Podcasts about eating disorder recovery

Kathryn talks with Beth about her more than two-decade struggle with bulimia and how she ultimately found freedom. Beth shares how the Brain over Binge approach changed the way she understood her urges, and how her Christian faith gave her additional meaning and conviction, which strengthened her ability to put what she was learning into practice. This is Beth's personal experience, and although faith and spirituality may play very different roles—or no role at all—in each person's recovery, there are broader lessons in her story about separating from harmful thoughts and connecting with what matters most to you. Join the Brain over Binge Group Beth's email address: bduggan7@gmail.com  Episode 101: Recovery Stories, Part I Episode 102: Recovery Stories, Part II Episode 103: Recovery Stories, Part III Episode 104: Recovery Stories, Part IV Episode 106: Recovery Stories, Part V Episode 107: Recovery Stories, Part VI Episode 120: Recovery Stories, Part VII Episode 132: Recovery Stories, Part VIII Ep. 148: Recovery Stories Part IX Brain over Binge resources: Get the FREE 30-day Inspiration Booklet Get personalized support from Kathryn with one-on-one coaching Subscribe to the Brain over Binge Course for only $18.99 per month Get the Second Edition of Brain over Binge on Amazon and Audible, BarnesandNoble.com, Apple iBooks, or Kobo. Get the Brain over Binge Recovery Guide   Disclaimer: *The Brain over Binge Podcast is produced and recorded by Brain over Binge Recovery Coaching, LLC. All work is copyrighted by Brain over Binge Recovery Coaching, LLC, and all rights are reserved. As a disclaimer, the hosts of the Brain over Binge Podcast are not professional counselors or licensed healthcare providers, and this podcast is not a substitute for medical advice or any form of professional therapy. Eating disorders can have serious health consequences and you are strongly advised to seek medical attention for matters relating to your health. Please get help when you need it, and good luck on your journey.

What happens to eating disorder recovery when the culture around you starts celebrating weight loss again? In this deeply personal solo episode, Dr. Marianne continues sharing her eating disorder recovery story and talks about something that has surprised her: the return of body insecurities during the Age of Ozempic. After recovering from a decades-long history of anorexia, binge eating disorder, orthorexia, and bulimia, she rarely spends much time thinking about her body size. But the rise of Ozempic and other GLP-1 medications like Zepbound and Wegovy has changed the cultural conversation around weight, thinness, and fat bodies. During the height of the body diversity movement, living in a larger body felt different. Plus-size clothing became more visible. Larger bodies appeared in advertising. Conversations about weight stigma, fatphobia, body neutrality, and fat liberation entered the mainstream. Now, many of those gains seem to be disappearing as celebrities become smaller, plus-size departments vanish from stores, and thinness once again becomes something we're expected to pursue. When Eating Disorder Recovery Meets the Age of Ozempic Dr. Marianne shares what it's like to encounter old eating disorder and body image thoughts after years of recovery. Sometimes those thoughts arrive unexpectedly: Look at that celebrity. They did it. Why can't I? Having that thought doesn't mean eating disorder recovery has failed. Recovery doesn't necessarily erase decades of conditioning around weight and body size. Instead, it can help us recognize internalized weight bias when it resurfaces and decide whether we want to listen to it. Dr. Marianne also discusses an important distinction: wanting a smaller body isn't necessarily the same thing as wanting relief from anti-fat bias. Sometimes the thought, Life would be easier if I were thinner, reflects a painful reality about how fat people are treated rather than a genuine desire to change one's body. The World Is Getting Smaller for Fat People Anti-fat bias doesn't exist only in our thoughts. It shows up in the physical world. Plus-size clothing departments have disappeared from many stores, forcing people in larger bodies to shop online. Airplane seats continue to create accessibility barriers for larger passengers. Cars, restaurant booths, waiting-room chairs, theaters, and other public spaces frequently fail to accommodate body diversity. The message can become impossible to ignore: if the world won't make more space for you, you're expected to make yourself smaller. Dr. Marianne explores the mental health toll of repeatedly navigating environments that weren't designed for your body. Constantly wondering whether a seat will fit, whether a store carries your size, or whether a healthcare provider will blame your symptoms on weight creates an enormous cognitive and emotional burden. Defending the Right to Be Fat Dr. Marianne shares a recent dream in which she found herself defending her fatness to another person. When she woke up, she realized how closely the dream reflected the experience of living in a larger body today. Fat people often have to defend their right to exist without pursuing intentional weight loss. They may have to advocate for appropriate healthcare, accessible seating, clothing, travel accommodations, and the basic right to occupy space without apology. That emotional labor takes energy. For neurodivergent people, the burden can become even greater. Autistic people and ADHDers may already expend significant energy navigating sensory needs, executive functioning, uncertainty, masking, and environments that weren't designed for neurodivergent nervous systems. When neurodivergence intersects with anti-fat bias and other forms of marginalization, the cumulative mental health toll can become significant. Internalized Weight Bias Doesn't Mean You've Failed at Recovery Eating disorder recovery happens in the real world, not in a protected bubble. You can appreciate your body and still feel hurt by weight stigma. You can reject diet culture and feel grief when plus-size clothing disappears. You can practice fat acceptance and still have moments when you wonder whether life would be easier in a smaller body. Those experiences don't erase recovery. Sometimes what looks like body dissatisfaction is actually grief, anger, exhaustion, or a desire to move through the world without constantly having to advocate for your right to belong. Dr. Marianne shares the question that helps her separate internalized weight bias from her own values: Do I actually want a different body, or do I want a different world? Related Episodes How a Part of Me Wanted to Take a Weight-Loss Drug on Apple & Spotify. My Eating Disorder Recovery Story on Apple & Spotify. Finding Liberation-Focused Eating Disorder Support If the Age of Ozempic has stirred up old body image struggles, eating disorder thoughts, or internalized weight bias, you don't have to navigate those experiences alone. Finding an eating disorder therapist or provider who understands weight stigma can make a profound difference. Liberation-focused, trauma-informed, neurodivergent-affirming eating disorder treatment can create space to examine these experiences without making weight loss the goal. If you'd like to work with Dr. Marianne, she provides eating disorder therapy in California for adolescents and adults navigating anorexia, bulimia, binge eating disorder, ARFID, body image concerns, and neurodivergence. If you live elsewhere, Dr. Marianne also offers consultations and coaching for individuals, families, and professionals. Learn more about working with Dr. Marianne at drmariannemiller.com.

An eating disorder is often a coping strategy for deeper distress. It can be a way to gain a glimmer of self-esteem, when you don't feel good enough. It can be a way to find a sense of control, when life feels uncontrollable. It can be a way to numb and distract from difficult emotions. It can become part of an identity as the thin or healthy person. It can be a way to communicate, when it is difficult to communicate through words. Time slots: 4:42 Self-worth glimmers. 6:38 A sense of control. 7:59 Distracting or numbing difficult feelings. 9:33 Giving an identity. 12:51 A way of communicating to others, what cannot be communicated through words. I hope that you find it helpful.  

When does trying to be healthy cross the line into rigid or disordered eating? Healthmaxxing focuses on optimizing nutrition, protein, exercise, sleep, steps, and other health metrics. But for someone with an eating disorder or history of disordered eating, healthmaxxing can become another way to follow rigid rules, compulsively track behaviors, and disconnect from the body. In this episode of Dr. Marianne-Land, Dr. Marianne talks with registered dietitian and eating disorder specialist Amy Ornelas, RD, about healthmaxxing, diet culture, protein obsession, fitness trackers, compulsive exercise, and eating disorder recovery. Is Healthmaxxing the New Diet Culture? Healthmaxxing may look different from traditional dieting, but some of the messages sound familiar: eat the “right” foods, maximize protein, hit your steps, exercise consistently, track your metrics, and keep improving. Dr. Marianne and Amy discuss how healthmaxxing can become a socially acceptable form of rigid or disordered behavior. For someone recovering from an eating disorder, relying on an Apple Watch, Oura Ring, calorie tracker, or wellness influencer may also make it harder to rebuild trust in hunger, fullness, fatigue, and other body cues. Protein, Fitness Trackers, & Compulsive Exercise Protein has become one of the biggest trends in nutrition and wellness culture. Amy compares today's protein obsession to previous diet trends, including the fat-free craze of the 1980s and 1990s. Protein matters, but maximizing protein at every meal doesn't automatically make eating healthier. Dr. Marianne and Amy also unpack step counts, exercise goals, calorie tracking, and wearable fitness devices. Fitness data can provide useful information for some people, but it can also reinforce compulsive exercise, perfectionism, and eating disorder behaviors. Your body's needs change. Rest, relationships, sleep, pleasure, and spontaneity matter too. Eating Disorder Recovery & Rebuilding Body Trust Eating disorders can make hunger, fullness, fatigue, emotion, and physical sensations difficult to interpret. That uncertainty can make external rules and health metrics especially appealing. Amy explains how eating disorder nutrition therapy can provide appropriate structure as someone rebuilds nourishment and reconnects with their body. Unlike an algorithm or influencer, individualized nutrition support considers a person's history, eating disorder behaviors, physical needs, and recovery. Dr. Marianne and Amy also discuss what happens when fitness becomes part of your identity. Letting go of compulsive exercise or rigid health behaviors can raise a difficult question: Who am I if I'm no longer the person who always works out, eats a certain way, or prioritizes fitness? Recovery can create room to discover an identity beyond food, weight, exercise, and optimization. What You'll Learn You'll hear Dr. Marianne and Amy discuss healthmaxxing and disordered eating, diet culture and wellness culture, protein obsession and nutrition trends, fitness trackers and calorie tracking, compulsive exercise and step goals, fitness identity, hunger and fullness cues, body trust, and nutrition therapy in eating disorder recovery. They also ask a bigger question: What happens when trying to optimize your health starts taking away from your life? About Amy Ornelas, RD Amy Ornelas is a registered dietitian and eating disorder specialist with more than two decades of experience. She incorporates nutrition therapy, somatic therapy, yoga, and intuitive practices into her work with adolescents and adults. Her own eating disorder recovery helped shape her commitment to helping people move away from diet culture, rigid food rules, body image struggles, and disconnection from their bodies. Instagram: @amyornelasRD Website: i-heart-nutrition.com Related Episodes Have you ever had the experience of suddenly feeling huge in your body, even though nothing about your body has actually changed? That moment of intense body distress is incredibly common in eating disorder recovery. But what if that feeling is not really about body size at all? In this episode of Dr. Marianne-Land, Dr. Marianne Miller is joined by Amy Ornelas, RDN, an eating disorder dietitian, yoga teacher, and somatic therapy practitioner, to explore what body distress may actually be signaling underneath the surface. Together, they unpack how thoughts like “I feel huge” can often reflect emotional activation, overwhelm, grief, shame, anger, or stress rather than a literal change in body size. Amy explains how eating disorder behaviors such as restriction, binge eating, and purging can alter brain chemistry and disconnect people from their internal emotional world. When those behaviors begin to shift in recovery, many people suddenly find themselves face to face with emotions that may have been numbed or pushed aside for years. This can feel confusing, intense, and sometimes even frightening. Dr. Marianne and Amy talk about how eating disorders can function as powerful survival strategies that help people manage overwhelming emotional states. Rather than demonizing these behaviors, they explore how they often develop as adaptive coping mechanisms in environments where emotional expression was discouraged, dismissed, or unsafe. The conversation also highlights how family dynamics, culture, trauma, and neurodivergence can shape the way people learn to relate to their emotions. Many individuals grow up hearing messages that they are too sensitive, too emotional, or should simply get over what they feel. Over time, these messages can make emotional awareness feel dangerous or overwhelming. Amy introduces the role of somatic therapy in eating disorder recovery and explains how body-based approaches can help people reconnect with their internal sensations in a gradual and supportive way. Instead of forcing emotional processing, somatic work focuses on building safety in the nervous system and slowly increasing the capacity to notice and tolerate emotional states. Dr. Marianne and Amy also discuss how body image distress can function as a powerful distraction. It can feel easier to focus anger, fear, or grief on the body than to confront deeper sources of pain, such as relational conflict, social stress, or systemic injustice. Learning to translate body distress into emotional language can help people understand what their internal system is truly trying to communicate. This episode also addresses an important reality in eating disorder recovery: sometimes people appear more emotionally dysregulated as they begin healing. That increase in emotional expression can actually be a sign that someone is reconnecting with their inner world after years of emotional numbing. Amy shares several practical tools that can help people begin reconnecting with their emotions, including brief emotional check-ins throughout the day, asking simple questions about what feelings may be present when eating disorder urges arise, and using movement to help emotional energy move through the body. Dr. Marianne also brings in a neurodivergent-affirming lens, discussing how stimming, rocking, sensory soothing, and other nervous system supports can help people stay connected to themselves during emotionally intense moments. Together, they emphasize that emotions are not problems to eliminate. They are information from our internal systems that help guide us toward safety, boundaries, authenticity, and healing. In this episode, we discuss How eating disorder behaviors can numb or redirect difficult emotions. Why recovery often brings a surge of feelings to the surface, What somatic therapy is and how it can support eating disorder recovery. Why the thought “I feel huge” often reflects emotional distress rather than body change. How trauma, family systems, and culture shape emotional expression. Why body image distress can act as a distraction from deeper pain. The difference between compartmentalizing emotions and avoiding them. Why increased emotional intensity can be a sign of progress in recovery. Practical ways to begin noticing and naming emotions during recovery. How neurodivergent people may benefit from stimming and sensory supports. About the guest Amy Ornelas, RDN, is a registered dietitian nutritionist, eating disorder specialist, yoga teacher, and somatic therapy practitioner based in California. She works with individuals, families, and groups and integrates nutrition care with somatic and nervous system–informed approaches to eating disorder recovery. Connect with Amy Ornelas Instagram: @amyornelasRD Website: i-heart-nutrition.com Listen if you are Experiencing intense body image distress during eating disorder recovery. Trying to understand why recovery can bring more emotion, not less. Curious about somatic therapy and body-based approaches to healing. Looking for tools to help manage urges to restrict, binge, or purge. Interested in understanding the emotional layers beneath body distress. Related episodes On "I Feel Huge" Versus "What I'm Actually Feeling": Translating Body Distress Into Emotions" via Apple or Spotify. On Eating Disorders as a Coping Strategy for Deeper Pain via Apple or Spotify. On Eating Disorders in Midlife & Our Personal Recovery Stories via Apple or Spotify. On Atypical Anorexia via Apple or Spotify On Eating Disorder Recovery, Higher Level of Care, & Renourishment via Apple or Spotify On Reconnecting With Your Body in Eating Disorder Recovery via Apple or Spotify On Trauma, Eating Disorders, & Levels of Care via Apple or Spotify. Work With Dr. Marianne If healthmaxxing, compulsive exercise, rigid food rules, body image concerns, or anxiety around eating have become tangled up with your eating disorder, Dr. Marianne offers a neurodivergent-affirming, trauma-informed approach to eating disorder recovery. Dr. Marianne specializes in ARFID, binge eating, anorexia, and bulimia, including the ways eating disorders intersect with autism, ADHD, sensory needs, and trauma. She offers eating disorder therapy in California and Washington, D.C., as well as virtual coaching for people elsewhere. She also offers a self-paced ARFID & Selective Eating course for adults with ARFID, parents and caregivers, and providers. Visit drmariannemiller.com to learn more about working with Dr. Marianne. Follow @drmariannemiller on Instagram and listen to Dr. Marianne-Land on Apple Podcasts and Spotify.

Many people with eating disorders get labeled as perfectionists. Sometimes that's accurate. Sometimes it's only part of the story. In this episode of the Dr. Marianne-Land Podcast, I explore the overlap between OCD and eating disorders, perfectionism, anxiety, autism, ADHD, and the cognitive effects of malnutrition. I explain why similar behaviors can have very different underlying causes and why understanding those differences can change the course of eating disorder treatment and recovery. If you've ever found yourself stuck in food rules, body checking, repetitive thoughts, calorie calculations, reassurance-seeking, or endless self-doubt, this episode offers a more nuanced way to understand what's happening beneath the surface. Rather than focusing only on what behaviors look like, I discuss why identifying their function leads to more effective and compassionate care. What You'll Learn In this episode, you'll learn how perfectionism differs from OCD in eating disorder recovery and why the distinction matters. I discuss why intrusive thoughts, compulsive checking, and reassurance-seeking are often mistaken for perfectionism, how anorexia nervosa and other restrictive eating disorders can increase obsessive thinking, and why starvation affects cognitive flexibility and mental rigidity. I also explain how autism, ADHD, sensory needs, and routine dependence can sometimes resemble OCD while reflecting very different underlying experiences. Finally, I share why understanding the function of eating disorder behaviors helps clinicians, individuals, and families choose more effective treatment approaches. OCD, Perfectionism, and Eating Disorders Perfectionism has long been associated with anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and other eating disorders. At the same time, many people who believe they're simply perfectionists may also experience OCD, significant anxiety, or both. Looking only at outward behaviors can miss what is actually maintaining the cycle of restriction, compulsions, fear, and distress. In this episode, I discuss why food-related rituals, repeated checking, body checking, calorie counting, and reassurance-seeking may look similar across different conditions while serving very different purposes. Understanding those differences helps people receive more individualized, neurodivergent-affirming care instead of one-size-fits-all treatment. Why Neurodivergence Makes the Picture More Complex Autism, ADHD, ARFID, sensory processing differences, and nervous system regulation can all influence eating behaviors, routines, and food preferences. Predictability and consistency often help neurodivergent people reduce overwhelm and make eating feel safer. Those experiences are not automatically signs of OCD or perfectionism. I explain why clinicians need to understand the role of sensory processing, cognitive load, executive functioning, and nervous system regulation before drawing conclusions about repetitive eating behaviors. This perspective supports more accurate assessment and more compassionate eating disorder treatment. Why This Matters for Recovery Recovery looks different depending on what's driving the behavior. Someone whose eating disorder is fueled primarily by perfectionism may need different interventions than someone struggling with OCD, autism, or multiple overlapping conditions. When treatment targets the underlying process instead of the surface behavior alone, recovery often becomes more individualized, effective, and sustainable. Understanding the "why" behind eating disorder behaviors creates opportunities for greater self-compassion and more meaningful healing. This Episode Is For You If... This episode is for anyone recovering from anorexia, bulimia, ARFID, binge eating disorder, or another eating disorder who has wondered whether perfectionism tells the whole story. It's also for autistic, ADHD, and AuDHD individuals, parents, caregivers, therapists, dietitians, physicians, and other professionals who want a more nuanced understanding of OCD, perfectionism, neurodivergence, and eating disorder recovery. Related Episodes OCD & Eating Disorders: Why Food Rules, Rituals, & “Not Feeling Right” Take Over on Apple & Spotify. When Eating Disorders Meet Anxiety, OCD, or Depression: Co-Occurring Challenges & Recovery Strategies on Apple & Spotify. Obsessions, Compulsions, and Control: How OCD Intertwines With Eating Disorders on Apple & Spotify. Food, Fear, & Fixation: How OCD Shapes Eating Disorders on Apple & Spotify. Work With Dr. Marianne Miller If you're looking for a neurodivergent-affirming eating disorder therapist, I provide therapy for adults and adolescents throughout California and Washington, D.C. I also offer parent consultation and eating disorder coaching worldwide. My practice specializes in ARFID therapy, anorexia treatment, bulimia treatment, binge eating disorder therapy, autism and ADHD, and neurodivergent-affirming eating disorder care. I use a sensory-attuned, trauma-informed, autonomy-supportive approach that honors each person's unique nervous system and lived experience. Learn more about therapy, consultation, my ARFID & Selective Eating Course, and additional resources at www.drmariannemiller.com. If you enjoyed this episode, please follow the Dr. Marianne-Land Podcast, leave a rating or review on Apple Podcasts or on Spotify, and share this episode with someone who may benefit from a more compassionate understanding of OCD, perfectionism, and eating disorder recovery.

Recovery isn't one brave decision or the polished version often shown online. It can involve boredom, grief, uncertainty, louder thoughts and learning who you are without the eating disorder.In this honest episode, I share what I wish I'd known about letting go of control, why your mind may take longer to heal than your body, and how ordinary choices slowly rewire your brain.In this episode, we cover: Why you don't have to feel ready before recovery begins.  Why letting go of control is often harder than weight gain itself.  Why your body can heal before your mind catches up.  The neuroscience behind why recovery feels repetitive and why that's actually a sign your brain is changing.  Why recovery becomes "boring"—and why that's one of the biggest milestones you'll ever reach.  How to build a life that's bigger than your eating disorder.  Why recovery doesn't remove difficult emotions, but changes how you respond to them.  The grief that comes with letting go of your eating disorder identity.  What life really looks like years into recovery.If recovery feels harder or slower than expected, this episode will remind you that you're not failing. The goal isn't perfect thoughts around food. It's building a life where the eating disorder no longer gets the final say.Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS:Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_podTikTok: @flourishwithciandraWebsite: https://flourishwithciandra.com/Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com

Content Warning: This episode contains discussion of eating disorders, body image, weight loss, diet culture and mental health. Some listeners may find these topics distressing or triggering. Please take care while listening and seek support if needed. In this deeply personal chat, Megan shares for the first time her experience living with an eating disorder and her journey through recovery. Prompted by recent conversations online about celebrity bodies and changing beauty standards, she reflects on the impact of diet culture, the pressure to be thin, and why she fears society may be moving backwards. If you or someone you know is struggling, this conversation serves as a reminder that help is available and recovery is possible.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Nutritional rehabilitation receives a huge amount of attention, and rightly so. But considerably less attention is given to what comes next: learning how to build a life in which you no longer need the eating disorder.

Eating disorders don't exist in a vacuum—and for BIPOC individuals, feeling seen in treatment can be a powerful part of recovery. Finding a provider you trust is so important on your recovery journey. In this episode, we sit down with Mehak Merchant who is actively involved in the BIPOC groups offered to patients at Renfrew and a champion for culturally adapted care.   Mehak shares her story and how that has shaped her approach in therapy with BIPOC clients. Her passion for this work shines through her explanation of how systemic inequities, cultural narratives, and barriers to eating disorder care impact BIPOC clients. We explore how diet culture in healthcare impacts eating disorder recovery and how clients can advocate for their recovery. Mehak shares hope for BIPOC clients in finding support that is compassionate, validating, and community oriented.   If you or someone you know is struggling in recovery, this episode will instill hope and practical strategies to support your healing journey.   If you or someone you care about is an athlete in recovery, this episode will make your recovery journey a little more hopeful.   If you enjoy our show, please rate, review, subscribe, and tell your friends and colleagues!   Interested in being a guest on All Bodies. All Foods.? Email podcast@renfrewcenter.com for a chance to be featured.   All Bodies. All Foods. is a podcast by The Renfrew Center. Visit us at: https://renfrewcenter.com/

Physios might not be the first profession that comes to mind when you are thinking about eating disorder care but in this latest episode of Strong Enough Senior Physiotherapist Sally Partington explains the unique set of skills that can aid recovery.Sally will be talking about how to identify problem exercise levels, the links between eating disorders and pelvic floor problems as well as issues with bone density after disordered eating. Sally also explains how changing exercise routines can change the feelings or emotions that movement can trigger.Sally is the founder of Movement Physio Perth and also works at the Perth Children's Hospital.It is important to acknowledge there are lots of different pathways to recovery and we urge you to seek your own professional advice. If you would like to hear more from lived experience carers then buy the new Strong Enough book.This is an edited version of a member webinar. If you join #EDFA - which costs as little as a cup of coffee a month - you would have early and full access to resources including 160+ hours of recorded education webinars.This is a Question and Answer style session lead by EDFA's Education co-ordinator Coran Johnson. We join the webinar with a question about how to spot the signs of compulsive exercise when we live in a culture where we are taught that all exercise is good.Don't forget you can access EDFA's FREE Fill the Gap one-on-one counselling support any time you need it along the way. Website: https://edfa.org.au/Contact: 1300 195 626 Want more? Become an EDFA Member: https://edfa.org.au/become-a-member/ It costs less than $5 a month.Join Eating Disorders Families Australia support groups: https://edfa.org.au/parents-and-carer-support/eating-disorder-support-groups/ Visit EDFA resources library: https://edfa.org.au/video-resource-library/ For more information click on these links to the EDFA website:Anorexia NervosaBulimia NervosaBinge Eating DisorderARFID - Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake DisorderOSFED - Other Specified Feeding & Eating Disorders#strongenoughedfa#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisorder care team#eatingdisordersfamiliesaustralia#whatisdisorderedeating#adviceforcarers#edadvice#eatingdisorder#ARFID#bulimia#anorexia Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This week, Han is joined by Jessica Mackney, an HCPC-registered Art Psychotherapist passionate about how art therapy can help people explore experiences that may be difficult to put into words and build meaningful therapeutic relationships, while increasing awareness of the role art therapy plays in supporting recovery in eating disorder treatment. Working from a trauma-informed, non-judgemental approach, Jess supports people across the lifespan with eating disorders, autism, SEN, and complex trauma, across the NHS, education, and non-profit sectors, with a particular focus on young people and eating disorders. In this episode, we explore:What art therapy actually is beyond common misconceptions ("just drawing or painting")How the relationship between therapist, client and the artwork itself carries meaningWhy perfectionism and control (often present in eating disorders) can make engaging with art materials difficultHow art therapy offers a route into communication when verbal expression feels inaccessible or unsafeThe role of choice, agency and non-judgement in the therapy spaceWorking with people who are non-verbal or struggling to access words for their experienceHow the connection between body, senses and materials can support reconnection for those with eating disordersHan's own experience of art, perfectionism, and rediscovering creativity after her eating disorderHow art can hold and express difficult emotions — including anger and frustration — safelyWays people can explore the benefits of creative expression at home, distinct from clinical art therapyConnect with Us:Subscribe to the Full of Beans PodcastFollow Full of Beans on InstagramCheck out our websiteListen on YouTubeConnect with Jessica via LinkedIn. ⚠️ Content Note: This episode includes discussion of eating disorders, disordered eating, and self-harm. Please take care while listening, and know that this podcast is always here to come back to.

Before today's episode notes, I have a BIG ANNOUNCEMENT:After 4+ years of continuously making and sharing new episodes for you, Reclaiming Consciousness will go through a 90-day pause. As with everything in life, I feel an evolution is needed for the show, and although I have a few ideas on my mind on what the next chapter will look like, I prefer to keep it as a surprise for you until the day comes. Obviously, all the episodes will remain available for you. I'll also be creating playlists on Spotify, organized by topic so you can easily find your favorite content.As always, THANK YOU so much for being there. See you soon!--------------------------------"There's just a lot of facilitator stories where the facilitator's almost chasing catharsis, 'cause that feels good for the ego. They wanna see the screaming and the big cries, and they're chasing it at the expense of the agency of the breather, and that's when it can become re-traumatizing."Today I'm joined by Megan Ashton, founder of Unity Breathwork, and this is a conversation every single person who's ever considered breathwork, or who's already facilitating it, needs to hear. Megan spent almost 20 years chasing healing through holistic nutrition, clinical hypnotherapy, shamanic work, and a genuinely traumatic week with ayahuasca before conscious connected breathing finally did what nothing else could. We get into her own history with alcohol dependency and bulimia, and how breathwork succeeded where so many other modalities failed her, including me, since I went through something strikingly similar myself.But where this episode really goes deep is the safety conversation almost no one in this industry is having out loud. Megan and I talk about the real danger of combining breath holds with connected breathwork (including seizures she's witnessed firsthand), the guru complex some facilitators fall into, why chasing catharsis can actually re-traumatize people, and what "trauma-informed" is supposed to mean versus what it's become. TODAY'S HIGHLIGHTSMegan's 15-year healing quest: nutrition, hypnotherapy, shamanic healing, and a traumatic week with ayahuascaThe Bali breathwork session that finally released decades of grief and ended Megan's eating disorderWhy most addictions are rooted in trauma, not willpowerAlyse's own experience healing an eating disorder through breathworkWhy talk therapy and EMDR hit a ceiling: the case for working bottom-up through the bodyRed flags in facilitators: chasing catharsis, guru energy, forcing the breath, exploiting vulnerable states to sellThe real danger of combining breath holds with connected breathworkWhat "trauma-informed" actually means (and why a 50-hour certification isn't it)How to vet a breathwork facilitator or training program before you commitCONTACT MEGANunitybreathwork.comInstagram unitybreathworkFacebook unitybreathworkTrauma-Informed Breathwork Facilitator TrainingFree Conscious Connected Breathwork JourneyBreathwork Retreats (Sayulita, Mexico)**WAYS TO ENTER MY WORLD**When you leave a review of the podcast on Apple Podcasts and send us a screenshot of it, we'll send you a $250 credit that you can apply to anything else in my world.Join me in The Metamorphosis which is my 3-month, groundbreaking, flagship program to rapidly and efficiently clear the familial and ancestral trauma that is blocking you from experiencing the wealth and freedom that you desire.Starting a business or working with clients? You need to sign up for The Metamorphosis Method This is the only Breathwork and Trauma Certification Program that closes the gap between spirituality and therapy to create predictable and permanent results with your clients. We start again at the end of September.Questions? Let's jump on a call CONTACT ALYSEYouTube @alysebreathesalysebreathes.comIG @alyse_breathesinfo@alysebreathes.com

On the pod today, we're discussing a question from a sweet listener who wrote in and asked: "I know in order to find peace with food and fully embrace recovery, I must increase my food intake and my portion sizes. However, I'm truly anxious and scared every time I think about this. How do I stick with it and make it a habit that builds momentum?" Sis, I adore this question — because I have been right there. If you're terrified to even think about increasing your portions, or you feel like you're already at capacity, I want you to know: you are right where you need to be listening to today's episode. It's okay to be afraid — you're about to do something brave We've been programmed by a culture where less is more. Dressing on the side. Don't drink your calories. You don't need those carbs. Everything is elimination, elimination, elimination. So of course it feels scary to go the other direction. When my dietitian first handed me my meal plan, I looked at it and thought, there is no way in H-E-double-hockey-sticks. Every fear flooded in. But here's the truth: it's okay to be afraid, because you're about to do something that is going to bring you future joy. This takes courage. And your future self is looking back at the you sitting here right now saying, "Yes, girl. You're going to rock this recovery thing." Step 1: Understand your resistance When you think about adding more to your day, what actually comes up? Fear of weight gain? Anxiety that you'll lose control and never stop? A flood of old rules — when would I fit that in, what would I choose, I can't have this if I have that? That's just your brain spinning. See yourself in that place without judgment — because the resistance shows up precisely when you're about to embark on something amazing. It's okay to be scared and still do the dang thing. Fear is what keeps the cycle going: heaviness → restriction → overwhelm → shame → right back where you started. The way out is building new dominant pathways in your mind — and that starts with what you practice on repeat. Step 2: Know the truth about nourishment Don't just tolerate the idea that eating more is "better" — coach yourself on why. Adequate nutrition supports healing for your organs, your muscles, your skin, your hair. It fuels the basics — breathing, circulation, digestion. It regulates hormones that directly impact your mood and health. It armors up your immune system and protects your bones for the long haul. This isn't about shame for lost time, sis. It's about the reframe: "This is what I'm doing for my future self, because my body deserves this level of healing." And swap the mindset: instead of more food = weight gain, try "I'm finally supporting my body's natural regulation. My body is learning to trust me, and I'm learning to trust it." Food is medicine. It's a non-negotiable — stop making it optional. Step 3: Practical ways to gently increase Work with a dietitian. I'll say it plainly: I'm a certified health coach, not a dietitian — and the single best move for portions and meal planning is a professional who specializes in this. They can help with visual aids, adequate-meal guidance, and the "plate distortion" that makes it hard to even know what a normal portion looks like. If you don't have one yet, finding one is worth it. Go gradual and small. Don't overhaul every meal at once. Pick one small, consistent addition and honor it — then build week after week. Small steps compound. Make it a game. Can I add a little more of this? A little something extra there? Each tiny win proves to your mind that you're capable — and that empowered feeling builds real momentum. Add variety. If your meals or meal times are rigid, gently challenge it. Try a different lunch. Add something new in a gap in your day. What's one thing you could commit to this week? Create a mindful eating environment. Eat where you feel safe, supported, and connected — not rushed, watched, or on the go. Set healthy boundaries where you need them. Get accountability. Tell a loved one your plan for tonight and ask them to hold you to it. Or let someone you trust support you at mealtimes. This is also exactly what a coach is for. A few lines from the episode "It's okay to be afraid, because you're about to do something that is going to bring you future joy." "Fear will keep you stuck in the cycle. Courage — small, gradual courage — breaks it." "My body is learning to trust me, and I'm learning to trust it." "Food is medicine. Stop making it optional." "It's okay to not be feeling it — and it's still okay to do it." Your one thing this week Decide on your increase. Ask yourself: "What is the one thing I'm going to choose that will prove to myself that I'm capable?" Then go do it — gradually, small, and committed. Ask "how can I care for my body today?" and follow through. Connect with Lindsey:

Click to Text Thoughts on Today's EpisodeAs Graced Health winds down its final season, I'm introducing listeners to podcasters I trust to carry them forward — like Brittany Braswell, RD, and host of the Faith-Filled Food Freedom podcast (formerly the Joy-Filled Eater Podcast). Brittany is a registered dietitian, public speaker, and creator of the Joy-Filled Eater course, where she helps Christian women break free from food guilt, body image struggles, and diet culture through a faith-centered, practical approach to food freedom.In this conversation, Brittany and I catch up as longtime friends and colleagues, and Brittany shares who she works with, what surprised her most in her own podcasting journey, and where new listeners should start if they want to dig into her back catalog.Main points discussed:The real problem isn't the information — Brittany argues nutrition facts themselves aren't usually the issue; it's how they're deliveredListening to your body without letting it "drive the bus" — Brittany's framework: combines body awareness, faith/discernment, and basic nutrition knowledge rather than following rigid rules or oversimplified mantras.The messy middle — There's rarely a single "right" answer in nutrition; it takes trial and error, curiosity over judgment.A surprising fan-favorite topic on Brittany's podcast — An episode on sex and body image got huge listener response, leading to a follow-up ("The Secret Sex Lives of Christian Wives") about how body image affects intimacy and marriage.Listen to the Faith Filled Food Freedom PodcastConnect with Brittanyhttps://www.brittanybraswellrd.com/https://www.instagram.com/brittanybraswellrdMy latest recommended ways to nourish and move your body, mind and spirit: Nourished Notes Bi-Weekly Newsletter30+ Non-Gym Ways to Improve Your Health (free download)Connect with Amy: GracedHealth.com Instagram: @GracedHealthYouTube: @AmyConnell

What if the biggest thing keeping you stuck isn't fear of food... but fear of what life might look like without the eating disorder?Every month, members of the Eating Disorder Recovery Circle send in thoughtful, honest, and deeply personal questions about recovery. Although each question comes from one individual, they almost always reflect something much bigger. They touch on the fears, doubts, and emotions that so many people carry quietly, often believing they are the only one feeling that way.This month's questions all seem to centre around one powerful theme: trust.How do you keep going when hope feels out of reach? Can your body still heal after decades of living with an eating disorder? Why does the eating disorder always seem to find another reason to wait? And what if you recover... only to discover that life is still difficult?These are important conversations because recovery isn't simply about changing eating behaviours. It's about learning to trust yourself again, even when certainty feels impossible to find.Why hopelessness can feel like reality, and how to keep moving forwards when hope feels impossible to access.How eating disorders gradually lead to isolation, and why consistent nourishment helps us reconnect with other people and with life itself.The subtle ways the eating disorder creates endless reasons to delay recovery, and why waiting until you feel "ready" often keeps you stuck.Whether recovery is still possible after living with an eating disorder for decades, and why it is never simply "too late" to begin.Supporting a teenager who may be showing signs of disordered eating whilst continuing your own recovery journey.One of the deepest fears many people experience: What if I recover and life is still hard? We explore why certainty can become another form of safety, and how recovery gradually replaces certainty with something much stronger—self-trust.If you've ever found yourself thinking:I'll start properly when life feels calmer.Maybe I've been ill for too long.What if recovery isn't worth it?What if nothing changes?What if I still don't feel happy afterwards?...then this episode is for you.Recovery rarely asks us to feel certain before taking the next step. More often, it asks us to choose the next meal, the next snack, the next act of self-compassion, or the next moment of courage whilst uncertainty is still sitting beside us. Over time, those seemingly ordinary choices become the foundation of extraordinary change.Part way through this episode, I mention the Recovery Companion App.Whether you're struggling with eating disorder thoughts, facing a difficult meal, feeling overwhelmed by emotions, or simply need support in the moment, the app is designed to walk alongside you throughout your recovery.Find out more and download the app here:

In today's episode of Psych Talk I chat with Lauren Larkin, LMHC about eating disorder recovery. Lauren shares her own journey with an eating disorder and how she came to specialize in eating disorder work. We discuss her workbook, The Eating Disorder Recovery Reset and what inspired her to create it. Lauren discusses some myths when it comes to eating disorder recovery and the concept of ongoing recovery and what it may look like. We discuss lapses in recovery and what relapse prevention may look like. Lauren shares some skills and tools individuals can utilize after a lapse to help them get back on track with their recovery, as well as key tools and supports that are necessary for longevity in eating disorder recovery.Connect with Lauren:IG: @itslaurenelarkinTikTok: @laurenelarkinYouTube: @laurenelarkinWorkbook: The Eating Disorder Recovery ResetConnect with Me:Follow me on IG ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@jessicaleighphd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Follow the podcast on IG ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@psych.talk.podcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Follow me on TikTok ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@jessicaleighphd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Follow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Youtube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Follow me on Threads ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@jessicaleighphd⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Welcome to Group Therapy Podcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Ways to Work With Me:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Mind Over Matter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠LGBTQ+ Affirming Masterclass⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Be a guest on my podcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Resources:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Anti-Racism Resources⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠LGBTQ+ Affirming Resources⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Helping Professional's Guide to Boundary Setting⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Intro/Outro Music⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Life of Riley⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ by Kevin MacLeod⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Music License⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

ANN BIASETTI, PHD, LCSW, C-IAYT, is a transpersonal psychologist, licensed clinical social worker, and certified yoga therapist. She specializes in helping individuals heal their relationships with their bodies, food, and sense of self through somatic therapy, yoga therapy, and embodied self-compassion.   Dr. Biasetti is the creator of the Befriending Your Body Program, a somatic, self-compassion-based recovery program for disordered eating, and the author of Befriending Your Body: A Self-Compassionate Approach to Freeing Yourself from Disordered Eating and The Awakening Self-Compassion Card Deck: 52 Practices for Self-Care, Healing, and Growth. She contributed the chapter "The Process of Self-Compassion in Eating Disorder Recovery" to Grounding Psychotherapy in Self-Compassion.   Dr. Biasetti consults and lectures extensively on somatic psychotherapy, embodiment, polyvagal theory, and interoceptive awareness in the context of disordered eating and eating-disorder recovery. Additionally, she serves as an instructor with the Center for Mindful Body Awareness and the Self-Compassion in Psychotherapy (SCIP) Program. A featured Professional Education Systems Institute (PESI) presenter, Dr. Biasetti has appeared on multiple podcasts and trains professionals through the Befriending Your Body (BFYB) somatic certification training program.   Dr. Biasetti maintains a private therapy and consultation practice based in Saratoga Springs, New York, where she integrates mind-body modalities to facilitate holistic healing and personal growth. On any given day you can find her practicing and teaching yoga and meditation in her community and enjoying her family, friends, nature, animals, music, and embodied living.  Latest Book: "Your Body Never Meant You Any Harm"   Websites: www.anembodiedlife.com www.befriendingyourbody.com  

On this episode, we will be sharing a story of recovery. Dr. Karen Nelson is joined by Katie, who will take us through her story of diagnosis, treatment, and what it means to live in recovery. 

Mallary Tenore Tarpley is an assistant professor of practice at the University of Texas at Austin, where she teaches journalism classes in the Moody College of Communication and writing classes at the McCombs School of Business. Her debut nonfiction book, SLIP: Life in the Middle of Eating Disorder Recovery, which was published by Simon & Schuster's Simon Element imprint in August 2025, explores the under-discussed complexities of eating disorders and recovery from them. The book is equal parts memoir and journalism, and it weaves together Mallary's own narrative with perspectives from clinicians, researchers, and others with lived experience.  In 2023, Mallary received a generous grant from the Alfred P. Sloan Foundation to support the science-related reporting in the book, specifically around the neurobiological and genetic aspects of eating disorders. Mallary's articles and personal essays about eating disorders have been published in The New York Times, The Wall Street Journal, The Washington Post, The Los Angeles Times, TIME Magazine, and Teen Vogue, among other publications We discuss topics including: What it means to live life in the "in between" Recovery is impossible but imperfect Slips do not have to be failures they can be an opportunity for growth Reframe your thinking about "full recovery" Being authentic with yourself while being open to experiment with food instead of always sticking with "safe foods"   SHOW NOTES: www.mallarytenoretarpley.com Book: Slip: Life in the Middle of Eating Disorder Recovery IG: www.instagram.com/mallarytenoretarpley ____________________________________________ If you have any questions regarding the topics discussed on this podcast, please reach out to Robyn directly via email: rlgrd@askaboutfood.com You can also connect with Robyn on social media by following her on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and LinkedIn. If you enjoyed this podcast, please leave a review on iTunes and subscribe. Visit Robyn's private practice website where you can subscribe to her free monthly insight newsletter, and receive your FREE GUIDE "Maximizing Your Time with Those Struggling with an Eating Disorder". Your Recovery Resource, Robyn's new online course for navigating your loved one's eating disorder, is available now! For more information on Robyn's book "The Eating Disorder Trap", please visit the Official "The Eating Disorder Trap" Website. "The Eating Disorder Trap" is also available for purchase on Amazon.

In this episode of Fly to Freedom, I'm joined by Beverley Atkins, a Guild Certified Feldenkrais Practitioner and founder of Pauseture, a somatic movement platform helping people reconnect with their bodies through gentle, guided movement.This conversation feels especially important for anyone navigating anorexia recovery, eating disorder recovery, compulsive exercise, body mistrust, or nervous system dysregulation.Many people in eating disorder recovery spend years trying to think their way to healing.Trying to understand more.Trying to control more.Trying to get recovery “right”.And yet the body can still feel unsafe, uncomfortable, noisy, or impossible to trust.What if healing does not always begin with thinking harder?What if healing can begin by learning to notice the body differently?Beverley shares her own deeply personal story of growing up in a larger body, beginning dieting as a child, and spending decades trapped in yo-yo dieting and all-or-nothing patterns around food.In her 30s, that shifted into extreme exercise.She completed three marathons in 18 months, countless triathlons, and eventually Ironman Hawaii in 2009.Looking back, Beverley now understands how undiagnosed ADHD shaped much of her experience.The food noise.The hyperfocus.The perfectionism.The all-or-nothing patterns.The nervous system dysregulation.Everything made more sense through that lens.In 2014, while working at Facebook in a high-pressure environment, her body forced a stop when her back gave out completely.That crisis led her to Feldenkrais Awareness Through Movement — a gentle, audio-guided somatic practice she initially tried for pain relief.What she found was something much deeper.This work gradually transformed her relationship with:Her bodyFoodExerciseEmotional regulationSafetySelf-awarenessIn this conversation, we explore:How eating disorders disconnect us from the bodyWhy compulsive exercise often becomes a coping strategyThe link between ADHD and disordered eating patternsWhy meditation can feel unbearable for dysregulated nervous systemsHow somatic movement offers a gentler doorway into healingWhy curiosity is one of recovery's most powerful toolsThe difference between body judgement and body awarenessHow the brain rewires through novelty, attention, and safe explorationOne of the most powerful parts of this conversation is Beverley's perspective on body image.She explains that healing did not begin with loving her body.It began with something much simpler.Paying attention without judgement.Not fixing.Not forcing.Not criticising.Just noticing.And sometimes that neutral attention is where healing begins.This episode is especially for you if:You feel disconnected from your bodyRest feels uncomfortable or frighteningStillness makes you anxiousYou struggle with compulsive movement or exercise addictionRecovery feels stuck in overthinkingYou long to feel safer in your bodyRecovery does not always require more force.Sometimes it asks for less.Less fighting.Less judgement.Less performance.And more curiosity.Instagram: @pausetureFacebook: Pauseture on FacebookWebsite: PausetureIf this episode helped you, please share it with someone who may need it.For deeper support in recovery, come and explore The Eating Disorder Recovery Circle, my recovery membership offering expert guidance, practical tools, courses, workshops, and compassionate community support.You can also find me at Julia Trehane CoachingThank you for listening.With love,Julia xConnect with Beverley Atkins

Full Episode at www.patreon.com/dopeypodcast Summary   This week on the free Tuesday teaser of Dopey, Dave and Ray welcome editor Britta before reading Patreon comments from last week's Doug episode and laughing about everything from personal trainers to Doug's famously "accentuated shaft."   Then the mood shifts as Dave reads an incredibly honest email from Carson, a young trans man struggling with addiction, alcohol, trauma, eating disorders, loneliness, and recovery. Ray responds with compassion, encouraging Carson to seek help and reminding listeners that no one has to do this alone.   After that... the conversation heads behind the Patreon paywall, where Dave promises to spill the rest of the story.   Join us at Patreon.com/DopeyPodcast for the full episode. PLUS MORE! Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

Have you ever found yourself trying to balance the needs of your eating disorder, your treatment team, your family, and somewhere in the middle of all of that, completely losing sight of yourself? This episode is for you.This week on the Full of Beans Podcast, I'm joined by Sarah Parker, a psychotherapist based in West Yorkshire, who brings both professional expertise in eating disorder therapy and her own lived experience of fifteen years of anorexia.Sarah knows firsthand how people pleasing can keep you stuck in recovery, doing all the right things, saying all the right things, but doing it for everyone else rather than for yourself. That can be motivating to start with, but after time, motivation can fade and a true commitment to recovery is required.In this episode, we explore:Sarah's own experience of anorexia and what kept her stuck for so longSarah's experience of detainment, tube feeding, and how collaboration changed thisHow people pleasing shaped Sarah's experience of treatmentWhy bringing out the rebel can be more supportive than praising compliance in recoveryThe difference between motivation and commitment in eating disorder recoveryWhy commitment helps long-term recovery more than motivationHow to keep going on the days when every part of you is telling you not toWhy anger can actually be a sign that recovery is workingThe role of compassion in recoveryConnect with Us:Subscribe to the Full of Beans PodcastFollow Full of Beans on InstagramCheck out our websiteListen on YouTubeConnect with Sarah via her website or on Instagram (@wellofbeing13)⚠️ Content Note: This episode includes discussion of eating disorders, anorexia, detainment and tube feeding. Please take care while listening.

How do you know if you struggle with disordered eating thoughts and habits? And how can we foster a healthier environment for the next generation?In this episode of the Health by Haven Podcast, we sit down with Emily Miller, LPC, an eating disorder specialist, and owner of Apricity Counseling. Since 2017, Emily has been passionately helping individuals break free from chronic food struggles to rebuild a peaceful relationship with their bodies. In the episode, we break down:Disordered Eating 101: Understanding common diagnoses and learning how to identify if your daily habits cross into disordered territory.Finding Support & Treatment: Tangible steps on how to seek professional help and resources for recovery.Supporting Loved Ones: Compassionate advice on how to show up for a friend or family member who may be struggling.Raising Body-Neutral Kids: How to talk to children about food, nutrition, and their bodies in a supportive, shame-free way.Emily shares an abundance of actionable tips and resources that you can begin implementing today to foster body peace and food freedom. ✨ SUBSCRIBE to the Health by Haven podcast so you never miss an episode, and leave a review to help us spread holistic wellness education to more listeners!Join the Health by Haven Community:Newsletter: Subscribe for Recipes & Health TipsSupport the Show: Pledge your support for less than a cup of coffee!Instagram: @healthbyhavenWebsite: healthbyhaven.comConnect with Emily & Resources:Website: https://www.apricitycounselingsc.com/National Eating Disorder Association website to learn more & seak helpThanks to our Sponsors!Season 5 sponsor, Avodah Massage TherapyEpisode sponsor, Foundation of StoneSupport the show

This is actually a pretty wild story. During my first year in my PhD, a woman reached out to me through the contact form on my website and was like, "Hey, we're doing similar work! I would love to connect." I starred the email as something I needed to follow up on and then it got completely buried in my inbox. Then, several months later, one of my teachers emailed me and said, "Did you see this dissertation defense coming up? It is on binge eating." I immediately marked it in my calendar as something I had to attend. I arrived at the Zoom dissertation defense and as soon as I see this woman's name I was like, "Why is this person's name sound so familiar?" I sneak off into my inbox and look up her name and lo and behold, it was the same person who emailed me a few months prior. Honestly, I initially felt mortified I had not followed up with her sooner, but I immediately emailed her after the defense was over. We scheduled a Zoom chat and it was amazing how much we had in common. We come from a similar lens that binge eating recovery needs a body-based approach. It is the body and experiencing it internally and externally that is missing from most recovery modalities. In this week's episode, I chat with Dr. Kristina Dobyns, PhD, MA, Registered Somatic Movement Therapist, certified Nutritional Therapy Practitioner, and certified Mindfulness-Based Relapse Prevention facilitator, about: What worked and didn't work in Kristina's binge eating recovery journeyWhat she discovered in her research on binge eatingThe importance of building somatic awareness and interoceptionThe role of sensory strategiesUtilizing nutrition as a part of binge eating recoveryChallenging conventional recovery approachesYou can also read the transcript to this week's episode ​here​: https://www.stephaniemara.com/blog/body-based-strategies-for-binge-eatingYou're about to receive some game changing binge eating recovery strategies and I hope it feels helpful!With Compassion and Empathy, Stephanie Mara FoxKeep in touch with Kristina here: Website: https://www.BeyondBingeEating.comYoutube: www.BeyondBingeEating.com/@BeyondBingeEatingInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/BeyondBingeEating/FREE Eat-With-Awareness Bundle: https://beyondbingeeating.com/opt-in/Support the showKeep in touch with Stephanie Mara:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_stephaniemara/Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/stephaniemarafoxWebsite: https://www.stephaniemara.com/https://www.somaticeating.com/Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/stephmara/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@stephaniemarafoxContact: support@stephaniemara.comSupport the show:Become a supporter: https://www.buzzsprout.com/809987/supportAll affiliate links: https://www.stephaniemara.com/resourcesReceive 15% off my fave protein powder with code STEPHANIEMARA at checkout here: https://www.equipfoods.com/STEPHANIEMARAUse my Amazon Affiliate link when shopping on Amazon: https://amzn.to/448IyPlSpecial thanks to Bendsound for the music in this episode. www.bensou...

If you're in eating disorder recovery and living with ADHD, you might feel like you know what you're supposed to do—but actually doing it can feel overwhelming, inconsistent, or just plain exhausting. In this episode, we're joined by Natalie Stine to talk about why that happens—and what strategies can help. Natalie has dedicated herself to bridging her professional expertise and lived experience to provide neuro-affirming and collaborative nutrition therapy to her clients. We break down how ADHD impacts the brain in ways that directly affect recovery, from meal planning to emotional regulation. You'll hear practical, real-life strategies for working with a dietitian, reducing overwhelm around food, and building routines that are flexible enough to work with your brain—not against it. We also talk about how to advocate for yourself and find a treatment team that truly understands. No matter where you are in your recovery, this episode is here to offer support, validation, and tools you can actually use.   If you enjoy our show, please rate, review, subscribe, and tell your friends and colleagues!   Interested in being a guest on All Bodies. All Foods.? Email podcast@renfrewcenter.com for a chance to be featured.   All Bodies. All Foods. is a podcast by The Renfrew Center. Visit us at: https://renfrewcenter.com/

Sarah Rzemieniak is a Carolyn Costin Institute Certified eating disorder recovery coach. Since 2018, she has provided one-on-one recovery coaching to individuals worldwide, working alongside her small team of other CCI-certified coaches in private practice. Before this, Sarah worked as an eating disorder dietitian until she realized that her true passion was in the coaching and counselling aspect of the work.Sarah has her own lived experience of an eating disorder and considers herself fully recovered from anorexia nervosa. She lives on Vancouver Island in British Columbia, Canada with her husband and their two young sons.My main website: https://sarahrzemieniak.com/My bi-weekly blog: https://sarahrzemieniak.com/blog/My free recovery practices, to help ritualize the recovery journey in an inspiring way:  https://sarahrzemieniak.com/free-eating-disorder-resources/Recorded at ROC Vox Recording & Production Studios, Rochester, NY  rocvox.com

REPLAY! This conversation is too important to hear only once, and Jackie Goldschneider is exactly the reason why. Eating disorder recovery is not about food, and she wants you to understand why.On this episode of Wellness Junkies, host Amy Sherman sits down with Jackie Goldschneider, author, activist, and Real Housewives of New Jersey former cast member, to talk about something rarely discussed with this level of honesty. Jackie lived with anorexia for nearly two decades before finding her way to health in her mid-forties, and her story is a reminder that eating disorder recovery can happen at any stage of life.Her memoir, The Weight of Beautiful, was born from the experience she wished she'd had when she was searching for answers. She opens up about what it felt like to live inside an illness that nobody around her truly understood, why eating disorders in women so often go unrecognized, and what she wants families to know about eating disorder mental health. Telling someone to just eat does not work, and this conversation explains why.Jackie also reflects on the relationship between mental health and body image, the role compulsive movement played in her disorder, and the moment she finally decided to ask for help. For anyone who has struggled personally or watched someone they love struggle, eating disorder awareness starts with honest conversations like this one.She shares what life looks like now, from friendships and writing, to therapy and learning that good enough is sometimes exactly enough.Episode Breakdown:00:00 Jackie Goldschneider on Eating Disorder Recovery and Advocacy01:28 Weekly Highs With Amy and Jackie03:29 How Anorexia Took Hold and What No One Talked About06:02 What People Get Wrong About Eating Disorder Mental Health08:32 The Rock Bottom Moment That Changed Everything13:00 Going Public on Real Housewives and the Fallout18:00 Writing The Weight of Beautiful and Why It Had to Exist25:00 Eating Disorders in Women and the Silence Around Them32:00 What Recovery Actually Looks Like Day to Day38:00 Beauty Favorites and Product Picks44:00 Quick Beauty Routine46:00 How Jackie Stays Grounded and What Keeps Her GoingConnect with Jackie Goldschneider:Follow Jackie on Instagram Shop this episode: You know we love to give you the best of the best in wellness products and resources to help you learnmore about our podcast topics. In this week's episode, here are the products and brands that we talked about:All ProductsLumify Eye DropsThrive Liquid Lash Extensions MascaraFreck BeautyMAC Full Coverage Foundation⁠⁠⁠⁠For More on this Episode: Read the full show notes ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Recovery can feel deeply uncomfortable, unfamiliar, and at times utterly terrifying. But what if that discomfort is not proof that you are doing recovery wrong… but evidence that your brain and nervous system are learning something new?In this Q&A episode of Fly to Freedom, I answer real questions from members inside The Eating Disorder Recovery Circle about some of the hardest and most honest parts of eating disorder recovery.Together, we explore what happens when recovery feels wrong, why fear of weight gain goes far beyond appearance, how trauma can shape restriction and people-pleasing patterns, and what it really takes to keep choosing recovery when everything inside you wants to run back to what feels familiar.In this episode of Fly to Freedom, I talk about:✨ How to keep choosing recovery when the unfamiliar feels terrifying✨ Fear of weight gain, body changes, and the sensory experience of living in a changing body✨ Autism, sensory processing, clothing struggles, and feeling physically uncomfortable in recovery✨ Trauma, emotional abuse, people-pleasing, and why boundaries can feel so difficult✨ Binge eating, extreme hunger, refeeding, and understanding the difference between biology and pathology✨ Compensating behaviours, exercise, food rules, and how recovery rewires the brain✨ Why community and nervous system safety matter so deeply in eating disorder recoveryOne of the questions explores something I do not think we talk about enough in anorexia recovery and eating disorder recovery: the felt experience of weight gain. Not mirrors. Not scales. The physical sensation of inhabiting a body that feels different — clothes touching differently, movement feeling unfamiliar, heightened body awareness, and the intense sensory experience that can come with body changes, especially for autistic people.I also answer a powerful question about childhood trauma, emotional responsibility, caregiving, and restriction — and why recovery sometimes involves grieving the love, safety, or acceptance that was never fully received.We also explore one of the most misunderstood parts of eating disorder recovery: binge eating, extreme hunger, and what happens when a previously undernourished body finally begins asking for what it genuinely needs. I unpack the difference between biological refeeding responses and binge eating disorder, and why context matters so much when understanding hunger in recovery.And I share parts of my own recovery journey too, including how I challenged compensating behaviours, stopped compulsive exercise, responded to intense hunger, and allowed my body to repair after years of deprivation.If you are struggling with fear of weight gain, compensating, uncertainty, body discomfort, trauma, binge eating fears, or simply trying to stay committed when recovery feels terrifying, I hope this episode helps you feel seen, understood, and less alone.I am Julia Trehane, specialist anorexia recovery coach, and after fully recovering from decades of anorexia, orthorexia, and exercise addiction, I now help others navigate the emotions beneath an eating disorder to create lasting freedom. If you would like to find out more about me and my work, please visit https://www.juliatrehane.com/If you would like more support, deeper conversations like these, live coaching, workshops, courses, and a compassionate community of people who truly understand what recovery is like, you are very welcome inside The Eating Disorder Recovery Circle.Join The Eating Disorder Recovery Circle here:https://www.edrecoverycircle.com/joinIf you would like more instant support, for free, I recommend my new app - The Eating Disorder Recovery Companion. Click for more info on that.

In this episode, I explore my 3 secrets in eating disorder recovery. Time slots 1:31 My story 3:40 Food Freedom App 4:32 Working on motivation for change. 8:32 Roots of the past. 13:00 Regular eating. 16:42 Takeaway messages

What happens when anorexia no longer feels like something you struggle with and starts feeling like who you are? Many people with long-term anorexia, so-called "atypical" anorexia, and restrictive eating disorders fear recovery for reasons that go far beyond food. They worry about losing structure, purpose, safety, achievement, or even their sense of self. In this episode, I explore the powerful connection between anorexia and identity, why recovery can feel emotionally disorienting, and how people begin rebuilding a life that feels larger than the eating disorder. Whether you've lived with anorexia for years, support someone in recovery, or work in the eating disorder field, this conversation offers a compassionate look at one of the most overlooked barriers to healing. Why Anorexia Can Become Part of Your Identity I explain how long-term restrictive eating disorders often become intertwined with self-worth, achievement, emotional regulation, relationships, and daily routines. I also discuss why recovery can feel like losing a familiar version of yourself, even when you desperately want freedom. The Hidden Fear Behind Anorexia Recovery Many people assume that food is the hardest part of recovery. While nutritional rehabilitation matters, identity loss often creates an equally powerful challenge. I explore why letting go of anorexia can trigger grief, uncertainty, and fear, especially when the eating disorder has shaped your life for years. How Neurodivergence, Trauma, and Oppression Shape Eating Disorders I discuss how autism, ADHD, sensory processing differences, trauma, perfectionism, and chronic stress can influence restrictive eating patterns. I also examine how social pressures around thinness, productivity, compliance, and self-sacrifice affect women, queer people, trans people, people of color, disabled people, immigrants, fat people, and other marginalized communities. A Case Example: When Recovery Feels Like Losing Yourself Through the story of Angela, a composite case example, I illustrate how anorexia can become a trusted coping system and why recovery often requires building safety, flexibility, and self-trust rather than simply eliminating symptoms. Rebuilding Identity Beyond the Eating Disorder Recovery involves much more than changing eating behaviors. It often includes discovering values, interests, relationships, boundaries, creativity, and sources of meaning that exist outside the eating disorder. I share practical ways people begin reconnecting with themselves while navigating the uncertainty that recovery can bring. Key Takeaways Anorexia can become deeply intertwined with identity, especially after years of living with the disorder. Fear of recovery often reflects fear of losing safety, predictability, or self-understanding. Grief can be a normal part of healing and does not mean you want to stay sick. People in all body sizes can experience anorexia and restrictive eating disorders. Recovery creates opportunities to build a life that feels larger, richer, and more flexible than the eating disorder. Related Episodes The Quiet Places Where Anorexia Meets Identity & Expression on Apple & Spotify. “Slips” in Eating Disorder Recovery in 2026: Why Setbacks Are Part of Progress, Not Failure (With Mallary Tenore Tarpley, MFA) on Apple & Spotify. Chronic Eating Disorders in 2026: What Hope Can Actually Look Like on Apple & Spotify. Work With Dr. Marianne Miller If you are looking for support with anorexia, ARFID, binge eating disorder, bulimia, chronic eating disorders, or neurodivergent eating challenges, I would love to help. I provide eating disorder therapy for clients in California and Washington, D.C., along with coaching services worldwide. My practice specializes in neurodivergent-affirming, trauma-informed, weight-neutral care for adults, teens, and families. Learn more at www.drmariannemiller.com or connect with me on Instagram @drmariannemiller.

In this episode, I explore how to deal with extreme hunger in a Q and A format. 00:37 What do we mean by extreme hunger? 1:41 Can you avoid extreme hunger? 2:26 How long does extreme hunger last? 3:31 How does extreme hunger feel? 4:30 Physical versus mental hunger. 5:32 All-in or meal plan? 7:26 How to create safety around extreme hunger? 9:17 Could I develop binge eating disorder or bulimia? 10:36 How to deal with weight gain? 10:41 More about all-in or meal plan? 12:39 How to break the binge/restrict cycle? 13:57 What about emotional eating and other triggers? In eating disorder recovery, going through extreme hunger is often a terrifying but essential part of the healing process. When you are chronically undereating, the body shuts down and hunger and appetite cues are offline. You can feel numb and disconnected from your natural desire to eat. As you begin to eat more and to recover, the hunger intensity can be ferocious and wild. This is extreme hunger. It is a normal, biological response to a period of restriction and undereating. It is the body's cry for help. A signal to repair itself, restock essential energy stores and to restore the energy deficit. The deficit can be colossal, if you've been undereating for a long time. You can experience extreme hunger with any eating disorder or disordered eating behaviour, not only with anorexia. You can experience extreme hunger in any body shape and size, not only if you are emaciated.    

In this episode, I talk about how to stop purging through self-induced vomiting. I give practical steps to break this habit and talk about my own recovery journey from bulimia.

If you've spent years in restriction, figuring out "normal" eating can feel impossible. Am I finally eating enough, or am I overeating? This confusion is more common than you think. In today's coaching over coffee episode, we're tackling the question that keeps so many women stuck in recovery: How do you know if you're eating the right amount when your hunger cues are broken and everything feels foreign? In this practical episode, you'll discover: Why questioning if you need more food usually means YES, you do How to tell the difference between normal eating and actual binge eating The non-negotiable food framework that creates stability Why what feels like "too much" is often just enough Simple strategies to rebuild trust with your body's signals The "two more bites" rule that changed everything How to create mindful, honoring meal experiences For the woman who's tired of questioning every bite and ready to trust her body again. THE GOLDEN RULE: IF YOU'RE QUESTIONING, THE ANSWER IS YES If you find yourself questioning whether you should have another bite or more food—the answer is YES. When you've eaten enough food, you won't need to ask whether you've eaten enough food. This simple truth cuts through the mental noise and gives you permission to trust the impulse for more. THE RECOVERY REALITY: WHAT FEELS LIKE "TOO MUCH" In early recovery, I thought I was binge eating when I was actually just eating normally for the first time in years. The reality: After severe restriction, any increase in food feels like "too much" because you've never allowed yourself adequate amounts. Ask yourself honestly: Are you eating the whole cabinet in a trance-like state? Or are you simply having more than you previously allowed? Most likely, you're experiencing normal eating quantities that feel foreign after restriction—not actual binge eating. THE NON-NEGOTIABLE FRAMEWORK Start with the basics: Breakfast, lunch, dinner, and two snacks. Every single day. Minimum. Coming from restriction where you skipped meals, avoided eating, or used various disorder tactics, this structure creates stability. The volume will feel different—and that's the point. You're making up for lost time and teaching your body it can trust you again. REBUILDING YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH AMOUNTS The Observation Strategy Watch people without eating disorders. Notice what they order, what normal portions look like, how they eat without internal negotiation. Not for comparison—for education. This helps calibrate what "normal" actually looks like. The Time Check Method When questioning if you should eat: When was the last time you ate something? If it's been over an hour, that's a good opportunity for food. The Two More Bites Rule When you think you're "done": Take two more bites. This creates a safety buffer while giving permission to have more than restriction previously allowed. The Food Pairing Practice Always combine: Carb + protein + healthy fat. This fights the "good vs. bad foods" mentality while ensuring balanced nutrition. CONSCIOUS EATING VS. RESTRICTIVE EATING Conscious eating means: Electronics away, work away Sitting with feelings and thoughts that arise Eating even when not hungry as part of your commitment Taking pleasure in the experience Create honoring experiences: Set candles, buy flowers for your table Use beautiful dinner plates Eat around supportive people for accountability Make mealtime sacred, not rushed REBUILDING HUNGER CUES Your hunger cues may be broken from years of ignoring them. Your body learned not to signal hunger because you weren't going to respond anyway. This is normal and temporary. As you consistently nourish yourself, these signals will return. In the meantime: Follow your meal plan regardless of hunger signals. You're rebuilding trust. THE FOOD JOURNAL APPROACH Instead of calorie counting or macro tracking: Use your journal to explore the eating experience. Track feelings, not numbers: How do I feel before the meal? (anxious, neutral, excited) How do I feel during? (this tastes good, I'm enjoying this) How do I feel after? (energized, satisfied, guilty, peaceful) This builds awareness without the restriction mindset. CHALLENGING FOOD RULES Example: At a barbecue with burgers and buns Old rule: "I don't eat buns" or "I just ate before coming" Recovery challenge: Have the burger AND the bun Ask yourself: Am I honoring what's available, or am I following old restrictions disguised as "not being hungry"? ABUNDANCE VS. SCARCITY MINDSET When asking "Can I have more?" check your motivation: Scarcity mindset: "I shouldn't want more, I've had enough, I need to control this" Abundance mindset: "My body is asking for nourishment, I can trust this signal, there's plenty of food" Recovery operates from abundance. There's enough food. You're allowed to want more. Your body knows what it needs. THE NICOLE HOBBS QUOTE THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING "I do not want to be remembered as a woman who was always exhausted, always stressed, always rushing. I would like to be remembered as a relaxed woman, a compassionate woman, a woman who works hard and rests deeply, who loves fiercely and lives peacefully. A woman who knows her worth and her power, who accepts her imperfections and embraces her possibilities." This is your best self. This is who you're becoming through recovery—a woman who honors her body without constant internal negotiation. KEY QUOTES

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You can be wildly successful and still be quietly falling apart inside. Joel Kinnaman has appeared in some of the most talked-about shows in Hollywood. He has starred in The Killing, Robocop, House of Cards, Altered Carbon, and is currently in his fifth season of For All Mankind. And he will be the first to tell you that none of that made the war inside his head any quieter. Before every live theater performance for three straight years, he threw up. He kept a bucket backstage. The negative voices in his mind were relentless, and he spent years drinking heavily, using drugs, and force-feeding himself in a desperate attempt to hide the shame he felt about a physical condition that had left him feeling deformed since childhood. What changed everything was not a breakthrough moment. It was a choice to stop running from the fear and bury himself in the work. He memorized a 105-minute one-man show in 10 days, playing 16 different characters, and walked on stage without throwing up for the first time. That experience taught him something he still carries: preparation is armor. The deeper a role is in your bones, the more freedom you have to be alive inside it. He is still working on the personal side. He describes himself as a disaster in relationships, not from a lack of care, but from years of treating his career as the only thing that could not touch him. He talks about wanting to find the balance between the structure that builds trust and the childlike wonder that keeps him creative. That tension is where this conversation lives. Joel's IMDB In this episode you will: Understand how shame about a physical condition called pectus excavatum triggered an eating disorder that took years to unpack and overcome Discover how Joel turned debilitating stage fright and a 3-year pattern of pre-performance vomiting into a breakthrough that rewired his relationship with fear Learn why preparation is the most underrated performance skill and why Joel insists on being at least 3 nights ahead on every scene he shoots Hear why Joel sees himself as a different man in his career versus his personal relationships, and what he believes he needs to change to close that gap Explore how Joel uses psilocybin experiences, breathwork, and the Buddhist concept of shepa to create space between triggers and reaction in his daily life For more information go to https://lewishowes.com/1933 For more Greatness text PODCAST to +1 (614) 350-3960 Follow The Daily Motivation for essential highlights from The School of Greatness More SOG episodes we think you'll love: Lewis Howes Solo [7 Habits To Be Happier] Josh Groban The Jonas Brothers TOPICS Joel Kinnaman, stage fright, eating disorder recovery, pectus excavatum, performance anxiety, preparation as armor, shepa, psilocybin, self-loathing, personal growth, For All Mankind, relationship consistency Get more from Lewis! Get my New York Times Bestselling book, Make Money Easy!Get The Greatness Mindset audiobook on SpotifyText Lewis AIYouTubeInstagramWebsiteTiktokFacebookX Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

What does life actually look like after eating disorder recovery? Not the Instagram version—the real, honest truth. Today, on my youngest son's 8th birthday, I'm sharing the profound lessons recovery has taught me about life, motherhood, building a business, and navigating the beautiful mess of being fully human. These aren't platitudes or recovery clichés—they're hard-earned truths from someone living freely on the other side. In this deeply personal episode, you'll discover: Why your perspective determines whether thoughts become prison or power How fear reveals inexperience, not inability The recovery superpower that changes everything Why everything (yes, everything) is temporary The liberation of becoming your own rescue How to stop wasting your most precious currency Why healing happens through action, not perfection How your recovery creates ripples that save other lives For the woman wondering if recovery is worth it—this is your answer. THE BIRTHDAY REVELATION Yesterday, we celebrated my son turning 8. As I watched him blow out his candles, I got emotional thinking about all the birthdays I was present for him but not for myself. But more than that—I started reflecting on everything recovery has given me beyond just freedom from food noise. Wisdom about life, relationships, business, and what really matters. These 8 lessons aren't just about recovery—they're about living fully awake in your own life. LESSON 1: YOUR PERSPECTIVE CAN BE YOUR POWER OR YOUR PRISON During my disorder: My appetite = my failure. Family dinners = battlegrounds. My changing body = what I should fear above all other things. Now: My sons appetite (and mine)= health. Dinners = connection. His growth = beautiful unfolding. The truth: Your perspective shapes everything—how you see situations AND how you let others' opinions affect you. Eleanor Roosevelt was right: No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Recovery teaches you to withdraw that consent and choose empowering perspectives. Your thoughts can be the walls of your prison or the wings of your freedom. LESSON 2: FEAR COMES FROM INEXPERIENCE, NOT INCAPABILITY Every time I was terrified to try something new in business—launching programs, raising prices, speaking—it wasn't because I couldn't do it. I just hadn't done it yet. The eating disorder convinced me I was incapable of eating intuitively, resting without guilt, taking up space. But I wasn't incapable—I was inexperienced. Every fear about recovery isn't proof you can't do it. It's proof you haven't experienced it yet. The only way through inexperience is experience. LESSON 3: RADICAL HONESTY IS YOUR RECOVERY SUPERPOWER For years, I lied constantly: "I'm fine" (when dying inside) "I don't care about food" (when it consumed my thoughts) "Recovery is easy" (when it felt impossible) But dishonesty keeps you sick. Honesty sets you free. Being honest with my kids about needing rest. With clients about what recovery requires. With myself about what wasn't working. That radical honesty—about what you want, need, feel, and what must change—becomes your greatest recovery tool. LESSON 4: EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY—THE GOOD AND THE HARD The hard seasons pass: Teenage drama, business struggles, recovery setbacks. The beautiful moments pass too: My son's 8th birthday will never come again. Your eating disorder feels permanent when you're in it. Recovery struggles feel endless. But they're not. Recovery game-changer: Never ruin a good day thinking about yesterday's mistakes. One slip-up used to destroy my entire week. Now I know—yesterday's choices don't determine today's possibilities. Everything is temporary. How do you want to spend this temporary time? LESSON 5: YOU ARE YOUR OWN RESCUE This sounds harsh but it's liberating: No one is coming to save you from your eating disorder. No perfect therapist, magic moment, or external circumstance. The beautiful flip: You have everything you need inside you already. You don't need to wait for someone else to fix, validate, or give you permission to heal. You are the one you've been waiting for. Your recovery is your responsibility—and that's your power. LESSON 6: TIME IS YOUR GREATEST CURRENCY Building a business while raising kids taught me: Time is the only thing you can't make more of. I volunteer time for causes I believe in. Invest time in relationships that matter. Spend time on fulfilling work. But I refuse to waste time on: Diet culture Food obsession Body hatred Disorder behaviors Every minute in your eating disorder is a minute you can't spend living your actual life. LESSON 7: HEALING HAPPENS THROUGH ACTION, NOT PERFECTION My kids don't grow in perfect straight lines. Some days they're wise beyond their years, other days they melt down over socks. Recovery is the same. Some days you feel free, others you struggle with old thoughts. The key insight: You can't think your way to recovery. You have to live your way there. I didn't positive-think my way to food freedom. I acted my way there: Ate when I didn't want to Rested when it felt wrong Took up space when I wanted to shrink Your thinking changes to match your actions—not the other way around. LESSON 8: YOUR RECOVERY RIPPLES INTO THE WORLD When you recover loudly, you keep others from dying quietly. Your recovery matters beyond just you: Every woman who realizes she's not alone Every mother who models food freedom for her daughter Every person who chooses life over disorder Share this podcast. Share your story. Recover loudly so others know freedom is possible. THE TRUTH ABOUT LIFE AFTER RECOVERY As I tucked my 8-year-old in last night, he said, "Mom, this was the best birthday ever." I realized—I was fully present. Not calculating cake calories. Not worried about photos. Not planning tomorrow's restriction. That's the truth about life after recovery: You get the gift of being present for your own life. You get to: Show up fully for your kids Build businesses from passion, not perfectionism Love people without keeping score Take up space without apologizing Live without constant internal negotiation KEY QUOTES

In this episode of Recover to Flourish, I'm talking about an eating disorder behaviour that is rarely spoken about openly: chewing and spitting. This is something that can bring a huge amount of shame, secrecy, and isolation, yet so many people struggle with it behind closed doors.I explore what chewing and spitting actually is, why it can become so addictive and compulsive, the physical and psychological impact it can have, and why it often keeps people stuck in the eating disorder cycle. I also talk honestly about the emotions underneath the behaviour, the role of restriction, and what recovery can look like if this is something you're dealing with.If you've ever felt alone in this behaviour, I hope this episode helps you feel seen and understood.Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS:Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_podTikTok: @flourishwithciandraWebsite: https://flourishwithciandra.com/Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com

In this episode, we challenge internal binaries and make ourselves a little crazy. Tangents include mono, trusting your own autonomy, sexual abstinence, HBO's Girls, and more eating disorder literature. Plus, Christina launches a new podcast and we find out which drugs Lauren purchases in bulk. Enjoy!We'd love to hear from you! Here's how to join the conversation:* Leave us a voice message at www.speakpipe.com/picklesandvodka (first timers get a free sticker!*)* Subscribe to our Substack and never miss an episode: picklesandvodka.substack.com* Watch our faces on YouTube: youtube.com/@picklesandvodkapodcast* Follow our Instagram for poll alerts: @picklesandvodkapodcast* Join our Facebook group: facebook.com/picklesandvodkapodcast* Send us an email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com* Christina's religious trauma podcast: Clothesline Podcast* Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper* Christina's Substack (crisis corner): xtinajumper.substack.com* Lauren's personal Instagram: @lauren___afhReferences:* Slip: Life in the Middle of Eating Disorder Recovery by Mallary Tenore Tarpley* Dead Weight: Essays on Hunger and Harm by Emmeline Clein* The Hollow Half: a Memoir of Bodies and Borders by Sarah AzizaCredits:* Edited by Christina Jumper* Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines from Free Music Archive*while supplies last Get full access to Pickles and Vodka at picklesandvodka.substack.com/subscribe

In this week's episode, I chat about: I read 3 different food recovery Reddit stories I talk about recovery into a world that is just going to want to push you back into your food behaviors Grieving the time that has passed since your food coping behaviors began The comfort with being in the sympathetic nervous system making it difficult to recover The optimal pace of food recoveryThere are 4 days left to sign up for the Somatic Eating® Program! 

What happens when diet culture gets louder, ARFID awareness grows, social media becomes therapy language, and the pressure to be thin starts shaping everyday life again? In this episode of The Dr. Marianne-Land Podcast, I sit down with Lisa Jimenez (@lisajimeneztherapy) for a deeply honest conversation about what eating disorder therapists are actually seeing in 2026. We talk about the resurgence of appearance pressure, the subtle ways eating disorders can hide in plain sight, why more people are finally recognizing ARFID, and how identity, neurodivergence, trauma, and culture all shape recovery. This episode explores the realities many people quietly live with but rarely hear discussed out loud. Lisa Jimenez, LMHC, is an eating disorder therapist based in Miami who specializes in eating disorders, body image, anxiety, trauma, perfectionism, and work with teens, young adults, and queer clients. In this conversation, she shares how her own lived experience with an eating disorder shaped her approach to therapy and why she shifted toward EMDR, parts work, and more collaborative, relational treatment approaches. ARFID, Neurodivergence, and the Changing Eating Disorder Landscape Lisa and I discuss why ARFID is becoming more recognized and why many clinicians are still trying to catch up with the complexity of the diagnosis. We explore how sensory sensitivities, neurodivergence, attachment, trauma, and family dynamics can all affect eating. We also talk about why ARFID treatment requires much more than exposure work alone and why creating emotional and sensory safety matters so deeply in recovery. We also discuss the overlap between eating disorders, autism, ADHD, anxiety, perfectionism, and trauma, along with the growing role social media now plays in helping people identify experiences they previously could not name. Diet Culture, Social Media, and the Pressure to Be Thin in 2026 Diet culture feels especially aggressive right now, and this episode explores how that pressure shows up in both obvious and subtle ways. Lisa and I talk about “clean eating,” wellness culture, compulsive exercise messaging, “what I eat in a day” content, GLP-1 conversations, and the growing normalization of disordered behaviors online. We also discuss how eating disorders often hide behind socially praised behaviors, especially when restriction, over-exercising, or body control become culturally rewarded instead of recognized as signs of distress. Eating Disorders in Larger Bodies This conversation also explores how eating disorders frequently go unnoticed in larger bodies and how weight stigma continues to affect treatment, diagnosis, and recovery. Lisa and I discuss the harmful assumption that eating disorders must “look extreme” to be serious and why many people receive praise for behaviors that are actually rooted in restriction and suffering. We also talk about medical bias, healthcare experiences, and the reality that people can experience anorexia and severe eating disorder symptoms across a wide range of body sizes. Queer Identity, Intersectionality, and Eating Disorders Lisa shares insights from her work with queer clients, teens, and neurodivergent individuals, and we explore how identity and environment intersect with eating disorders in complex ways. We discuss cultural expectations around appearance, family and community pressures, social media influence, and the realities many queer and neurodivergent people face while navigating food and body image struggles. The conversation also examines how eating disorders often function as coping strategies for overwhelm, emotional pain, disconnection, or the pressure to survive in environments that do not feel safe or affirming. Connect With Lisa Jimenez, LMHC Instagram: @lisajimeneztherapy Website: lisajimeneztherapy.com Lisa sees clients virtually throughout Florida and New York and in person in South Miami. Related Episodes The Quiet Places Where Anorexia Meets Identity & Expression on Apple & Spotify. “Slips” in Eating Disorder Recovery in 2026: Why Setbacks Are Part of Progress, Not Failure (With Mallary Tenore Tarpley, MFA) on Apple & Spotify. Chronic Eating Disorders in 2026: What Hope Can Actually Look Like on Apple & Spotify. ARFID Explained: What It Feels Like, Why It's Misunderstood, & What Helps on Apple & Spotify.   Work With Dr. Marianne I'm Dr. Marianne Miller, LMFT (@drmariannemiller). I'm an eating disorder therapist specializing in ARFID, binge eating disorder, anorexia, bulimia, neurodivergence, autism, ADHD, and complex relationships with food and body image. I offer therapy, coaching, and ARFID-focused support for teens and adults. You can also explore my self-paced ARFID and selective eating course on my website drmariannemiller.com/arfid. If this episode resonated with you, please follow, rate, and share The Dr. Marianne-Land Podcast on Apple Podcasts and Spotify.

We often view exercise as the "golden ticket" for mental health, but for those navigating eating disorders, the line between movement and compulsion is incredibly thin.In this week's episode of Full of Beans, Han is joined by Dr. Amit Mistry, a Consultant Sports Psychiatrist at the Nightingale Hospital. Amit brings a unique dual perspective to the table, advocating for the robust mental health benefits of physical activity while managing the high-stakes clinical risks of over-exercise in inpatient eating disorder settings.We explore why exercise shouldn't be a "black or white" conversation and how we can reintroduce movement without falling back into the trap of rigidity.In this episode, we talk about:The Biopsychosocial Model: How sport serves as "fertiliser for the brain" while providing self-mastery and social connection.The Social Media Myth: Why we need to challenge the "exercise is all you need" narrative and replace it with a multi-pronged approach to mental health.Inpatient Realities: The difficult balance of prioritising physical stability (cardiovascular status and refeeding) while introducing social exercises like yoga or swimming.Exercise as a Spectrum: Identifying when recreational movement crosses the line into a systemic, "drug-like" addiction that impacts bone health and fertility.Red-S vs. Depression: The clinical challenge of distinguishing between relative energy deficiency in sport and primary low mood.The "Elite" Trap: Why 99% of us aren't elite athletes and shouldn't be following the regimented, high-intake/high-output diets we see in our feeds.Diagnostic Switching: Understanding the shift into Orthorexia and why being "high functioning" doesn't mean you aren't in distress.Something that really stayed with me from this conversation was the idea of Identity vs. Performance. When we strip away the sports and the training, who are we? Recovery isn't about stopping forever; it's about regaining the autonomy to choose rest without guilt.Connect with Us:Subscribe to the Full of Beans PodcastFollow Full of Beans on InstagramCheck out our websiteListen on YouTubeConnect with Dr Amit on Instagram (@dramistrypsych)⚠️ Content Note: This episode includes discussion of eating disorders, anxiety, restrictive eating and medical trauma. Please look after yourself as you listen.If you enjoyed this episode, don't forget to subscribe, rate, and share to help us spread awareness.Sending positive beans your way, Han

In this episode, Dr. Brendan McCarthy dives deep into the psychology of ultra-processed foods, compulsive eating, shame, and why so many people feel trapped in unhealthy food cycles. This conversation goes far beyond calories and willpower. Dr. McCarthy explains how ultra-processed and hyper-palatable foods are intentionally engineered to drive repeat consumption, how emotional memories and stress shape cravings, and why shame-based nutrition advice often makes the problem worse instead of better. Topics covered in this episode include: • How ultra-processed foods affect the brain • Why compulsive eating is learned — and can be unlearned • The connection between trauma, stress, and food cravings • The difference between guilt and shame • How marketing and emotional associations shape eating habits • Why “clean eating” language can be harmful • The neuroscience of cravings, dopamine, serotonin, and reward • What real freedom with food actually looks like • Why self-compassion matters in healing If you've ever felt trapped in cycles of emotional eating, binge eating, food guilt, or shame around nutrition, this episode is for you.  

Fan Mail: Tell Wendy how you're saying yes to yourself!Say "Yes!" to travel! Just check your calendar, book your flight, and pack your cute outfits:Cognac Jewelry School, FranceJune 27-July 4, 2026 or August 15-22, 2026: phineaswrighthouse.com/the-shop/p/cognac-jewellery-school-summer-foundations2027 Foundations: phineaswrighthouse.com/the-shop/p/cognac-jewellery-school-summer-foundations-2027SIn the 300th episode of Say YES to Yourself!, Wendy sits down with Katie Beecher, licensed counselor and medical intuitive who helps people connect to their intuition and listen to what their bodies are trying to tell them. Katie recovered from bulimia at age 16 after reaching out to a Jungian psychologist without her parents' support—a decision that changed the trajectory of her life.They explore:How to challenge your worry and ask: Is this fruitful or just draining?Why treating symptoms as friends changes everythingHow to stop waiting for perfect conditions and start living your life nowThis is a conversation about trusting yourself, setting boundaries, and learning to live now instead of waiting for perfect conditions. Connect with Katie:Get her book, Heal From Within: https://a.co/d/0bVHH8sw Website: katiebeecher.comFacebook: facebook.com/beechermedicalintuitive Instagram: instagram.com/katiebeecher_medical_intuitiveReferenced in this Episode:Course in Miracles Linksamzn.to/4u1EaOlmarianne.com/acim/apps.apple.com/us/app/acim-remind/id737568020________________________________________________________________________________________Connect with Wendy:LinkedinInstagram: @wendy.harropFacebook: Phineas Wright HouseWebsite: Phineas Wright House PWH Farm StaysPWH Curated Experience and TravelInterested in being a guest on the show? Send your pitch to podcast@phineaswrighthouse.comPodcast Production By Shannon Warner of Resonant Collective Want to start your own podcast? Let's chat!If this episode resonated, follow Say YES to Yourself! and leave a  5-star review. It helps more women in midlife discover the tools, stories, and community that make saying YES not only possible, but powerful.

If you thought motherhood would make eating disorder recovery easier, but instead you've found yourself still struggling with food, body image, pregnancy changes, postpartum identity shifts, or old ED thoughts resurfacing — you are not alone.In this episode, I'm sharing why eating disorder recovery can feel harder in motherhood, not because you're failing, but because pregnancy, postpartum, feeding children, identity shifts, and the pressure to be a “good mom” can reactivate old patterns.You do not have to be fully healed to be a good, loving, attuned mother.In this episode, we'll talk about:– Why motherhood doesn't automatically “fix” eating disorder recovery– Why pregnancy and postpartum can bring old ED thoughts back up– Why loving your children doesn't mean recovery suddenly becomes easy– How shame can show up when you feel like you “should be further along”– Why you do not have to be fully healed to be a good motherJoin Lift the Shame, my free virtual support group for moms in eating disorder recovery:https://www.crystalkarges.com/lift-the-shame-online-support-groupDisclaimer: This episode is for educational and supportive purposes only and is not a substitute for individualized medical, nutrition, or mental health care.If this episode resonated, I'd love to invite you into Lift the Shame, my free virtual support group for moms in eating disorder recovery.And if you're looking for deeper support during pregnancy, postpartum, or motherhood, Nourished Motherhood is my small-group coaching cohort for moms navigating eating disorder recovery in the tender, messy middle of mothering. Get full access to Lift The Shame: The Column at crystalkarges.substack.com/subscribe

Guys. We just hit Episode 200!!  Whether you've been here since the beginning or you just found this podcast five minutes ago, I'm really glad you're here. This space has grown in ways I never expected, and it only works because you keep showing up and actually doing this work alongside me. In this episode, we're shifting the focus away from motivation and onto three capacities that actually determine whether you can follow through. These are the things that help you take action when you're tired, overwhelmed, not in the mood, or honestly just done with all of it. This is the work that makes recovery possible in real life, not just in theory. If you've ever felt stuck in that cycle of wanting to change but not being able to act on it consistently, this is where things start to make a lot more sense. Quotes  "Ultimately, if motivation were enough, most of you would already be recovered." - Rachelle Heinemann "Motivation depends on your mood. It depends on your level of energy, and very often eating disorders reduce motivation for recovery because they solve something." - Rachelle Heinemann "Recovery requires skills that you can use without that feeling." - Rachelle Heinemann "Most eating disorder behaviors are attempts to regulate discomfort quickly. It is not necessarily instant gratification, but in some ways it is." - Rachelle Heinemann "There is no full recovery without relational recovery as well." - Rachelle Heinemann Resources Brave on Purpose! - Grab my new book here! Grab my Journal Prompts Here! Looking for a speaker for an upcoming event? Let's chat! Now accepting new clients! Find out if we're a good fit!    LEAVE A REVIEW + help someone who may need this podcast by sharing this episode. Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter here! You can connect with me on Instagram @rachelleheinemann, through my website www.rachelleheinemann.com, or email me directly at rachelle@rachelleheinemann.com

My current perspective on eating disorders is that labeling food behaviors as a disorder has kept the field of food recovery distracted, continuing to focus on that food is the problem. Patterns of binge eating, restriction, yo yo dieting, food noise, and body image struggles need to be re-labeled as nervous system dysregulation or a trauma response. Food, for many, was never actually the problem, but it was the strategy to support the nervous system, to cultivate safety, and to produce specific neurotransmitters. The safer you feel in your body, the less you can experience food or body image impulses that are trying to facilitate safety.In this week's episode, I chat with Francesca Annenberg, Eating Disorder Recovery, Somatic Practitioner, and Psychedelic Integration Guide, about: How psychedelic assisted therapies can be utilized in food recoveryHow movement, sensory awareness and reconnecting with the body can transform food and body image issuesBuilding safety and trust in the bodyThe connection between food, relationships, and self worthYou can also read the transcript to this week's episode here: https://www.stephaniemara.com/blog/breakthrough-food-recovery-stucknessI truly believe somatic psychology has been the missing piece for many people struggling for decades with their food and body image. This is why I'm passionate about teaching my three month live Somatic Eating® Program to be able to reach more people with this work. You can learn more at ​somaticeating.com​. The doors are open to join now and I would love to connect with you more in the program.With Compassion and Empathy, Stephanie Mara FoxKeep in touch with Francesca: Website: http://www.francescaeatsroses.com/ IG + TikTok: @francescaeatsroses LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/francesca-rose-annenberg-46966631 Email: hello@francescaeatsroses.comSupport the showKeep in touch with Stephanie Mara:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_stephaniemara/Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/stephaniemarafoxWebsite: https://www.stephaniemara.com/https://www.somaticeating.com/Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/stephmara/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@stephaniemarafoxContact: support@stephaniemara.comSupport the show:Become a supporter: https://www.buzzsprout.com/809987/supportAll affiliate links: https://www.stephaniemara.com/resourcesReceive 15% off my fave protein powder with code STEPHANIEMARA at checkout here: https://www.equipfoods.com/STEPHANIEMARAUse my Amazon Affiliate link when shopping on Amazon: https://amzn.to/448IyPlSpecial thanks to Bendsound for the music in this episode. www.bensou...

Eating disorders are complicated illnesses that skyrocketed among teenagers during the COVID-19 pandemic. Pediatrician Eva Trujillo says they "literally rewire the brain," decrease brain size, and make it harder to concentrate and to regulate emotions. Malnutrition can slow the metabolism, impact bone density and even lead to cardiac arrest. But Eva says, with the right treatment, people can also recover fully. She's the president of the International Association of Eating Disorder Professionals and co-founder of Comenzar de Nuevo, a leading treatment facility in Latin America. Today on the show, host Emily Kwong talks about the physical and mental impacts of eating disorders with Dr. Trujillo and Moorea Friedman, a teen mental health advocate and host of the podcast Balancing Act. Plus, how to recover in a world steeped in diet culture. (encore)Want us to cover more mental health topics? Tell us by emailing shortwave@npr.org! We'd love to know what you want to hear from us!Listen to every episode of Short Wave sponsor-free and support our work at NPR by signing up for Short Wave+ at plus.npr.org/shortwave.See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for sponsorship and to manage your podcast sponsorship preferences.NPR Privacy Policy

In this episode of Mental Note Podcast, Ellie Pike sits down with Harper Reed—eating disorder survivor and recovery coach—for an honest conversation about eating disorder recovery, grief, anxiety, and what it really takes to rebuild your life after feeling stuck. Harper shares how years of cycling in and out of treatment eventually gave way to a powerful mindset shift: realizing she had to build a life worth recovering for. Together, they explore identity beyond diagnosis, the challenge of unstructured time, and the small, meaningful steps that help us reconnect to purpose. Whether you're navigating recovery, processing loss, or simply feeling stuck in a rut, this episode offers grounded hope and practical encouragement for moving forward—one manageable step at a time.   Links: Harper Reed Instagram @harperreed.coaching Website: Harper Reed Coaching   Mental Note Podcast www.mentalnotepodcast.com  Pathlight Mood & Anxiety Center: www.pathlightbh.com     Eating Recovery Center: www.eatingrecoverycenter.com Free Group Support: www.pathlightbh.com/support-groups    Free Evaluation with a Trained Therapist:  (877) 850-7199 

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After a year of headlines, heartbreak, and healing, Brianna “Chickenfry” LaPaglia is stepping into a whole new era. One of Barstool's most prominent female voices, host of her relaunched Plan Bri Uncut, Sports Illustrated Swimsuit feature, and Fox's Special Forces alum, Brianna joins Vic to open up about surviving a very public breakup, redefining closure, and rebuilding her relationship with herself. She gets candid about her anxiety-induced eating disorder, the truth about gaining weight in a world obsessed with shrinking, and what it really took to become healthy again. From solo trips to Scotland that helped her rediscover her personality to hard truths about being “selfish” in your healing season, this episode is a masterclass in moving forward with confidence. If you've ever struggled with heartbreak, body image, people-pleasing, or finding your spark again, this one will hit home!Connect with Bri:Instagram: @briannalapaglia and @planbriuncutTikTok: @ihatebriannachickenfry// SPONSORS //Premier Protein: Find your favorite flavor at premierprotein.com or at Amazon, Walmart, and other major retailers. Vuori: Go to vuori.com/realpod to receive 20% off your first purchase and enjoy free shipping on any U.S. orders over $75 and free returns.Peloton: Let yourself run, lift, sculpt, push, and go. Explore the new Peloton Cross Training Tread+ at onepeloton.com. CozyEarth: Head to cozyearth.com and use my code REALPOD for up to 20% off.Please note that this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode.Produced by Dear Media.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.