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Latter Day Struggles
Episode 69: BYU-Idaho Faculty Member and the Current University Climate

Latter Day Struggles

Play Episode Listen Later Dec 2, 2022 31:22


Following the recent Salt Lake Tribune article titled "BYU-I Instructors fired for failing 'ecclesiastical clearance.' They can't find out why", and on the heels of this podcast's last episode coincidentally on a similar topic, Valerie was connected with a BYU-I faculty member who was willing--anonymously--to share their experience as a current faculty member and one who clearly sees many deeply troubling dynamics surrounding culture, messaging, and practices at BYU-I, not the least of which is the very troubling issue around the recent confidentiality lost for new and adjunct faculty members.  Other topics discussed in this episode--1. Initial benefits for working at this university   2. Evolving and heightened struggles with issues of professionalism due to changes of administration where it has become less and less acceptable to have open and honest conversations about legitimate concerns had among faculty members on their own and their students behalf.  3. A culture of silence around very relevant issues involving race, gender, sexuality, and mental health concerns within the university community  4.  Heightened fear of the risk that some faculty members feel in simply being "themselves" in even benign ways while in connection with students and others.  5. The noticing that some hurting students have formed an "underground network" where they seek to find safe people with whom to talk about their struggles with issues deeply important to their spiritual and psychological development and   6.  a growing trend or "wave" of students leaving the church as soon as they graduate.   This professor offers deep love for their students and fellow faculty members and expresses both grief and some frustration at the valuable losses they are seeing in the waves of wonderful and good students and other faculty leaving the university and church due to issues of fear, the mandate for silence, and the community's inability to hear the legitimate concerns of so many earnest people seeking a place, safety, and a voice in their home religion.  This podcast is intended to help shine a light on issues that perhaps are invisible to those too close to the situation and offer a loving but direct first hand perspective that might be valuable in healing some of the wounds of the CES and the church that many of us care so much about.   **************************************** Contact Valerie at info@valeriehamaker.com to get on a waitlist for one of her space limited processing/support groups. These are proving to be an amazing experience for those who join.

OKAY-ISH PODCAST
You should eat some green stuff every now and then

OKAY-ISH PODCAST

Play Episode Listen Later Nov 14, 2022 16:18


You've heard it a million times: your physical health is important for your mental health, and vice versa. But do you know why, or what exactly they do to one another? Today, Maryellen wants to talk about that link, and discuss a few more details that you may not think of, including:   The importance of sleep  Eating patterns  Heightened autonomic nervous system = our brain releasing cortisol into our blood stream  Parasympathetic nervous system being repressed   Frustrations with the random gimmicks that promise to “cure all”   Forgetting when we need to do the simple things for ourselves   The value of therapy    Tired as F*ck: Burnout at the Hands of Diet, Self-Help, and Hustle Culture by Caroline Dooner    Knowing when your body needs rest    How our bodies communicate to us, but it's up to us to listen    Taking the time to check in with yourself    How, if we can start to be aware, we can take better care of ourselves    If you haven't already, please follow, rate, and review the podcast, and follow your host on Instagram @maryellendance. To submit questions or stories, send her a DM! Plus, be sure to check out maryellendance.com for more resources. 

PBS NewsHour - World
Biden meets with Chinese president amid heightened tensions between superpowers

PBS NewsHour - World

Play Episode Listen Later Nov 14, 2022 10:27


President Biden and Chinese President Xi held their first in-person meeting as the U.S. and China increasingly confront each other over technology, Taiwan and human rights. The two sides did not agree to step back from their respective positions but did commit to managing tensions. Bonnie Glaser and Yun Sun joined Nick Schifrin to discuss the significance of the meeting. PBS NewsHour is supported by - https://www.pbs.org/newshour/about/funders

#thAtshowufeel
Collective Update: Full Blood Moon in Taurus and Full Lunar Eclipse

#thAtshowufeel

Play Episode Listen Later Nov 7, 2022 47:12


Updates talking about the shifts we are having in and around us. Emotional, physical, mental and spiritual shifts helping us to make the changes being asked of us to go on the path that is intended for us. We may experience some identity crisis, fears, frustration, anxiety and so much more at this time but it is only showing us where we need focus our energy on. Ascension symptoms: crown, third eye, heart and solar plexus themes still. Continuation from last episode symptoms plus heat fluctuation, ear ringing, deja vu and vivid dreams. Heightened intuition and new spiritual gifts unlocked. Forgiving yourself and others so you can let go and move forward. Compassion to yourself and others. For questions, suggestions and anything else please contact me at: thAtshowufeel.com or on instagram @thAtshowufeelpodcast

Fashion Grunge Podcast
Forward Flash 025: These heightened senses are a kick huh? | Cursed (2005)

Fashion Grunge Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Nov 1, 2022 79:00


What do you get when you have werewolves, Christina Ricci, Jesse Eisenberg, and Joshua Jackson in an underdeveloped trainwreck of a film? You have a literal 'cursed' movie. It's always more fun to rag on movies that are totally ridiculous in every sense of the word with a cast that you fully enjoy. That's exactly what happened when I showed Charles and Jai this forgotten film of the 2000s. We talk about the NUMEROUS setbacks, recasting, and just all around problems that lead to this mess. Off-topic rants include: my first time GOT watch, 9 1/2 Weeks, Judy Greer, and various crashes.---Get 80 + BONUS episodes on 90s TV (Freaks & Geeks, My So Called Life, Felicity, Dawson's Creek, and more...) and to support the show, join the PATREON! www.patreon.com/fashiongrungeGIVE US A 5 STAR RATING & SUBSCRIBE!Hosts: Lauren @lauren_melanie & Jai @jai_stylefactory  & Charles @charleshaslam Music by Den-Mate @imdenmateFollow Fashion Grunge Podcast Instagram @fashiongrungepodTwitter @fgrungepodLetterboxd Fashion Grunge PodcastTikTok @fashiongrungepod

I Survived Theatre School

Intro: Emceeing a memorial serviceLet Me Run This By You: Fear and the paranormalInterview: We talk to Tina Parker aka Francesca Liddy about SMU, Blake Hackler, Andre DeShields, Maria Irene Fornes' Mud, Kitchen Dog Theatre, Breaking Bad, Better Call Saul, Robert Altman's Dr. T & the Women, Birdbath play, Perpetual Grace. FULL TRANSCRIPT (unedited):1 (8s):I'm Jen Bosworth Ramirez2 (10s):This, and I'm Gina Pulice1 (11s):We went to theater3 (12s):School together. We survived it, but we didn't quite understand it.4 (15s):20 years later, we're digging deep talking to our guests about their experiences and trying to make sense of3 (20s):It all. We survive theater school and you will too. Are we famous yet?2 (34s):So what does mean, What does it mean to mc a memorial?1 (40s):Yeah. I mean, I don't know what to call it. I I people keep it host. I'm not hosting cuz the family's hosting. So what it means is that I'm trusted, I think to not, Well one, I've done this twice, you know, I've lost both my parents. So I like know the drill about how memorials go, but also I think I'm kind of a safe person in that I will step in if someone goes kaka cuckoo at the memorial and I also have some, you know, able like, presenting skills. Yes. Right. And I'm entrusted to like guide the ship if it, and if it goes off kilter, I will say to somebody, Hey, why don't you have a seat?1 (1m 23s):This is like, we'll have time for this later if you really wanna get crazy or whatever. But that's, and I think it's just sort of steering, steering the grief ship maybe. I don't know. Yeah, look, I don't know. I like that. It's gonna be2 (1m 34s):Interesting, dude, people, Oh, honestly, they should have that for, you know, in other cultures where they have like professional grievers and professional mourners, it, it sounds a little silly, but at the same time it's like, no, this is right. Because no, we don't, we never know how to do it. Unless you've lived in a really communal environment where you, you, you, you know, you attend the rights, the ceremonies or rituals of everybody in your village, then you really don't know until, usually until it's thrust upon you. And then it's like, well, you're supposed to be grieving and then like hosting a memorial service. It's such a weird thing. So this could be another career path for you. You could be a professional, you know, funeral mc, I actually, honestly, I hate, I don't hate it.2 (2m 21s):I love it. Well,1 (2m 22s):And also could be my thank you, my rap name funeral Mc instead of like young mc funeral mc, but no. Yeah, I, I have no, and it's so interesting when it's not my own family, right? Like these are family friends, but they're not, it's not my mother who died. I don't have the attachment to I people doing and saying certain things. I don't feel triggered. Like being, I grew up a lot in this house that I'm sitting in right now, but it's not my, it was not my house. So I don't have any attachment emotionally like appendages to the items in the house where the girls do.1 (3m 2s):So I'm able to be here and, and, and be like, this is, this is, I'm okay here. I don't feel overwhelmed. And I think that is a sign that I'm doing the right thing in terms of helping out in this way if I got here and I was like, Oh my God, it's too much. But I don't feel that. And I also think that like, one of the things that I did with Nancy and Dave over the last couple years is like, they were literally the only adults. Well, I'm an adult, only older adults my parents age who are like, Yes, go to California, you need to get out of here, get away from this. They were the, so I that made me trust them. And then we stayed, we had like weekly phone conversations, just like they would each be on a line.1 (3m 46s):It was hilarious. And we would talk for hours like maybe once every two weeks, a couple hours. And it was really like a parenting experience. So I feel very close to them and I, what I'm learning is that like, even if other people have different relationships with people, you can have your own. So I know that no one's perfect, but these were allowed, like, you're allowed Gina to have your own relationship with your mom and with your even dead people than other people have.2 (4m 17s):Yeah. Yeah. I agree with that. Back to the plane for a minute. In these situations, what do the flight attendants do, if anything?1 (4m 28s):Oh, well I always talked to them before because I, so what I say, I always like to, because Dave, who's, who's a hypnotherapist and a psychologist, he said, Listen, you know, he used to be afraid. And he said his thing was talking to the flight attendants before and just saying like, Hey, I have a phobia. I'm a therapist. I'm working through it. Like just to make contact, right. I don't, I didn't say that exactly, but what I said was, Listen, I say, Hi, how are you? We struck up a strike up, a teeny conversation in that moment where I'm going to my seat and I say, Listen, I'm going to Chicago to like mc a memorial for like someone who's like my mom. So if you see me, so if you see me crying like it's normal. And they're like, Oh, thanks for telling me. And they're, they usually don't get freaked out.1 (5m 11s):I'm also not like intense about it. They do nothing. And you know what they, I think and, and she said, Thanks for telling me. I really appreciate it. Because I think they'd rather know what the fuck is going on with someone than thinking someone's about to hijack the goddamn plane.2 (5m 29s):Exactly. I was thinking that exact same thing. I was thinking like, especially right now, all they know is it's heightened emotion or it's not, you know, like they, they, they have no, they would have no way of differentiating, you know, what's, what's safe and what's dangerous. So I can't believe nobody's ever done this before. But we, another project that we could do is like airplane stories. I mean there is such, this is one of the few points of connection that humanity still has people that is who can afford to you fly a plane anywhere. But this thing of like, it sucks and it's dirty and it's growth and people, people's, you know, hygiene comes into question and if they're sitting next to you and it's uncomfortable and it's not the glamorous thing that it used to be even when we were kids.2 (6m 21s):So it's, it's one of those moments unless you have a private plane where you're sort of forced to reckon with like the same thing that everybody else in humanity has to reckon with. But even on a private plane, and I would argue even especially on a private plane, there is the fear of your imminent death. Like the, the, it doesn't matter if you're afraid of flying or not, it crosses your mind.1 (6m 42s):Well, yeah. And I, my whole thing is like, I, I don't know what would happen if we all started talking about that on a plane. So like what would that be like? So, okay, when I was traveling last with home from San Francisco with Miles, I sat next to this woman, Miles was in the middle and the woman on the aisle was this woman. We were both afraid. And we had this idea for a fricking television show, right? Which was two, it's called the Fearful Flyers and then two people on each side and a famous person in the middle seat. And we would interview them as we, we flew to one, take our mind off it, but two really delve into our own fear and did the person of any fear and get to know a celebrity at the same time.1 (7m 27s):Now she never texted me back. So she's clear, clearly she's not that interested. Cause I was like into it. I was like, what if we get, I know, I know. And she's not even in the industry. She's like, so, but I was like, hey fearful flyer friend, I think we should talk about our idea. Crickets radio silence. So whatever. She's moved on. Like she just used me for the, for the Yeah. No entertainment, which is fine,2 (7m 53s):Heightened emotional space. She, she bonded with you, but now she's back to like all of her armor and all of her gear and she doesn't wanna think about flying until she has1 (7m 60s):To. No. Right, right. Exactly. It's not something that she wants to delve into on her free time, you know, So, which I don't blame her. But anyway, so yeah, it's an interesting thing. Like I literally ha I sit out the window, I sit by the window and I have to look out the window. And this guy next to me who I met, who's like a vet and who is like, was self-medicating with alcohol and who is a gay vet was really interesting. But he, everyone copes differently. But it was in, at one point I thought, oh, I actually don't wanna be distracted by him because I'm really doing some deep work with myself as I look out the window and also your version of like getting through this experience, I, it does not feel safe to me, which is drinking and like just, I cannot distract myself.1 (8m 52s):People are like, Oh, read a book. I'm like, are you fucking kidding me? That's like telling someone I don't know who's having a seizure to read a book. Like you, you, it's not gonna work. Right. I look out the window and, and do therapy with myself. That is what I2 (9m 7s):Do. I love it. That's great. I think everybody who is listening to this, who has any kind of fear or intimidation around flying should, should do that. I don't know if you were getting to this, but I thought you were gonna say something about like how, Oh, you said, you said what if we all talked about it now? Every positive communal experience with the exception of theater that I've ever had, I've gone into unwillingly at the beginning and you know, sort of rejecting it and then come out the other side. Like that was amazing. You know, the thing that you experience, the communal thing, the thing of like, we're all in this together, which we are all like so actually parched for, but we, people like me would never really kind of actively sort of approach.2 (9m 48s):It has to be thrust upon me these like healing group experiences, but amen. In fact, they could make a whole airline that is sort of about that. Like this is, you know, this is the emotional express. Like this is where we're gonna talk about our fear of flying. Cuz everybody's crying in airplanes too. Being in the actual airplane does something to you that makes everybody much more vulnerable than there are otherwise.1 (10m 13s):It's so crazy. I agree. It could be emotional express and you could deal with it, but you would know getting on this plane, like people are gonna talk about their feelings and you shouldn't get on it. So the guy on the aisle2 (10m 26s):Yesterday, No,1 (10m 28s):No alcohol. Oh yeah, no alcohol. The guy on the aisle like hated everything about the flight, Right? He was like shaking his head. He was annoyed. But then he had a Harvard sweatshirt on. I was like, oh my god. But he was like middle aged guy, like coating or I don't know what he was doing, but he like hated everything. He shook his head when they told him to like put his bag under the seat. I'm like, listen, you know what's going on here. This is not your first time in an airplane, Why are you shaking your head? But okay. But then he said something that was hilarious and I said, I'm gonna put that in a script. Which, which was, I don't even know what he was responding to. It was probably my seat mate saying something. But he said, Listen, it's not ideal, but nobody asked me.2 (11m 13s):And1 (11m 13s):I, I'm gonna, and I said to him, I said, Listen, I am gonna put that in a script. Like the mother-in-law is meeting her future daughter-in-law and, and says, Listen, she's not ideal, but nobody asked me. And he laughed and then he said, it's true. And I said, Yeah, I know it's true. That's why. And so then he was like, then he was like free to talk about his disgruntledness, which was fine cuz then it was like he was more human. But at, he was hilarious. He was like the, like he's one of those people that like during and it was really turbulent at one point. And I was like, Okay, here we go. It's turbulence part of the deal. It's okay, fine. And he was like, just like angry at the turbulence.2 (11m 57s):I love1 (11m 58s):It. Which I thought was brilliant. Yeah, I'm like, but like, who are you angry at? Just like the turbulence. And he was like, ugh. And like angry at air flow. I don't know if2 (12m 7s):At air current1 (12m 8s):He was like pissed off. I was laughing. I was like, this guy's awesome. He just hates everything. It's, it is not ideal, but nobody asks me.2 (12m 17s):So what's so great about that? And so what's so great about you is like, you enga that's how you always engage people from this perspective of like, yeah, whatever is going on with you that you think is like nobody else wants to hear about, I want to hear about it. Because that's because that's what you spend your time doing. You know, bravely engaging with yourself. They, we need a person like you in all of these sort of like high stress situations that people have to do. Usually at some point in your life you have to get on an airplane. Usually at some point in your life you you have to speak, you know, in front of a group of people. You have to have the funeral. We need these sherpa's, these guides to kind of give us, basically just give us permission to have our own human experience that we have somehow talked ourselves out of having, even though it's completely unavoidable.1 (13m 3s):Yeah. And I also really respect people who now who have to just, I mean I, it's not my way, but like, shut down and they're like, Nope, I'm just gonna, they can do it. They're like, either it's drinking or whatever it is to distract themselves. They're like in it, whether it's the disgruntledness or other people, they like just go to sleep immediately. They like sit down and they're like out. And I don't think it's relaxation. I think they're just like checked. They're like,2 (13m 30s):I have, Oh yeah, no, they're, I cannot be conscious right now. I wonder what makes the difference between people who are afraid of flying and not, I have never once felt afraid of flying, even during turbulence. I've never once had the thought like, this plane is going down. I mean, maybe that changed a little bit when I had kids and I was always the one in the aisle, like holding, I had to hold my babies the entire flight because, because it must be a natural thing to be freaked the fuck out to be on an airplane. Even a baby freaks out to be on an airplane. So there's something to it. But what makes a difference between people who just, I've never had that fear.1 (14m 8s):I I know it is a foreign, it is like it is. I don't know either. And I, I I, there's other people like that have, What was the fear someone was talking about the other day? Oh, I have a friend who like literally cannot have their blood drawn. They have to go under almost. Wow. They almost have to be sedated to have their blood drawn. Me. I I stick out my arm. I don't give a, it's just not my thing. Yeah. I don't have any charge at it at all.2 (14m 37s):Well,1 (14m 38s):You could take my blood right now.2 (14m 40s):I used to have this theory that you grew up afraid of the things that your parents basically were afraid of so that they therefore communicated to be afraid of. But that I now think that that's completely untrue. My daughter is scared to death of spiders. She, she's haunted by this fear that when she goes into the bathroom at night, there's gonna be a spider. If there's the tiniest and we live in the woods, there's sp there's all kinds of insects that make that their way into our house. I have, there's not a spider I've ever encountered that I've been afraid of now. Mice and rats. That's what I'm afraid of. My mom was afraid of snakes. She did not transfer when I was younger.2 (15m 20s):I felt afraid of them too. And then one day I was like, eh, it's fine. Yeah. I don't think I have any coral with these snakes actually. I think it's completely fine. Right. So I, I don't, So it's something inherent in us that identifies an ob I think it's maybe like we've, I for whatever reason, this becomes the object of all of your fears. And it could be a spider, it could be a plane, it could be, you know, clowns. Like it's for a lot, for a lot of people. It's1 (15m 47s):Fun. Oh remember, Okay, Larry Bates, who we went to school with, and he's open, I think about this. Yeah, he is cuz he's, he's talked about it. I, he had a fear of muppets, like an intense Muppet fear. And I was like, Wait, are you, I thought it was a joke. I was like, Wait, Muppets, Like, okay, they're a little weird, but like, but like a phobia of a Muppet. And I was like, what the actual fuck. I couldn't like,2 (16m 14s):I just, that's it's not, dude, my version of that is I was afraid of mariachi bands.1 (16m 22s):Wait, mariachi bands?2 (16m 24s):Yes.1 (16m 25s):Like bands. Yeah.2 (16m 26s):Well, so growing up, growing up in, well, we love Mexican boots, so we were always going out for Mexican food. And back then, I don't know why every time you went to have Mexican food, you know, dinner, there was a mariachi band. Like, I, I, it doesn't, I haven't seen a mariachi band in such a long time, but it used to be that you could not go out for a Mexican restaurant dinner without a mariachi band. And I, it got to a point where they couldn't, first it was like, we can't go to have Mexican food anymore. It was like, we can't go to a restaurant. I just, I didn't want these mariachis and, and it must have just, I think it was the bigness of the hat and the loudness of the music right next to your table when you think about it, it's actually, so it's strange, right?2 (17m 9s):Yeah. That you're sitting at your table, like with your family looking, you know, whether you're gonna order the chalupa or the enchilada. And then it's just like, extremely loud, very good, but extremely loud and, and in huge presence. People sitting, you know, right next to your table.1 (17m 24s):Yeah. I mean it doesn't really make a lot of sense as a business move either. Like what, why it would like, it would like make people, unless you're drunk again, if there's alcohol involved, it changes everything. But you can't really drink as a toddler. So, but I think that like, maybe there's something, I wonder if there's something about that of like all the attention being on you. Like, listen, when there's, like, there are kids I know at restaurants when they, when it's their birthday and they come over to sing that they fucking hate it. It's too much attention on them. And adults too. And I can kinda understand that. It's like too much pressure, right? There's like a2 (17m 59s):Pressure. Well, you just unlocked it for me now I know exactly what it is. You said something about being drunk and I think at that age, I have always equated loud and raucous with drunk. You know, as a kid, I knew when anybody in my family was being loud raus. And, and actually, I'm sorry to say even especially when they were having fun. When I'm in a room, when I'm in a house and everybody's laughing, you know, my, it's like, I I I I just get that fear. I just get that fear sort of rise up. It's different now that I'm older and I've, you know, been in more situations where that hasn't been scary to me. But that's what it was with the mariachis, The loud and the festive and the music meant like, somebody's going to say something that they really regret.2 (18m 44s):Somebody's gonna get a dui, somebody's going to jail.1 (18m 50s):Hey, let me run this by you.2 (18m 58s):So imperfectly into the thing I wanted to run by you today, given that it is Halloween season and this episode will air the day after Halloween. But so I, you know, Well, actually no. Okay, I'll, I'll start with this. I am one of those people that desperately seeks paranormal experiences. And I'm almost always disappointed when I'm, when I'm actively seeking it, going to a psychic, going to a medium, going to, it's, oh, you know, it's, I'm never the one in the crowd where the medium goes. Like, I've got a message for you.2 (19m 40s):And I've, I've gotten to the point where I'm like, my family's like just not that into me. They don't wanna, you know, the people have passed over, like, don't wanna, don't wanna come talk to me, don't wanna give me messages. But I I, if you're out there, if you're listening, ancestors drop a line. I'd love to know what the deal is. I'd love to know what messages you might have from me because I actually really do believe that that can happen. Maybe it just needs to happen with people who are on a higher spiritual plane than any of,1 (20m 9s):I mean, I don't, I don't believe that for a sec. I mean, it could be true. What do I know? But I think, look, I do believe right, that most shit happens when you're not expecting it paranormal or not. Like all this shit that has happened to me, most of it has been not at all when I would've planned or thought or, and so I have one ghost story. I don't know if you know, it happened in Great Barrington, Do you know this story?2 (20m 42s):Yes. But tell it again. It's a great story.1 (20m 44s):Okay. Okay. I could care. I was like 21. All I wanted was to be skinny and have boys like me. I didn't give a fuck about ghosts, I didn't care about anything. So I'm in Great Barrington in edits, Wharton's the old Lady author's house, and I'm the stage manager. And this guy I was in love with was in this play that took place. The monkeys paw took place in the, they were doing an adaptation of the Monkeys Paw in Edith Wharton's parlor on Halloween. It was like the creepiest thing, but I didn't give a fuck because I was in love with the guy who was seriously haunted. Yes, yes, yes. Super, super Berkshire's, whatever. I didn't care.1 (21m 24s):I was like, ah, I wanna, I want this guy to like me. I don't give a fuck about any of that. Okay. So I, my job was to literally move the furniture after the rehearsal to the storage room. Okay. In this big mansion. Okay, fine. They're getting notes and I'm just probably daydreaming about how I can make this guy like me. And I'm moving furniture and I go into this little storage room and of course people talk about the house is so big and haunted, I could care less. So I'm in there and down the road from the house is a barn where they're doing the play Ethan from and Okay, Ethan from, there's like a sledding accident in the play. So he's on a sled and they start screaming and the guy is hurt.1 (22m 4s):So another show was going on at the, in the barn. And I'm like, ah, okay. So I'm moving the furniture and I hear this sled yelling and okay, I'm like, Oh, should they, I wish they would shut up. I was like, this is loud yelling. So then I, we finish our rehearsal and we're walking up back, me and the cute guy and some other people, and all I'm thinking about is how can I get this guy like me? And like, literally, and also now I see pictures of him and I'm like, Dear God. Anyway, so, so, oh my God, why didn't someone, I mean, you should, someone should have just slapped me like 10 times and been like, No. But anyway, but that's what I was, I was all about him. I had a thing for Canadians. Anyway, so, so like, I just loved the guys that was like international to me, Canadians.1 (22m 48s):Anyway, okay. So it was like all the Canadians. So we're walking in the dark to our cars and, and I say, and we walk by the barn and I'm like, Oh my gosh, you guys, they were so loud tonight when I was moving the furniture. Like they should shut up. Like, I, I wonder how it's gonna be when we're doing the Monkeys Past show. We're gonna hear Ethan from, and like every, there's like four of us. Everyone stopped and I'm like, What, what's wrong with you? Two or three or whatever. And they were like, like turned white. I've never seen this happen in human beings. And I was like, What is happening? I thought I said something wrong or like, of course, like I was bad. And I'm like, What?1 (23m 28s):And they're like, Oh God. And I was like, What? What are you punk me? What's happening? And they're like, There was no show tonight.2 (23m 37s):Ooh. Even though I knew that was coming the story, it still gave me a chill. Today on the podcast we are talking to Tina Parker. Yes. Tina Parker, the one and only Francesca Litty from the Smash Hit series, critically acclaimed and me acclaimed Better Call Saul and Breaking Bad Tina's a delight. She's a director, she directs for theater. She's got a theater company in Dallas, Texas called Kitchen Dog. And she was so much fun to talk to and I just know you are going to love our conversation with Tina Parker.2 (24m 33s):Oh, nice. Okay. Well I wanna get all into Kitchen Dog, but I've gotta start first by saying congratulations Tina Parker. You survived theater school5 (24m 44s):So long ago. My Lord, so2 (24m 46s):Long ago. Yeah. I I have no doubt that, you know, the ripple we, we've learned, it doesn't matter how long ago you graduated, the, the feeling of survival persists and the ripple effects of it persists.5 (24m 59s):Absolutely.1 (25m 1s):When I had longer hair, people used to always ask if I played Bob Oden Kirk's assistant on better. And I would say no. But I adore the human that plays her. It's brilliant performance and I love it. So2 (25m 17s):There you go. It really is. And I, and I wanna talk a lot about Better Call Saul, but you went to smu, which I did. You interviewed the current dean, I think he's the dean. Blake Hackler.5 (25m 30s):Yeah. Chair of Acting I think.2 (25m 31s):Chair of Acting. Okay, fantastic. I'm I'm assuming you guys weren't there. No, you never crossed5 (25m 36s):Path. But we've actually, he and I have crossed paths a bit professionally nowadays. Yes. Because we've, we, Kitchen Dog has done a few of his new play readings cuz he's a playwright also. So he's, he had at least two or three plays read in our New Works festival and he's always helped me out when I need recommendations for young people to come in and read. Cause you know, we're all old at Kitchen Dog.2 (25m 56s):Fantastic. Shout out to Blake. So SMU is a fantastic school. Did you always wanna go there? Did you apply to a bunch of different places? How did you pick smu?5 (26m 9s):Well, it's kind of a ridiculous story. I, my senior year of high school, you know, of course like a lot of people went to theater school. You're all like, I'm the superstar. My high school. Like, all right, I get all the leads. I'm Auntie Mame and Mame. You know what? Ridiculous.1 (26m 25s):I just have to say I was Agnes Gooch and I, I was the Gooch. Were you5 (26m 30s):Agnes? I was ma I was anti Mame in the stage play version. Oh yes.1 (26m 35s):I wa yeah, yeah, me too. I was Agnes Gooch. I wanted to be anti Mame, but so anyway, always a goo, always a Gooch. Never a Mame over here. But anyway, So tell us, So you were the start.5 (26m 46s):Yeah, you know, like everybody who went to theater school, everybody was the start at their high school. But I, my dad unfortunately had a stroke when I was a, and he was only, my parents are super young and so he was 40, I don't know. So it was very unusual. It happened like at the beginning of my senior year. And so my family was, it was all kind of chaotic. My senior year was very chaotic and I was also like the president of the drama club and, and we, you know, and all the people, you know, all the competitions every weekend. And so it was just a, there was a lot going on and my family stuff got into disarray because my dad ended up losing his job because he was sick for so long. And, and it was so I screwed up.5 (27m 28s):Like I missed a lot of applications. I never, I didn't really, it was one of those where it just kind of snuck up on me and I didn't really know the places I wanted to go. I had missed like certain deadlines because of the fall. And so I, SME was still one of the ones that was open. And so I did, was able to schedule an audition cuz you had to get into the school, but also, you know, get into the theater program. Like you could get into the school, not get into the theater program, you know, it is what it is. Luckily I still had time to do the audition, so I did that and then my grandmother literally walked my application through the admin, through the academic part because something I had missed, I think.5 (28m 13s):And my grandmother is very like, I don't know, it's hard to say no to my grandmother. So she went and they took this great care of her and she just kind of walked through and she's like, told the whole situation. And I mean, I had good grades. Like it wasn't, you know, like I did get in, I got scholarships and all this shit. Like I had, I had good grades, so it wasn't like I was like, my grandmother did it, you know, But she did walk it through. She's a thousand percent charmer. And then the, as far as the audition goes, I was an hour late because I got lost. And then there's this weird horseshoe at SMU cuz you know, go ponies or whatever bullshit that is, there was no parking.5 (28m 55s):And so I was like, got, was super late and I was just like, just like so sweaty and like, you know, you, everything's high drama when you're in high school, right? So you're like, this is is my last chance to be a doctor. I'm gonna have to work at the, you know, fucking shoe store that I was working at or whatever. It was forever. And so1 (29m 15s):I would, I, after I became an actor, I was still working at the cheese store after I went to, But the other thing I wanna say is like, also your grandma sounds like charming, but also like, she might be in the mob.5 (29m 25s):Well, yeah, she's totally like, yeah, I mean, I don't know. She's, she's she, she can get it done. She's the wife of a Methodist minister too. So she, she, she knows how she can, she can read a person and figure out like, this is what you need, you know, And she's just sweet, like, you know, she's charmer. But I ran into someone else's audition, like that's what I, I ran and they then the school, the school is all built, the school is all built crazy. So if you don't know the school, you get lost. And I was like, went and I going in the wrong places and I was an hour late and I was like, and like, I literally like, this is it not open the door. And they're like, somebody's in there like, like doing the thing. And I'm like, oh my god. And they're like, you know, and I was like that.5 (30m 7s):And I was just like, Oh God. And so I go and sit in the room and I just remember them coming in. I was like, I'm really sorry, you know, like the kid was like, whoever, I don't think they got in. And they, I just remember them looking at me like, you know, and they left and I was like, great, this is awesome. And then I go into my audition, which I chose the worst pieces, like the worst of course. Like, I think it was like, I can't even remember the name of the playwright, but it's like a really, really dramatic monologue from like bird bath, you know, My head is not a hammer, like something ridiculous. And then I also chose to sing, which I'm not the greatest. I mean, I can sing, I can sing karaoke, but not like seeing like I'm a musical theater actor. I, I, that's not me.5 (30m 47s):I think I chose seeing like the something that Nights on Broadway or some bullshit, like, you know, the Neon Lights On? No, No. On Broadway. Like ridiculous. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. And they were like, luckily, luckily I did get in the interview part and then they're like, turn your, they're like, turn your monologue into standup comedy.2 (31m 6s):Oh wow. I never heard of that in audition. What a cool tactic.5 (31m 10s):Well, and it was also, I think they could tell that I was so freaked out and so nervous, but then that like, the interview portion went great. And so they're like, you know, then they were like, Hey, try like play around with this. And then like, the bad song that I had selected that I had practiced with my cousin who could play guitar or something, they're like, do some dance moves with it. So I was just like, I don't dance, but I started doing these ridiculous things and they're like, Yeah, good. They laughed and you know, I, I think it also let me relax. They're2 (31m 38s):Like, you are crazy enough to be in theater school. Wait, you guys, should we have a documentary series about people who are auditioning for theater school? Because honestly like the stakes are so high for so many people. I bet there's 1 billion stories. Yeah, I mean, some of which we've heard on, on, on the podcast, right? Boz? Yeah,1 (31m 58s):I think we do. I think we do. And all the, I just remembered that in my monologue was from the play about the woman who traps the rapist in her house and puts him in a fireplace.5 (32m 10s):Oh, the burning bed or whatever. Not the burning bed, but the, Yeah,1 (32m 14s):Yeah. And it's, it's, it's William Masterson.5 (32m 17s):Yes,1 (32m 18s):Yes, yes. And, and she has a fire poker and she's poking the rapist and I am 16 at the time. Oh, and I what? And a virgin, not that that really matters, but like the whole thing is not good. And why, why did I do that? But yet I got, But5 (32m 35s):That's what this piece was the same thing. It was so dark. And so like, this person is mentally ill and she's like, I get, there's not a hammer.1 (32m 41s):Don't hit me bear.5 (32m 42s):And you're just like, What?1 (32m 44s):I'm like it would've been, I mean I know this is terrible to say, but what if they told me to turn that into standup? Like that would be dark, dark, dark humor. But any, Okay, so you, you clearly like, what I love is that smu like knew how to take a teenagers anxiety and like shift it and so good on them, those auditioners like good on them. So you did that, you did you walk out of there feeling like, okay, like it started off really wonky, like me being late, but like I have a chance. Or did they tell you, when did they tell you5 (33m 15s):I felt good like that? When I, after I left I was like, okay, you know, like I wasn't sure like, cuz I was like, it was weird that they told me to change it to comedy, but I think it was good, you know, And like I felt like the interview part went good and they were, at the time, my class, this was the first year that they, they eliminated the cuts program. So what happened is they instead they had the BFA acting track and then they had, well what was proposed anyways, they changed our, what our degree was, but it was supposed to be ba in theater studies. And so if you were interested in directing, you know, playwriting, whatever, stage management, tech, whatever, and then acting you could also have, so you kind of chose focuses, but that was it.5 (34m 2s):And it had more of a little more academic focus. And so cuz before me, the classes, everybody went in as an actor. You did first two years and then they kind of just cut you basically. And were like, you're in this free fall of like a program that wasn't really planned.1 (34m 18s):Yeah. I mean like, that's how our school was too. And like half the people didn't end up graduating and it was a racket and now they don't do it anymore. But that5 (34m 27s):Was a huge, yeah, they stopped my year.1 (34m 30s):Okay. So, so was it that the people that maybe weren't get getting into the acting program went to theater studies? Is that how it was proposed?5 (34m 37s):I think that's what they were trying to do. I think they were also trying to figure out a way, or they were try some people left. I think they were also trying to keep their numbers up. And I think they also had people who were like, Hey we're, I'm an actor but I'm also a director. Why can't you make, get me some classes here? You know, like, I wanna have the class. If you're gonna cut me, that's fine. But like, I'm interested in these things too. Can there be a program? And so they kind of were building that program, like they had it out there, you know, and that when they took our class, we had very set paths of like, and we had the same two years together as a group. So freshman and sophomore year. And then we split into our kind of disciplines and they kind of still, like when I was, when we were juniors, kind of like, here's some things and we're like, okay, but our class was kind of a hard ass and we're like, where's our, where's our, where's this class?5 (35m 24s):Where's that? So we were always in the office saying, no, this, this like afterthought of a class, this should then fly and you know, I'm gonna direct a main stage or I wanna direct a studio. And they're like, Oh. And they're like, No, this is how it's gonna work or whatever. So like, yeah, me and Tim and Tim, who actually is one of my coworkers, a kitchen dog and then a couple other folks were pr I think we turned the, the chair at the Times hair white because we would go in there and be like, No, this isn't gonna work.2 (35m 53s):You just, you just made me realize that our, this, all the schools who had cut programs who didn't have another track to go into after were missing out on such a revenue stream. Right? Like our, at our school. Yeah. All the people who got cut like went to this other college and I'm thinking, what, what, When was the meeting where somebody goes, Oh my god, you guys, we should just have something here for them to do instead of sending them to another school. That's hilarious. Well,5 (36m 17s):And I think too, they find like, you know, like that there's kids that truly have talent for, you know, like a playwright or director, but then they're also really good actors. Which I think, you know, I think it's really good for people who are like, I am primarily like, I'm a mix Tim I would say who my coworker is is primarily a director, but, but it's great for both of us to go through acting, you know, like that's been, that's, but1 (36m 38s):I'm noticing is there's no, like our school had no foresight into anything, so it was like they didn't, So that's a problem in a, in a university.5 (36m 49s):Yeah. It, here's problem. Right.1 (36m 50s):So okay, so at your school, what was your experience like on stage the star? Were you And then, Oh, okay. And then, and then my other follow up question is, man, the follow up question is you're launching into the professional world. What did your school do or not do to prepare you? And what was your departure like into like, okay, now you're 22, live your life.5 (37m 11s):Bye. I would say for, I was kind of a mix. Like I had a lot of opportunities while I was there and some self created as far as directing opportunities. And we had an interesting system of like, there was a studio theater and we were able to have, we had this studio system, which a lot of non-majors would come and see plays because they were required, blah, blah blah. But so we got to direct a lot, you know, And, and Tim really fought and he got directed main stage and I was, I was, my senior year I was a lead in a play, you know, like just all sorts of things. Like I had a lot of great opportunities at smu. I think I had some also, I had some good teachers and directors while I was there.5 (37m 53s):So when I was a junior, you know, they had Andre De Shields in to, to as a guest artist, which really stirred the pot because he was not about like, let's talk about your objectives, let's talk, let's really do some table work. Like, he was like, Why aren't you funny? I don't get that shit. Like, go, go out. Why aren't you funny like this? Or come up with some, some dancing or whatever, you know. He was awesome. Like, I loved it. Like cuz we were doing funny thing happen on the way to the forum. I was one of the, you know, concubines or whatever the dance, I was Tinton Nebula, the bell, the supposed to be a, like a bell ringer, you know, like sexy dancer. And he said, I reminded him of some lady he lived with in Amsterdam. So instead I was a clogger and had bells and had giant hair that went out to here.5 (38m 37s):And yeah. And so he was like, he was great. Like, and but it really gave you the experience, it makes a lot of people crazy because he was like not interested in their process. What he was interested in was like results and like hitting your marks and like, you know, like he had sent me away and he was like, come up with 16 beats to that end I'm gonna see something funny. And so I came back in and did it and he was like, yes. You know, like it was, it was awesome. Like he would, he would really was a real collaborator.2 (39m 3s):That's fantastic. And, and actually I'm so glad you told that story because, and I, I won't, I wanted you to get back to launching and everything, but the thing about the Andre Des Shield story that you just told, I can see why you like that because that seems like you a person who has the training and the gravitas and whatever to like take their craft very seriously, but at the end of the day, you're there to entertain and get the job done, right? Like you don't, you're not so precious about your own self. Yeah. Which is really interesting.5 (39m 30s):No, and I mean it was, it was so important I think just because, you know, like everywhere you, everywhere you go like, you know, you don't always work at the same place and everybody's process and everybody's way of rehearsal or whatever's wildly, wildly different. And so I thought it was great because you know, you're not going to go always walk into some place where they're gonna coddle you or, or, or take the time or whatever, you know, like it's different.1 (39m 56s):The other thing is that like we, what I just hit me is that we've interviewed a ton of people and I'm trying to like think about like what does a conservatory do wrong is I think they forget that it's about entertainment. Like there becomes such a focus on process and inner work. What about the fucking entertainment value of like entertaining the audience? Like that goes out the window, which is why the shit is not funny most of the time. Cause it's like so serious, you're like, no, this is a fucking farse. Like make people laugh. Yeah. And it's like, I love that, that you're, you remind me of like an entertainer and I, I feel like I needed entertainment Conservatory.5 (40m 35s):Not, well I would say that, I mean I still use a lot of the training that I used at SMU like, like at Kitchen Dog. I mean this was founded by SMU grads. So you know, a lot of the doing table work and talking about what you want and all that kinda stuff like that is definitely part of what we do. But what was cool about Andre and I love and Des Shields with all my heart like was that you found a way to make your process work in his framework and, and he got results. Like the, our show was funny as hell, like in the singing was great, the dancing was great and it looked great cuz the Eckhart's did the costumes and all the sets and it felt like we were in a professional show.5 (41m 15s):Like it was, it was exciting and fun to do. So I thought it was a great way to kind of get ready for what it was gonna be like. Cuz I remember auditioning for the show and he was like, Where's your headshot? And we're like, nobody told us. And he's like, This is an audition, why don't you have, I don't understand why you don't have a headshot. And you're just, just like, oh God. Like, and it was embarrassing, you know? And then he was like, All right, I wanna do the, he's doing some improvy things in that in the thing and people couldn't get like, people were like, and he is like, just jump in man. And he was like fantastic. And you know, you get a call back and you're like, okay, I see how this works. So that was great. And we also had a lady named Eve Roberts, same thing. She was pretty brutal too in that, you know, if you weren't ready to go, she wasn't gonna baby you.5 (42m 1s):So she would just basically like you're oh, so you don't know your lines. Sit the fuck down, Sit down, who's ready to work? Cuz it was an audition class and she was a film actor with a lot of experience and it was auditions for both film and and stage. But she, if you weren't ready, but if you were ready, she would work you out. Like you would get a great workout, you'd leave with a great monologue. And so I was like, always be prepared for that, you know, cuz she will, she will, she will get you if you're not,2 (42m 27s):Honestly it really sounds like SMU did a much better job than most, most of what we hear about in terms of like getting real working actors and, and it's a tough thing. I I, you know, I don't really blame any school that doesn't, It's a tough thing if it's a working actor, then they're working, they don't have time to like commit to the, the, the school teaching schedule. But at the same time, like if you don't have any of that, then you are really, you're experiencing all that on the job. Which, you know, which is fine too. But it sounds like SMU did a better job of preparing for you, preparing you for a career.5 (42m 57s):I would say somewhat. Yeah. I mean there are things that I, you know, as, as I entered life because I was of the mind when I, when I graduated, I was really torn about whether or not to go to grad school or not. And I really didn't know cuz I really, I, and I still to this day have a split focus. Like I act and direct both in the, you know, in the theater. Like I do both. So I wasn't sure which way I wanted to go and you really had to decide to go to grad school. So I was like, you know, I'm gonna take a year off is what I decided. And I waited tables, lived life, you know, whatever, didn't even really do any theater or stuff.5 (43m 39s):But I tended to like work back at smu. So like they would have me come back and like I would sub in and cover like Del Moffitt who was the man who was the auditioner who auditioned me originally and his improv class. Like I'd come in and do cover him for a month if he went on sabbatical, you know, stuff like that. Or like, and I directed a couple main stages there. That was it. So I just decided end up, I started working more in Dallas and ended up just staying in Dallas. Dallas was not what I plan where I planned to stay. Like I kept in my mind, you know, thinking like I'm gonna move to Chicago. Like that was my dream was living in Chicago and because I guess I'm a tourist and stubborn and lazy, I don't know, sometimes you just start working and you're like, nah, just stay here.5 (44m 26s):I'm working and I can kind of do what I want. And then I got an agent and I was like, oh there's this part of the, you know, like I think in 95 or whatever, you know, cause I graduated in 91, so you just start working and then it's like, why do I want to go and start over? And it was just kind of a hard thing to do. Do I have regrets sometime about not doing Absolutely. Like sometimes I look back and I'm like, oh man. But as far as just preparing, I think it's just hard to get prepared. Cuz I think, like, I wish I left with like, and they're doing this now, which is great, but like left with more of like what's, you know, good, what's a good headshot? What's what, what, you know, how do you walking into a room, how do you handle it?5 (45m 7s):You know, like there's certain things that I feel like they could train and give you a little bit more experience, life experience in it. But I think they have some new, I know they have, I know they have film acting now, a little bit of film acting stuff there, which is always good just cuz that's how a lot of people make money.2 (45m 26s):I, I am, I'm happy to say because we've had, we've had this conversation so many times with people about the way that schools didn't prepare you. Somebody's been getting the message about this. My son is in high school and he goes to this like auxiliary performing arts program. It's like half day his regular high school and half day this and he does a seminar once a week on the business of music. And you know, what, what kind of jobs you're gonna have to do to keep, you know, to pay the rent while you're waiting between gigs, like is very brass tack. So, so the message has gotten through, thankfully.5 (45m 58s):Yeah, the business is important, man. That's how you survive. I mean, let's be real. I mean like that's, and it's not easy. Like if you're, like, if you're going to, I mean there's, sure there's two or three unicorns every so often, but for the most part you're gonna have to wait tables or cobble together bunch of odd jobs or cobble you know, like all these little, like, I'm a, I'm gonna do the Asop Fs in the, in the elementary schools for three weeks or whatever, you know, like, and how do you make rent? You know, like that's, it's not glamorous for sure.2 (46m 27s):So what was the journey from graduating to founding Kitchen Dog with your classmates?5 (46m 33s):I actually am not a founder. So Kitchen Dog was founded by five SMU MFA students who were in the MFA program when I was an undergrad. So I, so I ate that old, thank God, but they founded it in 90, did their first show in 91, which I saw it was above a, it was above a pawn shop in deep with no air conditioner in May. It was very hot and fantastic, you know, Maria Ford has his mud, it was great. And so I did my first show with them in 93. So a few years after I graduated, which Tim, my classmate directed, he had come back, he was in Minnesota at the time and then I've just worked with Kitchen Dog ever since.5 (47m 15s):So I became a company member in 96, started working for the company as like an admin producer type person in 99 and then became co-artistic director when the founding ad left in 2005. So I've been here forever. I do not have children. I say that Kitchen dog is my grown mean child. You're1 (47m 36s):Grown mean, did you say mean?5 (47m 38s):Yeah, I did say mean sometimes. Yeah, sometimes it's very, you know, temperamental.1 (47m 42s):Yeah, that's fine. That's, I mean, yeah, it's probably still better than kids, I'm just saying. Anyway. I mean, I don't have any, so, but okay, so what do you, this is what I always wanna ask people who have longstanding careers in theater and especially when they are co-artistic director or artistic director, why do you do it and why do you love it?5 (48m 6s):That's a really good question. I mean, it varies from time to time. I mean, I think that I, you know, Kitchen Dog has one of its tenants has always been about asking, you know, we do, we do, I hate the word edgy, but we do edgier plays, we do plays that are very much talking about the world around us. Challenging, you know, and we're in Texas, it's, you know, sort of purple state now, kind of exciting purple parts. At least Dallas is hopefully this election goes that way. So, you know, it's, we, I feel like our place in the Dallas Zeki is important because, you know, we're not doing, there are a lot of people that do traditional plays and do them well, you know, like straight ahead, you know, musicals or you know, the odd couple or whatever.5 (48m 53s):Notice this gesture, the odd couple and doing great. But we do new, we do newer plays. We're a founding member of the National New Play Network. And so that's kind of kept it relevant and kept it exciting. The work exciting to me. I love working with new plays and new ideas and we have a company of artists, some of which went to smu and I, I think I've stayed here this long because, you know, I feel like I can, I, I do, I am able to do the kind of work I wanna do. I'm able to choose the plays I wanna be in or direct and I feel like they're important for my community. And when it becomes that, it's not that then I need to leave or step downs is my feeling.5 (49m 37s):I mean, you know. Yeah, yeah. I dunno.2 (49m 40s):Yeah. So many people say that, that they, that they, they keep their allegiances to theater companies because it's, it's often the work that they really, you know, f feel moves them is very, you know, is very inspiring. But then you also got the opportunity to do a very good part in something that was commercial, which is breaking bad. So could you tell us anything about your, how you were born into that project?5 (50m 8s):Sure, sure. The, I, you know, I got an agent, did you know, I had no experience, no resume. So you did the couple of walk on, you know, like, I'm in the back of a bank commercial, fantastic. Or whatever, $50. I love it. Did that and Lucked into Robert Altman. Came to town and did a very terrible movie called Dr. T and the Women. But it was a fantastic experience and I was one of the nurses and I was on set every day pretty much. So he's told me, he told us, he's like, I'll make you a lot of money. You're not gonna be seen a lot. You'll be here every day. And we got out by five and I was able to do plays at night. Like it was, it was Chef's kiss the best, like you just kind of learned from the master.5 (50m 52s):Like he is a, he truly was a master god rest his soul. Anyway, so I started auditioning more, did some walkers cuz everybody does did Walker back in the time Walker, Texas Ranger. It's like1 (51m 2s):The er we'd all did the ER and the early ion in Chicago. That was my so walker, same thing. I love a good walker by the way, Texas Ranger.5 (51m 13s):So ridiculous. Yeah, I think one of my lines in one of the episodes I was in was like, you won't put this on your lighty friends tabs. Like it was so country. Anyway, it terrible. But so with the breaking bad thing, I, I read the sides. It actually was the, the person who was casting locals or whatever, not locals cuz it was shooting in New Mexico, but it was a woman in Tony Cobb Brock who was casting in Dallas. And so we got the sides, I got the call to come in and audition for it. I read it and I was like, you know, and this is the story I've told a lot, but it's the truth, which is I read it and I was like, It's gonna be a blonde, big boobs woman. Like that's what I thought when I read it, I was like, it's gonna be this.5 (51m 54s):That's what it's gonna be. Cuz there were a lot of jokes about boobs and you're killing me with that booty. Like there was a lot more to that scene. My first scene there was a lot more. So I was like, whatever. I was like, it's not, I'm, you know, I'm a plus size lady, I have brown hair, I have a, you know, deep voice. Like, oh well. So I was like, why do I feel good in, So I just wore, I remember I wore this Betsy Johnson dress that, cause I was kind of into Rocky Billy Swing at the time. This Betsy Johnson little dress with apples was real sexy and this little shrug and had my hair kind of fancy. And I was like, I'm wearing this. I don't give a shit. So I, I was like, I feel good in this, Who cares? So I walked in and there were a bunch of ladies that were blonde and had professional lady outfits on and I was like, Oh shit, I should have dressed like a secretary.5 (52m 38s):Why did I dress like this? Oh damn. And I was like, Okay, well whatever. It's, you're not, you're not gonna book this so who cares? Went in, I had a great audition, made Tony laugh and you know, it was what it was. And so I went away and I didn't hear anything for a while. So I was like, oh, I didn't book that. Oh well. And I was sitting in an audition for some commercial and I never booked commercials. I just don't, cuz I look one way and then my voice comes out and they're like, Oh, you can't play the young mom because you seem like Jeanine Garofalo or something. So your bite and smile is scary, ma'am. So I was waiting in the, waiting in the waiting room and my agent calls, or I got paged or, you know, cause it was that so long ago.5 (53m 23s):And she was like, Can you be on a plane in three hours? And luckily I wasn't doing a play at the time. And I said, Yeah, I can. And she's like, Well you booked it. You, you should go and so you should go home and pack and go to Southwests. And that was the story. And so I get there and you know, whatever found out that, you know, it's Bob and Kirk and start losing my mind and all this stuff. But what's crazy is, it's a crazy story. And then on when in season four finale, breaking bad spoiler alert, if you haven't watched it, but you're,2 (53m 52s):You're late if you haven't watched it. Like5 (53m 54s):It's, that's2 (53m 55s):On you.5 (53m 56s):Please watch it cuz I need, Mama needs to keep getting residuals. Cause she's, you know, not Yeah. But that final episode where I have a great scene with Brian Cranston. There's a, there was a podcast, Insider podcast, which I wasn't aware of, but they talked to Vince about, you know, Oh, who's she and how did you cast her? You know, cause this was my first like, actual scene, you know, like, boy, I don't, I have more than two lines. And he tells the story of like, and this, I just love this story, which is like, basically he had seen a lot of people that he didn't think was right. He wanted something. They kept showing him the same type and he was like, no, I I it needs to be something different. He's a different kind of guy. I wanted somebody who'd challenge him, you know, different looking. And the casting woman who had Kira, I can't remember her last name, but she had, you know, I'd auditioned for her a few times, been put on tape.5 (54m 43s):I don't know that it necessarily booked anything. She's like, Well there is this one girl, I think she's great. She's probably not right. I physically, she's prob I don't think she's right, but do you wanna see? And so he showed her and he was like, That's exactly what I want. And then I booked it. And so it's crazy. So you just never know. I mean I think that's the, I think that's the walkaway.1 (55m 2s):Okay. This is the,5 (55m 3s):This1 (55m 4s):Is the craziest thing. This is crazy. So I booked a show in New Mexico called Perpetual Grace. Kira cast it and Kira showed me to Steve Conrad, who's the showrunner in James Whitaker who was directing the episode. I looked nothing like the other people. My agent Casey called me and said, Can you get on a plane in three hours? You5 (55m 29s):Gonna1 (55m 29s):New Mexico? Same casting director, St. Kira,2 (55m 34s):The Kira, all these people, Kira,1 (55m 38s):Kira talk5 (55m 39s):Me. Well, and it's like that thing, you know, like you, you know, I think that's always the big takeaway, right? Is, is, and you know, and I, I think I read this not to feel like I'm fucking namedropping I'm not. But like, I read this I think in Brian's book too. But like, the thing is, is like all you can do is just like, just, they're calling you in for a reason. So you just have to say like, what is it in me? What's unique about me? That's this role? And lean into it and go for it in that regard because that's all you got. Like as soon as you start and I find myself doing this, I have to keep reminding myself, you know, to do this. Which is I'll read something like, oh it's this and try to play to what I think it is. Versus like, no, what is it in me?5 (56m 19s):That's this. And that's the thing I book when I do that, when I try to do the other other thing, you know? Totally. And start getting your own head.2 (56m 28s):The time5 (56m 28s):On here, God,2 (56m 30s):By the way, regarding name dropping, I never understand why anybody gets upset about that. I, it's like, well they're people that, you know, the people that you work with, they're people in your life. I mean, you're just saying their name. It's, it's not like you're cloud chasing. But anyway, that, that's insight. Girl. Walk me back to this day where you take three hours to get on the airplane. I wanna know how fast did you have to rush home to pack? What did you do? Did you have enough stuff? What was it like when you were on the airplane? Did you order a drink because you felt so fancy? Tell us everything.5 (56m 57s):Well, all I know is I had a bag and I got, I ran home, I had a roommate at the time, thank God. And I just said, Can you feed my cat? Cause I, I had a cat at the time. I was like, Please feed Loretta. And so I got this bag and just threw, it was really like, just stuff thrown in and I was like, do I need to bring the dress and shoes that I wore that, So I brought the whole outfit cuz I was like, cuz the jobs, some of the jobs I'd been on, I had to bring my own shit or whatever, you know, you have to bring your whole wardrobe and be like, Oh you want none of this? Great, I'll put it all back in my car. So I just threw that in there and then I just threw some random, I don't even know what I packed and, you know, ran to the airport, got on the plane, I think I did have a jack and coat cuz I was just like, I'm so freaked out in the plane.5 (57m 43s):Of course you know, you're going to New Mexico, so you're going over those mountains and you're just like, okay, I'm gonna die also great, but I don't wanna die. I just booked a big job or whatever. And then I remember the landing and getting in the van thing and they took me straight to the hotel and I, I remember opening cuz they, back then they, you know, you would get like your sides in an envelope like that in the, in the later years. That shit never, you never got printed stuff ever because people would steal it and whatever else. So I remember pulling it out and seeing Bob's name and freaking, oh, cause I was a huge Mr.5 (58m 23s):Show fan and I was just like, oh my god, oh my god. And I just remember calling my fr I have a friend Aaron Ginsburg, who's kind of an LA Hollywood dude or whatever. And I was like, Oh my god, oh my god. And he was like, Thanks for this spoiler. And I was like, Oh shit, I'm not supposed to tell people. And I was like, but I'm freaking out. And he was like, No, no, it's okay. I will tell no one. I was like, don't tell anyone I don't wanna get fired. But yeah, so I just remember sitting there and freaking out and trying to look at my lines and, you know, what am I, oh God. And then going there with my clo my little bag of dresses or whatever and they're like, we don't want any of this crap.2 (58m 57s):They're like, this is a high budget show. We got, we got costumes covered5 (59m 1s):Back then. I don't, I know back then, I don't know if they were that high budget, but it was interesting to me. The one thing is, is just how involved the showrunners of that show Peter and or Vince at the time, and then later Peter and Vince. But like, they have a color palette they have where they want the characters to go. Like I had, you know, that it got really paired down. I ended up having like, you know, just a few lines. But they took so many pictures, different outfits, different setups and like different color tones, like just setting what they wanted for my character. And I was like, holy shit or whatever. And they were, everybody was so, and everybody was so nice and friendly.5 (59m 43s):It's really remember your name to hear1 (59m 45s):And I'm glad you talked about it. Oh, I'm gonna, I'm, I'm in the rainstorm. So sorry. But like, it's so weird to be, I'm in the Midwest right now and I live in la so coming back here, I'm like, what is that noise? It's fucking fucked up and it's the fucking rain. Anyway, so what is so beautiful about this story to me is that even if we feel small, right? Like whatever, these people who are creating these iconic shows have such vision. There is literally no small character. Like these are their children and they have arcs they have. So it just makes me appreciate as creators, as artists, how much time love, energy goes into characters and storylines.1 (1h 0m 31s):And then we see maybe, maybe if we're lucky one eighth of it, but just know like the shit matters. Right? Like a5 (1h 0m 39s):Thousand percent. And that's the same thing with like, the same thing with Robert Altman. I mean like we were, you know, he, you know, I got to be part of one of those ma his signature long tracking shots, right? He, he would walk in the room and be like, Okay, what's going on in here? So what are you guys doing? What are you, what's happening? And I was like, Well where this, that? And he's like, Great, keep that. And when I come across I want you to be in this moment. You know? So like, and he's like, Teen are things like where he's following on my shoulder and Tina, I need you to do this and this is what's happening. And I've tried, I want, I'm just gonna think about some lines, just throw these out. You know? It was just, I don't know. And that's the same thing with Vince and with Peter. Like, they were really like, what is she wearing? Why is she wearing this? Where are you? Like, you know, what's going on?5 (1h 1m 19s):And like they were like, the scripts were so good. It was like you had to be letter perfect. Barry's like, oh it's a lot of improv. And I'm like, no,1 (1h 1m 26s):No. But2 (1h 1m 26s):Also it sounded like theater, the attention to, to detail and the, and the sort of like the vision and the way that, and you, that just comes through in the best series. The A tours you, you know, that they've thought about and5 (1h 1m 38s):They all love2 (1h 1m 38s):Theater, right? Yeah, right.5 (1h 1m 39s):They all love theater. They all do.2 (1h 1m 41s):So a bit ago you said something about how the, like lustiness that Saul, you know, Jimmy feels for Francesca didn't, you know, necessarily a lot of that didn't necessarily make it into at least your first episode, but it got revisited and Better Call Saul. And I really appreciated that because I was like, Oh yeah, I, I would've wanted to see more of that. You know, I, I wanted to see more of that like lush stage dynamic. But you had,5

Chewing the Fat with Jeff Fisher
Ep 987 | Senses Heightened…

Chewing the Fat with Jeff Fisher

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 26, 2022 45:24


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UBS On-Air
Top of the Morning: CIO Strategy Snapshot - Managing heightened risks

UBS On-Air

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 17, 2022 16:00


My guest explains why the Chief Investment Office has downgraded its market outlook over the near-term and walks through the outlook for longer-term investors. We also touch on current thinking when it comes to positioning for a range of time horizons. Featured is Jason Draho, Head of Asset Allocation Americas, UBS Chief Investment Office. Host: Daniel Cassidy

Mental Jolt Podcast
Ep. 281 - Heightened Emotions

Mental Jolt Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 17, 2022 7:13


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PRI: Arts and Entertainment
Taiwan celebrates National Day amid heightened tensions with China

PRI: Arts and Entertainment

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 11, 2022


Underlying the festivities are increased concerns about Taiwan's relationship with China as well as changes in its own national identity.

E2B: Energy to Business
Why Threat Of Rail Strike Heightened Supply Chain Issues

E2B: Energy to Business

Play Episode Listen Later Oct 4, 2022 34:45


Patrick Long, Director, and Michael Wohlfarth, Manager, in Opportune's Process & Technology practice, discuss why rail logistics is a critical component of the overall U.S. supply chain, why a rail strike would have done considerable damage to the supply chain, and why companies should look to technology to gain access to real-time data to make better-informed business decisions, and more. For more podcasts from Opportune, visit https://opportune.com/insights/podcast.

Inside Maryland Sports Radio
Maryland Football's Close Call at Michigan | Heightened Expectations? | Basketball Recruiting

Inside Maryland Sports Radio

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 29, 2022 65:14


Did Maryland's near-upset at Michigan change expectations for the rest of the season? What to look for this weekend against Michigan State? Plus the latest in basketball recruiting and lots more. To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Radio Sweden
Intelligence service takes over Nord Stream investigation, "heightened attention" at power plants, vicar sentenced, radioactive museum sub

Radio Sweden

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 29, 2022 2:31


A round-up of the main headlines in Sweden on September 29th, 2022. You can hear more reports on our homepage www.radiosweden.se, or in our app Sveriges Radio Play. Presenter: Sujay DuttProducer: Kris Boswell

Radio Islam
Communalism Hindu-Muslim Scuffles Lead to Heightened Communal Tension in UK's Leicester

Radio Islam

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 21, 2022 7:35


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On the Road with Mickey
On the Road w/Mickey 139 – Your All Time Favorite Trip!

On the Road with Mickey

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 19, 2022 53:38


Episode 139 - Your All Time Favorite Trip! Your All Time Favorite Trip! Hey everyone, I'm Mike, she's Sophie, that's Brenda, and and he's Grogu, and we're On the Road with Mickey! This is episode 139 for September 19, 2022, and today our feature topic is Your All Time Favorite Trip! Grab your favorite beverage, sit back, and relax, and tell us in the comments below what you think! Here's the rundown of what we talked about: Cheddar from the Big CheeseReports from D23:Sophie: The completion of World Celebration neighborhood will happen in late 2023. Additionally, Journey of Water, Inspired by Moana will open in late 2023. Lastly, fan-favorite character Figment will also appear live to park guests by the end of 2023!Brenda: At the Magic Kingdom, TRON / Lightcycle Run will open in Spring 2023, not 2022 as was reported earlier. Happily Ever After will be back to light up the skies over Cinderella Castle in 2023. At the Haunted Mansion, the Hatbox Ghost will materialize in 2023.Mike: Coming to Disney Cruise Lines: the Disney Treasure, the sixth ship in the DCL fleet, which will sail in 2024. Sadly, it sounds like Harmonious will not live much beyond the end of the 50th Anniversary celebration. Not sure when it will be changed, but word is sometime in 2023.Connect with us! Here's how: Facebook: https://facebook.ontheroadwithmickey.comFacebook Group: https://facebookgroup.ontheroadwithmickey.comYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/c/OntheRoadwithMickeyInstagram: On the Road with MickeyEmail: info@ontheroadwithmickey.comFeature Topic: A Trip down Memory Lane: Your All Time Favorite Disney TripBrenda:Thanksgiving, 2012, Aleyah's first ever visit. 2 rooms at Wilderness Lodge. First Grand-child, Osborne Family Spectacle of Dancing Lights. Awesome dining reservations:Tusker House BreakfastOhana Dinner1900 Park Fare BreakfastWhispering Canyon CafeVia NapoliChef Mickey'sAkershusThanksgiving, 2017, Aleyah and McKinley. Kidani Village, 2 BedroomHollywood and VineTrattoria al FornoCRTAkershusSci-FiVia NapoliMVMCPSophie:July 2020 trip. COVID Reopening trip. We were going to go in March, 2020. We were visiting with Aunt Carol. Disney closed 3 days prior to our arrival date. We changed dates to May, and then to July, and Disney reopened the day before we arrived. Crowd capacity was something like 10% or something. We walked onto everything. FA-9.Mike:June 2014 when Randy, Sheila, and Jagan from the west coast and Riley and Leigh Ann from the east coast joined us for Sophie's Birthday.June 2022 when we had a great group from all over the country to celebrate Sophie's birthday.Honorable mention, the Pixie trip in 2013.This Day in Disney History for September 19:2001: Heightened security measures, Soft opening of Walt: One Man's DreamDisney Who's Who CharacterBob Parr (Mr. Incredible) from the IncrediblesA little bit of Walt“The motion picture will never fully replace the printed word, but it will go a long way in becoming its most valuable adjunct. There seems little question that the human mind will absorb picturized information much quicker than by means of the printed word.” - Walt DisneyComing Next Week: Ways that Disney Brought us Together Watch us on YouTube!

Patriots Wire Podcast
Patriots' preseason concerns heightened after Week 1

Patriots Wire Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Sep 15, 2022 29:43


The guys react to the Patriots season-opening loss to the Dolphins with takes on Mac Jones, Trent Brown and Kyle Dugger. Other topics include the team's production at wide receiver and a Pats-Steelers preview with picks against the spread. Hosted by Ryan O'Leary (@RyanO_Leary) with new Patriots Wire Editor Jordy McElroy (@JordyMcElroy)

The Smart 7 Ireland Edition
Public Service workers set to get pay rise of 6.5% over two years, Mikhail Gorbachev dies at 91, Heightened risk to Irish energy supply this winter and Michael Flatley movie hits the cinemas

The Smart 7 Ireland Edition

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 31, 2022 7:18


The Smart 7 Ireland Edition is the daily news podcast that gives you everything you need to know in 7 minutes, at 7am, 7 days a week… Consistently appearing in Ireland's Daily News charts, we're a trusted source for people every day. If you're enjoying it, please follow, share or even post a review, it all helps… Today's episode includes references to the following items: https://twitter.com/i/status/1564613927979327501https://twitter.com/i/status/1564687041660702720https://twitter.com/i/status/1564530066545049600https://twitter.com/i/status/1564667065704792064https://twitter.com/i/status/1564663275387764743https://twitter.com/i/status/1564557074050195461https://twitter.com/i/status/1564809491442458625https://twitter.com/i/status/1564568622663606273https://twitter.com/i/status/1564515800303673349https://youtu.be/Nisnd62X0zo Contact us over at Twitter or visit www.thesmart7.com Presented by Ciara Revins, written by Liam Thompson and produced by Daft Doris. Our GDPR privacy policy was updated on August 8, 2022. Visit acast.com/privacy for more information.

Love Your Anxiety Podcast
#132 - 4 Versions Of A Woman With Kayla Osterhoff

Love Your Anxiety Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 15, 2022 68:11


In this episode learn about the 4 phases a woman experiences every month.  Learn when you're more likely to experience anxiety in your 28 day cycle and how to support yourself!   Thank you to Kayla for being on the podcast. Here are her links: Women's' 8 week Individual program: https://www.herbiorhythm.com/ Certification program: https://www.herbiorhythm.com/Guide Kayla's Free e-book: https://www.herbiorhythm.com/certification       Here are my person notes I've taken while listening to Kayla speak:   STAGE 1 - Menstruation  STAGE 2 - Follicular STAGE 3 - Ovulatory STAGE 4 - Luteal     STAGE 1 - Menstruation Lower levels of estrogen and progesterone  Lowest rare that my body burns calories Production of ATP slows down ^^ Lower serotonin Heightened intuition Parasympathetic quality to the nervous system Lean into self-reflection Less meetings Higher fat metabolism so eat KETO or fast Higher insulin sensitivity   STAGE 2 - Follicular Estrogen rises to a peek Metabolic rate increases, more energy Boost in serotonin Feel more social Cognitive task based ability shift to strategic and navigational focus Emotional intelligence heightens  Ability to navigate and lead  Better communication Parasympathetic quality to the nervous system Can handle more stress More strength and endurance Ok to have less sleep     STAGE 3 - Ovulatory More of a shift than a stage Marks a shift in our nervous system function ^^ goes from Parasympathetic to sympathetic Peek in estrogen Best mood Highest ATP Highest stress capacity Outwardly focused More magnetic   STAGE 4 - Luteal Brain is growing Longest stage Stage 1, 2 and 3 the first 2 weeks Stage 4 is the last 2 weeks Star of the show progesterone rises to peek Increases memory Better sleep Best time to micro-dose  Increased desperation rate Increased heart rate Eat more Heightened sensitivity and getting too stressed out     Female body runs by: Sugar, stress and sex     I DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD MASTERCLASS - FREE - https://www.facebook.com/500393195/videos/697062621347426/    INTERESTED IN working with me? Click here →  https://www.emilieclarke.com/anxiety-academy          → Connect with Emilie Clarke   Emilie's Instagram → https://www.instagram.com/loveyouranxiety/   FREE Axe Your Anxiety Bootcamp → https://www.facebook.com/groups/1361011860666279/   INTERESTED IN Anxiety Academy? Click here →  https://www.emilieclarke.com/anxiety-academy    Student Wins → https://www.instagram.com/s/aGlnaGxpZ2h0OjE3OTAxMTc0NDgxMzgzMzEz?igshid=2zoxuzk35j2e&story_media_id=2183050045887316512

Chasing The Bagua
Daily Horoscope: August 10, 2022

Chasing The Bagua

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 10, 2022 11:15


Heightened energy today as we purge and realize what can create more strength for ourselves in the future. Some chapters are coming to a close but the abundance that we are understanding is a gift from above! Aquarius Full Moon exact tomorrow, 9:35 EST. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/alexandra-irving3/message

The Ross Kaminsky Show
8-9-22 *INTERVIEW* Admiral James Stavridis talks the Heightened Tensions in the Taiwan Strait

The Ross Kaminsky Show

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 9, 2022 16:19


On our way home
Heightened Spiritual Warfare and end times….

On our way home

Play Episode Listen Later Aug 3, 2022 9:00


Encouragement and scripture of the day…..

Steamy Stories Podcast
Home for Horny Monsters: The Nymph in the Tub! -

Steamy Stories Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 31, 2022


Home for Horny Monsters: The Nymph in the Tub! - Mike, a young bachelor; inherits an old house from a spinster great aunt. (part 1)By writerannabelle.  Listen to the Podcast at Steamy Stories. Mike stared at the Victorian style home in awe, the sheer scale of it overwhelming him. Tower-like structures gave the blue dwelling a medieval touch, and the house was ringed in simple gardens with waist high shrubs that were in desperate need of a trim. Stone lions guarded the walk to the front door, and a cobblestone path disappeared around the back.“Impressive, isn't it?” Mike, startled, dropped his sleeping bag. He bent down to pick it up, feeling warmth rise up in his cheeks. “I'm afraid you have quite a task ahead of you, Mr. Radley.”Mike let out a nervous laugh as Beth, his great aunt's estate representative, walked past. The woman was taller than him, very attractive, and all business. Her dark hair wrapped up in a bun, she paused to check something on her clipboard. Mike took the opportunity to admire her backside through the thin layer of her pencil skirt. Very faint panty lines ran around her buttocks, lines that Mike had trouble taking his eyes away from. She turned to face him, and he pretended to struggle with his sleeping bag.“I doubt you'll need that,” she pointed out, lending him a hand. She smelled like peaches and something floral, a scent he couldn't quite place. “The house has plenty of space.”“I've been a boy scout since I was six,” he replied. “Be prepared. That's my motto.”“Uh huh.” Beth helped him secure the bag under his arm. “Trust me when I say you won't need it.” She led him up the stairs, the wooden deck creaking slightly under their weight. Mike stared briefly at the swinging chair on the front porch, moving slightly in the breeze. As Beth produced a key, she looked at Mike. “This must be like a fairy tale to you.”“No such thing as fairy tales. Just a weird coincidence.” He said, careful to keep his eyes above the lacy top of her blouse. Women, as a rule, made him nervous. Particularly the pretty ones.“You hear about these things all the time,” she said, sliding the key into the lock. “But you never get to see them play out.” The door stuck in the frame, and Beth leaned her shoulder in to give it a shove. A strand of hair came loose from her bun as she pushed her way inside. “A long-lost relative dying and leaving everything to you.”“Yeah. Lucky me.” Mike followed her inside. The house was cool, and dark. Beth opened up some of the windows, allowing the light to come in. The furniture in the home was all covered, giving the sitting room the eerie appearance of a haunted house. Beth pulled the cover off of the couch, sending a small layer of dust into the air.“You don't seem very keen on the idea, Mr. Radley.” Beth uncovered the coffee table with one hand, and set her purse and clipboard down. “It is a very nice house.”“It's not the house. And call me Mike.” Mike threw his sleeping bag on a clean portion of the floor along with his backpack. Out of habit, he slipped off his shoes at the door.“Well, Mike, we went through an awful lot of trouble tracking you down.” Beth uncovered a nearby love seat. “This home was only weeks away from being liquidated by the firm.”“Which I understand is still an option?” Mike asked, staring at the pale yellow curtains.“Correct.” Beth picked up her clipboard. “Only if you decide not to keep it.”“Right.” Mike looked down the long hallway to the kitchen. “I'm not used to having so much space. Gives me the creeps.”“By nature, homes of this style are actually quite cozy.” Beth led the way to the kitchen, the heels of her boots clicking on the hardwood floor. “There is quite a bit of space for you to spread out.”“I've never lived in anything with more than two bedrooms.” Mike responded, following the woman. Beth checked the appliances to make sure they still worked, and showed Mike where the fuse box was. A brief tour of the kitchen turned up several jars of preserved jellies, an old box of cat biscuits, and an empty tub of ice cream in the freezer.“So, where is the cat?” Mike asked, shaking the box of biscuits.“As far as we know, she didn't have one. Your great aunt conscripted our services long before my parents were even out of high school, and rarely contacted the firm. According to our sources, she was largely a shut-in. It's likely those treats are older than you or I.”“As long as she wasn't eating them,” Mike muttered, throwing the biscuits back in the cupboard.“So, you've only lived in apartments?” Beth led Mike to the stairs. As she climbed, Mike paused to look in the living room. Sure enough, a creepy fucking porcelain doll sat right above the fireplace, legs draped over the mantle. He shivered and looked up the stairs. Enough of Beth's legs were showing that he could see the top of her stockings. Jesus. He pulled hard on the railing, eager to catch up.“Yeah. My mom was always unemployed, so we were always staying with friends.” Memories of being crammed away in the back of someone else's home made him shudder. Long nights pressed up against his own mother as they shared a bed, the smell of alcohol oozing from her pores and stinging his eyes. Years of therapy might have helped him over the worst of it, but he still had nights where he woke up panicked, convinced that he was crammed in bed again with his mother.“Sounds rough.” Beth said. She opened up a door, revealing a study. “This is the office. Everything in here was custom built out.”“I don't see a router.” Mike walked in, looking around the room. The shelves in the room were packed with poetry books and different inspirational pieces. Fake flowers adorned every free inch of desk space.“Your great aunt didn't have Internet.”“Well, I will.” Mike frowned, looking out the window. He could see how overgrown the back yard had become. A large stone fountain full of muck had been overgrown with weeds. “I build websites for a living. If I decide to keep the place, I will need to get it installed.”Beth was already making notes on her clipboard. “I will see what we can do. Just to remind you, this home is on the list of historical places, so we may experience some delays.”Mike waved a hand dismissively, kneeling beneath the desk. “I have my ways. Just get me some sort of high speed line, I'll do the rest.” He stuck his hands behind the desk, feeling for an outlet.“Let me show you to the guest room,” Beth said, reminding him that she was still there. Mike smacked his head on the desk as he stood. He grinned sheepishly, rubbing the top of his head as he followed her back into the hall. Beth opened up another door, showing him a plain twin sized bed with a large pink comforter. Daisies were embroidered across the top.“I have no words.” Mike said, staring at the guest bed.“I don't blame you.” Beth opened up the closet. “There are some spare linens, but they aren't any better.”“What use does a shut in have for a guest room?” Mike inspected the closet. In the bottom, he saw another porcelain doll.“My best guess is that it was a room your father stayed in as a child.”“You think?” Mike held up one end of the pink comforter.Beth laughed. “I never said it was a good idea. Your dad had some cousins, and most were little girls once.”“I'm sure.” Mike stared at the bed, his thoughts drifting. Was it actually possible that his own father had slept beneath this roof? The man had died not long after Mike was born, lost to an aggressive form of cancer. It was the same disease that had led his own mother to drink. Thinking of his mother, he looked at the tiny bed and shivered. No fucking way. He needed a larger bed.“Where did Great Aunt Mabel sleep?” he asked.“In her room, down the hall.” Beth paused. “She died in there.”“In the bed?” Mike was already wondering where he could unroll his sleeping bag.“No, if that's what you are worried about.” Beth took him back into the hall. Mike found himself staring again at her butt. His eyes flicked up to hers as she looked back. “It's this one right here.”Beth opened up the door. The room was large, the ceiling elevated. Mike realized he was in one of the round, tower rooms he had seen from the front. The bed was centered along the back wall, a large four poster with draping curtains all around. His eyes followed the curve of the walls, taking in the intricate molding along the mid wall and ceiling. Two dressers, a standing armoire, and a mirrored nightstand were all uncovered by Beth as she made her rounds. A large opening signaled the entrance to the bathroom. Towards the other side of the room, a large oriental rug covered the floor.“The rug is in an odd place,” Mike said, pointing at it.“It was some time before we found your aunt,” Beth replied. “We're working on finding proper replacement material. It isn't easy to find hundred year old hardwood flooring that matches the surrounding floor.”“Why not replace it all?”“Historical society, remember?”“Ah.” Mike stared at the bed. It was easily a king size. “Her heart gave out?”“She was 96. It happens.” Beth looked at her clipboard. “I made myself a few notes. I just need a signature to authorize some purchases.”“Of course.” Mike ignored Beth for the moment as he walked in the bathroom. “Holy shit, have you seen this thing?”Beth laughed behind him. “I have. Impressive, isn't it?”Mike stared at the largest, claw-footed bath tub he had ever seen. Looking at Beth with large eyes, he hopped inside it, laying down along the bottom. Neither his head or feet touched the edges, and he reached his arms out. They were almost fully extended before touching the sides.“I will admit, your Great Aunt's taste in decor is questionable in areas, but this is probably my favorite piece here.” Beth sat along the side of the bath, staring in at Mike. Mike sat up, looking over the side of the tub. The edge was to his chin.“I feel like I'm sitting in a boat.” Mike turned his attention to the spigot. Two separate faucets made of some sort of bronze fed the tub. “Does it still work?”“I assume so. We had the home inspected in case we were selling it.” Beth stroked one of the spigots. “I wish I could try it out.”“Hop in. Plenty of room.” The words were out of his mouth before his brain could stop them. He looked away, pretending to fiddle with the faucets.Beth laughed. “Afraid I'm too busy at the moment.” Extending a hand, she helped Mike stand. He had to lift his legs high to step out of the basin. “Maybe I can house sit sometime.”“I'll leave you some bath beads.” Mike stepped back to admire the tub. “I've never been a fan of baths, but this may be big enough to change my mind.”Taking a wide berth around the carpet in the bedroom, Mike followed Beth through the remaining rooms of the house. Beth made several notes on her clipboard, noting necessary adjustments. Mike's Great Aunt had left behind a very large sum of money, and her will stipulated that her oldest surviving relative be given full opportunity to make the house livable before selling it. Mike was well aware that one offer to buy was on the table already, a group of women who wanted to turn the place into a local museum. He had never been able to set roots down, rarely living anywhere longer than six months.Beth stood at the front door, going over her checklist. Mike stared out the front window, watching the swinging chair rock in place. She had said his name twice before he snapped back to reality.“Sorry, lost in thought,” he apologized. “What did you say?”“I said I can swing by tomorrow to take you shopping. Your Great Aunt had a car, but I wouldn't recommend going anywhere in it. You're going to need to get some essentials if you're going to make this place a home.” Beth let the clipboard relax. “Which I hope you do. It was her utmost wish that the home stay in the family. I know you have already voiced some concerns over maintaining the property, but I really think you should give this place a shot.”“Yeah, maybe.” Mike gave her a small smile. “This is a unique opportunity after all.”“Good. You have my business card, so don't hesitate to contact me for anything.” Beth picked up her purse from the coffee table.“Actually, there is something.” Beth waited patiently as Mike walked over to the fireplace, removing the porcelain doll. “I don't care how, just get rid of it.”Beth stared at the doll and laughed. “I'm on it. Have a good night, Mike.” She walked out the door and down the steps. Mike watched her as she went, the clicking of her heels on pavement echoing across the deck. He waved as she got in her car on the street and drove away.The swinging chair creaked softly. Mike stepped onto the deck, staring at the offending piece of furniture. He unhinged the chains, lowering the seat to the deck. He let the front door shut softly behind him.-Night crept up on Mike as he whittled away his evening on his laptop. Using his neighbor's unprotected Wi-Fi, he checked on several sites he had been maintaining, answered some of his emails, and opened up his bank statements. None of the money his Great Aunt left him had been transferred in yet, but he pictured the new amount in place of his current one and wondered.What would he even do with all that cash? If he were to sell the home, he would be walking around with several million and nothing to spend it on. He had been poor as a child, poor enough that by the time he worked his way through college, he was simply used to the survivor's lifestyle. All the clothes he owned would easily fit in two suitcases, and the bulk of his belongings were made up of a couple of desktop PC's and a tablet at his apartment.He finally noticed the time near the bottom of his screen and shut down shop for the night. It was nearing eleven, and he still hadn't even eaten dinner. A quick search on his phone revealed a nearby pizza place, and he ordered himself a medium sausage with a 2 liter of Sprite. He wandered the lonely rooms, eventually tossing his bag in his Great Aunt's bedroom. He drifted through the house, picking up random belongings, trying to envision the woman his Great Aunt was.He had looked her up on line. She had inherited the house from her own aunt (a notorious spinster) at a young age, living off of several very own railroad bonds that had paid off big in the 1940's. A job as a librarian supplemented her income through her fifties, and then she had simply shut herself away.Not completely, though. Mike noted that some of the purchases in the home must have been made in the last couple of years. A few of the books in the library had tipped him off. She must have left on rare occasions, or at least hired somebody to shop for her. To be honest, the thought was pretty appealing to him.The doorbell startled him out of his reverie, and he nearly dropped a clown figurine he had pulled from the shelf in front of him. He put it back and walked to the front door.“Hi!” The pizza delivery man was, in fact, a gorgeous blonde girl, likely a college student. Her hair had been swooped back into a ponytail, and she was wearing a stylish pair of black rim glasses. The name-tag on her jacket said Dana. “Your house is gorgeous!” She handed him his soda.“Uh, yeah.” He leaned forward to help her take the food from its special cooler, and accidentally brushed against her breast through her jacket with his hand.“I don't think I've ever delivered here before,” she added, staring past him into the home. “Are you new in town?”“First day.” He handed her a pair of tens. As she dug into her pouch for change, he caught just a whiff of her perfume. His world started closing in. “No worries, keep it?”“Seriously?” Her eyes were huge as he nodded.“Yeah, no problem.” He let the door close as she thanked him. Placing the pizza on the coffee table, he took a few deep breaths. The sensation of her breast against the back of his hand, the sheer firmness of it, accompanied by the scent of her perfume had given him a surprisingly hard erection.He ran through the house, flipping on all of the lights. His mother's voice attempted to rise up in the back of his mind, but he shut it out. Years of sharing a bed with her had inevitably led to an incident, shortly before his eleventh birthday, when he had awaken suddenly to a slap in the face. In his sleep, he had managed to roll into his own mother while sprouting wood.The physical abuse was immediate, but the verbal abuse continued. Whenever he got aroused in his sleep, his mother would slap him awake, or call others in to make fun of him. Often, this led to a sudden change in address, as most normal people recognized her behavior as appalling. Her constant teasing in front of anyone who would listen had led him to a largely celibate lifestyle. The few women he had been with had been unsympathetic to his sexual panic attacks, or his mommy issues, as one had called them. Now, in an unfamiliar setting, he found those old emotions resurfacing, attempting to claw away at the protective shell he had put around himself.His imagination was his own worst enemy. Picturing her specter hiding in the shadows, waiting to pass judgment, had simply clenched the deal. Now, though, with all of the lights on, she couldn't afford to surface. His panic attack subsiding, he picked up his food and made his way to the kitchen.Mike consumed his meal while streaming a movie on his computer, leaving the last five slices for tomorrow. The fridge looked painfully bare, occupied by a sole pizza box and a soda bottle. Mike returned to the table, watching for another half an hour as the generic action star did something to confound the villain. His mind kept flipping back and forth to the feel of the pizza girl's breast and his mother's demonic memory.He pulled out his phone and flipped down to Dr. Gorman in his contacts. He hadn't sat with his therapist in over three years, but the urge to reach out had surfaced. Hands shaking, his thumb hovered over the call button.“Fuck it.” He closed his contact list. His mother was dead, the past was the past, and he needed to get over it. Years of being told that arousal was natural, that everybody did it, that it was okay to fantasize. He closed his eyes, recalling the cute appearance of Dana the pizza girl. He unleashed the memory of her scent, the firmness of her breast, the surprised expression she had made when he had tipped her eight bucks extra. It was probably the same face she made during her first orgasm, or perhaps when her lover's lips first touched the nipples of her firm breast…That did it. His body was back in full swing, he was back in control. Well, almost. The urge to watch porn to help get off was strong, but Dr. Gorman had reminded him that porn could be too much of an escapist fantasy. It was better for him to visualize on his own; he was less likely to panic in bed with a real woman. However, porn wasn't so much the issue, but rather location.He was in a stranger's house with a major hard on. Technically, he could jerk off in the hallway for all anybody cared, but just because the house was now his didn't mean it was home. It definitely didn't feel safe.Mike closed his computer and proceeded up to the bedroom. He could take care of his own needs in there. That wasn't much different than a hotel room, or new apartment, really. The more he told himself these things, the more he was ready to get off. Stepping into the room, he took one look at the bed and shuddered. Beds were sometimes just as bad, and today was no different.“Why am I so fucking damaged?” He shouted to the walls. They had no answer for him. Instead, he stormed into the bathroom and turned on the sink, splashing cool water on his face. Staring in the mirror, he watched the cool drops fall down his cheeks, his eyes suddenly on the giant bathtub.The bathroom's contoured walls prevented anyone in the tub from seeing anything but the bathroom. Remembering how well he fit in it earlier, and seeing how isolated it was, he knew it would work.Turning on the water, he watched as the basin filled quite quickly. Obviously, his great aunt had found a way to trick out the water pressure. Beth had told him that they paid a cleaning service to turn everything over, which meant that clean towels were already hanging near the tub. He stripped down in the bedroom, throwing his clothes on the nearby dresser.Walking into the bathroom, he caught sight of his own naked figure in the mirror. His body was lean (he really didn't eat too much), and marred with massive scars on the right. They went all the way from his thigh to under his armpit, crossing chaotically. They were a reminder of the fatal accident that had taken his mother, one final mark for her to leave behind. One girlfriend had told him they made him look like a badass, but he couldn't be certain she wasn't just saying that to make him feel better.Mike thumbed through the playlist on his phone and found one he liked. The water was just right, and he carefully slid into the tub. The whole inner surface had a texture that helped prevent him from slipping. A nearby washrag was soaked in hot water and he placed it across his eyes and forehead. Drowning out the world with water and music, he let his hands explore.One hand slid across the head of his penis while the other one tugged gently at the skin beneath the head. He let both hands slide down the shaft with plenty of room to spare between them. A former girlfriend had once told him (upon breaking up) that a dick like his was a waste, because no girl ever got to use it.“Fuck,” Mike muttered to himself. He only found the courage to do this once every few weeks, which meant that he was always extra sensitive. He ran his thumb gently over the head, flinching at the sudden intrusion of pleasure. He pictured the delivery girl in his mind, running his fingers down and across her slender hips, hearing her moan as he leaned in to suck on her neck. In his mind, he slid his hands underneath her shirt to play with her nipples, watching as she slid down the length of his body to take him in her mouth.The mind was a tricky thing. Mike let his brain rewind. This time, she was in a hurry, but she desperately needed to get fucked. Sliding her pants down, he took her roughly from behind, her soaking pussy squeezing hard on his dick. His mind tossed and turned over both possibilities, allowing him the luxury of both fantasies.Grabbing the root of his cock, he squeezed hard. He felt the pressure slowly build inside, and his fantasies took hold as he felt a warm mouth engulf his cock, sucking it in hard.Surprised, Mike opened his eyes to see a woman beneath the water's surface, her hands pinned to his hips as her head bobbed up and down slowly on his dick. Her hair was light blue, the color of sapphires, and she appeared as if a ghost, the light of the room passing through her body. Confused, he withdrew a hand from the water and pinched his own cheek.“Uh!” That had hurt! He grabbed the side of the tub with one hand and fought to pull free. The woman beneath the water bobbed her head frantically, her tongue swirling around the head of his cock as she pulled him farther into the back of her throat. Gasping for air, Mike tried to slide away from her, this strange specter, but she clamped her hands against his ass and pulled his cock in as deep as it would go.He had been too close to the edge already. Moaning, his cock spurted out rope after rope of cum, filling her throat and traveling down to her stomach. He gave up the struggle, the fight leaving him as her body became more solid. She continued to suck, and he grew light headed as he went limp, her tongue rolling hungrily across the head of his dick.“What…the fuck?” The woman beneath the water was busy stroking his balls. He grabbed her by the hair, pulling her free of the water. She broke the water's surface, her mouth wide, water and semen dripping down her chin. She had thin slits along the side of her neck, slits that closed and vanished in the air.“More,” she rasped, her green eyes unfocused. “I need more.” Already she was beginning to fade, the faucet behind her becoming visible through her body. “Please.”He stared, uncertain what special kind of stroke he was suffering from. He could see the white line of semen just inside her throat, trickling downward toward her stomach with every swallow.Her eyes finally focused on his, her body snapping back into reality. She teased his limp cock with her fingers.“Please,” she begged, her face approaching the water. “I need it.”“I don't understand. Who are you?” He asked, touching her cool skin. “What are you?”“Later,” she whispered, her fingers touching the water. The liquid came alive, squeezing his body rhythmically up and down his legs. It swirled around his cock, tugging it like a thousand tiny hands, massaging blood back into it. Her eyes on his, he felt one of her fingers slide effortlessly up his ass.He was immediately rock hard.“Take me,” she gasped, pulling him deeper into the tub and wrapping long legs around his waist. “Finish the spell.”“What spell?” He gasped, her lips finding his. Her tongue split his lips, and his dick slid into her, her body pulsing in time with his own heart.“Fuck!” He moaned, pulling his mouth away from hers. She rode him frantically, her whole body blinking in and out of existence as she forced her hips against his. Water splashed over the edge of the tub, soaking the cool marble as she let out a scream, her face and breasts flushed as she continued to grind her pussy against him.“I-I-I…” he stuttered, his balls contracting. She ground her pussy against him, hard, as he blew his load again. The water in the tub exploded upward, the lights above flickering as the electricity in the house surged.The room descended into darkness, and he felt consciousness slip away.-Mike opened his eyes. He was still in the tub, the rag over his face. Pulling it off, he sat up, splashing water over the side.“What the fuck?” Looking around the room, he saw no sign of the mysterious woman. The bath water was still warm. Had he fallen asleep?He lifted himself free of the water, staring down into the tub with a mixture of relief and regret. It had to have been a dream, he thought, staring at his reflection in the mirror. A hot fucking dream.Sighing, he stepped out of the bath onto the plush bathmat. A mystery woman who had ridden him senseless. He let out a laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. He never had sex dreams, and couldn't remember the last wet dream he had had. Looking back in the bath, he expected to see a giant glob of semen floating somewhere in the water.That was strange. He swirled the water with his hands. He could have sworn he had come. A dream couldn't fake that sensation… could it? He gave his dick a light stroke, and sure enough, it rose to the occasion.“Just a dream,” he muttered, crawling back into the bath. It was still plenty warm, and there was no way he could get so hard again after coming twice. May as well take advantage, he figured, laying down in the tub. He gave himself a few light strokes, pulling on the base of his balls, picturing the girl from his dreams.The water rippled with his movements, and suddenly she was there, as if stepping through a mirror. Mouth agape, he stared as she stood up before him, the water dripping down from her C-cup breasts. Her hair was a deep blue, far richer than the color it had been before. Thin horizontal lines that looked like tattoos were etched down her ribs, and the lips of her vagina were thick and long, dribbling a fluid of their own.“Again?” She asked, kneeling down in the water. “Let me help you.” She licked her lips, taking hold of his dick at the base.“Who the fuck are you?!?” Mike cried, pulling away. She stared at him patiently as he tried to climb out of the bath. Tendrils of water circled his legs, pulling him back in so that the two of them were face to face.“My name is Naia,” she cooed, touching his lips with her finger. “And you just saved my life.”“Whoa!” Mike splashed water everywhere in his haste to get out of the tub. This time, Naia didn't fight him as he scrambled out into the bathroom, covering up with a towel. She pouted as he slid across the floor, looking for his pants. Seeing that she hadn't moved from her spot in the tub, Mike felt his heart rate level out, the burst of adrenaline gone.“Who…what are you?” He asked, trying to keep his eyes off of her breasts. Other than the strange markings on her ribs, her skin was flawless.“I am Naia.” She smirked. “Though I suspect we are past names at this point, Mike. I am full of your cum, after all.”“So it wasn't a dream.” Mike slid his pants on, the fabric catching on his wet skin. “That still doesn't tell me anything else. For instance, how you got here.” He had been alone in the tub, and she had appeared from beneath the water.“I've been here for quite some time.” She swished the water with her hand. “If you don't mind-” she waved her hand and the spigot came on, warm water filling the tub. It filled even faster this time, until another wave of her hand turned it off. “It's been a long time since I've had a hot soak.”“What do you mean, quite some time?” Mike crossed his arms. “You're lucky I don't just call the cops.”“You won't do that.” She pulled a handful of water over her breasts, letting it run free across them. “You and I are linked now. You are struggling with what you saw, but accept that it happened and want to know more. You are also afraid that you are suffering a psychotic break which will only be confirmed when the cops arrive and find nothing but a tub full of water.”Mike stared at her, mouth open. “You can read my mind?”Naia laughed, a beautiful sound that echoed off the tiles. “Not quite. Just general stuff. I would far rather have this conversation here in the water, by the way.”“You practically raped me,” Mike told her. “If I get back in there, I assume you are going to try again.”“I hardly raped you.” Naia looked angry. “You were the one jacking off in my tub. I did what I did out of self-preservation, by the way, and I happen to know that you enjoyed it.”Mike sighed. Being angry was getting him nowhere. “Okay, give me a second to calm down. If you can read my mind, you should be feeling that this is a little much for me right now.” He walked toward the tub, staring warily at its edge. “If I sit, do you promise not to pull me in or anything?”“Yes.” She moved away from the edge, allowing him a better look at her body through the water. God, she was gorgeous.“Let's back things up a bit. Fill in the gaps for me. Let's start with who and what you are.”“I'm Naia.” She ran her hands across her body. “This is what I am. I am a nymph.”“A nymph?” The gears in his brain spun. He had only heard the word used in nymphomaniac. “Can you elaborate?”“I am a water spirit.” She stirred the water with one finger, summoning a floating sphere. “My spring was dammed up over a century ago. Luckily, the water was diverted through the fountain in the yard, and eventually pipes were installed to allow spring water to come up through the pipes to this tub so that I could come inside.”“For what purpose?”“I think you know.” Naia winked at him. “Nymphs are sexual by nature. The person who built this house did it to protect me, and he and I had quite the life here together. It was too cold in the winter to fuck outside, so this was a pretty good compromise.”“What do you need protecting from?”“My spring was going to be destroyed. If it ever stops flowing, either it forms somewhere else or I die. Which I was quite close to doing, I might add.”“Really?”Naia nodded. “When Emily died, the house went unused for a really long time. The fountain became clogged, and the fixtures in the house never flowed. There's a slight trickle in the fountain, but minerals are backing it up. When you turned on the bath, it gave me just enough energy to manifest.”“Wow.” Mike was watching the tiny sphere of water float above the tub. It occasionally touched down on the water's surface, bouncing once more into the air.“Yes. But I needed more. Nymphs can channel sexual energy into magic, but we try not to because it causes links between us. That's why some of us drown our sexual partners.”“There are more of you?”Naia nodded. “There used to be. Modern civilization has not been very kind to my race.”“Tell me more about our link.”Naia blushed. “The first spell was to help unclog the fountain. It was minor, but if you were to die, I could make it through another winter.”“If I were to die?”“While I was taking in your essence, I looked into your soul. If I hadn't liked what I saw, I would have drowned you. Don't take it personally.”Holy shit. “If you got what you wanted, then why the second spell?”“When I looked inside of you, I found a man who grew up without a home, one who needed a family who could love him for who he is. The second spell was selfish on my part, but we will both see benefit.”“What does it do?” He asked.“I swapped a small part of your soul with mine,” she admitted, biting at her lower lip. “That way, you and I would be forever linked, and you would be more likely to stay here.”“Part of my what?” Mike stood, balling his fists. “You took part of my soul?!?”“Swapped. No taking, an even exchange.” She stood up, water trailing from her body. “It's like a gift, but magic always needs an equivalent exchange. By taking part of your soul, you and I are forever connected. By taking part of my soul, you have been given certain gifts.”“You can't just take-” the watery orb now had a twin, and tiny lights sparkled within, relaxing him. “So, what, I go to Hell now or something?”“Silly man.” Naia splashed the water at him playfully. “This isn't some demonic pact or anything. When you die, your soul goes with you and the piece I gave you comes back to me. So relax. As long as I don't terminate the spell early, our continued existence benefits each other.”Mike sighed, rubbing his head. This was too much. “Okay, so tell me about these benefits.”“Traditionally, precognition, mind reading, things like that. However, those have fallen out of vogue, as the last thing we want is for you to call attention to yourself, or this house. Instead, you will find yourself far more charming than usual, a natural beauty of sorts. Heightened sensitivity of your senses and just enough of those earlier abilities to keep you out of danger. Oh, and a gift more for me.” She leaned forward, pressing her breasts together. Mike's crotch twitched in his pants. “You no longer have much of a refractory period. I figured that's a fair trade for not being able to win the lottery.”“So a magic boner and a spidey-sense. Fucking fantastic,” Mike muttered to himself.“Well, and a permanent psychic link to me.” Naia pouted. “You're being rude.”“I'm sorry Naia, this is just a lot to take in.” He was staring at her breasts, the way they pushed together, her tiny nipples rigid just above the water's surface.To be continued.By writerannabelle for Literotica

Paul's Security Weekly TV
Incident Response: Practice Like you Play - Paul Kelly, Tim Morris - ESW #282

Paul's Security Weekly TV

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 30, 2022 35:19


Heightened emotions, demands for updates, not knowing how bad things might be... Incident response isn't easy, but practice and the right tools can make it a whole lot less stressful. Some regulations like PCI require annual IR tests, but is that enough? Imagine playing a sport where the team meets for one half-hearted practice once a year. How would that team perform under pressure? How would they communicate? Say this sports analogy has convinced you - the IR team should practice more and should practice effectively. Questions still remain - how often? Are tabletops enough, or are live exercises and simulations necessary? We'll aim to answer these questions and more during this interview with Tim and Paul from Tanium.   This segment is sponsored by Tanium. Visit https://securityweekly.com/tanium to learn more about them!   Visit https://www.securityweekly.com/esw for all the latest episodes! Show Notes: https://securityweekly.com/esw282

Paul's Security Weekly
ESW #282 - Jamie Moles, Dixon Styres, Tim Morris, Paul Kelly

Paul's Security Weekly

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 29, 2022 104:35


In the Enterprise Security News: Blockchain security startups are still raising tons of money, but not in crypto, since it's now worthless. Ha! just kidding. Maybe. Am I? Anvilogic, AppViewX, Sotero, Resourcely, and Push Security all raise rounds JUICY RUMORS! Is Crowdstrike buying Orca? Is Akamai getting bought out by a PE shop? HUMAN and PerimeterX join in a rare cybersecurity merger, Are Azure's vulnerabilities out of control? Zoom brings end-to-end encryption to its cloud phone service, npm says FINE, we'll add some security, Kaseya's CEO is just, telling it like it is, man. The problem must be with you. A robot attacks a child, time to add EMP grenades to your EDC! All that and more!   In order to run a successful SOC, security leaders rely on tools with different strengths to create layers of defense. This has led to a highly siloed industry with over 2,000 vendors, each with their own specific function and who very seldom work together. To gain an advantage on attackers, we need to start seeing cybersecurity as a team sport––united for a shared mission. In this session, ExtraHop's Jamie Moles and CrowdStrike's Dixon Styres discuss why and how vendors should work together to enable better integrated security for their customers. They'll share their joint philosophy toward an ecosystem approach to security and will show off some of the specific capabilities of the integration between ExtraHop Reveal(x) 360 and CrowdStrike Falcon in a live demo. This segment is sponsored by ExtraHop Networks. Visit https://securityweekly.com/extrahop to learn more about them!   Heightened emotions, demands for updates, not knowing how bad things might be... Incident response isn't easy, but practice and the right tools can make it a whole lot less stressful. Some regulations like PCI require annual IR tests, but is that enough? Imagine playing a sport where the team meets for one half-hearted practice once a year. How would that team perform under pressure? How would they communicate? Say this sports analogy has convinced you – the IR team should practice more and should practice effectively. Questions still remain – how often? Are tabletops enough, or are live exercises and simulations necessary? We'll aim to answer these questions and more during this interview with Tim and Paul from Tanium. This segment is sponsored by Tanium. Visit https://securityweekly.com/tanium to learn more about them!    Visit https://www.securityweekly.com/esw for all the latest episodes! Follow us on Twitter: https://www.twitter.com/securityweekly Like us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/secweekly   Show Notes: https://securityweekly.com/esw282

AHDB
352: Pork: The heightened risk of African swine fever (ASF)

AHDB

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 29, 2022 14:54


Most pig farmers are already aware of the biosecurity measures they need to take to reduce the risk of disease outbreaks, such as ASF. So, what are the threats and what can we all do to keep ASF out of the UK? ASF is well-established in parts of Europe, Russia and China, with a reservoir of infection in the wild boar population. The recent announcement of ASF in a pig dense area of Germany, close to the Netherlands border, shows that the risk through human-mediated spread is high. The focus now must be on ensuring ASF does not spread further.  In this episode of our Food and Farming podcast, hosted by Lauren Dimmack, Senior Animal Health & Welfare Scientist, we discuss biosecurity with guests Gemma Thwaites, President, Pig Veterinary Society; Chris Dodds, Executive Secretary, Livestock Auctioneers Association; Rebecca Veale, Senior Policy Adviser, National Pig Association (NPA) and Tony Bayles, AHDB Knowledge Exchange Relationship Manager, Pork (North). Useful links Biosecurity on pig farms | AHDB Biosecurity: People on pig farms | AHDB Biosecurity: Vehicles on pig farms | AHDB Order African swine fever resources and posters | AHDB African swine fever in pigs and wild boars in Europe - GOV.UK (www.gov.uk) African swine fever | EFSA (europa.eu) African swine fever | OIE & FAO | Trello ASF (npa-uk.org.uk) Get in touch if you have any concerns or to find out more about anything discussed in this podcast: Lauren Dimmack E: Lauren.Dimmack@ahdb.org.uk M: 07580 972009 Tony Bayles  E: Tony.Bayles@ahdb.org.uk M: 07391 016505 Your Feedback We'd love to know what you think of our podcasts. If you'd like to give feedback, please complete our short questionnaire, which will help us improve the podcast on an ongoing basis, or email: foodandfarming@ahdb.org.uk  This episode was produced and edited by Dami Oyinlola, Marcomms Executive (Pork).

Enterprise Security Weekly (Video)
Incident Response: Practice Like you Play - Paul Kelly, Tim Morris - ESW #282

Enterprise Security Weekly (Video)

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 29, 2022 35:19


Heightened emotions, demands for updates, not knowing how bad things might be... Incident response isn't easy, but practice and the right tools can make it a whole lot less stressful. Some regulations like PCI require annual IR tests, but is that enough? Imagine playing a sport where the team meets for one half-hearted practice once a year. How would that team perform under pressure? How would they communicate? Say this sports analogy has convinced you - the IR team should practice more and should practice effectively. Questions still remain - how often? Are tabletops enough, or are live exercises and simulations necessary? We'll aim to answer these questions and more during this interview with Tim and Paul from Tanium.   This segment is sponsored by Tanium. Visit https://securityweekly.com/tanium to learn more about them!   Visit https://www.securityweekly.com/esw for all the latest episodes! Show Notes: https://securityweekly.com/esw282

Enterprise Security Weekly (Audio)
ESW #282 - Jamie Moles, Dixon Styres, Tim Morris, Paul Kelly

Enterprise Security Weekly (Audio)

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 29, 2022 104:35


In the Enterprise Security News: Blockchain security startups are still raising tons of money, but not in crypto, since it's now worthless. Ha! just kidding. Maybe. Am I? Anvilogic, AppViewX, Sotero, Resourcely, and Push Security all raise rounds JUICY RUMORS! Is Crowdstrike buying Orca? Is Akamai getting bought out by a PE shop? HUMAN and PerimeterX join in a rare cybersecurity merger, Are Azure's vulnerabilities out of control? Zoom brings end-to-end encryption to its cloud phone service, npm says FINE, we'll add some security, Kaseya's CEO is just, telling it like it is, man. The problem must be with you. A robot attacks a child, time to add EMP grenades to your EDC! All that and more!   In order to run a successful SOC, security leaders rely on tools with different strengths to create layers of defense. This has led to a highly siloed industry with over 2,000 vendors, each with their own specific function and who very seldom work together. To gain an advantage on attackers, we need to start seeing cybersecurity as a team sport––united for a shared mission. In this session, ExtraHop's Jamie Moles and CrowdStrike's Dixon Styres discuss why and how vendors should work together to enable better integrated security for their customers. They'll share their joint philosophy toward an ecosystem approach to security and will show off some of the specific capabilities of the integration between ExtraHop Reveal(x) 360 and CrowdStrike Falcon in a live demo. This segment is sponsored by ExtraHop Networks. Visit https://securityweekly.com/extrahop to learn more about them!   Heightened emotions, demands for updates, not knowing how bad things might be... Incident response isn't easy, but practice and the right tools can make it a whole lot less stressful. Some regulations like PCI require annual IR tests, but is that enough? Imagine playing a sport where the team meets for one half-hearted practice once a year. How would that team perform under pressure? How would they communicate? Say this sports analogy has convinced you – the IR team should practice more and should practice effectively. Questions still remain – how often? Are tabletops enough, or are live exercises and simulations necessary? We'll aim to answer these questions and more during this interview with Tim and Paul from Tanium. This segment is sponsored by Tanium. Visit https://securityweekly.com/tanium to learn more about them!    Visit https://www.securityweekly.com/esw for all the latest episodes! Follow us on Twitter: https://www.twitter.com/securityweekly Like us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/secweekly   Show Notes: https://securityweekly.com/esw282

The Craig Collins Show
Craig and Will are “Just Chattin” regarding Ameren's heightened prices in Peoria; Rapid Fire News talk; Good Story/ Bad Story! A thief who returned a watch because of this?

The Craig Collins Show

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 25, 2022 33:37


The Craig Collins Show
Craig and Will are “Just Chattin” regarding Ameren's heightened prices in Peoria; Rapid Fire News talk; Good Story/ Bad Story! A thief who returned a watch because of this?

The Craig Collins Show

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 25, 2022 33:37


Communism Exposed:East and West
‘To Cicadas' Poet Allegedly Insults Xi Jinping: China's Heightened Political Sensitivity

Communism Exposed:East and West

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 20, 2022 10:16


‘To Cicadas' Poet Allegedly Insults Xi Jinping: China's Heightened Political Sensitivity

Unholstered
Ep 48: Heightened Security

Unholstered

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 15, 2022 27:19


After the recent influx of mass shootings this year many Americans are anxious, scared and divided. Some families are still fearful to go out and enjoy summer festivals, while others are mad and protesting in the streets.  Here in Fort Wayne, Indiana members of law enforcement want you to know, they are out there. They are out in high numbers and most of the time you don't even see them. Officers can't share all of their heightened security measures, but they have eyes in the sky and on the streets ready at a moment's notice.  See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Communism Exposed:East and West
From Competition to Cold War—Heightened Threats From China Means a New Level of Conflict

Communism Exposed:East and West

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 15, 2022 29:38


From Competition to Cold War—Heightened Threats From China Means a New Level of Conflict

The Metaculus Journal
Reducing Nuclear Risk Through Improved US-China Relations

The Metaculus Journal

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 15, 2022 13:33


https://www.metaculus.com/notebooks/8807/reducing-nuclear-risk-through-improved-us-china-relations/ Heightened geopolitical tensions can increase the risk of war, and when tensions between nuclear powers deteriorate the risk of nuclear war can increase. One such relationship facing heightened tensions is between the United States and China. This is particularly concerning as China has recently increased its nuclear stockpile and shown increased aggression toward neighboring states. This essay examines the risk of nuclear war between the US and China and offers possible means of lowering that risk. Background China's nuclear stockpile growth has been notable, increasing by 60 warheads from 2019 to 2020, the largest recent increase of any nuclear capable state (see the figure below from the Federation of American Scientists (FAS), US and Russia not shown).

CrossroadsET
From Competition to Cold War—Heightened Threats From China Means a New Level of Conflict: Casey Fleming

CrossroadsET

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 14, 2022 29:39


The FBI and the UK's MI5 have identified the Chinese Communist Party as one of the biggest threats to the United States—not only as a military threat, but also as a threat to political subversion and economic warfare. Was this declaration out of character from previous stances of the United States and the UK on China? And if so, what could this tell us about the Chinese regime, amid rumors of a Taiwan invasion and an expansion of the Russia-Ukraine war? To learn more, we speak with Casey Fleming, CEO of BlackOps Partners.   ⭕️ Stay up-to-date with Josh with the Crossroads NEWSLETTER

Creed of Crypto
15. Record High 9.1% Inflation: What Does it Mean for Crypto?

Creed of Crypto

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 14, 2022 58:52


On Episode 15 of the podcast, Eth Moon and Crypto Ewok discuss: - The Fed announcement on 7/13 of 9.1% CPI and what it means for Crypto - Market outlook for July and rest of 2022 - The continued carnage of centralized lending platforms and whether they'll return - Heightened importance of security during bear market - HEX / PulseChain updates, new Richard Heart stream with big update Follow the show on Twitter: @CreedOfCrypto Buy Us a Cup of Coffee: https://www.powr.io/checkout_screen?unique_label=e2df0c6e_1623177500

Striving to be Spiritual
Heightened or More Keen Sense of Smell in Pregnancy? 4 Must-Know Tips to Help You Through!

Striving to be Spiritual

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 12, 2022 16:57


Does everything stink to you? Are you in the beginning stages of your pregnancy and finding that things that didn't bother your nose before now do? Does the keen sense of smell make you nauseous? Today episode addresses this topic with 4 must-know tips to help you through this season!  Positive Pregnancy Program: This self-led video program, made for those that HATE the sick phase of pregnancy, where your smell is heightened and you feel SO nauseous. This Mini Course will help you have  more positive thoughts during pregnancy! https://positiveinpregnancy.com/pregnancyishard  Positivity in Pregnancy and Motherhood website: Positiveinpregnancy.com Here is the Facebook Page for Pregnancy is hard: I have documented my journey of my fourth baby on this page and have other juicy and good tips for enjoying pregnancy better.  https://www.facebook.com/pregnancyishard Here is the Pregnancy is Hard Support Group on Facebook: Let's offer support, help and fun for those in the trenches of pregnancy!  https://www.facebook.com/groups/165102315544693 Email me at: melioramentor@gmail.com  

Software Engineering Institute (SEI) Podcast Series
The 4 Phases of the Zero Trust Journey

Software Engineering Institute (SEI) Podcast Series

Play Episode Listen Later Jul 5, 2022 34:28


Over the past several years, zero trust architecture has emerged as an important topic within the field of cybersecurity. Heightened federal requirements and pandemic-related challenges have accelerated the timeline for zero trust adoption within the federal sector. Private sector organizations are also looking to adopt zero trust to bring their technical infrastructure and processes in line with cybersecurity best practices. Real-world preparation for zero trust, however, has not caught up with existing cybersecurity frameworks and literature. NIST standards have defined the desired outcomes for zero trust transformation, but the implementation process is still relatively undefined. As the nation's first federally funded research and development center with a clear emphasis on cybersecurity, the Carnegie Mellon University Software Engineering Institute (SEI) is uniquely positioned to bridge the gap between NIST standards and real-world implementation. In this podcast, Tim Morrow and Matthew Nicolai, researchers with the SEI's CERT Division, have outlined 4 steps that organizations can take to implement and maintain zero trust architecture.

Barron's Advisor
How to Earn Guaranteed Income in a Time of Heightened Volatility

Barron's Advisor

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 28, 2022 24:03


David Lau, founder and CEO of DPL Financial Partners, explains why RIAs should consider commission-free annuities.

Chasing Consciousness
Pim Van Lommel MD - A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE STUDY

Chasing Consciousness

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 28, 2022 66:10


Can we have conscious experiences after clinical death? In this episode we have the bizarre phenomena of Near Death Experiences to examine. The intense experience reported by about %25 of patients whose hearts are restarted after a short time of clinical death, has fascinated researchers for many years going right back to Plato. However, advances in cardiology techniques in the last 50 years have permitted doctors to save many more people, and thus to study the phenomenon in a controlled manner: so, exactly how many people have the experiences, exactly how dead they were at the time and so to start assessing the controversial part of this discussion, whether these experiences can be explained in simply neurobiological terms or if there is evidence that consciousness can ‘survive' clinical death, if that is in fact the best way to talk about it. So who better to help us understand this than cardiologist, scientist and author Dr. Pim Van Lommel from The Netherlands. During his 35 year career as a Cardiologist, Dr. Van Lommel saw the need for a detailed study on this to nail down the physiological variables like medication, length of time without oxygen and to connect those to the psychological data, about the content of the experiences and how long they remained influential in the patients lives. The prospective study he spearheaded was published in the respected Lancet medical journal in 2001, and his book about the research ‘Consciousness beyond life, the science of the near death experience' was published in 2007. He also recently won second prize in the Bigelow Foundation for consciousness studies essay prize, which discusses the study and its implications. Full references, shownotes and links here Please donate a cup of coffee if you're enjoying the show What we discuss in this episode: 03:19 Common experiences during an NDE 05:30 NDEs are possible even when the brain is fully functional e.g. Fear of death emergency 06:44 Carl Jung's NDE was the first description of viewing planet earth from above 07:45 Transformation of world view via NDE + STEs (Spiritually transformative experiences) 08:14 Scientific curiosity about NDEs in clinically dead brains 11:00 1988-1998 Pim's medical and psychological study of NDEs 17:15 Examining neurobiological explanations 27:45 Implications: consciousness must be non-local and the brain an interface 38:30 NDEers report heightened intuitive skill, empathy, precognition and telepathy 46:00 Organisations researching post-materialist science 51:50 Is the information perceived in an NDE different to normal perceptive information? 54:00 Non-local information exchange 59:30 Heightened sense of interconnection with nature and other beings - oneness 01:01:00 Life review: Experiencing from a different consciousness' point of view References: Pim's book ‘Consciousness beyond life: the science of near death experiences'. Pim's medical and psychological study Pim's Bigelow essay prize text 2022 Bigalow Insitute for Consciousness Studies IONS The Journal of Consciousness Studies

Chasing Consciousness
Pim Van Lommel MD - A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE STUDY

Chasing Consciousness

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 14, 2022 66:10


Can we have conscious experiences after clinical death? In this episode we have the bizarre phenomena of Near Death Experiences to examine. The intense experience reported by about %25 of patients whose hearts are restarted after a short time of clinical death, has fascinated researchers for many years going right back to Plato. However, advances in cardiology techniques in the last 50 years have permitted doctors to save many more people, and thus to study the phenomenon in a controlled manner: so, exactly how many people have the experiences, exactly how dead they were at the time and so to start assessing the controversial part of this discussion, whether these experiences can be explained in simply neurobiological terms or if there is evidence that consciousness can ‘survive' clinical death, if that is in fact the best way to talk about it. So who better to help us understand this than cardiologist, scientist and author Dr. Pim Van Lommel from The Netherlands. During his 35 year career as a Cardiologist, Dr. Van Lommel saw the need for a detailed study on this to nail down the physiological variables like medication, length of time without oxygen and to connect those to the psychological data, about the content of the experiences and how long they remained influential in the patients lives. The prospective study he spearheaded was published in the respected Lancet medical journal in 2001, and his book about the research ‘Consciousness beyond life, the science of the near death experience' was published in 2007. He also recently won second prize in the Bigelow Foundation for consciousness studies essay prize, which discusses the study and its implications. Full references, shownotes and links here Please donate a cup of coffee if you're enjoying the show What we discuss in this episode: 03:19 Common experiences during an NDE 05:30 NDEs are possible even when the brain is fully functional e.g. Fear of death emergency 06:44 Carl Jung's NDE was the first description of viewing planet earth from above 07:45 Transformation of world view via NDE + STEs (Spiritually transformative experiences) 08:14 Scientific curiosity about NDEs in clinically dead brains 11:00 1988-1998 Pim's medical and psychological study of NDEs 17:15 Examining neurobiological explanations 27:45 Implications: consciousness must be non-local and the brain an interface 38:30 NDEers report heightened intuitive skill, empathy, precognition and telepathy 46:00 Organisations researching post-materialist science 51:50 Is the information perceived in an NDE different to normal perceptive information? 54:00 Non-local information exchange 59:30 Heightened sense of interconnection with nature and other beings - oneness 01:01:00 Life review: Experiencing from a different consciousness' point of view References: Pim's book ‘Consciousness beyond life: the science of near death experiences'. Pim's medical and psychological study Pim's Bigelow essay prize text 2022 Bigalow Insitute for Consciousness Studies IONS The Journal of Consciousness Studies

Ray Appleton
Hour 1 - The 22nd Congressional Seat Winner Connie Conway Calls In. US Sees Heightened Extremist Threat. Migrant Organizer Says Mexico Offered Work Visas.

Ray Appleton

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 8, 2022 38:38


Valley voters are sending a new lawmaker to the US Capitol. Tulare Republican Connie Conway has a 19% lead against Democrat Lourin Hubbard in the race to fill Devin Nunes' 22nd Congressional District seat. The double-digit lead was enough for AP to call the race just after 10 p.m. Tuesday. A looming Supreme Court decision on abortion, an increase of migrants at the U.S.-Mexico border and the midterm elections are potential triggers for extremist violence over the next six months, the Department of Homeland Security. The organizer of a massive migrant caravan attempting to make its way to the United States says that the Mexican government has offered work visas to migrants, which would allow them to travel freely through the country. See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

AP Audio Stories
US sees heightened extremist threat heading into midterms

AP Audio Stories

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 7, 2022 0:44


AP Correspondent Jennifer King reports on Homeland Security Extremism

WTF Just Happened Today
Day 504: "Heightened threat environment."

WTF Just Happened Today

Play Episode Listen Later Jun 7, 2022 4:34


Tuesday, June 7, 2022 Subscribe: Get the Daily Update in your inbox for free 1/ The World Bank warned that the global economy may be headed for several years of above-average inflation and below-average growth. The bank cut its annual global growth forecast to 2.9% from January's 4.1%, saying “subdued growth will likely pe... Visit WTF Just Happened Today? for more news and headlines, brought to you by Matt Kiser. The WTFJHT Podcast is narrated and produced by Joe Amditis.

Mama's Daily Dose
257 - Why some moms and not others?

Mama's Daily Dose

Play Episode Listen Later May 31, 2022 4:39 Transcription Available


Why do some moms suffer from postpartum mood disorders (depression, anxiety, OCD) and not others? Why do moms suffer from mood disorders with one child and not another?What is most confusing is that you don't know if its going to happen to you or if it will one child and not another or all of them!Heightened sensitivity and anxiety is actually a product of postpartum (hormones and brain changes) in order to keep you focused on your baby and to keep the human race going. But what happens is this "heightened sensitivity" stays longer in some moms and can result in postpartum mood disorders and mood disorders after the postpartum stage as well.What makes someone more susceptible though? Knowing that your life doesn't start anew when you have children. Your past is still a part of you and traumatic experiences and events can play a large role in PP mood changes and disorders. Postpartum Support International: https://www.postpartum.net/Climb Out of the Darkness: https://www.postpartum.net/join-us/climbout/www.allyoumama.comIG -@MeghanQBarrett

Authentic Calm
The Gift of Sensitivity in Pregnancy & Birth With Carson Meyer

Authentic Calm

Play Episode Listen Later May 27, 2022


In episode 34 season 2 Jessi sits down with Carson Meyer. Carson is the founder of C & The Moon, a nutrition consultant, and a birth doula who has helped numerous women bring new life into this world in a way that is authentic and empowering. As Sensitives, the thought of birth often brings up fears. Carson walks us through these apprehensions and discusses how our Sensitivity is actually a beautiful gift in this process. Carson shares her recommended resources and tips for optimizing a women's experience when creating a new life. She also provides insight into the layers of transformational healing she so often sees come hand-in-hand with the preconception, pregnancy, and birth process. Carson's passion for serving others through her work is inspiring and we are so grateful to share her expert knowledge with you in this episode! Topics discussed: Carson's personal journey into the role of doula. [00:05:50] Heightened fears & apprehensions Sensitives may have about the pregnancy & birth process and how our sensitivity can be a gift throughout the experience. [00:17:55] Carson shares her top recommendations when preparing for preconception and pregnancy [00:27:45] Working through the birth process so that you can start motherhood in a place of power and authenticity. [00:36:40] Quotes “At the end of the day what a baby really needs more than any gadget or material item is a well-rested and healthy mom.” - Carson Meyer “There is no one way to birth. The only wrong way to do it is in a way that you don't feel empowered in your decisions and or in your unique body that nobody knows better than you.” - Carson Meyer “People like to say birth is just one day, but I think it has rippling effects on mother and child forever. I hope that gives people the feeling that they have permission to take the reins of their experience and know that you don't have to do it any way but your own.” - Carson Meyer Connect With Carson Instagram www.CarsonMeyer.com www.candthemoon.com Links mentioned in this episode: Orgasmic Birth The Business of Being Born Little Honey Money EWG Read Episode Transcript Mêrfleur Journal Connect & Book merfleurwellness.com

The CyberWire
Diplomacy and hybrid war. Heightened cyber tension as Quds Day approaches. Conti in Costa Rica. North Korean cyber operators target journalists. C2C notes.. A guilty plea in a cyberstalking case.

The CyberWire

Play Episode Listen Later Apr 26, 2022 28:14


Heightened cyber tension as Quds Day approaches. Costa Rican electrical utility suffers from Conti ransomware. Emotet's operators seem to be exploring new possibilities. North Korean cyber operators target journalists who cover the DPRK. A guilty plea in a strange case of corporate-connected cyberstalking. Bel Yelin ponders the potential Twitter takeover. Mr. Security Answer Person John Pescatore addresses questions about vendors. And cybercrime, run like a business. For links to all of today's stories check out our CyberWire daily news briefing: https://thecyberwire.com/newsletters/daily-briefing/11/80 Selected reading. Russia's invasion of Ukraine: List of key events from day 62 (Al Jazeera)  Ukraine takes war behind enemy lines as Russian fuel depots set ablaze (The Telegraph)  Russia pounds eastern Ukraine as West promises Kyiv new arms (AP NEWS)  Finland, Sweden to begin NATO application in May, say local media reports (Reuters)  ‘Thanks, Putin': Finnish and Swedish Lawmakers Aim for NATO Membership (Foreign Policy)  World War Three now a 'real' danger, Russian foreign minister Sergei Lavrov warns (The Telegraph)  Moscow cites risk of nuclear war as U.S., allies pledge heavier arms for Ukraine (Reuters)  Russia Warns of Nuclear War Risk as Ukraine Talks Go On (Bloomberg)  From Jordan to Japan: US invites 14 non-NATO nations to Ukraine defense summit (Breaking Defense) State TV says Iran foiled cyberattacks on public services (AP NEWS) State TV Says Iran Foiled Cyberattacks on Public Services (SecurityWeek) Iranian hackers claim they've hit the Bank of Israel - but ‘no proof,' cyber authority says (Haaretz) North Korean hackers targeting journalists with novel malware (BleepingComputer) The ink-stained trail of GOLDBACKDOOR (Stairwell) Conti ransomware cripples systems of electricity manager in Costa Rican town (The Record by Recorded Future)  Emotet Tests New Delivery Techniques (Proofpoint)  Ex-eBay exec pleads guilty to harassing couple whose newsletter raised ire (Reuters) Mastermind of Natick couple's harassment pleads guilty (Boston Globe)  Former eBay Executive Pleads Guilty to His Role in Cyberstalking Campaign (US Department of Justice)  Cyberkriminelle bieten Schadsoftware kostenlos an (IT-Markt)

The Takeaway
Ukrainian LGBTQ Refugees Face Heightened Challenges

The Takeaway

Play Episode Listen Later Apr 6, 2022 20:15


Amid the ongoing exodus of Ukrainians fleeing their country due to the Russian invasion, members of the country's LGBTQ community find themselves in a particularly precarious position. Some of the countries that they are fleeing to, including Poland, have had vocal anti-LGBTQ movements in recent years. LGBTQ+ Ukrainian refugees also face obstacles towards receiving proper medical care, and at times, issues with their identifying documents.   We hear from Edward Reese, a non-binary, queer Ukrainian about his experience fleeing Ukraine. We also speak with two activists working to help LGBTQ Ukrainian refugees, Olena Shevchenko, Head of Insight Ukraine, an LGBTQ advocacy group based in Ukraine, and Miroslawa “Mirka” Makuchowska, Deputy CEO of Campaign Against Homophobia, a Polish LGBTQ+ rights organization.

The Whinypaluza Podcast
Ep 135: Handling Our Intensity In Our Relationships

The Whinypaluza Podcast

Play Episode Listen Later Mar 30, 2022 27:13


Listen to this Whinypaluza Wednesday Live vlog episode with The Greene Family! An extension of the weekly blog, join Rebecca and her family on the live vlog, brought to you here in case you missed it last week! This week: Handling Our Intensity In Our Relationships Patterns are common in many marriages- sometimes emotional intensity can cause conflict. Heightened emotions can often be overwhelming for the other person. It can feel like aggressive or overwhelming.  Self-awareness of how you communicate is paramount.  Timing is everything. If one spouse is in a heightened emotional state, NOW is not the time to say “calm down.” Wait until they have calmed down and THEN discuss how it makes you feel. The importance of initiating an emotional reset, sometimes many times in a day. Don't let negativity seep into everything else in your day. Emotional Unloading: Finding methods and tools to calm yourself before you have a conversation with someone, whether it is physical exertion, or brain dump. Recognizing why your partner may not be engaging or responding. How can you have a conversation that allows them to engage comfortably? Disclaimers can help! Let your spouse know if you just need to unload, and it isn't personal. Set up the conversation to alert your spouse to what you need.   Follow Rebecca Greene Blog  https://www.whinypaluza.com/ Book  https://bit.ly/WhinypaluzaBook Facebook  https://www.facebook.com/whinypaluzaparenting Instagram https://www.instagram.com/becgreene5/ @becgreene5 TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@whinypaluzamom?lang=en @whinypaluzamom Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices