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Welcome back Buddies! For this latest 'sode on Vinyl Community Podcasts, we have a guest and a conversation so rare, so valuable, so unique, that we had to enlist another host to reign in this collecting madness! Joined in the co-pilot seat by Spinz Vinyl (Jason), we speak with Wayne Johnson: co-owner and co-founder of Rockaway Records in Silver Lake, CA. Founded alongside brother Gary Johnson in 1979, Rockaway has seen the peaks, valleys, and rebirth of music on vinyl, while also growing, shrinking, and pivoting their business in various forms along the way. What once was the largest store in the Los Angeles area, Rockaway has diversified their focus to not only include the rarest of vinyl recordings, but also pieces of memorabilia that can only be dreamed about.  We are talking much more than a Beatles' "Butcher" covers here: think BIGGER...think RARER....think UNBELIEVABLE pieces, unreal stories, and customers that would make the Rock 'n Roll Hall of Fame Museum blush: Jimmy Page, Steven Tyler, Robert Plant, Chris Robinson, and other music loyalty. Even Lucinda Williams once worked at this legendary store! We are talking items that the public rarely gets to see, with access and the ability to provide a revolving inventory that not few stores can compete with.  Also in the conversation Wayne shares some great advice for those considering seriously purchasing unique vinyl or memorabilia, gives his thoughts on the emerging "slabbing" of vinyl, and offers his opinions on auction house buys and sourcing today versus 10, 15, 30, and even 45 years ago at the beginning of his journey. It's a fun walk down memory lane, and one you will find here RIGHT NOW on Vinyl Community Podcasts! Walk with us!

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What's rarer than finding a 4-leaf clover? Rarer than being struck by lightning? Or even rarer than winning the lottery? They're such exceptional occurrences that the chances of them happening to you seem slim! But there are even more impossibly rare events in this world that make those things look common. From finding the rarest element on earth, to spawning the rarest Minecraft mob, it's time to take a look at some of the least probable things to happen in the known universe. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

In this episode of the Brain & Life podcast, co-host Dr. Katy Peters is joined by Christina Coates, president and founding member of an organization called Hypertrophic Olivary Degeneration Association (HODA). Christina shares about her own journey with hypertrophic olivary degeneration and how she was inspired to found HODA and build an advocacy community. Dr. Peters is then joined by Dr. Vikram Shakkottai, professor of neurology at UT Southwestern Medical Center in Dallas, Texas and Dedman Family Distinguished Chair in Neurologic Disease. Dr. Shakkottai discusses cerebellar ataxia, hypertrophic olivary degeneration, how these disorders are treated, and what upcoming research there is to look forward to.   We invite you to participate in our listener survey! By participating in the brief survey, you will have the opportunity to enter your name and email address for a chance to win one of five $100 Amazon gift cards.   Additional Resources HODA - Working to make HOD History Forming a Foundation Bolsters Hope After a Rare Diagnosis Advice for Caregivers of People with Rare Diseases What is ataxia and cerebellar or spinocerebellar degeneration?   Other Brain & Life Episodes on this Topic Neurofibromatosis Advocacy and Community Building with the Gilbert Family Foundation Making a Lasting Impact with The Brain Donor Project's Tish Hevel We Are Brave Together with Jessica Patay Strength in Unity: Advocating and Advancing Research for Brain Tumors   We want to hear from you! Have a question or want to hear a topic featured on the Brain & Life Podcast? ·       Record a voicemail at 612-928-6206 ·       Email us at BLpodcast@brainandlife.org   Social Media:   Guests: Christina Coates @hodassoc; Dr. Vikram Shakkottai @utswmedcenter Hosts: Dr. Daniel Correa @neurodrcorrea; Dr. Katy Peters @KatyPetersMDPhD  

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It is rare for a piece of independent theatre to earn itself a return season. Rarer still for that return season to be on the main stages and tour around the country. And even rarer yet for that piece of theatre to be a brand new play from a debut playwright. But that is exactly what has happened for actor and playwright Emmanuel Mattana and director Marni Mount.Trophy Boys is a queer black comedy and drag extravaganza about power, privilege, and high school debating.Performed by a female and non-binary cast in drag as the four members of the debating team from an elite private boys school as they prepare for their grand final debate against their sister school and forced to argue in the affirmative that "feminism has failed women".Trophy Boys takes a satirical look at insecure adolescent masculinity, entitlement and the ego of Australia's next generation of politicians and powerbrokers.Support this show http://supporter.acast.com/the-saturday-quiz. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

FinaleIn 7 parts, based on the posts by senorlongo. Listen to the ► Podcast at Explicit Novel. I stood there, my arm around Hosi for what seemed forever, my fingers lightly caressing the soft skin of her back, ribs, and breast. We watched the water flow in a graceful arc into the fountain. I was…what can I say...overjoyed…elated…thrilled…ecstatic? Hosi had told me I was going to be a dad again. I had Kela who I loved to pieces and Davy who was just a helpless infant, and now another was on the way. It reaffirmed my desire to make sure the valley would last as it was forever. I realized, not for the first time, how rich I really was. I had clean clear air to breathe, fresh delicious water to drink, wholesome food in quantity, a community where people lived in harmony, helped each other, and loved each other both physically and spiritually, and most of all a beautiful sexy wife who loved me unconditionally. What else could anyone ask for?Now that we had handled the challenges of the slavers and the poachers it was time to get back to our daily lives. We would still maintain our patrols—there was no substitute for vigilance although I had some thoughts on how we could discourage interlopers. It was gory, really a disgusting idea, but I was pretty sure it would keep trespassers away. I'd take the necessary steps later in the week, but first we needed to have a meeting of the men and their lovers.I gathered all the new men in the dining hall. We'd already had some meetings to discuss how they were adjusting to life here, but Hosi wanted to know how they were doing sexually. She considered that to be a critical part of their adjustment to life in the valley. I tried to explain that they were unlikely to go into much detail—it just wasn't something that was done in our society, but Hosi was not to be deterred. I called the meeting to order, asked the servers for some juice and fresh rolls and began my explanation, “Umm…uhh…I don't really know where to begin so I think I'll just repeat what Hosi told me—she wants the details of your sex lives here in the valley.”“What? If I tell you that I'll probably kiss my lover good-bye.” It was Harry who, after a life of kidding and joking had finally become serious. His explanation was simple—“I was always insecure, especially with women. Here I'm actually in demand and I have my pick, although I don't think I could ever find anyone who could beat Sila. She's incredible.”“I have to agree, David,” Gene added, “I know everything here is pretty open, but Tama would break my headin two if I blabbed about what we do in bed. Shouldn't that be private?”All the men agreed. They'd speak candidly about anything…anything but their sex lives. I laughed and laughed. “If you can keep quiet…really quiet, just follow me.” We removed our sandals and tiptoed down the hall toward the throne room. The women, all the lovers, were meeting there with Hosi and their conversation was anything but chaste.“Oh, my Queen,” Tama began, “I just love it when Gene makes love to me. We always bathe first. I wash his body and I pay extra special attention to his penis and his ass. I love to watch his face when I stick my finger in there. Gene squeals like a pig, but it makes him so hard. Then I lead him back to our house. I usually hold his penis all the way.” The other women were giggling non-stop at Tama's remarks. “When we get home I pick him up and lay him on the bed. I lean down and let him suckle my breast. He is just like a little boy...a little boy with a great big penis. I stroke his penis and rub his testicles. He also loves to put his finger into my vagina. I tell you, my Queen, he makes me so wet down there. Eventually, I can't take any more and I cover him with my body. I rub his penis into my slit and when it's nice and wet I slide it into me. I am a big woman, but I am very tight town there and I love how Gene stretches me. I feel all tingly and then I begin to ride him. Gene holds on to my hips and drives that big penis into me with incredible force. He may be a small man, but he is very strong. Sometimes when he spurts he will actually lift me this much (she spread her hands more than a foot apart) off the bed. I lie on him until we are both rested and then I love to lick his penis until it is clean.”I turned to Gene who was just as red as red can be. He stumbled forward into the throne room before I had a chance to stop him. “Tama! How could you? I thought you loved me.” He fell, crying unashamedly, to the floor. Tama reacted immediately, her hands flying to her face. “Oh, Gene! I am so sorry!” She rushed to his side, caressing him to her breast. “Oh, Gene…oh, Gene,” she repeated over and over. It wasn't long before she was crying as much as he was.I looked at Hosi; she was clearly upset. I shrugged my shoulders, telling her I knew it wasn't a great idea. She walked to Tama and Gene, “Take him home…make love to him. I know you still love each other. This was all my fault.” Tama picked up Gene, carrying him in her arms as he cried into her large firm breasts. She soothed him with her words and kisses.Hosi dismissed the remaining tribeswomen; they paired up with their men and walked slowly out of the palace still stricken by what they had witnessed. I took Hosi by the hand, looked her in the eyes, and kissed her. “I tried to tell you. In our society people just don't talk so openly about sex. They all but refused to talk to me so I thought I'd bring them up here with the women. I'm sorry. I didn't think….”“Hush, David. We both know this was my idea and it was a bad one. Let's go back to our quarters. I need something from you.” She grinned and reached into my pocket, finding my flaccid cock. She grinned even wider when I began to harden immediately under her touch. “I'm glad you're not angry with me.” She pulled my by the cock to our bed.Hosi stripped off my shirt and shorts; I'd given up wearing underwear long, long ago. She removed my shoes and socks (these I did insist on wearing) and pushed me back onto the bed. “Pushy today, aren't you?” I teased. She gave me a smirk as she removed her skirt and the undergarment I now referred to as a G-string, something Hosi never understood, but to be honest, neither did I. She slipped out of her sandals and slid next to me. We held each other, me savoring the incredibly warmth of her skin, she loving the feeling of the hair on my chest rubbing against her naked swollen breasts.Hosi kissed me briefly and pulled away to nuzzle my ear--lick and nibble my lobe—while her hand explored my body. She knew her way around very well, finding my hard erect cock in only seconds. She rubbed up and down the shaft, enjoying the soft, smooth skin in her hand. Cock in hand she climbed onto my body. Hosi rubbed me into her moist slit; I gasped from the elation I was feeling—the hot wet soft smooth tissues of her vagina as it stretched around my shaft. She released my ear, shifting her attention to my open needy mouth. Her tongue felt like it was half-way down my throat as her mouth clamped over mine. I raised my hips, driving myself into her core. Now it was Hosi's turn to gasp. She backed off from my mouth to gain freedom of movement; she was always active on my cock. Hosi bent my poor penis into shapes I could never even imagine. However, her motions always did the job for me, just as I always seemed to be able to take care of her. We started out herky-jerky—uncoordinated--but in minutes we were moving together, our actions forcing me deeper and deeper into her. I could feel it—a tiny tingle deep within me. It grew more rapidly than I could ever believe. I looked up at my wife—my lover—my Queen. I could see the rapture in her face. She looked down at me and nodded. I knew then that she was close. I increased my pace, moving wildly until I froze—stock still for almost thirty seconds—until my body exploded in a massive spasm of ecstasy that shook the two of us. Hosi growled as her orgasm struck. It was a low guttural moan that lasted for almost a minute as we shook and shuddered together until she fell onto me, or sweat mingling and pooling on my abdomen.I held my dear wife and kissed her hair…her neck…her shoulder. I looked up at her and whispered, “I love you so much.”Hosi laughed, “Sometimes I think you just love the way I fuck.”“Well, I do love that, too.” She laughed, and then I laughed. We laughed together until we cried. At one point early in Hosi's reign the guards would rush in whenever they heard us, concerned for their Queen's safety. Now, after more than a year they knew it was just a part of our love making.Hosi slipped off me and my cock popped out of her pussy. She leaned against me and closed her eyes, falling swiftly to a relaxing sleep. I lay there thinking…wondering about the men's reactions to what they had seen this morning. In time I too closed my eyes and found slumber.Tama held Gene close as she carried him to their home. She was an Amazon in every sense of the word. At six feet three inches and 180 pounds of rippling muscles, she possessed incredible strength. She could carry a lightweight like Gene who only weighed 140 pounds nonstop for a week. However, she had a soft tender side that loved Gene deeply and completely. She had only spoken about their relationship because she was commanded by her Queen; she would never intentionally hurt Gene in any way.They were several blocks from the palace when Gene stopped crying. Tama immediately drew his lips to her teat. She knew that Gene loved to suckle almost as much as she loved the sensation of his lips tight on her nipple. She was able to hold him in one arm so she stroked his head to calm him as he suckled.Tama lived on the edge of the village. Strong as she was her skills with bow and spear rarely exceeded mediocre and she knew it. As such she had no ambition to ever move beyond her copper skirt and bracelet, furthermore she loved living on the edge of the open grassy plain. Her house overlooked the fields and gardens. The scent of flowers and the other plants filled her house and she found it much more pleasant than the odors that surrounded the plaza—the odor of human and animal sweat and feet and dust.She strode purposefully; she wanted to have Gene to herself to heal his wounds within her vagina. She knew the power her vagina held over Gene. He had admitted it freely—he loved fucking her. He loved dipping his long tongue into her tunnel. At last they passed the final corner and entered. The dim light of the large room was welcoming after the heat of the village streets. The paving stones kept the dust to a minimum, but they were hot in the sun. Gently she laid Gene onto the bed. She leaned down to kiss his neck and cheek. “I love you, Gene. You know I would never hurt you. My Queen commanded me to speak so I had to. Let me show you how much I care for you.”She stepped away, dropped her skirt and the triangle that covered her sex. She could see that it was wet and sticky much more from her arousal than the miniscule effort associated with carrying her diminutive lover through the village. She returned to her lover, caressing his face as she delicately removed his shirt and shorts. His shoes and socks fell to the floor as Tama covered his body with hers. She held his head in her hands and kissed him as she wrapped those muscular arms around his body. In a second she had rolled over, bringing Gene over her, his head resting on her massive breast. Gene sighed as his hard thick eight-inch organ was led to Tama's tight pussy. It was reflex only that told Gene to press forward. His fears were gone—evaporated the very instant that his organ entered her wetness. He pressed forward, driving into her and as he did she knew he was still hers and that he would be forever. Tama rose to meet him, her muscular cunt convulsing with pleasure, squeezing him as only she could. Gene had never experienced success with women in the outside world. That's why he wanted to come with his brother Harry, the jokester—the prankster. He had met Tama almost by accident when she was the only Amazon left to deal with him and his brother.Tama had volunteered to serve the two of them. The assertive Harry had dominated the threesome, but left her unfulfilled. Once Harry had his orgasm he had fallen deeply asleep. Gene took Tama into his mouth and brought her to her very first orgasm. It was the beginning of a long and loving relationship, one which they both prayed would end in their being declared mates.The two danced together, their bodies intertwined and connected by their sex. They were lost in each other as their heat grew—as their love for each other flowered. Suddenly Gene arched his back, ramming his cock deep within Tama's inner being. Hot white semen shot from his cock repeatedly and forcefully as it filled her cunt to overflowing. So much was there that if flowed down her legs to the sheet, drenching it in the slick fluid. Gene's ejaculation was more than enough for Tama. She would have been more than satisfied just to have him cum, but, as usual, his eruption pushed her over the edge into that abyss she loved so much. Her entire body shook and tingled with the ecstasy of her orgasm—what she fervently hoped would be the first of many this memorable day.“I love you, Gene. I hope you know that now. I hope you will always know it.”“I knew it before, my love,” he replied, “I was just so shocked to hear you, but now it makes sense. David wanted all of the men to tell about our love lives, but we refused. In fact, I told him you'd break my head in two if I talked like that.”Now it was Tama's turn to take offense. She feigned injury until Gene's face expressed his concern. Only then did Tama smile and laugh drawing Gene into the mirth. They laughed together for many minutes until she looked into his eyes with fire and lust and he knew it was time for round two.Harry and his woman Sila left the palace shortly after Tama had carried Gene out in her arms. Harry was understandably upset over his brother's reaction. “Explain again, Sila,” he asked, “exactly what was going on that Tama was telling all about their sex life?“It was on the Queen's command, Harry. Tama had no choice. I was very glad that she went before me. I also had to listen to Rini tell about her and Scott. She is very much in love with him, just as I am very much in love with you. But, Harry, I don't understand what the big problem was.”“I suspect it all started with the Puritans. I've read that they were real prudes.”“Who? How could they be prunes? Isn't that a dried fruit?”Harry had to chuckle. Sila was beautiful and oh so sexy, but she knew nothing of the outside world. “The Puritans, Sila, and the word is prude, not prune.” He explained about colonization and the search for religious freedom in the New World. “There are still many who are reluctant to talk about sex and love in our society. Some women even dress and undress in a closet and that's also why making love is usually done in the dark and behind locked doors, although young people tend to ignore those so-called rules.”Had Sila not known Harry she would have been sure he was lying. “What is the point of all that, Harry? Do they not make love naked? Why would they be afraid or ashamed of their bodies?”Harry kissed her nose. She could be a bit dense at times, but she was just so cute—and she was head over heels in love with Harry. “Sweetie, not every woman looks like you or has a body like you. In my country many women are fat—they weigh too much. Often they are really sloppy looking.” He cupped her breasts, a solid C-cup, and continued, “Their breasts sag and sometimes hang down to here.” He pointed to her belly button. “But, they are married to men who love them so I don't know what the big deal is either.”Sila thought for a minute, “I wonder what Tama and Gene are doing?” She sounded serious, but there was that twinkle in her eye—the one that always told Harry that she wanted to be fucked.“Hmmm…probably the same thing I want to do with you.” He took her hand and led her down the lane to her house. Like David and Hosi years ago Harry had his own house across the lane, but, like David, he only used it when he had to fuck the other tribeswomen. Hosi provided laundry services in the form of fresh towels and sheets. Harry was more than willing to fuck the tribeswomen—he felt it was his duty, something he and the other men did to thank the tribe for taking them in and welcoming them to the valley. However, he only made love to Sila. He knew she was gorgeous—in the U.S.A. or Europe she could have easily been a Sports Illustrated swimsuit model, earning millions.Surprisingly--to Harry anyway--Sila didn't consider herself to be anything special—just one of the girls. At just under six feet in height and 135 pounds she had a slender frame with a waspish waist and narrow hips to go with her broad shoulders and large symmetrical breasts. Despite being a breast man in his previous life he considered Sila's best feature to be her tight firm ass—he just loved to stroke and caress her butt.Once in her house he turned and pulled her to him. She tilted her head down and kissed the shorter Harry passionately, her tongue finding his and wrapping around it sinuously. They kissed, holding it for many minutes, edging to the bed inch by inch until the back of Harry's calves struck the frame. This was Sila's cue to lean forward, using her weight to force Harry back until she bounced on him several times playfully. She giggled as she opened his shirt and worked her way down Harry's body, kissing every inch of the way.Harry had introduced Sila to oral sex, going down on her first and making her cum several times as an inducement to blowing him. He could never have guessed that she would love it so much—sucking his lollypop, that is. She was more than open to having Harry suck her, but she absolutely loved swallowing his cock, having it pass her tonsils and then pull out slowly until just the head was in her mouth. Like many in the tribe she had incredible muscle control. Not only could she contract and vibrate her vaginal muscles, she could do it just as well with those in her throat. Harry came in Sila's throat often. His only concern was that—as a result-- he had less access to her delightful pussy.Back in New York Sila would have been classified as a slut. She loved to suck; she loved to fuck; hell, she loved to take it in her ass. She masturbated Harry occasionally with her feet, wrapping them around his shaft and squeezing as her feet ran up and down his shaft. She'd have him shoot into her lap where she could scoop it up and lick it eagerly off her fingers. Three, even four times a day weren't enough for Sila. She wanted sex even in her sleep.Today, though, she wanted Harry inside her. The thought of Tama and Gene fucking at the same time made her pussy tingle with delight. She could see them in her mind, the big Amazon and the tiny man with the big penis. She wanted—no she needed—to emulate them in her mind and her body. Whatever Tama could do she knew she could do better. She opened Harry's shorts and pulled them down to his ankles. Her skirt and G-string followed as she fell to her knees and took Harry into her mouth. Harry always groaned when her lips circled his cock and again when he bottomed out, her lips kissing his pubic hair.He pulled out slightly before pushing in again. He loved to fuck her mouth almost as much as she loved receiving, but not today. She pulled back and jumped onto the bed, pulling Harry over and between her legs. She moved the slimy cock into her slit and wrapped her legs around his butt. She used those strong legs to pull him into her. Sila looked up at Harry and wondered if he would consent to be her mate. They were together almost all the time either here in the house or in the baths. They played a lot, but they also worked together. They had been on patrol when they found the poachers and brought Paulo back.Now she pushed up every time Harry drove his thick cock into her. Harry knew something about Sila that she didn't even realize herself—she was a rarity--able to have vaginal orgasms, and anal, too. Harry was 35 and single. He had dated a lot and hung out at a load of clubs back in the City. He fucked a different woman at least once a week so he knew how unusual and fortunate he was to find a woman who could cum just from having a hard cock in her. Rarer still was finding a woman who could cum from a cock in her ass. Damn! He loved this woman.They moved together grinding into each other as their skin rubbed and mixed their sweat despite the coolness of the room. Their eyes were locked on each other as their breathing grew ragged and shallow as they came together—Sila squirting all over Harry, he drowning her tight cunt with his slick white juice. Harry fell onto his lover drained, but knowing that he'd be back in the saddle again in a few hours. It was a tough job, but someone had to do it.I woke the following morning with Hosi's breast in his mouth. I gnawed a bit as Hosi laughed, “I guess you liked my morning gift for you. I'm afraid that's all I can give you for now. We have a mission right after breakfast." She pulled me from the bed. We walked to get Kela and took her with us out to the toilets and baths. It was wonderful sitting in the cool flowing water from the river. From our position we could see the fresh pure water arcing into the fountain. We'd made quite a few improvements in our few years here in the valley. I just hoped they were enough.We returned to the palace for breakfast—scrambled eggs and sliced tomatoes along with ketchup which Kevin had made from our gardens' tomatoes. I had to admit the meal was delicious. We dropped Kela off with Scott and Rini—a play date with her buddy Sama.Hosi walked at a fast pace, determined to catch Tama and Gene at home. They both kneeled but Hosi motioned them up. “I wanted to see how you were doing this morning. I am really sorry, Gene if you were hurt or embarrassed yesterday. It is never my intention to hurt anyone in the tribe.” Gene and Tama told her that they were both OK and that they attributed the whole situation to a misunderstanding.“That is very kind of you—both of you. Now, Gene, I am told you wish to ask me something.”Gene began to shake, “Uh…yes, my Queen..uh, that is…I…I mean…I think…we…Oh, jeez what's wrong with me?”Hosi giggled, but rested a hand on the nervous man's shoulder. “Gene, David has told me that lawyers are very good public speakers. Why are you having a problem? Would you like me to help you?” The bewildered Gene nodded, physically unable to respond. “Very well, then…Tama…Gene you have my permission. I hereby declare you to be mates. I will instruct Dennis to remove your implant, Tama. Would you like to have a child?”“Oh, yes, my Queen,” they replied simultaneously as they smiled, obviously relieved that Hosi had granted their unstated request. We all hugged and chatted amiably until Hosi decided we should leave. We went straight to the hospital to give Dennis the news about Tama. Hosi told me we could relax now; I steered her to the pool. We shed our clothes and walked into the cool water. A guard brought Kela and Sama. They ran into the water. I knew we didn't have to worry about them—they swam like fish. We relaxed until lunch then walked naked and dripping wet to the palace to eat. I had an important meeting shortly afterward.Hosi and I met with Paulo and Harry's patrol team which included Paulo's twin lovers. I explained what I wanted to do. “Would you mind terribly if I threw up?” It was Harry and he was giving voice to everyone's feelings.“Listen…I know it's disgusting, but I think it will help keep trespassers out. You did leave the bodies near that big ant hill, right?”“Yes, I wondered why you wanted that, but now I understand. I just hope the ants are finished. I really don't want to tangle with them and the idea of picking up a skull with all that…stuff oozing out…ugh!” it was the leader of the team that had disposed of the bodies who had taken the initiative.“OK, I know you are supposed to patrol tomorrow. That's when we'll look. Also, Paulo, I want to bring back as much steel as we can carry so you'll go in that direction toward your camp. Hosi is scheduling another twenty warriors to carry. I want you to be careful. Someone might be looking for the poachers by now. I don't want anyone here injured or worse. Everyone understand what we're going to do?” There were no questions so we adjourned until dawn tomorrow morning.Hosi and I spent the afternoon relaxing. We went for a long leisurely walk up to the forges with Kela and Sama tagging along—running and playing tag and hide-and-seek. They were much better at hiding than I was at seeking although I'd have to be deaf not to hear their giggling every time I came near. That was always my cue to turn and walk in the other direction.We took much longer to reach our destination, but my reward was a giant hug and a great big kiss from Kela who told me, “Funny…Daddy…I love you.”“I love you too, Dumpling.” That was my pet name for her, although how I could call a warrior princess something as sappy as “Dumpling” was something I could never explain even to myself. I found what I was looking for—five old spears with bronze heads. They were strong enough for the task I had in mind. I took them in hand and we returned home. I held the spears on one shoulder, my other arm wrapped around my beloved as our daughter scampered with her friend.The following morning came early. We were up before the sun had risen. I dressed and retrieved my gear from my knapsack in the corner. I strapped my web belt with the machete around my waist, grabbed a piece of fruit and walked out to the plaza where the patrol waited patiently. We walked out of the valley at a brisk pace and were soon in the jungle. I sent Paulo and the twenty warriors to the poachers' camp, reminding them to be careful. I had little reason to worry; these were seasoned warriors who could steal through the jungle without leaving a trace or strike down any threat with arrow or spear. Harry's party and I headed in the other direction.We found the ant hill. It was hard to miss, being more than four feet high and roughly eight in diameter. The ants had done their work—the poachers' bodies had been completely consumed, leaving only the bare bones of the skeletons. I shook one of the skulls; it was still firmly attached to the neck and body by the cartilage. I severed the bond with the machete and moved to the next one. Brave warriors all, they cringed at carrying the skulls. It was only the stern orders from their Queen that made them comply. We walked to the border of the tribe's property. I dug the old spears into the ground almost two feet so they wouldn't fall in the wind or rain. I jammed a skull on each spear. They would serve as a warning to any who came this way—the only way into the valley.We turned and followed the other group. We caught up with them in the poachers' camp. They had gathered all the steel—fenders and doors from their Land Rover, pieces of the cages, pots, pans, and assorted knives and other cutlery. We bagged up the small pieces and carried the large ones on our shoulders as we made our way back to the valley. On to the forges we walked carrying what seemed to be a ton of steel. We could make many daggers and sharp spear heads from this load and there was even more still in the broken camp. That would have to wait for another trip.It was now afternoon and I had to rest before tomorrow's trip to the city. I would go in my “missionary” role to purchase some of the necessities we needed to survive. I often took Hosi with me, having promised to never again spend a night apart, however we had an infant, Davy, who required his mother's milk. Yes, Hosi had placed him with the Amazonian equivalent of a wet nurse on occasion, but this had proved to be less than satisfactory. On both occasions Davy had been extremely hungry the following day—he hadn't had anywhere near enough to eat. He needed Hosi's plump milk-filled breasts.I decided to go alone. All the men were involved with one project or another, Sean with melting and forging the recovered steel into bars that could be used to manufacture daggers, knives, and swords; Kevin, with Gene and Harry, expanding the gardens and installing fences to keep the livestock out; Dennis, of course, with the hospital; and Paulo—well, Paulo had dates to inseminate three of the women. It was easier to go alone. I retrieved my chain and wooden cross from the shelf and headed down river.I docked the boat and made arrangements for a room at the hotel before beginning my shopping excursion. I had a lengthy list to fill, including some tasty treats for the many children in the tribe. I had just returned from my second trip back to the boat when I was approached by a man. He looked to be maybe late twenties, tall and lanky, dressed in the most ragged t-shirt and shorts I'd seen in many years—black hair and a long wispy goatee.I was on the defensive at first, expecting a robbery attempt or worse, but he was unusually polite and respectful, “Senhor,” he began in Portuguese, “I have been told you are a missionary and that you live in the deep jungle with the savages.” I nodded and he continued, “I am Benedito. I search for my…cousin. His name is Paulo. I am ashamed to tell you…his parents sold him to some bad men. I am sure they have hurt him. I try to buy him back—his family now has money--but I cannot find him. They went into jungle months ago and they not come back. I hear that you live in jungle. You know or hear of anyone like Paulo?”I was taken aback; I didn't know what to say. How could I even be sure that this guy was Paulo's cousin? I didn't like the way he hesitated before saying “cousin” as though it was an afterthought. “I will return to the jungle tomorrow and I will check with the natives to see if we can learn anything. Are you staying here in the city?”“Si, Senhor, I have job. I wash dishes and help in restaurant. It not much but I do not need much. I worry about Paulo.”“I will return in another month and I will bring whatever news I can get. How will I find you?”“I come here every day at three o'clock. I am between shifts. No work until dinner.” I agreed to meet him in exactly four weeks. By then I'd have confirmed his story. I finished my shopping, acting the role of the innocent missionary. I checked the reflection in a window of a store I entered; Benedito was speaking animatedly to a small group of hard looking men.I finished my shopping and returned to the hotel. I showered and went out to dinner. There were restaurants in the city, but they weren't anything special. I picked one that looked clean and walked in; I was surprised to find Benedito bussing a table. I ordered and waited, enjoying a “chopp,” a draft beer in local parlance, cold with the glass sweating in the humid evening. I enjoyed many of the local beers, especially Brahma, locally brewed and pretty good. I only drank occasionally and primarily in the city. There was wine in the valley and I enjoyed it occasionally, but there was nothing like a nice cold draft—a “chopp!”I ate a decent steak and another Brahma before returning for a boring night of watching TV. I already missed my Hosi and my children. I went to bed early, falling asleep almost immediately, and woke early for the return up river. I docked the boat and had the goods lifted up to the village. Then I had an errand. I could hear the grunting as I approached Paulo's house. He was taking his reproductive duties seriously. I could see him plowing a tribeswoman's cunt with his long thick tool. His partner's legs were wrapped around his neck, his cock burying itself deep into her cunt with every thrust. She looked over toward me, “Oh, hi David…I think we'll be done soon…oohhhh, I don't want it to end…oohhh, I don't, but…Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh…unnnggghhh! She came hard and Paulo followed only seconds later. She moved her legs down to his waist and held him inside her for another ten minutes.“Paulo, I need to speak with you. No…stay where you are. It looks like you're having so much fun and I'll bet it's a lot better IN there than OUT. Do you know someone named Benedito…late twenties…tall and thin, funny looking goatee?”“Mother of God! He is the leader of the group that bought me from my parents. I pray you did not tell him I was here!”“Not to worry…he tried to tell me he was your cousin and that your family now had money to buy you back.”“Ha! What a lie. My parents could never get that much money. They are barely surviving. Can you tell me what happened?” He extricated himself from his lover, pulling his slimy cock from her vagina. She rose and kissed him before kneeling to clean his organ and pull the last few drops of semen into her mouth.“Is this ‘duty' or ‘recreation'?” You two seem to be having an awfully good time together.”“David, I think you know Lina, one of the twins who have taken me in.” I looked closer in the dim light. Yes, it definitely was Lina...or was it Lita? I never could tell the two of them apart. Just then I heard another voice from the rear of the house, “Hi, David what brings you all the way out here? I would have thought you'd be home with Hosi by now. Did you have a good trip?”I explained all about the trip and meeting Benedito. I suggested we meet tomorrow to plan a strategy. I was afraid these men might be a threat. I kissed the twins good-bye and trotted off to my Hosi. I walked into the throne room, but it was empty. I looked in the dining hall; it too was vacant. I walked into our quarters to change out of my filthy sweat-laden clothes; Hosi was there reclining on our bed, “What took you so long? I've been waiting here ever since you were reported back.”I leaned down to kiss her and explained what had happened. She tugged at my clothing, opening my belt and dropping my shorts. “I'm filthy,” I told her. “I've been sweating all the way up the river.”“I don't care…I missed you all last night and today. I need you inside of me and I need you now.” What could I do? I certainly couldn't disobey the Queen. I'd have to make the sacrifice and give my body to her. I stripped off my shirt and fell next to her. She pulled me to her lush body, wrapping a leg over me as we embraced and fell into the most delicious kiss. Hosi's tongue entered my mouth, enfolding itself around mine as she teased me and prepared me for what was to come.I always marveled at the sensation of Hosi's body. How one with such powerful muscles could have skin that was so soft and smooth amazed me. There were few things that I enjoyed more than running my hands over her back and hips and, well…everything. She was impatient today, showing how much she did miss me last night. We made love every single day…usually multiple times. Hosi rolled me onto my back. I put my hands behind my head; it was obvious that this was going to be her show. She ran my erect phallus up and down her slit several times until she was ready. She was wet and slick; I oozed pre-cum; I entered her easily and suddenly I was enveloped in her warmth. I could feel the heat of her core and I was lost to the world. Hosi was my life—everything else had vanished…disappeared. She was my world…my universe.I began to thrust. We met each other, slowly at first, but faster with every second. In no time we were fucking like rabbits. Her sweat dripped from her nipples onto my chest. Suddenly, she leaned down and we kissed again. I could feel the tension in her lips disappear as her body prepared for her orgasm. She began to shake just a little as she neared the edge and then she was over. Her body was smothered in a massive spasm of ecstasy. Exhausted she may have been, but she continued to move with me until I felt a torrent of magma erupt from my cock into her tight cunt. I felt like a volcano, so massive was my ejacuation. I pulled her to me as we rested. I could have stayed there all night, resting with my love in my arms, but we were interrupted by my other love. Kela ran in yelling, “Daddy…daddy!” I withdrew from Hosi as I reached down to hug and kiss my beautiful daughter. She reminded me of another job I had to do. I shrugged on my shorts and a pair of sandals, grabbed my bag of sweets and walked with Kela to the plaza. I had the guard ring the bell once—the signal that I had candy for the children. Every one who could walk or crawl found their way to the plaza, some still dripping wet from the baths or the pool. I gave each five pieces of salt water taffy—peppermint, strawberry, cherry, grape, and chocolate. I made sure they knew to throw out the paper wrappers responsibly. We burned them along with other combustible garbage. To avoid detection we only burnt in the middle of the night and only under the strictest supervision.Hosi and I ate our dinner and retired to our rooms. I began to prepare for bed, but Hosi stopped me. I could see the wheels turning in her head. “What trouble are you brewing now,” I asked.“Well…I was thinking….” I knew this was going to be a disaster. I could tell just by the tone of her voice. “If we can't get the men to tell us, we could go and find out for ourselves.”“What you mean is…spy on them…absolutely not! If you thought they were upset about talking just imagine what would happen if we were caught peeking in some window. No, Hosi…not a good idea…in fact, terrible.” I stripped and climbed into bed. Reluctantly, Hosi joined me a few minutes later.There was a big group meeting with us in the dining hall the following morning. Hosi, of course, chaired the meeting, but she turned the reins over to me—I had met Benedito and I had seen the group of hard cases he was with. I was especially careful on the way back upriver even going so far as to pass the tributary and double back to make sure I wasn't followed.“I need to explain about what may be a new threat to our safety,” I began looking out over the group of men and warrior leaders. I explained my meeting with Benedito and his interest in finding Paulo and his men. I described the others he had met with once I returned to my shopping. I could see the agitation in Paulo's face so I asked him to speak.“This Benedito is the devil for sure. He is the cruelest man I have ever met.” He removed his shirt and pants turned around to emphasize his point. His lower back and butt were covered with scars from severe whippings and burns from cigars. Lina hugged him to her body in an effort to console him. He showed us his fingers. Several were bent and crooked. “He broke them just for the fun of it. Also,” he continued, “he is very stubborn. He will never give up until he finds his men…and me. I have never feared anyone as much as I fear him.”I thought for a few minutes before commenting, “OK, if he wants to find his men, why don't we help him? Here's what I'm thinking….” There were several comments and a few suggestions which made the plan stronger. We began with our preparations as soon as we broke up.We planned carefully. We didn't know how many men he would have with him so we needed plenty of warriors, outstanding with the bow, all of them. I wanted at least three for each of the enemy and I wouldn't know how many that would be until I was on my return from my next trip to the city. I worked out a code I could use on the boat's radio. The next step was to find a place where I could stop the boat on the Amazon, tie off to a tree, and trek directly to the abandoned camp and then to the border of our property where I had placed the skulls. Once we found that we were ready.The days passed quickly. Soon the day before my departure had arrived. “I hate this, David,” Hosi told me with a frown. “I worry about your safety…oh, why lie? I have done nothing but worry since you came up with this crazy plan. Why do you do these things? Think of me and our children!”“That's exactly why I'm doing it. I want to make sure you're safe and the only way is to take this guy down. I'm pretty sure I'll be OK. Your warriors will pick us up at their camp and we'll ambush them at the skulls. They'll believe me when I tell them I'm going to help. They think I'm just an innocent missionary. I'll be OK. Trust me.” Hosi shook her head and pulled me into a hug. She wouldn't kiss me; she didn't want me to see her crying, but I could feel her body shaking.My left hand reached down to her thighs and I picked her up. I carried her to the bed and laid her down gently, nibbling her ear. She hated when I nibbled her ear. It was the one place where she was ticklish. It was only seconds before she was squirming under me. I pulled back, looking her in the eyes. “I love you. You're going to be stuck with me for a long time—longer than a long time. I promise.” This time she did pull me into a long passionate kiss, her soft full lips pressing into mine. I removed my clothes and hers, too. We lay together, our arms and legs intertwined as our tongues danced a dance of love and devotion.She pushed me onto my back and slid down my pole, engulfing my cock with her hot tight tunnel. Her movements were slow—very, very slow—as though she wanted this coupling to last forever. I swear it must have taken her thirty seconds to rise and another thirty to slide back down again. She leaned forward to rub her nipples over my face. I reached up to grab one intending to suckle, but she was too quick. “Sorry,” she laughed, “but I need to save that for Davy. I have something else you can suck on though.”She rose off my cock and sidled forward until she straddled my chin, her delectable, but sloppy, pussy right over my mouth. I rose up to sample her sweet musky nectar. It was spread all over her pussy from our brief interrupted fucking, but that was more than OK with me. I loved the way she tasted and the more delicious nectar she produced the more I loved it. I started at her asshole, teasing her there with light touches of the tip of my tongue. She squirmed in a combination of anguish and ecstasy. My tongue covered her pussy as I licked all the way up to her clit. Over and over I licked until her pussy was completely clean…on the outside anyway.My tongue penetrated my woman. I cleaned her tunnel—a futile effort, she could always make more, and I knew she would, especially with my tongue in there. I tickled her clit with my nose; she jerked in response, so of course I did it again and again. Giggling, she implored me to stop. I looked up to see she was begging, “Please, David…why don't you fuck my cunt instead? I really want you in me now. ”I would have jumped up in shock had she not been sitting on my head, “Where did you learn to talk like that? It's bad enough to say ‘fuck,' but ‘cunt' is really terrible. I should wash your mouth out with soap.” Relenting a bit when Hosi looked apologetic, a tear forming in her eye, I continued, “OK, c'mon…there's no reason to cry. You made a mistake—we all do—and to show you I forgive you I will…fuck your cunt, that is.” I laughed as I lifted her body up and moved it down, bringing my cock to her sex. I dropped her slowly…gently… onto my organ. She was the mother of my children and she would be a mother again. I rose up, savoring once again the tender torture her pussy gave me—tender because of the soft smooth texture of her silky tissues, torture because every second I was in there made me want so terribly to cum and cum again.I could tell from her eyes that the fooling was over. She was getting down to business. We loved to fuck each other—had right from the very first time and we loved to make each other climax. The sensation of her sweat mingling with mine, of clutching her to my chest to rest after a vigorous workout was nothing less than fantastic. We began our rhythm, the tempo we always used when we were joined together. It created more than enough friction for both of us, but was not hurried. We weren't in a rush; this was how we showed how much we loved each other. We rocked together, Hosi squeezing me while rubbing her sensitive clit against my pubic hair.My hands gripped her hips, my fingers digging into her flesh as we moved, eyes locked on each other, mouths silent in concentration as we worked together. We usually increased our pace steadily, but tonight Hosi obviously wanted our union to last. We made love for almost an hour. She told me that her pussy tingled wildly for the last half. Finally, it began to hurt. She endured the pain to bring our coupling to a wonderful conclusion. I couldn't recall ever cumming with such force or as much intensity. Hosi finally came, her body shaking, having lost all semblance of control. She literally collapsed onto me. “You'd better come back to me. I don't know what I would do without you.” She cried again, this time until we fell asleep.I rose early, ate a hearty breakfast and walked with Hosi to the waterfall. We kissed briefly; I was afraid that a lengthy embrace would cause her to cry once again. I hugged Kela and kissed my infant son and I was gone. I had decided to take no weapon. They would be armed, of that I was sure however I was supposed to be a peaceful missionary. I had to play that role to perfection, therefore—no gun.The trip downriver was uneventful. I passed my projected landing area, carefully marked with three hatchet slashes on the side of a tree. It was just before three when I docked and tied up the boat. I climbed onto the dock carrying a worn map of the jungle. I ambled along examining several store windows en route to the square where I was to meet Benedito. I fingered my cross as I approached the fountain. It was old and filthy, covered with grime and algae and pigeon shit, but it was a popular meeting place. I could see Benedito and two comrades waiting, but not too patiently.I greeted him, “Ah…Benedito, how wonderful to see you again. I bring news of your cousin. I can't say if it is good or not, but I know where he has been with those horrible men. Come…bring your friends. Let us join together for a cup of coffee while I show you this map. It is old, but still quite accurate. The natives have located a broken down camp that may have belonged to those men. Here, let me show you.” I hoped I wasn't laying it on too thickly. I ordered four coffees and spread the map on the table. “Here is where the tribe has found the camp. We can bring my boat to the river's edge here.” I pointed to an area along the Amazon which was less than fifteen miles from the camp. “You can see it is much shorter this way. We will have to cut our way through the jungle, but it will still be much faster than going overland from here. My boat is big enough to carry all of us and the gear we will need for a short trek. I hope my tribe will meet us there, but I cannot guarantee it…they are very shy and nervous.” I babbled on as I thought a naïve theologian might. They agreed to go with me early the following morning.We met at the dock and stored all the gear. I was expecting some weapons, but this was ridiculous. I had no idea how they were going to carry all this stuff. They each had an assault rifle and two pistols and a ton of ammo. I backed off the dock and headed out. I told them I had to make a radio call at 10:00, just to let the other missionaries know that we had met and that I would be delayed. I picked up the microphone at ten sharp. It was set to channel 16, the international call channel. ‘Brother Scott…Brother Scott, this is Brother David…over.”“Brother David…this is Brother Scott. What news do you have?”“I met the man and we are headed back, but it may be many days before I am able to return to you and the tribe. Over.”“Roger…Brother Scott out.”“Brother David out.” The message had been sent. The use of the term “many days” meant that there were two in addition to Benedito. We'd have plenty of Amazons to handle them, probably many more than needed. I drove along the left bank looking for the three slashes. I told them that one of the natives had made them to guide us. That was one of the few actually true things I told them. One of the natives—Tama—had made the marks only three days ago. We found them four hours after leaving. I pulled the boat to the bank. One of them jumped out with a line that he fastened to the tree. I retied it more securely, knowing that Sean would pick it up in a couple of hours and return it to the waterfall. I'd be walking back. They'd be staying.We trekked through the jungle. It was tough going. Even I had a machete. It was needed to cut our way through the thick brush. We walked until the sun began to set. I helped make a quick meal and settled in to my sleeping bag, reminding myself to pray before sleeping. I knew I had no reason for concern. Hosi and her warriors had picked us up at the river.We woke with the sun. I remembered to pray again before we resumed our hike. We found the abandoned camp just after nine. “I am sorry to tell you that the natives have taken much of the poachers' gear. I hope we can find them so you can get your cousin back.”“What? Oh, yeah…we definitely want to get Paulo back, don't we, guys?”“Yeah…we're doing all this for our old buddy Paulo.” They chuckled as I led them out of the camp along the trail that had been marked.I stopped just before reaching the line of skulls. They were less than fifty feet ahead in the brush. I removed my hat and ran my hand through my hair. This was the signal to get ready. I could imagine Hosi and her warriors nocking their arrows in their bowstrings. I walked another twenty feet before turning and facing the men. Their rifles were slung on their shoulders, their pistols holstered. “Well, gentlemen, we're almost at the end of your journey. Your friends are just ahead…what's left of them anyway.” Hosi and twenty warriors stepped out of the jungle; arrows flew at the startled poachers killing the two, but only wounding Benedito—one arrow in each bicep. I knelt as he bled into the dry earth.“You know, Benedito, pausing before describing Paulo as your cousin was a huge mistake. It put me on guard and then when Paulo told me who you really were I knew we'd have to take care of you…and your buddies, too. These are the ‘natives' with whom I live. This gorgeous creature is not only my wife, she's also the Queen. Trust me, she'd have no compunctions about killing you and neither would any of the others.These two over here are Paulo's lovers so I think they'd look forward to killing you slowly, especially after seeing how you tortured him. Paulo told us all about you—how mean and sadistic you are, how much you enjoyed making him suffer. We all like Paulo; he's very polite and caring so we were shocked to see those marks on his butt and his crooked broken fingers. He told us you did that just for fun so we have a special fun thing to do with you.“You were looking for your friends and now you've found them.” I pointed ahead and stepped aside so he could see the mounted skulls. “Just think, you'll be able to spend eternity with them in hell, but first you're going to suffer like you've never suffered before.” Tama lifted him easily, carrying him away. His dead friends soon followed. Tama laid him on the ground, tying his wrists and ankles to the vines we had attached to pegs last week on our last visit to the jungle.“See that big mound over there, Benedito? There are maybe ten million ants in there, maybe more—who really knows? They'll find your friends soon and they'll smell your wounds. Pretty soon they'll be paying you a visit, too. These are army ants—big and mean. They'll eat anything that gets in their way—living or dead.” I stood, joined Hosi, kissed her and turned away leaving the ants to do their work.I hadn't allowed Paulo to join us in the jungle. I thought it might be too much for him emotionally. It was almost too much for me and I had no connection with the loser Benedito at all. We picked him up by the stone steps. I remembered Hosi guiding me so gently down each step when we first met that bright morning years ago. So much had happened since then—most of it really good. I knew I was a changed man and it was all because of Hosi. I wanted her to know so I stopped, pulled her to me and kissed her madly. She was surprised, but she didn't resist. Instead she kissed me back as the tribeswomen hooted and laughed.“What was that for,” she asked once we had broken the kiss.“Just for being you,” I replied making her even more confused than she had been before. She batted her eyes at me, her face showing the confusion she felt. I didn't speak. I just pulled her into another long and wonderful kiss, our tongues searching in what is now very familiar territory for yet undiscovered areas of pleasure and ecstasy. My hands went to her heavy breasts. I hefted her huge milk-laden mammaries, still firm after two pregnancies. I broke the kiss and when her eyes questioned me I responded immediately, “I want to get you back home where I can take care of you properly. I hate to admit it, but I've been terrified for weeks.”Hosi gave me a look that could kill, but said nothing. She took my hand and led me away. We walked into the village with the other members of the ambush team. She turned left away from the palace and I found myself with her at the pool. Now I was confused—didn't she want to…? She removed my clothing, stepped out of her skirt and G-string, leaving the sandals at the edge of the plaza. She took my hand again and led me into the cool water. We ducked under—it did feel great to remove the sweat and the stench of those men from my body. Hosi positioned me near one of the stone blocks, “Watch me float,” she said. I was so intent on what she said I lost track of what she was actually doing. She was floating all right, but her legs were open so we were crotch to crotch. Before I realized what had happened she had maneuvered her pussy around my hard cock. She held my hands and was using that leverage to actually fuck herself on my cock, making little wavelets in the pool.I was about to complain, but she shushed me, “Take a good look around you, David. What do you see? Tell me.” I looked right and my mouth fell open. Paulo stood near the pool wall with Lita (or was it Lina?) sitting on his cock and fucking herself slowly while her sister licked alternatively at her nipple and his. Farther down was Sean with his two. Misa looked like she was swimming, but her ass was holding her still, clamped down around his dick. She raised her head periodically, showing her ecstasy.I turned left to see Harry and Sila. Just one look told me how much in love they were. I'd have to speak to Hosi about declaring them mates. They made no attempt to disguise what they were doing. Sila had her arms around his neck as she rode his cock. I doubted that they even knew anyone was watching—they only had eyes for each other. I glanced at Hosi. She had seen them, too. She mouthed the words, “Mates, for sure!” I grinned and nodded my agreement. Harry had finally made it.I looked all around the pool. All the men and their partners were actively fucking right out here in the open where they could and would be seen by anyone who was here or passing by. Hosi wanted the sex to be an open book and she'd gotten her way. I asked her about it; she replied without hesitation, “Don't I always? I got you, didn't I?” I leaned down and, placing my hands behind her breasts, pulled her vertical, my cock remaining in its place. I brought her up in front of me, kissed her neck as we continued to fuck. I nibbled her ear lobe and whispered to her, ”I will always love you.” We kissed then and as we did the world around us disappeared into a mist. We were the only two people on earth.by senorlongo for SexStories.

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Welcome to episode 265 of the Cloud Pod Podcast – where the forecast is always cloudy! This week, Jonathan, Ryan, and Justin are trying to keep cool in new WorkSpaces Pools, avoiding the Heatwave with Oracle's new LLM,  taking a look at AWS Jamba (hold the straw) and taking a look at the ever elusive Cloud Maturity.  All this news and more, this week on The Cloud Pod!  Titles we almost went with this week: The Cloud Pod takes a dip in the Workspaces Pool The Cloud Pod Lineage view is suspect A Gitlab, A BitBucket, and a Blueprint build a Workspaces Pool AWS goes for a Jamba Juice  Google Cloud Autokey does exactly what it sounds like Oracle LLM Heatwaves send us to the Amazon Workspace Pool Jonathan is unimpressed with this weeks show Highway to the DataZone  A big thanks to this week's sponsor: We're sponsorless! Want to reach a dedicated audience of cloud engineers? Send us an email or hit us up on our Slack Channel and let's chat!  General News 01:03 HashiCorp State of Cloud Strategy Survey 2024: Cloud Maturity is Elusive but Valuable Hashicorp just released the results of its State of Cloud Survey, and guess what? Cloud maturity is pretty elusive. Weird…  Hashicorp finds that 8% of organizations qualify as Highly Mature, this results that the biggest benefits are cloud is only going to a small group of truly mature organizations.  Justin wonders if this is part of the cloud repatriation push?  Are other listeners seeing some of this, especially on places like LinkedIn? We'd love to hear.  Trailblazers are finding faster development speed, lower costs and reduced risks while others continue to struggle to create haves and have nots with enterprises getting different business outcomes.  Hashicorp collected responses from almost 1,200 technology practitioners and decision makers at organizations with more than 1000 employees.  66% of respondents report that they have increased cloud spending in the last year, but 91% believe they are wasting money in the cloud, and 64% are experiencing a shortage of skilled staff. 45% of low maturity organizations are still waiting for their cloud strategy to pay off! One of the key takeaways from the survey is that the path to cloud maturity increasingly relies on platform teams to help automate and systemize cloud operations.  However, only half the respondents 42% say they rely on centralized platform teams to standardize cloud operations throughout their organization.  Platform teams help manage cloud, but also help address the skills shortage that has long plagued enterprise cloud adoption. If only they'd pay for training. 03:22 Jonathan – “The skill shortage thing really bugs me sometimes because there are plenty of skilled workers around and the reccs aren’t open for them. So I don’t think there aren’t qualified staff… yeah, it’s not a shortage because of the lac

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The Peddler & the Fairy: Part 8 Shopping adventures. In 10 parts, by Scholarly Mori. Listen to the Podcast at Explicit Novels. The trio made their way back to the bustling ring of the shopping district, stopping in front of a statue of what must have been some iconic blacksmith when Devin turned to the girls. "I have a shop I want to visit. I thought of a few presents I wanted to buy the two of you. Do you mind getting a head start and finding a seamstress? Oh, and Azalea, can I borrow the drawing you did of; my; er; me?" [[MORE]] Azalea gave him a quizzical look. "You mean the one of your penis? Sure." She dug around her bag, found her notebook, and handed it to him. Fluttering around his head excitedly, she demanded, "Does it have something to do with our presents? Does it? What is it? Tell me!" "Azalea, dear. Herd-mate probably wants to surprise us, or else he wouldn't be going alone," interrupted Reina. "Ahhh, okaaaay; fine, but in return, we'll surprise you with our new outfits!" "Won't you need formal attire too, herd-mate?" the female Whitehorn asked. "I have an outfit from when I attend guild banquets. I'll wear that." Devin handed Reina two pouches. "I know I said I wasn't going to spend the money from our potential client, but I don't know the current market price for formal attire, so if possible, try to haggle or negotiate a lower price." She put the pouches in her belt. "I'll try. Should we meet you here in three hours?" "That's a good idea. We can have a late lunch together and then go back to Jeni's to change," Devin suggested and then waved, disappearing into the crowd. "Shopping time with Reina! I want to wander around and window shop for a while," the fairy announced, flitting ahead of her fellow mate. "Alright." —---------- As a native, Devin knew most of the shortcuts between all the major city blocks. He was calculating the time he'd need to get to the workshops he had in mind when he had a sudden realization. Mavis said a carriage would be sent for them, but he had failed to mention where they were staying. He hustled back to the post office to inform the nonplussed secretary of the forwarding information for their inn. She informed him she'd take care of it personally, and he left, dashing back across town. Nearing the western gate of the city, he slowed his pace, taking a moment to lean against the corner of a building near an alley to catch his breath. "Lovely day for a walk!" said a rough, squeaky voice. He looked over his shoulder to spot a pint-sized individual with arrogant, ruby eyes leaning against the opposite wall. Not sure if they were talking to him or not, Devin ignored them. The mystery figure pushed back its mud-stained hood. Two substantial, rounded ears covered in gray fur with a soft pink interior twitched in expectation. One of the ears was missing a chunk. She brushed away her matted auburn hair. "Are your girls going to be ok with you not around?" He put a hand on his dagger. "Is there a reason I should be aware of why they wouldn't be ok?" She slunk back. "Hey now, let's not get hasty. It's not that I'm interested in them specifically. I'm more interested in what I can do for you or for them." She made a little bow, and the edges of her cloak fell open to expose her bare midriff. A thick belt covered her small chest. A narrower belt wrapped around her waist. On the lower belt was a run-down pouch with a broken button and a rusty dagger attached. Two thinner belts crisscrossed around her hips, meeting between her legs and leaving the rest of her undernourished frame uncovered. "I've been following you; sorry, no, that came out wrong. I noticed you enter the city and saw a curious sight: a rare Whitehorn, and an even rarer fairy, both together with a well-to-do merchant. I have an eye for opportunity and wondered if you might be in need of a guide." "I'm a native of this city." "Oh." She seemed a little taken aback. "Well, then; how about I guide your companions around; seeing as you seem to have other errands?" "I usually don't make it a habit of entrusting things I care about to those I haven't established trust with," Devin stated with little emotion. "Now, now! Don't be like that. I'm just a hungry ratgirl who's trying to make some coin. Trust needs to start somewhere, right? How bout my name?" She opened her arms placatingly. "The name's Chitchat. It's what most of my clients know me as. I'm sort of a rat-about-town. I take all kinds of jobs. Sometimes I'm an information trader, other times a guide. I'm pretty confident in my knowledge of most of the stores in town and where to find them." Seeing him ponder her request, she added, "You don't want your friends getting lost or taken advantage of while you're away, do ya?" The offer was tempting, but the person making it gave him pause. She looked trustworthy enough, but anyone could throw on some dirty rags and rub some dirt on their face. Her gaunt features were not so easy to fake, however. While violent and major crimes were fairly rare, there was no lack of theft, bribery, and petty crime in a city where merchandise, and often times cut-throat commerce were common trades. Merchants were no strangers to risk. What required skill was knowing how to manage it and, if possible, use it to your advantage. That didn't apply to his girls, though. As his treasure, he felt it unlikely to be too cautious with them. Yet, it seemed in bad taste to be so miserly with someone as down-and-out as this girl. "I won't be gone long. I'm sure they'll be fine." "Then how about I offer my help to you. Wherever you're going, I might be able to suggest a cheaper alternative." Chitchat worried he was taking too much time to decide and tried to press him. "Please, sir, it's been a long time since I've eaten." She tactically gripped his arm, pressing herself into it. Devin expected her to smell worse than she did. Something between sour wine, wet fur, and perhaps desperation? It was, at the very least, a sense of urgency. He wasn't averse to helping someone in need. He often tossed a few coins to the most needy-looking. She squeezed his arm. "Isn't it better to earn one's bread by being industrious instead of begging?" Devin decided to test her a bit. "I won't be gone long, and the girls should be fine." With a curt brusqueness, he dislodged her from his arm and walked away. Chitchat looked startled at the sudden shift in attitude. She was going to make another offer, but he was already several strides away. Devin ducked behind a corner and looked back toward the alley. Chitchat fell back against the brick wall and sank to the ground, pulling her knees up to her chest. 'Doesn't look like she has any accomplices, nor is she asking anyone else. In his experience, charlatans tended to immediately move to another target if their first victim didn't prove fruitful. Guess I'll take a chance.' He returned to the dejected ratgirl, but she didn't look up until he was right in front of her. "What are you doing back?" "I changed my mind." He showed her five vols. "Half up front and half when I return. Give this to them, so they know I hired you." Wrapping the coins into his handkerchief, he held it out to her. Warily, she held out her hand and took it. "But that is way too, " "I'll be back in three hours. They should be wandering around the clothing ward." Before she could say anything more, he left again, leaving her bewildered. Without further delay, Devin arrived at his destination in the southern half of the city, on the border of the old-town district. 'This can't be right. It's too small!' Devin stood in a vacant alley, nestled at the end of an empty street. He thought this was the address to the craftsman he was seeking. Rumors told of a woodworker who took unusual commissions, but he had never been to this part of town. All that stood before him was a marble wall with an elaborate limestone door deeply inlaid with runes. The runes he used to keep his goods cool or used in everyday life were from a branch language, a dialect of the original. The runes in front of him, while similar geometrically, were older. Devin had no idea what they meant, and few people probably did due to their baffling complexity. Aside from syntax, the timing could also change the meaning, depending on the time of day or even the season. Thankfully, he didn't have to worry about any of that. A frayed cord hung to the side of the door with a sign that read: Ring once: pickup Ring twice: order Ring thrice: delivery Ringing twice, he felt a slow rumble, a grinding of stone-on-stone, under his feet as a crease appeared down the left edge of the door frame. From the blackness, an unnaturally strong and rocky hand grabbed his shirt and yanked him inside. The entrance sealed shut, leaving them in darkness. He put out a foot to steady himself but felt only air. As he stumbled, the strong grip held him up while simultaneously pulling him down what he quickly realized was a stairway. "Uh, excuse me? Could you stop tugging on my clothes?" His escort remained silent but paused. He felt his shirt let go, and his wrist was grabbed instead to continue with their slow, lumbering footfalls. "Er; if it's not too much trouble, could you tell me if this is the workshop of Antoris the woodsmith?" Silence. The unusual reception had him a little on edge, but a Dwarven workshop being underground most certainly wasn't unheard of. Reaching out his left hand, he felt a stone railing. It felt curved, and by the way the faint gleam of light below them kept rotating without passing behind them, he guessed they were on a circular stairwell. The air, aside from being cool and dry, was surprisingly fresh. A faint draft issued from beneath them. He lost track of their descent after the fiftieth step, but they soon passed through an entrance in the floor. The room opening below them was the same as the one above, only this one was lit with purple and orange crystals sticking out of the rock walls. Calling them a wall would have been an injustice to the creator. Hewn from the rock were massive pillars shaped like leafless trees with expansive branches holding the stairway and the ceiling aloft. Between the pillars were murals -- illustrations of rocky figures planting trees and maybe flowers. He could now see his silent chaperone in the light. The most noticeable feature was her height. She towered over him. He guessed she was nearly nine or ten feet tall. Initially, he thought she was a gnome since they were known to be a quiet type of earth elemental. However, he dismissed that idea since her movements weren't quite fluid or natural. The smoothness of her skin and the massive, spherically cut rubies acting as joints were too unnatural. She was naked; naked as a white marble statue could be. She didn't possess any of the finer details one might find on a completed work, namely nipples or genitalia, and he wondered if maybe she was an unfinished or trial design. Whatever the case, the creator seemed to appreciate large breasts and long hair. He didn't expect an answer but attempted, "Are you a golem? Can you take me to your creator?" For the first time, she stopped and regarded him. A pair of rough-cut ruby eyes stared down at him, processing his request. Golems had varying levels of intelligence. Most had at least basic commands they accepted or understood even if they couldn't speak. She obliged, though not in the way he expected. Feeling himself go weightless, she scooped him up in her arms. He wasn't feeling very princess-like, despite being in the cliche carrying position, and he flailed a bit as she set off with a faster gait down the stairs. Devin calmed down and appreciated the faster speed even though he couldn't appreciate the wall murals at leisure. She looked down over her generous chest, squeezed him tight against it and jumped the rest of the way to the floor below. Neither the floor nor her legs were soft, so he felt a big jolt from the landing. She made a sharp turn upon landing and passed through one of four archway exits from the room. Plunged into darkness once more, they passed swiftly through another archway. As she slowed her pace, Devin's jaw dropped. They were in an extensive cavern with cerulean-colored pools separated into square, uniform sections. Inside each pool was a singular, tall, and narrow rock-like structure, each of a different color. "What is this place?" She pointed at herself, then at the pool. "This is how you were made?" Leaving his question unanswered, she passed through a wide door on the opposite side of the room and unceremoniously deposited him in the center of a brightly-lit room that smelled dry, dusty, and yet sweet. He stood up, brushing sawdust and woodchips off himself, and beheld the magnificent master carpenter's dream that lay about him. Planks of varying trees, cut and sanded, leaned neatly against three walls surrounding large workbenches. On the left and right tables were hand saws, chisels, planes, and adzes were neatly arranged around half-finished products. Through a hole next to the door frame he had entered, water flowed from the previous room. It wrapped around the edge of one wall and down through a hole in the floor. It likely powered the vertical saw that adorned a corner. At the center table, a red-bearded dwarf sat whittling on something Devin didn't recognize. Without looking up, the dwarf bellowed, "Ruby! Why in the name of the Great mountain did ya come through the pool room?" The golem, Ruby, made no attempt to answer and instead took her place by his left side. Without receiving a greeting or introduction, Devin stood awkwardly and said, "You must be Antoris the Dwarf!" "Is that what yer eyes be tellin' ya's, or do you just have a gift for compulsively stating the obvious?" "Sorry, I meant no disrespect. I was unsure if this was the right place, given the; um; abrupt greeting by your assistant and the location of your workshop." "Woodworking is my profession. Gems and golems are my hobbies. Expensive hobbies, I might add. I don't like going above ground -- too many people to deal with! Introductions, especially so. I'm also not overly fond of talking about most things or answering questions, so place your order and don't ramble." Devin handed him a slip of paper with Azalea's drawing. The dwarf looked at it for a moment, frowning. "Yer wants me to make; these?" He sighed and slumped on his stool. "My first customer in weeks and they turn out to be a pervert." "It's not for me. It's for a fairy friend." "I don't care who it's fer." I can make these tiny; toys, but I don't have any ravishwood big enough to make the big'un. You want the same wood for all of them?" "Does that mean you'll make it?" "Are ya daft on top of having poor eyes? I got a reputation for being reclusive but won't be havin' one for turnin' down a customer." Devin thought for a moment. "Cedar for the box, white oak for the knife-sheath, and ravishwood for the others. I've heard the last is a bit rare and hard to find, so I'll pay double the normal price." "Ya bet yer coin purse yer will. I hope you don't mean to stuff your fairy with this!" "The big one is for someone else." The dwarf showed no surprise. "Should take me about two-and-a-half hours. Ya can take a seat over there." He pointed a stubby finger to an overly-decorated stool in the corner. Turning to Ruby, he whispered something into her ear, and they both separated: She went into a back room while Antoris disappeared into a side room and then returned with several choice pieces of lumber. Devin watched him measure, mark, cut, and repeat until he grew bored. "Go ahead; ask yer questions." "Excuse me?" "Questions! Everyone has them." "But you said, " "My hobby is the small exception. Now, go ahead before it starts leaking out ya ears. Ya have the same look ever'one has when they see ma girls." "Oh, then; um; do they have names?" "The one er'brought a here, as you already heard, is Ruby. She's the third of four I've built. Sapphire and Emerald were the first and second rudimentary prototypes. They are out digging a new tunnel." "Who's the fourth?" "Diamond." Antoris rang a silver bell on the corner of the desk. From a different side room entered another golem. Earlier, Devin considered Ruby to look quite advanced, but she barely held a stalactite to her sister. Diamond was more normal in height and also naked, except for a craftsman's apron. Meticulous attention was given to her features. Her face was expressionless, fixed with either a neutral or gentle smile, depending on the angle. Her skin was glossy and smooth, with a glassy opaqueness overlaid to protect the milky white, tan and light-brown wood pattern underneath. Very fine veins of red-opal, and malachite-green just under her skin connected to the diamonds acting as her digits and joints. Her hair was chiseled to be long and wavy, a portion covering her left eye. She gracefully glided across the room on slender legs, her movements precise and willful. Assuming a demure position slightly behind and to the right of her creator, she faced Devin, bowed, and gave him a generous view of her cleavage. "I have an owlchemist friend who's working on her first golem," Devin commented. "What's 'er name?" "Jeni-feather, over in the manufacturing district." "Why does that name sound familiar? Oh, of course! Old man Nílo's assistant. I heard a rumor he took someone in. I thought it false since he's even more of a recluse than I am -- does all his business transactions via proxy. Maybe he felt he was getting too old for everything. How far along in her work is she?" "She's never showed me." "Poor friend who doesn't ask about their friend's hobbies -- especially those that involve pouring a large amount of their money, time, and life into it." "I can't argue with that," Devin lamented. "Diamond is my latest and first fully-complete construct," revealed the older dwarf proudly. "She's a masterful-looking piece of work," Devin agreed. "I'm especially proud of her eyes; multifaceted semi-precious gems." "They remind me of some insect demi-humans. Does she have, " The dwarf pulled Diamond's apron aside, revealing two pink nubs. "Rose quartz for her nips. Interchangeable cunt." "I like the amethyst clematis you have in her hair. My fairy friend has a dress of the same flower." "It's slow, delicate work carving flowers from gems but well worth it." "Is her body from stone or wood, and what are those veins?" "You saw those things in the other room, under the water? It's petrified wood -- more specifically, petrified dryad wood. Spotted a branch from an exotic merchant. Bought it for almost nothing since he thought it was just a pretty rock. It was a small piece, so I couldn't do much with it. I regrow and graft on bigger parts." "Why not just use regular stone or wood for all of them?" "because certain materials are more conductive to affinity. The grandfather of golemancy discovered a way to infuse one's own affinity, into inanimate objects. I ain't sure why it works, but things that were once alive conduct better, but other things can be used. My girl's core uses a chunk of amber," he explained while tapping a honey-colored teardrop embedded under her clavicle. A lot also comes down to what's available and what can be afforded." "Rarer materials; high cost. Makes sense." "And lastly, what the creator knows how to work with. Since I know a thing or two about mining, gems and rocks are easy enough for me to work with. All depends on the creator, but you can find a bit of a pattern depending where you go. There are very roughly three kinds. The middle kingdom's are generally made from clay, porcelain, and clockwork. Down in the desert lands, I've heard they use the flesh of their dead or some such morbid thing." "Feel free to pass any of this to your friend, though she probably knows most of it. Now let me get back to work." Devin took a seat. Not knowing what else to do, he decided to practice more with his glyph. —------------ Chitchat was usually more on her game when playing the poor, needy ratgirl, but it'd been a significant period since she'd eaten, and it was starting to affect her charisma. 'Thought I'd blown it with that clueless merchant. Can't believe he actually came back. Now, if I can just find those girls. Pretty sure I saw him give that Whitehorn some money. If I play my cards right, I can get paid and pick their pockets. That should feed me for maybe a few months!' Her nails gripped the cobblestone, expertly weaving and dodging through the forest of legs in the streets and alleys. Standing barely five feet on tiptoes, she decided to jump up on a barrel to search the many heads and ears for her quarry. —----------------------- "Reina! How do I look?" Azalea turned around to show off the hairpins holding together twin-tails. Before Reina could comment, "What's that smell? Roast corn! "Azalea dropped the hairpins in the bemused merchant's hands and zipped off toward a stall with a grill. "I wonder what spices they use! Trade secret? Understandable. So much delicious-looking food! Sweets I've never seen, fruits I've never tasted! Oh, what are those over there? They are what? Snowglobes? How do you get the snow in them? Are they edible? Speak up! I can't hear you!" Reina was feeling a bit overwhelmed. Aside from being in a new place, she was doomed to act as fairy herder for the day. 'How does such a small body have so much energy? She can't seem to focus on anything for more than thirty seconds.' She was happy to see her friend thoroughly enjoying herself but was afraid the endless distractions would delay them from their responsibilities. "Mmmphthigsgood!" "Azalea, swallow first, and where did you get that food?" "That nice man over there was selling some bread filled with jam. Said I was cute and gave me one. Try some!" Azalea bit off a generous portion with jam, pressed her petite lips to Reina's, and used her tongue to push the morsel in. Normally, Reina wouldn't have minded, but they were in public. She blushed as the few passersby failed to hide smiles. "You're so adorable when you're embarrassed," Azalea teased. Feeling a little indignant at her own awkwardness, she swallowed, scooped the hyperactive fae close, and licked some jam off her cheek. "Careful! I might end up eating you instead." Azalea face lit up. "Once, Life-mate put me in his mouth when I was covered in his cum, to clean me. I was pretty out of it when it happened. I wouldn't mind experiencing it again when I'm more lucid. Or maybe I should smear some jam in a very particular place that's more fun to lick," she whispered. "But for now, here, you can have the rest. I wanna go look at other food stall." She stuffed the rest of the pastry into Reina's mouth and flew off. Reina was about to follow when she felt something on her foreleg. "Finally found you!" squeaked a small girl gasping for breath. "Why are there so many more people than usual today?" "Is this an unusual amount? I'm new to this city." "I know. Where'd your fairy friend go?" "Um, she was looking at candles, but now where'd she go? Oh, there she is. Do we know you?" "Hey, it's you!" exclaimed a returning Azalea, nibbling on a piece of honeycomb. "You know her?" "No, but remember I mentioned someone watching us. Same eyes." "You were watching us?" "I, er, " the ratgirl stammered. "Did you need our help with something?" "Help? Help, yes; yes, I came to offer my services. Your friend hired me to guide you around till he got back." "Herd-mate did? He didn't mention that earlier." Reina glanced at Azalea. "He thought of it after he left. Here's proof!" She held out Devin's handkerchief. Reina took the handkerchief and sniffed it. "Smells like him." "Oh, I want to smell, too! I miss him already!" Azalea declared as she dived into the handkerchief in Reina's hand. "He's only been gone twenty minutes, Azalea, and try not to get it sticky." Turning back to the ratgirl, " We are glad to have your guidance, Miss, ?" "Chitchat." "That's an interesting name," commented Azalea as she licked her fingers clean. "It's my working name." "Nice to meetcha. This is Reina, and you already heard my name. We were just wandering around looking for a seamstress." "One of us was. The other was stuffing her face," Reina teased. "It's not good to shop on an empty stomach," Azalea shot back. "That only applies to grocery shopping!" Reina countered. Chitchat put a hand to her chin. "Seamstress, eh? I know one nearby." "Oh good! We are quite ready, aren't we?" urged Reina, cupping Azalea in her hands and hugging her to her chest so she wouldn't fly off again. Chitchat took the lead. "Then off we go!" "Have you lived in this city all your life, Miss Chitchat?" asked Reina. "Yep, all nineteen years of it. When my parents died, I spent the rest of my childhood in an orphanage. When I turned eighteen, I decided I had enough of being told what to do, so I left." Chitchat continued to rattle on about the city and her many observations about its inhabitants and peculiarities. Azalea was content to be held between Reina's soft breasts until she spotted a fenced-off street entrance. Wiggling out of her pillowy cocoon, she poked her head over Reina's shoulder. "Why's that street blocked off? And why is it pink?" Chitchat looked where Azalea pointed. A tall, wooden fence, engraved with a depiction of naked shoppers covered with strategically placed leaves, separated the two roads. "Have you noticed the edges of some streets have colored cobble?" "No, " "Probably because someone was too enamored with window shopping," Reina jested. "It's a decency indicator. Numerous demi-humans have different feelings toward modesty. As a compromise with the more prudish nature of humans, the city council implemented a color system to indicate which sections of the city you're allowed to expose which parts of your body. Green, you have to be fully clothed. Yellow is for topless regions, mostly centered around the milking quarters. Pink allows full nudity, and red areas allow public sex but are strictly regulated to the nightworker parts of the city. Independent businesses may have a separate set of rules, so they'll have an indication by the door." "Can we go take a look, Reina? Pleeeeaase!?! Then we can go straight to the seamstress." Chitchat didn't say anything. She didn't visit these adult areas unless she was in haste for a shortcut, and even then, she didn't linger. "You know it's tough to say no when you give such pleading puppy-dog-girl eyes." Reina opened the pedestrian gate and passed through. The landscape on the opposite side was exactly as the other, except the leaves were removed. "Where are all the people?" wondered Azalea "These neighborhoods tend to cater to very specific merchandise and customers. Also, it's winter. Not too many people are gonna take their clothes off when it's cold." "Well, there might be one, " Azalea shimmered out her dress and handed it to Reina. She floated a few feet forward, her breasts heaving with nervousness. "This is more embarrassing than I thought it'd be." Reina folded the dress away. "I never imagined I'd hear you say that, considering you fly around without undergarments." "Of course, I get embarrassed, but have you noticed I fly under eye level all the time when we are not alone? Sneak peeks are only for you and life-mate." "And me, I suppose," observed Chitchat, trying not to look too closely. Uncharacteristically for her, Azalea made an attempt to cover herself. "Sorry, Miss Chitchat. I've been a little brazen today. "Now look who's adorable when she's embarrassed!" chuckled Reina, offering her dress back. Azalea waved her hands to decline. "It's alright. I don't personally visit these kinds of places, but a job is a job. I have to wonder, though. Your dress doesn't look especially warm. Aren't you cold?" "A little," Azalea admitted and lowered her arms. "My nipples are most certainly stiff, but if I get too cold, I'll just hug my little Whitehorn for warmth." She winked. "I feel so, exposed. Is this what Jyora felt like?" "You seem to be getting a thrill out of it all the same." Azalea rubbed her thighs together to highlight her dripping. "Maybe it is a little exciting." Azalea, feeling bolder, picked up the pace, peering into different storefronts. She was about to move on from a brick-lined building when the door caught her eye. "Let me guess; you want to go in there?" discerned Chitchat. Azalea nodded. "This is definitely an interesting shop! Just look how amazing this handle is!" "I am looking. Any place with a door handle shaped like a centaur penis, paired with a centaur mare vulva lock; Public nudity aside, I have a hard time imagining it as a place you'd like to investigate," Chitchat stated with slight embarrassment. Azalea floated up to Chitchat and put a hand on her shoulder. "I cannot leave an establishment with such eclectic taste unexplored, can I? Surely, this is the work of a forward thinker! Besides, it's good to have a healthy curiosity." "I think you've gone well beyond sexual curiosity into connoisseur territory." Reina grasped the shaft, surprised at the feel of realism, and pulled. Out billowed the acrid smell of metal and coal. Azalea grabbed the hand of a surprised Chitchat and flew in. "Sorry for the smoke. I'll be done in a second," boomed voice from somewhere in the building. "Look at this place! It's, " "Organized chaos?" Reina suggested. "Amazing! I never dreamed that a big city sold these kinds of things!!!" Floor-to-ceiling shelves, stuffed with sex toys, lined the walls. Some toys were familiar, others incomprehensible. Azalea's eyes sparkled as she darted here and there, taking in all the merchandise. "Reina, there are so many dildos! Even more than at Grandpa Gylan's farm!" Azalea had swiped her dress back and put it back on. She was gleefully looking over the display table. "Centaur, wolfman, I think this is a bunny boy's, and this is a catboy's?" She pulled a screw-shaped dildo from a drawer. "This one reminds me of mom's husband's, very porcine shaped." She pushed it through her circled fingers. "Momma said the thickness is mediocre, but the way the tip pokes at her cervix really turns her on, especially when it pushes it in." "Oh! Look what we have here, Reina! Recognize this?" Azalea picked up a skinny black toy and held it up. "A Whitehorn! " She rubbed it against Reina's cheek. "I bet you'd like to try it." "You're sweet, dear, but I should probably tell you. Male whitehorns don't provide much stimulation. Mating is a very quick affair." "Ah, that's too bad," she said before returning the toy. "It is what it is. That's why herd-mate's fis; ministrations felt so good." Azalea held up some colored glass beads connected by a string, turning them over in her hands. "What are these for?" Chitchat peeked around Reina. "How do you not know what anal beads are?" "So you put them in your ass? I bet that feels interesting. Why are there whips and ropes here?" "Some people like being tied up and given a little pain." "Really? Huh; interesting." From somewhere in the back, beyond the haze of smoke, a sudden clink of metal, followed by a sharp sizzle, interrupted them. They could just make out the store's proprietor against the billowy flames of a forge. A light-green woman, with black hair haphazardly tied out of the way, squinted through a pair of magnifiers. Her strong arms vigorously polished a human shaped dildo. She got up from her work stool, leaving a glistening dildo where she had been sitting. Wearing only a front-facing smith's apron, she turned around, and a garnet-colored, heart-shaped assplug peeked out from between her ass cheeks. She stood on tiptoes and twisted a knob on the chimney, opening a flue to dissipate the smoke. Previously hidden within the haze, a bundle hanging from the ceiling was revealed. The goblin smith stepped over, rotated the bundle, and stuffed the dildo in one end, causing the bundle to moan. "How's that feel? I smoothed out the rough spots next to the vein." "Mphhfmmg!" "So it's good?" "Mhmmp." "Excellent! Another prototype finished. Now, let's see who our guests are." She pushed back an ear that had flopped over her shoulder, pulled the bandana off her head, and wiped her brow. "Looks like we got some rare customers! Welcome to Forging Pleasure. Sorry for da smoke. Sometimes the flue gets clogged. I'm de owner of dis here shop. Eitri Tehdä's ma name, and dis is ma toy tester and cousin, Avu." "Mmmppshh." The bundle called Avu had a gag stuffed into her mouth. She was suspended from the ceiling in a harness that held her torso. Her arms and legs were tied behind her back, cutouts allowed access between her legs, and her ample chest could hang freely. "What can I help you girls with? Let me guess; looking for something to spice up a threesome. I've been working on a three-sided dildo if ya feeling adventurous. No, wait, before you say anything, I forgot ma spiel." She cleared her throat. "Feeling a bit overwhelmed and in need of some de-stressing? Have an emptiness that needs satiating or a deep itch that needs scratching? Filling holes is our goal!" Azalea clapped her hands. "What a wonderful motto! My holes were definitely made to be filled! We are new, just arrived today, and were out shopping. I noticed your door and was intrigued." "Liked that, didja? Copied and replicated from a centaur couple who visited us last year. We pride ourselves on makin' 'em as realistic as possible. Well, as real as we can using metal or wood anyway." "You made a copy of them?" "Aye! Saves a lot of time, instead of craftin' by hand. Supposedly, there is a soft, springy substance hidden away in the southern country, that feels more like the real thing, but so far, we haven't been able to get our mits on any of the stuff." "They definitely felt life-like enough already. I noticed all the bumps and veins," commented Reina. "We always look for new and different for a wide variety of shapes and sizes. We pay 'em. They get one free copy, and the rest go on the shelves. Don't tell anyone, but I think they also secretly get a thrill out of imagining a stranger using 'em for personal time." Azalea pointed to the display table in the middle of the room. "So all these are from someone in town?" "Most of 'em. If you're secretly looking for someone in particular, we have many of the more notable folks." "Do you make girls, too?" "You mean vulvas? They are a lot trickier, so very rarely. Mostly decorative pieces." "I wish I could watch you make one," Azalea expressed. "Well, we should have a customer coming in any minute now. It's not as exciting as you might think. Takes about an hour." A small bell rang above Avu. "Punctual as usual. If you really want to watch, I just need to read you a disclaimer." She placed a parchment on the table, pointing to the first paragraph. "Do you consent to seeing real depictions of sexual imagery for the purpose of education and/or mercantile exchange? If you do, please sign here." "Most definitely!" Azalea signed her name with flare and an unnecessary winky face. "I'll sign, but I'm going to peruse the shelves some more." said Reina. "I guess I will. Just to expand my knowledge about such things, you understand, but; I don't know how to write," Chitchat mumbled. "I can help you! Just give me your hand, and we can do it together. C-h-i-t-c-h-a-t." She handed the scroll back to Eitri. "Everything looks in order. This way, please." Eitri led Chitchat and Azalea behind the front counter to the nook where Avu hung, pulling a curtain closed behind them. Azalea regarded the suspended goblin. "Miss Eitri, I was wondering why Avu is all tied up." "Cause it was her idea, as was toy testin'. Says it gets her creative juices flowin'. "Not just her creativity it looks like." Observed Chitchat, noticing a pile of damp straw beneath her. "Normally, she's tied up with ropes, but today she's demonstrating a new idea: The Shortstuff Carry-all! It's still a working name. We were thinking of manufacturing them for portability purposes." "Why would anyone want to carry a goblin around?" "It's not just for goblins. It can be used for any smaller demi-human race. Like most of her ideas, she gets 'em when she's horny. This time, it stemmed from her imagining being treated like a cock-warmer, ready for use, so she built it for herself, but then we started thinking of more practical consequences. Like, they can't just be used anywhere in the city because of the modesty laws. Though, I suppose it depends on how the user is dressed. Maybe during journeys, short legs can't walk or run as fast or as far as longer-legged people. At least, I can't. Or perhaps at certain festivals or gatherings." "I can somewhat understand that," asserted Azalea. "Fulfilling your partner's random bouts of horniness by being stuffed is the most fulfilling feeling for me! Or it will be when I can stretch wide enough." Eitri rapped on the wall near where four waist-high holes of differing sizes lined the wall. Out of the far-left one popped a penis. "A wolfman!" exclaimed Azalea. "That he is. He's a young man, very polite. Been a regular for a number of years. I asked if he wanted to be one of our models. The first attempt had a few errors, so today is a redo." "Why don't you make it with them in the same room?" "Some customers like to remain anonymous. Others get a bit shy if they see someone watch 'em. A few like the thrill of not knowing who's doing what to them." "I've never seen a canine demi-human up close. He sure is red." "His kind can be both difficult and easier to make a mold for. Their knot keeps them fixed in place nicely, but they usually start pre-cumming right away, which can make the plaster take longer to dry. Fortunately, we have a simple solution." Azalea cocked her head. "A metal tube?" "Aye! First, we put a little linseed oil on it and carefully insert it into the tip, not far, mind you, just long enough so we can get the casing around the glans. "Now we gotta swell 'em up. Normally, Avu does this part; tis why I 'ung her over 'ere, but I don't mind demonstrating today. I like working my way from the head toward the back." With stubby fingers, she encircled his glans. "Then we add a little more oil to get him all slick and start jerkin'." "How cute! He's humping your hand." "He's quite a horny boy. See his knot starting to swell?" "Can I touch it?" "I doubt he'd mind." Azalea wrapped her tiny hands around the small bulge. "Warm and squishy. I thought it'd be bigger and harder." "Oh, it will. Grab his shaft and push back on it. Keep up a constant pressure. Try to make it feel like he's prodding a tight cunt. Yes, like that. Do it a few times and then squish it through." Azalea squeezed and pushed back hard, popping it through her encircled hands. "Oh wow, he's swelling so fast! Here's the size I was expecting. It's as big as an apple!" "You can let go now. It'll be about thirty minutes before he deflates enough to pull out." A spurt of liquid splashed her hand. "Oh, is he coming already? Can I drink it?" Before Eitri could answer, Azalea's lips were already around the metal tube. Eitri raised an eyebrow. "Uh, well, ok, go ahead, I guess, and no, the first watery bit will be pre-cum. When you notice a thicker, coppery taste, then you'll know when he's cummin' proper. You also might get a bit more clear, watery fluid at the end." Eitri grabbed a flat metal tray. "While you handle that, I'll show you how we make the mold. We slide it into these grooves on the wall, so his penis is resting on it. Then we slide in the sides, creating a little box, and pour in some warm plaster roughly halfway up. Lastly, we lay this square wax paper frame around the edge, so we can easily split the two halves, fill in the rest to the top, and let it sit till it hardens." Chitchat sat down on a stool next to Avu, not finding the molding process as interesting as she had expected. Her libido was normally very low. The rare times she masturbated were usually to distract herself from being hungry or to help her fall asleep. Putting her chin in her hand, she disinterestedly watched Azalea sip her unexpected treat, wondering how she could do something so lewd so naturally. She peeked out the curtain at Reina."What do you think she's thinking about?" she said out loud to Avu, not expecting a response. "Think she's imagining how many dildos she could stuff into that huge body of hers?" "Mgpmh" Avu shrugged. She let the curtain fall back. "So uh; do you hang around here often?" Avu rolled her eyes. "That was pretty bad, wasn't it? I went for the; lowest hanging fruit," Chitchat giggled. Avu gave a low groan. "Alright, I'll stop." Typically, Chitchat was adept at small talk, hence her nickname. For some reason, though, she was really off her game today. It all started with meeting that merchant. "So, I'm guessing by the red ochre pattern painted on your body; you are from one of the marsh tribes?" Avu nodded. "And the whole tied-up thing; you're a masochist?" Avu nodded enthusiastically, her eyes lighting up. "I'm not really interested in this sorta stuff." Avu looked sad. "What? Oh, come on, don't look pleadingly at me. I already have been escorting someone who begs the same way. Ok, fine, but just a warning; I've never done anything you're probably hoping for." Avu smiled around the gag and tried to swing her body closer. "You're definitely a little horny, well-endowed goblin, aren't ya? Your belly and thighs were certainly blessed with ample pudginess." She cupped one of Avu's hanging breasts. "You have some curiously white nipple piercings." Avu let out a long moan as Chitchat rolled the tender flesh between her fingers. "I'm sorry! Did that hurt? Wait, maybe you'd actually like that?" Chitchat spun Avu around, stopping with her between Avu's legs. "Clean-shaven, I see. Makes sense if you are testing a lot of toys." She parted the fleshy lips. "Such a girthy dildo planted in ya! Sure does push your clit out." Chitchat flicked the fat little nub, instantly getting a whimper. "Interesting! You also have those little crystal bead piercings surrounding your clit and in a line down your cunt lips. Well, guess I'll just experiment and see whatcha like." Chitchat's actions got the attention of Eitri, who was leaning against the wall waiting for the plaster to harden. "If you're going to do that, could you aim her toward the straw, please?" Chitchat spun her again, aiming her ass toward the pile of previously damp straw. She experimented with rubbing the squirming goblin girl, trying to mimic the things she liked. With needy huffs and sharp cries, Avu's body jerked as a pearly stream of girl cum splashed over Chitchat's hand. "You came fast. Does that mean I did a good job?" "Mmmmpssh." Avu breathed heavily through the impediment in her mouth. "You're, uh, welcome, I guess. Hmm, I'm reminded of a little rumor I suddenly got curious to try." Avu tipped her head questioningly. Chitchat scooted very close and pulled her close till they were nose-to-nose. Smiling mischievously, she took hold of both of Avu's ears. Avu's eyes widened as Chitchat started to caress, massage, and stroke the floppy appendages. "Careful, you gonna make her get all melty-brained," laughed Eitri. Avu's eyelids sagged, and she started drooling profusely, making little gurgling sounds. "She's really getting spoiled today." "Is she?" Chitchat asked thoughtfully. "A goblin's ears are highly sensitive, sometimes even more than our sexy bits. It's like a direct connection straight to our brain. We become super relaxed and floaty-headed. Also, and I probably shouldn't say this, she becomes very impressionable. You could tell her to do just about anything, and she'd do it." "Is that so?" Reina pulled the curtain aside and poked her head in. "Sorry to interrupt your fun, but I was perusing your wares and was wondering what this curious device was." She held up a wooden object curled in the shape of a giant comma, carved from cedar and polished to a lovely sheen. Several taut strings stretched across it, anchored in place by brass knobs embedded into the surface. "Oh, I wondered where that went! Stroke your nail along the strings, and you'll see." Reina did as she was told. Raking her middle finger across the strings emitted a pleasant sound. Almost immediately, a throaty cry erupted from Avu. Surprised, Reina hesitantly stroked the strings again, leading to Avu straining and fighting against her restraints. Her cunt spraying cum again. "Am I doing that?" Reina buzzed in awe. "Indeed, you are! I named it the Sonorous Pleasure Acoustic Sex Machine, or S.P.A.S.M for short. Those studs in her nipples and cunt lips ya's was lookin' at, Miss Chitchat; each stud resonates to a particular cord. Depending on the tone and pitch, they vibrate softly or strongly. So, if you're musically inclined, you can literally make her feel the music." "Can I try?" begged Chitchat.Chitchat Reina handed her the device. Chitchat placed it on her lap and played a simple song she remembered growing up. Avu mewed and whined, jerking and twisting to the pleasure dancing through her nerves as the notes soared and dipped with the melody. Her body was the orchestra, and Chitchatt was the conductor. The song Chitchat chose was something you might hear at a tavern -- something with a quick tempo that caused Avu several body-clenching orgasms back to back. The song was only a minute long. With a flourish of her hands over the cords, she caused Avu to give one more short, erratic squirt before her body went limp, exhausted, and soaked with sweat. "Sorry, I kinda got carried away. Was that too much?" the ratgirl worriedly inquired. "Nah, she'll be fine. Though, maybe should have eased her into it first," snickered her cousin. "I should probably put a warning on it, for first-timers, about the intensity." "Dinner AND entertainment!" Azalea expressed, swallowing the last remnants. "He tasted pretty good." "Careful! Herd-mate might make you run laps around the back of the wagon if you get too heavy." Azalea stuck out her tongue playfully. "I think it should be hardened enough," Eitri pronounced while tapping the plaster lightly. She carefully lifted the top half. "Perfect separating! Look, you can see all his unique details." The girls looked at the impeccable inverted recreation. Its knot, shaft, and head all exhibited the minute veins accurately. Waving her hands around the mold, Eitri stated, "That pretty much sums up the process. I will make a clay copy later and recreate the mold out of brass, so it can be reused." "Thank you for showing us. That was fascinating!" Azalea cheered. "My pleasure." "And I know you can't hear me, Mr. Wolfman, but thank you for the snack," she praised, kissing the tip. "And thank you, Miss Chitchat, for playing with Avu. She gets bored when I'm working sometimes." "Mmmmpphfffmmph." "What's that? You want to give one to each girl? She wants to give each of you a present. Friendship assplugs." "Eh?" Reina and Chitchat replied in unison. "We'd be glad to accept them," beamed Azalea. "I don't know about this." fretted Reina. "Please, Rei-Rei. It's free and a present!" "Do we really need that level of friendship, though?" "Yes! It's a physical manifestation of our friendship!" Reina sighed. "Fine, " "Yay! Chitchat can go first." "Oh, no; you need not concern yourself with me. I doubt I'll even see you after tod, !" Azalea was already dragging her by the arm to a table where Eitri stood waiting with a multi-pronged measuring instrument. "We are totally gonna be friends from today onwards!" "I can't believe I'm doing this," Chitchat muttered. 'Calm down Chitchat. Just think of the money and all the food you can buy after you bleed these fools dry.' She separated the two belts that covered her intimates and lifted her cloak. Leaning low against the wall, she stuck her ass out. Azalea floated lower for a better view. "Look how cute and pink your anus is, Chitchat!" "That's not something I want to hear," she retorted with a red face. Eitri coated the pronged device with oil and carefully inserted it, making Chitchat clench her teeth, feeling herself opening before everyone's eyes. Eitri jotted down the measurement. "About average," she noted. "Next." Chitchat hurriedly covered herself as Azalea took her place. "Me!" Azalea sang, landing on the table and waving her rear at the bemused goblin. "Hmm, gonna need a super tiny one for you." Upon getting Azalea's measurements, she pointed out, "Color me surprised! You sure can stretch for someone so small." "Thank you! Training myself to be the best cock-sleeve I can!" Reina stepped forward. "I guess I'm last." "I'm dying to know how wide Reina is gonna be!" Azalea wondered. "Don't make me rethink this, Azalea." Eitri brought out a giant version of the probe. "Rarely get girls as big as you, so I don't use this one often. ready? I'm putting it in." Reina felt the three prongs enter her and start to expand. Eitra wrote down the numbers. "Despite being scaled up, yours is actually fairly average as well. Should take me about an hour for Reina's and Azalea's. Fortunately, I think I have one for Miss Chitchat's size already made up." Upon completion, she presented all three assplugs on a tray. Reina's dwarfed the other two. "Here you go. Three assplugs with a layer of silver over a brass core, and I embedded yellow citrine on the end to denote friendship between you all. Ready to try'em?" "Me first! Me first!" Azalea yelled with her usual excitement. She landed on her hands and knees on the work table. Spreading her cheeks, she stated, "Just stuff it in." Eitri applied some oil and pushed. Azalea hugged herself. "That's nice. Love that full feeling!" Chitchat had hers inserted next. "This feels; weird, " "Good weird or bad weird?" asked Azalea. "It doesn't hurt, but it definitely doesn't feel as good as you made it look." "You'll get used to it!'' The fae consoled as she rubbed the ratgirl's ass cheeks. "Reina's next. Can I put it in? Can I, Reina!?" "You're way too excited about all this." "Of course I am. My first time shopping for things with friends!" "Well, as long as your happy. Go ahead." Reina swung her tail aside and presented her ass. "Careful, it's heavy." Eitri handed it over, making sure Azalea had a good grip on it. "Let's put a generous amount of oil on." Azalea placed the tip against the Whitehorn's anus. "Ready? I'm pushing it in now." Bracing her shoulder against the base, she shoved, fluttering her wings vigorously. With some grunting and straining, she managed to push the widest part past Reina's tight muscle. Soon after, they both felt it slide in, firmly lodging in place. Azalea floated back to admire the accessory. "I can only imagine what that size must feel like." "Let's keep it that way. I don't care how much stretching you do. You're not fitting this in you." "I know, I know. How's it feel?" "I think I could grow to like it," Reina commented with closed eyes. "Glad you girls like 'em. Azalea, could you come over here for a second? I want to tell you something." Eitri whispered something into her ear, bringing a worrying smile to her lips. "We should be heading to the seamstress now, Azalea," reminded Reina. "Yes, off we go! Thank you, Eitri, Avu! I had so much fun!" Azalea raved. "Hope you see you girls back again sometime." Eitri walked the friends to the front door. To be continued in part 9, by Scholarly Mori for Literotica.

Wait! What?!? An episode where Sandra and Kasey don't focus on Sam and Dean? Yep. Known as heavenssexiestangel on tumblr, Arthur's bio makes it quite clear that Dean Winchester deserved better, Gadreel is their dearly beloved, and they are an Arthur Ketch apologist. As ArthursKnight on AO3, he's been publishing fanfiction since 2015, with 75 works for fandoms that include Supernatural, MacGyver and The Walking Dead. He is also a talented artist and Manta Ray for the SPN FanFic Pond. Where does he find the time? Have a listen and learn about the rarest of shipping pairs and Arthur's mission to shine the spotlight on his beloved Ree. Some of Arthur's FanFic Author Friends and RarePair Recs: LadyKnightSkye - Ducifer Mrs_SimonTam_PhD - Ketch/Dean Taste_of_Suburbia - Debriel hollyblue2 - Benny/Dean randomfills - Michean QuickSilverCastiel - Midam  Comfortably Queer - A Supernatural Fanzine - "Comfortably Queer" is a purely digital Supernatural Zine focusing on portraying the joys of being a Queer Person with the Characters of CW's Supernatural. A Safe FanFic Space for Minors. Sandra narrated Arthur's story "Stay the Night" (Gadreel/Dean - Explicit) last year. Have a listen or give it a read! ~~~ We're taking you for a spin in Baby's backseat. Dean's House Rules - Driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole, and the ones in the back enjoy the ride... idling in the Impala. ~~~~~ TL;DR - If you can't be bothered clicking on all the things in this description, just visit our website: idlingintheimpala.com We'd love to hear your thoughts. Send us an email (idlingintheimpala@gmail.com)! DM us on Twitter or leave us a voicemail! All the Socials and AO3 and Fiction links: https://linktr.ee/idlingintheimpalapodcast Our Discord #backseat Channel. Interested in being a guest on the podcast? Give us some info about you here so we can connect. Feel inclined to leave us a tip for all this AWESOME content? Visit our Ko-fi page. Supporters will get access to our #behindthescenes channel, content self-explanatory. We've got podcast merch for our fellow idlers. Take a look! ~~~~~ Charities supporting people affected by the Russian invasion of Ukraine and the October 2023 war in the Middle East World Central Kitchen and Doctors Without Borders/Médecins Sans Frontières (MSF) ~~~~~ For Those in the US: Educate and Empower Yourself, Find Ways to Take Action U.S. Voting Registration - Vote.gov Support Basic Human Rights - American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) Prioritize Your Mental Health - National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) Thrive (Not Just Survive) After Abuse - Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN)   ~~~~~ LGBTQ+ Charities Switchboard LGBT UK The Trevor Project - USA and Global --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/idlingintheimpala/message Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/idlingintheimpala/support

In der Schweiz setzen immer weniger Landwirtinnen und Landwirte auf Pflanzkartoffeln. Denn: Wegen des Klimawandels ist deren Anbau in den letzten Jahren komplizierter geworden. Warum Landwirt Simon Pfister aus Murten (FR) trotzdem darauf setzt. Weiter in der Sendung: * Der Kanton Bern hat den amtlichen Wert von fast 800 000 Grundstücken neu geschätzt. Nun informiert der oberste Berner Steuerverwalter, Claudio Fischer, über den aktuellen Stand. * In der Stadt Bern wohnen rund 140 000 Menschen – 1500 mehr als noch vor einem Jahr. Die Gründe. * Mitarbeiterinnen der Stadt Freiburg, die Menstruationsbeschwerden haben, sollen monatlich drei Tage freibekommen – dies hat das Freiburger Stadtparlament beschlossen.

Actor Michelle Williams delivers a tell-all memoir from singer Britney Spears. Host Jo Reed and AudioFile's Michele Cobb discuss this audiobook full of pain detailing how a vibrant performing talent was ultimately used by her family and circle of handlers to make money off of her life. Williams uses a direct approach to voice Spears's feelings, and her narration gives added perspective on the trauma, stress, and pressure Spears endured for so many years. Rarer joyful moments are delivered with warmth, reminding listeners that Spears is more than the spectacle the media has made her out to be. Read the full review of the audiobook on AudioFile's website. Published by Simon & Schuster Audio. Find more audiobook recommendations at audiofilemagazine.com Support for AudioFile's Behind the Mic comes from HarperCollins Focus, and HarperCollins Christian Publishing, publishers of some of your favorite audiobooks and authors, including Reba McEntire, Zachary Levi, Kathie Lee Gifford, Max Lucado, Willie Nelson, and so many more! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

It's not often that you get an expert, orthodox OR functional, who has walked the path of "patient" and so knows that journey intimately. Even more rare is one who has been touched by cancer. Rarer still one who has recovered from recurrence and metastases. Eddie Enever is THAT practitioner. He has had his fair share of ups and downs in life. He's battled with cancer and survived not once, but three times, struggled with anxiety and depression, experienced a marriage break up, and financial demise. He not only survived but now thrives living a life full of deep connection, meaning and purpose. He TRULY knows the stressful journey of those diagnosed with cancer, and indeed how this sinister diagnosis affects not just themselves but their family, friends and indeed their whole social network. Eddie was so powerfully moved by his own experience that he now devotes his clinical time to help patients learn the lessons of healing and find meaning to their cancer diagnosis. He has developed a course for patients to help them navigate this tricky web and find their path back to living and loving life. After working with thousands of clients in his role as a health professional, he has developed a unique way of seeing past the facades, drawing out blockages, perceptions and limiting belief systems and empowering his patients to discover their own unique gifts, talents, and power to change their lives. Listen in as we delve into Eddie's journey and his pearls of wisdom for those touched by cancer.Resources:Your Oncologist is not your enemy eBook:A diagnosis of cancer is one of the most terrifying and overwhelming experiences one can go through. The doctor-patient relationship is a powerful aspect of healing. I wrote this eBook especially for people like you who find themself facing cancer. This eBook guides you as to how to effectively communicate with your oncologist about your cancer-care. Your Guide to Integrative Oncology eBook:This eBook is essential reading if you want to take control of your journey with cancer and build a holistic, comprehensive and integrative approach to your treatment and create your own statistics.Your Hero's Journey Online Cancer Support ProgramUse this exclusive link for NMP listeners to receive 20% off ($99)!The ultimate program that guides you through every aspect of the cancer journey, from diagnosis and how to effectively communicate with your oncologist, to choosing your treatments and the ways you can best complement those treatments. You'll learn how to manage cancer anxiety and discover meaning and purpose within your diagnosis. No stone is left unturned with this comprehensive ONLINE program presented by experienced naturopath, cancer coach and 3 time cancer survivor Eddie Enever. 

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The Daily Shower Thoughts podcast is produced by Klassic Studios. [Promo] Check out the Daily Dad Jokes podcast here: https://dailydadjokespodcast.com/ [Promo] The Daily Facts Podcast. Get smarter in less than 10 minutes a day. Pod links here Daily Facts website. [Promo] The Daily Life Pro Tips Podcast. Improve your life in less than 10 minutes a day. Pod links here Daily Life Pro Tips website. [Promo] Check out the Get Happy Headlines podcast by my friends, Stella and Mickey. It's a podcast dedicated to bringing you family friendly uplifting stories from around the world. Give it a listen, I know you will like it. Pod links here Get Happy Headlines website. Shower thoughts are sourced from reddit.com/r/showerthoughts Shower Thought credits: Murda-P, Ok_Owl_9904, AMurkypool, CappinPeanut, LeviAEthan512, AceofSpadesYT, SlipperyPigHole, Rockso, Danny_fruitcake, CodyLeet, MikkerBoyDKHS, WeareStarstuff7, I_Zeig_I, CrazyKZG, officer897177, MythicArtifact, AeroHawkScreech, mongolian_bedsheets, thatpewpewguy, , kevin32, Dr_Edge_ATX, mikerona50, Aisha_23, GoodMojo_, MTiburontrois, jimbosdayoff, Razulisback, Ninja_In_Shaddows, engineerdrummer Podcast links: Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3ZNciemLzVXc60uwnTRx2e Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/daily-shower-thoughts/id1634359309 Stitcher: https://www.stitcher.com/podcast/daily-dad-jokes/daily-shower-thoughts iHeart: https://iheart.com/podcast/99340139/ Amazon Music: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/a5a434e9-da18-46a7-a434-0437ec49e1d2/daily-shower-thoughts Website: https://cms.megaphone.fm/channel/dailyshowerthoughts Social media links Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DailyShowerThoughtsPodcast/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/DailyShowerPod Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/DailyShowerThoughtsPodcast/ TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@dailyshowerthoughtspod Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Last Friday, May 19, pastor, theologian, and author Tim Keller passed away. The longtime pastor of Redeemer Presbyterian Church in Manhattan and author of books such as The Reason for God was known for his thoughtful sermons, calm demeanor, and a ministry that extended beyond his own denomination and even his fellow Christians to the wider world of elite society.  It's rare, especially today, for someone to be called “a giant” by both a top theologian and a New York Times columnist. Rarer still will such a prominent figure be regularly described as unassuming, living out the exhortation of Rudyard Kipling to be someone who can “walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch.” It's notable that even his critics, which he certainly had, have refrained from doubting his self-effacing grace and kindness for others.  Keller was in his forties before he showed up on the public's radar. Oddly enough, he went to Manhattan after pastoring a small-town Virginia church for nine years. Success in the Big Apple was by no means a sure thing. A theologically conservative pastor setting up shop in the “Babylon” of downtown New York City had all the makings of a fish-out-of-water story where the well-meaning parson was doomed to failure even before he set out.   Keller took pains to know his audience, leveraging his own intellectual rigor into sermons for his highly educated hearers. He refused to talk down, much less shout down. Nor did he attempt to make the distinctives of the Christian faith more palatable. He took strong stands on the deity of Christ, the reliability of Scripture, the resurrection, the hopelessness of secularism, and the enduring relevance of Christian sexual ethics.   From an initial church plant of 15 people in 1989, Redeemer Presbyterian Church grew to a network of multiple congregations with thousands of people attending each week. In time, his influence extended to other pastors, who were inspired by his example and teaching, and set out to emulate in their own communities what Keller had done in New York. Keller was also instrumental in cross-denominational efforts, linking like-minded Christians to share their ideas and cooperate in endeavors to enhance the presence of the Church around the world. He was a co-founder of The Gospel Coalition, a broadly Reformed network that is among the most influential voices of contemporary evangelicalism, and a central figure in a Reformed resurgence among those who became known as the “Young, Restless, and Reformed.”   He was also an original signer of the Manhattan Declaration, a Christian statement on life, marriage, and religious liberty because, as he put it at the time, “these are biblical.” Keller communicated a confidence that believers could maintain the classical faith of Christianity without being ashamed when dealing with cynical neighbors. Christians could, he believed, meet the claims of the world face-to-face because the Bible offers an accurate and holistic explanation for reality and the human condition and grounds the hope for which people are truly searching. His sermons offered a robust biblical analysis, a keen awareness and understanding of culture, and allusions to art, history, Lewis, and Tolkien.  Ironically, his critics include progressive Princeton students and faculty, who couldn't stomach the idea that he would be honored by their school, and conservative Christians, some of whom believed his winsomeness to be weakness, and others who, as I often did in recent years, disagreed with his posture about politics and political allegiance.  Even so, Keller was a remarkable gift to Christ's Church at an incredibly important cultural moment. Even in disagreeing, he made us better by, as St. Paul put it, “set(ting) the believers  an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity,” and reminding us that, in the end, the resurrection secures our hope for today and for eternity. As he said on a podcast near the end of his life, in his trademark thoughtful and calm demeanor, “If Jesus Christ was actually raised from the dead, if He really got up... then everything is going to be all right.”  This Breakpoint was co-authored by Dr. Timothy D. Padgett. For more resources to live like a Christian in this cultural moment, go to breakpoint.org. 

This week, the lads are trying not to speculate on the exact nature of the Pentagon 'leak' that came out over the Easter weekend. Is it disinfo or just someone with an axe to grind? It's unclear, which is why we're casting out to what may happen beyond the summer - what if catastrophic collapse does indeed come to Ukraine's teetering defences? Who wins what, and how do we keep the fragile world order together? Before he'd touched down in Paris from his China trip, Emmanuel Macron was back on manoeuvres. He gave an airborne interview to Politico in which he laid out a much more Sino-centric view of the coming order. One that had little time for the US line on Taiwan. What is he playing at? Philip Pilkington reckons this one may end up being 'the story of the year'. And then there's the rare earths. They're in everything now. And 85 per cent of them come from China. With a Chip Ban retaliation on rare earth metals in the offing, Andrew Collingwood recalls what happened when China gave Japan a brief taste of what life is like without these strange magnetic substances. Key finding: not good.

Becoming a poet laureate is a coveted role and rare honor. Rarer still is having two laureates in the same family. Jeffrey Brown traveled to Philadelphia to meet with a poetic family and hear how a mother-son duo is working to bring poetry to a wider public. It's part of our arts and culture series, "CANVAS." PBS NewsHour is supported by - https://www.pbs.org/newshour/about/funders

Becoming a poet laureate is a coveted role and rare honor. Rarer still is having two laureates in the same family. Jeffrey Brown traveled to Philadelphia to meet with a poetic family and hear how a mother-son duo is working to bring poetry to a wider public. It's part of our arts and culture series, "CANVAS." PBS NewsHour is supported by - https://www.pbs.org/newshour/about/funders

Phil Whelan's is joined this week with Jim Grant and Pete Ward to catch up on four games after a little break.  westhampodcast.com  @westhampodcast  Produced by Paul Myers and Mike Leigh  Engineered by Leon Gorman  A Playback Media Production  playbackmedia.co.uk  Copyright 2022 Playback Media Ltd - playbackmedia.co.uk/copyright Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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There are lots of different things that patients think are causes of sciatica and it's the role of the health care professional to explain when it is sciatica, what it is, what it is not and what you can do about it In this episode, Rob discusses vascular claudication, a less common cause of leg pain but due to its risk factors, it's one that healthcare professionals stay alert to. He  shares the diagnosis of intermittent vascular claudication with a patient and explains the crucial indicators that led to the diagnosis along with the treatment   KEY TAKEAWAYS Intermittent pain in both legs can have several causes Intermittent peripheral arterial disease is to do with the blood supply. When you are walking muscles in the legs require more blood supply and can't get it Patients often describe a cramping or burning sensation in the thighs Vascular risk factors including smoking, weight, diabetes and age increase the likelihood of intermittent peripheral arterial disease What he told us about the pain was crucial in making a clinical decision. The type and duration of the pain was an important indicator High blood pressure raises the likelihood of it being vascular A significant reduction in blood flow in the legs will be an indicator of a vascular issue Patients with vascular claudication have a much higher risk factor for an acute vascular episode   BEST MOMENTS ‘As health professionals, we often provoke pain to understand the source' ‘Changes can take time but will make a difference' ‘It's one we have to stay alert for as health care professionals'   THE BACK PAIN PODCAST PROVIDER MAP - FINDING SOMEONE TO HELP YOU WITH YOUR BACK PAIN https://thebackpainpodcast.com/index.php/members-map/   VALUABLE RESOURCES The Back Pain Podcast The Back Pain Podcast website The Back Pain Podcast recommended products affiliate link Our Rode Mixer https://amzn.to/3waU8bx Our Microphones https://amzn.to/3rzSZ9Z Second Microphone https://amzn.to/2ObKMeA XLR Cable https://amzn.to/3rBL8ZB Studio Headphones https://amzn.to/3u082LE Laptophttps://amzn.to/3dhfafT Our webcam https://amzn.to/31uUefQ    ABOUT THE HOSTS Dave Elliott Dave is the owner of Advanced Chiropractic, a chain of Chiropractic and massage therapy clinics in Essex, UK. Dave still sees patients during the week but has been working hard to talk to as many experts in the field of back pain as possible to help distil all the information and bring it to you in this awesome podcast. You can find Dave on any of the Advanced Chiropractic social media platforms, or you can contact him at hello@thebackpainpodcast.com   if you have any questions for him. -Instagram    Rob Beaven Rob owns and runs a multidisciplinary clinic, The Dyer St Clinic in Cirencester Gloucestershire. His team of Chiropractors, Physiotherapists, Osteopaths, Doctors, and podiatrists all collaborate on thousands of back pain patients every year. Alongside Dave, he has worked hard to bring to the table experts across all industries to give you the low down on back pain, with steps you can implement today to start feeling better. -Instagram -Twitter   SOCIAL MEDIA LINKS Instagram Twitter Facebook   CONTACT US hello@thebackpainpodcast.com    Support the show: https://thebackpainpodcast.comSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

THIS INSTALLMENT IS AN ENCORE PRESENTATION FROM AUGUST 2021Welcome to my first Ted talk.Two types of politics pervade most workplaces. One is the politics of possibility, the idea that, through sheer persuasiveness and appeals to values, people can be recruited and motivated to work together for good. That their passions and their intellect can be encouraged to join forces in common cause for the betterment of all.The other is sadly much more pervasive, the politics of power, which centers on the ego and the zero-sum game and relies upon the machinery of personal destruction. In this brand of politics, the we is never evoked but in service to the I. Accomplishments remain singular affairs. Even collaborative effort is merely the coming together of individuals in support of their individual interests. Practitioners of this political philosophy are the type who tend to claim most or all the credit no matter their contribution. For them, the betterment of the organization has no purpose but as a means or byproduct of the betterment of the self.As a recovering academic, I have too much experience with the politics-as-a bloodsport crowd and the untold damage they inflict on individuals and institutions. Unfortunately, in most industries, the same politics of winner-take-all overwhelmingly dominates. Individuals seek to position themselves to protect their interests at the expense of their organizations, their clients, and even their missions. The ignoble and petty politics of ego and personal gain flourish and prevail with sometimes devastating consequences. For an object lesson, look no further than the many and mighty deep and wide travails of higher education.So how about the politics of possibility, of getting things done, of maximizing and sharing the win? How can we assert the power of such politics in our organizations?Talkin' Ted: Ted Lasso vs Jamie Tartt (With occasional translations for those whose first language is American)In the first season of the television series Ted Lasso, two characters evoke two different world views for getting things done. On the one hand is Jamie Tartt a young football (soccer) star, noted for his brashness — hence the name Tartt. His idea of how to win games is to take control of the ball and charge toward the goal. The fact that he is a cracking (supremely talented) player means that his approach is relatively successful even if he is a bit of a prat (arrogant fool). When he scores a goal (point), he celebrates his accomplishment as a singularly personal event that just happens to benefit his club (team).In the clubhouse (locker room), he is a self-interested bully who demonstrates his lack of respect for his club mates (teammates) through his nonstop expressions of self-regard. He does not encourage his club mates, nor does he celebrate their successes since, in his zero-sum mind, their success somehow dulls his luster. For Jamie, the team is merely an accessory to his glory, a means for a winner like him to take all. If the team wins, it is because of him. If the team loses, it is despite his dazzling and lone(ly) play. Jamie will even throw a wobbly (have a temper tantrum) at his club mates in order to deflect blame. In the politics of the clubhouse, Jamie dominates by inspiring a bold mix of fear, hatred, and admiration in his mates (colleagues). If they do not openly adore him or, worse still, if they show him up, they will face his considerable wrath. His is the politics of power, ego, personal destruction, and self-promotion. For him, the club only exists to serve his needs. Elsewhere I have written of the overall deleterious effect of such beasts in the workplace.The set-up of the series is that the new gaffer (coach), Ted Lasso, is a hyper-amiable American whose experience is limited to coaching American football (football) at a uni (college) in Kansas. Ted, of course, knows nothing about football (soccer). He, in fact, has unwittingly been brought in to fail and to scupper (destroy) the team.As it turns out, though, Ted knows nearly everything about leadership and about clubhouse politics. His approach is relentless positivity enhanced by a distinctive cheekiness (slight irreverence), as he introduces the players to the power of possibility and ropes them in through sheer persuasion — hence the name Lasso. Eventually, instead of a team built in service of individual players and their performance on the pitch (field), these lads (men) begin to coalesce in service to the club. Ted's approach confuses and frustrates Jamie, to be sure, but it also fascinates him.Ted also knows that building a team is not about just collecting individual stars and sending them out onto the pitch. Instead, he slowly persuades those individual players that they are best when they work together in service to the club. His political approach is informed by his inherent human decency as it advances the art of the possible.Ted Lasso's clubhouse politics is expansive and optimistic, a world in which everyone can be a winner. Jamie Tartt's is insular and self-serving and only allows for one winner. In life, the most brilliant (very good) leaders are builders, like Ted. They are patient and consistent and are not overawed by raw talent and drive. Armed with fortitude, courage, and resilience, they serve the team or organization and never the other way around.In a world that demands quick results and instant gratification, the Ted Lassos are all-too rare. Rarer still is the environment that allows them to flourish. Instead, we most often see the Jamie Tartt philosophy of zero-sum individualism receive all the praise and resources despite its vapid and decidedly nihilistic outlook.The politics of possibility can be challenging to implement and even harder to maintain. Such a political approach is marked by inclusiveness, collaboration, and personal humility. Society's immediate rewards perversely go to the rugged individualist who gathers glory as though glory were a finite resource. Think about that. The politics of personal power, being a zero-sum game, regards glory and winning as finite. If you win, I lose, therefore… How obviously and utterly dozy (wrongheaded)! Yet, we insistently and persistently laud such counterproductive behavior.The politics of possibility is the antidote to the toxicity of personal destruction. Bad being stronger that good, it can be hard to break through by practicing the art of the possible, but the alternative is unacceptable. We need to be builders like Ted Lasso. Otherwise we will continue to live in a world overrun by gits (dipshits) like Jamie Tartt.Thank you for attending my Ted talk.Click here for an exceedingly gratifying four minutes of television.Share your thoughts on this topic or participate in a discussion by leaving a comment below or by contacting me directly by email: You must register with Substack to leave a comment, which stinks but is painless and risk free.I look forward to hearing from you.Post this essay on social media or send it by email to someone you want to inspire/annoy.Subscribe to receive my weekly newsletter and special editions directly to your mailbox.Thanks for reading On Leading with Greatness! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work. This is a public episode. 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Today on Rising, Uvalde cover up? Cops tackled parents, trapped shooter in room with kids for an HOUR (00:00)Gun rights activists must be HONEST about the price they'll pay for 2A freedom: Briahna Joy Gray (18:12)Mass shootings like Uvalde are RARER than you think, more cops won't help: Robby Soave (32:00)No immediate gun vote? Schumer searches for bipartisan path, Beto INTERRUPTS Abbott conference (42:01)WHISTLEBLOWER report on baby formula plant safety stalled for 4 MONTHS (1:00:36)Kim Iversen: Even HENRY KISSINGER says Ukraine should NEGOTIATE, not fight (1:09:21)Zelensky speaks at DAVOS, demands Putin negotiate FACE-TO-FACE (1:20:52)Where to tune in and follow: https://linktr.ee/risingthehillMore about Rising:Rising is a weekday morning show hosted by Ryan Grim, Kim Iversen, and Robby Soave. It breaks the mold of morning TV by taking viewers inside the halls of Washington power like never before, providing outside-of-the-beltway perspectives. The show leans into the day's political cycle with cutting edge analysis from DC insiders and outsiders alike to provide coverage not provided on cable news. It also sets the day's political agenda by breaking exclusive news with a team of scoop-driven reporters and demanding answers during interviews with the country's most important political newsmakers.

Jerod Impichchaachaaha' Tate, is a classical composer, citizen of the Chickasaw Nation in Oklahoma and is dedicated to the development of American Indian classical composition. His Washington Post review states that “Tate is rare as an American Indian composer of classical music. Rarer still is his ability to effectively infuse classical music with American Indian nationalism.” Tate is Guest Composer/Conductor/Pianist for San Francisco Symphony Currents program Thunder Song: American Indian Musical Cultures and was recently Guest Composer for Metropolitan Museum of Art's Balcony Bar program Home with ETHEL and Friends, featuring his commissioned work Pisachi (Reveal) for String Quartet. Recent commissions include Shell Shaker: A Chickasaw Opera for Mount Holyoke Symphony Orchestra, Ghost of the White Deer, Concerto for Bassoon and Orchestra for Dallas Symphony Orchestra, Hózhó (Navajo Strong) and Ithánali (I Know) for White Snake Opera Company. His music was recently featured on the HBO series Westworld. His commissioned works have been performed by the National Symphony Orchestra, San Francisco Symphony and Chorus, Dallas Symphony Orchestra, Detroit Symphony Orchestra, Minnesota Orchestra, Buffalo Philharmonic Orchestra, Oklahoma City Philharmonic, Winnipeg Symphony Orchestra, South Dakota Symphony Orchestra, Colorado Ballet, Canterbury Voices, Dale Warland Singers, Santa Fe Desert Chorale and Santa Fe Chamber Music Festival. Tate has held Composer-in-Residence positions for Music Alive, a national residency program of the League of American Orchestras and New Music USA, the Joyce Foundation/American Composers Forum, Oklahoma City's NewView Summer Academy, Oklahoma Medical Research Foundation and Grand Canyon Music Festival Native American Composer Apprentice Project. Tate was the founding composition instructor for the Chickasaw Summer Arts Academy and has taught composition to American Indian high school students in Minneapolis, the Hopi, Navajo and Lummi reservations and Native students in Toronto. Mr. Tate is a three-time commissioned recipient from the American Composers Forum, a Chamber Music America's Classical Commissioning Program recipient, a Cleveland Institute of Music Alumni Achievement Award recipient, a governor-appointed Creativity Ambassador for the State of Oklahoma and an Emmy Award winner for his work on the Oklahoma Educational Television Authority documentary, The Science of Composing. In addition to his work based upon his Chickasaw culture, Tate has worked with the music and language of multiple tribes, such as: Choctaw, Navajo, Cherokee, Ojibway, Creek, Pechanga, Comanche, Lakota, Hopi, Tlingit, Lenape, Tongva, Shawnee, Caddo, Ute, Aleut, Shoshone, Cree, Paiute and Salish/Kootenai. Among available recorded works are Iholba‘ (The Vision) for Solo Flute, Orchestra and Chorus and Tracing Mississippi, Concerto for Flute and Orchestra, recorded by the San Francisco Symphony Orchestra and Chorus, on the Grammy Award winning label Azica Records. Tate earned his Bachelor of Music in Piano Performance from Northwestern University, where he studied with Dr. Donald Isaak, and his Master of Music in Piano Performance and Composition from The Cleveland Institute of Music, where he studied with Elizabeth Pastor and Dr. Donald Erb. He has performed as First Keyboard on the Broadway national tours of Les Misérables and Miss Saigon and been a guest pianist and accompanist for the Colorado Ballet, Hartford Ballet and numerous ballet and dance companies. Mr. Tate's middle name, Impichchaachaaha', means “his high corncrib” and is his inherited traditional Chickasaw house name. A corncrib is a small hut used for the storage of corn and other vegetables. In traditional Chickasaw culture, the corncrib was built high off the ground on stilts to keep its contents safe from foraging animals.

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"We've got 8 billion people in the world. Which means there is 8 billion ways to be a person. And everybody that is alive is literally their own universe; their own beautiful universe of experience and perspective, with an incredibly colorful story." Jerod Impichchaachaaha' Tate, is a classical composer, citizen of the Chickasaw Nation in Oklahoma and is dedicated to the development of American Indian classical composition. His Washington Post review states that “Tate is rare as an American Indian composer of classical music. Rarer still is his ability to effectively infuse classical music with American Indian nationalism.”Tate is Guest Composer/Conductor/Pianist for San Francisco Symphony Currents program Thunder Song: American Indian Musical Cultures and was recently Guest Composer for Metropolitan Museum of Art's Balcony Bar program Home with ETHEL and Friends, featuring his commissioned work Pisachi (Reveal) for String Quartet.Recent commissions include Shell Shaker: A Chickasaw Opera for Mount Holyoke Symphony Orchestra, Ghost of the White Deer, Concerto for Bassoon and Orchestra for Dallas Symphony Orchestra, Hózhó (Navajo Strong) and Ithánali (I Know) for White Snake Opera Company. His music was recently featured on the HBO series Westworld.Jerod is the type of person who has a deep and intimate understanding of the craft and the business of being a musician. It felt as though every other sentence was a masterclass on becoming the person you know you can be. He exuberates absolute positivity with an optimistic perspective toward progress. This perspective is constant throughout our conversation, peppered inside of fascinating stories about his mother, a choreographer who commissioned Jerod's first piece; his father, a judge in tribal and American law; as well as advice on finding your superpowers as an individual, accepting the ups and downs of being a composer, the language of the Chickasaw tribe, and so much more on episode 27 of the Making Noise Podcast. I hope you enjoy it!—-Follow Jerod's work: jerodtate.com Check out his YouTube channel: youtube.com/c/JerodTateVideos Follow him on the socials: Facebook: facebook.com/jerodtate Instagram/Twitter: @Jerodtate —-Watch the podcast on YouTubeListen to the podcast on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Stitcher, iHeartradio, and my website where you can listen to music, purchase scores, and learn how to commission a new piece for your ensemble.

Synopsis These days, it's still considered “news” when the Metropolitan Opera stages an opera by a female composer, so one might assume that in the 19th century, the performance of any opera written by a woman would have been even more sensational. Well, that wasn't the case on today's date in 1895, when the Paris Opera staged “La Montagne noire,” or “The Black Mountain,” by Augusta Holmes, or “Augusta Holmès”  as she was known in France. Her opera was performed 13 times. The jaded French audiences were already quite familiar with the sensational Mademoiselle Holmès, it seems. Born in Paris in 1847 of Irish parents, Augusta was a prodigy as a child, a stunning beauty as a young woman, and a diligent composition student of César Franck's. And, rare for her time, she was a financially independent artist due to a fortune inherited from her father.  Rarer still: Augusta's scores were championed and premiered by Parisian orchestras, and she received major commissions for elaborate national celebrations. By the time of her death in 1903, however, Augusta Holmès was regarded as a curious but minor figure in the history of French music.  In our time, her works are being reappraised and occasionally performed. Music Played in Today's Program Augusta Holmès (1847 – 1903) — Irlande (Ireland), Symphonic Poem (Rheinland-Pfalz Philharmonic; Samuel Friedmann, cond.) Marco Polo 8.223449

Not(PolicyWTF): Reforming Procurement (Sanjeev Kumar Must Be Smiling)  Pleasant surprises in policymaking in India— RSJSince we take great pleasure in highlighting policy screw-ups around here, it is only fair we appreciate measures that aren’t PolicyWTFs when they make an occasional appearance on our landscape like rare migratory birds. Last week we had one such sighting. (Deep breath). The Procurement Policy Division (PPD) in the Department of Expenditure (DoE) under the Ministry of Finance (MoF), Government of India (GoI) released the ‘General Instructions on Procurement and Project Management’. The press release reads:“These guidelines attempt to incorporate into the realm of Public Procurement in India, innovative rules for faster, efficient and transparent execution of projects and to empower executing agencies to take quicker and more efficient decisions in public interest. Some of the improvements include prescribing strict timelines for payments when due. Timely release of ad hoc payments (70% or more of bills raised) is expected to improve liquidity with the contractors especially Micro, Small and Medium Enterprises (MSMEs).”Importantly, it has this line too:“Alternative methods for selection of contractors have been permitted, which can improve speed and efficiency in execution of projects. In appropriate cases, quality parameters can be given weightage during evaluation of the proposal in a transparent and fair manner, through a Quality cum Cost Based Selection (QCBS), as an alternative to the traditional L1 system.”  This is critical. In ‘appropriate cases’, from now on, quality of service will also be given weightage during evaluation of projects. It sounds absurd but it’s true. Quality wasn’t an explicit parameter for choosing suppliers in government contracts so far. So, yes, this is a reform. Bravo!Puraane Paap I have written about the tyranny of the L1 system and its pernicious effects before. From our edition #22 (Trishul: Ek ‘Tender’ Prem Katha):“The procurement of goods and services by the Government of India is still largely governed by the Contract Act 1872 and Sale of Goods Act, 1930 and General Financial Rules (GFR) that are amended periodically. The most prevalent mechanism of awarding a contract in government departments and PSUs over the last century has been the L1 system, also called the Least Cost Selection Method. There is a bit of history to this. The colonial government wasn’t too keen on spending a lot on projects in India. A minimal threshold of quality was all that was needed at the lowest cost. Though alternatives like the Quality and Cost Based System (QCBS) and Quality Based System (QBS) are being gradually adopted, the L1 system still holds sway after seven decades. Yes, we love our colonial past a lot that way. So, you could lie your way through the technical bid claiming excellent capabilities. Once you crossed that threshold, all you needed was some friendly insider who helped you price your bid lower than your rivals only marginally. Voila, you’re in business.Three problems arose out of this. First, since technical bids didn’t have a weightage, the projects were often won by less competent firms who ended up either not completing the project or did a shoddy job. Examples of this are visible all around us in government infrastructure projects. Second, it encouraged rent-seeking behaviour among public servants who had the information about rival bids. In that cult classic, Jaane Bhi Do Yaaro, municipal commissioner D’mello was playing two builders (Ahuja and Tarneja) to maximise his benefits till one of them bumps him off. Third, it led to crowding out of honest, competent players from the government tender market because they wouldn’t play ball.”   What’s Changed?Anyway, I went through this 22-page document released by the department and a few things stand out. First, there are concrete measures identified to make it easy for suppliers dealing with the government. The guidelines suggest 75 per cent of payment due must be paid within 10 working days of the submission of the bill and the remaining within 28 working days. Beyond this, penal interest would apply. There’s also guidance on how government entities should operate when they get into legal disputes with their suppliers. The entities should not appeal against judgments of lower courts in routine matters and decision to appeal should be reviewed by a special committee that should consider both legal merits and the practical chances of success after doing a cost-benefit analysis. This will encourage those suppliers who have stayed away from government contracts because of the jhanjhat they entail.   Second, a few other common bugbears of the government procurement process have been eliminated. For instance, the single bidder scenario in an open tender. Earlier the tender would be scrapped and a new one floated if there was only one bidder. This is no longer a necessary requirement and if the single bidder checks all the boxes, the process can continue with them to its conclusion. Also, the government entities can now quote a fixed budget for a project in the tender itself for the bidders to apply. This will take away the guesswork and protracted negotiations to get a bid under a budget that the government has in mind for specific time-bound projects. Finally, we have the Quality-cum-Cost Based Selection (QCBS) now allowed for procurement of works and non-consultancy service where the procurement has been declared Quality Oriented Procurement (QOP) by the competent authority and where the estimated value of the tender does not exceed Rs.10 crore. Even here, the weightage of non-financial parameters cannot exceed 30 per cent. This isn’t wholesale dumping of the L1 procurement system as it is made out to be but it is a continuation of the changes in the procurement process that started in 2017. And I hope as the confidence in this grows, we will phase out the L1 system completely and have a procurement framework that’s modern, not a colonial relic.p.s: There’s always a lot of life lessons to learn from any government gazette and this time I learnt the difference between ‘may’, ‘should’, ‘shall’ and ‘allowed’. I have reproduced it below for your enlightenment:“(i) Instructions containing ‘may’ are to be considered desirable or good practices which procuring entities/ project executing agencies are encouraged to implement but not mandatory. (ii) Instructions containing ‘should’ are required to be followed in general. However, there may be circumstances where it may not be practical/ desirable to implement them. In such cases, the concerned officer / agency may deviate by recording reasons in writing for not implementing the same(iii) Instructions containing ‘shall’ are mandatory; any deviation shall require (our take: note the meta level usage of shall here) relaxation of rules from the DoE (iv) Instructions containing ‘allowed’ indicate an optional course of action to be decided upon on merits” Aur kahan milega itna content!A Framework a Week: What’s a Policy Success? Tools for thinking public policy— Pranay KotasthaneWhatay coincidence! I also have something not-so-terrible to discuss. Rarer than sighting rare migratory birds. Anyways, it’s always fun to identify a policyWTF. The gotcha feeling is unmistakable. Policy watchers like us experience immense satisfaction in identifying governments’ stupidities. Moreover, limited state capacity in India means that policyWTFs surface at a daily cadence. Ideas that seemed great on paper regularly morph into egregious policies. As important as exposing government incompetence is in a democracy, we also realise the limits of analyses focusing on policy failures alone. The dominance of the language of incompetence and disillusionment with the State can lead to self-fulfilling prophecies. Fed only on a diet of policy failures, those of us who can afford, give up entirely on the State. Those who can’t afford, resign themselves to a State that can give occasional handouts and provide short-term benefits. To escape this narrative of cynicism and despair, we need to systematically understand policy successes in India. The caricature that India progresses despite its governments, not because of it, surely can’t be true. There are plenty of examples where government policies effectively resolved the biggest challenges of the day. The Green Revolution, the 1991 reforms, the National Pension System (NPS) reform, Fiscal Budget Responsibility and Budget Management Act, and the Target Olympic Podium Scheme (TOPS) are just some candidates for successful policy measures that come to mind.But identifying isolated successes doesn’t go far enough. We need frameworks that can help understand what a policy success really entails. We need to understand the elements that are more likely to make policies successful in the Indian context. A search on these lines led me to this book Successful Public Policy: Lessons from Australia and New Zealand, which has a good review of literature on this topic. Let’s discuss a few of them.Framework 1: Programmatic-Political AxesThe first framework assesses success on two parameters - programmatic efficiency and effectiveness on one hand, and political coalition building and communication on the other. My illustration of this framework is below.This framework helps explain why the farm laws cannot be classified as a policy success or why this government doesn’t project demonetisation as a terrific policy reform anymore. Stories, Stories, StoriesThe crucial point is that calling a policy successful is at its core an intensely political claim. Apart from good “craft work”, it involves shaping the narrative so that it is widely seen as a success. As the authors write:“Policy successes, like policy failures, are in the eye of the beholder. They are not mere facts but stories. Undoubtedly, ‘events’—real impacts on real people—are a necessary condition for their occurrence. But, in the end, policy successes do not so much occur; they are made. To claim that X—a public policy, program or project—is a ‘success’ is effectively an act of interpretation, indeed of framing. To say this in a public capacity and in a public forum makes it an inherently political act. It amounts to giving a strong vote of confidence to certain acts and practices of governance. In effect, it singles them out, elevates them and validates them. For such an act to be consequential it needs to stick; others need to become convinced of its truth and need to emulate it. The claim ‘X is a success needs to become a more widely accepted and shared narrative. When it does, it becomes performative: X looks better and better because so many say so, so often. When the narrative endures, X becomes enshrined in collective memory through repeated retelling and other rituals. Examples of the latter include the conferral of awards on people or organisations associated with X, who then subsequently receive invitations to come before captive audiences to spread the word; the high place that X occupies in rankings; and the favourable judgements of X by official arbiters of public value in a society, such as audit agencies or watchdog bodies, not to mention the court of public opinion. Once they have achieved iconic status, success tales—no matter how selective and biased certain critics and soft voices may claim them to be (see, for example, Schram and Soss 2001)—serve as important artefacts in the construction of the self-images and reputational claims of the policymakers, governments, agencies and societal stakeholders that credibly claim authorship of their making and preservation (Van Assche et al. 2011)” —[Successful Public Policy: Lessons from Australia and New Zealand]Given the importance of narratives, objective classification of policies into successes or failures becomes difficult. Framework 2: A Fourfold MeasureBuilding on the previous framework, the editors develop a four-fold assessment in order to eliminate getting swayed by narratives alone. Broadly speaking, programmatic assessment measures effectiveness and efficiency, process assessment indicates implementation capability, and political assessment measures narrative power. I quite liked the fourth dimension. The temporal assessment, in the authors’ words, looks at the policy ‘not as a snapshot but as a film’. Policies with desirable effects almost always need regular software updates to account for unintended and unanticipated consequences. Take the case of Minimum Support Pricing policies in the context of food shortage in India. It did achieve the programmatic, process, and political goals but failed the temporal test because it evergreened the subsidies for a few crops. I recommend the book to anyone interested in policy engineering. I hope to do something similar in the Indian context to get out of a declinist policy discourse. Do you have any policy candidates in mind that meet the criteria outlined above? India Policy Watch: Charging For Sedition Is Our Parampara Insights on burning policy issues in India— RSJAnother week and another demand for a sedition case. This time it is from the left or the liberal wing. And their target is the eminent public intellectual Kangana Ranaut who in a discussion with another formidable intellect on Times Now claimed that India got her real azaadi in 2014 and what happened in 1947 was but a ‘bheekh’ (alms) that our generous colonial overlords had given us. This was enough. Demand for sedition charges poured in. Is this sedition? In the world of social media whataboutery, all kinds of parallels were drawn with other cases where this government has filed charges of sedition. It is useful to go back into history a bit to understand sedition in India (Section 124-A of the IPC) and how it has evolved to become the ogre it is today. A Brief History Of Sedition The first documented case of sedition was back in 1891. In the Queen Empress v. Jogendra Chunder Bose case, the proprietor of a weekly Bangla newspaper Bangobasi was charged for articles that appeared in it. What sort of articles? Well, the colonial government was considering passing the Age of Consent Bill which sought to raise the age of consent for Indian girls to be subject to sexual intercourse from ten to twelve. Bangobasi saw this as an unnecessary intervention of the state into the customs of Hindu society and severely criticised it. This would have made an interesting case even today on how much the state should intervene in the traditions of a society. The jury was unable to reach a consensus and Justice W. Comer Petheram discharged the case and let out the accused on bail.It is the next case that set the definition for sedition in colonial India whose imprint hasn’t vanished yet. This was Queen Empress v. Bal Gangadhar Tilak case where Tilak in his newspaper Kesari had carried an article titled ‘Shivaji’s Utterances’ that exhorted Indians to wake up to the foreign debasement of their culture. Tilak had sought for swarajya in his pages using Shivaji’s ghost in heaven as the medium. The article had no direct call for action or incitement to disorder. The case came up before Justice Arthur Strachey of the Bombay High Court and he defined sedition in such broad and blatantly partisan strokes that it was almost impossible for the jury to return any other verdict than guilty. Tilak was sentenced to 18 months of rigorous imprisonment and a precedent was set. Puraane Paap Once MoreSo, what were these broad strokes that Justice Strachey applied on sedition that continue to haunt us in independent India? First, it was not necessary for the speaker (or writer) to incite people to commit acts of violence or insurrection against the state for it to be considered sedition. Just the intention to arouse negative feelings about the government was good enough. Mind you, this almost replaced the state with the government. Abusive language against the government, portraying it as corrupt or hostile to its own people or calling it partial could all be considered sedition. The presumed intention itself going literally by the words of the speaker could be considered seditious. It didn’t matter if they were being used for irony or for satire. The real intent was irrelevant. Second, the judgment introduced a new element in free speech debates. Who is the intended audience and what’s their character? In Tilak’s case, the Bombay High Court was convinced that since Tilak wrote in Marathi, he was talking to an ignorant and gullible class of people who could be easily swayed by the impassioned texts asking them to rise in revolt against the government. So, not only the presumed intent of the speaker was to be judged but also the intellectual abilities of the audience to decide on the seditious nature of a speech or a column. Third, and quite incredibly, it didn’t matter what the consequence of the speech or text was in deciding on sedition charges. The accused couldn’t plead that no one actually developed any negative feelings against the government because of their speech. Nor was the truth relevant. The accused couldn’t argue that what she was saying was the truth. What mattered was presumed intent and the possibility of an impact. Quite honestly, this wasn’t any longer in the realm of law. This was metaphysics. Yet, a large part of this interpretation of sedition is what remains with us till today. By the mid 19th century, sedition was a minor offence (“misdemeanour”) in England and at its worst could attract a few years in prison. It was a bailable offence and there were rarely any convictions on charges of sedition in England by the time it was introduced as Section 124-A of IPC in 1870 in India. However, as we saw in Tilak’s case, the colonial government interpreted this section in the most illiberal way possible. And the tone was set. In the debates at the Constituent Assembly, the speakers who were victims of sedition law under British rule, drafted Article 19(1)(a) and 19(2) to take the sting out of sedition charges. After 1947, few of our Courts ruled against sedition charges that were brought up against the leaders of Hindu Mahasabha or the Communist Party for making inflammatory speeches against the state or against other communities that could lead to violence. These judgments spooked Nehru and others in his cabinet. The wounds of partition were fresh and the spectre of violence was all around. Nehru blinked and the First Amendment to the Constitution that curbed freedom of speech was passed in June 1951. This has been chronicled in Tripurdaman Singh’s Sixteen Stormy Days - The Story of the First Amendment to the Constitution of India.But this wasn’t all. In the Code of Criminal Procedure that came into force in 1974, Indira Gandhi made sedition a cognisable offence for the first time in our history. Now, police could make an arrest on charges of sedition without a warrant. Sedition thus became a non-bailable, cognisable and non-compoundable offence in India. A triple whammy that both sides of the political divide are happy to apply to the other. And in last five years things seemed to have gotten worse. Because in India, allegiance to free speech isn’t about conviction. It’s about convenience.p.s: Contrast the 1951 buckling of the Indian government to what happened to the Sedition Act of 1798 that was passed in the US House of Representatives. Here’s an excerpt from the House History website:“In one of the first tests of freedom of speech, the House passed the Sedition Act, permitting the deportation, fine, or imprisonment of anyone deemed a threat or publishing “false, scandalous, or malicious writing” against the government of the United States. The 5th Congress (1797–1799), narrowly divided between the majority Federalists and minority Jeffersonian Republicans, voted 44 to 41 in favor of the Senate-passed bill. Federalists championed the legislation fearing impending war with France and out of the desire to hold the majority in Congress and to retain the White House, then occupied by Federalist John Adams. In an era when newspapers served as political parties' chief organs, the Republican press was particularly vicious in its attacks on Federalists and the Adams administration. “Liberty of the press and of opinion is calculated to destroy all confidence between man and man,” noted one of the bill’s supporters, John Allen of Connecticut. “It leads to the dissolution of every bond of union.” Republicans defended the First Amendment protecting free speech and press. “What will be the situation of the people?” James Madison of Virginia demanded. “Not free: because they will be compelled to make their election between competitors whose pretensions they are not permitted by act equally to examine, to discuss and to ascertain.” Signed into law by Adams on July 14, the law proved immensely unpopular with the public and the President lost re-election to Thomas Jefferson in 1800. Under the incoming Republican administration, the Sedition Act eventually expired on March 3, 1801; however, arguments made for and against it shaped subsequent debate about constitutional protections of free speech.” PS: Read more on sedition in edition #115.HomeWorkReading and listening recommendations on public policy matters[Article] Sedition in India: Colonial Legacy, Misuse and Effect on Free Speech from EPW.[Framework] BCG’s Public Impact Diagnostic Tool provides another way to measure policy success. [Note] A Guide for starting a low-cost, primarily remote setup podcast. Subscribe at publicpolicy.substack.com

It is a rare thing when a company claims to be the first to do something and actually is the first. Rarer still is when that company is actually solving a significant problem with their product. Upheaval (upheaval.io) appears to be among those rarities with a data security platform that prevents data theft, intrusion and could solve the problem of social media privacy. This interview may be the most encouraging thing that has happened in data security in a long time and has earned them membership Cyber Protection Magazine's “Holy Grail of Cybersecurity” rolls. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/crucialtech/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/crucialtech/support

This week's guest is Philip Oostenbrink, Head Gardener at Walmer Castle and Gardens, Collections Coordinator for Plant Heritage in Kent, Plant Trials committee member for the RHS and self-confessed jungle plant nut. Philip has just published a new book titled ‘The Jungle Garden' and in this interview, I talk to him about what a jungle garden is, whether they can work in shady and sunny aspects, easy jungle plants, rarer ones, plant hardiness, seasonal and winter interest and where to get plants.  Dr Ian Bedford's Bug of the Week: Black vine weevil Please don't forget to rate, review and share the podcast! What we cover What sparked Philip's interest in jungle plants How the jungle influences his design aesthetic The importance of seasonal changes and how do you can highlight these in a jungle garden scheme How much did writing the book make Philip examine what is an instinctual talent for grouping plants? Can jungle plants mix with more traditional cottage style plants?  Mixing exotic plants from different continents or eco regions Winter interest in a jungle garden Jungle gardens in full sunshine Good jungle garden climbers Trees for a small space but big impact Easy to look after starter plants  Rarer plants to wow your friends About Philip Oostenbrink “My name is Philip Oostenbrink and I am Head Gardener at Walmer Castle and Gardens in East Kent. Apart from my full-time job I am Collections Coordinator for Plant Heritage in Kent and Plant Trials committee member for the RHS. I am also a horticultural speaker for any groups who are interested in gardening and/or history. I have been a plant collector all my life. I have a passion for jungle gardening and I have four National Plant Collections: Aspidistra elatior & sichuanensis, Variegated and Yellow-leaved Convallaria, Hakonechloa macra and Ophiopogon japonicus. I have a love for variegated plants.” https://myplants.me Links The Jungle Garden by Philip Oostenbrink - Filbert Press, October 2021  Philip's Blog - ‘Thoughts of a plant nut.”  Philip on Instagram - mr.plantaholic 

The Field Guide to Particle Physics https://pasayten.org/the-field-guide-to-particle-physics©2021 The Pasayten Institute cc by-sa-4.0The definitive resource for all data in particle physics is the Particle Data Group: https://pdg.lbl.gov.The Pasayten Institute is on a mission to build and share physics knowledge, without barriers! Get in touch.The MuonMuons are a lesser known species of elementary particles that are extremely common, at least on Earth. They're falling all around us, all the time. Muons are created by the collision of particles from outer space smashing into the molecules of the upper atmosphere.Like all elementary particles, muons have no known size. But they do have a known mass. At 105.7 MeV, its a moderately sized mass. Its about two hundred times the mass of the electron. The muon's electric charge is identical with that of the electron. Indeed, the muon and the electron share many of the same properties.Like the electron, the muon interacts via the electromagnetic, weak and gravitational forces.Unlike the electron, muons are not stable particles. Heavy particles seldom are. They're heavy, and because they otherwise act like electrons, they decay to electrons. That's a pattern we will see in particle physics, over and over again.Muons also have antiparticle partners. Like the positron they're also positively charged. Since muons and antimuons decay, we don't usually worry too much about who's who, unless we're counting charges.Muons decay courtesy of the weak nuclear force, which of course, is a very weak force. So that decay takes a long time. Muons, despite being unstable, are relatively long lived particles, hanging around just over a couple of microseconds. By particle physics standards, a microsecond is an eternity.Muons typically decay into electrons and a pair of neutrini: very light, electrically neutral particles we will meet soon. That decay process is mediated by a heavy, photon like particle, the W boson.Schematically, the muon transforms into that W-boson and a muon neutrino. The W-boson itself then transforms into the electron and an anti-electron neutrino.Life is complicated, of course, and there are a few other alternative scenarios. You see, E=mc^2, and the mass difference between the muon and an electron is pretty sizable, so much of that extra energy gets converted into velocity. But conservation of energy still allows for a few other options.Occasionally - far less than one percent of the time - the muon's decay will create a bonus pair of particles: an electron/positron pair. Rarer still, an extra photon will be produced. Muons, electrons and the W-bosons all participate in the electromagnetic force, so while rare, it isn't totally unexpected.You might be surprised to learn that muons make up a pretty sizable chunk of your annual exposure to radiation. Especially if you fly.

Welcome to my first Ted talk.Two types of politics pervade most workplaces. One is the politics of possibility, the idea that, through sheer persuasiveness and appeals to values, people can be recruited and motivated to work together for good. That their passions and their intellect can be encouraged to join forces in common cause for the betterment of all.The other is sadly much more pervasive, the politics of power, which centers on the ego and the zero-sum game and relies upon the machinery of personal destruction. In this brand of politics, the we is never evoked but in service to the I. Accomplishments remain singular affairs. Even collaborative effort is merely the coming together of individuals in support of their individual interests. Practitioners of this political philosophy are the type who tend to claim most or all the credit no matter their contribution. For them, the betterment of the organization has no purpose but as a means or byproduct of the betterment of the self.As a recovering academic, I have too much experience with the politics-as-a bloodsport crowd and the untold damage they inflict on individuals and institutions. Unfortunately, in most industries, the same politics of winner-take-all overwhelmingly dominates. Individuals seek to position themselves to protect their interests at the expense of their organizations, their clients, and even their missions. The ignoble and petty politics of ego and personal gain flourish and prevail with sometimes devastating consequences. For an object lesson, look no further than the many and mighty deep and wide travails of higher education.So how about the politics of possibility, of getting things done, of maximizing and sharing the win? How can we assert the power of such politics in our organizations?Talkin' Ted: Ted Lasso vs Jamie Tartt (With occasional translations for those whose first language is American)In the first season of the television series Ted Lasso, two characters evoke two different world views for getting things done. On the one hand is Jamie Tartt a young football (soccer) star, noted for his brashness — hence the name Tartt. His idea of how to win games is to take control of the ball and charge toward the goal. The fact that he is a cracking (supremely talented) player means that his approach is relatively successful even if he is a bit of a prat (arrogant fool). When he scores a goal (point), he celebrates his accomplishment as a singularly personal event that just happens to benefit his club (team).In the clubhouse (locker room), he is a self-interested bully who demonstrates his lack of respect for his club mates (teammates) through his nonstop expressions of self-regard. He does not encourage his club mates, nor does he celebrate their successes since, in his zero-sum mind, their success somehow dulls his luster. For Jamie, the team is merely an accessory to his glory, a means for a winner like him to take all. If the team wins, it is because of him. If the team loses, it is despite his dazzling and lone(ly) play. Jamie will even throw a wobbly (have a temper tantrum) at his club mates in order to deflect blame. In the politics of the clubhouse, Jamie dominates by inspiring a bold mix of fear, hatred, and admiration in his mates (colleagues). If they do not openly adore him or, worse still, if they show him up, they will face his considerable wrath. His is the politics of power, ego, personal destruction, and self-promotion. For him, the club only exists to serve his needs. Elsewhere I have written of the overall deleterious effect of such beasts in the workplace.The set-up of the series is that the new gaffer (coach), Ted Lasso, is a hyper-amiable American whose experience is limited to coaching American football (football) at a uni (college) in Kansas. Ted, of course, knows nothing about football (soccer). He, in fact, has unwittingly been brought in to fail and to scupper (destroy) the team.As it turns out, though, Ted knows nearly everything about leadership and about clubhouse politics. His approach is relentless positivity enhanced by a distinctive cheekiness (slight irreverence), as he introduces the players to the power of possibility and ropes them in through sheer persuasion — hence the name Lasso. Eventually, instead of a team built in service of individual players and their performance on the pitch (field), these lads (men) begin to coalesce in service to the club. Ted's approach confuses and frustrates Jamie, to be sure, but it also fascinates him.Ted also knows that building a team is not about just collecting individual stars and sending them out onto the pitch. Instead, he slowly persuades those individual players that they are best when they work together in service to the club. His political approach is informed by his inherent human decency as it advances the art of the possible.Ted Lasso's clubhouse politics is expansive and optimistic, a world in which everyone can be a winner. Jamie Tartt's is insular and self-serving and only allows for one winner. In life, the most brilliant (very good) leaders are builders, like Ted. They are patient and consistent and are not overawed by raw talent and drive. Armed with fortitude, courage, and resilience, they serve the team or organization and never the other way around.In a world that demands quick results and instant gratification, the Ted Lassos are all-too rare. Rarer still is the environment that allows them to flourish. Instead, we most often see the Jamie Tartt philosophy of zero-sum individualism receive all the praise and resources despite its vapid and decidedly nihilistic outlook.The politics of possibility can be challenging to implement and even harder to maintain. Such a political approach is marked by inclusiveness, collaboration, and personal humility. Society's immediate rewards perversely go to the rugged individualist who gathers glory as though glory were a finite resource. Think about that. The politics of personal power, being a zero-sum game, regards glory and winning as finite. If you win, I lose, therefore… How obviously and utterly dozy (wrongheaded)! Yet, we insistently and persistently laud such counterproductive behavior.The politics of possibility is the antidote to the toxicity of personal destruction. Bad being stronger that good, it can be hard to break through by practicing the art of the possible, but the alternative is unacceptable. We need to be builders like Ted Lasso. Otherwise we will continue to live in a world overrun by gits (dipshits) like Jamie Tartt.Thank you for attending my Ted talk.Click here for an exceedingly gratifying four minutes of television.Share your thoughts on this topic or participate in a discussion by leaving a comment below or by contacting me directly by email: You must register with Substack to leave a comment, which stinks but is painless and risk free.I look forward to hearing from you.Post this essay on social media or send it by email to someone you want to inspire/annoy.Subscribe to receive my weekly newsletter and special editions directly to your mailbox.You can improve your ability to achieve your organization's mission.Visit my website and reach out to me to learn how. This is a public episode. 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Only a small fraction of those that ever play football will play beyond high school. A small fraction of those fortunate few will ever play professionally. Rarer still are specialists, like our guest Nick Sundberg, who are in the league for over a decade with barely a blemish on their record. We discussed playing through severe injury, when he knew he might be able to be an NFL caliber long snapper, what he would do differently listening to his body, and the time he was called for 2 penalties on 1 play. Great conversation with a tremendous guy. This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Chartable - https://chartable.com/privacy Support this podcast

We're talking about Books That Make You Help Aspiring Authors Become Professional, Ones—Even Bestsellers Every author likely has a similar dream: signing with a big publisher, of sitting atop the bestseller list, of captivating legions of fans, of living as a prolific, full-time writer. Such a dream is elusive. Rarer still are those who achieve that dream, and return to help others do so, as well. Our guest today is William Bernhardt, and that is exactly his wheelhouse. William Bernhardt is the author of over 50 books, including the “Daniel Pike” legal thriller series, kicked off with the #1 best-selling “The Last Chance Lawyer”. His prior books include the popular “Ben Kincaid” series, the historical novels “Nemesis” and “Challengers of the Dust”, two books of poetry: “The White Bird” and “The Ocean's Edge”, and the “Red Sneaker” books on writing fiction. Bernhardt also founded the Red Sneaker Writers Center to mentor aspiring writers. The Center hosts WriterCon, an annual writers conference, small writing retreats, and produces a bi-weekly e-newsletter and podcast. More than three dozen of Bernhardt's students have since published with major publishers. Find out more on Books That Make You. You can also follow us on Facebook and Instagram.

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Rarer than a unicorn is the cuckquean in the lifestyle. Taylor talks about how she enjoys degradation and denial and what turns her on about seeing her partner with someone else beyond the compersion aspect. She describes herself as a submissive first, an unapologetic black-only slut second, and a cuckquean third. Leyna's favorite take from this interview is why Cuckquean isn't spelled cuckQUEEN.  Continue the conversation on Twitter and Instagram P.S. Get 20% OFF @manscaped + Free Shipping with promo code LEYNA at MANSCAPED.com! Don't forget to subscribe, rate, and review Consenting Adults and visit consentingadultsshow.com to hear more episodes. See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Rarer still are the movies that, while they're shooting, seem like disasters in the making but wind up being classics. This week's movie - TOMBSTONE - is one such film. After losing their original director and being faced with a massively-budgeted competitor in the guise of Kevin Costner's WYATT EARP, TOMBSTONE went on to become one of the greatest westerns of its era and the definite Wyatt Earp film for many. Find out just how hectic the shoot for Kurt Russell's passion project was as we try to answer the question WTF Happened to TOMBSTONE?

Smart, original and snappy science fiction is a rare commodity today. Rarer still is the author who can converse about it. Meet Edward M, Lerner and get the chance to know a bit about him, who he is and his work as we explore him, his background and his latest novel, Deja Doomed. It’s fun […]

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This is Convo By Design with an architect that is single hardly redefining what is possible in modern residential architecture, this is Paul McClean...Paul McClean is one of those rare individuals who knew what he wanted to do at a very young age. Rarer still is growing up to change that space into your vision of what it should be. McClean grew up in Ireland and made his way to Southern California by way of Sydney, Australia. His work uses clean lines, site-specific features that make the most of water features, and the given space available, sometimes more, sometimes less. Always distinct, you can see McClean's fine lines woven through space and structure in the most seamless and unapologetically spectacular ways. McClean’s work is inspirational, aspirational, and if nothing else, makes you wonder, ‘what if’.Thanks for downloading, streaming, and subscribing to this episode of the podcast. If you haven’t subscribed yet, please do so you don’t miss a single episode of the show, like this one with master architect, Paul McClean.Thank you, Paul. Thank you Walker Zanger for your extraordinary partnership and thank you for listening. My goal is to bring you the stories behind sublime design wherever that may be. To share those stories, bring you business strategies to help you build a stronger firm and inspire you to do your most creative work. For more, please follow us on Instagram @ConvoXDesign with an “X”, check us out at Convo By Design dot com. Until next week, be well and keep creating.

Great opportunities are much rarer than you think. When they do come your way, go all-in. That's the takeaway DC shares on this episode of Seeking Wisdom and it's just one secret behind Charlie Munger's success. Tune in for more wisdom plus lessons from Jeff Bezos and Bill Ackman. And, is this the episode DC finally gets on Twitch? You'll have to listen to find out.Like this episode? Be sure to leave a ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ review and share the pod with your friends. You can connect with DC and his co-host, Adam Schoenfeld, on Twitter @dcancel @schoeny @HYPERGROWTH_PodFor more learnings from DC, check out his weekly newsletter, The One Thing. You can subscribe here: https://www.drift.com/insider/learn/newsletters/dc/

Great opportunities are much rarer than you think. When they do come your way, go all-in. That's the takeaway DC shares on this episode of Seeking Wisdom and it's just one secret behind Charlie Munger's success. Tune in for more wisdom plus lessons from Jeff Bezos and Bill Ackman. And, is this the episode DC finally gets on Twitch? You'll have to listen to find out. Like this episode? Be sure to leave a ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ review and share the pod with your friends. You can connect with DC and his co-host, Adam Schoenfeld, on Twitter @dcancel @schoeny @HYPERGROWTH_Pod For more learnings from DC, check out his weekly newsletter, The One Thing. You can subscribe here: https://www.drift.com/insider/learn/newsletters/dc/

Intro: Welcome to the podcast Coronavirus Crisis: Carpe Diem!, where by God's grace, you and I rise up and embrace the possibilities and opportunities for spiritual and psychological growth in this time of crisis, all grounded in a Catholic worldview.   We are going beyond mere resilience, to rising up to the challenges of this pandemic and becoming even healthier in the natural and the spiritual realms than we were before.  I'm clinical psychologist Peter Malinoski and I am here with you, to be your host and guide.  This podcast is part of Souls and Hearts, our online outreach at soulsandhearts.com, which is all about shoring up our natural foundation for the Catholic spiritual life, all about overcoming psychological obstacles to being loved and to loving.   This is episode 44, released on November 30, 2020 Thank you for being here with me.   and it is the eighth episode in our series on shame.   and it is titled: Rape, Incest, Shame, and Silence: A True Story Reexamined, Part 3 We continuing to deal with very heavy, very difficult material.   We are continuing our deep exploration of the internal worlds of Crown Prince Amnon and Princess Tamar as recounted in 2 Samuel 13.    We opened that up in Episode 40, with Part 1  We continued  the story in Episode 43, last week with Part 2 Now in Part 3, we are continuing to learn what we learned about shame in the conceptual information about shame from Episodes 37, 38, 39. We're going to focus on listening as we were learning about in Episodes 42 and that we continued practicing in episode 43 -- important to listen to episodes 40 and 43 before this one.   Cautions  (summarize below)  There is an incestuous rape of a teenager in this story. I am not going into unnecessary graphic aspects about the rape itself  there isn't a need to get into the all the specific details of it   However, I am bringing out the emotional, relational and psychological impact of the traumas here, and not just the rape, but the betrayals and the failures to protect, and the injustice of it all and all the aftermath Those aspects -- betrayal, abandonment, the implications, the meaning of those contextual factors can be and often are worse than the actual physical violations.  And Tamar tells us that in the scripture.   Those realities can be very difficult to take, it's understandable why people want to avoid discussing them.   We need to be real about these things.  People who are traumatized, people who are burdened with shame, who are confused, who are lost -- they need resources.  These kinds of awful violations happen.  A lot.  We need to talk about them.  In this podcast I go into them.   There is no neat and tidy way to talk about incest and sexual violence and its aftermath, especially the experience of shame.  No whitewash, no clichés, no pious pablum.   And we need to be able to put these thing into a Catholic context, see them from a Catholic viewpoint.  Warnings --Summarize below.   let's be prudent here in listening to the story -- not an episode for little kids to necessarily be listening to.   As important as it is to deal with these topics Be thoughtful about where you are in your life journey, where you are in your healing -- this story may strike close to home for many of you You don't have to listen to the story or my analysis of it -- listen only if it is good for you -- even for people who are really psychologically well integrated, this is painful stuff.   Unresolved sexual trauma -- this may be a great time, it may be a terrible time listen to it.   Unresolved incest Unresolved betrayal Unresolved abandonment, especially by parents or church or civic leaders Sibling issues.   Window of tolerance the zone of nervous system arousal in which you are able to function most effectively. When you are within this zone, you can readily take in information, process that information, and integrate that information more readily.  You can listen.   People in the window of tolerance are feeling emotions at moderate levels, not overwhelmed with emotion (hyperarousal) and not numbing their feelings out (hypoarousal).   Review of levels of listening -- check out episode 42.  Brief review.  Summarize below Listening to trauma may be easier with a written narrative than in person with the people immediately present   Listening to --  Level 1 listening -- Listening with your mind, taking in information Often called active listening  Listen carefully to what is happening in the story  Grasping the content, the facts  Requires attention, concentration, taking in what the person is saying.   Focus externally on the characters, not internally on what is going on with your parts.  Not distracted by own self-focus   Listening for -- Level 2 listening -- Rarer.     This is speculative, we hold it lightly Listening to fill in the gaps in each character's big picture What is beyond and behind the words? Listening for the deeper layers of meaning in order to perceive what has not been said outright.  understanding the experiential context for each of the characters   Listening to what the character does not say or do -- omissions.   What are we listening for when we are listening for?   The person's experience -- to grasp the person's experience -- all the inner stuff.   Emotions Intentions Thoughts Desires Attitudes toward the world  Impulses  Vision of the world Working models of the world, assumptions.   Values Purpose in life I listen for identity  and for shame.   Engage the Faculty of imagination to help us fill in the gaps   Taking in what the person means (in contrast to what the person says in Level 1)  What we are not doing:   Not evaluating the merits of that perspective, not getting caught up in judging that perspective Not looking to right wrongs, not looking for justice, not asking deep existential questions about how could that terrible thing have happened to the person, not formulating advice, not looking to impress.   Setting all that aside.   To be with the characters in their stories, their narrative.  Understanding them first.   Taking that character's perspective in.  Seeing the world through the other person's eyes.  No matter how inaccurate or distorted that perception of the world may seem to be to us.   Listening with -- Level 3 listening -- Very rare -- characteristic of great therapists Listening with your whole self.  Listening with your heart and to your heart Window of tolerance.   Listening to your intuition -- listening to your own parts -- what they are telling you.   Emotions -- Fear, sadness, anger, disgust, happiness, etc. Impulses Intentions Thoughts that spontaneously arise Images Memories that pop up Body sensations Songs -- Internal Jukebox Sayings Gut sense All your inner experiences Remember, this is your stuff.  This is your experience.   Interpersonal field.  Which parts of me are resonating with your parts.  Listening for the shifts in messaging along with the shifts in relating.    What does the person need  Self as instrument -- tuning the instrument in to a frequency understand the other  Curiosity -- why am I reacting this way.    Compassionate connection     Read-through of Scripture 2 Samuel 13 1-22 -- last two episodes.   Breakdown of the Story And Amnon said, “Send out every one from me.” So every one went out from him. 10 Then Amnon said to Tamar, “Bring the food into the chamber, that I may eat from your hand.” And Tamar took the cakes she had made, and brought them into the chamber to Amnon her brother.  Amnon sends everyone out. Authority of the Crown prince Tremendous power imbalance.  The only one who could challenge the crown prince was David, the king. And David ordered Tamar to be there.   If the servants don't leave they lose their positions at best, and could be executed.  From a purely human perspective, the are in a catch-22 -- there is no good option.  Nuremburg mentality -- Just obeying orders.  If one witness had acted, if just one had sounded the alarm, or intervened, created a scene, how different this could have been.  But you would have to risk the enmity of the crown prince and with that death.   Theodore McCarrick report -- came out on November 10.  I couldn't read it.   How many people could have spoken up but didn't.   Some tried anonymously.  So much human respect. All seemed afraid of the power of McCarrick.  History repeating himself.   Bringing the food into the chamber -- bedroom.  The trap is closing.   Emphasis on "her brother."  Theme from Jaws running through my mind.   11 But when she brought them near him to eat, he took hold of her, and said to her, “Come, lie with me, my sister.” 12 She answered him, “No, my brother, do not force me; for such a thing is not done in Israel; do not do this wanton folly. 13 As for me, where could I carry my shame? And as for you, you would be as one of the wanton fools in Israel. Now therefore, I pray you, speak to the king; for he will not withhold me from you.” 14 But he would not listen to her; and being stronger than she, he forced her, and lay with her. He took hold of her.  Making sure of his prey.   She can't flee now.  Flight would be Tamar's first instinct.  And Amnon knew it.   Impossible to call for help because Amnon had sent the servants away.  No one to take her part. Come lie with me, my sister Invitation to consensual sex -- this sounds like it was very erotic for Amnon.  Part of his elaborated fantasy that would fill him up, make him whole.   She might give up her virginity for him, because she desires him, too.   Tamar may have the same sexual and romantic fantasy about him -- very arousing in a very disordered way.   May go on and on -- secret trysts Tamar keeps her cool.   Really amazing to me.  May have had special graces.  This is not a typical response.  It is far more adaptive that would be possible for most people in this situation.   Her sympathetic nervous system has got to be ramping up into a fight or flight response, but she is still in her window of tolerance.  She does not shut down She is thinking quicky and clearly, she can form arguments But I have to believe she is nearing the top end of her window of tolerance.    No my brother, do not force me.  Implication -- I will not do this.  I am not volunteering.  If sex happens it will be because you raped me.  First rejection.   Tamar could have consented, and afterward pretended that nothing happened.  Who would know?  The way the story is written made it so very clear that Tamar never considered violating her integrity and that she was a wholly blameless victim.  For such a thing is not done in Israel -- do not do this wanton folly.  Second rejection.   Major violation of social norms Major violation of Deuteronomic law Deuteronomy 27:22 forbids a man from sleeping with his sister.   Leviticus 18: 9, 11 The nakedness of your sister, your father's daughter or your mother's daughter, born in the household or outside -- you shall not lay bare her nakedness.   The nakedness of the daughter of your father's wife, born in your father's household--she is your sister; you shall not lay bare her nakedness.   Leviticus 20:17 And a man who takes his sister, his father's daughter or his mother's daughter, and see her nakedness and she sees his nakedness, it is vileness and they shall be cut off before the eyes of their kinfolk.  His sister's nakedness he has laid bare.  He shall bear his punishment.  Robert Alter  Punishment was to be cut off from Israelite community, outcast, exiled.   Consequences   As for me, how could I carry my shame  Third rejection Tremendous blow to her identity.  Virgin princess --> nobody, a social outcast, a pariah.   Unmarried and unmarriageable.   No one wanted to marry a non-virgin unless she was a widow or possibly divorced.   And as for you, you would be as one of the wanton fools in Israel  Fourth Rejection.   Appeals to his identity.  It is true.   She senses that the four rejections are not working.   Appeals to what is good, true and beautiful are having no impact. Appeals to social and religious norms do not phase Amnon Appeals to how she would be shame do not matter to Amnon Even pointing out how he will shame himself no longer penetrate into Amnon's awareness. This is a quadruple rejection for Amnon -- a quadruple refusal.  Emphasized and reemphasized.   Destroys his fantasy of consensual sex and all that his imagination had elaborated about it.   Amnon's conscience is also burning now in the presence of Tamar's principled resistance The contrast is so strong between her virtue and his vice   Amnon's part that carries shame is likely rising and about to take over Does he listen to that shame as a signal -- no, Amnon does not  Can shame serve its inhibitory effect -- no -- Amnon will not allow it.   What happens instead? Amnon's parts that carry anger and hatred rise faster like firefighters to take out the pain of the shame.    to drown out his awareness of the shame  and to justify the impending rape as a consequence for Tamar wounding his pride.   Catholic psychiatrist Conrad Baars -- Emotional substitution -- one emotion rises up to squelch another.   So Tamar is taking this all in.  And she shifts her approach to one that hold out a possibility of legitimate sexual union.    Now therefore, I pray you, speak to the king; for he will not withhold me from you.   King, not our father. Civil authority, arbiter of marriages.   Some believe she was trying to escape from his hands by any means in her power she did not necessarily mean that a dispensation for marriage was possible Unlikely such a request would have been granted.   Possible she was saying anything to play for time I think it's likely that Tamar believed a marriage was possible.   May not have been aware of the Levitical prohibitions in Leviticus 18 and 20. She would be much more familiar with Deuteronomy.   She may have seriously believed that given the nature of the situation that David might agree to a dispensation.     Either way, she was desperate.   But he would not listen to her; and being stronger than she, he forced her, and lay with her. He would not listen to her -- would not see her as she was.   She made it as difficult as possible for him to do what he did But he did it anyway.   I don't know what to say.   This happened.   Listen to your parts now, notice what is going on inside you, how you are reacting.   15 Then Amnon hated her with very great hatred; so that the hatred with which he hated her was greater than the love with which he had loved her. And Amnon said to her, “Arise, be gone.” 16 But she said to him, “No, my brother; for this wrong in sending me away is greater than the other which you did to me.”[b] But he would not listen to her. 17 He called the young man who served him and said, “Put this woman out of my presence, and bolt the door after her.”  Post-rejection.  Amnon shifts -- huge shift emotionally and in terms of his desires.  He must have her immediately -->  He must be rid of her, immediately My read:  Part of the intense attraction for Amnon was in how the sexual union was forbidden, but he was going to have it anyway.  She rejected him.  She is now going to pay the price.  He is just going to take what he wants.  He goes on a power trip, no longer relational in any sense, not even a distorted, warped sense like before.   Breaking sexual taboos.  I can do this.  The rules no longer apply to me.  I am above the law.   Amnon -- emphasizes the sibling relationship with Tamar -- as though that were important.   Act of rebellion -- of independence, of autonomy.  I make the rules for me and for others now.  Crown prince. Might have been growing up with this idea.   I don't need a relationship.  I can just take what I need by exploiting others.   Way of establishing power and dominance over David -- having sex not with his concubines or wives, but with his daughter.    Amnon hated her with a very great hatred  Amnon's original warped fantasies of a secret ongoing mutual sexual relationship with Tamar are totally destroyed  Amnon did not get what he hoped for -- so unrealistic Thinking with his hormones   vs. Proverbs 3:5  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and rely not on your own insights.  Yeah.  Especially when they are so driven by testosterone.   Sexual arousal is now gone.  He had wanted her, she never wanted him sexually.   Hatred covering his shame.   Heaping coals down on his head.   Parts -- Hatred is a firefighter part that rises up to protect his system from being overwhelmed by the intensity of his shame and self-loathing.      I think Princess Tamar's words stayed with him.  Remember what she called his intentions to have sex with him?  Wanton folly.   Remember what Tamar said he would be if he carried out these evil designs?  Wanton fool of Israel  And Crown Prince Amnon burned in his shame of knowing those words to be true.   But she said to him, “No, my brother; for this wrong in sending me away is greater than the other which you did to me.”  Even after the rape, Tamar is still functioning.  This is remarkable.  She is still fighting, still lucid, still able to engage in an effective way. Not typical, especially given the tremendous implications for Tamar   She is still fighting for dignity.  She can feel his hatred.  She is still appealing to him.   Tamar is appealing for Amnon to marry her Scott S. Biblical Hermeneutics stack exchange 2016 discussion.   Tamar aware of Deuteronomic law, but not levitical law.   Marriage not possible due to Levitical law.   Deuteronomy 22:28-29  If a man meets a virgin who is not betrothed and seizes her and lies with her and they are found, then the man who lay with her shall give to the father of the young woman fifty shekels of silver, and she shall be his wife, because he has violated her; he may not put her away all his days.   Common law in Near Eastern cultures at the time.   Last-ditch attempt to salvage her life.  She is desperately trying to salvage her future, making a futile gambit to avoid lifelong shame  The shame of being unmarried and unmarriageable made marrying her rapist seem preferable to being a pariah.   She is trying also to salvage the situation morally as best as was possible for both of them.  sending away would be a direct violation of Dt 22:28-29 -- He has to marry her.  But he won't.  That's not part of his plan.  He wanted her as sexual object, not as a wife.    Externalization of his experience Fantasy that his shame and anger are caused by Tamar  So he rejects her, banishes her.  But she won't go.   She points out another wrong he is doing, a greater wrong Explain that.  Position of hatred.  But he would not listen to her. 17 He called the young man who served him and said, “Send this creature, pray, away from me and bolt the door behind her.”    Dynamic equivalence strikes again in the RSVCE translation.  .  Not really "this woman" -- "this one" -- Hebrew is Z'ot. as though she is not human.   Robert Alter translates it as "this creature" emphasizing how dehumanizing her dismissal is.   He would not listen.   He would not engage, he would not see her She was an object to him.   The object of his sexual/relational desire at first Then an object of hatred, contempt, disgust.   Calls his servant to put her out.  Symbolic. Banishment.  Rejection.  Bolting the door Servant put her out -- rejection, shaming.  He basically has to throw Tamar out, like trash into the street.   Irony here -- Bolting the door behind her mad it seem like Tamar had made a shameful proposal to Amnon -- and she is the one treated like a prostitute Power aspect here for Amnon.  I am beyond the rules.  The rules and laws don't apply to me.  I am the favored crown prince.     Now she was wearing a long robe with sleeves; for thus were the virgin daughters of the king clad of old.[c] So his servant put her out, and bolted the door after her. 19 And Tamar put ashes on her head, and rent the long robe which she wore; and she laid her hand on her head, and went away, crying aloud as she went. She is not going quietly.  She is grieving multiple losses.   She wants the world to know she is grieving.  She will not hide.  She will not make this easier for Amnon.  She stays with the vulnerability.   I will make you see me.  I will not be invisible.   Ashes on her head, ashes and tears on her robe, her ketoneth.  And probably, in a cruel twist of irony, also her blood, blood from the violation of her virginity.  Part of the shame.  No longer pure.   Laid her hand on her head -- symbol of God's hand heavy upon her.   Crying aloud Perhaps she hoped that her public protest and grief would force Amnon to marry her in observation of the Deuteronomic Law.    Perhaps Tamar hoped that her public mourning would force David's hand to take up and judge her claim against Amnon  and that Amnon would get what he deserved.     20 And her brother Ab′salom said to her, “Has Amnon your brother been with you? Now hold your peace, my sister; he is your brother; do not take this to heart.” So Tamar dwelt, a desolate woman, in her brother Ab′salom's house. 21 When King David heard of all these things, he was very angry. 22 But Ab′salom spoke to Amnon neither good nor bad; for Ab′salom hated Amnon, because he had forced his sister Tamar.  Absalom:  Has Amnon your brother been with you? Not "our brother"  -- your brother.  My take Absalom knew what happened.  He has sensed it.  Maybe he saw the blood on Tamar's torn sleeve robe, her ketoneth.   Your brother -- emphasizes the incestuous nature of the rape.   Now hold your peace, my sister; he is your brother; do not take this to heart. Hard for me to imagine a less attuned statement in all of Scripture at this moment.  What was Absalom thinking?  Do not take this to heart?  He wants her to stop crying and settle down.  He is your brother -- he is the crown prince -- that makes it so much worse!  And that is a reason for Tamar to hold her peace?  Just keep it in the family?  Hush, Hush Secret family culture  That didn't work.  The whole sordid story was eventually got written in the Bible, the most-read book in all of human history   Absalom sees an opening here to take Amnon out.     Absalom is next in line for the crown after Amnon, and the wheels are turning  Absalom hated Amnon because he had forced his sister Tamar. Spoke neither good nor bad to Amnon.  Did not confront him then, when it would have helped Tamar  Doesn't want resolution by marriage -- doesn't want this to resolve, because that would thwart his plan for taking the crown.   No, Absalom was playing the long game  for power and dominance With cold vengeance and murder in his heart Feeling justified -- he now has a very objective reason for murdering his brother Carrying out the death sentence required by Leviticus 20 -- but more out of revenge than justice.   Given their father, the king's inaction.   When King David heard of all these things he was very angry.   He was going to hear about it all. And he was very angry Doesn't say what he is angry about -- we don't know.  David protects his favored, eldest son.   David protected the abuser, the rapist, not his daughter the victim. No visible consequences for Amnon.  He goes on as usual.     Such indulgence -- no punishment -- and now either can't or won't stand up to Amnon.  It would have been heroic for David to start now, to bring the hammer down, but he didn't  And parts of Amnon know it.  Playing Dad.  One can almost feel the contempt.  Consequence of his pattern of failing to discipline his sons -- this wasn't new.   So Tamar dwelt, a desolate woman, in her brother Absalom's house. No longer able to dwell with the other virgin princesses   A desolate woman Desolation -- complete emptiness.  Sense of being destroyed, so damaged inside.  Anguish.  Misery. Numbness.  Deadness inside.  Devastation, ruin.   Hypoarousal.  Downregulated.  Shutting down.  Three major, heartbreaking, colossal failures by the three closest men in her life Brother Amnon who raped her and abandoned her  Absalom who shushed her and minimized everything  David her father and her king, who was passive and did nothing.   Not just a question of him failing as a father He failed as king to bring justice to one of his subjects.   Tamar numbs out.  Loses will to live.  Losses are immense, after her adrenaline wears off. No one heard her  Safe place was no longer safe.   Her voice was silenced -- by Absalom and her father, King David.   Mindblowing.  This was David.  King David, slayer of Goliath, victorious in battle, beloved by God.   Shame and humiliation   She can never marry, she can never have children, she will carry the effects of the rape for the rest of her life.  She is an outcast.   David's silence means that others who want to help her are very limited.  The king has spoken through his silence.  So the king perpetuates the wrong.   And she lost other things.  Can she resort to the Psalms Can she sing Psalm 23 -- she would have heard it.     The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want Oh wait.  David wrote that.   Now some say that language of psalm 23 was in a late version of Hebrew that probably dated to The Second Temple period was basically the fifth century BC -- but many think it does go back to   Tamar:  What did I do wrong?  Did I cause this?  How come no one protected me, listend to me?  Where is God? This is why I couldn't sleep that Thursday night  God:  I lavished graces upon her.  That's the last we hear of Tamar.  Let's take a break.  Sit with this for a minute.  Notice.  Jot down a few things that you are experiencing.     Wrapup Practice this listening -- as far as you can go.  Share your experience of listening to this episode with another person.  You might invite someone to trust to listen to these episodes with you.  If that seems too much, read 2 Samuel 13 -- see what you can read between the lines.  Write it down in a journal, put your experience into words.   Where do you struggle with the listening Those points of struggle can help you identify where you need to work in your life  Notice what got activated.  The parts of the story that stirred you up can help you understand what you need to connect within yourself. The burdens that parts of you are bearing Can start by sharing these podcast -- spotify, apple podcasts, google play, amazon.  Share it on social media -- buttons are on our website at soulsandhearts.com/coronavirus-crisis  -- get your word out there, with your personal recommendation -- how these episodes have helped you.  Share them, let others know  Get on the waiting list  soulsandhearts.com/rccd  Friday, November 28, 4:00 - 5:15 PM EST, we had Office Hours for RCCD members.  Community members can check out the recording.   You can reach out to me at 317.567.9594 or at crisis@soulsandhearts.com  Patronness and Patron.    

Intro: Welcome to the podcast Coronavirus Crisis: Carpe Diem!, where by God's grace, you and I rise up and embrace the possibilities and opportunities for spiritual and psychological growth in this time of crisis, all grounded in a Catholic worldview.   We are going beyond mere resilience, to rising up to the challenges of this pandemic and becoming even healthier in the natural and the spiritual realms than we were before.  I'm clinical psychologist Peter Malinoski and I am here with you, to be your host and guide.  This podcast is part of Souls and Hearts, our online outreach at soulsandhearts.com, which is all about shoring up our natural foundation for the Catholic spiritual life, all about overcoming psychological obstacles to being loved and to loving.   This is episode 43, released on November 23, 2020 Thank you for being here with me.   and it is the seventh episode in our series on shame.   and it is titled: Rape, Incest, Shame, and Silence: A True Story Reexamined, Part 2 We are back to dealing with very heavy, very difficult material.   We are going back to the story of Crown Prince Amnon rape of his half-sister the princess Tamar that is recounted in 2 Samuel 13.  Remember that both Prince Amnon and Princess Tamar were King David's children.   We opened that up in Episode 40, with Part 1 -- now that we have taken two episodes to look deeply at King David's upbringing, especially around shame and his wounds So that we can better understand his role in this present situation  And now we are ready to return to the rape and so much of what went into it and came out of it.   We are going to be applying what we learned about shame in the conceptual information from Episodes 37, 38, 39. We're going to focus on listening as we were learning about in Episodes 41 and especially 42.   Cautions   There is an incestuous rape of a teenager in this story. I am not going into unnecessary graphic aspects about the rape itself  there isn't a need to get into the all the specific details of it   However, I am bringing out the emotional, relational and psychological impact of the traumas here, and not just the rape, but the betrayals and the failures to protect, and the injustice of it all and all the aftermath Those aspects -- betrayal, abandonment, the implications, the meaning of those contextual factors can be and often are worse than the actual physical violations.  And Tamar tells us that in the scripture.   Those realities can be very difficult to take, it's understandable why people want to avoid discussing them.   We need to be real about these things.  People who are traumatized, people who are burdened with shame, who are confused, who are lost -- they need resources.  These kinds of awful violations happen.  A lot.  We need to talk about them.  In this podcast I go into them.   There is no neat and tidy way to talk about incest and sexual violence and its aftermath, especially the experience of shame.  No whitewash, no clichés, no pious pablum.   And we need to be able to put these thing into a Catholic context, see them from a Catholic viewpoint.  Warnings -- let's be prudent here in listening to the story -- not an episode for little kids to necessarily be listening to.   As important as it is to deal with these topics Be thoughtful about where you are in your life journey, where you are in your healing -- this story may strike close to home for many of you You don't have to listen to the story or my analysis of it -- listen only if it is good for you -- even for people who are really psychologically well integrated, this is painful stuff.   Unresolved sexual trauma -- this may be a great time, it may be a terrible time listen to it.   Unresolved incest Unresolved betrayal Unresolved abandonment, especially by parents or church or civic leaders Sibling issues.   Window of tolerance the zone of nervous system arousal in which you are able to function most effectively. When you are within this zone, you can readily take in information, process that information, and integrate that information more readily.  You can listen.   People in the window of tolerance are feeling emotions at moderate levels, not overwhelmed with emotion (hyperarousal) and not numbing their feelings out (hypoarousal).   Review of levels of listening -- check out last episode Listening to trauma may be easier with a written narrative than in person with the people immediately present   Listening to --  Level 1 listening -- Listening with your mind, taking in information Often called active listening  Listen carefully to what is happening in the story  Grasping the content, the facts  Requires attention, concentration, taking in what the person is saying.   Focus externally on the characters, not internally on what is going on with your parts.  Not distracted by own self-focus   Listening for -- Level 2 listening -- Rarer.     This is speculative, we hold it lightly Listening to fill in the gaps in each character's big picture What is beyond and behind the words? Listening for the deeper layers of meaning in order to perceive what has not been said outright.  understanding the experiential context for each of the characters   Listening to what the character does not say or do -- omissions.   What are we listening for when we are listening for?   The person's experience -- to grasp the person's experience -- all the inner stuff.   Emotions Intentions Thoughts Desires Attitudes toward the world  Impulses  Vision of the world Working models of the world, assumptions.   Values Purpose in life I listen for identity  and for shame.   Engage the Faculty of imagination to help us fill in the gaps   Taking in what the person means (in contrast to what the person says in Level 1)  What we are not doing:   Not evaluating the merits of that perspective, not getting caught up in judging that perspective Not looking to right wrongs, not looking for justice, not asking deep existential questions about how could that terrible thing have happened to the person, not formulating advice, not looking to impress.   Setting all that aside.   To be with the characters in their stories, their narrative.  Understanding them first.   Taking that character's perspective in.  Seeing the world through the other person's eyes.  No matter how inaccurate or distorted that perception of the world may seem to be to us.   Listening with -- Level 3 listening -- Very rare -- characteristic of great therapists Listening with your whole self.  Listening with your heart and to your heart Window of tolerance.   Listening to your intuition -- listening to your own parts -- what they are telling you.   Emotions -- Fear, sadness, anger, disgust, happiness, etc. Impulses Intentions Thoughts that spontaneously arise Images Memories that pop up Body sensations Songs -- Internal Jukebox Sayings Gut sense All your inner experiences Remember, this is your stuff.  This is your experience.   Interpersonal field.  Which parts of me are resonating with your parts.  Listening for the shifts in messaging along with the shifts in relating.    What does the person need  Self as instrument -- tuning the instrument in to a frequency understand the other  Curiosity -- why am I reacting this way.    Compassionate connection     Read-through of Scripture 2 Samuel 13 1-22 --  I am going to read it with more inflection, more interpretation of the words.  Now Ab′salom, David's son, had a beautiful sister, whose name was Tamar; and after a time Amnon, David's son, loved her. 2 And Amnon was so tormented that he made himself ill because of his sister Tamar; for she was a virgin, and it seemed impossible to Amnon to do anything to her. 3 But Amnon had a friend, whose name was Jon′adab, the son of Shim′e-ah, David's brother; and Jon′adab was a very crafty man. 4 And he said to him, “O son of the king, why are you so haggard morning after morning? Will you not tell me?” Amnon said to him, “I love Tamar, my brother Ab′salom's sister.”  5 Jon′adab said to him, “Lie down on your bed, and pretend to be ill; and when your father comes to see you, say to him, ‘Let my sister Tamar come and give me bread to eat, and prepare the food in my sight, that I may see it, and eat it from her hand.'” 6 So Amnon lay down, and pretended to be ill; and when the king came to see him, Amnon said to the king, “Pray let my sister Tamar come and make a couple of cakes in my sight, that I may eat from her hand.” 7 Then David sent home to Tamar, saying, “Go to your brother Amnon's house, and prepare food for him.” 8 So Tamar went to her brother Amnon's house, where he was lying down. And she took dough, and kneaded it, and made cakes in his sight, and baked the cakes. 9 And she took the pan and emptied it out before him, but he refused to eat. And Amnon said, “Send out every one from me.” So every one went out from him. 10 Then Amnon said to Tamar, “Bring the food into the chamber, that I may eat from your hand.” And Tamar took the cakes she had made, and brought them into the chamber to Amnon her brother.  11 But when she brought them near him to eat, he took hold of her, and said to her, “Come, lie with me, my sister.” 12 She answered him, “No, my brother, do not force me; for such a thing is not done in Israel; do not do this wanton folly. 13 As for me, where could I carry my shame? And as for you, you would be as one of the wanton fools in Israel. Now therefore, I pray you, speak to the king; for he will not withhold me from you.” 14 But he would not listen to her; and being stronger than she, he forced her, and lay with her. 15 Then Amnon hated her with very great hatred; so that the hatred with which he hated her was greater than the love with which he had loved her. And Amnon said to her, “Arise, be gone.” 16 But she said to him, “No, my brother; for this wrong in sending me away is greater than the other which you did to me.”[b] But he would not listen to her. 17 He called the young man who served him and said, “Put this woman out of my presence, and bolt the door after her.” 18 Now she was wearing a long robe with sleeves; for thus were the virgin daughters of the king clad of old.[c] So his servant put her out, and bolted the door after her. 19 And Tamar put ashes on her head, and rent the long robe which she wore; and she laid her hand on her head, and went away, crying aloud as she went. 20 And her brother Ab′salom said to her, “Has Amnon your brother been with you? Now hold your peace, my sister; he is your brother; do not take this to heart.” So Tamar dwelt, a desolate woman, in her brother Ab′salom's house. 21 When King David heard of all these things, he was very angry. 22 But Ab′salom spoke to Amnon neither good nor bad; for Ab′salom hated Amnon, because he had forced his sister Tamar. That's the last we hear of Tamar.  Let's take a break.  Sit with this for a minute.  Notice.  Jot down a few things that you are experiencing.  Background  Ages Amnon 20  Tamar 19  Absalom 18   Physical locations -- convent-like separation Tamar is a royal princess a virgin -- the harem eunuchs are tasked with watching her closely.   She lived in women's quarters, always accompanied by guards and other women A kind of convent, a very protected environment.   Separated from men, so that nothing untoward would happen to them, especially nothing that would compromise their virginity.   the virgin daughters of the king were protected from us unsolicited advances from men, all men Told that she has a long-sleeved robe -- a beautiful and very modest public testament of her protected status as a virgin.   Ketoneth Hebrew name for it.  Only other place that word is used is for the robe, multicolored coat of Joseph -- son of Jacob.  Remember Joseph Sold by his brothers into slavery.  Brothers spilled blood of a goat on the robe to convince their father of Joseph's death.     David  Compromised morally Bathsheba -- well known.  Violating sexually boundaries  Unleashes a predatory precedent into his family.  Unintended consequences   Curse on his house -- communicated by Nathan the prophet.   He has many wives -- at least 7 named, at least 10 concubines   Sibling Rivalries Sons grew up without strict paternal discipline, different mothers were jealous of each other   Demands of duties of state   Idealization of Amnon -- totally not understanding him Parents almost never believe the incest (confirm)   Increasing boundary violations -- mark them out Cues to listen Checking in with the listener Breakdown of the Story  Now Ab′salom, David's son, had a beautiful sister, whose name was Tamar; and after a time Amnon, David's son, loved her. 2 And Amnon was so tormented that he made himself ill because of his sister Tamar; for she was a virgin, and it seemed impossible to Amnon to do anything to her. 3 But Amnon had a friend, whose name was Jon′adab, the son of Shim′e-ah, David's brother; and Jon′adab was a very crafty man. 4 And he said to him, “O son of the king, why are you so haggard morning after morning? Will you not tell me?” Amnon said to him, “I love Tamar, my brother Ab′salom's sister.”  Virgin -- means more than not ever having had sex She was young.  No references to older virgins in this time  Still living with her father, under his care and protection and under his authority Word Study -- Amnon, David's son, "loved her" Really disturbed by this language.  Confucius:  The beginning of wisdom is to call things by their proper names.    Then Isaac brought her into the tent, and took Rebekah, and she became his wife; and he loved her.  Genesis 24:47.  Love at first sight.  Isaac met her and immediately made her his wife.  Intensity there, and maybe some idealization.   What is the Hebrew?  way·ye·'ĕ·hā·ḇe·hā Some day some listener who actually knows Hebrew is going to call me out Several of the more dynamic translations render it "fell in love with her"  Even less literal translations will go with "became infatuated with her."  A lot of lust mixed in for Anon.   May be a mixture of things.  They grew up together.  Sibling relationships are complex.   Desire increased over time.  Amnon watched Tamar grow up. This may have built up over years, unchecked to the point where Amnon was   So tormented that he "made himself ill" -- Tamar was a virgin, protected by their father, King David, and it seemed impossible to Amnon to do anything to her.  Not with her.  To her.  At this point, Amnon still may have some moral constraints.  He knows that such a thing is not done.   But he also has an example of his father King David who used his power and influence to pursue his sexual fantasies with Bathsheba -- Amnon saw this at age 18, two years earlier, and it had to have made an impression.   David got what he wanted -- Bathsheba as wife And while the first son of David and Bathsheba died as a consequence Baby Solomon was then born not long after and was now toddling around the palace So it may not have seemed to Amnon that David's consequences were all that bad.   David seemed to have gotten away with it.   Obsession EMDR therapist Jim Knipe, book EMDR toolbox  -- discusses how intense experiences can be distorted in a positive, idealized direction, including sexual arousal.  Knipe writes how a chronic distortion of perception can occur when an intense positive experience remains unprocessed and is somehow a solution to an unresolved trauma.  This occurs when the experience, positive within itself, has the additional positive effect of enabling the person to contain or avoid significant emotion disturbance.   The positive experience allows the person to shift awareness away from something that is upsetting to something that is pleasant.  When this happens, the result can be what we might call an idealization defense -- a positive experience that is not only positive in itself, but also a means of avoiding a problem in the person's emotions.   Winning the jackpot at slots -- an idealized experience.   Gus very down on himself.  Loser, trouble with employer, conflict with wife.  Deep sense of shame, of feeling unlovable Goes to the casino, playing dollar slots.   Real low point Wins a jackpot.  So much attention.  He is a winner now!  People admiring him, congratulating him.  He is on top of the world.  Winning isn't integrated into the narrative of his life, his life story Feeling so much shame isn't integrated into his life story either.   Both are unresolved experiences.  And they are connected So Gus idealizes the slots machines -- he begins to gamble.  He remembers in highly idealized ways how great it was to win the jackpot.   Highly idealized memories of that also keep him distracted from his unresolved shame, his feeling of being unlovable and his relational problems. If this is going on for Amnon, he may be idealizing some pleasant early relational experience with Tamar -- something that was helpful in some way for him to deal with a trauma --  and then he ran with it.  Fantasizing about some kind of relationship with Tamar helped him avoid something painful within him.  It need not have been sexual initially.   And then, perhaps with the onset of puberty He may have worked sexual fantasies into his idealization of Tamar   Ammon may have been acting out sexually Masturbating  having sexual relations with other women, abusing his power, and imagining that it was Tamar.  Psychologist Joseph Nicolosi Jr.  Reintegrative therapy  intense, disordered idealization that drives a sexual attraction  reflects an attempt to find in another person something that is missing in oneself -- some void, some inadequacy.   The disordered idealization and its manifestation in an intense sexual preoccupation is driven by a negative self appraisal -- something missing in the person Negative self-appraisal -- sounds like shame.   Deep wound of inadequacy  Amnon knew, for all his charisma, his power as crown prince, his gifts and talents and status that he was deeply flawed and sinful  Deep sense of being bad, ridden with vices.   For Amnon, he may have seen the virtue in Tamar.   Her goodness.  But especially her innocence.   He knew he didn't have it He sought to share virtue with her.  Or to take hers from her.   Very speculative.   This kind of process is unconscious Doesn't justify it at all.   We do know that Amnon was not thinking of marriage and building a family together with her.   Debate about whether a marriage was even possible between the half-siblings.   I think it may have been possible with a dispensation from David, even with the prohibitions in Leviticus  Even if it were not legal.  David has a lot of power.  Power can be abused.   But David likely had other plans for Tamar -- she at 19 probably had a marriage already arranged -- it may have been imminent, as she was old enough to marry.    No political advantage to marrying Amnon and Tamar.   And it's bad optics.  This is not the old-time Egyptian royal family here.      So what to do?  What do you do when you really really want something that seems impossible to have and you feel like you need it?  You bring in a crafty friend.  Enter Jonadab.   Who we seek out matters Part of Amnon knows that Jonadab could connive   Jonadab could make the impossible possible.  All you have to do is violation the norms, the standards, the laws, the religious commands, that's it.  And Jonadab has the wily imagination to figure out how to short-circuit all the protections.  He has the nefarious vision to know how to dupe the king and neutralize the guards and servants.   Jonadab -- motivations If you can will it, you can have it one way or another -- Nietzschean will to power  Jonadab may have gotten a vicarious, twisted pleasure in being able to set such things in motion.  Acting out.   Currying favor with Amnon.  Amnon will be king.   What a small, stony heart.  What a tragic, evil figure.  What a snake.   5 Jon′adab said to him, “Lie down on your bed, and pretend to be ill; and when your father comes to see you, say to him, ‘Let my sister Tamar come and give me bread to eat, and prepare the food in my sight, that I may see it, and eat it from her hand.'” 6 So Amnon lay down, and pretended to be ill; and when the king came to see him, Amnon said to the king, “Pray let my sister Tamar come and make a couple of cakes in my sight, that I may eat from her hand.” There is no pause here between Jonadab's plan and its execution.  Amnon carries out the plan, exactly as Jonadab laid it out, at once.   There he is moaning in his bed.  Looking deathly ill.  David comes.  Doctors are called.  Physical examinations.  There doesn't seem to be anything wrong, but this is the crown prince.  Remedies discussed.  The patient moans again, and comes up with an idea that may seem to help.  Let "My sister" Tamar -- emphasizing the sibling relationship -- put David at ease -- come give me bread to eat.  Ok, he wants food.  That's good.  It's better that he wants to eat than not eat.   Weird request of watching Tamar make cakes and then eating them from her hand as she feeds him.   David misses the cues her, or he chooses to not investigate.   He may be agitated about the "severe illness" of his favored son Amnon. He may not want to know that something is very amiss here, very wrong The implications of Amnon setting up a bedroom meeting with his half-sister Tamar may be eluding him.   We are getting into unfathomable territory, possibly, here for David -- my son couldn't possibly be considering anything untoward with Tamar.  Unthinkable.  Inconceivable.  And he's so sick.  And there are so many safeguards in place social norms, religious prohibitions, legal prohibitions  Also, there were the servants.  Potential witnesses.  Whose function is to protect.   The reality of incest is often is a big surprise to parents -- if they ever even acknowledge it.   Parts of David may have suspected that there was danger, but other parts did not want to admit the possibility that his favored son Amnon had such a potential for evil and silenced any alarms that may have been going off inside him.   David does not know his sons, and may not want to know them, given his idealization of them Head in the sand.   Not wanting to see the curse on his family play out -- The curse prophesied by Nathan in the previous chapter.  Avoidance.   David starts undermining boundaries, removing physical limits.   David's shame could be activated if he were to see the generational effects of his sins Many wives and concubines  Bathsheba -- adultery and murder for sexual desires  Indulging his sons, not disciplining them, not loving them enough to challenge them to virtue  Perhaps even being afraid of them, of Amnon making a scene like a spoiled adolescent.   But that passivity is very costly -- leading not only to the rape of Tamar, but also to fratricidal murder, and to all-out civil war between the armies of David and Absalom.     7 Then David sent home to Tamar, saying, “Go to your brother Amnon's house, and prepare food for him.” 8 So Tamar went to her brother Amnon's house, where he was lying down. And she took dough, and kneaded it, and made cakes in his sight, and baked the cakes. 9 And she took the pan and emptied it out before him, but he refused to eat.  It's already happened as Jonadab laid out. Amnon filled in the details with his own imagination.  Word study -- cakes Hebrew Word: levav or levivah.  Root of these words is the Hebrew word "lev" which translates as heart.   These dumpling-like cakes or you might think of them like pancakes with a thicker batter -- these cakes were rapidly and easily made, and they were thought to strengthen the heart.  You know, to give the heart a boost of energy.   Heart cakes or “heartening dumplings”  a traditional food for the sick So even the name of the bread has a kind of sensuality about it -- and informed Hebrew might perceive in the name of the food something strange about Amnon's request.     Some hints were there, the signs were there.  Parts of David probably were detecting that something was strange, but these parts were probably silenced by other parts that did not want to think nasty things about Amnon, did not want to question him, challenge him.   We can choose to listen to these parts that might pick up on the hints But David only hears or chooses to hear? that Amnon wants a special treatment -- he was sick. In short, David's crowned head was in the sand.   Tamar is completely unprepared. Parts of her might have suspected that Amnon could be a predator  But that is not a very nice thought.  Who wants to think that?  If you can't think something nice, don't think anything at all.   So other parts of her may have suppressed those concerned parts.  Good girl parts, trusting parts, parts that don't want any ridiculous accusations to be made.  Parts that want to believe that everything is ok.   Sexual predators are often family or friends, and the prey's misplaced trust and confidence is a great asset to the predator in carrying out his wicked designs.   Amnon may have a fetish going on here  There's something very creepy about Amnon, a grown man, lying in bed, watching his beautiful younger sister knead dough for him.  I don't know how that lands with each of you, but to me, it feels really pornographic. I see Amnon savoring this visual with sexual pleasure, quivering with anticipation  He has waiting so long for what is about to happen  All the noble parts of him are suppressed.  He is now on a mission.  There is no going back, the wheels are in motion.  And he is about to get what he has been longing for and scheming for.   His sister kneading dough, baking cakes and feeding him by hand.   Very predatory.   Types of incest  Karen Souza of Santa Cruz, CA  Overt incest is sexual contact by a relative.  Unlike overt incest, covert incest does not involve physical touching, but instead is as non-physical sexually-laced intimacy usually between a parent and child but also between two blood relatives.  The child feels used and trapped, the same as with overt incest. Emotional incest -- involves role reversals.    Wrapup Practice this listening -- as far as you can go.  Share your experience of listening to this episode with another person.  You might invite someone to trust to listen to these episodes with you.  If that seems too much, read 2 Samuel 13 -- see what you can read between the lines.  Write it down in a journal, put your experience into words.   Where do you struggle with the listening Those points of struggle can help you identify where you need to work in your life  Notice what got activated.  The parts of the story that stirred you up can help you understand what you need to connect within yourself. The burdens that parts of you are bearing Can start by sharing these podcast -- spotify, apple podcasts, google play, amazon.  Share it on social media -- buttons are on our website at soulsandhearts.com/coronavirus-crisis  -- get your word out there, with your personal recommendation -- how these episodes have helped you.  Share them, let others know  Get on the waiting list  soulsandhearts.com/rccd  Friday, November 28, 4:00 - 5:15 PM EST, we had Office Hours for RCCD members.  Community members can check out the recording.   You can reach out to me at 317.567.9594 or at crisis@soulsandhearts.com  Patronness and Patron.    

Tom Rhoads (00:03): Welcome to "People Always, Patients Sometimes". I'm Tom Rhodes, CEO of Spencer Health Solutions. Our podcast is focused on many of the thought leaders and executives that are calling for change and how we design and run clinical trials. We have also had patient advocates on the program like Jen Horonjeff, of the Savvy Cooperative, Pam Gavin of NORD and Barby Ingle of the International Pain Foundation. Our mission at Spencer Health Solutions is to ensure that patients are at the center of everything we do. So we are pleased to kick off a series of interviews with more patient advocates, influencers, and organizations that are focused on bringing the patient experience to the forefront of the conversation in healthcare. Kicking off our series is a conversation with Lilly Stairs and leading patient advocate advisor and founder of Patient Authentic. I know you'll find her conversation with Janet Kennedy, as interesting as I did. Janet Kennedy (01:01): "People Always, Patients Sometimes" podcast is about the change agents in healthcare who are focused on patient experience, patient engagement, or disrupting the process of clinical trials to be more patient-centric. Our guest today certainly fits that bill. Lilly Stairs is a nationally recognized patient advocate, speaker, author, and innovator. She has recently founded a new company, Patient Authentic, which I look forward to hearing more about on "People Always, Patients Sometimes." Welcome to the podcast. Lilly! Lilly Stairs (01:33): Thanks so much for having me, Janet. It's always a pleasure to connect with you. Janet Kennedy (01:38): I think entrepreneurship is a big challenge and as a patient advocate where you're already facing a series of your own personal challenges, as well as challenges in the workforce. Wow. What made you think about starting your own company? Lilly Stairs (01:55): Well, Janet, I will also say that I didn't plan to start a company the year that we ended up with a worldwide pandemic, but here we are to add that challenge to the list too. But yeah, I've always had an entrepreneurial spirit. From a very young age, I was always creative and started choreographing for a kids' theater program and took the helm there. And then in high school, I started an anti-bullying program that ended up touring around our local schools in Massachusetts. When I got to college that is when I started my patient advocacy work. And because I was diagnosed with a few different auto-immune diseases I started a campaign to raise awareness about people who were living with auto-immune diseases. There are an estimated 50 million Americans who are living with auto-immune diseases. It was called the 50 cents for 50 million. I have spent most of my career in health tech startups. It just felt right to jump in and take the plunge and make a bet on myself and start Patient Authentic. Janet Kennedy (03:17): I imagine your first 30 days you were feeling pretty euphoric and then February came and you probably started to be a little nervous. So COVID, how has that impacted your life and impacted your work? Lilly Stairs (03:31): Well, I think it's really, and I don't think this is an exaggeration, it's turned my life and everyone's lives upside down. And I, as somebody who is considered high risk because I am immunocompromised due to the medication that I am on, which depresses my immune system to treat my auto-immune diseases is certainly scary and carries a lot of weight. I am fortunate that from a work perspective, all of us in healthcare, I think have been quite busy, which is important. We've stayed busy trying to do what we can to support patients. And so from a work perspective, all has been really good. It's just that we've got a lot of COVID focused projects now. And then from a personal perspective, I think that honestly, it's been hard because it's isolating and I think a lot of people are feeling that, and there's always the fear that people are not taking it seriously enough, especially as someone who is high risk. Janet Kennedy (04:30): I understand totally what your experience is. Like my two nieces are in New York City who works at Trader Joe's and unfortunately, the misapprehensions and the willful lack of understanding is really frightening for them. One of them actually did get COVID, was fortunate that it felt like the flu, and got over it, but then found out later she had definitely had it. It has changed everything in our lives. So I'm curious as a patient advocate, and I know you are talking to patients constantly, what is the general mood among the folks that you're talking to? Are they finding that this is an incredibly scary time or are they finding that even the discussion of "at-risk" is raising awareness and making people a little more sensitive or empathetic to folks who have challenges? Lilly Stairs (05:27): Well, I have to say, I think it's a mix. And I would say generally speaking patient communities across their pubic areas have certainly been vocal about concerns that people are not taking COVID seriously enough. And I think that there are some really baseline things that everybody could be doing, like wearing a mask that would put a lot of those fears at ease. I will say warranted fears because for some contracting COVID is really a death sentence when you are somebody who's high risk. I'll be honest in saying that for me personally, I live in balance. I live in breathe and balance. That's how I operate. And for me, I've been cautiously optimistic and I'm cautious in living my life. So I don't just sit at home. I will go out, I wear a mask, but I'll go do outdoor dining in Boston. We have some awesome outdoor dining and, you know, see friends at a socially distant level because I think what we're seeing with this pandemic is a mental health pandemic kicking in because so many people are struggling with the isolation and the loneliness. So I try to weigh that out. And I think that a lot of other people in the community do that too. And it's really just about finding that mix of being safe and taking care of yourself. Janet Kennedy (06:50): I agree very wise words. Now let's back up a little bit and talk about Patient Authentic. I don't know what your company is doing. So tell me a little bit about it. Lilly Stairs (07:01): Absolutely. Well, you know, Janet, I think that I'm still learning what my company is doing and I don't know if I should be saying that, but here we are. Because I think it's evolved so much since I started in January. And a lot of that is largely because of COVID, but also because I've just ended up in places I didn't expect. And so the way that I like to talk about Patient Authentic is that it is a hybrid of healthcare marketing and patient advocacy. So all of my work is grounded in developing patient-centric deliverables alongside patients. And I'll talk to you about a few projects I'm working on just to give you a flavor of what it is that I'm doing at Patient Authentic. So I am leading patient advocacy for a health tech company and that's Clara Health, which is in the clinical trials space. Lilly Stairs (07:50): And I know that Spencer does quite a bit of work there too. I am developing and running a social media campaign with oncology patient influencers to promote a nutritional supplement, which helps to aid in the healing of mouth sores that have been developed from chemo and radiation. So out of that, we've developed the hashtag #MoreThanASore campaign, which is all about how sores are so much more than just a sore and they really impact the quality of life. And so there's the marketing in me coming out through that campaign. And then, you know, I'm working with some patient advocacy groups as well. So I'm building a masterclass to help train patients from across therapeutic areas and how they can be effective advocates on a policy level. So on Capitol Hill and at FDA advisory committees. Finally, I'm also supporting the development of a COVID-19 resource hub for the transplant patient community. My projects span across therapeutic areas and they are focused, at the heart of them, they are working with patients to create something, Janet Kennedy (08:56): Oh, that's excellent. Now, is this a single consultancy? Or do you have other patient advocates that you will bring in to support some of these projects? Lilly Stairs (09:04): Primarily it's a single consultancy, but I do often bring in patients who are paid because patients should always be paid to support the work. Janet Kennedy (09:14): I totally agree. Well, let's talk a little bit about some of the work that you've done in the past and hopefully in the future related to clinical trials, have you ever participated in a clinical trial as a patient? Lilly Stairs (09:29): I participated in a study that was through my gastroenterologist for my Crohn's disease. And it happened right when I was in the office and it was quick as could be. My gastro said, "Hey, I'm working on this study. We're trying to measure the levels in the liver because the liver is often impacted by treatments." And so I agreed to do it. And it happened all in the same office visit. It was the most convenient clinical trial experience I've ever had. Did the informed consent, all there. Probably happened in 20 minutes Janet Kennedy (10:08): Now from a standpoint of your work as a patient advocate and being around the clinical trial space and helping support companies and organizations that are involved in clinical trials. I want you to put your hat on as a patient advocate. If you were to point out one or two things that are really kind of a roadblock for patients in participating successfully in a clinical trial, regardless of whether the clinical trial is a success, what do you think are the challenges that patients face that the pharma companies, CROs and physicians that are involved in research need to be thinking more about? Lilly Stairs (10:48): I'm just going to pick two - there's a lot. And so two is tough for me to do, but I will do it. I still think that awareness and myth-busting. As much as we talk about it in our community, I think that in the professionals and the clinical trial space, we talk a lot about this, but we aren't reaching the right people. It's still a huge issue. There's still so much misunderstanding about clinical trials and risk associated with them. And am I going to get the placebo? So many questions that really plague the everyday patient when we think about clinical trials. And so I think we have a lot more work to do there. And part of the solution to me is that we need to have more people working together to raise awareness and to get into communities. And so we can't be all working in silos because we continue to work in silos. Lilly Stairs (11:45): We need to work together. That's one piece. The other big barrier that I have seen is honestly, the travel and the distance piece. There are a lot of patients who actually do want to participate in clinical trials, but they are restricted because it is too far for them to travel. And they can't either, you know, financially afford it because the trial is not going to cover the cost of travel, or it's just, it's a distance thing. And they are not well enough to travel. And I can point to through my work with all of the different companies I've worked with, I can point to so many patients from across therapeutic areas that have had this experience. Lilly Stairs (12:28): So I was recently speaking with a woman who was in a breast cancer trial. First of all, her physician didn't even bring up clinical trials to her, which is a problem in and of itself. She did the research on her own and she ended up traveling from the East coast to the West coast for a clinical trial. And she had to do a GoFundMe so that she could raise the money. And she ended up having to drop out of the trial because the GoFundMe only got her so far. So we have patients who are willing to participate in trials, but we're not making it convenient for them. I would say that we need to branch out outside of some of these research hospitals. We also need to, if we can't do that, build money into the budget to help the patients get there in a comfortable manner. Janet Kennedy (13:14): So is the challenge that a lot of the research hospitals are in major metro areas, and if you don't live in New York or Boston or Atlanta or Los Angeles, you're going to miss out on an opportunity. Lilly Stairs (13:26): Yes. Precisely. Janet Kennedy (13:29): All right. Well, what would solve some of those problems? Lilly Stairs (13:33): Again, travel, being able to provide stipends for travel and not just like a $25 Uber, if somebody lives out of state, but they're really willing to participate in the trial. What can you do to facilitate accommodations, to cover the flight, to cover the hotel room? Because I'll tell you something working in the recruitment space, you're going to spend a lot more money trying to recruit patients that are nearby. Versus if you just foot the bill for flying someone out, getting them a hotel room who's eager and willing to participate. So that's one piece. And then also, I think we need to be raising more awareness within some of these community hospitals too so that physicians within community hospitals can refer out to some of the major research institutions. Because again, this is where the awareness piece comes in. There's a lack of awareness and understanding about trials. So patients don't even know they exist in the first place. Janet Kennedy (14:31): So raising awareness is a real key. Now, how are patients finding out about things? They suddenly find out they have a disease and they're just going online and doing a search and then whatever pops up pops up. Lilly Stairs (14:44): I think that online is of course a huge space. I mean, I would guess I, I won't put a statistic because I'm sure I won't be accurate, but everyone's going to Google. Everyone goes to Doctor Google. And I think that the patient advocacy organizations play a role. But I will say that we are seeing patient influencers or individual advocates are becoming more and more prominent in being the trusted go-to resource for sort of your everyday patient. So these are the patients who are sharing their stories on Instagram and TicTok now and Twitter, and they have blogs. They're on YouTube. That's where patients are going because they're able to get that sort of one-to-one support and really hear from somebody who understands them. So I've been trying to really push companies, pharmaceutical companies, biotech companies, CROs, to engage not only with the patient advocacy organizations but also with some of these patient influencers and advocates who are out there and working to fight the good fight and raise awareness. Janet Kennedy (15:49): You know, a few years ago, patient advocates were not that seen, were not that present. And I think as social media has become really an essential part of our lives, patients are realizing that there's real power there. However, there's also the challenge of my gosh, you have a chronic illness, or you have a disease that is very debilitating and social media in many ways, demands that you're up, that you are being positive, that you're being optimistic. How would you balance being someone with a chronic illness or a disease that really makes you feel bad? And these social platforms that sort of demand a much more upbeat presentation of yourself. Lilly Stairs (16:34): That's a great question. And I think it's something that's so many advocates struggle with because when you become a patient advocate and you make the decision to share your story, you're often the type of person who wants to do better and to help others, right? You're out there because you want to support other people and help them not feel like they're alone. And that can become emotionally demanding and physically demanding. Even when, especially when you are going through it in the auto-immune space, what we would call it a flare. So when you are really not well and your disease is under control. And so it's a matter of learning to say no, and to set boundaries. And so I've seen a lot of patients artfully do this, where they say, you know what, I'm turning off the comments on my Instagram because I cannot be every single person's support system. I can put this out into the world and I can try to help them, but I can't possibly respond to every single person because it's too taxing on me. And you know, some maybe sometimes you have your comments on maybe sometimes you have it off, but it's little changes and tweaks like that to help ensure that you're taking care of yourself while you're taking care of others. Janet Kennedy (17:41): I know you mentioned earlier that you're actually doing a course for patient advocates on how to use social media. There are so many platforms now, how are you focusing their energy? When I coach about social media, my advice is you can't do it all. So pick a few and do it well. But I do see some patient advocates with a lot of social platforms going on at the same time. Lilly Stairs (18:06): Oh yeah. It's hard to do. I agree with you, Janet, that picking one or two and focusing on those and making them really great is also my piece of advice. It also feels less overwhelming. I was just giving a keynote at the One Rare young adult's virtual summit. It was their first annual one. Rarer is an amazing organization run by Jen McNary. And so I highly recommend checking them out. It's a rare disease organization for young adults, but we were talking about career planning and how you build your brand as an advocate. And again, one of my key pieces of advice was to pick one platform so that you don't get overwhelmed. And so that you are not emotionally and physically drained and also pick some platforms to have that are private, that is just for you and your friends. I'm really active on Twitter professionally, but I have my Instagram private and closed so that I can just feel comfortable sharing what I want to share there and not feel like I always have to be on. Janet Kennedy (19:05): It is a huge challenge in social media and one that demands the ongoing feeding of the beast. However, do you think you can take a break from social and come back and not lose your audience? Lilly Stairs (19:18): Oh, 100%. Absolutely. If you need to take a hiatus, you can. And I think that what's interesting is that especially in the patient community, people are very forgiving of that because they know exactly what you're going through. And so they understand that it can be really taxing to have to be on all the time and they'll miss you while you're gone, but they'll be just thrilled that you've come back, Janet Kennedy (19:41): Circling back to Patient Authentic and what you had originally intended to be before COVID came. Where did you think that the company was going to take you and what were you hoping to accomplish? Lilly Stairs (19:54): Honestly, what I wanted to do, is still there. And that is to build and work on meaningful projects that support the patient community and make you move the needle in healthcare. And so I am doing that. It's just a bit of a different one than I thought. Because of my background in marketing, I always envisioned that every single thing I worked on was going to be super campaign driven. And now I find that I'm doing a little bit of strategy here, a little bit of project management, a little bit of advocacy engagement. So if anything, it's really more fitting for me because I tend to be the type of person who loves to work on a lot of different things at once. It's very rewarding for me to be able to leverage a lot of my different skills to help better the community. The opportunity to work, not only health tech and biotech and pharma, but also to work with some of these patient advocacy organizations who are really at the ground level fighting the good fight. Janet Kennedy (20:59): Oh, well, that's a great note to end on. So Lilly, tell people how they can find you. Lilly Stairs (21:04): Yes. So you can find a, learn more about Patient Authentic at www.patientauthentic.com. You can find me on Twitter @LillyStairs. You can find Patient Authentic on Instagram @PatientAuthentic. Janet Kennedy (21:24): That's excellent. Well, I can't thank you enough for being here, Lilly and I look forward to hearing more about some of the new programs and projects you're going to be involved in, in 2021. Lilly Stairs (21:35): Thanks for having me, Janet. Janet Kennedy (21:38): Thank you for listening to our interview with Lilly Stairs, founder of Patient Authentic on the "People Always, Patients Sometimes" podcast. We look forward to hearing your thoughts about the episode. You can tweet us @spencerhealth or send me an email at jkennedy@spencerhealthsolutions.com.

Intro: Welcome to the podcast Coronavirus Crisis: Carpe Diem!, where by God's grace, you and I rise up and embrace the possibilities and opportunities for spiritual and psychological growth in this time of crisis, all grounded in a Catholic worldview.   We are going beyond mere resilience, to rising up to the challenges of this pandemic and becoming even healthier in the natural and the spiritual realms than we were before.  I'm clinical psychologist Peter Malinoski and I am here with you, to be your host and guide.  This podcast is part of Souls and Hearts, our online outreach at soulsandhearts.com, which is all about shoring up our natural foundation for the Catholic spiritual life, all about overcoming psychological obstacles to being loved and to loving.   This is episode 42, released on November 16, 2020 Thank you for being here with me.   and it is the sixth episode in our series on shame.   and it is titled: Practicing Deep Listening:  Understanding King David's Shame Introduction to IFS. Developed by Richard Schwartz   Discussion of Parts Discrete, autonomous mental systems, each with own idiosyncratic range of emotion, style of expression, abilities, desires views of the world.  Modes of operating Subpersonalities Orchestra model Focus is on integration.   Get forced into extreme roles -- attachment injuries and relational traumas   Three roles Exiles --  most sensitive -- become injured or outraged.  Threatens the system, external relationships Exploited, rejected, abandoned in external relationships Want care and love, rescue, redemption shame.  Need for redemption  Managers Protective, strategic, controlling environment, keep things safe  Obsessions. Compulsions, reclusiveness, passivity, numbing. Panic attacks, somatic complaints, depressive episodes, hypervigiliance.   Firefighters Stifle, anesthetize, distract from feelings of exiles  No concern for consequences  Binge eating, drug/alcohol use, dissociation, sexual risk taking, cutting   Parts can take over the person Like in Pixar Movie Inside Out -- anger taking over the control panel of the main character Riley  We call it blending.   IFS on the Self -- (recorded) Self defined as the seat of consciousness  Self can be occluded or overwhelmed by parts  When self accepts and loves parts, those parts transform back into who they were meant to be  Self-led mind is self-righting.  self -- Active inner leader -- more than mindfulness   Parts find the relationship with the self very reassuring But to reap the benefits they have to unblend from and notice the self  This is frightening can challenging to parts  Agency in the parts -- parts are making decisions about unblending in IFS model   Intrinsic qualities of the self Curiosity  Compassion  Calm  Confidence  Courage  Clarity  Creativity  Connectedness  Kindness   The self can be easily occluded, obscured, hidden by protective parts who take over in response to fear, anger or shame General state for most people is to be quite blended  Leads to self-absorption   3 levels of Listening -- Laura Whitworth, Henry Kimsey-House, Phil Sandahl & John Whitemore 1998  Co-active Coaching: New skills for coaching people toward success in work and life.    I am expanding their concepts.   Listening to --  Level 1 listening -- Listening with your mind -- Many people struggle with this Often called active listening  Listen carefully to what the person says  Grasping the content  Requires attention, concentration, taking in what the person is saying.   Focus externally on the other person, not internally.  Not distracted by own self-focus   Listening for -- Level 2 listening -- Rarer.  Characteristic of very good therapists.   Listening in search of something-- filling in the gaps in the person's big picture What is beyond and behind the words? Holding it lightly.  Speculative endeavor.   Listening to what the person does not say Listening with the third ear  The "third ear," a concept introduced by psychoanalyst Theodor Reik 1983 Book , refers to a special kind of listening -- listening for the deeper layers of meaning in order to perceive what has not been said outright. It means understanding the emotional underpinnings conveyed when someone is speaking to you. What are we listening for?   The person's experience -- to grasp the person's experience Emotions Intentions Thoughts Desire Attitudes toward the world Glass half empty or half full Impulses  Vision of the world Working models of the world, assumptions.   Values Purpose in life I listen for identity and for shame.   Listening for both the words and the entire context  70-93% of communication is nonverbal -- Albert Mehrabia, Professor Emeritus at UCLA Voice -- tone, inflection, volume 38% of communication  Body language -- glance patterns, facial expressions (including micrexpressions -- smiling matters a lot), posture, fidgeting, head movements, hand gestures,  Summarized in his 1971/1980 book Silent Messages Based on one word communications Challenged by Philip Yaffe debate about it. Faculty of imagination   -- What Aristotle called Phantasia activities in thoughts, dreams and memories.  imagination is a faculty in humans and most other animals which produces, stores, and recalls the images used in a variety of cognitive activities, including those which motivate and guide action (De Anima iii 3, 429a4–7, De Memoria 1, 450a22–25). Focus here on understanding, entering into the other person's perspective Taking in what the person means (in contrast to what the person says in Level 1)  Not evaluating the merits of that perspective, not getting caught up in judging that perspective  Not looking to right wrongs, not looking for justice, not asking deep existential questions about how could that terrible thing have happened to the person, not formulating advice, not looking to impress.   Setting all that aside.   To be with the person.   Taking that perspective in.  Seeing the world through the other person's eyes.  Stepping into their shoes   Listening with -- Level 3 listening -- not exactly what Laura Whitworth and her colleagues meant -- going way beyond.  Very rare -- characteristic of great therapists Listening with your whole self.  Listening with your heart and to your heart Window of tolerance.   Listening to your intuition -- listening to your own parts -- not just words Emotions -- Fear, sadness, anger, disgust, happiness, etc.  Impulses  Intentions  Thoughts that spontaneously arise  Images  Memories that pop up  Body sensations  Songs -- Internal Jukebox  Sayings  Gut sense  All your inner experiences   Remember, this is your stuff.  This is your experience.   Interpersonal field.  Which parts of me are resonating with your parts.  Listening for the shifts in messaging along with the shifts in relating.    What does the person need  Self as instrument -- tuning the instrument in to a frequency understand the other  Curiosity -- why am I reacting this way.    Compassionate connection   Listening to David's childhood Could be historical mistakes  Point is to listen.  Three levels  Episode 41 -- argued that Jesse did not know David was his son until it was revealed by the prophet Samuel   David raised as a bastard, in the household as the illegitimate son of Nitzevet  David's brothers wanted to kill their adulterous mother by stoning (as the law called for) and the unborn baby David within her womb, but out of love for his former wife, Jesse intervened.  From the time of his birth onwards, then, Nitzevet's son David was treated by his brothers as an disgraced, social outcast, worth nothing.    Noting the conduct of his brothers, the rest of the community assumed that this youth was a treacherous sinner full of unspeakable guilt Part of David bore the pain of shame -- he was shamed.  He was rejected.  He was ridiculed, condemned, misunderstood and a part of him bore that.   So that he would not be overwhelmed by it all the time.   Discussion of parts who step in to take the burdens.  Especially shame So we can function in day to day life.  Protectors against shame Great achievements -- in battle, in administration, in setting up liturgical functions.    Psalm 69  Read the psalms out loud Reason that the breviary, the Liturgy of the Hours is read aloud.  Psalms are the majority of the LOH, the prayer of the Church.  Express so much of human experience.  So rich -- mindset, heartset, bodyset and soulset.   The youth David trusted in the Lord.   1Save me, O God!   For the waters have come up to my neck.2 I sink in deep mire,    where there is no foothold;I have come into deep waters,    and the flood sweeps over me.  Here we have a reliance on God as Protector, Savior.   3 I am weary with my crying;    my throat is parched.My eyes grow dim    with waiting for my God. Here we have great suffering -- bodyset4 More in number than the hairs of my head    are those who hate me without cause;mighty are those who would destroy me,    those who attack me with lies.What I did not steal    must I now restore?5 7 For it is for thy sake that I have borne reproach     that shame has covered my face.8 I have become a stranger to my brethren,    an alien to my mother's sons.  Doesn't say father's sons.  9 For zeal for thy house has consumed me,    and the insults of those who insult thee have fallen on me. Without a father to rely on here in his earthly life, David turned to God.   17 Hide not thy face from thy servant;    for I am in distress, make haste to answer me.18 Draw near to me, redeem me,    set me free because of my enemies! 20 Insults have broken my heart,    so that I am in despair.I looked for pity, but there was none;    and for comforters, but I found none.21 They gave me poison for food,    and for my thirst they gave me vinegar to drink.29 But I am afflicted and in pain;    let thy salvation, O God, set me on high!30 I will praise the name of God with a song;    I will magnify him with thanksgiving. 33 For the Lord hears the needy,    and does not despise his own that are in bonds.Psalm 22To the choirmaster: according to The Hind of the Dawn. A Psalm of David.1My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?    Why art thou so far from helping me, from the words of my groaning? 6 But I am a worm, and no man;    scorned by men, and despised by the people.7 All who see me mock at me,    they make mouths at me, they wag their heads;8 “He committed his cause to the Lord; let him deliver him,    let him rescue him, for he delights in him!”9 Yet thou art he who took me from the womb;    thou didst keep me safe upon my mother's breasts.10 Upon thee was I cast from my birth,    and since my mother bore me thou hast been my God. -- No mention of father.   Bodyset 14 I am poured out like water,    and all my bones are out of joint;my heart is like wax,    it is melted within my breast;15 my strength is dried up like a potsherd,    and my tongue cleaves to my jaws;    thou dost lay me in the dust of death. Praise -- Deep faith in Christ23 You who fear the Lord, praise him!    all you sons of Jacob, glorify him,    and stand in awe of him, all you sons of Israel!24 For he has not despised or abhorred    the affliction of the afflicted;and he has not hid his face from him,    but has heard, when he cried to him. David become Saul's lyrist or player of the lyre 1 Samuel 16 14-23  Saul tormented by an evil spirit because he had departed from the way of the Lord  David is  Skillful in playing the lyre A man of valor Prudent in speech A man of good presence And Saul loved him greatly  David became Saul's armor-bearer  Refreshed Saul   David and Goliath 1 Samuel 17 David in Saul's service  Still feeding Dad's sheep -- killing lions and bears from his youth.   David hear Goliath breathing threats and ridiculing the Israelites.   Oldest brother Eliab still hating on him 28 Now Eli′ab his eldest brother heard when he spoke to the men; and Eli′ab's anger was kindled against David, and he said, “Why have you come down? And with whom have you left those few sheep in the wilderness? I know your presumption, and the evil of your heart; for you have come down to see the battle.” 29 And David said, “What have I done now? Was it not but a word?”   And David kills Goliath and is praised by the people.   David Victorious Women singing  1 Samuel 18 Saul gets jealous, looks for ways to kill him. Throwing spears at him, trying to get him killed by the Philistines at the head of his army, but David is victorious.   14 And David had success in all his undertakings; for the Lord was with him. 15 And when Saul saw that he had great success, he stood in awe of him. 16 But all Israel and Judah loved David; for he went out and came in before them.   God loved David Name means in Hebrew "beloved."   Three anointings As a shepherd boy in Bethlehem—1 Samuel 16:13.  As king over Judah at age 27—2 Samuel 2:4.  As king over all Israel at age 30—2 Samuel 5:3-5.   1 Samuel 13:14 but now your kingdom will not continue; the Lord has sought out a man after his own heart; and the Lord has appointed him to be ruler over his people, because you have not kept what the Lord commanded you.”   David worshipped the Lord 73 psalms attributed to David  Appointed certain Levites to play the harp, lyre, cymbals and trumpets to worship the LORD at all hours before the ark.  1 Chronicles 16.  He strongly desired to build God a permanent temple. He felt guilty for living in palace of cedar while the Ark was in a tent and relayed Nathan his dream to build a temple — 2 Sam. 7:1-14.  David funded the temple, set aside the materials.   David never turned to idols.  Most of the 42 kings who ruled Judah and Israel at one point or another turned to idolatry.  1 Kings 11:4 For when Solomon was old his wives turned away his heart after other gods; and his heart was not wholly true to the Lord his God, as was the heart of David his father.  The Downfall This was David's weakness.  Often said sins of the flesh  Go back to listening  Parts seeking to make up for a sense of something missing, something inadequate.    Polygamy.   How many wives and concubines did David have? Seven wives are named in scripture and he had more than that -- more are referred to.  At least 10 concubines.  2 Samuel 20:3 reads  And David came to his house at Jerusalem; and the king took the ten concubines whom he had left to care for the house, and put them in a house under guard, and provided for them, but did not go in to them. So they were shut up until the day of their death, living as if in widowhood. These were the concubines that his son Absalom defiled to make a political display of power and dominance over his father in 2 Samuel 16:22.  “So they pitched a tent for Absalom on the roof, and he slept with his father's concubines in the sight of all Israel.” Moses:  And he shall not multiply wives for himself, lest his heart turn away; nor shall he greatly multiply for himself silver and gold.  Deuteronomy 17:17 Part interpretation.   David and Bathsheba This is in 2 Samuel 11   11 [a]In the spring of the year, the time when kings go forth to battle, David sent Jo′ab, and his servants with him, and all Israel; and they ravaged the Ammonites, and besieged Rabbah. But David remained at Jerusalem.2 It happened, late one afternoon, when David arose from his couch and was walking upon the roof of the king's house, that he saw from the roof a woman bathing; and the woman was very beautiful. 3 And David sent and inquired about the woman. And one said, “Is not this Bathshe′ba, the daughter of Eli′am, the wife of Uri′ah the Hittite?” 4 So David sent messengers, and took her; and she came to him, and he lay with her. (Now she was purifying herself from her uncleanness.) Then she returned to her house. 5 And the woman conceived; and she sent and told David, “I am with child.” Bathsheba is now pregnant, and David starts to try to cover his tracks.   He summoned her husband Uriah, who was at the front, in battle with the Ammonites.  When Uriah arrived, David tried to send him home, so that when the child was born, Uriah and everyone else would naturally assume that the baby was his. But Uriah was a man of honor.  Verse 11 Uri′ah said to David, “The ark and Israel and Judah dwell in booths; and my lord Jo′ab and the servants of my lord are camping in the open field; shall I then go to my house, to eat and to drink, and to lie with my wife?[b] As you live, and as your soul lives, I will not do this thing.”   He is a man of honor -- stark contrast.   Nathan's Prophecy 2 Samuel 12  7-15 Nathan said to David, “You are the man. Thus says the Lord, the God of Israel, ‘I anointed you king over Israel, and I delivered you out of the hand of Saul; 8 and I gave you your master's house, and your master's wives into your bosom, and gave you the house of Israel and of Judah; and if this were too little, I would add to you as much more. 9 Why have you despised the word of the Lord, to do what is evil in his sight? You have smitten Uri′ah the Hittite with the sword, and have taken his wife to be your wife, and have slain him with the sword of the Ammonites. 10 Now therefore the sword shall never depart from your house, because you have despised me, and have taken the wife of Uri′ah the Hittite to be your wife.' 11 Thus says the Lord, ‘Behold, I will raise up evil against you out of your own house; and I will take your wives before your eyes, and give them to your neighbor, and he shall lie with your wives in the sight of this sun. 12 For you did it secretly; but I will do this thing before all Israel, and before the sun.'” 13 David said to Nathan, “I have sinned against the Lord.” And Nathan said to David, “The Lord also has put away your sin; you shall not die. 14 Nevertheless, because by this deed you have utterly scorned the Lord,[a] the child that is born to you shall die.” 15 Then Nathan went to his house.   Parts of David Deep sense of shame -- fundamental sense of inadequacy that he looked to be met by women -- seeking to have needs met.   David never really known -- unknown in his father's house, and then rocket to stardom -- idealized by people.  Women singing his praises, 10x better than King Saul.  When David was recollected -- he acted in benevolent ways -- he pleased God.  God was meeting his needs.   Nitzeveh was his mother -- the one who cared for him when others didn't  Parts need redemption -- who can complete me.   Drifting away from God, from responsibilities of being with his soldiers.   Wives Concubines Bathsheba -- adulterous relationship. Lust -- shame cycle.  Dominated by a part. Role of our Mother -- David didn't have that.   Now we are set up for assessing David and his silence in the whole situation with Tamar.   David honored as a saint, listed in the Roman Martyrology on December 29.  Made it to heaven.  Very imperfect.  There is redemption.   Call to Action Practice this listening -- as far as you can go.  With another person.  If that seems too much, read 2 Samuel 11 and 12 -- see what you can read between the lines.  Consider Bathsheba's experience.  We know little about her.  She did mourn her husband.     Can start by sharing these podcast -- spotify, apple podcasts, google play, amazon.  Share it on social media -- buttons are on our website at soulsandhearts.com/coronavirus-crisis  -- get your word out there, with your personal recommendation -- how these episodes have helped you.  Share them, let others know  Get on the waiting list  soulsandhearts.com/rccd  Second Wednesdays November 11 7:30 PM to 8:45 PM Zoom meeting -- we discussed trauma, shame and sprituality, all grounded in a Catholic perspective.  I will be going into some areas in a deeper way than I can with the podcast.  Come and join us.    Soulsandhearts.com/rccd  Friday, November 28, 4:00 - 5:15 PM EST, Office Hours for RCCD members.   Patronness and Patron.  

A play on the triumph and losses in performance and life. The Talent Tank podcast will navigate the inner workings of lifestyle, lives, family, teams, careers, programs, and technology in and around the offroad motorsports industry. What breeds success with your Talent Tank on full, failures when its on empty. From the journey to the Starting Line to take that Green Flag, on to exploring trials and tribulations on and off the track in pursuit of victorious achievement and the Checkered Flag.Rarer than a unicorn; a female motorsports announcer, but wait there's more. She's also a veteran offroad racecar driver with 13+ years chasing dust. No way you say! Yes, Unicorns do exist! On this episode of The Talent Tank, we are so blessed to be graced with ULTRA4 Racing's newest face to the LIVE feed, the lovely and super talented Pam Hall, @mrspamhall. Crank it up, put on your American Flag Bikini, and break off the knob because Pam kills it on the behind the scenes pre-running, King of the Hammers photography, keeper of the KOH WiFi master password, course marking, visor down time, Rebelle Rally, and how she came to be Co-Host of the Ultra4 Live Feed play-by-play.Headshot provided by Alan Johnson @thedustygnome After the Checkered Flag-Anyone familiar with all of the prep and engineering work required to make a traditional race car will laugh when they see what it takes to set up a skidplate racer:1. Strip the interior.2. Relocate the battery away from the extremities of the car.3. Weld the doors and trunk shut, then chain down the hood, too.4. Replace the back wheels with metal skids.That last part is the important one, but not particularly complicated. You take a regular, cheapest-wheel-in-the-universe steelie and weld a set of steel plates to it like a fat ski. It’s a few basic welds to make the skidplate and the wheel bolts right up to the car as before.It is with this small change that makes the skidplate what it is: near-uncontrollable for the driver and unquestionably entertaining for anybody watching.Traditional race cars are what they are because they try to be objectively better. Better accelerating. Better braking. Better handling.Skidplate cars are intentionally worse. Losing all of the traction of your rear-wheels in a front-wheel drive car makes it want to slide absolutely everywhere. Lift off the gas and the car tries to spin out. Get back on the gas and the car pulls itself straight, until you feed in too much throttle, at which point the front wheels slip and the whole car tries to spin out again.Please like & subscribe.https://www.thetalenttank.com/https://www.instagram.com/thetalenttank/https://www.facebook.com/thetalenttankInsiders Grouphttps://www.facebook.com/groups/TheTalentTankInsiders/

Rarer Organ Makers Start Name Artist Album Year Comments I Can't Believe That You're In Love With Me Eddie Baker Shuffle Off To Buffalo [Ralbar SLBP-1025] 4-18 Marr & Colton, Shea's Roosevelt Theatre, Buffalo, NY 3:59 Midnight In Moscow Arnold Loxam Cinema Organ Encores Vol 94 [Deroy 1414] 1978 3c-7 Christie, Reliance Garage, Kings Lynn, Norfolk (Owner A.E. Ransom); ex-Majestic Cinema, Reigate, Surrey 8:20 Kashmiri Song (Pale Hands I Loved) Wendell Kennedy At The Barton [Concert Recording CR-O005) 1967 3-11 Barton, Orpheum Theatre, Springfield, IL 12:37 In A Country Lane Simon Gledhill ATOS 2004 Milwaukee 2004 3-40 Kimball, Oriental Theatre, Milwaukee, WI; Monday 5 July 2004 16:27 Breezin' Along With The Breeze Tom Hazleton Scotty's Castle Organ Music 2002 3-15 Welte, Scotty's Castle, Death Valley, CA 19:26 The Blue Room Robert D. Salisbury A Page From Avalon [Island Recording CD] 4-16 Page, Casino Theatre, Avalon, Catalina 22:54 Cityland 5: Moon At Sea; Goodnight to You All; China Doll Parade Cor Steyn Cityland 1936-37 [Varagram 5174] 1937 4-24 Strunk, City Theatre, Amsterdam 26:15 The Onedin Line - theme Ernest Broadbent At The Standaart In Holland [NOF Sound NSP 80-8-8-2] 1980 3-10 Standaart, Passage Theater, Schiedam, Holland 30:08 Cherry Pink and Apple Blossom White Ken Double, Skip Stine ATOS 2009 Cleveland [Western Reserve] Highlights 2009 3-11 Kilgen, Palace Theatre, Canton, OH 33:02 Be Our Guest Stan Kann Pipes And Power 2004 3-15 mostly Geneva, Lincoln Theatre, Belleville, IL 35:54 Come Back To Sorrento Fritz Seidel Plays Evergreens (Private CD) 1955 2-7 (?) Hupfeld, Schauburg Cinema (1000 seats), Dresden (1927 to 1960s). Organ has disappeared. 39:59 Serenade No 2 Jack Helyer I'm Happy When I'm Hiking [Crystal CRY 3006] 1960 4-22 Conacher, Odeon (formerly Ritz) Nottingham 43:17 Messin' Around With The Blues Fats Waller The Complete Recorded Works [JSP927 A-D] 1927 Estey, Victor's Trinity Church Studios, Camden, NJ 46:45 Jean Tom Gnaster A Young Man's Fancy [Custom Fidelity CFS-2954] 3-16 Wicks, Robert Wheeler Residence, Lockport, IL; ex-Abundant Life Building, Tulsa, OK. Wicks' first theatre organ since most manufacturers stopped building them in the 1930s. Also had some classical ranks. 50:29 Two from the Thirties: Isn't It Heavenly?; Build A Little Home Nigel Ogden Quartet [RHD 0207] 2007 3-6 Rutt, St. Albans Organ Theatre, St. Albans, Hertfordshire + sampled saxophone and orchestral oboe; Middle manual is a coupler manual; Formerly in the Regal Theatre, Highams Park, London. 54:17 Ragging The Scale Dessa Byrd At The Rivoli Theater Pipe Organ [Crusade LP S 9379] 1971 3-14 Louisville Uniphone, Rivoli Theatre, Indianapolis, IN; Recorded live March 19, 1971

by Rachel Warshaw

It is rare that police officers are tried and convicted on murder charges against civilians. Rarer still is the likelihood that a law-enforcement officer will face trial on the full strength of the charges a grand jury votes. It happens so often, it's become something of a professional courtesy. That's why the case against four Minneapolis police officers who failed to stop a fellow officer from the torture-killing of a black man this past Monday must be monitored closely. Leid Stories says a new body of laws needs to be developed, and current procedures eevised and strengthened, to protect against arbitrary excesses by officers of the law.

A motorcycle — Sunny day — Continuing the serial — I hate manipulation — Playing games with people — Relevance to Field of Dreams — Simply a good man — Superman is meant to be a completely goodhearted person — His backstory — From another planet, but raised by really good people — A valuable concept — Many writers don't know what to do with this — Moving on — The connecting link — Whether you can trust someone or not — People reveal themselves over time — Assumptions can be telling — Nearly every superhero ends up being a compromised conception — A more innocent time in comics — Ray Kinsella (Kevin Costner's character) would not crumble — Not violent — Rarer than we may realise — How much happens behind closed doors — A line in an early Sherlock Holmes story — Watson, Holmes, and the countryside — Sherlock has no romantic conception of the countryside — There terrible deeds can continue year after year undetected and unsuspected — Isolated places — Abuse — Real life — Circling back to Field of Dreams — A sunny film — Moving — Also scenes of twilight — The word “magical” — Interlude — The people who keep life going may also feel broken — Doing it regardless — Appreciating comedians and the ways they help — Norm Macdonald — Everyone has both dark and light sides — Anything that makes you feel more normal in a bad situation — Do I feel whole or completely together? — Isolation and loneliness are not what a human life is supposed to be — Everyone more or less breaks down at some point — Let it happen — Bending so as not to break — The limit of Ray's aggression — Strength can often be found in unexpected places — One thing sure to worsen depression or anxiety — The real heroes — The unassuming and non-underlined nobility of the main character — Ray and his wife Annie grew up in the 60s — Part of the hippie generation — Those ideals — Shoeless Joe by W. P. Kinsella — Carrying the ideals into adulthood — The essentially teen dream of just flower power and making peace signs — What creating peace actually takes — Lovely humorous strain — Ray tried to like sitar music — People who aim to project enlightenment — Dalai Lama cookie story recap — Breaking a monastic rule — Maturity — To be continued

This interview is with Wulf Schütz of Rarer & Fine Vintage Watches. Rare & Fine handles all aspects and details of collecting and investing in vintage watches. Topics will include; How do you invest in watches? Where does the value of a watch come from? How to protect yourself from fakes?

Platinum vs Gold in Engagement Rings Platinum Price / Oz $ 929.35 | Gold Price per Ounce $1,554.10 Pros of Platinum (vs Gold) Malleable, Finer craftsmanship Better jewelers work with platinum Hypo-allergenic Rarer than gold Hold value in spite of financial fears and turmoils Often considered a symbol of prestige Heavier and more durable than white gold Tends to look more expensive Develops a stunning Patina over time Cons of Platinum Is significantly more expensive than white gold (even though it looks nearly identical) Will get scratched (and dull over time. Not everyone loves patina) Isn't yellow if you're looking for gold Not all jewelers are qualified to work with Platinum Pros of Yellow Gold The most hypoallergenic of all the three gold colors. But not against Platinum Historically the most popular metal used for wedding and engagement bands The most malleable and easiest for jewelers to manipulate All jewelers can work with it Easily matched with diamonds of a lower color grade. Ben's Opinion: If you are deciding between Platinum vs White Gold? Antique History of Platinum and Gold Up until 1900) Georgian, Victorian -> Only Yellow Gold and Silver (1900 - 1910) Edwardian -> Mix of Platinum and Yellow Gold Art Deco -> Just Platinum (White Gold became commercially available as of 1912 in Pforzheim, Germany and gained popularity in the mid-to-late 1920s as a low-cost substitute for platinum)  Rant: Almost all real Art Deco is NOT made with White gold. Rant: Very few high-class recent jewelry pieces are made from gold since platinum has been around... Graff Pink, a rare 24.78 carat pink diamond -> Platinum Hope Diamond 5.52-carat deep-blue diamond -> PLATINUM

Why do we say that the higher worlds and lower worlds exist? Why can’t there be only this world? Rare it is to come across the Knowledge of the Self. Rarer is to find a teacher established in it. Rarest is to find a Master who is able to explain it to a student and if the student realises it, its a great wonder. This Truth is not realised by listening to someone who is not established in it. Except listening to a Self-Realised Master, there is no other method says the Upanishad.

Heparin is an interesting drug with a lot of unique clinical quirks. This drug ultimately inhibits the formation of fibrin. Fibrin is an essential component of a blood clot. Because heparin has blood thinning effects, it is critical to assess a patient's bleed risk. Look out for other agents that may increase the risk of bleeding. Examples include; NSAIDs, antiplatelet agents, and other anticoagulants. One classic test question about heparin that often comes up is the reversal agent. Protamine can be used to help reverse the effects of heparin. Heparin-induced thrombocytopenia is a critical adverse effect to understand. I discuss both subtypes on the podcast and let you know what to look out for. Rarer side effects of heparin include hyperkalemia and osteoporosis (only with long term use).

It's starting to look like a two-team race in the NL Central as the Cardinals and Cubs face off for the first time this season with a three-game set at Wrigley Field. But who cares about that, when we've got a Ron sighting! Pete and Ron have a quick chat about life, the NL Central, and the upcoming series in this week's episode.

We discuss my growing belief that just because something is loud or "viral" does not mean other people are necessarily discussing it. Loud does not necessarily dictate relevant. Check out new writing on OWL's Asylum: https://www.owlasylum.net Do not forget to support us on Anchor Check us out on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCukb7W4zySjdrXOzjjCyGuw Follow on Twitter: https://twitter.com/OwlsAsylum --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/owl3/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/owl3/support

A Crystal Message about the Healing Properties of Brown Aragonite: "I am a master multitasker and I clearly see the best way forward." Common Healing Properties of Brown Aragonite: Helps you to solve your problems by enhancing your multi-tasking abilities and encourages you to consider many different options at once Assists you in releasing the fear of water or drowning Aids in personal growth and transformation (physical, emotional, and spiritual) Helps you to become a more well-rounded person /* Colors: Peachy brown to earthy, red-brown Associated Chakras: 1st (Root), 2nd (Sacral) Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn Elements: Earth Companion Flowers: Pincushion Flower Companion Essential Oil: Cassia Companion Stone: Hematite Common Origins: Morocco, Spain, Peru Notes: Also known as Iron Bloom. Aragonite comes in a variety of formations and colors including, blue, white, and purple. Wanna’ Get Science-y? Click Here to get information about the chemical composition, hardness, streak, etc. of this crystal from one of my favorite sites! Mimosa's staff had this to share: Aragonite is a form of calcium carbonate, the same material as calcite but in a different structure. It is the same material that makes up seashells. We often see it in two main color patterns: a brown/golden/white variety, which sometimes appears striped; and an eye-catching robin’s egg blue. The little brown-sugar colored clusters called “sputniks” are especially popular, maybe because they give off such a friendly vibe — sort of like a little mineral pet. Rarer forms of aragonite appear as clusters of colorless spikes or needles or blue coral-like masses. This abundant mineral is found all over the world. It’s great for grounding, and even for grounding other crystals. Care and caution: Some forms of aragonite may contain lead or other dangerous elements, so do not use aragonite directly to make elixirs. Learn to use crystals with POWERFUL Crystal Affirmations! YES PLEASE! SIGN ME UP   Pin it!  

Star Investing interviewed Gavin Lockyer, Managing Director of Arafura Resources about the business, its mining operations and milestones.

It's 100 Times Rarer Than Gold, and 1000 Times More Valuable! That's a bold statement! It's something that I work to get and keep everyday of my life, and I can see people almost at every turn wasting it! And no it's not time! But I'm not going to tell you here what it is… Listen to the Podcast and have a great week! Hope you enjoy this week's podcast! AND if you will, please go to Apple's iTunes and leave a glowing 5 start review (or whatever you feel appropriate)… it will help us more than you can know! Go For It! Thanks for joining us this week! Expect the best of times and do all you can do to make each gathering a blessing to yourself and those around you! Take a moment and subscribe to The Chris Vaughn Show on iTunes and give us a review if you will…

Rarer and far more precious, Barry talks about upgrading from the Golden Rule to the Platinum Rule. Jesus challenges his disciples to not only love people but to love them as Jesus himself loves others.  Find out more about our family at: northwoodchristian.org Get our App! Apple: https://goo.gl/3QL1vC Android: https://goo.gl/aeR7XR Watch more of our sermons on Vimeo: vimeo.com/northwoodchristian Listen to our sermons via Podcast on iTunes: https://goo.gl/bWwzEY Also available on Google Music: https://goo.gl/sgXYK7 If you would like to support our family and these services, please consider making a donation or your regular offering here: https://goo.gl/RVN7ZB

Adventures of a Pus Whisperer.

When you’re on the road as much as I tend to be, finding someplace to work out becomes part of your travel planning. I do my homework as best I can, to find out about the facility, the programming, and the level of coaching I might expect for my drop-in dollars. Still, my experiences as a visitor in gyms across the country tend to follow a bell curve; most of the time, they’re just “pretty good.” On rare occasions, I’ll leave a gym feeling happy that I never have to go there again. Rarer still is the drop-in experience that leaves me seriously considering packing up the house and moving to another state, just so I can go to that gym more. But that was exactly the feeling I had after spending a week training, laughing, and being embraced by the community at Max Oxygen CrossFit Downtown in lovely Des Moines, Iowa. Yep, you read that right. Iowa. What I experienced at Max Oxygen was everything positive you read about CrossFit gyms. The coaching was on point, the programming was thoughtful, the facility was top-notch, and the community felt like a family reunion, even though I’d never met anybody there previously. What I observed that week was a clear example of a gym being run right, so I had to sit down with their Director of Operations, Jess Pilling, to find out how they do it. Jess is young as a coach, but possesses a professionalism and a passion for her craft that surpasses most coaches who have been in the industry for decades. That fire has lit the torch for her other coaches as well, and permeates the whole culture at the box. Exactly how fast does Jess burn? She recently became Iowa’s second female CrossFit Level 3 Certified Trainer, just two and a half years after first getting her L1.  She and I cover how her staff works to actively sculpt and cultivate their culture from the top down, their unique plans for the Open this year, and how they’ve prepared their athletes at all levels to have the best experience possible. She explains the direct approach she uses with new and prospective athletes to dispel their misconceptions about CrossFit, and how her education and experience as a mental health professional has shaped her coaching.

For startups, achieving unicorn status is a big deal. Companies valued at more than $1 billion look more formidable to competitors, customers, and recruits---and less like the fly-by-night startups they may actually be. Thus, for the past three years, startup founders have asked investors to grant them billion-dollar valuations, regardless of whether they're worth that by any traditional business metric.

What constitutes a "giant" in your mind? Certainly, people who are 6 to 7 feet tall are commonplace nowadays, unlike the Middle Ages, or even a hundred years ago. But what about someone who's seven feet tall or more? We may call them "giants" in jest, but it's not the same as when we think of the giants in our legends. A measurement of more than seven feet is rare, but there are plenty of healthy people living today in that range that prove it's not so legendary by our contemporary imagination. Rarer still is a human that's eight feet tall, but there has been one in recent history: Robert Pershing Wadlow stood 8' 11.1" tall (2.72 m) and weighed 490 pounds (220 kg) and showed no signs of stopping his growth at his untimely death in 1940 at age 22. So it's possible that a height for a human can approach nine feet, but could any height beyond that be sustainable? Because taller than that and it seems we venture beyond not only what is biologically viable for the human body, but also what is believable. It still leaves us with the question, "What makes a giant?" And if a skeleton is unearthed that appears to have horns? Well, that is another matter altogether.   Visit our website for a lot more information on this episode: http://www.astonishinglegends.com/al-podcasts/2018/2/11/ep-98-the-tall-ones-part-2

Rare is it that you get to learn new things about a friend you've known for over 30 years. Rarer still is finding out new things about your spouse after you've been together for almost twenty-five years. In the first part of a three episode series, I have the pleasure of hearing fresh stories and learning new things about Nicole. In a funny, reflective, and sometimes unexpected episode Nicole battles through her introverted nature to share some wonderful insights about her life. She'll also teach you about glamping (who knew that was a thing????). Thanks to Mike Koenig of soundbible.com for the sound effects.

Constanza Palavecino is a talented singer, dancer, actress and model, originally from Chile, South America. Rare is to find such a combination of skills in one person. Rarer is to find an artist willing to put in the work to become better. Even rarer is an artist that can maintain grace despite obstacles and resistances encountered throughout the journey. Constanza radiates those qualities with confidence and beauty. In the couple times we've hung out, I only felt pure authenticity and humility emanating from her - qualities often lacking in the entertainment industry. Impressive is her fiery and graceful perseverance to achieve her dreams. Her latest music video and single, "Feelin' Like It's Hot", will be released January 8th, 2016.

Why would a financially-comfortable fifty-something father of two--with a Mercedes--drive Uber late at night on the toughest streets of Chicago? Pat White (pseudonym), a financial advisor and business strategist, decided to go undercover to research how the disruptive technology of ridesharing affects commerce. Soon his business study warped into a study of humanity . . . and himself. This reserved Baby Boomer first had to face his fear of picking up strangers in his own car and driving them to unknown locations. Most were over-privileged, over-served Millennials en route to their next adrenaline rush or wherever they were crashing for the night. Some treated him like he was invisible--making out, arguing, discussing sex and drugs, and lying to lovers on the phone about their whereabouts as if no one else were in the car. Others wished him to partake in their partying or craved his counsel on the most intimate details of their lives. Still others were just looking to pick a fight. Rarer were the tired and the timid: those returning to family after working long hours with hopes of a brighter tomorrow, those fleeing abuse, and those just fleeing a thunderstorm. This summer experiment took White down roads he never imagined he would travel. Soon he found himself embracing danger, longing for the thrill of voyeuristic glimpses into private lives made public, and facing the depths of his shadow personality. Join host Libby Hellmann for a lively discussion of this charming and depressing book published by Chicago's Lake Claremont Press. 

This episode features some of the more ancient and obscure midwinter traditions that have endured alongside Christmas, as well as some lesser-known carols of this festival, many of which are pagan in origin. Content warning for animal sacrifice and general heathen revelry. Music: Intro theme - "Forest March" by Sylvia Woods "Christmas Is Now Drawing Near at Hand" by Norma Waterson "Bonny At Morn / Hunting the Cutty Wren" by Clive Williams & Mark Prescott "Nou Is Yole Comen" by Shira Kammen "The Boar's Head Carol" by The Young Tradition, Shirley Collins & Dolly Collins "Wexford Mummer's Song" by Mary O'Hara "Gloomy Winter" by Bonnie Rideout "The Cutty Wren" by Royston Wood & Heather Wood "Dryw Bach" by Carreg Lafar "Hela'r Dryw" by Fernhill "The Hern" by John Fleagle "Down in Yon Forest" by Shirley Collins "Apple Tree Wassail" by Doug Eunson & Sarah Matthews "Malpas Wassail" by the Watersons "Gower Wassail" by Kerfuffle "Green Grow'th the Holly" by Coope, Simpson, Fraser & Freya "Nay Ivy Nay" by Sue Brown & Lorraine Irwing "The Ditchling Carol" by Waterson : Carthy

Pastor V. Mark Smith - Berean Baptist Church

Pastor V. Mark Smith - Berean Baptist Church

Joe Hupp is a keeper and breeder of Australian Geckos and other rarer species that are coveted by gecko enthusiasts. Our disscusion will cover a wide array of species and locals including specific husbandry. There are so many different and amazing species availble for us to work with today. This episode will surely expand your horizons and help you consider adding something very special to our collection. Visit Joe on facebook at: https://www.facebook.com/joe.hupp.1 https://www.facebook.com/pages/Australedonian-Geckos-and-Dart-Frogs/325433494226679

In Atlanta, native Atlantans are rare. Rarer still are genial, native Atlantan Circus alumni senior copywriters with half an hour free to chat.

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Twenty Tenors who may not be as well-known as others, but who nevertheless sang beautifully and had major careers, mostly in the earlier part of the 20th century:       Contents as follows: 1.Silvano Isalberti  "Stelle d'oro" (Denza)2.Carlo Dani   "Le Reve"  (Manon)3.Giulio Crimi  "O mio picciolo tavolo" (Zaza)4.Carlos Mejia  "Ecco ridente"   (Barbiere)5.Wilhelm Herold   Fra Diavolo Aria  (Auber)6.Bjorn Talen    Barber of Bagdad aria  (Cornelius)7.Carl Martin Oehmann  "Prize Song" (Meistersinger)  8.Karl Jorn     "Ah quel plaisir"  (La Dame Blanche) 9.Karel Burlan (in photo)  "My colleague Caruso" (Burlan)10.Stanislaw Gruszczynski  "Eternamente"  (Mascheroni)11.Petra Raitscheff     "E canto il grillo"12.Ignacy Dygas    Aria from "Haunting Manor"     13 Giuseppe Krismer   Damnation of Faust Aria (Berlioz) 14.Tadeusz Liliwa       Aria from "Halka" (Moniusko)15.Andrei Markovitch Labinski    Dubrovsky Song16.David Juzhin     Le Prophete aria  (Meyerbeer)17.Alexander Bogdanovich   "Love is a delightful dream (Bleichman)18.Alexander Davydov         "Leave me"  (Davydov)19.Modest Menzinsky          "Barcarolle"20.Ivan Erschov          Tannhauser Act One Aria  (Wagner)   (If you can spell every name without looking, I will give you a gift of     all my Sarah Brightman CD's.)   .                                   (74 min.)

Every fifth week of the month a member of the Radio 13 team delves into their specialist genre of music.