Young Girls 13:44 Marketing and Distribution 18:34 Challenges as a Female Entrepreneur 21:46 Reflecting on Fearlessness in Business 22:33 Turning Down Target: A Bold Decision 24:33 Challenges with Big Retailers 26:25 The Power of Social Media and Personal Branding 29:47 Support Systems and Family Influence 33:02 Facing Competition and Staying Positive 39:43 Inspiring Stories and the Importance of Self-Care 42:18 Final Thoughts and Gratitude www.goodforyougirls.com Coupon code for 20%off: InnerSource20 kim@goodforyougirls.com

In this episode Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS looks at the complexities of gaslighting, one of the most insidious and difficult forms of manipulation to detect and combat. Discover how programming from gaslighting often originates in childhood, particularly in environments where parents or caregivers use this tactic. Explore the deep psychological impact it has on self-doubt and distorted reality, making victims vulnerable to further manipulation in adult relationships. Practical examples illustrate how parents and significant others might use gaslighting to avoid accountability, twist reality, and shift blame. The episode also introduces ways to counteract gaslighting and begin the healing process, emphasizing the need for boundaries, self-awareness and research of the common tactics to reclaim and trust your own reality. The insights of British neuroscientist Anil Seth are incorporated to explain our brain's perception of reality and how it can be distorted by consistent gaslighting. 00:00 Understanding Gaslighting: An Introduction 01:00 The Impact of Gaslighting in Childhood 04:25 Recognizing Gaslighting in Relationships 05:07 Examples of Parental Gaslighting 10:12 Gaslighting in Romantic Relationships 15:17 The Neuroscience Behind Gaslighting 17:43 Strategies to Counteract Gaslighting 18:20 Conclusion and Next Steps

In this episode, I talk with Stacy Blemaster, author of the transformative book 'To Be or Not to Be, Shedding Innocence'. Stacy shares her journey from growing up in a family with generational secrets and emotional withholding, to enduring the struggles of a personality forged to please others. She discusses the critical turning points in her life, including her experiences in college and therapy, and how she took leaps of faith to find healing and authenticity. Stacy provides invaluable insights into breaking free from toxic relationships and rebuilding one's life, offering hope and guidance to anyone struggling in similar circumstances. 00:00 Introduction to Stacy Blemaster 00:59 Stacy's Childhood and Family Secrets 02:31 College Struggles and Realizations 04:35 Therapy and the Journey to Authenticity 07:12 Breaking Free from Toxic Relationships 10:23 The Role of Faith and 12-Step Programs 17:10 Writing the Book and Family Reactions 28:01 Final Words of Wisdom and Encouragement To connect with Stacy Blemaster: Website: https://stacyblemaster.com/ email: StacyBle@gmail.com Instagram: @StacyBlemasterAuthor To connect with the host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS: Website: www.InnerSourceTherapy.com Email: Deborah@InnerSourceTherapy.com

Curse or Schema? Either way, in this episode I'm talking about overcoming inherited traumas. What is a generational curse? And are you plagued with it? We look closley at the negative behavior patterns passed down through families. These patterns, often referred to as 'isms' such as alcoholism, gambling, abuse, and mental illness, can have severe impacts on various life aspects including health, relationships, and finances. Let's look at generational curses through the lens of modern psychology. Are what we refer to as ‘curses' really DNA-encoded or learned behavior patterns known as schemas?  This episode highlights the difficulties and immense effort required to break these curses or cycles, particularly for those in toxic environments. We look at the role that self-awareness plays in emotional resilience, and setting boundaries. The discussion also covers the specific schemas developed by family members of narcissists and also those of narcissists themselves. Ways of overcoming these deeply ingrained patterns are explored in our efforts to break the ‘generaltional curse'. 00:00 Introduction to Generational Curses 00:24 Understanding Isms and Their Impact 01:22 Modern Psychology's Take on Generational Curses 01:53 The Role of DNA and Learned Experiences 02:35 Schemas: The Building Blocks of Behavior 06:08 Breaking Free from Generational Curses 06:35 Narcissism and Its Schemas 09:33 The Black Sheep's Role in Breaking Curses 14:00 Subjugation Schema in Narcissistic Families 23:33 Emotional Inhibition Schema 28:21 Steps to Break the Cycle 35:14 Challenges in Breaking the Curse 37:46 Embracing Self-Compassion and Self-Care 40:05 Understanding Narcissistic Dynamics 42:14 The Role of the Black Sheep 44:02 Schemas and Their Impact 47:08 Subjugation Schema Explained 51:40 Mistrust Schema and Its Effects 57:37 Emotional Inhibition Schema 01:02:35 Breaking the Cycle of Generational Curses 35:14 Challenges and Resistance

Talking Trauma with Cindy Henry, LMFT, BCETS: Exploring Therapeutic Approaches In this episode, Cindy Henry, founder of the Los Angeles Therapy Network, joins the discussion on her extensive experience and multifaceted approaches to PTSD treatment. Cindy talks about various therapeutic methods such as EMDR, ketamine-assisted psychotherapy, and senso motor therapy that she uses in her practice. The conversation touches on the challenges faced in high-profile cases, the importance of cultural competency in trauma treatment, and broader societal impacts. Cindy also shares insights on navigating toxic relationships, the impacts of political climates on marginalized communities, and the potential benefits and risks associated with innovative treatments like ketamine therapy. This comprehensive conversation provides valuable tools, strategies, and support for healing and resilience in the face of trauma. 00:00 Introduction to Cindy Henry and Her Expertise 00:54 Discussing the Impact of Recent Events on Mental Health 02:03 Exploring Trauma Responses and Marginalized Communities 04:17 Cindy's Journey into Trauma Treatment 05:57 Insights into Hollywood's Dark Side 12:00 Understanding Toxic Relationships and Attachment 20:29 Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy and Other Treatments 28:07 Integrating Mind, Body, and Soul 28:28 Ketamine Therapy: A Faster Path to Healing 29:48 The Importance of Reinforcement and Introspection 31:11 Avoiding Toxic Influences During Reprogramming 31:38 Personal Experiences and the Power of Ketamine 35:28 Navigating Trauma from Powerful Predators 42:05 The Impact of Political and Social Issues on Mental Health 44:17 The Role of Community and Connection 51:22 The Wisdom of the Body in Healing 53:40 Final Thoughts and Contact Information To Reach Cindie Henrie, MFT, BCETS: www.latherapnetwork.com info@latmgroup.com 323-829-3548

Are you burdened with guilt? This episode is about overcoming guilt and shame.  We address the common feelings of guilt and shame that survivors may carry and offer insights on how to work through and release these emotions. Listen in and explore with me the complex emotion of guilt and its impact on our lives. Highlighting how manipulators use guilt as a control mechanism, we explore why and how people get programmed with guilt, the resulting behavior patterns, and their correlation with toxic relationships. The discussion also covers the definitions of guilt and shame, the psychological ramifications, and how cognitive dissonance plays a role. Learn strategies for breaking free from these manipulative cycles, building self-awareness, and fostering healthier emotional responses and boundaries. 00:00 Introduction to Guilt and Manipulation 02:13 Understanding Guilt: Definition and Origins 03:04 The Role of Toxic People in Guilt Programming 03:58 The Pain of Shame and Its Protective Role 05:28 How Guilt and Shame Develop in Childhood 10:08 Weaponizing Guilt and Shame: Manipulative Tactics 12:44 Effects of Guilt and Shame on Victims 17:08 Healing from Guilt and Shame 21:50 Coping Strategies and Techniques 25:00 The Interconnection Between Guilt and Anger 26:49 Conclusion: Taking Control of Guilt

This episode sheds light onto the hidden connections between parentified daughters and their vulnerability to toxic relationships. Uncover the patterns, experiences, and emotional wounds that can contribute to these relationship dynamics and learn how to break the cycle for a healthier, happier future. This episode talks about the concept of the parentified daughter, a term describing girls who are forced into parental roles due to dysfunctional family dynamics. The host covers how these daughters often end up in toxic relationships due to early programming that prioritizes others' needs over their own. We examine the hidden emotional abuse involved, unmet basic needs, and the development of harmful belief systems. The episode explores the unique challenges faced by parentified daughters, discussing topics such as blurred boundaries, role reversal, and the lasting impact on self-esteem, relationships, and mental health. This episode also brings to light the impacts that parentified daughters have understanding one's own emotions and needs. We offer strategies for healing, including self-reflection, boundary setting, and therapeutic support. 00:00 Introduction to Parentified Daughters 00:51 Defining the Parentified Daughter 01:40 Causes of Parentification 02:45 Consequences of Being a Parentified Daughter 05:27 Emotional Abuse and Long-Term Effects 07:46 Unmet Needs and Emotional Impact 16:56 Healing and Reprogramming 20:17 Seeking Support and Moving Forward

Is it worth calling out a Narcissist? This episode looks at the pros and cons of calling out a narcissist.  We explore how it impacts both the victim and the abuser. This covers strategies like gray rocking and other possible approaches that you can use to help secure your emotional wellbeing. You will be guided on how to set boundaries and break the cycle of abuse, while being aware of the potential risks of retaliation and emotional toll. Alternatives to direct confrontation and the necessity of professional support are also discussed, ensuring a holistic approach to dealing with toxic relationships. 00:00 Introduction to Narcissism 00:40 Understanding Narcissistic Behavior 04:40 The Power of Indifference 05:56 Benefits of Confronting a Narcissist 08:22 Downsides of Confronting a Narcissist 14:07 Alternatives to Confrontation 16:35 Gray Rock Method 20:13 Seeking Support and Professional Guidance 23:59 Recap and Final Thoughts