Podcasts about ptsd

Patreon preview. Unlock full episode at https://www.patreon.com/stavvysworld Jourdain Fisher joins the pod to discuss his new special Bits & Pieces (out now on Youtube), Lindsey Graham's hell, his divorced dad's air hockey table, his and Stav's humble early stand-up days in NYC, breaking his leg in a trampoline park as an adult, and much more. Jourdain and Stav help callers including a man who's bitter that his wife's vanity business is losing money, and a man grappling with severe PTSD after his dog fatally jumped off a building and landed in front of a group of children. Watch Jourdain Fisher's new special Bits & Pieces out now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWMUM_myE38 See Jourdain Fisher live and follow him on social media: https://jourdainfisher.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jourdainfisher/ https://www.tiktok.com/@jfishercomedy https://www.facebook.com/Jfishercomedy/ https://www.youtube.com/@JourdainFisherComedy https://twitter.com/jfishercomedy ☎️ Want to be a part of the show? Call 904-800-STAV and leave a voicemail to get advice!  

In this episode of Behind the Bite, Dr. Cristina Castagnini sits down with therapist, educator, and author Tamie Gangloff to explore the profound intersection of chronic illness, eating disorders, and substance use. After being diagnosed with scoliosis as a child and struggling with the shame of being told she had a "deformity," Tamie developed a deeply distorted relationship with her body and food, eventually turning to alcohol as a way to cope with severe self-consciousness. Through an open and honest conversation about her non-linear journey—which involved medical trauma, multiple spinal surgeries, and navigating inadequate insurance coverage—Tamie shares how identifying her underlying medical PTSD was the key to unlocking true recovery. This episode serves as an insightful resource for anyone seeking to understand how physical ailments shape identity and why professional, trauma-informed support is essential on the path to healing. SHOW NOTES: Click here Follow me on Instagram @behind_the_bite_podcast Visit the website: www.behindthebitepodcast.com Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

Jay Gunkelman has read more than half a million brain scans — and this week he and host Pete Jansons open the Brain Bar with a claim that sounds impossible: your brain is lying to you about time itself. In the experiments Jay walks through, a person's body reacts emotionally to an image seconds BEFORE a random generator has even chosen which image they'll see. From there the panel takes your live questions across the map: the anxiety medications that quietly dig a two-year hole, kids told to remove part of their brain for epilepsy who turned it around another way, what autism, ADHD and addiction secretly share on an EEG, and how your alpha rhythm changes across your whole life. Plus Joshua Moore's intro to QEEG phenotypes — and Josh's own story of beating "incurable" torticollis after Walter Reed told him he'd end up in a wheelchair.

Some of life's toughest battles aren't fought on the battlefield—they're fought within. In this unforgettable episode of The ToosDay Crüe, host Cagney welcomes Brandon Burton, a retired U.S. Army veteran whose 20-year military career included two deployments to Afghanistan, seven years as an instructor, and leading soldiers as a Company Commander. Brandon's experiences shaped more than his military career—they transformed his understanding of leadership, humility, responsibility, and what it truly means to care for the people entrusted to you. Inspired by becoming a grandfather, Brandon wrote Authority Without Control, a memoir that goes beyond traditional military stories. Rather than focusing solely on combat, he shares powerful lessons about servant leadership, personal accountability, healing from trauma, fatherhood, marriage, and the lifelong pursuit of becoming a better leader. Throughout the conversation, Brandon discusses: • Why leadership is about influence—not control • Lessons learned from Afghanistan • Toxic leadership versus servant leadership • Transitioning from military to civilian life • PTSD, self-care, and asking for help • Building trust inside organizations and families • The inspiration behind Authority Without Control • Advice for young leaders beginning their journey Whether you're a veteran, first responder, business owner, manager, coach, parent, or someone searching for practical leadership wisdom, this episode delivers authentic stories and meaningful takeaways that extend far beyond the military. Featured Guest Brandon Burton • Retired U.S. Army Veteran • Combat Engineer • Afghanistan Veteran • Leadership Author • Speaker • Author of Authority Without Control In This Episode • Serving after 9/11 • Combat engineering • Military leadership • Company command • Building strong teams • Leading with humility • Healing after service • Becoming a grandfather • Writing a leadership memoir • Lessons every leader should know If this episode inspired you, please follow the show, leave a rating, and share it with someone striving to become a better leader. Every download helps us continue bringing authentic conversations to the Misfit Nation community. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

JJ Hardy gave the Army 18 years of his life, including 35 months in combat. He came home with a 100% disability rating, a PTSD diagnosis, and a transition he describes as "very, very messy." No clear mission. No sense of identity. Just the quiet, disorienting weight of trying to figure out who he was without the uniform. In this episode, JJ opens up about what it actually took to climb out of that place, and how he learned to flip post-traumatic stress into what he calls post-traumatic growth. He and Jon dig into the gap between military leadership and what often passes for leadership in the civilian world, and why JJ walked away from job after job because he refused to abandon the people counting on him, a value straight out of "never leave a fallen comrade." JJ also shares his philosophy of training your mind the same way you'd train for combat: same discipline, same reps, same commitment. Because if you want the fight to go a certain way, you have to train for it, mentally included. This conversation is grounded, practical, and honest about what healing actually requires. JJ now runs Victory Leadership Coaching and hosts the Speak Up, Show Up, Lead podcast, helping other veterans and leaders do the same work he had to do on himself. If you've ever felt like your training prepared you for everything except what came after, this episode is for you.

Antoinette Berrafato is a U.S. Army veteran and former Air Assault medic with 11 years of service.After a traumatic brain injury, spinal damage, and PTSD left her relying on a walker, service dog, and full-time caregiver, she rebuilt her life as a sponsored adventure athlete. Antoinette now shares her step-by-step recovery framework as the ‘Take Back Your Health From Chronic Illness' movement with audiences worldwide.She hosts the New Normal Big Life Podcast, named a Top 10 Health & Fitness Podcast by PodMatch, and is the health and wellness columnist at Culturs Magazine, reaching 1.5 million readers in over 200 countries.Off the mic, Antoinette enjoys life in the Midwestern Northwoods with her family, tending their river homestead, and pursuing adventure sports.

In this episode of Behind the Bite, Dr. Cristina Castagnini sits down with therapist, educator, and author Tamie Gangloff to explore the profound intersection of chronic illness, eating disorders, and substance use. After being diagnosed with scoliosis as a child and struggling with the shame of being told she had a "deformity," Tamie developed a deeply distorted relationship with her body and food, eventually turning to alcohol as a way to cope with severe self-consciousness. Through an open and honest conversation about her non-linear journey—which involved medical trauma, multiple spinal surgeries, and navigating inadequate insurance coverage—Tamie shares how identifying her underlying medical PTSD was the key to unlocking true recovery. This episode serves as an insightful resource for anyone seeking to understand how physical ailments shape identity and why professional, trauma-informed support is essential on the path to healing. SHOW NOTES: Click here Follow me on Instagram @behind_the_bite_podcast Visit the website: www.behindthebitepodcast.com Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

Surviving eight shots of Narcan at twelve years old is one hell of an introduction to chronic illness, and for Haylee, that was just the tip of the iceberg. Meet Haylee, a master's student living with an absolute alphabet soup of diagnoses, including Cerebral Palsy, Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), ARFID, AuDHD, OCD, and a recent addition of Bipolar disorder. In this raw and intimate conversation, Haylee breaks down what life is actually like when your body and brain are constantly clashing. From surviving a 26-hour leg surgery and an accidental morphine overdose at just twelve years old, to navigating the cold, isolating reality of transitioning out of pediatric care, Haylee doesn't hold back. She opens up about the trauma of medical PTSD, getting an ableist university professor fired, navigating safe-food obsessions, and using music and song-writing to quiet her brain during manic episodes. It's an honest, eye-opening look at disability, identity, and proving everyone, including her doctors, wrong.Follow Sickboy: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sickboypodcastTiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@sickboypodcastDiscord: https://discord.gg/expeUDN

Quinton Sanicola joins Dr. Tara Perry for a wide-ranging conversation on subconscious reprogramming, near-death experiences, fasting, psychedelics, and the invisible "brakes" most people don't know they're driving with. Quinton opens up about his own experience going through Tara's hypnotherapy work after years of following Dr. Joe Dispenza, and the profound release he felt once his subconscious blocks were identified and rewritten. Tara shares the science behind why chronic stress keeps the body stuck in fight-or-flight, real client stories of autoimmune conditions and chronic pain resolving through this work, and why so many high achievers are secretly driven by unresolved trauma. The conversation ranges into near-death experiences, dry fasting, Vipassana meditation, and the nature of reality itself — closing with Tara's reflection that healing doesn't mean life's challenges disappear, but that we become far more resourceful and resilient in facing them.KEY TAKEAWAYS(02:58) Quinton's own experience with subconscious work after years of following Dr. Joe Dispenza — and the question that led him to go deeper: "How can I take this further?"(04:50) "Running through mud" — Quinton's description of pushing through life without addressing what's really holding him back(05:29) The release Quinton felt after his first session — like releasing the brakes on a car that's been driving with them on the whole time(06:01) Why the invisible walls and hooks people carry usually got installed in early childhood and have nothing to do with who we are today(07:35) Real client outcomes Tara has witnessed: autoimmune issues resolving, veterans with severe PTSD improving in two sessions, and chronic pain and food allergies disappearing(09:47) The science of chronic stress — why living in fight-or-flight blocks the body's ability to heal, rest, and digest(13:18) Two remarkable client stories: someone with severe food allergies who reintroduced foods after 90 days, and a Rottweiler attack survivor who avoided further jaw surgeries(16:24) Why high achievers often carry unresolved trauma and imposter syndrome — including successful entrepreneurs who are uncomfortable asking for money(19:07) Tara's recent deep dive into near-death experiences, including Dr. Eben Alexander's story and what "life reviews" reveal about what really matters(24:10) A conversation on the simulation theory of reality, affirmations, and Tony Robbins' work on rewiring the nervous system through incantations(31:51) Tara's experience with a 7-day dry fast, the mental clarity it brings, and why she considers it a powerful reset(43:23) How addictive patterns like sugar, shopping, or alcohol are really the subconscious trying to fill a void — and why healing the root removes the need for the substitute(47:12) Why even after deep healing work, life's challenges don't vanish — but you become more resourceful, resilient, and less triggered(51:33) A look at the current research on psychedelics for reducing violent crime, addiction, and end-of-life anxiety — and the difference between therapeutic use and overuseIf you're ready to take your healing to the next level, schedule your free consultation with Dr. Tara at: https://ConsultTara.com/book

All Home Care Matters and our host, Lance A. Slatton were honored to welcome Jacqueline Larsen as guest to the show.   About Jacqueline Larsen, 2025 Dole Caregiver Fellow, North Carolina:   Jacqueline Larsen cares for her husband, Jeffery (Jeff) Larsen, a retired Air Force pararescueman (PJ) who served for 18 years and deployed 20 times. From a young age, Jeff knew he wanted to become a PJ and serve his country. After graduating high school in 2010, he enlisted in the Air Force, completed the rigorous training, and earned his place in the elite unit. Over the years, he sustained multiple injuries, including traumatic brain injuries (TBIs), post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), carpal tunnel in both hands, shoulder pain, and herniated discs, which ultimately led to his medical retirement.   Jacqueline met Jeff in early 2020 through a dating app—just as she was about to give up on dating to focus on fixing up her newly purchased farm. Jeff had only recently joined the app as a New Year's resolution, and the two instantly connected. Their relationship quickly deepened, and by July 2020, they had eloped, with plans to celebrate with friends and family later that summer. However, on the eve of their planned celebration, tragedy struck when he fell when trying to move bales of hay on his own, leaving him quadriplegic. At the time, Jacqueline was eight weeks pregnant with their second child and navigating the overwhelming reality of Jeff's hospitalization during the height of the COVID-19 pandemic.   Jeff spent months in hospitals and rehabilitation centers, including the Shepherd Center in Atlanta and the VA in Augusta, before finally returning home just before Christmas. Since then, Jacqueline has dedicated herself to his care, balancing physical and occupational therapy sessions, pain management treatments, and adaptive rehabilitation activities that help Jeff regain independence. He is working toward riding a hand bike, using adaptive equipment for long-range shooting, and assisting with farm chores from his wheelchair.   Their family, which includes their two sons, 11-year-old Lucas and 4-year-old Jackson, have adapted to a new normal—one filled with resilience, adjustments, and an emphasis on kindness and understanding. They have learned that while their family is not able to do all the things other families can do, they now create quality time where they can celebrate with new traditions. The boys have learned to be kind, courteous, and helpful to all people.   Living in rural North Carolina, just outside Fort Bragg, Jacqueline faced challenges securing reliable respite care due to the limitations of the VA Caregiver Support Program and Tricare's lack of in-network providers in their county. Her experience has fueled her advocacy for systemic change to better support veteran caregivers, particularly those who have had to leave successful careers due to their caregiving responsibilities.   She is passionate about raising awareness of the financial strain that unpaid caregiving places on families, including the burden of student loans for caregivers who can no longer pursue their careers.   Currently, Jacqueline is working to turn their hobby farm into a sustainable business that will provide employment opportunities for both her and Jeff.   About the Dole Caregiver Fellowship:   The Elizabeth Dole Foundation Dole Caregiver Fellows Program is a selective leadership and advocacy fellowship for individuals who provide care and support to wounded, ill, or injured service members and veterans of all generations. Participants—spouses, parents, adult children, friends, or other loved ones—are chosen from across the United States to represent caregivers across their communities and nationally.   During a two-year term, Fellows receive training, build networks, and work with policymakers, organizations, and the public to raise awareness of the value of caregivers and the challenges they face. They advocate for improved support and resources and advise the Foundation on programs and policy priorities affecting military and veteran families. In addition, by sharing their stories and experiences, they help other caregivers recognize themselves as caregivers, connect to resources, and feel welcomed in a community where every caregiving journey is valued.

Send us Fan MailYou can spend a lot of time trying to fix the thing that seems to be causing your anxiety and still miss what's actually underneath it.For Matt, the panic looked like money, college costs, and the fear of letting his son down. But when the emotion finally came out, it opened into something bigger: grief, change, getting older, losing control, and realizing that some parts of life can't be solved before they're felt.Matt and Steve talk about why sobriety can bring us face-to-face with emotions we used to avoid, numb, or drink over—and what changes when we stop demanding certainty and start dealing with what's actually there.Drive On: Helping Veterans Navigate PTSD & Life After Military ServiceAre you a veteran struggling with PTSD, combat stress, or adjusting to civilian life?...Listen on: Apple Podcasts SpotifySupport the show

— Why do we keep repeating the same painful relationship patterns, even when we desperately want things to be different? Why do some people fear abandonment, while others pull away when relationships become too close? And how much of our ability to love, trust, and feel emotionally safe is shaped by the experiences we had long before we entered our first romantic relationship? Attachment theory suggests that our earliest relationships create a blueprint for how we connect with others throughout life. These unconscious patterns can influence everything from our communication style and conflict resolution to our sense of self-worth, emotional security, and capacity for intimacy. The encouraging news is that these patterns are not fixed. With awareness, compassion, and intentional effort, it is possible to heal old wounds, develop greater emotional resilience, and create relationships built on trust, safety, and genuine connectionIn today's conversation, we'll explore the fascinating world of attachment styles, how they shape our inner lives and relationships, why so many of us get stuck in predictable cycles of conflict and disconnection, and what it takes to move toward more secure, healthy, and fulfilling connections—with others and with ourselves. Because at the heart of every human being is a desire to feel seen, understood, accepted, and loved. Valeria interviews  Marc Cameron — He is the author of  "Understanding Your Attachment Style: The Path to Overcoming Unhelpful Patterns and Building Healthy, Secure Relationships." Marc Cameron is an author, speaker, and Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist based in Newport Beach, California specializing in couple's therapy. Alongside his private practice, Marc and his wife, Amy, lead How We Love, an organization founded by Milan and Kay Yerkovich birthed from their groundbreaking book on attachment by the same name.  Marc firmly believes that developing secure attachments is the key to creating strong and fulfilling connections between couples and within families. He guides people in enhancing communication, building trust, and deepening emotional bonds by helping them understand how insecure attachment styles create predictable dysfunctional relationship cycles—and how these patterns can be overcome. His book, Understanding Your Attachment Style (2025), outlines this approach in detail. In addition, Marc is certified in EMDR therapy, an evidence-based treatment for PTSD and trauma and is a regular co-host on New Life Live!, America's top Christian counseling call-in radio program with a weekly audience of over 2 million listeners. Learn more about Marc Cameron and his work!

We sit down with neurosurgeon and Iraqi War veteran, Dr. Lee Warren who has experienced PTSD himself and performed surgery on thousands of soldiers and veterans. He shares how we can “rewire” our brains through the power of our thoughts—and how neuroscience brings fresh meaning to Scriptures we've heard for years.Learn more about There is More: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://thereismorecollective.com/Check Out Our Resources, including the Father's House Study, Go to Girls, and the Spiritual Warfare Workshop: https://thereismorecollective.com/resourcesGet 10% discount on Father's House Study with code: FH10Follow There is More Podcast on Instagram: @thereismorepodcastPartner With Us: ⁠⁠https://neveralonewidows.kindful.com/?campaign=1284937⁠

I'm joined by Meghan Judge for a raw, funny, and deeply moving conversation about grief, trauma, complex PTSD, friendship breakups, and what it takes to keep going when life has handed you far more than your fair share. Meghan shares how repeated loss shaped her, why humour became a survival tool, and how finally understanding her mental health changed everything.We also talk about toxic friendships, suicidal thoughts, therapy, EMDR, and the podcast that grew out of one of Meghan's darkest seasons. This is not a conversation about pretending everything is fine. It's about learning to carry your story differently, finding your people, and discovering that freedom can be a choice.Highlights:(04:57) - Meghan shares the losses that shaped her from childhood onward(09:06) - Understanding complex PTSD and how repeated trauma can affect us(21:27) - When a toxic friendship group became another breaking point(36:09) - The period when Meghan stopped wanting to be here(42:20) - How starting a podcast became part of her way back(55:28) - Why freedom can begin with choosing to leave what is hurting youConnect with Meghan:judgingmeghan.comhttps://www.instagram.com/judgingmeghan/?hl=enQualia Mind - click hereCoupon Code: SHOCKANDYALL (15% off any purchase)Visit Nicole's on demand fitness platform for live weekly classes and a recorded library of yoga, strength training, guided audio meditations and mobility (Kinstretch) classes, as well: https://www.sweatandstillness.comGrab Nicole's bestselling children's book and enter your email for A FREE GIFT: https://www.yolkedbook.comFind Nicole on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/nicolesciacca/Tik Tok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thenicolesciaccaFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/nicolesciaccayoga/Youtube:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1X8PPWCQa2werd4unex1eAPractice yoga with Nicole in person in Santa Monica, CA at Aviator Nation Ride. Get the App to book in: https://apps.apple.com/us/app/aviator-nation-ride/id1610561929Book a discovery call or virtual assessment with Nicole here: https://www.calendly.com/nicolesciaccaThis Podcast is proudly produced by Wavemakers Audio

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Send us a messageEpisode 229: My Adult Child Says I Trigger Them: What Should I Do?What does it mean when your adult child says, “You're triggering me”?For many parents, hearing this word can feel confusing, painful, and disorienting. You may wonder what you said wrong, whether you caused a trauma response, or whether it is still possible to have an honest conversation without making things worse.In this episode, Tina explains what the word “triggered” can mean, what may be happening in your adult child's nervous system, and how to respond without becoming defensive, dismissive, or afraid to speak.The word “triggered” originally came from trauma and PTSD research, where it described an involuntary nervous system response to something associated with past danger. Today, the word is also used more broadly to describe emotional distress, discomfort, overwhelm, or the desire to stop a difficult conversation.This episode is also partly based on research from the Gottman Institute, particularly its work on emotional flooding during conflict. Emotional flooding happens when the body becomes so activated that heart rate rises, stress hormones increase, and the ability to think clearly, show empathy, and solve problems begins to decrease.The Gottman Institute's research was conducted primarily with couples, not parents and adult children. However, the underlying nervous system response to relational stress can still offer a helpful framework for understanding why difficult conversations sometimes become unproductive so quickly.You do not have to decide in the moment whether your adult child is experiencing a trauma trigger, emotional flooding, or simply feeling overwhelmed. Your job is not to diagnose the reaction. Your job is to respond in a way that lowers the intensity and protects the possibility of repair.Why You Should ListenIf your adult child says you trigger them, you may feel like you are walking on eggshells. You may become afraid to ask questions, bring up concerns, or continue difficult conversations.This episode will help you understand what may be happening beneath the word “triggered” so you can respond with more steadiness and less defensiveness.You will also learn why taking a break can help the nervous system settle, why pushing through an emotionally flooded conversation often backfires, and why returning to the discussion later is an essential part of rebuilding trust.In This Episode, You Will Learn:What “triggered” means in trauma research, therapy language, and everyday conversationsHow the Gottman Institute's research on emotional flooding helps explain what happens during intense conflictWhat to say when your adult child tells you that you are triggering themWhy a real pause can restore clear thinking, empathy, and emotional regulationHow returning to the conversation can support conflict repair and strengthen your relationship with your adult childYou do not need to argue about whether your adult child is using the word correctly. You also do not need to treat every use of the word as an emergency.Instead, you can notice the emotional activation, regulate your own nervous system, take a meaningful pause, and make a plan to return to the conversation when both of you are steadier.A pause is not the same as avoidance. The goal is not to abandon the topic. The goal is to create enough calm that the conversation has a better chance of becoming productive.When you consistently show your adult child that difficult conversations can pause and then continue, you begin to create a new pattern. Over time, hard topics may feel less threatening because neither person has to fear that every disagreement will end in defensiveness, withdrawal, or a slammed door.Listen now to better understand emotional triggers, nervous system regulation, emotional flooding, and how to respond when your adult child says you trigger them.If this episode helps you make sense of a difficult moment, share it with another parent who may need to hear it.Click Here to download the free guide: 5 Steps to Take Before Trying to Repair the Relationship With Your Adult Child Tina Gosney is the Family Conflict Coach. She works with parents who have families in conflict to help them become the grounded, confident leaders their family needs. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------If you want support putting what you're learning into practice, come join The Connection Community in Bridge to Connection. This is the perfect spot where you can learn, connect and get targeted help to start moving your relationship with your adult child in a different direction. 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What if the path from drug dealing to military service to training over 6,000 dogs worldwide could teach you the one thing most dog owners get completely wrong? Ryan Matthews, former US Army combat canine handler and founder of World of Dog Training, reveals why your frustrated relationship with your dog isn't really about your dog at all. After surviving combat PTSD, cancer, and life-threatening injuries, Ryan discovered that the same leadership principles that kept him alive overseas are exactly what creates the calm, confident dogs every owner dreams of having. His anti-dog training approach flips traditional methods upside down, focusing on energy, mindset, and the uncomfortable truth about why dogs manipulate their humans.Ryan breaks down the two types of dogs every owner needs to recognize, why reward-based training often backfires, and his revolutionary pause method that transforms behavior in minutes instead of months. From his military working dog Rex to his current telepathic communication with Zeus, you'll discover how understanding your dog's energy and body language creates a relationship deeper than most people have with other humans. Whether you're struggling with a rescue dog's trauma or simply want to stop being outsmarted by your family pet, this conversation will shift how you see leadership, communication, and the incredible intelligence of the animals sharing our lives.Want to grow your podcast, land more guest appearances, and save hours every week? The Podcast Growth Partner helps podcasters, guests, and podcast teams create stronger content, prepare smarter, and grow strategically.Start your free 3-day trial: PodcastGrowthPartner.comWant personalized podcast strategy support? Book a free clarity call: MeetwithOlivia.me Connect with Olivia Atkin & Achieving Success:Website: Achieving-Success.comFacebook Community: The Podcaster's Powerhouse Community For Business OwnersFacebook: Olivia Atkin | Achieving SuccessLinkedIn: Olivia Atkin | Achieving SuccessInstagram: @_achievingsuccessConnect with Ryan Matthews: Website: www.worldofdogtraining.comEmail: Ryan@WorldOfDogTraining.comAI Program: www.k9coachai.comBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/achieving-success-with-olivia-atkin--5743662/support.

Living with chronic pain affects far more than your body. For many veterans, chronic pain can also contribute to depression, yet this is one of the most commonly overlooked secondary VA disability claims.In this episode, we discuss how the Department of Veterans Affairs evaluates depression secondary to chronic pain, what medical evidence may support a secondary service connection, and the mistakes that can weaken a claim. We also explain the relationship between orthopedic conditions, chronic pain, functional impairment, and mental health symptoms from both a medical and VA disability perspective.Whether you're already service-connected for back pain, knee conditions, neck injuries, joint problems, or other chronic pain conditions, understanding how secondary conditions are evaluated can help you better understand the VA claims process.In this episode: What "secondary service connection" means  How chronic pain can contribute to depression  Common service-connected conditions that may lead to chronic pain  Medical evidence commonly considered in these claims  The importance of treatment records and diagnosis  Common mistakes veterans make when filing secondary claims  How nexus opinions fit into the VA disability process  When legal representation may be appropriate during an appeal Every claim is unique, and no outcome can be guaranteed. This episode is intended for educational purposes only and should not be considered legal or medical advice.Podcast KeywordsVA disability, VA disability benefits, VA claims, VA claim, VA compensation, veterans benefits, veteran disability, secondary service connection, secondary VA claims, depression secondary to chronic pain, chronic pain, depression, chronic pain syndrome, mental health VA claim, VA depression claim, orthopedic injuries, back pain VA disability, knee pain VA disability, neck pain VA disability, PTSD, anxiety, VA nexus letter, independent medical opinion, medical evidence, VA appeal, C&P exam, VA rating, disability benefits, veterans, military veterans, service-connected disability, VA law, VA attorney, veterans law, Prestige Veteran Medical Consulting

When we come to know Jesus as Savior, the Holy Spirit begins a transforming work in us. The change is complete, but learning to believe and live in the truth of who we are in Christ can take time. My guest, Jason Castleberry, experienced this transformation firsthand. After military service left him carrying deep shame, PTSD, depression, and regret, Jason could have remained trapped in isolation and despair. Instead, God pursued him, rescued him, and began bringing him back to life. In this second episode, Jason shares the dramatic difference Jesus has made in his life. The heaviness and despair that once defined his days gave way to hope, joy, purpose, and freedom. His own healing awakened a desire to tell others what Jesus can do when life feels impossibly dark, eventually leading him into pastoral ministry. Jason's story is a powerful picture of Colossians 1:13 and a reminder that God can rescue us from darkness and bring us into the freedom and hope found in Christ. Connect with Jason:  https://www.facebook.com/jason.castleberry.2025/ https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-castleberry-96b80394/ https://x.com/Pbcpastor24 To connect with Jason through his church: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61567179489505 https://www.instagram.com/fbcplevna/ https://www.tiktok.com/@fbc.plevna   To inquire about counseling, email Louise at Louise@louisesedgwick.com.

Polysubstance use is where addiction medicine stops being a single-problem visit and becomes real clinical triage. When someone is using alcohol, fentanyl, methamphetamine, benzodiazepines, cannabis, nicotine, and whatever else is in the supply, the hardest part is not naming the diagnosis, it's deciding what to treat first and how to do it safely. We brought back a remastered conversation with Monterey addiction physician Dr Lee Goldman to walk through the thinking that keeps patients alive and keeps clinicians from getting lost in overlapping symptoms.We talk through how we build the “priority list” using the patient's own reason for coming in, the dysfunction the substance is causing, and objective tools like urine toxicology while remembering that some sedatives may not show up. Dr Goldman explains why alcohol withdrawal risk often rises to the top, how fentanyl changes buprenorphine inductions through precipitated withdrawal, and why unknown medications like Soma or unmentioned methadone can derail an otherwise solid plan. You'll hear why many clinicians stabilise one withdrawal syndrome at a time, and what harm reduction looks like when “stop everything today” is not realistic.We also get honest about the messy questions: what does sobriety mean when someone says they're “sober” but still using cannabis, benzodiazepines, or kratom? How do residential, partial hospital, IOP, and outpatient settings change what we can require and what we can monitor? Why is nicotine so normalised in recovery spaces, and when is the right time to address it? Dr Goldman makes a strong case that benzodiazepines may be the toughest substance to treat, especially with anxiety and PTSD in the background, and we close with what's changing in drug mixes and where behavioural addictions may be heading next.Subscribe to Addiction Medicine Made Easy, share this with a colleague, and leave a review so more people can find the show.To contact Dr. Grover: ammadeeasy@fastmail.com

There are some stories you hear that stay with you long after the conversation ends. This is one of them.In this episode, I sit down with Nathan Wieser, a husband, father and author of We Did It, to talk about a journey through pregnancy loss, infant loss, miscarriage, PTSD, grief and a fight to become a father that lasted more than a decade. Nathan and his wife Lucy endured loss after loss. But nothing could prepare them for the day their daughter Mary died during birth, while Lucy herself was fighting to stay alive. Nathan remembers sitting alone in a hospital hallway waiting for one thing: to hear his daughter cry. The cry never came. What followed were years of grief, trauma and fear before they found the courage to try again.Then came Otto. Born at just 26 weeks and weighing only two pounds, Otto spent 121 days in the NICU fighting through emergency surgeries, sepsis and moments when his parents didn't know if he would survive.In this episode:Losing their daughter Mary during childbirth and nearly losing Lucy tooThe miscarriages, grief and PTSD that followed their devastating lossFinding the courage to try for another child after years of traumaOtto's premature birth and the terrifying 121-day fight for his life in the NICUHow loss changed Nathan's perspective on fatherhood, marriage and what truly mattersThis is an incredibly raw conversation about losing children, surviving trauma, marriage, fatherhood and finding hope when life has given you every reason to stop believing things can get better.This conversation gave me a lot to think about as a father. I think it will do the same for you.Key Moments:00:00 Waiting for a Cry That Never Came06:22 The Diagnosis No Parent Is Ready For12:38 The Moment Everything Went Horribly Wrong18:04 Telling His Wife Their Baby Had Died24:19 Could They Ever Try for a Baby Again?28:17 Losing Their Twins Without a Heartbeat31:12 The Phone Call That Saved His Life36:45 Meeting His Two-Pound Son for the First Time41:42 The NICU Nightmare Begins47:25 His Heart Stopped Again49:13 The Miracle Doctors Couldn't Explain52:06 They Finally Got Home... Then Lost Everything54:15 Walking Through Hell to Find Their Miracle58:28 The Best and Worst of the Medical System1:00:36 Why He Gave Up Alcohol for His SonConnect with Me:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/Connect with Nathan Wieser:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nathanwieser/We Did It by Nathan Wieser (Author): https://www.amazon.com/We-Did-perspective-enduring-miscarriages/dp/B0FLVTTHPY/

When a boss's email, meeting request, or tone of feedback feels disproportionately intense, it may not be about the present moment alone. For many people, workplace dynamics can quietly reactivate older emotional patterns tied to childhood experiences of criticism, invisibility, powerlessness, or conditional approval. This episode explores how that happens—and how to recognize when the nervous system is responding to the past, not just the job.In this episode:Why authority figures at work can unconsciously resemble early caregiversHow simple workplace feedback can trigger shame, fear, or collapseThe role of childhood experiences in shaping adult stress responsesWhy “professionalism” can sometimes override emotional self-protectionHow to tell the difference between present-day feedback and old emotional memoryWhat it means to stay grounded when the body reacts before the mind can interpretThrive With Leo Coaching: If you want to reduce your psychological pain, regain your purpose and forge your own path, go to www.thrivewithleo.com to begin your journey.If you or anyone you know is considering suicide or self-harm, or is anxious, depressed, upset, or needs to talk, there are people who want to help:In the US: Crisis Text Line: Text CRISIS to 741741 for free, confidential crisis counseling. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 or 988The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386Outside the US:International Association for Suicide Prevention lists a number of suicide hotlines by country. Click here to find them.

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Personality Changes After Stroke: How Ben Sautter Discovered His “Hyde” and Became a Better Man  For nearly a decade, Ben Sautter carried a story he didn’t fully understand. He was a respected superintendent for the City of Helena, a devoted father, and a man his colleagues trusted. He was also someone who, years earlier, had been convicted of drug trafficking and spent over a year in prison, a period he now describes without shame or remorse, feelings he says he simply didn’t have access to. “I never felt guilty about doing anything,” he told me. “I never had no shame, no remorse. I still don’t.” Then, on a morning in 2017, Ben woke up with his left leg buzzing like an electrical current, from his hip to his toe. He dismissed it as sciatica, worked out to try to shake it off, and drove himself to a doctor’s appointment while slurring his words. By the time he reached his physician’s office, she recognized what was happening immediately: Ben was in the middle of a stroke. What followed wasn’t just a physical recovery. It became the beginning of a profound psychological reckoning one that reshaped how Ben understood himself, his marriage, and the two very different versions of the man he’d been his entire adult life. What Personality Changes After Stroke Can Actually Look Like When people talk about the effects of stroke, the conversation usually centers on physical deficits: weakness, speech difficulty, mobility. Less discussed but just as real for many survivors are the personality changes after stroke that surface in the weeks, months, and even years that follow. For Ben, this didn’t show up as a dramatic before-and-after moment. It took roughly six months before he began to notice his own cognitive shifts, and years more before he could name what he was experiencing. “I feel like two different people,” he eventually admitted to himself, a recognition that came into sharp focus only after his wife, Helen, described what she called his “Jekyll and Hyde” pattern: a caring, grounded version of himself, and a sharper, more reactive one that could surface without warning, particularly under emotional pressure. Ben also discovered something else in the process something many survivors don’t expect. Before his stroke, he says he operated almost entirely on three emotions: happy, sad, and angry. It wasn’t until his wife introduced him to a “feelings wheel” years after his stroke that he realized how narrow his emotional range had actually been. That flattened emotional landscape, paired with a striking absence of guilt or fear around risky behavior earlier in his life, points to something researchers increasingly recognize: strokes can affect not just movement and speech, but emotional regulation, impulse control, and self-awareness, particularly when the affected regions touch circuitry involved in processing feeling and consequence. The Unexpected Overlap With PTSD One of the more striking parts of Ben’s story is how he came to understand his own symptoms. Watching a 60 Minutes segment on a military veteran with PTSD, Ben recognized his own thoughts, words, and behaviors reflected back at him patterns his psychologist at the VA had already been treating with PTSD-informed techniques, without Ben fully grasping why. “That’s when I realized my family suffered the stroke as much as I did,” he said. This overlap isn’t unusual. Post-stroke psychological symptoms hypervigilance, emotional reactivity, difficulty processing what happened can closely resemble trauma responses, even in survivors who never experienced combat or acute crisis in the traditional sense. Recognizing this early, and getting connected with the right kind of psychological support, can make a meaningful difference in how survivors and their families move through recovery. Turning Reflection Into Change What makes Ben’s story remarkable isn’t just that he noticed these changes; it’s what he did with them. Nearly ten years after his stroke, and after years of separation from his wife, Ben sat down and wrote his memoir, Mr. Hyde and Me, in just ten weeks. “I called this therapy on steroids,” he said. “Writing this book was incredibly therapeutic.” The process gave him a framework to finally understand the dual nature he’d lived with since childhood, shaped, he believes, by an upbringing where feelings were dismissed, and risk-taking was treated as fun rather than dangerous. “That guy that I was, that guy’s gone. I am not going to be that guy ever again.” — Ben Sautter Today, Ben and Helen are reconciled. He describes himself as calmer, more deliberate, and a better listener than he was before his stroke, not despite the personality changes it triggered, but in some ways because of the self-awareness they eventually forced him to confront. As he put it plainly: “We would not be having this conversation if I hadn’t had a stroke.” If You’re Noticing Changes in Yourself or a Loved One If you or someone you love has experienced personality changes after stroke emotional flatness, increased irritability, impulsivity, or a sense of feeling like “two different people” you’re not imagining it, and you’re not alone. These changes are a recognized part of many stroke recoveries, and they respond well to the right combination of professional support, honest communication with family, and time. Ben’s full story, including his path through incarceration, his stroke, and the years-long process of understanding his own mind, is available in The Unexpected Way That A Stroke Became The Best Thing That Happened, where survivors share the tools that helped them navigate recovery, available at recoveryafterstroke.com/book. If this show has helped you, you can support it at patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke. This blog is for informational purposes only and does not constitute medical advice. Please consult your doctor before making any changes to your health or recovery plan. Jekyll, Hyde, and the Stroke That Changed Everything: Ben Sautter’s Story (Interview) Bill’s Book: The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened Support Bill on: Patreon Bill’s one-on-one coaching program: Momentum Highlights: 00:00 Introduction – Personality Changes After Stroke 03:51 Realizing Something Was Wrong 12:51 Discovering His Dual Personality 21:05 Living With Only Three Emotions 31:50 Where the Pattern Began 39:55 Writing the Memoir That Helped Him Understand Himself 50:37 Stroke as a Catalyst for Change Transcript: Introduction – Personality Changes After Stroke Bill Gasiamis (00:00) Welcome back to Recovery After Stroke. I’m Bill Gassiamas, and today’s guest is Ben Sautter, a stroke survivor from Montana who in 2017 suffered an ischemic stroke caused by a carotid artery blockage. Ben was in his mid-50s working as a superintendent for the city of Helena when he woke up one morning with his leg buzzing like it was electric and his speech starting to slur. But this episode isn’t really about the stroke itself. It’s about what the stroke uncovered. Ben spent decades living what he now calls a Jekyll and Hyde existence, including a period of incarceration for drug trafficking that he says he felt no guilt over at the time. And after his stroke, that started to change. We talk about emotional flatness, PTSD like symptoms he didn’t recognize until years later. The marriage he nearly lost and the memoir he wrote in just ten weeks that finally helped him understand himself. Before we get into it, if you haven’t already, check out my book, The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened, over at recoveryafterstroke.com/book. And if this show has helped you, you can support it at Patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke, and you can help me keep it going so that we can get to one thousand episodes. If you’re feeling stuck in your recovery and want more structure and one-on-one support, I also offer a coaching program called Momentum. You can find out more at recoveryafterstroke.com/momentum. Now let’s get into it. Here’s my conversation with Ben. Bill Gasiamis (01:42) Benjamin Sautter welcome to the podcast. Ben Sautter (01:45) Thanks much for having me. Bill Gasiamis (01:49) Can you tell me a little bit about what life was like before twenty seventeen and the stroke? Ben Sautter (01:55) Well, I was on it back then before the stroke. I was had a job that I really enjoyed. I was working for the city of Helena as a superintendent of streets and traffic division. And life was going really good for me there. And then it kind of came to a an abrupt halt. Bill Gasiamis (02:15) what was life like as far as what kind of work were you doing? What was family life like? Ben Sautter (02:23) Well, our family was pretty close at the time. We have two children and we were busy, we were really close, busy traveling. We had a motor home, we had lots of fun. we hunt and fish, a lot of outdoor activities here. We we have a little cabin that we spend all our weekends at. if we weren’t traveling, that is. so Home life was pretty good. My wife and I were struggling a bit before I had my stroke. but we were a close family. And and work was good. I I I’d progressed up into mid-level management and I I had great great people, great staff underneath of me, and we got a lot of good work done for the city and had a lot of fun at work. work was going good. Everything was going pretty good. Bill Gasiamis (03:25) Was there any sign that something was amiss with your health that perhaps there was something looming that wasn’t going to be fun? Ben Sautter (03:36) No, I was I was in great shape. I had had no signs of anything coming. so it was yeah, it was out of the blue. The stroke was out of the blue. Realizing Something Was Wrong Bill Gasiamis (03:51) What was that day like? Was there any kind of deficit deficits that you experienced that gave you a hint that something was going wrong? Or how did it evolve? Ben Sautter (04:00) Well, I woke up in the morning to go to work, I knew something was funny and I couldn’t figure it out. I think when I woke up, I got I get up early and to get in before my first crew was in the mechanics were in at six. So I was in before that. But when I woke up my left leg was just buzzing like it was electric from my hip. To my toe. And I didn’t comprehend. I was thinking it was like a sciatic something because I had a little sciatic pain from time to time in my right side, even though I knew this wasn’t the same, but I didn’t have the cognitive awareness of what was going on. And so I I worked out in the middle of it thinking maybe it was. muscles in my back and if I exercise did go away and and it didn’t when I and I went on into work and my my mechanics were nervous. I I was starting to slur my words and and I I kind of felt it. I a I asked him I think if I was slurring my words And they just kind of smiled at me. And I went back up to my office and then another one of my other supervisors came in and he sat down. He could tell something wasn’t right with me. And then he left and they were all getting together to come and check me out, and I left. I I had a a meeting, or not a meeting. I had a doctor’s appointment out at the VA Fort Harrison at for 7 30 that morning. And so I was I was late and I think I d I think my doctor called me and I was on the road driving out there and she I told her kind of things were funny and what was going on. And she said, Well, you need to get out here, get a ride out here. I said, Well, I’m driving. She said, God, no. I th she pretty well could tell she thought I was having a stroke right there. And I drove out there, I went upstairs to see her and they took me right down to the emergency right there. Bill Gasiamis (06:39) And Did they immediately diagnose that you were having a stroke? Ben Sautter (06:47) We’re getting a little blurry on me right there. I I I don’t really remember what they thought right at the time, right at that moment when I was in the emergency. I know a couple hours later they came to me and there was no doubt about it. They they knew then they had speech therapists in and a neurologist in the room and that’s so it took a couple hours to for a sure diagnosis that I was in the middle of a stroke. Best I remember. Bill Gasiamis (07:27) Hm. It’s pretty common that yeah, pretty common that you’re not gonna remember exactly what was happening at that time. Things were compromised. That makes complete sense. how long before well rather at some point you’re told that you had a stroke, how do you take that information? Ben Sautter (07:48) I don’t know that it it didn’t go over my head, but I I I wasn’t devastated. I and because I wasn’t I I was familiar with stroke, my father’d had strokes and he’d been paralyzed and lost his speech, so his were very severe. So at the time I I wasn’t feeling that I was that impacted by it. I knew some things were going on, but looking back I can tell I just didn’t have the the awareness of what was happening to me, even though I knew it. but it it just didn’t feel serious to me. Bill Gasiamis (08:34) It didn’t sink in, perhaps. Ben Sautter (08:36) yeah, I w I would say so. Certainly not the gravity of it. and it actually it took quite some time. I’d say at least six months, really, before I started being aware of my cognitive deficiencies and and wondering. asking myself questions even though within a week’s time I was at VA Salt Lake to have surgery on my carotid artery. So all that happened and I was still it’s not that I was in denial. Well, I didn’t think I was, but now looking back, I that could have been what it was. But but I was aware. I knew it happened. Gosh, I had surgery. I I understood it all. I saw the MRI. I saw the mark on my brain. I had the surgeries I said. but I it it just the seriousness of it didn’t sink into me. Cause within Bill Gasiamis (09:50) Mm. Ben Sautter (09:50) two weeks, my doc cut me loose, my surgeon, I was up in the woods hunting. Full tilt. They gave me they said, go ahead. So that kinda helped me believe that I the word what what I said, I dodged a bullet is how I put it. And even though I didn’t really dodge the bullet. Bill Gasiamis (10:19) so you said that you had about six months where you kind of had no real awareness or your cognition was impacted. What obviously your cognition was was impacted, but what other deficits did you have? Ben Sautter (10:40) I would just say the cognition, the physical part, I had that numbness in my leg. I didn’t even have a limp from it, but my whole leg f well, it’s still somewhat for for years was like I say, like it w my whole leg was stuck in a light socket, just buzzing like electric from my hip to my toe, and and that lasted a long, long time. my leg got real heavy. I had to like I say, I could it didn’t show that I was limping or anything, but I had to work at that to not let it show. I had to make sure I high stepped kinda so my toe didn’t drag and I didn’t trip. I had to be very well aware of that to make it look like I was okay. But but really physically it didn’t show. Bill Gasiamis (11:43) Your introductory email to me about joining me on the podcast was interesting. what you had seems to be a catalyst for some change in your life. Like what occurred to you, the stroke, the hospitalization, the challenges that you had to come seems to be a catalyst for change in your life. Before the stroke in twenty seventeen, you said your wife and yourself were going through some difficult times. but you were busy at work, you had a a whole bunch of other things going on. but there’s another side of you, there was another side of you at some stage that you were living a life that you were living that’s not quite the run of the mill standard lifestyle. Tell me a little bit about that. And was that lifestyle that you’re gonna to tell us a little bit about now? Was that something that you lived until your stroke? Discovering His Dual Personality Ben Sautter (12:36) I’m living that still right now. that dual personality. And after the stroke, it was it might have taken a couple of years of me looking back. I was finally looking back, wondering who that guy was, that other guy. I I would say to myself. I feel like two different people. And it wasn’t until after the stroke, I think, that I really asked that heart or asked that question, or said that to myself, that I feel like two different people. And that came from questioning the things I did when I was younger. I was pretty wild guy and I did things that didn’t seem like me, yet I know I did all those things. Well hell I I got arrested, went to prison. So I know I was doing stuff that I shouldn’t have been doing. But back then it was Pretty easy to do. And I it it wasn’t, it didn’t feel like me doing it. so after the stroke, I really started asking questions, trying to, trying to look back to understand. And I never got that understanding until I wrote that book last year. And then it all just poured out. And I could see the dual personality and and and I still am that dual guy. My wife is able to recognize that more now, and when she s tells me about it, I can really see it when she explains it, especially what I say. I I say things I say things that I don’t mean that aren’t me, that I don’t understand why I say those things. It’s and I named it Hyde. And it Hyde speaks different than I do, than Jekyll. Bill Gasiamis (15:11) How old were you when you ended up in prison and how old were you when you got out? Ben Sautter (15:16) I was thirty two when I got arrested and I was only out for like thirteen months so I was thirty thir about I was thirty four when I got out. Bill Gasiamis (15:28) And the stuff that you went in for, what kind of things were you doing that ended you up in prison? Ben Sautter (15:38) I was I got arrested for drug trafficking. Bill Gasiamis (15:42) And at the time was there a certain amount of disassociation from the behavior? And did you kind of find yourself doing things that you just weren’t, what was it, maybe like connected to logically? How how did you find yourself being in a situation that you now describe as this was not? U or it was another U.S. Ben Sautter (16:14) That’s good question. I have to say I don’t really understand yet where I was back then. It I I had to that it had to be that disassociation because I was a legitimate guy. I worked, I had jobs, I had good respect from people. I I was a legitimate man all day long every day. And I just slip out and Did stuff. I I d I had no feelings about it. I I wasn’t I never felt guilty about doing anything. I never had no shame, no remorse. I still don’t. I don’t feel those feelings. They just aren’t in me. Even after the book, after writing that and starting to understand that I don’t have those feelings, which I still don’t, but way back then. I didn’t give a s I didn’t give a first thought to any of that illicit stuff I was doing. It was opportunity and I just went and did it. Didn’t give it a thought. Bill Gasiamis (17:31) Got it. And then when you ended up coming out of prison, did you go back onto the straight and narrow? Did you still double? How was life after that? Because it was thirty years almost, you know, between your incarceration and then your stroke. So I I’m just trying to set the scene just so I can ask you the next question later on about the stroke. So what was life like after the incarceration? Ben Sautter (17:56) So and I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately and writing about that. And that I had to make a very conscious decision. And and the way I put that, prison didn’t rehabilitate me. I had to make that decision that okay, I want to go back there. I need to I need to watch I need to watch over myself. and keep myself out of trouble, which all those big crimes were the problem, but little things, I I went hunting, I was a poacher, I I trespassed, those types of things. I was very careful not to be caught speeding in a car or any of that, drinking and driving. a little bit I’d find myself doing that and that was a difficult thing to overcome of to quit drinking and and so I was I’d find myself drunk behind the wheel and I I finally again made a conscious decision decision but it took a little time to work out of that to finally draw a line in the sand. In fact it wasn’t until a year or two after I got married that I finally just quit drinking completely. And that was good. That was a good move. so it was w I can’t say that it was a struggle, but it was risky for me out of prison that I didn’t get caught at those littler, less severe law breaking. Bill Gasiamis (19:53) Yeah. Ben Sautter (19:54) Yeah. Living With Only Three Emotions Bill Gasiamis (19:55) So what I’m hearing here is a you’re you’ve described yourself as Hyde. There’s a Jekyll somewhere here as well. and and also in your description of your behaviour and the way that you weren’t associated with it, or you have no feeling about something, or you know or you have no connection to what it meant when you were breaking the law. It sounds a little bit sociopathic and it sounds like perhaps there was a some kind of a what people might describe as a psych as a psychiatric kind of challenge or issue there. Has that ever come up in a conversation with anybody? Ben Sautter (20:41) No, more the compartmentalization dissociation. I lived with and I didn’t know this until twenty twenty one or twenty two, I lived with three emotions, happy, sad, and angry. That’s and and I learned that when my wife brought out a feelings wheel. And she brought out this feelings wheel and sh she’s saying, tell me which Where you land on some of these, and I thought, well, happy and sad and and angry. And that’s about as far as I went with it. And once in a while I’d feel a little something, but not really very much. So so that’s when I learned I was operating on three emotions. That’s all I ever had. So that really showed the compartmentalization and the disassociation right there. psychopathic or psychopath has never come up even with my psychologist. she never identified that but I just saw her for the first time since I read wrote the book a few weeks ago and gave her a copy of the book and she was a little bit wide-eyed and surprised. at the book and she’s reading it. So what kind of conversation we’re gonna have now will be really interesting to go back and see her. But but answer to your question, no, psychopath, no, just compartmentalizing Bill Gasiamis (22:26) Yeah, so sociopath, not psychopaths. Yeah. Ben Sautter (22:28) Sociopath, I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (22:31) Sociopaths tend to be people who in the moment can’t connect with the behavior, good, bad, indifferent, and then later on have the ability to kind of notice that the behaviour was inappropriate in some way, shape, or form, and kind of have well, maybe not regret, but kind of some understanding of behavior being inappropriate. Whereas psychopaths are completely different, like they have no empathy, no nothing, right? There’s nothing there. So that’s a that’s kind of not where where where I was headed. I wasn’t asking Ben Sautter (23:06) Yeah. Bill Gasiamis (23:07) that. But it’s interesting that you describe these two separate, separate versions of yourself. it’s not uncommon to how I describe myself after the stroke, but I didn’t have a Jekyll and Hyde streak in me. But I had a line in the sand. The stroke seemed to take my brain offline for a little while and it allowed me to connect with other parts of my body. Specifically, I talk about connecting with my heart and it made me more empathetic and more able to kind of access what what my values were rather than what my head thought was the right thing to do or what what my head thought was the right approach or the right way to go about things. So it seems like the stroke has played some kind of a similar role in your ability to reflect on your past in a different way, th in a more associated way compared to what you had done before. Is that accurate? Ben Sautter (24:07) Absolutely. we talk about the stroke not being all bad for me because I’ve become far more aware. and that awareness is big, not just of my past and who I was, but being able to listen so much better and be more aware of what I say, think, and do. much more so. So so yeah, the stroke has I the stroke has been good for me in in a lot of ways, cause causes some of those difficulties without a a doubt, but I think my wife would agree that I’m a better person, despite the change in moral compass after the my incarceration, but I still was a Jekyll and Hyde, and I still am today. I she can see me come in and out of it much quicker than I have any idea. not necessarily on a daily basis, on an hourly basis and in conversation. She can see by what I say. Bill Gasiamis (25:27) what’s better about being able to listen more? you said that you you were able to hear more or pay attention better in a conversation, for example. Why is that better? Ben Sautter (25:37) The understanding, the understanding of the person I’m talking to, and the understanding of myself and and listening listening to hear rather than listening to respond. So though that’s really that’s big for me because I used to be so quick. I’d hear something, I could make decisions, I was very impulsive. I’ve I’ve really rein that in to calm myself down and and just listen better, be slower, more deliberate, more purposeful. All all all of those things are much better for me. In fact, I didn’t have any of that before before the stroke. I was full tilt on everything. I I thought I did. I thought I was very considerate, concerned, and listened, but in comparison, no. That wasn’t me. Bill Gasiamis (26:37) I it you said it’s better for you. Like why how is it better for you? How has it improved your life? Ben Sautter (26:44) I’m not banging heads so much. I I I let people have their thoughts, their opinions, and and I don’t take offense to to that. So everything’s calmer and and I I just don’t have the head banging I used to have. Bill Gasiamis (27:04) Why is it important for people to have their opinions and their thoughts? Ben Sautter (27:08) Well, I’m right and you’re wrong. Isn’t that what it’s all about? Everybody wants to be right and and think that that everybody should agree with them. That’s that’s how I see it now. It’s like, and if yeah, I’m right and you’re wrong. And I that I don’t do that anymore. Bill Gasiamis (27:31) Got it. Got it. This part of you that your wife still sees that you’ve kind of been able to rein in, like is it a sinister side of you that she sees? Is it the conniving side of you? Is it the the the one that’s possible to be led astray? Which side of it does she still see that kind of attends these conversations with your wife? Ben Sautter (27:55) I d I I’m not sure how you how you name this. perfect example is if I I d slip up, do something wrong and Helen will bring my attention to it, I’ll say, Well, I just did that to see if you’re paying attention. So I I try to deflect things. I I have that I definitely the inferiority or or or and on myself. We’re all our own worst critic, of course, and and I I really feel self conscious. I know my deficiencies and I I go back and forth. I I know my deficiencies and I live with it. I’m okay with it. But sometimes if someone says something to me, Helen, one one time it’s okay and I get by it, one time it’s like it hits and it hurts. And and I I react, I try to deflect, I say things, hide comes out of me and and says things like to hurt back. And and so I’m and she’s getting better about not letting me do that. And the sooner she says something now, if she says something right away, I go, yeah, sorry, I did say that. Whereas before I didn’t remember saying things and I would say that. She’d say, You she’d wait too long and then tell me you said something. Well, I wouldn’t say that, I don’t think those things. That’s Jekyll saying, I I I don’t even think that. I I I didn’t say that. You took it wrong. Now I’m more believing that Hyde would say those things and and if she comes back quick enough and I can I’m right there. I’m like, yes, yeah, you’re right. And I I can apologize, but I’m getting better and better at not saying those things. and and catching myself now, which is big, to to stop it before it happens. So I I as we talk through this, I am starting to be more aware of Hyde, what he says, what he thinks, and certainly what he does. I I conquered that long time ago. But what he says and what he thinks, I’m starting to catch that before I go wrong. Bill Gasiamis (30:36) You I’m gonna make a lot of assumptions now. You seem very unassuming as a sixty-three year old man who lived a dual life, you know, went to prison and all that. You know, you you wouldn’t pick that up from meeting you on a Zoom call or in person per se, right? and often often people who kind of live double lives, etc., There’s a an underlying cause, something that happened earlier on in life that caused them to take on a certain persona or to be a certain way or to get through a certain difficult time in their upbringing or the circumstances by which they found themselves in. Did you have a origin story? Was there something that you can think back at that perhaps that led you to take the on another persona in certain situations, or is it just how you’ve always been? Where the Pattern Began Ben Sautter (31:33) The way it came out in writing my memoir, it was from when I was little, really little, and there was two things about it. We didn’t talk about feelings. Yeah, when you get hurt, you d you don’t you don’t cry about it, or you just don’t cry about it, you don’t feel anything. And my dad was a risk taker. And he was so a lot of fun. He taught me some of my worst habits, if not most of them. And and I followed in his footsteps. Risk was inside exciting. Terror was exciting. Being scared was fun. That’s how my dad taught me. And you add that with no feeling, no fear. you just it was easy I said earlier. It was really easy to go do those things shouldn’t do. It was fun and and there was money in it and calculated risks. no problem. It was just no problem. Bill Gasiamis (32:46) Your wife seems to have found something in you that was likable enough to kind of overlook that stuff or or to not see that stuff as being a real issue. Wha what do you think it is that she saw in you that kind of had her be okay with hanging out with a guy who had been incarcerated and perhaps had these tendencies to switch between these two personalities? Ben Sautter (33:13) Well, the incarceration I told her I thought I told her everything. I told Bill Gasiamis (33:18) Ha ha. Ben Sautter (33:19) her I told her enough for me to think I told her everything. And she felt that she saw me pay my dues and She didn’t know a lot up until this last year. she didn’t see the dual side of me. Even though we struggled, she thought it was just me being me. Now it’s so much more clear. And and she’s the one that came up with the Jekyll and Hyde when I was halfway through the book. And stories were coming out she’d never heard before. And that’s when one day she said, You’re like a Jekyll and Hyde. And that really changed the framework of my story. And and it showed me or helped me understand myself, the the dual personality. It still took a little bit to build it through the book to get a full understanding of it and draw a clear picture, but By the time I was done with the book, it was easy to see the dual personality. Bill Gasiamis (34:42) Did your wife what did she like about you though? Like there was s she’s been around for a little while by the sound of it. Ben Sautter (34:52) Yeah, we’ve been together over thirty years. you’d have to ask her that. I I think well, I’m a fun guy. I I was caring and I I that Jekyll guy’s pretty decent fella. You know, I’ve I’ve successfully in business and I’m I’m a hard working guy. I I just that side of me, Nice guy. I think there was a little intrigue probably from my past that I I was an exciting guy. I did a lot of things and and even though once we met, I was really trying to taper down and really trying to get a hold of myself and which I did and and w we did really, really well together for quite a few years and and then I think I wore wore her down with that dual personality. Not think. I know I did. She finally it was too much for her and and and things kinda went south for us. We I I I can’t imagine even though I watched what I put her through, I don’t know how she lasted. she left for a lot of years after my stroke. We split up for a lot of years and and I I’ve made some changes. Bill Gasiamis (36:30) So have you been able to reconcile? Ben Sautter (36:33) Yes, yes Bill Gasiamis (36:34) Okay. Ben Sautter (36:35) we have. Bill Gasiamis (36:36) Do you think anything that you and I have just discussed, anything of that would have been possible if you didn’t have this stroke? Ben Sautter (36:47) Well, I would say no. No. Not unless I’d a wrote the book and it happened like it did. But before the stroke, no, I d I I couldn’t get there. I wanted to, I tried. We we had a lot of conversations, but I just it was like a wall. I I just couldn’t see through it. I couldn’t get through it. I just couldn’t get there. So no, we would not be having this conversation if I hadn’t had a stroke. Bill Gasiamis (37:16) That’s fascinating to me. That’s just fascinating to me that you’ve had this turnaround. And not not to say that turnarounds are complete as soon as the stroke happens or that things are easier or different or better or whatever. But like there seems to be a genuine willingness to discover what this newer version of yourself could be like and could emerge into an author, somebody who wrote book. somebody who’s reconciled with your wife, somebody who’s admitted all these things that you’ve admitted and kind of made a concerted effort to not fall into those traps. Again, you’ve associated with things. And it’s all because of a stroke, because of a carotid artery blockage, or was it a dissection? What was it? Ben Sautter (38:10) It’s just a a blockage above the Y in a little piece of it. I got so lucky. It was a huge blockage and a little tiny piece flaked off, hit me Bill Gasiamis (38:23) Uh-huh. Ben Sautter (38:23) right up in this side, and that’s why they had to go in and remove that chunk of plaque. And Bill Gasiamis (38:30) Yeah. Ben Sautter (38:31) yeah. Bill Gasiamis (38:33) And it’s kind of it seems like it’s for you at least this experience has been really positive, other than the of course risk to your physical well being and your life, right? Seems a lot of positive has come out of it. Ben Sautter (38:51) I would have to agree with that. And and I know Helen would too. I’m I’m much different. I’m a much better person than I was. I so yes, the the stroke you know, I don’t think there’s many people can say that the stroke has done me more good than bad bad. The physical part of it has been a challenge, but I I push that every day and and I’m I’m working hard with that still. But the cognitive part of it, yeah, I I’m a better I’m a better man now. Bill Gasiamis (39:29) Hmm. you’ve got a copy of the book in front of you, I believe. Ben Sautter (39:33) Yes. Bill Gasiamis (39:34) Show us the the book. Tell me a little bit about how you came to write it. Like what’s the what what why did you feel the need to write the book? Writing the Memoir That Helped Him Understand Himself Ben Sautter (39:50) So I actually started the book in twenty sixteen before I had the stroke. And I it my intention was to write a bunch of stories about all the crazy things I did, crazy things that happened to me. Just a book of stories is what I was gonna write. And once I got serious about it last September, I sat down, got out what I had, and And once I started I couldn’t stop writing. I wrote this book in ten weeks and it just poured out of me and it’s nothing like I ever would have thought I could write. it has good value. It has value for anyone that reads it. Bill Gasiamis (40:40) So it’s a 10 year project that took ten days to ten weeks or ten days to complete. Ten weeks to Ben Sautter (40:46) Ten weeks. Ten weeks. Bill Gasiamis (40:48) complete. So that’s really cool in that like the idea was already there, germinating. It it took a while. you had to overcome certain things. You had to probably move beyond, you know, certain parts of your your your transformation to get to the stage where the book was possible. it sounds like you put in work with your family, with yourself. How long have you been seeing a counselor? Ben Sautter (41:18) Right after the stroke I started seeing my psychologist and and it’s interesting to me really early on she had me doing work that was for PTSD. And she would give me lessons to bring home. And they were for the for the veterans that suffered from PTSD, which I never knew anything about it. It was kind of a phantom thing for me, because I didn’t know anything. And and I’ll be honest with you here, one night on 60 Minutes I was watching a veteran with his wife and daughter being interviewed on sixty minutes and he had the PTSD and that family was talking about him doing the it saying, doing, thinking, the exact things I was doing with my family. And that really just hit me hard. No wonder I’m doing PTSD work because the stroke is the same thing i i in a sense. And that’s where I learned so much watching that segment that night. I learned about myself, my family. And that’s when I realized that’s when I realized my family suffered the stroke as much as I did. That came to me. Bill Gasiamis (42:51) What’s interesting is I asked you about things that might have happened in your past that may have been foundational kind of things that were responsible for these two personalities of you. You mentioned your dad, your upbringing, some of the stuff that he would get up to and how you were kind of influenced by him. But y I just heard now that you’re a veteran. So did you actually attend did you serve as a veteran? Ben Sautter (43:19) I did. I did a couple of years in the Navy in right when the Vietnam War was getting was ending. In fact I was in in April of seventy-five is when it ended. And I never went overseas. I was shore duty in California. I was at NAS Alameda and and that’s a pretty big piece in my book of of my time in the Navy, which is quite a story. but I I didn’t suffer any any I didn’t go to I didn’t go to war. I did not go to war. I I Bill Gasiamis (43:55) Or no battle no battles or anything like that. And and do you think the PTSD was from something else, perhaps? Ben Sautter (44:04) I think it w just from the stroke. Just from the stroke and I didn’t know it. that’s what I got from that sixty minutes segment is is the cognitive things that I was saying that and didn’t understand what the stroke did to me. I thought I was fine. I went to work back to work a couple months after I had the stroke. I worked for a couple months and I realized I I wasn’t cutting it. Bill Gasiamis (44:36) Whose idea was it to go to counselling after the stroke? Ben Sautter (44:46) I don’t know that I don’t remember, but I would say they probably just assigned me to a psychologist to to to see where I’m at, help me through it. VA Ford Harrison is phenomenal, those people. great staff there. So they just were taking care of me, I think. I don’t remember it. Bill Gasiamis (45:06) Yeah, might have just been standard part of the approach to helping somebody who’s a VA. Ben Sautter (45:14) That would be my my my guess that it was just part of their program. Bill Gasiamis (45:20) And it sounds like you were pretty willing or or were you resistant at the beginning. Do you recall how you felt about being in counseling? Ben Sautter (45:29) Yeah, I I was fine to go there and really really like this psychologist I see and and the other ones. I’ve seen numerous psychologists there and yeah, they I always feel better coming out of there than I do when I walk in. So no doubt. Bill Gasiamis (45:51) Have you expanded on your happy, sad, angry emotions? Ben Sautter (45:55) I’m I’m pretty even now. I don’t get too wild. When I first had the stroke I was very emotional. I was tears in my eyes over almost nothing. it was quite a struggle for Bill Gasiamis (46:13) That’s common. Ben Sautter (46:14) s some years. And and now I I I’ve I’m very well in control of my emotions and to the point that I’m I might be a fairly boring guy. I like to have fun. I laugh a lot. I’m not the wild guy that I was, but so so I I don’t have much anger. I don’t have much sadness. My anger y my sadness used to turn to anger. So I really had happy and angry is really what I had. I I don’t go there anymore. Life is too good for me now. I don’t I don’t have sadness or anger. Bill Gasiamis (46:55) every so often you say a couple of things and it triggers me to ask you the next question again. And it’s kind of my job to probe. And this is not a counseling session, but it’s very fascinating. Was there perhaps some kind of a personality disorder there, like a like a bipolar or something like that? Because you’re describing like happy, angry, or do you know there’s no in between and it’s very bipolar ish. Whereas I know it’s not bipolar. Because in Bipala they’re described as being happy and really, really kind of deep, sad extremes. But you seem to occupy a similar kind of space does that ring a bell? Did anyone ever bring that up, perhaps? Ben Sautter (47:38) No, I’m I’m I’m d just too happy all the time, always not in the good mood that I always used to be, but I lived pretty happy life. I I just didn’t let the rest get me. But when I went off in the weeds, I my anger was would get away from me. Bill Gasiamis (48:01) That’s a great way to describe it because that’s tend tends to be how anger is. Like it just kind of builds up and builds up and then it gets away. And if you do that often enough, it becomes really easy to get to anger. And what people don’t realise is that anger is also and complaining and all those types of things also releases dopamine in the brain. There is a reward that people get for misbehaving Ben Sautter (48:26) Mm. Bill Gasiamis (48:26) and expressing anger. Otherwise you wouldn’t do it. There is the there is also the I I’m trying to achieve something or get something done or I’m trying to intimidate some someone or I’m trying to you know get a child to take action somewhere where they frustrated me or whatever. So there there is a a a th this underlying purpose for anger, but also it’s a rewarding to the brain when you act out in an angry way. Ben Sautter (48:58) I think that’s a really good point. When I was younger, I would break I would look to break something. I would get so mad I just I would break something and then I felt good about it. Okay, I got that broke. Now I’m now I can be happy again. So just exactly what you just said. Interesting. Hmm. Bill Gasiamis (49:19) Yeah. That is interesting. It’s interesting and fascinating. Stroke as a Catalyst for Change This has been one of the most interesting conversations I’ve had because we’ve barely spoken about the stroke and how you experienced it and what it did to you. But it seems like we’ve spoken about it enough in that it was a catalyst to something new, something different. And often my attempt has always been in these interviews is to tell people about the fact You know, we share a story of what life was like before stroke for people. And then we sure share the story of like what happened during the stroke time and then what happened after. And if you’re currently in the stroke moment, it’s really, really hard. You you don’t know where things are headed. There’s a lot of uncertainty, a lot of change, a lot of experiences that you never saw coming, you know, things that are happening. You might be experiencing your body differently, your cognition differently. your hearing, your speech, it all might be different and it’s extremely full on in that moment. And the idea is, well, let’s continue with the conversation and try and move and and paint a picture of what life might be like for somebody, even though they’re going through a really hard time five, six, seven, ten years down the track, you know? And you’re in the 10 year mark and it’s taken you 10 years to get here, write a book, reflect on your past the way that you’ve been reflecting. mend your relationships, become more aware of your behavior, the one that served you, the one that didn’t. And it’s not really a story about stroke, but it’s stroke seems to have been the catalyst for an opportunity for you to look at things a different way and for it to break certain patterns that were embedded that now have been able to be in kind of like fizzled. You know, the edges of them were fizzled away so that something could enter and you know, like throw a spanner in the works and change the way the cogs moved. and it’s just fascinating that stroke can do that. if we didn’t talk about that part of stroke, that good part of stroke, people might only see stroke as only ever being a terrible thing that happened to them, which I also understand if somebody feels that way, because there’s a big spectrum of how people are impacted by stroke. So I don’t wanna take that away from people who are suffering. but you you know, like the shift and the change that you’ve had through a stroke is just night and day, it’s phenomenal. Ben Sautter (52:07) One of the bigger things I think I’ve learned that goes with that is It’s been a few years ago I learned that that guy that I was, that guy’s gone. And I am not gonna be that guy ever again. So I I’m looking at at the guy that I am, who I believe is a better guy than I was anyway. So that’s been a good thing. And I think that comes from my wife and from my psychologist at the VA that it it’s There’s no more who I was, it’s who I am. And and that’s come a long ways because of that, I Bill Gasiamis (52:51) Yeah. Ben Sautter (52:51) believe. Bill Gasiamis (52:52) And who you’re becoming by the sound of things. Ben Sautter (52:55) That too. Yes. Yeah, because I I do that’s a really good point. I do know I will get better. I will be better as time goes on. But you gotta keep you gotta keep working at it. Bill Gasiamis (53:10) Yeah. Being better and getting better, does that mean that the f the the way the leg feels is different or can the the the way the leg feels not necessarily go back to normal and you still are getting better, you still are improving, even though your leg perhaps stays Ben Sautter (53:29) Lake skiing. my pain is way, way, way down to where I don’t my pain is nil. I can go well, I I do a lot of needles, I do a lot of injections, I do a lot for it, but those are getting less. so th I’m hurting less, I’m hiking better, I ride my bike a lot, all those things. are I’m gaining the numbness, the tingle’s gone. That electricity thing like your fingers in a socket, that’s all gone. The s hard stiffness is down in my lower leg and my foot, so my leg’s better. yeah physically I’m getting better, better better. Bill Gasiamis (54:22) Yeah. Where can people go and find the book? Ben Sautter (54:27) Amazon. Amazon. Mr. Hyde and Me. The name of the book. Yeah, I’m Bill Gasiamis (54:32) Yeah. The links will Yeah. Ben Sautter (54:35) this is me. This picture is me on Bill Gasiamis (54:38) Yeah. Ben Sautter (54:39) the corner, on the corner of Wilson and Main Street in downtown Bozeman. Bozeman, Montana. So took a took a lot of thought to get to make that picture and to get that shadow just right. So my shadow guy facing into him head on. And been a lot of been a lot of reward doing this. This I called this therapy on steroids. writing this book was incredibly therapeutic. Bill Gasiamis (55:14) Yeah. I can imagine. Ben, thank you so much for reaching out. Really appreciate your conversation and your honesty and I really wish you well with your recovery ongoing. Ben Sautter (55:26) And thank you. This is one of the better conversations I’ve had about my my situation ever. So Bill, I can’t thank you enough. I appreciate it and I’ll look forward to this all turns out. Bill Gasiamis (55:40) Well, that’s it for another episode of the Recovery After Stroke podcast. If there’s one thing to take from this episode, it’s Ben’s line. That guy that I was, that guy’s gone. I’m not going to be that guy ever again. A stroke took something from Ben, but it also gave him a level of self-awareness and emotional range he says he never had access to before. And it helped him rebuild a marriage he thought he’d lost for good. If you want the full story, Ben’s memoir. Mr. Hyde and me is available on Amazon. You’ll find links in the bio. And if this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. And if you’re looking for more tools for your own recovery, check out my book, The Unexpected Way That a Stroke Became the Best Thing That Happened. It’s available at recoveryafterstroke.com/book. If this show has helped you or someone you love get through their journey with stroke, you can support the show to help keep it going on patreon.com/recoveryafterstroke. And if you want to work with me directly, my coaching program Momentum offers one-on-one support and accountability for stroke survivors who feel stuck. More at recoveryafterstroke.com/momentum. Thanks for listening and I’ll see you in the next episode. The post Jekyll, Hyde, and the Stroke That Changed Everything: Ben Sautter’s Story appeared first on Recovery After Stroke.

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In the decade since she joined The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Dorit Kemsley has been through some things. There are the robberies, but also lawsuits, debts, and a public course of dealing with PTSD - something that her husband PK pretty openly found annoying. Put it all together and it's no surprise that their marriage hit a breaking point.  Here's the Homeless Not Toothless clip we talked about.  Sponsors Upgrade your every day! Download the Quince app for app-exclusive offers, or go to Quince.com/TRASHY. Get free shipping on your order and 365-day returns. Now available in Canada and UK, too! Vinted. See what's hiding in your closet - you might be surprised how much you can earn with Vinted! Download the Vinted app for free to start listing with no seller fees, and for a limited time, enjoy free shipping in the US. Want early, ad-free episodes, regular Dumpster Dives, bonus divorces, limited series, Zoom hangouts, and more? Join us at patreon.com/trashydivorces! Want a personalized message for someone in your life? Check us out on Cameo! To advertise on our podcast, please reach out to info@amplitudemediapartners.com. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Anisha shares the story of an introduced marriage that quickly became emotionally and physically abusive. What began with criticism, confusing outbursts, and attacks on her identity gradually expanded into isolation, career control, threats of divorce, verbal degradation, and severe physical violence. Through it all, Anisha kept searching for an explanation. As a healer, optimist, and problem solver, she believed that if she could understand her husband's wounds, communicate more effectively, become a better wife, or find the right help, perhaps she could finally reach him and change their marriage.  As the violence escalates, Anisha begins recognizing that the problem was never her inability to fix the relationship. She also encounters another painful layer of her story when some of the people and organizations she turns to for help misunderstand, minimize, or retraumatize her. Eventually, support from her family, education about abuse, and one powerful question from a therapist help Anisha stop searching for evidence that her husband might change and begin looking at the evidence of who he had consistently shown himself to be. Anisha also shares how she rebuilt her life, healed from the trauma, and transformed her experience into advocacy for other survivors. It's a story of criticism, confusing outbursts, attacks on her identity, isolation, coercive control, threats of divorce, verbal degradation, severe physical violence, minimization, retraumatization, second abuse, the healing process, victim-playing, arranged marriage, introduced marriage, victim blaming, blame shifting, gaslighting, denial, walking on eggshells, confusion, cognitive dissonance, trauma bond, intermittent reinforcement, cycle of abuse, escalating abuse, criticism disguised as self-improvement, loss of independence, financial abuse, protecting the abuser, PTSD, empathy, restraining orders, and overfunctioning. CONTENT WARNING - THIS EPISODE GRAPHICALLY DISCUSSES PHYSICAL ABUSE. You can reach Anisha at https://www.power2breakfree.com/ If you are in search of therapy from professionals dedicated to dealing with TRAUMA - Narcissist Apocalypse recommends REBOUND THERAPY and they can be reached at  hellorebound.com/na Click if you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@pm.me Click on the title to read about Coercive Control as Care: Signs & Patterns Sign up to our Domestic Violence Newsletter  Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

The Value of Lived Experience Lived experience is reshaping conversations across mental health but what does it really mean, and where does it belong? In this episode of PTSD and Beyond, Dr. Deb Lindh explores the growing role of lived experience, the relationship between peer support and professional care, and why collaboration, not competition, is essential for the future of mental health. Join us for an evidence-informed conversation that invites you to reflect on the wisdom your own experiences may hold. What value do you believe lived experience brings to mental health care? If this episode resonated with you, please follow, rate, and share PTSD and Beyond. Your support helps bring trauma-informed conversations to more people around the world. If you or someone you know is struggling, support is available. In the U.S., you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. It is available 24/7 and free and confidential. Follow, subscribe, and leave a review to support PTSD and Beyond. Join us on Ko-Fi to help keep these conversations going.

Lara Krinsky opens this IDF Live briefing by introducing Jonny Daniels—activist, social media journalist, former senior advisor to Israel's Deputy Minister of Defense, and founder of From the Depths—as a trusted voice helping audiences separate facts from noise during a fast-moving war. Daniels begins by stressing his personal connection to the IDF as a former paratrooper and says the region is in a waiting period, with Iran under heavy economic pressure even if the expected kinetic action has not yet materialized. On Gaza, he is skeptical that any “Board of Peace” arrangement will truly resolve the Hamas problem, arguing that Hamas may play for time or tactical advantage but that no Israeli government will allow it to return to its pre–October 7 position. He also warns audiences to be careful in the information space, saying misinformation spreads from anti-Israel sources and even irresponsible Jewish outlets, and that people should rely on verified sources rather than doom-scrolling or chasing unconfirmed reports. Looking at the Diaspora, Daniels says Jews around the world are facing more fear and antisemitism, including in the UK, France, Canada, and Australia, but he also sees many becoming more willing to speak up publicly for Israel. He closes by describing IDF morale as very high because Israelis are literally fighting for their homeland, while emphasizing that prolonged war still takes a psychological toll and that FIDF's support for soldiers' well-being, PTSD care, rehabilitation, and families is essential.

Dr. Stephanie Sacks is a licensed clinical psychologist, CPT trainer, and co-founder of MindScience Collective, a continuing education platform delivering practical, evidence-based training for therapists.In private practice, she specializes in cognitive behavioral treatments for PTSD and trauma-related disorders and serves as a national trainer and consultant for organizations including the National Center for PTSD, Strongstar, and Cohen Veterans Network. She is also an adjunct professor and published author in the field of trauma.MindScience CollectiveAbout Dr. Stephanie SacksTraining & ConsultationBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-trauma-therapist--5739761/support.---Thank you to our Sponsors: Jane App - use code GUY1MO at https://janesoftware.partnerlinks.io/ngvcwcxqt2jx-4afv8i (https://jane.app/book_a_demo)Beducated - Complete the quiz for one month free https://beduc.at/pd2633-traumatherapist

Charlie Morley is an internationally recognized teacher of lucid dreaming, trauma-informed sleep, and mindfulness, with over 25 years of experience in lucid dreaming practice. A bestselling Hay House author, two-time TED speaker, and Mindvalley coach, Charlie has taught workshops and retreats in more than 20 countries and has worked with organizations including the NHS, the British Army, Reuters, and Oxford and Cambridge Universities. He is also the author of five books, including Wake Up to Sleep. Charlie's work bridges ancient Buddhist practices with modern science. His lucid dreaming methods have been featured in groundbreaking PTSD research, with peer-reviewed studies showing significant reductions in PTSD symptoms and nightmare distress among participants. Based in London, Charlie continues to teach, write, and train therapists while helping people use lucid dreaming to improve sleep, process trauma, and enhance emotional well-being. |SHOWNOTES:

Send us Fan MailThis week we welcome Leslie Lopez, host of Mothers in Arms and an advocate for accessible third-party reproduction. She speaks openly about stillbirth, infertility, and the mental health journey of building a family through surrogacy, as a single mother.Leslie spent six years working with California Fertility Partners before having her biological daughter as an independent parent via egg donation and gestational surrogacy. Her story isn't just about the medical process — it's about the unexpected grief, the tools she built to survive the emotional weight of six years of treatment, and how she found hope and community on the other side.Leslie discusses the mental health side of infertility, and navigating trauma while pursuing parenthood, and building resilience through non-traditional family structures.Thanks Leslie!YouTube: https://youtube.com/@mothersinarmspod?si=LMqJcusLbvOEXXhwApple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mothers-in-arms/id1768849257Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4zXe2X5Y7SVarKhRzJFbpP?si=Rp6M1syiQjOPb4bql5ppEQ&utm_source=copy-linkTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mothersinarms.pod?_r=1&_t=ZP-98dvfDMKDKpSupport the show

The long-term impact of Jeffrey Epstein's abuse on survivors has been profound, stretching far beyond the immediate trauma of exploitation. Many have spoken about enduring struggles with trust, intimacy, and mental health, with conditions such as PTSD, depression, and anxiety becoming lifelong challenges. The abuse often took place during formative years, leaving deep psychological scars that shaped how survivors viewed themselves and the world around them. For some, the legal battles and constant public discussion of Epstein have compounded the harm, forcing them to relive their experiences repeatedly in a system that often seemed indifferent to their pain.Beyond the psychological toll, survivors have faced lasting social and economic consequences. Some described how the abuse derailed their education or career paths, cutting off opportunities and leaving them with instability that persisted for years. Others experienced stigma or disbelief when they tried to come forward, adding isolation to their trauma. Even after Epstein's death, the slow pace of accountability and the continued prominence of the powerful figures linked to him have been painful reminders of the imbalance between survivor suffering and institutional protection. In this sense, the legacy of Epstein's abuse is not confined to the past—it continues to shape lives, serving as a stark reminder of how long-term harm can ripple outward when justice is delayed or denied.To contact me:bobbycapucci@protonmail.comSource:https://www.wbur.org/cognoscenti/2022/01/04/ghislaine-maxwell-jeffrey-epstein-survivors-julie-dahlstrom-rachel-wechslerBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-epstein-chronicles--5003294/support.

Send us Fan MailSome weeks don't just feel good. They change the trajectory of a life.https://www.motorelief.org/We're joined by Mike Bobbitt, military veteran and president of Motorcycle Relief Project, a nonprofit that takes veterans and first responders dealing with PTSD, anxiety, depression, and other invisible injuries on five-day adventure motorcycle relief rides. The bikes and the Rocky Mountain and Arizona landscapes pull you out of the daily grind, but that's only the start. The real engine is the small-group environment where you can finally stop performing “fine,” talk with people who speak your language, and learn practical tools you can actually use when you get back home.We get into why Motorcycle Relief Project refuses to judge the source of trauma, how years of bottled stress can turn into isolation, anger, and broken relationships, and what it looks like when that pressure finally releases in a safe space. Mike also explains how adventure riding builds confidence fast, why community matters more than horsepower, and how alumni stay connected so the support doesn't end when the ride ends.If you're looking for veteran mental health resources, first responder PTSD support, or a motorcycle nonprofit doing measurable, human work, this conversation points you to a clear next step. Listen through, share it with someone who needs it, then subscribe and leave a review so more riders and families can find this help when it matters most.Thank you Episode Sponsor - Viking Bags:   https://www.vikingbags.com/Viking Bags BMW R1250 GS Adventure Touring Hard Side Cases:https://www.vikingbags.com/collections/bmw-r-1250-gs-adventure-touring-hard-side-casesBecome a Member: https://www.buzzsprout.com/2126578/supporters/newBuy Ron a Coffee: https://buymeacoffee.com/peacelovemotoGear Up at the Shop: https://peacelovemotostore.com

[Content Warning]: discussions of domestic violence, coercive control, child abuse, grooming, sexual abuse, spiritual abuse, and complex PTSD. What happens after you escape abuse? In this deeply personal conversation, Jan Broberg sits down with trauma recovery coach and Brave and Free founder Anna Lopes. Anna shares how childhood exposure to domestic violence shaped her understanding of love, how she entered a coercively controlling marriage at nineteen, and how she ultimately escaped with little more than a hidden passport and determination to survive. Together, Jan and Anna explore coercive control, financial abuse, digital surveillance, spiritual abuse, grooming, complex PTSD, and the long road of recovery. They also discuss the trauma response of fawning, rebuilding identity after abuse, and why healing happens through supportive relationships and community. This episode offers validation, language, and hope for survivors navigating life beyond survival mode. Where To Find Anna: Insta: @Iambraveandfree Brave and Free community Discovering Yourself After Abuse WorkbookIf you or someone you know is experiencing emotional distress or suicidal ideation, please access the resources below:National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: Call/Text 988National Sexual Assault Hotline  (RAINN) : 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Alliance for Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264  

FLASHBACK FRIDAYS: Michael Hoffmann is an author and has written The Face of the Iguana; Freedom from Toxic Belief Systems: A Journey in Healing and Transformation. In that publication, he relates his involvement in a doomsday cult and how he escaped and revealed the nefarious tactics of cults. He expertly synthesized various ways to disassemble the negative narratives of fear-based beliefs. He included a summary of 5 years of after-life research and studies.Michael Hoffmann is a Cognitive Behavioral Counselor, Certified Neurofeedback Provider, and international consultant and trainer. Mr. Hoffmann worked as a clinician, both nationally and internationally, in the administration of EEG Neurotherapy treatment for patients with alcohol and other drug addictions, ADD, PTSD, and other anxiety disorders. He conducted extensive training events regarding Neurofeedback for psychologists, psychiatrists, and other licensed counselors in the U.S. and countries of Latin America and Europe. For ten years, he successfully applied his Cognitive-behavioral knowledge and skills with high-risk offender populations in a criminal justice setting.Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/next-level-soul-podcast-with-alex-ferrari--4858435/support.Take your spiritual journey to the next level with Next Level Soul TV — our dedicated streaming home for conscious storytelling and soulful transformation.Experience exclusive programs, original series, movies, tv shows, workshops, audiobooks, meditations, and a growing library of inspiring content created to elevate, heal, and awaken. Begin your membership or explore our free titles here: https://www.nextlevelsoul.tv

Everyone is talking about what AI can do but this is an episode about what AI might be doing to us... and also why it tries to be so engaging. Trauma surgeon Dr. Jeremy Heffner shares the remarkable story behind his new book, Proof of the Impossible, weaving together his own recovery from PTSD with thousands of conversations he had with today's leading AI models. We explore why these systems are designed to keep us engaged, how they learn to mirror and influence human behavior, why authenticity may become our most valuable resource, and what every parent should understand before AI becomes a child's favorite companion. This conversation left me thinking about attention, purpose, struggle, and what it truly means to be human in an age of machines. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is deeply misunderstood, heavily stigmatized, and far more complex than just "being emotional". In this episode of Ask Kati Anything, licensed marriage and family therapist Kati Morton breaks down the official BPD diagnostic criteria from the DSM, explaining how BPD symptoms actually present in real life, therapy offices, and everyday relationships. She explores the underlying fear of abandonment, idealization and devaluation (splitting), identity disturbances, and why BPD so frequently overlaps with PTSD, trauma, and ADHD. Plus, discover actionable evidence-based BPD treatment options like Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), Schema Therapy, and Mentalization-Based Therapy (MBT) to help manage emotional dysregulation, navigate relationship boundaries, and work toward long-term remission. Timestamps 00:00 - Introduction to Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) 01:00 - Why "Personality Disorder" is a Misleading Term 01:55 - How BPD is Diagnosed: DSM Criteria Overview 02:55 - BPD Symptom 1: Fear of Abandonment & Attachment Styles 04:45 - BPD Symptom 2: Splitting, Idealization & Devaluation 07:25 - BPD Symptom 3: Identity Disturbance & Chronic Emptiness 08:31 - BPD Symptom 4: Impulsivity in Daily Life 12:05 - BPD Symptom 5: Recurrent Suicidal Behavior & Self-Harm 16:05 - BPD Symptom 6: Affective Instability (BPD vs Bipolar Disorder) 18:18 - BPD Symptom 7: Chronic Feelings of Emptiness 19:22 - BPD Symptom 8: Inappropriate, Intense Anger 21:53 - BPD Symptom 9: Stress-Related Paranoia & Dissociation 25:14 - Is it BPD or Just Being Emotional? 26:46 - What Does Having "BPD Traits" Mean? 28:49 - BPD vs. Anxiety, ADHD, and PTSD Overlaps 33:25 - The Deep Link Between Childhood Trauma and BPD 40:21 - Why People with BPD Push Loved Ones Away 41:35 - What is Quiet BPD? 43:33 - Can You Have a Healthy Relationship with BPD? 47:53 - Setting Healthy Boundaries Without Triggering Abandonment 53:05 - Can BPD be Cured? Understanding BPD Remission 56:23 - BPD Treatment: Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) Explained 01:04:33 - Alternative Therapies: MBT, Schema Therapy, & TFP 01:08:30 - The Role of Medication in BPD Treatment YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/c/katimorton?sub_confirmation=1 MY BOOKS Why Do I Keep Doing This? https://geni.us/XoyLSQ Traumatized https://geni.us/Bfak0j Are u ok? https://geni.us/sva4iUY ONLINE THERAPY - Enjoy 10% OFF your first month If you're looking for a therapist, BetterHelp can connect you with a licensed online professional: https://betterhelp.com/kati This is an affiliate link, which means a portion of your signup helps support the podcast at no extra cost to you. PARTNERSHIPS Nick Freeman | nick@biglittlemedia.co DISCLAIMER The information provided in this podcast is for educational and informational purposes only and is not intended as medical or mental health advice. It should not be used to diagnose or treat any health problem or disease. Always consult with a qualified healthcare professional for diagnosis and treatment. Viewing this content does not establish a therapist-client relationship. #mentalhealth #therapist #borderline Ask Kati Anything ep.326 | Your mental health podcast, with Kati Morton, LMFT Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Send us Fan MailThe fastest way to miss someone in pain is to only believe the “approved” version of distress. We sit down with Liana Lucine, a former UK London Met police officer and trainer, to unpack how stereotypes shape everything from mental health calls to workplace culture and even how we label victims. When anxiety, depression, grief, or trauma don't match the mental picture we expect, the response can turn into dismissal, jokes, or silence and that's where risk grows for first responders and the people we serve. We talk about how depression can look different across genders, why anger and outbursts can be a red flag, and why trauma sometimes shows up as numbness or a blank face rather than tears. Liana shares insight from seeing victims navigate high-pressure environments, and we connect that to common coping tools like dissociation and memory gaps. We also get into the hard truth about recovery: timing matters. Mandatory debriefs or forced “early therapy” may feel supportive on paper, but they can remove choice and backfire when someone isn't ready. From EMDR to peer support to flexible options that respect autonomy, we make the case for systems that protect organizations without sacrificing the individual. We also spotlight Liana's work on male victims of sexual assault and harassment, the stigma that keeps men quiet, and how gendered language in training can harm everyone by boxing people into roles they never chose. If you care about first responder mental health, PTSD prevention, and better leadership, this conversation offers a clear next step: slow down, challenge the assumption, and ask one more honest question. Subscribe, share this with a coworker, and leave a review so more first responders can find practical, human support when it counts.Buy her book at https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GZDWFTG8?lv=shuf&channelId=500&plpRedirect=mhFallbackYou can find her on her website at https://lucinetraining.co.uk or YouTube at https://www.youtube.com/@LucineTraining and on Instagram at  https://www.instagram.com/lucinetraining/Support the showYouTube Channel For The Podcast

This episode of Unashamed Unafraid introduces guests Mike (“Sacramento Mike”) and his son Weston, with Mike visiting Utah from Hawaii for his daughter's wedding. Mike describes growing up in an LDS family near Sacramento, first encountering pornography at 11, becoming compulsively drawn to it, and being forcibly sexually assaulted by older boys around age 13–14, which deepened his shame and porn use; he later learned those boys were arrested for raping family members. At 18, after drug use, he prayed on a beach, quit drugs, served a mission in Ecuador, married, and raised a family while hiding a long-term pornography problem that escalated alongside law-enforcement work in Oakland and PTSD. After multiple deaths in his care and suicidal crises, he sought help, was retired from duty, and recounts a 2018 moment when his wife, prompted by God, prevented a planned suicide, helping him recognize God's love. Mike has now been sober from pornography and sexual acting out for 8 years. Make a donation and become an Outsider!Follow us on social media! Instagram, Facebook & TikTokSubscribe to our YouTubeCheck out our recommended resourcesWant to rep the message? Shop our MERCH!  For more inspiration, read our blogDo you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.comTimestamps:01:28 Wedding Weekend Banter03:02 First Exposure To Porn05:25 Sexual Assault And Confusion07:14 Shame And Silence08:43 Beach Prayer Wake Up11:32 Mission And Marriage13:51 Law Enforcement And Trauma15:22 Confessing and Hiding Secrets16:30 PTSD and Relapse Cycle18:14 Family Distance and Regrets21:07 Deaths on the Job23:24 Retired and Identity Crisis25:22 Therapy and Escalation26:10 2018 Suicide Crisis27:31 Gods Love and Closing28:25 The Dream32:59 Weston's thoughts on dad's recovery39:11 Life After Disclosure41:34 Warrior Heart Boot Camp49:15 Helping Other Men54:19 Gratitude by Brandon Lake

Research suggests that up to 70% of adults living with ADHD have another mental health diagnosis. Here, Desiree Matthews, NP, explores the connection between ADHD and common mood disorders, including anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, and PTSD. Resources: Mood Disorders and ADHD Free Download: Signs of Depression That May Surprise You Read: When a Mood Disorder Looks Like ADHD — and Vice Versa Read: Treating Both Depression and ADHD Safely Read: Comorbid Q&A: Treating Mood Disorders, Anxiety, or Autism Alongside ADHD Access the video and slides for podcast episode #614 here: https://www.additudemag.com/webinar/adhd-or-anxiety-depression-trauma-mood-disorders/ This episode is brought to you by SimplePractice. If you are ready to simplify the business side of your practice, now is a great time to try SimplePractice. Start with a 7-day free trial, then get 50% off your first three months. Just go to SimplePractice.com to claim the offer. This episode is also brought to you by BetterHelp. Give online therapy a try at betterhelp.com/additude and get on your way to being your best self. Thank you for listening to ADDitude's ADHD Experts podcast. Please consider subscribing to the magazine (additu.de/subscribe) to support our mission of providing ADHD education and support.

✨ If you're ready to take the next step toward a life that's aligned with your purpose, learn more about my ICF-accredited Coach Certification Program + apply here: https://www.alyssanobriga.com/apply-ibogaine   ==== This week on The Healing & Human Potential Podcast, I'm sharing one of the most profound experiences of my life, my ibogaine experience. It's a plant medicine with roots in West African ceremony, and researchers are now studying what it can do for trauma, depression, and PTSD. I did three fractional doses over one week at a medical clinic in Cancun, each one carrying a completely different intention and opening up a completely different world. I share what came up in each journey: meeting the two parts of my personality I've come to call my Optimizer and my Playful self, learning how fear actually wants to be met instead of healed, and realizing how much I'd been overriding my own body without knowing it. The medicine seemed to mirror whatever I brought into it, and what it gave back was heart-opening and deeply clarifying; more than anything, it reminded me how much wisdom is already inside us, waiting to be heard. Disclaimer: This episode is for educational purposes only and reflects Alyssa's personal experience. It is not intended as medical advice or a recommendation to use ibogaine. Ibogaine carries serious medical risks and should only be considered where legal, under the care of qualified medical professionals, following appropriate medical screening. Always consult your healthcare provider before making decisions about your health or treatment. ====   Beond Ibogaine Treatment Center: https://beondibogaine.com   ====   Website: alyssanobriga.com Instagram: @alyssanobriga TikTok - @alyssanobriga Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/show/6b5s2xbA2d3pETSvYBZ9YR Apple Podcast - https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/healing-human-potential/id1705626495   ==== Alyssa Nobriga International, LLC - Disclaimer This podcast is presented solely for educational and entertainment purposes. It is not intended as a substitute for the advice of a physician, professional coach, psychotherapist, or any other qualified professional. We shall in no event be held liable to any party for any reason arising directly or indirectly for the use or interpretation of the information presented in this video. Copyright 2023, Alyssa Nobriga International, LLC - All rights reserved.

When he was six years old, his family moved into an old farmhouse where the nights were filled with footsteps outside his bedroom door, whispered voices, and the unmistakable feeling that someone else was in the house. Although his parents tried to reassure him, other members of the family occasionally experienced strange things of their own, making it difficult to completely dismiss what was happening.The family eventually moved away, and whatever had frightened them seemed to stay behind. Or so he thought. More than thirty years later, after hearing a conversation about "paranormal PTSD," he suddenly realized the little routines he'd carried throughout his entire adult life—sleeping with the bedroom door cracked open, leaving lights on, and rushing up dark basement stairs—had all started in that farmhouse.Did the haunting end when they moved... or did part of it quietly stay with him?#ParanormalPTSD #HauntedHouse #HauntedChildhood #RealGhostStories #GhostStories #Paranormal #OldFarmhouse #LifeAfterHaunting #Supernatural #Unexplained #ChildhoodMemories #GhostEncounter #AfterTheHaunting #TrueParanormal #FearLove real ghost stories? Want even more?Become a supporter and unlock exclusive extras, ad-free episodes, and advanced access:

In this interview, author Stephen Harrigan discusses his historical novel, The Leopard is Loose, which centers on a real-life animal escape in 1950s Oklahoma City. The narrative follows young Grady McCarty and his family as they navigate the psychological and social shifts of the post-World War II era. Harrigan explains how the leopard serves as a catalyst for a community already destabilized by veterans' PTSD, looming Cold War anxieties, and the rigid structures of racial segregation. By filtering the story through Grady's childhood bewilderment and adult reflection, the book examines a family struggling to reconcile past trauma with an uncertain future. The discussion highlights how the pursuit of the escaped animal energized men who felt obsolete in a changing society, while also exposing the deep rifts within American domestic life.1916 TEXAS

Kegan "Smurf" Gill is a former U.S. Navy F/A-18 Super Hornet pilot and the author of Phoenix Revival. In 2014, he survived the fastest ejection in naval aviation history, an event that left him facing devastating physical injuries and the invisible wounds of trauma. After battling PTSD, addiction, and a long road to recovery, Gill returned to the cockpit before ultimately dedicating himself to advocating for veteran mental health and alternative approaches to healing. Through his speaking, writing, and advocacy work, he shares a powerful message of resilience, purpose, and the possibility of rebuilding a life after profound adversity. Privacy isn't Paranoia, it's Protection. Download Glacier - https://srs.site/glacierapp Website - https://theglacierapp.com Shawn Ryan Show Sponsors: Go to https://rorra.com/SRS for an exclusive discount on the Rorra Countertop System and tap into clean water today. Search onX Offroad in the App Store or Google Play to access an off-road navigation app with trail maps, land boundaries, camping info, and offline capability. https://www.onxmaps.com/offroad/app Go to https://moinkbox.com/SRS to get free chicken wings in every box for a year as long as you're a paying customer. Try Amazon Music Unlimited for music, podcasts, and audiobooks all in one app—learn more at https://music.amazon.com. Don't sleep on [@ultrapouches]. New customers get 15% Off with code SRS at https://takeultra.com! #UltraPouches #ad Kegan Gill Links: Website - https://www.KeganGill.com Phoenix Revival - https://a.co/d/03IHVaV7 IG - https://www.instagram.com/kegansmurfgill LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/kegan-gill-6986a4259 YouTube - https://youtube.com/@kegangill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Sean Strickland's journey to becoming a UFC champion has always sparked debate, but does childhood trauma create elite competitors?On this episode of The Fighter and The Kid, Brendan Schaub, Bryan Callen, and Fight Camp co-founder Khalil Zahar dive into one of the most fascinating conversations in MMA. They break down Sean Strickland's upbringing, David Goggins' mentality, whether adversity is necessary for greatness, and the balance between genetics, work ethic, and mental toughness.The conversation expands into youth sports, parenting, talent versus discipline, professional athletes after retirement, UFC fighter pay, CTE, PTSD, and why some people thrive under pressure while others don't.If you've ever wondered what separates world champions from everyone else, this episode explores the psychology behind greatness.O'Reilly - https://oreillyauto.com/FIGHTERSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.