Laws of Abundance

Our current circumstances are the result of the fruits of our choices.   Yes, the news may say this about the President and his administration doing that, and everyone has opinions. But what are you doing with your life?   Are you making choices to better yourself? A student called me the other day, upset and angry at the world, spouting, "There needs to be more light!"  And I said, "Then you need to become THAT light."  I told them that being angry and negative is just adding more anger and negativity to the world.  They heard me and applied for the Ritual Master path in the Modern Mystery School. They then chose to work on themselves to bring more light and higher vibrations to this world. We need more light, but it can only start with first bringing this light to the darkness of our hearts and daily lives.   Are you making choices for yourself to better yourself? Turn off the TV and the radio, get off social media, and sit with YOU for a second.  What do you want?  What brings you joy? What unburdens your heart? Do you want to make your home, neighborhood, and family more peaceful? Do you want to be less stressed out? Do you want more abundance? Do you want purpose? Or do you want to enjoy tea in the morning while listening to the birds without racing your mind? Do you want to find your proper, indestructible, happy place?  We all have a choice. Even if it is a situation in your life where you feel the odds are against you and all directions appear to be rivers of poo. YOU still have a choice.  The Choice can be to continue and sit in misery or we can choose how to face adversity. And we can also decide how we face the possibility of JOY within our actions.  I once lived a life where I constantly chose to limit my joy. Because of my belief system, it had to be hard to produce results (as in non-enjoyable).  Now, hard work is important, but not at the expense of your health and family and living a joyful life.  We also cannot sit back and wait for things to knock on our door and for others to create happiness and abundance for us. We must take personal responsibility and action toward our goals.  But that doesn't mean choosing the path with the most painful obstacles or the path you have deemed "responsible" is the best.   I once chose a seemingly "responsible" path to become an attorney. I didn't choose this path because I was excited about the work.  I chose it because it was good, honest work that I knew could be well paid for, and I had the necessary skills. I knew I would be good at it if I could achieve it. So, in a way, I didn't choose to be a lawyer - I chose a path of achievement. Thus, when I completed my law license in Minnesota at 23, I looked around and said, "Is this all there is?".  I didn't like being a lawyer.  But it was a hard-to-achieve and honorable profession, so I dove in head first, working myself to almost a full head of grey hair and chronic fatigue by age 27.  I was well paid in a successful profession and ultimately miserable, but to the world, I was "successful."  Inside, I was full of anxiety and despair. I began drinking every single day to manage the deep-seated anxiety and dissatisfaction from the weight of other people's problems.  So, I chose to run away from it.  I left Minnesota and ran to Seattle, Washington.  I thought life on the West Coast would be different, that lawyers there would be different, that everything would be different.  But wherever you go, THERE YOU ARE.  I was still me, and instead of choosing my joy, I kept choosing the path of what the world told me success looked like. I needed a change and began searching for a new career.  It wasn't surprising when I found myself taking the job as a project manager. Yes, it was a new career, but it was still wholly based on achievement, and I was ready to put on my work boots and fully (get things done) again! And I was good at it. I got the same sense of accomplishment and superficial pride because I was doing lots of work - but it was other people's work.  Not my work. I was drinking less, but still too much. I was at least meditating with my Buddhist practice regularly. I achieved a state of OK, of just getting by, of occupying myself with the mundane. But I was still choosing to suppress my joy because I was ignoring my motivations for living.  I was on the path of what I SHOULD do out of fear and scarcity and programming - and honestly, a complete unwillingness to face my negative ego that kept me a codependent functional alcoholic pretending that this is what life should be.  Then, I found something that opened my eyes so wide that I couldn't continue to ignore my power to choose joy.  I found access to my source of power, my will, my courage, my higher self.  I found the ability to articulate what I enjoyed and what I wanted to create for myself. It was there all along, but I had buried it deep and ignored it for so long that the sound of my desire, intuition, and clarity was foreign, hidden, and masked to myself. My negative ego was louder - the voice said, "That's stupid. That's a waste of time. That is mumbo jumbo superstitious nonsense."  But then the voices began to fade once I took the risk and CHOSE to try the tools offered to me on the Path of Initiation within the Lineage of King Salomon as taught to me by my guide in the Modern Mystery School International.  I am so fortunate to have had a good friend who chose to keep inviting me to try this path for years. Five-plus years, to be exact. First, we were roommates, and then we were neighbors. She kept inviting me to do these weird things, and this class was called Empower Thyself.  And I thought, "It costs money, and it's two days, and it's silly spiritual bullshit that isn't going to help me with anything."  But actually, it was exactly what I needed to do to break out of my programming.  What is the definition of insanity?  To keep doing the same thing the same way and to expect different results. That is what I was doing, making me tired and miserable.   I am grateful to my friend who chose to stick with me and keep inviting me to this path because it took me a while to choose it.  But when I took the leap and received a life activation and attended Empower Thyself, I learned daily practices that could help me see clearer, dampen all the shoulds, and hear my true self when I said, "I want and desire to take this action, for the sake of my joy." I received an initiation that increased my willpower, so I had more strength to start making healthy choices like meditation over happy hour and complaint sessions with friends and colleagues.  Choices like yoga and working out to move my energy rather than eating a crescent to push it deep down within.  I started making choices like travel and taking trips to write about my experiences and the food I encountered for the pure joy of it.  I spent my money on myself instead of my codependent relationships (and trying to make other people happy). And I started making more money. I saw a way to use my skills as an attorney to help people the way I enjoyed. I started introducing people to the tools of the mystery school lineage and offering Life Activations, which positively impacted me and those who chose to receive the energy healing modality I learned to perform. My life started to take on meaning. I was no longer getting by and surviving.   I gained resilience, and my cup overflowed with joy—so much joy that I could share it with others.   Choice. We all have a choice.  Free will is the fundamental principle of our existence as humans.  We choose our reaction to the world.  We choose our actions.  We decide how we spend our time and energy creating and who we are around to experience that creation with.   I acknowledge that we can find ourselves sometimes in challenging situations. Still, with some exceptions (of people enslaved and/or human trafficked or actual victims of violent crime) in every situation, we have a choice.  However, most of us today believe we are victims of our circumstances rather than take personal responsibility for them.   If you don't even know where to start, I can help with that! Reach out, and let's clear the muck and activate your life, then onto the path of progression to figure it out for yourself. It is a choice for you to love yourself and make your world, starting with YOU—only better.    

“Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either your sails or your rudder be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. “  For reason, ruling alone, is a force confing, and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction.   Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing;and let it direct your passion with reason, that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection, and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.” - Kahlil Gibran The Universe was like, "Nope - you don't get what you want." And I was like, "What the fuck?!"   Last year at this time, I hit a shocking and painful  wall in my life.  I had leaned in hard to my spiritual training to reach a certification that  I truly desired, and  had  spent a massive  amount of time, energy and money in the process of trying to complete..  I was attempting to put down roots in Florida, but still standing in Seattle, and traveling frequently to Michigan and Toronto.    The year before,  December of 2022 I had officially moved to St. Augustine, Florida,I I had found a nice guy I liked spending time with. And,  over most of 2023, this “nice guy” and I moved towards becoming serious, By Fall, we agreed to be with each other in a committed monogamous relationship.  I, however, was still deep in the throes of my training, which meant spending much of my time flying between Seattle and Toronto.. .  Unfortunately, despite the grueling hours, long nights and money spent, I failed my final exam and did not receive my certification. As I returned to Florida, there was not a part of me that was not exhausted. I was processing failure and grieving what I thought was meant to be mine.  - I was ready to step back and redirect my attention. I was finally ready to settle deep into my beautiful beachside hometown in Florida, and pivot my desires into the arms of this relationship that had been placed on the backburner for too long.  Or so I thought -It wasn't long after, I found out my nice guy was also seeing someone else and wasn't so nice after all.  The days after, I went into shock..  All I wanted to do was go home.  and cozy up to my boyfriend. And the Universe responded with an abrupt and harsh NO.  - Again, what the fuck?!    Not to mention, this wasn't the first time I had been cheated on. “How could this happen to me again?  This pattern? This betrayal? What is wrong with me?” I began to think…but then I chose something different.  I resisted the temptation of fully drowning myself in self pity and victimhood, - Instead I called in help. I reached out to some very wise and trustworthy friends, and asked for a reality check.     One of those friends  told me about a story of a woman who had died recently of something entirely preventable.  The woman had been   so focused on other people: pleasing them, helping them, doing for them, busying herself with all of their needs first,  - she did not take care of herself.  She ignored her basic needs and neglected her body as it began to tell her something was wrong..  AND IT KILLED HER. . . The preacher at her funeral said words that chilled me deep into my bones.  “Get YOUR house in order.  This woman is dead because of something entirely preventable.  She was taking care of all of you, but forgot to first take care of herself. She chose to not first get her house in order before providing assistance to others, and paid the ultimate price. Yes, we should seek to help others, but we cannot pour from an empty cup.”     They were words my very weary mind, body and soul needed to hear. My house was not even close to being in order and I was exhausted from all the travel and fruitless endeavors.  My car had been stolen, my arthritis was angry, my house had ants, my dog missed me, my boyfriend left me, and my businesses was suffering.  I had failed to ground myself into this budding new home,because I was so busy running all over the country  pursuing something that actually  wasn't my dream. I began to really ask myself, “What is it that I actually want?” And the answers came. I I wanted a nice cozy, simple life with a man who enjoyed spending time with me.  I wanted to be healthy and available to be of service to others with my light work and my law practice.  I wanted to be figuring out my joy and passions again. I  wanted to bask in the sunlight and sit on a beach.  Was I doing any of this? Nope.  And I was in deep despair and grieving so many things.  My house was not in order.  I made a vow to myself and placed these newfound prayers and intentions into my daily meditation..  I finally admitted a truth I had been hiding and distracting myself from - I wanted a partner. I wanted a home.  I wanted to find my husband.  My person.  My mate. Someone who I could truly co-create with and share my life with.,  I was going to have to prioritize cultivating a sense of home. No more standing on the fence between two or three vastly different area codes.   I began  the application process for the Florida bar exam and I started dating again with the intention of finding my husband.  I declared my boundaries and got clear on what I wanted and didn't want. And everyday I worked towards clarifying these desires, boundaries and intentions.  I took a hard, honest look at my life and the choices I was making that kept leading to the same patterns and outcomes. I realized I was chasing goals, certifications, and achievements that lacked real meaning or passion for me. I was stuck in "achievement mode" — going through the motions for the sake of accomplishment alone, not fulfillment. In my relationships, I was settling. I had set myself up for disappointment by choosing partners who reflected the same unhealthy patterns back to me. These patterns weren't just happening to me — I was actively choosing them. First, I desire a true life partnership — a husband with whom I can build a meaningful, fulfilling life — and I will settle for nothing less. Second, achievement for achievement's sake is no longer my priority. My goal is to serve humanity while also living a life that brings me joy and balance. This means putting down roots in Florida, traveling less for work and more for pleasure, and focusing on work that lights me up — empowering others through teaching, lightwork, and authorship, rather than leaning heavily on consulting or lawyering. Fast forward to the present day.  It is December 2024 and we are on the dawn of the New Year -  just in time to set new intentions, I spent the past weekend in a class called Self-Leadership.  The class was focused on how, through awareness of ourselves and our emotions -  we can learn how to start detaching from the obstacles that we create. How we can start being more integrous with ourselves and take the actions we want, toward healthy productive desires that progress us to a better version of ourselves, and accomplishing what we want in life.  How to stop the victim mindset and self pity, and as a result of being able to detach from the “story” or the “negative emotion” or the perceived “thing that is stopping me,” we find freedom.  As I was listening to the content over the two days I had an epiphany about just how sneaky our negative ego truly is.  The content was all things I had heard before.  In fact, I had heard it in several different places, Hermetic classes, other seminars (albeit not with the spiritual lens).  But it wasn't until this moment that it finally fully integrated into my body and I was really able to feel and understand it's profound truth. This revelation came one year after declaring to myself and the Universe that it was my time to put my house in order. .  And in this gorgeous present day moment,I take a long and very comforting sip of tea as I ponder on the teachings of the leadership course.  I curl up on the couch inside my beautiful 2700 sq. ft home in St. Augustine, Florida. My partner, my soul mate, and a man I could someday call my husband sits down on the couch with me and places his arm around me. This is not just my house, but our house. Over the past year, we have built a home together. We begin to discuss the trickiness of the negative ego and relish in our shared desire for self improvement.    I tell him about how I have recently been struggling with time management and realizing the roles the negative ego is playing in this.  “My time has become messy for two reasons.  1.  My own lack of boundaries. And 2. My own attitude and belief about a lack of time,” I say as he listens intently.  He agrees, and adds “It is the sneaky negative ego that says time is not there. It's the sneaky negative ego that says you don't have enough, or that you are not good enough.” I recognize that same negative ego that had me running myself ragged for other people's goals a year ago, has me doing it again just under a different disguise with work. We are our biggest obstacle.  Always.  My body lights up as I absolutely adore having a partner to share my life and epiphanies with. This was just a dream one year ago. But it was a dream that was my (and no one else's) true heart's desire and the Universe generously and abundantly gave to me.  Today, I am filled with joy and gratitude as I don't just have a house, but a home. No more chasing three different cities or dead-end relationships. I sit in the center of love and comfort, surrounded by my parents, friends, and this amazing life partner, who I adore and who adores me. A man for the first time in my life, I fully trust.  I reflect on my original intention - Is my home in order? In many ways yes. It has been an incredible year and I have come so far, but there are things that I would like to improve upon. As I look ahead, I realize I now want to deepen this understanding and continue my work in getting my home in order. The concept is still new and I am always a work in progress.  We are our biggest roadblock to all of the things - taking care of our needs and our wants.  Living in joy is a process that requires awareness, discernment, commitment and consistency and spot checking, and reference points to see where we are and where we are going.  And sometimes, recalibrating our internal GPS, when it gets off track.  On the dawn of this New Year, I am recalibrating and giving myself the gift of direction, acknowledgment of my passions and setting new boundaries with reason and light.  As you look upon your own New Year intentions, don't be afraid to revisit old goals through new eyes. There is a time for everything and maybe you failed in the past because you were not ready or maybe you failed in the past because the desire was not yours. The only thing that is constant in life is change and you may be surprised how an older and wiser version of you may bring a new perspective to an old intention.  And be careful of that tricky negative ego! Remember, if you need some help along the way - whether legally or spiritually - I can help with that! Contact me at LatterellLaw.com and lets get you set on the highest path forward for 2025!  

I personally love Thanksgiving - if you've ever read my blog, Paprika Angel you will see my love of food and travel but also the time and energy I have spent preparing this meal for friends and loved ones and sometimes strangers for years.  With minor exception I pull together 10 or more people to feast extravagantly every year, even if my funds are short.  I always have found a way because I love to prepare and feed and make offerings at this time of year from a place of love.  At one of my in person legal educational events last year, my door prize included a Turkey Day kit and the who won it said.  “Oh, I don't celebrate Thanksgiving.” and was offended by my gift.  I stopped in my tracks, not to apologize, but for my naivety and surprise - as some still believe and or are wholly ignorant of what Thanksgiving as a National Holiday is about.  So we are going to go down a little gobbler day history less here to reclaim any misconceptions of Thanksgiving back into the light.  There were no docile aboriginals showing up at some saintly puritan pilgrims' feet offering them maize and turkeys. Our mythological buckled hat pilgrims straight off the Mayflower likely did not sit down at any table anywhere, let alone with the natives of the region we now call New England.   There is however a 1st hand account in a letter form from around that time of the first English settlements of Prospectors (not religious pilgrims but gold hunters seeking riches in the new lands) that a “harvest festival” of sorts occurred over the course of weeks involving the hunting of wild game (deer, wild turkeys, bear) and the sharing of cranberries, gourds and tubers by the local native friendlies.  Likely, the “settlers” were starving to death on their own with no knowledge of what was edible in the inhospitable places they chose to set up camp, and having no supplies from England left over, the aboriginals may have felt sorry for some of them and shown them what to do.  Or for the sake of trading for weapons to gain strength over another nation, they brought the prospectors food.    The original table is a myth taught to school children.  Just as the belief that the original settlors came in the name of religious freedom and that Columbus discovered America.  The actual first settlements in what is now the United States America were all about gold and riches.  The actual first settlement in the United States in St. Augustine - and that was under the guise of saving souls by the Catholic church but it really was about the protection of Spanish gold from South America.  But if there was truly to be a first North American Thanksgiving it would be the priests and Spanish military landing at what is now called St. Augustine and meeting The Timucuans, a truly kind and docile native people of Northeastern Florida, who took immediately to the prayers and symbols of the Catholic priests, and all of them celebrated together the mass and feast of St. Mary at El Nombre Dias (there is still in a cross in the ground today where this happened).  They all prayed together, Timucuan, Spanish sailors and soldiers, Catholic priests - and they offered thanks and praise to god and the great mother, and they shared in a feast of shellfish provided to them by the friendly natives.  But as England and Spain were rivals in the prospecting of North America for gold and riches, this story of a true first Thanksgiving (coming together in gratitude and prayer to the universal force that loves and protects us) is not in the common mythology of the United States.  In fact it is buried in the annuls of Florida history as Florida did not become a state released from Spain until just before the US Civil War.  So, let's move forward in time a bit to when we have a thriving New England after the Revolutionary war when we are an independent nation open to those seeking freedom of religion, opportunity to farm, and asylum from persecution. It was during these times that we have huge influxes of Puritans who had Thanksgiving as a time of prayer.  Entire days devoted only to giving thanks to God for everything in creation.  For a long time this day of prayer and observance was the equivalent of our modern day Christmas celebrations because in puritanical christian practice the giving of gifts and worshiping saints like the Catholics and Lutherans was looked down upon. Puritans were very austere and labeled any festivals as negative, wasteful, and involving satanic invitations.  So instead they prayed and gave thanks and this holy time generally occurred around the beginning of November - the early parts of winter and the late stages of Autumn when it was important to count your blessings and prepare for the meager months ahead by working hard to fill your stores.  Pigs and Poultry would be slaughtered and salted and prepped for winter storage.  So there would be a time of feasting as things that couldn't be stored had to be used up to prevent waste.  It was out of necessity and practicality in a pre-electricity society.   People today can barely imagine going without the internet for a couple of hours let alone not having running water and electricity.  Something we take for granted with the evolution of humanity and technology, is how fragile we are without the  technology tools we have built.   This time of year it was necessary to feast so we did not waste.  The last hurrah before the lean times when people died of exposure and diseases of malnutrition and lack of sanitation. But they still paused to give thanks and pray and embody gratitude.  In Viking society even before our young country of the United States this concept of gratitude, prayer and nourishment was built into the bedrock of the culture (as Vikings were farmers and life was not easy).  You see it in the Rune stones - Fehu translates to cattle which is the rune of abundance and mobile property. Wunjo translates to winning and joy - and it is the rune of gratitude i.e. having/having enough.  And finally Algiz which translates to Elk Sedge or stage is a run of protection, boundaries and prayer because the man who prays and acknowledges what he has is protected by the Gods.   Alright, back to the US and our Thanksgiving story.  I'm writing this on the eve of the 2024 U.S. Presidential election so I think it is poignant in this time of massive emotional divisiveness  to explain  when and how Thanksgiving, the National holiday of gratitude, unity, and celebration of shared blessings came to be. Civil War.  Can you even imagine if war was outside your backdoor?  Cities burning, young men across the entire country dead and maimed by the millions.  Families lost their homes, their means of making any income, there was no usable farmland, just fields of blood.  People are starving and grieving.  Any issue we are facing today, pales in comparison to the aftermath of the United States civil war.  And it was then that the Federal Government and Abraham Lincoln declared the need for a Great Healing.  A coming together to give thanks for what we had been given by God and together as families and a hurting nation.  Gratitude is the foundation upon which the United States was rebuilt upon.   Gratitude is the strong foundation  that allows us to build in spite of the  greatest atrocities and destruction..  This is what saved Holocaust survivors.  And Thanksgiving as a holiday is the core of our nation's gratitude practice and abundance mindset.  It was initiated as a National holiday to create healing and to mend the divide between neighbors, so we could all come together as Americans again.  Not as Northerners nor Southerns, not based in color or creed, or economies, not separated by ideologies , but together, as Americans - united in the spirit of acknowledging blessings  and breaking bread.  Every thought is acted upon.  By you or someone else.  This is a Hermetic principle and a truth of the universe.  How many people today have said death to Trump!  Or Kill Kamala!  Or some version of hate directed at those who hold differing views?   Where are we going with this?  Hate begets Hate and is acted upon.  We can see this in our Nations history.  I bring this up not because I hold any political viewpoint but because I am on the side of humanity, love, unity and reason for us to come together. Let us come together to solve our challenges. Let us come together and hear differing perspectives. Let us find nourishing common ground and stop  playing the blame game.   How do we come together? With the greatest healers of all time - prayer and gratitude.  Gratitude and prayer.  Whatever that looks like to you.  Whatever God, Gods or forces of universality you choose to worship.  Look at your fellow person, your family friends, neighbors, city dwellers, statesman, countrymen and country women.  And give gratitude for this country  of opportunity of freedom and abundance we live in.  War is not at our back door.  Our daughters can go to school.  We have running water and electricity and almost everyone can have a cell phone and access to the Internet.  YES there are problems but we have the technology, the infrastructure, and the resources to fix them!  There is no lack.  Lack is a fiction built by ideologies that come from hurt,shadow and negative ego.  As within so without.  If we are victims internally, we are victims externally.  If we choose abundance and healing internally we will create healing and abundance for ourselves and others externally.   So. this is why Thanksgiving is such a special day and such an opportunity for us all.  It is a day in our collective consciousness dedicated to the GREAT HEALING energy of gratitude.  The power of gratitude is phenomenal. An action of gratitude has a rippling effect on the collective. . Like thoughts attract like thoughts.  By us all coming together in gratitude we can create an enormous  healing force of magnifying love.  We can collectively create a shift in the consciousness to healing—and not just others but ourselves!.   Overcome the divide created by elections and propaganda  language that is made to trigger our most egocentric emotions.  We can be better than the propaganda counsels. We can unite in love.  We can give thanks together in the bounty we have. We can propel humanity  forward by choosing to raise everyone up.  We can forgive the past hurts and grow as a result.  We can truly be a land of opportunity.  We just have to acknowledge in rich and beautiful gratitude everything we already have, and everything gratitude will allow us to create together.   In the true spirit of this misunderstood holiday, I wish you all— including those with differing politics, ideologies, geographies and beliefs— Happy Thanksgiving!    

Forgiveness - the big F word. It sounds so simple but is the most difficult. Why is it so important to forgive? And how do we actually forgive?  To forgive is to release the hold a hurt or injury has on your physical and metaphysical self.  The release cuts the cord to the negative energy that is binding you to an old self and way of being.  If you can  let go of the attachment to the pain and lower frequency emotion, you will allow  space in your heart to heal. And by healing from the heart you increase your capacity to love yourself and others. You raise your frequency to a higher vibrational state and attract more positive things and people to yourself.  This is why forgiveness isn't for the person you forgive. It is FOR YOU.     Forgiving ourselves and others is absolutely necessary for us to be able to grow, shift and evolve.  And evolution/evolving is essential to living your highest life. If we trap ourselves in a box and refuse to change and grow, we lose access to so much abundance. .   Our energy is instead occupied and used to hold on to the past.  And then we get physically or mentally sick. We become  sick and tired and then we get angry because we are sick and tired of being sick and tired and then we start to blame everything outside ourselves for the illness taking over our lives. When the perpetrator of all of it is the person in the mirror.    Our refusal to evolve. Our fear of change.  Our attachments to the status quo. Our inability to forgive ourselves for our mistakes are all chains. If we  choose forgiveness we can liberate ourselves. .  Flush it down the proverbial toilet and free up all that energy to actually live our life. And living life is worth more than the need to hold on to the hurt.   But how? That is the big question.   As this is not an act we can think ourselves into. Overthinking exacerbates the challenge, it roots the pattern of regret and resentment, anger or feeling wronged, and  triggering thoughts that  “something is wrong with me,I'm broken, and unlovable” Thoughts create our reality.  As within so without. So an intercessor of sorts is needed - our will, our heart that is connected to source - and our surrender to just that.   Sweet surrender!   By enacting the will to release it to  God/Jesus/source - (whatever you name your universal power) and ask it to carry this hurt  away from you.   Surrender and activate the  strength of your positive ego and the collective consciousness of the masters of light behind you to make it happen. We can call in Gods and Goddesses of forgiveness to help us, like Quan Yin, Jesus Christ, Holy Mother Mary, Buddha.   So how do you forgive? Invite help from your source, activate the light from within you and your divine masters, surrender, radically accept that you cannot change the past but only the future, and then release! A year ago my brand new car was stolen. I meditated with Buddha and Jesus to reach the place of nonattachment. To forgive the thieves who took my car, as well as, some irreplaceable items near to my heart. I prayed for forgiveness for the  thieves. “I forgive you,” I would pray. And then I would  say to myself, I forgive youfor leaving all the things I left in the car that disappeared with it. In the end it was stuff, but much of it was irreplaceable tools from my healing practice.  This took  focus, but in the end, it was easier to forgive than to accept the injury INTO my life. I held gratitude for the car and renters insurance to compensate me for what was lost and moved on.  I let it go, and it gave myself new   space and energy to focus on. I focused on what was going right in my life and forgave what wasn't.    The  example of losing material stuff is an easy one.    Emotional forgiveness is much harder.  A knife into the heart from someone you trust is one of the hardest wounds to heal and forgive.  But it is also possible and when you reach that place you will stop the pattern from moving forward in your life. I speak from a place of great experience. I have been devastatingly betrayed at least 5 timesby past romantic partners The first time it happened I thought I had healed and moved on but I hadn't  and it stunted my growth from age 22 to 45 years old.  I played it safe (or so I thought) during those 23 years of life. I built walls so high around myself that I never thought I would be hurt again  I cautiously entered relationships with men who didn't require me to be vulnerable. And I wasn't vulnerable. . I did not ever want to trust again because I never healed the first wound in my heart.. So, I settled for being in a guarded castle.  And as a result, I invited in people to be romantic partners that felt no responsibility towards my heart and then replayed the same betrayal again and again. It was not until I took full personal responsibility for my choices and forgave myself that that specific  knife in my heart could finally be removed and that space could start to then heal. The key out of my self imposed cage was forgiveness.  And then immediately, as if by magic, my person who I could trust and form a healthy relationship   entered my life.    With forgiveness came radical acceptance of myself. Self love. Self respect. There is nothing wrong with me. I am not perfect by far. But I did not do anything Wrong. I was just afraid to be hurt again - so much so, that I CLUNG to my walls of security too hard and perpetuated the hurt upon  myself again and again. That is the lie of our negative ego. Stay Safe!  Don't let go! It will get better if you just hold on to this hurt! This is the way you protect yourself.Instead, the opposite happens. You have to let it go. You have to forgive yourself. You have to forgive those who hurt you. Forgiving doesn't mean condoning or accepting the behavior or allowing the hurt back into your life. Forgiving isn't being a doormat. Forgiving means you radically accept the situation and let go of the need to change the past, so you can change the future. Don't condone it, but forgive it.  Let go, so you can let in. “Forgive them Father, they know not what they do.”  Injuries of the heart, like betrayal may be the hardest to get over. But at the same time because Forgiveness is an act of the heart, and therefore is  an act of love, surrendering to its great Force can make it the easiest.  So, upon my release and actual acceptance and forgiveness of myself. My choice was to then radically love myself.  My choice was to allow myself  to y do more than yearn for a relationship. Give myself the ability to abandon my false sense of security for actual security.  Then and only then did the wound dissipate in my heart and I was able to live freely and attract my highest good.  I Love  is the intercessor. s It is the force flowing through us. Become  the container with an open  heart - to receive it and then give it away.  Love is not selfish. We are simply a conduit for its magic.  And now a  quote from the gospel of Mary Magdalene “What binds me has been slain, and what surrounds me has been overcome, and my desire has ended, and ignorance has died. In a world, I was released from a world.”   Without going on a tangent I want to note that in the Gospel of Mary, she explains the release from the 7 stages of the negative ego that bind us to our mundanity, our pain, our mediocrity, and keep us from evolving to our higher self and highest potential.  The key is  Love. The key is  forgiveness. The key is  surrendering to the force of the power greater than our  Monkey Mind. She continues “I was released from a world, and in a type from a heavenly type, and from the fetter of oblivion which is transient. From this time I will attain to the rest of the time, of the season, of the eaon, in silence.”  The chains that bind our heart and keep us trapped in pain are of our own creation. . And therefore, the will to set ourselves free is in our control. Forgiveness done right is powerful!  In opening our heart to the force that is love, we receive more than we could ever “give.” Forgiveness  disconnects us from that which injures us and allows us to reconnect to a true source of light.The power to love and be loved in return, is the beautiful gift of forgiveness. Forgive and watch how your life changes.  If you still feel stuck and are in need of additional support - I can help with that! I would love to help you on your journey to love and light. Reach out to me through my website angellatterell.com and book a call.  

Gratitude. Gratitude. Gratitude.  What really is gratitude? I speak about it all the time. I share with students, clients, and colleagues - gratitude is the foundation of an Abundance Mindset and living a joyful life.  But why?  What is really happening with a gratitude grounded life?  Simply put, gratitude is the practice of appreciating what one has. On the next level it is the practice of appreciation for what one has, what one is given, and what one has lost.  But it is more than that. It is a practice in being aware. To appreciate what one has - one must be first aware of what they have.  To appreciate what one is given, one must be aware that they are being given things.  And to appreciate and hold gratitude for what has been taken away or lost - one must have an even greater awareness of cause & effect and other subtle hermetic universal principles at work - so you can see the quote, unquote “loss” for what it truly is. So if one is actually grateful, and truly holds appreciation for everything in their life (even the unpleasant stuff), then you are in a place of high vibrational awareness, clarity and discernment.  Holding true sight and acknowledgement of what is going on around you and the ability to access wisdom and discern what is actually happening at any given time.   So, in short, gratitude = awareness.  Awareness = discernment. Discernment = wisdom. Wisdom = Discernment.  Discernment = Awareness. Awareness = gratitude. And thus, we have a positive thought cycle occurring which allows us to live a joyful abundant life in flow with the universe even if our circumstances are filled with opportunity and challenge.  In fact, we are more likely to seek opportunities and challenges because we have awareness, because we know that those difficult things we face are the fertilizer for the joy we grow.   A joyful life is not one without difficulties or sorrow.  We all experience loss and grief in life because life ends. We lose loved ones to death. This is the only certainty in life. That this physical life ends. And along the way in our life we have people we love, and they grow old and die, or they are young and die from illness or tragedy.  These are huge losses.  But we continue.  And those of us who learn in life how to continue and thrive are those who realize and are aware that this cycle in the physical body is not about learning how to survive - because that is the one impossible task. None of us get out alive. This experience in the physical body is about learning how to live and to see the glory that is everything we are given, everything we have, and everything we experience—even the losses. Jesus said to his disciples when you can truly SEE, then you will enter the kingdom of heaven. He was talking about discernment and gratitude. True awareness. When you can truly see what life offers you are capable of gratitude, and when you have awareness, gratitude and discernment - you enter the kingdom of heaven—a joyful life. What is more heavenly than to be able to look at a shit storm in your life and say Thank You Universe for this opportunity. I am so grateful I had this experience.  I've been reflecting on gratitude all month. At the end of August I had the opportunity to be faculty for an attorney retreat and intensive where we engaged in some serious learning about different life insurance vehicles and annuities interspersed with meditation, personal development, and fun outdoor activities.We pushed ourselves out of our comfort zones in order to learn and shift ourselves and our practices for the sake of being better advisors to our clients.  For me, I was also there holding a container for everyone to meditate and grow within, while keeping the focus on gratitude. Because with gratitude we can learn better, we can accept change better, we can live better.  It is an essential element to anyone's life but especially for times of change, growth, and obstacles. And in order to change how one does something, or accept and adapt to a forced change we have to expend energy - we have to move out of the groove we have been in to shift into a new one.  No more autopilot.  Time to expend effort little by little every day until we get to the new phase of our becoming.  Gratitude helps us with this because when we start with awareness and recognition of everything we have in our environment to support us (even if it is just out own wits), and we see just how good it is, then we do not have to expend energy worrying about the lack and attracting more lack, we aren't running away from anything, we are moving towards something. And if that which we focus on expands it continues in the positive manifestation zone and we manifest that which we desire to bring about, versus that which we are trying to leave behind.  As an attorney, I find it exceptionally important to always be finding ways to hold gratitude and create containers for my clients that allow them to move toward things. Lawyers in a traditional sense are called upon only when there is a problem. We are the solvers. Or the ones that must help people through an unpleasant situation, or we are the ones causing the unpleasant situation because we manage litigation in a win-lose system. Winning in the law is determined by whether or not the proper procedure is followed - which for the average person is not winning. People want wrongs righted, justice served - but the law cannot really provide that - legal “justice” is not moral justice or God's justice - is simply checking all the boxes in the proper order and following the proper rules.  What the law can provide however, are strong containers of prevention and protection to ensure to the best of our ability that bad things don't happen, and worse things don't happen when bad things do occur (especially in the case of dying). But for me that isn't enough either - I don't want to just prevent something, I want to create containers for my clients that also grow in abundance alongside providing protection.  And what I learned in my attorney summer camp experience in August was the missing piece on how to use planning to build actual abundance and wealth for families. A true abundance manifestation goal versus just the mindset of planning with the end in mind and using that to expand on opportunities through prevention and protection planning. Now my understanding of life insurance, its strategic use in retirement planning, saving plans and investment, as well as the access to an extremely knowledgeable team of resources that I can consult with to guide my clients, has opened up a huge new gallery of wealth building containers that every family can take advantage of. And it gives me great joy to be able to offer a direction that is truly an Abundance building methodology. As I write this it is Fall Equinox.  Mabon in the Wiccan calendar.  A day of gratitude and appreciation, bringing balance into our lives as we harvest the fruits of our efforts and give thanks for them.  This autumn I am holding immense gratitude for my new partner in life and everything he has brought into my life, as well as everything he has given me, and alongside this relationship those things which have been lost. I hold gratitude for all of it - and for all of the growth I've experienced as a result of being in a real relationship with someone willing to do the work next to me. It's not all roses and sunbeams, and his health is far from good, but I wouldn't trade this time to be in something else with someone else. I am beyond grateful for the opportunity to experience something so real with someone so willing & capable of being themself with me. This relationship that brings me such great joy also reminds me of the short and preciousness of life. I've never been one to sit by the wayside and not squeeze the marrow out of life—but since Covid I have to admit that all I've done is work and fit my relationships in inbetween. When sitting next to my partner and knowing that with his particular health challenges, that our life together is more likely to be truncated than not - it adds an urgency to living. Death is a reality for everyone, and I spend a lot of my time reminding people of that because I am an estate planning attorney - but when it is on your own doorway - it is no longer a philosophical conversation. It is happening. And this is where gratitude is my foundation now, more than ever. The kind of appreciation that keeps me in full awareness so that I can truly see, discern, and live in the kingdom of heaven right now in this physical body enjoying my life in the present moment, for what it is. Jesus said Come to know what is in front of you, and that which is hidden from you will become clear to you. This is gratitude. Clarity. Awareness. Discernment. Recognition. “Whoever has (something) in his hand, (something more) will be given to him.  And whoever has nothing, even the little he has will be taken from him.”  So, your homework this month is to determine what you have through the practice of gratitude. Build your foundation to live a joyful life by creating and cultivating your garden of appreciation for every aspect of your life - even the hard parts.   

“Do as I do, be as I am. “ Jesus Christ “When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.”  Paulo Coelho (author of The Alchemist) Sometimes we forget who we are.  Sometimes we think, is this all there is?  And if that is true, what is the point of all of this?  We all can feel stuck.  Trapped even. Unable to get out of the web of the choices we made to get to this point. And then when you are so wrapped in that silky meshy mess, panicking that the gross scary spider is going to come and get you that you lose sight of everything but the panic! The fear! The NEED to get OUT before the monster gets you! Then before you know it, this is what your life is - survival and fear. Trapped in a web and trying to get out.   No longer are you actually going anywhere.  You are just GETTING OUT. But “getting out” is not a destination.  And OUT! Is driven by fear which has us thrashing around so much that we just wrap the web even thigh around ourselves so it is now even harder to achieve. It is like one of those Chinese finger traps,you played with as a kid - the harder you pull against it, the tighter it binds you.  But if we stop thrashing and fighting and fearing The Monster (the unknown).  If we breathe and take a moment and ask ourselves.  Where am I? Who am I? Where am I going? What do I actually want? Where do I want to go? What do I WANT to be doing right now? (in the positive, the answer can't be ESCAPING or ESCAPISM behavior). If all options are on the table, what would I actually choose to be doing to spend my time if I wasn't so scared and spending all my energy beating back the tides of change, fear, and all the things I don't want?  If you could articulate in the positive a destination. I want to be writing a book.  I want to go to the gym twice a week.  I want a job that fulfills me. I want to have a conversation with my partner. I want an abundant family. I want to laugh. Do you see where I am going with this?  What can you articulate in the positive?  What do you aspire for yourself?  And yeah maybe your mind will say it's a pipe dream.  But you know what?  It is YOUR pipe dream.  And if it brings you joy and light - why is it silly to aspire for that, and to do that, instead of just surviving? instead of just “getting away from THIS.”   Because running away is not a destination.  Getting away is not a goal. It is running from the monster.  Running away from the monster is not running to something at all - it is getting you lost deeper in the woods and going right into the belly of the beast.   If you feel trapped and depressed or scared of what is to come.  What if you were not spending all of your time on surviving, on beating back the fear, or trying to get away?  If you hate your job and every night you come home and drink a bottle of wine - what is that doing?  That is just numbing the pain from the job you hate.  Is it getting you a new job that is fulfilling?  Is it raising your vibration to a place where you can see a new alternative?  Is it giving you anything but escape?  Yeah you are surviving the pain.  But is that a life?  Surviving and enslaved to something you hate?   Our negative ego is a real motherfucker.  It makes us believe that running away is a solution.  It says STAY SAFE!  Don't leave this box. HIDE! Outside this box is failure - is the inability to pay your bills. Outside, is the eternal question, are you dying alone?  Because it says you are not good enough.  You don't deserve nice things.  You are not capable. No one likes you.  That is for other people.  Other people write books, other people take fabulous vacations, other people get graduate degrees and careers they actually enjoy.  It is an insidious record that keeps playing over and over again - that keeps you thrashing in the spider web you spun yourself. Keeps you making choices that keep you trapped in a cycle of fear and miserable-ness and not progressing toward something that will actually bring you satisfaction and joy.   And here is the secret.  It is not in some new age book from the early 2000s called, The Secret or even just positive thinking, or in that next social media influencers webinar about the 10 steps to financial freedom and happiness.  It is none of those things.  It is in the most simple (but hard to practice) axiom of Know Thyself.  Know thyself as God. Know thy own needs and wants. Your thoughts create your reality. Hermetic Principle #1 - All is Mind.  99% of your success in creating a change in your life comes from how you feel about the situation because every feeling creates a thought, and every thought is acted upon. So if we feel good about where we are going, and are actually consciously choosing where we are going, and know in your heart of hearts that where you are going is what you actually want to do - then you will follow that gratitude filled feeling, into a gratitude and hope filled thought, then apply consistency and discipline to carry out actions daily (little bits every day) that get you somewhere new that you actually WANT to be.  And after some effort you will find yourself free of your bondage and looking forward to even more amazing things as you take action in the present moment.  But until YOU CHOOSE an actual DESTINATION that you want and desire then you will never ever be able to get there. Because no one ever gets anywhere when you are running away from your life.  This is your life.  You only get one.  What do you want to be spending your precious minutes on?  How much time and energy have you spent  beating back the fear?  What is the worst that could happen if you paused and surrendered to whatever you are avoiding and chose what you actually want? Then and only then do you realize just how futile and useless the fight that fear is.  How irrelevant - and that all your writhing and drama and gesticulation was just an ugly dance that you can stop. And finally,with clarity and simplicity you can step out from by deciding with discernment and your will to set your mind, your thoughts, words and acts toward the true desire you have in your heart of hearts, for the best and highest good.  Then you will be free of the bonds of the web you wove. The box you stapled yourself into and you can live as the god/goddess you truly are and start creating your reality.  And THIS is the magick that Jesus spoke of and embodied as a Hermetic teacher. This is why he was able to create miracles - and was trying to teach us to do the same. “Do as I do. Be as I am.”  “Everything I can do, you can do and more.”  Jesus Christ was a Hermetic Teacher.  When he was alive there was no such thing as Christianity.  There was Judaism and Jesus was ethnically Hebrew and he is referred to as a Rabbi but he wasn't Jewish either. In the annals of time and translation rabbi simply meant teacher.  And Jesus was just that - a teacher of Hermetics. Hermetics and any Hermetic principle is from the mind of God. It is the understanding of God's mind without human pollution.  If it is Hermetic it will benefit people and always be good.  Because God does no harm. Hermetics creates clarity which simplifies life - thus increasing our potential to act as God in this life.  Whereas the human mind creates complications and traps us in fictions and stories. And ultimately this is what Jesus was teaching - and like good humans we have complicated his words and made a religion out of him which separates what he could do from what we can do.  Which is the exact opposite of his teaching.  “Do as I do. Be as I am.” In other words “Act like the God/Goddess you are.  Master your mind by doing the will of God.”  Jesus was and is one of the greatest teachers for humanity in all time - and as a master of light he mastered his negative ego completely in this physical life and as a result could create miracles. He used every single one of his gifts as a human being for its intended purpose in its intended way.  And although he was special (because he had a unique mission to bring the ray of love and compassion to this planet for all of us to experience) his message to all of us was that HE WAS NOT SPECIAL. In that everything he could do, we can do.  Our job is to LISTEN to him, to take him as an example of possibility and to start living that possibility.  And through his teachings become the teachings - just as he was.   Now he did some amazing party tricks (though turning water into wine back in the day just made the water safe to drink) he also defied the laws of physics, cleared negativity, and cured the sick.  However, the potential to do all of this is within us as well. And humans have created miracles again and again.  The examples we have from the gospels (albeit told through the lens of religion, politics, two hundred or more years, translation from aramaic to greek to latin to english) are examples of a clear will (desire from a place of purity) applied with the rules of Hermetics and the power inherent in this existence as a fully actualized human being connected to spirit acknowledging our power as God - you can have a major impact on this physical world. You can defy the laws of physics.  You can create miracles.  You can just simply live a joyful life.  But it all starts by setting your will in motion and remembering that you are god.  You are a powerful being that can affect your reality through your feelings, thoughts, choices and actions.   With Jesus we weren't supposed to start a religion.  We were supposed to discern.  To learn. To follow in his footsteps versus follow him.  If we say “Jesus take the wheel!” you abdicate responsibility for your life and that is in the exact opposite of what he was getting at for us.  Did we ever hear of Jesus saying “Father DO everything FOR me?”  Yet we do this all the time with Jesus, with our jobs, by blaming other people, by pouring our sorrows into a bottle or any other substance.  We abdicate our responsibility and we run away to our hiding place prison and we stay safe in our survival mechanisms.   Bringing me back to my point.  All of us forget how powerful we are from time to time. Or maybe we have no fucking clue we have any power at all.  We forget or are completely ignorant that in most cases we actually hold the keys to let ourselves out from our chosen prison.  We are all at some point like the figures in the The Devil card of the Rider Waite Tarot deck -held in chains to a big hairy winged beast of a problem but the chains are actually loose enough to simply lift off of our necks, if we desire to remove them.  We chain ourselves to the false God (the thing outside of ourselves that is not us).  We chain ourselves to the Devil, to a demon, to a false idol, we make something or something else God, and we deny our own power. We say we have no choice.  We had to.  I need this escape to cope because I can't leave him or her.  I can't leave my job.  I'll die if I remove the chains of slavery.  But you won't - the truth is you've abdicated your power and voluntarily chained yourself to the external thing and forgotten your power as God.  As the author of your story.  As the determinant of your own destiny.  Then you've focused on staying safe, or getting away, or NOT being in the chains you feel trapped in.   I've been personally chewing on all of this because recently I felt a little bit trapped by my own circumstances.  Even though I KNEW LOGICALLY that it was all my choice and all really for the good.  But in preparing for the Florida Bar Exam for over 7 months it started to take a toll on me and I began to forget why I was doing it.  And as my ability to focus on my business was distracted by study, my partner's health, my own arthritis pain, my sense of lack when some things didn't go as planned and I was disappointed by some individuals. I spent every last bit of my effort preparing for the test then used what little I had left to move twice and learn how to be in a new cohabitation situation. And with my distractions and the challenges - I stopped flowing the normal abundant client load I usually do for a myriad of reasons.  And of course I started getting concerned that I didn't have enough time or money and my thoughts and feelings turned to lack and fear and this just enhanced the worry and lack and thus had me starting to feel trapped.  Trapped because passing the bar is a big slow thing and Seattle is far away from my home in Florida, and trapped because I have to be vulnerable in my relationship and I can't run away anymore.  And trapped because I have to communicate about my finances and don't have the same overflow I'm used to.  All of these things were not helpful. Because I said before 99% of your success is how you FEEL about something versus the actual tactical logical work you put into it.  So here I was working in a way that SHOULD have resulted in my usual flow but it wasn't - but the thing that was off was my fear.  It was my lack mentality.  Plans are definitely still helpful but your own thoughts will destroy the best plan.  So as long as I feel scared and trapped and in lack, that is the energy I am going to attract.  And no one wants a worried estate planning attorney or an abundance & flow coach who is in lack.   But luckily I have a practice and a path to follow and a community of lightworkers to recharge in.  I have teachings and things to study that can bring me around and back to my core purpose, strengthen my will, and turn me back to gratitude.  So this trap was a brief mindset blip and now that I'm out of the gauntlet I can actually start holding gratitude for the bar exam and the time to work on client flow, teamwork with my new team members and communication with my love and life partner.  I remember why I am doing this work.  My law license allows me to help so many families create plans that will protect them in their time of need.  And my purpose and mission in light work helps me remember I am not trapped.  I am choosing this.  I will allow the  will of God to flow through me.  And use Jesus as a light and as a master teacher guiding my heart in every moment. Because that is where he has been since I was a small child, guiding me to live as he lived.  Do as he did. To be in my life an embodiment of his teachings in my unique way in this physical life.  There is nothing to run away from. I am not stuck in any trap. I choose everything and I can remove any obstacle. And I have built a beautiful life based on my choices and I will continue to do so.  A joyful life doesn't result from things being easy or handed to you - in fact sometimes the hardest things in life bring the most value.   I laugh as I wonder which was harder?  The Florida Bar exam or  being vulnerable and in true partnership with another human being. .  To be honest, I know it is the latter.  Taking a test and getting a piece of paper is easy. I've done it time and time again. Helping people as a lawyer is easy.  I've done it time and time again.  But being in a relationship with someone I love and who loves me, growing myself and actualizing myself as  an authentic human being is incredibly challenging! Don't get me wrong - I have prayed and manifested this type of partnership and love, but that doesn't make it not terrifying. To be even more honest, sometimes coexisting and being in real love with my person, scares the living shit out of me.  Because my negative ego is constantly being proved wrong.  I am lovable separate from the things I provide to people in this world. What a concept? I feel like - even now I have to say it twice to truly believe it. I AM LOVEABLE DESPITE WHAT SERVICE I CAN PROVIDE FOR OTHERS! … and you are too.  I am God. YOU ARE GOD. WE ARE GOD.  Fully worthy of giving and receiving tremendous amounts of love + prosperity. So let's start creating some miracles - shall we?  The homework for this episode is simple - well that is, if you allow it to be.  Love yourself like your life depends on it - because it does. Know Thyself. Know God. Do as God would do. And CHOOSE to love yourself more than your struggle. Don't overthink it - just start - a small change in the right direction can make a huge impact. And if you get lost along the way and need further inspiration - I can help with that! Drop me a line at angel@LatterellLaw.com. I will leave you in the words of author Roald Dahl  “And above all watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always in the most unlikely places.  Those who don't believe in magick will never find it.”   

“Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.”  Maya Angelou It is the day after Independence Day.  I'm watching the street sweeper brush up the remnants of yesterday's fireworks shells on the neighborhood streets of Jacksonville Beach, Florida.  The detritus of the party is all that is left after America's red, white and blue holiday. Last night thousands of people poured past the front of my house to go to the beach to watch the fireworks and celebrate freedom and independence.  Thousands of explosions small and large rocked the beach and I was in the middle of it.  A far cry from the remote shores of Lake Superior in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan where I have spent the last 10 years celebrating the holiday with my sister and family.   But nothing is at all like the past for me this year and it has me examining my attachments really closely and getting super clear on what truly is conscious choice and surrender.  Because somewhere in between that lies True Freedom in this lifetime.  True freedom isn't surrendering to the current and going with the flow that others set for us. A lot of people think that is an easy life - just let go! Don't choose, let life take you as it may - everything happens for a reason etc…That's just floating.  Delegating your personal responsibility for your life to others so you have the excuse “I was just going with the flow!” or “I had no choice!”  You did though.  You chose not to choose in that situation because something in your programming, that artificial intelligence of your negative ego, has you so afraid to do so. whether you believe you can't have nice things, or you are so afraid to fail, or who knows what your damage is, but if you never examine the baggage you carry, you will never know.  On the other side, is someone like me.  Controlling every single aspect of everything in your life with an exacting plan that everything must go according to, or else. Achieving the objective of the moment. Because achievement of the next thing is the highest good. Except sometimes, er, well, a lot of the time, my objective is misinformed because it comes from my subconscious programming and I am not aware of that, until it's too late.  If you try to control every little thing you are so busy controlling you can't see or hear the signs that there is something better or that a higher path could open up, paved in opportunities. Except in these situations I honestly believe I am acting from conscious choice when I double down in stubborn determinism and radical self reliance “to make it work!” to “achieve the gold star!” to “take care of the problem!” But as my recent move from St. Augustine to my partner's house in Jax Beach proves - NO, I'm not always aware of how my thoughts are creating my reality.  And I made a lot of things harder on myself by just assuming I had to do it all myself because that is the way it has always been.   Meanwhile my partner is left wondering why I didn't trust him enough to ask for help. And I realized I didn't because I assumed I couldn't and I was afraid of retribution for asking at all.  So yeah - I didn't trust.  So here I am - surrendering to the change and the shift - all beautiful things coming from being in partnership with another but I was completely unwilling to look at how I approached a situation with him on my team, or even being on a team period. Huh. Was that conscious choice from my higher self? I couldn't let go of control and my subconscious programming for two seconds, I reacted and went right into “do it all yourself” mode. But I won't do that specific thing again.  Now that I see it and can be willing to let it go.  I can learn from it and be aware in the future and not do it that way again. No shame, no blame or guilt.  Yes I was emotional when the situation was brought up for me to look at it. But most of it was from the release of all that stored shit in my subconscious and it wasn't directed at anybody, as much as it was messy.  Literally my suitcase of unexpressed emotion was strewn all over my partner's living room.  And luckily he's very patient and held space to let me work it through. So how do we know if we are surrendering our attachments and living and choosing from the collective consciousness of the higher selves and ascended masters i.e. the positive ego, free of the negative ego and shadow self?   We can't sit there and analyze every action. Or can we? No, we can't - that analysis paralysis would be using our lower self to attempt to solve the problem that got us there in the first place. We have to use discernment.  And this is where training comes in and the invocation of the Adept Initiate.   “It is by will alone that I set my mind in motion.”  Every human being, myself very much included, is far from perfect but the path to know thyself allows us to get clearer and clearer every day such that we begin to know ourselves as the creator of our reality and to be able to tap into the will of God and the universe - and with that understanding of the higher good we use our mind as a tool versus us becoming a tool of the mind.  Monkey mind gets in the back seat where it belongs in a seat belt strapped in.  We sit in the driver's seat with a GPS from a higher power and are capable of managing our thoughts, words, and deeds towards the best and highest good we know at the moment.  How do we get here? Through daily will strengthening exercises.  Through daily boundary setting exercises.  And learning through doing - achieving the understanding of where I begin and end. Understanding my true needs and wants and where they begin and end. What my wants truly are and how to choose, not out of fight or flight but from nurture and love for self and others.  All of this combined with meditation so there is actual space for mental clarity and the light of God i.e. enlightenment, whatever you choose to call it, to come in.  From that place we can begin to experience True Freedom.  Freedom from triggers, from self defeating patterns, from digging ourselves into deeper holes when we think we are solving problems.  And when we know ourselves better there are less surprises and we can surrender to the positive will of the universe, letting go of our crap and allowing help to come in when it is offered (among other things.) As I just shared in my example today, by no means is the path of the adept initiated in the lineage of King Salomon a magick pill that makes you perfect and cures all ills in life.  But if you are willing to do the work it is exceptionally rewarding and leads to the ability to enjoy limitless freedom and joy in this physical existence - improving your daily life gradually with proven repeatable methods.  If you are interested in learning about these practices and the path of an adept initiate offered in the Empower Thyself program please reach out, I can connect you to a practitioner in your area.   Alright my friends, until next time, do your best until you know better, then do better!  And if you need help along the way - I can help with that!  

“Love God and then do whatever you wish.”   St. Augustine  This is the quote for the spiritual experience of the sun tarot card in my ultimate guide to the Raider Waite Tarot book. I had to laugh as I read it this morning sitting down to write this podcast.    I decided to write about the sun card because it is the solstice, and the sun symbolizes rebirth and daily renewal.  And surprise! This month and for the rest of this year I am in a process of change and renewal yet again.  I'm currently writing this on my deck in St. Augustine, Florida.  Inside my little house in the woods surrounded by magick and elemental beings are boxes ready to be packed and put into storage.  I'm moving.  Again.  I just put the last of my Seattle life into a storage locker at my good friend's condo and now I am putting my St. Augustine things into storage until November when I hopefully move into my new house that is currently being built.   “Birth is not a momentary event, but a permanent process.  Our aim in life is to become completely born…living means being born every minute.” Erich Fromm.  The process of rebirth for me has been going on for years.  But more intensely these last 2 since I was called to step up in my spiritual practice and make this move to St. Augustine. I keep laughing because it really seems to keep getting more intense when silly me thought it would chill out by now.  But relocating your life and business across the country is a process. All good things - meeting the love of one's life, co-creating a new home together, establishing a foothold in a new city, building a new community, taking yet another bar exam (I could do without this step but it's a right of passage in my profession) - these are all major things.  As is exiting a place (Seattle) where you built a life for the past 20 years.   What I'm learning in part is surrender.  Allowing the will of God to flow through me. Allowing the highest good to flow through me.  And not being an obstacle to my own birthing process.  Not being an obstacle to my own greatness and purpose.  I will, thy will, I say.  Let my greatest desire be that I fulfill my contract with God.  The purpose I made for myself when I was spirit before I had amnesia caused by this physical density.    So, I am attempting to understand with my higher self my needs and wants.  Then holding the vision for them to be met. And thus arranging my priorities to ensure that energetically, and then physically.  Versus clinging to my past self and fighting the process.  I surrender to the process of rebirthing.   So I shared the quote that I read and laughed out loud when looking at The Sun card.  There are no coincidences that St. Augustine himself is speaking to me today.  Love God i.e. love yourself and all beings and allow the will of god to flow through you.  Then do what you want.  Well, when the will of god flows through you - you become an agent for the best and highest good.  December of 2023 marked one year of my leap of faith to move to St. Augustine.  And although it was a month of upheaval and unmet expectations for myself and others it was actually really great - because I put my house in order.  I had to sit down with myself and decide the priorities for Angel's life. What was it that I really desired and wanted in my life? Yes, I want to do God's will but I'm not a robot.  I'm a human being with needs and wants and one of our 4 basic needs is love.  I decided that the most important thing to me in my life was to find my life partner.  Someone I could spend my life with who would love me for me, and I would love them for them in return - and we could be a team.  Team us.   I also decided that I was going to fully let go of Seattle.  That I was going to ground my light here in St. Augustine. I was going to plant my energy in this soil and build my life here instead of traversing the country every other week or month and running myself ragged in the process.    The result of this decision? Within 2 months I was registered for the Florida Bar Exam, I found a location for my light center at the Center for Spiritual Living, and I was in a relationship with a person that I love and who loves me in return, who actually wants to spend their life with me as a team.  Not someone in it for some sense of immediate gratification but actual loyalty and commitment to building a relationship and all the co-creation that goes with that. And as a result of all of that, here I am.  Moving and rebirthing myself again.   But not chaotically.  I'm executing (with assistance) the vision of grounding myself here in St. Augustine and the universe is supporting me because it's in alignment with my purpose.   How do I know? Because I trust my higher self, I trust the tools of my spiritual practice and the law of the universe I am watching at play around me. I'm far from perfect, or a perfect situation but I'm doing my best and I am holding gratitude for everything given and taken away.  So let's talk about The Sun card and the summer solstice for a second.  The Sun = the active principle.  As the moon stands for the collective unconscious the sun stands for the collective Consciousness.  Being able to be free from autonomous programming and making actual choices authentically from our free will.   I'm going to take a step further and say that true choice from our freest of free wills comes from our positive ego that is connected to the holy spirit i.e. the collective consciousness of the ascended masters (these are those who have mastered their negative ego and now live to support those of us in the physical world i.e. Jesus, Buddha, Quan Yin, Isis, Osiris, Odin, Freya, Lakshmi, Ganesha, any archetype from any culture..the ascended masters are numerous).   If we are connecting with our higher self and making discerning choices for our nurture and wellbeing out of love for ourselves and others we are truly living from free will and influenced by the conscious positive collective consciousness.   On the other side, if all we are doing is playing out a record of our story fueled by programming from our subconscious (our stored repository of unexpressed and repressed emotions i.e. that suitcase full of crap you had to sit on to close and hide under your bed).  Are you really living fully? If you are motivated only by fear, jealousy, stress, pain, or the avoidance of pain your negative ego says is necessary to survive?  Is that truly a choice? Or are you choosing to be a slave to your masks, your negative ego, and unmanaged emotions? I'd say so - choosing to stay in the prison of fear we build for ourselves because we are afraid to try something different, or think it will hurt is not living.   Life is filled with a myriad of opportunities to fuck up.  That's the point! To learn by failing forward and making mistakes.  Picking yourself up when you fall down and saying “well, maybe I won't do it that way again.”  But a lot of us (and I have been guilty of this myself) say “I have no choice!” I have to stay here doing this thing this way because if I change I'll die.  Our negative ego is so caught up in our fight or flight mechanism we really do equate change to death.   But that is a lie.  Change is rebirth. Growth is freedom. Failing is movement. And if you are not moving forward you are going backwards and you are letting your subconscious rule the show.  Instead we should go arms open naked on a white horse into the sun of a new day smiling because if we fall off it was one hell of a ride.  Now - the solstice!  The sun is at its peak! This is the time of action.  Of light. Of celebration and growth.  We have all the vitamin D and all of the time and energy to accomplish all of the things! Now is the time of Joy and Illumination.  Of healing by shining light on that which was hidden.  And it's the time of the masculine energetic active principle.  So see what there is to see and be in the now making choices from your positive ego for the best and highest good.   And that is your assignment this month.  Do or do not.  There is no Try.  Go forth!  Be in the now.  Get ‘er done.  Live your life.  Fail gloriously and celebrate the victory of doing something differently than you did before.    I love you all.  And as always if you need any assistance with this assignment or anything else - I can help with that!  Until next time.  Go frolic in the Sun and live joyfully.    

My partner asked me the other day, “Do you ever envy other people?” and I had to think about it for a second.  His health has been a significant challenge recently and our relationship is strong but new - so I've been in a place of “well fuck, universe, thanks for sending me the love of my life and threatening to take him away just as quickly.”  It's been a real practice in gratitude to stay in ACTUAL gratitude for the time I have with him - because I am here watching him suffer from severe pain & distress as his organs rebel for some unknown reason and his body fills with fluid.  So, in some ways the answer to his question is yes.  In fact, hell yeah! I currently envy all those people who take their health and their partnerships for granted.  I envy his ex's who used, abused, and didn't covet every minute they had with him while he was healthy but instead threw the time away. As here I am picking up the pieces of their heartbreak mess as I stand beside one of the strongest, bravest men I've ever met. But at the same time - even though I am jealous of his ghosts, I'm not envious of them. I'd never want to be in those past women's shoes (i.e. not self aware, actually taking for granted such a gem of a man in their life). I know that it would be nice to have been in their time and place - adventuring, dancing, living an active life - but would I have been ready then? Would he have been ready for me then? Would we have been ready then? It's best we are here right now, the people we are right now, facing this now with the strengths we both have together. In this now. I know many people who are doing really well and I'm honestly happy for them.  I hold no envy or yearning to be in a different place than I am, with a different person, with a different life.  I hold gratitude that I finally met this man that I can share space & time with, and just be me with, and feel safe with and give my loyalty to. Someone I can create even more love in this world with. Someone I can be a better person with, and dedicate myself to doing just that.  We both share this desire to help others, making the world a better place because we were here. And I just want to enjoy our life together no matter how much time we have left. So no - I don't envy anyone else.  I do not want to be anyone else. I am very satisfied and happy in my life and I am extremely capable of experiencing and generating more joy even in the face of knowing the one who I am most attached to could leave me alone in this physical life sooner than later. Every single day is precious. We just do not have the luxury of taking it for granted anymore.  There is a poem I read when teaching to empower thyself that I shall paraphrase right now - essentially it says that God is not “I was” because you cannot find any joy living in the past.  And God is not “I will” because you cannot find any joy worrying about the future.  God is only “I AM” because you can find all possibilities in the present.  All ability to create, live, love and enjoy is here right now.  So that is where you will find joy.  (Sing) “I close my eyes only for a moment and the moments are gone. All my dreams pass before my eyes a curiosity. Dust in the wind. All they are is dust in the wind. Don't hang on,nothing forever but the earth and sky. It slips away and all your dollars  won't buy another minute. Dust in the wind. All we are is dust in the wind…” (read) “Where for I perceive there is nothing better than that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that is his portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be better after him?” Ecclesiastes 3-22. I'm writing this podcast on May 1st, Beltane, May Day, the 1st day of summer in the ancient Celtic and pre-Celt calendars. Beltane is a day of celebration for creation, passion, fertility because here in Spring - is the TIME to start the creation process because the divine masculine and divine feminine energies are at their peak.  Father Sky and the sun are perfect to send their rays and mature our plants & endeavors and mover earth's womb is ready to grow them. She as divine feminine will gestate the seed in her fertile womb so that in a few months a harvest shall come.  Two things are going on here. The earth is ripe & ready and the sun's rays are about to peak into crescendo.  And the hermetic principle of gender - the universal rule that masculine and feminine energy is needed in a relationship to create (otherwise known as divine union). The holy marriage of opposites results in the perfect harmony necessary to spark and nurture creation. And now is the time for this creation. We are made in God's image - The Elohim. Elo & Eloha - divine masculine & feminine in divine union creator gods.  And this is why when we are in balance both within and without we are more effective in creation.  Also, now in the wheel of the year we have this peak moment to invest our energy in creation of things. In agrarian times it was dictated by necessity because if you didn't plant those seeds now you'd have nothing to harvest in the Fall and your family would starve. But today when we've delegated our survival to others (i.e. grocery stores, electric companies etc) we can still use the wheel of the year and those energies to our advantage.  “To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven; a time to be born, a time to die, a time to plant, a time to pluck that which is planted, time to kill, and a time to heal, a time to break down, and a time to build up, a time to weep, and a time to laugh, a time to mourn, a time to dance…, a time to keep, and a time to cast away, a time to rend, and a time to sew, a time to keep silence, and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time of war and a time of peace.”  Ecclesiastes 3: 1-9 So real talk, I'm quoting the Byrds Turn, Turn, Turn more than the bible passage here because I've heard the song more than I've ever read the bible passage. But when the tune popped into my head in relation to both now as in May and Beltane, and the NOW in my life & relationship & impending mortality of significant others I decided to dive into a little bible study sesh. And then I quickly moved on to reading about the origins of Kansas's song Dust in the Wind (as it shares a similar origin to Turn, Turn, Turn) and then I digressed.  And truth is I've always been a sucker for a depressing sad song in a minor key.  But what is most important is to recognize that on this earth and in our physical life as a human there are cycles. And we can use these to our advantage OR we can fight the current to our discontent. Now there is no dogma here, I am just suggesting that we go with the template given to us by nature as we are a part of that. And. Being in the present and having ideal situational opportunities to support our creation is a good thing.  So this is why I was super vulnerable as I sat in the hospital chapel on Beltane morning. I posted my personal prayer on Instagram for all to see.  I vowed to myself that no matter what, myself and my love are going to create a joyful life together.  I hold no attachment to the length (I hope that it's a long time though) I just hold gratitude that we were given the opportunity to fulfill that wish for each other, of being each other's person, for the rest of our lives at least.  So let's go back to divine union and the principle of masculine and feminine for creation I dropped on you a moment ago.  As this could be quite controversial in today's world.  But I want to be clear about what I'm talking about energetically.  First let's look at biology - flowers and thus fruits & seeds - they have masculine and feminine pieces that are stimulated by birds and bees (yes I know I'm literally talking about the birds and the bees here) and then after the flower blooms fruit grows and seeds are created which eventually become a new plant.  So we have passive - flower, active - pollinator.  Passive - feminine, active - masculine.  Ok, so in mammals we have the seed/ovum - passive and female.  And then the sperm - active and male.  The two join and you get a baby mammal after some time. Father sky, mother earth - sunlight and raine nourish seeds in the womb of earth. Active & passive masculine and feminine again.  The hermetic principle of gender plays out again and again in the universe - likely even in the mineral kingdom and in the realm of physics (perhaps opposites attract?) but I'm just not versed enough in those subjects to make a good analogy there for you.  So what's my point? Honest, the most important takeaway for you this month other than being forced to listen to my singing is gratitude. Do not envy others.  Do not yearn. Look at what you have and love it. Be grateful for the people you have, for the moments you have created. For the love you have and are creating in that moment.  Be present in your life and love it. Yes, I'm repeating myself. Love your life. Even if it is hard right now. But right now is all we have - and here and now is where we create that which we desire. But we can't know what we desire unless we are present and acknowledge what we already have.  So gratitude, gratitude, gratitude.  It is all temporary anyway.  At least in this physical life.  Love is eternal because it is a force of the universe. Divine union is eternal because it is also part of the universe. Hermetic principles are eternal because it is how the universe works and the universe is eternal.  Spirit is eternal. But all we are in this physical life is dust in the wind.  So now is all we have.  Enjoy it. No matter what. And for everything there is a season,and a time for every purpose under heaven.  Your homework this month is to do an envy index. What are you coveting of others? What are you yearning for? What do you wish you had that you see another with? Then check yourself. Are you happy for that person? Or are you in a dark place of jealousy or anger even? And tell yourself the truth. Don't beat yourself up - just be honest with yourself.  Then ask yourself why you are not taking a good look at your life and having gratitude for it.  Why haven't you gone and got that thing you yearn after? Why are you stopping yourself?  It is not going to land on your doorstep unless you take action.  But sometimes we just have to take stock of what we have in our own life and cherish that before we can grow more good.  And if you desire something - use this time to plant and grow that seed. (listen to my April podcast on the power of intention) My partner and I are going to buy a house - it's a win-win as we can create a life together in a beautiful space free of any baggage of either of our pasts.  I can stop being jealous of his ghosts and we can combine our energies to co-create & hopefully turn his health around in the process.  And even if we don't we've wasted nothing because we wove our energy together to manifest something both of us have always desired which is divine union and the sharing of a life on a team together.  Alright as always if you need a little assistance in your process I can help with that! Reach out, let's get you creating the life you want to live.   

“When your determination changes, everything will begin to move in the direction you desire.  The moment you resolve to be victorious, every nerve and fiber in your being will immediately orient itself toward your success.  On the other hand if you think “this will never work out,” then at that instant every cell in your being will be deflated and give up the fight. Everything then will move in the direction of failure.  I want you to understand the subtle workings of the mind.  How you orient your mind, the kind of attitude you have, greatly influences both yourself and your environment.”   This quote is from Daisaku Ikeda, former president of Soka Gakkai International, the largest and most diverse lay organization of Buddhist practitioners in the world. And it has been on or by my desk for at least 10 years. And I'm pretty sure that I first scribbled it down over 20 years ago when I first moved to Seattle, Washington in 2005.  Now after 13 years of studying esoterics and metaphysics it still rings true it just has so many additional levels of meaning and truth.   Forbes Magazine recently stated that - “intention is a critical factor in achieving success…It provides a purposeful and strategic approach to navigating life's complexities and a guiding force propelling you toward a future of purpose, genuineness and success.” the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy shares that  Intention is “mental directedness towards objects, as if the mind were construed as a mental bow whose arrows could be properly aimed at different targets.”  The key here that unlocks the Power of Intention is the alignment and purposeful direction of your thoughts and actions toward a desire that you really want to achieve in your life. A prerequisite then for this alignment is you must know for yourself what you desire. What do you really want for your life?  Where do your passions lie? What gives you a sense of true fulfillment? If you do not know what you want and desire in the heart of your hearts then it is really going to be hard to align your thoughts and actions to make that desire happen. And you never unlock the true power of intention.   The definition of intentional according to Webster's dictionary is “Done on purpose; deliberate.” Synonyms include “Conscious, Willed and Purposeful.”   In my esoteric and Kabbalistic training we are taught that the Magickian or Alchemist uses their imagination to clearly identify and describe their specific desire, and then they must set their intention, concentration and will upon the appropriate object.  None of this saying "Walk around your life like a zombie doing whatever everyone else says you should do.”  In fact, it is specifically the opposite.  Intention is “thinking ahead and making choices based on personal beliefs, values, and goals.”  Not acting on impulse, but planning ahead to choose things that create a positive impact for your life and the things you value.  Okay, okay, Angel, you might be saying.  Great, be more positive. Be more intentional.  Those are great buzzwords but how do I do that? But that's just it.  I'm not telling you to BE MORE positive, or BE MORE Intentional.  That would be me “shoulding” on you.  Instead I'm giving you an equation that if you choose to follow it for yourself - your thoughts and actions will be the cause that results in the effect of an intentional life.  And that intentional life of thinking and doing on purpose with purpose will result in you achieving more of what you actually want, desire and desire, which will result in you feeling more fulfillment and joy and gratitude for what you have and have been able to accomplish.  Which will fuel more gratitude, and more ability to to be intentional.  It is a positive cycle of cause and effect which will in turn result in you becoming positive and living a more joyful life.  No shoulding needed. Because you will be doing it. And that is the most important thing.  So let's review the equation that allows you to unlock the Power of Intentional creation in your life.  Step one and the foundational piece is that you need to get clear on what it is you want and desire in your life.  What do you really want for you? All studies and literature on this point to you identifying for you what brings you joy and passion. (not simply what brings you momentary pleasure) But what are your values, what gives you a sense of fulfillment?  What feels purposeful?  Now if you are at this step (step one) and already stuck, don't worry.  Start small. Identify a very short term clear achievable thing you would like in your life that you personally would feel good about if you accomplished.  This can be very selfish (or may feel selfish and that is ok, we have to start somewhere). So this could be taking a weekend trip to a place you want to see.  Or paying off a credit card. Balancing your budget. Cleaning your garage. Going to the gym two or three times a week.  If you allow yourself to hear what you want to do for yourself the answer is there.  Feel out your desires, your intuition and higher self are telling you every day what you actually want.  Another technique to get there is to attend a meditation or listen to a meditation app.  This act of meditating is going to create space in your monkey mind as in it's going to quiet the noise so you can actually hear what your higher self is saying.  But meditation aside - just ask yourself what do I actually want?  And be honest with yourself.  Stop denying your inner voice and desire.  Listen.  You know the answer.   You must get past step one in order to harness the power of intention.  You have to have an appropriate and specific objective to focus on.  A place to point your mental bow and arrow.  And you really have to actually want it or else you will not be able to focus on it or determine to create it or achieve it without desire.  Once you have step one.  The thing you desire to achieve then you can begin step two, which is the alignment of your thoughts toward the achievement of the objective.  If you go back to season one episode two or three I speak to this.  The 4 worlds.  1. Idea 2. Thought 3. plan  4. Action.  This is always the path to intentional creation.  In this case Idea = Your desired objective (identifying what you want, specifically). Thought = alignment of your thoughts.  “I am going to create this and I am committed to taking steps to do it.  I am determined and won't give up.”  Then 3. Plan!  Yes, what are the microsteps and daily intentions you are going to take until you reach what it is you desire?  What is your daily routine going to be?  How are you going to prioritize your time and perhaps even block your time to ensure you have the time to do the things necessary.  Then finally Action = which equals action is alignment with your thoughts and doing the things you have planned to do such that it results in the thing you desire.  So, this is your equation to harness the power of intention.  Alignment and purposeful direction of your thoughts and actions toward a specific desired objective.  Now, intentionality is a practice like any other skill. It will take practice before it is second nature and then it is never going to be autonomous programming/ habitual because it is specifically the opposite of automatic/without thought/habit/subconscious doing.  Because you are specifically choosing to be intentional and choosing a disciplined set of daily rituals to move your life in a positive direction and accomplish not only goals but personal development and progression.   So, it is going to take the specific application of daily consistent effort, but it will be effort that brings you joy and satisfaction and stress reduction versus jogging on the hamster wheel of purposeless action.   So, let me tell you about the power of intention. Once upon a time I was a very unhappy lawyer working in the corporate realm.  I believed in nothing woo woo like energy healing and I even thought things like power of intention or positive thinking were a pile of huey. I read the quote from Daisaku Ikeda (I was practicing buddhism at the time) and thought how nice it would be to have something to be determined about. I was stressed out, tired all the time and suffered from chronic anxiety and itching because I had a body wide candida infection and no idea.  The doctors I talked to were like “shrug. There is nothing wrong with you.  You must have chronic fatigue.”  I was 27 years old and tired of being tired. I had no purpose.  I had accomplished everything I was supposed to do in life (college, law school, a job in a law firm).  But as a reward I hated my job, was sick, bored and generally meh about the whole thing that was my life.  There was nothing I enjoyed doing besides drinking and listening to music with my friends - but that wasn't making me happy or feeling any better. Then a friend introduced me to the practice I now do and teach in the Empower Thyself class & initiation.  And I completely ignored her for like 4 or more years.  Because I am a hard head stubbornly attached to my suffering like many logic and achievement driven attorneys I know.  But I eventually caved because I needed a change so badly.  And I saw a change in my friend who took the class.  So it couldn't hurt right?  Well, it could.  I saw the loss of what I considered a crazy investment of money and time into some spiritual, mindful, wellness, blah, blah, blah, bullshit.  But I cringed and took the chance and invested my $ into the process.  And most of what I learned in that first weekend I dismissed as complete Fooey. How could daily affirmations and intentional statements and some meditations help anything I was facing?  I had medical problems and career problems and satisfaction problems.  But I did believe in testing things to see if they worked.  I paid for the class after all.  I might as well try what I paid for and put it to use.  So I started doing the daily rituals and asking for specific things to come into my life.  And after a while (not overnight and not immediately, but over time) I started to see shifts, and started to be a little different.  One big change was that I started choosing to do things that I enjoyed for the sheer sake of doing them.  I really liked writing and traveling and food.  So I started a food and travel blog.  And I made an editorial calendar and I created content on that calendar.  I planned trips to create more content for the blog and because I wanted to travel.  My boyfriend/partner at the time thought I was being irresponsible and that Id turned crazy on him because I didn't just stay home and drink wine and make him dinner anymore.  And eventually that relationship changed/ended because we became different people.  I chose then to move to a nicer big light filled house, and the toxic people in my life started falling away, and my health got better, and my boundaries got better, and I actually started being happy and finding purpose in working with people as a healer and as an attorney.  I started actually charging for my services in a way that brought me abundance so I could invest more in myself and in things I enjoyed and wanted to explore.  I started having opinions about areas I held expertise and I didn't stress about it.  I stopped worrying about everything and what everyone thought I should do with my life.  Until eventually I intentionally decided to launch my own business and leave my corporate environment all together.   But honestly the biggest shift was the daily investment in intentional choice.  I chose to do something every day and make small changes.  Then I grew the courage to start choosing things that I was passionate about instead of continuing on the path of SHOULD (what I thought other people wanted me to do, or what one should do to live a successful life).  Shoulding was killing me slowly.  Drinking and chronic purposelessness was causing me illness, not fulfillment.  So the biggest shift was the little shift in me identifying a passion and doing something that brought me joy.  Then taking baby steps to accomplish that.  Eventually all those microsteps led me to be able to make bigger choices about my life and find my actual purpose that keeps me going on a grander scale.  I can read Daisaku Ikeda's words about determination today and understand hermetically with my actual life what he is talking about - because I am living purposefully and actualizing the Power of Intention in my life every day.   But it all started with step one.  Me identifying something I desired and that I was passionate about.  So for our exercise this month that is your homework assignment.  What are you passionate about?  What brings you joy?  Not momentary pleasure. What is something that if you did it you would feel really fulfilled internally?  Not something you Should achieve.  But simply something that you want. You are going to delve into your heart of hearts and be honest with yourself.  You know what you desire.  Go inside and listen to yourself and figure it out.  Then write it down.  Articulate what you desire and specifically want for yourself and write it on a piece of paper.  Then bonus - do a vision board.  Make this desire visual so you are really clear what it looks like.  Because if you are really clear about it, and really want it, and are really passionate about it - you are going to have the motivation to align your thoughts to take action.  You will create a plan, even if that is baby steps you are going to take every day to achieve that thing.  You are going to focus your attention and will upon an appropriate object such to manifest it in your life.  And when you do you are going to celebrate it.  And maybe even tell me about it.  And if you are truly stuck - reach out! I can help with that!  Let's get you on your path to purpose, joy and harnessing the power of intention. 

It is time to go down a rabbit hole, my friends. The Rabbit and the Hare are both symbols of abundance, fertility, the womb, the moon, rebirth, and the goddess - and in this month of Ostara (Vernal Equinox) and Easter, when I am releasing this 3rd installment of the 3rd season of my podcast in the 3rd month of the year the symbol of the triple goddess, the trilogy, and the triple rabbit known as the Triskele (spelled out T R I S K E L E) is front and center in my consciousness.   The Triskele, the symbol of the triple rabbit or three hares, features three rabbits running in a circle and their ears join in the center to make an equilateral triangle. This symbol transcends religions found in Buddhist, Muslim, Christian and Celtic/Nordic traditions. It's found on a cave wall in China and drawn on rocks in Germanic and Celtic stones, and found within Christian churches in the British Isles. Like many symbols, it has been adopted by religion, but not really religious, as religion is really the new kid on the block - symbolism goes back much further into the primordial origins and archetypes of humans. Symbols are the sacred geometric building blocks of the universe - circles, squares, and triangles. All things are built on, and with these 3 shapes and sacred geometry is the stuff upon which all material comes into formation. I told you we were going down a rabbit hole and here we go - if you look at the Triskele in Celtic illustrations the rabbits running in circles are often replaced by spirals - the spiral is the Fibonacci Sequence and the pattern that fractals, flowers, snails, trees, crystal and all life grows in. In other words, the triple rabbit is the fibonacci sequence, the sacred geometric pattern of all life.  So, my three rabbits running in a circle with a triangle in the center represent life itself. The kingdom of heaven is embodied in this flesh, for I am the kingdom, the power, and the glory. Amen. (singing a little) "Jesus Christ Superstar… do you think you are what they say you are?" I share this Andrew Lloyd Webber lyric to make a point - Jesus, our celebrated riser from the dead at this time of year (symbolizing the resurrection of the earth from winter and all the cycles of rebirth and fertility that come at the vernal equinox), DID know EXACTLY what he was and was trying REALLY REALLY hard to get the rest of us humans at the time to listen. We are spirit embodied in this flesh. The glory and power of divine energy is held within this physicality. Thus, all the power of a god to manifest miracles can come forth from within each and every one of us. Spirit is symbolized with a triangle, as is fire. The fire of alchemy, the transformation from muck to gold. From this mundane flesh to spirit. To be enlightened is to sever the attachment to this physical body, being ALL that we are and are meant to be in this life. Yes, our physical bodies are built from sacred geometry; just look at the double helix of our physical DNA and then at the glyph of the Kabbalistic Tree of Life. But that just means our spirit is currently contained in our flesh, not that we are only this flesh and blood.  Our journey in this lifetime, and what Jesus was trying to teach us, is that we can create miracles in our lives if we believe we are and choose to truly know ourselves as God. We need to know ourselves as divine beings capable of manifesting the life of purpose we want to live. But no one but ourselves can know yourself as this divine being. But once we choose to know ourselves as divine, as spirit, as a creator of our life - ignorance of our larger universal power cannot be taken away. The fundamental knowledge of the self as divine spirit opens the gate to the kingdom of heaven (not some place in the clouds with angels playing harps). Still, you reclaim your crown as the sovereign of your life and create a kingdom of joy, light, and abundance for yourself, your family and your community. And this is how we are going to create peace on earth. Like the church hymn. "Let there be peace on earth, and let it begin with me." Shambala is a world where humans have actualized themselves, awakened to the possibility that they are the creator God of their life and are living that daily. They are treating themselves as a God and thus treating others as a God. If you know and love yourself as a divine and worthy being, you can know and love another as a divine and worthy being. Even if that divine being makes choices that harm you. You can forgive those who harm you because they know not what they do. They are ignorant that they are God and that they are harming another god. They are ignorant that they have a choice in what they are doing. Okay, some of you may now think I've fallen off my proverbial rocker with this rabbit hole. I've gone from three rabbits running in a circle to sacred geometry, Jesus Christ Superstar, and You are God. Yep—and now we are going to talk about the Easter Bunny. Jesus Christ, Angel. Yep, Exactly.  In my research about rabbits and hares, in an attempt to find some creative take on talking about Abundance Mindset or fertility, I went down a small hole little road about the Oschter Hare, i.e., The Easter Hare or i.e., the Easter Bunny to which many today attributes to the myth of Ostara or Eostre turning a bird into a rabbit and the rabbit laying eggs to show its gratitude to the goddess. This legend is pretty recent (like the late 1800s), but as synchronicity would have it, one article I read quoted a story from an April 13, 1911, Warren, Minnesota newspaper. My mother is from Warren, Minnesota as was her mother and father, my maternal grandparents George and Agnes Sabol. My grandparents were both from prolific Catholic families with 12 and 13 siblings at once. They were farmers of the midwestern plains, stoic and practical - but seeing the date of 1911 I wondered if either of them (George or Agnes) saw the article when they were growing up and if either of them ever believed in the Easter bunny. Ironically, Warren is the name of a home for rabbits - I learned this as a little person reading Watership Down, which isn't a book for children. However, I was not a normal child, and I picked up most of what Richard Adams was lying down with his rabbit allegory.   The quote from the 1911 Warren, Minnesota newspaper article reads.  "The Easter Bunny is said to have been a bird which at one time drew the chariot of the goddess of spring and was turned into a hare. Every year, however, at the coming of spring, the hare remembers and in commemoration of its original bird nature lays eggs as an offering to spring & youth that it symbolizes."  I never really believed in the Easter Bunny, but I did enjoy the tradition of the basket and the chocolate that was found there on Easter Sunday morning. I'm still not a fan of Cadbury eggs to this day (too sweet) but Easter Candy makes me think about my grandmother Agnes and going to church. (I'd always stuff my pockets with easter candy when brought to church on easter, and the chocolate would melt and get all over my hands, to my grandmother's great dissatisfaction). My grandmother loved to sing hymns. I think when she sang in church, it was one of the few times she felt joy in her life - because at that moment, she could connect with God within and without and be in the light, free from the sorrow of a life pockmarked with abuse, alcoholism and pain caused by untreated stomach and emotional maladies. I loved to watch her sing even if I hated being in the church because I knew it was her happy place, and nowhere else was.   I've spent a lot of time thinking about my grandmother Agnes. When you are a really young woman, and you watch one of your primary caregivers so miserable that they drink themselves to death, it sticks with you. And I know now that she suffered from the side effects of being sexually abused as a small child and other untreated trauma. But sorrow is not the only thing I learned from my grandmother Agnes. I knew the power of planting seeds and nourishing the world around you. She was a master gardener, and her plants were prolific. She was the living embodiment of The Empress archetype or the abundant mother goddess Lakshmi, as everything she touched grew abundantly, and she fed her family from her bounty. On an income of nothing but social security, my family never had food insecurity. There were vats of sauerkraut, beets, asparagus, fresh beans, carrots, tomatoes, radishes, lettuce, and raspberries all summer long, and pickles and canned things all winter. The men brought home the venison, and the women waited in line for government cheese and agricultural subsidies. We were financially poor but we were neither hungry nor lacking, ever. There was always enough money and prosperity to give to the church and to celebrate all holidays and birthdays. All of our needs were met. And we always sang. Sang in church. Sang when picking the beans. Sang when making a lemon meringue pie. And when singing, she knew joy, and we always had enough. And this is true abundance - joy in knowing you are spirit, resting upon gratitude and celebration of what you have even if it is not perfect, even sometimes if it is very far from ideal. When we can have true gratitude for everything we have and celebrate it and our life, we can be in a space of true joy and flow abundance in all aspects.   In some ways, it is just that simple. It is a rabbit laying eggs to celebrate spring and show gratitude to the goddess when it remembers it was once a bird. It is recognition that we are something way bigger and greater underneath this flesh. It is remembering who we truly are. We are spirit. We have never been born, and we will never die as spirits. And by remembering who we are we tap into the universal knowing, into the flow of life itself, and we start to create and love and experience joy - and thus take steps to nourish ourselves and others holistically - not just our physical bodies so we can step out of survival mode/lack mentality and instead see beyond lizard brain and switch into thriving/ abundance mindset where there is always enough. We run not away from things but towards things or for the joy of the wind in our hair or the feeling of using our legs where we gain the courage to create new pathways to plant new seeds in our life for new experiences versus settling for comfort zones. So, our exercise for this month is to plant a seed of joy in your life and to celebrate an accomplishment to nourish that joy with song and dance.  First, meditate and get clarity on one thing you want to create for yourself by August (1st Harvest/Lammas). You will have four months to nurture this seed. Write down what you want to create on a slip of paper. Now, take this piece of paper outside and find an appropriate place to plant it on the earth. You will dig up a little bit of soil and plant it, just like you would a natural seed.  After you bury it, you will nourish that joy seed with the water and fertilizer of your song and dance. You are going to celebrate unabashedly with complete silliness around the seed. Sing your favorite song or hymn, or make up a ditty and dance around the joy seed at least three times. But I encourage you to do even more than 3, work up a sweat! Get into it! Make yourself laugh at yourself. Belt that song out of those lungs and celebrate life, what you have accomplished, and what you can do as a divine being. You are the creator of your destiny. You are the rabbit who can lay eggs because you remember who you truly are! Dance in that circle, nourish your joy and grow in abundance. You are the nurturer, the God, the goddess; you are the spirit! You can create miracles. The kingdom of spirit is embodied in your flesh. Dance it out. Make that seed grow, sprout, and blossom into abundance throughout your life. You got this. Have fun with it! Light that alchemical fire of joy in your heart.  Well, I hope you enjoyed this little circle down a rabbit hole today, my friends. May you have a joyful spring, a blessed Ostara, a happy Easter, and a prayer-filled Ramadan. If you need a little assistance planting seeds of abundance and nourishment in your life, I can help with that! Reach out via my website and book a call today. 

“There are no happy endings in Love.  Because as long as love exists there is no ending but transformation. Love is the force that transforms eternity.”  Sovereign Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon  (Angel singing all you need is love) “Love is all you need.” The Beatles Yet, love is not enough for a relationship between two people to flourish. Long-term romantic relationships require effort applied to the appropriate object (the relationship) in order to work long-term. And the appropriate object is not the other person in the relationship with you - that results in the desire to change the other person, or fixate on them for good or bad, and it creates dependency on them like a substance. (now you want to love and care for and be kind to the other person but that is not the focus point of your effort when in a romantic relationship).  So, let me backup for a second. Let me describe what I've learned about relationships hermetically.  Imagine that a relationship is a pyramid (a triangle). The two people in love and in relationship form the base of the pyramid so man and woman or man/man, woman/woman are at the two corners - then at the top of the pyramid is The Relationship. It is a 3rd entity, a “child” so to speak created by the two beings in relationship, through the exchange of masculine and feminine energies. The Relationship itself is an entity and it is born of the two making a commitment to themself and to the other to always better themself (because we are not perfect) and better the relationship (because its made of two imperfect beings - so needs effort and nurture and improvement of those two beings to thrive). The only way the relationship is going to work is if there is TRUST - consistency of actions and repeatedly doing what you said you were going to do for and with the other person, and for and with yourself in relation to that other person. PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY - recognition that as a human being you are not perfect and that you are always seeing, hearing,doing things thru a filter of your mind/thoughts/programming and that you are going to do your best to acknowledge and take responsibility for your mind/thoughts/programming in all of their imperfections. COMMITMENT - commitment to the relationship via the discipline of being a better individual through personal growth and development. Discipline to know thyself better and be better in the world through the positive actualization of your purpose. Finally encircling all of these, ideally there is a shared understanding of value in something between the two people - family, faith, spirituality, purpose. Maybe simply the recognition that all humans are just that, human, and we all deserve to be treated as such.  Returning to the point - If you are committed to making yourself better because you Love yourself and respect yourself as a divine being then you can respect the other human in the relationship the same way, and then work with that person to nourish the relationship like you are raising a child. Resting this nourishment on the foundation of Trust, Honesty, Personal Responsibility, Commitment and Care - you can love and flow love in this cycle because the channel for that love to flow is held open by those foundational elements I described and the archway they create. (and if one of these elements is missing then like a dam the flow for your love gets blocked and the child/relationship will suffer). If you can't see yourself first as the central sun of your universe, making your own world with your thoughts, actions and perspectives, all of the foundational elements are challenged.  If all you see is the world acting upon you, standing in need, or in victim or blaming other people for not treating you right or giving you what you need, then you are not able to take responsibility for yourself as the creator of the central source of awareness in your universe. It is essential to recognize that every relationship with every single person, place or thing in your life starts in your mind.  It lives first in your thoughts and those thoughts are colored by that mind.  So let me put a pause on the relationship between two people, for just a moment so we can understand this extremely important point.  First let's just define what is a relationship period, and how relationships work in your life.  A relationship is simply a connection you have with a person, place or thing and it can be positive or negative. It does not require there to be affection, for example you can have a relationship with your car, your computer, your house, your city of residence. You can also have relationships with pets and with people - family, friends, colleagues, employees, your favorite barista.  And then you have romantic relationships with your spouse, lover, partner whatever label you choose and state of commitment you are in.  Everything you do is in relationship and every relationship is colored by your thoughts and thus your mind (because this is Hermetic Principle #1 ALL IS MIND). It is an oversimplification but no matter where you go, what you have or who you are with THERE YOU ARE.  You cannot leave yourself out of any relationship, or else you would be dead and there would be NO RELATIONSHIP for you (you can have relationships with dead persons but that is a whole other topic for another day). You are the CENTER of your relationships not because you are the center of everyone's universe but because you are the center of your own universe.  And all relationships with everything in your life first take place in your mind. Your thoughts affect every interaction and connection you have.  And these thoughts come from your mind. You act on what is inside your head for better or for worse. Thus, if we are going to improve our world and our relationships (which are our world) we first have to clean up our thoughts/mind so we can start to discern what really is going on inside us and thus truly see what is happening outside of us. In addition - how we treat ourselves is tantamount to how we treat others. So we have to take responsibility for how we love and care for ourselves, and know ourselves first before we can really know what it is to love another person, and understand better what is happening in the relationships we choose to make. And we choose all of our relationships consciously or subconsciously, we are 100% at the epicenter of every positive or negative relationship in our lives whether those are with people, places or things.  So the Key to us having healthy positive relationships (and a good life because our entire life is made up of relationships) is having a good relationship with yourself. Knowing Yourself. Taking care of yourself. Loving yourself. Taking responsibility for yourself. If you first know thyself - you will have good relationships with persons, places and things because you'll realize that your external reality is a reflection of your inner reality (Hermetic Principle #2 As above so below, as within so without). And you will start to actualize the reality you desire to live in and experience actual joy and purpose. OK so with that all reviewed let's go back to the main event. My bold statement that Love is not enough for a romantic relationship to work. I'm definitely statistically accurate in the United States with marriages currently having a less than 50% success rate. But this is not a podcast about legal trends or even the cause of divorce (but I will note that the #1 reported cause of divorce is infidelity, The Destroyer of Trust, one of the 3 foundations necessary for nourishment to flow to The Relationship).  Alright so if love, or loving the other person is not enough, what is?  Well that is just it. It is the focus of your attention on the appropriate object, and in the case of Your relationships what is the one common denominator?  You.  You must be committed to knowing yourself,  and creating positive growth of the self so that you are able to capably understand and discern that you are actually in a relationship, and be the person that allows that relationship to grow and sustain.  Let's use an overly simplistic thought example.  If you think “this person is harming me.” Then that is your reality. But are they?  Are they stabbing you with a knife? That would be objective harm. Are they saying no to a particular request? Is that NO harm?  Maybe you just do not like the answer and it “hurts” you in that you feel something you do not like.  But what is that actually?  Maybe they are preventing physical harm by saying no?  What is the objective reality of the situation? What if you analyze the inputs from around you, and within you, and acknowledge what is happening? Can you discern reality? Or are you experiencing a fact pattern that the negative ego mind is putting directly into a proof to make the other person wrong for their boundary i.e. saying no and because you don't like this, you label it bad or harm?  Now let's take an example from my life. First I want to be really vulnerable about my life. If you were to look at my track record of relationships you would see a pattern of me experiencing a pattern of major betrayals of trust.  One partner I have “loved” after another in my life has significantly lied to me, usually around a core issue of fidelity at major points in our relationship, or I have been left suddenly (in most cases because they chose another). I actually, until recently, had a lot of shame around this. I felt like there was something wrong with me. All I've ever wanted was a devoted partner to share this life with but all I found was one heartbreak after another. (long sigh)  Boohoo tragic me. That is until I owned the pattern as a reflection of how I treated myself. I was subconsciously setting myself up to fail by choosing relationships that would result in the very outcome my little person and anxious attachment abandoned me was trying to avoid.  It was me who kept leading myself to situations where I was ultimately going to be rejected, lied to, and/or experience infidelity.  Recently, the universe delivered me the gift of having to start dating again. This time around knowing what I know now about my patterns I went into it promising myself I would not repeat what I did before. I was also going to be very aware of my past hurts and triggers and not project them upon anyone I am dating. Furthermore if I was going to date anyone they had to be on the same page about this and willing to and be able to communicate in the moment about thoughts, feelings and not take the process personally. But instead be willing to come to the table to discuss in the moment what happens between two people when they learn to relate.  Essentially, I was going to follow the formula I am sharing with you. Hours and hours of hermetic and spiritual training have been about overcoming this core issue in my life. I've achieved everything else. But this area I keep failing at. So with that lens of seeking someone first who was willing and able to communicate, in the moment, directly, objectively, and with the same desire of truly getting to know the other person for the sake of creating a long term relationship - I find myself practicing just that with someone. And as I continue to get to know him, things have come up that set off my anxiousness, my fear of betrayal, my fears of screwing things up, of being too much, of driving people away.  But the difference this time, when those fears come up, we have together created a safe space to share them, acknowledge what is happening in the moment, and inquire further where they are coming from.  For example, in my life -  I called my new Significant Other and said I needed to go to Southern Florida to help my father, he mentioned some resources he had in that area, and without clarifying if he was actually offering them to me specifically - I heard it as an offer to help me with my situation. But we made no firm plans, like a date to go and use these resources. And then a week later when I was going to start confirming specifics he tells me he is unavailable as he had some serious health appointments he needed to go to. Two things happen at this moment for me - 1. A part of me was like OMG he made a promise and now he isn't following through (siren alarm! Red flag! eep!) and 2. Why didn't he tell me he had this health stuff going on? And then I paused myself from the emotional drama train and asked what actually happened? What objectively occurred? (versus what I thought happened)  What did you actually say in that conversation? Were you clear? Did I ask for assistance directly? Did you make any firm agreement to anything? And then as far as the health stuff, at our stage of relationship most people don't get out their planner and just start listing off major doctors appointments coming up.  I didn't tell him about mine, why would he tell me his?  Telling myself the truth, I had to acknowledge that there was very likely a huge gap between what objectively occurred and what I perceived. So instead of turning over the proverbial table in some sort of temper tantrum and playing right into negative emotions from old patterns and self sabotaging -  I chose the opportunity to learn how each one of us works better.  And that is how I presented it when we talked.  I started with telling him that I think I misunderstood something, and I wanted to know where that miscommunication rooted from, so that going forward it didn't happen again. We came to a very easy and thoughtful place of clarity on what happened with no drama or erosion of trust.  Just the opposite. We now have a reference point for planning things together in the future. Which if applied consistently by each of us will create more trust. Alright my friends, I hope you are seeing the necessity of self-clarity in your relationships. You can love someone but if there is no trust, no personal responsibility for your thoughts and programming, no commitment to working on yourself for the sake of yourself and the relationship then there is no container for that love to flow into, and the child (the relationship) will starve. Meanwhile, if you do not know yourself, if you do not love yourself, then you will not be able to discern what really is going on in your relationship with yourself, let alone your relationship with others.  So, my exercise for everyone this month is just this.  You are going to look into the mirror every morning for the next 7 days and say “I Love You”  to yourself. Seriously, look into your own eyes deeply and say it.  I love you. Do it. Then repeat it. I Love You. Allow the words to sink deep into your heart. Then repeat it again. I Love you. Sit with it.  And do this every day for 7 days - in the morning, first thing. And if it is hard - then you know that you have some things to work on in your relationship with yourself. and I can help with that!  Reach out and book a call with me. Let's get you on the road to being able to say “I love you” with ease and see how that self mastery blossoms into a bouquet of beautiful relationships with others. 

When we are born and take our first breath, our soul enters this physical flesh, and we become animated. We enter this density and forget what it was like to be a spirit. The only thing that keeps us tethered to that experience is our soul - and as we learn things from this physical experience through our five physical and spiritual senses, our experience as spirit gets further and further away. We start building many programs that display our personality and become masks we wear. We project ways of being upon ourselves like a drive-in movie theater screen. For example, if this happens, it means this is about me or another person. I'm not worthy of love because…, we can't have nice things, that way of life is not for me… or in front of my parents, I act this way; when dating, I'm this way; when at work, I am this way. You have so many autonomous programs and various masks. When you are an adult, you forget entirely who you are. You also get super attached to this rental vehicle of physicality (some of us call it a meat suit) we walk around in. We believe this is all there is - perhaps diving into hedonistic pleasures that physicality has to offer us headlong to cope with the sense that this is all there is. Drinking, eating, sexting your way through life, putting more in, in an attempt to fill the void in your heart where a sense of purpose should be.  Or you may bury yourself under another identity - mom, soldier, project manager, content creator, influencer. I don't know whatever form of busy floats your boat and how you associate every aspect of yourself with that job or role. But you can't be that role, job, or version of yourself forever. The flesh gives out, our beauty fades, we get injured, we get fat, we lose our strength, our hearing, our sigh. Either way, our purpose can never be found simply in the job we do because we are more than this body and this physical experience.  We are spirit. (Pause) We have never been born, and we will never die (as spirit). But this physical body will most certainly die and fall away - that is the one certainty of this physical experience we are all having. Death.  Wow. Angel. What a way to start out a new season of your podcast on a bright note. I am reminding everyone that they die. This is the truth, though. My job as an estate planning attorney is precisely this - I remind people of their mortality and get them to prepare for it so they do not leave their families a big, stinking, expensive mess when the physical inevitability occurs. It is never too early to plan, but it can always be too late. "if you are having trouble with planning, I can help! Feel free to shoot me an email for more information. Stay tuned until the end of the episode for contact info." But the point of this podcast today is to talk about a smaller kind of death and rebirth. The type of death held and symbolized within the Rider Waite Tarot card (Death), in the Rune stone Eihwaz, and in the cycle of the Phoenix. Renewal through the conscious choice to let go of your shit. Flush it down the toilet and start fresh. Or the willing submission to the holy fire of transformation - by letting go of the old so there is room for the new.   Let's briefly talk about the Phoenix in case you need to familiarize yourself with this mythological being. Per my Signs & Symbols sourcebook, the bird symbolizes alchemy because it is reborn for its ashes after voluntarily combusting. Keyword here. Voluntarily. There is a whole process - where the Phoenix goes around the world collecting aromatic wood, herbs, and spices so it can build its funeral pyre in a date palm tree. Then it lights itself on fire and is reborn upon the next day's dawn.  While alive for 500 to 1500 years, the Phoenix persists only on aromatic wood smoke, thus not harming anything to eat.  Let's focus on the voluntary submission to the purifying flames, thus bringing rebirth as an archetype for us to explore. More importantly, the ritual. The slow, intentional gathering of the right spices, wood, and herbs, building a nest in a particular place, and performing the act in a specific time-space order for the magickal creatures' transformation. What is critical to this ritual is the intention. The willingness to let go of one life/to die because out the other side is more beauty, joy, and freedom.  Now, not every change/little death in our lives happens this methodically. We may be forced to renew an aspect of ourselves because something is destroyed or stolen or a relationship with a person ends suddenly. Proverbial band-aids are ripped off in our lives all the time. I lost a lot of things this last year - so many that a part of me is tired of being resilient - but I didn't lose myself. I found more of myself than ever in the process of losing.  This last year, I found myself robbed in a foreign country, far from home. The violation of that theft and losing all my healing tools became a gift. This is how I approached death. Intentionally and purposefully, I released the attachment, giving me the power to be reborn, just like the Phoenix.  It was late summer; I walked out the door of my hotel in Mississauga, Ontario, at 8 am and looked at the empty parking space where my Luna (my moon rock colored 2023 Toyota 4 runner) was supposed to be and thought, "Where is my car?!"  Yes, My car was gone, not misplaced nor towed, but STOLEN!   Can you imagine my heartbreak when I realized I was suddenly being given the spiritual lesson of "examining my relationship with my car."  It has been said that "to affect reality, you have to acknowledge the actual reality of a situation."   Interestingly enough, I had spent the previous two days listening to Sovereign Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon teach on the hermetic of relationships. Therefore, I was in inappropriate headspace to face the immediate reality that my car had disappeared. This isn't any car. This was my 45th birthday present to myself - and it was gone! Along with a lifetime of collected tools in the lockbox and my suitcase holding all my gear for the "Warriors of Light Martial Arts Retreat" that I was headed to in a few days.   Surprisingly calm, I returned to the front desk of the hotel, reporting my stolen car. Not being a citizen of Canada, I also realized I needed to learn how to call the police. I sent my friend ahead to class to let them know I'd be delayed due to car theft and set about calling the police, insurance, and Toyota to start the tracking of my vehicle - and then the realization of all the things I had lost began to trickle into my brain.  A huge part of me just wanted to sit down and cry - but I knew denying the loss and getting angry about it wasn't going to change the fact that my car had been stolen. Based on the security footage shown to me by the hotel manager, the skilled and savvy thieves likely had it on a shipping container to Sudan.  Losing my car was an extreme violation. Losing my Life Activation Wand was a heartbreaker. Losing my favorite "Trampled by Turtles" sweatshirt, my adored watermelon patterned dress, and my go-to sneakers was a HUGE bummer. But I immediately and voluntarily surrendered to the things I had an attachment to - it was just that, THINGS. No amount of emotional theatrics and painful gesticulation would bring them back. I could shake my fist at the sky and call in holy hellfire upon the thieves and their descendants, but that just seemed dramatic, and I had things to do, places to be, and a life to live, which would be a major inconvenience.   And at the end of the day, I was OK. I was OK, mentally and physically; no one had harmed my body or family or dog - it was just stuff.  My colleagues were surprised at how calm I was. Luckily, for the next 3 days, I was in a class called "Know Thyself," where I got to meditate with Jesus, Buddha, and Mohammed and make art. It was the best possible way to recover from this massive violation.  I share this example from my life as my version of "The Phoenix Story" because although having everything stolen from me was not my choice, my reaction to the theft was my choice.  And like the Phoenix, I submitted willingly to the transformation. And this is what made the difference, as it allowed me to upgrade everything about my life and healing practice, which was 100% because I intended to release the attachment and will enable the renewal to occur. On a brighter note, I got the red version of the car that I had initially wanted but had to settle for Moonstone gray.  Change happens in our lives regularly. Deaths happen in our lives as we allow ourselves to evolve. If we get stuck on the old way, the attachment holds us back and causes pain & suffering. If we release the attachment - we can be reborn, fly onto greater heights, and experience joy from the process.  So here is an exercise for you to embrace change and intentionally allow alchemical renewal into your life.   First, identify and create a space to sit and meditate. It doesn't have to be perfect, just quiet, clear of clutter and debris, and in view of an altar.  Second, create an altar if you don't already have one place, two white candles, a rock, a feather, and some incense, or a diffuser with the lovely essential oil you enjoy smelling.   Third, which is a bonus rather than a necessity - collect some palo santo. You can purchase this at your local spiritual or earth magick supply store/crystal shop or order it from Amazon. Now, in the intentional environment you have set up for yourself, light the candles, burn the palo santo (just a little bit so the smoke wafts over your face and body), burn the incense, or start your diffuser and sit and meditate to get clarity on the things you want to let go of, on the things you need to release.   What are you carrying around as baggage weighing you down? Who do you need to forgive? (remember yourself). What past things are you attached to and sad about or experiencing some emotion that you can now do nothing about? While you meditate, remember to breathe. Take deep breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth.  Just allow the information to come in however it does, and then after 10 min or so, journal what you have experienced. Write down anything that comes to mind. Allow it to flow from pen to paper so you ground the truth and reality of it for your life. You are taking ideas from thought to reality on paper. Now, pick one or two of the oversized items and write them out on individual slips of paper.   Then, identify somewhere safe to burn things. You are going to build yourself a little ritual fire. Take your palo santo, and find some dry cedar if it's available where you are. You could find some excellent wood chips that you'd put in a BBQ or cinnamon sticks and pine needles. Just make sure your little funeral pyre is aromatic and intentional to you.   Then light it up! And place your phoenix papers into the fire. Use this purposeful ritual to release those things you are attached to so you can truly be renewed and refreshed and start anew.   Watch everything in the fire burn and hold gratitude as you do. Therein lies your rebirth.  You can do this exercise for any of the things you experienced in your meditation or for things that come up later. What is most important as a takeaway from this exercise is the choice to intentionally and voluntarily submit to letting go. That voluntary and intentional act is the energy that brings renewal.  As I started this podcast sharing - yes - everyone dies. This is part of our physical existence. But so is listening to our soul, getting past the autonomous programming to remember who you really are - which is spirit. A divine being who creates their reality with their thoughts and actions.   If this podcast or anything I've brought up intrigues you - or if you want to learn daily practices that can help you create your life more intentionally, find more joy, or get over your proverbial baggage. I can help with that! Reach out via my website, angellatterell.com, and book a call. Let's talk about the benefits of the Empower Thyself class & initiation and other means of actualizing what lies within you for the best and highest good!   

S2 Episode 6: Rising Above the Rhythm of the Universe  Part One: November 2022  "Are you ok?" my good friend asked me on the phone a couple of days ago, and I couldn't answer him because I was holding back the tears of my grief. My greatest temptation took a huge piece of my heart with it.  I didn't want this post about Rhythm to be part two of Angel's traumatic relationship loss story, but I had to let that go because this is the story that happened, and it is a fine example of the pendulum swing in my life. It is also how I used my practice of service to others and meditation to neutralize it.  I have been awake but living a nightmare. The nightmare began the day I found out about her. The nightmare most recently came in the form of a social media profile picture. There, my alleged life partner was walking down the aisle in unholy matrimony with her, the other woman, his gut-wrenching secret, only three short months after I found out about her and thus, ended us.   This nightmare evokes a soul-crushing "what the fuck?!"   That moment, upon seeing the picture,I knew I had dodged a bullet of crazy. That the drama train left the station without me on it, I should be relieved, say good riddance, sayonara – I'm moving on without that weight of irresponsibility strapped to my ankle.  But the emotional me, the part that loved and believed in what their best friend shared with them, is crying her eyes out. A wounded and broken child experiencing betrayal of the most profound kind, the knife turning yet again in a deeply broken heart., "I don't want my choices to affect you," he said when I found out about her.   I wanted to stab him with my ceremonial Athame. But instead of committing premeditated murder, I told him I would be removing myself from this fucked up "friendship" so I could heal and no longer be subjected to his selfish and hurtful choices.   So the Law of Rhythm states, "Everything flows out and in; everything has its tides; all things rise and fall; the pendulum swing manifests in everything; the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; rhythm compensates."                                                                                    -The Kybalion  Because I know the hermetic principle, I haven't acted on "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." Oh, I want to unblock his wife on Facebook and tell her all the ways he's lied to her, that her marriage is based on falsity, and that I curse them both to a life of unhappiness and complete lack of joy. But that action would result only in a dramatic rhythm swing reaction to the other way, bouncing back at me worse than any fury I can deliver in their direction.  Because that is the law – every action has a reaction, the tide goes out and the tide goes in. This is the Way.  Humans experience great joy; humans experience great sorrow (that is, if they have the capacity for it).  Now I've been grieving this relationship since August despite my best efforts to move on. And why? Because I didn't neutralize, I instead hung on to the attachment. I thought our civility, our friendship, was fulfilling a need of mine – and maybe, because of the continued lies on his part, I had some twisted hope that he'd come back to me after this misguided episode with the psycho bitch he cheated on me with. I just had to bide my time and do my work, and it would all work out. Instead, this was likely an extended denial of my grief at losing my lover and best friend without closure, explanation, or apology. I burned all his gifts to me in the temple at Burning Man, but it didn't cut the cord. And I kept getting pulled back in. So my poor heart was broken multiple times because I was unwilling to cut the cord.  Then I think of the joy and elation I experienced in the relationship. Laughter and dancing, sharing of Tarot, and Rune spreads the feeling that someone truly listened and understood me and accepted me no matter what. He was holding me up and supporting me unconditionally. I never had that ever before in a relationship.  A person willing to do their work, or so it seemed. Until it got hard, and they started drinking again.  Pendulum swing, great joy, great sorrow.  And even though I volunteered to give up my a normal life, for one of service and true joy, the ripping away of that, my greatest temptation, took a massive piece of my heart with it. And my grief is as if someone died. Because they did. the man who was my best friend and honorable lover is dead to me. The man that exists is a scared, hurt child, incapable of loving anyone.    All he could do was deflect, lie, and deny culpability.  Energy not worthy of my time, my effort – we are not in alignment.  I have to feel the grief without giving in to the rage and drama monster that wants to come out. And I have to declare boundaries to prevent myself from swimming into the toxic forgiveness pool to stay this man's friend.   Part Two: January 2023  Since writing part one, I've learned a couple of things.  One "Love Bombing" is what a narcissist does to reel you into their world and enlist you in their menagerie. Narcissists use people, and then they cast them aside when that need is fed, or you are used up, and they can't get what they want from you anymore.  My ex love-bombed me. Because he is a narcissist, and I fulfilled a need. He immediately enlisted me in his children's life. After all, he needed someone like me to care for them because he was functionally and emotionally abandoning them. I thought it was because he trusted me that he was so vulnerable, bringing me deep into his life so soon. But, no, I was just an easy target. I gave him the keys to how to manipulate me in our first 24 hours together, and he used them all.  Since cutting him off, he's tried to keep the lines of communication open – Communication for a space to vent, someone to loan him money, or a place to run away from his crazy new bride. On New Years, he asked me if he could store all his stuff with me so he could leave his wife, "the past few months have been tough for me," he said like the pathetic man-child he is. I could laugh at his level of ego; if I hadn't moved on, I would have been pulled right back onto his crazy train. But I let his pendulum swing without me in the equation. I told him he'd have to leave his wife without my help and this situation was not for me to be involved in. His lesson is to now manage his karma.  Shockingly, I have not heard from him since proving my narcissist theory. I'm discarded now because I offer nothing more to him. I'm not useful to his story of the victim.  As I'm now clear of his toxic tentacles, I've mourned the death of the person I was in love with. I'm now free of the swings of emotion, reclaimed my power, and neutralized the Rhythm of this negative vibration in my life.  How? prayer, meditation, ritual, truth-telling, patience, energy healing, service, literally moving across the country and starting over. Vitamin D is a cure for a lot of things, and the sunlight, quiet and rest of my new home in Northern Florida have given me perspective. But mostly, it's been the time, honesty, and forgiveness of myself that broke the pattern. So lovely humans, I hope to post another podcase before five months go by again. But in the meantime, please take the principles of Rhythm to heart. We cannot escape the tides of fate, but we can neutralize the drama train, the pendulum swing in our lives, by choosing to be above engagement. It is a ride we can step off.  If you would like to learn how – I can help with that! Reach out. I would love to work with you.    

THIS summer I got stuck. The stickiness began with a devastating event. An event that first shocked and then struck and then stuck my soul - Have you ever been caught in some twisted limbo? Stuck ping-ponging between extremes of hot and cold, love and hate, quiet and loud, soft and hard, easy and difficult, fast and slow? When I started this second season of the Laws of Abundance, I thought it might be easy to use examples from my life about the seven primary Hermetic Principles. AND in some way that's true, the laws of Hermetics are at work ALL of the time around and within us. But what I found this summer is that I got well -  STUCK. (say with emphasis). I was stuck traveling between poles, between places of polarity.  So polarity is the hermetic principle that says two things - like hot and cold are of the same nature, they just vary by degree.  We can see this most easily with hot and cold simply by looking at a thermometer.  Both are temperatures that we experience - it is just the vibration of cold is very different from the vibration of hot - but both are experienced and known as temperature.  Interestingly enough when cold is at an extreme it can burn us, just as hot at an extreme can burn - the only thing different is how it feels when it is happening.   So let's extrapolate this to Love and Hate.  Both are emotive forces that cause great passion between two individuals. Love is one extreme with its own flavor and degree of passion associated, and Hate is on the other side of the scale, also resulting in a form of passion, albeit usually with a very different result than love when one gives in to it.  But both (like hot and cold) are the same in nature, they just differ by the degree. In my life recently I've been on a bit of a teeter totter of polarities.  Quiet and Loud as I spent time in the country and the city.  Bright and Dark - the light in the Pacific Northwest versus the light in the South or Middle of the United States.   Since I talked to you last my life trajectory, my relationships, my physical locations all shifted. I am literally a different person than I was in May. And in the middle of it I've been in a state of agitation, rest, trial, accomplishment, transition and love. I've experienced some of my greatest fears, greatest challenges, greatest connections, as well as betrayal and now am on a path to my greatest joy through service! (make sure you add feeling here)      So what happened? The million dollar question… Well, I went from my one-year anniversary with a person I thought was my life partner to finding out my other half had made the ultimate betrayal.  Some time after our last trip together in April he started another relationship with another woman.  For four months he lied to me and kept her hidden. I may have never known if it wasn't for the other woman reaching out to me in a jealous rage.  Needless to say, our relationship is over, and I am dealing now with the polarities of love and hate. Of truth and lies. Of anger and forgiveness. Im processing many things on the spectrum of my emotions that occur after being so connected and honest with someone – giving them your heart and then finding it tossed aside in their own self-centered choices. However, I still have my own choices. The choice to be angry, to lash out, or even hate!  Betrayal is a very rough feeling – especially after being vulnerable and finally willing myself to trust another. Trust does not come easy to me. It is something I really have had to learn and lean into.   Leaning into the negative vibration now and lashing out because I am wounded however, is not helpful to my life, my purpose, or my mission. Love is the force that, if it flows through me, heals all within me and others. There is a quote about polarity from the Kybalion  “Everything is dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half-truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled.” Hermetics teaches that things seemingly diametrically opposed to each other is merely a matter of degree. In other words, opposites are the same in nature, they just differ by degree. AND that degree is created through vibration. So, in my current situation if I focus on the betrayal, the negative vibration, I bring myself down further. Because victim is not the vibration of love and healing. It is my wounded wailer on repeat – oh woe is me the world is filled with haters and assholes out to harm me.  No bueno.    On the other hand,  I can focus on the positive about this situation. The clarity, the timing, the way this information came in. In my case my relationship ended the moment I came back to the world from my spirit quest, my initiation as a 3rd step Ritual Master in the Lineage of King Salomon. There were no bones about it. When I went to the mountain I was in a relationship with this person – when I came back it was obvious that I could not be, and that the relationship itself was a hindrance to my purpose and path that I had committed my new self fully upon. It still hurt like hell. But it was clear.   There is the story of the Last Temptation of Christ. And this last temptation for him was one of a Normal Life. Just marrying a lovely girl named Mary and being a carpenter for the rest of his days. Christ chose differently, we all know. He didn't lead a normal life. He died and left this physical existence and went on to become a Master of Light, teaching us the energy of love and compassion (among other things religions have done in his name but that's another story). I am not Jesus (but he did say “everything I can do, you can do and more”)   In June the opportunity to apply to 3rd Step came up. I had not answered the call with a yes before, as honestly, I was VERY attached to my possibility of a normal life and scared to sever my attachments to it. But as 2022 progressed, I was feeling empty from any regular pursuits and knew that being in service to a greater cause than myself was and is my true source of joy and satisfaction. AND as a result, and my guides literally yelling at me to stop dragging my feet. I quote “Angel, stop fucking around!” were the words that came through from them. So I applied, and sure enough was accepted and in August – despite a lot of inconvenience and looks of “why on earth” and “what are you doing” from normal rational people, I undertook the spirit journey that is the 3rd step initiation and have since entered my new life of full commitment to this path. Holding the light of showing others the way to find their own path, light, and true self. So, the powers that be in the hierarchy of light are not sentimental beings. They saw my commitment, saw obstacles in my path and removed them. OR, at least, gave me the clarity I needed to get them out of my own way. In this case the big hairy elephant and remaining attachment in my living room was my relationship. An albatross eating my energy as I spent so much time holding space for something that could not be contained. I'm not going to go into specifics of blame, I actually recognize both sides of the energy that resulted in the effects. His choices. My choices. We all have to do our work on ourselves and make our own choices. And in this work, I'm currently choosing love and forgiveness as the means of moving forward. I hold compassion for the jealous woman who turned her anger and harassment toward an innocent person as she clutched to an unsafe relationship and the person who betrayed both of us. And I hold compassion for the man who must self-sabotage and avoid leaning into joy because of his sincere lack of self-worth and insecurity.  I do my best to get out of my own way here and recognize it is now my job and my commitment to hold love despite the severing and betrayal  Love flowing through me is the highest vibration I can hold, and living that vibration is the only way to be of service to others.  Looking back at my summer, I can now see how all the all of the discomfort I felt in Seattle and in my own skin was preparation for this. My own intuition was screaming for me to hear it. In this process and the visit to my family in Michigan this summer I have found ways to rest and take care of myself that I hadn't before and to know that I am destined other places than the city I currently live in. But my movement to new places is unattached to another – it is only attached to my purpose. I made a commitment to work for humanity and the hierarchy of light, I chose the un-normal life. I am in the world but not of it now.  And because I can recognize the nature of things, I can choose the degree that I experience polarity in all things – even devastating heartbreak.  If you have difficult things you need to let go of, release or change in your life. Reach out. I can help with that!   The energetic tools of the lineage of King Salomon work and will  release even the most painful of wounds if you choose a path of healing.    

Everything on this earth holds a vibration. We can't see them but atoms are little solar systems rotating around a sun, just as planets and moons are rotating around their planets and suns, and galaxies. They are all in movement all the time. This movement that has a resulting frequency is Hermetic Principle of Vibration. In some ways it the acceptance and acknowledgment that every THING is always in motion.  And you are now like - Great, right. Thanks, Angel. What does this principle of Hermetics have to do with me and my life? Scientists and physicists yes, but me? Well, if everything is in motion, then we are in motion, if everything has a vibration than we have a vibration, and thus our choices can affect our vibration significantly. Take for example my choosing to drink herbal tea vs. coffee (i.e. caffeine) in the morning – one literally starts my heart palpitating and my skin sweating – the other soothes me into a nice meditative space where I can engage in ritual, meditation, and chanting. Ritual meditation and chanting then have me going to a higher mind state than say, starting my day on social media. And thus when I actually move into my second part of the day, the part where I sit in front of a computer. If I've meditated, things flow smooth. If I've simply caffeinated and ingested headlines and social feeds I'm already scattered and my vibration is already jumpy. My day is more likely to tilt into reaction and go off course than if I right my sails into the flow of the higher self.  So let me tell you a little story a situation that arose this month.  (It's so easy now to look back and see how I literally spun myself up) Mercury retrograde, plus Jupiter in Aries, plus Lunar eclipse in Scorpio. Sitting on the couch crying over things I can't identify; grief is welling up within me as I let go of old stuff I'm carrying and mourn changes, and also, I'm in a unproductive thought loop about needs and wants in my relationship. I want to talk to my partner on the phone before he's unreachable, and I'm in Canada and we are on different schedules and, and, and…. The more I think about the distance the bigger it gets and I'm having a full-blown anxious attachment trigger episode with myself. Now, I know this is in my head – my partner has done nothing to deserve some of the frustrated thought loops currently dancing in my mind – it's my disappointment bear again, it's my wounded wailer crying over injuries that have not been perpetuated but certainly will be, and before you know it I'm very worked up and now I'm crying about my needs not being met. Even though there is absolutely no external stimulus to create this situation. I've done it to myself with my thoughts.   Yes, I'm in a relationship where distance is a constant, but I generally find that ok because I've got so much going on, I need the space for my purpose. And my needs are met. But now that my vibration has shifted, and things feel icky – because my thoughts are worked up, and my vibration is not of the light – it is of complaint and fear. I've spiraled myself into a literal emotional tizzy.  Now here's the thing. I know how to get out of it – but this particular week I don't, I give in to the tsunami of emotion and feeling – I journal, I allow it to pass through me – but it doesn't go. Some fear wants attention, so I take the bait, I text my partner, he doesn't respond as I wanted in fact, he responds to something from the night before but my spiraled and wound up wounded wailer steps in and freaks the fuck out “WTF! How could he! Never again! doesn't he know what I'm going through!”   Bad news bears, dear listeners – so when he finally calls me, I'm an aggravated mess incapable of properly communicating anything. And he is very confused and defensive at me being a crying blob of inarticulate emotional vomit. I don't blame him – and ironically, I used the very thing I wanted (at the very beginning of this episode) to try and calm me down (his voice) to spin out further.   Vibration. It's real. And it can get very real if you don't manage it and your thoughts.  So, five hours later after chanting, after ritual, after a good talk with a calm friend who reminded me to mediate before doing anything else – I managed to bring myself back up to a higher frequency. Not say anything more in my moment of weakness – and to calm the fuck down about the literal nothing I had made into something. Vibration. It's real.  Chanting Namu Myōhō Renge Kyō raised my vibration. I read some encouraging quotes about why meditate, I did some rituals and grounded myself, and then and only then did I talk to my partner again. He did not deserve my onslaught of failed self-care when he was just trying to fulfill what I asked of him but I was so jacked up on my inner drama I couldn't do anything but be reactive (to literally nothing). So, I share this to demonstrate 1) even I turn into a spazzed out mess once in a while (and let me tell you it was exhausting)  2) to give an example of how a human can change vibration based on our thoughts and actions because 3) our thoughts have vibration because 4) everything has a vibration and this is why things like meditation, mantras, activations, energy healings can actually help you in your life. Because they can instantly change your vibration. In my example from my life, I indulged in my drama and where did I get? Tired and upset and regretting that projected it upon my partner – which in hindsight was completely avoidable.  How could I have avoided it? Changed my vibration before engaging. Using the tools I teach and know. Specifically, meditation. Specifically redirecting my energy. I could have called a colleague and gotten an emergency cord cutting instead of leaning into the emotional rollercoaster. I could have sat down and chanted for my partner's happiness, held gratitude. I didn't though, so I let my negative ego win a round.  As a Hermetic principle, a law of the universe, and thus a law of abundance, understanding vibration is essential. Like attracts like – so positive thoughts gather positive, and negative gather negative – they become clouds that will swirl and rain on your parade. Now in my example – this was just about a single week in my life, because I have tools and practices to change my vibration.  But what about a person who lives their life like this all of the time? In emotion, in the past, in a state of drama? It's going to color everything – leading to more drama, more negative vibration, more bad reactions – and eventually maybe the persons life will be sad and lonely as all were persons are driven away. Or they believe the world is just filled with assholes & narcissists. But as I've said before, if the world is filled with assholes the most obvious one is yourself. As in likely YOU are the biggest asshole.  I digress.  You can oversimplify vibration to a law of attraction. I wouldn't though, but for the sake of understanding you can go there. As a law of Hermetics – just know that this is how the world works. Our thoughts have vibration, our food, what we choose to engage in, music, rocks, minerals, etc they all have vibration. Matter of all kinds has vibration. Every single thing has a vibration.  And as a human we can change our vibration in three ways… We can meditate We can change our habits (which include our thought clouds) perhaps that glass of wine ISN'T a coping mechanism. What if you chose rose tea instead and raised your vibration – instead of lowering it with alcohol? Stressed? Go for a run, go work on a project, go do yoga instead of calling your friend for a bitch fest – the complaint picnic will only erase fortune and lower your vibrations.  The Third way - we can go get help. Come get a clearing and a healing from me. It's what I should have done upon the moment I was spinning.  And these are all within your control. And honestly, we all need help from time to time. Jesus, Buddha, Muhammed, they all had teachers why shouldn't we?  And actually, with a teacher and with a practice – (a path, you might call it) you have a way to work towards a better, higher vibration for your day to day. Not just a lurching here or there. But everyday consistently raising your vibration such that someday its so much higher than before – and your new bottom is so much higher than where you were before you started climbing.  So dear listener, I will end here today with a quote from the Kybalion and a quote from Ipsissiumus Dave Lanyon, a hermeticist extraordinaire . “Every thought, emotion or mental state has its corresponding rate and mode of vibration. And by effort of the will of the person, or of other persons, these mental states may be reproduced, just as a musical tone may be reproduced by causing an instrument to vibrate at a certain rate. By knowledge of the principle of vibration, one may polarize his mind at any degree he wishes, thus gaining perfect control over his mental states, moods, etc.”   Dave Lanyon quote “Hermetics is always absolute. Stop using the mind, use the heart. Will sets mind. Not mind sets will.” So my dear friends please reach out and ask me about the tools and practices I have to help you raise your vibration. They are very real and can help any human being regardless of circumstance. In the meantime, drop into your heart, start with loving yourself, raising your vibration within yourself, and the rest will follow. 

So, it finally happened to me. COVID. I've never been afraid of it, been moving about the country traveling all over the place for the last two-plus years and finally, we came full circle, and the trip we were supposed to take in 2020, we took in 2022 in New Orleans – and COVID shows up to crash the party. Now it's not a shocker to me that I got sick. I haven't been sleeping well or resting at all. I've been overworked, and stressed about various things with my partner's kids, with my job being super successful, but me not having the right amount of help or systems in place. I placed all my self-care cards in the proverbial vacation bucket. “I'll get rest later,” I said. I'll take a break later. Well, when vacation finally came so did illness, walking right in the wide-open door.  Ok Angel, what does this have to do with a law of abundance or Hermetics? Everything. Because our life is a reflection of the cosmos, and our inner life is reflected in our outer world. Recently my very good friend called me to say “Angel, you look like chaos.” I knew she was right. I was trying to do too much all at once, to be too much for others and not showing up for myself with basic self-care practices. Not setting boundaries with my time. I was not taking time to clear myself or ground in any significant way – and I lost touch with myself briefly. I was tired, irritable, and stressed out, and no wonder most of what I attempted failed. My inner world responded messily.  Now the principle of correspondence, as above so below, so within, so without – as the axiom goes isn't just this simplistic, yet at the same time, it is.  What the principle of correspondence means is that ALL the universe – every single thing in it, from the heavens (the stars and planets) to an anthill on earth, or a microbiome inside my gut all follow the same set of rules and none of them deviate.  Look at how Atoms work. A nucleus that is circled by an electron. A solar system is a sun/star/a nucleus circled by planets (electrons), so the tiniest thing is similar to one of the biggest things I can imagine.  The law of correspondence tells us that there is a rhythm, an order, and a set of rules, like cause and effect, vibration, polarity that everything follows, nothing escapes this cosmic ordering, nothing is outside of the seven hermetic principles, live them and experience the best alignment in this life with our purpose and oneness with them.  This is all a true magician or Alchemist does. Align with these principles and rules of the universe and use them to manifest hermetically for the best and highest good.  The hermetic path is likely never the easy path. It's the longer, higher road with the rewards that can't be counted selfishly. But also, it can be the healthy path, the calm path, the path where chaos cannot come spoil your party because those doors are not ever open.  I do my best. I live mostly in integrity. I live mostly attempting to step forward on a hermetic kabbalistic path in my life. But I am not at all perfect (albeit perfection is simply the act of staying on the path and practicing every day). I get stubborn, I have attachments. I let my fear of mind control decision-making when I get worked up. And then I've got to learn things the hard way – with some proverbial beating on the head with a baseball bat to get the message.  But the beating comes because the laws of the universe dictate it. Cause and effect always happen. Inner worlds reflect on the outside.  So in my case this time around I got really sick on my vacation and anniversary fun times with my partner in New Orleans. And then I spent six days in quarantine on a calm serene beach in Vero Beach, Florida recovering. Life could be way worse. I'm lucky my partner said book a room here, my intuition said, “be right on the beach!” no compromise. It was just two nights to decompress after New Orleans and to prep to visit my father. And then it became many. And I had nothing to do but spend the time with myself, resting and taking care of myself as I let the ocean waves calm down my being and the vitamin D and sea air clear me.  I materialized this retreat. My heart's desire was sun and sand and quiet to hit reset for myself. Get clear for me. Get to spend the conjunction of Neptune and Jupiter in Pisces by the water baptized in the large, dreamy sea of the cosmos.  It ate all my extra resources for a while. All the extra abundance I made in March working too hard. But that is also completely in alignment because I don't have the systems yet to grow sustainably and now, I'm back home building those systems while setting boundaries for my time.  Success is meaningless if I am broken or if I'm sick. If my partner and I cannot spend time together. If I can't see my family. Over attachment to certain outcomes can also not be a good thing but the most important for me is to hold a vision of being in a flow that allows me to be the one in the best space – me meditating, me clear, me without chaos so that then everything I touch is also clear, is also clean, is also functional, also follows the rules of the universe so it works for the best highest good of the whole.  I can't save it all for vacations. I can't put off living my life for later. Work is necessary to achieve anything but that work also can't be all-consuming because it's done without proper order and structure. The universe has a structure. The Hierarchy of light has a structure, so my life needs a structure (NOT rigid control of every detail out of fear) but a structure for my time and energy. My businesses need a structure for their success and sustainability. The cycle of abundance needs to be recognized – as I grow, I share my abundance with those who take on the tasks I need done. I can't hoard the money because then I'm hoarding the work, and then I'm drowning, and then I'm sick.  In my rune readings recently, Sowelo keeps appearing. This is the rune of the sun. Victory. It looks like an S roughly. In Ralph H. Blum, The Book of Runes, he speaks of this rune as wholeness and offers the Gayatri prayer.  You who are the source of all power, whose rays illuminate the world, illuminate also my heart so that I can do your work.  This corresponds to the saying “I will thy will.” In that, I will the highest purpose for my life to flow through me.  I am willing to get out of my own way and become a conduit of the laws of the universe, let the laws flow through me. As Jesus said, “I can of mine own self do nothing.” Meaning by our own self we truly do nothing; things flow through us if we allow them.  Thank you for joining me on this exploration of the principle of correspondence in my life. I hope it awakens something in you to dig deeper into these principles, these laws, and where they are at work within you. And for the dear listener who loves to control, especially when life gets out of control, I challenge you to find FLOW within your structure (don't clamp down, release and let the wind blow through the scaffolding you have built so deftly, see what happens!! maybe you can even jump out of your Tower and fly)  And for the listener who neglects all structure, or who even blames structures outside themselves for all the things - can you start telling yourself the truth? start taking some responsibility for the things you are setting in motion? Can you be more intentional with what you are setting in motion? How might you allow structure into your flow? As always, need a little push - I can help with that!  Until next time, live well. 

Transmute = “to change from one nature, form, or substance, into another, to transition.”            -Webster's Dictionary  Thus, Mental Transmutation = the art of changing mental state, forms and conditions into other state.  Hermetic Principle #1 Principle of Mentalism Axiom “All is mind; the universe is mental.” Meaning the underlying reality of everything is mind. Descartes said “I think, therefore I AM.” In Hermetics this means the universe itself is mental – existing in the mind of The All.  But let's carry this to a logical next step, if the universe is mental and all is mind and mental transmutation is changing mental state – then the art of changing your mental state is the art of changing your reality. Everything starts with your mental state. Change your mind, change your reality.  And this is principle #1of hermetics, so in order to become a master of reality, one must become a master of awareness such that they can master their mind not have their mind be a master of them. Ok Angel – now you are being a hermetical bumper sticker. To this I say yes I am. “Change your mind. Change your reality.” Is a bumper sticker but it is also a hermetic principle because all is mind. Literally the world we see in “objective reality” is a reflection of what is going on in your mind. So if your mind is a cluttered mess of thoughts and negative self-talk, I bet your work space, room, or home is also a bit cluttered. All that physical clutter represents what is going on inside all the unconscious, subconscious attachments to other people's opinions about what you should be doing or saying. What do you want to be doing with your life? Have you thought about that recently? Are you living the life you want to live? If the answer is no – what is stopping you? Pause this podcast right now and write down your reasons. Just take five minutes. What is stopping you from living the life that you want to live? Ok – welcome back. Look at your reasons, how many of them could you change if you changed your mind about them being a reason that they are stopping you? For example - Recently I have been busy with marketing my law office. So busy however,  that I've barely had time to eat, exercise or take care of myself. This has had me stressed out and aggravated some health problems. This is not the life I want to live In a physical state with a swollen ankle and a limp. I want to be able to hike through the jungle to waterfalls in Hawaii and beaches in Brazil. What is the answer? Instead of being a victim to my calendar I purposefully decide that I have time. Time for self-care, time to block my tasks, time for boundaries for my volunteer work, time to hire a law clerk and an apprentice.  I change my mind and my thought process around time, I implement boundaries and I bring in help – I stop looking at this as temporary. My business is growing because I'm investing in it. But there is no reason to have a successful business if I can't enjoy my life. Recently, my friend lost everything.  Or so she thought - emphasis on thought.  “I have been bad-mouthed by a community I love and am strongly attached to,” my friend said.   Her hurt and confusion was palpable  My question? What have you lost?  My friend quipped, “my community.” Interesting I said, I don't THINK so. “I'm still here. Your other friends who care about and support you are still here,” My friend agreed. I could tell her energy had began to increase.  So, I asked,  “Have you lost your community? The answer is no.” All she had lost were strangers and/or acquaintances who lack discernment and good judement as they had chose to believe someone with no facts or reason.  So, old thought – “I lost everything” – which will surely increase more lack and loss belief  New thought – “How blessed am I to have the incredible close friends that see my truth, support me and know when others are lying.” Even as I am telling this story, you can feel the shift. In my case, I'm putting up the time blocks I need to do things I enjoy and that take care of me, so I don't burn out as I experience a successful busines.   How did I almost get to burn out? My underlying belief that I have to do it all. This is habit pattern and from an old worn-out belief that I am not good enough that has me taking on things and sacrificing my own wellbeing in the process.  So, I'm letting go of my volunteer work right now, and putting up boundaries and then holding them. This is done in my mind and thoughts first. If I just keep believing that there is not enough time – then there will never be enough time. But if I say this time here is sacred for this – and I honor that the work will get done – AND so will the self-care.  They can coexist – and some things will get let go of. AND I'm ok with that. Others might not be but they are going to have to figure that out – its not my job to carry their load. Which brings me to part two of this discussion: that all is mind. If all is mind, what thoughts are causing you not to be able to live the life of your dreams?  Do you actually know what life, your ideal life looks like? If all conditions were perfect – what would your life look like?  What would you be doing?  Who would you surround yourself with?  How would you live your daily life? Can you articulate this?  Can you focus on holding the vision of the joyful life you want to be living?  If you can't then THAT is a place to start spending your time figuring out. Because all is mind. So first, get clear what you want in order to make it happen.  All those reasons on your paper are excuses for you to live a life you DON'T WANT.  This is not to diminish any challenge you are facing. This to re-focus your energy. Are you facing the right challenge? Or wasting your time? If you are not clear where you are going, then maybe this bridge that is blocked is not the right one to rebuild. Like my friend and their “lost community”. Yes, it hurts to be rejected. But does it actually matter in the bigger picture of your life's hopes and dreams?  Nope. It's a distraction from living your purpose. If all is mind – you can change your mind about that challenge and make it opportunity. Accepting hermetical principle #1 All is Mind requires one more ingredient. That crucial season to the sauce? Personal responsibility. Because if it all starts with me and my mind, my holding a vision for myself, my thoughts, then who is responsible for those thoughts? For creating that vision? I am.  I am responsible for all of it. I am not a victim of my circumstance. I am creating it with my mind. I am creating my perspective. I am creating my reality. I am creating my reaction to my reality. It is all my personal responsibility. Stop giving the secret of your sauce away. Stop giving the keys to your future to another person or circumstance. Take back your power, and start to create the reality you desire. Your change starts now and it starts with you. Not your community, not your mother, not your boss, not your spouse, not the annoying construction that causes you to be late, or the cup of coffee you spilled on your shirt. You control your reactions to the uncontrollable AND as all is mind. Everything else is just stuff you are letting stop you.  So, what is one thing that is stopping you today from living your life and where can you take your power back?! 

Welcome to season 2 of Laws of Abundance! I cannot wait to kick off this second season with you – This season, in part, is season 2 because this is the year of 2s, 2022, which seems appropriate to keep the angelic numerology going. So with Season 2 in 2022, we have 4 twos, 2222 (an Angelic number of balance) construction and harmony.  It speaks of new experience awaiting through bravery and positive thinking resulting in you building your dreams - in short be confident in your abilities, trust your instincts, take a leap out of your comfort zone and build the future you truly desire using the laws of the universe.  So this season of 2, I am going to do just that by showing you the hermetic principles, the laws of the universe that we can use to build our desires into reality, as they are at work in my own life.  Season 1 was a seed, my practice round, where I shared at random as things came up for me.  I hope season 2 will be more structured, yet more vulnerable, so you can see HOW Hermetics are organic laws at work in life, and how when used and observed intentionally, you can use them to bring abundance, light, and joy.    Let us begin: “A rosebud opens into a rose, an acorn grows into an oak, and a caterpillar emerges as a butterfly from its cocoon - that we, too, unfold according to an inner plan?” - Howard Sasportas, The 12 Houses This week on Monday using my Writual planning journal and my new set of oracle cards given to me by my partner for my birthday - I pulled The Fool, the rune Perthu and The Emerald Tablet Activation card from my new light activation oracle deck. Clearly the universe was sending me a message to radically trust, let go, to be an open container of the divine plan, according to the rules of Hermetics. To allow for manifestation around me with my effort only being the holding of the desire - not the manipulation of the elements.  I'm writing this right now on an airplane flying to Kuau'i, Hawaii - sitting in first class, enjoying the first blanket and pillow I've seen on an airplane since January of 2020 and so much leg room. Now I'm rambling and you are likely wondering what does this have to do with anything Angel? What is the Emerald Tablet?t, what are Hermetics?, and good for you going to Hawaii flying first class in January.  So this year and my second Season of Laws of Abundance I am going to dedicate to studying the Hermetic Principles as they appear in my life.  Using real examples as I have leaned into them, or struggled against them to no avail - because Law of Abundance #1 is that the rules of Hermetics are inescapable laws. It doesn't matter if you know them, believe in them, they still apply to you. But if you live by them, if you actually use them they are keys to the creation of abundant and joyful life.  First I am going to say and admit that I am still an apprentice in this area.  A padawan. I am no Obi Wan or  Yoda when it comes to these laws. I'm at best a young and whining Luke Skywalker.  I am still studying the force, so I will share my experience and not be arrogant enough to claim anything close to mastery.  And unlike Star Wars - there really isn't power in the dark side here on this plane.  The dark side is negative ego - FEAR, STUCK, NON-MOVING crunchy garbage living in a cage of a matrix dream world where you go nowhere.  We all start there. As a little battery pod in the matrix doing nothing but feeding the machine, not aware of our purpose. It is our default. We have to choose and work hard at unplugging every single day. This is not a one-and-done red pill like Neo in the Warner Brothers story.  It's more like the daily blue pill Niel Patrick Harris prescribes him, we have to remind ourselves every single day through gratitude, ritual, prayer, and meditation, to stay on the path to knowing our higher self and not ending up back asleep in our little comfortable matrix prison.  So let me tell you a little story about my journey with the Hermetic Principles.  Stardate 2016/2017 just prior to the total solar eclipse, I've tried to drink and eat my way out of the dark hole of codependency.  I've joined the mile-high club adventuring with strangers I met in first-class seats on airplanes, drank my way across Scotland, ate at the best and most expensive restaurants in the world. After none of that works - I find myself with a set of Runes in my hands at a Celtic Fair in Mount Vernon, Washington sitting in the sunshine with two lovely ladies talking about the Ritual Master path. I start doing rune readings for people - and I start feeling magick in my life.  I encounter some interesting phenomena and decide to step onto the path of a ritual master in the lineage of King Salomon.  Why not try a path of self-discipline and self-discovery instead of hedonism? Hedonism was starting to hurt my hip, my heart, my bank account, my stomach, and no fine scotch or fully loaded bloody mary was going to bring me to a place of better.  Now, this path as an RM or a ritual master was where I was first introduced to the laws of Hermetics formally. The lineage of King Salomon is a hermetic order. This was told to me years prior but I didn't know what it meant, nor, honestly, did I really care. Doing light work felt good so I kept doing it, not because of any philosophical choice. Moreover my Buddhist practice followed certain principles (like cause and effect) and Kabbalah had helped me know my self worth a little better, but all I really knew about Hermetics was the phrase “hermetically sealed” and that there was some guy named Hermes Trisma something or other (Hermes Trismegistus) and he wrote a book called the Hermetica.   I understood through Buddhism the concept of Oneness of Self and Environment but as I started down the RM path I began to learn 1. All is Mind - if we think it so then it becomes so 2. As above, so below - as within, so without - everything has a structure, and as we see ourselves within so it is reflected without in our environment (much like oneness of self and environment…interestingly enough) 3. Vibration - everything is in motion and holds a frequency if we engage, ingest, align with it we can raise or lower our frequency. Higher vibration equals positive results and abundance. 4. Polarity - everything has a polarity or pole and an opposite. But opposites are the same just different by degree 5. Rhythm - everything flows in and out, rises and falls, if you push something away it will swing back like a pendulum and smack you harder. 6. Cause and effect - everything happens according to the laws of the universe, so every cause has an effect. There are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes this law. 7. Gender - everything in the universe is binary, there are masculine and feminine principles and energies everywhere. And this duality manifests on all planes of existence and their balance and interaction are necessary for creation here in the physical world.    The more I study Hermetics the more I'm sure that Nichiren Diashonin, the well studied monk who started the sect of Buddhism I have ascribed to since I was 18 also studied Hermetics as the principles are all in his writings, just in different words than as they appear in the Kybalion or other cliff note versions of the Hermetica.  So how did I start applying these esoteric principles to my life? In some ways, this is the grand experiment. This is the great work of becoming a disciplined magician creating your life. The work of knowing oneself.  It is tuning in to these principles always in life.  But honestly, I started with the ones I knew well and tried on those I didn't. And when I say “Try on” I meant in some cases “ignore” and then feel the consequences of that ignorance. I started looking at the world through the lens of these principles. And my negative ego actually stopped winning the daily battle, not without a fight, however (but the daily practices, rituals, meditations that I engaged in helped) and I also gradually started making better choices at the moment, I started living in the moment, letting go of fear and old crap, I started clearing old stuff out of my way, and speaking and being my truth of the now instead of the shoulds of others.  So 2018 saw me surprise people in my corporate job as I started prioritizing myself and speaking my mind.  I also started my side businesses for real, focusing on life-activating people and learning additional skills as a healer, going out to fairs to performing readings, and giving up alcohol and excessive eating of my feelings. 2019 I pushed myself further on my path through more Kabbalah and chose to stand up and become a guide for others within the Modern Mystery School International. I choose to work on my physical wellness, to add beauty and self-care to my regimen. I started to stand up straight and live royally and not take others' assertions upon myself.  This resulted in my corporate job pushing back at me - telling me I was getting too uppity. Although it was extremely uncomfortable at the time, looking back this was a natural reaction by those still stuck in the matrix reacting to me.  Also, my contract with God and my purpose in this world does not have me beholden as a wage slave to another but asks me to be my own master working for myself.  But I still needed a strong and obvious message to finally push me out of the cocoon, however, and that was delivered in December of 2019 when my boss told me that I did not appear committed to my job and would not be receiving the promotion that had been promised to me over the past year. Her judgment had nothing to do with what I was actually doing at the job, but it was definitely the sign I needed to withdraw myself from the circle where I had no input, no ability to influence the outcome, essentially to clearly identify that my corporate job was a waste of my time and talents.  So I left and started my own business 2 months later just as the pandemic started in March of 2020 and the world shut down.  I could have panicked. But instead, I held gratitude - as the shutdown was the best possible thing that could have happened. It gave me the ability to ingather, recover and focus my efforts on being an entrepreneur. And for the first time in years, I could just work on myself. And start to study the hermetic principles at work in my life and the world with perspective - birthing this podcast and the host of things you see under my law office and light center brand.   I share this maybe somewhat not so exciting trajectory and gradual progression story to illustrate that the laws of abundance/hermetic principles in one's life are not necessarily a quick, obvious, or straightforward line. But being on the path and staying on the path is key.  So this season in the year 2022 I will be exploring as best I can with life experience the laws of abundance as expressed in the 7 hermetic principles. You will see my messy process from worm, to crystallise, to butterfly just like the quote I started this post with.  As I finish writing this episode one, I am home from my trip to Kauai, Hawaii where I learned even more about myself by hiking thru the jungle, sitting on the beach, and meditating - I allowed myself to unwind - I learned that for me I need to find play within my work for joy to continue and to pervade my service to others.  Much like the saying (or possibly a Stephen king quote) “All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.”  For me, Angel, I have to ask myself for what purpose do I work so hard? This is not service to self and others if I just work to work, or work to avoid living my life and loving. I have to allow others to help me carry things forward and sometimes to set everything down so that I can take time to dance, move my body and allow the waves of passion to flow thru just for the sake of enjoyment or moving my physical body & igniting the flames within so I can hear and listen as the hierarchy of light and my higher self guide me along my path.  The 6 days in Hawaii were the first time that I pushed myself like that on a jungle hiking trail, the first time I stayed comfortably with a large group of strangers, that I just did for the sake of doing and moved to treat my body in over 10 years. I let my mind go completely and stayed in the flow and relaxed and loved.  I came home whole, awake, alive and clear, refreshed and completely unafraid - whatever is coming in my life I shall create with my heart, my imagination, and gradual consistent effort forward. Less attached to doing and more focused on simply holding the vision allowing the gifts of abundance the universe provides to support me.   Alright my listeners I am excited for what is to reveal itself in 2022 as I move forward in this place of vulnerability in all aspects of my life, sharing how these laws of abundance are at work in my life so you may be inspired to do the same yours.   And also I want to hear from you!  If you have read the Kybalion, the Hermetica, or anything about hermetic - do you have questions? Stories to share?  I'd love to move forward in conversation and address your questions, tell your stories, or even figure out how to have guests on this show so we can learn more, together, this is the year of 2s after all.  I can help with that! Visit https://latterelllaw.com or follow me on your favorite social media platform. 

Listeners, I would like to give you the gift of actual MAGICK this New Year. MAGICK to help bring your New Year goals into fruition - MAGICK to resolve and live the life of your dreams in 2022 and beyond. Magick doesn't involve childhood fairy tales or Walt Disney fantasy but aligns with the scientific laws of abundance and the logical flow of the universe around you.  So, what is this “magick?”  Why do I spell it with a K? What does a magickal life entail and how does this relate to laws of the universe and abundance? Once upon a time, I believed with enough hard work you could control all outcomes in life. I fastidiously controlled what went into my body and who I was physically around. I had to because I had such sensitivity to other people (I didn't know I was empathic) and had hidden panic attacks and anxiety. Spontaneity was only for moments of self-medicated freedom - yet even those were still carefully controlled and curated within containers to ensure bad decision-making didn't leak out and spoil my future. I had no one to rely on but myself, so I couldn't fuck anything up. This is why I had to control everything, be perfect at everything, manage everything. Thus the hamster wheel continued to spin, but I was a high functioning achievement-oriented person who looked “successful” on the outside.  Then I met these lovely women who told me to chant nam myo renge kyo - I had nothing to lose so I did. I had no idea what the words mean but the vibration, the ritual, the time spent in meditation began to relax something within me.  I felt better, alchemically without any processing. Something was altering my physical body and my mind - thoughts cleared, heart rate lowered, muscles relaxed all with the repetitive rhythm and vibrational frequency of a mantra repeated over and over again. And after a month or so of chanting this every day I began to realize I had been living my life in a self-imposed prison.  It was a prison of unworthiness and of omniscient controllers.  Like a scared beast, I had to stay in my cage because everything outside the prison was unknown and uncontrollable. And little ole me could not dare to ask anything of the universe, I could not request to have my needs met or be noticed. In fact hiding was the preferred method of life because if I was seen it could invite attack.  I, through a practice of daily meditation and chanting a high vibration mantra transformed myself from a body of fear to a body of creative expression.  I began to put myself out there, to perform poetry and help others do the same.  I started to ask for things from the universe. I articulated my needs and wants and toyed with the concept of being worthy to receive these gifts.  So back to magick. The definition of magic is the process of creating something from nothing or changing something into something else. Examples of this - to draw letters on a blank piece of paper. Where there was open space there is now a message, a poem, or a song.  To create music, both thru dictating notes on paper using the language of scales and notes or to strum the melody on a guitar or piano. First, there is nothing, then there is something. Or magick is to make a lasagna.  Last night I took noodles, ground sausage, tomato sauce, herbs, and cheese, and with a bit of love, I placed them together in a specific order and thus created a new thing - something from something else. In this case, a lasagna is appropriate for a Garfield the Cat meme.  So magick in the personal alchemical means the same. In my story, my 18-year-old self took the mantra nam myoho renge kyo and I repeated it, and it changed me from something to something else. It changed my vibration over time from fear to courage and it transformed my life, and awakened me to my true abilities as a creative individual capable of her own acts of magick.  The Tarot card The Magician (in the traditional Rider Waite illustrations), one hand points up, and one hand points down - signifying “as above, so below, as within, so without”.  On his table sit the 4 elements represented by the Sword/Air, Pentacle/Earth, a chalice i.e. cups/water, and a wand which represents fire. The two major principles of magick - being in balance with the 4 elements in order to manifest, and using the 4 elements to make something from nothing or something into something else.  And principle two- the power of the magician is based on the power of his or her imagination. So as WiTHIN the mind of the magician so shall be WITHOUT as the magician creates it in her physical world.  So if you can think it, you can create it. In fact to think a thought is to create! Then to use the elements to manifest it into form in the physical world - whether as a result in our life, our body or our environment.  So, what is the Law of Abundance I am talking about here? Recognition that we all have the power to be The Magician, manifesting magnificent results for ourselves in our lives.  If we can just recognize that the power lies within our life itself. Once you recognize that you are always creating (consciously or subconsciously) you can harness the power to use it consciously and it is only inhabited by our ability to imagine. This is why they are called “self-limiting beliefs.”  The belief (i.e. our lacking of imagining differently) limits us.  So our job for this law of abundance is twofold.  First clarity of thought - recognition that self equals environment, as within, so without - and engaging in practices that balance clear, and nourish so our within isn't a cluttered hoarder's house of crap and negative self-talk.  And then two - how do we feed our imagination such that we can envision the things we truly desire and thus physically manifest them or call them into us using the 4 elements of our physical and internal environments.  So hold the vision - be the container for the creation of the thing or result. Idea (vision), thought (holding the vision), plan (breaking down the steps and using the structure of the universe and its rules), action (doing something in the flow of the universe) = Manifestation i.e Magick! Creating something from nothing, or turning something into something else all sealed with gratitude for the bounty received to reinforce the positive thought loop and create the fertile ground for abundance.  As we reach the end of this year 2021 I bring this season of Laws of Abundance to a close by reviewing these principles of creation that I started with, because these are our building blocks.  Call them magick, call them alchemy, chemistry, science, logic, intuition, hermetics - they are laws of abundance and they affect us regardless if we choose to believe in them.  Just like gravity is real - we stick to the earth and have weight even if we don't believe it's round and spins in the cosmos.  Just the same you are creating your reality even if you choose to deny this fact.   These laws are reflected in sacred geometry building blocks around us, in the Fibonacci sequences of stock markets and cryptocurrency, in the light of the sun and moon, the ebb and flow of water in lakes, rivers, and oceans and in your body, and from the body micro and macrocosm of your physical body systems, your aura, and spirit. On this planet we were once nothing but a gleam of passion in two persons' eyes, the magick happens, an egg and sperm meet in a container known as the womb and something happens based on a structure of sacred geometry.  Our DNA literally builds a little human and that physical being is released into the world taking its first breath so it too can become a creator of things in this physical world.  Including the creation of other humans.  But all humans are granted the power of thought, word and act, and imagination to see beyond what is physically in front of them.  The power to do magick.  The power to create. The power to live a life of abundance in a story of their making.  This is not about toxic positivity or magical/wishful thinking. This is about looking at the patterns and how things actually work in the universe. And the WORK it takes as a human to figure it out with experience.   I hope my experiences this year, or those I've shared from my life so far have helped you. And I look forward to continuing to learn with you here in this public space in 2022.  And from that place of vulnerability be an example of these laws in my own life.  In the meantime dear listeners - take stock.  You are all magicians creating and manifesting your worlds.  Choose wisely that which you make a reality.

Dear listener.. who is scared.  Stifled by walls built by you, based on other people's expectations.  Or what you believe to be others' expectations of you.  Agreements you have made about who “you should be” or had to be based on perceived pressures.  Dear listener, how do I know this about you? Because I used to be you.  For example, I went to law school not because I really wanted to be a lawyer but because writers and artists, and people with philosophy degrees were perceived as destined to be starving and without financial options. I really wanted to be a poet (the hungriest of writers of them all) and a writer, and at that very moment in college, I wanted to be a radio DJ. I'm laughing at myself now because it took me literally almost 25 years to cycle back around to be a writer and now a podcast host. My radio voice was destined to find a home. But I had to be a lawyer first. A very miserable lawyer, I might add. A lawyer with a drinking problem to numb the feeling of an amputated soul in the transactional lack filled and adversarial environment of law firms. I got to write a lot of legal briefs and contracts but it wasn't helping people. It definitely wasn't helping me become abundant or joyful. It quashed my creativity which is why I drank, it made me feel dead inside because it was a suppression of myself to put myself in this box, this mask of a lawyer. And other lawyers were always telling me I was doing it wrong anyway. I laughed too much, I tried to solve problems versus giving people things they didn't need.   And how did I get there/here? My mom, my fiance, societal beliefs about artists, econ majors at my school, all “shoulded” on me. And I internalized that on top of all my baggage about self-worth and needing to be useful that I chose the SAFE route and went to law school. I saddled myself with massive student loan debt and a bunch of matrix programming about fixing systems from within the system.  I built a really good “duck suit” that I thought would let all of the negativity roll off.  You know how water just rolls off a duck's feathers. My duck suit was armor - so I could keep smiling in the face of the projected onslaught of people's problems or dramas - so I could keep on, keeping on when I left law school doomed to continue - I literally couldn't afford to not be an attorney because I had so much debt and no other viable skills besides being an attorney (again I never looked at being a writer as an abundance producing skill).  In fact, I never even thought I could publish my words, who would want them?  And definitely, no one was ever going to give me money for them.  I built an entire miserable and safe reality around the identity of a lawyer so that by age 26 I had chronic fatigue, a drinking problem, intimacy issues, seriously low self-esteem, digestion, and other health issues. The only joy I found was in parties and live music because I could drown out the sadness,  with the noise.  I had no idea that none of this was real and that my prison of agreement about who and what I was, was all me making it up.  Ok Angel, nice bummer parade you are sharing - what is your point? Where is the law of abundance here? This one is hard for me to articulate in a sound bite, so let me try to unpack it. The safe route is a prison and a lie you tell yourself So much of “who we think we are '' is a story built on fictions of what we believe are other people's expectations and judgments of us.  Those “shoulds” I mentioned. Those shoulds are agreements we make. ARE YOU BEING “SHOULDED” ON? What agreement do you need to be yourself? If you could live completely free of these agreements you believe others have put on you - what life would you choose? Who are you really? And what is it you truly want to do? What brings you joy? How do we know what is actually our reliable reality? How do we figure out, like the old me in my story, that I am living in a self-constructed prison? Where do I find the key to walking out of the door that isn't locked and does not even exist?  How do I blow down the imaginary walls? First, we must get help in sorting  - what is real and unreal. I'm going to tell you that shockingly 95% to 99% of your life's reality is actually bullshit.  Really stinky dog poop stories your negative ego has made up to keep you stuck and not progressing on your path to your purpose and true self.   Our negative ego is so sneaky that it actually convinces us that we need to do more of the things that keep us stuck so we can bargain with our fears and get moving in the right direction.  It is always a lie.  We just dig ourselves into a deeper deep hole.  This is why we need a lifeline.  Phone a friend.  A path. A tool. HELP!! To get us out of our funhouse of unreality and start to figure out how to know what is real. And what is story. What is agreement and what is False Experience Appearing Real? Aka FEAR. This help can be in the form of listening to Jordan Peterson lectures, therapy, reading Brene Brown, getting initiated into a mystery school tradition, doing Kabbalah, finding Buddhism, and chanting nam myoho renge kyo. It could be stepping into the Landmark Forum. But you need discipline and a path that teaches you and gives you a gauge. I personally recommend a path based on hermetical principles and leads you to be able to talk with and know your higher self.  Hermes Trismegistus, in The Hermetica, defined the two greatest evils as Mere Opinion and Godlessness.  Evil being defined as that which stops the path of progression of another human being. (progression being forward momentum to your purpose and true self).  So mere opinion is all of that story out there, all of that “shoulding.”  You should do this, you should do that, we eat, breathe and steep in a soup of mere opinion. So much so that we can't see it. And then we don't believe in our god-ness.  We don't believe we are creating, our reality multiple thoughts at a time, literally trapping ourselves in prisons of lack and joylessness because it's safe inside there.  Yuck.  You know just because you don't believe you can create your reality, it doesn't mean are not actually creating your reality.  The fruits of your thoughts words and acts are still running your life, albeit unconsciously. The truth is we are ALWAYS creating. We are creator gods making beautifully complex woven stories draping these motifs all over our concrete walls and pretending our box of small self is the best place to be.  Fear can't get me here!!  These distractions are so pretty and fulfilling, if I just do more of them this tiny box will feel bigger…. You see where I am going with this? Idea, thought, plan, action equals results! Equals causes and effects in our life based on the seeds we plant - conscious or unconscious it's still happening.  So my dear ones. What do you actually want for your life?  What is your true purpose? Where is your joy? What agreements are you currently living by?  Are they your shoulds? Your grandmother's shoulds? Your husband's shoulds? Hell, I used to have a should that by my age I should have had a husband by now and this impacted my self-worth.  I've let that one go, for sure. Take a look at your life - what safety box have you built? Where are there walls or fences? DO NOT PASS lines because of beliefs you have constructed based on other's expectations or your perceived beliefs in their judgment or expectations.   How does this impact your boundaries?  How does this impact your ability to enjoy your life? What would you be doing if no one but you had a say in what that was? How would you spend your time? What might your profession be? Would you do more things - fail a lot more, but also feel joy a lot more? Would you get into the driver's seat instead of being the really annoying backseat driver of your own life?.   This law of abundance is to allow yourself to see - start telling yourself the truth and if you don't know-how, go get help to learn!   I needed A LOT of help. It took me 25 years of Buddhism, 4 plus years as a Kabbalist, multiple levels of initiations on a mystery school tradition, thousands of dollars and hours in healings, travel, and therapy and I'm still peeling back the lawyers of my own personal onion.  But I am definitely grateful that I know how to tell myself the truth and that I know that I build my reality. And I actually know my higher self, and I know I am on the path to my purpose.  But I got here with a lot of help.  With people routing for me all the way.  I did -  the doing.  I hold gratitude and experience joy daily because I'm actively working within a discipline to keep from rebuilding a prison for myself. In fact every day I work to build my will, my light, to plant conscious seeds that result in my light and love for myself and others on this planet.  I'm getting out of my own way. Jesus said “I can of my own self, do nothing.” things.” This is the act of surrender to our own destiny and purpose.  Think of it this way. As humans we are not doing love, when we love another, love (the force) loves through us. If you stand there trying to do all of it instead of just being the vessel and letting the force of love through you - then you are in your own way. So choose the will of higher power to flow through you, independent of your mind. Do without doing. Become the vessel. One way to say this is “I will, thy will.” that will you forgot you had when you came into the physical, So now I will, they will. The will I set in motion when I chose to come to this planet right here, right now. The purpose I set in motion and then forgot about when I entered physicality.  I will, that will. Translation. I get out of my own way so my purpose and love can live through me.  And from personal experience, the more I get out of my own way, the more I do without doing, the more I will only the will of my highest self and purpose, the moreAnd this fills me with joy.   If you cannot even begin to fathom what I'm talking about, cannot see a way out of your prison of stories, please reach out. I've got tools that will help you.  I can help with that!  Start unlocking who you are truly meant to be and do.  You do not have to do this alone. Alchemy works. Looking at this works. Getting help works.  Need a baby step? Join my Facebook group Building Joy - a public gratitude practice.  You got this. I may not know you personally, but energetically - I know you. I love you and the world is a better place because you are in it.  Let's get you on the path to enjoying this life.  NOW is the time to stop allowing others to  “should” on you. Walk out of your own box, because it does not exist.

Joy is a term we hear often, and will even more, as we get farther into the holiday season.  But this simple word is actually a lot more complicated than we may think. Brene Brown is famously quoted as saying to Oprah “The most terrifying difficult emotion we experience as humans is Joy.”  Wait a second - Joy is our most terrifying, difficult emotion?  Leave it to humans to find terror and overcomplicate - Joy. So why is this beautiful word -  filled with so much hope and heart- considered terrifying? Because as soon as we have it, we are afraid we are going to lose it. Brene also says “When we lose our tolerance for vulnerability, joy becomes foreboding.” So many people in moments of Joy, dress rehearse tragedy so they can beat vulnerability to the punch.  So what on earth REALLY is JOY? Why is it so darn scary? Why does it elude people? Where does it come from?  I was recently on an airplane flying to Toronto, Canada and I finally watched Roadrunner the story about Anthony Bourdain and his death by suicide. Near the end of listening to people that were his actual family and friends talk about their loss, and how they had watched Anthony fall into something dark that eventually took him away, I was crying my eyes out.  Right there on the airplane, in empathy for all of them and his lost soul. The level of pain he fell into, the utter lack of meaning, the lack of Joy - in a life that brought so much joy to so many. But I don't know if Anthony knew how much he meant to people. Or if he just felt pressure to perform and wear his masks.  Anthony Bourdain was one of my heroes. When I started my travel blog I wanted to be like him. I aspired to be a female Anthony Bourdain (not some type of bad girl chef, because that was not me) but solo woman traveler going places, women hadn't gone alone before, showing other women that you can adventure solo, safely to many many places of your accord and see the world.  I'd watch him and see that Anthony always had friends though, everywhere he went, that showed him the place he was traveling to and I wondered “How did you get that?” Then I'd be like “duh! It's TV Angel, he has a producer and people that arrange these things. You on the other hand are just stumbling around the globe in the dark, going to strange places and putting myself through travel shock therapy.”  It was fun though. Travel shock therapy and adventure bring me joy.  I digress - so Anthony equaled hero, was on a pedestal and a person who I believed had everything I wanted. I wanted to travel for a living, to eat all the things, to experience all of the things. And he was doing that.  And then one day he was dead by suicide.  I couldn't process it. I was in shock and it was actually that summer that I decided my purpose in life was of a higher calling than simply “experience”.  I needed to find a way to bring light to others so no more Anthony's happened. I needed to find a way to bring real Joy to people and give people a way to find joy for themselves - because a life without joy, is not a life lived - and can result in decisions like suicide.  Thus, I can help with that! Metaphysical options for a joyful life were born, and I chose to step up in higher service in my mystery school lineage as a ritual master and do service to humanity.  I have a degree in philosophy. I've studied the meaning of life from multiple perspectives. I'm a guide in a 3000 + year old mystery school. I am a Buddhist. I am a Kabbalist. I've tried abstinence, I've tried hedonism, I've tried co-dependence, independence, psychedelics, obsessive traveling - All this in search of one thing - Joy.  And I'm still asking What is Joy? If you look at the sad story of Anthony Bourdain's life you know joy cannot be found outside yourself, even if you are a brilliant fearless talented world adventurer. Because joy also can't be found by lying to yourself and wearing a mask. When I'm most miserable and devoid of meaning in my actions and drained to my core it's in situations where I am performing a role that is not authentically me. I tried to be a “normal” lawyer in a law firm and it just led me to the bottom of a bottle, the only numbing I could find while having to watch my soul die slowly.  Climbing the corporate ladder and playing politics, pretending to smile at assholes - In fact, when I started in corporate a friend of mine - poked fun at my lack of poker face - she would say,  “Angel, you can literally see your eyes roll so far back into your head when the narcissist idiots start talking - you are going to have to work on that or someone is going to think you are having a seizure.”  I did, and it got me nowhere but tired and burned out, but I sure could facilitate a great meeting where everyone “felt good” about the nothing we accomplished.  When you die and stand at the gates to the afterlife it is said that Anubis will ask you two questions.   Have you experienced Joy? And Have you brought Joy to others?  Joy is all that matters. But WHAT THE FUCK is it?  And, how do we get it? You can't buy it. You can't fake it. And even a lot of us are afraid of it.  The Rune Wunjo that translates to Joy looks like a flag waving in Victory. On the rune sphere, it has the cosmological characteristics of harmony and order and it requires 3 things:  Prosperity- meaning the balance of inflow and outflow of energy  Bliss - to be filled with a sense of meaningfulness  A good house of the soul i.e. a healthy body free from negative influences.  OK, Great theoretical explanation Angel - but still what the hell is Joy, then?  The other day I was driving my partner to the airport for him to go back to work for another 4-week long hitch on a ship in the Gulf of Mexico.  The indigo girls song Closer to Fine came on. And I finally got it.  The lyrics are about searching for Joy. And I realized I've actually lived the song in my life. “I sailed my ship safely till I sank it.” The difference between those who embrace joy and live joy and those stuck in fear and safe routes is the practice of gratitude. The foundation of an abundance mindset. The physical act of stating out loud and writing down words of gratitude. Observing and being aware of all the little things in life that we are grateful for - so in that moment of Joy, we don't get terrified of it and make up a story about how it's not real or run away from it. Instead, we give it an embrace with gratitude.  This is energetically like the 3 parts of the joy rune. Prosperity: the balance of inflow and outflow of energy plus bliss being filled with meaningfulness!   This is what practicing gratitude does!  And 3 a good house for the soul i.e. stopping the negative influence of negative thoughts by practicing gratitude versus allowing in the negative thought patterns of scarcity and rehearsing tragedy.  We can literally be overrun by negative thought patterns - our own - they literally create ruts in our brain that our neurons keep repeating. Meditation research shows that people who meditate are actually firing more paths because they clear these negative patterns, they smooth out the ruts. Gratitude research shows the practice of writing positive words and thoughts every day makes people more able to learn new things, which means there must be more neurological activity as a result of gratitude.  It is definitely easier to listen if the monkey mind and the negative nelly mind aren't babbling on about some false experience appearing real. Fear, a false experience appearing real, is what kills joy and kills people's lives, and puts us into lack.  So people like Anthony choose to kill themself in the face of loss when they literally have a rich, abundant life.  But physical abundance doesn't mean you have mental abundance and joy.  So many spiritual people actually believe you can't be physically abundant (i.e. have lots of money) and still be spiritual. Because they see a lot of rich miserable or quote-unquote rich bad people.   But this is bullshit. Money is just energy.   I wish there were more rich, joyful, and happy spiritual people.  Look at Jimmy Carter and how much he has done for the world. He is a man of means, of spirituality and joy. I bet if we asked financially abundant joyful people what their secret was, they would say gratitude and likely faith. I know a lot of abundant spiritual people and they are in the flow because they are actively cultivating joy, gratitude, and royalty in their lives through service to themself and others. But the foundation is gratitude as a daily practice and daily practice of being on their path to and in joy. And that practice and being on the path, being the goal, not the end game.  Enlightenment is not a static place. Buddha never said - you get there and then you are done. He got there and then his work began. So this week my law of abundance is this - never give up your quest for joy - and remember it is the smallest thing that brings it. Which is the moment-by-moment daily life-long practice of cultivating gratitude in the present moment.  Joy doesn't live in the past.  Joy doesn't live in the future.  Joy lives in the now. No one can give it to you or take it away.  Yes, we can experience heartbreak.  Yes, we can experience pain, but we can also experience Joy.  Hiding from our lives does not reduce our ability to feel heartbreak and pain, these will still happen, but hiding behind masks and not really living will certainly reduce our joy.  It is terrifying to be vulnerable but in that vulnerability you find also the doorway to freedom and joy.  For me sitting there crying on an airplane for a stranger named Anthony Bourdain, the tragedy I was crying for was the fact that he may never have lived.   He didn't love himself. He was a mask. He didn't get to feel true joy as Anthony. He just played Anthony on TV and his answer to Anubis at the gates to the after life was probably No to both questions with a very well written diatribe as to how no one in this world could possibly answer yes.   Because he literally couldn't see the joy he brought to others because he couldn't see how to have joy himself - his addictions got in the way, his ship of safety kept sailing. For me, it is a reminder and a wake up call for my masks. Lawyer. Project manager. Teacher. Traveler. Lightworker. Girlfriend. Sister. Daughter. Spiritual Guide. They aren't enough in this life if I do not experience joy. And joy is not going to come from another person, a bottle, a food, a trip to an exotic location.  It's not going to come from my next accomplishment. It is only going to come from me being grateful for every little thing, from me loving myself enough to allow myself to be loved, to show the world who I am, and to do scary things.  Not to torture myself but to rip off the masks I wear and show myself to the world. To take myself less seriously, it is only life after all.   In the words of the indigo girls let's remember darkness has a hunger that is insatiable and lightness has a call that's hard to hear. But you can hear it. Practice listening. Write down that little thing you are grateful for. Today it's the snoring of my dog cuddled up next to me. It is the daily good morning text from my partner and him telling me I'm beautiful. It was the privilege of sitting around a fire with friends last night in the Seattle rain.  Knowing for me to bring joy to others I must first experience joy myself. This is the secret sauce.  I must first love myself enough to be myself. To practice this art of vulnerability and of gratitude and failing forward, learning from each misstep and enjoying the feeling when I fall.   A leap of faith is a joyful thing because the landing, rough or soft, is always better than having stayed at the cliff afraid to jump. The biggest tragedy we have to avoid is not living our life alive. 

SO LISTENERS, I HAVE A CONFESSION:  I judge those who depend on others, and why? because I am jealous of them.   And why is that? Because I've never had that.  Now I find myself in a relationship with someone I care deeply about - who is not perfect, who is working on themself as well - and yet because I care deeply and have certain desires, now ALL my shit is coming up.  Has this ever happened to you? Finally, you are in a loving, stable relationship that is enhancing and growing your life abundantly but then oh, wait - out of the blue you feel deeply, deeply triggered? “The only difference between a flower and a weed is judgment.” -unknown  My roasted dandelion tea told me this snippet of wisdom this morning - after some serious self-work and soul searching because I found myself SUPER triggered by something that actually hadn't happened yet. The key to my calming down was just that - recognition that what I was triggered by had not happened. I was not experiencing what was happening - but a replay of a pattern of something in my past. And in that moment I vowed to never let it affect my future again.   You see I've got a lot of inner child wounding - my father left my family when I was very young.  I have no memory of him ever being a family with my mom and me and my sister.  I have no explanation from any adult in my memory that makes sense of his sudden gone-ness.  I just have a huge sense of loss there where I should have a father figure.  (now I know and understand as an adult what happened to my parents' marriage but this doesn't change the inner child wounding of it having happened).  Now, combine this wounding with that father's really awful ability to plan - as in he never really did plan anything - my father made a lot of promises he couldn't or didn't keep.  Which felt to a very young me like lies and unkept commitments and thus became large disappointments to little me.  Combine this with being raised in part by my grandmother, a very sick chronic alcoholic who drank herself to death, and her less than emotionally available and abusive husband, my grandfather - I got ear and eye fulls of anger, toxicity,  conflict and drama and no models for productive relationships.  And I was left out in the cold in the soft warm nourishment and support arena.  I learned very young the only person I could depend on was myself, and to brace myself for disappointment and people's rage and anger because it was inevitable. Best I could do was make myself small, quiet, unnoticed, keep my head down and follow the rules to access support through achievement. And maybe if I achieved enough someone would give me positive attention through that recognition at least.  I learned to replace joy and love with achievement and productivity, I learned I had to earn love because I never got it unconditionally.     I learned don't state your needs, don't demand anything, and don't depend on anyone. It's a lonely existence but it keeps the conflict at a minimum and your basic survival needs generally get met.  It left me longing for support and connection but I found substitutes for that along the way.  OK pause the depressing story Angel what on earth does this have to do with a quote about judgment on a tea bag? Or any law of abundance?? Well, judgment is just that, perspective. Judgment is a tough act and I'm going to admit that I have a lot of it. Like I said before, I judge those who depend on others because I am jealous of them. Because I have never allowed myself to depend on someone else. My MIND has them disappointing me before it has happened.  My mind has me wanting to react, project, push away and run away before the disappointing event (in reaction to not the current present but the disappointment of the past) so that disappointing event doesn't happen to me again.  But if I do what my mind wants me to, I've then created conditions that guarantee a repetition of the past, and that make a cause for it to be in my future.  The answer: Step back and ask what am I actually reacting to? Is it real? Did I make it up? What is the big hairy bear that wants to eat me?  I knew last night in the moment to not react to the trigger. I leaned in to intentional conversation - I didn't get the response I wanted or expected (mind me, that is) so I paused, I reframed, and recognized I was still reacting to something not there. I was judging myself, I was creating things that were not said. Then I was able to name it.  Disappointment Bear.  It is a big ugly one I do not like facing.  I've self-medicated, I've stayed in unhappy jobs, in unhappy or unfulfilling relationships because staying allowed me to not experience it.  Disappointment Bear.  But Disappointment Bear is now looming in front of me like a giant picnic of repetition and I'm starving.  Hey boo boo? Yet wait - I have brakes, I have tools, I can meditate and identify and name the bear (the fear, the trauma, the damage, the baggage) I don't have to give in to it and repeat the pattern.  A magickian, a kabbalist, a buddhist, a hermeticist can all be self aware enough to see the chain of cause and effect, see where mind is making up illusion, and shift it to see the moment and the objective facts of what is happening - such that good cause can be generated for positive effect.   A trigger is a space for learning if it can be examined, versus giving into it and starting another cycle and putting that past into your future.  If you start to feel something scary, first think, are you responding to something longer than 15 seconds, if you are at 5 minutes, 15 minutes, or an hour of trigger you are generating a pattern that puts the thing you are reacting to into your future. Also after the 1st 15 seconds you can know if it doesn't pass through you that you are reacting to something from your past that you need to clear very badly.  And you are NOT reacting to what is actually happening in front of you right now.  (in my case I was reacting literally to nothing, nothing had happened yet, or did, but man my mind was so certain it had or would).  Anyway this 15 second rule is a diagnostic tool that you can use.  If you use it it can help you break out of some serious stuff and clear it up for you.  I'm currently in a  King Salomon healing series known as Mind Region - this series is deeply kabbalistic in that we are finding ways to peel away the masks one wears.  To find those places where I'm still in survival mode and transform them to be my most authentic self 100% of the time, truly living my purpose - which is helping others find their purpose and joy in life.  So it's no wonder stuff is coming up as I'm committed to doing this work and being an example for others. So, now I've gotta look at the masks I wear and why I wear them.   Two big ones: Disappointment  Judgement Judgment protects me from the disappointment bear. I judge myself, others I don't have to face situations where I could be disappointed again.  I can preemptively judge situations to such an extent as to completely avoid them, and live a very unfulfilled life - but it will save me from disappointment bear.  Telling you all this is not easy for me. In fact, in my past I would have gladly lit myself on fire (or whatever analogy you want to use) if anyone suggested an activity where sharing my triggers was on the menu.  But I have evolved and it has helped my life tremendously.  Today I share with you “my process.” And why?  I have to learn to be vulnerable for my own progression I have to tell myself the truth about what is really going on in my life if I'm ever going to have healthy, productive, intentional communication with myself and in relationship with others Me doing this out loud and publicly is modeling a useful diagnostic tool for you all.  The law of abundance here is to always unpack that which triggers us. Frequently we are not reacting to what is happening but to something that happened in our past.  Some illusion and story made by our negative ego.  Supporting this law is the need for everyone, myself included to get tools and support to learn how to unpack triggers.  Then in the moment USE those tools versus setting in motion a cause for future replays of the trigger and cementing it into our reality again.  So you can look at the trigger as a weed, as something that needs to be pulled, poisoned or killed, or you can look at it like a flower, a seed, an opportunity. It is part of you after all, to know and understand and look at. Why is it that color? Why is it here open in front of me? What seed will this plant?  The difference is literally in your judgment (good or ill) about what you choose to see and then do.  In my case, in this situation it still remains to be seen if I will be disappointed. Jury is out, my trust issues are on a high alert, but so is my LOVE for myself and my partner.  I lean into loving myself and not repeating old patterns, not reacting to myths and ghosts to prevent non-existent harms.   It is highly likely that by approaching things this way that I'll actually find the support I crave to come from another because I'll be honest, vulnerable and available and open to receive it.  Instead of guarded, shut down, closed off, on the offence to create the best defence.  Ultimately the love, support and compassion I need comes from within.  And the forgiveness of myself for sins I never committed.  Little me did nothing wrong to make adults act the way they did around me.  It had nothing to do with me.  They were dealing with their own shit.  I just got caught in the crossfire creating a sound I've carried with me my whole life.   But I'm ready to let go of these woundings. So I can start working on my purpose, and get out of my own way.  So I end today, my beautiful listener, with a quote from the Erykah Badu song that has always stuck with me and feels very poignant right now.  “All you must hold on to - is you….one day all them bags gonna get in your way. So pack light….love can make it better.”  I can help with that    - Visit latterelllaw.com   

Hello my lovely listeners - I would like to share a quote with you from the great inventor and futurist, Nikola Tesla  “Inside the earth, there are energies of joy, peace, and love that are expressed for example through a flower that grows from the earth, food that comes out of it, and everything that makes it our home.  I've spent years looking for ways that this energy could influence people. The beauty and aroma of roses can be used as medicine and the sun's rays as food.  Life has an infinite number of forms, and the duty of scientists is to find them.  All I do is look for them. I will not give up." The universe is alive in all its manifestations.  The stone is a sensitive being, such as plants, animals, and people.  A star that shines asks to be seen, and if we were not self-absorbed we would understand its language and its message.  The breath, the eyes, and the ears of a human being have to fulfill the breath, the eyes and the ears of the universe.”  I read this quote this morning on a post from a Facebook group. I wouldn't recommend going to Facebook for inspiration, it's usually a time-sucking hole that leaves me wondering why I went there in the first place.  But today, luckily after meditation in a relaxed mind state I followed only one rabbit hole and it led me to Tesla's words. Which immediately reminded me of sacred geometry and this week's law of abundance - the superpower of Awareness.  The beauty I find in Tesla's words (which are of course quoted without a reference so I cannot confirm or deny they are in fact his words, I can just hope) but either way there is beauty in these words because it is getting at what lies beneath just what we immediately see and perceive.  A recognition that rocks, crystals, plants, flowers have a  shape and an energetic signature - a vibration, and aliveness - and that to tap into this vital life force energy one only has to be aware that it is there and actively look for it.  So much can be experienced if we are willing to be AWARE of its existence.  The process of self-awareness is like this as well.  And if we are aware of things all around us all the time - then we see, sense, and experience those things, and we can engage with those things, to build on those things, to take advantage of synchronicity and opportunities so that we are in the flow of the universe versus plugged into a self-absorbed matrix keeping us asleep and not going anywhere in our lives.  Let's think about the movie The Matrix (the very first one from the early 1990s) for just a second. The character of Neo, how did he learn how to be so powerful? First, he made a choice between the Red and the Blue pill and he chose Awareness. In the story, this was symbolized by him being unhooked and freed from being a human battery cell for the giant parasitic machine.  And with this choice and awareness that he had free will now, he then began his training to become AWARE of the energies he could manipulate and use in his reality. He became aware that a lot of his reality was story and illusion (created by the machine), but in being aware of that he could become the spoon, bend the spoon, wield the materials of the story itself to become a superhero. All of this was a conscious choice to become Aware and tap into the life force energy surrounding him. Which is the story is symbolized by him gaining superhuman abilities to beat the negative forces inside the matrix machine.   Hmmmmmm….is this an allegory? Yes! It is! And this is why awareness is a law of abundance and a superpower. It literally can give you superhuman abilities - the ability to tap into your creator god/goddess, the ability to experience joy, love, and wonder like you never have before. To be living alive in the flow of things versus fighting them.  So you might be like “Angel you've really lost it now. What is this Nikola Tesla Matrix Science Fiction bullcrap you are trying to feed me? I knew you were woo woo but now you are just cray cray.”   Right. Bare with me a moment.  Let's look at this from the perspective of being unaware for a second. Tesla's quote says “if we were not self-absorbed we would understand its language.” He's speaking of the language of the stars here, but we can apply this to a more mundane example. The best mundane example I can think of in my own life is when I've lost my car because I forgot where I parked it.  Because I was never aware of where I parked it because I was so in my head when I parked it I literally went thru the motions but had no awareness of what I was doing. I've lost my car twice in my life this way - one time because my job was so stressful I was thinking about what so & so was going to say or do in reaction to me, I was angry because someone else was acting badly and I didn't like how they were treating me. My head was literally me, me, me - similarly, I lost my car on another day when I was thinking about how awful it felt to be lied to by my boyfriend at the time (who was by this moment my ex-boyfriend) and all the things I would say if It got the chance to tell him off because his lies hurt me so bad.  In both cases, I spent a good hour later in the day looking for my car in a panic because I literally had NO AWARENESS of where it was parked. I was so in my head and self-absorbed when I parked it, I had no idea what I did.  The moral of the story in both cases is that I was not aware because I was stuck on a mental mind loop of me, me, me, and misery induced by the cycle of me, me, me self-absorbed negative ego monkey mind chatter. Both situations were very unpleasant, by me making it about me and then being unaware of my surroundings and what I was doing so I lost my car and had to spend time and energy trying to find it later.  Which also felt icky on top of the bad day I was already having because I was stuck on me, me, me. See how this builds on itself? Now, had I literally stopped to smell the roses - as cliche as that is - I would have broken out of this cycle.  Roses smell wonderful and are beautiful and the scent and vibration are medicine.  Cliches are cliches because they are something repeated based on truth.  Roses grow in a spiral, just like the spiral of fractals you see in cauliflower and romanesco, just like the spiral in the snail shell, the spiral of tree growth, the spiral exemplified by what math people call the Fibonacci sequence. Roses have a scent with a high vibration that brings us into a state of love and recognition of the sacred - that is why they are given to people you love and used to cheer people up and commemorate special occasions.  They are magick because they hold within them the shape of love and joy from the sacred geometry of the spiral of growth. They are naturally high vibratory energy. And I can, because I choose to be aware of them and their light use them as medicine for myself.  I keep them and fresh flowers in my house all the time just for that purpose.  I digress a little bit here with my happy sidetrack about roses, but do you see how awareness, in this case, possibly being brought on by a plant known as the rose could kick me out of being self-absorbed thus bringing me out of me, me, me and into see, see, see and smell, and taste and hear what is ACTUALLY going on around me? If I had stopped to smell the roses, I would have knocked myself out of that self-absorbed loop and become more aware of my surroundings and thus later, remember where my car was, and probably have a way more pleasant day as a result.   If someone is very self-aware they are extremely cognizant of how their actions affect other humans.  And frequently they are also very aware of how their choices and actions affect their environment.  Both types of self-awareness are good and are the basis of this law of abundance.  It takes awareness to have gratitude. So gratitude practice is an awareness practice.  It wakes you up and unplugs you from the pity party that self-absorption can create and the negative thought pattern cycles it encourages.  Self-absorption (or being in victim mode, or complaining) also creates blindness - it shuts down awareness because you go into all-consuming negative ego and its illusions and stories.  Good news - We can use our friends the flowers, plants, rocks and crystals to aid us in this path to gratitude and awareness.  We can use Sacred Geometry as well which is also a practice of awareness. Crystals grow in sacred geometry patterns, plants & flowers do too, humans are made up of sacred geometry just look at the DNA double helix spiral right? If you start down this path of looking at everything as alive and sacred and aware of all of its makeup, its energy, you will tap into the energy Nikola Tesla is talking about. You will, like Neo did in the story, be able to start to develop superhuman qualities of being able to use cause & effect, synchronicity, vibration, the opportunity to your advantage for the good of yourself and others because you will be aware of how you are fitting in and acting in your ecosystem.  You will be awake and unplugged or at least desiring to find your own Morpheus so you can choose the pill to wake up from the dream. Half the battle is waking up and realizing that so much of what we see is an illusion and stories our self-absorbed negative ego has built for us.  But just like the couple illustrated on The Devil card in the Ryder Waite deck - these chains of illusion are possible to be lifted right off and over our head.  The key to release from the story (the bonds) is Awareness - and choosing to actively engage in being aware of everything except the illusion. This is why Tesla's quote is so beautiful.  It is his unique way of being aware of the magick of life all around him.  And his commitment to always being aware and searching for more in those mysteries of beauty, joy and love he saw everywhere.  “All I do is look for them. I will not give up.” is his vow.  A man aligned with his purpose.  He was far from what the mainstream would call successful in his physical life, but no one ever aligned with their true purpose is recognized as “traditionally successful” because that is part of the illusion. But thanks to his commitment to his purpose we have some amazing things today. Thanks to his awareness.   So, what can you create in your life if you cultivate such a level of awareness? What are your superhuman abilities if you unhook from the matrix of illusion and start to wield the tools at your disposal in your true reality?  Feeling like you can't get there alone and/or want a little help? Are you curious and want to explore this more?  I can help with that! Reach out let's talk about it - I don't have a magick pill to unplug you immediately with no effort, but I definitely have tools you can practice to grow this superpower.  So you can start to be more aware of your powers and tap into the medicines, joys, and magick of this planet and your life.  HAPPY NEW DAY  beautiful listener! Now go out in the world and use your newfound superpower - simply being awake... Because so many of us are asleep.  Enjoy your new reality and may you learn to fly.

These last few days my dear listeners I have found myself upset, frantic even, emotional, and venting - I've remained grounded but barely and as a result I'm tired, my cup is going dry and as I waited in the airport to fly to Denver to meet my partner's mother for the first time I found the words and thoughts of others around me to vibrate painfully, grating off my eardrums.   This is a sign that I'm not in a good place. That I allowed myself to become the effect versus the cause in my environment, and my environment now becomes an irritant. While I was Meditating with them, my Runes kept repeating to me this statement “I'm over directed towards outer things.” Outer things meaning things that are outside my sphere of control, outside of myself. And recently I've felt justified in reacting because things have been outside of my control. I don't control airlines, I don't control my partner's friends' bad decisions, I don't control the internet, sales tax, rental car prices - and I've been upset because my expectations of others were not met, people I care about were injured and there was nothing I could do about it. All I could do about it was react, get frazzled and now I find myself exhausted.  It took a good hard long look at myself today in meditation sitting here in a hotel room in Colorado, my runes on full repeat - screaming Naudhiz! Naudhiz! Naudhiz! for me to finally listen, and realize that the story I'm playing that I allowed to run my world for the past week is bullshit. It's not the outside world making me this way, it's me - and I can be something other than upset. If I choose to rise above my monkey mind and reactionary behaviors.  So the Rune Naudhiz (or Needfire) has the following Rune poems associated with it: #1 Need is constricting on the chest, Although to the children of men it often becomes A help and salvation nevertheless #2 Need makes for a difficult situation The naked freeze in the frost #3 Need is the grief of the bondmaid And a hard condition to be in and toilsome work So Naudhiz, which is translated to need or needfire, roughly means - from the darkness & cold the need for fire is realized, however, the fire must be generated within yourself to banish distress. So in other words, the only cause for the fire that banishes distress is your own will that comes from within. Your own thought process & realization to rise above the stressful circumstances, or the ability to start making choices and plans (remember idea, thought, plan, action - the 4 worlds principle from ep.1 ) that put you in places where distress does not occur.  Now per Rune poem #2, line two “the naked freeze in the frost” i.e. those who do not help themselves out of distress remain in distress or die (the naked freeze). Those who are in victim stay in victim unless they change their thought process. So here my runes were telling me “Angel! Get your shit together and stop reacting to circumstance - take your thoughts back, get it together, and start being the cause!” All thought is acted upon - and as the thinker you always have control over your own thought process (both reactionary and causal), and in my case I needed to build a fire of gratitude to start to replenish my resources and get back on track as the creator of my reality replenishing my reserves.  Now I keep saying effect vs. cause, or be the cause not the effect in my life. My runes were being really blunt with me and reminding me of the hermetic & buddhist principle of cause & effect.  Hermetic rule #6 of the laws of the universe and this week's law of abundance. The law of causality.  Which is “be the cause in your life or else you will just experience effects.”  Here is the hermetic principle as quoted from the Kybalion.  “Every cause has its effect; every effect has its cause; everything happens according to the law; chance is but a name for law not recognized; there are many places of causation, but nothing escapes the law.” So my listeners, thinking about the principle of cause and effect in your life - ask yourself where am I a cause or where am I an effect in my life? To do this you must acknowledge your thoughts & behaviors - are they just reactive to your environment all the time? Are you telling yourself a story that is bringing about a certain reality? or are you actively curating your thoughts, words & acts to bring about effects you truly desire into your environment?  When things do not go as we planned in life we become unhappy.  I recently experienced this - but when this happens instead of wallowing and blaming others for our unhappiness (this is focusing on outside circumstances so you end up naked and frozen like the Naudhiz rune poem). You must instead identify the cause, even if the cause appears outside yourself (like my recent situation) so it can at least break you out of being a slave to reactionary thought & action which compounds on itself leaving us trapped in a drama blender where we keep getting whirled around by circumstance.  If we can focus on the cause we break the cycle, we recognize we can forge our own path, that we can take action to change circumstance, or at least change our mind about the situation so our thoughts & REACTION is a choice we make and our own. This moves us from the victim of our circumstance to the author of our world.  Cause and effect is a law of the universe that is impossible to escape.  It is the root of karma, it is part of synchronicity, part of fate, part of the web of wyrd.  No one ever escapes cause & effect even if it may appear so on the surface or right now- it just comes in different ways to different people.  But those who follow this rule of Cause & Effect and apply this law of abundance, this hermetic principle to their lives, are always in the process of attempting to be master of their lives thru right cause, right action, the will of acting in alignment with purpose, gratitude and positivity in order to elevate themselves from a place of victim of circumstance.   Things like meditation, ritual, prayer, gratitude practices allow us to master the mind, gain mastery over emotions & desires, mastery over our thoughts so we can master our universe and be the change (the cause) we wish to see in the world as Gandhi taught, as Buddha taught, as hermetics teaches. Our thoughts = our reality. Thought & word = first cause.  We must have vigilance in our thoughts to keep our thoughts in the light & love & higher self, to remain the cause and stay a master of our lives and circumstances.  This is a practice to engage in every single day.  And it's not a simple one as my story in this podcast today illustrates. It requires constant vigilance. I can still let my circumstances set me in a thought cycle, but I have a daily practice that can pull me out of it. I learned and practiced this discipline every day. I chant, I do rituals, I meditate, I work with the runes & tarot to help my higher self send me messages to wake me up if I am getting cloudy. Sometimes I slip, but then I get back up and try again. And I did not get here alone. My path to living this law of abundance has come with 25 years of Buddhist practice and 10 plus years as an adept and higher-level initiate with the modern mystery school. Honestly, my deep hard look at cause and effect didn't really fully mature until I chose the ritual master path and started studying hermetics thanks to the kind and loving nurturing of my ritual master teacher Ipsissmus Dave Lanyon. And with this training, I decided that the best way to be the cause in my life was to choose to be of service to others, to be a spiritual guide in the lineage of King Salomon so I can teach others how to step on the path that leads to know thyself and gives people not the answer, but the tools to find the answer.  In other words, I teach people how to fish versus giving them the fish. I empower versus enable. How do I do that? Specifically now with things like this podcast, and the tools & teachings I am privileged to pass down through the Empower Thyself class and initiation.  If you want to step on the path to purpose and start being the cause in your life, the tools, practices, and energetic life lift Empower Thyself gives you are a game-changer.  I am able to hand you down simple daily practices and connect you to the power cell of a 3000+ year old tradition - that if used will help you know yourself better, start to live alive and awake and empowered so you start to be the cause in your life versus the effect. Empower Thyself is not a self-help book or some new age think yourself into a rich kind of process. It is a set of practical tools to allow you to break free from your negative ego and everywhere it keeps you trapped.  It is the beginning of a means to learning how to tell yourself the truth in a kind & loving way, the beginning of a daily practice that if done consistently (or even at an average level of application) will start your engine toward making causes for a life you want to live in. It is a choice to become the author of your life and opens so many doors. Every single dollar and minute I've invested into my own mystery school training for my personal development has come back to me tenfold in joy and abundance and life satisfaction.   I am not wanting for anything in my life and yes I may still have a bad day here and there, but I no longer have a bad month or year.  I'm resilient. I have reserves and my daily practices make me strong so I am the author of my destiny. I love myself and I love humanity to such an extent that I am now committed 100% of my existence as a guide to helping others find the path to their true self.   Nothing about my path has been easy or fast. This is a discipline that I choose every day along with my Buddhist practice. But every day I choose love.  And I hope that my words can encourage you - if nothing else to choose to be the cause every day of your life.  Free yourself from the slavery of a reactionary life ruled by thoughts and stories generated from your negative ego and lower self.   And maybe my words have made you curious about empowering thyself and learning daily practices and thought structures to help you on this path.  If this is the case then I can help with that! Reach out, we can connect and chat, get you in for a life activation, and register for Empower Thyself with me or a guide in your geographic area.  I hope to hear from you and shine the light for you to step on the path to being the cause, to finding your own inner fire.   Until then I love you all and remember you are the cause if you choose to be. 

Boundaries are Powerful So, I had the pleasure yesterday of having tea and talking with a friend I had not seen in over a year. We hadn't spoken for a while because she had a bad case of COVID, and needed to recover and then make changes in her life with time and space to learn the new things she needed for better boundaries.  As we chatted, we talked about heavy things, we laughed and celebrated life and learning and the process of failing forward - and the theme that came out of our talk was what an AMAZING thing that boundaries are and do for us as healthy, independent, responsible, self-aware, adult human beings.  So first, what is a boundary?  Would it surprise you that many people don't have them and sincerely struggle to set them? Do you have them? Do your parents, friends, colleagues? Boundaries are worthy of exploration and articulation.  I like to think of a boundary first as physical, a clear space of demarcation between me and the other. Two physical bodies that are not blending as we stand separate. We are not in an embrace, kissing, or blending those physical bodies. Even though we have chosen to come together as partners, we are still sovereign individuals.   But what about the non-physical side of boundaries?  The stuff you can't see? The place where boundaries are most important in establishing you and the other. I need to know where I begin and end energetically.  What is my baggage? What am I projecting or making sure I am not projecting on another human being? And in return - what is the other person's stuff? Are they spewing their opinions on me, their projections, their desires, thoughts and wants all over me?  Are they making me wrong for a choice they made to avoid taking personal responsibility for it?  Here is an example: A person who suffers from anxiety expresses fear over my travels during times of COVID or how I might be perceived if I'm an attorney who does energy work or teaches classes like Empower Thyself as a representative of the Modern Mystery School.  I MEAN WHAT WILL THE WORLD THINK OF ME?! They won't take me seriously as an attorney if I keep engaging in such woo-woo behavior.  However, IF I have boundaries, I can hear these words, I can acknowledge and thank them for their concern (which really is their attempt to project their anxiety and judgment on me - consciously or unconsciously) and I can internally pause and acknowledge that what I am feeling from them is, in fact, them and their emotions and judgment, NOT ME or MINE.   And. I. move. on. I have no obligation, responsibility or anything to pick up what they are putting down and projecting upon me. Their internal anxiety and judgment (which they are externalizing onto me as “worry about what the world will think”) is all their own shit and I do not have to take it on. And when I say it's their own shit I mean it - it's their own self-judgment and criticism about not being taken seriously and having something to prove to the world. It's their own fears about going and seeing the world during COVID. It's not my fear, and it's not my judgment.  I have no fear to travel responsibly, and I have no cares what the world thinks of me.  I love myself, I care about people, and I have a mission to help others find a way to love themselves in this world. I think the teachings within the Lineage of King Solomon are one of the fastest ways for a person to wake up to who they truly are, love themselves, and join the team “making this world a better place for everyone.” I save lives and I help people.  I expect people who are jealous, to want to stop me from speaking, to judge me, and do things to discredit me.  If I'm not making enemies I'm not trying hard enough to get us all to Shambala.   So - I'm very clear that the judgment of others is not my deal, and I don't care about it.  Now, me being clear about this does not mean creating drama.  I do not need to tell this person how wrong they are, and how the world isn't going to judge me for what I'm doing, or that I don't care, or that I'm not afraid to travel because it isn't dangerous, etc... This is not productive, and they are probably right.  Travel during a pandemic has risks, and people do judge me for what I do. But it is my choice if I spend the energy worrying about it because I have boundaries.  I have boundaries and I don't like drama and I don't need to be right - so I just thank the person for their concern and disengage from the conversation.  Trying to explain to them that I do not care what others think of me, or more profoundly said, I am not worried about it because I know anyone else's judgment of me is their own pain, baggage, and issues and really their judgment of themselves - saying this, is not going to make sense to this person - You see where I'm going with this?   It is best I just acknowledge, disengage, and keep going on about my business as a caring, loving human being in the world living my life in the best way possible with a lot more energy to do it, because I do not take on other people's stuff or engage in drama.   So this, my lovely listener, is why boundaries are not only powerful but also a law of abundance.  Because when you have boundaries, you do not take on other people's stuff, you do not engage in drama and create more stuff, you do not worry about being right or being heard and not judged - and you have SO MUCH MORE ENERGY. When you don't have to make other people wrong, or subconsciously carry around the burden of an entire community of souls unconsciously projecting their stuff at you- you step back into your lane. You know where you begin and they end and where they end and you begin. Life is lighter. Life has more joy. You are unburdened by opinion and you get really clear on who you are and what really matters and how you affect others in this world. And as a result of this, you gain Freedom - FREEDOM gained through personal awareness and responsibility.  And with responsibility comes agency - and then you are writing the script of your life instead of being an actor in someone else's musical.   Boundaries also allow you to easily steer clear of unneeded DRAMA. The drama that is soul-sucking and energy vortex life energy eating.  If you are always dealing with drama (yours or others) when do you have time to create your life? When do you have time to create your abundance and your joy? You don't. Because you are always sinking in a sea of drama. But with boundaries, you are immediately able to see it coming and then are able to disengage from the situation before the conveyor belt of bullshit sends you into the coco puffs factory.   How? Let's take a gaslighting example. (if you have good boundaries, by the way, you cannot be gaslighted because you smell that funky gunk coming and do not breathe it in).  Individuals who love to not take personal responsibility for their actions frequently gaslight others. If they can convince the other person they are wrong, then the individual doesn't have to own up to their actions.  I see this in legally litigious situations ALL THE TIME.  Litigation doesn't happen because people are self-aware and taking full responsibility for their actions. Frequently in landlord-tenant matters, I have a lazy corner-cutting landlord yelling profanely at their tenant about how the tenant shoulda coulda woulda this that and the other thing, but meanwhile this doesn't change the fact that there is sewage coming out of the tub. I advise clients who are experiencing this type of gaslighting behavior from landlords making them wrong by  Breathing a lot  Acknowledging what they have control over in the situation - which is their reaction to the bullying/gaslighting behavior  To make decisions from a non-emotional, non-reactionary, or negative space.  Ask themselves - what is my stuff? What are the landlords? Where can I act but not engage in a way that will throw gasoline on this fire? Because when you lean in and start throwing stuff back - where does this get you?  No where good fast. It just gives you more drama and headaches.  You can't make an asshole realize they are an asshole by telling them they are an asshole.  We don't need to get the other to our perspective (especially because we might be wrong, they might be right, or we both might be wrong and both might be right). We just have to have a clear boundary within ourselves to NOT ENGAGE in the drama, stay respectful, take the high road, and manage ourselves.  Do you see how much more energy you can have as a result of this? This can work in relationships too.  As I mentioned in my last podcast about codependency, I'm a recovering codependent and enabler.  Enabling is a thing that happens when people don't have good boundaries.  Why? We do things for others that they put on us, and we carry things for them. Then we get tired and angry and become victims when they never do those things for themselves. Do you see how crazy this is? We choose to take on the burden of that person's stuff. We actually do whatever it is for them. Then get mad that they aren't doing it for themselves. Then we make them wrong for making you do it. But the problem started at your first choice, where you did it for them. Or you absorbed the situation as your own instead of being very clear about what was happening and empowering them to do it themself or to see for themself what was going on.  So they lose on the opportunity to learn and you lose because you are doing it for them, taking on karma and eventually getting angry and hurt and becoming a victim because “they made you do it!” But they didn't. Your own LACK OF BOUNDARY is the only thing at fault here, and your choice to enable. This is very important to learn in boundary growth.  I didn't learn it on my own. I had a lot of support with my spiritual path and specifically through Kabbalah, on the ritual master path, and as a healer in the lineage of King Soloman.   Meditation helps me observe myself, but I had to learn boundaries by doing. By being brave and loving myself enough, knowing myself, and recognizing what is my shit and what is other people. I have had to tell myself some hard truths. But it is rewarding and amazing to have boundaries and feels so good to empower versus enable others.  It improves your relationships and those who need enablers in their lives will fall away from your life - they may even get mad at you that you changed and stopped enabling - but you will have a boundary and be clear that this is especially their problem.  You will also have less drama - you likely will not ever find yourself in legal battles (unless absolutely necessary) and you will have a lot more energy to use the law for what it is meant for, like planning your business and creating your estate plan. You will make good decisions to build a safe, productive, abundant home and structures for yourself where you can engage in a healthy self-care, in your space, in your way.  Boundaries are a beautiful and powerful thing - and they are a KEY to you building an abundant and joyful life. Practice makes perfect and there are things we can do together to help you practice them. As always, I can help with that! So happy boundary awareness and appreciation day!  Until next time my friends, enjoy your life in all of its aspects and happy boundary building.

I am the last person I would ever ask for relationship advice. I've been codependent most of my life and been engaged to men that lied to me and betrayed me. I've been in relationships with ones that needed to be taken care of or are just down-right angry at the world.  At one point, my lack of self-love allowed me to look at these relationships as fulfilling, because if you are co-dependent - the relationship is filling a hole, a hole you don't want to look at, so the reward of the unhealthy relationship is that it keeps you distracted from identifying the cause of the hole you just keep digging yourself into deeper and deeper.  Now - I broke that cycle in my life, using the tool of the 10 month Universal Hermetic Ray Kabbalah program. It took me 4 trips up the tree of life to really learn fully how to love myself in such a way as I could break the pattern that kept putting me in a position of co-dependency and enabling of others not worthy of my time, energy, love and money.  Then I spent more time working on myself before I could reach a place to admit I was ready to try an actual fulfilling relationship. To admit that I actually wanted a real, fulfilling relationship.  And thanks to good friends, my own personal practice with the Runes and Tarot, meditation and ritual I was able to hear the universe tell me to go back out into the world a fulfilled & whole human being and pull in someone who I enjoy being with.  Not to complete me, but to be a partner in life to co-create experience with and work together on a mission of lightwork to make this world a better place.  The change in me was that I was being honest with myself and no longer trying to fill a hole with a person. I am complete unto myself. I am whole and love myself. No other is going to change that. Nowt that I'm whole, it was time, like The Shekinah did, to pull my love, my lover, my king to me from the universe.  And when I did this the other would not become someone or something I take care of, enable, or need, but a partner where we enjoy each other - independent, free and making our own choices, including the creation of a relationship.  So, let's look at it this way: a relationship is a triangle.  You, the other person, and the relationship create the triangle. The two of you are creating it together as independent beings and it itself is a co-creation and an independent creation of the two of you.  The importance of independence of each individual of staying in a space of light - not control - meaning staying open to not being right.  One does not learn how to create worlds in collaboration by being right & controlling the other person. Im going to repeat that again dear listener.  One does not learn how to create worlds in collaboration by being right & controlling the other person. Take these words to heart  from one recovering codependent to another. There is no opportunity to create the kind of divine collaboration you seek by focusing on being right and controlling another's behavior.   Here in these words lie my light bulb moment - as this being a law of abundance.  Co-creation is a magickal thing. And your beliefs aside - the Elohim which is a “they” includes a masculine and a feminine - god of the bible is two in partnership making worlds like Earth in collaboration. Not co-dependence. Co-dependence is dependency - a taking, one is always suckling on the other, literally feeding off of their life force energy. How does this create something when the energy itself is destructive? Needy, cloying, pulling, heavy - what of this is of the light? How does it help you create more of anything? It doesn't - it only creates more lack, because it feeds whatever that hole is in your life and rewards you with more of the same - so you get tired, burnt out and angry. Or you blame the other for making you this way - when its all a choice to stay co-dependent.  Sadly, co-dependency is the norm for relationships in this world today.  So much in the world, encourages us to look at it as normal - song lyrics for one. I listen to the lyrics of pop music, country music, you name it music, and its all about NEED, not co-creation. No song I know of (with minor exceptions) is about loving oneself so much that you do not need another, but you choose to be with another because their friendship, collaboration and light enhance your life to such an extent that you want to create new things with them.  No, most things are about us making the other person into something FOR US. So I will change this other person into my mold - I will make them do what I want. Then I'll be happy. Well that's kinda fucked up isn't it? Why do we want to go making people do anything? And how is that creating abundance?  So, Step 1: we work on ourselves and learn to love ourselves. If you can't love yourself you can never truly love another simply because you do not know how.  Step 2: we desire another to truly co-create with. As in, an independent being who loves themself, will be in your life and together (independently exercising their own free will). You will make things seperate from yourselves, starting with your healthy relationship with each other. Which involves releasing attachment to controlling the other, or having them be what you want. Do what you want. You being RIGHT about their choices, and them being equally open the other way back to you. From here you have fertile ground for an amazing co-creation harvest and the fulfillment of a law of abundance in relationship with another.  So this is not relationship advice. I don't think I'm yet worthy of dishing that. This is a law of abundance.  Love yourself. Don't attempt to fill yourself with another. And in relationship you must allow for independence of the other in order to create something (the relationship) with them.  Otherwise you are taking and making lack.  Co-creation is in nature just like my “container” example in Episode one of this podcast. Seed comes from fertilized flower - flower plus polinator equals fruit. Flower is very independent from pollinator. Sperm plus egg equals baby in human and mammals generally.  In nature the sperm bearer is really independent from the egg bearer but together in union they create the 3rd a new life.  Humans and some other animals mate for life (or partial lives) - this mating is another form of co-creation as in the choice to live and create together equals the choice to create a 3rd thing - a relationship. Which may have offspring itself i.e. kids, children, new beings, they are a product of the relationship, the co-creation.  Now I think I'm going in circles - so I'll wind up my thoughts on this law of abundance - as I sit in my thoughts this full moon eve and my own experience as I learn how to create a healthy relationship with another myself. What I'm learning is truly one must know themself - and whatever crack is in this knowledge of yourself is where you will feel the rub in the relationship.  We cannot fear to lose it (the relationship) because that is dependence - one must be free in it and willing to let it go at any time. Then and only then, you will be in a space to create.  Happy co-creating friends! If you need additional help in detaching from your former self, I can help with that! You can always find contact information in my show notes!  Contact me @

As I sit in the North Country, the land known as the Upper Peninsula of Michigan, steps from the beautiful shores of the inland ocean known as Lake Superior next to the Keweenaw Peninsula, I keep seeing signs and reminders about the concept of True North.  When I lead endeavors in culture change, project management or process improvement in corporate I always tell the sponsor, the leader of the project, that we need a True North. I emphasize that if she or he does not know clearly where they want the team to end up then, well, we are not going to get that team anywhere. It doesn't matter how much I try to get them to go somewhere, or how good of a project manager I might be - if the leader doesn't know where we are going, then the team will not be effective in accomplishing anything.  You need to know where you are going to get anywhere.  Project management principle #1. Just as thought precedes action - Hermetic principle #1.  It is shocking though, how frequently this concept is ignored in corporate america, (this is one of the reasons I don't believe in a lot of conspiracy theories, as its really really hard to get a group of people to accomplish something simple together in plain sight, let alone complicated and hidden) and this is also one of the reasons I work as a consultant now instead of an employee, because I can demand that the project I am on have a purpose. And as a consultant I am not saddled with bad management & leadership and then blamed for the failure of the project that the bad manager refused to lead.   True North is also a navigating principle. On the compass the arrow always points to True North, this is magnetic north where the north pole is on planet earth.  Birds intuitively know true north, fish know, the flows and tides and animals know it and follow it intuitively. Even Satellites/GPS/and flight systems are tuned to it (and updated regularly to stay that way) to True North.  Small aside, the magnetic north actually shifts.  The North Pole moves so GPS and computer navigational systems need to be adjusted to align with it regularly.   But what is true north for the individual? In some ways it is not much different than a direction for  an endeavor i.e a goal, a purpose, a reason to be doing the work, or a navigational principle. If you have a True North in your life you will know where you are going and why.  And this is why it is necessary to have (and work on finding) your true north to be an abundant person.  It is part of Know Thyself - True North for the individual is your inner sense, your true calling, it is what you want to accomplish in your life.  It is your life purpose, which keeps you on track on your path of progression that is tre for you and your contract that brought you to this planet, at this particular point in the history of this group of humans.  Having a true north will keep you from languishing from wandering about your life like a window shopper.  It will keep you from being blown around like an autumn leaf in the wind.  Now, you might be saying “easy for you to say Angel. You already know your life purpose. Telling me to go find mine is not that simple or easy.”  And I acknowledge this. It is in fact NOT a simple endeavor that can be done quickly and easily accomplished.  The process and path of finding one's purpose involves personal introspection, honesty with oneself, hard work, responsibility, authenticity and integrity - and it is a long sometimes arduous and definitely uncomfortable process (one that I am definitely still engaging with on a daily).  But it is a path that once you are on, the path of know thyself, that supports and rewards you and gives you your True North. Because stepping onto that road less traveled is in fact the road to your purpose, and thus becomes your true North. And then by having a purpose and a path to walk on and the discipline to keep moving forward on said path you will know yourself more and more and begin to feel confident in your faith and intuition that you are going the right direction thus reinforcing that you do know where you are going and then your desire to keep going will increase.  Meanwhile, as a side effect of all this you will be taking personal responsibility, becoming the agent of your life, choosing actively to live each moment and those who do this manifest what they desire in life including abundance because you will be living the abundance mindset in your life on this path.  Author Bill George, writer of Discover your True North (a book filled with many quotable quotes, and some practical guidance) states “Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.” He's a wise man, as your inner voice, your knowledge of yourself and choosing to go in the direction of your purpose is the single most important investment you can make in a joyful abundant life.  Mere opinion is the root of all evil and keeps so many stuck in a mediocrity snow globe shaking, jostling and settling again and again - while going nowhere.  If you know yourself and have a true north- a purpose you will always accomplish more and rise to a point of leadership and succeed in what you set your mind to. It is another hermetic principle actually - All is Mind, the universe is mental or the principle of mentalism.  Thought precedes all action - so you must be very clear on where you are going, what is your purpose, what is your desire, what do you want in life and then your thoughts will align on this - and you will take  action that then aligns with those thoughts. As a wise friend of mine just posted on his Facebook feed recently “Most people spend more time thinking about what they are going to do on their weekend then the direction of their life.” He's right, and those thinking about their weekends don't have a True North (or if they do it's simply “have fun on my weekend.”) Nor are they likely feeling fueled by accomplishing their purpose in life.  They may be wandering, wondering why their bank account is so empty or why they are always chasing their proverbial tail and not getting anywhere. Worried about their dead end job and money and just wanting escape. Because they are not thinking about their life.  They do not know where they are going. They are just floating aimlessly, lost without a purpose, and have no idea even how to find it.  So as a law of abundance the process of seeking one's True North is the answer because its the journey not the destination that will be your abundant joyful life. But if you are on the path to know thyself you are walking toward your true north and will not go astray.  Lao Tzu states “a journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.”  For me this single step was meditation, it still is true today, if I don't meditate regularly I start to get lost, I lose clarity and start to manifest things I don't really want.  I get stuck in my head versus managing my mind - which meditation gives me the power to do.  Another tool is Life Activation and energetic work.  The Life Activation session is a literal game changer using an over 3000 year old protocol and the power of ancient lineage to turn on the light in your internal house. It is an ignition switch for the engine of your true purpose.  And the great thing about it is that it is alchemy - it works on anyone and everyone and you just have to show up to the session.  The rest of your life after the activation is about seeing the results and using the spark it gives you to start living your life awake. Awake to the fact that there is something more than this physical flesh and mundane mediocrity of existence - and as you desire to know more you will step on to the path of know thyself- perhaps finding it easier to meditate or wanting to learn more tools like astral travel, sanctuary meditation, sacred geometry and daily rituals to strengthen your spirit and will, and maybe even you will want to receive the power of initiation and step onto the path as an adept in the lineage of King Salomon where Life Activation comes from or desire to learn how to do the life activation yourself for others because it helped you so much.  Or not.  Maybe the life activation just helps you find some peace and direction - it will give you a compass so you can find your True North if you look.   Want to talk more about life activation or book a session, or find a practitioner in your area?  Reach out.  I can help with that!  Until next time my friends remember - you must know where you are going to get anywhere, and the path of know yourself is a sure way to find your True North and your road to an abundant and joyful life. 

As I write this it is the second day of August, one day past the Wiccan holy day of Lammas or Lughnasadh, which means First Harvest. The earth mother all summer was pregnant and now her first fruits are being birthed into the world as a cornucopia of agricultural bounty with corn, grains, berries and melons all coming in the first harvest of the farms. Such is the same within our lives. The seeds we planted in the spring are now in full fruit! Personally, this year I see this fruit specifically in my business and my love life.   I went out on a limb and put myself out there this year after a long time of “working on myself” taking an easy and comfortable path free of rejection or possible betrayals and heartbreak.  Now, after taking a risk, I've met someone, been vulnerable, opened my heart and am so lucky to have manifested someone who is practicing and seeking in the same way as me. And as I sit here today meditating together, my runes and tarot cards remind me that we are ready to enter the next stage and harvest the fruits of our new relationship together. All because both of us are willing to be present, honest, clear, in spirit and in gratitude with each other moment by moment.  I share this to get at the topic of this week's Law of Abundance - The Hermetic principle of correspondence or “as above so below, so within so without.” This means that what you are like on the inside will be reflected on the outside. What we see in the heavens (outside world) is reflected and manifested on earth (inside ourselves). Another way to think about this is whatever we do at a micro level we do at a macro level.  As a wise colleague of mine once said “how we do one thing, is how we do everything.”  So me recently, I've been working on being 100% present and vulnerable and willing to fail forward in everything I do - not just my new relationship and business so that I can be fully present always - not living in past experiences or reacting to things that are not happening in the moment. (I have had my moments, but being present allows me to recognize when I'm triggered and reacting to a past experience, not what is happening right now). But this is my personal experience with the principle based on years of study and practice in the Hermetic lineage of King Solomon in the Modern Mystery School and my Buddhist practice.   Let's break the principal down a little bit to see how you might apply it as a Law of Abundance in your life.  The Kybalion, a book of alchemy and Hermeticism discusses this principle stating roughly “even the smallest acts influence the grand scheme of our behavior.”  So, in other words, even if there is one part of your life where you sluff off or neglect it, it is going to affect everything else in your life.  So, for example, if you always ignore your own needs for the sake of putting others first, that is going to eventually leave you tired and burned out, and feeling put out - because your inner world and nourishment (i.e. self care and needs being met) is not happening.  So you will start seeing the world as if it's taking from you because inside is filled with lack.   But if you shifted that and started doing self-care, and became fulfilled within - the world would actually look full of gifts and plenty for yourself and those you care about, and you would have so much more to give.  This Hermetic principle is actually why gratitude practices work so well to bring us abundance.  If you are first grateful for every single thing the world provides - then you will see truly how much the world provides you, and then by being so grateful and seeing so much you attract and generate more for yourself and those you care about.  Because, think about it: the thoughts and images we have in our consciousness appear (and for quite a few people completely subconsciously) in our outer world. Our mind takes things as truth regardless if it is daydream, illusion, or truly what is physically happening in front of us.  Our mind automatically creates interpretations of facts in front of us and begins to organize them into a story to match that which we are focusing on the most.   So, if we are practicing meditation, self care and gratitude this is building a thought process that shall reflect back a world of clarity, calm, joy and gratitude which equals an abundance mindset and an abundance generating lifestyle.  But if you are instead anxious, ungrounded, complaining and stuck in a lack mentality - all you will see is an outer world trying to take  your little patch of misery away and you won't even have enough energy to fight them.  Looking at this from a Buddhist perspective, the inner world is the initial cause (the thought, word or deed) and the outer world is the effect - the action taken and the result in your life and perception. So, in order to change the effect, one must first change the cause.  So as a Law of Abundance, we must first take a look at our inner world and change that before looking outside.  Do you want more love in your life? Well then, do you love yourself?  Do you want to have more joy?  What are you doing to create passion, light and enjoyment in the present moment for yourself?  Noone can give you joy through external stimulation. In fact, the world is a really hard place a lot of the time (or even all of the time for some) but if you wear a good helmet made of true inner positive cause (i.e. clear mind, gratitude mind, loving open compassionate caring heart) you are going to find joy inside, all of the time.  We cannot control the outer world to make ourselves happy and abundant.  We must first start within, give ourselves space, calm, clarity and nourishment.  The space where we always have choice - choice of reaction to external stimuli, choice to love, choice to take action and personal responsibility, to be an agent in our own lives and write our own story. To practice gratitude in the present moment.   In my Buddhist practice there is a saying that complaint erases fortune.  This is because of the principle of correspondence. If you complain, you create a thought of lack, and thus there is a cause of lack within and thus now you have created lack inside, so there will be lack outside yourself.   I suggest as one who wants to cultivate abundance in your life you look at all the places you complain. Make a list even, or start a quarter jar for every “complaint” you make so you can bring visibility to where those fortune erasing thoughts are pervading your life.  Then start to turn them on their head.  Use gratitude - for every complaint - contradict it with a thought and prayer of thanks. Think of things you love about the moment, start to bear fruits of abundance.  As above, so below, so within, so without.  If the Hermetic principles entice you at all, I encourage you to reach out to me so we can talk  more about the path of progression and “knowing thyself” in the Hermetic lineage of King Solomon and the tools and trainings available through the Modern Mystery School International. 

I really hope that I win the lottery someday.  I have many plans for how I will pay off my parents, sisters and friends mortgages and student loans and invest in multiple high yield stocks and then travel the world stopping only now and again to do volunteer work and a spiritual guide. The one problem with this plan is that I never buy lottery tickets.  I just wish and dream about what I would do if I win the lottery.  So an essential piece is missing to actually ever seeing my wish fulfilled sans a fairy godmother or a genie coming to grant it.  I am a proponent of believing in magick. Magick being the act of making something from nothing, or changing something from one thing into something else. By this definition we are doing magick every time we cook, every time we engage in a creative act, every time we make an idea reality through the four worlds of idea, thought, plan, action. What is not this type of magick is what I call "wishful thinking" or Magical Thinking.  This is just sitting on your butt wishing for things to come to you and not doing anything to make them happen.  My lottery ticket story is an over-simplified example. Another example is when people send “thoughts & prayers”  to something - as they are choosing magical thinking versus doing something about the tragedy.  Or someone saying “I wish I had more money.” But they do not go out and get more money via a better job, implementation of an entrepreneurial idea, or even a side-hustle. The key piece missing in any type of wishful thinking is responsibility (i.e. acknowledgment of the ability to respond) and personal agency i.e. action taken based on the acknowledgment of the ability to respond.   Magical thinking is the abdication of personal responsibility, the abdication of action - and is simply a person doing nothing but wishing based on the belief that simply by desiring/wanting something you deserve to get the something and thus it will come to you.  This is the definition of entitlement.  The belief that you deserve something simply because you want it. With entitlement comes a sense of victim because when one does not get what they believe they deserve they then think someone took it from them, and they are hence wronged (and now a victim). When in fact they never had anything to begin with. And when this lack mentality, this win/lose mentality starts to pervade every thought process of a person, you get thought structures and false realities that entrench a person in being stuck, in lack, in victim, in powerlessness, and the results are not pretty. We are seeing them at work in the collective consciousness every day.  If you are listening to my podcast you are likely not at a critical level of hopelessness, or wishful thinking in your life.  But I want to challenge you to examine where in your life that wishful thinking might be at play.   Where are you feeling entitled?  Where do you feel like you deserve to receive something just because you want it?  What places do you feel as if someone took something of yours?  Or that they got in the way of something coming to you?  Or where are you simply wishing for something to happen?  What are you actually doing about that wish? Where are you saying if I won the lottery...but then not buying a ticket. I'm not saying go out and start buying lottery tickets - but where is this same mentality at play in your life?  Do you want a better job?  Are you looking for that better job?  Have you defined what that better job is even?  Have you updated your resume?  Are you looking at increasing your skill set, starting a business instead?  Do you want less stress?  Are you exercising, meditating or practicing deep breathing? Or are you Doom Scrolling on Reddit and Facebook for hours on end instead?  Is the TV on a 24 hour new station for more than an hour a day? These are just examples of places where this wishful thinking could be at work.  Take a look at what you are doing or not doing where do you believe something is supposed to happen to you but you are not taking any action to make it happen. Where are you wishful thinking?   In some ways this is another way to identify a lack mentality in your life. But it is a different flavor, as this is finding entitlement and non-action which stop the flow of abundance in our lives. So looking honestly at the places where we are creating stories and fictions about what we want and what we are doing about what we want - is very important so we can be in personal integrity and from there flow abundance.   Now a lot of people when in the mode of wishful thinking use the word hope instead of wish.  I Hope I win the lottery versus I wish I win the lottery. Heck, the lottery is called “The Hope Tax” by some. So Hope is frequently synonymous with wishful thinking.  But Hopefulness isn't wishing nor is it wishful thinking because true hope is an active thing and mindset.  In Brene Brown's book The Gifts of Imperfection she provides a really great definition of hope as a practice of open hearted people. A definition I really liked, inside a book I really liked - so I am going to encourage you, if you haven't already, to read or listen to her book in its entirety. It is based on research of people who live openhearted lives and the practices they engage in. And it is written in such a way as to help you start practicing these things in your life instead of just saying “Be happier!” or “get over it!” or whatever else self-help books may tell you to do, but never really give you the true tools to do.  Her book has a lot of suggestions provided in a structured manner to allow you to actually integrate things into your life.  Anyway, enough about her book and back to Hope.  Hope is an action. Wishing is a thought. So hope involves the process of believing that something could be different than it is, plus that you have the ability to be an agent in the scenario of changing it. To be hopeless is to be completely stuck. No way out. To have hope means you are not stuck, that you have agency.  You may not know exactly what the right thing to do is, but you will definitely keep trying until you find something that shifts it.  So paraphrasing Brene, and her summary of the researcher C.R. Snider of the University of Kansas. Hope is actually a learned cognitive process that consists of three things  Goals Mental pathways Agency These three things are supported by an underlying attitude of flexibility and tolerance for disappointment or as I like to call it - the willingness to fail forward.  So, hope happens as a life practice when we can First set goals for ourselves. When we can choose a direction we want to go, a place, or something we want. In my Buddhist practice the saying is “Earthly desires equal enlightenment.” Because those desires (i.e. goals) become the fuel that for our hope, and motivate us towards accomplishing things.  Second , we figure out how to achieve those goals, in part by trying things persistently until we get there.  I call this the practice of failing forward.  This involves a lot of idea, thought, plan, action and willingness to try again. If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. As the old adage goes. But its true, the first plan you make to achieve your desire may not work, so you change the plan based on what you learn and you persistently keep moving forward towards that goal.  If you fail, you pick yourself up and you start again. Finally the third ingredient to hope is agency.  In other words we fully believe we are responsible for the result.  We believe we can do it. That we have the ability to respond.  We are completely capable of making it happen. (eventually) So hopeful equals persistence and hard work and the willingness to fail until you succeed. It is extremely active and involves no waiting or externalizing the cause.  So can you see here the difference between wishful thinking and hope? Wishful or magical thinking is “I want this thing. I will do nothing and wish it towards me because by my wanting alone I deserve it. '' So magical thinking is entitlement.  A belief that things should come easy with no effort, simply by wanting something one believes they deserve it.  Hope is “I want this thing, getting it is tough but the effort will be worth it and I can in fact achieve it.” There is power in hope.  Power as defined by Martin Luther King Jr. “ the ability to achieve our purpose and affect change.”  The opposite of which are powerlessness and hopelessness which result from 1. Fear of disappointment/fear of failure/fear generally 2. Entitled thinking or the belief that everything should just easily come to you  3. Performance pressure or perfectionism or belief that because its not easy it means you are not good at it, and thus shouldn't even bother trying to make it happen.  From this combination of things we have an epidemic of wishful thinking and hopelessness which is the same problem as the level of victim mindset we have in the United States.   So I want to encourage us all, as a law of abundance in our lives, to practice hope.  In fact to learn how to hope. Hope is certainly learned behavior.  I learned it really well with over 20 years of Buddhist practice and 4 trips up the tree of life in the study of the Universal Kabbalah.  Rule #1 for cultivating hope is to set a goal, a tangible measurable result, a desire for your life and yourself. Don‘t know where to start, start with something you want.  Buddhist practice 101 is to chant for a material thing that you want. It will get you going. Its not selfish, its fuel for enlightenment. Rule #2 take action toward the goal - make a plan, take steps on the plan, put yourself out there, go do the thing and never give up until you achieve the goal or desire or learn along the way that your first goal was actually just a stepping stone to a bigger thing.  Or maybe what you wanted wasn't good for you , but in the process of failing forward to that goal or desire you learned what you truly needed and pivot toward that.  Rule # 3 recognition that you have the power within to do the thing. Taking responsibility for your life.  Acknowledging that you have ability to respond.  Actualizing your potential as a human being, tapping into your divine nature, your buddha nature, recognizing that you create your reality. Whatever words you use - this is the a path of agency.  And there you are living and breathing hope, resilience and are on the path of a joyful life.  Where you rest on an unshakable foundation.  You won't need to wish anymore because you know the power to create your reality rests inside you. 

By all accounts, I'm a weird attorney. I believe in a world of win/win.  Because the legal system is based on lack and the adversarial system. As lawyers have been taught that separation and adversarial engagements create the best and highest possible good in the situation.  This process leads many lawyers to hold high ego that they are justified in seriously degenerating things in the name of advocating for their client. Because the adversarial system is a win/lost system. Someone must lose and someone must win and this is justice served.  I call bullshit.  In the past weeks I have talked about the concept of our thoughts creating action. Our thoughts creating our reality. I'm going to put this little gem out there for you to ponder.  “All thought is acted upon.”  Regardless if you are the actor or not. “You see the world as you are”   Meaning, if you see a world of assholes - perhaps you need to take a look at yourself and confirm first who the #1 asshole in the room is.  The constant asshole in all of those situations; yourself. Similarly I've been accused of being naively positive and not realistic enough more than once. But I believe first “assume support” and that every person is a divine being deserving of love and respect. Now you attack me or my family, my friends or my business I will defend myself.  I am not a floor mat. But 1st and foremost I care about everyone, and want the best and highest good for all.  And I assume that anyone across the table from me is doing the same.  Even in legal matters.  This is a lack mentality pervasively infesting an entire system that governs our world. In the US at least. And it masquerades as Justice. When it's an illusion spreading the lie that we are justified in judging another, because one must win and one must lose.  Why can't both parties win? Why is any consideration of this called alternative dispute resolution? An alternative to what? To win/lose? Why is win lose more realistic? Why is win/win seen as unrealistic? What makes it more or less realistic than the belief that there is a lack in the world and thus for one to gain another must lose? What if the world had enough for everyone? It does by the way.  We live in abundance. But we believe in lack.  We are ensconced in lack and it makes so many people live in survival mode fighting to get their scraps - when there is a cornucopia of bounty just waiting to be had if you stop playing in the mud puddle.  So, I challenge you to relearn the belief in what is truly realistic. Why is the negative any more realistic than the positive? There is absolutely no empirical evidence one way or the other. Though our belief in one or the other ensures it's truth. Thus, we must flip the script. This script is both on the micro and the macrocosm.  As a lawyer I start with the request that whatever the outcome is for the best and highest good of all in the situation.  I personally prefer to work outside of litigious matters and do planful, preventative and communicative things to ensure that the best outcomes are assured.  But if I find myself negotiating towards settlement of a matter I always start with what is the best outcome for all.  I advise my clients to look long term from the heart versus seeking judgment or any type of lust of vengeance or even righteousness.  As the path of the righteous is often judgment.  Where there is judgment, there is no love and where there is no love there is no humanity and where there is no humanity there is barbarism and where there is barbarism there is evil and suffering.  I do not want, nor will I participate in the perpetuation of evil and suffering.  And just because a system says I must choose a lesser of two evils it doesn't mean I have to believe it.  Jimmy Carter was president of the United States for 4 years and he never dropped a bomb or ordered the shooting of a single gun. No one died under his watch as the commander and chief of the United States Military. This was not a miracle.  It was because he was dedicated to loving human beings across the world and held in his heart I quote “ the prince of peace.” This being Jesus Christ the greatest example of love and healing for our planet in history.  Regardless of your religious affiliation can anyone argue that Jesus was an embodiment of love? Can anyone argue that someone like President Jimmy Carter (holding an arsenal of the military industrial complex at his fingertips) was not a disciple of that kind of love? Jimmy believed in win/win that is how he got the Camp David accords between Israel and Egypt. This is how he got all of those 52 hostages home alive without dropping a bomb.  This is not how he won re-election because the United States Citizens do not believe as a populace in win/win and love. I wish we did. win/win requires that we start from an abundance mindset. The belief that there is fundamentally enough for everyone on this planet. That two people can win - that there is no scarcity of any resource that the conversation is engaged in.  It also requires that those engaging in the conversation trust and love the other human as  a human deserving of respect and love. That they truly recognize the divinity of the other and that they hold that belief firmly not allowing a negative belief otherwise to enter the conversation.  This is a law of abundance because if you work this way as a human you are acting from love. You may not have a life free from difficulty, in fact you might invite more. Jesus was crucified, people tried and did assassinate Gandhi, my mentors and teachers in life - Daisaku Ikeda, Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon and Modern Mystery School Founder Gudni Gudnuson have all been accused as cult leaders.  Holding the light for others makes you a target for those who choose the opposite - so it won't always be easy - but it's rewarding. And you are as you see the world.  So, if you see the world as full of love it will return it to you.  If you see money as abundant and yourself as capable of making it - it will come to you. If you can believe that even in conflict all can win - it is possible.  I promise. But don't take my word for it.  Try it yourself.  Believe more in the unreasonable, let go of the belief in realistic.  That is a lie and illusion that keeps you in the safe box.  A prison of fearful unhappiness.  Flush that shit down the toilet and come out of the bathroom.  It's time to live your best life as a leader.  The more you raise others up the more will come back to you.  Love & light brothers and sisters and like Bill and Ted once said - Be Excellent to each other.  Find out 

“Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” - Victor Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning  From June 11 to September 2nd of this year, I am essentially on the road.  June in Minnesota for Modern Mystery School International programs to learn to teach new classes, to recertify as a life activation practitioner, and to study hermetic astrology and learn new healing modalities. July, I will spend in Michigan to visit family and then I have 2 vacations scheduled to New Mexico and Mexico's Yucatan Peninsula. For me, this massive amount of travel, with the ability to take my career with me as I go, doing my job from the road is the epitome of freedom and independence. I'm completely free as I make my own schedule, money and decisions with regards to time, when I used to have to bargain for time.  The Sunday after his podcast posts is the 4th of July - US Independence Day and throughout the country we are opening up to be a post Covid world. As in post lockdown, Covid will likely be with us for a long time.  In light of this, I'm here thinking about what true freedom & independence really are and how understanding that is a key to unlocking abundance in our life. As I write this I'm in Day 4 of 10 in classes deeply ensconced in metaphysical topics, yet we learn very practical things like Responsibility = simply the ability to respond. I.e. to be a responsible person is a person who is capable of doing something about the thing where a response is required. As in if I am responsible for something I have the ability to change it.  And free will - free will always exists, even if we are facing two icky choices.  We still always have a choice. And even if you are in a situation where you are court ordered to do something - you always have a choice about how you choose to react to that thing you are ordered to do. You can choose to be angry about it or choose to find the opportunity in it - or even choose to face the thing with enjoyment.  We always have a choice even if the only choice we have is how we react to the stimulus situation or challenge presented.  Many stories of surviving harrowing experiences of things even as awful as Nazi concentration camps prove this principal again and again. It is the individual human's choice on how to react and be in the moment that impacts their experience.  When I spend time studying magick and metaphysics I am reminded how much our own mind can free us or keep us enslaved - how much our subconscious pattern can keep us imprisoned and unaware of the box we have put ourselves in.  I mentioned briefly in my podcast last week that I spent 15 years in a job I only liked 50% of the time, primarily because I believed I could not do better for myself. I believed I could not bring in the clients I needed to do well as a lawyer or as healer & guide to be a financially independent business woman who made her own schedule.  I made my own prison with my thoughts. And the stress I created for myself in the process was almost unbearable at times. But it was finally my choice to change my narrative and just step out and put my law degree to use full time in a way that served me and my clients just as its my choice to serve humanity publicly by providing tools from an ancient spiritual lineage that help us tap into our true self, our life purpose and actualize our joy.  I have learned how to live my passion.  And I choose to share this with others.  If someone judges me for using “alternative methods”  that is their choice.  I am still happy to sit, completely fulfilled, and show them how I did it.  These things are all part of true freedom and independence, choosing to invest in ourselves, choosing to take responsibility for those things we can influence in our lives.  Choosing love over judgement.  Choosing to invest in yourself so you can have more time $ and energy ultimately for those we love.  There is an epidemic of victim and anxiety in the world today. Anxiety comes from stress and stuckness.  The belief that you don't have the power, ability or responsibility to change your situation. But it is rare, actually, that someone has no ability to respond. And in all situations we have a choice in how we react to that which faces us.  So today's law of abundance is an examination of true freedom. If we are willing to look at ourselves, tell ourselves the truth about our patterns and our choices, our ability to choose our reactions, not be a victim to our own unwillingness to take responsibility for our reactions to things.  Or our lack of reactions to stressors or cause & effect in our lives.  We can see how free or unfree we might truly be. So much wasted energy goes into anger & anxiety against things that if we just choose to react differently wouldn't even be a thing.  Further - if we embraced responsibility for our life a.k.a. the ability to respond - so much opens up for us. We leave the passenger's seat and become the driver. We stop being an extra on the set and become the director. We change the narrative to superhero of our own life versus bystander.   We give ourselves the ability to respond when we take responsibility and then we start creating our reality with clear thoughts and actions. Then with this ability to respond we choose and when we choose and we are free, we are capable of independence from attachment to circumstance & other peoples actions.  We don't have to have shame/blame/or be victims because we are completely free to choose our reaction, our response. Thus freeing so much energy to be a creator.  And when you have more energy to create you can start putting it towards your passions and start living your life from a place of authenticity, integrity and joy.  There you will feel the flow and abundance will come in with it.  Because you have removed constriction and the belief that you do not have the power or freedom to choose.   With that happy true Independence Day y'all!  The day you start recognizing choice in all aspects of your life!

From the outside, my 18 year old self looked exceptionally successful for my age.  I was an honor student, with a full ride academic scholarship to an expensive liberal arts college. I was a creative person, who appeared with my well built masks to be flamboyant and confident in herself, her direction and dreams.  No one knew I was dying inside and so afraid to leave my room everyday without multiple layers of psychological armor.  But I was so afraid. The negative self talk and anxiety was so loud and took up so much room in my life. I didn't even know there was space for me to exist.  The true me. Me who was not all of those masks.  You follow? A Clear Mind is a Creative Mind A quiet mind is a powerful mind. A quiet mind equals an empowered person and a joyful life.  I will repeat myself on this topic many, many, many more times over. Ultimately if you have mind clutter it is just as bad as a hoarder's house - there is no room for new thoughts because there are already thoughts piled up to the ceiling. Your thoughts, other people's thoughts, to-do list thoughts, childhood memory thoughts, negative self-talk thoughts, imposter syndrome thoughts, etc… In this hoarder's house of mind cluttered with all these loud boisterous, obnoxious or chirpy or even hurtful thoughts floating around - how can you hear your brilliant higher self thoughts above the cacophony?  Abundance producing thoughts of godlike wonder and light are covered and hidden because it is too loud in there. There are too many distractions and things and you just can't discern or hear your true creator voice in the mess.  So that is why this Law of Abundance is so essential. A quiet mind is a creative mind. Yoda said it. Quiet your mind. Buddha said it about 500 different ways.  Jesus said it. Deepak Chopra says it. All the new age gurus on YouTube and beyond say it.  The Lineage of King Solomon says it and the first and foremost step for anyone on a personal development journey is - Meditation: the practice of quieting the mind.   Without first meditating and clearing out the noise factory you cannot actually observe what is going on - let alone be open to new wonders of creation that come from your higher self.  And although I'm a guide & teacher in the Lineage of King Solomon, sharing tools from an over 3000 year old path - of which the #1 tool is meditation - you don't have to take my word for it.  Just Google  “benefits of meditation” and see what comes up.  There is study after study that shows people who meditate are more healthy, productive, creative and happy than those who do not meditate. This is one of the many areas where science and metaphysics and spiritually completely agree.  Meditation - the act of quieting and observing the mind, makes you better at life, and allows you to have and create more abundance.  Why it works is because it clears the mind chatter of the subconscious and collective consciousness out of your way. So you can simply tune in to source, to your high self, to you, to your positive ego. By tuning into the quiet pond of stillness within you releases the hoarder's house of funk in your mind that keeps you trapped in FEAR and monkey mind, you break the cycle of autonomous programming that puts you on repeat. You release the pen up energy of anxiety.  As  a Kabbalist we say “you empty your cup” as a Buddhist we say we bow to your buddha nature and get past your fundamental darkness that keeps you blind.  As a spiritual guide I say “you tap into the Holy Spirit - the collective consciousness of higher selves of humanity.” And when all you can hear is quiet - the matrix machine of manufactured stories is turned off. Then and only then you can hear yourself. Know the truth, and like Neo who stepped out of the matrix you can learn your true power and create unabashedly in a multidimensional way because you will be flowing abundance of creative energy with true sight, free of limiting beliefs.  I admit it wholeheartedly, I am a meditating pusher. It is a possible thing for a human being to do daily.  It saved my life when I was 18 years old. I had severe social anxiety and an eating disorder, because the only thing I thought I had control over was my body. And I was slowly killing myself, not eating, medicating myself with marijuana to function.  Then I started meditating and chanting nam myoho renge kyo daily when I met these lovely young women who told me about it.  They said it helped them be happier.  So I tried it.  I was miserable, I had nothing to lose.   Then I started chanting and meditating and my first big epiphany that ultimately saved my life was this “ You have the right to breathe. You can take up space in this world.”  In other words, you Angel, a unique being on this planet - feel free to move about this world, by the very nature of your existence.   My higher self started with the fundamentals for me. I told me what I needed to hear. “You have the right to exist and take up space in this world.” And from that point forward I began to grow into the multidimensional renaissance woman that I am today.  All because every day I go to the quiet pond and I get to know myself. I call in my true self. I clear away the thought clutter and I allow my higher self to speak to me.  Anyone listening to this - entrepreneur, creative artist, business owner, fellow attorney (especially attorneys, please listen we have so many weights on our shoulders because of our profession), moms, corporate ladder climbers, whoever you are, whatever labels you identify with, whatever you are trying to do with your life. If you start daily with a little bit of meditation and a quiet mind it is going to help you. There are actually think tanks out there that only work with people who meditate because they are a better investment.  So alright angel - you might be saying, I buy it but “I can't meditate, I've tried and I've failed countless times.” So to this I call Bullshit. And I encourage you to try again with some assistance. There are so many meditation apps available now, and daily on the interwebs there is someone out there in my spiritual lineage teaching the max meditation system. The max meditation system is an easy to do , introductory method of meditation that anyone can do and everyone will at some point in the 30 min to 60 min session  will reach a meditative brain wave state.   The max meditation system was developed by Founder Gudni Gudnason and Ipsissimus i.e. fully actualize human benign and one of my mentors on the planet today. He is a lineage holder for the lineage of King Solomon and the Founder of the Modern Mystery School International - the school that I go to to pursue study of the Universal Hermetic Ray Kabbalah and learn other energy and healing means I choose to learn for myself and others. Founder Gudni combined eastern and western means of meditation in a specific order to allow people to achieve the state of actual meditation. The 5 steps lead you naturally there and all you have to do is follow the voice of the meditation facilitator. The method works for everyone. I promise.  Another means to meditate is to chant nam myoho renge kyo. It might feel weird to chant words you don't understand over and over again, but the energy and vibration of the mantra is purifying and raises your chi and your vibration such that you clear the mind clutter and positive energy and creative energy come into your life.  One just needs to look at the exceptionally productive and impactful life of Daisaku Ikeda, President of the Soka Gakkai International to see that Nam myoho renge kyo is a wellspring of light and joy for one who chooses to use it.  And I have been lucky to be able to study and listen to his prolific words for the past 25 years of my life to learn from him as a mentor and another example of what a fully actualized human being can do if they quiet the mind, open the heart and live from their highest self.  Chanting and quiet meditation through systems offered in the organized spiritual system of the Soka Gakkai or the Modern Mystery School International have been my way to access the quiet pond - to get to my abundance creator goddess self so that I can live my life as the protagonist of my story.  I make my reality because I choose to meditate and learn and lean into my power.  I offer them as means that are out there - and also to be completely direct that I have used schools of thought with structure to find my path, because structure is necessary for creation. Learning a discipline and practicing it is a means to freedome  And I share because Both are organizations that have been slandered as cults and pervoyers of mind control and other abuses of their members - Founder Gudni, Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon and Ipsissmus Hideto _______ were recently been accused of being leaders of a sex cult, and Daisaku Ikeda has been arrested multiple times for attempting to propogate the way to reach buddhahood in this lifetime.  To this I just want to note that Jesus too was persecuted because he was speaking the truth.  A truth that leads individuals to their source, their higher self, their power, their empowerment - which is dangerous.  An empowered person is not a controllable person.  A person who is aware that they create their own reality is a threat to those who prefer that humans remain sheeple. So I pose this - if someone is truly showing people how to be free, how to think for themselves, how to hear their own voice and tap into their highest human potential and power - is not there being attacked by the powers that be, the powers that prey on sheeple, a sign that what they are saying truly powerful and good for the sake of humanity?   This is a topic for a whole other podcast episode and I will likely revisit it sooner than later, but for now I just want to put it out there.  As I do not want anyone to google the Modern Mystery School or the Soka Gakkai and think I am brainwashed by not one but two cults because of what some drama creating tabloid writer has posted on the internet.  And honestly if you do think I'm brainwashed - you aren't listening to me at all.  I've created my world because I am an independent discerning thinker who meditates and practices gratitude and love everyday of her life.  I chose a path and methods practiced by others because I find discipline freeing and it produces results.  I, like a scientist, tested the methods in my life and like the results they have offered me after days, months, years and decades of daily practice.   So let's switch gears here for a second.  Even more real talk. I am an attorney who volunteers on the front lines of social justice assisting with the Housing Justice Project here in Seattle. I've been trying through my work for the past 15 years to prevent homelessness, using the means my legal education, and my spiritual education have given me. As I have these skills I take responsibility where I can to attempt to help solve the problem.   What does this have to do with meditation?  The human condition today is a melee of angry, sad, crisis ridden thoughts. People are in different states of victim and energy expending loops of futility. But even when I'm sitting with a person facing down the crisis of possible homelessness I always encourage them. Not by feeding the fire of Victim, but by having us take a deep breath and look at where, from the quiet mind (as best as we can get there in the moment) they have a choice and power in the situation. And maybe, that place is only their own personal reaction to what is going on around them, and/or to the person who may be wronging them.  If we can reach that perspective in the now - it will turn off the reactionary mind and you can create choices that empower and help you even in the face of multiple crappy choices.   So please, for the sake of the endeavors you want to create, for your own personal abundance, and the greater good of humanity I encourage you to start finding a way to meditate. If even 2% of the world is able to find a way to access their higher self and wake up to their power, there will be a quantum shift in the collective consciousness and the whole world could awaken. This is a principle in quantum physics, not religion.  Look it up.  In the meantime - there is a free 15 minute quiet pond meditation on my website.  Go there, watch it, download an App like Calm, go out to a meditation in your area, watch a guided meditation online. If you are completely stuck - reach out! I can help with that! Remember a  quiet mind is a creative mind.  A quiet mind is a powerful mind. A quiet mind equals and empowered person and a joyful life.  Meditation is like magic. You will create something from the nothing of the quiet mind.

Alright, this week we are going to talk about the elephant in the room. This is the difference between an abundance mindset and a lack mentality. I'm going to spell it out so that it's clear and so you can see where LACK (my least favorite 4 letter word) is creeping into your thoughts and manifesting more of itself to your determent.  First though, let's give you some research facts for your professionals out there who need them. The quote unquote “Abundance Mindset” is a term coined by Stephen Covey in his 1989 best seller The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People ( a book I highly recommend and its accompanying workbook. Both are linked in show notes. The definition is simply the attitude that “there is plenty for everyone” aka plenty of wealth, plenty of prestige, plenty of food, plenty of optimism, plenty of success, etc. fill in the blank. AND this definition also includes the WILLINGNESS to be OPEN to the option that there is in fact PLENTY to be had.  So, this is a very active thing to hold an abundance mindset. You must cultivate a belief that there is in fact plenty and remain always open to that fact, willingly. You can't force yourself, or trick yourself, or co-dependent yourself into believing there is enough for everyone (in fact MORE than enough, there is plenty!) Plenty connotates overflowing cornucopias of whatever the want/need is for humans.  You must work on being open to the idea - this openness is the KEY to holding the attitude, and one of the reasons gratitude helps cultivate abundance is because it makes us more open to the belief that there is plenty.   Now let's talk about lack. A lack mentality is built upon a scarcity mindset - which is also a belief. A belief that there is not enough for everyone and in fact there is so little that resources are scarce - to the point where we must fight to survive in this world. Scarcity believes there is not enough food, not enough money, not enough supplies, tools, things to go round - and thus if you get some of the scarce things you must hoard it. And this need to hoard just reinforces the belief that this is lacking. The energy of “there is never enough” just feeds on itself and thus the truth is “there is never enough” for that person, and the many other persons who hold that thought.  As an extreme example of this, think about a hoarder's house. This literal abundance of stuff up to the ceiling comes from the person in every decision and every belief, believing that there is not enough. To such an extent that they save everything - fully stopping their flow and filling their house with garbage or unused things. And the lack and scarcity of belief is so reality consuming that they literally do not see that they have plenty of whatever it is that they are conserving. Not only do they have plenty, they have an abundance of stuck energy.  It's like a magnet - the belief in lack fuels what they see and creates the reality around them, and it literally attracts more of the same.   OK, most of us are not hoarders but a lot of us hold scarcity mindset belief systems, which is simply this “if someone has something this equals less of that for me.” We need to look no further than the great United States Toilet Paper Disaster at the beginning of COVID 19 lockdown to see this at work, at least culturally, in the United States (the land of plenty) where I live and write this, and we suffer as a collective consciousness from Lack Mentality and scarcity mindset.  So let's go deeper - let's look at what is happening in the scarcity vs abundance mindset.  The scarcity point of view = You are a victim i.e. I have no choice The abundance point of view = you are empowered i.e. I always have a choice Lack Mindset: I have no choice but to buy all the remaining toilet paper on the shelf because there is a shortage and I'll be left without it if I don't do this. I'm being forced to act and hoard because other people are hoarding.  You see how this thought structure is feeding on itself? Abundance Mindset:  I always have a choice. I know that other people are buying more than they need right now. But I'm going to choose to just buy one package that serves my needs right now, and leaves more on the shelf for other people.  So the next person can also have what they need and its toilet paper. There is plenty of toilet paper in the United States as we are the largest consumer of it and manufacture millions of rolls a day. Then the next person comes and finds enough toilet paper on the shelf.  And you see how this openness shifts the energy and actually ensures there is plenty for everyone?? Scarcity/Lack mentality also has physical, emotional and mental connotations.  If you are holding lack - you hold tension, clenched jaw, can suffer from shortness of breath (panic attacks). Emotionally - you can experience impatience, anxiety, anger & overwhelm, mentally you are disorganized, confused and narrow in your thinking.  Abundance mindset is physically relaxed, grounded and present in the now, emotionally positive, engaged, inspiring to others, excited by challenge.  And mentally you experience clarity, wide perspective, creativity, agency and flexibility.  Just thinking about these two juxtaposed which mindset is more comfortable and beneficial? More productive energy feeding versus draining? Lack mentality and scarcity mindset are poison to your body, to your dreams and your ability to create.  If you are going to start your own business or try to take on any new endeavor- if you have a lack underneath it all you are going to sabotage yourself so you have to diagnose what's going on and change/transform your thought process to ensure success.  You might be thinking this is easy for you to say Angel - you've got a successful business, your needs are met, you are a beautiful human being, things just come to you naturally.  And to any of this, I say -  it took me many, many, many years of actively meditating, cultivating gratitude, and telling myself the truth through my Buddhist practice, through studying the Universal Hermetic Ray Kabballah, by facing my negative ego on many an uncomfortable ledge facing my demons to get where I am today. Over 20 years of effort - and it didn't have to take this long, but I was stubborn, in denial, codependent, and in various states of self-medication for portions of it.  I spent 15 years of my life in a corporate job I hated 50% of the time because I believed there wasn't enough, or that I could not make enough money on my own.  But now I make 4 times what I did in that job on a monthly basis and enjoy it 100%. I spent 20 years of my life in really unhealthy or unsatisfying relationships because I didn't believe I was good enough and thus, put myself in need of codependent relationships with individuals not worthy of my time and not working on themselves.  It took me a long time and a lot of work to be able to confidently say I am a goddess, I am beautiful, I am good enough to love myself, and by loving myself and believing that I create the reality I live in, I am doing just that. Which includes sharing this wisdom with all of you.   Our collective consciousness is a dirty river of lack and scarcity so many of us are hoarders and victims in our life. And this mentality feeds on itself.  Your thoughts make the collective thought stronger and make it real in your and others consciousness.  So let's diagnose where scarcity is at work in your life so you can change it. One way to diagnose is to ask yourself a series of questions: Where do you experience jealousy and spite? Do you compare yourself to others? Do you judge yourself and others? Do you have fears about the future?  This is not an exhaustive list of questions but these can help you hone in on where lack is at work. Where your negative ego is keeping you stuck.  Because negative ego is all about the things in your subconscious that you are not looking at but are allowing to run your life.  Other questions to ask yourself  Do you have the need for instant gratification? Aka fear of missing out?  And where do you need this? How often do you complain? And about what? (is there something you can actually do about the complaint?) Do you say thank you? Do you use empowered words or victim words like “I don't have a choice” When faced with the unknown do you tense up, become afraid, cry, drink, eat, smoke, buy? The foundation of a lack mentality is fear.  Fear of failure Fear of being alone Fear of missing out  Fear of dying Fear of illness But known F.E.A.R. = false evidence appearing real.  If you are worried about what you are lacking you will never be free.  Now don't start beating yourself up because you have diagnosed Lack mindset in your life. That is counter productive. We want to shine a light on it so you can transform it and be free of it.  So you can be able to grow into a new way of being and experience the joy that brings.  Everything about this podcast is about cultivating an abundance mentality in your life and creating intentionally from that space.   Abundance mindset comes with cultivation and practice, just like anything else you must learn and practice.  As Yoda says, “we must unlearn what we have learned” in order to truly feel the Force, the energy that moves our life.  When Luke tried to lift the X wing out of the swamp the first time, he said “I can't, it's too big, it's too heavy”  In other words, I don't have enough power.  Then Yoda showed him that little and old Yoda could do it because Yoda was tapped into his power and had an abundance to create from.  You all have an abundance mindset waiting to be activated. And we all have a proverbial X wing to lift from our inner swamp.  Let's cultivate gratitude and become open to the belief that there could in fact be plenty of LOVE, light, time, money and energy to go around and we just need to start tapping into it.   Need help with any of this mentality cultivation or want coaching to start your business - I can help with that! Using both legal and spiritual tools from an ancient lineage.   Until next time, take a deep look at where lack and scarcity are controlling and undermining you and we'll keep learning ways to transform that.    Find Angel at:   Latterell Law Office latterelllaw.com angellatterell@gmail.com   I can help with that! Metaphysical Options for a Joyful Life Meditation, Healing and Activations angellatterell.com Follow on IG @paprikaangel

Alright my listeners. Real talk time. Let's talk about an essential law of abundance - cattle. Wait what? No, I mean the nourishment of cattle. Wait what? What I actually mean is the nourishment of the source of your abundance.  Which in ancient times was in fact, at least in ancient Norse society was signified by whether or not you had cattle for your family - because cattle was a source of nourishment - milk, cheese and meat could be had if you had cattle.  But cattle require feeding and care for them to keep giving to your family. In other words they require nourishment - so if you ignore and don't care for them your source of nourishment/abundance dies. This concept of abundance is so rooted in Indo-European culture that the Rune Stone that stands for Abundance, known as Fehu-pictured on my YouTube channel. Fehu is called "mobile property" or cattle.  And the type of wealth the rune refers to is abundance that occurs through nourishment and sharing.  The Anglo-Saxon rune poem for Fehu states: “Wealth be by all very much welcomed, each man shall deal it freely, if he will from the lord.”  And the Havamal verses 78-79 states ”Full stocked folds had Fitjung's sons who bear now a beggar's staff.  Wealth is brief as the wink of an eye of friends most false. The unwise man, if he should get wealth or woman's love, his arrogance grows but not his sense, on he goes, deep in delusion.  The gist of all this is that wealth & abundance is something to be cared for & nourished and guarded but not greedily hoarded, nor should it be taken for granted such that one believes they are assured of it forever. Put another way, the fruits of the earth cannot ever be owned, they are loaned to us only, to be used productively and shared with others.  True abundance is the wealth the soul gains from a life well lived. So, at the end of the day the kind of wealth represented by the concept of cattle is the kind that grows when cared for and is shared with the community, and can produce more wisely when invested.  So, the essential law of abundance at play here is a concept of nourishment so that resources grow and can be shared. In modern society wealth is represented not by cattle, but by money. Money is just symbolic of energy. Money energy is a source of power money held too tightly does nothing, money used wisely can grow more money and shared -  can allow communities and families to prosper.  So, today's version of "cattle" - money can still be cared for and nourished and similarly if cared for it can in turn nourish a family and community just like the milk of a cow could help a family thrive in ancient northern societies.   So, all of this being said, ultimately the law of abundance truly at play here is an energetic notion of Care. We must take care of a thing, or we must take care of energy, we must take care of beings on this planet, we must take care of our cattle, money, people and care in the act of sharing with others to ensure the greater good of the community is benefitting from the abundance created.  There is also one more type of abundance/nourishment here that contributes to abundance for an individual and this is the nourishment of the self. Self care. One must take care of the self.  If one is to be an abundance person you need to be taking care of yourself. You need to have the energy and space and clarity to create in your life and all of this stems from taking care of and nourishing the self. Fundamental self care like meditation, exercise and eating right as well as metaphysical and spiritual self care like getting the healing you need through energy work, tarot or runes, astrology or religion - as well as the healing you need through sessions with a counselor or coach or spiritual guide.  If you are not taking care of yourself you will burn out and not succeed in maintaining abundance or creating abundance for you and your family. All burn out does is create ill feelings, martyrdom, pain and suffering in the physical body etc. Burn out ends marriages, quits jobs in anger, and destroys avenues of growth. It is the same as starving your cattle or squandering your money. It results in less for you and your community.  As you have nothing left for yourself or your community to share since you have not cared for it.  So, today's law of abundance is just this, wealth must be nourished, this rule applies both to the self and to property.  I can say that self care is one one of the reasons that I, as a lawyer, have been successful at maintaining my positive attitude and diverse practice for all of these years.  I have a strongly rooted practice of self-care. I have been meditating since I was 18 years old, and acting in service to others via Buddhist and Energetic means for just as long. My work as a Guide in the Lineage of King Solomon is both self care and service to humanity.  Self care ensures that I am mentally, emotionally and physically nourishing myself first. So I can be available to share my energy with others, but self care gives me abundant energy to share. And as a result, I have abundant energy to produce! And I do not burn out because although I'm busy, I'm practicing self care and nourishing myself. And this is why I can be a lawyer, a guide, a teacher, a project manager, a supportive partner, a good friend, a sister, a daughter, a niece, a volunteer in my community, and I create for my communities and I don't burn out.  So, where are you taking care of yourself? What are your self care routines? Are they missing? How does this look in your life and your ability to create? How are you nourishing your proverbial cattle? Is your business being nourished? Is your family wealth being tended? Or is the herd looking a little hungry?  First, start with yourself.  Meditate, pray, go for a walk, clear your head. Reach for a glass of tea or water instead of wine or a cocktail. Make yourself a meal, eat with your family with your phone put away. Try a healing or a class you are interested in. Tell your partner you love them. Write in your gratitude journal. Do all of these things first, then look towards your community and the action you can take to nourish the wealth you see there.  Need some help in any of these areas - business, family wealth building & nourishing, personal well-being - I can help with that! Find Angel at:   Latterell Law Office latterelllaw.com angellatterell@gmail.com   I can help with that! Metaphysical Options for a Joyful Life Meditation, Healing and Activations angellatterell.com Follow on IG @paprikaangel  

If your desire is to leave something behind or have less of something in your life you will find yourself going in circles and manifesting more of what you don't want. There is a saying that, "that which we fixate on persists” also “wherever you go, there you are.”  So, if we are going to be less stressed, less worried, less depressed – we first have to find a way to shift our brain to realize how much joy we already have and how much more we can make by simply counting the current blessings in our basket. The science of gratitude is the act of intentionally choosing to be grateful for everything in our life, even the challenges. This is not to say that someone in dire circumstances can just positive think themselves out of them. That is not the conversation I'm having right now. But what if all challenges were opportunity, every failure a new learning to be grateful for? How does that feel versus the other negative thinking way? Our negative ego is really good at convincing us that what we are afraid of will kill us if we try it. That trying and failing is a death sentence. The only thing trying and failing harms in most endeavors is the armor of that negative ego to keep up stuck in the illusion that we aren't good enough, smart enough, capable enough to do the thing we are afraid to do. F.E.A.R. = False Expectations (experience) Appearing Real.  Gratitude practice gives us courage, confidence, peace of mind, abundance mentality, hope, faith, energy you name it – in some ways it s the cure for most things – at least in the areas where mindset matters. It also helps us look at the world with a cleaner and clearer filter. Another saying, “we see the world as we are.” If for example you are always in a competitive hoarding mindset it would be no wonder you find a world of competitive hording people who do not want to share their things or work with you. But what if you were more rooted in win-win – there is enough for everyone kind of mindset. How does this open doors if you see others motivated from that place? As a lawyer who helps a lot of people in crisis – those that are wrapped up in the story of what went wrong and what they do not want – are any less resilient and it's harder to find a solution for them because they are unwilling to see one. This attitude drives people to “Justice Sue”  in order to get revenge or “I'll show them.” Thus, leaving us with “an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.” But if I can get people to step back, take stock of what they have control of – which in crappy situations may be their own reaction to the current circumstance or the person who wronged them. Then they realize that the other – who may very well have wronged them and be wrong, doesn't control them. The other only ruins the day if a person lets them. And this ability to see that – starts with an underlying practice of gratitude, an attitude of gratitude – the opposite of victim mentality. Things happen – but we do not have to be a victim to them – we can be empowered actors instead – and we can choose how we react.  So, as a Law of Abundance – starting the daily practice of gratitude in our lives is an essential building block to an abundant life. And being able to see things for what they truly are separate from negative emotions of shame, blame, anger and hate, etc. comes as a natural consequence of starting to practice gratitude – the other thing about starting a gratitude practice is – it is easy and a practice – you write one thing a day you are grateful for in your life, you may be very clear to thank people when there is any exchange between you and another. It is a practice you can grow into and it fosters the attitude across all planes of your life. It requires a pen and notebook (but not really). It is nice to be able to look back at what you wrote. AND as a result of all of this little, tiny effort – you will start to rewire your brain – you will learn better and more, you will listen better and hear more openly, you will be more open, and the filter of other noise will quiet.  Studies show people with gratitude practices lead more healthy productive lives. Look it up – I have, and I teach this to my students with citations in my leadership management and wellness classes. As a lawyer my mindset has kept me happy and healthy and able to look at building versus avoiding. It has kept me open to new opportunities in business and resilient in the face of challenges – it also allows me to be a great advocate when my clients need that as I'm open to finding win-win, not bogged down in being righteously correct. Boundaries are necessary but a polite cordial attitude with opposing council can go a thousand, miles further than any argumentative grump.  In the realm of assisting people in thinking about their death – we all die – gratitude helps me help others reach this conclusion without stress. We come together in gratitude to be able to leave clear, kind, and thoughtful instructions to loved ones after you are gone – versus a mess and heartache.  At the end of the day, the first building block to having a life of abundance is gratitude because a person with abundant gratitude has joy no matter what circumstance they are in, and this faith and joy propels them to turn each and every situation into one of value, care and love. It allows them to build more positive energy vs. the alternative painful misery. And it all starts with the choice to observe daily, one thing you are grateful for in your life.  Listen to all episodes at https://lawsofabundance.latterelllaw.com/ Find Angel at:   Latterell Law Office latterelllaw.com angellatterell@gmail.com   I can help with that! Metaphysical Options for a Joyful Life Meditation, Healing and Activations angellatterell.com Follow on IG @paprikaangel

The steps of manifestation: Idea, Thought, Plan, Action – the 4 worlds.  So, last time we talked about structure and how this is different than a container. But both a requirement necessary for creation, something to hold the energy, and a shape to mold the energy into the thing you want to create. But that isn't truly the whole of it. Creating something on this planet requires that something move through all 4 worlds – Idea – the spark, the initiating movement – Thought – the form of the uncontained into a container, - Plan - creation of the structure, and then finally – Action – the doing something so the plan actually manifests onto this plane of existence.  This concept is called the 4 Worlds in the study of the Universal Hermetic Ray Kabbalah (universal Kabbalah as the study of it is not housed within any particular religion or philosophy). In Kabbalah the idea is that to create something here on earth in this place of physical density it must move from the plane of spirit town through the 4 worlds to be born or manifested in the physical. And you can conceptualize how Idea is very ephemeral – it has no form – it's purely mind or energy – then when you start thinking about it, it starts to grow more clear, it has an outline, a name, it gives it some type of initial container to grow in. Then when you think and make that thought into a plan – a step-by-step this is how and what I am going to do to make that idea into reality – now it has structure – it has the ability to be made manifest – all its missing at that point is Action. The literal act of doing the thing which is planned. It seems in some ways a no brainer. You might be asking me – why am I bothering with wasting my podcast airtime on stating such an obvious – you can't create without action. Or in the positive – all creation requires action. But I don't think it's a waste of our time together to examine this - as a Law of Abundance in this universe, on this planet today. Let's just look around and ask if there is enough planned action taking place in service to humanity? There are certainly a lot of humans doing a lot of things, but do we have enough intentional action?  How many ideas have you had just stay ideas? Have you even thought about them long enough to give them a container – a place to gestate – have you made a plan to bring them into fruition? And then have you taken action on that plan? This ultimately is the realm that the entrepreneur must live in and breathe.  Idea, thought, plan, action.  Idea, thought, plan, action.  Idea, thought, plan, action.  If we skip one, or don't take the action required of our plan (I speak for myself here, I have so many ideas uncontained, unstructured, and unacted upon). We do not create. And as an entrepreneur if you are not creating, you may be failing in your business endeavor.  Another place where this comes into play is when we reverse this and look at what action we are taking in our lives. As action is the final thing to make ideas and thoughts manifest – what are the fruits of your labors? Are these what you want? If the action you are taking is resulting in those fruits – technically yes that is exactly what you are choosing to manifest in your life, business and family right now.  Is there something you are complaining about? Is there something you would like to change? What action are you taking regarding that thing? If the only action is complaint – and action is manifestation what is the fruit of your complaint labor? What is the result of your venting? Do you have a rose garden or just a compost pile?  The point: not for us to now start beating ourselves up about things we haven't done, but instead to just be honest with ourselves regarding the fruits of our actions. This way, we can be more intentional and actually start intentionally creating what we would like to see in our lives and our businesses, our families our world.  One of the reasons, I advise my students of project management, legal clients and spiritual training alike, to start a gratitude journal is because journaling: is an action you can through this action start creating positive fruits at the same time as taking stock of the positive things in your life and the process is a reprogramming mechanism proven to open your brain up to more creativity, clarity, calm and enhances the ability to learn and be resilient. It is huge win-win – it generates energy so you can bring what you want down through idea, thought, plan and action.  So, instead of just thinking about calling Angel to set up a Life & Legacy planning session, or just thinking about trying five minutes of meditation today – you do it. You schedule that session, you download the Calm app, or you make time for some self-care. You start to take stock of what is in your control to take action on with the things you want to change about the world.  Do you want more love? Do you say I love you to your friends and family regularly? What's stopping you? It creates more love with the action. Do you want more money? What are you currently doing with yours? Do you have structures that create abundance of cash flow in your life? How is your business set up? What thoughts are you currently telling yourself? If you are daily thinking you don't deserve money or that you are an imposter at running your business – those thoughts may be creating unconscious plans and actions that undermine you. So, take back the reigns, you are the playwright of your life and the star actor – start acting like it.  Actions you can take today after listening to this podcast:  Journal – what is one idea you have that you would like to implement – write it out and make a plan. Schedule an action for yourself to take.  Start a gratitude journal!  Inventory your current creative life. What are you creating?  Want help with setting up a plan for your business or family – want to make sure your loved ones are taken care of after you are not there? Let's talk - get an intake chat on my calendar today.  Listen to all episodes at https://lawsofabundance.latterelllaw.com/ Find Angel at:    Angel Latterell Latterell Law Office latterelllaw.com angellatterell@gmail.com   I can help with that! 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Creation requires structure.  Wait Angel, what you're saying, you already told me in the last episode, that creation needs a container. This is the same thing. What's the difference? Structure – container. Container – structure. Great, I get it. Well, to that I say we have to back up a little bit and recognize that they are different things. A container is the walls that hold the raw material – the structure is the shape of that container – or the rules for what the container makes. Does every egg make a chicken? No. some eggs produce turtles, others make seagulls – the structure of that egg (the container) results in the shape of its creation – the type of bird or reptile that crawls out. Similarly, every womb of a mammal does not make a human - our DNA is our structure, and every human is unique – so that rulebook of the DNA strands creates the humans and all that you see in the world today – and as we learn to work with DNA we can create improvements to the structure of that human.  More simply, we can look at crystals. They are all minerals – but dependent on their structure they have different shapes and colors – a rose quartz grows in a different structure than Jasper. An emerald grows different than Jade. Or let's look at a cauliflower – it grows in fractals, but white cauliflower looks very different than its cousin Romanesco with its pointy clear fractalated structure. But both grow from a very similar looking seed! In human society, many countries are made with charters or constitutions, but the structure that document lays out is very different – thus the United States has different political structures than Canada because our countries were curated with very different structures and the cultures are all very different as a result.  So, container is the raw material that lays the boundaries (the egg, the womb, the bucket) but the shape the creation takes is made based on its structure. And all creation also needs a structure – going back to my sand analogy – a handful of sand - not much sand gets where you are going because no container. Use a bucket - a lot of sand gets where you are going – but if you just dump the sand out of the bucket – what happens? You have a pile of sand with no structure. You have to mix the sand with water in a container and give it a shape in order to build a sand castle. You have to give it a structure. Water works the same way. Water is just precipitation and steam until it turns into clouds, or until the earth gives it both a container and shape/structure to make it a river, an ocean or a lake. Water is unique in that it can actually give the earth structure right back because water forms earth, and earth gives water a container – but that is a discussion for another day. Today I think we've drilled in this concept of structure. In the legal realm – the container is the entity – a Trust, an LLC, the structure is created with the words on the paper that make the trust document or the LLC's operating agreement. These rule books on how the entity works and operate are its structure. The United States Constitution – is the rulebook for how the US as a country operates. Heck, the rule book for the National Football League is what creates the structure of the American football season, the playoffs and the Super Bowl. Without these structures we do not have anything. We have chaos or the proverbial pile of sand.  This is why endeavors that do not have a plan do not succeed. They need a structure – you can have a goal but if there is not a step-by-step or even an agreed set of rules (aka a structure) to reach that goal you have chaos, even if well intended. But you need the lanes for the flow mapped out or no one will row in the same direction and you will not ever get where you are going. The lanes for the flow of the work to complete are the structure. Thus, enabling the result to come into being. The essence behind the science of cloning is about finding a way to make the exact copy of another organism's structure. Angel Latterell Latterell Law Office latterelllaw.com angellatterell@gmail.com   I can help with that! Metaphysical Options for a Joyful Life Meditation, Healing and Activations angellatterell.com Follow on IG @paprikaangel  

You want to create your own Camelot?  Then it is time to explore the containers that will allow you to create your kingdom.  Any investment in to those containers will be worth its weight in gold on the returns the abundance you create within it will provide.  CREATION REQUIRES A CONTAINER  Let's think about this statement. Creation requires a container. To make something new - i.e. to create something you need a container. I am not asking you to believe me on blind faith. Let's just look at the world around us.  How do you create a new plant? Generally, the plant creates a fruit or a flower which has a seed. You plant the seed (or the universe plants it) and you get a new plant. The seed is a container for the new plant.  How do we get a new human being? We've got an egg & sperm and they meet inside a womb - and then a human grows, inside a container (the womb!). See similar processes for other mammals. Birds & reptiles lay eggs - and the little baby grows inside the egg - the container until it hatches a new life. Only when ready does it come out of the The Container.   Even viruses require a contain to spread - this is why we use soap - it breaks down the fatty cell wall of the virus and kills it so it cannot attach to its container (the host) and multiply within the container (human or animal) and then spread to more hosts - its all it known is how to do is recreate itself right? But it can only Create itself with a host - A Container.  Then there are the more inanimate non-sentient beings - like water. How do you make an ice cube? You put water in a container and freeze it.  You make a snow cone by putting shaved ice in a cone shaped cup.  There isn't a snow soup right? That isn't the point.  The container is the reason there is a thing created.   What about art?  A human or a racoon (If you have seen racoon art on the interwebs) places a paint brush (or a paw) to canvas that captures the form (the idea, the thought) in the physical. If you just have paint and an idea you still do not have art without the container - the canvas. Same with sculpture - clay plus idea does not a sculpture make until the clay is formed into the shape of the idea - The container.  Now let me make the leap here - Why is this a law of abundance? First we must be aware what is necessary to create. And if our goal is to create abundance - we must be clear how to create a lot of something.  Ideally we want to find the correct container for the a lot something we want to create. In the realm of money and legal matters there are two containers specifically I can think of that are best for abundance creation.  The business entity - a corporation, a LLC, a non-profit and  The Trust - a container to hold money & assets Both of these are containers. By making the container out of legal paperwork you create an entity that can hold money and property.  It doesn't have arms or legs, brain or eyes, but yet it exists and it is specifically designed to hold something - and thus gives you the container necessary to create more of something. In this case more money and property. Which is why both a business entity and a Trust are phenomenal tools for building wealth and abundance for you and your life because not only do they fulfill the first rule of creation (You must have a container) but this container is also specifically designed for holding money and protecting money from your or others bad choices - much like an egg or a womb protects the baby from the outside world until they formed enough to come out and walk and eat.  A trust holds money so that it can be used only for those things that are in its nature i.e. support of the beneficiary. In other words a Trust only exists to hold things for the future benefit of someone - and that future someone is so aptly named “the beneficiary” i.e. the person receiving the benefit created by the container (the trust).  Think of it energetically - if you attempt to carry sand in you hand across the beach - it all drains out and you will never make a sandcastle. But you put that sand in a bucket and you can carry that sand anywhere, and in quite a bit of quantity.  Add a little water to the bucket and you can even make it into a shape. Now you are in business toward building that sandcastle. The key here in this equation is the bucket!  The container.  How many places in your life are you just carrying sand across the beach in your hand when you are trying to build a sandcastle?  At the end of the day if we want to advance our business endeavor, or if want to build something new, or if we want to make sure we pass our assets down to the next generation in a way that builds family wealth - we want to a container to create in.   A business with no container is just like a handful of sand - it has a lot of leaks and you will not ever build a castle.  Similarly -passing your assets from one generation to the next without a a trust (using a will or not planning at all) is like that handful of sand again - so many opportunities for things to slip through and away.  If you want to create something, anything you need a container.  If you want to create abundantly you need the right container for your endeavor. You want to create your own Camelot?  Then it is time to explore the containers that will allow you to create your kingdom.  Any investment in to those containers will be worth its weight in gold on the returns the abundance you create within it will provide.  So your new mantra, or what you need to ask yourselves when you start any endeavor is:  What am I specifically trying to create? And what is the right container to create from? Answer that question, acquire that container, and then you are congruent with the laws of abundance and you will be able to create what you desire. Find Angel at: Latterell Law Office latterelllaw.com angellatterell@gmail.com   I can help with that! Metaphysical Options for a Joyful Life Meditation, Healing and Activations angellatterell.com Follow on IG @paprikaangel  

This isn't your typical legal advice podcast and Angel M. Latterell, Esq is not your typical lawyer. Angel understands the heart and soul, just as much as the judicial system. As an attorney, she has over 16 years of legal experience in the areas of business law, intellectual property, complex litigation, and landlord-tenant law. As a project manager, Angel is all about building and nurturing systems that work. As a certified transformation coach, practicing Buddhist, spiritual guide, and poet she knows it all starts with a healthy abundance mindset. Angel is any heart-based entrepreneur's trusted advisor. She understands the law wasn't written to be understood and wants to empower you to stop avoiding your legal matters. Angel teaches you how to manage your assets and properly contain your abundance so you can prosper systematically and energetically.