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Today's episode features American musician, writer and acivist Alex Maiolo.Alex composes for modular synthesizer under the monikers Action Group, and TRIPLE X SNAXXX. Both projects are equally influenced by Motorik, aka Krautrock music, Suzanne Ciani, Psychedelia, Detroit techno, ambient music, and Giorgio Moroder.He also is a regular contributor to Louder Than War and The Quietus.Ladies and gentlemen, meet the erudite Alex Maiolo...If you can, please support the Electronically Yours podcast via my Patreon: patreon.com/electronicallyours
Ursula Sereghy vzbudila před čtyřmi lety velkou pozornost debutovým albem OK Box, které mezi nejlepší desky roku zařadil i britský magazín Quietus. Zatímco debut do značné míry odrážel pocity izolace, které jsme zažili během globální pandemie, novinka Cordial je podle pražské experimentální hudebnice spíše psycho-magickým nástrojem, kterým si do života vepsala pocit domova a zážitky z „budování funkční komunity“, ve které se cítí dobře. V rozhovoru přiznává, že letošní deska je „méně dekonstrukce a více field recordings“, a větší prostor dostává i její hlas. I když na nahrávku směřovala hlavně pozitivní emoce, v poslední době se naučila být taky víc naštvaná. Jak se Ursule Sereghy jako hudebnici z východní Evropy daří ordinovat si sebevědomí? Jak se vyrovnávala s prokletím druhého alba a co pro ni znamená pražský hudební prostor Synth Library? Poslouchejte speciální díl Soundsystému, jehož hostkou byla pražská hudebnice respektovaná na evropské scéně experimentální hudby. Podpořte vznik dalších dílů: https://www.darujme.cz/projekt/1205779
Ned Raggett joins us to close out our coverage of the second semi-final for Eurovision 2025. This week, we approach the entries from Australia, Serbia, Denmark, Austria, Israel, and Georgia. Ned Raggett Ned Raggett writes a lot, is a denizen of social media (https://bsky.app/profile/nedraggett.bsky.social), and more things besides. He has written for Pitchfork, the Guardian, The Quietus, Rolling Stone, The Wire, Shfl, Bandcamp Daily, Freaky Trigger, OC Weekly, Nashville Scene, Seattle Weekly, SF Weekly, SF Chronicle, KQED Arts, Vice, Careless Talk Costs Lives, Plan B, Loose Lips Sink Ships, FACT, Red Bull Music Academy, Fake Jazz and probably more than a few things that keep slipping his mind. Mélange Summary Australia - Go-Jo - "Milkshake Man" (1:34) Serbia - Princ - "Mila" (11:01) Denmark - Sissal - "Hallucination" (17:43) Austria - JJ - "Wasted Love" (26:10) Israel - Yuval Raphael - "New Day Will Rise" (39:44) Georgia - Mariam Shengelia - "Freedom" (42:06) Final Thoughts (50:24) Subscribe The EuroWhat? Podcast is available wherever you get your podcasts. Find your podcast app to subscribe here (https://www.eurowhat.com/subscribe). Comments, questions, and episode topic suggestions are always welcome. You can shoot us an email (mailto:eurowhatpodcast@gmail.com) or reach out on Bluesky @eurowhat.bsky.social (https://bsky.app/profile/eurowhat.bsky.social). Basel 2025 Keep up with Eurovision selection season on our Basel 2025 page (https://www.eurowhat.com/2025-basel)! We have a calendar with links to livestreams, details about entries as their selected, plus our Spotify playlists with every song we can find that is trying to get the Eurovision stage. Join the EuroWhat AV Club! If you would like to help financially support the show, we are hosting the EuroWhat AV Club over on Patreon! We have a slew of bonus episodes with deep dives on Eurovision-adjacent topics. Special Guest: Ned Raggett.
Haley Fohr, who performs as Circuit des Yeux, is known for her hauntingly powerful voice and immersive, genre-defying sound. As Pitchfork put it, her voice is “a force of nature” that “pulses with raw emotion.” Her album -io, was hailed by The New York Times as “a deeply evocative exploration of loss, identity, and the self.” With a career marked by boundary-pushing work, Haley continues to redefine what it means to create music that is both deeply personal and universally resonant. Her newest record, Halo on the Inside, was commended by The Quietus for its "immaculately crafted" tracks, particularly "Truth," which "recalls the rave from The Matrix in its endearing camp and undeniable swagger." In this episode, she talks about how songs by The Stooges, Sly and the Family Stone, and Joni Mitchell shaped her sensibilities. Halo on the Inside was released by Matador on March 14, 2025.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
Haley Fohr, who performs as Circuit des Yeux, is known for her hauntingly powerful voice and immersive, genre-defying sound. As Pitchfork put it, her voice is “a force of nature” that “pulses with raw emotion.” Her album -io, was hailed by The New York Times as “a deeply evocative exploration of loss, identity, and the self.” With a career marked by boundary-pushing work, Haley continues to redefine what it means to create music that is both deeply personal and universally resonant. Her newest record, Halo on the Inside, was commended by The Quietus for its "immaculately crafted" tracks, particularly "Truth," which "recalls the rave from The Matrix in its endearing camp and undeniable swagger." In this episode, she talks about how songs by The Stooges, Sly and the Family Stone, and Joni Mitchell shaped her sensibilities. Halo on the Inside was released by Matador on March 14, 2025.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
Story One – Bridgend Lying between the sandy beaches of South Wales's Gower Peninsula and the rugged mountains of the Brecon Beacons, the county of Bridgend is surrounded by areas of outstanding natural beauty. But over a three-year period in the late 2000's, the area was devastated by a string of teenage suicides. Just what was happening in Bridgend? Story Two – Eleven Eleven years. Eleven diaries. Eleven deaths. In July 2018, a small town in North Delhi, India was rocked to its core when an entire family perished under strange circumstances. A case still heavily under investigation, we question; what were the events which led up to the mysterious Burari deaths. MUSIC Tracks used by kind permission of Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 Tracks used by kind permission of CO.AG Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Contemporary artist Sylvia Snowden figures different approaches to expressionism, layering Western European and African American art histories, through their paintings of M Street, in Washington DC (1978-1997). Inside the White Cube: Sylvia Snowden runs at White Cube Paris until 16 November 2024. For more about Sylvia Snowden, read about their exhibitions with Edel Assanti during Frieze London in 2022, in gowithYamo: gowithyamo.com/blog-post-app/frieze-2022-retrospective For more about Chaïm Soutine read about Soutine: Kossoff at Hastings Contemporary, in gowithYamo: gowithyamo.com/blog-post-app/a-perfect-match-chaim-soutine-meets-leon-kossoff For more about Oskar Kokoschka, read about A Rebel from Vienna at the Musée d'Art Moderne in Paris, and Guggenheim Bilbao, in The Quietus: thequietus.com/culture/art/skar-kokoschka-a-rebel-from-vienna-guggenheim-bilbao-review/ PRODUCER: Jelena Sofronijevic. Follow EMPIRE LINES on Instagram: instagram.com/empirelinespodcast And Twitter: twitter.com/jelsofron/status/1306563558063271936 Support EMPIRE LINES on Patreon: patreon.com/empirelines
Queen's cockpit. Quietus. Quilkin. Hannah Haverkamp rejoins the Antiques Freaks to delve into the quirkiest letter of the nautical alphabet.
A chunky episode, this, as we tackle the last fortnight of music news.We mull over Charli XCX's Brat and it's completely different but also still brat, a star-studded remix album that reworks the original from the stems up. If these are Brat Summer's dying embers, then it's a flame that struggles to consistently flicker – but the bright spots are very bright indeed.We pay tribute to Ka, the Brooklyn rapper who died earlier this month aged 52. A proudly independent artist, Ka eschewed industry conventions to build one of underground hip-hop's most committed fanbases – an example to us all. We also remember Jackmaster, whose influence both onstage and behind the scenes helped define an era of British club culture, and we grapple with how to eulogise those who've done harm.Next we get into Chal's recent essay for The Quietus about the current state of the dancefloor (have we truly lost dancing? And is it Tinder's fault?), before finishing on the brilliant new album from Oklahoma dirtbags Chat Pile. Plus, the usual film chat to close.As ever, if you enjoyed this episode of No Tags, please do rate, review and subscribe on your go-to podcast app, as it does really help. We'd also ask you to consider subscribing to our paid tier, which costs a mere £5 a month and helps us continue planning, recording and editing regular podcasts.Timestamps01:03 Brat and it's completely different…18:33 Ka28:32 Jackmaster44:10 Is everyone talking about dancing, rather than doing it?56:42 Chat Pile59:40 The obligatory films bit Get full access to No Tags at notagspodcast.substack.com/subscribe
On this episode, Richard, Tyler, and special guest CJ play Quietus! https://www.drivethrurpg.com/en/product/297814/quietus-a-roleplaying-game-of-melancholy-horror Welcome to True Strike, a podcast for tabletop nerds. Each Tuesday, listen in while two friends discuss their completely unwarranted opinions about all things tabletop. Topics vary each week from D&D and Daggerheart, to whatever TTRPG or board game they happen to be playing! Hosts: Richard Cullen/Tyler Worthey Song by: WILDJOE1
Aravetti works out his differences with Truss. Matters are tense because the Red Feathers at sorrow's end have managed to scramble a skyship to respond to the emergency and they now have a platoon of soldiers armed and ready, but unaware that Aravetti and The Butcher are responsible for the attack. The Butcher and Orimar can't help but make deals. Content Note Mainshow: Gunshot sound effects, body horror, religious horror Dear Uhuru: Quietus Mill continued... Olivia and Dennison negotiate their way into an expedition into the Quietus woods. OH CAPTAIN, MY CAPTAIN Pre-order now! THE ULTIMATE RPG PODCAST Listen Here! OSN BOOK CLUB ANTHOLOGY VOL. 1 Get notified for launch! HELP TRACY Support their Gofundme SKYJOUST FIGHT WITH SPIRIT EXPANSION Get it now! ULTIMATE RPG GAMEMASTER'S GUIDE Pre-order now! SKYJACKS: COURIER'S CALL IS BACK! Listen on Spotify (or any other podcatcher app)! JOIN OUR MAILING LIST Right Here! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
In this intimate conversation, Stephen Chamberlain, a former U.S. Coast Guard officer, small business owner, and writer, candidly discusses his personal struggles and victories. From navigating anxiety disorders to his cathartic discovery of writing and poetry, Steve opens up about his life journey. He delves into the complexities of moral injury, the therapeutic potential of psychedelics, his 40-year relationship with disordered eating and anxiety, and his pursuit of contentment through nomadic living and creative expression.Steve's raw honesty provides a unique lens into the challenges of coping with men's mental health issues while striving for fulfillment. His writing not only serves as a personal outlet but also connects him to a broader community of writers and readers interested healing and self-reflection.Timeline:* 01:28 Background and Early Life* 03:04 Struggles with Disordered Eating, Anxiety, and Joining the Coast Guard* 04:22 Life in the Coast Guard and Personal Challenges* 05:47 Post-Retirement Life and Discovering a Nomadic Writing Journey* 07:35 Exploring New Ventures and Digital Nomadism* 09:50 Writing as a Cathartic Experience* 12:41 Peer Support and Mental Health Advocacy* 17:56 Moral Injury in the Coast Guard* 38:56 Struggles with Weight and Anxiety* 40:00 Understanding Male Anorexia and Its Impact* 40:47 The Battle Between Rational and Irrational Voices* 42:38 Poetry as a Means of Control* 45:14 Exploring Psychedelics for Treatment* 47:28 The Transformative Impact of Psychedelic Experiences* 58:13 Embracing Mortality and Planning Ahead* 01:03:28 Future Plans and Other Pursuits* 01:07:13 Connecting with the AudienceConnect with Steve and his writing @ Steve's Substack Steve's Collections of Poetry: My Raven and My BlackbirdAI Machine Transcription - Enjoy the Glitches!Steve: Right off the bat, anyone who tries to write understands that writing is very difficult, but what I could do is write about my experiences. The things that I find easiest to write about are things I'm most familiar with, and the thing I'm most familiar with is what I'm feeling and thinking inside. This sounds clichéd, but it's true, cathartic and I found that relatability they feel less alone and that just encouraged me to write more. And quite frankly, if I have one person tell me that, "hey, that thing you wrote really resonated with me or helped me," I'm like a score! if I can help somebody, then it was worth putting out there.Even if nobody reads them, it felt good to get them out. And it did feel cathartic to get it out. I've come to the conclusion that, what I want to get out of life in my remaining years is as many moments of contentment and fulfillment as I can.[Music] Leafbox: Good afternoon, Steve. Before we start, I wanted to thank you. Even though you're a smaller publisher and you're just starting off on your journey of writing.One of the things that really stood out to me about your writing is that it feels like it's coming from a very authentic place. And, my own writing and my own efforts across life. That's one of the hardest things to find and be true to so thank you for at least expressing in a way that feels genuine and true and in today's world I think that's a harder thing to do.Before we start, why don't you just tell us, Steve, a little bit about who you are, maybe what you're writing about why you came to writing.Steve: Yeah, yeah, absolutely. I'm 57 years old, so I've been around for a little bit and my background is pretty varied.I grew up in a suburb of Boston. Irish Catholic family, first generation to move into the suburbs from South Boston and second generation of my family to actually go to college. I went to a public school, and it, it was a pretty benign suburban existence.I would say right up through my university years, I went to a commuter school, UMass University of Massachusetts in Lowell, Mass, and something I could afford in that day and age by working part time and lived at home and really had no, what I would call significant life experience. Until I left home and went to the Coast Guard's Officer Candidate School after college.But I think it is noteworthy to say that like a lot of typical families of that era, I had, it was dysfunctional, but most people have some sort of dysfunction in their family. Alcoholic dad, very much a perfectionist. Everyone in the family seemed to be driven by anxiety created by their predecessors and I picked that up as well.And it's notable to say that I developed an eating disorder in my high school years, which is a male in the 1980s I think was very eating disorders are stigmatized. Among all genders, even today, but being a guy in the 80s when there was really no infrastructure set up to, to diagnose, recognize, or treat it made it particularly challenging.And I really got into triathlons and long distance running and marathons. Got to a really unhealthy weight. And, my mom did her best to get me in with psychologists and psychiatrists, but none of them really had a handle on how to deal with somebody like me. And it, it caused quite a bit of isolation for me in high school.College was a little bit better simply because it was a commuter school and I would go do my work and come home. So I became quite a loner, but, for reasons that I can't describe other than just being impulsive in my early years, I applied after college to the Coast Guard's Officer Candidate School and somehow got in and spent about four months down in Virginia in basic training and then the next 25 years in the Coast Guard and the eating disorder I somehow managed.Gained some weight was always a little odd with my eating habits, but and very excessive with my exercise habits and very rigid as I am to this day. But those 25 years in the Coast Guard were both fulfilling and beset by a little bit of inertia. I think it's a challenging job, but and as you get more.Responsibility more senior becomes more challenging and more all encompassing, but by the same token, it's a secure job where even though you move every couple of years, the culture remains the same. So for a guy with anxiety and quite frankly, anorexia nervosa is an anxiety disorder when you get right down to it.The Coast Guard was a relatively comfortable place for me. In 2015 I was serving in Alameda and living in San Francisco, which is where you and I met. And I also retired from the Coast Guard that year. At the time I was married, but my anxiety, which demonstrated itself in those days, I think is more of a extreme dedication to work kind of a workaholism, if you would call it that really, destroyed my marriage. And by 2017, 2018, we were divorced, which was really, for me, the point in time in which I think I gained a level of self awareness that A lot of my peers do not seem to have, and I'm not trying to be, I'm not trying to brag or anything like that because I tend to surround myself with friends like you who are self aware and do look inward and do understand they have egos and those egos are rather hard to control.And but having that self awareness. This is really a great way to determine when your ego is getting the better of you. And it was the divorce that kind of opened my eyes to the fact that I had not been a good husband. That my dedication to work was one of these fleeting needs for professional affirmation that came at the expense of any sort of long term personal contentment.And it was that self awareness obtained relatively late in life, my late forties, early fifties, that led me to writing and led me to trying several other Endeavors. I worked a little bit in the wine industry for three years and learned what I could at a small five person wine startup.I impulsively bought Airstream trailer and spent about a year and a half, 2020 at the Covid years. As a matter of fact I launched my digital nomadism, as I called it in March of 2020. No, great plan to do that, but at the same time, the whole country. Pretty much shut down and spent a little over a year place really enjoying that kind of existence.And fortunately with a military pension and a small business running some companies, alcohol compliance operations, I was able to support myself. And not like minutes overhead on the Airstream trailer I had I decided to stop and go back to Massachusetts for a couple of years, rented a small house.And my mom and dad are there. They're older now. They're still in the same town I grew up in. My sisters are there. But I found after about three years there, my eating disorder had I guess I'd say I relapsed a little bit, not full scale after decades of it being more or less managed, but not certainly cured.Realized that I was going to be stuck with that for the rest of my life, but also thinking my time in Massachusetts was a good time to really become introspective, maybe more present, practice meditation investigate psychedelics which you helped me with Three years later, to be honest I didn't do it while I was there, just thought about it a lot and and really work on myself.And quite frankly, after those three years had passed I felt that I honestly, I've been inside my own head so much time that I was feeling worse, not better. And I was also feeling restless, which I did not expect to feel after decades of moving every couple of years. I thought I'd be quite ready to settle and I wasn't.So I very impulsively decided that rather than using a trailer, I'd try and see if I could do the same Nomadic existence with Airbnbs, if I could find Airbnb hosts who would rent long term to me. And right off the bat, I found somebody who gave me a two year lease on a place in Florida.But the writing really started I'd say around the time I launched in the Airstream 2020, where I started a blog about, my trip. And right off the bat, anyone who tries to write understands that writing is very difficult. In all people who write fiction I cannot write dialogue.I it's way too challenging for me. But what I could do is write about my experiences. And I think what you were getting at the beginning of this conversation was that, the things that I find easiest to write about are things I'm most familiar with and the thing I'm most familiar with is what I'm feeling and thinking inside again, something I never could have done before my divorce.But it helped me get to a place where I felt it was almost, and this sounds clichéd but it's true, cathartic to write about things that I was feeling, I was thinking and then publishing them in different venues like Substack and where I am now and Medium where I was before and getting not a lot of feedback, some feedback.And I found that relatability was on one hand, a really good hook for a personal essay because people enjoy reading things that are relatable to them. They feel less alone. I enjoy getting that feedback for obvious reasons. Somebody liked what I wrote, but also because I feel less alone while somebody else feels this way too.And that just encouraged me to write more. And I, I am not particularly skilled at poetry, and I'm really honest, I don't love reading poetry, but I decided I like the structure of poems. And I Picked up a pen and tried to write a few poems. I don't think my poetry is particularly good or particularly musical or the right words, but I do the challenge of trying to find the right words to condense into a particular structure to convey a certain idea.And that idea really shot back to relatability and I started writing some short haiku, some tankas and a couple of other poem forms about my anxiety, about not so much the eating disorder, although I have written a couple of essays about the eating disorder, but just the way I was feeling in the world.And even if nobody reads them, it felt good to get them out. And it did feel cathartic to get it out. And I haven't written poetry in a little while, but for a couple of years it was really an obsession of mine and I did get some good feedback and there were people who could relate to some of the things that I wrote and some of the metaphors that I used for my anxiety.And for, since that. Point in time, I have started a peer support company with a couple of Coast Guard veterans. Even though I've given up on myself in terms of therapy helping, I do feel better just not by not struggling so much to try and get better. That probably made me feel 10 percent better overall, but I do realize there's a need forMore health care, mental health care workers and as a component to any sort of a treatment plan peer support really resonated with me because there's evidence that shows that it works. Look at any. Substance abuse group. That's the strength in it is sitting around with people with shared experience, but it gets back to my writing too, which is relatability.If you don't feel like you're the only one feeling that way, or you're the only one with a, an addiction, or the only one who's experienced sexual trauma, and you can't tell anyone about it, but then you're in a room with people who have stories that are remarkably like yours, who feel remarkably like you do.Who who went through the same journey that you're going through. That in and of itself has a healing aspect. When I had the opportunity to start this company called Mindstrong Guardians earmarked towards the Coast Guard and Coast Guard people fall in the cracks between Department of Defense and first responders.So many folks are traumatized and don't get help. We. We felt we'd found a niche, and that leads me to today. Leafbox: Steve, could I just interrupt you? I want to talk about your poetic forms and your kind of nomadic lifestyle. But I want to go back to when you were after college, why did you just impulsively join the Coast Guard?Was that an escape for you? Or what were you looking for? Were you looking for? I'm just curious. Steve: I think I had romanticized the Coast Guard, Robert. I grew up outside of Austin. The Coast Guard Academy was in Connecticut. And There was nothing complex about it. I got my hands on a Coast Guard Academy bulletin, the front of the bulletin being the kind of booklet that describes the Coast Guard Academy to potential applicants.And the front cover was the Coast Guards has America's tall ship the Coast Guard Cutter Eagle, which is a three masted barb. And it's a sailing vessel. Very old school and it looked really cool to me. And I had spent my summers working. near my hometown in Concord, Massachusetts at a place called Minuteman National Historical Park, the old North Bridge, but they also had the homes of Emerson and Hawthorne and places where Melville had written.And I really got, and Thoreau and I really got into their writings and the idea of this. The ship that looked like it came right out of, to me at that stage, Moby Dick really appealed to me. And that's as deep as it got. I thought to myself, I'm going to go here. This is a cool school.I'm going to have this maritime life by I grew up really enjoying our, the family's annual trip from the suburb to Cape Cod, Massachusetts, the seashore. And part of the reason for that is the two weeks a year, my family was on Cape Cod and we were rigid and religious about going there, nothing bad ever happened.My, my aunt and uncle were there. My cousins were there. My dad didn't drink. He hung out with us people didn't fight. They loved it. And I just associated. Even though I wasn't an ocean going guy and didn't have that background, I associated those two, two weeks a year on the beach with a calm serenity that I didn't have the 50 other weeks of the year, the 50 other weeks of the year.I was anxious about, what's my dad going to be like tonight. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. It's one thing or another. And then I'd have this two week long exhale. And for some reason, I taught that to the Coast Guard Academy. So I applied for the Academy and I didn't get in, which was no shocker.I didn't have great grades. But I kept that idea in my head and after graduating from UMass, I thought there must be another way in and there was so I drove myself to a recruiter in Boston and submitted an application and, Lo and behold, they accepted me and the acceptance wasn't a deeply thought out thing.It was just, I'll have a job and I won't have to live at home. And that's that it'll buy me a few years time because there was a three year active duty commitment after you got out. And I thought this is what I need. Otherwise, what am I going to do? Just, live in Boston all my life, or I had no plans, no aspirations, no nothing.So this was something. Yeah. I'm glad I took it, but that's as deep as it went. Leafbox: Steve, one of the essays that I really enjoyed was, maybe I have a bias too, I, I've interviewed another author who was a Coast Guard vet, and they're the forgotten branch, like you said, of the military, but one of the things you wrote about was your concept of moral injury in the Coast Guard and across I guess government employees and all branches of, employees across all groups and organizations. Could you expand on what you mean by moral injury and maybe some of the personal experiences you had during the Coast Guard? Steve: Absolutely. I'm glad you brought up moral injury because.Moral injury in general is not something that most people think about when they think about trauma. And when they do think about it, they think about the most obvious examples of moral injury. Moral injury is basically having to do something that is counter to your personal values. And having to do it, when I say that, as A matter of carrying out your responsibilities, which in public service can happen quite often.So the first place you go with that is you teach people. And I think people inherently know that killing other people or hurting other people is wrong. And suddenly you train somebody, whether they're in the army or the Marine Corps. Maybe whatever to kill other people and you put them in a position where they are, that's their job to kill other people and they end up killing other people.They have done something essentially at cross purposes with their internal values and that creates a conflict which in and of itself can develop into trauma. There are other ways that moral injury can occur, and the one I've seen most often with Coast Guard veterans is search and rescue, and my role was not being out on a boat, pulling people out of the water.My role was basically planning searches, approving search areas, figuring out What resources to send, but most of all figuring out when you had to suspend or end a search, not having found the person you're looking for and to tell the family that you're suspending the search which I've had to do three times in my career.And I've, plenty of people who have done it much more frequently than that, but you remember every time. And that there's a huge vulnerability to moral injury in. In that sort of work, because you feel like I am in a life saving organization, I joined the organization because I want to save lives, at least that's part of what the Coast Guard does.And here I am telling somebody that not only have I not saved their loved one's life, but I'm giving up.People obviously don't react well to that. That really, Increases that feeling that I have fundamentally failed at my job. I have fundamentally violated one of my core values. I would not want somebody to give up looking for my best friend, my brother, my sister, my parent, and this guy here is telling me he's given up.Now, when we suspend a search, we don't do it lightly. We keep them informed throughout the search process and prepare them for the possibility. But, we look at how long can somebody survive in water at that temperature? What are the odds of finding them? This search area expands every hour and on.So you reach a point where continued searching really isn't going to yield results. You are damn near confident that you're not going to find that person. My essay was a little bit different and surprised me because it was nothing like that and just to touch on the area that really saying it scarred me or it definitely created moral injury for me, but it was such a relatively benign event that two decades later, I still scratch my head and say, why did, why does this to this day?still make me feel emotional. And essentially, I was the, working in the U. S. Embassy in the Bahamas, which I was the Coast Guard's liaison officer there. So my job was to interact with Bahamian officials when we had essentially cross border operations going on or interdictions of smugglers and that sort of thing.And in one particular case a U. S. Coast Guard vessel intercepted a raft of Cuban refugees in Bahamian territorial seas, so we returned those people to the Bahamas. And my job was to meet the Coast Guard ship at the pier in the Bahamas to make sure there was an orderly transfer of the Cuban refugees from the U.S. Coast Guard to the Bahamian immigration officials. Thank you very much. This particular group of refugees came in on a Christmas morning. So I was in my uniform on the pier waiting for the Coast Guard ship. Coast Guard ship comes in Coast Guard. Immigration authorities are there with their vans.And I knew they would take these people to a detention center in the center of new Providence Island, where Nassau Bahamas is located. And eventually transport them back to Cuba. I'd done this before and it was routine, but there were, I remember there were 26 people and I, they came off the gangway of Coast Guard ship to the pier and there was a little girl, maybe five or six who had a doll and.I was on the gangway, and she was struggling to get up on the gangway, so she just looked at me and handed me the doll, and then I helped her up, and then walked her over the gangway and got her to the pier, and she looked at me and put her arms out again for the doll, and I gave her the doll back, and then she and the rest of the people got in the van and went to the detention center, and I never saw them again.I went home that day after that, and 20 years later, that still makes me feel sad, and I still wonder about that girl, and I feel like this isn't what I signed up to do. I didn't sign up to take this person whose family had placed her on this unsafe raft, pushed her into the water, to head to the U.S. with an unknown outcome. And suddenly she's in the Bahamas, not even her family's intended location for her and going to a detention center at age of five or six. And it wasn't a brutal detention center, but it wasn't pleasant. I had been there several times. It was barracks, basically, in the middle of the island with razor wire around it.And then back to Cuba, where she may or may not be. Reintroduced to whatever family she had, and it just felt so out of line with any reason I had to have joined the Coast Guard or any personal value. I felt at the time and throughout my 25 years, I compartmentalize things and. desensitize myself to things like this, but that one I was never able to do it.And like I said, I've done Mexican notifications that haven't bothered me that much. Yeah I wrote my essay on that, but I think the Coast Guard really does, as you said, is the forgotten service because people assume that, hey, if you're not being shot at, what do you have to complain about?And I see Coast Guard veterans all the time with untreated PTSD from doing the things that Coast Guard people do which are very similar to things first responders do. And often they're 18, 19 year old people out there in the front lines, and they're either, shooting an engine out of a smuggling vessel to stop it, or they're trying to find somebody that they don't end up finding, or they find somebody after they passed away, or they find somebody after a horrible boating accident and, all of these things are traumatic in their own right, but when When you say that, Hey, I didn't sign up to come out and shoot people.I signed up to save people and I didn't save this person. I guess that's where my story comes home to roost is I didn't save this person. I just made life a lot worse for this person and it doesn't feel good. I just didn't expect it to not feel good. 20 years later. Leafbox: Does the Coast Guard now have the same culture? You wrote another essay about I think it's called mental personal protective equipment, the mPPE. What's the current state of like when you talk to vets at your officer level, are you finding the same kind of Moral injury and trauma that's manifesting. How are they expressing it? Or are they, alcoholism? What are the issues that other vets are really facing now? Steve: Yeah, that's a great question. Because I think culturally there have been incremental changes, but the Coast Guard, like the other services is very much suck it up type environment always has been. It's a little less. So now the Coast Guard has created a cadre of mental health providers that are accessible.Mental health is a little less stigmatized, but it's far from where it needs to be. And I think it's worth noting that particularly an officer in the military, and that includes the Coast Guard, we all know and refer to our careers as zero defect environments. And I knew that, and that just stokes up anxiety that you're going to make a mistake.And a mistake is, hey, my search pattern was wrong and somebody drowned. You start to become more worried about your career than somebody drowning. The slightest mistake can end your career. And it really is your defect. So when it comes to the stigmatization of mental illness, no officer wants to acknowledge it.And what the Coast Guard has done is created a little more access. to mental health support, but has done nothing substantial about changing the culture. So if I were in the Coast Guard right now I would never acknowledge having a high level of anxiety, never acknowledge having an eating disorder.I never acknowledge any sort of mental illness as an officer in the military, because that is a career ender in most cases. Less so now, but still culturally, there is a fear. I'm going to lose my security clearance if I go to see, seek help. If I go to a therapist, I know a lot of what they do now, Robert and have done for years is go out privately and pay out of pocket.And yeah, I have a good friend who is an excellent Coast Guard lawyer, but he suffers from severe depression. And the Coast Guard doesn't know this. He is on SSRIs, and the Coast Guard doesn't know this. And he has, in his particular case, SSRIs, antidepressant drugs, pharmaceuticals, and therapy.He views them as having been life saving. For him knowledge to the Coast Guard that he is receiving therapy or using this medication because real or not, he is fearful that it would end his career and so that's one way of coping with it. And that's probably the healthiest way of coping with it. Outside of the Coast Guard, I've met veterans who are alcoholics or use alcohol as a crutch.And simply don't seek help because we fall into that trap too, where we feel like we're sucking resources away from some young combat vet in the army. If I see a therapist at the veterans administration, and I may be entitled to do that, I am. Because I'm one of the five, six armed services now, but most Coast Guard people I've talked to when we were developing our company, our peer support company felt like I don't want to steal resources from, from the army, from the Marines, from these people who really deserve it when I don't deserve it.And that's, and as a result, they're untreated. And when you're untreated and you've suffered trauma, you live a life of suffering. That is in many cases, unnecessary if you the right treatment. So I think in the Coast Guard, this is particularly acute, but I think across all the services, when you look at the suicide rate of military veterans in general there's no argument that something isn't happening here and it's not just.I was in a combat area and I saw really bad things. It's that you have to move every couple of years that families are always under strain. That, it's hard enough to maintain a marriage when you're in a more stable environment. It's really challenging when one person's At home and unable to start a career because you're moving every couple of years for your career and deployments are extremely stressful where you don't see your family for, 12, 15 months at a pop.It's a stressful existence in general. It's worthwhile and fulfilling in many ways, but from a personal standpoint it's, it can be. That's the best answer I can give. And then Steve, you didn't do any writing when you were in service, right? So this became a post divorce liberation escape?Steve: Yeah. It, I couldn't have done it, Robert. I utterly lacked the introspection that I needed to do. I, that I needed to sustain my marriage. I didn't, I realized that my being a workaholic was not good for my marriage, but it was a blind spot for me. I thought in the future.And I, I don't think I would have it's funny because had we stayed married, I'd still be rather obtuse when it came to introspection. I probably never would have started writing. So it's the divorce spurred the self awareness and the self awareness spurred the writing. Leafbox: And then what's the response? You're writing a Medium and Substack. Have you shared essays and poems and other writing with vets or how are they responding to writing as a release? Steve: There are some vets who see my writing and it's funny because on Substack they usually come to me via email directly if they like something or something resonated with them rather than say anything on Substack directly.But it hasn't really resonated in particular with veterans. Some of the things I write about, anxiety is universal in, in our culture anyway. It, I would say extreme anxiety, anxiety over things that you look at and you're like, why am I anxious over this, that I had to do this today when this is relatively easy to get time.But I've also found that, if you eliminate and avoid the big things, then the anxiety is just as intense with the little things. So that's some of the stuff that I write about. But I will say I really hesitated to put anything out there about the eating disorder because of the stigma associated with men.And eating disorders. I only recently put something out on Substack because I just got to a point where I'm like, you know what, if it helps somebody, great. If a few folks didn't know about it haven't come across it, then they can ask me questions about it. But I do feel awkward. I feel embarrassed.I'm a guy, I'm not supposed to have an eating disorder. I even feel that way. And I've had it for 40 years. But I also realized that, you know what, if I live another 20, 30 years I'm going to have it. It's not going away. So I think I just have to come to some sort of accommodation. An acceptance of that. I'm not saying it's untreatable. It is treatable. It's tough to treat anorexia, but I've just decided that, therapies I've tried for anxiety haven't been particularly effective for me. So that's just a personal choice I've made. Leafbox: I think, all the writers I gravitate towards and I interviewed, I think one of the main things I appreciate is when they're truly honest.And even though you have these issues of shame and anxiety, I think it resonates that it's coming from a place that feels very genuine. So thank you. For listeners, can you give us, I don't know much about male anorexia. What does that manifest as? Is that kind of like an Adonis complex similar to bodybuilders or what does this mean? . Steve: Yeah, that, that was spot on. There is. Another disorder, and I don't know the name of it, for young male adolescents who want to get big, so to speak. They're obsessed with getting large. For me, it was more insidious than that. And in my teens, I saw my dad as an alcoholic.Now I look back at my dad and I'm like, wow, we're exactly the same. He was a highly anxious perfectionist like me. And like most anxious people, he didn't like uncertainty and like it's full of uncertainties and he would self medicate with alcohol. And I thought, I don't want to be anything like that.I want to be the opposite. Right at the beginning of the running craze in the U S I decided I don't know. I was maybe 15, 16 I was gonna start running. And I started running and the reason was, so I, cause I didn't want to be like my dad. I wanted to be healthy. And then that kind of transitioned into, I'm going to eat healthier too.And I'm going to make my own food. And then I got very strict about what I ate, not with an intent to lose weight just to with, I'm not going to eat junk anymore. In the 70s and the 80s, that was particularly tough. Everything was processed and prepackaged. But I found so I became very choosy.And because of the running and the desire to eat healthy, which were honest and good and benign at first. I lost weight for some reason. As I lost weight, Robert, I found it anathema to, I just didn't want to gain it again. I didn't even think of it as a disorder. It was like, no, if I'm losing weight and I'm out participating in triathlons, which were evolving in the eighties as a thing.And, I was doing five or six triathlons a summer up in Massachusetts and I was 19 by the time I really hit my peak triathlon years. And I ran Boston marathon in 1990 in two hours and 40 something minutes. And that was walking a lot the last six miles. And I thought I could really do something here.And the weight loss, while I don't think contributing to it, probably undermining my performance. I looked at that as. Helping me excel. I'm like if I'm losing weight and I'm running sub two Boston marathons, what could I do if I lost more weight and trained more? So that is how it came on. I didn't even really think of it as an eating disorder, and it wasn't really discussed in those days.But when I look at some of the I've destroyed every photograph I could find of myself in those days because I looked emaciated. I saw my high school yearbook picture and Honestly, Robert, I was, I'm six foot tall. I think I had gotten down to about 128, 127 pounds. I was obviously malnourished, but I didn't think of it that way.I thought this is the path to better performance, more exercise. More strictness with my food. And of course all my triathlon heroes were eating this way. And I thought this is the way I got to go. The Coast Guard interrupted that. And somehow I got up to by my thirties, about 170 pounds.I was happy with that. I was okay with it. I even wanted to gain more, I felt healthy. I felt good. And then. As I gained more responsibility in the Coast Guard I my anxiety drove me less or drove me away from strength training, which was the only thing really maintaining my, my, my physique to just endurance training, which eased my anxiety.And, my weight dipped a little bit, but it was okay when I left the Coast Guard. And then, COVID comes along and I'm in the airstream and starting to feel really weak and never weighing myself because I had anxiety about getting on scale. It was either too heavy or too light, one or the other.But I sat for a year in the airstream when I went to see the doctor about why I felt so exhausted all the time that I dropped I don't know, 12, 13 pounds from the time I started the airstream and that just re sparked the whole thing in my head. So the thing that I thought I was at least managing, I wasn't managing, but anorexia to answer your question, because I straight away from that is it's the same.It's, bulimia is where you purge anorexia is got its purge element, but the purges exercise and calorie control. And I it's the same in men as it is in women. It's a control thing. It's an anxiety disorder. It is the, I've got no control over what's happening in the world. I can't control what's happening in my body, but it's not articulated that way.And I think the best way to articulate it every man or woman I've talked to with anxiety with anorexia. Has, and I've written about this. I don't know if I've published the most recent one yet as two voices in their head, and I call it a rational voice, which knows what I should be doing to live a healthy life.And the fact that I am undernourished even to this day and the irrational voice, which is. Hey you're doing fine. You're surviving like this. Why would you want to gain any more weight? It's irrational, but it wins every time. It, my metaphor is the irrational voice always ends up with it.It's booed on the neck of the rational voice. And I, I don't know how to overcome that, but I have found that to be universal with anorexia sufferers, and they have the two voices in their head, and the irrational voice always seems to win and people who don't have it, they don't win.Can't understand how I can look in the mirror or anyone who's under nurse can look in the mirror and feel that they are overweight. Even when your rational voice is there, you screaming at you that you are fine. In fact, you need to gain a few pounds that living a life where you're under 6 percent body fat every day.Maybe that's why you're cold all the time. Steve, is not a healthy way to live. I have osteoporosis now. If I had been a smoker or had been somebody who ate bad foods and had a heart disease, I'd do something. But with the osteoporosis, the irrational voice just argues it away. And I'm like, no, but that came because I've been undernourished and over exercising.And that's going to be a problem as I age. It's an irrational disease that's born of anxiety and control. And unless you're there, you can't really get it, but I will say it. It's got the highest mortality rate of any mental illness, I think even more so than depression. Leafbox: Steve going back to your poetry, I just, do you see a parallel?I was surprised by all the poems have very structured, you have haikus, tankas, minkas, something called the cinquain , which I've never heard of before. But all these very structured. So is that a release? How does it interact with your control issues? Steve: It's, it's a manifestation of control issues.It's; I'm glad you brought that up. You're the first person to actually see that. As I said earlier, I'm not a poet. I don't, I'm not particularly creative from my perspective. What attracted me to poetry and in particular to very structured poems, haiku is simple, but I'm like, wow, you have to say as much as you can say using that 5, 7, 5 syllable structure.I like that. It's, it feeds that desire to be in control. It's a challenge and it is spot on. A manifestation and one could say you're not doing anything to, do some free verse. And it's now I don't want to do free first. I, that scratches my itch to do a haiku or a tanka and yeah, you're spot on.It's. You call it OCD, call it anxiety, call it what you will. That's what it is. But I, I honestly don't, I've accepted it. I'm like, fine. It gives me a moment of fulfillment to get that out there. It gives me, however long it takes me to generate the poem a period of contentment. And I've come to the conclusion that, what I want to get out of life in my remaining years is as many moments of contentment and fulfillment as I can.Because what else is there, and I, struggling to fix myself wasn't working. So writing a haiku and spending a couple of hours on it or whatever it takes does that for me. And I'm like, fine, I'll take it. If my OCD, pursuing my OCD and straightening up the picture on the wall gives me a feeling of contentment, I'll take it.Because. Time is finite, and you really begin to realize that when I think for me, when you get close to 60, you're like, wow, there, there's a window of time here, just be as content as possible for as often as possible and accept the discontent is just a contrast. So you appreciate the contented periods, Leafbox: Steve, maybe we could talk about, I wanted to see how you would. Free flow for prose, but maybe we can talk about your experience with psychedelics and how that maybe was the opposite of control. Steve: Yeah, absolutely. I became interested in psychedelics during my period in Massachusetts that affixed me period as a potential cure for anxiety, OCD, is like many people you're watching documentaries about the effectiveness of psychedelics for certain mental health conditions.But when I got to that point where I'm like, you know what, I'm just going to accept myself as I am, I still was interested in psychedelics as an experience, but I didn't want to hang my head on the idea that I'd come out of a, a trip and be suddenly cured of anxiety. That to me would have just led to disappointment.It's unrealistic. And I actually talked to you and my big concern was trying to sort a good guide. Who would provide me with good support. I didn't want a therapist at this period of time with, because the psychedelic trip to me was about preparation. It's about set and setting.It's about being self aware. It's about being a lot of things and not just taking some mushrooms and, wherever you happen to be and saying, wow, that was a great trip. Like you would drink a beer or something. So I found you helped me find a location in Oregon. And I hired a good guide and we did a lot of preparation and a lot of attention setting, and because I was flying from Florida to Portland, I decided to have two trips during a 10 day period.And I self prepared, the location, the setting was incredible. And that, that was huge. I couldn't have done this in an improper location. It was quiet, it was peaceful. It was a port Portland craftsman house and the room was comfortable and safe. And my guide was with me the whole time.And the first.I, and it became this battle with me. It was a moderate dose of psilocybin. It was it was for, therapeutic dose, but not extreme. And I just, For some reason went into it, not really having expectations, but thinking as soon as it hit me, I'm like, I'm, it was Steven anxious, Steve, they're saying, I'm not going to let something control.I'm not going to let it control me. I flexing and unflexing my muscles the whole time. And while I felt it was a significant event, I certainly didn't get the most out of it. So three days later, I go back. We agree on a much larger dose and I had really focused on not fighting it. The most significant experience I ever had in my life, Robert, why I couldn't articulate it to you.It's like I was saying about anorexia. If you haven't been there, you don't get it. People who have experienced psychedelics will get it. It wasn't easy for it, but it was definitely ecstatic. It was unifying, but not in a blissful way. It was, if I had to describe it physically, it was a series of fever dreams that would start and stop with the guide's soundtrack, every new track would end one fever dream and start another, I don't even remember a lot of what was going on, but I do remember feeling so gratified that I hadn't tried to fight it, that I did feel this unification, this oneness that I.I had what you call an afterglow for several days. On my flight home, I was talking to people at the airport bar while waiting for my flight. I don't do that. I was had striking up conversations with people. I'm a good flyer, but I don't like turbulence. When the plane hits turbulence, I get anxious about it.Plane hit a lot of turbulence in the way home. It didn't. latest, it was just this acceptance. What happens for the next week. I would say I was more clearly not just, I think I'm more empathetic. It was, I was more empathetic and a nicer person. Did it wear off? Yeah. But, Oh my God. The fact that a week after this experience.I still feel this glow is just incredible. And I would say coming out of the trip that afternoon I felt exhausted and it's like finishing a marathon, if you ask me as I'm just ending the run, if I'm going to do it again, I'm going to tell you, no, never, that's, it was horrible.Never. But if you ask me two hours later, I'm going to be like, yeah, absolutely. Yeah. That this is the most significant experience of my life. I could go into detail about what I experienced, but there's nothing really to tell that would knock anybody's socks off. I think it's just, if you've done it you get what I'm saying.And if you haven't done it I look around at people, my peers, ex military guys who I know will never try it. I feel bad for them. I'm like you're never going to get to, wow. And I want to do this. It's something I don't want to do frequently, but I want to do it regularly. And did it cure my anxiety?No, but I wasn't trying to cure my anxiety. It was to this day, I will be, I am grateful that I did it. And I'm interested in trying, ketamine or, Nor am I a PTSD sufferer who might benefit from MDMA, which I think shows great promise, but psilocybin and hallucinogenics strike me as just very cliché and mind opening and they are.Leafbox: Steve, when you came back from your trip, how has it affected your creativity in writing? You keep saying that you're not creative, but you're sharing and producing. So did you feel more free? Steve: Yeah, I think I've always felt free and open with my writing. And I think I was self aware enough that some folks said did you have any revelations when you were dripping?And I thought, no, not really. I, I kind of have explored all that stuff, but I wasn't expecting that. Yeah, there was this I did, I wrote a poem or two about the experience. I was exuberant and excited about the world of psychedelics. I think I even talked to you about what more can I do in this field?It, my, my writing has always been open, but I think done it, and then I wrote an essay about it on Substack Ever. I don't think, for example, I would have published. A piece on my eating disorder. Had I not just gone through that and thought, why not? Again if the idea is somebody may benefit from it.And a few people may think less of me because of it, then it's worth putting it out there. And I don't think I would have done that had I not had the psychedelic experience. I think there is an element of a psychedelic trip that kind of, I don't want to say green lights you to be more expressive and more open, but reveals to you the fact that there's minimal downside and a lot of upside to being more open and honest.And quite frankly, if I have one person tell me that, hey, that thing you wrote really Resonated with me or helped me. I'm like, if there were 10 haters out there, I've written some things on white privilege, and there are a lot of haters who have gotten back to me on that. But 10 haters to one person saying that you helped me.I'm like a score, if I can help somebody, then it was worth putting out there. So I think it just pushed me over the edge, Robert, where I felt comfortable on that. In writing about the eating disorders and putting it out there. Leafbox: Do you also, I think, some of your writing I'm curious about, you have a lot of animals in your poetry.Do you ever think about that? Or, there's a psychedelic parallel. Some of the the tropes of psychedelics, the coyote. So I'm curious if there's any, what's the use of animals in your poetry and writing? Steve: The animals and the most frequent one I use are actually just literary metaphors that resonate with me. That that no one would be surprised that, a coyote, even if it's a relatively benign animal. It's it's, it implies a threat. For me, the raven and the blackbird are the animals I go to the most in part, because I do the of Edgar Allen Poe. And of course, he's, most famous for the raven, but the raven struck me as the perfect metaphor for anxiety, a raven circling over your head and digging its talents into you the blackbird.Struck me as a perfect metaphor for depression. I can't tell you why, not really, the origins of these metaphors are not in, in psychedelics as much as they are in just starting out with a literary interest that I fancy in terms of being great ways in my head to articulate an abstract idea. And I don't know if everybody gets it, the Raven being a metaphor for anxiety is a way to make anxiety physical and real.And they'reobviously a good way to to express anxiety. But the raven, I think works and it works for me. And I've often wondered, Robert, I'm like, I wonder if anybody even understands what I'm putting out, not because it's particularly complex, but just because it's particularly personal and people may not, I think the poem you referred to with the coyote was serenity, where I was describing a benign, serene walk or something like that.And then the coyote appears. I'm like it's, That's the uncertainty of anxiety, even butting into that moment and always around the bend, like what's going to happen now, Leafbox: What's paradoxical is all of those animals are also quite free, right? And then going back to what you said about joining the Coast Guard, there's an element of that freedom in the ocean, the sailing, the kind of, And I think you have another poem that I enjoy called Quietus this about good sailing.Yeah. Yeah. And it seems like there's a, you're always, I don't want to personalize it or psycho Freudian read it, but there seems to be an element of desire for freedom and exploration. And the coyote itself is an animal that's quite stoic and free from exploring the West, and the Raven as well.Steve: They are. And you're, Your insightfulness is pretty remarkable because throughout my period of time working with a therapist several years ago, I kept telling the therapist, I'm like, the guy I want to be is the guy who just, I want to put on some weight. I want to relax a little bit.I want to smoke an occasional cigar, a little vice that I like. I don't want to worry about everything. I ride a motorcycle now. Why? Because I feel a sense of freedom on that motorcycle, a sense of happiness and contentment on that motorcycle that I don't get any other time of the day. While I say I've accepted my anxiety, I have because I'm tired of struggling against it.You're spot on and I hadn't really thought of the freedom of the animals that way, but the guy I want to be is, I, you look at motorcycle culture and yeah, there's the outlaw motorcycle culture, but there's also this, Motorcycle clubs originated not to break the law, but just this people who just didn't want to be tethered.The way I live now, I can pack all my belongings in a Subaru hatchback. I don't own stuff and that's by choice. But there's an element of, I'm struggling to be this guy who is that freak coyote, but also burdened with this anxiety that, that lashes me to a routine that is predictable and secure.Leafbox: You know what? It's a contradiction. Yeah. One of the freeing things that interests listeners is that you told me the story about grave buying and how that might be an act of freedom. Steve: Yeah. Yeah. This is something that most people don't understand. I referring back to earlier in our conversation when I say Cape Cod was our vacation place where nothing bad ever happened.There is that town on the Cape that we. We always visited Brewster, Massachusetts. I got it in my head that, I want a green burial. I articulate this to family and friends who I brought into the conversation as I just don't want to be a burden. I'm a single guy with no kids.And if something happens to me, I don't want it to be a pain in the neck for anybody to have to deal with it. So that's why I'm doing this. But the real reason I'm doing it is because I'm picking my place. And I bought a, the only real estate I own is a 10 by 10 plot in an old sea captain's cemetery in Brewster, Massachusetts on Cape Cod.And it gave me such a feeling of happiness to do it and they're like what that's, we don't talk about that in, in our society. But for me, it's no I went out this summer, I was up visiting and I went to see it. And it made me happy to know I had it. And the gentleman who I who's on the cemetery commission said, if there's a stone cutter in town, this is Cape Cod's old school stone cutter who can, do a tombstone for you if you want it.And I'm like sure. I, why not design my own tombstone? And I hate to admit, I paid a lot of money, like 10, 000 bucks for an old colonial slate tombstone. And I am in a joking way, using an image from Poe's poem the Raven on that tombstone. And a Raven. And the word nevermore, which anyone who's read the poem will understand.And, then my information and this stonecutter is going to put it up for me. I've told very limited people that because people really think it's over the top. But again, my, my family members who would be left handling it. I'm like this way, exactly where it is and you can, it just makes it easier for you.But you, I am serious in that. I'm going to have a small celebration of life party, for myself at that location next year with that tombstone up. It might be just me and my sisters or my niece, or, the folks who gather down there every year.But I thought what's the point of not being there for that? It, there is it's a place to rest and I don't mean this. And I tell people this, I look at death as a. When I'm feeling particularly anxious as there'll be an end to it, just like I opened my eyes during the psychedelic experience when I was getting fatigued.I'm ready for it. And then I saw my guide there. And I'm like, we talked about this. It does end. Don't panic. It will end. And right now you want it to end because you've been at it for six hours or so. And I look at death the same way. There's an end. I don't look at it. It's not a suicidal ideation.And that's, if I tell anybody that, Robert, that's straight, that's the place to go. Is or you're gonna hurt yourself. I'm like, no, I'm not gonna hurt myself. It just calms me down to know that there's an end. You And I don't want to struggle like this forever. So yeah I'm a member of a Swiss organization called Dignitas, which performs assisted suicide.My fear is Alzheimer's, like if that hits me and I'm still cognizant, but diagnosed that to me is a relief. I'm like, okay, I feel better. And I am, as I said earlier, trying to find ways to feel more contented. And I'm like, I've taken care of these things. Part of it is I'm on planner.That's what anxiety does. But there is an element of fulfillment in doing these things that is indescribable. And I it's just so out of bounds for what we can talk about in our culture that it's hard to really describe that to people without them thinking, Oh, you bought a grave and a tombstone and you signed up for this Dignitas company and assisted suicide and people just assume the worst.And it's no, this is the best. This is the best. I hope I live another 30 years if I'm not lucky. That's my plan. But if something intervenes, I'm okay with this. I guess the way I put it is I'm terrified of dying, but I have no fear of death. If that makes sense. The moment itself is.Creates some anxiety as it should. But the after part of it, I'm like, no, it's, call it what you want, call it a Buddhist Nirvana. But yeah, that's I've done that. And I'm just waiting to see what the stone cutter comes up with. Leafbox: Steve, you said for positive reformation that you want to live in another 30 years, what do you imagine filling the next 30 years with? You have your peer support group you've started and what other projects do you want to focus your attention on more writing, less writing, more trips. So what do you imagine for the next 30 years? Steve: And I'm just putting that out. So I know one thing I learned when I left the coast guard, which might be a surprise is I will never see that my schedule was very structured there, and I think that was helpful.To me in anybody's schedule at work, you've got to be a place from this hour to that hour. And then if you lose that structure, a lot of people are lost. I thought I'd be one of them, but I'm really, I'm not I will not cede my schedule to anybody else, but what. And, but I think I did struggle a little bit with when I left the winery, which was a full time job I was in the airstream.So that occupied a lot of my time, but there was this notion of, what are you going to do for the rest of your life? But I've resolved that. And I think I'll write about the same. I'll be at that same level of productivity that I am right now, but I dabble in a variety. You and I've talked about this small businesses that I think matter.I've done some venture capital in areas that are meaningful to me. Climate and healthcare. I am always looking for opportunities to do work. That's interesting to me. I'm helping a buddy in town with a brewery startup, a distillery. Didn't have to do that. I just find these opportunities to occupy myself and I don't get so hung up on having to leave some sort of a legacy.It's just what I pursue, the things that make me curious right now. And the things that make me curious right now may or may not make me curious in a couple of years. I've got motorcycle trips planned. I might go back to the Airstream thing when I can't ride motorcycling. I've got these things laid out that will occupy me, but none of them are of the traditional.I gotta go back and get a job, so I'm not bored all the time. I seem to find an endless number of things that are of interest to me. And I'm not really thinking out that I glance at it every now and again, 20 to 25 years, but my days seem pretty full and I just don't worry about it. I think I'll be in this house in St.Augustine for the next two years. Where am I going to go after that? What's the next Airbnb going to be? And. And that's, in fact, I was out in Portland for the psychedelic experience and I thought how it is freeing knowing I could come up with Portland. I want to. Nothing's binding me to any particular place.And these it's future thinking. Yes. But not 20 to 25 year future thinking. I don't have a 20 to 25 year plan. And that to me is way less overwhelming. It's just a loose structure for the next couple of years. And I think the thing I just occurred to me as I was saying that is there are elements in my life that are so controlled that it's, calcified my daily routine.And then there are areas of my life that are so impulsive that it's it's 180 degrees from my calcified day. And I'd be at a loss to explain why except one is a reaction to the other. Leafbox: It's just coming back to the animals. I just keep thinking of the coyote. Steve, how can people find you? What's the best way for them to read your essays and connect with you? Steve: I would love more free subscribers on Substack. I have no intention of making any money on Substack. And I think you just have to type in my name which, Is Steven with a P H and Chamberlain C H A M B E R L I N. And do a search for a guy with a beard was my photo.And I would also love anyone who subscribes to be open and free about commenting or criticizing or starting a conversation I'd like. Some more engagement on some stack for no other reason than I like to engage with people that way. And I'd like to know I'm helping people or what I could do better.So sub stack is really the predominant location for me. And the easiest way to find me and DM me if you're a bit interested in that. Leafbox: Great. And Steve, anything else you want to share? Steve: Gratitude that you asked me to do this, Robert, I've always looked up to you and considered you a role model and a mentor and so appreciate.And I'm honored that you felt it was something worth taking your time today to talk to me. Leafbox: No, no, I really appreciate the like raw and honest writing that you're doing. And everyone's on a journey, so I appreciate your struggle. Get full access to Leafbox at leafbox.substack.com/subscribe
It's another SPECIAL BONUS EPISODE! Baxie journalist Patrick Clarke—the deputy editor of the British music and pop culture website The Quietus! Patrick has just released his new book entitled “Bedsit Land: The Strange Worlds of Soft Cell”. It's an incredible story of how two art school students accidentally became the most successful British synth-pop duos of the 80's. The book not only talks about how Marc Almond and David Ball took a largely forgotten 1964 single by Gloria Jones and turned it into a massive international hit (Tainted Love), the book also talks about came next! Listen on Apple Podcasts, SoundCloud, Spotify, and on the Rock102 app for your iPhone or Android! Brought to you by Metro Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram of Chicopee!
Orimar Reclaims his body after the death of Edith Truss. Matters are tense because the Red Feathers at sorrow's end have managed to scramble a skyship to respond to the emergency and they now have a platoon of soldiers armed and ready, but unaware that Aravetti and The Butcher are responsible for the attack. Gable learns about Aravetti's terrifying divine power as they face off against two fronts. Content Note Mainshow: Gunshot sound effects, body horror, religious horror Dear Uhuru: Quietus Mill continued... Olivia and Dennison negotiate their way into an expedition into the Quietus woods. OH CAPTAIN, MY CAPTAIN Pre-order now! THE ULTIMATE RPG PODCAST Listen Here! OSN BOOK CLUB ANTHOLOGY VOL. 1 Get notified for launch! HELP TRACY Support their Gofundme SKYJOUST FIGHT WITH SPIRIT EXPANSION Get it now! ULTIMATE RPG GAMEMASTER'S GUIDE Pre-order now! SKYJACKS: COURIER'S CALL IS BACK! Listen on Spotify (or any other podcatcher app)! JOIN OUR MAILING LIST Right Here! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Underground 90s UK Industrial legends History of Guns released their latest album called "Half Light" via Liquid Len Recording Company. Formed in Cheshunt, Hertfordshire in 1996, History of Guns became frontrunners of the UK's Wasp Factory / FuturePunk scene of the early 2000s and their 2004 single 'Your Obedient Servant' was ultimately championed by The Quietus and Mick Mercer as one of the “thirty best goth singles of all time”.On this album, founding members Del Alien (vocals) and multi-instrumentalist, Max Rael (keyboards, programming) are joined by guitarist Caden Clarkson, the newest member of History Of Guns. Exploring the human condition through various musical genres and their unique "Meta- Modernist" industrial sound, Half Light is produced by Max Rael, mixed by Max Rael and Caden Clarkson, and mastered by Pete Maher (U2, Pixies, Nick Cave, Depeche Mode, Nine Inch Nails).http://historyofguns.orghttp://historyofguns.bandcamp.com / maxrael QUEEN OF WANDS with DJ Nocturna Every Saturday on ModSnap Radio | KMOD: San Antonio3pm (HST), 5pm (PST), 6pm (MST), 7pm (CST), 8pm (EST)Radio: https://modsnapradio.comThank you for liking, subscribing and THANK YOU for your continued support !
Today's episode is about "Scott Walker: 30 Century Man", from 2006, directed by Stephen Kijak. Our guest today is Zara Hedderman, who listens to albums & writes (mostly) & talks (sometimes) about them in The Quietus, Aquarium Drunkard, Northern Transmissions, RTÉ Arena, and The IMRO Podcast. The movie is about Scott Walker, who evolved from a 50s & 60s teen idol to an enigmatic avant-garde icon whose music pushed the boundaries of space, time, and sanity. For years, nobody knew much about him. Then this documentary came out and revealed that he was actually kind of a chill dude. Rock Docs is a Treble Media Podcast hosted by David Lizerbram & Andrew Keatts Twitter: @RockDocsPod Instagram: @RockDocsPod Cover Art by N.C. Winters - check him out on Instagram at @NCWintersArt
“What we're gonna do right here is go back, way back!”If you were really down with the cool kids in 1984, you would have most definitely have been passing around the school prized C90 cassettes featuring much copied Streetsounds compilations. And somewhere in there was Kurtis Blow's AJ Scratch track with those immortal sampled words from the Jimmy Castor Bunch in 1972. Straight out onto The BMXs and down to throw some funky worm shapes on that strip of lino!Or, in this writer's case, 1984 was mainly spent in a bedroom hovering over the play and pause button to catch a clean edit (without Simon Bates) of Two Tribes, still at number one after 5 weeks! But which mix would we get this week? Now, THIS was anticipation, pop kids!1984. A pop year of decadence, contradictions, conflict, controversy and coming of age. A year that authors (and the BBC) told us would feature impending, inevitable Armageddon. Annihilation, it turned out, came in the shape of a plethora of 12” mixes, plastic smiles, snoods, 808 drum machines, hairspray, neon and (red) balloons. How was it for you?In the third decade of the 21st century, a time surely we wouldn't (a) remember 1984 or (b) still be around to remember 1984, the team at NOW Music HQ presented the second in a (now) glorious series of curated Yearbooks. And what an album (and accompanying extra volume!) we have to rediscover. The sun is most definitely shining brighter than Doris Day!So for this special episode we're joined by two poptastic friends of the show to take a deep dive into 1984. Journalist, DJ and author Ian Wade and journalist, author and broadcaster Jude Rogers.Jude can be found contributing musings and writing about music, culture and much more in The Guardian, Observer and The Quietus amongst many others. Her first (best selling!) book, The Sound of Being Human: How Music Shapes Our Lives is available through White Rabbit books.Ian has written for Classic Pop, Record Collector, The Quietus, Official Charts, Sunday Times Culture as well as doing time at such titles as Smash Hits and The Face many years ago. He has worked as a PR on BBC's Later… with Jools Holland and occasionally DJs at Spiritland and Duckie. And his debut book 1984: The Year Pop went Queer is published by NineEight Books in July 2024.And whilst we don't take a forensic look at every one of the 80 tracks on the 1984 Yearbook (and the further 60 on the extra volume) we instead provide you with an opportunity to explore the sights, sounds, culture, music, genres, tribes and (school!) fashion that makes this year so thoroughly iconic for so many reasons.Join us then, as we turn up the neon and dance through mutually agreed destruction in celebration of 1984! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
New discoveries and new releases and heaviness all around. WATER DAMAGE, CHEATER SLICKS, QUIETUS, WORKERS COMP, MONOCOT, BLUES AMBUSH, PUPPET WIPES and that new Thinking Fellers Union Local 282 reissue - and that's just the new stuff. Track listing:THINKING FELLERS UNION LOCAL 282 - Flames UpWORKERS COMP - Pick and ChooseCHEATER SLICKS - I Am LowBENDERS - Can't Tame MeDEATH OF SAMANTHA - Sexual DreamingPUPPET WIPES - Fire PitQUIETUS - Distance is EverywherePRINZHORN DANCE SCHOOL - Lawyers Water JugHALF JAPANESE - Too Bad About ElizabethSIMPLY SAUCER - Here Come The Cyborgs Part 2MONOCOT - The Voice CameBLUES AMBUSH - IfeWATER DAMAGE - Reel EE
In this episode we welcome John Doran and Luke Turner to downtown Hammersmith and invite them to talk about their much-loved and newly-revamped Quietus "webzine". (That's Noughties-speak, for all you kids out there.) The intrepid duo look back on the 2008 birth of their baby and reflect on its survival and evolution over the subsequent 16 years. Quotes from pieces they wrote about Kanye West (2008) and Britpop "fakestalgia" (2014) prompt thoughts on such much-missed Quietus writers – and RBP contributors – as S(teven)Wells, Dele Fadele and Neil Kulkarni. Mention of a recent Quietus piece about Yoko Ono leads us to clips from Mark Kemp's 1992 audio interview with the pioneering avant-gardist whose life and work are celebrated in an exhibition at London's Tate Modern (15 February to 1 September, 2024). Ardent fans of Ono's woefully-overlooked solo albums, John and Luke talk about the relentless racist/misogynist abuse she's suffered as "the woman who broke up the Beatles" [sic]. Staying in the demi-monde of downtown New York transgression, we pay tribute to departed jazz-punk No Waver James Chance, another Quietus anti-icon, before Mark winds up the episode with quotes from newly-added library pieces about the Beatles (1963), the Temptations (1970), Kurtis Blow (1981), Jerry Dammers (1990) and Glen Campbell (1999). Finally, Jasper rounds things off with remarks on Atlanta's overshadowed rappers Goodie Mob... Many thanks to special guests John Doran and Luke Turner. Read the Quietus at thequietus.com, and find their books, including Jolly Lad and Men at War in all good bookshops. Pieces discussed: Kanye West: Sensitive Soul, Modern Life Isn't Rubbish: The Trouble With Britpop Nostalgia, Yoko Ono audio, Q: Why Interview James Chance? A: Because He's There, Bow To The Devilish Prince: James Chance Interviewed, Downtown icon James Chance cuts loose, It's the Beatles! Part 5: How To Avoid The Stage Door Crowds... Enter Through The Roof, Temptations: no trouble pleasing their audience, Kurtis Blow: Rap-sody in Blow, Mandela's Day — The Journey To Freedom, Glen Campbell: "I could have gone the same way as Elvis" and Goodie Mob: World Party
Our mate Neil Kulkarni died in January. This episode is dedicated to him.Subscribe | Facebook | Twitter| The Chart Music Wiki | PatreonSimon's Quietus piece on Neil | Sofia's Gofundme pageSpecial thanks to Lily Wilde for cover art. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Luke is a Music Journalist, Co-Founder of The Quietus and Writer of 'Out of the Woods', a memoir about sexuality, shame and the lure of the trees.
Become a Patron of Textual Healing: https://www.patreon.com/textualhealing The Whistler: 2421 N Milwaukee Ave, Chicago, IL 60647 Emily Capers (1:10): Emily Capers is a Midwestern mixed girl, who writes to begin conversations around identity by experimenting with form and genre. In Between My Bodies (Long Day Press) is her first chapbook. She currently lives in Chicago with her beautiful partner and dog, Millie. Dmitry Samarov (5:54): Dmitry Samarov paints and writes in Chicago. He is the author and illustrator of six books. He sends out a newsletter every Monday. An absurd amount of his work is collected at his website, which is seventeen years old now. Mallory Smart (14:14): Mallory Smart is a Chicago-based writer and Editor-in-Chief of Maudlin House. Some people even call her The Only Living Girl In Chicago. Mallory is also the host of Textual Healing and cohost of That Horrorcast. Her latest book, I Keep My Visions To Myself, is out now from With an X Books. Kyle François (17:38): Kyle François is a writer, musician, and educator in Chicago. He was raised in rural Iowa. He plays in the band Gold Dust and wrote the foreword to the 2024 edition of Arno E. Schmidt's The Accomplished Muskrat Trapper. Joshua Bohnsack (25:47): Joshua Bohnsack's work has appeared in AGNI, McSweeney's Internet Tendency, and others. He is the publisher of Long Day Press. He grew up on a farm and moved to Chicago. God'Aryan (32:30): God'Aryan is a producer; singer, songwriter and music artist based in Chicago. Inspired by artists like Frank ocean, paramore, and Charli xcx they make pop, hip hop, and alternative music. There music focuses on themes of vulnerability, relationships, and the struggles of being an artist in our current age. Aug Stone (38:56): Aug Stone is a writer, musician, & comedian. His 2023 novel, T_he Ballad Of Buttery Cake Ass, was one of Vulture's Best Comedy Books Of The Year. Aug is also author of the memoir Nick Cave's Bar and the comedy novel Off-License To Kill_, and his journalism has appeared in The Quietus, The Comics Journal, Under The Radar, and many more sites and magazines. Aug was a founding member of H Bird and The Soft Close-Ups, and has played in countless other bands. He performs comedy as absurdist stream-of-consciousness raconteur, Young Southpaw. Check out past episodes of Textual Healing on our website: https://textualpodcast.com/ Rate us on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/textual-healing-with-mallory-smart/id1531379844 Follow us on Twitter: @PodHealing Take a look at Mallory's other work on her website: https://mallorysmart.com/ beats by God'Aryan
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waarin we, mijmerend bij oude ruïnes, zien hoe de antieke wereld grondig door elkaar wordt geschud en ons afvragen waarom het Romeinse imperium verdween.WIJ ZIJN: Jonas Goossenaerts (inhoud en vertelstem), Filip Vekemans (montage), Benjamin Goyvaerts (inhoud) en Laurent Poschet (inhoud).MET BIJDRAGEN VAN: Prof. dr. Jeroen Wijnendaele (expert Romeinse politieke geschiedenis), Prof. dr. em. Hans Hauben (specialist oudheidkunde, Hellenistische en Romeinse geschiedenis), Prof. dr. Sofie Remijsen (specialiste oudheidkunde, Romeinse en Hellenistische geschiedenis), dr. Valérie Weyns (specialiste Hellenistische geschiedenis), Jona Lendering (historicus, journalist, blogger), Laurens Luyten (stem Edward Gibbon en Romeinse auteurs).WIL JE ONS EEN FOOI GEVEN? http://fooienpod.com/geschiedenisvoorherbeginners. Al schenkt u tien cent of tien euro, het duurt tien seconden met een handige QR-codeMEER WETEN? Onze geraadpleegde en geciteerde bronnen: Beard, M. (2016), SPQR. A History of Ancient Rome. Profile Books. Londen. Beard, M. (2023), Emperor of Rome. Profile Books. Londen. Gibbon, E. (2010), The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire. Everyman's Library. Londen. Goldsworthy, A. (2017), Pax Romana. Orion Publishing Group. Londen. Goldsworthy, A. (2010), How Rome fell. Death of a Superpower. Yale University Press. Yale. Wijnendaele, J. (2012), Romeinen en barbaren. De ondergang van het Romeinse rijk in het westen. Standaard Uitgeverij. Antwerpen. Heather, P. (2009), The Fall of the Roman Empire. A new History of Rome and the Barbarians. Oxford University Press. Oxford. Harper, K. (2019), The fate of Rome. Climate, disease and the end of an empire. Princeton University Press. Princeton.Beeld: Wikimedia CommonsOverzicht van de officiële keizers in de 3de eeuw: Alexander Severus (222-235), Maximinus Thrax (235–238), Gordian I en Gordian II (238), Philip the Arab (244–249), Decius (249–251), Trebonianus Gallus (251–253), Aemilianus (253), Valerian (253–260), Saloninus (260), Claudius Gothicus (268–270), Quintillus (270), Aurelian (270–275), Tacitus (275–276), Florianus (276), Probus (276–282), Carus (282–283), Diocletian (284–305)Overzicht van tegenkeizers en troonpretendenten in de 3de eeuw: Sallustius (c. 227), Taurinus (datum onzeker), Ovinius Camillus (mogelijk fictief), Magnus (235), Quartinus (235), Sabinianus (240), Iotapianus (248), Pacatian (248), Silbannacus (datum onzeker), Licinianus (250), Priscus (251–252), Valens Senior (datum onzeker), Ingenuus (260) , Macrianus Major, Macrianus Minor en Quietus (260-261), Regalianus (260), Balista (261), Piso (261), Valens (261), Memor (261), Mussius Aemilianus (261-262), Celsus (mogelijk fictief), Saturninus (mogelijk fictief), Trebellianus (mogelijk fictief), Censorinus (269–270) (mogelijk fictief), Sponsianus (datum onzeker), Domitianus (270–271), Felicissimus (271), Septimius (271) in Dalmatia, Urbanus (271) (mogelijk fictief), Firmus (273), Bonosus (280), Proculus (280), Saturninus (280), Sabinus Julianus (283-285), Amandus and Aelianus (285), Carausius: (286–293), Allectus: (293–296), Domitius Domitianus: (297), Aurelius Achilleus: (297–298), Eugenius: (303)Keizers van het Gallische keizerrijk (tijdelijk afgescheurd deel van het Romeinse Rijk): Postumus (260–269), Laelian (269, usurpator), Marius 269, Victorinus (268/69–271), Domitian II (271, usurpator), Tetricus I (271–274), Tetricus II (273–274), Faustinus (273-274, usurpator)Keizers van het Palmyreense keizerrijk (tijdelijk afgescheurd deel van het Romeinse Rijk): Vaballathus (267?-272), Zenobia (272-273), Antiochus (273)Zie het privacybeleid op https://art19.com/privacy en de privacyverklaring van Californië op https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
Buy us a coffee and help keep the carousel spinning: https://ko-fi.com/giddypoppodWelcome to The Giddy Carousel of Pop! In this episode, Gav and Si are joined by pop critic, author, DJ and Chart Music podcast regular, Simon Price.The carousel spins us back to October 1979, Simon's very first issue, and inside we discover punk, mod, disco and a whole lot more! We also discuss Simon's recent book on The Cure, Curepedia. This episode is dedicated to the great Neil Kulkarni.Read Simon's tribute to Neil on The Quietus: https://thequietus.com/articles/33777-remembering-neil-kulkarni-simon-priceCurepedia: https://store.whiterabbitbooks.co.uk/products/curepediaRead along with us.Like Punk Never Happened: https://likepunkneverhappened.blogspot.com/2009/10/october-4-17-1979.htmlSmash Hits Remembered: https://michaelmouse1967.wixsite.com/website-14/22-4-october-17-october-1979And check out the playlists of pretty much all the songs featured in this issue of Ver Hits!Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5N56zc6peiXkNFmZEgnz6F?si=8a1dcabbd07948a7YouTube: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLfs58mqeRNuGa2zdqWbr3qRMVWhX-qHaL&si=2w5U6zApeFqbtXWNHOSTS: Simon Galloway and Gavin HoggGUEST: Simon PriceCONTACT DETAILS:Website: https://giddypoppod.home.blog/X: https://twitter.com/GiddyPopPodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/GiddyPopPodInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/giddypoppod/BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/giddypoppod.bsky.socialThreads: https://www.threads.net/@giddypoppod Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
For the first episode of 2024 we're going back almost 30 years to 1995 to completely ignore britpop and talk about much, much better music that was happening at the same time.We've each chosen our 10 favourite songs of the year and sent them over to Colin's wife Helen, who put the playlists together and distributed them so we were each given a playlist of the 20 songs from the other two hosts, along with our own 10. We then ranked the playlists in order of preference and sent them back to Helen, who totalled up the points and worked out the order.She also joined us on the episode to read out the countdown, which we found out as we recorded so all reactions are genuine.Now, admittedly, in parts we're a little bit brutal to some of the songs in the list as we're three separate people with differing music tastes, but please remember that to be in this episode at all the songs have to have been in one of our top 10's of that year. Bands featured in this episode include (In alphabetical order, no spoilers here!) - At The Gates, Bjork, Cathedral, Clutch, Dubstar, Faith No More, Fear Factory, Foo Fighters, Fugazi, Garbage, Green Day, Emmylou Harris, The Jayhawks, Low, My Dying Bride, Paradise Lost, Radiohead, The Smashing Pumpkins, Smog, Spacehog, Sparklehorse, Strapping Young Lad, Matthew Sweet, Teenage Fanclub, Therapy?, Tindersticks, Whale, White Zombie, The Wildhearts, & Yo La Tengo.This episode is dedicated to the memory of the legendary music journalist and bloody lovely bloke Neil Kulkarni who sadly and suddenly passed away last week. You may know Neil from the Chart Music Podcast, from his writing for Melody Maker, Kerrang, Vox, The Quietus, Plan B, Metal Hammer, DJ Mag & more, or you may have heard him when he guested on Colin & Ian's other podcast Free With This Months Issue in August last year. Neil's death sadly leaves his two daughters without a parent so his Chart Music & Melody Maker cohost David Stubbs has arranged a crowdfunder. please donate if you're able to do so - https://www.gofundme.com/f/neil-kulkarni?qid=17adb77df59eabad52ce7dca32d49510Find all songs in alphabetical order here - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4t3vB1jZf6lxQZMBIuTYhx?si=288cce79f5654ce9Find our We Dig Music Pollwinners Party playlist (featuring all of the winning songs up until now) here - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/45zfDHo8zm6VqrvoEQSt3z?si=Ivt0oMj6SmitimvumYfFrQIf you want to listen to megalength playlists of all the songs we've individually picked since we started doing best of the year episodes, you can listen to Colin's here – https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5x3Vy5Jry2IxG9JNOtabRT?si=HhcVKRCtRhWCK1KucyrDdg Ian's here - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2H0hnxe6WX50QNQdlfRH5T?si=XmEjnRqISNqDwi30p1uLqA and Tracey's here - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2p3K0n8dKhjHb2nKBSYnKi?si=7a-cyDvSSuugdV1m5md9Nw The playlist of 20 songs from the other two hosts was scored as usual, our favourite song got 20 points, counting down incrementally to our least favourite which got 1 point. The scoring of our own list of 10 is now slightly more complicated in order to give a truer level of points to our own favourites. So rather than them only being able to score as many points as our 10th favourite in the other list, the points in our own list were distributed as follows -1st place - 20 points2nd place - 18 points3rd place – 16 points4th place – 14 points5th place – 12 points6th place – 9 points7th place – 7 points8th place – 5 points9th place – 3 points10th place -1 pointHosts - Ian Clarke, Colin Jackson-Brown & Tracey BGuest starring Helen Jackson-Brown.Playlist compiling/distributing – Helen Jackson-BrownRecorded/Edited/Mixed/Original Music by Colin Jackson-Brown for We Dig PodcastsThanks to Peter Latimer for help with the scoring system.Say hello at www.facebook.com/wedigmusicpcast or tweet us at http://twitter.com/wedigmusicpcast or look at shiny pictures on Instagram at http://instagram.com/wedigmusicpcast Part of the We Made This podcast network. https://twitter.com/wmt_network You can also find all the We Dig Music & Free With This Months Issue episodes at www.wedigpodcasts.com
Luke Turner is co-founder of the excellent music and culture site The Quietus and a contributor to the Guardian, NME, Vice and many more.As a child, Luke was obsessed with the Second World War. His new book, Men At War, examines how the war stories he loved shaped his ideas of masculinity.He joined me to discuss what it means to be a modern man.Buy Men At War here Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
John Francis Flynn released his second album Look Over the Wall, See the Sky on November 10, receiving rave reviews from the likes of the Quietus, which called it "an album full of generosity and insight, songs that show us to ourselves in the way perhaps only folk music can", and Stereogum, Ryan Leas hailing it as "a stunning level-up from an already fascinating artist". We talked on a cold November morning about the making of Look Over the Wall, See the Sky, influences, trad and the idea of genre, the state of Dublin, Paddywhackery, and creme de menthe. John Francis Flynn tour dates: December 1 – Set Theatre, Kilkenny December 2 – Vicar St, Dublin December 8 – Roisin Dubh, Galway December 9 – St Luke's, Cork December 10 – De Barras, Clonakilty December 14 – Dolan's Warehouse, Limerick January 12 – Out To Lunch Festival, Ulster Sports Club, Belfast February 22 – Theatre Royal, Waterford Buy John Francis Flynn - Look Over the Wall, See the Sky: https://riverlea.bandcamp.com/album/look-over-the-wall-see-the-sky
About: Is someone watching? Waiting in the darkness? An air of mystery lingers for the second time. Artwork: Chaos;Child 00:00 - Dream [Shin Megami Tensei (PlayStation)] by Tsukasa Masuko, Kenichi Tsuchiya > 01:51 - Missing Perspective [Parasite Eve] by Yoko Shimomura > 04:23 - An Ill Omen [Octopath Traveller] by Yasunori Nishiki > 07:36 - Disquiet [Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Survivor] by Takami Asano > 09:28 - Find Your Way [Final Fantasy VIII] by Nobuo Uematsu > 13:11 - The Saintly Seven [Triangle Strategy] by Akira Senju > 17:00 - The Voice Someone Calls [Persona 3] by Shoji Meguro > 18:01 - Quietus [999: 9 Hours, 9 Persons, 9 Doors] by Shinji Hosoe > 21:29 - Visions [The Legend of Heroes: Trails In The Sky SC] by Falcom Sound Team JDK > 25:11 - Dark Night [Octopath Traveller II] by Yasunori Nishiki > 27:54 - The Third Melt [Chaos;Child] by Takeshi Abo > pixelbeatpod@icloud.com >
On this episode, Richard and Tyler play Quietus! https://sinisterbeard.com/product/quietus-hardcover-plus-free-pdf/ Welcome to True Strike, a DnD Podcast. Each Tuesday, listen in while two friends discuss their completely unwarranted opinions about The World's Greatest Roleplaying Game. Topics vary each week between character builds, new book releases, ONE DND, ect. To top it off, there will occasionally be light roleplaying between the hosts, demonstrating the topic in a live-play format. Hosts: Richard Cullen/Tyler Worthey Song by: WILDJOE1
In week 2 of our Halloween / Horror series, we have dove head first into Sinister Beard's Quietus, a game of melancholy horror. With returning guests MB and Mr. Ray, we crafted a truly unsettling one-shot horror adventure for you to enjoy! Players: MB Dalto (She/her): Twitter | BlueSky Mr. Ray (They/he): Twitter | Itch.io ===Intro/Outro music by Harris HellerHost, Eric Crumrine (he/they): https://twitter.com/ECrumrineThe QueerXP Twitter: https://twitter.com/TheQueerXPThe QueerXP Instagram: https://instagram.com/thequeerxpThe QueerXP BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/thequeerxp.bsky.social Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Episode Notes Wayne is not a good man. He's not even really an okay man. But he's skated by on his good looks, charming personality, and luck for a long time. Now his memory seems to be unraveling. Wayne has been seeing all sorts of strange things around the office building as he works his security shift. Where last we left Wayne, he saw Pete, the bookie he owes a lot of money to, standing in the underground parking lot of the building. When he ran out to investigate, Pete was gone, but he found an Altoids tin full of survive gear that he knows Pete used to carry with him. Jesse Stanchak joins us to play the game Quietus by Oli Jeffery. Content Warning: Gambling addiction Twitter @notalone_horror Email youarenotalonepod@gmail.com Find out more at https://you-are-not-alone.pinecast.co
As a well-established artist, Rommek has expanded his own sound, carving his way into the current techno and experimental scenes. His extensive interest in sound design is crafted within the dense atmospheres, heavy broken rhythms and electrifying tones found within his productions. The London based producer released his debut record 'Thought Patterns' on Weekend Circuit in 2014. Rommek later joined the seminal Blueprint Records in 2016, gradually releasing five solo EPs, plus remixes from label owner James Ruskin and Broken English Club, O/V/R, Makton. Since then, he's had a steady output of releases on Dutch imprint Leyla Records, Natural Selection as well as Mord, Hex, Loose Lips and collaborative release with the Spanish duo NX1 in 2022. Rommek's latest EP pushes his creative boundaries one-step further, as the UK Producer makes his debut on Tommy Four Seven's - 47 imprint. Exploring futuristic techno fused with 180 BPM IDM/ D&B crossovers. Torn Relics, the experimental project between Rommek + Aimee Mullen was formed during 2018. Their debut EP, The Poisoned Chalice, released on Sacred Court, featured a remix by label owner SNTS. In 2020 the duo's debut album: Abolish The Dogma, was released on Leyla Records, followed by ‘Burning Injustice' in 2021 via Instruments of Discipline. Since releasing over 10 EP's, Rommek has gained a wide range of noteworthy support, from BBC Radio 1, to many features and reviews in Mixmag, The Wire, The Quietus and Fuze magazine. In 2018 he was featured within the top 100 globally charted artists on Resident Advisor. Furthermore, as a touring DJ, he has played in over 20 countries around the globe. From this, it's clear that Rommek is driven to continue expanding his capabilities and keep things moving forward. Tracklist via -Spotify: http://bit.ly/SRonSpotify -Reddit: www.reddit.com/r/Slam_Radio/ -Facebook: bit.ly/SlamRadioGroup Archive on Mixcloud: www.mixcloud.com/slam/ Subscribe to our podcast on -iTunes: apple.co/2RQ1xdh -Amazon Music: amzn.to/2RPYnX3 -Google Podcasts: bit.ly/SRGooglePodcasts -Deezer: bit.ly/SlamRadioDeezer Keep up with SLAM: fanlink.to/Slam Keep up with Soma Records: fanlink.to/SomaRecords For syndication or radio queries: harry@somarecords.com & conor@glowcast.co.uk Slam Radio is produced at www.glowcast.co.uk
We open with our focus on the role that music has played in the band members' individual lives and how a shared love of music brought them all together. This morphs into a consideration of the band's many artistic influences, with a close look at the impact of the Wu-Tang Clan on Sunburned. We hear about the complicated and often difficult backgrounds of many of the Sunburned musicians and how jamming with the band can often serve as a type of group therapy. This is the Quietus interview where Rob Thomas talks about the influence of the Wu-Tang Clan on Sunburned. Here's a mid-period live set from Sunburned at the Abbey Lounge in (I think) Somerville, MA. The set is interspersed with clips from a conversation with Rob Thomas reflecting on the band. Sarah mentioned the People of God's Love, we did some digging and found this WaybackMachine archived page for a group with that name founded (like Sarah said) in Ohio. Check out Sunburned Hand of the Man's Instagram profile for more pictures related to this episode! Sunburned's Bandcamp Sunburned's Website Songs heard in this episode: No Magic Man - No Magic Man Take 5 - Mylar Tantrum Part II Take 6 - Mylar Tantrum Part II Yer Own Eyes and the Number None - No Magic Man Serpent's Wish - No Magic Man Heavy Rescue - When the Shit Hits the Jazz Or Check out this Spotify playlist with all the songs heard in this and previous week's episodes! You can email or go here for Kelly. Allison Hussey is here and on Twitter. Go here for more Aquarium Drunkard or Talkhouse Podcast Network.
Creaky pub signs, animal skulls, and empty church yards. The British countryside can be a scary place, but what does the popularity of ‘folk horror' tell us about our politics? Writer Jude Rogers is joined by John Doran, co-founder of music website The Quietus and presenter of BBC Radio 4 New Weird Britain series, to explore the effects of films like The Wicker Man on our national psyche and what the continued appetite for eerie renderings of the countryside says about us. “Folk horror creates an uneasy clash between the modern and the ancient.” “The unstable times we are living through are quite magical in their own horror.” “Folk horror symbology is easily co-opted by the far right.” “It's often very conservative in suggesting that female sexuality shouldn't be trusted.” Support us on Patreon: www.patreon.com/bunkercast Written and presented by Jude Rogers. Producer: Kasia Tomasiewicz. Audio editor: Jade Bailey. Music by Kenny Dickinson. Managing editor: Jacob Jarvis. Group editor: Andrew Harrison. THE BUNKER is a Podmasters Production. Instagram | Twitter Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
The Second World War obsessed Luke Turner when he was growing up, before he founded the music website Quietus. Music has also been former teacher and now Add to Playlist host Jeffrey Boakye's passion and he's written a novel for teens called Kofi and the Rap Battle. Lisa Sugiura researches the online world that has drawn in so many. Chris Harding has been to see the new James Graham play at the National Theatre which explores the football team put together by Gareth Southgate. They come together for a conversation about how young men find their role models and navigate growing up? Jeffrey Boakye's books include Hold Tight: Black masculinity, millennials and the meaning of grime and What is Masculinity? Why does it matter? And other big questions (co-authored with Darren Chetty); his new childrens' book is called Kofi and the Rap Battle Summer. Lisa Sugiura researches focuses on cybercrime and gender at the University of Portsmouth Men at War: Loving, lusting, fighting, remembering 1939-1945 by Luke Turner is out now Dear England by James Graham runs at the National Theatre until August 11th 2023 You might also be interested in a Free Thinking conversation about the changing image of masculinity with authors Ben Lerner, JJ Bola and Derek Owusu https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m000b0mx And Matthew Sweet talked with photographer Sunil Gupta, authors CN Lester and Tom Shakespeare, and a Barbican exhibition curator Alona Pardo about How do we build a new masculinity? https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m000gm6h
Lisa A Knapp joins Max for a live session and interview, later in the show John Doran dials in on Zoom to discuss the future of The Quietus. You can catch the full show with all the fun and tracks here on our Mixcloud: https://www.mixcloud.com/sohoradio/max-reinhardts-late-late-lunch-show-26042023/This is the Soho Radio podcast, showcasing the best broadcasts from our online radio station in the heart of London.Across our Soho channel, we have a wide range of shows covering every genre alongside chat, discussions and special productions.To catch up on all things Soho Radio head on over to mixcloud.com/sohoradio, tune in live anytime at sohoradiolondon.com or get the app..Support this show http://supporter.acast.com/soho-radio. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Jacob Hornberger is the president of The Future of Freedom Foundation (FFF) Website: www.fff.org Watch all 50 episodes of 50 Reasons for 50 Years FFF's YouTube channel Jacob's new series of videos titled The JFK Assassination: 60 Years Later The JFK Assassination: 60 Years Later: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 The FFF is a libertarian foundation Stream/buy Oliver Stone's JFK: Prime, iTunes, Vudu, Microsoft Book: An Encounter with Evil: The Abraham Zapruder Story by Jacob Hornberger: Paperback, Kindle Book: The Kennedy Autopsy by Jacob Hornberger: Paperback, Kindle, Audiobook Book: The Kennedy Autopsy 2: LBJ's Role In the Assassination by Jacob Hornberger: Paperback, Kindle Book: Regime Change: The JFK Assassination by Jacob Hornberger: Paperback, Kindle, Audiobook Book: The CIA, Terrorism, and the Cold War: The Evil of the National Security State by Jacob Hornberger: Kindle, Audiobook Book: JFK’s War with the National Security Establishment: Why Kennedy Was Assassinated by Douglas Horne: Paperback, Kindle, Audiobook Book: CIA & JFK: The Secret Assassination Files by Jefferson Morley: Kindle, Audiobook The autopsy is the key to understanding the JFK assassination JFK assassination was a national security regime change operation Book: Battling Wall Street: The Kennedy Presidency by Donald Gibson (Paperback) The body was brought into the moruge twice Video: Robert Groden and the first public broadcast of the Zapruder Film on Geraldo Rivera's show Good Night America The official narrative is that the body was brought into the morgue at 8pm But there are navy veterans who said that the body was brought in at 6:35pm The MSM didn't investigate into the case Video: Judge Napolitano on what President Trump told him about the JFK files Video: WikiLeaks: Collateral Murder (Iraq, 2007) Documentary: Ukraine on Fire (2016) (featuring Oliver Stone) Kennedy was deceived by the CIA in the Bay of Pigs operation JFK wanted to "splinter the CIA into a thousand pieces and scatter it into the winds" Video: Secretary of Defense Rumsfeld - 2.3 Trillion Dollars Missing The real threat to the US is not Russia but the national security state President Eisenhower's farewell address on Jan 17, 1961: Video, Text FREE Download Ebook: Seven Days in May by Fletcher Knebel and Charles Bailey: Read Online, Download PDF Kennedy wanted to end the cold war and establish friendly relations with the Soviet Union The national security state would have been finished if Kennedy were alive Dr. Martin Luther King's Beyond Vietnam Speech, April 4, 1967 at the Riverside Church, New York: Audio, Text Article: Did the CIA and the Pentagon Put the Quietus on Tucker Carlson? by Jacob Hornberger The USA/CIA coups in Iran, Guatemala, Congo, Chile, etc. "None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free" - Goethe FREE Borrowable Ebook: JFK and the Unspeakable: Why He Died and Why it Matters by James Douglass
It's the long Easter weekend, and what a load of shit(s) we've got for you – two in fact, with the always phenomenal Shit & Shine placing alongside new Rocket Recordings signings The Shits in the ‘we better place the expletive tag on this one' category. Elsewhere, we have the latest from UKAEA that's exclusive to Quietus supporters, beautiful pastoral music from The Declining Winter, French hip hop, ragamuffin business and a whole lot more You can listen to the first six tracks for free. To listen to the full episode, get a huge back catalogue of music, and access to our live shows and Discord group, please join our Patreon: patreon.com/independentmusicpodcast. The podcast only survives with Patron support. TracklistingUKAEA – Habibi (The Quietus, UK) The Declining Winter – Yellow Fields (Home Assembly Music, UK) The Shits – Waiting (Rocket Recordings, UK) Deemas J & Mista Jago meet Interrupt – Rollercoaster Ride (Interrupt Music, UK) Mark – So You Betrayed the Creative Arts (A Colourful Storm, Australia) Yanka & King Doudou – TOY (self-release, France) Marta Salogni & Tom Relleen – Music For Open Spaces (Hands in the Dark, France) Glue Boy – Crodex (Schematic Music Company, USA) Shit & Shine – SWISS (The State51 Conspiracy, UK) Joanna Sternberg – I've Got Me (Fat Possum Records, USA) This week's episode is sponsored by The state51 Conspiracy, a creative hub for music. Head to state51.com to find releases by JK Flesh vs Gnod, Steve Jansen, MrUnderwSood, Wire, Ghost Box, Lo Recordings, Subtext Records and many more Produced and edited by Nick McCorriston
It's a soulslike. It's moe. It's a moe soulslike.
This week Melissa digs deep to bring Bryan into the light and The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa. This is a band Melissa has been wanting to talk about for a while but had some trouble locating their somwhat hard to find out of print early releases. But alas she finally got her hands on their music that checks all of her boxes... noise, losing it, weird, unpredictable and most importantly, emotional :(..... As always please, please listen to the mix which is only available on YouTube and YouTube music. Also, please find links to the article Melissa references and the band's website below! IATYT - The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa mix - YouTube Music | IATYT YouTube Channel The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa website "20 Years Later: The Agony And The Ecstasy Of St Theresa" By Wyndham Wallace in The Quietus
AUG STONE is a writer, musician, & comedian. Author of the comedy novels The Ballad Of Buttery Cake Ass and Off-License To Kill, as well as the memoir _Nick Cave's Bar, _his journalism has appeared in The Quietus, The Comics Journal, Under The Radar, and many more sites and magazines. Aug was a founding member of H Bird and The Soft Close-Ups, and has played in countless other bands. He performs comedy as absurdist stream-of-consciousness raconteur, Young Southpaw. His Twitter is @AugStone and his website is: http://www.augstone.com/ Intro beats by God'Aryan Support Textual Healing with Mallory Smart by contributing to their tip jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/textual-healing
AUG STONE is a writer, musician, & comedian. Author of the comedy novels The Ballad Of Buttery Cake Ass and Off-License To Kill, as well as the memoir _Nick Cave's Bar, _his journalism has appeared in The Quietus, The Comics Journal, Under The Radar, and many more sites and magazines. Aug was a founding member of H Bird and The Soft Close-Ups, and has played in countless other bands. He performs comedy as absurdist stream-of-consciousness raconteur, Young Southpaw. Support Textual Healing with Mallory Smart by contributing to their tip jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/textual-healing
our sponsor: https://imitone.com/kitschfork/ EMAIL us: kitschforkpodcast@gmail.com today we delay the inevitable Modest Mouse coverage to go back again to the 90's to talk about an unkillable musical behemoth - Pearl Jam, and their (probably) weirdest album - 1996's No Code. we also go into the background of Pearl Jam as both the most popular band in the world for a time, and also as the whipping boys of indie rock forum hipsters everywhere in the 00's. we reflect on the Nirvana vs. Pearl Jam conflict and the dangers of cred. and we talk about an initially divisive album The Quietus described as "Grunge's 'Kid A' moment" (a huge stretch), that is now generally recognized as one of their best.
We're joined by Ember to talk about a game at the intersection of those two most contentious genres: soulslikes and Metroidvanias. This intersection itself is now a vibrant sub-genre, and in talking about this entry we talk about the ways these games tell stories, the platformer vs combat tension inherent in them, and why good art can often set up frustrated expectations. Really happy with this cast, I hope people enjoy!Thank you so much as always for listening, please rate and review the podcast, and tell all your friends on whatever social media you call home that they should check us out. See you next month!Send us questions about our game clubs, other games, or gaming in general to abnormalmappingpodcast@gmail.com!If you would like to support us please visit patreon.com/abnormalmapping for exclusive podcasts!This Month's Game Club: Ender Lilies: Quietus of the KnightsNext Month's Game Club: Resident Evil (PSX mainly, but also REmake)Things Discussed: Fire Emblem, Final Fantasy 2, Final Fantasy 3, Final Fantasy 4, Space Quest continues with Em and Dia, A Little to the Left, Forspoken, Ender Lilies, Metroidvanias as a term, Metroidvanias as an idea, Metroid, Hollow Knight, Soulslike as an idea, Soulslikes in reality, which RE2 to play, gifting games, Indie Game the Movie 2, navel gazing about genreMusic This EpisodeBlown Away by Kevin MacLeodHarmonius by Yamato Kasai; Cassie WeiCompounding by Yamato Kasai; Cassie WeiThe Sun - Outro by Yamato Kasai; Cassie Wei
It's the OffspriNovember and we're talking about the Offspring's "Get a Job." It's really stupid and bad... but then journalist JR Moores stops by to tell us about the conservative underpinnings of the Offspring. Follow JR Moores here: https://twitter.com/spinal_bap Read JR's article here: https://thequietus.com/articles/25686-offspring-americana-review-anniversary
Adam talks with British musician Richard Dawson who performs two songs: The Almsgiver and Judas Iscariot.Conversation recorded face to face in Newcastle on 14th October, 2021Thanks to Ben Tulloh for conversation editing and Séamus Murphy-Mitchell for production supportArtwork by Helen GreenRELATED LINKSSPOTIFY PLAYLISTRICHARD DAWSON - THE RUBY CORD (LIMITED EDITION LP) - 2022 (DOMINO)BULBILS (RICHARD AND SALLY PILKINGTON) (BANDCAMP)Richard: "A few particular bulbils highlights if you are on limited time (nb - we all are)"70 - 6060 - Golem In The Spring ('Where Jackdaws Sleep')50 - Conspiracy faeries ('Will o wisp tug o war')47 - Ambient Music of Northumberland ('Safe Haven')30 - Journey of the Canada Goose23 - Courage ('You')RICHARD DAWSON AND SALLY PILKINGTON ON LOCKDOWN PROJECT BULBILS by Patrick Clarke - 2020 (THE QUIETUS)9 SONGS THAT HAVE INFLUENCED RICHARD DAWSON - 2017 (THE LINE OF BEST FIT WEBSITE)RICHARD DAWSON - KING OF UNEASY LISTENING by Jude Rogers - 2019 (GUARDIAN)RICHARD DAWSON - JUDAS ISCARIOT (MINUS BEGINNING) Recorded for the podcast - 2021 (YOUTUBE)RICHARD DAWSON - THE HERMIT (VIDEO TRAILER) - 2022 (YOUTUBE)RICHARD DAWSON - JOGGING - 2019 (YOUTUBE)RICHARD DAWSON LIVE AT THE BARBICAN - 2020 (YOUTUBE)THE SMUDGING RITUAL: RICHARD DAWSON TOUR PORTRAIT Directed by Harry Wheeler - 2015 (YOUTUBE)HEN OLGEDD - TROUBLE (OFFICIAL VIDEO) - 2020 (YOUTUBE)BEST QAWWALI OF NUSRAT FATEH ALI KHAN - 2017 (YOUTUBE)HENRY MAKOBI - SOMENI VIJANA (YOUTUBE)LADY GAGA PUKING DURING PERFORMANCE - 2012 (YOUTUBE) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
Zach hits one of his bucket list episodes for the show with the sci-fi/fantasy epic with a down-to-earth, very human story...Saga!Two star-crossed lovers have a child that according to the powers-that-be, was never meant to exist. And now those powers will stop at nothing to kill them, and the creation of their true love. Will they escape? Find out in...Saga!Written By: Brian K. VaughanArt By: Fiona Staples---------------------------------------------------Music for Saga intro courtesy of royalty free music by Lexin Music entitled, "Inspiring Cinematic Ambient," and available at Pixabay.com! ---------------------------------------------------Check out Dreampass and all their killer tracks on Spotify!---------------------------------------------------Join the Patreon to help us keep the lights on, and internet connected!https://www.patreon.com/tctwlWant to try out all the sweet gigs over on Fiverr.com? Click on the link below and sign up!https://go.fiverr.com/visit/?bta=323533&brand=fiverrcpaTune in here for every episode of the show!https://kite.link/the-comics-that-we-loveFollow on Instagram for Comics Obscure and More!The Comics That We LoveFollow on Tiktok!The Comics that We LoveFollow on Twitter!@Z_Irish_Red
QUIETUS: final settlement (as of a debt). "Glacial Lake Iroquois was a prehistoric proglacial lake that existed at the end of the last ice age approximately 13,000 years ago. The lake was essentially an enlargement of the present Lake Ontario that formed because the St. Lawrence River downstream from the lake was blocked by the ice sheet near the present Thousand Islands. The level of the lake was approximately 30 m (~100 ft) above the present level of Lake Ontario. The subsequent melting of the ice dam resulted in a sudden lowering of the lake to its present level [...]. Two ancient shorelines in the Toronto area mark the existence of former glacial lakes. About 2 km inland from the shore, a ridge known as the Iroquois Shoreline can be discerned. The old shoreline runs west-east, running roughly parallel to Davenport Road just south of St. Clair Avenue West. Further east, the Scarborough Bluffs also formed part of the shoreline of the ancient lake." (Wikipedia)Remember your past. Walk until your legs give out, head out to where the shore used to be and wait by the edge. Watch the city lights under darkness. Think about what is to come. Remember where the water once was.How do you prepare for the end?Featuring the voices of: Emily Kellogg as ClaireAlex Nursall as JudithIan Boddy as OwenJocelyn Dotta as LydiaAmy Bowman as TabithaKat Letwin as Anneand Harlan Guthrie as The GhostCONTENT WARNINGS: Ghosts/the occult, alcohol, violence (described), deathParkdale Haunt is an original podcast Created and written by Alex Nursall and Emily KelloggDirected and produced by Alex Nursall Engineering and sound design by Ian BoddyTheme music by Phil WrightRecorded at Pirate Toronto Distributed by the Rogers Frequency Podcast NetworkYou can find us on Twitter and Instagram @parkdalehauntSupport us on Patreon at patreon.com/parkdalehauntGet merch at teepublic.com/user/parkdale-hauntLinks, transcripts, and more are available at parkdalehaunt.com
Mejiwahn - Heart String Special (feat. Liv.e) from the 2022 album BEANNA on Hot Record Societe. Mejiwahn, who previously recorded under the name Art Vandelay (which personally I love greatly as someone finally watching Seinfeld in whole), is a bit of a mystery. Like the fictional character that George makes up in a job interview, there are few photos, quotes, or general living artifacts to prove that Mejiwahn exists. And yet, the producer is a very real and influential musician in the Oakland scene. Our Song of the Day, “Heart String Special” was the third single to drop from his latest Beanna full-length, which dropped this week. Featuring Dallas R&b chanteuse Liv.e on vocals, the two create a sunny, sultry downtempo summer jam that's loose and free like we all should be during these few summer months. Made for the sunsets and sunrises, the comedowns or the comeups, it's a perfect accompaniment to getting grounded. If I may steal from the Quietus' review of Beanna, Mejiwahn, “Worked with R&B-jazz singer-songwriter Liv.e on her 2020 debut Couldn't Wait to Tell You. Like that record, Beanna finds its strength in the fluidity of soundscapes, with lo-fi beatmaking and production, psychedelic backdrops and cinematic instrumentals all contributing to this nomadic and meandering feel.” Sometimes other writers just say it perfectly. Read the full story on KEXP.org Support the show: https://www.kexp.org/donate See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
Since last year, Canadian law has allowed its citizens to kill themselves if they are too poor to continue living with dignity. This is very much like the assisted suicide clinics in Soylent Green, or the voluntary suicide pills called, Quietus, in the movie, "Children of Men," Furthermore, the recent arguments about Roe vs. Wade and the leaking of a decision to end it, is certainly a stepping stone for more issues dealing with eugenics, body autonomy laws, and eliminating those who eventually become burdens on the system. Tonight on Ground Zero, Clyde Lewis talks with Rob Davenport about SOYLENT GREEN IS CANADIAN. #GroundZero #ClydeLewis #SoylentGreenIsCanadien https://groundzeromedia.org/5-3-22-soylent-green-is.../ Ground Zero with Clyde Lewis is live M-F from 7-10pm, pacific time, and streamed for free at groundzero.radio. There is a delayed broadcast on our local Portland affiliate station, KPAM 860, from 9pm-12am, pacific time. For radio affiliates near you, go to talkstreamlive.com. To listen by phone: 717-734-6922. To call into the show: 503-225-0860. The transcript of each episode will be posted after the show at groundzeromedia.org. In order to access the entire archived shows/podcasts, you must sign up on our secured server at aftermath.media. If you want access to the entire online Ground Zero library, which includes videos, audio clips, e-books, e-magazines, documents, a news aggregator, a social media platform, plus the archived shows/podcasts, it's $12 a month. Check out the yearly specials!
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