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2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
2 episodes with faxes
Heleauuu you wonderful creative soul!How are ya?Here is a fun filled informative chat on the super event happening THIS MONTH OF MARCH in Canterbury UK - *****THE INTERNATIONAL RADIO DRAMA FESTIVAL*****I spoke to Melanie Nock - cake connoisseur and brilliant festival organiser, International Arts / Synchromesh, and Nicholas McInerny, Podcaster, writer, Rainbow mum/dad podcasts creator and more! It is such an exciting event which we know you will love - You can** Listen to audio dramas** Vote for your favourite** Mix with judges and other creatives** Meet other folks who like you** Want to make audio gold!**Explore the beautiful Canterbury!AND GET INSPIRED TO ENTER NEXT YEAR! Check the website for details!Thank you to my superb guests - Melanie Nock who works for the festival and the Synchromesh Project via INTERNATIONAL ARTS - A super initiative to help encourage more folks to make audio drama. And Nicholas McInerny, instigator of fun things, podcast creator, producer, writer, director, script competition judge and more!It truly is an international event = scripts have been sent in already for this year, so all you need to do is browse the website, book your place (free) on eventbrite link and go and enjoy yourself in a beautiful place. GET SOCIAL!If you want to help support this brilliant event, ping Mel - mel@international-arts.eu and do explore the website. You can volunteer as a judge as discussed !The two pieces we played are Faxes in the storm by Emily White and Synchromesh. AndPopulist Radio by Stefano Gianotti and Deutschlandfunk Culture.This week's discoverability chat isssss talking all thingsMY AMAZING WOMAN by James C Taylor. Find, follow and enjoyyyy!The trailer is for THE BLOODY LIFE OF R.M.RENFIELD - A wireless theatre original by MARTY ROSS - Released on the Wireless feed this weekend. I have had the privilege of Producing, Directing and Dialogue editing this gem, performed by the astoundingly brilliant Harry Myers and Sarah Whitehouse. Sound design lead - Fiona Thraille with sound design also by Oliver Morris. Exciting times! Thank you for listening!Enjoy!Links to the eventRadio festival website Email address radiodramafestival@gmail.comX @radiodramafestLinks to Nicholas' works Rainbow Mums - Stories of Gay and Bisexual Mums. How to have a perfect marriageWebsite Facebook Literary Associate - Script6 Links to MelanieMelanie email mel@international-arts.eu SARAH LINKS OF AUDIO JOYSARAH BLUESKYSARAH LINKTREEQUIRKY VOICES PATREONADWIT PODCASTWIRELESS THEATREINDIE AF THEME BY OLIVER MORRIS - FIND THEM HERE AND EMPLOY THEM FORTWITH FOR ALL MUSIC, SD, EDIT NEEDS!*HAPPY CREATING ALL*And don't forget to request your cakes!
It's tax season, which means we're all a least a little scared of accidentally committing tax fraud. Hannah gets fact-checked on fax machine usage and Randy's take on "Big Pharma."
North Korea launched two missiles within just ten hours of each other this week, including an intercontinental ballistic missile (ICBM) that state media said aimed to “send a clear warning” to the “U.S. and the military gangsters of the Republic of Korea.” NK News Managing Editor Bryan Betts (@BryanBetts21) discusses the third test of the Hwasong-18 this year, as well as a visit by a Russian delegation to North Korea to talk about economic cooperation and tourism. Then, Michael Bosack joins the podcast to talk about his role as deputy secretary of the U.N. Command Military Armistice Commission (UNMAC), which supervises the armistice agreement between the two Koreas along the Demilitarized Zone. He talks about the mechanisms that UNCMAC uses to communicate and negotiate with the Korean People's Army, as well as the role the commission played in incidents like a North Korean vessel crossing the inter-Korean maritime border and Travis King's dash across the Military Demarcation Line. Michael Bosack (@MikeBosack) is deputy secretary and international relations officer of UNCMAC. He was previously the deputy chief of government relations for U.S. Forces Japan and worked as a Mansfield Fellow in the Japanese Ministry of Foreign Affairs, Ministry of Defense and National Diet. About the podcast: The North Korea News Podcast is a weekly podcast hosted by Jacco Zwetsloot (@JaccoZed) exclusively for NK News, covering all things DPRK — from news to extended interviews with leading experts and analysts in the field, along with insight from our very own journalists.
Many of the core technologies behind Generative AI are not exactly brand new. For example, the "Attention Is All You Need" paper, which described and introduced the Transformer model (the "T" in ChatGPT), was published in 2017. Diffusion models—the backbone of image generation tools like StableDiffusion and DALL-e—were introduced in 2015 and were originally inspired by thermodynamic modeling techniques. Generative adversarial networks (GANs) were introduced in 2014.However, Generative AI has seemingly taken the world by storm over the past couple years. In this episode, Graham and Jason discuss—in broad strokes—what Generative AI is, what's required to train and run foundation models, where the value lies, and frontier challenges.Fact-Checking And CorrectionsBefore we begin...At around 36:16 Jason said that the Pile was compiled by OpenAI or one of its research affiliates. This is not correct. The Pile was compiled by Eleuther.ai, and we couldn't find documentation suggesting that OpenAI incorporates the entirety of The Pile into its training data corpus.At 49:07 Jason mentions "The Open Source Institute" but actually meant to mention the Open Source InitiativeApplied Machine Learning 101Not all AI and applied machine learning models are created equally, and models can be designed to complete specific types of tasks. Broadly speaking, there are two types of applied machine learning models: Discriminative and Generative.Discriminative AIDefinition: Discriminative AI focuses on learning the boundary between different classes of data from a given set of training data. Unlike generative models that learn to generate data, discriminative models learn to differentiate between classes and make predictions or decisions based on the input data.Historical Background TLDR:The development of Discriminative AI has its roots in statistical and machine learning approaches aimed at classification tasks.Logistic regression and Support Vector Machines (SVMs) are early examples of discriminative models, which have been used for many years in various fields including computer vision and natural language processing.Over time, with the development of deep learning, discriminative models like Convolutional Neural Networks (CNNs) and Recurrent Neural Networks (RNNs) have become highly effective for a wide range of classification tasks.Pop Culture Example(s):"Hotdog vs. Not a Hotdog algorithm" from HBO's Silicon Valley (S4E4)Image recognition capabilities of something like Iron Man alter ego Tony Stark's JARVIS (2008)**Real-World Example(sAutomatic speech recognition (ASR)Spam and abuse detectionFacial recognition, such as Apple's Face ID and more Orwellian examples in places ranging from China to EnglandFurther Reading:Discriminative Model (Wikipedia)Generative AIDefinition: Generative AI refers to a type of artificial intelligence that is capable of generating new data samples that are similar to a given set of training data. This is achieved through algorithms that learn the underlying patterns, structures, and distributions inherent in the training data, and can generate novel data points with similar properties.Historical Background TLDR:The origins of Generative AI can be traced back to the development of generative models, with early instances including probabilistic graphical models in the early 2000s.However, the field truly began to gain traction with the advent of Generative Adversarial Networks (GANs) b y Ian Goodfellow and his colleagues in 2014.Since then, various generative models like Variational Autoencoders (VAEs) and others have also gained prominence, contributing to the rapid advancement of Generative AI.Pop Culture Example:The AI from the movie Her (2013)Real-World Example(s):OpenAI's GPT family, alongside image models like StableDiffusion, and Midjourney.Further Reading:Deepgram's Generative AI page in the AI Glossary... co-written by Jason and GPT-4.Large Language Model in the Deepgram AI Glossary... also co-written by Jason and GPT-4.The Physics Principle That Inspired Modern AI Art (Anil Ananthaswamy, for Quanta Magazine)Visualizing and Explaining Transformer Models From the Ground Up (Zian "Andy" Wang for the Deepgram blog, January 2023)Transformer Explained hub on PapersWithCodeTransformers, Explained: Understand the Model Behind GPT-3, BERT, and T5 (Dale Markowitz on his blog, Dale on AI., May 2021)Further Reading By TopicIn rough order of when these topics were mentioned in the episode...Economic/Industry Impacts of AIHow Large Language Models Will Transform Science, Society, and AI (Alex Tamkin and Deep Ganguli for Stanford HAI's blog, February 2021)The Economic Potential of Generative AI: The Next Productivity Frontier ( McKinsey & Co., June 2023)Generative AI Could Raise Global GDP by 7% (Goldman Sachs, April 2023)Generative AI Promises an Economic Revolution. Managing the Disruption Will Be Crucial. (Bob Fernandez for WSJ Pro Central Banking, August 2023)The Economic Case for Generative AI and Foundation Models (Martin Casado and Sarah Wang for the Andreessen Horowitz Enterprise blog, August 2023)Generative AI and the software development lifecycle(Birgitta Böckeler and Ryan Murray for Thoughtworks, September 2023)How generative AI is changing the way developers work (Damian Brady for The GitHub Blog, April 2023)The AI Business Defensibility Problem (Jay F. publishing on their Substack, The Data Stream)Using Language Models EffectivelyThe emerging types of language models and why they matter (Kyle Wiggers for TechCrunch, April 2023) Crafting AI Commands: The Art of Prompt Engineering (Nithanth Ram for the Deepgram blog, March 2023)Prompt Engineering (Lilian Weng on her blog Lil'Log, March 2023)Prompt Engineering Techniques: Chain-of-Thought & Tree-of-Thought (both by Brad Nikkel for the Deepgram blog)11 Tips to Take Your ChatGPT Prompts to the Next Level (David Nield for WIRED, March 2023)Prompt Engineering 101 (Raza Habib and Sinan Ozdemir for the Humanloop blog, December 2022)Here There Be DragonsHallucinationsHallucination (artificial intelligence) (Wikipedia)Chatbot Hallucinations Are Poisoning Web Search (Will Knight for WIRED, October 2023)How data poisoning attacks corrupt machine learning models (Lucian Constantin for CSO Online)Data Poisoning & RelatedData Poisoning hub on PapersWithCodeGlaze - Protecting Artists from Generative AI project from UChicago (2023)Self-Consuming Generative Models Go MAD (Alemohammad et al. on ArXiv, July 2023)What Happens When AI Eats Itself (Tife Sanusi for the Deepgram blog, August 2023)The AI is eating itself (Casey Newton for Platformer, June 2023)AI-Generated Data Can Poison Future AI Models (Rahul Rao for Scientific American, July 2023)Intellectual Property and Fair UseMeasuring Fair Use: The Four Factors - Copyright Overview (Rich Stim for the Stanford Copyright and Fair Use Center)Is the Use of Copyrighted Works to Train AI Qualified as a Fair Use (Cala Coffman for the Copyright Alliance blog, April 2023)Reexamining "Fair Use" in the Age of AI (Andrew Myers for Stanford HAI)Copyright Fair Use Regulatory Approaches in AI Content Generation (Ariel Soiffer and Aric Jain for Tech Policy Press, August 2023)Japan's AI Data Laws, Explained (Deeplearning.ai)PDF: Generative Artificial Intelligence and Copyright Law (Congressional Research Center, September 2023)Academic and Creative "Honesty"How it started. New AI classifier for indicating AI-written text (Kirchner et al., January 2023)How it's going. OpenAI Quietly Shuts Down Its AI Detection Tool (Jason Nelson for Decrypt)AI Homework (Ben Thompson on Stratechery, December 2022)Teaching With AI (OpenAI, August 2023)Human Costs of AI Training (Picking on OpenAI here, but RLHF and similar fine-tuning techniques are employed by many/most LLM developers)Cleaning Up ChatGPT Takes Heavy Toll on Human Workers (Karen Hao and Deepa Seetharaman for the Wall Street Journal)‘It's destroyed me completely': Kenyan moderators decry toll of training of AI models (Niamh Rowe in The Guardian, August 2023)He Helped Train ChatGPT. It Traumatized Him. (Alex Kantrowitz in his publication Big Technology, May 2023)https://www.nytimes.com/2023/09/25/technology/chatgpt-rlhf-human-tutors.htmlBig QuestionsOpen questions for AI engineering (Simon Willison, October 2023)Adam Smith and the Pin Factory
Faxes, Emails, Telegramas Cantados, Pergaminos, Botellas en el mar. ¿Mi favorito? Mi teletipo. Con música de Oviformia, Elly Vihjalms e Iman Omari entre muchos otros. Escuchar audio
In the latest recap episode, Luka Doncic gets the Mavericks off to a hot start and then taunts Beave via fax. Len recommends the greatest hits of Dave Edmunds. Beave recommends "The Saint of Second Chances", on Netflix. Beave and Len cry about their favorite NFL teams' performances. Plus, the World Series, the NBA's first week of games, and we get even closer to the end of Rolling Stone's Top 500 Albums of all time! And Len's Favorite 500 Albums! Check us out!
Today Jeff teamed up with the coworkers of our Phone Tap victim to make him think that someone did something to the catering at their big office party. And now it's his job to make everything right!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
Today Jeff teamed up with the coworkers of our Phone Tap victim to make him think that someone did something to the catering at their big office party. And now it's his job to make everything right!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.
ENTERTAINING SHORT FILMS is a new category on the RPA Network, which features indie short films for your enjoyment! We applaud these creators! A man wakes up in a mysterious waiting room with no memory of how he got there or how to get out! CREDITS: Written, Produced and Directed by:Erbil Shaban Jim Schafer, Dorian Simpson, Stanley Woland, Lester Cowling Director of Photography: Richard Allen Production Company : Shotcaller Pictures Production Manager : Miriam Tovia Shaban Production Runner: Athena Christodoulou 1st AD: Ella Spottiswood 1st AC: Fanka Georgieva DIT: Deniz Oznacar Spark: Lewis Brown Art Director : Fatma Shaban Sound Recordist: Oscar Crawford Makeup Artist: Lauren Montgomery Edit: Deniz Oznacar and Erbil Shaban Colour grade: Richard Allen Camera Rental: Spinning Mirror Lighting/Grip/Lens
Eliminating faxes from your referral/patient information workflow means improving your success with referring and affiliated providers. Join us to learn how AI, NLP, and automation can reduce manual workloads and human error in your fax and document intake processes.
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Today on Talk About That, we try to remember who shot J.R. on the 80's TV show “Dallas”. Then, Jonnie has a strange encounter with two artists while out biking
Brightman NOUN The AquaCave Podcast where Jonnie Sea covers whatever "BRIGHT" idea pops into his head... The New WWF Fall Season in 1996 is in full gear, as evidenced by the new “INTERACTIVE” Program WWF Livewire! Jonnie Sea relives the very first episode and is quite amused by the “CALLs, FAXEs, and E-MAILs” of the WWF universe! Catch up with special guests BRIAN PILLMAN and JIM ROSS, and try not to stare directly into the SUNNY! Plus: HBK orders Drive-Thru, and take a shot every time Todd Pettengill says “Double-U Double-U Eff!”
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In the recap episode of Jagbags, Beave provides tons of bulletin board material for Luka Doncic and the Dallas Mavericks by doubling down on their playoff chances. Len touts Devin Booker as a worthy MVP candidate. The guys talk the thrilling NCAA championship game and Beave apologizes to Kansas for his lack of faith in them. Beave reviews "Winning Time" on HBO Max, while Len discusses the movie "Red Rocket". And tune in for still another review of an album featured in Rolling Stone's Top 500 Albums of All Time! Tune in at once!
Health and Human Services Secretary Xavier Becerra is drawing criticism for his hands-off handling of the covid crisis even though the heads of the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, National Institutes of Health, and FDA report to him.Meanwhile, the Department of Labor looks to enforce mental health “parity laws” that have failed to achieve their goals.Margot Sanger-Katz of The New York Times, Alice Miranda Ollstein of Politico, and Rachel Cohrs of Stat join KHN's Julie Rovner to discuss these issues and more.Also this week, Rovner interviews KHN's Noam N. Levey, who reported and wrote the latest KHN-NPR “Bill of the Month” episode about a large emergency room bill for a small amount of medical care. Plus, for extra credit, the panelists recommend their favorite health policy stories of the week they think you should read, too:Julie Rovner: The Washington Post's “Researchers Are Asking Why Some Countries Were Better Prepared for Covid. One Surprising Answer: Trust,” by Adam TaylorAlice Miranda Ollstein: Politico's “Next Big Health Crisis: 15M People Could Lose Medicaid When Pandemic Ends,” by Megan MesserlyMargot Sanger-Katz: KHN's “Faxes and Snail Mail: Will Pandemic-Era Flaws Unleash Improved Health Technology?” by Bram Sable-SmithRachel Cohrs: Stat's “How a Decades-Old Database Became a Hugely Profitable Dossier on the Health of 270 Million Americans,” by Casey RossClick here for a transcript of the episode. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.
Find out more on our website: https://bit.ly/3yXMkeX As you age, you tend to look at new new things with an old pair of eyes. What have these got in common? Faxes, telex, mobile phones, online shopping, streaming video, internet-enabled devices, machine learning (AI), 3D printing, IBM punchcards, PCs, minicomputers, microcomputers, internet for trading, cloud, blockchain, DeFi... Yes they're all much older than they look. They are all subject to Bannister's laws of technology. Join a fun discussion on what goes round comes round again a second time in a different way. Z/Yen conducts an irregular series of short webinars, CommunityZ Chest, featuring people from its various communities and clubs, viz. technology, financial services, civil society, and business. These webinars provide an opportunity to meet people from the wider CommunityZ, to share ideas, and to make connections. Speaker: David Bannister has been writing about technology for 40 years having started on Personal Computer World in 1979, and has specialised in financial services technology for nearly 30 years. For the past five years, David has worked as an industry analyst covering wholesale payments, transaction and corporate banking, financial market infrastructures and regulation, and analysis of the fintech sector. In this role he joined Ovum, part of Informa plc, in 2016 and between 2019 and 2021 worked as a senior analyst in Boston-based Aite Group's wholesale banking and payments practice, providing both firms' prestigious international banking and financial infrastructure clients with insightful analysis of market developments. He currently works at UK-based Bloor Research, focussing on the rapid acceleration of change technology is having on the way business and commerce function. He has contributed to Dealing with Technology, Waters magazine, Financial Markets IT, Financial News, as well as The Daily Telegraph, The Financial Times, The Times, and BBC Radio 4, Channel 4 News, BBC Newsnight and Sky News. David spent 12 years as the editor of Banking Technology magazine. He's a well-known moderator, panellist and speaker and has taken part in many international conferences, including Swift's Sibos, EBAday, Finextra's NextGen Banking and Finovate events in Europe and Asia. David has provided consultancy and training for leading IT and financial technology providers including IBM, HP, Misys (now Finastra), Temenos, and many others, including several of the world's Top Five banks.
Featuring Dan Teczar, Chief Information Officer at The Office of the Texas Secretary of State. Previously, he was a senior advisor at the Texas Department of Transportation and Director of IT Vendor Management. Traci Cotton, Deputy Director at The Office of the Texas Secretary of State. Graduate of The University of Texas at Austin. Connect with Dan: LinkedIn Connect with Traci: LinkedIn Nagarro Public Sector - Diamond Sponsor And a huge thank you to Nagarro Public Sector. This live podcast would not be possible without the support and love of Nagarro. Nagarro Public Sector excels at helping senior technology leaders in digital disruption from Cloud, AI, Big Data, and digital product engineering to system integration work across platforms. To learn more about Nagarro, check out nagarro.com. Sponsor: The TechTables Live Podcast Tour Join us for these small, intimate live podcast conversations across the U.S. July 22nd in Raleigh, North Carolina September 23rd in Sacramento, California October 14th in Tallahassee, Florida Questions Papers & Faxes & Snail Mail- oh my! Dan & Traci lead us down their yellow-brick-road journey transforming the RFI/RFO process from a 20+-year-old legacy analog system to a digital-first system, and why that matters. H.B. 1576 & the blockchain perspective in the government realm. Citizen-led relationship management in a chatbot world: how Texas is utilizing citizen feedback and partnering with private citizens as they roll out their chatbot and other services. Where to find Dan, Traci & Joe grabbing a bowl of chili the next time they get together in Austin! ---------------------- Want to dive deeper? Check out my episode on TechTables - https://www.techtables.com/ And if you're a CIO or technology leader interested in coming on TechTables, shoot me an email at joe@techtables.com Thank you for supporting Levity Media LLC ❤️, a small business growing private and public sector technology communities through fun and engaging conversations with top technology leaders. Learn more about Joe Toste (me) at https://www.techtables.com/about/ See what episodes I'm creating at https://www.techtables.com/
Edge of the Web - An SEO Podcast for Today's Digital Marketer
Covering a lot of (Site)Ground here on the show today with Erin Sparks and Mordy Oberstein. Learning about the carbon emission expense of IndexNow, SiteGround sites being deindexed from a 4-day DNS outage and how machine written content may not be so bad in the future. Bonus on this episode: see Erin lose it when Mordy calls our toll-free number for the podcast. That's conversion optimization, baby! [00:06:11] Will Google use Microsoft's new IndexNow protocol? [00:11:30] A four-day outage at SiteGround is over, but still recovering. But Google dropping indexing in that short of time? [00:18:15] So Google has talked about how machine written content is currently against Google's guidelines, but someday it might not be. [00:23:14] Bonus: Mordy dials our toll-free number and we discover that it is taking faxes…...only faxes. Listen to Erin lose it…..
The boys sit down to talk about the Beloli Open with John Hickey and Keith Beloli, the D NIT, and the Women's Firecracker. The MFK is one to weigh in on, and who faxes orders?Support the show (https://www.paypal.com/myaccount/summary)
Marci’s pets are TP-ing her house, and garden, and goat. We remember when toilet paper was (briefly) more expensive than good wine. Marci experienced a chapstick shortage during Covid, and now she’s hoarding. The credit card bonus you didn’t see coming. And…two old pieces of equipment that Turi has grudgingly had to re-learn.
This episode is also available as a blog post: https://tcpaworld.com/2021/05/14/express-writen-cosent-not-required-the-second-circuit-court-of-appeals-just-applied-express-consent-standard-for-informational-calls-to-marketing-faxes/
As an "old dude," GamerDude has seen a lot of things come and go in his life. This week, he talks about more of the things that were fixtures in his life that have either disappeared, or seem destined to do so. He talks about how important the Sunday newspaper was when he was growing up, and how much of a ritual it was to enjoy the Sunday paper each week. He talks about fax machines, and the old thermal fax paper that made instant document transmission a reality long before email attachments existed. He remembers mimeograph machines from school, and chalkboards with actual chalk. He also talks about how parking meters are disappearing in favor of credit-card driven kiosks. And, he predicts that wrist watches and alarm clocks may soon be going the way of the dodo bird.
Mit plattgesessenen Hintern in Jeans-Leggins dekorieren Crise und Mario in dieser Folge Amtszimmer mit vergilbten Kalendern von 98, erklären Autoaufkleber zu Statussymbolen, parken mit gelbem Blinklicht als Notdienst in der zweiten Reihe, ergründen die Magie von Küchenparties, finden Dank eines Faxes der Bundesregierung ihre Mitte, schauen gemeinsam den letzten Film im Kino, verkleiden sich als Sunny und Cher und krönen sich gegenseitig zum Arschloch der Woche.
Local health departments rely on the old-fangled tech to track cases. A hastily developed machine-learning program gives it an assist.
Local health departments rely on the old-fangled tech to track cases. A hastily developed machine-learning program gives it an assist.
In part one of my conversation with Caren Maio, the co-founder and president of Funnel, she talked about her product that helped property owners and managers pull leasing out of the world of Faxes and into the modern era. In this second part of our conversation, she talks about how her background in marketing and sales made her the right fit to lead a real estate tech company—and she offers her thoughts on the importance of relationships over dollars.
The digitalization of our society is so fully upon us, there are college graduates today with no experience of any other way of life. And yet, some industries have remained stubbornly resistant to the 21st century. Real estate leasing is certainly one. Owners and renters are mired in paperwork, pay stubs, and Faxes. Any of those college students looking to rent their first apartment may wonder if they've traveled back in time. But Caren Maio, the president and cofounder of Funnel, is hoping to pull the leasing experience back into the present. On this edition of UpTech Report, Caren talks about her product, which gives property owners sophisticated tools for marketing and operations with the goal of taking the headaches out of the dotted line.
This week we have a discussion about Christmas dinner and reminisce about the phenomenal cooking techniques of our dear brother James. Ange has a rant about people who have the sound on their phone, especially when texting and we end up back on the topic of WhatsApp groups! We also talk about whether it is ever acceptable to ask someone why they are still single. We love hearing from you, you can find us on instagram @ruth_corden and @angecorden. Alternatively you can send us an email hello@ruthcorden.com If you listen on apple we would love it if you could give us a review and (5) starts. It really helps! Thanks
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Despite having a reputation as a modern technological powerhouse, much of Japan's bureaucracy is steeped in analogue technology, with even fax machines still commonplace. Prime Minister Yoshihide Suga wants to change that by reducing the use of paper and kickstarting a digital revolution. But in the country of origami, saying "sayonora" to paper is easier said than done. Our correspondents report.
En el día de hoy vamos a hablar de otro de esos temas que siempre ha captado mi atención desde la infancia, esa cosa tan extraña que llaman “El Tiempo”. Hablaremos de una increíble historia de viaje en el tiempo. Se trata de la historia de John Titor. ¿Realidad? ¿Ficción? https://www.fukitifu.com/blog/2020/07/26/john-titor-el-viajero-del-tiempo/ Faxes de John Titor: https://www.fukitifu.com/blog/2020/07/26/el-fax-de-john-titor-en-coast-to-coast/
En el día de hoy vamos a hablar de otro de esos temas que siempre ha captado mi atención desde la infancia, esa cosa tan extraña que llaman “El Tiempo”. Hablaremos de una increíble historia de viaje en el tiempo. Se trata de la historia de John Titor. ¿Realidad? ¿Ficción? https://www.fukitifu.com/blog/2020/07/26/john-titor-el-viajero-del-tiempo/ Faxes de John Titor: https://www.fukitifu.com/blog/2020/07/26/el-fax-de-john-titor-en-coast-to-coast/ Música en este episodio: Black Sabbath - Iron Man Accept - Time Machine Volumes - Wormholes Leo Moracchioli - The Power of Love Mastodon - Divinations Anthrax - Time
Der Performance Manager Podcast | Für Controller & CFO, die noch erfolgreicher sein wollen
Public Relations von Hoynigen-Huenne (prvhh) ist alteingesessene PR-Agentur in Hamburg. Die Agentur wurde 1972 gegründet und ist heute in zweiter Generation inhabergeführt. In den 48 Jahren des Bestehens hat prvhh viele technische Neuerungen miterlebt und mitbegleitet: Von der Einführung des Faxes über PC und E-Mail bis hin zu Internet, Social Media und Performance Marketing heute. Wie beeinflusst die Digitalisierung die Unternehmenskommunikation, was verändert sich für PR-Agenturen und was hat das alles mit Controlling zu? Darüber sprechen wir mit Marc von Bandemer, dem Geschäftsführer von prvhh in einem zweiteiligen Podcast. Webseite prvhh: www.prvhh.de E-Mail von Marc von Bandemer: mvb@prvhh.de Der Performance Manager Podcast ist der erste und einzige deutschsprachige Podcast für Business Intelligence und Performance Management. Controller und CFO erhalten hier Inspirationen, Know-how und Impulse für die berufliche und persönliche Weiterentwicklung. Weitere Informationen zu Peter Bluhm, dem Macher des Podcast, finden Sie hier: https://www.atvisio.de/unternehmen/ Unsere Bitte: Wenn Ihnen diese Folge gefallen hat, hinterlassen Sie uns bitte eine 5-Sterne-Bewertung, ein Feedback auf iTunes und abonnieren diesen Podcast. Zeitinvestition: Maximal ein bis zwei Minuten. Dadurch helfen Sie uns, den Podcast immer weiter zu verbessern und Ihnen die Inhalte zu liefern, die Sie sich wünschen. Herzlichen Dank an dieser Stelle! Sie sind ein Fan unseres Podcast? Sie finden uns auch auf diesen Kanälen: Exklusive Xing-Gruppe zum Podcast: https://bit.ly/3eKubH6 Exklusive LinkedIn-Gruppe zum Podcast: https://bit.ly/2zp6q7j Peter Bluhm auf LinkedIn: https://bit.ly/2x0WhwN Peter Bluhm auf Xing: https://bit.ly/2Kkxhne Webseite: https://atvisio.de/podcast Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ATVISIO/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/atvisio Instagram: https://bit.ly/2KlhyEi Apple Podcast: https://apple.co/2RUMwaK Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/atvisio
A teaser of our first podcast, Fixing Faxes. We'll be launching in a week or two, so subscribe to this feed to get the first episode when it is published.Show Notes:We have come up with a name since recording this teaser. Our show is called Fixing Faxes, which will make more sense after the first episode, we promise.Fact check: In this episode Angela mentions adverse statistics regarding female tech founders and age, stating 'there is a lot of statistics showing that tech founders are typically under the age of 35'. We wanted to make sure this wasn't a flippant remark, and the statistics support what she said:Paul Graham from Y Combinator once quipped “The cutoff in investors' heads is 32,” Graham says. “After 32, they start to be a little skeptical.” A UK study found that the average age of founders to be 34 years old, who received >30M in funding. While venture capital does not typically favour older founders, there is some evidence contrary to what Angela said; the Harvard Business Review found that founders average age is 42 with 45 being the age of the most successful founders.On the note of being a female founder; according to the Silicon Valley Bank only 1 in 4 start-ups have at least 1 female founder, when there is a female founder then there is a 50% likelihood there is a female CEO but for the other 75% of startups it is only a likelihood of 5% there will be a female CEO. Forbes noted "In 2018, just 20.3% of all deals and 17.9% of funding went to companies with at least one female founder. So far this year, 88.8% of all venture capital deals have gone to companies with a male CEO."FollowAngela Hapke - twitter: @angelahapke - https://www.clinnect.caJonathan Bowers - twitter: @thejonotron - https://www.twostoryrobot.comCreditsProduced and Hosted by Jonathan Bowers and Angela HapkeMusic by Andrew Codeman (CC BY 3.0)TranscriptJonathan: [00:00:00] We still don't have a name. That's fine. We should, we should come up with a name though. We can record that in later, butAngela: [00:00:07] Don't you think people like authors who write books, they don't start with a name.Jonathan: [00:00:11] No, you don't say, "oh, here's 'Pride and Prejudice' that's a great name,now what should I write about?"Angela: [00:00:20] We don't know what this is called yet.Jonathan: [00:00:22] We'll think about that.Hi, my name is Jonathan Bowers. I am a software developer and entrepreneur based in Kamloops, and I'm helping Angela launch a healthcare startup.Angela: [00:00:32] I'm Angela Hapke. I am the CEO of Central Referral Solutions, the company that is launching a digital health startup product by the name of ClinnectJonathan: [00:00:44] So what is this podcast about?Angela: [00:00:46] This podcast is going to be a lot about the journey that we're on launching Clinnect. But I also think that for me, it's a really interesting journey because we are launching a startup against a lot of odds.uh, the CEO, myself as a female,we are launching it in Kamloops, British Columbia, it's a social enterprise our age.Jonathan: [00:01:14] Okay.Angela: [00:01:15] when you take a look at the stats, it's pretty astounding how many founders are not over the age of something like 35.Jonathan: [00:01:23] What is considered the geriatric stage of startup founderdomAngela: [00:01:27] which would be the first time that I've been called geriatric. Because I had children late also, so I got to be geriatric pregnancy. And now with geriatric tech founder,Um also a nontechnical.Jonathan: [00:01:43] Well, that's why I'm here.Angela: [00:01:44] No, I know. Yes. Thank goodness. My hope is to kind of come out and say, Hey, we're trying and look at all the reasons that we shouldn't do this because there's so many, but instead we're going to try and we're going to talk about that process and we're going to be vulnerable along the journey and, have meaningful conversations.So. I guess if you're listening to this, um, and you want to build a billion dollar company and become a rocket ship, you should probably go find anotherpodcast.Jonathan: [00:02:16] There's a bunch of other podcasts out thereYeah. If you're, if you're a geriatric woman in Kamloops BC wanting to start a healthcare technology startup, this is your podcast.Angela: [00:02:26] This is for you?Jonathan: [00:02:29] uh, are we going to have any interviews?Angela: [00:02:32] Oh, I think so. I hope so.I have some really cool people hear it and they're like, Hey. I want to come on. Wouldn't that be cool. Instead of us being like, please.
Der Performance Manager Podcast | Für Controller & CFO, die noch erfolgreicher sein wollen
Public Relations von Hoynigen-Huenne (prvhh) ist alteingesessene PR-Agentur in Hamburg. Die Agentur wurde 1972 gegründet und ist heute in zweiter Generation inhabergeführt. In den 48 Jahren des Bestehens hat prvhh viele technische Neuerungen miterlebt und mitbegleitet: Von der Einführung des Faxes über PC und E-Mail bis hin zu Internet, Social Media und Performance Marketing heute. Wie beeinflusst die Digitalisierung die Unternehmenskommunikation, was verändert sich für PR-Agenturen und was hat das alles mit Controlling zu? Darüber sprechen wir mit Marc von Bandemer, dem Geschäftsführer von prvhh in einem zweiteiligen Podcast. Webseite prvhh: www.prvhh.de E-Mail von Marc von Bandemer: mvb@prvhh.de Der Performance Manager Podcast ist der erste und einzige deutschsprachige Podcast für Business Intelligence und Performance Management. Controller und CFO erhalten hier Inspirationen, Know-how und Impulse für die berufliche und persönliche Weiterentwicklung. Weitere Informationen zu Peter Bluhm, dem Macher des Podcast, finden Sie hier: https://www.atvisio.de/unternehmen/ Unsere Bitte: Wenn Ihnen diese Folge gefallen hat, hinterlassen Sie uns bitte eine 5-Sterne-Bewertung, ein Feedback auf iTunes und abonnieren diesen Podcast. Zeitinvestition: Maximal ein bis zwei Minuten. Dadurch helfen Sie uns, den Podcast immer weiter zu verbessern und Ihnen die Inhalte zu liefern, die Sie sich wünschen. Herzlichen Dank an dieser Stelle! Sie sind ein Fan unseres Podcast? Sie finden uns auch auf diesen Kanälen: Exklusive Xing-Gruppe zum Podcast: https://bit.ly/3eKubH6 Exklusive LinkedIn-Gruppe zum Podcast: https://bit.ly/2zp6q7j Peter Bluhm auf LinkedIn: https://bit.ly/2x0WhwN Peter Bluhm auf Xing: https://bit.ly/2Kkxhne Webseite: https://atvisio.de/podcast Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ATVISIO/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/atvisio Instagram: https://bit.ly/2KlhyEi Apple Podcast: https://apple.co/2RUMwaK Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/atvisio
Tech has helped in the fight against the coronavirus, but there’s a bottleneck when it comes to contact tracing: public health departments. These government agencies are chronically underfunded, and some don’t have the right tech to get medical data quickly. Host Molly Wood speaks with Dan Gorenstein, co-host of the health-care podcast “Tradeoffs,” about trying to track the spread of the virus with fax machines.
Tech has helped in the fight against the coronavirus, but there’s a bottleneck when it comes to contact tracing: public health departments. These government agencies are chronically underfunded, and some don’t have the right tech to get medical data quickly. Host Molly Wood speaks with Dan Gorenstein, co-host of the health-care podcast “Tradeoffs,” about trying to track the spread of the virus with fax machines.
Join us in this episode when we tell you about our experience with faxes and why they still are a thing.
Hole Story meets players from corporations: Lazerhawks, Ehefkae, and Sinner’s Trajectory to discuss the Capital ship fights in wormholes. They answer who the best Force Auxiliaries (medic) pilots are. ICarus100 – lazerhawks Kill Dawrabbit – Ehefkae Scotty Nardiello – Sinner’s Trajectory Why does your corp use caps? Faxes – fittings, overall WH balance Dreads, which ones are used, how are they fit, and why How have leshaks impacted(or not) the capital pvp meta ? Fights to Look at: https://zkillboard.com/related/31002496/201905191900/ https://zkillboard.com/related/31002204/201905122000/ https://zkillboard.com/related/31002496/201905112100/o/%7B%22A%22%3A%5B%2299003144%22%5D%2C%22B%22%3A%5B%5D%7D/ https://zkillboard.com/related/31001967/201905100000/
Technology is awesome! Every new things makes our life better, or does it? Examine our tech and relationships with this retro-mod version of Verbal Surgery -658- “8 Tracks and Faxes” and feel good, NOW!
It's a very special crossover episode of the Madhouse Podcast and Faxes from Uncle Dale's Live from the Five Hole Podcast. James Neveau, Jay Zawaski, Sam Fels, Matt McClure and Fifth Feather John discuss the 2018-19 season, look ahead to free agency and the draft, and talk about the ongoing Stanley Cup Playoffs. Website: MadhousePod.comSponsors: TripleThreatSports.com, Merichkas.com, ChucksCafe.com, RabidBrewing.com, michaelelwood.illinoisproperty.com/Support: Patreon.com/MadhousePod, GoFundMe.com/MadhousePod
This week the door closes on the fax trilogy, Angelo is enthralled by Super Smash Bros. Ultimate, Apple needs to get its content everywhere, don't chip yourself when you're drunk, and Samsung's daliences with a shady Supreme brand knockoff pay off for everyone else but the companies involved. As the conversation shifts to the paranomal, Angelo discovers his latent psychic abilities, a woman divorces a 300 year-old ghost, a cloned Nigerian president, and #pizzagate is the worst.
What happens when a small burger place gets too much fame? Do people like watching chess online? Why are people still using fax machines? Is Angelo still working on his farm? What will we find on Mars? Why are exorcisms on the rise in the United States? Brian and Angelo have a look at all these things and more this week, on episode 84 of Double Density.
On today’s show, Jonnie witnesses something weird at the Apple store, John talks to his phone with a British accent, and the boys discuss the last two seasons of The Office. Also, a conversation on liturgy, and how being present is better than living from event to event. This episode is NOT sponsored by Faxes
This week: work week wishes, fax-free futures, and AI art. http://sbi.sydney.edu.au/the-future-this-week-2-nov-18-work-weeks-faxes-and-ai-art/
This week: work week wishes, fax-free futures, and AI art. Sandra Peter (Sydney Business Insights) and Kai Riemer (Digital Disruption Research Group) meet once a week to put their own spin on news that is impacting the future of business in The Future, This Week. You can subscribe to this podcast on Soundcloud, iTunes, Spotify, Stitcher, Libsyn, YouTube or wherever you get your podcasts. You can follow us online on Flipboard (flip.it/jdwqTP), Twitter, or sbi.sydney.edu.au. Show notes and links to this episode, including the news stories of the week, other stories we bring up and more are available at: http://sbi.sydney.edu.au/the-future-this-week-2-nov-18-work-weeks-faxes-and-ai-art If you enjoyed this episode, you can access our playlists at http://sbi.sydney.edu.au/thefuturethisweek
This week: work week wishes, fax-free futures, and AI art. Sandra Peter (Sydney Business Insights) and Kai Riemer (Digital Disruption Research Group) meet once a week to put their own spin on news that is impacting the future of business in The Future, This Week. You can subscribe to this podcast on Soundcloud, iTunes, Spotify, Stitcher, Libsyn, YouTube or wherever you get your podcasts. You can follow us online on Flipboard (flip.it/jdwqTP), Twitter, or sbi.sydney.edu.au. Show notes and links to this episode, including the news stories of the week, other stories we bring up and more are available at: http://sbi.sydney.edu.au/the-future-this-week-2-nov-18-work-weeks-faxes-and-ai-art If you enjoyed this episode, you can access our playlists at http://sbi.sydney.edu.au/thefuturethisweek
This is part 3, of this four-part series of the Practice of Therapy Podcast, “Love the Work, But Hate The Job”. In this session, Gordon explores some of the logistics around setting up an office and getting started with your private practice. This four-part series discusses the various steps and things a clinician might want to think about as they move into private practice. The series discusses: 1.) Knowing your “WHY”, 2.) Making a Plan, 3.) Setting-up an Office, and 4.) Marketing & Getting Referrals. Check out the mini-course: “Love the Work, But Hate The Job” In this course, you will be emailed 4 lessons, one each day, that will walk you through a way to think about making the transition from agency work into private practice. (Get the discount here!) Setting Up The Office One of the very first things you have to figure out, logistically, about going into private practice is where and how you will see clients. The good news about doing talk therapy is all you really need is a couple of chairs and place to meet that is private and has very few distractions. The truth is, that could be just about anywhere. But, we need a little more than that for ourselves and for our clients. For example, a waiting and reception area is nice to have. Also, a comfy, warm and inviting therapy room makes a big difference too. We want our clients to feel at ease and safe when they come to us. Finding the right place to meet with clients sometimes takes some creativity and willingness to “think outside the box”. For most people getting started in private practice, there needs to be some flexibility in order be a bit more frugal. You really can't afford a huge office with all the “bells and whistles” in those beginning stages. Finding an Office Space There are a lot of things you want to take into consideration in getting an office to see clients. Location is important. Also thinking about how clients get in and out of the space. It's better to not have a lot of stairs (I did that and it was a barrier for some clients). Also thinking long-term as you grow; will the space support your growth? A good place to start is just looking online and in directories like Craigslist. Keep an eye out for places as your drive around town or begin to look. Sometimes people will only advertise by having a sign out in front of an office space. I know too, letting friends and other folks know you are looking for an office space can bring some results. Use social media to help let people know you are looking. Also maybe consider talking to a realtor who specializes in office space. Bootstrapping and Sharing Office Space The normal progression of being in private practice is that you will want to do a lot of “bootstrapping” in those beginning stages. In other words, you leverage your time while you have a lot of it. You also want to be able to save as much money as possible as you build your financial assets in the practice. Depending on where you are located, office space may be easy to come by or not. Usually, if there is a lot of spaces available, the prices will be more competitive. Needless to say, it makes sense, in those beginning stages, not to overextend yourself financially by spending a lot on office space. After all, office space will be one of your bigger, if not the biggest, expense you will have with running a private practice. For this reason, subleasing or sharing office space just makes sense. And it doesn't need to be another therapist's office either. You could rent or sublease space from any other professional (lawyers, doctors, chiropractors, etc.). Also, look into churches, synagogues or other civic organizations that might have the extra space. Group Practices One thing to not overlook is considering joining a group private practice as an independent contractor. Depending on their business model, many group practices do a “fee-split” with the clinicians they contract with. The advantage is that your “overhead” is already taken care of by the fee split. Depending on how it is structured, you might do better, in the long run, to work within a group practice than trying to go out on your own and build the referrals and client base you need. Also, it might be that you would come out better financially by not having to worry as much about the cost of being in practice. Non-Traditional Services Another thing to consider when getting started in private practice is to look into teletherapy or online therapy. It is something that is certainly growing and lucrative for a lot of people. In fact, some people have built their whole practice around this model of delivery. Another delivery method is to go to the clients, rather than them coming to you. In-home therapy is offered by a lot of agencies. The same model can be used by people in private practice. Phones, Email and Such Another part of running a private practice is having systems in place for people to contact you and make appointments. There are any number of phone systems available, but a simple/easy solution is to simply get a separate cell phone to use for your practice. Then as you grow you can look a dedicated phone system that is HIPAA compliant and all that. As far as email goes, Google G-Suite is one of the best options for many reasons. You can set it up to use your own domain name (it's more professional that way). Also, it is HIPAA secure if you use the business (paid) version of G-Suite. The other thing is the whole suite of applications that it comes with. These tools are very adaptable to small business and being able to manage a private practice. (Check out the full G-Suite for Therapists Course here) For some practices, they will need a FAX service. More and more, email is replacing FAXes, but might be something you will need. S-Fax is one service I can recommend and also the one I use in my practice. Other Office Equipment Besides phones and FAXes, it is helpful to have a copier and printer. Again depending on where and how you are set up. It might be that the office space you are using will provide those things. Finding and setting up an office is really not all that hard. It just takes a bit of perseverance and willingness to do some searching. Ultimately the office and equipment you pick will help you sustain and grow, Resources Mentioned: G-Suite for Business (This is an affiliate link to get 20% off your first year. Also, I do receive a commission for this at no extra cost to you) G-Suite for Therapists Course Mastermind Groups- Find out more and apply here! Other Resources for Office Set-Up Meet Gordon Brewer, MEd, LMFT Gordon is the person behind The Practice of Therapy Podcast & Blog.He is also President and Founder of Kingsport Counseling Associates, PLLC. He is a therapist, consultant, business mentor, trainer and writer. PLEASE Subscribe to The Practice of Therapy Podcast on Apple Podcasts, Stitcher and Google Play. Follow us on Twitter @therapistlearn and Pinterest “Like” us on Facebook.
Thursday Wake for Fr. Bishoy- Track 12- Faxes from Bishops and Priests by Saint Mary Coptic Orthodox Church, East Brunswick, NJ
Jerry, Jason, Rob, and Steve break down the 64 jingles selected for the 2017 jingle bracket showdown (April Asininity!!!!). The guys explain their rationale or lack thereof for picking jingles across four regions: Emails, Faxes, and Crap; Unaired and Miscellaneous; Friends and Enemies; and Old Guy Radio/News/Steve's Random-Ass Picks.
Jerry, Jason, Rob, and Steve break down the 64 jingles selected for the 2017 jingle bracket showdown (April Asininity!!!!). The guys explain their rationale or lack thereof for picking jingles across four regions: Emails, Faxes, and Crap; Unaired and Miscellaneous; Friends and Enemies; and Old Guy Radio/News/Steve's Random-Ass Picks.
We dive into Dilbert and his connection to Syria, the White Helmet's and the Russians. Then we unpack Jesus' death? Did he die? Did he move to Japan to start a garlic farm, is he secretly a space lizard? You will find out the answers to this and... well not much else. And you probably won't find the answers. EXPECT LOLS THOUGH
What can and can’t you fax under the Telephone Consumer Protection Act? Who can you send faxes to and when? In this podcast, these questions and more are answered by attorney Lance Ziebell.
Nick O'Neill the creator of GetTre.at shows us that disruptive ideas for apps can be all around us. Listen to how Nick took advantage of a service that deparately needed dragging into the 21st century.
The point of this series is to start a conversation about how those of us diagnosed with psychotic disorders get people to believe our truths. After all, once you've been diagnosed as being psychotic, your credibility is never the same, even when you're speaking the truth. I have a podcast on iTunes in which I reveal a lot about myself, and lately I've noticed how much these podcasts have been teaching me about myself and what I've lost. This illness has taken a great deal from me, including my ability to gain recognition for my accomplishments. So, what I'd like to do here is recognize some of these accomplishments, knowing that had my life been different, they could have been acknowledged in a more public arena. Knowing, too, that, because I have schizoaffective disorder that is characterized by delusional thinking, hallucinations, and mood fluctuations, even when I speak the truth, I am often dismissed and not believed, with my truths described as mere delusions. I want to acknowledge my accomplishments not only for myself but also for all you out there. Those of you who may or may not already be diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or any other serious mental condition, whose truths, like mine, are so frequently dismissed as delusions. It upsets me even to write this, to realize that those around me can—and do—categorize what I say as delusional, and I wonder if that also happens to you. I'd like to begin by briefly mentioning that I was diagnosed with Tourette's at the age of 12, although, according to my mother, I had shown symptoms since I was two. I sometimes wonder whether I was even then showing signs of the psychosis that has plagued me for my entire adult life. I was 18 when I had my first psychotic episode. It was Christmas Day, 1994. I was living in New York City and was admitted to Beth Israel, where I was given a number of tests—medical and psychological. My toxicology report came up 100% clean, a clear indication that my psychosis was not drug-induced. My intake report by the ER doctor shows that I had a “loosening of association” and “pressured speech,” both of which can indicate schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorder, or bipolar disorder with psychotic features. No wonder it took so long for me to get the right diagnosis; so many of the symptoms overlap. However, I want to bring this back to delusion and truth, and how people so frequently label your truths as delusional as soon as you've been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder. I will also discuss my condition's genesis and prognosis—and then move onto those accomplishments for which I've never been truly recognized. I often wonder if other people, like me, have trouble being believed. As I may have mentioned already, serious mental illness, such as schizoaffective disorder, is believed to be caused first by a genetic predisposition to develop mental illness and second by environmental factors. In my family, I have a grandfather who seems to have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, according to old medical records that I recently found. In addition, I have two second cousins, both of whom have been publicly diagnosed with mental illness. So, I would definitely seem to be genetically predisposed to becoming mentally ill. However, having this predisposition isn't enough. You also need certain environmental factors. What I've read in some of the literature is that mental illness can be compared to diabetes. A person may be genetically predisposed to develop diabetes, but if that person gets enough exercise and watches their sugar intake, then the diabetes may never take hold—it's the same with mental illness. In my case, I had the predisposition, but I also underwent enough traumas (sexual, physical, and emotional abuse) and upheavals (such as my parents' divorce when I was young) for the illness to take hold. Boy, did it take hold. Sometimes, though, people like my sister, who has a genetic predisposition plus environmental factors (my sister comes from the same family and has had the same kind of upheavals), do not become mentally ill. Nobody knows why. Maybe, as my wife says, it's just the luck of the draw. She's kidding. At least about the luck part, because having mental illness isn't lucky, although we do have to keep laughing about it. Keep positive. You're never alone if you can laugh with someone about it. As I've mentioned, I have schizoaffective disorder. Originally, though, I was diagnosed with depression. That was back in 1994, when I was 18. Over the next 10 years or so, I saw doctor after doctor, moving here and there, trying to find my place in the world. I made seven suicide attempts and had years of alcohol and drug abuse issues. My last suicide attempt was in 2001, and I was freed from my drug and alcohol addictions in early 2003. More than 11 years ago. As I was getting off the drugs, I saw a doctor who diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder, which basically means schizophrenia with a mood disorder thrown in, and, in my case, that mood disorder is bipolar with manic features. However, in 2005 and 2006 I saw a doctor who said that I did not have schizoaffective disorder. Instead, I had a personality disorder. The point is that getting the right diagnosis can be time-consuming and frustrating, but it is also necessary, as once I was “re- diagnosed” with schizoaffective disorder, I was able to get on the right medication. But that's a different story altogether. I'm focusing here on being diagnosed with any type of mental illness that includes psychotic features that then make it almost impossible for people around you to believe your truths. However, not only do I have the double whammy of a thought disorder coupled with a mood disorder, I also have Tourette's syndrome, which is considered severe since this usually tapers off in one's 20s but mine did not. I'm 39 now, so, along with the confusion I suffer and the mood fluctuations, I also tic and sometimes engage in coprolalia, which is involuntary swearing or yelling out racial epithets. Hard combination. Added to that mix, I also seem to have aspects of obsessive compulsive disorder—I have to keep my computer arranged ‘just so'; Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)—I frequently relive earlier traumas; attention deficit disorder—I can't focus on anything for any period of time; autism or Asperger's—like Temple Grandin, I may be smart, but I can't read social cues at all. Makes it difficult to hang out and just be “one of the guys.”My current psychiatrist, Dr. C, who—unlike others—never hesitated to diagnose me, saw me when I was at my worst. I was in the middle of a psychotic episode. I was in the process of a divorce (my wife and I have since reconciled), and I had no money, as my family had cut me off from my trust income. In the past, too many doctors had seen me when I did have money and was able to hire people to do what I could not—for example shopping, driving, and cleaning. Because these doctors saw me when I could hire people, they all considered me to be “too high functioning” to have any form of schizophrenia. As a result of being considered “high functioning,” I was diagnosed for years as having a personality disorder. Some doctors thought I had borderline personality disorder (BPD); others thought I had a personality disorder not otherwise specified (NOS). Let me tell you, having the right diagnosis has turned things around at last. I'm now on the right medication. My wife and caregivers understand the nature of the illness and know some excellent ways of dealing with it and with me. Although the illness will never go away, I do have hope that I'll continue to get the right treatment and that my life will continue to get better. Now, the big one: What do you do when people assume your truths are delusions? Let's start with just a little bit more background. At the last count, I have had approximately 30 rehab stints and/or hospitalizations. That's a lot. When you're hospitalized, especially involuntarily, people tend to dismiss everything you say as a symptom of your illness. I understand that, but I don't like it, because it's hard when people don't believe you. A couple of examples. I moved to Los Angeles in January 2001 because I wanted to be a Hollywood screenwriter. I was two days shy of my 25th birthday. I was a go-getter back then, a social butterfly, and found it easy to introduce myself to just about anyone. As a result, I met Joanna Cassidy, Dick Van Dyke, Robert Downey Jr., Mel Gibson, and others. Then, as my drug and alcohol use spiraled out of control, I got myself into rehab. Since I had access to my trust fund, I could afford the rehab facilities where “celebrities” went, places such as Promises in Malibu. In these places, I met movie producers, writers, actors, musicians, and kids of celebrities. The point is, I met all these people, and some of them I befriended. Because so many of the rehab facilities didn't help me stay off drugs and alcohol, a friend and I started our own facility, Wavelengths, which also catered to celebrities. Wavelengths took a more proactive approach to getting people off drugs and alcohol. If you ever saw the show The Cleaner, you'll have a better idea of what I mean by “proactive.” In fact, that show was based on the friend with whom I started Wavelengths, and, although I was never credited, I was the co-creator of the show. But now, when I tell people about The Cleaner or knowing Chuck Lorre, Robert Downey Jr., or Mel Gibson, they smile blankly, nod their head, and dismiss what I say as a delusion. That's maddening—if you'll pardon the pun. Another example. In the summer of 2010, I checked myself into a facility in Colorado so I could get on the right meds and try to get myself re-stabilized. As I was being admitted as a patient with schizoaffective disorder, which is characterized by a thought disorder, including delusions, both my wife and my doctor spoke with the facility before I was admitted so that the doctors and social workers would know I wasn't delusional about the people I knew. My wife and doctor also let the facility know about my financial background, because I don't always look “rich.” Lately, I like to dress in t-shirts and pajama bottoms. I like to keep my hair permed and wild, and I like to wear a beard. As a result, sometimes when I'm admitted, the staff person will write that I'm a little unkempt, and when I then start talking about the money I'm worth, the same staff person will flash a little, tight smile as if to say: “Of course, you are. And I have a Swiss bank account.” Those staff people don't always know that I can “tell” what they're thinking—I can see it on their faces—, and they feel free to openly doubt my truth. More on “delusions.” The reason I write is to share my story, and sometimes—I've got to admit—it's hard knowing that a lot of people may not believe me. I bring this up because I'm sure that those of you who read what I write must have as complicated a story as mine. I am just spelling out some things—kind of “straight-from-the-heart” sharing with you all. My family, as I've mentioned, is rich and powerful. Maybe your family is not rich or powerful, but still I think you'll understand. Their money and their power helped make me who I am, just as your parents helped make you who you are. I'm not attacking anyone. I am simply telling the story of my life. I have earned the right to do that. Come to think of it, though, maybe I never did have to “earn the right” to tell the story of my life. People have a right to their own stories and to tell these stories in their own voice, not anybody else's. This is my time. My story. Not my family's. And I owe it to you to share a taste of the complexity of my life, so you'll understand the complexity of your own. So, yes, my family is rich and powerful. That is not a delusion. You can look them up yourself. They are public people. Sometimes I think that because they are public people, they have had a hard time accepting me for who I am. I know they have had a hard time accepting my diagnosis. And, really, I am not attacking them. Maybe they can't accept my diagnosis because they think it will reflect badly on them. I haven't talked to my family in a few years. I wish I felt sad about that, but I can't. My family doesn't love me. Sometimes I think they might even hate me, because they cut off my money and they cut off contact with me. But I'm getting sidetracked—what my wife calls “going off on a tangent.” So I'll stop. One area that has always been hard and that created a lot of misunderstanding in my family is my diagnosis. No one has ever accepted that I had the wrong diagnosis for years and that getting the right diagnosis has helped me move forward. Not that a diagnosis makes the illness easy, and, in many respects, a diagnosis is nothing but a label. However, with the right diagnosis (or label), you can get the right medication, the right therapy, and people—like caregivers—who know how to deal with you. The right diagnosis is a starting point that means you can read about whatever “label” you have been tagged with—or might need to be tagged with. In my case, I was “tagged with” BPD for years. On the one hand, that wasn't such a bad diagnosis, because people wouldn't then label me as being delusional. On the other hand, when people thought I had BPD, they accused me of lying, which brings me back to my family. In the past, my family has told me to “snap out of it” and to “get my act together”—that I would then be “fine.” You can't “snap out” of schizophrenia. You may get the symptoms under control, and you may even, like John Nash, seem to recover from the disorder, but you don't—and can't—“snap out of it.” My family, believing that I was capable of getting my act together, created a lot of tension between us. I use the past tense here because I don't know if they now believe my diagnosis. As I've mentioned, we've had no contact since January 2010, so I don't know what they believe. In January of that year, my family cut me off and stripped me of any help. I had no gardeners and no driver (I no longer drive). I had nothing. Based on what they wrote to me at the time, they seemed to think that they should provide a little “tough love” (like you see on Intervention) and that I would then agree to get better. I was never not agreeing to get better. Believe me, it's no fun having schizoaffective disorder. If your family or loved ones already believe your diagnosis, you are that much farther ahead because, if they believe the diagnosis, they can help. I'm taking my own advice today and staying positive. I think of all I have lost, and I can get very depressed. At one time, I had editors, housekeepers, free travel, a huge inheritance, my trust funds, and lavish cars. I've been to the best schools in the country. I had public-figure parents and several celebrities in my extended family, some of whom had actually, quite publicly, been diagnosed with mental illnesses. When I compare what I once had to what I now have, I can get depressed. I focus on the past and fail to appreciate the present. Taking my own advice to stay positive, I have three dogs, seven cats, and one bird. Now, some people might not think having so many animals is so positive, but I like walking through the house and every time being followed by at least one of them. My animals are one positive. Another positive. I no longer have diabetes. I have lost so much weight that my blood sugar is normal. I still take one of the diabetic meds because it can prevent diabetes—and also because my other meds can cause diabetes. But I am healthier than I was. No diabetes is another positive. My wife is the third positive. We reconciled two years ago, and so far we are working things out and trying to help each other. My work is the fourth positive. The schizoaffective disorder has really affected my thinking and my emotions, but it hasn't touched my creativity. I podcast, I write a journal, and I make music and movies. I have even sold a couple of songs on iTunes. My memories are the fifth and final positive for today. Although my father and I had a falling out in 2009, that's his issue. He and I have had great, absolutely fantastic, times together, and I treasure the memories. When I focus only on these memories, I can stay positive. For many reasons, I have had quite a few psychiatrists over the years. My current doctor—whom I call Dr. C—is the one that most recently diagnosed me as having schizoaffective disorder. When I went to see her the second or third time, I brought along five bookshelves' worth of my journals. My diaries. All my written documentation of madness—the faxes and emails that proved that 1,000 hours of film that I had shot had been stolen. That's it. I can't do anything about it. I have proof of a software development proposal I made when I was 15. I received a scholarship to business school, honors, and recognition. I was like John Nash except I was proposing software, not math. What I proposed would have been the first online shopping interface. But it got taken away, like everything. I have the proof, the actual documents. Real. These truths are mine. And I have schizophrenia, and I even have delusions, but I know, and my wife knows, and my close friends know, that these truths are real—not delusions. I spent three years of my life developing a show for A&E Television. I have the proof. I save everything. Faxes to the producers. My point is that I have lived an incredible life and often, all too often, facts become so-called delusions to others, especially to those others who actually count, like medical professionals. And it matters to me. All of this really matters to me. It means something very special to me because it is about me. It is from my perspective and only my perspective—the only perspective I know for sure. It's part of my story, or, as some might consider it, the “myth of that stupid Jonathan kid.” I know who I am. And I think I know who my friends are. I know that I am a legitimate, loving, grateful and spiritual human being who deserves to be loved and accepted and who deserves to make decisions, to make mistakes, and to be forgiven—to be myself. The real me. The Jonathan Harnisch who is not alone—who is loved. The Jonathan whose moods and behaviors might be a bit difficult to predict. A guy. A citizen, with schizophrenia and a full spectrum of mental maladies, who believes in some kind of higher power—who believes in himself. Who tries, tries, and tries—who never gives up on, or even thinks of giving up on, resilience. Who struggles every single day as an adult that is still being abused. Who has been abandoned and treated like waste—a mistake. Who is manipulated. Jonathan Harnisch. A teacher and a student. A rich kid who used to ride up front with his limousine driver. Who used to be a real asshole, often due to his drinking and drugging—and to his mimicking what he saw growing up among people who should have acted better but who just didn't know how to protect him. I have been in therapy since I was 9, and from the age of 12 I was “put away” on far too many medications, some of which I am still physically addicted to, some of which caused me to gain weight and to develop tardive dyskinesia (chronic muscle stiffness), and some of which I was actually allergic to, causing me to rage and even increasing my tendency to drink alcohol. I chose what I did, regardless what the literature suggests or what certain medical studies indicate. I am who I am, and I have my own story—my own version of my own story. It changes and adjusts on a constant basis. I've been closed up for so long. I am opening up. I am not being inappropriate. I don't need to be judged. But I will be judged. I don't need to worry about what others think of me. But I actually do care what other people think of me. I can't control other people. Come to think of it, I can't control what thoughts come into my head, just as I can't control which ones leave. So how can I control other people or their thoughts? How can anybody control the galaxy? How about the billions upon billions of existing galaxies or the billions of galaxies that have not yet even been discovered? That is what we are living with—within. Even Jesus experienced the full gamut of the human emotion spectrum, having been so-called spirit in human form. He was killed for that, for being who he was—for being honest and sincere, and, essentially, for being real. His life was far from easy. The most enlightened beings in the history of mankind—Buddha, Jesus, Mother Teresa, Gandhi, Krishna, and the Dalai Lama—have struggled and suffered every single day of their lives. And they too, in a way, live within us all. I want to let you know that you are not alone. You will never, ever be alone. I am excited and determined to come to you, who are seeking . . . seeking something. Maybe you're just reading as you sit there at work, or maybe you're my family, checking to see how I am, if I'm “misbehaving.” What I am is a disabled and, yes, a very troubled adult. But I am allowed to share my story. My life. I am safe. Now, I laugh now when I say this, but my wife is 24 years older than I am. And if and when she passes away before I do, or for any reason leaves me (I doubt she will—we seem to be doing very well together), I worry that I will be forced into a psychiatric institution back east, back near my family, when we don't even talk. I worry that it's inevitable. I guess, in conclusion, my life is full of grandiosity. But I still have schizophrenia, and I still have people who seem to have a need to control me and yet want nothing to do with me. This fascinates me. Why do they still want that much to do with me? Somebody who happens to also be a staff writer for a local news magazine independently wrote the following about me, which I have included on my website. It makes me feel so good. See! Things can change.Envision a blend of a mentally ill mind with unsurpassed resiliency and fiery intellect and your result would be the brilliant Jonathan Harnisch. An all-around artist, Jonathan writes fiction and screenplays, sketches, imagines, and creates. His most recent artistic endeavor is developing music, a newfound passion with visible and of course audible results already in the making. Produced filmmaker and published erotica author, Jonathan holds myriad accolades, and his works captivate the attention of those who experience it. Manic-toned scripts with parallel lives, masochistic tendencies in sexual escapades, and disturbing clarities embellished with addiction, fetish, lust, and love, are just a taste of themes found in Jonathan's transgressive literature. Conversely, his award-winning films capture the ironies of life, love, self-acceptance, tragedy, and fantasy. Jonathan's art evokes laughter and shock, elation and sadness, but overall forces you to step back and question your own version of reality. Scripts, screenplays, and schizophrenia are defining factors of Jonathan's life and reality—but surface labels are often incomplete. Jonathan is diagnosed with several mental illnesses from schizoaffective disorder to Tourette's syndrome; playfully, he dubs himself the “King of Mental Illness.” Despite daily symptomatic struggles and thoughts, Jonathan radiates an authentic, effervescent, and loving spirit. His resiliency emanates from the greatest lesson he's learned: laughter. His diagnoses and life experiences encourage him to laugh at reality as others see it. Wildly eccentric, open-minded, passionate, and driven, Jonathan has a feral imagination. His inherent traits transpose to his art, making his works some of the most original and thought provoking of modern day. Jonathan is an alumnus of Choate Rosemary Hall. Subsequently, he attended NYU's Tisch School of the Arts where he studied film production and screenwriting under Gary Winick and David Irving. During his studies at NYU, he held internships under renowned producers Steven Haft and Ismail Merchant. He is best known for his short films, On the Bus and Wax, both of which boast countless awards including five Indie Film Awards, three Accolade Awards, and Ten Years won, which won the Best Short Film and Audience Award in the New York International Independent Film and Video Festival, to name a few. Despite his impressive formal education and awarded honors, Jonathan is your normal, down-to-earth guy. Meditation, Duran Duran, vivid colors, Patrick Nagel prints, and rearranging furniture are some of his favorite things. Vices include cigarettes, Diet Coke, inappropriate swearing, and sausage and green chili pizza. He enjoys irony, planned spontaneity, redefining himself, and change. Jonathan lives with his beautiful wife, their three dogs and seven cats, in the unique, desert village of Corrales, New Mexico. What follows gives a glimpse into how I have been putting together some of the pieces of the otherwise “shattered stained glass” of schizophrenia, as I see it—from what I have read and heard and just . . . believe. My psychiatrist has often asked me to describe or explain my symptoms, and thus schizophrenia, and I usually do not know how to do so. I simply reply that it is all “indescribable.” Since then, I have been looking deeper into myself so that I am able, at minimum, to summarize at least a few of my experiences, past and present, in order to share with you too some of the complexity—demystified. I'd like to share some of my discoveries, as I find them, concerning my experiences, false perceptions, and schizophrenic psychosis. Hopefully, I'll succeed in maintaining simplicity so that others can benefit and perhaps understand this otherwise extremely complex disorder. I have come to realize that thanks to my own self, my lovely wife (whom I've known for over six years now), my support team (medical doctors and friends), and even those who might be considered my enemies, I have been helped along the path to self-actualization and thus to self-understanding—to where I find myself today. I've been able to find some meaning in schizophrenia, which helps me redefine how I see myself and how the symptoms of schizophrenia came to be—so that I can describe these without simply dismissing them as “indescribable.” Please forgive any terminology I might use incorrectly, as I am not a doctor. Also, I do have schizophrenia, so although I have stabilized (recovered, not been cured), I must still admit that I might get it wrong sometimes. We schizophrenics, through our psychosis—our delusions, our hallucinations, or reality—create or develop a story, a storyline. What is real has many universal implications. Many are extremely personal, symbolic, and moral. As we build the framework of our delusional reality, which tends to fade in and fade out, as with dreaming, it can all become very mystical. Our realities, which we may not have had all our lives, can become delusional for mystical and magical reasons. This might be why, for example, when we are psychotic, the television seems to talk to us, or we might see and know Jesus—again, for reasons of a mystical or even religious nature. It becomes difficult for us then to realize that it is not necessarily real. The further and further we are or are not drawn deeper into a full blown psychosis—it's just baffling, to say the least—the more it is complex and disorganized. Yet we might believe wholeheartedly that our delusions are real and based on facts—facts that are not correct to others without the illness. Many episodes, thoughts, and experiences combine, thus building up a storyline, which then becomes more intense and even fascinating and seductive, with more and more meaning as the delusional realities or events go on—as our lives go on. The meanings become “hidden” or disguised—our realities, in a way, hidden. This illness can thus become very isolating because we have a whole different belief system about the entire world, especially when we are in a major psychotic episode. It can take years and years to arrive at this fully agitated state, but that is often how we schizophrenics will end up being diagnosed, just as an alcoholic usually “needs” to bottom out completely before getting help. Through our perceptions, which change over time, we develop a new way of thinking that becomes very hard for us to disengage from. It is exactly like being on a constant, continuous LSD trip, every single day. This is the bottom line, and, for me, this “acid trip” never stops, even when recover. It is a matter of training and re-training our minds, through therapies like cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), medications, treatments, and also a lot of training—mental training, which I certainly do on my own, especially when not in a session with my doctor. I'm always checking things over and “reality checking.” I also find it very helpful to have a friend or loved one do what I call “mediating my reality.” I can, for example, ask my wife, who loves me deeply, to see if something is or is not what or how I might be perceiving it to be—from her there is perspective without the illness. There is an element of us losing what is called object permanence or object consistency—as my doctor in California once told me. The famous child psychologist Piaget discovered that, at a very young age, infants will forget about a toy they have been playing with if it disappears from their vision: for example, if a ball rolls out of sight or someone puts it underneath a blanket. At a certain age, that child will begin to look for that missing toy, and, finding it under the blanket, realize that it was in fact there the whole time. It was always there. Before that it had, to the infant, mystically gone away—disappeared from the world entirely. That's what I mean by mystical reasons, because we lose this object permanence, as after all, this could be a sensation rather than the fundamental reality one would have perhaps thought. We see this mysticism in most of our experiences and, yes, it fades in and out, but we basically feel that things, in general, will usually happen for mystical reasons. This becomes a part of our belief system, which is pretty hard to change. Enter the double bind, as, when object permanence is out of the picture, we can be caught in a contradiction, or a series of contradictions, due to cultural or moral, as well as both personal and universal, reasons. We might, for example, in place of object permanence, experience a “multiple realities” effect, as if we were in several dimensions at one time—several realities. Based on how we grew up, at any given time a reality may slip into our mindset, and so, for example, we might behave like a racist even though our best friend is African American. It doesn't “make sense.” During my last psychotic episode early in 2010, I collected, and even wore, Nazi memorabilia, and yet I am both half Jewish, on my mother's side, and handicapped. I also behaved as if I was a racist, even though my best friend was, and is, African American. We might want to save the world from global warming; however, in doing so we might pollute it and drive gasoline cars, on purpose, in order to save this world. Grandiosity, extreme thinking, and thus extreme behavior—with realities slipping in and out—are only a part of what baffles science and medicine. Different realities slipping in, overlapping, and combining make for an extremely difficult scenario to treat and understand from a scientific perspective. We will often think poetically, as well as symbolically and metaphorically. Poetic thinking can take over, and thus our symbolic and deep personal feelings are a huge part of how we schizophrenics think and reason. We might hallucinate about Jesus for a seemingly concrete reason, a very special reason. When helping someone with schizophrenia, a good start is to consider that he or she thinks mostly through concepts of mysticism—the idea that everything happens for a deep reason, that everything has a very special meaning, and that everything is synchronistic. A schizophrenic is often a very traumatized and sensitive person, much more so than your average Joe, living in a brutal world. That's where the help—the recovery—really starts to take place and healing begins. We schizophrenics must learn, through counseling, to understand ourselves and participate in therapy, to sort through our delusional thinking, and, often with help, to get back as much of our accurate intuition as possible, to take our medicine, and to have love and understanding in our lives. In this way, we might be able to reveal our secrets to someone we can trust, our secrets of trauma, day in and day out—and to do our best, resolving as much inner conflict as we can. Peace of mind is what we all want and need. It is my number one goal in life and has always been. It is what we all deserve. Developing a new identity through our recovery is key in many ways—finding our voice so that we can be heard and sorting through our mysticism and religious or spiritual experiences and observations of reality. It's a matter of finding those people we can trust, as I said, to help us define or redefine our reality. I have that these days, especially through my wife and my doctors. I live with gratitude. Just like diabetes, schizophrenia simply does not go away—not yet—for any of us. It's always there in the background. The “lifelong acid trip”. But, with respect to delusions specifically, I have also had delusions that weren't real. And I wanted to start with why and how we tend to cling to delusional thinking and thus why I perhaps cling not necessarily to a delusion but to this kind of thinking. It is “dimensional” for me. It is a grieving process for me. I am referring to missing my old Hollywood lifestyle—the content involved with that lifestyle of the rich and famous and the grandiose nature of the thinking itself. The celebrities I befriended when I lived and worked in Los Angeles, for example. During the onset period of schizophrenia, delusions, and perceptions, we often begin with smaller-scale hallucinations. There is a root that is actually rational, wrapped inside a delusional outer layer. I think we can actually reach the schizophrenic while that individual is in a completely psychotic state—which often our doctors, caregivers, and loved ones fail to do—by understanding that everything the psychotic schizophrenic individual thinks is done in a synchronistic way. It all starts with object permanence—that we have lost this and that the one reality we once believed in has been replaced as a result of thoughts and events in our lives. A flow of realities, of things appearing and disappearing at the same time—not just the simple ball under the blanket, as the rules of both time and place come into effect here: The time is now, and the place is grounded right here on earth. Let's call it an earth belief or thought. These thoughts and beliefs can, through the “schizophrenic lens,” basically occur at the same time. This waking dream, this constant LSD trip, this real-life synchronicity (Carl Jung first coined the term “synchronicity”), and this more fluid mindset. If we are to think at the core of a schizophrenic in order to reach him or her, this means thinking synchronistically. If we are not stable enough or properly medicated, our dreams can actually become part of the same reality as reality itself. For example, my wife once asked me, “Jonathan, are you going to be recording an episode for your podcast today?” I had been planning on doing so, but I had not yet told my wife. I simply said, “Oh yes, I was actually thinking about it. It's been a while since the last one.” Now, if I were in a more psychotic state, I might have (or, rather, the delusional process might have) started with my real-life fascination with Edgar Cayce and psychic ideas, my New Age books, and my meditations into the Akashic field—and so I would have concluded that my wife was secretly reading my mind, or that she and what she said were mystically connected in some way—that she “knew something.” My psychic experiences in the past would have then overlapped with my wife knowing something psychically, mystically, and symbolically, and also with synchronicity—creating a deep and personal meaning. Add to that the paranoia that comes from her “reading my mind”—that she is therefore “God” because she knows I'm planning on recording my podcast today, even though I haven't told her. The terrifying belief is now engrained, as we are to begin with often more sensitive to the world as a whole—even being touched on the hand or the ear can create extreme fear for us schizophrenics. The belief that “she knew I was going to record a podcast today.” Synchronicity may have a little or some scientific evidence, at least theoretically. However, there are things that we cannot prove through science, such as the definition of time—or even God. In a state of schizophrenic psychosis, this overlap becomes compounded, as it builds up more intensely and thus perhaps takes over our entire belief system. Perhaps there is a coherent way of explaining how we schizophrenics might create our own reality, our delusional or schizophrenic reality, as I see it, through some of the things I have laid out so far—please bear with me here. I'll speak for myself, and my own experiences, although the end result is now something I can talk about and demystify rather than actually believe—thanks to the proper treatment, therapies, and support I now receive. I'll first start with a collection of thoughts. Theoretically, let's say, for real: • In 2008, I made a film called On the Bus about mental illness—it was part of the story in the film. • Mel Gibson (an old friend from California)—he and I were first introduced to each other in 2001. • I listened to The Beach Boys. We'll assume that the music was playing in the car with Mel as we went for a drive, as we did up in the hills of Malibu. • Mel Gibson is rich and famous. Whether in a state of schizophrenic psychosis or not, since this seems to be a matter of degree—depending on how psychotic we might or might not be and how much the psychotic part of our minds has taken hold. This is a matter of our abilities and the constantly fluctuating brain chemistry that we might—or perhaps might not—be able to filter through. It depends on whether we have been successful in redefining our delusional realities to a generally consistent state of well-being and peace of mind. In a psychotic state, due to our hallucinatory thinking, the chemistry in my brain, our brains, is constantly misfiring, so that the stimuli from the environment go to the wrong places in our brains. The effect is similar to putting our hand under cold water and feeling hot. Essentially, though, with this schizophrenic thinking process, I would come up with a “composite sketch,” if you will, a sort of “Frankenstein” version—a storyline that might be experienced as: • I knew Mel Gibson, and therefore I am famous. (Based on: Mel Gibson is famous and is rich.) • Then—but at the same time—I am rich because I made a movie called Ten Years, and I am convinced it made me rich because Mel Gibson is rich, and I am famous because I made my movie, it won awards, and Mel Gibson did, too. I must have met Mel Gibson because I made a movie, and he did, too, and we are both rich and famous. So far—this might not be the best example, but time can thus be altered—2008 is coming before 2003 in this case. This might be a little hard to follow, but please bear with me here.If I were asked to explain this while still psychotic, I'd say first that I am not mentally ill—I am simply psychic, rich, and famous. Besides, the Beach Boys were playing, and one of the Beach Boys has a mental illness, not me, but my film was about mental illness. Brian Wilson is still rich and famous, and also an artist, so he was playing on the radio because both Mel and I were both artists and it was “meant to be” that he would be playing music for us because we were all connected through art, fame, and money. Exhausting, isn't it? But this is actually how jumbled it can be for us and thus for those witnessing us speaking or even communicating in general terms. It's schizophrenia. Let's assume that we got pulled over for speeding. Well, there is a police officer character in On the Bus, my movie. You see, grandiosity, both real and imagined, content, time inconsistencies, and now this character was in the movie, so, because we were all in the car, we were in the movie while in the car, so the police officer was playing her role—it all happened for a reason. And beyond that, paranoia might also slip in—the officer who pulled us over was male (not female), and in my movie she was female, so she was disguising herself in order to take our money and meet three famous people (even Brian Wilson on the radio). Theoretically, this might suffice as a pseudo-case study, and yet in normal reality, for us schizophrenics, this type or process of thinking compounds itself and thus it can become completely distorted. Our friends and families start to think we're going crazy (although in a way we are), and stigma arises, plus confusion and thinking, “What the heck happened to this guy—he's speaking like a drug addict who's lost his mind. Where is all this coming from?” We would all benefit from greater awareness of what schizophrenia is and how to know if someone we love might be predisposed to the illness (through family history, etc.). But this is what we with schizophrenia usually experience early on, as the illness is progressing—we believe this thinking based on other facts—facts which are disconnected, something we cannot see without appropriate help. Later, yes, we can have this type of thinking while recovered or recovering, but we are able, hopefully, to be mindful enough to have such thinking but to cope with it differently, and even, down the road, to do our own “reality checks,” so that we do not not talk about these things inappropriately, in public, let's say. We can also use the hallmark of CBT, which is “evidence”, on our own in order to connect the disconnected parts of our thoughts—thus our reality. We can also do this with the support of loved ones, family, doctors, medications, friends, and support groups who help us and love us enough to be able to assist us in connecting the right pieces together and who explain why they connect—the reasons why. To wrap this up for now, I have not even mentioned the hearing of voices and hallucinations—everything from shadows to people, even friends—and the hidden, traumatic, and paranoid features of schizophrenia of which we are often too afraid to speak. We might sound or behave cryptically, in code, with pressured speech and flight of ideas. Add to this the “zombie-like” features, the manic episodes, the muscle dystonia, and the side effects of medication, and if we have turned to drugs, often just one hit of pot to quell the symptoms—yikes! We're often too embarrassed to speak of our early experiences with schizophrenia, to say that, “Yes, indeed, this is an extremely devastating and debilitating illness.” I am so glad that I am at a place in my recovery. I do have my bad days. I haven't even slept during the last day—insomnia (technically, another symptom), but I am glad that I have been to this intoxicating wonderland and come back—just enough to be able to deliver this kind of explanation, perhaps demystifying in a way that others can understand some of these processes that affect about 1% of the world's population. Schizoaffective disorder, then, includes manic highs and periods of deep depression. My Tourette's syndrome features the obvious muscle tics but also obsessive/compulsive tendencies and elements of autism or Asperger's (often referred to as higher functioning form autism—in summary, but it is, of course, much more than that). We all have our issues. It's how we deal with them that sets us apart. As always, my journey continues, on and on. Yes, you could say I've been through the wringer. I am opening up and sharing my world and my experiences—with hope. Participation in my own recovery, along with metacognition (usually in deficit for those with schizophrenia) and mindfulness, have all helped me become who I am today: an accomplished writer (literature and film/TV) and technically a professional author of erotic fiction. I often laugh at this because there are so many sides of me—the “angel demon human dichotomy”—as I use various outlets to express my creativity. I have an education primarily in the arts, but I worked on Wall Street in my “healthier” days, so I know a bit about that! However, I ultimately chose to do what I am doing now—which is just this. I am also a film producer and a musician. My new full 15-track LP will be arriving at over 60 retailers in the coming weeks, possibly under the band name Waspy Honk Afro. All my work is also available for free and will always be free, as far as I know. My thoughts are free—my public life, the “open source” information-life of J.H. I've lived in New York, Connecticut, Paris France, Los Angeles, and now New Mexico; I am now married and I write a diary and podcast mostly about mental illness, inspiration, New Age ideas, and transgressive material—transgressional fiction. [If you've seen or read Fight Club—it's pretty much like that!]I am, myself, an expert on my own experiences and myself; that's about all I'm an expert on. I am not a doctor of any kind. I enjoy learning, reading, and communicating. Whatever I say or write, I like to add: “take what you will, leave the rest.” I try my best to speak for myself when it comes down to it. Please take note that some of the above writing has been paraphrased from my second novel, Second Alibi: The Banality of Life (2014).
-027- Faxes From The Far Side by ⚠️ Damn Interesting
The point of this series is to start a conversation about how those of us diagnosed with psychotic disorders get people to believe our truths. After all, once you've been diagnosed as being psychotic, your credibility is never the same, even when you're speaking the truth. I have a podcast on iTunes in which I reveal a lot about myself, and lately I've noticed how much these podcasts have been teaching me about myself and what I've lost. This illness has taken a great deal from me, including my ability to gain recognition for my accomplishments. So, what I'd like to do here is recognize some of these accomplishments, knowing that had my life been different, they could have been acknowledged in a more public arena. Knowing, too, that, because I have schizoaffective disorder that is characterized by delusional thinking, hallucinations, and mood fluctuations, even when I speak the truth, I am often dismissed and not believed, with my truths described as mere delusions. I want to acknowledge my accomplishments not only for myself but also for all you out there. Those of you who may or may not already be diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or any other serious mental condition, whose truths, like mine, are so frequently dismissed as delusions. It upsets me even to write this, to realize that those around me can—and do—categorize what I say as delusional, and I wonder if that also happens to you. I'd like to begin by briefly mentioning that I was diagnosed with Tourette's at the age of 12, although, according to my mother, I had shown symptoms since I was two. I sometimes wonder whether I was even then showing signs of the psychosis that has plagued me for my entire adult life. I was 18 when I had my first psychotic episode. It was Christmas Day, 1994. I was living in New York City and was admitted to Beth Israel, where I was given a number of tests—medical and psychological. My toxicology report came up 100% clean, a clear indication that my psychosis was not drug-induced. My intake report by the ER doctor shows that I had a “loosening of association” and “pressured speech,” both of which can indicate schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorder, or bipolar disorder with psychotic features. No wonder it took so long for me to get the right diagnosis; so many of the symptoms overlap. However, I want to bring this back to delusion and truth, and how people so frequently label your truths as delusional as soon as you've been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder. I will also discuss my condition's genesis and prognosis—and then move onto those accomplishments for which I've never been truly recognized. I often wonder if other people, like me, have trouble being believed. As I may have mentioned already, serious mental illness, such as schizoaffective disorder, is believed to be caused first by a genetic predisposition to develop mental illness and second by environmental factors. In my family, I have a grandfather who seems to have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, according to old medical records that I recently found. In addition, I have two second cousins, both of whom have been publicly diagnosed with mental illness. So, I would definitely seem to be genetically predisposed to becoming mentally ill. However, having this predisposition isn't enough. You also need certain environmental factors. What I've read in some of the literature is that mental illness can be compared to diabetes. A person may be genetically predisposed to develop diabetes, but if that person gets enough exercise and watches their sugar intake, then the diabetes may never take hold—it's the same with mental illness. In my case, I had the predisposition, but I also underwent enough traumas (sexual, physical, and emotional abuse) and upheavals (such as my parents' divorce when I was young) for the illness to take hold. Boy, did it take hold. Sometimes, though, people like my sister, who has a genetic predisposition plus environmental factors (my sister comes from the same family and has had the same kind of upheavals), do not become mentally ill. Nobody knows why. Maybe, as my wife says, it's just the luck of the draw. She's kidding. At least about the luck part, because having mental illness isn't lucky, although we do have to keep laughing about it. Keep positive. You're never alone if you can laugh with someone about it. As I've mentioned, I have schizoaffective disorder. Originally, though, I was diagnosed with depression. That was back in 1994, when I was 18. Over the next 10 years or so, I saw doctor after doctor, moving here and there, trying to find my place in the world. I made seven suicide attempts and had years of alcohol and drug abuse issues. My last suicide attempt was in 2001, and I was freed from my drug and alcohol addictions in early 2003. More than 11 years ago. As I was getting off the drugs, I saw a doctor who diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder, which basically means schizophrenia with a mood disorder thrown in, and, in my case, that mood disorder is bipolar with manic features. However, in 2005 and 2006 I saw a doctor who said that I did not have schizoaffective disorder. Instead, I had a personality disorder. The point is that getting the right diagnosis can be time-consuming and frustrating, but it is also necessary, as once I was “re- diagnosed” with schizoaffective disorder, I was able to get on the right medication. But that's a different story altogether. I'm focusing here on being diagnosed with any type of mental illness that includes psychotic features that then make it almost impossible for people around you to believe your truths. However, not only do I have the double whammy of a thought disorder coupled with a mood disorder, I also have Tourette's syndrome, which is considered severe since this usually tapers off in one's 20s but mine did not. I'm 39 now, so, along with the confusion I suffer and the mood fluctuations, I also tic and sometimes engage in coprolalia, which is involuntary swearing or yelling out racial epithets. Hard combination. Added to that mix, I also seem to have aspects of obsessive compulsive disorder—I have to keep my computer arranged ‘just so'; Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)—I frequently relive earlier traumas; attention deficit disorder—I can't focus on anything for any period of time; autism or Asperger's—like Temple Grandin, I may be smart, but I can't read social cues at all. Makes it difficult to hang out and just be “one of the guys.”My current psychiatrist, Dr. C, who—unlike others—never hesitated to diagnose me, saw me when I was at my worst. I was in the middle of a psychotic episode. I was in the process of a divorce (my wife and I have since reconciled), and I had no money, as my family had cut me off from my trust income. In the past, too many doctors had seen me when I did have money and was able to hire people to do what I could not—for example shopping, driving, and cleaning. Because these doctors saw me when I could hire people, they all considered me to be “too high functioning” to have any form of schizophrenia. As a result of being considered “high functioning,” I was diagnosed for years as having a personality disorder. Some doctors thought I had borderline personality disorder (BPD); others thought I had a personality disorder not otherwise specified (NOS). Let me tell you, having the right diagnosis has turned things around at last. I'm now on the right medication. My wife and caregivers understand the nature of the illness and know some excellent ways of dealing with it and with me. Although the illness will never go away, I do have hope that I'll continue to get the right treatment and that my life will continue to get better. Now, the big one: What do you do when people assume your truths are delusions? Let's start with just a little bit more background. At the last count, I have had approximately 30 rehab stints and/or hospitalizations. That's a lot. When you're hospitalized, especially involuntarily, people tend to dismiss everything you say as a symptom of your illness. I understand that, but I don't like it, because it's hard when people don't believe you. A couple of examples. I moved to Los Angeles in January 2001 because I wanted to be a Hollywood screenwriter. I was two days shy of my 25th birthday. I was a go-getter back then, a social butterfly, and found it easy to introduce myself to just about anyone. As a result, I met Joanna Cassidy, Dick Van Dyke, Robert Downey Jr., Mel Gibson, and others. Then, as my drug and alcohol use spiraled out of control, I got myself into rehab. Since I had access to my trust fund, I could afford the rehab facilities where “celebrities” went, places such as Promises in Malibu. In these places, I met movie producers, writers, actors, musicians, and kids of celebrities. The point is, I met all these people, and some of them I befriended. Because so many of the rehab facilities didn't help me stay off drugs and alcohol, a friend and I started our own facility, Wavelengths, which also catered to celebrities. Wavelengths took a more proactive approach to getting people off drugs and alcohol. If you ever saw the show The Cleaner, you'll have a better idea of what I mean by “proactive.” In fact, that show was based on the friend with whom I started Wavelengths, and, although I was never credited, I was the co-creator of the show. But now, when I tell people about The Cleaner or knowing Chuck Lorre, Robert Downey Jr., or Mel Gibson, they smile blankly, nod their head, and dismiss what I say as a delusion. That's maddening—if you'll pardon the pun. Another example. In the summer of 2010, I checked myself into a facility in Colorado so I could get on the right meds and try to get myself re-stabilized. As I was being admitted as a patient with schizoaffective disorder, which is characterized by a thought disorder, including delusions, both my wife and my doctor spoke with the facility before I was admitted so that the doctors and social workers would know I wasn't delusional about the people I knew. My wife and doctor also let the facility know about my financial background, because I don't always look “rich.” Lately, I like to dress in t-shirts and pajama bottoms. I like to keep my hair permed and wild, and I like to wear a beard. As a result, sometimes when I'm admitted, the staff person will write that I'm a little unkempt, and when I then start talking about the money I'm worth, the same staff person will flash a little, tight smile as if to say: “Of course, you are. And I have a Swiss bank account.” Those staff people don't always know that I can “tell” what they're thinking—I can see it on their faces—, and they feel free to openly doubt my truth. More on “delusions.” The reason I write is to share my story, and sometimes—I've got to admit—it's hard knowing that a lot of people may not believe me. I bring this up because I'm sure that those of you who read what I write must have as complicated a story as mine. I am just spelling out some things—kind of “straight-from-the-heart” sharing with you all. My family, as I've mentioned, is rich and powerful. Maybe your family is not rich or powerful, but still I think you'll understand. Their money and their power helped make me who I am, just as your parents helped make you who you are. I'm not attacking anyone. I am simply telling the story of my life. I have earned the right to do that. Come to think of it, though, maybe I never did have to “earn the right” to tell the story of my life. People have a right to their own stories and to tell these stories in their own voice, not anybody else's. This is my time. My story. Not my family's. And I owe it to you to share a taste of the complexity of my life, so you'll understand the complexity of your own. So, yes, my family is rich and powerful. That is not a delusion. You can look them up yourself. They are public people. Sometimes I think that because they are public people, they have had a hard time accepting me for who I am. I know they have had a hard time accepting my diagnosis. And, really, I am not attacking them. Maybe they can't accept my diagnosis because they think it will reflect badly on them. I haven't talked to my family in a few years. I wish I felt sad about that, but I can't. My family doesn't love me. Sometimes I think they might even hate me, because they cut off my money and they cut off contact with me. But I'm getting sidetracked—what my wife calls “going off on a tangent.” So I'll stop. One area that has always been hard and that created a lot of misunderstanding in my family is my diagnosis. No one has ever accepted that I had the wrong diagnosis for years and that getting the right diagnosis has helped me move forward. Not that a diagnosis makes the illness easy, and, in many respects, a diagnosis is nothing but a label. However, with the right diagnosis (or label), you can get the right medication, the right therapy, and people—like caregivers—who know how to deal with you. The right diagnosis is a starting point that means you can read about whatever “label” you have been tagged with—or might need to be tagged with. In my case, I was “tagged with” BPD for years. On the one hand, that wasn't such a bad diagnosis, because people wouldn't then label me as being delusional. On the other hand, when people thought I had BPD, they accused me of lying, which brings me back to my family. In the past, my family has told me to “snap out of it” and to “get my act together”—that I would then be “fine.” You can't “snap out” of schizophrenia. You may get the symptoms under control, and you may even, like John Nash, seem to recover from the disorder, but you don't—and can't—“snap out of it.” My family, believing that I was capable of getting my act together, created a lot of tension between us. I use the past tense here because I don't know if they now believe my diagnosis. As I've mentioned, we've had no contact since January 2010, so I don't know what they believe. In January of that year, my family cut me off and stripped me of any help. I had no gardeners and no driver (I no longer drive). I had nothing. Based on what they wrote to me at the time, they seemed to think that they should provide a little “tough love” (like you see on Intervention) and that I would then agree to get better. I was never not agreeing to get better. Believe me, it's no fun having schizoaffective disorder. If your family or loved ones already believe your diagnosis, you are that much farther ahead because, if they believe the diagnosis, they can help. I'm taking my own advice today and staying positive. I think of all I have lost, and I can get very depressed. At one time, I had editors, housekeepers, free travel, a huge inheritance, my trust funds, and lavish cars. I've been to the best schools in the country. I had public-figure parents and several celebrities in my extended family, some of whom had actually, quite publicly, been diagnosed with mental illnesses. When I compare what I once had to what I now have, I can get depressed. I focus on the past and fail to appreciate the present. Taking my own advice to stay positive, I have three dogs, seven cats, and one bird. Now, some people might not think having so many animals is so positive, but I like walking through the house and every time being followed by at least one of them. My animals are one positive. Another positive. I no longer have diabetes. I have lost so much weight that my blood sugar is normal. I still take one of the diabetic meds because it can prevent diabetes—and also because my other meds can cause diabetes. But I am healthier than I was. No diabetes is another positive. My wife is the third positive. We reconciled two years ago, and so far we are working things out and trying to help each other. My work is the fourth positive. The schizoaffective disorder has really affected my thinking and my emotions, but it hasn't touched my creativity. I podcast, I write a journal, and I make music and movies. I have even sold a couple of songs on iTunes. My memories are the fifth and final positive for today. Although my father and I had a falling out in 2009, that's his issue. He and I have had great, absolutely fantastic, times together, and I treasure the memories. When I focus only on these memories, I can stay positive. For many reasons, I have had quite a few psychiatrists over the years. My current doctor—whom I call Dr. C—is the one that most recently diagnosed me as having schizoaffective disorder. When I went to see her the second or third time, I brought along five bookshelves' worth of my journals. My diaries. All my written documentation of madness—the faxes and emails that proved that 1,000 hours of film that I had shot had been stolen. That's it. I can't do anything about it. I have proof of a software development proposal I made when I was 15. I received a scholarship to business school, honors, and recognition. I was like John Nash except I was proposing software, not math. What I proposed would have been the first online shopping interface. But it got taken away, like everything. I have the proof, the actual documents. Real. These truths are mine. And I have schizophrenia, and I even have delusions, but I know, and my wife knows, and my close friends know, that these truths are real—not delusions. I spent three years of my life developing a show for A&E Television. I have the proof. I save everything. Faxes to the producers. My point is that I have lived an incredible life and often, all too often, facts become so-called delusions to others, especially to those others who actually count, like medical professionals. And it matters to me. All of this really matters to me. It means something very special to me because it is about me. It is from my perspective and only my perspective—the only perspective I know for sure. It's part of my story, or, as some might consider it, the “myth of that stupid Jonathan kid.” I know who I am. And I think I know who my friends are. I know that I am a legitimate, loving, grateful and spiritual human being who deserves to be loved and accepted and who deserves to make decisions, to make mistakes, and to be forgiven—to be myself. The real me. The Jonathan Harnisch who is not alone—who is loved. The Jonathan whose moods and behaviors might be a bit difficult to predict. A guy. A citizen, with schizophrenia and a full spectrum of mental maladies, who believes in some kind of higher power—who believes in himself. Who tries, tries, and tries—who never gives up on, or even thinks of giving up on, resilience. Who struggles every single day as an adult that is still being abused. Who has been abandoned and treated like waste—a mistake. Who is manipulated. Jonathan Harnisch. A teacher and a student. A rich kid who used to ride up front with his limousine driver. Who used to be a real asshole, often due to his drinking and drugging—and to his mimicking what he saw growing up among people who should have acted better but who just didn't know how to protect him. I have been in therapy since I was 9, and from the age of 12 I was “put away” on far too many medications, some of which I am still physically addicted to, some of which caused me to gain weight and to develop tardive dyskinesia (chronic muscle stiffness), and some of which I was actually allergic to, causing me to rage and even increasing my tendency to drink alcohol. I chose what I did, regardless what the literature suggests or what certain medical studies indicate. I am who I am, and I have my own story—my own version of my own story. It changes and adjusts on a constant basis. I've been closed up for so long. I am opening up. I am not being inappropriate. I don't need to be judged. But I will be judged. I don't need to worry about what others think of me. But I actually do care what other people think of me. I can't control other people. Come to think of it, I can't control what thoughts come into my head, just as I can't control which ones leave. So how can I control other people or their thoughts? How can anybody control the galaxy? How about the billions upon billions of existing galaxies or the billions of galaxies that have not yet even been discovered? That is what we are living with—within. Even Jesus experienced the full gamut of the human emotion spectrum, having been so-called spirit in human form. He was killed for that, for being who he was—for being honest and sincere, and, essentially, for being real. His life was far from easy. The most enlightened beings in the history of mankind—Buddha, Jesus, Mother Teresa, Gandhi, Krishna, and the Dalai Lama—have struggled and suffered every single day of their lives. And they too, in a way, live within us all. I want to let you know that you are not alone. You will never, ever be alone. I am excited and determined to come to you, who are seeking . . . seeking something. Maybe you're just reading as you sit there at work, or maybe you're my family, checking to see how I am, if I'm “misbehaving.” What I am is a disabled and, yes, a very troubled adult. But I am allowed to share my story. My life. I am safe. Now, I laugh now when I say this, but my wife is 24 years older than I am. And if and when she passes away before I do, or for any reason leaves me (I doubt she will—we seem to be doing very well together), I worry that I will be forced into a psychiatric institution back east, back near my family, when we don't even talk. I worry that it's inevitable. I guess, in conclusion, my life is full of grandiosity. But I still have schizophrenia, and I still have people who seem to have a need to control me and yet want nothing to do with me. This fascinates me. Why do they still want that much to do with me? Somebody who happens to also be a staff writer for a local news magazine independently wrote the following about me, which I have included on my website. It makes me feel so good. See! Things can change.Envision a blend of a mentally ill mind with unsurpassed resiliency and fiery intellect and your result would be the brilliant Jonathan Harnisch. An all-around artist, Jonathan writes fiction and screenplays, sketches, imagines, and creates. His most recent artistic endeavor is developing music, a newfound passion with visible and of course audible results already in the making. Produced filmmaker and published erotica author, Jonathan holds myriad accolades, and his works captivate the attention of those who experience it. Manic-toned scripts with parallel lives, masochistic tendencies in sexual escapades, and disturbing clarities embellished with addiction, fetish, lust, and love, are just a taste of themes found in Jonathan's transgressive literature. Conversely, his award-winning films capture the ironies of life, love, self-acceptance, tragedy, and fantasy. Jonathan's art evokes laughter and shock, elation and sadness, but overall forces you to step back and question your own version of reality. Scripts, screenplays, and schizophrenia are defining factors of Jonathan's life and reality—but surface labels are often incomplete. Jonathan is diagnosed with several mental illnesses from schizoaffective disorder to Tourette's syndrome; playfully, he dubs himself the “King of Mental Illness.” Despite daily symptomatic struggles and thoughts, Jonathan radiates an authentic, effervescent, and loving spirit. His resiliency emanates from the greatest lesson he's learned: laughter. His diagnoses and life experiences encourage him to laugh at reality as others see it. Wildly eccentric, open-minded, passionate, and driven, Jonathan has a feral imagination. His inherent traits transpose to his art, making his works some of the most original and thought provoking of modern day. Jonathan is an alumnus of Choate Rosemary Hall. Subsequently, he attended NYU's Tisch School of the Arts where he studied film production and screenwriting under Gary Winick and David Irving. During his studies at NYU, he held internships under renowned producers Steven Haft and Ismail Merchant. He is best known for his short films, On the Bus and Wax, both of which boast countless awards including five Indie Film Awards, three Accolade Awards, and Ten Years won, which won the Best Short Film and Audience Award in the New York International Independent Film and Video Festival, to name a few. Despite his impressive formal education and awarded honors, Jonathan is your normal, down-to-earth guy. Meditation, Duran Duran, vivid colors, Patrick Nagel prints, and rearranging furniture are some of his favorite things. Vices include cigarettes, Diet Coke, inappropriate swearing, and sausage and green chili pizza. He enjoys irony, planned spontaneity, redefining himself, and change. Jonathan lives with his beautiful wife, their three dogs and seven cats, in the unique, desert village of Corrales, New Mexico. What follows gives a glimpse into how I have been putting together some of the pieces of the otherwise “shattered stained glass” of schizophrenia, as I see it—from what I have read and heard and just . . . believe. My psychiatrist has often asked me to describe or explain my symptoms, and thus schizophrenia, and I usually do not know how to do so. I simply reply that it is all “indescribable.” Since then, I have been looking deeper into myself so that I am able, at minimum, to summarize at least a few of my experiences, past and present, in order to share with you too some of the complexity—demystified. I'd like to share some of my discoveries, as I find them, concerning my experiences, false perceptions, and schizophrenic psychosis. Hopefully, I'll succeed in maintaining simplicity so that others can benefit and perhaps understand this otherwise extremely complex disorder. I have come to realize that thanks to my own self, my lovely wife (whom I've known for over six years now), my support team (medical doctors and friends), and even those who might be considered my enemies, I have been helped along the path to self-actualization and thus to self-understanding—to where I find myself today. I've been able to find some meaning in schizophrenia, which helps me redefine how I see myself and how the symptoms of schizophrenia came to be—so that I can describe these without simply dismissing them as “indescribable.” Please forgive any terminology I might use incorrectly, as I am not a doctor. Also, I do have schizophrenia, so although I have stabilized (recovered, not been cured), I must still admit that I might get it wrong sometimes. We schizophrenics, through our psychosis—our delusions, our hallucinations, or reality—create or develop a story, a storyline. What is real has many universal implications. Many are extremely personal, symbolic, and moral. As we build the framework of our delusional reality, which tends to fade in and fade out, as with dreaming, it can all become very mystical. Our realities, which we may not have had all our lives, can become delusional for mystical and magical reasons. This might be why, for example, when we are psychotic, the television seems to talk to us, or we might see and know Jesus—again, for reasons of a mystical or even religious nature. It becomes difficult for us then to realize that it is not necessarily real. The further and further we are or are not drawn deeper into a full blown psychosis—it's just baffling, to say the least—the more it is complex and disorganized. Yet we might believe wholeheartedly that our delusions are real and based on facts—facts that are not correct to others without the illness. Many episodes, thoughts, and experiences combine, thus building up a storyline, which then becomes more intense and even fascinating and seductive, with more and more meaning as the delusional realities or events go on—as our lives go on. The meanings become “hidden” or disguised—our realities, in a way, hidden. This illness can thus become very isolating because we have a whole different belief system about the entire world, especially when we are in a major psychotic episode. It can take years and years to arrive at this fully agitated state, but that is often how we schizophrenics will end up being diagnosed, just as an alcoholic usually “needs” to bottom out completely before getting help. Through our perceptions, which change over time, we develop a new way of thinking that becomes very hard for us to disengage from. It is exactly like being on a constant, continuous LSD trip, every single day. This is the bottom line, and, for me, this “acid trip” never stops, even when recover. It is a matter of training and re-training our minds, through therapies like cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), medications, treatments, and also a lot of training—mental training, which I certainly do on my own, especially when not in a session with my doctor. I'm always checking things over and “reality checking.” I also find it very helpful to have a friend or loved one do what I call “mediating my reality.” I can, for example, ask my wife, who loves me deeply, to see if something is or is not what or how I might be perceiving it to be—from her there is perspective without the illness. There is an element of us losing what is called object permanence or object consistency—as my doctor in California once told me. The famous child psychologist Piaget discovered that, at a very young age, infants will forget about a toy they have been playing with if it disappears from their vision: for example, if a ball rolls out of sight or someone puts it underneath a blanket. At a certain age, that child will begin to look for that missing toy, and, finding it under the blanket, realize that it was in fact there the whole time. It was always there. Before that it had, to the infant, mystically gone away—disappeared from the world entirely. That's what I mean by mystical reasons, because we lose this object permanence, as after all, this could be a sensation rather than the fundamental reality one would have perhaps thought. We see this mysticism in most of our experiences and, yes, it fades in and out, but we basically feel that things, in general, will usually happen for mystical reasons. This becomes a part of our belief system, which is pretty hard to change. Enter the double bind, as, when object permanence is out of the picture, we can be caught in a contradiction, or a series of contradictions, due to cultural or moral, as well as both personal and universal, reasons. We might, for example, in place of object permanence, experience a “multiple realities” effect, as if we were in several dimensions at one time—several realities. Based on how we grew up, at any given time a reality may slip into our mindset, and so, for example, we might behave like a racist even though our best friend is African American. It doesn't “make sense.” During my last psychotic episode early in 2010, I collected, and even wore, Nazi memorabilia, and yet I am both half Jewish, on my mother's side, and handicapped. I also behaved as if I was a racist, even though my best friend was, and is, African American. We might want to save the world from global warming; however, in doing so we might pollute it and drive gasoline cars, on purpose, in order to save this world. Grandiosity, extreme thinking, and thus extreme behavior—with realities slipping in and out—are only a part of what baffles science and medicine. Different realities slipping in, overlapping, and combining make for an extremely difficult scenario to treat and understand from a scientific perspective. We will often think poetically, as well as symbolically and metaphorically. Poetic thinking can take over, and thus our symbolic and deep personal feelings are a huge part of how we schizophrenics think and reason. We might hallucinate about Jesus for a seemingly concrete reason, a very special reason. When helping someone with schizophrenia, a good start is to consider that he or she thinks mostly through concepts of mysticism—the idea that everything happens for a deep reason, that everything has a very special meaning, and that everything is synchronistic. A schizophrenic is often a very traumatized and sensitive person, much more so than your average Joe, living in a brutal world. That's where the help—the recovery—really starts to take place and healing begins. We schizophrenics must learn, through counseling, to understand ourselves and participate in therapy, to sort through our delusional thinking, and, often with help, to get back as much of our accurate intuition as possible, to take our medicine, and to have love and understanding in our lives. In this way, we might be able to reveal our secrets to someone we can trust, our secrets of trauma, day in and day out—and to do our best, resolving as much inner conflict as we can. Peace of mind is what we all want and need. It is my number one goal in life and has always been. It is what we all deserve. Developing a new identity through our recovery is key in many ways—finding our voice so that we can be heard and sorting through our mysticism and religious or spiritual experiences and observations of reality. It's a matter of finding those people we can trust, as I said, to help us define or redefine our reality. I have that these days, especially through my wife and my doctors. I live with gratitude. Just like diabetes, schizophrenia simply does not go away—not yet—for any of us. It's always there in the background. The “lifelong acid trip”. But, with respect to delusions specifically, I have also had delusions that weren't real. And I wanted to start with why and how we tend to cling to delusional thinking and thus why I perhaps cling not necessarily to a delusion but to this kind of thinking. It is “dimensional” for me. It is a grieving process for me. I am referring to missing my old Hollywood lifestyle—the content involved with that lifestyle of the rich and famous and the grandiose nature of the thinking itself. The celebrities I befriended when I lived and worked in Los Angeles, for example. During the onset period of schizophrenia, delusions, and perceptions, we often begin with smaller-scale hallucinations. There is a root that is actually rational, wrapped inside a delusional outer layer. I think we can actually reach the schizophrenic while that individual is in a completely psychotic state—which often our doctors, caregivers, and loved ones fail to do—by understanding that everything the psychotic schizophrenic individual thinks is done in a synchronistic way. It all starts with object permanence—that we have lost this and that the one reality we once believed in has been replaced as a result of thoughts and events in our lives. A flow of realities, of things appearing and disappearing at the same time—not just the simple ball under the blanket, as the rules of both time and place come into effect here: The time is now, and the place is grounded right here on earth. Let's call it an earth belief or thought. These thoughts and beliefs can, through the “schizophrenic lens,” basically occur at the same time. This waking dream, this constant LSD trip, this real-life synchronicity (Carl Jung first coined the term “synchronicity”), and this more fluid mindset. If we are to think at the core of a schizophrenic in order to reach him or her, this means thinking synchronistically. If we are not stable enough or properly medicated, our dreams can actually become part of the same reality as reality itself. For example, my wife once asked me, “Jonathan, are you going to be recording an episode for your podcast today?” I had been planning on doing so, but I had not yet told my wife. I simply said, “Oh yes, I was actually thinking about it. It's been a while since the last one.” Now, if I were in a more psychotic state, I might have (or, rather, the delusional process might have) started with my real-life fascination with Edgar Cayce and psychic ideas, my New Age books, and my meditations into the Akashic field—and so I would have concluded that my wife was secretly reading my mind, or that she and what she said were mystically connected in some way—that she “knew something.” My psychic experiences in the past would have then overlapped with my wife knowing something psychically, mystically, and symbolically, and also with synchronicity—creating a deep and personal meaning. Add to that the paranoia that comes from her “reading my mind”—that she is therefore “God” because she knows I'm planning on recording my podcast today, even though I haven't told her. The terrifying belief is now engrained, as we are to begin with often more sensitive to the world as a whole—even being touched on the hand or the ear can create extreme fear for us schizophrenics. The belief that “she knew I was going to record a podcast today.” Synchronicity may have a little or some scientific evidence, at least theoretically. However, there are things that we cannot prove through science, such as the definition of time—or even God. In a state of schizophrenic psychosis, this overlap becomes compounded, as it builds up more intensely and thus perhaps takes over our entire belief system. Perhaps there is a coherent way of explaining how we schizophrenics might create our own reality, our delusional or schizophrenic reality, as I see it, through some of the things I have laid out so far—please bear with me here. I'll speak for myself, and my own experiences, although the end result is now something I can talk about and demystify rather than actually believe—thanks to the proper treatment, therapies, and support I now receive. I'll first start with a collection of thoughts. Theoretically, let's say, for real: • In 2008, I made a film called On the Bus about mental illness—it was part of the story in the film. • Mel Gibson (an old friend from California)—he and I were first introduced to each other in 2001. • I listened to The Beach Boys. We'll assume that the music was playing in the car with Mel as we went for a drive, as we did up in the hills of Malibu. • Mel Gibson is rich and famous. Whether in a state of schizophrenic psychosis or not, since this seems to be a matter of degree—depending on how psychotic we might or might not be and how much the psychotic part of our minds has taken hold. This is a matter of our abilities and the constantly fluctuating brain chemistry that we might—or perhaps might not—be able to filter through. It depends on whether we have been successful in redefining our delusional realities to a generally consistent state of well-being and peace of mind. In a psychotic state, due to our hallucinatory thinking, the chemistry in my brain, our brains, is constantly misfiring, so that the stimuli from the environment go to the wrong places in our brains. The effect is similar to putting our hand under cold water and feeling hot. Essentially, though, with this schizophrenic thinking process, I would come up with a “composite sketch,” if you will, a sort of “Frankenstein” version—a storyline that might be experienced as: • I knew Mel Gibson, and therefore I am famous. (Based on: Mel Gibson is famous and is rich.) • Then—but at the same time—I am rich because I made a movie called Ten Years, and I am convinced it made me rich because Mel Gibson is rich, and I am famous because I made my movie, it won awards, and Mel Gibson did, too. I must have met Mel Gibson because I made a movie, and he did, too, and we are both rich and famous. So far—this might not be the best example, but time can thus be altered—2008 is coming before 2003 in this case. This might be a little hard to follow, but please bear with me here.If I were asked to explain this while still psychotic, I'd say first that I am not mentally ill—I am simply psychic, rich, and famous. Besides, the Beach Boys were playing, and one of the Beach Boys has a mental illness, not me, but my film was about mental illness. Brian Wilson is still rich and famous, and also an artist, so he was playing on the radio because both Mel and I were both artists and it was “meant to be” that he would be playing music for us because we were all connected through art, fame, and money. Exhausting, isn't it? But this is actually how jumbled it can be for us and thus for those witnessing us speaking or even communicating in general terms. It's schizophrenia. Let's assume that we got pulled over for speeding. Well, there is a police officer character in On the Bus, my movie. You see, grandiosity, both real and imagined, content, time inconsistencies, and now this character was in the movie, so, because we were all in the car, we were in the movie while in the car, so the police officer was playing her role—it all happened for a reason. And beyond that, paranoia might also slip in—the officer who pulled us over was male (not female), and in my movie she was female, so she was disguising herself in order to take our money and meet three famous people (even Brian Wilson on the radio). Theoretically, this might suffice as a pseudo-case study, and yet in normal reality, for us schizophrenics, this type or process of thinking compounds itself and thus it can become completely distorted. Our friends and families start to think we're going crazy (although in a way we are), and stigma arises, plus confusion and thinking, “What the heck happened to this guy—he's speaking like a drug addict who's lost his mind. Where is all this coming from?” We would all benefit from greater awareness of what schizophrenia is and how to know if someone we love might be predisposed to the illness (through family history, etc.). But this is what we with schizophrenia usually experience early on, as the illness is progressing—we believe this thinking based on other facts—facts which are disconnected, something we cannot see without appropriate help. Later, yes, we can have this type of thinking while recovered or recovering, but we are able, hopefully, to be mindful enough to have such thinking but to cope with it differently, and even, down the road, to do our own “reality checks,” so that we do not not talk about these things inappropriately, in public, let's say. We can also use the hallmark of CBT, which is “evidence”, on our own in order to connect the disconnected parts of our thoughts—thus our reality. We can also do this with the support of loved ones, family, doctors, medications, friends, and support groups who help us and love us enough to be able to assist us in connecting the right pieces together and who explain why they connect—the reasons why. To wrap this up for now, I have not even mentioned the hearing of voices and hallucinations—everything from shadows to people, even friends—and the hidden, traumatic, and paranoid features of schizophrenia of which we are often too afraid to speak. We might sound or behave cryptically, in code, with pressured speech and flight of ideas. Add to this the “zombie-like” features, the manic episodes, the muscle dystonia, and the side effects of medication, and if we have turned to drugs, often just one hit of pot to quell the symptoms—yikes! We're often too embarrassed to speak of our early experiences with schizophrenia, to say that, “Yes, indeed, this is an extremely devastating and debilitating illness.” I am so glad that I am at a place in my recovery. I do have my bad days. I haven't even slept during the last day—insomnia (technically, another symptom), but I am glad that I have been to this intoxicating wonderland and come back—just enough to be able to deliver this kind of explanation, perhaps demystifying in a way that others can understand some of these processes that affect about 1% of the world's population. Schizoaffective disorder, then, includes manic highs and periods of deep depression. My Tourette's syndrome features the obvious muscle tics but also obsessive/compulsive tendencies and elements of autism or Asperger's (often referred to as higher functioning form autism—in summary, but it is, of course, much more than that). We all have our issues. It's how we deal with them that sets us apart. As always, my journey continues, on and on. Yes, you could say I've been through the wringer. I am opening up and sharing my world and my experiences—with hope. Participation in my own recovery, along with metacognition (usually in deficit for those with schizophrenia) and mindfulness, have all helped me become who I am today: an accomplished writer (literature and film/TV) and technically a professional author of erotic fiction. I often laugh at this because there are so many sides of me—the “angel demon human dichotomy”—as I use various outlets to express my creativity. I have an education primarily in the arts, but I worked on Wall Street in my “healthier” days, so I know a bit about that! However, I ultimately chose to do what I am doing now—which is just this. I am also a film producer and a musician. My new full 15-track LP will be arriving at over 60 retailers in the coming weeks, possibly under the band name Waspy Honk Afro. All my work is also available for free and will always be free, as far as I know. My thoughts are free—my public life, the “open source” information-life of J.H. I've lived in New York, Connecticut, Paris France, Los Angeles, and now New Mexico; I am now married and I write a diary and podcast mostly about mental illness, inspiration, New Age ideas, and transgressive material—transgressional fiction. [If you've seen or read Fight Club—it's pretty much like that!]I am, myself, an expert on my own experiences and myself; that's about all I'm an expert on. I am not a doctor of any kind. I enjoy learning, reading, and communicating. Whatever I say or write, I like to add: “take what you will, leave the rest.” I try my best to speak for myself when it comes down to it. Please take note that some of the above writing has been paraphrased from my second novel, Second Alibi: The Banality of Life (2014).
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Cutting Through the Matrix with Alan Watt Podcast (.xml Format)
--{ NWO Masters of Disasters: "New World Order is Deceptive, Techniques Machiavellian, It's No Surprise They Disguise They are Totalitarian, You've No Rights, You're being Watched for Safety, You'll be Scared if You've Dared to Read History Lately, Lenin, Stalin, Hitler Set Their Sights Way Low, The Master's Boys with High-Tech Toys Prize World as Way to Go, The Sheeple are so Mind-Bombed, Not a Thought Inside that's Vital, TV's Blood and Gore and Sex Galore, then on to American Idol, To Take Down a Society, Complete Culture Must be Destroyed, Done Bit by Bit, Masters Never Slip, On Cue Each Change Deployed" © Alan Watt }-- Tool of Television to Change Society and Culture for Domination - Updating of Reality - Planned Society, Slavery - Science and Sci-Fi Writers, CIA Authors - Aldous Huxley's "Brave New World" and George Orwell's "1984" - Conditioning, Hypnosis, Suggestibility - Pop Music and Fashion, Societal and Familial Takedown. Public Disbelief in Reality, Belief in Media - Skinner, Psychopathic Scientists - EU's Project Indect, Monitoring of ALL Phones, Faxes, Internet, Email etc. for "Threats". Stanford University, Persuasive Computer Technology to Change Attitudes and Behaviours (Brainwashing) - Mental Preparation for Changes. CCTV Cameras to Intimidate You - Big Brother Watching You - Britain, Public Humiliation over Screen and Loudspeaker - ISIS Cameras to "Prevent" Crime, "Anti-Social" and "Suspicion" Alerts - Well-Behaved Children of Soviet Union - Tax-Funded Prison Earth - "Minority Report" and "1984" movies. Neighbourhood Gossip and Data Collection - U.K. Govt. "Children's Vetting" Agency - State Indoctrination to Overcome Parental Input - Lawyers, Spoken Word and Interpretation, Legal Joust in Courtroom - Human Organ Harvesting and Sales. Open Totalitarian Regime - Eugenics Agenda - Margaret Sanger, Coming "Race" of Women - Tools of Money, Food and Water for Control. (Articles: ["EU funding 'Orwellian' artificial intelligence plan to monitor public for 'abnormal behaviour' " by Ian Johnston (telegraph.co.uk) - Sept. 19, 2009.] ["Machines Designed to Change Humans" The Stanford Persuasive Technology Lab (captology.stanford.edu).] ["Mobile Persuasion: 20 Perspectives of the Future of Behavior Change" [book] (mobilepersuasion.com).] [Captology.tv] ["Artificially Intelligent CCTV could prevent crimes before they happen" by Richard Alleyne (telegraph.co.uk) - Sept. 23, 2009.] ["Mothers are banned from looking after each other's children" by Sarah Harris (dailymail.co.uk) - Sept. 26, 2009.] ["Cash-strapped sell their kidneys to pay off debts" by Sarah-Kate Templeton (timesonline.co.uk) - Sept. 27, 2009.]) *Title/Poem and Dialogue Copyrighted Alan Watt - Sept. 29, 2009 (Exempting Music, Literary Quotes, and Callers' Comments)
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