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Julian Emanuel, Evercore ISI Chief Equity & Quantitative Strategist, expects consolidation in the streaming industry in the coming years. Greg Valliere, AGF Investments Chief US Policy Strategist, discusses the third Republican primary debate. Cameron Dawson, Newedge Wealth Chief Investment Officer, says it's too early to know if the uplift in unemployment will barrel higher into next year. Geetha Ranganathan, Bloomberg Intelligence US Media Analyst, breaks down Disney's better-than-expected 4Q earnings. Ellen Wald, Atlantic Council Senior Fellow, discusses the global oil market as crude prices remain low.Get the Bloomberg Surveillance newsletter, delivered every weekday. Sign up now: https://www.bloomberg.com/account/newsletters/surveillance    Full transcript:  I'm Tom Keene, along with Jonathan Farrow and Lisa Abramowitz. Join us each day for insight from the best and economics, geopolitics, finance and investment. Subscribe to Bloomberg Surveillance on demand on app, Spotify and anywhere you get your podcasts, and always on Bloomberg dot Com, the Bloomberg Terminal, and the Bloomberg Business App. Jitting a manuel jointed to surround a table Chief Equity just over at evercor SI jitting Good mornings here, Good morning. Have you been participating in this wonderful, beautiful thing that is an eight day winning streak. Yeah, we have, you know, several weeks ago we just felt that when you backed off of that five percent yield, And I know we've been talking about it, but it is the fact that in this world now for the last year and a half, where stocks and bonds have been positive correlated, if bond yields go down, stocks go up, and backing off of five percent was huge for the psychology. And now we've got this unexpected oil price plunge, which is even bigger for Cheryl, I'm with you. Those two points yesterday stood out for me. Break a four to fifty on a ten year break of eighty on Brent crude. At what point do these correlations start to break the other way? What brings up hot that change? Well, we are watching that very closely. And guess what, the high frequency data is really important because that chart you were talking about a few moments ago, with the unemployment rate rising from three to four to three nine in the past, when that starts to happen, it tends to snowball. But where we're going to get the initial read on that is that eight thirty jobless claims number starts edging over two hundred and fifty thousand, we get a little bit cautious. Three hundred thousand is where we know the economy is going to turn down. I'm supposed to fold in now A question on Ed Hyman's Hicksy and Islm theory and his disinflation theory into your stock babble, forget about it. I love the single sentence you have which pushes against all that malarkey by saying price is paramount. Right now, when you talk to Ed Hyman, how does a respond to you telling them your economics doesn't matter, price is paramount. I'll tell you how five weeks ago Ed Heyman started putting out in almost daily the act that gasoline lean prices started falling as the conflict was erupting. You already had the turn in gasoline prices completely, you know, devoid of real sort of prosperity with Hymen's disinflationary tendency or outright deflation in China. Look, if you look at the last fifteen years, you've had episodic times of that from again. Obviously the financial crisis is one of those times. But ultimately what it comes back to again for equity investors, for bond investors. First of all, the whole idea of getting a real return on money in this world now is actually a positive for financial assets. It's a positive for capital allocation, and long term, it's a positive for growth. And that's you know, that's part of the equity investing mindset. Do you need a long term view right now or do you just trade the short term. It's really difficult to have a long term view because of what we're talking about the inflection in the economy potentially happening. But if you take the super long term view, is that even if you get the recession that Ed's thinking we're going to get, that it's going to be mild in twenty twenty four. What you're left with is a labor market that has rebalanced. What you're left with is again a real cost of money, better capital allocation, and frankly, we've talked about this before, you have new technological developments like generative AI that is going to improve the productivity of corporate America over the long term. One of the main frustrations of this year was that pretty much everything everyone said at the beginning of the year has proven to be wrong, including that this would be the year that tech stocks would fade more meaningfully and you start to see a broadening out in the rally. Energy stocks would start to be the true leaders. You just actually moved away from an overweight and energy and are talking more about generative AI. It seems like the theme just keeps on being that the leaders will keep leading. Everything else will just have to figure out where they fit in. Well, look, again, the recession will probably, you know, to the extent that it does arrive in the next twelve months or so, rationalize some of this, but ultimately what it's going to do, and look, part of the consternation on equity investors' minds is the fact that the Russell two thousand is making new lows. Ultimately, you're going to get to a point where there will be an attractive price for the other four hundred and ninety three stocks away from the Magnificent seven, and you will get to an earnings reset. We think that's part of next year's narrative. This is the difficult question I think people have got to confront at the moment. Do I want to buy the recovery to the recession I've not had yet, given the damage we've seen in the small camps. You can pick up various places to back up the consumer discretionary story. Allines, for instance, which have come way off the peak back of the summer. Do I want to start picking up the pieces going into what could be a slow down next year. We think you need to be balanced. It's one of those things where again, given the lack of visibility into next year, what we always say, we've had a very nice run in recent weeks, and if you go back over the last year, it's been a very nice run off the October lows. You need to be comfortable with the fact that if the market comes in ten or fifteen percent, which it does in any typical year, as it did several weeks ago, that you're a buyer of the dips and whatever that asset allocation is to you. That's the kind of discipline you need to employ. Goldman speak to this as well. We've gone through their note this morning a few times. It's worth doing it again. The hard part's over. More disinflation is in store over the next year. On growth, they see limited risk of a recession, and they say this on central bank policy. Then this is a really really interesting point. An increased willingness of central banks to deliver insurance cuts it grows slows. Earlier this week, Ben later on this program of E Toro, was saying the FED put was back. Lisa and I looked at each other and almost spat out our water. The FED put is back insures cuts of growth slows. Is the old fetch story returning? No? Why are they wrong? No? Look, because there is an assumption that there is a reflex reaction to a minus GDP quarter. Thankfully we didn't see it in twenty twenty two when we had that, because if you had interrupted the rate hiking program, you wouldn't have gotten to where you are. And you can argue both sides of this case, but frankly, for US, there is a commitment, given the fact that core PCE is still solidly with a three handle, that you just can't go down that road unless it really looks like there's a severe economic downturn. And we still think there's enough savings left over so that won't be the case. Judy and awesome as a was Emmanuel have et a court joining us now to brief off the GOP debate. Last night, Gregory Vliate, US policy strategist at AGF Investments. Gregory stood on the floor of the GOP convention of two thousand and four, and it was a different Republican Party. George Bush Junior wanted a more hopeful America. What's going to be that slogan this summer for the Republicans? Well, I think they'll emphasize the economy. They'll state that Biden has not done a good job. Frankly I would disagree, but I think that they'll make it more about the economy than anything else. The really intriguing issues are abortion number one, number two. How much more involved are we going to get in Ukraine and Israel? What about the idea that they're losing elections, not doing as well in certain elections. It going to be the mix of that we just saw it can be from a year ago, November, etc. How do they start winning again? Well, I don't think you talk like Ramaswami. I think he talked himself off the boat last night. I don't see much of a future for him. Probably not much of a future for Tim Scott. So it's dwindling. You've really only got three challengers. DeSantis, who was okay last night but made a strategic error he didn't mention the governor of Iowa had endorsed him. I can't believe he didn't talk about that. And then you've got Nicky Haley. He'll stick around for a while, maybe Chris Christy, but we'll begin at twenty twenty four. I think with just two challengers to Trump, that would be DeSantis and Haley. Do you think either of them have a chance of taking Trump off the ticket? Who would either of them? Oh? No, not at all. I mean Trump would have to do something really egregious, and he's pretty much filled the role on that for the last couple of years. So no, I don't see anything, you know, barring a health issue, that will keep Trump from being the nominee. Meanwhile, President Biden is going to meet with the UAW leader today and the there's a real question of what he can do to shore up the image of bignomics, of what's happened in the economy, which some people are saying on paper doesn't look so bad, yet in practice, has a lot of people feeling like they want something different. Well, it's a good question, Liza. I'm told that within the White House, Trump Biden is angry, he feels he's done a pretty good job in the economy and gets no credit. So he's going to hit the road and try to make his case. The problem is an awful lot of Americans fear that we're not out of the woods, and there's still more inflation threats, food, gasoline still to come. Greg Valier one oh one. Folks, this is a great course to take in politics. You get it off the back of a matchbook. You can take Valier one oh one. Greg, Your value one oh one is fiscal issues at the day of the election don't matter. Are you telling me the debt and the deficit don't matter the first Tuesday of November, Well, when you look at net inter cost, you look at borrowing costs, this is becoming a major crisis for the bond market, and there's no mood in Congress whatsoever to dramatically cut the deficit. However, I think that once we get through Labor Day of this coming year, this stuff will be irrelevant. I think attitudes harden during the summer. If Trump is well ahead, he could pull us out. But I have a feeling that Biden will come back. I have a feeling that the Democrats all of a sudden are motivated because of what happened in Kentucky. Is a path of least resistance for the former president. Another tax cut that's going to be on the agenda. You're absolutely right, Tom, and I think with the Senate probably flipping, in the House probably flipping, you're going to have a climate that will be ripe for a huge argument on whether we extend the Trump tax cuts. I think we will. I think Trump will talk about tax cutting even though the deficit is enormous. Greg, I have to wonder whether this time is different. A lot of people come on the show. We'll say dysfunction in Washington, DC is the reason why yields have been flipping and flopping and going all over the place, and then they talk about a potential government shutdown and say markets won't care. Have we reached the point where market dysfunction is going to result from political dysfunction in DC in a more material way. Well, we're going to see probably another alleged crisis on November seventeenth if there's no budget. I don't think the markets will be all that concerned about it. I do worry about the credit agencies, you know, fitch S and p downgrading US debt, not just because of the size of our debt, but because things are so dysfunctional in getting a budget. Great to catch up, Greg, appreciate your input. Greg Vally. THEFJEFF investment's gone into next year, as Ed Marangi and Emmanuel. So are you a confirmed bull? Cameron? I think that given the setup into your end, we can expect some kind of Santa claus rally just because of tax loss dynamics into the end of the year. The largest weights in the index are up the most this year, which means that you don't have eager sellers to recognize tax games. This is very different than last year, where the largest weights in the index were down a lot people sold them and you effectively puked into the end of the year. What it's the proverbial puke into the end of the year? Okay, thank you? Can we say that on radio? We just did, Cameron seriously our Warner Brothers discovery yesterday. Puke as you call it. Okay, how does that handle by tax saw selling? Well? I think that it will magnify as we go into the end of the year. You look at the areas that are down the most. This is small caps, This is cyclicals, This is healthcare some of your defensives. These are the areas where people are looking for tax sace harvesting opportunities. The key point though, is that they're smaller weights in the index or they're not part of the index. So when we just look at the S and P five hundred, that could be something that supports it into end year. So help me here. Am I buying the index the S and P five hundred? And am I looking for buying opportunities in small camps? The financials, things that have struggled? What am I doing? I think that you have to look for opportunities and things that have struggled as you go into twenty twenty four, because we know that pain trades usually are reversal trades in leadership and just at the point where everybody throws in the towel and says, well, you can't own anything but the magnificent seven. These are the names that give you optionality on AI and they have the best earnings growth. Everybody crowds into them, that's typically the moment that that's when they start to lag. And so I think we have to have the imagination that other things could do well in twenty twenty four. Other than just the narrow leadership that we've had this year, the Tilson Slock of Apollo's writing questions for us this morning. This is the question he's asking in its most recent note. Everyone who's bullish on equities and lower rated credit should ask them sound where they think the labor market will be in three months. With the Fed on hold and not showing any signs of cutting anytime soon, what's your labor market bed With that in mind, we are having the ultimate debate is if we're seeing normalization or we're seeing weakening. And the challenge is that normalization is usually the gateway drug two weakening, meaning that you see a little easing that turns into a lot of easing. But we're not yet seeing definitive data yet to say that the uplift we've had in unemployment is going to barrel higher. The key thing to remember, though, the Fed itself in its SEP the Summary Economic Projections has unemployment going to four point one percent next year and they're not forecasting a recession. So that's going to be a key question of if we get that four point one percent, does that justify them easing policy? Is it okay to sort of say we don't care for now. Down the line, whatever happens will happen. In the meantime, we can dance in the head of a pin with oil prices coming off, yield coming lower, and risk appetite still available. Yeah, because if we think going into CPI next week, remember that gasoline prices are down ten percent over the month of October. That's very different over the summer months where gas prices were up a lot. It pinched consumer spending maybe a little bit at the margin. So that does create this beneficial environment. But I think it's important to remember twenty twenty two, we priced in the earnings recession. In twenty twenty three, twenty three, we priced in the earnings recovery in twenty four. What are we going to price in twenty twenty four as we looked at twenty twenty five, are we still confident that this entire economic setup can remain very strong, that unemployment won't be an issue, consumer spending can remain robust Given the lack of certainty around some of the outcomes, the potential outcomes with the economy, How nimble are you remaining How are you remaining nimble? To be able to adjust quickly. I think we have to remain completely nimble. We saw that over thet last couple of weeks where we went from deeply oversold to deeply over to getting close to being overbought. It means that technicals become really important. We can't get too lodged into narratives because narratives would have told you everything's ending back a couple of weeks ago. Be scared. Now the narratives are saying everything is fantastic. The thing is that we are at resistance when we look at technical levels forty four hundred very important for the s and P five hundred four and a half percent very important support for the tenure. How we interact with those resistance and support levels will be very indicative of the next couple of months. Speak to the people who listened to you and said, Okay, I'm really nervous, but I'm going to participate in this market and they own tech which literally on an hourly basis, has a bid right now. What's the character of that bid on the Magnificent seven. Well, it's extraordinarily strong. But then think about the difference in the setup going into twenty twenty two Magnificent seven earnings had been cut by about twenty percent over the course of the year. Now going into twenty twenty three, over the course of twenty three, Magnificent seven earnings had been revised higher by sixty seventy percent sent on average because of the better growth that they've had. So it's a much higher bar and I think that's where the discipline is is not trying to extrapolate too much of the experience of twenty three, get too crowded, and instead look for opportunities and areas that might be more left behind. You've been talking, Cameron about how difficult it is to follow the mood because it swings so massively from week to week. How much has the move that we've seen in yields underpinned your conviction that you can lean into the rally heading into your end. It certainly has helped. We've seen it play out in the valuation and now valuations are back to about eighteen and a half time's earnings. The question is is that the right valuation even given where yields are at four and a half percent, where that equity risk premium is The challenge with valuations though, is they are terrible timing tools and that they have no predictive power on a one year forward basis. So we can look at the market and say, hey, it's expensive here, expensive there, but that may not actually show up in price action for two, three, four years. And that's where that discipline of not chasing very high valuations comes in. When you have a longer holding period, you go breaking news TK on donuts? Is that where you want to go? DONI plural don't I? Yeah? Yeah, longer going far away the way a prime broker attracted a hedge fund. We can get you shares of krispy Kreme short. There's a in the East Coast, particularly in the krispy Kreme's more southern thing, and they're a different don I than what you get from Dunkin Donuts, which is, you know, there's cultures here. John, It's like it's like Greg's, but it's like American. Okay, all of a sudden, krispy Kreme nice video on radio. You are missing the making of the Magnificent. And the answer here is krispy Kreme is looking for a partnership with McDonald's. John Tower out with this and it's a mixed story of Ibada out there. But John Tower, a city group says first bite on d n ut. It's a McDonald's partnership that we may see. Do you know what you don't know? And I know this story already because Bramo shared it with me before Bramo breaking into the news industry and Fargo years and years ago for the first Crispy Kreme shop tre Tree story, true story. I covered it and people lined up. They camped out overnight to get the first Krispy krama. I went to interview that. You can't imagine that Bramo was what Bradma was like in local news, right, just get into a fluff. It was like, it's an investive piece. What are they doing with that? Money? Is unreal? Bramo and Farco, Yeah, I'm enough of a dunkin donut, which Krispy Kreme is just two sugary and sweet. Like camera doesn't help us out here, Krispy Kreamer duncan, he's never had a donut. There is nothing better than a hot, fresh Krispy Kreme donut straight from the friar. Nothing better, all right? The scripting at me in the control room shot there. Please let's make sure we're running at nine o'clock today. Look for Cameron Dawson had Krispy Creekdnie. What you need to know is it's April of twenty eleven. There was a show then Game of Thrones Winter Is Coming was the first episode. And that's where we are right now. With the screaming success in days of Blue Eye Samurai on Netflix. I'm watching it. I can't say enough about the shocking beauty of it. It is overwhelming, how it is game changing for streaming. Keitha Raganathan knows this. She's US media analyst at Bloomberg Intelligence. And I would suggest Disney knows this as well. Githa boyd A's Disney need a Blue Eye Samurai. They certainly do. And that's one thing Tom that Bob Iger really emphasized yesterday. He said he is looking to reinvent the studio. Those are the words he used, and he really emphasized quality over quantity. So you spoke about how spectacular Blue Eyed summariz that's exactly what Disney is going to go after. You know, they talked about, you know, the studio having some kind of franchise fatigue. Too many TV series created for the streaming service. They're really kind of streaming down or cutting down, I would say, pairing down on a lot of the content costs. You know, Lisa was talking about where those savings are going to come from, a lot of that is them just really cutting down on content costs. So they took down content costs from thirty billion to twenty seven billion. For fiscal twenty twenty three, they're taking that down further to twenty five billion, and that is where you get that big, big free cash flow number for them as well. Eight billion dollars is what they're projecting for twenty twenty four, or sixty percent increase from this year. Now I get it, it's anime, it's animation, but the basic idea is blue Eyed Samurai is is non diversity as we could get in twenty twenty three. Is Disney moving on from the tone and temperament of the last three or four years. Is Eiger going back to something or new to something different? I think it's a it's a combination of everything, a tom because you know, he needs to go back to the drawing board. He knows that there hasn't really been a new Star Wars or a lucasfilm movie since twenty nineteen. Obviously, the Marvels is in its next kind of iteration, if you will. So there's a lot of things that he needs to do. But the biggest thing I think for them for the Disney studio, and this has kind of been a little bit shocking. And you bring up animation, and that's a really good point because a lot of their recent animated movies have actually not performed as well as you know, some of us would have expected. And the Pixar has kind of been, you know, has had kind of this string of misfires, if you will. And the studio that is really kind of giving them a run for the money is Universal with Illumination. We had, you know, you have Super Mario, you had Minions, all of these animated movies from Universal doing really really well. So Disney obviously going back to the drawing board and kind of doing a lot of rethinking and as Bob Iger said, reinventing the whole franchise. If Bob Biker was the movie is this nightmare the same quote, that's that's a great knocking well. I mean, he tried his best. And if there is you know, any person for the job, any person who can actually fix and rebuild Disney. I think it definitely is Bob Biger and he, you know, kind of delivered signature Bob Biger kind of news yesterday. You know, lots of good news, lots of nuggets of you know, lots of nuggets of good good, you know, optimistic news for investors to kind of hang on to. Obviously, there is a lot of work that remains to be done, but we do know that there are some real growth drivers for Disney. Whether it's the parks business that is seventy percent of Disney's operating income, you know, throwing out about ten billion dollars in operating profits and cash flow. So that definitely is is a huge growth pillar for the company. And then of course it is streaming and how they're kind of going to manage that whole business. You know, we know that they're in the process of consolidating Hulu. You know, the big question is how they're going to manage the esp and transition. And you know, whether that then that Disney bundle, the streaming bundle, really becomes the competitor, a true competitor to Netflix. Is rebuilding a euphemism for shutting it down in terms of streamlining certain businesses and getting off selling the rest of it. Yeah, so he seemed to actually walk back a little bit of you know, the linear TV commentary. I know we've talked a lot about ABC and some of the other networks kind of being up for sale, but he also did say that there is a huge cost opportunity when it comes to you know, those linear networks, and so they've actually, you know, the Charter deal that they recently inked was was kind of a catalyst for them kind of you know, shutting down a lot of you know, the smaller networks networks that they are that they don't consider core, and I think that's what they're going to do. They are definitely going to streamline the business. You're absolutely right, Lisa. I'm not sure when or how the sale is necessarily going to happen, but he did Eigers seem to suggest that even if a sale doesn't happen right away, there are a lot of synergies and there are a lot of cost efficiencies that they can hopefully extract over the next few months. Okay, so this one's a tough one to answer, but explore the question with us if you can. Tom mentioned who's buying. If they're selling, who's buying Where did the buyers come from? So it could be private equity. I mean we know that there have there has been interest from certain parties Byron Island, but Byron Allen was one who kind of made a bid for for you know, the ABC and some of the networks. You know, again, private equity would always is interested in, you know, the TV assets because they do. Yes, it is an industry that is in secular decline, but at the end of the day, it does throughout a lot of cash and that is valuable. So yeah, again it's a little bit of a wait and watch. I mean there have been there has been some chatter about whether the leagues would be interested in kind of going and getting a broadcast asset. I mean broadcast assets like ABC don't come up for sale very often, so you know, maybe it is something that that the league and a leak can potentially consider for reach interesting. Gaitha, appreciate the update. You'll valuable. We appreciate your time. Geithor Reconnaz and the have Bloomberg Intelligence. Ellen Wall joining us now Senior Fellow at the Atlantic Council and author of Saudi Inc. Ellen to that point, Saudi's energy minister came out and said, it has nothing to do with demand, This is just price manipulation. Demand is still very strong. What did you make of that? Well, I think that he always has a bone to pick with the as he called him, the speculators, So I'm not surprised to see him talking about how, you know, this is all a financial thing and it's all due to speculators and it's not a you know, supply demand issue. But I think, you know, obviously there's always you know, speculation in the market, and we did see a whole lot of fund managers dumping oil off the futures this past week, so I'm sure he's focused on that. But the fact remains that the market is reacting to what it thinks is lower demand from China, and whether or not that's actually true, I think remains to be seen. It's always difficult to gauge what exactly is going on in China. What the market's reacting to was news that refining margins are soft, and you know, Chinese refineries aren't making as much, and so you know they're interpreting that as weak demand. Now, how does that translate into whether China reduces its imports, and there was some indication that they are going to be reducing oil imports. In fact, one of the interesting things that we've seen is that Iranian oil exports in September and October have been lower than they were in August. They hit a big high in August, but now we're seeing declines and there's some speculation that may be due to the sanctions enforcement, but it's much more likely due to declining demand from China. And we've got Saudi y A holding a million barrels a day off the market. I do think Saudi Arabia is in the best position to be able to gauge Chinese demand, and it may be that this Chinese demand is looking a bit soft now. But you know, Abdozi's been someone is looking at the longer picture and the longer game, and he sees that that is strong well. And with great respect to your book, which is definitive, we can take these tensions at least back to the Saudi Yemeni War of nineteen thirty four. The Ibn Saud family has dealt with this for pushing one hundred years the distance to the south. Give us the modern treatment of how Riodd and Jiada look at Yemen today. Yemen is basically a thorn in their side right now. They don't like the Houthies, any group like the Houthies has Bulah Hamas. All of those groups, while well, you might think that ideologically there are similarities and matchups there, they are essentially a threat to the Saudi monarchy. The Saudi monarchy is like, you know, they're they're like the stated old you know, conservative guy who always votes the same way and always says the same thing for breakfast. You know, they're they're the status quo. And any group that's looking to change the status quo, even if there are similarities in terms of say religious extremism or religious ideology, that's seen as a threat. And what's a bit disturbing is that despite prolonged military campaigns by the Saudis and the UAE, they haven't been able to dislodge the Whoi's from Yemen. In fact, if anything, they're more entrenched. And so I do think that given the fact that the who these are at least claiming to be involved in the Israel Hamas conflict, you'll be interesting to see if the Saudis maybe use this as an excuse to really try to get them out of Yemen once and for all, or if they'll be a bit embarrassed by somebody else taking them out. And then the conservative guy, as you call Saudi Arabia their treatment of the shades of Palestine, how do you interpret that, doctor Wald? Now that that is a big question, because what we've got on one hand is King Salmon, who is nominally the king of Saudi Arabia, and he is vehemently I mean vehemently anti Israel pro Palestinian. I mean, this is a guy who thinks that, you know, the Mossad was responsible for nine to eleven and has said so, you know, in public on television. So he is a huge barrier to any kind of reprochement between Saudi Arabia and Israel. That being said, his son, who's really doing most of the ruling, the day to day ruling, seems much more inclined to use rapprochemant with Israel as a way to get what he wants or what he thinks he needs from the United States. And in fact, it seemed like that was about to be a very successful deal before this latest conflict derailed all that, and I don't think that the general battle, you know, the general lines that are drawn here are going to change. But I do think, you know, if if King Solomon wasn't wasn't there, I think we'd see a much faster progression towards Saudi Israeli normalization. I don't think we're going to see quite with the UAE or Jordan has But I do think that that he that that NBS sees it as a beneficial thing or at least a really good UH tool to get other things that he needs, like support for obtaining nuclear power and military pact with the United States. Just real quick here, how does Saudi Arabia view the production in the US. It's gotten to a record level and made all of these concerns about demand. I think that they they have kind of come to terms with the fact that the US is going to produce, with the US is going to produce, and there really isn't much they can do about it. I think they were probably pretty pleased to see that there's more consolidation in the oil industry. I think that they see that as good for production and for companies who are looking at the signs of supply and demand and aren't just pumping, pumping, pumping just to stay ahead the way that we saw in twenty fifteen, twenty sixteen, and so I think that they see this as you know, this is where it is right now, and it's not always necessarily going to be this high. Ell in a wonderful brief, particularly those comments on Yemen. Thank you so much, Ellen Wald. Atlanta Council can't say enough about Saudi inc. It is absolutely definitive. Subscribe to the Bloomberg Surveillance podcast on Apple, Spotify and anywhere else you get your podcasts. Listen live every weekday starting at seven am Eastern Bloomberg dot Com, the iHeartRadio app tune In, and the Blue Bomberg Business app. You can watch us live on Bloomberg Television and always. I'm the Bloomberg Terminal. Thanks for listening. I'm Tom Keen, and this is BloombergSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

This episode is an interview with Catherine Musemeche who wrote a fascinating biogrpahy on Mary Sears, titled: Lethal Tides: Mary Sears and the Marine Scientists Who Helped Win World War II. It tells the story of how the U.S. Navy was unprepared to enact its island-hopping strategy to reach Japan when World War II began and how oceanographers came to the rescue. Our efforts were severely hindered in that there was inadequate data on  tides, planning for coral reefs, etc. - to enact effective amphibious landing. Mary Sears, an overlooked oceanographer with untapped talent who, along with her team, became instrumental in turning the tide of the war in the United States' favor. Episode Markers (in mins:secs)Introduction (0:0)Start of Interview (2:12)Early Education (5:13)History of Woods Hole Oceanographic Inst. (7:45)Mary Sears Life in 1941 (11:30)Return to Woods Hole (15:50)Difficult Island Landings(Pacific) & Tarawa Island (19:36)Using Data from Mary Sears Reports (27:06)Mary Sears - becoming a Naval Officer (37:35)Recognition of Mary Sears (40:42)Inspiration for Book (45:16)This book is far more than a biography, and it weaves the multiple story lines – of our war efforts in the Pacific, the efforts of these scientists to bring about the critical victories and of course the incredible life of Mary Sears.Amazon Link to BookBook reviews - Kirkus & Barnes and NobleAs mentioned in this episode, Kate will be speaking at a December WW2 conference (at this link). Catherine “Kate” Musemeche is a graduate of the University of Texas McGovern Medical School in Houston, Texas and the University of Texas School of Law. Musemeche's first book, Small, was longlisted for the E.O. Wilson/Pen American Literary Science Award and was awarded the Texas Writer's League Discovery Prize for Nonfiction in 2015. Her second book, Hurt, was named one of the top ten EMS books of the decade. She has also contributed to Smithsonian Magazine, the Wall Street Journal,  New York Times' “Motherlode” blog, KevinMD.com, Creative Nonfiction magazine and EMS World. She lives in Austin, Texas. Website: https://peoplehiddeninhistory.comDirect linkWebsite with all Podcast Episodes/All PlatformsContact PageTwitter(X)/Instagram: @phihpod

In the face of necessary reality checks and the inherent ups and downs of starting and running a coffee shop, there must always exist the foundational idea that "You can do this" and "It is possible". That belief in possibility is what drives today's guest whoI am honored to call a good friend, Michael Ryan of Threadbare Coffee Consulting. Michael is a published author, international speaker, and Certified Business Coach. He is a Licensed Q Grader, SCA Certified Instructor, and Level 1 Wine Sommelier. He is also a Certified Health & Wellness Coach. Michael has over 13 years of experience in the coffee industry during which he has worked everywhere from the headquarters of Starbucks to local coffee companies. He spent 8 years as the Operations Manager for a multi-location cafe + roastery that was doing $5MM+ in annual revenue.  Michael has been working with clients doing training, coaching, and consulting. His clients have included startups, importers, roasters, cafes, and companies doing all of the above. Michael is an expert in building a healthy cafe + roastery business that takes great care of people, starting with the owner. In our conversation we talk about Ryan's work to help people build great businesses and what the key principles and practices are to achieve success and fulfillment in the process.  Links: https://threadbarecoffeeconsulting.com/ @Threadbarecoffeeconsulting Related Episodes: 374: Opening a Coffee Shop: Fantasy vs Reality (w/ bonus commentary)” 414: Secret Ingredients for a Successful Coffee Shop

We're continuing on our iconic deep-sea habitat trilogy with the episode you've all been waiting for… HYDROTHERMAL VENTS! In this jam-packed episode we cover forgotten Christmas specials, lebensspuren, deep-sea sandwiches and climate crisis sea-shanties (and that's only in the first 20 minutes)!  We speak to the incredible Charles “Chuck” Fisher, a pivotal biologist in hydrothermal vent research, about these fascinating habitats and the organisms which exist there. We learn about the iconic tube-worms and their specialised adaptations to life in these extreme environments. Plus, Chuck does some of his own myth-busting and sets the record straight on a common tube worm trope.  Don shares his own experiences of these impressive habitats (and the not-so-impressive lunches that came alongside them). Plus, we hear from you in the form of listener questions, children's books and (another?!) deep-sea conspiracy theory. Buckle-up for a big one!   Check out our podcast merch here! Which now includes Alan's beloved apron and a much anticipated new design...    Feel free to get in touch with us with questions or your own tales from the high seas on: podcast@armatusoceanic.com We'd love to actually play your voice so feel free to record a short audio note!   We are also on  Twitter: @DeepSeaPod, @ArmatusO Facebook: DeepSeaPodcast, ArmatusOceanic  Instagram: @deepsea_podcast, @armatusoceanic   Keep up with the team on social media We've been off-piste for a while now so we thought we'd jump straight back into the deep sea with a series of episodes on deep-sea habitats. We're starting off strong with a huge episode on seamounts! We speak to a friend of the show, Ashley Rowden who's an expert in all-things benthic and we find out why seamounts are just so cool. We also get a little distracted and reminisce about the ultimate offshore championship: sausage-fest.  We get to hear from the scientists on board the RRS Discovery who are currently on an expedition to discover the life that exists on the seamounts surrounding St Helena and the Ascension Islands. A couple of our friends on board also recall their ‘crossing the line' experience, and how they're finding working on board a research vessel. We have huge news! You'll be very excited to hear that we have released a new design for our merch, featuring our favourite parasite - the tongue-eating isopod, Cymothoa exigua! A perfect gift this holiday season for the whole family.  Check out our podcast merch here! Which now includes Alan's beloved apron and a much anticipated new design...    Feel free to get in touch with us with questions or your own tales from the high seas on: podcast@armatusoceanic.com   We'd love to actually play your voice so feel free to record a short audio note!   We are also on  Twitter: @DeepSeaPod, @ArmatusO   Facebook: DeepSeaPodcast, ArmatusOceanic    Instagram: @deepsea_podcast, @armatusoceanic   Keep up with the team on social media Twitter:  Alan - @Hadalbloke Thom - @ThomLinley Georgia - @geeinthesea   Instagram:  Georgia - @geeinthesea    Read the show notes and find out more about us at: www.armatusoceanic.com   Glossary Annelid - The name for segmented worms. Biogeography - The study of the present and past distribution patterns of biological diversity and their underlying environmental and historical causes. Calcareous - Containing calcium carbonate. Escarpia - A genus of tube worm found at cold seeps. Invasive species - An organism that typically causes ecological or economic harm in a new environment where it is not native. Lamellibrachia - A type of cold seep tubeworm related to the giant tube worm, Riftia pachyptila Larvae - A juvenile form before transforming into adults. Lebensspuren - Meaning “life-traces”, an ecological term referring to the tracks made by benthic organisms.  Müllspuren - “Meaning “bag-traces”, referring to the unnatural traces plastic bags leave behind on the seafloor. Osedax - Bone-eating worms which live in the deep sea, typically on whale carcasses. Riftia pachyptila - The giant tubeworm found at hydrothermal vents in the deep-sea. Symbiotic - A mutually beneficial relationship between different organisms. Trophosome - specialised sac in tube worms where chemosynthetic bacteria are housed Vestimentiferan tubeworm - A taxon of marine deep-sea worm-like animals living in chitinous tubes and lack a digestive tract.   Links Chuck's research group Chuck's article on hydrothermal vent communities Chuck's article on cold seeps in the Gulf of Mexico Deep sea species on Australian coins Alan's new paper on müllspuren. Deep sea sandwiches, in the news and the original published article Most deep-sea microbes are inactive, in the news and the original published article James Cameron comes on the podcast Top 10 Deep sea Creatures 2022 Oly and Opi: The curious octopus twins children's story Jake Hewitt photography   Oli Frost - The Pirate Emergency Youtube Spotify   Credits Theme – Hadal Zone Express by Märvel Logo image Image courtesy of Chuck Fisher and WHOI

Today DeLoss Jahnke talks with Lance Zimmerman with RaboResearch about the Global Animal Protein Outlook for 2023. We then hear from Deanne Frieders, This Farm Girl Cooks and get a weather forecast from Balint Szalavari with WHOI and WEEK in Peoria.

Show note links: Download The Positive Pants Toolkit App https://franexcell.com/positive-pants-toolkit-app Freebies: Grab your FREE ‘Stressed To Success' meditation: https://bit.ly/stressedtosuccess  Book in a free discovery call: https://calendly.com/franexcell/20min Ways to work with me: 1:1: https://franexcell.com/work-with-me SOS! (Success Over Stress) Group Programme (Coming back winter 2022!) Join The Positive Pants Toolkit App https://franexcell.com/positive-pants-toolkit-app Enneagram Essentials 90 minute 1:1 & Guide book https://app.moonclerk.com/pay/2b6wubgnysrp Products: Grab Your 365 day Gratitude Journal on Amazon:https://bit.ly/365daygratitude  Grab Your Positive Pants Firmly On Notebook:https://bit.ly/positivepantsonbook  Contact: Make sure you're following me on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/imfranexcell/ and tag me into your key takeaways! Email me at hello@franexcell.com with any questions or take aways! For more, head over to: www.franexcell.com/ Things To Pay Attention To Daily   There are some simple things to pay attention to daily that, when you do, can really have a huge effect on your life and the way you feel.   If you've been listening to me for any amount of time you'll know my passion is helping people be a little more conscious of the way we tick as humans, how society forms a lot of our opinions and ways of thinking and how our childhood and experiences do the same.   The vast majority of the world is roaming around completely unaware of themselves.    And you simply can't change anything when you're existing on auto pilot.   When those same negative thoughts and beliefs are looping in your brain.   I believe that we are all capable of change. But it starts with awareness.  Consciousness.    This is why I love the Enneagram so much because it shortcuts so much of the awareness piece and it is so transformative because once you know…you know!   You can't unlearn it.   Add to that the huge self compassion and self understanding that comes with it and the compassion for others   We kind of walk around believing that everyone thinks the same way we do.    At the same time we know it couldn't be further from the truth based on our experiences.   There are a few things that you can start to really pay attention to daily that will help with the awareness piece.    It will also help you consistently keep moving towards incremental growth and to be able to notice little incremental changes that you can make on a daily basis to keep moving you towards the life you want to live.   Whatever that looks like for you.   For me it's peace, ease and flexibility.  Happiness. Calm.    It might look different for you but that is my inner compass.  Knowing that means I can ask myself the right questions on a daily basis of if what I'm doing is moving me towards or away from that.   So let's go through a few of the things you can start to notice daily now.   Notice what gives you energy.   This might be something you physically do.  It could be certain people you're around.  It might be certain things you eat or drink.   For me some of the things that give me energy are really looking after myself through exercise.  Even when I don't want to do it, I ALWAYS feel better afterwards.  I feel sluggish when I haven't moved.    Mr Milo doggo pants gives me energy.   Being outside gives me energy.  Sunlight gives me energy.   Earl grey tea in the morning somehow gives me energy…which is totally psychosomatic because I drink decaf ha!   Being with my girlfriends gives me energy. Great conversation gives me energy.   Singing and dancing gives me energy.   So how does noticing this help?  Well, when you KNOW what gives you energy and you also know you want to have more of it you can consciously do more of the things that give you energy!   Notice what saps your energy   Same thing, This might be something you physically do.  It could be certain people you're around.  It might be certain things you eat or drink.   Junk food saps my energy.  Doesn't mean I don't eat it…comfort eating was something I learned at a very young age and I get a lot of joy from my food BUT I'm sensible about how much and when.  I know when it could be problematic for me. As an example, i'd never eat junk food if i've got client calls. It totally saps my energy and I want to be on top form!  In fact any big meal in the day does so I save that for my dinner.  Otherwise I need a nap! That's just me…i'm not advising you to do the same ha!   I'm super tuned into people's authenticity so when I'm around someone whoI feel isn't authentic I politely make my excuses to leave. The same applies to small talk.  If it's not a genuine connection I struggle. I actually want to start another podcast for in depth interviews for people who feel the same.  This is one of the reasons I often struggle in the online industry and if I don't feel like I can be super genuine or authentic I don't really want to show up. I'm not labelling that as good, bad, right or wrong…just interesting to notice.    There's some obvious things too like not enough sleep or a hangover of course but i'm talking about the slightly more subtle energy suckers. They're the things you really want to notice.   When you understand these things about yourself you can make changes or seek the solutions that get around those obstacles. Without the awareness you aren't able to do that.   Notice what makes you feel grateful   Same, same! The what's and the who's that you might take for granted. When you intentionally seek gratitude you wire your brain to find more of it.    Notice what makes you not feel good about yourself   This is a biggie and something that often remains unconscious and on autopilot until you see it and are able to challenge it. Things can feel so ‘normal' to us that it's not questioned. It's a feeling we're so used to that we forget we have a choice to be around it or not.   Notice what brings you joy   My favourite. I've been talking a lot recently about chasing joy. It's something we can so easily have, without it having to cost anything, and yet it's so easily overlooked.   Chase it, intentionally. Seek the little things that bring you joy. When you notice them you'll be amazed how much joy you can bring into your life even when things feel hard!    Notice what's not working for you   Another one I talk about a lot. Sometimes we can feel a low level of dissatisfaction without actually being conscious of what specifically is causing it.    When you get to the root of it you can do something about it! This is another one I talk about a lot. Check out the sunk cost fallacy episode next if this one strikes a chord.   Notice how you feel after doing certain things   This is genuinely how I got into my exercise habit. Well, most of the habits I have now to be fair. It's very easy to focus on things feeling like a bit of a ‘chore' or like something you HAVE to do.  Noticing how you feel AFTER doing them vs the before is the game changer.   I feel 10x better in myself after exercise, meditation, heartmath, sitting in the hottub at the gym. This is again how you move incrementally towards feeling more of how you want to feel.  Notice it and try to name the feeling.    I don't exercise to lose weight.  Even though I piled it on over the pandemic and with my bad knees. It's simply a glorious side effect to something I'm doing anyway now. Shift the focus. Notice how it makes you feel.   Notice where you feel resistant   Finally for today is this one. Where do you feel resistant?  What specifically are you resisting? There are a lot of clues in your resistance!   So, there we have it.  This isn't exhaustive of course but my goodness if you start to notice some of these things the changes can be phenomenal.   So enjoy your noticing this week!    As always if you want a little help on the self awareness front you can book in an Enneagram Essentials call with me. You, me, an hour and a half of helping you understand your unconscious programming and how to go about creating changes…glorious! You'll find the link in the show notes, on the @enneagramandexcell instagram link or just pop me a DM and I'll send it to you!   Fx   Fran Excell, Success Mindset Mentor at www.franexcell.com - Helping Business Owners & Executives Overcome Stress & Self Sabotage so they can get back their time, get off the emotional rollercoaster and feel more in control.  RESOURCES: Check out The Positive Pants Podcast Here Download your FREE Stressed To Success Meditation Here Join The Positive Pants Toolkit App Here Work with me. Book In a Free 20 Minute Discovery Call Here

October 10th is World Mental Health Day and this year's theme is Mental Health & Well-Being for All: a Global Priority. I will be in conversation with Antoniëtte Geerman from Respaldo and Jahë Bikker - Plus Universal Queen International 2022, to discuss this topic. "We must deepen the value and commitment we give to mental health as individuals, communities and governments and match that value with more commitment, engagement and investment by all stakeholders, across all sectors.  We must strengthen mental health care so that the full spectrum of mental health needs is met through a community-based network of accessible, affordable and quality services and supports." - WHOI couldn't agree more and I look forward to discussing this topic. Sincerely,Carolina Sincerely, Carolina is powered by Sopi Mix Studio, Lindy Boutique, Proframe Aruba, Neutrogena & Tropic Ale#sopimix #aruba #podcast #sincerelycarolina #islandvibes #islandlife #onehappyislandSupport the show

In this month's episode of The American Blue Economy Podcast, our host Rear Admiral (ret) Tim Gallaudet conducts the fourth and final show in a subseries featuring leading women wavemakers in the American Blue Economy where his guests include blue economy leaders at universities in 3 geographic areas. First up is Dr. Leila Hamdan, Interim Associate Vice President of Research and Professor at The University of Southern Mississippi. Next in line is Amy Kukulya, Principal Investigator, underwater roboticist, and expedition leader at WHOI. Rounding out the group is Vanessa Scott, Director of Corporate Affiliates, Business Development, Industry Outreach & Innovation, and Director of StartBlue Accelerator at Scripps Institution of Oceanography|. Be ready to be inspired by these 3 remarkable role models!

As we all kick off Climate Week, we are beyond excited to share this Special Edition COBT! Late last week, we traveled to Woods Hole, Massachusetts to meet Dr. Peter de Menocal, President and Director of the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution (WHOI), a leading independent non-profit organization founded over 90 years ago with a nimble and entrepreneurial approach to science. Peter was elected as the 11th President of WHOI in October of 2020 following an extensive 30+ year career at Columbia University. After a tour of their impressive facilities including discussions and demonstrations with key scientists and team members at WHOI, Colin Fenton and I were delighted to visit with Peter and talk about WHOI's passion for understanding what is 70 percent of any Earth equation... the ocean! We covered an extensive amount of territory in the discussion, starting with the breadth and depth of WHOI's operations, the scope, scale, and promise of the ocean's carbon-storing capabilities (for detailed research see "A Research Strategy for Ocean-based Carbon Dioxide Removal and Sequestration" published by the National Academies), how WHOI's location in Cape Cod allows easy access to deep water research, the organization's partnerships with the Navy, NASA, NSF, and NOAA, the stunning scope of WHOI's work (over 800 simultaneous projects at any one time), Peter's mission to see what can be accomplished in the next ten years and his commitment and emphasis on having the courage to pursue big challenges, the organization's independent culture and focus on an entrepreneurial spirit and action, and much much more. With so much left to discover in the ocean, Peter also shared several pioneering areas WHOI is researching including the Ocean Twilight Zone, Alvin discoveries, the Ocean Vital Signs network, and a partnership they have formed to commercialize WHOI technologies (“Propeller Project”). WHOI has several key initiatives and we also touch on their Ocean Observatories Initiative or “OOI.” In OOI, WHOI makes its gathered ocean data available to all as a public service to the global science community. We were blown away by the entire experience and are excited to share our findings with you. Again, we can't thank Peter and the team at WHOI enough for their hospitality and for sharing their time, expertise, and important work. Keep up the great work WHOI!  And big thanks to all of you for your friendship and support!

In this new episode of Hoisting the Sail, we are delighted to welcome two guests from the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institute:  Kerry Ann Crehan-Strøm, the Marine Operations Coordinator for WHOI and Magdalena Andres, associate scientist physical oceanography and an expert on climate variability & impacts.Magdalena and Kerry are speaking with our host Kat about Science RoCS, i.e. Research on Commercial Ships, an initiative launched to answer the need for increased ocean monitoring. According to NOAA, 80% of the ocean is still unmapped, unobserved, and unexplored:  Science RoCs aims to fill in some gaps with the help of the  shipping industry. Since Science RoCS started in 2021, companies such as CMA CGM, Pangaea Logistics Solutions and Wallenius Wilhelmsen have already helped deploy equipments and collected important datas. Today there are an estimated 100 ocean-going research vessels worldwide and more than 50,000 commercial ships on the ocean at any given time: "it will be a game changer to have sensors on more commercial vessels", Strom said. "Imagine what we could accomplish in terms of science advancement with even just a one percent of the commercial fleet equipped."

Love to learn about the wonders of engineering and technology? Don't miss this fabulous episode with snippets from AMAZING engineering!! Dr. Arturo Dominguez discusses (How To Hold the Sun in a Donut), Dr. Anna Michel chats abt (How to Design a Sensor to Learn about the Deep Ocean) and Jim Geffre (How Will We Send Astronauts Back to the Moon). Scientists/engineers from Princeton's Plasma Physics Lab, WHOI and NASA will take you to the edges of new technology! 

[✐1. Adagio] Ask back briefly with interrogative words[00:07]Hello everyone. Let's keep up the good work today!  We practice how to ask back briefly.  [00:13]   Repeat after me1. When?2. What time?3. Where?4. With who?5. What day of the week?6. What month?7. What date / what day of the month?8. Why?[01:03]You didn't really get what your friend just said. Ask again briefly with ♫ the interrogative words.For example,♫ whenI will go to Japan next year.→ [you say] Pardon/Sorry, when?Ready?[01:22]1. ♫whenI'll go to a university in Japan.→ Pardon, when?  2. ♫what timeMy friend comes at 7 O'clock.→Sorry, what time?3. ♫whereThere is a book store in front of the station.→ Pardon, where?4. ♫with whoI went to the concert with Caroline san.→ Sorry, with who?5. ♫what dayI have a Japanese class every Tuesday.→ Pardon, what day?6. ♫what monthJapanese schools start at April.   → Sorry, what month?  7. ♫whoGeorge san will come tomorrow.→ Pardon, who?   8. ♫what I ate Sukiyaki yesterday.→ Sorry, what?  9. ♫who and whoHonda san and Suzuki san got married.→ Pardon, who and who?   10. ♫what colourMy car is yellow.→ Sorry, what colour?  11. ♫2 o'clock tomorrowThe parcel will come at 2 o'clock tomorrow.→ Pardon, what time tomorrow?(nimotsu = parcel, package, baggage)12. ♫who's motherThat person is a mother of Sam san.→ Sorry, who's mother?  13. ♫map of whereThis is a map of Kuala Lumpur.→ Pardon, map of where?  (chizu = map)14. ♫whose sneaker/trainersThis is my young brother's sneakers. → Sorry, whose sneakers?15. ♫what(how many) kilogramThat person weighs 200 kg.→ Pardon, how many kilo(gram)?(taijuu = body weight)[04:25]Next, after listening to a sentence, please answer the question.  [04:29]For example, I'm going on a trip to Sydney next year. Where?→ [you answer] (It's) Sydney.★★★★★Become a patron: More episodes with full translation and Japanese transcripts. You'll get access to the members-only podcast feed that you can subscribe to in your smartphone app. Japanese Swotter on PatreonNote: English translations might sound occasionally unnatural as English, as I try to preserve the structure and essence of the original Japanese. I hope it also helps you to capture the pattern of the sentence structure.Support the show

Ever wonder how scientists get information about the ocean? They use sensors! Take a listen to this awesome chat with Dr. Anna Michel, Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution, associate scientist and ocean engineer as she explains how this works. Take a deep dive into ocean engineering! 

Although they may appear to be worlds apart, Allison's previous career in marketing provided her with skills which have been indispensable in her role as the Associate Director of Technology Transfer at the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution (WHOI).  WHOI is at the forefront of ocean research and education, receiving $1 out of every $3 of NSF funding for ocean research. In today's episode, Allison shares how she and her “small but mighty” team of 2 (going on 3), are paving the way for inventors in the ocean space. We discuss the exciting changes they have made over the past few years, and how they are hoping to evolve and expand in the future. Our conversation also covers some of the challenges they are facing and how they are working to overcome them, progress that they have made with regard to enhancing diversity, equity, and inclusion (including opening up remote positions), and the positive impact that being involved in AUTM has had on her career.   In This Episode: [00:51] Introducing today's guest, Allison Markova. [02:02] Allison explains how she transitioned from a career in marketing to the technology transfer industry.  [04:35] An overview of the wide range of research being done by the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution (WHOI). [06:17] WHOI's sources of funding. [08:21] Allison explains the makeup of her “small but mighty team.” [12:00] The amount of internal outreach that Allison and her team have conducted in 2022.  [12:48] Examples of the external outreach that Allison and her team do in order to alleviate pressure on inventors. [14:47] What WHOI's greater emphasis on accelerating innovation has looked like over the past few years, and their exciting future plans in this realm. [18:59] Three of the biggest challenges that Allison and her team are currently dealing with.  [21:45] Progress that WHOI has made with regard to diversity, equity, and inclusion (DEI). [25:06] How remote and hybrid work environments are enhancing DEI.   [27:00] Allison's involvement in AUTM, and how this has benefitted her career. [28:44] Hopes that Allison has for the future of her office.   Find Allison: Email  

In this episode we connect with Dr. Christopher Reddy from Woods Hole Oceanographic Institute, known locally as ‘WHOI.

The Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution is the world's leader in ocean discovery, exploration, and education, working to understand and sustain one of humanity's most precious common resources.

The team sits down with  Douglas Mughan - the NSF office head for the convergence accelerator, Chris Sanford -  a program director with the accelerator, and Clea Harrelson -  2021 Knauss Marine policy fellow, to talk about what the National Science Foundation is hoping to achieve with this new program. We also speak with Fadel Adib - Doherty Chair of Ocean Utilization and Associate Professor at the MIT Media Lab and EECS and Seth Zippel - an assistant scientist at the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution who generated the idea. Letters of intent are due May 5th for this huge opportunity, learn more here.

This weeks episode I give you a sneak peek of what goes on in my head. I talk about my sexuality and how I've been trying to explore whoI am and what I want out of life.Support the show (https://www.instagram.com/hotmesscentralpod/)

Subscribe on Youtube: 3rs.lol/3RTube Joining #3RShow is a man WhoI have mentioned on this show many times as J Gunz. Now he's all grown up & is a businessman. We talk about life after the Marine Corps & how he started his business. All listen to his first time being on the podcast -> https://www.podbean.com/eu/pb-9ync8-66446e Follow Him!!Straight Shot LLC Firearms Training & Security InstaGram: @StraightshotllcTwitter: @Straightshotllc Email Straightshot912@gmail.com   CALL THE SHOW! Leave a "RANDOM' voicemail  304 TALK ROB  (304 825-5762)  30 day FREE Amazon Prime Trial http://amzn.to/2oQ8QW4 

How exactly are we impacting our own health, and the health of our future generations when we neglect the care of our oceans and waterways? Dr. John Stegemen Director of the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institute for Oceans and Human Health (a branch of WHOI), and Dr. Scott Meschke, Associate Chair in the Department of Environment and Occupational Health Sciences at the University of Washington, will break it all down for you in the special health focused episode. Join these special experts, as they unpack waterborne illnesses, pathogens, unsafe drinking and recreation water, chemical pollution, red tide, and beyond. There is a deep connection between oceans and human health. This connection is seen in many ways, but largely through the seafood we delight in eating. Dr. Stegemen explores the risks of eating contaminated seafood on our bodies, minds and lives. Our daily activities, the very activities that should help contribute to our #bluemind and benefit our health, unfortunately hold great risk when we don’t care for our waterways, drinking water and water sanitation. Dr. Meschke educates us about the different waterborne pathogens, and viruses present in our shower's water vapor, drinking water and even food rinse-water. --- Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/healthy-radio/support

In this episode we interview John Farrington, the Dean Emeritus from the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution whose research focused on marine organic geochemistry, biogeochemistry of organic chemicals of environmental concern, and the interaction between science and policy. We talk about his serendipitous journey via Marie Curie towards working at WHOI, his world travels as the Chief Scientist on several scientific cruises, his thoughts on how he has seen his field change, and some creative ways he has seen the art world and the science world collide.Support the show (http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/laboratory-podcast/)

In this episode we wrap up our interview with Biologist and Scientist Emeritus Judy McDowell. We talk about her thoughts on research as well as women in science, how she and her family have balanced work and life, and her advice to up and coming scientists.Support the show (http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/laboratory-podcast/)

In this episode Rene and Sam interview themselves! We wanted to take some time and formally introduce ourselves and explain a little bit more about where we come from and why we are creating this podcast. We talk about who we are, how we met, and interview each other with some super secret questions. Support the show (http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/laboratory-podcast/)

In this episode we interview Judy McDowell, a Biologist and Scientist Emeritus with Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution, who furthered the studies of adaptations of marine animals in naturally fluctuating conditions and environmental disturbances. We talk about her experiences in Woods Hole at the Oceanographic Institution, her appreciation for Rachel Carson, and how she has studied and shaped Environmental Policies throughout her career. Support the show (http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/laboratory-podcast/)

Mark Abbott, President and Director of the Wood's Hole Oceanographic Institution, sits down with colleague Dr. Greg Stone to talk about the institute's role as one of the world's largest private organizations in ocean research. Mark leads the conversation with how WHOI has adapted their mission to address the issues that are affecting today's critical climate crisis. From the fragility of the Gulf Stream to the Institute's exploration of the ocean's Twilight Zone, Mark provides us with amazing insight on why WHOI is leading the world in tracking and sampling changes in the world's oceans. Join acclaimed oceanographer and conservationist Dr. Greg Stone on a journey of understanding and hope through our oceans with The Sea Has Many Voices podcast: theseahasmanyvoices.com/ Greg Stone has been an advocate for ocean conservation, sustainable industry, and marine research for decades. Spreading these ideas requires conversation and collaboration if we want environmental sustainability. Follow The Sea Has Many Voices iTunes: podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-…es/id1462828966 Google Podcast: play.google.com/music/listen?u=0#…sucsz7skrrnu6fcri Spotify: open.spotify.com/show/45cfghnaTr5yOI47BCGN4y TuneIn: tunein.com/podcasts/Science-Po…ny-Voices-p1222627/ Follow Greg Stone Facebook: www.facebook.com/TheSeaHasManyVoices/ Twitter: twitter.com/GregStoneOcean Instagram: www.instagram.com/gregstoneocean/ LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/gregstoneocean/

For the fourth oceans episode, Marta sat down with three physical oceanographers at WHOI this summer to discuss ocean circulation. Dr. Mike Spall and Dr. Chris Piecuch explain large-scale circulation and its importance in climate, and grad student Mara Freilich discusses her research on vertical motion of seawater and its relevance for ecosystems. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

For the third oceans episode, Marta sat down with Dr. Hauke Kite-Powell from WHOI, Melissa Baldino from Duke, Sally Dowd from Berkeley, and Maddie Schumm from UT Austin to discuss marine policy and marine resource management and the research that goes into it. Listen in to learn about ecosystem services, economic models for fisheries, ecosystem models for aquaculture, and animal behavior in a noisy ocean. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

This week, Marta introduces a podcast series on ocean science topics. Last summer, she worked as a research intern at Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution (WHOI), and she took advantage of her time there by interviewing experts in ocean science/climate change hot topics like coral bleaching, sea-level rise, and marine resource policy. The first oceans episode is on coral bleaching and ocean acidification, with guests Dr. Anne Cohen from WHOI and Ellen Park from Cornell University. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

You hear about mercury in seafood, and that you should be careful not to eat too much. But have you ever wondered where the mercury that’s in the ocean even comes from? On the show today is Dr. Carl Lamborg, a marine chemist, specializing in studying mercury in the ocean. Carl’s research has taken him all over the world, including to the Arctic Sea, and through different research institutions such as WHOI. Now Carl is currently teaching and conducting his research with UCSC. In this episode, learn where mercury in the ocean comes from, how it gets into the food web, and ultimately how we may have this neurotoxin inside our own tissues. Carl has a really great ask and resource at the end of the episode, so be sure to stay tuned to hear about that.For links to everything discussed on this episode, please visit https://marinebio.life/carlSupport the show (http://patreon.com/marinebiolife)

Mark Abbott, President and Director of the Wood's Hole Oceanographic Institution, sits down with colleague Dr. Greg Stone to talk about the institute's role as one of the world's largest private organizations in ocean research. Mark leads the conversation with how WHOI has adapted their mission to address the issues that are affecting today's critical climate crisis. From the fragility of the Gulf Stream to the Institute's exploration of the ocean's Twilight Zone, Mark provides us with amazing insight on why WHOI is leading the world in tracking and sampling changes in the world's oceans. Join acclaimed oceanographer and conservationist Dr. Greg Stone on a journey of understanding and hope through our oceans with The Sea Has Many Voices podcast: theseahasmanyvoices.com/ Greg Stone has been an advocate for ocean conservation, sustainable industry, and marine research for decades. Spreading these ideas requires conversation and collaboration if we want environmental sustainability. Follow The Sea Has Many Voices iTunes: podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-…es/id1462828966 Google Podcast: play.google.com/music/listen?u=0#…sucsz7skrrnu6fcri Spotify: open.spotify.com/show/45cfghnaTr5yOI47BCGN4y TuneIn: tunein.com/podcasts/Science-Po…ny-Voices-p1222627/ Follow Greg Stone Facebook: www.facebook.com/TheSeaHasManyVoices/ Twitter: twitter.com/GregStoneOcean Instagram: www.instagram.com/gregstoneocean/ LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/gregstoneocean/

Mark Abbott, President and Director of the Wood's Hole Oceanographic Institution, sits down with colleague Dr. Greg Stone to talk about the institute's role as one of the world's largest private organizations in ocean research. Mark leads the conversation with how WHOI has adapted their mission to address the issues that are affecting today's critical climate crisis. From the fragility of the Gulf Stream to the Institute's exploration of the ocean's Twilight Zone, Mark provides us with amazing insight on why WHOI is leading the world in tracking and sampling changes in the world's oceans. Join acclaimed oceanographer and conservationist Dr. Greg Stone on a journey of understanding and hope through our oceans with The Sea Has Many Voices podcast: https://theseahasmanyvoices.com/ Greg Stone has been an advocate for ocean conservation, sustainable industry, and marine research for decades. Spreading these ideas requires conversation and collaboration if we want environmental sustainability. Follow The Sea Has Many Voices iTunes: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-sea-has-many-voices/id1462828966 Google Podcast: https://play.google.com/music/listen?u=0#/ps/Ivfwp6zhcgsucsz7skrrnu6fcri Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/45cfghnaTr5yOI47BCGN4y TuneIn: https://tunein.com/podcasts/Science-Podcasts/The-Sea-Has-Many-Voices-p1222627/ Follow Greg Stone Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/TheSeaHasManyVoices/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/GregStoneOcean Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gregstoneocean/ LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/gregstoneocean/

Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution is the world's leading, independent non-profit organization dedicated to ocean research, exploration, and education. Their scientists and engineers push the boundaries of knowledge about the ocean to reveal its impacts on our planet and our lives. Mark Abbott, President and Director of the Wood's Hole Oceanographic Institution, sits down with colleague Dr. Greg Stone to talk about the institute's role as one of the world's largest private organizations in ocean research. Mark leads the conversation with how WHOI has adapted their mission to address the issues that are affecting today's critical climate crisis. From the fragility of the Gulf Stream to the Institute's exploration of the ocean's Twilight Zone, Mark provides us with amazing insight on why WHOI is leading the world in tracking and sampling changes in the world's oceans. Greg Stone has been an advocate for ocean conservation, sustainable industry, and marine research for decades. Spreading these ideas requires conversation and collaboration if we want environmental sustainability. He currently serves as Chief Ocean Scientist and board director for DeepGreen Resources. He is responsible for finding sustainable ways to extract minerals from the seafloor of the Clipperton Fracture Zone that will aid in global transition to renewable energy. Follow Greg Stone! Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/TheSeaHasManyVoices/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/GregStoneOcean Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gregstoneocean/ LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/gregstoneocean/

This week we present two stories from people who were underwater both literally and metaphorically. Part 1: Barbara Abernathy has always felt at home in the ocean, but when she undergoes a bone marrow transplant, her doctor tells her she can't go into the water for a year. Part 2: With only two days to find and extract a sample from one of the oldest coral colonies in the world, Konrad Hughen finds himself at the bottom of the ocean with a broken drill bit. Barbara Abernathy, PhD, LMHC, is the President and CEO of the Pediatric Oncology Support Team, Inc. (POST), a nonprofit helping children and their families cope with the devastating effects of cancer. Being a cancer survivor herself, she brings a personal touch to the children and families battling childhood cancer. She has 30 years’ experience in nonprofits, 21 of those years at POST. She has a PhD in Counselor Education and Leadership from Florida Atlantic University (FAU), Master of Education in Counseling from the University of South Alabama, A Master of Science in Biology from FAU, and a Bachelor of Education in Human Development and Social Policy from Northwestern University. She is adjunct faculty at the University of Miami Miller School of Medicine and FAU. Other professional experience includes pediatric AIDS, bereavement, family counseling, parent education, and treatment of severely abused children. Barbara has presented as an invited speaker at many national and international professional conferences and numerous community and school settings. Her interview with Heal magazine was published in the Spring 2018 issue under the title: “Surviving Survivorship.” She has authored three scholarly peer-reviewed articles. She was awarded the Giraffe Award for women “who stick their neck out for others” by the Women’s Chamber of Commerce of Palm Beach County. She also won the 2017 Heroes in Medicine Award presented by the Palm Beach Medical Society and the 2018 MPN Heroes award given by the American Society of Hematology in December.  Konrad Hughen is a Senior Scientist in the department of Marine  Chemistry and Geochemistry at Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution  (WHOI).  He received a double B.Sc. in Biology and Geology at the  University of California, Santa and was awarded a NASA Graduate Research  Fellowship, leading to his Ph.D. at the University of Colorado,  Boulder.  Konrad was also awarded a NOAA Climate and Global Change  Postdoctoral Fellowship, which he pursued at Harvard University before  joining the scientific faculty at WHOI. As a geochemist and  paleoclimatologist, Konrad’s research interests involve the development  and application of proxy indicators for reconstructing climatic and  environmental change, focusing on materials from modern coral tissues to  centuries-old coral drill cores.  His investigations have taken him all  over the world, including recent expeditions to Micronesia, Red Sea,  Maldives, Indonesia, Vietnam, Philippines and Cuba.    Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Find your voice - Episode 12 - How to achieve your dreams as a single parent #12Tagline: "Never give up and keep striving for what you deserve" Donna Marie PeggDonna is a single parent who has overcome depression. She is an entrepreneur, a property investor....oh and a police officer during her day job too!You see she could have every excuse under the sun, as to why she is unable to achieve financial freedom and live life in accordance to her dreams, YET she chooses not to.She chooses to make the best use of her time, eradicating her excuses and chasing what she truly desires.For anyone who may have suffered from break-ups, relationship problems and found themselves working 2 or 3 jobs with a child, I hope you can take inspiration from Donna's story as she is living breathing proof that with the right mindset and action anything is possible.I urge you to follow her story and journey further as this wonderful lady is going places!Follow it below:Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Facebook: https://m.facebook.com/compasspropertyinvestment/ (Property)Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/keepsakesbymadefrommemories/ (Business)Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/madefrommemoriesbears/ (Business)Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/compasspropertyinvestment/ (Property)Website: www.madefrommemories.comEmail addresses:Madefrommemories@hotmail.co.ukCompasspropertyinvestment@hotmail.com#JustDeuIt & #FindYourVoice[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so now Arenwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and as always I am thehost of the showso today's guest is somebody I wouldconsider a rising star and by that Imean it's somebody who's really takenthe property world by storm in such ashort amount of time now for many of youthat know me I am actually a full timeproperty investor and it's kind of whatmade me I supposefinancially free to allow me to dopassion projects like today but thislady's not far off and I say watch thisspace because she's gonna be somebodywho you're gonna be either working withwatching or perhaps just taking hugeamounts of inspiration from now thereason I say that is because through ourinterview and through conversationsoffline I found out that this person wasalso working was also working on theside was also a single parent and had aside business as well so for anyone outthere who thinks they can't do it orthey don't have enough time or workstressful or their kids are playing upwell listen I don't want to hear itdon't hear your excuses and I'm sureDonna who's I guess today doesn't wantto hear them either so without furtherado let's get this interview on the wayhow are you doing today you're rightyeah I'm very well feeling very poisedup actually from good weekend fantasticfantastic okay so if you could kind ofexplain how you've progressed throughlife and ended up where you are now inyour journey okay I've done quite a lotin life actually a so I've done yeahthere's there's been quite a lot ofpeaks and troughs I'm surelike a lot of people so I had a verygood upbringing I was brought up withmoney so my dad is a business he wasvery business minded my mom was astay-at-home mom to three girls so I hadthat whole business influence from mydad and also the caring motherly rolequite a old-fashioned role reallybecause my dad went out to work and mymom stayed at home and looked after hisfull-time so it was nice to I think youknow that the importance of modeling andeverything and I had I had a very goodupbringing because you know like I saidI had the business aspect of my dad andthe drive and understanding theimportance of money which he was a bigbeliever in his understanding so weworked from a very young age I was 30when I had my first job yeah and I didto be honest I didn't need to workbecause we had a big house I had horseswe had land you know so I had an amazingstart in life but my dad came from avery humble background and was like it'simportant that you understand the valueof money and to go out to work so yeah Istarted work when I was thirteen and myown moneyand I've worked ever since maybe that'swhy I'm such a hard worker and and Iknow that unless you put the graftingyou don't get the result sort of thingso absolutely yeah so and and then Istayed on at school so I was veryacademic minded out of the three of us Iwas the one the clever one the samethere's always one I can relate to thatyeah yeah yeah cuz you're the brainy oneas well apparently but I probablydisagree now I think my little sisterstaken that always taken over now so yeahso I did I stayed at school did mya-levels I did a BTech National Diplomain art and design cuz that's the sort ofarea was going down and then I went toNewcastle and did a fashion marketingdegree for four years within that fouryears at did a three-year and the threeyearswere academic in university and then Idid a year within industry it wasclassed as a sandwich course so jewelryin that time I went and I design ladieshandbags for the high street yeah so Iused to that was my old rock my oldcareer I suppose I started designingladies handbags for the high street wentinto designing and then I had a bit of amoment in life are separated at a sixyear relationship with my first love aswell they were met when I was 17 andthat massively affected me like I endedup having depression and anxiety I meanI stayed in bed mom bless mom mom shehad to come and get me out of bedsometimes because it was just all forcoping with ityou know together six years and yeah hada bit of a I don't know maybe a bit of alife-changing moment and I was like thisgot you know there's got to be more tolife than lying in bed crying over anex-boyfriend so I ended up goingtravelling backpacking around Australiaon my own which was rather daunting hefinds herself in a country the otherside of the world on your own to kind offind yourself yeah but it was the mostamazing thing is the freest I've everfelt in my life you were in a countryyou could go wherever you wantedwhenever you wanted and you weren'trestricted by time or money or anythingand it was it was absolutely amazing andit I spent six months over there and Iactually were hosts I was over therestarted applying for jobs because Iwanted to do extreme sports where designthat was a passion of mine I've alwaysbeen into surfing and snowboarding andthat was a great passion of mine sobasically I went over to have kind of aholiday but I took again I think it'salways been about entrepreneurial yeah Itook a CD basically with my wholeportfolio that I generated at universityand a posted out or the major company soQuicksilver Rip Curl Billabong and thenI got contacted I was on Fraser Islanddoing a two-day trip a incredible placeand I had no internet because it wasjust in the middle of nowhere and I hada ping on my phone and it was avoicemail from Quicksilver saying theywanted to interview me and I was likewow like what an opportunity that wasfor designing designing extremesportswear so you know like all yearsnowboard any surf hoodies and all ofthat yeah that's what they do they're amassive brand if you're into you somekind of skate and surf wear so what anopportunity so I went to Turkey wherethey're based and I stayed there for aweek I went for an interview and theyoffered me a position as a juniordesigner fantastic but they they said tome we basically want you to be able todo all your CAD design so basically allthe things I drew they wanted me to beable to do it on a computer so I waslike you know for me to then get the jobbecause it was all Illustrator based andPhotoshop based so yeah I basically ranout of money anyway in Australia SCI hadto come home right yeah I'd doneeverything I've gone from the bottom ofAustralia like that's where the TwelveApostles are open book to Ken so I'ddone the whole of these coasts and so Icame home I did a CAD design coursepassed the course and then I had a momenagain another maybe life-changing momentwhat do I actually want out of life andthe thing is with the fashion industryalthough it's amazing and it's soinspiring the world of design it's verypretentious as well and I'm a very openbubbly person and always have been and Iwas surrounded by a lot of people and itwas all about money what you ownedrather than who you were as a personso maybe I went a little bit deep withall of that and was like what could I dothat would make a difference yeah andand then I saw Lester Constabulary wererecruiting for police officers yeah sothis was our 11 years ago 12 years 12years ago now so I went along with mymom to the event and it was amazing thefact that you could do so many differentroles within one job and I did all theapplication process and passed it gotreally high level all the written andthe mathematical but I didn't getthrough the interview I just didn't havewhat it was necessary to get theposition so I kind of gave up which wasvery unlike me because I definitely amand I'm a bit like if somebody says noto me mate it's me working honestly somy coach at the time the person whobasically was doing all the applicationprocess with us and making sure that weknew what we needed to do to get to theend goal which was to get the role as apolice officer she contacted me actuallyand said do not give up you were amazingreal I think you have what it takes andon that occasion you weren't successfulbut you were up against a lot of peoplewho were like PCSOsor special so they had more of a policeknowledge than I did because I had no nofriends in the police no family in thepolice I had no idea what was involvedso yeah I basically transferred myapplication to West Midlands Police andbecause I'd done everything the onlything I had to do for them was thedifferent fitness tests because theyhave a different fitness test - Lesterand a passed that and so yeah my 11 yearservice now with them oh wow I know Idon't even know how the time justso I did well at school I wanted to dowell in my career I wanted to be abusiness always had this dream being abusiness woman and because yeah I mean Ibecause I'd hit on it a little bit so wehad Hall she's growing up so when I was13 I was asked to ride for Great Britainyeah so at 13 I got scouted so that wassomething else I used to do as well onthe side of going to school yeah I amso yeah dude horse riding when I wasyounger and I got asked to ride forGreat Britain but I again had thisthought in my mind I want to be a careerwoman I had friends at school you knowand I was I did I thought if I do thatit's going to stop my development in thearea that I want to go in right so Inever I never did that and again I thinkthat's because of the person that I amlike I'm always striving for somethingso I did the university thing andobviously because of my university andthen are separated from my ex of sixyears I would then spend some time on myown I spent two and a half years on myown I think it was really reallyimportant to find you as a person ofcourse so yeah I did a bit ofsoul-searching I think during that timeand figuring out who I was and what Iwanted in life because I find in arelationship when you spend a long timetogether you just become a couple yeahrather than an individualyeah and I lost myself I didn't know whoI was anymore what I wanted so yeah Ithen spent some time on my own joinedthe police and then I met my most recentex who's my daughter's father and wewere together 10 years so yeah I didn'thave my daughter until I was nearly 30right okay okayso when my daughter was four months oldI then set a business orso I was still a police officer but Itook maternity leave for 30 months tobring her up and I set my business up sokeepsake company it's called made frommemories basically I make handmadekeepsake bears out of outgrown babyclothes that's a fantastic idea yeah yesso it's it's it's massively popular andI've got a massive following now so I'vebeen doing it for six years and I alsomake the some remembrance cushions outof granddad shirts you know from familymembers that have passed or teddy bearsout if I mean I get a lot of people likethey've lost their partner to cancerI've done bears made out of soldieruniforms because mum mums have losttheir son in war in Afghanistan so it'shonestly it's I love it I absolutelysentimental is what it is and they're soindividual because obviously they'remade from the clothes belong to thatperson that's lovelyaslam something else I've just learntfrom you as well oh oh like I said itwas always property and obviously we gotspeaking that was that hard in a secondthere's a fascinating story here and afascinating lady's doing all theseamazing things because we touched on itprior to starting this interview withthem I want people who may may be in asimilar situation to yourself I been asingle parent having all theseaspirations and businesses on the sideto believe in themselves a little bitmore that they can go out and do so muchmoreyeah I mean I don't know how you fit inthis in by the way I'm gonna ask youthat because we all only have 24 hoursin the day which is fascinating andmaybe it's it's probably something youtouched on earlier in your life whereyou saw your dad the modeling aspect andseeing how hard I suppose he were tocome from one more background to giveyou and I think you've got two siblingsyou mentioned I have two young youngersistersTrisha Harvey who's my mentor actuallyin property who's an amazing individualand she does real live coachingand he's just I think maybe I mean Iwent to MMI I don't know if you'refamiliar with MMR themmind intensive if it's all to do withthe P yes er Becca if you haven't doneit you should definitely go basicallythey cover your money blueprint and howyou think about money and how you'remodeling from a child has affected thedecisions that you make regarding moneythat's very interests and I went andyeah I went and did that for three daysand a think I had a very very positiveidea of money and I think that's becauseof my dad money was never negative likethey came out with comments like richpeople of greedy people you know likeall negative connotations towards moneyand because I'd had such a positivethought on wealth and money because mydad God apart from my dad saying youknow wait till you get older how hardyou have to work for money yeah he dideverything was very positive aroundmoney and business and working so yeahbabe maybe that's where it all started Ithink so because I think I have probablyheard more negative connotations towardsmoney growing up and I suppose evenmyself having come from humblebackgrounds you do hear those sayingsmonies of you a whole evil and richpeople are greedy rich yeah growing upand having to change my own mindsetwhich has been an absolute minefieldyeah you know through reading andaffirmations and stuff I think you don'tnecessarily need to love money but youneed to at least understand the benefitsthat it can give you so I think it'sfantastic that you had that from a youngage and obviously you'll be able to passthat message on to your little one aswellyeah well incredibly actually hitting onHolly she I've been away for three daysin London and my sister's real lifeproperty event and my mum had mydaughter so I came home on Sunday topick her up and we were talking aboutthe future and everything and my mumsaid my daughter said that she's hadenough of school alreadysix sheshe loved school all about Ithink cuz it's getting harder nowbecause she's getting old she said toher Nana no no I don't I don't want tobe at school anymoreand my mom said to her Hollywell you've you've still got primaryschool and high school to do you've gota long time still in education and sheturned around so my mommy she says butbut Nana I'm going to do what my mommydid yet she says mummys going to help mebuild a portfolio of properties of sothat I don't have to stay in school andthat I can be a businesswoman just likeher fix I know I was like that's amazingand then I sat down and I was explainingsummer mom about passive income and thefact that I'm wanting to build up aportfolio for Holly so that she's gotthe choice of what she does so whethershe wants to work or set her ownbusiness up or go traveling I said Iwanted to have the opportunity thatshe's got the money coming through soshe can decide where her future liesrather then you know life dictating toher where she's going to be absolutely Ithink you hit the nail on the head daysit's it's all about choices in it anddefinitely if you can provide it withthat and I suppose that's kind of whereI'm looking at as well so similar toyourself in terms of like children and Iwant to kind of set my business up firstwhen I do choose to have kids I wantthem at a very early age to had thatmindset that house just displayed thereyeah and to know that there are otherways where you can if you use money theright way especially through propertywhich you both understand give them thatmessage at an earlier age it's onlyhelped them well Erin you I mean fromwhat I've read of you and seen of you inyour YouTube videos and that you'veyou've had a very similar sort of statusme because you've done several differentthings and had to find where you wereand in fact you being a social workerand me being a police officer it's allabout giving back is a hundred percentabsolutely and and you touched on itearlier as always said like there's moreto life than money and stuff and thatwas kind of the reason I gave up projectmanagement and working for a greatLondon companybecause I was like there's gotta be moreto life and that's kind of where I wentinto the Social Work sidemy only problem was I just realized theimpact I suppose I wanted to have inSocial Work I was unable to give andthat's the same as the place becausewhat I I joined to make a difference butbecause of legality is and thegovernment and the the yeah therestrictions of court and everything Ialthough I want to make that impact Ican't make that impact because thisrestrictions stopping me I supposethat's probably the reason you thenchose to go through property yeswell property's always been one of theseI was one of these who sat for hourswatching and and I've always lovedproperty in the excitement of you knowhaving having a dirty stone and makingit into a diamond sort of thing yeah youknow buy and also again my mission is tomake affordable housing to a highquality standard and made every house ahome I mean my company compass inproperty investment is all about givingpeople the right direction and makingevery house a home whether it's for atemporary accommodation until they findtheir forever home whether it's theirfirst home that they're buying as acouple or whether I'm providing aforever home for them it's just givingthem that feeling of being at home Ithink I think I'm as a student and alsomy professional life I've rented and youknow these rooms in houses or you know asingle-layer if you you don't abide tolet just never feel at home and that'simportant to me in my portfolio is tocreate houses that feel like home Joelat home that's a lovely message and Ithink I think everyone wants that dawnthere really I mean I try and do thatwith my tenants as well ways I try andlet them use it as their home so if theywant to decorate they want to do stuffthat's absolutely fine by me because heis about creating that home because letyou said we know what it's likehave that feeling of coming home asopposed to just staying somewhere whereyou think this is just a temporarymeasure and I think it's important youknow with regards to keeping yourtenants as well because if you providesuch an amazing environment for themthey're safe and clean and tidy if theywant to stay there because it does feellike home absolutely yeah I mean I'vehad no change obvioustouchwood so fingers crossed it stayslike that but yeah I just love thatmessage behind what you're trying to doin property so I need to ask you nowbecause obviously we've touched on allthese amazing things you're doing I'msure you probably miss some stuff out aswell what's your what's your what's yourdaily routine like then so being asingle mother getting into property andI've seen some of your cracking dealsthat you've got lined up now working inthe police force as well you're intohealth and fitness which you haven'tmentioned but I know that from stalkingyour profile so what other things areyou doing and what what's the kind ofday in the life like for you oh my mydays are absolutely crazyI can imagine I'm not gonna lie it theyit is bedlam because I obviously splitwith my ex a couple of years ago so hehas my daughter a few days a week whichalso allows me to have some time to getthings done I only work part-time in thepolice now so I work Monday TuesdayWednesday every week and I then have mybusiness my keepsake business howeversince I went to MMI and looked at mybusiness and growing the business andcoming out of the business because theproblem with me at the moment is I'm ineverything and I've now now I've comedown this mindset journey and going intoproperty and with my mentoring andcoaching with Trisha I've now realizedthat I need to come now I've set thingsup and they're going really well andI've built up a massive client base Ineed to come out of it because my timeis precious and if I invest all my timein one thing I can't do anything else soI've actually recently taken on twoladies that I'm going to train up tomake my keepsakesthat's going to be basically handed overto them and then I will just manage itwhich is then going to free up some timeto do more on the property side whichI've just started but like you hit onAren of you know I've already got twodeals and they're big projects the likeeight bed HMOs that I'm also juggling inbetween and I'm sure you know the amountof viewings that you have to go on tofind these deals absolutely it'sinspiring to see what what you're doingbecause like I said I keep saying it butinitially I thought was just propertythen obviously getting to know you overthe last month or so I'm hearing howmany other things you're doing and ifanything it makes me feel quite lazy tobe honest because I'm like oh I haven'tgot a child to look after I haven't gotan occupation where I need to be thereMonday to wednesday so and yeah I knowhow difficult it is it's literally yougot to get used to the word know you'vegot to get used to rejections you wantto be on the ground 24/7 so it'sinspiring and hopefully inspires otherpeople is well out there who may yeahthink having being a single parent orhaving a part-time job or a full-timejob is a way to kind of excuse them fromnot aspire to there's no excuse there'syou are your own worst enemy the reasonyou don't succeed in life is because ofyourself and it's and I'm a greatbeliever in taking action if you don'ttake action you don't take risk nothingever changes and the thing is if Icarried on doing what I've always done Iwould just remain where I've always beenso exactly so what I've done is it isdifficult I'm not going to lie it's hardwork but I've done so much changerecently and so much on the mind setbecause mine's it's so important becauseto me if you're your heads not in thegame you're not in the gameyou know and it massively you need to betelling yourself every day reminding youyou can do it I mean every day I writedown my successes I do my five successesevery day I also write my goals down soit's important thatyou know what your goals are you knowyour your quarterly goals your yearlygoals your five yearly goals ten andyour 20 year Li goals because it givesyou something to aim towards I think Ihit on that earlier about how importantyour goals are to make you drive towardsthem and obviously looking you hit onearlier as well the affirmations anddeclarations it's it's all about youknow getting you and your mind in theright place and it's amazing how muchonly in a matter of a couple of monthsmy life has just gone upside down in agood way in a good way honestly thethings that are coming to me like theamount of investors that are contactingme for my projects because all myprojects are 100% investor led we do JVpartnership but I use zero of my ownmoney it's all investor money that paysfor my property is which and they get avery good return much better return thanthey would with the banks but as youknow Erin you do the same core samething so but it's so important becauseyou you know the these individuals arebuying into me it's not just about thedeal it's about me as a person and I'mvery positive but very brave and verymotivated I'm a very friendlyapproachable person which is veryimportant and I believe in myself oh yesI am a single mom yes I do own a busybusiness yes I do have a job and yes Ihave set a property business sort butI'm doing it it's so inspiring I meanI'm just taking notes here because Iwant to what I want to do from what youjust said days give single parents athome just a couple of tips there so thenumber one thing and this is somethingthat I've had to really really work onmyself in the last six months is believein yourself because irrespective of whatanyone else says whether it's your momwhether it's your partner your siblingsyou have to believe in yourself aboveall else and also if there's noif people around you you don'tnecessarily need to get rid of them butmaybe you've spent less time with themso if you're spending two hours a daywith those people maybe spend 20 minutesa day with them because the people thatare around you the the negativity that'saround you will only keep you where youare it will not move you forward I thinkthat's a great point because some peoplealways think how can I just get rid ofsomebody who's negative in my life yeahand we're not necessarily saying youneed to get rid of them what I do is Ikind of do this thing where I look atthem and I'll smile and nod but I'm notlistening to a word they're sayingif I know it's negative and at the sametime and that's mainly for people I knowI have to kind of be around but if it'ssomeone negative I do the same thing ortry and reduce your time with them youalso mentioned a very very good pointwhich is you write down your goals dailyyou do your lashes but I just want toquickly elaborate on something you saidthe five successes is that fivesuccesses that you want to achieve or isit five successes that you've doneperhaps the previous day no that day soit means every day yes at the end ofevery day I've got a success book just alittle book a notebook and I write theday and successes and I do five so itcan be as little as often it's theschool run I'm late on time and you knowwe get the thing the thing is we don'twe don't celebrate our small successeswe've achieved on a daily basis and it'sjust sometimes the little thingsespecially with people with depressionand I've been there just getting up andshowers and getting dressed for the dayis a massive achievement for somebodywith depression you know simply pickingthe phone up to ask for help when you'vegot depression that is a massive thingso it's little successes like I saidgetting to the school run on time goingand doing some viewings putting an offerin on a house networking with somebodyto possibly get another investor onboard for a project they're all littlesuccesses that believe you need tohighlight and and they they say aboutonce you write it down the mechanics ofyour brain work differently and ityou've you kind of take iteven better when she write it down sothat's what I do at the end of every dayI write down my five successes no matterhow big or small I love this so what youreferred to at the end I think it'scalled a reticular activation system isthat what it is yeah that's how you sayand it's kind of like these so an easyexample is if for instance you go outand you looking for a red car or you buya red car all of a sudden when you're onthe road you'll notice in that red careverywhere where it's prior to that youprobably didn't so I think if you cantune your brain in the right way thatyou're looking for opportunities you'reseeking better that better purpose orvision of your life you're going tostart attracting that sort of stuff andyou are just touched on somethingthey're really important about the smallwinsI suppose I'm guilty of this myselfbecause I will probably have a lot ofsmall ways in the day but I'm notgenerally in that probably the way Ishould so I'm literally written out herethat I'm gonna literally copy whatyou're doing there because I thinkthat's an amazing point to do I know thedepression stuff that you mentioned beshowering and little things like thathaven't haven't seen my mom strugglewith it for the best part of eight yearsI know that as a personal thing so it'sit's it's a fantastic point there andhopefully people listening to us couldtake that on board so it's not as easyas it sounds I suppose obviously we'dlike the Instagram success and we'relooking around on social media seeneveryone doing all these amazing things24/7 yeah but he's like you know Arenis do not ever compare yourself toanybody else that that is the worstthing that anybody can do you know focuson what you're doing where you'reheading what you're wanting from lifeand also you hit on yeah I'm a bigFitness nutrition that's one of thereasons actually Aren that I found youthrough your fitness journey to be fairbefore before the property journey and Imassively believe healthy body healthymind I have a very clean diet only inthe last four months have I started I doweightlifting and all of those peopleout there again single moms I don't goto the gym I do this from home but be inthe last couple of months I've lost astone and I'm only small anyway you knowI've always been slim but it's importantto methat you get every part of your life inbalance I think and and in your dietexercising you know they release so manydifferent chemicals that make you feelbetter about yourself so yeah it is hardwork trying to fit all of this inthought you know it makes such anincredible difference it does just haveto do itoops I agree I think it's it's justsmall wins no habits rather than lookingat the big picture I think thecomparison thing is a massive point butit's again it's easier said than done Ithink once you find yourself looking atstuff constantlyI would just news it I would just stopusing that up and just really try andfind yourself which is something thatyou mentioned before great stuff and sothe next thing I want to know is aboutadversity so you're very bubbly you'redoing amazing things and I'm sure likelike many of our listeners you've hadyour fair share of adversity as wellcould you if you wouldn't mind explain atime where you've perhaps been throughadversity maybe something recent Isuppose in your journey whether it's adeal falling through or somethingsomething significant that you thinkthat could normally break somebody willgive somebody the opportunity to presentthemselves with an excuse I mean we allhave struggles in life I mean only redlight it's it's quite recent only twoyears ago now like I said I split withmy ex and it's it's been difficult youknow I'm not I'm not gonna lie becomingbecoming a single mom knowing that hadmy business work you know all the otherday-to-day role the role of a mother tocontend with and juggle with it's beendifficult I I took the decision to endthat relationship which again was amassive you know because I my decisionwas going to affect three people notjust myself however I'm i sat one daywas like I feel lonely and I feelnegative and I feel unhappy and I'm in arelationship and that isn't what itslife's about you should be in arelationship you should feel adored youshould feel that that person bringsthe best of you brings out the bestversion of you and that they add to yourlife so that was a massive thing for meto do was to end a relationshipespecially when we had a young childtogether and almost stop being selfishbecause I had to think about the biggerpicture the future and obviously theposition of you know how it was going toaffect my daughter I suppose so yeah Imean I could have easily have just saidlook let's just carry on you know let'sjust make it work let's work harder atit but I had to make that decision tolike we've got to the end of the roadand it's it's not it's not making me anybetter it's not making him any betterand it certainly isn't going to make ourdaughter any better so I'd say that's amassive achievement in itself to makeand realize that you needed to makechanges Wow I think you just heard thereit is an achievement I think thinkingabout the bigger picture in that in thatscenario because I see spar - oftenpeople who are just unhappy in life yeahbeing unhappy you have to accept thatit's a choice and you've sat there andyou thought actually I need to make adecision here to change this and for thebetter and it seems like it's going forthe better I hope obviously the otherparty is fine as well and obviously yourdaughter's in it in a good place as wellso we've got a very amicablerelationship he's a great guy he's anamazing dad so and I could never takethat away from him but together I meanas a family unit we works but togetheras a relationship we didn't and and it'simportant for for everybody out theredon't be scared like I say so many timestwo friends of mine who are in happyrelationships but it's all about themoney and it's all about the securityand you know they're scared but I'd handon heart say it's not as hard as youthink it's going to be it really is andI suppose I'm guilty of it myselfbecause sometimes when you have to makea decision and if you know it's going tohurt one of the other parties I reallyreally struggle with that and it's onlyrecentI just kind of do like a five-fourthree-two-onea kind of a Mel Roberts approach whereI'm like okay five four three two oneand I'll just send that message out orI'll give him the cord yeah say themessage and like you said it's not ashard as you think and in hindsight Imean after a day or two you everything'snormally a lot better than probably thescenario you're telling yourself in yourhead exactly so what's your biggest fearthen my biggest fear I think he cycleokapi who is failure and doing somethingand not succeeding I've been veryfortunate the decisions that I've madein life of always I've always succeededover succeeded and everything that I'vedone even little jobs I've hadreception jobs at dental practices andthe the head dentist there is thenoffered to give me a position and as adental nurse I worked in adopts ofsurgery as a receptionist and got askedif I wanted to train as the practicemanager so people honestly people ofalways whatever position I've ever donein my life they've always seen somethingin me to go further than where I amhowever you always still have your ownfears and your own doubts about whetheryou can achieve what other people cansee in you so yeah I think that's one ofmy fit my just fear of failure and fearof not you know I suppose like Petepeople think that I'm going to be herelike a certain level and I'm like oh mygod am i you know am I gonna let yeah amI gonna let everybody downand I'm not gonna reach even theirexpectations of meyeah that's a massive fear of mesometimes and what what if so forinstance you did fail so say for is thisyour next venture in property it didn'tgo the way that you wanted it to goI mean I've struggled to believe thatyou would let that knock you down no Ibloody wasn't you know it's one of thosethings that you know what at thatparticular time that deal wasn't rightand it didn't work and you know there'smassive learningin it I mean already with my firstproject things are coming up that I'mhaving to get over I'm learning so muchalready because this property that I'mworking currently on is in aconservation area and I did realize thatthe loft extension in its been done andit's not got planning permission andthere's permitted development forcertain things so loft extensions areunder committed development but in aconservation area you basically can'teven move a treeyou can't cut hedges down you can'tchange windows you can't do anythingwithout planning permission so it's likelittle things like that but I'm learningbecause I'm now working with planningI'm now working with HMO offices youknow contacting I've got a tree that islike push the roots are pushing into theproperty so I'm having to get a surveydone but it's like now I'm in touch withthe councilI've spoken to tree surgeons and all ofthat just ask the mom database my youknow everything that I'm learning alongthe way and next time if things aren'tthat come up he's scary thought becauseI've dealt with it all really yeahabsolutely I would personally thinkjudging by that and say that yourbiggest fear is probably expectationsrather than at your failure because Ijust feel like you're just go throughyour learn and then you're you'll bebetter and you just kick ass next timebasically yeah definitelyand I mean I've I've gone very big withmy first projects because a lot ofpeople said oh my god Donna like it'syour first projects that it's aneight-oh and obviously we get all thepeople the negative people say you can'tdo a hecho mo for your project you'vegot to 1/8 birds for your first projectyou won't get the investors you can'tget a bridge loan because we deal withbridge loans and I'm like well it'sfunny because I'm doing all of thatexactly so but but it's only through thefact that my sister is my mentor that Iknow she's doing it she's gettingproperties passed through blanketarticle 4 areas people on the HMO groupswhich are also on our own are sayingthat's impossible that's impossiblethat'sso I don't even comment anymore it'spossible yeah absolutely it's justimpossible for them I would justliterally leave it I think it's ablessing in disguise that obviouslyyou've got Trisha there to help you aswell because I'm not she's doingfantastic things but you also have togive yourself credit as well for yourmindset yeah yes I'm sure she's been amassive catalyst and help but I justfeel that your enthusiasm and like yousaid anything you you generally touchyou will make a success of it so don'tforget to obviously give yourself praisethere as wellyes no no I I think I use my sister toremind me you know when my little voicecomes in over where yes yes I use mysister as my no she's done it no she'sdone it she's got those figures onrefinance she's managed to do that sowhy can't I so she's just I supposeshe's my little crutch at the momentbecause I haven't done it so when I havedone it I'll be saying well no I didthat last time you know I'm doingalready done that I just want to bringup that point as well you mentioned thelittle voice because I can so relate tothat and I'm sure there's many of mylisteners who have this little voice intheir head and the beautiful thing withyou just saying that there is we allhave that little voice so some of usmight sit there you might have thisself-doubt and believe that maybe thisjust isn't for me but when you startspeaking to people who are doing amazingthings and I'm sure Trisha wouldprobably say the same thing I bet youshe has that little voice as well but Ithink what we have to do is we have tolearn how to calm that voice down andkind of overpowering I suppose in it andalso reminding yourself that your littlevoice isn't you yeah that little voiceisn't you this is all your that's allthat all your insecurities all yournegativity all those it's like thelittle devil sitting on your shoulder itreally is telling you that it isn'tpossible that you can't do it but youcan because all you need to do is takeaction stay positive keep the the rightpeople around you and network with theright people and you can make anythinghappenabsolutely I love thatwhat we're gonna do now is we're gonnago into the fun part of the show andjust keep it that you have no ideawhat's gonna happen but oh my god it'sreally easyhopefully it's a bit of fun it's justsixty Seconds where I'm gonna ask youthe most random questions just to kindof give the listeners a little bit moreabout yourself and mix it up a bit soare you ready yes all right fantasticwe're going to start in three two oneokay romance or comedy a comedy Italianor Chinese Italian the best place you'veever been Australia cinema or bowlingcinema the ability to fly or beinvisible Oh probably to fly money orfame money horse riding or fashion horseriding Netflix our YouTube YouTubeSnickers or MarsSnickers every day favorite TV show everprobably friends speak all languageswill be able to speak to animalslanguage is your biggest inspiration atthis particular moment in timedefinitely my sister Trisha love it ifyou could sit with one person in theworld for an hour who would it beit's a queen you know would you ratherknow how you would die or when you weredying when if you could have polish onething in the world what would it bebullying your favorite song everStereophonics performance and cocktailsis there and the final question is wouldyou rather read mindsor predict the future read minds love itbrilliant that's it oh my god bless yait's more fun that way because you can'tplan for it really yeah okay so Ibelieve hindsight is obviously awonderful thing and it teaches us thatwe can get to places quicker faster andprobably with less money as well but atthe same time the journey does teach usa lot as well so what I want to know isif you could go back in time to maybeone moment where you were younger whatadvice would you give yourself yeah Ithink at school I got bullied which I'msure a lot of people went through so youknow if I wish I had my thoughts myfeelings of our positivity back when Iwas like 12 13 I said Terrywith my skin so yeah it was a hard timeduring my teenage years and I just wishI could go back and tell that personthat you know your you are stronger thanyou think you are and these people it'stheir own insecurities it's their ownissues with themselves that are causingthem to bully you yeah so I I own ouslywould not change a single thing that hashappened in my life because it's beenWho I am today for like you said if Ihad to go back I would love to tell thatlittle girl the life will be good life'sgonna be amazing you just need tobelieve in yourself I love itI hate bullying like when you said thatyes named with me because I've hadfamily members suffer with it I was Isuppose I was very fortunate that I wasquite popular at school so I kind ofnever really in aspect but even nowgrowing up and becoming I suppose moreintelligent more emotionally aware Isometimes keeping myself how I neverreally like intervened or stopped sortof you know how yeah kind of laugh withthe crowd and I suppose that yeah that'sjust as bad really but at that time yeahso you feel like you'd you feel like youshould have stood up myself for thatbecause if I ever see anything now as aman I'd always jump in but as a kid Isuppose you're almost kind of worried Isuppose that if you jump in then you'regonna be at the crux of everyone's jokesyeah I think social medias happen interms of bringing it out there so whenthere are these cases going on and I'veseen quite a few terrible stories it isbringing the importance that you knowthis just isn't acceptable because itwas such a long term effect but I'm soglad that it hasn't obviously affectedyou too much because now you're doingamazing things and inspiring yeah andand you know what it's quite nice nowthat I'm older and I am successful and Ilook back on those people at that timewho aren't doing very well now and I'mlike that's because of the decisionsthat you've taken because of the actionsyou know and how you're behaved isresorted to where you are today and - tobe honest I'd love to sit down with themreallythen reflect on their decisions and whatthey're doing in their life to maketheir lives better yeah absolutelybrilliant so sadly that actually bringsus to the last question of the day andthe last question I always ask my guessis if in a 150 years time and sciencefails to save us and all that is left isa book on a table and that book is aboutyourself it's about your life andeverything that you've accomplished inyour life what would the title of thatbook be and what would the blurb tell usabout you oh what a question the titlewould definitely be never give up hmmlove it so doesn't matter how hard itgets doesn't matter how many obstaclesget in the way it doesn't matter howmany people tell you that you can't doit just never give up because I can tellyou now if you just keep striving forwhat you want you will get what youdeservenever give up obviously that's amotivational thing it's something that'swhy people but when they turn it over Iwant them to understand the author alittle bit so what will it say aboutDonna I think it will say that I was avery hardworking forward-thinkingbubbly motivated person who at themoment even I just want to help so manydifferent people so yeah I just hopethat even just 2% of my energy rubs offon people and and I think like after thereal life event that we've had thisweekend the amount of people that cameup to me and said oh my god you've madethis weekend amazing because of yourenergy and your Drive and how positiveyou are and it really is buzzed me offI'm like I'll just feel like I'm oncloud nine now so yeah I thinkand that's the sort of lastingimpression I live on people and I hopethat's the lasting impression on peoplebecause that's what I want to do I wantto make people feel like anything ispossibleabsolutely I'm confident in well becauseI think your infectious you remind me ofa good friend of mine sunny yes we yeahwe both know sunny day I've not met I'venot had the pleasure it's a meeting yeahbecause unfortunately we've had torearrange a couple of meetings but yeshe's another individual I'm lookingforwardabsolutely it's just good to be aroundpeople who can lift you up especially ina world where there's always negativityflying around it's always good to bearound positive people yes just beforewe close the show I want to give themyou an opportunity to let the listenersconnect with yourself where would youtell him to come and find you yes oh I'meverywhere at the moment very quicklyyeah luckily because I've already got abusiness I know how it all works oh I'vealready got an Instagram accounta compass property investment I'm onFacebook compass property investmentalso under my own name Donna Marie Pegganyone can contact me there I've gotemail it can contact me for email soyeah everything's up and running andI've even bought my domain for mywebsite that will I'm sure be gettingset up within the next 12 monthsyes so I'm I know how to be out thereand in your face that's Brad becausethat's what I want I want the listenersto be able to connect to you so wouldyou say Facebook as a first point ofcourse yes definitely Facebook I do farmore on Facebook than anywhere else sothey can find me through my personalpage Donna Marie peg and it's open tothe public now it never used to be acompass property investment page whichis also activeit's got ongoing updates what projectsI'm working on I'll be doing live videoson their videos if the properties showyou how my build team are getting on andalso I'm wanting to use italso a little bit like a blog so youknow they so they can see what I'm doingwhen I'm doing it how I'm doing it andalso what things I'm coming up againstso because I'm hoping to use it as a wayof teaching others the you know this isthe problem I've come up against this ishow I've got around it this is what I'vedone these are the people that havecontacted this is the strategies are putin place so I'm also teaching people tothe things that I and the self and Iknow you've had problems along the waybut I hope that by sharing the problemsthat I've had it will allow them toeither avoid the problems or deal withthose problems head-on because they'vehad the information and the tools thatthey need to get past it really okay sowhat I'm gonna do is I'm gonna add allof those links and the Instagram which Inever knew about so I'll add that aswell in the challenge I'm standing hereon Instagram my compass propertyinvestment group because I was actuallylooking this morning I think it wasbefore we started this interview I waslike is she on Instagram and I wastyping in Donna I couldn't find anythingno made from memories so made frommemories are on there my keepsake bearsand my property I haven't got a personalpage because I think it's him back on tothe gym and fitness and outfitting it'ssomething I imagine to go into possiblysetting up a business aimed towardssingle parents so single moms singledads and giving them a place that theycan have no reason to not go becausethere's childcare in their package intheir membership package and I thinkthat's something that I'm going to aimwith my purse maybe set up a personalInstagram and you know build that uparound the setting of her gym PTsessions with mums single mums andsingle dads to allow them theopportunity to always focus on theirtheir health and their physical exerciseregardless of having children I love itas if you haven't got enough to doyou're gonna sellso everything else is being ran byeverybody else because this is what youdo you set the businesses or can youcome out of the business then it givesme the time and the freedom to do theother things that I love so muchno that's brilliant I think I certainlyrecommend sit in a pair a personal one Ikind of do the same thing I have apersonal one I have a property one Ihave a social enterprise or now I'vejust I had a podcast one is also it'salmost my job that's right yeah findyour voice podcast yeah fantastic I'llhave to follow you back straight afterthis Donna I just want to say a massivethank you for taking time out of yourday to share your story I'm veryconfident it's gonna inspire many manypeople and to the listeners at homethanks for listeningmy absolute yeah thank you very much forasking me I read and remember thispodcast is absolutely free so all we askin return is for you to share this witha friend and drop us a 5-star reviewover on iTunes have an awesome day See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

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Find your voice - Episode 2 - The Wake Up Call by Jin AtwalJins life screams adversity. The loss of his uncle, father and sister within such a short space of time caused his life to spiral out of control. The word death links closely to Jin's life as does the word alcohol abuse. A stigma perhaps in the punjabi, asian community Jin refused to let this be his story. he wanted more.Determined to succeed and not let his circumstances dictate his future he woke up and took control of his life and started writing his own story. Now in the process of writing his own book, “The Wake up call” Jin is now looking to inspire others and help them cope with the grief he has suffered.Alongside this he has a mission to help children and ensure they struggle with less hardship in their lives!If you think that’s not enough his also a successful property investor with many more talents.."When you lose somebody, it's always there. It never goes away." - Jin AtwalThanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/manjinder.atwalInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/jin120280/#JustDeuIt & #FindYourVoiceYouTube Transcript[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people yes that is correct myname is Aren and I am the host of theshow so I'm extremely excited todaybecause my guest is somebody who's notonly got an incredible story that isriddled with ups and downs and trialsand tribulations but he's also someone Iconsider a friend alongside that he'salso a loving father to two beautifulgirls he's a loving husband and he's avery successful property investor so Ithink it's more important we speak tohim rather than listening to myselfbecause some of the stuff he's gonna sayis really gonna blow your mind sowithout further ado let's get thisinterview on the way good morning Jin sohow are you doing today good thank youhow about yourselfnot too bad thank you just a little bitof a cold which hopefully doesn't affectthe podcast too much so I just want tostart firstly by saying thank you fortaking time out of your day to shareyour story I'm very confident it's goingto obviously inspire other peopleknowing who you are as a person so Ithink it's important for the listenersto basically get to know youso if you could just please explain howyou've progressed through life and endedup where you are currently okay sowithout sounding like the okie DonGoonies indeed though I'll give you abit of a summary so a bit about meso my first memories of a child isprobably my older sister he was aboutthree years older than me and she's tokind of always be up to mischief and Iwas well I was a little sidekick I'lltell you one of those stories so one ofthe times she dared me to throw a stickat a wasp's nest me crazily is to doeverything she told me to do seems likea good idea why notyeah so I did that what spirit stick Iwas nest and had a swarm of waspschasing me and the garden didn't endwell for me educate imagine but yeah Iyou know I just follow around everywhereand I was always you know really proudof her you know she's got a biginspiration to megrowing up and then caught us tosummarize the kind of years after that Icould prolly summarize the kind ofexperience a lot of grief at the dealwe've my dad he was an alcoholic seen alot of violence and experiences ofloneliness as a child so kind of goinginto the grief part the firstexperienced grief when I was around 10years old so my dad's younger brother myuncle I used to live with us for a whileand so I was very close to him and kindof be wiseass or even mourning a seconddad really and around Christmas Eve wason Christmas Eve he went out for a worksparty we have a few of his friends andthere's all over the local quite drunkand the drive was over the limit and onthe way home and started getting chasedby police officers and they tied thedriver decided to try to get away and heended up smashing the car into a brickwallmy uncle was at the back in the middleseats about a seatbelt on so probablythe worst place you could beand a head-on crash I need to basicallyjust went straight right straight to thefront and died on scene so he was allholy person in the car to dieand it was just clearly in the wrongplace in the car really sorry to truckhow old is you at this time yes I wasabout 10 years old at the time and yeahit's kind of a difficult time for me Ithink as as people or any heart we findit hard to deal with grief and I thinkthat's especially within the Indiancommunity so I think nobody ever spoketo me about it and it was kind of isthere happening in the background and Icould see the pain in my dad and myfamily and stuff like but nobody evercame andhow we felt as children and I saw and Ithink I ever dealt with it properlyuntil happy until like recently reallywhere I kind of started to think aboutit bit more so that was kind of thebeginning of you know make me experiencehim grief from what grief was like andthen from there I think my dad healready kind of had a Greek problem atthe time kind of just went off the railsso he just didn't had to handle it andwell his wife and he would just turninto drink and weave that he started tobecome quite violent and we experienceda lot of violence in the household on akind of daily weekly basis basically soour store are still quite young then andI felt it is my role to protect myfamilyso I used to try to get my sistersupstairs and out the way the venisonviolence is coming and then I'd comeback downstairs myself and then tried tostop my dad but you know which I coulddo being so young and that kind ofstarted affecting me in a you know quotenegative way it just made me feelworthless I felt like I wasn't a man Iwas like I wasn't to be able to myfamily and I was really hard on myselfso kind of that continued into myteenage years basically and as I gotolder I got bigger of still was tallreally afraid of my dad kind of embeddedinto me at that saw him you know if hejust raised his voice I would get reallynervous and scared and that make me feltfelt like even worse as a person andanother violence continued and you knowand I just felt like I couldn't doanything so for me I started aroundabout 15 years old I turned to boxingokay you need to boxing helped me inmany many ways it just taught me controlthat aggression that was inside of meand you know that anger so yeah going tohelp me in a lot of ways but alsostarted getting the reputation at schoolas the Hardeman and you know every timein school say Argentina Sortino sausageand I end up gaining points at school II thought I was always quite lonelyprimary school didn't have any manyfriends didn't have any you know just towalk around myself I didn't have a funnytime we have a single friend until about10 years old and then when I got asecondary school you know started makinga few friends but not many but then healways always for the wrong reasons Ikind of I got known as tough guy yougain two points or then I starteddrinking myself which I always I used tohate alcoholI've seen is what I call my dad problemsof course I lost my uncle for alcoholalcohol related but I think there's onetime I just I just I drinking with somefriends they started a lot more earlythan me and I just II I didn't reallyhaven't I couldn't really pick in thecrowd and they stole do their own thingand went out with one time's it come onnow every drink with Jean and I end updrinking with him I was talking mostoften and I kind of got that reputationand as you know he's a good laugh whenhe has a drink and he's he's you know hegets it he's a good good good ofpointing so if any trouble you're saltyand that's not the person I wanted to beinside well that's the person I becameand that continued really for many yearsand then from there I kind of I went towhen I finished school into Universityand I kept that persona you know Jeanwas the default crazy fun guy that youcould have a good laugh we've ended up afew drinks and he's you know they weretough not and you know inside I alwaysfelt that that's not me I'm just I'mjust no other person and that's theperson that people like they don't likeif I really thought he was myself peoplewouldn't like that I wouldn't be that Iwouldn't you know I wouldn't be that oneperson that everybody enjoys or becamesomebody else basically that's veryinteresting point I think you just madethere your dad and the violence in thehouse and I supposed you somehowindirectly almost became that kind ofperson ie the Hardman for example yeahbut I think it takes a mazing awarenesswhich you've just mentioned a couple ofseconds ago that you quickly realizethat okay although I'm getting plauditsand people are kind of now coming to meand the finding my company great forexample but this isn't the kind ofperson I want to be known as and I thinkthat takes a lot of awareness becausepeople will relate to this we sometimespigeonhole ourselves into situations orgroups just because we fit in by being aparticular person but what I always wantto try and do is tell people don't tryand fit into a crowd by being somebodyyou're notI just wanted to point that out just forthe listeners because I think it'simportant that you were able torecognize that hold on a minute thisisn't Janette well this is an episode orshould we call it a chapter of your lifebut this isn't the person that you areit's certainly not the person that Iknow today yeah I think yeah if I didrealize but I didn't I didn't I didn'ttake action to change I was very quicklyto be honest I took me a long long timeso now after finishing University I'llstop and I was not that reputation I wasstill that kind of person and then Istarted my job and you know I did I'dcome a first job working for a bigenergy company in there I was stolen ahappy you know started off doing a job Ididn't really want to do just to get myfoot in the door a degree in BusinessStudies what I did didn't really seem tohelp me and get there was the kind ofincome that I wanted so I started offstapling bills for a big energy companyyou know I haven't been to universityand don't open house you know I wasthere stifling bills you know five daysa week and I kind of annoyed me and Igot my head down and I know rightjin-hee you can't do this you need toyou need to you know work your way up inthe companies so I got my head down andI moved from that position all the wayup until senior position within thecompany in ten years looking at thebusiness strategy so my rock my rolltowards the end of my career empower waslooking at the business strategy and howwe can use smart metering it's moredated to launch new product into themarket so it's a good it's a good job ornot you know I worked my way up fromstepping bills to that it was a massiveachievement but even through then Iwasn't happy I was like you know I'mstill not me I don't know who I am Idon't know he was you know I know I'mnot the vision of what I want to bemyself I don't know who the vision Iwant to be of myself it should be what Ishould look like I always had a dream ofgetting into property on it so because Idid is I do remember Matthew told meyounger we didn't really make much moneyon it because we didn't really know whatwe were doing it we don't got all thespaceproperties we need you know we turn theminto amazing homes but didn't reallythink about in terms of the cash flowand and how much would make from theproperty so yeah he's always in the backof mind because like not having a hardto feel home as a young as a child youknow I never felt like my home was homealways had this vision that I would oneday create amazing homes for people tolive in so he's always my vision andalways something I said to my wife and Iwhen I got married and said does it onagain to property or Nicholas say allthe time she probably got better put mehere here with me saying it to be honestand then the other thing going to sayI'm one day I'm going to go to a thirdworld country and I'm gonna build a welland I'm gonna build a school forchildren I'm gonna do so I'm gonna dothatdreams and I was doing nothing thatwould ever get me there my dream wedidn't have a fighting chance everrecording reality because I wasn't doinganything to get there so just I'm justtalking about them and then I kept it soby doing that as time goes by and youstart talking about these dreams andthey're not happening you lose the dreamstart fading and you start losing faithand you you just falling into a routineof work and doing things that you don'twant to do and life's passing you by andyou know you kind of start losing a lotof life and you dreams fade you startfading as a person so I kind of alwayssaid one day when I get married underI'll start doing all this I'll get mydad wouldn't it from a company one dayand I'll start using that money to doall this stuff and you know any focus onsomething I'd say thank you folks it'llbe a comedy well is yeah I think that istrue because I focused on becomingredundant I boxed in the wrong thingsmy folks I made redundant and I got maderedundant which is an unusual thing foranyone to kind of focus on his foes yeahand he's focused on that because of alump sum of money I put that lump sum ofmoney out then I couldn't start doingwhat I wanted to do okayI don't like us but like I speaking toone of my friends when I was a I hadn'tseen him for about twenty years and andhe said are we so you brought BMW in theend I said yeah and he goes I go why whydo you say thatI used to always say I'm gonna BMW and Ikind of laughed three months ago I wishI said I was gonna buy a Lamborghiniyeah so I think being made redundantkind of was just the start of my newlife really kind of all kind of mr. partbe up more logically just as a FinnishUniversityI just finished and I got news that mydad had fallen over and bumped his headaround by the same time as my sisterjust got married she got off on ahoneymoon on a honeymoon and then andthen we got a call sign for the hospitalsaying he'd you know he died in hospitalhe formed his head and we when I've beenin hospital and when I saw him there Iwas not really angry I am and I saw himyou know probably wanted to give him ahawker today you know because he justyou know he didn't look he had a big alot of bruising on his face I know thatbut those are part of me is like whatare you doing to yourself or what youknow take control of your locals andnothing and that came out I just said tohim like you know I'm ashamed of you youknow you need to you need to sortyourself out and then I just turned upturned away and walked at the hospitaland that turned out to be the last wordsI ever said to my dad we got a call thatnoise saying that a fellow in hospitalagain and it is in a coma basically Heyand this basically just miss missed meup totally for years you know not notjust short-term he just played on mymind and I started drinking a lot moreand every time I drank a stick like cryofriends and say hey look you know thisis more last words I said to my dad thiswas said in the law you know it's notyour fault you know I just I justwouldn't go awayand it wouldn't go away I like I saidwaiting to come into my work wentthrough a company and just another doingall this dope never it always be in theback of our mind and then being maderedundant I kind of that looks like thatwas start to my new life and I got maderedundant in January 2017 so I'm nottalking long ago but at that point Ikind of wouldkind of introduced to the property worldwell you know property cause but wasn'tthe property broader so I got introducedbut when you got into property coursesyou started you got you you're basicallygoing to room full of people that's theyhaven't lost faith you know this dogdreaming and still turn out action thatdreamI mean you surround yourself with thosepeople you start believing again y'allstart believing again and that changedme totally I said I believe in my dreamsagain but it wasn't just that they staytold me to read books right and okaywhat books is it oh god we should readRich Dad Poor Dad start yourself off soI did that okay this is good I enjoyedreading that book I'm from then I justthought I'd read and self developmentbooks all the timeand I've never done anything like thatin my life and this won't help youunderstand me he was why I felt why Idid you know I thought I began torealize there's a book out there forevery single thing in your life so tohelp you and things and so I was likereading and reading a lot of books andthey've had a massive impact me it's gota strange thing every time I pick up abook and read itI somehow apply that into my life and itmakes a massive difference so and howthe first book was like Rich Dad PoorDad showed me the property but then Iread stuff like the five-second rulewe talked No yeah I said a massiveimpact on my book and what I'm alive forearly the slight edge was an excellenttaught me about you know I taught methat I've keep saying that I'm gonnahave this much I'm gonna go and build awell I'm gonna go and do something thatbecause it's not like that that thingsnot happen like that you you know startoff by doing a little bit at each timeand building yourself up there I thinkwhat you just said there is a very goodpoint I think this is where a lot ofpeople they probably get the wrongmessage because a lot of people read thesecret or they hear about the secret andthe thing just wishful thinking alone Iwish I could win the lottery for exampleI wish I get a Lamborghini for exampleand just by solely wishing that theirdreams come true but I think youobviously explaining now you've realizedthat that it takes a little bit morethan that it takes that whole mindsetthe whole self-love the self-worth andstuff which you spoke about earlier inrelation to tell you you know and Ithink more important that is action andI know youand I think we met around the same timeyou were redundant and yeah you openlyadmit those times you were taking actionI think a very honest and that but now II see you and I think people that seeyou on Facebook who are following yourjourney I seen you I think you'veadopted is it a miracle morning which ithink is probably propellant to yourstory but there's action being takenthere now now it's not just like fluffyaction like I'd certainly urge people tojust head over to your Facebook there'slike it's almost like a daily thing thatyou're doing and you're beingaccountableI know no he knew it's more for yourselfbut at the same time people are seeingthat and people are thinking hold on aminute this guy's out there now he'sactually taken action he's world startedto changemaybe I should implement it and I knowthere's a couple of other friends whoI've spoken to her actually adopting thesame thing so fair play to you for thatme yeah I think it's a to me readingbooks is been a massive thing to mechange came alive meeting people thathaven't lost in lost faith in theirdreams is one big thing and anotherthing we just read him books and readingyou know if you haven't got a problemfind a book for it I know that's that'swhat I've found like I said I said themiracle morning that's something Istarted as well which has a lot ofmassive impact on me that's basicallyjust having the morning routine spendingtime on yourself so with me he's alwaysabout doing stuff for the people nowmaking other people happy with you knowtrying to do everybody kind of controlanybody's life and making sure everybodygets on everybody's happyand I looked when I struggled to do thatI used to feel hard on myselfbut then I realized that you can'tcontrol anybody else in life you have toyou don't think you really have controlof yourself yeah and if you don't spendtime when you saw then and trying togive yourself to everybody's pretty selfyou'll never helped anybody starthelping you start become a strongerperson and then once you're in thatposition then you could have thoughthelping other people and I think that'swhat I realized from the miracle moreand I started spending time myselfreally you know I'd go out for a runcome back for my run do affirmationsmeditation you know things I found hardto forgive me ways a bit fluffy but nowI love it and I were just doingnaturally in our meditation I like Idon't sit there and sit in silence boyminutes I can do that I found it hardhaving my own timeI never done it but now it's something Ihave to do it's like a it's like amedication for me in a way if I don'ttake my medication daily I'll be startbecame depressed again and I think ifyou wouldn't mind just elaborating onthat actually because I'm a big believerthat we are a result of not only ourthoughts and what we tell ourselves butour daily habits and I've seen yourworld transform which is fantastic tosee as a friend so much since you'veadopted these habits so if if for thelisteners if you could just kind ofexplain your daily routine so I knowyou're very earlyyou acted up earlier than me one of thevery few so kudos to that but if youcould just explain from the moment youwake up just very quickly kind of likehour by hour or what you kind of do andmaybe people who have got a similarsituation to yourselves can kind of gettheir medication fix and get their dailyroutine similar to yourself okay so forme waking up at 5:00 a.m.most days I don't always do that hard onmyself as I always wind up again no I'min a late annoyed or make sure it's dogit must leave but make up a bit laterbut most most days are like 5 a.m. andseen as a wake up brush want to get downstairs I have a glass of water and thenI'll just cause it'll get at the houseas fast as I can get out do a 5k runduring that run sometimes listen to anaudio book or sometimes it just besilencing my own thoughts and I'll justthink about things and and then thinkabout life think about ideas and then bythe time I get back I'm quite fresh nowthe cold air outside quickly at themoment hits your face and it just wakesyou up and then what time I get homethen I go straight into meditation I maysay for five minutesI'm from there I'll go new look at mygoals which I've got on the wall fueland then do some affirmationsI'll talk to myself about what mypurpose in life is and and what I wantto achieve that's bigger than me andthen I'll write down three things thatI'm grateful forand then you haven't done an audio bookwell of Brian Oldham audiobook at theend and then by then I'll do othersocial media updates which I've startedto do not just do you knowpatelliday of America morning that'spart of it trying to inspire people tothe point for me it's a massiveaccountability tool so by me having topost every single day that I've justdone my miracle morning gets me up andit gets me doing itI know another gonna finish it off byposting my miracle morning tellingpeople Barry it's 20 inspire peopleif I've got a four to the day while Iwas running that came to mind or shareat that points and that starts me oftenand not that way then it's right youknow it's around about seven o'clock andmy day's going to start there and we'rebut kids wake up several kids to schoolget back home around about nine o'clockand then when I'm a real apartment thatday is in the impetus my propertyinvestment business that's when I startdoing that so you know like to beputting offers in going see propertiesgoing to see reefers been doing you knowbut by then I'm ready to gowhereas before or probably wake up atnine seven o'clock right with the kidsTeddy come to school running aroundstraightaway not no time to think gethome nine o'clock have breakfast go tothe gym at 10 o'clock 10:30 11 o'clockand start doing some work because thekids because the kids are free o'clockabout about two hours to do ready workon my property business how am I goingto do anything and make my propertybusiness work I'm just spending twohours doing more doing that you know andthat's what I realized you know by doingeverything all that stuff in the morningget you going and in it when you getgoing you're going you know you knowit's been you know a day just even likedoing stuff that you're really focusingon during the day absolutely I think Ithink it's key also as well especiallylike with social media and emails andstuff that that key part of the day thatyou've taken out for yourself which aswe talked about earlier it's reallyimportant to look after yourself inorder to be able to look after otherpeople it's it's done in a time wherenobody's really going to be emailing younobody is able to take away your energyor control it so I I do a similar thingI'm not shy away from the runs a littlebit more than yourself but I get myselflet's call it medication I do the stufffor myself first so I've kind of hitthese small wins so when the day doescome and your throne with curveballs asyou probably know as a property investoryou're kind of more resilient towards itplus if the day goes tits up shall wecall it you've still got so many thingsdon't let you've stood on your ownyou've been the affirmation you'veinspired people online you spent time inyour daughter's you've took them toschool so you've still got a fair fewwins if that makes sense so I think yeahit's fantastic yeah and it changed mylife and like I say I have to do it nowbecause I know I've spoke to you beforeabout this and and I look like myproperty journey in January 2017 and inthis mindset stuff but then you kind ofcame my whole life I became a differentperson everybody around me so I knowgenius you've changed you know it wouldseem like really confident you knowpeople and people started coming to meand saying now people that I used tolook up to you so I coming to me andsaying you know tell us about this bookyou reading tell us about this you knowhow how have you become this differentperson and I was telling him like youknow I was inspiring people and Ithought wow this is amazing and thefirst time ever I could really say thatI lost anger lost the you know the way Ifelt about the past and I let it all goCourtley and I forgave my dad andappropriate up and I forgave myself andmore importantly and I started moving onand I thought wow this is amazingand then November time my sister got itall and you know to begin me we know wedidn't think he was that bad you know Isaid he's off right we were told offReuters because people you know have butthen it kind of then it we got told he'scoming called mixed tissue disease I andthen she went in for a routine checkupor mid-novemberand he just kept just kept betweenhospital I meant being on a propertycourse that weekend and getting back upone of the day and my brother-in-lawcalling McKnight a nap he knows he'sjust not well and she's gonna keep herring and you know she's annoying I seeyou know and it just like crazyI thought what what what they just saidit was you know mix tissue disease andit goes a bit more serious and I thinkit might be you know a raven where arare case of this so we're kind of youknow I went there straight away I knowstage of a hospital for two and a halfweeks and you know that's another thingwith property and stuff that you knowallows you to do that if possibly my jobI wouldn't be now just gone and do thatthat's what I see being could made nomake me realize a limp or two thateverybody's having some kind of partybeing salutely wait but kind of goingback to this door you know but whathappened he's like it just it just itjust like my whole life has changedand you know we've been I mean Iremember this what we've seen theconsultants one of the points and hegoes that we've never seen a case ofthis in the UK it's only been a handfulof cases in the worldright you know we've got nothing torefer to and you know he says you knowit's it kind of didn't look good at allbut if you know if you heard whatthey're saying you think that's it butwe never left we never lost five youknow we have to believe in no she'sgonna make it when my sister was talkingyou know she's the best person I everknew and I feel quite decent George willget furious and you know at thebeginning she was you know obvious thefirst few days you know she's on abreathing machine and that was told itwas like she's doing American everysingle day right that's how the pressureit was on her lungs and she's justfighting it and it's unbelievable saysshe I don't have to put her in aninduced coma you can't keep doing thisand then to Cuzco more you guys laterand you know she never I won't quotefrom that and it's just like it's just acrazy time you know obstinate you knowwhat points that we fought she's gonnabe okay and at those points you knowyou'd lost the news it or favor gettinglike along this collapsed and stuff likeher and you know I was I was able to bethere from the right from the beginningyou know I stayed there every single dayI slept there a hospital talk to herread books to her you know I read a bookThe Alchemist the first time while I wasthere and they talked about no purposein life and stuff and then kind of mademe think and I said to her then does itlook you know I said as a child thatwhat I know that my purpose in life isto make sure that every child has thesame opportunity in life that everycharge of her and that's what I'm gonnado and I'm going to complete thattogether and you know of course she'sgonna make it's gonna change your lifeand we're all gonna you knowleave our life's to max because kind ofjust before she went on reading thefive-second rule and I said like I saida book always comes to me at the whitepoints and you said in there she talkedabout a story of a better dad had a headhead tumor and she didn't want to askhim directlyhow are you afraid because she didn'task him that question but you could putthat you poor white 5 4 3 2 1 just askhim I might see your sister - it was twoor three days before she went intohospitalsat there just sitting in a chair and Isaid you know for about you know whatI'm gonna say I'm gonna say 4 3 2 1are you afraid and she goes she goes nonot reallyshe goes you know I know this is gonnachange my life but I think I'm gonnadeal with me she goes you know I've beenworking too hard and and I already knowthat I'm gonna from this it's made meI've had to sit down it's made me stopand it made me think about things in alot more detail and you guys gonnachange my life now and it spent a lotmore time with my family and they're thefolks and the things that really matterin life and I thought yeah maybe this isa blessing these guys it's like awake-up call for him he's gonna changeyour life completely and you know kindof she never had that opportunity to dothat and that was the hardest thing forme that she she knew what she wanted todo now you'd change in life and shenever got to do that I think that's oneof the key things have changed me sayingthat you know you don't know what'sgonna happen in life you know how peoplealways wait wait for this wake-up callas such you know he's gone propertycauses in and let the first put theperson at the front you say to you tellabout a story of their life and used tobe about hardship and somebody barbercam came and how he changed your life anice to think oh they look in a way thatthis they've had something happen intheir life that give him a wake-up calland they've got some new power thattransformed him as a person and madeeverything happen for them but itdoesn't happen like that you know I lostmy sister I mean it didn't automaticallytransform me into this person that's hada wake-up call he knock mesix two six four six to be basedbasically I I tried to deal with it youknowby keeping busy first and I just freemyself into my property in the gettingfinished anything else and I didn't getmuch time to himself grieve to grieveand and you know to get over it and thenit wasn't until about April so I didn'teven 18 the wife said look we need toget away and putting a bit of timetogether as a family abroad okay let'sgoand so we get to Egypt and I had a fewdrinks and I kind of got back to theroom and I just got his crushed totallyand all this anger just flew out and Iwas like God and I just shouting inevery way we've done this to us whileplaying games of us you know tragic hardlife just as a point where my sister'shappy we're all happy mom's you knowI've settle down we've what we've allgot you know we were married about kidsmoms relax for the first time in her armlife in an alive why are you playinggames with us and why you doing this andalways anger came at it all all totallytowards God and you know I came back andI just crashed I uh I thought green keyI was watching the World Cup under thefirst time you know our drinking onmyself and I've never done night my lifeand I just totally burned all that stuffyou know from just before having thisbook and changing our minds in openhouse all went out the window back to aworse place and I've never been horribleI froze in the dark hole and angryfriends I was angry angry everybodycovenant just angry personhey you know I was angry friends for notalways asking me how I felt about mysisterI was angry about you know people nottotally understanding how I feel and youjust I just started going out of controland expecting some everybody's to helpme and get me out of this hole and itdoes enable you to do something for meand when they weren't able to hang withthem and then and then it came to apoint when I said look Jin you need tocontrol of your life what did you do atthe beginning this year to change you asyou person as a person you need to goback to the basics and start doing thatyou know I can't you can't lady sisterdown that's what I basically didand they're kind of it back to thebasics Nora okay first of all I need tofind a book I find a book that helps youdeal with grief and it's specific to meso I went out looked on found and Imanaged to find a book about how to dealwith the loss of a sibling as an adultis that the exact title because I'm justconscious if anyone's gone through asimilar situation to yourself yeah Imean that's cool because there's manybooks that talk about losing as a childlosing somebody but it's not many booksas losing your sibling as an adult andthen the book that is the title of thebook and I read through that helped meunderstand why I thought were a way Idid how the relationship between my andmy sister is totally different toanybody and how friends and everythingelse wouldn't understand and that's whyyou know your sibling is the only personthat knows you better than most peoplecould I seen you as a child growing upand every stage of your life and that isan amazing relationship that no not manypeople others death understand I call myfriends brothers and I say all the timeand when I say my friends and mybrothers I really mean it and you knowthat was part of my sister's wedding myclose friends that part of my you knowpart of everything I bring them aroundmy house that I'm making part of myfamily and I do everything with them butwhen they didn't feel the loss of mysister the way I felt II always angry atthem was it well she's your sister tooI get they're not how come they're notmorning with like I'm mourning and thenit wasn't until I read this that port nothey're like are having my sister wasdifferent was different yeah and thenshe's special and you know obviously I'mgonna feel that because they didn't theyweren't they didn't grow the way I didwas they did everything that me or mysister went through together and I thinkthat kind of optimize really does a starand then then I started thinking aboutmore about God and my relationship withGod a lot more and then another thing alight bulb came and he said and it waslike okay all my life I've said God didthis god help me with thatI did this God you've got about a hardlife so you owe me you owe me cuz I hada hard life you need to make this happenfor me this happen committees happenedway and and because I've done that I'vealways gave control to God an externalforce and then somebody clicked in mymind that Jin you need to take controlyourself in your own room life and thenI seen a world Smith video and WillSmith said there's a difference betweenFault and responsibilities yeah and itjust clicked in my head again and Ithought okay you know I'm blamingeverybody blame murder blaming everybodyelse their areas yeah okay it wasn't myfault that haven't happened to me it'snot my fault I lost my sister I thoughtthat a lot of what I said to my dad youknow happened but he's moreresponsibility start control takingcontrol of my life that is moreespecially those with my you know that'ssomething I need to do and that's what Istarted doing by taking control of mylife started running again so I did mymiracle morning again I started writingthe book onlineanother thing I've always fought is Ithought I'd seen social medias adifferent tool Sydney totallydifferently I thought okay these areamazingaccountability tool and if I post mystory online every single day it'll makeme do it and I'm just I'm writing mystory so I'll do my miracle morningsenior Timmy oh good morning spend halfan hour to an hour just writing one ortwo pages of my story and I continuedoing that and then you know pleasedon't always want to do I had all thesedreams I think I wanna do I'm gonnastart doing them now I know I could'vequit talking about him I'm gonna stopdoing them so before I know I've writtenmy book your forty thousand wordsyou know next year I'm gonna publish itand 2019 I'm gonna sit down again putinto chapters you know and the bookgonna be called the beikokubecause I bet that's where he's been forme you know there's been lots of wake-upcalls in my life and you know it's it'sgonna be of a twist to it because youknow people always wake white withMichael Corbitt run tell you that youdon't need the wake-up call to changeyour life and the white book or does notnet mean that you just change life mydad had lost his brother that could havebeen his wake-up call but my dad was hea victim you know journeys on lifeupside down even more so you know thatdon't worry learn that Michael Cordes Iknow I think this was one of the mainreasons I kind of want to join the showas well is because okay you've hadplenty of wake up cause I'm sure peoplewill understand you've not had theeasiest of lives but I always myself aswell I almost trying to tell people donot wait for something bad to happenI tend to find that if there's a badevent or something happens in say forinstance a family for example then allof a sudden everyone's live in a life ofgratitude for the next week and you knowthey're really grateful for the littlethings in life but then very veryquickly we kind of just get consumedback into like normal reality I supposeor like the rat race or whatever youwant to call it and we just forget youknow and then in priority start changingwhereas I'm very conscious becausesimilar to yourself I mean I can't saymy life the same as you all we'll haveour own trials and tribulations but I'vealways just tried to live with gratitudeeven in the good and bad times and Isuppose it's come from reading and stuffbut your book sounds fantastic I know Iknow you would do something I didn'tknow you had written 40,000 whereas andI'm sure it's gonna be a big hit matebecause you're not just you're not justdoing a course or reading something andI'm writing a book about it like a lotof people out there do today you'velived it and one of the things which Ithink people will resonate with this yesyou understand the whole aspect ofcontrol in your life and takingresponsibility and accountabilitybecause only you can do that but you'realso showing your vulnerabilities inthat you had it under control then youwent away I think it was in April 2018and you lost it againthen you grasped it again and it'salmost like you know the answers butthen even even yourself with all themindset and the reading and all thehabits you still fall off a little bitand I suppose it'll get easierand I suppose sooner or later you willnail it down and you have less of thesekind of falling off the wagon shall wecall it moments but it's inspiring it'sit's something I'm sure a lot of peoplego through and a lot of people have thatkind of is it the victim mentality asopposed to the victim as you you've gotin somewhere in you I can feel this youdon't wanna let your sister down and I'mconfident you're not letting her downknowing the person that you are seeingyour transformation I just want to addone more thing I remember seeing yourfirst Facebook live videos and we werefriends at the time and nice to watch itI used to think this isn't the gin oh nolike did you know I know you know whenwe sit together and we go out you're funyou're laughing you're smiling and therewas almost like an element of hurt andanger or it could just be that was fiveo'clock in the morning I'm not sure butit was weird because I was like peopleneed to see the real gin and it's onlyrecently and I'm very proud of you forthis because in the last two or threemonths especiallyyou've kind of come out your shell andyou're almostgetting a bit of a following now whichis more than well deserved becauseyou've been through it and one of thethings I knew you always wanted to do1224 months ago was to help people andjust generally inspire people and Ithink you have in those in thebackground I'd always keep him there abit like my first YouTube video as Ikeep him there because I want people toknow listen myself and Jin for examplewe were naturally shy introverted peoplewho didn't know what was going on almostlooking around the world thinking do webelong here should we be telling peoplea story and this is one of the reasons Ireally wanted you to kind of tell yourstory because it's only gonna expandyou're only gonna inspire more peoplewith it so the question was gonna askwas about adversity first he's been amassive part of your life with like yoursister and your uncle and your dad soI'm gonna just kind of bypass that justever so slightly but if you could justquickly just give it like one tip so Iknow you use the book as an examplewhich really helped you overcome thegrief aspect but if there's somebodygoing through something now or ifsomebody out there has a friend orfamily member who's going through whatwould you recommend to them because Iknow I spoke to you briefly about thiswould you want people to come and speakto you about your sister or your fatheror would you prefer it was just kind ofswept under the carpet like the elephantin the room yeah that's a good pointreally because a lot of people likepeople that even speak to me it's allabout ityou know the never said a word and forme that that that that was worse Ibecause you know it's always there nowpeople might be daunted peak to about iton a racy or I don't have heard thatperson by bringing a memory back up butyou have to remember when you losesomebody you never always always thereit never goes away saying you're notgonna bring that memory back up you'renot gonna hurt me in any way you knowit's there he's not hasn't gone away sojoin me and asking me how I feel youshowing me that you you know it's notgoing away and you you're interested inhow I'm feeling and I'm thinking okaythank you for that I think that's usefulbecause myself as well I'm guilty ofthis myself is that you kind of feelshould I bring it back up again but Ithink you've hit the nail on the headthere this is a part of you now likeyour sisters loss is always going to bea part of something like you just saidyou it's a daily thing isn't it soI'd tell you eight people who areperhaps going through the same kind ofemotions or seeing someone they'restruggling with to kind of try maybetake that advice on board I'm not sayingit was the same but it would certainlyhelp most people okay if I test it thankyou for that Jude I just want to justmove this over a little bit what is yourbiggest fear I know you're a father andI've seen your daughter's they'readorable and you might say somethingabout them I'm gonna cheat here andyou're not allowed to mention your wifeor your two daughters so what is yourbiggest fear I think I'm always beenscared of heightsokay I'll get really nervous if I'mgoing to a certain height oh I said mywife and I we get too happy about it Isaid I'm really scared of heights I'mgonna gon do a parachute drop next yearand I go if I do that and that's one ofthe biggest gay things I'm scared ofthen I won't get on be scared on mychest so let's not run persuaderbut going a bit deeper you know thatthat's one thing I think a lot of peopleare scared of heights and what's otherthings yeah but going a bit deeper pinkfor me I don't want to wake up you knowone day when I'm you know 60 70 yearsold and say I wish I didI wish I did this or wish I did that weshould do this oh that's that'd be theworst thing for meI thought our druthers I'd rather wakeup at that point I you know I did thisbut he didn't work or it did work butyou know at least Detroit yeah I'drather be in that position and you knowI want to be I want to be an integrationtomorrow you know I said don't mentionyour wife and children is much worse youknow I wanna inspire them is what muchas anybody else and I won't be much ofan inspiration if I'm sitting there 6070 years old saying I wish I did thisalways I did the poor didn't envelope Ohfantastic great points okay so thereyou've heard it that is the buzzer thisis the fun part of the show so if you'restill with us thank youwhat I've got is a whole heap ofquestions that I'm gonna run through forthe next 60 seconds and it's up to Jinto try and answer as many as possible soJen are you ready ready three two oneokay the ability to fly or be invisibleinvisible when are your fame fameNetflix are YouTube they play coiling ortexting take it in Coke or Pepsi Pepsiwould you rather know how you would dieor when you were dying how Christmas orbirthdays their plays your coffee takesummer or winter summer your favoriteplace in the whole wide world Hong Kongspeak all languages or be able to speakto animals whole languages if you couldabolish one thing in the world whatwould it bepoverty Facebook and LinkedIn Facebookwould you be able to read minds orpredict the future predict the futurehave you ever been in a fightoh we are actually coming towards theend of the show now there's so much morethat I could speak to gin about andhopefully I can get him back on thepodcast just to kind of maybe delve alittle bit more into the whole theadversity side because if you could takeanything away from this podcast is thatwhatever your current situation iswhether it's worse or whether it's thesame or slightly better than Jin'scurrent circumstances is that there islight at the end of the tunnel and Ithink gin shows that 1/3 isaccountability in moving forward in hisactions but two he's now becoming a verysuccessful property investor he's nowattracting a lot of investors so we'redefinitely gonna move it over to thefinal question so the final question Ihave today is if there was a book and Iknow actually you're gonna be creatingyour book next year but let's just saythere was a book written by somebodylet's call it your guardian angelsomebody looking over your shouldershe's seen everything you've been throughin life and they've written a book aboutyou unless say in 150 years time sciencefails to save us or and people are stillreading books what would the blurb ofthe booktell us about Jeannette well so I hopeit would take him in like this I wouldsay that Dean was a man that had mychild keeping his lifehowever never-never net life beat himdown he always got up and dusted himselfoff and kept moving forwardshe was an inspiration to us all that youonly have two choices in life really toget knocked down and stay down or get upand keep going he chose to keep going Imean lady did do that because it wasn'tonly a great husband father brother andsonhe's also a great human being he knewhow easy purpose was in life and thatwas to help young children sufferingfrom hardship have a better life and hestuck to that and he made many a manmade that crew for many childrenyou understood Roy's purpose was he'sbigger than him so he couldn't stopgoing Wow I'll tell you what if I seethat glyph I'd certainly pick it up andI just want to add to that he was also agreat friend as well so truly from theheart so there you have it guys that'san unbelievable story one riddled withups and downs which is still beingwritten and I think that's the mostexciting thing because Jin is stillwriting his story and I hope many of youfind that inspiring enlightening and I'msure Jin wouldn't mind I'll put you onthe spot here a little bit if youreached out to him if you ever want tospeak to him so what I'm gonna do is ifyou could just Nuttall just for theviewers if they want to reach out to youwhere is the one best place to find youand just personal message me on FacebookI don't like them definitely alwaysepital if I can inspire somebody andhelp them in any way I can on theirgreat way fantastic there you go guysJin well find him over on Facebook thankyou Jin for your time and as alwayspeople thanks for listening thank youand remember this podcast is absolutelyfree so all we ask in return is for youto share this with a friend and drop usa five star review over on iTunes havean awesome day See 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You Inside Me by Tori Curtis   It'll be fun, he'd said. Everyone's doing it. You don't have to be looking for romance, it's just a good way to meet people. "I don't think it's about romance at all," Sabella said. She wove her flower crown into her braids so that the wire skeleton was hidden beneath strands of hair. "I think if you caught a congressman doing this, he'd have to resign." "That's 'cause we've never had a vampire congressman," Dedrick said. He rearranged her so that her shoulders fell from their habitual place at her ears, her chin pointed up, and snapped photos of her. "Step forward a little—there, you look more like yourself in that light."     Hello! Welcome to GlitterShip episode 57 for May 21st, 2018. This is your host, Keffy, and I'm super excited to share this story with you. GlitterShip is now part of the Audible afflilate program. What this means is that just by listening to GlitterShip, you are eligible to get a free audio book and 30 day trial at Audible to check out the service. If you're looking for more queer science fiction to listen to, there's a full audio book available of the Lightspeed Magazine "Queers Destroy Science Fiction" special issue, featuring stories by a large number of queer authors, including  John Chu, Chaz Brenchley, Rose Lemberg, and many others. To download a free audiobook today, go to http://www.audibletrial.com/GlitterShip and choose an excellent book to listen to, whether that’s "Queers Destroy Science Fiction" or something else entirely. Today I have a story and a poem for you. The poem is "Dionysus in London" by Tristan Beiter. Tristan Beiter is a student at Swarthmore College studying English Literature and Gender and Sexuality Studies. He loves reading poetry and speculative fiction, some of his favorite books being The Waste Land, HD’s Trilogy, Mark Doty’s Atlantis, Frances Hardinge’s Gullstruck Island, and Madeline Miller’s The Song of Achilles. When not reading or writing, he can usually be found crafting absurdities with his boyfriend or yelling about literary theory.   Dionysus in London by Tristan Beiter   The day exploded, you know. Last night a womanwith big bouffant hair toldme, “Show me a storywhere the daughter runs into a stopsign and it literally turns into a white flower.” I fail to describea total eclipse and the throneof petrified wood sankinto the lakebed. James made love to Buckinghamwhile I pulled the honeysuckleto me, made a flower crown forthe leopards flanking mewhile I watched redand white invert themselves, whitepetals pushing from the center of the signas the post wilted until allthat remained was a giant lotuson the storm grate waitingto rot or wash away. I let it stay there while the Scottishking hid behind the Scottish playand walked behind me, one eye outfor the mark left when locked in.You go witchy in there—or at leastyou—or he, or I—learn to be afraidof the big coats and brassbuttons, like the ones in every hallcloset; you never know if they will turn,like yours, into bats and bugs and gianttarantulas made from wire hangers. The woman showed meour reflections in the shop windowwhile one or the otherman in the palace polishedthe silver for his lover’s tableand asked me whoI loved; I decidedon the creamlinen, since the woolwas too close to the pea coatthat hung by your door.I suppose that the catis under the car; that’s probably where it fled toas we walked, knowingwe already found thatthe ivy in your hair was artificialas the bacchanal, or yourevasion, Sire, of the question(and of the serpents who are wellworth the welloffered to them with the wet waxon my crown). I suppose the car is under the cat,in which case it must be a very largecat, or else a very small car.I eat your teeth. I see brilliantine teeth floatingin her thick red lipstick. Jamestears apart the rhododendronchattering (about) his incisorsand remembering the fleshand—nothing so exoticas a Sphinx, maybe a dustmote or lip-marksleft on the large leather chaise.Teeth gleam from the shadowswhere I wait, thyrsusraised with the conealmost touching the roofof the forest, to drown in a peacockas it swallows (chimneyswifts?) the sun—orwas it son—or maybe it wasjust a grape I fed it soit would eat the spiderscrawling from the closet.It struts across the palace greenlike it owns the place, likeit will replace the hunting-grounds with fields of stragglingmint that the kingwould never ask for. The woman teasesup her hair before the mirror, fillingthe restroom with hairsprayand big laughs before walking backinto the restaurant, where wewait to make ourselvesover—the way the throne didwhen the wood crumbled under thepressure of an untold story,leaving nothing but crystals and dust. We argued for an hour overwhether to mix leaves andflowers, plants and gems,before settling on fourcrowns, one for each of us. Her hair mostly covers hers.The cats will love it though,playing with teeththat were knocked into your winein the barfight (why did youorder wine in a placelike that, Buck?) and yougot replaced with gold, like Iwear woven in my braidsas the sun sets on the daughterthat, unsurprisingly, noneof us have. But if we did, she would turn yieldsigns into dahlias andthat would be the signto move on with the leopardsand their flashing teeth andbrass eyes and listen.To the walls and rivers,to the sculpture that is farwhiter than me falling. Andto the peacock which has justeaten another bug so you don’t have tokill it. Get yourself a dresserand cover it with white enamelit’ll hold up, and no insectslive in dressers. Keep the ivy and the pineconein a mother-of-pearl trinket boxwith your plastic volumizing hairinserts and jeweled combs.And put a cat and dolphinon it, to remember.     Next, our short story this episode is "You Inside Me" by Tori Curtis Tori Curtis writes speculative fiction with a focus on LGBT and disability issues. She is the author of one novel, Eelgrass, and a handful of short stories. You can find her at toricurtiswrites.com and on Twitter at @tcurtfish, where she primarily tweets about how perfect her wife is. CW: For descriptions of traumatic surgery.       You Inside Me by Tori Curtis   It'll be fun, he'd said. Everyone's doing it. You don't have to be looking for romance, it's just a good way to meet people. "I don't think it's about romance at all," Sabella said. She wove her flower crown into her braids so that the wire skeleton was hidden beneath strands of hair. "I think if you caught a congressman doing this, he'd have to resign." "That's 'cause we've never had a vampire congressman," Dedrick said. He rearranged her so that her shoulders fell from their habitual place at her ears, her chin pointed up, and snapped photos of her. "Step forward a little—there, you look more like yourself in that light." He took fifteen minutes to edit her photos ("they'll expect you to use a filter, so you might as well,") and pop the best ones on her profile. Suckr: the premier dating app for vampires and their fanciers. "It's like we're cats," she said. "I heard you like cats," he agreed, and she sighed.     Hi, I'm Sabella. I've been a vampire since I was six years old, and I do not want to see or be seen by humans. I'm excited to meet men and women between the ages of eighteen and sixty-five. "That's way too big of an age range," Dedrick said. "You want to be compatible with these people." "Yeah, compatible. Like my tissue type." "You don't want to end up flirting with a grandpa." I'm excited to meet men and women between the ages of twenty and thirty-five. I'm most proud of my master's degree. You should message me if you're brave and crazy.     It took days, not to mention Dedrick’s exasperated return, before she went back on Suckr. She paced up the beautiful wood floors of her apartment, turning on heel at the sole window on the long end and the painted-over cast-iron radiator on the short. When she felt too sick to take care of herself, her mom came over and put Rumors on, wrapped her in scarves that were more pretty than functional, warmed some blood and gave it to her in a sippy cup. Sabella remembered nothing so much as the big Slurpees her mom had bought her, just this bright red, when she’d had strep the last year she was human. She wore the necklace Dedrick had given her every day. It was a gold slice of pepperoni pizza with “best” emblazoned on the back (his matched, but read “friends,”), and she fondled it like a hangnail. She rubbed the bruises on her arms, where the skin had once been clear and she'd once thought herself pretty in a plain way, like Elinor Dashwood, as though she might be able to brush off the dirt. She called her daysleeper friends, texted acquaintances, and slowly stopped responding to their messages as she realized how bored she was of presenting hope day after day.     2:19:08 bkissedrose: I'm so sorry. 2:19:21 bkissedrose: I feel like such a douche 2:19:24 sabellasay: ??? 2:20:04 sabellasay: what r u talkin about 2:25:56 bkissedrose: u talked me down all those times I would've just died 2:26:08 sabellasay: it was rly nbd 2:26:27 bkissedrose: I've never been half as good as you are 2:26:48 bkissedrose: and now you're so sick 2:29:12 sabellasay: dude stop acting like i'm dying 2:29:45 sabellasay: I can't stand it 2:30:13 bkissedrose: god you're so brave   (sabellasay has become inactive)     "Everyone keeps calling me saying you stopped talking to them," Dedrick said when he made it back to her place, shoes up on the couch now that he'd finally wiped them of mud. "Should I feel lucky you let me in?" "I'm tired," she said. "It's supposed to be a symptom. I like this one, I think she has potential." He took her phone and considered it with the weight of a father researching a car seat. "A perfect date: I take you for a ride around the lake on my bike, then we stop home for an evening snack." "She means her motorcycle," Sabella clarified. He rolled his eyes and continued reading. "My worst fear: commitment." "At least she's honest." "That's not really a good thing. You're not looking for someone to skip out halfway through the movie." "No, I'm looking for someone who's not going to be heartbroken when I die anyway." Dedrick sighed, all the air going out of his chest as it might escape from dough kneaded too firmly, and held her close to him. "You're stupid," he told her, "but so sweet." "I think I'm going to send her a nip."     The girl was named Ash but she spelled it A-I-S-L-I-N-G, and she seemed pleased that Sabella knew enough not to ask lots of stupid questions. They met in a park by the lakeside, far enough from the playground that none of the parents would notice the fanged flirtation going on below. If Aisling had been a boy, she would have been a teen heartthrob. She wore her hair long where it was slicked back and short (touchable, but hard to grab in a fight) everywhere else. She wore a leather jacket that spoke of a once-in-a-lifetime thrift store find, and over the warmth of her blood and her breath she smelled like bag balm. Sabella wanted to hide in her arms from a fire. She wanted to watch her drown trying to save her. Aisling parked her motorcycle and stowed her helmet before coming over to say hi—gentlemanly, Sabella thought, to give her a chance to prepare herself. “What kind of scoundrel left you to wait all alone?” Aisling asked, with the sort of effortlessly cool smile that might have broken a lesser woman’s heart. “I don’t know,” Sabella said, “but I’m glad you’re here now.” Aisling stepped just inside her personal space and frowned. “I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be rude,” she said, “but are you—" “I’m trans, yes,” Sabella interrupted, and smiled so wide she could feel the tension at her temples. Like doing sit-ups the wrong way for years, having this conversation so many times hadn’t made it comfortable, only routine. “We don’t need to be awkward about it.” “Okay,” Aisling agreed, and sat on the bench, helping Sabella down with a hand on her elbow. “I meant that you seem sick.” She looked uneasy, and Sabella sensed that she had never been human. Vampires didn’t get sick—she had probably never had more than a headache, and that only from hunger. “Yes,” Sabella said. “I am sick. I’m not actually—I mentioned this on my profile—I’m not actually looking for love.” “I hope you won’t be too disappointed when it finds you,” Aisling said, and Sabella blushed, reoriented herself with a force like setting a bone, like if she tried hard enough to move in one direction she’d stop feeling like a spinning top. “I’m looking for a donor,” she said. “Yeah, all right,” Aisling said. She threw her arm over the back of the bench so that Sabella felt folded into her embrace. “I’m always willing to help a pretty girl out.” “I don’t just mean your blood,” she said, and felt herself dizzy.     It was easier for Sabella to convince someone to do something than it was for her to ask for it. Her therapist had told her that, and even said it was common, but he hadn’t said how to fix it. “Please, may I have your liver” was too much to ask, and “Please, I don’t want to die” was a poor argument. “So, you would take my liver—" “It would actually only be part of your liver,” Sabella said, stopping to catch her breath. She hadn’t been able to go hiking since she’d gotten so sick—she needed company, and easy trails, and her friends either didn’t want to go or, like her mom, thought it was depressing to watch her climb a hill and have to stop to spit up bile. “So we would each have half my liver, in the end.” Sabella shrugged and looked into the dark underbrush. If she couldn’t be ethical about this, she wouldn’t deserve a liver. She wouldn’t try to convince Aisling until she understood the facts. “In humans, livers will regenerate once you cut them in half and transplant them. Like how kids think if you cut an earthworm in half, you get two. Or like bulbs. Ideally, it would go like that.” “And if it didn’t go ideally?” (“Turn me,” Dedrick said one day, impulsively, when she’d been up all night with a nosebleed that wouldn’t stop, holding her in his lap with his shirt growing polka-dotted. “I’ll be a vampire in a few days, we can have the surgery—you’ll be cured in a week.”) “If it doesn’t go ideally,” Sabella said, “one or both of us dies. If it goes poorly, I don’t even know what happens.” She stepped off the tree and set her next target, a curve in the trail where a tree had fallen and the light shone down on the path. Normally these days she didn’t wear shoes but flip-flops, but this was a date, and she’d pulled her old rainbow chucks out of the closet. Aisling walked with her silently, keeping pace, and put an arm around her waist. Sabella looked up and down the trail. Green Lake was normally populated enough that people kept to their own business, and these days she felt pretty safe going about, even with a girl. But she checked anyway before she leaned into Ais’s strength, letting her guide them so that she could use all her energy to keep moving. “But if it doesn’t happen at all, you die no matter what?” Sabella took a breath. “If you don’t want to, I look for someone else.”     Her mom was waiting for her when Sabella got home the next morning. Sabella’s mother was naturally blonde, tough when she needed to be, the sort of woman who could get into hours-long conversations with state fair tchotchke vendors. She’d gotten Sabella through high school and into college through a careful application of stamping and yelling. When Sabella had started calling herself Ravynn, she’d brought a stack of baby name books home and said, “All right, let’s find you something you can put on a resume.” “Mom,” she said, but smiling, “I gave you a key in case I couldn’t get out of bed, not so you could check if I spent the night with a date.” “How’d it go? Was this the girl Dedrick helped you find?” “Aisling, yeah,” Sabella said. She sat on the recliner, a mountain of accent pillows cushioning her tender body. “It was good. I like her a lot.” “Did she decide to get the surgery?” “I don’t know. I didn’t ask her to choose.” “Then what did you two do all night?” Sabella frowned. “I like her a lot. We had a good time.” Her mom stood and put the kettle on, and Sabella couldn’t help thinking what an inconvenience she was, that her mother couldn’t fret over her by making toast and a cup of tea. “Christ, what decent person would want to do that with you?” “We have chemistry! She’s very charming!” She examined Sabella with the dissatisfied air of an artist. “You’re a mess, honey. You’re so orange you could be a jack-o-lantern, and swollen all over. You look like you barely survived a dogfight. I don’t even see my daughter when I look at you anymore.” Sabella tried to pull herself together, to look more dignified, but instead she slouched further into the recliner and crossed her arms over her chest. “Maybe she thinks I’m funny, or smart.” “Maybe she’s taking advantage. Anyone who really cared about you wouldn’t be turned on, they’d be worried about your health.” Sabella remembered the look on Aisling’s face when she’d first come close enough to smell her, and shuddered. “I’m not going to ask her to cut out part of her body for me without thinking about it first,” she said. “Without giving her something in return?" her mom asked. "It's less than two pounds." “But it’s still her choice,” Sabella said. “I’m starting to wonder if you even want to live,” her mom said, and left. Sabella found the energy to go turn off the stovetop before she fell asleep. (Her mother had raised her responsible.)     12:48:51 bkissedrose: what happens to a dream bestowed 12:49:03 bkissedrose: upon a girl too weak to fight for it? 12:53:15 sabellasay: haha you can’t sleep either? 12:53:38 sabellasay: babe idk 12:55:43 sabellasay: is it better to have loved and lost 12:56:29 sabellasay: than to die a virgin? 1:00:18 bkissedrose: I guess I don’t know 1:01:24 bkissedrose: maybe it depends if they're good     “It’s nice here,” Aisling confessed the third time they visited the lake. Sabella and her mom weren’t talking, but she couldn’t imagine it would last more than a few days longer, so she wasn’t worried. “I’d never even heard of it.” “I grew up around here,” Sabella said, “and I used to take my students a few times a year." “You teach?” “I used to teach,” she said, and stepped off the trail—the shores were made up of a gritty white sand like broken shells—to watch the sinking sun glint off the water. “Seventh grade science.” Aisling laughed. “That sounds like a nightmare.” “I like that they’re old enough you can do real projects with them, but before it breaks off into—you know, are we doing geology or biology or physics. When you’re in seventh grade, everything is science.” She smiled and closed her eyes so that she could feel the wind and the sand under her shoes. She could hear birds settling and starting to wake, but she couldn’t place them. “They’ve got a long-term sub now. Theoretically, if I manage to not die, I get my job back.” Aisling came up behind her and put her arms around her. Sabella knew she hadn’t really been weaving—she knew her limits well enough now, she hoped—but she felt steadier that way. “You don’t sound convinced.” “I don’t think they expect to have to follow through,” Sabella admitted. “Sometimes I think I’m the only one who ever thinks I’m going to survive this. My mom’s so scared all the time, I know she doesn’t.” Aisling held her not tight but close, like being tucked into a bright clean comforter on a cool summer afternoon. “Can I ask you a personal question?” she said, her face up against Sabella’s neck so that every part of Sabella wanted her to bite. “Maybe,” she said, then thought better of it. “Yes.” “How’d you get sick? I didn’t think we could catch things like that. Or was it while you were human?” “Um, no, but I’m not contagious, just nasty.” Aisling laughed, and she continued, encouraged. “Mom would, you know, once I came out I could do pretty much whatever I wanted, but she wouldn’t let me get any kind of reconstructive surgery until I was eighteen. She thought it was creepy, some doc getting his hands all over her teenage kid.” “Probably fair.” “So I’m eighteen, and she says okay, you’re right, you got good grades in school and you’re going to college like I asked, I'll pay for whatever surgery you want. And you have to imagine, I just scheduled my freshman orientation, I have priorities." "Which are?" "Getting laid, mostly." “Yeah, I remember that.” “So I’m eighteen and hardly ever been kissed, I’m not worried about the details. I don’t let my mom come with me, it doesn’t even occur to me to see a doctor who’s worked with vampires before, I just want to look like Audrey Hepburn's voluptuous sister.” “Oh no,” Ash said. It hung there for a moment, the dread and Sabella’s not being able to regret that she’d been so stupid. “It must have come up.” “Sure. He said he was pretty sure it would be possible to do the surgery on a vampire, he knew other surgeries had been done. I was just so excited he didn’t say no.” Ash held her tight then, like she might be dragged away otherwise, and Sabella knew that it had nothing to do with her in particular, that it was only the protective instinct of one person watching another live out her most plausible nightmare. “What did he do to you?” “It wasn’t his fault,” she said, and then—grimacing, she knew her mother would have been so angry with her—“at least, he didn’t mean anything by it. He never read anything about how to adapt the procedure to meet my needs.” She sounded so clinical, like she’d imbibed so many doctors’ explanations of what had happened that she was drunk on it. “But neither did I. We both found out you can’t give vampires a blood transfusion.” "Why would you need to?" She shrugged. "You don't, usually, in plastic surgery." "No," Aisling interrupted, "I mean, why wouldn't you drink it?" Sabella tried to remember, or tried not to be able to, and tucked her cold hands into her pockets. "You're human, I guess. Anyway, I puked all over him and the incision sites, had to be hospitalized. My doctor says I'm lucky I'm such a good healer, or I'd need new boobs and a new liver." They were both quiet, and Sabella thought, this is it. You either decide it's too much or you kiss me again. She thought, I miss getting stoned with friends and telling shitty surgery stories and listening to them laugh. I hate that when I meet girls their getting-to-know-you involves their Youtube make-up tutorials and mine involves "and then, after they took the catheter out..." "Did you sue for malpractice, at least?" Ash asked, and Sabella couldn't tell without looking if her tone was teasing or wistful. "My mom did, yeah. When they still wanted her to pay for the damn surgery."     Aisling pulled up to the front of Sabella's building and stopped just in front of her driveway. She kicked her bike into park and stepped onto the sidewalk, helping Sabella off and over the curbside puddle. Sabella couldn't find words for what she was thinking, she was so afraid that her feelings would shatter as they crystallized. She wanted Ais to brush her hair back from her face and comb out the knots with her fingers. She wanted Ais to stop by to shovel the drive when there was lake effect snow. She wanted to find 'how to minimize jaundice' in the search history of Aisling's phone. “You’re beautiful in the sunlight,” Ais said, breaking her thoughts, maybe on purpose. “Like you were made to be outside.” Sabella ducked her head and leaned up against her. The date was supposed to be over, go inside and let this poor woman get on with her life, but she didn’t want to leave. “It’s nice to have someone to go with me,” she said. “Especially with a frost in the air. Sometimes people act like I’m so fragile.” “Ridiculous. You’re a vampire.” Her ears were cold, and she pressed them against Aisling’s jawbone. She wondered what the people driving past thought when they saw them. She thought that maybe the only thing better than surviving would be to die a tragic death, loved and loyally attended. “I was born human.” “Even God makes mistakes.” Sabella smiled. “Is that what I am? A mistake?” “Nah,” she said. “Just a happy accident.” Sabella laughed, thought you're such a stoner and I feel so safe when you look at me like that. "I'll do it," Ais said.  "What do I have to do to set up the surgery?" Sabella hugged her tight, hid against her and counted the seconds—one, two, three, four, five—while Ais didn't change her mind and Sabella wondered if she would.     "I have to stress how potentially dangerous this is," Dr. Young said. "I can't guarantee that it will work, that either of you will survive the procedure or the recovery, or that you won't ultimately regret it." Aisling was holding it together remarkably well, Sabella thought, but she still felt like she could catch her avoiding eye contact. Sabella had taken the seat in the doctor's office between her mother and girlfriend, and felt uncomfortable and strange no matter which of their hands she held. "Um," Ais said, and Sabella could feel her mother's judgment at her incoherence, "you said you wouldn't be able to do anything for the pain?" To her credit, the doctor didn't fidget or look away. Sabella, having been on the verge of death long enough to become something of a content expert, believed that it was important to have a doctor who was upfront about how terrible her life was. "I wouldn't describe it as 'nothing,' exactly," she said. "There aren't any anesthetics known to work on vampires, but we'll make you as comfortable as possible. You can feed immediately before and as soon as you're done, and that will probably help snow you over." "Being a little blood high," Ais clarified. "While you cut out my liver." "Yes." Sabella wanted to apologize. She couldn't find the words. Aisling said, "Well, while we're trying to make me comfortable, can I smoke up, too?" Dr. Young laughed. It wasn't cruel, but it wasn't promising, either. "That's not a terrible idea," she said, "but marijuana increases bleeding, and there are so many unknown variables here that I'd like to stick to best practices if we can." "I can just—" Sabella said, and choked. She wasn't sure when she'd started crying. "Find someone else. Dedrick will do it, I know." Aisling considered this. The room was quiet, soft echoes on the peeling tile floor. Sabella's mother put an arm around her, and she felt tiny, but in the way that made her feel ashamed and not protected. Aisling said, "Why are you asking me? Is there something you know that I don't?" Dr. Young shook her head. "I promise we're not misrepresenting the procedure," she said. "And theoretically, it might be possible with any vampire. But there aren't a lot of organ transplants in the literature—harvesting, sure, but not living transplants—and I want to get it right the first time. If we have a choice, I told Sabella I'd rather use a liver from a donor who was born a vampire. I think it'll increase our chance of success." "A baby'd be too weak," Aisling agreed. Her voice was going hard and theoretical. "Well, tell me something encouraging." "One of the first things we'll do is to cut through almost all of your abdominal nerves, so that will help. And there's a possibility that the experience will be so intense that you don't remember it clearly, or at all." Sabella's mother took a shaky breath, and Sabella wished, hating herself for it, that she hadn't come. Ais said, "Painful. You mean, the experience will be so painful." "If you choose to go forward with it," Dr. Young said, "we'll do everything we can to mitigate that."     Sabella had expected that Aisling would want space and patience while she decided not to die a horrible, painful death to save her. It was hard to tell how instead they ended up in her bed with the lights out, their legs wound together and their faces swollen with sleep. Sabella was shaking, and couldn’t have said why. Ais grabbed her by her seat and pulled her up close. “You said you couldn’t get me sick?” she asked. “No,” Sabella agreed. “Although my blood is probably pretty toxic.” Ais kissed her, the smell of car exhaust still stuck in her hair. “What a metaphor,” she murmured, and lifted her chin. “You look exhausted.” Sabella thought, Are you saying what I think you’re saying? and, That’s a terrible idea, and said, “God, I want to taste you.” “Well, baby,” Ais said, and her hands were on Sabella so she curled her lips and blew her hair out of her eyes, “that’s what I’m here for.” Sabella had been human once, and she remembered what food was like. The standard lie, that drinking blood was like eating a well-cooked steak, was wrong but close enough to staunch the flow of an interrogation. (She’d had friends and exes, turned as adults, who said it was like a good stout on tap, hefty and refreshing, but she thought they might just be trying to scandalize her.) Ais could have been a stalk of rhubarb or August raspberries. She moved under Sabella and held her so that their knees pressed together. She could have been the thrill of catching a fat thorny toad in among the lettuce at dusk, or a paper wasp in a butterfly net. She felt like getting tossed in the lake in January; she tasted like being wrapped in fleece and gently dried before the fire; her scent was what Sabella remembered of collapsing, limbs aquiver, on the exposed bedrock of a mountaintop, nothing but crushed pine and the warmth of a moss-bed. She woke on top of Ais, licking her wounds lazily—she wanted more, but she was too tired to do anything about it. “That’s better,” Ais whispered, and if she was disappointed that this wasn’t turning into a frenzy, she didn’t show it. They were quiet for long enough that the haze started to fade, and then Aisling said, “I couldn’t ask in front of your mother, but was it like that with your surgery? They couldn’t do anything for the pain?” Sabella shifted uncomfortably, rolled over next to Ais. “I was conscious, yes.” “Do you remember it?” It was a hard question. She wanted to say it wasn’t her place to ask. She tried to remember, and got caught up in the layers of exhaustion, the spaces between the body she’d had, the body she’d wanted, and what they had been doing to her. “Sounds and sensations and thoughts, mostly,” she said. Ais choked, and said, “So, everything,” and Sabella realized—she didn’t know how she hadn’t—how scared she must be. “No, it’s blurry,” she said instead. “I remember, um, the tugging at my chest. I kept thinking there was no way my skin wasn’t just going to split open. And the scraping sounds. They’ve got all these tools, and they’re touching you on the inside and the outside at the same time, and that’s very unsettling. And this man, I think he was the PA, standing over me saying, ‘You’ve got to calm down, honey.’” “Were you completely freaking out?” Ais asked. Sabella shook her head. Her throat hurt. “No. I mean—I cried a little. Not as much as you’d think. They said if I wasn’t careful, you know, with swallowing at the right times and breathing steady, they might mess up reshaping my larynx and I could lose my voice.” Ais swore, and Sabella wondered if she would feel angry. (Sometimes she would scream and cry, say, can you imagine doing that to an eighteen-year-old?) Right now she was just tired. “How did you manage?” “I don’t know,” she admitted. “I think just, it was worth more to me to have it done than anything else. So I didn’t ever tell them to stop.”     “Please don’t go around telling people I think this is an acceptable surgical set-up,” Dr. Young said, looking around the exam room. It reminded Sabella of a public hearing, the way the stakeholders sat at opposing angles and frowned at each other. Dr. Young sat next to Dr. Park, who would be the second doctor performing the procedure. Sabella had never met Dr. Park before, and her appearance—young, mostly—didn’t inspire confidence. Sabella sat next to her mother, who held her hand and a clipboard full of potential complications. Ais crossed her fingers in her lap, sat with a nervous child’s version of polite interest. Time seemed not to blur, but to stutter, everything happening whenever. “Dr. Park,” Sabella’s mother said, “do you have any experience operating on vampires?” Dr. Park grinned and her whole mouth seemed to open up in her face, her gums pale pink as a Jolly Rancher and her left fang chipped. “Usually trauma or obstetrics,” she admitted. “Although this is nearly the same thing.” “I’m serious,” Sabella’s mom said, and Sabella interrupted. “I like her,” she said. And then—it wasn’t really a question except in the sense that there was no way anyone could be sure—“You’re not going to realize halfway through the surgery that it’s too much for you?” Dr. Park laughed. “I turned my husband when we were both eighteen,” she said as testament to her cruelty. Sabella’s mom jumped. “Jesus Christ, why?” She shrugged, languid. Ais and Dr. Young were completely calm; Ais might have had no frame of reference for what it was like to watch someone turn, and Dr. Young had probably heard this story before. “His parents didn’t like that he was dating a vampire. You’ll do crazy things for love.” Sabella could see her mother blanch even as she steadied. It wasn’t unheard of for a vampire to turn their spouse—less common now that it was easier to live as a vampire, and humans were able to date freely but not really commit. But she could remember being turned, young as she had been: the gnawing ache, the hallucinations, the thirst that had only sometimes eclipsed the pain. It was still the worst thing that she’d ever experienced, and she was sure her mother couldn’t understand why anyone would choose to do it to someone they loved. “Good,” she said. “You won’t turn back if we scream.” Dr. Young frowned. “I want you to know you have a choice,” she said. She was speaking to Ais; Sabella had a choice, too, but it was only between one death and another. “There will be a point when you can’t change your mind, but by then it’ll be almost over.” Ais swore. It made Dr. Park smile and Sabella’s mom frown. Sabella wondered if she was in love with her, or if it was impossible to be in love with someone who was growing a body for them to share. “Don’t say that,” Ais said. “I don’t want to have that choice.”     The morning of the surgery, Aisling gave Sabella a rosary to wear with her pizza necklace, and when they kicked Sabella’s mom out to the waiting room, she kissed them both as she went. “I like your mom,” Ais said shyly. They lay in cots beside each other, just close enough that they could reach out and hold hands across the gap. “I bet she’d get along with mine.” Sabella laughed, her eyes stinging, threw herself across the space between them and kissed each of Ais’s knuckles while Ais said, “Aw, c’mon, save it ‘til we get home.” “Isn’t that a lot of commitment for you?” Sabella asked. “Yeah, well,” Ais said, caught, and gave her a cheesy smile. “You’re already taking my liver, at least my heart won’t hurt so much.” They drank themselves to gorging while nurses wrapped and padded them in warm blankets. Ais was first, for whatever measure of mercy that was, and while they were wheeled down the dizzying white hallway, she grinned at Sabella, wild, some stranger’s blood staining her throat to her nose. “You’re a real looker,” she said, and Sabella laughed over her tears. “Thank you,” Sabella said. “I mean, really, for everything.” Ais winked at her; Sabella wanted to run away from all of this and drink her in until they died. “It’s all in a day’s work, ma’am,” she said. It wasn’t, it couldn’t have been, and Sabella loved her for pretending. Ais hissed, she cried, she asked intervention of every saint learned in K-12 at a Catholic school. A horrible gelatinous noise came as Dr. Young’s gloves touched her innards, and Ais moaned and Sabella said, “You have to stop, this is awful,” and the woman assigned to supervise her held her down and said hush, honey, you need to be quiet. And the doctors’ voices, neither gentle nor unkind: We’re almost done now, Aisling, you’re being so brave. And: It’s a pity she’s too strong to pass out. Sabella went easier, hands she couldn’t see wiping her down and slicing her open while Dr. Park pulled Ais’s insides back together. She’d been scared for so long that the pain didn’t frighten her; she kept asking “Is she okay? What’s happening?” until the woman at her head brushed back her hair and said shh, she’s in the recovery room, you can worry about yourself now. It felt right, fixing her missteps with pieces of Ais, and when Dr. Young said, “There we go, just another minute and you can go take care of her yourself,” Sabella thought about meromictic lakes, about stepping into a body so deep its past never touched its present. END     "Dionysus in London" is copyright Tristan Beiter 2018. "You Inside Me" is copyright Tori Curtis 2018. This recording is a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives license which means you can share it with anyone you’d like, but please don’t change or sell it. 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Transcript:Hi! Welcome to this week’s training. I’m Sherri Wilson, an introverted entrepreneur that trains and empowers other introverted entrepreneurs and business owners in the art of persuasion and influence to communicate your message confidently and create the life and business you love.Today, we’re going to continue our discussion of the different client types you’ll encounter in business. Two weeks ago I discussed the BOTTOM LINE CLIENT and you can listen to that training or read the transcript on my blog at sherriannewilson.com…Sherri with an I and Anne with an e.This client type is I on the DISC scale but I want to give you memorable names to help you in your business interactions. Ok, let’s dive into the LIFE OF THE PARTY CLIENT!This client is:Fast pacedPeople focusedOutgoingEnthusiasticExpressiveAnd a lot of funWHEN and WHOI want to give you to sure clues to spot the LIFE OF THE PARTY CLIENT: 1) bright, unusual socks and 2) bright, unusual hair colors and jewelry. “Personality is to a man what perfume is to a flower. ” — Charles M. Schwab Look at the socks people! If I meet someone that’s dressed very conservatively, maybe for their job or whatever reason) but their socks are colorful and have interesting graphics, I know that are probably a LIFE OF THE PARTY personality. Another clue is they leave 4-5 voicemails because they get cut off repeatedly because they just keep talking. LOL!This client type loves visiting, motivating others, and working with others and with teams. They are definitely extroverted and can talk loud with lots of hand gestures.Now focusing can be difficult for this client because they can be easily distracted and talk in circles making following the conversation difficult at times. I always, always add 1 and half hours to my appointments with this type of client. And I ask a lot of questions to make sure I’m following and to refocus my client. Recognition is important to this type. They want recognition for their awesome sense of humor, style, work, and basically everything. Using the phrase, “I appreciate…” is a great way to fill their recognition tank.The LIFE OF THE PARTY client type REQUIRES open communication and admiration. They want to know about you! And they like touching you! So if you are more private and don’t like being touched, this might be hard for you. They tend to not care much about details. Instead they are motivated by the new and fun things like new technology or new products that they can be the first to use. The KEY IS TO HAVE FUN AND VISIT WITH THEM. Priorities:· Offering enthusiasm· Taking action· Building relationshipsMotivated by:· Social recognition · Group activities· Friendly relationshipsFears: · Social rejection· Disapproval· Loss of influence· Being ignoredYou will notice:· Charm · Enthusiasm· Sociability· Optimism “I’ve always had a duck personality. Calm above water, feet going crazy below. ” — K. Flay · TalkativenessLimitations:· Impulsiveness· Disorganization· Lack of follow-throughMy best advice is to enjoy them! If you’re super reserved, private, analytical, quiet, and detail-focused, you will have a rough time with this type. But relax! Ask a lot of questions to make sure you get the details you need, add in the extra time to your appointment, and focus on the new and novel products, services, and ideas you have!If you’re a Bottom-Line person, you probably won’t like sharing any personal details with them. But they will want some but they love talking so probably won’t hear you anyway as your response triggers another rabbit trail of conversation. LOL.Ignoring them can be a trigger so don’t do it. It’s hard to get this type irritated but ignoring them, not laughing at their jokes, and being too reserved can be annoying for sure.Well! That’s it for this week! If you want to watch this and future training live, join our private FB group at bit.ly/ninjacommunication and don’t forget to follow me on Instagram @introvertedentrepreneurs!

第221期 金城武——永不过期的223主播：雲昊坐标：美国 达拉斯我们分手的那天是愚人节，所以我一直当她是开玩笑，我愿意让她这个玩笑维持一个月。从分手的那一天开始，我每天买一罐5月1号到期的凤梨罐头，因为凤梨是阿May 最爱吃的东西，而5月1号是我的生日。我告诉我自己，当我买满30罐的时候，她如果还不回来，这段感情就会过期。We broke up on April Fool's Day, so I tookit as a joke. I'm willing to humor her for a month. Every day I buy a can ofpineapple with an expiration date of May 1, because May loves pineapple, andMay 1 is my birthday. I tell myself that if May hasn't come back by the timeI've bought 30 cans, then our love will expire too. 不知道从什么时候开始  在每个东西上面都有一个日子。秋刀鱼会过期，肉酱会过期，连保鲜纸都会过期，我开始怀疑，在这个世界上  还有什么东西是不会过期的？When did everything start having an expirationdate? Swordfish expires. Meat sauce expires. Even plastic wrap expires. I'mstarting to wonder: Is there anything in this world that doesn't? 终于在一家便利商店  让我找到第30罐凤梨罐头。就在5月l号的早晨，我开始明白一件事情在阿May的心中，我跟这个凤梨罐头没有什么分别。有人说，狗是人类最好的朋友，可是为什么在这个时候，它却不肯跟我分享我的痛苦呢？I finally found my 30th can in aconvenience store. As May 1 begins, I begin to understand. In May's eyes，I'm no different from a can ofpineapple. People say dogs are man's best friend. So how come mine won't sharemy grief now? 不知道算不算是一个记录呢？那一天晚上我吃掉所有的凤梨，还好阿May不喜欢吃榴莲，要不然我一定是完蛋了，我好想去庆祝一下，阿May可能已经睡着了，可是我不知道另外一个阿May呢？This must be some kind of record. I ate all30 cans that night. Good thing for me that May wasn't into durian. I feel likegoing out and celebrating. May's probably in bed by now. But what about thatother May? 台词源自：重庆森林 Chungking Express  我是一个很开朗的人，从小我就很喜欢讲话。I'm a happy man. I was very talkative whenI was small. 但是自从五岁那一年，我吃了一罐过期的凤梨罐头之后。我就没有再讲过话了。 But at age five, I ate a can of pineapplethat had expired, and I stopped talking. 因为这样子，所以我朋友很少，想找份工作呢，也就变得很难，所以我最后决定，我要自己做老板。For that reason, I have very few friends. Ifound it very hard to find work too. I finally decided to be my own boss. 因为我没有本钱，所以我每天晚上，都会去打开人家已经打烊的店，来做一个不用本钱的生意。Having no capital, the only thing I can dois sneak into other people's shops after hours and run my own business. 我绝对不是一个贪小便宜的人，我只是觉得非常的浪费嘛。房租都已经交了，为什么不做生意呢？I'm not a freeloader. I just think it makessense, since the rent's already been paid, to run the business around theclock. 谁说凌晨三点没有人会来买猪肉，我昨天就来买啦，对不对？Who says nobody buys pork at 3:00 a.m.? Icame yesterday to buy some, didn't I? 做生意嘛，本来就应该照顾到每一个客人的需要。If you want to do business, you have totake each customer's needs into account. 佛祖说过，我不进地狱，谁进地狱呢，做老板本来就应该要有爱心，关怀与忍耐和私心不要太重。Buddha said, "If I don't descend intohell, who will?" When you're the boss, you have to be kind, caring andtolerant. You can't just look to your own gain. 我很清楚，天下没有白吃的午餐。所以我每天晚上都做得很勤劳，做到很晚。虽然钱不是赚得很多，可是我过得很快乐I know very well there's no such thing as afree lunch, so I always work very hard until the wee hours. I don't make a lotof money, but I'm happy. 台词源自：堕落天使 Fallen Angels  我非常喜欢吃冰淇淋，我小的时候，每天都有一辆冰淇淋车停在我家门口，而我每次见到它呢，我都非常的开心。我有一次问我爸爸，你为什么不去开冰淇淋车。他没有答我，后来我才知道，我妈是被冰淇淋车撞死的。我在台湾出生，五岁的时候跟我爸爸来了香港，他是在重庆宾馆当一个伙计。自从我妈妈去世了之后  他就变成不爱讲话，也不爱吃冰淇淋。可能是因为大家都不爱讲话，所以两父子的感情一直都很好I love ice cream. When I was little, an icecream truck would stop by my house every day. I was always happy to see it.Once I asked my dad why he didn't drive an ice cream truck. He didn't answer. Ilater found out my mother had been run over by an ice cream truck. I was bornin Taiwan. I came to Hong Kong with my dad when I was five. He worked as anassistant at the Chungking Mansions Hotel. He's rarely talked since my motherdied. No more ice cream, of course. Maybe the fact we're both so quiet explainswhy we've always been close. 齐藤先生是个家庭观念很重的一个人。在他还未来做餐馆之前  听说他是个电影导演。所以每次他有什么事情要跟家人讲的时候他通通都会以录影机把它录下来。我相信他儿子在收到这卷录影带子的时候  一定会很开心。有时我也很想学他，但是我不知道录完之后  应该寄给谁，我也不想结果是寄给我自己。Sato-san is a real family man. He was afilm director before he opened this place. So he always communicates with hisfamily by making a vid eotape. I'm sure his son must be very happy to receivehis videotapes. Sometimes I want to try the same thing. But I don't know whoI'd send my tapes to. I don't want to end up sending them to myself. 那天晚上睡到半夜，我发现我爸爸偷偷去看那卷带子，他看得很开心。虽然我有很多东西是粗心大意，不过我很清楚地记得，那天是我爸爸的六十岁生日。他一边看一边笑，也不知道他在笑什么，不过我知道，他很开心。Later that night, I discovered Dad secretlywatching the tape. He really enjoyed it. I'm usually very bad at details, but Iremember very well that it was his 60th birthday. He kept laughing as hewatched it. Who knows what he found so funny. But I know he was happy. 老人家说拍照拍得多会短命的，我不知道是不是真的。有一天晚上  我爸说他不舒服，我送他去医院，过了没多久  他就死了。这么多年来，因为有他的关系，我一直觉得我是个小孩子。因为有什么事情  他都可以帮我解决。那天晚上  我在帮他收拾东西的时候。我第一次觉得我已经长大了。我不想做大人，我希望我爸爸可以一直在我身边。当我离开那一间宾馆的时候，我只带了那一卷录影带，临走之前，我看了很多次。看到我爸爸在那里煮东西我很开心。虽然我知道，以后不会有机会吃到他煮的牛排，但是那个味道，我会永远的记住。Old people say taking someone's pictureshortens that person's life. I'm not sure it's true. One evening, Dad wasn'tfeeling well. I took him to the hospital. He passed away a while later. Allthese years, I've always felt like a little boy because of him. He was someoneI could always turn to, someone to solve all my problems. Packing up his stuffthat evening, I felt like a grown-up for the first time. But I don't wanna be agrown-up. I sure wish Dad could always be with me! When I left the hotel, thevideotape was all I took with me. I watched it over and over before I left.Watching Dad cook in the kitchen, I feel very happy. Though I know I'll nevertaste his steaks again, I'll never forget how they tasted.垫乐敬请关注微信公众号：为你读英语美文(ID：readenglishforyou)电影公众号对话框回复 金城武 ，获取《重庆森林》《堕落天使》观看链接主播介绍雲昊：江西南昌人，留美软件工程学博士。拥有一副热心肠，被大家亲切地叫做“小哥哥”。主播，制作：雲昊文字，图片，音乐非商业用途，版权归作者或版权方所有 

第221期 金城武——永不过期的223主播：雲昊坐标：美国 达拉斯我们分手的那天是愚人节，所以我一直当她是开玩笑，我愿意让她这个玩笑维持一个月。从分手的那一天开始，我每天买一罐5月1号到期的凤梨罐头，因为凤梨是阿May 最爱吃的东西，而5月1号是我的生日。我告诉我自己，当我买满30罐的时候，她如果还不回来，这段感情就会过期。We broke up on April Fool's Day, so I tookit as a joke. I'm willing to humor her for a month. Every day I buy a can ofpineapple with an expiration date of May 1, because May loves pineapple, andMay 1 is my birthday. I tell myself that if May hasn't come back by the timeI've bought 30 cans, then our love will expire too. 不知道从什么时候开始  在每个东西上面都有一个日子。秋刀鱼会过期，肉酱会过期，连保鲜纸都会过期，我开始怀疑，在这个世界上  还有什么东西是不会过期的？When did everything start having an expirationdate? Swordfish expires. Meat sauce expires. Even plastic wrap expires. I'mstarting to wonder: Is there anything in this world that doesn't? 终于在一家便利商店  让我找到第30罐凤梨罐头。就在5月l号的早晨，我开始明白一件事情在阿May的心中，我跟这个凤梨罐头没有什么分别。有人说，狗是人类最好的朋友，可是为什么在这个时候，它却不肯跟我分享我的痛苦呢？I finally found my 30th can in aconvenience store. As May 1 begins, I begin to understand. In May's eyes，I'm no different from a can ofpineapple. People say dogs are man's best friend. So how come mine won't sharemy grief now? 不知道算不算是一个记录呢？那一天晚上我吃掉所有的凤梨，还好阿May不喜欢吃榴莲，要不然我一定是完蛋了，我好想去庆祝一下，阿May可能已经睡着了，可是我不知道另外一个阿May呢？This must be some kind of record. I ate all30 cans that night. Good thing for me that May wasn't into durian. I feel likegoing out and celebrating. May's probably in bed by now. But what about thatother May? 台词源自：重庆森林 Chungking Express  我是一个很开朗的人，从小我就很喜欢讲话。I'm a happy man. I was very talkative whenI was small. 但是自从五岁那一年，我吃了一罐过期的凤梨罐头之后。我就没有再讲过话了。 But at age five, I ate a can of pineapplethat had expired, and I stopped talking. 因为这样子，所以我朋友很少，想找份工作呢，也就变得很难，所以我最后决定，我要自己做老板。For that reason, I have very few friends. Ifound it very hard to find work too. I finally decided to be my own boss. 因为我没有本钱，所以我每天晚上，都会去打开人家已经打烊的店，来做一个不用本钱的生意。Having no capital, the only thing I can dois sneak into other people's shops after hours and run my own business. 我绝对不是一个贪小便宜的人，我只是觉得非常的浪费嘛。房租都已经交了，为什么不做生意呢？I'm not a freeloader. I just think it makessense, since the rent's already been paid, to run the business around theclock. 谁说凌晨三点没有人会来买猪肉，我昨天就来买啦，对不对？Who says nobody buys pork at 3:00 a.m.? Icame yesterday to buy some, didn't I? 做生意嘛，本来就应该照顾到每一个客人的需要。If you want to do business, you have totake each customer's needs into account. 佛祖说过，我不进地狱，谁进地狱呢，做老板本来就应该要有爱心，关怀与忍耐和私心不要太重。Buddha said, "If I don't descend intohell, who will?" When you're the boss, you have to be kind, caring andtolerant. You can't just look to your own gain. 我很清楚，天下没有白吃的午餐。所以我每天晚上都做得很勤劳，做到很晚。虽然钱不是赚得很多，可是我过得很快乐I know very well there's no such thing as afree lunch, so I always work very hard until the wee hours. I don't make a lotof money, but I'm happy. 台词源自：堕落天使 Fallen Angels  我非常喜欢吃冰淇淋，我小的时候，每天都有一辆冰淇淋车停在我家门口，而我每次见到它呢，我都非常的开心。我有一次问我爸爸，你为什么不去开冰淇淋车。他没有答我，后来我才知道，我妈是被冰淇淋车撞死的。我在台湾出生，五岁的时候跟我爸爸来了香港，他是在重庆宾馆当一个伙计。自从我妈妈去世了之后  他就变成不爱讲话，也不爱吃冰淇淋。可能是因为大家都不爱讲话，所以两父子的感情一直都很好I love ice cream. When I was little, an icecream truck would stop by my house every day. I was always happy to see it.Once I asked my dad why he didn't drive an ice cream truck. He didn't answer. Ilater found out my mother had been run over by an ice cream truck. I was bornin Taiwan. I came to Hong Kong with my dad when I was five. He worked as anassistant at the Chungking Mansions Hotel. He's rarely talked since my motherdied. No more ice cream, of course. Maybe the fact we're both so quiet explainswhy we've always been close. 齐藤先生是个家庭观念很重的一个人。在他还未来做餐馆之前  听说他是个电影导演。所以每次他有什么事情要跟家人讲的时候他通通都会以录影机把它录下来。我相信他儿子在收到这卷录影带子的时候  一定会很开心。有时我也很想学他，但是我不知道录完之后  应该寄给谁，我也不想结果是寄给我自己。Sato-san is a real family man. He was afilm director before he opened this place. So he always communicates with hisfamily by making a vid eotape. I'm sure his son must be very happy to receivehis videotapes. Sometimes I want to try the same thing. But I don't know whoI'd send my tapes to. I don't want to end up sending them to myself. 那天晚上睡到半夜，我发现我爸爸偷偷去看那卷带子，他看得很开心。虽然我有很多东西是粗心大意，不过我很清楚地记得，那天是我爸爸的六十岁生日。他一边看一边笑，也不知道他在笑什么，不过我知道，他很开心。Later that night, I discovered Dad secretlywatching the tape. He really enjoyed it. I'm usually very bad at details, but Iremember very well that it was his 60th birthday. He kept laughing as hewatched it. Who knows what he found so funny. But I know he was happy. 老人家说拍照拍得多会短命的，我不知道是不是真的。有一天晚上  我爸说他不舒服，我送他去医院，过了没多久  他就死了。这么多年来，因为有他的关系，我一直觉得我是个小孩子。因为有什么事情  他都可以帮我解决。那天晚上  我在帮他收拾东西的时候。我第一次觉得我已经长大了。我不想做大人，我希望我爸爸可以一直在我身边。当我离开那一间宾馆的时候，我只带了那一卷录影带，临走之前，我看了很多次。看到我爸爸在那里煮东西我很开心。虽然我知道，以后不会有机会吃到他煮的牛排，但是那个味道，我会永远的记住。Old people say taking someone's pictureshortens that person's life. I'm not sure it's true. One evening, Dad wasn'tfeeling well. I took him to the hospital. He passed away a while later. Allthese years, I've always felt like a little boy because of him. He was someoneI could always turn to, someone to solve all my problems. Packing up his stuffthat evening, I felt like a grown-up for the first time. But I don't wanna be agrown-up. I sure wish Dad could always be with me! When I left the hotel, thevideotape was all I took with me. I watched it over and over before I left.Watching Dad cook in the kitchen, I feel very happy. Though I know I'll nevertaste his steaks again, I'll never forget how they tasted.垫乐敬请关注微信公众号：为你读英语美文(ID：readenglishforyou)电影公众号对话框回复 金城武 ，获取《重庆森林》《堕落天使》观看链接主播介绍雲昊：江西南昌人，留美软件工程学博士。拥有一副热心肠，被大家亲切地叫做“小哥哥”。主播，制作：雲昊文字，图片，音乐非商业用途，版权归作者或版权方所有 

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Historian and author Jean Barman reflects on Stanley Park's 125th Anniversary and processes of dispossession which were part of the making of Stanley Park. Her book Stanley Park's Secret won the 2006 City of Vancouver Book Prize. She also situates Stanley Park within the country's broader colonial geographies and the ongoing work of the Truth and Reconciliation Commission on residential schools.

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The Crevices at 708 meters (2323 feet) of a hydrothermal vent site are occupied by thriving aggregations of cutthroat (synaphobranchid) eels. These eels, which have now been identified as Dysommina rugosa, are known from trawl samples in both the Atlantic and Pacific oceans, but have never before been studied in their natural habitat. The only common metazoan (multicellular) animals occupying these low-temperature hydrothermal vents, preliminary work indicates that they use the vent only as a place to live. They seem to feed not on chemosynthetic bacteria, but on crustaceans that pass by Nafanua’s summit in the currents. Video footage courtesy of UCSB, Univ. S. Carolina, WHOI, NOAA-OE.

View colorful highlights of deep-sea marine life from the Gulf of Alaska, including fan corals, vase sponges, basket stars and squid. This video comes from a NOAA Office of Ocean Exploration mission to study unexplored seamounts in the Gulf of Alaska. 13 dives were made in the titanium-hulled submersible Alvin to collect this fascinating video from more than 3000 feet below the surface of the sea. Video courtesy of Peter Etnoyer, WHOI, NOAA, the Alvin Group, and the 2002 GOA Expedition science party.

Listen to a NOAA podcast on the GalAPAGoS: Where Ridge Meets Hotspot expedition, where scientists for the first time found black chimney smokers and explored undersea volcanoes. Audio courtesy of UCSB, Univ. S. Carolina, NOAA, WHOI.