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Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: Copyright © The Festival Project, Inc. ™ | Copyright The Complex Collective © 2019 ™ All Rights Reserved. C'cxell Soleïl

Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: Copyright © The Festival Project, Inc. ™ | Copyright The Complex Collective © 2019 ™ All Rights Reserved. C'cxell Soleïl

Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: Copyright © The Festival Project, Inc. ™ | Copyright The Complex Collective © 2019 ™ All Rights Reserved. C'cxell Soleïl

Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: Copyright © The Festival Project, Inc. ™ | Copyright The Complex Collective © 2019 ™ All Rights Reserved. C'cxell Soleïl

Aeschylus brings in Io, not part of the original Prometheus story, as a positive female figure replacing Pandora. Turned into a cow and stung by a gadfly, she wanders the world, an innocent sufferer. But from her line will come Herakles or Hercules, who will release Prometheus.

KEENAN is the head of the league's research and development team. KEENAN WELL, Ya'll sho' chose the wrong girl to fuck wit! Why do you say that? KEENAN Well, i'mon just let ya'll figure that out on ya own. [KEENEN exits shaking his head solemnly, and begins singing ‘Amazing Grace' , first humming.] Hmmmmm—hmmm—how sweet the sound— Wait! Keenan! Who is this girl?! Who is she?! —hmmm—hmmm—hmmm—hmmmmmmmm LIKE MEEEEEEE! What are we up against Oh. you'll see. I woooonceeee was lost— Wait! SEEYA! [out of nowhere he has pulled out an old style stick bundle and throws it over his shoulder, continuing to hum while chewing on a long stick of straw.] —-hmmmm—-hmmmm. …where is he going!? (Meta) Seems like he's going somewhere with that thing hanging over his back! What are those things even called, anyway? Who knows? I think I know, but it might be racist. [suddenly, offstage/camera a bell begins to ring— One— Two— Three chimes.] That seems odd. Yes, very strange. [Suddenly, all the NBC pages at once upend their nests,] what the— Why are there so many of them. I don't know. Did their skirts get shorter? Hush. So many pages. MEANWHILR, unst 30 Rock. Hold on, pause. These weirdo cops have reverb on their whoop whoops. Facts. Are you sure this is still the 10th dimension. I'm positive. Really! You're sure! Couldn't possibly be lower. Maybe. What about higher. Higher!? Since when. WHAT'S YOUR NAME. Uh-FRANKLIN. Don't lie to me. How would you pronounce this name? I wouldn't. Hm. Excuse me. What. How would you say this? Like, out loud— Uh huh. Pass. Dammit! Hey—uh— RACHEL DRATCH What, dammit; what?! I just sat down with my bagel! I know but— I need your help— interpreting something? What is it? Gibberish? Not really, it's— I'm an expert in Gibberish— I know; but— Classical and neo-modern. Yeah, it's not that. What is it. Alien, I think. Which species. Species. WHICH— ugh— give me that! [she snatches the paper and produces a monocle for further inspection.] Since when did you get a monacle? since when changed insurance companies which supplies said ‘monocologists' and covers such expenses sans-coh-pay. You mean copay? Shut up. Hm. Looks to be Unrealian in orgim but I could be mistaking this dialect. What. Could also possibly be AAHHMEK. Ahmek? Ano, AAAAH— nevermind. Is this an actual apostrophe? Beg your pardon. The apostrophe— is it human derived, or the human pseudo translation replacement for a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? Say again. Is it an actual apostrophe, or is the mark mean to insinuate the commonly used extraterrestrial character afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? …I don't know. WELL, then—I'm afraid I can't help you until you forgive that out— What. Depending on what the mark is, those could be two veerrrrry different things. Would you just, Now if you'll excuse me, I'd like to presume the consumption of my RAISINBagel. You know what. -_- -_- -_- …fine. [he snatches the paper and walks away angry—RATCHEL DRATCH begins to shmear her bagel, mumbling] —wants me to translate, but doesn't know the difference between an apostrophe, and a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh. Please! {Enter The Multiverse} Unlike the girl next door, my lawsuit was legitimate. I strolled passed the usual subjects on my way back to the apartment from my begrudged outings; I had left with the intention of putting my money into a cheap record player, but had after all decided against it—I was saving for a new computer so that I could actually record vocals for my music, which would deplete my budget after living expenses for the month into nothing, and though I knew it would be something like next-to-nothing for the next little while anyway, it wouldn't matter. Now that I knew I was right, I continued compiling the evidence against these motorized terrorists—I didn't actually want to sue, but at this point it seemed it was my only choice— my lowly “status” should not mean that I was allowed to be tortured continually—and, unlike the girl next door, I was not seeking damages for something I had asked for, or brought onto myself; the horrendous sound in the apartment seemed as if it was aimed directly toward me with my synesthesia in mind, and with some amount of pride I refused outright to go the way I was expected to and file a disability claim. I wasn't disabled— I was, however, unable to preform my full work duties as a recording artist without being interrupted by motorcycles, project cars, and otherwise, all of which I suspected were operated by the same group of people— some ugly little brown lackeys who felt entitled in one way or another, and paraded around as if they owned the neighborhood. Benefiting from American business, but anti-American; the opposite of peaceful and respectful—not that America had made its name on the basis of respect, and so it seemed that something, out of balance and off kilter for hundreds of years iknretropect, was bound to change. They were rude, arrogant, and loud—bringing al of the 3rd-world mindset and none of the humility or charm of the actual 3rd world with them; as arrogant as one might think, a gross reflection of the toxic masculine as a whole. They might not have been ugly at all if they were respectful or decent—but they ran about acting like terrorists, revving their engines, and banging, and clashing, and being ugly—employing young boys to stand on the corner and sell their off market drugs after having one of their smoke shops closed down. The more time I spent outside dealing with people at all, the more ill I felt. I craved more time offline and off the grid, and though the general disenchantment of New York would continue pouring through the cheaply made windows, I realized that I would be more well-to-do with a typewriter (so that I could continue to write for long periods of time offline and without my phone) and a record player (to drown out the noise and play along to on my drum machine, and still— there were more things to do, always drowning in bills and often wondering how long I'd have to forfeight health in exchange for the decency of what some might cal luxury, but others foundational. As for myself, these things, simple staples to health and wellness, were beginning to be foundational. {Enter The Multiverse} “As Seen on TV” She doesn't even have a name My pussy is cleaner than a motherfucker This ain't no community like Donald Glover Ya'll niggas actin childish, Gambino— If you wanna turn it on, Then send a c-note (I'm in south side) What she want Peloton What she on peloton What she got peloton What she on Peloton I FOUND KIT! I found KIT. Great, now did you burn that letter? What. Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: What. Me? Sure, why not? I want your autograph! Do people still ask for autographs? Often enough. Remarkably, even, at airports, and of course, unexpectedly at— GODDAMMIT, we're back at the rock! GODDAMMIT. Well. Well what! Somebody check what year it is. FUCK. [super long censored beep.] [The Festival Project ™] It was the first time since my childhood I felt like something was too long away—but finally, I was in the final stretch. The Peloton would be delivered sometime in the morning, and now that my internet had shut itself off— I'd refused to pay the bill and opted for getting a new computer so that I could record, rather it— Give me a second, I'm fucking obsessed with these curtains. Bro but second to the curtains is the fucking grass. No, its—tuft. Turf, huh? Interesting… I told you she was some sort of a spy. Whatever. I had long considered turning my living room into a media center, and had thought to reinvent my entire space in fungshuei, but now more than anything I just wanted it to look like that. {Enter The Multiverse} Something is wrong with her . She sits by her door ALL DAY and just fucking talks. And I know she's by her door Because she's RIGHT AT THE DOOR I hear this crystal clear Anytime I go near my door And she's like BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH BITCH GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR somewhere in a parallel of time Your ancestors Are beating the hell Out of my ancestors And your other ancestors Are stealing my other ancestors land You're on borrowed time And in borrowed space GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR. Man, Living sandwhiched between two Karen's Is like the equivalent Of having two demon fucking little sisters That hate you And tell on your for everything. Slamming doors and shit just to fuckin Throwing shit around Bitch. You are crazy. And that's the thing about white girls Their crazy is socially acceptable As normal behavior I guess when you just have the best things in life thrown at you forever— When things the rest of us consider luxury and opulence is just “regular” to you, You get a little set in your ways. My neighbor is infuriating. I'm like WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS BY THE DOOR SHES LIKE SNARFSNRFSNARF I'm like goddamn, Somebody send like a Camden or a fuckin “Chase” Over this way. Somebody take this bitch on a date And away from the door. Whole two bedroom apartment This bitch is glued to her door. She a robot. The door is metal. She just enters the apartment and gets glued stuck to the door “I guess I will have to snarf snarf from here. “She's a smart one” I don't believe in smart white girls. There's regular white girls And fucking serial killers. The serial killers are considered “the smart ones” I guess it does take a considerable amount of intelligence to just exist to catch bodies That's what they call the smart ones The ones who level up by just Mowing everyone else down. Gotta give them that. White girls will ruin your whole life Blink two little blue-green eyes twice— And if they're big and round enough The brown eyed white girls can get away with the shit, too— But they're fucking murderers. It's okay. I lived with white people long enough in my life to love them. But in living with and around them— I notice they all say the same thing which indicates to me that racial injustice might not actually be their fault— They might be killing niggas on accident. Just complete accidents White people say shit like “I can't feel” What. “How does it feel—to feel.” WHAT?! “Explain to me the concept of ‘emotions'” Ah hell nah— And these people have all the disposable income? It's not their fault. They just— are like that. They're wired different. They can't feel, And their first instinct is to kill everything different or perceivably deadly. It's not their fault It's intrinsically They have extremely fragile genes Very weak gene pools. Have you ever noticed how white people are always sick? Always?! Weak gene pools. Years of breeding narcisistically. Traits that are reminders of themselves, or people they grew up around. This is not racism, it's just science. “Oh, I love blue eyes because my grandmother has blue eyes” White men commonly marry women who remind them of their mothers and sisters. If that's not fucked up, I don't know what is. Then I realized that incest porn and teeny porn are amongst the highest watched types of porn. Hmm. Gee. I wonder why. Men are gross. But white moms need to start being more like black and Hispanic moms if they want to ensure the continuance of their genetics into evolution. You need to give your kids some mommy issues. That way, when they grow up, they feel the need to add variation to the gene pool in order to strengthen it, and move towards evolution. It's true. I lived with maybe the whitest man I ever knew for almost 6 months; I don't think he was specifically intentionally trying to kill me— But everything he did— And I mean everything, up to a certain point was like …I don't know, man. It really seems like this dude is trying to like exterminate me in some sort of way. It was bad. The energy was weird. He was like dirty, Fucking lazy, He was a lot. I was like, “Damn what the fuck it's like the longer I stay around the worse it is” But the weirdest part, was that he didn't seem to be aware that he was doing it Either that or he was a really good actor… “What do you mean?” Had me confused. But that's the thing about the whites. They do the whole thing with mind games They fuck with your mind. It's the most powerful weapon, actually— Because if you continually attack a person's mind, The rest crumbles around them without you even touching them. I'm sure this is what my neighbor is trying to do. It's a mind thing I get near the door, she just hurries up and opens her door, opens the door real wide, big apartment, everything's white, big ass fucking place But she's always by the door; Mind games. —Tales of a Superstar DJ. I wasn't really interesting in meeting someone seriously— in fact. As it turned out, I still had a little more muse to milk out of the last one, but even the tarot was being a stickler— I could risk ending it all and putting a nail in the coffin by actually watching The Tonight Show—but there would be a possibility it all would backfire and it would just reignite that spark, or worse—I'd become fully engulfed in flames by whatever it was that seemed to appear—and it seemed to appear so vividly and with rapid strength that it couldn't be stopped or controlled. A serious amount of money had to have been implemented to my paying attention to this, and beyond that— it all had to have been carefully premeditated. While at least now at the bookshop I was drawn to books from Oprah's book club, what had occurred couldn't possibly be ignored—actually, it couldn't be, at all— but instead of eating at me in its usual way, I had more just began to realize that there must have been in play some purpose. Feeling faraway from my actual creative self, there seemed to be something missing at all generating even a general sense of understanding of what normalcy was— when had actually been the last time I had been touched at all in a way that might make me feel as if I was still human— as if I was normal— but I knew I wasn't. It's time for a change. The thought of being with someone, especially just anyone, was bizzare. I gave up on love a lot of times; But this is when it became official. I was listening to a rap album I had never heard before And in this rap song, he said “This hoe got a 7 year degree and still selling pussy” What in the fuck. One way one way ticket Why bother getting a 7 year degree If your value as a black woman Is so low You can get a 7 year degree And still have to be a prostitute? What the fuck is the point. It goes the other way, too. What is the point of selling pussy without a 7 year degree!? She's gonna make more than me in ALL the professions. I gave up on love at all. That right there is how low value we are, not just to the black man, but any man. 7 year degree and you can charge more an hour, but you're still a technical hoe. I want to fucking die. When I married my ex I was pregnant with twins; When i got pregnant with the twins I was about 350 pounds. So by the time we got married, I was 6 months pregnant with twins. He had a right to cheat! I forgave him. But the first time he hit me Like really hit me Not just like A heavy shoving or ike A lil— You know Choke out– Like the real deal Like knocked me the fuck Almost all the way out Saw the white light and everything By the time that all went down I'm like 170-180 He's still, mind you, like 300 I lost weight He lost his mind; so i'm— — lets round up— Like 180 pounds But in my mind i must be thinking somewhere i'm still 300 He came at me with a running start, I put my hands up like: I must have thought i actually had a chance I took a fighting stance like: He said Fphew! PULL A RABBIT OUT A HAT damn . what year is this really? You just got sampled . Say, what's his job? Well, that's an informer. Chris Rock forsure some kind of genius I saw him do GIlbert Godfried And Sam Kinison In the same show. The show was dated, though; He literally said, “I'm married: I don't cheat.” I knew it must have been a joke. I knew it had to be a joke, or it had to be dated, Cause being real, I listen to too much kanye To even believe that Or even laugh at that: Not “too much” kanye— 'Just enough' Kanye, He said, “If I pull up with Kerri washington, That's gon' be an enormous scandal” I might have Niomi Campbell, Still might want me a stormy daniels And ya'll tried to get trumps supporters to turn against him By exposing that he fucked this bitch? That's like an achivement. That's like a status symbol. I'm sure these idiots praise him for that. He might have even gotten more popular! That's not a scandal That's PR. On that note, I think Chris Rock was the very guy Who made me decide to stay single forever: He talked about the way, apparently, men want to kill their wives; The way they fantasise killing us When we're in the relationship: Now, ill say— I never once thought about killing my ex husband During the relationship Even after he hit me. Never once. The only time i started wishing a karmic death upon this person was when I left the relationship And he stopped fantasizing about it And actually tried to fucking kill me. Once I realized this was happening Only then did I start to think “Oh damn, i hope that motherfucker just drops the fuck dead.” This motherfucker beat me, AND tried to kill me, Only then was i like, damn “Return to sender” I hope you die too, You fat piece of shit wifebeater motherfucker I hope you die too. Only after he tried to kill me. After I left. Had to hire a fucking voodoo fucking sorceress and shit “yo , take this curse off me, This motherfucker tried to kill me” Fuck that motherfucker. Apparently though they fantasisze it all the time, I'm thinking about all the times he would play this song iroinically enough, By kanye west So maybe too much Kanye West Or just enough, Kanye said “I thought about killing you today.” He used to play this song, And beat my ass, And I never once thought “I hope he dies” Shit, After the first time he really beat my ass, He ran away. He got scared; He had to run. My face was all hanging off my head and shit Blood all over the place My lip is disconnected from my whole jaw and shit He ran away; He darted out the front door He said “I'm gonna kill myself!” And he rain away– Even then even just after he beat my ass I never thought about killing him Or wanting him to die He just fresh beat my ass; He just straight up finished whooping my whole ass and he said “I'm gonna kill myself” He realized what he did “I'm gonna kill myself”, he said And he ran out the door And here I am With my lip hanging off my whole face Blood all on the walls Pool of blood on the floor, the whole thing babies crying; The whole The whole fucking HBO special The whole nine yards And he said “I'm gonna kill myself” And my dumb ass said “NO! Don't!” He ran out the door, I'm freaking out Blood everywhere Babies crying and shit “Come back! Think about the kids! Don't kill yourself” Like a dumbass. Turns out that was just a tactic, He broke me down good, I was like “Don't kill yourself” He said “...you gonna call the cops.” He said “...alright, I won't kill myself.” Boom. That's a real killer. Looking back on all this, I can't help but think to myself, What i would have done differently Not the whole “I should have left before any of that happened” I was the mother of two young children; I wanted to try after the cheating to make things work, Fast forward after that Turns out he was fantasizing about killing me the whole time He beat mya ass, ran away, Left me in a pool of blood with my two kids He said I'm gonna kill myself Looking back at that momet, The thing I wish I could change is this If i had to do it over again And he beat me like that In front of my kids And then said “I'm gonna kill myself” I would have said “do that shit.” Lock the door behind his ass, Change the lock, Pick my face up off the floor, call an ambulance And the polce, change names Pick up my life And leave forever. “Nigga–who?” “Momma who was our daddy? What was he like?” “Ya'll ain't got a daddy. I made ya'll myself” End of story. Whatever. Everything happens for a reason though. I learned my lesson. Now i don't argue with anyone at all Men, women–nobody If i even sense that same shit That psycho killer shit– I become as silent and invisible as possible And simply Disappear. “Disappear.” I had a migraine and I knew it was from pressure buildup and stress, so I thought to get rid of it I ought to make one of those hot-compresses with rice. But the only rice I had was jambalaya flavored— But the headache was obviously really bad, So I was like, “fuck it.” Poured it into a gym sock And popped it in the microwave, Put it on my neck— My neck smelled like a pot roast, But it worked. {Enter The Multiverse} There was something in my lungs, forcing me to breathe deeply, with a raspy wheezing wind out of my lungs, and with a steady cough, I was able to offload whatever it was waiting in my chest to be released, along with it, at least part of the pressure that was making even just sitting and reading nearly unbearable, collecting into a harsh migraine paralyzing each and every other breath with a sharp pain underneath the back of what seemed to be somewhere below my ear canal and somehow, a pressure somewhere behind my eye, probably a result of the excruciating process of shoving earplugs into my ears in order to drown out the outside noise, which paired with that of my seemingly devoid neighbors, often became wildly unsettling, and while lately the clamoring had created not only an uneasy tremor in my left hand, but also apparently a sudden onset of occasional vruxism, the anxiety overall seemed to be surmounting into what could only be described as something trying to kill me, for which I could no longer ignore not as delusions or paranoia, but absolute fact. As I had learned, modern psychology might have been the equivalent of what one could even be certain to be the devil itself, unable to distinguish patterns often associated with creative genius, self manifestation, and psychic abilities and intuition, as delusions of grandeur, paranoid thinking, or worse— diagnoses as psychotic. However, my grandiosity was neither imagined nor delusional—my podcast series alone had been read and listened to all over the world, translated into foreign languages and transcribed, and had been downloaded hundreds of thousands of times since its publishing; though not a technically recognizable figure, I had realized that I had in my own right become somewhat famous, if even off of the back or even under the umbrella of another famous individual, to whom the series itself had been entrusted. Receiving though not by mainstream media standards upwards of at least 10 downloads per episode, the series had no actual gauge or marker for its actual success and polularity—without being able to see information from a major streaming platform—Spotify, and without being able to measure the amount of downloads which had then been duplicated and shared otherwise, I started to recognize with a certain understanding what a cult following was, and the minimal phenomenon that even at this level, fame started to become apparent. It had also become apparent that science itself had yet to truly understand the phenomenon of creative energy as a whole, and that many with these capabilities and gifts were considered to have a plethora of mental health disorders and medicated with what one would consider targeted attacks on the psyche, the illusion of mental illness often standing as the actual delusion in itself! Creating, and then medicating these intrinsic abilities ass illnesses whereby the “neurotypical” individual might only be considered as such due to ability to adapt, confirm, or follow diections in a systematic manner, and furthermore, that the misdiagnoses of such misunderstoodconditions often even relied on bias, poor judgement, racism, social class, and economics had certainly deconstructed any faith or belief formerly held in the modern state of psychology, and most of the articles or public medical journals read more like science fiction and fantasy rather than cold hard facts; indicating a moral and ethical flaw within the entirety of the human species—man's own inability to understand God, and therefore himself, in any creative process. Diety and creativity combined were simply a mystery, and had plagued entire generations of the human spieces as a whole. Blū runs at top speed through the streets of Brooklyn New York on a cold and windy October night. V.O. The ironic thing is, I'm running to go get ice cream. I hate my life, I hate this place, I hate my life— I fucking hate this shit. I'm trying really hard not to kill myself. Like really, really hard. Sudden onset bruxism and hand tremors and I can't help but wonder if it has anything to do with the constant mottoeycle traffic or sleeping in a sea of vehicles which at any given moment could sound off, start up or honk the horn alarm over the last 9 months. I'm fucking exhausted all the time and everything around me just fucking draining. Just fucking draining. https://www.tracklib.com/pricing Yo, you know how I know I'm aging? I hated Dora The Explora when I was a kid— You know why? “That's for babies!” I was too old for Dora the explorer. Mi was a tv snob. I'm like “I hate Dora!” No teletubbies for me. No sir. I'm distinguished now. But get this, As I get older, different renditions of Dora Have grown on me To the point where I actually like the bitch I got older, And there was this girl, Who would show up at raves Dressed like Dora And shuffle, And dance around— Looking like Dora The Explorer Kind of creepy, now that I think about it As an actual adult, Like this, Fully grown woman, Dressed as a fucking 5 year old Dancing around at raves Being Dora. Weird. But I liked it. I loved it. She was a hit; Everybody was like “RAVE DORA! RAVE DORA!” She blew up on Instagram, She had a following— It was like Where will she be next?! RAVE DORA! Had the backpack and everything— Everything! Rave Dora! But now I know I'm getting old, Because I'm fuckin around online, And I see in the advertising little sidebar video Like, a new version of Dora The Explorer, And I'm like “DORAAAAAAAA!!!” —the fuck! I just realized my best friend from 3rd and 7th grade looked just like Dora the explorer. Facts. She became literally the most successful stripper I've ever met. Ahem. Dancer. Right. Dancer. Ahem. Dudes are gross. Doods r gross. Welcome to Doods R Gross; What can I help you find today? Uh, hi. I'm looking for a guy— Uh huh— Possibly one who looks like this: Ah shit, this is how I got playing the Wikipedia game and went on a tirade Facts. Ended up here Unicameralism (from uni- "one" + Latin camera "chamber") is a type of legislatureconsisting of one house or assembly that legislates and votes as one.[1] Unicameralism has become an increasingly common type of legislature, making up nearly 60% of all national legislatures[2] and an even greater share of subnational legislatures. Interesting Started Here: The Fallen Angel (French: L'Ange déchu) is a painting by French artist Alexandre Cabanel. You were saying? Preferably this. Ah huh. Not the face, but— the body— you know. Like this. Okay. Who will let me do everything. Everything as in? Everything. Well, as you know, dudes are gross… Hence the name of this store, good sir. I am in no way good, nor am I a “sir”, and for all intensive purposes, my employment at this store signals my deep indirection in life and may also be an indication of more serious issues. Maintained. Alright, so I'll show you what we got. No promises; The type of model you want is popular, Might be out of stock. Considerable. What's your price range? This credit card has no limit. Credit, or debit? My debit card is also linked to a plethora of infinite wealth. Right this way. Do you think I deserved for him to hit me like that? I don't know. Maybe. I mean—the cheating is a given; I was really really fat..:but do you think like, him getting violent was some kind of karma for something? Maybe. Like maybe I had it coming for whatever reason— and just didn't know it. Maybe. Suddenly I was in the residual memory of a dream. {Enter The Multiverse} [The Festival Project.™] COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2024 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

KEENAN is the head of the league's research and development team. KEENAN WELL, Ya'll sho' chose the wrong girl to fuck wit! Why do you say that? KEENAN Well, i'mon just let ya'll figure that out on ya own. [KEENEN exits shaking his head solemnly, and begins singing ‘Amazing Grace' , first humming.] Hmmmmm—hmmm—how sweet the sound— Wait! Keenan! Who is this girl?! Who is she?! —hmmm—hmmm—hmmm—hmmmmmmmm LIKE MEEEEEEE! What are we up against Oh. you'll see. I woooonceeee was lost— Wait! SEEYA! [out of nowhere he has pulled out an old style stick bundle and throws it over his shoulder, continuing to hum while chewing on a long stick of straw.] —-hmmmm—-hmmmm. …where is he going!? (Meta) Seems like he's going somewhere with that thing hanging over his back! What are those things even called, anyway? Who knows? I think I know, but it might be racist. [suddenly, offstage/camera a bell begins to ring— One— Two— Three chimes.] That seems odd. Yes, very strange. [Suddenly, all the NBC pages at once upend their nests,] what the— Why are there so many of them. I don't know. Did their skirts get shorter? Hush. So many pages. MEANWHILR, unst 30 Rock. Hold on, pause. These weirdo cops have reverb on their whoop whoops. Facts. Are you sure this is still the 10th dimension. I'm positive. Really! You're sure! Couldn't possibly be lower. Maybe. What about higher. Higher!? Since when. WHAT'S YOUR NAME. Uh-FRANKLIN. Don't lie to me. How would you pronounce this name? I wouldn't. Hm. Excuse me. What. How would you say this? Like, out loud— Uh huh. Pass. Dammit! Hey—uh— RACHEL DRATCH What, dammit; what?! I just sat down with my bagel! I know but— I need your help— interpreting something? What is it? Gibberish? Not really, it's— I'm an expert in Gibberish— I know; but— Classical and neo-modern. Yeah, it's not that. What is it. Alien, I think. Which species. Species. WHICH— ugh— give me that! [she snatches the paper and produces a monocle for further inspection.] Since when did you get a monacle? since when changed insurance companies which supplies said ‘monocologists' and covers such expenses sans-coh-pay. You mean copay? Shut up. Hm. Looks to be Unrealian in orgim but I could be mistaking this dialect. What. Could also possibly be AAHHMEK. Ahmek? Ano, AAAAH— nevermind. Is this an actual apostrophe? Beg your pardon. The apostrophe— is it human derived, or the human pseudo translation replacement for a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? Say again. Is it an actual apostrophe, or is the mark mean to insinuate the commonly used extraterrestrial character afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? …I don't know. WELL, then—I'm afraid I can't help you until you forgive that out— What. Depending on what the mark is, those could be two veerrrrry different things. Would you just, Now if you'll excuse me, I'd like to presume the consumption of my RAISINBagel. You know what. -_- -_- -_- …fine. [he snatches the paper and walks away angry—RATCHEL DRATCH begins to shmear her bagel, mumbling] —wants me to translate, but doesn't know the difference between an apostrophe, and a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh. Please! {Enter The Multiverse} Unlike the girl next door, my lawsuit was legitimate. I strolled passed the usual subjects on my way back to the apartment from my begrudged outings; I had left with the intention of putting my money into a cheap record player, but had after all decided against it—I was saving for a new computer so that I could actually record vocals for my music, which would deplete my budget after living expenses for the month into nothing, and though I knew it would be something like next-to-nothing for the next little while anyway, it wouldn't matter. Now that I knew I was right, I continued compiling the evidence against these motorized terrorists—I didn't actually want to sue, but at this point it seemed it was my only choice— my lowly “status” should not mean that I was allowed to be tortured continually—and, unlike the girl next door, I was not seeking damages for something I had asked for, or brought onto myself; the horrendous sound in the apartment seemed as if it was aimed directly toward me with my synesthesia in mind, and with some amount of pride I refused outright to go the way I was expected to and file a disability claim. I wasn't disabled— I was, however, unable to preform my full work duties as a recording artist without being interrupted by motorcycles, project cars, and otherwise, all of which I suspected were operated by the same group of people— some ugly little brown lackeys who felt entitled in one way or another, and paraded around as if they owned the neighborhood. Benefiting from American business, but anti-American; the opposite of peaceful and respectful—not that America had made its name on the basis of respect, and so it seemed that something, out of balance and off kilter for hundreds of years iknretropect, was bound to change. They were rude, arrogant, and loud—bringing al of the 3rd-world mindset and none of the humility or charm of the actual 3rd world with them; as arrogant as one might think, a gross reflection of the toxic masculine as a whole. They might not have been ugly at all if they were respectful or decent—but they ran about acting like terrorists, revving their engines, and banging, and clashing, and being ugly—employing young boys to stand on the corner and sell their off market drugs after having one of their smoke shops closed down. The more time I spent outside dealing with people at all, the more ill I felt. I craved more time offline and off the grid, and though the general disenchantment of New York would continue pouring through the cheaply made windows, I realized that I would be more well-to-do with a typewriter (so that I could continue to write for long periods of time offline and without my phone) and a record player (to drown out the noise and play along to on my drum machine, and still— there were more things to do, always drowning in bills and often wondering how long I'd have to forfeight health in exchange for the decency of what some might cal luxury, but others foundational. As for myself, these things, simple staples to health and wellness, were beginning to be foundational. {Enter The Multiverse} “As Seen on TV” She doesn't even have a name My pussy is cleaner than a motherfucker This ain't no community like Donald Glover Ya'll niggas actin childish, Gambino— If you wanna turn it on, Then send a c-note (I'm in south side) What she want Peloton What she on peloton What she got peloton What she on Peloton I FOUND KIT! I found KIT. Great, now did you burn that letter? What. Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: What. Me? Sure, why not? I want your autograph! Do people still ask for autographs? Often enough. Remarkably, even, at airports, and of course, unexpectedly at— GODDAMMIT, we're back at the rock! GODDAMMIT. Well. Well what! Somebody check what year it is. FUCK. [super long censored beep.] [The Festival Project ™] It was the first time since my childhood I felt like something was too long away—but finally, I was in the final stretch. The Peloton would be delivered sometime in the morning, and now that my internet had shut itself off— I'd refused to pay the bill and opted for getting a new computer so that I could record, rather it— Give me a second, I'm fucking obsessed with these curtains. Bro but second to the curtains is the fucking grass. No, its—tuft. Turf, huh? Interesting… I told you she was some sort of a spy. Whatever. I had long considered turning my living room into a media center, and had thought to reinvent my entire space in fungshuei, but now more than anything I just wanted it to look like that. {Enter The Multiverse} Something is wrong with her . She sits by her door ALL DAY and just fucking talks. And I know she's by her door Because she's RIGHT AT THE DOOR I hear this crystal clear Anytime I go near my door And she's like BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH BITCH GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR somewhere in a parallel of time Your ancestors Are beating the hell Out of my ancestors And your other ancestors Are stealing my other ancestors land You're on borrowed time And in borrowed space GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR. Man, Living sandwhiched between two Karen's Is like the equivalent Of having two demon fucking little sisters That hate you And tell on your for everything. Slamming doors and shit just to fuckin Throwing shit around Bitch. You are crazy. And that's the thing about white girls Their crazy is socially acceptable As normal behavior I guess when you just have the best things in life thrown at you forever— When things the rest of us consider luxury and opulence is just “regular” to you, You get a little set in your ways. My neighbor is infuriating. I'm like WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS BY THE DOOR SHES LIKE SNARFSNRFSNARF I'm like goddamn, Somebody send like a Camden or a fuckin “Chase” Over this way. Somebody take this bitch on a date And away from the door. Whole two bedroom apartment This bitch is glued to her door. She a robot. The door is metal. She just enters the apartment and gets glued stuck to the door “I guess I will have to snarf snarf from here. “She's a smart one” I don't believe in smart white girls. There's regular white girls And fucking serial killers. The serial killers are considered “the smart ones” I guess it does take a considerable amount of intelligence to just exist to catch bodies That's what they call the smart ones The ones who level up by just Mowing everyone else down. Gotta give them that. White girls will ruin your whole life Blink two little blue-green eyes twice— And if they're big and round enough The brown eyed white girls can get away with the shit, too— But they're fucking murderers. It's okay. I lived with white people long enough in my life to love them. But in living with and around them— I notice they all say the same thing which indicates to me that racial injustice might not actually be their fault— They might be killing niggas on accident. Just complete accidents White people say shit like “I can't feel” What. “How does it feel—to feel.” WHAT?! “Explain to me the concept of ‘emotions'” Ah hell nah— And these people have all the disposable income? It's not their fault. They just— are like that. They're wired different. They can't feel, And their first instinct is to kill everything different or perceivably deadly. It's not their fault It's intrinsically They have extremely fragile genes Very weak gene pools. Have you ever noticed how white people are always sick? Always?! Weak gene pools. Years of breeding narcisistically. Traits that are reminders of themselves, or people they grew up around. This is not racism, it's just science. “Oh, I love blue eyes because my grandmother has blue eyes” White men commonly marry women who remind them of their mothers and sisters. If that's not fucked up, I don't know what is. Then I realized that incest porn and teeny porn are amongst the highest watched types of porn. Hmm. Gee. I wonder why. Men are gross. But white moms need to start being more like black and Hispanic moms if they want to ensure the continuance of their genetics into evolution. You need to give your kids some mommy issues. That way, when they grow up, they feel the need to add variation to the gene pool in order to strengthen it, and move towards evolution. It's true. I lived with maybe the whitest man I ever knew for almost 6 months; I don't think he was specifically intentionally trying to kill me— But everything he did— And I mean everything, up to a certain point was like …I don't know, man. It really seems like this dude is trying to like exterminate me in some sort of way. It was bad. The energy was weird. He was like dirty, Fucking lazy, He was a lot. I was like, “Damn what the fuck it's like the longer I stay around the worse it is” But the weirdest part, was that he didn't seem to be aware that he was doing it Either that or he was a really good actor… “What do you mean?” Had me confused. But that's the thing about the whites. They do the whole thing with mind games They fuck with your mind. It's the most powerful weapon, actually— Because if you continually attack a person's mind, The rest crumbles around them without you even touching them. I'm sure this is what my neighbor is trying to do. It's a mind thing I get near the door, she just hurries up and opens her door, opens the door real wide, big apartment, everything's white, big ass fucking place But she's always by the door; Mind games. —Tales of a Superstar DJ. I wasn't really interesting in meeting someone seriously— in fact. As it turned out, I still had a little more muse to milk out of the last one, but even the tarot was being a stickler— I could risk ending it all and putting a nail in the coffin by actually watching The Tonight Show—but there would be a possibility it all would backfire and it would just reignite that spark, or worse—I'd become fully engulfed in flames by whatever it was that seemed to appear—and it seemed to appear so vividly and with rapid strength that it couldn't be stopped or controlled. A serious amount of money had to have been implemented to my paying attention to this, and beyond that— it all had to have been carefully premeditated. While at least now at the bookshop I was drawn to books from Oprah's book club, what had occurred couldn't possibly be ignored—actually, it couldn't be, at all— but instead of eating at me in its usual way, I had more just began to realize that there must have been in play some purpose. Feeling faraway from my actual creative self, there seemed to be something missing at all generating even a general sense of understanding of what normalcy was— when had actually been the last time I had been touched at all in a way that might make me feel as if I was still human— as if I was normal— but I knew I wasn't. It's time for a change. The thought of being with someone, especially just anyone, was bizzare. I gave up on love a lot of times; But this is when it became official. I was listening to a rap album I had never heard before And in this rap song, he said “This hoe got a 7 year degree and still selling pussy” What in the fuck. One way one way ticket Why bother getting a 7 year degree If your value as a black woman Is so low You can get a 7 year degree And still have to be a prostitute? What the fuck is the point. It goes the other way, too. What is the point of selling pussy without a 7 year degree!? She's gonna make more than me in ALL the professions. I gave up on love at all. That right there is how low value we are, not just to the black man, but any man. 7 year degree and you can charge more an hour, but you're still a technical hoe. I want to fucking die. When I married my ex I was pregnant with twins; When i got pregnant with the twins I was about 350 pounds. So by the time we got married, I was 6 months pregnant with twins. He had a right to cheat! I forgave him. But the first time he hit me Like really hit me Not just like A heavy shoving or ike A lil— You know Choke out– Like the real deal Like knocked me the fuck Almost all the way out Saw the white light and everything By the time that all went down I'm like 170-180 He's still, mind you, like 300 I lost weight He lost his mind; so i'm— — lets round up— Like 180 pounds But in my mind i must be thinking somewhere i'm still 300 He came at me with a running start, I put my hands up like: I must have thought i actually had a chance I took a fighting stance like: He said Fphew! PULL A RABBIT OUT A HAT damn . what year is this really? You just got sampled . Say, what's his job? Well, that's an informer. Chris Rock forsure some kind of genius I saw him do GIlbert Godfried And Sam Kinison In the same show. The show was dated, though; He literally said, “I'm married: I don't cheat.” I knew it must have been a joke. I knew it had to be a joke, or it had to be dated, Cause being real, I listen to too much kanye To even believe that Or even laugh at that: Not “too much” kanye— 'Just enough' Kanye, He said, “If I pull up with Kerri washington, That's gon' be an enormous scandal” I might have Niomi Campbell, Still might want me a stormy daniels And ya'll tried to get trumps supporters to turn against him By exposing that he fucked this bitch? That's like an achivement. That's like a status symbol. I'm sure these idiots praise him for that. He might have even gotten more popular! That's not a scandal That's PR. On that note, I think Chris Rock was the very guy Who made me decide to stay single forever: He talked about the way, apparently, men want to kill their wives; The way they fantasise killing us When we're in the relationship: Now, ill say— I never once thought about killing my ex husband During the relationship Even after he hit me. Never once. The only time i started wishing a karmic death upon this person was when I left the relationship And he stopped fantasizing about it And actually tried to fucking kill me. Once I realized this was happening Only then did I start to think “Oh damn, i hope that motherfucker just drops the fuck dead.” This motherfucker beat me, AND tried to kill me, Only then was i like, damn “Return to sender” I hope you die too, You fat piece of shit wifebeater motherfucker I hope you die too. Only after he tried to kill me. After I left. Had to hire a fucking voodoo fucking sorceress and shit “yo , take this curse off me, This motherfucker tried to kill me” Fuck that motherfucker. Apparently though they fantasisze it all the time, I'm thinking about all the times he would play this song iroinically enough, By kanye west So maybe too much Kanye West Or just enough, Kanye said “I thought about killing you today.” He used to play this song, And beat my ass, And I never once thought “I hope he dies” Shit, After the first time he really beat my ass, He ran away. He got scared; He had to run. My face was all hanging off my head and shit Blood all over the place My lip is disconnected from my whole jaw and shit He ran away; He darted out the front door He said “I'm gonna kill myself!” And he rain away– Even then even just after he beat my ass I never thought about killing him Or wanting him to die He just fresh beat my ass; He just straight up finished whooping my whole ass and he said “I'm gonna kill myself” He realized what he did “I'm gonna kill myself”, he said And he ran out the door And here I am With my lip hanging off my whole face Blood all on the walls Pool of blood on the floor, the whole thing babies crying; The whole The whole fucking HBO special The whole nine yards And he said “I'm gonna kill myself” And my dumb ass said “NO! Don't!” He ran out the door, I'm freaking out Blood everywhere Babies crying and shit “Come back! Think about the kids! Don't kill yourself” Like a dumbass. Turns out that was just a tactic, He broke me down good, I was like “Don't kill yourself” He said “...you gonna call the cops.” He said “...alright, I won't kill myself.” Boom. That's a real killer. Looking back on all this, I can't help but think to myself, What i would have done differently Not the whole “I should have left before any of that happened” I was the mother of two young children; I wanted to try after the cheating to make things work, Fast forward after that Turns out he was fantasizing about killing me the whole time He beat mya ass, ran away, Left me in a pool of blood with my two kids He said I'm gonna kill myself Looking back at that momet, The thing I wish I could change is this If i had to do it over again And he beat me like that In front of my kids And then said “I'm gonna kill myself” I would have said “do that shit.” Lock the door behind his ass, Change the lock, Pick my face up off the floor, call an ambulance And the polce, change names Pick up my life And leave forever. “Nigga–who?” “Momma who was our daddy? What was he like?” “Ya'll ain't got a daddy. I made ya'll myself” End of story. Whatever. Everything happens for a reason though. I learned my lesson. Now i don't argue with anyone at all Men, women–nobody If i even sense that same shit That psycho killer shit– I become as silent and invisible as possible And simply Disappear. “Disappear.” I had a migraine and I knew it was from pressure buildup and stress, so I thought to get rid of it I ought to make one of those hot-compresses with rice. But the only rice I had was jambalaya flavored— But the headache was obviously really bad, So I was like, “fuck it.” Poured it into a gym sock And popped it in the microwave, Put it on my neck— My neck smelled like a pot roast, But it worked. {Enter The Multiverse} There was something in my lungs, forcing me to breathe deeply, with a raspy wheezing wind out of my lungs, and with a steady cough, I was able to offload whatever it was waiting in my chest to be released, along with it, at least part of the pressure that was making even just sitting and reading nearly unbearable, collecting into a harsh migraine paralyzing each and every other breath with a sharp pain underneath the back of what seemed to be somewhere below my ear canal and somehow, a pressure somewhere behind my eye, probably a result of the excruciating process of shoving earplugs into my ears in order to drown out the outside noise, which paired with that of my seemingly devoid neighbors, often became wildly unsettling, and while lately the clamoring had created not only an uneasy tremor in my left hand, but also apparently a sudden onset of occasional vruxism, the anxiety overall seemed to be surmounting into what could only be described as something trying to kill me, for which I could no longer ignore not as delusions or paranoia, but absolute fact. As I had learned, modern psychology might have been the equivalent of what one could even be certain to be the devil itself, unable to distinguish patterns often associated with creative genius, self manifestation, and psychic abilities and intuition, as delusions of grandeur, paranoid thinking, or worse— diagnoses as psychotic. However, my grandiosity was neither imagined nor delusional—my podcast series alone had been read and listened to all over the world, translated into foreign languages and transcribed, and had been downloaded hundreds of thousands of times since its publishing; though not a technically recognizable figure, I had realized that I had in my own right become somewhat famous, if even off of the back or even under the umbrella of another famous individual, to whom the series itself had been entrusted. Receiving though not by mainstream media standards upwards of at least 10 downloads per episode, the series had no actual gauge or marker for its actual success and polularity—without being able to see information from a major streaming platform—Spotify, and without being able to measure the amount of downloads which had then been duplicated and shared otherwise, I started to recognize with a certain understanding what a cult following was, and the minimal phenomenon that even at this level, fame started to become apparent. It had also become apparent that science itself had yet to truly understand the phenomenon of creative energy as a whole, and that many with these capabilities and gifts were considered to have a plethora of mental health disorders and medicated with what one would consider targeted attacks on the psyche, the illusion of mental illness often standing as the actual delusion in itself! Creating, and then medicating these intrinsic abilities ass illnesses whereby the “neurotypical” individual might only be considered as such due to ability to adapt, confirm, or follow diections in a systematic manner, and furthermore, that the misdiagnoses of such misunderstoodconditions often even relied on bias, poor judgement, racism, social class, and economics had certainly deconstructed any faith or belief formerly held in the modern state of psychology, and most of the articles or public medical journals read more like science fiction and fantasy rather than cold hard facts; indicating a moral and ethical flaw within the entirety of the human species—man's own inability to understand God, and therefore himself, in any creative process. Diety and creativity combined were simply a mystery, and had plagued entire generations of the human spieces as a whole. Blū runs at top speed through the streets of Brooklyn New York on a cold and windy October night. V.O. The ironic thing is, I'm running to go get ice cream. I hate my life, I hate this place, I hate my life— I fucking hate this shit. I'm trying really hard not to kill myself. Like really, really hard. Sudden onset bruxism and hand tremors and I can't help but wonder if it has anything to do with the constant mottoeycle traffic or sleeping in a sea of vehicles which at any given moment could sound off, start up or honk the horn alarm over the last 9 months. I'm fucking exhausted all the time and everything around me just fucking draining. Just fucking draining. https://www.tracklib.com/pricing Yo, you know how I know I'm aging? I hated Dora The Explora when I was a kid— You know why? “That's for babies!” I was too old for Dora the explorer. Mi was a tv snob. I'm like “I hate Dora!” No teletubbies for me. No sir. I'm distinguished now. But get this, As I get older, different renditions of Dora Have grown on me To the point where I actually like the bitch I got older, And there was this girl, Who would show up at raves Dressed like Dora And shuffle, And dance around— Looking like Dora The Explorer Kind of creepy, now that I think about it As an actual adult, Like this, Fully grown woman, Dressed as a fucking 5 year old Dancing around at raves Being Dora. Weird. But I liked it. I loved it. She was a hit; Everybody was like “RAVE DORA! RAVE DORA!” She blew up on Instagram, She had a following— It was like Where will she be next?! RAVE DORA! Had the backpack and everything— Everything! Rave Dora! But now I know I'm getting old, Because I'm fuckin around online, And I see in the advertising little sidebar video Like, a new version of Dora The Explorer, And I'm like “DORAAAAAAAA!!!” —the fuck! I just realized my best friend from 3rd and 7th grade looked just like Dora the explorer. Facts. She became literally the most successful stripper I've ever met. Ahem. Dancer. Right. Dancer. Ahem. Dudes are gross. Doods r gross. Welcome to Doods R Gross; What can I help you find today? Uh, hi. I'm looking for a guy— Uh huh— Possibly one who looks like this: Ah shit, this is how I got playing the Wikipedia game and went on a tirade Facts. Ended up here Unicameralism (from uni- "one" + Latin camera "chamber") is a type of legislatureconsisting of one house or assembly that legislates and votes as one.[1] Unicameralism has become an increasingly common type of legislature, making up nearly 60% of all national legislatures[2] and an even greater share of subnational legislatures. Interesting Started Here: The Fallen Angel (French: L'Ange déchu) is a painting by French artist Alexandre Cabanel. You were saying? Preferably this. Ah huh. Not the face, but— the body— you know. Like this. Okay. Who will let me do everything. Everything as in? Everything. Well, as you know, dudes are gross… Hence the name of this store, good sir. I am in no way good, nor am I a “sir”, and for all intensive purposes, my employment at this store signals my deep indirection in life and may also be an indication of more serious issues. Maintained. Alright, so I'll show you what we got. No promises; The type of model you want is popular, Might be out of stock. Considerable. What's your price range? This credit card has no limit. Credit, or debit? My debit card is also linked to a plethora of infinite wealth. Right this way. Do you think I deserved for him to hit me like that? I don't know. Maybe. I mean—the cheating is a given; I was really really fat..:but do you think like, him getting violent was some kind of karma for something? Maybe. Like maybe I had it coming for whatever reason— and just didn't know it. Maybe. Suddenly I was in the residual memory of a dream. {Enter The Multiverse} [The Festival Project.™] COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2024 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

KEENAN is the head of the league's research and development team. KEENAN WELL, Ya'll sho' chose the wrong girl to fuck wit! Why do you say that? KEENAN Well, i'mon just let ya'll figure that out on ya own. [KEENEN exits shaking his head solemnly, and begins singing ‘Amazing Grace' , first humming.] Hmmmmm—hmmm—how sweet the sound— Wait! Keenan! Who is this girl?! Who is she?! —hmmm—hmmm—hmmm—hmmmmmmmm LIKE MEEEEEEE! What are we up against Oh. you'll see. I woooonceeee was lost— Wait! SEEYA! [out of nowhere he has pulled out an old style stick bundle and throws it over his shoulder, continuing to hum while chewing on a long stick of straw.] —-hmmmm—-hmmmm. …where is he going!? (Meta) Seems like he's going somewhere with that thing hanging over his back! What are those things even called, anyway? Who knows? I think I know, but it might be racist. [suddenly, offstage/camera a bell begins to ring— One— Two— Three chimes.] That seems odd. Yes, very strange. [Suddenly, all the NBC pages at once upend their nests,] what the— Why are there so many of them. I don't know. Did their skirts get shorter? Hush. So many pages. MEANWHILR, unst 30 Rock. Hold on, pause. These weirdo cops have reverb on their whoop whoops. Facts. Are you sure this is still the 10th dimension. I'm positive. Really! You're sure! Couldn't possibly be lower. Maybe. What about higher. Higher!? Since when. WHAT'S YOUR NAME. Uh-FRANKLIN. Don't lie to me. How would you pronounce this name? I wouldn't. Hm. Excuse me. What. How would you say this? Like, out loud— Uh huh. Pass. Dammit! Hey—uh— RACHEL DRATCH What, dammit; what?! I just sat down with my bagel! I know but— I need your help— interpreting something? What is it? Gibberish? Not really, it's— I'm an expert in Gibberish— I know; but— Classical and neo-modern. Yeah, it's not that. What is it. Alien, I think. Which species. Species. WHICH— ugh— give me that! [she snatches the paper and produces a monocle for further inspection.] Since when did you get a monacle? since when changed insurance companies which supplies said ‘monocologists' and covers such expenses sans-coh-pay. You mean copay? Shut up. Hm. Looks to be Unrealian in orgim but I could be mistaking this dialect. What. Could also possibly be AAHHMEK. Ahmek? Ano, AAAAH— nevermind. Is this an actual apostrophe? Beg your pardon. The apostrophe— is it human derived, or the human pseudo translation replacement for a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? Say again. Is it an actual apostrophe, or is the mark mean to insinuate the commonly used extraterrestrial character afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? …I don't know. WELL, then—I'm afraid I can't help you until you forgive that out— What. Depending on what the mark is, those could be two veerrrrry different things. Would you just, Now if you'll excuse me, I'd like to presume the consumption of my RAISINBagel. You know what. -_- -_- -_- …fine. [he snatches the paper and walks away angry—RATCHEL DRATCH begins to shmear her bagel, mumbling] —wants me to translate, but doesn't know the difference between an apostrophe, and a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh. Please! {Enter The Multiverse} Unlike the girl next door, my lawsuit was legitimate. I strolled passed the usual subjects on my way back to the apartment from my begrudged outings; I had left with the intention of putting my money into a cheap record player, but had after all decided against it—I was saving for a new computer so that I could actually record vocals for my music, which would deplete my budget after living expenses for the month into nothing, and though I knew it would be something like next-to-nothing for the next little while anyway, it wouldn't matter. Now that I knew I was right, I continued compiling the evidence against these motorized terrorists—I didn't actually want to sue, but at this point it seemed it was my only choice— my lowly “status” should not mean that I was allowed to be tortured continually—and, unlike the girl next door, I was not seeking damages for something I had asked for, or brought onto myself; the horrendous sound in the apartment seemed as if it was aimed directly toward me with my synesthesia in mind, and with some amount of pride I refused outright to go the way I was expected to and file a disability claim. I wasn't disabled— I was, however, unable to preform my full work duties as a recording artist without being interrupted by motorcycles, project cars, and otherwise, all of which I suspected were operated by the same group of people— some ugly little brown lackeys who felt entitled in one way or another, and paraded around as if they owned the neighborhood. Benefiting from American business, but anti-American; the opposite of peaceful and respectful—not that America had made its name on the basis of respect, and so it seemed that something, out of balance and off kilter for hundreds of years iknretropect, was bound to change. They were rude, arrogant, and loud—bringing al of the 3rd-world mindset and none of the humility or charm of the actual 3rd world with them; as arrogant as one might think, a gross reflection of the toxic masculine as a whole. They might not have been ugly at all if they were respectful or decent—but they ran about acting like terrorists, revving their engines, and banging, and clashing, and being ugly—employing young boys to stand on the corner and sell their off market drugs after having one of their smoke shops closed down. The more time I spent outside dealing with people at all, the more ill I felt. I craved more time offline and off the grid, and though the general disenchantment of New York would continue pouring through the cheaply made windows, I realized that I would be more well-to-do with a typewriter (so that I could continue to write for long periods of time offline and without my phone) and a record player (to drown out the noise and play along to on my drum machine, and still— there were more things to do, always drowning in bills and often wondering how long I'd have to forfeight health in exchange for the decency of what some might cal luxury, but others foundational. As for myself, these things, simple staples to health and wellness, were beginning to be foundational. {Enter The Multiverse} “As Seen on TV” She doesn't even have a name My pussy is cleaner than a motherfucker This ain't no community like Donald Glover Ya'll niggas actin childish, Gambino— If you wanna turn it on, Then send a c-note (I'm in south side) What she want Peloton What she on peloton What she got peloton What she on Peloton I FOUND KIT! I found KIT. Great, now did you burn that letter? What. Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: What. Me? Sure, why not? I want your autograph! Do people still ask for autographs? Often enough. Remarkably, even, at airports, and of course, unexpectedly at— GODDAMMIT, we're back at the rock! GODDAMMIT. Well. Well what! Somebody check what year it is. FUCK. [super long censored beep.] [The Festival Project ™] It was the first time since my childhood I felt like something was too long away—but finally, I was in the final stretch. The Peloton would be delivered sometime in the morning, and now that my internet had shut itself off— I'd refused to pay the bill and opted for getting a new computer so that I could record, rather it— Give me a second, I'm fucking obsessed with these curtains. Bro but second to the curtains is the fucking grass. No, its—tuft. Turf, huh? Interesting… I told you she was some sort of a spy. Whatever. I had long considered turning my living room into a media center, and had thought to reinvent my entire space in fungshuei, but now more than anything I just wanted it to look like that. {Enter The Multiverse} Something is wrong with her . She sits by her door ALL DAY and just fucking talks. And I know she's by her door Because she's RIGHT AT THE DOOR I hear this crystal clear Anytime I go near my door And she's like BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH BITCH GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR somewhere in a parallel of time Your ancestors Are beating the hell Out of my ancestors And your other ancestors Are stealing my other ancestors land You're on borrowed time And in borrowed space GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR. Man, Living sandwhiched between two Karen's Is like the equivalent Of having two demon fucking little sisters That hate you And tell on your for everything. Slamming doors and shit just to fuckin Throwing shit around Bitch. You are crazy. And that's the thing about white girls Their crazy is socially acceptable As normal behavior I guess when you just have the best things in life thrown at you forever— When things the rest of us consider luxury and opulence is just “regular” to you, You get a little set in your ways. My neighbor is infuriating. I'm like WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS BY THE DOOR SHES LIKE SNARFSNRFSNARF I'm like goddamn, Somebody send like a Camden or a fuckin “Chase” Over this way. Somebody take this bitch on a date And away from the door. Whole two bedroom apartment This bitch is glued to her door. She a robot. The door is metal. She just enters the apartment and gets glued stuck to the door “I guess I will have to snarf snarf from here. “She's a smart one” I don't believe in smart white girls. There's regular white girls And fucking serial killers. The serial killers are considered “the smart ones” I guess it does take a considerable amount of intelligence to just exist to catch bodies That's what they call the smart ones The ones who level up by just Mowing everyone else down. Gotta give them that. White girls will ruin your whole life Blink two little blue-green eyes twice— And if they're big and round enough The brown eyed white girls can get away with the shit, too— But they're fucking murderers. It's okay. I lived with white people long enough in my life to love them. But in living with and around them— I notice they all say the same thing which indicates to me that racial injustice might not actually be their fault— They might be killing niggas on accident. Just complete accidents White people say shit like “I can't feel” What. “How does it feel—to feel.” WHAT?! “Explain to me the concept of ‘emotions'” Ah hell nah— And these people have all the disposable income? It's not their fault. They just— are like that. They're wired different. They can't feel, And their first instinct is to kill everything different or perceivably deadly. It's not their fault It's intrinsically They have extremely fragile genes Very weak gene pools. Have you ever noticed how white people are always sick? Always?! Weak gene pools. Years of breeding narcisistically. Traits that are reminders of themselves, or people they grew up around. This is not racism, it's just science. “Oh, I love blue eyes because my grandmother has blue eyes” White men commonly marry women who remind them of their mothers and sisters. If that's not fucked up, I don't know what is. Then I realized that incest porn and teeny porn are amongst the highest watched types of porn. Hmm. Gee. I wonder why. Men are gross. But white moms need to start being more like black and Hispanic moms if they want to ensure the continuance of their genetics into evolution. You need to give your kids some mommy issues. That way, when they grow up, they feel the need to add variation to the gene pool in order to strengthen it, and move towards evolution. It's true. I lived with maybe the whitest man I ever knew for almost 6 months; I don't think he was specifically intentionally trying to kill me— But everything he did— And I mean everything, up to a certain point was like …I don't know, man. It really seems like this dude is trying to like exterminate me in some sort of way. It was bad. The energy was weird. He was like dirty, Fucking lazy, He was a lot. I was like, “Damn what the fuck it's like the longer I stay around the worse it is” But the weirdest part, was that he didn't seem to be aware that he was doing it Either that or he was a really good actor… “What do you mean?” Had me confused. But that's the thing about the whites. They do the whole thing with mind games They fuck with your mind. It's the most powerful weapon, actually— Because if you continually attack a person's mind, The rest crumbles around them without you even touching them. I'm sure this is what my neighbor is trying to do. It's a mind thing I get near the door, she just hurries up and opens her door, opens the door real wide, big apartment, everything's white, big ass fucking place But she's always by the door; Mind games. —Tales of a Superstar DJ. I wasn't really interesting in meeting someone seriously— in fact. As it turned out, I still had a little more muse to milk out of the last one, but even the tarot was being a stickler— I could risk ending it all and putting a nail in the coffin by actually watching The Tonight Show—but there would be a possibility it all would backfire and it would just reignite that spark, or worse—I'd become fully engulfed in flames by whatever it was that seemed to appear—and it seemed to appear so vividly and with rapid strength that it couldn't be stopped or controlled. A serious amount of money had to have been implemented to my paying attention to this, and beyond that— it all had to have been carefully premeditated. While at least now at the bookshop I was drawn to books from Oprah's book club, what had occurred couldn't possibly be ignored—actually, it couldn't be, at all— but instead of eating at me in its usual way, I had more just began to realize that there must have been in play some purpose. Feeling faraway from my actual creative self, there seemed to be something missing at all generating even a general sense of understanding of what normalcy was— when had actually been the last time I had been touched at all in a way that might make me feel as if I was still human— as if I was normal— but I knew I wasn't. It's time for a change. The thought of being with someone, especially just anyone, was bizzare. I gave up on love a lot of times; But this is when it became official. I was listening to a rap album I had never heard before And in this rap song, he said “This hoe got a 7 year degree and still selling pussy” What in the fuck. One way one way ticket Why bother getting a 7 year degree If your value as a black woman Is so low You can get a 7 year degree And still have to be a prostitute? What the fuck is the point. It goes the other way, too. What is the point of selling pussy without a 7 year degree!? She's gonna make more than me in ALL the professions. I gave up on love at all. That right there is how low value we are, not just to the black man, but any man. 7 year degree and you can charge more an hour, but you're still a technical hoe. I want to fucking die. When I married my ex I was pregnant with twins; When i got pregnant with the twins I was about 350 pounds. So by the time we got married, I was 6 months pregnant with twins. He had a right to cheat! I forgave him. But the first time he hit me Like really hit me Not just like A heavy shoving or ike A lil— You know Choke out– Like the real deal Like knocked me the fuck Almost all the way out Saw the white light and everything By the time that all went down I'm like 170-180 He's still, mind you, like 300 I lost weight He lost his mind; so i'm— — lets round up— Like 180 pounds But in my mind i must be thinking somewhere i'm still 300 He came at me with a running start, I put my hands up like: I must have thought i actually had a chance I took a fighting stance like: He said Fphew! PULL A RABBIT OUT A HAT damn . what year is this really? You just got sampled . Say, what's his job? Well, that's an informer. Chris Rock forsure some kind of genius I saw him do GIlbert Godfried And Sam Kinison In the same show. The show was dated, though; He literally said, “I'm married: I don't cheat.” I knew it must have been a joke. I knew it had to be a joke, or it had to be dated, Cause being real, I listen to too much kanye To even believe that Or even laugh at that: Not “too much” kanye— 'Just enough' Kanye, He said, “If I pull up with Kerri washington, That's gon' be an enormous scandal” I might have Niomi Campbell, Still might want me a stormy daniels And ya'll tried to get trumps supporters to turn against him By exposing that he fucked this bitch? That's like an achivement. That's like a status symbol. I'm sure these idiots praise him for that. He might have even gotten more popular! That's not a scandal That's PR. On that note, I think Chris Rock was the very guy Who made me decide to stay single forever: He talked about the way, apparently, men want to kill their wives; The way they fantasise killing us When we're in the relationship: Now, ill say— I never once thought about killing my ex husband During the relationship Even after he hit me. Never once. The only time i started wishing a karmic death upon this person was when I left the relationship And he stopped fantasizing about it And actually tried to fucking kill me. Once I realized this was happening Only then did I start to think “Oh damn, i hope that motherfucker just drops the fuck dead.” This motherfucker beat me, AND tried to kill me, Only then was i like, damn “Return to sender” I hope you die too, You fat piece of shit wifebeater motherfucker I hope you die too. Only after he tried to kill me. After I left. Had to hire a fucking voodoo fucking sorceress and shit “yo , take this curse off me, This motherfucker tried to kill me” Fuck that motherfucker. Apparently though they fantasisze it all the time, I'm thinking about all the times he would play this song iroinically enough, By kanye west So maybe too much Kanye West Or just enough, Kanye said “I thought about killing you today.” He used to play this song, And beat my ass, And I never once thought “I hope he dies” Shit, After the first time he really beat my ass, He ran away. He got scared; He had to run. My face was all hanging off my head and shit Blood all over the place My lip is disconnected from my whole jaw and shit He ran away; He darted out the front door He said “I'm gonna kill myself!” And he rain away– Even then even just after he beat my ass I never thought about killing him Or wanting him to die He just fresh beat my ass; He just straight up finished whooping my whole ass and he said “I'm gonna kill myself” He realized what he did “I'm gonna kill myself”, he said And he ran out the door And here I am With my lip hanging off my whole face Blood all on the walls Pool of blood on the floor, the whole thing babies crying; The whole The whole fucking HBO special The whole nine yards And he said “I'm gonna kill myself” And my dumb ass said “NO! Don't!” He ran out the door, I'm freaking out Blood everywhere Babies crying and shit “Come back! Think about the kids! Don't kill yourself” Like a dumbass. Turns out that was just a tactic, He broke me down good, I was like “Don't kill yourself” He said “...you gonna call the cops.” He said “...alright, I won't kill myself.” Boom. That's a real killer. Looking back on all this, I can't help but think to myself, What i would have done differently Not the whole “I should have left before any of that happened” I was the mother of two young children; I wanted to try after the cheating to make things work, Fast forward after that Turns out he was fantasizing about killing me the whole time He beat mya ass, ran away, Left me in a pool of blood with my two kids He said I'm gonna kill myself Looking back at that momet, The thing I wish I could change is this If i had to do it over again And he beat me like that In front of my kids And then said “I'm gonna kill myself” I would have said “do that shit.” Lock the door behind his ass, Change the lock, Pick my face up off the floor, call an ambulance And the polce, change names Pick up my life And leave forever. “Nigga–who?” “Momma who was our daddy? What was he like?” “Ya'll ain't got a daddy. I made ya'll myself” End of story. Whatever. Everything happens for a reason though. I learned my lesson. Now i don't argue with anyone at all Men, women–nobody If i even sense that same shit That psycho killer shit– I become as silent and invisible as possible And simply Disappear. “Disappear.” I had a migraine and I knew it was from pressure buildup and stress, so I thought to get rid of it I ought to make one of those hot-compresses with rice. But the only rice I had was jambalaya flavored— But the headache was obviously really bad, So I was like, “fuck it.” Poured it into a gym sock And popped it in the microwave, Put it on my neck— My neck smelled like a pot roast, But it worked. {Enter The Multiverse} There was something in my lungs, forcing me to breathe deeply, with a raspy wheezing wind out of my lungs, and with a steady cough, I was able to offload whatever it was waiting in my chest to be released, along with it, at least part of the pressure that was making even just sitting and reading nearly unbearable, collecting into a harsh migraine paralyzing each and every other breath with a sharp pain underneath the back of what seemed to be somewhere below my ear canal and somehow, a pressure somewhere behind my eye, probably a result of the excruciating process of shoving earplugs into my ears in order to drown out the outside noise, which paired with that of my seemingly devoid neighbors, often became wildly unsettling, and while lately the clamoring had created not only an uneasy tremor in my left hand, but also apparently a sudden onset of occasional vruxism, the anxiety overall seemed to be surmounting into what could only be described as something trying to kill me, for which I could no longer ignore not as delusions or paranoia, but absolute fact. As I had learned, modern psychology might have been the equivalent of what one could even be certain to be the devil itself, unable to distinguish patterns often associated with creative genius, self manifestation, and psychic abilities and intuition, as delusions of grandeur, paranoid thinking, or worse— diagnoses as psychotic. However, my grandiosity was neither imagined nor delusional—my podcast series alone had been read and listened to all over the world, translated into foreign languages and transcribed, and had been downloaded hundreds of thousands of times since its publishing; though not a technically recognizable figure, I had realized that I had in my own right become somewhat famous, if even off of the back or even under the umbrella of another famous individual, to whom the series itself had been entrusted. Receiving though not by mainstream media standards upwards of at least 10 downloads per episode, the series had no actual gauge or marker for its actual success and polularity—without being able to see information from a major streaming platform—Spotify, and without being able to measure the amount of downloads which had then been duplicated and shared otherwise, I started to recognize with a certain understanding what a cult following was, and the minimal phenomenon that even at this level, fame started to become apparent. It had also become apparent that science itself had yet to truly understand the phenomenon of creative energy as a whole, and that many with these capabilities and gifts were considered to have a plethora of mental health disorders and medicated with what one would consider targeted attacks on the psyche, the illusion of mental illness often standing as the actual delusion in itself! Creating, and then medicating these intrinsic abilities ass illnesses whereby the “neurotypical” individual might only be considered as such due to ability to adapt, confirm, or follow diections in a systematic manner, and furthermore, that the misdiagnoses of such misunderstood cobditions often even relied on bias, poor judgement, racism, social class, and economics had certainly deconstructed any faith or belief formerly held in the modern state of psychology, and most of the articles or public medical journals read more like science fiction and fantasy rather than cold hard facts; indicating a moral and ethical flaw within the entirety of the human species—man's own inability to understand God, and therefore himself, in any creative process. Diety and creativity combined were simply a mystery, and had plagued entire generations of the human spieces as a whole. Blū runs at top speed through the streets of Brooklyn New York on a cold and windy October night. V.O. The ironic thing is, I'm running to go get ice cream. I hate my life, I hate this place, I hate my life— I fucking hate this shit. I'm trying really hard not to kill myself. Like really, really hard. Sudden onset bruxism and hand tremors and I can't help but wonder if it has anything to do with the constant mottoeycle traffic or sleeping in a sea of vehicles which at any given moment could sound off, start up or honk the horn alarm over the last 9 months. I'm fucking exhausted all the time and everything around me just fucking draining. Just fucking draining. https://www.tracklib.com/pricing Yo, you know how I know I'm aging? I hated Dora The Explora when I was a kid— You know why? “That's for babies!” I was too old for Dora the explorer. Mi was a tv snob. I'm like “I hate Dora!” No teletubbies for me. No sir. I'm distinguished now. But get this, As I get older, different renditions of Dora Have grown on me To the point where I actually like the bitch I got older, And there was this girl, Who would show up at raves Dressed like Dora And shuffle, And dance around— Looking like Dora The Explorer Kind of creepy, now that I think about it As an actual adult, Like this, Fully grown woman, Dressed as a fucking 5 year old Dancing around at raves Being Dora. Weird. But I liked it. I loved it. She was a hit; Everybody was like “RAVE DORA! RAVE DORA!” She blew up on Instagram, She had a following— It was like Where will she be next?! RAVE DORA! Had the backpack and everything— Everything! Rave Dora! But now I know I'm getting old, Because I'm fuckin around online, And I see in the advertising little sidebar video Like, a new version of Dora The Explorer, And I'm like “DORAAAAAAAA!!!” —the fuck! I just realized my best friend from 3rd and 7th grade looked just like Dora the explorer. Facts. She became literally the most successful stripper I've ever met. Ahem. Dancer. Right. Dancer. Ahem. Dudes are gross. Doods r gross. Welcome to Doods R Gross; What can I help you find today? Uh, hi. I'm looking for a guy— Uh huh— Possibly one who looks like this: Ah shit, this is how I got playing the Wikipedia game and went on a tirade Facts. Ended up here Unicameralism (from uni- "one" + Latin camera "chamber") is a type of legislatureconsisting of one house or assembly that legislates and votes as one.[1] Unicameralism has become an increasingly common type of legislature, making up nearly 60% of all national legislatures[2] and an even greater share of subnational legislatures. Interesting Started Here: The Fallen Angel (French: L'Ange déchu) is a painting by French artist Alexandre Cabanel. You were saying? Preferably this. Ah huh. Not the face, but— the body— you know. Like this. Okay. Who will let me do everything. Everything as in? Everything. Well, as you know, dudes are gross… Hence the name of this store, good sir. I am in no way good, nor am I a “sir”, and for all intensive purposes, my employment at this store signals my deep indirection in life and may also be an indication of more serious issues. Maintained. Alright, so I'll show you what we got. No promises; The type of model you want is popular, Might be out of stock. Considerable. What's your price range? This credit card has no limit. Credit, or debit? My debit card is also linked to a plethora of infinite wealth. Right this way. Do you think I deserved for him to hit me like that? I don't know. Maybe. I mean—the cheating is a given; I was really really fat..:but do you think like, him getting violent was some kind of karma for something? Maybe. Like maybe I had it coming for whatever reason— and just didn't know it. Maybe. Suddenly I was in the residual memory of a dream. {Enter The Multiverse} [The Festival Project.™] COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2024 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

KEENAN is the head of the league's research and development team. KEENAN WELL, Ya'll sho' chose the wrong girl to fuck wit! Why do you say that? KEENAN Well, i'mon just let ya'll figure that out on ya own. [KEENEN exits shaking his head solemnly, and begins singing ‘Amazing Grace' , first humming.] Hmmmmm—hmmm—how sweet the sound— Wait! Keenan! Who is this girl?! Who is she?! —hmmm—hmmm—hmmm—hmmmmmmmm LIKE MEEEEEEE! What are we up against Oh. you'll see. I woooonceeee was lost— Wait! SEEYA! [out of nowhere he has pulled out an old style stick bundle and throws it over his shoulder, continuing to hum while chewing on a long stick of straw.] —-hmmmm—-hmmmm. …where is he going!? (Meta) Seems like he's going somewhere with that thing hanging over his back! What are those things even called, anyway? Who knows? I think I know, but it might be racist. [suddenly, offstage/camera a bell begins to ring— One— Two— Three chimes.] That seems odd. Yes, very strange. [Suddenly, all the NBC pages at once upend their nests,] what the— Why are there so many of them. I don't know. Did their skirts get shorter? Hush. So many pages. MEANWHILR, unst 30 Rock. Hold on, pause. These weirdo cops have reverb on their whoop whoops. Facts. Are you sure this is still the 10th dimension. I'm positive. Really! You're sure! Couldn't possibly be lower. Maybe. What about higher. Higher!? Since when. WHAT'S YOUR NAME. Uh-FRANKLIN. Don't lie to me. How would you pronounce this name? I wouldn't. Hm. Excuse me. What. How would you say this? Like, out loud— Uh huh. Pass. Dammit! Hey—uh— RACHEL DRATCH What, dammit; what?! I just sat down with my bagel! I know but— I need your help— interpreting something? What is it? Gibberish? Not really, it's— I'm an expert in Gibberish— I know; but— Classical and neo-modern. Yeah, it's not that. What is it. Alien, I think. Which species. Species. WHICH— ugh— give me that! [she snatches the paper and produces a monocle for further inspection.] Since when did you get a monacle? since when changed insurance companies which supplies said ‘monocologists' and covers such expenses sans-coh-pay. You mean copay? Shut up. Hm. Looks to be Unrealian in orgim but I could be mistaking this dialect. What. Could also possibly be AAHHMEK. Ahmek? Ano, AAAAH— nevermind. Is this an actual apostrophe? Beg your pardon. The apostrophe— is it human derived, or the human pseudo translation replacement for a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? Say again. Is it an actual apostrophe, or is the mark mean to insinuate the commonly used extraterrestrial character afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh? …I don't know. WELL, then—I'm afraid I can't help you until you forgive that out— What. Depending on what the mark is, those could be two veerrrrry different things. Would you just, Now if you'll excuse me, I'd like to presume the consumption of my RAISINBagel. You know what. -_- -_- -_- …fine. [he snatches the paper and walks away angry—RATCHEL DRATCH begins to shmear her bagel, mumbling] —wants me to translate, but doesn't know the difference between an apostrophe, and a afahmblunsenphOuallentprprh. Please! {Enter The Multiverse} Unlike the girl next door, my lawsuit was legitimate. I strolled passed the usual subjects on my way back to the apartment from my begrudged outings; I had left with the intention of putting my money into a cheap record player, but had after all decided against it—I was saving for a new computer so that I could actually record vocals for my music, which would deplete my budget after living expenses for the month into nothing, and though I knew it would be something like next-to-nothing for the next little while anyway, it wouldn't matter. Now that I knew I was right, I continued compiling the evidence against these motorized terrorists—I didn't actually want to sue, but at this point it seemed it was my only choice— my lowly “status” should not mean that I was allowed to be tortured continually—and, unlike the girl next door, I was not seeking damages for something I had asked for, or brought onto myself; the horrendous sound in the apartment seemed as if it was aimed directly toward me with my synesthesia in mind, and with some amount of pride I refused outright to go the way I was expected to and file a disability claim. I wasn't disabled— I was, however, unable to preform my full work duties as a recording artist without being interrupted by motorcycles, project cars, and otherwise, all of which I suspected were operated by the same group of people— some ugly little brown lackeys who felt entitled in one way or another, and paraded around as if they owned the neighborhood. Benefiting from American business, but anti-American; the opposite of peaceful and respectful—not that America had made its name on the basis of respect, and so it seemed that something, out of balance and off kilter for hundreds of years iknretropect, was bound to change. They were rude, arrogant, and loud—bringing al of the 3rd-world mindset and none of the humility or charm of the actual 3rd world with them; as arrogant as one might think, a gross reflection of the toxic masculine as a whole. They might not have been ugly at all if they were respectful or decent—but they ran about acting like terrorists, revving their engines, and banging, and clashing, and being ugly—employing young boys to stand on the corner and sell their off market drugs after having one of their smoke shops closed down. The more time I spent outside dealing with people at all, the more ill I felt. I craved more time offline and off the grid, and though the general disenchantment of New York would continue pouring through the cheaply made windows, I realized that I would be more well-to-do with a typewriter (so that I could continue to write for long periods of time offline and without my phone) and a record player (to drown out the noise and play along to on my drum machine, and still— there were more things to do, always drowning in bills and often wondering how long I'd have to forfeight health in exchange for the decency of what some might cal luxury, but others foundational. As for myself, these things, simple staples to health and wellness, were beginning to be foundational. {Enter The Multiverse} “As Seen on TV” She doesn't even have a name My pussy is cleaner than a motherfucker This ain't no community like Donald Glover Ya'll niggas actin childish, Gambino— If you wanna turn it on, Then send a c-note (I'm in south side) What she want Peloton What she on peloton What she got peloton What she on Peloton I FOUND KIT! I found KIT. Great, now did you burn that letter? What. Burn it. [does] Oh, that is such a relief. Jesus. Okay. This shit does get weird and deep. —so that's why we're going offline… You wouldn't believe this, I found the kid swinging from a tree. Ridiculous. And if you tie it like this— Ah. Look, it won't slip. So…this is your hobby, huh. One of many. They don't call you the Ace for nothin, do they. (Innocently, with curiosity) “Of Granduer” —Do they? The sound of a chandelier sparkles as the giant lamp swings back and forth, as if an earthquake has just happened. You wouldn't believe this. What. On the television. Okay, so I found this “Kit” guy— Twice. Twice you asked, and twice I told you. Well, I didn't think to look directly at Johnny Carson, exactly. But here— And this: You actually were. Tell me again what your name is. Just sign me an autograph: What. Me? Sure, why not? I want your autograph! Do people still ask for autographs? Often enough. Remarkably, even, at airports, and of course, unexpectedly at— GODDAMMIT, we're back at the rock! GODDAMMIT. Well. Well what! Somebody check what year it is. FUCK. [super long censored beep.] [The Festival Project ™] It was the first time since my childhood I felt like something was too long away—but finally, I was in the final stretch. The Peloton would be delivered sometime in the morning, and now that my internet had shut itself off— I'd refused to pay the bill and opted for getting a new computer so that I could record, rather it— Give me a second, I'm fucking obsessed with these curtains. Bro but second to the curtains is the fucking grass. No, its—tuft. Turf, huh? Interesting… I told you she was some sort of a spy. Whatever. I had long considered turning my living room into a media center, and had thought to reinvent my entire space in fungshuei, but now more than anything I just wanted it to look like that. {Enter The Multiverse} Something is wrong with her . She sits by her door ALL DAY and just fucking talks. And I know she's by her door Because she's RIGHT AT THE DOOR I hear this crystal clear Anytime I go near my door And she's like BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH BITCH GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR somewhere in a parallel of time Your ancestors Are beating the hell Out of my ancestors And your other ancestors Are stealing my other ancestors land You're on borrowed time And in borrowed space GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE DOOR. Man, Living sandwhiched between two Karen's Is like the equivalent Of having two demon fucking little sisters That hate you And tell on your for everything. Slamming doors and shit just to fuckin Throwing shit around Bitch. You are crazy. And that's the thing about white girls Their crazy is socially acceptable As normal behavior I guess when you just have the best things in life thrown at you forever— When things the rest of us consider luxury and opulence is just “regular” to you, You get a little set in your ways. My neighbor is infuriating. I'm like WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS BY THE DOOR SHES LIKE SNARFSNRFSNARF I'm like goddamn, Somebody send like a Camden or a fuckin “Chase” Over this way. Somebody take this bitch on a date And away from the door. Whole two bedroom apartment This bitch is glued to her door. She a robot. The door is metal. She just enters the apartment and gets glued stuck to the door “I guess I will have to snarf snarf from here. “She's a smart one” I don't believe in smart white girls. There's regular white girls And fucking serial killers. The serial killers are considered “the smart ones” I guess it does take a considerable amount of intelligence to just exist to catch bodies That's what they call the smart ones The ones who level up by just Mowing everyone else down. Gotta give them that. White girls will ruin your whole life Blink two little blue-green eyes twice— And if they're big and round enough The brown eyed white girls can get away with the shit, too— But they're fucking murderers. It's okay. I lived with white people long enough in my life to love them. But in living with and around them— I notice they all say the same thing which indicates to me that racial injustice might not actually be their fault— They might be killing niggas on accident. Just complete accidents White people say shit like “I can't feel” What. “How does it feel—to feel.” WHAT?! “Explain to me the concept of ‘emotions'” Ah hell nah— And these people have all the disposable income? It's not their fault. They just— are like that. They're wired different. They can't feel, And their first instinct is to kill everything different or perceivably deadly. It's not their fault It's intrinsically They have extremely fragile genes Very weak gene pools. Have you ever noticed how white people are always sick? Always?! Weak gene pools. Years of breeding narcisistically. Traits that are reminders of themselves, or people they grew up around. This is not racism, it's just science. “Oh, I love blue eyes because my grandmother has blue eyes” White men commonly marry women who remind them of their mothers and sisters. If that's not fucked up, I don't know what is. Then I realized that incest porn and teeny porn are amongst the highest watched types of porn. Hmm. Gee. I wonder why. Men are gross. But white moms need to start being more like black and Hispanic moms if they want to ensure the continuance of their genetics into evolution. You need to give your kids some mommy issues. That way, when they grow up, they feel the need to add variation to the gene pool in order to strengthen it, and move towards evolution. It's true. I lived with maybe the whitest man I ever knew for almost 6 months; I don't think he was specifically intentionally trying to kill me— But everything he did— And I mean everything, up to a certain point was like …I don't know, man. It really seems like this dude is trying to like exterminate me in some sort of way. It was bad. The energy was weird. He was like dirty, Fucking lazy, He was a lot. I was like, “Damn what the fuck it's like the longer I stay around the worse it is” But the weirdest part, was that he didn't seem to be aware that he was doing it Either that or he was a really good actor… “What do you mean?” Had me confused. But that's the thing about the whites. They do the whole thing with mind games They fuck with your mind. It's the most powerful weapon, actually— Because if you continually attack a person's mind, The rest crumbles around them without you even touching them. I'm sure this is what my neighbor is trying to do. It's a mind thing I get near the door, she just hurries up and opens her door, opens the door real wide, big apartment, everything's white, big ass fucking place But she's always by the door; Mind games. —Tales of a Superstar DJ. I wasn't really interesting in meeting someone seriously— in fact. As it turned out, I still had a little more muse to milk out of the last one, but even the tarot was being a stickler— I could risk ending it all and putting a nail in the coffin by actually watching The Tonight Show—but there would be a possibility it all would backfire and it would just reignite that spark, or worse—I'd become fully engulfed in flames by whatever it was that seemed to appear—and it seemed to appear so vividly and with rapid strength that it couldn't be stopped or controlled. A serious amount of money had to have been implemented to my paying attention to this, and beyond that— it all had to have been carefully premeditated. While at least now at the bookshop I was drawn to books from Oprah's book club, what had occurred couldn't possibly be ignored—actually, it couldn't be, at all— but instead of eating at me in its usual way, I had more just began to realize that there must have been in play some purpose. Feeling faraway from my actual creative self, there seemed to be something missing at all generating even a general sense of understanding of what normalcy was— when had actually been the last time I had been touched at all in a way that might make me feel as if I was still human— as if I was normal— but I knew I wasn't. It's time for a change. The thought of being with someone, especially just anyone, was bizzare. I gave up on love a lot of times; But this is when it became official. I was listening to a rap album I had never heard before And in this rap song, he said “This hoe got a 7 year degree and still selling pussy” What in the fuck. One way one way ticket Why bother getting a 7 year degree If your value as a black woman Is so low You can get a 7 year degree And still have to be a prostitute? What the fuck is the point. It goes the other way, too. What is the point of selling pussy without a 7 year degree!? She's gonna make more than me in ALL the professions. I gave up on love at all. That right there is how low value we are, not just to the black man, but any man. 7 year degree and you can charge more an hour, but you're still a technical hoe. I want to fucking die. When I married my ex I was pregnant with twins; When i got pregnant with the twins I was about 350 pounds. So by the time we got married, I was 6 months pregnant with twins. He had a right to cheat! I forgave him. But the first time he hit me Like really hit me Not just like A heavy shoving or ike A lil— You know Choke out– Like the real deal Like knocked me the fuck Almost all the way out Saw the white light and everything By the time that all went down I'm like 170-180 He's still, mind you, like 300 I lost weight He lost his mind; so i'm— — lets round up— Like 180 pounds But in my mind i must be thinking somewhere i'm still 300 He came at me with a running start, I put my hands up like: I must have thought i actually had a chance I took a fighting stance like: He said Fphew! PULL A RABBIT OUT A HAT damn . what year is this really? You just got sampled . Say, what's his job? Well, that's an informer. Chris Rock forsure some kind of genius I saw him do GIlbert Godfried And Sam Kinison In the same show. The show was dated, though; He literally said, “I'm married: I don't cheat.” I knew it must have been a joke. I knew it had to be a joke, or it had to be dated, Cause being real, I listen to too much kanye To even believe that Or even laugh at that: Not “too much” kanye— 'Just enough' Kanye, He said, “If I pull up with Kerri washington, That's gon' be an enormous scandal” I might have Niomi Campbell, Still might want me a stormy daniels And ya'll tried to get trumps supporters to turn against him By exposing that he fucked this bitch? That's like an achivement. That's like a status symbol. I'm sure these idiots praise him for that. He might have even gotten more popular! That's not a scandal That's PR. On that note, I think Chris Rock was the very guy Who made me decide to stay single forever: He talked about the way, apparently, men want to kill their wives; The way they fantasise killing us When we're in the relationship: Now, ill say— I never once thought about killing my ex husband During the relationship Even after he hit me. Never once. The only time i started wishing a karmic death upon this person was when I left the relationship And he stopped fantasizing about it And actually tried to fucking kill me. Once I realized this was happening Only then did I start to think “Oh damn, i hope that motherfucker just drops the fuck dead.” This motherfucker beat me, AND tried to kill me, Only then was i like, damn “Return to sender” I hope you die too, You fat piece of shit wifebeater motherfucker I hope you die too. Only after he tried to kill me. After I left. Had to hire a fucking voodoo fucking sorceress and shit “yo , take this curse off me, This motherfucker tried to kill me” Fuck that motherfucker. Apparently though they fantasisze it all the time, I'm thinking about all the times he would play this song iroinically enough, By kanye west So maybe too much Kanye West Or just enough, Kanye said “I thought about killing you today.” He used to play this song, And beat my ass, And I never once thought “I hope he dies” Shit, After the first time he really beat my ass, He ran away. He got scared; He had to run. My face was all hanging off my head and shit Blood all over the place My lip is disconnected from my whole jaw and shit He ran away; He darted out the front door He said “I'm gonna kill myself!” And he rain away– Even then even just after he beat my ass I never thought about killing him Or wanting him to die He just fresh beat my ass; He just straight up finished whooping my whole ass and he said “I'm gonna kill myself” He realized what he did “I'm gonna kill myself”, he said And he ran out the door And here I am With my lip hanging off my whole face Blood all on the walls Pool of blood on the floor, the whole thing babies crying; The whole The whole fucking HBO special The whole nine yards And he said “I'm gonna kill myself” And my dumb ass said “NO! Don't!” He ran out the door, I'm freaking out Blood everywhere Babies crying and shit “Come back! Think about the kids! Don't kill yourself” Like a dumbass. Turns out that was just a tactic, He broke me down good, I was like “Don't kill yourself” He said “...you gonna call the cops.” He said “...alright, I won't kill myself.” Boom. That's a real killer. Looking back on all this, I can't help but think to myself, What i would have done differently Not the whole “I should have left before any of that happened” I was the mother of two young children; I wanted to try after the cheating to make things work, Fast forward after that Turns out he was fantasizing about killing me the whole time He beat mya ass, ran away, Left me in a pool of blood with my two kids He said I'm gonna kill myself Looking back at that momet, The thing I wish I could change is this If i had to do it over again And he beat me like that In front of my kids And then said “I'm gonna kill myself” I would have said “do that shit.” Lock the door behind his ass, Change the lock, Pick my face up off the floor, call an ambulance And the polce, change names Pick up my life And leave forever. “Nigga–who?” “Momma who was our daddy? What was he like?” “Ya'll ain't got a daddy. I made ya'll myself” End of story. Whatever. Everything happens for a reason though. I learned my lesson. Now i don't argue with anyone at all Men, women–nobody If i even sense that same shit That psycho killer shit– I become as silent and invisible as possible And simply Disappear. “Disappear.” I had a migraine and I knew it was from pressure buildup and stress, so I thought to get rid of it I ought to make one of those hot-compresses with rice. But the only rice I had was jambalaya flavored— But the headache was obviously really bad, So I was like, “fuck it.” Poured it into a gym sock And popped it in the microwave, Put it on my neck— My neck smelled like a pot roast, But it worked. {Enter The Multiverse} There was something in my lungs, forcing me to breathe deeply, with a raspy wheezing wind out of my lungs, and with a steady cough, I was able to offload whatever it was waiting in my chest to be released, along with it, at least part of the pressure that was making even just sitting and reading nearly unbearable, collecting into a harsh migraine paralyzing each and every other breath with a sharp pain underneath the back of what seemed to be somewhere below my ear canal and somehow, a pressure somewhere behind my eye, probably a result of the excruciating process of shoving earplugs into my ears in order to drown out the outside noise, which paired with that of my seemingly devoid neighbors, often became wildly unsettling, and while lately the clamoring had created not only an uneasy tremor in my left hand, but also apparently a sudden onset of occasional vruxism, the anxiety overall seemed to be surmounting into what could only be described as something trying to kill me, for which I could no longer ignore not as delusions or paranoia, but absolute fact. As I had learned, modern psychology might have been the equivalent of what one could even be certain to be the devil itself, unable to distinguish patterns often associated with creative genius, self manifestation, and psychic abilities and intuition, as delusions of grandeur, paranoid thinking, or worse— diagnoses as psychotic. However, my grandiosity was neither imagined nor delusional—my podcast series alone had been read and listened to all over the world, translated into foreign languages and transcribed, and had been downloaded hundreds of thousands of times since its publishing; though not a technically recognizable figure, I had realized that I had in my own right become somewhat famous, if even off of the back or even under the umbrella of another famous individual, to whom the series itself had been entrusted. Receiving though not by mainstream media standards upwards of at least 10 downloads per episode, the series had no actual gauge or marker for its actual success and polularity—without being able to see information from a major streaming platform—Spotify, and without being able to measure the amount of downloads which had then been duplicated and shared otherwise, I started to recognize with a certain understanding what a cult following was, and the minimal phenomenon that even at this level, fame started to become apparent. It had also become apparent that science itself had yet to truly understand the phenomenon of creative energy as a whole, and that many with these capabilities and gifts were considered to have a plethora of mental health disorders and medicated with what one would consider targeted attacks on the psyche, the illusion of mental illness often standing as the actual delusion in itself! Creating, and then medicating these intrinsic abilities ass illnesses whereby the “neurotypical” individual might only be considered as such due to ability to adapt, confirm, or follow diections in a systematic manner, and furthermore, that the misdiagnoses of such misunderstoodconditions often even relied on bias, poor judgement, racism, social class, and economics had certainly deconstructed any faith or belief formerly held in the modern state of psychology, and most of the articles or public medical journals read more like science fiction and fantasy rather than cold hard facts; indicating a moral and ethical flaw within the entirety of the human species—man's own inability to understand God, and therefore himself, in any creative process. Diety and creativity combined were simply a mystery, and had plagued entire generations of the human spieces as a whole. Blū runs at top speed through the streets of Brooklyn New York on a cold and windy October night. V.O. The ironic thing is, I'm running to go get ice cream. I hate my life, I hate this place, I hate my life— I fucking hate this shit. I'm trying really hard not to kill myself. Like really, really hard. Sudden onset bruxism and hand tremors and I can't help but wonder if it has anything to do with the constant mottoeycle traffic or sleeping in a sea of vehicles which at any given moment could sound off, start up or honk the horn alarm over the last 9 months. I'm fucking exhausted all the time and everything around me just fucking draining. Just fucking draining. https://www.tracklib.com/pricing Yo, you know how I know I'm aging? I hated Dora The Explora when I was a kid— You know why? “That's for babies!” I was too old for Dora the explorer. Mi was a tv snob. I'm like “I hate Dora!” No teletubbies for me. No sir. I'm distinguished now. But get this, As I get older, different renditions of Dora Have grown on me To the point where I actually like the bitch I got older, And there was this girl, Who would show up at raves Dressed like Dora And shuffle, And dance around— Looking like Dora The Explorer Kind of creepy, now that I think about it As an actual adult, Like this, Fully grown woman, Dressed as a fucking 5 year old Dancing around at raves Being Dora. Weird. But I liked it. I loved it. She was a hit; Everybody was like “RAVE DORA! RAVE DORA!” She blew up on Instagram, She had a following— It was like Where will she be next?! RAVE DORA! Had the backpack and everything— Everything! Rave Dora! But now I know I'm getting old, Because I'm fuckin around online, And I see in the advertising little sidebar video Like, a new version of Dora The Explorer, And I'm like “DORAAAAAAAA!!!” —the fuck! I just realized my best friend from 3rd and 7th grade looked just like Dora the explorer. Facts. She became literally the most successful stripper I've ever met. Ahem. Dancer. Right. Dancer. Ahem. Dudes are gross. Doods r gross. Welcome to Doods R Gross; What can I help you find today? Uh, hi. I'm looking for a guy— Uh huh— Possibly one who looks like this: Ah shit, this is how I got playing the Wikipedia game and went on a tirade Facts. Ended up here Unicameralism (from uni- "one" + Latin camera "chamber") is a type of legislatureconsisting of one house or assembly that legislates and votes as one.[1] Unicameralism has become an increasingly common type of legislature, making up nearly 60% of all national legislatures[2] and an even greater share of subnational legislatures. Interesting Started Here: The Fallen Angel (French: L'Ange déchu) is a painting by French artist Alexandre Cabanel. You were saying? Preferably this. Ah huh. Not the face, but— the body— you know. Like this. Okay. Who will let me do everything. Everything as in? Everything. Well, as you know, dudes are gross… Hence the name of this store, good sir. I am in no way good, nor am I a “sir”, and for all intensive purposes, my employment at this store signals my deep indirection in life and may also be an indication of more serious issues. Maintained. Alright, so I'll show you what we got. No promises; The type of model you want is popular, Might be out of stock. Considerable. What's your price range? This credit card has no limit. Credit, or debit? My debit card is also linked to a plethora of infinite wealth. Right this way. Do you think I deserved for him to hit me like that? I don't know. Maybe. I mean—the cheating is a given; I was really really fat..:but do you think like, him getting violent was some kind of karma for something? Maybe. Like maybe I had it coming for whatever reason— and just didn't know it. Maybe. Suddenly I was in the residual memory of a dream. {Enter The Multiverse} [The Festival Project.™] COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2024 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

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The complete audiobook is available for purchase at Audiible.com: https://n9.cl/nxwnn Carmilla By Sheridan Le Fanu Narrated by Linda Barrans When the tale begins, a strange and sudden malady is claiming the lives of the local peasants in Styria. Laura, an innocent girl of eighteen, lives a lonely life there with her loving father and two governesses. Then a dramatic coach crash on Laura's doorstep brings a mysterious, beautiful, but languorous young woman to stay with them. This is Carmilla. Carmilla becomes deeply attached to Laura, and embarrasses her with her wild outbursts of affection. Laura is deeply drawn to her, but also repulsed. When Laura falls gradually ill, exhausted and melancholic, she is unaccountably loathe to tell anyone. She has vivid dreams—one of a huge black cat prowling her bedroom, another of being kissed and caressed. Eventually her mother's voice warns her to beware the assassin, revealing Carmilla in a blood-stained nightgown. Innocently, Laura interprets this as a sign that Carmilla is being murdered. She rouses the household, but when they break down the door to her room, Carmilla is gone.

Another old-school OVA this week on JJBPod, but this time? It's a horny goof-em-up: Golden Boy, from 1995. We also talk about We're All Going to the World's Fair, Fred Durst, Quiz Lady, sharing the road, The Doors, and fixed-gear bikes. | Rate us nicely on Apple Podcasts | Support us on Patreon | Follow us on Twitter | Subscribe to us on YouTube | Join the fan Discord --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jjbpod/message

While attending college in Texas, a friend suggested that Kit attend a sweat lodge. Innocently, she did. Little did she know this sweat lodge was part of a bigger community known as ‘The Ashram'. Soon she was recruited into more than just the sweat and before she knew it, she was in the inner circle. Eventually, she would discover that this ashram was part of an even larger organization: The Deer Tribe Medicine Society. And one day she was recruited into a program that promised to heal her sexual trauma. We'll let you be the judge of how well that promise was fulfilled…   LINKS Deer Tribe: dtmms.org/ Amara Charles: www.amaracharles.com/ Quodoushka: www.quodoushka.org/ Ruda Center (aka the Ashram): rudracenter.org Follow us: Instagram: @wasiinacult Support Us: https://www.patreon.com/wasiinacult Have a story to share on our show? Email us: info@wasiinacult.com

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Today I am welcoming guest Chen Kirshenbaum otherwise known as @chens_plate to the Food Freedom Lab to share her personal story of recovering from an obsession with healthy living.    Chen is a full time influencer and yoga instructor currently living in nyc with her husband and pup! She initially started her platform as motivation for weight-loss, but after realizing she had become obsessed with “healthy living” she pivoted her platform to focus on what made her truly happy: self love.   TRIGGER WARNING: Chen is going to be sharing information regarding her personal experience of struggling with disordered eating, if hearing about disordered eating behaviors is not supportive to your journey, please skip this episode

This media has been made available by Mosaic Boston Church. If you'd like to check out more resources, learn about Mosaic Boston, or donate to this ministry, please visit MosaicBoston.com.Our Heavenly Father, all of us face perplexing situations in our lives, in our youth, in our middle ages and in the challenges of our twilight years. We never know from one day to the next what turns will occur. And so daily, as we face your providence, we're challenged with the challenge of faith. Will we walk by faith or by sight? Lord, I pray that you give us grace to walk by faith even when everything that we see seems counter to good. Yet Lord, we know on the turn of a dime you can redeem any situation. As we consider your providence today in the life of Joseph as he is stuck in a dungeon, Lord, we thank you that you were with him even in the darkest pit.And Lord, teach us lasting lessons from your scriptures and we pray that your Holy Spirit enables us, not just to understand these lessons, but to embrace them and to love them. Help us experientially know your love and love the fact that you and your good purposes and your wisdom you brought us to where you have brought us and we know that you will lead us from here. Well Lord, in spite of the dark seasons of providence, we do trust in you and we pray that you deepen our trust in you. In Jesus' name, amen.We're continuing our sermon series that we've entitled Graduate Level Grace: A Study in the Life of Joseph. This is Genesis 37 through 50. Today we find ourselves in Genesis 40 and the title of the sermon is Seek God Defined Success. Among the most prized possessions of men in past centuries was a fine sword. Swords have been immortalized in mythology like King Arthur's Excalibur, the broad sword pulled from a cloven rock. More recently, there's Frodo Baggins' little miniature sword, Sting. Even science fiction boasts of swords like the light sabers of the Jedi Knights. But there's a sword more powerful than any of those, and that's the sword of the word of God, and that's an apt metaphor.Ephesians 6:17 says, and this is a commandment, "Take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God." When we take the sword of the Spirit on a daily basis and we first apply it to ourselves, it completely changes us. Why? Because Hebrews 4:12 says, "For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart." The word of God is like a sword in that it does penetrate through into the depths of our soul. John Bunyan's Pilgrim carries the right true Jerusalem blade, which was a way of saying the Christian is armed with the word of God.Now, when you study the word of God and you apply it to yourself and you seek to obey the Lord faithfully, and when you disobey, you ask for grace and repent of sin, what happens is that you yourself become a sword, that the human life, when it is presented to God in humility, God use me. Well, what does God do? He shapes us. He hones us. He tempers us by His word and also by the fires of providence, the fires that occur in life until we become a mighty blade in the hands of God. And that's what we're seeing with Joseph, that God is sharpening him, edge after edge, sharpening him until he becomes a singular instrument of redemption in the hands of God.The story begins with Joseph, just a young guy, naive and sensitive in many ways. Innocently arrogant in his youth and then he's sold into slavery. At that point, he could have turned to bitterness. He could have become a victim. At that point, he could have allowed his spirit to become wounded. No, he doesn't do any of that. The bitterness of Joseph's experience by God's grace seasoned him with sweetness so that the arrogance is deflated. And then ultimately, he is used by God to save his family whom he forgives. Joseph was already shown in the story, signs of spiritual greatness. Last week, we learned about his remaining faithful and not being compromised by Mrs. Potiphar's seductive siege. And Moses has written success in large letters all across Joseph's life at this juncture.If you remember last chapter ends in Genesis 39:21 through 23 with these words, "But the Lord was with Joseph, showed him steadfast love and gave him favor in the sight of the keeper of the prison and the keeper of the prison put Joseph in charge of all the prisoners who were in the prison. And whatever was done there, he was the one to do it. The keeper of the prison paid no attention to anything that was in Joseph's charge because the Lord was with him. And whatever he did, the Lord made it succeed." And here you got to pause and ask, is this success? He's in his late twenties, no family, no career, owns nothing. Successful in what category?Well, he's successful in the eyes of God and that's the only true measure of success. Despite trying circumstances, dark providence where he could have just run from God, run from responsibility. No, his faith actually grows stronger. Though he is far removed from his family, separated by the desolate expanse of the Sinai, immersed in another culture speaking a different language, enduring the living death of a slave. Despite all that, he still holds fast to his God.And we know in the coming chapters that he will be elevated to the vice regency of Egypt. He becomes number two only after Potiphar. And what we see is before his ascent to power, God gives us one more chapter that shows us where Joseph is in the darkest place in his life. It's a final stint, a final opportunity for God to shape him. And many lessons are enforced by the picture of Joseph in this dungeon, but he understands, come what will, right is right and sin is sin and that consequences are never to deter from duty. And that it's better to live with a clean conscience in prison then to do wickedness and sit at a king's table.Four points or categories, subheadings with which we'll walk through the text. First we'll look at the prisoners assigned to Joseph, then we'll look at the prisoners troubling dreams. Third, Joseph interprets their dreams. And fourth, the dreams come true. And we'll walk verse by verse through the text. First, prisoners are assigned to Joseph. So if you remember Potiphar who was in charge of the executioners of Pharaoh. Mrs. Potiphar came to him and said, "Joseph, he was trying to rape me." That's what was going on. And then Potiphar didn't really believe her. That's why he didn't have Joseph executed. And so he puts Joseph in this prison that he's in charge of and then he grows in responsibility. So this is Genesis 40 verses one through four."Sometime after this, the cupbearer of the king of Egypt and his baker committed an offense against their Lord, the king of Egypt. And Pharaoh was angry with his two officers, the chief cupbearer and the chief baker. And he put them in custody in the house of the captain of the guard in the prison where Joseph was confined. The captain of the guard appointed Joseph to be with them and he attended them. They continued for some time in custody."So Joseph was sold by his brothers into captivity when he was 17 years old. And we know that 11 years have already passed from that time. We don't know how those 11 years were divided between serving in Potiphar's household and in prison. But we do know that Joseph is now 28 years old because in the next chapter it says two years passed, two whole years passed from the events in this chapter, and then he'll be 30 at which at that age he ascended to the service of Pharaoh. So what happens is we don't know what the chief cupbearer or the chief baker did, but we do know that they are chief in their class. These are people to whom the Pharaoh entrusted his life. The royal cupbearer and the royal baker in a sense held the life of Pharaoh in their hands.If you wanted to take a king out or Pharaoh out, one of the ways you would do that is you bribe the cupbearer or you bribe the baker to poison the man. That's why the Egyptian cupbearers were sometimes called pure of hands. There were supposed to be people of incredible integrity. So the cupbearer's job was not just to taste the wine, he would oversee the whole process of the wine making and then finally taste it in the presence of Pharaoh before giving him the cup. The baker would do the same with food. So they were put in the custody in the house of the captain of the guard. Potiphar is the captain of the bodyguard. So Potiphar puts Joseph in a position to care for these criminals.And the thing you got to know about these guys is that they are high ranking officers. Remember, Nehemiah was a cupbearer, so he had incredible influence over the king, over the land. They were confidants, they were advisors. But here, something happened, we don't know what, but Pharaoh suspected them of plotting his demise. Perhaps he grew ill after a meal and he didn't know which one to blame, so he threw both into prison until it was decided. So here's Joseph. He's at the bottom of the bottom. He's 28 years old, been in prison serving prisoners, serving those who are enslaved. And at this point, he could have thrown himself a pity party and also checked out of reality. He could have thought, Lord, why did you give me this lot in life? I didn't sign up for this. Why was it that my mother died in an untimely death? And why was it that my father who loved me so couldn't quell the strife in the family?And why is it that my family sold me into slavery? And why is that Potiphar believed these false accusations, et cetera, and he's in prison. But instead of doing any of that, he continued to trust in the Lord and the Lord continued to sustain him even in prison. Before Joseph is put in the palace, he's taught by God to walk by faith in the prison. And that brings us to the next verses, and this is the second heading, prisoners troubling dreams. Verse five. "And one night they both dreamed, the cupbearer and the baker of the king of Egypt, who were confined in the prison, each his own dream and each dream with its interpretation."So the ancient Egyptians put great stock in dreams because they believe that when they slept, they were put in contact with another world. A pair of dreams, dual dreams shows us that there is certainty of fulfillment. So these guys, they both woke up rattled on the same night. They had these dreams, they're burdened with this inscrutable dream. And we see here, of course, God, in His providence, bringing these two guys together and it's God who gives them these two dreams. And what is God doing? He's furthering His glory. "Yes, Joseph, I do have great plans for you, plans to prosper you and plans to glorify my name through you." And part of the process of glorification is, how will you respond to adversity. How will you respond to dark providence, seasons where the only place to look up is to look up to God from the pit. And that's what's happening here. And even as He's teaching Joseph, God is ultimately concerned about glorifying His name and His might. That's what's happening here.In verse six, "When Joseph came to them in the morning, he saw that they were troubled." He noticed that they were perturbed, something was off. So he says in verse seven, "So he asked Pharaoh's officers who were with him in custody in his master's house, 'Why are your faces downcast today?'" Why are your faces gloomy today? In this question, what we see is, what do we see, we see kindness. We see interest. We see respect. He noticed things. By the way, this is a man. This is a man noticing the feelings of other men. This is a miracle in and of itself. But it just shows incredible sensitivity. I saw yesterday you were not gloomy, today, you're gloomy. Both of you are gloomy. And it shows this and this is a large measure of Joseph's success. He was present on a daily basis and he inquired of those around him of how they're doing or how they felt. Incredible sympathy, incredible sensitivity.And also, you can't but notice the growth. Remember when he was 17 years old, he's very good looking, beloved by Jacob. He's a beloved son. He's got the beautiful colored rainbow, the robe, and he knows he's the chosen one. And he didn't have the awareness to keep his dreams to himself. The dreams were it was clear that one day his brother's whole family would bow down before him. No, he decided to share that. Well, of course, how do you think your brothers are going to respond to dreams like that? So when he was younger, he lacked the sensitivity. But now, though he had every reason to ignore the feelings of his fellow inmates, he was tender to be considerate of them. And it's apparent that what Joseph had experienced in the famous ups and downs of his own life, well, those seasons made him sensitive and compassionate toward others.So he asked the question and verse eight they said to him, "We have had dreams and there is no one to interpret them. And Joseph said to them, 'Do not interpretations belong to God? Please tell them to me.'" Well, first thing you got to notice is he has this God reflex. As soon as he hears about they have a problem, let's take it to the Lord. And also, there's an implicit declaration of belief here. God sends dreams and God can interpret dreams. And by the way, this shows that he never stopped believing that those dreams that God had sent him early on were from God and they were to come true. Joseph's faith has also demonstrated in the fact that he doesn't take credit. He could have said, I have the skills of being a great interpreter of dreams. He says, no, no, no, let's take it to the Lord.Well, what has God just done? He has given Joseph the opportunity to testify to his glory. Now no matter what circumstances we're in, in God's providence, we have a choice to make. Will I trust whatever the circumstance I'm in, will I trust God today? Will I trust that God's hand of providence brought me here and God's hand of providence will take me out of here? Will I trust Him today? And part of trusting God is giving glory to Him verbally saying, "God, I praise you for this day. I praise you for this season. Whatever it is, I will give you glory." Joseph meant only God alone can give us the wisdom to understand what's happening here. And he, like Daniel, that's how Daniel approached dreams when he worked in Babylon. He said, "Let's take it to the Lord. I can ask of him and he can reveal it."So point three is, Joseph interprets their dreams and this is verse nine. "So the chief cupbearer told his dream to Joseph and said to him, 'In my dream there was a vine before me. And on the vine there were three branches. And as soon as it budded, its blossoms shot forth and the clusters ripe ripened with grapes. Pharaoh's cup is was in my hand and I took the grapes and pressed them into Pharaoh's cup and placed the cup in Pharaoh's hand.'" So the cupbearer speaks first, perhaps because he wasn't really worried about his dream, it was kind of a pleasant dream. He didn't understand it, but there wasn't reason for misgivings. And we see here that there is a quick succession of ensuing steps. The blossoms develop into grapes and then all of a sudden there's complete clusters which ripen on the spot and then he takes them and he makes wine out of them. And pharaoh's cup is filled. And obviously a beautiful cup. That's the image.So what does Joseph say in verse 12? Then Joseph said to him, "This is its interpretation. The three branches are three days. In three days, Pharaoh will lift up your head and restore you to your office and you shall place Pharaoh's cup in his hand as formally when you were his cupbearer." Now had Joseph lost faith by this point, faith in God, faith in God's revelations through dreams, we would imagine him to say something like, "Gentlemen, you had dreams. Congratulations. I had dreams. Let me tell you about my dreams. No, you don't want dreams. Forget the dreams. Don't let anyone interpret the dreams for you." Had he lost faith, that's exactly what he would do. No, no. God grants Joseph the power and the wisdom to discern the interpretation of the dream with perfect clearness, partially because he never stopped believing in the Lord.He walked before the faith of the Lord. He communed with the Lord, he was abiding with the Lord. So there's no wavering or uncertainty on Joseph's part. He seizes upon the essential features of the dream that are now, after the interpretation, clear to us. The expression, lift up your head, is counter to your head was down, you were gloomy. But in three days, your head will be lifted up and you will be restored. And that's precisely what happened. And because of the accuracy of his interpretation, the cupbearer, though he forgot Joseph for two years, he remembered Joseph when Pharaoh needed interpretation. That's next chapter.We continue in Genesis 40:14. Joseph said, "Only remember me when it is well with you and please do me the kindness to mention me to Pharaoh, and so get me out of this house. For I was indeed stolen out of land of the Hebrews, and here also I have done nothing that they should put me into the pit." One commentator says that what we see here is the powerful man born to rule is also a needful one. We must understand that after 11 long years we see that Joseph, he knows he's innocent. And one of the lessons we can learn here is a lot of people, when they talk about God's sovereignty or God's providence, they talk about it in a way where it does nullify the human will. Does Joseph believe in God's providence, God's sovereignty? God has allowed me to be put ... yes. But does Joseph say, therefore, I will resign myself and never try to improve my situation? No, of course not.He believes that God put him here, put him here for a reason. But at the very first opportunity to get out, he says, "Look, remember me, please remember me." And it's a measured request. He doesn't say, "I want FaceTime with Pharaoh." He just says, "Can you mention me and mention my cause?" In Genesis 40 verse 16, when the chief baker saw that the interpretation was favorable, he said to Joseph, "I also had a dream. There were three cake baskets on my head, and in the uppermost basket there were all sorts of baked goods for Pharaoh, but the birds were eating it out of the basket on my head." First thing to point out is Egyptians apparently loved their carbs, they loved bread. The dictionary of Egyptian from this period lists 38 different kinds of cake and 57 varieties of bread. So this is a big deal for them. And that's why, by the way, the famine with the grain is kind of a big deal because they're like, we love our carbs. And imagine, seven years with no carbs and thanks to Joseph that was wasn't as bad as it could have been.But so the chief baker has a dream and he hears the cupbearers favorable interpretation and he thinks, perhaps my dream was also favorable. The top basket had a variety of some of every sort of pharaoh's food, a handiwork of the baker. And none of this is unusual, butlers of that time, bakers of that time were men who commonly carried the baskets on their head. But one thing the baker failed to notice, which is really the outstanding thing of this dream and really ominous, he wasn't able to drive the birds away. The birds ate unhindered. Have you ever been to Nahant Beach? It's like the seagulls there, just demonic. And that's what's happening here. They really are demonic. And birds, by the way, usually are a sign of something ominous in scripture.Joseph has a decision to make. How will I interpret this guy's dream? Genesis 40 verse 18. "Joseph answered and said, 'This is its interpretation. The three baskets are three days. In three days, Pharaoh will lift up your head from you and hang you on a tree and the birds will eat the flesh from you.' So he's going to be lifted up too, but quite in a different way. And the same language is used here, your head will be lifted up and then the Hebrew just adds from you, showing he will be decapitated following by hanging on a tree and then the birds of prey would eat his flesh. Judging by Joseph's kindness, he probably broke this unwelcome news as kindly as he could. But he does break the bad news. He doesn't say, "I'm sorry, Mr. Baker, I can't interpret your dreams or I'd rather not interpret your dreams, or I'd rather not ruin your day by talking about something negative."No, God has a revealed good news to Joseph and bad news. And Joseph isn't the spiritual coward and he doesn't attack the wisdom of God. If God has revealed that this is His word, we are to proclaim that this is His word. And if we as Christians are going to preach heaven, we also must preach hell if we're going to be faithful to the Lord and His word. And also, Joseph didn't make up the interpretation of the dream. He doesn't enhance it in any way. He doesn't make up God's providence. He simply reported it. God gave him a message and he shared that message and he did it as lovingly as he could.The fourth subheading is, dreams come true. And this is verses 20 through 23. "On the third day, which was Pharaoh's birthday, he made a feast for all his servants and lifted up the head of the chief cupbearer and the head of the chief baker among his servants. He restored the chief cupbearer to his position and he placed the cup in Pharaoh's hand, but he hanged the chief baker as Joseph had interpreted to them. Yet the chief cupbearer did not remember Joseph, but forgot him." So every interpretation of Joseph proved to be true. In fact, the specific words and phrases spoken to the cupbearer and to the baker, verses 13, 19, are echoed here, just to underline the precision with which Joseph predicted the future. How encouraging this must have been for Joseph.For 11 years, he had believed that his dreams would come true. He never wavered in his conviction despite his circumstances. And now, he had solid objective evidence that God's hand is upon him, he still has God's anointing and that God has purposes for him. And he brilliantly interpreted this pair of dreams. So now that he was doubly sure that his own dreams would be fulfilled and he knows that God is with him, what's he thinking? He's thinking that's it. My stint in prison is over. Praise be to God. He thinks he's going to be at the birthday party with Pharaoh. He thinks he's going to be chilling with the cupbearer. That's what he's thinking. He's preparing for the party. And then a month goes by and in the court, the news has circulated that, yeah, everything Joseph said, it happened with the cupbearer, and yet the cupbearer did nothing. The cupbearer forgot.What we see here is another two long years of disappointment, two whole years. That's what the next chapter says. Joseph experienced disappointment and after disappointment. Throughout the whole story, his brother's murderous rejection of him, evil in return for doing the good and resisting Potiphar's wife, the withering disappointment from the forgetful cupbearer. Joseph's life teaches us that disappointments are essential. They're not just part of our life, they're essential to our spiritual growth because they demand at this moment, Lord, I want this thing. Lord, I'm begging for whatever this is. At that the moment you got to exhibit patience and faith and rest all your hope upon God.Well, it's those seasons, in particular, of disappointment that refine us. As V Raymond Edman says, "Delay never thwarts God's promises, it only polishes his instrument." And if you take a step back and just meditate, why two more years, Lord? Why two more years? Part of it is, he needed the preparation. In two years, Joseph would go from being an absolute nobody catapulted to the second position in all of Egypt. And Pharaoh, at that moment, when he elevates Joseph, changes Joseph's name to Egyptian and gives Joseph an Egyptian wife. He's trying to Egyptianize Joseph, meaning, you're going to believe what we believe.And on top of that, the wife that he gives Joseph comes from a family of the highest priests of their religion, of the sun god. So Joseph, as a 30-year old man, will be tossed into this court of idol worship and a life that will be lived amidst a swirl of sensuality with Mrs. Potiphars everywhere. And the intrigues of the court, like happened with the baker, that was just a part of daily life with lying and backbiting, et cetera. So Joseph had to be prepared for the responsibility with which he would be tasked. So God continues to prepare him and He continues to teach him. And his greatest successes were not at the top, but actually here in the pit where he's wrestling with God and God is expanding his soul reflex and instinctively he turns to Lord despite the disappointments. God could have conveyed all of these truths about Joseph's preparation by simply listing them.As I prepare a sermon on long narratives, I'm like, "Lord, all these lessons that I have to learn from the text, why don't you just list them? That'd be great." Be like, at the end of the ... okay, here's the three lessons and that'd be tremendous. But instead, God has chosen to illustrate these lessons in the fabric and text of a human life so that his life can be pressed and impressed on ours. So in this 40th chapter of Genesis, it records the final living touches upon a man that will be used mightily by God.There are moments in the Christian walk where it feels like the Lord has forgotten you. It feels like the omniscient God of the universe has turned His back on you. We've all been in seasons like that. Experienced Christians can only too well imagine him in this prison year after year, crying out as the psalmists do. For example, in Psalm 13, "How long, O Lord, will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day? How long shall my enemy be exalted over me? Consider and answer me, O Lord, my God. Lift up my eyes lest I sleep the sleep of death, lest my enemies say I have prevailed over him, lest my foes rejoice because I'm shaken." But notice the turn in the text. "But I have trusted in your steadfast love. My heart shall rejoice in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord because He has dealt bountifully with me."Those moments of God's dark providence, when you're walking through the valley of the shadow of death, you got to make a decision. And the decision the psalmist makes is no matter what, "But I have trusted in your steadfast love." That's what walking by faith looks like. God has led me into the valley of the shadow of death and He will lead me out. God is strengthening Joseph's faith by teaching him not to judge his circumstances only by his senses, but to trust God for His grace. Two Corinthians 5:6 through 10 says, "So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body, we are away from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please Him, for we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil."The passage indicates that God is furthering His glory by delaying Joseph's desire to get out of prison for several reasons. But if God had gotten Joseph out of prison through the cupbearer's initial pleas, then Joseph would've thought that the cupbearer was the rescuer. "Oh Lord, thank you for sending this guy to save me." And God would rather glorify Himself in the life of Joseph by making it absolutely clear it wasn't a cupbearer, it was actually God miraculously intervening. And finally, in this very act of delaying the answer to Joseph's desires, God is establishing His plan to save Israel. And through saving Israel, provides salvation for each one of us.For example, if Joseph was freed from the prison by the mere appeal of the cupbearer, well, he'd never get appointed to be second in command in the house of Pharaoh. Why? Pharaoh wouldn't even know about it. Okay, you're freed because unjustly, you were sold into captive. What would Joseph have done at that moment? He would've gone home. And then what happens? And then in a few years, the famine starts and then he's in the same situation, helpless as his whole family. No, God says, "You got to wait a couple more years and then Pharaoh will have that dream through which Joseph will be elevated." So God had a better plan than Joseph and a better purpose. And that plan meant waiting, it meant being frustrated. It meant being perplexed. It meant being patient. But also, it meant growing in the Lord and growing in faith.Many a lesson we can learn from here. I don't know what dreams the Lord has given you, and I'm not here to interpret them, but there is something that I can proclaim, and I can proclaim it with absolute assurance because it's 100% true. I can proclaim the future for each one of us. If you are not in the Lord Jesus Christ, dear friend, you will experience damnation for eternity. If you do not trust in Jesus Christ, then the penalty for your sin is upon you. Galatians 3:13, 14 says, "Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us. For it is written, 'Cursed as everyone who is hanged on a tree', so that in Christ Jesus, the blessing of Abraham might come to the Gentiles so that we might receive the promised Spirit through faith."In the same way that the baker was cursed and he was hanging on a tree, anyone that was crucified by the Roman empire was also considered to be cursed in a theological sense from the Old Testament scriptures that was predicted, cursed is everyone who was hanged on a tree. Well, Jesus Christ hung on a tree and experienced the curse. And you say, "Why? Why does the second person of the trinity, the son of God, why is he hanging on a tree?" Because Jesus knew the bad news. He knew the bad news that faces every single person who was outside of Christ.If you're here this morning, you've never believed in the Lord Jesus Christ, you might have been brought here by the sovereignty of God, for God to proclaim into your heart, into your soul of souls, that you are a sinner. You are under divine condemnation. You are headed for a Christ-less eternity. You are with without hope without God in this world. You are ultimately destined to spend eternity in the lake of fire where it grows hotter and hotter and hotter. And yes, for all of eternity. And yes, I know hell and fire and damnation of preaching, but I didn't invent it, it's God's word. It's in holy scripture. Jesus believed this. You're destined to be in the place of blackness, of darkness forever in which it gets darker and darker and darker.I'm the Lord's ambassador and I don't add anything to the message and I just proclaim it as it's given to us. And the reason why we start with the bad news and we share the bad news is to get you to a place to see how great the good news is. That there is a message of mercy. While your heart is still beating on this side of eternity, you have a decision to make. Will I accept the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the son of God, the second person of the Trinity who took it upon himself to carry out the intention of the Father and to provide atonement for us, for sinners.He suffered in blood and bled and died on the cross at Calvary and he cried out, "It is finished." The work of atonement is accomplished. The blood was shed, and now salvation is offered to you. Well, dear friend, what are you going to do with it? Will you accept the grace of God? If God, through the Holy Spirit, today is convicting you and you know it, you know it. Deep inside, you're, yes, yes, someone is speaking, someone is stirring. That's the spirit of God. The Spirit of God's bringing conviction upon you. And dear friend, you have a decision to make and I urge you to flee to the cross and accept the salvation of Jesus Christ.What do you need to do? Well, you need to acknowledge your sin and your iniquity before the Lord. "Lord, I have sinned, I have broken commandments. I have lived as if you don't exist or as if your opinion of me does not matter." Acknowledge your sin, your iniquity before the Lord and receive as a free gift, salvation by grace through faith. God wants to give you all of eternal life. So receive the Lord Jesus as your savior and rest for eternity in the forgiveness that God offers. And then, dear friend, put your trust in the Lord again on a daily basis. And that's what we do. Deny ourselves, take up the cross and follow Him even through the seasons of dark providence, knowing that He will get us through.With that said, would you please pray with me? Our Heavenly Father, we pray, Lord, that you would teach us to embrace all of the truths in this text. And Lord, I pray, continue to stretch our ability to understand all of your purposes, but even when we don't understand what's happening before us, Lord, we do trust you. We believe in you, and we thank you, Lord, for the example of many saints in this church who have endured much in their walk with you, things that would've crumpled lesser humans, but because of their own trust in you, you've given them joy to endure as Christ did. And Lord, we pray that you continue by the Holy Spirit to forge us, to hone us, to polish us, to refine us, to strengthen us even through the fires of life, so we can be a powerful weapon in your hands against the powers of darkness.Lord, continue to build up your church and continue to use each one of us. Fill us with the Holy Spirit, protect us from the evil one and continue to glorify your name in and through us. And we pray all this in Christ's holy name. Amen.

Join me on stage at the Footwear News CEO Summit as I sit down with three of our very best stylists, Jesse James Barnholdt, Gregory Clark and Jeffrey Ola. We do our best to make it abundantly clear to our employees that their success at Nordstrom is in their hands. We give them the leeway to use their best judgment in running their business, and let me tell you, these three men have taken that freedom and run with it. Each of them has raised the bar for what's possible on the sales floor and done it in their own unique and personal way, adding credibility to our reputation and building immensely successful careers for themselves. We are super proud of the heights that they've reached and want to lift them up as examples to the rest of our company. Before that, listen in on my conversation with the cofounder of On, Caspar Coppetti. The story of this brand is particularly interesting because it's so authentically rooted in the entrepreneurial spirit. Innocently enough, Caspar and cofounder Olivier Bernhard only started making shoes to fulfill their own personal running needs. And being based in the relatively small market of Switzerland, they had no idea that it would evolve into the global phenomenon that it is today. But what they did know was that if they could only get runners to try on their shoes, the business would take care of itself—which it did. Professional runners wearing On running shoes began breaking records and speaking out about the incredible benefits they felt, including examples of runners with previous injuries getting back up to speed faster than ever before. But despite On's amazing growth and success, money has never been what drives them. Their motivation remains the same as it was in the beginning. Caspar talks about running as an incredibly emotional experience, with each different environment and circumstance inspiring a new type of product. That's what makes this brand so unique, and why I'm excited to share his story with you today. Thanks for tuning in to episode 36. We hope you enjoy it! Did you know that YOU can be on The Nordy Pod? This show isn't just a one-way conversation. We want to hear about what Nordstrom looks like through your eyes. Share your Nordstrom experience, good or bad, by giving us a call and leaving a voicemail at: 206.594.0526, or send an email to nordypodcast@nordstrom.com to be a part of the conversation!

INTRODUCTION: Award-winning health expert Nicole Kerr is the co-author of Eating the Rainbow: Lifelong Nutritional Wellness—Without Lies, Hype, or Calculus. She has appeared on CNN, PBS, CBS, ABC, the Food Channel, and a host of other TV and radio shows to share her unique perspective on wellness, lifestyle, and nutrition.   For the past 30 years, Nicole has worked in all sectors of society, including ingovernment (the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention), non-profit(American Cancer Society), military (United States Air Force Medical Operations),academia (University of Hawaii), healthcare institutions/hospitals (AdventistHealth Castle and Queens Medical Center), corporate settings (Sea Ties, LLC),and private consultation. Nicole's warm, engaging presentations have earned hera place in front of international audiences ranging from corporate foodproducers to health and medical associations. Throughout her career, she hasfocused on supporting people from every walk of life to make realistic,meaningful, happy choices for lifelong health and well-being.When she was a 19-year-old cadet at the United States Air Force Academy, Nicolewould be forced to learn how to live and love differently following aterrifying and transformative Near-Death Experience. Her memory of the crashcame back 20 years later, and it has taken Nicole almost another two decades toalign her soul, spirit, mind, and body, proving healing is certainly anon-linear process.A disabled veteran, Nicole now maintains a private practice primarily using NeuroEmotional Technique (NET) targeting the often overlooked domains of emotional,energy, and spiritual well-being.   INCLUDED IN THIS EPISODE (But not limited to): ·      Spirits & Angels·      Second Chances·      Near Death Experiences (NDE's)·      Louisiana State University Nostalgia·      Religious Trauma·      Military Trauma·      Living With Fear·      PTSD·      Struggle Acquiring Veteran's Affairs Disability & Compensation·      Why Perspective Is Everything CONNECT WITH NICOLE: Website & Book: https://www.nicolekerr.comFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/nicole.a.kerrInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/nicole.angelique.kerr/LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-kerr-8920438/ CONNECT WITH DE'VANNON: Website: https://www.SexDrugsAndJesus.comWebsite: https://www.DownUnderApparel.comTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@sexdrugsandjesusYouTube: https://bit.ly/3daTqCMFacebook:    https://www.facebook.com/SexDrugsAndJesus/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sexdrugsandjesuspodcast/Twitter: https://twitter.com/TabooTopixLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/devannonPinterest: https://www.pinterest.es/SexDrugsAndJesus/_saved/Email: DeVannon@SDJPodcast.com  DE'VANNON'S RECOMMENDATIONS:·      Survivors of Narcissistic Abuse & Codependency Support Groups (Virtual) - https://www.meetup.com/pittsburgh-narcissism-survivor-meetup-group/·      COSA – 12 Step Recovery For Victims Of Compulsive Sexual Behavior - https://cosa-recovery.org·      A Recommended Reading To Help Heal From Narcissism - https://amzn.to/41sg6FO·      Sex Addicts Anonymous: HTTPS://WWW.SAA.ORG ·      Pray Away Documentary (NETFLIX)o  https://www.netflix.com/title/81040370o  TRAILER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tk_CqGVfxEs ·      OverviewBible (Jeffrey Kranz)o  https://overviewbible.como  https://www.youtube.com/c/OverviewBible ·      Hillsong: A Megachurch Exposed (Documentary)o  https://press.discoveryplus.com/lifestyle/discovery-announces-key-participants-featured-in-upcoming-expose-of-the-hillsong-church-controversy-hillsong-a-megachurch-exposed/ ·      Leaving Hillsong Podcast With Tanya Levino  https://leavinghillsong.podbean.com  ·      Upwork: https://www.upwork.com·      FreeUp: https://freeup.net VETERAN'S SERVICE ORGANIZATIONS ·      Disabled American Veterans (DAV): https://www.dav.org·      American Legion: https://www.legion.org ·      What The World Needs Now (Dionne Warwick): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfHAs9cdTqg  INTERESTED IN PODCASTING OR BEING A GUEST?: ·      PodMatch is awesome! This application streamlines the process of finding guests for your show and also helps you find shows to be a guest on. The PodMatch Community is a part of this and that is where you can ask questions and get help from an entire network of people so that you save both money and time on your podcasting journey.https://podmatch.com/signup/devannon  TRANSCRIPT: [00:00:00]De'Vannon: You're listening to the sex drugs and Jesus podcast, where we discuss whatever the fuck we want to! And yes, we can put sex and drugs and Jesus all in the same bed and still be all right at the end of the day. My name is De'Vannon and I'll be interviewing guests from every corner of this world as we dig into topics that are too risqué for the morning show, as we strive to help you understand what's really going on in your life.There is nothing off the table and we've got a lot to talk about. So let's dive right into this episode.Have you had a near death experience? Have you felt that feeling where your life was either slipping away from you or you did actually slip away from this plane of existence and stepped into that white light? Saw your ancestors, spoke with angels. Well, if you have, you're not alone. My guest today, Nicole Kerr, has written a book called You Are Deathless, and in this book she details her experience being 19 years old, the cadet at the Air Force Academy in [00:01:00] Colorado, flying through the window of a convertible. Well, let's just say, I'll leaveall the gory details of what happened after that for you to listen to in this episode. She died, she came back to life, and now she's dedicated her life to helping other people live free of fear in this episode. We'll talk about everything from Angels to Louisiana State University to P T S D, to Veterans Affairs, drama, religious Trauma. You name it, we got it . So listen in, pay close attention and know that I love you.Hello everyone and welcome back to the Sex Drugs in Jesus podcast. I'm your host Devon, and it is so lovely to see you as always. My guest today, her name is Nicole krs. She's an author and she has a bunch of acronyms. She's gonna explain to us what they mean in a minute, but their mph, h and r d n and b t d t [00:02:00] and n d e and all of these beautiful things.And she's an award-winning health expert. She's also a disabled Air force veteran like I am. Thank you for your service girl, and thank you. She has appeared on C N N P B S C B S A B C P Y T, all the different networks, the food channel, and a host of other TV and radio shows. And we're gonna talk about second and third chances today in health and wellness.How are you, Nicole? Nicole: I'm doing great. I am just delighted, excited, and grateful to be on your podcast today. So thank you very much, De'Vannon: Amsterdam Lutely, thank you for setting aside an hour of your life. Time is one of the resources that we cannot create more of as you well know. And so I don't take for granted what you choose to do with a whole hour.This, this is very, very special to me, so I appreciate the fuck out Nicole: of it. Aw, thank you. Likewise. De'Vannon: [00:03:00] Okay, so are y'all, Nicole like we, like we were just saying, was in the Air Force. There was a bad car accident. She died, she came back and this is kind of what set her story into motion. And so we'll be talking a lot about that.Many of us have had near death experiences, as have I. And so we'll chat, chat, chat, chat, chat. But before we get into that, let's talk a little bit about your education. You, you were saying that you went to L S U. I'm here in Baton Rouge. I go over to Lssu all the time. I, you see it, I party up there, tailgate up there and everything.So tell me about LSU for you. Nicole: I. L s u That was a stop for me where I got my dietetics certification and my brother also graduated from there. And we lived in Jackson, Mississippi for a long time and then moved down to Baton Rouge with my dad and brother's company called Yasu, the big Will mowing machines.So [00:04:00] that was the family business. And so I lived down there for several years while I was getting my Like I said, my nutrition and diet dietetics degree because I had developed an eating do eating disorder binge eating. It was called compulsive eating back in 1980 something when I first got it.But I did not get any mental health after my traumatic experience. My parents told the doctor when they said, Nicole needs to see a psychologist that Jesus and God was my psychologist. And needless to say, shortly after that I developed an eating disorder because I didn't know what to do with the pain and I didn't even know it was pain.So that lasted almost 40 years until I got married at 40. And then I've, I've worked hard. I've been in therapy. You name it, I've done it. And It just, you know, Jesus never came down and sat across from me and tried to help me, you [00:05:00] know, either talk therapy or any of these other modalities. And that's just not true.And it was really a disservice to me to not get the mental health. I had to pursue that on my own. And it was, it was challenging. De'Vannon: They used to say and damn, I'm so sorry that that happened to you. They're. You know, you already have like this near death trauma, now you've got religious trauma being pumped upon you too.They used to tell us in church to not be so heavenly minded that you're not so earthly good.It look. Nicole: Yeah, yeah, yeah. But that's what you get, get when now my parents, I call 'em religious addicts, but I did my formative years in Jackson, Mississippi and then I'm a people recovering people pleaser and I was pleasing. My dad, he was in the military. He was one of the first classes to go through the Air Force Academy and at that time [00:06:00] they had opened it, just opened it up to women to come to go into the service academy.So I was the sixth class of women. He was so proud of me that I got in. I was shocked that I did cuz I absolutely had no interest in the military. All of my background in high school and junior high was. Modeling junior achievement team boards nothing related to flying planes or going into this space program.So clearly I did it just for him. And let me tell you, that was the wrong reason. Cuz as soon as they dropped me off and closed the door and I went through that, bring me men wrap. My life changed and all of a sudden fear was the emotion and terror that dominated me. And my emotional state for at least the next year and a half until my crash happened.Because I was in constant fear that I was gonna fail, that I wasn't keeping [00:07:00] up. I was keeping my squadron, I was holding them back because I would fall outta runs. They sent me to remedial training. You know, I just didn't have that killer instinct. And I understand the reason we have a military, you know, to protect and defend, but every soul that goes into the military, in my opinion, is going to be fractured at some level.Because when you experience the theater or war and people being killed, or you know, You suffering parts of your soul fracture in order to preserve yourself. And so that's why we have so many injuries mentally, I think, and so many suicides with veterans especially, is because of that soul piece that just can't reconcile what they have seen and what they have done.So I knew in basic training that this was not for me, but I didn't know how to [00:08:00] quit. I didn't know how to say no to my father. Feel like a failure. The shame, the judgment, the condemnation. Cuz it takes a hell of a lot of work to get into academy. You gotta get a congressional rep nomination. You gotta pass all these tests.You, you know. And and I did it. And then I got there and I, I, three weeks into bootcamp, they gave us one phone call, three minutes. And I heard my mother pick up and she said, hello, and I hyperventilated and cried for three minutes. Then the commander comes in there and says, that's the end of your phone call.Go sit over there and get yourself together ke. And I was just like, I needed my parents to tell me I had permission to quit if I was, if this was not the place for me, I needed. To get out and I couldn't do it. And my mother turned to my father later and told me, what have we done to her? And he's like, ah, she'll be fine.And I [00:09:00] wasn't fine. I went from there to remedial, which is one-on-one, which is even worse, you know, because you're separated from your, your squadron. So it was that was the first panic attack I had. I didn't realize it until later, but I clearly lived with that level of fear and panic and pending doom dread.And it starts to just operate your system after a while. And it was really, I, I don't know. I, I don't know how I made it the first year, and then I knew the second year it was only gonna get tougher. And then that's when the crash happened. And I was getting a ride back with a fellow cadet who was a senior, didn't know him, but my dad had three rules, don't smoke, don't drink, and don't date upper cadets.Now I'm in a school with 4,000 guys. I'm now a sophomore. I actually can date you can't as a freshman, but I have never been on a date in my life. My dad did not. He was very conservative. He did not think dating [00:10:00] would do any good for me or spending the night with others. That was one of his commandments.There's the 10 commandments and there's my dad's 10 commandments. And spending the night with others was number one on, you do not do this. And even in church you don't sit with your friends, you have to sit with mom and dad. You can't fall asleep even though my dad fell asleep, you can't fall asleep.You know, it was, there was just a lot of rules. And having a Southern Baptist upbringing on my father's side and a Lutheran bringing on my mother's side living in the Bible belt, which is, as you know, the foundation of that area. I just got a lot of. Church thrown at me. And it was contradictory because the Lutherans were saying, this is the way to God.And the Baptists were saying this way. And, you know, it was just, I'm sure God was [00:11:00]confused, you know, about what, what he supposedly said. But that's when my car crash happened. And I know at a sole level that that is what got me out of the academy saving face because you, you know I couldn't go back. I, my injuries were so severe.I was in the hospital for four months, seven weeks in I c u two code Blues. And then 19 years later, I remembered my near death accident. I was working at the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention and went to Starbucks, got my coffee, and boom, the memory of how I was sitting in the Corvette convertible came back and And then the rest of the memory came back.So people said, well, why did it take 19 years? And I'm like, the only thing I can say to that is when your body feels safe enough, repressed memories as what they're known as will come up. [00:12:00]And that's what happened. And I got the complete story. And so I've been able now, 40 years later to finally publish my book.It's called You Are Deathless. And a near death experience taught me how to fully live and not fear death. It's taken me that long to first of all 20 years, had no memory, just the white lights. And then the next 20 was aligning myself and my search for body, soul, spirit, and mind to all come together.And it's been a journey, a healing journey, and it's not linear. A plus B does not equal C and the healing journey. That was a lot I just gave you.De'Vannon: Well, you know what, it sounded like you needed to get that out. I just, I'm happy to, to allow you to Nicole: do that. Plus southern girls, we can talk. De'Vannon: So, so take, [00:13:00] take me back though. Tell me what the, the MPH, H C R D and the B T D T stand Nicole: for. Okay. Master's in Public Health and, and I had an emphasis in nutrition and then R D N is registered dietician nutrition.So I've worked in hospitals. I was an oncology dietician, a wellness director B T D T I invented that or took it from somebody else, actually. Been there, done that. And that actually is my proudest letters of the alphabet after my name. Because experience trump's theory in any any day for me because it allows a person to have compassion sympathy and empathy.De'Vannon: Right. Ab a Absolutely. Absolutely. Absolutely. And that's why I say I wish this, this country in a, i I, I do not feel like the United States is the greatest country on the world, you know, in the world or nothing like that due to, due to the lack of like, character, you know, and, and the [00:14:00] lack of love that prevails here.And I don't care how much money, how rich it's supposed to be like this, this is a deplorable country and I, I really wish that people had to go to the military and or had to wait tables or had to be a janitor or had to do something like that for like some amount of time. And there are countries that have those requirements because then more people, then everyone would have some version of been there, done that as opposed to standing over here and judging from a distance.Yes. So so, so the title of her book y'all is called You Are Deathless. And and it, and it. You know, talks about, like a lot of, you know, what she's talking about right now, her website. I just wanna tell everyone, you know, it's nicole kerr.com that we'll be going in the show notes that she has a great blog on there and all kinds of information and everything like that too.So take me back to this car accident. You said you're in a a [00:15:00] convertible Corvette. Yeah. Nicole: I don't know if you can see it. De'Vannon: Okay. Yeah, I can see it. Okay. Nicole: That's August 8th 19. That's afterwards. De'Vannon: Okay. So, so, so after they untangled you, so y you just showed a picture of the Corvette for those of you who are not watching on YouTube, and it's basically, it's like somebody like Godzilla took this car, picked it up, twisted it around, and then like tried to.Fold it together, so, yeah. Yeah. So it almost looks like, almost looks like a square, like a, like a block rather than a, a motor vehicle. And so they were able to, to open up that can, I guess they, they had to have gotten the jaws of life or something out for that. So we Nicole: actually flew out of it cuz it was a convertible and we didn't have seat.The, the car didn't even have seat belts back then. And so when he hit the side of a boulder, okay, I was getting a ride back with a senior cadet, didn't know him. We had [00:16:00] been in an Air force function. They had provided beer to underage cadets and they broke their own rules. The officers left before the cadets and I was one of the, I was the last to leave.And so I asked him for a ride back and he said, sure. He had his own agenda. He wanted to go to another bar. He wanted to watch the sunset at the Rocky Mountains i e make out. And I started getting really nervous cuz we had curfew 7 35. We had to be back at the academy. And I didn't wanna get in trouble this year because last year I was, I.Innocently doing favors for people and I would get in trouble. So I marched tours, I served demerits, I served confinements, I did it all. And I was like, I am not doing that this year. So I was really worried about the time element. And he tried to make a sexual pass at me. My memory later revealed and I said no.And he got really angry at me and jerked the steering wheel. The car fishtailed out, and this is at Black Forest [00:17:00] park in Monument, which is just outside the academy. He hit a huge boulder, moved the boulder, the car flipped. We were both thrown out. I was thrown into a ditch. Some bystanders were, were close by, they called 9 1 1.They came out to look at me and they couldn't get any signs of life. So they got a blanket and they covered me up. And then when the Tri Lake Fire Department, and you can kind of see. That was the front page of the newspaper. So they're working on me. And you can see the car landed on its top. Mm-hmm.Okay. So I was gone when I flew out from the windshield, that's when I called it Casper the ghost in the book. But I was just revealed in my meditation in August and the [00:18:00] book was published in August that it was my grandfather that came in the form of an angel and lifted me took me up and so I never hit the ground.I knew when I hit the ground I was gonna die. I knew it, but I went up instead in his arms, and we went to this space. It wasn't really a place, it was just a space. And that's when I, I was not in bodily form. I could see my body on the ground, I could see it in the ditch. It was just a corpse, a mangled corpse.And so this spirit, my grandfather, now I, I, we went to this space and I could hear other voices, other angels, other spirit guides. They weren't speaking English. I don't know what they were. I don't know how I heard them and understood them, but I did telepathy, whatever, but I could hear and communicate.And [00:19:00] so there were two angels next to me and they were saying, you meaning humans need to ask the angelic realm for help. That was the first message, is they're not gonna interfere in our lives unless we ask for help because of free will. We have choices. So that is one of the first messages is start connecting with your angelic realm.We all have at least one guardian angel that's assigned to us. Some of us have more, but start the relationship with your angels or any angels. And people say to me well that's kinda like when you ask the angels to help you for a parking space. I said, it works. It absolutely works because it's not about how big or small something is, it's about the relationship that you can count on them and you can trust them.And it may not look like what you want, but [00:20:00] they will send you signs. You just have to be open-minded. Then the second message that I wanna make sure people hear that I received was to tell people not to be afraid of death. And I was like, whoa, that's a big one. That's a real big one. And I, and so at that moment I knew I was gonna go back in that body and I didn't want to, I was like, no, I do, I, I wanna stay up here because up there death was, or, or that transformation of myself was absolute beauty light, the white light that I had seen.It wasn't the operating or theater room lights. It was, it was the light that almost every near death experience or ex, you know, has Raymond Moody who coined the term near death [00:21:00]experience, that is the single most. Common element that people report is seeing this bright white light, and it's clear, it's not blinding and it's just comforting.It's like you're cocooned in it and it's just so peaceful and beautiful. And the colors on the other side are just magical beyond the, what is it now? 125 cray color box? Is that what we're up to? So, you know, why would you wanna come back from that? There's no negativity at all. So it's, you know, in our.World. I think, you know, every book that's almost written around the subject of death is cloaked with this veil of doom and gloom and death has a cloud of depression and negativity around it. Throughout our culture and society and my own [00:22:00] experience, and I hope yours and others, hundreds of thousands of people because they have enough to have actually studied this and put a report together to list the 10 common lessons of NDEs.And they're, every single one of 'em is positive. And the first one is we do not die. Hence the title of my book. You are deathless. Yes, your physical, your physical body is gonna die decompose. But when you die, your energy body splits open and your soul leaves you and goes home. And we have many.Incarnations of our soul. This isn't our only rodeo. So that was the mission, and it's taken me, I found that out. Okay, think about this. 19 years, I had a gap in my memory. And then boom, it all comes together. And then I have to figure out, okay, what does [00:23:00] does that mean? Because when I died at 19, I was fearful of death.I had the concept of God from my southern. Baptist upbringing and Lutheran, where the teaching was, if you were a bad person that God was duality on one side, God loved you, he would protect you. He was you know, loving, kind. But if you broke the rules, if you were a bad person, if you were a sinner, you would go to a place called Hell where the wrath of God would come and you would burn eternally.Now, as a six-year-old growing up, that scares the wey outta you. So you live your entire life in fear of doing something bad. And I call that concept a vending machine concept of God, and it's not correct. It's a false belief that is not who or what God is. [00:24:00] Yes, take the first part of it, the positive. But that whole second part was invented by man to keep people in fear, which would keep you in control De'Vannon: on the on the aspects of angels.And I think it's, I think it's a beautiful experience that you had. I just wanted to like, like to, to remind people that, you know, when you're speaking you know, two angels and, you know, different things like that, you know, d don't forget to ask them, you know, like how they're doing, you know, cause they're not.And Nicole: thank them. Please thank them after they give you what you De'Vannon: need. They're not, they're not, they're not, they're not God. And you know, they get That's right. They can get run down too. You know, we, we see this illustrated in the book of Daniel in the Bible when Gabriel is coming to the deliver Daniel, his message when he was fasting for those [00:25:00] three weeks for the Nation of Israel.And, and Gabriel is telling Daniel that he was delayed because, you know an op an op, an opposition withstood him until the arch angel Michael came to help him. And so, so th so this, this illustration lets us know that angels have limitations if they have to eat Mannas, because eventually they get run down and they have to be regenerated.So for me, it's not all about accessing the spiritual realm to, to, to get shit from them. You know? So I think that, I think, I think it's important to, to speak. Whenever you're speaking about more than just acquisition than what you can get from them. And so just be like mindful of that people. Nicole: Yeah.And angels come in many forms. You know, they're earth angels and I talk about that. And my book, they're is a chapter called Calling All Angels because I know that the e m t [00:26:00] that brought me back to life was one of my angels. He was they had me covered up, okay. He gets there, he's the first one on the scene, 10 to 13 minutes later, so I'm clinically dead for that long.They had me, you know, under the, he takes the blanket off, he can't get any sign of life. So he does something called a sternal knuckle rub. Have you ever heard of that? It's where they, they go up your, your sternum and it's designed to elicit pain. It's a pain response that the medical team uses. And boy, if there's any sign of life in you that would respond to pain, it's that.So the only sign of life you got was my right eye flickered and my pupil dilated. Now, what do we say about eyes and our souls? De'Vannon: Eyes are the window to the soul. Nicole: Yes. At that moment, my soul came back in through my eye. [00:27:00] I was dead before they couldn't get anything. Okay? So my soul, it left when I was up in the air.Okay? My body split open two out. It went, it comes back when he's doing that and, and, and I often wonder, You know, why did you bring me back? You know? And cuz it's been painful and it's been a hard journey. But that is when the soul came back into my body and at that point he was able to get a blood pressure reading on me of 60 zero.Now that's pretty much dead anyway, but at least he could get that. And they got me these mask pants on. They'd just gotten 'em on the bus That forces all your blood up to your heart. I had had multiple injuries. I cut off my left foot, I severed my right wrist. My pelvis was broken on both sides. Had a rash from skidding on the, the payment of grow burn that went three levels deep, a [00:28:00]laceration between my anal and feature because I remembered sitting in the car.And my leg is on the dashboard and my other leg processes it. Do you remember sitting like that in a convertible? Put your leg on the dashboard De'Vannon: sounds so, so, so California, Nicole: don't ever do that. If you're in an accident, that's the absolute worst way to get injuries. So I cut up my, I had a, a hole between my anal and sphincter muscle and then a huge hole like this cut out of my left thigh.So I had damage to my nerves. Lost the feeling in that whole sexual area. So it was cuz I went butt up through the windshield and so that cut my foot and that injured that area. So, It was just about getting me stabilized that night, and the doctor on call was a maverick. She was the first woman [00:29:00]surgeon in Colorado Springs.She was the first woman to go to medical school at Jefferson College. Let me tell you. She said multiple times, this is not in my hands anymore, you know, whether Nicole makes it. And I just kept coming back to life. You know, I had a surgery code blue, they had to cut me up from here to here and. My parents were in the chapel praying and the surgical nurse went in there and said, we've lost Nicole.I'm so sorry. And so my dad's like, well, we need to figure out where to barrier. And mom's like, I don't believe it. And then two minutes later another surgical nurse runs in and said her heart just started again. And and there was another incident where I had another near death experience and I have an angel that named James that is, that protects me.And I know that sounds weird, but I call him my military angel, but he is here to make sure I [00:30:00] get this message out because. There is no need to fear death. And there's so many of us that have been conditioned or brought up with belief systems where we scare, we're scared of death. And here's the deal.It's gonna happen at every one of us, and it could happen at any age. And that's the other thing is we need to start learning to prepare ourselves not only physically with wills and all that other stuff, but E, but emotionally and spiritually. And understanding that your beliefs about God, whatever that concept of God is, shapes your relationship with death.Because if you believed, like I did when I died, I disobeyed my father, and that's what he told me later when he came to the hospital. I. You had two beers, you smoked one cigarette. And this is [00:31:00]the first time I've done this in my life. At 19, I'm finally gonna have fun. Okay. And you were with a cadet and you kissed him, he kissed you.So in his eyes, I broke his rules and I deserved to quote what I got. So I disappointed God as well. And I have spent you not believe how much therapy I've had to try to let go of that being blamed. And it fractured my relationship with my parents and with my siblings because I felt so guilty about that.And I've been trying to make it up all these years. And then in the epilogue, you're not gonna believe this, but there were four roommates, four women that went in in my class at the same time in my squadron and my roommate. She dropped out. She quit that December of my accident. Okay? [00:32:00] So I had not talked to her in 38 years.I found her on Facebook. We, four girls got together this past May. The book was already at the editors ready to be published. And we all never knew what happened to her. She just never came back. After spring, after Christmas break, she said, Nicole, I'm so sorry. She said I caused the crash. I said, what? No you didn't.The guy did. He was drunk and he is making a pass at me. And you know, he crashed. And by the way, he survived. He even got to graduate cuz his dad wore three stars. But that's a whole nother story cuz rank has its privilege as we know. And she said, you had asked me for a ride back to the academy before the event even started.And I said, yes, we'll go back together. And then when it was over, There was another cadet who was drunk and he wanted me to drive his car back for him. And I really liked him and I wanted to be alone with [00:33:00] him. So when you got ready to get in the car, I told you no I really don't want you in the car.There's one other guy left over there, why don't you go get a ride back with him? And I said, but that guy's been drinking. And she said, oh, it doesn't matter. They've all been drinking. She said, it'll be fine. Just go have some fun, you know, and I'll see you back at the academy. And she never did. So she lived with 38 years of guilt and it still haunts her and she quit because she couldn't bear the thought that if she would've just given me a ride back, both of our lives would've been totally different.So you never know. And I never knew that. My memory part never came back of that conversation. And I said to her, why didn't you ever tell me before? And she goes, well, I just thought you knew. And you are angry at me. So it's so important to communicate trauma and your version of [00:34:00]something and someone else's version of something, because sometimes we just think somebody knows something, but we don't check it out with 'em, and then we go around believing something and it, it just devastates our life.You know, there, De'Vannon: there's so much loss in this life because of things left unsaid, be it in romantic relationships, business relationships. I agree with Nicole. Y'all open your fucking mouth and tell people what the hell you think, know and feel. Rather than assuming they should know or assuming they will know, magically know.Just make it simple. And just say it, even if you think you're stating the obvious, you know, sometimes you need to say the quiet part out loud because you know so much just to be sure everyone's on the same page. Yeah. You know it's, it's not cool to think that, you know, like in my, in my previous relationship that I, [00:35:00] that I just had to end.That, that was one of the things that, that my ex would never, you know, give me, I said, don't, don't ever have one version of reality operating within your head. And you know that I don't know that. Cuz then we're on divergent paths and I'm thinking that we're on the same page and really we're not. And you know, and the only way that that could have ever happened is if he would've opened his mouth and told me what he was feeling and thinking, which he never was able to do that.And so be it friendships or whatever the case may be, just fucking say what's going on rather than letting those negative thoughts come in and, and control you. You could disband that with clarity in communication. Nicole: Yes, and please do it before they die.Don't do it on their deathbed, you know, say the things you need to say now. And I, you know, and, and, and then I went and told my father, you know, dad, you know, I knew the guy was drunk and I, I just, you know, and I had [00:36:00] arranged a, a, a ride back and I was trying to defend myself to my father with this. And he says he still made a bad decision and you should have walked back to the academy.And then, That's when I just went, I haven't talked to my dad since, and I won't, I'm done with him. So, you know, and I was trying to be done with him before, but when he, he's never forgiven me. He's never said he is sorry. He is a narcissist. He is in that military mode my way or the highway. That's how we were raised.I know what's best for you. And he didn't, he never got to understand who I am. And when I published this book, he has not read it. And he just said, you better get God writer. You're really gonna get it. So there's just more fear and I'm just like, you know, my experience with God is God is love. Period, end of sentence, and love is all that matters and is the source of all that exists.And when you think about [00:37:00] source that is God and is there anywhere that God does not exist?De'Vannon: He is no ever president. He is everywhere. And video1562552333: in Nicole: my per, he's not external either. He's not, he's not out there to be looked for. He's within all of us. We are all eternal sparks of God. De'Vannon: Mm-hmm. What I, what I you know, you know, Jesus describes the death. Like he, you know, in the Bible he told us to to, to basically mourn when somebody is born in a rejoice when they die.Because Yeah. When when you They're Nicole: going back home. Yeah. When you, and they're not gonna remember any of this negative stuff. You know? It's like when I got over to the, to the other side God was all around me. God was in me. God, I, you know, I was God. God was present and fullness and oneness. And [00:38:00] most of all, God was love, pure, non-judgmental love.And in that state it was not that I suddenly had been forgiven for my mistakes, is that they no longer existed. Nothing I had done on Earth was being weighed or measured. It was simply the way my story had played out in one realm.So that's another lesson coming from the NDEs is part of the 10 of 'em is we are not judged. And I think one of the worst things we do to ourselves present day is we judge our thoughts, we judge our emotions, we judge our each other. And if we can just get rid of the judgment. That would be De'Vannon: huge, right?God is the God of mercy in, in the, you know, and you know, he [00:39:00] said, judge, not, you know, it's really just that simple. But, you know, we learn all of that judgment from broken people who have positions of authority over our lives, you know, and things like that in society. But that, you know, from the beginning it was not so.You know even the, I think video1562552333: that, Nicole: I think, yeah, I think that's one of the biggest issues I have with religion is the hypocrisy that goes on, especially with things like Jesus's words. I mean, when people say, who would you like to have dinner with? I said, Jesus, I would like to ask him what he thinks of how people have interpreted what he has, quote said or not said based on the Bible.Bless you. And one of the things is the judgment judge, not less G B B judged, you know, and they're judging. You because you're, you're gay because you're whatever the condition is. There's just [00:40:00] still so much judgment and, and it's causing so much fractionation and just anger and hatred and, and it, and it's just like, wow.That is not at all what Jesus meant by that. You know, it's, it's quit judging others and don't judge yourself because that just lowers your esteem and lowers your own vibration. Mm-hmm. De'Vannon: Right. Now, I'm curious some of the other, the common themes of near death experiences besides the white light. You, you said they had, they had done research to find some commonalities.What are some of the other commonalities? Okay. Nicole: We are never alone. That's a big one because people believe like when the with the pandemic, a lot of people were dying alone, but we are never alone. The spiritual realm is always around us and when we die, Angels, deceased, loved ones. Even our deceased [00:41:00] pets, they meet us.And so we, that's why you see people, like, they'll start grabbing at things as they're dying. You know, they'll, they'll, and you're going, what are they grabbing at? But it's like they're having a window into the other realm, across the ba. So they keep switching from that, that perspective to back here on earth, that perspective.And then they finally transition. But we are never alone. We always have a spiritual angel guy, somebody with us. And I think that's more from the human part of us that wants to be there for someone, for us to feel better about ourselves, that we were there. But I know, and I talk about this in the book, a lot of people choose to die when nobody is around.My brother-in-law died from a l s at 51. House full of people. He waited till everyone was out of his room [00:42:00] at some point in the night and passed. He did not want anybody else around him, you know, and I know other people's same situations. They had, had people monitoring, and when someone goes and gets a cup of coffee, the person, you know makes their transition.So I think that is up to the person. And you don't, you know, your, in my opinion, your job is to hold the space for that person as they as they go through this. And I know the human form with death because we are human. There's still suffering, there's still grief, pain, loss, and we have to carefully and compassionately hold and heal that with people.But the cosmic context is benevolent and extraordinary of a what awaits us. And if [00:43:00] we know that true context, it's gonna enable us to live a happier life and prepare for our own graceful passing, you know, not to be resistant and to support others as they approach their own transition. I know that was a lot.De'Vannon: Well Nicole: for me, so that's another one. We're not, we're never alone. We are not judged. Everyone and everything is connected.Okay? We are all energy. When we leave this body that breath. Think about it. When you see somebody at a funeral, they're laid out. The cosmetologist has worked on 'em. They don't, in my opinion, I don't know about you. They just don't look like they did. [00:44:00] They can never get their hair right or their makeup. It just doesn't look like them.Right? And that's because the light, that beautiful light of the energy has been lifted out of them. And that's that breath. The breath. If you see it on a cold day, you see your breath, it vaporizes, its energy transforms. And so we are all connected and we need to start paying attention to the energy and start thinking about, your energy affects me, mine affects, you know, we're all in this, this together.And it doesn't matter the differences because when we. Transition. We go into that, that, that form of soul, which is energy. It's not a human body.[00:45:00]De'Vannon: I, I want you to talk about like your road to rehabilitation. So you let's take it back like physically now, did you have to do like a lot of physical therapy? Were there multiple surgeries? Like when were you able to like, come out of the hospital and go home? Like, and then after that, did you have continued.Rehabilitation. How did it work physically to get you back to, to good? I Nicole: was in i c u now they took me to the closest hospital, which was a community hospital, and they were not prepared for trauma at that hospital, so they had to bring in, I was too critical to move. So they had to bring in ano another nurse.I had to have two nurses on me at all times. I was so critical. They had to bring in nine different specialists. Okay. So they had to bring in an infectious d disease specialist from Denver, because I had three infections set in from all the fiberglass, the feces, the, the, all that stuff that [00:46:00] mixes up in you.I got gang green and sepsis in my right leg. I almost, I was on the verge of amputation of that, and I didn't know it until after it passed. So I was hooked up at one point to 10 different IVs. Okay. And. They had to do what they call a subclavian to put it in there because you run out of veins after a while.So the doctor described to my mother, she is very, very, very three very sick. Okay. And every day it was, I don't know if she's gonna be alive or if she's gonna die today. That's how serious it was. I had to have a colostomy. I don't know if many people know what that is, but that's where they, they cut your where your bowels are and they pull out part of your bowel and they resection that so that you can go to the bathroom.And so here I am at 19 and I wake up from a surgery with my [00:47:00] intestine in a bag, part of it, and going, I've never had sex with anybody. I, I, no one's gonna wanna have sex with me, you know, when they see that back, cuz I couldn't stand it. And so one was an emergency operation from all the infections and they I coded on the way to the operating room.So they couldn't give me the amount of anesthesia that they needed to put, put me out because they would've lost me again. So I went in, like on a muscle relaxer and of Tata anesthesia, and I could feel them, I could hear them talking, I could feel them pulling my stomach. But I couldn't move, I couldn't say anything.And it was awful. It was awful to, to, to feel all this and to hear all this and not be able to do anything. You know, you're just immobile. I had to have my foot sewn [00:48:00] back on, so I had to have. Two skin grafts done. They took it off my thigh and one was the inside of my right thigh that they had to, to plug up with this huge hole.And then the other skin graft went directly onto the tendon on my foot to keep it together. It had a 5% chance of taking, and it did. And the doctor, it's written up in the Denver Medical Journal because it was just unbelievable that it would graft without having to granulate and just. Here, right on the tendon.Now, today, I still have issues. I have to wear those lovely compression socking, but I got my foot. I'm so grateful. I still have my foot. But you know, I have bowel issues from it, from the colostomy. They did reverse the colostomy, but it was, you know, I, I just, and then migraines and the va finally, finally, after 38 years, gave me a hundred percent, I call it [00:49:00] compensation.I don't call it disability, I call it compensation rating. And it took me that many times. I was on my third appeal and the VA rep from North Carolina just moved here. And he said, Nicole, it says, clear in your notes a patient thought initially dead on arrival. That means you had a head injury. Okay. So I don't know how they have missed that all these years.And we filed it with just that phrase. And next thing I know, the money showed up at the bank and I was granted, you know, permanent disability. And I'm just like, I, I think it's just a persistence challenge with the VA and the right wording, because that was my last attempt. They only give you three, but I am finally in that and can get compensated in that, that realm.So I don't have to work because I worked for a long time and I have P T S D and that was only diagnosed two years [00:50:00] ago. So I'd been trying to push myself through things that were so stressful, making the p t s worse. And that has been a huge issue with me is trying to regulate my nervous system and get that on board to be more in a parasympathetic sympathetic state.De'Vannon: You know, hearing all of what you've been through and everything like that, you know, perspective is everything, you know, and the thing that I was, and I, when I got H I v I was freaking out about what might happen. You know, there are for worse things that can happen and I'm not downplaying, you know, the seriousness of H I V and the, you know, hepatitis B, which I also have a history of, you know, but, you know, I feel like accidents like yours are, you know, are worse.You know, cancers, hell Covid can kill you in two weeks, you know? Yeah. You know. I'm, I'm thankful that I'm at a point where I have a good attitude about the diseases that I've had to struggle with, [00:51:00] because now I see how bad it really could have been. You know, those diseases never actually did anything to me.It was just my perception and fear of, of death that that really caused me to do self-harm to myself. And so I'm saying all that to say, people watch your perspective because you might actually hurt, you hurt yourself when you didn't have to be hurt. And for other veterans out there trying to fight and battle and box with the VA for your disability, like the woman said, you gotta keep going.It took a, it took time, but I got my, you know, my, my full rating too, that the, the VA is a breeding ground for the most wicked people who have. Never been veterans. And they come and they sit in there and they try to block us from getting our benefits. And it's even worse when you have someone who was a veteran working at the VA doing the same sort of treachery.So you do have to fight and sometimes you need to get like the D A V or the American Legion or an advocate to represent you. And [00:52:00] what I had to do, I live in Louisiana, but the New Orleans VA is so damn corrupt. People here go to other states. I had to go over to the Houston va, now I talk to the Los Angeles, you know, va I, I mean d a v I went to, I went to the Houston Vav and the Los, and I talked to the Los Angeles, d a v.Any d a center can represent you cuz they're all one big organization. It doesn't matter what state you live in. And so if the VA in your town is fucking up and they're full of assholes, go over to another state, you know, and, and the DAV can help you that all out. Nicole: Yeah. Yeah. I remember I had sent in, I had gone to see, Three new doctors that all documented migraines had injury, because back then in the eighties, they didn't have T b i traumatic brain injury that was not, you know, a known condition that people, you know, doctors were putting down.And when the it came back rejected, not enough evidence. And I was like, did they even read that? [00:53:00] And when I called up there, they admitted that they hadn't read it. There are so many claims coming through. And so that's when I got the advocate here in North Carolina to help me. And he said, we're gonna do this and let's see what happens because you deserve it.And I just wanted the validation that they now have a connection between P T S D and migraines that is clearly established. And if you have P T S D and you have migraines, then you should be getting compensated for both.But anyway, so yeah, I totally agree with you on that. But I had to go through rehab. I had to learn to walk again. I started in a swimming pool. I went home in December. It was a big to-do. They met me at the airport. I had a kidney infection. I didn't want anybody to touch me cause I was so in pain. But, you know, it was a slow slog.And physically, and I will tell [00:54:00] you, it's it's challenging When it happens, you get so much attention and then as you get better, people just fall off. And it's very lonely, you know, because you're still having to pursue the rehab and your friends are in college, they're having a good time, their lives go on, and you just feel like you've been, you know, gypped that and especially when you don't have a memory of what happened, you know, and, and then you're just expected to get on with life.At least that was the expectation In my family, you look physically like you can do things again. So forget about your mind or your spirit. And I think there's something, there's spiritual abuse that goes on, and there's spiritual amnesia and spiritual amnesia is what we all get when we get all these filters put on us as we start growing up.And. [00:55:00] I love it. In my book, I talk about, I did neuro emotional technique for seven years with people including children. And I was with a little girl who was six years old who was coming from a evangelical background who was scared she was going to hell cuz she did something bad. Now she's adopted so that's even worse.So I asked her how she sees God and she eagerly told me God is a blue spirit with colors and balloons in all different colors, no head and can talk. And clearly this little girl is having a direct experience with God, with no filters. And to me, of all the definitions I've heard, I resonate with that the best.You know, there's nowhere where there's energy of God is not. And it just talks to you in a way that you talk to it, it's your own. Relationship, you have to connect to it. It's [00:56:00] a direct experience you have to come into. And I love all the colors because that's what I saw on the other side was the colors.You know, it was just amazing. And she saw 'em as balloons, you know, and it just I was just like amazed. And of course, her parents were like, when I told her there was no hell she looked at her mom, she goes, mom, is that true? There's no, there's no hell with fire in the devil down there. She goes, we'll talk about that later.And I never heard back from her, but, you know, I like to take that. Quote, because children are so innocent and they haven't been subjected to all these indoctrinations and theories and you know, everybody is going to have a different concept of God. But know that from my experience and hundreds of thousands of others, that God is love and we will see our loved ones when we return home.[00:57:00]And you know, I think loving ourselves and others is the most important thing we can do because when you truly love yourself, and I mean love. Unconditional love. All your mistakes, your messes, everything. When you understand that love does not have love is not only a verb and a noun and an emotion, but it's an energy.And when you're around people who have that love energy, you can just feel it, you know? I don't know if that's the way you felt when I was reading your the, the end of your book and your epilogue with the pastor that passed away that was real influential. Sorry, I forgot her name. Evangel Nelson.Yes. If she was like that for you, where she just lit up. You could see the light in her eyes, you could feel it, you know, she was, [00:58:00] and that to me is love. And that they accept you for just for your beingness. And that's what we all need to unwrap ourselves from all these layers and get to that part of us, the being that we were born to be, which is our soul, which is just love and light and beauty and grace, and all these beautiful things.De'Vannon: Let there be light, let there be light. Let there be so much light. Yeah. Nicole: And that's, we we're light workers. That's what you have a light above your head this whole time. And I'm just sitting there. It's like you have a little, little halo kind of, and we are, you know, we are, this is my vocation now. You know, I've had occupations, but my vocation is to help people to try to understand it's time to awaken, to stay, to get out of this unconscious, keep repeating generational things.Start understanding your relationship [00:59:00] with what you call, or whatever the concept of God is, and how does that work in your life, you know, instead of waiting for something terrible to happen and then you start thinking and delving into this. De'Vannon: That is so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so beautiful. And I thank you so much for sharing all that you have.So tell us any, like, last words that you have and And and then I'll go ahead and give everybody your website and everyth. Well, Nicole: first of all, I have to say I love your beard being purple because that purple is royalty and purple is spirituality. Okay? So it's a high vibration which you emanate so that, you know, hopefully our goal is to move our brave vibration upwards, you know?But you know, I guess my main message, you know, it was what Spirit said is not be afraid of death, because if you are, [01:00:00] you're not gonna truly live your life and. This world is so beautiful and I wrote this book because I wanna help other people with their fears about death and to support you through the loss of loved ones.And I hope my book will inspire you to live fully and freely with your heart and your hands wide open. You know? And that's, that was my intention. And it's on Amazon, it's on Barnes and Nobles. You can get it through independent books. It's only what I told somebody the other day, we have these little fairs that come through and one came through Newburn and they were selling those funnel cakes and they were $10.And I said, oh my God, my book is cheaper than the funnel cake. I was like, At 9 99, I was just like, all that work, 13 years to get this book outta me. And a funnel cake, which you eat in what? Five minutes? It was more than that. So it's coming out on Audible [01:01:00] probably in the next month. I just finished my last recording of that the rerecord yesterday.And people, that is not as easy as you think to read your own book. I don't know if you've done that yet with your book. Yeah, I have, but De'Vannon: it is hard. Oh yeah. It, it's because it's like you have to relive everything all over again. Yes. Every time you go through and you don't just read through, you may have to reread each chapter, each section many times to get it right.So you need therapy after you back and read your own book. Nicole: Yeah. And then you hear yourself telling your story, and that's like a, that's a wow. So it was really it was a good thing to go through, but it was a healing, it was another layer in the healing process. And I just want people to know that too, is that healing takes time.Get help if you're stuck. There's lots of resources out there. And to truly, truly come home to who you really are as a soul. [01:02:00]De'Vannon: Alanis Mariette said it like this, let's not equate death with stopping. Nicole: Oh gosh, no, it's, it's just, you're going on. It's like John Lennon said, you just get outta one car and go into the next.De'Vannon: Right, so, so her name is Nicole Kerr. The book is called You Are Deathless. I'll put a link to Amazon and the show notes. The website is nicole kerr.com. That will go in the show notes. She's on Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, and all of that will go in the showy notes. Is everything. Always does. Thank you so very much for sharing and shining your light upon us and with us today, Nicole and everyone.Just remember that everything is gonna be all right. Nicole: Thank you so much, Devon, and I really appreciate it. You've been a joy to talk to.De'Vannon: Thank you all so much for taking time to listen to the Sex Drugs in Jesus podcast. It really [01:03:00] means everything to me. Look, if you love the show, you can find more information and resources at Sex Drugs in jesus.com or wherever you listen to your podcast. Feel free to reach out to me directly at Davanon Sex Drugs and jesus.com and on Twitter and Facebook as well.My name is Davanon, and it's been wonderful being your host today. And just remember that everything is gonna be all right. 

Main Idea: This month, we've been following the Christian journey. We started out at the cross, understood the resurrection, unpacked the early church's response to their new found faith, and now today we're going to talk about what to do when the passion for that faith seems dull. It is so easy for us to lose passion for things, especially within our faith. We are excited initially and then become desensitized to what was once new to us. And when it feels like the passion is gone or faded, we begin to doubt the authenticity of what we experienced. In today's message, I'm going to talk about the come down moments of our faith and how to get through them in order to find your passion once again. Whether it's your faith, your marriage, your job, your health, or etc. you will be able to use what we talk about today to revitalize passion in whatever area of your life that you need it back. (Revelation 2:1-7) 1. Jaded & Stubborn [IT'S HARD TO MOVE FORWARD WITHOUT FULLY FORGIVING THE PAST] 2. Lost Sight [DON'T DOUBT THE AUTHENTICITY OF HOW YOU STARTED] 3. Innocently & Ignorantly Hopeful [PASSION IS FOUND IN SIMPLICITY] -- To learn more about Gravetop Church or to donate, visit https://www.gravetopchurch.com or follow us @gravetopchurch on social media.

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Ron tells a story about his mildly erotic experience with a stranger in a movie theater...... Guest: Author Savoy "The Ghost In Her"

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Have you noticed that since finding out that you weren't gonna be a mom, you felt as though your life is at a standstill. Is life just going on around you and you were sort of in this surf of life, so you might be moving forward, but not necessarily by your own projection? Do you feel like you were are moving forward on this wave in your career, but you didn't really have sort of a grounding on where you were and where you see yourself in the future. I work a lot with women that are successful, career driven women in the corporate world, just total bad asses and fertility happens and then you feel like you are stuck in your professional career with no direction. It's not a great place to be long term if you are somebody who is used to success, used to thriving, used to being somebody that always had forward movement in their life.    This is something that we commonly deal with in our community here. I thought today it would be really interesting to offer you some opportunities to see whether this is where you are in your career. So I was working with my, one of my students last week. She has had a successful career and where she's been, she's never really thought about where she wanted to go in her.   She thought about one day maybe becoming a mom and leaving work altogether. Like she just never thought she would be at a point where she was working this far into her or into her life, being in her career, because she thought she was going to, you know, be a stay-at-home mom. So now that she knows that's not going to happen, there's this feeling of pressure.   Is this what I want to do? What else do I want to be? Being somebody who's always identified with this position in your job. The type of women that I work with are historically very successful, career driven, active in the community, doers just. Your typical thriving female who, until infertility, until the fertility journey came about, never really felt like there was not a clear roadmap on where their life was going, that there was just always this forward movement.   And then infertility happens. Your fertility journey ends. You don't have a child, and a lot of the women in my community are not used to that stagnation that you feel. When you find out that life is just gonna be so different than you imagined it would. My student that I was working on never thought that at this point in her life she would be working.   So she never really thought about a career path beyond what she was doing. She had desires to maybe work part-time, enjoy having some dabbling in. Professional world, but really be a stay at home mom. So she never really thought much about what she wanted to do in her future because, you know, just assumed she was gonna be a mom.   So if you relate to that, and you're at this point now where you're done with your fertility journey, you know you're living. The future without children, and you really desire to create that plan for yourself, but it's just not clear to you. I'm gonna share with you some of the tools that we've been using and to help you sort of figure that out.   And first of all, recognizing what it is in your career that you like. What are the things you enjoy doing? What are the things that you're good at? What are some things that maybe you have been interested that other people do, but. Just never imagined yourself there, so you did not dig in deeper. So getting curious, what are you good at?   What are your strengths? Maybe creating a brand statement for yourself, which is a practice my students do. We work on this together, creating your brand statement. In order to create that brand statement, you have to get really clear. A, a very robust list of questions and thought work that we do to get to that point, to really be clear on who you are as this new version of you as, as this future that is just so your oyster.   What is it that you aspire to be or aspire to? And that might freak you out because that seems like a really big lift after coming off this infertility journey. But the greatest thing about it is that this can evolve. Just the practice of going through and challenging your mind. To get creative and to let the barriers down and to let the automatic know, I couldn't do that, or no, I might not be good at that.   Learning how to turn that off and get curious when you have those thoughts come up that I might not be good at that or. What if I don't excel? What if I'm not successful? All these things that might be coming up for you instead of shutting them down and just saying, Okay, I'm just gonna stay where I'm at in my warm, cozy, comfy place.   But if you take an opportunity to evaluate, why am I thinking that when that comes up, be like, What about this new trajectory? Do I feel like I wouldn't be good at? Is it maybe one thing that you might not be good at versus 10 things that you know you are good at, but you're letting this one potential doubt in your mind hold you back from going forward.   So what we work on is understanding what it is that you're thinking and then asking yourself, is that really true? That is some of the best work that we've been working on as far as creating a. Potential for where you want to go in your future, in your workplace, in a talent, and something that you aspire to try.   And it's been really magical work, so I hope that's of help to you. I know it can feel overwhelming. I know it could feel very daunting to start to even consider what your possibilities are, but when you work with someone like me, I will help you navigate what that roadmap looks like in your future and when you get this trajectory of starting to dream again, you will feel such a lightness and such a ability to truly breathe again and start to thrive again. I hope this was helpful. I also wanted to offer you the fact that I know the holidays are coming up. If you're like me, you are wondering how the heck we've already skipped Thanksgiving, and here we are with Christmas decorations everywhere we look, and I know what a triggering time the holidays can be.   You might be. Not looking forward to a holiday. Get together because you know, you've gotta walk into that family gathering and be asked again. When are you gonna have kids? Any baby news. You know? These questions that I know are so. Innocently asked, but really get to the core of the sadness and the emptiness and the loneliness that many of us feel around the holiday season.   So because of that, I have put together a guide to meaningful holidays. I would love to share it with you, and you might find great value in preparing yourself for some of the things that are giving you some anxiousness around the holidays. I'm also offering a free call on Saturday, November the 19th. If you're interested in joining that, we are gonna go through the guide together.   I'm gonna help you figure out how to fill it out so that you can best utilize it and really, Some time in there to do some one-on-one coaching. If there's something that's really been bothering you, some anxiousness or some dread that you're feeling around the holidays, bring it to the call. Let's talk about it.

Have you noticed that since finding out that you weren't gonna be a mom, you felt as though your life is at a standstill. Is life just going on around you and you were sort of in this surf of life, so you might be moving forward, but not necessarily by your own projection? Do you feel like you were are moving forward on this wave in your career, but you didn't really have sort of a grounding on where you were and where you see yourself in the future. I work a lot with women that are successful, career driven women in the corporate world, just total bad asses and fertility happens and then you feel like you are stuck in your professional career with no direction. It's not a great place to be long term if you are somebody who is used to success, used to thriving, used to being somebody that always had forward movement in their life.    This is something that we commonly deal with in our community here. I thought today it would be really interesting to offer you some opportunities to see whether this is where you are in your career. So I was working with my, one of my students last week. She has had a successful career and where she's been, she's never really thought about where she wanted to go in her.   She thought about one day maybe becoming a mom and leaving work altogether. Like she just never thought she would be at a point where she was working this far into her or into her life, being in her career, because she thought she was going to, you know, be a stay-at-home mom. So now that she knows that's not going to happen, there's this feeling of pressure.   Is this what I want to do? What else do I want to be? Being somebody who's always identified with this position in your job. The type of women that I work with are historically very successful, career driven, active in the community, doers just. Your typical thriving female who, until infertility, until the fertility journey came about, never really felt like there was not a clear roadmap on where their life was going, that there was just always this forward movement.   And then infertility happens. Your fertility journey ends. You don't have a child, and a lot of the women in my community are not used to that stagnation that you feel. When you find out that life is just gonna be so different than you imagined it would. My student that I was working on never thought that at this point in her life she would be working.   So she never really thought about a career path beyond what she was doing. She had desires to maybe work part-time, enjoy having some dabbling in. Professional world, but really be a stay at home mom. So she never really thought much about what she wanted to do in her future because, you know, just assumed she was gonna be a mom.   So if you relate to that, and you're at this point now where you're done with your fertility journey, you know you're living. The future without children, and you really desire to create that plan for yourself, but it's just not clear to you. I'm gonna share with you some of the tools that we've been using and to help you sort of figure that out.   And first of all, recognizing what it is in your career that you like. What are the things you enjoy doing? What are the things that you're good at? What are some things that maybe you have been interested that other people do, but. Just never imagined yourself there, so you did not dig in deeper. So getting curious, what are you good at?   What are your strengths? Maybe creating a brand statement for yourself, which is a practice my students do. We work on this together, creating your brand statement. In order to create that brand statement, you have to get really clear. A, a very robust list of questions and thought work that we do to get to that point, to really be clear on who you are as this new version of you as, as this future that is just so your oyster.   What is it that you aspire to be or aspire to? And that might freak you out because that seems like a really big lift after coming off this infertility journey. But the greatest thing about it is that this can evolve. Just the practice of going through and challenging your mind. To get creative and to let the barriers down and to let the automatic know, I couldn't do that, or no, I might not be good at that.   Learning how to turn that off and get curious when you have those thoughts come up that I might not be good at that or. What if I don't excel? What if I'm not successful? All these things that might be coming up for you instead of shutting them down and just saying, Okay, I'm just gonna stay where I'm at in my warm, cozy, comfy place.   But if you take an opportunity to evaluate, why am I thinking that when that comes up, be like, What about this new trajectory? Do I feel like I wouldn't be good at? Is it maybe one thing that you might not be good at versus 10 things that you know you are good at, but you're letting this one potential doubt in your mind hold you back from going forward.   So what we work on is understanding what it is that you're thinking and then asking yourself, is that really true? That is some of the best work that we've been working on as far as creating a. Potential for where you want to go in your future, in your workplace, in a talent, and something that you aspire to try.   And it's been really magical work, so I hope that's of help to you. I know it can feel overwhelming. I know it could feel very daunting to start to even consider what your possibilities are, but when you work with someone like me, I will help you navigate what that roadmap looks like in your future and when you get this trajectory of starting to dream again, you will feel such a lightness and such a ability to truly breathe again and start to thrive again. I hope this was helpful. I also wanted to offer you the fact that I know the holidays are coming up. If you're like me, you are wondering how the heck we've already skipped Thanksgiving, and here we are with Christmas decorations everywhere we look, and I know what a triggering time the holidays can be.   You might be. Not looking forward to a holiday. Get together because you know, you've gotta walk into that family gathering and be asked again. When are you gonna have kids? Any baby news. You know? These questions that I know are so. Innocently asked, but really get to the core of the sadness and the emptiness and the loneliness that many of us feel around the holiday season.   So because of that, I have put together a guide to meaningful holidays. I would love to share it with you, and you might find great value in preparing yourself for some of the things that are giving you some anxiousness around the holidays. I'm also offering a free call on Saturday, November the 19th. If you're interested in joining that, we are gonna go through the guide together.   I'm gonna help you figure out how to fill it out so that you can best utilize it and really, Some time in there to do some one-on-one coaching. If there's something that's really been bothering you, some anxiousness or some dread that you're feeling around the holidays, bring it to the call. Let's talk about it.

Woody's adventure with car repair and the elves in his garage. An amazing story that's making us happy about a special reunion when a woman became a deputy. Is Rhianna going to tour?

Innocently say something negative about the federal government on facebook? Question the 2020 outcome in messages to family members? We now know that's all it takes. The FBI is likely surveilling you. 

Innocently say something negative about the federal government on facebook? Question the 2020 outcome in messages to family members? We now know that's all it takes. The FBI is likely surveilling you. 

Ten years in a Zimbabwean prison for a crime that never happened. Innocent and totally stripped of his dignity. Rusty Labuschagne faced hardships most of us will never be able to imagine. In a heartbeat and totally unexpected, Rusty's life changed from being a successful self-made businessman, flying his own aircraft, owning expensive cars and boats to being framed and put behind bars - experiencing the most horrendous and devastating conditions in a high security prison cell with 78 others and millions of lice. His time in prison taught the humble Zimbabwean how priceless freedom is, especially that of the mind(!), how important it is to maintain a positive mindset (no matter the circumstances), how powerful it is to be grateful for even the smallest things and how liberating it is to truly forgive. These life lessons and more is what Rusty shares with us in this episode. How can someone forgive those that took ten years of his life? “Forgiveness is freedom”, Rusty explains to me and without forgiving he would not have made it through those incredibly tough ten years. The day he let go of the immense bitterness and truly forgave, Rusty felt a giant weight fall off his shoulders. Forgiving, he says, is something you do for yourself, not for others. Also, he emphasizes: not being in prison does not necessarily equal being free. He sees clearly that freedom is the ability to make a choice and act on it; to let go of what you cannot control and to be free from negativity. „We all carry a hero inside us“, Rusty says today. Even in the hardest of times in the Zimbabwean high security prison, he was convinced that there was a bigger reason behind all of it and tried to find hope in the smallest of things. Rusty's life today is filled with gratitude, love and true freedom. Due to his positive mindset, he was able to recover and heal the wounds from those terrible years in prison.He is married to his wonderful wife Sandra who is a huge gift and tremendous support.  Rusty works as a successful global keynote speaker and shares his inspiring story with audiences from all over the world. I first met Rusty at a conference in Singapore and can still remember the goosebumps I had for the entire duration of his captivating speech.  I am grateful to share with you this inspiring story of resilience, strength and hope. Thank you, Rusty, for sharing it with us in this episode and for reminding us of the value of forgiveness, freedom and gratitude.  Order now: Rusty's book "Beating Chains" Learn more about Rusty or book him as a speaker: https://beatingchains.com/    Do you want to learn more about Sonja Piontek? Book her as a motivational speaker, get inspired by her?  Website sonjapiontek.com Sonnenkind-Reisen www.sonnenkind.com.sg  LinkedIn linkedin.com/in/sonjapiontek/ Instagram instagram.com/sonjapiontek/ Facebook facebook.com/SonjaPiontekUltraCreativity Youtube hbit.ly/3Lk6dl3  Sonja's National Geographic Buch „SONNENGEFLÜSTER“ https://amzn.to/3sDXtjg

This week may be more unhinged than usual because Justin is out and we've brought in our producer, Richie, to loathe it up this week. Here's what we're covering: - Pete Davidson and Kim Kardashian broke up, so Kanye got petty (again). - Cracker Barrel is canceled for selling "woke sausage." - A Redditor's girlfriend is going to kinky clubs without him, and we have thoughts. - 2007 and 2015 were wild (and not just because John Edwards did something... whatever it is). Follow us on Instagram and Tiktok @theloathelist!

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Innocently many of us believe that our life circumstances are what make us feel good or bad, happy or sad, angry or peaceful. I used to believe that my happiness came from other people's love and appreciation for me, or when you make a lot of money, or when you reach your goal weight, are from being in a loving relationship. We grow up learning that happiness must come from within, but I never understood HOW to do that. Some things in life we perceive as GOOD and others we perceive as BAD. We live life, hoping, praying, and even begging for more "good" to come our way so that we can be happy. We fail to realize that what we classify as good and bad is all subjective. It's in our own minds. Everything in life starts out as NEUTRAL, but then our minds are what judge, label, and categorize things. It's our thoughts, beliefs, preferences, and opinions that separate them into the good and bad categories. When we clean up our minds, then is when we begin to take our power back. No longer are we at the affect of our circumstances, we are only at the effect of our beliefs about them. Finally I'm understanding what it means to find peace from within. It means working on our beliefs, not attempting to change what I can't control, but control what I CAN change... My BELIEFS. If you plan to join me tonight then be sure to print out this worksheet I put together. I'll explain on the call how to use it. http://www.wannabebalanced.com/.../Wannabe-Feel-Better...

Innocently many of us believe that our life circumstances are what make us feel good or bad, happy or sad, angry or peaceful. I used to believe that my happiness came from other people's love and appreciation for me, or when you make a lot of money, or when you reach your goal weight, are from being in a loving relationship. We grow up learning that happiness must come from within, but I never understood HOW to do that. Some things in life we perceive as GOOD and others we perceive as BAD. We live life, hoping, praying, and even begging for more "good" to come our way so that we can be happy. We fail to realize that what we classify as good and bad is all subjective. It's in our own minds. Everything in life starts out as NEUTRAL, but then our minds are what judge, label, and categorize things. It's our thoughts, beliefs, preferences, and opinions that separate them into the good and bad categories. When we clean up our minds, then is when we begin to take our power back. No longer are we at the affect of our circumstances, we are only at the effect of our beliefs about them. Finally I'm understanding what it means to find peace from within. It means working on our beliefs, not attempting to change what I can't control, but control what I CAN change... My BELIEFS. If you plan to join me tonight then be sure to print out this worksheet I put together. I'll explain on the call how to use it. http://www.wannabebalanced.com/.../Wannabe-Feel-Better...

1. Before the Sanhedrin-2. Before Herod-3. Before Pilate

In this Self-Coaching episode, Lauren and I want you to Imagine that you're on your patio trying to relax. You notice a cute little pigeon milling about, pecking and minding its own business. Innocently, you toss it a few crumbs from a leftover sandwich you'd been eating. The next day you go out to your patio and within minutes your little pigeon buddy reappears with a companion. Enthusiastically, you throw out a few more crumbs. By the end of the week, you're inundated with hundreds of pigeons leaving your once pristine patio a shamble of feathers, droppings, and a cacophony of cooing. You ask, "What should I do?” And to anyone witnessing your problem the answer is simple, "Stop feeding the pigeons!" If you allow reflexive, knee-jerk, insecure thinking to flock into your life with needless worry, fear, or negativity, then you're feeding the pigeons of insecurity. And if you insist on feeding your insecurity, the distasteful truth is that you will suffer. From now on, keep the image of the pigeons in mind every time you find yourself spinning with insecurity-driven thinking, then remind yourself to, "Stop feeding the pigeons!"

It is true that as and when we grow up, we diminish the creative light within us all. Once as children we were all so curious and fearlessly inquisitive about everything, but most of us developed a sheepish approach to numerous things as we grew up. Our creative and curious side brings forth such interesting aspects and colors to our lives that we never could fathom, so, let us not diminish this light and try to be more in touch with our inner child.

Do you ever find yourself rebelling against the thing you say you want? What that looks like for me is, I get out of my routine. Innocently at first and then fall on. For the first time in two months I missed my breath work. I didn't realize it until last night and actually, I'm not surprised. I've been slowly inching my self off the path and the “forgetting” my breathwork was just a symptom of something bigger. If you know someone that would benefit from here in this podcast, be sure to share it with them. Also follow us on your podcast platforms and we would love a rating and review on Apple iTunes, Apple podcast, or Spotify. You can find us at K Preston Moore Instagram @kprestonmoore Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/k.preston.moore Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/highcostofanonymitypodcast/?ref=share Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/kprestonmoore/ Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/65h0V990cXBZZ9Op20hYjA?si=NJTW7xS4STSKAOTY46HrFg Apple Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/high-cost-anonymity-podcast-exploring-cost-keeping/id1357105789

Innocently, I used to have a small, blue rabbit foot on a keychain with the keys to my car. No problem, right? You MIGHT be surprised with the BIBLE answer to that question. Tune in to this episode for details... SteveHemphill1@me.com Join the MOVEMENT: Take the Stake Challenge Active-Faith.org #StakeTheLand

Innocently cooking my food tonight, anticipating my full moon meditation, I stumbled across Adeles "One night only" special. I got all up in the relativity of it all and discuss it, and lifes similarities. The purpose, trying to find it, the journey itself. Warning: this episode is a lot of me simply thinking out loud, so there is definate rambling. Lol. Brace yourself... lot of Adele talk, lot of reflection. Please check out Adele "I drink wine" I may belt it out ... with wine in hand" post publishing this episode, just sayin ❤

Mark Whitwell discusses with Yoga Teacher Janet Marshall of California the process of becoming a Yogini and Transmitter of Yoga. Janet talks about how Yoga helped her to actually understand for herself what was being talked about in the sacred text of her religious culture. They discuss going beyond the restrictions of the usual life, and surviving getting lost in the sea of Yoga knowledge and coming back to the simplicity of the heart.Janet Marshall is a mother of three and Yoga Teacher in Southern California, and is deeply versed in Yoga philosophy and the Yoga therapy traditions that grew from Krishnamacharya and Desikachar's work. She is a full-time teacher of Yoga,  cares deeply for all her students and is a profound force of nurturing in her community. She co-founded the Heart of Yoga non-profit in the US back in the 2000s and has worked tirelessly to help make Yoga accessible to all. Thank you Janet. In this episode you will hear... 04:00 Discovering Yoga from the position of a ''faithful'' person. Conflict with the church. 16:00 Truth is not a point of view. 25:00 No longer being attracted to the promise of salvation. Spirit baptism. 40:00 Innocently born into a very restricted world. Leaving a marriage of 20 years. 55:00 The importance of repetition. ''Pain is healing.'' 60:05 Working with advanced aging people. Be who you are and teach what you know. Yoga therapy. Follow this podcast for new episodes here: Apple Podcasts | Google Podcasts | Spotify | RSS/XML If you feel moved to submit a question for a future episode, you can do so here: https://www.heartofyoga.com/podcast You can find more from the Heart of Yoga on Facebook, YouTube, and Instagram.  

Welcome back! In this episode, we tackle the differences between innocence and ignorance. In our head, this was pretty simple, but it sure did get complicated as soon as we started. Tune in to hear us delve into childhood, ignorance, empathy, all the good things.

Spike's freshly minted soul hangs in jeopardy as newbie sired vampires crop up with his dental fingerprints all over them. But is it regular evil or you know, Evil? The Buffy Boys party in the basement for S07E08 "Sleeper". Key Buffy Bits from this episode include:  The Monstrous Man Inside Me: Duality of Spikes Check out this Fit...of Pique! Recontextualising the domestic vampire I've Fallen and I Can't Get Up Because I'm the Undead - elder care attitudes in the supernatural community "Actually, Billy Idol stole his look from...never mind" If you enjoyed the episode you can subscribe to us on: http://buffyboys.libsyn.com/rss or by searching “Buffy Boys” in your favourite podcast app. Follow us and let us know what you think: Facebook https://www.facebook.com/BuffyBoys/ Twitter https://twitter.com/buffyboys/ Instagram https://www.instagram.com/buffy_boys/ Email at buffyboyscast@gmail.com And if you're feeling extra kind, leave us a review on your podcast app, it helps a lot! Our theme song is an acoustic cover of the Title Theme to Buffy The Vampire Slayer by Alex Heflin (originally by Nerf Herder). Soundcloud: http://www.soundcloud.com/alexheflin Yours in Slaying, The Buffy Boys

You cannot argue with a drunk person. I mean have you ever tried that. When I was a teacher, I quite often was the designated driver. That meant I was the sober one amongst many drunk people. Hysterical at points but very frustrating at others because have you ever tried to convince a drunk person of something they don't want to do or believe? It's nearly impossible. The thing is, when someone is upset, they are like that drunk person. When we are upset, we are caught up in thinking. That thinking looks real. Innocently we cannot think clearly. And if someone else is trying to make us change, we push back even more. Thought will pass on it's own if we give time and space. Obviously, if someone is a danger, then do what makes sense. But why not give it a try. Let things lie. Let the sober thoughts come in naturally. See what unfolds. If you would like to be calm in all your relationships, my coaching can help you to do that. Please get in touch for more calm and clarity in every aspect of your life.

#2740: Jun. 15, 2021: The figures on the board who innocently rush to their fate (this title from The Book of Tea by Tenshin Okakura) Today's pure primal piano music here. Happy if this music makes you feel peaceful.. : )　 Looking for absolute natural beauty every day for Piano Ten Thousand Leaves. Target number is 4536 and 2740(60.4%) achieved. Find my project.. : ) This piece may might have good 1/f fluctuation characteristic although I stopped investigating it each piece. Today's Youtube Video with piano score here. https://youtu.be/6dX8zOOmrKo chair house: Video introducing the refreshing effect of chair house music (sorry in Japanese only) https://youtu.be/zD3Br0Jsn2k ######## NEW 19th SELECTION ALBUM JUST RELEASED ######## Promotion Video of 19th SELECTION ALBUM and FULL MOVIE(20 pieces in 2 minutes) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pkij3romWOk NEW YOUTUBE FULL MOVIE OF 19th SELECTION ALBUM (20 pieces in 1 hour with piano score) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7V3n_6hgHp4 Full Piano Score: "April Venus", 19th Selection Album of Piano Ten Thousand Leaves https://ff48510b-4957-470e-9d8b-243cccf9c223.filesusr.com/ugd/324d6e_99911409a28b4f11b427e66b105457b4.pdf spotify https://open.spotify.com/album/0ot7dmuNyf2fvqseqnuGuq applemusic https://music.apple.com/jp/album/1567219631?mt=1&app=music&at=10l7qr LineMusic https://music.line.me/webapp/album/mb00000000021f4c28 amazonmusic https://www.amazon.co.jp/gp/product/B094RHK4T7/ref=as_li_tf_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=247&creative=1211&creativeASIN=B094RHK4T7&linkCode=as2&tag=tcjaz-22 AWA https://s.awa.fm/album/2c576a3016555541be25 全ての音楽配信サービスです https://linkco.re/rnxcfn7h?lang=ja ######## NEW 19th SELECTION ALBUM JUST RELEASED ########

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At-home remote workers are a standard way of life now. You may have all the technical security controls in place but your at-home employees could still violate your privacy policies by doing their job. This episode talks about the one innocent job-related process that could create breach level problems. Be aware, be safe. Primary Partner - WeHackPurple.com Become A Patron! Patreon Page *** Support the podcast with a cup of coffee *** - Ko-Fi Security In Five —————— Where you can find Security In Five —————— Security In Five Reddit Channel r/SecurityInFive Binary Blogger Website Security In Five Website Security In Five Podcast Page - Podcast RSS Twitter @securityinfive iTunes, YouTube, TuneIn, iHeartRadio,

Not much to say on this one. A bit of a ropey mix. It does, however, include one of my favourite audio illusions - a risset tone - also known as a rising tone. A modular producing a risset and a 909 could almost be the perfect track for me. Maybe with an 808 breakdown.

Ron James and Sir Tizzy, aka Catch the Fade, released their second EP, Black and Highly Favored, in 2019.  When it was still brand new (and people still sat down face to face), we sat down face to face to talk about each track, from the concepts to the execution.   Check out Sir Tizzy’s new solo EP, The MidKnight Hour! https://lnkfi.re/tmkh   Dig into Catch the Fade’s singles series from 2020! https://spoti.fi/2XCxysm

Patttaya diehards will look at this title and say BS and to be honest my explanation for being there is somewhat lame. My aim was to scuba dive around the islands of nearby Koh Khrok and Koh Larn. Not the best diving in the world, but decent enough to tempt me away from a 2-3 day layover in Bangkok. The diving never happened because of a sinus infection, likely from the international flight into BKK Airport. Yep, the old "sinus infection excuse" but I did have to go to the hospital to get checked out. Aside from that, I was able to venture out at night for a beer or two along Walking Street. My eyes nearly popped out of my head, when I encountered the wildest nightlife I have ever experienced. Hundreds of bars, cabarets of naughtiness, 24-hour nightclubs, live music, freelance ladies of the night, and even a Muay Thai boxing ring. You have to see it to believe it. Then you get sucked in to the electric atmosphere with the many tourists and ex-pats. What was once a quiet fishing village is now the craziest party town on the planet. Check it out on You Tube or Google, you'll see what I mean. I stayed 2 nights before I had to fly to somewhere a little saner and peaceful. If risque activities offend you, then don't go there. For me, not much on this planet surprises me any more these days. However, I can look back on this trip and smile a little. Pattaya is a city that ticks along like a well-oiled machine. Job opportunities and paying customers abound. Go there, I dare you.

"The path of karma is very intricate; therefore we should understand the distinctions between karma, akarma and vikarma. If we simply engage in Kṛṣṇa consciousness, everything becomes clear. Otherwise we will have to make distinctions between what we should do and what we should not do in order not to become entangled. In the ordinary course of life we unknowingly break some law and have to suffer the consequences. Similarly, the laws of nature are very strict and stringent, and they accept no excuse. It is a law of nature that fire burns, and even if a child touches it, he will be burned despite his ignorance and innocence. Thus we have to choose our course of action very carefully lest the stringent laws of nature react to bind us to suffering. It is therefore necessary to understand what work to do and what work to avoid. The word karma refers to prescribed duties. The word vikarma refers to activities which are against one's prescribed duties. And the word akarma refers to activities which have no reaction at all. In the execution of akarmic activities, there may appear to be some reactions, but in actuality there are not. When we work under the directions of Kṛṣṇa, this is actually the case - there are no reactions." | "On the Battlefield of Kurukṣetra, Arjuna engaged in fighting, and those on the side of Duryodhana also engaged in fighting. We must understand how it is that Arjuna is free from reaction whereas Duryodhana is not. Externally we can see that both parties are engaged in fighting, but we should understand that Arjuna is not bound by reactions because he is fighting under the order of Kṛṣṇa. Thus when we see someone working in Kṛṣṇa consciousness, we should understand that his work does not carry any reaction. One who can see such work and understand it is to be considered very intelligent (sa buddhimān). The technique is not so much in seeing what a person is doing but in understanding why he is doing it." | Link to get your own copy or read: www.biglink.to/rajavidya | Find us on social media: Facebook "Sravanam Diaries" | Instagram & Tumblr @sravanamdiaries | Email: sravanamteam@gmail.com

For twenty years of my life, I was sat in the wrong place looking for answers to my anxiety, stress and panic attacks. Innocently, because no one had ever told me this...

“There is mental health in all of you. You just don't know it.” – Sydney Banks   What if we are not flawed or broken at all? What if the nature of who we are is ok?  What if we are not our psychology?   There are ways of looking at how we see the world and how we see ourselves without having to change anything.  What if I told you that we are not our thoughts, feeling, and behaviors? What if I told you that the traditional way of looking at human psychology is not only backwards but wrong?   What if I told you that there is a fearless resilience in every one of you listening right now? That inner resilience and wellbeing is our natural default state. Pre-installed on every human being.  This new paradigm called the inside-out understanding (also known as the three principles) shows us that our anxieties, fears, and worry are all made up.   Innocently made up by a perfectly imperfect supercomputer called your brain.   Yet societal conditioning makes us feel there is something wrong with us when our thinking sometimes goes to the dark side of the force.      Tune in now to learn more on episode #1 of the Fearless Now.

In this episode Wisdom Entrepreneurs, hosted by David and Derrick, they discuss the innocence of our own thinking, and how showing up as ourselves is always enough to hear, and to feel the innocence in others.  Its an acceptance seeing how easy it is to Innocently get caught up. 

Omar Tate, creator of Honeysuckle, talks to Elle about his culinary journey -- from working in high end restaurants to producing pop-up dinner events that explore the narrative of the Black existence through food. Tate also shares his vision to build a food-based community center in Philadelphia.Visit Honeysuckle's website at honeysucklephl.com and you can donate at https://www.gofundme.com/f/honeysuckle-community-center.Follow @honeysuckle_projects on Instagram.Follow Omar @coltrane215 on Instagram or @johncoltrane215 on Twitter.For our first season of The Walk-In, we want to hear your feedback. Tell us what you love and how we can improve to earn a 20% off coupon in the ATK store: https://www.surveygizmo.com/s3/5679398/The-Walk-In-Season-1

The weekly #HumansFirst open and inclusive calls can all be found here -> https://humansfirst.club/events Find the Aequip team at https://www.aequip.co.uk/ “Innocently enough I was looking to the outside to make me feel happy” – 09.15 “I was trying to create what I imagined were the right conditions for happiness, and that is made up, it doesn’t work like that, it didn’t come true” “We think it is the career that will make us happy, but it is not” – 10.15 “The way the world is set up is as a very outside-in world” – 11.30 “We come into the world as pure consciousness if you like, without any of the conditioning, in a state of being and that never goes away. All of us have got the capacity to see through that illusion, to fall out of that conditioning” – 12.30 “Life is only ever happening now, there is nothing else but the present moment, it's never happening anywhere else”– 14.40 “If we slow down to the present moment, we can see that we are ok we are alive, we are breathing. It’s when our thinking takes us out of that present moment that we feel the stress, because we start putting our feelings onto something else” – 16.15 “Seeing that the felt experience of life that we are having in any moment is coming from thought, that is why it is so liberating, that is why it is so powerful” – 38.10 “The nerves are not really telling you about what is going to happen in 5 minutes, the nerves are telling you have nervous thinking right now” – 38.10 Bio: Dr Giles P Croft is a psychology graduate and former NHS surgeon who stepped aside from clinical practice for a decade to explore a number of career paths, including health informatics, cycling journalism, public speaking and high street retail with his wife. He is now back in the healing profession, tackling the root cause of chronic mental stress and its many harmful effects by helping clients reconnect to their natural, inbuilt state of health. He lives and works in the Brecon Beacons National Park with his wife and 6 year old daughter. Giles's youTube channel can be found here -> https://www.youtube.com/c/DrGilesPCroft/videos Mike can be found via the following means: Email - mike@mjvacanti.com LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/mjvacanti/ Twitter - https://twitter.com/MJVacanti Web - https://humansfirst.club/ You can contact me via the following means: Email – garry@garryturner.life Vimeo - https://vimeo.com/414211396 LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/garryinterpersonalcatalyst/ Twitter - https://twitter.com/GarryIPCatalyst --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/valuevulnerability/message

We all continue to feel a little out of sorts when it comes to the changes in the world. We continue to hope that we will be able to get back to a little bit of normalcy, although we all know that "normal" has now been redefined. In that same perspective, there have been and will continue to be consistent changes in the way in which we work and operate our businesses, which means our teams are out there trying to navigate a storm we all hoped would have calmed by now. To that end, they are looking to you, their leader, to guide them. Today, I want you to realize that you need to be the anchor, get buy-in from your team to help them feel some sense of security and normalcy at work. You see, your team has always looked to you and will continue to look to you for guidance and security. It's part of what happens when you build trust within a team. When things are a bit hectic or the world has shifted under them, they look to you. You are their guiding force, the answer in the confusion. Now, no doubt you have been providing that guidance and supporting them along the way. But as you continue to face business challenges, sometimes it may seem easier to simply make decisions, inform your team about the changes, and move on. Innocently, you think that you making a decision for them will alleviate some stress. Quite the contrary. In a world that is ever evolving, you being the anchor means they can count on you to continue to ask for their input, listen to it, consider it, and come up with a strategy that is a melting pot of ideas and suggestions. When you take that away from them, you have now just become one more change in their world. You have now become inconsistent. Beyond that, because they are used to providing input and aligning with you on an idea before you proceed, you sharing the "answer" with them without giving them a chance to think through it, digest it, get comfortable with it, is yet another change they weren't prepared for. So you have hit them with two changes in one event, one change with your leadership style the other with the actual business change itself. They need you to be the anchor they are using to having when weathering the storm of business changes. Don't assume or think that you making decisions without their buy-in or input is what they want. They want you to be the collaborative leader you have always been, that they can count on. And they want to continue to have a voice in the way the team operates. Your challenge today is to think about if you are being the anchor. Are you getting buy-in from your team or are you giving direction without collaboration? Be Legendary!

GALATIANS 3:19 ("by" and "Ordained") Properly Explained. In this first Series, Apst Faith Oniya properly repositions the words "by" and "ordained" used in Galatians 3:19 as against the popularly misconstrued meaning Innocently aimed at to mean God almighty gave the law through angels. Apst Faith Oniya touches on so many issues as he will on so many more others in series 2. Stay blessed. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/faith-oniya/message

A New York Times piece teaches us that when Indian kids pick on African-American kids, and pee on them, it's actually Whiteness evolving. (note: "Whiteness" = "racism"). By the way, Trump, Barr and the rest of those crooks are GOING TO JAIL. Whatever the subject, we're not afraid to talk about it.  

                                               Suffering Innocently-1 Peter 3:13-4:6   In 1 Peter 2:19-20, Peter draws a distinction between suffering innocently and suffering deservedly because of sin. It finds favor with God if a man bears up under sorrows when suffering unjustly, but there is no credit from God when it is from wrongdoing. Peter then went on to […]

Green Series (ages 4 and up)copyright © 2018 by P. Haines-Ainsworth & Terence Alaric Levitt published by Winking Kat BooksBalfour and The Magic Hat is an original musical for ages 3 and up. Balfour wants to see the world and go on a journey. His Grandmother makes a special hat for him to wear. It's special because he can twist it, button it, or pull it into all kinds of different shapes. On his journey, Balfour travels to a small island. The people on the island live in three different groups on three different parts of the island. The people in each group are afraid to talk anyone from another group. They know someone belongs to a different group because each group wear a special kind of hat. Innocently, Balfour changes his magic hat to fit the weather and surroundings on the different parts of the island he visits. As he travels across the island the shape of his magic hat coincidentally matches the hats belonging to the different groups. Because his hat looks like theirs, the island people aren't afraid to talk with him and he makes friends with people from each group. As he talks with his new friends on the island, Balfour finds they all have a lot in common in spite of the strange ideas they have about the people who don't belong to their group. He finally gets his new friends to meet and talk with each other. The meeting is not going well, when suddenly something happens to Balfour's magic hat that makes the islanders come together to help Balfour. Book and lyrics by P. Haines-Ainsworth with music by Terence Alaric Levitt. Cast: Jennifer Makenas, Adrian Cerrato, Tristan Carruthers, Danny Miller, Patricia Haines-Ainsworth. For fun details about this recording and the cast, visit: www.winkingkatbooks.com.Let us know if you enjoyed this musical podcast. If you have any comments or drawings of the characters you'd like to share, post them on Facebook or Twitter with the hashtag#winkingkattales. We'd love to see them.

Unrequested contacts are frowned upon in Japan.  Direct mail goes straight in the bin. Emails from unknowns are deleted. Incoming phone calls are neglected and never called back.  This is grossly unfair you might be thinking.  You might also be thinking that cold calling is a dead duck in Japan. Well that is not the case.  Cold calling always has a relatively low hit rate but there are occasions where you have no entry point for a prospect you wish to connect with and the cold call becomes a necessity.  There are techniques which can cut through and can secure new clients, but you have to know what you are doing.  Do you know how and can you add cold calling to your arsenal for breaking through the walls that Japan regularly springs up? Welcome back to this weekly edition every Tuesday of "THE Cutting Edge Japan Business Show" I am your host Dr. Greg Story, President of Dale Carnegie Training Japan and best selling author of Japan Sales Mastery. We are bringing the show to you from our High Performance Center in Akasaka in Minato-ku, the business center of Tokyo. Why the Cutting Edge?  In this show, we are looking at the critical areas for success in business in Japan.  We want to help advance everyone's thinking so that we be at the forefront, the Cutting Edge, of how to flourish here in this market. Before we get into this week's topic, here is what caught my attention lately. According to a joint study by Nomura Research Institute and the University of Oxford, AI and robots will replace the human workforce in greater numbers and forty nine percent of Japanese workers will lose their jobs by twenty thirty. AI will likely carry out a majority of work being done by professionals such as medical diagnoses and writing prescriptions on behalf of doctors or composing courtroom scenarios for lawyers.  In other news, the Tokyo Game show this year devoted a much larger space to competitive video gaming and competitions were held on all four days of the show.  This year there were two stages set up for esports competitions.  Fans can see how the players fare in group environments and this will raise the popularity of the games, according to Capcoms's Shigenori Araki, head of esports. According to Hideki Okamura the Chairman of the Computer Entertainment Suppliers Association, “the market lags behind that of other countries.   If you compare our market to the market outside of Japan, you can see a big gap. That why our organization was created”. This is episode number fifty four  and we are talking about  Can't Cold Call Japan. Oh Yeah, Really? Soredewa ikimasho, so let's get going. The pressure for increasing results is not constant. It is just keeps surging “higher, faster, further”.  The sales team do work hard.  They are polite, conscientious, quite customer focused.  Great!  So why can't we grow sales fast enough to meet our targets.  What is the problem? There are some simple reasons.  Current customer numbers are too few.  Current customer volumes are not growing.  Current customer share of wallet is not changing.  Sales will often blame marketing for not generating new leads for sales to go after.  They will be surprisingly terrific advocates for all the reasons the customer puts on the table about not being able to buy at all, buy now, or buy more.  Blaming everyone else for insufficient sales volumes is a well developed skill here in Japan (and everywhere else salespeople walk the earth) .  Helpfully, you pipe up with a shiny idea: “what about going after new customers?”  At this point marketing's lack of lead generation gets recycled as the excuse.  Innocently, you mention the “C” word!  Shock, horror and pity drains the blood from the Sales Director's face.  “Don't you know Story san, this is Japan, you can't do cold calling here”.  Case closed. Having been through this scenario a number of times here, and having also seen plenty of cold calling getting done, “skeptical” doesn't even come close to describing my reaction to this useful intervention to explain the finer points of Japan to me. Walking into a new organization with a crystal clear recollection of salespeople in the previous company, phones taped to their wrists so they get through their cold calls, always concentrates the mind in these circumstances. What is usually meant is not that you can't physically cold call companies here, but just the effectiveness is so low, it a major waste of time.  This is too true, when the cold calling is done poorly.  Curiously, the same “experts” who tell you that you can't cold call, accept the tobikomitechnique of just dropping in unexpectedly. Why suddenly turning up at a couple of companies and dropping off some business cards and literature in a day is thought to be more effective than sitting at desk and calling 100 prospects a day is a quaint curiosity. This always reminds me of the same arguments you hear about you can't get referrals in Japan.  “Do you know anybody who might be interested in our widget?” must be one of the most criminal statements to ever escape from a salesperson's lips.  The problem is when the way you ask is rubbish, don't be surprised with a pathetic result.  Design is critical to increasing the success rate for cold calling and referrals. Amazingly, hardly any sales people ever plan their conversations.  They just sashay from one failure to another wondering, why this approach doesn't work.     Find out more when we come back from the break Welcome backCold calling works much better when we are very clear about the outcome we can expect to achieve.  There are products and services you can sell over the phone, however there are very, very, very few.  The main aim should be securing a face-to-face appointment.  That means you are only selling a date and time over the phone – nothing more. Before you even get to that point, you need to speaking to the person who has the diary spot you want a piece of.  There are armies of hapless young Japanese women occupying the bottom rungs of the machine, whose only joy in life is getting rid of salespeople trying to see the decision maker. If you are persistent then they have this great technique of passing you over to the next most senior male in their section.  Usually some spotty faced, no authority, nobody completely afraid of their own shadow, and seemingly able to go to retirement, without ever having had to make a decision in their entire career.  This is where you need a blockbuster credibility statement that summarises who you are, why you are calling and why speaking to their boss will change the world.  Design is everything.  By the way, you only have to design the one credibility statement, because you use the same one on their boss. You might refer to some recent research you would like to share which will be a big help to their business now and into the future.  You should mention that you can't share it over the phone because you need to show it to them, to head off the “Well tell me now!” or “Email it to me!” comebacks. You might mention that you recently came across some ideas that seem to be working extremely well for others in their industry.  If possible, mention actual numbers that you can later provide as concrete evidence when you meet.  You need to refer to the cost of not speaking with you – the opportunity cost – of not investing 30 minutes with you.  Fear off loss is a strong driver of action in some, often more so than greed for gain.  Only ever ask for 30 minutes – less sounds flakey and more sounds burdensome.  Asking for “18 minutes” or “23 minutes” etc., sounds like you are a total conman, and warning lights and bells will go off in their head. If you can't convince them face to face in 30 minutes to hear more, stop wasting everyone's time and get off to the next prospect.  Often you go into a short meeting because the prospect is super busy and has absolutely no time, can hardly even spare 15 minutes and you find yourself discussing your solutions for the next 90 minutes! THE Cutting Edge Japan Business Show is here to help you succeed in Japan.  Subscribe on YouTube, share it with your family, friends and colleagues, become a regular. Thank you for watching this episode and remember to hit the subscribe button. Our website details are on screen now, dalecarnegie.com, it is awesome value, so check it out. In episode fifty five  we are talking about Lead To Outperform the Competition. Find out more about that next week. So Yoroshiku Onegai Itashimasu please join me for the next episode of the Cutting Edge Japan Business Show We are here to help you and we have only one direction in mind for you and your business and that is UP!!!

Welcome back to this weekly edition every Monday of "THE Cutting Edge Japan Business Show" I am your host Dr. Greg Story, President of Dale Carnegie Training Japan Well, where is this Cutting Edge?  For all of us, the quality of our people is the cutting edge for success in Japan. In this show I will: Stimulate your thinking about ramping up your business Bring you insights from the best training organisation on the planet Provide you with the highest quality Japan information Motivate you to motivate yourself and motivate those around you Help you to shoot the lights out at results time I don't want to just help you succeed.  I want you to dominate!   This is episode number 5and we are talking about  You Can't Cold Call In Japan. Really?    Soredewa ikimasho, so let's get going.     The pressure for increasing results is not constant. It is just keeps surging “higher, faster, further”. The Japanese sales team do work hard. They are polite, conscientious, quite customer focused.  Great! So why can't we grow sales fast enough to meet our targets.  What is the problem?   There are some simple reasons.  The sales pipeline is too thin with current customer numbers being too few.  Current customer sales volumes are not growing. Current customer share of wallet is not changing.  Sales will often blame marketing for not generating new leads for sales to go after. They will be surprisingly terrific advocates for all the reasons the customer puts on the table about not being able to buy at all, buy now, or buy more.  Blaming everyone else for insufficient sales volumes is a well developed skill here in Japan and everywhere else salespeople walk the earth .    Helpfully, you pipe up with a shiny idea: “what about going after new customers?”  At this point marketing's lack of lead generation gets recycled as the excuse.  Innocently, you mention the “C” word!  Shock, horror and pity drains the blood from the Sales Director's face.  “Don't you know Story san, this is Japan, you can't do cold calling here”.  Case closed.   Having been through this scenario a number of times here, and having also seen plenty of cold calling getting done, “skeptical” doesn't even come close to describing my reaction to this useful intervention to explain the finer points of Japan to me.  Walking into a new organization with a crystal clear recollection of salespeople in the previous company, phones taped to their wrists so they get through their cold calls, always concentrates the mind in these circumstances.   What is usually meant is not that you can't physically cold call companies here, but just the effectiveness is so low, it a major waste of time.  This is too true, when the cold calling is done poorly.    Curiously, the same “experts” who tell you that you can't cold call, accept the tobikomitechnique of just dropping in unexpectedly. Why suddenly turning up at a couple of companies and dropping off some business cards and literature in a day is thought to be more effective than sitting at desk and calling 100 prospects a day is a quaint curiosity.   This always reminds me of the same arguments you hear about you can't get referrals in Japan.  “Do you know anybody who might be interested in our widget?” must be one of the most criminal statements to ever escape from a salesperson's lips.  The problem is when the way you ask is rubbish, don't be surprised with a pathetic result.  Design is critical to increasing the success rate for cold calling and referrals. Amazingly, hardly any sales people ever plan their conversations.  They just sashay from one failure to another wondering, why this approach doesn't work.   Cold calling works much better when we are very clear about the outcome we can expect to achieve. There are products and services you can sell over the phone, however they are very, very, very few.  The main aim should be securing a face-to-face appointment.  That means you are only selling a date and time over the phone – nothing more.   Before you even get to that point, you need to speaking to the person who has the diary spot you want a piece of.  There are armies of hapless young Japanese women occupying the bottom rungs of the machine, whose only joy in life is getting rid of salespeople trying to see the decision maker. If you are persistent then they have this great technique of passing you over to the next most senior male in their section.  Usually some spotty faced, no authority, nobody completely afraid of their own shadow, and seemingly able to go to retirement, without ever having had to make a decision in their entire career.    This is where you need a blockbuster credibility statement that summarises who you are, why you are calling and why speaking to their boss will change the world.  Design is everything.  By the way, you only have to design the one credibility statement, because you use the same one on their boss.   You might refer to some recent research you would like to share which will be a big help to their business now and into the future.  You should mention that you can't share it over the phone because you need to show it to them, to head off the “Well tell me now!” or “Email it to me!” comebacks.  You might mention that you recently came across some ideas that seem to be working extremely well for others in their industry.  If possible, mention actual numbers that you can later provide as concrete evidence when you meet.  You need to refer to the cost of not speaking with you – the opportunity cost – of not investing 30 minutes with you.  Fear of loss is a strong driver of action in some, often more so than greed for gain.    Only ever ask for 30 minutes – less sounds flakey and more sounds burdensome.  Asking for “18 minutes” or “23 minutes” etc., sounds like you are a total conman, and warning lights and bells will go off in their head. If you can't convince them face to face in 30 minutes to hear more, stop wasting everyone's time and get off to the next prospect.  Often you go into a short meeting because the prospect is super busy and has absolutely no time, can hardly even spare 15 minutes and you find yourself discussing your solutions for the next 90 minutes! We need to combine the targeting of the companies, with the discipline of the cold calling activity and the design of what we are going to say.  Get these working and you will be able to make contact with Japanese companies you currently have no relationship with, but who you know will benefit from your solution.  If you believe strongly enough in your mission to help clients, then you can be totally brave when making these cold calls.  The key is to ignore the naysayers and start.   Keep pushing hard with us here at THE Cutting Edge Japan Business Show.  Subscribe on YouTube, share it with your family, friends and colleagues, become a regular. Thank you for watching and remember to hit the subscribe button. Our website details are on screen now, it's awesome value, so check it out.     In episode 6we are talking about Middle Management Madness.  Are they mad or not?  Find out next week. So Yoroshiku Onegai Itashimasu please join me for the next episode of the Cutting Edge Japan Business Show Until then, create seriously outrageous levels of massive success. Dale Carnegie Training Japan has only one direction in mind for you and that is UP!!!

Author Richard Kearney says in his book On Stories “Telling stories is as basic to human beings as eating. More so, in fact, for while food makes us live, stories are what make our lives worth living.” Isak Dinesen says, “To be a person is to have a story to tell. —" Author  David Denborough, Ph.D., writes  “Who we are and what we do are influenced by the stories that we tell ourselves…There are many different events in our lives, but only some of them get formed into the storylines of our identities. Whatever storyline we have about our lives makes a difference in who we are and how we act.”[1] Through a story, we can pretend to be somebody else or go somewhere else, without taking on the risks or expense ourselves. We can even do the impossible, like travel through time or explore the universe. Kids play pretend from a very young age, and through various kinds of stories, we never really stop. The stories we love to hear, read, and watch and the ones we tell ourselves, shape our lives. These stories shape how we interact with others, and even how they interact with us. They shape how we feel about ourselves and what we think we’re capable of. When I was very young, I experienced stories that started with once upon a time and ended with happily ever after. A look in my rearview mirror reminds me of occasions when mother and daddy made up stories with specific messages intended to modify something undesirable in my behavior. When I learned to read and could choose my own books, as an only child, I loved stories where the central character not only had exciting adventures but also had “special” friends with whom to share them. Innocently wrapped in my early story choices were hints of my current love of adventure and mystery and sharing. Stories shape the decisions we make, everything from the partners we pick to the activities we participate in. If we spin a story that we’re not good enough, we just might pick a partner who doesn’t treat us very well. If we spin a story that we’re stupid, we might not submit our resume for the job we’ve always wanted because well, we won’t get it, anyway. Join Denise Fayne as she takes us through a few of the intergenerational stories she grew up with, grew into, and ran from that have helped make her who she is today. We had fun around the Frankly Speaking virtual, global, table. [1] https://psychcentral.com/blog/the-power-of-our-personal-stories/

In the October class of The Little School of Big Change, an innocent enough question was posted on our forum, meant for me to address in our upcoming group call. It said: "Can you say a bit about how feelings are safe?" On that particular November day, this super typical and relatable question blew my mind. How is it that we have come to question the safety in a feeling?! What is a feeling, anyway? What are feelings made of and from where do they come? What do they show us...how do they guide us through life (See EP17 for a lot on this one!)? What are the implications of fearing our feelings? How do we find peace when we think feelings aren't safe? These questions form the basis of this Feelings February special feature on Changeable. Because feeling safe and 'at home' in our own inner-created experience puts us in a place where change is happening left and right. We're thriving. And fearing our experience...even questioning the safety of it....puts us on guard. Resisting. Straight into our heads. Innocently in the way of change. I hope this Feelings February series helps you feel even just a little bit more 'at home' in your own experience.

F. Khristopher Blue of www.misterblue.net spits approximately 40 poems in this podcast. - Featured Poems: - A Plan, Be Real, Breathless, Daydreaming, Dear You, Ghetto Love, Innocently, Lost in Ecstasy, Orgasms 1&2, Black Woman, Building Collapses (original by Cami), Can I Know You (Quiet Storm Remix), Cry, Delicious, Don't Know What to Say, Emotional Vent, I Want To, I'm In Love, Insomniac Love, Kissing YOur Lips, Life Without Love, Life's Ink, Mrs. Poetry, Pieces, Precious (original by Cami), Replaced His Wrong, She Is, Slow Burn, Tell Me a Secret, The Apology, This Thang Called Love, Love After Death, Sweet Chocolate, The Beginning, The Blue Spotlight, Vampire Seduction, What Am I Doing, and Winter Orgasms 1, 2, & 3. - #ghettopoetry #poet #poem #urban #love #relationships #sexy #pain #breakups #lust #singlelife Produced by Kaiser Sosé Written by F Khristopher Blue except where noted --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/morethantherapy/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/morethantherapy/support

Laura Storm knew from a very young age that her passion was in the realm of environmental sustainability. Her entire career has been focused on creating transformation to more sustainable societies. She’s rubbed shoulders with people like Richard Branson and Arnold Schwarzenegger and worked on projects and organisations such as the Copenhagen Climate Council, the World Business Summit on Climate Change, Project Green Light and Sustainia. Laura says her life was incredibly busy, yet this was her passion work, she loved it and she wanted to see change happen in this world. So she worked, a lot. In 2015 something happened that would change the trajectory of Laura’s life. Innocently playing with her daughter on her bed one afternoon, Laura fell and hit her head. This blow to the head caused a minor traumatic brain injury. Unable to do anything – no TV, radio, reading, computer, even the sound of her daughter running around was unbearable – Laura was forced into a dark, deep silence. And this dark, deep silence wouldn’t go on for just a few weeks or months, it went on for over a year. Forced to do nothing but sit in silence, walk in nature and meditate, Laura began one of the biggest untangling journeys of her life. This journey came with resistance, confusion, pain and loneliness but it also gifted Laura a deep connection with herself and a new vision of what a sustainable world should really look like. Strap yourself in, this is one incredible story.   RESOURCES + Free Podcast Quick Starter Pack – wanting to start your own podcast? Download your free pack to get started today. + Join the Untangled Community Facebook group – a movement of women supporting each other to follow the inner pull, move away from the mundane and embark on a search for something more.   ABOUT LAURA STORM Laura Storm is an experienced thought-leader and international keynote speaker within the field of sustainability. She has dedicated her entire professional career to making global companies and organizations aware of the benefits of improved sustainability practice, helping global sustainable solutions succeed, and making the sustainability agenda more attractive. She is driven by a strong passion for improving the state of our societies and consciousness and helping in the push for a sustainable transition. Laura is a World Economic Forum Young Global Leader and in 2013 Laura was awarded the Global Greenbiz’ “Worldchanger” Award. She has also been selected to join the World Economic Forum’s Expert Network as an expert in sustainable development and climate change and serves as an Advisory Board member on the WEF ‘Shaping the Future of Urban Development and Services Initiative’. Among projects and organizations that Laura has headed and helped initiate are the Copenhagen Climate Council, the World Business Summit on Climate Change, Project Green Light, and Sustainia. All with a strong commitment to combat climate change and transform our societies towards sustainability. Laura’s results are a testament to how her work is making a real difference for millions all over the world. Under Laura’s leadership, Sustainia became a global mega-brand within sustainability with an outreach to more than 170 million people, a database of 4000 sustainable solutions, multiple state-of-the art publications and thought leadership, and a unique partner network. Global organizations are still, to this day, pointing towards Sustainia as a guiding star for communicating sustainability. Business schools and universities have implemented Sustainia’s publications in their curriculums and the Sustainia100 solutions are used all over the world to exemplify sustainable business models. Laura has a Master in Political Communication and Leadership from Copenhagen Business School and has previously studied at Westminster Business School in London. Laura lives in Copenhagen with her partner Ulrik and daughter Roxie. Connect with Laura at: + Website: laura-storm.com + Instagram: @storm_laura + Facebook: /laurastorm111   SPONSOR UNTANGLED If my podcasts have helped you, inspired you or spoken to you, I would be so grateful for your generous contribution. As a one-woman show, in which I do everything myself, your sponsorship – from as little as $1 a month – will help to cover the costs of producing and hosting Untangled plus, eventually with enough support, I hope to release additional episodes and create in-person live untangling events and workshops. This is my dream. To make a contribution, head to the Patreon page here.   LOVE AND FEEDBACK If you love this podcast, I would be so grateful if you would take a couple of moments, head over to iTunes and leave a rating and review + subscribe to the podcast while you’re there.   WAYS TO SUBSCRIBE TO UNTANGLED You can subscribe to Untangled so you never miss an episode. + Click here to subscribe on iTunes + Click here to subscribe on Stitcher + Click here to subscribe on SoundCloud

You Can't Cold Call in Japan. Really?     The pressure for increasing results is not constant. It is just keeps surging “higher, faster, further”. We in the sales team do work hard. We are polite, conscientious, quite customer focused. Great! So why can't we grow sales fast enough to meet our targets. What is the problem?   There are some simple reasons. Current customer numbers are too few. Current customer volumes are not growing. Current customer share of wallet is not changing. As sales we will often blame marketing for not generating new leads for our sales team to go after. We can be surprisingly terrific advocates for all the reasons the customer puts on the table about not being able to buy at all, buy now, or buy more. Blaming everyone else for insufficient sales volumes is a well developed skill here in Japan (and everywhere else salespeople walk the earth) .   Helpfully, your boss pipes up with a shiny idea: “what about going after new customers?” At this point marketing's lack of lead generation gets recycled as our excuse. Innocently, your boss mention the “C” word! Shock, horror and pity drains the blood from the Sales Director's face. “Don't you know boss, this is Japan, you can't do cold calling here”. Case closed.   Having been through this scenario a number of times here as the boss and having also seen plenty of cold calling getting done, “skeptical” doesn't even come close to describing my reaction to this useful intervention to explain the finer points of Japan to me. Walking into a new organization with a crystal clear recollection of salespeople in the previous company, phones taped to their wrists so they get through their cold calls, always concentrates the mind in these circumstances.   What is usually meant is not that you can't physically cold call companies here, but just the effectiveness is so low, it a major waste of time. This is too true, when the cold calling is done poorly.   Curiously, the same “experts” who tell you that you can't cold call by phone, accept the tobikomi eigyo technique of just dropping in unexpectedly. Why suddenly turning up at a couple of companies and dropping off some business cards and literature in a day is thought to be more effective than sitting at desk and calling 100 prospects a day is a quaint curiosity.   This always reminds me of the same arguments you hear about you can't get referrals in Japan. “Do you know anybody who might be interested in our widget?” must be one of the most criminal statements to ever escape from a salesperson's lips. The problem is when the way you ask is rubbish, don't be surprised with a pathetic result. Design is critical to increasing the success rate for cold calling and referrals. Amazingly, hardly any sales people ever plan their conversations. They just sashay from one failure to another wondering, why this approach doesn't work.   Cold calling works much better when we are very clear about the outcome we can expect to achieve. There are products and services you can sell over the phone, however these are very, very, very few. The main aim should be securing a face-to-face appointment. That means you are only selling a date and time over the phone – nothing more.   Before you even get to that point, you need to be able to speak to the person who has the diary spot you want a piece of. There are armies of hapless young Japanese women occupying the bottom rungs of the machine, whose only joy in life is getting rid of salespeople like us trying to see the decision maker. If you are persistent then they have this great technique of passing you over to the next most senior male in their section. Usually some spotty faced, no authority nobody completely afraid of their own shadow, and seemingly able to go to retirement, without ever having had to make a decision in their entire career.   This is where you need a blockbuster credibility statement that summarises who you are, why you are calling and why speaking to their boss will change the world. Design is everything. By the way, you only have to design the one credibility statement, because you use the same one on their boss when you eventually get through to them.   You might refer to some recent research you would like to share which will be a big help to their business now and into the future. You should mention that you can't share it over the phone because you need to show it to them, to head off the “Well tell me now!” or “Email it to me!” comebacks.   This phone conversation might sound like this:   “Thank you for your time on the phone, I know you are super busy. We have just received the results of our global survey into the buying perspectives of your buyers. It was a global comparison that included Japan and the results are quite striking, especially for what are the key motivators for making purchasing decisions in Japan.   It also investigated where the buyers believe the industry is moving and this insight is very valuable to make sure we are always keeping in lockstep with the buyers, given business conditions constantly change. I can take you through the results, would this week suit or is next week better?”.   Or you might mention that you recently came across some ideas that seem to be working extremely well for others in their industry. If possible, mention actual numbers that you can later provide as concrete evidence when you meet. You need to refer to the cost of not speaking with you – the opportunity cost – of not investing 30 minutes with you. Fear of loss is a strong driver of action in some, often more so than greed for gain.   For example,   “Thank you for you time today, especially when you are so very busy. In our work, we are speaking with a wide variety of companies in many businesses. As a result we are constantly picking up industry insights and perspectives, which are not widely known or shared. I came across some information recently on key emerging trends, which have the potential to really make a difference in your industry.   The three companies I met have adopted some new approaches which have grown their collective market share by a factor of three times in the last six months. I can see why this is working so well for them and I thought this type of insight might also be of assistance for your business. The early movers are clearly going to take the lions share of the market as the industry changes. On the other hand, it looks like those late to the changes needed to be made will suffer. Is this week open or shall we meet next week?”   Only ever ask for 30 minutes – less sounds flakey and more sounds burdensome. Asking for “18 minutes” or “23 minutes” etc., sounds like you are a total conman, and warning lights and bells will go off in their head. If you can't convince them face to face in 30 minutes to hear more, stop wasting everyone's time and get off the phone and on to the next prospect. Often you go in expecting a short meeting because the prospect is super busy and has absolutely no time. They tell you they can hardly even spare 15 minutes and yet you find yourself discussing your solutions for the next 90 minutes!   The reason is simple – you are bringing value to their company to help them succeed. If we always have in our mind that “inside the client's success is wrapped my own success” then we will be able to build trust and credibility. What we say and how we say it will be congruent with putting the client's success ahead of our own.     Engaged employees are self-motivated. The self-motivated are inspired. Inspired staff grow your business but are you inspiring them? We teach leaders and organisations how to inspire their people. Want to know how we do that? Contact me at greg.story@dalecarnegie.com   If you enjoy these articles, then head over to www.japan.dalecarnegie.com and check out our "Free Stuff" offerings - whitepapers, guidebooks, training videos, podcasts, blogs. Take a look at our Japanese and English seminars, workshops, course information and schedules.     About The Author Dr. Greg Story: President, Dale Carnegie Training Japan In the course of his career Dr. Greg Story has moved from the academic world, to consulting, investments, trade representation, international diplomacy, retail banking and people development. Growing up in Brisbane, Australia he never imagined he would have a Ph.D. in Japanese decision-making and become a 30 year veteran of Japan.   A committed lifelong learner, through his published articles in the American, British and European Chamber journals, his videos and podcasts “THE Leadership Japan Series”, THE Sales Japan Series and THE Presentations Japan Series, he is a thought leader in the four critical areas for business people: leadership, communication, sales and presentations. Dr. Story is a popular keynote speaker, executive coach and trainer.   Since 1971, he has been a disciple of traditional Shitoryu Karate and is currently a 6th Dan. Bunbu Ryodo (文武両道-both pen & sword) is his mantra and he applies martial art philosophies and strategies to business.    

Subject Cinema presents Front Row Five And Ten #06 -  September 29 2016 COMMUNICATE WITH US! We want to hear from YOU! Email - frontrow@pnrnetworks.com Voicemail - TOLL FREE - call 888-269-2443 Speakpipe - https://www.speakpipe.com/SubjectCINEMA THIS WEEK: IT'S HERE! IT'S HERE! Subject:CINEMA's brand new spinoff! Welcome to Front Row Five And Ten! Better late than never, eh? Worry no more, we're back ! This week - it's The Top 10 Innocently (or not) Filthy Hit Songs!  We'll have a Spotify playlist of them up this weekend (or whatever is available - I know at least one song will NOT be on the playlist, and possibly more). Due to the nature of the songs included on the list, Parental Advisory - some songs deal with mature subjects, even if we all know kids know about 'em too... Got a list idea or two for Kim and TC? Email them, and if we use your list idea, you get credit on the show!   Please Subscribe To SUBJECT:Cinema (and Front Row Five And Ten, too)! iTunes | Google Play | Stitcher | TuneIn | Roku | RSS SOCIAL MEDIA Facebook Twitter YouTube Pinterest Tumblr PNRNetworks Shows Subject:CINEMA Platinum Roses’ Garden (seasonal) Cavebabble Three Minute Weekend Front Row Five And Ten Tuesday Digidex PNRNetworks sites eCinemaOne eCinemaBoston Indie Film Spotlight The Kirkham Report Planet BiblioMusica Our Lives As A Soundtrack

his week's Deadpod features a beast of a second set.. but what else can you expect from a show from 1972. This one features some great interplay between Lesh and Garcia throughout. Innocently enough the set starts out with a fat Big River followed by a standard Friend of the Devil and Me & My Uncle, things start getting interesting on the Bird Song.. here we find quite an interesting jam after the first verse as Garcia begins to take the music to some very nice places.. personally I enjoyed the ending jam quite a bit. Truckin' follows, always a great vehicle for exploration, and the band takes off following the verses. A short drum segment then leads Phil to bring out what is a quite good Other One, and in fact  this goes into a classic He's Gone and then *back* into the Other One.. the only such combination I'm aware of. This one had some excellent jamming including what is often referred to as the  'Tiger' jam.  I love the transition into He's Gone.. and back into the Other One for that matter! But wait there's more :) .. a hot Greatest Story,.. Comes A Time mmmmm and then a far out Not Fade Away->Goin' Down the Road Feelin' Bad->Not Fade Away who needs an encore after that set list!!      Fox Theatre, St. Louis, MO (10/19/72)   set 2 Big River Friend of the Devil Me and My Uncle Bird Song Truckin'-> drums-> The Other One-> He's Gone-> The Other One Greatest Story Ever Told Comes A Time Not Fade Away-> Goin' Down the Road Feeling Bad-> Not Fade Away   You can listen to this week's Deadpod here:  http://traffic.libsyn.com/deadshow/deadpod090514.mp3   Thanks for listening, and for your support of the Deadpod!     

Brad Anderson speaks on Isaiah 50.

Brad Anderson speaks on Isaiah 50.