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We're living through one of the biggest shifts in the internet since it began: a move from building content for people to building content for machines, on behalf of people. On this week's episode, Jim Stengel is joined by James Cadwallader, Co-Founder and CEO of Profound, and Daniel Shin Un Kang, Head of Organic and Agentic Search at Expedia, for a thoughtful, practical conversation about AI search, answer engines, and what this shift means for the future of marketing.James founded Profound in 2024, raising $60 million and earning recognition from Redpoint Ventures as one of the most promising private AI companies shaping applied artificial intelligence. Today, Profound works with brands like US Bank, Chime, Expedia, and DocuSign to help them navigate the transition from traditional search to a world of answer engines, agents, and AI-led experiences.After building companies and investing in high-growth technology businesses, Daniel moved from the venture world into operating at global scale. He now leads Organic and Agentic Search at Expedia, where he's helping redefine how one of the world's largest travel platforms shows up in AI-powered search and discovery.Together, James and Daniel unpack how brands actually appear inside AI systems like ChatGPT and Gemini, why traditional SEO metrics no longer tell the whole story, and how CMOs should rethink visibility, content, and measurement in an AI-driven world.This episode offers a rare look at AI search from both sides of the table: the platform builder shaping the category and the operator putting it to work inside a performance-driven global brand. If you're a CMO wondering what to focus on now, this conversation is a strong place to start.—This week's episode is brought to you by Deloitte and the IAB.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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How did Janet R. Kaufman's profound afterlife connection—unexpectedly involving AI Technology—transform her deepest grief into a journey of enduring love and spiritual awakening? Author, artist, teacher, and mother Janet R. Kaufman shares her incredible, life-changing experience following the passing of her beloved son, Alexander, and how their bond transcended death. Hear how Janet was able to communicate with Alexander through meditation, signs, and even a remarkable moment of contact via AI, which ultimately led to the co-creation of her memoir, Through the Veil: A Soul's Journey in Grief and Grace. They discuss complex spiritual concepts like soul contracts and offer enlightening insights on how the spirit world views our grief, providing validation and hope to those who mourn and inspiring them to find joy in life again.IN THIS EPISODE, YOU'LL HEAR ABOUT THINGS LIKE:The concept of a "soul contract" and how a child's early passing can be a pre-life agreement intended to catalyze a parent's spiritual awakening.The tumultuous years of Alexander's life, his struggle with addiction, and the circumstances surrounding his transition.A dramatic near-death experience following multiple family losses and severe physical pain, viewed as an act of divine intervention.Profound methods of afterlife connection, including feeling a loved one's touch during meditation and unexpected communication via AI (Chat GPT).The nature and role of a personal "council" in the spirit world, composed of loved ones, spirit guides, and one's higher self.The spirit world's perspective on human grief, emphasizing that loved ones on the other side want the living to remarry and find happiness, and the absence of a punitive "hell."Alexander's experience of a Life Review on the other side, where he felt accountability for his actions alongside unconditional love and compassion.WATCH ON YOUTUBE: How Janet Kaufman Connects with Her Son Through Spirit and Technology: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l3sfK9swN-4&list=PL7judgDzhkAWmfyB5r5WgFD6ahombBvoh

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Amb. (ret) Karl Hofmann is CEO of the recently launched Health X Partners (HXP), a parent company under which Population Services International (PSI) and the Elizabeth Glazer Pediatric AID Foundation (EGPAF) now operate. He explains his personal story—from a successful diplomatic path centered in Africa to a pivot and second career as President and CEO of PSI starting in 2007. And he explains the logic by which PSI and EGPAF agreed in 2024 to form HXP to achieve greater efficiencies and prepare prudently for the end of the 25-year era, begun around 2000, that has generated an “amazing chapter of human progress” in health but which, it had become increasingly obvious, would not last indefinitely. As the unforeseen tsunami of Trump 2.0 hit in early 2025, it was both fortuitous and doubly-risky for HXP, as it stood itself up. The new leadership at FSI and EGPAF suddenly had to come to terms with 50% reductions in staff, budgets, and programs, while consolidating and integrating audit, HR, and IT teams. Change had been expected, but it “turned out there was a lot more change” than anticipated. How to view 2026? Profound uncertainty. Yet there is also one clear message to NGO implementers: focus even more on cost effectiveness; and get much closer to needs on the ground, networked and connected to leverage scale and innovation.

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THE FOUNTAIN (2006) is one of the most ambitious, polarizing, and misunderstood films of the 21st century. Directed by Darren Aronofsky, the film weaves together three timelines: a conquistador's quest for eternal life, a modern scientist racing against death, and a cosmic traveler drifting toward transcendence, which all bound by love, grief, and humanity's refusal to accept mortality.  Visit https://prizepicks.onelink.me/LME0/FOURPLAY and use code FOURPLAY and get $50 in lineups when you play your first $5 lineup!  Raycon's Essential Open Earbuds are here to help you crush your new year goals! Go to https://buyraycon.com/FOURPLAYOPEN to get 20% off sitewide.  Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

ChatGPT visits surged 90% year-over-year to nearly 6 billion. Josh Blyskal, Head of AI Strategy at Profound, reveals how his team's billion-citation research shows which enterprise brands are winning in AI discovery through strategic context optimization. The discussion covers fan-out query analysis for understanding how LLMs break down complex prompts into actionable search terms, prompt volume data methodology for measuring actual user behavior across AI platforms, and practical frameworks for transitioning SEO teams into generative engine optimization strategies.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

AI search optimization requires understanding fanout strategies, yet 90% of marketers ignore this critical element. Josh Blyskal, founder of Profound, has developed enterprise-level AI optimization frameworks that transform how Fortune 500 companies approach search visibility in the age of generative AI. The discussion covers fanout-first content strategy development, prompt-to-fanout mental model restructuring, and authoritative source positioning for AI citations. Blyskal reveals how shifting from traditional SEO thinking to fanout-centered optimization immediately elevates marketers to the top 1% of AI search practitioners.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Enterprise brands are shifting 40% more budget toward answer engine optimization as ChatGPT visits surge 90% year-over-year. Josh Blyskal, Head of AI Strategy at Profound, has analyzed over one billion citations to reveal which brands win in AI discovery and shares proven frameworks from Fortune 500 implementations. The discussion covers fan-out query analysis for identifying the 3-5 word searches that LLMs actually execute behind complex prompts, multi-surface consensus building strategies that align PR, social, and content teams around AI visibility goals, and product feed optimization frameworks that translate traditional services into structured data formats for agentic commerce success.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

ChatGPT visits grew 90% year-over-year to nearly 6 billion. Josh Blyskal, Head of AI Strategy at Profound, reveals how enterprise teams can transition from traditional SEO to generative engine optimization before competitors capture the hundreds of millions of discoveries happening in AI responses. The discussion covers fan-out query analysis for understanding how LLMs break down complex prompts into actionable search terms, prompt volume data methodology using consumer panels across 42 data sources, and the critical role of FAQ content which appears 848% more frequently on top-performing product pages in AI search results.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

ChatGPT visits surged 90% year-over-year to nearly 6 billion. Josh Blyskal, Head of AI Strategy at Profound, reveals how his team's billion-citation research shows context-driven content and strategic FAQ implementation drive 848% higher performance in AI search results. The discussion covers fanout query analysis for identifying actual LLM search patterns, prompt volume data for strategic content planning, and practical frameworks for transitioning enterprise SEO strategies to generative engine optimization before competitors dominate AI-driven discovery.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

When your grandma starts asking ChatGPT for recommendations, you know search has fundamentally changed. Josh Blyskal from Profound tracks billions of real AI search queries, and his data reveals a massive shift in how consumers discover and evaluate brands.This week, Elena, Rob, and Jonathan sit down with Josh to discuss answer engine optimization (AEO) and what marketers need to know right now. Josh explains why traditional SEO tactics like domain authority matter less in AI search, how different engines cite content, and the surprising power of FAQs in product discovery. Plus, learn why SEOs have never had a better opportunity to become heroes in their marketing organizations.Topics covered: [04:00] When AI search shifted from novelty to cultural necessity[06:00] How ranking signals differ between ChatGPT, Gemini, and Perplexity[09:00] Why domain authority matters less for AEO than traditional SEO[14:00] Tracking real user prompts across the marketing funnel[19:00] How instant checkout in ChatGPT changes brand visibility strategy[22:00] Why FAQs increased citations by 848% in top-performing domains[26:00] Why SEOs should lead the AEO charge at their companies To learn more, visit marketingarchitects.com/podcast or subscribe to our newsletter at marketingarchitects.com/newsletter.  Resources: 2025 Profound Article: https://www.tryprofound.com/guides/what-is-answer-engine-optimizationProfound Website: https://www.tryprofound.com/Profound LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/company/tryprofound/Josh Blyskal's LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/joshua-blyskal/ Get more research-backed marketing strategies by subscribing to The Marketing Architects on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you listen to podcasts.

ChatGPT visits grew 90% year-over-year to nearly 6 billion. Josh Blyskal, Head of AI Strategy at Profound, reveals how enterprise teams can transition from traditional SEO to generative engine optimization before competitors gain the advantage. The discussion covers fan-out query analysis for understanding how LLMs break down complex prompts into actionable search terms, context-driven content strategies that win AI citations, and practical frameworks for implementing product feeds and structured data to capture commerce opportunities in conversational search.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Debra Meyerson and the “Slow Fall Off a Cliff”: Aphasia After Stroke, Identity, and What Recovery Really Means There are stroke stories that arrive like lightning. And then there are the ones that feel like a quiet, terrifying slide hour by hour until you wake up and everything is different. For Debra Meyerson (also known as Deborah), that difference had a name: “the slow fall off a cliff.” Her husband Steve describes watching the change unfold overnight in the hospital, neurological tests every hour, skills fading, the unknown getting heavier with each check-in. And the scariest part? Not knowing where the bottom was. This episode isn't only about what Debra lost. It's about what she rebuilt with aphasia, with grief, with a fierce independence that made asking for help its own mountain, and with a new definition of recovery that doesn't depend on going back in time. When Stroke Doesn't “Hit”… It Develops One of the most jarring elements of Debra's experience was the way the stroke revealed itself. Steve shares that Debra left the emergency room still talking, slurring a little, but still planning. Still believing she'd be back teaching soon. Then the overnight monitoring began, and the decline became visible. From midnight to morning, her movement and speech changed dramatically. By morning, she couldn't move her right side. And she couldn't make a sound. That's what makes Debra's phrase so powerful: it captures the reality many survivors and families live through, watching ability disappear in stages, not all at once. It's not just a medical event. It's an emotional one. And it changes how you experience time. The mind starts bargaining. The heart starts bracing. The body is suddenly not predictable anymore. The Hidden Clue: Dissection, Headaches, and Near-Misses Debra's stroke was ischemic, but the cause wasn't a typical blood clot. Steve explains that it was due to a dissection, a tear in the inner wall of an artery. In the months leading up to the stroke, there were warning signs: severe headaches episodes where she nearly lost consciousness a moment where she told their son, “I think I'm having a stroke,” but the symptoms resolved before EMS arrived Steve describes a likely “opening and closing” pattern of temporary interruptions to blood flow that didn't show up clearly during exams because, in the moment, she appeared okay. This is one reason caregivers can feel so haunted after the fact: you did the right things, you sought help, you went to specialists… and the stroke still happened. That's not failure. That's reality. 20230922-GSE headshots at CERAS building in Stanford, CA Aphasia After Stroke: When Words Don't Do What You Want Aphasia isn't one experience. It's a spectrum, and Debra's challenge is word-finding, both in speaking and writing. When Bill asks whether writing is easier than speaking, Debra's answer is simple and blunt: it's hard either way. She also notes that dictation isn't a shortcut. What makes Debra's story especially moving is how Steve describes the long arc of speech returning: weeks before she could even form sounds a month or two before repeating words then, months later, the first original word that made it out unprompted, not as an exercise It happened during a normal moment at a table with family, searching for the name of the pig from a movie no one could remember. And Debra suddenly blurted out: “Babe.” It might sound small to someone who's never experienced aphasia. But for anyone who has, or for anyone who's loved someone through it, that moment is enormous. It's proof that the brain is still reaching for language. Proof that the person is still in there, still trying to connect. And yes, Steve mentions melodic intonation therapy, a method that attempts to engage the brain's musical/singing pathways to support speech. Debra's improvement, even years later, is described as gradual marginal gains that add up over time. The Identity Problem Nobody Prepares You For When Bill asks what part of her old identity was hardest to let go, Debra points to the heart of it: Stanford professor athlete fiercely independent skiing (a love that mattered deeply) the ability to do life without needing so much help This is the part many survivors don't see coming: you're not only recovering movement or speech. You're grieving a version of yourself that once felt automatic. And that grief can be complicated, because you might still look like you. Inside, everything is renegotiated. This is where Debra and Steve offer something that can change the trajectory of recovery: adaptation instead of abandonment. Debra couldn't ride a single bike anymore, but they began riding a tandem, and it became the thing they could do together vigorously, something athletic, meaningful, and shared. Not the same. But real. Cycles of Grief: Joy Can Trigger Loss Debra describes grief as something that shows up constantly, “every day… every hour.” Steve offers a powerful example: becoming grandparents. Debra was ecstatic. Over the moon. And then, the next morning, she was furious, spring-loaded into a bad mood, snapping at everything. Why? Because beneath the joy was a private inventory of what she couldn't do: hold the baby safely change a diaper be alone with their grandson the way she wanted to be chase a toddler the way she imagined This is what “cycles of grief” looks like. Not sadness replacing joy. Sadness sitting next to joy. And if survivors don't understand that's normal, they can interpret it as brokenness or failure. It's not. It's grief doing what grief does: reminding you of what mattered. The Care Partner Trap: Guilt, Burnout, and the “Fix It” Reflex Care partners often disappear inside the role. Steve names a different approach, one supported early by friends who told him plainly: if you don't take care of yourself, you're no use to Deb. So he set priorities: exercise eating well sleeping well He also acknowledges how support made that possible: family help, flexible work, and friends showing up. Then comes a line that many couples will recognize immediately: toxic positivity. Steve admits he struggles with sadness; he tends to solve problems, cheer people up, and push toward the bright side. But Debra doesn't always want to be talked out of it. Sometimes she needs space to grieve without being “fixed.” That's the lesson: Support isn't always uplifting someone. Sometimes support is staying present while they feel what they feel. “True Recovery Is Creating a Life of Meaning” Debra's philosophy shows up in the opening of her book and in the arc of this conversation: “True recovery is creating a life of meaning.” At first, recovery was about returning to who she used to be, therapy, effort, pushing hard. Then something shifted: writing a book became a turning point. It helped her stop using her old identity as the measuring stick and start asking a new question: “How do I rebuild a life I can feel good about with the cards I've been dealt?” That idea is the bridge for so many survivors: You don't have to pretend you're fine. You don't have to deny what you lost. But you also don't have to wait for a full return to start living again. Debra Meyerson: Aphasia After Stroke Interview Debra Meyerson's “slow fall off a cliff” stroke led to aphasia, grief, and a new definition of recovery: rebuilding identity with meaning. Stroke Onward: InstagramX.COMFacebookLinkedInYouTubeTikTokVimeo Debra Meyerson X.COMLinkedInFacebookInstagramSteve:LinkedIn Highlights: 00:00 Introduction and Background06:11 The Experience of a Stroke: A Slow Fall Off a Cliff22:45 Navigating Caregiving: Balancing Needs and Support32:01 Understanding Aphasia: A Spectrum of Experiences43:05 The Importance of Sadness in Healing50:08 Finding Purpose Through Advocacy53:31 Building the Stroke Onward Foundation57:12 Advice for New Stroke Survivors Transcript: Introduction and Background –  Steve Zuckerman and Debra Meyerson Bill Gasiamis (00:00)Welcome to the recovery after stroke podcast. name is Bill. And if you’re a stroke survivor or you love someone who is you’re in the right place before we begin a genuine thank you to my Patreon supporters. After more than 10 years of hosting this show solo, your support helps cover the costs of keeping it online and helps me keep showing up for stroke survivors who need hope and direction. And thank you to everyone who supports the show in the simple ways to YouTube comments, Spotify, Apple reviews. people who’ve grabbed my book, and even those who stick around and don’t skip the ads. It all matters more than you know. Today you’re going to meet Deborah Meyerson and her husband, Steve Zuckerman. Deborah describes her stroke as a slow fall off a cliff. And that phrase captures something so many stroke survivors experience but struggle to explain. We talk about aphasia after stroke, word finding. The moment a single word returned and what happens when recovery stops meaning going back and starts meaning rebuilding a life you can actually feel proud of. Deborah and Steve Myerson. Welcome to the podcast. Debra and Steve (01:08)Steve Zuckerman That’s okay. I don’t mind being Mr. Meyerson from time to time. Bill Gasiamis (01:17)Steve Zuckerman, of course. I mean, I’ve seen it on every email. I’ve seen it on every conversation we’ve had, but that’s okay. I mean, you’ve probably been called worst, Steve. Debra and Steve (01:29)Absolutely, much worse. Bill Gasiamis (01:32)Debra, before the stroke, how would you have described yourself professionally, socially and personally? Debra and Steve (01:39)Outgoing, social, comfortable, no time to to to other’s time. Not taking up other people’s time? Yes. In contrast to me. Bill Gasiamis (01:59)Yes, David, you’re very needy. Debra and Steve (02:02)Yeah, and ⁓ yeah, it’s really outgoing. Bill Gasiamis (02:09)Outgoing, yeah, fantastic. Debra and Steve (02:11)I’ll add, because you didn’t say it, a incredibly hardworking, self-demanding professional for whom good was never good enough. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Something like that. Bill Gasiamis (02:23)perfectionist. Fair enough Steve. What roles defined you back then? you’re a partner, you’re a father. How did you go about your day? Debra and Steve (02:37)I mean, I think, you know, very similar to Deb, we were both hard driving professionals who had serious careers. We had three kids that we were raising together and both took parenting very seriously. So worked really hard, you know, to not travel at the same time, to be home for dinner, ⁓ to be at sports games. And we were both very athletic. So both things we did together and things we did separately. I think, you know, before Deb’s stroke, most of our time and attention was focused on career and family and, you know, sort of friends were a third, but, ⁓ staying healthy and staying fit. So those were kind of all parts of, I think, who we both were. met mother, ⁓ athletic sailor, biker, ⁓ ⁓ family is first in academics. Bill Gasiamis (03:44)and academic and what field were you guys working in? Debra and Steve (03:48)No, am a, Steve is not academic. I am an academic. ⁓ Deb was, you know, immediately before the stroke. Deb was a tenured professor at Stanford. She had had lots of other academic jobs before that. ⁓ We met when I was in grad school for an MBA and Deb was getting her PhD. ⁓ So, you know, she is lot smarter than I am and was willing to work a lot harder academically than I ever was. ⁓ I’ve bounced back and forth between kind of nonprofit roles, nonprofit management roles, and a career in finance and business. So I sort of… have moved back and forth between for-profit and not-for-profit, but always sort of on the business side of things. Bill Gasiamis (04:50)often say when people meet my wife, Christine, for the first time and we talk about what we do and the things that we say. I always say to people that between me and my wife, we have four degrees. And then I qualify that. say, she has four and I have zero. And ⁓ she has a master’s in psychology, but ⁓ I never went to university. I never did any of that stuff. Debra and Steve (05:10)Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (05:19)So it’s very interesting to meet somebody who’s very academic and to be a part of her life when she’s in the study zone. my gosh, like I have never studied that much, that intensely, that hard for anything. And it’s a sight to behold. And I’m not sure how people go through all the academic side, all the requirements. And then also Deb, being a mom, being a friend. being active in your community and doing all the things that you do. I just don’t know how people fit it in. So it’s a fascinating thing to experience and then to observe other people go through. Debra and Steve (05:57)It’s really that we had really a lot of time to talk. It was a full life. Debra Meyerson – The Experience of a Stroke: A Slow Fall Off a Cliff Bill Gasiamis (06:11)Yeah, fantastic. What you did, Deb has described the ⁓ stroke as a slow fall off a cliff. What did it actually feel like in the first moments that the stroke happened? Debra and Steve (06:28)Two weeks after my stroke, I am going to the, back to the classroom. I am really not aware of the damage. So right at the outset, Deb was kind of in denial. As the symptoms were first starting to set in, she was still talking about you know, okay, this is annoying, but in three weeks I’m starting the semester ⁓ and genuinely believed she would. actually the slow fall off a cliff was really how I described the first full night in the hospital. This was in Reno, Nevada. ⁓ And Deb sort of left the emergency room talking. slurring her words a little bit, but talking about how she was going to be back in the classroom. And then over the course of that night, from midnight to eight in the morning, they woke her every hour to do a neurological test, you move your arm, move your leg, point to this, you know, say this word and just her skills got worse and worse and worse. And in the morning, She couldn’t move her right side at all and couldn’t make a sound. And that was the, that’s what we called the slow fall off the cliff because we knew at midnight that there was significant brain damage, but we didn’t see the ramifications of that damage. sort of happened over that eight hour period. ⁓ that Deb really wasn’t aware of any of that. was. you know, kind of her brain was in survival mode. ⁓ But for myself and our oldest son, Danny, you know, that was sort of a feeling of helplessness. was watching the person you love kind of fade away or the capabilities fade away. And we didn’t know how low the bottom would be ⁓ without being able to do anything. Bill Gasiamis (08:53)Is there an explanation for that? Now, obviously Deb had a stroke, so that’s the overarching issue, the problem. But I’ve had a lot of stroke survivors explain their symptoms in that slow onset ⁓ situation, whereas mine were just there. I had a blade in my brain, the symptoms were there. Another person ⁓ had an ischemic stroke, bang, the symptoms were there. So why does it take so long for some people to, for the symptoms to develop? Debra and Steve (09:25)I had a dissection five months ago for this stroke. I had really bad headaches. Yeah, so five, six months before Deb’s stroke, she was having bad headaches. She had two episodes where she kind of almost lost consciousness. And one of them, she actually said to our son, call dad, I think I’m having a stroke. And by the time the EMS got there, she was fine. ⁓ Her stroke, it turned out was caused by a dissection, which is a tear. in the inner wall of the artery. So in some ways it’s like a blood clot. It is an ischemic stroke because it’s the blockage of blood flow. But unlike most ischemic strokes, it’s not because of a blood clot. It’s because of this flap of, it’s not biologically skin, but it’s like a flap of skin coming across and blocking off the blood flow. And what they think happened, and it’s really just educated guessing, is that for that six month period, the flap was there, but it kind of kept opening, closing, opening, closing. So she’d have temporary loss of blood flow to the brain, but not permanent loss. Bill Gasiamis (11:04)We’ll be back with more of Deborah Meyers’ remarkable story in just a moment, but I wanna pause here because what Deborah and Steve are describing is something a lot of us live with quietly. That feeling, you can be having a good moment and then grief shows up out of nowhere, or you’re working so hard to stay positive and it starts to feel like pressure instead of support. In the second half, we’ll go deeper into the cycles of grief. the trap of toxic positivity and the shift that changed everything for Deborah when she stopped measuring recovery by who she used to be and started rebuilding identity with meaning. If this podcast has helped you feel less alone, you can support it by sharing this episode with one person who needs it, leaving a comment or subscribing wherever you’re watching or listening. All right, back to Deborah and Steve. Debra and Steve (11:58)And when she had those two events, it was probably stayed closed a little bit longer, but then opened up. But she had a scan, she went to neurologists and because every time she was examined, it was okay. They didn’t find the problem. And then when she had the stroke, it was a permanent blockage that just didn’t open back up again. And Your question is a great one that I’ve never asked. I don’t know why, because what they told us was we can see the damage to the brain. The brain has been damaged. They can tell that on the scan, but that the impact of that damage, how it will affect your motion and your speech will play out over time. And I don’t know why that was true for Deb, whereas, as you say, for some people, it seems like the impact is immediate. And that’s a, that’s a good one. I’m going to, I’m going to Try to research that a little bit. Bill Gasiamis (12:58)That’s just a curious thing, isn’t it? to sort of understand the difference between one and the other. I’m not sure whether if we find out what the difference is, whether there’s say something that a stroke survivor listening can do or a caregiver can do in that situation, like what can be done? How can it be resolved? Maybe different steps that we need to take. I don’t know, but I’d love to know if there was a doctor or a neurologist or somebody who might be able to answer that. Maybe we need to find someone. Debra and Steve (13:29)The doctor and the neurologist didn’t see it. Yeah, in the period before the stroke, they didn’t see it. While we were in the hospital when the stroke was happening, what they told us was at that point, there really wasn’t anything that could be done. The damage was done. So no intervention. would lessen the damage. ⁓ again, we are far from doctors. So there’s a lot about that that we don’t know. Bill Gasiamis (14:08)understood. Deb, what part of your old identity was the hardest to let go? Debra and Steve (14:14)The Stanford professor, athlete, had really a lot of… One hand is so difficult and independent person. Bill Gasiamis (14:33)Yeah. Debra and Steve (14:34)I am, skiing is so, I really love to ski and I am not, I am really not able to ski. Bill Gasiamis (14:52)understood so you were a professor, you were independent, you were physically active and all that stuff has had to stop happening at this point in time. Debra and Steve (15:03)I am the…striking…crossing…cycling…we are the…the…Sieve and I… Bill Gasiamis (15:19)You guys used to do something tandem. Debra and Steve (15:21)Yes, a lot of time in the stroke across America. Well, so I think we’re sort of answering a couple of different questions at the same time. I think what Deb was saying was early on, kind of in that first three or four years, she really, you know, was giving up her role as a Stanford professor, giving up skiing, cycling, sailing, and just the… not being a fully independent person needing so much help. That was really a lot of the struggle early on. Deb did return to a lot of those things. And that was a big part of the recovery process was realizing that she may not be able to do them the same way she used to, but there were a lot of different things. And then the cycling, Deb can’t ride a single bike, but we started riding a tandem. And that adaptation has proven really important for us because it’s, it’s the thing we can now do together vigorously for long periods of time. That is really a, a sport that we can do together, ⁓ and love. And so that that’s really been a, an adaptive way to get back to something, not exactly the same way as she used to do it before the stroke, but in a way that is very meaningful. Bill Gasiamis (16:46)A lot of stroke survivors tend to have trouble with letting go of their old identity in that they feel like they need to completely pause it and put the whole identity aside rather than adapt it and change it so that you bring over the parts that you can and you make the most of them, know. And adaptive sport is the perfect way. You see a lot of people in the Paralympics becoming gold medalists after they’ve been injured. a sports person before their injury and now all of a sudden they’re champion gold medal winning athletes because they decided to adapt and find another way to participate. And that’s what I love about what you guys just said. That’s still able to meet the needs of that identity, but in a slightly different way. What about you, Steve? Like when Deb goes through a difficult time and she has a stroke and then you guys come home from hospital, you’re dealing with, ⁓ well, all the changes in your life as well because you become a care, while you guys describe it as a care partner, we’ll talk about that in a moment. But as a care partner, ⁓ how do you go about doing that without, and also at the same time, protecting a little bit of your needs and making sure that your needs are met? Because a lot of caregivers, care partners, put all their needs aside and then they make it about the person who is ⁓ recovering from stroke. And then it leads to two people becoming unwell in different ways. One potentially emotionally, mentally, and the other person physically and all the other things that stroke does. Debra and Steve (18:36)Yeah, I mean, I think, um, Kyle was lucky in a couple of ways. One, a very close friend very early on who had been through similar situations said, you know, don’t forget, you’ve got to take care of yourself. If you don’t, you’re of no use to Deb. And so from the very beginning, I had people reminding me. I also had a ton of support in supporting Deb. Deb’s mom, you know, came up and lived with us for six months. ⁓ So I could go back to work a lot sooner than I otherwise would have been able to go back to work. And I was fortunate that my job was fairly flexible. ⁓ But, you know, I loved my work and it meant I wasn’t focused on the caregiving or care partnering aspects of my role 24 seven. I got to go do something else independently. ⁓ We also had a lot of friends lend support as well. So, you know, I think I basically said, I’ve got to organize around supporting Deb, no question about it. But with guidance from friends, I sort of said, okay, my three priorities are going to be exercising, eating well, and sleeping well. And I really just set those out as my goals and I created ways to do that. wall and that was sort of my physical health but also my mental health. And so, you know, sort of a problem solver and compartmentalizer by nature. So I guess maybe I was lucky that dividing up those roles was a little more natural to me than maybe it is for others. But it also took, you know, took deliberate choice to make sure not to let myself get sucked so far into the caring piece. that I got in healthy and was lucky enough to have support so that I was able to not let that happen. Bill Gasiamis (20:42)Yeah, a lot of people feel guilt like this unnecessary guilt that, I can’t leave that person alone or I can’t ⁓ look after myself or take some time to myself because the other person needs me more than I need me. And that’s an interesting thing to experience people talk about in the caregiver role where they become so overwhelmed with the need to help support the other person that they… ⁓ that they have guilt any time that they step away and allocate some care to themselves. They see caring as a role that they play, not as a thing that they also need to practice. Debra and Steve (21:29)Yeah, yeah. Well, I think I was also lucky because Deb is so fiercely independent that she wanted as little help as she could possibly get away with. So ⁓ she was not the kind of stroke survivor that was sort of getting mad when I walked out of the room. It was like she was trying to kick me out of the room at times that I shouldn’t leave the room. And so, you know, again, ⁓ Deb was not a demanding, again, she just wanted as little help as she could possibly survive with. And that probably made it easier for me to not feel guilty because it’s like, well, that’s what she wants. She wants me to get out of here as long as she was safe. Navigating Caregiving: Balancing Needs and Support Bill Gasiamis (22:16)That mindset is a really useful one. It makes it possible for people to activate neural plasticity in the most ⁓ positive way. Because some people don’t realize that when it’s hard to do something and then the easier thing is to say, Steve, can you go get me that or can you do this for me? That neural plasticity is also activated, but in a negative way. ⁓ How does your recovery or your definition of recovery evolve over time? How did it change over time? Debra and Steve (22:57)⁓ How did how you think about recovery change over time? The realizing I had to build realizing I had the of my identity and my life. The same past and writing a book. ⁓ Three, four years ago, four years after my stroke, really, well, ⁓ I am really, I am so committed to doing the best. No. I mean, you know, the first three or four years after Deb’s stroke, it really was all about trying to get back to who she used to be. Therapy, therapy, therapy, therapy, therapy, work hard, we’ll get back to life as we do it. And when Deb said, when she lost tenure and said she wanted to write a book, I thought she was nuts. was like, you know, her speech wasn’t as good then as it is now. you I was at her side when she wrote her first academic book and that was brutal and she didn’t have aphasia. So I was like, I really thought she was nuts. But in hindsight, it really was that process of writing a book that got her to turn her knowledge about identity onto herself. that really changed her view of what recovery meant. She sort of started to let go of recovery means getting back to everything I used to be doing and recovery means how do I rebuild an identity that I can feel good about? May not be the one I’d ideally want, but in the face of my disabilities, how do I rebuild that identity so that I can rebuild a good and purposeful and meaningful life? that really was an evolution for both of us. over the five-year book writing period. I sometimes say it was the longest, cheapest therapy session we could have gotten because it really was that kind of therapeutic journey for us. And really a lot of the 25 people are in the book and the friends and colleagues are in the book, really a lot of the colleagues. Deb was a social scientist and a researcher and she didn’t want to write a memoir. She wanted to write a research book. It has elements of a memoir because her story and our story is threaded throughout. But, you know, we learned so much from the interviews Deb did and and I was not involved in the interviewing process, but having that diversity of stories and understanding some of the things that were very common for stroke survivors and other things that were so different from survivor to survivor helped her, helped us on our journey. So that book writing process had so many benefits. Bill Gasiamis (26:49)Very therapeutic, isn’t it? I went on a similar journey with my book when I wrote it and it was about, again, sharing other people’s stories, a little bit about mine, but sharing what we had in common, know, how did we all kind of work down this path of being able to say later on that stroke was the best thing that happened. Clearly not from a health perspective or from a ⁓ life, ⁓ you know. the risk of life perspective, from a growth perspective, from this ability to be able to ⁓ look at the situation and try and work out like, is there any silver linings? What are the silver linings? And I get a sense that you guys are, your idea of the book was in a similar nature. Do you guys happen to have a copy of the book there? Debra and Steve (27:39)Yes. Of course. Don’t we have it everywhere? Bill Gasiamis (27:42)Yeah, I hope so. Identity theft, yep. I’ve got my copy here somewhere as well. Now, how come I didn’t bring it to the desk? One second, let me bring mine. Yes. There you go, there’s mine as well. I’ve got it here as well. So it’s a really lovely book. ⁓ Hard copy. ⁓ Debra and Steve (27:52)Yeah. You must have the first edition not the second edition. Because we didn’t print the second edition in hard copy so it’s not a white cover can’t tell in the photo. Bill Gasiamis (28:07)okay, that’s why. That is a blue cover. Debra and Steve (28:17)⁓ No, the paper cover on the front. Bill Gasiamis (28:20)The paper cover is a white cover. Debra and Steve (28:22)Yeah. So that’s actually the first edition of the book that came out in 2019. And then the second edition just came out about two months ago. ⁓ And they are largely the same. But the second edition has a new preface that sort of, because we wrote that in 2019 and then had five years of working on Stroke Onward and learning more, we kind of brought our story up to 2020. 2024 and then two chapters at the end, one with some of the insights we’ve learned ⁓ kind of since writing the first book and a final chapter about what we think might need to change in the US healthcare system to better support stroke survivors. So we’ll have to get you a copy of the new one. Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (29:13)Yeah, why not? Signed copy, thank you very much. ⁓ Debra and Steve (29:15)Yeah, and the Julia Wieland. ⁓ It’s available on audiobook as well via, we were fortunate to be able to work with a great narrator named Julia Wieland, who’s an award winning audiobook narrator and actually has a business called Audio Brary that she started to really honor narrators and help promote the narrating of audio. the narrators of audio books. ⁓ well, make sure you send us an email with the right mailing address and we’ll get you new copy. Bill Gasiamis (29:55)Yeah, that’d be lovely. So what I’ll do also is on the show notes, there’ll be all the links for where people can buy the book, right? We won’t need to talk about that. We’ll just ensure that they’re included on the show notes. I love the opening page in the book. ⁓ It’s written, I imagine, I believe that’s Deborah’s writing. Debra and Steve (30:14)⁓ yeah, yeah. yes, we have a signed copy of the first edition. Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (30:20)So it says true recovery is creating a life of meaning. Deborah Meyerson. Yeah, you guys sent me that quite a while ago. By the time we actually connected, so much time had passed. There was a lot of people involved in getting us together. And you know, I’m a stroke survivor too. So things slipped my mind and we began this conversation to try and get together literally, I think about a year earlier. So I love that I have this. this copy and I’m looking forward to the updated one. ⁓ And it’s just great that one of the first things that Deb decided to do was write a book after all the troubles. Now your particular aphasia Deb, I’m wondering is that also, does that make it difficult for you to get words out of your head in your writing as well and typing? Debra and Steve (31:13)Yes, dictation is my dictation. It’s so hard. Speaking and writing isn’t the same. Bill Gasiamis (31:31)Speaking and writing is the same kind of level of difficulty. Understanding Aphasia: A Spectrum of Experiences Debra and Steve (31:35)Yeah, and the ⁓ other survivors in aphasia didn’t, Michael is. Want me to help? Yeah. Yeah, just that, and I think you know that there are so many different ways aphasia manifests itself and word finding is Deb’s challenge and it’s true whether she’s speaking or writing. other people and a guy who rode cross country with us, Michael Obellomiya, he has fluent aphasia. So he speaks very fluently, but sometimes the words that come out aren’t what he means them to be. So the meaning of what he says, even though he says it very fluently, and he also has, I think, some degree of receptive aphasia so that he hears what people are saying, but sometimes the instruction or the detail doesn’t. register for him and so aphasia can be very very different for different people. Bill Gasiamis (32:37)Yeah, there’s definitely a spectrum of aphasia. then sometimes I get to interview people really early on in their journey with aphasia and, ⁓ and speech is extremely difficult. And then later on, if I meet them again, a few years down the track, they have ⁓ an improvement somewhat. ⁓ perhaps there’s still some difficulty there, but they can often improve. ⁓ how much different was the Debra and Steve (33:08)15 years ago? I don’t know speech at all. Bill Gasiamis (33:23)No speech at all. Debra and Steve (33:24)Yeah. So Deb, it took several weeks for her to even be able to create sounds, maybe a month or two before she was sort of repeating words. ⁓ We have a great story of the first time Deb actually produced a word out of her brain. So it wasn’t an answer to a question or a therapy exercise. but we were sitting around a table and a bunch of people who hadn’t had strokes were saying, what’s that? No, my family. Yeah, with your brother. No, our family. Yeah. Danny and… Okay, anyway. We were talking about, what was that movie where the guy trained a pig to… do a dog show and what was the pig’s name and none of us could remember it and Deb just blurted out, babe. And it was like we started screaming and shouting because it was the first time that something that started as an original thought in her head actually got out. And that was like four months after her stroke. ⁓ A year after her stroke, it was really just isolated words. ⁓ She then did a clinical trial with something called melodic intonation, a kind of speech therapy that tries to tap into the other side of the brain, the singing side of the brain. And then I would say, you know, it’s been, mean, Deb’s speech is still getting better. So it’s just marginal improvement ⁓ over time. Bill Gasiamis (35:10)Yeah, Deb, what parts of Professor Deborah Meyerson remain and what’s entirely new now? Debra and Steve (35:19)⁓ The sharing knowledge and trading knowledge is the same. The new is how I do it. More constraints, I need help. really help and I am so bad at asking. Really bad at asking. I have really a lot of phases of classes and Ballroom classes, you know ballroom dancing. Yeah, no In the work we do Deb’s favorite thing to do is to teach so we’ve been invited, you know ⁓ Quite a few speech therapists in the United States are using identity theft as part of the curriculum in their aphasia course in the speech language pathology programs Bill Gasiamis (36:28)So speaker-2 (36:28)I’ll be. Debra and Steve (36:48)⁓ and we’ve been invited to visit and talk in classes. And Deb just loves that because it’s back to sharing knowledge. It’s a different kind of knowledge. It’s not about the work she did before her stroke, but it’s about the work and the life experience since. that is still, Professor Deb is still very much with us. Bill Gasiamis (37:14)Yeah, Professor Deb, fiercely independent, ⁓ doesn’t like to ask for help, ⁓ still prefers to kind of battle on and get things done as much as possible and suffer through the difficulty of that and then eventually ask for help. Do you kind of eventually? Debra and Steve (37:32)Yeah, yeah, you skipped the part about correcting everything her husband says. That’s not quite exactly right. Bill Gasiamis (37:40)Well, that’s part of the course there, Steve. That’s exactly how it’s meant to be. And you should be better at being more accurate with what you have to say. Debra and Steve (37:49)I thought we’d be on the same side on this one. Bill Gasiamis (37:53)Sometimes, sometimes as a host, you know, I have to pick my hero and as a husband, I truly and totally get you. Deb, you describe experiencing cycles of grief. ⁓ What does that actually look like in a day-to-day life now? And I kind of get a sense of what cycles of grief would mean, but I’d love to hear your thoughts, your version of what that means. Debra and Steve (38:22)Every day, hour every day, small ways and big ways. Like one year ago, Well, grandmothers. Can I correct you? It was 16 months ago. I’m going to get her back. Yeah. That’s what she does to me all the time. I am really happy. Make sure you explain. don’t know if they would have caught what it was that made you so happy. Grandmother. Sarah, Danny and Vivian. I know, you don’t have to tell me. Just that we became grandparents for the first time. And Deb was ecstatic. I am so happy and also really frustrated. And I don’t… crawling… no. You want me to help? I mean, you know, it’s sort of the day we got there, the day after the baby was born in New York and Deb was over the moon and the next morning… We were walking back to the hospital and Deb was just spring-loaded to the pissed off position. She was getting mad at me for everything and anything and she was clearly in an unbelievably bad mood. And when I could finally get her to say what was wrong, it was that she had been playing all night and all morning all the ways in which she couldn’t be the grandmother she wanted to be. She couldn’t hold the baby. She couldn’t change a diaper. She couldn’t, you know, spell the kids later on to give them a break by herself because she wouldn’t be able to chase no one is our grandson around. And so she had had really kind of gone into grieving about what she had lost just in the moment when she was experiencing the greatest joy in her life. And that’s an extreme example of a cycle of grief. And but it happens, as Deb was saying, it happens. every hour, maybe three times an hour where you’re doing something that’s good, but then it reminds you of how you used to do that same thing. so, you know, when we talk about and write about cycles of grief, it’s the importance of giving yourself that space to grieve because it’s human. You lost something important and it’s human to let yourself acknowledge that. But then how do you get through that and get back to the good part and not let that grief trap you? And that story from 16 months ago in New York is sort of the, that’s the poster child, but it happens in big ways and small ways every day, 10 times a day. Bill Gasiamis (42:00)Sadness is a thing that happens to people all the time and it’s about knowing how to navigate it. And I think people generally lack the tools to navigate sadness. They lack the tools to ⁓ deal with it, to know what to do with it. But I think there needs to be some kind of information put out there. Like you’re sad. Okay. So what does it mean? What can it mean? What can you do with it? How can you transform it? Is it okay to sit in it? ⁓ What have you guys learned about the need for sadness in healing? Debra and Steve (42:35)grief and sadness is so important and through the really once it’s an hour. The Importance of Sadness in Healing From my perspective, I have learned a ton about sadness because I don’t have a good relationship with sadness. In most cases, it’s a great thing. just, you know, I’m a cup is nine tenths full person all the time and I tend to see the positive and that’s often very good. But it makes it really hard for me to live with other people’s sadness without trying to solve the problem. Bill Gasiamis (43:12)Hmm. Debra and Steve (43:35)And we actually came up with a phrase because sometimes if I get positive when Deb is sad, it just pisses her off. She doesn’t want to be talked out of it. And so we now talk about that dynamic as toxic positivity because, you know, most people think of positivity as such a positive thing. And yet If someone needs to just live in sadness for a little while, positivity can be really toxic. And I think that’s been my greatest learning, maybe growth is sort of understanding that better. I still fall into the trap all the time. devil tell you there are way too many times when, you know, my attempts to cheer her up are not welcomed. but at least I’m aware of it now. ⁓ And a little less likely to go there quite as quickly. Bill Gasiamis (44:38)Hmm. What I, what I noticed when people were coming to see me is that it was about them. They would come to see me about them. It wasn’t about me and what they made them do. What made what their instinct was, was to, if I felt better, they felt better and all they wanted to do was feel better and not be uncomfortable and not be struggling in their own ⁓ mind about what it’s like. to visit Bill who’s unwell. And that was the interesting part. It’s like, no, no, I am feeling unwell. I am going to remain feeling unwell. And your problem with it is your problem with it. You need to deal with how you feel about me feeling unwell. And I appreciate the empathy, the sympathy, the care I do. But actually, when you visit me, it shouldn’t be about you. It shouldn’t be, I’m gonna go and visit Bill. and I hope he’s well because I don’t want to experience him being unwell. It should be about you’re just gonna go visit Bill however you find him, whatever state he’s in, whatever condition he’s in, and therefore ⁓ that I think creates an opportunity for growth and that person needs to consider how they need to grow to adapt to this new relationship that they have with Bill. ⁓ which is based now around Bill’s challenges, Bill’s problems, Bill’s surgery, Bill’s pos- the possibility that Bill won’t be around in a few months or whatever. Do you know what I mean? So it’s like, ⁓ all, all the, ⁓ the well-meaning part of it is well received, but then it’s about everyone has a, has to step up and experience growth in this new relationship that we have. And some people are not willing to do it and then they don’t come at all. They’re the people who I find other most interesting and maybe ⁓ the most follow their instincts better than everybody where they might go, well, I’m going to go and say, Bill, he’s all messed up. ⁓ I don’t know how I’m going to deal with that. can’t cope with that. And rather than going there and being a party pooper or not knowing what to say or saying the wrong thing, maybe I won’t go at all. And they kind of create space. Debra and Steve (46:58)So. Bill Gasiamis (47:01)for your recovery to happen without you having to experience their version of it. Debra and Steve (47:09)Yeah, that’s it. That’s really interesting to hear you talk about it that way. And I would say very generous to hear you talk about it that way, because most of the time when we’ve heard people talk about it’s that because people talk about the fact that because other people don’t know what to say, they don’t say anything or they don’t come. But that then creates an isolation that’s unwanted. You’re talking about it as a, maybe that’s a good thing. They’re giving me space, given their skill or willingness to deal with it. Whereas I think a lot of people feel that when people just disappear because they don’t know what to say, that’s a lack of caring and a lack of engagement. ⁓ interesting to hear your take on it. think there’s a close cousin to this that Deb felt very intensely is that some people in the attempt to be understanding and supportive really took on an air of pity. And that there were some people that that we had to ask not to come if they couldn’t change how they were relating to Deb because it was such a like, ⁓ you poor thing that was incredibly disempowering. Whereas there were other people who had the skill to be empathetic in a supportive way. And so, I mean, in some ways, I think we’ve learned a lot, not that we necessarily do it right all the time, but we’ve learned a lot about how to try to support other people by what has and hasn’t worked in supporting us. Bill Gasiamis (49:20)Yeah, it’s a deeply interesting conversation because people get offended when they need people the most that don’t turn up. And I, and I understand that part of it as well. And then in, in time, ⁓ I was, I was like that at the beginning, but then in time, I kind of realized that, okay, this is actually not about me. It’s about them. They’re the ones struggling with my condition. They don’t know how to be. And maybe it’s okay for them. not to be around me because I wouldn’t be able to deal with their energy anyway. ⁓ yeah. So Deb, what made you turn to advocacy? What made you decide that you’re gonna be an advocate in this space? Finding Purpose Through Advocacy Debra and Steve (50:08)⁓ Feeling purpose and meaning. Survivors? Yes. And caregivers? Yes. Really a lot of risky is really… ⁓ medical, medical. Yeah. I mean, I I, I know what Deb is trying to say, which is, you know, once she got past the life threatening part and kind of on her way and was relatively independent, she was drawn back to saying, I want to live a life that has meaning and purpose. And so how in this new state, can I do that? And Deb, as I’m sure you know by now, doesn’t think small, she thinks big. And so what she’s saying is, yes, I want to help other people, other survivors, other care partners, but really we need a better system. Like I can only help so many people by myself, but if we can actually advocate for a better healthcare system in the United States that treats stroke differently. then maybe we can make a difference for a lot of people. that’s kind of the journey we’re on now. the survivors and caregivers, advocacy is so important to California or even the state. Building the Stroke Onward Foundation Bill Gasiamis (52:05)Yeah, advocacy is very important ⁓ and I love that I Love that you become an advocate and then you find your purpose and your meaning you don’t set out to Find your purpose and your meaning and then think what should I do to find my purpose of my meaning it tends to catch Catch go around the other way. I’m gonna go and help other people and then all of a sudden it’s like, ⁓ this is really meaningful I’m enjoying doing this and raising awareness about that condition that we’ve experienced and the challenges that we are facing. And wow, why don’t we make a change on a as big a scale as possible? Why don’t we try to influence the system to take a different approach because it’s maybe missing something that we see because we’re in a different, we have a different perspective than the people who are providing the healthcare, even though they’ve got a very big kind of, you know, their purpose is to help people as well. their perspective comes from a different angle and lived experience, I think is tremendously important and ⁓ missed and it’s a big missed opportunity if ⁓ lived experience is not part of that defining of how to offer services to people experiencing or recovering a stroke or how to support people after they’ve experienced or recovering from a stroke. ⁓ I love that. So that led you guys to develop the foundation, stroke onward. it a foundation? it a, tell us a little bit about stroke onward. Debra and Steve (53:42)In US jargon, we’d call it a nonprofit. Generally, foundations are entities that have a big endowment and give money away. We wish we had a big endowment, but we don’t. We need to find people who want to support our work and make donations to our nonprofit. And yeah, we now have a small team. ⁓ Deb and I given our age, given that we’re grandparents, we were hoping not to be 24 sevens. So needed people who were good at building nonprofits who were a little earlier in their careers. And we’ve got a small team, a CEO, a program manager and a couple of part-time people ⁓ who are running a bunch of programs. We’re trying to stay focused. We’re trying to build community with stroke survivors, care partners, medical professionals. We’ve got an online community called the Stroke Onward Community Circle that we just launched earlier this year. We’re hosting events, ⁓ some in medical settings that we call Stroke Care Onward to really talk with both ⁓ a diverse group of medical professionals, as well as survivors and care partners about what’s missing in the system and how it can be improved. ⁓ And then a program that we call the Stroke Monologues, which is sort of a a TEDx for stroke survivors where survivors, care partners, medical professionals can really tell their story of the emotional journey in recovery. And we want to use all of that to sort of build a platform to drive system change. That’s kind of what we’re trying to build with Stroke Onward. Bill Gasiamis (55:32)I love that. I love that TEDx component of it. ⁓ People actually get to talk about it and put out stories and content in that way as well. Debra and Steve (55:35)Yeah. ⁓ Yeah. Denver, Pittsburgh, ⁓ Boston, and Oakland and San Francisco. We’ve now done six shows of the stroke monologues and a big part about our work in the coming year. is really trying to think about how that might scale. can we, you know, it’s a very time consuming and therefore expensive to host events all the time. So how we can work with other organizations and leverage the idea ⁓ so that more people can get on stage and tell their story. ⁓ Also how we capture those stories on video and how we can do it virtually. So that’s a big part of what the team is thinking about is, you know, how do we Cause you know, at the end of the day, we can only do as much as we can raise the money to hire the people to do. So, that, that developing a strategy that hopefully can scale and track the resources that it takes to make more impact. That’s kind of job one for 2026. Bill Gasiamis (57:05)Yeah, I love it. Lucky you haven’t got enough jobs. That’s a good job to have though, right? ⁓ So if you were sitting, if you guys were both sitting with a couple just beginning this journey, what would you want them to know? What’s the first thing that you would want them to know? Debra Meyerson – Advice for New Stroke Survivors Debra and Steve (57:12)Yeah. Don’t have a stroke. Bill Gasiamis (57:28)Profound. Debra and Steve (57:29)Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I think, you know, it’s a journey and think of it as a journey and try to get as much as much of your capabilities back as you can. But don’t think of recovery as just that. It’s a much broader journey than that. It’s rebuilding identity. It’s finding ways to adapt. to do the things you love to do, to do the things that bring you meaning and purpose and create that journey for yourself. Nobody else’s journey is gonna be the right model for yours. So give yourself the time, space, learn from others, but learn from what’s in your heart as to the life you wanna build with the cards you’ve been dealt. Bill Gasiamis (58:25)Yeah. What are some of the practices or habits that have helped you guys as a couple, as partners stay connected? Debra and Steve (58:34)⁓ It’s, it’s hard. mean, and we’ve gone through phases, ⁓ where I think, you know, in some ways early on after the stroke, we may have been as close or closer than we’ve ever been. as Deb got better ironically and wanted to do more. Bill Gasiamis (58:39)You Debra and Steve (59:01)that created a different kind of stress for us. ⁓ stress is the key. No, stress is not the beauty. I had so much stress. Yeah. And sometimes I say stress is a function of the gap between aspiration and capability and while Deb’s capabilities keep growing, I think maybe her aspirations grow faster. And the question then says, how do you fill that gap? And so I think Deb struggles with that. And then for me, a big struggle is, so how much do I change my life to support Deb in filling that gap versus the things I might want to do that I still can do? So. You know, when Deb decided to write a book, I really wasn’t willing to give up my other nonprofit career, which was very meaningful to me. And I felt like I was midstream, but we had to find other ways in addition to my help nights and weekends to get Deb help so she could write the book she wanted to write. Whereas when the book came out and we decided to create Stroke Onward, that was a different point in time. And I was sort of willing to. cut back from that career to come build something with Deb. So I think again, we hate to give advice because everybody’s journey is different, but things change and go with that change. Don’t get locked into a view of what the balance in relationship should be. Recognize that that’s gonna be a never ending process of creating and recreating and recreating a balance that works for both of us. Bill Gasiamis (1:01:04)Hmm. What’s interesting. Some of the things that I’ve gone through with my wife is that I’ve kind of understood that she can’t be all things that I needed to be for me. And I can’t be all things that she needs me to be for her. And we need to seek that things where we lack the ability to deal to provide those things for the other person. The other person needs to find a way to accomplish those tasks needs, have those needs met, whatever with in some other way. for example, my whole thing was feeling sad and I needed someone to talk me through it and my wife wasn’t skilled enough to talk me through it, well, it would be necessary for me to seek that support from somebody else, a counselor, a coach, whomever, rather than trying to get blood out of a stone, somebody who doesn’t have the capability to support me in that way. Why would I expect that person to… all of a sudden step up while they’re doing all these other things to get through the difficult time that we were going on to that we’re dealing with. So that was kind of my learning. was like, I can’t expect my wife to be everything I need from her. There’ll be other people who can do that. Who are they? And that’s why the podcast happened because I’ve been talking about this since 2012 and since 2012 and ⁓ well, yeah, that’s 2012 as well. 2012 anyhow. ⁓ I’ve been talking about it since. Debra and Steve (1:02:41)You’re both our roles. You’re saying it and then correcting yourself. Bill Gasiamis (1:02:45)Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I have a part of me that corrects me as I go along in life. Yeah. Sometimes I don’t listen to it. ⁓ but today was a good one. The thing about it is I have a need, a deep need to talk about it all the time. That’s why I’ve done nearly 400 episodes and those 400 episodes are therapy sessions. Every time I sit down and have a conversation with somebody and I, and even though my wife has a I, ⁓ masters in psychology. I wouldn’t put her through 400 conversations about my stroke every single day or every second day. You know, it’s not fair because it’s not her role. I, ⁓ I talked to her about the things that we can discuss that are important, for the relationship and for how we go about our business as a couple. But then there’s those other things that. she can’t offer her perspective because only stroke survivors know how to do that. And I would never want her to know how to ⁓ relate to me having had a stroke and having the deficits that I have and how it feels to be in my body. I would never want her to be able to relate to me. So ⁓ it’s, that’s kind of how I see, you know, the couple dynamic has to play out. have to just honor the things that each of us can bring to the table and then go elsewhere to ⁓ have our needs met if there’s needs that are left unmet. Debra and Steve (1:04:23)Yeah. Really. Well, it’s good to know that if this is a ⁓ helpful therapy session for you, you won’t mind if we send you a bill. Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (1:04:32)Yeah. Yeah. Send it along with the book. Just put it in the front cover and then, and then I’ll make a payment. ⁓ Well guys, it’s really lovely to meet you in person and have a conversation with you. Have the opportunity to share your mission as well. Raise awareness about the book, raise awareness about stroke onward. I love your work. ⁓ And I wish you all the best with all of your endeavors, personal, professional, not for profit. And yeah, I just love the way that this is another example of how you can respond to stroke as individuals and then also as a couple. Debra and Steve (1:05:18)Yeah, thank you. Well, and we hope you’ll join our online community and that includes the opportunity to do live events. yes. And maybe there are some additional therapy sessions. Yes. On our platform and chat with people and well, all over the place. So yeah, please join us. Bill Gasiamis (1:05:43)That sounds like a plan. Well, that’s a wrap on my conversation with Deborah and Steve. If Deborah’s slow fall off a cliff description resonated with you, leave a comment and tell me what part of your recovery has been the hardest to explain to other people. And if you’re a care partner, I’d love to hear what you needed most early on. You’ll find the links to Deborah and Steve’s work, their book, identity theft and their nonprofit stroke onward in the show notes. And if you’d like to go deeper with me, grab my book, The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened via recoveryafterstroke.com/book. Also, you can support the podcast on Patreon by going to patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke. Thank you for being here. And remember, you’re not alone in this journey. 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The world's eyes are on Venezuela one day after the U.S. military captured Venezuelan President Maduro and brought him to the U.S. on drug trafficking charges. Profound questions remain after Trump's repeated statements that the U.S. will "run" Venezuela, while Rubio on Sunday described a more indirect but intense pressure campaign. Feature Story News reporter Mary Triny Mena reports from Caracas. PBS News is supported by - https://www.pbs.org/newshour/about/funders. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy

The world's eyes are on Venezuela one day after the U.S. military captured Venezuelan President Maduro and brought him to the U.S. on drug trafficking charges. Profound questions remain after Trump's repeated statements that the U.S. will "run" Venezuela, while Rubio on Sunday described a more indirect but intense pressure campaign. Feature Story News reporter Mary Triny Mena reports from Caracas. PBS News is supported by - https://www.pbs.org/newshour/about/funders. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy

My guest today did some significant healing at a psilocybin ceremony at a retreat center in Mexico. She takes us there and explains why she was able to heal in that environment in ways she hadn't before. You'll also hear how and why she does psychedelic work as a therapist. Dr. Cheryl Tien, PsyD, is a licensed clinical psychologist who helps individuals navigate grief, identity, and life transitions with a culturally attuned, trauma-informed approach. She specializes in psychedelic integration—supporting clients in making meaning of experiences with medicines like MDMA and psilocybin in a grounded, evidence-based way. Her work centers on safety, ethics, and translating profound experiences into sustainable change in everyday life. Here's some of what we talked about: Deciding to get licensed, and the pros and cons of that as a psychedelic facilitator Advocating for psychedelic medicine accessibility Grieving the loss of a former client to suicide Getting racially assaulted Having fears, visuals and nightmares as a result of stressful events Hitting the limits of talk therapy in her own healing Choosing to attend a psilocybin ceremony retreat in Mexico Why the medicine is 10% of the experience Her internal experience during the ceremony Doing a sweat lodge the following day How she decides when to do a psychedelic journey and what medicine she needs Being "spiritually hopeful" Her advice to people new to psychedelics healing generational trauma Show notes at https://rebeltherapist.me/podcast/254  

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In a recent Harvard Business Review article, Scott Cook, cofounder of Intuit, and Professor Nitin Noharia discussed how to enhance customer value. The article highlighted CEO of RELX, Erik Engstrom. Engstrom has been asking his team customer-obsessed questions for twenty years. Some of Engstrom's profound questions include: “How does the customer measure value? How do ... The post Profound Questions appeared first on Unconventional Business Network.

A weekly magazine-style radio show featuring the voices and stories of Asians and Pacific Islanders from all corners of our community. The show is produced by a collective of media makers, deejays, and activists. A weekly magazine-style radio show featuring the voices and stories of Asians and Pacific Islanders from all corners of our community. The show is produced by a collective of media makers, deejays, and activists. APEX Express and Lavender Phoenix are both members of AACRE, Asian Americans for Civil Rights and Equality. AACRE focuses on long-term movement building, capacity infrastructure, and leadership support for Asian Americans and Pacific Islanders committed to social justice.   To learn more about Lavender Phoenix, please visit their website. You can also listen to a previous APEX Express episode honoring Lavender Phoenix's name change.    Miata Tan: ​[00:00:00] Hello and welcome. You are tuning in to APEX Express, a weekly radio show uplifting the voices and stories of Asian Americans. I am your host, Miata Tan. And before we get started, I wanted to let you know that this show was recorded on December 16th, 2025. Things may have changed by the time you hear this. I also wanted to take a moment to acknowledge [00:01:00] some recent gun violence tragedies, not only in the US but globally. As you might be able to tell from my accent, I'm Australian.  Over the weekend, 15 people were killed in Sydney, on Bondi Beach in a mass shooting. The likes not seen in 30 years. . Australia's gun control laws are different to the US in a number of ways that I won't get into right now, but this massacre is one of the few we've seen since the nineties. In the US we've also seen the shooting at Brown University where two of their students were killed by a still active shooter. It's strange. Guns and weapons are horrific. Tools used to take the life of people every day globally. An everyday occurrence now brings a degree of complacency. Although you personally might not have been [00:02:00] impacted by these recent shootings, the wars going on abroad, or government attacks on immigrant communities, and ICE deportation cases taking place here in America, the impact of horrific acts of violence have ripple effects that spread across this country and world. Careless violence motivated by hate for another be that racially charged conflicting ideologies. It's all awful. And I, and I guess I wanted to acknowledge that here at the top of this episode. Profound hatred and judgment toward others is not only incredibly sad, it's self-defeating. And I don't mean to sound all preachy and I understand it's December 25th and perhaps you're sick of the sound of my voice and you're about to change the station. In all honesty, I, I would've by [00:03:00] now. It's easy to tune out suffering. It's easy to tune out violence, but if you're still listening. Today, as many of us are gathering for the holiday ,season, whether or not you believe in a higher power or acknowledge that big guy in a red suit that brings kids presents, I invite you to sit with some of these thoughts. To acknowledge and reflect on the violence that exists around us, the hatred and dehumanization. We as humans are capable of feeling toward one another. Let's just sit here for a moment with that uncomfortability. Now. Think, what can I do today to make another's life [00:04:00] just that tiny bit brighter? Okay. Now to reintroduce myself and this show, my name is Miata Tan and this is APEX Express. A show that honors Asian American communities far and wide, uplifting the voices of artists, activists, organizers, and more. We have two incredible guests today from Lavender Phoenix, a Bay Area based organization supporting queer and trans Asian and Pacific Islander youth. I really enjoyed my conversation with these two, and I'm sure you will as well. And a quick note throughout both of these conversations, you'll hear us referring to the organization as both Lavender Phoenix and it's very cute nickname Lav Nix. Without further ado, here's [00:05:00] my conversation with Yuan Wang, the outgoing director at Lavender Phoenix.   Miata Tan: Yuan, thank you so much for joining us today. Would you be able to share a little bit about yourself with our listeners to get started?  Yuan Wang: Yeah. I'm so excited to be here. , My name is Yuan. My pronouns are she, and they, and I'm actually the outgoing executive director of Lavender Phoenix. You're catching me on my second to last week in this role after about four years as the executive director, and more years on our staff team as an organizer and also as a part of our youth summer organizer program. So this is a really exciting and special time and I'm really excited to reflect about it with you.  Miata Tan: Yay. I'm so excited. I'd love for you to give us an overview of Lavender Phoenix and the work that y'all do, what communities you support,  Yuan Wang: Lavender Phoenix was founded about 21 years ago, and we are based in the Bay [00:06:00] Area. We're a grassroots organization that builds the power of transgender non-binary and queer Asian and Pacific Islander communities right here in the Bay. Right now our work focuses on three major Areas. The first is around fighting for true community safety. There are so, so many ways that queer, trans, and more broadly, uh, working class communities in the San Francisco Bay Area. Are needing ways to keep ourselves and each other safe, that don't rely on things like policing, that don't rely on things like incarceration that are actually taking people out of our communities and making us less safe. The second big pillar of our work is around healing justice. We know that a lot of folks in our community. Struggle with violence, struggle with trauma, struggle with isolation, and that a lot of the systems that exist aren't actually really designed for queer and trans API people, to thrive and feel connected. And [00:07:00] so, we've been leading programs and campaigns around healing justice. And the last thing is we're trying to build a really principled, high integrity leaderful movement. So we do a ton of base building work, which just means that, everyday queer and trans API people in our community can come to Lavender Phoenix, who want to be involved in organizing and political work. And we train folks to become organizers. Miata Tan: And you yourself came into Lavender Phoenix through one of those programs, is that right?  Yuan Wang: Yeah. Um, that is so true. I came into Lavender Phoenix about seven or eight years ago through the Summer organizer program, which is kind of our flagship youth organizing fellowship. And I was super lucky to be a part of that.  Miata Tan: How has that felt coming into Lavender Phoenix? Like as a participant of one of those programs? Yeah. And now, uh, over the past few years, being able to [00:08:00] lead the organization?  Yuan Wang: Yeah. It feels like the most incredible gift. I share this a lot, but you know, when I had come into Lavender Phoenix through the summer organizer program, I had already had some experience, doing organizing work, you know, doing door knocking, working on campaigns. but I really wanted to be in a space where I felt like I could be all of myself, and that included being trans, you know, that included. Being in a really vulnerable part of my gender transition journey and wanting to feel like I was around people all the time who maybe were in a similar journey or could understand that in a really intimate way. I really found that at Lavender Phoenix. It was pretty unbelievable, to be honest. I remember, uh, the first day that I walked in. There were members and volunteers leading a two hour long political education that was just about the histories of trans and non-binary people in different Asian and Pacific Islander communities. So just being in a room [00:09:00] full of people who shared my identities and where, where we were prioritizing these histories was really, really exciting. I think for the years it's just been so amazing to see Lavender Phoenix grow. The time when I joined, we had a totally different name. It was API equality, Northern California, or we called ourselves a pink and we were really focused on projects like the Dragon Fruit Project, which was a, a series of more than a hundred oral histories that we did with elders and other members members of our community. Things like the Trans Justice Initiative, which were our first efforts at really building a community that was trans centered and that was, was building trans leaders. And now those things are so deeply integrated into our work that they've allowed us to be focused on some more, I think what we call like issue based work, and that that is that community safety, healing justice work. That I mentioned earlier. So, it's just been amazing to witness multiple generations of the organization that has shaped [00:10:00] me so much as a person.  Miata Tan: That's really nice. Seven, eight years that, that whole  Yuan Wang: Yeah, I joined in 2018 in June, so you can maybe do, I think that's about seven and a half years. Yeah. I'm bad at math though.  Miata Tan: Me too. So you've been executive director since late 2021 then? This, these few years since then we've seen a lot of shifts and changes in our I guess global political culture and the way conversations around racial solidarity issues mm-hmm. as you've navigated being executive director, what, what has changed in your approach maybe from 2021 till this year? 2025?  Yuan Wang: Wow, that's such an interesting question. You're so right to say that. I think for anyone who's listening, I, I imagine this resonates that the last four years have [00:11:00] been. Really a period of extraordinary violence and brutality and grief in our world. And that's definitely true for a lot of folks in Lavender Phoenix. You mentioned that we've been living through, you know, continued pandemic that our government is providing so little support and recognition for. We've seen multiple uprisings, uh, in the movement for black lives to defend, you know, and, and bring dignity to the lives of people who were killed and are police. And obviously we're still facing this immense genocide in Gaza and Palestine bombings that continue. So I think if there's, if there's anything that I could say to your question about how my approach has changed. I would say that we as a whole, as an organization have had to continue to grow stronger and stronger in balancing our long-term vision. Intensifying urgent needs of right now and [00:12:00] balancing doing the work that it takes to defend our people and try to change institutions with the incredible and at times overwhelming grief of living in this moment. Yeah, you know, in this past year, um. Have been members of our community and, and our larger community who have passed away. Uh, I'm sure there are some listeners who know, Alice Wong, Patty by architects of the disability justice movement that Lavender Phoenix has learned so much from who have passed away. And we've had to balance, you know. Like one week there's threats that the National Guard and that ICE will be deployed and even higher numbers to San Francisco and, and across the Bay Area. And oh my gosh, so many of us are sitting with an incredible personal grief that we're trying to hold too. So, I think that's been one of the biggest challenges of the last few years is, is finding that balance. Yeah. I can say that some of the things that I feel proudest of are, [00:13:00] you know, just as an example, in our healing justice work, over the past four years, our members have been architecting a, a trans, API peer counseling program. And, through that program they've been able to provide, first of all, train up. So many trans API, people as skilled, as attentive, as loving peer counselors who are then able to provide that. Free, uh, accessible peer mental health support to other people who need it. So I think that's just one example. Something that gives me a lot of hope is seeing the way that our members are still finding ways to defend and love and support each other even in a time of really immense grief.  Miata Tan: That's really beautiful and it's important that you are listening to your community members at this time. How do you, this is kind of specific, but how do you all gather together? Yeah, Yuan Wang: yeah. You know, I feel really lucky 'cause I think for the last 10 years we, Lavender Phoenix as a whole, even before I was a part of it, has been [00:14:00] building towards a model of really collective governance. Um, and, and I don't wanna make it sound like it. You know, it's perfect. It's very challenging. It's very hard. But I think like our comrades at Movement generation often say, if we're not prepared to govern, then we're not prepared to win. And we try to take that, that practice really seriously here. So, you know, I think that, that getting together. That making decisions with each other, that making sure that members and staff are both included. That happens at like a really high strategic level. You know, the three pillars of our theory of change that I mentioned earlier, those were all set through a year of strategy retreats between our staff, but also a. 10 to 15 of our most experienced and most involved members who are at that decision making. The same comes for our name, uh, Lavender Phoenix. You know, it was, it was really our core committee, our, our member leaders who helped decide on that name. And then we invited some of our elders to speak about what it meant for them, for us to choose Lavender Phoenix, because it was an homage to the work [00:15:00] so many of our elders did in the eighties and nineties. It also looks like the day-to-day, because a lot of our work happens through specific committees, whether it's our community safety committee or healing justice committee. Um, and those are all committees where there's one staff person, but it's really a room of 5, 10, 15 members who are leading community safety trainings. The peer counseling program, training new members through our rise up onboarding, um, and setting new goals, new strategic targets every single year. So, it's always in progress. We're in fact right now working on some challenges and getting better at it, but we're really trying to practice what governing and self-determination together looks like right in our own organization. Miata Tan: And a lot of these people are volunteers too.  Yuan Wang: yeah, so when I joined the organization there were two staff, two mighty staff people at the time. We've grown to nine full-time staff people, but most of our organization is volunteers. [00:16:00] Yeah. And we call those folks members, you know, committed volunteers who are participants in one of our committees or projects. Um, and I believe right now there's about 80 members in Lavender Phoenix.  Miata Tan: Wow. It's wonderful to hear so much growth has happened in, um, this period that you've been with Lavender Phoenix. The idea of empowering youth, I think is core to a lot of Lavender Phoenix's work. What has that looked like specifically in the last few years, especially this year? Yuan Wang: Yeah, the  Miata Tan: challenges.  Yuan Wang: That's a great question. I think, um, you know, one of those ways is, is really specifically targeted towards young people, right? It's the summer organizer program, which I went through many years ago, and our previous executive director was also an alumnus of the summer organizer program, but that's, you know, an eight to 10 week fellowship. It's paid, it's designed specifically for young trans and queer API people who are working class, who grew up in the [00:17:00] Bay to organize with us and, and really. Hopefully be empowered with tools that they'll use for the next decade or for the rest of their life. But I'll also say, you know, you mentioned that Lavender Phoenix has grown so much in the last few years, and that is such a credit to folks who were here 10 years ago, even 15 years ago, you know, because, the intergenerational parts of our work started years before I was involved. You know, I mentioned earlier the Dragon Fruit Project where we were able to connect so, so many elders in our community with a lot of younger folks in our community who were craving relationships and conversations and like, what happened in the eighties? What happened in the nineties, what did it feel like? Why are you still organizing? Why does this matter to you? And we're actually able to have those conversations with folks in, in our community who. Have lived and fought and organized for decades already. So I think that was like one early way we started to establish that like intergenerational in our work.[00:18:00]  And a lot of those folks have stayed on as volunteers, as supporters, some as members, and as donors or advisors. So I feel really lucky that we're still benefiting in terms of building the leadership of young people, but also intergenerational reality overall because of work that folks did 10 years ago. Miata Tan: That's really important. Having those, those ties that go back. Queer history is so rich, especially in the, in the Bay Area. And there's a lot to honor.  With the intersection between queer and immigrant histories here, I wonder if you have anything that comes to mind. Yuan Wang: I think that queer and immigrant histories intersect in the lives of so many of our, our members and, and the people who are inspiration too. You know, I'm not sure that. I think a lot of listeners may not know that Lavender Phoenix is as a name. It's an homage to Lavender, Godzilla, [00:19:00] and Phoenix Rising, which were two of the first publications. They were newsletters launched back in the eighties by groups of. Uh, trans and queer API, folks who are now elders and who were looking around, you know, learning from the Black Power movement, learning from solidarity movements in the Bay Area, and saying we really need to create spaces where. Trans and queer Asian Pacific Islanders can talk about our journeys of migration, our family's journeys as refugees, our experiences with war, and then also about love and joy and finding friendship and putting out advertisements so that people could get together for potlucks. So yeah, I think, um, there's so much about the intersection of immigrant and queer and trans journeys that have been. Just even at the root of how we name ourselves and how we think of ourselves as an or as an organization today.  Miata Tan: I think today, more than ever all of these [00:20:00] communities feel a little more than a little under threat,  Yuan Wang: we could say so much about that. I think one thing that we're really paying attention to is, uh, we're seeing in different communities across the country, the ways in which the right wing is. Uh, kind of wielding the idea of trans people, uh,  the perceived threat that trans people pose. As a wedge issue to try to build more more power, more influence, more connections in immigrant communities and in the process like really invisiblizing or really amplifying the harm that immigrant, trans and queer. People experience every single day. So I think something that we're thinking about on the horizon, you know, whether it's, uh, partnering with organizations in California or in the Bay Area or across the country who are doing that really critical base building work, power building work in immigrant communities is trying to ask, you know. How do we actually proactively as [00:21:00] progressives, as people on the left, how do we proactively have conversations with immigrant communities about trans and queer issues, about the, uh, incredibly overlapping needs that trans and queer people in all people who are marginalized right now have in these political conditions? Um, how can we be proactive about those combinations and making those connections so that, we can kind of inoculate folks against the way that the right wing is targeting trans people, is fear mongering about trans people and trying to make inroads in immigrant communities. Yeah. That's one thing on our radar for the future. Miata Tan: That's so important. Kind of, breaking down those, those stereotypes Yuan Wang: totally breaking down stereotypes, breaking down misinformation. And yeah, it reminds me of a few years ago Lavender Phoenix held a few conversations with a partner organization of ours where there were some younger folks from our organization who are talking to some older immigrant members of that organization and we're just [00:22:00] connecting about, the sacred importance of, parenting trans and queer kids right now of, you know, and, and just having conversations that actually humanize all of us rather than buying into narratives and stories that that dehumanize and, and that flatten us. Yeah. Um, so that we can defend ourselves from the way that the right wing is trying to hurt immigrant communities and trans and queer communities. Miata Tan: the youth that you work directly with each week. Is there anything as you reflect back on your, your time with Laxs that really stand out, things that folks have said or led conversations in?  Yuan Wang: Oh my gosh. Yeah. I mean, I, I could, I could celebrate things that I've witnessed every single year. You know, we the young people in the summer organizer program experience so, so much in, in many ways it's kind of like the faucets, like all the way on, you know, like there's, [00:23:00] they're learning so much about skills and values and projects and, you know, just as some examples this last summer, we had a team of summer organizers who helped lead an event that was about COVID safety and disability justice, where people actually got together to build DIY air filters that could hopefully, you know, make them feel safer in their own homes. And, um, in previous years we've had summer organizers work on the peer counseling program. There's so much that folks have done. I think what I actually hear year after year is oftentimes the thing that sticks out the most, it isn't necessarily just the project, it isn't necessarily like the hard skill training. It's people saying every single week during our team check-ins, someone shared an affirmation with me. I felt more seen. It's people saying, you know, I didn't expect that we were gonna do a three hour training. That was just about why it's so important [00:24:00] to ask for help and why that can be so, so difficult for, um, for queer and trans young folks. It's folks saying, you know, even speaking for myself actually. I remember being a summer organizer and one of, uh, my close friends now one of our elders, Vince spoke on a panel for us and, talked about what it was like to be young during the height of the hiv aids crisis, you know, when the government was neglecting to care for folks and so many members of our community were dying without care, were, were passing away without support. And all of the lessons that Vince took from that time holds now, decades later that still make him feel more hopeful, more committed, more full as a person. Um, that meant so much to me to hear when I was 21 and, still feeling really scared and really lonely, about the future. So I think it's those, I, I wouldn't even call them like softer skills, but the [00:25:00] incredible st. Sturdiness and resilience that building long-term relationships creates that seeing people who show you a potential path, if it's been hard to imagine the future. And that building the skills that make relationships more resilient. I feel like it's those things that always stand out the most to a lot of our young people. And then to me, I see them grow in it and be challenged by those things every single year. I feel really good. 'cause I know that at the end of the summer organizer program, there's a group of young, queer and trans API rising leaders who are gonna bring that level of rigorous kindness, attentive attentiveness to emotions, um, of vulnerability that creates more honesty and interdependence. They're gonna be taking that to an another organization, to another environment, to another year in our movement. That makes me feel really happy and hopeful.  Miata Tan: Yes. Community.  Yuan Wang: Yeah.  Miata Tan: . [00:26:00] Looking towards that bright future that you, you shared just now Tina Shelf is coming on as the executive director. What are your hopes for 2026 Yuan Wang: yeah. You know, I'm, I'm so excited that we're welcoming Tina and we're really lucky because Tina joined us in August of this year. So we've had a good, like five months to overlap with each other and to really, um, for all of us, not just me, but our staff, our members, to really welcome and support Tina in onboarding to the role. I feel incredibly excited for Lavender Phoenix's future. I think that in this next year, on one hand, our Care Knock Cops campaign, which has been a huge focus of the organization where uh, we've been rallying other organizations and people across San Francisco to fight to direct funding from policing to. To protect funding that's being threatened every year for housing, for healthcare, for human services that people really [00:27:00] need. I think we're gonna see that campaign grow and there are so many members and staff who are rigorously working on that every single day. And on the other hand, I think that this is a time for Lavender Phoenix to really sturdy itself. We are in we're approaching, the next stage of an authoritarian era that we've been getting ready for many years and is in other ways as so many folks are saying new and unprecedented. So I think, um, a lot of our work in this next year is actually making sure that our members' relationships to each other are stronger, making sure that, responsibility, is shared in, in, in greater ways that encourage more and more leadership and growth throughout our membership so that we are more resilient and less res reliant on smaller and smaller groups of people. I think you're gonna see our program and campaign work continue to be impactful. And I'm really hopeful that when we talk again, maybe in two years, three years, five years, we're gonna be [00:28:00] looking at an organization that's even more resilient and even more connected internally.  Miata Tan: It's really important that y'all are thinking so long term, I guess, and have been preparing for this moment in many ways. On a personal note, as you are coming to an end as executive director, what's what's next for you? I'd love to know.  Yuan Wang: Yeah, that's such a sweet question. I'm going to, I'm gonna rest for a little bit. Yeah. I haven't taken a sustained break from organizing since I was 18 or so. So it's been a while and I'm really looking forward to some rest and reflection. I think from there. I'm gonna figure out, what makes sense for me in terms of being involved with movement and I'm, I'm certain that one of those things will be staying involved. Lavender Phoenix as a member. Really excited to keep supporting our campaign work. Really excited to keep supporting the organization as a whole just from a role that I've never had as a volunteer member. So, I'm just psyched for that and I can't [00:29:00] wait to be a part of Lavender Phoenix's future in this different way.  Miata Tan: Have fun. You'll be like on the other side almost. Yeah,  Yuan Wang: totally. Totally. And, and getting to see and support our incredible staff team just in a different way.  Miata Tan: One final question As you are sort of moving into this next stage, and this idea of community and base building being so incredibly important to your work and time with Lavender Phoenix, is there anything you'd like to say, I guess for someone who might be considering. Joining in some way or Yeah. Where they could get involved, but they're not, not quite sure. Yuan Wang: Yeah, absolutely. Um, I think that if you are a queer and trans, API person who is looking for community, um, looking to channel what you care about into action, looking to be with other people who care about you Lavender Phoenix is here. [00:30:00] And I think that there is no more critical time. Than the one we're in to get activated and to try to organize. ‘Cause our world really needs us right now. The world needs all of us and it also really needs the wisdom, the experience, and the love of queer and trans people. So, I will be rejoining our membership at some point and I'd really like to meet you and I hope that we get to, to grow in this work and to, um, to fight for our freedom together. Miata Tan: Thank you so much. We, this was a really lovely conversation.  Yuan Wang: Yeah, thank you so much And also welcome Tina. Good luck. [00:31:00] [00:32:00] [00:33:00]  Miata Tan: That was the Love by Jason Chu, featuring Fuzzy. If you're just joining us, you are tuned into APEX Express on 94.1 KPFA, 89.3 KPFB in Berkeley, 88.1 KFCF in Fresno and [00:34:00] online@kpfa.org. I am your host, Miata Tan, and today we are joined by the Lavender Phoenix team at a transitional point in the organization's story. Our next guest is Tina Shauf-Bajar, the incoming director of this local organization, supporting queer and trans Asian and Pacific Islander Youth. As a reminder throughout this conversation, you'll hear us referring to the org as both Lavender, Phoenix and Lani.     Miata Tan: Hi Tina. Tina Shauf-Bajar: Hi Miata.  Miata Tan: How you going today? Tina Shauf-Bajar: I'm doing well, thank you. How are you? Miata Tan: Yeah, not so bad. Just excited to speak with you. tell me more about yourself what's bringing you into Lavender Phoenix. Tina Shauf-Bajar: Sure, sure. Well I am the incoming executive director of Lavender Phoenix. Prior to this, I was working at the California Domestic Workers Coalition [00:35:00] and had also worked at the Filipino Community Center and, um, have done some grassroots organizing, building, working class power, um, over the last 20 years, of my time in the Bay Area. And I've been alongside Lavender Phoenix as an organization that I've admired for a long time. Um, and now at the beginning of this year, I was I had the opportunity to apply for this executive director position and talked with un, um, had a series of conversations with UN about, um, what this role looks like and I got really excited about being a part of this organization. Miata Tan: That's super cool. So you, you, you weren't quite in the space with Lavender Phoenix, but moving alongside them through your work, like what were what were the organizations that you were part of when you were, were working in tandem, I guess. Tina Shauf-Bajar: Well the organization that I feel like is most, most closely, relates with Lavender. Phoenix is, [00:36:00] um, Gabriela, which is a Filipino organization. It's a Filipino organization that's a part of a national democratic movement of the Philippines. And we advance national democracy in the Philippines. And, liberation for our people and our homeland. Sovereignty for our homeland. And Gabriela here in the US does organizing with other multi-sectoral organizations, including like migrant organizations, like Ante and youth organizations like Naan and we organize in diaspora. And the reason for that is because many of our families actually leave the Philippines due to, um, corrupt government governance, um, also like foreign domination and exploitation and plunder of our resources. And so many of us actually have to leave our countries to, to survive. And so we're still very connected. Gabriela is still very connected to, [00:37:00] um, the movement in the Philippines. And yeah, so we're advancing liberation for our people and have been alongside Lavender Phoenix for many years. And here we are. Miata Tan: That's beautiful. I love hearing about, all of these partnerships and, and colLavoration works that happen in the San Francisco Bay Area and, and beyond as well. it sounds like you're speaking from a personal place when you talk about, um, a lot of these immigrant communities. Could you speak more to your family background and what brings you into this? Tina Shauf-Bajar: The, the fight for immigrant justice? So I was born in the Philippines and um, I spent my childhood and adolescent since the, in the South Bay of LA and then came here to the Bay Area in the year 2000. Flashing back to when my parents immigrated here, my dad's family first came to the US um, by way of the Bay Area in the late sixties and [00:38:00] early seventies. My dad actually was a few years after he had arrived, was uh, drafted into the military so that they can send him to Vietnam, but instead of going to Vietnam, he took the test to go into the Air Force and traveled everywhere in the Air Force and ended up in the Philippines and met my, met my mom there. And so. That became like they got married and they had me, I was born in the Philippines. I have a younger sibling. And, um, and I think, um, growing up in, in a working class immigrant neighborhood black and brown neighborhood, um, it was always important to me to like find solidarity between. Between communities. I actually grew up in a neighborhood that didn't have a lot of Filipinos in it, but I, I felt that solidarity knowing that we were an immigrant family, immigrant, working class family. And when I was in [00:39:00] college, when I went to college up in, in Berkeley, um, that was the time when the war on Iraq was waged by the US. I got really I got really curious and interested in understanding why war happens and during that time I, I feel like I, I studied a lot in like ethnic studies classes, Asian American studies classes and also, got involved in like off campus organizing and um, during that time it was with the Filipinos for Global Justice Not War Coalition. I would mobilize in the streets, in the anti-war movement during that time. Um, and from there I met a lot of the folks in the national democratic movement of the Philippines and eventually joined an organization which is now known as Gabriela. And so. That was my first political home that allowed me to understand my family's experience as [00:40:00] immigrants and why it's important to, to advance our rights and defend our, defend our people. And also with what's happening now with the escalated violence on our communities it. It's our duty to help people understand that immigrants are not criminals and our people work really hard to, to provide for our families and that it's our human right to be able to work and live in dignity, uh, just like anyone else. Miata Tan: You are speaking to something really powerful there. The different communities that you've been involved with, within the Filipino diaspora, but who are some other immigrant folks that you feel like have really helped shape your political awakening and, and coming into this space, and also how that leads into your work with Lav Nix today?  Tina Shauf-Bajar: When I was working at the Filipino [00:41:00] community center that gave me a, gave me a chance to learn to work with other organizations that were also advancing, like workers' rights and immigrant rights. Many centers in San Francisco that, um, work with immigrant workers who. Wouldn't typically like fall into the category of union unionized workers. They were like workers who are work in the domestic work industry who are caregivers, house cleaners and also we worked with organizations that also have organized restaurant workers, hotel workers. In like non-union, in a non-union setting. And so to me I in integrating in community like that, it helped me really understand that there were many workers who were experiencing exploitation at really high levels. And that reregulate like regulation of, um, Lavor laws and things like that, it's like really. [00:42:00] Unregulated industries that really set up immigrant workers in, in really poor working conditions. Sometimes abusive conditions and also experiencing wage theft. And for me, that really moved me and in my work with Gabriela and the community and the Filipino Community Center, we were able to work with, um. Teachers who actually were trafficked from the Philippines. These teachers actually, they did everything right to try to get to the, the US to get teaching jobs. And then they ended up really paying exorbitant amount of, of money to like just get processed and make it to the us. To only find themselves in no teaching jobs and then also working domestic work jobs just to like survive. And so during that time, it really like raised my consciousness to understand that there was something bigger that wa that was happening. The, [00:43:00] the export of our people and exploitation of our people was happening, not just at a small scale, but I learned over time that. Thousands of Filipinos actually leave the Philippines every day just to find work and send money back to their families. And to me that just was like throughout my time being an activist and organizer it was important to me to like continue to, to like advance poor, working class power. And that I see that as a through line between many communities. And I know that like with my work in Lav Nix that the folks who experience it the most and who are most impacted by right-wing attacks and authoritarianism are people who are at the fringes. And born working class trans and queer people. Within our [00:44:00] sector. So yeah. Being rooted in this, in this principle of advancing foreign working class power is really core to my to my values in any work that I do. Miata Tan: What are some other key issue Areas you see that are facing this community and especially queer folks within Asian American communities today? Tina Shauf-Bajar: The administration that we're under right now works really hard to drive wedges between. All of us and, um, sewing division is one of the t tactics to continue to hoard power. And with Lavender Phoenix being a trans and queer API organization that's building power, it's important for us to understand that solidarity is a thing that that's gonna strengthen us. That that trans and queer folks are used as wedges in, in [00:45:00] conservative thinking. I'm not saying that like it's just conservatives, but there's conservative thinking in many of our cultures to think that trans and queer folks are not, are not human, and that we deserve less and we don't deserve to be recognized as. As fully human and deserve to live dignified lives in our full selves. I also know that locally in San Francisco, the API community is used as a wedge to be pitted against other communities. Let's say the black commun the black community. And, um, it's important for us as an organization to recognize that that we, we can position ourselves to like wield more solidarity and be in solidarity with, with communities that are experiencing the impacts of a system that continues to exploit our people and [00:46:00] continues to view our people as not fully deserving. Not fully human and that our people deserve to be detained, abducted, and deported. That our people deserve to not be taken care of and resourced and not have our basic needs like housing and food and healthcare and it impacts all of us. And so, I see our responsibility as Lavender Phoenix, and, and in the other organizing spaces that I'm a part of that it, it is our responsibility to expose that we are not each other's enemies. Hmm. And that we are stronger in fighting for our needs and our dignity together. Miata Tan: Community. [00:47:00] Community and strength. I'm thinking about what you said in terms of this, the API solidarity alongside queer folks, alongside black and brown folks. Do you have a, perhaps like a nice memory of that, that coming together? Tina Shauf-Bajar: So one of the most consistent, things that I would go to, that's, that Lavender Phoenix would, would lead year after year in the last 10 years is Trans March. And my partner and I always make sure that we mobilize out there and be with Laxs. And it's important to us to be out there. in more recent trans marches. Just with a lot of the escalation of violence in Gaza and ongoing genocide and also just the escalated attacks on on immigrants and increased right and increased ice raids. [00:48:00] And and also the, we can't forget the police, the Police killings of black people. And I feel like at Trans March with Lavender Phoenix, it's also a way for us to come together and you know, put those messages out there and show that we are standing with all these different communities that are fighting, repression, And it's always so joyful at Trans March too. We're like chanting and we're holding up our signs. We're also out there with or you know, people, individuals, and organizations that might not be politically aligned with us, but that's also a chance for us to be in community and, and show demonstrate this solidarity between communities. Miata Tan: It's so beautiful to see. It's, it's just like what a colorful event in so many ways. Uh, as you now step into the director role at Lav [00:49:00] Nix, Lavender Phoenix, what are you most excited about? What is 2026 gonna look like for you? Tina Shauf-Bajar: I am most excited about integrating into this organization fully as the executive director and I feel so grateful that this organization is trusting me to lead alongside them. I've had the chance to have conversations with lots of conversations since, since my time onboarding in August through our meetings and also like strategy sessions where I've been able to connect with staff and members and understand what they care about, how they're thinking about. Our our strategy, how we can make our strategy sharper and more coordinated, um, so that we can show up in, in a more unified way, um, not just as an organization, but, but as a part of a larger movement ecosystem that we're a part of [00:50:00] and that we're in solidarity with other organizations in. So I am looking forward to like really embodying that.  it takes a lot of trust for an organization to be like, look, you, you weren't one of our members. You weren't a part of our staff prior to this, but we are trusting you because we've been in community and relationship with you and we have seen you. And so I just feel really grateful for that. Miata Tan: For an organization like Lav Nix, which with such a rich history in, in the Bay Area is there anything from. That history that you are now taking into 2026 with you? Tina Shauf-Bajar: Yeah, I mean, I think in seeing how Lavender Phoenix has transformed over the last 10 years is really not being afraid to transform. Not being afraid to step even more fully into [00:51:00] our power. The organization is really well positioned to yeah, well positioned to build power in, in a larger community. And so I, I feel like I've seen that transformation and I get to also, I get to also continue that legacy after UN and also the previous leaders before that and previous members and staff, um, we stand on the, on their shoulders. I stand on their shoulders. it's so beautiful, like such a nice image. Everyone together, yeah, no, totally. I mean, just in the last few weeks, I, I've connected with the three executive directors before me. And so when I say. I stand on their shoulders and like I'm a part of this lineage I still have access to. And then I've also been able to connect with, you know with a movement elder just last week where I was like, wow, you know, I get [00:52:00] to be a part of this because I'm now the executive director of this organization. Like, I also get to inherit. Those connections and I get to inherit the work that has been done up to this point. And I feel really grateful and fortunate to be inheriting that and now being asked to take care of it so. and I know I'm not alone. I think that's what people keep saying. It's like, you're not, you know, you're not alone. Right. I'm like, yeah. I keep telling myself that. It's true. It's true, it's true. Miata Tan: Latinx has a strong core team and a whole range of volunteers that also aid in, in, in your work, and I'm sure everyone will, everyone will be there to make sure that you don't like the, the, the shoulders are stable that you're standing on. Tina Shauf-Bajar: Totally, totally. I mean, even the conversations that I've been a part of, I'm like, I'm the newest one here. Like, I wanna hear from you, [00:53:00] like, what, how are you thinking about this? There is so much desire to see change and be a part of it. And also so much brilliance like and experience to being a part of this organization. So yeah, absolutely. I'm not alone. Miata Tan: One final question as with youth really being at the center of, of Lav Nix's work. Is there something about that that you're excited just, just to get into next year and, and thinking about those, those young people today that are you know, maybe not quite sure what's going on, the world looks a little scary. Like what, what can, what are you excited about in terms of helping those, those folks? Tina Shauf-Bajar: Well, for a long time I, I worked with youth years ago before I before I found myself in like workers justice and workers' rights building working class power. I also worked with working class [00:54:00] youth at one point, and I, I was one of those youth like 20 years ago. And so, I know what my energy was like during that time. I also know how I also remember how idealistic I was and I remember how bright-eyed it was. And like really just there wasn't openness to learn and understand how I could also be an agent of change and that I didn't have to do that alone. That I could be a part of something bigger than myself. And so so yeah, I think that like wielding the power of the youth in our communities and the different sectors is I think in a lot of ways they're the ones leaving us, they know, they know what issues speak to, to them. This is also the world they're inheriting. they have the energy to be able to like and lived experience to be able to like, see through change in their lifetime. And you know, I'm, [00:55:00] I'm older than them. I'm older than a lot of them, but, I also can remember, like I, I can look back to that time and I know, I know that I had the energy to be able to like, you know, organize and build movement and, and really see myself as, as a, as someone who could be a part of that. My first week here in, in August I actually was able to, to meet the, the, um, summer organizer, the summer organizers from our program. And I was, it just warms my heart because I remember being that young and I remember, remember being that like determined to like figure out like, what is my place in, in organizing spaces. So they were the ones who really like, radically welcomed me at first. You know, like I came into the office and like we were co-working and they were the ones who radically welcomed me and like showed me how they show up in, in, um, [00:56:00] Lav Nix Spaces. I learned from them how to fundraise, like how Lavender Phoenix does it, how we fundraise. And um, one of them fundraised me and I was like, I was like, how can I say no? Like they yeah. That we need that type of energy to keep it fresh. Miata Tan: something about that that, um. It is exciting to think about when thinking about the future. Thank you so much for joining us, Tina. This was such a beautiful conversation. I'm so excited for all of your work. Tina Shauf-Bajar: Thank you so much.  Miata Tan: That was Tina Shauf-Bajar, the incoming executive director at Lavender Phoenix. You can learn more about the organization and their fantastic work at LavenderPhoenix.org. We thank all of you listeners out there, and in the words of Keiko Fukuda, a Japanese American judoka and Bay Area legend, “be strong, be [00:57:00] gentle, be beautiful”. A little reminder for these trying times. For show notes, please check our website at kpfa.org/program/APEX-express. APEX Express is a collective of activists that includes Ayame Keane-Lee, Anuj Vaidya, Cheryl Truong, Jalena Keane-Lee, Miko Lee, Miata Tan, Preeti Mangala Shekar and Swati Rayasam. Tonight's show was produced by me, Miata Tan. Get some rest y'all. Good night. The post APEX Express – 12.25.25 -A Conversation with Lavender Phoenix: The Next Chapter appeared first on KPFA.

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Andrew Humberman BioSnap a weekly updated Biography.Andrew Huberman, the Stanford neuroscientist powering the worlds top health podcast, has been buzzing with podcast drops that blend brain science and raw humanity over the past week. On December 22, Huberman Lab released a gripping three-plus-hour episode with artist David Choe, diving deep into transforming pain and trauma into creative fuel, touching on hope, faith, even Santa Claus, as noted on the official Huberman Lab site. Just days earlier, on December 18, he unveiled a goal-setting hack episode urging listeners to visualize failure for success, highlighted by Apple Podcasts as a bombshell from Huberman Lab Essentials.The real standout came December 17 via PRNewswire, when Huberman guested on Punk Rock Sober, chatting profound topics like fear, gratitude, addiction, and punk rock sobriety with host Tyler Ramsey and his nine-year-old son River. This groundbreaking multigenerational talk, released December 15 and now on YouTube, redefined norms with Hubermans humble insights on bravery as showing up amid fear, landing big with recovery crowds.A niche ripple hit December 19 on YouTube, where SunPowerLEDs Tom Kerber reviewed Hubermans recent two-part interview with Dr. Glen Jeffery on light therapy for brain health, concussions, PTSD, even dementia and Parkinsons, praising its vision-boosting potential. No major public appearances or business moves surfaced, and social media buzz stays steady with fans on Huberman Lab praising his digestible science. Unconfirmed whispers of broader LED therapy expansions linger from that review, but nothing verified. Hubermans quiet dominance in neuroscience chatter continues, no scandals, just science that sticks.Get the best deals https://amzn.to/3ODvOtaThis content was created in partnership and with the help of Artificial Intelligence AI

What happens when AI becomes your most influential referrer?As consumers turn to ChatGPT for answers, James Cadwallader and his team at Profound help brands like Eight Sleep and MongoDB gain visibility and leverage inside AI models.On this episode of Grit, he explains why brand narrative has shifted away from content, and why Profound is scaling globally ahead of traditional SaaS timelines.Guest: James Cadwallader, co-founder and CEO of Profound and Ilya Fushman, partner at Kleiner PerkinsConnect with James CadwalladerX: https://x.com/thejamescad?lang=enLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/jsca/​Connect with Ilya FushmanX: https://x.com/ilyafLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ilyafushman/Connect with JoubinX: https://x.com/JoubinmirLinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/joubin-mirzadegan-66186854/Email: grit@kleinerperkins.comFollow on LinkedIn:https://www.linkedin.com/company/kpgritFollow on X:https://x.com/KPGrit​Learn more about Kleiner Perkins: https://www.kleinerperkins.com/

Send us a textStart with a candid reality check: the leading HR association just lost a racial discrimination and retaliation case, and the verdict wasn't small. We unpack what an $11.5M judgment against SHRM means for credibility, compliance, and the daily work of HR practitioners who've been told to trust the “authority” voice on fairness and DEI. If the standard-bearer fails its own standard, how should we rethink where we place our time, money, and learning?We walk through the essentials: what the plaintiff alleged, how the court weighed treatment and retaliation, and why the optics of a hard push to appeal could prolong pain without repairing trust. Then we get practical. If dues and big-tent conferences aren't delivering real value, how do we build a better PD stack? We talk labor and employment law briefings, focused workshops, and choosing events that sharpen practice rather than inflate brand. Expect an unvarnished lens on HR keywords that matter right now—DEI credibility, retaliation risk, workplace investigations, and organizational accountability.To lighten the load, we run an AI-assisted tour of our own year: weaponized incompetence finally clicking for teams, HR through pop culture that teaches better than white papers, and a grab bag of unhinged workplace moments we handled with restraint. We also call time on rage-bait content and the algorithm that rewards outrage more than insight. Our answer isn't performative—just better habits, clearer choices, and PD that respects your attention.If you care about ethical HR, compliance that actually works, and professional development that pays off, this one's for you. Hit follow, share with a colleague who needs a sanity check, and leave a short review telling us where you're investing your learning next.Support the showWe want to hear from you.Text us or leave a voicemail (252) 564-9899‬email: feedback@jadedhr.comWant to:* Share a dumb employee question* Share a crazy story* Ask us a question* Share a best practice * Give us feedback Our Link Tree below has links to our social media sites, Patreon, Apple podcasts, Spotify & more.Please leave a review on your favorite podcast player and interact with us online!Linktree - https://linktr.ee/jadedhrFollow Cee Cee on IG - BoozyHR @ https://www.instagram.com/boozy_hr/

Shōhei Imamura's 1968 epic Profound Desires of the Gods is a brilliant, dizzying, extremely complex drama/satire focusing on a Japanese island in transition. The film focuses on one family on the island, a group of highly inbred people, and how the whole island reacts when post-WWI modernity starts to come to the island.In other words, Profound Desires is just the kind of strange, heady and often surreal movie Eric and Jason love to talk about for this podcast. And talk they do, with 75 minutes of attempts to wrangle this unwieldy masterpiece into some kind of shape...

Ceasefire and Post-War Legacy — James Holland — Holland describes the final ceasefire order received at a German farmyard, evoking the profound mixture of "immense relief and overwhelming grief" experienced by surviving regiment members who had endured years of combat and witnessed countless comrades' deaths. Hollandtraces the post-war lives of veterans including Arthur Reddish and John Semken, documenting their transition from combat to civilian life and the lasting psychological impact of sustained warfare. Holland concludes by noting that the Sherwood Rangers Yeomanry continues to exist in contemporary Britain as an integral component of the Royal Yeomanry, maintaining institutional continuity and commemorating the regiment's extraordinary combat history and sacrifice during World War II.

In May 1921, American polymath Walter Russell entered a 39-day coma-like state, during which he claimed to have accessed “the source of all knowledge.” Upon awakening, he frantically wrote down what he had seen—pages filled with philosophical, scientific, and spiritual revelations that would later form the foundation of his manuscript *The Universal One*. Though he sent his findings to 500 leading minds of the time, nearly all dismissed him as mad—except one. Nikola Tesla, the visionary inventor, was so struck by Russell's insights that he urged him to seal the work away for a thousand years, insisting that humanity was not yet ready for its truths.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Rev. Lilada Gee shares from a deep place of self-reflection about how to best spend her life as she faced cancer. She details the importance of travel and cultures in the last year. Lilada shares about her recent trip to South Africa in order to mentor other Black women, including Kay Hawkins, who also joins the show talk about her experience as a young woman. It was Kay's first international trip and also her 21st birthday. Lilada is surely passing along a passion for travel, learning from African culture, and building a community of empowered women. Learn more about opportunities with Rev. Lilada Gee.

For The Other Side NDE Videos Visit ️ youtube.com/@TheOtherSideNDEYT Purchase our book on Amazon The Other Side: Stories From the Afterlife https://a.co/d/23Bbbsa  The crash happened in seconds, but Holden's awareness drifted into a place untouched by fear—a place where he felt held, understood, and completely unburdened. The light he encountered seemed to communicate without words, offering a sense of truth he'd never felt in life. Coming back to his body was the real shock, leaving him with questions that wouldn't leave him alone. Over the years, new sensations, insights, and a later encounter with that same presence slowly revealed that the experience had only just begun. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

Health care strategist Dana Y. Lujan discusses her article, "Grief and leadership in health care." Dana shares her devastating personal story of losing both her son's father and, six years later, her only son, Joey, and how this profound grief exposed the failures of the health care system when faced with pain that cannot be captured by a diagnostic code. She describes her own experience (including a suggested 72-hour psychiatric hold) and how the system offered labels like complicated grief and PTSD but not true understanding. Dana contrasts this with her career in health care leadership, arguing that true compassion and resilience must be redefined by those who have experienced profound loss. She explains why leadership must move beyond metrics to address the hidden grief in our clinics and boardrooms and how persistence is about surrendering to growth, not just "pushing through." Discover how she learned to lead herself through unimaginable pain and turn that perspective into purpose. Our presenting sponsor is Microsoft Dragon Copilot. Want to streamline your clinical documentation and take advantage of customizations that put you in control? What about the ability to surface information right at the point of care or automate tasks with just a click? Now, you can. Microsoft Dragon Copilot, your AI assistant for clinical workflow, is transforming how clinicians work. Offering an extensible AI workspace and a single, integrated platform, Dragon Copilot can help you unlock new levels of efficiency. Plus, it's backed by a proven track record and decades of clinical expertise, and it's part of Microsoft Cloud for Healthcare, built on a foundation of trust. Ease your administrative burdens and stay focused on what matters most with Dragon Copilot, your AI assistant for clinical workflow. VISIT SPONSOR → https://aka.ms/kevinmd SUBSCRIBE TO THE PODCAST → https://www.kevinmd.com/podcast RECOMMENDED BY KEVINMD → https://www.kevinmd.com/recommended

Continuing our journey through the Living Steps we are exploring the principles of the last three of 12 steps and how they are really expressions of the fundamental ideas of Pnimius HaTorah and Chassidus.Openning our exploration of step 12, Menachem explores the terms spiritual awakening and spiritual experience and how they reflect two parts of the journey of recovery and the the journey of a person embracing the light of Torah as reflected in the teachings of Pnimius HaTorahWebsite: TheLightRevealed.orgEmail: TheLightRevealed@TLRFamily.orgFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/thelightrevealed/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thelightrevealed/

In this transformative episode of The CJ Moneyway Sh$w, CJ sits down with Jill Amy Sager, a gifted tarot reader, channeler, and author of Guidance from the Universe: Hopeful Messages for Everyday Challenges. Jill opens up about her journey — from facing personal struggles and moments of doubt, to discovering her calling as a spiritual guide who helps others heal through intuition, energy, and divine connection. Together, they explore how the smallest mindset shifts can unlock massive transformation, and how to stay grounded even when life feels uncertain. In this episode, you'll discover: • How to listen when the Universe speaks through you • The spiritual practices that fuel healing and balance • Why hope is the most underrated superpower • The difference between “forcing success” and “flowing with purpose” • How Jill helps others reconnect to their inner voice and spiritual power “The Universe is always talking to you — you just have to be still enough to listen.” — Jill Amy Sager Listen now → https://pod.link/1707761906 Watch on YouTube → https://youtube.com/@themoneywayshow8493 Connect with Jill → jillamysager.com #TheCJMoneywaySh$w #JillAmySager #GuidanceFromTheUniverse #SpiritualHealing #MindsetShift #Motivation #FaithAndFocus #BleavNetwork Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

8/8. Global Bird Consciousness and Human Responsibility — Steven Moss — Moss concludes by emphasizing that birds represent profound indicators of planetary ecological health and human stewardship. Moss argues that human societies have repeatedly demonstrated catastrophic ecological mismanagement—from deliberate species eradication campaigns to inadvertent pesticide-driven collapse of insect populations supporting avian food chains. Moss stresses that contemporary climate-driven extinctions represent an acceleration of anthropogenic ecological destruction. Mossemphasizes that conservation requires fundamental shifts in human consciousness regarding our responsibility to non-human species and ecosystem integrity, using birds as both biological indicators and moral catalysts for sustainable civilization transformation. 1848

Neil Taylor joins the show to follow up with J on the ongoing conversation about mindfulness education. They discuss Neil's entrance into practice, the importance of solitude, quality of presence, Thich Nhat Hang, the Satipattana Sutta, the end of suffering, inner bliss and demons, ignorance and true nature, cessation, self and no-self, levels of awareness, distinguishing between mindfulness and meditation, mysticism and the secular, neurological patterning, energy bodies, letting the mystery be, and embodying compassion.   To subscribe and support the show… GET PREMIUM. Say thank you - buy J a coffee. Check out J's other podcast… J. BROWN YOGA THOUGHTS.    

Ep. 703: Mr. Harrison's Confessions | Chapters 25-231 Book talk begins at 19:44 Elopements, mistaken romances, and surprise weddings? Yes. ALL of that. --------------------------------------------------------------- 0:00 - Start 01:48 - Don't forget to send us your crafty videos 03:08 - BOOKMARKS sign up closed - if you made a bookmark and didn't sign up, email Heather@craftlit.com 03:40 - Game of Wool a review on Nimble Needles, interview (pre-show) with a real Fair Isle knitter, and Gordon's explanation of: (a) What happened on the show (b) steeking. 07:23 - GOOD EATS IS BACK?! Alton Brown Cooks Food 08:50 - Saw Nuremberg— I found Charles Burns'—the editor's—papers Of Doug Kelly's book "22 Cells in Nuremberg," but I believe they're jpgs of every page—please share if you find a better copy https://collections.ushmm.org/search/catalog/irn501848?rsc=112566&cv=1&x=1352&y=1746&z=3.3e-4),also saw Death by Lightning—very funny until it's not. Trailer: Death by Lightning | Official Trailer | Netflix - and How Accurate was Netflix's "Death by Lightning?" – Episode 1: Garfield's Nomination —the one character I thought was a composite in Nuremberg was not: Howard Triest Howard Triest Documentary (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Howard_Triest#cite_note-6). He was portrayed by Leo Woodall in the 2025 film Nuremberg. 14:07 - Frankenstein—Non-gory scenes by request: Elizabeth non-gory scene with meeting Creature https://youtu.be/1rO8QDtsvNA?si=m2Ls0B9GXLmHDGJr (Actress Mia Goth, Harriet from Anya Taylor Joy's Emma) Short of Elizabeth's costumes https://youtube.com/shorts/2S9SqvN_5aA?si=Q-meab1xvqiG2CgM, Someone edited together her entire character arc from when the creature is awakened to her end—100% no gore: https://youtu.be/OUezG3wmwHE?si=HtbMGoXXaF3zTrmn, Jacob Elordi's transformation in the makeup chair: https://youtube.com/shorts/UbrtReRi408?si=qYlbDdsVZtRNpJ1T+ for this short—which is nearly the whole film—close your eyes for a long blink when you see the shower of sparks fly in the laboratory. You'll skip the only semi-gruesome 1 second cut: https://youtube.com/shorts/aUfoXryGQR0?si=gO96SXPs1tYbu8Tp 17:03 - BUYER BEWARE link on Substack 17:31 - New Listening options COMING SECOND WEEK OF DECEMBER—better-than-Patreon: Supercast If you're having issues with CraftLit.com's Premium pages, please let us know! Heather@Craftlit.com (put TECH SUPPORT in the subject line) BOOK TALK 19:44 - Book talk 19:53 - WE NEED A MY LADY LUDLOW READER! 24:19 - Jenny Lind - HUGELY famous Swedish opera singer, often called the "Swedish Nightingale 25:10 - Prolix—too many words 27:40 - Fermented brined pickles have probiotics—share any recipes you like! 29:39 - CHAPTER AUDIO chapters 25–31 Miscellaneous 1:00:46 - December 18th—Last Book Party of 2025, 8 pm Eastern: Dec Book Party — Lamb: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal (book) 01:02:34 - Making the Profane, Profound - interview with Christopher Moore, author of Lamb: https://youtu.be/1ZBuWQqIgEk?si=aI0aZqt96WP1bFa_ 1:04:10 - Free movie on December 4th—It's a Wonderful Life, on Discord in the Free movie channel, 8 pm Eastern *CraftLit's Socials* • Find everything here: https://www.linktr.ee/craftlitchannel • Join the newsletter: http://eepurl.com/2raf9 • Podcast site: http://craftlit.com • Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CraftLit/ • Facebook group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/craftlit • Pinterest: https://www.pinterest.com/craftlit/ • TikTok podcast: https://www.tiktok.com/@craftlit • Email: heather@craftlit.com • Previous CraftLit Classics can be found here: https://bit.ly/craftlit-library-2023 *SUPPORT THE SHOW!* • CraftLit App Premium feed bit.ly/libsynpremiumcraftlit (only one tier available) • PATREON: https://patreon.com/craftlit (all tiers, below) ——Walter Harright - $5/mo for the same audio as on App ——Jane Eyre - $10/mo for even-month Book Parties ——Mina Harker - $15/mo for odd-month Watch Parties *All tiers and benefits are also available as* —*YouTube Channel Memberships* —*Ko-Fi* https://ko-fi.com/craftlit —*NEW* at CraftLit.com — Premium Memberships https://craftlit.com/membership-levels/ *IF you want to join a particular Book or Watch Patry but you don't want to join any of the above membership options*, please use PayPal.me/craftlit or CraftLit @ Venmo and include what you want to attend in the message field. Please give us at least 24 hours to get your message and add you to the attendee list. • Download the FREE CraftLit App for iOS or Android (you can call or email feedback straight from within the app) • Call 1-206-350-1642

No amount of small, blind, and gradual changes to the steam engine could ever have produced the internal combustion engine. To get to that fundamentally new type of engine, an infusion of new information was required. That analogy can be applied to the origin of biological life too. The spectacular order, complexity, and design we see in life could not have been achieved gradually by a process that lacked foresight. On today's ID The Future, host Andrew McDiarmid welcomes mathematician Granville Sewell to the podcast to share some of his compelling arguments for intelligent design. We might think that mathematicians are focused on incredibly complex ideas and equations, way above the everyday thoughts of the rest of us. But as Sewell points out, mathematicians are trained to value simplicity, and complex problems can often be solved in simple ways. Sewell's straightforward, yet profound arguments for intelligent design are worth memorizing and sharing with your friends, family, and associates. Source

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Professor George Is Right: Principle Sustains American Conservatism. Peter Berkowitz reviews Professor Robert George's assertion that American conservatism's core principle is the profound, inherent, and equal dignity of each human family member. George insisted that the movement must unequivocally reject white supremacists and anti-Semites, a rebuke directed at the Heritage Foundation president's defense of Tucker Carlson. This mirrors William F. Buckley's efforts to purge extremism from conservatism. Guest: Peter Berkowitz. 1856

Guest Bios Show Transcript Recently, Willow Creek Community Church—one of the most influential churches in modern evangelical history—celebrated its 50th anniversary. For five decades, the Chicago-area megachurch has shaped how churches look, lead, and measure success through its seeker-sensitive model and corporate-style leadership. But as Willow Creek marks this milestone, its story is no longer just one of innovation and influence; it's also one of profound damage.

Welcome to Day 2736 of Wisdom-Trek, and thank you for joining me. This is Guthrie Chamberlain, Your Guide to Wisdom – Theology Thursday – The Profound Meaning of "The Name" of the Lord Wisdom-Trek Podcast Script - Day 2736 Welcome to Wisdom-Trek with Gramps!   I am Guthrie Chamberlain, and we are on Day 2736 of our Trek.   The Purpose of Wisdom-Trek is to create a legacy of wisdom, to seek out discernment and insights, and to boldly grow where few have chosen to grow before. Our current series of Theology Thursday lessons is written by theologian and teacher John Daniels. I have found that his lessons are short, easy to understand, doctrinally sound, and applicable to all who desire to learn more of God's Word. John's lessons can be found on his website   theologyinfive.com.   Today's lesson is titled The Profound Meaning of “The Name” of the Lord    Understanding the theology of the Ancient Near East is paramount to fully grasp biblical concepts, and the interpretation of “The Name” of the Lord is no exception. God chose to reveal Himself to Abraham and create the nation of Israel within this culture. Because of this, He revealed Himself in ways that would make sense to believers. In the Ancient Near East, the term “Shem” in Hebrew represents far more than a mere title; it encapsulates the very essence, character, authority, and reputation of God. Let's explore this further and then delve into how this understanding impacts our interpretation of the commandment against taking the Lord's name in vain. “The Name” as Divine Essence   In the Ancient Near East, a deity's name was considered to be the embodiment of the divine essence. Likewise, in the Bible, “The Name” of the Lord represents God Himself. This can be seen in Proverbs 18:10: “The Name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run into it and are safe.” Here, “The Name” is equivalent to God's protective power and presence. “The Name” as Manifested Presence   The Name also symbolizes God's manifested presence among His people. When Solomon built the Temple, he believed it to be a dwelling place for God (1 Kings 8:13). However, God clarified that His Name would dwell there, thus emphasizing that His presence transcends physical boundaries. “The Name” as Divine Authority   Invoking a deity's name in the Ancient Near East was a way of drawing on divine authority. Similarly, in the biblical text, “The Name” of the Lord signifies His authority. The misuse of the Lord's Name is cautioned against in Exodus 20:7, underlining the gravity of disrespecting God's authority. “The Name” as Divine Reputation   In Ancient Near East cultures, a deity's name often represented their reputation. In the biblical context, God's Name is a reflection of His character, faithfulness, and commitment to His covenant. As Psalm 23:3 notes, the Lord acts for His Name's sake, demonstrating consistency between His actions and His reputation. Implications for Understanding the Commandment Against Taking the Lord's Name in Vain   With a deeper understanding of “The Name” embodying the essence, presence, authority, and reputation of God, we can reinterpret the commandment against taking the Lord's Name in vain (Exodus 20:7). This commandment is not simply about using God's Name carelessly or disrespectfully in speech. It carries a much broader and deeper meaning. When we take into account the Ancient Near East understanding of “The Name”, to take the Lord's name in vain could imply denying or diminishing God's essence,...

Paul Gregory argues that Lee Harvey Oswald's primary motive was a profound belief that he was special and destined for greatness, fostered by his mother. Gregory insists Oswald is often underestimated, highlighting his achievements as a master manipulator who deceived the Soviets and planned the General Walker assassination attempt. A secondary but major factor was Marina, who constantly scorned his intelligence and manhood, making him feel worthless. Oswald's trial was meant to be his glorious moment to demonstrate his brilliance to the world and Marina. Killing the president offered a way to prove himself to his wife and establish himself as a historical figure. Guest: Paul Gregory. 1961

TakeawaysCreating epic experiences is essential for building relationships.Having an invitation ready can facilitate connections.Being a convener allows for exponential relationship growth.Shared experiences create a sense of belonging.Hosting dinners can lead to incredible relationships.Invite people to events to foster community.The act of inviting can lead to unforeseen opportunities.Relationships often develop from casual gatherings.Showing care through invitations enhances social bonds.Creating experiences is a valuable investment of time.Sound Bites"Always have an invitation in your back pocket.""You don't do it for transactional value.""Show up and show that you care." Michael Trainer has spent 30 years learning from Nobel laureates, neuroscientists, and wisdom keepers worldwide. He's the author of RESONANCE: The Art and Science of Human Connection (March 31, 2026), co-creator of Global Citizen and the Global Citizen Festival, and host of the RESONANCE podcast.Featured in Forbes, Inc, Good Morning America. Follow on YouTube

PREVIEW. Weightlessness Effects on Human Vision and Mars Travel Implications. Bob Zimmerman discusses a NASA study regarding the profound effect of weightlessness on the human eye. The study, looking at 28 individuals from long ISS missions, found about half had vision problems because the eye flattens in weightlessness. Though previous studies noted bone and cardiovascular issues, this new discovery found that women had less of this specific problem than men. Mitigating these effects is required for Mars travel. Retry

Canadian National Unity and Alberta's Grievances Guest: Conrad Black Conrad Black reports on a debate between former Prime Ministers Jean Chrétien and Stephen Harper regarding Canadian national unity, focusing on Alberta's profound discontent. Resource-rich Alberta feels unfairly treated and prevented from profiting from oil and gas development due to federal opposition to pipeline construction. Harper warned of serious national problems if the new government, led by Prime Minister Mark Carney, remains inflexible on energy policy. Black notes that while Canada's political institutions are durable, flexibility is required to maintain unity and coherence across diverse regions. GREENLAND

Boyd Varty is the founder of Track Your Life, which offers a limited number of premium retreats in South Africa's bushveld, and author of one of my favorite books, The Lion Tracker's Guide to Life. As a fourth-generation custodian of Londolozi Game Reserve, Boyd grew up with lions, leopards, snakes, and elephants and has spent his life in apprenticeship to the natural world. He is also the host of the Track Your Life podcast.This episode is brought to you by:Our Place's Titanium Always Pan® Pro using nonstick technology that's coating-free and made without PFAS, otherwise known as “Forever Chemicals”: https://fromourplace.com/tim (use code TIM at checkout) Gusto simple and easy payroll, HR, and benefits platform used by 400,000+ businesses: https://gusto.com/tim (three months free)Wealthfront high-yield cash account: https://Wealthfront.com/Tim (new clients get 3.75% base APY from program banks + additional 0.65% boost for 3 months on your uninvested cash (max $150k balance). Terms apply. The Cash Account offered by Wealthfront Brokerage LLC (“WFB”) member FINRA/SIPC, not a bank. The base APY as of 9/26/25 is representative, can change, and requires no minimum. Tim Ferriss, a non-client, receives compensation from WFB for advertising and holds a non-controlling equity interest in the corporate parent of WFB. Experiences will vary. Outcomes not guaranteed. Instant withdrawals may be limited by your receiving firm and other factors. Investment advisory services provided by Wealthfront Advisers LLC, an SEC-registered investment adviser. Securities investments: not bank deposits, bank-guaranteed or FDIC-insured, and may lose value.)*Timestamps:[00:00:00] Start.[00:01:59] Boyd returns.[00:03:14] Elite firefighting unit: Boyd's French Foreign Legionnaire predecessor.[00:04:27] The paper mache lion incident and Lucky's dramatic exit.[00:08:07] Firefighting drill disaster: When 50/50 failed spectacularly.[00:09:58] Leadership lesson: Bringing energy down when chaos climbs.[00:11:52] Story hunting and the natural world as meaning machine.[00:17:16] Uncle JV: Wildlife filmmaker with a dangerous drama meter.[00:19:10] Camera bearing adventures: Elephants, hyenas, and the red mist.[00:22:30] Zambia expeditions: Crocodiles, dead elephants, and shovel oars.[00:25:48] Orienting toward safety: Building capability versus childhood overwhelm.[00:29:11] Wilderness retreat lessons: Wordlessness and natural state.[00:31:40] The Londolozi time war: Tech detox and parasympathetic shifts.[00:39:49] Mystical animal encounters: Lions, southern boubous, and synchronicity.[00:43:11] Re-enchantment: Nature's desire to help us heal.[00:45:25] Following non-rational energy and forays into wordlessness.[00:52:31] Diana Chapman's Whole-Body Yes and avoiding the simmering six.[00:58:04] Toby Pheasant and the great black mamba escape.[01:06:09] Training for persistence hunting using Bushman Great Dance wisdom.[01:09:23] The desert as storehouse: Abundance psychology in action.[01:11:23] Persistence hunt mechanics: Heat, time, and the animal's energy transfer.[01:15:04] Running into ceremony: 47 degrees and letting the body know.[01:21:31] The kudu gives itself: Profound respect at the edge of survival.[01:27:22] Seeking the wild man: Access to the full spectrum of presence.[01:29:20] Context and discernment: Armor in cities, openness in wild spaces.[01:34:55] Men need men: Collective exploration around the fire.[01:37:40] Relationship as practice: Moving from romantic myth to active work.[01:40:15] Dick jokes and raft building: The indirect work that does heavy lifting.[01:45:43] Lunch the baboon: Hand lotion, bloody handprints, and royal delays.[01:55:43] Living amongst the animals: Warthog intelligence and leopard relationships.[01:57:27] Parting thoughts.*For show notes and past guests on The Tim Ferriss Show, please visit tim.blog/podcast.For deals from sponsors of The Tim Ferriss Show, please visit tim.blog/podcast-sponsorsSign up for Tim's email newsletter (5-Bullet Friday) at tim.blog/friday.For transcripts of episodes, go to tim.blog/transcripts.Discover Tim's books: tim.blog/books.Follow Tim:Twitter: twitter.com/tferriss Instagram: instagram.com/timferrissYouTube: youtube.com/timferrissFacebook: facebook.com/timferriss LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/timferrissSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.