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This Week In Car Audio S5 Ep25 Guest: Brant & Ethan Anderson current Psychlone Wall WR holder. We'll talk about competition scene in the Mid-West. Host: Doug Stockton Co-Host: Jeffrey Fernandez Tips for the hosts: Venmo:https://venmo.com/code?user_id=292587 Cash App:https://cash.app/$SonicFx For Podcast Sponsorship opportunities DM: Sonic FX

Sean and Alon welcome game designer and artistic soul Ethan Anderson to discuss his pachinko-esque number-go-up 'em up, Nubby's Number Factory!Clock into the number factory to hear how Ethan designs to encourage player intent and how he balances said intent with chance. Plus! Drop the ball and discover the game's inspirations, from Rube Goldberg to Kid Pix to quotas in a bagel shop. And finally, what makes a game evergreen?Follow Ethan at:Discord: https://discord.com/invite/KygdTUKTvETikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mogdogblogBluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/mogdogblog.bsky.socialYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@mogdogblog—TIMESTAMPS00:00:00 - Intro00:01:32 - Numbers guys00:03:05 - “The next Balatro”00:08:43 - Randomness, chance, intent, and viability of runs00:19:07 - When do you stop? And evergreen games00:27:01 - The juice00:31:58 - Circle of trust00:35:13 - Growth of the game00:39:56 - Visual aesthetic00:47:32 - Pulling from real life00:50:16 - The music and being territorial00:58:13 - How to stay focused and how to rest—SHOW NOTESNubby's Number Factory: https://store.steampowered.com/app/3191030/Nubbys_Number_Factory/[Now Playing] Nubby's Number Factory & Luck be a Landlord: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkvbL3JnLlwAngelFire: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/AngelfireBalatro: https://store.steampowered.com/app/2379780/Balatro/The Binding of Isaac: https://store.steampowered.com/app/250900/The_Binding_of_Isaac_Rebirth/Cookie Clicker: https://store.steampowered.com/app/1454400/Cookie_Clicker/Counter-Strike 2: https://store.steampowered.com/app/730/CounterStrike_2/GeoCities: https://www.cameronsworld.net/Kid Pix: https://kidpix.app/Luck be a Landlord: https://store.steampowered.com/app/1404850/Luck_be_a_Landlord/Slay the Spire: https://store.steampowered.com/app/646570/Slay_the_Spire/—WIDE FLANK LINKSJoin the Discord: https://discord.gg/ACbDjNhMpJSupport the show: https://www.patreon.com/wideflankThe rest: https://linktr.ee/wideflank

It's a Thursday edition of Glenn Clark Radio, plenty for us to go over this morning as we get to chat about another Orioles win! The birds take two of three from the Yankees despite losing in aggregate 22-12, we'll talk all about what a series win over the Yankees means, how we feel about the direction of the team as the calendar turns to May and much more. Plus, we'll talk some more NFL Draft and begin looking ahead to a massive sports weekend with the Kentucky Derby on tap, and lots for Griffin to update us on in the fighting world, both boxing and MMA. At 10:20am, we're going to talk some NFL Draft with college football analyst and former Ravens OC, Rick Neuheisel, to get his take on the Ravens and how they did with their 11 selections in last weekend's draft. At 10:45am we will begin previewing the field we're going to see at Churchill Downs for the Kentucky Derby and what horses we need to keep an eye on as we catch up with our friend and MSJ alum, Larry Collmus, who you're going to see covering the horse racing the next couple weeks for NBC. At 11:20am, we're going to make our first trip of the season up to Aberdeen to check in on how the Ironbirds are doing and get a chance to meet Orioles 2nd round pick from last Summer, Ethan Anderson out of Virginia as we see how he's doing and how he feels about the his first full season of pro ball. At 11:40am, we're going to talk some Preakness with Christian Johansson, the co-Chair of the Preakness Festival as we preview all the great events coming to Baltimore and Maryland later this month.

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Understanding markets requires an interesting mix of technical and financial expertise, so this will be a different kind of episode than our usual LS domain.When we first published $2 H100s: How the GPU Rental Bubble Burst, we got 2 kinds of reactions on Hacker News:* “Ah, now the AI bubble is imploding!”* “Duh, this is how it works in every GPU cycle, are you new here?”We don't think either reaction is quite right. Specifically, it is not normal for the prices of one of the world's most important resources right now to swing from $1 to $8 per hour based on drastically inelastic demand AND supply curves - from 3 year lock-in contracts to stupendously competitive over-ordering dynamics for NVIDIA allocations — especially with increasing baseline compute needed for even the simplest academic ML research and for new AI startups getting off the ground.We're fortunate today to have Evan Conrad, CEO of SFCompute, one of the most exciting GPU marketplace startups, talk us through his theory of the economics of GPU markets, and why he thinks CoreWeave and Modal are well positioned, but Digital Ocean and Together are not.However, more broadly, the entire point of SFC is creating liquidity between GPU owners and consumers and making it broadly tradable, even programmable:As we explore, these are the primitives that you can then use to create your own, high quality, custom GPU availability for your time and money budget, similar to how Amazon Spot Instances automated the selective buying of unused compute.The ultimate end state of where all this is going is GPU that trade like other perishable, staple commodities of the world - oil, soybeans, milk. Because the contracts and markets are so well established, the price swings also are not nearly as drastic, and people can also start hedging and managing the risk of one of the biggest costs of their business, just like we have risk-managed commodities risks of all other sorts for centuries. As a former derivatives trader, you can bet that swyx doubleclicked on that…Show Notes* SF Compute* Evan Conrad* Ethan Anderson* John Phamous* The Curve talk* CoreWeave* Andromeda ClusterFull Video PodLike and subscribe!Timestamps* [00:00:05] Introductions* [00:00:12] Introduction of guest Evan Conrad from SF Compute* [00:00:12] CoreWeave Business Model Discussion* [00:05:37] CoreWeave as a Real Estate Business* [00:08:59] Interest Rate Risk and GPU Market Strategy Framework* [00:16:33] Why Together and DigitalOcean will lose money on their clusters* [00:20:37] SF Compute's AI Lab Origins* [00:25:49] Utilization Rates and Benefits of SF Compute Market Model* [00:30:00] H100 GPU Glut, Supply Chain Issues, and Future Demand Forecast* [00:34:00] P2P GPU networks* [00:36:50] Customer stories* [00:38:23] VC-Provided GPU Clusters and Credit Risk Arbitrage* [00:41:58] Market Pricing Dynamics and Preemptible GPU Pricing Model* [00:48:00] Future Plans for Financialization?* [00:52:59] Cluster auditing and quality control* [00:58:00] Futures Contracts for GPUs* [01:01:20] Branding and Aesthetic Choices Behind SF Compute* [01:06:30] Lessons from Previous Startups* [01:09:07] Hiring at SF ComputeTranscriptAlessio [00:00:05]: Hey everyone, welcome to the Latent Space podcast. This is Alessio, partner and CTO at Decibel, and I'm joined by my co-host Swyx, founder of Smol AI.Swyx [00:00:12]: Hey, and today we're so excited to be finally in the studio with Evan Conrad from SF Compute. Welcome. I've been fortunate enough to be your friend before you were famous, and also we've hung out at various social things. So it's really cool to see that SF Compute is coming into its own thing, and it's a significant presence, at least in the San Francisco community, which of course, it's in the name, so you couldn't help but be. Evan: Indeed, indeed. I think we have a long way to go, but yeah, thanks. Swyx: Of course, yeah. One way I was thinking about kicking on this conversation is we will likely release this right after CoreWeave IPO. And I was watching, I was looking, doing some research on you. You did a talk at The Curve. I think I may have been viewer number 70. It was a great talk. More people should go see it, Evan Conrad at The Curve. But we have like three orders of magnitude more people. And I just wanted to, to highlight, like, what is your analysis of what CoreWeave did that went so right for them? Evan: Sell locked-in long-term contracts and don't really do much short-term at all. I think like a lot of people had this assumption that GPUs would work a lot like CPUs and the like standard business model of any sort of CPU cloud is you buy commodity hardware, then you lay on services that are mostly software, and that gives you high margins and pretty much all your value comes from those services. Not really the underlying. Compute in any capacity and because it's commodity hardware and it's not actually that expensive, most of that can be sort of on-demand compute. And while you do want locked-in contracts for folks, it's mostly just a sort of de-risk situation. It helps you plan revenue because you don't know if people are going to scale up or down. But fundamentally, people are like buying hourly and that's how your business is structured and you make 50 percent margins or higher. This like doesn't really work in GPUs. And the reason why it doesn't work is because you end up with like super price sensitive customers. And that isn't because necessarily it's just way more expensive, though that's totally the case. So in a CPU cloud, you might have like, you know, let's say if you had a million dollars of hardware in GPUs, you have a billion dollars of hardware. And so your customers are buying at much higher volumes than you otherwise expect. And it's also smaller customers who are buying at higher amounts of volume. So relative to what they're spending in general. But in GPUs in particular, your customer cares about the scaling law. So if you take like Gusto, for example, or Rippling or an HR service like this, when they're buying from an AWS or a GCP, they're buying CPUs and they're running web servers, those web servers, they kind of buy up to the capacity that they need, they buy enough, like CPUs, and then they don't buy any more, like, they don't buy any more at all. Yeah, you have a chart that goes like this and then flat. Correct. And it's like a complete flat. It's not even like an incremental tiny amount. It's not like you could just like turn on some more nodes. Yeah. And then suddenly, you know, they would make an incremental amount of money more, like Gusto isn't going to make like, you know, 5% more money, they're gonna make zero, like literally zero money from every incremental GPU or CPU after a certain point. This is not the case for anyone who is training models. And it's not the case for anyone who's doing test time inference or like inference that has scales at test time. Because like you, your scaling laws mean that you may have some diminishing returns, but there's always returns. Adding GPUs always means your model does actually get. And that actually does translate into revenue for you. And then for test time inference, you actually can just like run the inference longer and get a better performance. Or maybe you can run more customers faster and then charge for that. It actually does translate into revenue. Every incremental GPU translates to revenue. And what that means from the customer's perspective is you've got like a flat budget and you're trying to max the amount of GPUs you have for that budget. And it's very distinctly different than like where Augusto or Rippling might think, where they think, oh, we need this amount of CPUs. How do we, you know, reduce that? How do we reduce our amount of money that we're spending on this to get the same amount of CPUs? What that translates to is customers who are spending in really high volume, but also customers who are super price sensitive, who don't give a s**t. Can I swear on this? Can I swear? Yeah. Who don't give a s**t at all about your software. Because a 10% difference in a billion dollars of hardware is like $100 million of value for you. So if you have a 10% margin increase because you have great software, on your billion, the customers are that price sensitive. They will immediately switch off if they can. Because why wouldn't you? You would just take that $100 million. You'd spend $50 million on hiring a software engineering team to replicate anything that you possibly did. So that means that the best way to make money in GPUs was to do basically exactly what CoreWeave did, which is go out and sign only long-term contracts, pretty much ignore the bottom end of the market completely, and then maximize your long-term contracts. With customers who don't have credit risk, who won't sue you, or are unlikely to sue you for frivolous reasons. And then because they don't have credit risk and they won't sue you for frivolous reasons, you can go back to your lender and you can say, look, this is a really low risk situation for us to do. You should give me prime, prime interest rate. You should give me the lowest cost of capital you possibly can. And when you do that, you just make tons of money. The problem that I think lots of people are going to talk about with CoreWeave is it doesn't really look like a cloud platform. It doesn't really look like a cloud provider financially. It also doesn't really look like a software company financially.Swyx [00:05:37]: It's a bank.Evan [00:05:38]: It's a bank. It's a real estate company. And it's very hard to not be that. The problem of that that people have tricked themselves into is thinking that CoreWeave is a bad business. I don't think CoreWeave is explicitly a bad business. There's a bunch of people, there's kind of like two versions of the CoreWeave take at the moment. There's, oh my God, CoreWeave, amazing. CoreWeave is this great new cloud provider competitive with the hyperscalers. And to some extent, this is true from a structural perspective. Like, they are indeed a real sort of thing against the cloud providers in this particular category. And the other take is, oh my gosh, CoreWeave is this horrible business and so on and blah, blah, blah. And I think it's just like a set of perception or perspective. If you think CoreWeave's business is supposed to look like the traditional cloud providers, you're going to be really upset to learn that GPUs don't look like that at all. And in fact, for the hyperscalers, it doesn't look like this either. My intuition is that the hyperscalers are probably going to lose a lot of money, and they know they're going to lose a lot of money on reselling NVIDIA GPUs, at least. Hyperscalers, but I want to, Microsoft, AWS, Google. Correct, yeah. The Microsoft, AWS, and Google. Does Google resell? I mean, Google has TPUs. Google has TPUs, but I think you can also get H100s and so on. But there are like two ways they can make money. One is by selling to small customers who aren't actually buying in any serious volume. They're testing around, they're playing around. And if they get big, they're immediately going to do one of two things. They're going to ask you for a discount. Because they're not going to pay your crazy sort of margin that you have locked into your business. Because for CPUs, you need that. They're going to pay your massive per hour price. And so they want you to sign a long-term contract. And so that's your other way that you can make money, is you can basically do exactly what CoreWeave does, which is have them pay as much as possible upfront and lock in the contract for a long time. Or you can have small customers. But the problem is that for a hyperscaler, the GPUs to... To sell on the low margins relative to what your other business, your CPUs are, is a worse business than what you are currently doing. Because you could have spent the same money on those GPUs. And you could have trained model and you could have made a model on top of it and then turn that into a product and had high margins from your product. Or you could have taken that same money and you could have competed with NVIDIA. And you could have cut into their margin instead. But just simply reselling NVIDIA GPUs doesn't work like your CPU business. Where you're able to capture high margins from big customers and so on. And then they never leave you because your customers aren't actually price sensitive. And so they won't switch off if your prices are a little higher. You actually had a really nice chart, again, on that talk of this two by two. Sure. Of like where you want to be. And you also had some hot takes on who's making money and who isn't. Swyx: So CoreUv locked up long-term contracts. Get that. Yes. Maybe share your mental framework. Just verbally describe it because we're trying to help the audio listeners as well. Sure. People can look up the chart if they want to. Evan: Sure. Okay. So this is a graph of interest rates. And on the y-axis, it's a probability you're able to sell your GPUs from zero to one. And on the x-axis, it's how much they'll depreciate in cost from zero to one. And then you had ISO cost curves or ISO interest rate curves. Yeah. So they kind of shape in a sort of concave fashion. Yeah. The lowest interest rates enable the most aggressive. form of this cost curve. And the higher interest rates go, the more you have to push out to the top right. Yeah. And then you had some analysis of where every player sits in this, including CoreUv, but also Together and Modal and all these other guys. I thought that was super insightful. So I just wanted to elaborate. Basically, it's like a graph of risk and the genres of places where you can be and what the risk is associated with that. The optimal thing for you to do, if you can, is to lock in long-term contracts that are paid all up front or in with a situation in which you trust the other party to pay you over time. So if you're, you know, selling to Microsoft or something or OpenAI. Which are together 77% of the revenue of CoreUv. Yeah. So if you're doing that, that's a great business to be in because your interest rate that you can pitch for is really low because no one thinks Microsoft is going to default. And like maybe OpenAI will default, but the backing by Microsoft kind of doesn't. And I think there's enough, like, generally, it looks like OpenAI is winning that you can make it's just a much better case than if you're selling to the pre-seed startup that just raised $30 million or something pre-revenue. It's like way easier to make the case that the OpenAI is not going to default than the pre-seed startup. And so the optimal place to be is selling to the maximally low risk customer for as long as possible. And then you never have to worry about depreciation and you make lots of money. The less. Good. Good place to be is you could sell long-term contracts to people who might default on you. And then if you're not bringing it to the present, so you're not like saying, hey, you have to pay us all up front, then you're in this like more risky territory. So is it top left of the chart? If I have the chart right, maybe. Large contracts paid over time. Yeah. Large contracts paid over time is like top left. So it's more risky, but you could still probably get away with it. And then the other opportunity is that you could sell short-term contracts for really high prices. And so lots of people tried that too, because this is actually closer to the original business model that people thought would work in cloud providers for CPUs. It works for CPUs, but it doesn't really work for GPUs. And I don't think people were trying this because they were thinking about the risk associated with it. I think a lot of people are just come from a software background, have not really thought about like cogs or margins or inventory risk or things that you have to worry about in the physical world. And I think they were just like copy pasting the same business model onto CPUs. And also, I remember fundraising like a few years ago. And I know based on. Like what we knew other people were saying who were in a very similar business to us versus what we were saying. And we know that our pitch was way worse at the time, because in the beginning of SF Compute, we looked very similar to pretty much every other GPU cloud, not on purpose, but sort of accidentally. And I know that the correct pitch to give to an investor was we will look like a traditional CPU cloud with high margins and we'll sell to everyone. And that is a bad business model because your customers are price sensitive. And so what happens is if you. Sell at high prices, which is the price that you would need to sell it in order to de-risk your loss on the depreciation curve, and specifically what I mean by that is like, let's say you're selling it like $5 an hour and you're paying $1.50 an hour for the GPU under the hood. It's a little bit different than that, but you know, nice numbers, $5 an hour, $1.50 an hour. Great. Excellent. Well, you're charging a really high price per GPU hour because over time the price will go down and you'll get competed out. And what you need is to make sure that you never go under, or if you do go under your underlying cost. You've made so much money in the first part of it that the later end of it, like doesn't matter because from the whole structure of the deal, you've made money. The problem is that just, you think that you're going to be able to retain your customers with software. And actually what happens is your customers are super price sensitive and push you down and push you down and push you down and push you down, um, that they don't care about your software at all. And then the other problem that you have is you have, um, really big players like the hyperscalers who are looking to win the market and they have way more money than you, and they can push down on margin. Much better than you can. And so if they have to, and they don't, they don't necessarily all the time, um, I think they actually keep pride of higher margin, but if they needed to, they could totally just like wreck your margin at any point, um, and push you down, which meant that that quadrant over there where you're charging a high price, um, and just to make up for the risk completely got destroyed, like did not work at all for many places because of the price sensitivity, because people could just shove you down instead that pushed everybody up to the top right-hand corner of that, which is selling short-term. Contracts for low prices paid over time, which is the worst place to be in, um, the worst financial place to be in because it has the highest interest rate, um, which means that your, um, your costs go up at the same time, your, uh, your incoming cash goes down and squeezes your margins and squeezes your margins. The nice thing for like a core weave is that most of their business is over on the, on the other sides of those quadrants that the ones that survive. The only remaining question I have with core weave, and I promise I get to ask if I can compute, and I promise this is relevant to SOF Compute in general, because the framework is important, right? Sure. To understand the company. So why didn't NVIDIA or Microsoft, both of which have more money than core weave, do core weave, right? Why didn't they do core weave? Why have this middleman when either NVIDIA or Microsoft have more money than God, and they could have done an internal core weave, which is effectively like a self-funding vehicle, like a financial instrument. Why does there have to be a third party? Your question is like... Why didn't Microsoft, or why didn't NVIDIA just do core weave? Why didn't they just set up their own cloud provider? I think, and I don't know, and so correct me if I'm wrong, and lots of people will have different opinions here, or I mean, not opinions, they'll have actual facts that differ from my facts. Those aren't opinions. Those are actually indeed differences of reality, is that NVIDIA doesn't want to compete with their customers. They make a large amount of money by selling to existing clouds. If they launched their own core weave, then it would be a lot more money. It'd make it much harder for them to sell to the hyperscalers, and so they have a complex relationship with there. So not great for them. Second is that, at least for a while, I think they were dealing with antitrust concerns or fears that if they're going through, if they own too much layers of the stack, I could imagine that could be a problem for them. I don't know if that's actually true, but that's where my mind would go, I guess. Mostly, I think it's the first one. It's that they would be competing directly with their primary customers. Then Microsoft could have done it, right? That's the other question. Yeah, so Microsoft didn't do it. And my guess is that... NVIDIA doesn't want Microsoft to do it, and so they would limit the capacity because from NVIDIA's perspective, both they don't want to necessarily launch their own cloud provider because it's competing with their customers, but also they don't want only one customer or only a few customers. It's really bad for NVIDIA if you have customer concentration, and Microsoft and Google and Amazon, like Oracle, to buy up your entire supply, and then you have four or five customers or so who pretty much get to set prices. Monopsony. Yeah, monopsony. And so the optimal thing for you is a diverse set of customers who all are willing to pay at whatever price, because if you don't, somebody else will. And so it's really optimal for NVIDIA to have lots of other customers who are all competing against each other. Great. Just wanted to establish that. It's unintuitive for people who have never thought about it, and you think about it all day long. Yeah. Swyx: The last thing I'll call out from the talk, which is kind of cool, and then I promise we'll get to SF Compute, is why will DigitalOcean and Together lose money on their clusters? Why will DigitalOcean and Together lose money on their clusters?Evan [00:16:33]: I'm going to start by clarifying that all of these businesses are excellent and fantastic. That Together and DigitalOcean and Lambda, I think, are wonderful businesses who build excellent products. But my general intuition is that if you try to couple the software and the hardware together, you're going to lose money. That if you go out and you buy a long-term contract from someone and then you layer on services, or you buy the hardware yourself and you spin it up and you get a bunch of debt, you're going to run into the same problem that everybody else did, the same problem we did, same problem the hyperscalers did. And that's exactly what the hyperscalers are doing, which is you cannot add software and make high margins like a cloud provider can. You can pitch that into investors and it will totally make sense, and it's like the correct play in CPUs, but there isn't software you could make to make this occur. If you're spending a billion dollars on hardware, you need to make a billion dollars of software. There isn't a billion dollars of software that you can realistically make, and if you do, you're going to look like SAP. And that's not a knock on SAP. SAP makes a f**k ton of money, right? Right. Right. Right. Right. There aren't that many pieces of software that you could make, that you can realistically sell, like a billion dollars of software, and you're probably not going to do it to price-sensitive customers who are spending their entire budget already on compute. They don't have any more money to give you. It's a very hard proposition to do. And so many parties have been trying to do this, like, buy their own compute, because that's what a traditional cloud does. It doesn't really work for them. You know that meme where there's, like, the Grim Reaper? And he's, like, knocking on the door, and then he keeps knocking on the next door? We have just seen door after door after door of the Grim Reeker comes by, and the economic realities of the compute market come knocking. And so the thing we encourage folks to do is if you are thinking about buying a big GPU cluster and you are going to layer on software on top, don't. There are so many dead bodies in the wake there. We would recommend not doing that. And we, as SF Compute, our entire business is structured to help you not do that. It's helped disintegrate these. The GPU clouds are fantastic real estate businesses. If you treat them like real estate businesses, you will make a lot of money. The cloud services you can make on that, all the software you want to make on that, you can do that fantastically. If you don't own the underlying hardware, if you mix these businesses together, you get shot in the head. But if you combine, if you split them, and that's what the market does, it helps you split them, it allows you to buy, like, layer on services, but just buy from the market, you can make lots of money. So companies like Modal, who don't own the underlying compute, like they don't own it, lots of money, fantastic product. And then companies like Corbeave, who are functionally like really, really good real estate businesses, lots of money, fantastic product. But if you combine them, you die. That's the economic reality of compute. I think it also splits into trading versus inference, which are different kinds of workloads. Yeah. And then, yeah, one comment about the price sensitivity thing before we leave this. This topic, I want to credit Martin Casado for coining or naming this thing, which is like, you know, you said, you said this thing about like, you don't have room for a 10% margin on GPUs for software. Yep. And Martin actually played it out further. It's his first one I ever saw doing this at large enough runs. So let's say GPT-4 and O1 both had a total trading cost of like a $500 billion is the rough estimate. When you get the $5 billion runs, when you get the $50 billion runs, it is actually makes sense to build your own. You're going to have to get into chips, like for OpenEI to get into chip design, which is so funny. I would make an ASIC for this run. Yeah, maybe. I think a caveat of that that is not super well thought about is that only works if you're really confident. It only works if you really know which chip you're going to do. If you don't, then it's a little harder. So it makes in my head, it makes more sense for inference where you've already established it. But for training there's so much like experimentation. Any generality, yeah. Yeah. The generality is much more useful. Yeah. In some sense, you know, Google's like six generations into the CPUs. Yeah. Yeah. Okay, cool. Maybe we should go into SF Compute now. Sure. Yeah.Alessio [00:20:37]: Yeah. So you kind of talked about the different providers. Why did you decide to go with this approach and maybe talk a bit about how the market dynamics have evolved since you started a company?Evan [00:20:47]: So originally we were not doing this at all. We were definitely like forced into this to some extent. And SF Compute started because we wanted to go train models for music and audio in general. We were going to do a sort of generic audio model at some points, and then we were going to do a music model at some points. It was an early company. We didn't really spec down on a particular thing. But yeah, we were going to do a music model and audio model. First thing that you do when you start any AI lab is you go out and you buy a big cluster. The thing we had seen everybody else do was they went out and they raised a really big round and then they would get stuck. Because if you raise the amount of money that you need to train a model initially, like, you know, the $50 million pre-seed, pre-revenue, your valuation is so high or you get diluted so much that you can't raise the next round. And that's a very big ask to make. And also, I don't know, I felt like we just felt like we couldn't do it. We probably could have in retrospect, but I think one, we didn't really feel like we could do it. Two, it felt like if we did, we would have been stuck later on. We didn't want to raise the big round. And so instead, we thought, surely by now, we would be able to just go out. To any provider and buy like a traditional CPU cloud would sell offer you and just buy like on demand or buy like a month or so on. And this worked for like small incremental things. And I think this is where we were basing it off. We just like assumed we could go to like Lambda or something and like buy thousands of at the time A100s. And this just like was not at all the case. So we started doing all the sales calls with people and we said, OK, well, can we just get like month to month? Can we get like one month of compute or so on? Everyone told us at the time, no. You need to have a year long contract or longer or you're out of luck. Sorry. And at the time, we were just like pissed off. Like, why won't nobody sell us a month at a time? Nowadays, we totally understand why, because it's the same economic reason. Because if you if they had sold us the month to month or so on and we canceled or so on, they would have massive risk on that. And so the optimal thing to do was to only to just completely abandon the section of the market. We didn't like that. So our plan was we were going to buy a year long contract anyway. We would use a month. And then we would. At least the other 11 months. And we were locked in for a year, but we only had to pay on every individual month. And so we did this. But then immediately we said, oh, s**t, now we have a cloud provider, not a like training models company, not an AI lab, because every 30 days we owed about five hundred thousand dollars or so and we had about five hundred thousand dollars in the bank. So that meant that every single month, if we did not sell out our cluster, we would just go bankrupt. So that's what we did for the first year of the company. And when you're in that position. You try to think how in the world you get out of that position, what that transition to is, OK, well, we tend to be pretty good at like selling this cluster every month because we haven't died yet. And so what we should do is we should go basically be like this broker for other people and we will be more like a GPU real estate or like a GPU realtor. And so we started doing that for a while where we would go to other people who had who was trying to sell like a year long contract with somebody and we'd go to another person who like maybe this person wanted six months and somebody else on six months or something and we'd like combine all these people. Together to make the deal happen and we'd organize these like one off bespoke deals that looked like basically it ended up with us taking a bunch of customers, us signing with a vendor, taking some cut and then us operating the cluster for people typically with bare metal. And so we were doing this, but this was definitely like a oh, s**t, oh, s**t, oh, s**t. How do we get out of our current situation and less of a like a strategic plan of any sort? But while we were doing this, since like the beginning of the company, we had been thinking about how to buy GPU clusters, how to sell them effectively, because we'd seen every part of it. And what we ended up with was like a book of everybody who's trying to buy and everyone is trying to sell because we were these like GPU brokers. And so that turned into what is today SF Compute, which is a compute market, which we think we are the functionally the most liquid GPU market of any capacity. Honestly, I think we're the only thing that actually is like a real market that there's like bids and asks and there's like a like a trading engine that combines everything. And so. I think we're the only place where you can do things that a market should be able to do. Like you can go on SF Compute today and you get thousands of H100s for an hour if you want. And that's because there is a price for thousands of GPUs for an hour. That is like not a thing you can reasonably do on kind of any other cloud provider because nobody should realistically sell you thousands of GPUs for an hour. They should sell it to you for a year or so on. But one of the nice things about a market is that you can buy the year on SF Compute. But then if you need to sell. Back, you can sell back as well. And that opens up all these little pockets of liquidity where somebody who's just trying to buy for a little bit of time, some burst capacity. So people don't normally buy for an hour. That's not like actually a realistic thing, but it's like the range somebody who wants, who is like us, who needed to buy for a month can actually buy for a month. They can like place the order and there is actually a price for that. And it typically comes from somebody else who's selling back. Somebody who bought a longer term contract and is like they bought for some period of time, their code doesn't work, and now they need to like sell off a little bit.Alessio [00:25:49]: What are the utilization rates at which a market? What are the utilization rates at which a market? Like this works, what do you see the usual GPU utilization rate and like at what point does the market get saturated?Evan [00:26:00]: Assuming there are not like hardware problems or software problems, the utilization rate is like near 100 percent because the price dips until the utilization is 100 percent. So the price actually has to dip quite a lot in order for the utilization not to be. That's not always the case because you just have logistical problems like you get a cluster and parts of the InfiniBand fabric are broken. And there's like some issue with some switch somewhere and so you have to take some portion of the cluster offline or, you know, stuff like this, like there's just underlying physical realities of the clusters, but nominally we have better utilization than basically anybody because, but that's on utilization of the cluster, like that doesn't necessarily translate into, I mean, I actually do think we have much better overall money made for our underlying vendors than kind of anybody else. We work with the other GPU clouds and the basic pitch to the other GPU clouds is one. So we can sell your broker so we can we can find you the long term contracts that are at the prices that you want, but meanwhile, your cluster is idle and for that we can increase your utilization and get you more money because we can sell that idle cluster for you and then the moment we find the longer, the bigger customer and they come on, you can kick off those people and then go to the other ones. You get kind of the mix of like sell your cluster at whatever price you can get on the market and then sell your cluster at the big price that you want to do for long term contract, which is your ideal business model. And then the benefit of the whole thing being on the market. Is you can pitch your customer that they can cancel their long term contract, which is not a thing that you can reasonably do if you are just the GPU cloud, if you're just the GPU cloud, you can never cancel your contract, because that introduces so much risk that you would otherwise, like not get your cheap cost of capital or whatever. But if you're selling it through the market, or you're selling it with us, then you can say, hey, look, you can cancel for a fee. And that fee is the difference between the price of the market and then the price that they paid at, which means that they canceled and you have the ability to offer that flexibility. But you don't. You don't have to take the risk of it. The money's already there and like you got paid, but it's just being sold to somebody else. One of our top pieces from last year was talking about the H100 glut from all the long term contracts that were not being fully utilized and being put under the market. You have on here dollar a dollar per hour contracts as well as it goes up to two. Actually, I think you were involved. You were obliquely quoted in that article. I think you remember. I remember because this was hidden. Well, we hid your name, but then you were like, yeah, it's us. Yeah. Could you talk about the supply and demand of H100s? Was that just a normal cycle? Was that like a super cycle because of all the VC funding that went in in 2003? What was that like? GPU prices have come down. Yeah, GPU prices have come down. And there's some part that has normal depreciation cycle. Some part of that is just there were a lot of startups that bought GPUs and never used them. And now they're lending it out and therefore you exist. There's a lot of like various theories as to why. This happened. I dislike all of them because they're all kind of like they're often said with really high confidence. And I think just the market's much more complicated than that. Of course. And so everything I'm going to say is like very hedged. But there was a series of like places where a bunch of the orders were placed and people were pitching to their customers and their investors and just the broader market that they would arrive on time. And that is not how the world works. And because there was such a really quick build out of things, you would end up with bottlenecks in the supply chain somewhere that has nothing to do with necessarily the chip. It's like the InfiniBand cables or the NICs or like whatever. Or you need a bunch of like generators or you don't have data center space or like there's always some bottleneck somewhere else. And so a lot of the clusters didn't come online within the period of time. But then all the bottlenecks got sorted out and then they all came online all at the same time. So I think you saw a short. There was a shortage because supply chain hard. And then you saw a increase or like a glut because supply chain eventually figure itself out. And specifically people overordered in order to get the allocation that they wanted. Then they got the allocations and then they went under. Yeah, whatever. Right. There was just a lot of shenanigans. A caveat of this is every time you see somebody like overordered, there is this assumption that the problem was like the demand went down. I don't think that's the case at all. And so I want to clarify that. It definitely seems like a shortage. Like there's more demand for GPUs than there ever was. It's just that there was also more supply. So at the moment, I think there is still functionally a glut. But the difference that I think is happening is mostly the test time inference stuff that you just need way more chips for that than you did before. And so whenever you make a statement about the current market, people sort of take your words and then they assume that you're making a statement about the future market. And so if you say there's a glut now, people will continue to think there's a glut. But I think what is happening at the moment. My general prediction is that like by the winter, we will be back towards shortage. But then also, this very much depends on the rollout of future chips. And that comes with its own. I think I'm trying to give you like a good here's Evan's forecast. Okay. But I don't know if my forecast is right. You don't have to. Nobody is going to hold you to it. But like I think people want to know what's true and what's not. And there's a lot of vague speculations from people who are not that close to the market actually. And you are. I think I'm a closer. Close to the market, but also a vague speculator. Like I think there are a lot of really highly confident speculators and I am indeed a vague speculator. I think I have more information than a lot of other people. And this makes me more vague of a spectator because I feel less certain or less confident than I think a lot of other people do. The thing I do feel reasonably confident about saying is that the test time inference is probably going to quite significantly expand the amount of compute that was used for inference. So a caveat. This is like pretty much all the inference demand is in a few companies. A good example is like lots of bio and pharma was using H100s training sort of the bio models of sorts. And they would come along and they would buy, you know, thousands of H100s for training and then just like not a lot of stuff for inference. Not in any, not relative to like an opening iron anthropic or something because they like don't have a consumer product. Their inference event, if they can do it right. There's really like only one inference event that matters. And obviously I think they're going to run into it. And Batch and they're not going to literally just run one inference event. But like the one that produces the drug is the important one. Right. And I'm dumb and I don't know anything about biology, so I could be completely wrong here. But my understanding is that's kind of the gist. I can check that for you. You can check that for me. Check that for me. But my understanding is like the one that produces the sequence that is the drug that, you know, cures cancer or whatever. That's the important deal. But like a lot of models look like this where they're sort of more enterprising use cases or they're so prior to something that looks like test time inference. You got lots and lots of demand for training and then pretty much entirely fell off for inference. And I think like we looked at like Open Router, for example, the entirety of Open Router that was not anthropic or like Gemini or OpenAI or something. It was like 10 H100 nodes or something like that. It's just like not that much. It's like not that many GPUs actually to service that entire demand. But that's like a really sizable portion of the sort of open source market. But the actual amount of compute needed for it was not that much. But if you imagine like what an OpenAI needs for like GPT-4, it's like tremendously big. But that's because it's a consumer product that has almost all the inference demand. Yeah, that's a message we've had. Roughly open source AI compared to closed AI is like 5%. Yeah, it's like super small. Super small. It's super small. Super small. But test time inference changes that quite significantly. So I will... I will expect that to increase our overall demand. But my question on whether or not that actually affects your compute price is entirely based on how quickly do we roll out the next chips. The way that you burst is different for test time.Alessio [00:34:01]: Any thoughts on the third part of the market, which is the more peer-to-peer distributed, some are like crypto-enabled, like Hyperbolic, Prime Intellect, and all of that. Where do those fit? Like, do you see a lot of people will want to participate in a peer-to-peer market? Or just because of the capital requirements at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter?Evan [00:34:20]: I'm like wildly skeptical of these, to be frankly. The dream is like steady at home, right? I got this $15.90. Nobody has $15.90. $14.90 sitting at home. I can rent it out. Yeah. Like, I just don't really think this is going to ever be more efficient than a fully interconnected cluster with InfiniBand or, you know, whatever the sort of next spec might be. Like, I could be completely wrong. But speaking of... I mean, like, SpeedoLite is really hard to beat. And regardless of whatever you're using, you just like can't get around that physical limitation. And so you could like imagine a decentralized market that still has a lot of places where there's like co-location. But then you would get something that looks like SF Compute. And so that's what we do. That's why we take our general take is like on SF Compute, you're not buying from like random people. You're buying from the other GPU clouds, functionally. You're buying from data centers that are the same genre of people that you would work with already. And you can specify, oh, I want all these nodes to be co-located. And I don't think you're really going to get around that. And I think I buy crypto for the purposes of like transferring money. Like the financial system is like quite painful and so on. I can understand the uses of it to sort of incentivize an initial market or try to get around the cold start problem. We've been able to get around the cold start problem just fine. So it didn't actually need that at all. What I do think is totally possible is you could launch a token and then you could like subsidize the crypto. You could compute prices for a bit, but like maybe that will help you. I think that's what Nuus is doing. Yeah, I think there's lots of people who are trying to do things like this, but at some point that runs out. So I would, I think generally agree. I think the only thread in that model is very fine grained mixture of experts that can be like algorithms can shift to adapt to hardware realities. And the hardware reality is like, okay, it's annoying to do large co-located clusters. Then we'll just redesign attention or whatever in our architecture to distribute it more. There was a little bit buzz of block attention last year that Strong Compute made a big push on. But I think like, you know, in a world where we have 200 experts in MOE model, it starts to be a little bit better. Like, I don't disagree with this. I can imagine the world in which you have like, in which you've redesigned it to be more parallelizable, like across space.Evan [00:36:43]: But assuming without that, your hardware limitation is your speed of light limitation. And that's a very hard one to get around.Alessio [00:36:50]: Any customers or like stories that you want to shout out of like maybe things that wouldn't have been economically viable like others? I know there's some sensitivity on that.Evan [00:37:00]: My favorites are grad students, are folks who are trying to do things that would normally otherwise require the scale of a big lab. And the grad students are like the worst pilots. They're like the worst possible customer for the traditional GPU clouds because they will immediately turn if you sell them a thing because they're going to graduate and they're not going to go anywhere. They're not going to like, that project isn't continuing to spend lots of money. Like sometimes it does, but not if you're like working with the university or you're working with the lab of some sort. But a lot of times it's just like the ability for us to offer like big burst capacity, I think is lovely and wonderful. And it's like one of my favorite things to do because all those folks look like we did. And I have a special place in my heart for that. I have a special place in my heart for young hackers and young grad students and researchers who are trying to do the same genre of thing that we are doing. For the same reason, I have a special place in my heart for like the startups, the people who are just actively trying to compete on the same scale, but can't afford it time-wise, but can afford it spike-wise. Yeah, I liked your example of like, I have a grant of 100K and it's expiring. I got to spend it on that. That's really beautiful. Yeah. Interesting. Has there been interesting work coming out of that? Anything you want to mention? Yeah. So from like a startup perspective, like Standard Intelligence and Find, P-H-I-N-D. We've had them on the pod.Swyx [00:38:23]: Yeah. Yeah.Evan [00:38:23]: That was great. And then from grad students' perspective, we worked a lot with like the Schmidt Futures grantees of various sorts. My fear is if I talk about their research, I will be completely wrong to a sort of almost insulting degree because I am very dumb. But yeah. I think one thing that's maybe also relevant startups and GPUs-wise. Yeah. Is there was a brief moment where it kind of made sense that VCs provided GPU clusters. And obviously you worked at AI Grants, which set up Andromeda, which is supposedly a $100 million cluster. Yeah. I can explain why that's the case or why anybody would think that would be smart. Because I remember before any of that happened, we were asking for it to happen. Yeah. And the general reason is credit risk. Again, it's a bank. Yeah. I have lower risk than you due to credit transformation. I take your risk onto my balance sheet. Correct. Exactly. If you wanted to go for a while, if you wanted to go set up a GPU cluster, you had to be the one that actually bought the hardware and racked it and stacked it, like co-located it somewhere with someone. Functionally, it was like on your balance sheet, which means you had to get a loan. And you cannot get a loan for like $50 million as a startup. Like not really. You can get like venture debt and stuff, but like it's like very, very difficult to get a loan of any serious price for that. But it's like not that difficult to get a loan for $50 million. If you already have a fund or you already have like a million dollars under your assets somewhere or like you personally can like do a personal guarantee for it or something like this. If you have a lot of money, it is way easier for you to get a loan than if you don't have a lot of money. And so the hack of a VC or some capital partner offering equity for compute is always some arbitrage on the credit risk. That's amazing. Yeah. That's a hack. You should do that. I don't think people should do it right now. I think the market has like, I think it made sense at the time and it was helpful and useful for the people who did it at the time. But I think it was a one-time arbitrage because now there are lots of other sources that can do it. And also I think like it made sense when no one else was doing it and you were the only person who was doing it. But now it's like it's an arbitrage that gets competed down. Sure. So it's like super effective. I wouldn't totally recommend it. Like it's great that Andromeda did it. But the marginal increase of somebody else doing it is like not super helpful. I don't think that many people have followed in their footsteps. I think maybe Andreessen did it. Yeah. That's it. I think just because pretty much all the value like flows through Andromeda. What? That cannot be true. How many companies are in the air, Grant? Like 50? My understanding of Andromeda is it works with all the NFTG companies or like several of the NFTG companies. But I might be wrong about that. Again, you know, something something. Nat, don't kill me. I could be completely wrong. But the but you know, I think Andromeda was like an excellent idea to do at the right time in which it occurred. Perfect. His timing is impeccable. Timing. Yeah. Nat and Daniel are like, I mean, there's lots of people who are like... Sears? Yeah. Sears. Like S-E-E-R. Oh, Sears. Like Sears of the Valley. Yeah. They for years and years before any of the like ChatGPT moment or anything, they had fully understood what was going to happen. Like way, way before. Like. AI Grant is like, like five years old, six years old or something like that. Seven years old. When I, when it like first launched or something. Depends where you start. The nonprofit version. Yeah. The nonprofit version was like, like happening for a while, I think. It's going on for quite a bit of time. And then like Nat and Daniel are like the early investors in a lot of the sort of early AI labs of various sorts. They've been doing this for a bit.Alessio [00:41:58]: I was looking at your pricing yesterday. We're kind of talking about it before. And there's this weird thing where one week is more expensive of both one day and one month. Yeah. What are like some of the market pricing dynamics? What are things that like this to somebody that is not in the business? This looks really weird. But I'm curious, like if you have an explanation for it, if that looks normal to you. Yeah.Evan [00:42:18]: So the simple answer is preemptible pricing is cheaper than non-preemptible pricing. And the same economic principle is the reason why that's the case right now. That's not entirely true on SF Compute. SF Compute doesn't really have the concept of preemptible. Instead, what it has is very short reservations. So, you know, you go to a traditional cloud provider and you can say, hey, I want to reserve contract for a year. We will let you do a reserve contract for one hour, which is the part of SFC. But what you can do is you can just buy every single hour continuously. And you're reserving just for that hour. And then the next hour you reserve just for that next hour. And this is obviously like a built in. This is like an automation that you can do. But what you're seeing when you see the cheap price is you're seeing somebody who's buying the next hour, but maybe not necessarily buying an hour after that. So if the price goes up. Up too much. They might not get that next hour. And the underlying part of this of where that's coming from the market is you can imagine like day old milk or like milk that's about to be old. It might drop its price until it's expired because nobody wants to buy the milk that's in the past. Or maybe you can't legally sell it. Compute is the same way. No, you can't sell a block of compute that is not that is in the past. And so what you should do in the market and what people do do is they take. They take a block. A block of compute. And then they drop it and drop it and drop it and drop into a floor price right before it's about to expire. And they keep dropping it until it clears. And so anything that is idle drops until some point. So if you go and use on the website and you set that that chart to like a week from now, what you'll see is much more normal looking sort of curves. But if you say, oh, I want to start right now, that immediate instant, here's the compute that I want right now is the is functionally the preemptible price. It's where most people are getting the best compute or like the best compute prices from. The caveat of that is you can do really fun stuff on SFC if you want. So because it's not actually preemptible, it's it's reserved, but only reserved for an hour, which means that the optimal way to use as of compute is to just buy on the market price, but set a limit price that is much higher. So you can set a limit price for like four dollars and say, oh, if the market ever happens to spike up to four dollars, then don't buy. I don't want to buy that at that price for that price. I don't want to buy that at that price for that price for an hour. But otherwise, just buy at the cheapest price. And if you're comfortable with that of the volatility of it, you're actually going to get like really good prices, like close to a dollar an hour or so on, sometimes down to like 80 cents or whatever. You said four, though. Yeah. So that's the thing. You want to lower the limit. So four is your max price. Four is like where you basically want to like pull the plug and say don't do it because the actual average price is not or like the, you know, the preemptible price doesn't actually look like that. So what you're doing when you're saying four is always, always, always give me this compute. Like continue to buy every hour. Don't preempt me. Don't kick me off. And I want this compute and just buy at the preemptible price, but never kick me off. The only times in which you get kicked off is if there is a big price spike. And, you know, let's say one day out of the year, there's like a four dollar an hour price because of some weird fluke or something. If there are other periods of time, you're actually getting a much lower price than you. It makes sense. Your your average cost that you're actually paying is way better. And your trade off here is you don't literally know what price you're going to get. So it's volatile. But your actual average historically has been like everyone who's done this has gotten wildly better prices. And this is like one of the clever things you can do with the market. If you're willing to make those trade offs, you can get a lot of really good prices. You can also do other things like you can only buy at night, for example. So the price goes down at night. And so you can say, oh, I want to only buy, you know, if the price is lower than 90 cents. And so if you have some long running job, you can make it only run on 90 cents and then you recover back and so on. Yeah. So what you can kind of create as like a spot inst is what other the CPU world has. Yes. But you've created a system where you can kind of manufacture the exact profile that you want. Exactly. That is not just whatever the hyperscalers offer you, which is usually just one thing. Correct. SF Compute is like the power tool. The underlying primitives of like hourly compute is there. Correct. Yeah, it's pretty interesting. I've often asked OpenAI. So like, you know, all these guys. Cloud as well. They do batch APIs. So it's half off of whatever your thing is. Yeah. And the only contract is we'll return in 24 hours. Sure. Right. And I was like, 24 hours is good. But sometimes I want one hour. I want four hours. I want something. And so based off of SF Compute's system, you can actually kind of create that kind of guarantee. Totally. That would be like, you know, not 24, but within eight hours, within four hours, like the work half of a workday. Yes. I can return your results to you. And then I can return it to you. And if your latency requirements are like that low, actually it's fine. Yes. Correct. Yeah. You can carve out that. You can financially engineer that on SFC. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I think to me that unlocks a lot of agent use cases that I want, which is like, yeah, I worked in a background, but I don't want you to take a day. Yeah. Correct. Take a couple hours or something. Yeah. This touches a lot of my like background because I used to be a derivatives trader. Yeah. And this is a forward market. Yeah. A futures forward market, whatever you call it. Not a future. Very explicitly not a future. Not yet a futures. Yes. But I don't know if you have any other points to talk about. So you recognize that you are a, you know, a marketplace and you've hired, I met Alex Epstein at your launch event and you're like, you're, you're building out the financialization of GPUs. Yeah. So part of that's legal. Mm-hmm. Totally. Part of that is like listing on an exchange. Yep. Maybe you're the exchange. I don't know how that works, but just like, talk to me about that. Like from the legal, the standardization, the like, where is this all headed? You know, is this like a full listed on the Chicago Mercantile Exchange or whatever? What we're trying to do is create an underlying spot market that gives you an index price that you can use. And then with that index price, you can create a cash settled future. And with a cash settled future, you can go back to the data centers and you can say, lock in your price now and de-risk your entire position, which lets you get cheaper cost of capital and so on. And that we think will improve the entire industry because the marginal cost of compute is the risk. It's risk as shown by that graph and basically every part of this conversation. It's risk that causes the price to be all sorts of funky. And we think a future is the correct solution to this. So that's the eventual goal. Right now you have to make the underlying spot market in order to make this occur. And then to make the spot market work, you actually have to solve a lot of technology problems. You really cannot make a spot market work if you don't run the clusters, if you don't have control over them, if you don't know how to audit them, because these are super computers, not soybeans. They have to work. In a way that like, it's just a lot simpler to deliver a soybean than it is to deliver it. I don't know. Talk to the soybean guys. Sure. You know? Yeah. But you have to have a delivery mechanism. Your delivery mechanism, like somebody somewhere has to actually get the compute at some point and it actually has to work. And it is really complicated. And so that is the other part of our business that we go and we build a bare metal infrastructure stack that goes. And then also we do auditing of all the clusters. You sort of de-risk the technical perspective and that allows you to eventually de-risk the financial perspective. And that is kind of the pitch of SF Compute. Yeah. I'll double click on the auditing on the clusters. This is something I've had conversations with Vitae on. He started Rika and I think he had a blog post which kind of shone the light a little bit on how unreliable some clusters are versus others. Correct. Yeah. And sometimes you kind of have to season them and age them a little bit to find the bad cards. You have to burn them in. Yeah. So what do you do to audit them? There's like a burn-in process, a suite of tests, and then active checking and passive checking. Burn-in process is where you typically run LINPACK. LINPACK is this thing that like a bunch of linear algebra equations that you're stress testing the GPUs. This is a proprietary thing that you wrote? No, no, no. LINPACK is like the most common form of burn-in. If you just type in burn-in, typically when people say burn-in, they literally just mean LINPACK. It's like an NVIDIA reference version of this. Again, NVIDIA could run this before they ship, but now the customers have to do it. It's annoying. You're not just checking for the GPU itself. You're checking like the whole component, all the hardware. And it's a lot of work. It's an integration test. It's an integration test. Yeah. So what you're doing when you're running LINPACK or burn-in in general is you're stress testing the GPUs for some period of time, 48 hours, for example, maybe seven days or so on. And you're just trying to kill all the dead GPUs or any components in the system that are broken. And we've had experiences where we ran LINPACK on a cluster and it rounds out, sort of comes offline when you run LINPACK. This is a pretty good sign that maybe there is a problem with this cluster. Yeah. So LINPACK is like the most common sort of standard test. But then beyond that, what you do is we have like a series of performance tests that replicate a much more realistic environment as well that we run just assuming if LINPACK works at all, then you run the next set of tests. And then while the GPUs are in operation, you're also going through and you're doing active tests and passive tests. Passive tests are things that are running in the background while somebody else is running, while like some other workload is running. And active tests are during like idle periods. You're running some sort of check that would otherwise sort of interrupt something. And then the active tests will take something offline, basically. Or a passive check might mark it to get taken offline later and so on. And then the thing that we are working on that we have working partially but not entirely is automated refunds, which is basically like, is the case that the hardware breaks so much. And there's only so much that we can do and it is the effect of pretty much the entire industry. So a pretty common thing that I think happens to kind of everybody in the space is a customer comes online, they experience your cluster, and your cluster has the same problem that like any cluster has, or it's I mean, a different problem every time, but they experience one of the problems of HPC. And then their experience is bad. And you have to like negotiate a refund or some other thing like this. It's always case by case. And like, yeah, a lot of people just eat the cost. Correct. So one of the nice things about a market that we can do as we get bigger and have been doing as we can bigger is we can immediately give you something else. And then also we can automatically refund you. And you're still gonna experience it like the hardware problems aren't going away until the underlying vendors fix things. But honestly, I don't think that's likely because you're always pushing the limits of HPC. This is the case of trying to build a supercomputer. that's one of the nice things that we can do is we can switch you out for somebody else somewhere, and then automatically refund you or prorate or whatever the correct move is. One of the things that you say in this conversation with me was like, you know, you know, a provider is good when they guarantee automatic refunds. Which doesn't happen. But yeah, that's, that's in our contact with all the underlying cloud providers. You built it in already. Yeah. So we have a quite strict SLA that we pass on to you. The reason why

 Part one of the episode is our hilarious chat with Adam Monda (guitar and vocals), Ethan Anderson (guitar, vocals, and the occasional flute), and Dave Goedde (drums)of Massy Feguson (and a cameo by keyboardist Fred Slater). We discussed how they started out with their first gig at a farmer's market, working with Damien Jurado, and their newly released album “You Can't Tell Me I'm Not What a Used to Be” their first vinyl release!  Part two of the episode features Cindy Emch and Clint Cleveland of Secret Emchy Society. We talked about Cindy's starting the band under the guise of filling in on egg shaker for some friends, curating the Queer Country events at AmericanaFest and being ‘outlaw countrythat lives at the intersection of shit-kickery and tenderness.'  Honestly our faces hurt from smiling after these two conversations!  Be sure to listen for the plug for Bolton's Famous Hot Chicken in East Nashville.   Find them here:   Massy Ferguson—  Website: www.massyfergusonband.com  Facebook: Massy Ferguson  Instagram:massyfergusonband  YouTube: massyfergusonband   Secret Emchy Society—  Website: www.emchy.com  Facebook: Secret Emchy Society  Instagram: secretemchysociety  YouTube: Secret Emchy Society 

The picks are in! Brendan Mortensen and Annie Klaff break down the selections of Vance Honeycutt, Griff O'Ferrall and Ethan Anderson.

Hot Take Tuesday begins!  They may even be extra hilarious this week. UVA is in Omaha battling for the College World Series, and Ethan Anderson joins us to talk about the Cavs run. The Tides are back in town, so Pete Michaud will have an update on the squad for us with Memphis in town.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

As a sophomore last season, Ethan Anderson starred at first base and helped the UVA baseball team advance to the College World Series for the sixth time in program history. Now at catcher, Anderson talks about his position change and much more with show host Jeff White.

Mark Few and the Gonzaga Bulldogs are taking on Lorenzo Romar and the Pepperdine Waves to begin the WCC slate, a Thursday evening bout at The Kennel in Spokane. The Waves are led by Michael Ajayi and Houston Mallette and recently returned NBA prospect and brother of Denver's Michael Porter Jr., Jevon Porter, who could present a matchup problem for the Zags.For Gonzaga to secure a victory and continue their massive win streak against Pepperdine, they'll need a heavy dose of Graham Ike on the block, to defend the perimeter well, and to force Ethan Anderson into turnovers and get easy buckets in transition.We close out the show discussing Lisa Fortier and the Lady Zags, who are opening up conference play on the road against Portland, the team that beat them in the WCC Tournament last year. Can they exact some revenge and potentially go undefeated until Selection Monday?Discord Server: https://discord.gg/CcSNerjWPmLink to national college basketball national podcast: https://linktr.ee/LockedOncbbhttps://linktr.ee/LockedOnZagsLocked on Zags - Part of the Locked on Podcast Network.Support Us By Supporting Our Sponsors!BirddogsGo to birddogs.com/lockedoncollege or enter promo code LOCKEDONCOLLEGE for a free water bottle with any purchase. You won't want to take your birddogs off we promise you.NutrafolTake the first step to visibly thicker, healthier hair. For a limited time, Nutrafol is offering our listeners ten dollars off your first month's subscription and free shipping when you go to Nutrafol.com/men and enter the promo code LOCKEDONCOLLEGE. Athletic BrewingGo to AthleticBrewing.com and enter code LOCKEDON to get 15% off your first online order or find a store near you! Athletic Brewing. Milford, CT and San Diego, CA. Near Beer.BetterhelpThis podcast is sponsored by BetterHelp.If you're thinking of starting therapy, give BetterHelp a try. Visit BetterHelp.com/lockedoncollege today to get 10% off your first month.GametimeDownload the Gametime app, create an account, and use code LOCKEDONCOLLEGE for $20 off your first purchase.LinkedInLinkedIn Jobs helps you find the qualified candidates you want to talk to, faster. Post your job for free at LinkedIn.com/LOCKEDONCOLLEGE. Terms and conditions apply.eBay MotorsFor parts that fit, head to eBay Motors and look for the green check. Stay in the game with eBay Guaranteed Fit. eBay Motors dot com. Let's ride. eBay Guaranteed Fit only available to US customers. Eligible items only. Exclusions apply.FanDuelMake Every Moment More. Right now, NEW customers can bet FIVE DOLLARS and get TWO HUNDRED in BONUS BETS – GUARANTEED. Visit FanDuel.com/LOCKEDON to get started.FANDUEL DISCLAIMER: 21+ in select states. First online real money wager only. Bonus issued as nonwithdrawable free bets that expires in 14 days. Restrictions apply. See terms at sportsbook.fanduel.com. Gambling Problem? Call 1-800-GAMBLER or visit FanDuel.com/RG (CO, IA, MD, MI, NJ, PA, IL, VA, WV), 1-800-NEXT-STEP or text NEXTSTEP to 53342 (AZ), 1-888-789-7777 or visit ccpg.org/chat (CT), 1-800-9-WITH-IT (IN), 1-800-522-4700 (WY, KS) or visit ksgamblinghelp.com (KS), 1-877-770-STOP (LA), 1-877-8-HOPENY or text HOPENY (467369) (NY), TN REDLINE 1-800-889-9789 (TN)Follow & Subscribe on all Podcast platforms…

Mark Few and the Gonzaga Bulldogs are taking on Lorenzo Romar and the Pepperdine Waves to begin the WCC slate, a Thursday evening bout at The Kennel in Spokane. The Waves are led by Michael Ajayi and Houston Mallette and recently returned NBA prospect and brother of Denver's Michael Porter Jr., Jevon Porter, who could present a matchup problem for the Zags. For Gonzaga to secure a victory and continue their massive win streak against Pepperdine, they'll need a heavy dose of Graham Ike on the block, to defend the perimeter well, and to force Ethan Anderson into turnovers and get easy buckets in transition. We close out the show discussing Lisa Fortier and the Lady Zags, who are opening up conference play on the road against Portland, the team that beat them in the WCC Tournament last year. Can they exact some revenge and potentially go undefeated until Selection Monday? Discord Server: https://discord.gg/CcSNerjWPm Link to national college basketball national podcast: https://linktr.ee/LockedOncbb https://linktr.ee/LockedOnZags Locked on Zags - Part of the Locked on Podcast Network. Support Us By Supporting Our Sponsors! Birddogs Go to birddogs.com/lockedoncollege or enter promo code LOCKEDONCOLLEGE for a free water bottle with any purchase. You won't want to take your birddogs off we promise you. Nutrafol Take the first step to visibly thicker, healthier hair. For a limited time, Nutrafol is offering our listeners ten dollars off your first month's subscription and free shipping when you go to Nutrafol.com/men and enter the promo code LOCKEDONCOLLEGE.  Athletic Brewing Go to AthleticBrewing.com and enter code LOCKEDON to get 15% off your first online order or find a store near you! Athletic Brewing. Milford, CT and San Diego, CA. Near Beer. Betterhelp This podcast is sponsored by BetterHelp.If you're thinking of starting therapy, give BetterHelp a try. Visit BetterHelp.com/lockedoncollege today to get 10% off your first month. Gametime Download the Gametime app, create an account, and use code LOCKEDONCOLLEGE for $20 off your first purchase. LinkedIn LinkedIn Jobs helps you find the qualified candidates you want to talk to, faster. Post your job for free at LinkedIn.com/LOCKEDONCOLLEGE. Terms and conditions apply. eBay Motors For parts that fit, head to eBay Motors and look for the green check. Stay in the game with eBay Guaranteed Fit. eBay Motors dot com. Let's ride. eBay Guaranteed Fit only available to US customers. Eligible items only. Exclusions apply. FanDuel Make Every Moment More. Right now, NEW customers can bet FIVE DOLLARS and get TWO HUNDRED in BONUS BETS – GUARANTEED. Visit FanDuel.com/LOCKEDON to get started. FANDUEL DISCLAIMER: 21+ in select states. First online real money wager only. Bonus issued as nonwithdrawable free bets that expires in 14 days. Restrictions apply. See terms at sportsbook.fanduel.com. Gambling Problem? Call 1-800-GAMBLER or visit FanDuel.com/RG (CO, IA, MD, MI, NJ, PA, IL, VA, WV), 1-800-NEXT-STEP or text NEXTSTEP to 53342 (AZ), 1-888-789-7777 or visit ccpg.org/chat (CT), 1-800-9-WITH-IT (IN), 1-800-522-4700 (WY, KS) or visit ksgamblinghelp.com (KS), 1-877-770-STOP (LA), 1-877-8-HOPENY or text HOPENY (467369) (NY), TN REDLINE 1-800-889-9789 (TN) Follow & Subscribe on all Podcast platforms…

WE MADE IT! ONE HUNDRED EPISODES! We've got a supersized three part special episode that's divided into three separate episodes for your listening pleasure.So on Part 1 of our Centennial podcast episode host Aaron Schilb gives a brief background into the history of Nashville Tour Stop, then we've got a special treat from some of our live show community's favorite memories, and then Aaron shares some of his personal favorite memories and experiences of being the person behind Nashville's friendliest community...the Nashville Tour Stop.Follow Aaron Schilb on social media at @theaaronschilb and follow Nashville Tour Stop at @nashvilletourstop and on the web at nashvilletourstop.com.Special thanks to everyone who has made Nashville Tour Stop possible over the years, Mike Dunbar (our original co-host), Steve Grauberger, Ric Gordon, Eryn Cooper, RJ McGaw, Dylan Reeves, and Alex Amato.ALSO special thank you to everyone to sent in their favorite memories. (In Order) - Joe Bart, Katie Fee, Lauren Weintraub, Alex Amato, Tony Wolfe, Harper Mundy, Brian Viebranz, Lucas Carpenter, Ryan Harner, Paige Rose, Paul Ivy, Amanda McCarthy, VINJE, Brandon Ellis, Alex Shockley, Samantha Jayne, Caroline de Lone, Meredith Shaw, Kaleb Scherer, Evan Carr & Preston Eggert of "THIS2", Sam Ferrara, Jonathan Soul, Becca Tremmel, KATRIEN, Kent Dean, Ethan Anderson, and Timothy Myles. Get bonus content on Patreon Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Geoff and Peter return with the newest episode of the Cape Cod Pod as the duo discuss some of the top players over the last few weeks, as well as some new faces in Oregon State's Travis Bazzana, Virginia's Ethan Anderson and others. They also cover the divisional races in both the East and the West.Our Sponsors:* Check out Factor 75 and use my code ba2022pod50 for a great deal: https://www.factor75.com/* Check out Indeed and use my code BASEBALLAMERICA for a great deal: https://www.indeed.com/ Support this podcast at — https://redcircle.com/baseball-america/donationsAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Welcome to our February 2023 episode of Building together, a podcast about how community members, businesses, organizations, governments, and schools are working together to make West Liberty, Iowa, and surrounding areas a better place in which to live, work, learn, grow, and play. (www.weleadiowa.org) Get ready for an hour of exciting updates about West Liberty! Building together is produced as a service by WeLead,  West Liberty Economic Area Development, a 501c3 non for profit organization that is here to promote and sustain the quality of life in West Liberty, Atalissa, and Nichols, to enable growth, to promote business development, and to foster a healthy business climate. Special thanks to West Liberty Auto Parts and the West Liberty Good Fellas for making this podcast possible. My name is Ken Brooks, and I will have the pleasure of hosting each episode of building together. Each month, I lead a panel discussion on current events and community updates. This month's roundtable panel:Ethan Anderson, Mayor of West LibertyClifford McFerren, Administrator, Simpson Memorial HomeDavid Haugland, City Manager, City of West LibertyShaun Kruger, Superintendent, West Liberty Community School DistrictXiomara Levsen, Editor, West Liberty IndexCharles Brooke, COO, West Liberty Chamber of Commerce Ken Brooks, Executive Director, WeLead - West Liberty Economic Area Development

Welcome to our January 2023 episode of Building together, a podcast about how community members, businesses, organizations, governments, and schools are working together to make West Liberty, Iowa, and surrounding areas a better place in which to live, work, learn, grow, and play. (www.weleadiowa.org) Get ready for an hour of exciting updates about West Liberty! Building together is produced as a service by WeLead,  West Liberty Economic Area Development, a 501c3 non for profit organization that is here to promote and sustain the quality of life in West Liberty, Atalissa, and Nichols, to enable growth, to promote business development, and to foster a healthy business climate. Special thanks to West Liberty Auto Parts and the West Liberty Good Fellas for making this podcast possible. My name is Ken Brooks, and I will have the pleasure of hosting each episode of building together. Each month, I lead a panel discussion on current events and community updates. This month's roundtable panel:Ethan Anderson, Mayor of West LibertyClifford McFerren, Administrator, Simpson Memorial HomeDavid Haugland, City Manager, City of West LibertyAllie Paarsmith, Director, West Liberty Public LibraryXiomara Levsen, Editor, West Liberty IndexCharles Brooke, COO, West Liberty Chamber of Commerce Santos Saucedo, County Board Supervisor, Muscatine CountyKen Brooks, Executive Director, WeLead - West Liberty Economic Area Development

Welcome to our December 2022  episode of Building together, a podcast about how community members, businesses, organizations, governments, and schools are working together to make West Liberty, Iowa, and surrounding areas a better place in which to live, work, learn, grow, and play. (www.weleadiowa.org) Get ready for an hour of exciting updates about West Liberty! Building together is produced as a service by WeLead,  West Liberty Economic Area Development, a 501c3 non for profit organization that is here to promote and sustain the quality of life in West Liberty, Atalissa, and Nichols, to enable growth, to promote business development, and to foster a healthy business climate. Special thanks to West Liberty Auto Parts and the West Liberty Good Fellas for making this podcast possible. My name is Ken Brooks, and I will have the pleasure of hosting each episode of building together. Each month, I will also have a guest co-host. This podcast's co-host is Ethan Anderson, Mayor of West Liberty, and owner of Big Imprint, a Web Design company based out of West Liberty! Listen as Ethan and Ken discuss the state of West Liberty, talk about upcoming events, and interview special guests! Check out this month's line-up:Lisa Browning with Shop 121Holiday Shopping OpportunitiesFather Guillermo Trevino Operation Warm - Coat Giveaway Kacee Bell627 Training FacilityWest Liberty Indoor Walking ClubBatting Cage RentalDavid Haugland City of West Liberty UpdateCharles BrookeChamber Chat - West Liberty Chamber of Commerce Airports, helicopters, lost luggage, and Radio Stations

A girl living in a haunted house must find a way to protect her way of life.. Written and produced by Julie Hoverson Cast List Eden - Jaiden Douwes Henry - Danar Hoverson Callandra - Julie Hoverson Frederick! - Reynaud LeBoeuf Ethan - Scott Douwes Mrs. Sherman - Angela Kirby Garth Sherman - Luke LeBoeuf News - Suzanne Dunn Henry's Mom - Gwendolyn Gieseke-Woodard Music by Kevin MacLeod (Incompetech.com) Sound mastering:  Julie Hoverson Cover Design:  Dennis Hager  "What kind of a place is it? Why it's an old brownstone home, can't you tell?  Where else would you expect to find ... a couple of ghosts? *************************************************************** A Ghost of a Chance   Cast: Eden Anderson, precocious 11-year old Ethan Anderson, her dead father, 47 Callandra O'Doul, dead Irish maidservant, 20 Henry Torrence, burglar, 23 Frederick Ferryman, dead actor, 40s-50s Ms. Sherman, CPS, 32 Garth Sherman, her son, a bully, 13 News [anything] OLIVIA     Did you have any trouble finding it?  What do you mean, what kind of a place is it?  Why, it's a big old brownstone, can't you tell?  Where else would you find a ghost or two? SCENE 1 – coming home MUSIC SOUNDS    MODERN STREET NOISE.  SOUND    WE FOLLOW THROUGH A CREAKY GATE.  STREET NOISE QUIETS A BIT.  FOOTSTEPS ON LEAVES, THEN ON WOOD PORCH.  KEY IN LOCK, DOOR OPENS, FOOTSTEPS PASS THROUGH.   SCENE 2 – HALLWAY AND KITCHEN EDEN    Hey!  I'm home! SOUND    BACKPACK FLUNG ONTO TABLE.  DOOR SHUTS AND IS CAREFULLY LOCKED. CALLANDRA    You're going to have to do some shopping soon, miss.  We're almost out of soap powder. EDEN    [sigh] I'll put it on the list.  SOUND    FOOTSTEPS, THEY HESITATE, THEN STOP EDEN    What?  Move it.  I'm tired. CALLANDRA    [evasive] You're looking a mite peaked.  You could use a bite to eat.  Come into the kitchen and have some soup. EDEN    [slightly suspicious] O-kay...  SOUND    MODERN JAZZ, PLAYED LOW, SLIGHTLY MUFFLED EDEN    Dad's not at the videos again is he? SOUND    OPENING CUPBOARDS, CANS BEING PULLED OUT AND PLACED ON THE COUNTER CALLANDRA    [not quite convincing] No. EDEN    Then why don't you want me to go upstairs? SOUND    POP TOP ON CAN, SOUP INTO BOWL CALLANDRA    Whatever gave you that idea--? EDEN    Oh, please. CALLANDRA    Can I not just be concerned about you?  Someone has to be! SOUND    MICROWAVE OPENS, FOOD IN, SETTING TIME EDEN    I'm fine. SOUND    TURNS ON MICROWAVE MUSIC   SCENE 3 – A BIT LATER AMBIANCE    TELEVISION PLAYS LOW IN THE BACKGROUND News    ....was stolen from the J.J. Holdings museum at the university today.  The vase is attributed to the school of Cellini, and has been valued at nearly half a million dollars. SOUND    CELLPHONE DIALS, RINGS, PICKS UP EDEN    Hey Ariel.  ... Nothing.  Look, I've been thinking about-- SOUND    THUMPING ON CEILING EDEN    --trying out... for...  Can you wait a minute, Ariel? SOUND    HOLD BUTTON IS PRESSED SOUND     DOOR OPENS.  STEPS INTO FOYER, SLIGHT ECHO SOUND    THUMPING FROM ABOVE.  A COUPLE OF RAPID STEPS. SOUND    [WHOOSHING SOUND OF A GHOST ARRIVING] CALLANDRA    Oh no, miss.  EDEN    Yeah?  Stop me.  It's not dad - I can hear his computer going, and it's not you, since you're right here.  Maybe Frederick?  [yelling] Frederick? CALLANDRA    [worried] Oh... SOUND    [WHOOSHING SOUND OF A GHOST ARRIVING] FREDERICK    [overly theatrical, as always] Enter stage right.  Yeeeees?  CALLANDRA    See, it's all gone now-- SOUND    THUMPING FROM ABOVE CALLANDRA     [dismay] Ooh! EDEN    [grim] What is it? FREDERICK    Shall I make a recon, my young commander? EDEN    Oh! Shoot! SOUND    BEEP ON PHONE EDEN    Gotta call you back, Ariel.  Yeah, it's dad.  SOUND    PHONE HANGS UP EDEN    Callandra?  You want to explain-- SOUND    DOORBELL RINGS.  WHOOSH [GHOSTS LEAVING] EDEN    [exasperated sound]  Uuh! SOUND    STAMPING FEET, CHAIN LOCK GOES ON EDEN    [sighs] SOUND    DOOR OPENS EDEN    [sweetly] Yes?  SHERMAN Good evening. Are your parents around? EDEN    My father is asleep.  He hasn't been feeling very well. SHERMAN I think he'll want to speak to me. FREDERICK    [whisper]  Why?  Is she covered in chocolate? EDEN    [gritted teeth]  Maybe when he's feeling better.  Can he call you? SHERMAN Here's my card. EDEN    Oh. CALLANDRA    What's C-P-S?  Does that mean she's with the coppers? EDEN    What's this about?  I would invite you in, but-- SHERMAN No, I understand. Safety first.  [serious] There's been a complaint. EDEN    By who?  FREDERICK    [booming voice] Whom. EDEN    I mean - by whom? SHERMAN I'll discuss all that with your father. Please do have him call me.  [going off] All my info's on the card. EDEN    [calling] Thanks - uh - Ms. Sherman. SOUND    DOOR SHUTS EDEN    Oh, shoot! CALLANDRA    Now, it's not that bad.  Is it? FREDERICK    Of course it is.  CPS are the child police service.  They arrest bad little children. CALLANDRA    The devil you say!  Oh, Eden, tell me darling!  They won't arrest you! EDEN    They don't - but they do take children away from the wrong type of home environment. CALLANDRA    [relieved] Ohhh!  We're safe enough then. EDEN    [as if] Ri-ight. SOUND    THUMPING EDEN    Are you going to tell me, or do I just get to find out for myself? CALLANDRA    Oh, my stars... MUSIC   SCENE 4 - UPSTAIRS SOUND     DOOR UNLOCKS, OPENS HENRY    [gasps] Jeez!  About flipping time!  You ever hear of unlawful imprisonment? EDEN    I've heard of burglary. HENRY    You're kinda small for a cop. EDEN    [exasperated noise] Dude.  You can come out now, but just so you know, I've got a taser. SOUND    SLOW FOOTSTEPS EDEN    [gasps, shocked] You look like--! HENRY    Got my hands up, all that.  [quoting] Don't tase me, [ending lamely] uh, bro. SOUND    A COUPLE MORE STEPS, THEN HENRY    [grunt as he lunges at her] SOUND    SCUFFLE.  FALLING FURNITURE, SOMETHING BREAKS, THEN... FREDERICK    [unearthly wail] HENRY     [screams, then gibbers until noted] SOUND    SOMETHING SMALL CLATTERS TO THE FLOOR EDEN    I hate when you do that!  That is so gross!  [tsk, annoyed sigh] You coulda left your head on... FREDERICK    [huffy] It was effective. EDEN    [sigh]  You.  What's your name? HENRY    [gibbering]  ...head came off, and cold, so cold! SOUND    SLAP HENRY    [sharp intake of breath] Wha-ah-ah? EDEN    Your name, mister burglar. HENRY    Henry.  Henry Torrence.  [whispered] What the heck was that? EDEN    A ghost.  Now, Mister Torrence, I suppose I'm gonna have to tie you up or something, so you don't try and jump me again-- HENRY    Howzabout just letting me - ya know - go? EDEN    You broke in.  I have to do something, and I really don't want to have to deal with the cops - they'll bother dad. HENRY    Look, I never hurt no one, I ain't the type.  I swear! EDEN    Still...  I think you need to stay locked up for a while.  CALLANDRA    Can I keep him?  Please?  I caught him! FREDERICK    Shut up woman, we may be able to use this fellow's services. EDEN    [ordering] March!  I'll put you somewhere better than that closet, but you better stay put or - FREDERICK    Boooooo! HENRY    [gasps] EDEN    [unenthusiastically] Yeah, that.  Boo. MUSIC   SCENE 5 - DOWNSTAIRS CALLANDRA    What do you plan to do with him?  Please say I can have him for me own - he's such a fine specimen of a man. EDEN    If you keep him, I have to feed him. CALLANDRA    Well... not necessarily... EDEN    No.  No.  No.  I'm not having any more ghosts around here. CALLANDRA    You never let me have any fun! EDEN    Besides, didn't you notice the resemblance? CALLANDRA    To a man? SOUND    WHOOSH, FF ENTERS FREDERICK    Our dear Callandra never looked above his [mocking her accent] "luuuvly broad shoulders!" CALLANDRA    Bite your tongue, Frederick!  I still have those clippings of yours, and you will sorely regret having a jape at my expense-- EDEN    Shut up!  MUSIC   SCENE 6 – BREAKFAST IN BED SOUND    MORNING BIRD NOISES SOUND    MUFFLED THUMP, RATTLE AT DOORKNOB HENRY    [yawns, waking] SOUND    CHAIN RATTLES, BEDCLOTHES RUSTLE EDEN    [muffled] Are you awake? HENRY    Yeah, sure.  Whatever. SOUND    DOOR OPENS WITH DIFFICULTY SOUND     EDEN ENTERS WITH TRAY EDEN    I hope you like bacon. HENRY     Uh, yeah! [surprised and enthused] SOUND    SHIFTING AS HE SITS UP IN BED, CHAIN MOVES HENRY    Thanks.  Breakfast in bed.  Almost like a dream, except-- SOUND    RATTLE OF CHAINS CALLANDRA    [snarky] Well, we can't have you wandering around the house like some sort of ... burglar, can we? HENRY    Does she need to be here? SOUND    SETS DOWN TRAY, DISHES RATTLE EDEN    She's my backup.  I need to talk to you. HENRY    [annoyed] Go ahead.  I don't eat with my ears. SOUND    EATING NOISES EDEN    [snort of laughter]  This is going to sound really dumb, but...  [thinks hard]  I have a kind of proposition for you. HENRY    [offended] You are way too young, and she's dead. EDEN    Huh? CALLANDRA    Shame on you! HENRY    Nothing. [eats noisily] EDEN    Ew!  [angry sigh]  Look, no.  My dad is out of town, and I need someone to pretend to be him and talk to CPS. HENRY    CPS?  The CPS?  Hell no.  I hate those bast‑‑ uh-- buttheads. EDEN    Why?  You got kids? HENRY    Never mind.  No way you can talk me into-- EDEN    We'll pay you. HENRY    --into-- How much? EDEN    Dad said we could give you a thousand.  For staying here for two weeks and pretending to be him. HENRY    He's not coming home for two weeks?  [truly offended] What the hell is wrong with him, leaving you all alone? CALLANDRA    Language!! HENRY    I don't give a flying rat's patoot about my language!  If your dad is so flipping negligent to leave you all alone for weeks at a time, [losing steam] then maybe you'd be ... better off-- EDEN    [anguish] In foster care?  No way!! HENRY    Well, no, but... don't you have any other family? EDEN    [mumbled] Not anywhere around here. HENRY    [sincere] That sucks! EDEN    Look, I'm not supposed to say anything, but my dad...  He [whispers importantly] he works for the government.  Top secret. HENRY    Seriously? EDEN    Uh-huh!  So he can't always control when he'll be back. HENRY    Why would he - why would you even trust me? EDEN    You won't get paid until after the two weeks is up.  Besides... I'm a pretty good cook? HENRY    Okay, but I have to be able to tell my mom.  She'll worry if I don't get home. EDEN    You live with your mom?  But you're like a grownup.  That's weird. HENRY    Why do you think I don't have a real job?  MUSIC   SCENE 7 – MEETING CPS FREDERICK    [sharp whisper] Now you just behave now, my lad, or I'll give you what for again. HENRY    [trying to be flippant] “Boo.”  I get it.  This makeup itches.  EDEN    Sorry.  You had to look a little older.  HENRY    It is kinda creepy how I look so much like your dad. EDEN    Yeah.  [fretting] Where IS she? SOUND    KNOCK ON THE DOOR CALLANDRA    Eep! EDEN    [to the ghosts] Scat! [quiet] Ready? HENRY    Guess we'll find out. SOUND    FEET, DOOR UNLOCKS and OPENS EDEN    Hello?  Ah.  Right on time. SHERMAN Your father--? EDEN    Right here.  Come on in. HENRY    [trying too hard to sound old] Ethan Anderson.  Pleased to meet you.  You're Ms. Sherman? EDEN    [warning] Dad!  [explaining] He's had a cold. SHERMAN [warm] Ah!  I hope you're on the mend? HENRY    [clears his throat, sounds more normal]  Yes, yes.  Much better. MUSIC   SCENE 8 – WAITING IN THE KITCHEN SOUND    FLAP OF KITCHEN DOOR, FEET CALLANDRA    [very nervous] How goes it? EDEN    Seems OK, so far.  HENRY    [off, furious] What? EDEN    Oh no! SOUND    RUNS OFF, FLAP OF DOOR EDEN    [breathless] What? HENRY    [grim] Tell her. SHERMAN [sweet] My dear, um, Eden. I was just telling your father that your school has raised issues about your father's involvement-- EDEN    Why?  He emails them all the time.  They understand how busy he is. SHERMAN We still have to take it under advisement. Now, off the record, and with the understanding that you, sir, are a fairly wealthy man, I might ask why you haven't engaged a nanny or other similar household staff-- EDEN    [QUIET, prompting] DAD!    HENRY    [angry] What business is it of yours, lady? SHERMAN Perhaps you should step out and leave us alone again, dear. EDEN    No.  I may be too young for my opinion to count, but I want to hear what you plan to do to me.  We don't need anyone to look after the house.  I can do that. SHERMAN But you shouldn't have to - you are a child, dear, and you have better things to do. EDEN    Like what?  Play Xbox and get fat? MUSIC   SCENE 9 – AFTER SHE LEAVES SOUND    FRONT DOOR SHUTS, LOCKS HENRY    You have 20 million dollars? EDEN    And a half.  Not like I can spend it.  They don't trust me - that's why they call it a trust fund. HENRY    [snort] SOUND    SHE STARTS UP THE STAIRS HENRY    Hey, we're talking here. EDEN    [upset] You're only my dad while there's an audience. HENRY    [calling] Why don't you want a nanny or something? SOUND    RUNS UP THE STAIRS CALLANDRA    Poor child.  HENRY    [gasps]  Oh, right.  CALLANDRA    Pity you're not much of a father. HENRY    [offended] You're not much help, either. CALLANDRA    Oh?  And what do you expect from me?  I've been dead over a century, boyo. HENRY    How's that work, anyway? CALLANDRA    [pouty] Don't know.  Wouldn't tell you if I did. HENRY    Fine.  Whatever.  You have anything to drink around this place? CALLANDRA    [rolls eyes] Oh, yes.  That would look terrible good to Ms. Sherman, wouldn't it? HENRY    I'm going out for a while.  Don't worry - I'll sneak out the back.  I'm good at THAT. MUSIC   SCENE 10 – HENRY'S HOME SOUND    DOOR OPENS, MUSIC PLAYS IN THE BACKGROUND HENRY    [sigh, then calling]  Hey mom! MOM    [bleary drunk] Baby?  That you? HENRY    [resigned] Yes, mom. MOM    Where you been?  HENRY    I gotta job, mom.  Been working. MOM    You bring me back a little something, baby?  Medicine? HENRY    [down] Tomorrow.  I promise. MOM    [sarcastic] Such a good boy.  You gon' expect me to bail you out again?  You need to get you some better friends, baby. HENRY    I'm not a baby, mom.  I'm thirty-five. MOM    You'll always be my baby, Henry, won't you?  You know how much I count on you.  How much it hurts every time you been taken away from me.  What would I do if you were in jail?  Do you ever think about that? HENRY    Yeah.  [under his breath] All the time. MUSIC   SCENE 11 – CHAT WITH DAD SOUND    COMPUTER KEYS SOUND    DOOR OPENS HENRY    Eden? EDEN    [gasps] What?  Oh!  You're back! SOUND    FOOTSTEPS HENRY    You shouldn't sit in the dark like that. EDEN    [sarcastic] Thanks dad.  [serious]  I've been chatting with my real dad. HENRY    I didn't hear anything, if that's what you're worried about. EDEN    Duh.  Computer chatting.  HENRY    Typing.  Right.  I'm not much for the whole computer thing. EDEN    That could be awkward, if Ms. Sherman decides to quiz you on what you do for a living.  Dad's a programmer. HENRY    For the government? EDEN    [scornful] No!  [realizing] Oh, I mean... uh... he's a programmer for real, but he doesn't program for them. HENRY    [suspicious] Can I type something to him? EDEN     Sure. SOUND    CHAIR SHIFTS, CLUMSY, SLOW TYPING EDEN    Is this a secret, or can I type it for you? HENRY    Yeah, go on - at this rate I'll be here all night just to say Hi.  Um... [thinking] Mister... uh ... can I call him Ethan? EDEN    [responding to dad]  All right.  He says let's turn on the microphone. SOUND    CLICK EDEN    Now you can just talk. He still has to type, though.  His mike is broken. HENRY    I don't know you, so maybe I'm not the one who should be saying this, but - here goes.  Dude, leaving your kid alone makes you a bad dad.  So what if the government needs you! EDEN    You're... serious? HENRY    Hell yeah.  You're gonna grow up robbing banks and stuff. EDEN    Hmm.  He says, just because your dad was a deadbeat, doesn't mean -- HENRY    What the hell do you think you know? EDEN    He says-- HENRY    I can see what he says.  Background check, my ass! EDEN    I told you he's a computer guy. HENRY    Fine.  You need to take care of-- EDEN    Don't tell me how to raise my daughter.  Oh, and he says "watch"-- SOUND    [some CCTV video comes on the computer] HENRY    [shocked] How did he get that? EDEN    Is that you?  Breaking into a building?  Wow.  Wait, is that the museum? HENRY    So that's your way of keeping me in line?  EDEN    Are you the one who stole the Cellini vase? HENRY    I plead the fifth.  [angry sigh] Fine.  I'll do my two weeks, and then I am the hell out of here. EDEN    [angry] Very well, you worthless wretch! HENRY    What? EDEN    [innocent] Just what he said. MUSIC   SCENE 12 – RUDE AWAKENING SOUND    POUNDING ON DOOR CALLANDRA    Mr. Anderson!!  HENRY    [sleepy] What? CALLANDRA    That woman is at the door!  HENRY    I can't answer it like this!  I don't have that old-age makeup-- CALLANDRA    Frederic! HENRY    No, no - I can do it-- SOUND    POUNDING AGAIN FREDERIC    Did I hear a cue? HENRY    No, we-- CALLANDRA    He needs to look old and ill.  And right fast. HENRY    Really, I-- FREDERIC    Hmm.  Here.  [horrible ghostly noise] HENRY    [screams] CALLANDRA    Shh! FREDERIC    Damnation.  Once that would have turned your hair quite white - as it is, you will have to wear a cap. MUSIC   SCENE 13 – CPS AGAIN SOUND    DOOR OPENS SLOWLY HENRY    [shaky] Yes? SHERMAN Took you long enough. HENRY    I was in the shower.  Nearly killed myself slipping when I came down the stairs. SHERMAN Are you going to ask me in? HENRY    You might have heard the scream. SHERMAN No. [hinting to let her in] It is rather chilly out here. HENRY    [sigh] Very well. SOUND    THEY GO IN, HE FAKES A LIMP CALLANDRA    You watch out for that one! HENRY    Shh! FREDERICK    She can't hear us unless we want her to. SHERMAN I expect Eden is at school right now? HENRY    She's a very good student. SHERMAN [disdainful] B plus. HENRY    That ain't nothing to sneeze at, lady! SOUND    SITS SHERMAN But we both know she could do better. HENRY    What makes you think that? SHERMAN You could get her tutors. HENRY    Why?  She's real smart. FREDERICK    You tell her!  But you might try using proper grammar. SHERMAN There's so many things your money could do for your daughter. HENRY    I'd rather let her be herself. CALLANDRA    Oh, that's touching, that is. SHERMAN You could send her to private school. My own son Garth is in private school. HENRY    [faltering] She has ...friends.... here. SHERMAN [hinting] A very expensive private school. HENRY    You recruiting or something?  I ain't making any decisions behind my kid's back. SHERMAN You could pay me to leave you alone. HENRY    She wants to stay --  WHAT?  CALLANDRA    Horrors! FREDERIC    Bezom! SHERMAN You must understand, Mr. Anderson, just how poorly compensated we civil servants are these days. What a completely thankless job we do. HENRY    You really just hit me up for money? SHERMAN And how particularly expensive a really good school is. HENRY    [incredulous] Money.  You're asking for money. SHERMAN Of course. HENRY    You're a skanky money-grubbing ho! FREDERIC    Filth straight from the bowels of satan's own thrice-crowned hounds of hell! SHERMAN Language! [evil nice again] You have plenty of money.  I've looked into your financials.  Not just Eden's little trust fund, but liquid assets as well.  HENRY    That's blackmail! SHERMAN Technically, it's extortion. So far.  Extortion is getting money with a threat of something yet to come. HENRY    It's still illegal. CALLANDRA    Oh, horrors! SHERMAN Blackmail, on the other hand, is getting money with the threat of revealing something from the past. Like your criminal record? HENRY    My... [confused] what? SHERMAN Mr. Anderson, I have no wish to go into detail, but do you really think I would come here with just the might of CPS behind me? HENRY    Maybe. SHERMAN No. I have something concrete on you.  HENRY    Doesn't ring a bell.  [chuckles lamely]  Criminal record?  Me?  [laughs] SHERMAN Do the words 1987 and dot com mean anything to you? HENRY    But I was just-- ["a kid", but he cuts off] SHERMAN Using an assumed name? You're very lucky no one thought to cross-reference your fingerprints before, but once they do what I did... HENRY    Oh, crap. SHERMAN I'm in no hurry. I'd be happy to take a little something up front, and then a larger payment by the end of the week, perhaps? HENRY    I'll ...see what I have lying around. MUSIC   SCENE 14 – CHAT WITH DAD SOUND    DOOR OPENS, FEET STORM IN HENRY    Is your mike on, Mr. Anderson? SOUND    COMPUTER BEEP HENRY    Good.  Cause I don't know jack about how to work these things. SOUND    COMPUTER BOOP HENRY    You heard what happened?  How? SOUND    BOOP HENRY     I didn't even notice a computer in the living room.  SOUND    BOOP HENRY    Huh?  Which button? SOUND    BOOP HENRY    No need to get snippy. SOUND     BUTTON PUSHED ETHAN    [computer generated voice]  You will go immediately to the first hill bank and trust-- HENRY    What do you mean immediately?  I gotta do grocery shopping this morning. ETHAN    Delivered. HENRY    Not for here.  for my mom. ETHAN    Get it delivered. HENRY    Hey! Mom may be an old lush, but she expects to see me from time to time. ETHAN    Bank after. HENRY    What's all this crap that witch was talking about, anyway? ETHAN    No time.  Bank today.  Take three thousand dollars-- HENRY    I can't pass for you at a damn bank!  I can't sign your name!  ETHAN     Account in your name.  Use your own I-D. HENRY    What?  In my name?  What makes you think I won't just walk off... [back on topic] Second - why three thousand?  She won't settle for just three-- ETHAN    Three thousand will pay off her car. HENRY    Damn.  You really can find out anything, can't you? MUSIC   SCENE 15 – HENRY HOME SOUND    DOOR OPENS, MOM'S HOUSE.  TV ON HENRY    I brought your groceries. MOM    Good.  Didja get any beer? HENRY    It's still in the car. MOM    Bring that in next, woudja?  That's a good boy. HENRY    [from other room, confused] Mom?  Where's my TV? MOM    Mine was ...uh...on the fritz, so I moved yours in here. HENRY    You did? MOM    I had help. HENRY    You forgot to pay, didn't you? MOM    That is no way to talk to your mother!  Besides, if you weren't gone all the time, I wouldn't have such a problem.  You know I never was good with money.  HENRY    Yeah. MOM    When did you say you'd get paid for this new job you got? MUSIC   SCENE 16 – DINNER WITH EDEN SOUND    DINNER NOISES    HENRY    You made this? EDEN    [sullen] Yeah.  HENRY    It's pretty good. EDEN    Should be.  Been cooking since I was [Callandra's accent] "just a wee thing".  [change of tone, sullen]  You were gone all day.  Again. HENRY    I came back. EDEN    Well, duh.  We're paying you to be here. HENRY    Are the ghosts joining us? EDEN    [still sullen] Frederic gets too jumpy around food, and Callandra "doesna feel tis proper." MOMENT OF SILENCE HENRY    Are you mad at me?  SOUND    THUMP - VASE ON TABLE HENRY    What the h---ay?  You going through my room? EDEN    Callandra saw you hide it.  SHE's very upset with you. CALLNDRA    [from off] Though it is a right pretty wee thing! HENRY    I had to bring it along - mom was about to use it as an ashtray. EDEN    Why do you steal? HENRY    Whoa!  That ain't polite to ask. EDEN    It isn't polite to steal. MOMENT OF SILENCE HENRY    What else am I gonna do?  Shove burgers?  I ain't even got a GED.  Without that… well… EDEN    If you're trying to convince me to stay in school, there's no point. HENRY    No way!  You gonna drop out?  Smart kid like you – you could be any darn thing you want! EDEN    Oh, please.  I already have a GED.  Or at least, I took the test – just to see, you know?  And I've taken a few college courses on the Internet.  I stay in school for the socialization.  HENRY    Huh? EDEN    I stay in school to look normal and have friends.  The work is boring as hell, but I don't want to stand out.  Do you know how hard it is to manage a B+ average? HENRY    [sarcastic] Never had that problem, myself. EDEN    [mounting upset] I have to guess on each test what the correct percentage of answers is to get wrong.  I have to dumb my writing down for essay questions.  I have to-- HENRY    Why? EDEN    Why? HENRY    Why not just say to hell with it, and let em see how smart you are? EDEN    Smart kids get noticed.  I can stand out when I'm older.  When it's safe.  MUSIC   SCENE 17 – WHERE'S DAD SOUND    COMPUTER NOISES HENRY    You need to get your butt home, dude.  Your government might need you, but your daughter needs you more. ETHAN    Not possible. HENRY    What, are you in deep cover or something?  In a foreign prison?  [slow realization]  Oh.... crap. ETHAN    We are both in crap. HENRY    No, I mean you - you're like them, aren't you? ETHAN    Define "them". HENRY    The ghosts. ETHAN    [beat] Yes. HENRY    Holy crap. ETHAN    No.  Just regular crap.  HENRY    I can't stay here forever! ETHAN    Eden needs you. HENRY    [wobbling] My mom... she needs me, too. ETHAN    Open the scanner. HENRY    What?  Oh, that.  SOUND    SCANNER NOISE ETHAN    I need your hand. MUSIC   SCENE 18 – WHERE'S MOM SOUND    SILENT HOUSE, KEY IN LOCK, DOOR OPENS HENRY    Mom, why's the TV --?  [panicky] Mom? SOUND    MOVES THROUGH, TALKING HENRY    Mom, please say you're okay.  Say something!  Hello?  Oh, jeez, what could they'a done to‑‑ [cuts off as he spots something] What? SOUND    PAPER PICKED UP HENRY    [Reading]  Hope you get this. Woulda called, but-- MOM    [continuing, guilt tripping]  --you never gave me your number at "work".  Won a cruise in a mail-in contest.  Back in a month.  "Mom."  P-S, all expenses paid - how you like them apples.  Oh, and make sure to pay the electric bill.  Want heat when I get home. HENRY    [half amused, half annoyed chuckle] Ethan, you king of all shits. MUSIC   SCENE 19 – LIKE MOTHER SOUND    OUTSIDE, DAYTIME STREET GARTH    Hey! EDEN    [suspicious]  Can I help you? GARTH    [mean chuckle] You bet. SOUND    CLICK OF CAMERA PHONE GARTH    [annoyed] Hey! EDEN    [scared, but standing her ground] If this is a mugging, I just e-mailed your picture to my dad. GARTH    He's not gonna do anything. EDEN    What makes you so sure? GARTH    My mom has him by the short hairs. EDEN    Your mom? GARTH    Sherman?  From CPS?  Ring any bells? EDEN    She went away.  Everything is fine. GARTH    Course it is.  It's fine as long as you guys play ball. EDEN    [starting to get it]  As long as we--? GARTH    Pay up.  EDEN    But that's-- GARTH    You wanna complain, go whine to your dad, he'll explain the facts of life.  For now... you got an ipod? EDEN    [starting to break] I-- GARTH    [threatening] Or should I say, do I got an ipod?  [snarl] Hand it over. SOUND    HAND OVER EDEN    [nearly in tears] There.  Choke on it, you bully! GARTH    Uh!  [shoves her] SOUND    EDEN FALLS EDEN    [gasp, trying hard not to cry] SOUND    GARTH WALKS AWAY GARTH    Hah!  She got the Bieber fever.  [nasty laugh]  Ooh!  Beyonce!  EDEN    [long sniffle] SOUND    RUNNING FEET HENRY    What happened?  Here, let me-- SOUND    SHE JUMPS UP AND THROWS HER ARMS AROUND HIM EDEN    [crying] HENRY    [nervous, not sure what to say] It's okay!  I'll handle this.  It's-- [determined, personal]  It's going to be okay. MUSIC   SCENE 20 – getting even SOUND    QUIETLY DRESSING HENRY    [whispering] It's easy to forget she's just a kid. FREDERIC    [stage whisper]  She is a most self-possessed young lady. HENRY    Shh.  She only just got to sleep. FREDERIC    And you?  Are you leaving her now, in her hour of need? HENRY    [grim] Something I gotta do. FREDERIC    In the middle of the night? SOUND    ZIPPER ZIPS FREDERIC    And dressed all in black?  I sense skullduggery! HENRY    Sense all you want, but stay quiet about it.  FREDERIC    Alas that I cannot do more than keep the light burning for your return.  HENRY    Yeah.  See you in the morning. MUSIC   SCENE 21 – SATISFACTION SOUND    LOUD BANGING ON THE FRONT DOOR, DOOR OPENS HENRY    [self satisfied] Ahh!  [yawns]  So sorry.  Long night. SHERMAN Your check bounced! HENRY    [congenial]  No, I put a stop payment on it.  Won't you come in? SHERMAN You WHAT? HENRY    I - we - aren't playing your game any more. SOUND    DOOR CREAKS OPEN A CRACK, UP CLOSE EDEN    [whispered, eavesdropping] Go, Henry! FREDERIC    I could always give her a visitation - maybe we'll get lucky and she'll keel over from the shock! EDEN    No!  He may be a butt, but I don't want you to kill some kid's mom!  CALLANDRA    They've gone into the living room! EDEN    I'll have to listen on the laptop then.  Right dad? SOUND    BEEP MUSIC   SCENE 22 – REVELATION HENRY    Would you like a soda? SHERMAN I would like an explanation. What makes you think I won't go through with turning you in? HENRY    Go ahead.  When they take my fingerprints and they don't match the ones you have on file, you'll look pretty silly. SHERMAN You - you...! HENRY    You might have noticed that I'm a bit of a computer nerd. SHERMAN Oh-ho-ho! [getting composure back]  You may have changed the prints on the system,  But you can't get into my backups. HENRY    Call my bluff. SHERMAN Very well-- HENRY    BUT-- SOUND    MOMENT OF AWKWARD PAUSE SHERMAN [worried] What? HENRY    I'm afraid you have a problem of your own. SHERMAN I have a what? Are you trying to blackmail me?  I am very careful. HENRY    About your money stuff, yeah - I'm sure you are.  This is something else.  A vase. SHERMAN A what? HENRY    Have you read the papers recently?  The museum? SHERMAN The Cellini Vase? HENRY    Yeah, that thing. SHERMAN What does that have to do with me? HENRY    It's in your house. MUSIC   SCENE 23 – FINALE EDEN    What if she finds it? HENRY    What's she gonna do with it?  She don't know no fences. CALLANDRA    Or any place to sell it either. EDEN    She might give it back? FREDERIC    And try to explain how she happened to come by such a fugitive object?  Hah! HENRY    Hah is right. EDEN    [down] So I guess this means you're gonna go now.  I mean now that it's all clear. HENRY    I guess. EDEN    Would you stay?  I mean, if you could? HENRY    I'd like to but.... I dunno.  My mom-- SOUND    BEEP ETHAN    [computer voice] Was lucky and got an apartment in a new full-service assisted living community. HENRY    What?  You can't just-- ETHAN    Try and get her out.  They have KeNo every Thursday. HENRY    [annoyed but thinking] Hmm..... Does she get to have a nice TV? ETHAN    No. HENRY    What?  How can you--? ETHAN    You will bring one to her.  EDEN    Clever. FREDERIC    Brilliant! CALLANDRA    [sniffling] Touching. HENRY    Gotcha.  And what about me? EDEN    I have four more years before I can technically be emancipated.  If you're willing to be my dad til then, we'll-- ETHAN    Pay you one hundred thousand per year. HENRY    [dubious] That's pretty good.  Hmm...  Four years. EDEN    Well, what do you want, then? HENRY    Four years sounds like a heckuva lot like college. EDEN    I'm still too young. HENRY    Nah... I was thinking... you know... [quiet] For me.  [up] But only if you'll help me get my GED and stuff. EDEN    I bet I could be a really good tutor! MUSIC    END

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What up, Babes? It's another week with at least three final girls, two hosts who have feelings about a problematic trope and one movie: The Final Girls (2015). As we often do, we're diving into what makes a good commentary and how our favorite genre can do more. Clearly, there's going to be SPOILERS. FOOTNOTES: The writers on their inspiration: https://creativescreenwriting.com/the-final-girls-a-slasher-movie-inspired-by-woody-allen/ Ethan Anderson for First Showing: https://www.firstshowing.net/2014/malin-akerman-taissa-farmiga-to-lead-meta-horror-the-final-girls/

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable...Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable...Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

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This is the LAST in the free Death Donor podcast series. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- Would you sell your life to save another? Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable...Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable…Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable...Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable...Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another?Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she’s got a job, unlike most, and won’t have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they’re poor, but she’s got death insurance, and a roof over her head. Life is livable...Until her daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts, and the ex-assassin snaps.Someone is going to pay.Grab the rest today FREE with an Audible trial:deathdonor.com

Some website design elements are just a waste of time. Web design expert Ethan Anderson and I discuss the topic and hope to make your next website redesign project easier. More tips at http://ctrappe.online

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Would you sell your life to save another? / Full audiobook at: deathdonor.com Special forces vet, Samantha Jones, is a lowly bodyguard for Ethan Anderson, the biotech billionaire who revolutionized life extension. But at least she's got a job, unlike most, and won't have to sell her organs to support her family. Sure, they're poor, but she's got death insurance and a roof over her head. Life is livable... But then Sam's daughter is kidnapped and sold for parts. Overnight, her life (and belief in the system) shatters. When the rich bastards get off scot-free, Sam's weak husband commits suicide, and the ex-assassin snaps. Someone is going to pay. The question: how to kill the heartless elites that use the poor like livestock and whose security rivals the president? And then there's the senator fighting to abolish life extension, the trillion-dollar corporate standoff, and bloody protests in the streets as conditions deteriorate. Things are about to get ugly. Death Donor is a speculative fiction technothriller by renowned futurist and sci-fi author, Matt Ward, that features espionage, political drama, and fast-paced adventure in the dark dystopian world of synthetic biology. If you like Michael Crichton, Daniel Suarez, or Neal Stephenson, or loved dystopian classics: the Handmaid's Tale, Brave New World, and Ready Player One, you'll love this page-turning science fiction thriller. For more information, to purchase the complete audio adventure or to download the entire technothriller free with a free trial of Audible, visit deathdonor.com -- More information on the author at mattwardwrites.com.

Pac-12 Networks’ Mike Yam and Don MacLean interview USC guard Jonah Mathews. The Trojans’ senior captain reveals who on the team is paying the most attention to NCAA Tournament Bracketology (5:08), and explains why he is desperate to make the most of his final collegiate season. Mathews praises the energy that freshmen Ethan Anderson and Onyeka Okongwu have brought to the team (10:00), and describes the relationship Okongwu has developed with Nick Rakocevic (14:52). Mike and Don ask Mathews about the resiliency of USC this season (15:50), and the offensive freedom he enjoys while playing under Andy Enfield’s (17:09). Mathews previews the Trojan’s upcoming game against UCLA, and praises the job Mick Cronin has done in Westwood this season (21:00). Finally, Mathews gives a review of the music played at the Galen Center on game day (24:35).

A mimosa fueled chat with the charming Ethan Anderson of Seattle americana group Massy Ferguson. He reminisces about early days touring the college circuit, a patchwork European tour featuring a pre-deployment send off show for the US Army's 1st Armored Tank Division, what really happens when the band passes the tequila bottle, and an endearing story of taking his 7 year old son on the road with him. Multiple drinks are almost spit from mouths.

Blaise and Ethan look at odd Chicago Bears' trade rumors. 

Blaise Mesa is joined by Jorge Solis and Ethan Anderson. 

This podcast goes to the radio. Ethan Anderson joins Blaise Mesa on 88.1 WCRX. 

Why fancy Catholic architecture? In this podcast: We have special guest and architect, Matt Kelty joining us to talk about the importance and significance of well-designed buildings, specifically our churches One of the most interesting churches, Sagrada Família, is still under construction after more than 100 years. Learn what happened and will it ever be done? Learn about the architect behind all of it, who died in an unusual way and then the plans were destroyed https://www.keltytappy.com Watch this video about the completion of Sagrada Família: https://youtu.be/2963MHzP-IE Check this out on YouTube Hear more interviews on Youtube: kyleheimann.com/youtube Subscribe to the (highlights) Podcast: Apple Podcasts | Android Podcast | Other Android Apps | Stitcher | RSS Podcast: www.kyleheimann.com Live: www.redeemerradio.com Email: show@redeemerradio.com follow us on social media: Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube @KyleHeimannShow Call/Text: Holy Cross College Textline: 260-436-9598 Theme Song: -Custom music written by Shawn Williams (www.musicbyshawnwilliams.com) for The Kyle Heimann Show -Licensed via The Sound Cabin Inc. (www.thesoundcabin.com)

In this week’s episode, Connor speaks with USC Basketball signee Ethan Anderson as well as his parents Kevin and Pam. The conversation mainly focuses on how Ethan went from a boy with a dream to one of the top players in the nation.

Morning and evening rituals invite connection in your relationship. They can be as simple or as complex as the two of you would like. Jon and I enjoy simple ways of connecting - a cup of coffee with a kiss in the morning and talking while snuggling at night. Some couples enjoy sharing gratitudes, checking in on how they are feeling, or enjoying an evening walk together. Be creative to find something that works for the two of you. The hope is that morning and evening rituals encourage us to be present with one another. As we share in this episode, Jon considers himself a quiet morning person, while I am naturally a more peppy morning girl myself! I am learning how to enjoy quiet moments with writing and meditation. While Jon finds having personal routines creates peace in his day. We both agree that keeping expectations low and finding a simple rhythm is important in our relationship. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Hans Vivek) Subscribe & Review in iTunes Are you subscribed to our podcast? If not, we would love to have you! We are adding to our relationship episodes by the week and want to keep you connected to the community. Click here to subscribe in iTunes! If any of our ramblings have been helpful to your relationship, we would be grateful if you would let us know by leaving a review on iTunes. Such reviews are how others find our podcast and we learn more about how the podcast has been loving in your life. Just click here to review, select “Ratings and Reviews” and “Write a Review." Thank you friend! "Morning and Evening Rituals" Podcast Gems: Create simple and manageable routines.Meet in the middle if one of you is a morning person and the other an evening person. Develop couple rituals as well as family rituals.A simple act of making your lover coffee can be a way to connect in the morning.

In realizing we cannot be everything to our spouse or partner all of the time, developing our individual spirituality has been helpful. In times where we need to look outside of ourselves and our relationship, we can believe in a loving life force energy to care for us. Some may call this God, The Universe, or another loving name. In this episode, we talk about how our spirituality has supported our relationship. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Mohamed Nohassi) (True Facts is the ridiculous science show we referenced) Subscribe & Review in iTunes Are you subscribed to our podcast? If not, we would love to have you! We are adding to our relationship episodes by the week and want to keep you connected to the community. Click here to subscribe in iTunes! If any of our ramblings have been helpful to your relationship, we would be grateful if you would let us know by leaving a review on iTunes. Such reviews are how others find our podcast and we learn more about how the podcast has been loving in your life. Just click here to review, select “Ratings and Reviews” and “Write a Review." Thank you friend!

Non-sexual touch in a relationship can look like many things from holding one another to a kiss. It is touch of connection and affection without the intention leading to sex. When relishing in touch such as long three-minute hugs or thirty-second kisses, oxytocin and endorphins are released. They help to bond us to one another and to lessen our stress and anxiety. The only problem is, non-sexual touch for some of us may not feel so loving. In this episode, Jon shares he is all about this long indulgence of touch, while I am more cautious. I love being near him and cuddling, and I also have some touch which creates a feeling of being trapped for me. We talk about how it is important to distinguish what non-sexual touch looks like for your relationship, and what kind feels loving. I resented the stereotype that all men had the intention that when they touched you it was to get sex or be sexual. The truth is that everyone longs for non-sexual touch, and it is a need we have. Jon shares, "I resented the stereotype that all men had the intention that when they touched you it was to get sex or be sexual. I never really connected with that sentiment. I didn't like that I got lumped in with all the rest of the guys." The truth is men and women both long for non-sexual touch. There is so much joy in sharing a hug, a hand-hold, or a cuddle. Just find what works for the two of you! (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Katarina Šikuljak) Subscribe & Review in iTunes Are you subscribed to our podcast? If not, we would love to have you! We are adding to our relationship episodes by the week and want to keep you connected to the community. Click here to subscribe in iTunes! If any of our ramblings have been helpful to your relationship, we would be grateful if you would let us know by leaving a review on iTunes. Such reviews are how others find our podcast and we learn more about how the podcast has been loving in your life. Just click here to review, select “Ratings and Reviews” and “Write a Review." Thank you friend! "The Beauty of Non-Sexual Touch in A Relationship" Podcast Gems: When your minimalistic wardrobe contains more items with holes than not, it is time to go shopping. The action of non-sexual touch speaks louder for Jon and is not as confusing as words. It says, “I choose you.”Many times the spouse or partner with the lower sex drive will begin to withhold touch if it is always met with sex.Talk about what kind of non-sexual touch you love, and find out what feels good to your spouse or partner.We talk about dealing with anxiety together.

My husband won't talk to me, our listener states. We can relate to a gap in our own communication. In our relationship, before we made changes, we did not communicate all of our deepest feelings with one another. It was way too personal and vulnerable. It wasn't that we didn't want to talk to one another about the deeper stuff, we just didn't know how. So, If you haven't had practice at sharing your feelings before, where do you start? First, prepare to feel awkward and uncomfortable. Just like learning a new job, or a new activity, you are coming in as a beginner. Just like learning a new sport, be open and curious about the skills needed and commit to practicing.Jon and I started by both admitting to one another that we were deficient in sharing feelings. We also agreed to the fact we were both going to suck at first. So, we created a safe place where we were not going to make fun of each other as we tried like children to speak the language of emotion. If I did it wrong, I knew I wouldn't be ridiculed. I needed to be tolerant with myself not being good at it right away. ~ Jon We started with feeling words that were more generic, such as I feel happy or I feel frustrated. We started easy.."how did you feel about your non-stick pan?" Leaving behind our aggressive and passive attempts at communicating feelings to one another we grew from expressing feelings in childish ways (slamming doors, sighing), to that of adults where we used words. Wha? This was also a change from if you really loved me you would know what I am feeling by my lack of eye contact or behavior, to sharing emotions with I Statements. "I feel.. In order to share emotions, you need to honor them from a neutral place, refrain from judgment of them being bad or good. And it helps to use a list of feeling words to practice, letting go the usual cover up of "I feel good, or I'm fine." It may not be that your husband won't talk to you, it could be that he just doesn't know how and the emotional language is new to him, and perhaps new to you too. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Joshua Sortino) Subscribe & Review in iTunes Are you subscribed to our podcast? If not, we would love to have you! We are adding to our relationship episodes by the week and want to keep you connected to the community. Click here to subscribe in iTunes! If any of our ramblings have been helpful to your relationship, we would be grateful if you would let us know by leaving a review on iTunes. Such reviews are how others find our podcast, and how our community grows. We also enjoy reading them and learning more about how the podcast has been loving in your life. Just click here to review, select “Ratings and Reviews” and “Write a Review." Thank you, friend! "My Husband Won't Talk to Me" Relationship Podcast Gems: Jon's "special pan" is now trash after a deep frying incident.Jema practiced her feeling words with unsuspecting cashiers. Decide together on a time to check in and start practicing your feelings.Is your husband even aware that you want to know about his emotions? Express the desire to know him more deeply. It takes one person in the relationship to take the chance and be vulnerable.A List of Feeling Words

Episode 7: Ethan Anderson by Prep Insider

Fairfax senior Ethan Anderson sits down with host Alex Scarr to chat about his decision to commit to UNLV, how he tries to always stay humble, and the importance of being a good teammate.

Blaise and Christian are joined by Ethan Anderson, and there is a measure to prevent the spread of incorrect facts. 

When TV programming began reliably broadcasting in the 1940s, the world changed forever. The advent of radio decades earlier already made the world smaller, but with television, you didn't only listen. You watched, too. Fast forward some 70 years, though, and TV seems outright quaint, and the evidence of its decline is everywhere around us. Or is it? Today's guest -- Ethan Anderson -- works at an NBC affiliate in the Dakotas, and it turns out that, depending on your market, the kind of content you're looking for, and the type of audience you're catering to, there's still a tangible demand for the way things were. Indeed, it could very well be that rumors of television's demise are just a bit premature.

We went out on the town in Portland, Maine. I was going a little crazy with all of the unusual rain and clouds this summer. The RV gets pretty small when all five of us are inside with no sun in sight. The funny thing about this episode is that I totally changed the format of the podcast outline on Jon, and even during our pre-meeting, we were both on a different page entirely! He thought the story of meeting the two guitarists at the restaurant was just the pre-show banter, while I had thought we both understood it was the main lead into the episode! It was a communication disaster. The good news is, we rebounded and continued the show, something new for us during this process. I usually shut down and then we have to reboot another day. We rallied on and talked about how sharing your gifts can bring you joy as well as those you share it with. Sometimes we think we are unqualified to share our passions with others. In reality, when we share our gifts with each other it connects us all and gifts the world. You deserve to do what makes you happy! (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Eye for Ebony) Stream "Share Your Gifts, Feel Happy"  Relationship Podcast Gems: Our "not good enoughs" can stand in the way of sharing our gifts. If you choose not to share your gifts, the world misses out. We have shifted our parenting to encourage the kids to seek out their passions. It isn't really about talent, it is about motivation. You can become good because of your determination. What motivates you and how do you integrate that into your life?

Are you comparing your relationship on Facebook to other couples on vacation or celebrating a romantic night out? Yah, I can relate. I might snuggle into bed after finishing my evening chores and spot a Facebook notification on my phone. Which then leads into my endless and mindless scrolling. It can also lead to something I am really good at, comparing. It really depends on how mindful and peaceful I am at that moment on the effect the scrolling can have on me. Perhaps, I had a difficult day and now I am comparing my personal challenges to someone's lifetime achievement. I could leave that experience with a poor me attitude and negative self-talk. The same is true if I was feeling disconnected in my relationship and compared that to a couple's smiling faces in Hawaii while they were having the time of their life! Look at all of the fun they were having and here I am again at home with a sore back and Netflix. Staying in reality, we can acknowledge that most of us post photos of our relationship during the good times. Thank goodness! Would you really want to see a photo of Jon and I arguing? Well, maybe that would help you feel better, so that's a bad example. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: William Iven) Dealing With Comparing Your Relationship on Facebook When you feel resentment acknowledge it as a helpful tool to show you the direction you desire to go deep in your heart. Take that desire and use it as inspiration to take action. Embrace your own story with its highlights and challenges, and know others have them too. Turn your energy inward instead of outward and use it to experience what brings you joy in life. If you must compare, compare yourself to yourself! Stream "Comparing Your Relationship on Facebook"  Relationship Podcast Gems: A Helpful Guide to Stop Comparing Yourself to Others Technology is neutral, it depends what we use it for that dictates its impact. How can I make social media work for me? Follow loving, inspirational accounts. Learn something more about yourself when social media triggers an emotional reaction. Living in a crooked RV makes walking challenging. :)

Running in flip-flops in the rain is probably not the best idea. I fell down and then decided on accepting who I am. Jon talks about how he has learned to accept that he will always have ideas for songs to create, but may never really get around to creating that rock or Reggae hit. Some things are easier to accept about ourselves than others. It takes time to accept our deeper weaknesses and flaws as we become aware. I will remember my swollen knee the next time I decide to attempt flip-flop running! (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Dương Nhân) Stream "Accepting Who We Are"  Relationship Podcast Gems: "The only ideas that are really going to happen are the burning desires of my heart." ~ Jon Read this article on cultivating self-acceptance, 12 Ways to Accept Yourself Learn more about Jema's story on episode 22 about sexual anorexia. Your Next Steps: If you love us like Ron Swanson does, leave us a rating and review on iTunes or your favorite player.  :) Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

We cover three main ways to create safe spaces for loving conversation -  decide your loving guidelines, choose a physical space and an emotionally safe space. Loving Guidelines Here is an example of the loving guidelines we have created. No yelling. No swearing. No blaming. No threatening divorce or abandonment. No leaving. No using what is shared to hurt the person in the future. Physical Space Considerations a space without distractions, TV or kids. set a time of day as a cut-off for having deep discussions. a private space or a public space. relaxed postures, not one person standing over another. what environment feels the most loving - couch, table, in bed, outside. Emotional Safe Space Considerations As the speaker: • Using I statements I feel ____ when this happens. • Avoid using “you” to place blame on the other person. • Keep the sharing about your thoughts and feelings. As the listener: • be in a state of no judgment. • open to let the other person talk without interruption. • open body language. • share your reactions in a loving way. You may feel sad to hear what is being shared. You can simply state, I feel sad ________. • You can own a behavior. • You can ask a question. • You can affirm their sharing. “I understand what you are saying. I hear you saying... Of course, you are feeling...” (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Hutomo Abrianto) Stream "Safe Spaces for Loving Conversation"  Relationship Podcast Gems: Create a safe space that is unique to your relationship and feels the most loving. Creating a safe space is important for having meaningful conversations. Robins will build nests on your ladder if given the opportunity. Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

In this episode of our marriage podcast Something Like Marriage, we ask three questions to learn more about one another.   (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Andre Benz)   Stream "Three Questions"    Podcast Gems: Asking your partner/spouse three questions can create a deeper connection.     Your Next Steps: Join our free private Facebook Community Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

This was a challenging episode for me as I describe living a secret life of shame and sexual anorexia in marriage. I had experienced sexuality that was unwanted and confusing when I was young. I had feelings of arousal, fear, and shame like Jon described on I Feel Uncomfortable Talking About Sex that I dealt with through repression. It was a way I could bury my thoughts and desires in a place where it would remain unconscious. As I walked through life, it seemed that there was something wrong with me, something broken in me because I kept getting into situations with men that were unloving. I felt like I was marked. And with each experience, I would lock it away in my Secret Room which added more motivation to my sexual anorexia. Sexual anorexia refers to the compulsive avoidance of sexual nourishment and intimacy. A refusal of emotional and sensual input in order to keep the unexplored trauma hidden along with chaotic feelings and anxiety. I would deny myself intimacy, and only understood my way of coping after I went to therapy to save my marriage. Healing has found a way in as I opened the door to learn more about who I am and to look at those wounds of the past. There have been people to hear me and to love me along the way. I have found that unlocking the secret of my sexual anorexia has been profoundly freeing in my life and my marriage. I have been able to share the journey with my husband and I have been able to have conversations about sexuality with my children. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Maria Maliy) Stream "Sexual Anorexia in Marriage"  Relationship Podcast Gems: Sexual anorectics starve themselves by "acting in," denying themselves intimacy in relationships, receiving loving touch, and genuine connection with others. Sexual anorexia is encouraged by rigidity, judgment, and shame. Sex and feelings of sexuality equated to pain for me. Sexual abuse is a spectrum and can not be tolerated as something that just happens because you are a woman. Abuse, in general, isn't so much about what happened, but how it affected the unique person. It is unhelpful to compare the pain we experience in life. As unique people, experiences affect us differently. When your marriage isn't working, it's important to find out why and more about yourself even if that relationship ends. Jon dealt with my resistance and picking a fight to cope by changing it to mean I was into him and loved him. If you are ready to heal, it can simply start by saying, “I'm ready.” Loving people and opportunities begin to appear. Resources: The Devastating Pain of Sexual Anorexics - a short article discussing sexual anorexia. Sexual Anorexia: Overcoming Sexual Self-Hatred - a book to help understand the journey of sexual anorexia. Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles. Something Like Marriage may receive a portion of sales from products purchased from this article.

I am going to be honest, I feel uncomfortable talking about sex. Sex was not really a topic we had practice talking about with anyone. While Jon was caught up in a cycle of abstinence and binging, I was in my own cycle of repression and avoiding. Jon's work in therapy was to begin talking openly about his sexual experiences and his guilt and shame about his sexuality. He found the practice to be freeing and healing. His dark secret and life with porn were now known, and he used the opportunity to develop a healthy adult relationship with sex. While I was in the therapy group with other women related to Jon's secret life, the work we did in the group was centered around my self-care and not being obsessed with what Jon was or wasn't doing in his life. I had no practice sharing anything about sex, and wanted it that way! I find it to be difficult to talk about sex because it can be painful for me. There is a barrier for me to walk through when discussing my own sexuality or even engaging in sex. The work I have to do will be messy, but I am now choosing to heal my sexual wounds. Next week I will be brave and share my story. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Milan Surbatovic) Stream "I Feel Uncomfortable Talking About Sex"  Relationship Podcast Gems: Jon is comfortable talking about sex now, but he had a lot of shame and secrets when he was young. Jon learned what healthy adult sexuality really was through his recovery groups, talking, and reading. As a child, we have different perspectives of our experiences and take on responsibilities, guilt, and shame that wasn't ours. Men tend to talk about the act of sex, not the feelings of fear, and excitement. Experiencing it as a kid alone is difficult...fear, excitement, shame and pleasure. Jema did not practice talking about her sexuality but avoided all conversations about sex. The cultural norms around sexuality are so different - boys are almost encouraged to explore their body, it doesn't seem to be the same for girls. Jon forgets that it is difficult for Jema, he needs reminders that this work is painful. Jema's lack of curiosity about Jon's sexuality made him feel unimportant and unloved. Being on the journey as a couple, and then with other couples has created such profound healing in our life. Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Answering the question about why do men hide their feelings, and challenging this idea. We also relate how men and women are alike in not sharing their vulnerable feelings such as sadness, shame, guilt, and fear. Culture seems to have a role to play in what are acceptable emotions for a man to express. As children, we expressed a spectrum of feelings as emotional beings. When we were happy we screamed with delight, laughed, and jumped up and down. When we were sad we cried, had tantrums, and yelled. Somewhere along the way some of us learned certain emotions were okay to share such as anger or joy, and others were to be controlled. Why do men hide their feelings? Jon talks about how he learned early on it wasn't safe to share those vulnerable feelings such as sadness because it would be meddled with in some way. As his wife, I wasn't safe to share those feelings with for quite some time. We had to learn how to identify our feelings, express them, and to be safe for one another. Our first practice took place with strangers. When discussing why do men hide their feelings, it seems men and women are more alike than different. We can learn how to share those more vulnerable feelings with one another in a safe space and create a more intimate relationship. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Ben Rosett) Stream "Why Do Men Hide Their Feelings?"  Relationship Podcast Gems: Men and women both share some feelings but maybe not all of their authentic feelings. Jon learned to share his vulnerable feelings when he - learned the vocabulary, connected in with his feelings, and had a safe place to practice sharing them first with strangers and then with me. First, we make the change for ourselves, then in our relationship, and lastly we can change our parenting. Accept the feelings, acknowledge them, and then they can be released. If we keep in our feelings, our body takes them on until they are released. Jon finds his body is an honest measurement of how he is doing emotionally. Share with your partner/spouse that you want to know their deeper emotions. Someone has to begin the uncomfortable conversation to create more intimacy. Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Both of us had high anxiety throughout our childhood and adulthood. We thought such high anxiety was a normal part of life. Our anxiety seemed to be motivated by people pleasing, insecurity, and wondering, am I okay? The world was uncertain and this was our coping. Jon and I experienced a period of time where we peaceful and then the anxiety came back with force when we decided to live in the RV. Then, we felt pressure on our chest, that stabbing pain in our backs. The experience really encouraged us to help one another through the unknown. Presently, we are in a transition with our oldest leaving the home (RV), Jon looking for work, and financial pressure. We notice our bodies are talking to us once again about our anxious feelings. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Hailey Reed)  Stream "Dealing With Anxiety Together"  Relationship Podcast Gems: Our awning blew off. That brought on some anxiety! Learning to take people at their word, after all, they are grownups. Jema does better with anxiety when she has a plan. Jon's body tells him he is anxious before his thoughts do. Communication, exercise, simplifying the demands of our lives have helped us. Resources: Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles. Reminder: Some of the links on this page are affiliate links. We only recommend products that have simplified and improved our lives. If you choose to purchase something we may receive a commission to continue our quirky podcast. 

We have had quite the journey from having separate sex lives to learning to talk about sex. At the beginning of our relationship, we kept our sexuality to ourselves and crossed paths to have sex. We didn't discuss it or really share with one another our inner desires. I checked it off like another chore from my list of things to do and later learned of my disassociating during sex. Jon was afraid to share his sexuality and the secrets that surrounded it. A marriage crisis in 2008, motivated counseling and through therapy, we learned to communicate our sexuality and heal. It has been a long journey and one that is still difficult. The more we let one another into our thoughts and desires around sexuality the more profound our relationship has become. We will continue to share more about sex in our desire to help couples have conversations and deeper connections. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Pablo Heimplatz)  Relationship Podcast Gems: In our early relationship, we had separate sex lives. Jema repressed sexuality, Jon had a secret life of exploring sexuality. A marriage crisis in 2008 led to learning how to talk about sex. Learning how to talk about sex in a relationship deepens a couple's connection. Sexuality is our essence, much like creativity. If you say "sex" in a whisper, does it make it less uncomfortable?  :)  Stream "Learning to Talk About Sex" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Finding common interests as a couple can lead to more fun and adventure. Every relationship is like a unique fingerprint, with each couple deciding what they want their relationship to look like. Some couples have very different interests and live more independently, while others do everything together, or a balance of both. Sometimes our partners or spouses don't know it is our desire to connect and spend more time together. Also, we may assume things about one another that are untrue or believe the same interests of the past are the same in the present. Talking about your interests can lead to more adventures together whether that is trying out a new restaurant or a new country. The possibilities are endless and up to you two. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Pablo Heimplatz)  Relationship Podcast Gems on Finding Common Interests: Becoming aware of your own interests and developing them. Talking about your individual interests together. Try something new to both of you. Decide how do you want it to be? What activities do you desire to do together? Jema has a Secret Room that she files away her deepest thoughts, it's like a vault. Jon has been known to read every sign at the Science Museum.  Stream "Finding Common Interests" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

As with any lifestyle, there are also challenges of RV living with kids. Living in an RV has now become a familiar way of life for us, and there are times when the challenges of it all motivate our family to take a vacation from traveling in the motorhome. Fulltime RV living has been a loving choice for our family with the benefits outweighing the difficulties. Today, we talk about how we have adapted to life year round in a camper amidst the critters, freezing rain, and weekend cookouts in our bedroom. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Samantha Amidon ) Relationship Podcast Gems: Living in an RV is not like being on vacation :) Everyone seems to have their special chill spot, with a set of headphones for coping purposes. Seeing family can be difficult (we tend to connect through messaging or Skype sometimes) We face weather and other environmental challenges such as earthquakes, snow, and severe storms. Small spaces like the dreaded pots and pans cabinet that we curse....gahhh... It's hard to take a luxurious bath with all of the bubbles and candles and things. We forgot to mention privacy (a future topic) and the repairs (we rattle apart as we roll)! There are more we are sure we forgot, but will probably come up in a disagreement later for us to share Stream "The Challenges of RV Living With Kids" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

There are so many benefits of RV living with kids. Our plan was to sell our life and live in a motorhome for only one year after the sale of our house. We soon realized that raising our children in a small space encouraged us to become more connected with one another. We were also having more fun! In the beginning, we thought the amazing places we visited would be the best part of our RV adventure but soon found that it was more about the people we were meeting. People from every walk of life with such different backgrounds and stories. We met traveling families to drum around the campfires with, to spend a winter in Breckenridge, and to park next to the ocean in California with waves splashing on the RV. The people are what make traveling a meaningful experience. We chose to continue RV living with kids because of the rewards of simplicity, minimalism and having a family-centered life where we focus on the present. Educating our children through real-life experiences as we visit where history took place in the United States. As with any lifestyle, there are also challenges. Next week we will go beyond the photographs you see on Instagram and share the challenges of RV living with kids. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Samantha Amidon ) Relationship Podcast Gems: We were put into a minimalistic life where there is only so much room for so much stuff. Simplicity has brought a more peaceful life, where we are free of outside expectations. Living in one room, we become integrated into each other's lives and very family-centered. Our last kid to teach how to drive on Instagram. Stream "The Benefits of RV Living With Kids" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Giving you a glimpse of why we decided to try living in an RV full time with a family. We chose full-time RV living in January of 2011 to travel with our four kids in a motorhome. RV living with our family was motivated by a marriage crisis and our need to heal our family life. In 2008 our marriage fell apart, it was a moment in our lives where we decided to face the giants of fear and dig into therapy to save our relationship. It wasn't an easy journey, but it was a meaningful one that brought joy and love into our lives. As we began to change ourselves as individuals, we were also changing our marriage and our parenting. We were becoming different people. It was exciting and took a lot of energy to keep working on the process. We realized we could not continue to meet the outside expectations we were feeling from the outside world. We needed some time and space to really shift our family out of the crisis. A series of events led us to risk it all and stuff our family of six in an RV for one year of early retirement. Living in an RV full time with a family of six took us from surviving to thriving. We had the opportunity to learn more about ourselves and each other. We no longer had to spend hours away from our children, we had this amazing moment in time to get to know our kids and have adventures with them. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Samantha Amidon ) Relationship Podcast Gems: Living in an RV with a family put into practice what we had learned in therapy. The real adventure is choosing to change, grow, and heal together. Following the calling in our heart and going against fear has been rewarding for us. View from the top of the RV on Instagram. Stream "Living in an RV Full Time With a Family" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

No one wants to be bad at conversation, especially when we are all trying so hard to understand one another! In the past, we were not doing well with our conversations because we didn't really understand what each other really needed. Jon thought I wanted him to solve the problems I was sharing with him, while I just wanted to be heard and affirmed. I seem to process my days by talking, while Jon is more internal and needs questions to prompt him to share about his day. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Laura Ockel) Relationship Podcast Gems: We encourage you to talk with your partner/spouse about what you need and want from conversations. Be clear of your expectations, maybe before you begin sharing. "I need you to listen and affirm me." Meet "Buddy" the bird who ate lunch at Joes' Farm Grill on Instagram. Stream "How Not To Suck When Talking With Your Sweetheart" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

How do you handle embarrassment in a relationship? Everyone handle's embarrassment differently. Sometimes we repress our embarrassment, get angry, or can laugh about what happened for years to come. The goal is to be able to talk about all emotions with your lover, including embarrassment. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Abigail Keenan) Relationship Podcast Gems: Sharing awkward moments with your lover can create deeper connection and intimacy It takes practice to share embarrassment in a relationship, especially around sexuality Jema shares her story about the time she peed her pants at college (now that's embarrassing, do you feel better?) You can see a photo of Jema's childhood chair named "Stripey" on Instagram Stream "Embarrassment in a Relationship" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

The process of recovering from depression began with my self-care. Recovery included medication, exercise, diet changes, and therapy. My husband also supported me during the journey by giving me perspective. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Yaoqi LAI) Relationship Podcast Gems: What brought sunshine into my life to help with my SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) was the goLITE. Medication was necessary for me to "put out the fire" and reset my thinking. Self-care became a priority with exercise, time away from the kids, diet, and vitamins. Therapy was the key for me to heal my depression. Jon worked on his codependency while being empathetic and offering perspective. Listen to part one Depression and Marriage: We Tell Our Story and part two What is it Like to Be Depressed? Resources: Find out if you are dealing with depression with this depression self-test. More about the symptoms of depression. How to support a family member or a friend with depression. Get help if you are the one struggling with depression or if you are a loved one who wants to know how to support a loved one. Chat online, or call the Suicide Prevention Hotline. Stream "A Depression Story of Recovery" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles. Reminder: Some of the links on this page are affiliate links. We only recommend products that have simplified and improved our lives. If you choose to purchase something we may receive a commission. And you receive our gratitude!

I share with Jon what it felt like for me as I struggled with depression in our relationship, shame, and motherhood. The Baby Blues are what really tipped the scales of depression for me as a young mother. The hormonal influx after delivering my children would send me time and time again into a downward spiral of clinical depression. My moods were off, my thinking was gone, and I didn't want to get out of bed. It was after my third child that I started to have thoughts of ending my life. I was in so much pain in my life, so exhausted, and my brain chemicals were so out of balance that I was no longer thinking realistically. This story has brought a lot of guilt and shame along my journey of motherhood. I am finally at a place where I can share it with you today. What is it Like to Be a Depressed? If you can imagine waking up every day with the pain of a broken arm, that is what the pain of depression felt like. The pain of the broken arm would go away with sleep, but come back the minute I would open my eyes. It wasn't getting better or healing, it was broken. The pain was getting more intense, and the infection more severe only, I was the only one who knew my arm was broken. Others may have looked at my arm and said, "Your arm looks fine. Why are you sad? Why don't you just get up and be happy? You don't have a broken arm." Being depressed is like treading water in the ocean, another wave and you think you are not going to come back up for air. You fight. You come back up for another breath. You are exhausted from trying to stay afloat, you don't know when the next wave will hit you. You sink a little more every day. Coming up for air less often. Getting carried away in the current more frequently, seeing more darkness and less light. It seems inevitable that you will drown. After a while, you begin to believe it might be better for everyone if you just got it over with. Understanding depression is difficult if you have not personally experienced the hopelessness. Today, I share with you my perspective more about what it is like to be a depressed wife and the shame I had as a mother, as well as the moment I knew I needed to seek help. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Jong Marshes) Relationship Podcast Gems: What is depression Postpartum baby blues and depression SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) related to depression from a change in the seasons Listen to part one Depression and Marriage: We Tell Our Story Stream "What it's Like to Be a Depressed Wife" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Depression has affected our relationship from the beginning. In this episode we share two viewpoints - how it feels to be the person suffering from depression and how it affects the partner/spouse in the relationship. Depression and Marriage Were Normal My depression became apparent to me after having children and my doctor named this sadness that I had felt since I was young. Depression had become such a normal thing in my life that it didn't feel like something I needed to get help for, until that day in the doctor's office. I was at a point in my life where caring for myself and the family had become unmanageable and I could hardly get out of bed in the morning. She said, "the result of your questionnaire indicates that you are severely depressed. Can you tell me more about this?" Of course, I didn't want to tell her more about it as the shame swelled in my throat. I felt like a bad mom, a bad person, and weak. Something shameful was alive in my life and I had no idea how it got there or how to heal it. Jon listened to me talk about my sad days to the depth I would let him in. He worked a full-time job while I was at home with the three kids. He never knew what emotional state I would be in when he returned home. He felt helpless. My depression journey changed once I could admit to myself that I needed help and could let Jon be part of that healing journey. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Volkan Olmez) Relationship Podcast Gems: Depression is not something you can will your way out of alone Depression grows with isolation, anxiety, guilt, and shame Sharing your depression with a loved one releases the secret and begins a journey of togetherness to healing Stream "Depression in Marriage" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

The meaning of gifts in our relationship happens to be very different. No surprises there! After learning more about one another on our last episode of Simplifying Holiday Gift Giving for Couples we dig in deeper to what gifts mean to us individually. I love giving gifts. It is like a puzzle waiting to be put together - taking small clues and building up to one present. A mystery to solve and smiles to be won. It shows someone that you have been thinking of them. That they are loved. It's not a chore for me. And yet, that is my perspective. Isn't it interesting how you put your own perspective on someone else? Jon relates how frustrating it can be to find the perfect gift for me. He says it's like having a professor tell you to write a final paper in college that's worth the entire grade. Except, as the student, you will not be told the topic or how long it will be. If it isn't impressive, you will fail. And not only will you fail, but you will be a bad person! I started to see gift giving from Jon's perspective. As the person with expectations, I was not giving him much to go on. I was also putting a lot of meaning on gifts. The gift was an indication of my importance to Jon. Whoa. We walked away from this episode with insight into one of our common conflicts and share that insight with you. We decided to choose a gift together this year and skip the whole mumbo-jumbo. Although, I may now want those pans. Did we mention giving gifts in a relationship is complicated? :) (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: DiEtte Henderson) Relationship Podcast Gems: Accept we are different people. I observe, take notes. Love presents. My husband doesn't love gifts. Challenge the belief that if he really loved you, he would read your mind. Be very specific if you want a specific gift. Have an idea board on Pinterest, Trello, or stick it on the fridge. Stream "The Meaning of Gifts in a Relationship" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

With the theme of creating a peaceful holiday season, we unravel simplifying gift giving for couples during the holidays and share our history of miscommunication during Christmas. (There may be some miscommunication on the episode, always keeping it real for you.) When we were young, around thirteen, I set my expectations for Jon's gift giving. He bought me flowers (from a flower shop) and stuffed animals, and figurines. He was so romantical! Then, we got married and I fell into the belief that if Jon really loved me he would know what to buy for me (cough). That usually failed miserably. Throw in some kids or maybe four and the gift-giving chaos became too much to handle. It was obvious we needed to set some expectations for our kids and for us around gift giving. We came up with three simple gifts - gold, frankincense, and myrrh. The kids would receive something they wanted, something they could share, and something they needed. It set financial expectations for us, and they knew how many gifts would be under the tree. After we moved into this RV it not only simplified our life but minimalized our stuff. Now, we are very mindful of what we bring in because it needs to fit! We also discovered our family received more value from the experiences we chose to do together than accumulating more stuff. Simplifying Holiday Gift Giving is About Setting Expectations Everyone wants to be successful at gift giving, especially in a relationship. For us, it is important to be clear and specific. Having a conversation about what each other's expectations are can create a loving experience for both people in the relationship! That's what we want for us and for you! (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: rawpixel.com) Grab your free conversation starter for peaceful, simple gift giving. Relationship Podcast Gems: Be successful in gift giving this holiday season by setting clear expectations. Choose a system for simplifying gift giving such as the three gifts Decide if gifts mean things or experiences, or a little bit of both Stream "Simplifying Holiday Gift Giving" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles. Grab your freebie for fun conversation.

The holidays are a time to gather with our family, friends, and coworkers. There are social gatherings to attend and eggnog to drink. A time of joy and chatter. The holidays can also be a time of anxiety and stress. One of the tools we have found to be helpful during gatherings and in our family life is to become a gentle observer. A gentle observer, according to Maureen Graves, is someone who steps outside of the moment and notes what is happening. The gentle observer does not judge herself or himself, or other people. As we cannot control the behaviors of others, we focus on taking care of ourselves so we can have a loving experience. As Jon notes in the podcast, being a gentle observer is like becoming Ebenezer in A Christmas Carol. He is an onlooker to the past, present, and future. He can not meddle in the what is going on but merely observe from his perspective as a ghost. In this way, you can also become a spectator, you are not pulled into conversations by emotional responses. You can choose to respond, or you can choose to just watch it unfold. The gentle observer can also be a way to listen to what others have to say, even if you don't agree with their opinion. You can use it at social gatherings, when you go out shopping, or when you listen to your teenagers as they verbalize the belief systems they are trying to create. A gentle observer is a way we can be gentle with ourselves and with those we love. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Brigitte Tohm) Relationship Podcast Gems: What does it mean to be a Gentle Observer for you? Talk about what anxieties you have before attending your social setting. While observing, note your responses to the situations. Reflect with your spouse/partner on what you observed about yourself and others after the event. Grab your free conversation starter for a peaceful holiday experience this year! Stream "Dealing With the Holidays" Your Next Steps: Grab your freebie for fun conversation. Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Nagging is the constant harassment to motivate someone to do something, usually in the way you want it done. Being unique individuals in a relationship, we may have different perspectives on the right way to do things. Maybe this sounds familiar to you if you think about some of the popular sitcoms like an oldie, Everybody Loves Raymond. The guy is trying to balance his career with the complexities of having a family. The wife is losing her mind as she tries to create a smooth running household. The conflict arises out of miscommunication and with someone (usually the guy) trying to meet his own needs such as a night with the guys. The wife nags about the chips on the couch. I have been guilty of communicating with Jon my needs in a sideways attempt through statements, especially in the car. "You are driving too close." Early in our relationship, I nagged him to take out the garbage. I remember setting the garbage down in front of the door thinking that would be a good way to communicate my need to him. I watched him scoot the garbage bag to the side and walk out the door not realizing what I was getting at! Of course, we were in our own sitcom at that point. I was pissed off he didn't take out the garbage. Jon had no idea what was going on. I find nagging to be a tool I use when I am feeling unsupported with the house and kids. In the garbage scenario, I was feeling the weight of the chores on my shoulders and desired some help. Now, I would communicate that with Jon. "Jon, I am feeling overwhelmed. Can you please help me out tonight and take out the garbage?" Taking out the garbage is no longer an issue in our relationship because we gave the job to our son! A great way to get rid of that conflict. Yet, put me in the car on a day I feel irritable and have Jon drive. It is a sitcom in the making. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Matthew Hamilton ) Relationship Podcast Gems: Nagging is an indirect way to express a need What to do when you feel like nagging What to do when you are being nagged The right way to hang toilet paper (just sayin') Transform nagging into a loving experience using our conversation starter below! Stream "Why Does She Keep Nagging Me?" Your Next Steps: Grab your freebie for fun conversation. Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Keeping score in a relationship is also what some couples call keeping points. I can remember keeping score, and I especially liked it when it served my purposes (wink). Jon never really understood the point system, and for a long time was clueless that I was doing such math in my head. The question is, how do you know how much something is worth? Is making coffee early in the morning equal to changing a diaper? Does watching the kids count for as many points if they are napping versus spilling drinks on the carpet while having a popcorn fight? Doesn't a stay-at-home mom or dad automatically get an additional 500 points for dealing with the daily monotony? The demands on our time once we had children intensified the balance of home, college, and work. The point system seemed to be a way for me to have permission to leverage the time I needed for myself. I wasn't in a place where I knew how to communicate my real needs to Jon. I could, however, build a case with some calculations and show him the score.  Usually, yes, his score was in the negative. (Theme music: Ethan Anderson, Photo credit: Thought Catalog) Relationship Podcast Gems: The motivation behind keeping points Point keeping created a division between us What are the real needs of the relationship Giving our partner/spouse the chance to take care of us Get to Know Each Other Practice being honest with your needs. Share your needs, come up with a plan to meet your needs together (A free night off?) Practice being heard by one another Stream "Keeping Score in a Relationship" Your Next Steps: Join our email list for new episodes and articles.

Ethan Anderson is the co-founder of MyTime, an online scheduling software that allows you to book appointments online with businesses ranging from haircuts to oil changes to dental exams – with over 2 million businesses to choose from. Previously, Ethan founded Redbeacon, raising over $7.4million and growing the team to over 20 people before being acquired by Home Depot.  Ethan has a diverse background, going from Duke Economics to Harvard MBA, and working at McKinsey, Buy.com, Starbucks, Clorox, and Google to then founding 2 companies, one with a successful exit. Here’s a glimpse of what you’ll learn: [0:40] Jeremy’s introduction of Ethan Anderson, co-founder of MyTime.com. [2:13] The most stressful part of Ethan’s journey so far. [3:53] A trademark battle Ethan faced and the stress involved. [5:09] Mentally coping with the stress of things like the trademark battle. [7:14] Launching a POS product and dealing with stolen credit card issues after the launch. [8:33] How to remedy issues like the fraud issue they faced after launching the POS product. [10:48] The importance of bringing scheduling online for small businesses. [16:32] The objections Ethan faces when dealing with small businesses. [20:40] Protecting domains and how MyTime approaches that. [21:58] Success stories of people that were once resistant but ended up choosing MyTime. [23:47] The beginning of MyTime and the features they included. [30:13] Some discoveries of having one on one conversations with customers. [36:45] Dealing with features customers want, but Ethan knew it wasn’t the right direction for the company. [40:47] Falling off a glacier. [45:59] Other thrill seeking adventures Ethan has been on and how that influences his approach to business. [47:59] Ethan’s first passion and the path he saw for his life. [51:09] The best advice Ethan’s father gave him. [52:28] Ethan discusses one of his early businesses. [56:39] The opportunity at Buy.com. [1:00:31] Ethan’s greatest memories of working with Google. [1:05:33] The sale of Redbeacon and how they celebrated. [1:08:53] How winning TechCrunch50 helped Redbeacon catch the attention of Home Depot. [1:09:54] How soon after Redbeacon sold did you start up MyTime? [1:10:35] How to connect with Ethan. In this episode… After the resounding success of Redbeacon, Ethan knew he was equipped with the know-how to tackle a new venture in MyTime. Putting his diverse background to work, Ethan and the MyTime team worked tirelessly to refine the product into a flourishing online scheduling software with elite customer service and an array of offerings suited to businesses in just about any industry. From the stress of growing the business to a few mistakes along the way, Ethan shares the journey of MyTime in the hopes that it can enlighten fellow entrepreneurs as they seek the same success. Ethan discusses the stress involved in being an entrepreneur and growing a new business. From team-building to raising capital to lawsuits, MyTime has seen it all. Ethan shares how stress has impacted him, and how he approaches the business, as well as how he dealt with a trademark lawsuit. He goes on to discuss a few key learnings that came shortly after the launch of a POS product, when faced $25k in credit card fraud right out of the gate. Ethan talks about the resistance MyTime has faced when dealing with small businesses, as well as how they’ve managed to overcome that resistance. He shares one success story in particular, which came from a small-town barbershop with strong resistance to making any changes at all. After trying MyTime, this shop only allows online appointments, which is a huge win for the MyTime team. As they close out their chat, Ethan shares a glimpse into his thrill-seeking leanings, including an adventure that ended with him falling from a glacier. He also offers insight into his background, from being a budding politician to a successful entrepreneur, and how he found his way to entrepreneurship, after following some solid advice from his father. Resources Mentioned on this episode https://www.mytime.com/ https://www.mytime.com/merchants/ TechCrunch50 2009

Today we have Ethan AndersonCo-founder of MyTime, where you can book appointments for anythingonline like haircuts, oil changes or even dental exams and haveover 2 million businesses to choose from. Previously he founded Redbeaconwhere they raised $7.4million and grew the team to over 20 peoplebefore they were acquired by Home Depot. Ethan has a very interestingbackground going from Duke economics to Harvard MBA working atMcKinsey,  Buy.com, Starbucks, Clorox, Google to founding 2companies and one with a successful exit. Here’s a glimpse of what you’lllearn: [0:37] Jeremy’s introduction of Ethan Anderson,founder of MyTime. [1:33] Falling off a glacier. [6:45] Other thrill seeking adventures Ethanhas been on and how that influences his approach tobusiness. [8:45] Ethan’s first passion and the path hesaw for his life. [11:25] The best advice Ethan’s father gavehim. [12:44] Ethan discusses one of his earlybusinesses. [16:55] The opportunity at Buy.com. [20:07] Ethan’s greatest memories of workingwith Google. [25:09] The sale of Redbeacon and how theycelebrated. [28:29] How winning TechCrunch50 helpedRedbeacon catch the attention of Home Depot. [29:30] How soon after Redbeacon sold did youstart up MyTime? [31:15] How to connect with Ethan. In this episode… A thrill-seeker at heart, EthanAnderson is no stranger to working hard to bring a vision to life.From falling off a glacier - and surviving - to having huge successin the business world, Ethan shares insight into what makes himtick and how he’s managed to embrace all things entrepreneurial andtruly flourish. Ethan gives us a glimpse intohis journey from budding politician to entrepreneur and how being athrill-seeker helped him succeed in the uncertain world ofentrepreneurship. Following his father’s advice (do the things youwant to do and do them well), Ethan went from Buy.com to Google toStarbucks (and many other exciting companies) before founding hisown company, Redbeacon. He shares what it was like towork so hard to bring an idea to life and then receive tremendousaccolades at TechCrunch50 in 2009 - where they were named the topstartup of the year. It was that recognition, Ethan says, that ledto Home Depot approaching them and eventually buyingRedbeacon. Ethan goes on to share theinspiration behind MyTime and why he wasted no time in starting itup after selling Redbeacon. Ethan’s drive is evident, as is hisability to find a niche and excel in all that he does. Resources Mentioned on thisepisode https://www.mytime.com/ https://www.mytime.com/merchants/ TechCrunch50 2009

FIRST OFF, THIS IS EPISODE 47 NOT 49, WHICH WILL MAKE SENSE WHEN YOU LISTEN TO THIS EPISODE!! It was a great pleasure to finally sit down with our friend Joe Hardcore (McKay) who you may know from the giant festival he runs, This Is Hardcore Fest, from the many shows he books in Philadelphia, or from some of the bands he has been in like SHATTERED REALM or PUNISHMENT. Regardless, we have known Joe for 20 years, and he has been an important part of the scene here in Philadelphia for even longer. In fact his first band, LTD played the first hardcore show I ever went to. Unlike a lot of folks, I came to hardcore from punk. When I was a freshman in highschool I was listening mostly to a combination of GREEN DAY, CRASS, THE CIRCLE JERKS, and COCKSPARRER thanks to the many weird punks who also went to Collingswood High School. However, that show at the Firenze which we discuss a tiny bit on the episode started me on a journey to where I am now, and I really appreciate that.         Joe has been harassing us good naturedly for quite some time about not having him on the show, but the timing just never worked out until now. When we contact him about doing this episode, he knew IMMEDIATELY what he wanted to discuss: NINJA MOVIES! Not just any films either, specifically the work of Sho Kosugi, and mutually we decided to focus on perhaps the best of the Canon Films Group’s ninja trilogy, REVENGE OF THE NINJA!! Predictably, we end up ALL OVER THE DAMN PLACE, but in the best way possible. We covered a small part of many Ninja films, including PRAY FOR DEATH, ENTER THE NINJA, NINJA 3: THE DOMINATION, RAGE OF HONOR, and SUPER NINJAS ( 5 ELMENTS NINJA) It is a pretty great conversation! This was the kind of episode where we had so much we could talk about there was no way we could cover it all, so let us know if you wanna hear a part two sometime soon!         We also mentioned a great deal of other films from the work of Takashi Miike to films like THE WITCH, ZOOTOPIA, and KINGDOM OF HEAVEN. SOUND NOTES: Towards the end of the first segment there is a weird buzz in the background. I have no idea why, and it seems to go away in the second segment. Sorry about that, hopefully it doesn’t bother you too much. Other then that episode went great! BIG THANKS TO JOE HARDCORE FOR RECORDING WITH US! BIG THANKS TO ALL OF YOU WHO SUPPORT US, AND TO FOLKS LIKE NICK SPACEK, PHIL SAYNISCH, EVAN VELLELA, SEAN BENNIS-SINE, JUSTIN HARLAN, ETHAN ANDERSON, JUSTIN MILLER, JOSEPH GERVASI, AND ANYONE ELSE WHO HAS POSTED ABOUT US AND SPREAD THE WORD! HUGE UPS TO MAD JOE FROM WISDOM IN CHAINS FOR WEARING OUR SHIRT AT THE JUDGE SHOW, AND TO JUSTIN LORE FOR REPPING US AT MONSTER MANIA!! This episode was a real reminder of how grateful we are to our friends and fans and collaborators who have helped make this thing possible. It is great to be a part of something so awesome. RATE-REVIEW-SUBSCRIBE-OVERCOME The post CINEPUNX Episode 47: Joe Hardcore talks Sho Kosugi, Ninjas, and Pickle Heads appeared first on Cinepunx.

Ethan Anderson graduated from Duke University and began his career at McKinsey working on tech projects. Ethan stuck it out for 1.5 years and then left McKinsey to found QuickReturns, a company to help provide reverse logistics services to online retailers. Although Ethan & his team wrote an award winning business plan and received initial funding, they decided not to continue after the internet bubble burst. In true VFA fashion, Ethan felt that he had to gain experience working at an online retailer to better understand the business before he could go on to found something else. He became the Director of Strategy & Analysis at Buy.com where he developed pricing models with machine learning algorithms. After leaving Buy.com, Ethan attended Harvard Business School, worked at Google, and founded another company, Redbeacom, which won first place at TechCrunch 50 and was eventually acquired by Home Depot. Listen to this week's long distance podcast (sometimes the sound quality isn't the greatest- bear with us!) to hear more about Ethan's career and how he came to found his current company, MyTime.

Joseph Shemesh shares his expertise on heat mapping for your website. Ethan Anderson discusses the new age of booking appointments with your clients.

David Doctorow, Chief Strategy Officer of Expedia to discuss ways small businesses can save on travel expenses. CEO Ethan Anderson says his application can be a game changer for small business leaders who want to better manage their time and contacts. Mike Oristian is co-founder of CALLPROMISE talks about why calling back prospects/visitors adds sales, profits

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Ethan Anderson from Massy Ferguson talks about their “big, industrial, dirty” band name, their first video and their blue collar bar anthem. He also plays three tracks from Victory and Ruins from the Massy Ferguson band. Plus Texas rock & roll from Mike Stinson, travelin' blues from Jason Daniels, a beautiful duet from The Barn Birds, a new take on an americana classic from John Fogerty, dirty rock from the Hickoids, greasy blues from Patrick Sweany, country rock from Matt Dmits, rag time jazz from Who Hit John?, and country music from The Bo-Stevens. "Massy Ferguson" originated from Americana Music Show.

There's more to the recent case involving the murder of Christina and Ethan Anderson and kidnapping of Hannah Anderson by James DiMaggio than meets the eye. Join Neil and Kristin as they unlock the codes behind the destiny of disaster, plus personal readings.  Listener line: 914.338.0164   World renowned psychic Neil Baker and host Kristin are featured on this hour long show which deals with the vast, expansive world of psychic phenomenon.  This show delves into the extraordinary mysteries that reside beyond the physical realm of common experience.  Neil is your guide and teacher as he establishes a stage that is both personal and universal, while callers have the opportunity to connect with Neil for one on one readings.  For an in-depth, personal reading, please call Neil at 562.596.7818.

Distal is a veteran of electronic music. Forgetting bpm and genre to the masses, he relies on his signature sound alone to leave a solid mark on his listeners. With the ability to compose a wide array of moods, tempos and rhythms, the 28 year old producer takes influence from his early childhood love of techno, jungle and hardcore. In early 2010 Distal started his own label named Embassy Recordings with childhood friend Ethan Anderson and till date has put out almost a dozen 12” vinyl releases and many more digital releases, collaborations and remixes for prolific labels such as Tectonic, Soul Jazz, Frite Nite and Trouble & Bass. He easily brings forward one of the strongest and most unique sounds out of the whole footwork, bass, electronica crossover. His signing to Pinch's Bristol based Tectonic label for the release of his debut LP 'Civilization', is perhaps a sign of things to come. Within the LP his productions take a more structured and synth laden route in comparison to his earlier upbeat drum heavy monsters. Recently assembled exclusively for Wild City (after a serious amount of chasing), his mix is a relentless jam of face-melting tracks, high-speed percussion and chopped-up vocal samples that's sure to break some legs on the dancefloor. Over the course of 45mins, it offers a real sense of narrative development getting harder, nastier and perkier as it progresses. Artists such as Legowelt, Duke Dumont and EDMX all see airtime, as does Distal's own tracks 'Throwing Shade', 'Ralph Muggins Acid Depot' and his collaboration with Theft titled 'We Get So Furious'. For a tracklist and further info head over here: http://www.thewildcity.com/EN/music.xhtml/article/2169-wild-city-032-distal