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THAT'S IT, I REMEMBER .... THAT PUNCH!!! do you remember, Snake? the FEEEEL OF BATTLE! ...the CLashing of BONE and SINEW!""""

Matthew Reed discusses his play "I Remember," which is being performed this coming weekend at Kenosha Rhode Center for the Arts.

The Nerds are going back in time to help see the world saved from some space-related threats! That's right, as part of our month-long "I Remember the 90s" theme, we will be reviewing some of the favorite films, personal or universal, from the 1990s! This week we are trying not to close our eyes because we don't want to miss a thing about Armaggedon! Also, in honor of July 4th, we are hopping in our finest crop duster, flying straight into the blinding blue light, and giving our thoughts on Independence Day!Join in the fun by visiting our other platforms (social media to keep up and YouTube to see additional content not included in the weekly podcast): linktr.ee/ragenerdsSupport the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/ragenerds)

Learn about the Maori's dragons, and how they shaped New Zealand. Support our book's Kickstarter Campaign before June 1st Website: https://legendsfromthepacific.com/61-taniwha Theme Song: "Mystery" by Tavana, courtesy of HI*Sessions Sound Effects: Sound Effects Factory Music Coordinator: Matt Duffy AKA DJ TripleBypass Featured song: "I Remember" by Sudden Rush, courtesy of HI*Sessions ***** Please give us a rating, write a review, subscribe, follow us, and share us with your friends and family. Instagram: legendsfromthepacific Twitter: LegendsPacific ***** Fan art section: https://legendsfromthepacific.com/fan-artwork Send us your feedback at: https://legendsfromthepacific.com/feedback  ***** Claim your exclusive unaired episode by joining our email list today: "Hawaii's Faceless Ghost - Mujina" (Unaired Episode) https://legendsfromthepacific.ck.page/32ca50bd23 *We respect your privacy. We will not share your email. You can unsubscribe at any time. Listen to exclusive monthly bonus episodes, and Kamuela's unaired paranormal experiences by becoming a Patreon supporter today: https://www.patreon.com/legendsfromthepacific Do you have an unusual Pacific experience you'd like to share? Send it to us, and it might be read on a future episode. https://legendsfromthepacific.com/feedback 

Do you remember having to go into your local tiendita to buy a phone card for your parents to call your familia en Mexico? Remember easy bake ovens? Limewire downloads? Landlines? Are you feeling nostalgic yet? Be sure to check out this weeks episode “I Remember....” where go down memory lane! Don’t forget to subscribe & share! Follow us on Instagram: @NoTeAguitesPodcast_

Friday, May 28, 2021 - A number of creative art projects are underway that will explore a recovery from trauma for war veterans. In one of those projects, local songwriters and musicians will express those experiences in song. Joining us is veteran and musician Dan Hudson. ~~~ Farming feeds the world, but it also contributes about 12% of global greenhouse gas emissions. For Harvest Public Media, Brian Grimmett looks into how a small group of Kansans are trying to develop crops that could lessen that carbon footprint. ~~~ The Dirty Thirties also brought agricultural challenges, not the least of which was grasshoppers. Today we share another episode of TellTale: Dakota Folklife and Stories titled “I Remember the Grasshoppers." ~~~ Matt Olien reviews “Those Who Wish Me Dead.”

Thinking back was there something that took you time to learn a lesson from? I Remember when I did.

Rusty, everyone's favorite dog, is a DJ of his own radio show!  On today's episode of "Rusty's Music Jam", he plays music from the CD "You're Math-Eriffic!" by his favorite singer/songwriter, Karen Sokolof Javitch!  Song list:1) "I'm Math-eriffic!"2) "Yay Number 3"3) "Mr. Nine!"4) "Plenty of Shapes!"5) "I Love to Count!"6) "Sixes Are So Much Fun!"7) "Counting Coins!"8) "Go Number 7"9) "Eights Are So Amazing!"10) "Why Can't I Remember 7x8?"11) "Go 12!"For more great songs, go to www.KarensSongs.com! 

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Greetings! Thanks for standing by me. All this love during February means a lot. I have a wonderful Deep House mix by @Udiproduction out of NEW YORK CITY. Don't sleep more to come by him. 1. Intro-0:19 2. Visions -3:31 Gregory Del Piero FT Billy Love 3. Wonderful Things-4:24 Timmy Dee 4. Caught Up-5:10 Intense Soul 5. You Got Me-3:35 Fusion FT Wallace Gary 6. Must Be The Music-Harley & Muscle 7. Born To Fly-3:20 Lisa Shaw 8. Her First Time By-4:36 Shifty Johnson & Terry Swift 9. Still In Luv With You (Part 1)-4:18 J. Haystax 10. Shame-4:25 Mark Grant FT Swalyo 11. Salsa House-3:54 Soul Purpose 12. Can't Get Away-4:11 Mood 2 Swing 13. I Can't Stop-3:30 Sandy Rivera 14. The Turkish-4:22 DJ Marky 15. I Remember 3:45 Deadmau5 + Kaskade 16. Life Story-3:49 Leviticus 17. Helpless--3:55 Decaff FT Roland Clark 18. A Better Way-3:39 Darryl D'Bonneau 19. I Am-2:46 Lina 20. Je' Ne' Veux plus Etre-3:29 Hanna Hais 21. Poulets Paradise-2:19 Cross Bronx Expressway 22. Sume Sigh Say-4:12 Masters At Work 23. Dat Rowdy Shit-4:40 Bucket Beetleg 24. El Carnaval-2:27 AV8 25. El Canto-4:14 DJ Lucho 26. No More Sun-3:50 Kerri Chandler 27. Soul Chu Cha-4:56 Rosabel 28. Forever And A Day-3:59 Mena Keys FT Frankie Estevez & Tabia 29. Church Lady-4:56 Dennis Ferrer 30. Need You Now-4:10 Soul Central 31. Baby Gets High-3:13 Soul Creation 32. No More Love-3:10 Carla Prather 33. Simple Life-3:48 Vibe Travelers 34. It Must Be Life-4:27 Lyfe Jennings 35.Tranz-4:45 Masters At Work 36. What You Gonna Do About It-3:14 Behind The Groove FT Carla Prather 37. Come Into My Life-4:58 Mena Keys 38. What Is House Music-9:11 Stavey Mallory   Total Time:2:31:12   add me on instagram @1indienation support the show via venmo @rachaeldepp Each donation no matter how small or big is deeply appreciated. LOVE YOU :) xo Rachael Depp

House music at its best! Let Dave Baker take you on a journey of discovery and aural pleasure as he brings you the hottest and freshest funky, deep and tech house releases every week. In the mix this week we have some amazing tracks as always. including the latest banger coming out of Toolroom and an epic new mix of ‘All To You’ from Jason Walker - what a voice! 1. Without You (Extended Mix) - TCTS & Boston Bun feat. Andrea Martin [Toolroom] 2. All To You (Georgies House Is A Feeling Mix) - Jason Walker [Music Plant Group] 3. We Want Our Clubs Back (Extended Mix) - Me & My Toothbrush [Enormous Tunes] 4. House Feeling (Extended Mix) - Brokenears [House 'n Chips] 5. No One Beside You (Original Mix) - Doc Link [Sunrising Records] 6. No More Looking Back feat. Steffanie Christi'an (Extended Mix) - Inner City, Idris Elba, Steffanie Christi'an [Defected] 7. I Remember feat. Ella (Babert Extended Remix) - Ella, Mattei & Omich [Milk & Sugar] 8. Give Me a Reason (Extended Mix) - Even Evie [Basement Sound] 9. Mind Of Love (Original Mix) - Jorda Luigia [Finally Records] 10. Make Me Feel (Extended Mix) - Thonig [The Garden Records] 11. Sleepless (Extended Mix) - D.O.D [Axtone Records] 12. Finally I (Crazibiza Remix) - Marcelo Vak, Leon Cormack, Alex Roque [King Street Sounds] 13. Who Are You? (Chris Lake Extended Remix) - Miane, Chris Lake [Black Book Records] 14. Into It (Original Mix) - LewRaz [Low:Res] 15. Don't You feat. Faber (Original Mix) - Matt Guy, C.O.Z [Sola]

ในสัปดาห์นี้ แชมป์ - ธกฤต สมบัตินันท์ และ เจอร์รี่ - ฉัตรชัย อาสนจินดา แห่ง Justดูit จะมาพูดถึงหนังน่าสนใจประจำเดือนกุมภาพันธ์ ต้องบอกว่าใกล้เข้ามากับเทศกาลแห่งความรัก เราก็เลยมาพรีวิวหนังโรแมนติกที่น่าสนใจ เริ่มจาก หนังโรแมนติกดราม่า : Endings, Beginnings หนังรักจีนรีเมคจาก “แฟนเดย์” : I Remember หนังแนวอีโรติกจากรัสเซีย : Fidelity และปิดท้ายด้วยหนังสยองขวัญจากตำนานพื้นบ้าน : Howling Village โดยทั้งหมดสามารถรับชมได้ในโรงภาพยนตร์ SF Cinema

Deadmau5, Kaskade - I Remember 伍佰 & China Blue - 真世界

Kilogram, Juicy-Jaleen and Ze-Forte from the You Better Not Lie Podcast are back with Episode:11 "I REMEMBER” feat Philadelphia Titan "OT THE REAL. "OT THE REAL Discusses his transition from Boston to Philadelphia, OT says that he loves Boston, but he identifies more with Philadelphia because that is where his street life really began. OT THE REAL addresses his issues with Gully TV, Reed Dollaz, and Quilly Millz. He gives respect to Gillie da Kid, Wallo, and Meek Mill for sharing his content and causing it to go viral. You Better not Lie Podcast plays two of OT's records and gives him his flowers as the nicest Caucasian MC to date. OT gives credit to Eminem, Yelawolf, Jack Harlow, G-Easy, and 3rd Base as some of the dope Caucasian rappers that have encouraged him to carry the torch. OT also names his TOP 5 new rappers in Philadelphia. OT also talks about being on HOT 97, SIRIUS SATELITE RADIO, BOOTLEG KEV AND DJ HED SHOW, THE COME-UP SHOW and getting a call from SUGE KNIGHT!  You do not want to miss this Interview.!!!!!!!!

Doug comes back by blessing the listeners with a variety of music for this new episode. They get a Jay-Z tribute, Keyshia Cole vs. Ashanti prediction, and some new music. He also shares his most listened to songs of 2020. Songs Played: Lil Wayne: Best Rapper Alive Jay-Z: 22 Two's, Friend Or Foe 98, Izzo (H.O.V.A.), Renegade (Feat. Eminem) Ashanti: Baby Keyshia Cole: Heaven Sent, I Remember, Love, Last Night (Feat. Diddy) Breakdown: Justin Nozuka: No One But You (Feat. Mahalia) Rotation: H.E.R.: Sometimes Summer Walker: I'm Gonna Love You Just A Little More Baby The LOX: Recognize Teyana Taylor: Bare With Me --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/88ec2/message

Teaching writing - mentors Helen Mort and Blake Morrison compare notes. Plus as Georges Perec's memoir I Remember is published in English for the first time, we look at the rules of writing proposed by the Oulipo group which was founded in 1960 by Raymond Queneau and François Le Lionnais. Georges Perec (1936 – 1982) came up with a "story-making machine" and created a novel in which the letter 'e' never appears. Queneau's Exercices de Style recounts a bus journey ninety-nine times. Shahidha Bari talks to Adam Scovell and Lauren Elkin about Oulipo. Helen Mort's books include poetry collections Division Street and No Map Could Show Them and a debut novel Black Car Burning and she is a Senior Lecturer at Manchester Metropolitan University https://www.helenmort.com/ Blake Morrison's books include poetry collections Dark Glasses and Pendle Witches, And When Did You Last See Your Father? which won the JR Ackerley Prize for Autobiography and a study of the murder of James Bulger, As If. He is Professor of Creative and Life Writing at Goldsmiths College, University of London. http://www.blakemorrison.net/ Their conversation is part of the series Critical Friends organised in partnership with the Royal Society of Literature https://rsliterature.org/ You can find more writerly conversations in the Free Thinking playlist Prose and Poetry https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p047v6vh Adam Scovell is the author of novellas including How Pale the Winter Has Made Us and Mothlight Lauren Elkin is the author of The End of Oulipo? An Attempt to Exhaust a Movement and Flâneuse: Women Walk the City in Paris, New York, Tokyo, Venice, and London George Perec's I Remember translated into English by David Bellos and Philip Terry has just been published by Editions Gallic. Producer: Ruth Watts

Jeremi and Zachary speak with Jillian Smith and Eli Alter about what it’s like for first-time voters during the presidential election and what role voting plays as our society continues to evolve. Zachary sets the scene with his poem “I Remember when I was Four”. Jillian Smith is a junior at the University of Texas […]

This week's episode I chop it up with the homie 60 East. 60 East is a rapper & host / creator of The Happiness of Pursuit Festival We discuss what he's been up to lately, taking online classes, and his recent releases- Traffic Jam, (which is the third installment to his Freeway Series EP)single “I Remember”, a song dedicated to the late Space Ghost- a childhood friend / mentor in music. 60 shares self care advice to help reduce the inevitable stress that comes with being an artist/ creative.Unfortunately due to the pandemic, 60 will be postponing The Happiness of Pursuit Festival (THOP Fest) 
until 2021. I reminisce my experience working the admissions booth & seeing legendary artists perform & more!https://sixtyeast.net/https://www.instagram.com/60east/https://twitter.com/60east909

Affirmations! Yes they are powerful- it could literally switch your suffering state to a powerful one right away! I just wanted something I can play 24/7 or whenever I am feeling a bit down - something that will spark some joy and deepen my faith in an instant! I hope this uplifts you! Have any questions, testimonials, feedback, want to connect? I'd love to connect with you. I can easily be reached out via the gram https://www.instagram.com/jesscadreams/ Music by @munmun_174 - In A Rainy Day, I Remember... via @hellothematic

I Remember, Seg 2 by Louada Raschke

I Remember, Seg 1 by Louada Raschke

Edward William Pritchard was a GP who was from England, but now lived in Glasgow with his wife Mary. Dubbed the Human crocodile, after shedding very obvious crocodile tears for his dead wife and mother in law who her murdered in cold blood. join me to find out what happened and how the Human Crocodile's tale ends.I had an editors note but I have completely forgotten already! I post it on twitter when I Remember!Seonaid

Welcome to our 20 for 2020 Reading Challenge Check-In episode! Before we dig into the content, Angelina announces Thomas’ next webinar coming up this summer, “The Fable: From Aesop to Brer Rabbit.” Sign up at HouseofHumaneLetters.com to find out when registration opens! After a brief discussion on the merits of reading fiction, our hosts begin listing what they have read in each category of the 20 for 2020 Reading Challenge so far. This episode is brimming over with book references, so be sure to scroll down to the book list any titles you might have missed! Enter our 20 for 2020 Reading Challenge giveaway! Take a photo of your reading stack or your printed list with titles you are reading and post it to Instagram or Facebook with the tag #20for2020LitLife. We will announce our winners on the next episode of the podcast! We can’t wait to see what you are reading for the challenge! Commonplace Quotes: To know God therefore as He is, is to frame the most beautiful idea in all worlds. He delighteth in our happiness more than we, and is of all others the most lovely object. Thomas Traherne And often my father would read us things that he loved, without a single word of ‘explanation’. Of these the Ancient Mariner stands out beyond the rest. O happy living things! Why do people murder them by explanations? M. V. Hughes The mere fact that a story is a work of fiction, however, does not prevent its having a deep and significant truth of its own. We find, then, that the distinction between true stories and works of pure imagination, though convenient, is not quite essential. For fiction may be just as true, in the higher sense of the word, as history, or travel or any other record of actual experience. George Lyman Kittredge I Remember, I Remember by Thomas Hood I remember, I remember, The house where I was born, The little window where the sun Came peeping in at morn; He never came a wink too soon, Nor brought too long a day, But now, I often wish the night Had borne my breath away! I remember, I remember, The roses, red and white, The vi’lets, and the lily-cups, Those flowers made of light! The lilacs where the robin built, And where my brother set The laburnum on his birthday,— The tree is living yet! I remember, I remember, Where I was used to swing, And thought the air must rush as fresh To swallows on the wing; My spirit flew in feathers then, That is so heavy now, And summer pools could hardly cool The fever on my brow! I remember, I remember, The fir trees dark and high; I used to think their slender tops Were close against the sky: It was a childish ignorance, But now ’tis little joy To know I’m farther off from heav’n Than when I was a boy. Book List: Amazon affiliate links are used in this content. A London Child of the Seventies by M. V. Hughes Centuries of Meditations by Thomas Traherne The Mother Tongue by George Lyman Kittredge The Darkest Hour (film) The Winter’s Tale by Shakespeare Two Gentlemen of Verona by Shakespeare The Comedy of Errors by Shakespeare Titus Andronicus by Shakespeare The Taming of the Shrew by Shakespeare MacBeth by Shakespeare A Question of Proof by Nicholas Blake Simon Serraille Mystery Series by Susan Hill Ian Rutledge Mystery Series by Charles Todd The Magic Apple Tree by Susan Hill Howards End is on the Landing by Susan Hill Dorothy Sayers Agatha Christie Ngaio Marsh Margery Allingham The Man in the Brown Suit by Agatha Christie Death on the Nile by Agatha Christie Black Wings Has My Angel by Elliot Chaze The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco The Black Arrow by Robert Louis Stevenson Treasure Island by Robert Louis Stevenson Treasures of the Snow by Patricia St. John Understood Betsy by Dorothy Canfield Fisher Koshka’s Tales: Stories from Russia by James Mayhew Plainsong by Kent Haruf Munich by Robert Harris Wee Free Men by Terry Pratchett Taras Bulba by Nicolai Gogol This Tender Land by William Kent Krueger The Stress of Her Regard by Tim Powers Plain Tales from the Hills by Rudyard Kipling The Collected Stories of Caroline Gordon Penhally by Caroline Gordon The Life You Save May Be Your Own by Paul Elie Jeremy Taylor by Hugh Williamson Holy Living and Dying by Jeremy Taylor Swinburne by Harold Nicolson Cider with Rosie by Laurie Lee Romantic Outlaws by Charlotte Gordon The Terrible Speed of Mercy by Jonathan Rogers The Bark of the Bog Owl by Jonathan Rogers The Path of Loneliness by Elisabeth Elliot Reflections on the Psalms by C. S. Lewis Anatomy of Criticism by Northrup Frye Bandersnatch by Diana Pavlac Glyer The Company They Keep by Diana Pavlac Glyer The Personal Heresy by C. S. Lewis and E. M. Tillyard The Elizabethan World Picture by E. M. Tillyard The Tale of Genji by Lady Murasaki Ibn Fadlan and The Land of Darkness by Ibn Fadlan The Sailor Who Fell From Grace with the Sea by Yukio Mishima An Anthology of Invective and Abuse by Hugh Kingsmill Penmarric by Susan Howatch The Cuckoo’s Calling by Robert Galbraith (J.K. Rowling) The Faerie Queen by Edmund Spencer The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde The Clouds by Aristophanes Zen in the Art of Writing by Ray Bradbury Mystery and Manners by Flannery O’Connor Love in the Void by Simone Weil The Fine Art of Reading by David Cecil Abigail by Magda Szabo The Towers of Trebizond by Rose Macaula The Turmoil (Growth Trilogy #1) by Booth Tarkington The Magnificent Ambersons by Booth Tarkington Middlemarch by George Eliot Lyrical Ballads by Wordsworth and Coleridge To Bless The Space Between Us by John O’Donohue The Word in the Wilderness by Malcolm Guite Tenebrea by Geoffrey Hill Along Came a Spider by James Patterson Just Mercy by Bryan Stevenson Stories of Anton Chekhov by Anton Chekhov The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne Support The Literary Life: Become a patron of The Literary Life podcast as part of the “Friends and Fellows Community” on Patreon, and get some amazing bonus content! Thanks for your support! 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Rob Lim, better known as Dirty Sanchez, discusses his love for photography, Hip Hop, and dance. Follow @Instagram: noiseofthebrokeboysTwitter: BrokeBoysNoise Listen to the Audio on all Podcast platforms. All The Links Here: https://linktr.ee/NoiseOfTheBrokeBoys A broke degenerate hooligan documents conversations about being a Bboy, Breakin', Hip Hop, Dance, Art, Music, Creativity, Innovation, and the slow subtle crumble of society in audio form.----more----this episode of noise of the broke boysis brought to you by Karen's potatosalad do you yearn for the taste ofdelicious creamy buttery potatoes and aperfectly seasoned potato salad dish doyou ever fall asleep at night dreamingof the rich starchy texture of AuntRhonda's perfectly proportioned potatosalad do you suddenly have an urge tocall my manager to cancel me because youassume the race of my imaginary auntRhondadespite her racially ambiguous name andare now jealous of her potato saladrecipe well I'm here to tell you you canbreathe easy go ahead and hang up yourphone give the police a day off fromhandling this important complaint headover to your nearest grocery store andpurchase some of aunt Rhonda's secretflavoring sodium chloride use thissecret flavor enhancer in all yourfuture potato salad recipes and enjoyyour salty meal Karen just be carefulnot to be too salty and now onto theshow[Music]in this episode I talk on a video callwith one of my closest homies he is anup rocker and a photographer and low-keyone of the funniest people I know thesong welcome to the jungle by Guns andRoses always reminds me of this guy'scrazy shenanigans please enjoy theepisode with my good buddydirty sanchez do you know what you areyou're in a jungle baby you're gonna die[Music]what's up everybody welcome to the showtoday I've got the dirtiest guest ofthem all he's a good friend of mineprobably one of my best friends and I'mproud to have him on this show we'regonna be talking about some interestingstuff so I hope you guys are ready forthe dirty sanchez himself Robert Limwhat's up man how you doing I'm doingwellI noticed those kovat beards just a so Ihad to catch up yeah we got them kovatbeards going on dude yo so what's up man- I wanted to bring you on today becauselike photography I mean you've been aphotographer for a long time you've beena part of the dance scene as aphotographer as well as a dancer youknow almost as long as I've known youand so you've seen a lot of stuff in thescenedefinitely have like captured a lot ofreally amazing moments as a photographerso I wanted to like bring you onto theshow to talk about you know a little bitabout your photography history with itbecause I feel like photography is isnot necessarily an element of hip-hopper se but it's an element that ispreserving the other elements you knowwhat I'm saying and so I feel like it'sa very important and underlooked thingin the scene that you know we all kindof experience but we don't give creditto it or credence to it and so that'sthat's kind of why I wanted to bring youon hereand so with that being said I want toknow what really got you intophotography I think it's my older sistershe was into photography and I learnedthe film nothing as far as developingthe film setting up a camera manuallyfor the shutter the habit sure and itfeels like you're a sharpshooter whenit's sniper even went back to just kindof like heroes or people that inspire meMartha Cooper she was like the firstphotographer to take pictures of b-boysand emcees and just hip-hop partyI think her first picture she has isthat like I'm some b-boys got arrestedand she couldn't take the picture ofdumb legally hmm but it was able to takea picture not looking at them andpressing it down so she was able tocircumvent it in a way so it's like Iknow it was like the most like hip hopgangster thing to do about like beinginside a police station doing somethingthat you're not supposed to do butrecognizing it's an important momentyeah yeah that's interesting it's thatway is that when they they're like copscame in like shut down what was itpeople summit like 90-something 96-97during like the 70s and 80s oh is itokay no wow saw books are going to beblack and white you're going to see ayoung kid and like the short runningshorts on you know the side like the b2shorts super beat Street even a littlebit before that the racism in the copbut you can just see like these kidsthey're dancing on the street and up tono goodoh yeah and they're all like 10 yearsold and yeah yeah boy beat boy age yeahthe real b-boy age yeah now that yeahnow the 10 year olds are taken overagain so it's a circle of lifeyeah just raise them upyeah yeah so that's tight um yeah I meanthat that's a very powerful moment and Ithink in hip-hop history and and youknow if it weren't for someone to likethink of you know grabbing a camerataking a picture and preserving thatmoment I don't think we'd even be ableto remember that moment and I mean Icould think of a lot of other moments inhip-hop history that you know we'reimportant you know and so I guess youknow in that in that moment ofrealization like hey I better pull mycamera out and take this picture thislooks like a great moment to capturewhat what goes on in your mind to likeyou know be able to define that momentand and how do you really frame that youknow I think it goes like as easy aswhen you see family portraits honestlyeveryone takes family portraits and whenyou see the pictures there's sometimesyou could definitely see the love andthe relationship between everyonesometimes people are just kind ofputting up with it what I noticenaturally even from like like MarthaCooper's photos and just other b-boyphotos everyone who's not evenphotogenic and photogenic doesn't meanlike beauty but there's a level ofvanity where people are like you knowwhat this is a woman that lasts foreverI always look cool guess what we'retaking a cold picture right now eventhough some people they tried the hardas you could see but everyone's ready togo as if like this is gonna be the lastpicture they ever see before I getlocked up or our dead yeah so and likeeveryone inherently does that in thescene I notice I'm always trying to makesure now to take pictures of people like1/3 and Cruz or even if they're reallygood friends yeah or something you'renot even good friends or it as apractice spot they mainly just cometogether like we are so cool you bettertake their picture right now it you knowit's kind of baked in the culture to dothat I mean I feel like just the idea offreezes in breaking is like hit a coolpose look cool as if someone was gonnatake a picture of you I mean I feel likethat's theyou know overarching like idea behindfreezing and so it's kind of baked intowhat we do already so I can see how thatwould be so that that's tightdid you start photography before youdanced or was it did it come after Imean like I remember when I met you dingthat was like early 2000s but I knew youwere already dancing you were up rockinand stuff but I'm pretty sure you werealready taking pictures - so which KCarson and did those bleed into eachother at all I mean like people as likea you know as a artistic kind of thingyeah I like in high school I starteddoing photography that was like beforewe met over in junior college yeah yeahyeah it's really tough because it wasconsidered sports photography for me andit's how I had to approach it sosometimes I would just go through somany rolls of film and also findingpeople that were also decent and knewwhat they're talking about if while Iwas asking them to do certain moves orfreezes or experimenting what lookedcool so that was kind of a rough blendbut then when I starting against as adance understood how certain bodymechanics works like what visually looksgood versus what looks good in oneinstance because yeah plenty of pictureswhere people have crashed or that movewas just incredibly bad on video butthat the moment was the way the personlooked the adrenaline rushing throughall it just looked amazingmaybe the crowd was like oh this isgonna be greatyou didn't capture disappointment yourscroll through your photos in one ofthose instances and you're like dudethis crowd is so hyped and then you likeyou know you took action shots sothere's like 20 photos and then like atthe instant that they realize that hecrashed you see you know theirexpression go from happy and excited tolike oh damnwhy am i cheering that must have hurt Ican say when I was also managing thedance crew yeah when someone was they'regonna flip and I did too a picture a preand then like a post when they floppedbut enjoyable performance even though wewere not like the most like sought-afterentertainment that yeah a crowd you canimagine this and people but let's justsay these people have gone well beyondand then 20 of music videos I'm veryproud yeah that's tight so like I guessyou're going back to what you're sayingwith the like you know seeing coolfreezes catching like a certain momentlike what is it that you look for and interms of like lighting and the way thatthey're facing you or like I mean cuzwhen I look at your photos I see thatthere's like I don't know it seems likeyou just caught this really weirdposition that people end up in and Iknow that's part of the dance too butit's like I feel like if I took thatpicture it look like shit and you knowmaybe it comes with a good camera toowhich I don't have but you know likewhat what is that that magic moment thatyou're looking for or is there even amagic moment that you're really lookingfor you know do you just see it in theireyes when they're dancing like oh dudeI'm about to hit this move and you'relistening to the song and it's like dudehe's gonna hit this beat I can tell youknow what I mean is that is that doesthat go through your mind so when I wasstarting a lot of it was guesswork youunderstand this kind of the technicalaspect about understanding lightingmm-hmm I noticed that was always thehugest issues because events were notconducive to their own or activity yescrazy dark so sometimes I experimentedwith flash before but the one thing isis that like that's also going to botherthe dancer yeah so I've been cognizantof like if I do flash moment where liketheir move will enter into like it's notgoing to disrupt what they're gonna bedoing and oh another thing - it took usfears about knowing certain dancers andwhat they're getting into as far as likeoh they have so much momentum going herethey're not gonna stop there this willburn down man it will make them thiswill distract them so a lot of alsogoing with the camera equipment a lot ofthat also had to go with bettertechnology as well as people startseeing that I was offered more goodwilland kind of meh preserving a legacy butdocumenting the times they were morereceptive to taking pictures and thatallowed me to pose them and prop them incertain locations yeah I see what you'resaying so okay yeah so I could see howthat the the lighting would be a realbig issue in a jam I mean there's onlyso much you can do really with a camerato make that to make that good but yeahI know like you as a dancer I bet thathelps a lot to like be able to see Iguess predict like what's about tohappen I mean and you're also veryknowledgeable about like that thatparticular dancer usually you've seenthem before you know what they'recapable of so you can kind of predictwhat's going on so I imagine that helpsa lotwith it you know and I think that is youknow what makes some of your photos sogood is that you can like predict thatin a way and be able to capture thesemoments so I'm curious what is the whatis your favorite moment you've capturedon camerathe two that are like two categories Ilike to separate or like ones where Ican oppose the individual mm-hmm that'swhere like we have a setting and I'mcounting one two three we're kind ofdocumenting and another one it's justlike when is that a jam and it just itwas so hype it was so dope and thenlike everyone goes crazy over it youknow and people always hit me up I couldsay like at least like Jan an eventdefinitely a freestyle session I'mtrying to think of like what a more likethere's so many for face off session butone that I really like that like I'vejust seen that on certain flyers but itdoesn't matter to me there's one whereit's Tata he entered with Maschine andMorris and then like like an air chairbut he looked it up and also he pointedout his opponent and then like it wasable to hold it but he also had to lookand the Bears that's like I'm callingyou out yeah yeah and then and then likethe importance whether when thepromoters say this is why you come tojams yeah you feel literally likethere's a point where that's a coupleseconds where you're completely deaf andeveryone else is deaf cuts are screamingwith excitementyeah somehow they will always energy andI'm trying to take the picture where I'mtrying not to get way too excited as afan yeah yeah that was like one of thosemoments where I'm just like that wasgreat I can say also just from my godcontemporaries or people that are like Isee as crazy better to me there's alsoanother one with Todd's huh and Zach youwhere they did it was a crew battle 20thfreestyle and he did the swing routineand I want to say Ken Quan caught thatand like when I look at that picture Ifelt the same way tooso it's amazing yeah that was just likeI'm wow it's like a mom it's like amoment where like the crowd got punchedin the face like with the hype nacellenot a circuit ride weather setup are oneof our friends they we went to had anevent called art Street where there wasawarehouse that within three months timewas gonna get up bulldoze over oh yeahcome on oh I think I remember that placeyeahso the warehouse allowed artists to setup little art spaces and awesome givelinks to these pictures to that way youkind of know what I'm talking aboutbut there's a picture his name was Quanand he did this freeze and there was acheckerboard floor lighting in thebackground and even if I took themwithout it like it looked like thisabstract mural and it was incredibleyeah if I had remember that photo yeahand then yeah and there was like thispurple lighting and it was just likelike I look at it I'm like did I takethis picture did I do too much I wasjust like I I I personally love it somepeople like Gemma be like there's a lotof stuff going on this way again it'slike one of my personal please wait Imean it's that's the artists uniongrowing like dude this is something thatI'm really proud of her like you knowthat I really I think I really nailed itwith it which you know and everybody hastheir own opinions about art so you knowbut I would say if you like it thenthat's what matters really yeah but yeahI think I'm pretty sure I remember thatphoto I might have even been thereduring that thing but anyways I'd sayI'm just real quick like also anotherperson who's in the scene always comeright little Xiao I need the muster upenough money to because I there's oneprint that I definitely want to get soit's wing zero and then II say and Iforgot who else better so not of theircrew but I think it was in Times Squareand then like wings are oh it's likebending on his toes and then the othertwo or just check suppose in a way itjust looked incredibleso I'm like like I need to make sure Ihave enough money I'm like I definitelywanna get a Prince of themit's like artist or together artist butyeah that was a really dope photo thatI'm like wow do you sell your printsI've tried to in the past and somepeople like if they have anniversaryjams are people that like I feel like aconnection to I say oh let me give thisto you it's like I know I I have one ofa Vince your brother where he's in aheadstand and then the tide came in andthe water washes off you took the photothat's a hell funny photo yeah it's funyeah he has like a main YouTube accountat thereI know he's got it on something but yeahthat's funny yeah I'm curious actuallyabout you know the photography worldbecause it's you know in terms of likeselling stuffI feel like photographers do a bigservice to the scene and I don't knowhow much the scene like actually likepays photographers or whatever I know Ididn't see in photographers get theirphotos like taking all of it you knowthey're they're being like put on flyersthey're putting all over Instagram andother social media and stuff I guess howdo you feel about it when like you seesomeone like basically take your photoand just hit crop out your you know yourum your watermark and and use it astheir own like that I feel like that'skind of a dirty dirty dirty trick but Isee a lot of people do it I'm sorrylike resentful from it I'm especiallybecause I was just trying to get betterand then just like oh let me getcredited and sometimes you know youdon't get credit especially for like youbelieve like they should be doing thesame thing or they feel like well yougot a picture of me so that's goodenough yeah but I I look at how I waskind of like how DJ's are because likethere's a certain point where likethey're mixtapes were getting played andthey they did all the work for theproduction yeah not like not like theysampled this and that and you create aloop and that was the end of that ormaybe they did or they did crazy drumsamples and another DJ's playing itbecause they don't want their videostaken down formusic copyright strikes but I noticedwith thumb and I like even thoughthey're like let's just say like othermusical performers they accept it oflike what the culture and technology ismm-hmmthey're draws more like if you want moveto come live to your event hire me yeahlet everyone photos they will leaveenough room for them if they want tocrop out we don't care well put but youguys hire us like hold some accountablefor thatyeah and sometime you to sometimes it'sjust a good opportunity I remember let'ssay for example are your crew from Japanthey came to the yeah come on you cameto like three different cities and knowfour or five I don't I didn't Californiaand they went to yeah that freestylesession that was like last year orsomething right yeah yeah and also theywhat's at the jam when you guys enter inPomona and also did Emma with the bestspot the next day and they also came upto Sacramento for one of our eventsmm-hmm for me not to take a chance toget to know him offered to do like somephotos and everything because this is achance for like a crew who I don't knowwhat their circumstances are but they'relike we're about this life yeahwe're not getting paid to do this but wecame to represent this is just adifferent City this is a differentcountry he came to do anything so I alsohave to look at it like that becauseit's very I don't know what's the wordit's I mean yeah it's you're looking atit as like these guys are about thatlife and as a photographer it's worth itto you to capture that you know and torepresent that too because that's likewhoa everyone's all about you know yeahyeah my return it's like if I when I getthe chance I'm like you guys took thetime and saved up enough money to traveland sometimes when I look at our cityand I'm not to downplay the quality ofour jams but sometimes I'm just likeI've seen you guys 110dollars like three months ago and theprice here is like two hundred dollarsbut you know you drove two hours fromthe Bay Area to just I'm about this lifeso they goes to like someone'sconviction and like also the vanity andthe ego like what's this really aboutyeah so sometimes I'm like yeah we getto love I do see if I can get some typeof compensation but then I also want tobe able to say they're all for the last15 years aim it's like I've been a partof these events that people considerit's like a moment in their life and I'mthere for ya know I would think beingthere for that moment is like a realimportant thing as a photographer beingbecause again yeah you guys are likecapturing that and preserving it I meanI guess put it like thisbefore there was like a crap ton ofphotographers in the scene you knowthere was still jams going on but whocan remember like everything thathappened in those jams especially theones that weren't videotaped it's hardto remember any of that stuff because itwasn't ever you know captured but then Iknow when I see photos from like jamsthat I did you know 10 15 even maybeeven 20 years ago it's like you see thatpicture and you're like oh dang Iremember that you know what I meanyou know I remember that bad all Iremember like being in that situation Iremember training for that or whatever Iremember seeing that dude train for itor whatever you know so it kind ofreally takes you back and it sucks thatthere's not so much stuff that'savailable from you know back in the daybut now I feel like there's so much andand so it's it's gonna be like a verygood preservation of you know theculture moving forward maybe too good ofone you know I guess we don't need toremember all them crashes yeah yeah yeahjust the whole social media aspect youwould think there's a saturation ofpeople with videos and also withtwo people have to adapt it used to bein the culture when I remember I meanSacramento when there was a Rocksteadychapter it was called flora SKLZ um thatyeah it was like if you took dirt likeUV bit someone's move you got sucked inthe face the jam just stopped and likeyou got beat up like whoever crew wasstarting to beat you upthen matter what happened I've been inthat where like no you you're supposedto be dancing to get out of gang warfarebut no you just join a dance gang yeahyeah it was a lot more confrontational Iguess back in the day definitely moreyeah it was chaos I mean really like youhad people coming in that just yeahdidn't care I mean it well and alsothere wasn't money in it and therewasn't like anything so it was just Ifeel like people did it more for the thelove of it and stuff so it was like whensomeone was basically stomping on youand saying hey I'm gonna bite your moveor whatever you take it real personallylike nowadays I feel like that kind ofgets brushed off a little bit becausethey there's I don't know this kind oflike social media veil to it or whateveryou know there's some kind of like youknow social veil over everything and Idon't know I mean not to say that peoplearen't as passionate about it now asthey were before but I feel like youknow they'll there's more incentive tobe like okay I don't I don't need afight over this because there's I gotall these other things that are comingalong with it but back in the day itwasn't like that it's like you know allyou really had was that your moves andyour crew and stuff and so if peoplewere over there like stomping on it andyou know giving it a bad name and stuffor just you know dissing it it's youtake that real personally so I could seewhy there was way more fights back inthe day and I'm glad that that's overbut it I feel like back then there was alittle more I don't know excitement tocompetitions just because of stuff likethat not to say that fighting is a goodthing but you know the drama the dramamakes it interesting for sure you knowI'll say this we're just two recentexamples from at least like myperspective we went to Mass a monkey'sday and I was front row and like thefinals and then like I believe they justfinished with like top eight thesis isjust walking around and then you see aTN because you're yelling at each otherand like I don't know where thesis isalso just pissed off like crazyand he's called and then like a couplerounds later like all of battleborn camein and supposedly they just not yet Iremember that yeah yeah yeah I wasn't atthe gym but ya know it was like yeah thetwo crews had like beef or somethingfrom back in the day or whateverwhatever whatever happened but yeah thecrew they basically snuck in the gymjust to battle them yeah I mean it's nogood that they're sneaking in and stuffand like doing that but but know thatthat's actually a great moment that wascaptured on film because it's like ifyou got beef with another crew like Ifeel like that's how you handle it youcome and just say hey we're gonna battlewe're not gonna go online and talk crapwe're not gonna you know fight we're notgonna do this we're not gonna do thatwe're just gonna come in and battle youand guess what it's at your own jam soyou better come correct because we'vebeen you know training for this we'regonna come for you you know so I feel Ifeel like that was that that's dopethat's dope Oh hopefully there wasn'tany other drama beyond that I meanhopefully that's where it got squashedor whatever you know I feel hate stillgoing day eight in both the rides you'relike what are you doing herelike you like you snuck in where's my$10 if you're gonna bat him he got a payhim anyway yeah and one where like alsojust coming back to that Pomona JamJesse you've been seeing a Williams hisname is his real name's William smilesmm-hmm he's from Australia he entered inwith Lancer yeah yeah yeah Austria yeahI forget his name yet Australian dude noyeah I know your name is William smilesbut just like it was good talking himbut he also have fierceness in his eyesbut I've never seen the same thing Iknow nuts stirring the pot or anythingbut it was the same thing when you sawPak Pak and also Lucy sky and then I'mlike what I saw the moves I'm like yeahyou definitely just at first you havethat so important to you the way you hitit the way you get into it but I meanI'm not part of that I was just like I'mlike oh I see but also for someone tojust like also protect you like well I'mdefinitely gonna fly up here and I hopeto see those guys just yeah just to justshow up just to confront in in battleyeah that's that's some b-boy shit forsureI mean yeah I've done that in the pastlike I've gone to gyms just a battle acrew with I didn't enter the gymI didn't do anything else except justbattle them you know usually I stuckaround and like watch the rest of thejam or whatever or you know whatever butit was I came I came through to justbattle people though so after thosebattles had a bed like I still hate youokay I know but trust me you you knowwhat'sMerson you know what's funny is likeactually I was hanging out with one ofthe guys that I used to do I'd like goto the gym just to battle him and hiscrew and you know this was back likefrickin ten years at least and then Iwas like training with him probably likea year ago or maybe two years ago orwhatever and like we're all nice to eachother and stuff and I was like dude Iknow me and you used to battle all thefreaking time and I don't even rememberwhy like that's what's funny about itbut I knew that I hated your guts at onepoint and I knew you were good and Iknew you knew I was good and we wouldbattle all the damn time but like to behonest I don't remember what it was thatset it off and you know and now we'refriends and stuff and you know we'lltrain and we give each other tips andshit so I don't know I honestly I thinkit was just like - hungry - hungryb-boys that just you know they want tomake their mark and shit so I feel likethat's probably what it was that causedsome weird beef you know probably likeyou know one of us lost to each other ata jam or whatever and then we took itsuper personally and just created avendetta or whatever you know I don'tknow any montage you listen just on arocky soundtrack oh gosh yeah I'm likerunning up the steps like you're likewell just engage damnoh ma I got a sweaty hoodie on with nosleeves on yeah you're running in likethese like horrible converse but I'mlike gosh I was like watching an oldschool basketball game like fuckingpeople playing like adidas superstarsand now we dancing themyeah yeah okay so um that's yourbackground as a photographer so I'mcurious like what got you into hip-hopoh so uh all right if you could kind ofsee this canvas here it's pretty bigit's a bye to my friend they're also ina 3d crew and I kind of grew up withthem in middle school and high schoolbut kind of like how like a lot of dancecrews I'll just a dude that hangingaround I thought it was cool so I nevergot into it as like deep as everyoneelse did but that's where I was justlike I was like it was a certain pointin the nineties where you you could heargood radio hip-hop music and then therewas a layer of underground does reallyrain laughing and then like you'relistening to rap where people who aretalking about like depression or likehow do you want to like viciously murdersomeone but to say so creatively or likehow much they hate this person and itwas just like oh my glue what are yousaying you got a reminded bag it wasjust like like this era of just likelike you have to really really dig orknow about it was like whispers it checkthis out dude it's the era of whenyou're walking down the street in likethe city and the dude walks up with likea Walkman and he's like hey yo you wantto listen to this hey you got to listento this thoughHey and then you're like nah bro I gotsomewhere to bebut you don't got anywhere to be you'rejust walking which is I ain't trying tolisten to that shit I'm trying to hearthat cash money millionaire yeah this iswhat the time when like you can actuallytrust people not necessary trust whensomeone got like a Hutton it's tape outof your trunk that's how to shortstarted in Oakland but nice shortwhiskey so there yeahyou were selling those I was like yo mancheck out like this is the dopest shityou listen to that a lot of Bay Areahip-hop and like some Sacramento havethought they just like just about italmost everywhere like one you have tohave a really good producer or DJ justset it up to for you to even like makethis stuff and hope to sell out yourstuff because it wasn't drugged itwasn't likelet me get some of that because Ialready knew what it was you took it andguess yeah and you have to realize thepeople be like this is what's up mmm andsometimes I mean like that's how it likesure not musicians are able to skirtlike having to have it distribute to therecord company I have like their teamjust they saw this as the mixtape willchange the production it's still my namebut it's like I get a hundred percent ofmy proceeds up instead of like like aquarter on every album myself thanks forinterviewing me I must be sweating up astorm and being well chopped be withyeah well hopefully the video is betteryou know once I edit this hopefully itturns out a lot better well yeah it wasgreat having you dudeI really hope this pandemic is over soonso we can actually do this in personbecause I'd much prefer that I don'tlike doing these video calls but yeahand yeah I just feeling the vibe too andthen also just like you know like I likeit when it's a little bit looser andthen we just like rift for a little bittooyeah yeah yeah yeah well so before weclose out do you have any last words orany shoutouts or any plugs I don't knowcheck out my Instagram pagethat's where you post all your photosand stuff yeah and one thing I want totell people it's like if you see manageam not doing anything gonna hit me upand just say hey can you take a pictureof us because that's the one thing Inoticed everyone always get a bunch ofthe cool shots but sometimes you alsowant memories too that you're like heyyou know whatthis was my first jam that I went withyou know my older crew mate that'straining me so you know those memoriesI mean sometimes it could be betterpreserved as opposed to having juststraight off your phone that you neverprint out anything yeahand he's talking mostly to thoseInstagram thoughts out there soalright man it was great having you onlet's get one moreowl to leave this show 1 2 3[Music][Music]you[Music] 

Rebecca Everett is currently composing and recording for TV, film, theatre, records and performing in Toronto and internationally Victoria bred and Toronto-based musical artist Rebecca Everett has a keen melodic sense, which is ideal for a working songwriter and composer. Bespoke songs crafted for scenes in film along with her orchestral background and cinematic feel is a perfect match for her songwriting and composition sensibility Since her relocation to Toronto, she's been busy co-writing and was an in-house writer for OLD. She collaborated with many different writers in Canada, the US and Europe. Some highlights are the radio single ‘I Remember' on Shiloh's JUNO nominated album ‘Picture Imperfect' and a song on Jimmy Rankin's, Forget About the World (JUNO nomination). Rebecca's songs have turned up on TV with placements on Degrassi: The Next Generation, Lost Girl, CH Live, CBC and Next Star and on many upcoming film releases Her most recent award was being granted a Residency with the Slaight Music Residency at the prestigious Canadian Film Centre for 2016 - 2017. The residency was a micro-lab of songwriting and composing for films by Canada's top, upcoming directors, producers and writers Rebecca's eclectic experience as a professional violinist, singer and multi-instrumentalist has brought a rich tapestry of sound in a diaspora of genres to her songwriting and compositions. Rebecca Everett Website Master Of Your Crafts is a conversational podcast with individuals who have and are working towards mastering a craft. They have harnessed and taken ownership of a gift, talent or skill that is so innate to them. We uncover the inner dialogue, actions and life circumstances, all combined in a deep conversation to offer you words of wisdom to empower and guide you to be your own Master Of Your Crafts.

Another episode in the books, this weeks path of discussion leads through the topics of garlic bread as the one and only entree, unexpected songs that make us want to punch stuff, stubborn fathers, and the two hosts also didn't forget to talk about I Remember you, by American rock band, Skid Row (as covered by The Ataris).

Here is our sermon "I REMEMBER" with pastor Rick McNeely at Christ Community Church, Murphysboro, Illinois on May 24, 2020, Memorial Day weekend. Come be a part of our service every Sunday at 10am on 473 West Harrison Road (on the corner of Route 127 and Harrison Road. This specific service was pre-approved by local government and recorded with very limited people and everyone staying in cars to keep to laws involving COVID-19. Have a wonderful Memorial Day!

Eric, a bboy and Hip Hop community contributor, sits down to discuss the importance of community and the creation of J.U.I.C.E. Follow @Instagram: noiseofthebrokeboysTwitter: BrokeBoysNoiseListen to the Audio on all Podcast platforms. All The Links Here: https://linktr.ee/NoiseOfTheBrokeBoysA broke degenerate hooligan documents conversations about being a Bboy, Breakin', Hip Hop, Dance, Art, Music, Creativity, Innovation, and the slow subtle crumble of society in audio form.----more----[Music]this episode noise of the broke boys isbrought to you by deodorantare you a large hairy purse paradingindividual with no regard for personalhygiene you attend social gatheringswith no self awareness of your ownpersonal body odors perhaps you're adancer that rolls on the ground for funallowing various dirt grime fungi andbacteria to collect on your grotesquebody if this is a constant struggle foryou perhaps it is a good idea to applydeodorant to your body before attendingsocial events such as your best friend'swedding or a family reunion no longerwill you cause scent inflicted faintingof others at the club you'll finally befree from causing your peers tospontaneously vomit at the first whiffof you get ready to make other dancersjealous of your new hygienic upgradeyattaman should not be used in lieu ofdaily bathing activities and othernecessary hygienic events do not use theordinary soap supplement or adjusted forrespiratory disease treatment and now onto the show in today's episode I sitdown with a b-boy I met when I moved tothe LA area about a year ago he is thepresident of juice an organization whoseaim is to support the local Los Angeleship-hop sceneI really respect the work they do pleaseenjoy this episode as I get to knowb-boy Eric hello everybody and welcometo the terrible trashcan talk show I amyour host Kurt rock ski and today I havea special guest his name is b-boy Ericjust you know government name he is thepresident of juice what's up man heyhow's it going thanks for having me yeahI'm glad you could comewhat I want to ask you because I don'tactually know what juice stands for butI like I just you know show up to youguys as practice and stuff and use yourfloor and everything so can you can youtalk to me a little bit about like whatjuices yeah so juice is an acronym Ialways tell people you know think aboutorange juice and theynever forget so say he's juice hip-hopand they go okay I remember looked thatup yeahbut juice is an acronym stands forjustice by uniting in creative energy soJu I see I'll say one more time it'sjustice by uniting and creative energyby uniting creative energy yeahinteresting okay yeah okay I think thatmakes sense yeah it's like yeah it'slike justice that's tight okay so thenum where are you the one who started itI know you're the president now but wereyou the one who started it or was it agroup collective or like how did thatactually fall into your lap yeah sothere's an interesting history of juicejuice has been around in Los Angelessince 2001 okay our founder she was amentor for incarcerated youth okay so Iwasn't the founder I kind of came inprobably earlier on in the existence ofjuice but still in this early stages butthe history of juice is that you knowwhen our founder was asking incarceratedyouth what could have made a differencein your life oh that was the bigquestion that she'd asked some of theyoung people that had made a mistake intheir life mm-hmm and just reflectingback on you know what could have made adifference they said you know you know Ireally wish I had a place that I can goto just a place that I could feel like Icould belong to yeah place that was safea place that I could feel that I wasaccepted for who I wasa place that did really interestingthings run by and for young people yeahspecifically hip hop arts not thetraditional YMCA or Boys and Girls Clubit's something that was more somethingthat I could relate to yeah and so whenasked that question you know those werethe items that our founder Don she saidyou know what if we had an organizationthat is in these underservedneighborhoodsthat could promote the free opportunityfor young people of any background tocome through to express themselvesthrough the hip-hop arts would not beamazing I mean well you know that couldmake you know life-changing things ifyou know these young people could havehad this opportunity in their life yeahso the history is over the yearsdawn formed a group of dancers to comeout and do festivals and get-togethersand this became a weekly eventeventually we ended up having a practicesession on Thursdays over on Vermont and8th Street in the Pico Union districtyou know specifically a neighborhoodthat had a lot of a lot of crime a lotof young people that you know probablydidn't have a path in their life but waseither in high school dropped out ofhigh school or was in transition betweenbeing a kid and being an adult and nothaving that path yet you know it's bestspecifically you know speaking with alot of the young people at juice theysaid you know I was a place in my lifewhere the streets were calling my nameyou know I just needed the house I needto make money you know I didn't have anoutlet but you know juice was a placethat I at least I can go to so we wereover on 8th in Vermont for a handful ofyears over time we moved to a coupledifferent locations and finally we endedup over at McArthur Parkstill in the same neighborhood at PicoUnion in the West Lake District and youknow we've been there since 2011 mmm2011 we became a 501c3 10:11 we did andwe decided to take that leap of faithand we had a fiscal partner before andsay hey let's let's go big and let'sfigure this thing out you know nothaving you know the specific road map weknew what we want to do we knew we weredoing something right we knew that therewas a need in the community and therewas just this huge following of artistsin the community that that came throughthe organization at one time in theirlives and hey you know what I metyou know my partner or I developed acraft in my in my art form because youknow there was a facilitator there thatjust kind of took me in under his wingor you know it just friendships developfrom here or you know it was the onething I could focus on in my life thatmade me feel like I could live again sowe knew were doing amazing work in thecommunity just you know in our capacityand you know our big thing was you knowlet's build a program that has you knowall the elements of hip-hop you know thethe four elements of em scene DJinggraffiti art and breaking and had thatall under one roof and and be able tohave a hip-hop collective where you knowhey I'm a graph writer but I also wantto learn how to be boy yes or you knowI'm a beat maker but I also you know Ilove I love graffiti art you know acrossyou know or I just I wanna learn how toDJ you know I've always seen these DJ'sout there so you know we were able tocreate an organization where we haddifferent facilitators that had aspecialty in their craft where theprogramming was it was unlike atraditional class or workshop programbut the idea was you know we wanted tocreate an organization that really kepttrue to the hip-hop arts where it wasjust really pure to peer teaching mm-hmmI think that was the key thing is iswhen you're able to work with youngpeople that feel the world is againstyou or just really not sure of places orpeople you know the best way to learnand the best way to develop friendshipsis really through that natural organicpeer-to-peer mentoring and where youknow doesn't matter where you come fromor where I came from you know we allcome from different backgrounds but wesee each other as friends as artists mmmand we're able to mentor each other ondifferent capacities you know it's it'syou know I always talk about you knowJuice is a place where you find peoplefrom all different backgrounds know somehave been educated and you know amazingIvy League schools or have amazingprofessions and some are just haven'teven finished high school but when wecome together it'swe share in this mentor of each otherand no one has seen as better than oneanother but we're all seeing each otheras friends and peers and I don't think Iwould have ever met the unique peoplethat I would have met unless it was forjuice because I just I would have neveryou know I think when we we get older wekind of have our own community andgroups that we connect with and so youknow for me you know my profession myday job you know I work in the city ofCalabasas you know a nicer neighborhoodyeah I work in commercial real estateand I deal with a lot of individualsthat are you know very savvy have beenvery well-off financially and then Itravel to downtown LA or the mid area ofLos Angeles and I and I and I connectwith people my age and older but stillyou know may be of a differentbackground but we connect on thisamazing level where I just I'm able toconnect and just feel a human again andand and live through these arts sothat's kind of the synopsis of juice isjust this community space where artistscome to it's free so anybody can kind ofcome through and find their own thingthere I've seen individuals that justcome just you know they see the b-boysand b-girls breaking in they just theyjust want to sit down and write andwatch and get inspired and you know Iget to know them and they'll go I didn'tknow you're amazing you know musician inthe Vocal Arts or something like thatya know I think it's important todevelop like a sense of community amongcreatives I mean I would say that a lotof times you know artists would maybethey I think it comes down to you knowpublic schools now don't really stressthe importance of creative arts and sosomeone who innately has this creativetendency in their life is somewhat likeshunned a little bit I think likesometimes they don't fit into school somuch and so that might you know go intohow widethey're you know feeling left outand so they don't have a community intheir typical day-to-day life and soit's important to find that communitybut you know I think once there see oncethey're seeing this they're like ohthere's so many people that are likethis and there they come from alldifferent walks of life and so I thinkthat it's it's such a great thing thatyou guys are doing this because it's ayeah it's a it's a great thing that isneeded in the community because I thinkit it's not it's not inherently in ourpublic school system and just in oursociety in general yeah you know it's Iover the years I've gotten to know a lotof young people that have been throughthe program and we always talk aboutsports in schools you know schools focuson traditional sports baseballbasketballmaybe soccer football but when it comesto the creative arts you know it's oneof those things that just it's notacademic in terms of scoring it doesn'thelp bring funding to our school sothose are things that are typicallydropped right away yeah and even thetraditional sports you know not everyoneis is laid out to to be excited or evenhave that natural ability within withincertain specific sports and so you knowwhat breaking does specifically I thinkit creates an avenue in an opening doorfor individuals that may not relate tobasketball football soccer and says heyyou know what but but breaking issomething that I can actively do and Ican learn how to do and I don't have tohave this natural ability to be you knowstrong or I don't have to be super tallto become Baska player you know and Ithink it it's the one one type ofactivity that I think anybody can beinvolved in and it doesn't cost youanything yeah and I think that's thegreatest thing it's you don't have tobuy uniforms you don't have to be partof a program that costs funds it's justyou know if you have space you have adesire you could do it wherever you wantya know that's what drove me to itbefore I was big into like martial artsand stuff and I just felt this likedisconnect between me and like a lot ofthe things the activities I was doingbecause it was always like oh you needto do it this way and this and I waslike I just want to do whatever the heckI want and so in a way I was like ab-boy before I even knew it breaking wasand once I stumbled upon breaking I waslike oh it's okay to do whatever thehell you want like it's encouraged infact if you're not doing thatit's discouraged you're you're a biterright so I was like man this is what Iwant to do this is like so fun it's youknow I love it because it's like anactive thing to do it's it keeps you inshape but you know it's encouraged tojust explore like different movementsand you can kind of make whatever youwant into something cool it's it's likeit's like taking you know a canvas andpainting and you just kind of turn itinto whatever you want that's how I lookat it and I had been a you know painterbasically my whole life before cominginto Breaking and so um it was like anatural thing for me to get into I meanobviously I needed to learn moves andstuff I needed to understand the colorpalette is what I could call it thecolor palette the techniques of how tohow to perform the dance but once Iunderstood that is like okay let me justput these pieces together in whateverway I can conceive of in my mind and Idon't know in its encouraged to do thatso I found that this is like what I wantto do this is I was like I say that Iwas like destined to be a b-boy you knowmy whole life really even though Ididn't know what breaking was until Iwas probably like 13 or something youknow so I think a lot of people probablyfeel the same way and a lot of peoplethat probably don't know what breakingis right now and so I I want to get themessage out to them that there is thiscommunity and I think that that's likethe mission statement of like juiceright and that you want to get thisthing out there so that people can cometo the community explore their differenttalents their different things buildtalents and you know ultimately becomepart of the hip-hop communityand do art together with us yeah I havean interesting story because I wasn't Iguess I wasn't I guess I wasn'tintroduced to hip-hop till much later onyeah I knew of hip-hop and you know Ilistened to hip-hop music mm-hmm but Ithink you know it didn't come till muchlater in my life where I reallyunderstood the true culture of hip-hopgoing back where I came from I I was agymnast growing up oh niceand so started when I was really youngdid it through college and my lastcompetition I was done oh I mean since Iwas probably five years old yeah Iworked out you know maybe five to sixdays a week three to four hours a daycompeted you know every other weekendand then one day it just it was I wasdone there was nothing left for me Ididn't have a desire to compete you knowany further I wasn't I wasn't at thatlevel either where I could go hey youknow is I could be in the top ten theUnited States I was you know I was I wasokay for where I was and and I had agood time doing it and I took a hiatusyou know I didn't even just stopped andI still kept in shape after I finishedschool I I moved to Japanmmm and I lived in Japan for about ayear and a half I always knew aboutbreaking but you know and I and Ibecause I was able to do some of themoves in gymnastics I saw you know breakdancers that time going oh hey that's athat's a that's a Thomas flare or that'sa team player and I was like yeah I wasdoing that when I was like six years oldyou know that's and so you know that wasthat came really natural to me I waslike get on my hands and I can do youknow an aerial flip you know that wassomething that I go yeah it's kind of inmy my bag of tricks you know so when Iwas in Japan I went to a universitythere had a relative that allowed me tokind of enter into a university justkind of as a spectator and okayit was really cool I stay there forabout almost half yearand I met this young man who was doing astyle of dance called tutting yeah infront of a glass mirror at theUniversity and I just went up to say heyyou know that's really cool yeah my nameis Eric and sure enough we just kind ofhit it off and he's like yeah I alsob-boy I am and so hey won't you comepractice with us yeah so he introducedme to his crew in Japan called chitinninja oh yeah yeah and then all of asudden you know this thing that I waspracticing since I was a fire his oldgymnastics all a sudden startedtransforming to a street dance and thenthat street dance became breaking yeahand then I started to go wow this isreally cool you know and and I just Ithink more so was just the need in thefeeling of being able to have a group tobe around and in just being able toexpress you know something that's verynatural in me in movement you knowgymnastics without perfection straightlegs and plenty of toes and eventuallyyou know it allowed me to just to go heywhat if I just bend my right knee andflex my front foot and just do somethingfunky you know and creating your ownpersonality through it but you know Ialready had that skill set at that ageand I was like you know this is reallycool but what I really learned is aboutcommunity and I think it was about thecrew aspect because I'd never had thatit reminded me about how I had a teamwhen I was in gymnastics and about someof the close relationships that I haveand it just allowed me to go how thiswould it feels like to be a crew andjust to share in and just yourexperiences with each otherpractice hard with each other eat witheach othershare stories with each other and justbe there for each other I felt that wasthat was kind of the opening up of whathip-hop culture was really all aboutyeah it's about that community and thatneed for belonging and just aboutsharing in your life so eventually youknow I startedaccessing learning about breaking andjust some of the basic fundamentals butyou know I was like I was always doingjust doing power moves I mean I didn'tlearn about the basic fundamental stepsoh thank godyou know what I was gonna do this nowand then see where it takes me but I wasreally into and eventually I came backto the United States and I was just kindof more aware about what you know Ilearned in Japan and they go gosh thismust exist here somewhere yeah yeah soone day you didn't even know you know soI was just you know cuz I didn't Iwasn't exposed to breaking I was exposedto a lot of hip-hop growing up and thenone day I was over at work and I heardthis girl talk about this place that isjust an open session yeah a lot ofreally dope b-boys and b-girls go dothey have an awesome MC program live DJthey have graffiti art walls I'm likewhoa so I just went up to her and sayhey I overheard you talking about thisplace can you tell me about it I'mreally interested it's just like yeahjust come follow me it's in LA yeah Iwas like okay and remind you so I grewup in the valley I was super suburbia Ohand I and I was living I think on thattime on the west side of Los Angeles soI was like oh la it's kind of dangerousout there isn't it yeah like I don'tknow you know um so I remember going outthere I was like where are we in LA cuzI never went to a Laker I've alwaysthought it was like a dangerous placeyeah I mean that's how sheltered I wasI'm growing up but you know sure enoughit was it was in it was in the heart ofLA and the minute I walked into juicethat one day I mean I felt this amazingfeeling over going wow there's so muchenergy here there's so many amazingtalented artists here and it's free andI just I was kind of in awe and I just Iwas just watching everybody collaboratetogether just people talking going wowthis is a place I really need to be atyeah that was my first experience and Ithink I sat down for the first 30minutes just watching cuz I was justlike wow there's just so much amazingthings going on here that's tight yaknow I I guess I probably have a similarexperience walking into one of the firstjams I've ever been to when I wasprobably 13right 14 13 14 I walked in and it's justlike all these people are just dancingbattling and I was like whoa okay atthat time I was like a skateboarder andyou know I was aware of like whatbraking was I could do a few moves orwhatever but I'd never been to an eventbefore and so I go in and I just seethese like top level guys but I didn'tknow who they were at that time but andI see them actually Rob Zilla was theirstuntman was their Cujo was there and Iwas like oh my god who's this guy justlike literally flying on his hands andand you know come to know it later it'slike oh that was Cujo yeah it just likeblew my mind to see that and thatthere's this huge community of you knowof b-boys because before that it waslike oh it's just some high schoolersthat get together in the lunchroom youknow at my high school cuz the janitorsaid we could be there until he comes inthere basically and so that's that thatwas breaking to me before that momentand so yeah it like hit me it hit melike a brick going oh there's this ismore than like what I'm what I thoughtit was you know it's more than justfreaking rolling around on the floorthis is like this is a real movement soyeah that's that's that's tightyeah was interesting you mentioned someof those names uh-huh stop man Rob Sillagood Joe because they've been aroundjuice since the very inception oh yeahand they they were actually very muchinstrumental and bringing together theorganization and the b-boy communitymm-hmm and so you know it's just amazinghow many b-boys and b-girls have beenthrough juice at one time in their lifeand have come through the doors you knowI always hear so many internationalvisitors come we go hey we heard aboutthis place in LA yeah and you have sucha long history of alleys you know b-boyswe used to watch on VHS tapes and noware on YouTube but this has been like aniconic spot where people have comethrough at least one time in their lifemm-hmm and so it's really cool to hearyou know how individuals from like JapanGermanyjust you know they'd say hey we're herewe want to take a picture of thisyou know Amazings yeah or a lot ofhistory has come from yeah yes is itreally it's always really encouraging tohear something like that yeah no I knewabout juice before I moved to LA I meanI had I probably known about it for along time I didn't know exactly what itwas but um it was like there was alwayslike a buzz around like what you knowwhat this is there's this thing out inLA and I had I only moved out here likemaybe less than six months ago and so Ihad no idea you know what I guess howdeep it was and so once I got here I waslike oh it's this is uh this is like areal like thing I thought it was justlike a dance studio or something youknow what I mean that had been aroundfor awhile but no this is like this isthis you guys have a whole freakinmission that you're trying to accomplishI mean you are accomplishing and so yeahit was just amazing to see that so thatand that's why I wanted to talk to youtoday so yeah um so you said you were inJapan about what age were you when youwere in Japan I was about 23 okay23 years old and so that's when youfirst got into breaking I thinkseriously okay taking it more seriouslyjust really training because before thatI mean you know I go to a party and Iwas like oh there's a circle here let meshow them how to do flares oh yeah yeahyou know so I kind of knew of did you dothe gymnast start where you're like yesI tried no I cuz I saw like I go thatlooks really corny if I'd you know do itlike like that I know you should havedone it you should have put on a wholeyeah and then just do it yeahbut but I would you know I would I wouldremember you know going to these likeevents where like you know a circlealways forms right and then you get homeyou know people going in there and doinga lot of like footwork and then all of asudden I go in there and you know atthat time of my life I was I was prettygood at gymnastics I was really in goodshape and soI was just doing like t flares yeah likeand then I was like super easy then I godried into like these flares where youknow it looked like gymnastics well Igot a funny story so the first time Icame to juice and I started to I startedget down and you know I started doingthese flares yeah there's a b-boy comesup to me and says gymnastics gymnasticshe knew right away because he goes youknow the way I did was like it was justyou know I was almost a splits - enginelike yeah like his flares were likepointed toes yeah you know and I wasable to do it in Reverse ways where elselike doing flares and spinning the otherway and yeah he pointed out right awayhe goesgymnastics so I always remember that andso yeah kind of go I go oh gosh it isthat obvious that's when you do abackflip and just do this yes yeah yeahthat's what I would have done but Ican't do that so but no yeah if I was ifI was a gymnast I would have totallyjust embraced it and been like most formperfect flares and then go yes and boomand you don't rip off your hoodie youguys it's hard underneath I don't know Ilike to mess around with stuff like thatbut that's tight so um so I guess whatage do you think you started breakingthen I like I think it was always partof me like gymnastics and they're likeshowcasing I always like to perform Ithink that was the aspect of somethingyeah and part of my lives were destinedto be a B so I would say seriouslyprobably around 23 24 I mean I didn'teven know what his sick stuff was I waslike yeah I just thought people ranaround like with I go oh there's anactual fundamental way to do this yeahyeah yeah and so I was like cuz I usedto pretend like you know just go oh Igot this you know and then you'rerunning around yeah and so it's funnynow because I a lot of young kids yeahand you know they always see what peopleare doing but they just run around withherand feet and thinking that's exactlywhat everyone else to do which is trueto a certain extent but I think you knowyou start to break it down you okaythere's an actual there's a formula tothis and there's usual hand-feetmovement that you know everyone learnsfrom mm-hmm yeah and I mean the bits andit's so deep - I mean there's like everylittle position you're putting your handand your foot is like a different movealmost I mean I have a whole thing aboutmy perspective of Fork but we don't haveto talk about that but so breaking soyou you always felt like you were kindof destined to be a b-boy you're a b-boyand a gymnast body I'd suppose and soyou came into it and you already had thearsenal as if you had been breaking yourentire life and just forgot to dofootwork or something yeah I gotta behonest I I didn't learn footwork tillmuch later on and then you know as youget older you know I think the powermoves become a little more difficultbecause it hurts your elbows or yourshoulders your wrists and so I mean forme like I even stopped doing playerslike five six years ago just because itwas just every time I did it I just ithurt my body a lot and so what I startedto do a little bit more was focus onstyle and just almost fundamentals andgo in the reverse way where I'm goingbackwards where I'm going all right Ican do these things that that you know Ican condition my body to not do so muchI guess power moves but I can go more tostyle and try to do what I can do withinmy age and and still feel healthyafterwards yeah yeah I mean I thinkthat's what's so great about breaking islike there's just it's such a branchingthing I mean there's so much I mean lookas someone outside looking in they'reprobably like I don't understand thisbut like when you go into it it's likeman there's so many things to learn thatthere's no way you're gonna learn it allin the your lifetime as a b-boy and so -taking pieces of everything and you canjust mix it in whatever way you want Ithat that is like so cool you know youryour style kind of develops as you agebecause of it like develops around whatyou're capable of in a way you know Imean like for me I started out doing alot of footwork then I started doingpower moves then I started injuringmyself and I stopped doing powerfulmoves and just started doing otherthings I started freestyling a lot moredoing more top rocks and you know otherlike flowy type of moveslots of transitions and stuff and then Idon't know now I'm where I'm at kind oflike dude like I can do moves but it'slike oh there's a risk to it I mighthurt myself so yeah one thing I loveabout breaking is is you know it's justthe the free flow of creativity I thinkcreativity comes from differentinspirations in your life mm-hmm andmaybe what you do outside of practice orthings that you see and I get a lot ofinspiration by watching other styles ofdance yeah and I love just you knowhouse dance or just different movementsand go wow that's really cool what if Iyou know you know create that movementin my top rocks and just be a little bitmore funky you know and yeah and I lovethat aspect of just being unique andjust developing your own style throughwhatever inspires you in lifeyeah I always got inspired by those oldlike corny kung fu movies that for somereason they were just so cool to seelike someone whooping the other dudesass and then he just like sits in somecrazy fries and he just you know hismouth moves and then it says somethingelse buddy oh dude my style is betterthan yours I always thought that thatwas the dopest thing ever and they wouldyou know I used to watch this one moviecalled the Buddhist fist a long time agoand this dude would just jump into thecraziest freezes and I was like dudethis guy's a b-boy like for reals he'sjust hitting I remember he hit thiscrazy like chair freeze on his elbow andhe's just pointing at the guy and he'sjust like talking shit like oh dudethat's loveand then you know he obviously gets upand whupped his ass or whatever but Ialways like that because it was just socorny but so dope yeah totallybut yeah the movement is so is so coolbut yeah just getting the inspirationanywhere I mean is is encouraged inbreaking in I think that that's theoverall I don't know message to be saidand and and why it resonates with me somuch and resonates with a lot of peopleyeah yeah so outside of hip-hop do youhave any other creative endeavors orhobbies in your life yeah so it soundsfunny but there's a couple things I liketo do one of them is scene karaoke mybrother are hell in the car I mean likewe're I'm not we're not good singers butdo you don't doubt yeah so that's one ofmy how would you say was one of mypassions I have a a singing group that Igo to every Wednesday oh dang so you'relegit and so we do karaoke everyWednesday and so I've been doing thisfor the last you know five or six yearsstraightthat's tight so I really enjoy thataspect of being creative but you knowsinging renditions of songs and in myown way what's your favorite song thisthing oh man you know that's a greatquestion I don't have oneyeah I would say you know all depends onthe crowd of like what type of musicthey like it okay and maybe that wouldbe like the song genre I would choosejust you know if if there was like awhole crowd of b-boys of what would youpick oh man it wouldn't be it wouldn'tbe a pop love song that's for suremaybe like a Bruno Mars song okay yeahjust something that has a little bitmore funk to it that what people can getinto and likeor whatever yeah 24-karat you know yeahyeah yeah just something that's likegroovy funky you know that people canall go yeah let's get down to the Hatokay so what about if it was like a likea senior citizen home yeah a seniorcitizen home well a funny thing youmentioned senior citizen home so one ofmy good friends right now what he'sdoing is he's going to different seniorcitizen homes and he's sitting upkaraoke at dude before that so andbecause it does a lot of things it helpsstimulate the mindyeah and whether they sing well or notit's it's the matter of readingsomething on television keeping you upand it justthey reflect on the past and I think youknow memory is a big thing with with youknow older folks and so there'ssomething there's something there's areally deep connection between singingthat stimulates the mind but also beingwith a read and do a little thing so theinteresting thing was I went to a seniorcitizen home and to join them in karaokenight yeahso they most of them probably won'trecognize you know anything that'sprobably from the 90s and on yeah unlessand they're like oh do you know likeDean Martin or something really old soone of the songs I sang just because Idon't really know a whole lot of reallyold songs I mean I seen a lot of Beatlessongs too but okay you know maybe somelike the Rascal Flatts like life is ahighway that just kind of is they maynot recognize it but the melody is kindof cool so they go they start to likeyou know maybe even dance to it a littlebit yeah yeah yeah that's tight so areyou like a pretty good singer in my mindI'm a pretty good singer but to otherpeople I'm probably just mediocre okayI've always wanted to learn to sing likeI've I've recently got pretty into likemusic production and I've like in mymind I've always been like oh I want tosing over these but I don't know I don'tknow how to sing I mean I kick I canfake it I do I mean me and my brotherwould always do karaoke and we we don'tdo it too often anymore but we used todo it literally like every week we wouldgo to this this Japanese restaurant inSacramento and we were just we would bethe only people doing it too and we werejust freaking take over the restaurantjust singingI don't know we would always sing likewelcome to the junglethose are tough songs yeah and those arereally hard hard songs to sing so I meanwe sucked at it so but um what was theother song I'd singI believe in a thing called love by thedark the darkness okay yeah that songwas all we were all about that one umyeah I don't know we tons of BackstreetBoys songs a shit those are classics youknow everyone knows some too so I was inJapan going back to that time period andI remember you know I would be new tothe location the area I didn't have anyfriends at that point I just knew youknow we have our days off you know fromwork because I taught English in Japanso you're doing like a jet program itwas it was a private school program okayand so on my days off you know like okayyou know what should I do there's allthese karaoke places all over the placebut I was like all right how does thisworkyeah I'm just gonna enter it so one dayI decided to go let me just check it outyou know and so I get there and it'slike yeah I like to sing karaoke this islike my broken English I make the brokenJapanese yeah and like one yeah just meshe's like I think they asked me likethree or four times like one just oneare you crazyand so I said yeah just me is that okayso and they did it by time so I rememberI would like jam you know like becausehe charged by hour so I invited her youknow and you have to order a drink -that's like their minimum oh okay so Iwould like pack and you know as manysongs like in and then do that and so Iremember going back to the class becauseI used to teach adults English hmm andwe were talking about karaoke and inthis one Japanese student of mine she'slike you know seeing karaoke by yourselfis like going to Disneyland by yourselfand running all the rides by yourselfthat's how weird it might be but I wasso into it I mean I loved it and I lovedbeing part of like a group sing karaokethat's a burnshe burned you pretty hook you know andthat's I guess it just kind of it waspart of something that I'd love to do isZ and I don't even know how to sing welllike I think in my mind I can sing okaybut in terms of seeing lessons and howto really resonate your voice and how todo it properly you know it's all beenself taught just like kind of somewhatlike breaking is but you know it's allbeen self talk you never took any voicelessons or anything never took anythingI've always thought about taking it Ijust don't have the time right now but Ithink eventually I'll probably do itjust cuz it's always been something Iwanted to learn right when I was youngerwe would go to my mom had us in likewhat is it called Sunday school and sowe would always we'd have to be a partof like a choir there so at a young agewe were learning how to sing you knowprobably through elementary school orwhatever and then you know and then Istopped doing that and but it always wasyou know I guess the little bit ofsinging lessons I had when I was youngerthrough that is it's really the onlything I've had but sometimes I'll watchlike youtube videos about how to likeuse your lungs better your diaphragmbetter I'm not a good singer though butit's something I definitely want to getgood at hey well you know what we got aset date and just bang it out you knowwhenever my brother has like a party athis house he has a little what's itcalled Magic Mike uh-huh and we justlike go off on it yeah so so I set up atmy placeuh-huh kind of this I have two Mike's ofa mixer and I have a karaoke programthat has tons of songs I just kind of gothrough that's things so I remembergoing to it was a juice offend we justall got together a lot of the staff andthe friends came by and my friend who'sa DJ yesyou're like because I brought the wholesystem over I brought my PA system themics the stands he's all like you'relike a DJ for care yeah because I waskind of likeall right next Sangha you know who is ondeck you know that's tight yeah dude Ialways was curious all right I alwayshad this weird idea that to do karaokeat a jam like while people are battlingjust have a deed I don't know how Iwould quite work but like you're playingmusic and then someone's up there justsinging like this song I don't know howit work quite like I always thought thatthat'd be so dope to make that happen itwould like totally lighten up the mood Ithink of a jam and that's I'm all aboutthat kind of thing yeah I I thinkbreaking away from the traditionalstructures that'll be interesting youknow one aspect about jams I love is youknow live music I mean gosh just havinglive music is so different it's so coolI remember going to one of Jeff's killsevents and it was awesome this had afull-on live band just going off youknow for a handful of songs and you knowit was just really cool just have thataspect of it like it was a concert yeahit feels like it and it you know andthey're just like a lot of times I sawit would be like the DJ is playing theirmusic and then this live band would justjump on and just put a bass line orwhatever you know and I always thoughtthat was tight they'd hit the drums andstuff they yeah kind of play along withit yeah we did a couple of jams over atthe park where we brought in drumsetsaxophone and we had two DJ's justspinning at the same time and usingother instruments along yeah it justreally created a different vibe and Ithought was really cool yeah yeah itcreates a concert vibe and it's it's notit's not even like you had an entireband or like you know they they had likea whole set that they were doing it wasjust some guys just playing you knowplaying to a song that's already existedthis is probably how they practice to behonest and so they were just like heyI'm down with this doo doo doo doo dooyou know playing that junk and theneverybody loves it so I I actually met afew drummers recently and I was like ehis this the kind of is this like how youpractice because this is like somethingthat b-boylove you know b-boys and b-girls loveand so if you ever wanted to just go toa jam or something or a practice evenand just jam out like it would bedefinitely yeah I I would invite thattoo to just like you know let's justspring out some congas and just havesome beats and just just freestyle itand just you know bringing other friendsjust want to have really cool rhythmsand just jam out to itbecause I love the diversity ofdifferent types of music as long as ithas like consistent beat that people areinto what's your favorite style of musicactually so what I listen to I listen tothe top 40 music oh you do okay I doalright and I think some of that comesbecause you know when I start to singkaraoke oh yeah that those are the songsI go okay those are kind of popular nowbut there's certain songs I go I reallylike that type of song yeah it's itdoesn't have to be all male singers tolike there there there there are TaylorSwift songs there's Halsey songs thatI'm into that I go okay that really hasa really cool melody and a beat I'mgonna sing the guy version of it okayyou know and a different key yeah but Ilisten top 40 but then you know when Iwhen I break and so forth I mean and Ican't listen to just the remixes and yesI'm a you know great funk and R&B thatjust is out there when when when anybodyasks me that question I always have ahard time answering it because I I canliterally find a song in any genre thatI like you know and so I mean maybe theanswer to the question is like whichJohn are do I find the most songs butthere's some John Rose I just haven'tyou know dug so deep into but I just Ijust love music like you know all hereI'll hear something weird that I'venever heard before and I'll go like okayI don't quite understand this yet butlet me give it a try and I you knowsometimes I'll get into it I'll go likeoh okay I see what they're trying to dobecause it's not it's not always justabout a lot I mean a lot of time there'sthey're trying todo something different musically andit's maybe just not understood at thattime because it's so different and Imean it's just it's fun to like breakdown what they were creatively doing intheir music yeah so and that that's whatI think is so fun about music and why somany different styles of music likeresonate with me and so yeah I like tolisten to some of the weird likeexperimental stuff that like doesn'teven have like a you know a steady beator anything because even that stuff yougood like you you want to break downlike what the heck is going on and it'slike it's so cool like once you startfiguring it out yeah and I think gettingmore into music production has helped mekind of break down music a lot betterinto so but yeah I don't know I you knowwhen I was younger I was really intolike rock music alternative you knowlike Nirvana the Third Eye Blind guysmmmthings like that Rage Against theMachine I was really into and then lateron I started getting more into hip-hopthat got more into like soul music funkmusic and stuff namely from breakingjazz music got a little bit into likecountry music recently I've been intolike mumble rap actually okay yeah a lotof people have like a kind of weirddisdain for it which at first when Iwhen I first heard I was like oh what isthis stuff and I kind of gave it a tryfor a while and then I started realizingyou know mumble rap is like thisgeneration the this generations way ofbeing like counterculture you know I'vetalked to a lot of people about thisactually on this podcast but hip-hop hasalways been like a somewhatcounterculture thing they want to dothen something new that no one else hasdone and like I really feel like that'swhat the mumble rap scene was all aboutwas like let's make music but we're nottrying to copy what these guys didbefore us let's do something new youknow much like punk how punk music theywould scream and you know kind of have ainaudible like noise almost I feel likethat's what momis doing and I've always liked punkmusic and so when I when I realized thatconnection to counterculture and likethem doing something different I reallygained like a huge respect I guess forit and I don't know yeah I think hip-hopis is very much you know that outletit's that it's that counterculture it'sit's creating something you always sayfrom nothing but you know it's reallyyou know having having that creativenesswith what you have yeah you know and andI think it's just it's a really uniqueway of expression you know I look backas to the evolution of hip-hop becauseyou know hip-hop culture has beenchanging over the years and I think itchanges I think as we come to the newage is what's what people you know gothrough in their lives kind of reflectthe outcome of how they express himselfyou know I think a lot of times peoplehave hip-hop and the culture kind ofconfused in some sense especially ifyou're not really involved in thecommunity to see what it's all about youknow that was one of the topics ofdiscussion is you know what is hip-hopright and I think people always go wellyou know hip-hop is is rap music yeahit's a style of dance yeah and I thinkthere's some type of you know disconnectbetween what is what is authentichip-hop you know so people go what iship-hop and what every time I and Iexplain hip hop to others that may nothave been involved in the culture righttell them it's about it's aboutcommunity it's about respect and loveit's about bringing you know positivityto to the worldit's about belonging family and andthese are all the the items that kind ofform what we call hip-hop today and soyou know what we try to do over at juiceis to kind of keep those core valuesabout having respect for everyone youknow it doesn't matter your backgroundand your race your color your talentanything you know everybody is welcomein hip-hop yeah and you know that's oneof the things that you know we prideourselves just to make surethat you know we want to make sure thedoors open for everybodyyeah hip-hop to me is like a lifestyleit's a it's a culture it's a lifestyleand it's um it's not it transcends Ithink all of the the you know the fourelements the four typical elements wetalked I think it I think it's um it'sit's much more than that it's it's alifestyle it's a it's a whole cultureand it's ever-growing I wouldn't besurprised if later on we start sayingthat there's five elements of hip-hop orsix elements of hip-hop you know what Imean and I think it's just because thebubble is growing more and we're likeyou know as more people getting involvedwith it where we're actually figuringout more about like what this all whatthis all is and and so you know I thinkin the next couple years we're gonnaprobably see more and more peoplegetting involved with it namelyyou know breaking is now gonna be in theOlympics so I think it's gonna open alot of people's eyes to what we do andso I wouldn't be surprised if there's aninflux of new b-boys you know coming inand trying to learn what hip-hop is andso I think having a good definedcommunity for them to and welcomingcommunity ready for them is like reallythe best way to handle that because it'snot you know this is a welcomingcommunity and so we wanna we want tomake that apparent you know when whenthat happens I don't know I don't knowif you have anything to say about thatit's yeah I'm you know breaking breakingis always meant to evolve over time withwhatever's going on in the world orwhatever's happening in our community alot of people ask me you know what doyou think about breaking in the Olympicsyeah and you know I think it's part ofits course you know I think breaking isalways meant to evolve hmm I see a lotof great things with having breaking aspart of a larger community yeah andpeople being exposed to something that'sreally importantI think what's important is to make surethat the information about what hip-hopis and what the true culture is is alsoexplained yeah and that there's rightpeople that are able to be part of youknow getting that information out topeople that may not know a lot abouthip-hop a breaking I think that's areally important figure to make surethat you know whatever the OlympicCommittee decides to do is to make surethat there's they keep that authenticityof the culture yeah yeah I was talkingto my friend Serge yesterday actuallyabout all this and he's like he's veryadamant about portraying hip-hopcorrectly like he really wants people tounderstand there's like a lot of I guessa struggle that was you know kind ofbaked into hip-hop and that he does hewants when people come in he doesn'twant to shoo them away or anything hewants to welcome them but then also likeeducate them about what this is and thatthey're not just coming into it as youknow just for the good I guess but butunderstanding everything about it youknow the history of it and that maybethere was some bad parts of that youknow namely that there's maybe some kindof oh you know it's kind of built out ofyou know the ghetto it's built out ofpoverty it was built out of you know abasic struggle in life and to get towhere it is now and so coming into ityou got to respect that as well and sothat was that was one of the main thingshe was he he wants to portray as youknow the scene evolves so which I whichI respect I think that's a that's a goodthing to do you know to always respectlike your history but also welcome inthe evolution of it so well anywayswe're hitting about an hour right now soI think we could probably wrap this showup do you have any lessbest words anything else I know wedidn't really talk about like a crewaffiliation or anything do you have acrew affiliation so I don't I don't havea crew affiliation I guess I get niceyou know there is a juice crew out therehere but oh is that yeah you gonnabattle fit yeah I mean they're prettygood but uh okay yeah I you know I Ilook at you know the evolution of alsojuice and where it has been where it'scome to and you know part of what wewant to continue to do is is build thismodel that we have is free spaces foranybody to come through to be able toexpress themselves in all areas I mean Ithink if you ask me you know what iswhat do I see in the future of juice andI go gosh I could see juice in in everycitycross country across the seas having alocation all over just a place wherepeople can come to to express themselvesutilizing the hip-hop arts as a tool forsocial change empowerment mm-hmm youknow arts education and just changingpeople's lives yeahso we're our future and our hope is tocontinue to do what we're doing continueto grow continue to build new teammembers but also establish new locationsacross you know different areas and yeahthat's what we're trying to do is is isorganically grow you know we've beenworking with the city in the county ofLos Angeles we have different locationsthat we could possibly open up but Ithink what's holding us back right nowis just the ability to staff and alsofinance some of those locations becauseit is a free program so a lot of thingsthat we do you know it's all either bydonations or individuals that reallybelieve in what we do and so you know ifwe have one of those you know wonderfulfunders one day that says hey you knowhow do we really help you guys reallytake this thing offyeah thing that could really change whatwe do and I think you know as we gettowards you know more popularity withthe Olympics and just the media and soforth you know our hope is to be able toalso maybe even ride thata little bit and you know grow what wedo yeah I would imagine there's probablya lot of opportunity for grants outthere I mean there already is but Ithink maybe as there's more popularitythere's there's probably more willing ofthe you know of these organizations andthe government to you know give you guysgrants to do what you do especially ifyou have a well-defined message and planyou know to execute it so I think youknow my mother she's a in art she's anartist in it and a teacher and so shewas doing a lot of similar kind of workin Sacramento where she was gettinggrants to do these well it was like it'slike a it's like a program it's ahealing program through art is I guessthe best way to describe it it's whereshe was she had um women who were youknow subject to abuse or whatever andthey came in did artwork to kind of likeas a therapy and so she was the teacherand organizer the director I don't knowall that stuff so she was doing all thegrant writing and everything to put thisprogram on and so she did that for avery very long time now now she'sretired but okay she still kind ofteaches a little bit but um but yeah Iimagine I mean cuz there's a need for itand so it's it's I imagine that there'stons of grasses right now what we'redoing is collaborating with largerorganizations yeah so we're gonna beworking with LAUSD and after-schoolenrichment programs we're finishing upour contract with them and we have aschool that we're specifically gonna dofree braking programs yeah and thenwe're gonna work with anotherorganization in the location that we'rewith that's already you know a prettywell-known youth organization andincorporating something hip and coolinto their program for some of theiryouth mm-hmm and then you know one ofthe other ideas that we're doing rightnow that we're working towards isopening up another location for juice onSaturday at the same time that we haveour program and being able to teach kidsand families specifically new tobreaking oh cool and so we have alocation already determined for thatand once again it's about staffing andI'm probably gonna end up doing thatportion of just kind of going with itand just seeing where it leads us yeahlike everything you know we try thingsand sometimes we learn from them and weget better at it yeah yeah well I thinkthat you're doing some amazing work andyou know I'm glad to hear that it'sgrowing and that you have big plans forthe future so stay tuned and I'd love tohave you back if you ever have time tocome and talk to more stuff do somekaraoke yeah dope dude so do you haveany like social media to shout out orwhatever I don't know yeah so you canfollow us on a juice hip-hop I would saylike orange juice so juice and hip hopthat's our that's our or handle so comefollow us yeah we're over at MacArthurPark every Saturday from 12:00 to 4:00and then cell is our Park in East LA onFridays from 6 to 8 p.m. free foreverybody free for everybody even meyeah dope cool thank you for for comingon dude this has been a great time Ithink this was a great episode I'mreally happy that you were able to comeand thank you guys for listeningall you zero listeners though sorry theshow 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Welcome!   We have a lot of technology in the news this week.  I will give you my take on the monitoring that the government is doing and why.  We will discuss contact tracing and how Big Tech is trying to come up with a solution.  What is this 5G conspiracy that is being bantered about and why is Amazon having delivery issues.  Linksys and Zoom are having problems and I will tell you what you need to do. And we will wrap up with China and US and what can be done about intellectual property theft and spying.  So sit back and listen in.  For more tech tips, news, and updates visit - CraigPeterson.com --- Automated Machine Generated Transcript: Hello, everybody Craig Peterson here on WGAN and, of course, also heard every Wednesday morning at about 730 with Matt, as we discuss the latest issues of the day. And in fact, that's what we do here every weekend as well. So I do want to welcome you guys who some of you might be new. Some of you have been listening for a while now. I'm trying to remember when was my first time at this station. I've been on the air now for more than 20 years, 25 years, something like that long time. And I always have enjoyed it. And I enjoyed talking with you guys, too. We've had about six or eight calls. I think this week, and we've been setting aside time for people who are having problems with the computers, whether it's kind of work at home situation, maybe it's a small business, just help Send them out helping them understand what's up. So shout out to all you guys. I think the winner this week was Linda, and we spent Wow, an hour and a half, two hours with her trying to help with a few things. She had some questions about emails, and you've been having some problems for about two years now. And so we spent some time going over that with her. Elahh, one of our texts, also one of my daughters, was gracious enough to spend the time with her. And I know Linda appreciated it. And it can get frustrating. I understand that too, is funny because Elahh was saying that, you know, from time to time to Linda was getting a little hot under the collar, but that's understandable. I do that too with computers because they just can get so frustrating. So hey, I get it. I understand. And we also had an email go out this week, and you should have received that. Offering if you wanted help, and you could schedule free calls. You could get any information you wanted to get my earballs and eyeballs if necessary to look at your screen, depending on what's going on. So that's a little bit of what I've been up to this week. We also finished up I did not do any webinars this week. I'm planning on doing some Facebook Lives next week. Maybe some webinars as well depend on how it all goes. And on training, right, we're getting into the basics again, helping you guys out with completely free stuff. I'm going to be redoing my webinars and kind of explaining all of the stuff you need to know, not you know, we're not getting geeky on this. I'm not trying to turn you into a computer expert. But understand modems what they are your routers, your Wi-Fi, your firewalls, your Windows computers with the updates, what's an upgrade How about the patches going through VPN And the major risks of VPN, and when you need to use them when the appropriate time is to use them. And I'm also thinking about maybe putting together a little series for businesses that are starting up, trying to be optimistic here, right? We're starting up again, and we're getting back into the swing of things. And that means there are some things you have to worry about the machines where they shut down properly, how to get them back up and running, do you need to go in and update some of the software, maybe replace some of the just antivirus with real advanced malware protection and all that sort of stuff? So I might be doing that as well. I'm kind of thinking that, and I was talking with my team this last week about trying to do that to be optimistic and help businesses get back going again because I think we're going to have some serious problems. I think that well, frankly, I know that some people have lost their jobs or a friend of mine was saying that a friend of his I just found out that he's not going to be rehired when the business reopens because he had been laid off. And of course, this whole payroll protection plan, frankly, is a scam. It's just crazy. What the Federal Government did, they would be better off giving every family in this country a check for $60,000. Of course, that would not Greece or pockets, would it? And that would help a lot. A lot. Instead, they're spending about $60,000 per family, the spending that money on banks who are already liquid, they can go to the capital markets. You've heard about the public companies that have gotten some of this money. How about the major universities that have multiple 10s of billions of dollars in endowments that got it? And yeah, I'm a little bitter about this because I didn't get any of the money. I applied. I got nothing, nothing. I got an email a couple of weeks after I applied it saying, Well, you know, we need this. We need that. Well, wait a minute, I was supposed to get this, this instant $10,000 loan to help me stay on my feet. So this friend of mine, they got laid off, right? Then even on the PPP, you're given two months' worth of payroll, and you have to keep these people on the payroll for about four months. Well, how can you do that if the government's not letting you make money? If it's not letting you bring people into your restaurant or send people technicians out, whatever it is that you do cut hair, right? You can't you, but you know this already, right? Because this is happening to you. Look at the stats in Maine, and they say okay, well, we helped all of these, you know, these 10s of thousands of companies. Well, maybe they did, but I can tell you from people I know and my personal experience that it hasn't hit any of the pockets of the real small businesses. I haven't even gotten that. The so-called 1200 dollar stimulus check from the Federal Government. It's insane. How many weeks that we've been locked down now? It's what about six weeks? It is not good. It is not fair. It's going to be hard to come back. My friend was saying that his friend found out they're not hiring him back, which is going to be the case for many people. What happened? His friend hanged himself. Yeah, think about that. Think about all of these other consequences. It's the typical thing with the government, right? You've got people highly focused on this pandemic, and what should we do? They are extremely highly focused because last October, there was this major meeting, where they've been getting together and talking about global warming and what we need to do to save the universe. 1000 years from now. And of course, we know just how good these models are that they use for global warming. And I've never really talked about it here. I've talked about it on my other radio shows in the past, I've had the guy who founded the Weather Channel weather.com on, and it's just absolutely crazy how bad those numbers are. But we can't even get the models, right when it comes to a virus that's right in front of us, where we have some real numbers. Okay, well, maybe the numbers coming out of China weren't that wasn't that good. Perhaps those numbers were fake. Maybe, you know, we can't trust them. That's fine. Well, how about Italy? How about all of Europe, the numbers are coming out of there. How about our numbers we're still not getting it right. Remember the initial model talking about millions dead in the United States, a couple of hundred thousand dead over in the UK. We're not even getting get close to that. We're not also going to be close to the UK number that was predicted. And then it's revised down, and it's revised down and as revised down as writes down so we've got these people who are focused on what they learned last year, about pandemics and what the response should be based on this, all of this quote-unquote science. And they, of course, you know, we haven't had pandemics like this to deal with, so in reality, it's a theory, and they have the models which are in reality theory. And all of those models said Oh, no, we're going to have a lot of people that unless we go ahead and quarantine people, we need this social distancing is what they've been calling it. And so a lot of states that Okay, everybody has a social distance you have to get out you have to Oh, my goodness. And you look at the exact opposite look at Sweden and what's happened over there and was Sweden did none of this stuff, they didn't quarantine, they didn't shut down their businesses. People were still sitting in cafes, sipping their coffee, having a pleasant afternoon, and that that springtime sunshine outside, doing everything they wanted to. And it's about the size of Michigan and Sweden has had fewer deaths than my lot fewer deaths than Michigan. And you know, in Michigan, what they did with all of their lockdowns over there. It's it is nuts. These models are, at best, a guesstimate. And there they were saying okay, well we need to do is kind of get rid of that peak because our hospitals aren't going to handle it. Have you noticed how hospitals now are looking to, and some have already not only declared bankruptcy but closed their doors because they are not full. They're not full of Coronavirus cases. They shut down all the elective so-called optional surgeries and other things, right. We haven't gone to see the doctors. How many people's lives were saved the numbers the stats look like this was one of the worst I don't know the flu just a regular flu year even not particularly bad, but that's not what all of these projections said that's not what this just tickle model said. Right? Right. I remember playing the game of life well is you don't play it but writing some of that code, seen it on the computer way back when back in the 70s, it would have been and mid-70s. I was just so impressed with it, and it shows how a cell will replicate you know and replicate and how it will expand. That's about the only I've seen that's correct. So we can't get our models right for COVID-19. We still don't have them, right. We're again revising them. Now they're saying that we could have another resurgence this fall maybe even worse than what we had this year. At the same time, some of these same people are saying, Hey, we're all going to die. Because what was it five years ago or ten years ago, by then we were by 2010. We're supposed to be underwater in Florida, right? You just can't trust it. People are dying. People are losing their jobs. And so we're looking at it saying, what can we do to help businesses get back? Anyways, stick around. That's enough, belly aching for me. We'll be right back here on WGAN. Of course, I'm Craig Peterson. We'll be getting into the tech stories of the week. So stick around. Hey, welcome back, everybody. Craig Peterson here on WGAN and online at Craig Peterson dot com. We are talking today about some of the latest technology as we do every Saturday and Wednesday morning. On Wednesday morning, it's at 738, and on Saturdays, we're on from one end till three. Well, we're going to talk right now about this news surveillance program that's out there. And the whole idea behind this is to map the spread of the Coronavirus. At least that's the rumor, right? A great article you'll find@medium.com about this, but Coronavirus is being used to drive brand new surveillance programs around the world. So let's talk about a few different countries what they're doing. And I've gotten a little bit of a concern we'll talk about later in the show today, about maybe something like that. Patriot act, as we had after 911, that gives the government all kinds of new powers and they may go unchecked, which is a concern for me, particularly looking at the statistics as we know them so far, which is that this isn't just a horrific, horrific thing. It's terrible. It's awful when anybody dies, but it happens every year with the flu too. So we'll see where it all comes out. But we were just talking about the last segment. The whole thing about the models is just ridiculous. Well, in Argentina, their Ministry of Health has built a mandatory app for anyone entering the country, and you have to keep it installed for 14 days, and that requires users to give access to their GPS position. Now, it's not clear if Argentina is keeping track actively of the people with that location data about apparently the province of Santa Fe is Forcing those who have violated the quarantine to download an app that tracks precisely where we are. We're talking about Argentina here, as well as many other countries is that they are putting one of those trackers on you as though you'd been convicted of a crime which bugs me, frankly, Australia. Yeah, and everything down there is trying to kill you, including the Coronavirus. Now those ordered into quarantine could have government surveillance devices installed in their homes or be forced to wear electronic surveillance devices, and that's a new law that went into place in the state of Western Australia. But the Australian government has opted not to use cell phone-based tracking Austria. The Australian telecom con gave two days' worth of anonymized location data to the government to analyze movement in the country. And this is something that I've been saying that governments are doing worldwide. They're asking the cell phone companies that you know, the providers to give them location data, and anything that's anonymized pretty much can be D anonymized. And think about that, think about how easy that is. So if the government has your home address, and they see that person 1750, it is of that place every night, well guess what they can guess who you are, and then they know where you travel, etc., etc. So anonymized location data is ridiculous rain. They've got electronic braces that connect to a mobile app. And this is something similar to what Hong Kong has done. Belgium, they've been hit the worst in Europe when it comes to per capita cases and deaths. But three telecoms over in Belgium are giving data to a private company, and they're analyzing the information and trying to detect Widespread trends of movement in the country. Now they're using drones to make an announcement. But they can also be using the devices to capture surveillance footage. That's according to the top VPN digital rights tracker, Brazil. Let's get into the socialist countries here. Local governments across Brazil are tracking locations from citizens' smartphones. And one city receives alone is tracking 700,000 people's location through their devices. And that's one of Brazil's smaller metropolitan areas. And quote here from one of the Brazilian firms that are doing some of this stuff, we have visibility of specific behaviors that couldn't be captured by other technologies. For example, if an individual leaves their house, we can detect that in a matter of seconds. And then, of course, that ends up in the government's hands China, another socialist country. They're using practically every surveillance system in their toolbox. Publicly located cameras there you go running facial recognition searches, citizens are location tracking through their phones. Drones are being used to give directions from the government. Can you imagine that having a drone over your shoulder yelling at you? We've seen that over in China where they chase you back to your house. The Government in China is socialist, also tracking individuals more than 200 cities through a smartphone app that grades are health and assigns them a classification of green, yellow or red this according to New York Times socialist newspaper, the app sends that data to the police. It works as a hall pass for entry into certain public places, and that has been proposed here in the United States. As well that you can have a little Hall Pass, to let you board planes and go to work, etc. and China, of course, is putting pressure on private companies in the country to hand over data to China. Dubai, I don't know they're, they're a monarchy kind of a, you know, I don't know it's not quite socialist. It's undoubtedly addicted, dictatorial. They're using cameras. And by the way, one of the significant ways they make money in Dubai is these amazingly high fines for speeders. Still, this case, they repurpose the cameras from catching speeding motorists to analyze driver's license plates and determine if they are deemed, essential workers. Ecuador is tracking cellphones. Germany, which is starting to open its businesses, in fact, this week, they started opening while their telecom company they're big firm over there called telecom is providing location data from its customers to the Robert Kok Institute. And that's the organization coordinating their national action against Coronavirus. Now Germany did something right upfront. That was wonderful. I think they went immediately to the private sector and Germany said hey, listen, guys, we're going to need tests so come up with some tests figure out how we can do this how we can do testing quickly. Whereas here in the US where we don't have the private companies right up front getting involved in at CDC said we're the only ones that can do this. We are at let us do it. We're, we have a monopoly on testing. And we don't like those tests because they have 40% negative rates and you know, false positives, false negatives and, and you have to have everything come through us, right, which is a very socialist thing. And, you know, we don't live in a truly capitalist country anymore. We're at best, it's crony capitalism, but in Germany, they did the right thing. They got companies involved right away to figure this out to analyze the data. They weren't relying on a non-reviewed report out of the United Kingdom, to base all of their analysis and projections on. So they're also expected to launch a Bluetooth based app like those that are used in Singapore and Indonesia right now. They've also got a smartwatch app over in Germany, Hong Kong, those quarantines have to wear special electronic wristbands that track the locations are handed out the airport and must be paired with the individual's phone. And then, once they arrive home, they're given one minute to walk around their apartment to calibrate the wristband and the company app to space where they are confined. India oh my gosh, talking about a country that could have problems. They have expanded their programs to track citizens through both digital and analog means They using location data. They're using closed-circuit television footage to track citizens in the southern Indian state of Kerala. According to Reuters, some western states, are stamping the hands of those arriving in airports, with a removable ink stamp detailing the date until which the person must quarantine. They're also taking passenger information, primarily airlines and railroads. Now, the touch base authentication, like fingerprint scanners, are risky, because they require people to touch a surface. They're getting a real boost in facial recognition over in India. So stick around, we'll come back. We're going to go through a few more countries what they're doing, and then we'll talk more about what's going on here. Yeah, Craig Peterson has some concerns. You are listening to WGAN. I will be right back, so stick around. Hey, welcome back everybody Craig Peterson here on WGAN, and I had on some good old Herb Alpert, remember him? The Taste of Honey was the one playing during the break. How is that for fun? Man, I haven't listened to Herb Alpert in a lot of years since Well, the 70s, right? I Remember the album's cover and that this particular one was somewhat controversial. Look at the Beatles, all almost all of their stuff was initially done in mono, and then they remastered it into stereo. Some of the purists are pretty upset about that. So we're kind of going through what different countries in the world have been doing when it comes to this Coronavirus. And, you know, we'll talk about the US as well, but there is a trend. I hope you notice seen Indonesia, they've got an app that tracks interactions with nearby Bluetooth. Okay? And it has it is by the way in Indonesia, it's an often and it does help you if you want to notify people who might have been exposed so they can get tested Iran. In contrast, they haven't had as many deaths, because they've just been shooting people in the streets. Well, that is according to a classmate of one of my sons who is living in Jordan, right now. The smartphone app developed by the Iranian government scooped up millions of users' location data, alongside a short questionnaire that claimed to detect the likelihood of infection. And notice about the app was also sent to 10s of millions of Iranians with the director to take the questionnaire before going in for Coronavirus test. At least 3.5 million people, according to Iran, are using this app. Israel government. They are Using data from their telecom providers here telecom, track the location of their citizens. And those people, by the way, who braved quarantine in Israel are facing up to six months of imprisonment. So there you go. They're also using this data they're getting from the telephone companies to track people and potentially quarantine them. In Northern Italy, Vodafone, you might have heard of these guys, this is an English telecom provider. Vodafone also has a presence in Italy. They are providing the Italian government with heat maps, which means general details as to the number of mobile phone users locations. They started over in Lombardi, Italy, of course, that was a bit of a hotspot, and officials do Chairman 40% of the people in Italy are moving around far too much. According to The New York Times, Kenya, they've got aerial surveillance of the border to detect illegal crossings. Norway, the Norwegian Institute of Public Health and Norwegian tech companies, simultaneously built a voluntary app that tracks GPS Bluetooth data to be stored for 30 days. In Pakistan, through location surveillance and mass texts, the Government of Pakistan is tracking confirmed cases Coronavirus. Sending alerts to people found to potentially come in contact with them in the past 14 days is not a bad idea. Poland has an app called home quarantine, which is requiring Polish citizens who are quarantine to check in immediately and intermittently check-in by sending a picture of themselves at home with 20 minutes or within 20 minutes or face to find. So all of this is from the medium you'll find a lot more data. Tell them just kind of rushing through it. Russia has more than 100,000 cameras are in Moscow. And the Russian government is using facial recognition and phone-based tracking to monitor people under quarantine. Local governments in Russia are also kind of doing their own thing. Singapore, very, very socialist authoritarian, really government there. They released an app called trace together pings nearby smartphones through Bluetooth to determine who's come within six and a half feet of each other for more than 30 minutes. That's according to the LA Times, and they record the data they stored for three weeks supposedly and don't record the user's location. South Africa, again, telecom companies, South Korea, they've had an interesting response. You've probably heard about them what they've been doing there. In South Korea, the confirmed cases of Coronavirus are being tracked in using a bunch of different data, collected through data mining. They're taking credit card purchases, smartphone location tracking, closed-circuit TV footage, analyzed by facial recognition. So the Korean government can then reconstruct where a person's been that was diagnosed, and they have just incredible granularity. Like using the person's location data to check the closed-circuit TV footage, see if they were in a mask, etc. Switzerland and they're colossal telecom companies. Swisscom is alerting the federal government when more than 20 phones are located within 100 square meter area. One of my sons has a girlfriend over in Sweden, and they are not doing anything over there. The numbers are fascinating. So we'll see what ends up happening there. Taiwan's government is denying that it's adopting surveillance technology to track citizens' movements, but that is what's happening. Thailand. If you're arriving there from a high-risk area, you're going to get a SIM card for your phone that lets the government track you for two weeks. In Turkey, they are monitoring locations of patients using cellular data and sending messages to them if they should quarantine. The UK is allegedly talking with telecom companies to track citizens' location data. National health servers or services partnered with planets here to track the spread of the virus in the good old United States. Yes, indeed. The mobile advertising industry is the one that's doing the tracking here. They've been supplying data to local state and federal organizations about the location of individuals. And that's according to The Wall Street Journal. Because it's advertising data, they want to know, very, very fine-grained data. So for instance, if you go to Gold's Gym, they somebody who has what Planet Fitness gym can say, hey, I want to send an ad to anyone that went to this Gold's Gym. That's a half a mile down the street from me. And the advertising companies have that data. And so you might have noticed, it's some of its kind of scary. You go into a hospital of a sudden you start getting ads for hospitals, medicine, and even lawyers for malpractice suits. So they have very fine-grain data, and apparently, it is granular enough to let them know whether people are staying at home. If parks are still in use, Foursquare, which has one of the most comprehensive repositories of personal location data, is in talks with a bunch of different government agencies. Most data comes from these apps and bottom line, you've permitted those apps to log your location. So you download that free game that you love to play. It may be tracking your data and sending it up. Now, remember, it doesn't have to use GPS; it only has to do is know the Wi-Fi network in use. Remember, when Google and these other companies have been driving around taking pictures of everything, they are recording the SSIDs and MAC addresses of the Wi-Fi systems all over the country. That way, they can tell where you are based solely on the Wi-Fi connection. So they're taking all that data and then they are reselling it. And the whole goal here is to have a portal that could be used to track citizen movement in up to 500 us citizens cities, Google and Apple have also come up with a new standard for tracking. And this is tracking using Bluetooth again, some troubling state and local policies West Virginia. People who test positive but refused to quarantine are getting ankle bracelets. Yes indeed. Many of the software privacy and privacy guarding mechanisms are unknown about all of these things. There are a bunch of things pred poll predictive policing. All of this is coming in New Jersey, Connecticut using aerial drones with temperature sensors and apparatus to detect people who might have the virus, so it's getting scary. Stick around. We'll be right back. I am Craig Peterson on WGAN with a little Coronavirus information, things we are doing, and what is coming. Hey, welcome back, you're listening to Craig Peterson here on WGAN, every Saturday from one till three. Also, I am on Wednesday mornings with Matt during drive time for those of us that are still driving to work. where we talk about the latest in technology for the week. Then we do some more follow-ups here on the weekend as well. I had mentioned earlier, we're planning on doing something to help businesses get back into the business, and we are going to be focusing in on some of the technologies for that. So keep an ear out. Make sure you sign up for my email list so you can get all of this. You can get stuff like Linda and Joanne and Ted and Danny and many others who listen to me here on Saturdays, and you can get all of the stuff that they get to help stay safe online and to keep up to date on What is happening in that great big world outside? We covered what other countries are doing for surveillance, there was a definite pattern to the socialist countries, demanding people self-isolate, quarantine fines, prison time, right? You notice that, didn't you? Now I want to talk a little bit more about the US because we kind of ended the last segment talking about that. But where I'm getting concerned is what our government will do? The reason I went through all of these other countries is so that we have an idea of what they're doing because, like the UK, okay, they're certainly more socialist than we are. They're not dictatorial at all, but they are doing a lot more with the tracking than we appear to be. Doing. And of course, we have some rights recognized in our Constitution that is going to be difficult for the government to take away, but they have taken them away in emergencies before. Look at what happened during our World Wars, and even what happened in the wars in the 60s in regards to the demonstrations and things. It's not as though nothing could happen here. And there is a great article in TechCrunch this week by Heather Fetterman. And you'll find it up on my website at Craig Peterson dot com, where she's wondering about this potential, what she's calling the Patriot Act for COVID-19. We had this massive knee jerk. What was it about two weeks after the tower Twin Towers came down in New York City after that terrorist attack. About two weeks later, we all of a sudden had this Patriot Act, which gave the government all of these sweeping powers, And they were monitoring all of our calls, which in contact with emails, even locations, etc. Very, very scary stuff. So what's going to happen now because Heather Fetterman is a privacy lawyer, and is the VP of privacy and policy at big ID is a New York-based company that's trying to use AI to help businesses be better privacy stewards for their customer. And now you think of your customers. I think of the data that you have, first of all, do you need it? All right, that's one of the things I talked about and all the training I do. And secondarily, how much of it sensitive, should you be throwing it away? Deleting it because you don't need it. And you certainly don't need the liability or what should you be doing so that's part of what they do. She also has headed up privacy over at Macy's and American Express, and with the code At 19 infections climbing here in the US kind of leveling in some spots, we're saying nationwide, we may be on a bit of a downturn. The officials are starting to panic. And you heard it this week. They're saying, Oh, my, what is going to happen coming up this fall? Are we going to have a massive COVID-19 resurgence in the middle of the flu season? Is this going to double the number of deaths that we would get in a regular flu season? And so they are trying to figure out these government regulators and lobbyists frankly, and of course all of the bureaucrats and, and Congress and everybody, so they're trying to figure out how do we track the people. Now, remember, when we give up a little bit of privacy for some suppose it security trying to think of a time when we got it back. Certainly, we have gotten it back in some cases. After World War Two, of course, you no longer had to have those ration cards. So things got better. Certainly. World War One, for instance, introduced the income tax, and it was guaranteed only to be 3% maximum ever. And the income tax would only be on the richest Americans it would not affect the rest of us. And that was something put in place because of World War One, and they needed funding. But in case you haven't noticed, income tax has not gone away. So will this whole monitoring that they're doing for COVID-19? Will it go away once this epidemic has died down because it is going to die down at some point in time, but frankly, it's going to be with us forever. Whether it was engineered Somewhere whether it was in the wild from a bat and when direct to humans or pigs, and then humans or however it got to us, it's here now, and it's never going away. So is that going to give the government justification to continue to track us all? And when we have limited testing development ability then, of course, it's going to improve. Even if they had 2 billion test kits available, If I test negative today, and I'm exposed this afternoon, are you going to test me again tomorrow? I might have it tomorrow, and I didn't have it today. So even then, testing is not going to solve the problem. So we've talked before about this whole joint effort between Google and Apple, and the idea here is to come up with some standardized software that can monitor the spread of infections by keeping track of infected people. Keeping track of the people they have been close to and how long they've been close to them. And the idea is you download the mobile app from a public health website. And the Public Health website will notify you if you have had prolonged exposure to someone that came down with COVID-19. That will frankly, this would be handy with the flu, for instance, right? There we would cut back the number of flu-related deaths dramatically, absolutely dramatically. And this system is designed to use low Bluetooth Low Energy transmissions rather than GPS. But again, It's just a standard, and it is not a piece of software. And someone could implement using the standard and track your GPS and record as well. Okay. So this is, frankly, if they do this the way they're promoting it, I don't have a huge problem with this as long as it's voluntary. Now, apparently, in Indonesia, it has been voluntary, but only about a third of people have done it. So how are they going to enforce all of this stuff? And these community mobility report, they're showing trends over time by geography, where they're taking data from the phones of people who have Android or who are even with iOS using Google software, and have not turned off the location history setting. And they've got this great little map so they can track all of the people. The CDC is tracking all So the movements of American citizens based on location data from the mobile advertising companies, we mentioned a little bit earlier. So it's great that the government's trying to stop the spread of infections. But ultimately, you can't stop them all. And there has to be a line. Where is it? So the Patriot Act wasn't two weeks. It was six weeks after 911 that gave the government powers that had never had before to spy on American citizens. Yeah, you know, was it constitutional, certainly not in times of peace. I think that argument could be made pretty effectively. But in this case, it was effectively a war. So it may have made sense at the time, but the government's still vacuuming up millions of records of phone calls and text messages to today. Look at that huge data center. The National Security Agency built over in Utah, the point of the mountain. So if companies like Google and Facebook are willing to share data with a government, there needs to be a clear and defined period in which they can share this data, there has to be a clear and defined period in which they can retain the data as well. So civil liberties, of course, are fundamental here. And my gosh, following September 11, of course, the New York Police Department conducted illegal surveillance on some local Muslim populations. Remember what happened during World War Two with the Japanese American internment camps? The FBI is surveillance of African Americans who oppose segregation, the whole civil rights movement. They've got something called the fair information practice principles. These state that personal data should not be used for any purpose beyond the specified object of the data processing activity. So we've got to be careful. The government has proven itself to keep this too much data, keep it for too long, and also not securing it properly. Word gets out, and it gets into the hands of people within the government that probably shouldn't have access to it. It gets into the hands of the bad guys. And if the government starts collecting this are going to see yet another uptick tick in cybercrime. It has already happened. But imagine all of this location data in personal data and how valuable it would be to the hackers. You know, I don't hold hope that our Congress it has learned from the past. I don't Look at what Clearview AI did. We talked about them a month or two ago, where they were scraping information off of websites. They were getting the facial pictures that we had posted, not realizing that a company like Clearview would grab them and use them to identify us and sell the information to the highest bidder. So it's not right. It is not good, but it's very concerning. And you might want to read this. It's on techcrunch.com. Heather Fetterman is the author of the article. And she's been looking at privacy for a very, very long time and thank goodness for that. And you'll find it on my website at Craig Peterson comm make sure you sign up so you can get all of my weekly email summaries of this week in the news, including everything from today. Stick around, and we'll be right back to the top of the hour here on WGAN. Okay, okay, okay. Hi everybody. Craig Peters on here on WGAN. Of course, I'm heard every Saturday from one until 3 pm, Wednesday mornings on with Matt, Wednesday at about 730 is they go over, of course, all of the latest news, keeping you up to date, on your day, what's happening where you should go, where you shouldn't go, what you should do. And in this kind of this day and age, it's maybe you shouldn't go anywhere, right. I was just reading an article during the break about the SARS epidemic. It was written by a guy who was over in Hong Kong at the time and talking about almost the same thing. When SARS broke out, this was slightly after the reunification of China and Hong Kong. The British signed it over the rights one nation to what was it two economies or something like that again, remember, they also, of course, had British common law and stuff. They were doing the same thing back then. The Chinese were presenting doctors who dared talk about a potential pandemic who talked about this respiratory illness that people had. So I guess some things just don't change very much over time. And that's one of them. But he talked about what it was like going out on the roads, not seeing anything, and now he's living in Los Angeles. And he said he was right there in Sunset Boulevard. He stood right in the middle of the intersection through two sets of green lights and didn't see a single car. Then this part I thought was fascinating. At the end of the article, he talked about how the kind of ban was lifted, because people South Korean team they're in Hong Kong, of course, the government stepped in. All these draconian measures kind of like what the socialist government did in Taiwan and throughout China, after this latest COVID virus, hit The you know, so the muon virus is spreading. They're jailing doctors who dare talk about it. They're putting their head in their sand, pretending it's not happening. And then, all of a sudden, they cracked down on everybody and everything. But in the end, he said in Hong Kong, at least for SARS, what ended up happening was all of these people all of a sudden had a desk kind of a Why am I putting on this face mask this morning, and slowly but surely without a government order. People started going out, started walking around, and he said one day, he was sitting there eating noodles in a restaurant, and all of these people were walking by and just really having a normal life. And they thought, wow, this is kind of cool. Wait a minute when did this normal life happen? And I think that might be kind of what happens here, although the governors are slowly starting to open up states and now you know, moving from what Stage one to two to three, that this is going to be fascinating, absolutely fascinating. What would have been the best way to respond? Of course, there'll be a million opinions that will be expressed here over time about the best way to respond. Maybe we could have warned people to try not to spread this saying if you have this respiratory problem or you're obese or whatever that there are major causes of death associated with getting the virus. Who is it that we should recommend quarantine for? I know that some people I think I mentioned on the show before are being advised that in till about 18 months have passed, you should not be going outside. Now I have an aunt who's a transplant patient. She's been advised to stay out of everything for about 18 months because this could nail her. And we know about kidney problems with this virus and liver problems even people getting legs amputated, right? There's a professional sports athlete who had his leg amputated after this and damage of course to the lungs, etc., etc. So would that have been a better response just warning everybody to be careful here the precautions you should take. Then the segment of the population that needs to be quarantined not everybody. We're already hearing about the side effect deaths, if you will, the people committing suicide, getting hooked on drugs, it'll be just in terrible places for a very, very long time. So it's very, very concerning to me. Hey, and I want to give you all quick notice here puts you on notice we are going to be doing Some getting back to business training, where we're talking about security, what you need to do and what you should do, what are the first things you should do when your business reopened? We're going to help you with backups The best way to get the backups done, how to verify them, I'm going to walk you through all of that. And we're going to have all of these free webinars coming up, make sure you are on my email list. And to do that, just go to Craig Peterson dot com you can go to Craig Peterson dot com slash subscribe is probably the best place. And you will once you're there, be able to subscribe to my emails and start getting like moving along. So let a little bit of advice there on that side. I thought that article was interesting. So, of course, I shared it with you. And we'll see what happens here. I think we should we're at the point now where we should start getting back to normal. We should have enough data already here in the us that we can trust that tells us Who the most vulnerable populations are. We know nursing homes are vulnerable that people in nursing homes aren't just necessarily older, which is one of the problems associated with death from this virus. Still, they are also many of them are infirmed one way or the other. So we know we got to protect them. Imagine spending a few trillion dollars, hunches, protecting those people, maybe helping them out with some other health issues. And I'm sure going forward many of these convalescent homes nursing homes are going to be more careful with the transmission of disease. While we won't, we won't go down that road. Alright, so let's talk about some conspiracies here. One of the big conspiracies about Coronavirus that people spouting is that these new 5g networks that are growing dramatically across the whole United States and around the world are causing Coronavirus and are where it started. Now, we somehow always get all of these theories, conspiracy theories right. Whenever anything starts happening, well, you know its causation and correlation are not the same things. In other words, if Coronavirus started when 5g networks got turned up that correlation. But that does not mean that 5g is causing this problem. It is a massive conspiracy out there. It's spreading more and more. Even USA Today had an article about it this week, talking about how people are just claiming the man 5g is exacerbating at the very least The spread of Coronavirus. Hence, I think the opposite is true. 5g is allowing people to be entertained, to do research, pick up new hobbies to learn while they're at home. So that's a very, very big deal here. The actor John Cusack spread this social media, right? Isn't that a problem what he tweeted to 1.6 million followers 5g will be proven to be very, very bad for people's health. He deleted the tweet later where he said five G's making people sick, and we're going to regret it. He put another one up, calling people who disagreed with him just dumb and effing sheep. Yeah, who are the sheep here? So there are all kinds of these people out there. There's rapper Wiz Khalifa I have heard of him. Isn't that weird? Singer Keri Hilson at sea judge on Britain's Got Talent, Amanda Holden. I know her because I've watched that show before. And all of these people attended various art schools. So we've got Yeah, one in Pittsburgh, I've got another one in Atlanta and another one over in London. So be very, very careful. There's no evidence that there's any tied to this. I've talked about it before. There are different types of radiation, and when you mentioned, 5g or LTE and radiation, and people just totally freaked out because they think of radiation, like what they use at the dentist's office or in the hospital. That radiation is dangerous, and it is called ionizing radiation. Where ionizes cells, and that's a problem. The type of radiation we're talking about with LTE with 5g With Wi-Fi is non-ionizing radiation. So keep that in mind, and the American Cancer Society says that the frequency of the radio waves that are given off by a cell phone, quote simply does not have sufficient energy to damage all our DNA or cause heating in the body tissues. It has been proven again and again. The Federal Communications Commission ruled months ago that we have nothing to worry about, not that we can necessarily trust it comes from the government. But you know me as an advanced class, Amateur Radio license holder. I've studied this back into the 70s, just trying to figure out what was going on. Am I more dangerous because we're talking about a cell phone or smartphone that gives out milliwatts' worth of power? And as a ham, I was routinely transmitting 50 watts of power relatively near my head, and in some cases, I was 100 watts or even 1500 watts worth of power very close by. So what is it? Okay, so this is not a fact I just wanted to kind of warn you guys. Yeah, 5g is spreading. It's spreading very fast. It's rolling out quickly with the Sprint T-Mobile merger. And T-Mobile has a nationwide 5g right now, that's a cool one there to low enough frequency that looks like T-Mobile may win the whole 5g argument outside of the big cities, because of the lower frequency bands that T-Mobile has access to. It's even worth using in your house. Anyways, of course, you're listening to Craig Peterson on WGAN. Stick around. We'll be right back. Hi guys, Craig Peterson here. Welcome back. I hope I put that whole 5g Coronavirus myth to bed. Remember, 5g is not going to be harmful. Now some characteristics are a little bit different than what you might expect. With 5g there are going to be transmitters all over the place, particularly in big cities, there'll be one on basically every corner would be on buildings everywhere. Most of the 5g networks using higher frequencies that cannot pierce buildings very well and cannot penetrate even glass. So I know from that standpoint, there will be more radiation, and it will be closer to you. But ultimately, I don't think there's any real risk involved in that. So there you go. I'm thinking back to a speaking engagement for an annual meeting for a bank, and a lady came up to me afterward and said, so what do you think about cell phones causing cancer? And I explained to her what I had just described to you guys here, only last segment, and she said, Well, my sister died of brain cancer. And she got it when she started using her cell phone all the time for work. And, you know, so what do you think of that? And I said, Well, I'm just so terrible thing. That's all I said. But again, correlation versus causation. Did she already have that brain cancer before she started using that cell phone for work? And if you are concerned about it, and you know, some people are very, very worried about The thing to do is always use a headset of some sort. If you're concerned about any kind of electromagnetic radiation, you should probably use a wired headset, which is getting harder and harder to find. And then you hold the cell phone away from you when you're using it because the power drops off very quickly of that signal. It's for those math majors, it drops off as the inverse of the distance squared, in other words, drops off, really, really fast. So if you just hold it a few feet from your body, you have cut down the amount of radiofrequency transmission or radiation, you've cut it down by many factors many multitudes, frankly, as it drops off, but anyway, so that's the way to do it. Some people use Bluetooth nowadays, and you see people walk around all the time with this little apple, ear pod things. And those are using Bluetooth that is much lower power than what your phone is putting out. So there you go some tips if that's what you want to do. This next one, I thought it was funny. And I talked this week on a couple of different times different radio stations about this, and Amazon is actively trying to get people to buy fewer items on its website. Now have you noticed that typically, you go around from website to website, and you see just all kinds of advertisements for things from Amazon, mainly if you've looked at something recently? Well, this week, Amazon lifted its ban that prevented third-party sellers from shipping non-essential items to its warehouses. Before that, they were only accepting household staples, basic stuff, toilet paper, right metal supplies, any other high demand products, but it's also been raining in its tactics used to encourage people to buy stuff, and they have dropped some of their advertising. And remember, they've got this Prime Day deals extravaganza that they have every year where they say, Hey, listen, we're going to save you, and you can save like 3040 50% on some things. That is delayed indefinitely. Now, the traditional Mother's Day Father's Day deals have been canceled for this year. They also remove the recommendation boxes. Have you noticed that if you look at an item, it will show you other related products people bought, and they've removed that as well? And a quote from an unnamed Amazon employee talking to the New York Post. We typically want to sell as much as we can, but our entire network is Full right now with hand sanitizers and toilet paper that we can't serve other demand. The demand we see for essential products has remained high. That's according to Jeff Bezos. But unlike a predictable holiday surge, this spike occurred with little warning, creating significant challenges for our suppliers and Disney Disney network and delivery network. We also have some of these people who are working in the warehouses getting sick with it, and at least one worker has died. So how's that Amazon canceled Father's Day, Mother's Day, and their Prime day for all of us Prime people. A couple of weeks ago, I had a webinar where I discussed Wi-Fi wireless networks. And I told you guys Hey, listen, and I've got this deal. That we put together and we based the deal on some, I think, frankly amazing, some amazing stuff. That is business class, Wi-Fi router-firewall, you know, low-end business class stuff. And, and, man, a lot of you guys bought that. And I thought that was great. And we're getting those set up now. But we've got another warning out if you are a Linksys user if you have a Linksys broadband router, these wireless routers that they've been sending for years. They're saying that they've locked user accounts on their smart Wi-Fi cloud service. It's asking users to reset their passwords. Hackers were using these hijacked accounts and changing router settings to redirect users to malware sites. Now if you're taking if you attended my DNS training Where I told you what the best free DNS services are out there, you came to realize I'm sure pretty quickly that one of the best things you can do is put one of these DNS services, like the open DNS, put them into your router. So what ends up happening is when your web browser program on your computer asked to go somewhere on the internet, it's going to ask a known-good DNS service. I think that's a wonderful thing. And Firefox added in a new service just recently that uses a CloudFlare DNS service to help prevent some of the hijackings that can happen. So apparently, what's happening right now with some of these Linksys routers that are tied into their smart Wi-Fi cloud service is they're changing the DNS settings on your Linksys Wi-Fi router. And they're changing it so that when your machine says, For instance, I want to go to Bank of America, instead of giving Bank of America's real internet address, it gives the internet address of a hacker-controlled website. That is a very, very big deal. So what's going to happen is people are going to be ripped off right, left, and center because instead of going to the real website, they are going to be going to malware sites. And sometimes, it redirects them to the malware site, which tries to install malware and then immediately redirects you to the real site. Now, we've known about this type of attack for a very long time because people just have not been changing the default administrative usernames and passwords on the routers. So either someone breaks in via the internet, or in some cases, they are compromising a home computer and then using that home computer to compromise the router and therefore compromise Do the other business computers and compromise the home router, etc., Right? So that's been around for a long time. This particular problem is only impacting the Smart Wi-Fi account. It is a cloud-based system that if you only have these Linksys devices connect to Linksys routers and other equipment over the Internet to manage the router settings, which has always been a bit of a problem, okay? And I'm on Linksys as website right now, and they're saying, Hey, we're experiencing longer than usual wait times while Yeah, I bet they are. If you have Linksys smart Wi-Fi, if you're using it, make sure you go and change your usernames and passwords right away because it's turning out to be a problem. So we're going to talk about zoom some more when we get back you're listening to Craig Peterson on WGAN and online. Craig Peterson dot com. Hey, welcome back, everybody Craig Peterson here, in case you missed the last segment, if you are using Linksys, you're going to want to go back and listen to it. It's a very, very big deal. Very important. Because of the hack that has just happened with their Smart Wi-Fi service. It's a pretty bad one. Also, we talked about COVID-19 in the show the Patriot Act, 5g rumors, we've got this 5g rumor about how it is accelerating the spread of Coronavirus and the surveillance programs around the world. Now you can listen to all of those on tune in the app. And right there you just search for Craig Peterson you'll see me we post all of these online. So check that out if you missed it. And next week, don't miss any of the show, because I'm on Saturdays from 123 pm. I'd love to hear from you as well. Just send an email to me at Craig Peterson dot com. It is a very, very big deal. Just do that, and we will be reaching out right away. I had promised to get to this ongoing zoom issue. You know I don't like zoom. We after we found out about zooms significant security vulnerabilities. Months ago, we banned it in our company and all of our client's companies out there, and in light of this Coronavirus pandemic, everybody is turned to these apps now FaceTime pretty good, pretty safe. It's encryption, zoom. Not it's pretty good, not safe at all. Currently, hanging out with friends is one thing. But doing work on zoom is entirely different. Because what we found out now is that Zoom is very insecure. You probably heard me last week. I think it was I talked about the thousands of zoom meetings that were found on-line by hackers. Well, this week, we've got yet another zoom story. Researchers found on Monday, according to refinery 29 le Bell's article, that hackers began selling over a half a million zoom accounts for less than one cent per account. And according to findings from the cybersecurity firm Sibyl, which is investigating some of these hacking activities, Sibyl found that more than half a million zoom accounts on hacker forums and the dark web put up for these low prices. Bleeping Computer, which is something that I follow as well and if you are into cybersecurity and understanding some of the computer stuff. I think you'll appreciate it. Bleeping computer has also been reporting on this, some of these accounts are cheap. Cymbal was able to purchase 530,000 Zoom accounts for two-tenths of a cent each. Two-tenths of a cent each, so five for a penny. Now, why are they being hacked so suddenly? Well, it turns out that Zoom has yet another major security problem again, this is what happens when businesses just jump in headfirst without really understanding the implications of what they're doing. And we have seen this over and over again. These hacks are not a traditional hack. In this hack, the hackers used something known as credential stuffing to hack the Zoom accounts. It is something I've warned about, again, and again, and again. I have some features that hopefully we're going to get them running soon here on WGAN, and some of these other radio stations out there. But these credential stuffing attacks take data from the dark web hacks that have happened on other websites where you've got people's usernames, email addresses, or passwords. And then they're compiled into lists that are sold to hackers. There are some huge lists out there that contain millions. I think there's one that had 2 billion usernames and passwords in it. They're being used right now to scam people into sending money from to the hackers. Okay. But then this case what's happening is they are stuffing them into zoom hence credential stuffing, checking to see if zoom will allow them to log in. And of course, Zoom doesn't have the proper security to stop these credential stuffing attacks. Don't use Zoom. Stop using it drives me nuts. So the suspected reason, by the way, that these accounts have been doled out by hackers. It's coming back to this whole Zoom bombing notion where people want to drop in on zoom meetings. Now, Zoom bombing is typically used for trolling and abuse. But if you can go and you can get one of these databases of usernames, email addresses, and passwords. And let's say you want to spy on your competition, and you can now drop in on your competitions' zoom meetings. What do you think is going to happen? If one political party wants to spy on another political party, just look up that person's email address, and you're in. So hackers have been using zoom bombing and virtual synagogue chats during Passover, shouting racial racist slurs at women and people of color berating people attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. We've got a high school teacher reporting that her classroom call was accessed by an end on an identified individual who was yelling profanities, putting up swastika tattoos. A woman of color told BuzzFeed that unwelcome parties entered her regular meetings with other women of color and what seemed like 100 people yelling racist slurs at the same time. Cybersecurity experts are suggesting that passwords be changed on all Zoom accounts, that's what I've been saying. Right? Change your password. Don't use your normal Zoom meeting, set up a random Zoom meeting number. It's there now stepping in to help prevent these attacks. The FBI in Boston had to step in and offer tips on how to keep online meetings secure, which is absolutely freaking amazing. So a bit careful and don't use Zoom. A lot of people have switched over to WebEx, which is something I've been using and selling for years now, WebEx teams not only gives you meetings, it gives you all of these different workspaces and things. I like it and recommend it. They are offering their free WebEx meetings for 90 days but had to stop it for a bit because too many people were signing up. WebEx had to open up a whole other data center to be able to handle All of this demand. So it's essential, we need to understand that if you want to have a small meeting with family, friends, even small business and you guys are smart enough to be using iPhones, not Android. Just go ahead and use FaceTime. It's quite good. You'll like FaceTime now. They have meetings for up to 30 people. You can also use a few other apps. You know, some people like WhatsApp, I am not fond of that. Silent Circle has some excellent stuff. They've got a silent phone, and these guys know what they're doing. If you're on Android, the first tip is to get rid of it. Don't use Android if you have anything you're data, and you are concerned about losing. Because Android is not as a secure platform in the least, it's crazy people. Remember, you cannot Get the updates, even with our friends over at Samsung with their Galaxy phones, they only provide updates for a couple of years. So if you are stuck in the Android space, and I get it right, I am not the biggest Apple fan in the world. But their software, their systems are secure. They are not in the business of selling your information. Google Android is in the business of selling your information. Okay. Hey, and when we get back, we're going to talk about iPhones. We're going to talk about what would be the actual cost of an iPhone if it was made in the United States because that may be happening soon. Stick around. We'll be back with more. I'm Craig Peterson, and you're listening to me on WGAN make sure you get my newsletter, Craig Peterson dot com slash subscribe. Hey, welcome back everybody Craig Peterson here on WGAN. And of course, online at Craig Peterson dot com slash subscribe. Well, we have made it through most of the show today we've been talking about Linksys and significant security problems you have to take care of right away if you're using link system vices. We spoke about Zoom and why you don't want to use Zoom ever again, and I gave you some alternatives. What Amazon is doing with canceling Father's Day, Mother's Day, they've changed right now anyways, for the time being, their entire business model COVID-19 of course, we talked about that about some rumors floating around about the spread of COVID-19 because of 5g. We also talked about what countries are doing around the world to help battle this. What is the US doing with surveillance right now on the COVID-19 front? Where it's all taking us? You'll find all of that by going to Craig Peterson dot com right there on the homepage. You can scroll down and listen to any of the segments that you might have missed. You can also get it right on the TuneIn app, where you might even be listening to me right now. Live as the show is aired Saturdays Of course 123 and looking at the clock, that means we are almost done for the day today. I can't believe how fast it went today. I am delighted to be able to help you guys out we've had hundreds of people who have attended my webinars over the last few weeks. I didn't do any this previous week. I am strongly suspected. I'm going to be doing some this coming week. So keep an ear to the ground on this next week. Okay. Let's Get into that Oh, and to do that, the only way you can have a new to the ground on this is if you are on my email list, Craig Peterson dot com slash subscribe. How's that for easy? So how much would an iPhone cost if we make it in America? You know, some of these iPhones go upwards of over $1,000 depending on what they are. And I want you to think about that for just a minute. Not so much in the context strictly of an iPhone. But what did a first computer cost you? How about a laptop? Because frankly, these devices have almost the same functionality as a functional laptop does or a good computer does. They do. And you could not get this type of computing power just a few years ago. I found a couple of my beloved iPhone pods only a few weeks ago in a drawer as I was doing some cleaning, right, aren't we all right spring cleaning time. And I just was shocked and amazed because these things were huge, I think one was 80 gigabytes. And I think the other might have been 120 gigabytes. And that's huge for the day. Huge. I used to listen to them on airplanes. It was just such a relief because all that was on there was my music. And there was nothing else to tempt me. I didn't even put games on them. Now there's a lot of hacks available for the iPod, you can put on some cool players, but that iPod interface, it could

We are all social distancing, sheltered in, and self-quarantining.  Time for a new podcast episode!  Griffin tells the story of his grandfather, WWII Veteran George Foster Griffin, who inspired the song "I Remember."  Some background on the character who inspired this song, and how the song came about.  A respectful memorial for those who have bravely served our country and some bigger questions about war and America's role in the future as a leader on the world stage.  

Jolene has her every wish fulfilled, while the party plot to fetch a pail of water. Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/queerdungeoneersDiscord: https://discord.gg/kYgt5AgTwitter: @QueerDungeonsMerch: https://queerdungeoneers.threadless.com/Episode Transcripts: https://sites.google.com/view/queer-dungeoneers-transcripts/home "I Remember" and "We Collect Shiny Things" by by Blue Dot Sessions (www.sessions.blue)

Life is a lot like a game of cards. We all are dealt a hand and whether good or bad we have to play that hand according to the rules of the game of life. There is no option to give our hand back to the dealer in hopes of getting a better hand in return. Unfortunately, sometimes the hand we are dealt is less than desirable. Everything from the family we are born into, to the unexpected divorce, to the loss of a loved one can leave us feeling like we got the short end of the stick. One thing for sure is learning how to win with the cards you are dealt is the only option we have at times.On today’s show JJ Panah, author, real-estate executive, and community leader will share how she has learned to win with the cards she’s been dealt. As a young child, her family was exiled from their home country Irian and forced to learn a new language, culture, and way of life. JJ holds nothing back as she shares how this experience has shaped how she loves and lives life to the fullest. She gives us a sneak peek into her book, "Zodiac Lovers, I Remember", which is a raw autobiography about her pursuit of love. JJ’s zest for life will leave you inspired to take the hand you've been dealt and do something amazing with it.Mentioned during the show/resources:JJ Panah, http://www.jjpanah.com/Mehr Foundation SA https://www.mehrfoundationsa.org/aboutusDrop The BS Facebook Group https://www.facebook.com/groups/dropthebspodcast/Psychology Today https://www.psychologytoday.com/Drop The BS Podcast Page www.dropthebspodcast.com

Title by Ashleigh Phillips  Craig lives as an 80s musician but has dreams of future songs. Constantly torn between the future and the present has pushed his relationship with his girlfriend Rhonda to the brink. Can Craig balance his love life with pushing music to it's limits? Song List: "Living in the 80s", "I Remember the Future", "Dreams are my Specialty", "Single Ladies (My Version)", "Rhonda", "Honey it Looks like I Shrunk My Hate", "The Best Thing about being in the 80s" Love Impromptunes? Find our Patreon Page here for bonus content: https://www.patreon.com/impromptunes Get tickets for our upcoming live shows here:  Adelaide: https://adelaidefringe.com.au/fringetix/impromptunes-the-completely-improvised-musical-af2020 Melbourne: https://www.comedyfestival.com.au/2020/shows/the-completely-improvised-musical Cast: Brenna Glazebrooke, Izaak Lim, Morgan Phillips and David Peake on keys Teched by Emmet Nichols Edited by Morgan Phillips

Grammy-nominated electronic producer Kaskade emerged as one of the most successful American progressive house DJs of the 2000s, pioneering the concept of Las Vegas residencies and selling out arenas across America. With his bright, uplifting dance anthems, he was a steady presence on the U.S. electronic charts into the 2010s with Top Ten releases that included chart-toppers Fire & Ice (2011) and Atmosphere (2013).Born Ryan Gary Raddon in Chicago, he spent his early days not only as a DJ, but also as an A&R director and record store owner. In the late '90s, he familiarized himself with the rapidly changing electronic music scene, eventually finding that house music was the subgenre he loved best. He DJ'ed in both New York and Salt Lake City, where he would first produce tracks released on his own tiny label, Mechanized Records. He also sold his music to John Elkins, A&R director for OM Records, who later hired Raddon to assist him at the label. By night, Kaskade spun at local clubs and by day helped kick-start the careers of many artists, including Ming + FS and soul-house act Soulstice.His own full-length recordings under the Kaskade moniker began with 2003's house-inflected It's You, It's Me. A soulful, more organic direction provided focus for the following year's In the Moment, and Raddon kept his name in the record racks by piloting editions in the San Francisco Sessions DJ series (as well as the label mix House of OM). He proved surprisingly dedicated to his production craft, releasing Love Mysterious in 2006, which placed on Billboard's electronic albums chart. That same year, he parted ways with OM and signed with Ultra.Arriving in 2008, Strobelight Seduction -- featuring production by Deadmau5 -- became his biggest commercial success to date, buoyed by the lead single "Move for Me." Released in 2010, Dynasty celebrated his new reputation with a parade of vocal features and a co-production with Tiësto. It also became his first LP to chart on the Billboard 200. That year, Raddon put together Electric Daisy Carnival, a mix showcasing artists on the bill for the inaugural dance music festival of the same name.The double-album Fire & Ice followed in 2011 and debuted in the Billboard Top 20. Featuring a production assist from Skrillex on "Lick It," the effort also included guest vocals from Neon Trees and Skylar Grey. Atmosphere arrived two years later and featured softer, more relaxed music along with vocals from Kaskade himself. After the 2014 compilation I Remember rounded up the best material from his years on Ultra, the DJ renewed his contract with the label and one year later released Automatic. The album featured guest appearances from Estelle, Galantis, John Dahlbäck, and K. Flay, and peaked on the Billboard Electronic chart at number two. In 2016, Kaskade joined Deadmau5 and Skylar Grey on the single "Beneath Me." The following year, he issued the Redux EP 002 (featuring LoKii, Mr. Tape, and Late Night Alumni), as well as the holiday-themed Kaskade Christmas. The DJ then joined Charlotte Lawrence for the 2018 single "Cold as Stone." His third installment of the Redux series arrived in 2019. Redux EP 003 presented a seamless mix featuring Felix Cartal, Gorgon City, and more. ~ L. Katz & John Bush, RoviFollow Sidewalk Talk:https://twitter.com/sidewalktalkshw (all updates)https://instagram.com/sidewalktalkedmCheck out Sidewalk Talk website:http://www.sidewalktalks.comFollow me, Lauren Engel: http://www.instagram.com/laurenvanengelhttp://www.twitter.com/engelaurenEmail: lauren@sidewalktalks.com See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

TodayI found an old bookon my shelvesI opened the pagesand smelled the smellsand for a momentmy mind forgot its place and timeas I walked into a cabinso many miles and years away—there was a fire onand the kettle played its tune.The sun was shiningand my family was therewaving me down to the beach—I can’t tell youhow incredible it isto be there nowwriting to youfrom the cabin of my youth. Other Poems Read Today:"I Remember, I Remember" by Thomas Hood“The Slow Room Of Decades” by Prince Neptune xx Atticus@atticuspoetry www.atticuspoetry.com

Co-hosts Kate Wolf and Medaya Ocher speak with author Monique Truong about her new multi-voiced novel The Sweetest Fruits; aptly titled given its sensuality, and special attention to cuisine. Monique explains her decision to write in the voices of three women - one Greek, one African-American, and one Japanese - all of whom were central figures in the life of globetrotting 19th century author, Lafcadio Hearn, who was born in Greece and is best known for his books about Japan. Giving voice to amazing souls that history and patriarchal culture have put under erasure. Also, Stephen Van Dyck, author of People I've Met From the Internet, returns to recommend Joe Brainard's groundbreaking I Remember from the 1970s.

Co-hosts Kate Wolf and Medaya Ocher speak with author Monique Truong about her new multi-voiced novel The Sweetest Fruits; aptly titled given its sensuality, and special attention to cuisine. Monique explains her decision to write in the voices of three women - one Greek, one African-American, and one Japanese - all of whom were central figures in the life of globetrotting 19th century author, Lafcadio Hearn, who was born in Greece and is best known for his books about Japan. Giving voice to amazing souls that history and patriarchal culture have put under erasure. Also, Stephen Van Dyck, author of People I've Met From the Internet, returns to recommend Joe Brainard's groundbreaking I Remember from the 1970s.

I this I Remember interview, I'm speaking with the talented, lovely sister team of Arwen Evans and Ashley Wheelock, authors of the amazing children's book, We Toot. As I’m sure you’ve noticed, children’s books targeted to girls – all pinks, princesses and ponies – haven’t kept pace with the women’s movement or evolving gender expectations. That’s why these women wrote We Toot, a feminist fable about farting. Yep, We Toot is a fart-joke laden whodunit with a powerful message of body positivity, self-acceptance and female friendship. The short picture book features a diverse cast of quirky girls, inspired by our five girls and their friends. As you will hear in today's interview, Ashley's and Arwen's moments of connection, individually and as sisters, led them to a place where the creation of this book answered a purpose they held in the hearts - to help all little girls grow up proud of their amazing bodies and all that they can do. Kirkus reviewed We Toot and said, "Sure to provoke giggles, this delightful tale also helps girls to revel in their bodies." Check out We Toot's fun video trailer to get a feel for this book and its story, and then get the little girl in your life a copy at Amazon. 10% of all profits go to Girls, Inc. Pass the We Toot message along by posting a picture of your little girl holding We Toot or even better post her giving a video review on your IG and FB accounts so she can share what she thinks about tooting! Tag it with @wheelock.ashley @arwenhanna @sandiesonke @houseoftomorrowbooks and let's change the world one toot at a time. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

We've talked about the power of imagination before — and as I always like to say, what we focus on grows. This week, let's talk about using our imaginations for a powerful alignment practice that I call, "I Remember."

Amanda Holmes reads Stevie Smith’s poem, “I Remember.”Have a suggestion for a poem? Email us: podcast@theamericanscholar.org. If we select your entry, you’ll win a copy of a poetry collection edited by David Lehman.This episode was produced by Stephanie Bastek and features the song “Canvasback” by Chad Crouch. See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

"How Society affects teenagers today" by Balraj Purewal #26Tagline: "These are the broken pieces of the puzzle that you still end up piecing together.."Life has moved on so quickly and within the space of a generation our world is now seen through a phone, almost 24/7. In fact I can't recall the last time I went out myself and didn't snap, Instagram or Facebook a status update.But for the youth of today they experience larger problems and issues, such as seeking external validation, comparison amongst peers and so often finding themselves missing the beauty of the presence.It is with this I decided to interview a teenager to show us, and give us a first insight into the life of a teen today. He explains very eloquently the struggles, the good the bad and the types of challenges he is presented with daily, amongst other teens.He is a poet at a heart, currently studying at my favourite university (no bias), whilst trying to figure out where he fits in the world amongst figuring out the intent of other people.We speak about many things in this episode that I really enjoyed recording such as:IntentImportance of internal validationBeing true to yourselfFinding your voiceWorking hardUsing social media for what it is todayA guy who is wise beyond his years and someone I believe will go on and achieve his dreams in the world today, I urge you all to show him some support and follow his journey below:P.s. remember any new reviews on iTunes, just send me a screenshot either on twitter, instagram or to my email and ill send you the diet and gym plan as promised. It will likely be a 7-day window due to the volume of listeners.Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_b.purewal/ (Personal)Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/word___art/ (Poetry)Snapchat: B.purewalHave an awesome day & #JustDeuIt #FindYourVoiceYouTube Transcription:[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and as always I am thehost of this show so today I'm gonna bebringing you our youngest ever guest onthe show now I was a little bitskeptical if I'm completely honest ofhaving somebody so young coming out to ashow like find your voice because findyour voice generally speaking it'speople who have gone through adversitygone through obstacles and problems andthen all of a sudden I sat back and Ithought hold on a second this is theexact kind of person we need on thisshow because I'm sitting here and almostmaking this judgment which is againshowing something that I need to beaware of and learn from that peoplegoing through their teenagers and goinginto transition into adulthoodhaven't got a voice and that's not whatI wanted the show to be about so anywayI'm gonna be completely honest he overdelivered in fact he was the star ofthis show and I'm very grateful that heshared his experience because there's somany things he mentioned in this episodethat made me kind of think back to howeasy I suppose my life was growingthrough that transition and many of uslistening to this because I checked thedemographics are a lot older thanbarrages and we never had to go throughthe social media constraints and theproblems and that external validationthat these children and teenagers aregoing through today so it's a very verygood episode in terms of one for anyonewho's going through this transition areyou the teenagers who are hopefullytrying to get to listen to this show toinspire and motivatebut more importantly it's just asimportant for us slightly older peoplewho maybe forgot what it was like growno to hear somebody's perspective or howdifferent life is so we talked a lotabout intent we talked about the typesof people that you come across in lifebut we also talk about some stuff thatjust really blew my mind that I wastalking to a teenager especially when Ithink back to what I was like growing upbecause I was not this emotionally awaythat I was just figuring it out and itgained that last bit there figuring itout is something that we go on to talkabout quite a bit in this episodebecause irrespective of where you are inthis journey in this wonderful thingcalled life we're always just trying tofigure it out so hopefully you find thisuseful especially towards the end of theshow because his last two answers wereincredible and they were very poetic andthen I happen to realize that he has apoetry account on Instagram which kindof made sense so a kid with a hugefuture ahead of him I'm very gratefulthat I've managed to tap into theyounger demographics as well I'm verygrateful for Barrett this time and Ihope you all really enjoy this episodeso without further ado let's jump intoit okay people I just like to start thisshow by welcoming bowrage to the showand thanking all the listeners fortuning in today how you doing today myfriend yeah I'm not too bad not too badOh better runs well thanks I let me comeon the show oh you're very welcome myfriend so I think to start this show Ithink it's really important that thelisteners get to know you a little bitso if you would have mind if you canjust kind of give us a briefintroduction into the life of Berridgeplease yeah well so obviously I went toaround four primary schools alreadyremember too much about it if I'm honestI mean I'm the whole guys created forone but then as I went along we movedhouse quite a bit went to one schoolthat was pretty racist I was like whatlike the third brown person there so itwas like I was getting called like the Pword most of the time and I was likewhat the hell's going on so being quiteyoung in primary school didn't reallyenjoy primary school too much becausealways like an outsider don't know if itwas because I was moving so much ormaybe I just wasn't people's kind ofguided which is not a problem and then Idon't know what just literally got intohigh school and then I was like well Idon't want that happening again it's notsomething one happening teenage hormonesare last like kicking in you know thatwas ragingdifferent kind of world with high schoolyou thinking what's going on here I'velearnedreally from lucky s7 I mean if if I'mhonest when I was in the s7 array I wasbit of know a kid or what Liars used toend up in isolation call hi a lot I'mnot sure well I am sure why but I feellike the school was quite strict as wellso any little minor thing I did wouldbasically be picked up on which is not abad thing I guess it took me to maturemuch quicker and this just kind oflasted to around year 10 I was like wellit ain't about who's got the biggest thebiggest this the biggest bat who can dothis who can do that because the realitydoesn't make any difference at all it'sjust you can crack on with themselvesand look after themselves and then whenI got to about year 11it just kind of semi just came out of myshell bit more because you know kind ofa person that it loves to talk to peopleI'm not sure why always been my thingyou knoweven now this like being on the podcastI read messaging you know I just lovetalking to peoplestead of me being stuck to my fault I'mwell I just beat somebody okay I canintake this knowledge from you how can Iapply this to my life oh you can do itlike this so like Erin you may say to meI'll do it this way and I may not evensing this other perspective because Imaybe so maybe I don't know deleted withmy own which is better for me to realizeobviously social media you know thephones are great but sometimes a lot ofpeople just end up stuck to it evenmyself at times well of course yeah butit was weird because in s7 like good onwords high school wise I always thoughtto myself I am I'm not fitting in itdoesn't make any sense why can I not dowhat they're doing why can I not do whatthe older people I did not realize and Ishould have enjoyed it more in themoment so I was okay cool that's not aproblem and then as soon as I started tocome up my shell but yeah 11 time youknow starts being two more people it waslike a lot more people were coming to mecame to six form where it was prettymuch the biggest change definitely fullycame out my child say I'm you know notin a cocky way oh I'd say I'm quitetalkative bubbly loving and caringperson mm-hmm so I guess it's kind ofcame with some baggage as well because Icouldn't even realize with somebody thatwas trying to maybe mess me around infront of my faceI want to realize because I think theyhave the same heart as me hmm so Iwouldn't even realize anything like thatand then obviously you know that youlive and learn obviously as you growingup and I think for teenagers now it'shard because everybody's trying tosorry for the language but fuck eachother over unless they're really genuinebecause they're like oh I have this ormy dad's got this my mom's got this whatdoes yours has what does your has yourshave I've got this PlayStation you don'thave it oh you don't have it why not oryou know just the little - things whichis you know it's no part of generalgoing on but I guess you don't realizethat until you actually do start to growup and like me going up into a man nobit of an awkward age at the moment 19kind of in the middle teenager turnedinto a young actual man now if you knowme like 18 years the normal designatedage anyways for when they say you were ayoung adult voice you're still in thatin between mm-hm if you know what I meanand then yeah like obviously then I wentto uni as well so just finished my firstyear basically thought I'd stay outfirst year get a bit more independenceand you know again actual experience oflike the halls or whatever like you knowhow everybody hyped up or whatever andit was great experience met some amazingpeople really amazing people some peoplewith some really good hearts but youmeet some give me some weird ones aswell it's really weird people you knowsome people may just want to use andabuse some people actually may want tohang around with you or some people justwant to distract you so you've just gotto make sure that you stay true toyourself and keep with a good heart atall timesso it seems that until at leastUniversity you were trying to one figureout who you are but to also figure outhow people are and I suppose especiallywith the last one it doesn't reallychange I mean I'm a little bit olderthan you but I still go through thatsituation where I'm still trying tofigure out why people are the way theyare or why certain people don't act theways for instance that I act so I willalways go in with good intentions andthen all of a sudden you'll realise thatother people's intent isn't necessarilythe same as yourself so I suppose apiece of advice having gone through thatprobably a little bit more than yourselfis just try and at least be wary ofpeople's intent because some peoplemight come across as almost like thegreatest people that you've ever seenbut then you will find later on oncethey get what they need to extract fromyou as a person you'll find they'll kindof disappear so that's just kind of likea piece of advice but you touched onsome prevalent things that I candefinitelythink about when I was a kid soespecially in the Punjabi culture thewhole drinking and how much can youdrink it's a purely ego thing 100% Ifell into that I fell into almostdamaging my health at the fact of I needto keep up with people when I drinkwhere is now I'd like to think of myselfas slightly more matured if I don'tfancy a drink I would just say that'senough for me and I'll kind of walk awayfrom it but again it's a learning lessona few points I've just made not of aswell that I want to just touch on so youwere always a naughty kid and you'realways I mean you've got yourselfexcluded for trying to bite somebody'snose but then all of a sudden thingsstarted to change and you said somethingwhich I thought was quite important andit was you opened up and the moment youstarted to open up you felt people startto gravitate towards you more I justwant this in relation to that then wasthat a sort of force thing or was thatjust you thinking okay there's no pointme just being this shy person when Ihave so much more to show to the worldobviously I was looking at other peoplethinking how are they doing this why somany people coming to them I'm just youknow I'm worrying too much about otherpeople now you know I actually need tolisten unlike for me and I've alwaysbeen quite open anyways quite if I wantsomething or if I want a fun one andknow something or I want to saysomethingI will say because I just get that offmy parents as well because if they wantto say something they'll just say theydon't they don't be around the bush Idon't see the point either because thenyou're just passing around make it morefuss than need to be so then literally Ijust try to be myself and I was likeokay this about in the year 11 more insix form was around a lot of people arecoming to me and I was like okay this isa bit weird I don't really know how tohandle this and what I found was it justcame with a lot of baggage as wellbecause a lot of people were coming tome but I was like even me me being adumb ass at times I want to realize thatsome people are just there to use me forpopularity or whatever it was and it'sokay though because like I learned fromit like it made me learn that somepeople like you you don't need to hangaround with these people all the timeyou don't need to hang around with apopular crowd it just doesn't make adifference we should be working towardsbetter in the world absolutely I thinkthat's a valid point and just on thatbasis you just reminded me of somethingthat you said earlier as well so yousaid initially obviously you find itdifficult to fit in and then you saidwhich isa problem like literally straight afterand I thought I was that was quite aclever point that you made plus it alsoshows your intelligence that you'rethinking a lot differently because atthat age it is all about fitting in itis all about being the coolest kid onthe block getting the most likes onInstagram and being that that kind ofperson what I want to ask you is whenyou start to be yourself and things weremore positive and obviously you know isthis and you've just explained it do youknow why you wasn't yourself prior tothat I just think are always quite sincesince being young I've always been quiteobservant a bit more like bit or notalways been an awful thinker I'm notsure why I just I've always thought thatI need to be doing more than I need thenI am or I need to be doing pair but youcan't be because like that's that'swhere I got to university now and I'veonly just realized now that you can't beperfect in everything you do and mebeing like a lot of perfectionist when Iwas in school you know I was about toget the best grades etc you know GCSEwas okay you know six form I did quitewell and I just thought you could beperfect but as a human you just can't beperfect so then I started to realizejust be myself I'm always gonna have myflaws as everybody else will have thefloors it just depends who wants to staywith you and still accept your flaws andaccept you you want 100 percent I thinkyou just hit the nail on the head thereas humans you can't be perfect there isno such thing as perfect and this is oneof the things that I suppose even when Istarted this podcast it was to showpeople look I'm just a shy person I'm ananxious person even in this conversationwith yourself on making mistakes um forgetting my words and stuff as well andsometimes it's about embracing yourvulnerabilities your weaknesses and thennext time just trying to be a little bitbetter so I think that's a very goodlesson for anyone in your situation andjust I'm gonna finish it actually onanother thing that you mentioned as wellwhich was when you said in relation tohow people may not have the same intentas you is that it's okay you learn fromit and it sounds easier in hindsight butI think if we can all take ourexperiences your life not not as apersonal attack but more as a sort oflearning experience I think it helpsyour mental sanity a lot more so I'vehad people for example where a similarsituation to yourself where I'm thinkingwhy hasn't that worked out or why is theperson acting in this way that you knowa normal person wouldn't think isethicalor the right way and rather thandwelling on that and then thinking I'mnot worthy of receiving a good person inmy life what I do is I take that as alesson and I think okay fair enough thatperson's got what they wanted out ofthis relationship but next time I'llhave more experience and I'll be wiserfrom it and if a similar type of personcomes along I will know to move on awayfrom that situation if that makes senseyeah like even what I said like it'slike even whoever is it can only be alesson a blessing or like you know likethey're there for life whether it's afriend or a family memberabsolutely absolutely so we've touchedon University and how you've developedin terms of one trying to find outexactly who you are you feel a lot morecomfortable now in the way that you areyou've slid into my DMS you happilyspeak into other people I think that's agreat way that we should be in the worldespecially coming from a very shy personI wish I had the confidence just to kindof put my hand out or just smile atpeople openly in the world because eventhrough my very short experience on thispodcast I've met some incredible peopleand I realize that I'm at my happiestwhen I'm connecting with people and whenI'm getting on with people so I thinkit's fantastic that you're doing that atsuch a young age what have you donesince University or what are you lookingto now achieve moving forward in lifemoving forward obviously on your firstyear Aston University doing businessmanagement great unique kind of thetypical thing probably I'd be void yes Iwant IT typical thing but all in allfrom young always like I'm just alwayswanting to be self-employed it's notthat like okay it's decent working forpeople if they give you decent benefitsbut what I find is that if you cancontrol your own destiny and you canbuild what you want to build him it maynot be something that you know now likeeven me I'm still like what do I dodo I go this way do I go that way it'sstill not no but I guess there's stilltime to figure it out it's not like lifeis short but it's also long as well andyou know there is some days but you'llbe lazy and there's some days where youjust don't have a clue what you do butit's like pretty much everybody's fakingit until they can make it basically intheir own ways which is not a bad thinghow can everybody know what's going onreally because then really trying tofigure themselves out figure where theirfoundations are in the world for me Iwant to build my sample the best I canbemy parents have allowed me to have a lotof freedom and it's right like evenpeople come up to mewhyyou moment that's all like cool withyou what like that my dad is my dadhe'll know when to tell me like straightto the pointbut he'll even have a conversation withme like we're like best friends wish Ilook and the same thing I can do with mymama's also you know I'm glad that hadparents like that got two lovely sistersas well you know they're growing up nowyou don't even realize how much they'regrowing up until you actually see themyou thinking that how did you get tallerit's all a crazy one even myself I lookin the mirror I think where did thisbeard come from I always wanted to be atthis person's got a beard why can I haveone but they just comes in your own timeas everything does absolutely unlike formyself you know I think for the Barrettbarrage I am today like I would say formyself I'm a loving caring humble butmore selective person based on theexperience that I've already had becauselife is already hard as it is life'salready the responsibility is gonnastart ended up piling up anyways sothere's no point it would be negativeyou could have just got to try be aspositive as possible absolutely I thinkthat's really well said and thisactually helped me massively my mindsetand hopefully can help the listeners aswell is the moment I realize that everysingle person is just figuring it outand regardless of their externalappearance or how they seem to have itall together and realize it actuallythey don't and just like you just likeme just like the person listen to thiswe're all just figuring it outnobody's give us the perfect blueprintfor life I don't believe that one existsyeah I think it's brilliant that youknow that on 19 because at 19 I was Ithink I was starting you need do myfirst qualification and I had no ideawhat I was doing I didn't know what Iwanted to become the kind of person Iwant you to be remembered forI was not aligning anything with myvalues on my ethics and this issomething that obviously you're nowgoing through that journey and everyonearound your age is gonna actually gothrough but I think if you can all justtake one lesson away and just know thatyou don't have to have it all figuredout in fact I'm now under a little bitolder where I'm still trying to figureout what am I going to be doing in thenext five years in ten years and whathappens is as we start to grow as peoplethrough our own personal development ourawarenessbe more selective which I thought was abrilliant thing that you pointed out aswell then you're automatically findyourself moving towards things that youlove andyour passion projects hence my podcasthere so I said brilliant and today likeI said you're a lot wiser than I was atyour age hopefully thank you hopefullyyou continue so I was going to ask youabout your routine but I'm prettycertain I know how most uni studentslive their life at uni so here's andthere's nothing wrong with that becauseit's all it's all part and parcel of thejourney I mean my university meeting wasliterally vodka kabobs hangover andwhatever whatever I could find on TV soexactly so I'm not gonna embarrass youabout that but I want to move on tosomething that might be able to givesomebody again some value from thisinterview is about adversity so if youcan think of maybe like a time and Iknow you're still young yet but I stillbelieve that we become the kind ofpeople we are because of the lessons ofthe journeys that we go through so ifyou could think of a lesson of adversityor a problem that you face and then moreimportantly once you've shared that ifyou could just tell us what you learnedfrom it can i this question if I - okaybecause I think what I found has givenme the biggest shock this year isholding on to people okay you knowhaving expectations of people because ittold me a lot this year because you knowyou know how it is lobbying a young ladyou think these are my boys man theseare doing it all I'm gonna do it as wellyou know and it will work in the samecycle and don't get me wrong it's allgood to have your friends your boyswhatever you want to call them but youhave to realize when your energy is notbeing valued or serving you and somebodyif they're not going to value it becausea lot of people are just there to prettymuch just take the mick and they'dalready care what's going on your lifethey just won't know because if youaren't doing better than them thinkingwhy can't I do that myself as well thatyou know again not in an arrogant wayare all like you know I'm friends withgirls I don't see them like anydifferent 2ml you know we're human atthe end of the day and a fun you knowsometimes you know it may sound bad tosay as well you know more for genderequality and stuff but sometimes girlsare just a bit more sensible with theirthinking you're a feeso whereas lads will just be like wellwe'll be looking at each other what doyou want to do your should we have adrink shall we do this mainly it justdepends on the crowd that you surroundyourself with so once you find thatright crowd that's when it will be allgood and well but it's just fine in thatright crowd and finding who you to stayaway from here to stay with you know Iseek quite a lot of validation fromothers as wellwell all in all I don't need to worryabout if it's good for myself and when Ilook back at it now it was good it wasgreat every single timeand if I didn't look at other people allthe time then you know I would havestarted to appreciate myself a lotearlier but now I'm glad that I'm snowyoung and still learning now learningnow that I only need to worry about ifit looks good for me and not anybodyelse because you're the only one thatyou have in this world you know you haveyour family that you keep close friendsyou you know friends are the family thatyou choose and you know y'all needed tocare what you think of yourself as awhole and a fair for you that you canreally trust and that's the bottom linereally for me absolutely Matt I thinkthat's a brilliant point that you justmade there and I think some of the stuffthat you're explaining now isn't stuffthat I believed that we had to gothrough especially my generation or thegenerations older than myself becausethe whole getting validation from yourpeers or getting validation from socialmedia it's become a massive massiveproblem in societyand you also touched on a very goodpoint as well in relation to women beingmore sensitive and more I suppose opento talking about their feelings and thisis something that I really want to tryand work on in the future is getting mento open up about their vulnerabilitiesand talk about their weaknesses and allthings that they struggle with becausemale suicide is far too high for what itshould be in fact it should never bemental health is obviously poor as wellwith males as well and I just think wehave such a bravado and this kind of wehave to show strength all the time thatwe're almost too afraid to kind of speakand it causes problems so I think it'sgreat that maybe it's you as anindividual hopefully it's morewidespread across your community thatyou guys are at least acknowledging thatthere is this lead here in your societyso I think that's brilliant I think it'salso important that anyone in your agerange or anyone going through whatyou're going through doesn't seekvalidation externally it's all aboutreceiving internal validation firstyou've got to love yourself beforeanyone else out they can love youbecause irrespective of what they saywhen it comes down to it you sit in yourown mind on a daily basis on your bottomyour mind can be your best friend or itcan actually be your enemy so you reallyneed to work on that so it's reassuringfor me listening to you to know thatyou're in a much better place understandI mean I think like even how you sayingthey're sorry to cut you off is no noyou can with mental health and you knowthat even as you said the suicide goal Ididn'tthat myself that male suicide is goingup but with mental health like I find itsuch a big cuz even myself like I won'tsit here and I say I haven't been for itmyself I have because I always thinklike you know I've been there in my bedfeeling low as how old you know feelingfeeling rock but I'm thinking you knowand people will say to me what do youhave to stress about you're only 18 19and that's okay that's so cool that'sthere like we used to get on with itback in the day but it's just it's notthe same because we've got all thisaccess to social media nowadays we'vegot people trying to make themselveslook better put like different like youknow brightnesses on their pictures orincrease the brightness of their face ontheir pictures and you know you may meetsome people they don't like this day andthen they're not actually like whatwe've been trying to portray they areand social media and that's what F's itall up because you can't betray yourselfto be something on social media and whenyou meet the person you like well thisperson just the whole different spectrumand with mental health advice it'salways like you can you can do betterthan the other person who you can F overthe other person who can keep on goinguntil some like it's like a it's like arat race like a wolf kind of like a wolfpack sort of thing who can be the thewolf that climbs at the my own first andand all the other ones are trying tolike basically just drag him down andit's hard because you know even withPunjabi community once again they'realways like well if you say to them thatyou have a mental health problem wellthey'll just be like okay no problemjust deal with it yeah I mean it can'tbe that way because I'll getting worsenow and there's only more awarenessabout it now because of social mediawhich the benefits of social media aswell and all this kind of stuff I thinkthat's a that's a great point and againfor the listeners that it's a lot harderand I kind of do sympathise with youguys coming up in this generation wheresocial media has this good parts but ithas this kind of evil tail to it as wellwhere I never had to deal with that sogrowing up for me when I was going touniversity and we were drinking andpartying his sirwe were never worried about taking snapsor or having a whole night out lookingthrough the lens of our phone it wasjust kind of being there in the momentin experience in it and then ourself-worth wasn't pretty much like thatoh absolutely and at the same time ourself-worth wasn't predicated on the factof when we go home at the end of thatnight who got the most likes on that forthe most engagement for example so I'mvery grateful for that and I think it'simportant that you mentioned that but Ijust want to say something else that youmentioned as well because you've said ita few times now and it's probably moreso because of youris that you seen everyone F each otherover because of like you're almostseeing it like a rat race and I thinkthe rat race thing is an important thingand I've tweeted something this morningit was taken from Wayne died and it's avery good quote which i think is quiteuseful for where we are right now inthis show and what he says is we're inpartnership with all other human beingsit's not a contest to be judged betterthan some and worse than others and Ithink if we all sin ourselves a sort ofpartnering up with humans and trying tohelp each other move forward in thislife because at the end of the day we'reall figuring it out as we've touched onearlier I think the world will be insuch a better place but we have thisscarcity mindset where we think in orderfor me to move forward I have to standon somebody else or put somebody elseaside as opposed to saying yeah why do Ihold your hand and we'll move togetherand you're always quicker and strongertogether so I think it's reassuring tohear that you're you've got that mindsetand I think if you remain selective likeyou mentioned earlier I think you'll getthe right network around you toobviously help yourself move forward Ithink what it is as I it's always thatyou've got you right it's always at alland everything as well it's like that'sif you want to create a business rightit's always a trial and everything wherehumans are like you may trust one andthen they may break your trust and youmerge that listen with your whole heartand that's not bad that's not thatshouldn't people shouldn't beatthemselves up if that happens becauseit's a learning lesson that means thatperson wasn't meant to be in your lifeand that means that there's better tocome because even even anyways thatyou've got to have some good days tohave some bad days you've got to havesome bad days to have some good daysit's just as simple as that and you justgotta take the positives that are veryfrom that you can't absolutely meabsolutely yes sir very wise words for a19 year old so appreciate I'll get at meso you're now in your first yearUniversity you've made massive strideswith your talent and your emotionalintelligence is really really high whichis nice to hear what saves you very goodquestioncurrently in my life at the moment whatscares me is not being able to provide acomfortable life for our potentialfuture wife and kids you know not beenough hub I'm a family now my mom dadmy sisters you know they're gonna wantto get married and well yeah I thinkthey're gonna need help with fine likefinance is not the be end and end allbut it does make life with more freedommore comfort so you know if there'ssomething that Idude help them make their life easierand maybe I don't know let's say I hadanother source of income I could give itto them I'd be happy to do that but it'sjust you've got a we're card for thesethings my mom you know she's a teacherherself so you know I always see yesshe's always stressed out so she'salways coming you know she'll be withwork all day she'll be coming back inthe market papers you know tour about9:00 10:00 at night I don't know shedoes it and then repeat the day mybiggest fear is not making their lifeeasier and my biggest fear is not beingable to provide a comfortable life formyself and the family around meI think you've almost answered the nextquestion as well which I was going toask about the motivation so it seemsthat your motivation right now is to beable to successfully graduate and thenprovide different streams of income tofacilitate one obviously your sister'sgetting married helping your parents athome and then obviously giving yourselfthe kind of life that you want as wellyeah because like even for me as welland working under people just kind ofget under my skin a bit to be honest butyou're gonna have to do the minute youagree for a couple years of your lifebecause that's the way it is when you'reyoung as well you know people have toldme that that's the way and you justgotta work hard you've got to keep yourchin up which is not a problemso like currently now I'm working atNando's which is not a problem I'm happyI'm happy for the free Nando's I can'tcomplain but it's a good job for me nowbut could I see myself doing that whenI'm what thirty years old I wouldn'tlike to think so often - because youknow even though it's a good job youknow dealing with customers thatstraight rude or having so much pressureput on you and you know running back andforth running back and forth it's allgood while I'm young but maybe when Iget older maybe I may not just have thatenergy that's interesting firstly I'mhoping I get a free round after thispodcast session is on oh yeah that'sjust as good the weird thing is thereason I'm touching on does is oneeveryone knows I absolutely love Danlosbut tea when I was at university it justopened on Birmingham Broad Street and Iremember sitting there oh I workedliterally all the way through Universityso I went to the same uni as youAston uni and I always had a job noWayans yeah yes I had a job on theweekends and my aim I remember whenNando's opened after trying it I waslike man I really wish I had a job atNano so it's funny how the world worksbut there was a point in time wherehaving a job at Nando's was literally mydream job at least for that period inone yeah time so appreciate where youareappreciate or the good thingbe grateful for everything that's comingyour way now it's taught me like youknow it's told me that hard to grit myteeth who went there a lot of rudecustomers come in so you have to lookafter it like it's like it sounds a bitweird like it's like your own family youhave to keep it clean the place becausethat's where people are going to come inlike you know if you come into the storyyou want to make sure everything isclean you want to make sure the food'son point cannot attend not 9 out of 10because it's not if it's not 10 out of10 then you know you're not going to behappy with the service at all you knowhave a smile on your face and just keepon going like keep your chin up evenwhen it gets hard like even for mesometimes I'll be like I'm just touchingmy forehead thinking flirty arm and Ineed a break but you just got to keep ongoing absolutely me absolutely we'reactually at the fun part the show nowthere is no right or wrong answer butjust try and say the first thing thatcomes in your head we're gonna go inthree two oneif you could abolish one thing in theworld what would it be judgmental peoplepeanut butter and Nutella peanut butteryour biggest role model biggest rolemore mom what would you like to beremembered for being Who I am yourbiggest goal this year to just keep onworking hard no matter how hard it getsyour worst mistake is listening to otherpeople about a certain person if youcould relive one day again what daywould it be 26 of May two years ago whyit was just everybody was therefamily friends you know we was at myhouse and it was just you just wantedmost be of things you know honestly Iread I really loved that day I loved itthe ability to fly or be invisibleinvisible when your fame that's a hardon max I'm thinking well with things youcan get money but then what I say moneyyour favorite food the mix grown andokay speak our languages will be able tospeak to animals animals what song bestdescribes your life Dizzee Rascalbonkers would you rather know how youwould die or when you would die andfinally if you could sit with one personin the world for an hour who would it beprobably my baby my grandma I love thatso the next question it's aboutreflection and I'm a firm believer thathindsight is a wonderful thing and itteaches us ways to get there quickereasier and we're less heartachebut I'm also an avid believer that thejourney teaches us so much as well interms of his lessons so what I want toknow is if you could go back in time toone particular moment knowing everythingthat you know right now and whispersomething to a younger barrage whatwould you say I just said to myself I'dsay barrage do you not worry it will allcome to you in the end you will not endup failing you are not a quitteryou are not inclined to please otherpeople put yourself first say no if youdon't want to do it it's as simple asthatenjoy the present moment more don't looktoo much into the future ruining yourfull process already and don't look backwith pain in your heart these are thebroken pieces of the puzzle which yousaw might end up still piecing togetherhave fun and live life enjoy your youthdon't look too much into girlsalcohol or any other distractions justtry and discipline yourself more keepyourself closed off but keep yourselfliving and humble always may I love thatI want you to do me a favor after thispodcast and actually send me thatwritten form and that was almost likepoetic you mentioned something therethese are the broken pieces and thepuzzle that's still in the piecingtogether but I want to do it just thisso if you can send me that at yourtranscript or what I'll do is I'mactually gonna bring them out separatelyno problem I mean I even I even do havea separate poetry account as well that Ido must like check it out if you haveany time yeah it's on my new profile butit's on its good word under school andschool oh okay check that as wellbrilliant so suddenly that actuallybrings us to the last question and thelast question that I always ask my guessis if in a 150 years time science failsto save us and all that exists is a bookand this book is about you andeverything that you've achieved in yourlife all your weird and wonderful dreamshave been accomplished what I want toknow is firstly what would the title ofthe book say and secondly what would theblurb at the back tell us about you Iwrote yesterday I said you know he waslike I know other he persevered like noother he had himself he was elegantclean hearted charming and crazy hewould always go the extra mile for thosewho were close to his heart at times endup hereall in all he always tried to see thebright side of life the world is alreadytoo cold and entangled in its ownpleasures to not be positiveof that as powerful have you got a titlefor that the title the life of aninquisitive man brilliant me if youwouldn't mind could you give us the bestsources via social media where we cancontact you Instagram I love being oninstagram my instagram is under schoolbeat up for a while its be PU or e w alquite active on snapchat as well is beatup for a while again be pu r e w althey're the main ones I'm active on tobe honest ok no problem so what I'll dois for everyone listening today I'mgonna make sure I put all of the linksso you can contact barrage directly verysocial media as you've probably seenfrom some of these answers today's verypoetic so I'll be following them on hisInstagram poetry handle as well myselfstraight after thisI want to thank Mirage for being openabout his story and sharing it andhopefully this influences and inspiresmany others and I want to thank everyoneat home for listening thank you thankyou and remember this podcast isabsolutely free so all we ask in returnis for you to share this with a friendand drop us a five star review over oniTunes have an awesome day See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

Find your voice - Episode 17- "Wonderfulness of Life" - Louise Blyth #17 Part 2Tagline: "Be the captain of your fate and master of your soul"Louise Blyth, is an incredible lady who has experienced losing the love of her life, George Blyth tragically from cancer. With cancer now affecting 1 in 2 families it is a common occurrence so many of us face in our day to day life. But unlike any other story Louise world took a massive turn upon the sad death of her spouse and soul mate.Experiencing a supernatural event during his last few days Louise beliefs, perceptions, outlook and whole world had been turned around where she found herself finding, what she describes as "the greatest love all of us could ever know"A 2 part special episode, this incredible story does not lean on an emotional tale which will have you in tears of sadness, despite its tragic theme. Instead, tears of happiness seeing someone recover from grief and finding a bigger purpose and understanding of her being in the world takes over the story's narrative and leaves you feeling rather refreshingly happy that in such a sad circumstance someone can continue their life in a positive, fulfilling way.Now a widow of 2 children, Louise has created The Wonderfulness of Life which focuses on, Happiness being a choice and a state of mind.I am sure you will all agree this story truly warranted two episodes and if anyone can take anything positive away from this, it is to cherish all the moments we have with our loves ones and find blessings in whatever cards we are dealt in life.Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Website: https://www.thewonderfulnessoflife.comLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/louise-blyth-207a7a49Instagram: https://instagram.com/wonderfulness_of_lifeFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/louise.Blyth83Have an awesome day#JustDeuIt #FindYourVoice[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice Iam the host of the show so this isactually the second part of a two-partepisode so if anyone has accidentallystumbled across this episode firstplease do go back and listen to part onewhich was literally I a couple ofminutes ago now this episode isincredible and I want to keep those whohave literally followed it from Part onestraight to this part keeping it in flowso I'm gonna stop talking on the jumpstraight back into it so Louise endedthe last episode by talking about howshe was in the presence of something shedescribed is almost supernatural so whatwhat happened at the point of his deathis I went from not believing in God tobelieving in gods in the space of a weekand that has changed my life as much asGeorge's death has changed my life whichhas in turn changed my daily practicesif that makes sense and my day is nowrooted in some practices around faithbecause of that because I've never beenmore certain that God exists say couldyou elaborate on that I mean I've got noproblem missing out some of my pointlessquestions because this is this is moreprevalent if you wouldn't mind so whatwhat would you like me to elaborate onthe which part of the story just to putcontext into one interested in thislittle bit in particularly I am anatheist and the reason I say I'm anatheist now is because I grew up as aSikh and I was very I say somewhatreligious and when I heard I had it in aspace of 18 months I lost seven people66 family members and what and onefriend and I had a very similar outburstinprivate which have never cheat on Normawhere I had the kind of it was like itwas like when you shake about sorryapologies I said when you shake a bottleof coke and then all of a sudden tellyou you know whenever you talk about Godyou always get interrupted that's sofunny that your favorite so good youcould touch a rafter with us so weird aswell because that's never happened in apodcast previously yeah whenever youtalk about God you always getinterrupted Wowfor me my logic is just simple it'sstick to science and it's if there was agod then kids wouldn't suffer kidswouldn't just be killed there wouldn'tbe all this horrible stuff happening inthem and I've kind of justified it thatway but I just want to bring thisstraight back to you yeah so like I saidyou know I was an atheist I didn'tbelieve in God I didn't think God wasreal I thought that you know so I'veobviously grown up in the UK where I'vebeen to school where I've learnt Biblestories so I knew some of the Biblestories I knew about Jesus but I didn'tthink Jesus was the son of God I thoughtJesus was a good guy from you know twothousand years ago he'd done some greatthings and maybe over time his his hisachievements have maybe kind of beenexaggerated is how I it's genuinely howI looked at you know the gospel in theNew Testament and you know religionwasn't something that featured in mylife at all so the very fact that I feltI felt like I had nowhere else to turnwas and the fact that I tend to God Imean I can't still explain what it waslogically that made me do that becauseat that point in time I wasn't my brainwasn't working in a logical way it wasall based on heart not on head if thatmakes sense in terms of the actions thatI was that was undertaking but what whatthen led me to believe that God was realwas incredibly powerful so essentiallyand I'm really mindful now that I'm notgoing to do this survey at this storyit's justice which is why I'm writingthe story down because essentially whathappened was I was introduced tosomebody who I didn't know through areally really good family friends whoasked if they could pray for Joewhich you kind of go okay that's notthat weird that's that's that's not thatodd but what happened was and what andwhat I've realized since I picked it isthat that introduction came after I'dmade this cry so after I'd made this crythis family friend got in touch with meand said look I've met this girl and sheseems to be like a really devoutChristian and she didn't she's shethinks that maybe there's some level ofof healing prayers that we can do forGeorge now what I didn't know at thatpoint in time was their healing is youknow central to all of the stories ofwhat what Jesus did in the New Testamentso obviously Jesus did a huge amount ofmiraculous things which I always talkabout to get my head around like thishow can this person be doing all thesethings okay but there's a lots ofstories in the New Testament where Jesusheals people who have paraplegic who areblind who have bled for 12 years allthese different things so healing isessential to Jesus and the way in whichJesus can work and again I knew non ofthis and this girl had offered to prayfor isn't and offered prayers of healingand at this point in time I'm literallylike I'll take anything I'll take anyone course to give us anything we wereso desperate and again to cut a reallyreally long story short we ended up in asituation when George was quiteliterally on his deathbed and it was itwas hideous our and like he was hedeclined incredibly quickly so again Idon't want to sort of put fear intopeople's heart because this is a storyof beauty but you have to understand thepain that he was in to be able tounderstand the beauty and the miraculousof what happened because he was in an inan inordinate amount of pain so hebasically after that day when I went outand told me he wasn't gonna die anytimesoona few days later was admitted tohospital and just went downhill dayafter day after day and it was it wasdisgusting to have to watch him I meanhe he was in he couldn't eat he couldn'tdrink because his liver was so enlargedit was basically pushing against hisesophagus and his stomach and pushingkind of bile out of his mouth 24 hours aday which I'm really mindful that thisis kind of like quite Gorian quitebrutal but it was awful I mean this thiswas a man that was that was broken infront of me you know the guy that hadeight weeks beforego to Paris and I and I was kinda likewhereas my husband like whom is he likehe looked he looked like death like hischeeks will concave he was so weak hewas crying the whole time he his mum setwith him in the hospital because he wasabsolutely terrified to be left alone itwas it was every parts again you know ifyou think of sort of movies and storiesit was all of what you've seen on TV andin a film around what you think it'sgonna be and worse I literally just feltnumb sitting on watching him and Iwanted to this is gonna sound reallyawful as well I wanted to put him downso I I remember I had never been abeliever in euthanasia and actually I'mnot now because of my spiritual beliefsI'm not a believer in euthanasia but atthat point in time he was so ill but Iremember just being in the hospitalthinking this is horrendous there mustbe something that someone can do how isthis okay yeah human can sit here inthis much mental and physical pain thatthis is not alright of course so andthat and that also led me to keeplooking into other things and I waslooking at like I actually looked atcould I even like get him in my car anddrive him to Switzerland where there's aeuthanasia clinic oh yeah I even lookedat that one point it was so desperate soin amongst all of this absolutedesperation this kind of narrative withGod continued and this girl who I didn'tknow who had met a friend basicallyoffered to come and pray with us inNottingham so she came all the way fromLondon on the train for the day ask fornothingand I met her in the in the canteen ofthe hospital and I remember so nervousmeeting her as I thought oh my god isshe gonna be at one of these reallyweird religious fanatics like is shegonna kind of try and brainwashers isshe is she a bit odd she can ask me formoney these are all of the thoughts thatI had in my head and I remember I satwith her and I said to have reallyreally once believed in the healing andsort of stories and and powers thatyou're speaking of I just I've got to behonest with you like I don't reallybelieve in God I just don't think thatGod's be all like her just think it canbe and she she had a Bible out and sheshe held my hand and she just said to melook you knowI've got enough face for his face likedon't you don't need to worry about thatlike just relax like I can carry youlike I can believe for you and I canbelieve for George is what she said tome which literally felt like someone hadlifted this way because I felt like Iwas lying a little bit as well kind ofthing I can try to pretend that Ibelieve in this thing I don't knowanything it might in case it might workyou know so that day we prayed in Georgeis really in which again I probablydon't have the time to tell you all ofthe detail of what happened but thisgirl who came and prayed is now a reallyreally good friend is something called aprophetic Christian and that means thatbasically they can hear God in a waythat not maybe everyday person can andthey can hear really really clear thingsfrom God sometimes absolutelycrystal-clear messages like what yourbank account number might be just a sortof prove a point you know and it is atthe time I remember they're thinkingthis is odd this is like psychicmediumship I'm not really sure how Ifeel about this so we did these reallyreally beautiful prayers with her andthen during the prayers basically sheshe said look I've got a word for youand at this point in time I was like howdo you know where it is like you knowwhat's word so I've got a letter for youfrom God and I remember wanting to laughout loud and it was this black comedymoment because my husband sat on a beddying and I'm there with this girl I'venever met before who's praying andtelling me that I've got a word which isbasically a letter that she's written tome from God and I was sat there thinkingyou know this girl's off her rocker youknow this is absolutely mental buthonestly Orin what was written in theseletters so she'd written a letter to meand she'd written a letter for Georgeand what was written in these letters orwas just so us it was someone the newour hearts it wasn't it wasn't someonethat had looked me up on Facebook orInstagram and gone oh you Louise andyou've lived in Windsor and you've livedin France and you you've worked here andyou've got two kids it was things aboutme small details that I thoughtinconsequential that God knew it was myheart he spoke to my heart that day so Iwas amazed the word that was written forGeorge was equally as amazing and thenthere was sort of several things thathappened after that maiming so we walkedof that room and after that moment whenshe came and prayed in the roomthe-the-the sort of atmosphere in theroom tangibly changed and it wasn't itwas the it was the sort of spiritualatmosphere if that makes sense it kindof went from feeling dark and heavy tofull of life of an openness and I I wasjust on my knees literally exhausted andI remember saying to carrying that Ijust love what you've done I don't knowhow you've done it but you have boughtsome peace and it was it was tangiblethe creep the peace that she brought onthat day because it was the first timethat I'd seen George sort of soothed ifthat makes sense in all of themedication and everything that you'vebeen given so I just kind of said to herlike we maybe need to do a bit more ofthis she said to me but you can pray youcan learn how to pray like they're goingI can't pray I don't even think Ibelieve in God I don't know how you praylike what do I do with my hands how do Istandwhat do I say like I don't know how todo this you're gonna have to find mesomeone else that knows what they'redoingand basically what then happened was thenext day I went into the hospital afterthat night when I went home and put mykids to bed and done all the other livethings I still had to carry on doing Itried to pray for the first time and I'dreally struggled and I couldn't do it Iwas like this just feels like I'm acomplete fraud I'd tried to kneel downin my bathroom I remember like kneelingdown in my bedroom and putting my handstogether and I'm thinking what do I sayI can't do this this is already odd andthen the next morning I got up went tothe hospital at all walked into thehospital and that morning when I went inGeorge was laid on his bed and the Sunwas beaming into the room like onto hisface and he's laying with his arms openand he looked at me and he smiled and hesaid to me no he's what they're givingme I feel amazingI just feel amazing and I just startedto cry but I knew in that moment that hehadn't been given anything and I wentand spoke to the nurse and the nurselooked at all of his you know detailsand said he's not had anything he hadsome morphine at 1:00 a.m. it was nowlike 11:00 in the morning and she waslike it was enough morphine to maybelast him a couple of hours he'sdefinitely not had anything so I wentback to his room and I didn't say to himyou haven't hadbecause I kind of thought I don't wanthim to know that he hasn't had anythingif he thinks that the effort that he'shad is making people better I justdidn't want to sort of distract him fromthe absolute peace that he'dmiraculously found and he literally laidon the bed that day and just said to meit's all gone the pain is gonethe fear is gone we'd had theseheartbreaking conversations the daybefore before this this girl had arrivedto complain with us about what we didwith the kids like to be bringing thekids in to come and see him to saygoodbye and it was probably this soundsreally awful it was less than the kidsbut it was more for him because we knewthat our children was so little thatthey wouldn't remember it and he and hewas really emotional about that becausehe just didn't think he had the strengthto say goodbye and he didn't think hecould do it and he said to me I just Idon't he said that everybody is here nowwith me you know and honestly he wasn'tthe kind of person that spoken this theyalready he was not a spiritual guy likehe layed on this bed so at peace andsaid to me everything now is in my heartthe boys are here my love for you ishere my love all of my family is hereand it's like a bright burning ball ofenergy that's never gonna go and I wasjust I was absolutely overwhelmedbecause I remember thinking who is thisperson that's laid here because this ismy husband but it's not my husband and Ireally liked what he was saying to mewas completely the tree so I knew thathe believed it you could see itphysically in his body and that thatthen propelled me to go okay there'ssomething in what we've done here thisprayer whatever this prayer thing isit's worked there's something in it thatwe've got to do more of it maybe thiscan help him and that triggered me thento start writing letters to God so I'dalready been writing letters to Georgebecause I've mentioned earlier I wasseeing a psychologist and she'd said tome look like how do you communicate Isaid look I like to ride she said whyshe can write write write about thetrauma journal about it and I'd beenwriting letters to George every day inhospital all the things that were on myheart that I wanted to tell him that hedidn't have the energy to hear becausehe was so sick but I needed to kind oflet bubble out of my system so that thatthat night I went home and I wrote myfirst prayer to God and then what whatensued was every time I prayed and wrotea letter the girl in London who I didn'treally know who that well at the exactmoment that I would finish praying wouldwrite a response so she'd write back andit would be like it would be a responseto the prayers that I wrote and shedidn't know that I was writing them itwas just the most unbelievably beautifulstory so we had this you know we hadGeorge laying on his death bed in thisstate of peace in this state of perfectbliss and he was quoting scripture okayso George never read the Bible oranything and he was talking to me aboutperfect love which is alone for John inthe gospel and so we had that going onso we had the sort of miraculous bodilyvisible you know George George has gonefrom being in pain to being at peace Ihad this girl that I didn't know who wassomehow supernaturally connected and insync with me responding to my prayersevery time I it was like that old TomHanks movie you've got mail I write Iwrite I write on my iPhone I ordered mr.for my notes on my iPhone and every timeI literally press turn on the top of mytop right while I faint screen I'd get atext it would be just like you knowscripture responses words that gottapush you is used to frame as this iswhat God's put on my heart so thathappened and then there was just thisunbelievablepresence in the room that everybody wasdrawn to sit everybody at the hospitalwas drawn to George's room which I nowknow was the sort of you know what wouldcall in Christianity the Holy Spirit itwas the Holy Spirit was there it justwas pulsating through the room and whatwhat I find interesting now is that Iknow that we all actually recognize thatif that makes sense but we don't realizethat we recognize it because it is in uswe just don't know it and and everyonewho was there you know some people werereligious some people weren't buteverybody knew there was something goingon if that makes sense that the onlyuniversal recognition was that there'ssomething bigger at play here at thehospital you know they said to me afterGeorge died like we wish everyone coulddie in this way like wewe could document it and process it soeveryone could have this des nurses werecoming in on their days off to sit withhim and just be with him becauseincredible presents were so calming itled to a great friendship that I've madewith a with a pastor of a church and notsomething that we now go to every weekas he he was basically the person thatthen came and prayed with us every daybecause I had sort of said to this girlin London you're gonna have to find mesomeone to pray with because I knew myfriends I wasn't a person he wasreligious and so yeah it was just theway I frame it to people is I lost thelove of my life but I've gained thegreatest love all of us can ever knowand it was just so incredibly beautifuland I'm still trying to pick the storytwo years later and question you knowhow why you know what does this mean allof those are the things but ultimatelyall I know is that God is real and Godis good and you know Jesus is real tooyou know all of the stories that happenin the Bible now I have now I've gotthis understanding of the supernaturalthat I saw in that hospital room I canread those stories with the lens ofacceptance that I never had before and Iunderstand them and get that they didhappen and but I think we just I thinkin the society that we live in now wewant everything to be like Amazon Primetimelines you know and actually whatI've also very knows is that the timingsof the supernatural and the holy spiritare just not linked to earthly timing soyou know I can never answer questionslike you know why did you need sevenpeople in a row why did I lose myhusband and then three months later hismother died she dropped dead andsimultaneously to my husband dying mydad was diagnosed with stage four canceryou know says we it wasn't like life wasbeautiful on any show yeah it reallywasn't but what I did what I do youthink I'm what I do maintain is thereyou know cancer is not god-given and ifyou look for God he's always there evenin the bad situations but the badsituations are not always given by Godyou know like it's man's got three willright and someand the way in which we behave in in theworld that we now live in is driven byall three well it's not driven by Godbecause he made us that way so yeah Wowgot goosebumps yeah just a remarkablestory this gonna be in your novel yeahthis is gonna be in my novel and whatwould be amazing so I'm actually doingsome edits at the moment so I'm hopingto get the book out this year that's thelast thing so it would be it would bereally cool to like speak again mightwants the books available so I can sayto people yeah because there's sothere's such steps is the story on saveme levels and I also I'm hugely mindfulthere you know like I I like they say Ican't believe what's happened to mebecause I kind of look at it and go whatwhy like why was all of this way it wentfor us but it was and it is and I justnow feel really strongly about the factthat I have to do something with thistale and with this story you need toraise awareness of cancer to raiseawareness of what it is to live withcancer that it isn't the end of yourlife to raise awareness of the fact thatdeath is it's gonna be something thathappens to all of us and could be themost unbelievably beautiful experienceyou ever ever imagined and they're alsoyou need death is at the end and thatGod's God is real and God is here foryou and and loves you but I alsorecognize that just because I say thatdoesn't mean that I can impart thatbelief into life yeah I mean your yourtruth is your truth and everyone's gottheir own kind of truth I'm always opento anything really I mean you've saidsome certain things there that makeobviously make me think because from aspiritual perspective I have sinned andI have tail as many of them of stuffsimilar oh yeah I'm absolutely incheering my spiritual stuff and evenlike in terms of psychics and mediumsand I'm going to find a tangent here butI do believe in that supernatural powerI suppose or just the whole the fairytale story of this person just oneperson they're kind of I don't knowmaybe I've just got the wrong image ofof God when I said it you knew what theywere and I think that that's the caselike I think go back to the point thatyou made earlier about we have thisvision of our life should all be verytomkostik and we meet the dream partner andwe get the dream house and we get thedream kids and we do things by certainages and I think we're all for whateverreason book to believe that God is aperson on the cloud somewhere and I meanI'm no theological expert you know I'mtwo years into my journey of faith andI'm still understanding the Bible andgetting my head around there and whatthat means to me and how I live my lifebut equally I kind of go it's not theway that I ever thought it was if thatmeans I should be passionate aboutbecause I kind of have now reflected onmy life because of everything that'shappened and gone well I mean what Godwas actually there the whole timeI just didn't know him I didn't know noI didn't know how he worked I didn'tknow how he communicated I mean I if I'mhonest as a feminist have a huge beefwith the fact that he's always referredto as a man I mean I'm not I'm notdisputing that Jesus Jesus was a manokay but but God you know God is what heis and that's what it says in the Biblelike he is not man he's not woman he heis what he is and but he is called a hebecause of the time in which the Biblewas written which is when you know menruled the world not in the way that notthat the hopefully not yeah there's acertain but you said that you lost thegreatest love of your life or you didthen find the greatest love that wecould all will ever know and I just yeahI was so powerful food for thought forme absolutely because there are that Ithink I think we could know how youmentioned in that room and I was kind ofimagining like almost like watching afilm you know when you see him you Jobsand then the sun's beaming and thenwe've all probably had that feeling ofeuphoria with this dis just isn't normallife let's something else is here yeahand I get that and if anything is weirdbecause although I sometimes say okay Idon't believe in God anymoreI believe in every other thing like allthese miraculous character things soit's kind of okay maybe again is just mylanguage that I use language because Ifind that so fascinating and I couldtalk to you for hours just on that andsome of this stuff I've seen people dolike how you mentioned he was speakingScripture and stuff I've seen peoplespeak a different language that they'venever heard of yeah yeah yeah whatyeah yeah yeah is amazing Wow I'm justI'm just so happy that it's such anunfortunate circumstance that you'vemanaged to find some level of happinessyeah life life can be found in therelike it really really and I I feel likeI've been given a second chance at lifethrough my husband's death which is sodesperately sad and you know my greatestwish is that I could have thisperspective with him by my side but forwhatever reason it wasn't meant to bethat way and I'll only ever know thatreason when I am living and having withhim you know so and until then I have tolive the best life I can and thehappiest life I can for me and mychildren because that's all he wantedfor us and that's what God wants for ustoo so I just kind of go you know whatit's my choice you know I can choose forthis to be miserable and this can breakme or I can choose for it to make me andI know how to do this let it make youand let it also inspire you to shareyour story with as many people aspossible yeah with the perspective youhave so yeah yeah that's fantastic Wowokay fantastic this is actually gonna bemy first ever tea pot podcast because Iit was almost too good for me to kind ofquit off so I'm gonna actually make it atwo part show okay I think we could fiteverything in two parts as well and yesit's fantastic so you're actually thefirst ever two-part show and it's beenworth it honestly yeah could justresonate with so many things I'm surethey listen as well as well yeah soadversity I think we've definitely hitthat yeah I'll on the head there amillion times over and I'm done like Isaid early I'm just so happy that you'rein a much better place now what now thennow that you've found God and you'veyou've almost found this new perspectiveI suppose what scares you now my biggestfear is not being able to live a faithfilled life so I I fear that I won'tthat something may happen that imbalanceis this faith because actually I feellike with my faith I can and nothingscares medoes that make sense my biggest fearwould be to not for whatever reason tonot believe in God anymore absolutelybecause of what you believe God hasgiven you yeah and God has for ISM forall of us so I kind of feel like withGod by my side I don't fear anythingfeel invincible I'm not so not to saythat it wouldn't be difficult andincredibly painful and all of those arethe things but I know that God would bewith me but if for whatever reason Ilost God or I lost my connection withGod that that's my greatest fear now tonot not have that okay I understand thatokay and in terms of so your motivationI suppose we kind of touched on itearlier in terms of persevering andgoing forward is that now to kind ofshare your message further and try andenlighten other people yes and why Isuppose my purpose now is to is to sharemy story so I always say to people Idon't wish the circumstances that I havefound myself in upon anyone it's beenhell to live through but what I do wishis the perspective if it's given me andI realize that I've always been likethis fast track version of life yeah sobecause I've had something so bad happento me it's maybe meant that it'sexploded in a way that's been so gooddoes that make sense yeah yeah maybethink about the situation logically andwhat I'm hugely mindful of and I knowI've said this already is I don't expectthat other people I mean you're gonnacome to faith with the same power andpassion that I have but for me if peoplelistening to my story and hearing metalk about what I've lived through canmake them maybe think about how theybehave with people that they know withcancer differently or lean in and helpthem better or think about what they cando to build their resilience muscle orultimately think about is there morelike what what isn't this life like whyam I here are you I mean ultimately youknow if I'm talking in corporatelanguage you know like my ultimateoptimum success would be that peoplefind God nutri through hearing my storyand then it kind of sparking a journeyof interest in themselves and kind ofwanting to to sort of know more andunderstand more but I think there'sloads of other stuff that it could sparkfor them as well so for me it's kind ofwanting to share the sadness of what'shappened to me to make people realizethey're you know there's so much life tobe lived and you've got so much more inyour tank than you ever know that you'vegot until you have to be in a situationwhere you're forced to use it soyeah that's fascinating that's why youwere saying that Episode five AshleyNixon I think you're really really resinL not I'm not trying to give you moneyFelicity yeah he was a boxer yeah and hefound God yeah look I've shared it withall of my it's incredible because thatone yeah okay like I said I mean I'mhere saying I don't necessarily believein God but that episode was so powerfulthat I remember I mean I didn't put itin the actual episode where I wasactually like screaming kind of like Iget it I get where you're kind of sayingyou know how you see put in the churchand they're all like yeah yeah yeah yeahI'm kind of getting that now withyourself and I'm just thinking they'reencouraging I think not be a greatconnection as well because I know he'sdoing fantastic things I think he mightbe up north now he's working yeah he'snot really on social media which buthe's just such a beautiful soul yeahanything yeah what we're gonna do nowwe're actually gonna just completelyflip the scriptokay go into a segment of the show thatI just put in here just for a little bitof fun and this is people obviously knowyou now in terms of your story andeverything but I know there's also youknow just a little fashion stuff thatthey could probably play from justknowing so you ready yeah I'm ready okaywe're gonna go in three two oneokay what did you eat for breakfastshreddies and granola the ability to flyor be invisible be invisible money orfame fame so I could impact people'sthoughts your proudest moment can I haveto both both of my boys face am iachieve all those face of my boys yourfavorite foodOh chocolate Netflix our YouTube netlegs okay your number one goal this yearto publish my book to your coffee teayour favorite sport oh gosh I don't havea favorite sport to watch I'd probablysay tenants okay so you participate inoh I don't really do sport I do I likelike sirJim can we call that a sports boys'llwhy not there's no rules here fantasticokay if you can sit with one person inthe world for an hour who would it beJesus your worst fear is a child Ohprobably something to do with snakes Ireally don't like snakes they scare meyour favorite place in the world lake inNew Zealand South Island of New Zealandsounds amazing speak our languages we'llbe able to speak to animals speak allthe languages if you could have punishedone thing in the world what would it bepoverty would you rather than on how youwould die or when you were they how orwhen I probably say when because I thinkthe power of being able to say goodbyeis unbelievable and it's interestingactually because I remember someoneasked me this question before Georgedied and I always just said I wouldn'twant to know I just want to be shot andactually what I would say to people nowis it's just so unbelievably powerfuland to have the opportunity to saygoodbye and even though it's sad it's soso healing to be able to do it say thatI think you know when you're gonna dieso you can prepare for it emotionallyfinancially is a huge blessing yeahabsolutely I think we're gonna leave itthere and I think that's it that's agreat that you said because I think withdeath it's more the uncertainty and thanthe shock of it that really just throwspeople into a whole whirlwind yeah yeahwe're almost at the end of the show nosadly just got two more things I want toask you and I think this would be aninteresting answer from yourself becauseit's about reflection and I'm not usedto turn it easier how you wish you hadyour perspective when George was aroundso my my view is always the samehindsight you know it's a wonderfulthing we can obviously learn ways wherewe can get to places quicker easier withless heartache but like yourself whichI'm sure you'll agree it teaches us somany lessons yeah access to people thatwe are so knowing exactly what you knownow if you could go back and takeyourself back to a younger Louise youcan choose whatever age you wish whatwould you what would you whisper in youryounger selves is I'd whisper in my earyou're lovedGod is real he's for you he has a planfor you he's with you and he wants youto surrender to him in a way that onlyis right for you I love that I thinkobviously because your experience withGod knows if you were able to have thatthen yeah yeah absolutely yeahsuddenly were actually at the lastquestion now and again this is aquestion ask all of my guests I'm alwaysinterested to kind of know how peoplewant to be remembered and I'm alwayseager to get as many people to sharetheir stories as possible because at theend of the day I truly believe nobodyreally wants to be forgotten and I thinkwe've all got a story out there so if wesay in 150 years time science fails tosave us and all that is left is a bookand this book is by yourself and it's onthe table and you've got a I supposekind of make people want to pick it upso what firstly would the title say andsecondly the blurb at the back of itwhat would it tell us about yourselfwell this is easy re because I'm rightlooking I want to write more than onebook so the series the series of my bookwould be called the wonderfulness oflife and which is actually a name that'staken a lot of letter it's a name that'staken from a letter that George wroteand before he died reflecting on thewonderfulness of life the first bookwould be called he heard my cry andthat's the story that I've sort of toldin part today so if we take that firstbook which is the book I'm hoping toit's obviously kind of published thisyear and that story is a true storyabout love's exploding into my life amoment when I was least expecting it andyou would maybe say that I was likeBridget Jones meeting God tragic aboutthat backdrops and it's the tale of howI was gifted a front-row seat to areal-life miracle the tale of how I lostthe love of my life that gained thegreatest love we can all ever know andit's a tale that I hope and wish willimpact the thinking of a generation wowI love thata real-life miracle yeah it's abrilliant tagline just in relation toyour book and I'll keep jumping back tothis are you gonna be releasing anaudible version I haven't even got thatfar that's a good ideaI'd like to yeah like I'm just beingselfish here because if I read pagesfrom a book I'm asleep within threeseconds so I listen to a lot of my stuffi podcast and I would take that as asign are you amazing please do that Ithink you're being credible and justbefore you leave then I'd like to put inthe show notes obviously for people tobe able to contact you and then yeahhopefully by them contacting you canobviously keep them up to date with therelease of the novel but then I'd loveto get you back as wellcloser to that release or after you'vereleased it as well because I just youknow this is an incredible inspiringremarkable story I think you'refascinating the way you've you justfound this bliss and I can hear it fromyour voice all the way through because Iwas expecting and I'm quite an emotionalperson to get choked up during thisinterview mm-hmm if anything you'remaking me just I've just been smilingjust hearing it although there's a sadelement to the story it's just almost Ijust feel I just feel happy for that soif you caught my husband used to alwayssay say be sad but she was happy yeah healways she's happy I love that yeah yeahso if you could just give us where thelisteners can find yourself yeah I saythe best the best place to find me isprobably on Instagram so I'm onInstagram as wonderful nurse underscoreof underscore life so it's wonderfulnessof life the two underscores I have got awebsite that it's being built at themoment and and yeah I'm also on Facebookas Louise Bligh is but I post onFacebook cause wonderfulness of life andthat's kind of my reflections on life Isuppose and the wonderfulness that wefind in in every day in everyday joy youknow so it's me talking about how I youknow I think it's an invitation to comeand see life through my eyes almostcertainly I didn't knew this afternoonas well when I get back from my nextmeeting I'll add that all in the showknows and onceor website is sell and please do let meknow because what I can do is go backinto the show notes and edit it becausethese episodes they get listened to allsorts of weird and wonderful it's justnot it is www.hs wonderful nurse of lifecalm I think computer I think that's itmy it's there there's a holding pagethere and there's a picture of me it'slinked to my Instagram but it's not gotall the content on it at the moment butif you put that on it is it will take itwill take you somewhere to me and youcan send me a message that I'll get onthat as well so fantastic ok so this hasactually been our first ever two-partepisode thank you thank you thank youhonestly thank you so much for sharingyour story I'm sure it's gonna resonatewith so many people it's been anabsolute pleasure for the listeners aswell thanks for listening oh you're sowelcomeand remember this podcast is absolutelyfree so all we ask in return is for youto share this with a friend and drop usa five star review over on iTunes havean awesome day See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

Find your voice - Episode 17- "Wonderfulness of Life" - Louise Blyth #17 Part 1Tagline: "Be the captain of your fate and master of your soul"Louise Blyth, is an incredible lady who has experienced losing the love of her life, George Blyth tragically from cancer. With cancer now affecting 1 in 2 families it is a common occurrence so many of us face in our day to day life. But unlike any other story Louise world took a massive turn upon the sad death of her spouse and soul mate.Experiencing a supernatural event during his last few days Louise beliefs, perceptions, outlook and whole world had been turned around where she found herself finding, what she describes as "the greatest love all of us could ever know"A 2 part special episode, this incredible story does not lean on an emotional tale which will have you in tears of sadness, despite its tragic theme. Instead, tears of happiness seeing someone recover from grief and finding a bigger purpose and understanding of her being in the world takes over the story's narrative and leaves you feeling rather refreshingly happy that in such a sad circumstance someone can continue their life in a positive, fulfilling way.Now a widow of 2 children, Louise has created The Wonderfulness of Life which focuses on, Happiness being a choice and a state of mind.I am sure you will all agree this story truly warranted two episodes and if anyone can take anything positive away from this, it is to cherish all the moments we have with our loves ones and find blessings in whatever cards we are dealt in life.Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Website: https://www.thewonderfulnessoflife.comLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/louise-blyth-207a7a49Instagram: https://instagram.com/wonderfulness_of_lifeFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/louise.Blyth83Have an awesome day#JustDeuIt #FindYourVoice[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and as always I am thehost of the show so before I begin thisannouncement I just want to say amassive massive massive thank you toevery single one of you who havelistened to this show I also want to saya massive thank you to anyone who haspreviously listened to his show and lefta review because it's your reviews thatI've helped us get into the news and notworthy on iTunes now this is no smallfeat this is actually an incredibleachievement and the more I research itthey're more proud I actually feel butmore importantly I'm so proud of myguests and I'm so grateful that theywere able to share their journey but I'malso so happy to have such loyallisteners like yourselves to reallysupport this movement and that's exactlywhat it is it's a movement it's abouttrying to inspire people try and put apositive beacon of light into the worldand really try and get everyone to livetheir best life combat their excuses andreally change their perception andmindset so without rambling on too muchwe have a really really excitingtwo-part episode coming up for you nownow this is actually our first evertwo-part episode and conscious of yourtime which is obviously our biggest andmost important commodity I'm gonna jumpstraight into this one okay so I justwant to start by thanking Louise for hertime and coming onto the show today toshare her story which I'm sure you'reall gonna find absolutely inspirationalso Louise how are you doing todayI'm good thank you I'm good fantasticfantastic so I just want to say thankyou I appreciate you and I'm reallylooking forward to this one so this wasactually a recommendation from somebodyelse you may haveone heard previously on a podcast it'sepisode number fourteen and it's my betdaily Rylan it's something that I urgeall of you to check out because it wasactually within the first four hours itgot the most number of listenstraightaway so it's a great hit and I'drecommend you all going back to thathowever moving on now we have anotherfantastic guest in Lewis so Louise Ithink it's really important for thelisteners to understand your story andunderstand a little bit about yourselfas well if you if you wouldn't mind ifyou could just kind of give us aninsight into yourself a little bit aboutyour journey and what basically bringsyou here today yeah no worries so and ifI'm completely honest I never thoughtthree even four years ago that I wouldbe someone that would be sat beinginterviewed on a podcast talking aboutthe subject that I'm going to bring tothe table today which is lossbereavement and life after livingthrough sort of that kind of trauma soso my story is from nottingham fromrobin hood that's where i kind of growup grew up and spent my childhood had afantastic childhood my parents reallysort of put myself over the first I waskind of one of those people at schoolthat was not really super cool but alsoI hope not too much of a mega geek andyou know you did did the normal stuffkind of growing up going into nightclubsprobably too young being carried out ofnightclubs after having drink too muchso my friends before say probably tooyoung and went away to university at 18where I studied French and actuallylived abroad for a year when I was 19which was quite young and that was Isuppose my first experience if I'm beingbrutally honest of life if that makessense so in terms of really realizingthings around loneliness relationshipsbeing able to kind of go it alone and dothings for yourself because essentiallywhen you're on your own in a foreigncountry you have no one else to rely onother than yourself and I and so thatwas that was really really kind of bigexperience in my life and graduated inin 2006 probably like many so you reallyexpect it about what life had to offerme and had one of these huge plansaround what I thought I was gonna be andwhat car is thought I was gonna driveand what house I wanted to have hadn'tmet kind of anyone special at that pointthere's been a few a few boys but no onewho'd kind of really made me sort of situp and take notice and in 2006 I wasaccepted on to a training scheme agraduate training scheme and that waskind of a supposed to start of where mylife really really started to change soI I started there in September and on myfirst day in fact before my my first dayon the induction day I met George who Iwould fall in love with and marry so wewere part of a group of about 30 peoplehe will join together and we had a greattime it was like being at university youknow me we were there training togetherliving together all became really reallygreat friends but he was the guy thatkind of more than anyone else you knowwas not never first I on any level I youknow I remember thinking oh my gosh thisguy's so confident you know he's reallysort of sure of himself but we justbecame really great friends and we usedto would talk all the time and then itwas that that Christmas so this is theSeptember when we started our job and itwas that Christmas when we actually kindof had our first kiss so he'd he'dreally really raison he said when hefirst were in the business oh well I'mgonna be I'm gonna be in Edinburgh soI'm gonna have a hub burn a party andwe're all gonna come to Edinburgh andhave this holiday party and I rememberthinking oh my god who is this guy likethey're so confidentso anyway true to his words you knowfour months later there we all were sortof twenty or so others at his flat in inEdinburgh and that's kind of whereGeorge and I had our first kissNew Year's 2006 2007 and after that youknow my life my life changed in aninstant I know for people that arelistening that of maybe you know you'vemet someone that they know that theywon't spend the rest of their life withwhen you meet that special person youknow really it is everything that you'veever hoped for it is kind of like themovies and the songsand it's it's truly beautiful it's areally amazing experience and we knew weknew from the outset that we hadsomething special I think that often youdo you know it was more than just afriendship it was a kind of deeprespectful sort of love it was it was itwas powerful you know and so we kind ofwent on living our lives together youknow as what happens when you meet theperson that you want to spend your lifewith you know you stop being you stopbeing as our lives became more and moreintertwined so we we lived apart welived togetherwe vented together we bought a housetogether his kind of his career wentfrom kind of great amazing as he kind ofcharged through the ranks from corporateperspective we were engaged in 2010 wewere married in 2011I felt pregnant we had off this babyquite quickly which was just a hugeblessing and we it gave birth to of thisson in 2013 so for all intents andpurposes we were the couple that thathad it all we were probably the peopleand I hugely recognize this that peoplelook to in kind of discipline oh howthey got this you know like they'vethey've met young they've both got goodjobs they're doing really well hopefullythey thought we were nice people youknow we had we had a nice house we drovenice cars we had a you know we had wedecided we wanted to have a baby and itjust was easy we got pregnant and I hadno problems with my pregnancy so youknow we were on to a good thing life waslife was really really great and then wedecided to have another baby and I gotpregnant very easily again and shortlyafter office and was born we moved houseso we relocated back to Nottingham surebecause by this point we're living downsouth because that's like the street sirI paid gold and then whilst I waspregnant with our second son George justhad this overwhelming feeling which Ican come back to and talk about somemore and as we kept kind of maybe deeperinto the interview there that we had tomove that we had to move back to myhometown andum so we we bought a house when I wassix months pregnant and moved after ourson was just born to me with an 8 weekold baby at that time that's when Georgestarted to be presenting with symptomsthat just weren't you know wasn't welland we couldn't get to the bottom of ithe was wrong he constantly had a cold hewas always tiredhe was really rundown he had low reallyreally low energy levels and because ofthe stage and the circumstance of ourlife in that we had two incredibly youngchildren Zoey at this point you know wehad a three-month-old baby and atwo-year-old son and you know justNewhouseGeorge was commuting to London from ourhouse and Notting Michelle it is a bigcommute you know said not you know notfor the faint-heartedwe just continually put it down to thefact that this is what life is in yourseason and you know you try and haveyeah we're rundown you know this ishaving kids everyone whinges about thetiredness and the exhaustion which is ayou know it's part of the territory ofyou know you don't live with yourchildren but it just didn't sort of seemto get better and there was thiscontinual niggle that was there andessentially basically we pursued it andto cut a long story short of how weactually came to this conclusion wedecided to send George for a colonoscopywhich is a process where you basicallyhave a camera put up your bottom it'snot that unpleasant so he went off andhad this procedure and I mean this iswhat our life was like at this point intime our and so he decided to have thisprocedure in London because he rememberhim saying to meyou know I'm so busy at work what I cando is I can go to work and then I can dothis after work and I can come back andI can still behave at that time wegenuinely didn't think that there was abig you know big big reason to beconcerned all of the health careprofessionals had said to us there's nota reason to be worried he's so younghe's 33 it's definitely not gonna bebowel cancer and basically that day thatyou had the colonoscopy which was thethe 9th of December 2015he called me I was at home literallykind of quite literally walking aroundthe Christmas tree and my little boyanswer and with a little Senate nurse weputting all my fairy lights out thinkingwow you know life's amazing this is grayand he called me and that phone call wasthe moment that just shattered my lifebecause having your husband ringing andsay the words I've got cancer ah it wasjust it felt like a time-space continuumand I yeah it was just hideous and Iremember saying to him oh my god shecan't know this already how do you knowlike it can't be which was actually theroute that I went domine when he told uswas exactly the route that all of ourfriends went down afterwards when weactually had to then tell them the newswhich was just as difficult as himhaving to tell me and I know now thatthat's the kind of psychologicalresponse in terms of you know plausibledenial you want to commercialise withwhat you're hearing and you want somehowto be like this isn't true this thiscan't be the case this isn't us you knowdo you not know who we are today and Iremember you know being on the phonewith George and crying and him saying tome it's fine like he'd managed to havethe force I mean this is the kind ofincredible guy he was he'd had theforesight to call my parents tell myparents what happened before he ran meso he could say to me after he told meI've got cancer your mum and dad are onthe wayyour mum doubt of coming over andthey're gonna be here any minute andthey're gonna be they're gonna be herethey're gonna scoop you up and I'm on myway back from London it was just so soso kind and so thoughtful which was justwho he was to his coreso that was December 2015 and our livesin that instant you know I often jokedwith people and say I sing the song fromFresh Prince of bel-air oh it's probablyshows the kind of generation that I amit was you know this Oriole upside downbecause in that instant it was my lifewas flipped turned upside down and yeahit was just everything that we knewabout our life was thrown thrown on thefloor but then that you know that wasn'tthe end that was the beginning of a newlife and a new existence which went onfor 11 monthsso we then lived in a season of stagefour bowel cancer so when George wasdiagnosed he had metastatic bowel cancerwhich is basewe can circle of lingo for the fact thatthe cancers bad and it spreads todifferent parts of your body and inGeorge's case it spread to his liverwhich is not good news obviously it'sone of our major organs that you need tofunction so George then lived through Ithink it was eight rounds ofchemotherapy followed by six weeks ofreally intense radiotherapy followed bya season of kind of watch wait let's seewhere this where these horrible cellskind of come back then he did a hugehuge surgery in the summer which issomething called the liver resectionwhich is essentially where you getchopped open and all of your liverthere's got cancer and chopped out whichis kind of just the most epic surgeryyou can imagine before he did that hecycled around London and raised a lot ofmoney for bowel cancer UK and then hesaid I remember him saying to hisoncologist you know just before he hadthis liver surgery I'm gonna I'm gonnado more bike riding and then this sortof all looking at him like he wascompletely mental eight weeks to the dayafter he'd had his liver resection hecycled from London to Paris releasedmore funds for Bar Council UK and thenshortly after returning home from thatboat ride he started complaining againfeeling unwell and we you know wegenuinely thought that we were on thesort of positive track with this diseaseand literally eight weeks the day afterhe'd stood in front of the eiffel toweryou know holding his bike you know inthis kind of really momentous epicphotograph that I've got of him he wasdead so he he went downhill incrediblyquickly and peacefully passed away onthe 18th of November 2016 so I was 33and I had a three year old and a tenyear olds and yes it was incrediblyincredibly hard yet was incrediblybeautiful and a moment of glory that Inever expected at the moment of hispassing so I suppose that was a realgame-changing moment when he died whichwas just absolutely beautiful andthere's no other word to describe itwhich is I suppose why my story's a bitdifferent because I think probably mostpeople are going to be expecting me tosay and then it was himyes and then it was all for and I lovethis season of grief and and it has beenand it was all of those things but itwas equally really beautiful because oftheir the way in which George died andwhat happened to all of this at themoment of his death which I'm sort ofreally excited to talk some more withyou about say and just stunned that lastbit and which we will touch on just in afew moments time I can tell that youwere going to have that response justfrom the way you were explaining yourjourney and everything that you've beenthrough so but when I think of concernwhat it's done to my family it becomes amore of an emotional thing and it'squite like even when you talk about itlike demeanor and everything changeswhen you say you can see that you'veactually found the silver lining in thisin this journey that you've had to takeand I just find that incredible so I'mlooking forward to hearing just a bitmore about that have balls and knowabout how it was one not only incrediblyhard but also incredibly beautiful Imean I'm taking notes here because Idon't want to miss anything and I'm surelisteners I probably think ask her thisask her this because it's so fascinatingbecause what you've literally describedis a fairy tale story and it's kind of astory that I suppose when we grow upthere's there's a thing and I was I wasdoing a speech recently and I was sayinghow you know how we go to school andyeah you get your results and then yougo to secondary school then you have theI love is then you go to university thenyou get married and you have kids andthen you retire at 65 it's almost likesomewhere in a in our subconscious Isuppose we reprogram to believe we'rejust going to lift or 65 wheneverything's just gonna fall in placeand then what happens it comes in boomit hits you how is he so hard yeahthat's why people struggle and I justthink yeah it's a I'm grateful thatyou're sharing this story because itwould just wake people up yeah I'm veryfortunate that nothing like that hashappened to my wife or myself at thismoment but I do try and live as if thatcould happen tomorrow oh yeah it wouldthat the nightmares that couldpotentially happen so oh you mentionedthat you've been travelling for a yearas well not obviously generate so wheredid you travel so I didn't travel so Ilived I mean sorry you lived you liveyeah yeah yeah and I said friendshipUniversity and I lived in fret in FranceI actually lived I need to be honest I'dlove to go back now as a 35 year old anddo I did then I lived in the noirWeinbergwhich at the time as a 19 year old hebasically like drinking wkt blue it wascompletely lost of me as like a kind ofcultural experience but it was part itwas part of my my studies in terms ofwhat I had to do to kind of learn thelanguage but yeah that was that wasinteresting and it's been reallyfascinating actually as I've taken sometime particularly this last year becauseI've been taking some time out of workto actually I'm writing a novel actuallyso I'm writing the story of what whathappened to is in that in detail becauseI'm really mindful that to try and relayit in you know an hour even in two hoursit doesn't do it justice which is whyI'm writing the story of exactly youknow all of the twists and turns and thebeauty of what unfolded but essentiallyyou know I've really realized that thatexperience that I had in France wasreally formative and actually wasequipping me with skills that I wouldneed kind of in the moment of George'sdeath and it was also interesting inthat some of the corporate experiencesthat I'd had as well so often you knowpeople always saying it's very clicheisn't it you know when you're having adifficult time people often say stuff toyou like you know this all happens for areason or you know it's in difficultywhere you learn and you know what Ihugely believe in both of those pointsbut actually when you're in thathardship and you're in that season ofstruggle and people say that to you ifI'm being brutally honest sometimes itfeels like a slap in the face becauseyou just you just feel kind of like wellyou don't know what is to be in thesituation I'm in and how do you knowthat I've been positioned for such atime as this but I think you have to Ithink you have to come to thatconclusion yourself I don't think otherpeople can kind of impart that wisdominto you and it's taken me to livethrough the experience of my husband'scancer and his death to wake up to lifedoes that make senseand I now look at all of theseexperiences that I've had the good andthe bad and go wow like I was being liketrained I was being because I waspositioned into that set ofcircumstances the reason why thathappened was to serve me later and whenyou start to reflect that in that wayyou often see that you've done that youdid do some really great learning in meseasons of struggle and they and theyhave served to make you a more full kindof person that can then cope and be moreresilient in times that will be eventougher may be that you face in thefuture say yeah this interesting I justlove that I just love your perspectiveon things and I think because I believeeveryone gets these potential lessonsand I call it potential lessons becauseyeah it's what they take from it reallyand yes that you mentioned resilience aswell and yeah I I've hadI mean I'm day two you know and I feellike I've had some ups and downs as wellin my life which I'm sure every singleperson has yeah the grass is nevergreener on the other side yeahabsolutely yeah I mean that's one of thereasons for this podcast but I'mgrateful now especially in hindsight ofall the adversity and everything thatI've been through because now whensomething trivial happens say forinstance in my day job or you got a flattire or something that would normally Isuppose dress me out five six years agoyeah yeah it just doesn't faze mebecause in the grand scheme of things doyou know what I mean you you snotabsolutely 100% yeah I'm interested inthis novel Azure which i think is gonnabe fantastic because like you said wecan't touch on everything within thisshort amount of time but I think justfrom listening to the opening 15-20minutes people are going to be veryinterested in hearing more about thismyself included and I think you're notalone in what you've experienced but I'msure that you're very unique in terms ofhow you've change your perspective and Ithink if you can hopefully help otherpeople who have maybe been through asimilar situation to maybe look at it inthe way that you said so I want to goback to that bit where you mentioned howincredibly hard it was oh but then alsoincredibly beautiful if you yeah yeah solet's talk about the hardship and thestruggle first I think you have you seethat fully fully understand that thenunderstand the beauty if that makessense you have to source it in thedarkness to feel to feel the light whichsounds quite cheesy but I think it's youknow that's kind of essentially the theheart of this story and you know thatmoment that if we go back to the momentthat I described to you earlier when youknow George was diagnosed with cancer itwas hideousand I often say to people actually thatis when my life changed and that is whenI started to grievebecause that was the moment that ourlives changed forever at that point wewere obviously still hoping there Georgewas gonna live to tell the talebut even if he had lived to tell thetale he would have been living to tellthe tale with the with the scar ofcancer and I think this is the part ofcancer that is so widely misunderstoodpeople want to treat it like a diseasethere is a heart problem or anorthopedic problem which is you know yougo to the hospital you have somemedicine and you get better and yourlife's all okay again and actually thereality of cancer at any stage that youget it is that it alters the check thatyour mindset and the course of your lifeforever because it fundamentally makesyou realize your own mortality in a waythat you've never had to realize itbefore and it also therefore because ofthat makes you live your life verydifferently it makes you live your lifein fear it also makes you live your lifewith joy because you appreciate and havesuch a broader perspective for theamazing and wonderful variety of whatyou see in everyday life because it isyou know that is where you live and inin the everyday not in the holiday thatyou've got planning for six months timeor the night out that you're reallylooking forward to a couple of weeks andand cancer really has a way of sort ofshifting your perspective and I think Ithink this shift of perspective isuniversal but obviously I think from myown experience is not fertile for anyoneelse he's impacted by this disease butwhat's interesting is you know once youkind of take some time to let the newssettle which you have to do and you getnews that big you know I remember forGeorge and I we had the classicfight-or-flight response and we actuallychose flight so we ran away essentiallyto the yorkshire dales which was whereGeorge's mother lived and basicallyspent sort of two or three days almostin hiding trying to figure out what wewere gonna do so yeah we we ran away tothe oxidase and there we sort of liketried to look at the situationpragmatically so both of this had sortof a spaceman entrained in the corporateworld because of the circumstances inwhich wewhich was on this kind of managementtraining scheme unit we'd both beenthrough quite vigorous corporatetraining so we've done all of the youknow separate the people from theproblem how do you make a decision allof that kind of stuff and actually wekind of said you know what we've got tokind of implement some of these skillsthat we've been taught in terms offacing this this beast that is cancerand that and that's kind of what wechose to do so when we actually sort ofapproached it as if it was almost acorporate problem and and I and I feellike I'm I'm I'm even laughing as I saythis because it because essentially thisis what we had to do we had to look atit as not a black dark disease that wasgonna claim our life we had to look atit as a unwanted guest that maybe movedinto our house which is how it fell andthen it was kind of like what what we'regonna do in this and once a guesthow are we gonna how are we gonna makeyou feel part of the family and then wedon't really want them to be here butaccept the fact that they are gonnaprobably eat our table now for theforeseeable future and we can't makethem leave they're only gonna go whenthey want to you know so we we looked atyou know what we could do and one of thefirst things actually that we did wasand it was George's this is alldifferent by George not by me was hesort of said well I'm not having cancerand I remember saying to him what areyou talking about you know you've gotcancer like we can't we can't get rid ofit just like that and say no what I meanis I'm not I'm not calling it cancer I'mnot I'm not going to be named as havingcancer because there's a lot in the nameI mean there's even a you know there'sthe beautiful Shakespeare quote of youknow if Rose has anything else you knowI can't I can't remember it and thebaton but it's about you know if it wascaught if it was still called over butit was cannot call the rose but it stillsmells so sweet and that same that samethinking and that same mindset is sotrue cancer because the problem is isyou say cancer to people and peoplethink death because people are so scaredof death and actually the reality thesedays is one and two people will getcancer and also lots of people havecancer and go on to live reallybeautiful long lives also have cancerand live really successfully with cancerfor a good number of yearsbut we all have this fear you know it'sessentially the Millennial tuberculosisthat you get cancer and it's literallylike then the Grim Reaper is their dooryeah so George George said to me fromthe from the outset I don't want cancerI'm not gonna have cancer I'm gonna havea project name so we we we were sort oflike I was like okay so it was it waslike a awesome cheesy episode of TheApprentice we were driving north and hewe were there thinking of names andevery name I came up with which I can'tremember any of the names I actuallycame up with he he was beating ofdallying no that's awful that's that'shorrendous I kind of thought I can'thave this then he said out of nowhereInvictus what about Invictus andhonestly when he said that name it wasliterally like a thunderclap in the carit was amazing like it shot wavesthrough my heart and I was like that'samazing I was like why do we both knowthis name a week googled it and we'relike oh it's an aftershave and then wewould you know laughing joking whichagain is another you know like that is areal great way of building resilience soit sounds so awful and crude to say butto try and find the fun and the smilesand the everyday humor in amongst youknow this car crash that is your life isso important because you're stillyourself when you still find the samethings funny and you like eating thesame sweets and the same places eventhough you've got cancerI remember we're in fits of laughter bekind of like you know why on earth haveyou chosen an aftershave advert this isjust really cheesy but then when we wentfurther into it we found out thatactually the original naming conventionsare coming from this amazing poet and byErnest Hemingway which actually I nowhaving a frame on my wall at home andthe line the closeout line of the poemis this really sort of like thunderousclothes which basically says I'm thecaptain of my fate and I am the masterof my soul and those words we were justlike they were literally like boom toour hearts we were like yes okay this isit now we we are not having cancer sowe're having sort of project and victorsand that was the start of is Isuppose time to refrain what washappening to is but that also didn'tmean that what was happening to uswasn't horrible you know like there'slots of cancer there is hideous there isabsolute sleep deprivation becauseyou're so anxious about everything thatyou you go to bed and you can't sleepand you're wide awake you wide awakethere's there's an easier because ofthat because you're so exhausted you'reand you're trying to keep the show onthe roadyou can't remember sometimes the mostsimplest of things there's the the hugeimpact that it has on your daily life Imean essentially I was still onmaternity leave you know we had an eightmonth old baby so I was supposed to bethe one that was being looked afterbecause I was up at night you know stillwith a baby that didn't really know youknow day from night if I'm beingbrutally honest yeah and you know then Ihad to switch roles into this personthat wasn't just caring for atwo-year-old and a eight month old itwas also caring for a guy he was theretwo three who had cancer which for himwas just as difficult as it was for mebecause he was the the dad he was thefather figure of the family he wanted tobe able to provide and support his wifeat his children and the reality of thecancer treatment that he had was there Imean he had really really top-drawerchemo which was like I remember themsaying the hospital is it's pretty muchlike we're putting bleach in your veinsand he had it every 11 days so he didn'thave much downtime between treatment youknow he'd go on it he'd go on his go andhave his infusion and actually he thenhad to come home with a with a bottleattached to him which is a type ofchemotherapy that lots of bowel cancerpatients if anyone who's had bowelcancer is listening will be familiarwith and you then basically take thepump it's called a pump home with youfor three days so that was you know thatwas a man mindful in itself because wehad to explain to our kids what wasgoing on that they couldn't jump ondaddy and it wasn't ever that we keptanything secret from our children butyou know our oldest child was two yearsold you know how do you explain to a 2year old dad daddy's got cancer thathe's got this medicine on him I meanactually and that is what we explainedto him and we had to explain what thewords meant to him but you know theydon'tat that age they don't understand whatit means they it means nothing to themyou know for all intensive purposes forthem it was like daddy had a bottle ofCal Poly attached to him you know theydidn't get the severity of it and it wasreally tough and it brought up a lot ofstuff for me around you know what do Ido in terms of work so obviously I wasoff work on maternity leave I actuallywent back to work because I felt so muchpressure because I was thinking you knowI don't we'd have no idea how long thiscancer journeys gonna go on for and eventhough both of our employers were justthe most supportive employers B couldhave ever asked foryou always have that niggle in the backof your head that actually if this goeson for six years seven years are theystill going to be this supportive andlist understand a and I remember sayingto George you know I've got to go backto work George because we might be in aposition where we're only rely you knowwe're relying upon my salary and youknow you can't work which he neverreally wanted to face into so I wentback to work and even when I talk aboutit now I genuinely don't know how I didit I went back to work with aone-year-old just three year old and ahusband with cancer and was kind ofdoing my job as well as commuting toLondon and you know running a house youknow it was absolutely exhausting andexhausting in a way that makes your souleight you know it wasn't just it wasn'tjust sort of tired of the way thatpeople say I'm tired you know it wasexhausting and it was the relentlesssort of tsunami of it all because theway that cancer works is you kind of itis it's a long boil disease you know itisn't a disease there you know it goesit doesn't go away like an orthopaedicyou know injury like I said previouslyand it and it's it's always theresimmering in the background and everynow and again you get these huge wavesthat crash over you and they sometimesabsolutely come out of nowhere and it'sabout then how you how you protectyourself and what you what you do - Isuppose build that resilience and that'swhat we learn in that 11 monthsessentially initially it was like wewere all at sea we have no idea what thehell we were doing and gradually as theyearwent on we built that resilience muscleand we learned the techniques aroundwhat is it that's gonna help us and weknew that there were certain things thatfor us as a family he with the thingsthat work but that took some time tofigure out it wasn't like the next dayafter George I can't sir we went yeahthis is this is what we have to do thistrick is it yeahno no so it was so hard it was so sohard so hard yeahfirstly what a wonderful person hesounds like and I just in yourrelationship the way you were justfeeding a feature then you had thiswhole story behind Invictus Sol Invictusfor me initially yeah Paco Rabanne it'sthe which is what I remembered but alsothere's a film money as well yes andit's happened to feed on conquerable soWowyeah you actually said it in this momentthat's what I was feeling and I wasgetting almost goose thinking yeahthat's it how you guys have done it andit just shows the power of like thehuman will and the importance that wordsbecause just by changing that nameyou're not you're not necessarily sayingto listeners here listen let's brushcancer under the copy and pretend it'snot here what you're saying is okay weacknowledge it's here and some dayswe're facing it but we're gonna justface it in a more positive way to helpus move forward and I think that'sreally really yeah the way you've donethat and in terms of exhausting I meanwe all sit here myself included andwe'll have a 14 hour day or a 12 hourday we've been asked to do some overtimeand we feel you know what I'm tired I'mtired and here you are with no actualchoice with your back against the walljust showing how powerful the human mindand body in sync how much we're actuallycapable of doing and that also goes sexywhen you mentioned George who did thatrunning I mean who in their right mindif you think about it from a logicalperspective things after being choppedup I'm go go go raise money wait youknow you know what there are what Iwould say is I follow some reallyinspirational people on Instagram andparticularly love the the three womenand who created the you me Big C podcastand Rachel blance or sadly passed awayin September last year and I follow Ifollow the girls actually that do thatshow on Instagram and they ones a cancersurvivor one one is living with stagefour cancerthey are always out exercising andactually what I would say is it heyfor you to realize that your body isfragile and that you have to look afterit to want to look after it sometimesand actually the irony is is that Georgeactually was a fitness fanatic evenbefore he had cancer so he was on thesepeople that would go to gym gym and Iwould always be like what are you doingbut I had to say since he has had cancerand obviously lost his life to cancerit's made me go as well you know yourbody is so precious you have to lookafter it you have to be mindful of whatyou're putting in it in the way in whichyou're using it in the way in whichyou're nurturing it because it's it'sprecious to you and it's your onlyrocket ship you're not going to getanother one so you have to look after itand I think incredibly there is thismindset amongst the cancer community ofI am gonna do the stuff that like youknow that we run a 5k or run a marathonbecause almost as well you know everyoneknows the healing benefits of fitnessit's it's proven right so there is thismindset of just you know well I am whatI want to do this mentally even morethan I've ever wanted to do it so I doyou think it's crazy but I also thinkyou know not taking anything away fromGeorge because it was incredible what hedid but I also think you'll find thatthere are lots of people who areimpacted by cancer that also have thatabsolute mindset of no I'm gonna go forit I'm gonna raise this money I'm gonnago and do this and I think you're rightand I think but this is kind of what Iwant this podcast to do is not letsomebody have to suffer with cancer seesomebody also for with cancer to reallyunderstand what they're actually capableof because we're so much we're livingjust in the comfort zone all the timeand health and fitness is one of mybiggest passions so yeah I've alwaysbeen into it but then when I went touniversity was it was more about vodkacommands and hangovers sure yeah it wasthat kind of stuff for generallyspeaking up when I was about 25 I thinkthat's when cancer came into into myfamily only affected my own cause yeahand one of the things I started doingthen was really taking my health andfitness seriously so I blogged onpersonal training since then I'vetrained over like three 400 clients andI always know my analogy is I know thecircumstances for instance similar toGeorgia where you can be healthy you canbe doingright and then it's just not meant to beI can just come for what I always tryand do is just put the odds in my favorand I always tell all my clients justput the odds in your favor you know whenyou lift some weights or you do any sortof CV exercise cardiovascular you'reyou're you're reducing the chances of ofillness and that's kind of what I do soevery single morning without fail andunless some literally on my deathbedsorry or I'm traveling I'm training andI don't have to enjoy it but for me youknow it's 4% on my day just afteryourself and you touched on somethingthere by what you put into yourself andI think it's important for the listenersjust to know it's not just physicalconsumption like food and water it'salso what you say in your monitor yeahabsolutelyso the project Invictus that kind ofstuff is it's empowering and if you canjust so I just think there's this Icould talk about what you said now foranother five hours because I'm surepeople are going to pick up on thank youthank you for sharing all of that what Ineed to move it forward just slightlyotherwise we'll have a six hour podcastbut what definitely can get you back onso nice obviously change quite quitesignificantly now yeah yeah and it'ssomething that you obviously you'renever prepared for what is a day likefor yourself now and what I want to askmore in particular is obviously life'staught you so much so quicklyalready are there certain habits ortraits that you maybe do on a dailybasis that you think people listeningcould potentially benefit from yes so Imean the part of the story that haven'tgot into and maybe isn't one for thedates move maybe at halftime is the whatactually happened when George died whichin which I suppose was the absolutebeautiful firework finale to this wholeyear so if you imagine this 11 monthswhen George had cancer was like us itwas a slowly learning how to overcomeadversity and build resilience in a waythat I'd never had see before and thenwhen we realized that you know the endwas nigh when he was told there wasnothing that they could do and he wasgoing to die but weyou know how long it was going to be andwhat that what may or may not look likeand how painful it may be and all thoseother things that was the moment whereif I'm really honest and being reallyreally vulnerableI hit absolutely rock bottom because Ikind of when I don't know what to do nowyou know like all of this other stuffthat we've taught ourselves this far interms of you know finding three thingsevery day to be thankful for doingexercise you know renaming things tomake them feel more palatable you knoweating well to make sure we're we knowwe're making our bodies feel as great aswe can sleeping where we can in amongstnear the chaos of TV and children all ofthose things that other sort of thingsif you pick up any book on on resilienceand how to and how to kind of you knowbuild and and and work that muscle theyjust didn't work and I I remember justthinking oh my gosh like what what do Ido and it was it was awful and it meantthat we were both in a reallyemotionally low state which as I'm sureagain lots of people will identify withwhen you're in that place what happensis you lash out or the people that youlove the mostso we're in this hideous set ofcircumstances which was you know we knewthat George was gonna die and we hadwhat was probably the biggest row Ithink we ever had of our whole marriageour whole relationship because I wasreally angry at him and actually youknow what I was actually angry about himwhat I thought I was angry about him wasnot what I was angry about at him at allI was actually angry at him because hewas dying and that's what I now realizewith hindsight you know I was at I wasangry about him about something thathe'd said to us mom or not said to hismom but that wasn't you know and I'vegone back and rabbit reaction man thatwasn't the reason the reason I'm socrossed with him was because I was angrythat he was leaving me that he was gonnadie that he was not going to be here tobring up my kids that I was gonna haveto do life on my own in a way that I'venever ever expected to and that night Iwent out I literally ran out of thehouse into my car it sounds Hollywooddramatic and it actually was a littlebit that way and I got in my car and Idrove it was dogevening it was raining and I didn't knowwhat to do and I just felt lost reallyreally lost and in that moment Iremember thinking in my head where am Igonna go who do what who should go andsee if it goes to my mom and dad I couldgo see like my aunty best friends who'sthe person that I need that who do Ineed and I was I was sort of trying allthese people in my head to see if theyfitted with it the way I thought in myheart and none of them felt that theyworked and actually at that point intime was seeing a psychologist and Ithought do I bring her like do I go seeher I couldn't even bring myself to gosee my psychologist he was the personthat really you know I employed to sortof be the person I could take all thesethings to so I decided it in that momentthat I needed to go to a church and thenI was kind of like right really go to achurch and if I'm honest again I thinkit was rooted in some level of utopianmemory that I've got from childhoodprobably movies like home alone whereKevin goes to church and yeah has thatlike magical moment when he's missinghis mummy you know I was right I'm gonnago to church and tried that and to go toa church on this like rainy Octoberevening at about I think it must havebeen about five o'clock everywhere I waslocked her and I was so angry oran Ican't tell you how angry I amI was literally raging so I remember Ipulled my car over on a hard shoulderand I and I said at least she got out mycar and I screamed and at this point intime I was not a person of faith sothere is a purpose behind me telling youthe story and so I pulled over my carand I literally got out of my car it wasraining I was screaming and I literallyit was like I was boxer in a ring that Iwas a mad okay and I literally screamedat the universe if you are real if youare real you have to bleep bleep bleepbleep show me there was a lot of swearwords yeah I was crying I was crying somuch you know I couldn't even reallyspeak I was coughingit was awful I got back in my car andGeorge text me two words that just saidcome home and then I just wrote backokay he wrote back I'm not planning ordying anytimeSene and i just hysterically burst intotears and went home now that that momentwas a absolute another kind oflife-altering moment but it wasn'tlife-altering in that exact moment ifthat makes sense because then whatunfolded in this or three weeksfollowing on from me going out andhaving this moment where I went for itand said to God you know you are realit's now or never because I don't knowwhere else to turn it and God had neverbeen someone a force and an energy thatI had ever looked to previously but Iwas I felt like I had nothing left in mycup I had no place else to gohe was the only viable option left forme to go to and what then happened andwhat unfolded around George's deathwhich we maybe don't have the time todiscuss today was just supernaturallyunbelievably beautiful he died the mostglorified beautiful miraculous deaththat was completely driven by sort ofthe Holy Spirit just moving in andtaking residence in his room okay peopleI'm just gonna play the out role now forthis part of the show but the nextepisode should be available straightaway on your feed whether you using iOSor Android and I hope you enjoy thisjust as much as you've enjoyed thisfirst part of this incredible story fromLouise I know the next part certainlygave me goosebumps especially when shespoke about the supernatural stuff thatshe experienced and I hope you enjoy ittoo and once again thank you for allyour support and if you do get a chanceto leave this interview at the end ofthe show I'd certainly appreciate itthank you so much and remember thispodcast is absolutely free so all we askin return is for you to share this witha friend and drop us a five star reviewover on iTunes have an awesome day See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.

Find your voice - Episode 15 - "My Way" - Raj Sallan #15Tagline: "The only person that should be proud of you, is yourself"Raj Sallan was the Fresh Prince, before he got shipped off to Bel-Air. His parents swiftly realised he was going to end up going down the wrong path if he stayed in Germany, he was sent to Birmingham, UK where he was forced to learn another language, way of life and develop his own mindset. Having had to learn his 3rd language, Raj utilised martial arts, kick-boxing and boxing to channel his mind and found a passion that would see him travelling the world and proving all his doubters wrong.Raj explains that your mindset starts from the moment you wake up. He strengthened his perspective and mindset to help him handle not living with his parents for the majority of his childhood, learning English and fighting professionally in combat sports. Realising that nothing is impossible Raj has overcome his own levels of depression, loneliness and now spends his hours helping world-class fighters, girls and boys of all ages in becoming fit and finding their own confidence.A genuinely loving guy, whose energy is infectious. He explains his daily rituals that have helped him earn a favourable reputation in the fight game, but also as a genuinely humble human being.A story of adversity, with no excuses and an individual who found his voice and continues to write his own story.Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/rajesh.sallan (Personal)Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/only1rajeshsallan/Have an awesome day #JustDeuIt #FindYourVoice[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and as always I am thehost of the show so as you sit here nowlistening to this podcast I just want toask you a quick question now obviouslyit's rhetoricalbecause I can't hear your answer but howmany times in the last week have youthought about something negative haveyou complained when it really wasn'tthat badhave you mould about how little progressyou've made rather than actually commendyourself for how far you've came myguess is probably more than you wish toadmit and that's absolutely fine listenwe've all been there but what I findremarkable about this episode thatyou're gonna hear is I guarantee 100% ifyou listen to this all the way throughyour perception and your mindset willbenefit you will change it you willstart to feel I'll say silly for morningabout the silly things that we oftenmoan about because this individual hasnot only had to learn English as histhird languagehe was uplifted as a ten-year-old fromhis parents to live in a foreign countrywhere everything was alien to him andthe only thing he really knew how tocontrol was his mind and his hands andhis feet and with that he tells awonderful story so without further adoI'm gonna get this interview on the wayso firstly I just wanna walk on right tothe show and thank you for taking timeout of your day to come and have thisinterview myself how you doing today I'mfine right it's just doing well goodgood the UK where they're glad to hearit so I think it's important for thelisteners to understand a little bityourself now I've heard about you mywife's told me about you you know wantedyou on Instagram for some time now so ifyou could kind of give the listenersbasically a history of how you've cameabout to where you are todaywell basically am I was born in Germany1988 in Frankfurt and grew up in a roughestate area basically it was there wasno Indians back then it was just if youname it just like Turks albaniandifferent all different cultures but noIndians no Asians my family was the kindof the first Indian community aroundthere my uncle and everyone and growingone went school there stayed there -lost ten the time there was no peopleprobably asking what are you doing hereyeah yeah it's just growing up in thisstate area it was a rough and tough youknow being through fucking some hardtime and the other day and seeing myparents there being there and as anIndian people you know how did Germanthey say it's not it's not a racistcountry but they won't put everyone inone the cultural people would want inone area so where this day so this istheir area it was a being a bad kid Iwas like a as poor really but the otheryeah okay so I'm getting into naughtystuff at a young age theftnot going school just no he just beingwrong basically doing the wrong thingsthat I do you know upsetting my parentsthey wasn't happy they wanted a betterlife for me so come to a stage wherethey decided to send me here because mymom's side everyone's here my uncle's mycousins so they had a decision to makewhich probably was the biggest decisionin their life so they decided to send mehere to have a better life and todaythat's where I stand is here and I'mbeing threw me through quite a bit youknow from being alone softwaredepression this is probably most of thefamily members they don't even knowthemselves so when they hear this theyprobably think we didn't know this butI've never come up out of it really I'venever told anyone about it because Ilike to keep things sometimes myself and[Music]I've always always had that little thingwhere you know when I was young come onmy own and basically crying by myselfand I was a kid when I come here cuz Imissed my parents because the hardestthing in my life was probably was goingto that Airport and looking back and seemy mom and I'd cry maybe one else that'sa hard thing yeah it's a mental thingand that's a ten year old I don't knowwhere I'm going I don't know what'shappening yeah what's going so you wereten when you came over I was 10 yearsold and was jamming your first languagebut job dream dance from Indiana okaysome may not be fast champion easilyshould I didn't know I didn't have aclear barrage you know nothing Englishfrom the age of 10 10 yes fantastic andthen it was just hard time it's justhard that moment was very hard ten yearsold you wouldn't know you took back andwhy do you crying like we think he mighthave great for holiday of his back ofcourse I know what they said that youknow going then the plan was to give ita go see how it goes that's what my owncustom a moment which was good and thenit was hard that day I remember sittingon the plane at ten years old amount andit's going to another country to start anew life and things started and use thegood is better for me basically becausethe way I grew up in Germany there wasonly one way in a prison gangs or deadawesome other than something I didn'twant to disappoint my parents becauseone thing in my life that could never dois disappoint them they mean the worldto me and yeah another indeed appear nowin school world screedcome in years six or years five yearsalmost ten years old I didn't know noEnglish no English at all basically Idid not think I was that good fresh offthe boat but yeah and had to go throughlot of stuff as a kid because knowingnot know Englishmaking friends was hard but it was justvery difficult to be fair and the way Ijust gone through it I cried as a kid Iremember going home walking from schoolI had no friends and this is when Ifirst come over andthat long road in hands of going homeand crying and just being upset missingmy parents 10 year old kid would courseYong Yong you don't know you know youdon't know how you feel and it's justvery different unexplainable to peoplethat unless they've been throughthemselves they know I feels and it washard there's hard times and then slowlyslowly things started changing for meyou know I just started getting thinkingin my head don't one thing I always saidto myself in life is that it's all aboutyou know your brief you got two arms twolegsyou're not worse than others knowthere's people out there in lifestylegoing through lot worse than yourself soI always that's one thing one of themsecond is that the only place that'sgonna believe and use yourself you can'tbelieve in yourselfand having faith in yourself then youknow I strongly believe that you knowpeople believe in like North ofAttraction the universe I thinkpersonally you are your universe you arewhat you think in it you become what youthink so absolutely things change for meyou know if I didn't have if I didn'twant to become like my parents oreverything I took a lot of criticism inlife as well like you can't do this myparents up to because they sent me yeahas if our Asian families are they'll putyou they'll put a lot of people downthey like to say oh he ain't gonna donothing course of course being in amaking oh why you sent him there for myparents after he all that then it waslike a it was me against the people asone to prove them wrong that you knowwhat I'm fuckin of made it yeah you knowI am Who I am I'm a good personI've not turned that wrong a lot ofpeople expected me to come here and takeadvantage oh yeah and film become adruggie junkie do whatever can you knowmake most of it because my parents inhere but um you know you know plenty offriends we just forget just before thisinterview as well I've been mutualfriends we've got as well yeahdefinitely is so I think that'sinteresting what you've touched from ityou said a couple of things that I'vejust made notes of so one is you becomewhat you think and believe in yourselfthis is something that I know is a verydate hero you have to say affirmationsand implant that in my head now and Ithink indirectly because you've been putin that situation you have to developthat yourself andgiving you some strengths although youmight not have seen it as a strengththen it's brought you into the personthat you are now which I think it'sfantastic because and a lot of peoplelistening to this probably had a lotmore shout class yeah whereas you wereby yourself and you thinking buddy gotthese two hands and legsyeah and just speaking on those twokinds of legs now yeah that you knew youhad you've done incredible things withthose yeah which I just wanted to tellthe audience as well it all started witha fire school basically okaywhen I was in Germany I was a bit of atempered kid you know it's but I stillgave too loud so when I come here I wasit - I got into a few fights and this ismy first the first few month for youalreadyand my uncle goes to meet my mom'sbrother he goes you know you gotsuspended from school you just come overhere in basically Punjabi because Icouldn't speak English course and sofrom there he started and there he goeswell I'm gonna send you to kickboxinggym and I go ah they don't give me acoke it's nothing they asked or justyeah by then I made friendsI put friends by them you know peoplethat were around me and school friendsand I took one friend with me and saidlet's give me a coke see what's aboutyeah and who wants me to go okay andwalked into the gym and then from therenever looked back cuz just suddenly Ifound a talent I wasn't good mmm yes soit wasn't actually beating people up butit's something I had in me and I usedthat a lot if it wasn't for that I thinkthat sports and combat sport fightingand all that helped me in a way my usingmy hands and feet my mentally if it mademe better and it was more energy changedeverything like if I was upset at homeor if I was feeling downoh go to gym no I'll use that a lot andthen that just made me who I amfrom there he just kick-started amateurfights I went to turn pro in Thai boxingI had laws of numerous fight all overthe place over India to fight at a proMMA fight for winning age and over 20pro kickboxing fightsit's incredible a mature buck cells aswell as boxing for Saint Francis inBirminghamfantastic yes or other good chance I waseven told to stick to boxing and one wayis that gonna be pro in that but I justlove kicking okay yeah so that's whereyou all started my hands or feet andthey kicked off then I think that'swhere I I saw your Instagram stuff Nickinitially because I know my wife Tommylove about you because you went to thesame school and she said it's reallyinspiring you've come from completelydifferent country and you found your wayin life and I remember going to be spokeabout this just before the podcast goingto ask them University yeah which iswhat ten miles from my house can getthere in 15 minutes yeah and I washomesickso Monday to Thursday by the timeThursday comes I couldn't wait to gethome on a Friday so I can only imaginewhat it's like for a ten-year-old kid tokind of have to do that but I don't nowwe've spoken obviously before this yougo home a lot now and you visit inGermany quite yeah I spend much timewith my family I can I personally thinkthat nowadays degeneration now theyforget their parents and they forgetabout the old alumni like I spend a lotof time my parents because thedifference with me is that I've notactually I've lost a lot of time withthe growing of pianos and not being withthem so be going back and then everytime so anytime that means the world tome now first thing you couldn't you knowa man if you don't spend time I agreeand I'm sure they're very proud of howfar you've come now they are yeah theyare very very proud but the mostimportant thing is my dad always tellsme is the only place that should beproud this are you proud you have peoplelike that that's what matterspersonally I'm proud of myself that's apretty messy that's the best thing toyou now look that message as well andthat's something that I try and getthrough this podcast as well is thatyeah the way we look at ourselves in ourself-worth and stuff like it's the mostimportant thing yet cuz it's nicegetting plaudits from the person nextdoor or somebody across the road butuntil you start looking yourself andbelieving in yourself I'll do somethinglike this is something I don't are manyByrne I wake up in the morning and speakto myself let me read it and there's areason why I do it because then I wentto see someone about three years agomm-hmmand he helped me the way to think andwhy how to change negativity intopositively I don't you feel great aboutyourself so he said do something liketalk to yourself yeah but he actuallyworks so I realized that your mindsetstarts from the time you wake up youknow when you say your feet touch thefloor yeah that is when your mind startsworking and whatever you think whatthought you wake up with so if you wakeup negative your day is going to benegative if you wake up positive you'repositive so walk to the mirror and I gotthis little white top where I just say Iam positive I am rich I am blessed I ammy own God I am this and that so and Italk to myself yeah and then I said toher I'm gonna have a great day todaydo that and it helps me yeah that'ssomething that really helps me I knowsome people might thinking wow that'sthat but that is something like I canreally really help someone it's a mentalthing and this is like a you mentallygetting stronger and your mind youyou're basically transforming your mindset you straight positive team andyou're looking forward to the day thenit can rain out there because no evenwhen I'm finished knowing and it's shitwhether I'll say it's a toy don't stopme doing the finger prize of course it'sthe mindset how people yeah and I know alot of people that wake up in themorning say example one day I hatemondays absolute that's the firstnegative word that you say to yourself Ihate why do you hate go and do what youhad to do come home make a plan yeahthink coffee I love that so it's one ofthem things I think as you were saying Ijust opened up my diary so I have everymorning five thoughts and it's similarto yourself I am powerful I understandmy own bothyI am perfect every single morning bestthing and it's only something I've beendoing recently as well but it's soimportant like what we feed am I here soyou're an athlete you know what it'simportant to feed your body physicallystrong but if this is weak that knowseverything there's no point of it's notpoint being you know I mean the bestbody but if you're my name right it'sthe same with the fight game you can bevery good in the gym you can beyou can be whatever but if your mindsetswrong and you my name in the fightmm-hmmyou must say you lost the fight yeahbecause it's not there lost it before itstarted yeah but a lot of people don'trealize that so my mind is a powerfulthing I don't think people realize it Ithink you're right there I think it'sbecoming a bit more and this is probablybecause I look into that fear you've gota lot of mindset coach and a lot ofpeople talking about it but when I hearit from someone like yourself who's putit into practice in an arena and done iton an international stage I find it alot more authentic and real so I'm gladyou said that and it was actually theone of the next questions I was gonnaask you was about your routine and so Ilove athletes and if I could if I couldhave a separate podcast in this they'vebeen just interviewing athletes becauseI think it takes a certain type ofperson to get to the top to stay at thetop to have that mindset because itisn't like you said it ain't all aboutyour physical attributes you'll be thehardest hit but if you aim right hereyeahand somebody's got more clued on therethey're gonna have perform you throw itmain rhythm as an example indefinitelyso what I want to ask you is this was mynext question what do you do until thetime you go to sleep so obviously youall can have you spoken to yourself inthe mirror now yeah what are their kindof rituals or habits do you do in theday often saying I can go back to when Iwas fighting yeah yeah what I used to dowas we stay twice a day or three timespushing it depending coming to a fightwaking up in a pony go for a jog I'mjust going back when I was at school myuncle used to wet this secondary schooland I was competing then amateur leveland I was doing then I'd turn pro and Imean my uncle waking you used to comefrom a nightshift 4:00 in the morningbefore I go school is to make me go fora jog go for a run so the technologiesyou hear I was 14 to 16 this was and thededication was built in me already youknow having that warrior mentality andthat listen you gotta train hardmaintaining one way to so what we usedto do is train three times a day say maxand diet so when you wake up in themorning you run check your weight comehome eat you gotta watch my eat as wellyou have a nutritionist watching whatyou eat if you don't have a nutritionyou some people do it themselves whichis good as well so my daily routine isBella and especiallyall days was going school all day watchye at school wow this is the time whenno one hardly knew realized I was inyear eight nine I was just my name wasjust coming out and not people knew thehouse no one knew that I was doing itonly later on people found that comingfrom school finish school come home grabmy bagdon't do no homework come on felt liketraining back there go straight to thegym to our session and then back homeeat food go bed then after that when Ileft school it was the only thing thatchanged was there was no school time sothat's when three times a day trainingstarted just running in the morningtraining from different things likestrength speed and sparring session padwork different sessions and needs to bethree times a day eating right and hedays used to just go basically and thenI'm coming home in the evening afternoonchilling with the family and then in theevening if you feel good you go formother jog and this is when it comes toan eight week camp fight camp your aimis to get fit get mentally strong andget your weight down as well dependingon what weight division you find thatand then they just carried on like thatI've done that for a good 15 years to befair herI've been training since I was 10 stilldo it now but I'm fond of fighting fitand fighting professionally I stopped at25 my last fight was 24 when I was inIndia a fourth road and times change butI still keep the same similar routine Istill go for a jog here in l a-- wake-upcall for one you know in the morning andI love going running in the morning at 4or 5 I love that I love that it's thefresh a door full run go work andespecially with my job now you know wedo shift work so I work everythingaround it and the only thing that keepsme going is my mind basically your bodycan get old as much as they want but ifyour mind is strong can control yourmind and yeah and the funny thing isit's your mind that tells you're tiredeven before your body is as well yeahand that's something we definitely kindof battle with yeah I looked at and Ijust sort of touch on that so you'vedone this for like 15 years I had a veryvery short period and this is kind oflike something that I celebrate where Itrain like an athlete as a knight Igot myself under an Olympic coach nearboxing what I was doing with thosecopying national champions so when theywere training free time today I wasdoing the same yeah because I knew I gotinto the game late and I really wantedto go on a floors so I was training andI was copying them I was eating theright stuff and I couldn't understandwhat you're saying there I'm not sure ifthe listeners will get this but there isa point where your body and your mindare in sync that you do stuff that youthink shit how we're doing this becauseyou're training so would you do so muchand the reason I say that is because nowI'll go to the gym and people normallyis not comparison trained or whateverbut the intensity that I had for thosetwo years is 10 times more than now whatI can't do is bring that intensity backhere so now when I go to the gym the momI'm tired up I don't know I just kind ofthink okay let's got that Communistsabuse away and I wish I could transformthose two years of a true athletesmindset into now are you able to stilldo that now so you know how you wouldtrain that 25 can you bring that alittle bit back or is it a matter ofwhen you're not competing it's difficultto do I know exactly it doesn't makesense yeah I don't make sense to doright there especially the copying partmmm that's exactly why I used to dobecause watching people like the runningI got from sue my uncle told me run inthe mornings and everyone that fight hermentality and I just watch people likeTyson and knowing the jog in the morningand he watched these videos okay andthat's the copying part like justthought you said yourself you copy itand do it but that's the only way tothese people are there it's by of courseyou learn from them so that's why itlike Mayweather says you know what myopponent sleep 2 a.m. in the morning I'mgoing for it says it's a very good copyit's not a bad thing it's doingsomething that they're doing and then itworks on you but going to transformingit if I wanted to do that now andeverything I could like I said it's asit my head I knew boys the older youget or do you believe as welllaziness kicks in you know andresponsibilities change appear you knowyou have a lot more other things to doyou know work people get you knowrelationships and everything justchanges but in your head you got a youhave like a notebook and you writeeverything downtoday I'm gonna do this tomorrow I'm dothis you know you can write a routinedown and it still can be done it's don'tcoming there's nothing impossible inlibrary people told me I could neverspeak EnglishI've never got to speak English or aschool I get picked on here a day not asin you know just not picked on but justlaughing you know he can't speak Englishoh my cousin's would say oh and I thinkyou know what I realize now nothing isimpossible even when I was going throughthe depression point no I'm sad I justupset cryI never should tell my family no oneused to know I should be on my own icelike be a man just cry and miss myparents but then while Walter went alongand I got older I realized that you knowwhat nothing's impossible I could doanything or what you know whatum these people were standing out therewhat am i crying about what is wrongwith meyou know I mean I can do this dusty andtoday I'm here nothing today right nowI'm probably in the most longest mindsetI just believe in myself that I'm alivethey feel the good energy yeah and thisgood energy but Zampa when you passpositive energy got me excited herebefore we started this you can see howhappy I'll wait that's the best thing todo is the vibrations between two peopleand it's a straightaway you send it tothem and you want to spend time withpeople like thatthat's it girl one thing I have to do isthe certain people didn't say family orfriends who all they do is negativenegative negative and when it's yourfamily and friends you can't always cutthem out yeah so after do is limit myconversations with them or if I'm inthere if I'm in their proximity isliterally like how you doing and then Iwalk away because I don't want that youknow what all of these kind ofrelationships and this is where I'mcomplaining nowadays in life and on thegrand scheme of things and people haveinterviewed on this and includingyourself their problems that you knowthe trivial the minor compared to whatyou guys have been through nobody's beenlifted from their parents do you have tolearn a third language to that you don'tbe fired in and they're notunderstanding what people are sayingabout them to then having to developtheir own - such a young age where I'mhere now as a 30 year old still tryingto develop myand I'm seeing people who I'm actuallyworking with now who you are older thanme still trying to develop their Mon soI think it's you should be very proudfor this yeah I think it's commendablethat you've been able to do that yeahespecially it's true you don't think Iagree with that exam it's that fuckingthat did you do so you can't give a fuckabout anything fuck what people thinkfuck what anyone thinks really and dowhat you make sure you have people yeahif you work on yourself you're nevergonna get out of that blockage it's acircle around you like we've seen it alot with lot of people not mind coachespeople saying it like they put and diein the middle then they put circlearound it that is you and you can't getat that comfort zone you're just in thatmiddle you have to break through andthat's what he's like I had a friendmake for me two weeks ago saying I wannacopand I said to him you found me to tellme you walk onwell how about you think to yourselfthat I am gonna get I'm gonna have thatcar or believe that you already in thatcar believe in yourself like I said yeahyeah there's no one else gonna believein you you know I mean you can't askphone someone can you believe inaddition of everyone else that's it yeahcuz I knew this was interview was comingup and I try and learn about the persona little bit I took myself back intothose two years and the key to mysuccess in those two years was adecision I will just make a decision andbelieve it oh there's an analogy whensomebody says I'm trying to quit smokingfor a bit or somebody just says I don'tsmoke anymore they're two differenttypes of people the person who doesn'tsmoke and move will not be tempted andnobody will really ask him wheresomebody's that off stop smoking for abit the most aren't you're gonna getasked in a grave you want one or they'regonna be very very tempted it's kind ofyou've got to make your own identity youdo if that makes sense ain't the worldlike I'm trying change that try to I amNOT little words how you think I'm whatyou say your language you know yeah youto yourself what it's raining today orCongo you know but you say I will go forwhen the rain stops to be rain is notgonna kill you you know it's just it'sthe mind thing to be fair it's it's hardit's hard I know what where people comefrom like for me softly from beingjudged mean creaturesis going through depression at a youngage you know feeling alone andovercoming them things it's just it'snot as easy I want people to know thatthey're not on their own you know I knowpeople it's hard to explain to someonehow you feel but they need to realizethat you're not on your own becausefirst of all these people not worse thanwhat they're going through you knowsecond you're breathing you know he gottwo arms two legsyou put got a roof over your head getfood on the table and end of the worldnever think that and just feel strongabout yourself and even yourselfbut never give up and that's one thing Ithink in the Asian community is Wallynot all there's nothing wrong with youdon't worry you're just crying allyou're just upset it's a debate knowwhat's going through yeah you don't knowwhat's going through the person's heador what's happening and me as a youngkid I remember them little things when Iwas on my own and crying and all sortsit was quite hard and not family membersdon't know this to be fair but all thecomment in a way that it was that fuckyou attitude like you know what I'mgonna I'm gonna prove people wrong youknow I didn't care what people think butI used that as a I'm gonna prove a momthat I'll turn that good and I turned updoing I achieve things that day car so Iused them as a fuel baby that's why Iused the mass and it carried on likethat and my mind just got stronger andstronger hmm and anything even todaylike I mean people who having a bad dayand I turned their mindset it's just metalking deception isn't it yes it's howyou see itand I think you took started this soyou've been doing this since you attendthey pretty much and that's probably whyyou're better at it than most people Ithink the important thing people shouldtake away from this episode is make it ahabit yeah so how you go to the toiletat night how do you go have a showerevery morning it needs to become a habitthe way you speak to yourself from howyou see stuff so another good thing I doother than these five things I dogratitude journal is oh so I used to doevery morning which is fine butsomewhere along like the day after a bitit kind of rubs off so something badhappens even myself I'm guilty ofsometimes looking atwhat I do you know I do have themtonight as well so I'm doing gratitudeas soon as I wake open before I go tosleepit just helping me and my natural vibesand everything it's very hard for me tonot be grateful for what I have like yousaid I've got two hands and a few of myhealthtouchwood at the minute got no diagnosisof any illness isn't nothing I get to goon holiday I know what I get to live thelife are what I'm blessedyeah do you know what I mean I convincedmyself of that because because I amnever give up attitude may seem you knowthat's the best way to be and beinggrateful I've always been grateful I'llbe my dad and like we come from nothingmy parents come from nothing and we haveenough today to keep us happy and that'sall that matterswhich is how well you know half is themost important thing of course and youknow I've always been bought up in a wayto think that stay humble as well and begrateful and that's well yeah and that'sone thing about me I love that andthat's something you preach on yourinstagrams in your facebook as welllove that because always I can relate tothat so on my Twitter I just kind of saystuff that comes in my head it's kind ofme talking to myselfyeah because sometimes if I'm a bad daymy first thing in my head is going backto a prayer yeah and listen to how youtalk so be that person that you sayyou're gonna be here and I wrotesomething the other day which saysgrowing up I didn't have everything Iwanted but I had everything I needed andthat's literally how I grew up and andthat's kind of like one of my timelinesas well because I think my life is thiscompared to so many other people that'swhy people it's hard for them they thinkthey're humble but they're not reallythey don't understand how what it takesto be grateful you have to believe inthat you know what I'm happycoming for my breakfast is a bit hardtimes II was me I know and I've seen youknow looking at my friend he's buyingnew train is no lazy Navi and now I'msitting up and for one but I still don'tgo and get what I want because I knowI've got enough I don't you know that'snot gonna change your liver whathappened it's all still here it's notcause it's a big example my friendsalways like oh why didn't get yourself anew car you know you all you need toknowwhat can I'm humble in a way that my cartakes me a to be I'm happy that's whatthe purpose of a car is that's all ifyou could treat yourself to treatyourself don't forget where you comefrom people forget where they callthat's what happened I agreethey really forget asleep hour for alisten that is I think so I come fromsimilar backgrounds no not as bad as youin terms of not being very humblebecause we had normally going up and Iremember the moment I got my first goodjob he was in London and I was anymoremoney thing on you wanted to deal withand when I say what money I mean to meto other people it's probably a normalsalary so I know all this money and Iremember Bibles designer gear thesejeans and stuff and if you go upstairsto the third bedroom they're all themjeans and all them teacher I just and Ihardly wear because yeah very quickly Irealized that doesn't make me happywhat makes me happy is being able to dothis or help people or give a hunter andthat kind of the best thing you can doyou know helping people is one of thebest things as well even if it's doneit's like the littlest thing like I'llexplain some time was of course tellingthem how if they're saying the day'sbeen bad try and help and be they bebetter not have a joke or just havesomeone just maybe someone small yeah Ithink I thinking in the world butgrowing up humble and down to half isprobably my first thing not taking myheart honestly from your hair is thefirst thing that there is respect beinghumble and down to the best can comeafter that's the best thing I think theworld would be a better place if there'sno greed then like lot of people arethere's not greedthere's a lot of competition Cubacompetition not a lot of people competewith them with others or their mates ortheir family members like I've alwaystold my parents like listen don't worrywhat people say let them talk let thembe they think what they want let themthink what they want they're jealous theHaiti they got a negative problem whichthey need help in but they don'tunderstand that especially in ourcommunity indeed pretty they see theywon't know that they don't stand thiskind of stuff this is like if you canfucking get it what can't you why don'tyou do this why don't you do what theydon't realize the other person might behappy you know they're happy with whatthat for my dad my dad one kind ofperson like you were says to me whatkids are happybe healthy about reform I'll either seeyou always you say that his whole lifeand you're drilled into my headno even though I didn't grow up withthem but but then let them believeremember yeah I remember these thingsand now always when I stay at homethat's why I got that little white booktop of the mirror and I love that lookhoney and I've got one thing that I'mI'm rich yeah and you know how I feeland well feeling about everything I wantyou keep saying that the things that youdon't you don't expect they'll come toyou anyway then you're attracting thator anything of course but yes like Isaid it's not easy for people out therethat's hard but I already know I lovethat you've shared that because that'sliterally how I think yeah so we justbefore we started this episode I toldyou I'm selling this house now yeah andI was like we're gonna get ourselves asmaller apartment and two other peopleit's gonna be like shit you're given abig house for a small little apartmentfor what for me is my happiness mywife's gonna give up WIC we're gonna betogether I don't care that I don't allmy house that doesn't bother meI don't care my family or friends say ohyou don't want to have anymorelisten not many people do all thathouses the lights on the houses for astart but secondly it doesn't bother meI've got not ego in relation to thatwhat I am doing is controlling my ownlife I'm living life on my own terms andmy wife's happy that's the best way andgoing back to banks on that to be fairwe don't own exactly nothingwe're here for a very very short amountof time we're leasing almost everythingin life you know to me we don't ownnothing and all your own only thing yourown is your own happiness their ownmindset and yourself absolutely and likeyou said you and your wife are happythat's when you care about a lot of thepeople out there to care about the kidsand their parents and that's what theyshould be this I think time is morevaluable than money you know I mean themost most important commodity you canget money all day long you'll get thatforever at the time you never get thatback and that's me saying it becausethat time I lost with my parents I'llnever get anything I get that back yeahme growing up as a most of my friendsused to go back schooldon't open the door go back home sorrydon't open the door one day mom and dada day no I didn't have that feeling Ididn't know what it's like growing upwith parents or what it's like beingwith you in a moment dad and my mom anddad had to go through a lot they have tocry you know they're always outevery day have known a magic I mean I'mnot a parody I can only imagine how hardthat must've been a song he was alwayssaid to my mom and dad I said no there'speople are there I've lost you know theparents in walls and this was going onnow and people are you know dying and Isaid don't worry I'm fine andeverything's goodand I always came that positive energyand that thing that I'm gonna do welldon't worry come off it and I will neverbasically we say flop come so I'm gonnaprove everyone wrong don't worry andsame people they used to criticize usthey don't even want to look at me nowyeah yeah I know I still pull my handout unshaken because that's not the wayof yours just because they hate youdoesn't mean you have to hate back don'tgo on to their level yeah and mostlikely reason that they have these kindof opinions or something positive stuffis because really it's an opinion aboutthemselves so when they see you doingstuff or saying you're gonna dosomething they believe they can't do itand that's what it is I had it well Imean when I was 25I'm 25 slate and I was like 42 poundsoverweightheavier than I was now tits andeverything and I would but I want to goand box it every single person close tome other than my mom I like my brotherand like my immediate family were likeyou can't do it straightawaydad already decided my fate in here justincredible how do you guys know youhaven't seen me try I wasn't as good aswhen I was 17 when I first know but Iwas like oh because I was so likefocused I was like respond I think Icould do something because I had anOlympic coach who told me I could do itand I was at surely his opinion in thatfield matters a little bit more thanyour opinion yet but then saying that ifI never had that guy tell me that Iprobably would have believed it and Iprobably would never have tried it and Istill say to this day those two yearsare the best years of my life I neverachieved the things that I want to dochief but I built my counter and I builtmy strength and I built so much about meas a personyeah in those two years that I think isreally important that was me literallyignoring people's opinions or definitelyurge people shut up everything the thingis that when people when people say toanother person you can't do it who arethey don't you are needy they'renobodies they just feel like that butthemselves that they Condor is on youcan do itand it's good in a way because when youstart thinking like that you getstronger and you think to yourself youknow what that's true who are they totell me and you that's why sometimesthat period of my life where I gotcriticized judged I probably took anynow people but they won't do to my faithbut yeah but you need them peoplesometimes because they've got a issuewith themselves in within themselves ofcourse but they're taking it out onothers but you need these people becauseyou use them as a competitive thing likeyou know what I'm gonna prove you wrongthere and it helps you it pushes youeven more and it's just forget it I justhave this quote from the whole two yearson my wallpaper on my phone and it was Ido because I can't I come because I wantto I want to because you said I couldn'tand that's what it was because there wasso many people that said I couldn't yeahI'm just gonna go and do this now yeahalmost to prove them wrong so I get thatyeah it's very hard but like I saideveryone goes to so much through lifeand you mentioned the depression thingearlier and obviously you know you foundfighting as your way of kind ofreleasing energy and helping you and allthe benefits of exercise on mentalhealth and depression yeah how did youovercome it or is it something that youstill feel you battle with now I thinkum I don't have it no more now basicallyup in a way but back then when I was akid I didn't know it was depression okaybut it was but I realized afterafterwards it what it was because goingin a room lock yourself up and crying isjust as a 12 year old and I was 10 to 12that's when it was the main period andit was a bit more you wouldn't realizeand you think one more crank you justyou know but that's what's going on yourhead is telling youDanya you're on your own you got no onethere your mom and dad that's so faraway you know you have all thesethoughts going through your head andnegative thoughts basically and hestarted from there and I worked myselfin a way thinking and first of allsports was helping me anyway keeps yourmind of things you know like I alwayssay to people find a hobby don't have tobecome a sport do any sport it could beanything you know sitting playing onPlayStation yeah sometimes it gets yourmind off things remind some wellabsolutely and the way I overcome it isbasically I was justone day I'll just come home and thinkingto myself I'm about 14 now and I'm doneit in ages and I was thinking to myselfhold on I felt alone I'm not sittingthere I was thinking and no one caresabout me you know I want to go back toGermany I don't want to be here no morebut then I started thinking these peoplestarted coming all in my head thatcriticized me and just my family myparents basically and everything and Isaid if I go back now and give up Igotta hear that for rest of my life andmy mom and dad will have to hear thatsay he didn't make nothing of himself heain't done nothing so at 14 I have tothink and more 14 year olds they don'tthink about us knowing no chance I haveto prove after thinking my head don'tthink you know what I can't do this Igive up no matter how hard it becomes Iwill not give up I was there yeah andprove everyone wrong and I'm not tellingeveryone that it's easy to do you knowdepression is it's a very I don't thinkit's looked into as much it should beand it's quite hard and not many peoplecan overcome itbecause they feel that there's no oneday and of course you know I mean untilnot only in the hard waylook I didn't speak to no one I usedmyself as in I'm gonna do this I'm gonnado that I'm gonna prove them wrong andI'm gonna give it a go I'm not gonnagive up and then I never gave up fromthey carried on I went through a lot ofstuff through it throughout then as wellI lost my grandparents in India mum ormy dad's mom and dad both died day aftereach of that and especially a funeralday it's a very different thing I'vegone I've lost fights that's made mefeel down you know I've had shitperformances fights I've been criticizedjudged again this was around 18 19so through in my whole life there's beenbits and bobs but I had that one thingin my head I don't give a fuck I am NOTgonna give up and I'm gonna carry on andtoday people respect you for it you knowpeople think you know who's strongminded person yeah definitely and nowI'm just too old I'm getting I feel likemy body might not be the same that I waswhenwas 18 I'd like mmm fire and then gotthe punches got the kid speed whateverbut in my head I'm still that lion andhe still there and if I have to dosomething I know I can do it my bodymight have to be shattered even if it'snot fighting or whatever is all trainingusing that one is yeah unify they saypeople lose their jobs they getredundant the baffled they don't knowwhat to do they go to a pub they startdrinking no cuz they don't used tothinking one fuckin into the worldno walk through that door be happy mmmsee your familywhat about girlfriend kids where thatsmile say you know whattomorrow's another day absolutely simpleas that to do them and that's the way toovercome things it's hard it's it's noteasy I'm not saying it's easy but youknow yeah I think you need mindset yeahyou've got like an athletic like a toptop level of mindset but the thingsyou're saying is you're not saying youdon't feel it as well yeah you stillfeel pain you still feel this struggleor making a hole and you're not Supermanlike nobody wants to wake up and runningthe cold but you have to do cosnecessary you have to do and if anythingif we can train ourselves whether it'sthrough exercise combat sports orwhatever it is like any goals we have isit going to discipline yourself yesthat's really where you get your rewardsyeahdiscipline yourself alone you have todiscipline your mind and your you haveto think right and it's just like likeyou said it's not easy but what isn'teasynothing's easy in life and this is athing and I think I'm not sure of theright word for it but I feel a littlebit sorry for people who haven't beenthrough the hardship in life or sufferedas much because it's more difficult forthem to put themselves in somebody likeyourselfs position yeah see the thing isyou had your back against the wall youhad no other choice easy there look Iquit and this is the end now or I keepfighting forward and you're callingforward stand by swing it's true even asa kid like when I was in Germany goingthrough being bad influence through Iwas only seven eight and I wasn't doingtheft and that and literally you knowjust I think the only time one thing Iremember is getting my head kicked in bya bunch of sixteen year olds me I'm aI'mseven years eight years old but that wasthe life growing up in the state and Ithink coin from coming from Frankfortthey stay area there and come into handswith it's just as bad well yeah I boughtthat mentality to England that no one'sgonna fuck with me and I am Who I am Isee and they've helped me I don't knowme I remember last time getting introuble here in England you know juststay disciplined and then what I have todo found a talent kept up with it keptmy head strong you know regardless ofwhat happens in life they're gonna beups and downs gems are gonna come that'sno matter what they don't matter who isokay you can be a celebrity you can beyeah multi-millionaire credit they'reall going through storms and they allcome through life where they stressedand they're whoever but the carrier ofthe carrier they don't give up you knowand that's the way to be to be basicallyand I carried on to be fair I boughtthat same mentality it took time andlike I said I still you have ups anddowns now I have ups and downs now andthen but doing that thing like waking upin the morning how makes it positiveit helps Lord and I hope people try thatthis you try all right definitely I meanI've started yeah I told you you'd liketo get people to start it because it'simportant out and the thing that'simportant is you showed your underability there so we all know you as thistough guy yeah you know kicking ass allover all over the world but it's good tohave wannabe of you as a human sayinglook I still struggle that's it but likeyou said you've got two choices youbefore you go backwards and yours isalways to go forward keep lookingforward and don't look back basically ifyou start looking back you living in thepast of course live in the moment that'swhat we've gone the future that's got tobe fair forget the future the past livein the limit yeah I believe in thatmoment you know you wake up that's yourday live in that moment that time thatyou got in that lake every minute hourwhatever counts yeah and giving thatmoment I love it future is a plan pastis gone forget that and the moment iswhat you're gonna do then whatever youdo in the day doesn't mean I'm tellingpeople to train or whatever not asathlete wise as a normal human beingwise find happiness firstin yourself and think positive and whatyour mind just starts changing myselfI'm just living that moment I love itthat's the best way brilliant bro Iappreciate that great lessons there um Iwould ask you then another question andso I know you're not scared of likecombat and stuff stuff that most peoplea normal person on their own will bescared of confrontation is tough becauseobviously you've been then you're notjust competing against a normal personthrow it you're competing againstsomebody who's trained and probably justas hard as you yeah but other than thatwhat else in life scares you then youknow what be honest I've never fearedanything to be fair the only thing Ifear and as in person who Dean he'sprobably my parents losing my parents Idon't feel nothing else I can go back tothe bottom I know I'll rise up againnothing fears me but we all know that weget old at one point and we're gonna usepeople we love and it's a hard thing andespecially like me that I haven't spenttime with them as much as I want to domy life and try my best I'll doeverything now a lot of people ask mewhat you want you go holiday come withyou mate so I can do that whenever ofcourse at that time I have off I'll gohome and that time I spend with my momand dad it's the most important time inmy life and I think if I fear anythingit's losing my parents in life basicallynothing else fears me I could lose wahwah lose my house I can lose my job I'lldo whatever is but you can't replacethat you can't replace certain thingsyour parents are one thing that youcan't replace you loved once somethingyou know and that is my fearwe take you for granted yeah we doanother fear that a lot it's it'ssomething that you know you gotta acceptit one day it's no and but you don'twant it to come and that's the fear youhave any you've got the right mentalitythough that every day is you basicallyseize the dayyeah so you make the most of it I'm thesame I think that probably one of mybiggest fears as well my immediatefamily obviously if you know is you doand I know a lot of people use thatdreams to inspire my sometimes use likemy nightmares to inspire me so I Isometimes I know it sounds a bit morbidbut it's like just imagine if this istheir everlastingdo you know what I meanthat requires we have to really give myall on the day because my my end game isfor them to have their life that they'vealways wanted a do you know mean untilthey have to find that for them so ifyou always because I'm not the longeryou take the more chance it is of thatday coming that's it yeah that makes itand you're right that is using that isbasic I use the same thing like I alwaysthink the opposite I think to myself youknow it's God forbid something happensto him that's why I booked my ticket onthe last minute hang on when I have thattime off it can be two days three daysI'm their dog of course no catch theflight I'm gone you know I mean I coulduse that money to do anything I want Idon't know anywhere in the world if Iwant some toys and do I want but thattime I spend with them that's the bestwas the best time and even if he's justsitting at home and just talking tohaving it laughing just chilling itcan't be no there's no that's the onlything I personally fear anything else Idon't feel like you can throw me in thejungle with nothing you know I meanobviously I'll come at what I've gottado and going back to the bottom of myadvice by cooking I'm not scared normalbecause you know once you've been thereyeah you don't fear to be there againbut you know how to wake yourself upthen yeah you can be poor rich but theywere still living our India and you seepoor people you see you know how peoplelive and how people are they still haveyou know yeah you don't mean it's crazyeasy it's still happy I'm going Thailandback end of last year and I rememberthis one particular family was a threegeneration family and they were justsmiling in this very small hut whereclothes on the line that didn't looklike they were washed but they werewashed I don't mean that in anydisrespectful way but happiness it wasalmost like an advert you know that whenyou watch these business embolus and Iwalked past it with the wife and we justwalking back to the hotel sir that'sbliss I mean like no God they've goteach other that's actually enough youknow those relationships they gothappiness love and I was like I lovethat it did change my perception a lotcoming back from a place like that and Ithink them as people especially intoday's society so glued to ourInstagram and we should go out there weshould look at these people and travel abit of the world and see how lucky weactually are I went when I fought inIndia for in Bombay andit was a the poverty day was crazy andpoor but I've seen it remember goinggrowing past in the car on the righthand side there's a mom with the twokids and they seemed happythey smiley and the kids were playingand they ended up in the dirtthings are not change you know you'regonna experience a lot that change andyou think you know always complaincomplain why am i complaining but yeahgoing back to the fear that's the onlything I fear in life otherwise I don'tfear anything - yeah I was gonna say ifyou don't see that the guys getting itherefair enough fair enough so I'm gonnaassume obviously your parents are yourbig motivation but you're also likeyou're inspiring other people as wellnow so you when I've talked about yourInstagram yes if you're waking Mackenzieaway commit will China another minute aswell what keeps you motivated to stillkeep that up because I'm not even aboutday job as well yeah through touch phoneyeah so you went from network around isit yeah engineer you're an engineer andyou do that full time when I see you Ijust see you is it after you keepfinding people and doing amazing thingswhat inspires you in terms of keepingthat going is that just something thatyou just enjoy this part of your life orhave you got a bigger inspiration to doanything and I'll be honest you knowwhen it's been in use since 10 years oldit's an it is in your blood and you willnever give it up he's always gonna be inyou that attitude that fighter mentalitythat been there done it and he inspiresme in a way that I used to do this it'sthe world I lived he was it's what mademe I'm not I'm not when people say knowme as me they know me as the fighteryeah yeah no means nothing so easilyit's gonna live with me foreveryeah so that's why it pushes me to helpothers I like to help but I like to bein that environment in that gymenvironment where kids are training itreminds me of me and when these guys aretraining for Big Show's big fights andI'm holy punch to them I'm training himit reminds me that I'll be through thisand I love itI think it's great and Guilds all boysand we have students that are littlekids from girls to boys and this so muchtalent out there and I think it's justbrilliantfor them to get off the couch or hang onthe computers they enacted yeah I thinkit's it's gonna be in me forever alwayswhen it comes to that side I'll alwaysbe there in that sport environmentbecause that's something that stuck withme yeah yeah it's always there and I'malways there to Harper I think thisinterview is going to be interestingthough when people listen to it becausethere's a lot more about this as well asyou as a personyeah and I think you don't give yourselfcredit for how wise and how emotionallyin terms of you you've obviously taken alot of knocks to the head as I telogenbecause I listen to a lot of largepremieres and world leaders and mostpeople speak the same things so that themax of everything is the same everyone'strying to motivate us by I said therewas stuff but what it is we will have adifferent way of communicating and yoursis obviously through your fight game butsome of the words you're saying today isit's literally like I'm hearing it andyou can see how excited I'm when I'msitting here because I was just hearingsomeone I admire lip killing it acrossthe game saying the same stuff yeah sothere's obviously a secret to thesuccess you know the secret ingredientwhich people have it and whether it'smaking money or whether it's inspiringpeople are getting to the top of a5-game the things you are speaking aboutare amazing so hopefully this interviewgives that and I think you shoulddefinitely try and showcase that more aswell we touched on mental health andthis is something we'll take offlinebecause I'm deuce a couple of projectsin mental health so my mom suffered withit for eight years on know how seriousit is and I think having someone from soof health and fitness background into itthere might be room for us topotentially work together or somethingto what help into poor people awarenessis tough so I'm excited for that becauseI think you've got more than just hornypants for people you've got a lot oflife why I like helping doing space ofthat I don't see I'm doing yeah yeahsometimes if my friends all my family oreven my parents of the day of negativetimes on the talky negative I'm thinkingI'm explaining it to them yeah it's truelike you said you don't realize you havethat in your head you have it here likeyou don't have to have a great a beall agree but if you got generalknowledge in life and you know how toespecially help people I made peoplehappy no life experience is the mainthing a female nowadays this youths outthere that like thatyou know I mean of course parents wantto give them everything on the platedon't want to see them struggle butthey're not gonna experience life she'snot gonna not true no and I think thebest lesson they could teach at schoolis how to control and understand yourown mind which is something that you'vehad to do definitely cuz I remember lasttime using science I use it a little bitfor fitness but generally speaking yeahit's some of the stuff is okay yeah Idon't know how to pay tax and yeah ofcourse they should just be like a lifeschool or thing yeah yeah but I thinkthat's something that I'll probably dowith my kids because I'm not I've gotacademics yeah then the whole degree theMasters and stuff and it's not really some where I want to go look this stuff Iwanna do I don't actually need any ofthat so for me it's like I've justwasted so many years so when I get kidsand stuff I'd love first I'm gonna getin the club box it's a little boxyengineer sports all that's also butgenerally speaking what I think whenthey get to a certain age if they find apassion or something they wanna do Itook their choice yeah absolutely theirchoice and another thing I want to hiton is basically a lot of people don'trealize this when there's no differencebetween a girl and a boy a girl can doanything that a boy can understand Iknow girls are tough for the boys yeahthey're champions and I don't disagreewith the thing that a female can't dowhat American you know they can doanything anything that American andnowadays females are more successfulthan men really do what and he's justthe individual that's why yeah because Iget a lot of parents saying that oh yeahmy boys gonna do this but how about yougirl look of course it what means shecan't do that no example like fightingor boxingoh my boy he might not want to do thatbut you go might become a world championbe and it it's I mean yeah there's a lotof female fighters now I'm seen comingup as dangerous imagine you also is allgonna bring on a female power lifterit's just a normal girl that youwouldn't think thatthe power of technique and everythingthey got and everything else boys thisgot their own training and it's hard andit's all a point athlete and fighting tothe sign as a person and human I'll bethrough things but I'm still standingokay so there you've heard it the buzzerhas gone off now we're gonna put Rajthrough his paces and I'm gonna askingthe most random questions ever was 60seconds so are you ready buddy yeah I'mready let's go okay brilliant three twoone what did you eat for breakfast seeya the ability to fly or be invisiblevisible money or fame money Bruce Lee orChuck Norris Bruce Lee your proudestmoment your favorite food pizza Netflixor YouTube Netflix your number-one goalthis year just be healthy boxing orkickboxing boxingwould you rather know how you will dieor when you were dying your favoriteboxer ever everything more or less yourfavorite MMA fighter ever John Joneslove or money love books or moviesyou're number one fitness tip yourfavorite workout song yes if you couldsit with one person in the world foranother who would it benot bad your worst fear is a child youever seen what is your biggest addictionjunk food summer or winter winter yourfavorite place in the world India if youcould abolish one thing in the worldwhat would it be your favorite superheroyour biggest friend and the finalquestion is your favorite movie starRobert De Niro really good stuff okay sothe next thing I ask is about reflectionso if you could go back to maybe anearlier time in your life where youcould whisper something to your youngerself say for instance when you're firstcoming to Tom that Airport yeah youleavin funfair fine you comin up toEngland and you can just whispersomething into that kids yeah knowingwhat you know now what would you say ifI'll take it back to that timewhen me when I first left Germany goingto that Airport back with my bags nowhispering to that kids hear my sob I'lljust say go there and smushy hmm you'regonna make it okayso we're actually at the last questionnow and this is a question asked all onmy guess yeah and it's if you're nothundred fifty years no members arearound anymore and all that exists is abook book on the table and it's a bookabout your life and everything thatyou've done open to whenever you passand on that book what I wouldn'tobviously what the player would be andsecondly what the summary would tell usabout you at the back Montana would bebasically my favorite song with no oneknowing this notion of comedy it's myway from Frank Sinatra okay love like mybook would be called my way yeah becauseI've done everything my way the way Iwanted it to do the way I wanted it tobe and that's why I'll call it just myway but a picture yeah okay straightahead my legs and the name my way and atthe back just a great human beingbasically like how people and wentthrough the struggles through journey ofmy life and a Beatle come my way my waytry and get the truck oh yeah I lovethat song literally but um yeah that'sit really but that wouldn't be the bookand I will be the back the journey of mylife okaythat I destroyed my way no fantastic andI've sort of said thank you again forobviously sharing your story I knew it'dbe good my wife's been telling me forages brought myself as a podcasting backin the day but she was like you need toreach out to write you know it's got anamazing stories inspiringfrom the moment I met you today yourenergy and stuff appreciate thatthank you very much days on I'm justlike as a friend now I'm proud ofeverything you're achieving and whatyou're doing going forward until yourparents are as well and just before weclose up the show what's the best placethe audience can connect with you orfollow your story they can connect withme through Facebook social mediaInstagram Facebook and your names forthe names are red silentokay on Instagram only one radish saladI likeand they're on Facebook right silentI'll come up and you'll knowstraightaway and you spout Raj Raj andmy second name is sa double L a andfantastic so I do he's operating in theshow notes as well you'll find a lot oflike training footage as well I'm surethere's a lot of mindset stuff in thereas well obviously if you throw a liketraining like I knew actually before Imet you I was gonna want to go to thegym after this episode so I've got myshaker ready I've got my gym attire onI'm going straight to the gym hopefullyinspires you guys but also inspires younot to make excuses in your life becausethere's always somebody out there who'sprobably got it with so thank youRaj and for everyone at home thanks forlistening and remember this podcast isabsolutely free so all we ask in returnis for you to share this with a friendand drop us a five star review over oniTuneshave an awesome day See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out 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BANG! @southernvangard #radio Ep203! Spring has sprung Vangardians and we have more of that uncut raw for you this week! If this is the first time you’re joining - WALCOME! We drop TWICE A WEEK - Tuesdays it’s a mix show of the latest hip-hop sliced and diced by DJ Jon Doe alongside hosting shenanigans from Eddie Meeks & Doe - and Thursdays find us getting our Montell Williams & Phil Donahue on with our Interview Sessions series. This week we head to Canada - western Canada, to be exact - to chat with Vancouver’s own CHONG WIZARD! Interview snippets are at the end of Ep203, the full drops Thursday! Hip hip hooray it’s ALWAYS that #SmithsonianGrade #TwiceAWeek #WeAreTheGard // southernvangard.com // @southernvangard on #applepodcasts #stitcherradio #soundcloud #mixcloud #youtube // #hiphop #rap #undergroundhiphop #boombap #DJ #mixshow #interview #podcast #ATL #WORLDWIDE #RIPCOMBATJACK Recorded live March 24, 2019 @ Dirty Blanket Studios, Marietta, GA southernvangard.com @southernvangard on #applepodcasts #stitcherradio #soundcloud #mixcloud #youtube twitter/IG: @jondoeatl @southernvangard @cappuccinomeeks Talk Break Inst. - "I Remember" - Statik Selektah "Fly Lord" - Chong Wizard ft. Fly Anakin & Lord Juco (prod. Hobgoblin) "Butcher Lords" - Flee Lord ft. Benny "War Wounds" - 38 Spesh ft. Duffle Bag Hottie, Benny The Butcher, Che Noir (prod Eto) "Coup De Grâce" - Phyba x Giallo Point ft. Sonnyjim & Daniel Son "Pinnrolls II" - Da Flyy Hooligan "Davinci Code" - Napoleon Da Legend ft. Rim (prod. Giallo Point) Talk Break Inst. - "Tropic Lights" - Statik Selektah "Beatbodya" - Bumpy Knuckles "Rap Puppets" - Jack Jones ft.Spectac and Supastition "Field Trip" - Ullnevano X Logic Marselis (cuts DJ Jon Doe) "7000…" - Ca$ablanca X Yashmallallah "Children Of The Storm" - Ciddy ft. Ty Farris "Break Pies" - Nowaah The Flood (prod Stu Bangas) Talk Break Inst. - "Faze Won" - Statik Selektah "Ghost Town" - Daniel Son & Futurewave ft. Saipher Soze "Principles & Standards" - Marcel P. Black "The Long Pour" - Boog Brown (prod. Foul Mouth) "Perfection" - Jamil Honesty & Hobgoblin ft Ace Cannons "How It Works" - Frank'Synato (Frank D'Amato & Synato Watts) Talk Break Inst. - "Pair A Dice" - Statik Selektah Talk Break Inst. - "South Seas" - Statik Selektah Interview Snippets - Chong Wizard

Find your voice - Episode 11 - My Little Spartan - Michael V Kalisperas #11Tagline: "Unleash your inner spartan..."Apologies in advance for the sound quality on my end. Technical issues certainly played their role. But in true spartan fashion we kept going.Michael Kalisperas life turned upside when his son was hit with a number of health conditions due to the neglect of a midwife. Sadly his beautiful son's life had changed which would have a knock on effect to Michael and his family.However determined to not let this get him down, Michael continued to take action and let his excuses be a thing of the past. Realising his own excuses and rationales to avoid doing the hard stuff are so insignificant compared to the battles his son, and daughter face on a daily basis he ensured he crushed his goals.A successful property investor, an author, a father and loving husband Michael story is one which touched my heart.I reached out personally when I first heard his story because he genuinely changed my whole perception on the way I view my life or sometimes feel about my own situation.I urge you all to ignore the sound defects, which I take full responsibility for and listen to this incredible man's story.Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/mikekalispera (Personal)Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/EffusiveMarketing/ (Facebook group)Michaels book: https://amzn.to/2RUZ7MS#JustDeuIt & #FindYourVoice[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and as always I am thehost of the show so it's very rare thatI will stop a podcast especially at theend of it just to kind of find out whothe individual is now I'm not saying Idon't get inspired or motivated bypeople but generally speaking I'm justkind of excited for the next podcasthowever on this particular occasion afew years ago I actually pause thepodcast towards the end of the show nowthe only problem was I still had therest of my car journey to go so I waskind of sitting in silence but it wasworth it because I really wanted to senda message to this individual who I'm nowvery grateful to have on my podcast andI sent a message out to Michael to kindof say thank you for the inspiration forthe motivation and more importantly Ihope things really do progress a littlebit easy for him I suppose in life andspeaking to him in this interview it'sdifficult to say how things got easierbut one thing I can say is that he'sattitude is still the same he'swillingness to just go out there andtake action and not be a victim of hiscircumstances is fantastic and that'skind of what this podcast is about it'sabout eliminating your excuses it'sabout pay with the cards that you'redealt with it's about literally thinkingokay this is what's happened now how doI change this how do I go out into theworld and really find my voice and kindof write my own story so I think I'mgoing to leave it thereI just want to say before it starts Idid have some teething issues with theWi-Fi so we actually have to do a zoomcore wherewhich was fine for videos butunfortunately some of the Sam when I wasediting it back wasn't quite as clear asI had hoped because I was using mylaptop speaker as opposed to my mic thatI'm now recording this intro with sohopefully you can bear with this becauseI think more important than the soundquality is the message and the storybehind Michael's life so without furtherado let's get this interview on the wayokay so I am here today with my courseobviously I want to say thank youMichael for taking time out of your dayand there how are you doing today youngI'm very well thank yougood stuff good stuff so I think it'simportant for the listeners to reallystart to understand your story fromyourself so if you could please explainhow you progress through life yeah sureprogress through life as it seems like aI'm 42 in them in literally a couple ofweeks time so it's February you know sonot long I'm gonna be 42 so other knowwhere to begin to go through the wholelife scenario but I've done quite a lotof things I guess I could go back toeven school where I would say I wasprobably not the best at school and notreally someone that was a you know inthese special sets as they call himbecause I wasn't really interested inschool I didn't feel the vibe at schoolI just didn't you know bond with theteachers if I'm being honest but my lifecompletely changed where when I went tocollege and you meet a different type ofteacher and different environment and itwas a bit more more creative more myfeeling you know what cuz I've alwayscome from a creative background I'vealways been like an artist as such andthen I ended up pretty much ending upgoing to to university ended up at deMontford University and doing them so wecall multimedia design and marketingbasically which was basically it wasmultimedia and I left there and a lot ofmy friends ended up in the 3d world fromfrom from those sort of forces and endedup her kind of like playing games forSony Playstation so I'm got a real whileyeah got really good friends I'm quitewell in that and then and I ended upbasically showcasing my work they theyasked for a few people to earnto showcase their work at an exhibitionin London I think it was the Olympia Ican't remember the actual name of thevenue from being asked me so many yearsago and it was a big place and and theyhad about I don't know six of us theshowcase our stuff so they picked peoplethat they wanted to showcase at thisshow and it was just like a sort of likegreatest show and Khaitan story short Igot a head hunted by my boss back thenCharla Crais for the BBC ended upworking at the BBC basically doingdesigns and websites for them and yeahwe touched on many many areas it waswithin a group of people as a lot ofthese companies are and so I was in thedesigner group and basically designwebsites ranging from Teletubbies tocrime watch Top Gear yeah yeah very veryvery very very varied set of you knoweven like you know History Channel maybewe've seen so it was really it was adepartment called fracture and learningback at the time I think they've got ridof the actual Department have somethingelse it's called a different name nowyeah and I was in and I didn't staythere as long as I could of I decided toleave I don't know what it was I comefrom originally London actuallyironically but most of my life wasbrought up in a small village calledMulford where they've got the movinhills and more than spring water and allthis kind of thing and it is a bit likehouse on the prairie kind of thing andas when I lived there I can't wait toget out and you know escape and get intoUniversity and all that sorcerer and andmeet people and but when you go to thelike concrete jungle and kind of thinkon what god what is this AZ yeah yeahit's kind of like we start realizing youknow my dad says it is well he lived inthem the most of his life I actuallycame over here with nothing I mean heliterally had no money for shoes heliterally came with nothing from fromCyprus and he started up and he's donewell for himself through hard graft andhe he said to me I will I won't go backto London even if someone pays me youknow younot because he doesn't like Londondidn't love it you just just just founda different vibe somewhere else simpleas that and I think for me it's the samefind different vibe I still go to Londonoften I'm going for five days literallyin the next day date in half I'm goingthere for five days you're going in outof business and meet people and you knowso yeah it's a it's I love it a littlebit but to live there it's a differentworld he's in itdifferent world I lived there bought ahouse on the outskirts of it was a waswell II did the Olympics actually nowreally wish I didn't sell it I ended upselling it because I got squatter's youbelieve that I so that's my first trueinvestment and actually that propertynow is worth about seven hundredthousand I bought it about 115 I thinkit was i sold actually actually i onlyhad it for a year and I sold it but Imade 40k profit in that point that's loque ya I can't complain and it was a butstill I can't complain absolutely mypoint of doing it in keeping up was Ialways I always thought back there Iused to watch location occasionally allthose programs and I always wanted tobuild my own house I just wanted mightget buy land above my house and you knowobviously working in London you knowyou've got to be pretty sorted you knowsign up and bloody you know 23 years oldor whatever was coming about what andyou know the reality is that to buy landin Londonabsolutely from some guy in Morphin youknowand yeah just bought that property nothe plan was to keep it butunfortunately got screwed over yeah yeahand I was kind of like I just lost thewill to live my eyes I have to get ridso yeah ventually got rid of them andthey trashed it as well because althoughI Franky refurbished it and they trashedit which was really nice of thembut hey and it's one of those and it I'mback in it now yeah back into propertywell I wanted to do it quicker if I'mbeing honest with you I bought my ownhouse back in Melbourne after I sold mymy house therebought my own house back in well whenthat was brick building you knowsomething come up whilst we're comingout of the recession a boy at therecession period which was the worstthing can do I look because I'm soparanoid I was stuck on a highfixed-rate back of n so back then whenrates were going down to ridiculousamounts I was on a 6% or something crazyand it was but it was high right at thewrong time but there was there's off atthis something there's nothing betterthan having a peaceful kind of like youknow as long as you can work bloody harddid all the hours of possibly do tocover it and literally you like workingand everything was going straight intothat pretty much but I truly believe youknow if you can get through the hardtimes that you know the green the greensgrowing you know absolutely is notgrowing yeah so no it was a it was worthit it was worth it and there's my myfirst house and I say proper house 5bedroomed detached properties in it yeahlots of people of them you know donethings with you know the great thingsbut at the time that was the right thingabsolutely how so some wonderful thingisn't it yeah absolutelyso that's took you back into property Iused still actively a property investorknows that where you kind of callyourself or ya know it's a bit weirdbecause I mean I think digress in thatlast question I'm I got back intoproperty after my son was made severelydisabled basically we basically had mybeautiful son bornVasili born completely healthy came homewith him completely normal and then amistake by the Midwifenot following certain procedurebasically ended up with a catalogue ofmistakes not just the Midwife we forgavethem publicly in the newspapers which ispretty damn hard to do because you knowthere was blatant mistakes I mean whenyou go to the report that they did itwas like there was several mistakes andit basically you know from having abeautiful child born healthy coming homeyou know healthy we've got a child nowthat's severely disabled trapped in hishot and wheelchair pretty much trappedin his body and declared blind deaf withspastic cerebral Z so I mean he's realcontrol is his tasteyou know and that was hard we were toldhe was blind to completely weave andsort of like therapy and all sorts ofstuff we research in America and and youknow not too long ago we had somereports saying that he's they put someprobes on his head and the reckon hecould see now and that really just aboutthat he was completely deaf but wepainful taking a decision while they'reyoung to put them through horribleoperations but but we put him through anoperation that has given him like therobotic sound if you know I mean so okhe's got something called Cochlear'swhere they kind of drill into the headthey put a magnet processor goes on thatand then they put some probes orwhatever goes straight down into thecochlea and now that goes back to aprocessor and so he can hear like andthe best way I describe it to people iswhy we've been described we've been toldit is Americans used to talk yeah that'show he can hear pretty much so he'llpick some things up certain spectrumsome sounds he might not be able to pickup but um generally you know but hereacts to me he knows me his mom heknows that's the love it definitelyresponses without that just give me anexample but the amount of light therapythey put on him is basically that youput it had he his blood was poisonedpretty much had to do platoons but theythe way they can sort of negate thatthat the increase of bilirubin whichhelped cause brain damage was put himunder the lights and they did that for alot of premature children actually butbut they put him under the lights and hewas that much under the lights that heactually looked like a black child andhe was you know you know at work witholivey skin but generally kind of whiteyou know but he look like a black childand you know I will never forget andI've got him on my phone I meanliterally I've just got him on my phoneand it's a reason to have a picture ofhim on my phone like this the reason whypeople think it's probably weird why doI have him as a screen saver as my childwith all these tubes in him you know uphis nose on his arms everywhere probeseverywhere and looking it's likecompletely you knowokay but the reality is I'm really proudof him that's why that's his that's hisdefining moment you know they survivedthat and no matter how much crap hashappened since in the last almost sevenyears literally I look at that photo andwhen I'm feeling it and I've had a lotof crap come on trust me within a lot oflocals when I'm really feeling thatthinking how dare I even complain youknow I complain this kid has gonethrough everything you know and hesteals your perception and killseverything that is your lifee absolutelyyeah yeah I'm even using that now on mydiet I'm on I want to call it alifestyle change a lifestyle yeah I lovethat change but I've lost like almost Iwas it I was 17 pound 17 stone - alrightand I put on weight free depression 17pounds - - and with just over threeweeks on and I'm I'm 1510 now so babyit's a big drop for a short period timeand that's because of him you knowbecause I just think I thought screwthis I can't I can't keep killing myselfabsolutely but it's a property yeah I'dsay I'd say that was my defining momentI needed to do something to help my sonand to have my family well we're inhospital whilst all that stuff was goingon with transit bills coming in neededto pay and what people don't show you isyou know obviously you don't have thesupport you know the supports maybe lateIran after a while a little bit ofsupport here in there so it's charitablesupport you know if you get a casethrough negligence then you get supportlater on down the linebut even then you've got support wherepeople assume or you know you thoughtyou got proper support your support soit's actually like that last night youknow I had about four hours sleep whichis standard now most people don't getthat they think that's weird but that'sstandard for us and like we've got withthree carry Shaw so you know my wife andI cover in that you knowI got full-time care 24/7 well he'ssupposed to Apple we've never hadfull-time 24 not for seven years it'sjust impossible it's just we struggle toget people you know what you get it it'slike it's like yeah unfortunately ourhome has become a business in terms oflike it's a care home you know but youknow what in the last year he's beenreally stable so you know it's taking alot more there's less hospital visitsand stuff like that so you know he'sbeen really really stable and you knowhe sees making massive massive strides Imean he was declared blind he wasdeclared deathwe know he can see now he's using on Iguess how much he can see we don't knowI truly believe it's with the therapy wedid with that research we did withChristine Ramon which basically involvedputting a torch in the eyes andswitching on and off watch the peopleopen and grow he'd never met a flinch totalk through the light and he couldflinch and then so at night me and mywife throughout the night with takingturns and just through four hoursyou know switched it has to be tungstennot a blue like they can screw throughthe eyes er it has to be like thoseold-fashioned boulders you know yellowones and yeah and you just watch hisbody so he's like my sergeant is I Irecite which open and grow grew andclosing and and yeah off and theneventually after months of doing thatonce I think is my wife in the in thebathroom she was he wasn't sleep andseals up with him and she was just doingit bless her persevering on and she'sjust called me and I'm not military wentin there and the lights were all off Iput the lights on and I put the lightson because you had a torch and hechanged the hell Wowand she goes let's see he did it to youas well I'm like wow that's crazyso ya know it's mine it's mine so isthat and then again he was fed throughthe tube and we retrained him through alike a milk bottle he couldn't move hismouth off he couldn't in his braindamage basically he's brain damaged butand we used to squeeze the teat you knowand then move his bottom of his chinwith our finger just dissolved so gethim into a sort of like you know any nowhe takes it takes food from the weekendfrom Holly is itit's it's been hard it's been hard manbut you know perseverance what can I sayand that's what it is and I think it'sdifficult because obviously I can'trelate to anything that you've gonethrough in that situation but using thatas an example so my foster siblingssay pastor Simmons there were initiallyfoster siblings we went through specialguardianship so three of my siblingshave had similar what's gonna call itdisabilities growing up as well so forinstance the older one he's got a mentalage which is less than half his agewe've got one who's on the autisticspectrum yeah and when they came into mylife a little bit which is why Iresonate with your story a bit is itchange my whole perception of life andeverything that I used to mourn aboutthe silliest things now I'm grateful forand I know you know we all sending outquotes every single day and we're alltrying this positive beacon of light butI genuinely had them within my followersas well similar to yourself and it'snear when I'm there feeling crappy orfeeling sorry for myself because I don'tknow the car tires flat or somethingsomething daft perspective but thesekids are finding them much harder battlethem then I'm having to fight and yesit's commendable because I don't want tomake this about property because anyonethat wants to know my calling propertiesnew fantastic and you've got podcastsout for that and you can reach out tohim afterwards but this is more aboutyou as a person who's taken this use youchange the perception you've dealt withthe cars that you are handed it's notfair I can't explain only thing anyonecan explain why weird out certain cardsbut all we can do is play with them thebest way that you can a new kind of Iknow you very quickly scaled up afterthat and maybe that's because your backwas against the wall I suppose and yeahyou spy on me I mean there's a myfavorite quote and I promote it in oneof my groups could effusive entrepreneurit's called it's from Jack London andit's a it's basically about you knowplaying a bad hand well basically yeahand there's an ace of cards you know aceof hearts on the card you can you canalways play a bad hand well and sobasically don't even if you you can dofeels like on them on the outside of ityou might feel like you're losing it'show you play or how you react to thatthat counts so example is in propertyis I mean add a commercial toresidential big oneI'm Birmingham it's 15 rooms in the endand it was my my first commercial and mysecond project in property and I prettymuch jumped the gun a bit but we haveeverything complying at us literally andit was really stressful and at the sametime as going through moments or likeI've been for my own health careproblems I was going through cancerscare myself and there's a lot going onobviously my son and you know dealingwith deal certain builders oh my godnightmare and getting things wrong andit was just you know massive learning wehad contamination issues we had we hadall sorts of problems just cracking onbut you know again look at my my son onmy photo on my on my phone and I talkabout my son but I actually used my sonas a metaphor for my family yeah becausemy kids that my children Ellie Maria twogirls they're just as amazing Maria forinstance she's actually disabled as wellbut people don't know it and she's gotsome good Zubaz syndrome where middlepart of her head the brains not fullyformed and really rare and it can happenby being sheared and my bum or I've beenshitty stressed at birth and it can beit can happen from genes and allsomething that it's not our genesbecause we checked them and you know itbasically she's got autistic issues shecould go blind that she grows olderbecause the protein doesn't protect hereyes and all this kind of stuff but shecould have been worse I mean apparentlythey're not supposed to have balance andcan't walk but she she fires us all Imean she was she was born and had wasshaken her lace and Eliza liked she hadnystagmus and head wouldn't stop shakingso she's trained a brain to you know toplanets her eyes and and she's learnedyou know to keep straight and she she'stalking to normal school she's doingeverything she's you know she's onlyfour or five now and she's doing reallyreally well and I she's got littletantrum tantrums but not doesn't quiteunderstand certain stuff but I mean I'dsay but now she's still more behavedsome children I know that haven't gotnearly so I classI think I don't sort of put out therejust because she's not disabled reallyyou know he is on paper but she's not sofor me you know it's almost like my sonwas brought there to sort of like helpus deal with the shit that's to come ifthat makes sense my thought was likethat and we didn't have no problemsbefore and all the stuff for theproperty stuff I don't I think whatwould have hit was hard but goingthrough sheer hell you know when my sonreally sort of prepared us a lot for alot of stuff oh it came I understandthat but I think sometimes it's funnybecause I don't wish anyone to really gothrough pain it's not yeah yeah but thatmakes me feel sad when I know people aregoing through pain but sometimes I feelpeople need to experience some level ofadversity you know not to really findfocus and change their life as well andas much as I'm trying to tell peopledon't wait for that wake-up call forexample don't wait for to find out thatyour child may need extra care forexample or you've been hit with theillness get out there and do it now andI suppose it's easier said than donebecause if nobody's having to live thelife Safe Routes that you've lived forexample yeah well like my siblings theydon't really have that agency my it'sfrustrating I get frustrated because I'mlike we are so blessed like beyond meanseven what we're doing now being able tocommunicate how we eyes Isis anythingyeah absolutely I mean there's so muchhorrible stuff out there in the worldand it's just you know it's crazy to youknow to to not be grateful for whatwe've got and and and you know when yousee people that are grateful whenthey've got little and we've all beenthere we've all been them in some way inour minds we've been at the greatest oflows and it could be from spitting outwith your boyfriend or girlfriendit could be splitting up with you knowyou know a JV partner I don't know thepoint a point is you know at that pointit could be serious the most absolutelow you know you could have healthissues cancer issues family there's allsorts we've had that as well in thisperiod and that n is it's not great it'snot great but at the same time you knowI've always said one of my sayings islike you know we will never you knowwe'll neverI don't get my words up today well we'renever given a Golden Pathit was never we never no one promised usanything you know and so and so like ifyou want something you've got to go andget it you either fail or you successfall you know and if you're successfulgreat if you fail get up and do it againand keep trying that and even if you'vegot no money or anything there's alwaysaway you know and you know what worstcomes to the worst I'm dying fromsomething it's if you've got your mindin the right mind and you think you knowwhat I was conceived that's amazing Ilived a few years that's amazing if youget your mind in the right mind youstill be grateful even when you're dyingyou know I mean and we've seen otherwitness people like that you know yeah Ilove that mindset you just touched onsomething and make sure we add it at theend of the show you've got a group youjust say yeah I've got I've got a groupit's called the effusive entrepreneurokay so anything about stuff like theseentrepreneurs is in the name but aboutyour mindset as well well it's actuallyI do marketing I do it mine only amarketing training and that's like alittle group I actually put more effortin my closed group which is people in myarm in a number the thing for me is likeI literally had a VA that was helping meout on that side of thingsand she literally went AWOL live justrandomly went AWOL and I don't know whathappened I really don't know but she'sfrom Philippinesit just went AWOL so yeah looking at adecent VA at the moment I think I foundonewe'll see how it goes but yeah now Ineed to push push put more engagement inthat group from being honest with youokay yeah I know it's a great group I'vegot loads of people about I think about300 people in the group yeah I doengagement but not as much as I likeI've got a couple of other groups havegot one called it's magnetic marketingsystem is another group it's justbasically a really secret one groupwhere it's just the people that I trainarm property marketing getting leadsabout business and all that kind ofstuff an investment it's a small verysmall group at the moment I've got a fewpeople that you guys know some reallygreat people successful people right inthere and yeahso that's going really well gonna beopen that up again soon um yeah justI've got my event in London that'scausing a lot of bloody Wow yeah my sonright that's marketing again it's goingto be we've got we've got a Khadija theapprentice star she's gonna be therewe've got a YouTube expert you know he'shelped Samuel Leeds get from 50,000 to150,000 something a lot you know he'stalking it's all about marketing it'sgonna be it's gonna be awesome and canfit about 480 people at the MarriottHotel in London it's my event bigpressure on me it's only 16th and 17thof March this year prices start at 97pounds but you get actually what we'redoing now we get got this programactually that I'm affiliated to andwe're going to be offering people freeaccess to this program which is you knowpretty amazing yeah any other ticketprices which basically covers theircosts on the bottom ticket easily andbasically they could create landingpages you know can forgive the emailsystem within it so if you want to buildyour own website that's the andtemplates in there so they get that forfreeI haven't launched it yet but you'veheard it here first on our I'm justgonna say you were saying your nervouslyI'm sure you don't need any moremotivation than just to look at yourphone before that exactly exactly thatmay be right yeah okay absolutely that Isee it I mean I guess that thenervousness is the fact that you knowit's a it's a big thing you'd love tofill it out you know you care about itcare about I've got 15 speakers and manycome from abroad there's people like youknow top and marketers making 40 50grand a month you know it's crazy but afigure of guy theretheir partnership guys and and and youknow it's yeah it's it's this pressureyou know but it's great it's great nowI'm like you know I'm one of these likeyou know it's easy for me to go easycoming to go you know what you've got totry these things what does Rob Moore saydon't the risk you know basicallyabsolutely yeah yeah I'm surewell yeah I'm so it's all quite a fewtickets not enough but we've only justlaunched so you know it's a it'ssomething we pushing out there lookforward to it make sure you mediainformation isafter this and I'll send you a signaturenotes it's automated I said it put a lotof people it's good for you know coachesanyone wanting to launch an event anyonethat's in marketing wants to do a bitmore marketing on their property and getsome really great bubbly gonna get sometools for itfantastic okay brilliant so you actuallydoing like more stuff than I knew aboutyou I know I know of course he's afull-time dad and I thought that wouldbe taking up all your time but here youare making your own events andeverything so another question then soyou're successful in what you've done interms of the property you're doing agreat job with your children and yourfamily so what's the day like from themoment you wake up tell you got like 17or yeah I bet I amI wake up about four or five in themorning right sometimes going to bedlate unfortunately but it's not mychoice no that's not by choice that'sactually by habit now that's initiallyit wasn't by choice now if I'm beinghonest with you the reality is I couldsleep a little bit longer but I've justit's just become me now if I can getsleep and I accidently sleep throughthat because all exhausted or whateverand and actually doing this diet it'sreally helping me so if my son doesn'tdisturb me and doesn't wake up and thatyou know I could easily go into 7:00you know easy yeah well it's it's justum it's just nice you know I actuallyget a good rest when I go to like eventsyou know you know so but my schedule isbasically get about four or five I Ialways turn ask me why it's reallystrange but I always always comedownstairs I eat a bananarandal cake I'm not banana manmy first thing I do a banana I go to myson I give him a really big kiss becausehe's exhaust get ready has his dinnerand he's get ready for his he's likespecialist school a given big kiss thegirls are still in bed and my son's lotobviously awake and then I start lookingat my schedule for the day I neverfollow it just to meokay he's organized work just look at ityes I'm aware of it because what happenswhen I start creating a website orlanding page for someoneor final for someone to help convert youknow get people to event or throughFacebook ads or whatever I'm doing forpeople I end up like getting engrossedin the computer and some way it's gonnabe supposed to be an hour it ends upbeing longer so so setting time becausefor me doesn't and and what I do is Ijust make sure I do the stuff and and Imake sure I do it at whatever cost andso I do I literally do that and I tryand mix it with the children like I havethe computer here in the living room momore often on by my bed upstairs on mybed believe in our it's not the bestcomfortable thing to do here because ofthe reception's better there you know abillion you get piece if the kids arekind of well-behaved watching TV I liketo kind of come here in that but if it'stoo noisy I just can't I just can't overthis I've got like a an outbuilding aswell that I converted for a trainingsuite and I've got an office there thatneeds a little bit more finishing offbut it's pretty much burn so I'm gonnastart and can start utilizing that morejust gets a bit cold I've got the heatis on there in that but it's like you gowarm it up for like an hour or so beforeand today I can't be asked you know justa lot stay upstairs on my bed and justdo my work you know not a great thing todo but now I've got a proper PT involvedwith my exercise we're gonna make itthat part of my schedule something to dothis year try and get you know not justuse the lose the the fat actually getsphysically more stronger and you knowgetting care scheduling for that atleast I think for me there's anything onschedule that I want to do I'm pushingmy marketing efforts because a lotpeople while so I've been my propertyjourney you know I've had a few podcastsand interviews and so on I've not reallypromote it'll push what I what I trainedin you know design and marketing and andI've had a few people approached me overthe years from property world and it'slike I've helped them massively I'vehelped people like were there you knowthey might have a 399 ebook and I makethem 15k within a couple of months injust Facebook ads butby promoting a book you know and it'sit's I know I'm good at what I do but Idon'tand III this is my biggest flaw I don'tlike selling I don't like selling andI'm one of rob mores mentors and I'vesigned up to his thing cuz I got reallygood at helping people value theirselves helping them realize their worthand he said something recently he saidhe said something about when people sayoh I don't need to sell myself I don'tneed yeah I don't need to sell myselfpeople come to me that's me that's meman I hate to admit it it's like I get Iget work it just comes to me right butactually imagine what I'd do if I shouldstart promoting myself you know leave itso much on the table yeah I'm leaving somuch on the table almost I almost don'tgive a crap because I'm designing my ownlife you know I mean yeah at the sametime if I really want to get to my goalmy goal is actually to eventually beable to afford to buy an Ironman suitfor my son some sort of give him theindependence thought we know that'sgonna cost millions and if I want to getto that goal at that you know at thatpoint then I'm gonna have to do betterthan this sort of like you know just youknow happy happy that enough workscoming my way and people using me thatway I think I should be you knowprofessionalizing myself a little bitmore and and valuing myself more to thepoint that I should promote myself it'sjust that there's a nervousness ofpromoting yourself I mean I think you'veprobably seen it amongst the the theforums and that people kind of thinkyour guru rising yourself or you knowlike oh god who's another personthinking a minute I had a businessbefore hello you know these peoplebusiness before and what you do inbusiness is you promote a market that'swhat you're supposed to do you knowthey're almost I allow myself to beaffected by other people's judgmentswhich you can't do even myself I mean Ipromote myself a lot more recentlyespecially in the last 12 months interms of like my own brand and me as aperson that initially was the hardestthing I've ever had to do and the wholepoint of like you need to know yourWorth and stuffwe were spoken to me I thinking one ofmy first jobs when I was young as aproject manager and my manager at thetime because I came out of meyou know when they ask you what'sspecial about you give three things asan icebreaker I was like nothing I'mjust I'm just me yeah he told meafterwards because he he listed like afew things that he found special aboutme and long story short he was that ifyou don't blow your own trumpet nobodyelse is gonna in this world because ofthe way the moment is and I don't knowyou always resonated with me and itstill took me the best part of seveneight years later on to real stuff I'mthinking if I can just do this and notreally worry about the engagement andkind of just be like look I've got amessage here I want to share it it comesfrom the heart it's honest if youresonate with it fantastic if you don'tnot a problem so it was difficult for usbecause they used to send it off andyou're kind of looking at your phonethinking what's gonna happen and nowit's kind of like I just Lars a andpeople ask me that how did you writecontent and I say I don't like reallywrite contact a kind of document like mylife kind of things like you've donesomething a property I'll speak about itif it's health and fitness I'll speakabout it if it's like an interestingmeeting I'll just speak about it andhopefully I always try and give peoplesome sort of tangible yeah informationthat they can take away I think youshould be that because I didn't know youwere doing all these amazing crazywonderful things yeah a bit here inthere I do you know I mean I'll get myflap out on flipping social media justto really put myself available to theworld you know that I'm gonna loseweight and I say I wrote i put a visionI put watch this miraculous journey ofthis of me this is anyway and I've doneit in three weeks already there's noultimate accountabilityyou know ridicules you that you're gonnabe it's embarrassinga whole lot the source stuff but at thesame time you know for the first time inmy life we have tried different dietssince what happened to my son I put alot of weight on the first time in mylife I'm facing it head-on so yeah ohyou and look at my fat mass yeah I'mhereabsolutely even my addictions and I callthem addictions because that's all I'veever eat and then it's like I literallyget urges for this stuff isn't my portmy secrets of this diet is I'm facing itand I call it the no BS lifestyle dietokay basically I put Pringles fizzydrinks and I've got a packet of Haribooutside of my bedoh no Quinn okay right and I sleep withthem by the side of my bed and I wakethat with the word webecause I had to face my addictions yeahyeah and it's a bit like that inproperty when people would like go totraining training training trainingtraining training training trainingtraining training the good mentors weresaying you got to do you've got to justyou know and and I you know I'm a coursedrinking I'm proud of it I'm proud of itI'm a course drunk eating for two mainreasons number one it's always good evenif you already know the stuff to go overagain it's good to get reminders rightbut number two and this is the biggestonementors need Mentors even if you'rewhatever level you are and all mymentors have got mentors themselves youknow I mean Nick James is mentorshipI've been under song azuki's mentorshipI mean Rob Moore's mentorship you knowthe reality is and I I mentor otherpeople myself yeah and I truly believethat you you've got to really be what'sthe word humble enough to want to keeplearning absolutely and there's a lot ofpeople that are arrogant and feel likethe only courses well good for you happyyou do not everyone wants to work thatway I actually love people right I lovenetworking I love people but I lovegenuine people that I've got integritythey're true to them certainly I reallycan't stand people that fake I hate itand I can sense them a mile away and andI always when I talk about marketing'sbe true to yourself just be yourself andpeople attract to you and a good friendof ours Camilla does the sa stuff Iwould say so namecan we look oh yeah she's exactly greatand I mentor mentoring in marketing aswell but it's usually just started to befair and and you know she's a reallygreat she's doing massive should bereally successful and she's doing it byjust being herself she's been brilliantyou know and you know we all learn offeach other I've learned a lot of Simon'suchi I've learned a lot of Rob more I'velearned a lot of Nick James you knowI've got another mentor that is you knowdefinitely need him because he's likehe's like a sales machine he reallyknows he's you know he's good he's got aproduct called open with a closingdoesn't do its Leslie it's just like youknow you want my product is I'm worththis much and you know so this is whatit is and he's named my Elwell reallygreat guy amazing guy getting hired bysome really top guys at the momentbecause he's easy really is you knowlegend or what he does and so yeah Iwant to constantly improve I want to beI want to be my ultimate self before Idie and I know more than a lot of peopleknow life it's bloody short manit really is severely because of yourexperiences yeah absolutely yeahyeah I think you touch on quite a fewthings with your whole I'm lookingforward to it but I actually lose 42pounds in seven and a half weeks myselfso what I want to do boxing never go tothe gym and I was a think was about 24at the time and there was like sevenyear-olds two ten-year-olds very cheekylittle kids and I'd to go for a roomwith him so I told the kids because thenI was all the way and I could I couldn'trun more than like 200 meters and all Icould hear him was saying come on oldman come on Batman and all these kind oflike really literally me facing it but Itook I took it personally I was likeI'll get you back and then with a loveworking working my ass off basically forthe next two months it really reallyhelped and there is no magic formula toanything whether it's property whetherit's health and fitness whatever it isliterally you just got to go and do itand then if you you learn a little bityou pivot I hope that's called it on myuncle my own podcast called Mike dropsget okay I guess my drop is call mineyet close and I've interviewed a coupleof a top level you know we're talkingreally high level guys in America mycalls another guy called les Evans and11 there's Evan said a thing to me hesaid he said um he said people thinkthere's an easy route to success butit's all hard work even when it doesn'tlook that way and he said even if you'repeople just speak in the thing they'rejust speaking they're successful fromspeaking andand he's brilliant at that is amazingamazing me he's gonna you know he's he'sadvised people in the White House he'sdone all sorts he's just bum a lot theguys absolutely legend and he's hadbecome a really good friend of mine andand he was saying to me you know Iremember it was on the lines of like Iremember when you said pedal stallpeople like that look big and famous andhe became himself but in the end they'rejust flipping normal people and whatpeople don't understand is that you knowthey want to laugh you know they want toget on you know they don't to be usedand and and there's a lot of truth inthat and there and there's a lot ofpeople do assume they also die theyconnected that way back I used to givehim a lot of my time for free and in theend I ended up blocking him and this iswhere you learn about time for money andit wasn't yeah it was like you everyevery conversation about a heart I'vetough your love to have your lives loveto out Matt me yeah I'd live in aflipping shed and have my son healthyyou won't want my life trust me it's notgreat but you know it's not as great asyou think it is you know and and it wasjust constant constant constant constantlike you know like MV and it wasn't thenice he wasn't moving forward is that Iwant to get 200 houses within two yearsand he was like really unrealistic yeahall right 10x it I you know go for ityou know I hate that comment that wordclinics it got you know I love whatGrant Cardone is about I just hate the10x it that side of it not because Idon't believe in it I believe in itit's just that I see if thrown aroundtoo freely now and and like by peoplethat could potentially really screwtheir lives over if they do try to 10xit you know and where they feel that youknow they've been inspired and they canjust rush ahead you've got to get theeducation in I don't care what you knowyou got to build the foundations he'sgot to build the foundations and andthen and then to exit first you know andthen check out what you know check out aflavor for it and then check out what Xmight be you know I don't like the 2xyou know I'm not doing us a great pointI think we're in thesociety obviously with the wholeInstagram highlight reels and nobody'sreally posting stuff that is like theirbad days of supposed and I supposedindirectly I don't know how but when Iwas getting a bit of traction in likethe property groups it was because I wasjust Oakley admit all my mistakes upsomething I was just documenting againlike listen I am probably the worst guya property talking three years ago I wasa look I made this mistake I've madethis and people resonated with that soindirectly actually helped 9% of thetime it is lychee everyone showing theirbest date on a highlight reel and Ithink we get that thing and then peopleread the secret and it's all thiswishful thinking and it's like listen itis goes back to what you said earlier doit do it you've just got to face it anddo it just exactly I mean madness you'respot on and the crazy thing is is thatI've been exactly the same I've donepodcasts and I've been honest juststraight on you know I'll straight upwith out loud you didn't want to hear itwe didn't want to hear it I'm like youknow and and cut long story short thethe realities that they won't value inmy time but I wasn't violent valuing itI can't blame them it's actuallysomething that I get a trouble from frommy wife so I'm always trying to help asmany people as I can so I'm alwayshaving these one-hour coffees that goingto like one and a half hours orconversation 15 minutes or less yeah andthen at the end of its like I've got notime to spend with my wife for exampleyeah because I'm just trying to help butthen most of those people they'll comeback with pretty much the same kind ofquestions or concerns two months laterhaving done nothingyou're almost yourself and I think I'msimilar to you in that respect which isthere's some great points that you madedays that I need to start my new my timea little bit there yeah not so much Iknow I need to charge for example it'son the faith basis that is this personreally going to do it and what I'vestarted doing as of the last two days istaking calls on the way to the gym soI'm like you've got ten minutes with mefar away I'll kind of give youeverything I've got I know it's workingokay because it kills that time to thegym so yeah absolutely yeah it's noteating a weigh-in time that you which isvaluable time is valuable time time I'vesaid entire book emergency we have youknow in the lane if if if people don'tvalue your timemmm bug you you spell as I and why workwith people that don't value you they'rejust picking and sponging your brainbecause they can't be asked again spendthe money on the courses and theeducation and or go through the grit inthe action that you've gone through inthe pain that you've gone through theyjust want to just you know squeeze yoursponge brain and get all the bloody Evoout you know those people it doesn'tmake us a you know this is not a youknow I'm holy than now I'm perfect I Iknow my share you know this has justjust been honest with the situation youknow so I absolutely love helping peopleI really do it's just some people justdon't value your time enough so okaywe're gonna change gears a little bitwe've spoken about adversity which isone of the main drivers like in yourlife and I don't wish it on anyone to gothrough the same kind of stuff but weall go through something what I wouldask you though is a different questionis about fear so it's probably a commonquestion but I want to know what is yourbiggest fear but I want to stop and takeaway what I think he's gonna be yourfirst answer from doing some Daryl Browntactics here so you can't mention youryour children or your wife in thisscenario but what is your biggest fearas as yourself my biggest fear formyself is not accomplishing my dreamsokay and my dreams are actually yes theyare to be able to get enough money toafford certain things from my family andI'm not supposed to mention them but myactual my dreams are to actually besuccessful and proud enough to know thatyou know that boy in school that was atloss was crap had to have extraeducation was themedyou know classes dyslexic really smashedit regardless he's not I mean and and soyou know for me to start that wouldreally be probably my biggest fear stophim from for me I really I really wantto get aspire to inspire is what I wantto do right and the way you inspire isby doing great things and and thosegreat things could be I give a lot tocharity myself I donated just over fourthousandpounds Christmas do recently you knowand and before that I've donated loadsand even my book my little spot and thatI've written for my son all the all themoney from that including the cost ofmaking it which most people don't dothey has gone to different charities youknow everything wasn't a lot you knowbecause these costs of these profitscarry yeah yeah and even before thateven you know I've just constantly youknow every year given in some form tocharity and the point is this like it'snot because I'm you know I want to beseen as you know are what passive and uhand people that know with me will knowthis is true so I could be a propertymeet in and we're walking up the roadfor me laughter and I'll just givetwenty pounds of baby homeless man Idon't record it I don't you know butpeople that would mean no it yeah Idon't do it for you know I know inLondon wherever I am if I see someoneI'll donate and you know and I don'tcare if they're they look like they'redruggies well it's not at the end of theday I because I'm not gonna judge youknow they can do what the hell they wantwith ityou know I want to give if I've got ityou know and if it helps them it helpsthem I just get I don't need to promoteit or anything that but the reality isalthough ironically there's a promote inthis podcast estrangement but honest islike where we're and it's just merelyanswering your question you know my goalis to aspire to inspire to inspire andif I can do that for my kids and otherpeople and great you know and and if itmeans like you know giving when youhaven't even got it and I've done thatand and you know it's like then you knowyou do you leaving some sort of trail oflegacy wait wait people might notremember me you know but you knowsomeone might you know yeah I don't knowbut at the end of the day it's strange Ihaven't made haven't made it in in mymind a successful property developer ormarketing agency in my mind I've got along way to go but I'll also at the sametime I don't want to have a lot you knowI want to be comfortable I don't want tohave like the two hundred thousandliving rooms and whatacquiring to do well you know I reallydon't I don't envy people like that whenI see people doing well I'm like good onyou I'm yeah I really I never had thejealous I never I just truly think goodon you the ones I don't like are theones that do it and they're they'rehorrible assholes you know I mean thesepeople win don't they yeah yeah okayfantastic no I know that that makessense I think I'm very similar as wellin relation to what you saying there andjust on that analogy song I've had goingoff on a bit of a tangent here peoplewho are quite charitable but they'llnever give to somebody who maybe theyassume is gonna have alcohol and drugsor something and my philosophy hasalways been I mean growing up and theway my mom's always talking is just givewhatever you can give but and the baseis that maybe maybe your donation thatthey will just change that person'sperspective or life and providing you'renot just throwing it at home and maybeyou can just give it a try contact willhave a good day or something so I justgive him that lift that they need alljust to keep him going for another dayso I'd always urge people whatever youcan give this absolutely give but yeah Ican't imagine you being somebody's gonnabe taking a selfie while you're doingthat I mean and the truth is I should beyou know utilizing it for you know butat the same time it's it's not itdoesn't sit rightyou know it doesn't sit right so you'veheard the buzzer it's going off so whatI'm gonna do now is but Mike with threespaces for the next 60 seconds and he'sall I do basically whatever the firstanswer comes into your head please giveme that one and you ready mate I'm coolI'm ready okay we're gonna start inthree two oneokay the ability to fly or be invisiblefly money or fame fame singing ordancing singing Netflix our YouTubeYouTube Marvel or DC are Marvel easilywould you rather know how you were dyingor when you would i how love or moneylove books or movies i love booksactually if you could sit with oneperson in the world for an hour whowould it be I would love to sit withDonald Trump to figure out why the helllooking weird andgo ahead going on I just I'm justperplexed and also kind of yeah it's aweird onethat we interested yeah you're worse bea growing up fighters actually okay andfinally what is your biggest addictionmy biggest might what was my biggestaddiction was slight wrinkles and yeahwrinkles my biggest addiction at themoment is learning junkie for learningand just some Pringles because I'm aPringles fun as well what's yourfavorite cocktail sorry I don't get methinking the next one's on reflectionyeah we've spoken about this earlierwe've spoken about hindsight being awonderful thing how you can teach you toget to where you are quicker easier orwith less heartache for example butknowing what you know now and with yourlife experiences and obviously yourmindset now if you could go back to atime maybe when you were younger maybegoing through college or school and youcan just whisper something in your earknowing how life would pan out for youand just to kind of maybe motivate orinspire that young Michael what wouldyou say I would say you're able to doanything you put your mind to because Ireally believe growing up because I wastold it you know my teacher I didn'thave a good attention span and myteacher must teacher said to me ohyou're gonna end up as a glassblower shewas old fashioned herself and mostpeople didn't really kind of connectwith her if I'm being honest with youbut that really thought I thought whatthe hell you know kind of thing to saythat just because I you know and Iwasn't interested in her lessons I justwould and again it goes down to what weread in property marketing people couldbe connected you know whatever you do init's about attention and connectionright you've got to get the attention tobe noticed and you've got to connect soif you're going to get an investor tocome to you you've got to get theattention you've got to do that one wayor another and then you've got toconnect and you can only connect bybeing you because long term wise youknow it's a marriage you know it'ssimply that absolutely and it's theeasiest thing to do be yourself ratherthan trying be someone else off man donot have some music but I see people mygod and I just cringe and I know that itmakes me cringeI see people they've been II won't even touch into it too much butthere's people that mean there's aparticular person that's training thesame people when they're like they'refollowing the same moves and everythingin their acting the same as this personexactly in every way and it's a it'ssquiggly it's creepy and windy it is andthe problem with it is as well if you'recopying somebody else you're almostrelying on them to do something you knowthe few to follow see as a policy if youjust make your own journey and writeyour own story I've got one thing whereI've got respect for these people that'sall for helping them is they've alreadytaken a step at least they're gettingthemselves out of the shell and they dosomething but but seeing exact copiesit's just yourself yourself it's likehave you ever seen those live videoswhen they're sat there quietly for likeflipping five minutes I'm like I don'tlike it I just it's just great I'm likeI just talk shit for a bit I say topeople okay just talk shit wait topeople come on[Music]and that's not always like to ask myguess is if in 150 years time and youare no longer here but all that existsis a book and it's about your life andsomebody's walking past and they pick upthis book what would the blurb say andalso what would be the title of the bookwell already written it it's called mylittle spot on the globeit says embrace your struggle to findyour strength and pretty much what wetalked about today and and I it has asub heading saying unleash your lip in aspa and because we've all gotten in thispart and and what I mean by that it'snot a judgment thing on Spartans andwhile it's just the fact that you knowagainst the odds it's a metaphorit's against the odds they know they'regonna die but they're fighting all theycan yeah and that's the point at the endof the day we're all gonna freakin diebut let's just see what we can do youknow that's all we can do but you knowyou know the end of a that's why I don'tmind helping people as much as I canbecause that you know any bit of helpyou get out there is whatnice absolutely Granta our future looksalready out yes my little spy Amazonyeah best seller internationalbestseller there you go is it oh wowyeah i 100% put that in the bottom ofand the show notes as well alright it'sactually the first time somebody'salready answered my question and done myquestion but what I always like to askpeople is there is somewhere they cancontact you now I know you're doingamazing things all over the world innetworking marketing property you're anauthor as well there's one place and I'mjust gonna limit it to one but I willobviously add everything else afterwardswhat is the number one place that you'dprefer base for Facebook Facebook I'm 5mI'm maxed out sorry guys so just listenI've got another group page good MichaelV Calais Paris just a baby bear I'd bethere and start using it more nowbecause I'm that's my that's my ownthat's my professional page so just wantthem on to Michael V or try and messageme on on on my one at least and I'm nottry and connect and brilliantly it'sbeen a absolute pleasure like I said atthe beginning I reached out to you longtime we don't know yeah I love yourstory you know that this is fascinatingpromise there's live calls on them youall get busy I haven't managed toreconnect there so and thank you foryour time today you've been doingawesome things as well okay it's good tosee and again like you know we reach outto people that we connect with and likeand so on and you know obviouslyresponded back to you because I knowlike and trust okay you know it worksthe same way you know yeah that's how Isee it and and that's how that's howrelationships grow that's how investorsget involved that's how all this stuffhappens you know it's it's all aboutthat you know so absolutely absolutelyspinning it's been an absolute pleasureand well as well thanks for listeningand remember this podcast is absolutelyfree so all we ask in return is for youto share 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PRIDE season officially begins with Sydney Gay & Lesbian Mardi Gras, one of the world’s biggest and most iconic celebrations! This special promo podcast delivers over 80 minutes of feel-good tracks and joyful anthems to get you ready for the big weekend, including my brand-new remixes with Toy Armada for Carly Rae Jepsen’s “Party For One” and Betty Who’s “I Remember!” If you’re planning to be in Sydney, be sure to join me and Toy Armada at the Mardi Gras Party on Saturday, March 2nd at the Royal Hall of Industries, and the Candyland Mardi Gras Finale on Sunday, March 3rd at the Ivy! We can’t wait to celebrate with you! #SydneyMardiGras - - - - - March 2019 Mix | Toy Armada & DJ GRIND Sydney Mardi Gras Promo Podcast 1. Turn On The Light (Mr Root Oh So Chic 12-inch Disco Mix) – Rozalla 2. I Don't Need Your Love (StoneBridge Epic Extended Mix) – Bleona 3. Running Back to You (Cristian Poow Club Mix) – Bright Light Bright Light ft. Elton John 4. Light On (Adam Turner Club Mix) – Maggie Rogers 5. 5 Dollars (Chris Cox Club Anthem) – Christine and the Queens 6. Bloom (Barry Harris Club Mix) – Troye Sivan 7. Nobody(Original Mix) – Agua Sin Gas by Antoine Clamaran 8. Shame On You (JRMX Club Mix) – Claire Richards 9. Need It (Andre Grossi 'Movin On' Mash) – Jay Hardway vs. Leanh 10. Party For One (Toy Armada & DJ GRIND Club Mix) – Carly Rae Jepsen 11. Drive (Leo Blanco Remix) – Black Coffee & David Guetta feat. Delilah Montagu 12. Self Control (Ralphi Rosario & Erick Ibiza Club Remix) – Kendra Erika 13. Hurt Me So Good (Block & Crown Club Remix) – Ashlee Keating 14. Blow My Mind (Esteban Lopez & Binomio Remix) – Cherry, Filipe Guerra 15. Deeper Feeling (Original Mix) – Guy Scheiman ft. Inaya Day 16. The Promise (Robbie Rivera Remix) – Robbie Rivera 17. I Remember (Toy Armada & DJ GRIND Remix) – Betty Who UPCOMING EVENTS 3/2/19 – Sydney Gay & Lesbian Mardi Gras Party, with Toy Armada 3/3/19 – Candyland Mardi Gras Finale, with Toy Armada 5/4/19 – Hydrate Nightclub (Chicago, IL) 5/12/19 – Purple Party Weekend | Revival Tea Dance (Dallas, TX) 5/25/19 – Memorial Weekend Pensacola, with Toy Armada (Pensacola Beach, FL) 6/8/19 – Masterbeat LA Pride Pool Party, with Toy Armada (Los Angeles, CA) 6/15/19 – Gaylabration 2019: FutureHomo Pride Party, with Toy Armada (Portland, OR) 6/29/29 – NYC Pride / World Pride TBA (New York, NY) www.djgrind.net

Find your voice - Episode 9 -"We came with a suitcase & a dream" - TTagline: "We came with a suitcase & a dream"Uplifted from Zimbabwe T and his family chased the American Dream for a better future.T puts this perfectly when he explains the silent example he learnt from his parents to be a driving force in his life - hard work. Coming from extremely humble beginnings T knew his best chance at changing his own future and that of his families would be to work harder than those around him.Unable to speak english and ridiculed early on by children and undervalued by teachers T began to embrace hard work and the struggle finding true beauty in outworking those around him.Now a successful social worker, bodybuilder and an all round great guy T's future is brighter than ever as he seeks to help inspire others and teach them to never let anyone elses opinions dictate their ceilings of success and to always embrace hard work.T also speaks of the oppresive lifestyle he was part of growing up and the struggles of learning a new culture, language and fitting into society. However having studied closely with T for 2 years there are very few more genuine souls I have come across.I urge you all to support and follow his journey...Thanks for listeningFree Audible book sign up:https://www.amazon.co.uk/Audible-Membership/dp/B00OPA2XFG?actionCode=AMN30DFT1Bk06604291990WX&tag=are86-21Best book on Mindset by Carol Dweck: Mindset https://amzn.to/2QajMvZSupport the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/findyourvoiceLinks to me:Website: https://www.arendeu.comInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/aren.deu/Twitter: https://twitter.com/arendeuFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/aren.singhLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/aren-deu-65443a4b/Podcast: https://www.findyourvoicepodcast.com YouTube: http://tiny.cc/51lx6yLinks to guest:Snapchat: CatchafreemanInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/passion4lifting/Transcript:[Music]welcome to an episode of find your voicea movement led by yours trulyAren do a guy who has overcomecrippling anxiety adversity anddifficulty like so many of you in lifewhose main goal now is to help youcombat your excuses take control of yourlife write your own story and mostimportantly find your voice so nowwithout further ado I welcome the hostof the show himself mr. Aren do what'sgoing on people thank you for tuning into another episode of find your voice myname is Aren and as always I am thehost of the showso today's guest is somebody who I metabout four years ago on my social weightjourney so yesprior to me starting property businessand coaching I was actually a socialworker for a very very short amount oftime but about two weeks ago t reachedout again and he was commenting on oneof my earlier episodes and how he foundit very inspiring and then he asked ifhe could be on the show of course wasthe answer but I was intrigued becauseknowing T at university during our twoyears studying a masters he was alwaysthe one in the class that would makepeople smile he was always smiling yetsomewhere deep down I knew there wassome element of struggle some level ofadversity that he had been through butyou could never guess what it wasbecause like I said he was always theone that would make all our classmatessmile he was always easy come easy gohe's really getting stressed and he wasjust a pleasure to be aroundso when he offered to share his story Iwas intrigued because I knew there wasgonna be something that was going to beinspiring and motivating and he didn'tdisappointthis episode was fantastic one because Igot to see my good friend again but twobecause I realized how lucky andfortunate I am and probably many of youlisteners are too so I think it'simportant we jump straight into thisepisode and listen to what he has to sayand really understand that sometimes thegrass isn't always greener on the othersideand that we do actually have anunbelievable amount of things to begrateful forokay so I'm sitting here now with mygood friend T so if you could explainactually firstly how you doing not seembad might not see where I'm glad to behere goodness doesn't he answer that Icompletely forgot to ask him how he wasso I think it's important for thelisteners to you understand a little bitabout your journey and how you progressthrough life so if you could just startfrom I suppose your first memory I kindof let us know the life of T of Katonahokay that's all right mrs. IND thinkingme you know I don't usually speak I'mnot so good at speaking but I know theend of this if I can inspire this oneperson great that's my job here done andI come from very very very humblebeginnings well I say that I'm still I'mstill here humble beginnings now I'm notmade it yet but we are making progressmy parents my mom moved here in 2003beans involved in bad way yes yes andyou know we came here okay with asuitcase and a dream it was a case ofthe economy was on see a great overthere so before you know I yeah what'sthe next big thing and you know this wasthis was their two children at the timeand like most people I found out foundout that working hard was the way totheir you know American dream so tospeak yeah yeah anyone can sayabsolutely um you know the first lessonsthat I want C to share with you guyssome of the islands from a parentshadn't moved here is that you knowyou've gotta work hard you have to workcuz I grew up in a house where you knowI was watching my parents work day inday our worst and continue to work hardday and night to make sure that me andmy sister would not go with the help youknow they were breaking their backs andfreed out I said I had a front row seatin learning you know a hard work I waslike takes yeah you know start from thebottomremember back home there had reallyprestigious jobs but the KVN had tostart from the bottom literally start atthe foundation level okay okay so can Ijust jump in there so yeah back home youhad prestigious jobs was it still notenough in order to fulfill the dreamsthat they had I'm glad to think thatthey probably did it with us in mindokay because the way that the fins wouldgo in I reckon if they continued workingthings would have been okay for them butthen by the time you came to us growingup and working things might not be sogood for us you know something they hadus in mind to build our futures becausewe were gonna have better opportunitiesthat make sense here and you know somepeople choose that's why you see there'sso many people now I'll try that riskingtheir lives day in day out trying to getto the UK or you know these thedifferent countries in the West cuzopportunities are there that's been athome yeah we don't know how lucky we aresometimes we don't and we take thingsfor granted even take things for grantedso it's so easy wake up sahaja lotta Gbut there's someone diapers opportunitythat we wake up every day as well youknow wake up every day dream someone'sdying for this you know yeah we're moreabout our jobs and what we spoke aboutis actually yeah and it's that thing ofwe take things for granted man you knowanyway I digressI'm saying I had a front-row seatwatching what it really takes to be ableto drive but you want an understandingfundamental that in this country you cangive anything you wanted if and only ifyou're willing to make the sacrificesand pull your socks up like I saidpeople are risking their lives trying tosneak and use the abundance ofopportunities that were presented withso the lesson I want to convey to youguys today is that there's nothing morepowerful than that Silas example and forme that sounds example was my parentsthey never told me that you know when wecame here absolutely this is whatyesterday we were just watching yeah Ijust had to watch all thinking okay youknow yeah weekend that is working in mymom is working you know we're justwatching that work as powerfulthere's a quote and I think it saysdon't listen to what they say watch whatthey do and that's what it is and that'swith anything in mind because you get alot of people are just talking the talkand stuffsounds great we really if it soundsbefore the action yeah it's the actionthey can talk it you know gay men butwhen it comes to doing it's a differentstory and for me from that is where Ilearned that parents as parents and myparents yeah but as parents be afraid tolet your kids watch you fail or watchyou start from the bottom and watch yousweat cause we taking inspiration comesevery day we learn Oh strong strong workethic I think that's I think that's apowerful lesson because one of them likeI said to a lot of people my superpowerI believe everyone's got a super fine Iuse that as an analogy or metaphor is Ijust work hard that's itI don't have anything else good I'm notnaturally more talented at somethingelse but I will most likely I work mostpeople because I've seen my mom do itI've seen her with 90 hours a week whenwe were growing up I used to see heraround I'm thinking where's momand it should come from breakage thatgetting changed into our next - she'sback after work yeah and I'm not talkingabout later I'm talking Saturday SundayI'm talking in the six weeks holidays Ithink that's really important I think weshould set an example of the real lifeand not trying to hide things for mykids that's it in order to try andprotect them because actually you couldactually giving them a good thingthere's no such thing as an overnightsensation no such being people you haveto work you know some people are luckyenough to be born in rich families andwhatnot but majority of us we have towork her way upmm-hmm and for me I'd like to say that'sprobably one of the best solid examplesof my life and that's made me who I amtoday because it's me you know yeah I'mnot gonna be product of my circumstancesand I'm gonna be so the master of mydestiny I'm saying that now but backthen it was not like that in the sensorfor example you know when I first camehere I came when I was about 10 yearsold started in year six I'm going toschool not knowing English that wellbecause English is the second languageokay but we do not have to speak it atmuch because we don't need sing ofcourse you know we just have good lessonEnglish enoughso came here and yes 6 min imagine youknow trying to learn English we werepretty much I remember going to schooland those big clumps of bacon and thenthe cheap of the cheaper version is thecheap version because it's not littlethin slices we employ us how would youwant that was a big chunk you say seelaughter retired my gosh but it'sbrilliant because again this is what itwas my character the clumps of bacon youknow wake up in the morning she madebacktry as possible wait you could imagineit was not easy trying sliced bacon asyou put it on that sound good share I'llget to school so I said I do not knowsome of the things that were deemed tobe normal in this country sometimesfrowned uponyeah so break time think I'm a baconsandwich you know remember I rememberhim to Clete onto the bread so hard toprevent the whole me good biteyou know yeah I remember sometimes we'dhave pizza it would have Pete certainlyand I'll bring they left all this nicebox at my Lodge for school Broco Pizzahe and I did not know that this was notthe into the normal button but you knowit was tough for my sisters there shewas younger she started by ryaba starsquare one she couldn't speak that couldbe English as well so we kind of justhave each other have to try and you knowI remember sister go home she'll betrying to read a book to try and learnyou know English I should be holdingthat book upside down you know you juststart I would love a cokebacon sandwich for those kids don'tlisten Island kids kids are cruel yeahyou know meals kids are cruel that's whythere's so much bullying in school rightnow it's only now right now oh no waitif I have to you know go to work withthis is all right this is okay cuz now Idon't put down anyone's approval I'm inthat stage now where certain people'sopinion if it's not constructive itdoesn't bother memoving on then we went to secondaryschool obviously were picking up Englishyou know it's improving improving thelanguage just getting back there so weget to school yeah do the sets in younine I did okay consideringyeah ten will do GCSEs okay no yes Iwill do you mock GCSE means encore theseare marks and - seriouslyBastille did well in them then Iremember there was one Paris eveninggoes one parents evening news in theirparents evening actually my parents werecold from school and the teacher saidcan you kiss community discussion yourson is underachievementright okay like I told your son ispredicted to come by the end of GCSE isto come out with four C's with thiscoming from you know I'm doing well inessence I'm always you know and canimagine you know in my house we'd sayeducation very seriously and it's notjust my house is probably across themost African families most Africancountries cause in Africa education isnot free you know here privilege is aprivilege is a privilege that manycannot afford I rememberat home kids will be sent out fromclassical definitely see theHeadmaster's office or go home if you'venot paid the school fees cause somepeople simply couldn't afford so youcoverton so imagine you come into thiscountry metal education is free andyou're messing about yeah you're nottaking advantage of the opportunity thatis presented to you witness others athome or dying for this opportunity andwhen if they are to get it they wouldflourish in you know you know can weimagine they were really disappointeddo not happy it was a case right you'remixing about you don't take a schooleducation seriously from now on there'llbe no going out no playing out if youwere to play outside you know I wasacting all playing out during the weekanyway I was very impressive on theweekendsI was allowed out on mainly just theSaturday if his Sunday so a couple ofhouse I was allowed on Saturday butbefore I did that I had to do you knowthose PGCC books yeah I had to docertain number of pages of them before Icould go out and I had to get it rightand I used to think why they doing thisto me why me you know all my friends athelp then when I did go out I don't haveto care if you have to be 4i either sixor seven even some other stars blazinghot at 7:00 p.m. you have to be able toseven I don't think it's himself why arethey doing this to me why me you know Iused to moan about it wasn't impressedbut then it's funny now when I go backbecause obviously at that age you knowmore than your parents don't you anotherthing that you know yeah but what I dothere now and the kind of people thatwere staying out so midnight what theywere doing to midnight I'm not comparingmyself to them I'm just saying I'm gladthat my parents did that I'm glad thatthey did that for me becauseso for me as well if I was one of themkids someone invited prison some of themare just doing all kinds of business youknow anyway absolutely predictions Ithink that is an important point thoughthat we should stress because I was thesame so I went to tip it up which iswhere you live now I think I still livethere and I had like best friends andyou think you never gonna get friendsbetter than this and I want to go toThibodeau comp and at that time I wasdoing well academically so my parentswere like okay we're gonna send you togrammar school the helis grammar schoolthen I found out he was all-boys schoolbut that way he's going through pubertyexciting to find the opposite sexattractive and I was like here I go toan all-boys school and I went and Iresented it I resented the decision forages I'm gonna hate it but in hindsightsimilarly yourself now that got me intoa very good university even what mygrades weren't great because I had thatmy CV it also taught me a lot about howyou should conduct yourself in certainsituations not all of it was positivebut also been there I've got some of mybest friends and I'm talking aboutfriends you on the right side of the lawokay when I look back at if I'd runtv.com and I look at my friends therethere were stabbings there was prisonthere was drugs with the community thatI grew up with so I don't know would Ihave been brave enough with and steppingaway from friends who have grown up withor what I've just got involved in that Idon't know we'll never know but I'm kindof grateful that I went my way and lifehas brought me here so yeah Paris Ithink they always try to do the bestthat they know but at that time youdon't see oh man angry I mean they nevereven played football there and as a kidI was like a hotshot footballerapparently and I've got to defeat everyall my dreams I'm kind of crushed inthat moment yeah but then also somewonderful thing and now I kind of thinkyou know what actually my life isn't toobad and I suppose it's perspective andit's a age and as you grow you can youcan spin anything I suppose in a goodway that's and yeah sorry continuewell in that sense I think it man soclose so close you know we are ta 11 wedo GCSEs I come out with two A's B's andC's yeah I don't know how much that Ihad to do with all the extra homeworkthat I had to do because of that meetingbeing cold but I saw so smug towards myteachers thinking oh okay there's yourfour C's you know we came from Revere ohyeah yeah you know that figure ofputting their limitations orexpectations on me you know not pickingI love me yes okay great this was it forme I think actually today today bestachievement I worked hard for thatplease repeat in a school of how manypeople to be the top and you know beanother one from where you start exactlythat's the thing as well Stan journeyknowing you know came here barely beingable to speak a word of English and nowhere I am being told you're the examplestudent you know that was big for me andthat's why to this day is still one ofour biggest achievementsthat we call to college to a-levelsdoing a-levels breaking those I don'tknow teacher see you because doing thehub behaves on son who's come a bit of ajoker yeah sometimes I like to say ajoke sometimes might be inappropriatetimes when I like to crack a joke aboutthis has been interviews where they'regoing to just cracking jokes yeahprobably cause ya know the swamp andsemen college where my mom comes infriends dad came in as well and Iremember as we're going out he was goingout my mom was coming in so I'm stillmom kind of knew what to expectyeah and in there it was some kind ofexactly what the predictions were but itwas no great again he was no quoteshe was no great January exams so youknow that's Jennifer Connelly Wingate'scaucuses in January exams like threemonths either one now and I rememberthere was a law exam I was ready to gosee I thought exam was a 2 p.m. orsomething I don't know what in my mind[Laughter]anyway so you just told me you knowcheck what time you exactly hmmand this time is about half nine whenzone was at 9 o'clockyeah you know I had breakfast heaven orbreakfast yeahso we get to school and we get tocollege which is about half an hourdrive on a good daythis one's not good dangos of the snowobviously so I get they have a half tenand there's about an hour of the examnext is going to be a two and a halfhours I'll run for itI'm not oh please I'm going to be nakedno exam can you please let me go and seethe rest of the example you know cannotrestart it about two hours now and thenI why are you late that's odd the busbroke down those are all round chaos -okay we the only student from thisCollege in that bus yeah but you onlysee the last best results came out I'llgo ahead de you yeah I got a de you auwas a mystery yeah I didn't think I didthat bad but boy come one hey you herewe go again you know I'm gonna go homehow do you go home the best thing to doyeah so there's no nasty surprises whenI get home my parents just know I was ina school dayyou know hopefully bugs ever get homeyeah Judas thank you lot of except tothe end you know it's like go home gethome and again it was just a case of youknow yeah this time there was no rightten is your life your life you do whatyou want is worse that I got me man yeahdisappointment is worse than that guyI'll probably get shouted midair don'tgets around disappoints in the human soI was thinking some stuff okay so I hadto pay for the reasons are my own moneythen resutsI go in a b c in the receipts in thesummer which was great because wafflewas a leg was really the same as he saidJesus is we can revise two weeks beforeGeorge I know Chauncey and so I learnedthe hard way I'm sort of sure in the endI got a BBC fantastically end of the ADAwas which was great which can set me onthe path to unique University and I wentto university went to Manchester did myfirst degreeyou've Community development's it wasgreatenjoyed it then I went on to do somework related to that words and fate ofpeoplemmm-hmm and it was basically aorganization which would be young peoplewho were born HIV and I would like tosay that it's probably the best thingI've ever done in my life imagined jobwise and satisfaction wise cuz you knowyou're making that positive impact onpeople's lives and having said that youknow I am gonna keep jumping back andforth wine yeah I know that start thepodcast was all discussed growing up inthe house were you watching peopleworking hard know what we know this jobin age of fourteen I remember it was apaper round for the local newspaper inthe area and it was about 350 newspapersevery Thursday in November I wake upfirst thing in the morning Wednesdaynightsfirst thing first day morning do about150 use maple before going to schoolcome back get rid of schoolgo to school come back home till eventhe rest of the newspaper sometimes yousaw spit into the Friday as welldepending on how fast there wasn't onenothing and again it was that thing oftrying to get that good work ethicinstilled in me from a young age as wellso once I was you know in college I wasworking as well yeah I was working themin has to be like you know you do themath I was pissed at it see then when Imoved to Manchester also a conventionsee like I do that by state authoritiesgonna work like Clark's and I moved backhome yeah because the other guys I wasworking for they lost their funding andthey had to close down and I'm thinkingman was next because I've got thisdegree but I know that the job prospectsare not great a ride wasn't Mickey Mousedegree and I think you know go back I'mone I've done the same onemaybe frequently that prospectus was abig t fast yeah you know he's just acase of Social Work socialized the nextthing for me that's what and that's whatwe met that's what we meantI remember the first time I see thisSocial Work and being in social workerswere working in and it was back then andI remember it was a case of alsodifferent different environments andthey you need to remember you workingtogether differently when I did myundergraduate it was a case yeah yeahhere the Masters is the case of yourhelp me help youof course and I think I've seen more usis amol that's the big man that's thebig and it was a case of my it was notjust asked he was pretty much the wholebrain sleep everyone just worked so wellto confessand we try to make sure that if someonedid not was not doing so well we try topull them up why didn't his doing thisyou know centrist instead of myosinpowerful is this you know yeah who'sgreat and again it's that thing of forme that's where I experienced real trustI mention your colleagues because I'venot known anything like that before Ithink I'm the same but then there's afew things that that one age willprobably or everyone's had a degreebefore so you wise up a little bit but Ithink also it's a testament that peopleare going to become social workersbecause you guys who are keep in touchwith here and there through that what'sup yourself a little bit more to be asocial worker wanna become a socialworker you've got to be a different kindof person I believe you've gotta havethat level there's gonna be something inyour heart that makes you want to helppeople so the reason you will start thatjourney together was we want you to bethe best I'm socially in the world andchange the world so if we call after ourpeers who are on the same path as usthen that's saying something about yourpersonality and there's nobody on thatcourse I can think of who did that weall literally just held each other upsomebody would tell me what my choicelike come along with me and I love thatcommunity like so yeah you know I havingsaid that you having said that you knowyou said you have to be same kind ofperson to be a social would you besurprised you know bro really there'ssome people that you see I don't thinkit wait you know you'd agree yeaheveryone was great I'm sure thateveryone was great as well as you think[Music]but then when you get in the job thereare some people that you think wherewere you and the cool so becomedesensitized orHuracan people do become desensitizedand sometimes i know that we found thisout that the job is not what we expectedit to be yeah so I think that's probablywhy some people serve turn out to be acertain way whilst on the jobyeah um you know we do the masters andnow you know I'm I'm working the jobworking the job and it's going okaybasically from my story in main thingthe hours of convey is their thing ofother people's expectationsdo not let people's expectations of yourother people's limitations in you becomeyour reality doctor so you know ifsomeone's a sense EE you know yeah youdo so well I don't think you're gonna beable to do this you know that's theirexpectations that doesn't mean it has totranspire it to you absolutelyand sadly it does sadly in some cases itdoes cause a self-fulfilling prophecyyeah if you didn't shout that the badbelievin that they're bad you knowthey'll probably start behaving it'sthat feeling of staying in your own laneI think that's really important people'sopinions they're all facts it's justtheir belief and again their beliefisn't the truth is their truth it's notin fact and I think I've learned thatthe hard way because a lot of stuff I'vebought off for trying to do was based onother people's opinions and I just thinknow the most important opinion is theopinion of myself I mean in movie youhave to it sounds it sounds weird as agrown man and he stays thinking I needto start to look at myself I need tostart valuing myself because somewherealong the journey I stopped doing thatand the way I would I suppose look atmyself what I do myself was based on theopinion of other people whereas now it'slike each Australian if there's a fewpeople in my life who their opinionconcerns me because I respect them and Iwant them to think that I'm doing a goodthing but other than that it's reallyabout myself and that's why we touchedon prior to this episode time why'd youstop that self-talk every morning andhave you stuff that empowers me ratherthan brings me down because a lot of usthumpings get out it wasn't actuallymyself it was the opinions of othersthat I would repeat to myself and say Imust be sure I must be anxious I mustnot be strong enough for must not begood enoughthat's a is the mind is so powerful so Ithink one of the things I want to tryand be with this podcast is always tryand get into younger heads so they don'tgo through that exactly he reallyswitched them young because we instillthat mind saying them from a young ageisn't it yeah definitely you know andit's not thinking of mom always saysdon't let your feet go cold what shewasn't someone else is great I love thatyou know love it and it's not be enoughfor example right now the time is whattime is it11:14 11:40 11:40 in Zim it is 140 okayit's 114 thing right now does that meanthat we're slower then we're not we'rein a different time zone we're notslower than them you know and I said soright you know someone graduated yeahand they just wanted see or wait fiveyears before securing a good job andsomeone became a CEO at the age of 25but died at the age of 50 while someoneelse became a CEO and the age of 50 andleave till they were nine see Obamaretired as president at the age of 55don't know Trump became president at theage of 70 you know so everyone's intheir own time zone and people aroundyou they might seem like they I had afew or some be behind you but everyone'srunning the old race in their own timeso think of not being I just want topoint out quickly for the podcast he'sreading white Instagram right man yaknow but it makes so much sense which iswhy we get along we think the same kindof things so I'm sure your remains to us[Laughter]it's the truth but the problems withsociety in like social media and stuffis we are that in our food go cold Isuppose if you use that because we wantyou cuz we're watching as a people I'mnot gonna sit here and say I don't dothat myself I'm conscious that it's notthe right thing to do six out of theseven days a weekI don't do it but there are some dayswhen you get frustrated cuz you know youwant to be there but then is that thingabout trust in the process and we'reboth average gym goerswe know what it's like to Broadway toadd strength to lose weight and stuffand we know it's a process thing so sothat's really importantor what I switch gears just a little bitwe want to one of the next questionwhich is about routine now I alwaysbelieve whereproduct of our habits and the things wetell ourselves and I think I know myselfpersonally but my routines on point mydays are on point and my goals and whatprogression it moves forward but whenit's not it's completely off so I'mgonna know is what's your kind of dailyroutine that you do now having learnedall the lessons that you've had it sincecoming from Zimbabwe to England andgoing through school and then throughyour social work where you probably seemore stuff than most people what's kindof like your daily routine that keepsyou going okay wake uppeople myself all been just now jokingright so obviously get on the treadmillstraightaway I get 45 minutesfrosted coffee or show a beauty showcoming up in about nine weeks where isthat show they'll be a staff to shareokay in Staffordshire then there'll beanother one two weeks after that instaffing shared stuff and I'm not onepotentially after my Scotland you loveit yeah so at the moment I wake up to gofasted cardio get in the shower thenhave my breakfast and only just you knowbreakfast I can have one to go on my wayto workI'm going to work and probably listen tosongs because before he used to itsounds like the radio and then I realizethat all the stars radio presenters theyirritate mebecause I know guys their job or thechild or the rubbish yeah and most of itis lies but that's what I have to do istheir job isn't it so there is anythingthat's fine it's on the plate presentersare talking I just feature a differentstation with a drink and song at thattime I listen to radio for one now butnow I listen to something quitemotivational you know there's so manymotivational things that you finallyachieve and it takes me not too long toget to work so I put that day's work isfinished and it's just climbed a littlesomething in my mind I've learnedsomething from thatOh do and I get to work do I need to dowhilst at work you know how I can officewhere people are always bringing cakesmy songs for breakfast and all thisdifference and you know the donor so nowand then and I'm they even have a littlelunch boxes lunches you can have someyou're gonna have some you know and nownobody even seems like a drink a cup oftea they don't ask me for one becausethey know that I'm not gonna have onedrink or take and condos weight so I canteens tell me why I don't think intoidea how they're gonna say if you don'tknow cause I've had these conversationswith my colleagues about you know havingthe discipline to discipline and if youare not there wish I was like you but hecan be only yesterday miss get right upin the end until you get there you'renot gonna be able to see it starts hereit starts it starts all starts in thehead do memory right you can't youactually can't and that's what I believeI don't believe that you can't so youcan't you're not there until you believeyou can yeah anyway then of course thegym after work I destroy my work out asmuch as I cango home and have a meal do it be areading after that cuz I've got abouttwo hours to find start getting readyfor bed and have my last meal and go tobed okay that's a typical day and for medon't get me wrong I work a stressfuljob about something I think I think thatsometimes it's the stress would you makeit I'm not really a stress the stress Tperson like that so for me I always tryto remain calm stay chilled andsometimes the people that you know doyou ever like strength unlike what'sthat gonna helpit's not gonna help me isn't Americanthings better it's not then I go see thegym me in the gym is a space where I canshut down you know just focus on why isit fun to meyeah it's a place for me there's timesthat I going what gym about six times aweekI don't want it went you know about sixtimes a week but now is the case ofdiscipline I'm just I'm there whether Iwant to or thatdo I wanna wake up frustrated with myclothes every dayI don't want to see what I have to do Ido because I have seen you know peoplesaying are jungian up dry chicken outdry chicken and veg again how do youenjoy it I'm gonna enjoy I don't mean toenjoy because nobody needs ityeah it's about why I enjoy oh you canseason your chicken me you cannotconsistently so why don't you need toenjoy it so have it yeah that's one thatI like that and the great thing aboutthat is it's transferable by anything oranything because for me I've nevercompeted before these were firstbodybuilding competitions you know andnothing to myself rightit's that pinnacle before I used to goJim it's just real weight you know tryand lift as heavy as I can they camepretty strong but then what's next youknow cuz I catch a point in the gym Ithink you know you know same old stuckhere for how many years not much changesso if we know yeah jump our comfort zonedoing something that's gonna stretchsomething you've never ever done beforeso completes it and it's something I'vealways wanted to do ok right this yearI'm gonna compete this you know is thevery first of December no sir right thisyear I'm gonna compete that racismnothing's happening so sometimes youneed to take action absolutelyabsolutelywhen it comes to do it that's a wholedifferent story some people some peoplefeel like they're doing push-ups oh theygetting bigger by just talking about itoh yeah it's all pumped up the momentand listen to motivational thing andthey're feeling grateful oh but 30minutes per month okay now you're gonnawork and that work there and whatever itis in life so say for instance if youuse my property for example a lot of thestuff I do in this job it's not greatand sometimes people will look at itfrom from their perspective and think ohyou've got the life you can work withyou on that listen when I accept my dayI hate doing these tasks but I have todo it just in order to get my freedomdiscipline equals freedom basicallythat's how I see itsame with the gym so I'll get the smirkremarkso you're always in the gym you'readdicted to the gym first I used to getmy back up a little bit because I didn'twant to be that guy but I'm like okaythat's fineI'd rather be addicted to that then atthe same time similar to your son yesI'd say three or four times a week Ireally want to get to the gym becauseyou just you feel good you feel greatthe other times and what I'm doingsometimes I do to workout today as wellI don't wanna be there but I have to bethen I convince myself and I starttalking the struggle I go through my ownhead to get myself to the gym thatmorning is tough but it has to bedonated to become he's so happy now he'slike it's like when I breathe or when Ieat and drink it's just part of it thisis second natureyeah everyone should do that becauselike we said it's all transferrable intoanything if I can myself up my comfortzone every single day and do that andthen do that with other tasks in my lifeI either private casting ie my propertyor my coaching or whatever then slowlylike with a gym progress it's gonnastart happening isn't ityou gotta start reaching them and lookdoing things such as a meal prep I'venever used a real prayer never use themeal prep and you know the whole resultshave been working our fancy KFC KFC KFCof course I why do I do thatdodge it corny ammonia sometimes all myeat lunch and by the time just beforeeating I'll be starving and I'll havewiping stuck in order Big John'sastray if I were to be John's then goJesus laughter you cannot I work aboutdiet and stuff Engels now I could takesome 2,000 do four days worth of foodand I feel great yeah absolutely and nowit's a habit I believe in dreadmill prepI enjoy heat and deciphering again manmotivation that's all if I say a - timediscipline lasts forever high-degreewonder-percent I think I used to be aperson trainer not seven eight years andI'm Cocorico need to like a coachingaspect I suppose the people were so likemy property and business and stuff andone of the first things I will say topeople when they approach me or can youcoach me for a kind of ability you helpme get get over this hurdle in my lifefor example it's okay do you work out asolution one of the first questionsasked which they probably don't expectfrom the coach because I think you knowyou're gonna give me some system orsomething that you need to do forbusiness and the majority of them say noI'm like well that needs to changebecause the way I do my stuff is that'sthe first thing we look at we focusingon your health which I believe is yourbiggest well you know healthy as well asthat kind of thing and your mind gettingthat right and that's kind of how I lookat it so I think me going to the gymespecially for my boxing okay justbefore meeting you doing the Masters hasbeen one of the biggest disadvantages Ihad when I went to this property game inthis business game because I was like Ijust take that work ethic where I was iworking everyone in the gym and i justbring it into yeah okay i don't know asmuch about property or business as mostpeople but most people start work aboutknowing they work to about half i forexample you have about an hour and ahalf at the dick you know for lunch thenlooking at YouTube videos half waythrough if I just wake up seven eighto'clock but I don't have all that timeand I just work till seven eight o'clockat night very very quickly over a coupleyears I'll call back up if that makesany sense that's kind of what I've doneit that of course yeah okay fantastic sowhat is your biggest fear why is mybiggest fear okay um my biggest fear isI would say to not be able to keep myfamily they deserve what would change intheir day to day would it be that youwant to retire them from work or sendthem on a holiday I mean what kind ofthings in what will change them and thenmoments wake up to what's work thatwould be the main thing the choice didyou have the choice if they do choose togo to work is our choice as long as theyhave to yeah and at the moment is thecase of the clock see I thinks it's cuzknow we spend a lot of our time I workmore about time get home everyone'stired or we the good gets a bed that'syour neo Cynthia as you know spend asmuch time as you deal with them as youdo at work absolutelyfor me I would like for my family to theOpera Z what's the spin because that'sthat's invaluable man thing is for us tospend more time together spend more timedoing something that it does not reallybenefit us you know the initial initialamount of time that it got its that's mybiggest worry cuz it's not for you knowcritics life is a predictoryou know things happen day in day outactually I've seen this call he saidthat we who die while still alive youknow you don't expect it to happen whilethings happen and for me out of reallydisappointed if I if something any fixthat happened and I'm not being able togive my family the life that theydeservethat's what my biggest fear okay goodanswer good answerokay so the next question is aboutmotivation I'd be lying I suppose if Isaid there was a days where I struggledto keep myself away I think I've touchedon this earlier you know gym stuffand I'm pretty soon yourself had thosedays as well I've yet to meet anybodywho doesn't need some level ofmotivation or something that just keepson going on the days where they justdon't feel like doing it so I want toknow is on those days where you feellike maybe you're in a funk or yourmotivations gone and then he's just notclicking in your head and you don't wantto go to the gym I know we touch ondiscipline for example or you don't wantto go to it what is driving you on thatparticular day okay I always think thatsomeone else is working harder that's meby the way up in smoke okay if we are tobelieve this you know the competition'sthat I'm gonna do like I said I don'twanna go to gym every day but I dosometimes I'm in the gym I'm gonnahundred percent I still give iteverything that came on that day yeahyou know I'll finish myself I want to bestanding on that stage and if I've lostit's my cause I worked refused yeah Iwant to lose with my head held highokay there's nothing more that Icould've actually given me okay that'swhat motivates me I don't understandtheir thinking and if I want to thinkthat one day that's gonna be that we maylive so stop being of no wanting to beoutworked it's okay yeah you're gonnalose okay we lose it but do not losecause I do not get oh yeah you knowthat's Jim late but I'm Garcialife in general I just touched up on myknees that like they don't give for myfamilyyes that's what motivates me to stopbeing of man you can't afford to letthat grip slippushy and you know I'm always to youmore the fact that they're waking up agoal to work that day when that day thewake nuts got to work clay yeah that'sthat's my motivation desperate like theyhave to wake up for where that baby thatyou have that makes sure you don't hitthat seems but exactly can I hear thatbecause I understand me my wife youwhile I went on this journey where I wasself-employed and not really normally Iwas literally carrying I had this muchmoney to spare another I need to getremember me I need to pay for a coffeeany I was working my pennies out in abootstrapping but the thing that wouldalways get me out of bed was and I wasput my alarm I just put on for my wifeyeah so I'm like she's haven't talked towork to support this I mean and thatused to keep me going every single daythat's so I hear that okay okay so nowyou've heard the buzzer has just goneoff and we're at the fun part of theshow where I'm gonna put you throughyour paces now the beautiful thing aboutthis is T doesn't know any of thequestions I'm gonna ask him so what I'mgonna do is I'm gonna set the timer for60 seconds okay so we're going to startin three two onethe ability to fly or be invisible rightmoney your fame money Ronnie Coleman orAuto Show Sega on favorite protein shapeflavor banana singing or dancing dancingthat Pixar YouTube YouTube Marvel or DCmodel favorite TV show everwould you rather than on how you woulddie or when you were dying when you loveor moneylove books or movies if you can sit withone person in the world or an hour withme you'll probably be in Iraq your worstfear growing up was snakes what is yourbiggest addictionmy biggest addiction is Jim summerwinter summer your favorite place in thewhole way your zoom speak or languageswill be able to speak to animalssweet harmonies if you could abolish onething in the world for many P racismyour favorite song ever last onesJacob read minds or predict the futureyour favorite superheromy pramantha probably one of mine yeahyeah okay so but nearly there's just acouple of more questions left and thenext one's on reflection so hi insidesome wonderful thing and upon reflectionwe can always think of ways to get towhere we currently are quicker easier orwith less heartache but I also guess thejourney teaches us a lot as well I'm astrong believer in trusting the processand enjoying the process so what I wantto know is if you could go back in timeto that one moment where you reallystruggled and suffered with theadversity so if you use the universityexample and you can just whispersomething in the air of a younger Tknowing what you know now what would youtell yourself when I tell myself beproactiveno one's gonna keep this to you you cando thisno one can race you come on your waysfor you you're gonna do but in so we areactually at the last question then if ina hundred and fifty years time sciencefails to save all of us we're no longerhere and well that exists is a book onthe life of T by the way you can chooseup for the title and on that book it'sit can be as big as you want butsomebody's walking past what will makethat person pick it up right so what Iwant to know is what would the blue sayand what would the total of that booksay about you okay okay something GodseyI mean that I'm always there so someonewho just worked hard to chase theAmerican dream for their family justfinally in Americayeah people's attention but that it'struly the only company okay title titlethe British dream says a guy it's veryhard to get there makethey're gonna be thinking this authorhas no idea where my story my story myright there's not right or wrong answergood answer good answer so that you'veheard it you've heard like anunbelievable story of somebody who'scoming from a place where many of us whoare listening to this now haven't had tocome from I suppose and I studied withtea at University and a lot of this Inever knew myself so it's it's beeninspiring for myself to hear thisespecially when I sit back and I thinkabout when we were doing coursework andI used to struggle with the EnglishEnglish language myself so just to thinkhow hard it must have been for you aswell it just makes you appreciate howfortunate we all are before we leave Iam I always like to ask my guests ifthey could just give us one place wherewe could reach out to you I'll probablysay snapchat realistically okay thesemore than anything that's fine you andyour username infrastructure catcherFreeman catch a Freeman okay fantasticI'll put that in the show notesI'm will probably put your Instagram inthere as well because I find itinspirational there's a lot of greatquotes bill on my Instagram okay butthere's also a lot of their trainingfootage as well and bespoke prior tothis interview as well teas on thetransformation where he's gone from justunder probably 100 kg down to like 7 eie I think at the minute and it'sprobably gonna get lower so it justshows you that if you really trust theprocess in your work hard you can reallyget to where you want to get to and Ijust wanna say thank you for coming downreally appreciate itand tirana home thanks for listening andremember this podcast is absolutely freeso all we ask in return is for you toshare this with a friend and drop us afive star review over on iTunes have anawesome day#JustDeuIt & #FindYourVoice See acast.com/privacy for privacy and opt-out information.