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In this gripping episode of Gangland Wire, host Gary Jenkins sits down with Robert “Bob” Cooley, the Chicago lawyer whose extraordinary journey took him from deep inside the Outfit's criminal operations to becoming one of the federal government's most valuable witnesses against organized crime. Cooley pulls back the curtain on the hidden machinery of Chicago's underworld, describing how corruption, bribery, and violence shaped the Chicago Outfit's power in the 1970s and beyond. As a lawyer, gambler, and trusted insider, Cooley saw firsthand how mob influence tilted the scales of justice—often in open daylight. Inside the “Chicago Method” of Courtroom Corruption Cooley explains the notorious system of judicial bribery he once helped facilitate—what he calls the “Chicago Method.” He walks listeners through: How defense attorneys worked directly with Outfit associates to buy favorable rulings. The process of approaching and bribing judges. Why weak forensic standards of the era made witness discrediting the key mob strategy. His personal involvement in the infamous Harry Aleman murder case, where clear guilt was erased by corruption. Life in the Outfit: Gambling, Debt, and Mob Justice Cooley recounts his early days gambling with Chicago Outfit associates, including Marco D'Amico, Jackie Cerrone, and John DeFranzo. Notable stories include: The violent implications of unpaid gambling debts in mob circles. Tense interactions with bookmaker Hal Smith and the chaotic fallout of a bounced check involving mobster Eddie Corrado. How D'Amico often stepped in—sometimes with intimidation—to shield Cooley from harm. These stories reflect the daily volatility of life inside the Outfit, where money, fear, and loyalty intersect constantly. Bob Cooley has a great book titled When Corruption Was King where he goes into even greater detail and has many more stories from his life inside the Chicago Mob. 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To go to the store or make a donation or rent Ballot Theft: Burglary, Murder, Coverup, click here To rent ‘Brothers against Brothers’ or ‘Gangland Wire,’ the documentaries click here.  To purchase one of my books, click here. 0:06 Introduction to Bob Cooley 1:32 Life as an Outfit Gambler 2:00 My Relationship with Marco D’Amico 10:40 The Story of Hal Smith 11:05 A Dangerous Encounter 20:21 Meeting Sally D 22:23 A Contract on My Life 22:37 The Harry Alleman Case 34:47 Inside the Courtroom 51:08 The Verdict 52:26 Warning the Judge 53:49 The Case Against the Policewoman 58:36 Navigating the Legal Maze 1:08:14 The Outcome and Its Consequences 1:11:39 The Decision to Flip 1:24:38 A Father’s Influence 1:33:57 The Corruption Revealed 1:50:12 Political Connections 2:02:07 The Setup for Robbery 2:20:29 Consequences of Loyalty transcript [0:00] Hey, guys, my guest today is a former Chicago outfit associate named Robert Bob Cooley. He has a book out there titled When Corruption Was King. I highly recommend you get it if you want to look inside the Chicago outfit of the 1970s. Now, Bob’s going to tell us about his life as an outfit gambler, lawyer, and I use payoff to judges to get many, many not guilty verdicts. Now, I always call this the Chicago method. This happened for, I know, for Harry Ailman, a case we’re going to talk about, Tony Spolatro got one of these not-guilties. Now, the outfit member associate who is blessed to get this fix put in for him may be charged with a crime, even up to murder. And he gets a lawyer, a connected lawyer, and they’ll demand a bench trial. That means that only a judge makes the decision. A lawyer, like my guest, who worked with a political fixer named Pat Marcy. [0:53] They’ll work together and they’ll get a friendly judge assigned to that case and then they’ll bribe the judge. And all that judge needs is some kind of alibi witnesses and any kind of information to discredit any prosecution witnesses. Now, this is back in the olden days before you had all this DNA and all that kind of thing. So physical evidence was not really a part of it. Mainly, it was from witnesses. And they just have to discredit any prosecution witness. Then the judge can say, well, state hadn’t really proven their case beyond a reasonable doubt and issue a not guilty verdict and walk away. Now, our guest, Bob Cooley, is going to take us inside this world. [1:29] And it’s a world of beatings, murders, bribes, and other kinds of plots. He was a member of the Elmwood Park crew. He was a big gambler. He was a big loan shark. And he worked for a guy named Marco D’Amico, who was their gambling boss and loan shark in that crew. Among other bosses in this powerful crew were Jackie Cerrone, who will go on and become the underboss and eventually the boss for a short [1:55] period of time. and John no-nose DeFranzo, who will also go on to become the boss eventually. What was your relationship with Marco D’Amico? I talked about when I first came into the 18th district, when I came into work there, and they put me back in uniform, the first person I met was Rick Borelli. Rick Borelli, he was Marco’s cousin. [2:23] When I started gambling right away with Rick, within a couple of days, I’m being his face, and I’m calling and making bets. There was a restaurant across the street where every Wednesday and sometimes a couple days a week, I would meet with Ricky. And one of the first people he brought in there was Marco. Was Marco. And Marco would usually be with a person or two. And I thought they were just bookmakers. [2:55] And I started being friendly with him, meeting him there. Then I started having card games Up in my apartment And, Because now I’m making, in the very beginning, I’m making first $100 extra a week. And within a couple of weeks, I’m making $500, $600 extra a week. And within about a month, I’m making $1,000, sometimes more than that. So now I’m having card games, relatively big card games, because I’ve got a bankroll. I’ve got probably about $5,000, $6,000, which seemed like a lot of money to me. Initially uh and after a while that was a daily that was a daily deal but uh so we we started having card games up there and then we started socializing we started now he’d be at these nightclubs all the time when when i’d go to make my payoffs he was part of the main group there he was one of the call he was right he was right under jack right under at that time originally Jackie Cerrone, and then he was right under Johnny DeFranco. [4:07] But he was… And we became real good friends. We would double date and we spent a lot of time together. And we had these big card games. And that’s when I realized how powerful these people were. Because after one of the card games, there was somebody that was brought in, a guy named Corrado. I’m pretty sure his name was I can’t think of his first name, but Corrado was this person that somebody brought into the game. And after we finished playing cards, and I won all the time. I mean, I was a real good card player, and I wouldn’t drink. I’d supply liquor and food and everything, but I wouldn’t drink. And as the others drank, they were the same as at my office. After we finish up, this guy says, you want to play some? We can play maybe some gin. just human being. And he was there with another friend of his who just sat there and watched. So we played, not gin, but blackjack. We played and passed cards back and forth when you win. Then you’re the dealer and back and forth. And I lost, I think I lost about $4,000 or $13,000 to him. [5:26] I lost the cash that I had. I had cash about $5,000 or $6,000. And I gave him a check for the rest. You know, but everything I was doing was wrong, you know. Yeah, one of those nights. It’s in there. And it’s funny because you asked about Marco. [5:47] And I thought, you know, oh, well, and whatever. And I gave him a check. I said, no, it’s a good check. And it was. It was for my office. It was an office check that I gave him. And that next morning, I’m meeting with Ricky and with Marco at this restaurant across from the station before I go in and to work. And I said, son of a B. I said, you know, they had a bad night first ever. Marco wasn’t at that game, at that particular game. And what happened? I said, I blew about 12,000. Okay, but you? Wow. And I said, yeah, I said, one of the guys at the game played some, I played some blackjack with somebody. What was his name? Eddie, Eddie Corrado. Eddie Corrado. He said, that mother, he said, stop payment on the check. He said, stop payment on the check. He said, because it wasn’t nine o’clock. It was only like, you know, seven, you know, seven 30 or whatever. He said, and when he gets ahold of you, arrange to have him come to your house. Tell him you’ll have the money for him at your house. So that’s what I, that’s what I do. So I stopped payment on it probably about five after nine. I get a call from, from Mr. Corrado. You mother fucker. [7:17] I said, no, no. I said, there wasn’t enough money in the account. I said, I’m sorry. I said, all right, then I’ll be over. I said, no, no, no. I said, I’m in court right now. I said, I’m in court. I said, I’m going to be tied up all day. I’ll meet you at my place. I’ll meet you back there. Well, I’ll be there. You better have that. I want cash and you better have it. Okay. Oh, I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m at home. Marco comes in. And he was there with Tony and Tony was there and Ricky was there. And Ricky was there. And they come over a little ahead of time and he comes in. I live on the 27th floor. The doorbell rings. Up he comes with some big mustache. [8:00] I open the door. You better have the fucking money and whatever. And I try to look nervous. I try to look real nervous. and when you walk into my apartment you walk in and you see the kitchen right in front of you and to the left to the left you’ve got an area away and you’ve got the the kitchen wall blocking what’s behind it over there and these three guys are standing marco and you are standing right there alongside of it and and when he walks in behind me, He sees Marco and all but shit in his pants. When he sees Marco, he goes, and Marco, you motherfucker. And, you know, oh, I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I didn’t know he was with you. He says, how much money you got me right now? And, you know, he says, pull your pockets out. He had about, he had about three or 4,000 with him. [9:02] And he says, you give him that. He says, you, he says, you, and he says, you give him that right now. And you apologize to him. Oh, and he says, he says, and I may give you a number. I want you to call. He says, we can put you to work. Apparently this guy had done the same thing to them a few years before and got the beating of his life somebody brought him into one of their card games, did he have a technique a cheating technique or had some marked cards no it was a card mechanic he could play games with cards they call him a mechanic and, in fact the guy was great at it because he had his own plane and everything else. But again, he had moved from Chicago and had just come back in the area. And they mounted. And so anyhow, he leaves. And he leaves then, and Marco took the money. Marco took the money. Marco took the money. Typical Bob guy, man. [10:19] And I says, what about the cash I lost to him? He says, well, you lost that. He says, you lost that. That’s when I realized how powerful. That’s when I realized how powerful that [10:35] he was part of the mob, not only a part of it, but one of the operational. Yeah, important part of it. That brings to mind another unbelievable situation that occurred. [10:49] The, uh, this is probably the, we’ll know the year by when it happened. There was a bookmaker named Hal Smith. Oh yeah. I remember that name. He got, tell us about Hal Smith. [11:05] Well, Hal Smith was a, he was a big guy too. A real, a real big guy. I met him on Rush street. He knew I was a gambler. He knew that I was a big gambler and I started gambling with him. Thank you. And I was with him probably for about maybe five or six months. And I’d win with him. I’d lose with him. And he would take big places. He would take $5,000 a game for me. And as they say, so the numbers were big. At the end of the week, we were sometimes $60,000, $70,000. [11:42] They were big numbers back and forth. And he was always good for the money. I was always good for the money. And one particular week, it was about $30,000. And I was waiting for money. Somebody else was supposed to give me even more than that. And the person put me off. And it was a good friend of mine. And I knew the money would be there. But a lot of times, these guys are going to collect it at a certain time. And then they’re expecting to give it to somebody else. Well, he was short. So I said, look, I don’t have it right now, but I’ll have it tomorrow, I said, because I’m meeting somebody. Well, okay, it better be there. [12:31] And look, it’ll be there, okay? Not a problem. So the next day, the person I’m supposed to get it from says, I’ll have it in a couple of hours. I don’t have it right now, but I’ll have it by late this afternoon. And I’m in my office when Hale Smith calls me and I said, I’ll have it a little bit later. And he slams the phone bell. I’m downstairs in Counselor’s Row. In fact, I’m meeting with Butchie and Harry. We’re in a booth talking about something. They had just sent me some business or whatever, but I’m talking about something. And George, the owner of the restaurant, comes over and he says, somebody is asking who you are and they want to talk to you. And they point out this guy. It was a guy I had seen before, because a lot of times at two in the morning, I would go down on West Street, and they had entertainment upstairs. And there was this big English guy. He was an English guy, as you could tell by his accent, a real loud guy. And when I walk up to talk to him, and he’s talking loud enough so people can hear him, and he says, you better have that. I’m here for it. You better have that. You better have that money. [13:51] Bob Hellsmith sent me, you get the money and you better have that money or there’s going to be a problem or whatever. And I said, well, the money will be there, but people can hear what this guy, this guy talking that shit. And he leaves. And he leaves. He’s going to call me back. And he leaves. I said, I’m busy right now. I says, give me a call back when I’m in the office and I’ll meet with you. So Butch, he goes, what was that all about? And I said, you know, it’s somebody I owe some money to. Well, who is he? Who is he with? I said, Harold Smith. And he said, who’s Harold Smith? You don’t pay him anything. He said, you don’t pay him anything. And he calls, when he calls back, he says, you will arrange to meet him. And I said, you know, I said, well, where? [14:44] And they knew where I lived. They’d been to my place at that time. I’m living in Newberry Plaza and they said, there’s a, there’s a Walgreens drugstore in Chicago Avenue. Tell him you’ll meet him there at Walgreens, and we’ll take it. And he says, and we’ll take it from there. When he does call me, I said, look, I said, I’ll meet you tomorrow morning for sure at Walgreens. I’ll have the cash. I said, I’ll have the cash, and I’ll have all of it. I said, but, you know, I’m tied up on some things. I said, I’ll go to my own bank when I’m finished here and whatever, and I’ll see you tomorrow morning for sure at 9 o’clock tomorrow morning. Okay. I sit down with them and they just said, I said, they said, go there and go meet them. And we’ll take care of it. The Walgreens is a store right in the corner of Michigan Avenue and Chicago Avenue, south side of the street. And it’s all windows. Huge windows here. Huge windows here. And a bus stop, a bus stop over here. When I get there, I park in the bus stop and I’m looking to my right and here he is sitting in a booth by himself, right by the window. And I look around and I don’t see anybody. I mean, with a lot of people, I don’t see Butchie. [16:06] Uh or red or anybody around but i i go in there anyhow and uh sit down and i uh sit down in the booth across from him and he’s eating breakfast he’s got some food in front of him and uh the girl comes by right away the girl comes by and i says you know just get me a coke and and he says have you got the money and i said yes and why i got i got a lot i got a lot of money in my pocket but not the, whatever it was he wanted, not the 27 or 28,000. There’s nobody there. And, uh, so we’re talking for no more than about two or three minutes. They had a telephone on the counter. I hear the phone ring and the waitress, the waitress is on the phone. And then she comes walking over and she says, it’s a call for you. And, and when I go get in the phone, I woke up and there’s a phone booth there. And here’s Butchie in the phone booth. And he’s there with a couple of other people. I hang the phone up. I walk over and I had my appointment booked. And I walk over and I just pick up the book. And as I’m walking out there, walking in, we pass each other. And so now when I get in my car and he’s looking at me in my car and right next to him is Butchie. And across from him was a red old male and Fat Herbie. [17:34] Herbie Blitzstein? Herbie Blitzstein? No, it wasn’t Herbie. This is another one. That’s one thing of Herbie. We called Herbie Fat. It was Fat Herbie. And the third guy is like sitting facing him. This is like, that weighs about 300 pounds. Oh, Sarno. Make Mike Sarno. Mike Sarno. That was it. And that’s, that’s, that’s who it was. You know, and I, I drive off, go to my office and go about my business. I get a call later that day from, uh, Hale Smith. Where’s my money? Where’s my money? I said, I gave it to your guy. You what? I gave it to him. I met him at nine o’clock this morning and I gave him the money. You did. And I said, yeah. Um, okay. And he hangs, and he hangs up. I don’t hear anything for a while. I never saw him again. I saw Hale a couple of times because he was always in one of the other restaurants. I lived in Newberry right across from there, but he never talked to me. I never talked to him, never said anything. It was about maybe it had to be a good couple of months later, When I read about Hale, Hale’s no longer with us. [18:52] That’s obviously how they found out about him. I never saw the other guy again. I’m hoping they didn’t kill him, but I’m assuming that’s what probably happened to him. In a public place like that, they probably just scared him off. He probably said, you know, I’m way over my head. I’m out of here. [19:15] They didn’t kill him in the public place he wouldn’t have been in the newspapers my little thought is like with the three guys they took him for a ride, I don’t know they just told him to leave town and he realized what it was and he did Hal didn’t get a chance to leave town Hal had other problems if I remember right I’d have to look it back up but he had other problems with the outfit what I found out later what they had done, was they had gotten one of their guys connected with him to find out who his customers were. In other words, one of the other people that he didn’t realize, that Hale didn’t realize was with them, they got him connected with them where he’s the one who’s doing his collecting and finding out who the customers were because they wanted to get all his customers as well as his money. It turns out he was He was a huge bookmaker for years. That’s what happened to him. And they just took his book. Yeah, I remember something about that story because I killed him in his house, I believe. Yeah, Sally D. [20:22] Sally D, yeah. Sally D was one. When I first met Sally D, he was with Marco’s Fruit, too. [20:30] He owned a pizza place up on the north side, north shore, and I broke him. I was betting with him and beating him week after week. And one of the last times I played with him, he couldn’t come up with the money. It took him an extra couple of weeks to get the cash to pay me. But we were real close friends with him. He’s a bizarre character because he was a totally low level at that time. Yeah. When he then connected up with the Cicero crew, with Rocky and Felice, with Rocky and those people, he became a boss with them. It turns out it was after they killed Al Smith. He was part of all that. That’s Salih De Laurentiis. He’s supposed to be a boss. He moved on up after the Family Secrets trial. He didn’t go down with that, I believe, and he kind of moved on up after that. I don’t know what happened to him. What was so funny about that, when he would come into the club, Marco’s club, Bobby Abinati. [21:42] Who was strictly a very low-level player, although we indicted him with the Gambia star. He’s the one who set up the robbery. Would that have been great if that would have gone through? He’s the one who set up that robbery in Wisconsin. He’d be making fun of Salihide all the time. [22:03] When Salihide would come in, he would make fun of him and joke about him and talk about what a loser he was. This is when he’s a boss of that crew. I mean, just a strange, I mean, nobody talked to bosses like that, especially when, when you’re, when you’re what they call Bobby, you know, what was Marco’s nickname for Bobby Knucklehead? [22:23] That was his nickname, Knucklehead. Pat Marcy, uh, contacted me about, you know, handling me in the only own case. [22:32] I couldn’t have been happier because that was a short time after they put a contract on me. So now i realized if they’re going to be making money you know they finally stopped because for good six seven months when i when i came back to chicago uh i was checking under my car every day in case there was a bomb i moved i moved from uh from a place that i own in the suburbs into an apartment complex so i wouldn’t be living on the first floor yeah it’d be impossible to somebody to break into my, you know, took them thrashing into my place. I changed my whole life around in that sense. [23:10] And when I drove everywhere I went, you know, I would go on the highway and then jump over. I would do all, I wanted to make absolutes. Even though nobody came around, I wasn’t taking any chances for a long period of time. And that was too when it cost me a fortune because that’s when I stopped dealing with the bookmakers because I wasn’t going to be in a position where I had to go meet somebody at any time to collect my money and whatever. [23:39] So what had happened, though, was somebody came to see me. And when I was practicing, there’s a lot of things I wouldn’t do. I set my own rules. I would not get involved. After the Harry Alleman case, I never got involved anymore myself fixing certain cases. But even prior to that, I wouldn’t fix certain cases. I wouldn’t get involved in certain cases, especially involving the police, because my father was such a terrific policeman, and I felt I was too in a lot of sentences. I loved the police. I disliked some of the crooked cops that I knew, but on the surface, I’d be friendly with them, etc. Harry Ailman was a prolific hitman for the Elmwood Park crew. He killed a teamster who wouldn’t help set up trucks for the outfit, a guy named Billy Logan. He was just a regular guy. He’s going to take us right into the meeting with the judge. He’ll take us into a counselor’s row restaurant where these cases were fixed. Now, Bob will give us a seat right at Pat Marcy’s table. Now, Pat Marcy was the first ward fixture, and he’s going to take us into the hallway with Pat Marcy where they made the payoffs. [24:57] Now, Bob, can you take us inside the famous Harry Aileman murder case? I know you fixed it. And tell us, you know, and I know there was a human toll that this took on that corrupt judge, Frank Wilson. Okay. The Harry Aileman case was, it was not long after I became partners with Johnny DeArco. I get a call from, I’m in Counselor’s Row at the restaurant. Whenever I was in there now, my spot was the first ward table. Nobody was allowed to sit there day or night. That was reserved for first ward connected people and only the top group of people. [25:40] I’m sitting there at the table and Johnny DeArco Sr. Tells me, you know, Pat wants to talk to you. About something. And I said, you know, sure. Not long afterwards, Pat comes downstairs. We go out. We go out in the hall because we never talk at the table. And he tells me, have you got somebody that can handle the Harry Alleman case? I had seen in the news, he was front page news. He was one of the main mob hitmen. He was partners with Butchie Petrucelli. But it was common knowledge that he was a hitman. He looked like one. He dressed like one. He acted like one. And whatever. And he was one. In fact, he was the one that used to go to New York. And I know he also went to Arizona to do some hits and whatever. He traveled around the country. I said to Pat, they thought the case was a mob hit on a team street. a teamster. I assumed that it was just that. It was people doing what they do. But I said to Pat, I said, well, get me the file. Get me the file. Let me see what the case looks like. Because I would never put a judge in a bad spot. That was my nature. [27:06] When I had cases, a lot of these judges were personal friends of mine. What I would do, if I wanted to have a case, if I wanted to fix a case to save all the time of having to go to a damn long trial, I would make sure that it was a case that was winnable, easily winnable. When I got the file, when I got the file from Pat, he got me the file the next day. The next morning, when he came in, he gave me the file. I looked at the file. It was a throw-out case. When I say throw-out case, absolutely a nothing case. [27:46] The records in the file showed that a car drove up down the street. Suddenly somebody with a shotgun blasted a guy named Billy Logan in front of his house and drove away. They were contacted by a neighbor, this guy, Bobby Lowe. Was it Bobby Lowe? Yeah, I’m pretty sure Bobby Lowe. Who indicated that he opened the door and let his dog run out. And when he looked, he saw somebody. He saw a car, and he gave a description of the car. And he saw somebody pull up, and he saw him shoot with a shotgun. And then he saw the person get out of the car and shoot him with a .45, and shoot him with a .45. And then the car sped away. That was pretty much the case. Some other people heard some noise, looked out, and saw a car driving away. A period of time after that, it had to be about a year or so after that, somebody was arrested driving to Pennsylvania to kill somebody. There was a guy who stopped. [29:16] Louie Almeida was his name. Louie Almeida was stopped in his car. He was on the way to Pennsylvania. And in front of his car, he had shotguns. And he winds up, when he gets arrested, he winds up telling the authorities that he can tell them about a mob murder back in Chicago and winds up cooperating with them. He indicates what happened. He indicated that, you know, he was asked to, you know, or he got involved in it. He got the car and whatever. They did this. They did that. And he pulled up alongside Billy and wound up shooting the victim as he came out of the house. [30:09] Now, I look at some other reports in there, some reports that were made out, new reports. They talk about the Louis Almeida. They talk about the witness that gave the first statement. and they said that they found, or he’s giving us a new statement now where he says he’s walking his dog. He hears a shotgun. His dog runs towards the car where the shooting was coming from. He saw Harry get out of the car and walk over and shoot him, walk over and shoot the victim, and he was looking at him, And then he jumped in the bushes and the car drove away. A complete new story. Yeah. A complete new story. And. I looked at the reports, and this is an easy winner. And so I told Pat, you know, I’ll take it. You know, I’m sure I can handle it. I said, I’m sure I can handle it, but, you know, I’ll let you know. [31:21] That’s when I contacted, I met my restaurant, Greco’s, and I had Frank Wilson there a lot. Well, I called Frank Wilson, invited him and his wife to come to the restaurant. I had done that many times before. When he gets there, I tell him, I have the case. You know, I told him I was contacted on this case, I said. And I said, it’s an easy winner, I said. And I explained to him what it was. I told him, you know, it’s the driver of the car who’s doing this to help himself. And this other guy, Bobby Lowe, that gave a complete new story from the original story that he gave. And I indicated, you know, can you handle the case? And he tells me, I can’t handle the case, he said, because I was SOJ’d. In Chicago, Illinois, they have a rule that makes it easy for people to fool around because for no reason at all you can ask to have a judge moved off the case. And you can name a second judge that you don’t want to handle the case. [32:34] Frank Wilson’s reputation was as such that the lawyer that turned out to be a judge later on, Tom Maloney, who had the case, named him in the SOJ. It was assigned to somebody else, and he indicated he wanted any other judge except Frank Wilson. Frank Wilson on the case. And this was Harry Aileman’s lawyer. Yeah. Okay. And who Tom Maloney, who then ends up being the judge years later. But yeah. Well, because we knew he was going to be a judge. Yeah. We knew ahead of time. I knew at that time. That’s what makes the story so unbelievably interesting. Yeah. Anyhow, he says, I can’t do it because… In Chicago, in Chicago, it’s supposed to keep it honest. I love this. To keep it honest. Yeah. To keep it honest, each judge is supposed to be picked by computer. [33:33] Same thing they’re doing to this day. Trump wondered why the same judge kept getting all his cases. Because they’re doing the same thing we did, some of us could do in Chicago. He was the chief judge in the area. he said to me, I don’t think I can get the case. I don’t think I can’t get the case. I said, I’ll get the case to you. I said, I’ll get, because I already, I, in fact, through Pat Marcy, anytime I wanted a case to go anywhere, I would contact Pat and I’d give him a thousand dollars and he would get me any judge I wanted. Uh, I said, well, I think I can. I said, I said, And I gave him $1,000. [34:16] I said, here, this is yours. And if I can’t get the case to you, you keep it. If I can’t get, I never said to him, will you fix it? Will you this or that? I mean, he understood what it was. I didn’t know how he would react to it. When I asked him, would you handle it? Were the words I used. I had never fixed anything with him before. [34:43] In case he was, you know, he would want to report it to somebody. I wasn’t worried because Frank had a reputation as being a big drinker. After I got the Harry Elliman file, Pat tells me, I’m going to have somebody come and talk to you. Who comes? And we meet in the first ward office, and then we go downstairs into the special room they had for conversations. It’s Mike Ficarro. He’s the head of the organized crime section. He’s the one who prosecutes all the criminals. He’s one of the many prosecutors in Chicago. That’s why there were over 1,000 mob murders and never a conviction from the time of Al Capone. Not a single conviction with over 1,000 mob murders because they controlled absolutely everything. He’s the boss. [35:35] I knew him. I didn’t like him. He had an attitude about him. You know, when I would see him at parties and when I’d see him at other places, and I’d walk by and say, hi, he just seemed coldish. [35:47] I found out later why. He was jealous of the relationship I had with all these people. [35:54] He says, I’ll help you any way I can, anything you need, whatever. So the prosecutors on the Harry Olliman case were our people. That’s who’s prosecuting the case anyhow. But they couldn’t get one of their judges apparently who would handle the case. So, but anyhow, uh, so, uh, when we, um, when we go, when we, when we go to trial, um. [36:25] Before to help me out, I told Pat, I’ll get somebody else to handle the case. I’ll have somebody else. I said, I won’t go in there. I won’t go in there because everybody knows I’m close to Frank, very close to Frank. I said, so I won’t go in there. I’ll get somebody. He says, no, no. He said, I’ll get somebody. And so he gets a guy named Frank Whalen, who I didn’t know at the time. He was a retired lawyer from Chicago. He was one of the mob lawyers. [37:00] He was one of the mob lawyers. And he lived in Florida. He lived in Miami. I think it was, no, Lauderdale. He lived in the Lauderdale area. He was practicing there. So I fly out. I fly out to meet him. I i do all the investigating in the case the i’m using an investigator that harry alleman got from me in fact he was the same investigator that got in trouble in in uh in in hollywood for what for a lot of stuff i can’t think of his name right now but he’s the one who got indicted in hollywood eventually for you know wiretapping people and whatever it was the same one. And he got me information on Bobby on this Bobby Lowe. He found out Bobby Lowe, Bobby Lowe was a drug addict. [37:59] When the FBI got a hold of him, Bobby Lowe was living out in the street because he had been fired from his first job. He had a job in some kind of an ice cream company where they made ice cream, and he got fired there for stealing. And then he had a job after that in a gas station, and he faked a robbery there. Apparently, what he did was he called the police and said he had been robbed. This is before they had cameras and all the rest of that stuff. He said he had been robbed. And somebody happened to have been in the gas station getting gas. It was a big place, apparently. [38:45] And when the police talked to him, he said, I didn’t see anything strange. He said, I saw the attendant walk out to the back about 10, 15 minutes ago. I saw him walk out to the back of the place and then come back in. And so they go out, and he had his car parked behind it, and they found the money that was supposed to have been stolen in the car. So not the best witness, in other words. Well, that’s an understatement, because that was why… That was why now he suddenly shows up, and they know all this. The FBI agents that obviously know all this, that’s their witness. That’s their case. To me, it’s an airtight, you know. Yeah. Anyhow, I developed the defense. I went back to see Frank a second time. I flew out to Florida a second time, gave him all this information. [39:48] I had talked to some other people to a number of people that were going to indicate that Harry played golf with them that day see how they remembered not golf but he was at a driving range with them with about five people they remember what they were three or four years three or four years before that what I also found out now, and I didn’t know and it changed my whole attitude on that this wasn’t a mob killing you, This guy that he killed was married to his, I think it was his cousin or some relation was married. I’m pretty sure it was to his cousin. She had told Harry, I got this from Butchie, Butchie Petrosselli, who had become a close friend of mine after I got involved with Harry’s case, his partner. And that was why he killed them, because apparently the sister, his sister-in-law, whatever she was, had told him, you know, when he was beating her up, she had said, well, my Harry Alameda won’t be happy about this. And he said, supposedly, he said, fuck that, Kenny. [41:02] And that’s why the shooting took place. Wow. This changed me. You know, I’m in the middle of it. There’s no getting out of it now. Yeah, they’ll turn it back. And by now, I’m running around all the time with Butch and Mary at night. I’m meeting them at dinner. They’re coming to one of my places where I have dinners all the time. You know, I’m becoming like close friends, close friends with both of them. Yeah. So anyhow, but anyhow, the lawyer that he got, Frank Whalen, who was supposed to be sharp, turned out like he was not in his, let’s just say he was not in his prime. [41:46] Charitable. And when he went in, you know, while the trial was going on, you know, while the trial was going on, I get a call from Frank. From Frank Wilson, because I told him, you don’t come back into the restaurant now. You don’t come back into the restaurant. I used his office as my office all the time, along with a bunch of other judges. I had a phone, but it cost about a dollar a minute to talk on my phone. I had to talk on my phone. So when I’d be at 26th Street in the courthouse, even though no lawyers are allowed back there in the chamber, so I’m back there sitting at his desk using the phone taking care of my own other business. I stopped going in there while the trial was going on. [42:35] So, anyhow, he calls me, and he wants to meet me at a restaurant over on Western Avenue. And, okay, he called me from one of the pay phones out there in front of the courthouse, and I go to meet him. What did he want? Was he complaining about the lawyer, Waylon? What was he complaining about, Waylon? and I was screwing it up. [42:59] When I meet him, I said, you know, he’s like, you know, he said, you know, we go into the bathroom and he and he said he’s all shooken up. He says, this is going to cost me my job. He said, he said, you know, they’re burying him. You’re burying him. You know, because I had given this information on the two witnesses. And he says, Frank Whalen, he said, isn’t doing a thing and cross-examining these people and whatever. [43:32] And he says, and he’s all upset. And I said, Frank, no, I’m shook up one of the few times in my life where it’s something I can’t handle. He had never told me, you know, I’ll fix the case, never. And I said to him, and I said, Frank, I said, if something goes wrong, I said, I’m sure they’re going to kill me, is what I said to him. Yeah. I said, if something goes wrong, I’m sure they’re going to kill me. And I left. I left the bathroom. Now, I have no idea what’s going on in his mind and whatever. Yeah. I see Pat the next day. And by something goes wrong in this case, you mean if he gets found guilty, that’d be what would go wrong and you would get killed. Is that that’s what you mean? Well, no question, because when I met, I didn’t go into that. I met with Harry Alleman. I get a call after I got involved in the case. A couple days later, I get a call from Markle. Meet me at one of the nightclubs where I was all the time at night with these people. [44:47] Above it, you’ve got a motel, a bunch of hotel rooms. I get a call from Markle. The reason everybody loved me and the mob, I never discussed what I was doing with anybody or any of the other dozens of mobsters I run with that I was involved in Harry’s case. Never said a word to anybody about any of this. That was my nature, and that’s why all these people love me. I never talked about one thing with anybody else or whatever. He says, I want to meet you. When I get over there, he says, let’s go upstairs. Somebody wants to talk to you. And we go upstairs, and there’s Harry Alleman. And Harry, how you doing? How are you? [45:27] And he says, listen, you’re sure about this? And I said, yeah. I said, I’m sure. And he said, well, if something goes wrong, you’re going to have a problem. Those were his words to me. You’re going to have a problem. And I said, you know, he says, because this judge, he says, this judge is a straight judge. And he said, Tom, you mean Tom Maloney. He says, and Tom wants to handle my case. And he tells me he’s going to be named a judge by the Supreme Court real soon. And he wants to handle and he wants to handle my case before he… Uh, you know, before he becomes a Supreme court, before he becomes a judge, I knew the moment he told me that I knew for sure that was the case because we control everything, including the Supreme court. I said, you know, I said, don’t, you know, don’t worry about it. I lied to him. And I said, uh, I said, yeah, the judge is going to, I said, yeah, he’s going to throw it out. He knows, I said, he knows what’ll happen if he doesn’t. That’s what I told Harry. I want to keep him happy. [46:34] I’m going to keep him happy probably for a few hours I’m a little nervous and then that’s all behind me like so many other problems I got in the middle of oh my god talking about walking a tightrope so now the lawyer came into Chicago he was in Chicago I met him when he came in he was staying at the Bismarck was at the Bismarck Hotel right around the corner from you know where Counselor’s Row was that’s where he was staying in the in the hotel right there by the first board office and there was a way to go in there without being seen and there was a, You go through another restaurant and you go through the alley and go up there. And I wouldn’t, I didn’t want to be seen walking into there because I know the FBI are probably, are probably watching and whatever. When he comes into town, they handle the case. So I go upstairs to see him. You know, I said, what the hell’s going on in court? He says, I’m going, it’s going great. It’s going great. I said, it’s going great. I just, you know, I just got a call last night. I had to go meet the judge. And he said, you’re not doing any cross-examining. Oh, I’m doing a great job. You know, I’m doing a great job. So after a few minutes of, I leave. Yeah. [47:52] That’s when I saw Pat Marcy, too. And I said, Pat, I said, the judge is upset about whatever’s going on. I said, maybe we should give him some more because I agreed to give him $10,000. And he said, you know, what a piece of work he is. You know, he said $10,000, and that’s all he’s going to get, not a nickel more or whatever. So now to say I’m nervous again is an ultra statement. The case, I walked over, and I wouldn’t go in the room, but I wanted to just be around that room for some reason. FBI agents all over the place. [48:30] FBI agents all over the place. And so now I’m at home and I’m packed. I’ve got my bags packed because if he finds it, I don’t know what he’s going to do. I’m worried he might find him guilty because of all that had happened. He, when the trial ended a given night, and the next day he was going to give the result. In fact, I didn’t go out and play that night. I was a little nervous, and I stayed home, and I packed up my bags. I packed up my bags, and about 9 o’clock, I got in the car, and I started driving. And by the time he gave the ruling, I was probably about 100, maybe 150 miles away. And I hear on the radio, you know, found him not guilty, found him not guilty. So I turn around. Hit the next exit, turn around and come back. I turn around. Northbound on I-55. [49:27] Probably a couple hours later, here I am parked in my parking spot. My parking spot was in front of my office, right across from City Hall. And I parked in the mayor’s spot when she wasn’t there. And drove probably to drive her crazy. But that was where I parked. That was my parking spot. We’d see my big car with the RJC license plates parked in the bus stop. And so here I am. I parked the car and I go in. I go in. [50:01] And I’m sure Pat told some people, probably not, but I’m sure they told all the mobsters, all the top mobsters, because these guys all wanted to meet me afterwards and get the restaurant. I go in to see them. We walked into the janitor’s closet. You walk out of Counselor’s Row. You go to the left. It goes into the 100 North Building. Now, you’ve got the elevators to the right. And behind that, you’ve got a closet where the janitors keep all their stuff. And you’ve got some stairs leading up to the, there was a, what do you call it? There was an office there where the commodities, big commodity exchange was right there. that there was a stairway leading up to where the offices were with some doors with bars and everything on it. And Pat is standing on those stairs, about two or three stairs. You know, I said, wow. I said, you know, everybody’s going nuts. And he goes, well, you know, you did a good job. And he gives me an envelope. He gives me an envelope. And, you know, I put the money in my pocket. [51:09] We said we had some more. We said a couple other words about, you know, this and that. And then I just go in there. I go back in the counselor’s. [51:21] Now, after the feds started getting indictments, did you try and warn the Aleman case judge, Frank Wilson? Why did you do that? And when I went to see Frank Wilson, I went to help him. I said, Frank, I said, look, I said, I was contacted by, I said, I was contacted by the, by the, by the FBI. They were investigating the Harry Aleman case. I said to him, I said, they, they feel the case was fixed. I said, when they come to see me, I said, you know, I said, I’m not going to talk to them. I said, I’m not going to talk to them. I’m going to take the fifth. And in your case, you can do the same thing. When they, if they come to talk to you, you just take the fifth amendment. If they give you immunity, I said, you know, then you, then you testify, but you tell them the truth. I said, don’t worry about me. Tell them the truth. This is how I talk to him. When I’m talking to him like that, it’s almost like he’s trying to run away from me. [52:27] We’re at a restaurant in a big complex. It was in one of those resorts in Arizona. He’s all but running away from me. I was trying to help him. What I said to him was, Frank, I said, the statute of limitations ran on all this. It’s been more than five years. There’s nothing they can do to you or to me, I said, because the statute ran. I said, so don’t lie to them. What the feds were concerned about, and I don’t know why, that he would deny ever fixing the case when it went through. I don’t know why they’re worried about that, but they were, and I didn’t want to see him get in trouble. [53:13] That’s why I went there to protect him. Hey, Bob, you were asked to represent an outfit associate or an outfit associate’s son who was accused of breaking the jaw of a Chicago policewoman. And you know, when a cop is injured in a fight with somebody, the cops follow that case. And I do not want to see any shenanigans going on. So, so tell us about how you walked that line. And I bet those cops were, were not happy with you in the end. Some people think this is a reason you flipped. Take us inside that case, will you? [53:45] And the reason I mentioned that it had a lot to do with what I eventually did. Now we’ll get back to what made me do what I was going to do. When I was practicing law now, and now I have been away from all this for years, I was out of town a lot because I’m representing the Chinese all around the country. I’m their main lawyer right now. [54:10] And I get a call from Lenny Colella. And he says, my son, he said, my son is in trouble. I want to come in and I want to talk to you about handling his case. This was a heater case, too. This was a front page case because he was charged with aggravated battery and attempted murder. Supposedly, he had beat up a policewoman and it was all over the place. He was a drug addict and whatever, supposedly he did all this. And when he came into the office with his dad, he was high. When I talked to him, he’s got his kid with him. And the kid is a smart aleck. As we’re talking, the kid, and I asked the kid, well, whatever. The kid was a smart aleck. And I just said to him, I said, Len, I can’t help you. I said, get him out of here. I want nothing to do with him. I said, I can’t help you. You didn’t take cases that were involved with cops anyhow, for the most part. No. I didn’t know what had happened in this case. I know what I saw in the paper. I didn’t know what the facts or anything were or whatever. I mean, if it turned out that if I felt when I talked to him that he had done it, whatever, I would not have taken the case anyhow. [55:26] I mean, I would not have. That’s why I say, too, that may be, too, why I was as quick and as rude as I was when he came in there and was acting and was a little bit high. I just wanted nothing to do with him, period. I said to his dad, his father said, you know, if I get him cleaned up, you know, I said, well, if you get him cleaned up, then we’ll talk again. I said, but I can’t help him, and I can’t help him. [55:54] And off he goes. the father re-contacted me about a week later. And he said, I had him in rehab and he straightened out and whatever. And he brought him back in and it was a new person. And when he told me the facts of the case, when he told me what happened, because he was a big, tough kid. He was a big, you know, he was a weightlifter, but he was a big, tough looking kid. [56:19] And it’s a little police woman. When he told me what happened, I believed him. Because I’ve been out in the street and whatever. And he says, you know, he told me what happened, that he had gotten stopped. He was out there talking to her. And when she said, you’re under arrest for DUI, he just walked. He says, I walked. I was going to get in my car and drive away. And she grabbed me and was pulling me or whatever. And I hear all these sirens coming. And within a few minutes, there’s all kinds of police. There’s about half a dozen police there. He says, and then they started jumping on me. He said, she was under me. He was all beaten up. He was all bloody and whatever. And she apparently had her jaw broken. And there’s no doubt in my mind when he’s telling me that, you know, when they were hit with his clubs or with this thing that they claimed he had without his fingerprints, it was a metal bar. Right, a slapper. A chunk of lead covered by leather. Everybody used to carry a slapper. How about you carry a slapper? They claimed, but there was no cloth on this. It was just the metal itself. Yeah, oh really? [57:45] Anyhow, that makes it interesting during the trial when they flat out lied. No, he had no blood. I got the hospital reports. They wouldn’t take him in the station because he was too badly beaten up. But anyhow, he also had two other charges. He had been involved in a fight in a bar. And he had been involved in another situation with the police. And he was charged with resisting arrest and battery on a policeman out in Cicero. So he had these three cases. So I gave the father a fee on handling, you know, the one, I was going to, I gave him a fee one case at a time. I said, you know, first thing we’ll do, I want to get rid of those other two cases. I’ll take them to juries, I said. [58:36] I’ll take them to juries because I wasn’t going to put them. I knew both the judges on those cases, but I wasn’t going to put them in a position on a case like that. I take the first case to trial. And I get him a not guilty. That was the fight in the bar. [58:54] That was out in one of the suburbs. That was out in, I’m not sure which suburb, in the northwest side. After we get that case over with, before that case, I get a call from Pat Marcy. Pat Marcy, I hadn’t seen him probably even for a couple months, but I hadn’t talked to him for quite a long period of time. And he says to me, you got a case that just came in. He said, we’re going to handle it. And I said, there’s no need, Pat. I said, I can win these cases. I said, there’s no need. I can win these cases. And he said, we’re going to handle this. The case is going to go to Judge Passarella, he said, and we’ll take care of it. I said, Pat, there’s no need to. I said, I can win these cases. I said, they’re all jury trials, but I know I can win them all. And he says, you do as you’re told. Pat had never talked to me like that before. [59:54] Powerful as he was and crazy as I am, And he never, you know, you never demand that I do anything or whatever. We had a different type relationship. And although I hadn’t broken away from them by now, it’s been years. I had broken away from them for about, you know, two, three years. And he says, you know, take the case to trial. I said, well, he’s got some other cases, too, and I’m going to take the one. And she says, I’ll take it to a jury, and I’ll win it. You’ll see how I win it. I take her to trial, and I get her not guilty. The second case was set for trial about a month after that. Not even, yeah, about a month or so after that. And during that time, a couple of times I’m in counselors, and Pat says, when are you going to take the case to trial? I said, well, Pat, you know, I won the one case. I got the other case on trial, and it was before Judge Stillo. He was a judge that we eventually indicted. [1:00:51] Stillo was very, very well connected to the first ward. He’s one of the old-time judges out in Maywood. And I told him, you know, when I came in there, he assumed I’d take it to trial and he’d throw it out. And I said, no, no, no, there’s no need to. I says, I’m going to take the jury on this one. Number one, I had stopped fixing things long before this. And, but he was, to make money, he was willing that he would have thrown the case out. It was a battery with a Cicero policeman. And I says, no, no, I’ll take it. I’ll take it to, you know, I’ll take the jury. I said, I don’t want to put you in that pursuit. Oh, don’t worry about me. I take that one to trial and I win that one too. Now Pat calls me, when the hell are you going to take the case to trial? And that’s the original case with the police woman. That’s the main one. The main one. Okay, go ahead. [1:01:44] When are you going to take it to trial? And I don’t want to take it to trial. In fact. I had talked to the prosecutor, and I said, look, I said, because he was charged with, he was charged with, you know, attempted murder and arrest. I said, if you’ll reduce it, the prosecutor was an idiot. He knew me, should have realized that, you know, that I never lose cases. Yeah. You know, but I want to work out something. He was a special prosecutor on it. He said, we’re not going to reduce it. We said, you know, if you want to work out a plea, we went five years, we went five to ten or whatever in the penitentiary. And I said, well, that’s not going to happen. I said, well, then we’ll just have to go to trial. So now, while I’m at Counselor’s Row, on one of my many occasions, because I was still having some card games over there at somebody else’s other lawyer’s office, because I had had big card games going on there for years. I’m sitting at the counselor’s row table, and Judge Passarella comes in. There’s just him and me there, and when he comes in, I say, Oh, you’re here to see Pat? [1:02:56] And he goes, Pat, who? No more conversation. Who the fuck? No more. The guy’s treating me like I’m some kind of a fool or whatever. And I developed an instant disliking to him. I had never seen him around that much or whatever before that. So now, after the second case, you’re going to go to, you know. So I talked to Lenny. When Lenny came in, Lenny came in with him when we were starting to get prepared for the case. And, oh, this is before this is before I talked to the prosecutor. And I said, Lenny, I said, I says, if I can get it reduced to a misdemeanor, to a misdemeanor. I said, you know, can we work with, you know, and work out a plea, let’s say, for maybe a month or two, you know, a month or two. Is that OK with you? Oh, sure. He says, oh, sure. [1:03:57] Now, this Lenny, this was the kid’s dad, your client’s dad. This is his dad. Now, explain who he was, who Lenny was. His dad was. What’s his last name? Yeah, Karela. Karela, okay. Lenny Karela, I’m pretty sure was his name. He owned a big bakery out there in Elmwood Park area. Okay. And he was friendly with all the mobsters. Okay, all right. I got you. For all I knew, he may have been a mobster himself, but I mean, he may have been because we had thousands of people that were connected. He was a connected guy. All right, go ahead. I’m sorry. And he said, oh, yeah, sure, no, not a problem because the papers are meant, they’re still, after a year, they’re still mentioning that case will be going to trial soon and every so often. [1:04:43] What I had also done, I tried to make contact with the policewoman, not with her, but I put the word out and I knew a lot of police and I got a hold of somebody that did know her. And I said, look, I said, no, the case is fixed if I want it. Yeah. But I don’t want it. Even though I know that, you know, that it’s all BS, you know, I said, look, I said, get a hold of her and get a hold of her lawyer and tell them if they want to file a lawsuit, you know, you know, we can, they can get themselves some money on it. Uh, you know, he’ll indicate, you know, he’ll, he’ll, he’ll indicate that, you know, he, he was guilty or whatever, but I wanted to get her some money. The word I get back is tell him that piece of shit, meaning me to drop dead, to drop dead. You know, we’re going to put this guy in prison and that’s where he should be too. When the case now, now when the case goes to trial. [1:05:48] The coppers lied like hell and talk about stupid. I’ve got the police reports there. When they took him into the police station, they wouldn’t take him. The station said take him to a hospital. He goes to the hospital and the reports, you know, bleeding here, bleeding there, and, you know, marks here, marks there. They beat the hell out of him. [1:06:10] You know, nobody touched him. You know, nobody touched him. Nobody touched him. Was he bleeding? No, no, he wasn’t. He wasn’t bleeding. Didn’t have any, you know, along with, you know, along with everything else. Flat out lied. How many policemen were there? There were two or three. There were about 10 by the time it’s over. But it’s an absolute throwout. Any fingerprints on that metal? Well, we had some fingerprints, but not his. And on and on it went. It’s a throwout case to start with. The courtroom now where the case was, was very interesting. You walk in there, and when you walk in there, there’s about 20 people that can sit. And then there’s, it’s the only courtroom in the building where you have a wall, a glass wall, all the way up, all the way up. Covering in the door, opens up and goes in there. You go in there. It’s a big courtroom. A bunch of benches now in there. You go to the left, and here’s the judge’s chambers. You come out of the chambers, and you walk up about four steps. And here the desk is on like a podium. And it’s not where all the others are, you know, where you look straight forward. It’s over on the side. It’s over, you know, to the left as you walk out of his chambers. [1:07:40] When the judge listens to the case he goes in there I’ll come up back with my ruling he comes out about 10 minutes later he walks up the steps, And now he turns off the microphone. Somebody turns off the microphone so the people in the back can’t hear anything. The ones inside there can, you know, can hear. The one back there can’t hear anything because it’s all enclosed. [1:08:11] That’s why they got the microphone back there. Somebody shut it off. He says, basically, I’m not guilty in a real strange voice. And all but runs off the all but run and don’t ask me why this is what he did all but runs off all but runs off into the into his chambers, you know he’s afraid all those cops out in the audience were going to come and charge the stand I guess and put a whack on him. [1:08:43] But think about it this is Chicago he’s with the bad guys but I’m just saying I don’t know why he did all that, but that’s what he did. And so now, as I come walking out with Mike, and they’re all in uniform, and most of them are in uniform, and then you’ve got the press and all kinds of cameras and whatever there. And as I come walking out along with him, some of these guys I know, and these jerk-offs are like calling me names and whatever. I go, I go see Pat. [1:09:23] And when I go back into Counselor’s Row now, he’s there at the table. And when I come in, it’s a repeat of the Harry Allerman thing. He walks out. He walks directly. And I’m following him, and he walks in. He goes back into the same janitor’s closet and stands on the same steps just above me, you know, talking to me. And I said to him I said this judge is going to have a problem, I said, he’s going to have a problem. I said, what if he says something? And he said to me, nobody would dare. He said, nobody would dare cooperate against us. They know what would happen. Or words to that effect. And don’t ask me why. So many other things had happened before this. But now I’m looking at him and I’m thinking, you know, somebody’s got to stop this craziness. All this stuff. I’m thinking that at the moment, but then I’m worried for some reason, I think he can read my mind. [1:10:34] Stupid as all of this seems, I’m afraid to think that anymore. I’m almost, you know, cause Pat’s such a powerful person and every sense I know, I know his power, but anyhow, so I leave. And like I say, 10, 15 minutes later, that’s all forgotten about. He paid me the rest of the money I was supposed to get from them. [1:10:56] Obviously, he wanted to do it because he was probably charging a lot of money. That’s why he didn’t want me to take things. He wanted to collect the money because while the case was going on too, he puts me in touch with the head of the probation department because he was able to help in some way. He knew some of the, you know, some of the, some of the policemen involved in the thing had been contacted too. Yeah. But they were contacted and they messed up by, you know, they messed up by lying about all that. Yeah. When there’s police reports saying, oh, no, but anyhow, that was that particular case. Tell us why you decided to flip. [1:11:38] These had been your friends. You knew you had explosive information. You knew as a lawyer, you knew what you had to say would send these people to prison for many, many years. if not life. It had to be hard. As other things happened, why did I commit the, Probably two or three other times things happened. But the most important thing was to think when my dad was dying, and I was very close to my dad. When my dad was dyi

Christine grew up in a broken home marked by chaos, pain, and deep childhood wounds. For years she carried labels like unwanted, broken, and alone. But even when she couldn't see Him, Jesus was with her through every valley. In this powerful testimony, Christine shares how God met her, healed her heart, restored her identity, and showed her she was created on purpose and deeply loved.Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Credits:Testimony by Christine SempleDirected by Darvin RamirezInterviewed by Jenifer LopezEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in PennsylvaniaDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Introduction00:21 Viewer Discretion00:26 A Chaotic Childhood01:37 My Father Takes His Life03:44 Being Put into the Foster Care System06:46 Believing I Was a Mistake08:24 Being Admitted into a Drug Rehab09:50 Meeting Brother Dave13:07 Getting in Trouble with the Law15:25 Finding Work After Being Incarcerated17:45 Marital Troubles and Infertility21:20 Leaving My Marriage, Dabbling with Buddhism26:09 The Lord Restores My Marriage29:22 My Uncle's Facebook Post33:03 Giving My Life to Jesus36:18 The Lord Walks Me Through My Past38:42 My Relationship with My Uncle Today40:52 Asking God For Signs44:21 Knowing that I'm God's Daughter50:15 A Question that Haunted Me51:38 Knowing God's Forgiveness and Forgiving Others53:54 Finding Hope and Healing in Jesus58:53 Update on Brother Dave59:49 My Relationship with My Mother Today1:02:30 A Message to My Mother1:03:16 Who is Jesus to You?1:03:49 Prayer1:07:24 Final WordsI Believed I Was a MISTAKE, Until JESUS Said THIS to Me

Elinor grew up in a home filled with pain, betrayal, and silence. Abused by those she trusted most, she carried deep wounds and shame for years—until Jesus met her and turned her pain into purpose. Today, she boldly shares her story of healing, forgiveness, and redemption.Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with ElinorEmail ⇨ Elinor.ray504@gmail.comInstagram ⇨ https://www.instagram.com/rayodeluz504/Credits:Testimony by Elinor RayDirected by Darvin RamirezInterviewed by Jenifer LopezEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in New Orleans, LouisianaDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Introduction00:21 Warning 00:26 Why Share My Testimony01:07 Being Sexually Abused as a Child03:55 Telling My Parents About the Abuse06:27 Groomed by My Grandmother, Abused By My Uncle13:52 Questioned by Authorities About My Uncle20:17 Realizing I Had Been Sexually Abused22:51 Going to Church with My Neighbor 25:03 Running Away as a Teenager28:53 Giving My Life to Jesus35:03 What's Kept Me Saved36:57 No Longer Seeing Myself as a Victim40:19 Growing in My Relationship with God43:53 My Dad Gives His Life to Jesus46:27 Being Filled with the Holy Spirit in My Car49:45 Realizing God's Calling on My Life 52:08 Going to Bible College in New Orleans54:05 The Lord Leads Us into Foster Care1:01:10 Parenting Over 95 Foster Kids in 5 Years1:04:51 Realizing the Blood of Jesus is For Everyone 1:08:11 Forgiving My Grandmother1:16:31 Telling My Father About the Abuse 1:21:35 Who is Jesus to You?1:23:30 Prayer1:35:52 Final WordsJESUS Healed Me from Sexual Abuse (Testimony #312)Elinor Ray Testimony

Former News Anchor Charged with Murder After Allegedly Stabbing and Killing Her 80-Year-Old Mother - https://people.com/former-news-anchor-charged-with-murder-after-allegedly-stabbing-elderly-mother-11841839Escaped monkey captured by authorities days after truck crash flips vehicle in Mississippi - https://www.foxnews.com/us/escaped-monkey-captured-authorities-days-after-truck-crash-flips-vehicle-mississippiAndrew Mountbatten Windsor now in a ‘living hell' after King Charles sends him into exile - https://nypost.com/2025/10/31/entertainment/prince-andrew-now-in-a-living-hell-after-king-charless-explosive-statement/Duane Roberts -- the billionaire businessman credited with inventing the frozen burrito -- has died - https://www.tmz.com/2025/11/02/duane-roberts-frozen-burrito-inventor-dead/Old-School Frozen Foods No One Really Eats Anymore - https://www.thetakeout.com/1946620/old-school-frozen-foods-disappeared/Buzz Aldrin's Wife, Anca, Cause of Death Revealed by Friend - https://www.newsweek.com/buzz-aldrin-wife-anca-faur-dies-cancer-battle-10964936I Tried the Viral Bird Theory to Test the Strength of My Relationship - https://theeverygirl.com/bird-theory/Winn becomes youngest Cardinal to win Gold Glove Award - https://www.mlb.com/news/masyn-winn-wins-first-career-gold-glove-awardFollow The Rizzuto Show @rizzshow on all your favorite social media, including YouTube, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, TikTok, and more. Connect with The Rizzuto Show online at 1057thepoint.com/RizzShowSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Brian was a one percenter gang member who lived a life of violence, addiction, and prison sentences—until Jesus met him in the darkest place. Facing a 40-year prison sentence, completely abandoned and broken, Brian cried out to God for the first time. What happened next changed everything.Watch Pastor Andy's Testimony here ⇨ https://youtu.be/mOz-dxseQXUSupport our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Brian:Instagram ⇨ https://www.instagram.com/disciple_of_christ_33/Facebook ⇨ https://www.facebook.com/brian.lecroy.549047Credits:Testimony by Brian LecroyDirected by Darvin RamirezInterviewed by Jenifer LopezEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in New Orleans, LouisianaDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Introduction00:21 Viewer Discretion00:26 Raised by a Single Mom01:41 I Start Selling Drugs for Gangs at Age 1202:38 Going to Prison as a Teen04:16 Joining the One Percenter Gang at Age 2105:16 Facing 40 Years in Prison08:04 Hitting Rock Bottom12:46 Crying Out to God for the First Time16:30 Changing My Prayer to God22:16 A Corona Deal 25:52 Realizing the Streets Have No Loyalty27:52 Joining the New Orleans Mission34:41 The Prayer that Changed Everything for Me36:42 Praying for Someone for the First Time39:28 My Pastor Offers Me a Job40:53 Reconciling with My Family42:03 God Gives Me a New Family 44:09 My Relationship with My Dad Today 46:17 To Mothers with Sons in the Streets50:57 Who is Jesus to You? 51:40 Prayer55:46 Final WordsFormer ONE PERCENTER Gives His Life to JESUS! (Testimony #311)Brian Lecroy Testimony

From a childhood marked by trauma, sexual abuse, and deep resentment toward the church, Pastor Todd's journey is one of unimaginable brokenness — until Jesus stepped in. After years of running, addiction, and homelessness, God met him in the most unexpected places and began a radical work of healing and restoration. This powerful testimony of redemption will awaken your hope in the God who restores all things.Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Credits:Testimony by Todd HoltsDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric Villatoro Edited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in Houston, TexasDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Chapters00:00 Merch Update01:42 Viewer Discretion01:44 Growing Up as a Pastor's Kid07:41 Seeing the Church Mistreat My Dad10:13 Becoming Frustrated with My Dad and the Church16:02 Being Sexually Abused as a Child22:32 More Sexual Brokenness24:16 Being Reintroduced to Jesus Through a Friend29:31 Hearing God's Voice in a Trap House32:15 The Lord Begins to Restore My Life35:56 The Lord Calls Me into Ministry39:38 My First Marriage Falls Apart42:43 The Lord Begins to Restore Me Again47:25 Meeting My Current Wife and Pastoring Again48:17 Seeing God Move Through Sharing My Testimony53:38 Living to Simply Love People56:01 Who is Jesus To You?58:14 Prayer1:00:43 My Relationship with My Dad Today1:03:50 Final WordsFrom Sexual Abuse, Church Hurt, and Homelessness to Following JESUS! (Testimony)Todd Holts Testimony

Once known as Boonk Gang—a viral sensation for chaos and crime—John Hill Jr. now goes by Holy Gabbana, a bold voice for Jesus Christ. In this raw and unfiltered testimony, he shares how an encounter in a jail cell, a near-death experience of a friend, and the love of God pulled him from darkness into a life of purpose, healing, and truth. Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Holy Gabbana:Instagram ⇨ https://www.instagram.com/holygabbanaFacebook ⇨ https://www.facebook.com/holygabbanaTwitter ⇨ https://www.twitter.com/holygabbanaTikTok ⇨ //www.tiktok.com/@holygabbanaYouTube ⇨ https://www.youtube.com/@holygabbanaWebsite ⇨ www.HolyGabbana.comCredits:Testimony by Holy GabbanaDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric Villatoro Edited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Production Assistant: Darvin RamirezTestimony Recorded in Gaithersburg, MarylandDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Chapters00:00 Introduction00:22 Introducing Holy Gabbana02:00 Turning to the Streets to Cope with Loss as a Child03:36 Going Viral in 5 Months10:25 Why I Wanted to Be Famous14:46 Hiding My Brokenness Behind Fame19:30 Getting Arrested, Facing Three Years in Prison25:44 Spending Five Months in Prison28:16 My Cellmate Tells Me About Jesus36:50 Encountering the Holy Spirit in My Cell 41:20 Dabbling in New Age Witchcraft47:27 A Close Friend Has a Near Death Experience52:12 Surrendering My Life to Jesus55:29 What Drives Me Today to Use My Platform for Jesus57:41 The Healing Process 1:03:35 Sanctification and Bringing My Emotions to Jesus 1:07:50 My Relationship with My Mom Today1:12:44 A Message to My Mom and Dad 1:16:59 Who is Jesus To You?1:18:57 Prayer 1:21:10 Update on My Cellmate1:22:53 Final WordsFrom Robbing, Scamming, and Chaos to Preaching the Gospel! (MUST WATCH)Holy Gabbana Testimony

Watch Eric's Testimony here ⇨ https://tinyurl.com/akmzn5atWatch Juan Carlos' Testimony here ⇨ https://tinyurl.com/yy3d6xeeWatch Jonathan's Testimony here ⇨ https://tinyurl.com/4nee49msWatch Kelia's Testimony here ⇨ https://tinyurl.com/3yfazvufWatch Testimonios Delafé here ⇨ https://tinyurl.com/bd8mcapzSupport our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Darvin:Email ⇨ rdarvin50@gmail.comInstagram ⇨ https://www.instagram.com/raddarv/Credits:Testimony by Darvin RamirezDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric Villatoro Edited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Production Assistant: Darvin RamirezTestimony Recorded in Gaithersburg, MarylandDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Introduction00:21 Growing Up in a Christian Household02:23 Growing Up in a Pentecostal Church03:38 Being Exposed to Pornography Very Young05:19 Growing Up in Church, But Not Knowing God 06:30 Seeds of Rejection Planted in Middle School07:53 Starting to Abandon My Christian Upbringing09:58 The Break-Up15:29 Trying What the World Had to Offer19:34 Going to a Bible Study with My Girlfriend23:39 I Start Going to the Bible Study By Myself 28:55 Giving My Life to Jesus35:57 Falling into Sin and Burning Out40:05 Cheating on My Girlfriend43:24 Falling Back into Pornography45:28 Drifting Further Away from God After Getting Married48:51 The Lord Convicts My Wife 50:50 The Night that Changed Our Marriage Forever 53:57 Pursuing Jesus Wholeheartedly as a Couple57:47 My Wife and I Step into Ministry Again59:32 God Tells Me to Quit My Job1:04:31 Joining the Delafé Team1:07:24 Seeing God Move All Over the World 1:09:15 What's Stopping Me from Falling Back into Temptation1:11:28 My Relationship with My Mom Today1:14:37 My Relationship with My Dad Today1:16:17 Who is Jesus to You?1:17:19 Prayer1:19:49 Final WordsI Ran Away from GOD for YEARS, Until THIS Happened…

 In this episode of The Sophisticated Ratchet Podcast, the crew dives deep into the emotional rollercoaster of "spinning the block"—aka giving an ex another shot. The tribe keeps it raw and relatable as they share personal stories of rekindled romances, from vacation flings to unresolved heartbreaks. The squad dissects the red flags of revisiting old flames, like whether family apologies matter in reconciliation or if unresolved issues are just time bombs waiting to go off. They also spill on the subtle signs that an ex might be trying to creep back into your life—are they genuinely interested or just bored? The conversation heats up with celebrity comparisons, analyzing high-profile rekindled romances like Ben Affleck & JLo's love story versus Ashanti & Nelly's unexpected reunion. Are these fairytale endings proof that love deserves a second chance, or cautionary tales about repeating past mistakes? But it's not all about love—things get spicy when the crew debates body counts, physical attraction, and deal breakers in relationships. Plus, they get creative with business ideas inspired by relationships and wrap it all up with their signature “Ratchet Fire” game, where no topic is off-limits. Whether you're considering spinning the block with your ex or firmly leaving them in the past, this episode is packed with hilarious anecdotes, sharp insights, and thought-provoking takes that'll make you rethink love and second chances. We want to hear from you! Do you have a topic request, a question, or want to be a guest? Hit us up at SophisticatedlyRatchet@gmail.com LISTEN, FOLLOW, AND RATE

In the final episode of the #teakink Power Miniseries, Eva Oh unpacks the intricate relationship between money and power in domination. From her early survival mindset to financial stability, she reflects on how her understanding of wealth has evolved—and whether the one paying is truly the one in control. Does money dictate power, or is it all about perception? With insights on findom, greed, and the illusions wealth creates, this episode challenges conventional ideas about financial dominance and self-worth.Watch on YouTube: https://youtube.com/evaohMore on Eva Oh: https://eva-oh.comHIGHLIGHTS:Here are the timestamps for the episode. On some podcast players you should be able to click the timestamp to jump to that time.(00:00) - Welcome. What is #teakink(00:21) - Power Miniseries III: Money(01:06) - My Relationship to Money Pre-Domination(02:00) - Findom was Not a Category(02:55) - My Evolution from Survival to Wealth(04:20) - What is ‘Real'? Lifestyle vs Professional Domination(06:55) - Does the Person Paying Have the Power?(09:15) - The Power of Perspective(10:50) - How My Understanding of Money Has Changed Over Time(13:10) - Wealth Does Not Correlate to Quality of Personhood(19:20) - Money, Existential Anguish, Greed and Weakness(21:40) - The Miniseries Format Experiment

Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Estella:Facebook ⇨ https://www.facebook.com/share/15pCV3CVLw/Credits:Testimony by Estella EspinozaDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric Villatoro Edited By David Pauta and Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in Orlando, FloridaDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Growing Up in a Broken Home03:18 Paranormal Activity in My Home 09:17 Losing My Virginity at 1312:33 Developing an Eating Disorder14:34 Getting into a Relationship and Using Drugs19:26 Turning to Jesus During a Drug Run24:30 Deciding to Get Married32:12 How God Radically Saved Me39:36 Backsliding In Our First Years of Marriage43:21 Cheating on My Husband 46:55 Coming Back to the Lord50:17 Getting Involved in Ministry54:17 My Relationship with My Parents Now55:17 Who is Jesus To You?55:58 Prayer58:21 Final WordsThis Google Search About the DEVIL Led Me to JESUS!

Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Jonathan:Instagram ⇨ https://www.instagram.com/notthesamejjTikTok ⇨ https://www.tiktok.com/@ImnotthesamejjCredits:Testimony by Jonathan "JJ" AndersonDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric Villatoro Edited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in Orlando, FloridaDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Growing Up in a Christian Home in England01:28 Moving to the States, Developing Toxic Habits04:04 My Relationship with My Dad 05:31 Filling My Teen Years with Weed, Relationships and Drinking08:42 Trying to Change in My Own Strength10:07 Making Worse Choices11:35 Getting a Girl Pregnant at 1815:18 More Heartbreak and Failed Relationships18:10 Almost Losing My Life Multiple Times21:41 Joining the Air Force, Still Addicted to Substances27:18 Starting to Seek God Again After This Encounter…30:01 Surrendering My Life to Jesus32:59 How I Met My Wife 35:42 Preaching for the First Time, But Still Struggling39:27 Going Through Two Miscarriages 42:13 My Son Josiah is Born43:49 God Uses THIS to Set Me Free from Addiction49:28 God Calls Me to Be a Pastor51:12 Our Current Valley54:17 Who is Jesus To You?55:15 Prayer1:01:03 Final WordsThis One ENCOUNTER Led Me to Finally Surrender to JESUS...

How do you inspire change in others without pushing them away? Paul Martino never really enjoyed drinking. It was something he did to fit in. When he and Stacey Martino became intentional about their health, they decided to change their relationship with alcohol. During a difficult time in their marriage, Stacey tried pushing Paul to do things her way but when she shifted her focus to her own growth, Paul felt inspired to change on his terms. Now, 25 years later, they haven't had a drink, by choice, because it aligns with their values. In this episode, Paul and Stacey join Annie to share tools to navigate different drinking habits as a couple and how to inspire change in others without pressure or judgment. In this episode, Annie, Paul, and Stacey will discuss: - Why social drinking never felt right for Paul - Prioritizing health and rethinking alcohol - How to navigate different drinking habits as a couple - Managing triggers and responses in relationships - Owning your growth without relying on others - Choosing patience over judgment - How to inspire change without being forceful - Building trust while respecting each other's choices - Letting go of “if you loved me, you would” thinking - Addressing safety concerns with care - Facing challenges and growing through discomfort - And other topics… Related Episodes: EP 41: Relationships, Marriage & Alcohol with Stacey Martino https://thisnakedmind.com/ep-41-relationships-marriage-alcohol-with-stacey-martino/ EP 278: Reader Question – How Can Friends and Family Support Someone Who Is Changing Their Relationship With Alcohol? https://thisnakedmind.com/ep-278-reader-question-how-can-friends-and-family-support-someone-who-is-changing-their-relationship-with-alcohol  EP 364: Reader Question – Do I Have to Choose Between Being Alcohol-Free or My Relationship? https://thisnakedmind.com/ep-364-reader-question-do-i-have-to-choose-between-being-alcohol-free-or-my-relationship/  Resources Mentioned: Paul & Stacey's Website: relationshipdevelopment.org  Paul & Stacey's Book, The Missing Piece: A Proven Method to Single-Handedly Transform Your Relationship and Create Harmony in Your Home: https://www.amazon.com/Missing-Piece-Single-Handedly-Transform-Relationship/dp/1401993907  Ready to take the next step on your journey?  Visit https://learn.thisnakedmind.com/podcast-resources for free resources, programs, and more. Until next week, stay curious!

Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Childlike CiCi: Email ⇨ info@childlikespirit.comInstagram ⇨ https://www.instagram.com/childlikecici/Facebook ⇨ https://www.facebook.com/ChildlikeciciTikTok ⇨ tiktok.com/@childlikeciciYouTube ⇨ www.youtube.com/@childlikeciciCiCi Text Community ⇨ 704-387-3143Credits:Testimony by Childlike CiCiDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric VillatoroEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in MarylandDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Introduction02:11 A Tumultuous Childhood07:28 Starting to Hang With the Wrong Crowd 11:57 Toxic Relationships, Partying and the Fast Life15:45 Almost Losing My Life in a Car Crash19:01 Encountering God When I Was Younger20:57 Starting to Take Music Seriously25:25 Hearing God's Voice for the First Time31:05 Leaving Everything Behind to Follow Jesus 33:46 Growing In My Relationship with Jesus37:01 God Calls Me to Make Music Again41:37 Finding True Purpose and Fulfillment in Jesus 43:51 Who is Jesus To You?45:31 My Relationship with My Siblings Today47:03 Prayer49:48 To the Couple that Ran the Bible Studies With Free Pizza51:13 Final WordsI Was Creating Music for the Devil Until Jesus Said This to Me...

“It really does cost us in terms of our ability to learn about money, embrace failure, the mistakes that we made and we learn from them, to actually get closer to the people in our lives, whether that is our adult children, whether that's a partner, whether that's a friend. So there's a lot of ways in which money silence kind of keeps us locked up in a way that I don't think is useful.” - Kathleen Burns Kingsbury   Our hosts Stephanie McCullough and Kevin Gaines invite Kathleen Burns Kingsbury back to the show. She brings her invaluable expertise as a money mindset coach to discuss societal pressures women typically face regarding finances.   With the re-release of her book "Breaking Money Silence," Kathleen offers fresh insights, focused on empowering women to break their silence around money discussions both in the home and the workplace.   Kathleen kicks things off by exploring the psychological obstacles to financial empowerment. Roadblocks like guilt, fear of being seen as greedy, and imposter syndrome frequently obstruct the path to confidence for many women–and men.   She reminds us that it's important to surround yourself with mentors and peers who respect individual needs and foster an environment free of money shame. It all begins with open and authentic conversations.   Kathleen teaches that it's important to build your own "financial dream team" that prioritizes relationships over sales. She unpacks the art of leveraging each partner's strengths, in addition to open communication, in order to minimize money arguments and bring couples closer to their financial dreams!   Key Topics: Why Kathleen is Re-Releasing “Breaking Money Silence” (3:16) “What is My Relationship with Money?” (7:14) How Do Your Financial Beliefs Serve or Sabotage You? (14:12) The Human Side of Finance (18:38) Building Financial Knowledge (26:10) Managing Money as a Couple (29:14) What About Single Women? (36:43)   Resources: Learn more about Kathleen Burns Kingsbury and her services at www.kbkwealthconnection.com   If you like what you've been hearing, we invite you to subscribe on your favorite platform and leave us a review. Tell us what you love about this episode! Or better yet, tell us what you want to hear more of in the future. stephanie@sofiafinancial.com   You can find the transcript and more information about this episode at www.takebackretirement.com.   Follow Stephanie on Twitter, Facebook, YouTube and LinkedIn.  Follow Kevin on Twitter, Facebook, YouTube and LinkedIn.

Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with David:Facebook ⇨ https://www.facebook.com/davescarberryEmail ⇨ DSJust1city@gmail.comYoutube ⇨ https://www.youtube.com/@UCigKr5fdaQzRew8DR5jNIMQ Credits:Testimony by David ScarberryDirected by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric VillatoroEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Testimony Recorded in Grand Prairie, TexasDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies until His return. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Introduction00:37 Abusing Drugs from the Age of 1102:03 Becoming Addicted to Crystal Meth03:56 Getting Arrested and Going to Prison08:39 Experiencing God's Favor While in Prison14:04 Released from Prison, But No Change19:03 God Blesses Me With a House26:18 Starting an Upholstery Company30:21 Getting Hooked on Meth Again35:01 My Son is Taken From Me37:46 Trying to Get Closer to God and Beat Addiction41:44 Relapsing Again46:56 Being Freed from Addiction Through Baptism53:05 The Lord Transforms My Life56:21 Prayer58:08 The Detox Process1:02:45 Getting My Son Back after Surrendering to Jesus1:05:06 Who is Jesus To You?1:05:56 My Relationship with My Parents Today1:08:56 Final Words16 Year METH Addiction GONE After THIS ONE MOMENT...

Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Sean Laylin's Testimony: https://youtu.be/MawCO7WHxHAAngela Laylin's Testimony: https://youtu.be/5JeQPqDppsYLaylin Family BTS Testimony: https://youtu.be/xpSPV6eqLVsListen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Jesse:jlaylin18@gmail.comCredits:Directed by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric VillatoroEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Production Assistant Travis MitchellTestimony Recorded in WisconsinDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Audio Quality Disclaimer00:28 Trigger Warning00:48 Introducing Jesse Goodman02:31 Why I'm Sharing My Testimony Now04:07 Knowing God Was Real as a Child05:13 Pornography and Attachment to Boys Growing Up08:51 Battling Anxiety and Trying to Be a Good Person10:11 Dabbling with Marijuana and Alcohol as a Teen11:12 Escaping An Abusive Relationship13:39 Meeting My New Boyfriend, then Cheating on Him20:18 My Parents Give Their Lives to Jesus22:39 Giving My Life to Jesus After My Dad's Repentance27:35 Battling Shame Because of My Infidelity29:53 My Boyfriend Gives His Life to Jesus31:20 Cutting Ties With the Old Life35:04 My Boyfriend and I Talk About Getting Married36:54 Freedom From Shame Through Repentance43:43 Getting Married and Walking in New Life47:55 What I Would Say to Little Jesse49:13 Who is Jesus To You?51:24 My Relationship with My Parents Today52:26 Prayer54:33 Final Words

Support our channel & Become a Partner ⇨  https://www.missiondelafe.org/   Listen on Podcast Spotify Podcast ⇨ https://spoti.fi/3RBKdq3Apple Podcast ⇨ https://apple.co/3evzCuuConnect with ushttps://www.facebook.com/delafetestimonieshttps://www.instagram.com/delafetestimonies/Connect with Sean:Email: laylinsean@yahoo.comCredits:Directed by Eric Villatoro Interviewed by Eric VillatoroEdited By Joshua GayleAudio Mixed by Paul Nicholas Production Assistant Travis MitchellTestimony Recorded in WisconsinDelafé Testimonies is a global evangelistic project with the mission of creating the world's largest archive of Jesus testimonies. Our vision is to save souls, build community, and set people free through the testimony of Jesus.Chapters00:00 Audio Quality Disclaimer00:28 Introducing Sean Laylin01:47 My Catholic Upbringing04:07 Pornography, Drinking, Crime and Loneliness06:56 Becoming A Father at 19 Years Old09:41 Getting Married and Having a Dysfunctional Family11:04 Escalating Depression Leads to Rage13:58 Running to Football as an Outlet for My Rage19:33 Depression Leads to Contemplating Suicide22:47 Trying to Get Sober, No Care for God23:45 My Wife Gives Her Life to Jesus26:16 My God Encounter31:08 My 2 Hour Long Conversation with God36:32 What It's Like When I Hear God's Voice40:03 How God Has Transformed My Life42:57 How God Delivered Me From Rage48:39 My Relationship with My Kids Today50:58 Who is Jesus To You?51:58 Prayer

Is your self-worth built on other people's opinion? Worrying about what other people think about you can be paralyzing. It can hinder you from pursuing your dreams and trigger feelings of anxiety, insecurity, and self-doubt. We all know we shouldn't worry about what other people think. But that's usually easier said than done. In this episode, Sabrina shares how she overcame approval-seeking behavior and became better at receiving feedback. Tune in to hear why learning how to receive feedback is crucial for leaders and how to let go of the need for approval. Quotes “If you want the world to change around you, you first have to change yourself.” “If you're looking for the right one, then you'll never find that person. You have to be the right one first.” What You'll Learn: (00:00) Introduction (00:38) My Relationship with Feedback (01:29) How I Stopped Working for Other People's Approval (02:35) Ways to Get Better at Receiving Feedback Links and Resources: Myevergrowth.com Sabrina's LinkedIn Sabrina on X About the Show Are you a leader of a fast-growing organization who wants to build a world-class team? Welcome to Evergrowing, where leaders like you learn to build high-performing teams. I believe when you sign up to be a leader, you sign up for a journey of constantly growing - Evergrowing. I'm Sabrina Wang, CEO of Evergrowth Coaching. I've been a coach to many top CEOs in the world who do 8-9 figures in revenue. I'm bringing to you the most common breakthroughs in coaching sessions. I was the former Head of Coaching to Matt Mochary, author of The Great CEO Within, and the CEO coach to leading tech companies like Coinbase, OpenAI, Reddit, and so on. Tune in each week to hear about strategies designed to help you turn the toughest business challenges into tangible success. Available on all podcasting platforms and YouTube, don't forget to tune in every week :)

Chad Harlan is on the show to share his story of growing up in Jersey Shore, going down a bad path, learning how to smuggle contraband into jail and how he was ultimately able to turn it all around and create a new life for himself. Follow Ian Bick on Instagram: @ian_bick & Snapchat: ianbick Buy Merch: https://lockedinbrand.com Use code lockedin at checkout to get 20% off your order Connect with Ian Bick: https://www.ianbick.com Connect with Chad Harlan: Ticktok @legendzonly_ Twitter @legendzonly_ IG @legendzonly_ Timestamps: 00:00:00 - Intro 00:01:34 - Introducing Chad Harland 00:03:24 - Trouble in a Beach Town 00:05:22 - Meeting my Father and Family History 00:07:04 - Wild Life of the Party 00:08:48 - Selling in Harlem 00:10:27 - From High School Booted to the Streets 00:12:09 - My Relationship with My Mother 00:13:44 - First Arrest 00:15:31 - The Rise and Fall 00:19:13 - The Rise of the Epidemic 00:22:27 - A Hazy Taco Adventure 00:25:58 - Life in County 00:27:35 - Smuggling l 00:29:14 - Reflections on Past Chaos 00:30:56 - Helping Others through Community Work 00:32:39 - The Cycle 00:34:31 - Living in Miami and Reflecting on Happiness 00:36:23 - Losing My Way 00:37:55 - A Turning Point 00:41:20 - Misconceptions 00:42:49 - The Dangers 00:44:24 - Words of Advice for Those Struggling 00:47:26 - Ballooning and Smuggling 00:48:52 - Acting and Career Goals 00:50:37 - The Housing Crisis and Personal Struggles Powered by Creative Evolution Studios https://creativeevolutionstudios.com Produced by: https://www.instagram.com/shanedanahy https://www.shanedanahy.com Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Episode 1342 | Adriel Sanchez and Bill Maier answer caller questions. Show Notes  CoreChristianity.com Questions in this Episode 1. Is the Depth of My Relationship with God Proof of My Salvation? 2. Should Practicing Homosexuals Be Allowed to Worship in Church? 3. Who Will Christians Rule over with Jesus in Revelation 5:9-10? 4. How Do I Find the Right Person to Marry as a Believer?   Today's Offer What Still Divides Us   Request our latest special offers here or call 1-833-THE-CORE (833-843-2673) to request them by phone.   Want to partner with us in our work here at Core Christianity? Consider becoming a member of the Inner Core.   Resources Book - Core Christianity: Finding Yourself in God's Story by Michael Horton

Welcome to The Bitcoin Layer, where we bring you research, analysis, and education for all things bitcoin and macro. In this short film, we walk around University of Southern California with Nik. He shares his deep family connection to @USC & @USCMarshallSchoolofBusiness , what he is trying to build as an educator, and how it all relates to the work done by The Bitcoin Layer. New YouTube videos M/W/F — New Substack posts T/R/S The Bitcoin Layer is brought to you by River and Foundation Devices. Visit https://river.com and start buying today, or visit https://river.com/TBL for $5 free when you sign up and buy $100 in Bitcoin. Go to https://thebitcoinlayer.com/foundation to receive $10 off your purchase of a Passport by Foundation Devices, the most intuitive bitcoin wallet on the market today. Subscribe to TBL on Substack: https://TheBitcoinLayer.substack.com Follow TBL on Twitter: https://twitter.com/TheBitcoinLayer Follow TBL on LinkedIn: https://linkedin.com/company/TheBitco... Follow TBL on Instagram: https://instagram.com/TheBitcoinLayer Follow TBL on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thebitcoinlayer Subscribe to The Bitcoin Layer on your favorite podcast platform. Subscribe and turn on notifications for TBL on YouTube. Use code TBLYT10 for 10% off all The Bitcoin Layer Merch at http://TheBitcoinLayer.com/merch Sign up for the free Monetary History course on @SaylorAcademy : http://sylr.org/MonetaryHistory Contribute to The Bitcoin Layer via Lightning Network: thebitcoinlayer@zbd.gg Nik Bhatia's Twitter: https://twitter.com/timevalueofbtc Research Associate Joe Consorti's Twitter: https://twitter.com/JoeConsorti Creative Director Matthew Ball's Twitter: https://twitter.com/matthewrball Block Height 811631 #TheBitcoinLayer #NikBhatia #BitcoinClass #BitcoinCourse #USC #UniversityofSouthernCalifornia #Trojans #USCTrojans #University #UniversityLife #Student #Undergrad #Undergraduate #Graduate #Students #Teaching #SchoolOfBusiness #Professor #DigitalAssets #Commodity #Learn #Studies #Study #Campus #CampusLife #Walkaround #Banks #Bank #CentralBanks #LegalTender #CBDC #Economics #Payments #Educator #Teacher #Asset #Bitcoin #Dollar #Sats #BTC #Market #Currency #Crypto #Analysis #Investment #News #Finance #Education #Blockchain #Blockchain #BitcoinMining #Macro The Bitcoin Layer and its guests do not provide investment advice. Chapters: 00:00:00 - My USC Tradition 00:00:37 - A Career in Bond Trading 00:01:04 - Bitcoin and USC's Digital Assets Initiative 00:01:34 - Bitcoin Course in the Business School 00:02:04 - Teaching Bitcoin as Software 00:02:28 - My Family and My Relationship with the University 00:03:01 - Driving the Research in Bitcoin 00:03:28 - Explaining New Concepts through Research and Videos 00:03:55 - The Connection Between Bond Markets and Bitcoin 00:04:25 - The Bitcoin Layer and USCSubscribe to The Bitcoin Layer on Soundwise

Curious about the intriguing world of a Dominatrix and it's relationship to money? Listen in as I discuss the evolution of my rates, the rationale behind the changes, and the crucial balance between wealth accumulation and personal values. I also share the peaks and troughs of my career, including dealing with overwork and burnout, and how and why I pivoted to provide my clients rich, relationship-driven experiences. We will navigate the potential relationship between money and isolation, and how wealth can sometimes create a divide from reality. I also shed light on the importance of wealth redistribution, especially when it's in the hands of women. Let's redefine the power dynamics of wealth together. More on Eva Oh: https://eva-oh.com HIGHLIGHTS: Here are the timestamps for the episode. On some podcast players you should be able to click the timestamp to jump to that time. (00:00) - Welcome. What is #teakink (00:15) - I Like Taking Money From Rich Men (01:01) - Should Anyone Be This Rich? (01:30) - The Evolution of My Rates (04:30) - Burnout as a Catalyst (07:00) - Wealth and Fairness (08:50) - Valuing Ourselves (10:55) - The Sexism in Money, The Caring Industries (12:15) - Ar*sehole Tax (15:20) - What is Money? (16:20) - My Relationship to Work, Money and Self-Care (19:55) - Reprogramming my Wealthy Clients (25:13) - Freedom, Wealth Redistribution, and Women's Impact LINKS: Financial Literacy, https://www.investopedia.com/guide-to-financial-literacy-4800530 UN Women, Economic Impact - https://www.unwomen.org/en/what-we-do/economic-empowerment/facts-and-figures TED Talk - How Economic Inequality Harms Societies, https://www.ted.com/talks/richard_wilkinson_how_economic_inequality_harms_societies?utm_campaign=tedspread&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=tedcomshare TED Talk - Universal Basic Income, https://www.ted.com/talks/steven_shafarman_the_case_for_universal_basic_income?utm_campaign=tedspread&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=tedcomshare

Switching it up since I've been talking a lot recently about science and hormones and wanted to chat about a topic I've been wanting to talk about for awhile and that is attachment styles. After being single for 6 years and therapy, I finally understood attachment styles in my own life and now, being in a relationship with Zach who is a secured attachment style man, it's clear what roadblocks I faced in past relationships. I want to share with you the 4 styles, why this is important, and what to do if you're not a secured attachment style.   Time Stamps:   (0:30) Attachment Styles and Why It's Important (1:18) The Book Attached (3:48) The 4 Attachment Styles (4:48) Don't Blame Your Parents (7:00) My Attachment Style (9:18) Avoidance Style (10:38) Disorganized Style (11:28) Secure Attachment Style (14:34) My Relationship with Zach ---------------- Follow Me on Instagram! - https://www.instagram.com/laceeiskk/ ---------------- We have helped over 800 women transform their mind and body and become the best version of themselves. Want to be next? Click Here to Apply! - https://form.typeform.com/to/WKxPkc

TW: Body Dysmorphia + Disordered Eating My relationship to my body has been a lifelong uphill battle. There are so many moments in my life where I have just felt absolutely disconnected to what my body really looks like. After years and years and years of eating disorders and body dysmorphia, I have finally gotten to a place where I am happy with where I am. I fuel my body, I take care of it, and I have learned how to engage in the pursuit of acting without the toxic Hollywood ideal of becoming ever-thinner. This episode was immensely personal and vulnerable for me to share, especially as I look back on an article that dove into what 2017 Sam believed to be a healthy relationship with food. Let me know if this helped you in some way, and how you have learned to take care of yourselves and your body as an actor in this business. Watch the Full Video Podcast Here! 00:12 — Intro 00:56 — Trigger Warning + Our Bodies in this Business 04:06 — My Eating Habits Blog 12:55 — My Relationship with Fitness 15:30 — The "Definitive Answer" 20:41 — Actor Tip #1 21:45 — Actor Tip #2 25:03 — Actor Tip #3 27:52 — Where I'm At In 2023 Resources Mentioned in This Episode: One Broke Actress Blog → "Why My Eating Habits no Longer Have a Label" One Broke Actress Blog → "Why I started CrossFit. Why I Quit. And Why it Was One of the Best Things I Have Ever Done." One Broke Actress Blog One Broke Actress Blog → "The time I was Kicked Off a Set for Being 'Fat'." One Broke Actress Blog → "I lost 12 pounds in 3 weeks for a movie..." One Broke Actress Season 4, Episode 1, "Dana Powell" Fearing the Black Body: The Racial Origins of Fat Phobia by Sabrina Strings -------- Want more? Check out Patreon for bonus episodes, IG Close Friends content, and so much more. And don't miss all the content on IG and as always at, OneBrokeActress.com And if you're needing some personalized help from Sam, you can schedule a chat with her right here. Don't forget to join the mailing list here!  --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/one-broke-actress-podcast/message

David Gilliland preaches on the cross's effect on my relationship to the Lord Jesus Christ my Saviour. Christ “gave Himself” to redeem “to Himself” a special people. The paragraphs, the Person and the purpose of Titus 2:11-15 are expounded. (Message preached in the Gospel Hall, Newry, Northern Ireland) Complete Series “Crucial Christianity” – The cross affects my relationship to: To sinners – He gave Himself a ransom for all (1 Tim 2:6) – Gospel preaching To my self – He gave The post The Cross and My Relationship to the Saviour (51 min) first appeared on Gospel Hall Audio.

David Gilliland preaches on the cross's effect on my relationship to my spouse. In Ephesians 5:22-33 the Bible teaches that the model for marriage is the relationship between Christ and the church, which means that the cross must positively impact my marriage. (Message preached in the Gospel Hall, Newry, Northern Ireland) Complete Series “Crucial Christianity” – The cross affects my relationship to: To sinners – He gave Himself a ransom for all (1 Tim 2:6) – Gospel preaching To my self The post The Cross and My Relationship to My Spouse (71 min) first appeared on Gospel Hall Audio.

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  I learned recently that only 10% of podcasters manage to publish more than 100 episodes so today I wanted to mark the fact that the Tribe Sober podcast is still going strong after 150 episodes! Yes it's hard work getting out a weekly episode but it's also been such a pleasure connecting with some fabulous guests and of course getting feedback from listeners all over the world. I've taken a deep dive into our podcast archives and highlighted the top ten most popular episodes At number 10 we have 3 podcasts with 1,700 downloads! 10. The Happy Brain with Loretta Breuning  That was Dr Loretta Breuning – author the Happy Brain.  I always learn a lot from my guests and my conversation with Loretta led me to a personal lightbulb moment which actually changed the advice we give to our community. It's common to experience a low mood in early sobriety – a spell of anhedonia. It certainly happened to me so I discussed this with Loretta She taught me that we don't have to just grit our teeth and get through this difficult patch – there is a way out! A way to trigger our happy chemicals and banish those early sobriety blues It's fascinating stuff so do have a listen to the interview – Tribe Sober podcast episode 55 on Apple podcasts or via this link 10. “Take a Break” Another episode that came in at 10th place with 1,700 listens was the episode called “Take a Break” – 3 Tribe Sober members talking about the benefits of taking a break from the booze. We believe in Challenges here at Tribe Sober - every year we run 2 #Sober66 Challenges as well as our Dry January Fundraiser. On this episode we hear from 3 ladies who did a 66 day Sober Spring - why did they sign up?  what was it like?  what tips do they have?  Have a listen to Claire, Helena and Pam and if you're inspired you can go to tribesober.com and sign up for the next #Sober66 which starts on 20th March Find this episode on Apple podcasts Tribe Sober episode 75 or via this link 10. Rebranding Sobriety with Susan Christina  The third episode at number 10 is my interview with the fabulous Susan Christina from Hola Sober. Susan Christina is on a mission to rebrand sobriety and make alcohol free living as attractive and glamorous as we thought drinking was She's an advocate for the modern recovery movement and wants women to take back their power!  Susan Christina publishes a gorgeous 100 page online magazine call Hola Sober, packed with features and inspiration – I'll put the link in the shownotes https://linktr.ee/holasober The episode with Susan Christina is called Rebranding Sobriety – episode 67 on Apple or via this link  8.  Casey joins up the dots... between drinking and anxiety Next up is an interview with Sobriety Coach Casey Mcguire Davidson with 1,800 downloads Like me Casey was caught in the corporate workhard/playhard culture as well as the mommyjuice trend…using alcohol to cope with stress and anxiety and becoming  more dependent over the years… But somehow we both found our way out of that trap and now we are finding joy in helping people to do the same  We talked about the strong women we come across in our sober communities – and how many of us managed to hold it all together through the drinking years. Once we are liberated from the shackles of alcohol addiction there is no stopping us and we go on to achieve great things.  We agreed that yes Sobriety is definitely a Superpower! Catch Casey on Tribe Sober podcast episode 66 on Apple or via this link 7. Is your Lizard Brain the Boss with Staci Danford Coming in at number 7 is neuroscientist Staci Danford which also has had 1,800 listens Staci is a neuroscientist who loves working with the sober community.  In this episode she shares some really practical and useful information about our brain. Staci explained how our primitive lizard brain will go on autopilot unless we intervene – she calls her Lizard Brain Earl and calls him out if he tries to hijack her behaviour! She confirmed that our #Sober66 Challenge is long enough to create a new neural pathway to change our drinking patterns She also said that the “secret sauce” of our Challenges is the community support Our next #Sober66 Challenge starts on 20th March so just go to tribesober.com and you'll see the sign up box on the homepage You can catch Staci's episode on Apple podcasts, episode 57 or via this link  6.  Why we need to ditch the drink in mid-life with Lori Massicot Next up in our Top Ten is Lori Massicot, also with 1,800 listens. Lori Massicot a midlife sobriety coach. I discovered Lori when I found her podcast – it's called “to 50 and beyond” – it's a podcast aimed at women in mid-life where she highlights the beauty of aging and the freedom that comes along with alcohol free life. I was 63 when I finally ditched the booze so as you can imagine we had a great conversation about how giving up alcohol is one of the best things we can do for ourselves as we get older. Let's remember that 20% of social drinkers WILL become dependent over the years That's exactly what happened to most of our Tribe members who are now busy supporting each other and changing their habits So if you want to improve your health and increase  your happiness just go to tribesober.com and hit join our tribe. Catch Lori's episode on Apple podcasts episode 72 or via this link 5. My Relationship with Alcohol with Eusebius McKaiser  Holding down the number 5 spot with 1800 downloads is South African journalist and broadcaster Eusebius McKaiser He signed up for our Dry January Fundraiser a few years ago and much to his surprise he's maintained his sobriety.  We first met when I was on his radio show reading out my Goodbye to Alcohol Letter.  A goodbye letter is a cathartic and powerful ritual that can help us draw a line under our drinking years.  During our conversation Eusebius shared the benefits he is experiencing and explained how he has substituted different kinds of music for alcohol - to stimulate the right mood when he is writing. You can it via this link or on Apple podcasts episode 29 Eusebius and I also recorded another Tribe Sober podcast episode together – called Busting Sobriety Myths – episode 77 on Apple podcasts or via this link   4.  Why we get hangxiety with William Porter  At number 4 with 2000 downloads is another podcast about anxiety!  – title was “Why we get Hangxiety and my guest was William Porter.    We talked about "hangxiety" and how it's caused by chemical changes in our brain - when it becomes over-sensitised If you drink a bottle of wine every night then your brain will take the first glass as a signal that the rest of the bottle is coming! That's why moderation is so difficult - and it's exhausting as we are thinking about it all the time Dependency happens once we learn (consciously or subsconsciously) that another drink will quell the anxiety caused by the first FAB is responsible for many people falling off the wagon as they think they can now have "just one" - which is not sustainable William also explained that it's a complete myth that alcohol helps you sleep - the truth is that it ruins our sleep! This conversation is on episode 50 on Apple podcasts or you can access it via this link 3.  How I ditched the drink with Clare Pooley  At number 3 we have the fabulous Clare Pooley with 2,100 downloads Clare is the author of “Sober Diaries” and a wonderful example of how your dreams can come true when you ditch the booze.  Her sober blog not only helped her to stay on track but it attracted a publishing deal which led to the sober diaries – she then went on to write two further novels.  Her childhood dream was to be an author and now she is! CLAIRE's TOP TIP - she reconfigured her day - went to bed at 7pm (to avoid evening drinking) and got up at 5am feeling great! As cooking the evening meal was a big temptation for her she cooked it in the morning and heated it up in the evening Her blog - the obstacle course went viral and is essential reading in early sobriety – I'll put the link in the shownotes Clare's key message in her blog is to keep going however hard it gets - stopping and starting is the hardest way and means you are doing the hardest bit – over and over The episode is number 39 in Apple podcasts or via this link  2.  How I quit drinking and started a tribe with Janet Gourand At number 2 is my story with 2,200 downloads I talk about my long struggle with alcohol – how I nearly drowned by passing out in my bath at the age of 25 and carried on drinking How I got breast cancer - and carried on drinking How a "walking, talking blackout" made me (finally) ditch the drink I talk about my quest for sobriety, my failure as an AA member and how I finally got sober.  I share my motivation for founding Tribe Sober and read out my Goodbye to Alcohol Letter. This was the very first episode of the Tribe Sober podcast so is episode one in Apple podcasts – or via this link People often find podcasts by googling key words so the fact that our most popular podcast was called “How to Stop Binge Drinking” would indicate that a lot of people find themselves without an off switch once they start drinking. I certainly fell in that category – a couple of glasses every evening and probably a binge once a week. If you've ever wondered exactly how much you have to drink to constitute a binge you may be surprised to learn that:- Binge drinking is defined as consuming 4 or more drinks on one occasion for women or 5 or more drinks on one occasion for men Australian sobriety coach Kathryn Elliott was a binge drinker 1.  How to Stop Binge Drinking with Kathryn Elliott  Kathryn would be in a cycle – go for it, recover, go for it, recover She didn't really see this as a “problem” even when she started having blackouts at 16 – some blackouts which involved driving If you listen to last weeks Tribe Sober episode with Professor Nutt you can hear him explaining the science behind blackouts – and the fact that blackouts can actually lead to brain damage! She could go for weeks without drinking and challenges like Dry January were easy for her but she would always see these dry periods as permission to binge before and afterwards! As Kathryn looks back on those short periods of abstinence she realises they did nothing to help her understand her binge drinking habit Women need to understand that binge drinking is particularly dangerous as it can take up to a month for our liver to recover from a heavy session. We tend to think that once the hangover has gone we can start drinking again but that just piles more damage on top of the existing damage. Episode 113 on Apple podcasts or access my conversation with Kathryn via this link  So that's our top ten podcast episodes – thank you to our amazing guests and of course to our listeners! More Info Subscription membership – you can join up HERE. To access our website, click HERE. If you would like a free copy of our “Annual Tracker” or our e-book 66 Days to Sobriety, please email janet@tribesober.com. If you would like to come to our Saturday afternoon Zoom Cafe as a guest and meet our community, just email janet@tribesober.com. to join our mailing list click HERE    Episode Sponsor This episode is sponsored by the Tribe Sober Membership Program.  If you want to change your relationship with alcohol then sign up today Read more about our program and subscribe HERE   Help us to Spread the Word! We made this podcast so that we can reach more people who need our help.  Please subscribe and share. If you enjoyed the podcast, then please leave us a 5-star review on Apple podcasts. Take a screenshot of your review, and DM it to Tribe Sober's Instagram page – see PS below for instructions. We'll send you something special to say thank you! We release a podcast episode every Saturday morning. You can follow Tribe Sober on Facebook, Twitter, TikTok and Instagram. You can join our private Facebook group HERE.   PS: How to Leave a Rating/Review in Apple Podcasts (on an iOS Device) Open the Podcasts app. EASY. Choose “Search” from the bottom row of icons and enter the name of the show (e.g. Recover Like a Mother) into the search field. Select the show under Shows (not under Episodes). Scroll down past the first few episodes until you see Ratings & Reviews. Click Write a Review underneath the displayed reviews from other listeners. You'll then have the option to rate the show on a 5-star scale and write a review (you can rate without writing too but it's always good to read your experience).  

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Future. We discuss the depressing stuff, the hopeful things, Macro and Micro explantions and so much more! Hope you enjoy!learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @Store: https://my-store-cb44d9.creato...Cash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainw...

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Communism. We discuss what communism is, where it came from, some compare and contrast, and alot of side quest. Hope you enjoy!learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTSources: Is communism good or bad? | CreateDebateWhat Is Communism, Are You A Communist? - Citizens JournalWhat Is Communism? Learn Its History, Pros, and Cons (investopedia.com)Communism - Overview, History, Materialist Conception Theory (corporatefinanceinstitute.com)Why do capitalists hate communists so much? - QuoraWhy you're wrong about communism: 7 huge misconceptions about it (and capitalism) | Salon.comIf Communism Killed Millions, How Many Did Capitalism Kill? | by umair haque | Eudaimonia and Co (eand.co)Capitalism Kills Nearly 1 Million Americans Per Year - Invisible PeopleWhat philosopher said from each according to his ability to each according to his need? – KnowledgeBurrow.comActs 4:31-37 NIV - After they prayed, the place where they - Bible GatewayYou can support this podcast @Store: https://my-store-cb44d9.creato...Cash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainw...

This episode was inspired by Dr. Ben's Recent Episode, 11 Reasons Why I'm Plant-Based.This was my first live podcast appearance since the birth of our daughter Grace. The whole experience of being pregnant, giving birth, and moving through the postpartum phase has made me reflect with so much gratitude on all the health that the Whole Food Plant-Based lifestyle has brought me.I was not always in such great health. In fact, I went through an extremely difficult period of chronic illness in my early 20's that  never reach its full resolution until I made the decision to transition to a WFPB Lifestyle!In this episode, I cover the 10 biggest WFPB health wins that I've experienced, including the scientific explanation behind each win.Here are the wins:Win #1: Healing of Chronic Digestive Issues ⁃Eating WFPB optimizes the microbiome, which in turn reduces inflammation, creates a strong and resilient gut lining and resolves digestive symptoms. Win #2: Healing of Chronic Joint Pain ⁃Systemic inflammation is resolved through the healing of the gut from the WFPB lifestyle.Win #3: Healing of Chronic Skin Issues ⁃Skin issues heals through the optimization of gut health along with the correction of nutritional deficiencies with WFPB eating. Win #4: Healing of Chronic Fatigue ⁃WFPB eating optimizes energy production through the healing of the metabolism.Win #5: Healing of Food Sensitivities and My Relationship with Food ⁃Healing the gut will WFPB eating also resolves food sensitivities. This created space for me to heal my stressful relationship with food.Win #6: Pain Free Menses ⁃WFPB eating balances hormones through optimizing liver function. Win #7: Balance Immune System ⁃WFPB eating helps to achieve a balanced immune system, creating appropriate immune responses to pathogens and allergens. Win #8 - Healthy long hair ⁃WFPB eating provides the body with all the essential nutrients for optimal hair growth, and further supporters hair growth via optimize the metabolism and circulatory health. Win #9 - Fertility - Easy Conception and Pregnancy ⁃WFPB eating is naturally detoxifying to the body, supporting the liver to regulate hormones. It's also nutrient dense, supporting healthy fetal development.Win #10 - Easy postpartum recovery ⁃The nutrient density of this lifestyle makes for a quick recovery and easy bread milk production in the postpartum phase. NEW YEAR'S CLEANSE ANNOUNCEMENT!The Alter Health Winter Cleanse is starting January 13th!Join us for the Deeply Nourishing Reset - just $99!Links to some more good stuff- Get the Alter Health weekly WFPB Meal Guides: https://www.alter.health/meal-guides- Cleanse with Us during the next Alter Health Cleanse: https://www.alter.health/cleanse- Work with us in the Thrive on Plants program: https://www.alter.health/thrive-on-plants

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Socialism. We discuss what it is, compare and constrast to the current system, the values behind it and more! Hope you enjoy!learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTSources: Socialism - WikipediaDifference Between Capitalism and Socialism (with Comparison Chart) - Key DifferencesWhy "Socialism" Is Stigmatized in America | Psychology TodaySocialism - Definition, Types, Advantages and Disadvantages (corporatefinanceinstitute.com)Socialism (Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy)The Meaning of "Socialism" to Americans Today (gallup.com)You can support this podcast @The Peddling Pixie: https://my-store-cb44d9.creator-spring.com PROMO CODE: BEKINDCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Libertarianism and PaleoLibertarianism. We discuss what they are, clarify some things, and more! Hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTReferences: https://www.cato.org/libertarianismhttps://www.libertarianism.org/?__hstc=38939644.7b7b82d86b5af71fd2b459d63e8db3bb.1670082600028.1670605140493.1670612620770.6&__hssc=38939644.1.1670612620770&__hsfp=2927943020https://libertyexplained.com/what-is-liberty/https://www.thoughtco.com/the-libertarian-party-platform-a-quick-summary-721550https://www.libertarianism.org/topics/non-aggression-principlehttps://www.huffpost.com/entry/the-problems-with-libertarianism_b_57c093efe4b0b01630de953fhttps://blog.libertasbella.com/glossary/paleolibertarian/https://www.studysmarter.us/explanations/social-studies/social-institutions/american-values/You can support this podcast @Cash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

In this episode, Robin is interviewed by Abigail, a relatively new, self-proclaimed pansexual, and Host of her own podcast all about relationships called, “The Manic Pixie Weirdo”. The week before this episode aired with Robin, Abigail did a solo episode on her podcast called, “My Relationship with Coming Out”, and therefore wanted to interview Robin to learn more about her own relationship with coming out, and what Robin's process was like.In this episode, you will hear Abigail interview Robin and learn about . . .My “Aha!” moment, at 54 years young!My ten-year span of ‘awakening' after a lifetime of heteronormativity.There's no puttin' the genie back in the bottle once she pops out!There are two camps of women: those who ‘knew' but for external societal reasons had to stuff it down; and those of us who stuffed it so far down, (due to implicit societal reasons), that it took decades to ‘know'.How inexplicable, confusing infatuations back then, make complete sense now.Do we need ‘labels'? Do we want labels?Married women liking women: oh my gosh, this IS a ‘thing'!How do you know for sure you're gay, having never been intimate with a woman?Is it ‘normal' to feel resentments about NOT coming out sooner?In what ways have I, and do ‘we', personally grow, since coming out?I've come out late in life, so, what else don't I know about myself?Everything in my life happens FOR me, not TO me!Hetero-dating versus same-sex dating - who makes the first move? How do you flirt?Indoctrinating yourself into the gay culture; ask for guidance if you need it.When in doubt, just use “ya'll” for everyone's pronouns.Coming out later: is self-care selfish?Wanna support our “Coming Out Late” podcast? Then please consider buying Robin a “virtual” coffee as a sign of your appreciation for all the time, love and energy she pours into our Community. Any and all donations are deeply, deeply appreciated!!  Simply go to: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass  Links to resources:THE FIRST “COMING OUT LATE” RETREAT OF 2023:Come join Robin and your coming out late peers at the very first retreat of 2023 in March, in Phoenix Arizona. To be added to the Phoenix Retreat waiting list, email Robin your name to: Comingoutlater@gmail.com.SPEAKER SUMMIT #4: A Conversation with Hulu's star couple from “Mormon No More”, and creators of their “Peace Out” podcast, Sal Osborne & Lena Schwen.You can purchase the RECORDING from this Speaker Summit by sending $27 to either Venmo: @comingoutlater or PayPal: @NovareInternational, THEN emailing Robin at Comingoutlater@gmail.com, to request your copy of the Recording.COMING OUT LATE FB GROUP:Join our private FB Group: Coming Out Late at:www.facebook.com/groups/209443717714063/WWW.BUYMEACOFFEE.COMWanna support our “Coming Out Late” podcast? Then please consider 'buying me a coffee' as a sign of appreciation. Any and all donations are deeply, deeply appreciated!!  Simply go to: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglassCOMING OUT LATE SUPPORT GROUPS:ALL of our now FOUR support groups have gone to a $5 per person, per meeting “Cover Charge”. ALL groups are now accessible via a unique Buy Me A Coffee link that is special to each of the four support groups, AND, once you've paid, will take you to the Zoom link needed to enter the support group. Here are those special Buy Me A Coffee links to join each of those support groups:Women Helping Women,

In this episode, Robin is interviewed by Abigail, a relatively new, self-proclaimed pansexual, and Host of her own podcast all about relationships called, “The Manic Pixie Weirdo”. The week before this episode aired with Robin, Abigail did a solo episode on her podcast called, “My Relationship with Coming Out”, and therefore wanted to interview Robin to learn more about her own relationship with coming out, and what Robin's process was like. In this episode, you will hear Abigail interview Robin and learn about . . . My “Aha!” moment, at 54 years young! My ten-year span of ‘awakening' after a lifetime of heteronormativity. There's no puttin' the genie back in the bottle once she pops out! There are two camps of women: those who ‘knew' but for external societal reasons had to stuff it down; and those of us who stuffed it so far down, (due to implicit societal reasons), that it took decades to ‘know'. How inexplicable, confusing infatuations back then, make complete sense now. Do we need ‘labels'? Do we want labels? Married women liking women: oh my gosh, this IS a ‘thing'! How do you know for sure you're gay, having never been intimate with a woman? Is it ‘normal' to feel resentments about NOT coming out sooner? In what ways have I, and do ‘we', personally grow, since coming out? I've come out late in life, so, what else don't I know about myself? Everything in my life happens FOR me, not TO me! Hetero-dating versus same-sex dating - who makes the first move? How do you flirt? Indoctrinating yourself into the gay culture; ask for guidance if you need it. When in doubt, just use “ya'll” for everyone's pronouns. Coming out later: is self-care selfish? Wanna support our “Coming Out Late” podcast? Then please consider buying Robin a “virtual” coffee as a sign of your appreciation for all the time, love and energy she pours into our Community. Any and all donations are deeply, deeply appreciated!!  Simply go to: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass   Links to resources: THE FIRST “COMING OUT LATE” RETREAT OF 2023: Come join Robin and your coming out late peers at the very first retreat of 2023 in March, in Phoenix Arizona. To be added to the Phoenix Retreat waiting list, email Robin your name to: Comingoutlater@gmail.com. SPEAKER SUMMIT #4: A Conversation with Hulu's star couple from “Mormon No More”, and creators of their “Peace Out” podcast, Sal Osborne & Lena Schwen.You can purchase the RECORDING from this Speaker Summit by sending $27 to either Venmo: @comingoutlater or PayPal: @NovareInternational, THEN emailing Robin at Comingoutlater@gmail.com, to request your copy of the Recording. COMING OUT LATE FB GROUP: Join our private FB Group: Coming Out Late at: www.facebook.com/groups/209443717714063/ WWW.BUYMEACOFFEE.COM Wanna support our “Coming Out Late” podcast? Then please consider 'buying me a coffee' as a sign of appreciation. Any and all donations are deeply, deeply appreciated!!  Simply go to: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass COMING OUT LATE SUPPORT GROUPS: ALL of our now FOUR support groups have gone to a $5 per person, per meeting “Cover Charge”. ALL groups are now accessible via a unique Buy Me A Coffee link that is special to each of the four support groups, AND, once you've paid, will take you to the Zoom link needed to enter the support group. Here are those special Buy Me A Coffee links to join each of those support groups: Women Helping Women, every Tuesday at 12:30pm EST https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass/e/93122 Bisexually Speaking, every Wednesday at 12:30pm EST https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass/e/93135 Women Loving Women, every Wednesday evening at 7:00pm EST https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass/e/93137 Fifty Plus & Fabulous, every OTHER Thursday from 7pm EST to 10pm EST (Next dates: 10/20/22, 11/3/22, 11/17/22) https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RobinDouglass/e/93024For information on how to join any one of the four Support Groups, simply email Robin at: Comingoutlater@gmail.com

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Coming Out. I discuss being in my first same sex relationship, manic episodes, self-exploration, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @Cash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with The Tv Show Yellowstone. I discuss the writing (a lot), the actors, my favorite characters, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTSources: https://www.the-sun.com/news/4747261/zone-of-death-idaho-yellowstone-park-gabby-petito/https://www.imdb.com/title/tt4236770/You can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Mental Health. I discuss my journey, medications, how I feel about them, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Horror Films. I discuss specific films, me being weird, how I feel about them, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with My Favorite Genre of Music. I discuss what our favorite genre is, new music, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support Jim @https://linktr.ee/fridaynightmuscpartyYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with My Favorite Genre of Music. I discuss what my genre is, my dad, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Polyamory. I discuss what it is, my concerns, anxiety, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Swinging. I discuss what it is, my concerns, anxiety, and so much more. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Representation. I discuss what it is, what forms of representation there are, and how we represent ourselves. I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Vulnerability. I discuss my struggles with vulnerable, how I have changed over the years, and a new thing I learned! I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! This week we talk about My Relationship with Science. I discuss my origin fascination with science, an old teacher, and how I'm just a little shit! I hope you enjoy! learn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo

Welcome! Sorry I'm late this week! This week we talk about My Relationship with Culture. I talk about sadness, frustration, milk and vegetables! Hope you enjoy!https://www.cascadia.edu/discover/about/diversity/documents/Some%20Aspects%20and%20Assumptions%20of%20White%20Culture%20in%20the%20United%20States.pdfhttps://www.theguardian.com/world/2018/feb/26/white-culture-statistics-vegetables-alcoholLearn more about Newsly @ http://www.newsly.me/P1X1EP0DCASTYou can support this podcast @https://www.patreon.com/manicpixieweirdo?fan_landing=trueCash App: $TheMainWeirdoBuy Me A Coffee: The Manic Pixie Weirdo PodcastCheck out our links @https://www.mimi.link/themainweirdo