Podcast appearances and mentions of Kay Redfield Jamison

Around 40 million people around the world have bipolar disorder, which involves cyclical swings between moods: from depression to mania. Kay Redfield Jamison is one of those people. She's also a professor of psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins School of Medicine and has written extensively about the topic, from medical textbooks to personal memoirs. Today on Short Wave, she joins us to talk about the diagnosis process, treating and managing bipolar disorder. Listen to every episode of Short Wave sponsor-free and support our work at NPR by signing up for Short Wave+ at plus.npr.org/shortwave.Got a question about mental health? Let us know at shortwave@npr.org. Learn more about sponsor message choices: podcastchoices.com/adchoicesNPR Privacy Policy

Çok, ama çok mutlu olduğunuzu düşünün. Öyle ki, hiçbir şey içinizdeki coşkuyu söndüremiyor, özgüveninizi düşürmüyor... Fakat bu öforinin aniden kesildiğini ve birden dibe battığınızı hayal edin. Gökkuşağına hayran hayran bakarken, tüm renklerin aniden solması gibi bir şey bu. Aslında bu bipolar bozukluğa sahip bir insanın yaşadıklarının örneği. Hiçbir Şey Tesadüf Değil'in bu bölümünde, bir insanın yaşayabileceği en derin psikolojik problemlerden birisi olan bipolarlığı anlamaya çalışıyoruz. Bu duygu durumu bozukluğunun nelere yol açabileceği üzerine konuşuyoruz.------- Podbee Sunar -------Bu bölüm Garanti BBVA BonusFlaş hakkında reklam içerir.Ramazan alışverişlerine 1.200 TL bonus!Ramazan'da Bonus üye işyerinde yapacağınız 2000 TL ve üzeri market alışverişlerinize toplam 1.200 TL bonus!Ramazan avantajlarını kaçırmamak için BonusFlaş'ı şimdi indirin.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Chapter 1: Summary of An Unquiet Mind"An Unquiet Mind" is a memoir by Kay Redfield Jamison, a clinical psychologist and a leading expert on bipolar disorder. In the book, Jamison shares her personal experiences with the illness, providing a poignant and insightful exploration of the highs of mania and the depths of depression.Jamison describes her initial struggles with the condition, including her reluctance to seek help and the stigma associated with mental illness. She vividly recounts her manic episodes, characterized by heightened creativity, euphoria, and impulsivity, contrasted with debilitating depressive phases that left her feeling hopeless.The memoir not only focuses on her personal journey but also delves into the impact of bipolar disorder on her professional life, relationships, and academic achievements. Jamison highlights the importance of proper diagnosis and treatment, emphasizing the need for both medication and psychological support.Throughout the book, she reflects on the complexities of mental illness, the importance of self-acceptance, and the value of living a fulfilling life despite the challenges posed by her condition. "An Unquiet Mind" serves as both a personal narrative and a broader commentary on mental health, advocating for greater understanding and compassion towards those affected by bipolar disorder and mental illness in general.Chapter 2: The Theme of An Unquiet Mind"An Unquiet Mind" by Kay Redfield Jamison is a memoir that offers an intimate glimpse into the life of the author as a clinical psychologist living with bipolar disorder. Here are some key plot points, character developments, and thematic ideas from the book: Key Plot Points1. Introduction to Illness: Jamison recounts her early experiences with mood swings and the onset of her bipolar disorder in her youth, detailing how these episodes affected her studies and relationships.2. Academic Success: Despite her mental health struggles, Jamison excels academically, ultimately becoming a prominent psychologist and a leading expert in mood disorders.3. Career vs. Illness: The narrative explores the tension between her professional life and her personal battles with the disorder, highlighting her initial refusal to accept her diagnosis and the stigma associated with mental illness.4. Treatment and Self-awareness: Jamison describes her experiences with medication (lithium), therapy, and the struggle to balance her health while pursuing her career, emphasizing moments of clarity and despair.5. Personal Relationships: The memoir delves into Jamison's romantic relationships, particularly with other individuals who share similar struggles, illustrating the complexities of love and companionship in the context of mental illness.6. A Turning Point: A pivotal moment comes when Jamison faces a deep depression that forces her to confront her condition fully. This results in a transformative understanding of her identity and experiences.7. Advocacy for Mental Health: Throughout the narrative, there is a strong emphasis on advocating for mental health awareness and the importance of understanding and compassion for those with mental disorders. Character Development- Kay Redfield Jamison: The central character, Jamison evolves from a troubled young woman in denial of her illness to a knowledgeable expert advocating for mental health. Her experiences transform her from a passive victim of her condition into an empowered voice for understanding and acceptance.- Family and Friends: Jamison's relationships with her family and friends play a crucial role in her story. Her connections provide both support and relate the struggles her disorder imposes on her loved ones.- Romantic Interests: The portrayal of her romantic relationships, particularly with other individuals who have...

How can we improve our mental wellbeing by supporting our caregivers and healers? Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison of Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine has many ideas which have come to her in part from her own remarkable life. Time magazine has called her a "Hero of Medicine." She's also an award-winning author. On this episode, we talk with her about her New Yorker Book of the Year, Fires in the Dark: Healing the Unquiet Mind.

I have such a fantastic production team in Christine Mathias, my communications manager, and John Crowley, my audio engineer. And so I want to thank them for pulling the next two episodes off for me while I'm on vacation with my family! This was Christine's choice as one of her favorites, and she introduces this week's episode in this "second time around" listen. The focus is on how to interview a potential therapist, a task which stop SO many people from even trying therapy. I agree with her about how important this info is. So I hope - actually we hope - it's great info for you. The listener voicemail today is from a woman who'd read one of my blogpostarticles on challenging or working through the shame that you've carried around, quite without rational or reason, because you felt invisible to others, and thought whatever happened to cause your shame was somehow your 'fault.' Advertisers' Links: Click HERE for the NEW fabulous offer from AG1 – with bonus product with your subscription! Vital Links: The podcast episode also talking about the problem of feeling invisible.  An Unquiet Mind written by Kay Redfield Jamison, My first podcast episode on What Is Good Therapy? An Open Counseling article explaining licensure and training differences between therapists My podcast on whether to terminate therapy The different family roles that you can adopt and play You can hear more of many other topics by listening to my podcast, SelfWork with Dr. Margaret Rutherford. Subscribe to my website and receive one weekly newsletter including my weekly blog post and podcast! If you'd like to join my FaceBook closed group, then clickhere and answer the membership questions! Welcome! My book entitled Perfectly Hidden Depression is available and you can order here! Its message is specifically for those with a struggle with strong perfectionism which acts to mask underlying emotional pain. But the many self-help techniques described can be used by everyone who chooses to begin to address emotions long hidden away that are clouding and sabotaging your current life. And here's another way to send me a message! You can record by clicking below and ask your question or make a comment. You'll have 90 seconds to do so and that time goes quickly. By recording, you're giving SelfWork (and me) permission to use your voice on the podcast. I'll look forward to hearing from you!  

The acclaimed author of An Unquiet Mind considers the age-old quest for relief from psychological pain and the role of the exceptional healer in the journey back to health. Hear Michael's conversation with Kay Redfield Jamison on her book "Fires in the Dark: Healing the Unquiet Mind."

Fires in the Dark: Healing the Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison https://amzn.to/43Hcwcu The acclaimed author of An Unquiet Mind considers the age-old quest for relief from psychological pain and the role of the exceptional healer in the journey back to health. “To treat, even to cure, is not always to heal.” In this expansive cultural history of the treatment and healing of mental suffering, Kay Jamison writes about psychotherapy, what makes a great healer, and the role of imagination and memory in regenerating the mind. From the trauma of the battlefields of the twentieth century, to those who are grieving, depressed, or with otherwise unquiet minds, to her own experience with bipolar illness, Jamison demonstrates how remarkable psychotherapy and other treatments can be when done well. She argues that not only patients but doctors must be healed. She draws on the example of W.H.R. Rivers, the renowned psychiatrist who treated poet Siegfried Sassoon and other World War I soldiers, and discusses the long history of physical treatments for mental illness, as well as the ancient and modern importance of religion, ritual, and myth in healing the mind. She looks at the vital role of artists and writers, as well as exemplary figures, such as Paul Robeson, who have helped to heal us as a people. Fires in the Dark is a beautiful meditation on the quest and adventure of healing the mind, on the power of accompaniment, and the necessity for knowledge. About the Author Kay Redfield Jamison (born June 22, 1946) is an American clinical psychologist and writer. Her work has centered on bipolar disorder, which she has had since her early adulthood. She holds a post of Professor of Psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine and is an Honorary Professor of English at the University of St Andrews.

Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison believes that medication is an overused option and that many people can make great strides recovering from “mental suffering” using therapy, art, and meaningful hobbies. She also shares that we can learn a lot by understanding the lessons learned from resilient people who came before us. Using numerous historical examples, Dr. Jamison takes us on a journey of understanding our present mental health states by using the past.  What do soldiers who suffer from PTSD, mourners after a death, and people with mental illness all have in common? According to New York Times' best selling author and Johns Hopkins professor Dr. Jamison, they all have an unquiet mind they need to heal.  To learn more -- or read the transcript -- please visit the official episode page. Kay Redfield Jamison is the Dalio Professor in Mood Disorders and a professor of psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine, as well as an honorary professor of English at the University of St. Andrews in Scotland. She is the coauthor of the standard medical text on bipolar disorder and author of An Unquiet Mind, Night Falls Fast, Exuberance, and Touched with Fire. Her most recent book, Robert Lowell: Setting the River on Fire, was a Pulitzer Prize finalist. Dr. Jamison is a Fellow of the American Academy of Arts and Sciences and of the Royal Society of Edinburgh. She is a recipient of the Lewis Thomas Prize, the Sarnat Prize from the National Academy of Medicine, and a John D. and Catherine T. MacArthur Fellowship. Gabe Howard is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. Gabe makes his home in the suburbs of Columbus, Ohio. He lives with his supportive wife, Kendall, and a Miniature Schnauzer dog that he never wanted, but now can't imagine life without. To book Gabe for your next event or learn more about him, please visit gabehoward.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Episode #47: To honor Mental Health Awareness Month, we turn our attention to bipolar disorder, a serious mental health condition that causes extreme mood swings. If not treated and managed, bipolar disorder can be dangerous and cause great disruption in a person's life. Most mental health disorders have peak onset during young adulthood. So, while beginning college and meeting the new stressors that accompany this transition, many young adults will experience the first onset of problems or an exacerbation of pre-existing symptoms. Students diagnosed with bipolar disorder are 70% more likely to drop out of college than students with no psychiatric diagnosis. Many of these students are going undiagnosed and are not getting the treatment and the support services they need to succeed in college. However, students with bipolar disorder can implement effective treatments, practice management strategies, and seek support in order make progress in their college education. For this conversation, we're joined by Allyson Makuch, who recently navigated bipolar disorder throughout her college and graduate school years. We're also joined by a University of California, Santa Cruz Director of Psychiatry, Dr. David Lo, to inform us about bipolar disorder and ways to manage it while in college. Broadcast 10/2/22 & 10/10/22 Special thanks  to Jeanne Baldzikowski for audio production, Jennifer Young for underwriting outreach, Lisa Herendeen for advance research and Leslie Nielsen for “In Your Voice” Coordination. And thanks to acoustic guitarist Adrian Legg for composing, performing, and donating the use of our theme music. LISTEN ANYTIME or subscribe to get new or past episodes delivered to your listening device: Apple Podcasts / Google Podcasts / Spotify / Stitcher  / TuneIn JOIN EMAIL LIST Want to know our interesting topic each month? Simply  SIGN UP for our email list! FOLLOW US Facebook  @stateofmindksqd Instagram @state_of_mind.radio SUGGEST A TOPIC If you or someone you know has topic ideas for future shows or a story of mental health recovery to share, please email debra.stateofmind@ksqd.org SHARE YOUR STORY In Your Voice are short segments on the show where a listener gets to share their experience of the topic we are discussing. You can call us at 831- 824-4324 and leave a 1-3 minute message about: a mental health experience you've had, something that has contributed to your mental health recovery journey, or share a resource that has helped you. Alternatively, you can make a 1-3 minute audio recording right on your phone and email that file to debra.stateofmind@ksqd.org. Your voice may just become part of one of our future shows! SUPPORT OR UNDERWRITE If you like what you're hearing here on KSQD, also affectionately called K– Squid, you can become a “Philanthropod on the Squid Squad” by becoming a supporting member  and help keep KSQD surfing the air waves! Consider underwriting your business or agency and showing our listeners your support for State of Mind. RESOURCES * Indicates Santa Cruz Local Books & Articles An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison. This is a trailblazing autobiography of a psychiatrist who also lives with Bipolar 1. Hearing about her recovery journey helped me feel less alone when I first got my diagnosis. Mind Fixers: Psychiatry's Troubled Search for the Biology of Mental Illness by Anne Harrington. If you are interested in the history of science and psychiatry, this book provides insightful historical context for modern day psychiatric interventions for bipolar disorder  and other mental illnesses. A Diagnosis of Mental Illness Need Not End a College Career – Short article by Marjorie Baldwin / NAMI.com / March 19, 2018. Back to school with bipolar? How college can unleash mania – Excellent article describing triggers, ways to manage the illness, identifies risk factors to watch out for and offers links to additional resources.  By Michele Hoos / Health.com / September 21, 2010. Managing My Life With Bipolar Disorder – WebMD short online article with 7 prevention practices to help manage symptoms of Bipolar Disorder. Medically Reviewed by Neha Pathak, MD on February 01, 2022. Web Resources The Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance – Focusing solely on depression and bipolar disorders and offering peer-based, wellness-oriented support and empowering services and resources online 24/7, in local support groups, in audio and video casts, or in printed materials distributed by DBSA and their chapters. This is where our guest Allyson attends her support groups. WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan) – a self-designed prevention and wellness tool that you can use to get well and stay well. Many versions of this and templates to fill out can also be found by searching online for WRAP Plan templates. Julie A. Fast (@juliefast) on Instagram for tips and reminders on your recovery journey with Bipolar. Julie is a woman with Bipolar 1 who is an advocate and author supporting people with bipolar disorder  and their loved ones. *NAMI Santa Cruz County – Free classes & support groups, crisis information and locally oriented resources and support and advocacy on the countywide level. NAMI National – Website with extensive information and research on mental health and advocacy at the nation level. NAMI California – Training, education and mental health advocacy information. How Do you Treat Bipolar Disorder – Practical information from Mental Health America website about the primary ways to treat and manage bipolar disorder. Resources Specifically for the University of California, Santa Cruz Community *Counseling and Psychological Services at University of California, Santa Cruz – Also known as “CAPS,” offers culturally appropriate mental health services to currently enrolled UCSC students only, as well as consultation to faculty, staff, and families. *Disability Resource Center at University of California, Santa Cruz – Works to assist the UCSC campus with equal educational access for students with disabilities. Supports retention and graduation of students with disabilities, promotes a non-discriminatory campus environment and encourages student development and independence *Slug Support Program at University of California, Santa Cruz – The UCSC Slug Support Program was created to promote early intervention with students of concern to prevent culminating problems from escalating into a crisis.  The goal of the Slug Support Program is to identify students navigating difficult or challenging situations and assist them in resolving their concerns. *Mental Health Resources for Students at the University of California, Santa Cruz – A comprehensive list of on-campus and off-campus mental health resources specific for college students. Resources for the Cabrillo College Community *Accessibility Support Center – Provides services, accommodations, and academic support for students with disabilities (including mental health diagnoses) and learning differences at Cabrillo College. ASC assists the college to meet the requirements ensuring that all programs, services, and activities are accessible to and usable by students with disabilities. Contact Guests *Shuyun David Lo, MD – Can be contacted through Counseling & Psychological Services at University of California, Santa Cruz *Allyson Makuch – You can hear more of her music at her website here: Echoes and Artifacts * Indicates Santa Cruz Local

It's time to chat about all the stuff we're obsessed with lately, most of which has been included in our Monday newsletter—do you get that thing??   Keep an eye on Fat Ham, a play we think will definitely have a second life, ideally on Broadway.    We both got a lot out of Burn Rate by Bonobos founder Andy Dunn, which tells the story of founding, running, and ultimately selling his company all while grappling with severe bipolar disorder. For another excellent memoir about bipolar disorder, read Kay Redfield Jamison's An Unquiet Mind.    Huge endorsement of the walnut larb at Good Night in Woodstock New York. The closest recipe comp we have surfaced is the one from walnuts.org.    For a perfect after-dinner candle, it's all about Big Night's Dinner Party one. See also: Epicurious's story about dinner-party-appropriate scents, No.10 Aboukir by Maison Louis Marie, and Park Life by Boy Smells.   Want to make sorbet at home? Everyday Food from Martha has a vid withThomas Joseph that involves floating an egg to achieve the ideal sugar content and texture.   Cam's forest camp introduced us to the amazing Muddy Buddy, we're getting more our of our walks listening to Marcos Trinidad's Human/Nature podcast, and we're on top of hyper-local news thanks to Patch.com.   Grow your business with Shopify. Try a free 14-day trial with our link. Drink something different with De Soi and get 15% off when you use the code ATHINGORTWO. Slip on some Bombas and take 20% off your first purchase when you use our link. Right now, our listeners can get 15% off your first purchase of $50 or more! Go to LUSBrands.com promo code ATHINGORTWO YAY.   Produced by Dear Media

In this week's Safe Home Podcast, Beth talks with Leela Davis. She is a neurodivergent who combines her lived experience self-healing her Bipolar 1 and CPTSD symptoms and managing ADHD symptoms with training in the healing modalities that she found the most powerful in her own healing journey. She is certified: as a Holistic Health Coach, in Somatic Attachment Therapy, as a Yoga of Sound and Vinyasa Instructor, in Astrology and Human Design, and has spent decades as a multi-passionate creative finding healing in the process of art-making-performing. Her mission is to mentor and support folks with emotional and mental health challenges or diagnoses and live a meaningful and beautiful life beyond the limitations ascribed to certain diagnoses. Her vision is a world where all medical and healing practitioners will learn to heal by addressing the roots of symptoms rather than covering up the symptoms. ===============

OfSubstance.Eventbrite.com In this week's Safe Home Podcast, Beth talks with Leela Davis. She is a neurodivergent who combines her lived experience self-healing her Bipolar 1 and CPTSD symptoms and managing ADHD symptoms with training in the healing modalities that she found the most powerful in her own healing journey.  She is certified: as a Holistic Health Coach, in Somatic Attachment Therapy, as a Yoga of Sound and Vinyasa Instructor, in Astrology and Human Design, and has spent decades as a multi-passionate creative finding healing in the process of art-making-performing. Her mission is to mentor and support folks with emotional and mental health challenges or diagnoses and live a meaningful and beautiful life beyond the limitations ascribed to certain diagnoses.  Her vision is a world where all medical and healing practitioners will learn to heal by addressing the roots of symptoms rather than covering up the symptoms. ===============

Three times this week I was asked, "Just how do I interview a therapist?" So... I'm going to give you fifteen very specific, concrete, and legit questions to ask a potential therapist. It's important of course to note how that therapist is answering you and does their manner of talking with you seem warm and engaging? I hope this helps with any confusion  you might have, or at least, now you have ideas of what to ask. The listener voicemail today is from a woman who'd read one of my blogpost articles on challenging or working through the shame that you've carried around, quite without rational or reason, because you felt invisible to others, and thought it was somehow your 'fault.' So, in this episode, sponsored by Athletic Greens, we'll focus on the very tangible and concrete topic of approaching a potential therapist. Sit back, relax, and hopefully learn how to talk to someone about becoming your therapist – what to ask, how to ask it, and other important facets of creating this very unique relationship in your life. Important Links: Click Here for the fabulous offer from Athletic Greens - now AG1 - with bonus product with your subscription! The podcast episode also talking about the problem of feeling invisible.  An Unquiet Mind written by Kay Redfield Jamison, My first podcast episode on What Is Good Therapy? An Open Counseling article explaining licensure and training differences between therapists My podcast on whether to terminate therapy The different family roles that you can adopt and play You can hear more of many other topics by listening to my podcast, SelfWork with Dr. Margaret Rutherford. Subscribe to my website and receive one weekly newsletter including my weekly blog post and podcast! If you'd like to join my FaceBook closed group, then clickhere and answer the membership questions! Welcome! My book entitled Perfectly Hidden Depression is available and you can order here! Its message is specifically for those with a struggle with strong perfectionism which acts to mask underlying emotional pain. But the many self-help techniques described can be used by everyone who chooses to begin to address emotions long hidden away that are clouding and sabotaging your current life. And here's another way to send me a message! You can record by clicking below and ask your question or make a comment. You'll have 90 seconds to do so and that time goes quickly. By recording, you're giving SelfWork (and me) permission to use your voice on the podcast. I'll look forward to hearing from you!    

breaking down stigma in the black communityIn her latest blog Bella Rareworld talks about stigma in the Black community and how we can all play our part in breaking it.https://www.bipolaruk.org/Blog/breaking-down-stigma-in-the-black-communityOn World Bipolar Day on Wednesday 30 March 2022 (6pm - 9pm) our community will come together for our second virtual conference.  Register free to attend  https://www.eventbrite.co.uk/e/bipolar-uk-virtual-conference-2022-live-well-with-bipolar-tickets-220776005977The theme of this year's conference is LIVE WELL WITH BIPOLAR. Join us for an exciting programme of free sessions and discussions.We are thrilled to announce that the leading researcher and author Dr Kay Redfield Jamison will join us to speak about her personal experiences of bipolar and share her top tips for living well. The author of bestsellers An Unquiet Mind, Night Falls Fast and Touched with Fire, and the co-author of the standard medical text on bipolar, Dr Jamison is also is the Dalio Professor in Mood Disorders, a Professor of Psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine and an honorary Professor of English at the University of St. Andrews in Scotland. At the conference, we will also be launching the second report from the Bipolar Commission, our research project which aims to improve the quality of services and reduce the rate of suicide for people with bipolar in the UK.There will also be five panel discussions to choose from:- Global action on bipolar- What does self-care look like for men who have bipolar?- Creativity and bipolar: experiences of Black and Ethnic Minorities- Women with bipolar in TV drama: do fictional characters encourage understanding of the condition?- Coming out: is it easier to tell people you've got bipolar or that you're LGBTQ+?

“The thing I learned was that fear that I had — everyone else had. And that changed everything for me.” Dr. Ali is a clinical psychologist specializing in social anxiety — probably best known for The Psych Show (YouTube), where he breaks down and explains the importance of mental health in a fun, accessible way. Dr. Ali is ALSO clinical advisor at LOOP - the only social-based mental health app designed for those who experience social anxiety and want to overcome it. Loop provides the space and support folks need to learn new skills and build up the reflexes to tackle our most anxiety-inducing moments. Both of these ventures represent Dr. Ali's mission to make mental health accessible to all — something he's super passionate about, given his own personal history with social anxiety, from growing up a mute Pakistani American in California. Dr. Ali has been seen by millions - through his YouTube videos, and having been featured on HBO, PBS, Buzzfeed, Netflix, and many more places. He's a BIG nerd about all things comics + sci-fi, and has the honor of being referenced (and not made fun of) by John Oliver on HBO's Last Week Tonight. Through fun and not-so-fun stories of growing up - that we can all relate to - you'll understand what drives Dr. Ali, and why mental health affects all of us, and needs to be talked about - and understood - more. LEARN ABOUT DR. ALI AliMattu.com The Psych Show (YouTube) Self-Evident (PBS, 2020) FOLLOW DR. ALI ON SOCIAL Instagram: @alimattu Twitter: @alimattu LEARN ABOUT LOOP Website: Loop.co Instagram: @looptogether MENTIONS PARTITION: wikipedia.org/wiki/Partition_of_India FILM: Gattaca (1997) - imdb.com/title/tt0119177 FILM: In Time (2011) - imdb.com/title/tt1637688 CHARACTER: Kamala Khan (Ms. Marvel): wikipedia.org/wiki/Kamala_Khan PERSON / BOOK: Kay Redfield Jamison (an Unquiet Mind): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kay_Redfield_Jamison

Lead-in Almost no one understands suicide very well.  Almost no one.   Some of you might say -- but Dr. Peter, I've been really down and out.  I've been really suicidal.  I've been there.  I lived it.   Not gonna argue with you about having been suicidal. But having intense feelings, almost irresistible impulses toward suicide, constant suicidal thoughts  -- that doesn't mean you understand suicide.  Not at all. I don't think most people who have attempted suicide really understand their experience.   I don't think most therapists really understand suicide.     Why ?  Because we're afraid to really enter into what is behind suicide.  We don't want to go there.  We're terrified of what lurks underneath.  We have parts of us that don't want to understand.   Lauren Oliver, Delirium “Suicide. A sideways word, a word that people whisper and mutter and cough: a word that must be squeezed out behind cupped palms or murmured behind closed doors. It was only in dreams that I heard the word shouted, screamed." And I'll go further than that.  And it's not so much because we're afraid of what we'll find in another person, a friend or relative or colleague.  It's because we are terrified that finding the darkness inside of others will wake up our own sleeping giants of darkness.  The darkness inside us.  The terror inside us.  That's why we avoid, why we distract, why we skirt the edges of this topic.  Benjamin Franklin knew this:  Nine men in ten are would-be suicides   -Poor Richard's Almanack.   Freud popularized it in 1920 -- book the Pleasure Principle.   -- he discussed the death drive: the drive toward death and destruction, often expressed through behaviors such as aggression, repetition compulsion, and self-destructiveness.  Death drive or drives went by the name Thanatos -- the Greek god personified death. Caught a lot of flak for it, then and now.  Not really widely accepted.  I think he was on to something.  Something we don't want to think about others -- that they have drives toward self-destruction.  It's something that we don't want to admit about ourselves.   If we are really honest with ourselves in looking at suicide we would realize, with John Bradford There but for the grace of God go I. We would give up our false presumptions about our own strength and our own natural resiliency.   We would realize, with Shakespeare's Lord Chancellor in Henry VIII “We all are men, in our own natures frail, and capable of our flesh; few are angels.” ― Lord Chancellor William Shakespeare, Henry VIII  We would understand Mahatma Ghandi when he said: “If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide.”  We would have a lot less judgement about the souls and experience of those who killed themselves.  Yes, the action of suicide is wrong, gravely wrong, and we'll discuss that in next week's episode.  We're not minimizing the gravity of the act -- I'm talking here about the phenomenological experience of those on the brink of self-destruction and why they are there.   And we would understand something about the spiritual dimensions, the dark spiritual powers at work in suicide as well.    I could be wrong about this, but I don't think you really have any accurate idea about suicide.  Suicide is one of the most misunderstood of human actions.   Because we want to avoid the churning darkness, the despair, the hopelessness, the alienation, the trauma within us, we don't want to see it in others.  And if someone near is suicidal, we know, we know instinctively that he is tapping into his despair, his hopelessness, his alienation.  We know that our suicidal is really in the grip of her trauma and her isolation, and her excruciating pain.   And our natural response -- is to flee.  To get out of dodge.  To protect ourselves.  We rationalize it -- I'm not a professional, I'm not a counselor, I don't know what to do with all of this intensity Or we stay in there, we force ourselves to stay in relationship, feeling really inadequate, not wanting to go too deep, not wanting to screw it up -- and in our timidity and fear, we actually aren't very helpful.  OK --  I will grant you that you don't really know what to do.   And I get it that you're afraid -- maybe terrified.  OK.   This is a tough issue.  Suicide is a tough issue.  And tough issues are what we specialize in here.  [Cue music] Intro Welcome to the podcast Interior Integration for Catholics, thank you for being here with me, thank you for making it through the lead in and not fleeing from this episode.  I'm glad you and I are in this together.  And it's going to be OK.  By God's grace, together we can handle, we can work with, we can work through this topic of suicide.  We'll do it together.   I am clinical psychological Peter Malinoski and you are listening to the Interior Integration for Catholics podcast, where we take on the toughest topics, the ones others don't want to touch, and we go really deep with them.  Why?  Not out of some kind of idle curiosity.  Not out of disorder curiosity, out of some kind of psychological voyeurism.  No.  We go there in this podcast because we are working on ourselves.  On our own human formation, shoring up the natural foundation for our spiritual lives, so that we can enter into loving union with God.  That's why.  It's about removing the psychological barriers you have to a much deeper intimacy with God the Father, Jesus the Son, the Holy Spirit, and the Blessed Virgin Mary, our Mother.  In the last episode we looked at specific cases of suicide in Sacred Scripture.  This is episode number 78, released on July 26, 2021, entitled The Desperate Inner Experience of Suicidality.  We are going to enter into the phenomenological world of the suicidal person.   Why?  Why do we do that?  Why do that? Two answers.  The second answer is for going into all of this depth on suicide is so that you and I can love.  So that we can love others who are struggling with this -- and there are so many.   Franklin estimated 90%.  Nine men in ten are would-be suicides.  I think he's right, even though the vast majority of those don't even know there's a struggle going on inside them.  I think Benjamin Franklin knew about the latent potential in most people. Freud:  Thanatos.  The Death Drives.  Freud knew.  For all his faults and follies, Freud knew something about the depth of pain in people's souls.  The pain that lives in the unconscious.  Locked away, at least for a time.  Unnoticed, at least for a time.   The first answer:  Is so that we can be known and loved.  That we can accept others knowing us, and us knowing ourselves.   1 John 4:19  We love, because he first loved us.   He first loved us.  We need to let God love us.  We need to let our Lady, our Mother love us In our woundedness.  In our suffering.  In our shame, in our pain, in our fear, in our sadness, however our darkness is for us.  Whatever our darkness is.   Isaiah 9:2  The people that walked in darkness, have seen a great light: to them that dwelt in the region of the shadow of death, light is risen. Not just about the external world, but also our internal world.   The Pain Caveats -- Difficult topic.  “The pain of severe depression is quite unimaginable to those who have not suffered it, and it kills in many instances because its anguish can no longer be borne. The prevention of many suicides will continue to be hindered until there is a general awareness of the nature of this pain.”― William Styron, Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness  “Nobody has ever killed themselves over a broken arm. But every day, thousands of people kill themselves because of a broken heart. Why? Because emotional pain hurts much worse than physical pain.”        ― Oliver Markus Malloy, Bad Choices Make Good Stories   “When people are suicidal, their thinking is paralyzed, their options appear spare or nonexistent, their mood is despairing, and hopelessness permeates their entire mental domain. The future cannot be separated from the present, and the present is painful beyond solace. ‘This is my last experiment,' wrote a young chemist in his suicide note. ‘If there is any eternal torment worse than mine I'll have to be shown.” ― Kay Redfield Jamison, Night Falls Fast: Understanding Suicide  ““Suicidal pain includes the feeling that one has lost all capacity to effect emotional change. The agony is excruciating and looks as if it will never end. There is the feeling of having been beaten down for a very long time. There are feelings of agitation, emptiness, and incoherence. 'Snap out of it and get on with your life,' sounds like a demand to high jump ten feet.”        ― David L. Conroy, Out of the Nightmare: Recovery from Depression and Suicidal Pain  Suicide is best understood not so much as a movement toward death as it is a movement away from something and that something is always the same: intolerable emotion, unendurable pain, or unacceptable anguish.  Maurizio Pompili & Roberto Tatarelli Parts and Suicide So helpful to think of suicide in terms of parts.   A phenomenon that a number of people have noted while in deep depression is the sense of being accompanied by a second self — a wraithlike observer who, not sharing the dementia of his double, is able to watch with dispassionate curiosity as his companion struggles against the oncoming disaster, or decides to embrace it. There is a theatrical quality about all this, and during the next several days, as I went about stolidly preparing for extinction, I couldn't shake off a sense of melodrama — a melodrama in which I, the victim-to-be of self-murder, was both the solitary actor and lone member of the audience.”   ― William Styron, Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness  Definition of Parts:  Separate, independently operating personalities within us, each with own unique prominent needs, roles in our lives, emotions, body sensations, guiding beliefs and assumptions, typical thoughts, intentions, desires, attitudes, impulses, interpersonal style, and world view.  Each part also has an image of God and also its own approach to sexuality.  Robert Falconer calls them insiders.   Each part has Personality style   Needs -- Episode 62 Attachment needs  Integrity needs   Emotions  Body sensation.   Belief.   Thought  Intentions  Desires  Attitudes  Impulses.  Interpersonal style  World view  Often have burdens  Ways of coping Review of Parts Exiles --  most sensitive -- these exiles have been exploited, rejected, abandoned in external relationships They have suffered relational traumas or attachment injuries They hold the painful experiences that have been isolated from conscious awareness to protect the person from being overwhelmed with the intensity. They desperately want to be seen and known, to be safe and secure, to be comforted and soothed, to be cared for and loved They want rescue, redemption, healing And in the intensity of their needs and emotions, they threaten to take over and destabilize the person's whole being, the person's whole system -- they want to take over the raft to be seen and heard, to be known, to be understood.  But they can flood us with the intensity of their experience And that threatens to harm external relationships Burdens they carry:  Shame, dependency, worthlessness, Fear/Terror, Grief/Loss, Loneliness, Neediness, Pain, lack of meaning or purpose, a sense of being unloved and unlovable, inadequate, abandoned Exiles' Role in Suicide Furnishing the intolerable pain.   Exiles bring the intensity. The fuel   Description of the pain of suicide -- Quotes Perhaps everything terrifying is deep down a helpless thing that needs our help,” Rainer Maria Rilke wrote to a friend and protégé, encouraging him to make peace with his inner demons.  “Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to kill herself, that dragged me into the suicide debate and made every window, kitchen implement, and subway station a rehearsal for tragedy.”― Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted 1993 memoir of being in a mental hospital for 18 months in the late 1960s.  Managers These are the proactive protector parts.  They work strategically, with forethought and planning to keep in control of situations and relationships to minimize the likelihood of you being hurt.  They work really hard to keep you safe.  "Never again" attitude toward the exiles.   Very much about reducing risk of overwhelm.   controlling, striving, planning, caretaking, judging,  Can be pessimistic, self-critical, very demanding.   Firefighters When exiles break through and threaten to take over the system, this is terrifying.  The consequences of exile taking over could be disastrous.  So when these exiles are about the break out, the firefighters leap into action.  It's an emergency situation, a crisis, like a fire raging in a house.  Firefighters are focused on rescuing us from a terrible situation.   No concern for niceties, for propriety, for etiquette, for little details like that.   Firefighter take bold, drastic actions to stifle, numb or distract from the intensity of the exile's experiences.  They break down the door and spray water over everything, trying to calm the raging flames.   No concern for consequences -- don't you get it, we are in a crisis,  All kinds of addictions -- alcohol use, binge eating, shopping, sleeping, dieting, excessive working or exercise, suicidal actions, self-harm, violence, dissociation, distractions, obsessions, compulsions, escapes into fantasy, and raging.   Parts can take over the person   Firefighters' role in Suicide  Serious suicidal impulses can be driven by firefighters: Just make the pain of the exiles stop.  Suicidal firefighters are filled with hopelessness -- they don't know of another way to protect you.   They have been beaten down, sometimes literally, always figuratively.   Desperation of firefighters If we could read the secret history of our enemies we should find in each man's life sorrow and suffering enough to disarm all hostility.  Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.  “In my view, suicide is not really a wish for life to end.'   What is it then?'It is the only way a powerless person can find to make everybody else look away from his shame. The wish is not to die, but to hide.”― Orson Scott Card, Ender's Shadow  “I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.”― David Levithan, Will Grayson, Will Grayson  “The man who kills a man kills a man. The man who kills himself kills all men. As far as he is concerned, he wipes out the world.”― G.K. Chesterton, Orthodoxy  Rapid Shifts among parts The man, who in a fit of melancholy, kills himself today, would have wished to live had he waited a week.  Voltaire  When you're young and healthy you can plan on Monday to commit suicide, and by Wednesday you're laughing again.  Marilyn Monroe  who died of an overdose of barbiturates in 1962 at age 36 -- ruled a probable suicide by the county coroner.  “The Suicide, as she is falling, Illuminated by the moon, Regrets her act, and finds appalling The thought she will be dead so soon.”        ― Edward Gorey  Impulse driven suicide 2015 Study in South Korea -- Clinical Psychopharmacology and Neuroscience   87% of suicide attempts were impulsive  Most common trigger was interpersonal conflict Most common diagnosis was major depression.   Often poorly planned Replicated a previous 2011 in South Korea study where 85% were impulsive 2016 South Korean Study in Psychiatry Investigation  48% of 269 suicide attempters brought to ERs were clearly impulsive, very sudden No Plan  No previous suicidal ideation.  They weren't thinking about it.    Came out of the blue   1997 Study from Sweden 44% of suicide attempts were radically impulsive.   Approach:   Always reassure dangerous firefighters that you do not aim to get rid of them.  Treat them with respect and appreciation; they have only been trying to help.  They are trying to help,  trying to protect you from misery.  If dangerous firefighters think there is an effective alternative, they are often game to try that new way They need to experience hope.  Hope is a necessity for normal life and the major weapon against the suicide impulse. Karl A. Menninger It is critically important to present them other options for safety, that they can be safe without needing suicide.   We will get into how to work with them in the next episode.   Managers' role in suicide Remember, managers are more proactive.   Managers still can be very intense, and also in a lot of pain, but they are not so reactive.   Planned Suicide Suicide seriously considered.  Suicide as a "comforting" option.  Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche was a German philosopher, cultural critic, composer, poet, writer, and philologist whose work has exerted a profound influence on modern intellectual history. He began his career as a classical philologist before turning to philosophy.  The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night.” prepared a will, decided upon a method in advance, and planned the date of the attempt.   Repeated suicidal impulses from firefighter can be taken up by managers Or firefighters can take on a more managerial role  And use contemplation of suicide as a role.   Quotes “The thought that I might kill myself formed in my mind coolly as a tree or a flower.” Sylvia Plath American poet, novelist, and short-story writer -- attempted suicide several times by several means.  Succeeded at age 31, after experiencing major depression for most of her adult life.  1963.   “There are people who fantasize about suicide, and paradoxically, these fantasies can be soothing because they usually involve either fantasizing about others' reactions to one's suicide or imagining how death would be a relief from life's travails. In both cases, an aspect of the fantasy is to exert control, either over others' views or toward life's difficulties. The writer A. Alvarez stated, " There people ... for whom the mere idea of suicide is enough; they can continue to function efficiently and even happily provided they know they have their own, specially chosen means of escape always ready..." In her riveting 2008 memoir of bipolar disorder, Manic, Terri Cheney opened the book by stating, "People... don't understand that when you're seriously depressed, suicidal ideation can be the only thing that keeps you alive. Just knowing there's an out--even if it's bloody, even if it's permanent--makes the pain bearable for one more day."  This strategy appears to be effective for some people, but only for a while. Over longer periods, fantasizing about death leaves people more depressed and thus at higher risk for suicide, as Eddie Selby, Mike Amestis, and I recently showed in a study on violent daydreaming. A strategy geared toward increased feelings of self-control (fantasizing about the effects of one's suicide) "works" momentarily, but ultimately backfires by undermining feelings of genuine self-control in the long run.― Thomas Joiner, Myths About Suicide  Like a drug. Battling among Parts “The debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't. Anything I thought or did was immediately drawn into the debate. Made a stupid remark—why not kill myself? Missed the bus—better put an end to it all. Even the good got in there. I liked that movie—maybe I shouldn't kill myself.”        ― Susanna Kaysen   If a person with multiple personalities threatens suicide, is that considered a hostage situation?  Comedian Steven Wright   Reasons for Suicide  Suicide is complex Suicide is complex, there's never a single reason why a person contemplates taking their own life, and there are no absolute indicators that a person could be in that state. Steve Crisp   Superficial ones -- see IIC 76 section VII.  Illusory Ones  You didn't love me enough “A lot of you cared, just not enough.” ― Jay Asher, Thirteen Reasons Why -- young adult novel  “Some people are just not meant to be in this world. It's just too much for them.” ― Phoebe Stone, The Boy on Cinnamon Street  Vincent:  Don McLean 1971 Vincent Van Gogh   You took your life as lovers often doBut I could have told you, VincentThis world was never meant for oneAs beautiful as you Deeper, more primary causes  -- unmet needs with despair that those needs will ever be met.   Attachment Needs A felt sense of safety and protection, deep sense of security felt in the bones  No parts feel this.  Feeling seen and known heard and understood -- felt attunement  Parts Isolated  Felt comfort, reassurance  Feeling valued, delighted in, cherished by the attachment figure  Felt support for the best self  When attachment needs are not met, who comes in?  Satan.    Integrity Needs All of the above.  Each one of us needs help to develop our sense of self, our identity  I exist  my existence is separate from others --  I exist in my own right, a separate person. bounded, has boundaries  My identity is stable over time and across different situations -- there is a continuity -- hard when parts are all over the place.   I can regulate myself -- I have some self-control.   Is integrated -- coherent interconnections inside between aspects of experience -- self-cohesion  Is active, with agency, can effectively function in the world  Is morally good -- ontologically or essentially good and thus has intrinsic value and worth, apart from others' opinions.   I can make sense of my experience and the world around me  Mission and Purpose in life  We also need to make good choices -- seek what is good, true and beautiful in lif   Compassionate responses When a famous person dies by suicide, we "remind" people to pick up the phone and call a hotline. "If he'd only reached out for help because help was available," is a frequent refrain, as if people who suffer don't know that and the disease doesn't disable cognitive function. We need to do more than give out phone numbers.  Bob Collins  We will be doing so much more.  Through little things and big things.  Next episode.   Action Items If you are having suicidal thoughts or know of someone who is, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 for support and assistance from a trained counselor. If you or a loved one are in immediate danger, call 911.  Resilient Catholics Community.   Catholic's Guide to Choosing a Therapist  Catholic Journeymen -- Dr. Gerry Crete community of faithful Catholic men seeking to renew their lives through prayer, personal growth, healing, and brotherhood!  Conversation hours T, R 317.567.9594  Not July 27 and July 29.   Pray for me and for the other listeners   Patronness and patron

In August of 2018, Russell Barlow went on vacation with friends for the sixth year in a row. He found himself drinking to blackout for most of it, in the throes of a deep depression.At one point, he even thought “I don't need to be here anymore.” That was the only time he ever had that thought, which was not about the vacation he was not enjoying. It scared the shit out of him.Following that trip, Russell was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, or as he calls it, “Bipolar Lite.”He was put on medication.What followed was a several-year process of waking up. Working in a toxic environment at the time, he began to value his personal well-being in ways he hadn't before. He left.That was just the first step to a constant process of evolution and change.In this episode of the Get the F*ck Off Podcast, we talk very intimately about Bipolar 2, mental health, and the stigma associated with it.We talk about the pandemic, and the necessary pause that allowed for a respite in the American obsession with constant motion; a pause that allowed for some to experience a much-needed break from the assault of grueling jobs where they were undervalued.We also talk about the importance of well-being.Russell and I both worked in the hospitality industry for a large portion of our lives, which we use as a lens to examine the importance of work-life balance. We also discuss the nationwide restaurant employee shortage and the dated mindset of the industry that imperatively needs to change its value system to become more person-centered.Episode Notes:3:37Russell talks about the vacation he went on with friends he's known for 20 years when he discovered something was not quite right.9:01 The diagnosis: When he found out he had Bipolar 2, Russell felt immense relief. Beforehand, he had been reading non-stop. He talks about his visit to The Strand, a famous book store in New York City, and seeking much-needed explanations.He was recommended the book An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir on Moods and Madness by Kay Redfield Jamison. 13:00 Rapid Cycling: Russell explains rapid cycling, what that means, and what it feels like to experience this as a person with Bipolar 2.14:00After starting medication, people in his life began to notice the changes in his demeanor. He took that as evidence that the medication was working, and he says that was his first step to 1. stepping out of the toxic work environment he'd been in for many years and 2. the shift in his thinking because as he says, he was experiencing clarity he did not have previously.15:30We discuss drinking to medicate and hypomania, which is associated with Bipolar 2. 16:00We discuss how a person can know if they are self-medicating. Russell recommends the book Less Than Crazy: Living Fully with Bipolar 2 by Karla Dougherty20:35The stigma of mental health is a serious problem, and Russell expresses being thankful for the fact that it's becoming more readily discussed. We recorded this podcast during mental health awareness month, so there was a lot of discussion about it at the time, which was great.22:23Unlike many people during the pandemic, Russell found the pause to be extremely useful for his mental health. Unlike life within the constant motion and assault of the grueling hospitality motor, he was able to slow down, connect, and reflect.He began taking care of yet more aspects of his well-being that he had been neglecting30:00Russell went back to work for a brief time during the pandemic and opened a restaurant. The opening was long hours with unappreciative guests. One day on his way back to the city just following the opening, he was waiting for the train when he got the call that he would be laid off for the second time.He made the realization that he was completely replaceable and shifted his priorities to things that were more self-serving.With his parents getting older, and New York feeling less like home, he began taking micro-steps to make the move to Austin, TX. 36:20The Hospitality Industry employee shortage is a problem in America.Noting that the common theme amongst people in the industry is “I value myself too much to do this anymore,” that is a huge indicator that something needs to change.41:30Russell discusses his experiences applying for hospitality jobs in Austin, and the problems/red flags he experienced at the outset which are often far too common.53:20We discuss the nationwide restaurant employee shortage, and how while people do want to blame it on enhanced unemployment, there are a magnitude of other contributing factors.We discuss the basic needs of a human being that often go neglected in the food, beverage, and hospitality industry, two of which are proper nutrition and sleep.58:00Russell gives his advice for people feeling undervalued and/or stuckWe finish the episode looping back to mental health, and the importance of finding someone to talk to. Russell ends the episode by citing an article he read on CNN about author Kevin Curry, who wrote Fit Men Cook.He notes a quote from this article which says:“Well, if you had the common cold, wouldn't you take some cold medicine? If you had the flu wouldn't you go down to CVS and take something?' …'Sometimes people just need a little bit more help. And there's nothing wrong with you.”You can find Russell on Instagram @russellbarlow2

On this episode of the TWLOHA Podcast, we’re discussing Bipolar Disorder, a mental health experience that by no means receives as much airtime or attention as others tend to. And yet, it's something so many people deal with day in and day out, it’s something we know is relevant to so many of you. Bipolar Disorder is a chronic illness—meaning it has no cure. That being said, this illness is not immune to treatment. Through personalized care, Bipolar Disorder can be managed. You can live with it. And to help us showcase what living with it can look like, we’re joined by educator and advocate Dr. Rachel Kallem Whitman and editor and writer Claire Biggs—two guests whose journeys may differ but still find common ground in their hopes of smashing the stigma that surrounds their diagnoses.   Download a transcript of this episode at twloha.com/podcast. Follow TWLOHA on social media at: twitter.com/TWLOHA instagram.com/twloha/ facebook.com/towriteloveonherarms/   Visit our FIND HELP page of mental health resources at twloha.com/find-help/. Get connected for free, 24/7 to a trained crisis counselor via Crisis Text Line by texting TWLOHA to 741741. Connect with our team by emailing podcast@twloha.com. Learn more about the podcast and previous episodes at twloha.com/podcast. Purchase Rachel Kallem Whitman’s book Instability in Six Colors at oneideapress.com. Use code TWLOHA10 at checkout for 10% off. Read Rachel’s words on the TWLOHA blog at twloha.com/blog/author/rachel-kallem-whitman/.  Watch “I'm not your inspiration, thank you very much” by Stella Young, by going to https://wrt.lv/2MMHAFn.  To buy Madness: A Bipolar Life by Marya Hornbacher, visit amazon.com/Madness-Bipolar-Life-Marya-Hornbacher/dp/0547237804.  Watch Lady Dynamite on Netflix at netflix.com/title/80046193.  Check out “5 Tips For Being An Ally” by visiting youtube.com/watch?v=_dg86g-QlM0&t=6s.  Go to amazon.com/Wishful-Drinking-Carrie-Fisher/dp/143915371X to buy Wishful Drinking by Carrie Fisher.  Visit https://insideourminds.org/ to learn more about Inside Our Minds—a radical mental health organization. To learn more about the Disability Visibility Project by Alice Wong, visit disabilityvisibilityproject.com/.  Purchase An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison at amazon.com/Unquiet-Mind-Memoir-Moods-Madness/dp/0679763309.  Listen to “this is me trying” by Taylor swift by going to youtube.com/watch?v=9bdLTPNrlEg. Read Claire’s words on the TWLOHA blog at twloha.com/blog/author/claire-biggs/.  Credits: This episode of the TWLOHA podcast was hosted by Chad Moses and produced by Rebecca Ebert. Music assistance was provided by James Likeness and Ben Tichenor.

What is it like to have bipolar disorder? 'An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness' is a biography by Kay R. Jamison, a doctor/psychologist who researches this very topic and who also is afflicted with the same disorder. Previously known as manic depression, it is a mental disorder with a strong genetic component that results in intense mood swings with little ability of regulation. She tells of the highs and lows, public perception/misconceptions and the necessity of those afflicted to take their medication.I summarised the book as follows. "I was interested in this book as I wanted to read more about the subjective experience of depression. While the book does touch upon this issue, it is mostly an account of the life of the author and how she handled (or did not handle) living with a mental disorder that severely effected her life. For me it was a little boring as I was looking for something different, but it is always useful to get an honest first person account of something I will likely never experience myself."I hope you have a fantastic day wherever you are in the world. Kyrin out!If you would like to support the channel, you can grab yourself a copy of the book here! https://amzn.to/3A8B2UYTimeline:(0:00) - Synopsis(4:48) - Social stigma & public reception(9:20) - Signs and manifestations of the disorder(11:39) - Personal Observations(13:17) - Summary(16:00) - Pragmatic Takeaway: Be less judgemental!Connect with Mere Mortals:Website: https://www.meremortalspodcast.com/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/meremortalspodcast/Support the show

What is it like to have bipolar disorder? 'An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness' is a biography by Kay R. Jamison, a doctor/psychologist who researches this very topic and who also is afflicted with the same disorder. Previously known as manic depression, it is a mental disorder with a strong genetic component that results in intense mood swings with little ability of regulation.I was interested in this book as I wanted to read more about the subjective experience of depression. While the book does touch upon this issue, it is mostly an account of the life of the author and how she handled (or did not handle) living with a mental disorder that severely effected her life. She tells of the highs and lows, public perception/misconceptions and the necessity of those afflicted to take their medication. For me the book was a little boring as I was looking for something different but it is always useful to get an honest first person account of something I will likely never experience myself.As always I hope you enjoy, Kyrin out!Connect with Mere Mortals:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/meremortalspodcast/

Today’s guest on the “Phil with F30” podcast is Mia Park – Co-Founder of Sundae School & Sundae Flowers Forbes List: USA Year: 2020 Category: Art & Style Mia Park is the co-founder of Sundae School & Sundae Flowers.  Don’t jump to conclusions on what it is they sell! Sundae School is a boutique fashion smoke wear brand based in NY. “Smoke wear” is a label for high fashion apparel and accessories to wear when you’re smoking weed. Sundae Flower is a cannabis brand that sells cannabis flowers without harmful chemicals. Mia and her best friend since elementary school were raised in South Korea, then immigrated to the U.S. where they discovered marijuana at boarding school.  They have combined their longtime love affair with cannabis into a career with a clothing collection that’s been featured at NY Fashion Week, Barneys NY, and is recognized by celebrities including John Legend and Lil Nas X. Their Cannabis Flower sells at some of the biggest California dispensaries, including Eaze and The Apothecarium.  Sundae Flower is known for the slowest-burning, slimmest joint on the market. It almost seems comical to know their hobby led to a big break that came from an Instagram DM from the high-end store Barneys. All misconceptions and laughs aside, Mia shared some serious entrepreneurial insights including: Doing the research to create a quality cannabis product. Partnering with minority manufacturers, distributors, and flower farms. Increasing diversity in the cannabis industry. Staying true to her Korean heritage. Working with a lean, small team. Due diligence on the people you may want as a sustainable partner. Staying true to her values by asking, “What do I like?” I hope you enjoy the show!   “Under 30 Seconds Round” 1. What is the book you’ve gifted more often than any other book, and why? Night Falls Fast: Understanding Suicide, Kay Redfield Jamison. It gets you to think about life optimistically. 2. What’s one of the best investments and one of the worst investments you’ve ever made and why? Best - My sister.  She is my support. Worst - A Bird of Paradise Tree.  It was expensive, and I don’t know how to take care of them. 3. What’s the most impactful thing you do in your Morning routine and Evening routines? AM - We start the day with a green tea ceremony.  It helps to clarify my goals. PM - On Friday nights we smoke joints. 4. Pretend you won the Peter Thiel Fellowship and you were going to get money to start a business instead of going to college, what’s the very first thing you’d do to start a new business? I would call my mentors. They’ll give me the right advice to start anything. 5. What’s something you never knew you needed? Google Calendar.  It’s an inseparable part of my life. In the REVIEW SECTION, please let me know… The city / country you’re tuning in from! How Mia Park’s story has inspired you! And, your favorite part of this episode! Tell me the questions you’d like me to ask future Forbes 30 Under 30 Members!   GUEST INFO: Mia Park – Co-Founder of Sundae School & Sundae Flowers CONTACT: Instagram FASHION: @sundae.school CANNABIS: @sundae.flower MIA: @miamiapark WEBSITE: Fashion: https://sundae.school/ & Cannabis: https://sundae.flowers/ NEW PRODUCT: Holiday Korean Jesus Collection, New Asian-flavor inspired cannabis gummies HOST INFO: Phil Michaels SOCIAL: @iamphilmichaels YOUTUBE: www.youtube.com/philmichaels PODCAST WEBSITE: www.philwithF30.com PHIL’s WEBSITE: www.iamphilmichaels.com Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Let’s talk about depression—how we feel when it comes on and how we deal. Let’s talk resources, from books to therapy platforms to IG follows, for anxiety, grief, bipolar disorder, and postpartum disorders. Let’s just talk about mental health more in general, right?   Secret Menu! It’s fun. See for yourself by subscribing over here.   The things that have warmed our hearts a smidge during all of our time at home: a remote-control light dimmer and a calamansi tree (see also: calamansi seltzer from Sanzo + cocktails from Zuzu).   Podcasts featuring two people talking that feel kinda like having company: Jam Session, Who? Weekly, Home Cooking, Bad on Paper, Still Processing, and Taking Hugh for Granted.   Not-new fiction that’s provided Erica with a genuine escape recently: I Capture the Castle by Dodie Smith (1948), Mrs. Bridge by Evan Connell (1955), Kindred by Octavia Butler (1979), and Heartburn by Nora Ephron (1983).   Mental-health resources! Some books: The Mindful Way Through Depression by Jon Kabat-Zinn; Comfortable with Uncertainty, When Things Fall Apart, and The Pocket Pema Chodron by Pema Chodron; and An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison.   Articles: "The Hardest Two Months of My Life" from A Cup of Jo, "How to Help Someone With Depression" from New York mag, and "How Not to Say the Wrong Thing" from LA Times.    Podcasts: Hey, Cool Life! with Mary H.K. Choi, Unlocking Us with Brené Brown, The Hilarious World of Depression, and Oprah’s SuperSoul Conversations episode with Jon Kabat-Zinn.   Instagram follows: Jessica Clemons, MD, Emily McDowell, Crystal Anderson, Sad Girls Club, Brown Girl Therapy, The Loveland Foundation, and The Nap Ministry.     Meditation: the Insight Timer app, which is a marketplace of sorts, and UCLA Mindful Awareness Research Center Guided Meditations.   For therapy, check out Talkspace and BetterHelp for digital/telemedicine options and Alma and Real, which are about streamlining the process of finding a therapist you connect with.   If you or someone you know is considering suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 800-273-8255.   Try out the five-star-rated Sweaty Betty Power Legging and get 20% off with the code ATHINGORTWO. Tackle your credit and see if you can lower your monthly payments with Upstart. Download Best Fiends free today on the Apple App Store or Google Play. YAY.   Produced by Dear Media

What is it like to have bipolar disorder? 'An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness' is a biography by Kay R. Jamison, a doctor/psychologist who researches this very topic and who also is afflicted with the same disorder. Previously known as manic depression, it is a mental disorder with a strong genetic component that results in intense mood swings with little ability of regulation.I was interested in this book as I wanted to read more about the subjective experience of depression. While the book does touch upon this issue, it is mostly an account of the life of the author and how she handled (or did not handle) living with a mental disorder that severely effected her life. She tells of the highs and lows, public perception/misconceptions and the necessity of those afflicted to take their medication. For me the book was a little boring as I was looking for something different but it is always useful to get an honest first person account of something I will likely never experience myself.As always I hope you enjoy, Kyrin out!

Are you being distracted by shit that doesn't even matter? In this episode of 'Musings' Juan and Kyrin start off with a discussion on prioritisation and delegation. This leads onto how to be an effective leader and making sure your subordinates don't become resentful. Some of the other topics we discuss are: getting out of a scarcity mindset, seeing your own hypocrisy/judgemental mind and confronting it, squashing small kids and becoming more confident in front of the camera. As always, we hope you enjoy, Mere Mortals out!

* Dr Kay Redfield Jamison, one of the leading authorities on manic depression (or bipolar disorder), has written extensively about the often perplexing psychiatric illness, and also about its links with creativity. * In An Unquiet Mind she unites these strands in a courageous and gripping memoir, revealing her own experiences of living with manic depression. * Jamison details the incredible highs and the devastating lows. * The complex relationship with the lithium medication she is prescribed. * Her unique perspective in treating patients suffering from the same condition. 2:45 Part One: Defining Manic Depression 11:50 Part Two: A Battle with Lithium 19.46 Part Three: The Others HEAR THE FULL INTERVIEWS MENTIONED IN TODAY'S EPISODE HERE: "Manic Depression And Mania, Kay Jamison :: DNA Learning Center". Dnalc.Org, 2019, https://www.dnalc.org/view/15372-Manic-depression-and-mania-Kay-Jamison.html. Accessed 26 Jan 2019. "Understanding The Experience Of A Manic Depressive, Kay Jamison :: DNA Learning Center". Dnalc.Org, 2019, https://www.dnalc.org/view/15370-Understanding-the-experience-of-a-manic-depressive-Kay-Jamison.html. Accessed 26 Feb 2019. "Support For People With Bipolar | Kay Redfield Jamison". Youtube, 2014, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMaPc9-JCiQ. Accessed 26 Feb 2019. THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO BOOK INSIGHTS. READY FOR MORE LEARNING? Get unlimited access to our entire collection of Book Insights on over 100 nonfiction bestsellers with a subscription at http://memod.com/insights Please keep in mind that the information provided in or through our Book Insights episodes is for educational and informational purposes only. It is not intended to be a substitute for advice given by qualified professionals, and should not be relied upon to disregard or delay seeking professional advice. Full Title: An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness Year of Publication: 1995 Book Author: Kay Redfield Jamison

—EPISODE TRACK FIXED!— sorry about that weird dead spot towards the end. don't know what happened, but the missing audio has been returned to its rightful place. ...in which Kelly Purtell and i talk collaborative poetry, leaping poetry, and the synchronicity of dreams... where to find Kelly instagram - https://www.instagram.com/kellypurt/ Radium and Roses - https://open.spotify.com/show/3w836W3k7EZ7acaxb21lPb other things referenced: Lia Purpura - http://liapurpura.com/ Leaping Poetry by Robert Bly - https://upittpress.org/books/9780822960034/ Sarah Kay - https://kaysarahsera.com/ Touched With Fire by Kay Redfield Jamison - https://www.simonandschuster.com/books/Touched-With-Fire/Kay-Redfield-Jamison/9780684831831 Why Poetry by Matthew Zapruder - https://www.amazon.com/Why-Poetry-Matthew-Zapruder/dp/0062343084

Kavita and Cody sit down with Dr. Kay Jamison, author of "An Unquiet Mind" and numerous other works of popular press and academic literature. By sharing her own experience with bipolar illness, she has made an enormous impact in raising awareness and combating discrimination against people with psychiatric conditions.

In diesem tiefen, ehrlichen Gespräch, erzählt Theresa, wie man mit manischer Depression in einer Beziehung umgeht und teilt ihr Tipps für Angehörige … Wir sprechen darüber: • Wie Angehörige mit manisch Depressiven in der Beziehung umgehen können. • Welche Tipps es etwas einfacher machen. • Wie man trotzdem für sich selbst sorgt. • Warum sich eine bevorstehende Weltreise wie eine Nahtoderfahrung anfühlt. • Welches Zitat ihr tagtäglich Kraft gibt. • Was Schmetterlinge und Spatzen mit manischer Depression zu tun haben. Viel Freude beim Anhören. Von Herz zu Herz Links: • Buchtipp: "An unquiet Mind" oder auf deutsch: "Meine ruhelose Seele: Die Geschichte einer bipolaren Störung" von Kay Redfield Jamison (unterstütze doch deinen Buchladen um die Ecke). • Kostenloses Workbook "50 Fragen – lerne dich besser kennen": https://www.feineseele.de/50-fragen-lerne-dich-besser-kennen/ Webseite: www.stefanieadam.de Blog: www.feineseele.de Instagram: www.instagram.com/feineseele Facebook: www.facebook.com/feineseele Pinterest: www.pinterest.de/feineseele Newsletter: www.feineseele.de/newsletter E-Mail (auch gerne für Themenwünsche): hallo@feineseele.de

In diesem tiefen, ehrlichen Gespräch, erzählt Theresa, wie man mit manischer Depression in einer Beziehung umgeht und teilt ihr Tipps für Angehörige … Wir sprechen darüber: • Wie Angehörige mit manisch Depressiven in der Beziehung umgehen können. • Welche Tipps es etwas einfacher machen. • Wie man trotzdem für sich selbst sorgt. • Warum sich eine bevorstehende Weltreise wie eine Nahtoderfahrung anfühlt. • Welches Zitat ihr tagtäglich Kraft gibt. • Was Schmetterlinge und Spatzen mit manischer Depression zu tun haben. Viel Freude beim Anhören. Von Herz zu Herz Links: • Buchtipp: "An unquiet Mind" oder auf deutsch: "Meine ruhelose Seele: Die Geschichte einer bipolaren Störung" von Kay Redfield Jamison (unterstütze doch deinen Buchladen um die Ecke). • Kostenloses Workbook "50 Fragen – lerne dich besser kennen": https://www.feineseele.de/50-fragen-lerne-dich-besser-kennen/ Webseite: www.stefanieadam.de Blog: www.feineseele.de Instagram: www.instagram.com/feineseele Facebook: www.facebook.com/feineseele Pinterest: www.pinterest.de/feineseele Newsletter: www.feineseele.de/newsletter E-Mail (auch gerne für Themenwünsche): hallo@feineseele.de. Danke für deine Zeit. Von Herz zu Herz. Steffi

We chat with our friend John (last name excluded for privacy) about depression, why capitalism sucks for depressed people, and how writing can help. Music: "People Are Strange" by Hisa Delirium. Book Recommendations: How to Weep in Public: Feeble Offerings from One Depressive to Another by Jacqueline Novak. An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison. Marbles: Mania, Depression, Michelangelo, and Me by Ellen Forney. Delusions of Grandeur: Stories and Poems by J. Beechem. Check out John's website www.americanfantastic.com

Sigiled Paladin by Greg Staples In this episode of Hip Squared, the dynamic duo are at it again. First, John talks about books by bipolar authors about being bipolar. He focuses on two books in particular, Marbles: Mania, Depression, Michaelangelo and Me by Ellen Forney and An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness by Kay Redfield Jamison. As someone who lives with bipolar, John is able to connect to these works on a deep level.Then Troy describes the very best Magic: The Gathering art. Originally designed as a way to take up time while setting up a game of Dungeons and Dragons, Magic: The Gathering is now a gaming juggernaut in its own right. After its debut, the game soon became well known for the art included in each card. Troy describes some of his favorite images from the series. Produced by Maplex Monk.Thanks for listening to Hip Squared! Please share this episode with a friend (or enemy), like us on Facebook, share us on social media and become a member on Patreon for as little as $1 a month. Toodles…

Tim and Nancy's story should inspire anyone about what it takes to stay committed to each other through "sickness and in health"! Tim wrote: Since 1979 I have lived with the consequences of a brain-based mental health challenge called bipolar disorder. Through these years I have experienced episodes of extreme mania, protracted periods of dark depression, as well as eruptions of psychosis. Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, a leading authority and herself a diagnosed bipolar, clearly expresses the effects of this brain disorder in her book, “Touched with Fire.” She wrote that bipolar illness “encompasses the extremes of human experience. Thinking can range from florid psychosis, or ‘madness,' to patterns of unusually clear, fast, and creative associations, to retardation [slowing down] so profound that no meaningful activity can occur.”* This very succinctly and accurately describes how I have often experienced bipolar disorder. Hear their story through this special interview and learn how to "reflect the compassion of Jesus Christ to those with mental health concerns".

Tim and Nancy's story should inspire anyone about what it takes to stay committed to each other through "sickness and in health"! Tim wrote: Since 1979 I have lived with the consequences of a brain-based mental health challenge called bipolar disorder. Through these years I have experienced episodes of extreme mania, protracted periods of dark depression, as well as eruptions of psychosis. Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, a leading authority and herself a diagnosed bipolar, clearly expresses the effects of this brain disorder in her book, “Touched with Fire.” She wrote that bipolar illness “encompasses the extremes of human experience. Thinking can range from florid psychosis, or ‘madness,’ to patterns of unusually clear, fast, and creative associations, to retardation [slowing down] so profound that no meaningful activity can occur.”* This very succinctly and accurately describes how I have often experienced bipolar disorder. Hear their story through this special interview and learn how to "reflect the compassion of Jesus Christ to those with mental health concerns".

Does madness have the ability to enhance artistic genius?  Alex unpacks a book called 'Touched With Fire: Manic-depressive Illness and the Artistic Temperament' by Kay Redfield Jamison, which looks specifically at bipolar disorder and how prevalent it is in artists and creatives.  While the disorder tends to be very detrimental, Alex explores ways to channel that mania and depression into art, possibly in the same ways famous creatives in history have done. Don't forget to subscribe, next week Alex looks at how most artists experience depression due to a lack of meaningfulness in their efforts through through a book called 'The Van Gogh Blues: The Creative Person's Path Through Depression.'  The answer lies not in medication, but meaning.  Get fyred up!

There are studies on the connection between the artistic impulse and mental illness. The best are books written by Kay Redfield Jamison, especially her “TouchedContinue reading

Food. Love. Manic Depression. This interview warmed my heart AND gave me some serious things to think about in my own "rollercoaster" world. A big thanks to David Leite for amazing work with "Notes on a Banana," and for his kindness, compassion and light in this world. About David and "Notes on a Banana" In one of spring’s most poignant, astonishingly courageous, and unapologetically hilarious titles, three- time James Beard Award-winner David Leite brings a dash of Anthony Bourdain, Augusten Burroughs, and Kay Redfield Jamison to his memoir, NOTES ON A BANANA: A Memoir of Food, Love, and Manic Depression (Dey Street; April 11, 2017; ISBN: 9780062414373).   In a true tale that dazzles, touches the heart, and inspires, three-time James Beard Award winner David Leite lays it all on the table. Born into a devoutly Catholic, food-crazed family of Azorean immigrants in 1960s Fall River, Massachusetts, David had a childhood that was the stuff of sitcoms. But what no one knew was that this smart-ass, determined dreamer with a vivid imagination also struggled with the frightening mood swings of bipolar disorder. To cope, “Banana,” as his mother endearingly called him, found relief and comfort in food, watching reruns of Julia Child, and, later as an adult, cooking for others. It was only in his midthirties, after years of desperate searching, did he finally uncover the truth about himself, receive proper medical treatment, and begin healing. Throughout the narrative, David takes the reader along on the exhilarating highs and shattering lows of his life, with his trademark sense of humor: We watch as he slams the door on his Portuguese heritage in favor of blond-haired, blue-eyed WASPdom; pursues stardom with a near-pathological relentlessness; realizes he’s gay and attempts to “turn straight” through Aesthetic Realism, a cult in downtown Manhattan; battles against dark and bitter moods; delights in his twenty-plus year relationship with Alan (known to millions of David’s online readers as “The One”); and shares the people, dishes, and events that shaped him. NOTES ON A BANANA is at once a tender look at growing up, a candid take on the power of selfacceptance, and an unflinching tale of the hell of mental illness. David’s story is brutally honest and necessary, creating a sense of universality and enduring hope that today’s readers need more than ever. David Leite has tackled everything from chocolate chip cookies to Welsh cakes, from the foods of Portugal to the tribulations of being a super taster—for print, radio, and television. In 1999, he founded the website Leite’s Culinaria, and in 2006 he had the distinction of being the first winner ever of a James Beard Award for a website, a feat he repeated in 2007. The following year, he won his third James Beard Award for his article on fried clams for the New York Times. His first book, THE NEW PORTUGUESE TABLE: Exciting Flavors from Europe’s Western Coast, explored the food of his heritage and won the 2010 IACP First Book/Julia Child Award. David is also a regular correspondent and guest host on NPR’s “The Splendid Table.” He splits his time between Connecticut and New York, but will travel anywhere for a good meal.  David on Social Web: http://leitesculinaria.com/ Twitter: http://twitter.com/davidleite Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/davidjosephleite/  ======================  Request to Join the FREE Meredith Atwood Community & Coaching https://meredith-atwood-coaching.mn.co/ ======================  Buy Meredith’s Books: The Year of No Nonsense https://amzn.to/3su5qWp Triathlon for the Every Woman: https://amzn.to/3nOkjiH =======================   Follow Meredith Atwood & The Podcast on Social: Web: http://www.swimbikemom.com Instagram: http://instagram.com/swimbikemom   =======================  Want to Connect?  Email: same24hourspodcast@gmail.com =======================  Credits: Host & Production: Meredith Atwood Intro: Carl Stover Music Copyright 2017-2020, 2021 All Rights Reserved, Meredith Atwood, LLC

Two time James Beard Award-winner David Leite brings a dash of Anthony Bourdain, Augusten Burroughs, and Kay Redfield Jamison to his memoir, NOTES ON A BANANA: A Memoir of Food, Love, and Manic Depression (Dey Street; April 11, 2017).Born into a devoutly Catholic, food-crazed family of Azorean immigrants in 1960s Fall River, Massachusetts, David had a childhood that was the stuff of sitcoms. But what no one knew was that this smart-ass, determined dreamer with a vivid imagination also struggled with the frightening mood swings of bipolar disorder. To cope, “Banana,” as his mother endearingly called him, found relief and comfort in food, watching reruns of Julia Child, and, later as an adult, cooking for others. It was only in his mid-thirties, after years of desperate searching, did he finally uncover the truth about himself, receive proper medical treatment, and begin healing.Throughout the narrative, David takes the reader along on the exhilarating highs and shattering lows of his life, with his trademark sense of humor: We watch as he slams the door on his Portuguese heritage in favor of blond-haired, blue-eyed WASPdom; pursues stardom with a near-pathological relentlessness; realizes he’s gay and attempts to "turn straight" through Aesthetic Realism, a cult in downtown Manhattan; battles against dark and bitter moods, delights in his twenty-plus year relationship with Alan (known to millions of David’s online readers as “The One); and shares the people, dishes, and events that shaped him. NOTES ON A BANANA is at once a tender look at growing up, a candid take on the power of self-acceptance, and an unflinching tale of the hell of mental illness. Its pages are brutally honest and necessary, creating a sense of universality and enduring hope that today’s readers need more than ever.

Two time James Beard Award-winner David Leite brings a dash of Anthony Bourdain, Augusten Burroughs, and Kay Redfield Jamison to his memoir, NOTES ON A BANANA: A Memoir of Food, Love, and Manic Depression (Dey Street; April 11, 2017).Born into a devoutly Catholic, food-crazed family of Azorean immigrants in 1960s Fall River, Massachusetts, David had a childhood that was the stuff of sitcoms. But what no one knew was that this smart-ass, determined dreamer with a vivid imagination also struggled with the frightening mood swings of bipolar disorder. To cope, “Banana,” as his mother endearingly called him, found relief and comfort in food, watching reruns of Julia Child, and, later as an adult, cooking for others. It was only in his mid-thirties, after years of desperate searching, did he finally uncover the truth about himself, receive proper medical treatment, and begin healing.Throughout the narrative, David takes the reader along on the exhilarating highs and shattering lows of his life, with his trademark sense of humor: We watch as he slams the door on his Portuguese heritage in favor of blond-haired, blue-eyed WASPdom; pursues stardom with a near-pathological relentlessness; realizes he’s gay and attempts to "turn straight" through Aesthetic Realism, a cult in downtown Manhattan; battles against dark and bitter moods, delights in his twenty-plus year relationship with Alan (known to millions of David’s online readers as “The One); and shares the people, dishes, and events that shaped him. NOTES ON A BANANA is at once a tender look at growing up, a candid take on the power of self-acceptance, and an unflinching tale of the hell of mental illness. Its pages are brutally honest and necessary, creating a sense of universality and enduring hope that today’s readers need more than ever.

The sometimes brutal nature of her books has forced Amy Koppelman to decide between an easier path or being true to her characters, and she has chosen truth every time. She and James talk about dealing with rejection, trying to enjoy happiness, and The Zoloft Ball. Afterwards, past guests give recommendations on art they enjoyed in 2016.     Amy and James Discuss: Gordon Lish  "The Bath" by Raymond Carver "A Small Good Thing" by Raymond Carver  Vladimir Nabokov  "A Good Man is Hard To Find" by Flannery O'Connor "Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?" by Joyce Carol Oates  "It's All Over Now, Baby Blue" by Bob Dylan Sam Hinkie  A WORLD OF YESTERDAY by Stefan Zweig  MacAdam/Cage Publishing  Two Dollar Radio  Eric Obenauf  Vincent Van Gogh  Kay Redfield Jamison    Pauls Recommends: BARKSKINS by Annie Proulx  WAR AND TURPENTINE by Stefan Hertmans    Jung Recommends: THE NIX by Nathan Hill  THE ASSOCIATION OF SMALL BOMBS by Karan Mahajan  WE LOVE YOU, CHARLIE FREEMAN by Kaitlyn Greenidge  RICH AND PRETTY by Rumaan Alam  GIRL THROUGH GLASS by Sari Wilson    Mark recommends: THE LONELY CITY by Olivia Laing BEING A BEAST by Charles Foster BLOOD, BONE, & MARROW: A BIOGRAPHY OF HARRY CREWS by Ted Geltner THE VEGETARIAN by Han Kang ALL THAT MAN IS by David Szalay   Chris recommends: INTIMATIONS by Alexandra Kleeman A GAMBLER'S ANATOMY by Jonathan Lethem  22, A MILLION by Bon Iver (album)  ARRIVAL (film)    Wil Recommends: SALVADOR MIAMI THE YEAR OF MAGICAL THINKING  BLUE NIGHTS  all by Joan Didion    Julianna recommends: NAMELESS BOY by Douglas Goetsch  THE BIG BOOK OF SCIENCE FICTION ed by Ann & Jeff Vandermeer  THE MAN WHO MISTOOK HIS WIFE FOR A HAT by Oliver Sacks  HALLUCINATIONS by Oliver Sacks  DIVORCE (tv)  CATASTROPHE (tv) both Sharon Horgan   Urban recommends: THE BIG SKY by A.B. Guthrie, Jr.  BILLY RAY'S FARM by Larry Brown    Paula recommends: NEVERMIND by Edward St. Aubyn   STILL POINTS NORTH by Leigh Newman  Mondo Cozmo (band)    - http://tkpod.com / tkwithjs@gmail.com / Twitter: @JamesScottTK Instagram: tkwithjs / Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/tkwithjs/        

Oct. 16, 2015. Composer Michael Hersch and Kay Redfield Jamison of the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine discussed the role of mood disorders in poetry, as well as Hersch's Library of Congress commission "Carrion-Miles to Purgatory." For transcript, captions, and more information, visit http://www.loc.gov/today/cyberlc/feature_wdesc.php?rec=7437

(Programming Note: Ryan Dolan wanted not only to guest on PopFury but to interview Sammy as well. In the spirit of Yes And, Sammy turned the entire podcast over to Ryan to do with as he wanted...and Ryan proudly presents, The GOAT Show)     The Greatest of All Time Podcast Hosts, RYAN DOLAN, interviews the Greatest of All Time Guests, SAMMY TAMIMI, on the Greatest of All Time Podcasts, The GOAT Show! THE GREATEST OF ALL TIME PODCAST HOST QUOTES: “Sammy, why did you waste your life on improv?” “We are the tellers of secrets. So you told no secrets, is that why your life is a failure?” “I’ve never cried on a Chicago bus before, let alone the 36 bus.” “Anyway, so back to your failure of an improv life...” “We’ll get to your career trajectory here in a little bit and see if you have a future or if maybe you need to move to a small town in Utah...” "If you’re not self-loathing and wondering about your existential place in this world...I don’t think you have the depth to be an artist.” “It’s a great book, it’ll make you feel better about yourself reading about all these people who committed suicide.” “So when was the first time you were thrown off a team at iO?” “A lot of big fat guys have succeeded in improv. What happened?” “You have done 150 of these podcasts. Why PopFury, why pop culture and why Chicago improvisors? I mean, seriously, why the last one?”   GREATEST OF ALL TIME SHOW NOTES, IMAGES AND LINKS: Greatest of All Time Hosts, Ryan Dolan Full quote from Ray Carney, a Boston University film teacher, in an article in MOVIEMAKER magazine called "The Path of the Artist." He wrote: "Never forget that to be an artist, above everything else, to be a truth-teller, one of the few left in a culture seized in a death grip by media-induced fictions and journalistic clichés. You speak secrets no one else dares to whisper. You exist to share your most private feelings and personal observations with others. They are where truth lies. Don’t be afraid of being too personal, too private. Your most secret fears, your private doubts and uncertainties are everyone’s … My teachers told me that filmmaking was about telling gripping stories. It took me years to realize that that’s not an ambitious enough goal. You can do much more than that. You can give viewers new eyes and ears. You can change their states of awareness so that they see, hear, care, and feel differently. Your work exists to express things too delicate, too fluttering, too multivalent to be said in any other way. You’re doing something much more radical than telling a story. You’re rewiring people’s nervous systems. You’re doing brain surgery. Art gives us more than new facts and ideas; it gives us new powers of perception. … You speak the most subtle language ever created—the language of art—a form of expression more nuanced than verbal language, more complex than a theorem in physics, truer than anything in the newspaper."   Website for the mercilessly maligned Chicago City Limits in NYC   Second City Detroit (Downtown)   iO Harold schedule from July 2000 iO Harold roster from July 2000...you found out if you made a team or were cut when you got a physical copy of the schedule.   A chintzy poster for the Garbage Hounds Harold team Ryan recommended Kay Redfield Jamison's book Touched with Fire: Manic-Depressive Illness and the Artistic Temperament Archived Second City interview with the improv ensemble KOKO  Sammy refers to Abby Sher's book Amen, Amen, Amen: Memoir of a Girl Who Couldn't Stop Praying (Among Other Things) Please check the podcasts of Mark Colomb. You can find the archive of Poor Choices Podcasts HERE and his most recent show, An Hour With Your Ex, HERE. Thanks for listening! If you enjoyed this special episode of the PopFury Podcast AKA THE GOAT, please feel free to listen to our regular episodes! You can subscribe and rate us on iTunes or Stitcher! You can also listen to PopFury on Google Play Music!

Something clever goes hereOur Guests+Alex Mayo+Chris KutalikShow Notes after the jumpGuest NotesChris KutalikHydra CooperativeHill Cantons blogSlumbering Ursine DunesFever-Dreaming MarlinkoAlex MayoLayout and illustration for lots of OSR products!Penetralia blog - No longer availableShow NotesDrinkScallywagger, Oddside Ales, Grand Haven, MiGrapefruit Sculpin, Ballast Point, San Diego, CAHeavyweight Zinfandel, Scotto Cellars, Walnut Creek, CABean Flicker, Oddside Ales, Grand Haven, MISpinKylesa[Adam couldn't figure out the band that Chris mentioned. If you know what it was, let us know!]Low & Beck got a little depressing for KatieOld time radio shows on SpotifyReadTunnels of Chuchi [Adam couldn't find a link to this book]World War Z, Max BrooksAn Unquiet Mind, Kay Redfield JamisonMatt Fraction Hawkeye collected hardbackThe Complete Guide to Making Mead, Steve PiatzKill the Dead, Tannith LeeThe Mushroom Handbook, Louis Charles Christopher KriegerRunMutant Year ZeroHill CantonsDCC RPGDungeon of the Unknown, Geoffrey McKinneyRandom Esoteric Creature Generator blah blah blahTome of Adventure DesignTeenage Mutant Ninja Turtles & Other StrangenessBad Myrmidon, Rafael ChandlerDonn STILL needs to design his minis rules!Thanks for joining us for this episode of Drink Spin Run. If you like what you've heard, share us with your friends, leave us an iTunes review or send us an email at dsr@kickassistan.net. You can also support us at http://www.patreon.com/DSRCast. Our theme music was generously provided by the band Blue Snaggletooth (http://bluesnaggletooth.bandcamp.com). Once again, thanks for listening, you gorgeous listeners.

ON THE BUS ON TVI invite you to watch the last rerun of my Academy Award (Oscar®) qualifying short film, the noted award-winning psychological thriller, On the Bus. It plays live on prime time TV with me, for the first time this weekend! It is now live on Vimeo Pro as well. I am so proud! Wax showed twice that day and On the Bus aired 3 times, along with yet another television show I did, also on frequent reruns. If a schizophrenic can do it, anyone can! THANK YOU! —Jonathan Harnisch smile emoticon‘Award-winning executive producer and screenwriter, Jonathan Harnisch's first viewing, reaction and commentary of his Academy Award (Oscar®) Qualifying psychological thriller, On the Bus on live on DIRECTV®.'Distributed worldwide by Shorts International. In the vein of Christopher Nolan's MEMENTO comes ON THE BUS (2015) Fat Man Media's psychological thriller about the experiences of Larry (Mark Schrier), a mentally disturbed man, who rides a bus and bothers passengers based on recent circumstances in his life. The film's surprise ending startles the audience and ties the fragmented story together to a dramatic conclusion. Harnisch's WAX & ON THE BUS TV channels available w/ AT&T HD PREMIER TIER PACKAGE and can be viewed on Channel 1789. Otherwise DIRECTV® HD EXTRA PACK and can be viewed on Channel 568.About Jonathan Harnisch:Initially diagnosed with depression in 1994 at the age of 18, I was prescribed antidepressants, including the newest of the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs). Unfortunately, these triggered mania, and to combat this, I began to drink, which intensified my psychological instability and led to an addiction that I was finally able to overcome when I was 26.However, as difficult as the disorders have been, in many ways, I have been blessed. Many call me a gifted artist, and I have frequently used my art to exorcise my own demons of isolation and loneliness. In 1998, I dramatized those issues in my award-winning film, Ten Years, which I produced, directed, and wrote while attending NYU's Tisch School of the Arts.In 2008, I once again dramatized those themes of isolation and loneliness in another award-winning film, On the Bus, which, in addition, explores the horrors and chaos of mental illness. Through the eyes of the main character Larry, we see the uncontrollable, tumultuous symptoms of schizophrenia and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), as brought on by a random act of violence.A single act of violence rarely causes severe mental illness. Current research indicates that such illness is generally a result of a genetic predisposition combined with environmental factors. My case would seem to validate that research, as there is a history of mental illness in my family, and I have suffered repeated trauma. Whatever the genesis, beginning in 2009 and culminating in the summer of 2010, I experienced a severe psychotic episode that manifested in inappropriate, violent outbursts and regnant destructive behavior. Ultimately, however, this episode brought me the help I needed, including a comprehensive psychological work-up that provided an accurate diagnosis and the right medication. Now, psychologically stable, I invite others to behold my candid daily encounters with the symptoms of schizophrenia.In the past, I have been known to willingly and genuinely share my life. In the same vein as prolific figures such as Elyn R. Saks, Kay Redfield Jamison, and Oliver Sacks, I continue to illustrate my personal ongoing struggle with chronic mental illness nurturing truth, acceptance, fiction, transgression, and community.My art, imagination, and various creative outlets are simply my own catalysts for continuous resiliency and recovery. With the launch of my now former and viral website (as of December 2013), I had turned another engaging and uplifting page of my story. I hoped to impact others in some way through my publicized journey of how one individual copes with the perpetual rollercoaster of the experiences living with schizophrenia and Tourette's syndrome, some material stranger than fiction.I consider myself a still-recovering schizophrenic, an accomplished writer, producer, and musician, who writes about mental illness and New Age ideas and treatments, and again a darker side, a much darker side, to which you will likely bear witness. Alas, my Alibiography.— Jonathan Harnisch

I love inspirational quotes and sayings. Most are simply reminders of how we should live life. Of course, this is easier said than done, and I think that's why they float around everywhere, from Facebook to Twitter to blogs.No matter how challenging things can be in life, keep going. Never give up or quit. There are no other realistic options. We are all pushed to our limits at times, and there may seem to be no way out, no reason to move on, and no solution to whatever it is that is causing us to go through hell. What remains is hope, faith, and belief, although hope, faith and belief on their own often cannot fix the problems and challenges we all face as we journey through our life experiences—but action will. Keep trying over and over again. Through action, we will likely, though not necessarily, find a solution. When you've tried everything you can, change your approach, your perspective, or your angle, and battle onward. Do whatever you can. Just don't stop. I think this is what the saying "If you're going through hell, keep going" suggests. Keep going, because if you can hang in there long enough, ultimately, things can and often will change for the better.When I was initially diagnosed with depression in 1994 at the age of 18, I was prescribed antidepressants, including the newest of the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs). Unfortunately, the SSRIs triggered mania, and to combat it, I began to drink, which intensified my psychological instability and led to an addiction that I was finally able to overcome when I was 26. However, as difficult as the disorders have been, in many ways, I have been blessed. Many call me a gifted artist, and I have frequently used my art to exorcise my demons of isolation and loneliness. In 1998, I dramatized these issues in my award-winning film Ten Years, which I wrote produced, and directed while attending NYU's Tisch School of the Arts. In 2008, I once again dramatized the themes of isolation and loneliness in another award-winning film, On the Bus, which also explores the horrors and chaos of mental illness. Through the eyes of the main character, we see the uncontrollable, tumultuous symptoms of schizophrenia and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) as brought on by a random act of violence. A single act of violence rarely causes severe mental illness; current research indicates that mental illness is a result of a genetic predisposition combined with environmental factors. My case would seem to validate that research, as there is a history of mental illness in my family, and I have suffered repeated trauma. Whatever the genesis, beginning in 2009 and culminating in the summer of 2010, I experienced a severe psychotic break that manifested in inappropriate, violent outbursts and destructive behavior. Ultimately, however, this break brought me the help I needed, including a comprehensive psychological evaluation that provided me with an accurate diagnosis and the right medication. Now psychologically stable, I invite others to witness my candid daily encounters with the symptoms of schizophrenia. I willingly and genuinely share my life through my literature, film productions, and iTunes podcast, "Schizophrenia Raw." In the vein of prolific figures such as Elyn R. Saks and Kay Redfield Jamison, I illustrate my ongoing personal struggles with chronic mental illness, nurturing truth, acceptance, and community. My art, imagination, and various creative outlets are simply my catalyst for continuous resiliency and recovery. As I turn another engaging and uplifting page of my story, I hope to impact others positively through my publicized journey of how one individual copes with the perpetual whirlwind of schizophrenia and Tourette's syndrome. The quote "If you're going through hell, keep going" is often attributed to Winston Churchill though I have never come across any clear-cut citations. How can we apply this quote to mental illness and its associated stigma? It can be applied to life in general in countless ways, and for mental health conditions, it can bring our experiences to another degree. Let's cut to the chase and keep it simple: Don't give up. You are walking through what is or what seems like hell. Are you going to just sit there and suffer, or will you choose to keep going, to overcome? Take baby steps. If you're in a difficult situation, keep moving on to get out of it. Recall the quote, "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end." This means that you should not stop going until you get all the way through, and therefore out! You're in a bad situation? Plunge forward. Things get better. Don't quit!What if there is no way out? What if things don't get better? Maybe you've had a stroke, or you have ALS, Alzheimer's, and so forth, where there is no improvement, only deterioration. Are you a victim? Change your approach, your perspective, your angle. Consider how far the famed theoretical physicist Stephen Hawking has come with Lou Gehrig's Disease (ALS), or those struggling with multiple sclerosis (MS). This means keeping the course, and things will get better. Life often gets worse before it can get better. Life can press your brake pedal. What is there to do? How are we to deal with it? Do you roll over and take what life throws at you, crying poor me? Do you stand up to life without fear? Are you worrying it's not going to be easy? Nothing worthwhile is. It's how you deal with things and overcome what life throws at you that matters; it's about finding your worth, who you are, and finding your place in the world and what you give to the world—and what the world gives to you. There is joy and sorrow, it's about learning about both life and how you deal with it. It means that if things are really bad, and life seems hellish, don't give up and stop trying. Keep battling on until things improve.If you think about it, life itself means "Don't give up." You walk through what is or seems like hell at times. "Just sit there," says that voice in your head, that imp, "and suffer." I suggest you fight intrusive, self-sabotaging thoughts. Keep going through it to get through it. When I find myself in a difficult situation, I do my best, as gently on myself as I can, to keep moving forward. I may never get out of schizophrenia—rather, schizophrenia may never, in my lifetime, get out of me. I keep hope and faith alive. I always do my best, and sometimes I miss the mark completely, over and over again. So many quotes and famous sayings from Henry Ford come to mind. I invite you to ponder this quote until next time, although it might not seem relevant to my thesis in this essay: "My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me." Make schizophrenia or your mental health condition your friend. Befriend yourself, trust the universe, and allow the universe to trust you. Trust in your higher power or God, if you have one, or just the reasonable part of you, your core, with mental illness stripped away. Be who you are. Make mistakes. Dance. Love. Dislike. Judge or be judged. We are all here just trying our best to get by, playing it by ear. Life is in real time. There is no dress rehearsal, and part of the reason I prefer writing over communicating verbally in real time is that I can rehearse by editing my writing while following my number one rule to write first drafts, which I often publish, with no censor. I often describe my experience with schizophrenia as every neuron in my brain misfiring. It sounds devastating. It is devastating. But if and when I can change my angle and perspective on suffering, I struggle, but I don't suffer. And I keep going. Hell? Hell no! Maybe you have schizophrenia dominating your life as I do. Maybe you have a mental illness or physical ailment. Or maybe you're a "normie," an average person living life diagnosis-free. We all have our issues, and to quote one of my books, "We all have problems, but let's not kid ourselves: it's how we deal with them that makes the difference." I consider myself a still-recovering schizophrenic, an accomplished writer, producer, and musician who blogs and podcasts about mental illness, New Age ideas and transgressive literature.In closing, be kind to yourself and others. Everyone is fighting their battles and many unspoken secret wars. I am grateful that my readers often consider me one of the many great voices who can communicate what far too many cannot for various reasons. Keep on keeping on.Until next time.

JONATHAN HARNISCH ON THE ROAD - Jonathan Harnisch Media Blog http://www.jhpage.com/1/post/2015/01/january-23rd-2015.html Schizophrenia Raw By Jonathan Harnisch Podcast on iTunes Episode 160http://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/schizophrenia-raw/id432451121?mt=2 Recovering schizophrenic Jonathan Harnisch and the occasional guest, speak candidly and openly about living with mental illness. Recorded on 23 January 2015Archived on www.therealme.podbean.com Initially diagnosed with depression in 1994 at the age of 18, I was prescribed antidepressants, including the newest of the Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs). Unfortunately, the SSRIs triggered mania, and to combat it, I began to drink, which intensified my psychological instability and led to an addiction that I was finally able to overcome when I was 26. However, as difficult as the disorders have been, in many ways, I have been blessed. Many call me a gifted artist, and I have frequently used my art to exorcise my own demons of isolation and loneliness. In 1998, I dramatized those issues in my award-winning film Ten Years, which I produced, directed, and wrote while attending NYU's Tisch School of the Arts. In 2008, I once again dramatized those themes of isolation and loneliness in another award-winning film, On The Bus, which in addition explores the horrors and chaos of mental illness. Through the eyes of the main character, we see the uncontrollable, tumultuous symptoms of schizophrenia and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) as brought on by a random act of violence. A single act of violence rarely causes severe mental illness. Current research indicates that mental illness is generally a result of a genetic predisposition combined with environmental factors. My case would seem to validate that research, as there is a history of mental illness in my family, and I have suffered repeated trauma. Whatever the genesis, beginning in 2009 and culminating in the summer of 2010, I experienced a severe psychotic break that manifested in inappropriate, violent outbursts and regnant destructive behavior. Ultimately, however, this break brought me the help I needed, including a comprehensive psychological work-up that provided an accurate diagnosis and the right medication. Now, psychologically stable, I invite others to behold my candid daily encounters with the symptoms of schizophrenia. I willingly and genuinely share my life through my written blog, and with my iTunes podcast “The Real Me”, both easily accessible right here. In the vein of prolific figures such as Elyn R. Saks and Kay Redfield Jamison, I illustrate my personal ongoing struggle with chronic mental illness, nurturing truth, acceptance, and community. My art, imagination, and various creative outlets are simply my own catalyst for continuous resiliency and recovery. I turn another engaging and uplifting page of my story. I hope to impact others positively through my publicized journey of how one individual copes with the perpetual rollercoaster of schizophrenia and Tourette's syndrome. I consider myself a still-recovering schizophrenic, an accomplished writer, producer and musician, who blogs and podcasts about mental illness and New Age ideas and transgressive literature. Jonathan HarnischTwitter: http://www.twitter.com/jwharnisch

Lithium is the electro-chemical element - big in batteries and bipolar disorder. Over two decades it has shot from obscurity to become almost synonymous with the way we power our gadgets. Presenter Justin Rowlatt hears from chemistry powerhouse Prof Andrea Sella of University College London about what makes lithium so light and energetic. We hear from Gideon Long in Chile, who visits the world's richest source of lithium in the Atacama Desert, and about how neighbouring Bolivia believes it will dominate supply if demand for this alkali metal continues to see double-digit growth. Justin speaks to Prof Nigel Brandon of Imperial College, an expert on cutting-edge battery research, about whether this week's element can ever realistically hope to challenge a can of petrol as the best way to power a car. And we hear from clinical psychologist Kay Redfield Jamison of Johns Hopkins University about the literally life-saving role lithium has played for sufferers of bipolar disorder - including herself.

Lithium is the electro-chemical element - big in batteries and bipolar disorder. Over two decades it has shot from obscurity to become almost synonymous with the way we power our gadgets. Presenter Justin Rowlatt hears from chemistry powerhouse professor Andrea Sella of University College London about what makes lithium so light and energetic. We hear from Gideon Long in Chile, who visits the world's richest source of lithium in the Atacama Desert, and about how neighbouring Bolivia believes it will dominate supply if demand for this alkali metal continues to see double-digit growth. Justin speaks to professor Nigel Brandon of Imperial College, an expert on cutting-edge battery research, about whether lithium can ever realistically hope to challenge a can of petrol as the best way to power a car. And, we hear from clinical psychologist Kay Redfield Jamison of Johns Hopkins University about the literally life-saving role lithium has played for sufferers of bipolar disorder - including herself. (Picture: Salar de Atacama; Credit: Gideon Long)

The Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance proudly presents "DBSA's Real Recovery Podcasts;" a biweekly conversation with leading mental health advocates, well–known authors and writers, medical experts and most importantly, consumers like you who understand the challenges of living with, and successfully managing, mood disorders. Listen to our inaugural podcast, featuring Academy Award–winning actress, writer and mental health educator, Patty Duke. Ms. Duke talks openly about her own experiences as a consumer and offers advice and hope to fellow consumers and their loved ones in this brief, but inspiring podcast. New podcasts are available every couple of weeks, including upcoming segments on Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) and other emergent technologies and treatments, a conversation with highly regarded author and psychiatrist Kay Redfield Jamison, and an in–depth interview with DBSA President, Sue Bergeson.

The Psychiatrist Kay Redfield Jamison is a world leading specialist in bipolar disorder, and suffers from the condition herself. She shares her unique perspective with A.C.Grayling and an audience at Wellcome Collection, London.

Kay Redfield Jamison, in her class book about depression, The Unquiet Mind, says that "manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it, an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering."  But imagine if no one knows what your illness is, or if it is mistreated by the medical community.  How much worse is it, when treatment is possible, but it is prevented or delayed  by ignorance.That's the story that Melody Moezzi tells in Haldol and Hyacinths: A Bipolar LifeMy conversation with Melody Moezzi:

Right click here to download the mp3. Art by Jarosław Kubick In the final segment of our discussion, we talk about ways we hid our depression or magnified our depression (what made things worse) and ways we helped our depression (what made things better).The panelists will be watching the comments to respond to questions. Here is a summary of the resources and other things that helped us.Process:Name the problemIdentify root causes (often things from the past) and work through themFigure out what triggers depressive episodes Remove triggers (get out of situations that make things worse) Build relationship spaces where you can find happiness and peace and emotional strength ("family" by choice)Choose your spirituality and interaction with the churchGet out of overly-stressful or abusive situations and take care of yourselfBecome an advocate, speak upTechniques:Journal writing and bloggingWriting in supportive communities (online forums)Creating: Art, music (eg. playing piano), dance (eg. choreography), crochet, etc. Therapy, working through the pastMovement BreathingFocusing on sensory input from the five senses to come to the present momentYogaEnergy healing: BodyTalkGetting out to the things that are "elementally you" (eg. hike the petroglyphs)Spend time outdoors, get outside when the spiral down starts Using prayer as contemplative reflectionIdentifying the good and the beautifulMassage and chiropractic Hot showersLight therapy and vitamin DReading books on topics that pertain to your hurtFood RelatedGAPS dietCandida CleanseEating potatoes before bed (with no protein) to help to raise serotonin levelsBooks, Audio, and Online Resources"The Soul in Depression" from On Being with Krista Tippett (audio)Prozac Nation by Elizabeth WurtzelAn Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield JamisonThe Dance of Anger by Harriet LernerThe Dance of Intimacy by Harriet LernerMood Cure by Julia RossThe Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse by David Johnson and Jeff VanVonderen Come to Your Senses by Stanley Block and Carolyn Block Move Your Body Tone Your Mood by Kate F. HaysEating in the Light of the Moon by Anita JohnstonNoonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression by Andrew SolomonWomen who Run With the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estés Solace for Mothers online forum

Psychologist Kay Redfield Jamison on Understanding Suicide. Her lecture, drawing on research from her book, Night Falls Fast, was delivered at the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health in Toronto in the year 2000. It first aired on Big Ideas on February 3, 2001.

Psychologist Kay Redfield Jamison is the author of "An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness." In it, she reveals she suffers from manic depression, which resulted in an attempted suicide. She describes her struggle with depression whilst maintaining a professional and personal life. (Originally aired December 1995)

Psychologist Kay Redfield Jamison is the author of "An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness." In it, she reveals she suffers from manic depression, which resulted in an attempted suicide. She describes her struggle with depression whilst maintaining a professional and personal life. (Originally aired December 1995)

Host Steve Mencher talks with Music and the Brain Series advisor Kay Redfield Jamison about her book Nothing Was The Same.

Host Steve Mencher talks with Music and the Brain Series advisor Kay Redfield Jamison about her book Nothing Was The Same.

Host Steve Mencher talks with Music and the Brain Series advisor Kay Redfield Jamison about her book Nothing Was The Same.

Psychiatrist Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, one of the world's foremost authorities on bi-polar disorders, from which she herself suffers talks about depression and suicide, including her own attempt to end her life.

Psychiatrist Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, one of the world's foremost authorities on bi-polar disorders, from which she herself suffers talks about depression and suicide, including her own attempt to end her life.

Kay Redfield Jamison delivers a lecture discussing her book Exuberance: The Passion for Life, at the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health in Toronto, in October, 2004.

Kay Redfield Jamison discusses her book Exuberance: The Passion for Life - 2004

Kay Redfield Jamison of Johns Hopkins University gives a lecture about suicide drawing on the research from her book, Night Falls Fast: Understanding Suicide.